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When You Say You Love Me Lyrics-- Just A Beautiful Song
this is what i'm determined to have in my life someday: Like the sound of silence calling, I hear your voice and suddenly I'm falling, lost in a dream. Like the echoes of our souls are meeting, You say those words and my heart stops beating. I wonder what it means. What could it be that comes over me? At times I can't move. At times I can hardly breath. When you say you love me The world goes still, so still inside and When you say you love me For a moment, there's no one else alive You're the one I've always thought of. I don't know how, but I feel sheltered in your love. You're where I belong. And when you're with me if I close my eyes, There are times I swear I feel like I can fly For a moment in time. Somewhere between the Heavens and Earth , And frozen in time, Oh when you say those words. When you say you love me The world goes still, so still inside and When you say you love me For a moment, there's no one else alive [bridge:] And this journey that we're on. How far we'v

Update
I thought I'd been through a lot of shit with my friends, but nothing the likes of this. Those of you who read this should know that my bff Zoey is writing this blog on my behalf. I asked her to. There are two pics in my pictures of my exroommate Ben, who our family invited into our home and our trusted family circle. I will never know why but one night he just decided to take our lives and rip us apart with ONE phone call..... .. .. You see, Ben wasn't man enough to fight his own fight maturely. Zoey was talking to Ben calmly about a matter and Ben lunged at Zoey. I thought he might try to hurt her, so I defended her. She broke it up before any kind of a fight broke out, but Ben decided he would do everything he could to hurt us. He called the cops on me and had me arrested, and I have been in jail for almost 5 weeks now. .... .. .. People....be careful about who you allow into your haven from the world....your home. You can think you know someone, but they can turn on you

Forgettable Friends
Alone again in the crowded line awaiting Their arrival, he dreams they race and pretends A car races through traffic –rocketing Around cars and corners to be on time. Ostracized from all, she does not even know Her grave transgression nor how to make amends In order to prove her love and faithfully show That she is punished for an imagined crime. For their friendship, for their love, any nod at all, He gives all he has, on them his life money he spends Hand over hand, until the bill comes and the call Takes his final breath and blood, his last nickel and dime. Everyone has one – the means to any ends. Everyone profits from our forgettable friends.

Joke Of The Day
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Can Some Please Send Me The Link
im seriously gettin annoyied someone on fubar has the old pictures of slipknot the very old ones of them were they are black and white can someone send me the link on were to get them from please help me ive tried everything google photobucket there fan sites every were i cant find them please help me

Love
i found someone who loves me for me and will never jugde me and will be my sholder to cry on and wipe away my tears if need be and u make me so happy in my life and u love to see a smile on my face and u love to sit and watch me and just be me and if need u will try to help me the best way u can u can never see me sad or crying it hurts u to see me unhappy in life.my life would never be the same without you i hope u never leave me and i know that u will never leave me my life starts and ends with you i dont it to be any other way u are my life and i want to stay that way in my words I LOVE U

Surgery
I get to go in for surgery tomorrow morning. yay... Im so tired of my hand hurting that it makes me happy but at the same time I wish I had someone home to take care of me... haha selfish I know. But oh well. :) It's how it is. So if I disappear for a while I'll be back when the drugs wear off fully.

Big Bag
I should've known that something wasn't right the second you walked into my life carrying that big bag of crazy. 'Cause any woman with a purse that big is bound to have something in it I don't wanna know about. --Ryan Kwanten as Jason Stackhouse

Quotes About September 11, 2001
Quotes of the Times I need to start with a 60 year old quote that is so relevant today that it is almost eerie."I fear that all I have done is awakened a sleeping giant and filled him with a terrible resolve." --Admiral Yamamoto after the Pearl Harbor attack, December 7, 1941American Reaction ___________________________________"Thousands of lives were suddenly ended by evil, despicable acts of terror. The pictures of airplanes flying into buildings, fires burning, huge structures collapsing, have filled us with disbelief, terrible sadness and a quiet, unyielding anger. --George W. Bush *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*What's the sense of sending $2 million missiles to hit a $10 tent that's empty? --George W. Bush, private Oval Office meeting, September 13, 2001 *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*War has been waged against us by stealth and deceit and murder. This nation is peaceful, but fierce when stirred to anger. This conflict was begun on the timing and terms of others. It will end in a way, and at an hou

Diabetes Walk
Me and my family we will doing the Step Out Walk for Diabetes in Baton Rouge in October (17th) My oldest son Devin is a Type 1 diabetic. This means a lot to us to do the walk if you would like to help and sponsor is you can donate threw this link or threw check. Thank you so much for your help and support.http://main.diabetes.org/goto/Devindiabeteswalk

To Be
when there seems to be nothing left and you feel like you are all alone ..there is always one person that comes along and makes you smile! rather it be from a comment or a simple act of kindness or just a hug ...and they make you feel better for that split second and you forget all your troubles. and when you go back to feeling bad.... who do you think of?? that one person that knew exactly what to say or do to make your day better. and to you that one person who may not have even realized that you made someones day better thank you and keep on being that great person that you are ...and i hope to one day be like you and say or do something to impact someones life ...to make a difference to be remembered ...to be important to someone to be loved ....to be

Tonite`
Crash - and maybe burned in my Daybed. Im soon down on my knees BEGGING for someone to hit me over the head with something so I can get som NEEDED sleep. At least some rest. I give almost anything for more than 3 hours! Im sitting here looking outside and up on the clear dark blue sky. It got flashies all over it!! :) Maybe THATS where Yoda and my auto is? IT is a beautiful night - or rater morning. The air outside is not warm - nor is it too cold. Just perfect for this time of the year. As every year at this time the heat comes back and stay for a few days - sometimes up to 2 weeks. Feels like summer is back - but not to be fooled - it get you back if you get caught up in the *summerfeeling*. Its the PERFECT time to get a cold that last all winter long. Smart as I am - yes , even I have learned this over the years - I dress varm and dont get tempted to *run* along in short pants and t-shirts. Oh no! I put sweats on ( have to get the mail right?) And sometimes eve

Rip Channing May
Channing May (Crisler) Channing S. May (Crisler), 25, Kansas City, Mo., passed away Sunday, September 6, 2009. Funeral services will be 2 p.m. Saturday, September 12, 2009, at White Chapel Funeral Home, 6600 N. Antioch Road, Gladstone, Mo. Burial in White Chapel Memorial Gardens. Visitation is 1-2 p.m. Saturday at the chapel. In lieu of flowers, memorials may be made to CTN-FBO Channing May, 5703 N. Flora, Gladstone, MO 64118. Father, Randy and Dawn Crisler; mother, Sheila and Mike Durham; brothers John Hadley and Jesse May; sister Taylor Crisler; daughter Ivee Grace May; son Aiden R. May, fiancee Nikki Lee, and a multitude of family members. (Arr.: Newcomer's White Chapel Funeral Home, 816- 452-8419.)

Strangers Scrolling By.....
Here I am again mezmorized by all the various people forever scrolling by on my monitor. So many different people.....so many different stories to tell. Watch as all the beautiul women pass by right before my eyes. The biggest shame is that most will never know that you exist. Most will never take the time to stop and get to know you. In this cyber-world....each and every person is on for the most part, a level playing field. You never really know who someone is......you never know just how honest a person is. It is more akin to gambling that any other sport....yet the effects of the possible contact with a total stranger makes the time here as intoxicating as any liquor or illegal drug! Take the time to stop and get to know someone....you never know if your missing the chance to make a lifelong friend, have a close relationship or even just find someone to talk to. Take a chance and see!!!

[slipped Under The Radar]
I might be in a worse mood than I thought.Firstwe've got some seasonal antics in my city.There was a fire in an elevator shaftwe're talking pillar of flamesin my office buildingand a bomb threat in the same neighborhood.I spent about an hour standing in a big clump of people wondering what in the fuck was going on, and went back to work in a place that smelled a bit like burning paper and large men with axes and helmets.Secondsomebody called me fucking Andrew...this is not my namethis has 2 things in common with my namefirst hintboth names have two syllables.What am I more pissed off about, stressed about, and less than willing to go to work about tomorrow?The bomb threat/arson investigation where I spend 8 hours every five days.Might be making me a more-than-usual testy cunt.Or maybe people are being tardariffic. Could be a unique alchemya perfect storm situation.*cracks neck like a stepped on plastic bottle**sighs*I never hear her say "I love you" when she gets off the phone. Everyon

Written In The Stars
It seems to be written in the stars.That the two of us are meant to be. Thats why it scares me so.Not knowin the future yet getting through to your soul is easy for me. I see the real you through your eyes. I feel the real you in your voice.Its meant to be the two of us. Youre the one who melted my heart of ice. Youve made me realize what true happiness is. From the smile on my face to the way you make my heart skip a beat.When you said that one word i knew it was true. You are the one that makes me feel complete.

Smog Presents Caspa // 09.19.09 @ House Of Blues
SATURDAY SEPTEMBER 19th, 2009 SMOG PRESENTS CASPA FEATURING MC ROD AZLAN SUB SOLDIERS, DUB POLICE, FABRIC, LONDON UK MATTY G ARGON, DUB POLICE, SF 12th PLANET SMOG, ARGON, MEDIA CONTENDER, LA PABLO HASSAN SMOG, PURE FILTH, LA DJ EVOL SMOG, MONSTER MUSICK, LA KEMST SMOG, LA FUNKTION 1 SOUND VISUALS BY: MEKANIX 18+ // 10pm-3am // $17.50 tickets HOUSE OF BLUES 8430 Sunset Blvd. West Hollywood, CA 90069

Letter Of Appreciation
This is the letter our supervisor sent out.......... I just wanted to take a moment to say how proud I am of the actions taking by the Court Operations Deputies on September 10, 2009. This afternoon a woman sitting in the gallery in Court #18 fell unconscious. The deputies in the courtroom responded immediately and communicated to the supervisors what they had and what they needed. Several deputies responded to assist and also retrieved the AED on the floor. Upon the deputies arriving, the woman was on the floor, had stopped breathing and had no pulse. Deputies jumped in and started CPR, mouth to mouth resuscitation and also had to use the AED twice in attempt to revive the woman. With everyone’s efforts, the woman started breathing and responding. All of these things occurred prior to the medics arriving. These deputies brought this woman back to life. If not for all of your quick actions, this woman would not have regained consciousness. They are all heroes and deserve

Where Were You?
I have been doing a lot of reflecting these days about the state of the world and more specifically the days post 9-11. It has been 8 years and where are we today? As a nation as a people, and of course personally? How has this changed me? Have done something better with my life? Have I improved the world in some small way? What did I learn from this? These are questions I think we all should ask ourselves, and answer them honestly. If we want the world to be a better place we need to ask some tough questions and be prepared for some tougher answers. Iwas in Singapore on 9-11 2001. I had been there a week. I was working on the construction of a new ship in the Keppel shipyard. It was a terrifying experience, being outside of your country during somethng like that, surrounded by people who beleieved that what happened was justly desreved. The shipyard employed a lot of people from pakistan, Afganastan, Indonesia, and Malaysia. a great portion of them were muslims. there were about

Once Upon A Time Chapter 2
There Once Was A Beautiful Maiden Our dear knight has spotted a maiden Her smile has become a safe haven Of her beauty she is unaware The sparkle in her eye and and long flowing hair It is hard for him to not notice As he tries to maintain pure motives It takes effort to not cross certain lines As his heart begs for freedom to fly But he knows she is worth the waiting So for now he will suffer these cravings All for this beautiful maiden

9/11/01 9/11/09
today is a day to remember those who lost their lives! this is my story, and how i feel about this day and this country sept 10, i had plans to go to NYcity, start but meet up with a friend who work in the twin towers, he was going to show my gf, buddy and i around, then it was to hit time square. ofcourse i never made the trip with my gf, my buddy brian went ahead. as u know what happened the next day, two planes it the towers, i was grabbing breakfast with my gf. the area i lived in, called TomsRiver,NJ was on alert, as there was a nuclear power plant 10 miles away, i remember most about that day is what if i had gone, i wouldnt be writing this now, what if stopped brian from going,he would be alive. so since that day, i every year, i will honor those lives. in total, i lost 3 friends that day, people around jersey lost someone, or knew someone who did. i ask any viewers to leave a comment, share ur story, what does this day mean to u, how did it change u? thank you for ur time.

Eating At Night Will Not Cause You To Gain Weight
It is a misconception that late night eating will cause excessive fat storage and because of this, so many people go to bed hungry. The question is, should you eat at night and if so, what should you eat?The answer is “yes”, you should eat at night! In order to stabilize blood sugar and prevent over-eating the next day, a late night, balanced meal is critical. How many meals you eat in a day or whether or not you need a late night meal at all depends on how many hours you are awake during the day. It helps to think of your body as a machine. As long as you are awake, you should be fueling every few hours with a meal balanced in protein, carbohydrate and fat.We recommend that you eat one hour within waking and every three to four hours until you go to sleep at night. For example, if you eat dinner at 6 pm, and you don’t go to sleep until 10 pm, it’s important to grab a balanced meal or snack around 9 pm. This will prevent blood sugar levels from dropping too low

Everyone Democrat Is A Communist
Teh Stupidity never stops. Last night I get a secret admirer. It's Kentuckygirl68. I'd chatted with her once before and didn't like her too much. I decided to give her the benefit of the doubt and chat again. Big mistake. I can't remember how we got on these subjects, but here's what was said: **All democrats are formerly republicans who couldn't get elected as republicans **All democrats are communist **The democratic party was originally the party of racism and bigotry in the south (this is true) and therefore they cannot be supported now. **In all jobs, people who have an education do not have to perform because they can hide behind their education. **People who don't like her are afraid of her **People who think she's a bitch are insecure At that point I just decided I'd had enough of her and asked if she had any titty pics I should see before I blocked her. Teh Crazy never stops. I'm just happy that there are some peoeple who used to live in Georgia and now live in

Jesus And Satan
Jesus and Satan were having an on-going argument about who was better on the computer. They had been going at it for days, and frankly God was tired of hearing all the bickering. Finally fed up, God said, 'THAT'S IT! I have had enough. I am going to set up a test that will run for two hours, and from those results, I will judge who does the better job.' So Satan and Jesus sat down at the keyboards and typed away. They moused. They faxed. They e-mailed. They e-mailed with attachments. They downloaded. They did spreadsheets!

