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Dreams
Dreams when the sun goes down on a misty eve i feel alone but yet i am not alone i feel the spirits of those who have passed on i hear them call to me,but i am not afraid cause they help calm my mind when the veil of darkness surrounds me and i travel to places that only i can go in my mind when the sun rises in the morning hours i am back to reality i am again just another person in a world of people but in my dreams,im more im anything that i wish to be and go where i want but is life really life or are our dreams the reality of life that we dont wish to face and we just dream of living

Happy Ever After
Happy ever AfterBy Madison RoseDarkest hour;cutting deep wounds...into thy own flesh;with the sharp knife of truth~Painting a bleak portrait...of thy dismantled self;scattered, dispersed,throughout eternity~Chased by the soul collector;imprisoned by thy own mind...in my lost time;on my disappointments I dine~Losing oneself...in the vortex of dreams;deeper into the fog,of illusion~~ Castles and kings...happy ever after;fate and destiny...frogs turning into princes; and sitting down to tea...in wonderland~

My Daily Grind
Since I have retarted doctors who cannot seem to diagnose why I have pain 24/7. I have to pick and chose my battles everyday like sitting here now I will pay for it tomorrow but I try to get online as much as I can.

The Scuba Diver (medium)
There is a forrest fire. As the firefighters are batteling this blaze they come across an untouched patch of forrest. All around is burnt. In the center of this patch is a man dressed in full scuba gear. No tire tracks anywhere around. There isn't a body of water for 500 miles. How did he get there? How did he die? P.S. This one actually happened in oregon. The police were baffeled for 6 months. A 7 year old girl solved this with one question!

Love
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think: "When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca - age 8 When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4 "Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5 "Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6 "Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4 Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Da

What Is Love
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think: "When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca - age 8 When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4 "Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5 "Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6 "Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4 Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny

I Sold My Soul For A Photograph
I Sold My Soul For A Photograph I sold my soul for a photograph, No regrets, I never looked back, Obeyed the rules, never broke the pact, I sold my soul for a photograph, I would have sat upon the sun, I would have swallowed a bullet from a gun, I would have given up my heart & lungs, Just to see the photograph again, I sold my soul for a photograph, No regrets, I never looked back, Obeyed the rules, never broke the pact, I sold my soul for a photograph, I'd swim into the jaws of death, I'd get a knife stabbed into my chest, I'd swallow nails just for a laugh, If you think I'm crazy, You don't know how far I'd go, I sold my soul for a photograph, No regrets, I never looked back, Obeyed the rules, never broke the pact, I sold my soul for a photograph, Of you; Just to see your smile again..

No Title
what have you done to me?a black cloud of blood as feelings creep.once we shared heaven,hand in hand and glad-hearted,but your heart soured.a painful vision of lies -tears follow hate, follow memory,love taken away.in a storm of hatred,i reject you.

What Have I Done?
"What I've Done" In this farewell There’s no blood There’s no alibi ‘Cause I’ve drawn regret From the truth Of a thousand lies So let mercy come And wash away What I’ve done I'll face myself To cross out what i’ve become Erase myself And let go of what i’ve done Put to rest What you thought of me While I clean this slate With the hands of uncertainty For what I’ve done I start again And whatever pain may come Today this ends I’m forgiving what I’ve done!!! What I’ve done Forgiving what I’ve done

Random2
my daughter was born in september of 2000...in august of 2001 my gf gave birth to a son ethan scott. when he was 8 months old he was killed by a drunk drivedr in a car accident...my parents did not know about ethan because of the bullshit i was going through with aly at the time...macy and ethan were coming to the beach so that my parents could meet him for the first time...i never to this day have told them the truth. macy blamed me for his death because before she left she had called me to tell me they were heading down and wanted to get ahead of weekend traffic...i told her to talk to me a lil longer because i was just about off work and so we talked a lil longer then she said she had to go and that she would call me on the road. she said if i had let her go then ethan would still be alive and threatened to call the police if i spoke to her again...she had him cremated and took his ashes somewhere to the midwest with her. to this day i cannot cry over anything sad....i h

Metaphore.. ((black Diamond))
…it’s seen rear by the naked eye.. yet, its sheer beauty holds no disguise.. workers dig for its hidden values without knowledge of what they seek.. wealth.., greed.., riches.., breed deceit.. dismantled from self knowledge they steady their dig.. this diamond holds aged beauties at eyes view, its true.. an old age seasoned, discovered for all.. meaning me and you.. dark not clear as a windowpane but.., sparkles reflecting light from its darkness.. what revelation could deny.. many have died for seeking, without return.. less their greed.. I am what those workers seek, I am of thee creations truth which is lead by the words of natures creation.. sought vengefully, plotted upon from rage full currencies.. the rays shine endlessly, black diamonds focal stands.. threw out hymns of enemies hands…

Does She Know
There's not as much blood as I thought there would be. Still, it is bright red. Does she care? Will she even know? Someone will have to clean this up, but, it's not too bad. Still, there should be more. It's hard to think straight, with all this redness on the floor there's some on the door. Will she even know. It was just a small sting, no pain, it was quick. Then the redness came. How could she know, if I don't tell her it's here? I think I miss her even more now. Does she even care? I need to get up. Everything has slowed down. I must clean this up. I'll just wrap a bandage aroung the wrists. She'll never know. And by the time she finds out, they'll be healed.

There After
FAREWELL...BUTYOU WILL BE WITH ME..YOU WILL GO WITHIN A DROP OF BLOOD CIRCULATING IN MY VEINS OR OUTSIDE..A KISS THAT BURNS MY FACE OR A BELT OF FIRE AT MY WAIST... MY SWEET.. ACCEPT THE GREAT LOVE THAT CAME OUT OF MY LIFE AND THAT IN YOU FOUND NO TERRITORY LIKE THE EXPLORER LOST IN THE ISLES OF TIME PASSED...I FOUND YOU AFTER THE STORM..THE RAIN WASHED THE AIR AND IN THE WATER YOUR FEET GLEAMED LIKE JEWELS... ADORED ONE.. I AM OFF..OF TO MY FIGHTING...I SHALL SCRATCH THE EARTH TO MAKE YOU A CASTLE AND THERE YOUR KING WILL WAIT FOR YOU WITH ROSE PEDDLED BEDS.. WITH PASSION SCENTED CANDLES.. I AM HE... THINK NO MORE..MY SWEET..ABOUT THE ANGUISH THAT WENT ON BETWEEN US LIKE A BOLT OF PHOSPHOROUS LEAVING US PERHAPS ITS BURNING...PEACE ARRIVED TOO BECAUSE I RETURN TO MY LAND TO FIGHT..AND AS I HAVE A WHOLE HEART WITH THE SHARE OF BLOOD THAT YOU GAVE ME FOREVER..AND AS I HAVE MY HANDS FILLED WITH YOUR NAKED BEING..

Daily Dumbass 1
hi please pimp slap this dumb motherfucker...hes an idiot...a good friend but an idiot...i cant say why but while u are at it go give him love...but only AFTER you call him a dumbass $safe_uid_dname@ fubar

Lightning Strikes Redux
I was feeling so much hyper energy after everything that went on last night at my apartment, so i decided to go for a midnight ride through downtown Dallas..the sights and sounds of the nightlife were very intoxicating..but I couldnt help but have my mind on something..or rather, someone...she always is,

Today Is A Day,
So over the past week I have gone from thinking my daughter is leaving and may never return(still possible) and my mother having a heart-attack.Moms has since checked out of the hospital with a clean bill of hearthealth.Turns out a pinched nerve can make scholars of over 8 years think someone is having a heart-attack.Dont get me wrong,they know more than I and I am THANKFUL for their help,but come on.This isnt "House".I dont want a fucking dramatic series of events.I want my mother to come home ALIVE and WELL.I have only been in the mechanics field for a year and can diagnose(sp?) a problem better than that.8 FUCKING YEARS it takes to be a doctor.Come on wake up people.Healthcare isnt free for her and they are not gonna foot the bill for that shit.But she is good and I am happy.I would have really lost it if she hadnt been ok.I am a MOMMAS BOY! I love her.She is my rock.She has ALWAYS made sure I was doing good,even if it affected her situation.That is what mothers do.Which is one reas

Jogged 4 Miles In The Heat
Just got back from jogging 4 miles in the heat(96 degrees). It was tough, but feels rewardig now. I smashed my bluetooth keybaord up before i left and needed to relieve some stress anyway.Time to pig out on Oreos and chocolate milk! lol.

Your Essence
Slipping your shirt downonto my skinI inhale your scentand close my eyesI feel you,the softness of the fabriccaressing my bare skin,so sensual.Your scent meshing with minelingering around meenveloping me in a hug that lasts all day.Wrapped in your essencewhen I can't be in your arms. Poem By Tammy C.

New State Slogans
Alabama: Yes, We Have Electricity Alaska: 11,623 Eskimos Can't Be Wrong! Arizona: But It's A Dry Heat Arkansas: Literacy Ain't Everything California: By 30, Our Women Have More Plastic Than Your Honda Colorado: If You Don't Ski, Don't Bother Connecticut: Like Massachusetts, Only The Kennedy's Don't Own It Yet Delaware: We Really Do Like The Chemicals In Our Water Florida: Ask Us About Our Grandkids Georgia: We Put The "Fun" In Fundamentalist Extremism Hawaii: Haka Tiki Mou Sha'ami Leeki Toru (Death To Mainland Scum, But Leave Your Money) Idaho: More Than Just Potatoes ... Well Okay, We're Not, But The Potatoes Sure Are Real Good Illinois: Please Don't Pronounce the "S" Indiana: 2 Billion Years Tidal Wave Free Iowa: We Do Amazing Things With Corn Kansas: First Of The Rectangle States Kentucky: Five Million People; F

Sunday July 12 2009
i am going to start putting my thoughts down...i always wanted to do this but for sum reason never have..so tonight will be the start of this.. okay where to start...love spenden time here on fubar doing all that there is to do...but my favorit thing to do is meet new people...i have meet alot of fu friends on here and spend countless hours talken to them...but for sum reason they come and go like the wind...which i really do hate but that is life... i have spend a very lonely life in this world..i keep my thoughts to myself keepen it bottled up inside me to eat away at my soul and heart...why i do this...so i dont get hurt anymore...i have let many people in and i always get hurt...it is like a block wall i have put up...12 feet high and on 4 sides of me..someday it will come down..till then i will be safe and not have worry about it...

Why Me?
LOST IN MY MIND CAN’T FIND EVEN THE TIME NOT SURE WHICH WAY TO TURN ALMOST GOING INSANE JUST NEEDING ONE LITTLE BREAK DON’T KNOW WHICH ROAD TO TAKE LOST IN THIS TRANCE OF A CONFUSED STATE TUGGED FROM BOTH ENDS LOST IN SIN NOT SURE WHAT LOVE IS CAN NEVER KNOW HOW THIS ALL BEGAN BEGGING FOR A WAY OUT NO LIGHT TO SHOW ANY SIGN JUST LOST IN MY OWN CHAOTIC MIND FINDING NO WAY OUT DANGLING BY ONE LIFE LINE NOT SURE WHAT DESTINY WILL FIND THINK I AM LOSING MY MIND FINDING IT HARD TO BREAK OUT OF THIS SPIRAL OF UNKNOWN KNOWLEDGE HAS FOUND WONDERING WHO IS THE FOOL NOT SURE IF IT IS ME SEEING EVERYTHING WITH CLOSED EYES NOT EVEN SEEING MY SELF PLEASED IN TOUCHED WITH LOW SELF-ESTEEM RUNNING YET NEVER GOING FAR WONDERING THIS LONELY HIGHWAY JUST WANTING TO SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY THINGS CHANGING EVER SO FAST NOT EVEN A PLEASANT MOMENT CAN LAST SEEING MY DREAMS BECOME A REALITY YET SCARING THE HOLY SHIT OUT OF ME LOST IN MY OWN TRAIN OF THOUGHT WONDERING

Heartache Continues
It was a line of people so sad and lost, they might have been refugees from a war, or a natural disaster. More than 1,000 came to Eisenhower High School on Sunday seeking information about loved ones buried at Burr Oak Cemetery -- or so they thought. Stephanie Jackson (left), whose daughter Charrhonda Tisdale Ford, was buried at Burr Oak, said, "I can't go in there and find her. That's my only daughter. My only daughter." A grave-selling scandal at the Alsip cemetery has layered new misery on old grief. Stephanie Jackson was near the graveyard Sunday with a poster that asked: "Where is babyland?" -- the children's section of the cemetery. Her daughter, Charrhonda Tisdale Ford, 4, was buried in the section after a 2001 accident. Sheriff Tom Dart has said Babyland's headstones are gone. "I can't go in there and find her. That's my only daughter," said Jackson, 36, of Posen. "My only daughter." She visited the grave in May and it looked intact. But looking back, "her

Recap
in an earlier blog i mentioned that i was trying to decide whether to start over when i hit GF or just take a break...i have decided to take a break after the 31st whether i level or not i just feel like its time

This Is Madness!!!!!
I'm back with another rant today-- Whiners, Bitches, and Drama. I have a pic in my collection that explains how I feel about drama-- simply put, STOP THE DRAMA. Yet, everywhere I look around me on fu, I see it-- someone is saying this about someone else, then turns around and tells THAT person whom the stabs were intended for something else entirely!!! GROW UP FUCKERS!!!! THIS ISNT ELEMENTARY SCHOOL! (well maybe to 85 percent of all fu-barians this place IS elementary school where people can explore their second childhood) My job has plenty of drama-- chases, lies impending death, the whole nine fucking yards. but in all honesty, the drama here makes me laugh, because I see how pathetically in need of attention some people are. Everywhere I look I see an attention whore or someone flashin their chitty titty bang bangs on a blast..but yet MY nearest and dearest gets her pics marked NSFW and she doesnt even NEARLY show as much... WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?!?!?!

Yeah Yeah....
Very Short Story Man driving down road. Woman driving up same road. They pass each other. The woman yells out the window, PIG! Man yells out window, BITCH! Man rounds next curve. Man crashes into a HUGE PIG in middle of road and dies. Thought For the Day: If men would just listen

Nother One!!!
Im in another Auction..FFS im gettin Addicted i think LMFAO! Heres the page!! Go bid ppl!!!Its over next Monday same time!! http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=1677524&albumid=1762120&i=2556015506&idx=9 xoxo

Stalkers On Fubar
OK I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THESE FUCKING DOUCHEBAG STALKERS ON FUBAR I HAVE A FEMALE STAFF MEMBER IN MY LOUNGE THAT IS SERIOUSLY THINKING ABOUT DELETING HER ACCOUNT BECAUSE OF THESE ASSHOLES. FUBAR CAN'T OR WON'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT THESE PECKERWOODS SO I AM WRITING THIS TO WARN AND TO ASK IF ANY OTHER LADIES OUT THERE ARE HAVING THE SAME PROBLEM??

Tomm Is A Big Day
Most of you know im going through extended divorce court and custody proceedings over the last 5 years. Welp the hasbeen is still pulling his crap. Tomorrow is a mediation day....I feel it will turn out well, but as always I'm so worried and scared, i want to thank you all for your thoughts and prayers, and i will let you know what the outcome as soon as i can. I beleive in the power of prayer and thank you all so much for yours.

Look Around
i look around and all i see is saddness. i look around and all i see is heartach. i look around and all i see is tears. what is wrong? what does this worthless life have to offer? there is nothing. everything is gone. there is no joy, no warmth, there is no love. this life is dark and cold. sorrow is the only thing. i look around and i see nothing but darkness.

How To Perform The Perfect Blowjob!!!
I think that most guys are easy to please when it comes to sucking their cock. Sure, you might find yourself the occasional connoisseur, but generally if you go for quantity over quality you can't go wrong. But, if you want to blow his mind when you blow his cock, here's some tips. I've got most of my information from asking other people, both guys and girls, and I've included stuff I've learned in my experience as a cock-sucking slut! First of all, the general opinion seems to be that unless there's a pressing reason (like you're sucking off total strangers on a crowded train) it's preferable if you're naked. Particularly if you've got nice tits (and let's face it, boys are less fussy about the tits they can get in their bedroom than they are about the ones in porn), topless is almost a minimum requirement. There are a couple of advantages to being naked when you're giving a blowjob. Firstly, it's easier to clean up -- just rub anything that lands on you into your skin. Sure, you'll n

Understanding Men Is All About Punctuation, Terseness And Pausing. Fucktard.
In five months of living with men here is what I have learned, as explained to me tonight by the brilliant and ever wise DDM:Men do not hear negatives. We (women) bitch at them so frequently that they are psychologically and possibly even biologically conditioned to tune out the negative. So if we were to say, for instance, "Thomas, I do not like roses. I want daisies," he would hear "blah blah roses blah blah want blah," therefore leading to the trauma of earlier this Autumn. Indeed, I have been under the mistaken impression that my communication style was clear and easily understood when in fact it is not. And it has been further explained to me that in communicating with the male of the species Pauses are an important tool. DDM explains further that if communication could be a combination of James Kirk's ... .. paused... .. speech could be combined with... .. terseness, short... .. words that... .. are spaced... .. so... .. that there were... .. enough... .. pauses for the men to...

I Am Seeking A Fu-wife
I AM INTERESTED IN SEEKING A FU-WIFE DONT GET IT TWISTED YES I DO HAVE A FU-HUSBAND BUT I AM INTERESTED IN A SEXXI WOMAN 2 QUENCH MY THIRST IF THAT IS U PLEASE BID FOR ME IN MY PHOTO SECTION 07-13-09 TILL 07-20-09 BID STARTS AT 1 MILLION.....THIRSTY4TAE

I'm Not Going Anywhere, I'm Just Taking A Break........
Well from my status you can see that I’m taking a much deserved “Fu-vacation”. No I’m not going all “emo” and deleting my account, I just want to take a break for a while. This October I’ll have been here for 3 years, that’s 3 years of logging in EVERY DAY. It gets a bit old. I’ve made a lot of good friends here. This place was a lot different when I joined; I’m not saying that it’s not good now it’s just different. There is way too much begging, whoring, and drama; this is the fucking internet people. It’s sick that women basically sell their bodies for blasts, blings, and happy hours. Come on ladies, you can’t use those in real life. Get a fucking clue. And some of the guys, I mean who really fucking starts a conversation in real life by saying “nice tits”, or “damn I wanna fuck you”. Holy Shit guys!!! And WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH ALL THE CHEATING!!!! I'll say it agai

Come Bid On Me
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Random Crap
Instructions......Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I drool in my sleep and when I am awake 2. I like getting new stickers for my fookin helmet 3. I have OCD like my friend Jenn (mines way better) 4.I have to have a half of a vicodin with my coffee in the morning 5. I like to sing to my computer 6. I like to gossip about people I dislike 7. I hate blogs and blogging and people that make me do blogs for their cheap ass entertainment value :) 8. Clean Sheet day is my favorite day! 9. My memory sucks ass! I have OCD like my friend Jenn (mines way better) Ok I am tagging these people Shababs Dragons4you~ Bigbuck632 Sparklyballs MzCaBIB

Was It A Fantasy?
She sat naked on the beds edge. Her head was hung and her curly red hair hung over her right shoulder. She was saddened at the fact her Lord had gone to town without her. This was a rare occasion because He was not one to go places unless absolutely necessary and never had He gone without her. An hour had passed since he left the manor and she was starting to worry. "Where could He have gone?" she was asking herself. She wanted so desperately to know his ware bouts; however, she had no way of getting a hold of him. She raised her head and gazed upon the candle she had lit just a bit ago. It was sitting on her beautifully crafted wooden vanity that her Lord made special for her. She stood and slowly walked toward it. She placed her hand on the back of the chair and pulled it from beneath the vanity. As she walked around the chair to sit her eyes caught a glimpse in the mirror. For a second she had thought she had seen her Lord standing behind her. She turned her head quickly

Chck Me Out In Kings Auction!!!!!!!!
Ok gang only a few days left to place your bid on me for The King's Auction!!! get all my atention, love and some special perks!!! G check it out before its too late..... CLICK ON THE PICTURE BELOW TO BID ON ME IN THE KING'S AUCTION!!!!!

Little Things
I have come to find that the littlest things matter the most to me.The times someone remembers my favorite flower,kisses from my children,someone that can make me blush. A friend that listens and doesn't judge me,tells me that I will be okay. A cup of coffee in the morning with someone special. To sit and listen to music with someone clear across the country and not really talking.A compliment,which I don't take well.I still say thank you for them though.Friends that see me just for me.Seeing my pain,my flaws and the beauty in me that I don't see.I can be difficult,stubborn and five million other things and they are still my friends.My children make my life worth living.My friends keep me sane.Some people see me one way,but my friends and those who matter most know the real me.I am loving,caring,forgiving and not the bitch some would like to think I am.I love my friends.I love my children a thousand times more.They forgive me for things I have done and not done. I am not perfect.I am p

Embarrassing Medical Moments
EMBARRASSING MEDICAL MOMENTS: 1. A man comes into the ER and yells: "My wife's going to have her baby in the cab! " I grabbed my stuff, rushed out to the cab, lifted the lady's dress, and began to take off her underwear. Suddenly, I noticed that there were several cabs -- and I was in the wrong one. Submitted by Dr. Mark MacDonald, San Antonio , TX 2. At the beginning of my shift, I placed a stethoscope on an elderly and slightly deaf female patient's anterior chest wall. "Big breaths", I instructed. "Yes, they used to be" replied the patient. Submitted by Dr. Richard Byrnes, Seattle , WA .. 3. One day I had to be the bearer of bad news when I told a wife that her husband had died of a massive myocardial infarct. Not more than five minutes later, I heard her reporting to the rest of the family that he had died of a, 'massive internal fart.' Submitted by Dr. Susan Steinberg 4. During a patient's two week follow-up appointment with his cardiologist, he inf

Happiness Has Nothing To Do With Pleasure
happiness has nothing to do with pleasure. You feel pleasure when you want something and you get it. Or when you don't want something and you remove it. Pleasure is always relative. Happiness is absolute. Happiness is the understanding and acceptance of life as it is in this very moment as completely perfect, because every creation of God is perfect. The degree to which you do not accept life in all of the Divine forms is the degree to which you suffer.

So Much On The Brain..originally Written 7/16/08
I have so much on my brain right now that I'm feeling the strain, and a little bit of pain, trying to sort thru a few things before I start crying out like tumultuous rain. Trying to seek out what's in store I know I need more but don't want to feel like I'm trying to keep score but tired of feeling like I'm missing out on so much more As the years have went by I appear to have been doing fine, but find myself wanting to whine because it seems like I'm running out of time Never really wanting to stress to much sometimes people get tired of you, because you might appear you're complaining to much Now that I'm getting older I've been looking back and seeing how many things had gotten outta order Took control of my life because I was tired of the trife from folks who claim they got you but when it came down to it forgot all about me So much on the brain to the point that I may have to refrain some of the many thoughts before folks start to wonder..."has she gone insane?" Not trying

Quickly
i need an answer Successful managers should pay the least attention to: Selecting the right staff. Thoroughly training all staff. Setting clear goals and work standards. Rewarding effective performance. Weeding out poor performers.

An Update
I just though I would update everyone on what is going on in my life at the moment. I find it slightly funny that I feel the need to blog amout such mundane things, but as I know that people will ask, here it is. I've been in the hospital for the past couple of days and as it turns out those really bad stomach/side pains I was having last week were being caused by a kidney infection. But now I'm back home and tired as hell, so I'm going to crash out. ~V. V.~

Grandma Humor
Grandma is eighty-eight years old and still drives her own car. She writes: Dear Grand-daughter, The other day I went up to our local Christian book store and saw a 'Honk if you love Jesus' bumper sticker .. I was feeling particularly sassy that day because I had just come from a thrilling choir performance, followed by a thunderous prayer meeting. So, I bought the sticker and put it on my bumper. Boy, am I glad I did; what an uplifting experience that followed. I was stopped at a red light at a busy intersection, just lost in thought about the Lord and how good he is, and I didn't notice that the light had changed. It is a good thing someone else loves Jesus because if he hadn't honked, I'd never have noticed. I found that lots of people love Jesus! While I was sitting there, the guy behind started honking like crazy, and then he leaned out of his window and screamed, 'For the love of God!' 'Go! Go! Go! Jesus Christ, GO!' What an exube

Okok It's Time To Do This!!
THE LAST REQUIREMENT HORNY ANGEL NEEDS TO FULFILL TO GET HER TO THE NEXT LEVEL IS TO BE FU-OWNED 25 TIMES WITHIN A 24 HR PERIOD AND HAVE AN ENDING WORTH OF 25 MILLION. PLEASE HELP OUT!! YOU CAN CLICK ON HER 99% BAR TO SEE HOW MANY TIMES SHE HAS ALREADY. KEEP BIDS TO THE MINIMUM AND PLEASE DO NOT DISOWN. THANKS FOR THE HELP!! HORNY ANGEL@ fubar

Fluids Coming Out Of Holes They Really Shouldn't Be
Ok, so let me explain. I was eating dinner with my Mom earlier, and she was looking at some magazine and saw these plush dogs that look real and "breathe". Well, she made a comment about the fact that our dogs would probably rip it to shreds, just as I took a drink of my juice. Needless to say, I tried my hardest not to laugh but it was too late. So what did I do? I covered my mouth so as to not spit fruit punch all over the table, only instead to have it come out of my nose. If you have never experienced something coming out of your nose before, let me tell you that it is not pleasant. My Mom of course started to laugh, as was I, simply because I know it must look funny to see it happen. I am still clearing fruit punch out of my nasal passages as I write this. Only positive thing is that it was not soda, that stings way more than juice.

