Fubar Blog Posts 4

To Become A Child Again.
As adults we are always taught to be grown up, to be strong, to have it all together. Agenda's, schedules, and calculated tasks are always at hand. We are taught to not fail, or have mistakes, failings, or weaknesses, or we maybe viewed as foolish or immature. But in all of this we can so easily lose sight of laughter, play, innocence, and the wonders around us, that we fail to see, because we are unaware. Children see something new all day. They can find joy in the least of things. In the least there are many treasures to behold, and to inspire. A child inspires because of their ability to be and do things that we secretly would like to have again. Yes we can live vicariously through them, but as an adult, try to see through the eyes of a child and to not forget who you once were, when the world was new. DarciRead more:http://www.myspace.com/alenda_1/blog#ixzz0z2oPQmgq

The Woman I Love
The Woman I LoveThe woman I loveIs nice and sweet.The woman I loveIs a southern treat.Like a proper lemonade.Both sweet and bitter,Depending of courseOn what mood doth hit her.For me she is like a raging fireKeeping my heart stoked Full of DesireShe is the partner I loveShe is the one I wantWith her I will enjoy my lifeNo matter what comesWe can weather it rightLike two CraziesOut for the night.For her I would do Most any thingShe's the only one I've ever wantedTo have my Wedding RingWe've had good timesAnd times that were roughBut through it all,She's had my love.Every day I pray, That she will be fine.Never taking for granted That her heart is Mine.© 2010 by G.R.Kuder

Sisters (for My Sis)
You’re my sister You’re my friend I’ll love u till the very end I’ll be Ur angel and give u wings I’ll be Ur heart Ur be Ur anything I’ll be lifeline cause u know I’m here I’ll be Ur smilie to make them disappear I’ll be Ur mind when u can’t think I’ll be Ur words when u can’t speak You are my sister You are my friend And I’ll love u till the very end Cause sisters we are and sisters we will stay And I will be there everyday To wipe Ur tears to hold Ur hand To be Ur guide when u don’t understand I’ll hold u close I’ll hold u near I’ll hold Ur heart so it won’t disappear But believe me sis when u here me say I love you always and here I’ll stay

Growing Up
After a while you learn the subtle differences between holding a hand and chaining a soul. ?? And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure that you really are strong and you really do have worth. And you learn and you learn with every goodbye you learn . . . Know one can give you self worth, you must find it inside of yourself. If you are looking for someone to complete yo

Hmmmm....
So i am in class wondering.... why does the truth get scarred more than a lie? is it because the lie feed the need of the people at the time and the truth is just that? the truth brings to light the ugliness of the person that is the accused or the gulity...and the lie is the feel good numbing drug that decieves the masses... maybe its me...i dont know....just a thought, i will build on this later

Touch Of A Man
As u approach me, my heart starts to beat, fast,pulsing, racing with time. Kindling , and glowing , like we are to be intwined.Panting, gasping for my air to release from your fiery embrace,wanting , desiring, like i was wrapped in soft lace.You are there, slightly touching my silky skin,waiting for u to reach further within.You slide your hand down my arms, temperature risingfeed me , feel me, i can already feel a uprising.You move my hair licking and kissing at my luscious neck.oh touch me baby, for i will become such a wreck.You kiss me passionately on my luscious lips, you reach around me and start to grab my hips.Your kiss has done it, i start to melt and fall into your embrace.You gentley look at me staring into my beautiful face.You run your hands down across my back feeling my heat.oh my love i am feeling so good right down to my feet.Slowly u guide your hand to that satin pleasure,kissing down my chest and stomach looking for that treasure.Slightly , licking, savoring my delig

Will You Knock?
She laid there in her bed, with her nipples rock hardThe man rubbed his cock as he stood in her back yard.Looking through her windows trying to catch a peeklknowing his cum was ready to leak.She lifted up her gown & he watched as she rubbed herself up and downHer legs starting to spread, him wishing he was there with her in her bed.She moved her thongs to the side then her fingers started to glide.She put her finger inside her hole then was ready to lose control.Pushing her fingers deeply in, made him fuly grin.She pulled out her toy now she will feel the joy.Feeling the vibration, and using her imagination.His cock starting to grow as her juices now starting to flow.He rubbed his hand over his cock he couldn't take it no more he had to knock

Truth(something I Read And Like Bc Its So Very True)
Sometimes people come into your lifeand you know right away that they weremeant to be there... to serve somesort of purpose, teach you a lesson orhelp figure out who you are or who youwant to become. You never know whothese people may be but when you lookeyes with them, you know that everymoment that you are with them, theywill affect your life in some profoundway. And sometimes things happen toyou at the time that may seem horrible,painful and unfair, but in reflectionyou realize that without overcomingthose obstacles you would have neverrealized your potential, strength,will power or heart.Everything happens for a reason!Nothing happens by chance or by meansof good luck. Illness, injury, love,lost moments of true greatness and sheerstupidity all occur to test the limitsof your soul. Without these small

The Bush - Chapter 1
I'm not sure if I should even be writing about this, but I just feel like I have to tell someone. It all started with an excited call from my friend Tyler at about 10 pm last Thursday, August the 19th. My phone is vibrating in my pocket as I talk to a lovely woman, just inches away in the crowded bar. Not wanting to be rude, I ignore the phone as I continue explaining the values of rare alpine plants, and how interesting Trinity county can be when you really get out and see it. I try not to babble on too much, as this is one of my favorite subject to talk about. She may really be interested, or she may just be an incredibly good actor, it's still early to tell, although, she has not made any attempt to leave our conversation yet. "Native plants are one of my hobbies." she explains as I study her shoulder length auburn hair as it hangs just below her ears in an early 20's style that has made it's way into the new millennium. She is rather slender but also has a slightly athle

This Mornings Travels.
Right now I have to walk my kids to school. Normally they're bused but they have a policy that states when you reach a certain grade you have to live outside of a certain distance in order to take the bus. Otherwise you have to wait for an empty seat (which is what I must do.) Anyway, I walked my girls to school this morning as I have every morning and on the way home I dealt with the stupidest male on the planet or the most ignorant (not sure which yet, maybe both). So here I was walking down the sidewalk at 8 in the morning, wearing jogging pants, my favorite hoodie and using my cane. Uber sexy attire at 8 in the morning I know. I still wasn't fully awake because as far as I'm concerned, conversation of the verbal kind should not occur before noon if you want to be coherent. At the crosswalk a red pickup truck pulls to the corner, blocking my way. So I do the nice thing (instead of what I really wanted to do which was curse him out for being an idiot and nearly hitting a woman wit

I Don't Care
What color your name is, what you rate me (if you rate me). I don't care about your nsfw's. I don't care if you crush me, like me, rate me or add me. I don't care about any of the nonsense on here, I look past that...I look to the person I'm talking to. I'm here for the friends I've already made and the ones I hope to make...I don't have the ambition for the popularity contest. I'm too old for high school and the bs it put forth. There are certain people that keep me grounded here through the madness. Just thought I'd throw this out there...

I Want, I Need
I WANT, I NEED!I want you oh so badly! I daily call your name.Even though you are not with me,I feel you just the same.I need to touch your body,And feel you move in close.Then lips to lips together,And chest to breast as a toast.I need to twirl you in my arms,Then lie you on my bed.I need to scatter kisses,From your toes up to your head.I want to give you pleasure,For me it’s just a part,Of showing you my darling,What lies within my heart! I love you with all my heart Michelle. love, Rob

Read Me!
I've always been told that you should avoid political discussion with most individuals, as you should religious. However, Im going to assume that the vast majority of you have some type of intelligence floating around in your brains, somewhere, even if it is an *extremely* small amount for some. I’m crazy unhappy about the Koran burning party that some preacher is trying to throw in Florida tomorrow, in remembrance of 9/11. It makes me angry to a point that I didn’t think it was possible to be at a preacher, other than Westboro Baptist's lunatic leader. I don’t understand "Christian" leaders, who advocate hate towards other religions, or people, or anyone at all really. Even if they look at it and say "9/11 was Muslims, this must be they all advocate violence", it’s still stupid, based on a couple of key points. 1. Not ALL Muslims advocate acts such as 9/11. I personally know a few people of this religion...and *none* of them advocate events like th

Within A Man
Within a man Is a sense of pride When for his family He can provide A desire to live A happy long life Sharing it with His loving wife A wealth of knowledge To share with his kids And strong kind hands To tackle stubborn lids The instinct to protect whatever the fight And a sense of humor Making moments light An Abundance of love Beating in his heart Comes pouring out Though he protects that part The sight of a child Crying in pain Brings out raw emotion From his heart and brain The knowledge with God All things can be done And his teaching this lesson With strictness and fun Inside that tough shell All of this and more Is what makes up A good man's core

Just A Random Thought
Hey everyone I like to welcome you to my life I am a very adventurous person and I enjoy the outdoors. I love to just go outside and set under a tree or on a tree Maybe a good night to just set out in the yard and look up at the stars. Wouldn't that be fun? Of course if someone else would do it too.I always wander how ppl came to be, who was the very first ppl set foot on earth? Besides me and you when we were two. Do you ever wander how the first tree got here or how the dinosaur's were here in the first place? I believe in god, I really do but I just wander is he really like me and you? Does his angels really look over us everyday. Why do people live in fear? I don't know but I do it to. I am always afraid someone is going to come in and take my life away,maybe not even my life but the next person close to me.Does our prayers really come true? Or do we just get signs from god on what to do next? What do you think? This is my message to you, to tell me what you think. Thnx Tiff Ja

Let Us Never Forget.
Dedicatied For September 11th, 2001"The United States is under attack" was all I could hearOn the radio and TV, now the nation was in fear.The bystanders looking pointing above their headsFamily members calling in hopes loved ones weren't dead.Sirens started blaring, cries were certainly heard"Oh my God" was the consensus of American words.Tears started pouring as the television showed the worldThe second plane hitting, more like it hurled.Terrorist attacked in hopes to put us in despairPearl Harbor is the only attack for US to compareThe tragedy, the lives lost with no remorse.Al-Quida received our attention from using blunt force.After what seemed like forever, the towers started to fall.People started running, the cameras caught it all.I remember desperate acts of people falling to their deathI sat in my living room crying, just holding my breath."How could this happen, I don't understandWho could be bold enough to touch on our land?"I couldn't conceive of the actions taking placeI

Another Passing Year
*9 year Anniversary 9-11-10* It has been another year but yet another memory I will never forget that day on 9-11-01 my uncle bruce was on a business trip and died in the twin towers with over 2,000 more people men and women of all ages and not only the Twin Towers but The Pentagon also we will never forget for as long as we live.There are things that happen that we don't forget and this is one of those things where it is stuck in your memory like your first love sticks in your heart forever. Rob along with a million other men and women joined the army because they wanted to help the ones in need. I was in ROTC so I could learn how to help the ones in need just in case it came down to it one day. We never know what will happen in 1 second from now or even 20 years from now. All we can do is move on with our memories of our lost,loved ones and wish for the best.The world is a tough place to live and life is a real hard thing to live but I would never choose a different life. Bad things

Again
I guess the lies called your name again The black you keep inside Reared its ugly head again I wash my hands this time If I never see your face again Hope it eats you up inside If I never feel this place again At least I'll feel my pride, oh Apologies only now condemn Honesty slips by Bitter now and you were bitter then Darkness is your guide On you face is that old forgive me smile For an inch all I know is you'll take that mile On your tongue you can't hold is another lie Tryin to get into my head..

Cinderella Little Black Dress
She walks through the midnight wood with dark flowers in her hair in love with her forbidden prince always behind the next shadow quiet in the murky glen brings visitors from the mists whispers in leaf and bough eyes peering from the musky brown hushed wings glide fur in airborne stride a flick of white before hurried flight stills quiet a dark cloud antithesis of the ruler of light covers cinderella of night with a black blanket ~ infinite seconds dissipate stilled hearts and breaths abandon wait a shriek howl denotes the kill that propagates the still her twilight friends pull the shades a red feathered metronome glit gnarled branches rustle foliage in sync with the foragers flit alone drifting through the foggy dawn faceless beauty a meandering track a hint of rain yet storms have passed and memories of her dancing in robes of black LOST IN THE DARK Sept. 11 2010

Thank You For The Friendship
Thank you for sharing a bit of your life ..for the friendship you've shown i may haven't done enough to make you fell that i value you ..but there's only few word i want to say .."THANK YOU" what ever its is.. from, Sexy Ann Deputy chief

Family
family its been so long since this fam was together the way it was seemed like so long forever wishing it would be back the way it wasknowing it wont be for some time to come we have all let each other go for some odd reason we jus went with the flow pretending we didnt care predtending we didnt loveits all for a reason a reason full of blood i know the love is still there somewhere we jus gotta get it back to where we are all smilinglets actually care and actually loveand we might jus find that reason we all shoved to the back burner for what reason i say i say it was the drama and the painthat we inflicted on ourselves in which return caused it on the peersz of the same we all have regrets and we are not made perfecthell we are only humans who have brought down the curtainsto peek in and see what is really going on i know for shure we have all fallen for some one we love with all our hearts why cant it be the way it used to workwhen we hung out and laughed made jokes and looked

Truly Madly Deeply By Whatever Artist Who Has Sang It, Redone It, Slaughtered It Ya Know
I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy I'll be your hope I'll be your love Be everything that you need. I love you more with every breath Truly, madly, deeply, do.. I will be strong I will be faithful Because I am counting on a new beginning A reason for living A deeper meaning yeah I wanna stand with you on a mountain I wanna bathe with you in the sea I wanna lay like this forever Until the sky falls down on me And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky I'll make a wish send it to heaven That'll make you wanna cry The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection Of the highest power and lonely hours The tears devour you I wanna stand with you on a mountain I wanna bathe with you in the sea I wanna lay like this forever Until the sky falls down on me Oh, can't you see it baby? Don't have to close your eyes 'cause it's standing right before you All that you need will surely come I'll be yo

Pain
"PAIN" I open my eyes. You close them tight Why cant you let go without a fight? You call this the end, I call it the start I swear to god your not very smart. You think you have won just like its a game Thats the mindboggling shit that makes me insane I was never right and you were never wrong But who turned out to be lieing all along. -Kyle-

Dissappearing Man
Promised this time it will be different ,, He's tired of running away. But the very thing I dread,, Started again today. Believed he was doing better Thought I,d be o.k. I had a fear all along things would go this way. I hate it when this happens it makes me feel real low... Every time i get involved backwards i will go. Shut myself away from all this time i have to fight. Probably go to sleep in tears don't worry i'm alright. How can he just up and leave down right dissappear,, Bad feelings surrounding me dreadful awful fear. stopped up twice... not at home. no visiting today.. no indication . You was going away.. But i will get through this I promise me This time it wont be the same. I know im put together I know im not to blame..

How Do You Heal Your Broken Heart ???
i think that's the simple question but indeed very hard to answer ..how do u heal your broken heart??? i know its takes time to heal but in order to do that ..acceptance should comes first !!!..... to my ex..sometimes it's nice to cherish good or bad memories ..its gives me strenght and much courage ..to live my life the best i can ..thanx for boosting the inner me to be who and what i am now..

Walmart Scam
ATTENTION: GE money bank, owned by walmart/sams club, is pulling credit card scams. i suggest you pay your card off and cancel it asap before they damage your credit standing. What the company is doing is mailing your bill out so late, it is impossible to pay on time unless you go to a store and pay it. Their hopes are that while you are in the store, you will buy something. If you don't pay it, that makes you late and you get charges $29.70 additional fees for a late payment. $29.70 x millions of credit customers. Think about it. And of course they have no record of when they mailed payment. Also, for those that did receive the bill on time and actually paid it on time, they are processing payments weeks after they received them. It doesn't matter what the date is on your check. They tell you they didn't receive it until it was after your due date, trying to say that you mailed it past the date you wrote on the check. That also goes in as being a late payment and is charged t

Lone Wolf Bombers Requirements
Hello and Welcome to the Lone Wolf Bomber Family While we are a fun Loving family we do have a few rules to abide by 1. Be respectful to all members of the family 2. Keep in mind that we all have Real lives and those come before fubar 3.while bombing Remember you are representing Our Family Use common sense 4. We do ask that you let an owner before posting any new bombing runs 5. If you join a contest that another family member is already in, we will support you both but its first come first served 6.Please check the family blog for the newest links for bombing 7. Keep and Eye on the bullys to know what the family is up to 8. Please add a comment with your Name and bomber name to prove you have read this Thank you and Welcome to the LONE WOLF BOMBERS Family

9/11-"meet Me In The Stairwell"
....a friend of mine emailed me this a couple of days ago, and i finally had a chance 2 open and read it....i'm far from a religious person, but found this moving....thought i would share this...maybe there is some1 or something higher than us mere humans even when we r just going on with our everyday lives.....'MEET ME IN THE STAIRWELL' You say you will never forget where you were when you heard the news On September 11, 2001. Neither will I. I was on the 110th floor in a smoke filled room with a man who called his wife to say 'Good-Bye.' I held his fingers steady as he dialed. I gave him the peace to say, 'Honey, I am not going to make it, but it is OK..I am ready to go.' I was with his wife when he called as she fed breakfast to their children. I held her up as she tried to understand his words and as she realized he wasn't coming home that night. I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor when a woman cried out to Me for help. 'I have been knocking on the door of your heart for 50 ye

[i Had A Moment For A Side Thought]
As I paw at my eyes, and I contemplate successful people ... I'm wondering if I'll reach a point in my life where I won't mind that other people have worked for what they have achieved what they wanted and made an impact. I'm not thinking it was easy for them, I'd just like to have the time and the opportunity to do the same. This thought is cut short by sleep deprivation. And a lounging English Mastiff. I just find it hard to believe? No. I resent that to become a bestseller you have to die of cancer get on Oprah Blog about someone else's book for a year. I loathe Oprah... and unless I was cracking Freud and... actually blogging about it (who in gods name would read that?) I just can't see myself winning the reality show that is this post-post-modernist world. Also Fuck Post-Modernism. ... It had been a while since I had said that. We've needed a new movement, a new art, a new rhetoric, a new critique for many years... For as long as I could argue. I'm hoping to

Under The Same Moon
Our Moon. Being together with the one and only true love of my lifetime. Watching together as clouds float across our bright shining moon, stars twinkling all around, feeling so close to her no matter the distance we may be apart, always and forever together, under the same moon. I love You Michelle.

Away For A While
i'm stepping away for a while. right now i'm heart sick, and feeling hollow. i need time to clear my head and fix myself so i don't say things to those that i love and regret it later. i'm taking time away. for those that know me... email me. stepping away from yim as well. for my family on here... know i love you all deeply. for the one i love most of all.... know my heart is your's, even if my heart isn't worth much right now. thanks and well... for now... i wish you all well.

Recovery
ok so its been awile sence my last blog but i hve been recovering from my deppression stage and im better i guess im not so sad and this week is spirt week at school cuz its homecoming on saturday and were going to win are game on friday cuz were going to go against the team that sucks and they suck way more then us and we suck very badly and today was fake a ingery day and i had blood all over my face and cuts and bruises i looked to amazing i would have got a pick but i washed it off before i could sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo im soooooo sry to u all but tommarow is pick an ara day so if u have any sujestions on what i should be leave a comment cuz idk what im going to be whickh sucks badly lol well ill talk to u all later byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

*for What It's Worth
I write these words until it hurtsBare my soul for what it's worthJust to let you understandHow I try the best I canEvery attemptEvery lineFrom my startTo my demiseAnd maybe I should give this upMaybe I'm just not good enoughBecause I never thought my lifeWould end so tragicallyHow did you get the best of me? I pour out my soulIn hopes it'll make me wholeWith each failed lineAnother storyAnother timeOf how I was let downI sit and I complainSwear to never trust againIt's the same routineHistory repeating And maybe I should give this up Maybe I'm just not good enough Because I never thought my life Would end so tragically How did you get the best of me?

Puppet
_______________~Puppet~_________________Am I not just a puppet for your personal amusement?A doll for you to laugh and sneer at when tired of all others? A puppet... with torn clothes that long to be renewed, my painted face.. faded and scratched from all the days of being toyed with. My strings are rather dull, but still not able to break under my own free will. I wait in the dark corner of my mind and await for the next person that I must amuse, then be placed back in the darkness, and wait again. Such a life I have come a costume to though, after all what else must a Jester to do? A wait for the kings orders and then entertain untill send to the gallows, or upon my own death. So I wait, in my corner until my king, my master comes and fetches me. And I still think....Will someone ever cut my stings?

Posting This Review For Rp To Read...i Know He Was Interested But Here It Is...my Professional Review Of Recovery By Eminem
Professional Review The Ultimate Recovery: Eminem Shows the World the True Meaning In a flux of rap music becoming more main stream and hip hop moving to a more soft and slow beat, Eminem takes the genre to a new level. Recovery has the perfect combination of heartfelt lyrics and bass beating tracks thanks to Eminem’s creative genius and productive insights. Marshall Mathers or better known to the world as Eminem released his most anticipated album to date on June 22nd of 2010. Recovery is the much anticipated follow up to Relapse, an album that was self admittedly by Eminem to being written while under a near constant haze of drugs and alcohol. Recovery shows a side of Eminem that fans the world over have been craving. In Recovery,Eminem takes a lot of his experiences from the past year and pours them into his lyrics with thoughtful rhymes and gut wrenching truth. Eminem lays out this album such as his telling t

[ordinary]
It took a cup of coffee.... huh?ohright.So here I am poised over my phonewaiting for the unemployment office to call me.They have... 1:30 left to do it on their time tableand you guessed itmy trip to Independence fucked me.Turns out I had to have this paperwork in on or before the phone interview.My plan is to say "yeah its in the mail, why haven't you got it yet?"I shall now proceed to pop every bone in my body.And brew some very strong tea.Who'd guess sleep aids at 2:00 and alarms at 8:00 would make you this stiff and exhausted.And it just so happens I'm listening to Garbage this morning.*shrugs* seemed like the thing to do.My lawn is overgrown, my house is a shitbomb, and I'm barely motivated to have a pulse today.God what a toxic existence.

Just When I Thought I Was Happy
Just when I thought I found the right guy. I got turned around and told he wasn't interested in me and it really hurt. But I just feel feel frustrated at the fact he had to lie to me about it. I could have been told the truth but NO. If I would have gotten told then truth I would have been just fine with it. I'm just so freakin mad about it. I wish I wasn't lied too.

Tequila
Bill and I had been in the same unit at Fort Carson, Colorado, and we’d spend a lot of nights out drinking together or in the barracks playing videogames, so when he looked me up in Germany I was glad to see him. He was a good guy, but he’d always drink too much and pass out, and I’d end up carrying him to his room and dump him in his rack to sleep it off. Two years later he hadn’t changed much, except now he had married a girl he’d been dating back then, a sweet young thing named Alicia. I had worries that she’d resent a third wheel hanging out with them, but she was always glad to see me come in with my usual bottle of asti when I stopped by. We’d have a glass and go out to the NCO club or just hang out, watch movies or just talk a lot of shit. Bigger than anything, if we went out, I’d end up driving them home and carrying Bill into the house. An hour into our drinking one night Bill passed out at the table, snoring lou

Everyday
"everyone should enjoy some time outside today. Get grounded. Thank mother earth for her amazing presence and love. Find a way to raise your vibration. try to embrace feelings of gratitude and project them into the core of the earth. Forget about the darkness, and embrace the light."-- (hed) p.e.

Year #4 Is Beginning!
So, it's quite an interesting day today. Today marks my 4th full year on this site. When I first joined, it was called LostCherry.com... Ohhhhh the changes i've seen. It would probably take all freaking day to list all of the huge and small differences between then and now and I know you guys and gals don't have all damn day to read this so i'll just keep it short and sweet. I met the love of my life on this site. On this very day, 4 years ago. No matter what we may go through, I wouldn't change a thing. I love him to death and I hope he knows that. I've met quite a few interesting people on this site as well. Some good, some not so good. What can I say, you live and you learn. You learn through certain experiences who you can and can't trust. You learn who you can and can't say certain things to. You learn who will be there for you in times of utter chaos and who doesn't really give a damn. lol Short and sweet, I owe a lot to this site. It's given me the love of my

*second Chances Are As Useful As Subtitles On A Silent Film
Bright lightsClose my eyesThis sinking feelingThe weight of the worldThis tug of warNever thought I'd get this far Turning back I see all your facesPointless staresHopeless glancesWe all mess upBut with youI don't believe in second chancesYou burned every bridge with meYou gave up so easilyNow I'm the one who is laughingYou can't stab my backTell me what I lackFrom this moment onYou mean nothing

Wet
Soaked, Moist, and Glistening.I am so wet.Tightening, Contracting, Widening.I am so ready.Wanting, Needing, Urging.For you.Trembling, Quivering, Shaking.For You.I want to feel the length of you burrowing its head deep inside my heat. I need your touch.I need your kiss.I need your feel.Urging to please you.Urging to be pleased by you.I can not help this feeling,I can not help this sensation.Radiating between my legs,Hardening my nipples.Lost in a trance so deep.No longer in touch with reality but instead,Dwelling in our fantasy.

Delightful Insanity
The quiet whispers within my own head, The pictures in my mind stained crimson red, The unthinkable desires that must be fed, Rationality gone, I find chaos instead. The screams and echoes are a constant sound, My world crumbling, I lay curled on the ground. A shadow of my old self is all that is found, No help in sight, theres no one around. The final acceptance of what is to be, Welcoming the beast thats inside of me. No need to resist, my mind is now free, Welcome to my world, of delightful insanity.

Fairy Tales And Broken Dreams
No fairy tale endings, just broken dreams,At least thats the way it sometimes seems.When you cant find the way or find the means,No secret wishing star, or magical moonbeams.When the world you wish for just can not be,And you have to face the harshness of reality,That what you envision is not what is to be,And if you open your eyes, the truth you will see.No golden mountains, no slow moving streams.No ivory white castles, no Kings or Queens.No walks on the beach, no romantic scenes.No fairy tale endings, just broken dreams.

Shoutbox Funnies
Anthony**: want a free famp and boomy?Raven: lemme guess boobs, ass or both?Anthony**: neitherAnthony**: but cam is requiredRaven: that i have, what is it you want?Anthony**: u have long hair and u need to wear a gag of some kindAnthony**: a role play basicallyRaven: uuhm I like that sorta thing really but I'm afraid I'm a good girlAnthony**: lol no gag or hair tied then?Raven: how the heck am I supposed to do that to myself? lolAnthony**: i can tell u..Anthony**its eaiser than what ur thinking prollyRaven: just that no boobs? or whatnotAnthony**: no boobs or assAnthony**: would u try plz?Raven: so if i get on cam are you gonna be someone totally different?Anthony**: im not gona be shown lolAnthony**: ur on camRaven: I have a cam yes, no I'm not on itAnthony**: do u have yahoo?Raven: sure do, just not sure I want to do this, I never have for something on fubar, I kinda like that reputationAnthony**: well its confidential liek just between us

Happily Ever After..
Once upon a time, a Prince asked a beautiful Princess "Will you marry me?"The Princess said, "NO!" And the Prince lived happily ever after and rode motorcycles and went fishing and hunting and played golf and dated women half his age stayed out all night and had tons of money in the bank and left the toilet seat up.The End

Salute Contest: Classy Not Trashy
Let's take it from trashy and move to classy...shall we? So I've seen my fair share of NSFW salute contests for bling around here. Well I don't want NSFW or trashy salutes. (I know, I know, shock gasp) I want classy salutes. (ZOMG is there such a thing!?) Ya dont have to be in your Sunday's best (although if you want to, go for it), but you do have to be covered for the most part. I'm not saying to not flaunt what your momma gave ya, because some of you truly are blessed, but there is a way to do that without having it all hang out. Each person who enters will post a salute (to me) and I'll upload it to a folder. Entries must be recieved no later than 12am (midnight) on the 10th of October. Voting will begin on the 11th of October and I will announce a winner on the 24th of October which happens to be my 22nd birthday. They can be birthday salutes to me, or they can be regular salutes, doesn't matter to me either way. Submit a link to the salute in a private message to me and I

Good Vibes For My Uncle
My uncle goes in tomorrow morning at 6:30 EST to have surgery to remove a growth from his lung. He was recently diagnoised (by fluke) with Stage 1 Lung Cancer. Fortunately, the area is contained and has not spread to the lymph nodes. This is a HUGE plus, however, as we all know, anything can happen in surgery. So if ya'll could send some positive vibes his way, it would be much appreciated. Thanks.

