Fubar Blog Posts 4

Thought Provoking
let/s start with the end a plot spoiler. the meaning of life, a unified story, the big reason why. let/s get the big surprise over and done with the earth is just a big machine. a big processing plant. a factory. that/s your big answer. the big truth. think of a rock polisher, one of those drums, goes round and round, rolls twenty-four/seven, full of water and rocks and gravel. grinding it all up. polishing those ugly rocks into gemstones. that/s the earth. why it goes around. we are the rocks, and what happens to us- the drama and pain and joy and war and sickness and victory and abuse- that/s just the water and the sand to erode us. grind us down and poslish us up nice a bright. buffed by pain. that/s why we love conflict. we love to hate. to stop a war, we declare war on it. we must wipe out poverty; we must fight hunger. we campaign and challenge and defeat and destory. as human beings, our first commandment is: something needs to happen. any

Random Thoughts
I feel lonely today not much diffrent from any other day really other than I relized something.I am alone yes I have my 2 babies but I have noone for those cold nights to hold close. To have that feeling agin is something I crave more than anything.To have that person look apon you and for you to relize that yes you are loved....someone called here for my ex today made me think wow dumb ass he hasnt lived here for a year then in turn made me think wow its been almost a year sence I have had that want or feeling.He really did break me.I have used men for a time now the way I have seen and have had personal experience with. I thought why get your heart involved get what you want have them be the lucky ones if you decide to speak with them agin. Rude of me yes shilding me from that pain is all I wanted then i see it I can cause that pain in men even though I say what its all about before hand they think yea I will melt her now frozen heart.Its not frozen its broken. how long does it take

A Story I Wrote
You are sitting at the piano, and are being approached from behind. Suddenly you feel a kiss in the neck and a pair of strong arms around you. You feel how his hands cup your breasts, tweaking your nipples gently through the fabric of your blouse and bra. It calms you, sooths you, lets your spirits and feelings rise, make you come alive like you never ever felt before Your lips find his, your tongue reaches out to meet his tongue and your hands reach to his neck to pull him closer. Then you stand up and feel overcome with emotions, you feel his arms folding around your body, his hands fondling your bum. You feel your pussy getting moist and as you look in his eyes, you see the love and desire for you in it His hands open the top button of your shirt; you feel his kiss on the base of the left side of your neck as he bites you there softly. He starts to undo the 2nd button, his mouth moves down a little bit down towards your collarbone. As the 3rd button has been undone, you feel yo

Erotic Short Story Entitled A Brief Encounter
***Some have already read this piece but to those of you who haven't...be forewarned it is extremely explicit and I am not to be held responsible for anything that happens after reading it...lol.*** I stand outside my brand new car, now pulled over to the side of the road. The man behind me says to place my hands on the hood of my car and spread my legs, so I do so. I place my hands equally apart on the hood of my car, leaning forward. My v-neck blouse falls open in the front and my little black skirt rises slightly as I lean forward. My heart beats like a freight train as he approaches me. "Do you know why I pulled you over?" he asks. "No," I respond quietly. Here I stand in the middle of nowhere. Trees line the street for miles, but there are no people, houses, or even cars in sight. The sun has begun to set and a cool wind blows my skirt a little higher. The young cop comes up behind me and places one hand on my shoulder. I turn my head to the side and look over my sho

Something Im Working On... Gimme Some Hints What Should Happen
we are walking in a busy shopping mall and ( pull you in one of the fitting rooms and start to kiss you, really deep throated. Letting my hands roam all over your body teasing your nipples. I pull up your skirt and pull your panties aside as i kneel on one knee and push your thighs open so i have access to your pussy. The excitement of fitting lingerie is clearly visible and you lean your back against the wall from the fitting room. I pull off your panties and let my tongue slide in your pussy, tasting your sweet juices. Letting my tongue tease your clit as i feel this swell up i start to nibble softly on it, and pull with my teeth softly on it I hear you moan and taste your juices and notice how they are flowing more freely. You put your hands on my head and grind your hips in my face to get my tongue as deep in your pussy as possible. Your usual demure attitude has made place for the wanton slut that you are deep inside and that i like to bring out at random times. You forget about

Tribute To The Friends That For Some Reason No Longer Talk Or Sign On.......
Not having a good day, had to tell those friends that still talk to me the reason. So here it is There is some friends of mine that I dearly miss talking to. You will forever be in my heart and can't stand that we no longer talk. You were such wonderful friends to me while I have been a member to LC. I loved you guys and still do. I feel lost without you. LC just isn't the same without you. You were the glue that kept me on LC. Court@ LostCherry You where the my among my first friends on LC. Those were the good days when I would laugh and smile whenever I saw you message me, knowing you had something wonderful to tell me. When you quit LC the first time I was behond devastated. All I could think of was how to get you back. I thought of a way to get you back but when I actually got helped I was kicked out of the project as the others took full credit. But it worked when I finally sent it to you. You came back if for only a little bit. I don't know where you went but I miss you

Cheated
I KNOW I CHEATED ON YOU..I'M SORRY BUT IF YOU WOULD OF SHOWN ME THE LOVE I DESERVED...ME NOT THE OTHER WOMEN YOU TALK TO ME....AND YOU ASKED WHY....I'M TOLD YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN...THAT I NEEDED THE ATTENTION AND THE LOVE...BUT YOU NEVER DID SHOW ME...AND YOU ASK WHY AGAIN..I FOUND IT FROM OTHER MEN....

Dream Lover, Part Ii
IN THE RAIN Dream Lover, part II On vacation in an exciting city, I was a little disappointed when it started to rain. This was the last day I would be in the city and I was looking forward to discovering more of it. I ducked into a hotel to escape the down pour, the rain was warm, but it had somehow chilled me. I went into the bar to dry off, wait for the rain to stop, and get a hot drink. At first, I didn’t notice the man sitting next to me or the way he kept glancing at me. I ordered a Hot Toddy and slowly started sipping at it. The hot liquid quickly warming me and making me a little fuzzy. My clothes were so damp, that I slipped on the leather chair and bumped into the man sitting next to me. I turned to apologize and was taken aback by most amazing blue eyes. I was struck speechless, unable to think of any words. He grinned at me and asked if I was alright. All I could manage was a goofy “uh huh” I finally regained my composure and said “yes, thank you”. He conti

Late Night Thoughts
I woke up from another of my strange dreams sweating and lost in the darkness around me. I have been having a lot of them lately though I'm not exactly sure why. Maybe it is all the death surrounding me these last few weeks or someone trying to tell me something. I only wish I knew which and than maybe they would stop.

Reality Of A Break-up
"Reality of a Break-up" (this is for people who question WHY) Why is it when we end a relationship our hearts can't seem to move on? Our heads play circular games with us that continue to haunt our every waking & sleeping moments. Why do we hang on to what we think is our destiny? Is it that we have a need to fulfill some certain void that we ourselves can not obtain within ourselves? I wish I knew the answers to these questions because I keep getting beat up by these same taunting thoughts day in and day out. But I am also a glutton for punishment. I am one of those women who love too much. There is no cure for a woman like me except to find a man who truly loves me and appreciates the woman I am OR just never end the relationship. Pretty simple right...WRONG! I tend to find men who have an addictive personality only to win my affections...then charm their way into my bed. And I'm sick of men who can not take responsibility for their own actions then turn blame

You People Wanted To Know If I Was A Romantic Heres The Proof
You are my one and only . the sight of you keeps me going and makes me want to get up in the morning. your smile lights up any place You are in . You have a kindness to You that would tame even the most wild of beasts . lips like newly bloomed cherry blossoms and eyes that i strugle not to lose my self in . Your alabaster skin is beautifull soft and addictive to the touch i feel i would wither and die without it, Fiona you are the woman i dream of when i sleep and the woman i crave when im awake..... I love you now and will for the rest of my life you are my perfect woman, my fantasy, my eternal lover....

After The Honeymoon...
Relationships..its all about WORK WORK N MORE WORK!!!...why do some people think that once you've hooked up with that guy or girl their work is done? HARDLY!! When you find someone you like one tends to mold oneself to become their object of affection by "liking" the same things...listening to the same music...goin to the same places of interest that person does...dressing up and speaking and behaving in a certain manner that that person likes saying all the right things that you KNOE they want to hear but then once the honeymoon period is over.. BAM!!...you tend to go back to your old ways and the person is left wondering who the hell they fell in love with in the first place... Yes, we all have faults but isn't it better to show those faults right from the start so that your potential significant other KNOES what he/she is getting into that way it leaves no chance for misrepresentation and that person could never ever say you lied to them about who you are or that you're not the p

Things With Me
Dark Greetings all, I know I have not been around for a while now but I have a good reason…I have been working my ass off and things are going very well for me…I am no longer a temp for Fresh express I was hired on full time and now I am a crew lead… I am getting ready to move into my own place, and my car is finally all fixed and so far there are no more problems with it… Me and my x got back together and that has been going good, we still have a lot of things to work on but it is no where near as bad as it used to be…. My weight loss fight, I have lost over 40 pounds and I did it the right way no drugs and no starving myself I feel GREAT… I hope everyone is doing great….Blessed be and Rock out with your twins out… If anyone you want to talk to me you can always hit me up on messenger, even if I am not here I can pm you back when I am great thing about off lines… (nassy.bitch) **licks and Bites**

Start Up
I started this to get oppinions and options in the world of everyday life, the roller coaster ride of life, any topic can be discussed I dont beleive in sencorship . After going through what what went through with hurrican Katrina im sure you can guess how upset with the government i am all local ,state, and fed .. I dont care if its democrat,republican,independant the whole system is fked up and should be all disband .. it does say in the constitution that if the american people are dissatified with the government they can tare it down and start a new one .. dont quote me word for word lol but it is in there anyways im done with the rambling, i hope we all can discusse some great topics and have tons of fun .. peace n love

What Is Better???
What is better 1. Playstation or X box 2. T.v or Music 3. Love or Lust 4. Nicole Ritchie or Paris Hilton 5. Finding Nemo or Shrek 6. Black or White 7. Apple juice or Orange juice 8. Harry Potter or Lord of the rings 9. Scrabble or Monopoly 10. High Heels or Flats All my answers are the first ones written, please take the time you write your prefrences in my comments i would love it-thanks.

Vampires
It is the essence of life. Life's being. Without it Life ceases to exist. I crave it. I have the Thirst for it. To Quench it is invevitable. The desire to live or die. I offer u the Gift of Life. Take it or Leave it. Immortality shall have its way one way or another.

Alot of people lately have been asking me about wicca saying well isn't that devil worshiping? Lastnight I got a IM from yet another person asking me about it so just for you Mike I will try to explane it as best as I can from my point.You see there are many aspects to Wicca ... Celtic Wicca:This tradition incorporates Celtic god/dessesand the spirituality with green witchcraft and faery magic. Dianic Wicca:Named for the goddess Diana,this is a goddess-centered tradition and excludes gods Faery Wicca:This is an Irish tradition,that centers on green witchcraft and faery magic Teutonic Wicca:A Nordic tradition witchcraft,this incorporates deities,symbolism,and practices from Norse. Family Traditions:These are the practices and traditions,usually seceret of families who have been witches for generations. Now as for me ...My mother was a Wiccan my grandmother and so on for the past 7 or 8 we're not sure generations but I am also full Lakota so I

Just Another Day
Well what can i say...its just another day..same ole shit goin on n on..but anywayz just wanna say im soo glad that i signed up here on LC...N i wanna thank my bro DJ acid for inviting me..thankies sooo much sweetie..n i just wanna thank all the fantastic ppl here on LC...for bein soo friendly n helpful...but anywayz ill b checkin out all my friends profiles when i get bk from work 2night so expect some ratings on ya photos n stuff..but anywayz thats it for now..but b4 i go please all check out my porn site....thats only for u guys who like porn lmaooo... but anywayz im outties for now XxXTemptressXxX http://erotic-vibrations.net

Funny As Shit!
Baggage - The excuse people use to punish their current boyfriend/girlfriend for things that their past boyfriends/girlfriends have done to them. Bicurious - Gay. Bisexual - Gay. Bitter - What all Atlanta singles are destined to become. Caused by drama and stress (see below). Buckhead Soldiers - The clones you see hovering around the popular Buckhead bars wearing polos tucked into pleated Dockers. Usually wearing loafers. Butch - What gay men who don't think they act gay call themselves. Actual butch men will never need to use this term. Also used to describe 75f Atlanta lesbians. Cabin Room - Where you go when the bars are closed and you still haven't found someone to sleep with. Cuddle - Sexual activity in which there is no exchange of bodily fluid. Drama - An imaginary condition made up by sad, lonely individuals with no real problems in their life who feel the need to drag stable, well-balanced individuals who are trying to make a valuable contribution to

Hm
So im not sure what this thing is for...but i thought i'd just post one and see what this is all about. I dont really have anything exciting to say though. ha. Umm i've just been busy lately with school and work...looking for a second job, so ya =) I've been kinda hard to catch on here..so sorry about that to everyone out there!! Anywhose, its time for me to go to classes...meh. bye for now!

Why Must I Have To Deal With So Much?!
Ok, ok...so I understand my life can't be perfect! But why the hell must I live such a hard life?! Seems like every time things are going well, I suddenly trip and mess up, and end up back where I was before...being a depressed girl with no reason to live! I get so many compliments, hearing how beautiful and special I am...but I don't feel it...I don't see it! All I see is a sad, lonely, ugly, fat-ass girl with no purpose in life! I mean, what's so special about me?! What the hell do others see in me that I don't?! I really don't see anything special about me. After all the abuse, bullying, and teasing in my life, I really can't see myself as someone special...it keeps making me feel like maybe they're right, that maybe I'm not worth it! And I just can't get those thoughts outta my head! Why must I have to go through this?! Geez, I hate my life!

Things I Love...
ok..i keep seeing people who are so angry sayin fuck this fuck that and fuck the next thing...so im gonna do the opposite. its my LOVE blog. sappy? yes. lame? probably. me? 100_FONT> I LOVE doing good things for people I LOVE waking up every day I LOVE being held I LOVE being in love I LOVE the company of amazing friends I LOVE children. I LOVE to smile I LOVE shopping I LOVE cooking I LOVE EATING! I LOVE watching nothing important on television I LOVE living in america and knowing i can do and say whatever i want. I LOVE getting a paycheck I LOVE tulips. I LOVE jeremy. I LOVE dylan I LOVE...MY CLOSEST FRIENDS( not gonna list cus u know who you are). I LOVE being able to listen to a friend in need I LOVE remembering the fun times I LOVE the atlantic ocean I LOVE cherry blossoms I LOVE my brothers and sister I LOVE the smell of fresh laundry I LOVE spring time I LOVE myself I LOVE life I LOVE having absolutely nothing to do I LOVE a bottle of great wine yo

Senior Citizen In Fl
A senior citizen in Florida bought a brand new Mercedes convertible. He took off down the road, flooring it to 80 mph, enjoying the wind blowing through what little hair he had left on his head. "This is great," he thought as he roared down I-75. He pushed the pedal to the metal even more. Then he looked in his rear view mirror only to see a highway patrol trooper behind him, blue lights flashing and siren blaring. "I can get away from him with no problem," he thought as he tromped it harder, flying down the road at over 100 mph; then 110, 120 mph. Suddenly he thought, "What am I doing? I'm too old for this kind of thing." Pulling over to the side of the road he waited for the trooper to catch up with him. The trooper pulled in behind the Mercedes and walked up to the man. "Sir," he said, looking at his watch. "My shift ends in 30 minutes and today is Friday. If you can give me a reason that I've never heard before why you were driving that fast, I'll let it go." The man looke

The Vibrator
The Vibrator AS A WOMAN PASSES HER DAUGHTER'S CLOSED BEDROOM DOOR, SHE HEARD A STRANGE BUZZING NOISE COMING FROM WITHIN. OPENING THE DOOR, SHE OBSERVED HER DAUGHTER GIVING HERSELF A REAL WORKOUT WITH A VIBRATOR. SHOCKED, SHE ASKED: "WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE YOU DOING?" THE DAUGHTER REPLIED: "MOM, I'M THIRTY-FIVE YEARS OLD,UNMARRIED, AND THIS THING IS ABOUT AS CLOSE AS I'LL EVER GET TO A HUSBAND. PLEASE, GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE." THE NEXT DAY, THE GIRL'S FATHER HEARD THE SAME BUZZ COMING FROM THE OTHER SIDE OF THE CLOSED BEDROOM DOOR. UPON ENTERING THE ROOM,HE OBERVED HIS DAUGHTER MAKING PASSIONATE LOVE TO HER VIBRATOR. TO HIS QUERY AS TO WHAT SHE WAS DOING, THE DAUGHTER SAID: "DAD I'M THIRTY-FIVE, UNMARRIED, AND THIS THING IS ABOUT AS CLOSE AS I'LL EVER GET TO A HUSBAND. PLEASE, GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE." A COUPLE OF DAYS LATER THE WIFE CAME HOME FROM A SHOPPING TRIP, PLACED THE GROCERIES ON THE KITCHEN TABLE AND HEARD A BUZZING NOISE COMING FROM, OF ALL PLACES, THE L

I Love You Mom............
A tribute to my mother Brenda Sue Patton From June 14, 1950 to May 21, 1998 You are our mother Your name was Brenda Sue And so I am doing this as a tribute to you. Your body is gone now, but your spirit is free, like an eagle released it soars above the trees. You may be gone, but your memory still remains, deep in our hearts tucked carefully away. You'll never be forgotton, your life was not in vein. There are many people who still remember your name. It plays on thier lips with a smile and then a sigh, And for this your memory will never die.

Life
I've tried silence I've tried violence To keep the love of my life with me, But sometimes I wonder how it will be If I just sit back and let it all go... Darkness will conquer my aching soul Is "I Love You" just a phrase? conflicting emotions put me in a daze Because I know I Love You... I hope you still feel it, too I must act now to prevent our calamity Even if it means I plead insanity... When love is real, when love is strong, You've got to fight to right the wrongs Don't make me die, dont let me suffer, Please dont make this any tougher! You mean too much to me to let this sleep... I will win in the end for the one I must keep

Omg!
OMFG! I'm at my sisters, right? And I'm playin around with my baby nephew (Caleb, 2 1/2) and niece (Elise, 1 1/2). So baby Caleb comes running and jumps into my lap and biffs me in the eye with his big ole noggin. As I'm holding and rubbing my eye, all of a sudden (and unbeknownst to me at first) he PUKES on me!!!!! Now anyone who knows me, knows that I DO NOT deal with baby fluids AT ALL! My first instinct was to get him away from me, which I did (GENTLY!). I slid him off my lap, freaked for a second about all the barf on me, then asked him if he was ok, he nodded yes, then I totally freaked about being ralphed on, LOL! I'm screaming at my sister to find me something to wear as I hobble to the bathroom without letting my legs touch, because, yes, there was even puke in my crotch. I get to the bathroom and I'm tryin to strip without gettin any on my skin, and all I can hear is my sister and my two oldest nephews (Damon, 10; Daylan, 6) laughin their asses off at me! I'm in there gaggin

(some) People On Here Are Not Fair At All
this morning i rated about 450 pic on only 3 peoples pages and none of them returned the favor i have better things to do ! the family sits there and pimps some people out and these people take the rating and don't return the favor well i'm going to wait and see if they help me out back or i'm not going with the request from the family to help people out when the family pimped me out everyone that hit my page got rated back from me now that is fair i'm not pushing people up the level until those people help me out and u know who u are because u are online when i did it thank u very much maria

Hay All My Sexy Lc Friends
for the ones that did not know my adopted sis baby was in the hosp for faluer to thrive and she could not hold any of her formula down. the dr's put her in chilrens in little rock ark. put ivs in her and put a tube down her throt so she could still eat and day defore yesterday they took the tube out untill they got the results of her uper gi back from the emergency room here then they got the results back and they could not find anything really wrong with her so they put her on a diffrent formula and set her home yesterday. i am soooo glad that she is ok and home now she is 3 mons old. i want to thank the two friends that were there for me when i needed them. thank you king and game love you both.

Im Better Now
Loss Is it always like this? Dispare Wanting to be away from the ones you miss. Longing Knowing of ways to ease your pian. Dreaming If only you could drown yourself in the rain. I havent any time for your silly games. I'm better now, But it isn't the same For the one Who could always make my day I'm better now. Thats all you'll hear me say. As I look into eyes Of one I still need. Memories comeback.... I feel myself start to bleed. Cold and alone On the floor half Dead. Im better now. The words repeat in my head. One day I would have let you see How I really felt. The blood flows from my torn hands. All I can thnk is I didn't help. My eyes close. Yours tear fall to my face. I'll love you always. Dont let her take my place. Belinda W.

She...
She was the cool air of a summers night, yet inside were strange confusions. She had confident exteriors but could she ever be the person that she really was? Her dreams were folded neatly and placed in open view, a mask to cover up her anxieties, but I knew behind it all she was everything she ever said she was, but some how she'd stopped believing... I knew inside of her were angels, singing a soft chorus of melodic hope, monochrome tears for a world she didn't know, and even as she passed from view, and faded out beyond the street light, I knew one day everything would work out, it has to, doesn't it?

Yankees
Well the 2006 regular season is soon coming to an end. Needless to say the Yankees are going to the post season once again, like we didn't know that. This year was a trying year with two of our stars going down to injuries. What a blow losing two 100 RBI guys in the same month. With the loss of those stars for most of the season it was left to the others and call ups to do the job. Our rookies have lived up to the task, even better than some veterans. Our captain Derek Jeter is having an awesome year and is a candidate for MVP. The pitching staff has had some ups and down but they are pretty solid now. So who's out there that can compete with that, NO ONE. We are running on all cylinders and everyone else except for our cross town rivals has already come and gone. So it looks like a subway series is in the making this year and you know what happened the last time, The Yankees Won!

