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Rue Mcclanahan
NEW YORK (AP) - Rue McClanahan, the Emmy-winning actress who brought the sexually liberated Southern belle Blanche Devereaux to life on the hit TV series "The Golden Girls," has died. She was 76.Her manager Barbara Lawrence said McClanahan died Thursday at 1 a.m. of a stroke.She had undergone treatment for breast cancer in 1997 and later lectured to cancer support groups on "aging gracefully." In 2009, she had heart bypass surgery.McClanahan had an active career in off-Broadway and regional stages in the 1960s before she was tapped for TV in the 1970s for the key best-friend character on the hit series "Maude," starring Beatrice Arthur. After that series ended in 1978, McClanahan landed the role as Aunt Fran on "Mama's Family" in 1983.But her most loved role came in 1985 when she co-starred with Arthur, Betty White and Estelle Getty in "The Golden Girls," a runaway hit that broke the sitcom mold by focusing on the foibles of four a ging - and frequently eccentric - women living togethe

To My Lovely Pets!!!
Dear Dogs and Cats: The dishes with the paw prints are yours and contain your food. The other dishes are mine and contain my food. Placing a paw print in the middle of my plate and food does not stake a claim for it becoming your food and dish, nor do I find that aesthetically pleasing in the slightest. The stairway was not designed by NASCAR and is not a racetrack. Racing me to the bottom is not the object. Tripping me doesn't help because I fall faster than you can run. I cannot buy anything bigger than a king sized bed. I am very sorry about this. Do not think I will continue sleeping on the couch to ensure your comfort, however. Dogs and cats can actually curl up in a ball when they sleep. It is not necessary to sleep perpendicular to each other, stretched out to the fullest extent possible. I also know that sticking tails straight out and having tongues hanging out on the other end to maximize space is nothing but sarcasm. For the last time, there is n

Dont Shave Your Ass Hair Lmao
Don't Shave That Hair!!! I have recently made a mistake in my life, and I offer my story to you, that you may learn from my error. It all started, as many things do, with me having trouble shitting. No, I was not constipated; this was not a regularity problem but a matter of technique. It seems my ass-hair had grown to such a length that tiny grogans were constantly getting tied up in the matted jungle between my asscheeks. It led to much frustration, with me KNOWING that I still had something to drop, but unable to shake the tenacious turd loose from its butthair dwelling. Eventually I would have to do two things: either reach down with some paper and try to pinch off the lingering loaf (which required careful precision to avoid smearing the creature all over my rear, especially since I had no way of seeing what I was doing) or just go for broke, start wiping, and hope that I could remove all the leftover fecal matter before the toilet paper reached its Can't-Be-Flushed threshold. I w

Stupid Encounters #38 (let It Be Known About The 69 Girls) Join Fuct!
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Masters Cock
Me and Master where all alone. I just got done with the dishes, he was watching tv and I was in a very horny mood so I decided to surprise him by doing the one thing I know he loves me doing to him. So I got on my hands and knees and slowly crawled to him with my ass in the air like a horny cat does. When I noticed that he had his eyes closed I smiled and went a little faster to his lap. When I was in between his legs I slowly unbuckle his belt and undo his pants. I slowly pulled his cock out. Smiling I get up a little where my ass is in the air, I slowly pop the head of his cock in my mouth and softly suck on it. I slowly look up at his face and noticed he was watching me from under his lashes. I knew then he was going to watch me and not stop me. So smiling I started to put more in my mouth to where I have all of it in my mouth. But instead of going back up I start to suck on him to make sure he was good and hard before I slowly go up. But I stop every few inches to su

Can You?
I look up to the sky and I send this message through my eyes can you hear me? can you hear my prayers? I want to talk to you so you should pull up a chair I can fell you looking right at me I close my eyes and your face is the only thing i see Reaching my hand out towards the stars that shine the wind through my fingers feels like your fingers interlocking with mine Can you hear me? do you hear the words i'm trying to say? it's hard to put my feelings together, but i'm trying in every single way. I wish you were here in my arms so i could hold you tight hold you to the point where we fall asleep in each other's arm's and our hearts say goodnight "I love you" are the words I here coming from the moon i'm wishing even harder for you to come home I speak to the moon, yes this is true cause whenever i'm not near my love i ask the moon to look after you Can you hear me, MOON? Did my message get through? Just tell him that I miss him

Thoughts
I dont know how to feel anymore. I dont think my heart could possibly break anymore. I dont think i could possible cry these tears anymore. I thought I could trust you, but probably another lie you want me to believe is surfacing. I thought everything would be alright. that the wounds would heal over my heart. But they haven't. they keep festering deep within my heart. I'd say that I am not hurt but that'd be a lie in its self. Every pay check you spend it on the unnessasries rather than the children. I know what I should do but I'm not sure I know how so easily. I wanted you to open your eyes but I knew that was just too much to ask. I sit at home while you're at "work" and I'm not dumb. I know when you're not and I know how I feel when you snap at me and ask why when I ask about when you go into work. I know what you're doing and I havent really le tit sink in. I know if I do things will happen and in the end I'll be crying. I just wish you'd look at your kids, you know the ones I t

Drinking With A Arizona Girl
A Mexican, an Arab, and a Arizona girl are in the same bar. when the Mexican finishes his beer, he throws his glass in the air, pulls our his pistol, and shoots the glass to pieces. He says, "In Mexico, our glasses are so cheap we don't need to drink with the same one twice." The Arab, obviously impressed by this, drinks non-alcohol beer (cuz he's a muslim!), throws it into the air, pulls out his AK-47, and shoots the glass to pieces. "In the Arab World, we have so much sand to make glasses that we don't need to drink with the same glass twice either." The Arizona girl, cool as a cucumber, picks up her beer, downs it in one gulp, throws the glass into the air, whips out her 45, and shoots the Mexican and the Arab. Catching her glass, setting it on the bar, and calling for a refill, she says, "In Arizona, we have no many illegal aliens that we don't have to drink with the sames ones twice." God Bless Arizona

Freedom
FREEDOM And if I asked you for one more kiss... Would you be willing to give it? Just one more caress of my body... Would it be something you would permit? Pleasure given freely... Your skin against mine. Passion unabandoned... With the confinement of love declined. SEX just for sex... Passion uncontrolled... Could you be prepared? For that intensity to unfold? Emotions set aside. Except for fire and complete lust. Though if I give my sex to you... Loyalty is a must! Pleasure is the goal. It is what truly matters... For without that pleasure, That "love" you share will shatter! It is completely one... Pain and pleasure both. Even normal people accept that... Not knowing, though, giving an oath. Some are smarter than others. Giving in to the physical side... Enjoying that part of sex, Is something I'll no longer hide. Be open to express yourself, No matter what that may be... Feel that pressure leave you. Happy in being free!!!

"trying To Forget Someone You Really Like.
6-6-2010"I always knew I would look back on my sadness and laugh; but I never knew I would look back at my laughter and cry.""Trying to forget someone you really like. is like trying to remember someone you never met.""Once upon a time I was falling , but now I'm only falling apart.""I thought I Was starting to love her, but she had to break my heart for me to know what shereally meant to me.."Time goes by, life goes on, and all I can think of is why you're gone.""I should have been more careful. I was blinded by your halo, so I never noticed the horns.""I wish you could look at me and see the person you once liked instead of the person you have grown to hate.""I may regret the way we ended, but I will never regret what we had.""Everyone always says there are more fish in the sea... but sometimes you just really want bass.""From an angel's wings, to a falling star, God made everything, but an unbreakable heart."This is what we call eternal love%u2026"Maybe one day I'll be able to tear

New Skin - Chicago Blackhawks 6/7
I've added a new public skin for the Hawk fans. Preview is below. This skin is sized at 1366 :) As always, you can rip any of my skins marked PUBLIC, but I ask that you do not take those that are customs. To view this or any other skin, view my profile and scroll to the bottom. Select BROWSE USER'S SKINS, and preview the ones you'd like to try. If you like it, select the option to rip, and then activate it from your own skins section. More to come as time allows...if you have an idea for a public skin, just send me a message. I hope you enjoy them. Take care, fubies!

Another Battle In Our Dirty Little War
You forgive me for liking you too much,And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.You forgive me for missing you when your not around,And I'll forgive you for treating me so cold.You forgive me for loving the sound of your voice,And I'll forgive you for never listening to mine.You forgive me for playing your games,And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.You forgive me for making you a "priority" in MY life,And I'll forgive you for being merely an "option" on your life.You forgive me for raising you up so high'And I'll forgive you for putting me down so low.You forgive me for wanting to spend time with you,And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.You forgive me for being so pathetic,And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.You forgive me for not being able to let you go,And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,And I'll forgive you for laughing at me.

Signs
I believe in signs. I know it might sound silly, but I absolutely believe in them and believe everything happens for a reason and people are the way they are for certain reasons. Just like the movie. That he swung at every pitch and that little girl left water all over the house and in the end, all for a reason. I also like, and believe, in horoscopes and things of that nature. Anything like that. I have a few things up on my Facebook like that. And I pay close attention to those kinds of things. As well as when I'm having a hard time and need a sign, and a specific song comes on the radio that just fits and makes sense like it was playing specifically for me. I believe in all of that stuff. Today on the way home from work, Rascal Flatts' song "My Wish" came on and I just starting sobbing. Things have slowly been falling apart for me, all year, but specifically the last 2 months. And it's slowly taking it's toll on me. That song was the song my first, real, true love played for me whe

Not My Thing, Or So I Thought
Not My Thing, or so I Thought – It was three weeks before she called again. I was in a meeting with my staff when my caller ID lit up with her name. I didn’t even excuse myself. I grabbed my bag and headed for the door, waiting until I cleared the room to speak. “Hi, Madeline,” I whispered. “Daryl, I’m sorry I called during work but…” As her voice trailed off I thought about what I was doing. I had pretended that I had put our scene of three weeks ago out of my mind but nothing could be farther from the truth. I had been waiting for her to call. I had been waiting to see that ass again, bent over something, pushed up and waiting for me to abuse it. I hated myself and the guilt of doing this without telling my wife was creeping into my vision like a fog bank rolling in from the sea but god I wanted to spank her! “Where are you?” I snapped. “What?” Perhaps I

More Lies And Attention Whoring Part 6
SweetOne taking...new blog, explains everything. friends only. ♥United Kingdomsubject: RE: SweetOne ECS has bought you an Absolut Shotreceived: 05/27/2010 07:45 pmreplied: 05/27/2010 07:51 pm block this memberthank you ♥k i better catch up.sleep well tonight hugs=== ' Kloverlynn' wrote the following at '2010-05-27 19:44:02'..>> make the choice our gut says to make..and your heart will tell you as well> and be strong..if ya need help I am here> === ' SweetOne ECS' wrote the following at '2010-05-27 19:37:59'..> >> > that has helped me make up my mind.> > now i need to tell him again, because i dont think he believes me> > > > === ' Kloverlynn' wrote the following at '2010-05-27 19:37:00'..> > >> > > You didnt do it> > > But I KNOW if you step back for a moment and live it from my side> > > that you will make the decison over John> > > === ' SweetOne ECS' wrote the following at '2010-05-27 19:28:16'..> > > >> > > > im sorry kerry> > > > === ' Kloverlynn' wrote the following

Morning Fubar
my first official morning here at fubar....upon joining last night, everyone was so nice to me. there is a lot to this site, so today i am going to be exploring it a bit to see how it works, what all is involved here. was checking out the blings and saw the cherry bong....lol...so i have fired my personal one up and will begin my day. later this morning i will be going out shopping, a girl can never have enough outfits now can she? lol.....but i have walked holes in all my flipflops now, so i gotta go get me some more. i also need a new swimsuit for laying out in, which i will be doing this afternoon. hope to see you around the bar, and stay safe! kisses.... muffins

Drafting Guys Over 60
Drafting Guys Over 60 This is funny & obviously written by a Former Soldier... New Direction for any war: Send Service Vets over 60! I am over 60 and the Armed Forces thinks I'm too old to track down terrorists. You can't be older than 42 to join the military. They've got the whole thing ass-backwards. Instead of sending 18-year olds off to fight, they ought to take us old guys. You shouldn't be able to join a military unit until you're at least 35. For starters, researchers say 18-year-olds think about sex every 10 seconds. Old guys only think about sex a couple of times a day, leaving us more than 28,000 additional seconds per day to concentrate on the enemy. Young guys haven't lived long enough to be cranky, and a cranky soldier is a dangerous soldier. 'My back hurts! I can't sleep, I'm tired and hungry.' We are impatient and maybe letting us kill some asshole that desperately deserves it will make us feel better and shut us up for awhile. An 18-year-old doesn't even like

Remember Me
Remember Me Do you still remember me Or have I become a faded memory I was once the one you could not live without Now I am the one you forgot about Have I ever crossed your mind Since you left me far behind Our love was pure, deep, and strong But the time that's past has been so long If our paths should cross again someday Some random chance that we should meet Will we look at each other and say Standing there on Lonely Street Do you still remember me Do you wish things were how they use to be? Heather McLaughlin 6/9/10

Percieved
I am not anything special I walk I talk endlessly I breath I am not something special I break down and cry I vie for others that dont even know I am there I dont care if I hurt that might just make me want more or less I wouldnt want to be special I only need a bit of time not all attention on me But you showed me something special (to be cont)

All You Need Is Love-love Is All You Need
One of the simplest ways of attracting love is to give love. When your motives are pure and you wish only to honestly express your affection, the people you care for will respond with love and appreciation. They will sense that you are seeking nothing in return and feel blessed that you have given such a rare and wonderful gift. The more you love others, the more love you will give to yourself because our relationships with others often reflect our relationship with ourselves. When you give your love to others, you will naturally draw to you the love that you crave.

Sell Tools
rst off, I don't give a shit if you do this or not, you have NOT gotten me to this point and it's safe to say Tomorrow you will not help me either. Same goes for me too, I have nothing to do with your life either. Second, I own a Tool & Supply biz. We Sell safety equipment and Tools to construction companies nationwide. 6017 Items to be exact. Women do very well at this, listen NO offense, but i am a realist, WE ALL flirt on here either for acceptance, to make ourselves feel important or just to find someone to get us off. Listen I am the Playahs Playa. With that in mind, I know some of you are just the same, playing games with people for our own amusement. Since you have

It's Bee Awhile.... And This Has Been The Worst Year Of My Life So Far.
Well here's a quick breif and I'll bring you right into the present. So I've had a lot of bad shit happen lately. Start back in '08 my friend died after an accident on his Harely. He had severe brain damage and wasn't going to make it, he died 10-20-08, the day after his accident. I got the call when I was in my night classes for college. Then as I believe I have posted my dogs death already on here. She was a great dog and she was pretty much my world, she got hit by a car and passed 10-22-08, just two days after my friend Jeremy passed. July 2009 came around my grandmother had cancer was getting treatment and she ended up not making it either, she passed just a couple weeks before my 20th bday. My grandpa told me at the funeral not to cry because I needed to be strong for the cousin's so I've to this day never cried. If it wasn't for her cosigning for my loans I wouldn't have been able to go to college. She had a big heart she helped me. I seen her almost every single day for two ye

Blow Jobs: A Woman's Guide To Pleasing Her Man
i found this posted on another site, authors permission to repost pending. i'll remove it if they don't approve. -=-=-=- First, I need to inform those of us who aren't self-made experts on the male anatomy:1. Just because his penis is bigger than your clit doesn't mean he's any easier to get off. Men need just as much variety and attention as women do.2. He's not going to get off every time. You have your off-days, and so does he.3. He's not going to leave you if you're not any good in bed. If he does, he's not worth the effort.4. He can still enjoy the sensations of head without cumming.5. "Too gentle" isn't enough. "Too sensitive" isn't very good either.Now, keeping that in mind, the first step to giving good head is to relax... And that goes for the giver and the receiver. The easiest position for this is to get in between his legs, lay just over his cock, and brace yourself on your left forearm.Next, gather some saliva in your mouth (if this is a problem, for about $1 at an

On The Cusp Of Achievement
A big fu-event is coming up for me soon: my angel wings. I'm 2 million points away from leveling and I know I'll reach it tonight or tomorrw. Now I ask you to wait. This is not a post begging for points. I can get the points on my own with no problems. This is a blog about the excitement that is still inside me, that same excitement I had from Fu-day one. After two and a half years, I still get excited when I get close to leveling. It's a sense of pride and accomplishment. I had it when I reached level two, and I still have it on the eve of level 30. Recently, I've enjoyed helping others in their level requirements. The other night I posted that I had three pimp outs to give away. Three people quickly jumped on them but one had already had their full allotment of pimp-outs. A few minutes later another person asked if they could have one at a later date. They were close to leveling and the next level included needing to be pimped out. I talked briefly with the person, who was extremel

Nappy Nap Time
I am about to go take a nap, I need my beauty sleep since I have been training like an animal all week. Tomorrow we are having a sparring tournament at the dojo. I might fight in it if there is a girl there around my weight class. I am looking forward to watching the students I have been helping to train to compete and kick some serious butt. I love it when you help mold someone into an awesome fighter and then see the benefits of all the hard work that was put into creating a great warrior. :P Then on Sunday I will be taking the not so little ones Fishing, boating, and swimming again. We found a great spot last weekend and I want to go there and wear my new swim suit and soak up the summer sun while floating out in the middle of the lake. I love it when it's hot out. Anyway...Have a great weekend and I look forward to stalking you all on Monday. (((BIG BEAR HUGS)))

True Friends...
Ever notice that when something happens when you find out who your true friends are, it is always a bittersweet moment?? It is nice to know who has your back, but it also sucks to find out those you thought did....don't.

A Girl
A Girl A Girl A girl in New York with nowhere to go Met a man and told him she loved him so They met in the early morning and kissed in the snow The man felt so right and wanted it to grow Time went on and there were bumps in the road The man still felt good, if the girl felt bad, he wasn't told One day the girl was gone, no explanation, no goodbye Leaving the man with nothing except tears to cry Many things could have been said before that time That girl could have said she wasn't okay, giving the man a sign A Girl A Girl

Negatives Thoughts Are A Big No No
It's truly sad how many negative people there are out there. Instead of wasting your time tearing down others and posting negative comments, why not focus your attention on something more productive? Try posting a positive status instead of a negative one! Positive attitude will not only make you feel better, but will take you a long way in your career, relationships, etc.

Fakes, Real Life & Stuff To Think About On Fubar...
Check the blog below and to the left with the same title...don't forget to rate , tell your friends and post your comments as always and please don't forget to rate it a 1, 3, 6, 10 or 11..:D

Timbuktu
The finals of the National Poetry Contest last year came down to two finalists. One was a Duke University Law School graduate from an uppercrust family -- well-bred, well-connected, and all that goes with it. The other finalist was a redneck from Southeast Alabama. The rules of the contest required each finalist to compose a four-line poem in one minute or less, and the poem had to contain the word Timbuktu". The Duke graduate went first. About thirty seconds after the clock started he jumped up and recited the following poem: Slowly across the desert sand Trekked the dusty caravan. Men on camels, two by two Destination -Timbuktu. The audience went wild!!! How, they wondered, could the redneck top that?! The clock started again and the redneck sat in silent thought. Finally, in the last few seconds, he jumped up and yelled: Tim and me, a-huntin' we

A Naughty Little Poem
She whispered "will it hurt me?" "Of course not" answered he "It's a very simple process, You can rely on me." She said "I'm very frightened, I've not had this before. My friend has had it five times And said it can be sore." It was growing rather painful Tears formed in her eyes It was hurting quite a bit now It must have been a size. "Calm yourself" he whispered "His face filled with a grin "Try and open wider So I can get it in." "It's coming now" he whispered "I know" she cried in bliss Feeling it deep within her now She said "I am glad I'm having this." And with a final effort She gave a frightened shout He gripped it in anguish And quickly pulled it out. She lay back quite contended Sighed and gave a smile She said "I'm glad I came now You made it worth my while." Now if you read this carefully The dentist you will find Is not what you imagined It's just your dirty mind!

This Goes Out To Anyone Who Has Had A Long Distance Relationship....
I wrote this poem because I miss my girlfriend, we have no contact thanks to her parents and I miss her dearly. I'd like to dedicate this to her, as well as anyone who is/was in a long distance relationship and you have no contact with your loved one. A Love So Strong It's a love so strong, to make a grown man cry I miss you so much, to bring tears to my eyes I think about you night and day. hoping to hear from you somehow, someday. I miss you, oh god, I really do. all I ever seem to think about, is you. no matter what I do, you're on my mind. I cant seem to shake it, no matter how hard I try. I cry and cry, I can seem to stop. since you've moved, my heart wants to flop. you're my only, yes it is true. my heart is yours, it belongs to you. I hear a tune, it reminds me of you. I look at my phone, it reminds me of you. now you're gone and I want to say, please call me, and make this pain go away.

What Can Happen At A Scavenger Hunt Memorial Weekend
So what did you do for memorial day weekend? I had a picture scavenger hunt to do all weekend...Awee yes...a list of pictures taken with your team of 2 to 5 people. well, i was fortunate my best friend was the only one that i could convinced to do this hunt. It did take a little coaxing. But, i was up on peach street when she called. she said she was heading down to the pennisula...There thats it. i told her i got the list you interested we can get alot of them done at the pennisula. Yep she fell for it. So, we were gonna meet at the lighthouse. Well, half hr later i get a call, im not quite there yet. but. she's lost down there somewhere. So gave her directions and caught up with her about 15 minutes later. We had shots of something colorful and a group of strangers..cool got those at the same time on beach1. We needed someone in uniform, so we got separated cause there was a fire somewhere on the pennisula. So, she was gonna get one of the firemans pic but got caught in traffic

21st Century Single's Bar...well This Is More Of A Fantasy Site.
Not going to get fancy, I really don't come here very often. Haven't made a salute or whatever it is, so I can't talk to some people. I come on when sent an alert. Pantyshotz sent me a drink and I tried to return the favor. Don't know if it went or not. The alert said there was a comment also, but I have no idea what it was. I wonder if she will see this? Hopefully she will This is all fun and good, but it is a fantasy type thing. You will never meet the others you talk to, and I have no idea what I can tell them;since there is that section about being "defrocked" depending on what you say. If someone wants fantasy, all I have to do is dip into my past and describe it first person as if we were within licking distance. I have met women from dating sites, but at east half that I have met have had problems such as being alcoholics (4), Bipolar (3), thieves (2), multiple personality (1) but if you count all of the rest of her...at least 8. One of her personalities was a televangelist an

To Dance Or Not To Dance
So wally world pays me jack shit. Keeps cutting my hours and the like.... I'm honestly thinking of changing my availability to 12-7 and going back to the strip club in the evenings. They've changed shit around too. The girls have an hourly pay. No house fee. And you claim your tips (up to $50). I'm really thinking of going back for a few nights a week to help with this shortness of moo-lah. Any thoughts on the matter?I mean I've been looking for other day jobs but its really not working out the way I want it to and with this I'll still be getting the same amount of sleep.

Difference Between Men And Women
Difference Between Men and Women 1. A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he wants. A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't want. 2. A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband. A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife. 3. A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend. A successful woman is one who can find such a man. 4. To be happy with a man you must understand him a lot & love him a little. To be happy with a woman you must love her a lot & not try to understand her at all. 5. Married men live longer than single men - but married men are a lot more willing to die. 6. Any married man should forget his mistakes - there's no use in two people remembering the same thing. 7. Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed. Women somehow deteriorate during the night. 8. A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't. A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change & she does. 9. A woman has the last

My Prefect Man!!!!
AFTER ALOT OF THINKING AND PERSONAL EXPERIENCE IT SEEMS TO HAVE BECOME MY DESTINY....LMAO Looking for a man who lies, cheats and steals...a lot! I'd like to meet someone who is dishonest, lazy, mean, uneducated, unethical and rude. A previous arrest record is not necessary, but would be nice. You should know how to act like a king, preferably a drama king. And not be afraid to talk openly about your feelings, even in a crowded movie theater. You should also be a good communicator, understanding that yelling, screaming and swearing are effective in most conversations. I'd like someone who is open-minded enough to believe that unicorns and leprechauns are real, but also believes that things like hard work, deodorant and exercise are just myths. I like a man who enjoys spending time at the beach, or on long hikes in the woods, as a way to hide from police until "things settle down". You should enjoy a nice evening out shoplifting, or just staying home to cuddle with a nice porn video. A

My 1st Contest
i reaally need to win itll help out lots just follow link an rate its easy PLEASE PASS THIS AN ME ALONG!! http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=3922357&i=920676860&albumid=2086205" target=_blank>http://b.pcc2.fubar.com/75/32/3922357/tn_920676860.jpg" border=0> http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=3922357&i=920676860&albumid=2086205" target=_blank>http://b.pcc2.fubar.com/75/32/3922357/tn_920676860.jpg" border=0>

The Truth About Love....
I loved you for capturing my heart... I loved you for giving me the kind of love I never had.. I loved you for listening to me all those hard to get through times.. I loved you for being the beautiful picture in my life.. I loved you for keeping me warm all those nights... I loved you for making me laugh and my heart smile... I loved you for being the love I couldnt live without... I loved you for being the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.. I loved you for having the only heart I wanted to call my own... I loved you for being my everything... FUCK YOU... For capturing my heart...just so you can break it! For giving the kind of love I never had... just so you could take it ! For listening to me all those hard to get through times...just to then turn and walk away! For being the beautiful picture in my life...just to leave an empty frame on the shelf! For keeping me warm all those nights...just to later leave me out in the cold! For making me laugh and m

Her Point....
Anybody want to pitch in to help pay for an electric fence?A lady wrote the best letter in the Editorials in ages!!! It explains things better than all the baloney you hear on TV.Her point: Recently large demonstrations have taken place across the country protesting the fact that Arizona is addressing the issue of illegal immigration.Certain people are angry that the US might protect its own borders, might make it harder to sneak into this country and, once here, to stay indefinitely.Let me see if I correctly understand the thinking behind these protests. Let's say I break into your house.Let's say that when you discover me in your house, you insist that I leave.But I say, "No! I like it here". It's better than my house. I've made all the beds and washed the dishes and did the laundry and swept the floors. I've done all the things you don't like to do. I'm hard-workingand honest (except for when I broke into your house).According to the protesters:You are Required to let me stay in yo

Would You Like Me To Undress You
after a long days work you come home to find me in your room standing with nothing on.Would you like me to undress you?"YES"slowly taking off your t-shirt and kiss your chest, unbutton your jeans, and push them to the floor for you to step out of.run my hands back up your leg to take off your boxers. you step out of them and once again i run my hand up your leg, but i stand up and my hands follow to your chest.after running over your chest with my hand i kiss your neck then your ear, your cheek and then your mouth.I push you down on the bed and holding your hands i continue kissing my way down. every inch of your chest would not be missed.then i would let your hands go to put mine on your ever growing member to feel the pulse within.i then wet my lips and touch the tip.then i lick the tip and make you moan.slowly lower my lips down onto you and suck nice and slow.sucking a little harder and faster ever time i return to the tip.i then stand on the bed directly over you.i look down at yo

Standing In The Rain.
Wondering why I’m here again,If I will be here forever.I’ve lifted myself back up a million times. My life is a long story.I should know. I wrote it. So, here in the rain again.I’m wondering where, how, or when It’ll change. Poem By Tammy C.