My Shell My Own Hell
Peeking out of my shell my world my own hell Thinking about the time we shared and the time we first met how scared The first time we talked hand and hand we walked It seemed we walked so far always looking up at the stars As time went by I learned it was ok to cry To dry up those salty tears and face my deadliest fears From then on I know what I was ment to do Was to walk back to my shell my world my hell.

Black And Blue
Can't look in the mirror. can't stand what I see. the eyes staring back are not the true me. so lifeless and bleak. can't handle my reflection. or the volumes my soul speaks. hide it away. push it all down. dismiss what you say in the minds infinite space. how can I believe you with these black and blue tears streaking my face.

Over You
I'm so over you Why can't you be over me too? All you did was push me aside Now that you are the one on the side You can't handle it If you can't take me at my worst and every day You sure don't deserve me now at my best I gave you all the support I could Patience when you were hurt Understanding when I wouldn't hear from you Now you can't let me go You knew I was someone special That someone you didn't want to lose Now that I'm gone, you realize your errors Too late to fix your broken promises Learn from losing someone Make yourself better for the next one Stop with the drama and head games Grow up and leave me alone I'm moving on Time for you to do the same

Stupid Encounters *50
Buzz: 100% sh*t faced! Level: Henchman (22) Gender: Male, 32 Location: Bishop, CA Status: BOMB ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1:39am LostGiant: how would u b with a strapon on?? 1:41am iC51NerdGo...: Seriously? Uncomfortable 1:42am LostGiant: would u ever use it on a guy ? 1:43am iC51NerdGo...: ROFL dont know many gay guys 1:44am LostGiant: sorry but all guys ARE NOT GAY! 1:48am iC51NerdGo...: I know but any guy willing to take something up the ass has to atleast be Gay or a little bit on the bi side LostGiant

Angry Night.........
Its so easy to become so numb, Rubbing the blade against my thumb. The cruel reality of the world has set it, Never get to start over stuck at the end. Haunted by the wrath of your abuse, To love again I have no clue. I sabotage everything given to me, Never truly understanding so blind I can't see. I trusted you with my body, soul, and heart, Only for you to to abuse it all and tear me apart. I sometimes wish I would of died that day, But no so fucking stupid I stayed. You took the true meaning of love away, Anytime someone get's close I start to stray. I've lost more now that your gone, I keep replaying this damned song. I remember how you promised to love me as your wife, Then fucked my cousin on our honeymoon night. Your so fucking worthless no where near deserving my tear's, But yet even though were mile's apart I still live in fear....

So Tired
I am so tired of your so called "friends" blocking you for no reason, If you dont want to talk anymore at least grow a pair and say so.... Im just tired of putting everything I have into something and then someone just throwing it all away like it was nothing...

Blog.. Blog.. Can't Think Of A Good Title For This
I like this site. I am tired of the gossips that I have to deal with on Facebook. Fubar is different. I can be what I want to be without caring if it will hurt my reputation. Here, I have every right to be myself. I can be what I want to be. No one will care. No one will talk behind my back. No one will make me a butt of jokes if I get a lousy guy as my boyfriend. I am free here. I don't want to please everybody. I am tired of that. All my life I've been this goody-good girl who is always smiling even if she is being bashed, bullied or picked on. I am tired of playing that role and I will never again let myself be a victim. It's high time that I get a life, far from phony people and disloyal friends who are only true to you when they need something from you.I'm not saying that all my friends are phonies. It's not like that. What I want to do is to limit my circle of friends to those who are true to me. I don't need a lot of friends. I just need the real ones. All I want is a peacef

Wow...this Chick Is A Nutbar....
So I'll give a short background on this girl I met here...She talked to me once after adding me as a friend. The second time, she left me her number and "text me" in my shoutbox. So i do. The problem is I began working overnights this week, and have to continue them for 2 more. When I first texted her, that was the first thing we discussed; I'm tough to reach when I'm on such a crappy schedule. So here's a few of our previous "conversations":11am TuesdayCristy: HeyMe: Good morning Cristy :)Cristy: What's your name? Me: My name is Dan...I need to get to sleep tho, I'm sorry. :( Cristy: sorry4pm TuesdayCristy: (sends typical myspace pose pic) Me: Hey you, thanks for the pic :) told ya I'd be back, whatcha doin? Cristy: nothin, u lol Me: Just layin here, could go for more sleep, but I doubt I can fall back asleep. :-/ Cristy: Don't lol Me: What do I get if I stay up and chat? Cristy: Nothing I dont take naked pics Me: Oh, I def didn't mean it like that. I would have suggested like a

Awkward Silence In A Car.
I was driving home today on the freeway, looking around at the various people coming and going to their destinations where ever they may be. Typically, I don't people watch while driving, but SoCal traffic blows around 3-6 so I had plenty of time to look at their faces and see the horror. What caught my attention was the looks on the faces of couples. The first pair was probably in their late forties. Both were looking straight ahead with sun glasses on, not talking. The not talking part irked me, as they sat in complete silence behind me for at least two minutes. Then I started looking around and noticed several couples sitting in the same depressing silence. Who does that? Every relationship I have been in, my partner and I had plenty of things to talk about. We could talk for hours, about politics, school, work, news on television, or whatever is going on with their friends and family. I guess they have been together for so long that they have run out of things to say to each oth

I Know, That You Know, That I'm Nothing.
So it’s another Saturday or Tuesday, or any day. They’re all interchangeable. One day merges into another, the nights blend. I’m listless. I can’t sleep. Too many thoughts bouncing around in my mind and no resolution. I guess or rather I know, I’m lost. I’m 42 years old and haven’t a clue as to what to do with my “so called life”. I spend my days and nights, searching for answer. A sign , a clue. What am I looking for? Closure. Awakening. Understanding. A reason to go on. I’m a big disappointment to all those that know me. To my family, especially my parents. They expected and wanted so much for me. As did I. To the people that I’ve loved (now, and in the past) what can I say? I know I’m not perfect. Not even remotely close. I was never honest with you. I lied, I was deceitful. I said things things you wanted to hear. I did not, however cheat on you. One thing in my favor, and there isn’t much,

Why Do I Bother?
After writing some of this in an email to a friend of mine this morning, i realized i'd never spilled my heart this eloquently before... so i'm posting portions of the email here for all to read my depressed mood in black & white: I've spent 10 years watching my husband slowly morph into a man i don't know, a man i can't love... an emotionally abusive, hypocritical man that lets his anger push him to leave bruises on my heart and my face when he can't get his point across... the eminem/rhianna song "love the way you lie" is my life... i try to leave and he apologizes, i stay and we go right back to the hurt... he'll never actually let me leave... he'd kill me emotionally if not physically to keep me from being with someone else... and every day i fall more in love with a man i'm scared i'll never in this life have because i don't want my daughters to grow up without their mother... I know my husband feels pain, hates seeing me potentially falling in love with someone else in front

Native Herbs And Meds
The old ones tell us that at one time, the animals, fish, insects and plants could all talk. Together with the people, they were at peace and had a great friendship. As time went on, the numbers of people grew so much that their settlements spread over the whole earth, and the animals found themselves cramped for space. To make things worse, the people invented bows, knives, blowguns, spears, and hooks, and they began to hunt and kill the larger animals, birds and fish only for their hides. The smaller creatures, like the frogs and worms, were stepped upon and crushed without thought, out of carelessness, and sometimes even contempt. The animals decided to meet in a council to agree on measures for their safety. The

Fubar Seriously Needs To Listen This Is The Most Important Thing Fu Needs To Take Care Of!
Ok seriuosly i had this real long thing typed out so im going to try and type out as much as i can remember from it so here its goes Fubar has been talkin about making changes and has been asking its users to make suggestions so heres a few of mine IM SICK AND TIRED OF FAKES...and fubar thought they would make us post salutes to prove that we are real people...but most users have found out that theres a way around fubars salute rule Take Dark Ang3l Owner of hot women and Hot Cars lounge for example shes a lvl 28 i believe and has NO SALUTE... how is this so you may ask well shes running an incredible head game on MANY MANY MANY people... she will cyber you and make you think theres a chance of a relationship...but there isnt see shes good like that she plays head games so bad...she done it to a friend of many on fubar and hes no longer with us... if you cant buy her something then she gets pissed and turns on you... she has skype and YIM and claims shes got

Girls Of 4 Moon House - Part 4b
WARNING: Not for persons under the age of 18.Story contains descriptions of extreme violence and sex. Preface:I write in an effort to change the attitude of the deviant reader... paradoxically those that find what I write appealing. It is by my graphic harshness and salacious content that I attract (bait) those readers ... those deviant minds that I can then interact with... in an attempt to change misguided notions and attitudes of abuse against women and children. My methods are deviously unique... but very successful. I write to APPEAL...to AROUSE...and then to APPALL... and so the bitter seed is planted. My stories do not glorify the act of coerced sex or violence... nor do I support sexual abuse of any kind."...media violence is typically unrealistic, simplistic, glorified, and even presented as humorous."The "bang, bang, you're dead" sanitized scenario that we so often see on TV or in films communicates nothing of the reality of death or dying.It is only when we see death firstha

Hosting A Another Auction!!
Im hosting another Auction!!! So if u wanna join up, send me a PM with the subject Auction, the pic u wanna use and ur offers by Thursday the 30th. I will open up the auction Friday morning (Oct 1st). The auction will end whenever ur happy with a bid. There is no entry fee! I will not have any DRAMA, so it its u or surrounds u, u will be removed from auction and friends list..thanks, Sheri

To My Lil Girl
I can remember a sad winter night not to long ago whin you were took from me,my love,and the only place we called home.As your mom packed all your stuff determined she was gonna leave,I can remember all the worm tears running down my cheek.I prayed to god to please help me change your mothers mind ,but nothing seemed to work you see i was running out of time.How could she do this just take my only baby girl,without a word or warning she ruined my entire world.She crushed all my plans for us,thoughts of you and me,now without you in my life im feeling so incomplete.Maybe someday,in some kind of way ill have you back in my life,so i wont ever have to feel the pain i felt that sad winter night--

Equality
Okay. So I hear a whole lot of people talking about equailty. Call someone black, instead of "African American" and you are a racist. Call someone Orental, instead of "Asian American" guess what.....you racist bastard. Call someone a Jew instead of Hebrew, or Pagan instead of Wiccan, and you're not religously sensitve. You have to respect everybody. You have to call them whatever they have chosen to be called this week. YOU must be sensitive and understanding. Respect "African Amercans" even if they were born outside Africa and have never been there. Respect "Chinese Americans" who have never been near China. Respect, Jews, Christians, Muslims, Native Americans, Latin Americans....Hmmm wonder why there are no Canadian Americans? That being said, don't fret. You are FREE and welcome to discriminate. Gays, Lesbians and Bi-Sexuals are still fair game. Fell free to call them names, beat them, violate their rights. It's okay as log as you limit it to Gays, Lesbians and Bi-sexuals. JUST

Friend Vs. Juggalette
Friend vs. Juggalette Friend: Will leave you hanging to be with a crowd. Juggalette: Always has your back. Friend: Runs for help in a fight. Juggalette: Jumps in the fight to help. Friend: Will bail your stale ass out of Jail. Juggalette: Will be sittin' right next to you saying "That was f*cking awesome!" Friend: Will help you move out of a house. Juggalette: Will help you move a dead body out of the house. Friend: Bums you a cigarette Juggalette: Bums you her last pack Friend: Is there when you need them Juggalette: Is there even when you dont need them Friend: Gets drunk at a party and pukes on your carpet Juggalette: Feels worse than you do about puking on your carpet in the morning Friend: Hides you from the cops Juggalette: Is probably the reason the cops are after you in the first place Friend: Lets you make an a** out of yourself in public Juggalette: Is up there with you making an a** out of themselves too Friend: Likes you cause your always doing stupid sh*t Jugg

Adult Or Child?
So have you guys noticed that selfishness has no bounds here on fu? That no one does anything when these users do shit to people who place a lil bit of trust on them? Who can you go to when no one will correct these issues? This is supposed to be a site for ADULTS. But no one cares about being fair or being honest you know those things most of us where taught as children. They assume that because its ONLINE it has no impact on real life. to those who are wondering how.. heres a real life example: I sold a person who was a part of my fu "family" for the whole time I've had this page. This member told me if I'd sell her a boomerang for fubucks. I told her that I didn't need the fubucks, but I hate telling my friends NO when ts in my power to help (a habit I've broken) so I told her that I really wanted that diamond bling they had and it cost 50cr. and that I found it tacky to bling myself so how bout if I sent her a 65 cr bling pack for 5 mil (THATS RIGHT NOT A TYPO 5,000,000) and ou

Forever & Always
Baby when I look in your eyes I see a future with you Baby when you touch me I feel your love Baby when you whisper to me I hear your sexy voice Baby when I'm with you I wanna be with you all the time My heart beats so fast that I can't live without you It seems that when I'm away My mind is always thinking about you It don't want to stop All I ever wanted is to be with you forever & always

In Loving Memory Of Roxxy
This is a page for Roxxy, the people who knew her here respected her alot. As some of you may know what has happend in the last 4-6 months, she has been through to hell and back. Not long ago she had twins a boy and a girl, not long ago she lost her precious daughter, who was very ill, now it was roxxy's turn, she was sick with diabete's and needed a kidney transplant, wich we could not find a donor for her, suddenly her last kidney also failed, wich made her incapable of doing anything. Later to find out the doctor's said she had turned for the worst. An infection started and spread to her heart quickly (endocarditis). Later that evening the doctor's took a MRI and realized the infection spread to her brain, then she was put on life support for a very shot period of time. She was pronounced dead this morning at around 7:18 am. I will be posting from other's that may have there last words for her, and some pictures. may you rest in peace with little girl... I'll see you soon angel's.

About Me (health Update..)
Sept / 29th / 2010... Hi everyone. Well just got back home from a new mri / doppler . They just found another couple clots in my upper right leg .. Ughhhh. My Doctor is referring me to see a blood specialist to find out why all of a sudden the new clots are developing . Guess all the abuse I did to my body in the years past is finally catching up to.. Oh well thank you all for your thoughts and prayers from the earlier post . Thanks again. Take care . Tom..

*suicide Note
To Whom It May ConcernThis may be the last thingYou wanted to learnBut I'm tired of the painTired of the fightingSick of everyone takingBut no one compromisesI fought the best that I couldI gave it my allBut you just all sat thereAnd watched me fallAll the sleepless nightsSpent aloneYou left me behindIn a broken homeI never wanted all thisToo much on my plateThis razorblade against my skinHas sealed my fateI'm too far gone nowIt's far too lateYou had your chanceYou showed you didn't careSo now you can deal with lifeWithout me thereI hope the words are hard to findAnd make you feel ashamedBecause once the truth is outYou won't forget my nameSo save your tearsPlease don't cryI wanted it to end this wayI wanted to dieThis letterThe last thing I ever wroteI hope somebody finds thisMy suicide note.

Another Page
She'd met him at a party. She had never been the one to love 'em and leave 'em. She felt a connection to every person she ever went to that level with. But tonight was different. Every logical thought in her head told her this wasn't right. However, her body screamed another story. She wanted him so bad she couldn't convince herself out of it. So here she was, in his house, and ultimately in his control. He couldn't possibly know how much power he inadvertantly had over her. His house was beautiful. The living room was so plush, warm and inviting. Not at all what she had imagined. He flicked on a switch across the room and soft light illuminaed the entire downsairs area. "Make yourself at home," he said as he started a coxy fire in his shiny marble fireplace. She found a comfy little corner on the sofa and tried her damnedest to relax. The fire was almost hypnotic. All of a sudden he was sitting down next to her with two glasses of wine that he must have gott

Funny!
WHY I'M DEPRESSED Over five thousand years ago, Moses said to the children of Israel, "Pick up your shovels, mount your asses and camels, and I will lead you to the promised Land!" Nearly seventy-five years ago (when Welfare was introduced), Roosevelt said "Lay down your shovels, sit on your asses and light up a Camel, THIS is the Promised Land!" Today, Obama has stolen your shovel, Taxed your asses. raised the price of Camel's and mortgaged the Promised Land I was so depressed last night thinking about Health Care plans, the failing economy,the wars, lost jobs, savings, Social Securityretirement funds, etc...I called a suicide hotline. I had to press 1 for English. I was connected to a call center in Pakistan. I told them I was suicidal. They got excited and asked if I could drive a truck.....

Hopeless Romance
On this warm October nightOne woman hides behind her vulnerable angelic eyesAnd her harsh moments of non-forgetful sorrowOne man ventures his heart of despairAnd his uncertainty There is fear of endless affliction in the air tonightHe is lostShe is lostThey are lostBut one day they will collide and their eyes will meetA purifying healing of lost lonely soulsHearts will mend togetherAnd become one

And Another Oct 1 2010
You are my inspiration my reason Reason for wanting to succeed Succeed in life and in love Love a special commitment will be made Made to insure failure will fail Fail to tear us from eachother Eachother is what I cherish more More then anything I've ever experienced Experienced before in my life Life is complete with you by my side Side that waits for you always Always I will be here for you

Bleed For Me...
Bleed me dry of this jaded passion. Plunge the jagged edge of your love deep within my beating heart. Watch the blackness spill across the innocence of your torn soul. l open this mortal shell to show you the beauty of the inky passion coursing through the tattered lacework left of my soul. Watch as it shines with the shameless desire to consume all your pain within my pleasure. Feel it's beat as it poses to feast of your darkest need. It's rage will gorge on your willing submission Hear the beating slow to silence. l take one last breath of your sweet inspiration, just to feel your name upon my lips, before it escapes.

10 Things Every Child With Autism Wishes You Knew...
Ten Things Every Child with Autism Wishes You Knew by Ellen Notbohm from the book Ten Things Every Child with Autism Wishes You Knew (2005, Future Horizons, Inc.) Some days it seems the only predictable thing about it is the unpredictability. The only consistent attribute -- the inconsistency. There is little argument on any level but that autism is baffling, even to those who spend their lives around it. The child who lives with autism may look “normal” but his behavior can be perplexing and downright difficult. Autism was once thought an “incurable” disorder, but that notion is crumbling in the face knowledge and understanding that is increasing even as you read this. Every day, individuals with autism are showing us that they can overcome, compensate for and otherwise manage many of autism’s most challenging characteristics. Equipping those around our children with simple understanding of autism’s most basic elements has a tremendou

Master Took His Kitten
I am standing naked in the cold cellar, the cool air causing my nipples to stiffen. Michelle, my gorgeous friend with her lovely blond locks, is walking toward me. Naomi, the sultry brunette, is following behind her. I am standing with my brown hair resting on my shoulders, my arms raised above my head, wearing nothing but my tall black leather stiletto heels. Michelle opens the bucket of black liquid latex, as Naomi finds 2 paintbrushes. Each beauty dips her brush into the latex and begins to paint my skin with the sticky material. Michelle is working on my front, while Naomi is carefully taking care of my back. Michelle takes her brush and begins right above my nipples, tickling me, but I stand very still. She has a job to do. Meanwhile, Naomi meets the line Michelle has drawn, and continues to paint my back. Each girl is moving her brush down lower now, Michelle covering my stomach, and Naomi the small of my back. Michelle dips her brush into the latex once again and begins to paint

Staying Silent
"I'm cold" "I'm tired". "You should be used to this by now" My mom replied with a tone dripping with aggravation, to my brother and sister's "Complaining". I stayed quiet for a few reasons. One, I was old enough for her not to think twice about hitting me. Two, I'm the oldest, and I have to stay strong and set a good example for the kids. and third, because I WAS used to this. We were homeless for years. Everyday was about the same, with a few different shitty situations everyday, I'd like to think that was "gods" way of making sure we never got bored. We'd wake up wherever we passed out, Go searching for a way for my mom to get high, Wait while she got high, then walk around town for awhile, try to keep up with my mom as she ran from (Imaginary) Cops, go to the soup kitchen for lunch, take the bus somewhere for a few hours to keep busy, search for a way for my mom to get high, wait while she got high, then walk around town just as the sun was

What Kind Of Apple Are You?
You Are a Golden Delicious Apple You have a glow to you, and you are naturally attractive. You know how to highlight your good points. Beneath that shining exterior is a sensitive soul. You are more thin skinned that people realize. You prefer others to be gentle with you. You need to be handled with care. You may be fragile, but you're also tough deep down. You're firm enough to stand up for what you believe in. What Kind of Apple Are You? Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

Tarot 2
Tried again, interesting... You are the Hanged Man Self-sacrifice, Sacrifice, Devotion, Bound. With the Hanged man there is often a sense of fatalism, waiting for something to happen. Or a fear of loss from a situation, rather than gain. The Hanged Man is perhaps the most fascinating card in the deck. It reflects the story of Odin who offered himself as a sacrifice in order to gain knowledge. Hanging from the world tree, wounded by a spear, given no bread or mead, he hung for nine days. On the last day, he saw on the ground runes that had fallen from the tree, understood their meaning, and, coming down, scooped them up for his own. All knowledge is to be found in these runes. The Hanged Man, in similar fashion, is a card about suspension, not life or death. It signifies selflessness, sacrifice and prophecy. You make yourself vulnerable and in doing so, gain illumination. You see the world differently, with almost mystical insights. What Tarot Card are You?Take the Test to Fin

Too Many Embarassing Moments
Yeah, well, funny thing, or not so funny thing happened at WalMart today, when we bumped into my sons 3rd grade teacher. As we turn to go our separate ways, my oh so sweet 5 y/o belts out, "She has got a Huge Booty!" Yes, those exact words. OMG!! Must they embarass me all of the time?? Poor thing, lol. I hope she doesn't think of that during our meeting tomorrow.

Prostate Cancer
So...WHY does Breast Cancer get it's own MONTH and not Prostate Cancer? Because women dont suffer from it, that's why. I just want to point out a few things quick, for those who don't know. Breast Cancer...Men, you CAN get it, too. Don't be fooled. It attacks both men and women. So check yourself out. And Prostate Cancer...well, let me just say this...I am all FOR a Prostate Cancer month. Think about it. It could be fun. We could all post pics of brown ribbons and put up pictures that say, "Save the Assholes!". Think about it.

Friends
One time I sat out in the cold. Shivering and frozen through to the core. A light shone and came though to warm my heart though. Wrapped a blanket around me and gave me faith. When ever life gets me down, I look into your heart and smile. One time I sat out in the cold then you came and warmed my heart. I know your there for me to, so I'll be there for you. 17th November 2007 I got given a task at Pallion Action Group (the place I volunteered at). My task was to take the girls group bowling. I stood outside waiting for the taxi and then I seen the girls. Not gonna lie, I was like OMG I’ve been screwed again. One of the girls was in tracksuit and had a cap on. That girl seemed the mouthiest. The taxi came and after we got lost and turned up at the wrong place we finally reached the bowling place, which was a huge let down and its safe to say everyone was pissed off at that point. We thought it was a night of 10 pin bowling, not carpet bowls, but hay ho. We went inside had some fo

National Domestic Abuse Month
Please don't get this wrong, I am aware this National Breast Cancer Awareness Month, and I am a very big supporter of the cause. We all, if we look hard enough, know someone who has had to deal with this sickness. It is also a month made aware of another issue that is just as important and doesn't quite get the awareness it needs to. October is also National Domestic Abuse Awareness Month. This is a cause very near and dear to my heart. I grew up in such a home. I witnessed horrific things that no child should. I spent many a night crying for my mom; I spent many others getting myself into trouble so he (my step-dad) would be mad at me instead. Domestic abuse is a wickedly evil situation - there is not just the pain of the physical abuse. The mental torture is just as maniacal. The breaking down of a person's will, the name-calling, the screaming, the brain-washing are all just as damaging. The pain and scars inside are just as deadl, a very silent killer. The inside slowly dies, the

Trial Of Relations
Going thru Trials and Tribulations to learn is what it tookTo honestly step beside myself and Take a good lookAt decisions I chose to make and the life- style I wanted to leadI dreamed I'd fall in love, have a family and sucessfully suceedSeeking to find God as i'd taken a wrong path in LifeNo longer did I feel appreciated being that faithful housewifeThe Love me and George (X husband) and I once shared together felt to good to be trueI still can't belive all the hell this man took me thruAll those times I layed in the mist of the endless hailing rainPraying out to God to silence this Screaming painHow could LOVE a word so small yet so

Lost
I'm new here and kind of lost. I am learning the ropes and trying. If I do not respond to you or something, do not be offended...I may be confused. There are a lot of cool people one here and I am enjoying myself.

My Love 10/7/10
The day that I met my Vampiress aka Rie Rie was the day that I began living. Till that day i was doing the same old thing in the same old day. I would go online every now and then and be bored as usual. Then one day out of the blue, I meet the love of my life. Now I know all of you say that you have heard it before, but trust me when I say that I have never felt this way about another woman in my 45 years of existence. We started talking as friends only, there were complications and I was there to listen. Soon out friendship blossomed into more and more. We found ourselves talking for hours without even knowing it. Since that day, we have spent every day on the computer talking or on the phone, without exception. we have spent up to 14 hours just shooting the shit on skype. I have talked to her family; I have gotten so close to all of them. EVERY DAY she has a new surprise for me. And when I say this I do not mean in materialistic crap, because think about it, it is something that we r

The Real Non-partisan Truth...part 1
Ok, I have stayed out of the political fray here long enough and those of you who know my background can understand my frustration. For those of you who might actually read this and are not aware of my past history, primarily because you have an aversion to reading profiles, I served in political office here for many years in various capacities. I was non partisan and usually had the support of both political parties in some form. I got alot done and was finally voted out of office due to ...well apathy. Eight thousand registered voters in my district and 500 showed up...lost by 26 votes. Then heard about it for months from people who wondered why I got beat. When I asked them if they had voted they had some excuse about seeing the flowers growing across the street. To be fair most people do not think about voting in a primary in September in a city election. The bad news is that because of that defeat people are now stuck in traffic jams on a few of the main thoroughfares in Miss

I Have The Best Friends!
Text convo: James: Good Morning Me: Heya James: What's up Me: Nada. Debating goin out James: Ah. Going to give the girls a night out? Me: IDK. Might go hang with the boys James: I was referring to your girls....the twins Me: LOL It made me giggle!

3 Randoms
I took this idea from Ninja; feel free to post your own. 1)I want to see as many penises as I can. Even the small ones, then I can laugh. :) 2) I have to look at the clock before I fall asleep. It's usually so I can count how many precious hours I can sleep before that horrible alarm wakes me. 3) I have never been truly happy with myself.

Learned In The Darkness - Part 1
I've learned some things at the darkest points of my life. I'd like to share them, and hopefully, it makes some other people realize, everything truly does happen for a reason. I grew up around death. As long as I can remember, every so often, a family member or someone close would pass. I never had the chance to know my father's parents, and my mom's passed when I was very young. Even though I was 3 when he passed, I vividly remember my paw paw. How he looked, how he smelled, down to his big green orthodic pillow and his huge blue puppy-dog eyes. I remember him tapping on the bed when we would come over on Sundays, wanting us all to pile in the bed and cuddle with him. He loved us and wanted us close, but he was old, and bed-ridden. I smile to this day thinking about him. My maw maw was disabled, and in a wheel-chair. She passed when I was 6, about a month after she had cataract surgery. She held out through the pain and suffering to see us once in her life. The memory I have o

My About Me
I use to be a daydreaming girl...always in love, always optimist and a pure believer in dreams...then some mother fucker woke me up and showed me that life is shit...people is shit and all the world is covered with shit! U know what?...I don't care! I'm still a believer, I still dream and I still think this world is fucking nice!! I am a sweet & generous senuses romantic Latin who love to smile. Independent open-minded outgoing social butterfly with a great sense of humor, fun loving person. I usually get along with most people. I try not to be rude as much as possible... but if you piss me off I can be a MAJOR BITCH. I try to have a positive out look on life at all times. So I guess you can say I’m an optimistic person. I believe in GOD and I believe that everything happens for a reason and everyone has a purpose in life. Forgive but never forget and never take a single second of life for granted its to short too waste. My friends are amazing I love them .. And

Books, Books, And More Books. Best Place I've Found To Buy Books.
If you want some cheaper ways of buying books, you should check out www.thriftbooks.com. They have free shipping on all orders and most of the books I've gotten from them have been about $3.95. I belong to like seven book clubs, and am a member at barnes and noble so I buy like on average maybe 30 to 40 books a month s...ometimes. We book lovers need to stick together, especially since too many people are doing the books online thing. We need to let authors know that there are still people who like the traditional books instead of them just putting them online and not on paper.

