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Relationships
Most people have experienced a difficult relationship at some point in their life, whether it was a romantic relationship, a friendship, or a family tie that somehow just unraveled. When negative emotions start to fly, most people tend to fall into unproductive, reactionary patterns. This only serves to help a bad situation spiral downward further. Your test results reveal that when you feel unhappy in a relationship, you're most likely to become angry and aggressive. Whether you find yourself yelling, giving dirty looks, slamming doors, or seething with anger, you seem to know when you've had it with a relationship — and you tend to let everyone else know about it. At these times, any emotion you experience is likely followed by exaggerated assertions of your own correctness and moral goodness. You may begin to feel like you're being unjustly treated. This belief can lead you to feel like you are good and right and the other person is bad and wrong. During moments like this, yo

Wondering
I read something on here today that asked if there was any truthful people out there. What I don't understand why not the truth? I even know that it hurts some times, not alway. I have made more people made at me for a saying right after my devorce. If you don't want the truth don't ask me a question. That there upsets more people. Oh well it is life an I will live another.

Went To The Hospital Today.
Well, my doctor's nurse called me back and told me that the doctor wanted me to come in and get some blood work done, pick up a prescription, stop taking all anti-inflamatory meds at once, take home a kit for a stool screening test (oh joy) and wait to hear from the GI clinic and if they don't call within 2 weeks, give them a call! I don't know how I am going to survive without being able to take anything for the arthritis in my neck and knees. I imagine by Friday, I will be in a great deal of pain and probably feel like I am dying. The last time I stopped taking Motrin (was taking 2400mg a day) I literally though I was going to die. This was years ago and I had to go back on it and wean myself off which worked. I don't have that luxury this time. It could be that the medicine I have been taking has caused big problems in my intestines and if not treated, could end in death. Isn't that nice? A few of my tests came back today but are always hard to read. One says my Eosinop

Norm, Leave Me Alone Already
You are my ex. you fucked up. so what if i ran from you. your the one who decided me giving you head wasnt enough so you needed my friend to do it. you wanted to talk, i went with you. you flipped out and got angry and violent and wouldnt listen to me when i told you to stop. you constantly leave me comments on live journal. nor your sending me messages here..... and im going to post it here now.... just dropping you this because i feel i have to i really dont understand you and you never understood me that much is obvious i hope you find a way to not run awaty with this new guy as for me oh fuckin well i am just that guy that i guess proved you right and you win that argument i guess i really dont see how i could have ever have won it though i mean honestly the running away hurt more than any one ever cheating on me it hurt more than what my wife did i am not all that sure you ever understood that i am sorry i am sending this but for me it isnt over grant

Is Having No Religion Good Or Bad...
can people accept me for who i am whether or not i belive in a religion or something to that extent... and or anything for that matter.(and no i don't beleive in the devil.. like i said i dont BELEIVE in anything)i am who i am, what can i say (please give me comments on what you think)

Yay Me!!!
I entered Chuckiiboo's Bling Pack give away. That means I need help getting 5000 comments in just one week....starting now. Soooo, if ya don't mind, will ya stop by and leave a few comments on my pic from the Bahamas? Thanks...and be sure to let me know if you leave comments. Mary

Poem For My Love
Stay > > What is it about you that makes me think, wonder, > and dream of you? I don't really know, believe me, > there's a lot to show - how my feelings got > involved, with a problem I cannot seem to solve. > You, an unsolved mystery that has led me to such > misery - not in a sense of badness, but in a sense > that I wish to touch and caress - your innermost > masterpiece in itself that continues to hold so much > wealth. > I'm here before you composed of passion and > Ecstasy - cherishing every moment we spend is an > understatement - all the emotions you consume me > with. > So tonight, tomorrow, forever... > Will you stay?

Maine Girls Do It Best
Boston girls are pretty New York girls are smart But it takes a Maine girl To win a fella's heart Florida girls are tan Vegas girls are hoes But when you want the best looking girl Maine is where you gotta go Cali girls are wild Colorado girls are fun But Maine girls? Come on, they're number 1 Girls will be girls North, east, south or west But Maine girls Always rate the best To any man who reads this And truly wants to know If you have a Maine girl You should never let her go

Keeping It Real
Recently someone ask me a question about if I was a member of the sisterhood(which I am not)....I didn't reply because I didn't want to sound like a dingbat, country girl and ask them what that was....anyway this was done by someone I had also put in family as well as he did with me(which was done after he ask me this).....he jumped to conclusions and asssumed I was and there4 blocked me before I could justify myself....POINT OF STORY : I am real and hope all my friends are....if there is problem...talk to me before blocking and me and jumping to conclusions....Love all who keep it real

Backed Into A Corner...
Have you ever felt like you were being backed into a corner? Please don't think I'm a paranoid person, but there are certain people in this world that will not be happy until I'm dead. I consider myself a nice, caring, loving and encouraging person. Always wishing the best for everyone. Never judging. Always giving the benefit of the doubt. I'm a little short thing, only 5' tall. But when backed into a corner, as I feel I am now, I am 5' of dynamite. This week has been a roller coaster for me. Lots of down hill, and one major up hill. The love of my life proposed to me. My knees have lots of bruises on them right now from being on them so much praying this week. So they are good bruises. Because I know God always has the answer. I've never been one to really fight and defend myself, but would fight to the last drop of my blood for those I love. Sometimes we have to make really hard choices. That's what I am facing right now. After much prayer, I believe that God has f

Tears
They say that our eyes are the window to our souls, so if this is true, Then what are tears? Tears are the way for us to wash away the pain that our souls hold. It is also away that we let go of our fears, how we show joy. When we shed tears it is away to let our hearts and souls heal. Tears let us know that we are alive. So Yes the answer to that age old question it is okay to cry!

Music?
why can music change your mood, make you happy and lift you up?? but can also make you remember and make you sad and bring you down....but the bright side is you can always change he song! now only if life was that way.... don't worry, be happy!!

Just Tired
The battle of wrong from right. It is ages old, yet still affects most of us. Lately I have been pulled in several directions. I can't explain nor do I need to. No one really reads blogs. I just wanted to write it out. Hello to you if you read this. Sweet dreams. blah blah no music nor glittery comments, just random half thoughts

Sucker!
I AM A SUCKER! I still can't get this out of my head! yeah yeah, i can hear mike and lori now, yelling at me! Ne Yo - All Because of you Want to, but I can’t help it I love the way it feels, It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't [Bridge:] I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you I can barely move but I like it [Chorus:] And it’s all because of you [3X] And it’s all because… Never get enough, She’s the sweetest drug [Verse 2:] Think of it every second I can't get nothing done, Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave [Bridge:]

About My Lounge
JUST TO LET YOU ALL KNOW.. THAT I WILL BE CLOSING THE POOL HALL IN A WEEK.. IT IS DEAD.. NO ONE COMES THERE ANYMORE.. I HAVE HAD A LOT UNSUBSCRIBE. I HAVEN'T HAD ANY HELP WITH ANYTHING... AND I HAVE RESORTED TO BEGGING FOR STUFF AND GETTING NOTHING, BUT LIES AND BROKEN PROMISES... I AM A FAILURE..SO I WILL TUCK MY LOSER TAIL BETWEEN MY LEGS AND DELETE IT. I HAVE HAD MANY OFFERS TO HELP, BUT NOTHING CAME IN RETURN. IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR JUST A LOSER. SO, THE POOL HALL WILL BE DEAD IN A WEEK. NOT THAT ANY OF YOU CARE ANYWAYS. LEAVING MY LOUNGE TO GO TO OTHERS.. JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE MORE FUN.. MY LOUNGE COULD HAVE BEEN TOO.. IF THE LIARS ACTUALLY BACKED UP WHAT THEY SAID. I SEE MY "FRIENDS" OR "SO CALLED FRIENDS" PROMOTING AND WORKING FOR OTHER LOUNGES.. WHY? IF YOU HAVE WORKED FOR MINE.. IT WOULD HAVE BEEN FUN LIKE THE LOUNGES YOU WORK FOR.. INSTEAD YOU ALL DESERTED ME AND MADE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT.. LIKE YOU PUSHED ME AWAY.. WELL, HERE IS TO THE DEATH OF THE POOL H

Man And His Guitar
A man and his guitar Current mood: adventurous Category: Writing and Poetry I had to be at the subway by five had to couldn’t be late at four forty five I bounced down the stairs an eternity of stairs it felt lowering into a concrete haven people everywhere all going somewhere some begging for change for a meal some late for meetings others on their way home to feed families but one man... stood near the benches strumming his guitar a Calvin Klein advertisement behind him the case of the guitar lay open exposing the red velor interior where money lay inside haphazardly this man had his eyes closed playing each chord from inside his mind feeling the strings with his heart letting the music just be he wasn’t trying to make a dollar he only wanted all these people for just one moment in time to stop and listen to sounds of wood and metal to the sounds of life he gently strummed

The Very Secret Diary Of Theoden
The Very Secret Diary of Theoden By: Cassandra Claire Co-written with lorax523, who is, as always, in inspiration to me in all things. ----- Day One Desperately in need of new personal assistant. Have contacted Ninety Minute Minion Services in Isengard. Seems best bet as if minion does not arrive in ninety minutes you get free Orc. Do not actually know what would do with Orc if had one, so do hope minion arrives on time. Day Two New minion arrived. Not best looking bloke I've ever clapped eyes on, but then again, not everyone can be brainless pretty boy with big show-off ponytail like Eomer. Little does Eomer know Wormtongue has promised me new makeover with Saruman's personal line of beauty products. Has promised me I will look fresh and youthful. Day Three Is that a grey hair? Day Four New makeover gone horribly awry. Do not look fresh and youthful, instead resemble albino dwarf after two years pickling in the Dead Marshes. Suspect Wormtongue has cru

Levelers List 10april08
Shadow Levelers Members List Here are the members closest to leveling... :) Good Luck!!! :) 4,320 to Level 9 lost in love@ fubar 7,146 to Level 10 LilBabyBi@ fubar 14,382 to Level 11 truckdriverofhooterville{shadowleveler}@ fubar 18,026 to Level 17 laprincesa{shadow leveler}@ fubar 37,813 to Level 17 Havin Fun {r/l bf of Mz Attitude} [Shadow Leveler]~Master of Mz Attitude~@ fubar 39,969 to Level 20 BILLY THE KID SHADOW LEVELER@ fubar 43,293 to Level 22 **MRmostunderated**Miss B no.1 stalker,pimped by lsd's shell,FU/BRO/to Cutie and Starr@ fubar 43,713 to Level 22 SPAZZZZ Shadow Leveler proudly owned by !STARRY! ღ & ღhubby to DOUBLED2ღღ&#@ fubar 47,392 to Level 19 Vanessa { Shadow Leveler } { BBW_BOMBER FAMILY }@ fubar 55,304 to Level 21

I Miss You Alexis
Today is my daughter's 11th birthday & also the 11 yr anniversery of her death. It hurts just as bad as it did back then. I thought it would get easier, but it hasn't not really. I know she is in Heaven, but she would've been safe in her Mommy's arms as well. Im not 2nd guessing God, dont misunderstand me, He knows all & I know nothing compared to Him. But I miss her so much. I have another daughter she is actually my step daughter, but in my eyes she is mine & her Daddys girl. Anyways, I am paying tribute to my daughter Alexis, Alexis, Mommy loves & Misses you so much!!!!! Angel Kitten Alexis McKenzie Mann Born & Died April 10th, 1997

Pain
I feel like I have been pushed over the edge I am hurting right now I just want to make it stop I am so tired of the lonliness I have tried to do right with my life I have made mistakes I have tried I have failed I cannot make it go away I can't sleep I put on a front to the ones who love me I don't want them to see me hurting I don't want to hurt them I just want answers I want a solution I want to be whole again I want to feel arms around me I want to feel something other than pain...

I'm In A Contest... Bombs Away On Me Please
hey all, I'm in my first fubucks/blast/VIP contest. I need at least 2,500 points to win any fubucks. Most points wins a 7 days or a 1 months VIP as well. Most rates (over 200) wins 3 day blast too. Also don't forget to rate the pic. I'm not exactly expecting to be the overall winner but getting enough points, etc just for the fubucks would be fantastic. Everyone who helps bomb me will receive a gift of some sort from me. Anyways just click on the link & it'll take you straight to the page you need to go to bomb me ~ ღஐtrue_blue_joeyஐღ ~ while your at it don't forget to F/A/R the host of the contest ♥ MishNumber1 ♥

Yeah.. Right!
misterak25...: hello... you are a good slavegirl material? that was just a question... and i am not here to joke arround... when you are curious about that theme... and when you are curious to behave like a slavegirl... to act like one and to be treated like a submissive by a dominant... read my profile and my blog and when you think then, that you would be an enrichment for me and my slavegirl family, adress me as sir and add me on yahoo: misterak20 or msn: misterak20@hotmail.de and contact me there immediately, to ask for a chance to present yourself as worthy submissive. this is what i logged onto this morning.... maybe someone should've read my profile first!!!! to even think that i would be in any way someones slave... where in the hell are his braincells????

My Mirror
I look in the mirror not pleased with what I see There stands this old lardbucket grinning at me Her skin is rimpled and her hair is grey Her war against gravity is a dismay Her breasts are sagging, her belly is too Hair growing on chin, pfft fit for a zoo I look at her nose, its growing longer I look at her face, the lines deeper and stronger I see the under-chin all old people have I see the lips and the way she laughs Fifty years shes been on this earth Has wedded a idiot and has given birth The two things in life that give her hope Her kids are the reason that she can cope A love found online but never in bed Ashamed of her figure it has got to be said Love conquers all the people proclaim But they've not counted on a females shame The world is for the young and forever obsessed With glowing tight skin and perky breasts A lover she'll not have again, not even a taste This is the truth that this old woman must face Wh

My Emg
Electromyogram: An electromyogram (EMG) is a test that measures the electrical discharges made by the muscles. It can determine whether muscle weakness or paralysis is due to a nerve problem or to a problem with the muscle itself. During an electromyogram, a thin needle is placed in a muscle to measure its electrical activity at rest and during use. The needle is attached to a machine with a viewing screen (like a TV) that displays electrical activity in the muscles as waves on the screen.Nerve conduction studies:Nerve conduction studies are tests that measure how well individual nerves can send an electrical signal from the spinal cord to the muscles. Nerve conduction studies are often used to help diagnose nerve disorders, such as carpal tunnel syndrome or Guillain-Barré syndrome. During a nerve conduction test, a health professional places a shock-emitting electrode directly over the nerve to be studied, and a recording electrode over the muscles supplied by that nerve. The shock-

Feelin Freaky
sexy chocolate loli pop turn me over and hop on top puch inside until you reach the spot and poke it until my cherry pops sexy carmel sugar sweet body banging..knocked me off my feet tap my ass.. lets have some fun and show me where it weighs a ton freak me until my body goes numb pick up speed until you finally cum kiss my nipples and run my fingers through my hair then turn me over cuz we now yet there

My Health
Well hello everyone. As most of you know, I have been going thru some tough days since Sunday evening. (and I appreciate all the support some of you have shown me in the past few days). For the ones that don’t know what I am talking about....Sunday evening I found a quarter size lump on my right breast. I immediately flipped out because of the severe family history of breast cancer. Now I am not new to finding lumps, been dealing with this since the mid 80’s, but this time seemed very different. Maybe it was because the lump was so much bigger than ones I have found in the past, or maybe it’s because I am 6 months away from being 45 years old (the age my mother was diagnosed), or maybe I just knew that it was my time. All I know is after I found it, I really tried to stay as positive as possible but it’s hard. Monday I seeked out my OB-GYN and was pretty re-assured that is was probably just a cyst and nothing more. But to be on the safe side she wanted me to get a Ultra

Five For Fighting
Five For Fighting@ fubar April is Autism awareness mouth. Someone I love with all my heart and sole is autistic. Fighting for a cure hasnt been easy but my hopes and optimisim will never subside!! I believe there are many awesome people out there that will never give up looking! Five For Fighting@ fubar I found a website that will donate money to autistim charities everytime you watch one of there videos. Just click any of the images on this Blog/bullitin to get to there Website. It is called Five for Fighting. If everyone on fubar will just take the time to go and watch just one video they could raise over a million dollars on just us alone. So i beg you please it wont take much of your time. Five For Fighting@ fubar The Organization that this website donates to is Autismspeaks they raise money for cures, treatment, and awareness throughout communities. http://www.autismspeaks.org Five For Fighting@ fubar Please Click Any of the graphics to get to Five for

My Dearest
Won't you be my QP tonight? With rough tumble arms I'll hold you firm, Not too tightly as I love how you squirm. And lay yourself on me a loving pillow all yours, Forget all your worries and those daily chores, And breath in a rhythm that is all our own, For wrapped in your arms is where I am home. Take not your love from this ancient old heart, Let not deep sorrows tear us apart. Just keep up those smiles, those struts and those squeaks, And merge with my soul where we sleep deep in peace.

Auctioned!
I am being Auctioned off! Bids start at 25000, im really curious to see who bids! Here is my link: http://www.fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=279312&albumid=963872&i=1231955493 Thank you all very much! xoxoxoxoxoox Here is what im offering: rates on all pics and stash during happy hour, family list status for one month, crushed for one month, owned by....in my name for one month. one salute, and if the bid is over 50 cash value, an nsfw salute, if the bid is over 75 cash i will fu marry

Dedicated To Wendy, I Love You Darling
I didn't know what day it was when you walked into the room I said hello unnoticed, you said goodbye too soon Breezin' through the clientele, spinnin' yarns that were so lyrical I really must confess right here that the attraction was purely physical I took all those habits of yours, that in the beginning were hard to accept Your fashion sense, your Beardsley prints I chalked up to experience The big-bosomed lady with a Dutch accent who tried to change my point of view Her ad lib lines were well rehearsed, but my heart cried out for you You're in my heart, you're in my soul You'll be my breath should I grow old You are my lover, you're my best friend You're in my soul My love for you is immeasurable, my respect for you immense You're ageless, timeless, lace and fineness, you're beauty and elegance You're a rhapsody, a comedy, you're a symphony and a play You're every love song ever written, but honey what do you see in me You're an essay in glamour, please pardo

Theives
i hate ppl that steal someone broke into my house lastnite and stole my laptop computer i hate theives they have to be the lowest form of person there is why do ppl do stuff like that drugs joy ort excitement whatever the reason i could really get a theife hurt specially if i get to them before the law i have no tollerence for a theife

Random Thoughts 4/4/08
I am finding life is one big series of conundrums. You make decisions, have questions, and provide answers, it is all part of the pathway of understanding but what do we need to understand? My guess is it is not the world we need to understand but rather ourselves. When you have a clear understanding of yourself, you tend to understand the people and things around you. You sympathize with them and when you sympathize, you have a connection of understanding. The question I have is, where are we headed and what is the point of all this? It is as if I am on a rollercoaster ride and I only have two questions. How the hell did I get on this thing and when is going to end? I would like to think that there is more to all this, something more than love and war, something more than random thoughts and random coincidences or are we just a bunch of bouncing balls colliding into each other. With no direction or path, no beginning or end? I seek clarity, clarity to understand the process.

I Can Be An Asshole
And i don't think you want that so be cool no stalkers,haters,and nosey mf or ppl that try to make you jealous i'm jus on here havin fun i will block yo ass ;) i'm no snake,hater,manipulator non of that shit jus a friend who tells the truth lol can't handle it GTFO my page translate that lol :P

Nightmares
Tomorrow I will wake And I'll despize the dreams I dreamt For every passing day Just brings one more failed attempt At finding meaning in the chaos And the truth unrealised When the meaning's been forgotten And the truth's been compromised I search for salvation At the foot of satan's bed I seek my redemption But find damnation instead I long for some answers But the questions still remain And even in broad daylight All that I can see is pain And my troubles are reflected In my nightmares everynight Demons taunt me in my dreams Until I wake in fright Each night I fight off sleep Until it finally pulls me in And when I think I've seen the worst The real horrors begin And when I think it's over It starts over again The nightmares blend together And it seems there is no end I contemplate an ending To my pain and suffering And yet I fear the darkness I know that it would bring

Spill My Heart
Who am I? Well let's see. I'm Cheryl. I'm almost 23 (I have a hard time still saying 22 for some reason. *shrug*) I am single. I am also currently about 34 and a half weeks pregnant with my first child. A daughter. If I lay on my back I can feel her feet and butt pushing out of my tummy. It's amazingly creepy and far cooler than anything else I have ever felt. Like I just said, I am single. I don't like it. At all. Right now really isn't the best time to try to start a relationship I guess. That's what I keep telling myself but I know I'm lying to myself too. I don't know. I'm just tired of feeling lonely. I have a job. I bitch about it a lot but I really do enjoy what I do. I work with one of my best friends, Brad, which is pretty awesome. Even if he does get promoted above me. (the jerk.) I don't know if I will be able to handle having this job after the girl is born... the hours are crazy. Some back story maybe? I live in Missouri now but I grew up in New Jersey. I am

Which Is Yours?
Below are True descriptions of zodiac signs. Read your sign, and then forward it on, with your zodiac sign and label on the subject line. This is the real Deal, try ignoring or changing it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets Worse from there. Remember, if you are on the cusp of another sign you most likely will have features of both signs...which may lead you into total confusion... CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter (Dec 22 - Jan 19) Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be Good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimistic. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be Unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they Want. 20 years of bad luck if you do not forward. AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart (Jan 20 - Feb 18) Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional.

Sex
Whats your sex style?Romantic Sex StyleYou like to take it slow, lots of kissing and touching. Just like in a Chick flick... takes the girls away! At best when you are in love with your sex partner, and if not...they will be!How do you compare? Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic

Gilligans Island
Just sit right back and you'll hear a tale a tale of a fateful trip, that started from this tropic port, aboard this tiny ship. The mate was a mighty sailin' man, the Skipper brave and sure, five passengers set sail that day, for a three hour tour, a three hour tour. The weather started getting rough, the tiny ship was tossed. If not for the courage of the fearless crew the Minnow would be lost. The Minnow would be lost. The ship aground on the shore of this uncharted desert isle with Gilligan, the Skipper too. A millionaire and his wife, a movie star, the proffessor and Mary Ann, here on Gilligan's Isle. (Ending verse) So this is the tale of our castaways, there here for a long long time. They'll have to make the best of things, it's an uphill climb. The first mate and his Skipper too will do their very best, to make the others comf'terble in their tropic island nest. No phone ,no lights, no motor car, not a single luxury like Robinson Crusoe i

Roxy Needs Our Help Leveling
Spirit Levelers Friends Fans and Family Roxy is trying to level she only needs 23.000 so let's go show her all the luv you can! '*RØX¥*~§PI®IT £€V€£€®§ G®€€T€® H€ÅÐ §€ÇU®IT¥@§PI®IT'§ Ð€Й&¤P®I§ØЙBITÇh#11¤@ fubar

Will My Friends Help Me?????
I am in my first Giveaway. It is not a contest so I thought what the heck¡¦ Good way to test the waters LOL Please go to my pic & drop a few comments I need 10,000 comments to get a VIP or Blast. Don't forget to rate the pic as well Bomb This Pic Please If you would, for me, Fan/Add/Rate the host as well Not part of the rules, but she is a friend & likes To be shown luv too =-)~ ~MommaTasha~DYLONS DIVA MAFIA~Hosting Giveaway Bulletin Brought to You by ~Dream~ }i{ Girlfriend to *Big E* Bomb my Pic PleaseRate/Fan/Add Me If we Aren't already Friends Thank you all so much

The Drunken Sex Chronicles Of +bauer+ - Vol. 2
I had being seeing Natalie for about 3 weeks. We hit it off right away. One night,Nat and her sister came out with my friends and I. We drank like fish. When the night was over, a few of us did some post partying. I went into the bedroom to change out of my bar clothes and slip into a pair of basketball shorts and a t-shirt. As I was changing, I took a header on to the bed and passed out. I do that when I am drunk. I will just fall asleep anywhere.(Big Mistake!!!) That's another blog! After about 5 minutes of nappy time, Natalie woke me up by giving me a little speech. I opened one eye, and turned out the light. "I love to give blow jobs." She said. "I am amazing at it too, and I can practically cum just by giving one. Will you let me?" Now, I found the speech a bit odd since this wouldn't be the first time she blew me before, and I never got the preamble the other times. But it's Saturday night...so the answer was yes. So she started, and I laid back feeling like a master o

Computer Probs :(
I'm having a few probs here - can you help? Its ONLY on this site but randomly, I'll click a link (it could be another persons name, a rate button, ANYTHING) and it'll boot me out the site and disable my net connection for about 30 mins. Like I said, its only on this site that this happens. I've cleared my cache, cleared my cookies, run a cleaner program and its still doing it - very frustrating!! If you can give any advice on how to stop this then please, share away :) Thanks everyone xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Peeking Into Other's Bedrooms.....
Discussing sexual ideations and differences....monogamy, polyamorous, adventures, deviances, etc etc etc....American adults have varying differences in sexual behavior....how adventureous or boring are you? 1. Paid for sex? 2. Faked an orgasm? 3. Discussed fantasies with your partner? 4. Sex on a first date? 5. 3-somes? 6. Sex at work? 7. Cheated on your partner? 8. Sex with a member of the same sex? 9. Public sex? 10. A combo of the above....do tell which ones

Love Suxs
Hey guys!!!!! What's up????? Well here is the reason I am posting this bulletin is because I just want yall to know that I think love really SUCKS because I think that there is no one out there 4 me…. There was this girl that I liked 4 a real good while but every time I would ask her if she would go out wit me she would either say no or she would have a boyfriend but we dated a few times…… I feel like that I should just give up on love because I feel like love has given up on me and I feel that love REALLY SUCKS and that there is no one that likes me…. I THINK I AM JUST GONNA STAY SINGLE 4 DA REST OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shit
Its shitty outside and I have a fuckin migraine. A second ago my alma mater college called asking me to participate in their focus group. Yeah, right, they can go fuck themselves with a big plastic dick. I didn't say that, but I said I won't be in town the whole May (lie), and the guy asked if I would be available for just 1 hr. Yeah, fuckin douchebag, let me leave whatever the place I'm going to (nowhere really, but he doesn't know that) and attend your fuckin focus group. ARGHH. I hate that place.