So Hurt.
So, my husband decides to break a mirror and attempt to slit his wrists while I'm sitting right beside him. One of the most horrific things I have ever seen, seared into my memory. I took him to the hospital and they admitted him immediately. I love him so much. But I will never forgive him for what he did to me today. The traumatic sight, attempting to pull the broken glass away, only for him to be stronger.... Why Can't I Be Okay? Happy 5 months of marriage, Ian. Yeah right.

I Dont Know
What are we sure of about life? Some people think they know, but its only what they think life is supposed to be. No one can really know what lifes about. The only thing everyone would beable to agree on is your born and you die. But its the inbetween that is conflickting. Human emotion is constent. Wether you want it to or not. Your head always filled with everything, pounding its way to get out. But what do most people do, hold it back. Fear of regection from anything, wether it be a lover, or a boss, or even just your parents can send you through a world of different emotions. Its all how you handle yourself depends on the out come. If your with someone or want to be and they reject you, let it go wasnt ment to be. No matter how hard you want to think that you control your own life, you dont. Sorry life sucks a fat one I know. Your head can have control over you threw your emotions. Why its easier to be so cold harted. But thats my problem. A person can look right at you dead in th

Running
You run away from the pain off others but only to find that you can never actually run from it. The things that would make you cry in the past is gone, but new things are making you cry now. Wishing it would all go away but not knowing how to make it go.Leaving behind everything you know and everyone that you thought that ever cared about you. Then later on finding out that it was never true. You think about the people that supposedly loved you, but then finding out it was all a lie. You ran from it so you would not have to think about them ever again. The only time you actually think that there can be no pain no more lies being thrown at you aganst you is in your sleep. Dreaming is your only excape from the wrongful doings of reality. You remember the sweet dreams that you once encountered, but now all they are are nightmars of the past. Stopping to think is this the right thing to do and not be able to answer your own question. Your mind is always searching for the right thing to do

Romantically Hopeless (repost)
Just another face in the crowdShe doesn't fit in but she doesn't stand outA "Hello" from a stranger makes her dayBreaks the monotony of all those who look awayShe feels selfish for wanting some attentionMom and Dad didn't give her much affectionHe doesn't believe in soul matesBeing alone seems to be his fateRejected for things he can't controlHis undying love a woman will never knowLonging for acceptance in a woman's eyesLike an old band-aid he gets tossed asideThen one day their eyes meetJust a random encounter on the streetHe smiles and says "Hi"She blushes and repliesIt's now the story beginsTheir hearts know how it endsShe will love him for himHe will never doubt againJoined at the soulTwo halves of a whole

Warning!
TICK WARNING! I hate it when people forward bogus warnings, and I have even done it myself a couple times unintentionally but this one is real, and it's important. Please send this warning to everyone on your e- mail list. If someone comes to your front door saying they are checking for ticks due to the warm weather and asks you to take your clothes off and dance around with your arms up, DO NOT DO IT!! THIS IS A SCAM!! They only want to see you naked. I wish I'd gotten this yesterday. I feel so stupid.

Why Love Hurts
Why Love Hurts Seeing the one you love in pain Physcially or Mentally And can't do nothing Someone you love leaves with no reaseon And rejects all you do to show Your the one for them Someone you love do you wrongTreat you like the floorThinking your supposed to be walked on Showing so much love,And your still invisible Nothing you feel will ever be a thought Give all your love and they give there's To someone else But claim your the one they love The thoughtsThe smell The yells The love they give The essance The presenceOf missed love Why love hurts

Wanna Trade
So, I look around, and wonder about my life. How good do I have it? Am I happy? Should I be happy? Am I a good friend? Am I a good boyfriend? Mostly I wonder, would anyone really want to change places with me. And I think, from the outside, my life looks really good. Who wouldnt want to be me? I have a great job, good car, caring friends, I am dating a great girl. Alas, looking in from the outside is very different then looking out from the inside. Why do I hate my life, and wish I was dead sometimes??? Why when I think I finally met someone who wants to be with me do they just stop talking to me?? What is wrong with me?? Am I supposed to be alone?? What is my purpose in life?? Ok, so I know we make our own purposes in life, and no, there should be someone out there for me, but hell if I see them or know who they are. I do get depressed from time to time, but now is not one of them, and I still have these thoughts. So, where is this random thoughts going? That i

Oh Shit
Work Poop Survival Guide CROP DUSTINGWhen farting, you walk really fast around the office so the smell is not in your area and everyone else gets a whiff but doesn't know where it came from. Be careful when you do this. Do not stop until the full fart has been expelled. Walk an extra 30 feet to make sure the smell has left your pants. FLY BY The act of scouting out a bathroom before pooping. Walk in and check for other poopers. If there are others in the bathroom, leave and come back again. Be careful not to become a FREQUENT FLYER. People may become suspicious if they catch you constantly going into the bathroom. ESCAPEE A fart that slips out while taking a leak at the urinal or forcing a poop in a stall. This is usually accompanied by a sudden wave of embarrassment. If you release an escapee, do not acknowledge it. Pretend it did not happen. If you are standing next to the farter in the urinal, pretend you did not hear it. No one likes an escapee. It is uncomfortable for all involved

St. Andrew
(Spoken) Speak the truth and speak 'ever Cost it what it will For he who hide the wrong he did Did the wrong thing still Come back sweet St.An, come of me again Cause I'm broke again, broke, broke Yeh I'm broke again, broke, broke And down on St. Andrew I'll buy it back from you But you ain't no lover, lover, lover No, no your just a pusher, pusher, pushing, pushing I've been down to St. Andrew To pay for my sins are you Love come save me Love come save me soon Now I've sung midnight choirs with beatsets, drunks and liars but theres never fighting, fighting, fighting No we just get higher, higher, higher So long since I walked a road Amongst these midnight souls They were only stealing, stealing, stealing Yeah we're stealing for feeling, feeling, feeling I've been down to St. Andrew to pay for my sins are you Love come save me, love come save me soon yeah love come save me soon love come save me soon Yeah love come save me Love come save me soon One day my time will end And who I've b

Animal Abuse
Animal Abuse Please master, I am so tired of hurtingDid you know that I only wanted you to love me and give me lots of praise and affection? Why did you choose to yell and scream at me when I misbehaved, at times resorting to physical abuse? Remember, you were the ones who chose to take me home. After you separated me from my mother, sisters, and brothers, why did you change your mind? Wasn't I the same soft, lovable, cuddly puppy? Was I wrong in expecting you to be my new family? When I pottied in your domain, it wasn't that I was stupid, like you yelled. After all, going potty at any time or place was very natural for me. Did you really think that I was just trying to displease you? I just didn't understand what you expected from me. Can you imagine how totally crushed and humiliated I felt when you shoved my face in the messes I made and then threw me outside? How about the time you kicked me across the living room, calling me a dumb stupid mutt? I, like you, have sensitive fee

Such A Tragedy
Wish i could spend a night with you between my legslisten, i sit and wonder who's having love with you nowbehind closed eyes, my private horror showthe queen of fools is wearing the crownand the sea of heartbreak is where i drownAnd love is dead - it's a tragedyyeah love is dead - what an evil thiefyou stole my heart with no regretsnow love is deadSo many asses around me, but i only want yoursI'm starving 'cause my nights are a borehello again, here comes another lone daythe naked truth is here to stayAnd love is dead - it's a tragedyyeah love is dead - what an evil thiefstole my heart with no regretsnow love is dead - shut up and rotyour love is dead - i'm gonna chop up the cockthat stole my heart with no regretsyou stole my fuckin' heart with no regrets

Ranting
I hate how things are going lately. My body has broken down and my doctor has ran out of ways to try to get me better. So I am hurting all the time. What is worse that it's not just me suffering it's also my 4 year old son and my husband. Lucky for me hubs has been so understanding and just when I think he has reached the point where he cant deal with it he suprises me. Like today. Was hurting soo badly and pain meds wasn't helping. Could barely move off the couch without the pain knocking into me. He came home from work and took our boy and my lil 8 year old brother to the pool so I could rest. He cooked dinner and cleaned up so I didnt have to. I know there are people out there alot worse than I am and are dealing with health issues far greater than mine. And this whole situation has humbled me..I say a prayer to those people even though I dont know them. I just wished my doc would find a way to fix me. I cant even get a job cause of the pain I am in almost all the time. Hubs says

Attempts To Sleep
Well laid down tonight with the idea i was going to sleep.. yea not so much, I started thinking about all the experiences i have had. past and present with work and such... How do u erase a face from your mind and let go of things...?

Patriotism
OK, I have been meaning to write this for a long time. Why do people think that because they were a flag shirt, have a flag sticker, or "terrorism huunting permit" or some other stupid thing like that, that that makes them a Patriot. I remeber after 9-11 i pulled up to my mothers house and she asked me why i didnt have a flag on my car. I said "are you kidding me, you protested the vietnam war even though your brother was there, when i told you i was joining the Army you said i was stupid, you never vote, but now because you have a flag and i don't your a Patriot". This is the stupid stuff that pisses me off. I live in NY were we don't have alot of recent ex millitary, but i see tons of Terorism hunting permits, flags ect. I know for a fact that these people would never answer the call to defend there country. Its the same in the south all these Rednecks, talk about Patriotism, and owning guns, and free speach, but when push comes to shove they stay home and watch it unfold on T

For The Sake Of Money And Progress
It has been six months since I last wrote anything. I have been told that I should not have stopped writting. We have forgotten who we are, how we got here, and forgotten how to live on the Earth. We have forgotten what is sacred or deemed it no longer sacred for the sake of money or progress.Water is sacred, and for the sake of money and progress we can no longer drink our water where once we could. We could drink from any water because it was pure and clean. Now most of our water is toxic and we must drink our water from plastic bottles which we are learning even now that is not good for us. Water that needs to be purified in order to be safe to drink.The earth is mostly covered by water, we are mostly made up of water.Trees are sacred, and for the sake of money and progress we continue to cut down our trees for development and for industry. Trees are a living breathing entity that supports life...our life. Trees breath in what we exhale and we breath in what the trees e

Just An Idea
so we all go down this dark allyway called life filled with dumpsters hobos and hookers wondering what kind of light will be waiting for us at the end but all we do is crunch the broken glass that is shattered like our hopes and dreams or we see if we can haggle the toothless hooker to our left into sucking 10 minuets of synthetic pleasure from our viagra induced ressurections of youth gone and past but still we trudge on barely able to make out the rats at our feet pretending that they like our fears in life arent really there wanderding from dumpster to dumpster looking for a answer to it all like a bum looks for somebodys leftover takeout that might still be warm when will we ever learn that every corner we turn hoping for a exit just takes us to the next ally over

Had To Have Emergency Neck Surgery
Was admitted yesterday to st joe's hospital room 1501 will be having surgery i broke my c1 which is putting pressure on the base of my brain and i have a severe spinal compression and i'm not to move even coughing could paralyze me surgery will today. My surgery went well, I have my whole neck fused. I had busted open the origianl fix in my neck and the screw came withing 1.6millimeters of severing my spinal cord. I do finally have freelings in my arms and legs. and I feel 110% better than I did when I first got here. I do know who wrecked me whihc was a stalker of mine, he is one of the reasons I got myself the gun. anyway thank you all for thinking of me. had C1 to C6 fused and repair of my spinal cord that came within a 1.6 millimeter from severing on my original cage that was in my neck that blew apart during the accident they had to reopen me up and take out the drain that was draining fluid from around my spinal cord and from the sac around my brain stem and tighten up the sc

Iraqi Pow And Mia's
US POW-MIAs and DUSTWUN Includes Civilians CAPTURED - DECEASED April 16th, 2004 :: Confirmed Captured USAR SSG Keith M. Maupin DOI 09 APR 04 (Captured as PFC, Promoted in Absentia 01 MAY 04 to SPC, Promoted in Absentia 01 APR 05 to SGT, Promoted in Absentia 17 SEP 06 to SSG)Remains Recovered 20 March 2008, Remains Identified 20 March 2008, Change of Status from Missing-Captured to Deceased 31 March 2008. October 23rd, 2006 :: DUSTWUN December 11th, 2006 Status Change to Missing-Captured SPC Ahmed K. Altaie (Ahmed Qusai al-Taayie) May 12th, 2007 :: DUSTWUN June 16th, 2007 2 ID Cards Recovered (Jimenez & Fouty)29 June 07 Status Changed to Missing-Captured USA SPC Alex R. Jimenez, 25, of Lawrence, Mass. USA PVT Byron W. Fouty, 19, of Waterford, Mich. 4 Contractors with a Private Security Firm were abducted when their convoy was attacked, Fall 2006. No names have been released. They remain missing. DUSTWUN/ Killed in Captivity June 19th, 2006 :: Iraqi Locals Report Captured USA

The Dance
The Dance Reluctant at firstTo take your handIn spirit I rehearseAnd then I standSo we take the floorAnd I rememberWhen I became unsureYou became tenderEach turn that we take We make another stepEach step that we makeA new memory is setAs the music of your heartPlays its sweet tuneThe voice of my heartEchos around the roomWe glide across timeOur souls togetherWith your love and mineThe Dance lasts forever Melissa Lay 2006 copywright protected

Fear And Loathing In July 2009
As i sit here in my very quiet kitchen, i'm considering what are the issues that face all us in this country... but more than that i wonder about the twisting of these issues and how hard both sides have dug to make it all so confusing... GM and government ownership... Yup the US govt. now holds a huge stake in the once mighty GM (so does canada) and there has been no shortage of republican/conservative out cry of "SOCIALISM!!!!!" yet the workers only own 15% and that's the key to a socialism, worker self owned/managed... Neither side addresses the real good and bad of this... good workers do now own 15% and the government will eventually be bought out of its shares, one can only assume when things are better... One therefore has to assume the government would make a profit and this should bode well for us the people. The down side... for now, this is expensive and it is us the people who are paying. Had we not done this though, job loss and income loss would have been devastating a

What If Captain America Were Not Revived Until Today?
“He went on about how precious America was – how you needed to make sure it remained great! And he told you anything was justified to preserve that great treasure, that pearl of great price that is America! WELL, I SAY AMERICA IS NOTHING! Without its ideals – its commitment to the freedom of all men, America is a piece of trash! A nation is nothing! A flag is a piece of cloth! I fought Adolf Hitler not because America was great, but because it was fragile! I knew that liberty could as easily be snuffed out here as in Nazi Germany! As a people, we were no different from them! When I returned, I saw that you nearly DID turn America into nothing! And the only reason you’re not less than nothing – is that it’s still possible for you [to] bring freedom back to America!” I really cannot picture Captain America saying some of this. But let me take a moment to explain lest you think I’ve lost my mind. This is from an issue one of Mar

Doggie Style...
You can have me on all fours…As you are giving it to me I’ll be screaming for more “Ay Papi” is what I’ll be saying… Biting me, Pulling my hair, Spanking my a@@ Cause you know just what I like… Hold my hips tight and give it to me harder Spread my cheeks wide open but deeper and slower now… Because it feels so right and I won’t put up a fight Don’t worry if you can’t hold it much longer… Let go of yourself and rub it all over Just remember we have all night.

Gathering
Welcome all you Juggalos, to a place of mystic shows. With your help our status grows, it's the path you have chose. Grab your kicks and grab your hoes, where this ends no one knows. Props to 'lettes and props to 'los, THE GATHERING WILL NEVER CLOSE!

My Thoughts
why is it when you think you have someone to love you find out that they are with another.to have my soulmate would be nice it would mean someone to hold and love and be held right back.The one i thought loved lives with another and in another state.he was with someone when i was in love with him now instend of that preson he is with someone else and it is hurting me so bad. but one day i will find someone to hold and be held by and to love and be loved back. well thanks for listening to what i had to say. By Kim McMindes

Auction Ideas
things ive seen auctioned : rates, add to name, cam time, salutes, add to fam, top friends, vips, blings, rate stash, status pimpouts, rate friends, comments, keep shitfaced, phone calls, demon shitface, oracle pimpouts, custom pics/tags if you have more ideas leave them as a comment

Tarot Readings
Well since it seems everything on this site can be sold or traded with fubucks and/or bling...and since my broke ass c ant afford to buy my way to a higher level,ive decided to offer tarot readings and daily oracle readings in exchange for bling or bux. one question tarot...i will need your name and birthday..if it involves another person their bday as well,along with your question..and when you send me your question,please take a minute to clear your mind and focus hard on your query. daily oracle is a bit different than tarot..its a bit more spiritual in nature..is a one card message. i often use this when im struggling over a personal issue or something that weighs heavy in my heart.for this all i need is for you to concentrate on your issue or problem when contacting me. for the 1 question/3-6 card tarot im asking for donation of 10k fubux or a 3 credit bling. for the oracle 5k bux or 1 credit bling. i have to add for legal purposes that this is for entertainment only.i make

How Can I Tell Her?
How can I tell her what she means to me? Should I tell her? I don't want to frighten her away. It's happened before, it'll happen again, I know. Should I tell her? Can I tell her how much I crave her? My eyes crave to see her, if only in pictures. My ears crave to hear her. Hear her laugh. Just to hear her breathe, is estasy to my ears. My fingers are jealous, because they cannot touch what my eyes can see. They cannot hold her hand or caress her face. How can I tell her. Can I tell her what she fears? She does not fear me, but what I represent. Should I tell her what she fears is hope, not love. Can she tell it is the hope of love that frightens, not love. But, can I tell her the things that I feel? It is too soon to share, to hope, to believe. I should just be happy that she does breath, and laugh. And, Oh, that smile. That smile that shames the sun and mocks the moon and make the stars weep and want to fall from the sky. How Can I Tell He

Chattin
OK SO.. my sis says hey! Join FUBAR.. great site.. alright.. SO RIGHT AWAY I get this SPAM message to join TWIZTED MINDZ chat/tunez site (http://www.fubar.com/lounge/55439)... although I should know better... I hop in to check it out to see how shit works on here. GREAT tunes... except for 1 horrible country song I heard, no biggie.. prior to that i'm honest in chat, jammin and saying.. HEY GUYS.. great tunes... *sincerely* So I figure out how to invite my sis in... she's in bed and will probably get it tomorrow. Eventually I get bored.. everyone can only say shit like. "WB!" "HEY WB HI" "WELCOME BONGBUBBLES THANK YOU FOR JOINING"... very standard. I get bored from that and check out another room that invited me.. they were playin PAULA ABDUL ... I go back to TWIZTED MINDZ thinkin they would love this laugh and told them about it only to get BOOTED by this DJ owner dude named EVIL... came in a sec later and really apologized because apparently I don't understand the whole FUBAR tun

My Heart Appointment July 16th,2009
Went to the heart doctor the 16th of July from what I understand doctor Lois said I have a hole in my heart they found while doing stress test which was not even a hour long, said that I may have to have surgery due to possibly the hole expanding I am thinking that's what's it's doing. I can not babysit anymore due to the stress it causes me along with passing out is along with it in the matters that I have to handle my activities to in a matter to where I can't do them. As for everything else in my heart is fine, my valve on the right side is okay still having trouble with blood flow but thats it so I will have that problem for a long time but they do wanna fix my heart murmur so I can stop passing out. Ebsteins Anomoly will be there until they say other wise.

Broken
Misery grabs me, by the throattry to breath, but still I chokeDepression cuts me like a knifeplagued by thoughts, to end my lifeLoad the clip, then fill the chamberhollow points, to ease my angerPut the barrel, against my headpaint the walls of my room redGrey matter, splatterd from floor to ceilingbut the pain, im no longer feelingall ive loved, will now be lostwas my life, well worth the costBROKEN SHELL, OF A MANEND MY DAYS, WITH MY OWN HANDSPILL MY BLOOD, AND WATCH IT RUNA LIFELESS CORPSE, IVE BECOMESelffish thoughts, control my grievingease my mind, this hell im leavingeternity, spent in purgatoryclose this chapter, of my life storyNot remebered, nor forgottenas my body lies there rottingfamily grieveing, for their fallen sonyet noone stopped me as I grabbed the gunCries for help, left unanswerednow that im gone, they loved this bastard

What's Wrong Now?
My friend, an ex-Marine Aviator wanted to show off his new twin-engine plane. I was riding along as he put it through its paces. Suddenly, we were caught in a violent thunderstorm, with lightning crashing all around us. Next, we lost the radio and most of the instruments. As we were being tossed around in the sky, George said, "Uh-oh!" Fearing the worst, I asked, "What's wrong now?" George replied, "I got the hiccups. Do something to scare me."

69 Q & A's.
69 QUESTIONS 1. Initials: Yup, I got three of them.2. Name someone with the same birthday as you: Billy Bob Thorton, Louis Armstrong, Donald Gibb [Oger!]3. Favorite fruit? Passion...or Bananas [for ~Her~..heh-heh..:P]4. For or against same sex marriage? Have no prob with Civil Unions and allowing spousal benifits, but believe Religious organizations should not be forced to perform ceremonies if it conflicts with their beliefs.5. Are you allergic to anything? Bullshit & Assholes [was actually some one else's answer..but I have no other allergies, so I copped it]6. Are you bisexual? I'm semi try-sexual... I might try anything [between a man and woman] once.......maybe even 'Foghorn' is she rilly gets me goin...heh-heh..:P7. Have you ever slept in someone elses clothes? Yeah.8. How many U.S states have you been to? Don't know rilly.9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in? 2 and one other country.10. Have you ever lived outside the U.S? Yup.11. Name something physical you

I Will Never Be The Same Again - * Unknown Artist *
I will never be the same again,I can never return, I've closed the door.I will walk the path, I'll run the raceAnd I will never be the same again.I will never be the same again,I can never return, I've closed the door.I will walk the path, I'll run the raceAnd I will never be the same again.Fall like fire, soak like rain,Flow like mighty waters, again and again.Sweep away the darkness, burn away the chaff,And let the flame burn to glorify Your name.There are higher heights, there are deeper seas,Whatever you need to do, Lord do in me.The Glory of God fills my life,And I will never be the same again.Fall like fire, soak like rain,Flow like mighty waters, again and again.Sweep aways the darkness, burn away the chaffAnd let a flame burn to glorify Your name.Fall like fire, soak like rain,Flow like mighty waters, again and again.Sweep away the darkness, burn away the chaff,And let a flame burn to glorify Your name.I will never be the same again,I can never return, I've closed the door.I

Love Is.....
love is a hard thing to explainlove is not a feeling nor a emotion it is a passiona passion for someone who you desire in your lifei have that feelingit is so strongi cant take itbut those who try will prevailand they will have that passion filledand the desire will shrinkbut it will still be therealways there even when you lose your passionit will still be there beating like a heart

The Changing Of My Being...becoming His.."adult Content"
The feel of his finger's through my hair was like a whisper from my favorite demon of which has been long i've heard from.....on my neck,fine hair stood up and applauded his action's which I could not resist. Behind me he stood,with a soft and gentle stroke of his hand's moved me into the perfect position inwhich twas like I floated....and not moved my own. Feeling his body behind mine, against mine...pressing...slowly rotated and molding to mine....i felt the urge to press up against him...to lay my head into his shoulder's to enjoy this forever seeming moment , as time seem's to have stood still.....Pushing my body harder into M'lord...i find it hard to resist the temptation he present's to my inner stirring....it wanting to be touched...with my passion screaming through my vein's....I let him have me at will.......thus my clothes complimented the cold stone floor.....cold enough that my toe's find themself on end.........My loves' thick black cloak find's itself wrapped around me

Tomorrow
I am in an Urban Exploration group on meetup.com, and tomorrow we FINALLY get to go somewhere. Its an abandoned mental hospital somewhere in Buttfuck, IL, and I managed to get enough people to come with me to call it a group :) Needless to say, hubby almost had a heart attack when he found out where I'm going, but was consoled by the fact that there are gonna be like 6 ppl comin, and 2 of them are guys. Sooo...lets hope my plans dont crash and burn like they always do. I'm pretty stocked.

How I Feel
Life is about joy and passion, Not about misery and gloom, We lose many friends along the way, So let’s celebrate the people we have known.So many who have shown love and kindness, And some we have misunderstood, Maybe some we have done injustice, Where our actions should have only been good, To anyone reading this poem,I just hope that you do understand, My reason for doing the asking, As life, love and passion which for me is so grand.