Thought Process Rant
I'm ranting. Bear with me. I mean seriously, I'm ranting and talking in circles in this blog.So I haven't been online since tuesday evening. Been at Drew's house. Well, I haven't decided what I want to do at this moment in time. The landlord still bugged me after my post of "one more and I'm out of here." granted he hasn't since Matt spoke to him, but at the same time Matt told him the same thing years ago, hell months ago even. And that quiet never lasts long. Never... The landlord usually starts talking to me outside of phone waves and comes over. After all the sexual harrassments and threats ove the years I'm just so fed up and done with it all. The stress is too much for me. When I'm here I just don't sleep well any more. I don't feel comfortable in my own home and it doesn't feel like my home anymore. I'm on the fence as to if I want to move or not. If I move I have a place to go where I'll be paying VERY LITTLE. If I stay here, I'm paying 800 a month alone for rent with a 600-700

Jesus And Satan Maybe Can See Better
Jesus and Satan were having an on-going argument about who was better on the computer. They had been going at it for days, and frankly God was tired of hearing all the bickering. Finally fed up, God said, 'THAT'S IT! I have had enough. I am going to set up a test that will run for two hours, and from those results, I will judge who does the better job.' So Satan and Jesus sat down at the keyboards and typed away. They moused. They faxed. They e-mailed. They e-mailed with attachments. They downloaded. They did spreadsheets!

Ugh
i got a call for an interview with an insurance company on monday...of course its business attire interview so now i gotta go buy a friggin suit i may never wear again...last time i had to wear one was to dads funeral and i wore all but the jacket because i hate suits...blah

Making Love Vs. Fucking
Making love versus fuckinghow funny just to utter those wordswhen you're home aloneand down and outsex is just a simple wordbut involved with it our complex emotionsthere is always one person who feels deeper than anotherone who longs for more, while the other wants lessi've made love to some, and i've fucked othersbut none can compare to how i feel when i'm with youthe feelings that are just above the surfacethat need not be spoken to be understoodits so clichebut i am having the best time of my lifemy unhappiness has found another homeand i'm left to shiver in awei can't describe what it feels like to make love to youto feel vulnerable, yet unafraid to face the consequencesto wake up in the morningknowing with all my heart that the feelings will remainfucking is so cold, callous, and uncaringits rough and fastlike a race to the finishwith only one winneri've never wonnor will i ever run that marathon againfucking isn't always by choicesometimes what you feel is making love is another

A Lil Girl Lost
This is one of the kindest things you may ever see... It is not known who replied, but there is a beautiful soul working in the dead letter office of the US postal service. Our 14 year old dog, Abbey, died last month. The day after she died, my 4 year old daughter Meredith was crying and talking about how much she missed Abbey.. She asked if we could write a letter to God so that when Abbey got to heaven, God would recognize her. I told her that I thought we could so she dictated these words: Dear God,Will you please take care of my dog? She died yesterday and is with you in heaven. I miss her very much. I am happy that you let me have her as my dog even though she got sick.I hope you will play with her. She likes to play with balls and to swim. I am sending a picture of her so when you see her You will know that she is my dog. I really miss her.Love, Meredith We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven. We put our return ad

Me
I joined only to shoot terrorists. I joined the day after the world trade center was destroyed. I felt it was my responsibility to get back at those who hurt us. I joined the infantry because I knew I would probably see combat. I went to Iraq twice. I have had dealings with more than my fair share of al-queda in Iraq operatives and their supporters. I have seen more than my fair share of hurt comrades, and innocent children who were in the wrong place at the wrong time. I have survived more than my share of IED's, mortar, RPG, and AK-47 fire. I still live with Iraq everyday. I used to ashamed that I had nightmares everynight, and that I couldn't be around ppl, or that was angry at the world. I have a severe brain injury, and i am lucky if i remember to pay the bills. My frontal lobe on teh right side was caved in. But would I do it again? You are damned right I would. I love my country, and I was proud to wear that uniform. I did my part to get back at those who got us. Now I am not go

Infantrymans Creed
The Infantryman's Creed I am the Infantry. I am my country's strength in war, her deterrent in peace. I am the heart of the fight- wherever, whenever. I carry America's faith and honor against her enemies. I am the Queen of Battle. I am what my country expects me to be- the best trained soldier in the world. In the race for victory, I am swift, determined, and courageous, armed with a fierce will to win. Never will I fail my country's trust. Always I fight on- through the foe, to the objective, to triumph over all. If necessary, I fight to my death. By my steadfast courage, I have won 200 years of freedom. I yield not- to weakness, to hunger, to cowardice, to fatigue, to superior odds, for I am mentally tough,physically strong, and morally straight. I forsake not- my country, my mission, my comrades, my sacred duty. I am relentless. I am always there, now and forever. I AM THE INFANTRY! FOLLOW ME!

Winners Of The Giveaway In Purple Magic Lounge
HERE ARE OUR WINNERSall winners have been paidwinners are:1 mil - Colton - from BRATT1 mil - Just Me - from TERESA500k - Tima583 - fromTERESA500k - Colton - from BRATT500k - Traveling Shadow -from TERESA500k - BobbyBones - from BRATT250k - Tima583 - from BRATT 250k - Colton - from TERESA 250k - Lick - from BRATT 250k - Manboobies - from TERESA 4 Pimp outs:from BRATT - Colton & Just ME from TERESA - Tima583 & LicK Bling winners from BRATT 3 credit bling - Just ME1 credit bling - Tima5835 credit bling - Maverick 10 credit bling-Tima583- (for being the last one standing) THANK YOU ALL FOR JOINING US WE ENJOYED IT AND HOPE YOU COME AGAIN. I HAD FUN GIVING STUFF AWAY. LUVS YA ALL THAT WERE THERE.SEE YA NEXT TIME..... ~BRATT~ & TERESA

9/11
Well its been 8 years ago that america was changed forever, so many lives cut short. My heart still hurts and I still cry sometimes when I hear Alan Jackson sing "Where Were You When The World Stopped Turning", I sit there think "Why God Why" would you let this happen? But I know that he had a reason for everything and in time his reasons will be revealed. But I still wonder and I still pray that we as americans will never have to see something like this again. I sure dont want my children to ever have to see it. But I know that where is a purpose and he will show us in his time. As americans we must stick together and work as one to keep this nation strong! I am writing this blog just as a opening for me this is my 1st one, So please feel free to watch this small clip of how our world was changed forever 8 years ago. All I ask is you please feel free to leave comments, If you have a memory please share. Thanks in advance to all those who take the time to read! May Go

Happy Again
It all started one night with me scrolling through fubar just looking around. I came upone this one girl April, her status said "crying" me, i don't like to see anybody upset. so i sent her a gift, believe it was a hug. She replyed thank you/ We talkd in shout box for a bit, she explained what was goin on. I gave her my email said if she ever wnated to talk i'll listn. She wrote me thanked me, and said we could be the best of friends. We lost touch for awhile but then one day there she was again. Said hello in my shout box. I was pleasntly surprised. We have talked ever since. Well I've got to say I have fallin in love with her. she is the greatest thing to happen to me. I went to see her lastnight and had the time of my life. Met her friends and her sis. I didn't wand to let her go. Lastnight confermed my feeling for her. She makes me happy again. she completes me. I honestly want to spend th rest of my life with her and start a family. You know in your heart you feel its right that p

Modern Day Tea Parties
I bet all these people voted for george bush 2 fucking times. no they want to support "no one" and act as if no mistake was ever made and that they were "in it for america" all along. notice how nothing was mentioned about the bush administration, a failure of a war with no weapons of mass destruction ever found to this day, a fucking texas oil gangster running amuck blowing up whomever he chooses with no qualms that repercussions will come, thousands of innocent people killed including americans (my cousin).... Not even bill blowjob clintons administration was mentioned. it is seriously fucking sad that for a country so advanced we are so afraid of change, because it will eventually lead to the demise of us in the end. im all for people standing up to big government, but its so obviously apparent here what side of the fence these guys are on. sheep in wolves clothing to say at the least. I havent even been to a doctor since 2003, or a dentist in 3 years, and it isn't be

Week 1
Hey people. Here is the schedule for week 1 for the football pool. For each game pick one winner of that game.. for instance if MIN is playing CLE and you think MIN will win, pick MIN. Do that for all 15 games (15 this week) and send them to me in a private message. So there is no confusion for the Monday night game, choose the team you think will win, along with how many points each team scores. So if SD plays OAK and you believe SD will win, pick SD and what you think the ending score will be. SD 21 OAK 7. Got it? :) Pretty simple. Okay enough blabbing from me.. here are your teams for WEEK 1! THURS SEPT 10TH PIT @ TEN - ALREADY PLAYED.. 0 SUNDAY SEPT 13TH MIA @ ATL MIN @ CLE JAC @ IND DET @ NO DAL @ TB PHI @ CAR NYJ @ HOU WAS @ NYG SF @ ARI STL @ SEA CHI @ GB OOOOO THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD MONDAY SEPT 14TH BUF @ NE SD @ OAK

Goldie
I can’t be anything other than I am. That seems to be problematic as of late.You see it’s like this …I’m changing my name to Goldie.It seems to fit me better.Kind of ironic since I don’t seem to fit anywhere at the moment.I’m too talkative for you.Too quiet for her.I’m too aggressive for him.I’m too reserved for them.It seems lately I’m always too tall, too short, too fat, too pale, too whatever it is you don’t want.Too far away …Too close to your heart …But I remind myself that Goldie needed what was right for her as well …Your porridge is too cold.Your chair is too small.Your bed is too soft.It’s all about the “just right.”

The Prince
Once upon a time there was a beautiful prince.In his mind was brilliance and shadow.In his heart was pure love and pain.In his soul was a purity of spirit that few could ever match.Across the moat in a small village, lived a young woman.She would watch the prince everyday.She smiled at him when he walked around his castle.She imagined dancing with him in the grand ballroom.She dreamed of stolen kisses in the garden.One day his kingdom was overcome with darkness…Thunder and lightning angrily attacked his wallsOcean squalls to the West …. Rolling grey skies to the EastHe withdrew into his castle … safe behind the walls that brought him such comfort. The young woman heard the thunder … saw the lightningWatched as her handsome prince shored himself up safe behind the castle door.She looked up at the sky … defiant. She steadied herself against the blustery wind as she positioned herself under the prince’s window.As the howling grew louder she began t

Update
So I have some good news. My mom can finally eat soup! lol yeah its not much but its something. She is getting a little energy back. She starts the IV treatments on monday. She also has to get tested for TB (I dunno why). Not much else new. She is still weak and tired most of the time...but its been a good couple of days. She has been able to get out of the house now. She has done a little shopping and tried some light yard work. Keep us in your prayers still plz. Everyday is another step and I hope things keep looking up.

Oh Hell
oh hell,what to tell,one day my heart fell,and that very day i was stuck in a painful hell,to the point u want to say luv doesnt exist oh well,all ive ever had is a endless roller coaster of pain,as my tears stain,my cold and empty heart,with memories that tears me apart,from my soul,because i have a endless hole,in my soul,looking for the one to make me whole,as time takes its toll,on my cold empty soul!

9 Levels, 60 Days
9 Levels, 60 days, 105,000,000 million points. I have nothing to give you except, I can re-rate you and show you the love you show me. My 31st birthday is Nov. 13, 2009. I want to hit Level 31, won't you help me?

Rock The World Ψ
FREEDOM OF SPEECH & EXPRESSION is one of the most fundamental rights that individuals enjoy. It is fundamental to the existence of democracy and the respect of human dignity. It is also one of the most dangerous rights, because freedom of expression means the freedom to express one's discontent with the status quo and the desire to change it. As such, it is one of the most threatened rights, with governments - and even human rights groups - all over the world constantly trying to curtail it. http://www.derechos.org/human-rights/speech/ http://shahrocks2010.blogspot.com/

Steps In The Travel
Traveling the paths of life alone should never be an option. When two souls connect through a series of paths traveled if life, the spark shines brightly in the darkness. When you hold hands at the edge of the unknown and look deeply into each others eyes and take that plunge together, everything in your life up to this point has finally been worth it. These emotions and feelings transcend the meaning of the word Love. It is impossible to fully and completely describe what Love is as there are truly no words that can come close to describing exactly what one feels when they are truly in love with another person so completely. We strive to understand something so complex yet so simple that most people fail to see the bright spark of true love when it is shown to them. Some people also see that bright spark possibility and thus always finds oneself chasing dreams instead of living them and thus missing that bright spark in the process yet never knowing as you continously chas

Him ~
In his temple, he has no heart, no love to share, no desire to start. He sits alone inside his mind, only acting wreckless with those that are kind. Surrounded by those he lured with lies,my part in this play is done, and so I shed my last good bye.

Dwf September Sabotage!!!
DWF SEPTEMBER SABOTAGESEPTEMBER 26th, 20094509 E. Bonanza Rd.Las Vegas, NV 89110 DWF World Heavyweight ChampionshipAsylum vs. "Iron" Mike Steel (c) It's do or die time for Asylum as he faces the World Champ one last time. Mike Steel agreed to this match under one condition: that asylum put his CAREER on the line. It's all or nothing come the 26th. Will Asylum finally succeed where he and others have failed so many times? Or will Mike Steel send Asylum packing into obscurity? DWF Xtreme ChampionshipSolo vs. Felony (c) It's a match for the ages! A clash of two of the craziest, most hardcore individuals to step into a DWF ring. Repeated times, Solo has attempted to wrestle the title from Felony's grip and each time, Solo has come up short by inches. Now, once more, Solo and Felony will collide in a storm of blood, pain, and foreign objects. Can Solo come out with a win? Or will Felony once more get the better of his enemy? DWF Team Combat ChampionshipNew Breed [Big Nasty & John

Hunted
Leslie, twenty, woke up slowly, with her head pounding and her limbs weak. She’d been at the club, but her memories grew hazy. Where was she? She looked around and saw that she was outside. Way outside. She gazed into the distance and saw only hills, mountain peaks, and fields like the one she was in. And she was naked. Her clothes were gone, and she’d been lying on the ground. She was cold.“Good, you’re up,” the man’s voice said from behind her. She screamed and turned around, her hands flying to cover her naked breasts and pussy. The man was seated on a log, fully dressed, with a small pack on his back. He also carried several rifles. He was glaring at her with a cold stare.“What? What happened? Who are you?”“I’m not here to talk to you,” he said.“Please, give me back my clothes!” she cried.“Your clothes are in a trash bin three hundred miles from here. Now listen up, girl. See this?” He held u

Hate
Hate I stay frustrated and aggravated.I hate the fact that I have to be me.Sick and tired of having to look at myselfIn the mirrorDay after day.Seeing all the flaws that I hide on the out.Hating the fact that all I ever feel is doubt.I hate the fact that I always feel so awkward.I hate that I know that Im not always the best father.I hate that I always feel so inadequate.I hate my addictive personality,Whether its drugs or people.I hate that I hate myself.I hate that I take things so personal.I hate that Im not good at anything useful.I hate that I cant look you in the eyeBecause I feel that Im less.I hate the things I do to myself.I hate that I cant stop doing them.I hate that I feel I should always do moreBut lack the strength to do so.I hate that I feel I deserve to be miserable...