Male-female Friendships
Why is it so hard to believe that male and females can be best friends? Is it culture, something we were raised with, or just plain ignorance/stupidty? I have no issues with it and truly believe it can happen. That is obvious because my best friend is a male. So I did some research just to make sure I wasn't the weird one here and this is what I found. Please share your feelings on this topic with me cause I am just torn on this whole topic. Below is what a researcher had to say on the topic. "To every action there is equal and opposite reaction"and we find this being followed in daily life today. A gal today wants to know that if her male member of the family can have a female friend why cant she have a male friend? Logically, she is correct. If you want her to follow you don't do any indecent thing so that one can hold his head high while preaching others. The root cause of this is our sick minded mentality which views the women as an object of sex only. We tend to forget the

Why Do Women Go After The Assholes
Why do women go after the assholes why do women always go after the asshole. instead of going after the nice guys like myself. What do the women like getting treated like shit. well i am just wanting to find out why this is so so let me know

Been Gone
Hello everyone sorry I haven't been on for awhile just been busy getting my kustom shop back off the ground which has been very successful. Also I have been very busy with tax's (yuck). I will not be on as much as I used to be and like too be on. I know bummer, but business is boomin and gotta keep things going, but when I get things on track hopefully in a couple of weeks I should resume to the usual clownin around on here. Hope everyone one is well and have a good rest of the week and weekend. Your friendly neighborhood bar friend Joey

R.i.p. Poppop
I just wanted to let everyone know that I recently lost PopPop...a man who has been so dear to me for so many years & I will be around here & there for the next little bit. I have to travel to Hazard & my boys have lots of ballgames,too,so time will limited. I miss eveyone here already,but Ihave lots of things I have to get right with me,too. The ex factor is just becoming ridiculous...I hate him more every day. Those of you who REALLY know me know that I do not throw the word hate at all!!!! I just want to protect my sons..that is all. Racing season is upon us now as well & this is just a crazy time of year for me. It won't be the same without you,Pops,but I know you will be watching over me!!!! LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH N MISS YOU ALREADY!!!

My New Collar (by Pet)
I am so happy. I received my new collar last night. It is an eternity collar. I can wear it 24/7 and in the shower too. It looks so pretty, even better on me. With any luck Master will take pictures so I can show it off. ;) With more will show me off. Oh, It would help my chances of showing off the collar if you send Master messages telling him you want to see. Feel free to request poses.

Drama Of The Circle K
This girl stole a perscription, had it filled and then ran from the cops but then she got busted HAHA AT MY STORE!!! Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 So whats the moral of this story???? DON'T STEAL OTHER PEOPLE'S PERSCRIPTION AND EXPECT NOT TO GET CAUGHT!!!!

These Dreams
Spare a little candle Save some light for me Figures up ahead Moving in the trees White skin in linen Perfume on my wrist And the full moon that hangs over These dreams in the mist Darkness on the edge Shadows where I stand I search for the time On a watch with no hands I want to see you clearly Come closer than this But all I remember Are the dreams in the mist These dreams go on when I close my eyes Every second of the night I live another life These dreams that sleep when it’s cold outside Every moment I’m awake the further I’m away Is it cloak ’n dagger Could it be spring or fall I walk without a cut Through a stained glass wall Weaker in my eyesight The candle in my grip And words that have no form Are falling from my lips These dreams go on when I close my eyes Every second of the night I live another life These dreams that sleep when it’s cold outside Every moment I’m awake the further I’m away There’s something out there I can’t resist I

Ozzy Osbourne. March 18th Acer Arena: Awesome Concert
What an AWESOME CONCERT!!!!!!!!!! Have waited a Long time for Ozzy to come Down Under to the shores of Australia and I wasn't disappointed. Ozzy still has what it takes to Command a crowd with his Power House Voice and Gr8 sence of Humor the film before he came out was Funny as well as Ozzy's comments inbetween to hipe up the crowd. Set list was Gr8 from Black Rain,Mr Crowley,Crazy Train to my all time Favorites from Black Sabbath War Pig's & Paronoid. Zakk Wylde On Lead Guitar dose it get any better!!! Rob Nicholson ( Blasko ) Awesome Gr8 to look at to. Mike Bordin Drums Luv my Drummers. Even after the concert walking back to the car all my fellow Ozzy fan's where singing the song's & shouting Ozzy's name so the atmosphere during & after Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! With any Luck he will Grace our shores again very soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 7Dust played a Gr8 set as well although the sound wasn't as good due to technical mixing sound was only to the front of the Arena but still enjoyed

Happy Hour Contest Salute Rules
If you have the most comments in my contest you, the lady who wins, will receive either a Happy Hour on fubar at a time and date of your choice; or an equal value prize like a 30 day blast and a ticker package and a month VIP and a bling pak your choice! Okay ladies here is the deal... make me a sexy sfw salute with bunny ears or a Playboy costume or some type of fairy tale theme and post it or send to me. You may show cleavage or booty but no nudity, you must be clothed which means bra and panties are just fine and show as much cleavage as you want just keep the nipples covered please even though it hurts me to say that! Show as little cleavage as you want also just make sure the pic is sexy in some way. The entry with the most comments at the end of the week, 7 days of comments, will be declared the winner. The contest will start on April 28th at 8 pm mountain time and end exactly seven days from that time. I would like to have the pics by April 21st but I may accept some entries lat

Why Me????
i am homesick for my old friends and depressed for no reason, and unable to make anyone around me happy anymore. Why the hell does this shit always happen to me? I wish i could disappear and hide but that will only make things worse. I am a poet..most of u prolly don't know that..and stting either tomorrow morning or later tonight i am gonna start putting my poems online here in my blog..not like anyone ever reads blogs anyways LOL. Maybe that will help my depression. U can call me silly if u want to but i am a real person with real thoughts and feelings that I need to get out of my head.

Touch Me
Touch Me There... You're always there, in my dreams, and I'm wonderfully weak, savoring each of your moist kisses. My desire only heightens as your lips press against every inch of my flesh... except for that one spot, which I won't tell you about now. And I only ask that you'll touch me there later.

I'm Behind.......
Sorry to my friends for not being here...Im trying to catch up on all requests and emails...I'm trying hard!!! I will be on Vacation in California from may 1-11.......keep showing love and I will hit ya up as soon as I can..... kisses wendy.....:)

~ Song
Lingering in the air, tantalizing your senses, I seek to invade your soul. You feel the waves of my presence washing over you, causing all emotion inside of you to catch in your throat. The sigh that escapes your lips, as I caress your heart gently, echoes within you. Slowly, you feel your lips begin to move, whispering things you'd never before expressed; yet, have felt. As I possess you , you can't help but fall in love with me. I incite, within you, a rhythm you have never experienced, a rhythm only you and I share. I can make you laugh, or cry. I touch you in the way you need to be touched. Swaying slightly, you allow yourself to be taken by me, moving with me, echoing the words I speak to you, we become one. A shiver passes through your body as you realize...I will forever be your song.

Darkness...but Light Shines Later
**Disclaimer: In no way does this blog imply wrongdoing or intentional hurt or maliciousness by any of the parties mentioned, rather it describes the heartbreaks due to outside circumstances or timing. The people I love I will always love and do not blame...except for one or two (like Shannon and Jenny) Hello, fu-peeps. Instead of some inspired poetic entry, or great song lyric, or inspiring food for thought, I guess I just need to vent. You know, I'm sure a lot of you have experienced a time or two falling for someone that you just know is your kind of perfect, where they just have that bond and connection with you that you can't deny, and you feel like the king or queen of the world whenever you hear their voice or spend any sort of time together. The shitty thing is that you may have the perfect love and perfect bond, but be trapped in the wrong circumstances to really enjoy it. That seems to be the case over the years for me. Right when I get that perfect thing going wi

Gone Gone Gone...
every day it's the same... i wake to find i didn't sleep. i didn't sleep, because my mind won't shut up. i scream inside for peace and quiet that never comes. for just a moments respite. i think that is all i do... i think of the friends i haven't seen in years, i think of my kids and how i can keep them safe for just a little while longer. i rage at the things that have been done to innocents, i weep for the things i have lost. i hate my dreams anymore they are forever sliding down the dark side of life, hah that is if i even dream at all. i just want to rest my mind, to have it quiet again... to not have so many things to think about or do, and just a little time to do nothing at all... the electricity moves through me constantly, just can't seem to rest. when will it slow down? does it? gone... gone... gone...

All The Little Things...
i don't always understand life's twists and turns... why did someone else get the attention that should have been mine? why do i suffer still from the jealousy of it? why can't you make it better, take the pain away? why couldn't my love be enough? why does this hurt so much? why do all the little things make the difference now, when the bigger things have been resolved? why do i resent the fact that someone else got the shiny things, when i ASKED for the practical ones? why was i never surprised with random little presents, even though frugality was my soap box? why could i never tell you that my heart wanted those things sometimes... a poem or a card just randomly left for me somewhere? none of this should have mattered, but it does. why all the little things? why do they hurt the most?

Trust
You are so strong but at the same time your strength is sometimes your weakness. I think back over some of our conversations and just want to slap myself for letting you talk me into forgetting your problems. I guess your training has come in handy hasn’t it. You need to know that you matter too. You can’t find an hour a day for yourself because you take care of everyone else. I am writing this so that you know I am not fooled and I will not forget any longer. You know how much it takes to trust someone and how easy it is to lose that trust. I trust you and I believe you when you tell me that you will start to take care of yourself, for you and your children. No worry about the rest of us we are all adults and can take care of things while you take care of yourself. I think I can speak for all of your true friends by saying we would gladly give up a few moments of your time so you can get back to being the Julie we all care so much about. I am sorry but for me to find out you

Want To Own Me?
I AM IN A AUCTION. THE AUCTION STARTS SATURDAY APRIL 12TH AND ENDS SATURDAY APRIL 19TH. IF YOU ARE INTERESTED, HERE IS THE LINK TO THE AUCTION HOST'S PROFILE http://www.fubar.com/user/33820 BID ON ME WHEN THE HOST OPENS THE AUCTION FOLDER JAIME

If Life Had Lips
If life had lips It would probably speak fast Because it couldn't explain all the trials we have had If life had lips They would probably be bitten From stopping the revelations of secrets hidden If life had lips They would be afraid to talk To tell is in detail who death is out to stalk If life had lips They would probably stutter Or produce lies smooth as butter If life had lips I would like to know its true theorem Well now that I think about life having lips ... I probably wouldn't want to hear them ...

Time To Caress My Soul
Serenade my mind with poetic tunes Clinging to my individualistic beliefs Traveling beyond the realistic Materialistic, linguistic fixes Unintelligent, negligent experimental Forgeries ignorantly presented as reality Skipping the necessary legalities Romantically healing my soul Confessing my emotions to the world At least to someone that matters Pretending not to hear the pitter patter Of my heart beating endlessly As a sweet melody conveys my feelings Caressing my soul, Stripping away the imperfect beauty That I posses inside Resonantly moving through my chest Mingling, Tingling my spine Resting on my conscience Bearing my innocence to one Even the harsher more demonic part No longer catatonic, tongue twisted Reminiscent evidently I resented The poorly presented notion That I must be properly represented And cared for even though i had never been told It is now time for me to Caress my own damn soul

Poetry
A Poem I wrote in 2002...Tell me what you think Today, I'm feeling lonely, Distant and apart, Far away from everyone I hold within my heart. I talked to you this afternoon. You asked me what was wrong. I told you that I was fine, But that was all a lie I'm sitting here now, thinking About you and me And where we'll be, When we greet tomorrow's tragedy A shadow hovers over me, Like a gloom I cannot shake. And all I want is for you to hold me, To take my loneliness away.

Immature Threatening Girl!
Here is the latest thing little miss Mary has said to me: ~Marylicio...: hahahahahahahahahhaha whatever BITCH...ur skanky daughter and fagget son have fat dicks in there ass I just had to say something about this girl. [ fubar.com photo: 1006170476 ] She put threatening messages to me about me and my kids in my shout box. I have captured the screen with the exact words she used but I cannot get the picture to get on here so copied and pasted her words from my shout box. Then she blocks me so I cannot respond. She is so tough yet she won't let me respond? This is what she said to me after she came into the fubar support lounge cussing and acting ridiculous. I complimented the staff at how fast they got rid of her because I wanted to go check out her profile to see if she was retarded or something. I did NOT call her retarded, I just wanted to go see what kind of person would disrespect the support lounge like that. I wish I could get the page I captured onto here. The best

Penises Continued..
Well this is a continuation of my last post so for reference purposes you might want to read that. I was thinking that it's true what they say about penis extenders. If you have a large penis, you will not feel the need to go out and buy a supersized vehicle, like a Hummer or Escalade. Know what my friend Big Guy has? A Mini Cooper!! :)

Where I'am These Days
HELLO TO ALL MY FRIENDS I HAVENT BEEN ON HERE MUCH LATELY I HAVE FOUND A SITE I REALLY ENJOY U CAN USUALLY REACH ME THERE ITS PRETTY CLOSE 2 FUBAR IF U WANT TO CHECK IT OUT HERE IS THE LINK..MUCH LUV...KRIS http://www.myyearbook.com/kyrs

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Death Of A Woman
The blood drips down my arm and lands on the cold linoleum tiny drops of life- like tears that I once cried But the tears are all gone and my life will soon be- the tiny drops form a puddle and that puddle spreads as my life begins to fade. I should feel pain but I really feel nothing no pain, no fear, no regret I am an empty shell no longer capable of feeling. With the last of my strength I put my fingers in the puddle and write these words on the white bathroom wall: " Remember me for who I was- remember the good anplease don't ask why. Remember I love you." My strength is gone I lay on the floor so tired and so cold I close my once bright eyes and then I am gone. This poem was written on May 14th, 2007 while i was drunk and my then fiance James hecided to leave me for our roommate. This is how I keep myself from doing stupid things like actually killing myself..i write about it instead.

Beautiful Disaster
Today seems like a good day to burn a bridge or two The one with old wood creaking that would burn away right on cue I try to be not like that but some people really suck Some people need to get the axing chalk it up to bad luck I know a drugstore cowgirl so afraid of getting bored She's always running from something so many things ignored I might do that stuff if it didn't make me feel like sh*t I'm on some old reality tip so many trips in it Beautiful disaster Flyin' down the street again I tried to keep up You wore me out and left me ate up Now I wish you all the luck You're a butterfly in the wind without a care A pretty train crash to me and I can't care I do I don't whatever http://www.rare-lyrics.com I know a drugstore cowgirl so afraid of getting bored She's always running from something so many things ignored I try to be not like this but I thought it'd make a good song There's nothing to see shows over people just move along Beautiful disaster Fl

Help Bomb
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Union Rules
Union Rules & Hookers A dedicated Teamsters union worker was attending a convention in Las Vegasand decided to check out the local brothels. When he got to the first one,he asked the Madam, Is this a union house?No, she replied, I'm sorry it isn't.Well, if I pay you $100, what cut do the girls get? The house gets $80 and the girls get $20,she answered.Offended at such unfair dealings, the union man stomped off down the street in search of a more equitable, hopefully unionized shop. His search continued until finally he reached a brothel where the Madam responded, Why yes sir, this is a union house.We observe all union rules The man asked,And if I pay you $100, what cut do the girls get? The girls get $80 and the house gets $20.That's more like it! the union man said.He handed the Madam $100, looked around the room, and pointed to a stunningly attractive green-eyed blonde . I'd like her, he said. I'm sure you would, sir,' said the Madam. Then she gestured to a 92-year old woman in th

Spring Is In The Air
It's 58 degrees and I can feel the wildness of spring tugging at me. Time to drag out the shorts and put away the heavy socks and sweats. I’m in a giggly, wildish mood. I feel like running naked out into the back yard, waving sparklers and singing Born In The USA. Not as some celebration of patriotism, but as a celebration of spring, womanhood and ME!!! In the last year, I’ve figured out that I can do much more than I ever thought I could. That I’m still a REAL person, who values honesty and integrity. I think I have a good, maybe a little offbeat sense of humor and I would kill for chocolate. I can be passively aggressive....but that's me. That has been pointed out to me on several occasions recently and that is something I need to work on. That I’m a liberal person and I like it. That I’m occasionally a giddy birdbrain but I can calm down fast enough to know when I need to be serious. Life is great!! I have tons things I want to do!! A trip this summer. Maybe another trip

Day 3 Off My Meds.
Well, it is the 3rd day without my medicine and I am doing better than I thought I would. I am sore and my neck is stiff and in pain but i think the more I move, the better it will get. Having arthritis between each vertebrae sucks and it will be something I deal with the rest of my life. I will get through this. The bleeding hasn't stopped which kind of worries me. I thought that it would have stopped by now. I will give it some more time before I call my doctor back and tell him that it is still happening. He has me on 2 different meds to try and stop it. My daughter has been wanting to move out with her boyfriend for about 6 months now. I was not fond of the idea only because of thinking they really couldn't afford it. They are both going to college and working full time so as long as they stay in college, I guess it is ok? Her Aunt told her of a really cute old apartment that isn't too expensive down town. It is the perfect location! I told her we would help the

April Sucks...
This Sunday marks the 2nd anniversary of my brothers death, it seems like just yesterday that he was here. It is so hard to believe that this much time has passed and I still have a hard time dealing with this. So much goes on in this month that brings so much memory, good and bad to me, about Bob. He was a year younger than me and our birthdays were just 5 days apart.He died the 13th of April of 06, that day was Good Thursday, Easter was that Sunday. His passing as also 6 days before my birthday and 11 days before his 49th.I celebrated my 50th birthday by doing his Eulogy, I don't think I can ever get passed that. He was my go to when i needed someone to talk to, when i needed help and an ear to listen he was always there. He was like an older brother, though he was younger. I could always depend on him, damn I miss that and could use his wisdom and thoughts on things going on in my life now. Sometimes I feel like a boat with out an oar and not able to go anywhere. I sure hope this

The Five Levels Of Hangover Lmao
Five Levels of Hangovers One Star Hangover (*) No pain. No real feeling of illness. You ' re able to function relatively well. However, you are still parched. You can drink 5 cokes and still feel this way. For some reason, you are craving a steak & fries. Two Star Hangover (**) No pain, but something is definitely amiss. You may look okay, but you have the mental capacity of a staple gun. The coffee you are chugging is only increasing your rumbling gut, which is still tossing around the fruity pancake from the 3:00 AM Waffle House excursion. There is some definite havoc being wreaked upon your bowels. Three Star Hangover (***) A slight headache. Stomach feels crappy. You are definitely not productive. Anytime a girl walks by you gag because her perfume reminds you of the flavored schnapps shots your alcoholic friends dared you to dr

Modern Language
*DICTIONARY FOR WOMEN'S PERSONAL ADS* 40-ish....................49 Adventurous...............Slept with all your friends Athletic..................No boobs Average looking...........Ugly Beautiful.................Pathological liar Contagious Smile..........Does a lot of pills Emotionally secure........On medication Feminist..................Fat Free spirit...............Junkie Friendship first..........Former slut Fun.......................Annoying Gentle....................Dull New Age...................Body hair in the wrong places Open-minded................Desperate Outgoing..................Loud and Embarrassing Passionate................Sloppy drunk Poet......................Depressive Professional..............Bitch Romantic..................Frigid Voluptuous................Very Fat Large frame................Hugely Fat Wants Soul mate...........Stalker Widow......................Murderer *WOMEN'S ENGLISH* 1. Yes = No 2. No = Yes 3. Maybe = No

Beautiful Augusta
There is nothing like The Masters in all of sports because there's nothing like it on earth. The world's most competitive golfers being humbled by the world's most beautiful course is only the outer petal. Gary Player at age 72 is playing in his 52nd Masters competing with kids young enough to be his great, great grandsons. He will not make the weekend cut but holed out on 18 to a standing ovation just as he has for years. Every year there is a defining shot, a moment that sets it apart from all the others before it. It doesn't mater what happens in the next two plus rounds, for me the moment this year will be amateur Michael Thompson's bogey at th 15th hole. The University of Alabama student needed birdie to go below the projected cut line and give him a chance to play the weekend rounds. As he stood over his ball on the lightening fast green, his ball shuttered - by the slightest amount visible to zooming high definition cameras. He backed off and called a stroke penalty on himsel

Mom
Hi my friends...I've been in,and am going back to tonite....Indianapolis where my 81 yr old Mom is hanging on....pray for her.....I'll let you all know how it is when I'm back next week....I miss you all,and alot has happened....my family is together for the first time in years...and being the only Son for my Mom and Big Brother to my 5 sisters has been great......Leave Love and I'll return it when I get back....Peace to all....Geno...The Black Knight.