The Feed!.."adult Content"
While fingertips trace upon the skin, the lustful feel of a lovers touch... the yern for a passionate deeply seeded kiss, the feel the tip of the tongue does.... Lightly and slowly it slides, it circles, slightly feeling the the arch of his back... kneeling in front of him for her feed, while feeling comfort within her throats back.... Dancing and swirling of the hot of her tongue goes, a kiss, a suckle , only moans said.... soft yet aggressive strokes from her felt, while his hand rests the back of her head... as the pace becomes slightly faster, as his head slowly lay back... she feels the seed that the feed fills, while her lips do not part away from that... while inbedding deeply within he feels, the velvet narrow way while she closes it's hollow... for in this one feeding she has been given his essense, the fruit he bare's she has taken, she swallows.... as written:~Dark Jules~

Remembering Romance
Old fashioned movies With true love to gainAlways remember romanceAnd kiss in the rain. The only thing you haveIs the hope of his kissAnd waiting for the dayIs all that you missIn love, in romanceLooking into his eyesIs all you want to doNo time for any liesSo send him a textDrop him a lineAnd maybe one dayHe’ll take the timeHe’ll fall for youAnd never look backYour life will be brightNo time for dark, no blackI hope he’s always thereTo take away my painAnd to remember romanceAnd to kiss in the rain

'waiting For Love'
All my life ive been waiting it really seemed foreverto find that special someone I thought would be never.Not many crossed my path maybe too fussy was Iso maybe I foolishly let some chances pass me by.Theres someone for everyone I hear people sayingrelationships to some are like games they are just playing.Where did the romance go it seemed to die awaybut waiting and hoping it would return again day.Many years have passed by maybe the time is rightromance came again and feelings again in my sight.Maybe all the waiting had paid off for me in the endsomeone to share and care for and my love to send.

Must Read! Hilariousness!
Okay so the following is from a chat that goes from shoutbox to yahoo, i think its pretty amazing, please read. start at the bottom of first chat in shoutbox: alicia: buzz me here alicia: ok ->alicia: u add me to yahoo alicia: alicia25parker@yahoo.com alicia: add me hon alicia: ok ->alicia: you do it now, yahoo me alicia: ok alicia: and right my name at the 3rd page form ->alicia: thats awesome, so am i! alicia: do it now honey alicia: waiting to you hon alicia: coz im starting playing my self now alicia: that is my own site that i give it to you ->alicia: okay, can u piss off now, im kinda getting bored messing with u lol alicia: i told you alicia: ok honey ->alicia: i like nooses ->alicia: you mean official? ->alicia: what does opicial mean? alicia: anyway honey what do you want me to wear after you finish to sign up??? alicia: ok alicia: that it my opicial site to get in to me here alicia: no honey... ->alicia: nah im good, i know how those websites work,

U N I
together as i read ur thoughts as i picture in my head the fieldthe sweet grassjust kissed by the morning dewwe walkhand n handour worldno one in it but U n Ithe others we do not cthe others we can not hearour eyesour touchour caressits just usU n I

How Easy It Is To Say I Love You.
I love you, oh how much I love you, how easy it is to say I love you. My eyes misses you, don’t forget that you are my life and my precedence. I miss you, I love you, I live you, I feel you, no remedy for me, there is no way I can forget you. I love you, I dream you, I Desire your body, I can’t sleep, I think you each moment…I miss you. My feelings are infinite, you changed my destiny. You can’t imagine my beautiful princess how much I think about you, for your kiss I’m going crazy.

Prayer Of A Soldier
It's time to sleepI've been relievedMy rifle at my sideMy knife in it's sheathLord let me live another dayAs I put myself in harms wayI made my choice, I took the oathI stand for freedom, but I don't boastMy God, my country, my familyThe things I hold so dearWith these all on my sideThere's nothing for me to fearBut if I should fall before my next reliefI will stand before you Lord with honor and dignitySo, while I'm here please make me strongTo fight the battles and right what's wrongLT.David MartinUnited States Marines Special Warfare and counter-terrorismUS Special Operations Command MCSOCOM © LT.David Martin

Simply The Truth
I am not the one to promise, and I rather not be promised, I prefer things to come if they should. I am not asking you to tell me what you don’t want to say, at the end of it all, the only thing that matters is the truth. All I want is for every kiss you give to be sincere. Because loneliness is evil, let’s not be just to be. I don’t owe you and you don’t owe me, there are no papers to sign. I am not asking for you to give when you don’t want to give. Your time is not my time, leave time to time. Let them be true (for sure) the times that you do give me. That every hug be true, that every expression of feelings let them come from the heart. I don’t ask for more only the truth in every kiss. To each its own story, and to each it’s own. With your plus and minus, just how I found you, I would not want you to change because there is nothing to change. At the end, what matters most is your most sincere kiss.

The Love Of Ink!
well is is my story of y i love tattoos!! i got my first tat when i was 20. i thought it was the coolst thing, hurt like a mutha but i did it! im my opinion your body is a caves waiting to be painted on! by the time i die and move on my body will tell my life story! each tat represents something about me. lol lets take my stars for example, ppl allways ask y did you get stars? well i got 6 stars cuz im only a 6 star guy being out of ten, so i got roon to learn and be a better man!! so when i think iv addvansed i will keep adding them till i have ten! i dont think that will ever happen cuz il never be perfect. my tiger represents me and my personality! if any of you know me well you know what i meen. to me when im under the gun getting ink done, man i feel like im in heaven!! ppl say it hurts and dont get me wrong sometimes it does! but theres no better kinda pain!! its like a piece of history is being place on you and you keep it with you forever!! i love when i have extra money and ca

A Fav. Part Of My Book I'm Writing
Vincent lay in a light slumber when suddenly a loud cry woke him with a start. Instinct brought him to his feet faster than thought, with long sword in hand, as the small tent crashed in shambles about him. The horse was also putting up all sorts of fuss, kicking, rearing, neighing, and stomping the ground. After a quick look around to make sure there was no immediate danger, he spoke softly to calm the bay. “Easy boy, calm down, it’s all right,” he said. “An’ if somethin’s out there we can hardly hear it with you makin’ all that racket, now can we.” The horse calmed quickly after hearing Vincent’s voice. He heard a soft crys coming from the same vicinity as the sound that had awoken him and it oddly sounded like a baby. “That’s strange. Maybe the trees are playing tricks with the sound... it must be a young child, but what would a child be doing out here at this time of the night? Maybe it got lost. I’v

Welcome To The Dark Side Of Me.
For those of you wondering why this blog exists, I'll enlighten you a little. I'm a tired. -I am tired of all the smooth talk that you think will get into my pants, or an all access pass to naked web-cam YAY! -I am tired, of explaining over and over, why I am not comfortable going out with you. That I like to meet people in a public place first. How do I know your not a psycho.LOL..HOW DO YOU KNOW I'M NOT A PSYCHO. Apparently psycho pussy is ok, so long as it's just the pussy. I'm sorry Psycho and Psycho Cock are the same animal to me. -I like to flirt, I love witty banter. That's cool. Asking me to be FWB (and if you have to ask what FWB stands for?..., "these are not the droids you're looking for, move along) when you are married, and I barely know you...not bloody likely. Just because I'm not ready for a relationship doesn't mean I'm suffering from lack of cock. When I get that bad, I'll go find someone I TRUST, not a stranger. And it will be on my terms as much as theirs. -I am

Spotlight Beg
I have a friend who wants to get the Spotlight, after I told her how fun it was! PLEASE go love on her and donate if you can! Or if you or a friend is paying for rates, let me know! :) Here's her link: http://fubar.com/user/2603015 Thanks!Rock on!Shawn

Vermillion
She seems dressed in all the rings Of past fatalities So fragile yet so devious She continues to see it Climatic hands that press Her temples and my chest Enter the night that she came home Forever Oh (She's the only one that makes me sad) She is everything and more The solemn hypnotic My Dahlia bathed in possession She is home to me I get nervous, perverse, when I see her it's worse But the stress is astounding It's now or never she's coming home Forever Oh (She's the only one that makes me sad) Hard to say what caught my attention Fixed and crazy, Aphid attraction Carve my name in my face, to recognize Such a pheromone cult to terrorize I won't let this build up inside of me I won't let this build up inside of me I won't let this build up inside of me I won't let this build up inside of me (Yeah!) (oh-oh) I'm a slave, and I am a master No restraints and, unchecked collectors I exist through my need, to self oblige She is something in me, that I despise I won't let this build

Labor Day
Labor Day, is an interesting holiday honoring working people by giving them a day off. It seems to mark the end of summer, the days get shorter and the nights grow longer in turn the cooler nights will arrive soon. It sparks family values, a need for adventure. What a better place to start then the great outdoors. While some may stay around and cookout with family and friends, others want to explore there energetic passions it may be hiking, bicycling, camping, walking on the beach, all bringing them many facet's of enjoyment. What ever the choice, be thankful, and be safe. Outdoor suplies provided by www.rcampout.com

Read And Heed
What is Moonlight Levelers about? We are a family that helps those that meet the level up requirements level. In the process we are also helping ourselves because when we rate them we are getting points as well. We have the best members on the Fu! Our vision with our family is this. You don't have to beg people to rate you to help you level because you have a family that will do it for you. When you help level someone it brings you even closer to leveling yourself. When you are ready to level you have a family that will step in and take care of you. We have the best leaders and we are well organized. We have 6 simple rules: 1. No drama 2. Your page must not be set to private 3. You must a/f/r all members 4. Must have our name in your name after you do roll call 5. Help level people when we post a level up 6. Have fun What Moonlight Levelers should be about is family because we are one. We are here to help one another and here

Forever Bleeding (for A Friend)
If you must forever bleed. Bleed in my arms. I will hold you up till your dying breath..I found you in this state..begging you to come back from this hell...take your life and i will hold it in my hand...breathing for you as you lift back up...you are never alone...i will hold you up as you are forever bleeding..never let go...you have me now

Pfc Bakie Reporting For Duty!
Ah, I just had to do that. It almost has a good ring to it, if you think closely enough. Anyways, I wanted to share more about my recent signing up into the Armed Forces, which for me I’m going into the Army. You won’t believe how I’ve felt going into the military, I have this renewed, refreshing taste in life again, which is something I haven’t felt in quite some time. Especially now, ever since getting laid off last year and since trying to look for a crappy job which has been more like pulling teeth than anything else, I need some light to shed on me. I have this sense of pride in me now, being that I am going to have a chance to serve my country. Now, for some of you that don’t really know the extent of my background, I’ll give you a briefing of it: I have always supported the military and our troops since I was a little kid. In fact, I have been into military history since as far as I can remember. I have always wanted to join the mi

My Heart Goes Out To...
My heart is especially going out to US soldier in Afghanistan. POW Pfc. Bowe R. Bergdahl, 23, of Ketchum, Idaho. You are in my prayers and I am thinking of you and praying for your safe release back into United States hands. You will not be forgotten. I also want to add that my heart and prayers go out to all of our troops and you are loved with so much affection. I pray everyday for your safe returns and am so thankful for what you do. You are all not forgotten!! *Hugs & Kisses to all*

Feelings
Its hard to run from a feeling that haunts you every now and then, painful to tell your heart that you don't need it to keep on pretending that you are better off alone when in fact you feel so empty. But why take chances if you see no hope? why try if theres nothing to win for? Sometimes it pays to wait, never hurry. Let infatuation die a natural death and give birth to true LOVE when its time...

I Want You!!!
I want to be your companionand walk hand in hand,your strength enveloping mine.Autumn leaves falling,scuffing feet and laughter,sharing nights, not finished by the dark.I want to be your confidantas you pen your deepestthoughts, as your heartachesbleed and finally break free.Your dreams, I keep as if my own.I want to smile as you smileand giggle with youat nothing at all.I want to be your loverand find the passionsthat move you to action.I want to be the softnessthat induces you to trust.I want to be the naughtythat makes you come back for more.I want to please you.I want to share your breakfastand your dinner,I want you in the showerand in your bed andwith soft steps to bring you coffeeYour strong arms, the legsthat power your thrust,your lips of pleasure,these are the fuel of my desireno it is no secret,and to put it very simply,I want you.

Fun Times
I met with my new landlord yesterday, she is about 40 or so and has a cute lil ass, oh I know I shouldn't be thinking about that but can't help noticing cute asses lol ;) Anyway I am paying less than I was b4 and have much more room. Maybe if i get a new gf I can have her live with me or I can get a roomie and make her my gf hehehehe. Anyway, my new place is in the country so I can enjoy the peace and quiet and maybe get to shoot my gun out there too and don't have to worry about anyone wondering who I am sleeping with! I went out afterwards with my friend and saw a movie, we were going to go to theater but decided instead to go to drive in. We were just relaxing watching movie, well ok we were teasing each other also hehehe. I wanted to something to eat and went to concession stand, in line while waiting a old classmate of mine got in line in back of me, we never really hit it off in school, but since then we been friendlier. Anyway, we talked some and she said her bf was being

Need Joins? I Can Help. Read On!
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Saying Goodbye
Saying Goodbye i often wonder why. I have to walk away with a sigh. the tears are falling, I can no longer hear you calling. I am falling. Don't cry for me. I have wiped away your tears, and chased away all your fears. It must mean something you. Saying Goodbye, I will always wonder why, There is never enough time, to chase down the rhymes. Not sure if this is real, the book has been sealed. Saying Goodbye it is never easy.

Saying
A PRAYER FOR THE STRESSED! ! !Grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i cannot accept, & the wisdom to hide the bodies of those PPL i had to kill 2day because they pissed me off.& also, help me to be careful of the toes i step on 2day , as they may be connected to the ass that i may have to kiss 2morrow.Help me to always give 100% at work 12%on Monday 23% on Tuesday 40% on Wednesday 20% on Thursday 5% on Friday & help me to remember.....when i'm having a really bad day, & it seems that PPL are trying to piss me off , that is takes 42 muscles to frown and only 4 to extend my middle finger and tell them to KISS MY ASS ! !

I Cant Help It...
i actually like to talk to people on here. i must be truly insane...but if that is indeed true then zang...im glad haha. i dont want to see how far a woman will go to eventually get naked on here. it really makes no sense other than instant gratification. and once that instance is gone..then what? another rate? hahah 0o0oh...show me your other cheek and i'll buy you a bling. the sarcasm is too easy haha. i know im on here all the time and should be making moves to get 11s and fu-bucks. i know thats how its supposed to be played on here but i like the idea of talking to folks that add me or that i rate and add. because...that just seems to be the point. not falling in love or the perfect match by seeing each other's "best side" in a picture at that haha. hell i know it happens but...nah not so much a driving force for me to always be online. i play with the things everyone can do on here...why not? but i believe its also ok to maybe have conversations at least with the pe

A Heartwarming Story
An Iowa boy These are the Americans that make us great.... John works at the Cargill plant in Eddyville , Iowa , when he's not in Iraq . Wouldn't it be fitting if this went completely around the world!..... This needs to make headline news...not some of the other junk that makes the news these days!!! Like the Rosie O'Donell war of words...celeb weddings...who's not wearing undies...etc. It's a tough, but heartwarming story...with a picture of John Gebhardt in Iraq John Gebhardt's wife, Mindy, said that this little girl's entire family was executed. The insurgents intended to execute the little girl also, and shot her in the head...but they failed to kill her. She was cared for in John's hospital and is healing up, but continues to cry and moan. The nurses said John is the only one who seems to calm her down, so John has spent the last four nights holding her while they both slept in that chair. The girl is coming along with her healing. He is one of the real heroes of the war, a

My Chinese Symbol, Survey Says:
Thomas took the What Chinese Symbol Are You?? quiz and got the result: Love!!.. Love!!: You love to be loved. and you love to love people!! Your probably one of the best people to be mates with, you know what to say to put a smile on people faces!!

What I Need To Do To.....
I've been doing a whole lot of thinking in the past hours, and I have an idea what I need to do. I need to fix myself before I help other people, cause I have a lot of growing up and learning to do. So I'm gonna just stay away from women and leave relationships alone until I get myself straighten up. So I'm not accepting any applications, I'm just gonna do me for now on, cause just like I said, I got a lot of growing up to do and a lot of soul searching cause I'm a real bad mess, and bad with women. I don't have any other choice. I smother them way too much and Amy's right. I should learn how to give people space. So I'm gonna work on myself and get therapy. I'm making things worse as it is, cause I'm bad at dealing with women or people in general.

Natural Cures For Depression - More Than Home Remedies
IT IS NORMAL Everyone may get depressed occasionally when life gets tough. It is normal to be depressed if you lost a loved one, lost a good job, are having financial trouble, etc. Treat yourself to a little chocolate, which contains a chemical that will lift your mood. Just don't go overboard and cause more problems from too much sugar). Get plenty of exercise. Keep your regular schedule. Get up and go to bed at the same times you normally would - unless your routine had included depriving yourself of enough sleep. Force yourself to look your best. You will feel better when you look good and dress nicely. It surely helps some people to count their blessings and realize that many in the world have an even tougher life. CHRONIC DEPRESSION Chronic depression is different - it comes more often or lasts longer. St. John's Wort will help. A normal dosage is 300 mg, three times per day. But, this can take weeks to fully build up in your system. There are other things that you can do

Employment History
To pass the time while our plane was being de-iced, the flight attendants played a trivia game with the passengers. They asked us to guess the total number of years the three of them had worked for the airlines. After an attendant collected our estimates, we heard the announcement: "The correct answer is 26 years. For the two people who came closest with 28 years, we have prizes. And for the passenger in seat 12F who guessed 85 years, would you please step off the plane once we are airborne."

This Blows
Libra - July 20, 2009You have reached one of the most climactic times of year in regard to love and romance, dear Libra. This is the time when the dream that you have been working toward finally materializes, or you realize that all your efforts are a complete failure. All depends on how you played your cards over the past few months. This is one of those moments of reckoning when you are faced with reality; you must bring your ship down to the landing pad and check in with the base.

Care 4 U
Y should it bother me so much y do I care so much about youy am I checking my messages seeing if you were thinking about me like I am thinking about youwhat did u do to me that got me all crazy doing things I would have done as a teen checkin my phone voicemail checkin my texts checking my email my yahoo msn even my AOL yeah AOL havent signed into that one in bout a year dont even give that address out. But jus n case, maybe, u never know u just might have gotta checkno! still no word from you, still no messages, no message no bottle no answer no answers to the ones I sent but Y do I care so much Y does it matter so muchY should I care that u r having a fun time doing what ur doing visiting who ur visiting seeing who ur seeing doing the things ur doing with the people that ur doing them with....Y do I care so much. Y do I light up when U do leave me a message a short hello how was ur day how u doin but it does n I dowe're both with someone else n I wouldn't change that for nothing in

Points Breakdown
Fubar points Breakdown WHEN YOU DO THE FOLLOWING YOU GET 3 points for rating a profile 2 points for leaving a profile comment 1 point for rating a photo 1 point for photo comment 1 point for stash rating 1 point for stash comment 0 points for fanning someone THE PERSON YOU HELPING OUT GETS THE FOLLOWING 11 points for fanning them 6 points for you rating thier profile 6 points for a photo rating 6 points for a photo comment 6 points for stash rating 6 points for stash comment 5 points for page comment Please keep in mind all points are doubled for you and them during Happy Hour As you can see when trying to level someone it pays to fan them Stash and pic rates and comments may be worth the same but I personally find it alot easier to rate stash than pics. Also for those of you that may not have realized as you can see it is also helping you out when your helping others A side note too: You DO NOT get any points for RIPPED PICS.. might pay to h

What Would You Do?
If you had 24 hours left to live... What would you do? What i would do is see how much i can accomplish, push myself to the limits that can never be reached any other time in a person's life. I would love not what is of material things, but of those who are around me. It's not too often that i find love in my heart anymore, aside from the kids. I wouldn't know what to do without them. They are my world. They are my everything. Leaving them would not be an option, if i had any other choice. Another thing i would do: Not live a moment that i have left with regret. Life is too short to regret things. Mistakes happen. If one was perfect, life wouldn't be life. It would be dull and meaningless. The best times of your life are when you do stupid things. That's what i think anyways. Don't know if anyone else agrees with that or not. But the stupid shit that i did.. I wouldn't have it any other way. I wouldn't be the person that i am today. I would enjoy going to see my haters as well,

Silence Is Golden
Never tell him you luv him. Bury the secret deep in your heart. Once the words are spoken reality is given the opportunity to enter your dreams so the color fades like a dying rose. Just a thought to add...Seeing him everyday...Whether in reality or just in the cyber world...Makes it hard to keep the silence...But the fear of losing a friend locks the lips quite well Adding another thought to this...Letting someone else in on the secrets of your heart...Confiding in them can backfire even worse...Esp when they ridicule you for how you feel...No matter how many people have went thru similar situations as you have...It is a totally different experience for each and every person...Some survive and go on...And others are scarred for life Additional thought: When that person comes back to apologize after ripping your soul to shreds it really means nothing...It is just a reminder of the pain they inflicted when they swore they were a friend and would never hurt you...Apparently my definit

Everything Don't Last Forever!!!
Not everything lasts forever, not the tears in our eyes, nor the pain in our hearts. Life seems to lose meaning when love ones choose to depart. The friends we earn and the people we know may choose a different path or a different way to go. We are left with nothing, but memories they've left behind. Fortunate that for a moment our lives were entwined. How many people have we met, how many friends have we lost due to time? death? or distance? Years from now would we still remember their names or perhaps their faces, the way they smile or maybe their favorite places?! People come and people go in this whirlwind life can we choose who we want to stay. Theres no comfort in knowing that all we have is today? Makes me wonder why not everything lasts forever *sigh* hope everything turns out for the bette.

Emerging Courageous
Walking Through Your FearThe situations, activities, and individuals that frighten us remain static. Their relative intensity does not change. Fear, on the other hand, self-magnifies. It is when you are afraid and envisioning all that might go wrong that the energy underlying your fear grows. A tiny flicker of anxiety can easily develop into a terror that manifests itself physically and eventually paralyzes you into inaction. Though frequently, in walking through that fear, we discover that the strength of our fright was out of synch with reality. And we learn that doing what frightens us can lead to great blessings. Confronting your trepidation head-on will help you accept that few frightening scenarios will ever live up to the negative disasters that we sometimes play out in our minds.Though fear is literally an evolutionary gift meant to sharpen your senses and energize you during times of great stress, it can nonetheless become a barrier that prevents you from fulfilling your poten

One Of My Poems
Friends will comeFriends will go.True friendship, though,Comes from the Heart. Once a true friendAlways a true friendTrue friendship, of course,Never dies But if it never diesThen where does it lie?Does it lie in the mind or heart?Can anything ever tear it apart? True friends always careThey always listen to your troublesThough they may not have a solutionAtleast they take the time to share Having a true friendIs an honor to cherishIf ever you find oneDo not let him or her get away 11/17/92

My Brother James Died Today
My brother james died today. i havnt cryed at all yet. my bothers friends and my friend cady came over. she any my family balled there eyes out. it happend so fast. my body feels so weak and nimb. i dont know what to do. he also has a page on here. it is so sad. i cant hardly breath. i need help.