My First Blog
So I never post blogs, I don't even know what a MUM is...but I feel like I want to get my emotions out.It seems like life has it's ups and down. When things just start to get okay again, everything fall apart. I've moved to many times to count on my toes and fingers. I've watched people around me slowly fade out of my life, I've lost some of the closest people to me.and still here I am, me, not changing. It's like I feel like my life's on pause. Everything around me is moving so fast and I barley moving at all. I yearn for friendship, but I always fuck that up sooner or later. I say and do stupid things I can't take back. I've never had a relationship that lasts longer then a few months. Cuze I fuck those up to! Right now I just wish I could go to sleep and wake up in another life, but we all know thats not possible ....I never thought I'd be the girl sitting on the fucking computer talking to random people i'll probably never meetI never though I'd be who I am todayIf I knew exactly w

Helplessness
You claim you want help for your current issues; yet you seem to think that it just comes to you. I'm here to tell you ...keep dreaming, it's not that simple. Suck it up, Man up, and grow a goddamn pair! The illness will forever own you if you keep up your life in such a manner. You don't just wake up one morning and *poof* you're magically cured! It takes time, effort, and yeah...there will still be disrepair. My words of wisdom and advice to you would be this: STOP FUCKING DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING IF YOU ARE HONESTLY AND IN FACT WANTING IT ALL TO JUST DISAPPEAR ...YOU ALSO HAVE TO BE SINCERE!

Bored?
So, here is my inner dialogue when I randomly rate pictures. *I wonder if he knows he has a chew stain on his tank top? *Really? Greasy hair, sweaty skin, and a tank top with the boobs coming out of the sides with a caption "Just me". You didn't have a better one to post? *Come on now! An over flowing ashtray, an empty 2 liter bottle of Mt. Dew and a stack of diapers????? I forgot you were even in the picture. *Hey lady! Your sink is FULL of dirty dishes and I'm fairly certain you have mice. *A soldier is automatically cute. Yep....even you. *A dildo is still on your nightstand! *eeeeeek* *Nice comb-over, handsome. *Your vag is almost hanging out!!!

Lone Rose
A field full of swaying long grass Memories of yesterday and far gone past Love gained love lost Though remaining locked in my heart A grave stands alone Bare and cold Nobody cares Nobody knows The bluest of skies Turning dark through thine eyes One lone rose remained standing Now it has died.

I Don't Care -by- Apocalyptica
I try to make it through my life,In my way,There's you,I try to make it through these lies,That's all, I doJust don't deny it,Just don't deny it,And deal with it,Yeah deal with it,You try to break me,You wanna break me,Bit by bit,Thats just part of itIf you were dead or still alive,I don't care - I don't care,And all the things you left behind,I don't care - I don't careI try to make you see my side,Always trying to stay in line,But your eyes see right through,That's all they do,I'm getting tired of this shit,I've got no room when it's like this,But your wanting me,Just deal with it!SO!If you were dead or still alive,I don't care - I don't care,And all the things you left behind,I don't care - I don't careNOTHING CAN CARE ABOUT! NOTHING CAN CARE ABOUT!YOU WON'T BE THERE FOR ME! YOU WON'T BE THERE FOR MEEEEEEEE!If you were dead or still alive,I don't care - I don't care,And all the things you left behind,I don't care - I don't careIf you were dead or still alive,I don't care (NOTHING CA

Making Salutes
I am going to be making Salutes for whoever wants them. It will be first come, first serve. Let me know if you want one and what is your favorite color. Leave a comment below with what you want on it. I will try to make them before I leave or while I am there.

Yeah...we Rawk
As I blogged earlier, we had major storms here yesterday. My friend did get his power back after being out for over 24 hours. This is good. They told him earlier in the day it wouldn't be until Tuesday morning that he'd have power. The highest recorded wind gusts were in Oak Lawn, where I technically live even though I claim Chicago still, at 75 mph. That's some strong ass wind. Oh yeah, a Category 1 hurricane starts off at 74 mph.

1st Place For Best Bully : Njexoticdiva ( 1 Boomerang )
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Last Sigh Of Evening
Oh send me out sailingOr to capture a thoughtRowboats are rowing,In a circular spotThe spirit’s not quelled, Or even distraught.After noons and good evenings of imagined farewells,such is nary a thing that was never for naught.Because life is a rondo, structured and sweet.Tormenting passion comes ‘round, takes a seat.Sun, moon and stars cause predictable scarson heavenly bodies, full and complete.A superior night is in sight,the moon remembers its place.The last sigh of evening fades off into spaceand I no longer know you in the dark on repeatwhile the stars wink and freckle and speak. Poem By Tammy C.

Locked Away
Who knows whatMight have happenedIf you loved yourself enough,No to need to keep provingYou still possessThis mysterious "it".Your ego brush-strokedAgain and again"You are handsome""You are passionate"You are the tormentedDarkness that is scaredOf being broken.So you keep yourself locked alone in fear. Poem By Tammy C.

Walking Along
It seems like only yesterday we walked both hand in hand married to you I gave my life and you a ring and band. A Soldier's wife I had now become I did everything you asked of me I followed you from state to state the little one suffered without me. I bought you everything you wanted yet you always wanted so much more you always left me in nothing but rags and now have closed the door. I met you on here, a long time ago but it was not that long to me See i loved you more than the stars in the skys but your love was not meant to be. You tattooed me on your leg even on your finger You cheated on me numberous times you thought the voices wouldnt linger. I dealt with everything I possibly could I never let you go now you say I'm worth nothing and such my child was just your show 7 years old so happy to move he was so ready to be by your side he loves you like an innocent would not knowing you pushed him aside. For you do not care that he cri

More Than
I am more than just an option. I am more than just a pretty little number.I will turn your life completely around and u will be glad u met me but I am not a toy that can be played with and thrown away because if u fuck me over I fuck u over twice as bad. Warning if u want to get to know me X)

The Dying Lover (poem By Me)
The Dying LoverHold me til my breath is gone,I will not see the light of dawn,In your eyes I see a tear, Reflecting memories so dear,I want to take the pain away, and with that for you I pray,That when my soul has left and gone, you will have courage to move on,...To live your life proud and strong, To fill your heart with tender song, And when you close your eyes to sleep, memories of me you'll keep,So never feel like your alone, In your heart I'll make my homeNow i fear i have to go, but there is one thing that you should knowI never told you but i knew, with all my heart i love y................

Stressed
I am so stressed out with my Dad being very ill and putting so much time in at the dojo, my body is just drained. I am not much for talking today. Last Monday I grappled with a big guy, 240 pounder, and he crushed me. Bruised my ribs and it appears to be taking a long time to heal. My sister is being all psycho and while at my dad's this weekend she pushed all my buttons trying to get me to fight with her. She was showing off in front of her friends. It took all my strength not to put her face into the concrete. If I had done that she would just call the cops and try to put me in jail. She is such a mess. My Dad is very ill, and does not need to have any stress around him so I had to bite my tongue and allow her to run her mouth. I am worried about my Dad, this is a man who fears nothing, strong as Zeus, and never lets you see him sweat. Now I can see the fear in his eyes and for the first time I am afraid for him. I live 3 hours away from him so it is not like I can see him anytime I

Shit I Wrote
See I don't know what you've been toldSomebody told meee...Never trust a man with a smiling face...Just might be the day of life they take...This here be a letter from the heart, is anybody listen anymoreI dunno what where how when why, no trust anymoreEveryone got the same look, hard to decifer what's realMy little homie jay just got tamed but he copped 5 with a dealDoes that really mean that he snitchin when he's smile tellin me that it's officialGuess I'm ganna find out in his discovery, if it's game that was spittinCan't even trust my own girl, I done fucked up too muchKeep havin dreams of her fuckin other dudes, man it's just my luckThis is what I deal with daily, ain't enough pills to lay meDown to sleep I don't even trust a cheap life when you feel this crazyThat alone will decay me, lettin all this realness fade mePlease lord God, if Heaven has a way let me see the real ones's facesWhat's that smile you wearingWhat's that smile you wearLook at him plan as he speak, looking like

My Poems
dusty old stone i fond a stone dusty and oldeye's don't see the beauty so deeponly heart and soul can see the diamend it keepsit sparkels only for me to see whate secrets it keepsmy secret beauty dusty and oldkeeper of diamends keeper of soulsthats what i fond in a dusty old stone crying ever felt like crying like your whole world is dyingever feel like running and hiding while your whole world is dyingnothing left dut ashes no ground left standingnoting to fight over but ashesscattered by the wind washed away by tearscrying over ashes crying over lost grounddrowning in tears running from fears noting left but ash covered tearsleft with a burning soul consuming fire surrounded by ash coverd tears broken down world whit noting left to burnflames dying light faiding darknes risingtears drying noting left than wind scatered ashes geting older geting older is noting to fear geting older is not geting old just wiser it happens to all of us evry year evry day age is just a number

Yeah....
think I’m afraidI think I’m afraid to let my guard downbecause if I do then you’ll be able to see all my faults and you’d think differentlyof me. I know you’d begin to hate me for all of them, and I couldn’t handle that///..

Is This Weird Or What #1
youve heard of sleep walking and talking and things like that that? i know i talk in my sleep sometimes... but heres something R E A L L Y strange i mean rr ee aa ll ll yy strange LOL. there have been about 4 or 5 times now that iv got to sleep with my undies on, not just laid down in bed but fully fallen asleep, and then woken with them completely off, wadded up and thrown off the bed... O_O i know right... o m g is that an awkward feeling, waking up not even half aware of the world yet, knowing you WERE clothed and feeling the "freedom" of nudity. throw you for a loop it does... anyone else experiance this??? what do you people think? lol.

Life As I Know It Now
as i sit here with tears falling out of my eyes.. i am approaching the 6 mth anv of my mom dead. Funny when she died the first thing i said was she wasnt suppose to leave me. I knew know that she did i would hae to deal with everything in my life. See she was sick for a long while and it helped cover everything around me cuz i was a care taker. It let me let go of friendship and laughter and deal with the guy i was dating. I let me shield myself from the world in a lot of ways. I lost my best friend! the one that i went to for everything. the one that didnt judge me no matter what i did. the one that would throw my 20 bucks cuz she wanted her grandkids to go to dinner that night and knew a single mother just cant make ends meet in this world. I didnt want to deal with life.. face what was happening.. basically think.. i was dating this guy from fl. well he lived here.. when we dated 20 yrs ago but funny after 20 yrs nothing had changed.. i didnt notice it till March.. too me three mon

Love Me. Hate Me.
you can love me or hate me. its not going to break me. who cares who judges you? live your life the way you want too. only you can change YOUR life. if u dnt like the way i do things, too damn bad...get ur own life then. im bisexual...have been since i was 15-16yrs old. im 20 now. im tired of keeping it secret. "ima hold my head high like i have a nosebleed" ima keep on doing me and u can keep on doing u....

Thursday Is A No-hurt Day
I liked this when Val said it in Main Street Books before she took away the toy wooden lawnmower with clicking crocodiles from Jeffrey! She said it in a way that didn’t hurt his feelings (I thought), and after spending a week and a half with the kids on vacation I’d have probably gotten into a shouting match or done something really mean to him. That’s right, in case you missed me; since a week ago Friday, Martha, Sarah, Jeffrey, and I have been on the road traveling to meet my mom in Cumberland, Kentucky and back again. She’s been in the nursing home there, Britthaven, since January and my other siblings – the ones I get to see one week a year while I see Martha’s the remaining fifty-one, forgive my rambling – implied I ought to get there sooner than we’d originally planned. So we did; we left on the eleventh of June and got back into Minot at one-thirty in the morning two days ago. (Leaving early also let us get a vacation FROM our

Dear Santa By Proud American
Dear Santa, Don't worry about me, You don't have to come here, you see we won't be having a Christmas this year. If you're wondering why we're doing this, Let me tell you when it begun it was Sept. 11 , 2001. Something terrible happened that day, and we still don't know why , but when it was all over there wasn't one person in America who did not cry. When you're delivering presents around the world and you see my Mom/Dad in Iraq, let them know we'll be skipping Christmas this year, were saving it for when they come back. So take my presents Santa, and give them to the soldiers who can't be here, tell them " Thank you " from me and " Merry Christmas and Happy New Year"

Good News/bad News
bad news is had the cable cut off yesterday because the cable guy is a fucking idiot and cut ours off by mistake intead of the one he was supposed to cut off and then they said they wouldnt come out til today to get it back on so now im up and running again good news is a stalker i had finally got herself a bf and said that if i didnt wanna talk that she would erase me off her stuff so i didnt answer and clapped wildly

Here This Is The Hell I See When I'm Mad... A Dark Demon That Lives In Us All.
Cold seeping feelings burning into the core and rending it limb from limb, blood pouring down to the floor as their broken body’s fall to the floor in a bloodied heap, the chilled laughter echoing off the walls as he chooses another victim to play with, his games dark and evil, his idea of love filled with blood and pain beyond human understanding. Licking his lips he picks a young girl and pulls her up, her black hair pretty and the fear in her eyes making his lips water. She is beautiful if he had need for human urges she would be perfect for his needs but not any more now all he wants to do is make her scream in pain, his pain is still too great he needs to kill more make MORE PAIN to feed the darkness that eats at his heart. Hours pass he opens her up feels every inch of her and shows her it all before she passes into the cold void that he so wishes he could find yet no matter how many he takes, no matter how many he rends open... none of them hold the secret he seeks to end th

Fishing Trip *joke*
A young guy from North Dakota moves to Florida and goes to a big "everything under one roof" department store looking for a job. The Manager says, "Do you have any sales experience?" The kid says,"Yeah. I was a salesman back in North Dakota." Well, the boss liked the kid and gave him the job. "You start tomorrow. I'll come down after we close and See how you did." His first day on the job was rough but he got through it. After the store was locked up the boss came down. "How many customers bought something from you today? The kid says, "One". The boss says, "Just one? Our sales people average 20 to 30 customers a day. How much was the sale for?" The kid says, "$101,237.65". The boss says, "$101,237.65?" What the heck did you sell?" The kid says, "First I sold him a small fish hook. Then I sold him a medium fish hook. Then I sold him a larger fish hook. Then I sold him a new fishing rod. Then I asked him where he was going fishing and he said down the coast, so I told him

Not For Prostitution!
I was recently incarcerated in the Las Colinas Detention Facility for failure to appear. Apperently I was supposed to show up for court ordered classes whether or not I was able to pay the 200 bucks they wanted. What bothers me is the way the officer came knocking at my door stating matter-of-factly how I was wanted for prostitution! ha me a prostitute yeah right. I told him i dont get enough sex as it is being a 4yr olds mommy lol let alone get paid for it shit at this point if I ha money to spend trust me it would be th other way around and I would be paying for sex of course he would have to give me a free sample or demonstration (let me watch him with another woman) so that I know I am not getting ripped off). Anyways I got taken in and it turns out that my charge drunk in public is categorized under the same penal code as prostitution just a different section......go figure....officer was doing his job but not reading the info right! he was cute too =/

This Is A Very Special One.....flirty Even..
Sooo..with the completion of Twaune's auction, there was a lucky high bidder :) And with that being said, I'd like to introduce you to my new owner, Flirtologist. Pleaseee show her some good ol fu lovins'!! ... and tell her I sent ya ... we go wayyy back..so here's the one and only... Flirtologist Owner of Johnnydevil@ fubar I know I've been slacking, but trust me, more excitement to follow in the coming weeks...stay tuned.....peace...

Birthday Gift
I walked down the passage, as per my instructions, to the first door on my left, it was slightly ajar, just enough to see her bed. On it, lying on her back was a woman of great beauty. A red silk scarf, covering her eyes, tied in a knot behind her head, her arms outstretched, as if to say “I am yours, do with me as you please.” I walked to the side of her bed and gazed at the beauty of this woman, the wanton desires of passion, raced to my head, thinking of the many ways I could please her. I removed my clothes, and with trembling fingers, I bent over to touch this woman, her aroma wafting through the room. She quivered as I placed my unseen finger over her soft lips, tracing, and absorbing the feel of soft skin with my finger. Her lips parted, the tip of her moist tongue touched my finger. My fingers traced to her chin, and back to her lips. A low moan escaped from her. Her lips parted as if to speak, I placed a finger of silence to her mouth.My free hand went to the

Wild Side
Listen to most don't care what most said but this I do know once wild you can never tame unless they wish to be. In other words you can always cage a wild animal but there is one thing you can never cage from that animal and that is the heart. So don't think that just cause I talk to you doesn't mean that I see myself kneeling before your feet or serving what you can do for yourself. I'm that wild animal and you will never cage my heart unless I wish for you to do so and well you might as well eat your own heart cause you will never own this one.

*write For Me*?
i think im going to write for myself haha...but i was asked or propositioned to add my "opinion" and "style" via blog sites. yeah it was a few days ago but this will be a few days ago later on...although now i think of it more...ive been yappin and rambling on for years on blogs...that came with the site haha. not a strictly "blog site"...thats why i think about it as a possibility...it only has one thing in mind WRITBLOGS! hahaha mother of gods and satan's kids! with all the seriousness that has become the new anti-social journal over the years is fcuking insanely hilarious to me, being ASKED to write for someone else's "personal blogsite" hahaha quotations quotations.... being told by each blog promoters....that i took down part of the city by blogging about what was happening currently at the time...using my own opinion with factual information attached for that opinion to be there! and now! im asked to write for 2 people i broke in half when they fcuked me over and others...w

-after The Show-
despite the cliché our eyes meet in a crowded room except i’m up on stage performing my poetry & he’s down in the audience watching i’m saying the words popping the syllables like so many pills overdosing on far reaching symbolism on stage … controlling the crowd with slow motion sound waves turning big budget action movie in your ear but i realize he’s ex-significant & i’m reading my all out vent poetry

French Toast & Poverty
For the past few months my church has held a monthly “Advocacy Breakfast” with a presentation from an expert on a different Millennium Development Goal (MDG). There are eight United Nations MDGs, established in 2000 and, broadly, these goals are far from being achieved, with only 5 years remaining before the deadline. These breakfasts typically attract about 25. Last Saturday morning was the biggest such event in the series, with a presentation from Dr Jean Chamberlain Froese, founder and Executive Director of ‘Save the Mothers’, about the 5th MDG – Maternal Health. There were over 120 people for breakfast, largely because the Hamilton Spectator ran a large feature article about the work of Dr Chamberlain Froese the weekend before. It was fortunate that she was able to squeeze our little church breakfast into her busy schedule, just one week before presenting to the G8 summit and meeting the Prime Minister. I first found out about her and her work ov

Beyond The Produce
You and I stroll into the grocery store one evening to pick up a few things for breakfast the next morning. As we are walking down the aisles, I tell you that there is something I need to pick up and will catch up with you in a few minutes. You say ok as I playfully smack you on the ass and walk away in the opposite direction at the end of the aisle. I am gone for about 10 minutes when you notice that I have walked back up behind you at the end of the adjacent aisle. As I walk up to you, I again playfully grab your ass as the moistness between them reminds you of just how much you enjoy it when I do that to you in public. As you reach up to grab something off the upper shelf you feel my hand as it caresses your inner thigh and pushes your skirt up a little and squeezes the bottom of your ass cheek. You playfully swat at my hand but really don’t want me to stop. Suddenly you feel my hand at your lower back pressing against you as you place a hand on the shelf to steady yourself. A

Night At The Club
It's late and we've had a wonderful time at the club. The drinks have lowered our inhibitions and we are being very affectionate just before closing. We've spent the night mingling with your old friends and making some new ones. You've noticed me chatting it up with a couple of really cute guys you haven't see before, and are happy that I am getting along. When we leave we invite a couple of your friends and one of the cute guys to come back to your place for a nightcap. We spend the ride in the backseat fondling and kissing each other, and make no effort to hide the fact that things are going to get very hot when we get home. The cute guy is watching all this with a sly smile, and nods in approval sitting next to us. We arrive, and soon the group of us is laughing and sharing a few last drinks together in your parlor. A little while later everyone is gone except for the cute stranger and us. I notice you've been checking him out when you've had the chance and ask you if you like wha

Another Tard Bites The Dust
10:21pm reply Fly Boy: you ever had a guy fuck you too deep? To Fly Boy: *perks an eyebrow* is that seriously an opening line you want to try and use? 10:31pm reply Fly Boy: yep 10:32pm more To Fly Boy: does it ever work? 10:32pm reply Fly Boy: hahah actulay it has,i didnt think it would 10:32pm more To Fly Boy: then maybe you should try sending it to one of those dumbasses 10:33pm reply Fly Boy: i just wanna know tho has ithappend to you 10:34pm reply To Fly Boy: Heres an idea,then go to my page look at the name of the person who im owned by(jetaime) send him a message and ask him 10:35pm more Fly Boy: heres an idea you stop being a bitch! And at this point....I was blocked from rsponding lol

Ramblings Of An Insane Mind
No one told you to hit that switch. You were warned so many times what it would do. You took me out in the world and made me see, then burned it down in front of me. Now it's done, what is left no one knows. Some days I wish I could turn back time and take back the things I've done. But I know they are all just learning experiences that I have either tried to fade out or leap over. I do know one thing I am me. Take it or leave it's not that I can't change it's that I won't change I am happy of who I am. I know there is a hole it's deep and it will take a lot to fill that hole. I don't know who is strong enough to do it who has enough patience to stick it out. I do know that person will be truly blessed if they do. Until then my friends be careful of those switches, If you truly love whom your with show it in all you do to have love is to live and not many truly get that experience. Forever Lost, Kael Dusk

Old Friend
me and my wife just found out that one of our old friends in school is missing and presumed dead she was a great person so if you are religous or whatever u do please pray for her and her family. here is a link on the curent staus of the search http://www.ksl.com/?nid=148&sid=11347544

Open Relationships: Good Or Bad?
well then..I've been talking with a few different friends lately about relationships & the varying things that people want or get out of them, & the subject of 'open relationships' keeps coming up..I googled the topic, as well as facebook searched it and found some rather harsh opinions about them..curious now as to how the rest of my friends view them and the people who partake in them?

Near You Always
by Jewel Please don't say I love you,those words touch me much too deeplyand they make my core trembleDon't think you realize the effect you have over mePlease don't look at me like thatIt just makes me want to make you near me alwaysPlease don't kiss me so sweetit makes me crave a thousand kisses to followAnd please don't touch me like thatmakes every other embrace seem pale and shallowAnd please don't come so closeit just makes me want to make you near me alwaysPlease don't bring me flowersthey only whisper the sweet things you'd sayDon't try to understand meyour hands already know too much anywayIt just makes me want to make you near me alwaysAnd when you look in my eyesplease know my heart is in your handsIt's nothing that I understand, but when in your armsyou have complete power over meSo be gentle if you please, 'causeYour hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teethAnd it makes me want to make you near me alwaysYour hands are in my hair, but my heart is in your teethAnd

New & Improved Blogs
Earlier today we released the new and improved blogs. It includes a new look and feel; (hopefully) enhanced navigation; a directory of your family's blogs, and recently updated blogs; and the ability to follow other user's blogs. If you follow a blog you'll get an alert when there is a new blog entry posted regardless of if you're friends with that user, and the list of blogs that you follow will be posted on your profile and on your blogs. You'll be able to see who follows your blog, and you'll receive an alert when a new person starts to follow your blog. Hopefully you'll like it. And if you like it really, really much we can keep adding enhancements to blogs, like rss feeds and trackbacks and other cool features.Send me a PM if you find something broken. Thanks for all your support. You're the ones who make the world go 'round!

True Lies: By Me
IM UNIQUE YOUR RARE IN THIS GAME LIFE ISNT FAIR SLEEP WITH U AND LEAVE I WOULDNT DARE MY HEARTS RED AND YOURS IS BLUE I MADE YOU MY EVERYTHING AND NOW WERE THROUGH TO INFINITY AND BEYOND BUT NOW IM OVER YOU EVERY WORD I SAID WAS REAL YOURS WERENT TRUE MISSING U EVERYDAY AINT NOTHING NEW YOUR STILL THE SAME BUT MY MENTALITY GREW YOU SAY YOU DONT CARE BUT REGRET IS GLUE THE SHIT I FELT FOR YOU BUT THAT LOVE FLEW THE WAY I FEEL YOU DONT HAVE A CLUE PAYBACKS A BITCH BUT THAT AINT MY CUE 4EVER HEARTBROKEN TILL JUDGEMENT IS DUE

Nsfw Folder
Ok, so I'm thinking of making a NSFW folder, only opened for certain people for blings and such.... but I'm just not sure... I actually got the hubbys approval, so now its more down to what I decide.... As you all know, I have never done NSFW pics before... so this is a huge decision for me.... could really use some of my friends thoughts on it.... leave me some comments on your take... pros and cons... Thanks my Luvs!!

Stupid Encounter #42 (read Regular)
bushy12: hey htere ho 10:16pm more To bushy12: Haha ho... typical Australian to call a girl a ho 10:16pm reply bushy12: yeah babe whats up anyway 10:19pm more To bushy12: nada up with me whats up with you other then your respect 10:20pm reply bushy12: who the fuck are u 10:20pm reply bushy12: who the fuck do u think u are waltzing on to my sb and having a go 10:20pm reply bushy12: um ight be hot but u can go get fucked slut 10:20pm more To bushy12: I was in the lounge you just got banned from surreal fantasies 10:21pm reply cac5 17: welcome 10:21pm reply bushy12: yeh well butt out bitch

Forever - Papa Roach
In the brightest hour of my darkest dayI realized what is wrong with meCan't get over you. can't get through to youIt's been a helter-skelter romance from the startTake these memories that are Haunting meOf a paper man cut into shreds by his own pair of scissorsHe'll never forgive her...he'll never forgive her...Because days come and go but my feelings for you are foreverBecause days come and go but my feelings for you are foreverSitting by a fire on a lonely nightHanging over from another good timeWith another girl... little dirty girlYou should listen to this story of a lifeYou're my heroine-in this moment I'm lonely fulfilling my darkest dreamsAll these drugs all these womenI'm never forgiven... this broken heart of mineBecause days come and go but my feelings for you are forever,Because days come and go but my feelings for you are foreverOne last kiss,before I goDry your tears,it is time to let you goOne last kiss (one last kiss)Before I go (before I go)Dry your tears

Why Still?
The pictures are clear, it amazes me after 11 years how fast I was replaced. How happy she looks, how happy the kids are, all the things I did are what he's doing now. My flowers wither and die, his get pictures and praised by her friends. The same places I took her, the same things I did for the kids, forgotten about. My former friends stand in my driveway with her new man, bullshitting like I was never there. Sitting on my couches, making my children smile. And all her fiends praise her, praise him, and forget what I did, and how hard I tried, just to be used and thrown away. Now Im the pariah, the stain, the nothing. And she floats untouchable by anything. Her resilience amazing. Never judged. Never once held accountable. All these things that make me crazy, sad, angry, all these reasons to easily hate her, and I cant. Resent, yes, hate, no. Why do I still love her?