Poems
Nameles as we are to the world forsaken to the light still we stand on even in our darkest times we are there IN the darkenss we take rest and we take love The fight is not yet won we are few and all alone I am Your Friend when needed And you are truly an angel I pray you are well and i hope to hear from you soon may goddess bless you and keep you torn between the two worlds light promising so much but the darkness over taking me holding me as if i was glove. shacking i forsaken my light not for pleasure but for pride having been traped in the light, like a wolf caged. shacked scared i run in to the night having missed the darkness its sweet smell its sweet never know feeling a wolf isnt a beast you can cage, its a night creatuer as im i no more being torn no more being caged living in the darkness of night is who i am only steping in to the light of day when it is ended Sweet angel you have fallen from the sky in the shades of darknes

Pictures/skins/glitter Pictures/picture Morphs
Yep, I do em all. all you have to do is send me a request and tell me what you want I have all the programs that I need to make em for you! Here is example I made for kelli!

Boys
Boys are confusing as all hell, so simple is the way for me to keep things. So for now I'm keeping things complication free. I'll prolly date a bit here and there, but I'm keeping myself single. Just got out of a year and three months relationship and I don't particularly feel like being complicated or serious anytime soon. This is NOT a reason for the male populous to flood my prescence, I know your all there, if I'm interested you'll know too. Also, pick up lines are LAME. Please cut it the hell out. kthxbi. on a side note: i need to take more pictures. hmm maybe i'll bring my cam for 2morrow night when sam and nicole and i go on the discovery cruise for the male review and dinner. we'll be all cute...

The Complete And Utter Idiot's Guide To Making A Baloney Sandwich.
The Complete and Utter Idiot's Guide to Making a Baloney sandwich. by David Neilsen Hello. Welcome to The Complete and Utter Idiot's Guide to Making a Baloney and Cheese Sandwich. Ready for Lunch? Good! Let's begin! We're going to start our journey by assuming that you already possess each of the individual items you'll be needing to make this sandwich. It's a bit of a stretch, I know, but Lord knows we don't have time to take you shopping. So, that said, the first thing you're gonna need is a place to make your sandwich. My suggestion would be a plate. So reach into your cupboard and grab a plate. Any will do. No, that's a bowl. Plates are flat. Right, yes, that's flat, but it's a cutting board. Plates are going to be round. Yes the bowl is round, but it's not flat, is it? Just.. Christ, forget it. Grab that cutting board you had in your hands. Perfect. Put it down.On the counter, not the floor. Much better. Alright, you're ready to start. You need bread. P

Thoughts On Life #2
heres the deal life suck no matter what so just get on with the good stuff and forget the bad if this was true in real life there would be alot less drama and bull shit like that so just get on with your life and dont worry about any thing you only live once ~fallen angel~

~girls Night Out~
OMG ...we had an awesome time. We went to the Funny Bone in Huntington ..the comedians were simply hilarious. The food was good and we just had fun. Then I got this big bright idea to go to the gay bar. Now that was fun! ha ha ha...I got completely shitfaced. I think I had like 6 beers and 4 shots of tequila ..woooo weeee ...I was the life of the party then. I got into a conversation about blow jobs with a gay guy - imagine that! He was telling me how to give one! Paaaaalease boy! I didn't argue though - I was a good girl and just noded and went on. I didn't figure I was going to win that one - at least in his mind. LOL We had a great time. Although the 4 other girls I went with didn't really enjoy the gay bar too much ...ha ha ha! imagine that once again! They said I was the entertainment - hey everybody has to be something :) I'm thinking we need to at least have a girls night out once a month

=
Over the last few weeks a lot of things have changed. And honestly only about 2 people will understand this entry. Ive finally come to terms with things with Matt and Stephen. Ive finally realized im completely over Matt, and honestly im proud of myself. I will admit, i dont really know what else to do or say when it comes to my best friend. = Or anything else. But ive come to a few conclusions. Always let yourself be happy. Reguardless of what happens next, and never forget the steps you took to get to the road ahead, cause those steps are learning expirences. Ive meet some awesome people in the last few days. Like steve, i love you hun

Dischorded Emotion
Screaming, sobbing, wailing Tunes of a tortured soul. Dischords and missed harmony Striking madness into the mind's ear. Crashing, percussive beat Of a breaking, hurting heart. Tuneless melody of sorrow Off-key and wounded, Mindless, seeking solace Finding only shrieking chaos. Slicing slashing pain Escalating notes of misery, And then... ...Only Silence. copyright 2006 d r hyden

Storm Of Grief
The air sags with the heaviness of grief, Anger and rage are searching for a voice Overwhelming, suddenly, all hope of reprieve The heavens burst in a storm of wailing. Their gasping pouring desolation finds its voice in thundering strobes. The gales of their moaning whip the earth with their fury and despair. Finally spent, a grieving silence settles deeply. Joy begins to lift the darkness, as the clouds of sorrow begin to part. The trees weep with gratitude, splashing their tears onto the foliage as the sky finally finds the courage to smile once more. © 2005 d. r. hyden

Dreaming Of Middle Earth
Out of step, and out of place, Somewhere in this Human Race There's got to be a niche That I can call my own. Should have been born in a time Of castles, wizards, and of rhymes. That Hobbits and Elvenkind And Dragons called their home. Where folks go on magic quests, Rings are cursed and heroes blessed, Adventure is the rule And I could find myself. A heroine, I could be Bound in chains, and yet break free. To save the distressed Knight, And win the heart of an Elf. But here I sit, home instead, Dreaming most, of books I've read, Fantasy is better Than Real Life any day. So heavy heart, I lift my head, Put book away, and go to bed. Alas, my life of Dreams, And dreams all fade away. © 2005 D R Hyden

Death Of A Soldier
A fine soldier passed today As he lay here in the sand While mortality was fading I held his dying hand. As the light in his eyes faded I pulled him up to me Hand-in-hand we walked away Across the yellow sea. In a steamy jungle years ago I fought in Viet Nam While fighting for my country The Father took me home. I came back to lend a hand When brother's time had come Mother's heart will surely break Now both her sons are gone. ©2003 D. R. Hyden

Grandmother
We grieve for ourselves, not those who have passed, for they are in a far better place. Grieve for yourself and for those who will feel the loss. Then the joy of the life can fill you. Grandmother: Soft hands, Strong Heart. Loving arms, Now we're apart. Laughter ringing In my ears. So many memories, Over the years. I light a candle For you this night. I love you so With all my might. With your parting There is a space My heart is torn It's out of place Your warm smile Your loving ways Well be with me All my days. I love you

A Bad Night
I ache, I weep, I die inside. I see the world, And want to hide. I ache, I hurt, I want it gone. How I hate, To see the dawn. Where have you been, I am so blue, Here I am, I don’t have you. I don’t want to think. I don’t want to feel. I don’t want to know, That this is real. Men want my body, But not my heart. My soul is lost, It’s torn apart. How many tears, Must I yet shed. To release this pounding, In my head. I want to scatter, Into the breeze. I beg and cry, Upon my knees. I fall apart, Without a hope. I can’t go on. I cannot cope. Into the night, Let lose my soul. So it may find, What makes it whole.

So What's Up With Folks Anyway?
I have over 700 virtual friends on LC and only 172 have dropped by to rate my page. I've visited each and every one of yours and rated them all! C'mon by sit a spell and rate away!! Pete

Unspoken Words
When I close my eyes I can see the man you are and the man you want to be, and I want nothing more than to be the one who pushes you, who gives you strength. The one you come to when you need a shoulder a smile, a kiss. I want to share my world with you, to look into your eyes and know that you understand that this passion, the passion that burns deep within is ignited by simply knowing you talking to you, laughing with you. I would give my last breath so that you never felt one ounce of pain. I would give up my life so that you could live yours, and touch all the world as you have touched mine.

Hi All My Lc Addicts
WOW,,this is fuckin cool, I just wanted to let all my LC friends know that I am having problems replying to your comments as my page is taking 15 minutes or longer to load because of my stupid internet provider. I am trying to get the problem fixed but they are being assholes. Thankyou everyone for the lovely comments that you have sent and I promise that as soon as I can sort this shit out with my internet I will be sending out comments to you all. NiceNNaughty just dont know it yet that she is gonna help me to send em out to ya'll,,,hehe love ya NNN. Love ya'll and stay safe PEACE!!

Fall- The Depressing Season
I don't know about anyone else but fall really makes me depressed. I think it's because everything we looked forward to in the summer is now dying.I lost my best friend when I was 15 during the fall and my grandmother within two weeks of each other , I think that's what my major problem with it is. I just start thinking.It feels like it is the season of everything to come to an end if that makes any sense.I usually will listen to really depressing music to depress myself more, oxy-moron , I know, but somehow being more sad makes me happy in the long run.I want to share a poem I wrote about my cousin/ best friend Becky. If anyone has ever lost anyone really important in their life they can relate. My Becky ( March 1st 1984 to October 26th 2000) Life without you......... How could this be... Just 6 years ago... God took you from me... I know it may sound indulging... But the pain is still so true.... Everyday I still feel blue... I love you like my

Booyah!
Well......here we are.......the world known as my blog!! and I am the king it's good to be king.... i don't know what the fuck to write so I'll do a little dance! *dances my ass off with precise cheeseness* oh yeah! expect better stuff soon..........or else! mwahahahahaha

It's Thirsty Thursday-
which means only one thing....it's almost Friday!! lol And I will not be on tomorrow night, but you guys can leave me some love for saturday morning!! I will be going out to the club ((as usual!!)) with my girls to geta lil crunk and shake my ass!! ((woot woot!!)) I'll make sure to bring my cam along, cause you never know what's gonna happen when us girls drink too much!! LMAO well if you know any of us, you DO- but it's ok anyways!! :)

The Murder Of My Duck
been tryin to figure out what has happened to 2 of my ducks and today i found out. my neighbors dog murdered another one of my ducks and im not happy this has happened. im tired of dogs killing my anaimals and im going to get revenge after telling my neighor what has happened. the dog is still trying to get back there and get the remaining 6. so far raising ducks is expensive. the original duck i rescued at the shelter was killed 2 weeks ago, body never found but now i know this dog took it, the 2nd duck i rescued at shelter, same faith. i found 4 more ducks at a different shelter and well, 3 hours later, 3 flew away and the remaining one died 4 months later from i suspect dog bites. so thats 4 ducks this dog has killed and will bring it up with neighbor. i got 2 more ducks at a duck farm, the male died two months later and still got the female. back in may i got 6 more ducks but they were 3 weeks old and now their big as u can see on my pic tab. so out of the 14 ducks i had, 6 re

Call Me When Your Sober
Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind. Should I let you fall? Lose it all? So maybe you can remember yourself. Can't keep believing, We're only deceiving ourselves . And I'm sick of the lie, And you're too late. Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind. Couldn't take the blame. Sick with shame. Must be exhausting to lose your own game. Selfishly hated, No wonder you're jaded. You can't play the victim this time, And you're too late. Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind. You never call me when you're sober. You only want it cause it's over, It's over. How could I have burned paradise? How could I - you were never mine. So don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. Don't lie to me, Just get your things. I've made up

Unwind.
i guess people were bitching about the new blog posts being in a new alert column cuz it's fixed. niiiiiice. so what's everyone doing tonight? i was thinking about drinking and being an ass on cam, but now i'm kinda tired. dammit jim! today was long and tiring as usual. i took my math exam and passed! =D so i don't have to go to school on monday to retake it. yay! i'm bored, listening to music.. anyone wanna cam with me later? haha one time offer, i swear i might reject you, but it's worth a shot. SCHWING! bring on the alcohol! -C

Chris Rock's Quotes
"You know the world is going crazy when the best rapper is a white guy, the best golfer is a black guy, and the tallest guy in the NBA is Chinese. The Swiss hold the America's Cup, France is accusing the US of arrogance, Germany doesn't want to go to war, and the three most powerful men in America are named 'Bush', 'Dick' and 'Colon'."

What Would You Do???
What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life. I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will. In times of trouble, In times of need, If you are feeling SAD, You can count on me. I will give you a wink, Until you smile, give you a hug, And stand by your

Mile High
I tried to join the Mile High Club while living in Europe, but it didn't work out too well. You walk in the bathroom fully clothed and come out missing your pants, covered in that strange blue shit....your passport is missing. When you land, you to submit to a cavity search & profiling from airport security. It was the closest I've come to a real date in years. It was a bit of a let down though...the security oofficer didn't buy me dinner - or even say thank you

Boner Jams 2003
David: I'm not gay I'm just celibate. Cal: I think? I mean, that sounds ga- I just want you to know this is like the first conversation of like three conversations that leads to you being gay. Like... there's this and then in a year it's like, "Oh you know, I kinda wanna, ya know, get back out there but I think I like guys" and then there's the big, "Oh I'm I'm a gay guy now". David: You're gay for saying that. Cal: I'm gay for saying that? David: You know how I know you're gay? Cal: How? How do you know I'm gay? David: Because you macramed yourself a pair of jean shorts. Cal: You know how I know *you're* gay? You just told me you're not sleeping with women any more. David: You know how I know that you're gay? Cal: How? Cuz you're gay? and you can tell who other gay people are. David: You know how I know you're gay? Cal: How? David: You like Coldplay. You know how I know that you're gay? Cal: How? David: You like the movie "Maid in Manhattan". Cal: You kno

One Of My Sex Stories
warning this is an adult story :) The Spa I get home from a long day at work and find you in the spa. I hurry to get changed and join you. You are wearing that one peice suit I love on you so much. I pull you onto my lap as we kiss and cuddle. I slowly let my hands roam your your body enjoying both the feel of your body and the warm bubblering water. As I kiss you one hand cups our breast as I drop the other over your belly going lower till its on your swimmer glad pussy. I hear you let out a small moan as I rub your nipple as Im kissing your neck. I slowly pull the swimmers down over your sholders so that your breasts are exposed to the water and my sight. I play with your nipples making them harder then they were before. I stand you up to fully undress you. I pull the swimmers down over your hips then down your leps as you giggle. I kiss your belly and nipples again before asking you to sit on the edge of the spa. You sit there legs wide. I place one leg over my sholde

My Ode To Lostcherry
We talk on this thang we call Lostcherry, During the day your words seem to carry. I check my home page everyday, I goto reply and I think of what to say. Hopeing you are repling I wait a while, I look at your picture and it makes me smile. I goto message you back to tell you a tale, After I'm done I click send and hope it doesn't Fail. Back and forth till up comes the sun, Who knew meeting new people could be so fun. Addicting it may seem to be, We are lucky we have Lostcherry and its free. You take the good and you take the bad, You take them both and there you have. My ode to Lostchery.

What Am I?
What Am I? You find Me Between Virtue and crime Dancing among the shards of your shattered dreams. I dont Need A reason I've got nothing but time To slowly drag you into insanity. And no Prayers No crosses No candles you light Will ever build a wall between you and me. So dont Dare Deny me I'm a part of your mind Inside the people you want and the things that you need. I am Hatred I am Sin I'm the doubts that keep you locked up within. I am Treason I am Shame I'm inside of you and I wont be tamed. I am silver I am gold I'm the face you'll see when you sell your soul.

Random Thoughts About Lc...
Well lets see my first blog...I am really glad I came across LC. I have meet some very interesting people to say the least...a couple of people who no matter how much time goes by I will never be able to forget...one of those people I have alot in commen with...he knows who he is..I just want to thank each & everyone who is in my friends/family, each of u has made some of my days ALOT better...

Share With Me
Share with me your feelings above, Embrace the facts of heaven sent love. Share the warmth of the nature Of us and of future. The climate changes when you are around, From darkend skies to that of light abound. Sing to me of your love, or it's lack So that one day it will be sung back. Perfect are the days gone by, But with out you they longer lie. Quell the fear inside your heart Entangle the conscience choice apart. Share with me the choice of fact That we can not abandon and crack The love of which is being shown Of how much short time we have grown. Of this I can say one thing We have rendered ourselves to love's claim Joining is a simple choice to make That of which we can not fake Alas, the fear overrides Both with out doubt and lies Do I see what future holds. So I sit and wait to unfold, Greet me now, with your reaching arms. Let me swoon you with unravering charm. Bring us together. Not now or ever Will I embark on a different quest For you will always be my guest Settle with

Damn Its Bad To Miss Someone This Bad
whoever said love didnt cause problems was wrong!! if ur not fighting your missing the hell outta them. so either way ya go ya lose!! lol i know off the wall. oh well gotta love me.hehe

I Think I Should Categorize....
I have been doing some thinking as I browse through the L.C. about the different types of people that get on here. I have been a part of L.C.for quite sometime, MySpace before that, and before all these online communities I was a chat room junkie too. So, basically it is about 10-12 years of experience talking here. Through all of this I have broken down the people who belong to these groups into one of five categories...and yes, I definitely belong to one of them. The categories and explanation follow: 1. Attention Cravers: Also known as attention whores, but I am not a fan of the whore expression. I mean a whore suggests that the person is giving something in return for what they are given...this is not the case with this group. Put simply these people put pics up until they are inundated (sp?) with comments and sexually explicit suggestions. They thrive on this attention! Many "experts" would suggest they are suffering from low self-esteem. I would disagree with this..

What Women Want...and By
So, I've compiled a list of traits neccesary in the perfect mate. If I've missed anything, ladies, go ahead and say so. 1. He must have a job...or some other means of paying his own way. if it's illegal, I don't wanna know about it. That way I can't be forced to testify against you when you get caught. 2. He must have his own transportation. (exceptions may be made in special cases as long as he's willing to pay for gas in these days of rising fuel costs.) At the very least he should have a valid drivers' license. I'm sick of being the chauffeur. 3. He must have a sense of humor AT LEAST as sick and twisted as mine. If we don't get each other's jokes there's no point in telling them and without laughter there is nothing. 4. He must not have a jealous nature. Most of my friends are guys because, in general, most women I've known have proven themselves to be selfish catty bitches(No offense to the lovely ladies on this site. I'm not talking about any of you.) Plus, I'm bi, so

Just A Little About Myself:
Please let me start off by introducing myself to you. All of my close friends call me Hell. I am a Sanguinarian, which is a blood drinker or better known to the vast main populace as a vampire. Even though I think that title is a little funny since there are many more types of vamps out in the world than most realize. My life has always tended to lean more to the darker side of this world and the world beyond it. If I am approached in a posituve manner than I am very open to helping out others that may have questions or need help. I do have a caring heart and am rather eager to help improve other people's moods. If you are one of the darker side of this world please make yourself at home in my little space in the shadows. If you are not a creature such as myself please feel free to send any questions you may have but please understand that I may be reluctant to share my information until I have had the chance to get to know you better.

Profile Substance
Welcome and good day my curious blog readers ... To follow up and hopefully complete the "frustration" topic of discussion. Today is about profiles and how much I miss reading yours. With said problems mentioned in my first two blogs ... (for those of you who might of join this in progress: my computer sucks and I get booted attempting to open most every page "Lost Cherry" has to offer) Well, the thing I miss is reading peoples profiles (assuredly I'm not the only person who still likes to read those things -- Am I?) Although in today's aesthetic loving world, some people opt to jump right into photo browsing and skip getting to know the person. Me, I'd rather see a great profile -then- if they seem interesting *rate* the profile (tens only) fan them if indeed they have something - somewhat entertaining or interesting about them. Then I move on to the photos. My point today is: I wish that I had that ability to go to more profiles -yes- ... but the latter part is w

To Be Or Not To Be
The heart races with Love swelling inside head makes the world spin around me conflict swelling up inside of me head screaming the Love will end all Love is doomed to die heart softly wispering: the Love is a wonder, not everyone can find it, even if it is only fleeting emotion Is wanting Love forever asking for to much?

Best B Readin It Says Alot About Who U R
For those who are on my friend list... See... some of you do pay attention! For those who are on my friend list...I totally have to agree with all of you who say people are getting fake In here. So I gave in and let's see who really reposts this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. It serves to eliminate people who are desperately trying to add "friends" like its a popularity contest in High School. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are.. Repost this if you are a friend.. if you don't, you get deleted.. Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as (numerous things such as "Goodbye LostCherry, Too all my friends, etc.)