Pourquoi? (why?)
French... Pourquoi es-tu si belle? Pourquoi tu bouges comme sa? Pourquoi tu me fais mal? Oooh, je me sens tout nu Ooh Oui Ooh Oui Pourquoi tu fais tout ca? Pourquoi tu dis tout ca? Pourquoi tu me fais mal? Ooh Oui Ooh Oui Ooh Oui Ooh Oui Viens plus près de moi, jai besoin de toi,

Rip Will...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZVWn-nwG00&feature=player_embedded Crash on U.S. 26 in Clatsop County kills Hillsboro man by The Oregonian Monday July 20, 2009, 8:26 PM A traffic accident on U.S. 26 west of Elsie in Clatsop County left a man dead this afternoon, the Oregon State Police reported. A Chevrolet pickup was westbound about 4:15 p.m. when it passed another vehicle in a no-passing zone, said Lt. Gregg Hastings, a state police spokesman. According to witnesses, the truck was speeding and went out of control as it moved back into its lane. It struck an embankment, rolled several times and landed on its top. William J. Pierce, 37, of Hillsboro was pronounced dead at the scene. -- Staff reports

Issues... Thoughts, Feelings.... All That Stuff....
Do you ever kick yourself in the ass? I don't mean literally but you know... over something you did that you shouldn't have done, or, something that you didn't do but should have done? I'm sitting at a point in my life right now to where I either have to dwell in what's going on or force myself to move on for the sake of sanity. Everytime I turn around, something in my life that seems like a big deal to me, is changing. Some things for the better and some for the worse. 99% of these things are things with my friends. I don't have the ability to say "don't do that" or "do this". They are my friends, not my children. They live their lives the way that they want to. No matter how I try to convince myself that everything is going to turn out great, I just can't shake this nasty feeling I have deep within my gut. This nagging feeling that says "you will never feel that way again, that moment is gone, you will never get it back no matter how content you were"... I was honestly ju

Someone Actually Bought Me...who'd've Thunk It?
Someone actually bought me and boy how sorry do I feel for that guy. He has to look at my ugly mug checking him out all the time to rate and stalk and all that good stuff that comes with ownership...you guys can send him sympathy cards later. lol Thank you D o u g for buying me. It will definitely be fun. You guys go check him out and at least rate him...he really is an undercover sweetheart. $safe_uid_dname@ fubar

Where Was I........
When Sam got here last night, I could tell she was crying earlier, I gave her a hug and we all three sat down at kitchen table. She told us that her bf, now xbf, called her parents and told her nasty lies about her, like she was a stripper and prostitue and said she has had like 4 abortions. WHAT A FUCKING JERK!!!!!!! I was so enraged I wanted to drive over there and slapped the fuck out of him!!!!! Oh dont ever get me pissed!!!!!!! My friend was able to calm me down and also calmed down Sam. My friend said he would take care of it and went into his study and got online and then his cell and talked to someone. After he got off the phone, all he told us was that it would be taken care of and that Sam wouldn't have to worry about that asshole anymore. He didn't say anything else. We all had some cereal and then went to his bedroom, something happened last night that I am trying to sort out right now. I have always enjoyed having sex with him, the pleasure he gives me is nuthin l

My Prayer
Lord I really need your help. Give me strength and guidance to take me to the right direction. Give me the ability to have moreconfidence in myself. Please let people know that I mean no harm I'm a good soul, God. I just need help mentally, dear Lord. I'm not a bad person, just misunderstood, dear Lord. Please heal me, please give me knowledge. Please God correct me and let people that I made uncomforatble know that I mean no harm. Please give me strength and guidance. In Lord Jesus Name, AMEN.

Past
ok im not one to write much but i just cant shake a few things off ,i just dont understand if someone is susposed to be your best friend and you did and have done everything possible to help that person,even going as far as giving them a place live so the kids wasnt going without,how can they turn around and tear a family apart,take a father from his son ,and rip apart a relationship ,it might have not been the perfect lil family and maybe we fought alot and i wasnt treated the best but we managed to make it through 9 years together,but now my so called friend has took over and is living the life i once had,and dosnt feel bad at all for doing what she did,i guess it still dose hurt me some,i mean other then my son, him and his family was my life and thats all i knew i never imagined in a million years that i would have to lose everything i knew and start a new life clear across the country,it just hurts to know she is gong to be waking up everyday in a house that was once mine in the s

Demise
ALL THIS MESS IN MY HEAD DARKNESS KEEPS ME AT REST IF YOU CAN EVEN UNDERSTAND FEEL MY HAND TOUCH MY HEAD FEVER PITCH IS IN THE RED DEMONS ARE INSANE TO KEEP ME ALIVE BECAUSE EVEN HELL CANT HELP WITH MY PAIN SIN IS TAINTING MY BLOOD CONSUMING MY LIFE TILL THE END WHERE EVERYONE DIES WHERE EVERYONE MEETS THEIR BITTER END WRITTEN BY: ROY VENEZIA JR (THE WRETCHED)

Furry Fiend. (photo Inside)
Hello. My name is Cosmo. You might know me from Fluffy Starr TeeVee, in such videos like "The Birds Crotch" or "The Talking Chihuahua" (yes, I'm talented), or more recently "The Synth Cat." Yes, Mother likes to have her fun with me... But what can I do? She told me from a young age that she was my Queen, and I was to do as she says. But she feeds me the best num-nums and gives me the most excellent toys, so it's quite palatable, I assure you. Here is a recent photo of me, in one of my beds. I have several. This one is smack in the middle of the studio, so I can lounge around (like the diva I am) while Mother plays with her synths. Aren't I simply adorable? Of course I am, even though Mother is sure I'm a monster at heart. (But I'm my Mother's son all the way.) Please feel free to post a photo of your furry friend here. x Fluffy & Cosmo

Teacher
It was with you that I learned that there are new and better feelings, you introduced me to a whole new world of dreams. I learned that the week has more than seven days, and to feel blessed, that I also learned with you. With you I learned to see the light at the other side of the moon. With you I learned that I would not change your presence with another. I also learned that a kiss can be deeper and sweeter, that I can depart tomorrow from this world because all the good things in life I have already shared with you. With you I learned that I was born the day I met you.

Dear Crackhead...
So... I've been finding some very amusing things on the web lately, and thought I would start sharing them with you guys. Here's our first winner: (From Craigslist) Yes, you. You sick fucker. On Wednesday morning I emerged from my girlfriend's building by U.N. Plaza to find that you had sawed the tops off both the sparkplugs on my motorcycle. At the time, I had no idea why anyone would do that. Other than the sparkplugs, the bike was untouched. Some kind of bizarre vandalism? A fraternity prank gone awry? I had no idea. All I knew is that I looked like a huge douchebag riding the Muni to work in a padded motorcycle jacket and helmet. Because the bike was immobilized I got a $35 street sweeping ticket that night. Thursday I had it towed to the shop ($45) where they replaced the sparkplugs and the boots ($50 including labor). They explained to me that "people" - I use the term loosely here - like you break off the tops of spark plugs and use the porcelain tubes to smoke crack.

A Fake Gets A Fu Pony....
Check the blog below and to the left with the same title...don't forget to rate , tell your friends and post your comments as always and please don't forget to rate it a 1, 3, 6, 10 or 11..:D

Friends.
WHAT IS A FREIND? A FREIND IS SOME ONE THAT NEVER OVER STEPS THE BOUNDRIES YOU HAVE.. THAT IS MORE THAN JUST HERE ILL GIVE YOU THIS. A FRIEND IS SUPPOSE TO BE THERE FOR YOU THROUGH THICK AND THIN NO MATTER WHAT.. A FRIEND IS SOME ONE THAT NEVER SAYS SEXUAL SHIT IN FRONT OF SOMEONE YOUR DATING LIKE " SEE MY TITTIES I HAVE BIG TITTIES I HAVE NICE NIPPLES" THATS OVER STEPPING YOUR FRIENDS BOUNDRIES.. A FRIEND DONT JUST DO THINGS FOR YOU THEY RESPECT YOU AS WELL. A FRIEND WOULD NOT DATE A GUY YOU LIKE REGARDLESS EVEN IF YOU LIKE THE GUY AS WELL.. THATS NOT RESPECTING A PERSON AT ALL..I ALWAYS TEST A PERSON AND SAY HERE YOU GO YOU LIKE THEM AND IF THEY GO FOR THE TRAP THEN I KNOW DAMN WELL THERE NOT MY TRUE FRIEND.. I KNOW THEN THEY HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM AND JUST ARE WANTING TO MAKE THEMSELFS FEEL BIGGER BY DOING THE SHIT THEY DO.. I WONT TOLERATE THAT SHIT AT ALL ITS WRONG IN SO MANY WAYS.. IT REALLY IS.. A FRIEND WOULD NOT ASK YOU IF ITS OK TO ASK ANOTHER GUY YOU LIKE ADVISE ABOUT

All In A Days Work
due to the requirements of my work, at one point or another bruises get created, punctures are made, and some blood is spilled. c....tower work aint for the weak hearted and stupidity can kill you in a heartbeat. even when youre paying attention toyour task at hand, things can go weird...take yesterday. 300 ft of roan tower being dismantled..2 men with tools at top, 1 said tool dropped and rapidly accelerates to over 100 mph while being skipped off the tower like a pingpong ball..HEADACHE HEADACHE would be the normal thing yelled out by MR ?:>

Does God Exist?
In his Summa Theologica, the medieval Dominican theologian St. Thomas Aquinas answers the question "Does God exist?" by offering five arguments drawn from observance of the natural world to support the existence of God. They are: An argument from motion: Since the universe is in motion, something or someone must have set it in motion. An argument from cause: The universe must have a first efficient cause in order to exist. An argument from existence: In order for all things to exist, there must be something or someone that is existence and does not receive existence from something else. In other words, there must be something or someone which is not dependent for its existence from something else. An argument from goodness: The fact that there are differing degrees of goodness in the world means that there must be some standard or perfection of goodness against which we can measure lesser goods. An argument from design: All things in the are directed to an en

Interaction
Eyelids flutter lightly, lovers gazes lock. A ritual made nightly, not much left for talk. Smiles brighten slightly, teasing each to walk. Knowingly holding tightly, beating out the clock. Whispers take the pair, movements start a course. Thickness fills the air, from the heated source. To her in his stare, submissive to his force. Their burden left to bear, showing till they're hoarse.

Hot Or Not? Best And Worst Foods For Your Sex Drive
Hot or not? Best and worst foods for your sex drive http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/32010736/ns/... It's no secret that the unhealthy American diet is contributing to an epidemic of obesity. But there's another hidden epidemic that our fatty diets are at the root of: A national sex crisis. One of the big culprits, for both men and women, is obesity. As a person's weight soars, their libido plummets due to biochemical changes that result in diminished bloodflow. That extra weight also hinders their ability to have children — with men, it's damaged sperm; with women, it's ovulation problems. The good news: With some simple changes to your diet, courtesy of "Eat This, Not That!", you can revitalize your sex life. How? First, as you consume filling foods with fewer calories, you'll begin to shed the weight that's dragging down your desire. Then, because these foods also contain ingredients and nutrients that strategically boost sexual attraction and perform

The Wiccan Rede
Bide within the Law you must, in perfect Love and perfect Trust. Live you must and let to live, fairly take and fairly give. For tread the Circle thrice about to keep unwelcome spirits out. To bind the spell well every time, let the spell be said in rhyme. Light of eye and soft of touch, speak you little, listen much. Honor the Old Ones in deed and name, let love and light be our guides again. Deosil go by the waxing moon, chanting out the joyful tune. Widdershins go when the moon doth wane, and the werewolf howls by the dread wolfsbane. When the Lady's moon is new, kiss the hand to Her times two. When the moon rides at Her peak then your heart's desire seek. Heed the North winds mighty gale, lock the door and trim the sail. When the Wind blows from the East, expect the new and set the feast. When the wind comes from the South, love will kiss you on the mouth. When the wind whispers from the West, all hearts will find peace and rest. Nine woods in the Cauldron go, burn them fas

Vampyre Creed
I will not let my ego blind me to truth and I cherish my life, for though I have lived I still have much to learn. I understand, and honor my animal instincts, but I never let that I am a predatory animal overtake me. I use my mind to clearly help me define all reason and to help explore that which I do not know or cannot be explained as rational. I recognize the difference between the worlds of truth, fantasy, the unknown and the planes of other existence and feel at home with them all. I acknowledge the fact that survival is the highest law, but make sure I do not infringe upon another basic right. I acknowledge the Powers of Darkness and Powers of Light, both to be hidden in its natural laws. I know that my external Rituals are but part of Physical Fantasy while my internal magic is what is real. I respect and acknowledge on all levels and plains the results of my magic. There is no heaven as there is no hell, there are only life and death. And Death is the end of life and life is t

Fubar Drama!
WELL,SEEMS LIKE I HAVE ALOT OF FUCKIN HATERS ON FU,BUT ITS ALL GOOD I AINT WORRIED ABOUT IT..I GOT BITCHES HATIN ON ME CUZ I GET BLINGED,SHIT ITS NOT MY FAULT IM LOVED,N TRICKS STOP CHASIN AFTER MY BESTIE TIM,JUS CUZ HE BLINGS ME,DONT MEAN HE GONNA BLING UR ASSES,GET A LIFE! ANYWAYS,SO I MIGHT HAVE THIS STALKER SPREAD RUMORS OF ME ON THE FU I AINT SAYIN NAMES,THEN AGAIN I JUST MIGHT TO WARN U ALL ABOUT HIM " ™♫Decaying Purity♫™@TAINTED ANGELS (Fu Married To Therma & Rachel Rotten)" FIRST OF ALL,LET ME LET U ALL KNOW THE DEAL WITH HIM,IN HIS MIND HE BELIEVES I OWE HIM,I DONT OWE HIM SHIT,IF SOMEONE BUYS U SHIT WILLING MEANIN THEY BOUGHT IT CUZ THEY WANTED TO,I NOT ONCE ASKED HIM TO BUY ME NOTHIN,N HE IS PISSED CUZ HE THINKS I OWE HIM,BLING! FUCK...I UNDERSTAND IF I BEGGED HIM TO BUY THE 2 HAPPYHOURS FOR ME,BUT I DIDNT..SO HE STALKS THE PEOPLE I BLING N HE FLIPS OUT,CUZ HE SAYS I DONT BLING HIM GOOD ENOUGH BLING,SHIT I BLING HIM AS MUCH AS I COULD,BOUGHT HIM A

Needing To Be Lost
Sometimes I get lost in the words that I hear from people, I believe their words when they say they care, I believe them when they throw words at me like love and friendship... So I ask myself "Am I Just kidding myself?? Do these people really mean this shit that I am hearing?? I want to believe these words I need to believe these words, so I guess I really could care less if they are true are not, the fact is I need them whether they are truth are fiction. We like to think we are self dependent and the only person we need is ourselves,but honestly who are we fucking kidding here?... We all need to feel loved and cared for by others it is only human nature to feel this way. So I get lost in the words I hear ....I am not sure if they are lies or truthful thoughts from the persons heart, but I do know I get lost, simply because I need to believe!!

Conspiracy Theorist
In lieu of my Fubar general character lists, I forgot to mention (or rather someone asked me to) another type-a conspiracy theorist. This is a person that spends most of the hard earned money he gets from working for the Man on buying endless rolls of Aluminum foil that is used to make cone shaped hats. These hats are then used to prevent any mind altering and controlling rays and electromagnetic fields that the Man could possibly inflict upon its measly manservant during his overnight stint at a local Walmart. The CT usually believes that he knows the truth about a number of controversial topics, such as 9/11, abortion, death pentaly, and the location of a latest load of laundry that his mother did for him when his water bill was left unpaid for. He likes to impress local liberal arts scholars, especially females. In fact, he often, even at a middle age, takes classes at a local community college in order to spread his word, and eventually his seed, to unsuspected naive 20 some

"have I Ever"
Have I ever told youthat if I sit really still and silent,sometimes. I like to thinkI can hear your heart beatingin time with mine?Have I ever told youthat when I listen you speak to methrough lines and cords,and bytes and ram,I imagineyour voice,whispering into my ear?Have I ever told youthat I wait out each dayin anticipation,wantingonly an hour or two,just a second in space and time,to feel close to you?Have I ever told youthat there has been times,when I ached for you,ached for you so badly,that the emotions overwhelmed me..and so I sat and cried?Have I ever told youthat sometimes,I will reach out,touching your nameon this cold screen before me,wishingI could reach inand pull you to me?Have I ever told youthat after the first time I heardthe sound of your voice,thousands of miles away,I sat up all night,turning the conversation over and overin my mind,examining it,like some newly discovered species of flower?Have I ever told youthat I would give everything up,just for one nightto b

Self-deprecating Or Self-loathing
A couple days ago I was chatting with a friend of mine on Fubar. She asked me why I always refer to myself as a douchebag or asshole, as you see in the title of this blog, "A day in the life of a douche bag." I told her that it's just my sense of humor. I tend to be very self-deprecating. I put myself down, point out my flaws, call myself a douche bag, or a fat ass. But is this self-deprecating or self-loathing. I guess the answer depends on my mood and the day. Yesterday it was full on self-loathing. I was tired, moody, depressed. Not even Charlie's smile was able to brighten my day when I got home. I eventually lightened up a bit and I was able to play with her and laugh. By the time I went to bed I was spent. I find it takes a lot of energy to hate yourself. I hate that I got very little done at work, that I don't enjoy my job, and that I spend too much time on this website and others while at my job. I feel I should be a better husband to my wife and father to my da

Stumbling Down Memory Lane...
...Want Ads stating "Help Wanted: Male" or "Help Wanted: Female". Replying to an ad of the wrong gender was a waste of time, as you would be laughed (or cursed) out of the Personnel Office (as they once were called)....Mothers leaving their kids with a "sitter", because there was no "day care". This was still a foreign concept when I was well into my teens, and a major demand from the "Womens' Movement"....The Womens' Movement. Women insisting it be "ok" for a woman to work outside the home because she WANTED to, not just because her husband was a layabout. The jeers at the "women who wanted to be men". The justifications for paying women less than men for the same work....Having to ask for a Private Line from "THE PHONE COMPANY"; otherwise you would have to be on a Party Line....When there was only one PHONE COMPANY, you leased your phone (and THEY fixed it when it broke), & yes, I remember Party Lines (and was on one for a time)....When you dialed (yes, DIALED) 5 numbers, the first 2

Omfg, Photoshop Is Soooooo Expensive!
My 30 day time time-trial of Photoshop ended yesterday. I am soooooooooooo bummed out because I'm going to start going to computer graphics type classes soon. Ugh, I'm just all upset. If anybody reading this can help me out in any way, let me know. I means so much to me. :)

To Thy Own Self Be True
Shakespeare said in Hamlet, "To Thy own self, be true"...and from what I've seen so far this week, a few people on here could use a little kick in the ass and I'm calling out one in particular JENNA-- you thrill the masses with your plastique thrills and your fake smiles..your "Girl Next Door" persona is also quite fake.. youre a cold hearted, retarded, naive little tussie..I would certainly love to know what or whom is pulling your strings.

Clouded Soul
Lost within his mind,His soul he wishes to find,Cast onto the forgotten path,Gained nothing he hath,Fighting to prove him true,His inner power he must subdue,Anger and hate like burning flames,Tired of the demons endless games,Holding to his shrouded past,Hoping that his energy will last,So near yet so far from his goal,The return of his clouded soul.

Declaration
As many of you know my life has been pretty fucked up this year. I lost my girlfriend who meant the world to me, my life was planned with her. I lost my job. I started taking care of my mom. All and all my mental health has been at just about its lowest in as long as I can remember. I'm depressed, I'm angry, I'm ready to call it quits. but I can't. Not because of my kids, or my mom, or anyone else that has no faith in me anyways, I can't cause its not in my nature. I'm sick of my anger. I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. I done with other people having any major influence in my life, or how I live it. Do my mom and my kids drive me crazy? yeah. Did Erin really fuck me up when she fucked me over? yeah. Am I going to have a hard time trusting women again? Hell yeah (you all do suck) but I'm done having that control me. So my life hasn't gone to my plan. So fuckin what. I've got my friends. I'm more dedicated to living life than I was last year. I'm goin to have some fun now. New frie

Don't Worry About Me
subject: Please Rate This date: 2009-07-22 18:23:39 Don't Worry About MeI'm not trying to get back with youBecause you are not the Man I thought you would be Don't Worry About MeI'm through playing those games with youAll you had to do was say your through Don't Worry About MeAll the things we had planned togetherYou could have said you had a change of plans likemaybe never Don't Worry About MeAll I wanted to do was show how much I loved youInstead you showed me your thoughts on how to move Don't Worry About MeI tried to call you to see if you was alrightBut you would not return my calls any night Don't Worry About MeWe could have had a wonderful lifeInstead you changed your plans on me becoming your wife Don't Worry About MeSo we are through and that's a factI hope you get your life intactInstead of trying to be Daddy Mac

I Think I Am Misunderstanding The Whole Fan Thing
Let me know if I am wrong, but I thought when you fanned a person it is because your a fan of something you find interesting in a person. How can you Fan someone when you don't really know that person? My List is small but for good reason: Sugartastic: How can you not be a fan of her, she is an amazing writer with creativity coming out through every pore of her body...which not bad mine is better. :) But back to her writing, she could get me excited about her wonderful day of doing nothing all by how she delivers it.And all around amazing wonderful person for what I know, or what I know from what she expresses in writing and conversation.She even told me about firefox spell check, which stopped me from looking a fool. Mrs. Badcrumble: She is one that I think I could relate to by the environment of people and influences I bring into my life.Anyone that know about the great Divine, how can you not like?Risky at times but over all shows that she is a straight up person and tells you

Dance
Most of you may know most of u may not i'm a dancer. Been a dancer ever since I was 3 and i'm 20 now so 17 years in the making .Ilove dance it's my passion and now I use it to usually vent or exspress my feelings instead of doing something stupid.So so far ive taken the fallowing: ballet,jazz,tap,hip hop,irish river, clogging, belly dancing, pole dancing, break dancing, salsa, ballroom, tango,modern, lyrical, swing so on and so forth lol.Yes,looks like i've taken every dance class possible but nope . Iv'e been very dedicated to dance my whole life worked my ass off everyday practicing had my dad build like my own lil studio in the basement then later on he actually built my a studio kinda on the outside looked like a barn and on the inside looked like a studio and used to spend hour after hour there practicing and did my homework there too didnt go back to the main house till around 10:00 around eveyday.Since breakdancing needed muscle, built up some pretty nice muscles with the hel

Sorry For The Small Print Not The Best. But If Anyone Wants To Work Off It U Shall.
She didn’t just want his body she wanted his soul… his very blood., His love. Tonight is the night she thought as she pulled on her form fitting dress and stepped into her new sexy high heel shoes. She knew with her style that she would make his mind and body go crazy and with her attitude that would make any man want her she would have him. She smelled the scents of plenty of humans before but no one had the scent that drove her mad with desire. Leigh knew when she smelled Laken that he was the one he smelled so sweet and eager to please and control. Leigh easily knew where she could find her Laken. She questioned him though and how she could get him alone. She thought of all the ways she could easily lure him to her. With everything considered weighed out with long hours of thought she said screw it I love the haunt more then anything. I don’t want him to bow to me or throw him self to me like all the other ones before. I want him to make me chase him and make

Love Letter
My pain brings you joy so I hand you the tools to do so. My body is my own you desire it so I give it to you so you can be pleased. My heart can break so I give you the pieces so you can put it back together and make it yours. My mind can wonder so I give you my focus and my thoughts so I never stray from you. My essence is free flowing so I give you the control of the very me so you can call me yours.

Soul Mate~~
Look into my eyes, See my soul Kiss me, Feel my heart Touch me, Our hearts become one Love me, See our future Lust me, Feel our sexual desire Ask me, I'll says yes We marry, we have a family Happiness, 2 see our children grow Completness, "Us" as we became a family Wisdom, What we lived and learned together Sucessful,Through good and bad during the years we can still..... Look in2 eachothers eyes and see our soul Kiss and feel our heart Touch and know our hearts are one

Yeehaw!
I have a prank idea, which I wrote about previously. I am going to post a Craigslist ad, telling that I am a tall hot blonde in town for business, and I need to get some dick in me. Then I will tell them to meet me at the crossing of road X and road X, by my hotel. I would be able to see those losers from the entrance.

Test
this is test, this is only a test. had this been an actual blog there would be words compiled into sentances, sentances forming paragraphs, paragraphs forming a point or a statement. stay tuned for an actual blog!

The Evil Knight
"Crazy nights and crazy dreams,evil knights with laser beams.Doth protest t'his foulish scheme,rule the kingdom in supreme.Plague the people too extreme,leaving them with low esteem.Without hope, there is no gleam.Even with a common theme.Urge a hero they all scream,put an end to this regime.Edward Peters they all deem,No, one said, we need a ream.Yes, one shouts, he has a team,he'll finish th'all like a cream.Like one said he found a seam,drove the knights out to the stream.Without weapons they all teem,like untrained kids they all steam.Peters a hero, t'all seem,Sir t'his name was his redeem." © LT.David Martin

Never Thought In My Life That I Would Be Doing This But I Am...
Well, I never thought it would lead to this but looks like I need it. THERAPY Yeah, I said it. THERAPY. I'm going to see a psychiatrist today. I never thought I would have problems mentally but I do. I need to get myself straightened up before I get into any relationships or basically anything. It's hard for me to keep a friendship with a woman or anybody because of the way I am, so I'm just gonna leave women and relationships alone. I'm doing a lot of dumb things that I'm not realizing that I'm doing (Annoying & smothering women, repeating myself, talk down on myself, etc.). I'm gonna talk to the psychiatrist everything that I'm having problems with and hopefully give me better medication cause the one I'm on now's not doing a damn thing to help me get better. I've gotten worse, so I hope that this doctor would help me throughout all of my problems. Wish me luck

The First Time
As I walked up to the door, with my heart racing in anticipation, all I could think of was her beautiful face, as I had saw pictures of so many times. I rang the bell, and as I turned with nervous energy, it happened. She opened the door, and there was a sweet silence as our eyes met for the first time. The feeling of losing myself struck suddenly as I got lost in her chocolate brown eyes. I was mezmorized by her beauty. The way her hair flickered in the breeze, was like a swaying palm tree on a beautiful island. As she reached out to me and her hand touched mine, I felt an electricity, that I had never felt before, run through my veins like a flood. I softly placed my hand on the small of her back, and the other on the base of her neck, and pulled her ever so closely. I slowly placed my lips upon hers, as she softly let out a single sigh of passion, and we kissed as if there were no one else in the world who were meant to be there more than we were. As we ever so gently eased apart, I

Beauty And Society
Hello today i had a run in with alot of immature small minded people... Has anyone ever heard there is more then one type of beauty society has made this the only form of beauty according to them we should all succumb to this... no theres more forms of beauty

Changes To Fu-owned Reimbursements
Starting now, all fu-Owned purchases will reimburse the previous owner by the reiumbursement percent applied to the old (pre-purchase) value as opposed to applying the reimbursement percent towards the new purchase price. For example: X is worth 1,000,000 fuBucks. Someone purchases X for 2,000,000 fuBucks. The previous owner will be reimbursed 800,000 fuBucks instead of 1.6M fuBucks.