On The Canvas Of My Heart
You've brushed such beautyon the pageand on the canvas of my heartstirred my soulto live againand brought new passion to my art.You have raisedme to new heightssuch as I've never knowncaptured freely in the spellof your sweet euphonic tonesas the colorssomehow blendmeandering, enchant, engage,and yet wordsstill somehow fail,these simple words upon the page.These could never quite portrayall the wonderand the charms,all the thoughtsthat flow so freelyas I hold you in my arms.I can't promisefancy clothes, finest goldor fastest carsbut a worldso full of dreamslying just beyond the stars. Poem By Tammy C.

Trips In Life
Just when you think life is beautiful and going great, somethign happens beyond your understanding and you fall flat on your face once again... You lose everything you have invested your life, love and soul into... Once again you find yourself alone and Lost...

The Matrix Unloaded
“And the LORD said unto Moses, Hew thee two tables of stone like unto the first: and I will write unto these tables the words that were in the first tables, which thou brakest.” I am just a little surprised that the LORD didn’t obliterate Moses as well due to what He refers to opening the thirty-fourth chapter of Exodus. If you’ll remember, Moses destroyed the original tablets when he came down from mount Sinai and saw the children of Israel worshiping the molten calf, claiming it as their God Who brought them out of Egypt. But Moses stood in the way of the LORD obliterating the children of Israel by calling His reputation into account – why deliver Your people from slavery if You’re only going to destroy them in the wilderness, that was his argument – and, at least the way I’m reading the story, won the LORD’s respect. So Moses by himself was the one called back into the full presence of God (His glory from the previous chapter

Catheter Ablation
Color me a candidate. I've had issues with my heart since birth, and they culminated into a major surgery on my aorta, a major artery that is connected to the heart. As a side effect of the surgery, a second electrical pathway was formed. Technically, the heart is only supposed to have one electrical pathway down the center of it, but a second pathway may or may not be life threatening depending on its severity and effect. Mine is apparently worrisome enough to go in and be burned off. It's an outpatient proceedure, and from what I've been told, it's fairly safe. My only concern is that two lines will be put into my body (neck and groin) to go into my heart to find the second pathway. With a 90% success rate, chances are slim that the proceedure would have to be done again. I'm just looking forward to an end to the problems with my heart.

~bratt~ Wants To Spoil You For 2 Weeks. See How:)
~Bratt~ WANTS TO SPOIL YOU. AND SHE LOVES TO SPOILHER FIENDS. JUST ASK THEM:)! HER FAVORITE IS BLING PACKS AND BLASTS. FUBUCKS ARE ALWAYS GOOD. SOME COME OWN YOURSELF A ~BRATT~ ~ BRATT~ http://fubar.com/photo.phpu=1725646&i=2584668289&albumid=1847516 COME PUT A SMILE ON THAT BRATTS FACE

Life / Choices / Options / Uncertainties
Life is strange. Sometimes I wish I was more than one person. My mind is forever unsettled. I have made choices in my life. Some good, some bad, some I can never go back to, some I wish I could, some I'm glad are gone, some I wish I could make instead of hanging out there forever. I feel overwhelmed with choices and know I can't be the only one with stress and second guesses about choices I've made or choices I want to make and yet I feel alone like I'm the only one. Is it true that one person MUST choose one path and walk it without and trips over the course of their life? I know it sounds cryptic but I just have a lot of stuff on my mind right now.

One Year
its been one year to the day i lost a true friend of mine. he was a police officer, and he was doing a police charity ride, and he was hit head on by a ford f-250 while he was riding a police motorcycle. i 'm not doing this for sympathy,i'm mainly doing this to raise awareness. he was a husband and a father of now 4 year old girl. i would like to ask when you out driving to pay attention to your driving. is that phone call, how pretty you must look, radio station, cd, etc. really worth someone's life? he'll never be there for his daughter's first day of school, her first heart break, to put the fear of god to the boy who comes to pick er up, to walk her down the asile when she gets married, and every other little momment in her life. so please just pay attention to your driving

Family
To all my friend I just want you to know that I have not been ignoring any of you. Seance May my mother has been fighting her third bought with cancer. This has been very hard on her as well as us girls. Between her treatments, her trips in and out of the hospital, and all around failing heath I have not been able to really keep in touch with all off you. For some of you this is the first time you are hearing about this, the reason for that being is we had all thought that this was going to be like the last two times were it was bad but she got back on her feet fairly quick. That does not seem to be the case this time. Recent events have taken me from work to her on numerous occasions. I know a a lot of you think that I am just flaking on you and that is not the case. I will try to keep in touch the best that I can but for the most part I really do not want to have to go and talk to everyone about this. For now this is the most information that I am willing to part with. I will

Find Out Who Truly Is Your Role Model.
DON'T SCROLL DOWN YET!! FIRST, DO THE SIMPLE MATH BELOW, THEN SCROLL DOWN TO FIND YOUR HERO. It's CRAZY how accurate this is! 1) Pick your favorite number between 1-8 2) Multiply by 3 then 3) Add 3

Lyin' Sack O Crap
Granted, I don't always agree with the winners on award shows, but this was this poor girl's first award and this dumbass went and ruined it and then has the balls to blame it on his mama's death?! Oh give me an f-ing break! I hope your mama zaps your stupid ass! Kanye West appeared to blame the pain of his mother's death two years ago for his "rude" behavior at Sunday's MTV Video Music Awards. The rapper told Jay Leno he would now "take some time off" to think about how he will "make it through the rest of this life." West's appearance on Monday's prime-time premiere of "The Jay Leno Show" capped a 24-hour period that began Sunday evening with him strolling down the red carpet at New York's Radio City Music Hall while gulping from a bottle of Cognac.

Just Something I'm Thinkin Bout At This Moment...
So soft. So warm. So wet. Warmth floods me in places I dare not say! The images in my head run rampant. I focus on one. In this instant it's all I need. All i need for my release. Explosion happening uncontrollable. Now if just only for the real thing! well shit this ain't heartbreak!!! gotta get it in it's right place dammit.........

I Don't...i Don't
I don't want to hear the cruel words you speak with such venom.Why take your frustrations out on me? What did I do? Tell me!I'm here all the time. Everyday I'm here for you.Why make me feel dead inside? Why blame me for your failures?You're hardly there for me, I'm alone in this farce.I don't want to be the one any longer to carry the burden.I don't think you understand how much you degrade me.I don't even know if you truly feel at all! Do you? Can you?I don't know why I stay. I just don't. I don't know what to do.I don't know why you are like you are to me. Do you even know?You tell me why but I don't think you even know. No, you don't.Why can't you see how much damage you cause me? Others see it.I don't understand how you cannot see how you are or what you do!I don't...I don't understand, trully I don't.

Star Crossed Lovers
It happens every time two people who were meant to be together connect through ways other than face to face. They share the same likes and dislikes. Sexually, they could fulfill each other's dreams without being inhibited or even feeling ashamed. Imagine the feelings they will share when we finally get the chance too connect. With lips locked as their tongue's wrestle each other and bodies molded together breaking a sweat. No one to stop them or keep them apart...I come to you, but then you could come to me. None of that matters now. I have everything set up in a cozy little road side haven. Any toys we might like to use and, of course, you would love to use as well. They are all arranged on the table in the corner. Even ones tied or cuffed to the bed. Nothing between us and no one to catch us, left to our own devices to fill our few days together how ever we want to. Inside the room, I wait impatiently. Long nights spent together online typing and playing on the cam, innocently of cou

Tara's Search (lesbian Foot Fetish)
It happens every time two people who were meant to be together connect through ways other than face to face. They share the same likes and dislikes. Sexually, they could fulfill each other's dreams without being inhibited or even feeling ashamed. Imagine the feelings they will share when we finally get the chance too connect. With lips locked as their tongue's wrestle each other and bodies molded together breaking a sweat. No one to stop them or keep them apart...I come to you, but then you could come to me. None of that matters now. I have everything set up in a cozy little road side haven. Any toys we might like to use and, of course, you would love to use as well. They are all arranged on the table in the corner. Even ones tied or cuffed to the bed. Nothing between us and no one to catch us, left to our own devices to fill our few days together how ever we want to. Inside the room, I wait impatiently. Long nights spent together online typing and playing on the cam, innocently of cou

My Artistic Manifesto
My Artistic Manifesto I am the ultimate feminist.I idolize the woman. I do not destruct and degrade her. But instead I elevate her to the status of a Goddess. In my work woman is a sexual force to be reckoned with. She is perfect in her perceived flaws. She is desired and full of desire. And this is beautiful and natural. She is not the Madonna or the Whore, but something far more complex. I photograph today's Venuses. But I do not create her from marble. I instead sculpt her with light. I take a woman and illuminate her inner Goddess. I then capture a taste of her essence with my lens. I do not photograph the mother, the wife, or the saint. I photograph the lover, the temptress, the Goddess.My women are not naked. They are not quivering vulnerable virgins. My women are radiant temptresses. Women are not meek. They assault the space around them with their curves and contours. When nature breathes on a man it is hardly disturbed. But a woman sends natures breath swirling and charged.My

Who Want My Points For 12 Hours
OK FU'S MZBOOTI IS GONNA BE MAKING DEALS. I AM GONNA BE ALTRUIZE PEOPLE WHO NEED TO LEVEL. WHAT DOES ALTRUIZE MEAN. FOR 12 HOURS I WILL GIVE U ALL MY POINTS. GOOD DEAL RIGHT NOW U ASK WHAT IS THE CATCH. NO CATCH MY SUGAS. I WILL DO THIS FOR YOU AND ALL I ASK FOR IS A AUTO 11 IN RETURN. THE AUTO WILL BE USED WHILE I ALTRUIZE YOU SO U GET DOUBLE THE POINTS. YOU CHOOSE THE DAY AND TIME U WANT IT TO START. I DO ALL THE WORK. YOU SIT BACK AND WATCH THE POINTS FADE AWAY. SOUND GOOD TO YOU. WELL PM ME IF U WANT TO MAKE A DEAL. I HAVE DONE THIS FOR A FEW FRIENDS AND IT WAS A GOOD DEAL FOR THEM.

Fibromyalgia & Narcolepsy. Why I've Been Gone.
My friends and Fu Friends have been asking and wondering why I have not been online much or very sociable. Well I have not been feeling well or sleeping for quite some time now. My doctor has finally discovered the reason. I suffer from Fibromyalgia & Narcolepsy. Here is alittle information on those health concerns in case you are not sure what exactly I suffer from. Fibromyalgia syndrome affects the muscles and soft tissue. What Is Fibromyalgia? Think you might have fibromyalgia? Learn more about fibromyalgia with its chronic muscle pain, fatigue, sleep disturbances, and tender points. What is fibromyalgia syndrome? A syndrome is a set of symptoms. When they exist together, they imply the presence of a specific disease or a greater chance of developing the disease. With FMS, the following symptoms commonly occur together: anxiety or depression decreased pain threshold or tender points incapacitating fatigue widespread pain Narcolepsy Narcolepsy is a neurological disor

A Soldiers Salute .. Lance Corporal Christopher Scott Fowlkes
To some they are our heroes, Others they are family and friends, No matter what they are, Their duty never ends. The path they lead is hard, And some can't understand, Why they choose to do it, To fight for Freedom in this land. Age makes no difference, There's just one job to do, Stand and fight together, Faith will push them through. So many miles between them, A simple phone call such a gift, Things we take for granted, Gives their hearts such a huge lift. I wonder if they ever think, That they're forgotten over there, I wonder if they sleep at night, Like we do without a care. Sometimes I think they're chosen, By a higher, greater power, Because they give away their Freedom, To keep us safe every hour. I don't know if they choose or are chosen, But whatever the reason may be, I want to say "Thank You" Lance Cpl. Chris Fowlkes, You gave your life to keep us free. I live each day with my family, Soldiers live each day in fear, I sleep at night in peace, Soldiers sleep with their gun

Censored Or Hacked?
Anyone that has been to my profile knows I have a pretty politicly aggresive profile. I am not affraid to bring to your attention the corruption in the goverment of The United States. Today when I logged on I noticed someone had accessed my profile and made some changes. The first change I noticed was that my "Joker Obama" pic that I used as my profile image pic had been changed to what you see now. The second change my status was something about being mad at the corruption and lies and asked if you were tired of it yet and if so do something about it....get off fubar and do something then. Well that status was deleated and the option to creat a ststus message had been removed from my home page. I went to change my profile pic bac and was informed I am not allowed to acess this section. So I the went to see if perhaps they hacked my profile as well. And sure enough my entire "About Me" section was deleated. Guess someone did not like my right to my opinion. Now keep in mind I am keepin

Fuck Me Righteous
It's the silent sighs and... something in your eyes Sleep eludes when you sleep to dream Dreams become your woken lies When you have the youngest eyes The youngest eyes The boldest face A glimpse of you... just a taste Wants and needs so out of place Your eyes Your eyes My cocaine's lace Not pure but strong, I feel your pull Fuck me righteous and make me full

Cards
So life just dealt me with some not so cool cards..I recently found out im a diabetic , im lucky to just be type 2(( Non Insulin)) But it made me look at life in a whole new way..I bitch way to much about how unlucky i am , rather than embraceing all the lovley things god has granted me with :) "Ain't nothing gonna break my strideNobody gonna slow me down, oh noI got to keep on moving"

How To Catch A Fish
So have your eye on a Pisces woman. You find yourself attracted to her because there is something so mysterious and intriguing about her that you just can't figure out. Join the crowd. Making a Pisces woman fall in love with you is the easy part, its keeping her attention that's hard. You may always feel like there are parts of her you can never touch. If you are astute enough to notice theses things. And if you are not you wont last long. She needs her shadows to feel safe. When she loves she does so with every bit of her soul. This requires her to be very vulnerable. She needs that shadow to run to when she is overwhelmed or if things go badly. Everything has meaning to her; the wording of your speech, whether you kissed her goodnight, did you call her at lunch. For instances; she asks what are you going to do tonight. You say, "I don't know I think i'll stay in watch some tv then go to bed early." What she hears is, "I'd rather watch tv then be with you tonight." Even if she claims

Great Days!
The last few days have been Great! Monday I had a job interview, and even though the guy who interview me was an ass, I still had fun driving down to the place and learning that I wouldn't want to work in a doctor's office. Tuesday I signed up for my Networking classes, which I am sure are going to be great, they will get me out of the house. Last but not less today I called Wendover and signed up for my birthday slot tournament. Yep on October 20, 2009 I will be out at the Montego Bay playing slots, down side I'll be all alone :(. How sad is my life when I am spending my 2nd birthday in a roll alone in a hotel room by myself. I'll keep my head up, in about 6 months I will be a happy Networking Tech making money again!