No Air, Jordin Sparks Ft. Chris Brown
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air If I should die before I wake It's 'cause you took my breath away Losing you is like living in a world with no air Oh I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave My heart won't move, it's incomplete If there was a way that I can make you understand But how do you expect me to live alone with just me 'Cause my world revolves around you It's so hard for me to breathe [Chorus] Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air Can't live, can't breathe with no air It's how I feel whenever you ain't there It's no air, no air Got me out here in the water so deep Tell me how you gon' be without me If you ain't here, I just can't breathe It's no air, no air No air, air No air, air No air, air No air, air I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew Right off the ground to float to you There's no gravity to hold me down for real But somehow I'm still alive inside You took my breath, but I survived I don't know how, but I don'

Your Delicious Desserts
If all of the eight desserts listed below were sitting in front of you, which would you choose (sorry, you can only pick one)! Trust me...this is very accurate. Pick your dessert, and then look to see what psychiatrists think about you. After taking this dessert personality test, send this to others, but when you do, be sure to put your choice of dessert in the subject box above. ALSO, SEND IT TO THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU. DON'T FORGET TO CHANGE YOUR DESSERT CHOICE IN THE SUBJECT BOX BEFORE YOU FORWARD IT. Here are your choices: 1. Angel Food Cake 2. Brownies 3. Lemon Meringue Pie 4. Vanilla Cake With Chocolate Icing 5. Strawberry Short Cake 6. Chocolate Cake With Chocolate Icing 7. Ice Cream 8. Carrot Cake No, you can't change your mind once y ou scroll down, so think carefully what your choice will be. OK - Now that you've made your choice, this is what the researchers say about you... SCROLL DOWN---No Cheating

Prolog
Prolog for Search for the Dragons Eye Staff As the twin, suns of Narrsus crested the horizon a stranger rode into the quiet village of Nexius. He grunted as he passed through the small village, His memories went to the way the village was once bustling with activity before the Dragon Wars, now it appeared to be almost deserted even though he could feel eyes upon him as he rode down the street. The village had been slowly rebuilding for nearly twenty years, he allowed his eyes to roam over the new building and some of the original structures that remained since the end of the wars, and then his eyes caught sight of a set of stairs leading up into one of the extra large trees in the village. “Hmmmm… still here after all these years.” He urged his mount in the direction of the stairs. A thicket of gnarled tress bracketed the stairs. “Sounds like the inn is still open after all these years.” He murmured as he slowly started up the old staircase. The wood squeaked under his w

Ok Mad Fu Bombers
ok listen up bombers there is some contests that are going on and they could use our help.. the first one is bratts good friend who helped her alot in her contest so we need to show her some love. she needs to get 10,000 comments.. click on her picture below the next one is a good friend of mine who has helped me and the others in contests and she coulc really use some help.. she needs to get 30,000 comments

R.i.p Grampa Hank...
Today is one year since my grampa hank died. We went and paid our respects at his grave....left flowers as well....as we were all standing there I started thinking...What REALLY happens when we die? Some of you may say we go to heaven or hell...If you know me you know I don't really believe in that stuff...not trying to offend anyone but just like everyone else I have my own beliefs....I couldn't stop wondering...Do we even get to see our loved ones we've lost along the way when we pass on? Do we go on dreaming forever? I know none of you can actually answer these questions....I'm just wondering what some of you think happens when we pass on...RAWR...its all messed up in my head...let me know what you think if you want...if not don't mind my rambling. ♥ Amelia

Keeping Busy
Just want to let everyone know that I have not forgot them. I have not been on as much lately due to home improvements. As soon as things settle down I will be back on as much as usual. I hope everyone has a great weekend! Love Ya All! Darlene

Rome And Us
There was a dream of Rome.I can only whisper of it now.Anything more than a whisper and the dream vanishes. It's so.... Fragile.The true glory of Rome is in a very fragile idea. Imagine a place devoted to the rights of the citizen. Where every free man has a voice. That was the dream... And i fear it will not survive the winter...Let's just whisper here, you and I. It makes you wonder doesn't it. If Rome was but a whisper what is the U.S. Has the rights of the people been moved to the back ground for the money hungry Deplomats and Senators. Has out freedom been revocked and the People not see it. It's a fact that in Maine recently they passed a no smoking in your car law if a minor(18 years) is present. What is that shit???? whats next are the gonna pass the same law for Houses too. It strikes me as odd that if Rome was but a whisper what is Mr.Bush doing for us. Nothing but a lot of screaming. What pisses me off is that the current trend of Samolians entering this country get alot

Touch It
From the sight of you I can feel the excitement building. I feel it pulsing... Harder, and harder. It has its own beat. The rhythm is sporadic. The pace changing in anticipation of what you will do. Everything around me is moving at a slow pace. My eyes refuse to blink, afraid I might miss something... Its a struggle for me to maintain composure. Just as I think I have it under control... You touch it... The world stops, and I can barely breath. My body is electrified, and I feel like I'm floating. You've captured me in complete silence, and I contemplate what just happened... How did you do it? In one moment you touched it, and changed everything. Beyond all protective layers... you reached out... and touched my heart.

20 Something? -intro-
It wasn’t the beautiful peace dove that soared above my mental cloud prior to the catastrophic storm. It was the presence of the crow here tonight that loomed, waiting like a vulture for my demise in a small four walled, white room, overlooking a paradise that was not intended for me. The storm that was to drown out my dreams of consciousness and revive a subconscious nightmare embedded in the roaring tide took control, smashing crimson into the pale sands. My fall into the black abyss had begun surrounded by apparitions and the failed souls who once inhabited this den and the lonely departed who no longer wished to hold hands. They’ve traded happiness for isolation and self-hatred. Miss Misery, yes, she has come and gone. Pulling at my limbs until I said give. We are on an adventure of self-discovery through violent hymns and melodic verses. In each attempt may they be adorned regardless for their efforts made through the poor, abrasive concrete decisions or the smooth ride on freedom

I Feel Down And Out
i just can't do anythinghere i tried macking pics and can't load them right i'm no good in lounges i guess it's just rate pics cause i'm no good at comments. somedays i feel like i'm no good here

Stop Smoking Cd
My husband is currently taking the course on Stop Smoking hypnosis. When he completes it he will be recording the CD for those who wish to stop smoking and to also stop chewing tobacco. Are there anyone out there who wishes to quit spending all that money on tobacco and put it to better use? Let me know please!

To Worst Night
so this comment was posted on my blog by my good friend worst night, what a sweet heart. I can see you finally give up your fake alter ego. Figured a long ago that it was fake too many your referrals were fake. Too bad it was the only profile you worked out of freshmeat. All your other referrals are still freshmeat. All your fake profiles you use to spread hate. so where to start , first of all i will admit that like most fubar users i do have one other account, however i have not used it in so long that i cant even remember the log in for it. However the rest of the referrals are all real friends that i know that started an account and found out that they just did not like fubar or they dont have internet at home. While you hide behind a fake a account and point that ugly finger at me, what are you doing. Worst night, i am sure this is not your main account, and what are you using it for other than spreading hate? what greater good are you using it for? and if you are so much be

Auumn Dreams
Here I wait for you in the park the trees have begun to change leaves cover the ground like a blanket with oranges, yellows, and even reds such a beautiful view only one thing can make this perfect that one thing is you I can see you here with me walking over to where I wait Your hair blowing softly in the gentle wind the leaves rustle under your feet I rise to great you with a warm hug a tingle coarses through my body we separate with a soft kiss then stroll gently to a nearby park bench sitting, talking as only lover's do about how we miss each other after what seems only moments we rise, and begin to wander leaves falling all around us swirling up an autumn enchantment i become lost in a dream that is slowly become a reality. Christopher Wayne Rhea Copyright ©2008 Christopher Wayne Rhea

So....
So.... some of you have seen that I am not in the best of spirits lately.. For those that have been there for me and have listened to me cry and hugged me, even if it was here, thank you.. I want to assure those of you that care about me that I will be ok.. I get like this a few times a year, and when I am pushed away from people I care about deeply. I haven't hurt like this in a very long time. I probably have a very long road ahead of me but I know that I have friends that understand if I am not my normal bitchy go lucky self, and I am so thankful that I have friends like you all... Just know I will get better and I will bounce back a little stronger and much wiser than I was before ...

Clown
commentburner.com The Fool Drawing the world through bright blue eyes, under the pine-trees under the skies, ends up waiting the day he dies The Clown juggling with dignity, juggling with pride, juggling with destiny, he’s trying to hide So lost, so alone, loves to love, no-one to show Why does he pretend everything is fine? To them he’s the sun he’s the shine, but they can’t see beneath this shell of mine

Get In Where A Fit In
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Time
It's late and i'm sitting here all alone. We've talked for hours back and forth going nowhere. i can't understand it, what happened and what went wrong, what did i do. Everythings changed now and i don't know why. My heart is in piece too small to ever clue together, yet i can't stop. i need to hold on to something. i can't give up, anything is better then nothing. All the pain and tears are worth it if i can just hold on. i can't live without my heart and soul. i can't breath, i'm nothing.

Me.
What I know . . . I know where I come from, where my roots are planted. There are some that would say I have no roots at all . . . that my gypsy notions are proof I have no one place where I always am . . . and they would be wrong. It is my gypsy nature that has led me to know myself so well that I feel my roots and my grounding with every physical and emotional move I make. My roots are strong and deep . . . yet they are in constant motion, creating movement and growth where they are firmly planted. You see this place I come from . . . the core of the human woman I am . . . it is the depths of the sea, in the sandy earth below the water of all the world. It is a beautiful and simple thing to be connected to and carry the energy of such an enchanting part of our earth. I have the gift of powerful and deep grounding . . while enjoying the constant motion of life with the ability to embrace all of the inconsistency and unknown . . with out fear or hesitancy. I move

Wooo Hooo Godmother Lady Neptune
She is so Awesome, Beautiful, has a great love for ppl, yall need to show her some luv, she thinks about others all of the time !! Please help get her points down !!! She ROCKS !!!! I am hoping alot of points for her.... I Love Ya Sis LadyNeptune "Shadow Leveler"@ fubar

Saturday Morning.
Saturday Morning. At the signal just before I turn into the neighborhood I can feel my energy change . . . it is not something I do . . . it just does on its own. I pull into the driveway always convinced I need to take a minute to mentally prepare, but then I never do . . . before I know it I am opening the door . . to the place that opens the door . . to the place I go . . where I so clearly belong. He is there . . . all ready for his part of the journey . . . the journey we take together that is never planned and never known until it is over. His name is Gideon and other than some general facts and my visual interpretation, I do not know much about him. He is short and has an accent (although most would be at a loss as to place where it is from). He loves the Beatles and Harley-Davidsons, he has 3 daughters, he speaks 6 languages, blah, blah, blah . . . . these facts that I would normally find important to know . . . are seemingly UNimportant . . . because what I KN

Sitting Beside You..
I sit here beside you but you don't say a word. I'm sure that most people would find it absurd. All of the unspoken secrets that you've kept through the years. All the ones before me who shared their joy, laughter, and tears. I know your secrets you will share with me when the time is right. For now I will simply enjoy the company you give me tonight. Listening to the soft whispers that you whisper in the breeze. The peace and calm you offer brings me comfort you see. I wait.. listening.. wondering.. what is it you've seen? Stories of all that is, and all that has been. How many others have sat with you by your side? Did they know of the unspoken secrets you keep inside? I know that to hear you I most open my mind. It is there that I know your stories I will find. Those unspoken secrets, just waiting to be told. I sit here listening, in your shadow on this day so cold. I wish you would tell me, but all in good time. For now the secrets told are the ones that a

Crimson Tears Of Joy..
Looking out my window as I lay in bed.. thick fog clouds my vision as I awaken to another day. Stepping from my door into the gray abyss, I venture out across the dew covered lawn. I can feel the moist droplets covering my feet and toes.. soothing.. cool. I keep going, unable to see what lies ahead, but knowing where to go, having walked this path so many times before. A few more paces, and I stop.... I stand there, motionless, allowing the damp air to penetrate my clothes, moistening my skin. I listen, and hear nothing but the rustling of leaves on the trees that I know sit in the distance. I hear the wind whispering to me, and the leaves chattering among themselves. "Be patient", She whispers. I close my eyes, and open my soul so that I may hear the unspoken words that She shares. I feel the air thicken as it begins to swirl around me. The gentle caress of her breeze, circling my very being. The movement intensifies, and suddenly even the morning fog is parted and thrust aside

How To View /unblock Users
Before Viewing Or Unblocking Your Blocked User List You MUST change your Homepage style to the "Power" option this is easy just takes a few steps if you do not know how to do this then just ..... After you have changed your homepage to the "Power" setting you can then proceed to the block list. When you have saved your homepage to the "power" setting click on the home button and go back to your homepage you will notice differences about the page it is a new layout !=)on the right hand side of the page you will see a box as follows... click on the blocked box as shown and go from there you are ready to unblock and view your blocked list Enjoy Fubar!!

A Little Prayer
I have learned to realize a lot lately….LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO HOLD IN ANGER, HATRED, and ANIMOSITY I had two babies born on Monday...a beautiful baby girl named Kyllie from my niece and a sweet baby boy named Gabriel from my best friend!!! Should be the best day in our lives and we got news that my best friend has cancer: (There are 4 stages to the cancer she has and she is at stage 4)!!! Now, Gabriel is her second son; she also has a ten yr old son and no one to care for them if the good lord takes her!!! My home will be open to them, but it will not be the same without her. She is the person that makes you laugh when you want to cry, that gives you that beer when you think you have had enough (awww….come on one more won’t hurt ya), she is the one that will stand by your side when you want to give up and she will literally hurt a man if he ever hit you!!! She has been my best friend for awhile and she has done all those things for me…I am not ready for her to go and I need all the p

Tickle...... Omg Funny
I stole this from Manly's mumms, he is a good buddy of mine. He is always making us laugh. Thank You Manly, Your Rock! There is a factory in Northern Minnesota which makes the Tickle Me Elmo Toys. The toy laughs when you tickle it under the arms. Well, Lena is hired at The Tickle Me Elmo factory and she reports for her first day promptly at 8:00 AM. The next day at 8:45 AM there is a knock at the Personnel Manager's door. The Foreman throws open the door and begins to rant about the new employee. He complains that she is incredibly slow and the whole line is backing up, putting the entire production line behind schedule. The Personnel Manager decides he should see this for himself, so the 2 men march down to the factory floor. When they get there the line is so backed up that there are Tickle Me Elmo's all over the factory floor and they're really beginning to pile up. At the end of the line stood Lena surrounded by mountains of Tickle Me Elmo's. She had a roll of p

Days
broken roads and wasted days dreams alive splendor in the fields rising above the horizon the days have slowly come to an end lifeless thoughts silent hearts among the wolves i lose my sense being alone once again shifting among the stars unwritten dreams shallow past all alone for days

Our Love
love isn't it great... it frightens you and at the same time calms your restless soul... like you know that everything will be alright as long as that person is holding you tight... that love will always be there just as long as that person is there for you to touch, hold and see... love is a wonderful thing indeed.... when you fall in love sometimes its unexpected while other times you don't know till its to late it just hits you full force love is the greatest thing indeed even if you say you will never love that person again a little piece of your heart still holds them dear loving a person can be wonderful thing when you know you love them as they do you its the best thing in the world its the greatest thing that will ever happen to you when they kiss you and touch you with that loving grace there will never be a better place their loving arms wrapping around you in that loving embrace letting you know that you never have to worry that their love will never go

I Love You
I love you for you, you make my skies so blue, wiped the tears from my eyes, with never a sigh. You make me fly so very high. I love you, for loving me. letting me be, who i was meant to be. I love you, for sharing, always caring. Walking hand in hand, we listen to the band, walk in the sand. I love you, for being you, making my skies so blue. Good times and bad times, I feel so fine. With every mountain we climb, we can always find the rhyme. With every dream, we are always a team. With every smile, I know my love it was all worthwhile. Through every mile, and evry trial. I love you. I know you are mine, and in time. I will love you even more, behind these doors, i will pour, all my love on you. I love you. I love you for being you, making my skies blue. Like every rose, I watch our love grow. With every blooming flower, you give me the power. I love you.

Pagan Pride
In darkness you paint us, but we will not hide. We're the light of the country in which you abide, we're fearless and strong, the protectors of life hidden in shadows, we conquer all strife. We come from the Old Ones, our lineage secure. We rise from the ashes, we always endure. It's time you remembered that we were here first. We healed your sick, yet suffered your worst. From time immemorial we've woven our lore cunning folk, healers, benandanti - there's more. We're black and we're white, brown and yellow. We're women and children and mighty fine fellows. We're Her hidden children, the angels of light our task is to teach and to help set things right. We conjure and cast, and whisper and pray so you can enjoy your freedom each day. We've long been your army, protecting your back when you are in trouble, in secret we act. The Mother is watching - She hasn't missed much. She gathered her magick and given the touch to Witches and Pagans and Druids and such!

Why Do I Even Give A Damn?!?!
Why do I even care??? Current mood: confused Category: so many questions in my head Romance and Relationships Something I haven't quite figured out yet is why I care so much. Why ponder over future endevors that I have no control over. Instead of just living my life day to day. Maybe I wasn't suppose to think this way, or maybe I wasn't suppose to feel this way. But I do. Now I sit and ponder on meaningless things. It was so much fun when we were friends. Now all I can think of is are you telling me lies, when it was you that gained my trust the most. What happened in the course of weeks I can't explain. All I know is that a crush turned into something more that I don't think either of us was ready for. But I was ready to accept you into my life, I had hopes and dreams possibly even be your wife. But dreams never come true,they never really do Oh how I had sweet dreams of me and you FOR JM

Cubby
he deserves to be godfather...without him and a few others fubar would be boring as hell..he is funny, sincere and friendly come on all my friends and family im asking u to do this as a personal favor to me go to his page give him all the rates, fans and comments u can pass it around...i love u all lets get this done today xoxo here is his link to his page ~Cubby~Proud owner of ♥ Sherrylicious ♥@ fubar

So They Say...
i've had a few people on here straight up tell me that i seem to put a wall up, like i won't really let anyone in, or get too close. people who don't know me in real life, and basically had only talked to me a few hours. it's really been bothering me mainly because i dont see myself putting up this wall. so i've been seriously pondering and taking a look at how i approach relationships either friend wise or romantically. honestly i dont know what more to say. i could spend about 90 bagillion hours typing out my sad heartbroken wannabe love stories where it feels like i have always played the victim...but i'll spare you. i guess if you have anything to say about it let me have it.if i've seemed to put up a wall or been fake with you, let me know. i wont be upset or mad. i always have told my friends that real friends will tell you the truth no matter what. and i try to live by that.

Back!
yep finally made it back online! I hope that the duct-tape and wire hangers, paper-clips and screws will hold on long enugh for me to finish this blog! Thanks to everyone that stopped by and gave my page some love! I intend to return it, but if u don't hear from me? well just give me a swift kick in the arse to let me know!

Sinful Crew
OH NO SEXXII LALA AND HOLLI ARE AT IT AGAIN... WHAT THEY DOING NOW... WHAT TO COME JOIN THE BEST BOMBING FAMILY ON FU BAR COME JOIN THE SINFULS CREW.. WERE U AINT JUST A NUMBER U A FAMILY MEMBER.... IF YOU WANT TO JOIN HIT UP SEXXII LALA OR HOLLISTER FOR MORE INFO make sure u add rate and fan all member's and say new sinflus member and put sinfuls crew in ur name §ë××îí£á£ä Owner@ fubar hollister Co-Owner@ fubar

Been Bad About Emails, Sorry
Hello all, Just wanted to applogize if I have been a bit behind on getting back to you via email/phone calls, ect. I pretty much have to do everything at 1/2 speed, getting better ath the typeing though, can almost type with both hands again almost like normal but then the wrist starts to hurt so gotta go back to 1 handed typing and fi yu ever tried one handed typing, you know its not very fast and not always very accurate lol. In anycase, I just wanted to say thank you for all your support, and sorry if I havnt got back to right away, gota lot to catch up on via emial, paperwork, and just stuff around the house. Hell doing laundry is a whole new challenge in istself when right right hands broke/in cast and left shoulder broken, should have a video cam for that I am sure people would get a laugh watching me drag the laundry basket up/down the stairs and trying to open the door and push the laundry basket through quick before the door shuts and putting in laundry at a record speed

Threesome!!
now i know this is something that really just cant be planned or anything but damn i feel neglected... i have never had a threesome and i would like to have one BAD!! SMILES, every one i know both male and female have been in some sorta threesome action and to put it simply im FRECKIN JEALOUSE !! i shouldnt be but damn ... what to do, what to do?? i dont feel that i am a bad looking guy or anything and im pretty opean about alot of things i guess im just not that lucky !!

Why Do I Bother......
It seems to me that I can do some things right and other things I'm just no good at. I have ruined friendships, which is now very apparant to me, I have alienated people to the point that they think that I'm the one that is the problem...and then in other areas of my life, nothing could happen to make it better than it already is. I work hard, I'm a mom and a college student. I work hard at being a mom, cuz I don't think that I will ever qualify for the "best mom award"...I work even harder as a student...first because I'm not the typical college student, since it seems that Father Time insists that I have another birthday again this year (lol) and then I have to try all the more harder so that I can make it into grad school, so that I can get my masters degree... So where have I gone wrong...I mean am I that horrible of a persont as it seems to the people that I have hurt. Did I mean to hurt these people...HELL NO...but I'm not forgiven for it, do I forgive myself, no how ca

The Short Bus Crew
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Time Stands Still
Time stands still Current mood: sad Tomorrow is the 5 yr anniversary of my husband, Bruce's death. I can remember all the details of that day. I still miss him so much. I am trying to move on and maybe I have in some ways, but he is still in my heart. I still have days when I get so down because he is gone. I still have trouble trying to make sense of it. A healthy man gets lung cancer. He had to suffer for two years and I ask myself, WHY? I believe in God, but I am still angry that he would let him suffer so much. And yes, I still have times when I would trade my life for Bruce. I try to move on, but it is still hard. I have met a lot of men online and even met a few in person. The ones I have met have fallen short and I can only hope there is still someone out there for me. Someone who can fill that empty void in my life. I have alot to offer. Time stands still, but yet continues to pass me by.

Doggy Style: Better Than Sex?
After the discovery of fire, and the invention of the Bacon Double Cheeseburger, Doggy-Style has to be high on the list of greatest discoveries of all time. Far surpassing things like the wheel or electricity…maybe even Mountain Dew. I love the DS, but it isn’t the position I open with. Usually I go for something a bit more traditional, then when the ol boy is lookin good, I’ll spin the gal around and break out the DS as my Mortal Kombat finishing move. Doggy-Style is like a nacho with extra cheese….yes, it’s that good. All experienced doggy-stylers know this - but I feel compelled to share the benefits of the canine-crawl: 1. Front Row Seats! When your drilling away from the back, you have an unobstructed view of the boning. It’s like a live porno, and you’re the star! 2. No Mushy Shit! With your head 2 feet away from her body, you know you’re safe from her wanting to do any of that kissy-wissy bs that girls like. Plus, DS is kinda dirty, so you neve

My Life......or So It Seems
She's waiting for someone who could turn her life around But someone who could make her feel The way she used to feel,but he never comes She's dating, but no one that she cares to talk about And all the flowers in the world Don't amount to much, when what she wants is love And she'd give anything and everything to fall in love Just this one time, she'd like to find What she's been dreamin of She could find someone to hold her But that wouldn't be enough She'd give anythingto fall in love Now she's looking just like She'd rather be someplace else Staring across the bar, lost in herself Will he ever come Cause she'd give anything and everything to fall in love Just this one time, she' d like to find What she's been dreaming of She could find someone to hold her But that wouldn't be enough She'd give anything to fall in love She's gonna keep on makin wishes She's gonna keep on being strong She won't settle for less than true love She's gonna keep on holdi

Who Will Hear Me?
Calling out to the wind, it echoes back to unhearing ears Pitiful cries sounding more like arctic wolf’s pained howls Cutting thick; deep incisions like glass on flesh The air as it hangs upon the earth in struggle But who will hear me as I whimper meekly outward And if heard, who will care? Echoes are but a hollow responding of me Bouncing off the walls of my internal existence Leading nowhere; meaning none to any Fear grips my soul and tears at my heart Like times long past; reminders of a darker day Swallowing bitter bile that rises to drown My embittered being; encased in doomed destiny Sitting in my own prison cell, I linger longing For a day when my own infinite echoes are not all that I hear. But who wll hear me?

Like A Dream
Like A Dream Here I sit, thinking only of you Wondering what is to become of us Understanding all you have been through Hoping to slowly gain your trust My heart aches for you, and also I yearn I want to understand you In hopes that I will learn Your unique and special qualities amaze me Your smile Your mind Your voice Your eyes Your hair Your ability to cheer me up When you see that I am down My feelings for you go beyond that of words And at first it didn't seem real But that just taught me a lesson In doubting what I feel It seems I dreamed you into life And the reason for my stare The bluest sky The deepest sea Don't even compare You're so very special in every single way And thoughts of you Run through my head Every hour of the day I hope that you will understand Just how I feel about you I want to be your guiding hand For all that you go through

Candle Against The Night.
Today I want to burn it all away. Not even to make room for the new. Graphite shavings, and oily skin. Fear of sleep, promise of nightmares. A world of melody and harmony, a vision of dischord. No new songs today, no new ventures. May it all flicker, and fall quietly to the floor. May it all wither, disapear in the wind. May it all falter in this walk of reality. Blink into nothing. Fade. Disapper. May the engineer of this cruel madness watch as his beautifully flawed experiment turns to ash and cinder. At least then I'll know, in the dancing havoc... If love is a fire, is it a candle? Protesting quietly, helpless against the winds of pursed lips desperate against the daunting magnitude of the night? If love is a fire why then... Am I so cold?