Hope You're Interested!!!
AS A LOT OF YOU KNOW...I'M A GIRL WHO'S NOT AFRAID TO ASK FOR WHAT I WANT. THERE ARE THINGS THAT I WANT, AND SINCE THE NEW LEVELS HAVE OPENED, THINGS AREN'T THE SAME. PEOPLE DON'T GIVE THINGS OUT AS FREELY AS THEY USED TO. I WOULD LIKE TO MAKE SOME DEALS FOR THE THINGS I WANT. LET ME KNOW IF YOU'RE INTERESTED...HERE'S A LIST OF THINGS I WANT AND WHAT I'M WILLING TO GIVE FOR THEM: 1 CREDIT BLINGS-OR-1 DAY BLAST- 50K 1 SFW SALUTE 3 CREDIT BLINGS-OR-6 CRED BLING PACK-OR-3 DAY BLAST- 150K 2 SFW SALUTES 1 PIMPOUT 5 CREDIT BLINGS-OR-TICKER-OR-7 DAY BLAST- 300K 3 SFW SALUTES

Poem # 2 Tell Me What You Think
Another Poem "Fire and Brimstone" The darkness that fills my life has over took my soul.The feeling of hate has given me no where to go.I strive to be someone worthy of love and trust.But in my endless travels i have found only lust.I fight for the feeling of honesty and control.But what iIfeel inside seems to never be told.My life has went to hell and will be hard to return.I claw my way up the brimstone only to fall and burn.As my flesh melt from my body and falls to the ground.I climb once again never giving in to the sound.I hear them say I am unworthy and weak.But I fight to saw i am strong and find what I seek.The love of another will be my goal till the end.Until that day in this fire I will stay pending.

Pick Up Lines 2
i believe mankind was a ploy to create an earthbound angel born in gods image, an angel in the form of you thanks to you i can see why lucifer thought the humans were precious enough to get jealous over when god made me he made a copy to put on his mantle, when god made you he made a copy to put in his bed roses are red and so are my cheeks cause when you smile at me i blush and get weak violets are blue and because of you im fully aroused so my balls are too you think this is sweet? this is just a sliver off the sugar cane, let me know when your ready for a mouthful in this society marriage is like a fulltime job... you still got to have something on the side to get fullfilled "i have 3 inches of hard dick for you" ( far east coast from "How High") lets play navy you be the submarine.... dive deep, get wet, sink a sub and ill fill you with the seamen to get the job done

The Consummation
... the end. Weightless, levitating on the sea of the Eternal. We slide into the essence of each other. Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue, Purple. Wetly ready. My eyes see all that is you. Silken strands of pure energy from the source of our Creator refract deeply inwards; penetrating, sublimating, suplicating. Slow and steady, the pulsing of a gift accepted changes our refractions into reflections. ... the beginning. Now the throb of choice aches inside of us; arches and thrusts completes the immersion of our seperation. Freely we feed each other. There is no consumption. Consummate love.

My Drawings
You can see my drawings at playlist.com The drawings in color that you see here are from deviantart.com- I didn't do them- I do sketches right now- they didn't look that good here so see them at playlist, Thanks wolf

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All I Wanted
i was here for you every minute every second of the day to pick you up when you were down and to make you feel wanted and loved... all i wanted in return was you to love me and be honest... i was only good enough for you when it was convenient for you... im not a picture you put up on a shelf to collect dust and only take down when you want to look at when you want.... i am a person with feelings and a wonderful heart... i want to be loved and spoiled and treated like a princess or a woman you truely want... i want to feel your kiss your touch... but i guess i only wanted to much.....

Meet
So there was this British guy that calls the hotel every morning at the same time, to one of the rooms, for about a year now. Last night, this guy comes to the FD, extend his hand, and goes : "Hi, I'm Lloyd, you must be Natalia!" At first I was like WTF?? ANd then he explained that he is the dude that has been callin the hotel n the morning for the past year. It was weird seeing him in person.

Killing Myself??
my wonderful hearty breakfast this morning is i diced up some bacon and sliced some hot dogs and fried them up in bacon fat from last nights BLT's and i added 5 eggs and fake cheese and chasing it with a monster the good news is im having whole wheat toast hows everyone this morning?

Camera For Sale
Unfortuantely I've found that I'm a Canon shooter in a studio full of Nikons :( I have a Canon Rebel XTI for sale. It's 10mp, black and comes with an 18-55mm 3.5-5.6 Lens, 2 batteries, 2 chargers, usb cable, video cable, and I still even have the box. It's in excellent condition being that it's only been used a handful of times. I'm looking for around $500 for it.

Wtf Was He Thinking?
ONLY A MAN WOULD ATTEMPT THIS Just try reading this without laughing till you cry!!! Pocket Taser Stun Gun, a great gift for the wife. A guy who purchased his lovely wife a pocket Taser for their anniversary submitted this: Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked myinterest. The occasion was our 15th anniversary and I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Julie. What I came across was a 100,000-volt, pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were supposed to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety....?? WAY TOO COOL! Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded two AAA batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button. Nothing! I was disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I'd get the blue arc of electricity dartin

For Me
Curiousity leaves your mind roaming within thought,trying to figure out exactly what it wants...The thought of a relation between two people,sometimes leaves the mind in a state of lifeless thought...A blank thought of you within my arms might be it,the feeling that I would love to enjoy...I have spent time with you for almost two months now,but yet, it seems so much longer than it has been...You question my feelings for you,wondering why I would have feelings for you...Things that some people might let get in the way,I really dont worry about so much...You are not the average girl, or the perfect date,but then again, I love your little imperfections...Matbe your make-up isnt always perect,or your hair isnt straight in the mornings...I actually really dont care that your hair gets messed up,or even that your make-up might cover up your beautiful face...I miss you even though I can see you right now,my sexy babygirl... Written By: Zack A.K.A Comatosed

Phrozen Apocalypse
I'm the Phrozen Body Boy and I am here to kill youYou will all fuckin' bow to me and I will prove your God failed youBurn a church and I will fuckin' execute a priestCause I am the fuckin' antichrist and your punk life will soon deceaseI'm the Phrozen Body Boy and I am here to kill youYou will all fuckin' bow to me and I will prove your God failed youBurn a church and I will fuckin' execute a priestCause I am the fuckin' antichrist and your punk life will soon deceaseActin' like a punk bitch, frontin' like a little boyI'm the frozen one bitch here to destroyFrontline bitch time to start the fuckin' warCrucify a Christian gettin' off to the goreI know you run your mouth kill your kid before he's bornI'll execute your wife so she'll never have to mournWatch which side you pick cause Heaven's gonna fallCause I got the Christ head and I hear daddy callI'm still the Devils son until I overtake the throneI'm as bad as they come with a chrome to postTell me where the blessing's at while I'm s

The Call..
She called the usual list of people..Her sissy, her bestest friend, even taht bitch she dont really like...no one answered...A "BING!" rose her from her self-absorbed thoughts. She stared at her computer and noticed a blinking box that said "care to chat?". She looked for a sign of who it was, but none was forthcoming..she figured "oh hell,what do I have to lose" and clicked yes.. "hello love, Im Paul" is what she read, and her heart stopped..her breathing was the only sound in her ears, the rushing wind up and down her trachea resonating in her like a pebble in a hubcap. With shaking fingers she responded "hello Sir". His response was immediate and all she could hope for. "Hello NauteeMommee, I am glad I saw you online..I am intrigued and couldnt help but notice...you opened your heart and your soul in your profile...it is unusual and commendable. I was mesmerized by the authenticity and forwardness of your profile. As I said in my message, I dont seek one who is beaten, nor wishes t

Quick Story...........
ah the things you see when you go out for lunch...... I went to subway today and was waiting in line and curiously saw this young woman ahead of me........... wearing some designer jeans, a wife beater with a pink bra, and a WINTER SKI HAT............ WITH the goggles. Now most would find this get up a little odd for the middle of summer, I did too.......... of course after i finished purchasing my meal (footlong turkey ham YUMMY) ....... she was outside ...... waiting for me. Mind you, I am wearing the video game shirt currently on my default pic. She compliments me on the shirt and proceed to ask me where i can find some blow. magicly everything fell into place..........no more explanations needed. now that ive had my gigle u can have my giggle too :P

I Wish This Poem Were Pixie Dust
I wish this poem were pixie dust To throw into your eyes And make you see the loveliness Beneath my sad disguise. And I would take you in my arms And weave a magic spell That I could utter anytime To make you love me well. But alas my simple words Are like summer rain That drums on hills and fields and hearts, Then vanishes again. And though my love might make you bloom, You turn with fragile grace To gaze in aching loneliness At someone else's face. We lust for what we cannot have, A long, unbroken chain Of lovers who remain unloved And loved who love in vain. While I'm near mad with wanting you As trees must have the sun, You cannot help but find a love Who loves another one.

This Sickens Me
www.wptv.com/content/news/indianriver/verobeach/story/Baby-left-in-hot-car-dies-in-Vero-Beach/Mr3SVqEHo0m440_Kizm_ig.cspx This sickens me to the core of my soul. Many will sympathize. Many will disagree. But I believe there is NO excuse or reason to forget your child for that many hours ANYWHERE, let alone in the backseat of a car on a blistering hot day. How do you do that? Anyone who thinks that death by heatstroke is a pleasant way to go needs to go sit in a hot car for just 20 minutes. Parents who do this should suffer the same fate. I have no room for forgiveness when it comes to this kind of neglect.

Things I Hate
Things I Haaaate 1. Stupid people....damn u dont even know...it really really takes a lot 2 get me angry...but wow some people r just sooooo special... 2. People driving real slow in from of u ....especially driving below the speed limit .....i wish i could just push them out of the wayyyyy!!lol 3. Hoes....male and female....what happened 2 having morals? 4. Arrogance....keep tellin urself ur better than everyone...in the end u ll realize ur not 5. Jealously.....look at urself and deal with ur insecurities b4 u start talking ish about others (especially when u dont even know them...come on now..).... 6. Immaturity.......ur an adult...grow the f up already! well...... that is all.....

Whats O Nmy Mind
It breaks my heart to know there is a man out there with two beautiful daughters, whom he can hardly ever get to see. I just hope and pray that one of these days he will have his chance in the sun and get to be the father he thrives and dreams of being for his girls. They say he's not their dad, but never give him a chance to be their dad. Now how fair is that?You know there are men out there who don't want anything to do with their own children, and it is just a shame for they miss out on so much, and never realize it and don't really care.The men who do care and want so much more are denied that right of passage, for one reason or another, I don't know what anybody could ever do to deserve to be thrown to the side like that and be deprived of knowing all the wonderful child hood experiences they have to miss, is just a down right shame for the children always seem to pay for the mistakes of the adults. And at some point everyone deserves a second chance, no matter who they ar

Conversion (part 1)
I feel his heart beat in my head, his pulse in my veins. I can smell his fear….This is what brings me out at night. This is what I am now -- the eternal predator amongst innumerable sheep. I think back a moment to how it all began, and smile to myself.My nostrils flare as I scent my prey for this evening. My senses are alive, my own pulse quick, as I stalk another meal. His gait quickens as he traverses a pitch-black area of sidewalk, the perfect spot for my ambush.The exact moment I have been anticipating for the last hour arrives, as I make the switch from stalker to predator. Faster than can be seen, I pounce, hidden by the darkness. His hair is now in my grip, his neck snaps, and he collapses in my arms, a succulent and rather attractive meal for me. A shame, really, this one would have been fun to play with for a while. Tall, handsome, and now mostly dead as my fangs pierce his skin and I begin to feed.His wide-eyed look of total panic changes to a half-lidded smile as the

Women Study
WOMEN'S ASS SIZE STUDY. There is a new study about women and how they feel about their asses, the results were pretty interesting: 30% of women think their ass is too fat............ 10% of women think their ass is too skinny...... The remaining 60% say they don't care, they love him, he's a good man, and they wouldn't trade him for the world.

I Don't
“I don't want to fall asleep without you-- If I close my eyes, I might wake to never find you here. And I'll realize everything we had was only a dream, And we were never meant to be...” “Close your blue eyes, darling. I know they grow heavy now, If I could hold you, you know I would somehow. But distance is a monster—but perhaps also a blessing in disguise To prove that love knows no boundaries, no size.” 'I long for you,” “And I long for you,” “Think that'll ever change?” “Doubt it.” “I hope it stays the same.” “You're my waking thought, My sinking dream as I drift off. You make the world a master piece Just with that sweet smile.” “How did you know I was smiling?” &ldquo

My New And Improved Fubar Rant
After having my photo marked nsfw I took a big step back and look at fubar. Just like anything there is good and bad. The questions that keep popping up in my head are "should i stay?" "should i go" "why?". I love fubar. I spend a significant amount of time on fubar. I came here to get away from the prying eyes of my family whom are on mspace and fbook. I came here to get away from the enormous amount of fake profiles constantly friend requesting and spamming me. I came here to make friends without having to worry about underage kids being on the site. Lately among the greedy statuses there are several people deleting and even more remembering the way fubar used to be. There are a lot of people that want change here on fubar. Not because they are greedy. Not because they want something for free. They want change to make fubar a better experience and time for not just them but for others as well. These people either invest a pretty penny into fubar and its members or they have som

Gettin Laid
I keep reading about all those women "swearing off gettin laid", like its such a huge accomplishment. People have equated fucking with some sorts of moral obligations. Like not having sex, or waiting for prince charming, would make you a better person. This all usually comes from single moms that koncked up not knowing what CONDOMS are.

"disillusioned Junkie"
"Disillusioned Junkie" You told me loved me but that was just a lie statements of a false chemical high Musta been high to fall for your bullshit Like a disillusioned junkie Addicted 2 being Loved Longing to be held & caressed wrapped in warm & tender moments Like a Hallmark card consumer -I was a gulliable sap a fool refusing to see beyond the fascade of a magical moment Mislead by the hope of a fantasy come true heh...and my favorite part is that you aint even realized what you lost cuz truth of the matter is once you let a butterfly go

Some Random Statuses Fo People That Checked Me Out
(DAMN I wanna eat some pussy!!) (Creepy guy at work grabbed me and wouldn't let go today....) (Biggest Boobs On Fu...Bling Pak To See!!!) (What's A Girl Gotta Do For A Nifty Auto's Bling? LoL) (When i go on a rating spree i start with my fans) (HATERS CAN KISS MY A**!!! THERE'S PLENTY OF IT SO PUCKER UP B*TCHES!) IF UR GONNA STALK MY PAGE, ATLEASE FUCKIN RATE ME!!! DAMN

Rest In Peace
I REMEMBER THE FIRST DAY LIKE IT WAS YESTURDAY.... IT WAS MY 19TH BIRTHDAY AND I CAME IN HE BAR IN TEARS CUZ MY BF HAD LEFT ME AND YOU WRAPPED YOUR ARMS AROUND ME TELLING ME IT WOULD BE ALRIGHT... WE SAT THERE AND DRANK FOR HOURS TALKING ABOUT HOW YOU MET MY DAD AND HOW WE WOULD ALWAYS WATCH OUT FOR EACH OTHER... YOU WERE THERE FOR ME WHEN MY DAD WASN'T AND I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU LIKE A FATHER FIGURE AND MAY THE ANGELS HELP PUT YOU AT EASE... I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND ALTHOUGH YOUR GONE TO A BETTER PLACE WHERE YOU DON'T FEEL THE PAIN.... I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH REST IN PEACE UNCLE SQUIRREL

Death To Bin Laden
September Eleventh Two Thousand and One,The sun was just rising, the workday begun.When all of a sudden, from out of the sky,Four airplanes descended, thousands would die.Heroes were made and heroes were lost,The price of our freedom had taken its cost.Faceless cowards had raped our great land,But throughout the whole crisis,United We Stand.The face of Evil had reared its head,Many children were orphaned,More than three thousand known dead.But throughout all the fire, the dust and the smoke,America fought on, we never lost hope.Old Glory arose, forever She'll wave.In the land of the free,And the home of the brave.These hateful savages,The pain they well planned.Just sealed their own fate,For United We Stand.Bin Laden's al- Qaida,The Demons he commands.We Americans don't fear you,For United We Stand.Bin Laden ( ITS TIME TO DIE)LT.David MartinUnited States Marines Special Warfare and counter-terrorismUS Special Operations Command MCSOCOM © LT.David Martin

Dakota Rock Fest Adventure
Dakota Rock Fest was the 24th and 25th this month. I wanted to go so bad, but me nor any of my friends that also wanted to go could afford it. One drunk night last week, my buddy threw out the idea that we could sneak it. I was game. I like adventures. Friday I went and met up with my buddies at their house for our excellent journey. It started off by not being in the turning lane at a red light on Cliff Ave. when we needed to turn left. Fuck it, nobody was coming, so he gunned it. Parked the truck at D's and walked the backway to the bike trail. Sweet. It was a lovely day, warm with a nice breeze. I had my hair in low pig tail braids. Perfect. We are marching along the trail, listening to the music and cheering like we are right up there with the rest of the crowd. The passerby's were giving us interesting looks, but it was fabulous. We were living in the moment, not having a care in the world. The three of us. Great friends. Already had made a few phone calls to

Visit
Sooo...tonight I went over to my great aunt with my mom and grandpa. We had one of those "talk about other members of the fam when they are not there" convos, and I was amazed to hear all this stuff about my grandma from her sister in law. My grandma is extremely stubborn, and seems VERY stern and unemotional, but...she treats me like a grandma would, so I never really knew how she was with others. My great aunt said that she doesnt know why her brother was even with her, cause she totally didnt give a shit about anyone but herself, had him completely pussywhipped, and always had a heart of stone. This made me cringe inside a little, since it was my grandma they were talkin about...who made me yummy food every day, taught me violin, walked me to school, put up with my scandalous behavior. And yet, thinking about the way she talks to others, the way she carries herself, and the way she treated my late grandpa, I can totally see where my great aunt is coming from. *sighhh

Who Knows.........
Have you ever just wanted to give up finding that special someone? Have you ever just wanted to give up on love? To never risk being hurt once again. To not bother trying anymore or meeting people. Have you ever been so sick of trying to figure out? Have you ever put yourself and your wants and needs aside that you don't know how to do anything else but put others first ALL the time? This all seems to be where I'm at these days and I am sick of it all!! I have one special friend that could be more but I am sick of trying to figure that person out and always left feeling in the lurch or lost. So for now limbo is where I sit and just waiting for something..........

The Mind Wanders
I'm sitting here waitin to talk to you..........and it's raining here. Listening to it hit the sliding glass door and balcony.......what would this be like in your arms.......with you in mine. I'm thinking of things I've not allowed into my mind for sooooo long now.....and I DON'T KNOW HOW to conquer the distance.....to touch your face...to slide my fingers down your arms....to feel your breath against me......and I am nervous, so nervous......to try again.

The Corner
I know I gave this a push before, but I finished it at the weekend, and it is fantastic. An incredible piece of journalism, and manages to mix thought-provoking analysis of the big picture of the failings of America's War On Drugs, and the fallout experienced by its inner cities, with a close-up focussed look at how this affects one Baltimore corner through the eyes of one family. Epic in scope, yet moving in its personalisation, it's nigh-on essential reading, and I'd encourage anyone to pick it up.

You Gotta Lol @ This
> Two gay men decide to have a baby. They mix their sperm together and> have a> surrogate mother artificially inseminated with it. When the baby is> born,> they rush to the hospital. A dozen babies are in the nursery ward,> eleven> are crying and screaming. Over in the corner, one baby is smiling> serenely.> > > A nurse comes by and to the delight of the gay fathers, she points out> the> happy child as theirs.> > "Isn't it wonderful?" one gay says to the other. "All these unhappy> babies> and yet our baby is so happy. This just> Proves the superiority of gay love!"> > The nurse says, "Oh sure, he's happy now, but just watch what happens> when> I pull the pacifier out of his ass.">

Debbullan's Official Message...reaching Out To Dr. Benjamin
I am sending this evening because I found Dr Benjamin's email address earlier today. I verbally confirmed with the clinic Dr Benjamin will receive emails through the below address. Make this letter as public as you feel comfortable. Please ask everyone to keep in mind they are emailing a non profit clinic since Dr. Benjamin runs it, it also happens to also be the only way I have been able to confirmed we can contact the Doctor. Thank you for your hard work, your diligence and your heart for the patients that need you.Within the announcement I read of your being named US Surgeon General, you have been called a "superb communicator" as well as "The Future Voice of Health" Dr. Benjamin, please embrace Hepatitis C as a focus during the daylight of your public service.With your experience I am trusting that I do not have to repeat information and statistics about both HCV and Hepatitis C that you surely know as fact. Actionable focus is in dire need of your attention Doctor. Doctor you k

Wow I Dint Know Tht Talking To An Ex Girlfriend Was Bad
so ne way i havent wrote a blog in a while so this one is gonna be kinda long but may be short. first thing DID YOU KNOW THAT TALKING TO A CO WORKERS WIFE ABOUT MUSIC IS OFFENDING? I SURE AS HELL DINT but i gues it is offending idk how but watever this world is getting stupider and stupider as time comes and goes and two did u know tht taking to an ex girlfriend jus having a friendly conversation nothing sexual or bad pisses ppl off all because they automaticaly assume tht you are being scandelous watever happend to its not about the past but about the present and future but iguess sum women jus hold grudges to damn long i forgot tht being frined with your ex girlfriend or boyfriend was a bad thing i mean wat the hell i am a very friendly guy i dont hold grudges why cause i know it was in the past and its not like i can go back and change the past the past is the past get over it and understand tht being friends isnt bad at all but oh wait i am wrong on tht to and finally the last th

Second Part
His hands were touching me everywhere that just made me melt everytime. I wanted nothing more than to feel him throbbing deep inside me. My body was beffing for him to grab me and take complete control over my body, so that I can have complete satisfaction. I wanted so badly to tease and pleasure him just as much as he was doing it to me. He let go of my hai and his had slid down to my inner thigh again. He was playing with my pussy, I slid my hand down his chest and further down his throbbing member. It was more than what I expected. I wanted more of him. I decided to do the one thing that I knew would drive him crazy. As I crept under the sheets, I could feel him fighting me because he knew that I would keep plaing with him and teasing him til I got to taste him. As I continued to feel him pulsate harder and harder inside my mouth, I kew that he was becoming closer to full reliefand I was closer to tasting him. He grabbed me by my shoulders and pulled mon top of him. I co

Doobie Brothers
What a night Saturday Night. Dobbie Brothers in town @ the rock in the park it was so freaking awesome. My gf and me had an awesome time it was her fist concert going backstage after a concert to meet the band members. I took some pics and hope to have up on sight asap. Other things happening in my world, I am heading to new orleans LA to help rebuild lower 9th ward after Katrina hit it did alot of damage so i will be blogging from NO LA while i am there and put up pics of my weeks stay as they happen. TATA 4 now Mr.Wes

Pic Contest For 7/28/09
ok so here is the deal i am running a custom made picture contest for 7/28/09 it will end at 8 pm EST... here are the PRIZES!!!! 1st place gets CB,AUTO and 1,000,000 FuBusks....2nd place gets choice of CB or AUTO and 100,000 FuBucks...3rd place gets BLING and 10,000 FuBUcks. Make sure you send me the link to your pics to be added into the contest GOOD LUCK to all who enter :)

Something Inside Died..
Normally I am used to acknowledging the pain and loses that come with life.. never before have I noticed that something special inside myself had died with it. Usually it is the pain and the loss of the person is the love and good times you had together and knowing you will never have more then what you already enjoyed with them. I went to see Tool for the first time on July 21st 2009. This is a band I have tried to see every chance they were on tour for the past ten years. I have failed for 10 years straight for various reasons. Never the less I had finally done it I accomplished something I thought I would never have. I had a great time and was joined by friends and my wonderful girl friend however as much of a good time as I had.. something was missing.. and I really had to search my soul to figure it out.. I usually have a blast at concerts.. Love it and go crazy for them. So I started thinking perhaps I am just getting older.. perhaps I am just worn out. Why don't I feel the way I