Do You Chance ?
Do you chance the agony of rejection or scornin hopes of the ecstasy from acceptance born?Will you risk the heartbreak of love gone bad,to find a love so true, like few have ever had?You are caught within their mesmerizing glance,do you bet it all on love and take the chance?Will the fear of making such a huge mistakepersuade you to keep loneliness and it's ache?There is less pain in being alone it is true,but is that the thing that really want to do?The ache of loneliness is constantly there,the sadness that leads the heart to despair;at least in trying to love there is the chanceyou will have a forever of love and romance.In the end the choice is up to none but you,the time is here, so what do you decide to do?

Friendship
Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend. Albert Camus It is sad to how many people expect you to be a certain way, to follow or to lead but to be flexable is not option to many. To those who are leaders or follows want just that, someone to follow or to lead but not everyone is so black and white. There is no real stratagy behind why I may follow one day and lead the next, maybe I'm following in a situation in which I feel I can learn more by following and sometimes I am much better to be the leader in situations. But most of all I get bored easily and sometimes following is funner than leading and true friendship will hold up to this madness. True friendship is rare to find these days, so many people into life for themselves an d what they can get from others. To many people assume too much without asking whats up? leading to misinformation. Assumming is the worst thing ever and more and more pe

Hate Is All You Need
People are such a great inspiration, for hate. Soo.....you're a whore whore ho ho whore.And your picctures are fugly. You wouldnt even go for much ona street corner.So stop trying to get some on here. youre not BBW.More like BUW.big ugly woman.On a side note. I hate when people call other people fat. like its a news flash to them"whaT? im fat? i thought i was wearing a size 4 all these years!! thanks for the update!" If you're tooo active on Fu, im gonna delete you. Leaving people lame "i showed you love today arent i amazing?" statuses right and left? GONE. Uploading thousands of pictures of you on your crappy cell phone using the same pose? Double GONE.the people on the right all have crappy blogs. like i really want to bother my busy day with listening to them on howFU should have fucking twilight bling. I boycott that idea right now. SHut that fucking idea down.Burn it.I see a JohhnyDevil blog. Now those are better then the rest on the right side list.I feel like bitch slapping so

Updated Editor
I know a lot of people don't like the editor. Actually, it would really help if you let me know what it is you don't like! At any rate, yesterday, I updated the editor code, fixed the spellchecker and rearranged the controls a bit, just to try to make it more pleasant for you - that's right! you! - to use. Do you still hate it, don't hesitate to tell me why. Thanks, and good night.

"fyi, It'll All Work Out In The End."
Third Eye, Jambi, Stinkfist, Vicarious, Intolerance, Schism, Forty-Six & 2, Lateralus, and Aenima as the finale. Everyone who called in to the local radio stations afterwards said that it was the best concert theyve ever been to, and with all the NIN and Pantera t-shirts I saw out there, thats some pretty high praise. The high point for me, though, was during Lateralus, they brought out the two guys in the opening group, Dalek, to do a little jamming. They had a bottle of something, most likely rum, and they were drinking it. Maynard told the guy he could take it with him as he was walking off-stage, but he must not have heard him. So Maynard, without missing a beat, hopped down, grabbed the bottle, and took a huge swig from it before finishing the song. Epic. Love you, Tool. Now go write your next album!

Why Are People So Scared Of Homosexuality?
Okay, religions such as Christianity for example are supposed to be "All Loving" and accepting, yet if you are homosexual suddenly you are also shunned by the majority of Christians or other faiths. (I feel other topics are also shunned but that is for another post.) How can you think you are so 'special' in the eyes of your Master Being that you are better than someone who chooses a different lifestyle than you? I myself am not homosexual, but I do have many WONDERFUL homosexual or bi-sexual friends (and some family members) who should not be treated any differently than I am for loving someone of the opposite sex. All they want is the same thing as I and you do... FREEDOM. Freedom to choose who they love, how they love, how they live and such and also to be accepted by society. It's not like if you are homosexual or bi-sexual you turn into some mutant that sucks peoples brains out for crying out loud! And what are they doing to harm you in any way? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! They a

Winning The Summer Salute Contest
I won the Summer Salute Contest...n all the sleepless nights sb'n everyone i could, n through all this' the best part of it was i made a bunch of awesome friends, n the 1's that badmouth'd me, u could of had a good friend, Ty Dalejr999 and most of all to My Stalk'r PHO3NIXKEEPER, whom I met through my sb asking him to rate my pic ...and thank god i did cause i never would of made it without him....I Fu-king wuv U and the wifey for letting u be me when i was not me...Shhhhhhh our secret.......Oh and HAPPY ANNIVERSARY 2 you both ...U R always welcomed into my Laptop...lol Hugz u both from Naughtyiiz4u...ALL MY OLD N NEW FRIENDS U R ALL 11's w/ BOOMERANG LUV .....wow now that would really put in level 28 with points lmao ............HAPPY N SAFE 4TH OF JULY................U ALL RAWK.........Now can i get some SLEEP.........Been Days since i had a good night sleep and my ass is flatter from fubarian 10 days straight since i got off my ass stalking all the sb's i could.........NIGHTY N

An Invite To Lindsay Lohan From Me
Lindsay Lohan the talented actress who had the world by the tail is now wandering through a morass of legal and image problems. Lindsay, who was living the dream most others just think about, is spinning out of control. Lindsay babes, what is up with you? This has been going on for a few years now. I want to offer my services to you babes. I know I can help you while I’m helping myself to you. Then you can go back to making movies and kissing girls. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/07/02/lindsay-lohan-success-mess-birthday/ BlastFM is known for its originality. Not just a radio station. BlastFM is a musical experience second to none. Click it babes www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

So, About Sex … (nsfw … Not Safe For Anyone, Really. Heh.)
(WARNING: This post will be filled with lots of cursing, a lot of very vulgar sexual terms, and graphic talk about sex. If subjects of this nature offend you, or make you uncomfortable, please, for yourself and others, don’t read it. Don’t reblog it if you have Followers that would be exceptionally offended by it. However, if you or any of your Followers DO enjoy this sort of subject, please, by all means, keep reading and reblog.) — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — — Why do most of us seem to be so … embarrassed about it? We don’t talk freely

The Duet
The DuetA soft touch lightlyCaressing my neck like a whisperEach thought a scentEach scent a vivid memoryMemory of us as twoTogether in perfect unity as oneEmbrace both passive yet violentHow can both taste so right?Taste your sweat falling on my browMy tongue searches for the saltThe salt of two bodies in violent stormTo awaken the sense of abandonmentThe sense of urgency presses forwardMy body on yours You run the ice across my nipplesI push your lips awayYet I feel the inclusiveness of your soulThe beauty and breadth of that soulA mind numbing assault on the darkest recesses of my inner turmoil’sU feel my wetness rolling down your legAs I yearn to keep every drop of you in my beingMy red lipstick smears gashes across your chestAnd leaves trails of my forever worship across your bodyYou are forever painted with my love, scarred yet satisfied...

Equality
What is the problem with some people thinking that they are so much better than anyone else on this planet? I mean really, We are all born of flesh and bone and connected to everyone else on this earth because we are all human. All one species created by GOD himself. No one person is better than any other.Some people raise their children to act superior to others to make themselves feel better. Like making other people that have less than you are not worth anything because they are poor or just different. Even these same kids make fun of rich people because they have money and flaunt it. This is a bad and vicious cycle that needs to stop. We are all one. Equal in every way. Yes the same even though we may be different colored skin, hair, eye color, body size, the clothes we choose to wear or don't and yes even if the amount in our pocket book is different in amount. Even if in that pocketbook the money is a euro, a peso, a yen or even a dollar bill. It is all spendable. It buys things

Taking Things In Stride
My honest feelings as of now vary. On one front I feel completely overwhelmed, captivated, encapsulated by life itself. But life has created a sense of vertigo, I am unsure which side is up, which side is down, because one moment I am on the top of the mountain, then the next I am one with the jagged rocks below. Torn to pieces, ripped apart by the waves that crash up against me. For I am not meant to go this journey alone, but alas this my deepest fear. I want more, for my greatest ambition is to give into someone else's life, to be a part of them, to feel a warm embrace to graze a gentle face... instead i feel the cold, icy frost that grazes my face with tears streaming down my face. But the wounds are far behind me, no tattoo to cover, no ink to erase the memory of what has happened. I feel the pain tear at me with every lonely moment. Every passing second feeling THE ONE is out there and i am missing out. just wasting my time with being alone.

Read This Or I Shall Taunt You A Second Time..........
if your reading this, you have entirely to much time on your hands, do me a favor and go rate my #2 cause hes pretty :) St Jaymzs Razorblade Kiss @ fubar or else and stuff...................

I Love You Sayings
Life wouldn’t be the same without you and all the memories you have given me. ~ For You Rob I want you like the roses want the rain. I need you like the poem needs the pain. I would give you anything, my blood, my life, to have you! I love you! ~ I Love You Forever The moment I first saw you, you warmed my heart, the second time you made little flames and now you make my heart burn like hell! ~ I'm On Fire There are Tulips in my garden. There are Tulips in the park. But nothing is more be beautiful then our two lips meeting in the dark! ~ I Can Only Wish People say you only fall in love once, but when I hear your voice I fall in love all over again. ~ Everything On Here Is For You Rob The fluffy cloud may kiss the sky, the rose may kiss the butterfly, the morning due may kiss the grass, but you my friend may kiss my lips! ~ Anyday At night I cannot sleep and during the day I dream of you! ~ I Always Dream Of You I saw angels in the sky. I saw snow fall in July. I sa

Rip Gerald Andrew Scribner "drew" 9/7/84-7/5/10
Hoover official calls balcony collapse 'terrible tragedy' Published: Monday, July 05, 2010, 3:01 PM Updated: Monday, July 05, 2010, 6:06 PM Roy L. Williams -- The Birmingham News Follow Share this story Story tools Hoover fire officials continue today to investigate the collapse of a balcony at an apartment complex that killed one person and injured six others. Rusty Lowe, Hoover Fire EMS and public information officer, said this afternoon that authorities could wrap up their investigation into the mishap at the Waterford Landing Apartments sometime tomorrow. He called the collapse, which happened shortly before midnight Sunday, a "terrible tragedy." Lowe said an insurance company representing the owner of Waterford Landing Apartments, located in the 3200 block of Chace Lake Fairway near Alabama 150, has begun its own investigation of the deck collapse. Lowe said incident occurred when a third-floor deck at the complex fell onto the two decks b

Woman Of My Dreams Poem.
In this dream I dream this day I dream of lillys jasmin and sunflower.in this dream I dream of passion and rolling in the grasses of the meadow.In this dream I long for a touch hot as the sun upon my face.in this dream I am lost in eyes of a shadow I do not know.the sparkle I cant loook away hypnotized by there gleam.the face in the shadows I can't recogmize.hands reach out and a warm touch over comes me .Im hot and week I cant breath.I can't see who is this shadow who has my very soul.one day I'll find her.one day I'll know her.but for now shes just the woman of my dreams.

Hold On For 8 To Hit On Me
Funny story: I was taking classes late at the college about 2 yrs ago...one night clearly in boots and jeans and some kind of western t'shirt..etc ... this pimped out, baggy and saggy drawers, black guy came up to me trying to hit on me...I was laughing inside so bad(I kept a straight face)... First chance I got I asked him "Can you handle 2,000 pounds of pure muscle between ur legs and stay on for 8 secs plus?"....He just looked at me with a surprised dumb look :-( and before he could get a word out of his mouth I said "Its ok, I didn't think so. Honey I'm looking for a real man"..... Got in my Jeep at the time and drove off laughing my ass off..... still am, ........when I think about it.

Update On My Friend...
My dear friend Kim Evans who fell over a waterfall in Sandy Utah on the 26th's body was found today http://www.ksl.com/?nid=148&sid=11450839 I'm glad to see that she was found, It hurts still, but some sense of closure. THank you all for the thoughts and prayers on the matter.

Rhapsody - Silent Dream
The silent storm in my heartbeat Is raging at the questions of soul No way back, rising darkness Blind angel in a night without stars Lost in the silent dream Of a lonely broken love The fall of hopem of illusion Is hidden there behind the wild rocks To reach the sun, warm my feelings I'll rise where only eagles can fly Lost in the silent dream Of a lonely broken love FLY, FLY HIGH ENLIGHT MY HEART AND MY EYES BRING HOPE WITH YOUR HOLY SUNLIGHT THE ANGELS' FIRE The silent storm in my heartbeat Is raging at the questions of soul No way back, rising darkness Blind angel in a night without stars Lost in a silent dream Of a lonely broken love FLY, FLY HIGH ENLIGHT MY HEART AND MY EYES BRING HOPE WITH YOUR HOLY SUNLIGHT THE ANGELS' FIRE I'LL BELIEVE IN WHAT THE WIND BRINGS TO ME IN PURE LOVE AND IN GREAT EMOTION I WILL BELIEVE

Why Is The So Many Cowboys On Fubar
This for all you cowboys and poser like them. Just because you got COWBOY in your name doesnt make you one. Why cant you be yourself? Is it becasue you cant let the real person out. All you posers think i am cowboy let me ride you. well the village had a more real cowboy than you. Get a life and try to be yourself. for the real cowboys and cowgirls more power to you. you all got my respect, but for the posers take a flying leap off my fu$* stick and get a life. I am tired of seeing perverted faggots like you. so if you think your a real cowboy or girl ask the real ones first.

~~hosting My 1st Auction~~
Im gonna be hosting my 1st auction that will start July 11th and end on July 18th...If u wanna be in it, plz send me a PM titled "Auction" with the pic U would like to use/ ur offers and I will take it from there..There is NO entry fee to join either..I will not tolerate any drama, if it happens, I will take u out and block you from my page..NO EXCEPTIONS!!! I will be updating this as the week goes on...any ??'s plz leave them in the blog comments..ty everyone xoxoxo

Mr Dave
ERROR: sorry, the users permissions don't allow you to message them. === 'dave' wrote the following at '2010-07-06 14:55:12'.. Don't talk to me ugly girl .. your fam is right , you're ugly i do but i don't give it out to strangers, sorry :P=== 'dave' wrote the following at '2010-07-06 14:51:41'.. Im sure you're very hot in real life ... Do you have yahoo babe ? well i personally would say no...then again i barely find me "yummy" in my pics either...so I dunno, probably not...ask around i'm sure tehy can tell you i'm pretty ugly in real life...like on cam or something...like ask my fam they are honest about it i'm sure....=== 'dave' wrote the following at '2010-07-06 13:43:34'.. are you as yummy as the pics in real life ? yeah its just pics you are right, but thanks, I'm a good pic taker it seems :)=== 'dave' wrote the following at '2010-07-06 13:41:38'.. very yummy from the pics

I'm Sorry, I'm Just Not Good Enough... Now Don't Argue With Me...
First things first: 1. I am not writing this in vengeance 2. I do not want you to try to convince me I'm wrong, EVERY person that has tried to BOOST my ego from here has destroyed it again - hence this blog. 3. I really just need to vent this out, and bless you if you read it because you'll end up knowing me deeper than anyone has ever tried. Please don't leave "comments" on this, i'll just end up deleting them. Ok, show of hands. Who among us has been picked on (a LOT) when in school? Who has trusted people that you found out too little too late didn't deserve that trust? Who has believed someone when they were told "I love you" by someone who "doesn't just say things like that,"and has "really been hurt" by love in the past? If you answered "no" to any of these, please don't pass judgment until you have walked a mile in our shoes. And furthermore, if you have CAUSED pain to another by doing any of these things, hopefully this will inspire you to do the right and honorable

My Poetry
MY ONE A wild heart beats in my breast, Longing to be tamed. Waiting for One strong enough. Waiting to be claimed. A lonely wind blows through my soul. I feel so incomplete. The empty place within my heart, Echoes with it's plea. It yearns for One who's strong and bold, Yet loving as can be. One who'll take me to my heights, And then set me free. Free to feel his loving arms, Catch me when i fall. Free to answer with a smile, To his gentle call. One who'll whisper his command, Sweetly in my ear. One who's words caress my soul, "Would you kneel for me, Dear?" One who's hand is strong and firm, Yet willing to caress. What other answer could I give, But a softly whispered, "YES" W/B Ylva

Summer Fruits For Fabulous Skin!
Summer fruits for Fabulous! 1.Erase wrinkles with PAPAYA! This exotic summer fruit contains an enzyme called papain, which softens and revitalizes the skin when absorbed, says Sophie Benge, author of The Tropical Spa. "And because the fruit is also a gentle exfoliant that removes layers of dead skin cells, wrinkles become much less noticeable with every application!" Make your own...Papaya Skin Smoothing Mask! What you'll need: 1. ripe papaya (the acid is too strong in the unripe fruit) ------------------------------------------------------------------ 1. Peel and remove the seeds from the papaya. 2. Chop the fruit into small pieces, place in a blender and puree until smooth. 3. Apply to a clean face and neck. 4. Relax for 15 minutes, then rinse off with warm water. Keeps for: Two days if stored in the fridge. Fast fix: Alba Hawaiian Papaya Enzyme Facial Mask, $12.99. 2. Clear blemishes with STRAWBERRIES! "Strawberries are naturally loaded with salicylic acid, the k

I'm Not One To Take Pleasure In Others Misfortunes, But....
HA HA LINDSAY LOHAN! I'm so sick and tired of celebrities thinking they are above the law. Lindsay Lohan was just sentenced to 90 days in jail for violating her probation in her DUI case, followed by a 90-day inpatient rehab program Judge Marsha Revel sentenced LiLo after an incredulous prosecutor, Danette Meyers, told the judge that Lohan has been thumbing her nose at the court.The evidence was loud and clear today -- Lindsay violated probation by failing to attend her alcohol ed classes based on the schedule set by the judge. There were lots of excuses, but ultimately they didn't fly.The judge said there was a pattern of violations since Lindsay was placed on probation in 2007 following her plea bargain in her DUI case.Lindsay broke down as she addressed the court, telling the judge, "I did the best I could."Lindsay dissolved into tears when the judge imposed the sentence.Lohan must surrender on July 20 in Judge Revel's court.UPDATE: Sheriff's spokesperson Steve Whitmore just e

Who? How? This Is Who And How
HI! I HOPE YOU'RE HAVING A GOOD DAY! HOW ABOUT A LITTLE PAY IT FORWARD? HERE ARE A FEW PEOPLE THAT I COULD THINK OF AT THE TIME THAT COULD USE JUST A LITTLE HELP IN THEIR LEVELING. PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ALSO POST YOURSELF IF YOU NEED HELP AND ARE VERY CLOSE IN SOME WAY!! PLEASE BE REALISTIC! THANKS! LETS GIVE OUT A HELPING HAND! BY THE WAY, I NEVER SELL MY ABILITY POINTS, I GIVE THEM TO ANYONE WHO NEEDS THEM, EVEN IF I DONT KNOW THE PERSON.. SO IF YOU EVER COME ACROSS ANYONE WHO NEEDS THEM, FEEL FREE TO GIVE ME A HOLLER! AND A BIG THANK YOU TO THOSE OF YOU WHO PIMP ME FOR SIMPLY BEING MY FRIEND AS WELL AS BOMB ME OR HELP IN OTHER WAYS! I HOPE YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE ALL YOU DO!! THESE 3 ONLY NEED FANS TO LEVEL SO PLEASE FAN THEM OR REFAN THEM IF YOU ALREADY HAVE THEM FANNED ie UNFAN THEN FAN THEM AGAIN (I GUESS THIS IS WORKING??) justsmurfit@ fubar Star@ fubar DJ BORN N RAISED Club DPR@ fubar THIS ONE ONLY NEEDS 1 PIMPOUT TO LEVEL UP DJ SinFulRedAngelA

Coming Home
I close my eyes and like a picture I see your faceSo vivid, so real with that sparkle in your eyesAs I stare I’m being drawn to a safer placeOut of harms way and higher then any skiesMy angel, I’m coming home to youI see your smile; I feel the warmth from youAs you look back at me, looking into my soulKnowing you’ve found a love, a love so trueA love that’s forever been out of our controlAnd I know my Angel I’m coming home to youI feel a gentle breeze as you whisper my nameAs it sweeps over my face and brings me to lifeThe spark you gave me once has turned into a flameIt will burn for an eternity even after I’ve lived my lifeBecause in the end my angel I’m coming home to you

F*$k Life!
Why does life have to be so screwed up? Honestly, what did I do to deserve all that is going on in my life? I know some say that you are dealt a hand of cards and your life will go how you play them, if you don't play them you lose them.. which seems to be happening to me. I have had a pretty rough life the past 6yrs, when i was 19 I moved out of my parents house and was jumping from place to place not knowing where I would be staying each night and partying all the time(which was fun at the time). All I did was drink and do pills. I finally moved up to GA with family and thought I had met a nice guy who was in the army until I moved in with him and he started to abuse me. Then I met my ex-husband, who was the sweetest most caring guy I had ever met in my life, and actually treated me with respect. We moved into together with a friend of his, things were great in the beginning we were happy and I loved him with all of my heart, I fell fast and hard. Met his family which accepted me wi

Random Thoughts ....
You never really know what someone else has on their mind. I want to know the real person not the one you wish everyone to see. The one who lives deep inside you. The one holding all your darkest secrets. The one you are afraid to love. The one I wish to know and love. I wonder just how many are brave enough to share that person with me. Sometimes you have to know when to say enough is enough I am a better person because of you. It’s okay to love freely without losing yourself in that love. There are so many different kinds of love in this world… Love is a crazy thing and you can love someone with all you are and still grow into who you are meant to be. Faith may sometimes falter, but it is never truly gone. Some thoughts are not meant to be shared… Maybe I take life too seriously. How many of us really do listen to our souls? I learned a lesson a several years ago that if you do not believe in

Guess Who's Back
YEP, IT'S ME, AND I'M BACK WITH A VENGANCE. I KNOW THAT I'VE BEEN AWAY FOR OVER A YEAR. THIS TIME, I'M A CHANGED AND BETTER PERSON. I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH A LOT OF CHANGES IN THE PAST YEAR WITH, RELATIONSHIPS, I WENT TO ORLANDO, FLORIDA AGAIN, AND I GOT A NEW JOB (WHICH IS LONG OVERDUE). I'M MORE STRONGER AND MORE TOUGHER MENTALLY AND I LEARNED FROM MY MISTAKES THAT I'VE MADE WHILE ON HERE FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS. THIS TIME I'M NOT GONNA LET ANYBODY RUN ME OVER ANYMORE, AND I'M GONNA BE CAREFUL WHO I ADD, AND I WON'T BYTE MY TONGUE EITHER, AND I WON'T BACK DOWN FROM ANYBODY EITHER. IT'S GREAT TO BE BACK AND I MISS MY OLD FRIENDS ON HERE. IT FEELS GOOD TO START A NEW BEGININNG AND BECOME A NEW PERSON

*i Could Never Make You Happy,so I Wrote You This Instead
Ever feel like it only rains on you?You want to keep going,but the hill is just too steepYou like the wind is always against youTake a look at your compassBut it just points to nowhereFeeling more lost than foundYou youll for help but no one hearsThe more you try to do goodThe more it only gets worseYou try to shed some lightBut it only turns to darkTaking the road less traveledBut it always has the most trafficYou see what you wantAlways out of your reachThe sun always shinesBut you feel so coldYou make others happyBut you're dissatisfied in yourselfYou make yourself happyEveryone is disappointed in youMake the best of the worstBut the best makes it worseSo many roadsBut which to followSo many voicesWhich to listen toWho do I turn toWho do I run to

The Mind
The mind is like a blank canvas, waiting to be filled with colour with sprays of red, yellow and green and all the colours of the rainbow. You can paint a picture in your mind and change it how you wish. But always know its yours to keep and do whatever you want with it.

A Couple Of My Fav Status's You Can Use Em If Ya Like But Totally Comment Them If You Read Them
You may say i am crazy, but i am really a fruit loop in a world full of cheerios. life is too short, laugh when u can, apologize when u should, and let go of what u cant change, Love deeply and forgive quickly. when you least expect it someone walks into your life and makes you smile. When I say "don't worry about it, I'm good" I'm really not. But hey, don't worry about it, I'm good. Are you ready? Aye Aye captain i cant hear you aye aye captain ohhhhhhh who lives in a pineapple under the sea NO ONE THANKS TO B.P. :( R.I.P. SPONGE BOB ~ A strong woman knows she has strength enough for her journey, but a woman of strength knows that it is in her journey where she will become strong. ~ SING -Everybody together now- If you're happy and you know it, share your meds! People twist the simplest of things into something so dramatic, then act so righteous about it. Failed attempts at superiority becomes funny after awhile. is going to shove her head in the freezer! I love it when i

Piss Up A Rope - Ween
Im going to dedicate my first blog to the band WEEN. Why? Because I love the way this band can be so versitile from hardcore sounds such as with their first band Moist Boys, to their country songs, Ween is fun for the whole family! From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia 12 Golden Country Greats Released July 16, 1996 Recorded November 2-November 8, 1995 12 Golden Country Greats is Ween's fifth album, and third for Elektra Records. This album marked the first time Ween limited themselves to a specific genre of music. Bringing in a wide variety of seasoned (and sometimes legendary) Nashville musicians (including Buddy Spicher, Bobby Ogdin and The Jordanaires), the album sought to recreate the sound of golden-age country music with a great amount of success, while also combining this sound with classic Ween on such tracks as "Piss Up a Rope." Later, Ween would assemble many of the session musicians again into a touring band dubbed The Shit Creek Boys. Th

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Quick update.... been in my new apartment for a week. Boy it sure is quiet after living with so many people for so long. I went to see the ortho yesterday for the first time since I got the joint fluid shots and he scheduled surgery for July 29th... fun fun since I am on the second floor and this is on my left knee. Did I tell you I have a clutch in my car, pleh... I wont be on here much, just when I can get near a pc with connection until they install the wi-fi at my apartment complex... One perk of living there :)

Blonde Goes To Heaven
A Blonde was sent on her way to Heaven. Upon arrival, a concerned St Peter met her at the Pearly Gates. 'I'm sorry,' St Peter said; 'But Heaven is suffering from an overload of godly souls and we have been forced to put up an Entrance Exam for new arrivals to ease the burden of Heavenly Arrivals.' 'That's cool' said the Blonde, 'What does the Entrance Exam consist of?' 'Just three questions' said St Peter. 'Which are?' asked the Blonde. 'The first,' said St Peter, 'is, which two days of the week start with the letter 'T' '? The second is 'How many seconds are there in a year?' The third is 'What was the name of the swagman in Waltzing Matilda?' 'Now,' said St Peter, 'Go away and think about those questions and when I call upon you, I shall expect you to have those answers for me.' So the Blonde went away and gave those three questions some considerable thought (I expect you to do the same). The following morning, St Peter called upon the Blonde and asked if she had considered

All About Me!
1. Spell your name backward - drawkcab eman ruoy 2. Story behind your name - My middle name is after my paternal grandmother 3. whens your birthday - The same day every year 4. Where do you live - Columbia, MO DESCRIBE YOUR: 5. Wallet - I don't use one. 6. Eyes - Blue/gray 7. Toothbrush - Yes, I have one. It's purple. 8. Jewelry worn daily - Hematite band on left ring finger 9. Cell Phone - Samsung Galaxy Precedent 10. Pillow cover right now - Lavender 11. Car - none 12. Bedroom: - Yeah, I got one 13. Sunglasses - Broken 15. Cologne/Perfume - New Brand. I save the Vampire for someone who has my bottle of Velocity. 16. CD in stereo right now - Huh? 17. Piercings - earlobes 18. What you are wearing now - clothes 19. Wishing - Huh? 20. Wanting - Job, apartment, car 21. After this - Fuck if I know. 22. If you could get away with it and murder anyone who would it be - I would rather let Karma deal with them. 24. Some of your favorite movies - Labyrinth, Avatar, Kill Bi

Womans Perfect Breakfast
She's sitting at the table with her gourmet coffee. Her son is on the cover of the Wheaties box. Her daughter is on the cover of Business Week. Her boyfriend is on the cover of Playgirl. And her husband is on the back of the milk carton.