♥meow!♥
♥POST THIS IF U AREN'T SCARED 2 C HOW PEOPLE TRULY THINK OF U: 0=Ewwwww!? 1=Definetly not attractive 2=Decent 3=Cute 4=Fine as hell! 5=I'd do u 6=Pretty damn sexy! 7=Lovable,I LOVE U! 8=I wanna make u mine♥ This so ain't true LOL... So I know yall are full of shit HAHA

National Debt
Our countries National debt is at 11 trillion dollars ...11 TRILLION DOLLARS- is this seriously what you want your kids and your grandkids and your great grand kids to have to pay back? Do you think that you pay high taxes now? Just wait 20 years till our kids go to work and pay almost there whole paycheck towards the debt our government incurred when they where babies? Our government spends almost four BILLION DOLLARS A DAY.. 4 billion dollars a day wow.. I'm not shocked by any means they have been spending this much since September 28th 07'. So what are you prepared to do about this? Anything? Nothing? And if we do does that make us un American? I think not this country was founded on freedom and right now ALL OF US AMERICANS ARE in such serious debt that we are all but slaves to work! Speaking of work where are any jobs at. Have you seen any jobs come out of any...........Any of the stimulas plans? No not me.. I'm am just so fed up with what is going on right now I don't know which

Facebook
so i think facebook is pretty fantastic, it might just be because i changed a lot since i graduated high school and i'm a lot prettier now. i get messages from random people that i had always admired in school telling me how pretty i am. ...i guess i just like the Attention.

Understanding James
This birth chart shows the positions of the planets of james The planets in the signsThe position of the planets in the signs of the Zodiac has an influence on the character of the individual and these influences form a large part of the individual psyche.Sun in AquariusHe is independent, autonomous, emancipated and has progressive ideas.Weaknesses: an unusual, rebellious and revolutionary spirit.Moon in VirgoHe has a very good memory. Scientific or medical studies preferred above all others. He is humble and moderate, calm and reserved. Emotional discipline. He is willing to help, devoted and gentle.Weaknesses: servile nature, frequent changes of occupation, gets annoyed, upset, worries. He is too shy.Mercury in AquariusLikes everything that is new and original: is an innovator. Values his independence and liberty of action greatly. He initiates projects, he is individualistic, idealistic and humanitarian. Likes intellectual discussions.Weaknesses: argumentative, bickering and eccentr

Seeing My Doctor Today
I will be seeing my doctor today to speak to a nutrionist and learn how to eat properly to correct my hormone levels. Have been feeling down a bit lately and had some test done and it seems that my hormones (of all kinds) are elevated, decreased and have gone sideways since my hospital stay two years ago. This is the same hospital stay I had where I almost died from bleeding ulcers. So now they will try to correct my hormones through, supplements, precriptions and nutrition ... I sure it hope that will help. Have been feeling blah for months and have been gaining weight and now I find out that it is all because of my imbalance of hormones.

It's Like This...
There is no sign posted on my door that says rates returned. There is no sign posted on my door that says fans returned. There is no sign posted on my door that says only pretty people allowed. So, please, if you feel that you must be so bold as to come and tell me to fan you or rate you... Save us both some time and DON'T. I do not owe anyone a rate or a fan or a salute. I do them at my own leisure. I do them when and if I want. If you are only on my list for what points you might get, please, fuck off now.

Pics?
ok, i was wondering if any of my friends on here that are friends with my wife SIN has the pics of her in her full body fishnet outfit... i am not going to get into details on how she posed and everything on the pics, cause if you have seen them or have them, then you know...if you have them, i need for you to send them to me...for some reason they are not on the comp and they are lost forever.....one of my emails is bynar_tryson@yahoo.com .....thanks :)

Once Upon A Time Chapter 6
From Different Worlds He is from here, she is from there But when they are together, they don't care They share the same earth, they share the same sky None of it seems to matter when they look into the others eyes When he takes her to where she's going, will he go back to where he's been Will they have to go their separate ways just start all over again Do they live for the moment, and wait for the answers to come unfurled Or do they break it to their hearts that they come from different worlds

Kids
Yup another one of my raves. The other day I went to repo a computer. The people knew I was coming and when we came into the home They was still on the puter.... Thats not the bad part... They was trying to make their last bet on an online casino... That is not the bad part... One kids had shit running out of his diaper. The other was naked on the couch. Both were begging the (two) parents that were their to cook them food... OMG They asked me if I would give them the computer back when they got caught up on their payments... I told them yes, after childrens services takes your kids from ya... I was told to GO F*** myself and I left What da hell is wrong with people?

The Rise And Fall Of Me
I rise in the morning to the rapid squall of the alarm beneath my pillow buzzing me to descend from the heaven that I unfurl in the dreamland where I curl and lay nestled in the safety of your arms. I float still high off the endorphins encasing my mind and racing through my veins in a swift powerful motion and wave of glee I can't describe.. I feel mighty and unstoppable - world watch me now I can tackle any obstacle and I will reign victorious over any foe that opposes me this day. Mundane tasks begin to chide me and I feel slightly slighted and the journey I coursed becomes detoured and I am lured into the have to's and encased by the I can't do's and I begin to feel overwhelmed, defeated even and the inner me raises her hands to the sky and shouts out WHY???! Onlookers like wayward hookers sense my disappointment and zone in for sale... merchants of the jagged pill called happiness that isn't always easy to swallow when you feel hollow and want to retreat and fit yourself neatly i

Californians... Lol
Totally Love you Corey!!! Californians So as not to be outdone by all the redneck, hillbilly, and Texan jokes, somebody had to come up with this: You know you're from California if...1. Your co-worker has 8 body piercings and none are visible.2. You make over $300,000 a year and still can't afford a house.3. You take a bus and are shocked at two people carrying on a conversation in English.4. Your child's 3rd-grade teacher has purple hair, a nose ring, and is named Flower.5. You can't remember . . . is pot illegal?6. You've been to a baby shower that has two mothers and a sperm donor.7. You have a very strong opinion about where your coffee beans are grown, and you can taste the difference between Sumatran and Ethiopian.8. You can't remember . . . is pot illegal?9. A really great parking space can totally move you to tears.10. Gas costs $1.00 per gallon more than anywhere else in the U.S.11. The guy at 8:30 am at Starbucks wearing a baseball cap and sunglasses who looks like

Out Of The Darkness
Before I woke up this morning, I dreamed I was a contestant on “Project Runway”. I remember a body-length red gown with trailing cape that I won a challenge for and remarked when Heidi and company asked me about my background or “inspiration” that two years ago I couldn’t even sew curtains, a reference to my mother-in-law Sharon having made the curtains for the Parable Playhouse stage I use to teach Sunday school. Assuming the dream is true to life, it means you’ll see me on the show sometime in 2011. I related this dream to my wife and also said several other contestants would have been glad to see me go because I was doing so well, and she added I’m not always the most talkative or associative person, and I can even be annoying. I shut up and thought to myself, “Have you actually PAID ATTENTION when watching that lately?” There’s no way I’m that annoying! Yesterday a man in his fifties shot himself in Oak Park to

A Bit Of Evritang'
I often times logg right onto a site and ca spit some random truth or thought of love or some sort of writen twisted view of the world that even the most conserviive of eople still like it even though they dont like the nessage, but today that does not seem to be the case I sat for like 10 - -20 minutes trying to come up with some cleave thought that would make me come of as rather smart but fuck that I'm not rather smart I am just regular smart I don't know it all I wont pretend I do ILike strange shit I like to explore and sometime exploite the world I lke to touch things hat are pretty not just look @ them I like joints in the morning and bongs @ night I like to run on about the most pointless of shit I like rant and rave when I cant do shit about the problem i like to start fighs but will avoid one if I can I like to argue with old people I like to beat up school kids I like bronto burgers and thin cut fries I like chees apple pie and america not to say that I always like americans

Once Upon A Time Chapter 7
There Is No Other There is no other He would cross the miles for There is no other Who makes his heart soar There is no other Who instills such passion There is no other Who brings this joy beyond comprehension There is no other For whom he would traverse time and dimensions There is no other Who is worth more to him than the Heavens There is no other And he will be with her even if it takes forever For there is no other

Amazing Friends!
This blog is basicly just as titled!! Im going through a majorly hard time right now and if it wasnt for a few certian people i WOULD have already lost my mind! I have recently found out that I have a very serious heart issues and my kidneys are failing! [[Yes, lovely, I know]] J Escobar, If you wasn't here with me even just through text I would have jumped off the deep end... becuase of your love and caring and understanding you have helped me see the light a the end of the tunnel! I know i GET glum and I get negative but because of you I come outta them lil stages and get back to the person I Normally am! A Little Shy, Wow what can i say... Even when I was off the fu for the longest time youve never seemed to have forgotten me! You know alot about whats going on and even though Ive never met you I have a close bond with you! Youve always been there when I needed you, always had a ear to listen to me and a bling to cheer me up lol! Thanks girly... You really are one of the sp

Heaven's Grocery Store
I was walking down life's Highway A long time ago I saw a sign that read heaven's grocery store. As I got a little closer the door came open wide and when I came to myself I was standing inside. I saw a host of angels they were standing every where, one handed me a basket and said, my child shop with care everything a christian needed was in that grocery store, and all you couldn't carry you could come back the next day for more. First I got some patience Love was in the same row. Further down was understanding you need that wherever you go. I got a box or two of wisdom then a box or two of faith for he was all over the place. I just couldn't miss the holy ghost I stopped to get some strength and courage to help me run the race. By then my basket was full but I remembered I needed Grace. Then I started to the counter to pay my grocery bill, for I thought I had everything to do my masters will. As I went up the aisle I saw prayer and I just had to put that in for I knew

Hmph... Yes. I Am A Bish, Tysvfm.
I keep either seeing ppl ask for you to just do whatever or telling others to do whatever. 1. If you have the balls to ask someone for 11s, either buy them 500/11s for $10 to use for you, or get them a VIP. They DO NOT owe theirs to you. 2. You want cherry bombed? Then have the decency to purchase someone a cherry bomb to bomb you with. 3. You want someones rates, im them and offer them a blast, bling, VIP, whatever THEY want. NOT what you want to give them. 4. If you can't do those things, then dont feel that anyone just owes you.

Hillbilly Hero
Two hillbillies walk into a restaurant. While having a bite to eat, they talk about their moonshine operation.Suddenly, a woman at a nearby table, who is eating a sandwich, begins to cough. After a minute or so, it becomes apparent that she is inreal distress. One of the hillbillies looks at her and says,'Kin ya swallar?'The woman shakes her head no.Then he asks, 'Kin ya breathe?'The woman begins to turn blue and shakes her head no.The hillbilly walks over to the woman, lifts up her dress, yanks down her drawers and quickly gives her right butt cheek a lick with his tongue.The woman is so shocked that she has a violent spasm and the obstruction flies out of her mouth.As she begins to breathe again, the Hillbilly walks slowly back to his table.His partner says, 'Ya know, I'd heerd of that there 'Hind Lick Maneuver' but I ain't niver seed nobody do it!'If you don't send this to five friends, there will be five fewer people laughing in the world!

Lipstick In School
According to a news report, a certain private school in Washington was recently faced with a unique problem. A number of 12-year-old girls were beginning to use lipstick and would put it on in the bathroom. That was fine, but after they put on their lipstick, they would press their lips to the mirror leaving dozens of little lip prints. Every night the maintenance man would remove them, and the next day the girls would put them back. Finally the principal decided that something had to be done. She called all the girls to the bathroom and met them there with the maintenance man. She explained that all these lip prints were causing a major problem for the custodian who had to clean the mirrors every night (you can just imagine the yawns from the little princesses). To demonstrate how difficult it had been to clean the mirrors, she asked the maintenance man to show the girls how much effort was required. He took out a long-handled squeegee, dipped it in the toilet, and cleaned the mir

Deployed
Hurry up and get there is a popular phrase, what are you looking at soldier, as I stand here hard willing in parade rest at ease. Raining down shells from the sky, this is one storm I wish away praying to God I am out of harm the rest of my stay. As I stand and watch the dust clouds fly by my thoughts are off thinking of my life and love I have left behind, it is the soldier’s oath that hold back my cries. Cut off from what I know as home leaning on the camouflage that surrounds me, I know I am not the only one alone. Back in the states songs are written, books are read, movies made, in the hopes to remember the lives we gave, in the end up they go a civilians thanks the standing O. Know one truly knows what we have seen, the hate, ugly, defiled, un godly things; you’ll never comprehend it in all your dreams. by: GM*FAMOSO*

Already There
You walked into sightand I saw the sun riseI felt like I came to liferight there in your eyesLove floating on the breezeswept me off my feetI knew God had sent youto make my life completeIn the shadows where I standno light upon my faceYour heart belongs here with mineno other could replaceTo scared to take the fallwill I ever know you careCan your heart be filled with mine?I'm already there. Poem by Tammy C.

Splitting Up
The ramifications of splitting up never ends The hurt and loneliness never bends We try and move on each day and night We pursue our dreams alone each day with all of our might The family routines are no longer here We fight to numb the feeling with vodka and beer The financial obligations just keep on The hate at the ex, is nearly gone The disappoint still remains The kids, their wants their needs, their gains Life as I knew it will never be the same Some say it gets better, others pronounce the pain Birthdays come and Birthdays go Getting older and trying to be happy amidst all the woe A smile here a smile there Trying so hard to hide my despair Camp for the kids, college after that Feeling everyday like a financial doormat Thursday thru Monday every other week add another day is all I get More vodka and beer trying to forget The tucking in every night The homework I hated and making sure its right I miss those days In all the ways

Best Of Friends
A boy and a girl,the best of friends.primary to high schoolfrom beginning to end. Through all those yearstheir friendship grew.They both felt the same,but neither knew. Each waking momentsince the day they met.They both loved each othersunrise to sunset. He was all she hadin her terrible life.He was the onewho kept her from her knife. She was his angel,she made him smile.Though life threw him curves,she made it all worth while. Then one daythings went terribly wrong.The next few weekswere like a very sad song. He made her jealouson purpose he tried.When the girl asked, "Do you love her?" on purpose he lied. He played with jealousylike it was a game.Little did he knowThings would never be the same. His plan was workingbut he had no clue.How wrong things would go,the damage he would do. One night she broke down,feeling very alone.Just her and the blade,no one else home.