Sit With Me
this i feel has got to be one of the best things i've written. this was written back on july 01, 2007. sit with me. written by phil hernandez come my friend and sit with me. watch as the sun sets one last time. notice how the moon no longer glows bright. now tell me something. tell me what i am to you and tell me the truth. i'm sick of everything and can't take it any more. don't tell me that you care because i know you don't give a fuck. don't tell me that you love me because i know that's only bullshit. if i meant so much to you then you never would have done the shit you did. i was always second to him. i was always last on your list. you said that you cared about how i feel and that you worry about me. well then why did you make me feel like i was nothing to you and then tell me you're sorry. if you were truly sorry then you wouldn't have continued hurting me. but i guess that's the only thing you know and the only thing i deserve. well allow me to tell you this one last thing

What A Tranny A Day Makes
hahaha!!! ok so i woke up at 7pm. i was awake for a while the day and night and this morning. anyway...i know that..im typing to myself about it haha. what was i just thinking? oh! meeting someone online is one thing, talking to that person on the phone after meeting online is one thing...then ACTUALLY meeting the person IN person is another thing altogether. i think that the folks who say meeting talking to someone online and then meeting them in person isnt reality...arent real people to begin with. not that i do this all the time but i know its real. and not "hey bro, i got some fubar tail" type shit either. not the oh your hot lets go get drunk and fcuk in a mutually close place. no. the people with true emotions and honest hearts are the "losers" with all the big talkers and neo-sluts. how dare real people interact in person after meeting online? haha...i dare i laugh at how many times ive been laughed at or told how silly i am for thinking i could find a true compa

Wurd1
people want me to open up, but are never around when i'm able to. i want to be able to tell people how i feel. when i do its never the right time, orr i get told im an ass. i just want things to be normal again. where i have the ones i an trust back in my life and the ones who can't handle me and my changes gone. im sorry for everytime i hurt anyone n sooner or later i wont be around to do that

Unleashed
Leave the emotionsCheck them at the doorWe both knowThey have no place here Take me as I amLet's go real slowAs we open our mindsTo this darker side Take me by the handLead me down this pathOnly you know so wellBecause my body yearns to go Touch my bodySet it on fireOpen it upTo this burning new desire Feel my touch on your skinPure need, unleashed from withinAllow me to bring it outWithout being afraid, allow me to show no fear Leave the emotionsCheck them at the doorWe both knowThey have no place here ©xoxoJ

What Do I Want
I want the vibration that overtakes my bodyLike what I feel any time you touch or even just look at meThat is what I want.I want to feel this all day of every day.I want to help you to explore this overpowering sensationWith every stoke and every motion.I want to give you a feeling so undeniableA feeling almost indescribableI want to give you a feeling that moves from the soles of your feetThen gradually ascends to the top of your head…This, a feeling that just can’t be beat.This intense journey begins with the slightest touch to the small of your backGliding along the curves of your bodyStroking every muscle with every part of meI will kiss you in the crook of your neckThen give your ear a little peckIn turning you over, I will shower your body with a mountain of kissesI will work my way down the center of your chestAll the while, you’ll be pondering the restI’ll unbutton your pants with only my teethThen tease and caress you with all that is beneathWith the c

Geordie Dictionary
A aave - Taken from the English words "I Have".alfie - To inform an authority about somebody's actions. (e.g. y' puarly alfied on us)allreet - Used as a greeting term, "How Are You". (e.g. y'allreet charva?) B bastard - A fatherless child. Used as an insult.beauty - See belta.belta - Used for expressing how good something is. (e.g. that car's puarly belta)bollocks - The male genitalia. Used to describe something as rubbish. (e.g. y' talking puar bollocks ye are)bucket - When a charva is depressed he might sit in a small room or cupboard with a bucket. This is another way to inhale the illegal substance contained in a joint. C charva - A resident of the West End of Newcastle. The Charva invariably believes that s/he speaks perfect English, has perfect diction, knows the meaning of life (TWOC'ing) and is the centre of the Universe. (e.g. how ye, y' charva)charve - Verb, To Steal. See taxed.clamped - To be corrected, nearly always used in conjunction with the word puarly. (e.g. y' pu

Me And My Bro Msn
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Adoptions Anyone?
Anyone looking to adopt a cat in N.C.? There a several that roam around my place and they're in desperate need of homes. If you own a farm or large pieces of property we have one that would make an excellent mouser. We just can't keep them. And none of us are willing to send them to the pounds to meet their deaths. They're far too loving. If anyones intersted get back to me. We're willing to bring them to you if you're intersted.

Letter To The Past For Futuristic Love
I wanna kiss sadness because It always held me on lonely nights When your name failed to pop up on my caller-id. I wanna hold sorry For every time he took up for you Because you never had any believable excuses. I wanna slap forgiveness For being too damn feminine And for giving you a surplus of chances. I wanna tell lonliness To go the hell home, Because she's easing into our time. I wanna flick off my tears For falling for you, and Embracing the air of your absence. I wanna scream at truth For letting us say, "I love you," Knowing that our timing wasn't right. I wanna fight time To win you, and claim my title, " I'm Officially Not Yours

Got The Job!!
ok, so long story short for the last couple months ive been looking for another job because the company im workin at now is strugglin a lil bit because we lost a big account but its startin to pick up again so hopefully i dont have to still worry about my job but anyway ive been putting in applications damn near everywher (pharmacy tech :D decent money) and i finally got a call from one at a walmart not too far from my house. interviewed n all that happy horsecrap, accepted the job offer today n i got it pending a UA (havent smoked anything other than cigarettes since i became a pharm tech over 3 years ago so i know itll be clean) so ill be working part time in the mornings from 9-12 or 1230 and a full 8 hour shift on wednesday (my day off from my full time job workin mon tue thu fri 1-9 sat 9-5 and sun 11-5) thats payin my bills and leavin me standin pretty tight by the time the next check comes round. so now ill be pulling in an extra couple checks a month n ill finally be able to ge

Alittle Message To My Friend!!
Life is so full of beautiful things....to be thankful for life itself.....to enjoy the beauty that is around us....to feel love and share all forms of love... There are stepping stones and mountains in our way....but my mom always told me...do not make a mountain out of a mole hill....do not let the little issues become bigger, and you lose what beauty is around you... Our friends, Our Loves...they are to be treasured.... Surround yourself with positivity and beauty....love who you are... Life is not easy....but take my hand and we can walk it together, helping each other over those mountains....and kicking those dusty mole hills out of the way *giggles* I am a firm believer that what you put into this life, comes back to you....so only put out love, do not hate..ignore the miserable ones that try to bring you down, because misery loves company... Reap what you sew in this life..... TY Chaley

New Name
Ok so I am sitting here at work and I was just thinking it's time for a new name to be put on display but I am having trouble deciding what I should call my self from here on out. I was thiinking Lord Far Quaaad from shrek but only as a joke lol, because I'm not that tall lol. So I am asking my fellow fu friends to help me decide. Your Suggestions are needed so help out PLEASEEEEE!!!!!

This Is The Start Of Something I Think
I was walking. I remeber that much from within the earliest, hazy part of it all. I was walking and I think I was in or around a Motel 6. Thats weird enough cause i got banned for life from the chain years ago in the wild days of Fatal Demise, so i dont generally hang out in the Motel 6 world, ye know? Anyhow, I was walking there, I can remember the bland muted colors of the place and the stucco walls. I may have tried the Ice machine just to test Fry's theory, pretty sure it was borne out. I came then to the end of the semienclosed hallway, and found an old friend with a gelatinous face that nonetheless bared a wide smile. He was alone but said he was waiting for some other folks and could i join him for a while, I should really meet these girls, they were "primo tail". I dont think like that to be sure, but I am a guy so I put political correctness away as it has been far too long since Ive even conversed with a woman and I sat down. The pool was boiling in the summer sun, drops of i

Ocd
hahahaha. I'm thinking Facebook is pretty truthful on their quizes. Damn them! 100% OCD! lol. you are very much ocd. you worry alot when objects are not in order. everything for you has to be somewhat perfect and done right or always complete. when you eat candy such as M&Ms you organize them and eat the ones you least like to most like. you need to write perfectly and have to have straight lines or it drives you nuts. you even might eat one thing at a time without your food touching. things just have to be in order and your grades are probably average to advanced. you probably dont like dirt or dust. do you carry sanitizer?

Last Thoughts On Fake Lil Southern Cutie...
Check the blog below and to the left with the same title...don't forget to rate , tell your friends and post your comments as always and please don't forget to rate it a 1, 3, 6, 10 or 11..:D

Heaven Can't Wait
my gramma is dying,she's given up on life.at least now my grampa,will again be with his wife.she has no strength to carry on,she is here, but really she's gone.in heaven all the angels will sing,for gramma will be cooking again.she was and is a great gramma,and i will miss her smiling face.but she will be happier,in heaven,the angels can't wait.jesus will be waiting at his throne,for gramma's food on his plate.he will say "this is the best meal,any gramma could make".heaven can't wait for gramma,to join in the harmony,of singing, dancing and laughter,only heaven can bring. may 20, 2006 melanie

Dusk Til Dawn
i'm a woman, in search of a man, to take me to dinner, and to hold my hand. fall in love with my smile, gaze into my eyes, tell me i'm beautiful, and watch clouds go by. call just to say hello, call just to say good night, call just to call me, even if we fight. a man to tell me he loves me, and say that i'm the one, that he can't live without, from dusk till dawn. Melanie

Addiction
lay down,relax, n let carnal emotions take over inhale deeply n put ur mind at ease allow me to lead u into never ending ecstasy placing my lips to urs i dare u to explore what's behind ur minds locked doors mesmerizing u with my soft kisses bewitching u with my sweet smell i have u right where i want u after this is over memories of this night will still haunt u biting u softly on ur neck i release ur inhibitions ur dying to be with me pleading to be tempted how i be resisted after all this is seduction of the highest order

A Long Lost Tale.
A Long Lost Talewritten by Phil HernandezIt has been several thousand years now since I last laid eyes upon my true soul mate Keira and our dearest daughter Aurora. Both meant more to me than anything in this world or any other. I myself was brought into this world by the great Babylonian dragon Tiamat. My mother has taught me everything I know about the old ways. The true meanings of respect, trust and love. Three of the most important things within any relationship that seem to no longer exist. After several years of wandering alone in this world, I had finally found a place to call home. A cave deep in the mountains of what is now Scotland. I had spent years in solitude before I heard the cries of a fallen creature. I creature unlike any I had ever seen before. A beautiful blue green dragon with brilliant iridescent shades of purple that can only be seen under the bright sun. a beautiful little female dragon who was lost and tired of running from those who were hunting down our kin

What's In The Healthcare Bill?
What's In The Healthcare Bill? Included are a few highlights of what's of concern with the healthcare bill (if these points don't get you upset, please check your pulse and call 911!! Alert: This thorough summary was sent from a colleague. We encourage you to conduct additional research on your own. • Page 16: Eliminates the choice to purchase private health insurance! • Page 22: Mandates audits of all employers that self-insure! • Page 29: Admission: your health care will be rationed! • Page 30: A government committee will decide what treatments and benefits you get (and, unlike an insurer, there will be no appeals process) • Page 42: The "Health Choices Commissioner" will decide health benefits for you. You will have no choice. None. • Page 50: All non-US citizens, illegal or not, will be provided with free healthcare services. • Page 58: Every person will be issued a National ID Healthcard. • Page 59: The federal government will have direc

New Word's In Webster's Dictionary
Frenemy, webisode among new words in Webster's There are words such as locavore (one who eats foods grown locally), frenemy (someone who acts like a friend but is really an enemy), waterboarding (an interrogation technique use to induce the sensation of drowning), vlogs (a blog that contains video material) and webisode (a TV show that can be viewed at a website).

How I Will Look At "friends" From Now On !!
There comes a time in life when you realize: Who Matters Who never did Who wont anymore And Who always will So, don't worry about people in your past, there is a reason why they didn't make it into you Future !!

For Those Who Most Likely Won't See It
sitting here contemplating the way friendships can just dissolve from lack of caring on one persons side...i have sat here wondering about all the names and numbers and friends i have on this and that site...trying to figure out while the hell i keep them there...why i don't just delete them and say the hell with you...after all...that's what has been done to me...i never lied to anyone...never pretended to be any more than what i am...human the same as them...but it never ceases to amaze me that people can adopt a "holier than thou" attitude when you slap them in the face with the truth...and that is what has happened to several of my so-called "friends" these days...they seem unable to remain friends with a woman when they all of a sudden find the love of their life...pathetic really...just goes to show that it does no good for anyone to be a friend to someone when they are in need...cuz when that need disappears with the appearance of a new love...the need for the friend disappears

The Sense Of Smell & Personal Time Travel.
Wow - Have you ever took in a smell for a prolonged period of time, that took you back in time to an earlier stage in your life? A former student sheared the wool off my daughter's county fair 4-H lamb. Lambs arent crazy about getting a haircut, so I helped hold him in place while the shears did thier work. Lanolin, found in the wool -smells its strongest at the point of shearing. Something about the lanolin - took me back to an earlier state of mind. I am positive it had to do with all the good memories I had when I was a kid & times spent at the fair. Its amazing to mentally travel back in time. Has this ever happened to you? If so -what smell does it for you?

Bleh Bleh
Work went by sooo slow. People there was surprised to see me working because I haven't worked on that shift in forever. Had one dude bugging me saying he's never seen me around, asked my age, status and all.. He thought I was 18 years old. Nope...im 28 yo.. I told him that he'd probably be seeing more of me cause i plan on working more days in the tuture. Rich's mom came into town and wanted to grab dinner. She said she didn't want to be out in the heat so wanted to wonder around. We went to McMenemins...I had some Tuna mango salad sandwich. I swear she is so dense...She doesn't know that Rich and I are seperated. But i was pretty much throwing things out giving signs that things aren't how they used to be. Told her that we don't really talk, do things together...blah blah blah and how I've been real irrated with him. Some reason, she just didn't get it. Rich has been sleeping on the couch for godness know how long...years? Since he would always claim he was too lazy to go up the sta

J-4
If you haven’t tried it, I’d recommend it. Eery and amazing. I dove on a wreck on Sunday, a sunken submarine. Dropping 90 feet below the surface with no structure to act as a guide seems endless, like a exercise in futility. “What the fuck’s this? I could be in the middle of nowhere finding nothing” was my first thought. Then the ocean floor came into view and I finally got a bearing. From there, in all directions light blue nothingness. No trace, no trail, nothing but barren ocean. He said to go West so I went West and then, from nowhere, she appeared. 20 feet off the bottom, blackness descended. Enormous. Her Conning tower came into view and her gaze was upon me. Vast, dark and only the beginning. From being completely hidden to being completely inescapeable in a moment is alarming. I couldn’t shake her if I wanted to. I suspect that feeling is just the way a ship would have felt in her presence. I couldn’t see her beginnin

A True Friend
We met uponthe internet,My heart you didnot have yet.I sit and wait each day,for the song myheart will soon play.Of laughter, love and tears,You have washed awayall my fears.To be my friendand see so deep,I now know whyI don't getmuch sleep.I have waitedthrough all theseyears,To find somethingto hold so dear.And now I knowI'll never beBlue,For I have founda true friendin you.

Our Flag
Washed in the blood of the brave and the blooming, Snatched from the altars of insolent foes,Burning with star-fires, but never consuming,Flash its broad ribbons of lily and rose.Vainly the prophets of Baal would rend it,Vainly his worshippers pray for its fall;Thousands have died for it, millions defend it,Emblem of justice and mercy to all;Justice that reddens the sky with her terrors,Mercy that comes with her white-handed train,Soothing all passions, redeeming all errors,Sheathing the sabre and breaking the chain.Borne on the deluge of all usurpations,Drifted our Ark o'er the desolate seas,Bearing the rainbow of hope to the nations,Torn from the storm-cloud and flung to the breeze!God bless the Flag and its loyal defenders,While its broad folds o'er the battle-field wave,Till the dim star-wreath rekindle its splendors,Washed from its stains in the blood of the brave! © LT.David Martin

Fired
a year of memories gone astray pictures in my heart haunting my day one right after another they come wonderful they are angry are some so resentful am I of your decision your smile sets my foolish prison my heart is cracked right down the middle I feel as if I were the fiddle played until you grew tired as your queen I was fired a peasant once again I go a feeling again I never wished to know a life of what ifs I am now to live my heart has no more to give my love for granted ahs been taken and now I am forever shaken at the thought of moving on and grasping that you are gone

Need Your Help! Beautiful Baby Contest
Hey my daughter's in a Beautiful Baby Contest and grand prize is $5,000 for her college. I'm single mom and could use any help possible so I entered her in it. We'd really appreciate any votes you can do as many as you can do. Copy and paste link in bar and vote away! http://beautifulbabies.trb.com/wgnamerica/babies_home_gallery,0,7517665,permalink.ugcphotogallery?u=alangel1314 Thanks so much!!! Katie and Sarah

Caa #115 - Update1
I heard from my friend today, and their friend has had the operation for their cancer, but the meds that they are using to control it is stronger than chemo and really given them a hard time. Please continue angel prayers of healing for him. Love, Doc

Dodge
(1) Make of car cheaply made, looks good, but breaks down prematurely.(2) Make of car that sells for a low price but parts are expensive.(3) The only make of truck or van that give you multiple choice on what to do when they cut you off in the middle of the road. (Should I dodge him or ram him?)(4) Division of Chrysler that used to make good quality automobiles such as the Charger, but sacrifices quality for profit.Note: these definitions also apply to Plymouth and Chrysler. Dented Or Damaged Greatly Everyday Drips Oil Drops Grease EverywhereDies On Day Guarantee Expires Dreary Out Dated Grandpa Engineering

Southern Granny
> > > Lawyers should never ask a Southern grandma a> question if they aren't> > prepared for the answer. In a trial, a Southern> small-town prosecuting> > attorney called his first witness, a> grandmotherly, elderly woman to the> > stand. > > > > > > He approached her and asked, "Mrs. Jones, do you> know me?" > > > She responded, "Why, yes, I do know you, Mr.> Williams I've known you since> > you were a young boy, and frankly, you've been a> big disappointment to me.> > You lie, you cheat on your wife, you manipulate> people and talk about them> > behind their backs. You think you're a big shot> when you haven't the brains> > to realize you never will amount to > > > anything more than a two-bit paper pusher. Yes,> I know you." > > > > > > The lawyer was stunned! Not knowing what else to> do, he pointed across the> > room and asked, "Mrs. Jones, do you know the> defense attorney?" She again> > replied, "Why, yes, I do. I've known Mr. Bradley> since he was a youngster,> > too. He's lazy

R U In Love
WHAT EACH KISS MEANS: - Kiss on the Upperchest: I’m ready. - Kiss on the Forehead: We’re cute together . - Kiss on the Cheek: We’re friends. - Kiss on the Hand: I adore you. - Kiss on the Neck: I want you, now. - Kiss on the Shoulder: Your perfect. - Kiss on the Lips: I like you, alot. ____________________________________________________ WHAT EACH GESTURE MEANS: - Holding Hands: We definitely like each other. - Touching on the Butt: Your fun. - Holding you tight pressed against each other: in love - Looking into each other’s Eyes: I like you, for who you are. - Playing with Hair: Let’s fool around. - Arms around the Waist: I like you too much to let go. - Laughing while Kissing: I am completely comfortable with you. ____________________________________________________ ADVICE: - If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you’re definitely in Love.

1 Love 4ever N 1 Day
OMG! WOW! FINALLY! I have waited so long for this. O where do I start. hold on baby let me get that for you. just go sit down cuz tonight its gonna b all bout U. wait let me take off ur boots yea i know but thats ok dis is about you all for u. O yeah u noticed, yeah I told you I was gonna start back working out I know u didn't believe me, o u really think its lookin good n tight yeah baby did it all 4 u! but nuff bout me tonight is bout you. i got a nice bath waiting for you food is ready yeah didn't know what you were in the mood for so i fixed everything! yeah looks like a freakin feast huh. o dats cool go head baby i know ur hungry just wash up for dinner. WOW! been so long, can't help starin at you WOW! ok ok im gonna eat i try to stop staring. just been waiting so long now that wait is over. please finish i try to stop watchin you. so r u tired i know it was a long trip back o sorry i can't help it ok ok...hmmm let me help you with that better yet just stand there i will undress y

I Need Your Help
ok im in the final round of this contest-- as we know my wonderful stalker that cant go away has been rating my contest pic NSFW therefore eliminating it from the contest SO EVEN IF YOU VOTED BEFORE PLEASE GO BACK BECAUSE THERE IS AT LEAST ONE PIC I NEED TO BE RATED AND COMMENTED PLEASE BECAUSE IT IS NE HUGZ THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING MY FRIENDS!! http://fubar.com/images.php?u=3175330&albumid=1790553

Meet Me
ok so my name is rebeca and i live in nashville tn i have 3 wonderful kids that i adore, and a man that doesnt appreciate ne thing, but his self i go to volunteer state community colllege in gallatin tn and i work as a cna (certified nursing assitant) just in case you didnt know what it stood for. im not perfect even though sometimes i try to be i love my life as long as i have my kids and mom and brothers and sisters. i have made some mistakes in my life i dont regret them because i probably done every thing for a good reason, i have came to grips with dealing with that you only get oen life so why would you regret ne thing back to my kids mackenzie is fixing ot turn 6 september 09 she is my every thing her real father has nothing to do with her but is remarried and takes care of his wifes kids then there is mikey hell be our this yr mikey well lets see his a boy explanatory enough for you he is mine and michaels first child together and then thers is lil ole lucie grl my other heart

Bikini Auction
So here I am again! Up for Bids on an Bikini Auction... Bid on me if you can..if not I'd REALLY appreciate it if you could rate and re rate the pic!!It explains WHY under the pic:) Auction ends Aug 14th!Have fun and TY!! Just click the pic or the link down yonder :P [ fubar.com photo: 729197918 ] or Luv yas!!

Torn Part 2
Unable to put off turning around anymore, the dessert was finally ready. She pulled it from the oven and placed it on a cooling dish. Lisa heard the stools and wheeled around. “Don't even think about it,” she said, the laughter easily heard in her voice. She looked from her mother and brother. “You have to wait.” “You fill the house with that scent then expect us to wait?” Brian grumbled. “Some sister.” “Mom? Tell him to stop.” Lisa looked to her mom for help, and realized she was trying to sneak around the island to get at the dish. “Mom! You're worse than he is!” They all laughed as everyone seated themselves around the counter and impatiently waited for it to cool. The dessert went over well. Brian and his mother ate the entire dish. It wasn't quite a brownie dish, but it wasn't cake either. She called it: Chocolate Haven, even though there wasn't as much chocolate in it as there was brown sugar. Smiling, L

I Will Not Fall In Love Again...
I will not fall completely in love again. Why should I, the first time I surrendered my heart I was wrong? I will not fall in love again because love is deceptive and it left a bad taste in my mouth. It took away the will for love. I will not stumble again, I will not fall for anyone, I will not fall in love again.

Jury Excuse
"Please, Your Honor, I'd like to be excused from jury duty," pleaded an anxious-looking man. "Why should I excuse you?" asked the judge. "You see, I owe a man fifty dollars, and he's leaving in a few hours for a post abroad. He'll be there for years and I want to catch him before he leaves, for it may be my last chance to repay him." "Excused," stated the judge coldly. "We don't want anyone on the jury who can lie like that."

My Body Is Your Playground
My body is your playgroundCome out and play with meExplore me with your fingers You can skip on my lips with your tongueMy body is your playground I am open for youWith my nipples you can playhide and seek let me find youMy body is your playgroundCome out and play with meCome swing by my thighsand you can slide down my clit for a bitMy body is your playgroundCome out and play with meI can be your jungle gym Climb right on top of meMy body is your playgroundCome out and play with meI can be your clubhouse come inside of meGo around and around I am your merry-go-roundMy body is your playgroundCome out and play with meI am here for your joyCome have fun with meMy body is your playgroundCome out and play with meI am open all day and nightCome run, jump, skip and walk on meMy body is your playgroundCome out and play with me

The Weak Mind
Sad is the lonely heart that be am I to wonder does he really love me if so why not take a stand remember you sir took my hand I am the one you are to marry to say nothing to me is scary I come to you out of my way go home is all you say not glad we are to see my face maybe I should slow the pace ask me here for you a smoke seriously is this a joke from you no hug or kiss a couple of cigs and dismiss married to your job are you just bite your lip and chew I'm tired of hearing you hate work think and love me sometime jerk I Love You means nothing now shouldn't have to "make this work somehow" you don't try to make love be it just should do you see now you're angry with me didn't want to hear my side of the story I want to be around you but I hate this place too we are falling apart I want it to be like the start going on a date once a week the toliet is flushing take a peak I hope it's stopped in the main otherwise watch it go down the drain weak and frag

Making It Up
The rain falls in the darkness of my mind in the depths nothing but darkness I find the pain shatters the window of light The tears I do need to fight yes I do there is no trying unless I choose to keep crying Mindless Self Indulgence stays in thought you "stupid mother fucker" I should have fought what demeants drove me to think you were good then you pulled some shit from the hood steal my soul and break anothers heart for tour own passion attempt to tear us apart I love him more than my infatuation I put myself in the situation but you know better than to touch right now I hate you so much I shattered his heart and trust making it up to him is a must

Purpose Of These Blogs
i have decided to try an experiment with poetry. i have written a poem that i wish for others to help me continue. i have put in my verse and now i want everyone else to read this to have a verse of their own. if you want a verse but have trouble putting your thoughts into words just let me know. if you are interested but would like to know more about what im wanting to see or the meaning behind the poem in question just ask. ill be happy to assist in any way i can.