Im Just Being True
HELLO THIS IS MY FIRST BLOG HER AY LOSTCHERRY NOT SURE IF IT IS NEW OR I JUST DIDNT SEE IT,BUT IM A DO THE SAME KINDA BLOG I DO EVERYWHERE ESLE..I SOME HOW GOT OVER 300 FRIENDS ON HERE AND WELL ONLY A HANDFUL KEEPS IT REAL,AND COMMENTS. IM NOT HERE TO COLLECT FRIENDS I SIMPLY WANT COMMENTS AND TO MEET NEW FRIENDS AND NOT HERE FOR THE DAMN PIONTS OR ECT.SO DO NOT BE SURPRISED IF I DELETE YOUR ASS. :-) AND IF I OFFEND YOU THEN GET THE HELL OUT MY HOUSE!!!!!! OK I FEEL BETTER STARTING TONIGHT IM DELETING PPL.. HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS AND BITESSSSSSSSSS HUGSSSSSSSSS AND BITESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS MUAH I LOVE YALL MUCHES! LaDy VaMpReSs

Wow...wish I Knew!
I just found out today that my "best guyfriend" in Cali joined the Marines. I havent talk to him in years and I find this out today...wish I had a way to get a hold of him. I am proud of him and would like to let him know that. Bisexualvampyre

Racism, Intolerance & Survivor
For the first time in many years, I am not watching the TV show Survivor. And I know a lot of you whom usually would agree with my blog postings won’t agree with this one, but I am writing it anyway. I grew up as an Army brat. Although we lived all over the USA, there is one thing I was never exposed to until I was an adult; Racism. Ok, two, Racism and Intolerance. Growing up I was taught to judge man on their actions, not their skin color. My mother often used to say, “God made people in all flavors just like ice cream.” and then the first time I heard someone utter the word “Nigger” my mother calmly explained that it was a bad word meaning the person was trash and that the person using the word was ignorant and there was just as much or more white trash as there was any other color. Throughout the years it has been my contention that organizations such as, but not limited to the NAACP and Affirmative Action do more to keep racism alive than any other factor. But now we

Women Should Know
I think all the ladies out there need to know something. These are a few of my beliefs that I try to let all my female friends know: Your beautiful. And you should know and believe it. Beauty is not skin deep, it has nothing at all to do with appearances. Beauty has to do with the quality of one's soul, it comes from within. Your personality and character are what makes you beautiful, not your physical appearance. There will always be someone more physically attractive than you, however it does not take away from yours. Never hold yourself to someone else's standards, you can never live up to societies ideal of a perfect woman. Its your flaws that truly shine out your perfection. Be confident, hold your chin high and take the world head on. Confidence is what draws attention. Smile more often. The most beautiful feature of a woman is her smile, show it off. Don't ever let someone else bring you down. There will always be someone who will say bad things about you, ignore them. The on

Once I Loved A Boy...
Once upon a time i fell in love with a boy he promised me the world i told him i was scared to start another relationship he promised he would never hurt me for awhile we were right for awhile i could sleep at night then one day we got into a fight day after day week after week we argued all the time i thought i would loss my mine i loved him so much but it hurt with every touch i tried to work through it i tried to ignore it i tried to stop it but i ended up drowning in it i let everything he did just be i knew he couldnt see how much it hurt me i felt that i had changed into something i hated the jealous type the dependent type the overbearing type i became the type of female that believed everything he said soon i started feeling like lead i just felt a heavy heart i didnt feel real smart so i did what i had to do for me i left the boy be i no longer feel the pain i no longer feel depressed or anxious or happy or sad or mad or dumb i dont feel anything i just feel numb

Women Are Like Flowers...
This is something that I stumbled across while I was surfing for porn (did I type that out loud?). Anyway, it made me think of some of the wonderful women I know past and present. To them I wish all the happiness in the world (even if it's not with me)!

Have You Never Loved Someone
Have you never loved somebody and they wouldn't give you the time of the day or even look at you.This is my feelings everyday. If I didn't have all of you on here I would have a very boring life. The Person on here that I like and love doesn't even know it and I'm not going to name him but he knows who he is and I will never turn my back on him either. I rant to long.

Expensive Monkey Near Air Force Base
A tourist walked into a pet store and was looking at the animals on display. While he was there, a Chief Warrant Officer from the local air base walked in and said to the shopkeeper "I'll take a 933 monkey, please". The shopkeeper nodded, went to a cage at the side of the store, and took out a monkey. He put a collar and leash on the animal and handed it the Chief, saying, "That'll be $2,000." The man paid and left with the monkey. The surprised tourist went to the shopkeeper and said, "That was a very expensive monkey. Most of them are only a few hundred dollars. Why did that one cost so much?" The shopkeeper answered, "Ah, that's a 933 monkey. He can build pallets of freight, plan aircraft loads, rig loads for airdrops, drive forklifts, type manifests, heat meals for officers, and perform the duties of any Traffic Tech with no back talk or complaints. It's well worth the money" The tourist then spotted a monkey in another cage. "That one's even more expensive! $10,000! What do

Who I Am!!!!!!!
I am a very Sweet Person to know! I'm not evil,not mean to anyone,I can get along with anybody,I am not a pervert, just a good guy who is friendly!I'm not trying to get with anyone,if somebody mention getting together,I promise you it will be you first!So we could be good friend,I'm safe for you!!!!!

Tonight
(I wrote this a while ago so opinions are welcomed) As I lay here tonight. I stop and think of you wishing i was there with you holding you tight. Knowing that you are wishing the same thing but know mylove, I am there beside you. Listen to me whisper to you tonight. As I wrap my arms around you tight. Baby I love you. I have since the first moment our hearts met. I promise you I'm not going anywhere without you. Cant you feel me? I'm holding your hand. Shhh Shhh Baby please don't cry It's alright i'm here, Your safe in my arms. I havnt left your side. I never will I promise you. Oh please baby hush thoughs tears I know you hurt inside. I hurt too, Not being there with you. Shhh my princess, I'm not far Think of me holding you tight. As our bodies bask in the moonlight. Dry thoughs tears, Please baby I havn't gone anywhere. I havn't left your side. My fingers are wrapped around yours I'm not letting go. I Love You My Darling. I Love Y

Fallen
Forever Yours So many a thing i see but nothing quite as breath taking as the look within your eyes within the way i kissed you and the way you held my hand the world could shake and the sky could fall But nothing mattered but you, me and our hearts We may be apart but my heart still resides with yours this earth can shake the sky can fall I will die knowing my heart is still with yours He may kiss you he might hold your hand But nothing can replace the feeling that remains One day maybe Maybe it will change till then My heart is for ever yours

Helping Out
for a married couple isnt it the husbans duty to take care of his wife?The last 4 nights in a row my room mates mom came up to me and started to chew me out for her son slacking of his duty to take care of his wife.like im am to get her car a tune up and bye her food as long with my own andput her and her husban on a famoliy plan on my cell plan. i was wtf this bitch is crazy.my room mate makes more money than i do. Im a low paying cook at pizza hut that is at rock bottem trying to get back up. does this make me sound like an ass when i say i cant afford to take care of my room mate and his wife and the 2 kids?????

Dedication To Canadianmeany....
Canadianmeany@ LostCherry Jen is a friend that can make you feel like you are the luckest person in the world. She has a way with turning you from being upset to laughing your butt off as you are talking to her. Everything about her makes you just feel like you have found a person that you could be with without ever being let down. She has eyes that could make you go breathless just by looking at them. Her smile could make a whole room erupt in smiles. She is one of the sweetest girls on LC. Without her I would feel lost. She is one of the reasons I still come to LC and always makes me feel better when I am down, and fantastic when I am feeling great. She makes you just want to grab her in your arms and just swing around in a great big hug. When she is on, you feel like you seeing someone you love for the first time in years. You feel like at that specific moment is the best thing that ever happend to you. Her name may

Dedication To Magilla....
magilla@ LostCherry LOL what can I say about this guy. Well for one thing you all better say thank you to him. He the one that introduced me to LC. Without him I wouldn't be here. *Will have to figure some stuff out on how to mkae his page cool. MAYBE SOME TEDDY BEARS WOULD YOU LIKE THAT MAGILLA*

Naughty Riddles.
Naughty Riddles Q.What do you call a virgin on a waterbed? A: A cherry float. Q: What's the fluid capacity of Monica Lewinsky's mouth? A: 1 US leader Q: What did the sign on the door of the whorehouse say? A: Beat it - we're closed. Q: Why do walruses go to Tupperware parties? A: To find a tight seal. Q: What's the difference between sin and shame? A: It is a sin to put it in, but it's a shame to pull it out. Q: What's the Speed limit of sex? A: 68; at 69 you have to turn around. Q: Why did Raggedy Ann get thrown out of the toy box? A: She kept sitting on Pinocchio's face, and moaning, "Lie to me!" Q: Why is air a lot like sex? A: Because it's no big deal unless you're not getting any. Q: What's another name for pickled bread? A: Dill-dough. Q: Why are Monica Lewinsky's cheeks so puffy? A: She's withholding evidence. Q: What's the difference between light and hard? A: You can sleep with a light on. Q: Why is sex

Saturday
So here's how I'm doing today... Have been sick the last few days, have the flu. Can barely move and am SOOOO dehydrated. They sent me home from work yesterday because they didn't want me to get everyone else sick. If only someone was here to take care of me. :-( Alas, I ache all over and the theraflu only helps for a little bit. Will get back with more later.

Sotd - This Year's Love
by David Gray This years love had better last Heaven knows it's high time I've been waiting on my own too long But when you hold me like you do It feels so right ah now I start to forget How my heart gets torn When that hurt gets thrown Feeling like yuh can't go on Turning circles and time again It cut like a knife oh now If you love me got to know for sure 'Cause it takes something more this time Than sweet sweet lies oh now Before I open up my arms and fall Losing all control Every dream inside my soul When you kiss me On that midnight street Sweep me off my feet Singing ain't this life so sweet This years love had better last This years love had better last Cause whose to worry If our hearts get torn When that hurt gets thrown Don't yuh know this life goes on Won't you kiss me On that midnight street Sweep me off my feet Singing ain't this life so sweet This years love had better last This years love had better last This years love had bet

Todays Romance
Modern Day Romance The romance of past is not the romance of today, that kind of true romance has sadly slipped away. True and lasting love now seems so out of reach, the age of technology love is not the kind my parents used to teach. We call persons FRIEND today with a keyboard and a smile, When all the while, deep inside we know there not our style. Each day we wake, come to a terminal and check for new email, While on this super highway our happiness may someday sail. Honesty, openness, feeling to express...don't you dare, its how hot someone is you must say if you really want to impress. Who am I to say these things, why should I be trusted? I don't really careif you do, I am just disgusted....

Lover's Dance
by Poet deVine Glistening bodies entwined in an ageless erotic dance, seeking pleasures from each other, seeking wonder and romance. She touches his face with tenderness. He draws her body near. Aching, needing hunger will make their destiny clear. Their lips meet in soft kisses, their tongues begin passion's war. Forgotten now, the outside world. All is here, behind this door. He strokes her body tenderly, she arches up for his caress. He finds her silken portal and her womanly wetness. She moans in fiery desire and pulls his hand away, wishing to end this exquisite torture and get on with passion's play. She straddles his waiting body, eases him into her feminine hollow. She leads him on a rhythmic dance, his thrusting hips must follow. She rides him faster, even then, to hear his wondrous sighs. She shows him all the delights she has between her womanly thighs. They stare into each other's eyes and gasp as ecstasy unr

No Mystery
No Mystery by Gothic You look into my eyes and see things you don't understand. Am I a mystery? I think not. You look at my smile; You search for something that isn't there. Am I a mystery? I think not. You listen to my voice, and call me an angel. This angel is flesh and blood, Not a doll to be put on show. You see - I'm not a mystery. I am me. I am flesh and blood. Touch me; I wont break. There's no mystery here. Caress me; feel the warmth. I'm not a mystery; I am Woman. Here I am - desires abound; Relentless and sensuous - yours to caress Like a flower; make me bloom. Don't stop; not even to rest! No mystery here; Just a Woman. I feel the weight of your body against mine; Your heaving breath upon my skin. The most gentle touch on my thigh, The soft nibbling on my breasts - Moving slowly in a downward motion. Now you see, I'm no mystery; I am YOUR Woman. I am all Woman.

A Poem I Wrote For My Mom
in memory of my moth Dandelions From Heaven Mothers Day is coming...and I wanted to send you a sign... Something you can tell others..."Is from an angel of mine". So I searched the Heavens high and low for that perfect thing.. And low and behold I found it....and a smile I hope it will bring. So when you look to the Heavens...and see the yellow stars in the sky... Just think of me...your angel... in the Heavens way up high... And just imagine those stars...are dandelions up above... Yes! Dandelions are also in Heaven...,which you know how much I love. So on this Mothers Day... when you awake and feel blue... You will notice those yellow stars...are no longer in view... So just look to the meadows and the dandelions you see.... Are the ones I've tossed down this Mothers Day from me! And when you find a dandelion that has turned from yellow to white... You're supposed to make a wish...and then blow with all your might. For you will be blowing

For Rose
With every passing day my love grows But how much you could never know I love you more than anything, anyone For me girl, you will remain the only one I wish someday you would be my wife It’s with you that I wish to spend my life You’re the one for whom I’ll always care When you need me I’ll be there It’s thoughts of you that I hold dear Your words I’ll remember through the years My sweet flower, you really are all I can see You’re precious and mean the world to me

Our Unorganized Military
Well as far as I know my husband is still in Turkey, though I havent heard from him in over a day last I heard his flight had been moved back three times b/c the next base is full. For those of you that dont know every branch is switching out soldiers this month. What I would like to know is where the new guys are going to sleep if they cant get the old guys out. Anyway I'm still waiting, hes supposed to be home Monday but its not lookin' like that is going to happen. Say a quick prayer for the militarys organizational skills for me, and ya'll have a good weekend.

I Want To Make Love To You
I want to make love to you By Eric T Brown AKA Dark Passion Honey stop don’t take off your clothes making love has nothing to do with sex, I don’t have to touch you to make love to you. I’ll make love to you by drawing your bath after a hard day, by rubbing your tired feet when been on them all day. I want to make love to you by holding your hand every time we walk together, by just call you at work just to say I love you and then hang up. My lady it is the little things that count. Sometimes I just love to look into your eyes, seeing your warmth and passion. Just the sound of your voice makes my heart sing, honey are you ready to make love real love for the rest of your life?

More About How Too
Some women don't know how to orgasm, while others need nothing more than a whisper to reach orgasmic heights. And then there are the others -- those women who have the capability to squirt their juices all over the bed, the floor, or even you. Although I'd like to believe that every woman is capable of reaching such heights of sexual ecstasy, unfortunately, there are many women out there who disagree. And if they're not willing to open their minds to the idea of ejaculating, no matter how hard I try to convince them (yeah, it's a dirty, messy job, but someone's gotta do it), then that's their prerogative. Nevertheless, if you've got yourself a woman who is very sexually in tune with herself, and would be willing to let you manipulate her vagina until she ejaculated all over you, then today's tip is going to leave you soaking wet. before she starts squirting As I've already mentioned, a woman's ejaculate is expelled from the urethra, the same place that urine comes out from.

Sharp Things Make Me Happy
alot of things calm me down especially a knife thats a rusty brown slit slit slit is all u hear all u see is one fallen tear death shall come to those who care should i make it true and take that dare shit gets hard u try and act tough ur home life is rough lock ur self inside ur room droplets fall like bombs and go kaboom i guess its time to bring out ur lil friend its time to just let the pain begina and let everything else end alot of things calm me down especially a knife thats a rusty brown slit slit slit is all u hear all u see is one fallen tear death shall come to those who care should i make it true and take that dare ur lover dumped ur and ur really sad ur best friend fucked her and ur fucking mad thinkin ima kill that guy or maybe its my time to die pull out ur butterfly with old blood stains renimissing all ur old forgotin pain alot of things calm me down especially a knife thats a rusty brown slit slit slit is all u hear all u see is one fallen tear death sh

See You In Your Dreams Tonight
The party's over, you're in the corner, you're all alone for the night And you pick up a phone, you want me to hold Well dry your eyes, it's alright, it's alright See you, feel you in your dreams tonight See you, feel you in your dreams tonight, dreams tonight When you're in the room, you're home too soon, you can't get me out of your mind And you get in bed, you cover your head, my letter to you is signed I love you, you know I do, but take me home tonight And think of me, I think of you, baby baby it's alright, it's alright yeah When you're in the room, you're home too soon, you can't get me out of your mind When you get in bed, you cover your head, my letter to you is signed And this is what I'm sayin' For My Firestarter:You know who you are See you, feel you in your dreams tonight. See you

Make Love Or Fuck
After talking to a few of the ladies on my list. I am really starting to wonder what females prefer now days. It seems as though the art of making love is fading away like a limp dick. To me this is so sad. Anyone can fuck, but it take someone special to make love. I have always said you do not have to be in love with the person to make love. All you have to do is show her that you care and that it is a honor to be with her. It seems as though fucking is taking over. Now I am not saying that I do not like to have sex hard and fast. But I still enjoy holding and softly touching every sweet place on a females body. Learning the curves, finding the soft spots. Kissing them and licking here and there. Come on ladies, tell me what the rest of you enjoy..

Men!
Im not too happy with them right now. Last weekend, the weekend of the 8th-10th I was stood up 3 times by 3 different guys. Thats right 3 in one weekend. The first one made plans to watch a movie. Well before he came his friend asked him to come to a party he said he would stop by. And he did. This wouldn't have bothered me if he called and cancelled but he didn't do that. He apologized the next day and I told him if he would have called I wouldn't be so mad. Well then he said I forgot. I asked him what he forgot. And he said I forgot I could call. With this answer I was more angry. How can you forget you can call someone?!?!?! Well guy #2 Dustin, he came home on leave we hung out a couple of times. Well then sometime during that week he said he would stop by over the weekend...he never did. Never even called or said anything to me. Well then theres guy #3 who is actually an ex boyfriend who wants or says he wants to get back together with me. Well he was going to come down to see me a

Dipstiiiick!
On the way home I was listening to the radio and "Everything Zen" by Bush came on and it reminded me of how my best friend and I used to argue about song lyrics and how one of us thought Gavin was saying "Schwazi was my wife..." instead of "Try to see it once my way..." and "There's no sense in your violence..." instead of "There's no sex in your violence". Oh all those arguements over stupid things... it was so much fun once we finally got the words straight we would sing it the wrong way and laugh about it.

Daddys Poem!
(if this doesn't get to you, nothing will)(grab a tissue before you read) Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees; a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher ca

Uhhhhh....
Blahblahblah...oh...sorry... sunday...bike license day...still feel like a bag of runny shit set out in the sun on a busy highway... thanks to allllllll my beautiful friends out there in this wacky fucking cherry land...nice tits y'all!!! except you Ray... no seriously...gives an anti-social type person who has trouble with people an actual chance to meet people...now before everyone starts thinkin I'm goin soft...did I mention nice tits y'all??

Killing Time...
Turn on the lights, make me a tapestry, go start a fire, get close to the gasoline... i followed you to the deep end, i was helpless but still you pulled me in... Now i'm caught in the tide!!! lost! and the odds are bending way, it concerns, some never learn!!!!! She lacerated me! exposing me piece by piece; she saw a weakness in me, and used it against me!!! (she lacerated me!) she lacerated me..... Turn on the lights, make me a porcilean doll, whisper your secrets, can't get to your truth at all... i reached out again and again, i can never believe you'd do me in... Now i'm caught in the tide!!! lost! and the odds are bending way, it concerns, some never learn!!!!! She lacerated me! exposing me piece by piece; she saw a weakness in me, and used it against me!!! she lacerated me! and now i don't know where to go... she lacerated me!..... YEAH!....... yeeeaaaaah, she lacerated me! and now i don't know where to go, she saw a weakness in me (release me from my machine!!!) she lacerated

Encouragement
You can do anything Just put your mind to it And anything could be possible Because you have it in you Keep your thoughts positive That way you believe Believe in yourself And others will believe in you Never give up It won't do you any good Because somewhere there's someone With words of encouragement

Howdy
Well, let's see... i just woke up... kinda growly about it, as usual. starting week two of no day off at work. wondering if anyone will ever read this thing.... if not, oh well... i'll rant to myself... i guess that could be theraputic in it's own way. anyhow, what should i do with this blog? should i make it a journal of my extraordinarily boring life? should use it to post samples of my lame attempts at being a writer? should i develop a sense of righteous indignation and blast about things that just piss me off? perhaps be a bit random and do all of those things? yeah... i think that's the way to go. no structure. no set format. just put down whatever pops into my head from time to time. and if anyone actually does read this thing, please please please comment, have something to say. i'm here for some sort of interaction and conversation, although most times, the best i can hope for from the LC is to kill my boredom by checkin out profiles lookin for boobie pics

If You Ain't Dirty, You Ain't Here To Paarrrtayy
Yes. I'm listening to Christina Aguilera, I don't know why, however. So, yesterday was quite possibly one of the longest fucking days of my life, but it was so fun. I got sunburnt at the football game, but it was so worth it. Lyco rocked Philly. Now, I'm like way so tired from hardly sleeping the last three days, but I'm used to being awake so I can't sleep, and I can't stop complaining, lmafo. I'm watching the Jerry Spring Movie, how exciting?

Never Alone
This reminded me so much of my mom who I lost 10/6/04 I miss you so much momma.This one is for you. Never Alone by Rodney Belcher I feel you in the morning When at first I awake Your thought is with me With each decision I make You'd been around forever Since the first breath I took Now I have to go on alone But for love, I need not look Cause by what you bestowed In our short time together Will last in my heart Forever and ever Although you've left And now walk above I'm never alone I'm wrapped in your love Enjoy now your long waited reward Feel peace that your love continues on What was taught to me, will be taught to mine Cause you live on in me even after you've gone

Last Night
Ok so today I am going to leave a more personal blog. Not sure why Iam going to share this other than if I dont tell someone I am gonna bust..lol Last night I went to a bar called Rum Runners, a great place. There were dueling pianos and a lot of fun. I drank too much, and flirted a lot. But had a great time! I had gone to help my B/F celebrate his 40th B/D. And ended up being his best friends date as to not make my B/F's wife wonder who the hell I was..lol After we left the three of us hooked up later and wow, I had an amazing new lesson in submission last night and I was in heaven. I can not imagine ever feeling more safe and respected as I did last night. The fucking and sucking went on for hours, and I felt well appreciated as well as well used. I was never sure about the being shared thing during sex, but now I understand the motivation behind it a little better I think, and I can not wait to go and do it again.. So to Sir Dean and Dave, Thank you for last nig

Cant View People Viewing My Blogs
ok why is it that i can see people viewing others blogs and i cant see shit on mine. is this some kind of cornspiracy against me or what. the truth is out there and i wanna know. am i doing something wrong or what?. i dont know, about to give up on this thing for good.