The Bottle Of Merlot
A man asked a waiter to take a bottle of Merlot to an unusually attractive woman sitting alone at a table in a cozy little restaurant. So, the waiter took the Merlot to the woman and said, "This is from the gentleman who is seated over there."... and indicated the sender with a nod of his head. She stared at the wine coolly for a few seconds, not looking at the man, then decided to send a reply to him by a note. The waiter, who was lingering nearby for a response, took the note from her and conveyed it to the gentleman. The note read: "For me to accept this bottle, you need to have a Mercedes in your garage, a million dollars in the bank and '7' inches in your pants." After reading the note, the man decided to compose one of his own in return. He folded the note, handed it to the waiter and instructed him to deliver it to the lady. It read: "Just to let you know things aren't always what they appear to be; I have a Ferrari Maranello, BMW Z8, Mercedes CL600, and

What If
What if your boyfriend for two or three days was hanging with his X and nothing and i qoute nothing was going on. yet somehow you are treated like crap and ignored and made out to be the bad guy. he wont even treat ya like a human or tell ya where he is. goes places he would normally bring ya but now he is not, and the x just got back from a trip with the one she supposidly loves.. so you gotta be makin it up in your head, cuz no way would she degrade something so sacred. What if it were you. what would you do?

Mushroom House Bound!
So..... Thought I would throw up an update blog of where Smurfette has been etc. Sorry I have not been around hardly at all lately. But I have been working on myself and my life w/my kids.. Which are enjoying their new life in Germany and my new life with Skott. We are doing great... He is working with an awesome Construction company now... He got me into wood carving so I have been spending a lot of time doing that and starting to take orders etc. I have also been getting into Cooking and Baking a LOT more than what I was used to, learning new recipes etc. I also finally began my journey on finding my dad's birth family.. since he was adopted at the age of 9yrs... Recently I found everyone again.. Unfortunately it was only just a few months after my natural grandmother Betty passed away. Come to find out I have 2 Uncles & 5 Aunts and a Million cousins... They are mainly all in the Indianapolis area, come to find out over the last few years.. I have also lived a block from a co

Originally Parted
(this was something I think I wrote like 4/5 years ago...found it yesterday) I want to I want to Scream Yell, cry, punch I want to I can't I try to I try to, I try to say The words ...my feelings...my fears I try to I can't I should..Oh I should.. I really should... make him, Understand..listen HEAR ME I should.. I can't...or Maybe I won't... yes, I love I love, I so love I try I should I want to be loved I think... there is a place waiting in there somewhere...waiting wanting to try... loving, wanting, needing I can't... self hardening fear... that this isnt going to stop until I whisper all the tiny pains of my heart to another soul to be heard to be held to be wanted to be lusted to be understood... I want

Rippin' Shurikens
Each1 Teach1 BrassKnucklePoet said: you can stay primpin, ima stay pimpin these written shurikens into a verbal whirlwind encouraging competition to flourish until the world ends... oh these silly sapiens, im sprinklin color across the page like painting with sick gradients, minglin with fellow aliens, walkin across seas on breezes or stiff tail winds..im ridin until the rail ends..orgasm. then cold grabbem and makem go tell they male friends..todays the day the sale ends, raincheckin and wreckin all comers with all ailments.terminally ill but still spitten prevention medicine..step up and catch rebuttal from these distinguished gentlemen... ArcheType (Marq) said: Hear dat pimpin...Hurlin shurikens? iight, Im like street fightin Ryu screamin ArrrhhYuhket Or Killer instinct inflicting combos out my tool kit Harken back to yester years of dat ill shit When reminisce over of you was the illest Or Paris was spittin that militant tip for the realist Lie: 'when ya buy a rap record..

My Friends
G-damn, I was just looking thru my friends and wow, what Hot bunch of women they are, so to them I say ladies you are the finest of the finest on Fubar or any other network, you girls ROCK FOR REAL!!! much love to ya all....

Week 4
My week 4 Top 25 predictions #1. Florida over Kentucky#2. Texas over UTEP#3. Alabama over Arkansas#4. Ole Miss over South Carolina#5. Penn State over Iowa #6. California over Oregon#7. LSU over Mississippi State#8. Boise State over Colorado State #9. Miami Florida over # 11 Virginia Tech#12. USC over Washington State#13. Ohio State over Illinois#14. Cincinnati over Fresno State#15. TCU over Clemson #16. Oklahoma State over Grambling StateTexas Tech over #17. Houston #18. Florida State over South Florida#19. BYU over Colorado State Southern Miss over #20. Kansas #21. Georgia over Arizona State#22. North Carolina over Georgia Tech#23. Michigan over Indiana#24. Washington over Stanford #25. Nebraska over Louisiana-lafayette

Helpless
i feel helpless. i want to be there. you just push me away. open yourself up. never doubt. i give myself to you. you always hesitate. you always let everything burn down. i feel helpless. there is a big empty space between us. i try to close the gap. you always go farther away. i feel like im getting nowhere. i feel like im reaching the end. i gave it all. i feel my world is going down. i feel very helpless. everything is clear now. i break down. i let my future guide me. my life is a book. my story is written for me. i just let it go. and let it guide me

My Angel
My AngelThe moment I opened my heart and let you in I saw this great love starting to begin. I opened my eyes to a vision of you I hope, I pray your feelings are true. I have loved and I have paid the cost And I have felt the pain of the love I lost. But, now, I think I have truly found An Angel who walks upon the ground. You go beyond all limits for me Just to show your love endlessly. I could search my whole life through And never find another 'you'. You are so special that I wanted you to know I truly, completely love you so.Baby i truely love you. I will always be here when you need me, no matter what you need. You are my Angel

Stolen From Serenity
Name something you dislike about the day you're having?general embarrasment When will your next kiss be?from my son in the morning Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?my motherAre you dating the last person you talked to?noWho was the last person you talked to in person?My sonAre you happy right now?Sure, i guessWhat are you sitting on right now?a chairIs there someone who you instantly smile when you receive a message from?of course Have you ever wanted someone you can't have? Constantly A random person yells to you "aybaybay." You say..thank you for noticing me! Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?my son What were you doing last night at midnight?hitting my inhaler before bedWhere is the shirt you are wearing from?no clueAre you a mean person?I really try not to be, but sometimes I can't help it.Does anyone hate you?too many to count Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?possibly, i may

The Raise
The Day the Penis asked for a Raise I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons: I do physical labor. I work at great depths. I plunge headfirst into everything I do. I do not get weekends or public holidays off. I work in a damp environment. I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation. I work in high temperatures. My work exposes me to contagious diseases. Sincerely, P. Niss The Response Dear Penis: After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons: You do not work 8 hours straight. You fall asleep after brief work periods. You do not always follow the orders of the management team. You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift. You don't always observe necessary

What In The Blue Fuck?
Today's moment-of-pause has been brought to you by Wal-Mart and the city of Peoria, Az. Apparently, some photo-clerk vigilante, diligently on the lookout for child pornography, saw photos of kids during bath time and decided to call the cops, according to a story on Good Morning America.Next thing the parents of these kids knew, the children were removed from their home. For an entire month. Mom got suspended from her job for a year and both -- Anthony and Lisa Demaree -- were added to a list of sex offenders. The judge in the case said the pix were harmless."I don't understand it at all," Anthony Demaree told GMA, with his wife by his side. "Ninety, 95 percent of the families out there in America have these exact same photos."Now they've got another shot to take. This time it's directed at Wal-Mart and their hometown. Here we see another failing of the American educational system. This family has FOREVER been scarred by the actions of some jack off working at Wal-Mart for 8 bucks

Mmmhmmm
So I'm being script bombed from SOMEONE on here. HMMMM I wonder who. It's ok. Just means I get to have the last laugh. Especially since it's a TOS violation of the host server. *booty dance* Oh yeah, and I can't do much here so hit me on yahoo, fb, or somewhere else. yahoo: gimmesomecandypleaz facebook.com/evilninjareigns Since I can't turn on java, i can't read comments. :(

Whirl Wind..
Have you ever felt that you was in a whirl wind of emotions? Feelings? Thoughts? You're happy. You're sad. You don't know what to do, don't know where to turn. There comes a point to where you just want it all to go away, but you don't want the aftermath of the effect of it going away. You think to yourself "How much more.... How many more times..." It's just so heart wrenching, watching everything fall apart, right in front of your eyes, and not being able to pick up the pieces, grab some super glue, and place them all together again. Your first "true love" deserts you... Your family is ripping apart at the seams... It's like "WTF did it all go so wrong?" ... Then to add current individual situations... and it still leaves you wondering... Is this the right thing to do? The right steps to take? You sit with super glue in hand, ready to pick up any pieces.. and just glue them together, even if they don't fit. Everything has become a whirl wind... And I'm stuck right in the middle of

My New Owner.
I want to thank my newest owner Master_Unicorn for buying me, I'm unable to thank him enough for what he has done & don't have the right words to say however I am grateful for him.. So if you'll get around to it show this wonderful man some luvins please just for me...Thank you!!!

Thank You, Im Here All Week...
Yesterday I went to the doctors. And I tell him "Doc, I think something is wrong with me" he asks whats going on, and I tell him "All weekend long Ive been singing "Whats new pussycat?" he nods his head and asks if that was all. I say "No, Ive also been singing "She's a lady, and Ill never fall in love again" Ive been singing them ALL weekend long, its driving me nuts. The doc looks at me and says "It sounds like you have a slight case of TJS. And of course I dont know medical talk, so I asked what that was, he says its "Tom Jones Syndrome" I asked if it was common. The doc said "Its not unusual"

Walk Around In Circles
*That* is where corn chips come from. Hmm... Maybe ol' Professor Hardwood is onto something. He probably really loves corn. And all corn-related products. I mean, isn't that what you're supposed to put in a frame? Things you love? I'm gonna do that. When I'm get home, I'm gonna frame a bunch of stuff I love. Like lasagna. I *love* lasagna. It's SO good. And cheesy. You know who else loves lasagna? Garfield. Man, that cat really loves lasagna. Maybe I should put a picture of Garfield in a frame. You know, as a kind of shorthand way of saying 'I love lasagna.' That would be so f*cking inside. Or how 'bout a photo of *President* Garfield? Oh shit, that would be totally meta! People would be all like: Jane, why do you have a photo of President Garfield on your mantle? And I'd be like: Because I like lasagna, of course.

Help The Cause!!!!
Those who care about others enough to step outside their comfortable lives to help those that don't have comfort or protection or love or safety. Those who notice that there is a huge problem in our society and a flaw in the system that is supposed to help children. It's time for change...it's time for a better trained group of child protectors that can actually protect the children that are abused. It's time to hold accountable those protectors that do not do their job and cover up their wrong doings or refusal to do their job. When will the children stop dying at the hands of those that are called on by God to love and protect them...When will this issue be a more important one to our country. It's time to get this situation the attention it deserves, it's time to call on our law makers to do something! Well Thanks you for stopping by and taking the time to read this. See now ya know me a little more. BLESS YA (HUGES). There's no reason or excuse why someone should or has abused or

The Top Ten Reasons Men Prefer Guns Over Women
#10. You can trade an old 44 for a new 22.#9. You can keep one gun at home and have another for when you're on the road.#8. If you admire a friend's gun and tell him so, he will probably let you try it out a few times. #7. Your primary gun doesn't mind if you keep another gun for a backup.#6. Your gun will stay with you even if you run out of ammo.#5. A gun doesn't take up a lot of closet space. #4. Guns function normally every day of the month. #3. A gun doesn't ask , "Do these new grips make me look fat?"#2. A gun doesn't mind if you go to sleep after you use it.And the number one reason a gun is favored over a woman....#1. YOU CAN BUY A SILENCER FOR A GUN

A Lovers Dance!
Glistening bodies entwined in an ageless erotic dance, seeking pleasures from each other, seeking wonder and romance. She touches his face with tenderness. He draws her body near. Aching, needing hunger will make their destiny clear. Their lips meet in soft kisses, their tongues begin passion's war. Forgotten now, the outside world. All is here, behind this door. He strokes her body tenderly, she arches up for his caress. He finds her silken portal and her womanly wetness. She moans in fiery desire and pulls his hand away, wishing to end this exquisite torture and get on with passion's play. She straddles his waiting body, eases him into her feminine hollow. She leads him on a rhythmic dance, his thrusting hips must follow. She rides him faster, even then, to hear his wondrous sighs. She shows him all the delights she has between her womanly thighs. They stare into each other's eyes and gasp as ecstasy unreels, and tangles them in a lover's knot that every answer reveals. Sated, they l

Cyber Life (keeping It Real)
Cyber love is a figment of our imagination. A wonderful fantasy of our individual creation. I bought all the lines that came to own me. Never understanding the feelings that I couldn't see. Never realizing my heart he was stealing. Too caught up in the overwhelming feeling. Some people need a lesson to learn. I got mine and can still feel the burn. I never allow myself to make the same mistake twice. So don't read more into my words because I'm just being nice. I can be your friend but my secrets you"ll never know. Inside of my heart is someplace you will never go. Even when you believe you are very close to me. A superficial women is all you will ever see. So don't ask me for love or something else I don't feel. I'm not trying to be a bitch ,I'm just keeping it real. Everything that matters is what I won't share. So don't be foolish and begin to really care. Please ask nothing from me except some casual chat. Because that is all I have to give..nothing but that. I'm so much wiser and

Walk-in Exam
A woman went to a walk-in clinic, where she was seen by a young, new doctor. After about three minutes in the examination room, the doctor told her she was pregnant. She burst out, screaming as she ran down the hall. An older doctor stopped her and asked what the problem was, and she told him what had happened. After listening, he had her sit down and relax in another exam room. The doctor marched down the hallway back to where the first doctor was and demanded, "What's the matter with you? Mrs. Terry is 59 years old, has four grown children and seven grandchildren, and you told her she was PREGNANT?!" The young doctor continued to write on his clipboard, and without looking up, asked, "Does she still have the hiccups?"