It Happens To The Best Of Us
I set out to write a poem that would be inspirational, something anyone could read and be able to relate to. But although everyone has experienced something they consider painful not everyone has been through the same things I have been through. So I decided to write this without the intention of finishing it, I'll tell of my struggles but I'll leave it open ended so that a reader may pick it up and extend it so this poem may eventualy have all of lifes struggles in it. I lived my life alone and enclosed I kept my feelings inside so noone could hurt those, I've been rejected by everyone and everything from friends to girls and family. I experimented with drugs and lost my home, car and job. I've been hurt by my first love and had suicidal thoughts. I learned life is full of ups and downs, its got goods and bads and ins and outs. But these are things god uses to test us, just keep in mind these things happen to the best of us. I haven't had it as hard as most ,some tests I've had to re

Purity In Murda
When you think of sucide tell me what you feelIs it a razor to your wrist or just another cap you wanna peelWhen you deal with the Devil your fate is sealedWhen you deal with something non existent it's like a gun for realThis is the tale of a mad man and a sad man who took the final stepAnd took the Devils hand and regretted it sinceBecause of insolence, he's the killer that ruled his world with an iron fistHis name is Andy, he was abused as a childBeatin' down in school, he lived a scrub lifestyleEven though he had a little money he never caredHe'd rather watch a horror movie and not be scaredOf the reality that's outside his roomA place of hatred, broken promises and eternal doomHe's consumed by these images of death and final restI guess when you break it down it's all he had leftSo one dark night he kissed his grandmother goodnightOnly to roam the back streets of the 505Heroin needles and junkies filled the back part of CentralHis heart was racing he was feeling criticalHe didn't

Welcome To Silent Hill Pt. 1
Ran out the back door to go to the garageIt's daytime but it looks like a mirageThe air is thick and calm and everything's hazyA red orange goo blocking sun from letting grazingThe garage door is opened so I go on insideSearch through my pockets find the keys to my rideI got inside my car and I started it upThe muffler blows smoke it hasn't been drove in monthsI back out, turn around then I head down the drivewayI drive down the street until I get to the highwayI don't even know how to get thereTime is passing like the trees I just stop and stareBlankly out the window, it's like the car drives on its ownTaking me where it wants, destination unknownUntil I pass a sign I read it in my rearviewWelcome to Silent Hill, the road is Lathan AvenueWelcome to Silent Hill - we hope you enjoy your stay hereWelcome to Silent Hill - where reality becomes your worst fearWelcome to Silent Hill - try to trap your sanity inside your headWelcome to Silent Hill - where the population is deadThe road was b

If I Was Your Woman
everyday i'm with you I love you more, my heart longs to see you, until its sore, and did you know, that when you finally arrive- its not til then, that i feel alive. because without you, there is no me. kinda like without fish, there is no sea (haha lame i know =) ) i can't wait til the day that we are one just like the sky is with the sun (i really suck at this....) but with every time our eyes meet you become another part of me,and our love is so sweet- and so deep, that i dont ever wanna be without you, even in our sleep, dont you see, whenever im with you, my eyes glow and gleam because life with you..its more than a dream, i cant even consider it reality because in a life with you in it, there is no gravity, nothing can pull me down, nothing can pull us to the ground we'll always be together, and thats from the bottom of my heart, we are the only people that can tear us apart, so please don't ever leave me cause i wont ever leave you and you, and everyone else knows that its true

The Soul
(My friend Lickmeister left this as a profile comment and I loved it.. thought I would share it.. it is so beautiful.. thank you Licky) If I could touch you anywhere, it wouldn’t be where you thinkif I could touch you anywhere it wouldn’t even make you blinkIf I could touch you anywhere it would be daring and boldif I could touch you anywhere I would touch your soulIf you believe the eyes are the windows to the soulthen look in deep and you will be soldIf you see something you like, and you want to see morelook at the smile, you just might find the doorOnce you’re inside the door, you can see what there is to seeonce you’re inside the door, you can tell if it’s meant to beOnce you’re inside the door, you can feel what’s it’s all aboutonce you’re inside the door, you can touch the soul from the inside outThe body is just a vehicle for the soul, that we knowif human touch is the motor that makes the soul goIf the soul is the essen

Progessive Flo
so....... we all have those crushs on Tv stars and movie stars...well mine is " Flo " from the progessive ads..that rockabilly haircut and bright smile drives me ...rawr rawr rawr... so.... The wife knows all this and is gonna dress up on Halloween as her for me ( rawr ) and she wrote progessive ( also our insurance carrier before Flo™ ) to inqure how to get a " tricked out nametage " and they wrote back saying they are thrilled that I love the ads so much and are sending her a " tricked out nametag " and an " I love insurance button " and the best part... an autographed picture of FLo™ !!! aint that some shit !

Bigotry!
“Bigotry is the sacred disease.” “Bigotry murders religion to frighten fools, with her ghost” “The danger is that the cruel arts of their oppressors have enchained their minds, have kept them in the ignorance of children, and as incapable of self-government as children. “All men feel something of an honorable bigotry for the objects which have long continued to please them.” “That food has always been, and will continue to be, the basis for one of our greater snobbism does not explain the fact that the attitude toward the food choice of others is becoming more and more heatedly exclusive until it may well turn into one of those forms of bigotry against which gallant little committees are constantly planning campaigns in the cause of justice and decency.” “There are some upon this earth of yours, returned the Spirit, "who lay claim to know us, and who do their deeds of passion, pride, ill-will, hatred, envy,

Fake Ass People
Why is it that everytime a person makes a friend and lets them into their home, life, and family they end up getting screwed? Are there really any real friends in the world anymore?? I dont know about anyone else but I am personally getting sick of all of the fake people in this world! Can anyone tell me if there are even any REAL people left???

Jen
Hey, you guys have read the few blogs I've had about Jen, we are trying to make this work but I just go this from her, She has this and it's destroying me inside.You guys please leave me lots of love on this cause I am so fucking scared right now.{Below} Diabetic Ketoacidosis is a break down of Acid in your blood stream that slowly poisons your blood. Caused by not enough insulin in the body. It can lead to diabetic coma, and then death if not dealt with, and they are trying to deal with it but so far failing.

Updated Wish List
Ok so update of birthday wish list - please feel free to comment (nice of course!) (1) HAPPY HOUR (or 3 of you are feeling generous!) (2) HUGE BLING PACK (3) AUTO 11 (4) CHERRY BOMB (5) SMALL BLING PACK (6) VIP RENEWAL (1 6 OR 12 MONTH)(ANY APPRECIATED) (7) SHIT FACED NESS (from 7-9-9 to 9-9-9) I WOULD LIKE TO LEVEL TO ORACLE FOR CHRISTMAS :)xxxxxx (and i dont think im being too greedy after all I shall be 41) :D

What About Now?
Shadows fill an empty heartAs love is fading,From all the things that we areAnd are not saying.Can we see beyond the scarsAnd make it to the dawn?Change the colors of the sky.And open up toThe ways you made me feel alive,The ways I loved you.For all the things that never died,To make it through the night,Love will find you.What about now?What about today?What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?What if our love never went away?What if it's lost behind words we could never find?Baby, before it's too late,What about now?The sun is breaking in your eyesTo start a new day.This broken heart can still surviveWith a touch of your grace.As shadows fade into the light,I am by your side,Where love will find you.What about now?What about today?What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?What if our love, it never went away?What if it's lost behind words we could never find?Baby, before it's too late,What about now?Now that we're here,Now that we've come this far,Just hold on.Th

Long Time Ago
Is this where im suppose to be? No job, no money, no grasp of reality Living in a state of incompatence and people that shouldnt be. Living in a house where i cant be free This is real no dream to have Wonder why you're born into such a place It doesnt matter still a waste of space Ever ask yourself what is the humanrace? Walk down the street give your change to a bum You say that looks free that might be fun What is fun about no home no love nowhere to run?

Second Chance ~shinedown~
My eyes are open wide And by the way, I made it Through the day I watched the world outside By the way, I'm leaving out Today I just saw Hayley's comet She waved Said why you always running In place? Even the man in the Moon disappeared Somewhere in the Stratosphere [Chorus] Tell my mother, Tell my father I've done the best I can To make them realize This is my life I hope they understand I'm not angry, I'm just saying... Sometimes goodbye Is a second chance Please don't cry One tear for me I'm not afraid of What I have to say This is my one and Only voice So listen close, it's Only for today I just saw Hayley's comet She waved Said why you always running In place? Even the man in the Moon disappeared Somewhere in the Stratosphere [Chorus] Tell my mother, Tell my father I've done the best I can To make them realize This is my life I hope they understand I'm not angry, I'm just saying... Sometimes goodbye Is a second chance Here's my chance This is my chance Tell my mother, Tell

Naughty Nighty Contest!!!
Wicked is in a contest!! Show her lots of love and make sure you do so every day!! Request friendship if youre not one already ! The contest is a Naughty Night one. Make sure you read the Rules WELL and obey by them!! Then contest is at The Candy Shop!! Located on her Top Family and Friends List!! Vote and leave comment on her picture ONCE a DAY!! Link to go directly to the contest is : http://fubar.com/user/3252582 If you need more info - go ask her : http://fubar.com/user/2239251 She is a really Sweet and Nice lady - lets help her win!!

Buying Gifts,bling,rates
I have been on this site for almost 4 years.And every month I see things getting worse and worse with the self centered,gift grubbing,point whores on this site."Buy me a Bling pack or Auto 11's.And I'll give you access to my NSFW photo's" Who gives 2 shits about giving you anything to see your nude photos?I have enough nudes from women on this site to wallpaper the Empire State Building.And it cost me nothing! Why because they were my friends and family.I have never bought gifts or Bling for anyone because they demanded it.I bought these things because I WANTED to.And there are several women on this site that need a serious reality check.Right now Hard To Handle is having a war with some Sap about rating and fanning profiles.And claiming that she is the Queen/Boss of this site.Let me remind you about MISS CHERRY (Angel)She was and always will be #1 on this site.No woman will ever top her numbers.And when she left this site she was NUMBER 1 !And I had the privlage of being her friend an

Paris
1. L'Ile Saint-Louis This delicious little island sits right in the middle of the Seine, almost hiding behind its big sister, l'Ile de la Cité. There's isn't really much to see in it, having no monuments and not more than 10 roads crossing it, but the many beautiful buildings from the 17th and 18th centuries, that all seem to be furrowing their grey stone brows at your little self down there, make it a very characteristic place. You might want to walk about pretending to be interested in the paintings on show in the art gallery windows, or you might just want to sit on the parapets bordering the isle and watch the river flow, or you might like to go towards the Pont Saint-Louis, where you can bet someone is playing the accordion, and from where you can see Notre-Dame's big fat behind as she squats on the tip of l'Ile de la Cité, but whatever you do, to make it even more pleasant, be sure to get yourself an ice-cream at Berthillon's. 2. La Seine This river is incredible. If I coul

Wanna Get Away
it really sucks when you live at home, and all you hear from your parents is arguing. especially with other things of stress building. this is just one more thing to add to the pile. makes me wish i was able to get out on my own, but unable to. wishing i could just get away,but theres nowhere to go. what should i do?

It's Toxic
We've all seen the commerical for Kinoki the Cleansing Detox Foot Pads. You put these pads on your feet and it's suppose to suck out all the toxins while you sleep. Sounds like a lot of BS right? Well, I decided to try them. Do they work? I'll let you be the judge. The pads were white before I went to bed. This is what they looked like when I got up. Warning..it's icky! LOL

Day One Of County Fair
Took the kids, a lamb, a tack box, and all sorts of supplies to set up for this weeks fair. Wow -what alot of work - loading up, unloading, paperwork, watching over the trolls, just to have them take thier entries and a 4-H lamb. I can now appreciate all the extra work my parents did, so I could enjoy it when I was a kid. I'm thrilled about passing this tradition on to them. They had a blast, already made some new friends and are excited about going there each day this week. Its only day one, and Im exhausted. Not sure how I am going to juggle the next full week of work AND the fair, but - things that are worthwhile are always doable. *Yawns.......

Amish Farmers Lose Court Battle Against Rfid
Michigan farmers have failed in their attempt to block the introduction of RFID tags for cattle, despite arguments about the cost and the risk of upsetting an otherwise benevolent deity. The case was bought by the catchily-named Farm-to-Consumer Legal Defence Fund (FTCLDF), representing small farmers in Michigan as well as a group of six Amish farmers: the former concerned about the cost of the tags, while the latter were more worried about eternal damnation brought on by applying numbers to God's own cattle. The US Department of Agriculture (USDA) tried to get the case dismissed back in November last year, but only now has it managed to have the case thrown out on the basis that it is a Michigan ruling and thus subject to state laws, rather than part of any agenda being set by the USDA as part of the National Animal Identification System (NAIS), against which the plaintiff's case was based. Even in Michigan the law is intended to be voluntary, but the plaintiffs clearly believe tha

Rambling.. Venting.. Etc
I think I've done this blog before. I guess it is time to do it again because once again I have been foolish. Let's face it, when people say things to you, you really do want to believe them. At least I do. I want to believe, and trust. And even with people who have failed in the past, I still do it. Am I foolish? Just dumb? I don't know, but it is who I am. Do I need to change? There are things I just won't believe anymore, especially with certain people. Maybe I just don't believe in those things anymore. I'm just tired of some of the BS in life. BUT... I'm not going to get down or depressed. I'm not even going to worry over it. It has probably cost me a friend.. but what is done is done. I've been foolish twice. Will not be a third time.

My Broken Heart
My Broken Heart My heart bitter and coldFull of life, but feels so oldTime has went by so slowMy heart is one only God knowsI need stability in my lifeNo more trouble no more strifeMy heart has been through a tough fightHappiness, laughter and joy is for what i striveSurely I've made mistakes in the pastWhat i would not give for a relationship to lastNo more secrets, lies or decietMy heart is all you need to defeatI will give you timeFor this you will needTo get to my heartIf you so please BY: LadyBre, my best friend :) 4-1-2009

25 People To Join To Level Past 28!!!!! Urgent!!! Pass It Around!!!
Just in folks... A Fu~Friend of mine had just brought something to my attention in requards to Fubar!She had just informed me that you must have 25 people join fubar inorder to level up past 28.I personally think this is unfair especially if you have invited people time and time again only to not have them join this site. There has got to be another way for people to level up past 28 with out haven to freak out and worry bout whether or not you will have had 25 people join inorder to level up!!A: do you think it is unfair of Fubar to have this rule in effect?B: or do you think fubar is being fair bout haven only 25 people join inorder to level up?If you would like this to change leave a comment saying you want this rule to change and why you feel this way and i will try to send a copy of this to jesus in hopes of getting this rule changed.Yay 0% (0 votes) Nay 0% (0 votes)

Pictures
As many of you now i have been seeing the most wonderful man I have ever Known and you all know I am very much in love with him. So i have decided to delete my NSFW's. one i really don't need to catch me a man i have one. So in place of the NSFW's i have decided to but some sexy pictures instead showing bare minimum like cleavage and some bra. I will let you know i am a flirt so please don't think thats a sign of actual getting any, its just play for me. I'm here now to just meet and make friends

Bringing The "bio" War Home
The 2001 anthrax attacks underscore the dangers posed to our health and safety by the Bioweapons-Industrial Complex.The killer(s) employed a military-grade version of the deadly pathogen, a four-mutation blend of anthrax prepared at the government's test site at the remote Dugway Proving Ground in Utah. Based on available evidence it's a near certainty that the weapon came from stockpiles at the U.S. Army Medical Research Institute of Infectious Diseases (USAMRIID) in Ft. Detrick, Maryland.Before the dust cleared prominent opposition politicians had been attacked, five people were murdered, 10,000 more were exposed and representative government ground to a halt as panic set in.According to multiple media reports, federal investigators concluded that the anthrax spores in the letters addressed to former Senate leader Tom Daschle (D-SD) and Senate Judiciary Chairman Patrick Leahy (D-VT) could only have been produced in a state-run lab. The weaponized version of the pathogen contained as

Nyeaahhhh
ok, so i just got out of an all staff meeting at work and during the meeting my boss brought up that people could have jobs outside of working there as long as it doesnt interfere with their work and as long as its not at another pharmacy and if they did then theyd have to sign their resignation at one job or another..... didnt have a chance to talk to him before i took my lunch because he went straight into the managers meeting.... im nervous as fuck.... gonna try n talk to him after i get back from lunch and explain my situation financially..... i really need that second job and this ones already nailed pretty much.....

The Word Fuck
Perhaps one of the most interesting and colorful words in the English language today is the word "fuck". It is the one magical word which, just by its sound, can describe pain, pleasure, love, and hate. In language, "fuck" falls into many grammatical categories. It can be used as a verb, both transitive (John fucked Mary) and intransitive (Mary was fucked by John). It can be an action verb (John really gives a fuck), a passive verb (Mary really doesn't give a fuck), an adverb (Mary is fucking interested in John), or as a noun (Mary is a terrific fuck). It can also be used as an adjective (Mary is fucking beautiful) or an interjection (Fuck! I'm late for my date with Mary). It can even be used as a conjunction (Mary is easy, fuck she's also stupid). As you can see, there are very few words with

Sitting Here Thinking!!!!
TONIGHT IS A CLEAR MILD NIGHT NO RAIN IN SIGHT, MY KIDS ARE ASLEEP, CUDDLED UP IN THE BED NEXT TO ME......THEY ARE MY WORLD MIGHT REASON FOR BREATHING MY REASON FOR LIVING MY REASON FOR DOING EVERYTHING I DO....MY KIDS NEVER ASKED TO BE BROUGHT INTO THIS COLD DARK PLACE WE CALL A WORLD......I WANTED THEM I WANTED TO LOVE THEM RAISE THEM RIGHT TEACH THEM GOOD FROM BAD AND WRONG FROM RIGHT.......I SIT HER THINKING AND WONDERING WHERE MY LIFE WENT SO WRONG....I HAVE TWO BEAUTIFUL KIDS WHO ARE TRUELY MY LIFE.......THEY ARE MY STRENGTH WHEN THINGS GO WRONG THE LIGHT OF MY DAYS WHEN THINGS ARE DARK AND THE WARMTH TO THE COLD WHEN THERE IS NO END IN SIGHT.......MY LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN EASY I SEEM TO TAKE THE ROUGHT PATHS IN LIFE....I TRY TO LIVE RIGHT, DO RIGHT BY PEOPLE, AND BE A ALL AROUND GOOD PERSON......MAYBE IT IS MY NATURE TO BE SO GOOD HEARTED......IDK ANYMORE......I TRY TO BE COLD HEARTED TO GET THROUGH THINGS AND SHOW NO EMOTION, I WAS RAISED THAT TO SHOW TEARS AND TO SHOW FEAR IS A

Phone Ettiquite
So, a few years ago, we had this crusty older alcoholic dude named Bryce in my department. I remember he would come to work an hour early, call his ex wife to talk to her & his kids, get thoroughly aggravated, then go outside for a "smoke" and come back in 30 minutes later reeking of alcohol (but in a much better mood).Now, the customer service center next door is normally popualted with kind helpful females that have a non-threatening voice; someone who's demeanor can calm down an irate customer. You know the sugary sweet type. And one of these helpful females (in fact the night shift team lead over there) was a big 6'5" dude named Deion. He was such a flamer that the local newspaper here had done a story on him in the "Style" section and interviewed him about his own line of clothing he was designing and having manufactured (I guess it never took off, cause he still works next door). Now everyone in my department hates to get a call from the customer service center, because they're o

Collateral
I accompanied my husband when he went to get a haircut. Reading a magazine, I found a hairstyle I liked for myself, and I asked the receptionist if I could take the magazine next door to make a copy of the photo. "Leave some ID, a driver's license or a credit card," she said. "But my husband is here getting a haircut," I explained. "Yes," she replied. "But I need something you'll come back for."

My Bartab Is $765
This is real fun to do! The only catch is that you cant ask the person who posted it anything about it! :) Just read the "offense" and if you've done it, you owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each "offense" and added up your total fine. Title your bulletin "My Bar Tab is$........" You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine. Smoked pot -- $10 Did acid -- $15 Ever had sex at church -- $25 Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you-- $40 Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25 Had sex for money -- $100 Ever had sex with a Asian -- $20 Vandalized something -- $20 Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10 Beat up someone -- $20 Been jumped -- $10 Crossed dressed -- $10 Given money to stripper -- $25 Been in love with a stripper -- $20 Kissed some one who's name you didn't know --$10 Hit on some one of the same sex while at work-- $15 Ever drive drunk -- $20 Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50 Used toys whi

Master/slave Part Three
Put another way, “a slave has no rights” is equivalent to saying, “the slave must at all times be obedient, even if the Master’s orders oppose something the slave thinks s/he is entitled to”. Seen this way, the “rights” issue is an aspect of the larger meta-issue of obedience, which I think is easier to discuss in particulars anyway. So, to return to Lenora’s comments: "...and when you say that a slave has no right to make any decisions about their work/finances etc..." I didn't say that. A slave may in fact have a “right” (ie, the authority) to make decisions in these things, if the Owner has given the slave that latitude. "...well-...[my partner] wants me to be a full, well rounded person, not a door mat who has no rights or input to affect my life." I think I have addressed the “no rights” issue above, which leaves this concept of a slave

Part 8 Master / Slave
People who come wired this way often find the M/s lifestyle a compatible fit for their needs. Those who are not wired this way, do not. this is the most powerful part i think .. thanks for your patience and i really just posted this for my reference and learning...

What Ever Do I Do?
I am overloaded with emotion today. I have the most wonderful boyfriend in the world - I really cannot say enough good things about him - he just makes me feel on top of the world. He has 2 daughters (ages 6 & 9) and I have 2 sons (ages 3 & 5). We have a very good relationship and we seem to see eye to eye about so many things - it is so perfect in so many ways that I almost have to pinch myself at times.I really feel for his daughters as I was a child of divorce and I know how I felt about the whole situation so I tend to be really sympathetic to them. It is kind of odd actually for me to be on the flip side of things now and see things from the other side.My sons simply adore Dan and his daughters and they are full on board. Dan's youngest daughter is in this boat of emotion too, although his oldest daughter seems to like me - I can sense her apprehensiveness about me being around and my level of commitment and interaction with her father. I easily get wounded and hurt feelings becau

Wondering
I find myself confused about things in my life. why am i not happy? why are things in such disaray? Sometimes its like a big ass cloud hanging over head saying how can i fuck up his life today? I mean honestly do nice guys actually finish last? I bet this sounds like im complaining and im a wimp or a pussy right but oh well its not ur life its mine. All i want is three things in life a woman thats down for me always as i would be for her through everything. Good job would be nice not that i dont have one already and somewhere to live i can figure the rest out later. Aww fuck it im going to get a beer

I Love You
Waiting and counting,Marking off the days,Why cant time fly by?Missing you,Thinking of us,Swimming in emotion,loving every thought,Every promise...Can i do it,Can i wait?My heart belongs to you ,Just ask me,I'll say yes,I love you,You are the one,You are mine,Forever in my heart.

The Real Vampire
come show yourself to me.let me see you so tha ti know you are real,and not just something i dream about or read about. come show yourself to me.let me knwo you are real,and not just something from my imagination, i have an open mind.Some may say you are not real but i think you are very real. come show yourself to me,let me knwo you are real and not just something i read about in books or dream about. by kim

Emoticons
We all know those cute little computer symbols called 'emoticons,' where: :) means a smile and :( is a frown.. Sometimes these are represented by :-) :-( Well, how about some 'ASSICONS?' Here goes: (_!_) a regular ass (__!__) a fat ass (!) a tight ass (_*_) an ass hole {_!_} a swishy ass (_o_) an ass that's been around (_x_) kiss my ass (_X_) leave my ass alone (_zzz_) a tired ass (_E=mc2_) a smart ass (_$_) Money coming out of his ass (_?_) Dumb Ass You have20just been e-mooned!