The Silent Treatment
A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, 'Please wake me at 5:00 AM.' He left it where he knew she would find it. The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, 'It is 5:00 AM. Wake up..' Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests.

Get Bent
Just when I thought some rewards were coming my way, my fiance's car needs fixed (that's a grand) and my water heater goes out..god knows what that is gonna cost (I rent but, my landlord is in Cali) I wanna cry...I've been working my ass off and ya, shit keeps happening :( I just want to be able to pay my bills and surrive... dammit....I guess I just keep going...bills are getting paid....just late...and that means stress and I despise stress... I'm spose to design/quote a zen garden...how in the hell am I spose to do it with my tummy this way??? O, I gotta sell my macbook to pay for the fiances car....shitty. *sigh* I hope you all are ok....it's not even a full moon...wtf?

How Should You Travel?
You Should Travel By Scooter You believe that travel is more a state of mind than anything else. It's all about your attitude. You can travel in your home town or halfway around the world. You just make sure to savor every new taste, sight, and sound. When you travel, you like to take your time and immerse yourself. That's why a scooter is perfect for you. Riding a scooter means you can travel any little side street, and go slow enough to check out all the scenery. How Should You Travel? The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blo

Defending The Catholic Faith.
Subject: Jewish view on Catholics via relative in ChicagoLife isn't tied with a bow,but it's still a gift.Jewish Sam Miller on CatholicsExcerpts of an article written by non-Catholic Sam Miller - a prominent Cleveland Jewish businessman:"Why would newspapers carry on a vendetta on one of the most important institutions that we have today in the United States , namely the Catholic Church?Do you know - the Catholic Church educates 2.6 million students everyday at the cost to that Church of 10 billion dollars, and a savings on the other hand to the American taxpayer of 18 billion dollars. The graduates go on to graduate studies at the rate of 92%.The Church has 230 colleges and universities in the U.S. with an enrollment of 700,000 students.The Catholic Church has a non-profit hospital system of 637 hospitals, which account for hospital treatment of 1 out of every 5 people - not just Catholics - in the United States todayBut the press is vindictive and trying to totally denigrate in every

G-spot
from what i hear, and feel, i have never missed a g-spot. yet when the subject comes up, i come to find that a lot of the ladies out there have been missing out on the g-spot action. so i ask you all out there, do you have issues with this or has the target been aquired?

What Is... Another By My Daughter, Ally :)
Death is a still winter night... nothing rustles , not even the wind... People walk a slow sad march.. A march of suffering the pain... due to this one mistake of loving this one human being... Death is a still winter night....

Nanny
I LOVE MY NANNY AND I MISS HER SO MUCH SHE WAS MY WORLD ITS SO HARD TO TALK ABOUT HER IN THE PAST TENSE I STILL CATCH MYSELF TALKING ABOUT HER IN THE PRESENT EVERYDAY, THERE ISNT A DAY THAT HAS GONE BY THAT I HAVENT THOUGHT ABOUT HER. I SIT AND THINK TO MYSELF IS SHE REALLY GONE...NO SHE CANT BE BECAUSE I STILL FEEL LIKE SHES HERE, THAT WHEN EVER I WANT I CAN JUST STOP BY HER HOUSE AND SHE'LL BE THERE. HOW CAN SOMEONE THAT WAS SO FULL OF LIFE BE HERE ONE DAY AND THEN GONE THE NEXT. IM STILL HAVING A VERY HARD TIME WITH IT ALL. I WANT HER HERE WITH ME. ITS THAT SO SELFISH, WELL I DONT CARE IM NEVER SELFISH ABOUT ANYTHING SO ILL BE SELFISH ABOUT THIS. WHY WHY WHY THATS WHAT IS RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD. AND WHY CANT I GET IT, THAT SHES NOT HERE WHY DO I HAVE TO KEEP REMINDING MYSELF SHES GONE. I WAS THERE WHEN SHE DIED I WAS THERE AT THE FUNERAL, AND WHY IS THE WORD FUN IN FUNERAL, THERES NOTHING FUN ABOUT IT? MAYBE ONE DAY I WONT THINK ABOUT IT SO MUCH...BUT WHAT IF I WANT TO?

Fade
The day light breaks again Another day has begun. But still no sleep has come. My body is weary My mind overworked. I lie awake thinking But what I am unsure. I need to break free from the cycle I endure. Everyday is the same and the nights are undistinguished. I feel as though I am being pushed along with the tide Unable to break free from the everyday flow. This is not me I need to change, before time takes over And I am unable to change. I need to be freed from the grasp of ordinary And become that person I have always longed for. Express myself in every way, and conquer the dreams as I lie awake. Then I may fall asleep and put my mind to rest. Make changes in my life and help those in need. I would like to touch everyone's life in a positive way And leave my mark on society before I fade away.

Thank You
to my friends Thank you for being there when I needed you... and even when I didn't, Thank you for being there through the good times... and the bad, Thank you for being there to encourage my dreams.... and my crazy ideas, Thank you for catching me... before I fell down, Thank you for wiping away the tears... when I was crying, Thank you for cheering me up... and making me laugh, Thank you for all the great memories... and the bad, But most of all... thank you... For being you!

Playground Personality Did Me Good :)
You Were a Loner You may have had a few friends on the playground, but you never felt like you really fit in. And while this was not the greatest when you were little, it's served you well as an adult. You have learned to be independent - both in your thoughts and your actions. Not fitting in is now your strength. You defy labels, and you are completely original. What's Your Playground Personality? Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

Woohooo!!!!!
i had a night off of mommy duty and it went kinda like this i took a bus, i took a train, then another train, then i did stuff and talked to people, and then did some more stuff that was pretty awesome (enter girlish sigh), then a few more things, then i slept, then i woke up, then i did more fun stuff, then, sadly, i went home. :( then i realized i forgot stuff oh and someone tried selling me cocaine :D and i got accused of being a prostiute I WIN!!! what did you weirdos do this weekend? :p sarah

You Know You Want It, Baby!
This is for all you horny Nintendo fans out there.... You're Mario I'm the Princess Whadaya say we duck Down this pipe for a few hours... I'll unstrap your plumber's suspenders You'll pull off my pretty pink dress We'll throw our bodies against the blue brick floor And make love in the dark while golden coins float above us. Because baby, we don't need a flower to catch fire Or a star to sparkle Or a mushroom to feel big Or a 1Up for that second chance. I promise, there will be plenty of time later For fighting goombas and jellyfish and fluttering ducks. But for now, for this one moment It appears we have the castle to ourselves

What More Can I Say? She Makes Me Smile.
I got a girl that makes me smileMakes me want to breath a little while longerI got a girl that makes me smileMakes my heart want to beat a little stronger And I knowThat ya'll sayThat I'm justA hopeless romantic butI've got a girlThat makes me smile She's my everything, the one I need, the one I breathThe one that made me tuck my heart back up in my sleeveCause when I see her staring, her eyes smiling back at meI know that there's a place that her and I would rather be She's the one who makes all my troubles fade awayShe's the one who gets me through, day to dayShe's the one who makes me want to stay up, just a little whileShe's the one who makes me smile I got a girl that makes me smileMakes me want to breath a little while longerI got a girl that makes me smileMakes my heart want to beat a little stronger And I knowThat ya'll sayThat I'm justA hopeless romantic but I've got a girlThat makes me smile

Not Always Right - Of Half-baked Requests And Baked-in Clothes
Of Half-Baked Requests And Baked-In Clothes Retail | Calgary, AB, Canada (I work in a custom ceramics shop were we offer a touch-up/repainting service. A woman in a formal dress comes in with an armful of garden gnomes.) Customer: “I need these gnomes to match this dress.” Me: “Okay, we can do that. Do you mind if we take a picture for reference?” Customer: “It’s for a wedding.” Me: “That’s nice.” Customer: “It’s this afternoon.” Me: “This afternoon?” Customer: “Yes, at three. What, did you think I just walked around dressed like this all the time?” Me: “Ma’am, I’m sorry, but we can’t help you. It would take the better part of a day just to paint all these little guys, and it takes at least three hours for the glaze to dry completely.” Customer: “You don’t need to paint them! Just get them to change their little clothes!&rdq

I Kissed A Girl, And I Liked It...my Day Today
Snippet of a conversation with a friend...since I don't feel like explaining again I'm gonna copy/paste. Here's my day. Was up until 8am...finally passed out from exhaustion...woke up at 3:40 to my mom banging on my door saying she doesn't like being locked out when she knows damn well I always lock my door when I'm home alone for my own safety. So I wrap myself in a blanket and go to the door, and told her I had went to bed at 8 and she goes "why?" I'm like "I dunno" so she goes "Well I'm gonna go get something to eat then" and just storms off and goes to get food. I just snapped at that point, I got up, threw on clothes and went to Mike's because Tawnua wasn't available until 6. So I talked to Mike's mom for a while, spent some time with Gwinevere, then went to Tawnua's. We watched true blood and we shared a can of soup for dinner. I kissed her too just to see if I'll enjoy it when the time comes By when the time comes I mean I've been invited to participate in a 3-way with

*love* This Song
For those that don't want to watch the vid or want the lyrics all at once: Well this is how it startsTwo lovers in the darkOn the run from the one they call sheriff sparkSix guns by their sideAnd bullets round their waistTwo shots to the sky signals signs for the chaseThe safe was nearly empty and they were nearly freeBut were seen by the good eyeOf the mean billy greenAnd he screamed at the top of his lungs"they're on the run!"It's the two wild sidersGrab your holsters and your gunsI said I wish that we could stay hereBut I fear our time has comeWe can ride out in the darknessChasing the rising sunWe gotta pack our bags this

New Untitled Story
Mark Callous was a well respected man in the small community of Edgewood. It was a very quiet hole-in-the-wall type of town. Everyone knew each other and for the most part got along or at the very lease respected one another. Mark was a Funeral Director at Dominions Rest Funeral Home on the west side of town. He was a well respected man, whom gives what he can to the community that he lived in for most of his life. He lives as well as works at the funeral home with his wife Meredith with 2 little daughters Eileen and Jennifer; ages 5 and 7. Life was going as well as it can for this little loving family. But this is not a deal of happiness, but of one’s demise of sanity and hope. “Do you know if they ever found Shrug?” Meredith asked her husband. “Not that I have heard. Last thing I heard about Shrug was that there was evidence that suggested he murder an 18 year old girl down by the old mill factory.” Her husband of 15 years told her. Gary Shrug ha

Real
Real loves is not something that you can take for granted real love is a feeling that comes between two people and can not be broken by man or woman or anyone for that matter.Real love is the feeling that you are wanted you are loved and respected and cherished through thick and thin and it never changes day to day minute to minute.The best part about being loveds is knowing that the person that u love is always right there by your side till the end of time. So is what you have True and Real love?

Should I Leave
im beaten battered and torn broken glass falls around me cutting me open every cut burns a little more every blood drop feels just a bit better then the one b4 maybe just maybe no one will find me give me a few more minutes dont come in just let me be and everything will be over all the pain will be gone i wipe the tears from my face i look down and its taking to long their beating on the door i scream to give me more time it sounds like they care now when they never cared before deeper and deeper it goes i hear them kicking the door in please oh please let this work

Hurt And Relationships
Sometimes I just don't realize how much it hurts to be alive. Its a constant part of every day life. The prick of a finger, a fresh tattoo, the slip of a blade or regular wear and tear on the body. Then there are more uncommon types. Why is it that even though love is a chemical reaction in the brain, we feel our hearts sink when its been broken. Our emotions are so strong, we can physically feel it. But we recover and try again. And hope is the only thing that keeps us in this pattern. The hope that someday we may love again, someday we will be able to think of these things without feeling that your heart is about to explode. Or the hope that maybe the person you love will change. There are those of us that hold onto that last hope. That our love will realize their errors or their hurtful flaws, and will decide to evaluate themselves, and their life. They never change. To the ones that have been beaten, cheated on, lied to, emotionally mistreated. For those that are made

Who Thought Of This???
First, let me thank you for checking in on this blog. I will try to write every few days while here on Fubar. I am working on my second book right now and trying to run my place in the mountains of Montana, am an activist and a nurse in a revolutionary homecare pilot project for Montana that I run out of my home which is very satisfying and important because it is a project that allows families to care for their loved ones at home without nursing homes and brings the care to the patient which is much more cost effective for insurance and Medicare patients. I am also a musician, saxophone, if you haven't read my profile, and much more. I also am an artist of some fame in the Northwest and actually make money at that. My premise in art has always been that I want to make money from it now as I don't want to be famous after I am dead because I am pretty sure there are no banks at the next level after this life. I love art for art and all that stuff but nothing replaces a few bucks in you

You'll Have To Excuse My Language But I'm Pissed
I don't ask for much from my kids; a hello once in a while, maybe a visit here and there. I know they have their own lives now. Three weeks ago I was miserable sick, couldn't even move. High fever, pain across the stomach that pretty much dibilitated me for days on end. My oldest son (who lives with me 4 days of the week) didn't want to leave but he had to work and since it's closer for him to stay at his mothers, he does that for 3 days. So I sent a text to my daughter to at least check in on me since I was so sick I couldn't even make my own meals much less barely move to go to the bathroom. No answer, not a peep for 3 weeks. WTF! Well it's three weeks later, I'm starting to recover. Turns out my Dr up'd one of my meds too much, and it took this long to get it out of my system before the new dosage could be started. He was right on top of it and caught it the very minute I called him, but he said under no circumstances should I be left alone without some kind of daily checks. He wa

The Sand And Surf Test
You Are Creative You see inspiration where other people see nothing. You have an amazing eye for beauty. You appreciate everyone and everything in this world. You actually like flaws. Perfection is overrated! You can always find a way to entertain yourself and dream a little. You believe in endless possibilities. You are a very visual person, and at times you can be overwhelmed by all you are seeing. The world can be an intense place. The Sand and Surf Test Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

The True Feminine Form
An excerpt from a book I am writing... Sometime in my adolescence I started noticing the feminine form. Or at least I thought so. I fell in love with the curves and how they made a dress move and gave jeans life. Sometime in my adult hood my ideas of what a woman was did a complete reversal. And that’s when, for the first time in my life I really saw the feminine form. The true feminine form cannot be seen in a photo, in an art gallery, or in any movie of any rating. To see the true feminine form you have to look farther than you have before, deeper than most people care to look, and all while holding your breath. It starts deep in the soul of a woman, riding on waves that we refer to as “charm”, and is always present, even on her worst day. It’s often missed despite filling rooms and often misunderstood despite being offered freely. It pours out of a woman and hugs every part of her. Wetting her lips, shimmering off highlights in her hair, a

In Pain No More
in pain no more, A beautiful soul was taking from us, to walk with the angels, no need to be sad, its time to celerbrates ones life, we have had our ups and downs, tommorow is another day, the sun will rise, Knowing your in no more pain, you are always love, and you will always live in our hearts, love you grandma, R.I.P. bedrock

Rss Feeds For Blogs And Status Messages
RSS and atom feeds is now available for blogs and statuses. The feeds links are located below the blog stats on the blog page and in the Status box header, to the right, on the public profile page.You can subscribe to blogs and statuses in Google Reader by simply pasting in a blog or profile URL into the subscribe box. Google automagically figures out the location of the feed.Please note that the profile and blog must be viewable by everyone to be accessible by Google or other news reader. You will be able to subscribe to restricted blogs and profiles if you are logged in and use in-browser functionally such as Fitefox's live bookmarks.Let me know how this feature can be improved.Tina

Transylvanian Recollection
I feel nothing but yet theres somethingnow I sit here about to make a wishyour blood on a dishembrace the life to my lipsan opportunity I can't missa transylvanian recollection comes to mindI see for I am no longer blinddeep into the darkness I walk only to see the lightthis place isn't so dark just only bright

Reacurrence
While going in for a normal check up with my chemo docotor they had found something which was located in the same area as my cancer was the last time, they sent me in to have an MRI done and I won't know nothing till the 22nd to see if it's a reacurrence of my cancer. I'm not ready for this however know what needs to be done, although it's hard trying to keep myself together because the last time I lost my damn mind. Hopefully everything comes back o.k. and I will not have to go through this again.

Glad That No One Reads This :)
This call for solidarity with people who may have been locked out for blasted good reason (who knows? You're not telling us their story or anyone else's!) is giving me a headache. And I'm prone to headaches anyway. I usually like solidarity and favor it. But somehow I don't see this bringing the site crashing to a halt (taking on similar numbers, or dropping your own name and taking on your number, in solidarity with Miss Pink, or whatever - it's all a very confused, disorganized effort- which doesn't help either) - as making it all more confusing for newcomers, and all, all very self-absorbed. Labor organizers of an earlier day would have called it all very bourgeouis, I think, and I can see why ;) I just think it's foolish. We also work enough during the week without wanting to put in extra work figuring out who's who, just to support some people we do not know in the name of a principle (solidarity) which only some of us support anymore, and without even taking the time to put fo

Expectations ( Part 1)
So I have now been back on Fubar for about a week and am being reminded of the perils of playing on the internet. So far this weekend I have rated I would guess about 3,000 pics 11 and have received 10 pic ratings, one bling and a few drinks in return, one TYVM XXXOOO and that is about it. I appreciated my first bling very much and I was not expecting that cause I have not been on Fubar long enough to know what to expect half the time. Now I really hate to be critical but it is apparent I need to regroup and calm my expectations here a bit. I am not a noob online and have been on many sites, met some very nice people and some real jerks. I am certain many have had the same experience as it comes with cyber territory. I am not the type that is very pushy. My premise has always been that if your talking or interacting with a lady online you need to remember that you are not in their presence physically and usually someone else is so never take any of it very seriously until you make

Not Good Enough
What is it with women that act like you're not good enough but claim there isn't a good man left? Think that may be why? Who knows... Just kinda wondering if ppl constantly search for the impossible, cause a great catch just doesn't seem to cut it. Now me personally, I think I 'm a great catch but not to the female species I guess. But it can go both ways (such as men lookin for a prettier woman or something) but I'm not into dudes, period. I just hate that you look for someone, tell you they're not looking or interested in anyone then a week later plastering every where they love this person they had no interest in all of a sudden. Coincedence? Not likely. Claiming to look for a good person but yet you throw us good people in the crowds of bad people and think we're the same cause we're the same gender. Not cool, and nothing gets solved that way. Couldn't hurt to get to know someone before you start slappin labels on people. I notice how some women say "I want someone that loves

Sunday
Kids off to bed and time for me to relax. Was a good weekend. My 5 year old loves swimming lessons, my daughter stayed at her grandparents house all weekend. The baby not feeling to good though. Weather been good and that helps. For me I got class tomorrow and wednesday. Also giving a lecture at work on Wednesday. Going to be tired that day. Many will find this boring and sorry for that. I have been a parent for 10 years and it does become a large part of who you are.

By Myself
By Myself I spend my time alone in the dark I long for your touch but not one single spark I lay beside you in our bed By gone times go through my head You're there beside me but I'm still alone You're desire's for me have long since gone The problem with me I wish you'd say Atleast then I could find my way You used to want me, need me too That's no longer enough for you Love me, leave me or tell me to go Either way I need to know There once was a time I was your world Now I feel like a lost little girl Unanswered questions run through my head I'm lying here alone, with you in our bed Just give me the answers I'm looking for That's all I want, nothing more I'll walk away and not look back Leave this place with my pride in tact Walk out the door and be long gone

Wouldn't It Be Nice.....
WOULDN'T IT BE GREAT TO TURN ON THE TV AND HEAR ANY U.S. PRESIDENT, DEMOCRAT OR REPUBLICAN, GIVE THE FOLLOWING SPEECH? ' My Fellow Americans : As you all know, the defeat of the Iraq regime has been completed. Since Congress does not want to spend any more money on this war, our mission in Iraq is complete. This morning I gave the order for a complete removal of all American forces from Iraq . This action will be complete within 30 days. It is now time to begin the reckoning. Before me, I have two lists. One list contains the names of countries which have stood by our side during the Iraq conflict This list is short . The United Kingdom , Spain ,Bulgaria , Australia , and Poland are some of the countries listed there. The other list contains every one not on the first list. Most of the world's nations are on that list. My press secretary will be distributing copies of both lists later this evening. Let me start by saying that effe

What You Should Know About Your State.
A Fun Fact for Each State ALABAMA.................. Was the first place to have 9-1-1, started in 1968. ALASKA..................... One out of every 64 people has a pilot's license. ARIZONA................... Is the only state in the continental U.S. that doesn't follow Daylight Savings Time. ARKANSAS................ Has the only active diamond mine in the U.S. CALIFORNIA.............. Its economy is so large that if it were a country, it would rank seventh in the entire world. COLORADO................ In 1976 it became the only state to turn down the Olympics. CONNECTICUT........... The Frisbee was invented here at Yale University. DELAWARE............... Has more scientists and engineers than any other state. FLORIDA................... At 759 square miles, Jacksonville is the U.S. 's largest city. GEORGIA................... It was here, in 1886, that pharmacist John Pemberton made the first vat of Coca-Cola. HAWAII..................... Hawaiians live, on average, five years longer th

Bug Spray
A salesman was traveling through the country side, flogging insect repellent. He came to a farmhouse and tried his pitch on the farmer."Sir, my bug spray is so good you will never be bitten again. I guarantee it."The farmer was dubious."Young man, I'll make you a proposition. I'll tie you out in my cornfield buck naked, covered with that bug spray. If there is not a single bite on you come morning, I'll buy a whole case from you. And get everyone in the county to buy a case......we will make you rich.The salesman was delighted.They went to the field and he stripped. The farmer sprayed him thoroughly with the bug spray and tied him to a stake. Back to the house went the farmer. The next morning, the farmer and his family trooped out to the cornfield. Sure enough, the salesman was there, hanging in his bonds, not a single bite on him. Yet he was a total wreck!Pale, ghastly, haggard, and drawn, but not one bite on him. The farmer was perplexed. "Son," he said, "Now, you don't have a bite

No One Is Ever Gone ...... Souls Never Die
Loss paves the road in shifting perceptions ... when we lose a loved one, a beloved pet, a lover, friend or family member, it is the physical absence we feel. The imprint of that person still lingers yet their spirit still hovers most of the time. It is then and only then that we reallize ...no one is ever gone, no one ever leaves. They continue to intertwine with us but in spirit. We learn that by "attaching" ourselves to any one person is to tie our self to limitation. When we detach, let go, the heartache becomes the lesson. To cling to anything including another is to covet...to honor their path and release them to soar is to cherish and find peace in the knowing they are in still very much alive albeit in a different form. Loss is the hardest of lessons as it leaves a void yet the void thus opens you up to a new beginning. For where there is a void the universe can begin to fill it with your hearts desires. The void is not "empty" the void is rebirth, renewal, a place where your h

Paramore - The Only Exception
I saw this video this morning as I was flipping through the channels and I was impressed. The lyrics are below. Enjoy!!! When I was younger, I saw my daddy cryAnd curse at the windHe broke his own heart and I watchedAs he tried to reassemble itAnd my momma swore thatShe would never let herself forgetAnd that was the day that I promisedI'd never sing of love if it does not existBut darling, you are the only exceptionYou are the only exceptionYou are the only exceptionYou are the only exceptionMaybe I know, somewhere deep in my soulThat love never lastsAnd we've got to find other ways to make it aloneOr keep a straight faceAnd I've always lived like thisKeeping a comfortable distanceAnd up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with lonelinessBecause none of it was ever worth the riskBut you are the only exceptionYou are the only exceptionYou are the only exceptionYou are the only exceptionI've got a tight grip on realityBut I can't let go of what's in front of

Bitch Asses
TO ALL YOU FU BITCHES AN HATERS GO FUCK OFF! I'M TIRED OF KEEPING MY MOUTH SHUT AFTER ALL THE SHIT YOU SAY TO ME!! YOU DON'T HERE MY COME BACKS BUT IHAVE DECIDED WHAT THE HELL, TIME TO SHARE MY FEELINGS!! FUCK OFF ALL YOU OVER POSSECIVE STALKERS THAT NEVER REALLY CARE IN THE IRST FUCKING PLACE!!! TO ALL THOSE ASSHOLE THAT THINK IM TOO BIG. YOU CAN GO FUCK YOUR SELF RIGHTEOUS ASSES AND D SUCK A BIG BAG OF DONKEY DICKS!! yOU ARE TO INSECURE TO TELL ME YOU WANT ME THAT YOU TRY TO BREAK ME!! YOUR SHIT WON'T FLY NO MORE IM NOT DEALING WITH IT NOMORE!! HAVE A GREAT FUCKING DAY AND DON'T LET HE DOOR HIT YOU ON THE WAY OUT.