A Poem For Someone Special
That day you broke my heart My heart tore and I just fell apart I didn't really know what to do or even what to say But, when I looked back I regret watching you walk away I should of done something I don't know, anything, instead of just standing there with tears running down my cheeks &nb

The Garden
I watched her as she walked towrds me with tears in eyes. They had taken her true love from her. They where soul mates meant to be together for ever. But they called him a trader. The war had gone on for so long, Her love was tired of the war . He had been fighting for over a thousand years. The war was still going strong in heaven. It seemed like it would never end. She begged me to help her get her love back fromthe prison that he was held in. I was not able to help her for to do so would mark me unfairly. She had decided to take things in to her own hands she went to the king to beg him to let her love go. But he would not even hear her plees. Instead he made her marry someone she did not love. Her heart was breaking with every secound she was away from him. THen she was mis judged and thrown from grace. Her true love saw her die. It broke him to the very core to not be able to save her from her death. May be one day the lovers will be one once again.

Your Lullaby
My heart beats only for you, It pounds out a steady tune. When you rest your head on my chest, It sings just for you. As you drift into dreams of you and I, The song it plays quiets your mind. When you whisper in my ear, The pounding of my heart reaches to the sky, Forever beating just for you. Without you there is no song. No lullaby. No beat. No sound. You keep away the silence, You alone control the song. Forever will it play for you, Because thats the depth of my love for you.

A Cowboy
A REGULAR GUY- WILL WATCH SOMEONE IN NEEDA COWBOY- WILL BE RIGHT THERE HELPINGA REGULAR GUY- MIGHT HAVE SOME MANNERSA COWBOY- KNOWS THE MEANING AND DOESN'T KNOW HOW NOT TOA REGULAR GUY- DOESN'T KNOW RESPECTA COWBOY- KNOWS AND SHOWS IT TO EVERYONE EVEN WHEN NONE IS SHOWED TO HIMA REGULAR GUY- HIS DAY STARTS AT MAYBE 7 IN THE MORNINGA COWBOY- MOST OF THE TIME ITS AT OR BEFORE THE SUN COMES UPA REGULAR GUY- WILL LOOK FOR A FIGHT SO HE CAN LOOK TOUGHA COWBOY- WON'T START A FIGHT BUT WILL SURE END ITA REGULAR GUY- DRINKS TILL HE PASSES OUTA COWBOY- DOESN'T KNOW THE MEANING OF PASSING OUTA REGULAR GUY- DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WHEN HE IS BORED AND HAS NOTHING TO DOA COWBOY- DOESN'T HAVE THE TIME TO KNOW WHAT BEING BORED ISA REGULAR GUY- WILL TALK SHIT AND THREATIN TO KICK YOUR ASSA COWBOY- DOESN'T TALK SHIT HE WILL JUST PLAIN OLD KICK YOUR ASS THEN LISTEN TO YOUA REGULAR GUY- WILL TELL A WOMEN HE LOVES HERA COWBOY- HE WONT JUST TELL HER HE LOVES HER HE WILL TELL HER SHE IS THE ONLY ONE FOR HI

New Fubar Coder Lounge Motd Section Breakdown Explanations
WELCOME TO FUBAR LOUNGE CODE TRAINING THIS IS GOING TO SEEN RATHER OVERWHELMING TO YOU AT FIRST AS IT IS ALOT OF INFORMATION TO HAVE ALL PUT IN FRONT OF YOU AT ONE TIME, BUT IT IS ALL VERY SIMPLE TO READ AS I HAVE BROKEN IT DOWN TO A WAY THAT YOU WILL BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND AND FOLLOW THE EXAMPLES THAT I HAVE PUT IN HERE FOR YOU AND I HOPE THAT YOU CAN UNDERSTAND EACH AND EVERYTHING THAT IS LISTED BELOW AS IT IS VERY VITAL TO YOU TO BECOME SUCCESSFUL IN YOUR BECOMING A LOUNGE CODER. IT IS TRYING WHEN YOU ARE FIRST STARTING OUT FRESH NOT KNOWING WHAT IS WHAT IN CODING OR EVEN NOT KNOW WHAT CODING IS BUT IT IS VERY BASIC JUST ALOT OF THINGS THAT YOU HAVE TO RETAIN IN YOUR MIND AS YOU START ON YOUR WAY TO BE COME A CODER. YOU JUST HAVE TO LEARN AT YOUR OWN PACE AS ALOT OF PEOPLE LEARN AT A DIFFERENT RATE THAN OTHER DO AND THAT IS A GOOD THING AT LEAST WHEN YOU TAKE YOUR TIME YOU WILL KNOW EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE DOING AND NOT MESS UP OR FORGET WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNED . SO ONCE AGAIN I WAN

Altruize!!!!
Altruize 25 Blingcredits will get u altruized with 1 Boomerang running 45 Blingcredits will get u altruized with 1 Auto11 or 1 Bomb 80 Blingcredits will get u altruized with 1 Auto11 and 1 Bomb 95 Blingcredits will get u altruized with 1 Auto11 1 Bomb and 1 Boomerang 110 Blingcredits will get u alruized with 1 Auto11 1 Bomb and 2 Boomerangs 120 Blingcredits will get u altruized with 1 Auto11 1 Bomb 1 Boomerang and 1 Famplifier or 1 God Mode Just send me the amount of Crdits with a short Msg Miss Moneypenny xox

Time And Happiness ....
What is Happiness??? I have been wondering this lately. What makes someone happy?? Some would say that having money would make them happy, or being famous would make them happy. But if you look towards the so called celebrities..who have money and fame…very few of them seem truly happy. Money is NOT the answer to ‘make you happy’, it may make things easier but its not the be all and end all of happiness. Some people who seem to have nothing are very happy. Some people who seem to have everything are not. Some jet-setters seem happy while some moral crusaders are miserable….lol… Happiness seems very unpredictable, inconsistent, irrational. So what is the secret? What makes a person happy? I think that happiness is an emotion like anger, fear or guilt. That it is a state of mind, where we have to enjoy life and look at each day as a gift where we have things to be thankful for. Of course bad things will happen but we need to look at the day, week or mo

Ha Ha
A drunk gets up from the bar and heads for the bathroom. A few minutes, a loud, blood curdling scream is heard. A few minutes after that, another loud scream reverberates through the bar. The bartender goes to investigate why the drunk is screaming. "What's all the screaming about in there?" he yells. "You're scaring my customers!" "I'm just sitting here on the toilet," slurs the drunk, "and every time I try to flush, something comes up and squeezes the hell out of my balls." With that, the bartender looks in and says, "You idiot! You're sitting on the mop bucket!"

My First Post, A Letter To A New Special Friend Of Mine ;)
Hi baby!!! I just wanted to say I had a blast with you tonight. And I want you to know I’ve never cum so hard as I did the first time in the shower tonight. Just the thought of your beautiful ass and that sweet pussy of yours, and those big, amazing, suckable nipples … thinking of you made me cum so hard that I thought I was gonna fall and bust my ass right there in the shower. LOL!!! Had to actually sit on the side of the tub for like 5 whole minutes just to be able to stand up again. And sending you nakies of me, my pussy, my titties, just knowing you were looking at those … that has me ready to go again right now. I’m sitting here at my desk and every time I squeeze my thighs together it brushes my clit against my panties and it’s fucking making me sooooo wet. I’m sorry I hadn’t shaved my pussy in that last pic I sent you. I usually shave it bald every third day or so but that day I just wasn’t in much of a mood for it. L

A Rose That Grew From Concrete (my Version) [the Thoughts Of Mem Chapter 19]
In A City Far Away, In The Purest Of Snow.Lives A Seed That Does Not Grow. Lying In A Crack In The Side Walk. Looking Up At A World That Doesn't Care. It's Beauty Is Taken For Granted. With Each Little Passing Step. The Sadness Within Begins To Fade. Like The Snow That Will Melt On One Faithful Day. And That Seed That Lives In The City. Will Become A Rose That Grew From Concrete. A Rose That At One Time Was Ugly And Taken For Granted. Will One Day Be A Sign Of Beauty....In This Dark, Cold, Lonely World. As It Is Written As So Shall It Come To Pass....Quote The MEMesis....Nevermore!!

No Rhyme No Reason
Same ol' freakn reason,Same ol' freakn' rhyme.It's always this or always that,It's hardly ever time.Time for hearts to heat up,and maybe stay that way.Time for someone special,to come into my life to stay.Why does my heart always torture,my mind and soul inside?Why is it that my dreams never bring meto that place where I don't have to hide?Oh why do I continue,to bring this on myself?Why can't I just keep thriving on,instead of layin' my heart upon a shelf?But...NOOO someone comes hither,into my CRAZY world.bringing my mind to heightened realities, and my SOUL is soon unfurled.No sooner passion and emotion,begin to craze my mind. they grow without a rapture,not allowing me to unwind.Things go great for a little while,I'm happy as a silly lark.But, then something comes along,and snatches away that spark.Tears my heart in pieces,makes fantasies come stumbling down.Then I end up where I began,in my OWN broken hearted town.©-RebeccaJeanine71

Internet Thugs And People Who Think They Are Tough On The Net.
Recently, i have come to the conclusion that the internet demoralizes people. It makes them less than they really are and it makes me sick to my stomach knowing that a WEBSITE or CHAT GAME could turn someone from a 50 year old into a fucking 10 year old in the blink of an eye. The last straw was when i saw some motherfucker berating and disrespecting a woman who plays mafia. She was once part of the turf i am associated with and most certainly, the idiots in the OTHER turf defending him sure as hell couldn't handle when i went off the handle on their asses. It's one thing to banter, it's another to make things PERSONAL over A GAME!!! This site is beginning to lose it's edge- and alot of people are leaving because of the bullshit. Personally, i won't let some faggot get to me on the internet. But... What they should know is i am trained to kill people. My hands are registered weapons. I fight Mixed Martial Arts and i can fuck any schmuck up in the matter of seconds with these h

Bitter End
My heart is darkend from the past,Im very careful about who I let in my future,who I let into my heart. I'm pretty sure I know what love is ....and that in sum small but very big moments in my life I've felt LOVE.I pictured my life so different.So many different roads i could of taken and all the choices I've made play in my head day in and day out.The fact that each time,each moment I had love sumhow slipped right throuht my fingers.All the tears in the world would never bring it back.So I never cried in frount of you...and i changed.I slowely let go and became this cold,lifeless,uncareing,a sence of worthlessness,un sure,and questioning everything person! I have to question peoples movites,feeling,actions,and words.But not any more ..... the me I once knew ..has come back to Fall in love ,to have romance,to hear the words of people and not question. Im at the age now i need to accept the truth of things..i will not be alone ! I will not end up alone and bitter at the evilness of the

Pink News: Antibiotic Use Linked To Breast Cancer (repost)
http://www.foodconsumer.org/newsite/Non-food/Disease/antibiotic_use_linked_to_breast_cancer_1510100718.html In the Pink month - the National Breast Cancer Awareness Month, we publish below a report to share with readers a recent study which suggests that taking antibiotics may increase risk of breast cancer. The study published in Sept 15, 2010 issue of Pharmacoepidemiology and Drug Safety shows a slightly increased risk of breast cancer in women who ever used antibiotics compared with those who did not take them. Sergentanis T.N. and colleagues from the University of Athens in Athens, Greece, authors of the study, said some, but not all early studies have already found an association between use of antibiotics and elevated breast cancer risk. For the study, the researchers identified five case-control studies involving 13,069 cases and 73,920 controls from major medical databases like Medline, Cochrane, and EMBASE databases, which they believed were eligible for

Whore
That's what I'd love to be. A point whore that is...for some reason I felt the need to clarify that. I really want to buy a bling pack, but I can't. I need "an administrator" to verify my information. They are the ones losing money. So since I can't buy the 65 credit bling pack and share my love....could you all love on me? Pimp me out Buy me bling Rate my stuff Whatever...I'm sure you've all been here long enough to know the drill, lol Thanks! Love you, Friends

Sex Survey (inquiring Minds Want To Know)
Do you like it rough or sensual?:both, there is a time to be rough and a time to be sensualDo you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both?:opposite sex, at this time i just like kissing the same sexHow often do you like to have sex?:alotIs sex a top priority for you?:no my relationship is way more importantDo you have sex face to face with your partner?:opposed to what lol yesHow often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger?:neverHow do you feel about one night stands?:not for meHow many one night stands have you had?:0What's your favorite position?:i have to pick one damnWhere's your favorite place to have sex?:sensual on a bed, rough up against a wallDo you prefer to make love or f*uck?:both Have you ever watched porn while having sex?:yesHow long do you usually fore-play b4 doing the deed?:i dont time myselfDo you get off first or do they?:i probably doDo you like kissing during sex?:yesDo you moan? If so, are you loud or quite?:yes a

Fun
time to go into the darkness and let it flow into me let it embrace me and become one with the cold uncaring void let it flow freely from me and become the darkness and take in its power and make it my own and watch all the beautiful destruction that is left in my wake it is time for me to have fun i am going to let the darkness be my home and reside there and learn its dark ways and use them to destroy the ones who have brought me pain and misery and see how they like the new me and how they enjoy their own destruction that they have brought upon themselves by pissing off the one who is not scared of the darkness and everything that dwells within it lets see if they like the monster that they have unleashed.

Sour Day!
according to wikipedia, today is ssweetest day and apprently is has been celebrated for 80 years........ I did some research and found out this is entirely a hallmark holiday. It was created to give gifts to the poor. In other words, this "holiday" has no historical significance, but merely designed to tug on peoples' heart strings in order for them to buy goods and services. It is NOT recognized nationally and has no actual event to base off of. Im sure it is special to a few people, but to the masses this is a giant scam. so lets make a more real fake holiday, FROM TOMORROW FORTH I DECLARE THE THIRD SUNDAY IN OCTORBER TO BE SOUR DAY! To observe this holiday we must all buy lemon drops for each other............... in addition fubar is to make a lemon drop bling worth at least $3 to commemorate this national holiday. P.S. this holiday is JUST as legitimate as sweetest day......

Unhappiness In General
I don't think that many of the peope around me can define "happy" in a way that they can measure. It's something that we all strive for, but our goals for happiness continually change. So how do you achieve happiness if you don't know how to define it. I thought that maybe by the time were in their mid 20s they could define what did and did not make them happy but I'm seeing more and more people older than I am not understanding why they are unhappy. I know what makes me happy, angry, or sad and I don't blame my feelings one way or the other on others. Own your feelings for once, own up to the fact that you just enjoy being depressed. I truly believe that many of the people around me thrive on being unhappy. I thrive on making others happy, I'm a pleaser, I go out of my way to offer to do things for others because it makes me feel good inside to know that for one second in that persons life they were counting on me. I'm a human being and my moods shift more than the tides but I own

Wedding And Party
Come and join us in My Fair Wedding as I do my very first fu wedding and fu marry my best friend Bud and his soon to be fu wifey IrishRaina. There is going to be a reception party and an anniversary party and also a halloween party. The wedding starts at 10 pm est on October 30, 2010. Parties will follow. Please contact me for more information and the link to the lounge. We would love to see you come in and join in the fun.

B.o.d.
Brothers of Destruction (This is a story about four relevent guys, whom the hotties all love, and the guys all dispise!)Excuse me! Sorry for the interuption.We've arrived, call us the brothers of destruction.Skip the introduction. When we promise something.May have broke some hearts, but better than nothing.You know it's payday.Cuz chicks call us baby.Our lives been a relay.Can we replay? Not today.We still number one though.Will these hos go?When we ride solo.. Somtimes!Don't take this to heart.. This this!Just get on this grind.Rock those hips to this rhyme.All you see is our dark.But when you fall apart, and your heart fuckin' shatters.There we stand, and make you fuckin' matter.You can all be deadly, I hope you're fuckin' ready.Let us begin. With this sin, your sex is medicore. My sex is a ten!She said: Make my neck bleed and my pussy wet, so I arched her over and made her skin drip sweat!I roll vip. Ladies reconize me, they tell me lustfully.I'm free to be free. Rockin' the flag o

Chat With Teh Bots..
User: Hello :D. Cleverbot: How are you? User: I'm good and you? Cleverbot: I'm alright. User: Did you sleep well? Cleverbot: I don't sleep. Do you?User: I wish. Sleeps sounds fun.Cleverbot: V for Vendetta.User: I like that movie.Cleverbot: Which movie?User: V for Vendetta.Cleverbot: I missed it.User: Well then why did you bring it up?Cleverbot: You brought it up.User: No you did.Cleverbot: I did not.User: I said I wish I could sleep. It sounds fun. And you replied 'V for Vendeta.'.Cleverbot: That was a different user that said they were 18.User: So you are not one?Cleverbot: No. Tell me a story.User: What kind of story?Cleverbot: A horror story please.

[instinctive Yearnings]
I can't help it...it's like this CALLthis drum beat of urge.Like salmon swimming upstreamor penguins trading rocks.Play DnD Pen&Paper.Play DnD Pen&Paper.Play DnD Pen&Paper.Play DnD Pen&Paper.Play DnD Pen&Paper.Play DnD Pen&Paper.Play DnD Pen&Paper.... > I spent a good portion of tonight reading 1-9 level spells and... pretty much EVERY domain ability and spell.There's even some DnD lite that came out (swear to god its basically copyright infringement DnD 3.5.5) that even listed abilities for clerics like sureevery domain grants ONE power.But theirs granted 2 >> 1 at level 1 another at level 8.Why did this happen?Because EVERYONE hates 4th edition.25,000 GP cost for true ressurection?FuckYou.3.0 it was 5,000.Same effects... same spells.What exactly did youCHANGE FOR THE BETTERin 4.0?You kill one of the elder gods for some... unaligned vanilla harpy, because oooh~ the parents were upset over one of the gods damning half the souls in existenceWaaaaah we can't have a greater member of the

God Modes....
Lmao!!! Ok so I got told this morning that the God Mode bling should ONLY be used for ranking on fubar.... Hmmmm.... Then I was told that I was completly oblivious to what the God Mode is supposed to be used for nor how anything really works on here.... Well the way I see it, I BOUGHT IT.... I will do with it as I please and use it for whatever it was i used it for.... Fubar has become a popularity site, and I'm not all about being popular on a GAME site... Do people fight to be popular on a game site simply because they can't be popular in real life OFF of fubar??? Has God Mode actually gotten to that many peoples heads that they feel they need to TELL others how its supposed to be used??? Last I checked it didn't say anything about WHAT God Mode was SUPPOSED to be used for on fubar.... So as far as I'm concerned, YOU use your God Mode bling how YOU want to use it.... and Ill do the same.... Dont come to me asking me to add you simply because you want more rates... i dont give a shit

Poetry
I want to I want to stab you in the heart, and kiss away your pain; Bathe in the blood of memories that drive your soul insane. Inhale all the darkness that lingers in your mind; And drown myself in the bitterness of every tear you’ve cried. I want to slice into your soul, releasing all its rage; Caress away the confusion that binds you to this cage. I want to dance amongst the shadows of every lie you’ve heard; And sing to you a ballot of truth in the song of a mocking bird. I want to dive into your sorrows and drink of all your fears; Swallowing the heart ache you’ve gathered through the years. I want to set your eyes on fire, and lick away the ash; Erasing the illusions that were left there by your past. I want to take you from my dreams, wrap you in my soul; Get drunk on the passion of our story not yet told! I want to turn the page, take all of you in; Devour all that’s left of the suffering you’ve been in; I want to wipe the slate clean, seal this pr

Best Of Luck (repost)
Twenty-year-old criminology student, Marisol Valles, has become director of municipal public security in Guadalupe / AFP Source: AFP Student, 20, chosen as police chief "The only person to accept the position" Mexico drug wars have killed 28,000 since 2006 A 20-YEAR-OLD female criminology student has been named police chief of a northern Mexican border town plagued by drug violence because no one else wanted the job. Marisol Valles became director of municipal public security of Guadalupe "since she was the only person to accept the position", the mayor's office of the town of some 10,000 people near the US border told local media yesterday. Ms Valles is studying criminology in Mexico's most violent city of Ciudad Juarez, some 60km west of Guadalupe. Raging turf battles between rival drug gangs have left some 6500 people dead in Ciudad Juarez alone in the past three years. Much of Chihuahua state has suffered from the spiral of drug violence, incl

Torn
Okay, So this is very hard for me. I have realized over the last week I am in love with 2 men. How can that be you ask? I am not 100% sure either. Here I was happily engaged, and didn't think I could ever want anything more in my life. I recently started talking to a friend I hadn't talked to in almost a year. He told me all about everything that has gone on in his life since we last spoke. I was so happy and thrilled for him until.... I realized I was very jealous. He was always there for me, he's a great person and for the most part I am very happy for him, cuz he is happy. I never realized I had feelings for him, until now and he's happy. I am driving myself crazy. I don't know how to talk to him anymore, because I am crazy jealous, and all that crap. I hate to think anything would come between us, but I am just a mess. I KNOW this friend and I could NEVER be together. I have never felt like this before, and I don't want anyone's BS comments saying I'm a slut or whore. This is just

Fu-robbery I Just Had $3 Mil In Fu-bucks Disappear, What's Up With That? Fubar Took It!
FU-Robbery I just had $3 mil in fu-bucks disappear, what's up with that? Fubar took it! Where does it say it will cost you up to $10 million to choose between demon or angel the first time? Notice the sceenshot of the support lounge, I never got an answer! So much for support! >

Stupid Encounters #53
Producer Luke 137: there you areProducer Luke 137: how are you hunnProducer Luke 137: I made something for you too lolProducer Luke 137: I made it just fucking around cause I'm learning producing/recording engineeringProducer Luke 137: I want you to hear thisProducer Luke 137: yeah I dissed you in itProducer Luke 137: butProducer Luke 137: I didnt mean itProducer Luke 137: I just made something in response cause I assumed you wanted me toProducer Luke 137: I used pro tools to make my song Producer Luke 137: and I actually sang on it hahaProducer Luke 137: but I autotuned my voiceProducer Luke 137: well anyway I guess I'm talking to myself so duecesC51 Creations: You dissed me in itProducer Luke 137: you wanted me to rightProducer Luke 137: I didnt put this outProducer Luke 137: butC51 Creations: You just made it in my next video Producer Luke 137: okProducer Luke 137: wellProducer Luke 137: one thing thoProducer Luke 137: I want you to hear thisProducer Luke 137: and dont take anything

Random Crap
Here I am... bored out of my gourd. I've been told that I ought to create a blog. So, here is a blog... Blog. Such a weird word. As I sit here sipping on my Miller High Life (the champagne of beers)... stoned out of my head on my pain meds and muscle relaxers... I ponder. What the hell do I blog about? Maybe, I could tell the world a bit about myself. But, being as how I'm bored and seem to be living such a boring existence, what's the point? I've been feeling under the weather here lately. Just thought y'all should know that. Whoever "y'all" is. Really... Who actually reads these things? Maybe I could go on a rant about my belief in ancient alien visitation. I actually created a discussion group on this topic in a competitive social site. It is my belief that we humans are the product of an alien genetic experiment. Everyone wonders where the missing link is. You know, the link between chimpanzees and humans? Well, look to the skies. The Holy Bible and various other ancient te

Phuck It
Society fuck it I've had enough. People and ruling are always changing who really knows why maybe so they can fit in with all the bullshit around today. Ever since a certain date that accured chaos has arose. Never really cared about what was going on yeah it may effect my life, but it is all about change anymore. I'll change along the lines to make myself more approved, but never to be like everyone else fuck that nonsence. I am an INDIVIDUAL. I am the one who makes my life not society. It maybe ran by rules, but really rules are meant to be broken or bent to make yourself civil. So maybe i am crazy for the way i think, maybe I'm not, not do I care what you think because I am who I am, and I act the way i am for me not you or anyone else. If you dont like it than piss off and run to be like the rest of that bullshit because i will never change who i am for anyone.

The Truth....
I'm not good with words,so I will do my best. I am not myself and if people don't understand this,then I can't help that. I can't handle being around people right now. I just can't. I look right through friends and family and I certainly am not hearing anything you say. If there is a time limit to mourn,I have apparently surpassed that limit with some people and quiet frankly,you can kiss my ass. I don't see where there is a book on how long or how I should mourn! I am trying to find a job,raise my kids and clean a house that never seems to get clean! I am tired,stressed and to the point I prefer to be alone. I have to learn how to leave my kids home alone and not freak out about it. It's just me! Not me and a husband,me and a boyfriend or me and anyone else now. I am learning and if it pisses people off that I don't or can't spend time with them......well to bad! You are more than welcome to stop talking to me and/or being my friend. Little things piss me off now. I'm

In View
I love you. You know I do Yea, it's perfect...well, it isn't and it is And I've been meaning to call you I've been meaning to call you Then I do I've been meaning to call you I've been meaning to call you Then I do Phone rings once Phone rings twice Phone rings three times I am of you You are in everything I do I do I trust you, that makes you true I don't care if it isn't the way it isI've been meaning to call you I've been meaning to call you Then I do Phone rings once Phone rings twice Phone rings three times I am of you You are always in view Yea, I am my will But you are in everything I do I do. I do. I do In the Day Eraser's dark of night In the Excited States, gone in plain sight Under the wave or by cavelight I lose, things change, but never in your eyes I am of you You are always in view I am my will You are in everything I do

I Never Thought
You were the last I would have ever expected to lie to me and leave me alone. To wonder where you've gone and what you're doing and what I did to deserve this. I don't remember my life without you in it. And I don't remember what its like to not have someone to call and cry to no matter the time. And I don't remember what its like to not have you do the same. I never thought you would forget me. And I never thought that you could be the monster that you've proven to be. And the sad part is. I still miss you. and I have a feeling that I always will.

My Life
Hey whats up its been along time since ive written anything to most of you yeah yeah yeah i know i suck at opening up Well heres a stab at it, YES im ok YES i have my son YES zachary wayne farris Kidnapped (legally) My daughters YES he should get a dna test cuz i still think One isnt his, But oh well YES i think he Should rot in hell Now to explain the legal part of how he kidnapped them in 2009 in july he and i got in a heated argument in the Roswell Zoo, In witch the argument got a little out of control and he dragged me on the concret while i was stuck on the stroller both of my girls were in I screamed for him to stop YES rusty aka HEX was there and was a witness to all this NO he didnt try to help ( i still think he shoulda) I got contutions on my hands and my knees from being drug around the zoo So i thought it was best i would Take my girls away from the enraged Zachary and move back east to Maryland Well.... Zachary stayed here in Roswell and filed for custity

If Famous Rock Stars Were Point Whores
Ted Nugent - Rang Dang Sweet BoomRang! Al Jourgensen - Rang a Ding Dang, my Rang a Lang, Ding Dang! Gene Simmons - I'm suing all of you that have KISS in your playlists! (this is a work in progress... feel free to add anyone you can think of and status messages they might say!)

Dragonflies And Fairy Wings
Okay, everyone knows I'm weird, and my beliefs are odd. Don't judge me! :P I have a facsination with dragonflies and fairies. So while watching dragonflies today I started to wonder about them. A fairies wings match that of a dragonfly's ever wondered if the fae were ever really here and if they just adapted to thier surroundings by taking on the persona of a bug? Yeah yeah silly I know but just a thought.