Illusted Essenttials Of Musculoskeletal Anatomy
Latissimus Dorsi Orgin: Thoracolumbar Aponeurosis Lower 6 thoracic spinous processes Sacrum and iliac crest Lower 3 to 4 ribs Inferior angle of scapula Incertion: Bicipital groove of humerus Action: Extension Medial rotation and adduction of humerus Nerve: Thoracodorsal nerve (Cervical 6, 7, 8) Palpate: Along posterior - lateral side od rib cage toword its insertion during active extension of the humerus It forms posterior border of axilla Latissimus means widest and dorsi means Back (in Latin). It is the widest muscle of the back. It is powerful extensor of the flexed humerus in such activities as swimming or chopping with an axe. This muscle pulls the shoulder gridle down and is active when doing a depression transfer or when using crutches.

Rip Pamela! 1974-2009
I just received news that my only family member here, Pamela, passed away at the age of 35! She died from complications of surgery after donating her kidney to save her eldest child who had kidney failure! Are you KIDDING ME?!?! What sadistic "god" takes away from this world such an unselfish and loving parent?? IT AINT FUCKING RIGHT!!! As if I didnt already have enough doubts in my mind that a god truly exists... RIP Pamela! You will ALWAYS be Loved!!!!!!!!

Im Over That Loser
It took me along time to along time to write this\ butim over that sorry son ofa bitch jason,So im bitter over himmaking me sick in october i finally start having treatments and they are going to be hard as hell as me . In those 2 years i fought for my daughter and i lost that battle but i love her morethen life it self and what ever i do from this point on ismy destiny

Locks
i have everything to hidei have nothing to hidenonethelessi have locks on my locksi have nothing to hidei have something to hidei have everything to hidei hide the keys from myselfi have nothing to hidei have something to hidei have everything to hidei have locks on my locksi hide myself from myselfbut stop and think for one momentif we consider the possibilitythat everthing i am is a liewhat have we left?a voicea worda soundthe sound that drew you inand in one all consuming passionate your soul before your very eyeslicking up the side of your wetand down the cracks of your lifeclose your eyes and picture me nakedhalf arousedhalf hungryfeed me

The Bitch
I've realized i'm a real bitch. Sorry Cynthia for doing what I did on fubar. You didn't deserve any of it. Jason is a realy good man. I don't deserve him and if I don't change my ways I will loose him. If I haven't already. Sorry again.

Highly Not Interested
So, I am really getting sick and tired of you people who think you can ask me if you can see my boobs. I realize I have them and they are slightly above normally however I am a lady. I am not here to cator to your sexual needs. I am here for friends. If you can't handle it don't talk to me. Thanks

The Rose
Some say love it is a river,that drowns the tender reed. Some say love it is a razor,That leaves your soul to bleed. some say love it is a hunger,an endless aching need... i say love it is a flower....and you its only seed. its the heart afraid of breaking..that never learns to dance. its the dream..afraid of waking that never takes the chance. its the one who wont be taken,whoo cannot seem to give.. its the soul afraid of dien...that never learns to live. and the night has been too lonely,and the road has been too long, and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong. just remember in the winter, far beneath the winter snow. lies the seed that with the suns love,in the spring becomes a rose.

More Info On Me-- Plz Read
OK I saw someone else do this a few weeks ago and I thought I would to just to share with my friends a little about me... 1. I am a single mommie of 3 have been single for 2 years due to a previous bad relationship have decided to really take it slow getting back into the groove... 2. I wear my heart on my sleeve therefore when people attack my character with lies YES I am hurt and yes I do get upset. (most of you know what this is referring to) 3. I am a passionate person about everything I do in life. 4. I am in Nursing school to get my RN license, I have degrees now in Marketing and business. 5. In the next 2 years I hope to have my own toy line out and a BBW night club open. 6. I am a advid Cowboys fan watch EVERY game without fail and can get VERY upset when they lose :P 7. My biggest fear is the death of one of my children 8. Second biggest fear is being alone for the rest of my life. 9. Surprising fact.. unless your just a hater 9 times out of 10 if you give me a chance

Stupid Encounter #21 From Sb (read Bottom To Top)
->Southie: Then I can email it to your girlfriend! ->Southie: oh you want me to ok hold on Southie: u didnt post about the nudes u do for trade in your blog, should i post that Southie: that make it any different ? = Southie: she is bi ->Southie: dont tell me sorry tell her sorry Southie: sorry =( Southie: lol ->Southie: you got a gf... and your asking me for my yahoo and telling me im hott if I were your gf I woulda shot you threw a pillow Southie: u got yahoo Southie: u got very nice legs Southie: ty, i would but my gf would get pissed off lol ->Southie: ty Southie: u r very hot tho ->Southie: I know lol Southie: oi c lol sorry, u just dont seem like u would have nudes ->Southie: im always real ->Southie: yes their of me Southie: i guess they arent of u huh lol Southie: u dont seem like the type to do nudes

Jus Meee!!
my purse has become a diaper bag.my diaper bag has become my purse.i can talk on the phone, feed a baby, and update fubar all at once.i heal bumps and bruises with a kiss.my shirt usually smells like milk and i don't care.i wash more bottles than actual dishes.i take 5 minute showers and still feel refreshed.relaxing consists of breastfeeding and reading a magazine.i actually use the coupons i receive in the mail.my usual laundry load consists of pink shirts, tiny socks, and Dora underwear.i sacrifice what i want for what they need.i conquer fatigue and a dirty house.i am depended on.and i know the meaning of unconditional love.i am a warrior.but they call me mami.

Equal Opportunity.
To her I taste like money.Without a doubt the best way to do time.With a veteran of holy warsholy riders, and holy cowsand a dusty achy emotional anorexic like me. Match made in heaven, but then there's that strike anywhere tipand the distinctively rancid smell of sulfur.Flash, oohaaahpolite golf applauseand its over. Yet things like this lead to murders, day time TV,suicide pacts, and once even a thousand ships.All for a common commodity you can find on any street cornergrade A thru F praised and hallowed feared and vilified by dopemine dancing altruists with pens, and robed men with strange hats. All its missing is a candygloss sheen and a dangling price tagboth of which are easilly appliedhell, some even come branded.Some even come packaged together. A pimp can name a price, quantify a pocket full of change, magic and happyAn army can put a live cost on lifebased on your output, equipment and diligence Well its payday, I got a check burning a hole in my hot little handstrolling

Just Another Day (fantasy Number 623)
JUST ANOTHER DAY (Fantasy number 623) I woke up this morning it was just another day tried to separate fantasy from what's real and move on my way Had my first cup of coffee just to help me through it seemed like it was going to be one of those days, so I had two It's off to work, got to get into the daily grind hopefully I can make it though this one without losing my mind I'm just going through the motions, not much to say trying to make it through another one and earn my pay Sometimes things just happen and we don't know why but suddenly without warning, I knew I could fly I don't know what happened and I'm not sure what to do but as I tried to clear my head, all I could think of is you Things got really fuzzy and my head was spinning around it felt so right, I felt so light as my feet left the ground I needed to find you, wherever you might be I needed to find you, so you could fly away with me Up in the clouds, looking down from space through all the interferenc

Thoughts
If every star in the heaven were there to light away ,They would light the the path of resistance , To lead me your way .If every dream ive been given ,Were a mimic of reality ,I could say there was a future , To be found for you and me , If my heart hath been stolen , It was only by a glance , A moment in the darkness lead by happenstance ,If ever I were to dream .. It was you into life , So handsome , so pure . My hearts sacrfice .A moment a meeting , Nothing I regret , If I could change one thing , Its that I havent touched you yet, That sooner we did not meet , erasing all the years , The chance for another , To wispher in your ear , Your hands like silk caress my every thought , constant indulgement , I see your body Secductively taunt , I am not sppoused to feel to want to touch , The sin of sweet surrender , envaded by love . Oceans of forevers that wash you away , If there were nothing to hold us ,We would escape this place

Never Say "i Love You"
Never Say "I Love You" If You Really Don't Care Never Talk About Feelings If They Aren't Really There Never Hold My hand If Your Gonna Break My Heart Never Say You're Going to... If You Don't Plan to Start Never Look in My Eyes If You're Just Going to Lie... Never Say Hello If You Really Mean Goodbye Never Say "I Love You" Unless it's Something You're Willing to Do Never Allow Me to Trust and Believe If You're Just Going to Leave If You Really Mean Forever Don't Say You're Willing to "Try" Never Say Forever If You're Only Going to Make Me Cry...

My Heart
If you are here to have fun, please do so. Although, don't lie to me and tell me you want me...when you dont..and dont try to get me..when you dont want to keep me. Please save me the heartache...and you the bad karma. I just had this happen. So please, dont do it.

U Want My Points For 12 Hours On Sat?
would you like my points for 12 hours this Sat? Up for auction ck this link or my default you can pick the time you want them on sat GO BID!! http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=1660183&albumid=0&i=4118357595 this means you get your points and mine for that 12 hr period of time and you can tell me what time to turn them over to you for the 12 hours you want. Beginning bid is 4 mil and cash bids out weigh fubucks.... come bid and get my points to help you level!! I leveled in one day on Tuesday from level 30-31 so yes I do get rates, bombs, and alot of points!! Is it worth it to you? come show me come to my default or just use the link above to get you there!! this is good for any level that wants to bid not just open to higher levels MC

Reaper Part 2.....3/3
Interrogation Room, London England (Land of Chaos) “Lady Tsunami, are you awake?” “Huh?” “Hey Tsunami are you awake?” Tsunami opened her eyes she was in a room all by herself, well except for a man across the room from her. They were both strapped to chairs. “So you’re awake that’s a relief.” The man lifted his head, Tsunami recognized who it was instantly, “Jim, why are you here?” “I failed an order; or rather I chose not to do it. You see I was ordered to find you, and then betray you and Reaper. But my morale values wouldn’t let me do something like that so they threw me in here and tortured me everyday.” His body was riddled with bruises and lacerations, “and now they’re going to use me to break you.” Tsunami looked back at him “If you know Reaper than do you know where there holding him?” Jim turned his head, “He’s in there.” Tsunam

A Short Story I Wrote
Ida was what the kids now-a-days called old school. She and her husband Frank lived in a farm house on the outskirts of Wutknot, a tiny little town with a population of about one hundred and seventy. Ida and Frank never had children of their own but they loved their animals. Unfortunately when Frank died four years ago, Ida simply couldn’t handle all the work alone so she had to sell off the horses, goats, and chickens. Then all she had were her cats. At first there were only three, but eventually, she had a total of fifteen. Oh sure the house smelled of kitty litter and fur balls were always discovered while cleaning but they made her happy. They each had their toys and beds and dishes and they were all her babies. Especially Pootsie. Pootsie was the oldest and Pootsie was Ida’s favorite. She had always loved Pootsie the most and since he been a kitten when Frank was still alive so that made her partial to him. Pootsie had the best toys and, whenever the can opener started

Gotta Love Old Farts
Garage DoorThe boss walked into the office one morning not knowing his zipper was down and his fly area wide open. His assistant walked up to him and said, 'This morning when you left your house, did you close your garage door?' The boss told her he knew he'd closed the garage door, and walked into his office puzzled by the question.. As he finished his paperwork, he suddenly noticed his fly was open, and zipped it up... He then understood his assistant's question about his 'garage door..'He headed out for a cup of coffee and paused by her desk to ask, 'When my garage door was open, did you see my Hummer parked in there?' She smiled and said, 'No, I didn't. All I saw was an old mini van with two flat tires.. An elderly gentleman..... Had serious hearing problems for a number of years. He went to the doctor and the doctor was able to have him fitted for a set of hearing aids that allowed the gentleman to hear 100% The elderly gentleman went back in a month to the doctor and the

My Bond
I DO NOT EXPECT THE SPIRIT OF PENELOPE TO ENTER YOUR BREAST, FOR I AM NOT MIGHTY OR FEARLESS. (ONLY OUR LOVE IS BRAVE, A ROCK AGAINST THE WIND.) I CRY AND CRINGE WHEN THE CYCLOPS PEERS INTO MY CAVE... I DO NOT EXPECT YOUR LETTERS TO BE LENGTHY AND OF LOVE, FLOWERY AND PHILOSOPHIC, FOR WORDS ARE NOT OUR BOND. I NEED ONLY THE HARD FACT OF YOUR EXISTENCE FOR MY SUBSISTENCE. OUR LOVE IS A ROCK AGAINST THE WIND, NOT SOFT LIKE SILK AND LACE .

Baby's
I can't believe that girls can have babies....you like baby fatories did you know that? Ladies, do u know u can have a baby? Yeah... i'll sho you later... yeah, it's really fun.... but... i love that you can't make one without us (men) though.... we have the "seceret incredient"... i love that... it's almost like G-d made us and said, "eh.... not so good... i'm going to have to give them a job or something cuz... no one's ever going to talk to them... i'll let them hold the "secert ingredient"....." Unlike any other seceret ingridient... we'll just give it to ANYONE that asks! any girl could walk up to a guy and be like "hey, can i have ur seceret ingredient?" . . . and a guy would be like, "SURE!.... should i put it on ur face?"

Breaking Up....
my last GF broke up with me... which i think is better... cuz then the break up is over in like 4 or 5 min... cuz when a girl breaks up with a guy... he get's to say his piece which is usually like, "you suck!" and that's it... it's over... but when i a guy breaks up with a girl you need to free up an entire afteroon... cuz there's going to be questioning... and whittnesses... and forms to fill out... at that point, ur soon to be ex GF turns into a special prosicuter... she's all like "is it not true that you said we would be together forever?".... and you're going to curl up and say something like, "I do not recall saying that." then she pulls out exibit "A".... and states, "well, maybe this CARD will refresh ur memory" and it's at that point that you learn an important lesson about girls... THEY SAVE EVERY SINGLE THING YOU GIVE THEM... what men consider GIFTS, they consider potential evidence that can be used against you at a later date... seriously, that's why they have so many

Revolution
Tonight I'm circumventing the tragedywith all the deft footwork of a porky governorThe trick is to be someone else when they lookbe somewhere else when they askJust a dancing flicker of a personat the edge of your vision the rim of your mouthJust waiting for homage and offering.Putting a pause to sufferingasking it nicely to queuewatching the watchcounting those naughty ticksholding my breathordering my starswishing my lists.I dispel her, dismiss her to the aether and mistand she rejects,caging me with feral gazeand the power of my true nameuttered in curiosity and tendrils of coyA prison with no walls, no thoughts of escape.Did my willpower fail meor did libido, curiosity and reach get the best?This isn't your storyI touch the sun in the end.Even if it means singed fingers and a swift descent.I dare, and she will take notice.It could stop here.I put my fingers outplacing all my pretty wordsmy good and wicked intentionmy quirky, awkward smileall crammed into the tip, the gesture.All yo

This Explains The Heartbroken On My Status!
Ok so today has not been at all good for me! I am really sick and I think I got it from my sister but I don't know. What I do know is that today a Chase bank was robbed and it was the bank that one of my good friends works at. He was not shot however they did beat him severely and he is in the hospital so I hope that he recovers and I hope that whoever did this is caught and put in jail.