Ive Had A Wicked Day
thankyou to all the wonderful people that i have met on here today , ive had a wonderful day , and have met some realy hot peeps, please come back again and im sure we will find something to chat about xxxxxxxxxxx

Recovered Nicely........
from a hell ofa night!! LMAO so had a fantastic night at the club, once again!! nothing less for me n my girls!! had some drinks (ok maybe too many) and a bottle of champagne~ ((nah- no glasses just the bottle!!)) LOL- and wouldn't you know that i got good n fucked up, and one of the beads from my nipple rings fell out- you want a good laugh?? watch a drunk girl try to put it back!! :) ((hee hee)) I'm crazy, but my friends they love me!! **If you haven't checked out the pics from the night, please do!! they are in the pufferbellies file!!**

Paella
Paella Cooking the rice separately, then combining it at the end makes this is a faster and easier way to make this dish. The tumeric adds a subtle richness and gives the rice an even bolder golden color than saffron alone. Extra virgin olive oil 2 cups rice 2 cups chicken stock 1 scant tsp. salt 1/2 tsp. turmeric 1/8 tsp. saffron crumbled 1 lb. smoked sausage cut in half then sliced into 1/4” pieces (even better is Spanish chorizo, if you can find it, but not Mexican chorizo—it’s completely different!) 1 lb. boneless chicken breast cut into 1” pieces 1 yellow onion, chopped 1 red pepper, coarsely chopped or julienned 4 (or more) cloves garlic, minced 1 heaping Tbsp. tomato paste 1 14 oz. can of quartered artichoke hearts 1 small jar clam juice 1 lb. peeled and deveined medium shrimp 1/2 to 3/4 lb. Calamari and whole baby squid cut into small circles and pieces A dozen or more mussles about 8 oz frozen baby peas In a 2 qt. sauce pan, heat 2 Tbsp olive oil. Li

YOU know what I HATE!!! I hate: that people dont have many real friends anymore-Liars-domestic abusers-cancer-child abusers-depression-poverty-injustice-ignorance-brusselsprouts-vanity-hangnails-selfhate-racism-lack of mental healthcare in USA-100million people in Africa has AIDS-cruelty to animals-people who hide their emotions-pushy & evil people-that our friends and family are on crack but nobody talks about doing something about it-loneliness-YOU!!(just kiddin) LOL

Love In A Drive Thru Society (my Philosophy)
Lets say a relationship is a rose bush. You go to Home Depot and you pick out a new rose bush. You got the best, it has really bright full flowes and really green healthy leaves. In the excitement you buy a new shovel and snippers and a hose with attatchments. You are all set. You get home and kick the old lawn furnature out of the way and rake real quick to make a spot for your new rose bush. You dig the hole and plant your new pride and joy. You tell all your friends about it, its all you can talk about. You are just high. Every day you are out there with your rose bush just loving it. But after the first season the leaves wilt and the flowers die. And since we live in a drive thru society and everything is disposable and super sized, you rip it out of the ground and in your anguish, you say "it wasnt meant to be" "its fate" and you head back to Home Depot for another one. But this time you look at the rose bushes and you say to yourself, the last one did this and that so the next o

Damn My Tiny Brain!
I really wish I'd thought of a better username. Something super-clever that would score points with the ladies. Something like... pussypleaser. Because, damn, that's brilliant. It tells everyone what you're all about AND reveals your inner gift for words all at once.

Why Can't We All Get On?
Why can't we all get on? Because we're different. It's a fact of life, and it's everywhere, from the school food hall, thru the mall, to the bars we hang out in. We all split in to our little groups because that's what we do, we split in to our little groups, and interact with those that we get on with. The world would suck big time, if we all got on, because it would mean we were all the same, all liked the same music, the same clothes, the same taste in everything, we'd all love the same man, or woman, and it would be bland and lifeless. Variety is the spice of life, it's our diversity, and uniqueness that sets us apart, that drives us forward, and makes us what we are, so the question isn't why can't we all get on, but the question is why can't we leave those alone who chose to be apart from us? That is the secret to harmony, not to force people together, but to recognise, acknowledge, and respect our differences, and to leave people to get on with their own lives, a

Sex Scene Of A Hooker
Tragedie struck So I fucked your mothers butt First I greased up a carrot and she made it to the green I learned how to fuck from Twiztid and now im makin her scream TAP TAP TAP OH SHIT Your fathers home from work and now he's knockalockin at the door So I donkey punch that bitch like BLAAAM I love her too much couldnt let her see this death scene I open the door, your pops strolls in Talkin big and bad like he's tough shit So I took my axe and didnt hesitate to crack Im covered in blood and ya mutha's wakin up Im straight up FUCKED

Going To The Uk
Ok yall tell me if this isn't fucked up or wrong.. By law I'm allowed to visit the UK for 6 months on a visa waver, so I desided to go there September 6th. I was gonna spend 6 glorious months with my fiance, than he was gonna come here for 3 weeks before we filed for a visa for me to move there (if I liked the UK). Well when I got to the immigration section they pulled me in for questionning when I said I was going for that long. They than finger printed me, and took my pics, also interigated me for over 3 hrs. To come to the conclusion that since I didn't have a job at that point here in America, I had no reason to return. They figured I was gonna stay there longer than I was suppose to illegally. I even had a return flight ticket to prove I was returning home. They than held me in a room for about 28 hrs, than sent me on a plane back to america, and now I have to b apart from the love of my life a long 5 months. Now yall tell me if yall think that is right.,

Leaven Lc
i just wanted to thank all my friends on here for maken me feel welcomed and wanted to thank you all for becomeing friends with me but i will be leaven lc in a couple of weeks i will miss you all all my love to all you of you

Glitter
This song is dedicated to the young and to the young at heart.. When we make love Its hard to tell If you're dreaming of me. Or someone else? That drunken kiss. Seems like a lie. Don't say its forever. And then say goodbye. Glitter.. Don't ya leave me. Please believe me. I only want your love.. When the morning comes. And the sunshines bright. You're gonna need someone. Someone to treat you right. So don't walk out when you wake up. Let's give it a chance girl Give it a shot, give it a shot now. Glitter.. Don't deceive me. You gotta believe me, I only want your love.. This is fine for now but maybe.. Let's make a baby inside of you.. Its just the time, you gotta find. I want your name on my tattoo. You blow my mind. So tell me. I wanna know. Glitter Shines forever.. Forever and ever. I only need your love. Oh Glitter... Lay your head down here. I'll always be so near. I only want your love... Here comes the here it goes. There goes t

My Life (part 6)
Well, here I am again, lots of things happened, lots of thing happening. The divorce was rough, the loneliness prevails, the hurt is still there..........but, I'm still alive, I'm still pushing, and mainly, I'm still happy! There were a couple of bad spots, some still needing to be fixed, some just plain absurb to have happened. My name was slandered, my honor put to the test, my patience and temper sorely tried. Most for naught, some for good reason. I find it interesting that there are people out there who take what they percieve as a slight to them, and blow it up into a thing so out of proportion and full of lies, that it's nothing NEAR what the truth is. I often shake my head in wonder at the extremes some will go to, merely because they decide to take one persons word as gospel without even attempting to talk to the other person involved. To date, I've been accused of many, many things, things that are so far outside of my personality, and mental traits, that anyo

Weekend
My weekend wa sactually pretty good, went to a friends house and visited it was great, watched movies drank beer and had a good ole time. Played poker last night and won ofcourse. *flips hair*. Today my 49ers won yayyy. so all in all probly the ebst weekend I've had in a month

Butt Dust
Subject: DUST ? This was too cute not to pass on. I think we all remember those times in church with our kids! A visiting minister during the offertory prayer: "Dear Lord," he began with arms extended and a rapturous look on his upturned face, "without you we are but dust..." He would have continued, but at that moment one very obedient little girl (who was listening carefully for a change!)leaned over to her mother and asked quite audibly in her shrill little girl voice, "Mommy, WHAT is butt dust?" Church was pretty much over at that point...

It Still Belongs To You
My whole world My knight in armor My summertime My strength and honor You said you'd always be there I said I believed you So when you're not Who do I turn to? I cant see you My world is cold My light is dim And my tears are old I really really miss you And I know it's not your fault I guess the two of us had Our lives come to a screeching hault The only difference is I'm stuck here And the hardest thing is I dont have you near I know that you can see me When you're looking down As I struggle on In this little 'ole town Please wait for me Hold onto my heart Because it still belongs to you Even though it's ripped apart

Forever You And Me
I lay here.. And I think of you. I hear your laughter. And your sighs. I close my eyes, Feel your touch. You are always here. Outside my window.. I hear the rainfall, As a hundred songs Play through my mind.. Their words so much clearer, Than ever before. Because you make everything Easier to see...better to feel. And I know, You are everything Love is supposed to be. And what we share, Words alone, Could never explain. The feelings we have, Comfort we find in one another. How our souls meet, As if we've always been. And I am so grateful For you, your heart. The way you captivate my mind. How you make me smile. How you love me. So easily, I disappear into you. Everything else fades away, When it is you and me. A special kind of love To never end, To never be forgotten. Forever, You and me.

Chapter One
The moment I walked into the bar, I knew something was up. I couldn’t sense anything. No fear, no lust, no jealousy, no rage- in short, none of the usual emotions that hit me, (or any other clairsentient worth their salt) once I enter a bar. These people- were they zombies? My eye fell on a woman sitting near the entrance. She smiled at a joke her partner was making, showing off canines that were very sharp, very pointy, and very, very un-human. Shiiit, I thought earnestly. Shit shit shit. Of all the bars in LA, I had to walk into a damned vampire bar. The patrons had fallen silent. Many, many pairs of unnaturally beautiful eyes of all hues were on me now. Shit. I walked very slowly up to the bar. The smart thing to do would not be to bolt. Like wolves, vampires are predators. You run, they chase. It’s a sign of weakness, and one does not go showing signs of weakness in a roomful of killing machines that can rip your heart out without even breaking a sweat. Besid

As I stare now into glory I seek to conquer all. I’m sick. I know I’m not well because to look into my heart is to take a journey into hell. I’ve done things that I’ll never tell. I have been broken battered and defeated. The blood may no longer run like a river but the pain is here to tell me that I’m still alive. I’ve been guilty of judging to quickly and I have paid the price. I’ve been addicted to substance and punishment and they got me no where but trapped within my own empathy. Now I must face my bruised reflection daily. Just because I am bruised does not mean that I will bow down and I will give in…..I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again…the pain is here to show me that I’m still alive…Every drop of blood and sweat has it’s own meaning. I live for the pain I do not care what you think what you say…I don’t give a fuck that people stare at me every day. My blood shall flow and it will stain the land for I am one who is to be judged….when that day comes the real horrors will

Lifeless Love...
Touch my cold lips, Hold my hand, With your fingertips, Trace our love, Whisper a sweet thing or two, In my ear, Show me the sun setting with a sky so blue, You know I love you so. I'll take you away, And save you from the merky water, With our bodies so close on the grass we'll lay, In the darkness, Of a cold room, You feel my heart, it's lifeless, But I'm still awake, How can that be, Could this be fake, Or am I just dead, The living dead, I do not wish to scare your nights, I just wanted my beloved, You never knew, In the darkness, Of a cold room, You feel my heart...lifeless.

Now seriously do men actually really believe that by giving girls a few compliemts that its gonna make us all wet and get naked.. I have been giggling at gettn the same messages over and over again sayn how hot i am so will i get on cam and make myself cum for them.. i mean really surely men dont believe a one compliment would work! and would you like to fuck me on cam is not a temptn pick up line.. lmao.. my vibrator gives better pick up lines!! herhehehe

Female Ejaculation...
When it comes to turning a woman on, there’s wet, and then there’s wet. You can learn how to unleash a tidal wave of orgasmic juices in your bed. Read on to find out more about the phenomenon of female ejaculation. How It Works Females ejaculate? Yes, they do. We’re talking about a gusher of fluid spurting out of her pussy as she comes. Actually, to be more accurate, the fluid comes squirting out of her urethra. Don’t let this gross you out, though; it’s not pee! Female cum is a clear, odorless liquid produced by a small organ called the “female prostate,” or urethral sponge, which is located between the urethra and vagina. The fluid it produces just happens to come out of the pee hole, but...so does guys’ semen, right? While some women may experience ejaculation naturally in the course of intercourse or other sex play, most require some concentrated stimulation of the G-spot. Massaging the G-spot causes the urethral sponge to become engorged with fluid, which is then expel

Tell Me Ur Sign?
Taurus (April 20 - May 20) --Don't tease them. It will only piss them off. Taureans are realists. If you say that you are horny: Prepare to be fucked. Taureans are heavy indulgers, though. All forms of indulgence: Sex-drugs-wine-food...whatever their vice may be: they simply cannot get enough. They do not believe in moderation. They will fuck until they are sore. Taurus likes to have sex just for the sake of having sex. What they lack in originality, they make up for in stamina and endurance. Okay...so they may not be into bondage, okay? But they WILL lick you until you have at least three orgasms or until you pass out...whichever comes first. Taurus uses their tongue for EVERYthing...and I mean that. They love to lick people in whipped cream, alcohol, chocolate, flesh and candy???Bring it on! Caution: They are looking for a relationship so be kind to them. They also have a BIG wet thing for scent. Sometimes they don't want a lover to bathe before sex. Or you may find them shaggin

Its Monday =(
Ahh this weekend went by so fast. I hate when that happens. lol. Now its back to the usual stuff...classes and such. Im attempting to find another job, but i really have no idea where to start. so im going to be heading out today to search for something i suppose. I need money...been spending too much of it lately, and need to go back to saving. Its beautiful out today, going to be hitting low 80s here..which is amazing for this time of year up there in rochester ny. haha. Its most likely going to be the last warm summer like day around here. The leaves are starting to change colors and im excited. I love the fall. Its a shame that i have to spend it drving around doing errands. Anywhose, i hope you all have a wonderful day..even though its monday =P

Grimoire Of Beneficial Vengeance
I have this as a podcast on my profile if you would rather listen to it than read it Be Yourself In essence all good things come to those who be themselves. It puts you outside the box. Others see the difference and they become attracted. They want to be with you and warm themselves at your independence. You may attract the weak - it's an occupational hazard. If you attract too many of them you will attract those that prey on them. They will see you as competition - and you can do without that. So you have to ration yourself - by being careful about when and where you come out to play. Reject Guilt If anyone tries to make you feel guilty that should set off immediate warning bells. They will be only trying to manipulate and control you. Your mission does not allow you the time to get sucked into those games. It says in the Art of War that you defeat the enemy by attacking his strategy. It says in the Celestine Prophecy that you collapse a strategy by naming it.

Life..
I wonder why we as human beings always seem to think that when things are at there worst...they will never get better. I myself am guilty of this. I have found myself in the position so many times to just feel tired...to not want to go on. Just stumble around this hectic world until my lottery number comes up and I get hit by a greyhound bus while walking across the street, talking on my cell-phone like a fucking zombie. But it's strange. Some how, some way, things always turn around. They always get better. Do we always recognize this? No...I don't think we do. Sometimes that pit of self-pity that we drown ourselves in feels too comfortable, to warm. Those jacuzzi jets are on full speed hitting you right in the middle of the back, the sweet spot. Who would want to drag themselves away from that when it becomes what we are used too? There have been a few times in my life when I have let the upward climb go completely over my head. I was so miserable I didn't realize

Lost
Love is full of passion, Full of fire and desire. When its lost, the passion fades. How do you move on? What do you do to heal the pain? What do you do with all the acheing? The world seems different, Cause you love no more. You want to love again, You wait for the feeling of * One*. Waiting to be whole again. Because, Without the one you love, What are you?...... Lifeless?!? Michelle*sept 18th 2006*

Ok , Game On
The first carinivore of of hearts has been freed. That means the monster is on the loose again. I have made promises to the ones he hurt before that if would not happen again,,,but that promise might have been premature due to the backbonedness of power. We must watch and make sure our friends and unsuspecting victims do not fall prey again. I will eat his cold black heart. Howl with me pack and lets get this finished.

Never Was As Lonely As The Night
Never felt as lonely as the night in all it's dark solitude with all it's weight of dreams and hopes and fears and though my mind is crowded it's empty by the measures of the universe the golden clouds of gases of masses that swell even the tiniest notion to a magnitude of...

When I Was Younger
When I was a lot younger, I moved to Aizona with a friend. We made the long haul one night. I stayed there at his place and worked with him at the factory where he worked for a while. Later, I decided to try the big city life. So I made the venture to Phoenix. I found a job at a motel as a desk clerk. It was a pretty seedy run down motel, and at night it was rather scary. I did meet some very interesting characters there, though. This is a story about one of those people. It was a fairly quiet night, and this older lady was checking in. She was nice looking and was in her in late 40's or early 50's. She smiled brightly at me as I checked her in. She left and came back a little later. She asked me if I could come down to her room later and help her with something. I said yeah, I could come now. She asked me what time I got off work, and I told her at 11 p.m. "You know my room number" she said to me. "Why don't you come and see me when you get off work". She added. I couldnât bel

Another Update
Well my fellow Cherries!!! I am having my surgry Sept 29 to have my ovary removed. Then 2 weeks from then I will start my Radiation treatments. You guys asked for updates and as I get them I will let all my Friends, Fans and Family know. Keep me in your prayers please. MUCH LOVE and PEACE Melissa

Naughty Horoscopes
Aries (March 21 - April 19) -- Aries LIVES for head massages. ANY part of their head: Lips, Eyelids, Eyes, Tongue, you name it! Aries also likes to fuck in public places during business hours. You need to be open minded with an Aries...If you don't feel like being duct taped to a wall and beaten with live ferrets: Tell Them. Be warned! IF you don't want to be kinky, don't be with an Aries. If you say 'No' too often to them you may lose them as a lover forever. Aries Idea of Heaven Is: Participating in live sex shows for money. Having their favorite human toy win first place in a pony boy/girl race. Fucking as an art form on display in a gallery. They secretly crave to be strippers or Annie Sprinkle. Aries LIVES to be jealous...they also like to coordinate other people fucking. Secretly desire to be fluffers. Aries owned a Violet Wand before it was popular. They are also Sadists. The best gift to give an Aries is designer colored nylon rope in their favorite color. They live to tea

Blog
I'm not sure how much I'll actually use this thing, but I'll give it a shot. First of all, I'd like to thank all of you who have rated and commented my pictures. I try to return the favor whenever I have a chance, but I'm sorry if I've missed you. I get a lot of requests to add people to my messenger and I just wanted to let you all know that I don't chat that much and I don't cyber or cam either. If you want to add me to talk books or photography, that's cool, just don't ask expecting me to cyber or cam with you. Thanks again and I hope everyone has a great week! XOXOXO Illuminaughty

Word Of Wisdumb
Do not walk behind me,for i may not lead.Do not walk ahead of me,for i may not follow.Do not walk beside me either. Just pretty much leave me the hell alone. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and a leaky tire.Its always darkest before dawn .So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newpaper, that's the time to do it.Dont be irreplaceable. If you cant be replaced , you can be promoted.Alwalys remember that you're unique,Just like everyone else.Never test the depth of the water with both feet.If you think nobody cares if you're alive try missing a couple of car payments

Just Writing
how do u describe a best freind? or freind a freind is a person when u have a break down is there to pick up the peaces a freind is there for every thing a best friend is the friend who help hide a body for u

Lol... Online Fun N Games...
So someone please fill me in on what the fascination with the online games is, because I really don't quite comprehend. LOL... inevitably the lie comes to the surface and you get caught. So begs the question, why lie?? Why disrespect the people you call friends by being dishonest with them?? Just a little food for thought on this chilly Monday...

Shitty Mood.....too Much Bad Luck, Read On
So, I got sent home from work yesturday right..... because Im sick, and I couldnt help myself from running to the bathroom to puke about every 20 minutes. So.... I went to the doctor today...and I have asthma, and I have broncitus and pnemonia shit again...on medication for that..... 2 different inhalors and antibiotics. Well, I also took a pregnancy test. Mind you, I have a IUD (intra uterine device) that protects a female from getting pregnant for 5 years. The test came up negitive....but thats not all. I had a pap smear and a test ran to make sure I dont have HPV again (human papilla virus)... Its contracted from having too much sex, with too many sex partners... YES, I guess you can say I was a promiscus girl when I was younger..... that is what caused me to get my cervical cancer when I was pregnant with Jacob. She also made sure that my IUD is still in place. And to my surprise, There is No IUD!!!! HOW THE FUCK CAN IT NOT BE THERE?!?!? So, my doctor ordered me a ultrasound.... I

The 18th ~ The Aim Convo.
Noelly:im a loser baby so why dont kill me ? Me:cuz i dont wanna lol Noelly: lol Noelly: wow talking to my awy message? Me: oh yes u no it Noelly: lol Me: u no im special like that Noelly: lol thats my fred Me:hehe Noelly: lol Me: ah hhuummmm... i wanna be a kitten can i be a kitten? Noelly: hmm i lemme see Me:fred kitten Me:hmmm Me: pleeewwwwssseeee? Noelly: lol fine Noelly: your my kitten Me: hehe

The 18th ~ Rock Vrs. Paper??
okay.. I understand that Scissors can beat Paper, and I get how Rock can beat Scissors, but there's no fucking way Paper can beat Rock. Paper is supposed to magically wrap around Rock leaving it immobile? Why the hell cant paper do this to scissors? Screw scissors, why can't paper do this to people? Why isn't notebook paper constantly suffocating students while they take notes in class? I'll tell you why, because paper can't beat anybody, a rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds. When I play rock/paper/scissors, I always choose rock. Then when somebody claims to beat me with their paper I can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say, oh shit, I'm sorry, I thought paper would protect you, you asshole

Have A Goodnight My Sweet Cherry Friends!
I'm tired so its off to bed i go! Have a nice night sorry I cant get to everyone but I would if I could. Talk to ya all tomorrow! sweet cherry dreams nighty,night! smooches to ya! P.S If ya leave me a message its easier to get back to ya, so yea, just do that! goodnight, hugs & smooches!!! talk to ya soon as possible!!

