how many times can i decide what i want to do and at times its a hard diffcult challenge. when you have heart that has been threw hell and back and yet i wonder at times. i could find a good girl that i had in the pass or now that could show me what i have been missing or that passion love that i once had when everything was goin so good until it went upside down. many mix feelings are coming at you and they feel like they eatin you up inside and you dont know what to do or what you want to do when that time comes. hard times when they come out at once when you want to control thn and your anger comes out which leads to frustration and its hard mind set to go threw but in the long run that sometime you have to breath and give yourself time to get it together and go from there.