Can I Hold You As If You Were Mine?
Can I hold you as if you were mine? I wish to keep you forever close, I'll let go at the end of time. There is undescribable joy when I hold you in my arms. If you allow me to embrace you, I'll keep you from harm. We belong to no one, free as a bird in the sky. My feelings for you grow stronger, this I can't deny. Allow me to take you in a lover's embrace, so close that together our hearts will race. Maybe one day I will hold you as if you were mine. Until then, my heart will continue to hold you, 'til the end of time.

What Do I Really Know?
All of my life, I've spent learning stuff in school. Yet the older I get, I realize I'm still a fool. The rapid, ever changing pace of our world Shakes up my mind and leaves me in a whirl My thoughts scatter, running like a cheetah in the wild I sit in daze, eyes full of wonderment as if I were a child. There is one thing I truly understand. Learning is infinite, but I have a limited lifespan. So as the earth continues to orbit the sun, I know a truly wise man, I will never become.

My B-day
my birthday is the 8th and i would luv to feel spoiled by the fu bar crowd. i no this will seem greedy but im so jelous of all the beutifull women on here with tones of bling!could some u hot ass men hook a girl up? ill do just about anything in return. thankyou in addvace and i love you all soooooo much

Fantasies
Fantasies As I lie upon the bed Covered by the smooth silk Soft hands caress my unexplored body Eagerly pushing for what he desires He does not know what to expect Will I let him continue or tell him to stop He slowly kisses my lips Softly at first Soon it is fast, hard and passionate Taking what he wants without regret Whispering in my ears Stroking my chest Gently squeezing my breast within his hands He pulls me into his embrace With such force to pull me out of time and space He slowly kisses down my neck Eagerly searching for his temple of joy Knowing where it is but keeping me waiting Torture is what he does and it is bliss Gradually he moves down my chest Lightly kissing and licking all the way down Moving down my legs He stops and stares at my open eyes Full of passion and lust He creeps back up my legs Slowly moving making me shiver with hope Until he reaches…..my fantasies

Baby, Now That I've Found You
Baby, Now that I’ve found you I won’t let you go I built my world around you I need you so, Baby even though You don’t need me Now Baby, Now that I’ve found you I won’t let you go I built my world around you I need you so Baby even though You don’t need me, You don’t need me oh, no Baby, baby, When first we met I knew in this heart of mine That you were someone I couldn’t forget. I said right, And abide my time Spent my life looking For that somebody To make me feel like new Now you tell me that you want to leave me But darling, I just can’t let you (guitar & fiddle solo) Baby, baby, When first we met I knew in this heart of mine That you were someone I couldn’t forget. I said right, And abide my time Spent my life looking For that somebody To make me feel like new Now you tell me that you want to leave me But darling, I just can’t let you Now that I found you I built my world around you I need you so, baby even though You don

Transsoulmania
TRANSSOULMANIA The Light bled red. I no longer could tell you What all the signs said; Nor did I care like a fool. My confidence had been broken By the death of a precious love affair. I shaved my hair and became a kamikaze dare. I was tattered and tattooed, My heart pierced all the way through. I had fallen into an opaque abyss --- The hell of cupid’s spell: A slave in bondage of my own created cell. I ignited my napalm in fact; It was an dishonorable act. As I spiraled rapidly further and further down, A giant serpent wrapped itself around, And pounced itself upon my flesh, As it announced: “ Oh, many, must, most: Squeeze you, tease you, eat you and then, leave you. It is always about attitude and gratitude, Not longitude and altitude.” I watched in horror, As my life force slowly dripped and stained itself Across an ancient scroll belonging to Mephistopheles. I closed my eyes and prayed. I let go. And within my last breath of life sprang forth out of m

Wanna Be The One
I wanna be the one who sings to you. And tell you how you are as pretty, as your eyes are blue. I want you to be the one, I tell how much I care. Caught in your arms, and can't go nowhere. I wanna be the one, who gives you the love you need. The one that holds, the only deed. I wanna be the one, whispering in your ear. And telling you, how much I care. I wanna be the one, you'll never say no. Take your time, and move slow. When it's all over, and time to go. You'll kiss me softly, and say, I love you so.

Tatmans Contest
Tatman 1973 is also in a contest. Right now he's in First Place and it ends on April 23rd. Just one rate and a few comments from my friends if you can will help him get there. Thank you all in advance xoxoxoxoxoNeeds at least 2,500 points to win any fubucks. Most points wins a 7 days or a 1 months VIP as well. Most rates (over 200) wins 3 day blast too While there please Rate/Fan/Add MishNumber1for hosting this great giveaway Thank You All So Much Brought to you by Slave2Fantasy

Things Happen....
One day she says...text me! and gives the number. He decides heck why not........ So then it happens. He sends her a text..timid, slightly nervous...then it's there.. her response!! They text, they laugh they smile...seemingly starting a great freindship... "What do you do?" She asked... "I'm a comedian, HA no really I'm a professional Rodeo Clown, who moonlights as a Hallmark Greeting card writer..." LMFAO LOL...It's funny how friends meet and start to get to know each other! Simple, no complications, no drama, no pressure, just conversation. ************************************************ Now on to what this blog is really about! The story above is true, and really did happen...but below is what happens most often (I think) That seems so simple yet it's not always that easy. Some frinedship require much more work, to the point that one or both people feel as if they are the only one putting a real effort into the firendship. Is this fair? NO Does it happ

And The Contestants Are:
Hello Everyone! I am hosting my first contest starting today (April 14th) at Noon EST and running until the 28th at Noon EST. The Contestants Are: š.SAY.š http://fubar.com/user/1243989 Scooter http://fubar.com/user/888324 Ladystartara http://fubar.com/user/1143109 chris aka 'PROUD MEMBER OF CLUB FAR/FU HUBBY TO ANGELMORN http://www.fubar.com/user/150569 ♫ôChuggyô♫~the Naked*asst.mgr.@the~REAL~Red~Dragon~Loungeô♫ http://www.fubar.com/user/1365904 Deadman Walking http://fubar.com/user/1646357 Mz Chaos http://fubar.com/user/1029198 *****Disqualified! Rule specifically stated no green accounts and one was bombing her. When I went to visit the green account it no longer existed.

Help Me Out Plz :)
Come on friends and family--I am in a giveaway and need some help reaching my goal so if you could click the link and drop me a few it would help a lot! I need 50,000, and have almost 28,000, so stop by and bomb away! My link is below: Thank You, ~*~Cotton Candy Kisses~*~

I Can't Wait!!!!!
I found out I AM PREGNANT!!!! I hope it's another girl but I kind of want a little boy too... I don't even know... I am so lost... For those of you that don't know, my divorce was final 2 months ago... Apparently, that was just enough time to get pregnant.... I am so excited..... I am 3 months along and I hope this one goes just as great as the last prenancy... I just want my baby to be healthy and happy in my home.... XOXOX

Memories Are Forever
*dedicated to all the little ones given their wings too early* Stolen moments,irreplacable,they will never be again Just as all the Aprils never give the same soft rain Time it moves without us,should we cease to flow with grace It does not wait,nor hesitate,to put us in our place While here,we're all we can be and we can only hope to give Something precious like fond memories of the time that we did live Nothing is assured for us but we should do our best to stand Stronger with each falling,of knowing heart and tender hand Be guided by the inner voice,that comes to you in restless sleep Listen to the Angels songs for the life they could not keep Dance with sorrow if you must and then let the grief fall by For the Angels given wings too soon,do not want to see you cry Let the memory of their tiny breaths,and their skin all soft and warm Be a reminder that for all the hurt,there's a shelter from the storm They may have gone away too soon,it may n

Auction
I'm happy to say I've joined my first auction today. Please place bids @ http://fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=1237097&i=1616486104 Thanks VERY much!!! HUGSSS!!! ;) * ♥ Golden Sweetheart ♥ * **UPDATE** PLEASE SEE DIRECT LINK IN COMMENT BELOW! THANKS!! 8D

This Is What Love Looks Like
When I say I love you, this is what I am telling you... I will always protect you and protect your heart. I will always stand beside you no matter what. I will not leave you for bad finances, poor health, or heartache. I will do my level best to make you as happy as I possibly can, each and every day. I will always be on your side, no matter who it is that is opposing you, including family. I will do my level best to honour you and your family every day. I will never say things to you to hurt you on purpose. I will never take the confidences that you have entrusted to me and hurt you with them. I will hold and protect your heart as if it were my very own, because, in fact, it is. I will rejoice with you in your success and mourn with you at the failures life brings. I will make your welfare and happiness my priority each day. I will believe you and I will believe IN you every single day. I will understand when you have a bad day and I will love you through it. I w

Hurt And Don't Know What To Do
I was married for 27 years and got divorced because my ex had an affair and then I found out he got her pregnant. So I closed myself off and put up a wall. Then I met this gorgeous, sexy, fun and great guy and slowly let my wall down. We lived together and were engaged. Yesterday he told me that he loved me as a friend, but wasn't in love with me anymore, because he couldn't deal with the fact that I was having some hard times with my son and his family and my ex and that I was always depressed and no fun. So I moved out last night. He showed absolutely no emotion about me leaving and almost seemed happy I was going. I always thought that if somebody loved you, they would go through good and bad times with you and not stop loving you. I guess I was wrong. I cried my eyes out all the way to my sister's house and woke up hurting more than I thought I would ever hurt about anyone. Why is it that men just move on and women take this all to heart and it breaks? I am getting to ol

His Vip Ends In An Hour!!
Please show luv to this great guy! I bought him in an auction, and he's been great! His VIP is ready to run out in 1 hour!! I can't afford to buy him a new one so I hope that everyone could stop by his page and add/fan/rate him!! ♥♥♥♥ ♥§è×ý ßåbý ßlµè Êýè$ ™©*****CAPTAIN of the Confederate Bombers****@ fubar

Looking For The Kristy That Is Fu Wife To Scott/lord Vader.
To Kristy where are you hiding??? You are just being mean, and you are playing games with his heart. At least you could call him and tell him how you really feel. Do not break his heart. Stop playing games. Love is something you should not mess with. Do the right thing. From: Someone who cares. Misty

The Gift Of The Magi
THE GIFT OF THE MAGI, by O. Henry ... posted for a good friend One dollar and eighty-seven cents. That was all. And sixty cents of it was in pennies. Pennies saved one and two at a time by bulldozing the grocer and the vegetable man and the butcher until one's cheeks burned with the silent imputation of parsimony that such close dealing implied. Three times Della counted it. One dollar and eighty- seven cents. And the next day would be Christmas. There was clearly nothing to do but flop down on the shabby little couch and howl. So Della did it. Which instigates the moral reflection that life is made up of sobs, sniffles, and smiles, with sniffles predominating. While the mistress of the home is gradually subsiding from the first stage to the second, take a look at the home. A furnished flat at $8 per week. It did not exactly beggar description, but it certainly had that word on the lookout for the mendicancy squad. In the vestibule below was a letter-box into which no le

Chris's Obituary
Christopher A. Hays Greensburg Christopher A. Hays, 18, of Greensburg, died Monday, April 7, 2008. He was born June 29, 1989, in Pittsburgh, a son of Mark A. Hays, of Greensburg, and Deann Winkler Hays, of Grapeville. He is also survived by two brothers, Collin M. and Michael D. Hays, of Greensburg; his grandparents, Dennis and Jayme Hays, of Greensburg, and Ralph and Darlene Winkler, of Irwin; two uncles, Dennis Hays Jr., of Greensburg, and Steve Winkler and wife, Sheri, of Irwin; an aunt, Darcy Winkler, of Irwin; and several cousins. He is also survived by his girlfriend, Jessie McFadden, and her mother, Deanna McFadden, of Grapeville. Family and friends will be received from 2 to 4 and 6 to 8 p.m. Thursday at the BARNHART FUNERAL HOME, 505 E. Pittsburgh St., Greensburg. Services will be held at 1 p.m. Friday in the funeral home. Interment will follow in Hillview Cemetery, Greensburg. In lieu of flowers, memorial donations payable to The Christopher Hays Memorial Fund may be se

Little Known Facts About Mississippi
Here are some little known facts about Mississippi. Some of them are actually true. Some are partially true. The rest I made up. Try guessing which is which. "Mississippi" is the only word in the english language of 11 letters that only has 4 letters really in it. 72% of the people living in Mississippi can't spell it properly. The first mobile home sold in America transpired on April 12, 1926, in Highwater Desert MS. On April 15, 1926, it was hit by a tornado. More potatoe chips are found under the sofa in MS, than any other state. They are usually found when on a sock-hunt. Scientists have spent a great deal of time trying to figure out how socks get under the sofa in the first place, which led to the Big Bang theory of the creation of the universe, a theory which holds that all came about by a black hole, which is what I usually find in my socks. Most of the tomatoes eaten in America in the 30's were grown in MS, and there is a town in the state called T

Life
Well here I was thinking life couldn't get any worse when yet again it threw me another curveball. However, having been so close to the reaper it made me re-evaluate things and realize that no matter what happens or what life throws at us. Ultimately it's down to us whether life is good or bad. It is what we make of it. I've always been a fighter and have never given upp on anyone or anything. So I almost bought the farm, so what. I'm still here and intend to be here for a very long time to come regardless of what the docs say. Mind over matter and strength of spirit will always win the day. So come on life, throw your curve balls my way. I guarantee I'll catch them and throw them back twice as hard. Life's for living so let's partyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!

The Blizzard Of 06
This has probably been left out of coverage on CNN, CNBC, and Fox News, as they are busy with stories that get good ratings like the latest developments concerning a teenager in Aruba that has not been seen in 6 months, but there is a very importatnt news item here in Mississippi... a blizzard in progress! At least 11 flakes were seen landing in my yard alone, where they no doubt tormented the horde of fiendish fire ants lurking between every single blade of grass in the yard. These flakes quickly melted as they always do, but it remains to be seen if melted snow will put out a fire ant. This intrepid reporter braved the elements until the first flake landed upon him, when he quickly retired to the safety of the kitchen window. The blizzard raged for a good seven minutes or so, and as luck would have it, I did not witness a 47-car pile-up on the street in front of the house...no doubt due to the fact that there was no pile-up to witness as all the womenfolk were busily cann

So Here We Are
im workin again and things are starting to look up for the first time since january. i am happy and content with my lady, we get along so well. yet i want more. a better job, more money, more hours at work, a fukkin ride, i wanna throw a party for Simone for no good reason other than i love her so. i want to take her out to eat for the first time, go to a movie, ride around and make love in the woods and go fishing and stare at the stars in her eyes all night long... my soul is restless because we have so little. yet we dont need much to survive i want to live... I WANT TO FUCKING LIVE!!! at one time i thought i was but i was wrong. i have never wanted anything so bad as i want to make you happy Simone. i cant be satisfied yet. i wont be satisfied until we have everything we want. im working and thinking and trying... not a day goes by that i dont think of something else i want to do for you. yet i cant do but very little with the little that we have. im so frustrated. i love y

Let Me Be!?!?!?!?!?!
I don't understand why life treats you the way it does. One minute you feel so great the next minute you feel used and unwanted. This past week has been nohing but a series of events that make me wonder am I doing something to deserve all this? At the begining of this week I felt so powerful and loved and wanted and by the end it was the total oppisite. I guess that's what I get for putting my trust in people without thinking twice. I guess this just makes me learn to evaluate more situations before jumping into them. I thank you for listening. Just needed to vent. That is all!!!!!!!!

Death Of Best Friends Daughter
it was friday night, a friend called me to tell me one of our best friends 5 yr old daughter was in the hospital. she was in a coma and needed a liver transplant. it hurt very badly to hear that. you see, i knew her since she was born. she was a beautiful little girl, big brown eyes long curly brown hair. then saturday came, 2:30 in the afternoon, i got the call, she had just passed away. the tears began, the hurt and pain inside worsened. why, why take a little girl who hasn't even lived life to the fullest. people said she's in a better place now, that may be true but it still doesn't replace the pain. ASHTON, will be remember forever!! she will always be in my heart and prayers.

I Hate This B*tch!!!!
No I don't! She has turned out to b a real friend! Which is exactly what I need right now! Please help me level her! is sooooo sweet! You will love her!! Come help her level up! She returns all love!

The Retro "about Me".
This was my original about mem style borrowed libereally from someone from back in the day when we were fighting. It's all still true today, maybe it can give you some insight..lol I'm fun to be around. Until you get sick of me or of I deem you useless. There is no excuse for bad sex. I am a man, and have no regard for them. I'm the only one who gets me for the most part, the few that do and can hang are elite. I'm 4 steps ahead of you already. I do everything for a reason. I believe that those are called "flyover" states for a reason. I adore and admire genuine people with good intentions. If you're a cheater and I can't cheat too, I get very angry. I cannot handle being ignored. It makes me fucking crazy. If you've read this far, you're on the right track. I don't cyber, phone bone or anything like that, it's not 1998. I judge everyone by their looks, but not how you think. I know what I am I don't need you to tell me.

Hold That Thought..........
Everyone dreads calling the power company, the phone company, and their internet or cable provider. Cause it's inevitable you'll have to hold before talking to some dink who you will go around in circles with while trying to explain your request. It's amazing, almost magical - right when you need to call, everyone else in the country tries to call them at the same time. Luckily they prepare you by saying "We are experiencing higher than normal call volumes". But really what is normal? It seems that number is actually 0. Therefore anything over 0 calls will fuck up their system....placing me on hold...fuckers.. Jim trying to remember the Chinese symbol for "Infinity" To show they care, companies give you endless confusing menus to fumble through. The phone menu was actually invented in 1981. It wasn't because the touchtone phone was introduced; it was because they realized how much Americans love pressing buttons after the Atari was invented. So they kick you through

~ I Close My Eyes ~
Sexy Comments & Profile Graphics ~ Every Night As I Close My Eyes ~ I stretch my mind across the space, That keeps us both apart. I try to kiss your lovely face With all the strength within my heart. And when, at last, I do succeed, I feel contentment deep. I bask in the triumph of my deed, Then gently fall asleep. I close my eyes with thoughts of you Tomorrow my passions to start anew. Peace.

I Couldn't Have Said It Better Myself. Right On!
After long and serious thought, I have decided to endorse Senator John McCain for President. I have always voted for the person and have not voted for anyone because some political party was telling me who I should vote for. We all know the choices by now and, that said, I do believe that the process of selecting a chief executive is deeply flawed. The words "money" and "special intersts" come to mind, among many others. Here's the way I see it: Barack Obama, you are a fine public speaker. You are also an extremely liberal Senator from the State of Illinois , which has a long and rich history of political corruption of the first magnitude. You are indeed a child of that system. You have finally insulted my intelligence far beyond my capacity to tolerate your insults. It has nothing at all to do with your skin color. As a matter of fact, it would be so COOL to finally have an African-American for President. What a great statement that would be to the entire world that we ar

Bad Things
Bad Things A bullet in your head is how I want it Your body on the floor -- a Kodak moment You're a waste of air and a waste of space I want sharp objects to fly into your face I hate you now more than I ever did I wanna kill you, dig you up and do it again I want a car to run over your head Put it in reverse and do it again I would be lying if I said that it wasn't true I only want bad things to happen to you It would be really great if you drowned in a lake Or put a bag over your face and watched you suffocate I'd celebrate at your wake, I'd bake myself a cake 'Cause you're my favorite person that I love to hate And you're the reason that murder should be legalized If it was, you'd be dead and in the ground by five Just in case I forgot to say -- I hate you motherfucker in the very worst way And I would be lying if I said that it wasn't true I only want bad things to happen to you.

Why Are U Here
I am here to find and cultivate friendships,not just to get points and play games.If I invite you to be a friend it is on a trial basis,one to see if ur interesting and another to see if you know how to be a friend,that means certain things like to come and visit and talk once in awhile.If ur neither then dont expect to be on my friends list very long ok. that goes for new and old friends some I haven't seen on for weeks, so in the next few days I will be doing some housekeeping as some call it,and try and find new friends,oh 1 thing else that pisses tyger off is to be told brb and u never do until the next day.added 4/16/08: I just learned last nite how friendships work on here,it is not really if you are a real friend ,it is when you was added that counts,so you can be an a++ and be no.5 on a list and I can be no.9 and trying to be a real friend coz I was added later then the a++.So all u people that are like that I hope you will be happy with ur a++es coz I am not sticking around s

My G-string
Hello everyone, my friends and I had a talk today about all my friends on Fubar. A few men on here want to own my G-String. LOL I don't know why but OK. Anyone that wants one of my G-Strings and a pic of me in it send me a message and I will let you know how to get one. Love you all XOXOXO Shirley Just say I want your G-String and I will get back with you.

Got Stuck
A Guy is driving his girlfriend home when she decides she wants to go to her friends instead. Her friend lives out of the way so she tells her boyfriend that she would get naked for him if he drove her. The guy says ok and the girl takes off all her clothes. The boyfriend is so busy looking at her that he stacks the car and gets stuck between the steering wheel and the seat. He tells her to go get help and she replied that she couldn’t because she didn’t have any clothes on. He replies, “Take my shoe and cover your snatch with it, and go for help!” She takes the shoe and runs to the closest gas station. She finds the clerk and says, "Help, my boyfriend is stuck! Can you help us?" The clerk replies, "I’m sorry, I think he's too far in."

My Aunt.
I am scared to death. My aunt was just diagnosed with cancer. The prognosis doesnt look good. And treatment doesnt look like much of an option. To top it all off, she just moved to Louisiana so my uncle could work because michigan sucks. She was the only person in my life to ever love me unconditionally with no strings attached exept my grandma and she died in 2002 of cancer. I am sick to death of "god" taking the truly innocent people from my life and leaving me with crap.

For You
i miss u daily and think of warm soft deep kisses in the nite -- ur hands touch me and im burning with delight as i lose my souls serenity in ur eyes ... ur smile a wicked reminder of memories in the making and of the times to come in which im lost all over again.... time and time again i search for the reason for the feelings i have for u - deep feelings of atonement for past mistakes and future pleasures. tears for the blessings i see in ur smile pour from my heart in ectasy. my children are my life but you have carved out a place so precious that i cant compare it to anything i have ever known but bliss in its purest form rises to my mind as i see in u, my other. your devotion and sweetness, unconditional and honourable, have led my heart down a path of understanding that abides in the light of day thru the darkest moments. i define this feeling as love but its undefinable in its truth and beauty. i offer no restrictions on my heart. i give to u unconditionally all tha

Trying To Let Go!
Trying to let go of what haunts me so Lost friend, torn soul and death Has taking away a part of me, Living to die with no instructions to follow Live with this and die with this And now all i see is my own breath, The Father said forgiveness comes Promised to be loved and never left alone But here i am cold Still to many unanswered prayers Nothing but darkness and a desperate soul, No bright light no forgiveness found Every time I try to sleep Flashes of the past and hate come about, Change is never easy because reoccouring thoughts Rules my very exsistance It's consumed me, now look where i am at Obscoured choices and another prayer i shout Still trying to let go of what haunts me so Heaven or hell I'll have no choice! Of all things i tried i did my very best Yet here i am without the art of forgiveness

Funny Names
So in the past 5-10 minutes, I've had a lot of people checking me out and rating me and some of these names made me laugh. I thought I would share. · Whos your daddy! rated your photo a '10'! · Chicks Hate Me rated your photo a '10'! · Dontcryemofag rated your photo a '10'! (The last one made me think of Pitbull LOL.)

Hasbro Launches Millenium Falcon Out Of Hyperspace
This is THE Millennium Falcon toy that never arrived when every 9-yo kid wanted it in 1977: the 2.5-foot Hasbro's Star Wars Legacy Collection Millennium Falcon, worthy of the most mind-blowing SW collections. It's probably the most realistic Falcon toy you can buy this side of an actual prop, with LEDs everywhere, sound, movable parts, and absolutely every detail imaginable except real engines. And when I say every detail, I mean every single detail, as you will see in the full hi-res gallery after the jump. The model includes these chambers: • Light-up cockpit with room for four figures. • Medical bay. • Secret smuggling compartments to hide from pesky Death Star crews. • Auto-opening boarding ramp. • Pivoting gunner station. • Crew quarters with light-up dejarik table. Weapons: • Rotating laser turret fires two missiles and makes weapons sounds. • 3-missile launcher with blasting sounds. • Cannon that launches a "laser" missile (whatever that is.) • Mis

Post Sex Regret
the title says it all doesn't it? i met this guy i'd been talking to and slept with him on the first night. my reasons being 1) i really liked him 2) i wanted to find out if he was the kind of guy who meets girls just to get laid and then leaves them... better to find out now than to put a month of work into a "relationship" only to find out sex is still all he wanted... some just work harder for it than others, and i made it easy. well, i found out what i wanted to know. there's still a part of me hoping i'm wrong and he'll come back and tell me he really liked me too. but i think the chances of that are slim. oh well... at least i didn't waste any more time.