~dreams~
"Dreams... I believe in my dreams, talk about my dreams, think about my dreams, plan for my dreams, create opportunities for my dreams, and I see myself already in my dreams. The only way to achieve a dream is to talk about it, believe it, see yourself in it and create opportunities for it. There is a great will-power that follows whatever you imagine. This will-power gets you going despite all odds and the dreams that are supposed to take you ten to twenty years to achieve are achieved in a shorter period. Paper plans are not enough for dreams! Just see yourself acting out what you have imagined and by the time you get into it, you may think you are still in the process of imagination.What you believe is what you achieve. What you imagine is what you become. What you think is what you experience.

The Real Me.
So i wrote this again on another of my social networking sites enjoy the read. the real me. it may be weird and stuff but i been feeling this way recently. Current mood: bummed Lately more than anything I don't think anyone knows the real me. Or even wants to try to know the real me. Hell I am lucky to know even if there is a real me, that I am capable of understanding. I have been a bit reflective again as of late. So sorry if it's a repeated thing or something I have done before. I realize I have lost friends old and new because of things I have done. I have burned bridges I never should have burned. Now to get back to that level of friendship I used to have can never happen. I feel like a lost memory in peoples past that they chose to forget me or the real me. Or the fact that I was at one time even at my worst had sparks of kindness and gentleness or even a caring attitude. I have met friends who after they found out about me and things I ha

In The Eyes Of A Child
In the eyes of a child there is no fear In the eyes of a child there are no tears In the eyes of a child there is only laughter song and play living life as full to every day In the eyes of a child no one is wrong no one is weak everyone is strong In the eyes of a child everyone is allowed to play there is no reason why others cant stay In the eyes of a child there is no rich there is no poor everyone gets along In the eyes of a child there always room for another In the eyes of a child they live as if they were sister or brother laughing, playing, fighting too In the eyes of a child there is no reason to cry only tears of joy no reason to sigh In the eyes of a child a few words light up their day a few words that everyday you should say. In the eyes of a child a smiles is all they need to live and grow In the eyes of a child I love you is all they need to know.

Then & Now
Then you held me captive Now Im a boss You used to be able to beckon me Now I dont answer your call You once were able to melt my heart Now I got my brand new start I used to think I'd die without you Now I stand alone The truth be told you lost your strangle hold

Sure
Whats the point of trying to care. All that ever happens is nothing.Stay in succlotion. Rather cut my self off from the world to be left alone. My addvice dont trust or do anyone favors. It will always come back to bit you in the ass. Guess ill just keep doing what im doing being a mother. Seems to be the only people who truely love me and care. But i have always said that i will be that crazy old lady that lives alone with her cats with a shoty. Whats the point of having someone there with you. Theres toys to take care of some of the needs you have. So my addvice is stay alone better then getting hurt. But what ever fuck if i know anymore. Im trying to think of something poetic to say, but all im getting is a blank. All i want to know is why do people give me there bad back lashes, if you know what im talking about. I think for now on im just sticking with the people i am close to. So i guess all im saying is who wants a hart got one right here, its doing me any good so just let me kn

Visit My Avon Store Online
Hey people.. just wanted to let everyone know I'm an AVON rep and wanted to post the link to my store. We have some cool makeup, jewelry, clothes, fragrances and tons of other products, we also have children's halloween costumes available at very good prices. Check out my estore at www.youravon.com/ehitchfiel Hugs to all my friends

America Remains Split On Health Care
Last week, President Obama delivered his 29th health care speech toboth chambers of Congress. Proponents of big-government health care were hopeful that this address would be the turning point of thedebate, striking down, once and for all, conservative argumentsagainst the plan and winning over the American people.While the speech did spark a temporary boost in support for the plan,Americans remain skeptical about the Left's arguments on health care. And polls show that public support has again declined for a government takeover of an industry that represents one-sixth of our nation's economy.The Left argues that public dissatisfaction is due to misinformationand poor communication. But "it is not the message that is theproblem," writes Heritage's Conn Carroll. "The problem is that theAmerican people do understand what [the President's] health care plan will mean for them, and they just don't like it."Why would Americans agree to the Left's prescribed health care"reform" when even the

Bomb List
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9/25/2009
BREAKFAST:*Morning Star tomato & Basil Pizza Burger, 1 servingMozzarella Cheese, part skim milk, 2 ozMission Flour Tortilla (1 small tortilla), 2 servingHunt's Original Style Traditional Spaghetti Sauce, 0.75 servingLUNCH:WorldCatch Herbed Wild Cod with parmesan crust, 4 ozGreen Giant Roasted Potatoes W/ Garlic & Herb Sauce, 1 servingBeans - Delmonte French Style Green No Salt Added, 1 cupDINNER:Athenos Roasted Garlic Hummus, 2 tbspHard Pretzels, 1 ozApple juice, unsweetened, 1 cupFudge Shoppe Fudge Covered Graham Crackers, 1 servingSNACKS:Kroger calcium 500mg sugar free chocolate soft chew w/d&k, 2 servingFlintstones Gummies (2 chews), 1 servingPeanut Butter, smooth style, 1 tbspMission Flour Tortilla (1 small tortilla), 1 servingCary's Sugar Free Syrup, 0.08 cupOranges, 1 fruit (2-5/8in. dia)Bars Protein Luna Sunrise Blueberry Bliss, 1 servingRegular Coffee, 20 fl ozGranulated Sugar, 8 individual packetCoffee Creamer International Delight French Vanilla, 4 tbsp CALORIES CA

Quote Of The Day "what Is The Worst They Are Going To Do? Send Me To Peshawar And Not Promote...oh, Wait They Already Did That"
So my day started with a 3am wakeup, to pick someone up with on a 4am flight. (Side note, I will never get used to the stupidity of am and pm. Use a damn military 24 hr clock) Got harassed at checkpoints on the way there, nothing new. I made it through that particular suckfest and eventually got home to gloat about the fact that I rocked Ms BabyLove's world by sending her flowers on her bday ;). Then back to work, my 30somethingth in a row without a day off. Normal Saturday BS, what I expected to be a low stress day. Then boom. Now, I've been shot at, hit with mortars, artillery, IEDs, you name it. I've kind of got the bad "boom" down. This was the bad boom. After quickly grabbing gear and doing the usual run to the sound of gunfire routine we realized that it was close, but we were ok. We soon found out that the Taliban detonated a car bomb in a crowded shopping plaza about a 1/4 mile away, killing 12 and wounding 25. The dead and injured included some police, but was mos

Had It Easy~not Really !!
I was told yesterday, by someone probably about sixty years my senior, that people from my generation have no respect for their elders because we had it too easy growing up. This came out of the blue, and all I had done was say hello to this person. While I agree that my generation and the ones following me have had it easier due to advances in medicine, technology, and what have you... I don't think many of us had it as easy as some would like to believe. I grew up with a single mother, living paycheck to paycheck. I lived in a trailer house, wore clothes from Walmart and thrift stores, and learned very early on to be happy with what I had because some people didn't even have a roof over their heads and food in their stomachs. I know what it is like to go without... there were times when our cupboards were so bare, we had to go to the food shelf in order to feed ourselves. There were some days when I watched my mother go without eating so that I could have dinner, even if

Trust
I've held a torch in the darkness... to glance upon a truth unknown; an act of faith brought by my upbringing and raising with an ineloquent certainty...that my journey promised the chance not just of understanding, but of recovery of the faith and trust that I had so long ago with those online who I had literally taken for their words, more of who turned out of the least of expectance from those who had passed on half-truths as full truths and honesty. That the disappearance of their faith, honesty and turthfulness along with loyalty that I had learned to trust had been disshsheveled. For lie upon lie had been perpeuated. The more one's trust was gained, the more the lies were presented and the disappearnce of that turth, honesty, and trust would arrived to be explained and the pursit of these greater truths ...about the existince of those that are honest, truthful, and loyal under no matter what circumstance might reunite me with those that could. Yet, I held out for some much hope

Bears Continued
We started watching the game but Tina seemed more interested in my friend. Since he carried her back into the room she has been playfully flirting with him. I waited until the fourth quarter and got up and grabbed his hand and pulled him along with me to kitchen for another round, instead I told him to seduce her now, he was like are you sure? and I was like YESSSSS!!!!!! I was like so horny with her playfullness and just being around her. My friend went back in there and I heard him tell Tina that I was on the phone with my mom and would be awhile.....actually I was in kitchen waiting for the right time to walk in on them. My friend didn't wait long, the bears had this one good play and my friend whooped it up and grabbed Tina and hugged her tight, she hugged him back and then they were kissing, they kissed for awhile and finally my friend started removing her clothes, I found myself holding my breath in anticipation, he removed her tshirt, I was like OMG!!!!!!, she has smaller t

How To Catch A Fish
Jamie aka Scottgirl, she is one of my dearest friends. I love her to death. Her and I share the same sign and we are very much alike. She wrote this, and when readig it, it hit me, that is me! I would like to thank her for putting how I feel into words. She is a wonderful person. I love you Jamie and thank you for remaining the rock in my life! So have your eye on a Pisces woman. You find yourself attracted to her because there is something so mysterious and intriguing about her that you just can't figure out. Join the crowd. Making a Pisces woman fall in love with you is the easy part, its keeping her attention that's hard. You may always feel like there are parts of her you can never touch. If you are astute enough to notice theses things. And if you are not you wont last long. She needs her shadows to feel safe. When she loves she does so with every bit of her soul. This requires her to be very vulnerable. She needs that shadow to run to when she is overwhelmed or if things

California
You know you're from California if: 1. Your coworker has 8 body piercings and none are visible. 2. You make over $300,000 and still can't afford a house. 3. You take a bus and are shocked at two people carrying on a conversation in English. 4. Your child's 3rd-grade teacher has purple hair, a nose ring, and is named Flower. 5. You can't remember .. . is pot illegal? 6. You've been to a baby shower that has two mothers and a sperm donor. 7. You have a very strong opinion about where your coffee beans are grown, and you can taste the difference between Sumatran and Ethiopian. 8. You can't remember .. . . is pot illegal? 9. A really great parking space can totally move you to tears. 10. Gas costs $1.00 per gallon more than anywhere else in the U.S. 11. Unlike back home, the guy at 8:30 am at Starbucks wearing a baseball cap and sun

"a Relationship Built On Time-outs"
Woman 1: You are so f--ing grounded. (hangs up cell phone) Woman 2: Homework? Woman 1: No. Jeff forgot to fix the car, again. Woman 2: You talk to your husband that way? Like he's a teenager? Woman 1: (pauses) You're right. I should talk to him like a pre-adolescent. That'd be more accurate. -- Overheard in: Train Station, Nyack NY --

"wife? Or Collapsing Banks? Tough Call"
Guy 1: I'm considering taking out cash, keeping it at home. Safer than these f-ing cratering banks. Guy 2: I'll take my chances with the cratering banks. Safer than my wife. -- Overheard in: Train, NYC-NJ Midtown Direct --

Ucla Study
UCLA STUDY A study worth sharing with friends both male and female: A study conducted by UCLA's Department of Psychiatry has revealed that the kind of face a woman finds attractive on a man can differ depending on where she is in her menstrual cycle. For example: if she is ovulating, she is attracted to men with rugged and masculine features. However, if she is menstruating or menopausal, she tends to be more attracted to a man with duct tape over his mouth and a spear lodged in his chest while he is on fire. No further studies are expected.

Crystal's Smile
Real like all the rays of the sun strong in in to the heart like a " bang " simply like you, my friend is your smile, wonderful like an holiday on the moon that take me force and make me a small far but at you ever near peice of your world. And when your smile, will become a cry remember about me and i will do with you and eyes in to the eyes will go again where is the rainbow at the end of the rayn Marco Vasselli to Crystal http://marcovasselli.spaces.live.com/

"fantasies Of The Carpenter And..."
Woman 1: I've been having a dream. My husband is my carpenter, Ken, and... Woman 2: (laughs) It's normal. Ken's hot, everybody wants to f**k him. I'd love... Woman 1: No. In the dream I'm not interested in Ken that way. I want my husband to be like Ken in fixing things. The lamps, the book case, screw in a light bulb even... Woman 2: Jesus. I... Woman 1: I know, my deepest fantasies are about home repairs....

"exploding Pipes, No Problem"
Woman 1: You're saying Dave said he could fix it better than the plumber? Woman 2: Yea. Woman 1: Dave, the man who didn't know the difference between a wrench and a hammer? Woman 2: Yea. Woman 1: He said this after the toilet exploded? After he'd already been fixing it? Woman 2: Yea. Woman 1: Your husband is quite a catch. Woman 2: No s**t.

Dedicated To Susieq
write on your ideal woman and what you would do to make the relationship strong with her. what commitment and love mean to you My idea of the ideal woman would be a fun, loving free spirited woman. A woman with great ambition and love for life. A self motivated woman with firm beliefs and morals. A woman who has a great deal of respect for herself and that is secure within her own means. I'd like her to be well educated and cultured in the arts. A woman who looks classy weather in fine silk or in denim. She should be passionate and totaly commited to herself and her family. A woman that doesn't throw in the towel when times get tough. I'd like to build a rock solid foundation with her on which to build our dreams. I think that having a clear conscious goal in mind that is realistic is important. I think that I should be a good provider to her. I should be dedicated in my carear and well established within my field. I think it is important to be spontaneous and romantic. I think

Online Stupidity Or How Racists Learned To Type.
So in the past week I've unsubscribed from 2 lounges.Why?Stupid people making anti semetic comments.You would think that in this day and age , people would be moreenlightened. Apparently not.I'm all for free speech and I'm not politicaly correct but damn.Isn't the whole idea of fubar and the pleathora of social networking sites is to bea escape from the daily grind?The festering stupidity of hate and ignorance slowly finds it's way into everything it seems.To sum it up I have zero patience for racisim, sexisim and that crap.Believe what you want , don't expose me to it.Better yet , let me know how you feel so I can block your pea brain ass.