My Husband
My husband has got to go to hospital this morning to the Cardio- Respiratory Department. He has got to go on one of them running machines to to test his heart. If he fails he will loose his driving licence and he is not happy about that. He loves to drive and loves to get out in the car with me and the kids.

Ville, Linde, Mige, Burton Or Gaz?
Take the quiz: Ville, Linde, Mige, Burton or Gaz???Ville.... U are gothic, dark and mysterious.Ville is the man that created HIM, and he is dead gourges to.... But best of all, his voice is like an angel, even it is when he singing on cd or live or speaking...Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!

Which H.i.m. Song Are You?
Take the quiz: Which HIM song are you?Join MeYou take love very seriously and you have many problems...you don't want to leave your loved one so you ask them to die with you for love. You need this person more then they realise.Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!

~*~ About Me ~*~
I am me, I am the way I am, and I do not change for anyone no matter what. I love to meet new people but I have the type of personality where you will either love me or hate me..lol. So who knows, maybe you'll be my new friend? I'm ALWAYS 100% brutaly honest, and I pride myself on being that way. I'm blunt, outspoken, and I say whatever I want to say. I don't really put much thought into alot of things before I say them, if it comes to my mind, then it automatically comes out of my mouth.. lol. I'm weird, and I know it. I love my weirdness! I'm quick witted and I maintain multiple personalities while most people find it hard to maintain one. LoL. My favorite colors are orange and blue. I love to laugh. I hate most people. Girlie girls make me hurl. I swear like a sailor when I wax my cunt. I swear like a sailor when i'm not waxing my cunt. I hate most things anyone else would like. I'm spiteful. I'm stubborn. I can be selfish. I can be jealous. I'm a flirt. I

Pixi Dust
I wish this poem were pixie dust To throw into your eyes And make you see the loveliness Beneath my sad disguise. And I would take you in my arms And weave a magic spell That I could utter anytime To make you love me well. But alas my simple words Are like summer rain That drums on hills and fields and hearts, Then vanishes again. And though my love might make you bloom, You turn with fragile grace To gaze in aching loneliness At someone else's face. We lust for what we cannot have, A long, unbroken chain Of lovers who remain unloved And loved who love in vain. While I'm near mad with wanting you As trees must have the sun, You cannot help but find a love

One Wish
If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling, with anyone other than you.

If Only There Were More Men Like Him!
Your alarm goes off, you hit the snooze and sleep for another 10 minutes. He stays up for days on end. _________________________ You take a warm shower to help you wake up. He goes days or weeks without running water. __________________________ You complain of a "headache", and call in sick. He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward. __________________________ You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends. He still fights for your right to wear that shirt. __________________________ You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket. He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags. __________________________ You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you. He knows he may not see some of his buddies again. __________________________ You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls. He walks the streets, searching for insurge

Drunk Biker
One night, a police officer was stalking out a particularly rowdy biker bar for possible violations of the driving-under-the-influence laws. At closing time, he saw one of the bikers stumble out of the bar, trip on the curb, & try his keys on five different bikes before he found his. Then, sat on the bike fumbling around several minutes, looking as if he might pass out right there. Everyone left the bar and rode off. Finally, he started his engine and began to pull away. The police officer was waiting for him. He stopped the biker, read him his rights and administered the Breathalyzer test. The results showed a reading of 0.0. The puzzled officer demanded to know how that could be. The biker replied, "Tonight, I'm the Designated Decoy."

Biker Saves A Life
Two bikers walk into a roadhouse to wash the road dust from their throats. They stand at the bar, drinking a beer and talking about the new model Harleys. Suddenly, a woman at a nearby table, who is eating a sandwich, begins to cough. After a minute or so, it becomes apparent that she is in real distress. One of the bikers looks at her and says, "kin ya swaller?" The woman shakes her head, no. "Kin ya breathe?" The woman begins to turn blue and shakes her head. The biker walks over to the woman, lifts up the back of her dress, yanks down her panties, and slowly runs his tongue from the back of her thigh up to the small of her back. The woman is so shocked, that she has a violent spasm and the obstruction flies out of her mouth. As she begins to breathe again, the biker walks slowly back to the bar and takes a drink from his beer. His buddy says, "Ya know, I'd heard of that there "Hind Lick Maneuver," but 'til today, I ain't never seen nobody do it." LMAOOOO

Shadow
Outside the window Late at night Deep in the shadows But not beyond sight Illuminated by, The moon, pale, bright Stands a figure. Elegant, graceful, Tall and fair With hypnotic eyes And black shroud of hair. Inviting, beckoning, me to his lair. Whispers my name. Hollow eyes burning Murky, dense. The figure fades. Nothing but silence Intense and deafening. My body tense, I am afraid. He's still here. I feel His hunger. Chills run down my spine Heart beats like thunder. What is this creature that lurks, I wonder? Pleasure and pain. The form reappears Near my bed. Lord of the Darkness He rules the Undead, nourished by blood, fear, pain. With lips cruel, red, Stands above me. Descends upon my throat. Beaming. Foul breath in my face Sharp, white teeth gleaming. Three drops of blood fall, slip away, streaming. Warm crimson tears. Try to resist, but Paralyzed. Cannot fight this thing so strong, so despised. Defenseless. No one comes,

A Last Chance (repost)
There is a bulletin going around right now, I've reposted it at the bottom of this blog, and I almost reposted it as a bulletin, but decided to avoid the drama. People have said to me before why don't you go for the spotlight, or do a Cherry blast, and I've always told them that I don't want either, because I don't care about being center of attention. However, there was a day, a few days ago, when I did consider going for the spotlight. If you have read my blogs then you know about my neice, and the fact that she is very ill, and the fact we have to raise a lot of money just so she can stay alive. When I found out about that I considered going for the spotlight, not because it could help in anyway, I couldn't ever ask complete strangers to help with this, but because I wanted to be loved at the time, I felt that down, that depressed, I just wanted people to love me, to hold me, to show me some attention. That might make me sound childish, and selfish, but it's how I fel

Sweet Embrace
I can feel your hands touching my body softly Your soft hands exciting me with every sexual embrace the desire deep inside of me awakens with every touch my heart beats so fast My body is on fire As you whisper your sweet love with every touch my body weakens surrending to you touch till no longer I can struggle till i am totally yours

Some Days
Ya know, somedays you wake up and you think the world is your oyster. Then you have days where you wish you could crawl under a rock because you can not please anyone you love. I have been on such an emotional rollercoaster lately. And I want to tell all you great LC friends that I'm not ignoring any of you, just trying to figure out a few things that are terribly important to me. ~*~Bites & Kisses~*~

What Hurts!
When someone tells you they love you, but they don't mean it When you see the one you love.. with the one they love ...When they leave you for someone else Telling someone how you feel about them, and they dont feel the same about you Not knowing if what you have will last Wanting someone so bad, but you just can't have them When you can never stop thinking about that special someone even though you don't want to think about them anymore Wishing you still had them in your arms When you'll do anything for them and they dont even give a shit..... Letting days go by without hearing anything about them Knowing they're so close but yet so far away.. loving someone for a long time but they just want to be friends trying your hardest to get their attention, but it just didnt work Being rejected Going to sleep thinking about them knowing theyre thinking about someone else When your intentions are good but they see it the opposite, t

My Guarden Angel
She was born on september 19,1984 in zanesville ohio to her parents david harper and deloris wheeler and she was deliverd full term natural birth.She got yellow johndish at age 1 day. Which left her staying a extra day in the hospital. we went back that next day and they let her come home with us where she did just great till she was 11 days old. I had her on my lap feeding her bottle to her.I turned her on her stomach across my lap to burp her. I look down at her and she is turnin blue i pantic i grab her up and i run out side to where my older brother was cuttin wood. I screamed omg help me please she is blue my brother came runnin over to where i was standin he grabs her out of my arms and turns her upside down smacks her on the bottom and she turns back to her regular color. My next to oldest brother goes gets his car we get in the car and take her to hospital. When we get her there they look at her and they say see nottin wrong may have been chokin on lint on her blanket. So they

Dont Forget Me
Hey every one just wanting to let you know that I am still alive just trying to move on from my baby sisters passing and working hard. Thank you to all who have left me comments and messages regarding my sister. For those that did not know she was just 28 and left behind three very beautiful babies. Any way life is tough right now but I hope to be back in the swing of things soon. Dont forget me out there in LC land ok...Kisses......Sissy

A Poem
Two Hearts Song of two hearts becoming one. Joined forever and one day more. Never to know loneliness again. When the angels come down to take us away. Part of our soul in the other forever will stay. We will love each other past the time, The earth for gets to turn, stars cease to burn, One light will continue to burn deep down in our soul's. That love is what we have for each other. Your love is like food for my soul. My heart sings the beauty I've found in you. When other couple's love comes undone. Our's keeps glowing like the morning sun. It brightens our live's as well as our heart's with a perfect love.

Bored As Hell
yeah im sitting at home, just got out of school..my boyfriend evan couldnt stay here long but i made sure our time was worth while =] i have nothin to do for the rest of the night..lol ill prolly be on here a lot idk ive missed bein on here, its been a while. ever since school started i havent had as much time. i know noone is gonna read this..at least thats very unlikely its a waste of time haha laterr

Tempest Release Date!!!
Waddup Juggalo's And Juggalette's many of ya'll have asked if the tempest is coming out tomorrow and if the rumor is true that both wraith albums are gonna be remixed well i have the answers to those questions right here.... 1.The Tempest has been delayed a couple months. 2.Both Shangri-La And Hell's Pit are being remixed and added with brand new fresh flavor so be expecting those sometime in november alright and thats all i got for ya right now so peace and long live the juggalos. 3.Insane Clown Posse's Hallowicked Clown Tour 06' Ft.Boondox, Subnoize Souljaz, And Wolfpac Get Your Tickets Now Before Their Gone Cause If You've Never Seen The Wicked Clowns Live You Don't Wanna Miss Out On This Nation Wide Hallowicked Clown Tour, Go To www.insaneclownposse.com And Go To The Tour Section For Tour Dates Alright Peace Juggalos And Juggalettes. "Juggalo Chant" We Will Never Die Alone, Juggalos Will Carry On, Swing Our Hatchets If We Must, Each And Every One Of Us. We Will

Become......
Wraped in a familiarity No sleep Overdrive mentality I want to.... In the sands of the beach, edge of the waves Stretch my mind and spirit Or....cool grass on bare skin And by the licking tongue of fire to the limit Release Become

Clinching
Well as you know I am a die hard fan but I have to admit that I don't want the Yankees clinching soon. At least not in Toronto. I want them to clinch when they get to Tampa Bay. Call me greedy but I got tickets to Friday, Saturday and Sunday and that would be so awesome to see a clinch on one of those days.

You are driven and ambitious - totally self motiviated to succeed Actively working to acheive what you want, you are skillful in many areas. You are a natural predator with strong instincts ... and more than a little demanding. You are creative, energetic, and an extremely powerful force. An outdoors person, you like animals and relate to them better than people. You tend to have an explosive personality, but also a good sense of humor. People sometimes see you as arrogant or a know it all. You tend to be a bit of a loner, though you hate to be alone. Souls you are most compatible with: Seeker Soul and Peacemaker Soul

I Made A Decision
Well everyone i took the job back at my old work...looks like they just canned someone and now not only the 3 buck raise but the hrs i want. So i will try it out for a bit and if i am still not happy there then i will go else where but i think it will be all good now. Nothing else is to exciting except my lil baby Liam learned today how to climb up on chairs so now i really have to be on him all the time ...lil monkey is what he is...anyways i will try to get these out every so often since i am not on nearly as much as i used to be and i have lost touch with a lot of you...this way u will know a lil bit of what is going on here and there...as always char

More Than Likely You Wont Understand
Some time ago there was someone in my life whom I really cared for .. we were friends .. we had a wonderful relationship.. we laughed .. we cried .. we consoled .. we talked for hours and then some more .. we could say aboslutly nothing and still walk away filled with conversation .. Unfortunatly this person and I dont talk anymore :( * yes instert sadness here* .. This person was one of My Best friends in my life .. unfortunatly I got scared when we got too close . didnt want our friendship to be ruined by something more .. and I lost him .. not only as a possible partner . but friend .. yes .. this still makes me sad .. I still ask about him .. still worry about him .. even thou he showed less than any happiness for me.. I can understand.. he was hurt .. angry .. thats fine .. I dont hold anything against him .. and I still care about him .. and hope his life is going wonderful .. I dont bug him .. or even go to his profiles .. dont do anything that would cause him to think im "wa

My Poems
The reflection of you appears.in the mirror i saw nat only myself but the destruction i caused that night i dont recall maybe because as a flew through the windshield my mind took over one year to the presant awaking in past of the nightmare that comes true i touched my hand upon the cold dead dirt my my teares fall upon the blood running roses my sowrow tingout for the miss fortune i know nothing about you your lifei so carelessly i took the chance which was a stupid one the left was the wrong turn powering a life away from an hour of my pressure.

What I Want
Over the years my tastes have changed some..but I mainly want someone that is faithful and loves me as much as I love them. They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder..Well that is true. That isn't just some sappy Hallmark greeting card saying. If you are truely in love with someone, they should be good enough to satisfy you. You shouldn't need a super model with a tiny waist and firm breasts. Yes that all sounds great but how often is that person the right one? Never in my book.They are usually too stuck on themselves to care about another human being. They are usually too high maintence..and too girly. I want a country gal that isn't afraid to get dirt under her nails once in awhile. Now I have went out with girls that were on the chunky side..not necessarily fat..but they had meat on their bones. And then I have been with others that were just skinny. The ones that I like the most were the ones that had meat on their bones. This one girlfriend was always telling me that guys lo

To Understand Why.......
Good evening to all. My name is John, and I'm hoping that after you've read the emotions I've expressed within my profile you will have discovered my name plus a whole lot more about me. Based upon the feedback I have been receiving, which is all good(Thank You), I wanted to declare a few things about my intentions here: -Everyone here is beautiful, gorgeous, stunning, vivacious, attractive and unique. -Although it is so easy to be selfish and greedy to focus only upon pictures-the quality that I seek from each of you is from within. Your expressions and emotions captured into words truly define just how beautiful, gorgeous, stunning, vivacious, attractive and unique each of you can be and is the true essence of what emanates from. -As you have guessed I seek love, romance, commitment, relationship with one woman-only one woman. Can those qualities be found on a site that, according to the founders: 'LostCherry is the first online nightclub: a pla

Scream
Have you ever wanted to scream at the top of your lungs but fear that if you do, not a single person that mattered would ever hear you? Have you ever been surrounded by a group of people and wanted nothing more than to be in the arms of the one who mattered the most to you? Have you ever sat and wondered if the one who mattered the most to you really and truly knew exactly how you felt about them...I mean down to the core? Have you ever sat alone and watched as tears fell from your eyes one by one by one and wondered if the person you loved ever did the same thing...at least in regards to you? Have you ever looked back at the reflection in the mirror and knew that they didn't? Sometimes it is a hard reality to face...waking up and knowing that no matter how much you love someone, that they are never really going to fully understand how it is you feel. How could they when you are too afraid to say something? Have you ever wanted to scream at the top of your lungs, but fear that if you d

Shaazam!
so i took some new fabulous pictures today. you guys should check them out! since most of you fuckasses add me and then don't say a word to me! try leaving me a nice little picture comment or something. is it that hard? it must be. i'm gonna have to start cleaning out my friend's list and deleting people who have never said a single thing to me. to my super cool friends on here... I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! i'm hungry. -C

Tight Cherry
I am so excited.... According to this site....when I get 395 more points, my cherry is gonna be tighter!!! I mean, it's like nice and tight now, but oh yeah....tighter is gonna be a blast!!! This place is better than I thought!! Lmao

Guess What??????
I was offered an office secretary job and I accepted it. I'm so happy right now it's unbelievable. I'll start in two to four weeks. No more barely making it. (for now.) Now I can move forward in my life. It's a good feeling. A very good feeling. Wish me luck!

Love
LOVE IS LIKE A SEED OF LIFE TO ROOT IS FULL PAIN & STRIFE TO GROW IS LIKE A GREAT OAK TREE STRAIGHT & STRONG FOR ETERNITY LOVE IS WHAT I OFFER STEADFAST AND CALM & OH SO TRUE LOVE IS LIFE BETWEEN TWO PEOPLE WHO REALLY CARES.... LOVE IS OURS, IF YOU AGREE TO SPEND YOUR LIFE W ME.......

#3: Proving People Wrong
There are few feelings more satisfying in the world than doing something people think you can't do. Case in point: last October. My girlfriend just broke up with me and I lost my job in the span of a week. While I was looking for a job in the newspaper, my ex told me I'm better off just giving up. And you know something, I listened. I threw in the towel more or less, packed my stuff, and moved in with my first ex for about ten days. Then I moved back home to Baltimore, down and depressed. I was out of work until January (when my parents were about to kick me out) when I finally got me a job as an office clerk. I was sick of it after about two or three months and I looked aggressively for better work. Today, I'm happy to tell you (and all those that doubted me) I will soon be an office secretary. With a lot more money and benefits. Did I mention I was going back to school too and starting next month? To those that stuck by me and through me through my hard times, thanks. T

Goddnight To All Of Cherryville!!!!
just wanted to say nighty,night! got to get up at 6:00 am and will not be done running till late,.. so i'm gonna be back on thursday! Hope to talk to you all soon! sorry cant get to mst of ya but just leave me a message and i will get ya back! much sweet cherry luvin! ~JESSICAluvzMIKE~ xoxo! smooches and hugins!! HEHEH have a nice night! sweet dreams y'all!

Life Straight
WHY IS IT WE TRY TO GO FOWARD AND EVERYTHING YOU TRY JUST TAKES YA RIGHT BACK TO THE BEGINING AGAIN AS A LOT OF POEPLE IN MY LIFE KNOWS I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL IN DEC OF LAST YEAR DIEN CUZ MY PANKREASE SHUT DOWN MAKN ME AN INSTANT DIABETIC HAD TO SHOOT MYSELF FOR 2 MONTHS STRAIGHT WITH 100CC OF INSULIN 3 TIMES A DAY OR MORE ONE DAY I HIT A NERVE IN MY STUMACH AND SAID ENOUGH OF THAT SHIT AND HAVNT TAKN IT SINCE AND MY SUGAR IS NORMAL AGAIN WELL I WENT BACK TO WORK FOR ABOUT 2 MONTHS THINKN I WAS FINALY GETN MY LIFE STRAIGHT AGAIN AND HAD TO GO IN FOR PHYSICAL WELL GUESE WHAT IM BACK NOT WORKN AGAIN AND IT WASNT CUZ OF INSULIN NOW ITS HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE WELL IVE TREID EVERYTHING TO LOWER IT AND ALL IT DOUSE IS RAISE SO GUESE IM FUCKED WHATS WORSE IS THAT SOCIAL SECURITY WITH ME LOOSN EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE IN A COUPLE MONTHS INCLUDING MY FIANCE CUZ SHE COULDNT HANDLE ME NOT BEEN ABLE TO WORK FUNNY HOW LOVE IS/ I COME TO IT THAT LOVE REVOLVES AROUND MONEY ANYMORE/ HA I SHOULD FIND A SUG

Happy Anniversary
Today marks a very special day in my life. 2 years ago today I started talking with someone online and well little did I know that was the mark of a beautiful friendship. Shad words cannot even express how much I appreciate you. You always put a smile on my face and keep me laughing for hours. You also seem to make a negative situation look positive. You are the biggest sweetheart I have ever met. Thank you so much for not turning away from me like so many have done. I definately found a new strength with you. Shad hunni thank you so much for putting me back on the right track and for reminding me how special I am. You are a special man a rare kind. The kind that still has a heart. I could sit here and write forever but I already got enough tears in my eyes...LOL. However I will say this, I truly feel as if the Lord blessed me the day he made you my friend and I pray he keeps us friends forever. Thanks for caring so much it means so much to me. Loves ya always Hun..

Letter To Tide
I am writing to say what an excellent product you have! I've used it all of my married life, as my Mom always told me it was the best. Now that I am in my fifties I find it even better! In fact, about a month ago, I spilled some red wine on my new white blouse. My inconsiderate and uncaring husband started to belittle me about how clumsy I was, and generally started becoming a pain in the neck. One thing led to another and somehow I ended up with his blood on my new white blouse! I grabbed my bottle of Tide with bleach alternative, and to my surprise and satisfaction, all of the stains came out! In fact, the stains came out so well the detectives who came by yesterday told me that the DNA tests on my blouse were negative and then my attorney called and said that I was no longer considered a suspect in the disappearance of my husband. What a relief! Going through menopause is bad enough without being a murder suspect! I thank you, once again, for having a great product. Well, g

Place Your Hometown On My Map!!
Ok this is simple...just click on the map and place your hometown on the map and leave me a message to show me where ya from! Create one and place on your page so i can leave you some love too!

can somebody tell me why almost every profile have fifty million headshots.I mean they are nice but change the image a little,cmon!same head just tilted one inch to the right or to the left.I like checking out pics but how can you comment when all 289 are the same and 1 is of someones foot.no offence if you have this on your profile but Im just curious!

Of all the friends I've ever met, > You're the one I won't forget. > And if I die Before you do > I'll go to heaven > And wait for you > I'll give the angels > Back their wings > And risk the loss > Of everything > Just to prove > My friendship is true > I'm thankful to have > Friends like you! ** > >OK!Comment me and tell me what you would do? > > ** > ID NEVER GET KISSED AGAIN > GET A PECK ON THE FOREHEAD > GET A PECK ON THE CHEEK > GET A PECK ON THE LIPS > GET A KISS > GET A HUG > GET A REALLY BIG HUG > GET A KISS AND A BIG HUG > GET KISSED& HUGGED > GET ALL THE ABOVE AND WHATEVER YOU WANT!! ** I LOVE YOU ALL!