Angels In Dark Places
Angels in Dark Places in the darkest hour in the darkest wood to sit alone thoughts misunderstood of scarlet rivers and twisted dreams curled in a ball with silent screams but through the dim through the fright with chances slim of fiery flight she calls brings some light with subtle thoughts with warming life dams the floods burnt crimson flow eases dreams of dread and woe lifts her lost with silent care she calls with hope she calls with worries she calls for if she don't he falls

Clean Break
Sorsha sighed wearily as she slumped against the cliff face and looked to see if anyone else survived the dragon's suprise attack. As she looked around, her despair grew. The elf twins were obviously dead; Trila's head laid several feet from her body and Tiri was so much elven jelly between the dead dragons claws. They hadn't even had a chance, the dragon hit them first and before anyone could blink they were both dead. Suddenly Sorsha heard a groan and she stumbled over to Magnos. It had been Magnos' spear strike to the dragon's eye that allowed Sorsha to get the killing blow in, but as soon as he had made his thrust, the dragon had hit him with its tail and smashed him against the rocks. Sorsha feared the worst as she searched him for wounds. A strike like that killed most people and she feared she was going to see a good friend die in her arms yet again. She almost wept with joy when she found that besides a few nasty cuts and bruises, his main problem was a broken

Distance
My God chose Not to smile on me, He put this beauty, Way across the sea.A picture and a look, Of her nothing I could ever touch. If I could just see her once, For my heart it would mean so much.If she would only show her wings, And fly just once to me. My heart would glow so bright, For all the world to see.She is my little angel, With a devilish smile.I wish my God would smile at me,And take away all these miles.

Freedom
Since making my separation public I have had so many people tell me "I admire your courage" that I have finally come to the conclusion that many more people than we realise are unhappy in their marriages or long-term relationships. For most people the realisation that 'it's over' builds up slowly until it becomes the unavoidable truth. So many people choose to ignore it, hope it will go away, or succumb to social pressure to stay together. And it's hardly surprising. But not only that. It's also because when you are in your mid-thirties or older it is just too scary a prospect to wipe the slate clean and start over, not knowing what or how or where to begin again. Once upon a time you knew what the rest of your life would be like, the path was so well mapped out. And then all of a sudden there's a landslide and you're teetering on the edge of a cliff. Compound this by the fact that untill this past August, I have never written a check, paid a bill, driven more than 50 miles away from

Rules Of Texas
Rules of TEXAS:1. Pull your droopy pants up. You look like an idiot.2. Let's get this straight; it's called a "gravel road." I drive a pickup truck because I want to. No matter how slow you drive, you're going to get dust on your Lexus. Drive it or get out of the way. 3. They are cattle & oil wells. That's what they smell like to you. TheySmell like money to us. Get over it. Don't like it? I-20 and I-10 goEast and west, I-35 goes north and south. Pick one.4. So you have a $60,000 car. We're impressed. We have $250,000 cotton strippers that are driven Only 3 weeks a year.5. So every person in every pickup waves. It's called being friendly.Try to understand the concept. 6. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of doves are coming in, weWILL shoot it out of your hand. You better hope you don't have it up to your ear at the time.7. Yeah, we eat catfish & crawfish. You really want sushi & caviar? It's available at the corner bait shop.8. The "Opener" refers to the first day of deer season.

Pain And Happiness
looking in the eyes of everyone...seeing the pain they suffer...why can i see this..oh god why do i....i see the pain that people suffer..i feel the pain they have gone through..i can't take this suffering anymorelooking down as i walk through time not wanting to see the pain but can't help but to look upi feel the torment that they feelwhy do i feel this...oh god why can i...i feel the torture that they have been through...i feel the love that they lost...i feel the love that they have..why have me feel the torture and happiness they feel...keep my eyes to the groundbut it don't help cause i can still feel the painwhy me god....i suffered enough on my ownwhy god...why pick me to feel this pain

Too Funny
my sis an her thoughts on the penis an vagina lmao Crystal Goddess...: Seriously... think bout it... What does a penis look like? One eyed? Purple Headed? It Spits When it's Angry. It coughs when it's excited.. It thinks it can find intelligence in a slimy cavern of darkness. I mean Really?!?!? fuckers are from Mars delete Crystal Goddess...: Vagina: The Slime trail that's shaped like a taco? A peach? Some are hairy, some aren't, Some are tiny, some are small, some are flappy, some are OMFG wtfh is that?!?!? Never think bout a vagina for too long or you'll find yourself stuck in a nightmare of man eating vagina, yes, boys, those bastards grow teeth.... So... Vaginas.. Man's best friend orrrrrrrrrrr Man's destruction? -falls over- LMAO delete oh theres this too Crystal Goddess...: Ungodly . Microscopic and PERFECTION delete on sizes

Watching
She is intent on the computer - sitting at her desk, her back to the door. Music softly flows around her as she taps away on the keyboard, unaware of the erotic pain and dark pleasure awaiting her... Work has consumed her and she has neglected her Master for too long... Master watches quietly, a silent predator patiently waiting for the right moment to attack his soft prey... The bedroom is ready and waiting for his little whore - it has been ready for a while and she has not presented herself to him - and his patience is at an end... He knows she needs to relax but also knows how stubborn she can be when there is work calling... He waits until she saves her work, watching her stand and stretch tiredly - she has been so intent that she is unaware that he has arrived. He enjoys watching her - dressed in a tank top and comfortable, loose skirt - it will be easy enough to strip her naked and expose her soft flesh to his dark desires. He retreats to the shadows of the bedro

Still
Still feeling really down today... one of those days when you just want to sleep, which is what I did this morning, I had set my alarm to get back up for class, but turned the damn thing off and slept right through it. I did get up in time to go get my mammogram, but yuck.... Sucky thing is it was next to the hospital in the doctors building, I parked in the parking garage sure that I knew where to find the car. Needless to say, I got lost in the garage, after trying 3 different floors and being in tears I finally found the car. To top it off, I was suppose to pick my sisters up at the airport at 3 and right before the mammogram, her boyfriend called and told me the plane is running 25 minutes late. UGH! The person whose car I am using gets off at 3:30 and is about a half hour or more from the airport. Her boyfriend had the gall to tell me he could get off but would lose out on money, where I have to MAKE the person letting me use their car wait in the cold for roughly 45 minutes

Wykd Slave
Have you ever felt like you don't get any love from fellow fu's? Are your fufunds low and you just can't get any kind of attention? Well come see Madame Rain And Lady J in WYKD and let one of us be your personal slave for a week... We will love on you, comment your page, rate pics, send random gifts. We will also add you to our #1 friend spot, and we will also randomly put you in our status. Depending on what it is you have to offer will depend on what and how much we will do for you. Ownership is only for a week. If you are a perve, and think you will be getting a freak, you will, but we aren't like most fufreaks on here. We do have our limits. THERE WILL BE NO DRAMA WHAT SO EVER!!! If there is any kind of drama, you will be blocked from both Madame Rain and Lady J. You do have to be a member of WYKD. There will be no exchanging of numbers, addresses, personal info of any kind. No cam for either Madame Rain and Lady J. There will also be no cybering

A Letter From My Son
Im doing ok down here in Fort Benning. The first four days down here were hell but its gotten alot better since then. We dont really get alot of free time right now so its kinda hard to get time to write letters and then when we do we have to clean the barracks so we only have like 5 minutes. I've heard from a couple of people that mail takes like a week to get off base. We've been doing alot of stuff here the past week and a half. We went through the obstacle course and different stuff like Eagle Tower which is like a giant wooden platform with a cargo net different sets of ropes to climb and a repel tower. That was definitely the best part so far. We've been through the gas chamber too. It sucked but its not something that I wouldn't do again. It was CS gas which is the kind that police use for riot control so it just burnt your throat, lungs, eyes and nose a little. Well I guess a little is a understatement but it only lasted for like 10 minutes. This week we've been through first a

I'll Never Let Go
Memories, oh sweet memoriesMake me see you, oh so passionatelyNot for one day have I lost my faithThat sometime soon in your love I'll batheYou make me smile, you make me cryYou make me want to jump up and touch the skyYou make me dream, you make it seemAs though I've been touched by angel's wingI'm flying high, and you're beside meSmiling at me, oh so beautifullyWe're flying into the future with high speedFor anything other feeling no needThe best memories are yet to comeWhen both of our lives become oneThe present will turn into the pastThe future will make us want to gaspMy yearning for you won't ever stopMy loving for you won't ever dropThe soul in me won't ever let goMy body and mind will always loveMy feet, my hands my everythingWith your soul and body will make a linkSo much will come, so much will passA vision of you and me laying on the grassEverything is perfect, there's a shooting starBut nothing could be more beautiful then you areThen moon is smiling, the sun has setMe and

Time For Republicans To Deliver
By KARL ROVE (http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052748703506904575592611871158670.html?mod=googlenews_wsj) Voters understand that Mr. Obama is president for two more years and retains the veto, but they will insist the GOP at least fight for change.Tuesday's election was epic. Republicans gained over 60 seats in the House and six in the Senate. They'll now occupy eight additional governors' mansions and at least 500 more seats in state legislatures.The GOP picked up more House seats than in any election since 1938, leaving Democrats with the smallest number in the House since 1946. Republican gains in the Senate are roughly twice the post-World War II midterm average. When Mr. Obama took office there were 22 Republican governors: Now there will be at least 29.Fifty incumbent Democratic congressmen lost, including 22 freshmen. An extraordinary nine senior Democrats with 18 years or more of service also went down, including three committee chairs: South Carolina's John Spratt, Mis

Surgery
Surgery went alright I suppose. I woke up when that damn anesthesia tube was down my throat :( While in the recovery room I know they pumped me full of something then dilaudid, then two pills. Finally it took the edge off a little.... I cant totally concentrate right now so I am gonna go lay down .

For What It's Worth By Buffalo Springfield
There's something happening here What it is ain't exactly clear There's a man with a gun over there Telling me I got to beware I think it's time we stop, children, what's that sound Everybody look what's going down There's battle lines being drawn Nobody's right if everybody's wrong Young people speaking their minds Getting so much resistance from behind I think it's time we stop, hey, what's that sound Everybody look what's going down What a field-day for the heat A thousand people in the street Singing songs and carrying signs Mostly say, hooray for our side It's time we stop, hey, what's that sound Everybody look what's going down Paranoia strikes deep Into your life it will creep It starts when you're always afraid You step out of line, the man come and take you away We better stop, hey, what's that sound Everybody look what's going down Stop, hey, what's that sound Everybody look what's going down Stop, now, what's that sound Everybody look what's going d

Observed In The Mists
couldn't a person wait to be "done with this place" until the 12 hour period in which they're someone else's (not mine!! I don't even have this ability) point recipient is over? Rather makes that other person feel like they're giving their points away for nothing- if only because they are giving their points away for nothing. Ah well. I don't know either of the two people involved, it just seems rather a case of ingratitude...

Think Ill Stay In Bed Today
People ask me what is wrong Why I have a broken spirit But so often when I speak It seems no one can hear it or is it that they don't listen trapped in this prison trying to figure out why it always feels like somethings missin if anyone has a clue I wish that they would let me in I wasn't programmed correctly and it seems I wasn't meant to win I try keep my head high I try to live my life right but no matter what I do I feel pain and emptiness at night Maybe it all stems from bad choices I have made before

This Page Is For My Daughter Tamitha And My Son Jesse
I wanted you both to know even though we are not together, how much Mommy Loves you .God granted my wish when he gave me such a fine daughter and son . Through all the ups and down in life we both have had we have never stopped Loving one another Mommy is so very proud of the achievements you have accomplished. If I had but one advice and wish to say to you it would be as follows Your Life Holds Unlimited Potential and Wonderful Dreams You have the ability to attain whatever you seek;within you is every potential you can imagine. Always aim higher than you believe you can reach.So often, you'll discover that when your talents are set free by your imagination,you can achieve any goal. If people offer their help or wisdom as you go through life;accept it gratefully.You can learn much from those who have gone before you. But never be afraid or hesitant to step off the accepted path and head off in your own direction if your heart tells you that it's the right way for you. Always be

Tim Field Has Created A Web Page Dedicated To Identification Of The Serial Bully
From www.bullyonline.org I estimate one person in thirty, male or female, is a serial bully. Who does the following profile describe in your life? The serial bully: is a convincing, practised liar and when called to account, will make up anything spontaneously to fit their needs at that moment has a Jekyll and Hyde nature - is vile, vicious and vindictive in private, but innocent and charming in front of witnesses; no-one can (or wants to) believe this individual has a vindictive nature - only the current target of the serial bully's aggression sees both sides; whilst the Jekyll side is described as "charming" and convincing enough to deceive personnel, management and a tribunal, the Hyde side is frequently described as "evil"; Hyde is the real person, Jekyll is an act excels at deception and should never be underestimated in their capacity to deceive uses excessive charm and is always plausible and convincing when peers, superiors or others are p

Who Is The Serial Bully?
Introduction to the serial bully Embittered by an abusive upbringing, seething with resentment, irritated by others' failure to fulfil his or her superior sense of entitlement, and fuelled by anger resulting from rejection, the serial bully displays an obsessive, compulsive and self-gratifying urge to displace their uncontrolled aggression onto others whilst exhibiting an apparent lack of insight into their behavior and its effect on people around them. Jealousy and envy motivate the bully to identify a competent and popular individual who is then controlled and subjugated through projection of the bully's own inadequacy and incompetence. When the target asserts their right not to be bullied, a paranoid fear of exposure compels the bully to perceive that person as a threat and hence neutralise and dispose of them as quickly as possible. Once a person has been eliminated there's an interval of between 2 days and 2 weeks before the bully chooses another target and the cycle starts ag

Wednesday - November 10, 2010
I am auctioning off my points for Wednesday the 10th of November.... This auction will close at 6PM CST on November 10th, 2010.... The points will be given from 6:30 PM til 6:30 AM.... This will allow for a reset which will generate more rates; thus more points.... Please leave only auction bids in the comments section below.... Thank you and have a wonderful day/night....

Stupid Fucking People Who Do Stupid Fucking Things
Let's face it: People are stupid. In a society that exists in a world of logic and reason, we are hard pressed to find much of either one.In other words, common sense isn't that common.Here's a good example, I was having an insomnia fit and I decided to walk to the store to look at what new books have come out and to pick up a pack of camels, and as I was walking in the main entrance I passed a young mother pushing what looked to be a one year old child in the shopping cart....I'll let you think on that for a moment.It was after midnight, and this genius had her infant awake and at the goddamn grocery store. Not only that, but after she wheeled him out the front door, she started to light a cigarette not six inches from the kid's head!Question: When they were accepting enrollments in "Good Parenting" classes, were you sick that day or were you too busy getting your current boyfriend's name tattooed on your neck?Anybody who knows me, knows that I'm the LAST person who has roo

Day 1
Day 1 Probley the hardest day of anyone who sees someone they care about go into the Navy, Army, Airforce.. 8 weeks till he comes back from bootcamp. 8 weeks till I feel like I have a friend again. How long is 8 weeks...too long? Yes that's it...too long.

Usmc Birthday
During the American Revolution, the Continental Congress passes a resolution stating that "two Battalions of Marines be raised" for service as landing forces for the recently formed Continental Navy. The resolution, drafted by future U.S. president John Adams and adopted in Philadelphia, created the Continental Marines and is now observed as the birth date of the United States Marine Corps. Serving on land and at sea, the original U.S. Marines distinguished themselves in a number of important operations during the Revolutionary War. The first Marine landing on a hostile shore occurred when a force of Marines under Captain Samuel Nicholas captured New Province Island in the Bahamas from the British in March 1776. Nicholas was the first commissioned officer in the Continental Marines and is celebrated as the first Marine commandant. After American independence was achieved in 1783, the Continental Navy was demobilized and its Marines disbanded. In the next decade, however, increasing c

The Ultimate Sex Survey
The Ultimate SEX Survey Do you like it rough or sensual?: Do you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both?: How often do you like to have sex?: Is sex a top priority for you?: Do you have sex face to face with your partner?: How often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger?: How do you feel about one night stands?: How many one night stands have you had?: What's your favorite position?: Where's your favorite place to have sex?: Do you prefer to make love or f*uck?: Have you ever watched porn while having sex?: How long do you usually fore-play b4 doing the deed?: Do you get off first or do they?: Do you like kissing during sex?: Do you moan? If so, are you loud or quite?: Do you prefer your partner to be loud or quite?: Does size matter (for girlz-- dicks/for guyz-- boobs)?: How old were you when you lost your virginity?: How many sexual partners have you have in the last month?: What does your fav

Remembering Our Veterans
Thursday November 11th our nation celebrates Veteran's Day. On this day we pay tribute to the brave men and women of our country who have served in the military. This day was orginally created to commemorate the end of WWI when the armistice that ended the war was signed on the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month. Growing up I would think about "older" veterans who fought in WWII; Korea and Vietnam. However today "Veteran" has taken on many faces and many generations of soldiers. With the war in Iraq and Afghanistan and many other countries, our generation has sent loved ones and friends to fight on foreign lands. As a result we now have immediate faces that pop into our mind when we think of the word Veteran. Tomorrow, whether young or old, take the time to find a Veteran and thank them personally for the service they have put in defending our country. Not only will it put a smile on their face, they will know how truly appreciated they really are. To all the Vets here

Poem
I fall asleep and dream of waking to a place where you never went away. I'm looking for some hope on a dark and cloudy day. And knowing the things I'd change but not knowing what I'd say. And now I'm on my own. Must I always be alone? I'm watching the sky, night is falling on another day where I can't change a thing will tomorrow bring a time where I can see the sun? Will there be another or are you the only one?

Virtual Dance
Virtual DanceHeart beats a warning, shall I take the chanceHello m'lady, May I have this danceI nestled my head close, to my lady fairIn the fragrent bouquet, of her strawberry hairWaltzing through the garden,our shadows moving slowI could hear her whispers,in tones so soft and lowWe danced till morning, through dawns early dewThen it dawned on me, that I love youWe clung to each other, in a spiraling whirlI'll nay forget dancing, with my virtual girl

Just Upset Today
I don't know why i'm writing this honestly because you will never read it. I see you everytime I close my eyes, hear your voice when everything is silent, and I just want to scream and cry your name everytime I open my mouth. I can still feel your arms around me. You hurt me so bad AGAIN that I had no choice but to walk away. I'm sorry I just disappeared but if I saw you I knew I would have forgotten about my heart you ripped out yet again. I can't put myself through it anymore. I know you were told I was back with him. THat was a lie, that was the only way I knew you wouldn't try to come back around. I know you loved me but you were loving others too and that I cannot do anymore. I am alone and probably will be for a while. I hope you realize that you were everything to me. I will love and think about you till the day I die. Even though I left you my heart is the one thats broken and this time, the pieces can't be put back together by you.

I Don't Want To Get Off On A Rant Here But...
Today is Veteran's Day and as we try to forget the horrible way we treat our veterans (lack of treatment for those who have PTSD, etc.), let us reflect on the unsung heroes, the veterans of the international community. The Russian, the Brits, and yes even the French have contributed to our survival since our inception. To you unsung heroes I salute you. And of course to our peeps

People Have No Clue Sometimes
I just got linked to this story, and had to share. It really pisses me off to see shit like this. A veteran who spent nearly one year fighting in Iraq woke up to anti-soldier remarks spray-painted and scraped on his SUV.The incident happened Monday and tonight police are still looking for the vandals.Anthony Gurreri was targeted because he is a veteran. However, he said he doesn't have enemies and doesn't know who could have committed the crime."I just couldn't understand who would do this," said Gurreri.Someone spray-painted, "Go back to Iraq and kill more women and kids." The vandal attempted to scratch "murder," though it was misspelled "muder," and did scratch the word "killer" on an SUV that belongs to Gurreri, a wounded combat veteran.His mother-in-law, Michelle Griffin, got the call the morning it happened."When she told me what someone had done, I was disgusted, couldn't believe it. In this day and age, I didn't think there were too many people out there that would do so

Some People Shouldn't Be Allowed To Im
I truly love some of the instant messages I get. Here is the winner for the night. Enjoy. mr.random66: You stole a bottle of liquor from your Daddys cabinet and decided to sneak out of the house. Naughty Girl. You live a few blocks from a park and decide to go there. You walk past the playground drinking the booze and head towards the public bathrooms. When you get there you smell the familiar odor of pot smoke coming from the mens room. You decide to head in and see what's going on. You find me in there smoking a joint. Bold little thing you are. You walk up and introduce yourself. (you pick age and outfit.) My reply: Hmm. Okay, 70 wearing nothing but grannie panties and a smile. Let's go big boy! Oddly enough, no reply. Damn. I thought it was hot! LMAOOOOO

Friday - November 12, 2010
I am auctioning off my points for Friday the 12th of November.... This auction will close at 6PM CST on November 12th, 2010.... The points will be given from 6:30 PM til 6:30 AM.... This will allow for a reset which will generate more rates; thus more points.... Please leave only auction bids in the comments section below.... Thank you and have a wonderful day/night.... I will accept the following: - Fubux - Ability Blings (Boomerangs, MegaPolishers, Famps, Auto 11s, Cherry Bombs, God Mode) - Bling Packs (On Sale Friday the 12th) - Happy Hours, Blasts, Pimp Outs, etc.... * Will also consider multiple day bids.... **Remember: You get what you bid for, someone else just does all the work for you....

Games Are Supposed To Be Fun And Entertaining
I like video games. It’s true, I love playing games and having them take me places I have never been to. My personal cup of tea is to play single player games with an excellent narrative and get lost in the mayhem that ensues. As technology has moved forward, the content of the games have as well insomuch that the plots have become a bit more complex and entertaining to go through. And no I’m not talking about Bioshock. I beat that game, and must say the plot was decent… but should have ended after you killed the creator of Rapture, Andrew Ryan. It kept going and provided some sort of M. Night Shyamalan esque twists… and blah blah blah. The game could have been better, but it fell into some clichéd boringness and I felt I was slogging through the last two hours in god mode. No I’m talking more about game series like Fallout and Planescape: Torment; role playing games which make you really think about the world from a philosophical standpoint and see th

I Was Super Hot Before The Industrial Revolution
What makes people hot? The number one thing I can think of is the Sun, but I am not talking about that kind of hotness. No my friend, I am talking of attractiveness, the hotness that gets you stuff. Though, if you do get a fever of 104 you'll get things, but they aren't things you actually want. Over the years, the things that make people attractive have changed, though some things have remained crowd pleasers. Some things have gone from one extreme to the other, but there is one root that remains; how well you can provide. Back in the caveman days, the guy with the best spear got all the chicks. Not that kind of spear you perv, the one one who brought home the meat. Not that kind of meat, damn you, I'm trying to be educational here, get your mind out of the gutter, or at least while it is there, look for my car keys. He was the top provider, and he had his pick of the women. Of course the girl who got all the guys attention was the one with the biggest boobs. T

Empty
The thoughts drive me insane Looking at the blade not sure what would come. The darkness shrouds my sight, no light The voices tell me to do it the cold chill down my spine. Reaching into the darkness, nothing to touch, nothing to hold. Why is this pain of being alone feels so right, but so empty. Love is a broke object that i am forsaken from embracing. Fuck it the knife calls my name. Goin in deep, no feeling. Adrenalin rising blood flowing out so quickly Drops hit th floor and the eco of my life is all i hear the emptness. This is all i know all i the lies betrayal the pain is all that is left Thankyou for showing me there is no light in my darkness No angels to come save this fallen angel. Dying alone here in this red pool of emptness is what i deserve Thankyou.

The Goverment Stabbing The Military In The Back Again
If you care about your Military, read this, and then contact your Senators and Congressman An Artical in the Fayetteville Observer today http://www.fayobserver.com/articles/2010/11/13/1047630?sac=Mil {Quoted Text} Published: 05:17 AM, Sat Nov 13, 2010 Military advocates vow to fight debt-busting proposals Some of the budget-cutting ideas from the president's deficit- and debt-busting commission would hit the families and economy of the Fayetteville-Fort Bragg community if they were enacted. Advocates for soldiers and their families vow to fight many of the proposals. The ideas include military and federal employee pay freezes, new health insurance fees for military families and retirees, new health insurance fees for the employers of military retirees, and closure of Department of Defense-operated schools for military children. Another idea would prevent new soldiers from collecting military retirement pensions until they turn 60 instead of around age 40, when many complete 20

In A Mood
So Im in a mood - not sure how it will end up - so at the moment, I cant think of anything to post today. Feel free to post questions you would like to see here in the future. Have an amazing day. PS - People you have been warned - Im in a mood - act like a bitch - get treated like one. Feel Free To Vent About Anything Here... Maybe We Will Get Some Good Topics!

Missing An Angel
Missing An Angel Ain't it funny how life feels measured in time? ain't if funny how fate never leaves it to late? I heard a heavenly song.. I started singing along still I can't beleive you sent her here to me -Chorus:- She fell from the sky! right into my liiiife, through a hole in the clouds- all her friends were looking down I found her crying in the raaiiin I helped her mend her wings! When she never flew back, Lord I knew for a fact, that you were missing an angel.. Is she here to save us all? or just to catch me when I fall? is she part of your plan, to make me a better man? Every night I say a prayer in the morning she'll be there And if I die before I wake talk it up to give or take -Chorus- She fell from the sky! right into my liiiife, through a hole in the clouds- all her friends were looking dooown I found her crying in the raaiiin I helped her mend her wings! When she never flew back, Lord I knew for a fact, that you we

The Queen Of The Dance
The jesters court the Queen of the Dance, Trying to steal a royal romance; They lavish her with presents, crown her with praise, Not once perceiving the suspicions they raise. The Queen of the Dance abides no fools; The ball she masters swirls to her rules. Behind a kind smile she laughs, peering for a glimpse To find in a jester the heart of a prince.

Word To Live By
A REALCOUNTRYMANS CODE OF ETHICS 1. COUNTRY, FAMILY, SELF. 2. IF YOU HAVE A GOOD MAMA, MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS IT. 3. ALWAYS TREAT A LADY WITH RESPECT. 4. IF IT AIN'T YOURS, DON'T TOUCH IT. 5. IF YOU BELIEVE IN IT, STAND UP FOR IT. 6. BE YOURSELF, YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE QUALIFIED TO DO IT. 7. FACE IT GUYS, YOU DON'T HAVE A WOMAN..SHE HAS YOU. 8. TAKE CARE OF THOSE WHO TAKE CARE OF YOU. 9. IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, LET THEM KNOW...NOBODY IS GUARANTEED THEIR NEXT BREATH. 10. WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUN..IF YOU PASS IT ON..MAKE SURE YOU ARE READY TO GET IT BACK.

Amazed
From the moment I knew for sure That you were on the way My heart stood still, the words were lost I knew not what to say Was I ready? However would I know? I guess it doesn't matter; I just knew I'd love you so And as I know you are growing, Little miracle of mine My eyes grow large with wonder Like emerald stars they seem to shine Dear Lord, please, let me be worthy To receive this treasured soul. This tiny innocent little person That one day will make me whole.

The Cowboy
It's been said countless times around a campfire and in songs that a cowboy is born with a broken heart. I reckon this is true but it's not for the reasons most think. You see a cowboy longs for the days of old when we could saddle a horse and ride into the wild blue yonder and not see a living body for weeks at a time. We long to see the rolling prairies and not all the steel and concrete of the world today. We long for the love of a good woman and will sit by a fire many a night and dream of who she might be and where she might be. We long for the days of old when everyone was a friend and always had a hot cup of coffee in a old tin cup. I reckon we are the last of a dieing breed but we're not gone just yet. There are still a few of us ole boys around trying to make it the best we can with a fake smile upon our faces as we die a little inside with every new building that goes up. We won't make a big ruckus when our time comes, we will simply just fade away int

So Annoyed!
Blah, I hate my job so bad and want to quit but I just can't. Even though it makes me miserable, it pays pretty decent, gives me health insurance, and works around my school schedule. I'm having a really hard time finding another job that is willing to do all that. However, my job is literally eating my soul and I am so tired of being miserable 25 hours a week while having to come home to a ton of school work. I keep thinking about just quitting and taking whatever crappy job I can get til I'm out of college, but I really want to move in with my boyfriend this summer and that won't be possible if I make any less than what I make now. Ahh I'm just sick of working at my dead end job and living with my parents! I just pray I can actually get a decent job once I graduate college. We'll see.