Greatest Lust (inspired By Amyjohnson47274)
You and your boyfriend just got home from a gentle swim. Staring at each other in the pool left you both in the mood for something freaky. As you walk up the stairs you hear a gentle moan that seems to be coming from your room. Looking at your boyfriend puzzled, you finish going up the stairs and open the door to your room. If you thought you were horny before, you have no idea. As soon as that door was open, your pussy was dripping. There you saw Eric sitting with his head leaning back as he was moaning. As he practically laid there with one hand up for a little support; I was sucking him off gently and slowly shoving his 11 inch long, 3.5 in wide, shaft, as far into my mouth as possible. Going up and down slowly, I made my hand follow my lips at the same speed making sure he was truly moaning. At the same time I had my other hand wrapped around my back; I was finger fucking myself with two fingers making sure to go in as deep as possible. You stare at this amazing picture with your

Please Read And Laugh Because I Know I Did!
WELL WELL I FIND MYSELF ALWAYS NEEDING TO CREATE NEW ACCOUNTS BECAUSE WELL IN REAL LIFE NOPE IM NOT THE HOTTEST CHICK, ATTRACTIVE YES BUT NOT ACCORDING THE THE FUBAR WORLD STANDARDS SO I GRABBED 2 PICTURES FROM THE NET AND PUT THEM UP! I GOT TIRED OF EVERYONE BITCHING AND MOANING ABOUT SALUTES AND SO I FIGURE FUBAR IS FUN SO WHY NOT JUST GO UNDERCOVER AND FIND THE FAKERS LIKE JOHNNY DEVIL AND STRYKER DO! EASY ENUGHT RIGHT ??? YUP YUP WELL AS I WAS ABOUT TO UPLOAD THE BLONDE CHICK I HAVE UP THERE SHE WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME ON ANOTHER PROFILE, OK LADIES AND GERMS THE PICTURES ARE EVERYWHERE! HOTCOLLEGEGIRLS.COM/ SEXYGIRLS.COM ETC...... YOU GET WHERE IM GOING WITH THIS! STRYKER DID SHOW ME A COOL WAY TO FIND THEM, IF HE READES THIS HOPEFULLY HE WILL CALL ME, WE SPOKE ONCE AND HE IS A REALLY BIG SWEETHEART! LOVE YOU STRYKER XOXOXO ANYWAYS SO I WANNA BE THE FEMALE VERSION OF THE 2 GUYS AND JUST SEARCH OUT ALL THE FAKERS AND YES THAT INCLUDES ME BECAUSE MY PICTURES ARE NOT ME BUT I AM N

Mental Me
An open mind is only so wide when the world learns to just be as one but will that ever happen?Are we turning into mindless zombies? Controled by Hollywood on what beauty is or what theman sees is lovely. Its sad to think that a teen must weigh 90 lbs to fit in or not be accepted. Its sad to know that the goverment controls the people that try so hard to livea normal life. Going to work every day and taking care of the children doesnt seem likeits enough anymore. Its sad to know that drugs are more important. Sex is over rated whenlove is out of the question.No one can trust people anymore. Everyone is a out for the kill.Has the world really became a do or die or am I just seeing this now? The internet has becamea personal monster, we MUST be here! We as people depend on Walmart, the root of all thatis core. No more mom and pop local shops. Fashion icons is my next topic. $800 for a pairof pants that were probably made by a sweat shop child for 15 cent, if that. Oh you can also blame

Complete Scam
I was asked by my husband to post this so more people would be aware of this scam CAR COVER Man on eBay - WARNING! A COMPLETE SCAM! Current mood: angry Category: Automotive Hi everybody. I know I haven't been on here much lately and I know I NEVER blog but I've got something that I just gotta share with as many people as I can.I just want to let everybody know that buying a car cover from Car Cover Man on eBay is a VERY BAD idea. This company is currently working on eBay with at least two different accounts (carcoverman & worldoutletcenter) selling car covers and who knows what else. http://shop.ebay.com/i.html?_nkw=S%26S+hearse+cover&_sacat=0&_odkw=S%26S+hearse&_osacat=0&bkBtn=&_trksid=p3286.m270.l1313CHECK THEIR NEGATIVE FEEDBACK ON eBAY! They may be great if you need an indoor dust cover but that's all you're going to get and it may or may not fit your car.They've got a fairly good eBay page (if you don't look to close) and they advert

A Little Bit About Me
OHMYGAWDWHATAREYOUWEARING?!?!Current mood:HATE ihateall things fad. ihatethe popular. ihatetrends. ihatewhen things i like become things other people like. ihateyour shirt ihateyour shoes ihateyour service. ihatethat youll say "me too" ihatethat stupid look on your face when you "think" you like something ihatethat you have to "think" about it ihatesimilarities

Why Oh Why
I always ask myself why. Why do I never trust? Why do I always ask to many questions? Why isn't anyone every good enough? Why do I always go for the wrong person, knowing they are going to break my heart? Why didn't I see what was going on? Why did I still love him knowing what he did? Why did he choose my heart to break? Why wasn't I smart enough? Why wasn't I pretty enough? Why wasn't I interesting enough? Why wasn't I good enough? My dad says I have always asked why. He said I wanted to know why the sky was blue? Why I had to go to school? Why was I the only sister with 3 brothers? Why are the flowers all different colors? Why is chocolate brown when it should obviously be purple (when I was 4 and in my exact words)? Why is ice cream cold? He said at one point he and Mom thought about changing my middle name to why. I could not even be told to clean my room without asking why it needed to be done when obviously it was just going to be messed up again. Well now I sit he

Do People Care Anymore ?????
What happened to people caring about each other ? I have been on fubar on and off for alomst 3 yrs now.I know this site is a game..its about points and leveling..But have we forgotton that we are all human beings too.I have seen so many of my friends getting hurt on here its like no one cares about anybody anymore.Why do people say things they dont mean..Is breaking someone's heart part of the game too?If it is I dont want any part of it.What happened to being honest with someone...say what you mean and do what you say!!! I know there are some good people on this site..dont get me wrong..Im not trying to say this site is all bad.There are people out there that really care.I know there are some that have met their someone special on here..And to them I want to wish them luck. Cause your gonna need it..this has become and cruel and crazy world. I dont know how long I will be on this site..my mind changes everyday.But to the few true friends I have on here..I want to say

Written 7-21-2010
Never felt good enough for anyone but myself My confidence is hidden deep down I can't understand why i still feel this way The pain form the past still haunts me Jumping up when least expected I wish it would go away so i cant be happy once again But here is where it seems to stay Most days i feel like a hollow shell of what used to be What i wonder could set me free Even when i think i am happy This other thought is still there waiting To prove itsself known like a badge of shame I hide from the world And replace the hurt and pain with smiles and laughter Hoping to one day find a new cure To this torturous hell The past i know is dead and gone But the pain still lingers on This test of emotional strength Has been going on for longer than i can stand How much more of a tolerance will last Before i succumb just like all the rest?

When Im Gone
Hush my love, and go to sleep. No need to fear, no need to weep. When you wake again, my dearYou know that I'll always be here. Close your eyes, my love, and sleep.Let me lead you through the deep. Through seas below and stars above, Close your eyes and sleep, my love. Let my words bring you to peaceYou know your worries, they will keep.Just let my words encircle you, And take your soul beneath the blue. You'll find me with you in your dreams, Its as real as it can seemEven though my body's gone, You will never be alone. Its the way that time should turn, And everything in time will burn. Though I know you can't see me, My heart at last is truely free.

Juxtaprose 2 (re-edit 3)
JuxTaPRoSe 2 (re-edit 2)Nothing Else Matters When Doves CryMidnight Blue I'm Burning,I'm Burning For YouHot Stuff, Fire, Hearts On Fire.Baby, When I'm With You,On Top Of The WorldJump Purple Rain Novacaine, Cocaine.Love Hurts, Pain, Love Stinks,Crazy Love, Real Love, Love Me StillLet Your Love Flow, Lovers Live LongerJoy To The WorldFree Falling Like A Rolling Stone, Glycerine,Hello, Sweet Child O' Mine,Here I Go Again CryingHas Anybody Seen My Baby?

Home
Tried to post this in a status but it was too big: I'M HOME...GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT...NOT A MAJOR ONE. I'M SORE. BAD TRAFFIC AND MY BRAKES FAILED. LOOKING INTO NEGLIGENCE ON MEINEKE'S FAULT B/C I JUST HAD A BRAKE CHECK AND FLUID TOP-OFF. WON'T BE SPENDING $ ON HERE FOR A WHILE, SO ALL CREDS I HAVE WILL BE SAVED FOR SPECIAL PEOPLE. WOULD LIKE BLINGS I DON'T ALREADY HAVE.

Where Have You Gone Amy Rattinger???
Years ago in college I took a class in the Radio-TV department at the University of Montana that was taught by the chair of that department and a man who had been in tv and radio broadcasting for most of his life. Basically, he taught about coming trends in communications and the way people would interact with each other in a new world of mass communications. I took this class in 1981 before any of us owned a computer in our home, in fact, before most of us even had an inkling of what computers were about much less having seen one. One thing he talked about is the way we would meet members of the opposite sex online. What stuck with me was his comment about the creation of illusion that would take the place of seeing someone in real life who actually moves and talks and looks in your eyes. I remember many of us in the class looking around at each other and shaking our heads in disbelief as he talked about meeting our potential life mates without having to leave our home. This concept

Teeth Suck (bitch Fest...sorry)
I've pretty much had my fill of dentists, orthodontists, oral surgeons, etc. I go this morning for my 6 month check up. I have one molar on the side of my mouth from hell that we've been holding off doing any work on until I have this surgery. Why? Because it's going to need a crown. One of thise fucked up DNA things I was oh so fortunate to inherit. Well, it looks like we're not going to be able to hold off any further. (Fucking tooth!) No, it's decided to decay a bit further under the filling that's there. Yeah, I'm looking at getting another crown, which I knew eventually I was going to need but REALLY can't afford to get right now since, oh gee go figure, insurance companies pay SHIT on them. And the icing on the cake? Depending how far the decay goes, I might need to have a root canal. One thing I said I would never have done again because it FUCKING HURTS and I still have problems with the other one even though I shouldn't feel anything because the tooth is "dead". I told them to

Latest Housemixx
http://www.sendspace.com/file/89bvuv TRACKLIST ======== Sander Van Doorn vs Swed House Mafia - Reach Out vs. Leave The World Behind (Axwell Bootleg) Afrojack And Bobby Burns - Ghettoblaster (Original Mix).mp31 Avicii vs Tv Rock, Axwell Ft. Live Element - Bromance in the Air (Tristan Garner Bootleg) David Vendetta vs. Tara McDonald ft. Alim - I'm Your Goddess (Muzzaik Remix) Dj Gollum Vs Basslovers United - Narcotic (Dave Ramone Remix) Chemical Brothers - Hey Boy Hey Girl (Axwell Bootleg) Ibiza Knights - Good To Be Alive (Filthy Louca Mix) Young Rebels & Francesco Diaz - Ibiza 2010 (Christian Weber Remix) Nicky Romero - It's Me Bitches (Original Mix) Kaskade & Tiesto feat. Haley - Only You (Extended Remix) Baby D - Let Me Be Your Fantasy (Deadmau5 Remix) Mark Picchiotti - Let the Music Guide You (Mark Picchiotti Remix) MC Flipside & Neon Stereo - This Noiz (Kid Massive Remix) Funkagenda Feat. Mc Flipside - Nobody Listens To Techno (Original Mix) Polkad

Oh Hay! Long Time No See And Shit...updates?
I don't really use this site anymore because it kind of blows. I'm not really on the internet at all, really. Sometimes the facebook but not really. You CAN however be SUPER awesome and be my friend over at http://www.myboyfund.com/MonsterKing In the real life, though, I've been writing a lot more. I moved in with quite an incredible lady. Annnnnd I'm training to become a professional wrestler. No shit. I'm so excited to be an asshole to the crowd and make money doing it.

What People Sleep In Tells About Their Personality....
I just got my fuzzy/soft/loose plaid pajamas out of the drawer..and as I was putting them on tonight, realized I would probably never have worn anything like these when I was still in a serious relationship. I guess I grew up without any serious hangups about body image...or I just like my body to stay cool at night. I don't know...anyhow...I remember one Christmas trying to figure out what to get my girlfriend at the time...and she wanted a pajama set. Now, being a typical guy in a typical relationship...I automatically assumed she wanted lingerie. Of coure, there are drawbacks to getting to what I want at two am when it includes garter belts and hose and all that jazz...so I realized that maybe I should play it safe...and get one sexy outfit...and one baby doll like Heather wears on the show with Hugh Heffner....a pink number. The baby doll won out..and to be honest with you, fellas(and ladies) it was a LOT easier to get to things when I wanted them when the time came. Of course, it

The Sound Of...
The Sound of ...The Fields Are Alive..With the Sound of BUGS.Insecta Exoctica moronicos, Birds Erotica fowlista, Mice Veronica meleeces.Breezes Beating Weeds,Bending, seed-laden drooping, weeping.Bugs bwzweeder zweeder eeder..pflrrrthhrr pflrrrthhrr fplph...Gzzzdeeerweee gzzdeeerdeee pflop.Crunch crunch nibble nibble ungah ungah munch..Hurry hurry scurry gerbil-like furry field mice..Evil Mice...Evil Mice...I am 60 going on 17Joe Ray Me Fossel Lahtee Da...Who Wants to Know?? Slim Shadey...

*please Read* Overwhelmed With Shoutbox
Dear Fubar Friends, I'm writing this quick note to let you ALL know that I appreciate your fu-friendship greatly. I am amazed and dazzled by the fucking crazy amount of friends and fans I have on here. It's really rad, and I'm psyched!! Sadly, I am finding it IMPOSSIBLE to keep in touch with all you via my shoutbox. The conversations in that thing alone are confusing, and sorting through the absolute bullshit messages to find the meaningful ones is a hard job. So. I've closed it down to family only. This doesn't mean you can't send me private messages! I'll check them and get back to you asap... Again. I wanna stress that I'm not trying to be a BITCH. It's just truly impossible to keep up with all of the shouts, and by leaving it open I'm only letting you all down. And I don't wanna do that

Song I Wrote Today Titled: "it's So Easy For You"
Woke up this morningFilled with questions and regretsAll around me chaotic messNothing but desolation and destruction around meIt's so easy for you to just walk awayIt's so easy for you to leave angryIt's so easy for you to just walk awayWith nothing left to sayIt's so easyCan't stop wondering what i didTo make you hate me like thisI once made you happyBut now you cant stant looking at meWhy, Oh Why cant we go backTo before this disasterous train wreckIt's so easy for you to just walk awayIt's so easy for you to say you hate meIt's so easy for you to just walk awayWith nothing left to sayIt's so easyNow im left with the memoriesSo haunting and unhappyWhy did you have to goWhy the hell didnt you tell meIts so easy for you to just walk awayIt's so easy for you to leave angryIts so easy for you to just walk awayWith nothing left to sayIt's so easy

Open Letter To Apple
An Open Letter to Apple: On Sunday 7-25-10 I went to go look at IPHONE 4 accessories at... wait for it... wait for it... THE APPLE STORE!!!! This is the Apple store in Short Hills Mall in New Jersey. My wife and I got there and found that there was a line outside. We asked what the line was for and were told it was to get in the store. So we went to grab something to eat and then came back. Low and behold the line was still there. So we got in line and waited, and waited and waited and yes waited some more. After a 20 minute wait with about 20 - 30 of our closest friends we get to the front where the man in blue (I refuse to defile the word genius) was standing. In addition to him there was also a police officer next to him (no riot gear on and he was a very nice guy, but his mere presence still made the mood very sour). I asked the apple employee why were waiting, when I could clearly see inside the store was not even 50% filled) Before he could answer A couple came

Sicko's
4 all u gujys that just want 2 get on yahoo or cam 2 cam, just 2 show what u have and want 2 c something from me 2 help u get off, just don't bother, If I don't feel it then I don't want 2 c it. Move on 2 someone that will,

Yeah Im Fine.
It Must be your skin that I'm sinking in It Must be for real 'cause now I can feel And I didn't mind it's not my kind It's not my time to wonder why Everything's gone white And everything's grey Now you're here now you're away I don't want this Remember that I'll never forget where you're at Don't let the days go by Glycerine Glycerine I'm never alone I'm alone all the time Are you at one Or do you lie We live in a wheel Where everyone steals But when we rise it's like strawberry fields I treated you bad You bruise my face Couldn't love you more You got a beautiful taste Don't let the days go by Could have been easier on you I couldn't change though I wanted to Should have been easier by three Our old friend fear and you and me Glycerine Glycerine Don't let the days go by Glycerine Don't let the days go by Glycerine Oh, Glycerine![x4] Bad moon white again Bad moon white again As she falls around me I needed you more When we wanted us less I could not kiss just regress It might

Hearts
So there comes a time in your life, when you meet someone. Someone damned special. And its something you never expected.Something you never thought you wanted, but now that is has comes, you for fucking sure dont want to be without that person.Lura. I love you. You mean the world to me. In a short amount of time, you have put so many smiles on my face.A lot of people will come and go, buy you my dear, you must stay with me. Or else. I love you,but I'll threaten you. Rawr.So I got a jobby today. Working for Vizio. Tech support. Call center job.I hate being on phones. and it will only be a matter of time till i hate this job as well. But its money, and i need moolah.Just one income isnt enough.I wanna be able to move out and get our own place. I need more room then just this.so if he gets this job as well, and a combined income of 22bucks an hour, it should be a lot easier.

Manic Episodes....are Fucking Annoying
it takes me forever to type, because my tics start happening, and you really cant type well while have a sudden urge to bang on the stupid desk. i cant sit still .... was listening to music to help, but it didnt, a friend sent me this excerpt from a book, and it helps explain to others a little "There is a particular kind of pain, elation, loneliness, and terror involved in this kind of madness. When you're high it's tremendous. The ideas and feelings are fast and frequent like shooting stars, and you follow them until you find better and brighter ones. Shyness goes, the right words and gestures are suddenly there, the power to captivate others a felt certainty. There are interests found in uninteresting people. Sensuality is pervasive and the desire to seduce and be seduced irresistible. Feelings of ease, intensity, power, well-being, financial omnipotence, and euphoria pervade one's marrow. But, somewhere, this changes. The fast ideas are far too fast, and there are far too many; o

This Was Written For Me Me By My Gf Fleur Du Mal
Fate Our meeting was more than fate. Godness knew you were my soul mate. Your timming is never wrong. Now we share a bond so strong. Our time together means so much. Each moment intensifies the need to touch. Your love has reached my deepest soul. Longing for you to daily hold. May our love and need continue to grow. Forever, LOVE, NEED, PASSION to each show.

Poem I Wrote
Can't sleep thinking thinking of my only love, Want to taunt tease rap him round my finger. Wish I could tell tell him how I feel when I look into his eyes, Kiss his soft sweet lips and breath on his sweaty back, Fire burning in the pit of my soul desire to feel flesh against flesh, Lusting for one another craving connected rapped in each others arms, Night Sky's brings the mysterious darkness that fades when the sunlight shines in your eyes, Feeling safe warm and embraced by your ever lasting love,

My Family Hates Me
so get this my great grandma died and her funeral was YESTERDAY and no1 in my fucking family told me, i had to find out for myself on facebook FACEBOOK are you fucking kidding me, a social network designed for social activities and boom i had to be the stalker. FUCK MY FAMILY they must really love me right??????

Going In For The Kill
The Basics Full Name B.A.L. You like it? Depends on the day Birthdate 01.30.88 Height/Weight 5'4'' 190 Eye Color grey Hair Color blond Can you... Drive? yes Drive a manual? learning Touch your nose with your tongue? negitive scotty Cook? yep Dance? I try Sing? something Sew? yes. Speak another language? yeah partially Have you ever... Eaten sushi? eck no! O.o Been in love? yes Skipped school? lol yep Made prank calls? no. that's lame. Done illegal drugs? who hasn't? Stolen something ? nope, that's lame too. Flashed someone? my boyfriend, does that count. Been drunk? negitive. Eaten squid? no. Been to New York City? yes. Been to London? I wish. Favorite Drink Fie

Fubar Anthem?
We'll end up numb from playing video gamesand we'll get sick of having sex.And we'll get fat from eating candyas we drink ourselves to death.We'll stay up latemaking mix tapes,photoshoping pictures of ourselveswhile we masturbate to these pixelated videosof strangers fucking themselves.We are very busy people,We are very busy people.There's crusty socksand stacks of pizza boxesmaking trails straight to the bed.And when we're done sleepingwe'll stay busy dreaming of the thingswe do not have yet.Well there's a long, long list of choresand shit to do before we play,oh let's just piss away the day.Crank call the cops down at the station,just for friendly conversation,requesting songs they never play;Let's hear the one that goes like:We are very busy people,We are very busy people;But we've always got time for new friends.So come on over and knock on our door,it's open whatcha waitin' for?We may be sprawled out on the floor,but we still make lovely company.Pull up a chair, I'll pour some te

“how Do I Delete My Facebook Account” Search Volume Drops. Facebook Privacy Fiasco Over?
I found this article and modified it a little. Read this blog carefully and lets get the cool people over to fubar.com Is it time to officially declare the Facebook privacy fiasco over? While a record number of users were previously searching for “How Do I Delete My Facebook Account” as “Quit Facebook Day” approached, it appears as the number of users searching for this phrase has dropped back to pre-privacy fiasco levels. Facebook has officially failed to back down on their “Instant Personalization” program and it appears that users definitely don’t really care all that much. ****Scrapper Says use your facebook page and invite all your friends over here. Tell grandpa and grandma they can come too, but they better no lip off about NSFW. When you finish getting all your friends here from all your favorite sites, set the accounts on fire and let the fuckers burn******* I even did the research to find you the link http://www.facebook.com/dea

Would Like Some Input
Without trying to repeat myself too much. I'm an "adoptive" parent at a local zoo. The annual fee goes towards the care, medical, etc. of the animal. In 1991, I adopted a bald eagle named Leah. She was blind in her left eye which is why she was at the zoo. There was no way she could have fended for herself in the wild where she would have roughly lived 25-30 years. Unfortunately, due to a respiratory infection which was complicated by her age of 37, they felt it was better to put her out of her suffering. Even as I type this I'm getting the sniffles. I understand it's a part of life, but it sucks. Since I am an animal lover and I really appreciate the way the animals are cared for at this zoo, I'm looking to adopt another pet. I've narrowed my choices down to three. I just wanted some input here to see what ya'll thought. If you go to the following link: https://www.brookfieldzoo.org/shell/?shttplink=../ecomv2/adoption/adopf08.asp? you'll see a series of drop down boxes. Keep the fir

7/31/2010
its been a very very quiet and boring day...not that i mind. I'd rather be alone today. I had to do the hardest thing I've ever done before yesturday. I have done a lot of crazy things that pretty much everyone I know would categorize as near death experiences. I have been to a lot of places and joined in some wierd customes that kill most people. I have done all of this without so much as flinching, blinking, or breaking a sweat. However, yesturday I put my dog to sleep. she was going to be twelve this year. It probly wouldn't have bothered me much accept I raised her from the runt of the litter to the healthy black lab she became. she was very athletic and prefered the company of people rather than other dogs. she acted like more of a person than a canine. last week i found out that she had a tumor near her stomach and cancer growing around her heart. the vet told me that her time was almost up. When i woke up to take her out to pee yesturday she was unable to walk and

Queen W/ Bowie - Under Pressure
Pressure pushing down on me Pressing down on you no man ask for Under pressure That burns a building down Splits a family in two Puts people on streets Bah bah bah bah bah bah Bah bah bah bah bah bah That's o-kay! It's the terror of knowing What this world is about Watching some good friends Screaming let me out! Pray tomorrow takes me higher Pressure on people People on streets Do do do bah bah bah bah O-kay Chippin' around Kick my brains round the floor These are the days It never rains but it pours People on streets People on streets It's the terror of knowing What this world is about Watching some good friends Screaming let me out! Pray tomorrow takes me higher higher higher Pressure on people People on streets Turned away from it all Like a blind man Sat on a fence but it don't work Keep coming up with love But it's so slashed and torn Why why why? Love love love love Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking Can't we give ourselves one more chance? Why can't we give love that

Just..... Yeah...
So why is it that whenever a friend finds a gf or bf they start to ignore their friends?? I know they dun do it intentionally.. but don´t they realize it kinda hurts? Someone I have known for over 3 years, that I have shared every thought with.. that has come to me for advice regarding issues and relationships.. has now stopped talking to me.. Im happy this person has found someone to share life with.. but at the same time it hurts that Im no longer important... I realize U have Ur own life.. and thats ok.. thats not what Im "bitching" about... its about the fact that Im not even worth a hello anymore... It just hurts to know that I was awsome to be around.. but as soon as U find someone else.. I kinda suck.... *sighs* Guess staying away from people IS the best way to go after all....

It's All About The Pig
If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months & 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee. (Hardly seems worth it.) If you farted consistently for 6 years & 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb. (Now that's more like it!) The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet. (OH MY!) A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes. (In my next life, I want to be a pig.) A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy.) (I'm still not over the pig.) Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories a hour (Don't try this at home, maybe at work) The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off. (Honey, I'm home. What the...?!) The flea can jump 350 times its bo

Words Sent To Me In Sb
Tell me the darkness will lift from our eyes. That the numbness will soon be a memory. Taunt me with the radiance of you smile and laughter. Sever the clouds to show me your silver lining. Strike me with the bolts of your lust and passion. Show me the pain of being mortal and sinnful of caring...

Relationship...
What your getting ready to read I wrote a while back and f that on trying to type that over and over again lol...so I copy and pasted it like any smart man would do!!!>>>!!! I am definitely a person who takes personal gratification in placing others needs before my own and people/relationships are very important to me. I believe that true love means caring about the needs of others and wanting what's best for them. Don't get me wrong though, like my G-ma has been telling for yrs...(which whom is the heart and soul of me) "While you may be speaking from the heart... do it with your future in mind". Helping people can sometimes hurt you :( I wish people came with instruction manuals saying "This is how I really am after 6 months... and if you were smart you wouldn't even try to get into my pants much less want a future with me" lol I like to be funny and make people laugh but when it comes time to be serious... yeah, they call that "life"! I believe in learning

Illegal Immigration
Recently large demonstrations have taken place Across the country protesting the fact that Arizona Is addressing the issue of illegal immigration. Certain people are angry that The US might protect its own Borders, might make it harder To sneak into this country and, Once here, to stay indefinitely. Let me see if I correctly understand The thinking behind these protests. Let's say I break into your house. Let's say that when you discover Me in your house, you insist that I leave. But I say, 'No! I like it here. It's better than my house. I've made all The beds and washed the Dishes and did the laundry And swept the floors. I've Done all the things you don't Like to do. I'm hard-working And honest (except for when I broke into your house). According to the protesters: You are Required to let me stay in your house You are required to feed me

Falling
im fallen down has far as you will let me fall.. when ya gonna catch me if you catch me at all.. the years are flyin by so fast.. i can barely catch my breath.. you said are love was true.. but then you brought me down with you.. in this quicksand called life i am sinking fast getting pulled in.. but you never gave me a second glance.. then i knew it was the end.. we all make mistakes and we cant change what we do.. just wish that i wasnt a mistake done by you.. im fallen down as far as you will let me fall when you gona catch me if you catch me at all..

