When the light turn into black just before the dawn. Things have came to my mind on a lovely chilly night like this as I look into the stars. Yet I see my heart into the stars with a special someone next it and there it was all my life and the day I met this lovely beautiful attractive girl I know. As I carry on my walk I realize that why I felt bad that day and felt like I made a bad move because it was trying to worry about being what my god given soul and heart then what it was use for to love a woman and be there for a woman and etc. I wonder if I could apologize now before its too late and make up in some way as a special gift to show how much that girl means to me and prove I am not like the rest and not willing to crave for sex when at times it just happens that way. In many things can happen and fell that way when you don't think it will and everything. But in the end I hope that one day we are together and married. I will look back from this day and carry on.