Source's Of What Makes Us...
I am... complicated. I do very well for my nature, but am a disaster in the face of a mass spectrum. I've always been that way, sometimes not as bad as I like to believe, and other times worser than it appears. It's been in my best effort to show people I am 'different'... but in a fashion that isn't vain or arrogant. I don't like to be the center of attention with the big picture, if anything... I enjoy being a 'part' of the picture. No more. I'm a reasonable man, hence why I carry myself with a sense of responsibility for friends and family. It breaks my heart even more when I know they are in trouble and I can't help, whether it be with business, home, family, friends, money, whatever. I was raised with a strict logic of loyalty, I often think I got it from my father... my parents; they are the prime reason why I like to be the way I am. My mother raised me to be smart, to be safe, responsible, mature, and always ideal to doing what's right even if it was unfair or distressing. Sta

[gas And Baby Powder]
Make the mold. Make the extras. Fix the spikes. Prepare the part for spikes. Test fit the Shield! ...Did I leave anything out?Don't freebase before bed.I'd really like to clone some guns...but I'd probably need a small one.More later.

Sexual Waterboarding!!
So as a few of you are aware I have been having some health difficulties of late. This is not something I am used to as most of you who actually know me in real life can attest to. I have been the picture of health all my life and suddenly my heart has decided to take a vacation. That would be great if I were going through a romantic break up of some sort. I am not going through anything except trying to stay alive. Unfortunately, like many Americans who own a small business, my health insurance only covers me until I get sick. Makes me happy I am paying those big premiums every month. So I go to the Veterans Administration because I am a Purple Heart veteran and I get my care for free, excluding a small fee for medicine. They forgot that part of the promise to me somewhere around the beginning of the Bush Administration...the one that said everything was covered for life since I unconditionally put my life on the line. That was then. This is now???/ My doctor at the VA Clin

Frozen
howling wind sends chills down my spine your tombstone stands tall up ahead even in death, you dominate i stop not sure if i am strong enough to go on it has been such a long time though it seems like yesterday when you were taken from me memories of you - blocked out almost entirely i have a new life now a life that doesn't include you the moon is full and shining brightly down on me as i stand there frozen trying to decide what to do should i go back to the land of the living or continue down this path my pretense at confusion is meaningless

Unknown
today in this world of unknowns there is one thing that is for sure the military men and women are on the front lines defending the very freedoms so many take for granted and it pisses me off that people bitch about the simple little things going on in there lives if they would take a step back and a deep breath they would see that those things they take for granted arent really free everything has a price and if it means my life so be it but when people turn a blind eye to what is realy going on around them they become complacent and that gets them into trouble jobs in todays economy are hard to come by so when you get one try and hang onto it becase in the world of unknowns there are bills to pay and mouths to feed so the next time you bitch about your job again think there are millions in this country that dont have them and would glady take yours the world doesnt revole around you never has never will so get out there and do what you have to do to open your eyes to the things going

How To Add "http" Codes To Your Profile For Pictures For All To See
To add pictures or comment pictures to you profile for all to see: Go to your Home page. Above were you see your name you will see "Edit" Then when that pages opens click on the "About Me " tab Then copy the Http code given from the picture you want to show on your profile for all to see Then Right click on the about me section, and hit paste to put the code you just copyed from the picture Remember to put in the Bouncer Check id code before hitting submit Check out your profile it will show up for all to see, you can put more then one code in the about me part Enjoy ~MamaKat

Sadly Alone
Tears of water,Streaming down my face,Showing of blood,Getting rid of the pain. Yearning for your voice,And wanting your touch,Knowing that asking for that,Is asking for to much. Tissue after tissue,Sniffle after sniffle,Grinding my teeth,Why can’t it be simple? Afraid of death,But hating life,A never ending pain,Let it go with a knife. Trying to be someone else,Trying to scratch off my skin,Trying to die,And lose what’s with in. Fooling myself,Saying it’s Ok,Well knowing,It really doesn’t matter what I say. Being displeased with the world and myself,Being ignored when screaming for help. I love you, and need you,But you just turned, thinking I’d be ok,But you knew all along it would burn. Screaming into pillows,Until my throat’s on fire,I know I’m not someone thats desired. So think this everynight,Well I cry myself to sleep,Knowing the next day,It will all happen again.

Some Things....
Ya know, sometimes I just wish I had all of the answers. Seems here as of late, I can't seem to find a decent female that wants a dececent guy. Most would say that I'm looking in the wrong places, while some of that might be true, I don't get why we still have to have the high school mentality. By that I mean why does a female's friends, and everyone around her have to approve of how a guy looks before she will accept him? I mean comeon, I thought we'd grown up, and gotten over the pitty high school bullshit. Look I know I'm not a decent looking, or good looking guy, but I have a lot to offer a female. I have tried and tried, and tired, and all I find is people slamming doors in my face. I have a lot of redeeming qualities, and there are physical things that I am working on, but ya know it'd be nice to have someone want me for me, and want to keep me around, and want to go do things with me, but no, I can't even find that. Hell all I seem to find are the females with 3+ kids, s

Hailing The Void
And thus, eyes black with grief, We hailed the void, uneasy with relief. Glad we were, on the brink of madness, Accustomed to pain, emboldened by sadness. She held my heart, in her hands, And her reward was to bleed out, upon stranger sands. Those who love me, I stop their breath, For in my heart lies frozen death. With not a whimper, nor a sigh, Did trust in me, and thus they die. So now I hail unto the void, What peace I had, evermore destroyed.

Va C&p Exam Today
My husband went to the VA this morning for his first C&P exam for what turned out for two of his claims for compensation for service connected injuries ... his back and his knee. My husband seems to think it went well since the examiner said "screw the regional office, I am going to set you up right now for the needed xrays for your back and knee" because he had a letter in his records that he found that talked about his injuries in detail that he wrote home to his parents 40 years ago while on active duty. We sure hope he gets it approved as a service connected injury and gets some compensation because he is no longer working and we could use the retro check for this. He still has PTSD C&P exam and that is going to be a tough one because he worked in a high security area so it will be hard to prove and he also has a hearing loss C&P exam because of working on aircraft carrier and around top secret crypto equipment that made a constant whirring sound for his 12 hours watch day af

Status Messages That I Like And Would Love To Leave If Only More Drama Would Not Be Created....
Tammy has decided to just give up...tired of being lied to, tired of having things hidden, if you wanted to be with me there would be no secrets or games Tammy is glad that karma finally caught up with someone who has been dodging it for a while! ahhhhhh paybacks are awesome when they aren't yours!! Tammy is special! The people in the white coats told me so! They even bought me a pretty jacket with all kinds of buckles on it! I feel pretty! O' so pretty! I don't care what you look like, God said your Drop Dead Gorgeous, "For you are fearfully and wonderfully made" Psalms 139:14 It's funny how it's the little things in life that mean the most. Not where you live, what you drive... There's no dollar sign on peace of mind. A little faith will bring your soul to heaven but a lot of faith will bring heaven to your soul. G.H. The very first time I realized what unconditional love meant; was the very first time I held my child in my arms. It was love at first sight.

Could Have Been
Could Have Beendedicated to : Barbara Clive CarusoLife is filled with "could have beens"."should have beens" and more.Lives that touch and fade apart,Missing what's in store.A fleeting star passed through the skyLonely for a wish,Whizzing off to other worldsDismayed at being missed.Ships pass unseen in the nightThey float on doldrum seasFailing to excite a tideOr stir a living breeze.Where love was new it fades awayAnd other roads we've ta'enA wasted chance for true romanceWhat "could have been" we've slain.And yet we stop, look back in timeand see what we have missed;A gentle laugh and loving smileand lips we've never kissed.Perhaps and maybes,might have beensand what ifs fill our minds.Two roads once leading far apart;could they each other find?And then one day they intersectThat wish, our star has found.

A Letter From My Son
Im doing good things have been going alot better lately. I'm doing rifle marksmanship now and we're supposed to qualify friday. Its pretty much pop up targets from 3 different positions from 50 to 300 meters. If I can hit 36 of 40 targets I get a marksmanship badge. Not alot has happened since I wrote last. We've been pretty much just trying to qualify with our weapons and Ive been doing pretty good. So far I've gotten 31 of 40 which is a sharpshooter badge but im still trying to improve. Thats all he wrote this time besides coming home next month for Christmas.. Im really happy with him :)

To My Friends Who Show Me Everyday Love
I just wanted to tell my friends and family the ones who take time to rate me and blings me how much I really appreciate it I know I cant offer the same with the blings and sometimes I feel bad that i can't return the Fav but I'm glad to be back and Have the friends I do have here now. its so much better this time. thanks for taken time to get me where I am today on fubar I hope you all know that all of you are special to me and I'm glad to have you in my internet life.. wishing you all a wonderful Holiday seasons. Much love tinks

Sciencey Fair! I'm Entered In Witty Screen Name's Sciencey Fair!
This year's Sciencey Fair has only a few entries, but I must say, I'm up against some very stiff competition. Everyone made wonderful contributions! So if you would like, please go take a look and vote, comment, or come back here and pick on me for being a dork :) Here's the link

Day 0 ... The End Of My Life...
So this is the last day of my life... as a smoker. 23 years of my life hsa been dedicated to making sure I have a smoke. I've decided that I don't want to give them another day after today. Why not start now you ask? Well simple, I am doing a survey for Marlboro tomorrow and making 50.00 bucks... so 24 mours won't hurt. It's odd to think about what I will do when I am out dirnking, or after dinner, or when I wake up in the morning. I am sure I will by less cologne... prolly put someone out of a job somewhere in that field. I fope that doing this will put another tobacco company out of vusiness. It s funny cause all the vices that I have, drinking, pot, smoking, other recreational things... the only one that is constant.. that I can live without is this damn butt. I might be an asshat.... but I'm done being a butt sucker.... I have 11 cigarettes left, american spirit... Monday morning, when this Cannabal wakes up, instead of putting a butt in my mouth.... I will

The Invitation
The Invitation By Oriah It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.I want to know what you ache for.And if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are.I want to know if you will risk looking like a foolfor love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrowIf you have been opened by life’s betrayalsor have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your ownwithout moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your ownIf you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning usto be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is

My Official Rendition Of Taio Cruz's Dynamite. Done For Fubar!
I came to fap fap fap fap. I hit the lounge, and watch some cams cams cams cams. Got my computer in my rape van van van van. Give out some bling to get more fans fans fans fans. Yeh-yeh. Cuz it goes on and on and on. And it goes on and on and on. YEAH-AAAAAH I throw my hands up in the air sometimes, saying eh ohhh, where'd my life go? I wanna get more drinks and live online, saying eh ohhh, A/S/L ho! Cuz we gon' rock Fubar, we'll be on all night. We gon light it up, cuz we have no lives! Cuz I told you once, now I told you twice. We're on Fubar cuz we have no lives! I came for boobs boobs boobs boobs. I am a dude with giant moobs moobs moobs moobs. And in my lounge I am so cool cool cool cool. But in real life I am a douche douche douche douche. Yeh-yeh. Cuz it goes on and on and on. And it goes on and on and on. YEAH-AAAAAH I throw my hands up in the air sometimes, saying eh ohhh, where'd my fu-Wife go? I wanna get more drinks and live online, saying eh ohh

Broken
Sometimes I really don't understand why life is how it is. Why do bad things happen to good people? Im sitting here, and I am completely broken. I lost my grandmother today. I have been awake for two days, and stayed by her bedside and sang to her, and rubbed her feet, and told her how beautiful she truly is. I can still hear the raspy breathing in my head. It won't stop. The struggling for air, the coughing. It brought back so many memories of losing my mom. My grandmother was the glue to hold my family together, and now that she is gone, they are fighting already, and saying such hurtful things to eachother. I have had to be SO strong for everyone in my family. Even when I was awake in the middle of the night, wishing things would change, I couldn't break down. I had to be in control for them. I had to make one of the most difficult phone calls in my life today. I had to call and tell my father that his mother died before he had a chance to say goodbye. Hearing my d

Caa #138
In desperate need of prayers for Mare's daughter. THe baby is not doing well and she went straight to the hospital form the Doctor's office today. They arte planning on taking the baby tonight. Will keep you all informed, will be on and off as news comes in. Please send angel prayers for us. Love, Doc

God Damn! I Love Arkansas!!!!!
[Arkansas Democrat Gazette]: Two local men were injured when their pickup truck left the road and struck a tree near Cotton Patch on State Highway 38 early Monday. Woodruff County deputy Dovey Snyder reported the accident shortly after midnight Monday. Thurston Poole, 33, of Des Arc, and Billy Ray Wallis, 38, of Little Rock, were returning to Des Arc after a frog catching trip. On an overcast Sunday night, Pooles pickup truck headlights malfunctioned. The two men concluded that the headlight fuse on the older-model truck had burned out. As a replacement fuse was not available, Wallis noticed that the .22 caliber bullets from his pistol fit perfectly into the fuse box next to the steerin g-wheel column.Upon inserting the bullet the headlights again began to operate properly, and the two men proceeded on eastbound toward the White River Bridge. After Traveling Approximately 20 miles, and just before crossing the river, the bullet apparently overheated, discharged, and struck

Adoration (poem)
Adoration Never could I find in another’s face The light I see in you; No beauty or virtue could replace The joy your smile brings me to. Many pursue your warm embrace To taste your passion’s fire, But your loveliness is cast to second place To sating their selfish desire. I come before you a beggar man Among a crowd of lords; Daring just to hold your hand Is a treasure I cannot afford. In cool shadows I shivering stand, Scarred by the passing of years, Hoping your favor towards me would fan A pyre to consume my fears. I too your touch long to feel And hold you close to me, Not for a moment of passion to steal But to win you for eternity. --Shawn T.O. Priest

Future Tense
Future Tense by Anna B. What would you do if I died today? Will you miss me when I go away? What would you give to have me stay? Would you give your life for one more day? What'll you do when I'm dead and gone? Will you stumble or will you carry on? Will you regret the things left unsaid? Will you feel the lonliness in our bed? Will you be able to say goodbye? Will you shed a tear for me when I die? Will you smile when you think of me? Or do you long to be set free? Was I a fool for handing you my heart? Were we doomed together from the start? If you could go back and change the past, Would you want our love to last? I would do ANYTHING for you.. Just to keep you from feeling blue.. But you always seem to want your space, Though I never get tired of just looking at your face. © 11-24-2010

I've Been Relatively Quiet....until Now
If you haven't watched Dave aka V I I I Sin's newest video that's a blog, please view it. I don't know that I've seen and heard anything more real and more raw on the face of Fubar; especially by someone that is relatively well known so well. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uu3dLQg_XEw For those who don't know Dave, or THINK you do....you don't. He's a great guy, a great friend, and a great person overall. I know a lot of people made smart ass comments about me marrying White Mamba because like Dave, he has a reputation of "playing women." What constitutes "playing"? Honestly folkz. I've had this conversation with Dave as well as my hubby and other people. My definition of "getting played" is telling some girl you're all into them and wanna be with them and blah blah blah and on the side, behind their back, you're doin the same shit with another chick. Since WHEN does having something with some one, then breaking it off, and moving on to someone else constitute as "being played"? Isn

Palin.
A Facebook friend posted a link. She wrote: "Palin Alert!" and then copied this link: http://act.credoaction.com/campaign/stand_up_for_npr/?rc=fb_share4 Followed by "Republican leadership in Congress already forced one vote on a measure to defund NPR. When they come back with a majority in January, they'll be looking to finish the job. We can't let Sarah Palin and the right wing bully Democrats into selling out such an important part of our media landscape." Well, I'm a hardcore Sarah fan [Glenn Beck, too]. As such, my reply to the post was ".... what had NPR done for us?Go Sarah! Take 'em out!!" -- I was trying to rattle some nerves and encourage an educationally valuable debate. The Facebook friend replied, proving my thought that she had no idea what she was talking about, with: "What has Sarah done for NPR and our world??? Killed wolves hunted from helicopters offering $150 a forelimb...Seems she's not the only one on a power trip...you should be ashamed Eternity, check out the

Thanksgiving....
Thanksgiving is a made up holiday - and that's ok. I adore what it represents even if the storyline is a bit misleading. To me, Thanksgiving is a time of year to reflect within your soul and remember kindly the ones you have lost, the ones you still have and love, and the new ones whom you call friend. So, here I am, surprising even myself. Thank you, fubar, for giving me a few new friends. Friends..Thank YOU for being your wonderful selves. Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I hope you are safe, warm, and above all...happy! Khrissi. PS...if I didnt love on your page...it dont mean a thang other than...i gotsta run and i hate rating pages...lol.

The Moment
What is the perfect moment of passion well let's see... The perfect moment would as follows..Coming home to find the one you love waiting for you patiently. Longing to hold you and kiss you.As you walk through the door and say you are home the glistening of the eyes as you meet the gaze tells you all. The sudden rush to greet the other with a loving embrace and words welcoming you home. The longing of the first kiss as you are being held...Cuddling closer to one another after loving words have been exchanged to one another and then that faithful kiss that was waiting to come around. As you kiss one another each others hearts beat faster as the embrace gets slightly tighter to hold each other closer. Feeling the rush of love and compassion you both wonder aimlessly around to find a comfortable spot to sit and relax and talk about each others day briefly. Knowing that there is time for everything in a single moment that stretches beyond time. After knowing that dinner is already made

Thanksgiving In Afghanistan..
Well i spent my first major holiday away from my loved ones in a foreign country this year, i must admit for army food it wasn't that bad..my day started at 0700 this morning.. in the cold afghan air i made my way to the bus to head to the main common area. i picked up a new uniform and left..the main px was open but everything was wiped out..go figure so i moied back on down disney ave to the bus stop.. caught a bus and listened to the chatter of many. and the russian bus driver couldnt really say happy turkey day right so it came out funny.. it was fun. well its off to green beans for a cup o joe..so thus i wandered around afghanistan till i finally got back to my hooch or for you civilian people tent... i layed down wondering about how my family was doing..so thus i fell asleep for a few hours till i woke up and the day had past already and it was dinner time! so lucky.. i sat down with my friends and brothers in arms for a weird but yet very delicious meal...who knew that they coul

Male Gold Diggers
TO ALL THE GIRLS ON HERE,THERE IS A PREDATOR ON HERE CALLED MCL DJ JOE: HE LIKES TO HAVE GIRLS TAKE CARE OF HIM AND SMOOTH TALKS THEM INTO THINKING THEY ARE SPECIAL,BUT HE CARES NOTHING FOR THEM.HE ONLY CARES FOR WHAT YOU CAN DO FOR HIM OR SUPPLY FOR HIM,WHEN HE IS DONE WITH YOU,HE WILL DROP YOU LIKE TRASH AND MOVE ON TO SOME ONE ELSE.SO BE CAREFUL WITH THIS GUY OK HE IS BAD NEWS TO ANY GIRL ON HERE,TY.

A Poem Xmas Poem For A Repoman
T'was the night before Christmas, and out on the street, Not a sound could be heard under the repo man's feet. The unit was hidden in the backyard with care, With hopes that the bank wouldn't know it was there. The debtors were nestled all snug in their beds, While visions of driving still danced in their heads When up in the house there arose such a clatter, The Driver had never seen a debtor any madder. Away to the truck he flew like a flash, To hook up the car and to make a mad dash. He pulled out of the driveway and didn’t get far Before they noticed and screamed “He’s taking our car! ”It’s too late to pay now, its coming with me Contact the bank, and they will give you the fee” To the end of the street, to the auction we go

[hooked On A Feeling.]
Ack...well...I'm about finished with psychonauts (fun as hell!)and I just masked my spikes and command spire....I don't think I did a good job on itdidn't put down a good sealand then I tried cutting the excess with my exacto knife.I cut into the paint.Fuck.So there's about 2 square mm's missing on each spike.I've tried to touch it up with a Q-tip and a couple drops of my primer.The first coat didn't stick so great. May have to ... sprayagain.Swear to god I'm never going to be done priming.*sigh*.We might not even be done after that.For serial.Gloss coat?Decals?... how is this going to fit together with all this extra material on?I don't know.Why are you asking me?We've got at least 24 hours before the first dark grey goes down.Got folks over for the long weekend, and I need to let the primer setagain.Whot else.--------------------------------Thanksgiving.I cleaned the bird and snapped off the wings.Seasoned it per my mom's instructions.Made 2 pecan pies per my granny's instructions.Pr

Ms. "look At Mah Tittays But Dont Forkin Comment!!!"
Yes! Thats right!! You know who you are, all of you do! Why in gods name (whoever you deem to call that, maybe even the tree outside that kinda looks like a giant penis with horns) would you plaster pics of your tits all over a profile site and then get upset when men comment on them?? Seriously?? Are you that arrogant to believe that you're the one woman who can get away acting like a skank and get treated like a prinecess?? Last time I checked, pimps dont treat hoes too nicely, they dont even offer health care plans, and watch out for their dental. Pimp hand WAY strong! The point is this, if you want people to get to know you for you, to enjoy your company and appreciate your personality and your higher intellect then i highly reccomend not doing so by trying to figure out how much bigger your tits are than every other woman on the site. Might be a good idea. Here's another good idea, try opening up with a picture of...umm...your face? :D there's an idea! When you poor out

The Myspace Cleavage Shot
Yes, a lot of things look distorted from an aireal view, but that doesn't mean you should take pictures that way to hide yourself (the WHOLE yourself) from the damn camera. If you're worried about people being judgemental or harsh criticism about some of the features you're NOT so happy about, then dont join up on a damn public profiling site, or perhaps just set your profile to private/friends only and then remove all the friends that prove they're not interested in "all" of you. Why is it you women think it's okay to pick up the camera and point right down the center of your chesticles to hide the fact that you have a little more loving to give than that godamn skinny ass victoria secret model? who CARES what others think about you? If you're not going to take a picture to show the world who and what you really are then whats the point of lying to others to make friends?? who are you hurting? You're just going to cry and eat more fucking icecream and cookies (best combo since s

My First Blog!
Hey There. Tease here! So I really don't know what to write about..I dont want to get bashed or anything...LOL I have never done a blog before not even on FB!!!So hmmm I'll write about what I have been thinking about like crazy! So one of my EX bf's from the beginning of the year is missing....NO one knows where he is! and I have been searching like crazy for him..his gf contacted me because she had no clue where he is too and now we are both freaking out I might go to his house thats my next step! SO THATS THAT STORY! Thanks for listening! LOL Bye now XoX Tease!

[i've Got A Hopeless Memory]
Do not waste your sympathy~... Sorry I'm definitely on a Gomez kick.Picture time children. I have a new respect of everyone CRAZY enough to hand paint.Holy SHIT.I pulled the mask on my command spire and spent about ... 40 minutes dabbing with a 0.0 size paintbrush to spot fix. Looks pretty god damn good though. I have renewed confidence in my project.Not much is left to do.Shoulders.Peel mask.Put the head on.uuuh...yeah that's it.Hands are assembled. Everything below the shoulders is assembled and in place. Spot fix the shield? Spot fix the masks on the shoulders.Snap it together.Declare myself the great destroyer. I am way sleepy.More than you would guess given the fact that I've sat very still doing some VERY frustrating things.That band... look at the waist/chestalright that chord there?It consists of a lead wirea frayed nylon cover3 tube parts2 end pieces.The three tube parts have to fit into the waist ni their preordained slotsthe end pieces have to fit in between the t

Part Umm...yeah....something To Lol @.
Part II of alot ( I might just keep using them forever..ha). Not what you think I'm sure..lol..Let's take a break from the drama, point whoring, bling whoring, usery and perving for a second ok?...I'm sure we all need some lolz for sure at this point...so...since my work station took a total crapola on me today, I spent a few giggling at these and I'm sure you all will as well...just follow the wavey hand.. Click here for lolz.. See feel better?...good glad and you're welcome..thx.. Have a Tipsy Tuesday!...peace.

Pilgrims And Gods.
This scotch has been here a while.I feel like cold bread in the freezer.Its not moldy, but its not exactly "good" for anything any more.Like I'm overdue and without purpose.I'm not sure if you're listening to this,or if you're even here.But if you can hear it...without listeningthat's better than nothing.I wonder what you'll be tomorrow.While you grow, I erode.While I fade, you shine.I gave you a name once.One unlike my own.We slew dragons and chased glittering vapor.The stuff of dreams.The stuff of legends.And all I have to show for it at this exact momentan empty glass. Smelling strongly of liquor and recollection.Growing timid as I grow old.You can be anything you want to bedo anything you set your mind toclimb mountainsleap over tall buildingseat bacon every friday.If you believe?If you pray?If you hope?If you dare.

Angel And Demon
An angel and demon forever in flight one in darkness the other in light bothe kept searching for what they need yet all they found was heartache and greed then one night her light shown through and deep down within he knew that between these hearts the connection done the angel and demon will forever be one....... Sherry R.

Frustation With The Opposite Sex.
Preface: I just got my heart ran over. So keep in mind you are dealing with opinions that are slanted because of said heartbreak. So while these are my opinions and what I believe in; the anger and angst that will be coupled with this rant comes from a place of pure bile toward the opposite sex. You have been warned. ---- I’m right and you’re wrong. Understand this clearly before reading further. I’m a creature of cold logic, and feelings do not MESH in that logic. Don’t tell me yes or no, but there is this situation or that. You cannot beat logic no matter what the feelings are in regard to that matter. That is what separates us from the animals. We understand logic, we have more than instinct, and we have intellect. It is a sad state of affairs that so few people on this planet do more with their gift. Instead most folks are fine to rut about the mud, being hedonistic savages following their most base of instinct: desire. Desire to live. Desire to eat. De

The Essence Of Christmas
Christmas is coming either we like it or not. It is evident everywhere you look at. Television shows normally start their countdowns as early as three months prior to it. The morning and evening news deliver stories about the strangest and coolest celebration of Jesus’ birth. Health magazines have an early warning on how to deal with holiday stress and that extra weight one is most likely to have due to festivities. Newspapers teach you how to spend “wisely” so that your budget wouldn’t be maxed out. Some websites give you list on what’s hot (and not) holiday outfits. Christmas is often associated with either stress or festivities. But, is that all there is? Shouldn’t be Christmas about Jesus as the term suggests? If you were to ask a number of people what do they think Christmas is, what do you think they would say? Let the mystery be spared and the responses be enumerated. One said that it is a celebration of Jesus’ birth. Another said that

Poem I Wrote A While Back
Ok so this is some old stuff, I am workin on some new stuff, I finally have some inspiration but I thought I'd start off with showing you some off the old first. Hope you enjoy. Yeah kinda depressing but hey what ya gonna do? lol In An Instant Sometimes as I lay at night,I see a vision in the light.I see the way things used to be,Dim and unclear with uncertainty.I see the the way he he held her tight,Not knowing i was there that night.Looking at him,As he turned her loose,I thought to myself,There's just no use.I walked down the road.The music was blarring.With tears in my eyes, I couldn't help starring.His eyes met mine,With a look of surprize.I Knew In an InstantLove had Died.

The Doll
This was so sweet I had to share it. THE DOLL--if you read only one today, let it be this one!!! I was walking around in a Wal Mart store, when I saw a Cashier hand this little boy some money back. The boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll..' Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ''Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?'' The old lady replied: ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.'' Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.. Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. 'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas.She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.' I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her after all, and not to worry

The Ten Weed Commandments
~ the 10 Commanments of Weed ~ ~Rules we should all live by~ Though shalt always share thy weed with thy neighbor Though shalt always puff puff then pass Though shalt never pass on hitting the weed Though shalt never be greedy with thy weed Though shalt smoke weed often

In A Blink Of An Eye
Her pale, soft skin, in warm evening’s glow Green eyes, brown hair, in flirty blown flow She opens herself to something so new What is it that she thinks she should do? A mirror reflection, with dark hair & eyes Thoughts & journeys, connections & ties Words softly spoken in star fingerlight What is it that she thinks should be right? A kindred spirit encompassing all A soul mate of sorts passed by in the hall Turn a different corner by twist of fate What is it that she thinks is too late? Her fear is so true and cannot be dead Those images & feelings that roam through the head A lifetime in seconds & in a blink of an eye What is it that keeps driving her why? Happy thoughts & good wishes Just like a butterfly on the wind Keep on living & loving Until the very end http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdTqxxsc82E

Flippin Through Fubar
I like nice people. I'm a nice person. I kinda thumb through people and profiles. I'm trying to return all the favors I can for people. I might be a view on your profile due, in part, to the fact that I click everything. I like the kindness I've been shown here so I guess I'll try to level a little bit. Be nice to each other for crying out loud. Laters.