Happy Mchump Day
Hump Day. Am I the only adult human being who has yet to get randomly humped on this day? And I'm not talking about the nice comments I've been left. I'm talking full-on, wild monkey lovin'. Do you ever type something and then think, "What the hell was that all about?"

So You Can You Tell Me Why I Torture Myself??
I have this increably nasty habit, of getting myself hurt, weither it be from being clumsy, or from falling for the wrong guys. See i was raised very old fashion, from a very backwards community, where when you went out on a date with someone they where then forever known as your boyfriend, or if someone asked you out it was no different, you where with that person exclusivly. oh we had friends that we hung out with, but it was an unwriten unstated fact, that the man holding your hand was the one you where with. He didnt use you for sex, he didnt use you as a pawn in his little head game. It just seems like so much has changed. See i never dated around, it was exclusive relationships, my whole life, they may not have last long, but everyone knew we where together, but now that im 26 i have a few kids, and im starting over, trying to find someone to commit to, things have changed to much, to the point that i have an incredable fear of dating and men. Sure i know how to flirt, i know how

Quiz- Vampire Strength
You scored as Shadow walking. You have the ability to walk in shadows. A rare power not posessed by all vampires. Follow me, and experience all the powers the vampire enjoys. Come play with me!Shadow walking100%Telepathy94%Perception88%Shape shift75%Mind Control69%Charisma63%What vampiric power do you most possess?created with QuizFarm.com

What Is Love?
What Is Love? It is that which is without condition, without limitation, and without need. Because it is without condition, it requires nothing in order to be expresed. It asks nothing in return. It withdraws nothing in retaliation. Because it is without limitation, it places no limitation on another. It knows no ending, but goes on forever. It experiences no boundry or barrier. Because it is without need. it seeks to take nothing not freely given. It seeks to hold nothing not wishing to be held. It seeks to give nothing not joyously welcomed. And it is free. Love is that which is free. For freedom is the essence of what God is, and Love is God, Expressed.

Im So Tired Of This Crap
Does anyone out there just avoid dealing with their past because it makes them feel uncomfortable? Is it just better to put it completely behind you and block it from your memories and remove everything in your life that makes you remember the pain? It is acceptable to avoid everything in this world that could make you feel uncomfortable or is that just a part of life? I really dont know the answer to those questions but I have dealt with that crap for the past year and its really getting old!!!

Jamie!
Jamie! When I was at the age of sixteen, I had a secret , Which should have been seen. No one saw it, So I didn’t tell. I managed to hide it So very well. I carried on As though nothing was wrong, But it seemed to go on For far too long. The night I went to the labour ward, I was frightened of what was to come. I was glad I had a hand to hold,- That same night I had told my mum. When it was over I was so confused. It’s not nice to have loved, And only been used. I missed the life I’d had inside me, For nine months he had grown. But after all the hiding, I could not call him my own. But I gave him a name,- I called him Jamie, I think of him every day, I loved him then, and always will, And no one can take that away. Rebecca Duncan (copyright)

Forbidden Love
Lovers we are and lovers we will be For now and forever throughout eternity Our love can never be known Our desire for one another can never be shown Our love will be forbidden from now until the end One that we must hide, because it is the ultimate sin I will remember the intimate nights of passion Where lust and desire had no reason for ration. With each obsessive thrust I was pushed to the end Scratching and clawing deep into your skin. The sweat that glistened off our bodies, entertwined As the ultimate climax shook my mind. You laid your body down on mine Taking in your scent and wishing for more time. I have to let you go now, but the memories will remain One day you'll be back sweet lover, but for now I will live with the pain.

820.60$$$$$ Damn!
Body: If you have done it... add it up... if you have not...leave it off your total. Smoked Pot - $10 Did Acid - $5 Ever had sex at Church - $25 Woke up in the morning and did not know who was next to you - $40 Met someone on MySpace - $20 Had sex with someone you met on MySpace - $25 Had sex for money - $100 Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican - $20 Vandalized something - $20 Had sex on your parents bed - $10 Beat up someone - $20 Been jumped - $10 Crossed dressed - $10 Given money to stripper - $25 Been in love with a stripper - $20 Kissed someone who's name you didn't know - $0.10 Hit on someone of the same sex, while at work - $15 Ever driven drunk - $20 Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk - $50 Used toys while having sex - $30 Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before - $20 Went skinny dipping - $5 Had sex in a pool - $20 Kissed someone of the same sex - $10 Had sex with someone of the same sex - $20 Cheated on your g

Sotd - Hitchin A Ride
by Green Day Hey mister, where you headed? Are you in a hurry? I need a lift to happy hour say oh no Do you brake for distilled spirits? I need a break aswell The well that inebriates the Guilt 1,2,1,2,3,4 Cold turkey's getting stale Tonight I'm eating crow Fermented salmonella poison oak no There's a drought at the fountain of youth And I'm dehydrating My tongue is swelling up I say 1,2,1,2,3,4 Troubled times You know I cannot lie I'm off the wagon and I'm hitchin' a ride There's a drought at the fountain of youth And now I'm dehydratingMy tongue is swelling up I say shit! Troubled times You know I cannot lie I'm off the wagon and I'm hitchin' a ride Hitchin' a ride

Ahhh
I've done nothing all day. I slept, felt like shit when I was awake, and slept some more. Now that I'm up, I'm just going to grab a bite to eat and then pass out listening to some depressing piece of soothing earcandy. Is it in these moods that we are suppose to produce something artistic? Do you automatically become an artist once you put your thoughts onto a piece of paper or paint them on canvas? I'm at a point in my life where I feel like I have nothing to look forward to, the things I wanted to see or accomplish are just muffled sounds thumping in and out of my head. I feel like a robot on autopilot, going somewhere and doing things that other people would want to see me do. Why does it take a tragedy to produce something beautiful? Can you love life? I wish I was able to appreciate it more. I wish that I could hold on to some of the people I meet.. one person in general. The person that shares the great unknown with you, the person that appreciates your efforts to make things bet

Booty Calls
BOOTY CALL! Please fill out the below application if you want to be a booty call for this person. RE-POST IF U WANNA SEE WHO WANTS TO BE YOUR BOOTY CALL! Name: ___________________ Age: ____________________ Phone: ___________ Occupation: ____________________ Height______ Married(Y/N)__ Single(Y/N)___ Other_________ Sexual Orientation: __________ How often do u wanna have sex?(check appropriate answer) Daily__ Weekly__ Monthly__ As much as possible_ How long can u last? (check appropriate answer) 1min ___ 15min__ 30min__ 1hr__ all nite___ Do u like Giving oral sex? (Y/N)___ Do u like Get oral sex? (Y/N)___ What could you do for me that no one else could?: Which do u prefer? (check appropriate box) One on one__ Doubles__ Group___ While having sex, what do u do? (place "X" in all appropriate boxes) Faint__ Cry__ Moan__ Wiggle__ Twist__ Jerk about__ Pant__ Sweat___ Scream__ Hum__ Whistle__ Just lie the

Change To Recent Top Photos On Home Page..
displaying the recent top photos box on your homepage is now an on/off option under your profile settings. it's defaulted to off, feel free to turn it back on if you miss the ass and cleavage shots. :-) -mike

News In My Town
- Two were injured when an ex-husband drove his truck through a metal gate and peppered his ex-wife's mobile home with .22-caliber slugs, according to Durant Police. Durant Police Chief Gary Rudick, who was at the scene, said that Travis Wigington, 47, drove through the gate of property located at 2909 Cemetery Road, pulled out a .22-caliber rifle, and began firing at a travel trailer occupied by Carol Annette Johnson, 45, and her 6-year-old daughter. According to police, Johnson yelled at Wigington to stop shooting and that the child was inside. Rudick said Johnson returned fire with a handgun. The incident was heard by a police dispatcher when Johnson called at 5:05. “She called us and said, ‘He's shooting at us,' and finally, she said, ‘I shot him,'” Rudick said. Johnson was hit in the right shoulder, and Wigington was shot in the groin area. Both were taken to the Medical Center of Southeastern Oklahoma where they are listed in stable condition, according to a ho

Memphiss!!
I bet u think I spelt that wrong but really I didn't!! Memphiss is My new Daughters name She was born on Monday Sept. 18 2006 at 7:30 pm she was 8 lbs 3 oz and her length was 20 in!! Yeah!!! well I won't be on much for the next cupla days but I'll be on when I can!!

Hey Guys Insurnce Company I Have Made The Drs Discharge When He Is Still Sick
hey guys i have good and bad news well the good that is fever is no longer but my insurece company made the doctors discharge him so i had to bring home still with kidney failure but the kidney dr.is sending a home nurse to my house to check on him but im still worried about things.the doctor said if hes worse bring him to a hospital he will let me know the results of the cancer test with tissue they took from both kidney then they will let me know how they will trat him for kidney failure then everybody on lost pls pray that peter does not get worse while home i want to kick ass right now with my health insurnce that i have ,for me and my sons well guys wish me goodluck watching my son until the home nurse comes to my house i am not a dr or a nurse they shouldnt make do this its killing me already that hes has kindey fallure and is still not out of the woods show me and peter well wishes send peter some hi how r u u have us has friends he can read your comments everyday until we know

Tats And Peircings!
So i have been thinking that tats and peircings are a turn for me.. lol so i have decided to get one myself. I dont want to cover myself with tats and peircings but a few would be nice. Im not really sure which ones i want but if you guys wanna give me some suggestions that would be kool. Im looking more for the "Suicide Girl" look. As some of you know i am a fan of them. LOL can you guess why? LOL So i am up for any suggestions. I cant wait to hear what you all say! =) ~*Samantha~*

Party Time!!! :o)
You are invited to a special Pampered Chef party!! WHERE: My house CAN YOU COME? I know how busy you all are and that you probably hate being invited to any home parties, but I assure you this is no ordinary home party. And to be honest, I haven't had a party like this in ages, and I need to update my kitch gadgets. Pampered Chef has come out with new consultants and products that are fabulous. I have enclosed samples below of the new home party products... I'm expecting a good turnout . ! Now, aren't you sorry you groaned and sd, "not another party..." Have a Good Day *wink* *~*PurteeLadee*~*

Not Cute...
Ok see, I know this site has a bit of "racey" pix on it and shit and that's cool, don't get me wrong. But if you're Goddamn busted as fuck, and you weigh like over 268.9 lbs. please keep that shit private. Nobody needs to see that motherfuckin "monster box"!! Goddamm. a motherfucker has to eat around these Goddamn parts, and apparently (bitch) you'z already eatin' good. So try not to fuck up my meal ticket....plus that shit is scarin' the cat.

Pie
The PIE While being home alone one day, With “Honey-Do's” I’ll not mention. I ventured towards the ice box, For something to ease my tension. To my joy and shocked amazement, To think that I should spy. Way back amongst the green stuff, An intact Chocolate PIE. I grabbed a spoon from out the drawer, And milk from off the shelf. I plopped down at the table, And preceded to stuff myself. I dove into the Meringue and Chocolate, With such a frantic pace. There was chocolate on the table, On the floor and on my face. Just as I finished, the do

Talked To The Kid..
He thinks everyone hates him. The kids pick on him, etc etc. Nothing that the majority of us haven't gone through ourselves. They tell him he is ugly, or stupid or that he needs to get his teeth fixed cuz the braces aren't working. He said he got water on himself and kids are speading a rumor all over the school that he pee'd on himself. He is a tattle tale. What do you do? What do you do when the kid takes it all way too seriously? He DOES instigate a lot of this stuff so how do I get him to stop? Haha.. expect many more whiny blogs from Felicia tonight. I'm having a helluvanight! Felicia

Crying Is Gd For U!
"There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into two. 50 people watched a very funny, tears-of laughter type movie. 50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie. At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers. They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine...salt water and not a great deal else However the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body. This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness /heartache experience. Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves... .and prolonged lack-of-crying-release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount o

Updated Repost Of About Me Section
FIRST OFF, FOR ANYONE OUT THERE WHO ACTUALLY READS PROFILES, I AM A GUY. YOU MIGHT HAVE KNOWN THAT IF YOU HAD READ THE PROFILE TO START WITH CONSIDERING I MENTION THAT I AM A PROUD FATHER. I GET VERY IRRITATED WITH PEOPLE WHO DON'T BOTHER TO READ THE PROFILE BEFORE THEY LEAVE COMMENTS OR SEND ME SHOUTS. THANK YOU...CARRY ON. My name is Rayne and I am a 23-year-old proud FATHER of a little boy named Holden. He is my world! I adopted Holden when he was 3 years old. (Yes, single parent adoption--it helps to have connections sometimes.)Holden's biological father is in prison and his mother had abandoned him in the snow not too far from where I live. I love this boy more than life itself. I love being with my family. I have a very rare family. We are a tight-knit family. You hurt one of us, you hurt all of us. We are also rare because we all get along. If you look at families today, they are always fighting, kids are getting into trouble in school and with the law. It's a crazy world

Happy Spring Day!
yes, today is the first day of spring time! and just when i came to the bank (where i work) they gave me a rose :) how cute!! i went to college before, so i start the papers for my paper degree or whatever is the name for it lol well, after they checked my information, and that i really finished all my exams, they sent me to pay... ya, i had to pay for it lol (the bad thing about privat colleges is, that you have to pay for everything) hmmm i hope today is a nice day, because i feel like there will be something really wrong... hugs for everyone Maria

Milkshakes Melt......people Change
Yeah Hmmm ok lets see well Stephen was suppose to come by and see Nicholas yesterday. Ha yeah right he never showed. Not that i'm surprised at all. He's such a little faggot. All he is is a piece of white trash and I regret our whole fucking relationship. He had the nerve to call me 2 hrs after he was suppose to be here to tell me he wasn't coming. I was so fucking pissed. Even though we aren't together he still thinks he can treat me like a piece of shit and he's gonna get his ass beat. Guys like him make me think I'm never gonna find a good one..... I'm just down for some reason this morning....

Why Do People Have To Be So Fake???
I got a call about 30 minutes ago or so from my grandfather saying that my grandmothers blood preasure was spiking and she thought she was having a stroke. Of course, i freaked out and the worst case scenarios started racing thru my mind. I was terrified and scared of losing my Lorcey cause she is the cornerstone of my family... she is what keeps us all together. I still haven't heard anything from them yet as to her condition and I am so nervous I can't think straight... so I saw a person on here who claimed to be my friend and I had thought we had gotten close over the past few days. I kept trying to get her to talk to me and she wouldn't but i really need someone to talk to so i kept trying. She finally answered me and I asked why she wasn't talking to me and she said "Don't start with me thins morning, I have a done of paperwork to do" I then told her why i was trying to get ahold of her and that i needed to talk and there was nothing... pure silence... no response at all. H

Sex Myths
Sex Myths Unsolved myths The Venus Butterfly The Venus Butterfly is hinted at as not being intercourse but can supposedly, when practiced, cause hour long orgasms, hundreds of orgasms and multiple contractions in both women and in men, among many other things. Is this myth just an old urban legend, or does it really exist? It is my belief that the Venus Butterfly DOES NOT exist. Here's why: The only places you see saying anything at all about the "Venus Butterfly" or anything else you've probably not heard of are adult catologues, bookstores, TV channels, etc. that are trying to SELL you this supposed secret. No where else will you find any information about it all. Searching for this topic on the Internet will no doubt lead you to find only places where other people are asking, "What is the Venus Butterfly?" and not any useful information about it. In limited form, however, the venus butterfly may be a form of manual stimulation where the hands are used to stimulate the wo

So...why Is It....
...that the weather has such an effect on people? I mean today it is all rainy and icky outside and sure enough my mood matches it! Thank God for my LC friends...a few comments here...a shout there and presto chango...I am all happy again! Damn, am I really that emotionally "easy"? I can go with that! Well...I will stay in a good mood til lunch and then out into the "shit" I go...so to those who love me...better be ready to bring me back out of the Pit Of Despair (please notice the raspy Albino voice from one of the best movies of all time). Note...bonus points to anyone who can name the movie! love ya all!

Approaching Burn-out!!
Hey Everybody!! Sorry I haven't been around for a while. Work has been a bitch lately. I usually work nights, but recently the powers that be (obviously not me), decided that I need to start working some day shifts as well. So, now I get to switch back and forth every week. It's hard enuf getting used to working nights, so throwing a couple day shifts into the mix just screws with your mind and body. That being said, my wife and I are taking a 10-day vacation to Arizona starting tomorrow. We never took a honeymoon bcuz we were broke, but now, it's time. We both need it, and we certainly deserve it. I should be back around the 1st of October, so I'll talk to y'all then!!

The Unwritten Law: It Is Written
Scarybirds has a number of characteristic beliefs. Some of these are: The world is harsh. Prosperity is rare. Life is for the strong, and we should take what we can given the opportunity. Especially if we're armed. We are free to shape our damaged fantasies to the extent allowed by our skill, courage, and cunning. There is no sentiment imposed by the will of any external deity. We do not need salvation. We're already completely screwed by any standards. All we need is a bottle of booze, some warm food, a porn movie and maybe a pack of smokes. We are connected to all our ancestors by police records and DNA matching via national databases. We should probably figure out a way to work this to our advantage. We are also linked to all our living kin - and to a lot of other stooges on the internet who are ripe for the picking. We are connected to Nature and shouldn't worry about urinating in public. Hell, I don't give it a second thought. The selfish egomaniacs often express

Fiona Apple - Sleep To Dream
I tell you how I feel, but you dont care. I say tell me the truth, but you dont dare. You say love is a hell you cannot bare. And I say gimme mine back and then go there - for all I care. I got my feet on the ground and I dont go to sleep to dream. You got your head in the clouds and youre not at all what you seem. This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways. So dont forget what I told you, dont come around, I got my own hell to raise. I have never been insulted in all my life. I could swallow the seas to wash down all this pride. First you run like a fool just to be at my side. And now you run like a fool, but you just run to hide, and I cant abide. I got my feet on the ground and I dont go to sleep to dream. You got this head in the clouds and youre not at all what you seem. This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways. So dont forget what I told you, dont come around, I got my own hell to raise. D

Moments In Memory
Moments In Memory.... Remember the picnic on the lake The days were shorter, the air crisper The leaves changing in beautiful hues The breeze just barely stirring, like a whisper The meal itself a simple fair all that was left was cheese & wine, Those we were enjoying as the fire that Kept back the chill, as the sun dipped the final time ... All that is left is the glow behind the horizon, The dusk of the night, The fire softly glowing with its warm soft light .... The sounds of the waves softly hitting the sand Just being together Silently holding hands Enjoying the silence Settle around us, whispering breeze the chill of the air as it gently becomes a tease ... Times when knowing this is what friends do Sharing a moment to last all time Knowing I found a dear friend in you ... Moments like this are far and few And one im glad I shared with you 9-20-06 ~*~Pixie~*~

Love
Where do we begin on love . Well all i can say is , ive been taken by it , That BIG FOUR LETTER WORD LOVE . That means so much , To so many different people ..... But at last i think i have it ... Ive grabbed it and taken hold of it . And im going to keep it for ever xxxxxxx It's a wondeful feeling to have ............ I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU . I LOVE YOU XXXXXXXXXX

Ohhhhhh
2.54am - Drama. I'm a simple guy, to me the city has so much useless shit, it's cluttered with 'unnecessity'. Everywhere there's restrictions, it's like we're in jail, might as well be, can't even fart without a warning here or a summons there. In NYC you should automatically be born with a middle initial assigned to you, D, for drama - John Drama Doe. This way when you take a vacation, go out of town and people look at your ID, they say "Well I guess he's had it rough, let's go easy on him, he's from New York City". So the other day, back in february, I was on the train going home, it's about an hour ride home from the city, it's 6am, me, the mildly drunk russian,in a nearly empty train, with a homeless guy sprawled out across three seats at the other end of the subway car, in his dark corner of the car is a busted light. Halfway through at one of the stops I get called over by an officer of the law, this american law that I don't mind following rules of, if only you spill it in a sha

Jason!
You are simpley amazing. And awesome. And precious. And yes you rock. I always have a constant smile when im talking to you. -I need you to know you can fall into me That my arms are wide open and will always be Right here waiting, Staying strong Come and fall into me- Hope that makes you smile :)

Porn Magazine Pages
I walked to work today after school and then went to Chic Fila (sp?) to pick up lunch for everyone that was working already since I had an hour to kill...so anyway...and the way to get the food, I had to walk past this empy store that used to be Franks and is now becoming ACE Hardware...but anyway to the point of this... ALL OVER the ground outside of the place there was pages of a porn magazine everywhere!...lol girls masterbating and shit...the book itself was like in the road there...but pages were on the sidewalk and all. Yeah I thought I would share that...it was quite interesting...and amusing.

Survey
1. What is the middle name of the first person you ever slept with? who knows 2. What kind of underwear are you wearing and what color? None 3. What is the song you want played at your funeral? Don't want to think about it 4. Would you tell your parents if you're gay? Maybe 5. What would your last meal be before getting executed? Pizza 6. Beatles or Stones? beatles 7. If you had to pick one person on earth who should die, who? Brett 8. Beer, wine or hard liquor? Beer 9. What is the thing most important to you about your mate? How well we click 10. What are your plans for the future? Be married with a house and a family 12. Do you walk around the house naked? When i can 13. How many drinks does it take to get you drunk? 3 14. Where is your best friend(s)? California and Michigan 15. Hair color you like on someone you're dating? Blone or bald 16. Would you rather be blind or deaf? deaf 17. Do you have any special talents?