I Am Not Evil!
Last Sunday, I went to a Chinese buffet place. Once I stepped in there, I got a headache and then started to burn up. So much so that sweat was dripping down my forehead. The waiter was nice until he noticed my symptoms. From that point on he avoided us as much as possible. If they have a ward against evil, then why would I be affected? Do you consider me evil?

Bravado
If we burn our wingsFlying too close to the sunIf the moment of gloryIs over before it's begunIf the dream is wonThough everything is lostWe will pay the price,But we will not count the costWhen the dust has clearedAnd victory deniedA summit too loftyRiver a little too wideIf we keep our prideThough paradise is lostWe will pay the price,But we will not count the costAnd if the music stopsThere's only the sound of the rainAll the hope and gloryAll the sacrifice in vain[And] if love remainsThough everything is lostWe will pay the price,But we will not count the cost

The Reason I Cry
I'm going to turn all your pain aroundI'm going to hold you till you don't need me anymoreI'm going to travel forever and everI'm not going to stop even if I get soreYour My one hope of happinessThe one I can only dream of right nowIf I ever lost you, I'd be afraidBut I'll get over it somehowSo baby, hold me when you are happy.Baby please hold me when your sadHold me, and squeeze me, never let goBecause you are the best That I've ever hadYou are The angel the was meant only for meThe one girl That I want in my lifeYou are the girl of my dreamsThe one who makes my life just rightAnd I would never want you to leave meAnd I never want you to hurtBecause If I see a single tear come from your eyesI promise you, someone will get hurt.You are the butterflies in my stomachYou are the stars I see in the skyYou are many things that I have in my lifeThe only things that really get me byI will never leave you heart brokenIf someone promised you thisI promise you ThatI even loved you from the start

To Those Who Alter, Use, & Claim/tag My Copyrighted Photography As Your Own...
To Those Who Alter, Use, & Claim/Tag MY Copyrighted Pix as Your own... First of all Get an effin Life and Take Your OWN pix to toy with!!! The person(s) in the photos have every right to display them, but not to alter them. I honestly don't mind so much with Certain random photos, but there are certain sets in particular that were set and posed specifically for use in projects I concieved, designed and created. I've seen these photos altered, tagged, and displayed by SOMEBODY else trying to take credit for My work. Read it and weep - Stop altering My Work WITHOUT MY PERMISSION YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, AND YOU DO NOT HAVE MY PERMISSION and Won't - EVER. I find it to be Very disrespectful to take my work and alter parts of it and then stick YOUR tag on it claiming it to be your own. I'm a Professional Photographer/Digital Imager, And the copyrights to the pix I Took are OWNED by Me - NOT the person(s) In the photos. I put a lot of work into some of the Photography and Graphics I've don

Rant Of The Day/employment
As some of you know, during the summer i run an asphalt sealcoating business and it pretty much goes from mid may to mid september. I want to speak to you currently long-term unemployed people whom have not found a job. First, there is no job that is "beneath" you. You are not too good or too educated to do any job. I understand why you think you are as well, with all the hand-outs the governement gives with no incentive to get a job. Second, the value of the american worker I believe has been overhyped due to several factors. 1. union contracts 2. raising of minimum wage 3. politicians who coddle americans just to get a vote NO politician can give you a job, they can only take it away. As Obama has so demonstrated by the term "jobs saved or created" WHAT is a saved job? and what did the government do to save that job? although I am not the biggest Bush supporter in the world, unemployment was, on average, at 4.8%. Obama's 2 year average is at 9.7% unemployment. Th

Corum Golden Bridge Lady Diamond Limited Edition Watch
Some of you will no doubt recognize new Corum Golden Bridge Lady Diamond Watch as a derivative of an existing style they have, to others this unique watch will be all new. Years ago Corum was able to develop a mechanical movement that was shaped like a bar (more or less linear as opposed to square or circular). They placed it in a horizontal fashion in watches. It was incredible to look at as they cased in a traditionally sized squarish case with the movement placed in the middle being showcased through the sapphire crystals. This concept has been adopted here and is now placed horizontally instead of vertically with the new Corum Gold Bridge Lady Diamond watch. The new position of the movement is more flattering to the wrist in the rectangular 41mm x 34mm sized case that comes in either red gold or white gold. Aside from the 180 diamonds on the case and face, and the unique placement of the dial, the real show here is in the mechanical C0113 movement and in watching its ongoing oper

What I Like!!
For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others. MORE ABOUT ME I believe in romance, still, even though most think it has died. I believe in "blessings in disguise". I know a lot of very beautiful people have very ugly intentions. I truly believe in karma and that God has a plan for all of us. Take chances to see who you are and what you can really do; Get out there and put yourself on the edge, see if you f

Am I In The Wrong?
I moved out of my parents house last year and have been living on my own for the past 8 months. moved out of my first house and moved into an apartment with a room mate. my dad and i were the only ones on the lease. the room mate promised that as soon as she got a job she would start contributing to rent. she bought food for the house every month. she swore up and down that she would start looking for jobs. it never happened. yes she bought food, but that doesnt cover the room she was staying in, the utilities and the internet i was paying for. she made a rule that i had to ask her (shes older than me by 2 years) if i could have anyone over. but did i have to ask her? no. she could have anyone over she wanted. oh and she also let people move in. my dad was paying for a 2 bedroom apartment with 5 people living there. nobody paid rent but me. i supplied internet and would barely use it because i was not allowed to be on. a few months go by. i'm still the only one paying rent. andrea mov

Ensign: Hi Mom!
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 5 August 2010 HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM! In the month and a half since my family and I went to visit my mom at a nursing home in Kentucky, I have heard almost nothing but good news! As of late last week, she’s not on her oxygen tank 24/7 and is walking around and taking part in life where she is. At least that’s how I word it, and I thank God for that! The mourning has become dancing (Psalm 30:11), just one promise of His fulfilled when we come before Him with what’s on our heart. Love is not a feeling; it is a willing. I heard that from a minister some days ago and that got me to thinking about the first love you and I probably know, our love for our mother. (You thought I’d say, “love for Go

The "hint" = Space
That’s what I’ve figured.‘They’ say…when a guy is really into you, he’ll be the first to call, the first to text and go out of his way to be with you. Time and time… this has actually come to prove itself to me.So what then when the silence starts? That’s where I’m confused at. In my mind…everything is going fine…but something else is going on in his head.So the “Hint” starts.Which is the guy> Maybe if I stop calling, answering texts, not answer the phone….she will get the hint I’m not interested and just leave me alone.Or if I dont answer she'll figure it out that I just have nothing to say or no response and wont bother me with it....All I can say to that is “REALLY?” that’s so lame. Seriously guys….grow some balls. Even if it’s just a text to say “I’m needing some space give me a few days.” Its better then the silence and not knowing. Deep d

What Is Wrong With Ppl????
Si I am sitting here wondering if you were with someone and they did not trust you after being together for over 3 yrs why would you continue to stick around and try to get that trust???? In all honesty if it is not there by now then it is not gonna come right???? Get out of that relationship now and cut your losses....No amount of love or proof is ever going to change his feelings and if he hasn't learned to trust you by now then you will never have it.... If he lets his son walk all over you then thinks the answer on fighting about it is to just keep what he says and does with his son secret then get the hell out...I mean am I nuts here or am I right???? I been there and done that enough that I think I could honestly say that I am right here...Please do not stay in relationships if you are not happy or you are being treated like crap and then cry about it....All you want by telling me whats going on is for me to give you an answer you already have known all along so the answer is Go

New On The Fu (please Read And Share)
Alright all there has been some improvements to Fubar I must share with you! Fubar's doing some new exciting things and you should all be informed! First... Fubar has a new App on Facebook... So please Add it, Share it, Like it! http://www.facebook.com/apps/application.php?id=203517887171 Second You see the Contest up above the Blast box? You could win $1000 in Cash! Just for referring your friends to fubar! From August 4th to August 18th, the fubar member who gets the MOST friends to join will win $1,000 in cold hard cash! 1st place will receive $1,000 USD cash! 2nd place will receive $500 USD cash! 3rd place will receive $250 USD cash! Top 10 will also receive FREE 1-Year VIP's! Top 20 will also receive a FREE Boomerang & Cherry Bomb! Top 50 will also receive a FREE Famplifier So Please click the link up above and grab your join link and start promoting! Third... have you heard about tagging your photos? Check it out: How to tag your photos on fubar!

Razors Edge
As I sharpen the razors edge, I think about my life, the heartbreak, the failure, the pain and suffering. wondering how I dealt with it for so long. I slice, and leave a clean line down the center. the pain is intense. the cut deep, blood on the keyboard, the blade, the desk. another cut. Thinking of her, thinking of all the things I have lost, my son, my daughter, my love, maybe soon my life. if I can find the courage to push a little deeper, a little harder. Nothing to live for, nothing to lose, no one to miss me when I am gone. Just another empty face on the internet. Another heart broke. Another story without a happy ending. Another soul crushed by itself like the snake that eats it's own tain I devour myself and leave nothing but a faint memory fading into the past....

Love
The beauty within, flowing in the wind. Nothing but Love, stained with passion. The flight of the heart is the most one will ever take. Take Love with all your heart and all your soul, for Love will always win your heart!! By Devilina Demoness Princess Of Darkness

Empty And Alone
sometimes i look out there and seem like i always empty or i just havent found it. many times i have felt this way and alot of times i wish there was someone there there honestly would not care about how crazy my shit on my mind is. if there was someone there to hold me or hug me or anything like that when times come along then that could be something special to me. everytime before i speak i feel that maybe it could be something wrong or blown the wrong way where i know someone could be affected by it or hurt by it . but many things i say and about what i express is just basicly coming from me and noone else. im sure that atleast one person can have a someone to go to about these things and may have an answer or something to build off of instead of running other things in mind and less stress you have to put on before the end of the day.

Heartless
how many times can i decide what i want to do and at times its a hard diffcult challenge. when you have heart that has been threw hell and back and yet i wonder at times. i could find a good girl that i had in the pass or now that could show me what i have been missing or that passion love that i once had when everything was goin so good until it went upside down. many mix feelings are coming at you and they feel like they eatin you up inside and you dont know what to do or what you want to do when that time comes. hard times when they come out at once when you want to control thn and your anger comes out which leads to frustration and its hard mind set to go threw but in the long run that sometime you have to breath and give yourself time to get it together and go from there.

Lessons Learned
this is what i have learned the hard way. maybe it can help someone not to make the same dreadful mistakes. a while ago i lost someone extreamly dear to my heart, do due no one but myself. and she left. it wasnt just my love that i scared away, she was my best friend. i was egotistical, stubborn, i had to be right all the damn time, i couldnt sdmit that i was wrong, and this led to arguments. like an addmission of guilt was a sign of weekness or something, its not, its a sign of maturity. and i wasnt right all the time, not even half the time. it was " i am man hear me roar", and it was very wrong. i didnt listen. she would offer advise, her point of veiw, and i was taken as critisizem. i let the little things bother me and get in the way. i would always talk about money, stupid. i brought aggravation from work home, and that was very wrong. the little things she asked me to do, like put another beer in the fridge after i grab one. and i couldnt do that. she told me that other guy cam

Probably
I probaly have written this before, but here it goes: Heaven, Paradise, the Garden of Eden, also known as Gan Eden, exists in Jewish thought, the spiritual Garden of Eden is a place where souls are rewarded by being in God's presence. Hell, Purgatory, Gehinnom: does exist in Jewish thought, it is a temporary state of souls not feeling the presence of God, the longest a soul is there is for eleven months. Reincarnation, Gilgul: Does exist in normative Jewish thought, but is not a main point. Gilgul is for those in their past life or lives before they go to Gan Eden ,need to repair something in their souls. So when someone tells me there is no heaven or Hell or Reincarnation in Jewish thought, they are either being ingenuous, ignorant, or altogether stupid!

Marriage
MARRIAGE When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life

Mummers
Somehow, when I wasn't looking. I became a true mummer. Mummers must make comments to strangers, or even friends, and voice their opinions.--wanted or not--in any forum that lets them type in a comment. The comments can be funny, sarcastic, clever or nasty. A poster is pretty much at the mercy of the mood of the writer. Anything can and does happen in mumms. I recently became aware it was a real part of who I am. My job blocked access to anything truely fun on the internet. Some jackoff was looking at porn at work & ruined it for everyone. All streaming media, chat methods, and online communities have been blocked. Even e-mail is gone. All I can do is read the news, look things up, and Ebay. Some of you may be readers of the "OMG" page. It is celebrity news & photos. There are places under the pictures and stories for people to voice their opinions. I have found that because I have no access to Fubar all day, I spend WAY more time than I should in that site making comments (base

Bitches
Ya know, for the sake of your children, you should be nice. At least care enough to put your child first and be civil with your ex. It's not that hard. It doesn't take a lot of energy to do such a thing. I do it EVERYDAY of my life. As much as I HATE my ex, I care enough about my child to put him FIRST and be civil. It wasn't always easy at first, but we made it work. So to you, you know who you are, quit being a selfish ass cunt and for the KIDS, who are starting to become the VICTIMS, put your anger aside and be an adult here. You may not have to care enough to want to talk to him, but you do NEED to talk to him and be civil with him for yalls kids. THAT is what matters. Have a nice fucking day.

"above The Noose""
Her eyes, the color of wet pavement, So cold, so empty, so close to death, Still hold one glimmer of life\As they stare from above the nose, Slipknot close to the skin of her neck, Rickety chair unbalanced beneath her toes, Flesh clammy and wet, hair unkempt and filled with sweat Around her throat, she grasps the constricting cord, Her hands shaking with indecision and fear, Yet, the act is so simple, so clear Eyes, once full of shimmering hope, Now glanceing up at the knotted rope, Are only filled with tears, Her lifes a debt she cannot afford With one deep inhaled breath, Placing her hands across her breasts, Eyelids blocking the light from the room, Teeth bared, gaining strength, Nails cutting through her palms, Blood dripping to the floor, Her feet rock the chair until it tumbles.

Feelings
man i don't know what has come over me, but cant stop the feeling. I wonder what will come of this by chance thing, I hope something eternal comes of it, man this shit just has me mesmerized point blank period.

Vive Le Revolucion
Insurrectionby phnortgner All men under heaven, They're right to die Fighting for gods They've served in life. Wake Brother Drone, From your systemic delirium. Abandon comfortable Numb distraction and rise. Sound your war cry, "TO WAR, TO WAR!!!" For The People, At the top of your lungs, "TO WAR!!!" Whose children will say We knew but did nothing? Break dawn, Sun on our backs, Rise from prayer, Our Silhouettes blacken the horizon. Haunting death shadows Stretched beyond their trembling feet. Now's the time. Naked and Painted Set your hair afire and Charge on to glory.

Underpaid
I'm so fucking sick of my job right now. I'm underpaid I'm over work. I mean such as we don't have an airconditioner in are area of work. my boss is to fucking cheap to give any of us a raise or get us what we need so we can do the fucking job and to get it done faster and I'm sick of being the only one to has to clean the fucking back bathroom when there are 12 other people in the back.

Couple Ready For Child # 20!! Are They Nuts?
Cover StoryThe Duggars: We're Open to Having a 20th ChildMichelle and Jim Bob Duggar have always been open about their willingness to have children. But when the devout Baptists and stars of TLC's 19 Kids and Counting faced the catastrophic aftereffects of their 19th child's premature birth, many assumed they might be done.But now the couple – who only recently brought baby Josie home after being hospitalized for six months as she recovered from a perforated bowel and rare digestive problems – say they are ready to consider a 20th child."Our family is stronger than ever," Jim Bob, 45, tells PEOPLE in its new issue. "We made it through the storm."RELATED: Baby Josie Duggar Gains 10 Lbs. Since BirthThat's not to say that everything has been easy with baby Josie. Born early after Michelle developed preeclampsia (pregnancy-induced high blood pressure), Josie was just 8 days old when a perforated bowel threatened her life."When she first came home, I couldn't sleep at all," says

A Woman's Poem
A Woman's Poem He didn't like the casseroleAnd he didn't like my cake,He said my biscuits were too hardNot like his mother used to make.I didn't perk the coffee rightHe didn't like the stew,I didn't mend his socksThe way his mother used to do.I pondered for an answerI was looking for a clue.Then I turned around andsmacked the crap out of him....Like his mother used to do.******************************************I love a good poem, don't you?!?!

My Fav Movie Quotes
And the Lord spoke, saying, "First shalt thou take out the Holy Pin. Then, shalt thou count to three, no more, no less. Three shalt be the number thou shalt count, and the number of the counting shalt be three. Four shalt thou not count, neither count thou two, excepting that thou then proceed to three. Five is right out! Once the number three, being the third number be reached, then lobbest thou thy Holy Hand Grenade of Antioch towards thou foe, who, being naughty in my sight, shall snuff it."

I Don't Even Know My Last Name
Just so everyone is on the same page. . .I am no longer working, I was fired today. I was a contractor employee with Aerotek working at Unisys. Well my first paycheck came on a Friday afternoon and I could not get to the bank until Saturday morning. When I got to the bank the girl gave me a hard time because Aerotek put my full name that I do not use, and I do not like to talk about, on the check. I told the ladies at Aerotek about it and they told me that there is nothing they can do because of some I-9 Compliance thing saying they have to use the name on my Social Security card. Well I have worked for 6 other companies, not counting Aerotek, and none of them used the name on my Social Security card they always just used the name I asked them to use. And you have to think the one company I worked for Discover Financial Services, they would have to follow all the rules and what not because when I started with them they were under the Morgan Stanley umbrella. So I get fired becau

Exgirlfriends
so tonight at work.. i am standing in the vip room and in walks jenny.. my exgirlfriend... first thing she does is say omg mel! kiss me! i was like... doood... cameras.. work... (thinking chick i havent seen you much in the past couple of years... wierddd) anyway.. her ride decided to leave her.. so i brought her home... whole time she is like.. i missed you.. you look amazing... get to her house.. she grabs me and kisses me.. i was like.. ummm.. she then starts asking me to stay there and stuff... Ya know.. I would have stayed.. except.. i relized that she is all pilled out.. and i was PISSED.... shes a great chick.. but ffs.. i am not into the pills like that.. once in a while.. cool.. but she has been taking shit so much that she is FUCKED up... not attractive.. so.. rather than fingerbanging my ex... i am at home... smoking a bowl... yay

My Love
my love i will love you till the sun burns out hold you till a new one comes i love you as fish love the ocean only breaching for air you are my world i will love you till the end of this one past the edge of the next what is time? a way of tracking of knowing just how long i will love you time is past, present and forver my love for you is timeless without end this is how long i will love you

Meanings Of Words
Does anyone look up and ascertain the meanings of words before they use them, or are people just into using inflammatory language. This a general question. A. People think they know B. Assholes C. People actually find out definitions

Absence
My love is like the sun that warms me when im cold and like the cold water of the brook that refreshes me My love knows the secret pleasures of my soul and delights with me in fulfilling them Who is my love but the soul of my soul and the reason for every beat of my heart Who fills me with life just being in his presence and returns to me more then i have given Come to me my love I die without you Each day is eternity waiting for your touch Remove the tears from my eyes and the ache in my heart Be closer to my breath for all my day and all my nights

And Then...
Wow...some people's ignorance is really the standing point of my dictation through life. Stupidity is my muse and my inspiration...I'm not one to talk down to anyone but this insane cycle of take and take without any give causes my heart to hurt and my soul to weep for the outcome of the world given the society that has been born from the era of the seventies and eighties...

More Stuff Off My Chest
Ya know, when you have experienced what i have in the short 21 years I have walked this earth, some thing don't rattle you as much as it use to. I may sound like an old guys talking about his life but i feel as though i need to tell you something(you as in people who care for me) ya know i have seen alot of things and done alot of things that i never thought i would have and there are mistakes i've made in life and well i know im gonna make alot more lol but ya know I have been told by some that when i turned 18 that i basiclly matured over night because i moved out 5 days after i turned 18 and 2 weeks after that i got my first job and i still work that job to this day. I'm not as much of wild child as i used to be,but you might be sitting there thinking,"Your only 21 your suppose to be a wild child" lol well ya know every1 is different lol ya know. But one day i saw my mother on here and i thought very little of this site but 1 night i decided wth ill give it a shot and boom here i am

Obama Caves Again Pushing His Agenda Of Muslims
The Cordoba Initiative, What Does That Mean? The phrase and underlying belief that for anyone who doesn't know history will be doomed to repeat it is playing out in our daily news today. Unfortunately, most of us have missed it by not knowing the significant history of it. I must admit that I missed it as well. That is in regard to the Cordoba Initiative Mosque near Ground Zero. The discussion on this ranges from that it is insensitive to that it's their Constitutional right to freedom of religion to build it where ever they please. The discussion goes back in forth on who is this Imam, who is behind the finances, and how we must protect the rights of those we disagree with, to protect our own through our Constitution. However, were is the discussion of the meaning on the name, the history behind this name, and the obvious intersection with this location for this mosque? The site of the 9/11 World Trade Center attack in NYC has been made into a permanent memorial in remembrance

Love
Love is a battle We fight, throw things at each other Things flying here and there The battle lost or win There is no glory In the end, it was just a silly step Love is a war We does ugly things To piss at each other Humiliation,insults and in many other forms The war itself is ugly When its over We wonder is it worth it Love is a growing up We see ups and downs We see hopes fades We make mistakes But, that is part of growing up We had no idea what it leads to We take risks We fail and we pick up We learn as we grow up Love is hard It is even harder when You stop trying Some things don't last forever But some things do Love is that kind of thing

Naughty Appt
REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE OR LEAVE A COMMENT ON HERE. DONT BE AFRAID. LET THE FUN BEGIN........ Your Name: Age: Favorite position: 1. Do you think I'm cute?. 2. Would you have sex with me? 3. lights on or off? 4. Would you have to be drunk? 5.Would you take a shower with me? 6.Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 7.Would you leave after or stay the night? 8.Do you like cuddling afterwards? 9.Condom or skin? 10. Have sex on the first date? 11.Would you kiss me during sex? 12.Do you think I would be good in bed? 13. Would you use me as a booty call? 14.Can I use you as a booty call? 15.Can we take pictures of the act? 16.How long would we have sex? 17.Would you tell your friends about me? 18.Would you want me for a b/f , g/f or friend? 19.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

I Can't Stop Loving You
1. Put Your MP3 Player on Shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds! 4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name. ------------------------- What do your friends think of you? Mad World - Gary Jules [well if the shoe fits?] If someone says, "Is this okay?" Disco Club - Black Eyed Peas [umm surreee] How would you describe yourself? Hide - Red What do you like in a guy/girl? Up Against the Wall - Boys Like Girls [lol?] How do you feel today? Byrdgirl - Mathew Sweet What is your life's purpose? Scars - Papa Roach [good to know?] What is your motto? Famous Last Words - Jars of Clay What do you think about very often? Bodies - Drowning Pool What do you think of your best friend? Tears Dont Fall - Bullet for My Valentine What do you think of the person you like? Everything to Loose - Trapt What is your life story? Last Tattoo - Rehab What do you want to be when you

Heading For Home
My husband and I had to leave our friends' farm and truly head for home today. We rode just under 400 miles and are resting in a comfy hotel right now. Tomorrow's goal is our oldest daughter's house where we plan to spoil our granddaughter as much as possible in the few hours we will be there. We rode interstate today and it was UGLY. I miss twisty farm roads but we are on the home stretch so from now on we are all about speed. We are in the midst of a heat wave so we're drinking a lot of water and stopping every 150 miles or so to stretch, eat, gas up, and rest a bit. I'm trying to enjoy the scenery but today was the most difficult trip of my whole vacation. I think I'm just exhausted. I also am very excited to get home. I have eggs due to hatch on Wed. and I hope to be home to take care of them. If you see me out on my little Harley, honk! Keeping the rubber side down, Lisa Ann *Drama Queen*

The Worst Day Since Yesterday
It really was. . . Today we told that there is nothing left for the doctors to do to help Grandma, and they are turning her care over to a hospice group. All I can do is cry anymore.For those of you who don't know, my grandma was more of a mom to me, then anything else. I always ran to her when I needed to talk, and now I have no idea how much longer I will be able to do that. The doctor doesn't want to give us a time frame, so it doesn't get stuck in our heads of when Grandma is going to pass, which I don't know if that is making it harder on me or not.From here on out all I can say when someone asks me how I am, is “Ok,” or “alright.” No I'm not any of those two things, but I don't want to spend an hour talking about all of the things that is going on. The only other person that truly understands what I am feeling and what I am going through is my mom. But at the same time I can't help but to be so envy of my mom because she got to spend so much more ti

Pyramid
The morning sun shines as the sky warms up like a beating heart. The night time stars glow in the presence of beauty, giving a spot light on whom most deserves it. The earth rotates only to move slowly, it seems to dance in circles. The ocean waves grace the shore, crashing upon the rocks. Energy in life is alive. The moon makes a trail to follow so nothing ever seems as scary........just for you. If I take your hand will you dance with me? Let me move your body as if we have our own music. If I lean in to kiss you lips will you greet me half way? If I want to walk with you, go any where and see anything would you come? When you get tired, rest your head on my lap. I will be their when you awake. Still running my fingers through your hair.....just for you.

Naughty...fill Out
REPLY IN A PRIVATE MESSAGE OR LEAVE A COMMENT ON HERE. DONT BE AFRAID. LET THE FUN BEGIN........ Your Name: Age: Favorite position: 1. Do you think I'm cute?. 2. Would you have sex with me? 3. lights on or off? 4. Would you have to be drunk? 5.Would you take a shower with me? 6.Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 7.Would you leave after or stay the night? 8.Do you like cuddling afterwards? 9.Condom or skin? 10. Have sex on the first date? 11.Would you kiss me during sex? 12.Do you think I would be good in bed? 13. Would you use me as a booty call? 14.Can I use you as a booty call? 15.Can we take pictures of the act? 16.How long would we have sex? 17.Would you tell your friends about me? 18.Would you want me for a b/f , g/f or friend? 19.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Okay This Is Against My Better Judgement This Is Something I Wrote Not To Long Ago That I Wasn't Gonna Put Up But It Should Be Here With The Rest.
They embrace, with a fire that could burn the world, touching feeling, caressing exploring each other for the first time. They have known each other only in spirit, never dared dreaming of this occasion where their bodies are entwined as much as their hearts have been since they first spoke. Now their bodies are doing the talking, biting, scratching, tasting, grinding they make sweet love and lose themselves in each others arms. As the hours move past they are still locked in the lovers embrace not wanting the moment to end, never wanting to have to leave the other for even a second, in fear that something will happen to take them away from each other. Never wanting to let go of the love they have searched for all of their life, and will never find again...