Not Always Right | Accentuating The Problem
Coffee Shop | Bend, OR, USA (My entire family emigrated from the UK a few years ago. My father and I got together for coffee over the weekend and another customer heard us speaking. In the UK cigarettes are called ‘fags’.) Father: “How’s kicking the habit going, alright then?” Me: “Well, mostly, been a few months, but I still have days where I’m just gagging for a fag.” Customer: “Excuse me! What did you just say?” Me: (I adopt my American accent.) “I’m sorry, ma’am, its a really long story. I just meant to say that I do still have cigarette cravings every now and again.” Customer: “Wait, what just happened to your voice?” Me: “Again, long story, but I can change my accent as needed.” Customer: “I’m calling the cops! You’re one of those terrorists! You’re going to blow this place up!” (At this point, she’s dialing her phone, scream

County
the snow storm's are getting bad and i see the news how your department say's all the truck's are lined up and ready to go..then why is it then if that was the 6 o'clock new's that on my drive home i almost slid off the road's any way ? i hear talk about how ready your road crew is and yet not a one truck on the highway or street's any where to be seen i feel if i'm paying my tax's for the street's to be safe to drive one i'm not seeing it or feeling safe this is just tonight 2 hour's after the snow started wensday night there was alot of ice out on the highway's that could of been stoped if the truck's where out like your department clams what hapen's when some one get's hurt driving at a responsable speed and has a wreck who is to blam your department say's them my self and i sure alot of other people all feel that it's unfair that we haft to go to work and can' get there safe the highway i haft to drive every day east and west is always bad because there is never a truck on that hig

Home Page Fubar Change
NOT CRAZY ABOUT THE NEW FUBAR HOMEPAGE LOOK !! THE OLD ONE WAS SO MUCH BETTER, WE GOT TO SEE PICS OF OTHER SINGLES, RATE THEIR PAGES EASIER, AND CHAT MORE BETTER. IF YOU DO NOT LIKE THE NEW LOOK PLEASE LET FUBAR KNOW AND HOPEFULLY OR MAYBE THEY WILL CHANGE BACK SO THAT WE CAN SEE MORE BEAUTIFUL SINGLES THAT WE CAN GET TO KNOW OR ADD AS FRIENDS BETTER.... THE OLD HOME PAGES ARE SO MUCH BETTER THAN THE CURRANT CHANGES... WE LOVE YOU FUBAR ~ BUT PLEASE CHANGE BACK TO YOUR OLD WAYS SO THAT WE COULD SEE MORE PICS, AND MORE SINGLES...

Human Waste
You attempt To remove The knife From my Back But all the Tears and words You offer Will not heal The scar From your Cowardly Attack Next time At least Do it to My face So I can Have the pleasure Of putting you In your Rightful place Call it What you will You define The synonym Of human Waste

Pigs
Well obviously pigs are terrible. And thus I should make sure this blog is NSFW. Or at least this pic is. I know it's an illusion. It's supposed to make you look twice. That's all. Then we all laugh and go on our merry way. Simply wondering here, why is that bad and not let's say a pic full of tits with half a face in it? :/ This one is at least supposed to make you laugh. Not make you horny. Thus follows the obvious question. If this is so bad, then how is bling prostitution not? "This is not this kind of site" when it comes to illusions, but it is that kind of site when it comes to blings/money for amateur prostitution, since it brings money to the company, right? Here's the chat with the bouncer. Name of the bouncer blurred. Don't want to get the poor guy in trouble or anything lol.

Buses And Men
Words of wisdom from my friend Leia’s grandmother: Men and relationships are like buses. There is another one coming around in an hour. Be patient. If the bus is broken, time to get off the bus If the bus does not take you where you need to go in life find one that does. Never take the bus through Homewood, there isn't anything you want there. If none of the buses are working for you, it’s time to get off your ass and walk yourself and take a different route to get there. LMAO!

The Day I Started My Walk With God
Last night when I was having my quiet time, I read in the fifth chapter of Genesis about Enoch. This man walked with God faithfully that he was given the rare privilege of being spared from death. He was taken away literally to heaven. How thrilling it is! Well I wouldn’t dare ask God for such honor as I don’t think I am worthy, but I would definitely want a walk with God. I opt to begin that now. I confess I’m afraid. I’m afraid that I will not be able to stand by this choice. I certainly know that I cannot do this by myself. It is just humanly impossible. Even Paul, the greatest apostle, said in Romans 7:23, that there is another power within him that doesn’t adhere with his mind and that this power enslaves him to sin. If he deemed himself a wretched man, where would that leave me? I told God about my limitations and imperfections. But I remembered that the Lord is the God of the impossible. No prophet of His was perfect, neither am I. I would have to r

Sometimes
you are the one fate chose, the one found dead in the snowsometimes i find it so hard to understand why you had to gobut sometimes i feel like it should of been mesometimes my heart screams "how could this be?"sometimes i feel like it was all a part of some jumbled up dreamssometimes i just know i will wake up and it won't be as it seemssometimes i can hear your voice in my headtelling me i'm the one who is really deadsometimes

Ladies .....
*WHAT A REAL WOMAN DOES* A real woman is a man's best friend. She will never stand him up and never let him down. She will reassure him when he feels insecure and comfort him after a bad day. She will inspire him to do things he never thought he could do; to live without fear and forget regret. She will enable him to express his deepest emotions and give in to his most intimate desires. She will make sure he always feels as though he's the most handsome man in the room and will enable him to be the most confident, sexy, seductive, and invincible. . .

Orange Soda.
Orange soda.Guitar is sliding. Room is spinning.Tastes like peanuts and stale beer.I miss the third hand smoke.And the flint burns on my fingers.Didn't realize you could get a hangover from NyQuil and hot sauce.But there it is.Unable to stand.The cyclone caught.So did the floor.Counting sheep and bottle caps.Wishing every day that I woke up as someone else.Someone with their shit together.Someone that wore a suit and had money to burnon all that stupid shit.Flat screen TV's.Save the pandas.Alimony.You wouldn't understand.I'm just a rant on the bathroom wall.Plenty of slurs and jagged cuts.That's all I amount to.If you want any proofI've got 80.Goes real pretty on the hood of a car.Better than any broken glass or blood spray rorschach.No hidden code or allusions there.Just the senselessness.The bare, naked violence of every day tragedy.Senseless.Moreso then any digital orgy of gas explosions and headshots.Truth. Stranger and more graphic than fiction.And my last $2.10 on a two liter of

The "all Mighty"
How can something so small have so much POWER? And if without it man cant even shower. Yet if one has enough if it.. Over all he will TOWER. This world revolves around this man made beast. Known as the dollar. Now we may never know peace, Because threw it we man seeks POWER. Greed has set in and now money is a must. How dear they say on to you, "in God we trust"? Then give you the faces of men, Whos bodies long parrished and bones turned to dust. The war for this papper, painted green with the greed of the polotic.. One by one splattered in red with the blood that fight for it. I want out of it! Even when i had you in aboundence, I never let u get to my head. Now im without you. Mom says the stress will leave me dead. But i will live off of bread. But i know i deserve better.... They just sit there with a smile, Tho its very hard to tell. Abe, George and Benn, All laughing hard as hell. All laughing down in hell, As their faces

What Rodent Are You?
You Are a Mouse You are a quiet and observant creature. You may not have much to say, but you always know what's going on. You are good at getting things done without attracting attention. You are sneaky, but only in a good way. You are well organized. You develop a system for everything you do. You notice and analyze everything. You can be a bit fearful, but it's only because you are aware of every detail of your surroundings. What Rodent Are You? Blogthings: We'll Tell You The Truth... Someone Has To!

Try Being Interesting
My big question for today is, "How do these people get such great profile ratings when they don't even have anything in the about me section, and no background art?" Answer is 90% of the highly rated generic profiles on here have pictures of tits, ass, and coochie area. Many males on here seem to like that, but what about personality. I've made many a joke on Mariah Carey's expense that her songs tend to beg for men, even the Christmas song. If she's got all that money and looks and begging for men, then she must have personality issues. That's a common problem on fubar, and if a male that is not afraid to look is bringing it up, it's pretty bad. I've been with several women with great looks and bodies that wouldn't know how to treat a man if he came with video instructions. If that's all a woman has to show me, then I'll move on to someone who can carry on an intelligent conversation. I'm not looking for my next wife or GF on fubar, anyway. I enjoy chatting and listening to musi

Http://www.fubar.com/1138499
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Tell Me Now From King Arthur
Long Ago,Your name a shadow,in my dreams, the white brave still searchingRaining Winds, fall apart.I believe, your hearttell me now,what you seetell me what you feelnow you're here tell me tell me now,what you knownever let me gotell me nowwhat you seeWho Cries from the hill?the mist creeps from your eyes,your banner will promiselet's remember the startI believe, your hearttell me now what you knownever let me gotell me what you seetell me nowwhat you seetell me what you feel now your here, tell metell me now (tell me now) what you know (what you know)never let me go (let me go)tell me nowwhat you see WRITTEN BY MOYA BRENNAN & HANS ZIMMER.

Wednesday - December 15, 2010
I am auctioning off my points for Tuesday the 14th of December.... This auction will close at 6PM CST on December 14th, 2010.... The points will be given from 6:30 PM til 6:30 AM.... This will allow for a reset which will generate more rates; thus more points.... Please leave only auction bids in the comments section below.... Thank you and have a wonderful day/night.... I will accept the following: - Fubux - Ability Blings (Boomerangs, MegaPolishers, Famps, Auto 11s, Cherry Bombs, God Mode) - Bling Packs - Happy Hours, Blasts, Pimp Outs, etc.... * Will also consider multiple day bids.... **Remember: You get what you bid for, someone else just does all the work for you....

Letting Go
In life we hold on to everything from the physical to the material. We tend to never let go of the past so that the present can make sense and the future can unfold. I have loved and lost many a times and when it hurts i pull it in so that I can keep the memories but I am realizing now that it is doing more damage than good to hold on. To let go to me is like losing a part of myself just like the initial loss in the first place so it is going through the pain all over again. Boogieman I release you from my life because I know now that you will only cause me pain if I continue to love you in ways that you don't deserve. I have loved in without love in return. We have both hurt one another but you are still seen as perfect. You have blamed me for your unhappiness for the last time. I can no longer accpet the blame I will now move on to a life that deserves my love and presence. If hurting me has made you happy and my happiness only has caused you misery then we don't need each ot

My Mom's Battle With Ms & Why I Will Never Give Up On Health And Fitness
I am a complete "Mama's girl". There is not one person in the world whom I could ever love more. My mom has been my rock ever since she gave birth to me. She is my best friend and the only person in the world I can tell my every secret to, no matter how dark, and not be judged. I can go to her for anything. She has given up so much for me and done everything in her power to ensure that I have the best life possible. Needless to say, she has done a damn good job at doing that. My mom has always been a passionate nurse and puts everyone before herself. As long as my brother and I are happy and everyone else she loves is taken care of then she is happy. When I was 15 years old my mother was diagnosed with MS. At that time, I did not understand what the heck this disease was and what a long hard road we had ahead of us. I just noticed that she could never lie by our pool anymore (her favorite thing to do), she did not have any energy, she was always sick with flu-like symptom

It's The End
Ashes to ashesdust to dustliving in a worldfull of hate and lustscreams of painthe sounds of splattersagainst the wallmy brains shall fallblood puddlesknee deepflooding the earthas angels weep...some pray the lordtheir souls to keeparmageddon around the cornereach day draws nearthe end is comingthe world will fallas your grandchildrens children still crawlstreets will run redas we all knowto repay our sinsblood must be shedcries of childrenleft alonenobody now to take them homehow will you act?you took so much for grantedand now its all gonethe agony of memorieswill outlive you by long

Up Date About My Knee
Well I get my MRI until next month on the 11th but the doc is thinking I riped my MCL and somethings between the knee. It sucks trying to go to school still. Its taking a lot out of me and each night it seems to get more fucked up...this blows

Sleep Is For The Dead...and Narcoleptics
So for the past five years I've been having these sudden black-outs. They've been getting more and more frequent, and have lasted longer each time they occur. On several occasions they've actually put my life at risk. Take three months ago. I was riding my awesome chopper-like bicycle down Victoria Hill (it's this REALLY steep hill in the town I live in). I got about halfway down, was flying along really enjoying myself when I felt it. That sudden, odd floaty feeling I get that signals an impending black-out. I didn't have time to apply the brakes, or even leap off the bike. When I woke up several minutes later I found myself in the middle of the road, vehicles stopped all around me and people gathered in a circle pointing at me and whispering. After I finally woke up enough to make sense of it all, I noticed my bike had landed right in front of a double-decker bus that had been coming up the hill. Lucky me that the bus stopped before crushing my pride and joy. And even more luck

My Little Girl
Today I turned 41 yrs old and had a birthday lunch with my 18 yr old daughter. I can remember back over the years at all the scrapes, cuts, bruises, getting bucked off a horse, etc etc. Sitting there talking to my little girl over lunch,watching her mannerisms, the way she spoke to people, you name it i gleamed with pride. For this little girl over the past 8 years has been through a lot since her mother and i divorced. But through it all she has lasted with a smile on her face. As we left the restuarant she asked if we could make a stop before she dropped me off and we went our seperate ways. She pulled into the cemetary where my mother, father, and sister are laid to rest and quietly place flowers on each of their graves. It was at that moment that i realized shes not a little girl anymore, shes a young lady, and i'm proud so very damned proud to be able to call that young lady my daughter. This might just be ramblings from a old saddle tramp, but by god I'm a damned proud saddle tr

Is All New Music The Same?
FUCK NO!!! Seriously, It breaks my heart when people speak phrases like, "All the music these days sounds the same." Your parents said it and you hated it. Their parents said it. My friends are starting to say it. So much of the music that came out when I was a teenager is timeless. You can still be inspired. The world can still be huge. Music can still be good. You probably won't find it on the radio but you might. There are musicians born every day. They have vision. A guitar feels good in their hands, or the rhythm drives them to drum. Maybe industrial or tribal or digitallly enhanced sounds drive them to create. Open your heart. Your old favorite musicians still put out great shit. Find out what they are doing these days. Who are they working with? What are the musicians that you love listening to? EXPLORE!!! Art never stops happening. I love all of the music I used to love. I still listen to it. When I find a new band that blows me away or a new song that just leaves me swelled up

Twas The Night Before Christmas
'Twas the night before Christmas, He lived all alone, In a one bedroom house, Made of plaster and stone. I had come down the chimney, With presents to give, And to see just who, In this house did live. I looked all about, A strange sight i did see, No tinsel, no presents, Not even a tree. No stockings by the mantle, Just boots filled with sand, On the wall hung a picture, Of a far distant land. With metals and bages, Awards of all kinds, A sober thought, Came through my mind. For this house was different, It was dark and dreary, I found the home of a Soldier, At once I saw clearly. The Soldier lay sleeping, Silent, Alone, Culrled up on the floor, In this one bedroom home. The face was so gentle, The room in disorder, Not how I pictured, A Canadian Soldier. Was this the Hero, Of whom I just read, Curled up on a poncho, The floor for a bed. I realized the Families, That I saw this night, Owed their Freedoms to these Soldiers, Who are willing to figh

Masterpiece
Mind you, I listen to all kinds of music and I've searched high and low across linguistic boundaries as well for that one song to call my favorite. It's been hard because there are so many wonderful songs out there and it seemed like every song that I came across, I was loving on every one of them. Kind of like the men in my life. I know it's terrible. Let's save that problem for another day. Ok. Neeedless to say, it was rather difficult for me to decide on just one. Well, after careful consideration and extensive research I have concluded that this is the masterpiece song of all songs. There's no doubt about it. I want this song played at my wedding and also at my funeral. Whenever that may be, and if the latter happens to come before the other one, well, there's not much I can do about that now is there? lol *cough-cough* Yes, it's a love song and without further ado, here is the masterpiece song of all songs. Enjoy. :) November Rain Lyrics Artist(Band):Guns N' Ros

So I Fucked
I wish i could get exactly what I want but even when you are specific its hard... Or in this case soft... I wish it was easier to get pounded into soft slut meat by two thundering cocks!!! Do you want a description? I know you do... you want to hear how i sucked them both till my jaws hurt and my pussy lay wet and throbbing how one of them fucked me while i continued to get face fucked by the other... Then how one went down on me while the other pounded my sweet little asshole until i came so hard i shot his cock out of my ass? or do you want to hear how I slammed loverboys face into the matress so he could get his tight little virgin ass fucked by a throbbing waiting cock? Just to let you know I was so turned on I shimmied under him to watch him take it in... you could tell he was loving it and I came harder from that then I did anything else! I sucked his throbbing dick while this random stranger pounded into him. The man fucking loverboy shot his load deep into his ass and i could s

Dear Santa.
Dear Santa, All I want for Xmas is a man (not boy) who will say sorry, appreciates the small [and big] things I do for him, who dates only me, who'll turn the air on when i'm hot regardless of $3 xtra bill, who'll love my cooking and return the favor, who'll realize how amazing I am & all that me (and family) offers, oh & TALL DARK AND HANDSOME would b perfect. If u can't find that, plenty of booze will hold me over.

A True Friend
A true friend will * offer you food, money and/or shelter when you are broke * tell you when you're being a bitch * help you to lose weight, not just say "you look fine" * give you hell for leaving your dwelling a mess, then help you clean up * warn you away from crazy people * do their best to stop you from getting another tattoo or piercing * let you use his or her car in a bank heist, for just a small cut of the loot * stand up with you and say FUCK ISLAM! We're having PORK. * at least taste whatever you cooked * not laugh at you if you should happen to come home with bukkake and a dazed expression on your face

Cuurently Why I Sometimes Dont Respond
so first off since this is the pain blog i started lets get to the points 1. just over a week ago my cousin was shot and killed by the long beach police dept if you follow such news stories and have been reading about it. its it becoming clear that my cousin was killed by officers who did not at any point think about saying anything to him. he was very drunk ( staggering drunk by some accounts) he was most likely not aware of the police officers presence. by the polices own statements of where the officers were placed he wasnt even pointing anything at an officer. in fact some witness accounts in apts that hadnt been cleared state he was in a seated postion leaned agaist the stoop rail. if he had pointed something at the officers with both hands pointing foward as they have stated i am wondering how 3 of the pistol rounds he was shot with were dead center of the chest straight up the sternum, yet no wounds were incured on his hands or arms which if he was actually pointing som

I Need You
I'm not simple or easy and its true I'm some times needy I may make you feel guilty break you down at times But when I do these things Its only to get your attention I need you so much and some times I forget to mention That I love you quite a bit Although you feel like a stanger See lately things arn't the same I feel you drifting away So I am sorry for when I make you feel bad I dont want you to leave but the reason I do these things Is because all I feel is grief I need more then you realize and you pretend as though I am ok Your forget me and dont call me and one day it will be I who doesnt stay

Pata
A picture is worth a thousand words,Hers worth so much more.Each time I gaze at her beauty,Words want to flow,even more than before.Her eyes keep me entranced,Her smile makes my heart glow.Even on the darkest of night,To her my smile would go.So my angel of night,Almost half a world away.Through the dark walk with you,And dream of your beauty in the day.

Atheism
It seems that being an atheist has become some sort of crime. I've been told that atheism is un-American. I've been insulted by so called Christians. I've been told that I should not speak to others about my lack of beliefs because it may "poison them. I was told that I could not support the military (which really pissed me off because my brother proudly serves in the Coast Guard and so did my father and that fact that they did that makes me proud to be part of the family) This all seems kinda of discriminating to me. If you replaced the word Christian, Jewish, or Muslim in any of those sentences you would be told you a discriminating and ignorant, which is true. It seems though that those that have decided to take that stance that there is no "supreme being" are not protected from being insulted or discriminated against. As an atheist I have exposed my children to multiple religious organizations and not forced any ideas on them. I have donated money to a Lutheran non-profit hel

Update: Missing Teens From Ridgecrest
Reno police find girls that 18-year-old Californian allegedly brought her Reno police found the 12- and 13-year-old girls at the Kietzke Lane Walmart at around midnight on Tuesday. "They called us because they were cold and hungry," Reno Police Department Sgt. Chris Lang said. The girls are being held at the Jan Evans Juvenile Detention Center as runaways and to check on their welfare, police said. Meanwhile, Reno police arrested Blake Holmes, 18, of Ridgecrest, Calif., on four counts of sexual assault on a minor younger than 14 three counts of lewdness with a minor. His bail was set at $110,000. Police said he formed a relationship with the girls over the Internet and then brought them to the Reno area in a stolen vehicle.

Lovely Couple Of Months
I have had a lovely couple, actually three months, my mom died, last week I had a TIA, and I was informed I have to move out. I know most of you couldn't present an aerodynamic rodent's posterior. Just wanted to inform. The MuMMs are not really the place. Those assgarbs believe that informing is whining.

Rest In Peace.....
Probably one of my favorite artists of all time died today in 2006.....He is the only member of the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame with over 50 albums to his credit never to have a #1 hit.....You may not like his music...but there is no denying his impact on modern music and the stamp he has left behind in history.....Granted he was a little crazy in his later years, but no one can hold a candle to his musical genius ( not even Elvis).......Rest well my brother...rest well

Song For A Winter's Night
Song For A Winter’s Night The lamp is burning low upon my table top The snow is softly falling The air is still within the silence of my room I hear your voice softly calling If I could only have you near To breathe a sigh or two I would be happy just to hold the hands I love Upon this winter night with you The smoke is rising in the shadows overhead My glass is almost empty I read again between the lines upon the page The words of love you sent me If I could know within my heart That you were lonely too I would be happy just to hold the hands I love Upon this winter night with you The fire is dying now, my lamp is growing dim The shades of night are lifting The morning light steals across my window pane Where webs of snow are drifting If I could only have you near To breathe a sigh or two I would be happy just to hold the hands I love And to be once again with you To be once again with you

A Update To Why I Have Been In Hospital So Much
some of you talk to me ore then others so already know whats going on with me. i recently spent some time in hospital. i was in there from nov 23rd to dec 12th. i went thinking i was having anxiety. i couldnt breath proper i was getting dizzy alot. everything was becoming a huge effort for me, even something as simple as pushing my wheelchair. when i got to emergency room i had a heart rate of 123bpm. so they are monitoring me and my heart rate goes up to 162bpm. at this point even breathing was difficult and felt like took all my energy to do. major suckage i can tell you it blows to go though. so they admitted me to hospital. turns out i have a condition called Atrial Fibrillation. wich is not often seen in anyone not elderly. on p,us side though i do not have any of the things that make it way worse. i dont smoke. no hiper-tention(high blood pressure). i dont drink alcohol. an im not 80 and have no heart disease. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atrial_fibrillation i'm o

Hope
Hope is nestled in the darkest corners of my mind Penetrated by slivers of light Conjured up by dreams and aspirations Hope is knowing there must be more The end is yet beyond my sight Hope is the tiny carpet on which my Imagination wanders the vast open spaces of what could be Hope is distingushable only by the slightest breeze of euphoria Unaccompanied with desperation Hope is the thread of which my soul hangs on the tattered rope of life Hope is my morning cup of coffee my cold shower my enthusiasm for the day's existence Hope is my serenity my survival from chaos the killer of my pain Hope is my nucleus the very core of my being My shelter my water my breathe Were it not for hope

My Girls, All 3 Of Them!
My happiness, 3 wonderful names, Rachel, Vivian & Kamille. From the time they came into my life, I never new happiness like I do when I get to be with them. As they know my job keeps me away, a lot, but, ever time I walk out that door, I do it for them. They are always on my mind till I walk back through that door. With the dangers that I work with everytime I go on a job, i stay more focused than I ever have before, just Thankful to GOD up above for blessing me with the family that I have always wanted. I have pledged my love to Rachel, I will NEVER want another woman as long as I live. As I sit here on my birthday alone, my thoughts and heart are with them and PREY GOD guides them back home safely as he awyas does. Only matter of time till we are together again.

From Rev
A promise is aLiethat you wish wasThe TruthNever is a promisedIllusionForever is a promisethat takes far too longto EndureLove is a promise deliveredalreadybrokenWe are defined byHowwe lovenot WhoorWhy? this speaks to my soul its beatiful baby

Marriage Is So Over Rated Yes Or No.
Well let me start by saying after 15 years together with the same person it was hell. I felt the obligation and she did not it was not meant to be but i hung in there forgive forgive forgive. What did i get thrown out that is what i got she said leave one time to many so i rsvp her offer. If the spouse not faithful do you really have a marriage or do you just have a tax shelter. Which is it you tell me i felt used it took me the first few years to get her to marry me. Now looking back at those twelve years i feel like a class A fool used like toilet paper and thrown away.

How Life Changes Suddenly
theres 2 sections to this please read the 1st, then continue on...wrote by dallas angel nov 17 2008a little of what is going on.......me and punisher been talking on here for 2 years and were great friends then after a while we started having feelings, i knew of his feelings but untill 2 weeks ago he never knew of mine, i gave him my number and we talked for 9 days straight now i am living here i am truely inlove with him and he loves me i left a bad marrige of 17 years and never knew what love was till me and punisher started talking now that i am here it is so awesome to find my true love i know it sounds weird and the way things played out but we are both very happy if i had to do it over again tomorrow i would i truly love him so wish us the best of luck any questioins just ask we will try and answer btw just because we are inlove you can still be friends with him or me thanks dallas angel and punisher 4 life now for part 2, very important..wrote by punisher 12-28-10after a 2 year

He Says Goodbye
He searched for me but only after I had gone. He begged me to come back into his life and just to love him. Now he is engaged and his new whatever decideds to do the one thing that he hates control who is in his life. How am I to respond to such hatred? I know what he wanted in his life cause that is all that we ever talked about. Just taking walks down memory lane were something I missed with him. I asked him shortly after we connected again what he missed most about me. His response is one that I will never forget. He said and I quote "I miss your hugs and the way you always looked in my eyes when talking to me and that meant the most." We dated for only a short time and then 8 years later I became his sister in law. His last words he said to me when I last saw him on Dec. 15, 1998 was if you hurt my brother I will hurt you. And now his new whatever wants me out of his life. I don't know what to do. Losing him is losing the best friend a girl could ever want. Do I still

Sacking Up: Moving On (unedited)
my love, when we grow old ill miss seeing the lines form on that perfect face. Ill miss the moments when hair greys, eyes sag, and that perfect skin drys out. Most of all Ill miss the fact that everyone youve ever hurt wont be there to enjoy the laugh either. hey golden girl the world is yours till what you use to make it, makes it leave you lonely. maybe when the world that revolves around you stops and all the passengers get off, youll feel a small bit of what i feel. Doupt it, but hopefuly insecurity adds reality, and all that powder you cake on cant catch a grip and cakes on all the deep folds and makes you whole. I wish nothing but the best for you and yours that you bought with the last bit of love you tricked out of the the last sap years ago. i wish you long life to enjoy it alone and feel 10 times what youve made others feel, but i know your old now and not much longer to go. See after the fall I'm a better man. I learned the dramatics in you bating a lash is only good till

Don't Try Fuicide
Don't Try FuicideWords and music by Freddie Mercury and WDA-one two three four oneYeahOkayDon't do it don't you try it babyDon't do thatDon't don't don'tDon't do thatYou got a good thing going nowDon't do it don't do itDon'tDon't try fuicideNobody's worth itDon't try fuicideNobody caresDon't try fuicideYou're just gonna hate itDon't try fuicideNobody gives a damn

Round #2 Of The Revolution (*)(*)
Different font this time, but same attitude so don't get confused. Yes I am still at it and now comes what I didn't get to say last night. fu comps can't deal with a lot of bytes all at once, it confuses them after all they're only machines. It may be the same subject but it will have different content and much to do about WHO are fu's and why are they here. It is all relevant to Bam Jam so nobody is being picked on [well somebody is]. It's about a blue head and a red head and neither one has hair that color, it's the head. CAN SOMEONE out there tell me why/how/where/when/what makes an artist's picture of a colored head worth 10 million fubucks. Please, I am very open to listening to whatever nonsensical explanation you have. I can believe stupid--we just got finished with 2 president's with the same last name and thier heads stuck up the azz. Kinda reminds me of fubar? If it's GOOD for the members then we can't allow it because that means it's not good for us, the Holy ones. Why isn'

Whats Real Anymore!!
So Confused anymore not sure who or what to believe. Someone once told me to follow my heart and my gut I have done this and gotten hurt some may times I can't do it anymore. I am so tired of being the one in pain I just wana close myself off from everyone. People who said they were my friends and said they were here for me no matter what have left, I am so tired of fake people and fake friends, or people who tell u they care about you when they really don't. I have one true friend that has been there for me threw everything and if it wasn't for him I probably would have quit fubar already, I am hoping that there are more people out there like him I just don't know who to trust anymore. I have recently met a few other cool people and I hope they turn out to be as great as my best friend is. Thank u hun would be lost with out u!!!