Never Agian
I can’t taste you on my lips anymore, your voice just a whisper now. A memory of a lover lost. It is late; I am awake again, thinking of you, longing for you again. For your touch Your breath on my neck Your smile, your musings The way you make me laugh Your kiss They way you make me feel when I am with you But you don’t know how I want you, how I ache for your touch again. I can’t bring myself to tell you, and you wouldn’t care if I did. You are consumed with her and not me. You don’t even remember me. I’m over it.

Facts!!!!
1) 94% of men lie about their****size. According to condom manufacturers, only 6% of men need to use extra large condoms. 2) The average man is 4-5 inches long when erect; no matter what you have heard ladies, that's the truth. Incidentally the average vaginal capactity is only 6 inches, for you women who think you can handle king dong. 3) 80% of American men are circumsized, though Pediatrics say it is not necessary. 4) No matter what all the ads say nothing but time can make your penis grow. (most men reach the end of their growth by the early 20's) 5) There is no correlation between penis size and shoe size, hand size, or nose size. 6) Blue balls does exist! It's technically called "prostatic congestion." 7) Only 16% of men shave their privates. +Some stuff on the ladies+ ------------------------------ 1) Only 9% of women around the globe consider themselves "attractive" (20% of British women do). 43% of women use the term "natural", 24% say th

Letter From Louisiana Mother To Her Son In Iraq
Dear Son, I am writing this slow cause I know you can't read fast. We don't live where we did when you left. Your Dad read in the paper where more accidents happen within twenty miles of home...so we moved. I won't be able to send you the address cause the last family that lived here took the numbers with them for their next house so they wouldn't have to change their address. This place has a washing machine. The first day I put four shirts in it, pulled the chain and havn't seen them since. It only rained twice this week, three days the first time, and four days the second time. The coat you wanted me to send you, well your Aunt Sue said it would be a little too heavy to send in the mail with them heavy buttons, so we cut them off and put them in the pockets. We got a bill from the funeral home, said if we didn't make the last payment of Grandma's funeral bill...up she comes. About your sister, she had a baby this morning, I havn't found out whether it is a boy or a gi

I Think You're The Father Of One Of My Kids.........
A guy goes to the supermarket and notices a beautiful blond woman,who waves at him and says "Hello." He's rather taken aback, because he can't place where he knows herfrom. So he says, "Do you Know me?" To which she replies, "I think you're the father of one of my kids." Now his mind travels back to the only time he has ever beenunfaithful to his wife and says, "My God, are you the stripper from my bachelor party that I made love to on the pool table with all my buddies watching, while your partner whipped my butt with wet celery???" She looks into his eyes and calmly says, "No, I'm your son's math teacher!"

Thursday Questions
#1 State you live in #2 Fav vacation Spot #3 Who's your lost cherry sweetheart? #4 Celebrity crush? #5 If you could live anywhere in the World where would that be? Just some random questions i am bored feel free to ask me too :D

Godsmack-bleeding Me
Way, way down inside there's a hollow soul An emptiness shatters tomorrow And I find it hard to breathe for me in your company Seems I've been taken for granted And you're breaking and bleeding me down to nothing It's tearing me down You're breaking me and bleeding me down to nothing Yeah! Maybe, this time baby it's meant to be No more suffocating you or me, oh yeah And I payed the price but you sentencing me to life And I feel I bought in my time And you're breaking and bleeding me down to nothing It's tearing me down You're breaking me and bleeding me down to nothing Again You're breaking me And bleeding me Again You're bleeding me, you're bleeding me And you're breaking and bleeding me down to nothing You're tearing me down You're breaking me and bleeding me down to nothing You're tearing me, tearing me down again Tearing me down again You're breaking me and bleeding me Bleeding me again

Dont Miss Me Too Much
well, as of tomorrow at noon, i am gone, heading out for the weekend. dont miss me too much yall. love yas and i love this site. best one on the web. anyway, yea, im outtie and ill be back sometime around supper time sunday. have a great weekend yall *hugs and kisses*

I'm not really sure why I am tonight but I just wanted to let y'all know that I luv you guys. Each of you for different reasons but the reasons are still there. SOOOO, thank y'all for makin my world a little brighter.

Chalk One Up For The Old Guy
An older, white haired man walked into a jewellery store one Friday evening with a beautiful young gal at his side. He told the jeweller he was looking for a special ring for his girlfriend. The jeweller looked through his stock and brought out a $5,000 ring and showed it to him. The old man said, "I don't think you understand, I want something very special." At that statement, the jeweller went to his special stock and brought another ring over. "Here's a stunning ring at only $40,000," the jeweller said. The young lady's eyes sparkled and her whole body trembled with excitement. The old man seeing this said, "We'll take it." The jeweller asked how payment would be made and the old man stated, "By check and I know you need to make sure my check is good, so I'll write it now and you can call the bank Monday to verify the funds. I'll pick the ring Monday afternoon," he said. Monday morning, a very teed-off jeweller phoned the old man. "There's no money in that a

You'll Just Never Know
I ain't comfortable talking about this but I feel like I need to, to let my feelings out...Some people on here knew about my last pregnancy...and how I had a miscarriage. I have been pregnant 3 times. All ended in miscarriages =[. Ash Mason. R.I.P.-2001 Xaviar James. R.I.P.-2003 Aaliyah Jean. R.I.P.-2006 Some of you also know the father of her. I am not going to say his name but yeah. Her death affected me the most. I was deeply in love with her father and what happened in the surgery room. While i was in surgery to get aaliyah taken out of me i was sedated i had a aaliyah song i was singing to her while i was out. In my heart is where i got to hold her they wouldnt let me hold her when they cut her out of me. The doctors told me i was crying why i was sedated i think when i was holding her is when i started crying. I named her Aaliyah because when I was singing to her in my heart holding her I was singing One In A Million by Aaliyah. I only got her once, while I was sedated...

What I Would Say
what i would say to you if i were only to say... what i would say to you if i could only understand.. what i would say to you if only you would listen... what i would say to you if there was no tomorrow... what i would say to you if there were a tomorrow... what i would say to you if courage would overcome... what i would say to you is what eyes say when met... what i would say to you is i love you.

I'm Not Allowed To An Opinion.....
this i know to be a fact because i've had friends that were supposedly behind me all the way until i voiced my opinion and then...*poof*....they were gone! i was under the impression that these blogs were for us to say what we meant and what we felt at any given time. i must have been mistaken about that. anyone who's mature enough to be on lc should also be mature enough to know that opinions are like assholes....everyone has one and they all stink (that includes mine). they should also be mature enough not to let someone else's opinion on any given topic keep them from still being friends with that person. wasn't this country built on values such as freedom of speech? am i to keep quiet and only write about things that everyone agrees with? well, as for the first question, i think we're falling a bit on that one. these days if you don't follow the crowd, you're left out in the cold. this country really has no tolerance for the individual. there are enough examples of this so that i s

Whisper My Name
an infinite sadness darkens my soul losing her has taken control where is my love scattered like leaves what do i feel nothin but grief here i stand and stand alone a weakened light a distant home hidden amongst us a band of theives their purpose to steal the souls we need when happiness and love dies in the rain my only hope one of pain a look from you one i call friend picks me up again and again balance me now with a will to live do this for me and my life i give and if you need or feel the same look my direction whisper my name

In A Moment
When at first sight I saw your face, from across the way my heart did sway. You held me close but for a moment only to turn and walk away. Never knowing how you made me feel, unknowingly it was my heart you did steal The rest of my life I would pay for falling in love with you that day. Tina G.

Some Thoughts
4 more days, and i will be another year older. Lots of things have happened in the last year. Some good, some not so good. The last few days some people have asked me if there was anything in the last year that i would change. And honestly, I don't know. There are one or two things I wish had happened differently, but Regret is a wasted emotion, its too late to change it now. And I still stick by my sayin, once i give a piece of my heart, it is forever theirs..... Whether they want it or not is up to them. Life goes on, things change.... The test is keeping what you have, and gettin what you want. And at the moment, I have failed at both. A reminder to those reading this.. tell the ones you care about how you feel at each opportunity you get... Tomorrow may be too late.

Native American Drums
Drums of The Native American Indians All life is rhythmic. We see it in the coming and going of day and night. the ebb and flow of tides. The swaying of trees in the wind. We hear it in the patter of rain. The repetition of footsteps. The beating of the human heart. We respond to rhythm when we sense it-and seek it out when it is not present for it is invariably pleasant. Little wonder that throughout the history of mankind, people from all over the world have prized drums-the instruments of rhythm. Perhaps no other people have attached a greater significance to the spirit of the drum than the Indian tribes of North America. The drum has played an inherent role in the lives of Native Americans for centuries. prior to battle, the beat of the drum aroused a sense of strength and solidarity. in gatherings of celebration, it created a sense of social and spiritual harmony. The Indian Nations continue to express their deep spiritual awareness through ceremonial dances accompanied by th

Emily
Emily was having a great time out with her friends. It felt great to be out of college at long last. She had spent so much time studying and such, that tonight she was letting her guard down and have some fun without worrying about tomorrow. Her strawberry daquari was helping. She had already danced with a few guys, but none had held her interest so far. At last, the guy she had been eyeing all night walked over and asked her for a dance. Andrew, as he introduced himself, was a great dancer, and a smooth talker. After four dances and some small talk in between, Andrew asked if he could drive her home. The request was followed by his lips grazing along her neck and his hands cupping her ass cheeks. She had no disillusions about what he wanted. Her nipples had hardened long ago and her panties were soaked with her juices. The alcohol and all the rubbing and teasing on the dance floor had her really worked up. She readily agreed and bid her friends good night. They fondled, carress

Another Day Another Dollar, Right??
so basically i like to fuss, lmao.. not in that bitchy girl sort of way, more in a WTF was that all about kinda way and it usually happens once a day to me, so figured well funny shit happens to me all the time why not blog it, right? right.. keep an eye out wont be a daily thing unless the folks at the nursing home decide that my popcorn and porno movies every friday night is a keeper, lmao.. then i shall right some reviews for ya lmao.. until then let me sneak off and find some trouble to get into.. ttfn kimi

Heaven
Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees; a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddys, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there. "Where's h

Pastor's Donkey
The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered it in the race again, and it won again. The local paper read: PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered the pastor not to enter the donkey in another race. The next day, the local paper headline read: BISHOP SCRATCHES PASTOR'S ASS. This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the pastor to get rid of the donkey. The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearby convent. The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline the next day: NUN HAS BEST ASS IN TOWN. The bishop fainted. He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey, so she sold it to a farmer for $10. The next day the paper read: NUN SELLS ASS FOR $10 This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back the donkey and lead it to the plains where it could run wild. The next day the headlines r

How Things Change
Sorry, this is not a sex story. More of a rant. I have come to the conclusion that with all of the technology provided to us we have become less personal. Sometimes it seems that the normal courtesy of even saying bye is lost in the world of instant messaging and email. If you were on the phone or talking to someone in person, would you just walk off and leave? Would you not say bye? If someone walks up to you would you just ignore them like you aren’t there? How did we become so impersonal? No wonder our kids today don’t have any verbal communication skills or an idea how to act in a group of people. They are sitting behind a computer or a phone text messaging. Personally I miss the days of a proper conversation. It is sad to see such a wonderful trait lost in this technology world.

Killin Me
~"My fingers trace the through and through, My eyes craving out your shallow heart, I am past the fucking words, Past the fucking hate, I am all i have never wanted....The sickness deep within now spreads outward in a sea of infecting devostation, This delerium is captivating crowds of thousands. You left me in tides of dying and crushing wieghs of emotional miss use and abandment!"~

just a side note: For those of you who think I look like a whore thats great keep it to yourself. It's the same as wearing a bikini to a beach or being a Victoria Secert model. Why is it HOT for a celeb or a playboy bunny to do it but the average ordinary woman does it shes trashy? I think ppl are just intimitaded by a woman who is not afraid. Besides if you havnt noticed there are worse pictures of ppl on myspace/ LC For those of you who say I'm no better than the 14 yr olds that try to look twice thier age well theres a difference: I AM 21 YRS OLD. For those of you who say " does not look like the Jamie I know" thats cuz you dont know me theres only a few that really do. So in other words you don't like don't look and piss off. Thanks.

Happy Again!
To all of My friends, Im writing this blog to inform everyone that im going to take a break from Yahoo , Lost Cherry and Myspace. As most of you know Ive recently got back together with my Ex girlfriend and Im going to give 100% of my attention to making this work this time. Im happy and hope everyone is happy for me. I'll check in from time to time to let ya know im still alive. Take Care Bruce

Time To Go
ok kids, i have a sore back from last night, but im ready for tonight. its gonna be a busy night as all fridays are for pizza. hoping i'll make more and get twice as many deliveries. so good night and catch yall later. time to go make a living, lol

Drama.
I'm sick of all the fucking drama in the bulletins. Do people not realize that this is the fucking internet? If they take shit to heart, than they should STEP AWAY from the fucking computer and get a real life. I'm sick of seeing a million bulletins from people saying "He/she is a bitch, he/she did this, he/she did that" So fucking block them and ignore what they say! Simple as that. This isnt pointed at a certain person either, so dont message me saying "is this about me and the bulletin I posted?" cause I'll probably just put you on ignore and delete you from my friends =] It's the internet, I understand that not everybody is going to get along, but why bitch about what they're doing, than 2 seconds later, post a bulletin about them, talking shit? Attention whore much? I'm sure when you're with your friends IRL you guys dont sit there saying "Oh yeah I was on the internet today and posted bulletins about someone because she hurt my e-feelings" cause if you do, then you should really

My Thoughts On Love...
In my years, it seems that a lot of my friends and acquaintances seek me out for advice or perspective. And recently, I have been approached on one topic a lot.....LOVE. When will I find love? When will I find the one? Why do I always end up with assholes? Well, first of all, if you want to find love, let me suggest one thing............STOP LOOKING!!! Honestly, you're just setting yourself up for failure. If you're "looking" for love, you're doing a few things that might hurt you in the long run. First, you're allowing yourself to be viewed as vulnerable, which means that predatory people will pick up on your "scent" and use you to get what they want, or you end up with someone who is also looking for love, which means that they are just as, or even more desperate than you. Now tell me, do you really want that? I think a lot of us "look" for love because of this saying..........."Love at first sight". Now this saying is ironic because true love has absolutely NOTHING TO DO WITH

Ehhhh
1.36am - What are you suppose to think of yourself when all you hear from people that are suppose to support you most, is avalanche of verbal abuse? When you are being reminded everyday that you're a nobody, going nowhere, even if in other people's eyes you're an ideal friend. Often being compared to people that wasted their life away, the losers who accomplished zero, nill, nada. Working a dead-end job, with no degree, you did this to yourself. You did this, you decided to skip out on the higher education. You have cut yourself off from friends, from family members living less than a football field away, from fresh air alltogether (let's not go as far as saying "fresh" about the air in New York, but you get my drift). Locking yourself away in a paper prison of your own appartment, isolation, seemed logical since you can't afford to have fun without the green. Sleeping pills are a good way to reboot your system, because in reality the difficulty of life can be too hard for some. So che

10 Weeks
So far this week has been kinda upsetting and difficult for me. I am 10 weeks pregnant and have not felt pregnant at all. I have had very little nausea and have not gotten sick once. With this not being what I have experienced with my other 2 kids, it makes me nervous and think there is something wrong. I went into the dr yesterday hoping that we could hear a heartbeat and set my mind at ease and we heard nothing. I was told it is most likely too early but it was still heartbreaking. I have another appt on Oct 3 and that should yield more reassurance. If any of you ladies that read this have had babies with few or no pregnancy symptoms, please let me know because it makes me feel better.

Two Wolves
One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, "My son, the battle is between two "wolves" inside us all. One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith." The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: "Which wolf wins?" The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

For Someone That I Know From Here
there is this girl who really does like me alot whenever she was needing help i came to help her she cried of happiness to know that i help her she gave me hugs, kisses etc.. and she REALLY!!! and i mean REALLY!!! does love me

Nosey Ass Bitches!!!
so david and i havent been married even a month and some bitch is already trying to break us up! why the hell do people do this stupid shit?! I dont even know this bitch and shes calling me a barracks rat! what the fuck?! Im so pissed right now!! i hate this shit! do people honestly not have better things to do then ruin other peoples' lives?! GET A LIFE! Leave me and my husband the fuck alone! Sorry i had to bitch. other than that not much else is going on. My angel is moving back tonight! shes on her way back to Campbell! i cant wait! My boy Aaron is back from iraq. got to hang out with him a little bit today. well, im off to bed. im too pissed right now to do much more than sleep.

I hate being alone cuz its so depressin and I hate 2 feel lonely- But im afraid of a relationship, fallin in love, then havin her hurt me- Ive been hurt 2 many times and the last girl i was with, tore me apart- Should I stand on my own or should I take one more chance and give someone my heart?

Help
ALL ALONE AND SCARED.. I FEEL SO UNSURE OF.... EVERYTHING.. WHERE I CAME FROM AND WHERE I AM GOING.. AND ALL THAT HAPPENS IN BETWEEN.. I AM AFRAID.. OF WHERE I HAVE BEEN.. OF ALL THE SHIT THAT HAS HAPPEND TA ME.. THAT MAYBE I AM NO BETTER THAN HIM.. AND I WANT TA BE.. I DONT WANT TA BE THE KINDA PERSON HE IS.. I DONT WANT TA BE AFRAID.. BUT I DONT KNOW HOW TA OVER COME MY FEAR.. I WAS SO HURT.. BRUISED BATTERED TORN.. TA KEEP IT ALL TA MY SELF.. BUT I REALIZE NOW THATS WHAT HE WANTS.. FOR ME TA KEEP IT ALL LOCKED UP.. TA HIDE MY PAIN.. SO I AM LETTING JUST A LITTLE OF IT GO.. AS THESE WORDS FLOW THROUGH.. MY PAIN DOES TOO.. MAYBE SOME DAY I WILL UNDERSTAND..

Have Fun???
Congratulations your a REAL Slut! Your deffinatly not going to lose it becuase you sure are using it! Your Motto: "I'll try anyone or anything once or twice!" Your Sign: "Slippery When Wet!" * Don't forget to pratice SAFE SEX! Better stock up on condoms and lube!Take The Slut Quiz Now!"Slut Quiz - Female" is available here***starXtest v2.0***

Kitty Litter Cake
Want to be forever eliminated from the guest list? Just take this to your next "pot luck" dinner!!! Kitty Litter Cake" * ~ This is *no joke* READ THE INGREDIENTS AND STUFF FIRST AND THEN LOOK AT THE PHOTO... TRUST ME... DON'T LOOK AT THE PHOTO FIRST, BUT LAST... This is for all you cooks out there looking for something a little different......... WANT TO HAVE FUN AT A PARTY? PREPARE THIS RECIPE! COMPLETELY EDIBLE, BUT YOUR FRIENDS MAY NOT THINK SO! CAKE INGREDIENTS: 1 box spice or German chocolate cake mix 1 box of white cake mix 1 package white sandwich cookies 1 large package vanilla instant pudding mix A few drops green food coloring 12 small Tootsie Rolls or equivalent SERVING "DISHES AND UTENSILS" 1 NEW cat-litter box 1 NEW cat-litter box liner 1 NEW pooper scooper 1) Prepare and bake cake mixes, ac

You Know You Grew Up In The 80's Or Early 90's If
I know this is long but, if this is you, you will understand….. You Know You Grew Up In The 80's or Early 90's If: 1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word SIKE. 2. You watched the Pound Puppies. 3. You can sing the rap to the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and can do the Carlton 4. Girls wore biker shorts under their skirts and felt stylishly sexy. 5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own. 6. You owned those lil' Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls. 7. You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on Blossom 8. Two words: Hammer Pants 9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock" 10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars... and spokey-dokes or playing cards on your spokes for that incredible sound effect 11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales" (Woo ooh!) 12. It was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. 13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your he

All Work And No Play....
So I just woke up a little bit ago. It's about 12:45 ish. I gotta be at work by 3:15 which really sucks. I hardly ever close the store on Saturdays because I always do it during the week, but this weekend I got stuck with it. I work tomorrow too, but luckily not closing. I'm feeling much better though, the cold is on it's way out. I'm hoping to be as good as new by tomorrow. Oh well, I just felt like bitching. I hope you all have a better, more exciting weekend than me!

~daddy Why~
Daddy Why? As I sit back and think of how it used to be I cry... I cry for the one who left I cry for the thoughts of why, Why it has to be this way I need a reason... A reason why, Why you left me on that cold dark night. I try to think back, But it's all a blur... That day you left me with all this hurt, How could you do this? I thought I was your little girl... But then you left, You left me alone, Alone to grow up, In this cold dark world...

~i See Me~
~I See Me~ I see me as lonely and depressed I wonder why i am this way I hear sounds of laughter I want to be happy I see me as lonely and depressed I imagine a place where i can do as i please I feel so empty and broken I touch my face I worry about how i will feel tomorrow I cry everyday, because i am this way I see me as lonely and depressed I understand how long it could take to get better I say i'll be better someday I dream of the day it comes I try to feel better, I really do I hope for the day i don't have to cry anymore I see me as lonely and depressed

Again
I NEED TA DEAL WITH ISSUES.. I NEED TA FIND MY PLACE IN LIFE.. LOYAL FRIENDS ARE HARD TA COME BY.. BUT NOW I HAVE A FEW.. PEOPLE WHO LISTEN AND DO NOT JUDGE.. I WANT TA TELL THEM ALL MY SECRETS.. BUT HE IS STILL THERE INSIDE MY HEAD.. I DON'T KNOW HOW TA GET HIM OUT.. I FEAR THE HURT WILL NEVER FADE.. THE PAIN I SHALL NEVER OVERCOME.. SHAME FELT OVER SOMETHING THAT WAS NOT MY FAULT.. I WAS TOO YOUNG TA UNDERSTAND.. HOW CAM I GET OVER SOMETHING I AM AFRAID TA FACE.. I NEED SOME HELP.. HOW DO I FIND MY SELF.. CAN I LEARN TA TRUST AGAIN.. I FEAR THAT HE HAS WON.. THE PLACE HE SENT ME IS SO DARK.. WHAT I NEED IS SOMEONE TA BRING ME LIGHT.. AND HELP ME UNDERSTAND..