Hurt Nin
What have I become?My sweetest friendEveryone I knowGoes away in the endYou could have it allMy empire of dirtI will let you downI will make you hurtI wear this crown of shitUpon my liar's chairFull of broken thoughtsI cannot repairBeneath the stains of timeThe feelings disappearYou are someone elseI am still right hereWhat have I become?My sweetest friendEveryone I knowGoes away in the end

Important Educational Info
I don't often blog, but I came across some information sent to me by my school (University of Phoenix), and those of you also attending this institution should have also received it. Our government wants to limit financial aid and offer it almost solely to those who attend traditional classrooms/colleges. Our president has openly admitted that high education is on of the greatest economic crises we face today. So how would limiting financial aid even further help this crisis? UoP alone has helped countless individuals attain their higher education goals. While some simply don't WANT to use the tradition colleges, some of us just can't because we have jobs and/or children that demand our physical presence. There are numerous other on-line colleges already instituted and no doubt more will come. If someone asks you to sign a petition opposing the government's newest bad idea, please please please do so. Everyone has the right to further their education in whatever ways they ca

Throw Up Your Official Fubar Street Team Sign! Werd!
FST Sign Contest!!! Ok so I'm doing a little Contest Folder thing yeah thats right! What What... I want you to show me your Sign! For Every Sign I recieve I'll send you Fubucks.... How much you ask? Well let me tell ya... 15K for erry sign But I want them Unique! Which means you got to go out on the street and salute me a Sign! Want a bling? Throw me up a sign with a group of people holding a www.fubar.com Flyer and Yup I'll bling You! So I'll break it down for you: Every Unique Sign I get I'll give you 15K in Fubucks For Every Unique Group Sign I get with your group holding www.fubar.com Flyers I'll Bling You! WINGS REPRESENT!!!

When You Were A Kid Or You Were An Itch In Your Daddy's Pants.
Many of you were born during, or after, the "Cold War". None of you know that the "Cold War", was just as hot as Iraq and Afghanistan. Except we weren't fighting terrorists, who are cowards and shitpiles anyway, due to some jihad. No, we were fighting worldwide annihilation against ORGANIZED, WHOLE FUCKING ARMIES. While you were a baby, or your mom and dad were humping it to create you, myself and others were all over the damn place eliminating threats so you could sleep at night, and not have to wear 5 million sunblock from multiple 350 kiloton nuclear warheads launched by some Soviet (yes, Soviet- not CIS) missile sub or land based silo, or rail based system. You didn't have to practice "duck and cover" (ask your grandparents about Dwight Eisenhower's solution- dig a hole) to protect you in school. So, despite the fall of the Soviet Union, their missiles are still out there, but now free to purchase. Doesn't matter if they are. Because those warheads were, and still are, targeted at

Would It Matter
If I wasn't here tomorrow would anybody careIf my time was up I'd wanna knowYou were happy I was thereIf I wasn't here tomorrow would anyone lose sleepIf I wasn't hard and hollowThen maybe you would miss meI know I'm a mess and I wanna be someoneSomeone that I'd like betterI can never forget, so dont remind me of it foreverWhat if I just pulled myself togetherWould it matter at allWhat if I just tried not to rememberWould it matter at allAll the chances that have passed me byWould it matter if I gave it one more tryWould it matter at allIf I wasn't here tomorrow would anybody careStill stuck inside this sorrowI got nothin and going nowhereI know I'm a mess and I wanna be someoneSomeone that I'd like betterCan you help me forget, dont wanna feel like this forever What if I just pulled myself together Would it matter at all What if I just tried not to remember Would it matter at all All the chances that have passed me by Would it matter if I gave it one more try Would it matter at allIf

Weird Sb Stuff
10:28pm..He asked me here not to delete him, cuz my stat said I was going through my list..That all the sb deletedNOT so PRE...: I wont, you rate me and never beg for stuff10:32pmBnC: I jus beg to see ur "privates"............. but u r of course too CHICKEN!! 10:33pmNOT so PRE...: honey I don't have nudes just me in my undies and bra10:33pmNOT so PRE...: and I'm am shy10:33pmBnC: I never said a word bout any nudes!10:33pmNOT so PRE...: is that all you want my dear10:34pmNOT so PRE...: you should love how i leave you to wonder10:34pmBnC: no dats not all I want! sheesh10:39pmBnC: but it would be a nice start!! hehe10:45pmBnC: hummmmmmm what?!?10:48pmBnC: or nm then.. sorry for tryin!10:52pmNOT so PRE...: honey I'm sorry, I'm returning rates..I got a lot today hun...Humm was me thinking10:53pmBnC: my bad for interrupting ya then.. bye10:54pmNOT so PRE...: your not hun..I'm just trying to get everyone paid back here...I'm almost done..if you need to go I'll see ya tomorrowAugust 18, 201012

Ride
I'm not the one that got away I'm the one you could never catch I'm not the girl of your dreams I'm the one that would make you wanna scream I'm not just some random girl I'm the one living atop the world Where the sun is so bright it makes you forget the past and say good riddance to the night I've become all that you think you need In the silence of your sleep Cherished upon for your meaningless dreams I'm not the one you wish me to be I am simply the one that will forever be me You can try to change me Or readjust my fate I'll come out swinging every time With this smile upon my face Knowing I am tough enough to keep running this race

When I'm With You
The earth, moon, and stars.All the heavens above.For when I think of you,they cannot hold all my love.The expanding universe,is the best example I know,to best describe,how much I love you so.There is no limit on love.This you should always know,for now and all eternity,my love for you will grow. I Love You Michelle.

Puppies & Chaos
PUPPIES & CHAOS My puppy ate my favorite boots My fault for leaving them out I am angry at the loss of my boots My puppy does what puppies do So why am I angry at my puppy? He's all cute & shit What does he have to do with it? I just see my torn up boots Showing me That I didn't put my boots away From those cute little teeth My anger is me

Girls
GIRLS ARE LIKE APPLES ON TREES. THE BEST ONES ARE AT THE TOP OF THE TREE. THE BOY'S DON'T WANT TO REACH FOR THE GOOD ONES BECAUSE THEY'RE AFRAID OF FALLING AND GETTING HURT. INSTEAD, THEY JUST GET THE ROTTEN APPLES FROM THE GROUND THAT AREN'T AS GOOD, BUT EASY. SO&

Haikus Light And Dark
Dark times If I face defeat, The night will grow as blood flow My strength will be gone. Fire on a blue lake, Home of evil and sad souls, All emotion lost. Bright times I now see the light, My passion and heart grow strong, An angel I love. Only one angel Of many brings me pure light, We finally meet. Fire and light will join To bring peace to our sad hearts, Our joined hands will heal. When I did meet you, Fall became spring as light shines Across great beauty. I will protect you, no godly force can stop me, I will help heal you.

Welcome
You may be wondering what this is. You may be wondering why I made it. Have no fear. I've come up with a way to dumb-down even the simplest tasks on Fubar, so you will have no problems spamming people with your bomb link, getting your salute approved, as well as other mundane tasks. Let me be your guide. For any concerns you have about how Fubar works, you best stop is the following:The Fubar help section, which can be found here. The Fubar Bible, for all of your simple questions, such as "What is all this Angel/Demon business?" can be found here.The Fubar support lounge, for instant help, can be found here. If you want to learn out to point-whore, I suggest you enroll in Pedro's Point Whore Academy, also known as PPWA. This can be found here. Granted, you will have to befriend him first to know those secrets. If you want to hear about some of the going-ons on Fubar, try JohnnyDevil. I hear he tells people I'm nice though, so don't trust him too much. His blog can be found here, he

Here Is The Fucking Deal....
Don't like me? I don't care. Don't want to talk? I don't care. Think I'm a bitch? I am. I don't put up with bullshit. I've experienced it too much in my young life to deal with it on a fucking website. Delete me, de-fan me, do whatever the hell you want to do because it will not phase me in the least bit. If I don't talk to you, it is because I do not want to. Get over it. There is no rule on Fubar that says I must talk to everyone who talks to me. Get real. I am who I am and I will not change for any of you. If you want to be my friend, a real friend - not just a number on your page - then OK, but don't be surprised if I tell you to fuck off if you treat me wrong. For all those that I am just a number, I don't care, but don't try and pretend like it is anything more then that. That is all. Fuckers.

Girlfriend Application
Application for Girlfriend1.Name___________________2.Height__________________3. Been married Yes____ No_____ 3a. If yes how many times_______4.How do you feel about bald men_________________________5.How do you feel about children__________________________6.Hair color_______________________7. Eye color_________________8.Do you have any childern Yes____ No____8a.If yes how many_____________8b.Ages________________8c.Boy_____ Girl_________

Homegrown Kush Hooking Up Fubar! Free Mix Tape
HomeGrown Kush from Bermuda are personal friends of mine. I met them through kiteboarding and good friends. They are just young guys making good music and trying to come up. They signed on the site a few weeks ago and love the fubar community. Please download their FREE mix tape. It is legit and there are no viruses or bugs. It is a yousendit file. Once downloaded you can open it and add them to whatever you play your music. Spread the HomeGrown Kush Love Add, them fan them buy them bling! Repost this bulletin please and let them know that fubar is the place! HomeGrown KusH@ fubar FREE Mix Tape Download! 30 MP3's Check these guys out and tell your friends. https://www.yousendit.com/download/K0JSUXVrQXA5bEEwTVE9PQ

Things Of Value
All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are not lost; The old that is strong does not whither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost. can you name the source of this, if so please consider adding me as a friend.

~i Burned It~
I burned your picture today && it felt good The letters.. the silly little notes you'd written doodles && i love yous I burned them && it felt good I swear, I thought I'd lost those things somewhere along the way But I found them in my things today && I burned them Yeah.. the birthday cards I burned them The drawings && the love notes Yeah.. I burned them The ribbon you sent me on Valentine's day Yeah.. I burned it The picture.. The one picture I ever had The one of you I I burned it.. && it felt good Funny how things turn out.. Even more pecular, are the things that give release. My flames have never let me down, so why would they start now?? I've burned away your memory.. The flames love the way you taste. I've burned away those memories.. with a smile on my face ~Fyre~

California Forests & Environment
California holds within it the most diverse environment on the planet. In the midst of summer, Point Reyes is the coolest place in the Continental United States. Death Valley is known as the hottest, driest place in the United States where temperatures consistently reach over 120 F (49 C) during summer months. In 1925 a giant sequoia located in California's Kings Canyon National Park was named the nation's national Christmas tree. The tree is over 300 feet (91 m) in height. Inyo National Forest is home to the bristle cone pine, the oldest living tree species. Some of the gnarled trees which only grow at very high elevations are thought to be over 4,600 years old. “General Sherman,” in Sequoia National Park is a 3,500-year-old sequoia tree. Its trunk is 102 feet (32 m) in circumference. The California redwood is a prehistoric tree. All trees are descended from the redwood. The coastal climate along the Pacific Ocean protected them from the great ice sheets

Morning Coffee
That night Dead to the world Before Head to the girl Now Out like a light Round Bout like a fight Both Left battered and bruised Never that That is "I lose" Always win Rounds bout 10 Doubt bout ends Know no Bounds Throw no towels Released the flow The Heat can go To unknown hours No Bosh No Wade No James Still reign supreme As King, No Games Hold names But none hold a candle If texting "OMG" So ample Dim Is the lamps glow Hot Like a camps glow Unlike a man's, no But bout like a camel Am bout animal "That's Wat She Said" X pill witout the pill Thats where shes led Follow the drip Follow the Drip Thats the sheet's bed Pardon Bed Sheets Hit so hard My head leaks Bandaid She's made Relay She's 1st, 2nd, and 3rd I'll come up last My leg's Anchored Thanked her She's freshly brewed Columbian, black, cream, sugar Wat a mess, but due ~IM AWAKE

The Conception
Let me introduce to you Jon. Jon is a grey squirrel from the city. He was born somewhere near that big oak you see every day, during your 5-minute walk through the park, as part of your eco-friendly commute to work. His parents provided for him, giving what what he needed, but rarely the unnecessary things that he wanted. So, they never did buy him that cue stick or "Billards: Advanced Technique" book that he always wanted. They would tell him that his hands were too small to play pool. They would tell him that he would never be able to play pool as well as his neighbours - the Cats. Okay, so they didn't actually TELL him that - no decent parent is that heartless - but Ricky Cat was always teasing Jon about his small hands, and Mr. and Mrs. Squirrel didn't want Jon suffering from a lack of self esteem. However, the Squirrels instead taught little Jon how to sew. They taught him how to plant growing things. One year, they even taught their beloved son how to make baskets! All of his fr

Wanting U....
I sit and wonder if u truly notice me.....we chat back and forth, but thats as far as it goes. U say u like me but how can I be sure. My heart has been shattered and Im terrified to love again?? Im always the girl waiting in the wings instead of center stage....U can say its my fault thou, Im way to scared of rejection when it comes to matters of the heart. Maybe Im wanting u to chase me, to really CHASE ME!! Demand my attention, break down the walls that I have put up, fight for my heart......for now, I will admire u from afar(h) till next time my prince.....kisses Sounds kind of stalkish, huh? lmaooo Well Im not a stalker just have a crush on someone that Im too shy to tell them....

Mfkn Is Back
This is THE SLUT! I got the homepage back up and running and HERE IS THE DEAL! We have been gone for a while because MFKN became a joke to most members who called themselves MFKN and lost control of the homepage and it was SAD to say the least. WELL Lately MFKN members have been being rude full of drama and that is UNACCEPTABLE! We are MFKN ...MFKN for LIFE means MFKN FOR MFKN LIFE! So... We are going to start this whole thing from scratch. You want to remain MFKN SB Me. Many were saying "The founder gave me MFKN" 1st off It was not one person's to give 5 founders created MFKN NOT ONE! Have you all forgotten about MFKN Family? not the 10 of you who are close ALL MFKN ALL ALL ALL!!!!!! You have an issue bring it to the Founders (the people in the top family) Lets do this right.

Metal Rewindmyspace.com/music/blog/201…
Who: The former Texas glam rockers who became one of the heaviest metal bands on Earth, Pantera. Album: Cowboys From Hell (listen here while reading) http://t.co/DyQd8JS Released: July 24, 1990 Why it’s important to you: “Pantera’s music still inspires me and I’m sure millions of other folks around the globe” —from the band’s MySpace profile, written by J from Birmingham, England Their story: Few bands in history have undergone such a profound musical shift midway through their career as Pantera did on Cowboys From Hell. Released in 1990, with a deluxe reissue planned to hit shelves next month through Rhino, it was technically the Arlington, Texas band’s fifth album. Teenage brothers “Diamond” Darrell Abbott (guitar) and Vinnie Paul Abbott (drums) started Pantera in 1981 and self-released their first four discs while slogging through the trenches of a Southern club circuit that included Texas, Oklahoma,

For Friends
The world spins in one direction, But my heart can go many ways. Sometimes my words remain dark, Sometimes they lighten with the day. If my words never changed, I think I would grow nomore. Just like the sun not always shining, Sometimes the rain must pour. So please grow with me,And share all that I have to show. More of myself will open up, The whole true me then you will know

Thank You!!!
I WOULD LOVE TO THANK EVERYBODY ON FUBAR THAT BEEN SHOWING ME LOVE. I KNOW I'VE BEEN GONE FOR OVER A YEAR, BUT I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE AND RESPECT THAT YOU'VE BEEN GIVING ME. THANKS EVERYONE WHO'S BEEN THERE ME FOR THE PAST 3 YEARS I'VE BEEN ON HERE. MUCH LOVE AND RESPECT! MNEWB

Who Cheats?
Who Cheats?Today's topic covers an issue very close to many of us. most people have experienced a cheating partner, or have cheated, themselves. Most of us haven't really thought about the reasons for this with any level of objectivity, though. Usually, the experience is far too painful for any amount of emotional distancing.I realize that what I'm about to say is rather controversial, and I'm certain I'll get plenty of angry messages, but I firmly believe that EVERYONE has the capacity to cheat. No one believes that they are the "type", yet so many find themselves doing just that. It's far more productive to examine WHY people cheat, rather than WHICH people cheat.Many of you have now deduced that, because I can say such things, I MUST have cheated on someone. The reality is, I've been cheated on in nearly every relationship I've been involved in. Despair.com has a saying that reads, "DYSFUNCTION: The only consistent feature in all of your dissatisfying relationships is you." While th

Girl Kill's Herself Because Of Online Bullying
Megan Meier was in great spirits after she began corresponding with a 16-year-old named Josh Evans. They exchanged messages for six weeks before he abruptly ended the friendship, telling her he had heard she was cruel. The next day, Megan, who suffered from depression and attention deficit disorder, committed suicide. Her parents later discovered that Josh had never existed but was a fictitious persona created by a woman neighbour whose daughter had been friends with Megan until they fell out. The woman, who attended the funeral before being exposed, reportedly told police she invented the profile because she wanted to gain Megan's confidence and find out what the girl was saying about her own child online. She also told police that she, her daughter and another girl had all been involved in the ruse, helping to write messages from "Josh" to Megan. Following a lengthy investigation, no charges have been brought in the case, enraging Megan's parents who are determined to see those r

My Big Sister
I watch as you go day to day And I see the struggles you go through But yet your always there To offer whenever we need someone. People say that change is good But the only thing I want to change Is the struggles you have to endure Just know that I love you. I hope you know that without you This part of my life would be unbearable YOu help me see that I can do this You are not taken for granted. I want you to know that I am proud To be able to say, Thats my Big Sister And to know that no matter what I will always look up to you For showing me the right path. I Love You!!!!!!

A Letter To My Lover
Hello my love, I don't know why, but I've always been better at expressing myself on paper, than I ever was verbally. I keep reviewing your email from Friday, especially in my head. The words haunt me. I cried myself to sleep Friday, and it was all I could do to get through the weekend without tears falling, several times I failed. My heart was lacerated by your words. I can understand the guilt you might feel over your family. I'm sure that if the roles were reversed I would too. I know you don't want to hurt me, but unfortunately, it's too late for me not to be hurt. I'm not saying this to pass along more guilt or any blame, it's just a statement of fact. My heart is too involved at this point for what you said not to have hurt, even though you did assure me that it wasn't that you didn't want to see my any more, but you just needed to step back and gain some perspective. Please don't think that I don't understand where you're coming from, I do. I can understand the need to step ba

Some Q And A
1. What is your best friends name? dont have a best friend anymore passed away 2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now? dark blue 3. What are you listening to right now? eminem mosh 4. Whats your favorite number? 31 5. What was the last thing you ate? chocolate honey bun 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? blue 7. How is the weather right now? chilly 8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone? a telemarketer 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes 10. Do you have a significant other? yes 11. Favorite TV show? royal pains/gene simmons family jewels 12. Siblings? 2 brothers 13. Height? 6'7'' 14. Hair color? black 15. Eye Color? hazel green 16. Do you wear contacts? no 17. Favorite Holiday? Halloween 18. Month? october 19. Have you ever cried for no reason? no 20. What was the last movie you watched? paul blart mall cop 21.

Cabin Fever
The stench of gun powder and burnt flesh permeates the air all around him, as shots ring out from the rookie. The Sergent realizes that his squad is pinned, they are stuck in this cabin with undead hordes surrounding them. One of the creatures bursts through the door and he opens up with his mk 48 shredding it. It was a soldier so he searches it for more ammo, and finds a couple clips to keep them going that much longer, but he hears them in the basement. Then the lights go out, and he knows, they are coming. then CRASH a large blue one wearing tattered remains of an admirals uniform. Without hesitation he opens up with a lead storm and shouts "BIG BLUE BASEMENT DOOR!!!" and as one his squad turns and unload. The monster explodes in a purple cloud and chokes him, he feels strange Dropping his gun, he shambles forward and grabs the rookie, and bites down, slowly slipping as the virus takes over his body. His last conscious thought is but I was going home this week, I was going to see

Why Dont You Just Stay
I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wallAnd I've been laying here praying, praying she won't callIt's just another call from homeAnd you'll get it and be goneAnd I'll be cryingAnd I'll be begging you, babyBeg you not to leaveBut I'll be left here waitingWith my Heart on my sleeveOh, for the next time we'll be hereSeems like a million yearsAnd I think I'm dyingWhat do I have to do to make you seeShe can't love you like me?Why don't you stayI'm down on my kneesI'm so tired of being lonelyDon't I give you what you needWhen she calls you to goThere is one thing you should knowWe don't have to live this wayBaby, why don't you stayYou keep telling me, baby

[why Is Cnn On?]
and why the FUCK are we talking about Katrina again?Makes me think back to a couple jobs where all day news stations were the only permissable programming. Usually foxand my single act of defiance was flipping to CNN.today is the "serves me right"too much caffeine. I'm pretty sure today is going to be on the same bent.TodayLedeux's mask. Maybe a matinee.Big emphasis.I should really call someone about COBRAand I should really ....ohI should really apply for unemploymentbut I was thinking about booty.SoHi Nu is $80Nu is $50HUGE Gundam is 80.Yeah... that's $210 for 3 kits.But ... they're really fucking bomb kits.We'll see what mental state I am after I finish my Zeta C+Anyone for some Gianna porn and more coffee?I think the main reason I'm not inclined to leave my house is ...uhohI'd need to shaveand probably get the stank off.That's a lot more work than moving 10 feet to my recliner and playing Fallout 3.

Dirty Office Visit - "delivery For You!"
I walk into your office... and look around to see if anyone is close by... I walk around your desk and stand behind you and lean over and put my hands on the back of your chair and let my fingers touch you on either side just under your arms... touching the edges of your bra. I lean closer and put my lips close to your right ear and you can feel the heat from my breath against your neck and I whisper into your ear... "I want to taste your pussy right now, make it nice and wet for me" and you let out a deep sigh."show it to me" I whisper in your ear as I watch your right hand move from your desk to your right knee. Sliding up your leg, you slowly lift your skirt as you look around to see if anyone is watching you and there is nobody around. You lean back slightly in your chair and begin to spread your legs as your hand gently raises your skirt up your thighs so I begin to see your pretty white lace panties. "mmmmm thats nice.... now rub it...I want to see those pretty pussy lips" I whis

Lies My Mother Told Me
Your face could get stuck like that. You’ll go blind. Most people who are ugly have great personalities. This will hurt me more than it will hurt you. Someday you’ll be glad I punished you for this. Old people are SUPPOSED to smell like moth balls. I’m doing this for your own good. The dog is just sleeping. When I was a kid, I knew better… It’s better to be quiet than to say something that might offend someone. Feel free to add to the list

You Did This
I look at her everyday and I am reminded Of everything you have done It isn't her fault that you are who you are But yet for some reason you don't want her. She is so beautiful why wouldn't you want her I tried to convince you that she is yours But now I am done trying so now I say no she isn't yours she is mine. You don't deserve someone so pure and beautiful SO you have lost her forever and you have lost me I can't deal with the pain of knowing what you have done You lost the best thing you ever had and I don't mean me. You have done so many things in your life And the only good thing you lost forever So know now that you did this to yourself And no there is no more chance of getting it back. I AM DONE AND I HAVE LEARNED JUST WHO YOU ARE.

Blog Site Name
Currently,my blog site is called Past Regrets In The Form Of Words. Feeling a change of title would help some,and I think I am going to start switching focus of my writing towards new directions. So,here are your choices. #1 Letters Form Words,Words Form My Life. #2 Good News Leads To Tragedy. #3 The Road Less Traveled Never Has An On Ramp. #4 Keep the name the same Or if you have an idea,let me know. Comment here,SB,or message me. THANKS

Love Is Like Oxygen By Sweet
Love is like oxygenYou get too much you get too highNot enough and you're gonna dieLove gets you highLove is like oxygen. . .Time on my sideI got it allI've heard that prideAlways comes before a fallThere's a rumour goin' round the townThat you don't want me aroundI can't shake off my city bluesEvery way I turn I loseLove is like oxygen. . .Love is like oxygen. . .Time is no healerIf you're not thereLonely feverSad words in the airSome things are better left unsaidI'm gonna spend my days in bedI'll walk the streets at nightTo be hidden by the city lightsCity lightsLove is like oxygen. . .Love is like oxygen. . .

Call Me Hero
Words are to poets what death is to artbreak up sex to infadelsorange to grey.Ranaway with a burnout.Played with scissors and got cut.Timed and primed for the innevitablecrash.Fall.Emo eyepatches and dead dragons.crushlike Tokyo.Bump bump.Swirl in the smolder.Draw smiling faces with the ash.Tick the phone poles with glass topswish upon the red sand.I'll be here.Unseen snarky smirkuncounted miles of unclaimed.