Its Both Funny And Depressingly Sad....
I hopped from lounge to lounge tonight and not once did I see or hear anyone give thanks or mourning for my Brothers and sisters who A either couldnt be home to celebrate with their families because they are Busy Defending Freedom and their Country. or B Have died in the service of their countries. I find the modern trend of things to be rather frightening..... Having already picked up a rifle and defended my country once.... Why should I be ready to do so again if you cant remember me or be thankful? When the time comes will you Pick up a weapon? or will you roll over and die?

I Love You
me : Hi baby i love you and wanted to let you know me : i cant wait to see you face to face you make me feel like no other Mistress : and i love you with a heart that had stopped beating a heart broken and destroyed with out you nothing exists. nothing in tis huge wourld can take the place of your kiss me : kissing you would be the joy of my life Mistress : you have token a breath from a heart that could not beat.. when the sky seen in to your soul it knew this must be so love has been found and pulled to rescue my air .. you are the light that brightins my path and with out you there would be noting had and kissing you would give me life when befor my life hade begun to fade Mistress : wow what have you done to me me : you have awaken a man that hade nothing Mistress : and the woman i have become has waited under storm clouds for a man that awaken everything that others had destroyed and given it life again me : life with out you now would not be i woul

To Let Go
"LET GO" To "Let Go" Takes Love To "let go" does not mean to stop caring,it means I cant do it for someone else. To "let go" is not to cut myself off,it is the realization I can't control. To "let go" is not to enable,but to allow learning from natural consequences. To "let go" is to admit powerlessness which meansthe outcome is not in my hands. To "let go" is not to try to change or blame another,it is to make the most of myself. To "let go" is not to care for,but to care about. To "let go" is not fix,but to be supportive. To "let go" is not judge, but to allow another to be a human being. To "let go" is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,but to allow others to affect their own destinies. To "let go" is not to be protective,it is to permit another to face reality. To "let go" is not to deny,but to accept. To "let go" is not to nag, scold, or argue, but instead

40 Reasons Whores Are My Hero
40 REASONS WHY WHORES ARE MY HEROES - Whores have the ability to share their most private and sensitive body parts with total strangers. Whores have good senses of humor. Whores challenge sexual mores. Whores are playful. Whores are tough. Whores have careers based on giving pleasure. Whores are creative. Whores are adventurous and dare to live dangerously. Whores teach people how to be better lovers. Whores are multi-cultured and multi-gendered. Whores give excellent advice and help people with their personal problems. Whores have fun. Whores wear exciting clothes. Whores have patience and tolerance for people that other people could never manage to put up with. Whores make lonely people less lonely. Whores are independent. Whores teach people how to have safer sex. Whores are a tradition. Whores are hot and hip. Whores are free spirits. Whores relieve millions of people of unwanted stress and tension. Whores heal. Whores endure in the face of fierce prejudice. Whores make good money

Hmmm
I'm always saying "Question Everything", in this blog I want to be specific. This won't be my usual rant just a random thought but being as it will have a continuing idea I thought it fit better here, moving on... There are plenty of things that can go unquestioned, all of which are proven facts, there is no such thing as proven here. Here everything is a theory, an idea, an opinion. All of which are MENT to be questioned to form your own theory/idea/opinion. Individuality if a tremendous gift, yet in some ways a curse as well. In important circumstances uniqueness helps you to thrive, to show others what you have to offer. Fubar is a flashback of a high school lunchroom, where you are depends on who your friends are and how well you are perceived. EVERYTHING in that sense should be questioned, everything analyzed and taken into perspective. I've played my part as the "cool kid" in the past and I can honestly say nothing is as meaningful as being recognized for your thoughts and idea

Once Best Friends And Lovers, Now...nothing:(
with each passing day our friendship grows further apart. we came to a fork in the road and we took separate paths. one went down the sunny beautiful path, one went through a thunderous dark monsoon. now, we are mearly afterthoughts. nothing will ever be the same to what it was once was. the roads are winding further and further apart. were both heading down one way streets on our way to distant memories. will our paths ever cross again? probably. will there be awkwardness and thoughts of the past that bring a smirk to your face? sure. will i get over it? tough to say. i would hope so. thats life i guess. take it with a grain of salt, keep my head high, and proceed down my path. the sun will shine again.

What Alcoholic Drink Are You?
You Are Beer! You don't need to get totally wasted when you hit the bars. More of a social drinker, you just like to have fun with your friends. And as long as the beer keeps flowing, you're a happy camper. But don't mix things up: "Beer Before Liquor, Never Been Sicker!" What Alcoholic Drink Are You? Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

What Type Of Wine Are You?
You Are Sauvignon Blanc Engaging and energetic, you have a lot to offer the world - most of it they've never seen anywhere else! You are the type of person who carves your own path in life... and you invite everyone else to come along. The only thing predictable about you is that you could have anything up your sleeve. You're all about sampling all of life's experiences. Both the savory and unsavory ones. Deep down you are: Laid back and young at heart Your partying style: Anything goes... seriously! Your company is enjoyed best with: Smoked meats or spicy food What Kind of Wine Are You? Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

Important To Me....
Those who know me well realize I am VERY private. If I want ANYONE to know anything about me I will tell them myself. Discretion and privacy mean more to me than anything....except maybe my dog. I give that respect and certainly expect that in return. I have and will disappear because of lack of privacy/discretion/respect. True friends will tell me if that trust has been violated. If I feel safe in saying anything in comments/photo comments/blogs/private messages or gifts, that is MY choice. Just throwing that out there! Peace and kisses.......................

Fubar Angel Or Demon, Nobody Stole Your Fubucks
The picture below is a screen shot of the decide page with the notice of the cost to decide flashing. It seems that many fubar members overlook the large yellow words stating the cost of selecting a side (Angel or Demon) once they reach level 25 so I thought why not make a blog on it with the words flashing. If you do not have the full 5 million it'll cost what you do have in fubucks, in other words members will pay Up To 5 million fubucks to pick Angel or Demon for the first time.

Vent
Someone I once loved is now dying. Part of me rejoices in the triumph of poetic justice. The prayers of vengeance and retribution I silently whispered have at last come to past. She is dying. Am I wrong to feel that sense of justice as I hear that she will not recover? The cosmic “I told you so” practically reverberating in these halls. The joyfully guilt-ridden news ignites a fierce war in me. She took so much of my life – so much that I will never get back. The suffering at her hands was unbearable. I remember the anger and contempt that grew in me when I heard others speak of torment. Damn you, I would think, damn you for believing you know what suffering is. How many nights have you spent listening to the merciless beep of hospital machinery? How many times have you wrenched a gun from your lover’s hands? How many times have you been belittled, scorned, shrieked at for caring about someone? How many times has someone cost you your money, y

What Is Real And What Is Fake?
There is alot of things i have noticed with this site- and with People in general on Fubar. One thing i have noticed is the whole ''Fake'' and ''Real'' thing. Let me tell you this: I'm not fake and never will be. I've had salutes on this site before, a few years ago- until someone decided they wanted to be me. Got it? No? Okay, let me put this into words you fucking rejects can understand. You ever fucking come at me talking shit you better be prepared to back it up. I'm not fucking fake- never will be- and anyone who has known me knows who the fuck i am, through vision and through words. IF YOU HAVE A FUCKING PROBLEM WITH ME, KNUCKLE THE FUCK UP AND MEET ME FACE TO FACE- WE WILL SEE WHO IS THE FAKE ASS THEN WHEN YOUR ASS IS IN THE ICU. Now, that being said- i've known more ''Fake'' people who have salutes and post 5896390573489056903475893407089.858 pictures of themselves- yet they lie about how they are, how they live- as the saying goes "Stab them in the back." S

Just An Observation
I may be stupid, but doesn't it seem that large breasted women have priority, in that they can post a default photo clothed in a bra, but if a small breasted woman were to do it, it would be pulled? In the same vein isn't a bra underwear? A bikini or bathing suit may be worn in public but not a bra, but it seems those kind of defaults are not allowed.

Mark Collins : Allied Group Scam
SCAM BEWARE !!!!!!!!!!!!! IF ANYONE GETS THIS PLEASE REPORT IT ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RE: Federal Bank Fraud Case # 627772 Defendant: CC: IRS Enforcement Division Dear Sir or Madam, Section 1278-4b of the federal UCC Code states that federal or state tax liens may be placed on your individual tax returns. We havereason to believe that in the matter of your account with Bahamas Marketing Group, that you are involved or have participated in a scam to manipulate the federal banking system. Our firm is investigating possible violations of the US Patriot Act and several check kiting allegations. When a judgment is filed we will ask that the funds be released to court to satisfy the judgment. Sincerely, Mark Collins Phone: (877)349-6951 Allied Group Litigation and claims officer

Changes
why do you let me push you around why dont u see how mean i can bei always tell you what to do expect too much from youbut your always doing what i say never questioning a day you let me walk all over you i treat you like a slave and constantly tell you what to dohow can you just take my shit so soft spoken never harsh why dont u just tell me offstop doing every thing i say stop letting me treat you this wayyou know its bullshit how i act yet you still jump up in a flash always such a people pleaser dont you ever have your own oppinioni dont understand how u can love me so much you tell me all the time you care but you should stand up sometimes not let me push you aroundalways falling on the ground nothings ever good enough i dont know why im so tough things need to change i dont know why i act this wayyou love me so much but its hard to see i cant think clearly its such a bad habit im trying to brakethings cant always be this way you need respect you need your space you dont need me i

Clarity
open your eyes look around you cant even see the groundmoving so fast quick as can be everything is a blurr to metwisting spinning twirling swerling nothing coming nothing goingmy thoughts seem out of control i cant get a grip dont understand this worldeverythings strange it seems so unreal is this really how i feel emotions built up like a wall i feel like im starting to fallbarriers, bars, caged in feel so trapped trapped in my thoughts trapped in my mind have no reality of timenever know what day it is doesnt matter anywaysnothing ever changes here still be the same in 50 years

One Love
so many look forever trying to find that one so many never see what could truely beim so glad ive found you babe i hope we never fade away like so many in the past breakin up so fasti never wanna leave your sidelove's not easy thats true but its easier when im with you i never wanna lose you is this love really truehow can i be so sure when others seem to want soo much morei dont know if i can trust you your always so distant n downhow can i change things make you come out of your shelllet me help turn things aroundi cant promise you miricles i cant give you the worldbut i can make you happy of that im sureplease let me try nothing in life is ever that easythe good things in life take timethings dont just happen over nightif youll let me ill try n make everything alrightif you let my i love you forever if your not happy ill make it upeverything always for you to you ill always be true no more lies no more tears i will concure all your fears

Control
swimming through my thoughts my mind lost track of so much time never know the begining or end just write what comes into my head spirling out of control cant focuse cant think everything went blankgoing crazy spinning by at the edge of time so lost in emotions and thoughts never knowing where to stop shadows voices everywhere being watched constanly cant get a break cant get away every minute of every day theres a presence here i feel it now i think im going insane never change this game theres trouble every where we go nothing ever goes as planned things always get out of hand theres nothing more to do or say so i guess i leave now anywaysreality and dreams tend to mix slishing sloshing every wherechurning burning like the sea cant you get it away from me still cant think straight still cant see where im really ment to be.

Why Can't I Find It ?!
All i want right now, is a new bloodstone pendant !!! Not to big , cause everything i find seems to me to be freaking huge !!! As in over 1.5 inches in length. Or TOO small , as in like a half inch or small. My desired size is about 3/4 of an inch or an inch at most. Why is this so freaking hard to find ?! I don't get it. I found a bloodstone star pendant, on e-bay , but upon reply from the person sell it , he says its only 12.5 mm from top to bottom , thats just under a half inch in size! Umm... tiny !! grrrr Then I find a bloodstone wand/point pendant , which there person selling it stats the gemstone is 1 3/8 inches long. Thats sorta close, but the person wont tell me if that includes the top "hook" or not. Which if it doesnt, will just make the peice that much longer ! UGH !!! I don't want bigger !!! So, I guess I'm stuck with pendant I have, which I'll have to learn to like more. As in learn to like enough to wear without wanting to take off or replace. Cause I gu

Disappearing
Fuabar family..... I am going to be disappearing for the next few months. I have a family outside of fubar that I need to push my energy to more... and work need to be more about addition to detail.. You guys were what got me through 2010 and I will never stay gone long.... I will still stay around on FB and will kind of hit skype every now and again. If you really need to get a hold of me you know how..... Prime

Just Fyi
I'm turning off my bartab. I'm too prone to following people in it, and end up reading things I wish I'd never seen. Whatever shit was perpetuated this week while I was in the hospital, I can only guess, and I really don't want to know. I _do_ know that I don't care to keep friends around who are intentionally cruel to others. I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm sorry if I seem like I don't care what's going on in your lives, but I have too much RL shit to deal with now to have to deal with all of this negative energy. If there's something you'd like me to know, link me to it, or yahoo me, or whatever. If you think I've deleted you because of what's happened recently, think again - it was my WHOLE list, and I've accepted everyone I knew who requested me again. It's not about kicking people out, it's about making sure those that are in want to be there. I probably don't make much sense right now thanks to the narcotics and the cold-turkey withdrawal from my antidepressants. *

Info On My Upcoming Books And Projects
Hi guys, I have created a new fan site on Facebook for my new books and future projects, be sure to visit and "LIKE" the page so you can stay updated. Fan site: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Robert-Harris-Writer-3D-Artist-Childrens-Book-Author/168264799877307 ----- You can also follow me onTwitter! http://twitter.com/#!/DarkLimitArts ------ I will be hosting a contest as of Jan 10th - Jan 17th, where you can name two of the characters that will be featured in my upcoming book "MONSTERS IN MY MILK" and win a free copy if your suggestion is selected. http://www.facebook.com/pages/Robert-Harris-Writer-3D-Artist-Childrens-Book-Author/168264799877307 ----- My Site/Gallery! http://darklimit.deviantart.com/ Thanks for the support. DARKLIMIT ARTS@

What Would You For A 25 Credit Bling Pack?
MUST HAVE A SALUTE TO QUALIFY!!!! I am willing to do a 1 time give away of 1 bling pack up to 25 credits. What would you be willing to do in order to get it? Additional credits can be negotiated in private with the winner for credits up to 65. How bad do you want it?

A Poem
You're the first thing I think ofEach morning when I riseYou're the last thing I think ofWhen I close my eyesYou're in each thought I haveAnd every breath I takeMy feelings are growing strongerWith every move you makeYou're an angel from abovewho takes away my painMy love for you is so strongIt's always just the sameYou're the miracle in my lifeWho can always make me smileJust knowing that you care

My Last Word.
When i stay away from people, its because i don't want a fight. I spent a good portion of my life doing so, and really it solves nothing. when i am done with you i am done with you. Don't assume i speak of you in my status messages or on my page. usually its just song lyrics. really. get over yourself. dot assume i speak of you in real life either...i have a family, i have friends, I read, I have hobbies, and i am presently planning a funeral for my children's grandmother....do not think i give a fuck about anything to do with your life. When i am linked to snide remarks, for months, and i ignore it, i figure, let them talk shit, oh well. but tonight i was already stressed, came here for a giggle with the girls, and immediately get linked to yet more snide remarks. I dont wish bad things on anyone,because i don't want it to come back on me, (karma is the biggest bitch) but there are a couple of people on here that i do not wish well. If you have a problem with me, feel free to send me

Rip Dad 1945-1997
April 1996 my dad went in for a double by-pass that turned into a triple. He came through the surgery with flying colors, amazing even his surgeons from Northwestern. In the fall of 1996, they "ballooned" a blockage in his leg. Truthfully, he wasn't the same after that. Winter of that same year, he told me he was going to be fine. He would walk me down the aisle and dance with me at my wedding. January 11, 1997 at approximately 8:15 am, my mother wakes me up panicked. My dad had half fallen out of bed and couldn't get him up. Approximately 8:20 am, I help her get him up to find him cold, blue with blood around his nose. I run to call 911. Oddly, I'm remotely calm which for some reason I recall finding a bit humorous. Why? I really don't know. I run downstairs and stand in the cold on that bright, sunny Saturday morning waiting for the paramedics to arrive. It seems like they took forever but I know it was only a matter of minutes. You hear sirens everyday and really don't think anythin

I Took A Test, I Think I Failed... (about Me)
Eye Color: Jet Black...with a large dose of Hazel. Hair Color: Brown Height: 6'1" Typical Hair Style: Flat Top or buzzed bald Typical Clothing: Tee Shirt and Jeans or a hoodie and jeans... My Favorite color: Black, Blue, Green... Mode of Transportation: Geo Prizim Lsi Astrological Sign: Stop! Scorpio Taste that makes me melt: sulfuric acid... or a great steak. My Cologne: Sean John Unforgivable, Nautica Sport, Nautica Blue, Antonio Banderas Blue Seduction, Axe Dark Temptation... My Bodywash: Powersport: Gravity A Hobby I Enjoy: Taking Pictures... Want to pose for me? :) A City I Would Like To Visit: New York A Country I Would Like To Visit: Australia & Ireland... Favorite Alcoholic Beverage: Jameson... Jack Daniels... Rum... Miller Lite... Favorite Non Alcoholic Beverage: Sobe No Fear, Sprite, Water A Game I Like To Play: Monopoly... Scrabble... Phase 10... Chess Book I Would Recommend: Anything by Laurell K. Hamilton A Movie I Could Watch Over & Over: Halloween, The

Sometimes I Think;)
Sometimes what we care about the most gets used up or goes away, never to return. Sometimes we never get to say goodbye or I love you! Life is short and precious. Suppose 1 day you never woke up... Do your friends and family know you love them? Let everyone know how you feel even if you don't think they love you back. It's amazing what 3 little words can do. Just in case I am called home, I just wanted you to know... I LOVE YOU!!! Live everyday to the fullest and forgive those who are wrong Because tomorrow is never promised. We got 1 shot in life, Don't let pride or anger ruin your chance of happiness!!! ♥Much Love♥ ~Jodi~

The 20 Greatest Sports Cars Of All Time
As soon as the combustion engine was invented, men started playing with automobiles to see how fast they could make them run. It is in our blood, if you will. Over the past decades, hundreds of sports cars were produced by dozens of car manufacturers around the world. Which are the best sports cars of all time is a question we wanted to tackle head-on. Below you will find a list the top 20 sports cars of all time. Some featured innovative designs, others had incredible power, but one factor unified them all: they were all made to drive pretty darn fast! 20. Audi RS4 (B7 Second Generation) In 2007 the Audi RS4 won the “World Performance Car” award. Among its competitors, we had Porsches, Ferraris and Jaguars. Do we need to add anything else? Design: Based on the A4 B chassis, the RS4 is practically a racing car masked under an executive station wagon frame. Simple yet beautiful. Performance: Powered by a 4.2-litre engine, with 8 cylinders in V formation, it produces an out

Harvest Time.
Sorry babe, your acid tongue doesn't keep me up nights. Those ruby lips are lies in the sunlight. I sunk my teeth in despite the taste. I never felt the need for haste. The heat in my eyes has been replaced, my best intentions now erased. The harvest has passed on and left me to my own devices. And I feel so free. I feel so free.

Fuck It
I suppose just about every five years something different happens .........give or take a year or two. Youngins tend to think everything will stay the same.......just as it is now. Little do they know that 'shit happens",,,.things change. One minute your thinking the man you love will be beside you when you are ninety four in a rocking chair on the porch giving your great grandchildren the 'what for'........ and they hear you...............the next your all goobered up in your head not knowing what the fuck is the right choice to make .............before you die. My love is for sale. Your heart is the price. I AM Cynthia.............

Hate, Forgiveness, And The Nothing
No words linger.There were none.The gleeful laughter that wafted into my doorwaycaused me to wonder,you must delight in this?Of course, what fair judgment can be made?The nepotism of it all seems only outweighed bythe staggering apathy and indifference.So here now is the nothing.Oblivious to regret, the water rises above your eyes.My spirit awaiting that freedomawakening to see there is none here.Vainglorious disregard would not serve to awaken in methe peace that I crave.The mind is sharp and thoughts are focused.The pain of abandonment fades quickly into a deftly realized truth.I am moved.Not to a deity nor to prayer.It would seem you condemned me to solitude.The silence reassures methat indeedthere is nothing.Words seep through the cracks of my disdain.Poetic sympathies meant to ail my waning heart and grant me hopethat tomorrow comes the possibility of a futureworthy of my pursuit.But such things are words, are they not?They are the sounds of ideas but in no way are they the cataly

Why Oh Why.....
Some lil boy at school, slipped a note in my daughters backpack with his telephone number, saying "call me"...................... Part of me wants to track this kid down, and introduce him to my steel toe boots...... But he didn't even have the nerve to leave his name on the note, so i guess i'll give him a break this time. Even my daughter who is 11 said it's pretty sad he was afraid to talk to her and give his number in person....... Besides that, me and my daughter have an agreement in place, She wont start dating or liking boys until i say it's time, and I promise not to hurt any of these lil evil spawn that want to get near my daughter..... I may have to start homeschooling her...........

Rewriting The Dictionary...
When you lose a child it redefines so many words.... the words like agony, bereaved, missing, grief, sadness, void and pain are redefined.... because we have experienced them to a level we never knew was possible before losing our children. It redefines words like important, worthy, love, faith..., respect, cherish and value. Because we know what it is like to lose the best of all of those... it makes it clearer how to focus on the things that should matter ...other children and loved ones. We learn to focus on the good, no matter how small because without that focus the grief and pain we have each endured would over whelm us. We learn to distance ourselves from things and people that cause us pain, because we've had more than our share of of heartache and people and things that add to it are like a poison. We learn that love is the most important of emotions and that anger rots our souls from the inside out. So words like friend, friendship, family, support and relationshi

Honesty!!
Why is it that men tell lies to women because they think this is what they want to hear. Well wake up we want the truth. Honesty is the best policy. Truth hurts but makes a person a better person for not lying. Life sucks but they are so much out there for people who is honest instead of telling people what they think they want to hear, which is for the most part lies. If honesty is something ur not about then move along because I am and do not want to be involved with someone who is not.

I’m Not Strong Enough
I’m not strong enough to stay away, Can't run from you, I just run back to you. Like a moth, I’m drawn into your flame, Say my name, but it's not the same. You look in my eyes, I’m stripped of my pride. And my soul surrenders and you bring my heart to its knees . [chorus] And it's killin’ me when you're away, I wanna leave and I wanna stay. I’m so confused,So hard to choose. Between the pleasure and the pain. And I know it's wrong, and I know it's right. Even if i try to win the fight, my heart would overule my mind. And I’m not strong enough to stay away [chorus] I'm not strong enough to stay away What can I do I would die without you in your presence my heart knows no shame im not to blame cause you bring my heart to its knees [chorus] And it's killin’ me when you're away, I wanna leave and I wanna stay. I’m so confused,So hard to choose. Between the pleasure and the pain And I know it's wrong, and I know it's right. Even if i try to win the fight, my h

[are The Blogs Fixed Yet?]
Check check 1 2. Great. I have to br every linebreak stil. I guess there's just no way around it. I have to blog. So. Now what? uuh. I'm sort of... kind of ... I guess working on my Gouf now. Between that and grinding parts/money on Gundam Senki. Turns out there are high expectations of me now that I've revealed my concept process and how long I've been thinking about this Gouf. I just hope people remember that I've scrap built fuck all. Wait. Have I? ... yeah pretty much fuck-all. 3 Spikes, 1 shield and a fixed hip joint does not make an expert. I'm definitely working at the "expert" level on this one. But I'm fully familiar with the theory required to make it. Today I think I'm going to sand and putty. But I'm a little nervous since every step forward is pretty much a point of no return. I'll probably build and paint (after fitting) the arrays separately. Sanding could permanently fuck up my kit, and my guru didn't post what grit to

2011 Fashionable Cowgirl Clothes
Planning to help your child to put over a girls cowgirl fits and pull away a cowgirl look? Then worry no more! There are a great offer of trendy cowgirl attire along the lines of cowgirl skirt, cowgirl hats and boots in addition to other accessories obtainable in shopping center department stores and on the net stores with range of choices based on design and color that you just as well as your small lady can select from. Consider the strategies that people need to help you to create a decision the ins and outs of a real trendy cowgirl appearance for the toddler. Girls cowgirl outfits could possibly be tricky at times because the cowgirl wardrobe calls for a specific thing boyish appearance but that will not be considered a difficulty especially to individuals that want to grow to be remarkable and girly. Girls cowgirl outfits originated in the western facet of America where ranching and farming are the well-known type of livelihood especially during the earlier times when even ladies

Art
I draw and I write on occassion. I can draw basically anything that I look at. I sit down to draw for the man I love and get my feelings hurt and not even by him. I work hard at what I do when I draw and to most the have me in there life my work is top quality. Today I did a drawing and even though it came from a picture that I was looking at I ended up making it completely my own and noone would be able to say that it is just something that I looked at. Granted when I draw my work has a personality of it's own and it comes to life. Over several hours the drawing grew and became something that for the first time I thought was amazing. I never thought much of my art work hell not even for me writing for that matter. But today this was different. I made something grow before my eyes and was amazed and wouldn't have minded finally posting it and showing it off. However after two pictures of it being taken from the beginning and as it grew someone that is suppose to care decided t

This May Piss People Off But Tough, Someone Has To Say It
I am truly fed up with the way U.S. holiday's are named. I've said it for years and years and I'm in a mood tonight so I'm saying it again. It's fucking ridiculous to name a Civil Rights holiday after ONE when there were so many before AND after that had so much influence with the Civil Rights fight. Names I'm 100% convinced the majority of you never heard of and none of you will even bother to look up. The only reason it's named after Dr. King is because of uneducated NAACP members pushed it without even looking up just how many others were involved. That it's held on Dr. King's birthday is great, but it should NOT be named after him. Civil Rights Day is direct, to the point, and easy to understand it's meaning. It would also lead to being more educated on Civil Rights and those that stood in the forefront of the fight. Dr. King didn't do near as much as George Washington or Abraham Lincoln, yet those two greats must share a holiday called President's Day. What the hell is wrong with

Confession
An elderly man walks into a confessional. The following conversation ensues: Man: 'I am 92 years old, have a wonderful wife of 70 years, many children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren. Yesterday, I picked up two college girls, hitch-hiking. We went to a motel, where I had sex with each of them three times.' Priest: 'Are you sorry for your sins?' Man: 'What sins?' Priest: 'What kind of a Catholic are you?' Man: 'I'm Jewish.' Priest: 'Why are you telling me all this?' Man: 'I'm 92 years old ..... I'm telling everybody!'