= Zarathud's Enlightenment =
"Grasshopper always wrong in argument with chicken" Book of Chan compiled by O.P.U. sect = ZARATHUD'S ENLIGHTENMENT = Before he became a hermit, Zarathud was a young Priest, and took great delight in making fools of his opponents in front of his followers. One day Zarathud took his students to a pleasant pasture and there he confronted The Sacred Chao while She was contentedly grazing. "Tell me, you dumb beast." demanded the Priest in his commanding voice, "why don't you do something worthwhile. What is your Purpose in Life, anyway?" Munching the tasty grass, The Sacred Chao replied "MU". Upon hearing this, absolutely nobody was enlightened. Primarily because nobody could understand Chinese. "MU" is the Chinese ideogram for NO-THING TAO FA TSU-DAN FIND PEACE WITH A CONTENTED CHAO

Abstinence
A young couple joined a new church and the pastor told them, 'We require all new member couples to abstain from sex for one whole month.' The couple agreed, but after two weeks returned to see the pastor. The wife was crying and the husband was obviously depressed. 'You are back so soon, is there a problem?' inquired the pastor. 'We did not manage to abstain

Few Days
Well for few days now i have been able to sleep with out being woken by the screams of others in my mind. Is a strange feeling waking up to screaming that u think u hear, sounds so real.... But then u look around its not there and it as just another dream... The dr says i need pills, i say he is just a pussy.

How To Survive Death:
one day it occured to me that everything we are; Who we are as people, family, friends, morals....everything. Its all just memories. Electrical connections firing across neurons. When death takes hold, those memories die too. When we are gone, all thats left is the memory of what was. The key to immortality is to make that memory of what was last an eternity. Do you want to live forever? Make your life count. Effect those around you. If you make a big enough impression, people will be sharing the memories of what was until the end of time.

"wrong Time"
There are certain things you can't control... You may love two people at the same time.. In the eyes of many, that kind of love is wrong.. but sometmes, finding another one to love when you already have someone proves a thing.. that no matter what you do, if destiny states that you should meet him/her, it will always find a way.. even if it's in a "wrong time"

Measure Of A Man (repost)
Define to me if you can The measure of a man Is it how he makes you feel safe Or cruel words that make you feel disgraced Is it candy and roses Or black eyes and bloody noses Is it the gentle touch of his hand Or fear when you don’t obey his jealous commands Is it sleeping in his arms at night Or his unfaithful lies Is it breakfast in bed Or him wishing you were dead Is it dinner by candle light Or how you always fight Is it him serenading you with poem and song Or how everything you do is wrong Is it how he moves Heaven and earth to prove his love Or how nothing you do is never enough Some one help me understand The measure of a man

Yup
"But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on."

Ironic Life
Sometimes, we realize to change for the better just when the situation got worse.. we realize to finally correct our mistakes just when those mistakes have cause irreversible damage.. we finally decided to prove ourselves worthy just when the person whom you want to prove your worth has already decided that your not worth it at all.. Most of the lessons are learned when the test is over, that's how IRONIC LIFE is..

I'm Feeling A Blog
Yea so I was talking to this guy out here and we started dating. We were together for about 3 weeks b4 I finally decided I was gonna put out. That's not long for some but for me it is. LOL.. Not that I sleep around bc I don't but anyways. He and I rented a Hotel room with a HUGE jacuzi tub in it. He had to work that night at 9pm. Well the sex was REALLY GOOD and I wanted more so I told him to be late to work since he'd just spent 250 on a hotel room he couldn't just leave me in it ALL ALONE.. Well he reluctantly stayed and we had ourselves quite the night. He told his boss he was sick. I didn't hear from him for a couple days after that and finally I texted him. He had lost his job. We have not talked AT ALL since that night he told me he lost his job. I'm wondering if I should call or text him. I already told Him I was sorry but no responses. I know the sex wasn't bad for him and I'm wondering if he's really that pissed about the job or not. I mean I'd be mad but he could'

Yesterday,today,tomorrow
Yesterday,Today,Tomorrow The past is something I look back on and wonder why. Today I live and often cry. Tomorrow's the day that never comes, Cause it is my future but do I really have one? The children are playing and having fun. The old ones are dying and there are new ones to come. The people are standing in the grave yard in gloom, And this beautiful world will end all to soon. To say the least man tried his best. Soon God will come and clean up the mess. Dee Parenti All Rights Reserved.

A Walk In The Park
Today you decide that maybe you should just go for a walk. Let your mind be free to wonder, and just enjoy nature. So you get into the truck and go to the local park. After walking for about a half an hour along this little used, highly wooded trail. The sky started to get cloudy and it was turning gray fast. You could tell the rain was coming. You decide it was time to go back to the truck. After about ten minutes of walking back toward the truck, You see me there.I am like an angel so very beautiful, and just sitting there on a rock that over hung on the trail. You looked up at me and said, "Hi There", with a nervousness in your voice. You never took your eyes off of me. It was like you couldn't believe how beautiful I was. My brown hair was sitting on my shoulders, my short skit was showing my sexy shapely legs, and my tightly fitting short shirt accentuated my small breast. There was a decent wind blowing and you could tell by my erect nipples that I was chilled. You look at me a

My Favorite Card Ever!!
Having You in My Life Is One of the Best Things That's ever Happened to Me In this fast-paced, impersonal, sometimes unfriendly world, I know that I'm really fortunate that you are here, too. You make me feel not so alone. Thank you for all that you are to me. I hope we will be there for each other during all the seasons of our lives, no matter where the road takes us. I can't imagine a circumstance that I would not be around for you or a place in time that I would not want you there with me. Having you in my life is like the best present anyone could ever give me. I have grown to trust you and care about you, and I love sharing the time we spend together. Knowing you lifts me up. You fill an empty space in my heart, and I hope you will stay in my life forever. Written by Donna Fargo The love of my life sent me a card with this written on it and it made me cry with tears of joy. It made me so happy that I wanted to share it. I love you Ernie.

*sigh*
A girl asked a boy "Do you think i'm pretty?" He said "No" "Do you wnat to be with me forever?" He said "No" "Would you cry if I left?" He said "No" She had heard enough, as she walked away with tears running down her face, the boy grabbed her arm and said "You're not pretty, you're beautiful, I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever, and I wouldn't cry ifyou walked away........I would die"

Tv Networks Profit From Pot, But Won't Talk Of Legalization | Pot Legalization.com
http://www.potlegalization.com/tv-networks... Marijuana legalization is the hottest topic in the media these days. MSNBC, CNBC, CNN, FOX, NatGeo, and CBS News have presented special features on marijuana business, medical marijuana, and the marijuana legalization movement. Google Trends is showing double the interest in searches and news hits for the term “marijuana legalization”. Showtime’s hit series Weeds, about a suburban mom turned pot dealer, is entering its fifth season. Everywhere you look, corporate media are happy to profit from America’s most popular herb.

Ponder-5
1. Ever wonder why they sterilize the needles for lethal injections? 2. How do you KNOW it's new and improved dog food? 3.Why do they put locks on the doors of 24 hour stores? 4. What do they use to ship styrofoam? 5. Why is it called rush hour when everything moves so slow? 6. Why do they call them express lanes when during rush hour everything is stopped? 7. Why is abreviation such a long word? 8. If sour milk is used to make you gurt, how do you know when yogurt has gone bad? 9. Why is there an expiry date on my sour cream container? 10. Why do we park on driveways and drive on parkways? 11. Why do we send cargo by ship, and shipments by car? 12. Why call it a building if it's already been built? 13. Why do kamikazee pilots wear helments? 14. How do you know when it's time to tune your bagpipes? 15. Is it true that cannibals don't eat clowns because they taste funny? 16. Does "virgin wool" come from sheep the shepherd hasn't caught yet? 17. If the front of your car s

Lady Gaga? Ok For Young Girls?
Being the insomanic that am i I went to walmart and walked artound the electronic section. There was a group of young girls huddle over the headphones listening to lady gaga They repeated every word she said these girls where every bit of 8 9 and 13 they sung this and i quote the song... it refers to a disco stick she is obviously talking about a penis and sexual acts...heres the lyrics read them closelyshouldnt they age proof music!!let's have some fun, this beat is sick I wanna take a ride on your disco stick(2x)(huh) (2x)I wanna kiss you (huh)but if I do then I might miss you, babe (huh)it's complicated and stupid (huh)got my ass squeezed by sexy cupid (huh)guess he wants to play, wants to playa love game, a love game (huh)hold me and love mejust want touch you for a minutemaybe three seconds is enoughfor my heart to quit itlet's have some fun, this beat is sickI wanna take a ride on your disco stickdon't think too much, just bust that kickI wanna take a ride on your disco sticklet

The Veterinarian
The Veterinarian One Sunday, in counting the money in the weekly offering, the Pastor of a small church found a pink envelope containing $1,000. It happened again the next week! The following Sunday, he watched as the offering was collected and saw an elderly woman put the distinctive pink envelope on the plate. This went on for weeks until the pastor, overcome by curiosity, approached her. 'Ma'am, I couldn't help but notice that you put $1,000 a week in the collection plate, he stated. 'Why yes, she replied, every week my son sends me money and I give some of it to the church' The pastor replied, 'That's wonderful. But $1000 is a lot, are you sure you can afford this? How much does he send you?' The elderly woman answered: â€œ$10,000 a week.â€ The pastor was amazed, your son is very successful; what does he do for a living? 'He is a veterinarian, she answered. 'That's an honorable profession, but I had no idea they made that much money, the pastor said. 'Where

Seriously??
From my SB ..read from the bottom up.. wildchild12: hahahaha byee ->wildchild12: BLOCKED:d....THANKS FOR PLAYING ->wildchild12: lmfao...maybe it does..on someone who was born yesterday..move along to the next naive fu ho wildchild12: it does...your gonna love it oo ->wildchild12: seriously??? Does that shit EVER work??? wildchild12: geez your so freaking hot that i wanna suck ya pussy all night

Be Youself
If you want to be miserable, then get yourself around other people who are miserable. If you wish to be joyful, successful and fulfilled, put yourself around those who live with positive purpose. The more energy you put into complaining about how bad things are, the more things you'll have to complain about. The more intensely you visualize how good things can be, the better they will become. You are naturally drawn to whatever you focus upon. You will see precisely the opportunities and possibilities that you prepare yourself to see. Each day is filled with so many choices and directions that you cannot possibly connect to them all. The ones you do connect with are the ones that most closely resonate with your view of life. Fortunately, you can choose to view life in whatever way you wish. Those who find the best in life are those who continually remind themselves that all the good and valuable things are most certainly there. See your life as a grand opportunity for love and joy, ach

Manufacturers Tell Fda Panel That Vaccine Could Be Ready For 50 Million People By Mid-october
By Todd ZwillichWebMD Health News Reviewed by Louise Chang, MD July 23, 2009 -- Vaccine makers told an FDA panel of experts that they're moving ahead with rushed plans to produce a swine flu vaccine and could have doses ready to distribute to the public by mid-October. Federal officials are planning a massive fall vaccination campaign against H1N1, the virus that causes swine flu and has caused thousands of hospitalizations and more than 170 deaths since the spring. The government has devoted billions of dollars to private companies as part of an emergency vaccine production program. Companies and government officials are rushing to test and produce a swine flu vaccine in time for an expected resurgence of the H1N1 virus in the fall. The effort is potentially complicated by the fact that manufacturers must also continue making a separate vaccine against the seasonal flu, which kills an estimated 36,000 people per year in the U.S. "Time is really not on our side," F

General
I was wondering how come some pretty wmen i meet are gay not that theres any thing wrong with it,it just floors me because you would think uglywomen would apt to be gay or am stairo typing it pleae tell me if my misconception is wrong or am i being judgemental about the whole profiling issue at hand.

My Secret Wish
my wish is to meet someone, who would like to be with me and surprise me or spoil me just because he wants to rather than because he feels that he has to. And make me fall in love with him, and him fall in love with me. Make love to me because he wants to and be slow and passionate, treat me like I was a princess in his world and love me for who I am. Someone who surprises me with flowers at work, or just because, has a nice house. And is spontaneous, and some what educated. Someone who will love me for me and not love me for being his play toy, someone who will tell me he loves me because he wants to say it not because he has to say it. Someone who is comfortable and not have to struggle with the bills, someone who takes me on trips just because he wants to or wants to surprise me. Someone who will say "I Love You" and actually mean it with his heart, someone who is not afraid to spend a little bit of money, and worry about struggling with the bills. Someone who appreciates me for me

Diseased African Monkeys Used To Make Swine Flu Vaccines; Private Military Contractor Holds Key Patents
To most people, vaccines sound medically harmless. “They’re good for you!” say the doctors and drug companies, but they never really talk about what’s in those vaccines. There’s a good reason for that: If people knew what was really in those vaccines, they would never allow themselves to be injected with them. Aside from the dangerous ingredients many people already know about (like squalene or thimerosal), one of the key ingredients used in flu vaccines (including the vaccines being prepared for the swine flu pandemic) is the diseased flesh of African Green Monkeys. This is revealed in U.S. patent No. 5911998 – Method of producing a virus vaccine from an African green monkey kidney cell line. (http://www.patentstorm.us/patents/5…) As this patent readily explains, ingredients used in the vaccine are derived from the kidneys of African Green Monkeys who are first infected with the virus, then allowed to fester the disease, and then are killed

Kids
ok i thought this was strictly a problem for women when it came to them finding guys. i think i have found the only city in the world where if youre a guy and you have kids that live with you the women treat you like you have the god damn hiv. what a great time we live in where ppl (guys and girls alike) treat ppl like they are losers cause they chose to have a fulfilled life by having children. i think that it is high time that these shallow fucks be put in thier place whos with me??

Gtalk...work
Changed the names to protect identities 3:02 PM guyiworkwith: I haven't been paying attention to google talk! you sensitive little girl, maybe later we should go out and find a dress on sale, maybe that'll make you feel better 3:04 PM me: talking smack from behind the anonymous computer screen only works if the person doesnt know where you are... least you not forget i have no problems pummeling you guyiworkwith: you're a girl 3:05 PM me: your a dead man ....look behind you guyiworkwith: and you have boobs me: magnificant boobs guyiworkwith: booby mosley me: boobs that you can never have the glory of nuzzling SPELL MY NAME RIGHT DICK 3:06 PM 12 years.. holy christ on a stick... with nails\ guyiworkwith

Fu Marriage
The Question always comes up of "How does someone get married on Fubar?" There are two ways of getting fu-married: 1. Buying a Fubar Certificate * Buying the fu-certificate will entail you with being on each others profile and tooltips, special fu-marriage bling, 10% of each others points and a discount on giftshop items. Info on choosing this option is located here. 2. Contacting a Fu-Judge / Fu-Pastor * This option has been around since LostCherry (Don't know what LostCherry is find a member below the 300,000 mark and they'll fill you in. It has been used as a method of a member based wedding ceremony. Info about this option can be found here. 1. Steps to getting fu-married: * Step 1: Find a wifey/husband * Step 2: Buy the Fu-Certificate or Contact a Fubar Pastor * Step 3: Get fu-married and have lots of fu-babies need a fu pastor? hit me up! Mr. Sunshine

Ensign: I Don't Know
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 7 August 2009 A few weeks ago I’d written one of these messages and it wasn’t long after the pixels appeared on one site that I got a response amounting to “I’m convinced you don’t know the slightest thing about prayer or faith.” At first, I was tempted to dismiss that as the raving of an atheist (which this commentator is) who saw “God” and pounced on someone using the G word with a modicum of respect, but after exchanging a few civil words (yes, really) with him I thought there’s some truth to what he’s saying. Let’s just make sure, pardon the pun, we know what we mean when we say we KNOW something. “One thing I know for certain, and that is I know nothing.” -- attributed to Socrates The top definition of &ldqu

My New Morph Standards!
Alright I know most of my friends love my morphs but now I think since im not gettin any type of love from anyone and also me not having a VIP, im gonna be a shithead about my morphs now. Here goes. . . a 2 pic morph will cost 100k AND 1 credit bling. a 3 pic morph will cost 250k AND a 3 1 credit bling OR a 3 credit bling. anything else will be discussed. Thank You!

Talmudification
Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on. Not from his head to be superior, but from the side to be equal.

Broken By Lifehouse
Broken by LifehouseThe broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonightMaybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my timeAnd I am here still waiting though I still have my doubtsI am damaged at best, like you've already figured outI'm falling apart, I'm barely breathingWith a broken heart that's still beatingIn the pain there is healingIn your name I find meaningThe broken locks were a warning you got inside my headI tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book insteadAnd I still see your reflection inside of my eyesThat are looking for purpose, they're still looking for lifeI'm falling apart, I'm barely breathingWith a broken heart that's still beatingIn the pain there's the healingIn your name I find meaningSo I'm holdin' onI'm holdin' onI'm holdin' onI'm barely holdin' on to youI'm hanging on another day Just to see what you will throw my wayAnd I'm hanging on to the words you sayYou said that I would, would be okThe broken lights on the freeway left me here aloneI may have l

In September 1960
In September 1960, I woke up one morning with six hungry babies and just 75 cents in my pocket. Their father was gone. The boys ranged from three months to seven years; their sister was two. Their Dad had never been much more than a presence they feared. Whenever they heard his tires crunch on the gravel driveway they would scramble to hide under their beds. He did manage to leave $15 a week to buy groceries. Now that he had decided to leave, there would be no more beatings, but no food either. If there was a welfare system in effect in southern Indiana at that time, I certainly knew nothing about it. I scrubbed the kids until they looked brand new and then put on my best homemade dress, loaded them into the rusty old 51 Chevy and drove off to find a job. The seven of us went to every factory, store and restaurant in our small town. No luck. The kids stayed crammed into the car and tried to be quiet while I tried to convince who ever would listen that I was willing to learn

Adults Who Have No Sympathy
Adults who have no sympathy to the youth are the ones that give no attention to youth who become adults with no compassion.. An I feel if your walking by the street an you're walking on concrete and you saw a rose growing outta the concrete evan if it had messed up petals an it was a lil you know tilted to the side you would marvel at just seeing a rose growing outta concrete so why is it that when you see some ghetto kid grow outta all the dirty circumstances and he can talk and he can sit across from you make you laugh make you cry make you smile all you can talk about is my dirty rose my dirty stems an how im leaning crooked to the side you can't evan see that i came up outta that shit .!

Blonde Joke
An old, blind cowboy wanders into an all-girl biker bar by mistake. He finds his way to a bar stool and orders some coffee. After sitting there for a while, he yells to the waiter, 'Hey, you wanna hear a blonde joke?' The bar immediately falls absolutely silent. In a very deep, husky voice, the woman next to him says, 'Before you tell that joke, Cowboy, I think it is only fair, given that you are blind, that you should know five things: 1. The bartender is a blonde girl with a baseball bat. 2. The bouncer is a blonde girl. 3. I'm a 6-foot tall, 175-pound blonde woman with a black belt in karate. 4. The woman sitting next to me is blonde and a professional weightlifter. 5. The lady to your right is blonde and aprofessional wrestler. 'Now, think about it seriously, Mister. Do you still wanna tell that joke?' The blind cowboy thinks for a second, shakes his head, and mutters, 'No...not if I'm gonna have to explain it five times.'

My Message To All
"America these soldiers, everyone of them young and old, Made a choice to serve their country, Never forced never told". "They're strong America, the bravest in the land". "And if you'll allow me the time, I'll tell you my plan". "It's simple America, freedom must withstand". "I believe it should encompass the entire globe, Not just one nation or other selected pieces of land". "They are called to duty America, To fight for a worthy cause". "To rid the world of evil, "Forgetting not the cost". "I stand with them America, As they tread on foreign land". "I give them strength to complete their task, So they may return home once again". "The lives of many America,

Aquarius
LOVE INSIGHT Aquarians are attracted to people who are different and unique. They have a need to feel in tune with their love-mate, on a mind, body and soul level. They have strong opinions; however, will respect you for who you are. They are surrounded by people, so don't' be the jealous type! Aquarius - Aries : This is an interesting and fascinating match. Aquarius - Taurus : There's an abundance of education available. Aquarius - Gemini : Once these two are together, they may never part. Aquarius - Cancer : They admire each other's skills and position in life. Aquarius - Leo : This is a magnetic union - it keeps them interested. Aquarius - Virgo : On an intellectual level, it's spell-binding. Aquarius - Libra : These two will talk, love, and nurture each other. Aquarius - Scorpio : Intrigue and curiosity brings them together. Aquarius - Sagittarius : An appreciation of each other's missions in life. Aquarius - Capricorn : Their differences can be complimentary. Aquarius

A Slight Detour Pt 6
250-Year-Old Boogey Man pt. 6 Or The Cult That Couldn't Shoot Straight "A vile of this biological weapon, no bigger than this pencil, will kill 80-100,000 people" -V.P. Dick Cheney, 2001 I live in Hemet, California. It's a small farm town, with a lot of retired military, and only three main roads. It's one of the famous California "cow towns" that have all but disappeared. Now Hemet is known for two things, neither of them are very enviable. First, in proportion to population, we have lost more citizens to the most recent war in the Gulf than any town or city in California. Heck, we have lost more young people in Iraq, than any town or city this side of the Rockies (Google it). Part of this, is because of our retired military. See, the patriotic fathers and grandfathers of the last wars, sent their brave boys to fight in this one. It's also because, well, soldiers usually come from the poorer areas of small towns, all across America. You want proof of this?

A Slight Detour Pt. 8
A 250-Year-Old Boogey man pt 8 Or It's all Just Chemistry "Elvis, what the Hell kind of name is Elvis? ...I don't trust him... He's got those mirrored sunglasses like the guy in Cool Hand Luke." -Me, one night commenting on a Hemet "tweeker", at Walmart Now people say to me (at least in my mind anyways)... "...Misha, what do YOU know about chemistry?" Yours is the field of psychology, after all. And people say to me (at least in my mind anyways)... "...Misha, what do YOU know about the intricacies of chemical experimentation?" Yours is the field of Academia, after all. "Tell me something, nigga, how are YOU gonna write a chapter about chemical interactions?" Well, and to be honest, "psychology is the result of chemical interactions", thus spake the bard, Herr Sigmund Freud. But I know a little something about chemistry, outside the field of psycho-analysis, anyways. It's true. I worked with chemicals, for many years. I know how to check my

My Natal Chart Analysis
Rising Sign is in 14 Degrees Aquarius You like new ideas and concepts, but you prefer to discover them by yourself -- it is not easy for others to convert you to anything. You form your own opinions, but once you do form them, you then want to convince everyone else that they are correct. Try to be more tolerant of the opinions of others. You have a deep and abiding interest in science, mathematics, and the great social problems of the day. Very sympathetic toward the downtrodden, equality is your battle cry! You demand that those in authority be fair to all. You are an intellectual -- emotions and emotional people are difficult for you to understand. You are known for being calm, cool, detached and objective. Sun is in 06 Degrees Sagittarius. Very fun-loving, spirited and energetic, you have a huge reservoir of physical energy within you that needs to be released. As such, exercise or sports are very important to you. Quite gregarious, you enjoy being with other people, but yo

In Her Eyes
In Her Eyes By Ember Copyright 2006 Mesmerized, by eyes of green enchanting visions, to be seen thoughts invoked, of love and grief stilling your heart, a midnight thief Passions blinding, building up twisting in your mind, corrupt promises given, by eyes so bright to love, to pleasure, to hold all night. Endlessly you start to fall into eyes growing brighter, pupils small your soul is embraced, in burning flames her eternal lover, you shall remain.

Night Ritual
Night Ritual By Ember All around, the dark memories gather.My dread grows as a shadow falls against my heart. It hurts me, and darkly myblood drips to the fallen despairing leaves. In my madness I scream out my despairwhile nothingness surrounds me. Now alone, my supplication falls upon darkened eyes.This is my Hell

The Most Talk Thoughts
Thris morning I awoke to the sounds of my teenage daugher russling around outside me bedroom door. Last night or early this morning she floated in to me house at 4am. she is 16 and a vary good kid vary honest always upfront wtih me about what is going on. With that in mind I brought her out to breakfast at the ungodly hour os 7am and we had the pill talk. after many moments of cold swets and anginic attacks I was pressed to agree that my daugher go on the pill. My friends have all said how "forward thinking I am." I me self find it hard not to get in me car and go run over her boy friend many many times in a proticular part of his anatomy feel free to post your thoughts always looking for a counter answer

Secret Desire
My Secret Desire By: Lady Ember One look in your eyes sets me afire with longing and lust, and unholy desire I ache to touch you, feel your hard skin sink with you into a dark pit of sin. You touch your tongue to my silken breast your hand slides down to my bare, slippery nest you tease and torture me with your touch I lean back on the table, using it as a crutch. You reach for the razor and begin to cut I collapse in ecstasy sliding down on my butt the blood slowly drips, coating my nipples as you lick it up, I see your muscles ripple I open my thighs, your cock goes deep probing and stroking making my heart leap you suck up my blood, my burning desire slipping inside of me, we go up in fire. Screaming and dreaming an ecstasy real I can never explain what you make me feel hot molten desire, floods through my veins as we reach completion, over and over again. You've opened my eyes to so many things darkness and lust, unimaginable dreams thank y