Heart
You've given me a reason For smiling once again, You've filled my life with peaceful dreams and you've become my closest friend. You've shared your heartfelt secrets And your trust you've given me, You showed me how to feel again To laugh, and love, and see. If life should end tomorrow And from this world I should part, I shall be forever young For you have touched my heart

Thinking
Okay so I have been wondering how it is that people drift apart...is it like a all of a sudden thing or does it happen over time? Is it something you secretly want or is it something that just kinda sneaks up on you an you don't even notice till its to late? BC when I think about it I use to love him more then anything...so how could I go from loving someone so much to only wanting friends...the changes even show in his face...an his eyes...when I look close I can see it. He says he still loves me the same but its not in his eyes an your eyes don't lie. I don't think it will hit him till I am gone....I am the type of person where I am all for second chances but I gave him another chance an nothing has changed...NOTHING. It all started when I quit my job...the secrets the anger ....all of it...an now after telling him how his words an actions hurt...I have givin up...I tryed an thats all I can do...I cant be the only one who changes. I am not gonna lie I do cry when I think about us no

Plan On Meeting Someone Off The Internet?
~~NEVADA~~DOUCHEBAG FOR HIRE~~@ fubar Be sure to go by his profile and show him some hate... errr. I mean love. So. Lets make this short and sweet. The dude above. Left Nevada to go meet the loved Jlynn in Philadelphia. Pictured below. ♥JL¥ÑÑ♥2ND ALARM HOTTIE♥MGR@ FANTASIA♥INKS SISTA♥OWNED BY PHILEMON@ fubar To start this off. If you're going to meet someone who is so far away. How much money would you leave with? Would you leave with $300? or would you make sure that you had enough money to last you, untill you got a job? This dude left with $300. Managed to eat $100 worth of food. So in all. He shows up with only $200 in his pocket and expected to live off of Jlynn, Keep in mind. Jlynn has 2 kids. Well. 3 when he showed up. Now. We didn't see Jlynn online at all for the first 2 weeks. Which was fine. We all thought that they were having their fun. Turns out. day 2 into it. Jlynn was gonna come online and say hey and let every

Realism Unknown To The Public
Being in Iraq sucks for every soldier. We give up our jobs, families, kids, friends...everything. We come over here whether we want to or not. Some people thank us, some don't. Some people look down on us just because we follow our orders and do our job. I think the worst feeling is being betrayed by your own. Racism and favoritism run rampant in the military and so many people turn a blind eye to it. Good soldiers get left behind and finally quit the military because their career is so shot full of holes. I honestly wish there was a way to stop this. I came over here for my second tour with fire in my soul, ready to get the job done with a smile on my face and a hearty "Sir, yes sir!" It's sad to tell anyone who reads this that my attitude now is simply "I don't give a F*&#K anymore". I'm ready to give it up and concentrate on myself and whatever life I can build. I guess I've seen too much of the wrong thing and I know that ALL of the military isn't like this, but I'm not going to ri

Making Love
She exhales and I breathe in, Like sampling the bouquet of her, My finest wine. My hands trace over her skin and I feel the roughness there, Imperfect and scarred And she is gorgeous She breathes in and I exhale, My lips tracing down to her breasts, Kisses planted on each, An offering to a goddess I cup her breasts in the palm of my hands, She shifts, restless Breath hitching And she is wanting She sinks down and I lean in, My fingers trace over her hips, Lips finding her pelvic bone Softly defined lines that lead me down I grace her with my lips And she is there She arches and I move back, Teasing her with breath and tongue, She pleads and I give her all Touching, giving, loving She cries out and I smile loving the play of my name on her lips Relaxing she smiles and I move up to meet her I cup her face in my hands And she is mine And she is everything.

25k Fubucks For 1st Correct Answer W/ Proof!
I am offering 25k fubucks to the first person that can provide me with verified proof of the correct name of the band and song to this video.. I know that it is not listed correctly on Video CodeZone.. I know it is NOT (ICP)/ Insane Clown Posse... so are make sure you provide me with verification of your answer when you send your answer please! Music Video:ANOTHER LOVE SONG (by Insane Clown Posse)Music Video Code provided by Video Code Zone

Happy Birthday Pattie!!
It her birthday~Please show her... "Diva PATTIE" some serious birthday luv!!!! PÄŦŦÌÈ~'FRIEND OF SWEET MAN ~CLUB F.A.R.~Dylon'sDiva~RisingStars~@ fubar Please go and show DIVA Pattie sum mad birthday love. Happy birthday Pattie. LOVE your GODFAHTER Dylon, his Wisegal MsMaine and all you fellow DIVAS!!!!!!

Thanks
hi all i would like to thank all my friends and family that help me reach the 12k that i needed to win i could not done it with out ur guy u rock an i also would like 2 thank she's a proud fu-bomber for hosting the give away ty sweetie

This Is What Makes Us Whole
I love and honor her Because there is nothing she would not give, or do for me Because I will never have to demand. She will give unbidden. Without rancor or remorse. Without fear or trepidation. I love and honor her And I will give her my protection My strong arms, my lifes wisdom. I will give her the fullness of my heart. The breath from my soul. The touch of my empathetic hands. The passion that is body. And the song, that is our voice. I love and honor her, Because She is a women, Sometimes a little girl. One Who could stand on her own. But, who has chosen to belong to me. To something greater then us alone. Knowing we fill, Each others empty spaces. Knowing, That without love There is no honor Without honor, How could there be love? This is what makes us whole.

Feeling A Little Guilty
I'm feeling a little bad today, but I don't know who to blame. Last night, I saw some major fashion disasters and I couldn't help it, I laughed. One was an elderly woman wearing a micro-mini skirt, the other was a very heavy woman wearing a mini-skirt and a belly shirt. I just don't know who to blame for these fashion faux pas. Is it the person who bought the item, for thinking the could pull it off? Is it the salesperson, for not being brave enough to tell the customer that the item really didn't look good? Or, is it the friends and/or family of the person for letting them leave the house, knowing they were going to look ridiculous? Please, give me some feedback here so I know where to lay the blame.

For Muh ♥ 8-p
JWH you gave me a mission and this is the best I was able to get. Sorry, honey, but I'm not giving it up to find out who is whom. I love you dearly, but not that much... don't forget to start from the bottom. ->Epic Fail ...: well, you've already told me that. but, i'm not going to travel to TX and get some strange just for an answer. don't even know if it's worth my time. so i pass on incorrect info. it works. have a nice day. Epic Fail ...: I know who he is. Epic Fail ...: Were not. ->Epic Fail ...: then no, i'm not willing to pay the price. i will just forward incorrect info and say that you and "you fail" are one and the same. works for me. Epic Fail ...: Nop. ->Epic Fail ...: you want sex? are you coming to get it? Epic Fail ...: You know what i want,..Now are you willing to pay the price? Epic Fail ...: Lol ->Epic Fail ...: I can't help you get any though. you'd have to hit your local street corner for that. you are toooooooooooo far away. Epic Fail ...: You said hu

People Need To Listen??...lol
An Amish farmer, walking through his field, notices a man kneeling down And drinking from his farm pond. The Amish farmer shouts: "Trink das wasser nicht. Die kuhen haben dahin gesheissen." (Which means: "Don't drink the water, the cows have crapped in it.") The kneeling man shouts back: "I'm a Muslim, I don't understand you. I speak Arabic and English. If you can't speak in the sacred tongue of Islam, speak in English.." The Amish farmer says: "Use two hands, you'll get more."

Promotions In The National Guard
I was able to download what we call the EPS List (Enlisted Promotion System) about 30 minutes ago. It lists every soldier by rank and their eligibility for promotion, how many points they have, etc. I'm not on either promotable OR non-promotable list. Other soldiers in my unit are, especially the favorites. That basically means that my paperwork was purposely left out.... and people wonder why so many soldiers leave the military disgusted. I'm definitely getting out when my contract expires. It is really bad when you get screwed out of your promotion because some jackass wants his buddy to get the promotion instead. So much for all the hard work I put in on this deployment...

Start Bidding Please :d
The sexy man above needs bailing out and owning, i would but im away when it ends so someone else will have to own him while im gone..lol It ends the 22nd April So click on the pic n START BIDDING!!!!

What Is Love?
What is love? What is lust? What is in love? What is the difference? We're all pretty certain we know the answers to this, but do we really? At all times and in every circumstance of our lives? We feel that chemistry, that rush, is it the stirrings of love? Do we wait till we know the certainty of a particular relationship before we can truly define it? Why do some things and some people capture our attention and our hearts while others do not? Is it brought on by a sense of safety or a sense of danger? Is it the same for all people? This I am fairly certain, it is not. We can look at some people and see the obvious attraction and yet they may or may not captivate us. Celebraties are the best examples of this. Some, no matter the physical beauty, bore us, while others feel compelled to that. Others charm us and we are drawn to their personality or spirit. Sometimes if we can somehow see ourselves in them we are drawn to that. It can be that it's something we have in common, s

Talk About A Dumb Ass
Talk about a dumb ass ! And this is what he said.from: Clitteral Conno... (Online) United Kingdom subject: well... it must be said received: 04/15/2008 11:53 am replied: 04/15/2008 11:58 am block this member Flag as spam that for a 45 year old bird, you are bloody amazing! i'm not sure how to take such a sweet talker! really seriously guys thats not the way to sweet talk a women. no i'm not and old bird or bat or anything else some idiots come up with . yes i know this sounds bitchy and i don't care. for some of you on here think before you speak and maybe you will get layed more often . you thank

Googlacious
Remember when we used to post jokes, news and interesting things in the bulletins, instead of posting the latest auction or pimp out. Well, I'd like to try and bring some of that back, so here's one for you to enjoy Great Googly Moogly Type in the following and choose the first choice (that makes sense) that appears on the list. ( don't make it up) 1. Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search: "Ruby Needs A Sweet Talker." Woo Hoo!!!! 2. Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search: "Ruby only looks like Perl to those who haven't programmed" huh??? 3. Type in "[your name] likes" in Google search: "Ruby likes to play mind games." I do not either!!!! ...... or do I? hmmmmmmmm 4. Type in "[your name] says" in Google search: "— "he was well aware the kids were drinking," Ruby says — " Oh my!!!! 5. Type in "[your name] has" in Google search: "Ruby has observed Wiki spammers reaching his sites th

Rate! Rate! The Pimpout!!
Our three lowest level people really need to level out so please bomb rate their pictures! They are: "D" Dena Daisy Debi Cookie Let's show them what this room can do for its members!!!! THE PIMPOUT IS NOW OVER. PLEASE CHECK THE NEW BLOG FOR FUTURE GODMOTHERS.

Would You?
Would you take the chance at losing your marriage over a fling? If your Marriage was important enough to keep would'nt you have thought about the consequences first? What is your opinion on cheating? Would you say your spouse cheated if it were just a kiss or would it take much more for it to be labled as an affair? Post your comment's would love to hear what other's think.

A Successful Time
it has been a very successful time, my slavegirls are serving well and their training is going on. it is a pleasure to own them and they show me every day that they are an enrichment for me. i am also in contact with a potential 4th slavegirl to complete my family. we will see if she is able to serve as good as my other girls. also Slavegirl M is doing well as you all can see :) well shaved and well usable! and here you can take a closer look at the potential new slavegirl: she knows her place and she is also a well usable subject

My Thoughts
HE SAYS IM THE BEST HE HAD LOVES ME LIKE NO OTHER TAKES ME TO EROTIC PLACES RUNS HIS FINGERS OVER MY CURVES LOVES MY FULL BODY MILKY SKIN LAYS BY MY SIDE PUTS HIS FACE IN MY NECK BREATHS IN MY SCENT CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF ME CAN ONLY LOVE MAKE 2 PEOPLE FEEL THIS WAY? IM SURE OF IT HOLD HIM CLOSE HEAD ON MY BREASTS FEEL MY EVERY BREATH HEARS THE BEAT OF MY HEART IS IN SYNC WITH HIS THE PLEASURE OF TWO BECOMING ONE

Why Women Are So Crabby
We started to 'bud' in our blouses at 9 or 10 years old only to find that anything that came in contact with those tender, blooming buds hurt so bad it brought us to tears. So came the ridiculously uncomfortable training bra contraption that the boys in school would snap until we had calluses on our backs. Next, we get our periods in our early to mid-teens (or sooner). Along with those budding boobs, we bloated, we cramped, we got the hormone crankies, had to wear little mattresses between our legs or insert tubular, packed cotton rods in places we didn't even know we had. Our next little rite of passage was having sex for the first time which was about as much fun as having a ramrod push your uterus through your nostrils (IF he did it right and didn't end up with his little cart before his horse), leaving us to wonder what all the fuss was about. Then it was off to Motherhood where we learned to live on dry crackers and water for a few months so we didn't spend the entire

Grandmother
A smile? A gentle one at that There are days where I wonder if I could ever smile again So much loss So much gained So this smile . . . A true one since a year My grandmother's passing A loss A gain A beautiful memory of what family is So I stand in this garden of flowers Smiling as I can hear my grandmother tell me each name of the flowers She is at peace Working in her garden A smile gently caresses her face A year it may be since her passing Yet I smile at every flower For I hear her telling me of each beautiful flower I lay this rose on the bench, Grandma So loved cause of you Thank you for the smile Thank you for being my flowers Every flower holds your beauty, intelligence, and those smiles I miss My rose says it all I love and miss you I picture you smiling as you pick up the rose Placing in the vase bearing out family name Every flower from those of us who treasure what you taught us, most of all,how much we loved you

10
People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did but they will never forget how you made them feel. (This is especially for my closest fawkers, MOP, ReapeR, Nodzilla, Punisher2 and yes, you, Soupcon.)

Live From Silver City......
A lot has happened in the last few weeks. Got an amazing job offer, one I could not refuse. Had to move 1500 miles west to New Mexico, got in on 4/15. Will be out here alone for a bit. Baching it for a while..family can't follow right now and hopefully they will be here in July. They say a change of scenery is good for the mind and soul...I am hoping that all of this is a sign that things are starting to get better...

For Those Of You That Made The Cut
I have gone through my friends list and made some major decisions as of late. The only people that are now on my friends list, besides the ones that i've added within the last week, are all people that I talk to or who take 5 minutes from their day to send a comment or message. As my profile states, I have a man who I love deeply and i'm just looking for a few good friends. Ones who are like I am and if you are having a bad day will talk to you and take the time to listen. In saying that I would like to take the time to thank all of you that are left on my friends and family list. For you to be on this list now means that you mean a great deal to me. There are a few people that hold a very special place in my heart and I don't think that I have to list names because if you are one of these people then you will already know as I am not one to hide my feelings for someone if they mean a lot to me. The way I look at it is this...people may come and go out of your life but it is y

Lonely
Have you ever been so lonely that you would beg someone to hold you? I want someone to bring me daisies just because they thought of me.I want someone to open car doors for me. I want someone to come home to me and kiss and hug me and say that they are so glad to be home.I want walks on the beach or in a forest so no one hears your thoughts. I want to be touched in the car or hold hands with me like your proud to be with me. Maybe I want alot of things or maybe I am a romantic at heart. I sit on the deck and watch the airplanes take off and wonder where they headed and sometimes wish I was on that plane. I want someone to be my everything and their everything, hopeful wishing I guess. I have made alot of sacrifices lately and maybe I am second guessing myself. I am feeling sorry for myself,with no one to talk to but walls. I want to be married to my best friend, someone that completes me.Is there really someone out there that is really your soul mate?

Why?
Why do you always want what you know isn't healthy? Why does the heart ache for the one thing it shouldn't have? Why does the brain turn off common sense the one time you truly need it? Why does the soul not know when it's time to move on? Why does it acceptable to be abused by the one person in your life who should be cherishing you? Why when you say it's over does it always seem to be beginning? Why when the phone rings and you know that the last thing you should be doing is answering it do you run to grab it? Why when your emotions say no does your heart scream yes? Why does the word comfortable also mean forgiveable? Why is moving on so hard? Why line up to have your heart smashed? Why doesn't hope ever die? Why hold on to something that was never there?

Thots(to Him)
Every day i find myself thinking about you, i know excatly what it is. I love your smile, and i love the way you treat me. You are more charming then anyone i have ever met. you listen to me, and we can talk about anything. a good friend you are too me indeed. But our feelings are so much more, i just wish there was sumthing we both could do about that. :( all i know is that the last thing i want to do is get in the middle of your realationship with your gf. I just wanted you to know that you linger on my mind all day. Wishing you were mine as each day goes by and each night falls. I miss you when we dont talk, just the very thought of you makes me happier then i have ever felt in such along time, and when we talk...i feel alive again. Like i told you, love is the most important thing to have, without love you are just another lost soul. Please listen to me very carefully, you have become the best person in my life by far...you are there for me, i know now that im nologer alone. I che

It’s Been A Hard Days Night....
After a long, hard day helping others and completely enjoying the fact that I am such a kindhearted, wonderful individual, I took it upon myself to finally take a shower. Yes, I had so neglected my own needs that I hadn't managed to bathe my soiled body until the rippened hour of 8:00 p.m. This, after having been up and about since 7:00 a.m., minus the fifteen minute nap I fell into while watching an episode of Sponge Bob Square Pants. It was the chocolate bar episode, which I've seen at least a dozen times...."CHOCOLATE!!!!" (you so won't get that if you've never seen the episode, so sorry...for you!) I say only fifteen minutes because that's about how long it took me to start snoring and abruptly wake myself up from that obnoxious sound...then just as quickly, I jumped up from the couch and hurried on as if afraid someone saw me sleeping on the job! It's cleansing time, so I walk into the bathroom, hit the lightswitch, as I normally do, although, this time my fingers s

Eye Of The Storm
Eye of the Storm I see you standing there like the eye of a hurricane, As the world around me keep spinning insane, You are the quiet calm through out it all, Sheltering me behind your wall. You are my beacon on these stormy nights, Guiding me to you with your light, Wrapping me up there in your arms, Keeping me there, now safe and warm. And as you hold me I can start to see, All the things that this life could be, Not always one full of stormy nights, But filled with rainbows there in the morning light. And when I look into your eyes so bright, Seeing how they sparkle like the stars at night, My soul is filled with the beauty of you, Your sigh, your touch, everything that you do. And though the gales around me still blow, Here in your presence there is a peace I know, And so my sweet darling, let me tell you plain, You are the eye in my hurricane. DQA

Catholic Gasoline
Sister Mary Ann, who worked for a home health agency, was out making her rounds visiting homebound patients when she ran out of gas. As luck would have it, an Exxon gasoline station was just a block away. She walked to the station to borrow a gas can and buy some gas. The attendant told her that the only gas can he owned had been loaned out, but she could wait until it was returned. Since Sister Mary Ann was on the way to see a patient, she decided not to wait and walked back to her car. She looked for something in her car that she could fill with gas and spotted the bedpan she was taking to the patient. Always resourceful, Sister Mary Ann carried the bedpan to the station, filled it with gasoline, and carried the full Bedpan back to her car. As she was pouring the gas into her tank, two Baptists watched from across the street. One of them turned to the other and said, "If it starts, I'm turning Catholic."

I Am Up For Auction!!!!
Please go bid on me! I am up for auction! I am offering! 1 Month of your name in my name! ex. (Moondancer is owned by (YOUR NAME HERE)) Rate all pics and stash in a months time daily comments and gifts 1 sfw salute keep shitfaced a sexy salute added to family a sfw video http://www.fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=1710715&albumid=957754&i=2823589140&idx=7 BID BID BID!!!!

Ani Difranco's "grey"
sky is grey the sand is grey and the ocean is grey and i feel right at home in this stunning monochrome alone in my way i smoke and i drink and everytime i blink i have a tiny dream but as bad as i am i'm proud of the fact that i'm worse than i seem what kind of paradise am i looking for i've got everything i want still i want more maybe some tiny shiny thing will wash up on the shore you walk through my walls like a ghost on tv you penetrate me and my little pink heart is on it's little brown raft floating out to sea and what can i say but i'm wired this way and you're wired to me and what can ido but wallow in you unintentionally what kind of paradise am i looking for i've got everything i want still i want more maybe some tiny shiny key will wash up on the shore regretfully i guess i've got three simple things to say why me why this now why this way with overtones ringing undertows pulling away under a sky t

Thank You For Heartistic Soul For Helping Her Disciple
I wanted to post a bully to say THANK YOU to all of those that helped me level up to Disciple. It was a long road from Godfather to Disciple, but the last mile or so went by quickly from all the help :) A special THANK YOU to all of the Shadow Levelers that slammed me with FuLove! You all ROCK! I've made a few tags to share, and will be sending more to BooBoo as I make others. For those on my list that aren't members of the Shadow Levelers, please consider becoming one! It's a great family, and they really show up to help :) I appreciate everyone, and I'm still trying to answer the gifts and notes that were sent. It was a blast! Cheers! -HS (repost of original by 'Heartistic Soul' on '2008-04-15 23:57:10')

Scholomance
The Scholomance was a legendary school of black magic said to have been run by the Devil. It was supposedly located near an unnamed lake in the mountains south of the city of Hermannstadt (called Sibiu in Romanian) in the Transylvania region of Romania. In folklore Emily Gerard, a Scottish author married to a Hungarian cavalryman stationed in Romania, gave a detailed description in her article "Transylvanian Superstitions" on page 136 of The Nineteenth Century: As I am on the subject of thunderstorms, I may as well here mention the Scholomance, or school supposed to exist somewhere in the heart of the mountains, and where all the secrets of nature, the language of animals, and all imaginable magic spells and charms are taught by the devil in person. Only ten scholars are admitted at a time, and when the course of learning has expired and nine of them are released to return to their homes, the tenth scholar is detained by the devil as payment, and mounted upon an Ismeju (dr

I Heard The Music (my Sweet Man * My Darlin)
April 15, 2008 @ 10:57 pm I hear the music - so much more than many think a depth greater than unending skies as close as a rainbow passes through falling stars speaking to hearts and souls in gentle symmetry drawing and being led to the where's of dreams and the dream's shared lives. I heard the music and its echo still sounds so softly inside all my days and all my ends so quietly cry from the beauty I touched so briefly. I don't dream of flying for I fly every day with each taken breath I reach and touch all the stars and all the dreams that ever are and learn more than I knew each moment before. I make the music that tomorrows will hear and the echoes will sound along the paths being made and through it all I became who I am... the me that looks back from both sides of the soft glass that is time.