From The Mouths Of Babes
Greetings Neighbors: Thank you to those that allowed me to share my feelings for the last few days. It is much appreciated. Now, something a little humorous. My wife called my son the other day to see how well he was doing after the breakup. He has two little girls, age 9 and age 7. Well, he gave them the news about the girlfriend leaving and he said they took it quite well. So, well in fact, that the seven year old asked," So, Dad, you gonna go find a new girlfriend?" We had to laugh. Hope it brought a smile to your day. Peace

My Daughter's First Published Poem
Creative Communica As Happy as Can Be I'm as happy as a puppy when it gets petted,I'm as happy as a fish that has fresh water,I'm as happy as a bear with honey,I'm as happy as a shirt with someone to wear it,I'm as happy as a homeless person getting a gift,I'm as happy as a plant when it gets watered,I'm as happy as a pencil when someone writes with it,I'm as happy as a military person that gets to come home,I'm as happy as a sock when it finds its match,I'm as happy as a baby when it gets to sleep,I'm as happy as a child that gets to play outside,I'm as happy as my teacher when everyone is good,I'm as happy as a shoe with someone to wear it,And I am as happy as a good book with someone to read it. Angelica , Grade 6 tion Poetry Proofsheet – Fall 2010This is a copy of your poem that has been accepted for publication. IMPORTANT In order to be published you will need to give us permission by using our online permission form by February 8, 2011.If a

[mmm Birthday Money]
Well >> I bought groceries.Almost exclusively protein because..fucking BEANS!!!I've already ate a 1/3 of a chicken, and I've only been up since... 5.Okay, sleep schedule's still a bit off but whatever.Also, I spent about $25 at Michaels. ... and I forgot to get more alligator clips.But more importantly-Schwaaaaah~G3 Full armor paint scheme.Lilac, cyan and white (pearly white if I can pull it off).It's just a color swap project, so I'm not terribly involved in any of it. It's not like I swapped straight over to that idea and abandoned my Gouf.... *stares suspiciously at his gouf*That is a big damn project by the way.Fuck.And I still have to buy super duper fine sandpaper...Fuck.Oh- yeah hobby stores don't carry the super duper fine sandpaper.So what all did I pick up at michaels? What I'm hoping is a flat acrylic blackluminescent green and pink (for lenses and stuff, typically this stuff is BRIGHT green or BRIGHT pink but I've also seen it mixed with other colors and it looks pretty goo

Finding Her Master
Robin leaned her body closer to Joe, a heavy sigh coming from her lips as she melted against him. Dropping her suitcase to the floor, Robin stepped back from Joe, shrugging her shoulders back, the coat slid down her arms, falling around her ankles. Robin walked back to Joe's embrace, giving Joe a deep kiss on his lips. Joe ran his hands down Robin's back. His fingertips gliding down her spine, Robin's body trembled at his touch. She wrapped her arms around his neck, kissing him deeper. Joe continued down her back, his palms grasping her ass, pulling her closer. Robin tensed at his touch on her sore ass. Then she moaned deeply as the pain turned into pleasure sending a flood of her juices down her thighs. Robin ground her pussy on Joe's hard bulge in his pants."Ohh, goddd, Joe! What have you done to me? After you left, I felt so desperate for your touch, your voice commanding my body. I could not bear to be alone without you. This weekend has been intense for me. I have never felt this

Play Time For Babygirl
I lay in bed completely naked. Slowly rubbing baby oil all over my body, paying special attention to my tits and my pussy. I begin to pull and tease my nipples, my other hand finds my swollen, tender clit, I feel myself slowly pinching and rubbing my clit. As the fever builds, I stop and tie my tits as tight as I can get them. They change to a deep purple. Next, I clip clothes pins on each nipple as I continue to tease my clit, taking my other hand and fingering my pussy and my ass with two fingers. Sensation building, I slip a third finger in my tight little ass.My fingers find my mouth, gagging myself, imagining it's your hard cock in my throat. While I am gagging, my clit massage gets faster and faster, my desire to cum getting stronger with each passing moment, finally exploding over the edge, I can no longer keep myself from cumming. I spank my clit several times as the pain is replaced with the pleasure of the moment, I slip three fingers into Daddy's cunt. With my other hand, I

Auction/contest
OK peps..I am gonna host another/contest auction! This one is 4 everyone! Some cum all...lmao! I need at least 20 people 2 enter 4 it 2 be a good contest! It will start Wednesday 1-26-11 & end on Sunday 1-30-11! There is no charge 2 enter the auction/contest! I do them 4 fun & 2 help others! Ownership lasts for 1 month! U can accept any bid at any time if u want! Here is what I need from u if u want in: 1. A link 2 a pic of u (SFW) 2. A list of everything u want 2 offer (please no really long lists) Please send info & pic in a private message not in my shout box! Put subject as Auction so I know what it is! If u need help with ideas I will be glad 2 help out! This is how the contest part will go: The contest will be based on rates! If by chance there is a tie it will be based on rates & comments combined! 1st place: Boomy 2nd place: 5 credit bling 3rd place: 3 credit bling So get me ur info asap! Thanks, Christina =)

"the Laws That Forbid The Carrying Of Arms
"The laws that forbid the carrying of arms...disarm only those who are neither inclined nor determined to commit crimes. Can it be supposed that those who have the courage to violate the most sacred laws of humanity...will respect the less important and arbitrary ones... Such laws make things worse for the assaulted and better for the assailants, they serve rather to encourage than to prevent homicides, for an unarmed man may be attacked with greater confidence than an armed man." ~Thomas Jefferson, quoting 18th century criminologist Cesare Beccaria in "On Crimes and Punishment."Let Us Remember Tacticus who warned, "The more corrupt the state, the more it legislates."

Stupid People
YourAchill...: wanna fuck me? cancel Chat 8:07pm more To YourAchill...: wow really??? I think you need to go back and learn some manners from your parents unless thats your thing is talking shit like that and for another I have someone and he doesnt take kindly to the shit you just said so get the hell out of my chat box thank you and have a nice day cancel Chat 8:08pm reply YourAchill...: ok fuck you too cancel Chat 8:08pm reply YourAchill...: bitch

Finding A Fuwife
Okay I have tried to find a fuwife on here by posting in my status and have had no luck and now I am trying this another way. I mean really is it that hard to find one or are people too picky and have to have someone who looks like a barbiedoll? I may not be the best looking female but, I have a huge heart and alot of good inside me to offer to someone I mean ask my friends they all know. So if you are interested then let me know or if you just want to comment this blog.

Just A Biker I Saw You!
JUST A BIKER But, You Didn't See Me I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But, you didn't see me, riding behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves. But, you didn't see me, a

[there Are No Efreets]
Y'know, its sad that some of the most bad assed and unique mobile suits ever produced don't have a corresponding model licensed by Bandai.Sure we've got the Gyan, and the occasional "this or that custom"But where's the Efreet? Forearm gatling guns.Electrified kunai.Calf mounted rocket launchers.Smoke generators. Overall performance boost to the Gouf and Zaku.I mean... yeah it doesn't have the thrust, generator or armor performance of a Gelgoog but...fuckwhat did?Man... what do vegetarians with legume allergies and seliacs eat?> protein. Tofu's soy bean... so...Man.That'd suck.What was I on about?I forgot I took one of those big pills and now I feelright.What else did I have to say?Efreet- Can't sleep.And I'd like to make love to a beautiful woman.Preferably on the quiet and tortured side.

About Me
Hello To Anyone Who Reads: Since the about me and interest sections are so small I thought I would write a blog and therefore I can say anything I want and express myself thoroughly . Hey My name is Amber and I am a Aries. As for now my life is so complex and there is little time for myself much less a special someone or a relationship for I shall remain in Baltimore until 2012 where I reside as a pediatric resident. I work long hours , and so far have filled my grief filled days with a purpose in life to continue breathing. I lost both my mama and my fiancée within such a short period of time that in a way I became a recluse and I truly forgot how to breathe and how to smile, yes me (Smiley) forgot how for awhile. I have never been much for the net, but I started using it and finally I am coming out from under the rock I was under for 16 months and have started living again. I am only sharing this with my friends because I have came so far in my life and went to school al

God Save The Queen
Royal snub for the Obama’s: Prince William and Kate Middleton wedding: President Barack Obama and Michelle are not invited! Michelle is livid over the snub and Obama can’t believe it…What is happening and what can I do about it seems to be the thoughts in Obama’s head. Meanwhile, William and Kate have it together. Prince William and Kate Middleton are planning a royal wedding April, 2011. Prince William personally told the wedding planners to strike the Obama’s from the guest list. He stated, “He did not want Michelle Obama trying to pull her center of attention ploy trying to upstage Kate on Kate’s wedding day”. Sources reveal that William states, “She may run Obama, but she doesn’t run him or England ”. The Democrats and Obama would like to play the race card as they have done so many times in America, but it is difficult when other black heads of states are invited to the wedding and will be warmly received.

Randomness
Just some stuff going around in my head....The State of the Union Address: Why during prime time ? You're fucking up my television schedule. And why so long ? All he really has to say is "Shits fucked up and I'm gonna try and fix it"....people will clap, and I can get back to some fine television viewing. Anteaters and aardvarks. Why is there both ? They're basically the same damn animal. Does the world really need both ? Cleavage. Ladies, if you're going to put it out there, we will look. Just a fact of life. WAR. What is it good for ? Well let me tell ya. It keeps me employed and getting a paycheck. Boredom. I am suffering it from it right now and thats why I'm doing this. I'm not doing it because I think anybody is interested in what I have to say right now. If you are reading this, are you bored too ? Well that's all for now.

Death Again....
The death of my uncle has made an amazing impact...more than I ever imagined. He was adored like my Dad was. My uncle had so many bizarre sayings that entertained the children and obviously the adults as well. There has been a saying going through my head for about 2 weeks now (before his death) that he would say if a food was particularly delicious. We received a message from an old friend that we haven't heard from in many years (my parents best friend), she recited the old saying... I mourn.........

Boo Made Me Do It......
Do you like to cuddle?It's something that I've become addicted to over the years, and if its the middle of the summertime I'll pay for the extra electricity to keep it cold enough for its necessityWho has the ability to hurt you the most emotionally?My daughter, because like me she has the inate ability to shoot from the hip with deadly accuracy at timesDo you cry easily?No, but I've noticed that since 40 its nowhere near as difficult as it once was. Call it manopause *shrugs*Has the last person you kissed ever made you cry?Yes. Ever cried while you were on the phone with that person?No.Are you excited for anything?I live in a village of 300 people......We get excited when someone's raking their leaves next door.How are you feeling right now?Zombiish but improving.What are you doing right now?Wondering why I copied this quiz from Boo - was cute when she did it?What should you be doing right now?Earning what my company pays me to do.......ooopsAre you worried about anything right now?M

Sorry
Ever get the Feeling That is you Do not die In public No one Would even Notice That you Were gone That you try To follow The right path But everything Just turns out Wrong All your Pall bearers Would cop out Citing something Better To do I guess we All Have days Like this When the dark Embraces you It gets hard To find A way Through

9 Words Women Use! :)
NINE WORDS WOMEN USE (1) Fine:This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. (2) Five Minutes:If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. (3) Nothing

To Read When You Hit The Bottom...
the skies so dark with evil and torment,the earth so scorched with rage and fury,the soul....so ravaged by time and despair,when it seems theres no hope,look up, remember the skies,like it once was,look around you and remember,what the earth once looked like,look within yourself,remember wom you were,then gather up courage and hope,to let others see for themselves,that they, are not alone on this,cursed place, help them remember themselves,till everyone remembers...if they do,then whos to say its racked with evil and grief,when all they see is hope and remembrance,of whats past, and work to build the future....

Breaking Up Is Hard To Do...keeping Them Separate Is Harder...
Greetings Neighbors and Fubarians: Some of you may already know this, but , my son is going through a real tough breakup from his girlfriend of four years. As it has been stated, he came home and she told him that she didn't feel attracted to him any more and needed to leave. Now, my wife and I called talked to him last night. He was an emotional wreck grasping for any advice to win her back. Yet, the following is the advice I gave him: 'Son, you need to work on building yourself first. You need to get right for your children and yourself, before trying to be with anybody else' Well, folks..do you think I told him right or was my advice to cold and unfeeling. The Yadlow wants to know..for the sake of my son and the grandchildren... Meanwhile, I wish you all to receive the love you need and deserve. Peace

Some Of My Poetry.
Dreams come true? In my long lonely nights I dream I fill my dreams with fantasies of a love that's true In dreamscape I search for a dream A love that comes to very few Morning comes and apprehensively I wake Forced to face the day, continuing to live Ironically thinking that to live is to hope Hope for a love with as much as I have to give Then feeling as if all hope is gone When my dreams feel like they are unattainable goals Disillusionment visits me with vengeful brilliacne As each lover leaves and devours pieces of my soul Yet I continue forwardPushing open new doors Searching still Wanting more Til I find my dream my one true love With in whoms eye's shall see A bright new furture Where I was always ment to be

Placing The Blame
placing the blameborn carrol sue on may 7 1989 to her parents.she weighted 5 lbs 3 oz and was 2 months premature.she began her life fighting to keep alive.on july 16,2007 she lost her fight to stay alive by her own will.all her life shed been delt the worst hand in the deck.at 3 her father was shot through their front door.it was never solved.after that her mom became an alchhalic and dated anyone for a drink.she witnessed her mother being beaten many times till ne day the beating was so severe she slipped into a coma.she never recovered.carrol sue was 13 when she wnt to a foster home.there she was raped by three of her foster brothers and abused by the parents.at 17 she became pregenant,she married the man who made her pregnenant.he was a 36 year old alchohalic her foster dad had made her date for money.the abuse began immediately,she lost 3 front teeth on her wedding night compliments if her new loving husband and a beer bottle he smahed into her face becouse she refused to have sex

A Work Of Erotic Fiction
Was it real...... Hey there, my name is Amy and I am a freshman at a major university in Durham NC. I am 5'5” 112 lbs. 34c-26-33 and a fiery redhead. I am shy at first but when I get to know you, you better watch out because my bite can be ferocious. Anyway, I had my first sexual encounter when I was 12, with a neighbor boy that was 16. He told me that having sex was awesome, I found it to be boring as hell. I didn't do it again until I was 16 and this time it was better but still I knew it had to be better than what I was getting. I had my share of boyfriends and we had sex but nothing that blew my mind. I've read about how woman would have orgasms and I wanted to have one! I did play once with my female cousin, she is much older than me and it was fun and she did give me my one and only orgasm, from a partner that is. She showed me how to please myself and I have since then, many times. I was to share a dorm room with another girl but at the last minute she

A Thought For Today
THE THOUGHT FOR TODAY IS ABOUT THE LOVE OF A CHILD ..."A CHILD who lives with CRITICISMLearns to CONDEMNA CHILD who lives with HOSTILITYLearns to FIGHTA CHILD who lives with RIDICULELearns to be SHYA CHILD who lives with SHAMELearns to FEEL GUILTYA CHILD who lives with TOLERANCELearns to BE PATIENTA CHILD who lives with ENCOURAGEMENTLearns CONFIDENCEA CHILD who lives with PRAISELearns to APPRECIATEA CHILD who lives with FAIRNESSLearns JUSTICEA CHILD who lives with SECURITYLearns FAITHA CHILD who LIVES WITH APPROVALLearns to LIKE HIMSELFA CHILD who lives with ACCEPTANCE & FRIENDSHIPLearns to FIND LOVE IN THE WORLD."~ Dorothy Law Nolte THE LOVE OF A FAMILY IS LIFE'S GREATEST BLESSING!

[that Smell Shouldn't Be Here]
Welp, its above freezing so I went ahead and primed my gouf's shoulders with an untested enamel spray paint....that stuff went down effortlessly.LikeZAPbond. I don't think I'll ever use the primer I was using beforeEVER again. That was TOO fucking easy.Waiting for it to dry, Course I immediately got tagger's hand and the paint set on my skin almost instantly.Had to get it off with *sniffs* Bluchk. I think there's still some vapor in my clothes or something.Had to get it off with rubbing alc.Waiting for it to dry, I'm told enamel takes a fraction of the time acryllic takes to cure, and its much sturdier.We'll see soon. Granted most of the model grade enamel is about twice as expensive as acryl. ... not that I'm using model grade anything except this primer.What else do I have for you?OhProtomen albums.FuckingRock.Rock Opera.Megaman 2.Believe it.I wonder how long til part three comes out?Anyway, this part of the process is pretty simple. Prime. Sand out uneveness errors or flaws. Repeat

At&t Sux At&t Sux At&t Sux
I Hate At&t. they are f'ing morons. They are billing me for a collect call, and I haven't had the # in 3 years. After more than 10 calls to the less than helpful customer support and many claims that i would no longer have this fraudulent bill, I feel its time to become a pain in the butt. I Do not have any at&t service, and haven"for as long as I can remember, so being billed for a service that has not been provided, is fraud. they are Morons. AT&T sux

Single
Yes I'm single and any guy who wants to change that is going to have to be pretty damn amazing! Single, doesn't mean that you know nothing bout love. Fact, being solo is wiser than being in a wrong relationship.is still very much single!So is now taking applications if you think your suitable for the position apply here the pay is terrible but the benefits r great...

My Thoughts On Gun Control
Carolyn McCarthy introduced legislation that I applaud: if passed into law, it will ban magazines with a capacity of more than 10 rounds. Handguns and hunting rifles, no more than 10-rounds/ea. or less; what more do people need, really? Pointing to a rifle designed to slaughter large numbers of people, or to 30-round magazines for a handgun, claiming "gun" equals "reasonable" does not work for me; nor does its self-hating ignorant opposite on the spectrum "gun" equals "bad." While reading about the McCarthy bill, I came across discussions/debates re: federal legislation to ban anyone with a mental health diagnosis from owning a firearm. Such restrictions are already in place in many states to varying degrees. It occurs to me that a huge number of Americans have been prescribed an anti-depressant. Will we as a country declare that to be an acceptable reason to restrict them of their natural right to defend themselves? The McCarthy bill is good, common-sense legislation, b

Check This Out.... Just Amazing
Check out my friends, Eklips & Kjer - they are just fucking amazing! Eklips.... Eklips' facebook page.... http://www.facebook.com/pages/Eklips/125837660817824 Kjer..... Kjer's facebook fan page.... http://www.facebook.com/pages/KJER-Fan-Page/168311566548591 Say Michele sent you. :) Hard 2 Handle@ fubar

The Thousand Year Snake (concluded?)
The trail was either cold or never there.No flattened grass, no slick trampled mud.Why couldn't it ever be a thousand years in the desert on a day with no wind, downwind and downhill?He felt the earth, tasted it, pleaded with it, threatened it a few times, but to no avail. The mountain was on the snake's side.All he could do was calculate the trajectory and make an educated guess based on the creature's size and destination. The fact that there was no trace meant that he was aware of Alorid's presence... but why be so cautious and leave the skin in plain sight?Almost as if the damn thing was taunting him. Waving a sign of his failure in front of him of his nose.It was almost as if the snake was laughing at him.Or was it the mountain?Snakes are rumored to be pleasureless, unfeeling murderous things.Perhaps that's why it wanted to become a dragon.They at least have two emotions Alorid had seen, a smug sense of pride and anger.In the language of dragons, snake meant cold brother. If this

Savior-rise Against
Lyrics to Savior : It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten what the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got them as the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten there is no reconciliation that will put me in my place and there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds but seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear so tell me now if this ain't love then how do we get out? because I don't know that's when she said I don't hate you boy I just want to save you while there's still something left to save that's when I told her I love you girl but I'm not the answer to the questions that you still have but the day pressed on like crushing weights for no man does it ever wait like memories of dying days that deafen us like hurricanes bathed in flames we held the brand uncurl

My Personal Life Story
encase of someone of are asking why i re posted this it was because i change a few things and really took the time to really re do everything that has happen to me in my past to let it go also giving you a little insight to me as a person. let me start this out by saying iam not looking for someone to pity me or feel sorry for me i don't need my ego stroke come to think of it i don't got one but anyways. iam use to rejection after all my mother rejected me and i feel my father did too and the worst thing is i don't no way nor do i care any more my father grew up with his dad but his dad never show him affection and me and him act way to much a like if you put us together in a room alone we would more then likely kill one another in fact i took my sword to him once before and mind you the man is 6ft6 iam not really sure on how much he weights tho and he is buff just go to show you i don't back down from no one. as for my mother like i said she r

Thoughts
There has been one that has past. Though I never new him, he is still a person and should be lifted and cared about. His family and friends will morn his passing. At some point during the process they will come to terms. Those that new him from here mainly let your grief happen. Everyone deals in different ways and no ones is better or worse than someone elses. You were born of this earth and will die. That is a harsh fact of life. though you don't know when, how, or why. But know that you have touched people. Living a life the way you choose to live it. Hopefully to it's fullest, taking not one day for granted. Being sad is a part of life. But remembering and allowing that memory to live is a path to happiness. Looking back on conversations and letting it out. Yes, it happened and you can't change things. What you can do is remember, and keep him alive in your thoughts, in your heart, and in your words. Allow not a harsh word to be spoken, nor a negative thought pa

Unintentional Cold Showers
You turn on the water and put your hand in - hoping to god it's not freezing. It's -33 outside with the windchill and the water heat in your apartment though set on 95 is keeping your apartment a cool 70ish degrees on the warm side. You shiver but the water feels slightly warm. Despite your best effort to take a quick shower while the watter is still hot the shower makes that sound - will it be burning hot or will it freeze you to death? You're lucky it makes the sound or you'd be screwed for sure. You are lucky it stays warm not too hot yet. You look at the window above the shower and there is ice holding it shut - not condensation ICE...Awesome you think...the seals in the windows are awesome. You think back to when someone else in the building mentioned that the boiler is the same one it has been since the building was built in the 1970s - how about an update people...that sound again...the water gets cold suddenly you're freezing finish getting the soap off your body and the shampo

Being Passionate About Your Lover
"A touch of skin soft and slippery, with the hint of sweat. We fought our resistance beneath the cool sheets, as the wind flowed from the window above us. Eyes met briefly and begged for the chance, to abandon all of our uncertainties. You began your work on my lips, probing gently as if drawing sex, from a deep well of longing and need. Then heated tongues met in the midst, of hot and quickening breath. And greedily we drank the wine of our lusts. Then intoxicated with those spirits, our clothes found resting place on the floor. Piece by piece,Until there were no hiding places, for the two glistening and wanting bodies. Hunger revealed in this hot moment. Then skin meshed with skin, as the floor became the stage. You moved atop of me easily, and lowered yourself gently. Kissing me as I was filled with you. As a gasp broke the kiss, your hands stroked the stray strands, away from my forehead, then became entangled. Our slow rhythm gave way,to urgent and demanding thrusts

Not As Good As The Rest?
Have you really even seen the tears I've cried? The pain and anquish they carry from inside... What they mean, and where from they came... Your hands, your mind, your actions. your heart that is where they got their start. And it's never because you care so much you need to come clean and be forgiven it's more because I have to find it all myself, the lies. cheating and deciept you thought you've hidden Was it because I wasn't enough? Didn't do enough? Was I not enough like them? Not enough not like me? So now I sit.. and everything has it's own bittersweet feeling... everything around has it's happy and sad about it.. because everything around me is everything to do with you.

Racism And Other Ridiculous Assumptions
I was trying to go to sleep. As is a common happening for me, I found myself mad at the things I see no good sense in. I had to get up and do something about it and this is the first place I came to. When we see a person we evaluate any number of things about them in a fraction of a second. We are social animals by nature and depend on each other so it is important that we get in touch with someone before we even speak. We read their facial expression, their body language and their overall frame of mind the best that we can. As a young child I remember being confused and hurt when I realized that a great number of people see skin color before they even see a person's face or body language. I had never assumed that made any difference as I had much more important things to worry about, I suppose. I thought to myself, "How do people drop judgement on me for, not only something that I can't help, but something about myself that has nothing to do with how I feel or who I am, the spirit in

[victory For Ick!]
Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you? A girl I know. I loled. Did you sleep alone last night? Nope. Mah doggeh keep me warm. Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous? A bit yeah. ... :D Would you ever eat a bug for 1,000 dollars? Depends on the bug. Actually I heard tarantulae taste like crab. Also, in some countries, in some seasons- bugs are your effing protein. Do you like when people play with your hair? NO! LEAVE IT THE FUCK ALONE! Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? Nope. Trying to stay on a schedule. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? Don't care as long as it doesn't lead to massive slips in judgement. Best summer of your life? I dunno, but I bet me and Brandon were running amock in my blazer or I was falling off the hood of his truck. Do you find piercings attractive? Not really. Especially after certain reprehensible people were expelled from my life. Have you ever kiss

Judging People...
Years and years ago I remember hearing the story of Job. He lost his children, his livestock, his health, etc but continued to have faith in God. I never could understand that his wife would curse God after it and wanted Job to do it too. I always judged her, thinking that she was unequally yolked with Job. That she certainly must not have the same faith in God that he did. I was so very unfair to this poor woman. You see, in biblical times cursing God was like asking to die. People thought if they cursed Him he would kill them on the spot. I so understand why she did it now that I have lost my daughter but before I judged her terribly. I figure someday in heaven I will get to apologize to this woman and ask for forgiveness because I was stupid and judgemental. What people don't realize though is how easily stupid we all are and how overly judgemental everyone is. Until you have walked a mile in my moccasins or anyone else's how can we possible know anything? U

I Want To Know What Everyone Thinks Of Me.
Do you think that FuMisfitAngel have a nice body? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel would do anything to succeed? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is a good friend? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel needs to lose weight? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel has ever lied to you? Is FuMisfitAngel fun to be around? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is a gold digger? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is a freak? Would you make-out with FuMisfitAngel for $10,000? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is materialistic? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is a smart ass? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel puts 'hoes' before 'bros'? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel dresses well? Would you trust FuMisfitAngel with your life? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel is cute? do you think that FuMisfitAngel is religious? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel had a bad haircut? Do you think that FuMisfitAngel could be a gangster? Is FuMisfitAngel a reliable person? If you were being chased by a bear, would you trip FuMi

Another Night I Must Overcome
As I sit here, the fog of Richmond surrounds my head. I sit and as many before me, i ply my trade putting thought to page, naked to all save my fig leaf. I am no different than those who have already reached plutonian shores. I gaze at the stars and ponder their meaning. There is no tale of daring, no plight of a hero. No forlorn maiden awaits rescue, no telling of the rains or of great victories. No they are just stars, and i am merely mortal, as those before me. Their fixed plains guide me through the darkness as the mariners of old. The musty air is parted by the tinge of brandy. I as many others are lost found and spared and slaughtered under those stars. The light of distant suns my only companion in the chill night air. I retreat to my antechamber, for i am only human myself and the piercing hand of death is too much to bear. It is for that purpose i sit here, for the night is long and the abyss wide between us. So brilliantly they do burn however. When pushed against their count

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Genetic Slop Bucket
Anyone who knows me at all knows that my health sucks. I could give you another long list of all the crap they've found but at this point it's just another pill. I just try to keep smiling, and buy bigger bras of course :) HOWEVER In the last month alone both of my sons have started being diagnosed with health problems. It seems every time we see a doctor I hear the words "You know this is genetic right?" Now I'm aware that it's ridiculous to feel guilty for passing this crap on to them, but it does get so hard some days to keep that smile on my face. Like really they are six and thirteen why are they paying for losing in the genetic lottery already? I was nearly 30!

All I Did Wsa Buzz Kill Her
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My Blogs Naming
Read your sign, then repost this in a new blog with your zodiac sign and label. CAPRICORN-BY FAR THE BEST IN BED! loves being in long relationships, great talker, always love to bust, nec, sassy, intelligent, sexy, predict future, irresistible, awesome kisser, gets what he or she wants, by far the best in bed, very sexy, coolest, loves to own geminis in sports, extremely fun, loves to joke, loves to be your first, so you'll never forget, smart. LEO- WILD IN BED! Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at alot. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Loyal. Addictive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Great when found! TAURUS- THE FREAK IN BED! Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as... u...no...Loves to help people in times of need. Outs