The Bluglar
THE BURGLAR Pete Tyler knew he was asking for trouble when he slid open the unlocked window. But without a moment’s hesitation slipped inside of the unoccupied house. Only two weeks out of prison and here he was back prowling homes in search of jewelry, money, or anything else of value that he could be hidden under his coat. Like the old pro he was he immediately rifled through an unlocked jewelry case only to find that it only contained cheap costume settings that were practically worthless! After tossing the case away in disgust he made his way to the den and made short work of the desk and adjoining file cabinet. “Dammit,” he said under his breath, “a guy can’t even make a dishonest buck anymore robbing houses.” He was just about ready to sneak out the back door when all of a sudden, and much to his surprise, the door swung open and a cute little red haired woman of about twenty eight barged into the kitchen carry several bags of groceries! It was too late to run, and for a hot se

Thinking Only Of You
thinking Only Of You ************************* Wishing You Were Here Whispering Sweet Nothings In My Ear I Wouldn't Have Anything To Fear Just Protesting My Love To You and Telling You How Much I Care Just Feeling Your Touch Would Mean Ever So Much if only you were near Ofcouse i Would show you My Dear So That We Would Be In the Clear sitting Here Protesting My Love So Unfear When My Only Wish Is Having You Near Written By: Blossom_ Rose I Sent This Poem In To Be Published And It Is Scheduled To Be Published I Received The Letter Today In The Mail. And Yes When Ever I Write A Poem I Always Send It In Before I Post It Here All Of Them That I Post Are Published

Love & Laughter
Bad Smells Couple Comedy A handsome young man and a beautiful girl met and it was love at first sight. They immediately got married and went on their honeymoon. On their wedding night, the bride went into the bathroom to freshen up. Unfortunately, she had a case of bad breath so severe she had to take a powerful drug to control it. She was about to take the drug when she decided it would be best to let her husband in on her secret since they would be spending the rest of their lives together. So she returned to bed without taking the drug. Her husband then went into the bathroom to freshen up. He also had a problem with foot odor so offensive it required a special preparation to keep it under control. He was about to apply the preparation when he decided it would be better to let his wife know about his problem because she would find out about it sooner or later anyway. He skipped applying the preparation, returned to bed, grabbed his wife and gave her a big kiss. Sh

Hahaha
I hatepathetic LC people, this bitch vice girl and her friends haha. damn peopleneed to grow up with the stupid taking LC seriously. same with this LC cuklt thing going on here. I love calling them names and pathetic. how pathetic is a bunch of old fuckers trying to act cool online. hahaha anyone can be cool online

What You Do In The Dark?
Everyone has dual natures, whether it Saccarin sweet and fuzzy, or dark and deadly. Everyone has a personal facade, a mask that they wear. I know I have a splendid array of masks that I wear daily... Sad, Happy, Depressed, Inspired... its all the same. What is different for everyone is the timing. When we choose to wear the masks and how we choose to wear them is what makes us unique. Hell we all know that we aren't going to get out of life alive... the question is... how much fun are we going to have along the way.. Will death really be worth the road trip to get there? Will this life be memorable or miserable enough to be etched into my soul for the next life? A ramble... More to come I suppose...

Hello Hot Cherries
Just wanted to "Hello" to all you fine ass HOT SEXY ladies of LC that have dropped by! I DO Love fast cars and FASTER Women!! Drop by and say "HI" cuz you know...."A Hard Mikes Is Good To Find" !!

Movie...
The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh. You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum. Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

My Life As A Movie Would Be...
The Movie Of Your Life Is An Indie Flick You do things your own way - and it's made for colorful times. Your life hasn't turned out how anyone expected, thank goodness! Your best movie matches: Clerks, Garden State, Napoleon Dynamite If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

One Morning I Stare!
Laying beside you You Asleep Asleep and not knowing Knowing how much I love you You slowly breathing Breathing the breath of life Life so precious Precious as my love for you You're chest slightly rising Rising as does my curiosity Curiosity of your dreams Dreams of me I can only hope Of, love I can only hope Hope of perfect love Love that will never leave our lives Lives we share together as one One morning I stare Stare at you You so peaceful and calm Calm as the ocean at night Night I wait for For to watch you sleep once again Copyright ©~Ted E. Brown II January 6, 2001

Boy Friend Application
Tell me Name loaction Eye color Height Age Hair color Would you tell me you loved me? Would you cheer me up when i'm sad? would you clam me down when i'm mad? Would make me smile just see me happy? Would portect me? What would you do if i cried? If i was in the hospital? If i was ill? If we got in to a fight? Would you hold me till the sun would rise? Would you talk to me just to hear my vocie? What is you favorite part of the opposite sexs body? Do you like rock? Do you like to make music? If so then on what instrument to you make this music? Do you like the rain? Would you watch it wiht me? Would you hold me hand? Do you like My eyes My hair My height My frineds My personality Am i cute?

Internet Friends
I do not know what I would do without my internet friends...Isn't it funny how you seem to express yourself better to the people you meet here as to the ones you meet in real...Its like you dont have to worry about being judged because you may not see things as they do...I have made some really good friends here online and hope that if you took the time to stop by my site and read this blog that we might become friends also...Please leave me a message and rate my pics as i will do the same respects for you....Knightskitty

A Million Dollars
A great friend of mine shared this with me and I thought it too funny not to pass on!! A young boy went up to his father and asked him, "Dad, what is >the > >>difference between potentially and realistically?" > >> > >>The father thought for a moment, then answered, "Go ask your >mother if she > >>would sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars. Then ask >your sister if > >>she would sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars, and >then, ask your > >>brother if he'd sleep with Brad Pitt for a million dollars. >Come back and > >>tell me what you learn from that." > >> > >>So the boy went to his mother and asked, "Would you sleep with >Brad Pitt > >>for > >>a million dollars?" > >>The mother replied, "Of course I would! We could really use >that money to > >>fix up the house and send you kids to a great University!" > >> > >>The boy then went to his sister and asked, "Would you sleep >with Brad Pitt > >>for a million dollars?" > >> > >>The girl replied

A Tribute To The Memory Of..
A Tribute To the Memory of Virginia Joan Brown In Memory of Virginia, a daughter, a wife, a mother and grandmother, a sister,aunt, a relative and co-worker, an in-law, a friend. To all who knew her, Virginia was many things to all, each in their own special way. The memory of Virginia is fresh in each of our minds. Let no one think that the memories will die. Reminders of her are everywhere because she touched our lives so deeply. Some have been just recently, yet others have been life long. let us take comfort in knowing these memories will help us to get through this sad time. Sincerely, A Beloved Friend

Nah Me And My Wife Have Alot Of Fun On Here
WE HAVE ALOT OF FUN ON HERE WITH THE PICS AND THE OTHER CHERRIES MOST ALL OF THE WOMEN I HAVE MET ON HERE ARE SO VERY SEXY SWEET AND STICKY LIKE CANDY BUT THE BEST CANDY IS MY WIFE THANKS TO ALL OF U ON HERE AND OH YA THE GUYS ON HERE FUCKING ROCK TO JUST WANTED TO SAY THANK U TO ALL OF YA..... Fire My Words Fire My Words

Nascar
Nascar is not only for hicks! Now at one point (back in the 1968) that was true, but not anymore. I'm really tired of people calling me a hick just because I like Nascar. Nascar has elevated itself through the years. Did you know that their are an estimated 75 million fans of the sport? Companies such as Pfizer, Office Depot, Cingular, Nextel and Home Depot (my personal fav) have figured this out. In the 2005 Daytona 500 alone, DuPont was estimated to receive $9.4 million in exposure, second only to the Nike's $10.8 million value at the masters. If television networks are willing to write a check for, oh, say, $600 million a year, there must be more than a few people watching .Now, can you honestly say that all of those people are hicks? Think about all the sports in America: golf, hockey, baseball, soccer, swimming, diving, skating, college sports, rodeo and many more- yet only the NFL commands a bigger audience than Nextel Cup. Racing is more than a bunch of nondescript car

Things...
Ive often sat and wondered about so many things that have happened in my life and that of which is happening now. I hear people all the time express how much they would go back and change their life the least little bit. I on the other hand wouldn't for the simple fact, if you are a dear friend to me than you know my life has been thru pure T shit, but i wouldn't trade it because of the simple fact it has made me the person i am today.I am able to hold my head up high and face this cruel jackass of a world everyday i wake up breathing. yeah i think i could have possibly done some things different, but would i trade it. Nope! Not One single drop of it. so yeah my life is pretty much a complex orbit cycling the earth's surface.And you know what I wouldn't have it any other way. lol i can say loud n proud "I'm A FUCKED UP HUMAN BEING!!" see wasnt so hard, now if only half the population here would step up to the plate, we'd be getting somewhere. We all go thru trials n tribulations, but i

That Damn Baldhead Video.....lol
I got this from MILF a while back and posted it a few times. Since then, I've been asked many times to repost it. Since it's been requested and I've officially retired this thing from MY bulletins...I thought I'd blog it......so.....hang on to your wig cause he's "fuckin bald".......LOL

So I Went Out Tonite...
I got wasted not on alcohol, but sniffing charlie. Every weekend it has come to that. I say I am not gonna do it anymore, and I don't. Only on the weekends do I do it. Cos I hang out with my friend Joanna. She is all I have of a friend out here anymore. It's like I am going even lower than I ever could imagine. I never do drugs! I am sad. Not to mention my health problems. What am I thinking. I guess I just have a brokenheart, and I can't get past it. I miss her so much. How could she just walk away, but at the same time tell me she still loves me? I don't get it.*shakes head*~NFA

Lost Items
I have just gotten a new "haze" lens filter for my canon camera and asked my girl to please put it up. Now it cant be found. I have looked. I have had her to look, and nothing... I have all the others but not the one I need. I try to keep everything organized but to no avail. I have several (9) cameras and can always seem to find everything except for the canon....I am beginning to think I am fighting a losing battle with it. Dont you just hate when you know you have something but never seem to be able to find it. I have a photo-shoot planned and it looks as if I will be buying another one. uuugh!!! Am I the only one who seems to have this problem...some days it just feels like a curse. Anyone else have this problem? Well thanks for letting me vent..dont really feel better but had to let it out.

Got This Poem From A Bulletin .... Liked It! ;)
We sit and we type and we stare at our screens, We can't help but wonder what all of this means. With mouse in hand ...we roam through this maze, On an infinite search...lost in a daze. We chat with each other, we type all our woes At times we'll band together to gang up on our foes. We wait for somebody, to type out our name We want recognition, but it is always the same. Soon friendships are formed - but - why we don't know, But some of these friendships, will flourish and grow. We give kisses and hugs, and sometimes we'll flirt, In IMs we chat deeply, and reveal why we hurt. Why is it on screen, we are so easily bold, Telling our secrets, that have never been told. The answer is simple, it is as clear as a bell, We all have our problems, and need someone to tell. We can't tell real people, but tell someone we must So we turn to our 'puters ...and to those we can trust. Even though it sounds crazy...the truth still remains, Most of my "fr

Pumpkin Cheesecake
* Crust: * 2 1/4 cups graham cracker crumbs * 2/3 cup butter, softened * 1/3 cup sugar * Filling: * 5 packages (8 ounces each) cream cheese, softened * 1/2 cup light brown sugar, packed * 3/4 cup granulated sugar * 3 tablespoons all-purpose flour * 1 teaspoon salt * 1 1/2 teaspoons vanilla extract * 1/2 teaspoon ground allspice * 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon * 3/4 teaspoon ground ginger * 6 eggs * 1 can (16 ounces) pumpkin puree * 2/3 cup evaporated milk PREPARATION: In a medium bowl, combine graham cracker crumbs, butter, and 1/3 cup granulated sugar. Stir with a fork until blended. Press crumbs into the bottom and up sides of a 10x3-inch round springform pan. Press to within about 1/2-inch of top. Heat oven to 350°. In a mixing bowl with electric mixer, beat cream cheese at low speed until smooth. Add brown sugar, 3/4 cup granulated sugar, and remaining ingredients. Beat until blended. Increase speed to medium and beat for 5 minutes, scraping down sides o

Quiz - Sexual Experience
You have a sexual IQ of 157 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Painful Desire
Painful Desire So tender is your burning heart, A passion of power and pain, Strong is the fire of your life, As loved ones cut you with the blade of a knife. Why do they not see your splendor, Why can they strike your beautiful heart, My pain is deep for what I see done to you, I wish only to hold you forever and believe its true. You are so beautiful my eyes can scarcely contain your radiance, Your heart is so passionate mine wishes to break, Break for I would join my heart with yours to be as one, And you would know my love is true for I shall never run. Matthew Scott Geyer Journeyman

What Too Technical Lol
Hey i find reading the basics about xml pretty easy, and RSS is so simple on the basic level. Still I apologize to my readers and try and make it a bit easier next time LOL. So what did I do with my day off? Well apart from talking to someone special :D, just watch some films and what i taped on the video, yes i still use tape! I will wait till the video starts playing up before i move to dvd. My brother has one and is happy with it, but he doesn't tape much off the tv. I was able to catch up with the latest series of spooks, if you haven't seen it then go get it!

Citizen Soldier
This weekend was my National Guard drill weekend for the month. It was my first drill as Personnel Officer. I however got asked by my Battalion Commander if I would mind moving to the Logistics Officer position. I have no problem with either one. The big thing of the weekend is that I passed my PT test. I really don't think I should have passed the push ups. I am sure that I didn't do a single one to standard. I hopefully wont get super lazy and go into hibernation mode. I want to start running 5k races. I will never win but the competition will keep me motivated.

Update
Ok Peeps.... Heres an update... I got the admin job,.... Im starting tomarow... IM REALLY nervous... Its been a VERY Ruff 2 years for me...But i'm hoping its over now.. and that my life can get back on track... Corey, (my husband), found a Hampster in the street a few days ago... we named her Houdini... Becasue she mustve escaped.... so now we have three pets... 1 dog, 1 cat, 1 hampster The last day at my PT nanny job did NOT go well... the youngest is ill with mental haealth issues... and he freaked out.. and hit me and shit... it kinda sucked... since it was our last day..... BUt he did calm down.... but it was sad... So.. thats my update... have a new job.. New Pet...and some new freinds that mean the world to me already.. Keep in touch my peeps!!!

Friends Or Not Friends
I thought that friends were supposed to help friends when they needed help. I have helped everyone with leveling up when they have asked me to, but when I ask for help leveling up for me or some of my friends here on the LC no one helps me or them out why is that? Could and would someone please answer this for me?

The Cheerleader - Erotic Story
"The Cheerleader" Max was just finishing up his work in the science lab when he thought he heard an odd noise outside the window. He turned off the burner, closed his notebook and picked up his books. He walked to the window and noticed Wendy Meyers, head varsity cheerleader, sitting alone outside on the bleachers. She appeared to be crying. He left the science lab and walked down the hallway to the back hallway exit and pushed open the door. He walked over to Wendy and saw that she was crying. Her elbows were on her knees and her face was in her hands, and she shook all over from crying. "Wendy?" Max said quietly. She stopped crying abruptly, wiped her nose on her jacket sleeve and looked up at him. "Yes?" "I'm sorry, you probably don't know me, but..." Max began. "Sure, I know you. You're Max Sheffield. You helped me with my algebra last year," she said, sniffling. "Oh, um, ahem, yes," Max stammered, blushing nervously. "Well... I was... I was wondering if you were okay." "Oh, yea

Poetry
MY FIVE SENSES AND YOU Category: Writing and Poetry MY FIVE SENSES AND YOU! AS I LAY HERE IN THE DARK A WARM FEELING COMES OVER ME TINGLING YET NUMBING THERES A FLITTER FLUTTER IN MY TUMMY I CAN'T CONTROL IT...WHY? WHAT IS IT? I KNOW...IT'S YOU! THESE ARE FEELINGS I CAN'T CONTROL AND YET I TRY TO BUT, DO I REALLY WANT TO; OR DO I WANT MORE? WHEN IT COMES TO YOU I WANT MORE THAN JUST THE TINGLING , NUMBING, AND THE FLITTER FLUTTER I FEEL I WANT IT ALL! I WANT TO FEEL EVERY BIT OF YOU AND I WANT EVERY BIT OF YOU TO FEEL ME. I WANT TO FEEL YOUR LIPS AGAINST MINE I WANT TO FEEL YOUR FINGERS AS YOU CARESS MY FACE AND YOUR HANDS AS YOU PULL MY BODY CLOSE TO YOURS AND AT THAT MOMENT I WANT TO FEEL OUR HEARTS AS THEY BEAT AS ONE. I WANT TO FEEL THE CHILL UP MY SPINE AS YOU WHISPER SWEET NOTHINGS IN MY EAR AND YET THE WARMTH OF YOUR BREATH, MELTS ME AS YOU WORK YOUR WAY DOWN TO EXPLORE ME ENTIRELY

One Of My Old Poems...
Abandoned World Touch upon the abandoned world Of primitive pasts once tender. To breathe the winds of arid dust Inhaled within the splendor. For art thou thee of spoken thought The man within the mirror? Reflections eye the image of self, Through sands of time made clearer. I hold the stone of which you yearn, Weighted through timeless grief This gem of history I do gaze, Where images grieve beneath. Gods of infinity unshackle your bounds Ficticious memories now dead. Within the abyss doth lie the currents, Of rivers once crystal now red. The dusted corpse from whence you rose This face I see but shattered Deeds of sorrow doth make you whole, And to this world not mattered. Chase not the winds which carry you free Set loose perversions of sin To sanctify this abandoned world Your path shall now begin. QueenofWolves.

The Beach!!
On our way back from a walk on the beach there came a down pour we ran back to the hotel when we reached the covering laughing so hard you wrapped your arms around my waste pushed my wet hair from my face and leaned down to kiss me softly on my lips I wrapped my arms around you and the kiss deepens You pull away we both start smiling we walk inside the hotel get on the elevator and start kissing again. Get up to the room peal off our soaked clothes and head for the shower we jump into the steaming shower and begin kissing again I push your back to the wall and started kissing your neck down your chest I slip down on my knees and start kissing your stomach and rubbing your thighs Sliding my hand up to your cock start playing with you and teasing sticking only the tip in my mouth you run you fingers through my hair pushing on the back of my head for me to go all the way down I give in as I do you start moaning loudly. I continue down until I feel you ready to cum I pull away to watch

My Cop!!!
He sat in a secluded area, looking at the picnic tables in front of him. Looking at his watch, 2 am, his shift won’t be over for another five hours. He couldn’t wait to get home to take this vest off. He looks up, headlights approaching from the right. Unusual this time of night, he thought, until the car came into view. Red Mustang, black tinted windows, and that oh so familiar sound of Atmosphere track 12. She always knew where to find him on slow nights. But this time was a little different, she didn’t get out right away, as if waiting for him to make the first move. It had been nearly three months, he was not going to give in first. Then the car door opened. First legs, black knee high platform boots, white thigh highs, with a satin bow at top. She steps all the way out, he had to take a deep breath before he could even open his door. He cannot take his eyes off of her as he steps out and closes the door behind him. She steps towards him, her hands folded in front o

To Everyone
this is my life it sucks big time but that just me thinking that tho i have 2 sweet and lovely friends that care about me well really 3 her name is sherry and her husdand 3 kids then my sweet daughter that i love so much she is my world just like sherry and her family they are my world too love ya.ll guys dont never for get that

The Fallen
***Published October 2006*** So many reasons to fall To slip away never to be found To many excuses to call Always tied and bound Sitting in the dark alone Wondering what it was I had done If only I had known It wouldn’t have sounded so fun Always together, never apart At least as it seems I wish I were smart Not only in my dreams A million and one excuses To tell me why you ran A Multitude of bruises Leaving all you can So many things to say With revenge on my mind Leaving you in dismay Your death warrant has been signed I do what I must Wishing I could disappear Running in disgust Your impending doom draws near Hide if you can Leaving no clues to find Dodging my hit man Our souls have been intertwined Copyright ©~Ted E. Brown II September 28, 2005

Im Really Fed Up
im so fucking tired of ppl thinking that just cuz someone looks good that they have no fucking heart. all they care about is whats showing on the outside my heart is the best part of who i am ya i may be pretty but so what even at 44 i look good but if ppl took the time to know me they would know im so much more then a good looking woman . and the true men i know are beautiful on the inside and they truly hate being labled as just a peice of meat when u find love yall look at the persons heart because when u see the heart of a person no matter how beautiful the outside is the tru heart wont let u down. dont judge by whats on the outside because sometimes its so ugly on the inside. why cant ppl just be happy for ppl in love why do they want to distroy happiness and rune it out of not haveing what someone else has i just dont get it. im not a lil gurl out playing lil gurl games im a woman who demands special care so if u arnt real dont even talk to me fake ppl wont last in my life, i lov

A Few Words
Time trys the soul Love breaks it Lust burdens it God saves it Hard to speak whats on the mind And who can you really tell Fear not for your secret is safe Inside your soul it will dwell But the weight and the burden will break you You might think you can hold up the world Share that weight with god Turn your sand into a pearl