Erotica Vii "chance Encounter"
Have you ever wondered a chance encounter would do for you, and where it may take you in the future. Whether it is in real life or online, encounters can happen if you chose to remain steadfast in the honesty most people share for life, lust and life. This meeting of a chance may occur in our life and who is to say that it could'nt happen? I wanted to write my seventh installment of Tre's Thoughts of Erotica for Ms Jody Lyn, and I am hoping you all enjoy it.! If you are judgmental and are too uptight a person to read this "DONT!" I write tastefully and with an adult air about things sometimes, just know I love to write and there are many here that enjoy my writings for what they are, writings! The following story is of a woman who has noticed a man living in her neighborhood, whom she would like to get to know, but in a voyeuristic type way has been watching him until she developed to courage to say hello......... Taelaor giggled and lowered her eyes. "You know, I've seen

We Are Virginia Tech
It was one year ago today that my hometown was shaken to the core. As everyone was on their way to work or just arriving the news was unsure and tragic. All that was known is that there was shots on the Virginia Tech campus, no one knew the extent of the damage yet. Frantically, people attempted to contact loved ones who attended the popular school. Whether it be friends, family or loved ones. I woke up that morning and made it all the way to work before I even heard anything. The television was on in my restaurant and all of the customers were silent in horror at the possibility that lay ahead. While everyone was watching the television I was attempting to reach one of my best friends who was on campus that morning, and later I would find out in classes in the building next to Norris Hall. Once I reached her she was even more clueless than the public audience. Once she had heard the shots and the campus police had she was told to run and get out of there, so that is what she d

Dreaming
No words, no talk We will go dreaming No pain, no hurt We will go dreaming Walk with me the future's at hand Here with us, here where we stand We both know the power of pain We get back up and start it again With new hope no place for tears.. Leave behind those frozen years Come with me We don't know, how it can be Searching our, dignity Nothing can be as savage as earth One taste, is never enough With new hope, no place for tears Catch my hand and come with me Close your eyes and dream... No words, no talk We will go dreaming No pain, no hurt We will go dreaming

Online Friends
Wow, i've known my online sis, 'Kes' for over a decade now. We've spoken too many hours on the phone. In many ways we are like sisters, and at least online rather close. A little over a year ago we lost a dear online friend to spinal blifidia. I had known and dated him briefly offline. She was his psudo girlfriend online as the joke went. Through the years and through the tears we have talked often. Men, school, children (only one of us has kids), chocolate, and the weather. She's a californian, i'm a new englander. Today at roughly 11am she will be here in my town at my house for the day. I'm so looking forward to it that i did not sleep well last night. My 18 month old woke a total grump although she slept in my bed last night. I've put her back to bed in her playpen in hopes she wakes in a better mood. Thus i have 2 hours before my 'sis' bus arrives, and 30 minutes before she arrives with my mom, who's the transportation today. I'll post another blog and perhaps pictures about

Invisible In Your Eyes.
How is it that I remain invisible in your eyes? Ive lit a thousand candles, wished on every star in the sky. How can you take my love when your arms are filled with the past? Your burden is heavy, I know, but it doesn't have to last. Another place, another time Another day, another try Open your eyes, open your heart Live in the dream where we never part How is it that I remain invisible in your eyes? You locked your scarred and shattered heart, Into the ocean threw the key Now there's no one to hold you at night when you cry yourself to sleep. How fiercely blow the winds of change when two souls drift apart. Let the warmth of the sun kiss your face, heal your broken heart. Another day, another night Another tear, another fight A lonely path in the dark Another dream torn apart Another place, another time Search for me and you will find Once invisible, now invincible Distance erased with a single embrace How is it that I remain invisible in your eyes?

Proverb
TWO WOLVES One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, "My son, One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority and ego." "The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith." The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf wins?" The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed." THE BATTLE IS BETWEEN THE TWO WOLVES INSIDE OF US ALL.......

I Found A Song With My Name In The Lyrics :d
Smiles and her laughter, It's the only thing that I've been waiting for, a time. Regardless of our distance, and our hope, grows greater. Swept by pretty eyes and laughter for, a time. The only thing that I've been waiting for. I hope it's something worth the waiting, 'Cause it's the only time that I ever feel real. Thunderstorms could never stop me, 'Cause there's no one in the world like Emily. She's simple yet confusing, Her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words, they tremble. Days seem like years in this month of December. The winter, coldens me for I have yet to sleep. And never, will I give up trying 'cause you're everything to me. I hope it's something worth the waiting, It’s the only time that I ever feel real. Thunderstorms could never stop me, 'Cause there's no one in the world like Emily. There's no one in the world like Emily. first to last - Emily

For My Dear Friends .....
Friendships are different from all other relationships. Unlike acquaintanceship, friendship is based on love. Unlike lovers and married couples, it is free of jealousy. Unlike children and parents, it knows neither criticism nor resentment. Friendship has no status in law. Business partnerships are based on a contract. So is marriage. Parents are bound by the law. But friendships are freely entered into, freely given, freely exercised.

Pay Attention!!
read this..........'nuff said I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But you didn't see me put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But you didn't see me playing Santa at the local Mall. I saw you change your mind about going into the restaurant when you saw my bike parked out front. But you didn't see me attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you roll up your window and shake your head when I rode by. But you didn't see me riding behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you frown at me when I smiled at your children. But you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you stare at my long hair. But you didn't see me an

Remember My Name ......
"If you want to win friends, make it a point to remember them. If you remember my name, you pay me a subtle compliment; you indicate that I have made an impression on you. Remember my name and you add to my feeling of importance." Dale Carnegie

Soul Reflection
I draw these sounds on parchment and hope it would reflect, Your sacredness deep within me I cherish with honor and respect. Our two souls have united, entwined in love's single embrace, breathing in happiness and peace, playing in God's sacred space. You are the soil of the earth in which the seed of my soul grow, You are the mirror of my eyes in which your true reflection show. Inside you I have discovered the meaning of who I am, Through you I came to realize if I believe I could, I can. You poured the riches of your wisdom into me, a once empty shell, And made me forget sadness and regret and wave to it farewell. You are the anchor in the days I drift sad and lost away, My own special mold that God made from human clay. I hope these sounds I drew could even simply explain, that you are my rainbow I see through the endless rain. I know I am not a Poet,I could not even pretend, but I hope you know you are the essence who helped my soul to mend.

Naughty Application!
REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE TO ME WITH YOUR ANSWERS. DON'T BE AFRAID. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL REPLY OR WHAT ANSWERS THEY WILL GIVE. EVEN IF YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND OR HUSBAND OR WIFE - REPOST THIS! LET THE FUN BEGIN........ 1.Your Name: 2.Age: 3.Favorite position: 4.Do you think I'm cute? 5.Would you have sex with me?. 6.Lights on or off? 7.Would you have to be drunk? 8.Would you take a shower with me? 9.Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10.Would you leave after or stay the night? 11.Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12.Condom or skin? 13.Have sex on the first date? 14.Would you kiss me during sex? 15.Do you think I would be good in bed? 16.Would you use me as a booty call? 17.Can I use you as a booty call? 18.Can we take pictures of the act? 19.How long would we have sex? 20.Would you tell your friends about me? SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE SEND THIS BACK TO YOU! TITLE IT "Naughty Application

Oh No A Dream Team Member Is In The Auction Of A Lifetime T-shirt And Panti-- On! Check It Out
THIS IS MY FIRST AUCTION IN MY T-SHIRT AND WELL YOU GET THE PICTURE! STOP BY AND SHOW ME SOME BIDS TO MAKE ME SMILE..................................! HOSTED BY BIG POPPA BiG PoPpA OfFiCiAl OwNeR oF T hE hOt MoMmAs ClUb i DoNt ChAsE ThEmE IrEpLaCe ThEmE So GeT In WhErE Y@ fubar (repost of original by 'NYCE-N-SLOW~DYLON'S DIVA~THE DREAM TAEM ~' on '2008-04-15 22:57:47') (repost of original by '~SCOBBY-DOO IS MY NAME AND BOMBING ON FUBAR IS MY GAME~THE DREAM TEAM~' on '2008-04-16 09:38:27')

??
I just came to the realization that I am not living my life. I'm just existing. And that breaks my heart. It's also causing a lot of stress on other people. I dont care who reads this....i wanted to say it.... I'm beyond stuck in a rut

Our Love Is
nice day too Our Love is like a River~ Our love is like a river that runs forever deep unseeing around the bend knowing together we'll keep some days are so very blue basking in the beautiful hue while other days are grey reflecting the clouds that grew some days are lightly lazy like a slow moving stream other days seem choppy we both just want to scream our love is like a river long and running strong our love is like a river nature's living song

Tangle In The Vines
Tangled in vines of my own forest for I have not gardened my mind lately. I unsheathe my knife that cut not butter and tossed it away. For it is here in my jungle that I plan to stay. I reached for a berry as hunger grabbed me. But the thorns dug deeper with each reach. Till I settled, for a tooth widdlin' twig. The grass was a carpet of lazy let me stay, but I dare not nibble it for I know not what pee'd when it passed this way. I held Ivy and wish I hadn't for the he-be-gee-bees got me scratched my ass out of that vine headed to the house for some calamine. Unsure why, we pit ourselves against ourselves and settle for what we have, Finding our paths and wishing I had tried harder to get the berry.

Rant From The Lc Days
I have noticed as the community gets bigger that there are a growing number of the same types that made every other social site a drag and brought me to LostCherry.com in the firstplace. So I have created a special section link for some of you new "special" cherries. Please feel free to click the link below and enjoy this very special place if your any of the following: 1. A Hater 2. Someone that constantly whines about every little technical problem they have in a FREE community site 3. A drama queen (I use this term in a gender-neutral sense) 4. A snotnosed teen intending to use what was originally an adult community site to cause drama, rant about what a slut Missy is for kissing Buffy's boyfriend, moan about how horrible life is and how depressed you are, or generate countless dribble bulletins, polls, tests or other chain-mail type crap to be forwarded and re-forwarded in an endless loop that will eventually create a black hole and bring about the destruction of

A Simple Receipe
I went back to my apartment this afternoon for lunch, I turned on the tv, fixed lunch and packed my gym bag. As always my tv was some how was on the Food Channel. Guys Big Bites was on. He had this totally awesome receipe along with a strawberry Margarita. I would love to make it, the only problem I kind need some body to try it on. This so sucks. Oh well, who knows maybe one day.

Quistionare?!?! (repost As Ur Blog And Message Me Wat U Put Down In A Massage Not A Reply!!, Aslo Let Me Kno If U Reposted It Please!
Mark all that apply Would you kiss me? []Hell Yea [] Yes [] No [] Maybe [] already did Would you do me? [] In an instant! [] Yes [] No [] Maybe [] you look to sweet to fuck [] already did Am I attractive? [] Heck no [] hot as Hell [] Fine [] Cute [] Okay I think ur pretty [] Sexy [] Ugly! Do you think im a virgin? [] Yes [] No [] Don't know Name one thing you would like to do to me... 3 things you would like to know about me? 1.) 2.) 3.) If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me? [] Yes [] No [] maybe Would you rather.. [] Hook up with me [] Cuddle with me [] Date me [] Marry me [] Friends [] Do me What kind of underwear are you wearing right now? [] boxers [] whitie tighties [] thongs [] g-string [] granny panties [] boy shorts [] none What's ur favorite position? On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me.. [] 1 [] 2 [] 3 [] 4 [] 5 [] 6 [] 7 [] 8 [] 9 [] 10 What would you want me

Journey
Journey They say life is nothing more than a journey. Never knowing which our lives will go we still walk the paths we are given. And meet people along the way that will either make a good or bad impact in our lives. Never knowing if we will stray from our path, we continue to walk blind. Hoping maybe one day that we will be able to see where we are going. Hoping that the people we come in contact with will never forget us, but cherish and remember the love we gave while walking the same path. And knowing that one day that you will meet again when the path comes to an end.

Jealousy
Why is it when you meet a guy or girl they always say they are NOT the jealous type or dont like a the person they are with to be jealous....then after a little everything changes and they become jealous about everything and get mad that the person they are with (ok me) dont get jealous....WTF is wrong with that????? I hate stupid mind games but they do it all the time...and try to turn it around....hello???WTH????

Chicago-soaked Blues...
Last night (04-15-08) I had the priviledge of catching bluesman Michael Charles jamming live at The Elbo Room on Lincoln & Diversey in Chicago. Having been a young kid on the South Side way back, and then having been moved to the west burbs, I'd say I've gotten a unique appreciation for things with a "Chicago flavor" to them, for example the buildings in the city. I just love the older feel to them, the way they're built, the history that just emenates from them. And having lived for so long "just out of reach" of them, it's also a bit of a nostalgic feel as well. Such was the case last night at The Elbo Room. From the front, even if you know what to be looking for, you just might miss it, that's how small the front is. I got lucky and after driving a block past I found THE last empty parking spot WITHOUT a meter on it! Crossing the street, I opened the door and went inside, up the couple of stairs into the bar. At first I was thinking perhaps this was the wrong venue: certainly a

My Opinion, Take It As You Will
Every now and then you look at your life and wonder, "how the hell did I get here." You hate your job, yet you go to work everyday. You work long hours for the chance at a "better" life that you cant be a part of cause you work long hours. Everyone wants your 100%, all the time. Work, Family, Friends, all want 100%.When you cant give it because your tired, sick or maybe, just maybe, its just not a good day, you have failed them.Well for that I say, FUCK THAT. We are expected to be perfect all the time, but what is perfection? What you EXPECT me to be. Your not perfect, so why should I be. For example, Men. Now they will say, they love you for who you are. But dont do your hair, makeup, and wear the sweats and a baggy shirt the next time he wants to hang out with his friends and see if he still want to hold your hand. They expect perfection, cute, blonde, thin, young. Well guess what, I cant turn back time. So if you cant love me for who I am, Leave me the fuck alone. Ya, I could grow

Auction 4/15 Thru 4/29
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Armageddon
ARMAGEDDON This story was edited on the suggestion of my special lady (now the heroine of the story, as she always will be in my eyes) Under the orange sky, the last of earth’s angels were fighting a desperate battle in the ruins of a large city. Debris and dead animals lay underfoot everywhere, but were barely noticed by the defenders as their fight for life went desperately onwards. In the thick of the fight was an angel with large, black wings, and his beautiful companion, and fighting side by side the two were cutting down demons at every stroke. Ichor splattered in every direction, and dripped from the swords they fought with further soiling the spoiled pavement. If there had been anyone alive to see, they would have noticed hat beside the strain and exertion on their faces , every so often they glanced at each other and there was a look of love exchanged between them. Demon bodies were piling up around the angel’s feet as the well entrenched defenders took a heavy t

Devolution
"DEVOLUTION" Yo, it's a rap, yo. Check it out! pshhht. What scientists refer to as "natural selection" is just society's endless quest for perfection. We filter the images our eyes behold by standards that our weakened minds are told by the media. They're not the only ones feedin' ya. Listen to how we talk to one another. Derogatory, trynna be hard. Name-callin like 4th-graders scrappin' in the schoolyard. So much disrespect and comparin' this to that. You ain't no goddamn better just 'cause someone else is "fat". Exploiting our differences-- It's a shame how fast the words come from your lips, but when it comes to seein' how we're all the same, suddenly you can't say shit! Do we really want to be a bunch of clones? So that once we're all perfect we'll never be alone? Oh honey, that ass is saggin' You're showin' your age. Better jump on the wagon. Perfection's the rage! Look at plastic surgeons feedin' egos' urges to take some of the jelly

Update
hello everyone, well druen turns one in one week, hes 20 lbs 8 oz, and 28 and a 1/2 inches, and had his one year check up with the downs expert doctor, and hes well ahead of most downs babies in his motor skills she was so impressed at his progress, im so very proud of him he got his first tooth a week ago and his second is already coming in, he is still semi crawling more of a soldier crawl with one leg stretched out,, my little soldier hes playing peek a boo, and as you saw in his newest pics is in a jumper and is doing great with his leg strength, though we are still concerned over his back muscle tone as he isnt able to sit straight up yet by himself he had his over night sleep study last night and well it didnt go well, he was crying and fighting all the probes, sensors and the tube in his nose, its the most disheartening thing to see a child suffer so, and nothing you can do to tell him its for his best, so we are putting off the surgery til we reshedule and get the over

A Reason, A Season Or A Lifetime
Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you. Here goes: People come into your life for a REASON, a SEASON or a LIFETIME. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Guess What???
A very dear friend of mine, Cannibal, is so close to leveling, she needs just over 9k to insider...If anyone is in a giving mood, pls go hit her page and help her get there tonight...I ran out of rates so I can't help her till they reset...Thank you to anyone who helps her out...Hugsssss Cannibal@ fubar

Just A Note..........
Just to let everyone know~ (Or anyone who may care) Lol... That I will be leaving for Ft.Worth in the morning~ My son is having surgery on Friday, on his shoulder , elbow & wrist. I, always told him to stay away from those dirt bikes! But dear ole Mom~ didn't know anything back then!! Lol...It's not a very good get~a~ way, but it still time away from work! Lol..... His girlfriends, mom and me are going together, and taking a detour thru Brownwood, to eat at Underwoods! That was his request for his last meal, before surgery! Plus my favorite place of all time to eat~ so he didn't have to twist my arm to awful hard! And to let you also know~ the Ft. Worth fire department has accepted his application, all he has to do now is pass his physical in August, and he wil be recruited to a fire department come January! He had about given up for this year, with all of the other applicants and his surgery and all~ SO say a prayer that all goes well for the surgery ^ that he heals really fast! He

Single
I am final single and for good. I never dat Hot and Fuffy. I Feel sry sry for any guys that dats her again. She can never be faithful. She like to many guys and like to show off on cam and have phone sex. Then next time i date again. the lady going to have be single and not have bunch guy on the side and want me

Love
Why is love so difficult? Why is so hard for mr to open my heart and let love in? I have so many choices and it seems like I'm not happy with any of them. Every guy I'm intrested in has some kind of trait that i like but somewhere in him there are two traits to cancel out that one. There are so many guys out there all I'm looking for is one like me. Able to adjust to any situation fun and caring and faithful and killer sex someone I can trust to let have my heart. I've given my heart to the guys that break it and leave me to heal alone. But wanna come back mths later like they never hurt me. I'm starting to think there is no right guy out there and I'm tired of settling foe loser. Sometimes I love being single and who I am but there are other times I need to be held and told I am loved and beautiful. Why is love so difficult??

Haunted
Must I look forward to being haunted every day for the rest of my life by the good and bad memories of my love Gus? I ran into an old friend from high school recently who I discovered is also a widow. She asked me how long since I'd been widowed and my reply was "2 years, 2 months and 3 days." She looked taken aback and said "Oh wow, it's only been a little over a year for me...but I couldn't tell you to the day how long it's been." I can't possibly know what her life and love and marriage were like, but I know how much I lost when this universe took MY man from me, and I STILL want to punch a big jagged hole in it for taking him from my side, and from my arms and from my bed. There remains however two places from which I believe no powers of this universe or the next can ever wrest his memory from and that is my Heart and my Soul. He has always been a part of me, and he always will be. Even tho I haven't felt his flesh in two years two months and five days now, I STIL

Prostitution On Fubar
Here I was minding my own business when suddenly this man left me a message saying "Have u been 2 N.Y.C B4, u look like a stand up lay, but I just hope u bout ya breads u digg me??? I luv 2 ¢ U (In person)" My God I roll with the punches and I get my OWN BLING. With the 3 dollar fucking suit that he is sporting on his page I doubt he can afford me. He should be selling his ass. No one can because I'm priceless. I even had the audacity to have this run through my mind. "Is it because I'm Asian?" etc..so forth... You don't even ask a woman this kind of question. Do I look like I'm standing in some side of the street flaunting myself for all the world to fucking see? NO http://fubar.com/user/1691205

Bed Of Roses
April 16, 2008 @ 5:42 pm A BED OF ROSES...I arrive early at our hotel suite because I want to have things just perfect for our first meeting. I am nervous, but so very anxious to finally have a chance to enjoy all the wonderful things we've talked about in our letters and over the phone. Every possible scenario runs through my mind and I am getting so aroused it's hard to keep my mind on what I am doing. I am just finishing my preparations when I hear you enter the sitting room. The lights are off and you fumble for the light switch and wonder where I am.....Maybe I won't come. When the light comes on you first see a note propped up on the coffee table. It says "Follow the trail of rose petals" you smile, look down and see a trail of red rose petals that lead toward the bed room. You open the door to find the room transformed into a magical fantasy land. Dozens of candles are flickering around the room and the smell of exotic incense fills the room. But the thing that sent h

Yes I Did It Again
Well yesterday I was in a bit of a rush, had to pick up my daughter at 4 PM 20 miles away. So in the swirl right before leaving of putting on shoes and buttoning coats and making sure I have water bottles and cleats and 18 other things, I walk right out the door and close it. And then I realize I left my keys inside. DOH!!! So I stand there, its about 3:30, and I am confounded. What do I do now?? I stand there looking around, I look in my purse, I think, how am I gonna pick up my kid at 4, how am I gonna get in the house, UGGGHHH. Well, guess what? My very hot and sexy next door neighbor is right there, standing outside in his yard!!! So he sees me looking lost and confused, and says, what's going on? I say I just locked myself out again. He says "Didn't we discuss this before that it would be clever to give me a key?" I say yes but really I'm afraid if he has a key he will come inside and go through my underwear drawer. That's the God's honest truth. So we

Clean Up The Poo!
I bought a bird feeder. I hung it on my back porch and filled it with seed. What a beauty of a bird feeder it is, as I filled it lovingly with seed. Within a week we had hundreds of birds taking advantage of the continuous flow of free and easily accessible food. But then the birds started building nests in the boards of the patio, above the table, and next to the barbecue. Then came the poop. It was everywhere: on the patio tile, the chairs, the table everywhere! Then some of the birds turned mean. They would dive bomb me and try to peck me even though I had fed them out of my own pocket. And others birds were boisterous and loud. They sat on the feeder and squawked and screamed at all hours of the day and night and demanded that I fill it when it got low on food. After a while, I couldn't even sit on my own back porch anymore. So I took down the bird feeder and in three days the birds were gone. I cleaned up their mess and took down the

I Hate My Damn Life!!!
LAST JAN. I THOUGHT I HAD PULLED MUSCLE IN MY LEG AND I FOUND OUT. I HAD A BLOOD CLOT FROM MY ANKLE ALL WAY UP TO MY THIGH. WENT TO THE HOSPITAL THEY ASKED ME FROM 1 TO 10 HOW BAD DOES IT HURT I SAID 0 CAN'T FELL DAMN THING!! I HAD SURGREY ON MY RIGHT LEG THEY CLEAN UP AS MUCH AS THEY COULD. AND THEY PUT A FILTER IN MY CHEST KEEP THE BLOOD CLOTS FROM KILLING ME!! AM NOT ALLOWED GET TATTO BECAUSE I COULD BLEED TO DEATH SO TTHERE WENT MY B-DAY PREASENT I WANTED FOR NEXT TUESDAY!! WENT DOWN THE FUCK EN DRAIN JUST LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE I WANTED IN LIFE!!! WISH I COULD HAVE A NORMAL FUCKING LIFE LIKE EVERYONE ELES!!! SOME TIMES I WONDER IF WAS I REALLY MENT BE HERE, REASON WHY I SAY THAT BECAUSE IF IT CAN'T GO WRONG GETS WORSE FOR ME SO DAMN TIRED EVERYTHING GOING WRONG 4 ME!!!