Need Ideas
I need some place I can work on these lesson plans. I have no desk at home to spread all my stuff out on. The libraries are all closed on Sunday. It's too far to drive to work. Ugh! I don't know what to do. Anybody have any ideas as to what I should do or where I should go? Thanks for the help! :)

Inspiration For The Those With No Hope Left..
I hope everybody at least watches this all the way through once, if it doesn't touch your inner being, you are beyond all hope. Please watch and listen closely. Inspiration

Elton John....don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me...........
I can't light no more of your darkness All my pictures seem to fade to black and white I'm growing tired and time stands still before me Frozen here on the ladder of my life It's much to late to save myself from falling I took a chance and changed your way of fife But you misread my meaning when i met you Closed the door and left me blinded by the light Don't let the sun go down on me Although i search myself, it's always someone else i see I'd just allow a fragment of your life to wander free But losing everything is like the sun going down on me I can't find oh, the right romantic line But see me once and see the way i feel Don't discard me just because you think i mean you harm But these cuts i have, oh they need love to help them heal Don't let the sun go down on me Although i search myself, it's always someone else i see I'd just allow a fragment of your life to wander free But losing everything is like the sun going down on me Don't let the sun go down on me Although i searc

This Is For My Nop :d
I can't tell you the deepness of my heart, I can't tell you how you make me shine. What I can tell you is that I love you, marvellous friend, shiny white cloud in a clear sky. You're a part of my heart, And I'm so proud to have a friend like you! I know we'll eventually hug, dunno when, how or where. I just know we will. Wish I could make this now, yet I know we will. Love ya! Andrew

Running Scared
The radical left (otherwise known as progressives/socialists/marxists/communists) won a big victory in 2006 when they took control of Congress. They won total victory in 2008 but now their agenda is exposed and they look like they are heading for defeat in 2010 and then total defeat in 2012. Is right the right way? No! The Republicans are just as guilty about the mess our country is in and set up the leftist rise in America Both sides, but mostly the left, has resorted to lies, smears, attacks and violence to hold onto their power. They have truly become haters and no one trusts our government anymore. Give us a government that respects all Americans individual rights. Politicians that believe in God, country and the constitution above their individual agendas and powers. They are out representatives. We are not their slaves

My Theories On Old Cartoons
Snorks: Well, snorks, are underwater space smurfs with ingrown dildos on their heads. Not really much to be said about that. Smurfs: That whole colony was communist. Papa Smurf is the leader, thats why he wore red. Theres two possiblities with Lady Smurf: one: that was Papa Smurf's sex slave two: Papa Smurf ordered the others to run a train on Lady Smurf, while he was off jerkin his smurf gerkin, probably in some sick, smurf bukkake sorta way Scooby Doo: Obviously, a drug addict's haven. Especially, because Shaggy, a stoner, and his obviously acid addict talking dog, Scooby, were high 99.99999% of the time. Thus, the constant consumption of stockpile munchies. Fred and Daphne, obviously, a hush couple, always made Thelma, Shaggy and Scooby go thier own way, so they could go off and he could hide his griddy ax in her ham wallet the entire episode. Next thing you see, Thelma's actually off by herself, twiddling her twat with whatever "artifacts" she found while wandering around fu

Every Kind Of People...makes The World Go 'round!!
As most of you know I have been talking about our place in the universe and how we can decipher some meaning for our lives from the clues given us by that unseen force that created this mess. I have taken issue with a few aspects of the game plan as presented by that Creator as being not very well thought out and have been getting messages from some very well meaning people who want me to see the error of my thinking before I go straight to hell. The problem is, as I readily inform them, I am already in hell so their warning does not ring true for me. I am living on a planet that has been decimated on more than one occasion by other rocks flying at random and that have run into us basically wiping out life as we know it and if you watch the Discovery Channel we are told that is going to happen again....oh great!!! Have a nice day??? We have mountains spewing fire, tidal waves, the ground moves under our feet without warning, strange and very mean people who want to kill us for a v

You Know Youre Old Skool Fu.....
You Know Youre Old Skool Fu..... http://fubar.com/blog/259327/1126701 If you can remember only being able to rate a profile ONCE in a lifetime Making it to the rank of Godfather was a big deal If you remember leveling groups If you competed in contests with the prize being a Big Pimpin Gift If you use to win spotlight every couple weeks with a bid of 32,000 fubucks. If you remember Sporks You remember big nasty dimple ass pics being OK to run as default If you said to yourself... "Yeah RIGHT!" when 1 credit blings came out If you ever comment bombed If you can remember JD being a chick ;) If you couldnt use a credit card on here if you wanted to. If you remember only being able to rate a pic once in a lifetime VIP? WTF is that? If you actually spent most of your time on here rating pix You paid attention to Bulletins If shouts were shitty... Oh no, that hasnt changed. Sorry If you use to trade stash rates If you can remember WTF a stash is When Happy Hours wer

A Song About The Number 13,by Xiii
XIII - THIRTEENIM ABSOLUTELY CERTAIN ITS GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING I DO AT ALLBUT I ALWAYS SEEM TO END UP WITH THE ARROWS POINTING AT ME AND MY BACK AGAINST THE WALLWELL I AINT SUPERSTICIOUS IN ANY SENSEAT ALL BUT THERES EXCEPTION TO THAT RULEBAD LUCK COMES WITH THIRTEEN THAT I KNOW ITS ON MY BACKTHIRTEEN STANDS FOR CRUEL(CHORUS)NUMBER THIRTEEN IS HAUNTING ME BAD LUCK WONT LEAVE ME BEIT ISNT ME ITSTHIRTEEN YOU SEE BAD LUCK WONT LEAVE ME BEYOU NEVER KNOW FOR CERTAIN IF THINGS WILL TURN OUTRIGHT WHEN YOU GOT THIRTEEN ON YOUR BACKYOU CANT BE OPTIMISTIC IN YOUR VIEWS ON LOVEAND LIFE WHEN YOUVE GOT THIRTEEN ON YOUR BACKYOU NEVER TRUST IN LUCK WHEN ALL YOUR CHIPS AREDOWN WHEN YOUVE GOT THIRTEEN ON YOUR BACKIT IS A THIRTEEN ON YOUR BACK THIRTEEN IS CARVED INTO YOUR BACKNERVES ARE GETTING TIGHTER AND YOURE REALLY GETTING TENSE SAYING LUCK DONT LEAVE ME NOWSWEAT IS POURING OUT YOURE LOSING ALL YOUR GRIP PRAYING LUCK DONT LEAVE MEYOURE STARING AT THE RUINS KICKING AT THE ASHES SCREAMING LU

My Cherished One
I sit and think about that day The day you stepped into my life And I thank God for bringing Someone as wonderfull as you So I don't have to be so alone. Only God knows where this path leads But I hope I don't ever loose Someone as special as you are to me And that many years down the road We can look back and say remember when. I know everything happens for a reason So maybe you are why I was put here Because when I stop to think of you Everytime my face lights up with a smile Because I know that I have found Someone I can tell my every thought to. Who knows what is to come But I do know that I will cherish Every moment we have together For now I am content to know That if I fall you will be the one To reach down and say let me help. Promise me one little thing please All I ask is that if you fall Let me be the one to help you up Because I know how it feels To look around and not have anyone I don't ever want that to ever happen to you. Ther

Random Rant 1
re-evaluating my life, if you cant be by my side in bad times, dont call me when YOU need something, Im not a puppet,im not here for your justification or to make you feel whole, im not here to be the person that everyone that hurt you wasnt, just for once, love ME and accept ME for me or just let me alone and let me be my true self, fuck all the games and bs, i'm too good for you

My Mom
Mom, without you, there would be no me. Your love, your attention, your guidance, have made me who I am. Without you, I would be lost, wandering aimlessly, without direction or purpose. You showed me the way to serve, to accomplish, to persevere. Without you, there would be an empty space I could never fill, no matter how I tried. Instead, because of you, I have joy, contentment, satisfaction and peace. Thank you, mom. I have always loved you and I always will.

Auction
(r)PLAYBOY MANSION IS HOLDING ITS FIRST LIVE AUCTION ON SEPTEMBER 14TH IF YOU WOULD LIKE ENTRANCE FOLLOW THESE STEPS: 1.(h) SEND ME A PRIVATE MESSAGE WITH YOUR OFFERS ON IT 2. (h)I GET 10% OF YOUR EARNINGS 3. (h)YOU HAVE 10 MINS TO PAY WHAT YOU OWE OR YOU WILL GO ON A LIST OF PEOPLE NOT ALLOWED BACK . 4. (h)MAKE SURE YOU STATE CLEARLY WHAT YOU ARE OFFERING SO PEOPLE WILL NOT GET CONFUSED . 5. (h)MOST OF ALL JUST HAVE FUN (r)IF YOU ARE INTERESTED IN THIS AUCTION IT IS AT 5 PM CENTRAL TIME AND ANYONE WHO COMES IN MUST JOIN THE LOUNGE BEFORE BEING ENTERED IN THE AUCTION .. TY HAVE A GREAT DAY

Letting Go Of A Friendship Is Hard But It Have To Be Done When The Person Is A Jealous Snake
i had to stop being friends with my ex friend katie and she was my a amazing friend of mine . when my dad died she was right there and so today i hear some fucking mad talk about me . saying i'm jealous of my friends and that i'm a golddigger and some fucking crazy shit . so i'm fucking heated and i find out from my cousin who said it and it turns out its my so called fucking friend katie and i got in my car and drove over there and asked her why are you fucking talking about me and from the look she gave me i could tell she was jealous and i told her our friendship is fucking over and i could had said more but that bitch was not worth it because if you know about jealous bitches calling them out shuts there fucking mouth's lol and i change my voice mail to excuse me if your this jealous bitch named katie please dont call here unless you like being humilated lol but i learned a lession i have to be careful who i allow in my life two quotes i found about jealousy "Welcome to the w

I Bruise Easily
My skin is like a mapOf where my heart has beenAnd I cant hide the marksIts not a negative thingSo I let down my guardDrop my defenses down by my clothesI'm learning to fallWith no safety net to cushion the blowI bruise easilySo be gentle when you handle meThere’s a mark you leaveLike a love heart carved on a treeI bruise easilyCan't scratch the surfaceWithout moving me underneathI bruise easilyI bruise easilyI found your fingerprintsOn a glass of wineDo you know you're leaving themAll over this heart of mine tooBut if I never take this leap of faithI'll never knowSo im learning to fallWith no safety net to cushion the blowAnyone who can touch youCan hurt you or heal youAnyone who can reach youCan love you or leave youSo be gentle...I bruise easilyI bruise easily

I'm Falling In Love With You
I sit here awake, i cannot sleep i think about this feeling in my heart that i keep i close my eyes and still i see a picture of tomorrow with u and me i don't know why i feel this way i try to come up with the words to say to express myself to show whats inside my thought of you i don't want to hide the magic i feel when I'm with you something that seems too good to be true I'm falling in love cant you see? i wonder if you will ever fall in love with me only time can tell if this is real the happiness you and i feel but i care about you, I'm falling in love is this a gift, or a test from above?

The True Meaning Of Labor Day
The Gainesville SunMike Williams: The true meaning of Labor DayPublished: Friday, September 3, 2010 at 4:28 p.m.Last Modified: Friday, September 3, 2010 at 4:28 p.m.The true meaning and significance of Labor Day, much like many other national holidays and observances, has been largely forgotten by too many Americans. Labor Day is the culmination of years of struggle by the American labor movement to enshrine a day on the calendar when the nation pauses and takes stock of the achievements of the American worker and the incredible contributions to our society that have been made by workers who have chosen to organize, form unions and use their collective strength to build a stronger nation, one built on justice and economic opportunity for all.It is unfortunate that an over five decade long campaign to marginalize, demonize and erase the history of the American labor movement has brought us to this point, but I want to challenge everyone on this Labor Day to take a good look at the histo

Recipes From The Heart....
MARINADE: 4 Tablespoons dry sherry 2 Tablespoons Worcestershire sauce 1/2 teaspoon ginger 1/4 cup soy sauce 1 garlic clove, minced 1/8 teaspoon celery salt 12 small chicken breast halves, skinned and boned HAM STUFFING: 2 (6-3/4-ounce) cans devilled ham 1 cup cracker crumbs 1/2 cup grated onion 1 cup chopped pecans 1/2 cup milk Reserved marinade TO PREPARE:The day before serving, combine marinade ingredients and pour over chicken. Cover and marinade overnight in refrigerator. Drain chicken, reserving marinade. Combine all stuffing ingredients and reserved marinade, blending well. Place 1/2 cup stuffing between two breast halves. Wrap in aluminum foil, sealing well. Bake in a preheated 350 degree oven for 2 hours.SERVINGS: 6

Heh.
its been another long assed day, and this kinda made me laugh Two IT guys were biking across the park when one said, "Where did you get such a great bike?"The second IT guy replied, "Well, I was walking along yesterday minding my own business when a beautiful woman rode up on this bike. She threw the bike to the ground, took off all her clothes and said, 'Take what you want.'The second IT guy nodded approvingly, "Good choice, The clothes probably wouldn't have fit." that is all, sarah

This Is Dedicated To A Special Women In My Heart You Know Who You Are:p(l)
once upon a summers day on fubar she came my way i knew that she was too hot for me shes way out of my liege i have nuthing to say i knew that shes is in the milletary she helps them and heal them all not with medicine but with one look while shes standing tall i didnt know about the worriors in afghanistan fighting and suferring brutal pain running in there vain my heart was so sore to hear but she helped me understand how it is our heros and her live there in no mans land yours truly BULLET3141

Street Team Confusion
So I was messing around on here last night and came across the page for the Fubar Street Team. It sounds like a cool idea and something that would, in a way, be kind of fun. However, I'm slightly confused about the wording and how a person would actually "join" this group/club. I'll copy/paste what is on their profile: Commonly Asked Questions?What is it? The street team is hand picked team of volunteer users who have shown the ability and passion to help promote the site both online and off. There really is no glory in this. Most of you do it because you love it.How do I help? The street team is unofficial and is a volunteer position. The main goal is to promote fubar through all of your typical avenues. We do all types of promotions on the site. The street team is instrumental in helping to blog out and promote fubar.How do I get on the street team? Send a friend request to this profile and tell me why you think you should be on the team. The street team is not here to propel y

Fubar Promotion... Author Unknown
I RECIEVED THIS EARLIER FROM AN UNKNOWN SOURCE BUT I HAD TO POST IT! THIS IS THE TRUEST THING I HAVE HEARD ABOUT FUBAR EVER! AND SINCE THERE IS SUCH A THING AS FREEDOM OF SPEACH HERE YOU GO!!! Good Afternoon sir / ma'am. Are you interested in having your marriage or relationship destroyed? Or if youre single then perhaps you'd be interested in having your life-long best friend turn against you? If you are, then I would like to invite you to join www.fubar.com. It's an online bar where you can rate people's pictues and profiles on a scale of 1 to 10, and if you have VIP status you will have the privelege of rating someone an 11. Membership is free but VIP membership is 14.95 a month and you will have your name bolded in your choice of pink, blue, or gray or you can simply leave it as the standard white, now this IS an adult site, you have to be at least 18 years old to join because some our membrs have partially nude and fully nude pictures in which our male and surprisingly hig

Helpful Links For Video And Sound Plugins And Much More
I placed this information to help you keep your system running fast and to keep it up to date. (links are Yellow click them to access that item or update) For starters, to keep your computer running faster please clear your temp internet files daily. How to clean your internet browser Here are a some download links that may help: Browsers that work for most web sitesWindows: Internet ExplorerFirefoxNetscapeSafariOperaChromeMacs: Internet Explorer for Mac by Microsoft Music And Video Player Plugins.Even if you have them these are the links you need to make sure they are up to dateMacromedia "Adobe" Flash player Most games call for thisApple Quicktime player

Stupid People
It amazes me when people see that you are new that they try to make you out as a fool or a Retard, when it's them that post the stupid shit to make fun of others..Seems to me that if you do that then you are too immature for an adult website... I geuss that certain people don't know any better and their parents didn't teach them anything about respect, whether or not the other person is wrong or right.... I don't think I could try to do something like that, i don't know how yet..but believe me, i have more respect for people i don't know, because for one thing. YOU DON"T KNOW THEM LIKE THAT. I don't care too much for stupid people, I can handle ignorant people because they can learn from others..But STUPID PEOPLE, I'm sorry but YOU CAN'T FIX STUPID!! So before you go and try to piss in someones cereal bowl, you need to see if they are aware of a few things or not.. They may be a newbie...

9/5/2010
I'm not sure where to start......my life has taken a downward spiral. I am almost 30 yrs old and having to move in with my mom. I feel like I have been used again and thrown away AGAIN. It depresses me to think that the only use men have for me is physical not never emotional. When will my feelings matter? I am starting to think NEVER. The depression is begining to be too much to bare. I want to shut off my emotions and never let anyone in. I am thinking this might be the only way to protect myself. Why should I care when no one else does? Why should I give a shit about anyone? I am done trying to find someone to love or love me. I can only take so much and this last experience has opened my eyes to how I am valued and respected by others. This is where the depression takes over. My nereves can't handle watching what I am being forced to watch. I am trying to not see but I am not blind and my heart is still broken. No one cares and this just adds to the pain. I wonder if I will ever fe

Devil Inside
This was one of my favorites, written last year. Devil Inside My eyes hide the devil insideThe tormented soul you left behindThe dark intentions behind the lightThe fiery temper you igniteMy pain gradually turned to angerAs you went from lover to strangerAnd as the passion we had diesStruck through the heart by your endless liesThe pieces of the shattered lifeThe relief that I am not your wifeThat I can pick up and walk awayAnd drift into a brand new dayReplacing what you took from meRelieved that i have come to seeThe devil I hide behind my eyesHas given me strength to say goodbyeAnd release myself from the chainsAs I watch your essence drainFrom the life you thought you had

Happiness
Happiness: Myth or Fact? When someone tells you that all they want is for you to be happy, is it a bunch of bull or is that what they really want for you? Is happiness just an illusion that is just what they want for you or is it a tangible reality? Where does true happiness come from? Is it possible to make someone happy and be utterly unhappy with yourself and who you have become because of this person? Should I just suck it up and just be unhappy so that he is happy or should I put my foot down and continue to try and make myself happy? Don't I have to be happy myself before I can make anyone else happy?

Oops?
This is a blog I'm writing because I can. Ok, so I'm 25 years old. I like the colors black, blue, purple and pink (What do you know, the colors of a bruise lol) I like all types of music, I like food, I like boys (obviously) Lately I've been receiving alot of messages on Fubar from people asking me to marry them, move in with them, DO stuff with them.. Seriously, You guys don't even know me. I'm having kind of a wtf moment right now lol. I don't see much modesty and respect but then again I am a female, It's to be expected...lol... Yes, I know I'm attractive, Yes I know the things I like alot of other girls don't like.. But please keep the marriage proposals to a minimum! I'd only want to get married to someone that I truly loved and all that jazz, Then again what is marriage? It's just some legal thing. If you truly loved someone you wouldn't need to spend a bajillion dollars in having a ceremony and having a wedding dress etc, And also.. Relationships end. Marriages end. Divorce

When I Run
As performed by Suzy Bogguss When I see the way you look at love I feel so blind;'Cuz I don't know how to give that much to you;And when I think of what it means to love forever, I get scaredThat I won't be strong enough to see it throughAnd about that time I don't know what to do. And when I run, it's only cuz I don't know how to stay;I don't know how to get my feelings out of my way;It's not you, and it's not fun;I know trying to hide is crazy and walking out won't save me -My demons only chase me when I run. In your arms I am sound and safe from my own harmOr at least you always make me feel that way;It's only when I turn away from you that I get lostAnd my mind lets some old hurt get in the wayI stop listening to what my heart has to say. And when I run, it's only cuz I don't know how to stay;I don't know how to get my feelings out of my way;It's not you, and it's not fun;I know trying to hide is crazy and walking out won't save me -My demons only chase me when I run. And how,

2nd Alarm Hotties Coc
1. All 2nd Alarm hottie Prospect must have a verified salute and a minimun "10 new pics of yourself ,being full body. 2.All hotties must be female (no exceptions) 3.Must sign the COC (code of conduct)Agreement below as a comment I"agree"in order to be placed into voting procedure. 4.Shout Box and Fu_mail must be open to all officers for communications .(Profile can't be set to friends only for this purpose unless all officers are made friends) 5.2nd Alarm Hotties must be added to your family while being considered a Prospect and remain in your family after admittance.Fire Chief ( Founder)must be added to your famliy but doesn't have to be in top 7.but as long as he's in your family so that he can contact you anytime when needed .Also your Team Leader well be added to your top Friend so that they contact you at anytime . 6.All new Hotties well be assign as Team Leader who we Ask To be Placed in top friends so they can contact you also.Putting your Team Leader into family w

A Touch Never Felt
How can you ache and crave for someone's touchWhen you have never felt it?I do this for yours, though,And the yearning grows more each dayI have never wanted anything in my lifeAs much as I want youWhen you whisper such sweet loveIn my ear when we talkYou make me melt into a puddleOf complete helplessnessYou have become my every waking thoughtAnd my every dream at nightI breathe in so hardTrying to catch my breath when we can't talkI close my eyes so tightHoping when I open them you will be thereBut I know I have to waitUntil the time is rightIt seems so far awayThat I think I am losing my mindI want to breathe in your scentAnd keep it with me all day longI want to taste your love for meBy kissing your sweet lipsI want to feel your body next to meSo when you leave for awhile I can hold onI just want you to knowThat I really do love youWhen the day comes and we are togetherYou will always know and feel thisI will always hug, kiss and love youEvery moment of the day and night...You will

Love Is.....
Love is the way you make someone feel. The way someone makes you feel. Love is the sharing the caring The want and the need. Love is a power with unknown strengths. It has the power to make someone smile to make someone laugh to make someone love you in return. Love is what your heart feels What your heart says Ignore your heart and it will fade away. Listen to your heart follow your heart let it sing Let it run free and it can bring you Anything Love is a bond A way to keep people together Love is everything wonderful. Love is You!!

$5 Million Fubuck Contest
Ok here's how it is going to go .. Get as many people to you can to come to my page, rate me, add me and mainly FAN me.. once they have done that they need to send me a drink and in the message area have them tell me who sent them (and that they became my fan) to my page.. the person who sends me the most people that become my Fan will win the $5 milion fubucks.. Pretty simple right.. so lets get started.. Contest will start Sept. 6th @ noon futime / 3pm est and will end Sept 13th @ 3pm est / noon futime

Indelicate
A Flower? Believe me. I try. I own many a high heel. My 4" Franco Sartos are my favorite right now. They go well with my thigh clip. I have shirts that are too tight. Skirts that are too short. And scars riddled here and there on my body. I bask in MAC makeup and I enjoy Carolina Hererra 212 And my Crossbow. I wear lip gloss I curl my hair and LOVE the Flying Arm Bar. I can Pirouette Sing in First soprano and pick off a moving target from 385 yds. Delicate? Hardly. I AM a flower of some sort. I'm just not sure if it's poisonous or not. I am me.

You Can't Be Fu-serious....
When you sign into this site some days you feel like you are walking into a really bad bar. Not even a really low class strip joint because of the fact, at least there there's already naked women to somewhat distract the men. At least until they step off "stage" that is. Fubar is set up on a level to where everyone knows what to expect. Most men bitch that because they don't have tits it takes them longer to level, or they bitch because they can't find anyone and they are lonely. I may be here to level but I'm also here to make friends. As I damn well have. Some of the best people I've met in life I've come across right here...to name a few but of course I can't get y'all. Mags, Sim, Jay, Ninja, Java, Kari, Storm, Dory, Princess, Nova, The rest of the NL crew because well frankly you ALL rock my world, Chi, RP, Irish, Jeremy, DH (who, regardless of what you are calling yourself, you will alwayz be DH to me), Jedson, Pamp. Too many to name em all. But you catch my drift. You are all th

Another Of My Favorite Stories
A few people found the story I told about T rather moving. I was asked today if I'd post another, and this one immediately came to mind, so I thought I'd be happy to do so. This one is a few years back. Trent had decided to take some time away from music to attend college, only doing the occasional show to keep himselfin the trades. The college he decided to attend also had a sister school on campus, a school that catered to the disabled and teach them trades to help them possibly find viable employment out in the world. Now in the past, he has done a lot of work with the disabled and took these kids under his wing, becoming quite fond of them. One day, he volunteered to take some of them on a mall run, something the school did every Sunday, shuttling those that wanted to go to the mall to get things they wanted or needed. As he was looking at CDs in the music store (c'mon luvs, like we didn't all see that one coming. Trust me, it's one of the two places to find him in such a place,

Bon Jovi....always
This Romeo is bleedin'But you can't see his bloodIt's nothing but some feelingsThat this old dog kicked upIt's been rainin' since you left meNow I'm drownin' in the floodYou see I've always been a fighterBut without you I'll give upI can't sing a love songLike the way it's meant to beI guess I'm not that good anymoreBut that's just meI will love you babyAlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a dayAlwaysNow your pictures that you left behindAre just memories of a different lifeSome that made us laugh, some made us cryOne that made you have to say goodbyeWhat I'd give to run my fingers through your hairTouch your lips and hold you nearWhen you say your prayers understandI've made mistakes, I'm just a manWhen he holds you close, he pulls you nearWhen he says the words you've been needin' to hearI wish I was him with these words of mineTo say to you till the end of timeThat I will love you babyAlwaysAnd I'll be there forever and a dayAlwaysIf you told me to cry for you, I couldIf you told me

My Serpentine
A few semesters ago, I took an english writing course. My english teacher allowed us to turn in poetry, stories, anything to do with literature for extra credit. She approached me in the South building while I was waiting for my College Algebra class and asked me if I would write a poem about matters of the heart. For a happy, upbeat person, she really liked my dark style of writing. She entered it into a contest. So I thought I would share it with everyone else. :) My Serpentine My only desire was to hideTo ebb the ache insideI can hear the voices laughing at my demiseForced to walk aloneBroken into pieces like my only homeNothing left of this manNothing left, not even prideMy memories thrown awryI feel like it's eating me aliveHelping me die insideNothing but remnants of a broken manI feel I've done all I canThis infection was just a lieI've lost all the vital parts of meFeeling the light, sense of smellNo longer blind but I cannot seeOf these consiquences I can't repentA path I

Promises
promises are like the full moon ,if they are not kept at once they diminish day by day... A promise is a cloud ,fullfilment is rain . promise a lot and give even more enemies promises were made to be broken . promise Little and do much . Everyone is a Millioner where promises are concerned . life didn't promise to be wonderful . A promise made a dept unpaid . Promise is most given when the least is said..

Someone Special
I’m sat here thinking about what u said Reading the words while laying in bed Reading the words which u typed to me Letting me know what u feel for me But there are many things which have come to light Like the words u typed on my screen last night My mind is spinning shocked and amazed That not knowing u long, I can make u feel that way So im sat here now with words in my hands Trying to say them so Ur understand That no matter how far u seem to be The words u type will stay will me I carry them tight and hold them close Thinking about what I want most The person I want is the person I see The person who fulfills my every need Who makes me smile with the words that u say Who is locked in my mind everyday A man I fell for with just one look Who stole my heart and now im hooked Who fits my hand like a perfect glove The man I met is the man I now LOVE

Good Day At Work....my Temporary Disdain For Scott Pilgrim, And Stuff
Warning! This will be possibly annoying and contain a bit of dirty language. So for the past week or so I have been a bit mopey and depressed. I have been jumping from okay to rabid in seconds....which isn't really me. I as I have gotten older have generally had much better control over my somewhat legendary temper. Lately however I have been feeling inclined to club people over the head with baby seals. If I am still able to tell bad jokes it's because my last line of defense against myself is my rather fucked up sense of humor...but to be honest it's fucked up by the fact that life has decided I need a mean streak. Now for the meat of the subject....why I am pissy and such. This past weekend I on a date went to see Scott Pilgrim versus the World. Awesome movie but with a dilemna I am tossing around in my noggin hit waaaay to close to home. I will get back to this in a minute. For those of you who are not playing the home game I have spent most of my life angry. My parents, my

Computer Love
She sat at her computer and typed with frantic haste There was so much she needed to say and so little time Her heart poured out so easily through her fingers As the words appeared on the screen before her She filled her screen with her words of affection Then waited anxiously for him to type his reply Her heart skipped as his reply appeared before her She read and reread his words of endearment Then hurried to reply as her heart beat quickly With her emotions building higher with every word Telling how she yearned to be able to touch him Longed to be able to see him, to gaze into his eyes Her heart cried with sorrow, tinged with a little fear Of being forward, having said too much too soon Her emotions, now too strong, gave her no choice She had to speak of what was deep within her heart The pain of lost loves still lingers inside her soul But she is a woman and so was born to be loved She craves love as the flower needs the spring rain For without love a woman cannot truly be

Lost America
I set out in my old white Cadillac convertible, traveling the highways and byways to find the American dream, but I woke up screaming and crying from the nightmare. In Arizona, I met a man that couldn't have been more then nineteen, thin stubble trying hard to look like a beard hanging from his face. He told me the interstate system was the death of America. It killed the small towns. The place he grew up in had fallen into disarray, his graduating class had only eight people. When the school burned down the previous winter, no one had even bothered to rebuild it. The kids had to find their own way to get their education. He told me the desert was littered with towns like that. He stayed on the small highways and backroads, always looking for the mythical town that had survived. In Louisiana I met a hooker with no name. She told me names don't matter on the road. All that mattered was the soul of the traveler, and the fact that the sun would always rise in the east and se