Way Back When..
so i have a new photo album. Its from back in the pageant / modeling days. sad isnt it? i was going through pics at my moms & came across them i laughed hysterically so i thought i'd share the giggles! :)

Living A Resurrected Life
Living a Resurrected Life Every person goes through adversities or times of difficulty. Maybe you didn’t get a promotion you deserved, or you lost a loved one, a friend betrayed you. It’s easy to get negative and bitter and lose your enthusiasm for life, but understand today, you are not defined by your past, you are prepared by your past. Every challenge you’ve been through, every adversity you’ve faced, God has deposited something on the inside of you. Your character was being developed. Strength was being increased. Your vision was being enlarged. With every difficulty, you can experience a new level of God’s goodness! You may have had unfair things happen, but remember, all things work together for good when you love the Lord! It doesn’t say that all things are good, but God will turn your test into a testimony. No matter what challenge you may be facing now, no matter what you’ve experienced in your past, if you’ll stay in faith God will turn it around for your good! Choose to

Lina's Hospital Recovery
Just a quick note to bring everyone up to date. One day short of three months in Intensive Care, Lina was able to get well enough to be transported to a new hospital that specializes in long term rehabilitation. Here she will work on getting rid of her trach in her throat, speech therapy and getting her muscles to regrow. As of yesterday, her first day, she moved her neck a couple of times and her fingers on her right hand several times. She mouthed some words, but none of us could make them out. The new hospital is very nice and homey and less clinical looking, which will help her in the long run. She has a lovely window and a bed that actually faces a television (and vcr, she watched part of SINGING IN THE RAIN last night before falling asleep). She will be at this hospital for several weeks (I'm guessing about two months or more from what I could gather). She will then go to another facility for long term physical therapy where she will learn motor skills and finge

Learning To Love Yourself
Take full responsibility for your life. Stop blaming others. See yourself as the cause of what happens to you. Do things you like to do. Don't stay in a job you don't like. Participate in life at the highest level you can. Stop terrorising yourself with your thoughts. Be gentle and kind and patient with yourself. Give yourself the simple pleasures of life abundantly. Wear clothes you feel good in, get a massage etc. Watch what you say. Avoid self put-downs. Stop being critical of yourself and others. Take care of your body. Give it exercise and good food. Be willing to create a life-style that generates and nourishes self-esteem. Associate with others with high esteem. Acknowledge yourself frequently. Keep a diary of your successes and accomplishments. Avoid comparing yourself with others. Remember that it's who we are, not what we do, that's important. Give yourself permission to do nothing periodically. Schedule time by yourself. Frequently take

My Sisters Heart
Well my mom just called. My sister had a Heart Catheter done this morning. They did not have good news for us. Nothing is good about anything when ya have your heart tested I guess. She has 90% blockage in one artery. The doctor will be in to talk to us after he does his other operations. We already know they are going to have to do 1 bypass but not sure about how many more. We knew it wasnt looking good when we went to the hospital yesterday and she was in a critical care area of the Heart Wing. She is in the Spartenburg Regional Hospital. Scared, but we are there for and with her. Just Please prey for her. We are all scared but I know nowhere as scared as she is.. She is just 50 years old... Thanks for reading.. Love ya all, Mandy scsweetie & Durgeres Sam

Random Thoughts
I'v found it is often an error to attribute traits generaly to a gender. for example many men will say that females have no emotional control and(sometimes true sometimes false). as a general rule Big rule *** words mean nothing actions and deeds are the only measure of anyone,, all men use the exact same words Id say about 60 to 70 % of us are lieing, thats unfortunate for those few of us with personal ethics and honor/// my wolfs name was loki, he died last May after a full life of 16 years. I'll miss him forever>>> well thats my two cents worth, always keep in mind that reality is dictated by the observer and that observation changes reality. the strongest mind directs the course

Crazy World
SAN'A, Yemen (AP) -- A Yemeni judge dissolved the marriage of an 8-year-old girl to a man nearly four times her age, and the girl's lawyer said Wednesday that the court also ordered the youngster removed from the control of the father who forced her into the wedding. The lawyer, Shatha Ali Nasser, said the girl is just one of thousands of underaged girls who have been forced into marriages in this poor tribal country at the southern tip of the Arabian Peninsula. The girl's story has drawn headlines in Yemen because she took the unusual step of seeking out a judge on her own to file for divorce. She recounted her ordeal to reporters Wednesday, a day after the judge in San'a ended the two-month marriage. Judge Mohammed al-Qady said he had been moved by the girl's plight from the start. The girl said her father forced her to marry a 30-year-old man she identified as Faiz Ali Thamer. She charged that her husband constantly beat her and forced her to have sex. "I used to run

**important** I Donated, Won't You Help Too?
PLEASE DONATE AND REPOST FOR EMILYIMAX. HELP HER REACH HER GOAL! -- THE WALK IS MAY 18!!!! I am doing a walk for the National Kidney Foundation in Boston, MA on May 18. My mother had a kidney transplant in 2001 from her little brother. My father passed away while on dialysis from kidney disease in 1997. My uncle passed away from kidney disease due to childhood diabetes in 1984. Please help by donating to the National Kidney Foundation to help fight this disease that affects over 26 million Americans. If you are in the Boston area and want to do the walk, go to www.kidneywalk.org for information or contact me via Fubar. This particular walk is at the Franklin Park Zoo. You gain free admission to the zoo. Find out more about Chronic Kidney Disease go to www.kidney.org for information. Click the Picture to donate.. EmilyIMAX™ "THE IMAX EXPERIENCE~see more, hear more, feel more"@ fubar

Spring Is Here
A single bud breaks the ground A flower waiting to grow and bloom Buds fill the branches of the trees Leaves growing to decorate nature’s room A lone patch of snow lingers A river excepting it as it melts away The sun shines bright from high above This is truly a spring filled day A robin returns from a winter trip A nest it builds high in a tree Geese seen flying north overhead Truly signs of spring I now see Animals awaken from their winter naps New young they let now freely roam Two love birds sitting on a single branch Windows open fresh air fills my home Playgrounds filled with children’s laughter Roar of motorcycles fill the air A grandfather sits idly in the porch rocker A warm breeze gently moves his hair Baseball parks are filled with crowds Diamonds surrounded by fields of green Crowds cheering as the home team scores The end of the winter’s cold has been seen I know the seasons will again change Each on in passing will bring gifts to bear As each da

Hey ,excuse Me..
*losing my way* Hey excuse me Hi my name is Bob and I work at my job I make forty-some dollars a day I used to be the man in my hometown 'til I started to lose my way It all goes back to when I dropped out at school Having fun, I was living the life But now I got a problem with that little white rock See I can put down the pipe And... And it's breaking me down Watching the world spin round While my dreams fall down Is anybody out there? It is breaking me down No more friend around... And my dreams fall down... Is anybody out there? Can anybody out there hear me? 'Cause I can't seem to hear myself Can anybody out there see me? 'Cause I can't seem to see myself... There's gotta be a heaven somewhere Can you save me from this hell? Can anybody out there feel me? 'Cause I can't seem to feel myself Losing my way Keep losing my way... Keep losing my way... Can you help me find my way? Losing my way Keep losing my way Keep losing my way... Can y

When You're Gone
I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cry And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lye Is made up on your side When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it ok I miss you I've never felt this way before Everything that I do reminds me of you and the clothes you left, that lie on the floor And they smell just like you I love the things that you do When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you And When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too And When you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it ok

319pm 4/17/08 La Baby!
im here....back in LA.... only been 10 months... but im home...ill be here for a few weeks doing coachella and stagecoach.... kickin ass n takin names.... so yah.... im here fuk yah fukrs! ps. laughing at u and loved every second pissing u off :) ///////// pps. and i love my friends...and i miss u fukrs :)

I'll Stand By You
I'll Stand By You - The Pretenders Oh, why you look so sad? Tears are in your eyes Come on and come to me now Don't be ashamed to cry Let me see you through cause I've seen the dark side too When the night falls on you You don't know what to do Nothing you confess Could make me love you less I'll stand by you I'll stand by you Won't let nobody hurt you I'll stand by you So if youre mad, get mad Dont hold it all inside Come on and talk to me now Hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too Well I'm a lot like you When you're standing at the crossroads And don't know which path to choose Let me come along cause even if you're wrong I'll stand by you I'll stand by you Won't let nobody hurt you I'll stand by you Take me in, into your darkest hour And I'll never desert you I'll stand by you And when... When the night falls on you, baby You're feeling all alone You won't be on your own I'll stand by you I'll stand by you Won't let nobody hurt y

Will We Ever Learn?
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. Maybe the reason for it is because of Jimm. He is an extraordinary man. I love him so much it is unbelievable. Do we ever learn from our previous mistakes, or previous relationships? Do we ever learn to not play games with someone's mind or heart? And I know that we have all been victim to this at some point and time in our life. The result has it's pros and cons. The pro in our relationship is, that because of all of the bad relationships I've had, I can now see and appreciate him to be the wonderful man that he is. The cons are that I still at times feel insecure, even though he gives me absolutely no reason to feel that way. I still feel unworthy, and he definitely has never made me feel this way. I have fear of losing him, even though I know that he loves me unconditionally. So when will we ever learn to stop playing games, and just be ourselves. He has told me over and over that he can't believe that I love him for who he is

Just Stuff
DJ TIGRESS AKA AJ IS COMING FOR YOU LIVE IN CLUB VOODOO CLICK IMAGE TO ENTER DJ TIGRESS aka AJ .. IS ON AIR IN CLUB VOODOO>>> DONT LET HER FOOL YA... SHE AS SWEET AS A KITTEN!!!!!... JUST WATCH HER CLAWZ!!!!!!!!!

Fu-jail
Hera420 guilty of TUI (typing while intoxicated) under the influence of the controlled substance "marajuana" if I am bailed out I will do the following... Rate all pics and stash for 2 weeks with 10's Will send a 2 gifts a day for 3 weeks Will keep you shitfaced for 3 weeks Will send u 4 comments a day for 2 weeks http://www.fubar.com/viewimage.php?u=1586125&albumid=952295&i=2371855323&idx=7

Don't Judge
They say to never judge a book by it's cover. Have you ever looked at a person and thought "That person is perfect. They have everything they want. They are smart. Successful. Always so happy." Do you think that person really is all that? What happens when you find out that the person isn't that way? Do you think differently of them, tho they are doing all they have to do to make it? Without actually getting to know someone and communicate with that person, will you ever truly know what or who that person really is. Let me be the first to tell you that I am probably not who you think I am. I am a very good person and I try to maintain my happiness at all times, but I am not perfect. I don't have the career I want...I'm not even close to being where I want to be in life. I struggle everyday to "get back on my feet" after the ending of a marriage that I put my everything into and got nothing in return but a move back home to live with family, which will also be soon ending and probably

Awesome Day Today
Well I go into work today and got the famous pink slip. Yes...OMG...Crap. So now the great task of looking inside myself to see if i want to stay in the line of work i was in or follow a different dream. I have been in the Trucking world since 1999. Life has its moments but damm. My lease truck was in the shop for 6 days. So no revenue earned but you know the 380 @ week payment is due. I have the hotel bill i paid out of my own pocket...Grrrrrr. Oh well I am ready to make and sell lots of lemonaid.

4,000 Fubuck Give Away
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If I Could Dream
If I could dream I'd dream of you I'd dream of the things you say And the things you do I'd dream of your love I no longer feel That once again It was alive and real And that would wake me to another dreamless night another night to hurt me since we had that fight

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~ Every Woman Should Know...~
~ Every Women Should Know ~ ~A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ... enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to... ~A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ... something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour... ~A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE . a youth she's content to leave behind.... ~A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .. a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age.... ~A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ... a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra... ~A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .. one friend who always makes her laugh.. and one who lets her cry... ~A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ... a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family... ~A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .. eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honored... ~A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE . a feeli

Standing At The Brink....alone And In Pain
Standing at the brink Looking out across the vast emptiness Fighting and struggling with all my might Pulling back from the jerks being forced upon me Reaching out for the one I need more and more Finding nothing, my hands left empty The bitter cold overwhelms me Skin naked and exposed to the pain Thoughts and fears consume me Past inflictions invade my thoughts Feeling out of control Lost in the pain and loneliness One swift jerk pulls me to my toes Consumed now by the darkness Screaming at the top of my lungs Looking down the mouth of misery I fear my own fate Alone is not for me How do I stop this Where can I go Please won’t someone stop this The tears flow like a waterfall My pain eats me from the inside out One more pull and my footing is lost Free falling Face first Into the abyss that lies before me My cries are muffled and lost in the dark

~ Love Thru Innocent Eyes ~
~ Love Thru Innocent Eyes ~ This is good! Children are so innocent. Too bad we have to become adults and forget what is important! What Love means to a 4-8 year old .... Slow down for three minutes to read this. It is so worth it. Touching words from the mouth of babes. A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, 'What does love mean?' The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined See what you think: -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.' Rebecca- age 8 -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in

Decisions.. Pain..
I make decisions each day in every aspect of my life that impact not only my life, but the lives of others. My children, my loved ones, my family, my friends... and all that I am associated with. Sometimes, even if I feel I made the right decisions, they may not be right for all around. I very much dislike the decisions that hurt someone. Anyone. I feel rotten inside and out when I know someone is hurting based on a decision that I made. Recently, I made a decision in my life that I am reminded daily since of the pain caused by that decision. It hurts me deeply. I wish I could get rid of that pain. For my friend and for myself. The decision, was the right one for my family and I... but in the end, someone still got hurt. I can't, nor do I want to change the decision, but I wish I could get rid of the pain I caused. I know this is a part of life, but it doesn't mean I have to like it anyway. In fact, I despise it. I know that there will be many more decisions t

Don’t Be A Victim Of High Gas Prices!
Don’t be a victim of high gas prices! Did you know that traders of energy commodities like oil don’t have to report to the government like traders of other items such as wheat or corn? Loopholes in the law (created by those at Enron just before their financial scandal became public) allow wall street types to speculate as wildly as they wish on what is happening in the oil market without any real basis on supply and demand. You pay more at the pump thanks to this over speculation. Prices of groceries are skyrocketing and many can’t afford the gas to drive to work. The economy is on a downward spiral with Americans and fuel retailers paying the way for investment bankers and hedge funds to get richer. Take control of gas prices out of Wall Street and back in the hands of basic business sense where it belongs. Join your local convenience stores and petroleum distributors in supporting a law requiring energy traders to report to the government the same way all other traders

Yeah I Lie
Every one lies...and what's the difference in lying on the computer. You know what the difference is you can't see the other person smile while they lie. which makes it easier to lie to begin with. Take me for example...I lie on to cyber people only because I know your lying also, so I cover my tracks and back track in order to make myself sound better than what I really am. Ha who doesn't do that. But there is a difference in how people display they're lies. if it sounds too good to be true then it probably is, but if at one point you think this person is great just think to yourself..."greatness is in the eye of the on looker". False truth is human nature. Every Human lies, and only to benefit. So when you think I'm lying to you, think of this...I lie when I have something to gain, and if there is no gain then there is no reason for me to lie. So most of you out there might have gotten a lie or two from me but oh well. It's human nature.

Needs
Needs I am a woman With many needs I need to feel Wanted Loved Cherished And Respected I need to Be reassured That my World is As it should be TO know my place Is always And forever By your side The love you have For me Is true For all of Who I am I know who, and What I am And Yet I have Needs that Only you can Fill by samara 4-15-08

Yippy!
So I was driving to work this morning half asleep as usual listening to the new radio station. They have a promotion on right now that if they play a Kanye song and Rhianna song back to back you can call in to win tickets to their concert. Well Jesus walks just happens to come on so I had the dialled and ready to send. Yep they played Rhianna next so I call in and I was caller #5 but they were looking for caller #10. I called back and was the winner so this I have 2 free tickets to their concert this month...so glad because I didn't wanna pay no $90 a damn ticket haha TGIF everyone!!

Blame Me
I'm always gonna be one life behind That's why I'm all alone What's it gonna take to make you see That we are falling apart I wonder can we throw away the past So we can stop the screaming match I'm not gonna break down anymore I've found my way to the door I can see through both of us It's an issue over trust It's killing me it's killing me To watch you leave me I've tried to talk about what's really wrong I see that look of discontent The volume starts to rise and then it's on That's why I have to go Dealing with the pain is all that's left Because we can not get along You wanna put the blame on me again I think that we have reached the end I can see through both of us It's an issue over trust It's killing me it's killing me To watch you leave me I can see through both of us It's an issue over trust You keep blaming me blaming me for what you do to me. It's your turn to watch me leave you It's your turn to watch me leave you It's your

Soldiers(red Friday)
This is one of those good old e-mails that keep popping up. I just had to share it with you all again. Will you give this to my Daddy? As a Company, Southwest Airlines is going to support 'Red Fridays.' Last week I was in Atlanta , Georgia attending a conference. While I was in the airport, returning home, I heard several people behind me beginning to clap and cheer. I immediately turned around and witnessed one of the greatest acts of patriotism I have ever seen. Moving thru the terminal was a group of soldiers in their camos. As they began heading to their gate, everyone (well almost everyone)was abruptly to their feet with their hands waving and cheering. When I saw the soldiers, probably 30-40 of them, being applauded and cheered for, it hit me. I'm not alone. I'm not the only red-blooded American who still loves this country and supports our troops and their families. Of course I immediately stopped and began clapping for these young unsun

Poem
* * * I have the feeling now that not your hands but flowers touch me. What a peal of spring dawns when you are beside me! The spirit dons the gentleness of meadows, the body makes no effort to resist it. And wholly pure are water, bread and fire. Let us speak softly or lapse into silence and just with glances grow an upright tree with rustling leaves of tender love and truth. The birds fly home, and I now also fly across the azure of your loving eyes repeating vaguely only these few words: The gods we sought to please let us forget. The offerings we made let us remember. Translated by Lionginas Pažūsis Written by Justinas Marcinkevicius, LT poet

Help With The Spotlight! ( Done)
Do you want see me in the spotlight? Here is your chance I'm getting close but need some help from you to get there! I am not begging here, I am offering to help you out, what do you need? Pic rates, stash rates help to level, or are you in a contest, I will do these things to help you out. I am also offering salutes so take your pick. Let me know what you need help with? 25,000 I will rate 100 stash 30,000 I will rate 100 pics 40,000 I will rate 200 stash 50,000 I will rate 200 pics 75,000 gets you all 100 11's for the day. 100,000 I will sent you a salute, and a sexy one! The higher the amount the more I will do for you so let me know what you need help with! Click the pic below to sent your fu-bucks. Thanks again my friends! ¢¾OzzyFreak The Goth EMT¢¾@ fubar

Les Oeilles Verdes
feels like moving through a dream lost deep in thought in emerald pools imagining a future not so far off daydreaming happily of smiling at you laughing into the wind,staring at the clouds above describing where weve been,tales of loss and love hand and hand we cease to be two,but one united intertwined souls cant be divided standing in sunshine and outshining it by far is your beautiful green eyes ,my beautiful star it will be a delight to see what the future has in store for us two and theres no one id rather discover it with than you

Lust And Love
Cummmmmm For Me Sweet Lady Cummmm lay down beside me sweet lady ....sweet girl. However you call yourself is music to me. The girl in the woman is evident to me ...and I love her dearly. The woman in you is my strength. She is wise ,she will help me. Now whisper in my ear your desires and sing music to my Soul. Stroke and touch me in all the places that kept you warm and fulfilled in your fantasies. Cummm to me as a feeling that knows no time or space. Fill me with desire when I am weak from a terrible reality. Lick and taste me ....feel pleasure rise from skin tougher than leather. But most of all taste my heart and take the pain of my existence away. Connect your desire for me with my love of pleasuring you. Stroke the point of my desire ....it is where the heart beats to ultimately.....it is where new life will cummmm from. Taste the finest nectar I can offer without shame or guilt .....i know love and I have connected it with what I do and create. As I offer you my s

4/18/08... La/ Tickets/ And Psyc'hos
so yah. im in LA at the cyber cafe doin my online ticket sales b4 i get to coachella.. and goin bout my day. and of course.... u know who keeps chekn out my page. so..... i blocked her. atleast now she might get the point that i dont care about her at all. shes a slam pig. and as far as im concerened.... not to bright either. ppl told me to get rid of her for months. and i didnt listen to them. i really thought she was cool but of course....they were right. so here i am....in LA doin my shizzle. and tryin to do the best i can with what i got. i gotta killer pad offa hollywood n western... im happy. and wrkn my ass off... so ima get back 2 werk... and ill b online for a bit....so send me a shout/msg...blah :) ttyl muah ;) (feel free to copy n paste) lmao.

Surprised?
not really--and that is a shame. When someone/anyone can finally say with absolute certainty that they are no longer surprised by the result (which is obviously the inevitable one) when it comes to certain situations. What is even worse is when the person finally just says "what the fuck is the point?" and throws their arms up--waves the white flag--says fuck all; which ever statement you feel fits best. Normally I am known for my long winded rants filled with anger and rage and all sorts of wonderful delicious tidbits of juicy ill-temperament. But, like so many before me--I too have finally come to the point where I can officially say "WHAT THE FUCK IS THE POINT?" (for those of you reading this who actually care to know what exactly I'm giving up on...you can either make some sort of educated guess based on my other blogs...or you can just ask...but I will drop a clue--it does NOT have to do with the 50% of the worlds population who are sporting muscles below the waist that are ca

Please Pray For Him
just got a call from back home in ny and found out my 5 year old nephew has a broken neck and is in a halo please keep him in your prayers he needs all he can get right now...not very happy with my ex sister in law found out that she waited 3 days before taking him to the hospital with a neck injury wanting to kill her right about now good thing she is in ny lol

How
How can a woman say that she loves her kids, then totally disappoint them all the time? My ex is supposed to have the kids this weekend. But, because she had a bad day or something, hell I don't know, she isn't going to take them. She does this all the time. I can not figure out why. My kids have called her several times and left her messages telling her that they want to see her this weekend but she just ignores the calls. Wow, I just got a call from her and she says that she is having a bad day and doesn't want the kids today. How screwed up is that? If she thinks I am turning them over to her tomorrow she can kiss my ass. I am not working my schedule around "when it is convenient for her to have the kids." I am so sorry that I had to write this. I really just had to vent. Thank you if you actually read all of this. Talk to you soon. Lovingdad1

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Without You *to You*
Without you Sometimes the hardest thing to do Letting go of someone that doesn’t want you How am I suppose to stop loving you when you were the one that showed me how to love. When you were the one that made me believe That maybe love existed for me. When all I ever wanted was for you to see That this girl screamed to love you. To love the you that no one saw The person that came out when we talked The man that wrote so sweet the words that captured my heart and soul Don’t you see the woman that is here, in front of you, giving you all of me My heart and soul no longer see That without you I can be. They want only to love you They want only to belong Belong to you and no one else Why cant you seem to see? Things changed from night and day and now I feel that i am to blame For believing in love once again still I am left with no heart and soul as they refuse to return without your love. 3:59 PM 4/18/2008 Alicia Reyes

Sisters Ongoing Battle
Well today at 12 noon, the doctors came in and told everyone that my sister could not have her bypass surgery today. They had already taken x-rays of her arteries in her neck. And , the one on the left side of her neck is 80% closed. So today they had to go in and operate on her neck. Open the artery up and clean it out. Close her back up and prey they got all the blockage. They had to do this operation first to allow a better passage for blood to flow to her brain for the bypass. They took her back at 1pm and we didnt see her until 730pm.. Such a long day. Doctor said she did really good during it all. If she stays stable, her bypass will be Monday. If she gets worse over the weekend, they will do an emergency bypass. So far, the doctors say 3 arteries, but maybe all 5 once they get in there. She looked good when she came out of surgery. Good color, nodded her head when we spoke to her. But, of course still drugged really heavily. Under the circumstances she looked good,

New Update
Yea, Yea, I know havent been on much except for this past week but just been worn out and pretty tired. But have some good news! Okay just a bit of a update went to the doc's the other day and what is going on is that my due date has jumped forward a whole month now due April 28th instead of May 28th. So far everything is going great and just waiting on my little angel to get here. As I was told she is in position and ready...timing is up to her now. Will keep all posted as soon as I know more or when the time is that she comes :) So you all will get to see me a bit more now too till the arrival....cause Im no longer working full time till my maternity leave they have me on 3 days a week so when I have the time or feel up to it I will be here and there. So just leave a message and I will get back to you! HUGS AND KISSES!

Woohoo Great News...
Our very own Drew, is under 180k to Godmothering...Lets all help her out and make this happen for her in the next day, I know it can be done...If she's not already your friend, check out her page fan rate and add her while you're there...She's got a lot of stash pics and other pics that need rated...I know one day you'll be in the same boat getting close to leveling, she's the type of person to help out... Click her purdy pic and go straight to her page...Thanks in advance...Tina •DREW• Owned By Violets & TyWebb@ fubar

Women...they're So Needy!!!
I've recently befriended a girl ( I say "girl" because she's like 10 years younger than me!)who I've know for a year or so just as an aquaintence. Her desperate need for childcare and realizing she only lived around the corner from me brought the two of us together as friends on a weekly basis now for the past three months. It's been a bumpy ride for me. Mostly because since moving back here almost three years ago, I had yet to make any real friends and since I find most women annoying none of my friends are female. I have two, count 'em, two female friends in the short list of people I value so much as to call them "friend". It's almost as if I'd like to keep it that way. To put it one way, I'm missing my alone time. Call me a Loner or I think I might just be socially inept. Is it "normal" for a friend to stay at your house for six hours in one night? OMG...short of saying "please leave" I didn't know what to do... I almost feel like she uses me as an excuse not to

Fifty Questions
50 ODD Things about you! If you opened this, FILL IT OUT! Learn 50 things about your friends, and let them learn 50 things about you! 1. Do you like blue cheese? In some things 2. Have you ever smoked heroin? no 3. Do you own a gun? yes 4. What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic? are no sonics near me 5. Do you get nervous before Dr. appts? yes 6. What do you think of hot dogs? i like them, they seem to like me 7. Favorite Christmas song? happy christmas by john lennon 8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? cola or coffee 9. Can you do push ups? use to as i was lifting weights but no more 10. What do you order at starbucks? I don't 11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? the lifestyle emblem i never remove from my neck except to shower given to me by a precious girl in the UK when she came to visit years ago. 12. Favorite hobby? xbox 360 and the net 13. How do you eat your eggs? hard fried, no runny yokes 14. D

Chuck Norris, Master Of The Universe
If you have five dollars and Chuck Norris has five dollars, Chuck Norris has more money than you. There is no 'ctrl' button on Chuck Norris's computer. Chuck Norris is always in control. Apple pays Chuck Norris 99 cents every time he listens to a song. Chuck Norris can sneeze with his eyes open. Chuck Norris can eat just one Lay's potato chip. Chuck Norris is suing Myspace for taking the name of what he calls everything around you. Chuck Norris destroyed the periodic table, because he only recognizes the element of surprise. Chuck Norris can kill two stones with one bird. # When Chuck Norris calls 1-900 numbers, he doesnt get charged. He holds up the phone and money falls out. # Chuck Norris once ate a whole cake before his friends could tell him there was a stripper in it. # Some people like to eat frogs' legs. Chuck Norris likes to eat lizard legs. Hence, snakes. # There are no races, only countries of people Chuck Norris has bea

My Own Family List
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The Date
SHE BRUSHES BACK HER SPIKE HAIR,WHILE IN EXTREME ANTICIPATION OF WHAT WAS IN FOR THE NIGHTS EVENTS.AFTER THOUGHTS,DAYDREAMS,AND BUTTERFLIES IN THE PITS,OF HER STOMACH,SHE KNEW SOON,HE WOULD BE KNOCKING ON HER DOOR.A BOTTLE OF WINE CHILLING IN ICE,TWO SMOKEY GLASSES,ON THE TABLE.CANDLES WITH A SLIGHT SCENT OF RAIN, CANDLES LIT FILLING THE ROOM,WITH JUST ENOUGH LIGHT TO SHALLOW THE WALLS.MUSIC LOW.SARAH BRIGHTMAN,MMMM HER FAVORITE.WHITE SILKY,LACED,BUTTON IN FRONT BLOUSE,LAYING NEXT TO A VELVET SLIT UP THE SIDE SKIRT,HOSE,TOP, AND BOTTOM HALF SLIPS.WHITE LACE THONGS,AND BLACK BOOTS,SETTING NEAR ON THE FLOOR.SHOWER DONE,LEGS AND PRIVATE AREAS ALL SHAVED AND SMOOTHED. SENSUAL SCENT OF JASMINE.EARLOBE,BETWEEN BREAST,BOTH WRIST,NAVAL,AND INSIDE THIGHS.MAKEUP ON,PERFECTION IS THE KEY TONIGHT.FIRST SLIPS,OH NO BRA,THE TOP SLIP AS ONE IN IT.WIGGLING INTO BOTTOM SLEEP.HOSE.SKIRT,STRAIGHTEN,BLOUSE.SLIGHTLY UNBUTTON.EARRINGS.LOOKING IN MIRROR TUCKED IN TUMMY.PERFECT.CHECKING THE WINE.CHILLED GREA

Time For A New Adventure!
Good morning all! The farm is beginning to look just flipping spiffy. My camera, of course, is back in the shop, or I’d be sending photos. I will attempt to describe it. I was going to cut down some alder bushes, which turned out to be VERY productive peach trees. Thank GAWD I didn’t get stupid with them! The blossoms are a vibrant pink. EVERYTHING is in bloom here, and it’s just gorgeous. The apples, peaches, pears, everything except the grapes, and those have been severely pruned, so it will be a while. We built a weir in the creek, and are now feeding about 200 catfish. IF they make it to edible size, we’ll be netting fools this Fall. An experiment – we’ll see. The chicken house is ready, and the pullets get here the first of the month. Deer are everywhere – coming down 18 just before dark, if you don’t count over 100, you’re just not looking. We have put out a deer block, and at times have had upwards of 20 of them in the back pasture. Charlie Wellington is

Nair In His Shampoo
Now I wrote this while thinking of my dear ex (he's a moron lol). *Grins* Now thinkin back on the life I had With my ex, Frankenstien He thought his life was so devine, When he ran mine He towered over top of my head, Each and every day I plotted every damn night that he slept, How to make him go away I put nair in his shampoo, And watched that hairline go Nair in his shampoo, And watched that head glow Nair in his shampoo, Each and every day Nair in his shampoo, Just to make him go away! His receiding hairline got so fine, He cried everyday His eyes burnt like terpentine, He couldnt walk straight He grabbed his bottle of visine, That I switched with superglue! I laughed my ass off and watched him blow a fuse! I put nair in his shampoo, And watched that hairline go Nair in his shampoo, And watched that head glow Nair in his shampoo, Each and every day Nair in his shampoo, Just to make him g

The Date Continues
THE TERRACE DOOR WAS OPEN SO THEY COULD HER THE MUSIC.FOR NOW AIR SUPPLY WAS PLAYING. "MY LADY KATHERINE HAVE YOU EVER DANCE IN THE MOONLIGHT UNDER SUCH BEAUTIFUL STARS?" "NO MY LOVE,I CANT SAY I EVER HAVE" "SHALL WE DANCE?" SHE DIDNT EVEN ANSWERED.OFFERED HER HAND,AND AS THEY DANCED,SHE PALCED HER HEAD UPON HIS SHOULDER,COULD HEAR IS HEART BEAT SO STRONG. HE KISS HER FOREHEAD.FOR THE NIGHT WAS STILL YOUNG,AND TIME STOOD STILL.KAT LOOKED UP AT HIM,HER EYES SHINING LIKE THE STARS IN THE HEAVENS AND HE KISSED HER AGAIN.THIS TIME THE PASSION WAS INTENSIFIED,AND THEY FELT THE DESIRES,WANTED,NEEDED.HE BEGAN RUBBING HER BACK PULLING HER INTO HIM,SHE COULD FEEL HIS BODY HARDENING.HE RAISED ONE LEG TO HIS THIGH,PUSHING INTO HER CLOSER,AND SHE WAS ON FIRE.HE KNEW,SHE KNEW WHAT EVENTS WOULD TAKE PLACE.AS HE KISSED HER ON THE NECK,SLIGHTLY BITTING,SHE WAS SURRENDERING TO HIM. HE KNEW AS SHE LEAN BACK ENJOYING,HE FELT HER MOISTURE. "TERRY" "YES KATHERINE" "I WANT YOU" NOTHING MORE HAD TO

"man Rules"
MAN RULES: 1: Under no circumstances may two men share an umbrella. 2: It is ok for a man to cry ONLY under the following circumstances: a. When a heroic dog dies to save its master. b. The moment Angelina Jolie is standing in front of you and starts unbuttoning her blouse. c. After wrecking your boss's new car. d. One hour, 12 minutes, 37 seconds into "The Crying Game". e. When she is using her teeth. 3: Any Man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally killed and eaten by his buddies. 4: Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friend out of jail within 12 hours. 5: If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off limits forever unless you actually marry her. 6: Moaning about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge forbidden. (However complain at will if the temperature is unsuitable.) 7: No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for another man. (In fact, even remembering your budd

Mountain Springtime
Shimmering reflections across a placid lake A loon’s call fills the mountain air An eagle soars free high overhead I rock quietly in my worn rocking chair A deer walks proudly beside their young A bee collects its last pollen of the day A distant rumble echoes thru the mountains A slight breeze against my skin lay A pair of squirrels play on branches aloft The smell of blossomed shrubs comes to me A trout jumps lazily for a passing fly A moose walks along so his trail wild and free A soft kiss from my lover I now feel Warm arms wrap around me as I sit A single star twinkles high overhead The nights first light there has been kit Darkness falls all around, nature slowly quiets A lone owl hoots from a distant tree The warm breeze replaced by one with a chill I shiver as it cascades silently over me I rise from my chair as the day is now done Slowly the nights shadows against the ground fall I walk slowly into the warmth of my home All these visions of a spring nigh

The Day True Love Splintered
At the supermarket, reach to grab a tin A sharp pain wells up from deep within A word you used quite often, appeared and once again my heart is speared Your name seems to pop up everywhere In the middle of the row I stop and stare Sinking, remembering days of bliss This is where you gave me that kiss Tears, uncontrolled, roll down my cheek My reflection shows me to be somber and bleak Shrugging I try concentrating on food Hate this slow drowning, hate this mood Mechanically I put things in my cart I still can't believe that we're apart Numbed yet capable of feeling pain Angry that I start crying again I wonder, what is it that I've done in this life? To be thrown headfirst in this cesspool of strife My heart shrinks thinking of you and your pain Your words pounding relentless in my brain "I need to leave you if I'm to survive All I wish is to make you my wife But 27 years are too much to take Your mind I love, is this love then a fake?" You go on, s

Stress Needs To Leave My Life!
It is Saturday and I should be in a good mood. Should be. This last week has been pretty much Hell for me. Between pain and my son being a complete jerk to me and his Dad. I haven't been online very much at all this last week. I had it our with Anthony the other day. He went on and on about how we never spent any time with him and never buy him anything. I about flipped my lid! I told him that him always being gone was his choice. He always wanted to spend the weekends at his friends house and when ever we wanted to do something, he never wanted to do it because he thought it was stupid or boring. I asked him how many dirtbikes, bicycles, phones, ipods, clothes and such have we bought him? He has had things stolen or loses his crap. Lets see, I just replaced a laptop computer that he had gotten stolen from having a party at our house! I am just sickened by what he tells us. I told him I take him to school, pick him up, take his friends here and there. Feed his frie

Happy Hour
Sunday 8 pm fubar time, 11 est, I will be hosting Happy Hour, so please visit my page and show me lots o love...I'm trying to godmother and earn enough fubucks to make the spotlight...I'll do my best to return all the love...If you would send me a private message I'll definitely not forget who was at my page...Hope to see you there, if not, level up your friends that need it...Much love and respect, Tina

Fu-own Me,micki-blue-eyes=im Worth Owning ;)
Emanon's never ending Auction--ends when i accept a bid :P Come bid on me...Ill do all I say..I promise~! Click on this pic and it will take you there owned by Passionman71~ Shadow Leveler~Just ask he'll tell ya Im good on my word~!

Full Heart, Empty Arms
Thoughts of you illuminate my spirit; Never a flicker of flame, but with Arching bolts which strike with a force That disturbs my equilibrium. My mind races as waves of passion flush over My pale skin, causing me to gaze upon visions Of impossible romantic possibilities. Pathetic is this woman who anticipates the True rhythm of love, with a man she will never hold. My imagined discourse of thoughts leave me suffering, As my lips quiver with the words I shall never speak to his: "I have loved you more than anybody in this world."

Life 2.0
Been a while since I have written some people back, and sometimes just easier to write a blog/bullitan/forum than to try to answer everyone at once. I appologize for the delay, just getting swamped in medical/insurance/work paper work and been emotionally up/down the last few weeks and just really stressed out. So, here is whats going on in my life so far as to this date. Work - Finally pnned boss down today on the phone to talk to me Monday about what will/wont happen at work. According to company policy, you must maintain a valid drivers license in order to be eimployeed. With the legal ramifications of my 2nd owi within 5 years, its mandatory 12 month suspension without possibility of occupational license and minimal 5 days jail up to 1 yr. So, they bosses were going to see what they could do and if they could call in any favors or find any work arounds and let me know, but, thats been weeks now, still no talk, and overheard some things from there closed door conversations that d

Love Because You Can
Your age, gender, nationality, race, religion nor background should never dictate who your friends are. Just 7 months ago one my closest friends died. Over a year ago another very very close friend died. Recently a young friend came near death. The other day my best friend's mom had emergency surgery. We have people who come into our lives and stay long enough to leave deep impressions. When they leave, it might be a move far away or life takes them in a different direction and you lose contact or they live eternally in another state of being after this life on earth. Each of our lives is precious. Sometimes we can't see it's so great to us. But when that life line is threatened (it doesn't matter if it's your life or the life of someone you love) ALL of a sudden, BOOM....... DAMN!!!!!! It doesn't smack you in the face, it hits you in the head like a 50 pound hammer, "I LOVE LIFE! I WANT TO LIVE! I WANT THAT PERSON TO LIVE! LIFE IS GREAT!!!!!!!!" Why is it that we can't see that eve

"loving You"
Your love is like the wind Blowing in my face Like the sun glistening My face. One point in time I was lost At least until I found you Pushing through a cloud So dark and new Out of all of that you Shined Through. Your love touches me So deep and true that only God knows how far you brought Me through the day you said "I Love You."

This Fukyou Is For You!!!
Is it really worth putting your heart on the line, to have some FUCKER rip it, Not for Nina ANYMORE...I guess my views on love are so much different from others, OR maybe it's this place?? Sooo for all you HEARTBREAKERZ GO FUK YOUR SELF!!! Your time will come.....

Indifference Towards Friends
Indifference! I’ve found that a whole lot of people on here treat others in that way and seem to think that is just the normal way to treat people and they don’t seem to understand why people like me don’t want those kinds of friends in my life, so I thought I’d just explain my self about this in this blog! What do I mean by people treating other’s with indifference? Well it’s things like when you are chatting with someone on here, and they just stop talking, don’t say bye, or gotta run or anything like that. That’s just rude, it leaves the other person wondering what to hell happened… do you just not want to talk to them, did something happen that you can’t talk, they sit and wonder if the conversation is over, if if that person is mad at them, etc…. in other words, they have no idea what or why that person just stooped talking and took off…. And people like me who actually care about other people, that bothers us and worries us, and it truly is very self centered and rude for

So Called Friends
The past couple af days has opened me eyes to who are my friend in this sight and who isn't. I opened my home to Tink and she crapped all over it and has started to tell everyone that she and I know that I kicked her out with noplace to go. Well the trueth is, that she left after two days worth of her additude to me over me treating her like no man has ever treated her in her life. I gave her use of my car and gave her most of my paychecks for three weeks. I helped her with her pregnancy when the father wouldn't even help her. She has burned every bridge with 90% of all of her friends and it was all the others fault. Dosen't that tell you about her true nature? Now she and a so called friend in Darkness falls has plotted against me for being the only friend that has been there for her in the past four years of her life. Well is say fairwell to them all and there are a world of better people in the world. I just wanted every one else to know that I have done all that I could fro her and

A Broken Hearted Soul
Let this poem to be true to all that is heart and soul of this earth. As i lay in bed and write this poem i think to myself god may he reap my soul from my body he will never be able to pick up the piees of my broken heart.

Rip Aunt Betty!
This is an open ended message to my late Aunt Betty. She died on 4-17-08. I want you to know that i love you with all my heart and i have been missing you since you moved. I wish i could have saw you before you passed but know that my heart and soul will always love you. And i believe i am very fortunate to have a guardian angel like you that is willing to kick the shit out of anyone who tries to hurt me.

For The Men
An orgasm is described as a level of sexual arousal that reaches a peak then subsides leaving the participant feeling elated, relaxed and sexually satisfied. It is difficult to describe an orgasm because it is different for every female. Women generally describe it as a feeling of being so aroused that you are going to explode. Muscles in your body may go into contraction, your hands tighten up, you may arch your back, your facial expression is intense, your breathing pattern changes to short gasps, your legs tremble, your toes curl under. You may make groaning noises, whimper, some women cry out. Because the sensations are so intense and so different for each woman, it like trying to describe a sneeze. Are all women capable or reaching orgasm? Yes, unless there is some rare congenital abnormality or extensive genital surgery where nerves have been cut. Some women who have had a stroke can still reach orgasm. Women who are Spinal Cord injured and are paraplegic or quadraplegic w

Back Home From The Reunuion Today
Was the reunuion fer mymoms side of the family, we all enjoyed it alot. Mom felt better than she had since Christmas.Did her n pop so much good to be out amoungst family like that. Her phyiscal rehab is over, n shes doing worlds better. Dads back is hhealing hes just a stubbourn old fart bout wanting to take it easy.Well what yall up tonite? Gonna be on and off, if i anit fel asleep by then. But i'll be on alot more i think over the next few days too. PS Hoooooray fer boobies too! My friend who owns the Hooters resturants here in the southeast said there gonna have the new Hootersgirls calander made up soon!nHehehe n i get mine fer free......

Breeth
I breath today as I did my first day, uncertain of where my exhale will settle and stay. I'm unsure of the risk my ongoing rough breath will display. I feer to show my fear, I'm angry at my hate. I cry to the sadness of each breath I need to embrace. I tremble for the chuckle of each windful escape with every beat of my heart as it strives to brake. NO!!! No I say. I want to breathe and chuckle to happier days. Yet i still sigh with an on going pain. Why Oh Mighty God, why must i disgrace all I breath today as I did my my first day with hesitant ambition yet I still pray. I curse the first breath given each one on each day. Will I curse and curse this painful breath I need to embrace and keep sighing and crying hating and denying the sweet breath you give me each day? YES!! Yes I want to breath as my first day. I know my breath is the wind that can clear my way. I breath today as I did my first day hoping for an exhale that my soul will save

Enough
I had just about all that i can take of the shallow people here tonight. I've sent requests,fanned,rated,sent drinks,bought blasts,gave out bling and i can't even get a thank you from the majority of the people? Nice guy from NJ you fucken rock! Everyone else can lick my ass for being ungrateful fuckheads!!!!!!!!

Episode 1
1. I tend to say things that border on obscene just to get a rise out of people. I live in Kansas, the “Jesus Saves” buckle on the Bible Belt, people make themselves easy targets. 2. I love museums. I used to work in one doing cataloging and exhibit design. It was a fun job; I got to handle mummies and put together dinosaurs. 3. I volunteer. Whether it’s putting in a garden at the Boys & Girls Club, at a local blind and low vision agency or for school; I like staying busy and being productive. I’ve been paired with a teenager through Big Brothers Big Sisters for about a year and a half. 4. I don’t understand naked people. The people who post NSFW pictures confuse and, quite honestly, repulse me. I believe that modesty and demureness are far sexier qualities than blatant desperation. I have one “NSFW” picture because some chode marked it that way. 5. I don’t like kids. Let me rephrase that: I don’t like the thought of having children. I don’t see myself as a motherly type.

What You Get Out Of Life
life is a dark and dirty place where you seem to only fall deeper into the depths of despare cant there be something else something worth fighting for why is that everytime you think you have got out there is something that pulls on you to return i have given up i swan dove from the top i now lay at the bottom broken, bruised and loveing it there is nothing like pain to make you feel alive nothing like pain to make you want to live i hate all those people running from it like scared rabbits hate those of you that are so scared to even risk anything pain is life and life is pain PAIN IS LIFE AND LIFE IS PAIN

Just Writing Some Feelings I Am Having Problems With....
“The night is so dark!” A statement that I have never found so true. However, something I want to know is why must I feel as I do? Why do I even ponder such things when I know them to be wrong? I just do not know why? & this not knowing is bothering me to no end. I just want to run but I cannot do that ether. So then what can I do? Tell me this! I live with such horrid things in my mind & I would truly like to know why I am having these thoughts & feelings? No answers to my questions! There are never any answers for me! & this is what bothers me as well. I have such...well...things inside me & even though I look hard & long I can not get them out of me& I can not understand why I am even having them in the first place. It is just so confusing & this confusion is the one thing that bothers me so damn much. & yes, a great many things bother me, & yes, I am well aware that I am being cryptic but it is just how I see things in my mind right now. I am not sorry for this because I am writing

Narrowing Down..round One
As many of you may or may not know, I will be leaving in bout 2 months to head "over there" my so called friends list was just way too long.Some of you never talked,etc etc.Which of course is understandable. Therefore, with no harm intened or nothing personal, i have started to narrow down my list and it went from 193 to just shy of 100. Youre still free to come by and say hi, but am not sure how often i will make it on to this site from overthere. AT the same time if you feel the need to take me off your list, for whatever reason, please feel free to do so.I dont take it personally. FOr those of you on my family list..plan on staying there unless you dont want to be part of it!!

The Urge To Live
Sent by Girlish K 4/20/2008 THE URGE TO LIVE The urge to live is an ocean. The lunar force which hauls flooding and ebbing. Speed of sunlight which goes right through the brain. Love and sex alike are each only a small part of that overall urge. The urge to create. The urge to love and to hate. The urge to exist. To exist as world, as universe, as an ant or H2O molecule. The urge to live of those who really are alive is the urge to take in more than has been allotted. Translated by Vyt Bakaitis Written by Lithuanian poet A. Balbierius

Things
Lots of things are changing around my house.... I haven't been online as much as I used to be... In some ways that's good and in others I feel like I've deserted some of my friends. For many years the net has been where my friends were, after we moved from Michigan this was the only link I had to other people that I felt I knew in some small way. We were so isolated in Kansas and everyone I knew {3 people} had lives of their own and I felt like I was intruding. So I turned to the internet... Since we have moved to Kentucky, I have made more friends outside the net, as well as being coser to my family. It makes a difference, I'm not having the anxiety attacks near as bad, and I'm getting my life back on track. I start a new Job on Tuesday... I'm going back into an area that I have avoided for the last few years, mainly becaise I was confident enough in myself to think I could handle the resposibilities that go with the job, and all the dr apts and stuff with my kids. I'm s

The Moods Of A Woman
THE MOODS OF A WOMAN An angel of truth and a dream of fiction, A woman is a bundle of contradiction, She's afraid of a wasp, will scream at a mouse, But will tackle a stranger alone in the house. Sour as vinegar, sweet as a rose, She'll kiss you one minute, then turn up her nose, She'll win you in rage, enchant you in silk, She'll be stronger than brandy, milder than milk, At times she'll be vengeful, merry and sad, She'll hate you like poison, and love you like mad. THE MOODS OF A MAN Hungry. Horny. Sleepy.

Im For Sale!
New here and trying to get the hang of things. My friend Sexie put me in an auction. Click the link below to place your bid. > > > > > > > > > > > > Minimum Bid 100,000 Fubucks > > > > > > And don’t forget to show the auctioneer some luv!!! > > > > > > Emanon~~Forever Fake~~Father of The Fallen Ones@ fubar

Spicy
Curling around, CAT-like Lips softly enveloping the head "No. No more than a kiss. Or, no more than a kiss for you." A whimpered, "Yes, Sir." One finger enters The gasp silences the squeal Hair tickling his thighs Caressing kisses beg to be nourished Two fingers Separating, circling Inserted, stroking Hips matching his hand's rhythm Kisses descending "Careful." A pout, though purring Driving back, meeting the third A sip of his sweetness Back arching, begging Tongue tracing down Swirling around his sack Then, four Passionate pleas: Denied Fisted, furiously Moans turning to deep groans Uncontrollably coming Deep, justified thrusts Faster . . . faster, still Shaking, shamelessly Overcome with ecstasy "No." Ignored, again Swallowing his shaft Tantalizing torture persists Bobbing, increasing suction Fingers expanding, twisting Stretching even more Continuous, excruciating climax A firm hand on the neck Explosion nearing Pumping vigorously Filling bo

Some People
DJ CREENTINC @ OWNER OF VIP 2///FUHUSBAND TO ANGELEYES@ fubar That guy is a douche, he thinks he can say shit, and ban me from his lounge for no reason, and I designed his background which he has someone remove my tagg from the bottom of the image. Now he won't even talk to me at all. What a fcukin backstabber.

Surgery
TO ALL MY FRIENDS HERE, SORRY I HAVEN'T DONE MUCH CHATTING. BUT I THOUGHT I WOULD LET YOU ALL KNOW THAT THIS TUESDAY I WILL BE GOING IN FOR KNEE SURGERY. I DON'T KNOW HOW IT WILL TURN OUT BUT I CAN ONLY PRAY THAT IT WILL BE GOOD. I WILL BE DOWN FOR SEVERAL WEEKS BUT I WILL TRY TO GET ON AND CHECK IN WITH EVERYONE. THIS IS VERY SCARY FOR ME AND I DON'T KNOW HOW 2 HANDLE IT WITH MY ANXIETY AND PANIC ATTACKS. I WILL KEEP EVERYONE POSTED. TALK TO YOU ALL SOON. LOVE TO YOU ALL TEMPERANCE