Plumber Voicemails: 3:30 A.m., Do You Know Where Your Plumber Is?
Woman's Voice: [from plumber's voicemail recording, 3:35 a.m.] Hi, sorry to bother you. You’re probably asleep. I’m still not comfortable with the drip. (pauses, music in background, woodwinds, sounds like marching band) Woman's Voice, Cont: I know it’s late. But could you check it again? Not now. You’re probably asleep, I know. I know I’m crazy, right? I don’t care for drips. I hate them for some reason. They keep...you know. Obviously, that’s why they’re drips. (laughs) Woman's Voice, Cont: Call me, please. Nothing urgent. Can wait until the morning, I guess. (pauses) Later in the morning. (pauses) Maybe I should shut the bathroom door, I don't know. Maybe that would help. If I shut the door. I don't think so, because it'd still be dripping really.

Please Help
Please help, Ok, I have once again adopted a new cat, He is male and has siamese markings on him, but his feet look as though he is wearing socks. I need help with naming him, I want something "out there" Not some sort of typical name, Please feel free to give me some insight, I've got a Kozmo, Kleo, and a Thomas Reginald Benedict 111.. My sis says he looks like a bandit coz he's face looks like it has a mask on it, I just dont like that name, its too Ordinary.

I Want You
THE NAUGHTY AUCTION IS STILL GOING ON! ALL BIDS ARE TAKEN UNTIL MONDAY 7 PM EAST. THE PERSON WITH THE MOST RATES @ END OF AUCTION WINS A BLING PACK. I WANT YOU TO PLEASE RATE SQUIRTER KAYLA TO WIN! HER BDAY IS COMING UP AND IT WOULD BE A NICE GIFT FOR HER TO HAVE. SOMEONE HAS ENTERED THE AUCTION LATE AND HAS PULLED OUT A CRAPLOAD OF RATES SO INSTEAD OF TRYING TO GET RATES FOR MYSELF ANYMORE, I WANT YOU TO PLEASE RATE KAYLA! HERE IS HER AUCTION PIC AND OF COURSE BID IF YOU'D LIKE, SHE IS WELL WORTH IT. SEE COMMENT AREA FOR PIC LINK! THANKS!

What A Long Ass Day
So I had an interesting day. The 3 dogs Mae Knuckles and Reese's were outside playing and Mae got a stick Knuckles wanted it so he attacked her. Reeses and Mae are lab and pit Knuckles is all pit his former owner abused him so he is agressive the other 2 are not unless attacked. he tore mae's ear open we split them up and mae was in my lap i was cleaning her ear up trying to stop the bleeding when knuckles walked by and attacked her again. he got her head and tore 2 gashes in her cheek I got knocked backwards landed on my hip and but which are bruised up and they slammed into my ribs so it was an eventfull day

Xxx
i approach you from behind, i put my arms around your waist and kiss the left side of your neck. i move up to your ear, and my moist kiss wets your lobe. i breathe warm and soft on your ear and you shiver. you turn to my kiss and touch your lips to mine. my tongue softly and gently passes your lips, moistening them, and i taste your tongue. i kiss your lips passionately and move back down to your neck. my hands slowly move down your waist and my thumbs hook on your panties to pull them down. as i'm pulling them down, i gently bend you over. i have you step out of them and they lie in a wad on the floor, glistening with your desire. i get on my knees and start kissing your inner left thigh, moving up to your pussy. with my hands i spread your cheeks wide open and i give you a long wet lick, from clit to ass, tasting you all at once and leaving my saliva on you to mingle with your own wetness. my thumbs spread your pussy lips and i press my face into you, tasting and kissing you. i lap m

Am2003...douche
AM2003: Hey ->AM2003: hello AM2003: How are you? ->AM2003: I'm okay, you? AM2003: So so! Can I ask you a question? ->AM2003: I believe you just did AM2003: Ok well how bout this...Are you sexual person? ->AM2003: only with my fiance (wait about 10 minutes)->AM2003: So the only reason you even added me was to be a perv in my shoutbox? Are you that sad of a person? AM2003: Guess so!->AM2003: awesome...better luck with the next poor soul (block)

For Those That Wonder...
For those that wonder... Who is bbG? You can take a brief read of my page while you listen to some of my fave tunes and you will learn a bit about me. But there is also more than just what you hear and read. I dont fear many things in life. I only worry the things that I have the ability to change and I only want the things that I can actually have. I rely on what is fact, I deny and turn my back to what is not. I live my life for myself. I do what shall make me happy. I ignore what will not. It is after all the only one that I shall have, so why waste it being unhappy? Sometimes I cry for no reason, sometimes I fail to laugh when there is good reason. I don't always get the joke, but wtf, if you say its funny... they so fucking be it :) anything else? feel free to ask :)

Crazy!!!!!!
Some people say i'm crazy... well... i am... i have voices in my head... they speak in spanish....I have no idea what they're saying! It pisses me off... I wish one of them would get a job!!!! What? ? ? ? ? They just moved here from Spain.... if you thought they were Mexican, well... you're a racist.... yeah... you should look at yourself n the mirror before you throw stones :P

Test Crash
As the test pilot climbed out of the experimental aircraft, having torn off the wings and tail in the crash landing, the crash truck arrived. A rescuer saw the bloodied pilot and asked, "What happened?" The pilot replied, "I don't know, I just got here myself!"

Cat With A Hat
A cat with a hat tempts my dreams This creature with a unique feature was everywhere In the light he radiated with a might Like a tiger he ripped through me like a fiber My blood was like a flood filling this place Hidden in the trees, this place was forbidden Not wanted, I was haunted by fear With a scare, I could not bear this dream Nothing but a dream, I still was not clean I awoke with a fright to the sight of the might of blood spattered about my room This was nothing but a dream, right?

What Causes Arthritis?
A drunk man who smelled like beer sat down on a subway next to a priest.The man's tie was stained, his face was plastered with red lipstick, anda half-empty bottle of gin was sticking out of his torn coat pocket. Heopened his newspaper and began reading.After a few minutes the man turned to the priest and asked,

The Storm
As the dark skies cover the world I acknowledge the oncoming storm approaching. As I run for my life I feel the cold breeze upon my lips and the sting of rain beat upon my face.I run without turning back,without knowing if he is still behind me.The fear inside me is gnawing away at my spirit,its tearing down my walls and attacking my inner defenses.I run for my life,i run from everything I know,from everyone I know, I cannot take anymore chances, I cannot trust anyone not even myself.My heart is beating so fast I feel like its going to pop out of my chest,my blood is pumping so fast I can see the veins in my hands throbbing.My energy is low and I cannot run any longer I turn slowly afraid of what I might see,afraid of my worst nightmare coming true.Through the trees and brush i see nothing no one is chasing me,all is silent in the woods the only noise is that of my breathing and the bluejay above chirping into the morning sun. My pulse relaxes, my breathing becomes normal as the knife

Fuck You Fuck Photobucket, Fuck This Bitch Right Here..fuck You Too
fuck photobucket what the fuckthey get to decide what i can have in therewhen i can access it where i can put itfuck you motherfucking photo nazi kunts EVERYTHING SHOULD BE FREEEVERYONE SHOULD BE CONTENTEVERYONE SHOULD ACCESS THEIR PHOTOS AND NO ONESHOULD EVERtell you what to do with your camera the pics, your panties, your unborn child which you are going to abort so that you can continue to drink, and fuck, and and spread herpes and bad digital pics of you with a shot of tequila in your hand , making that bathing suite from target which you got one BIG SIZE too small, cause your gonna go to the gym and do yoga.....with two ($*!:}) guys..you met at.....they work for potobucket.....they must...because i cant find my photos, and it is making me LOOSE MY FUCKING MIND YOU WHORE! if this message offends in any way, we at the MOODring would just like to reiterate FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKERS...KUNTSHOOD MOOD

Vampire Heart
You can't escape the wrath of my heart Beating to your funeral song All faith is lust for hell regained And love dust in the hands of shame just be brave Let me bleed you this song Of my heart deformed And lead you along this path in the dark Where I belong Until I feel your warmth Hold me like you held onto life When all fears came alive and entombed me Love me like you loved the sun Scorching the blood in my vampire heart I'll be the thorns on every rose You've been sent by hope I am the nightmare waking you up From the dream of a dream of love Let me weep you this poem As Heaven's gates close And paint you my soul, Scarred and alone Waiting for your kiss to take me back home Hold me like you held onto life When all fears came alive and emtombed me Love me like you loved the sun Scorching the blood in my vampire heart

Weird
Moonlight Suicide December 26th 2005 Moonlight on your faceStars in your eyesMy heart is dying deep insideI wanna let you freeBut I can't seem to seeWhy you make me feel your embrace Moonlight hides our fearsStars cover the sky in a blanket of sneersMoonlight suicide is invisionedMy heart beating, it's imprisoned I wanna see the worldI want to be all that I amNext to nothing, lost with painShivering from the trembles of your touchI wanna be the man who takes your hand Moonlight hides our fearsStars cover the sky in a blanket of sneersMoonlight suicide is invisionedMy heart beating, it's imprisoned Spinning in a cirlce of emptynessWatching time fly as I become heartlessSeeing you smile kills me nowSo leave me be and set yourself freeThe moonlight can't save me Moonlight hides our fearsStars cover the sky in a blanket of sneersMoonlight suicide is invisionedMy heart beating, it's imprisoned This is the last song I wrote, and I wrote it for someone. Nearly 4 years later,

Cleaning Out Friends List!
I'M SICK OF HAVING ALL THESE FRIENDS AN WELL NOT BEING ABLE TO TALK WITH THEM, IT'S MORE OR LESS FOR THE POINTS/RATES/FANS & BLING/CRUSHES THAN ANYTHING ELSE AT LEAST FOR MYSELF I TRY TO DO THE BEST I CAN WHEN EVER I'VE GOT THE TIME TO DO SO FOR EVERY1, NOT SAYING I HAVE GOTTEN TO ALL OF YA ALTHOUGH IT'LL COME SOONER THAN LATER... ANYWAYS LETS GET TO THE POINT HERE IF YOU WISH TO STAY MY FRIEND PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT HERE OR PRIVATE WHICH EVER IS EASIER ON YOU... THANKS & LOVE MY TRUE FRIENDS... ~KISSES/LICKS & NIBBLES~

Crazy Night
WELL For any of you who saw my status about my workplace being a crimescene & were wondering what the hell was going on, i decided to share what happened the other night via blogging. [plus it's easier than repeating a whole bunch] So i came to work saturday at 11 pm and had nothing to do as usual so i was sittin in the lobby watchin tv. Around 1 am i see this guy come stumbling down the hall with his shirt all ripped and he was covered in blood. my first thought was that he had murdered somebody [too many horror movies...] so i jumped up to run but then the guy said something like "Help me" and i realized it was this super nice guest that stays here about once a month. We shall call him Joe. So i helped Joe to a chair and called 911 then went back to help him wipe the blood off his face. im glad i dont have a weak stomach. He then told me that he had gone out earlier and came back to find 2 chicks and a guy in his room. The guy had a wrench and immediately began beating the

Healing Herbs: The 15 Most Powerful Healing Herbs In Your Kitchen
The humble herb and spice rack in your kitchen today need not be just a decorative feature, although they look quite pleasing to the eye hanging on the wall, in both modern and old fashioned styled homes. They can in fact hold a plethora of natural healing ingredients that can also add great taste to the foods you eat every day. Of all the herbs and spices you can choose from for flavor, there are 15 that are more powerful than the rest. Below is the list and you may well be surprised to learn of the many diverse conditions for which they've proven so very useful. 1. BASIL - Basil is an herbal carminative, that is, it can relieve gas and soothe stomach upsets. One possible explanation for its calming effect is a compound called eugenol, which has been shown to help ease muscle spasms. Research is still preliminary, but laboratory studies also suggest that compounds found in basil may help disrupt the dangerous chain of events that can lead to the development of cancer. 2. CAYENNE -

Beer Vs Vagina
BEER VS. VAGINA1.Beer is always wet. Vagina needs a little work.One point to BEER2.Warm beer tastes awful.One point to VAGINA3.A really cold beer is satisfying.One point to BEER4.If after taking a swig of your favorite beer you find a hairbetween your teeth, you may vomit.One point to VAGINA5. If you get home reeking of beer your wife may get mad, make a scene, kick you out, etc. If you get home reeking of vagina your wife may get mad, kick you out, even leave you. There's definitely a point to be had here, depending on your point of view and personal circumstances. I'll just call it a DRAW for the time being.6. Ten beers in one night and you can't drive home. Ten vaginas in one night and you don't want to drive anywhere.One point to VAGINA7. If you have a lot of beer in a public place, your reputation maysuffer. If you eat any vagina in public, you become a legend.One point to VAGINA8. If a cop stops you and you smell of beer you may get arrested. If you smell of vagina he may buy you

Her Piece Of Heaven
On this evening, time stood still Like a picture off a post card, she sat on the beach watching the sun make its assault on the ocean Next to her, sits her puppy, head resting upon her knee. She is at peace here No digital distractions No male interruptions A lifetime could pass this pair by yet they would still remain, sitting in their piece of heaven.. till the end of time

I've Been Owned!
I HAVE BEEN OWNED! NOT TO FRET! OWNED IN A GOOD WAY! CinDragon WON ME AT THE RECENT AUCTION AND I WILL BE TRYING MY BEST TO HELP MY VERY GOOD OLD FRIEND LEVEL UP! WHO KNOWS WHAT I.B.I.C. STANDS FOR? HMM? LOL WELL IT'S OK IF YOU DON'T BUT I SURE WOULD LIKE YOU TO CHECK HER OUT BECAUSE SHE HAS A VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGE THAT EVERYONE NEEDS TO KNOW ABOUT! SO PLEASE CHECK HER PAGE AND HER BLOGS AND SHOW HER SOME LUV WHILE YOU'RE THERE! THANKS!! â™¦CinDragonâ™¦Founder of ClubMysticâ™¦I.B.I.Câ™¦Owner of HellCat!!!@ fubar

Poem
I recently wrote this poem and thought it was the kind of thing my fu friends might like to see... So lemme know what you think, eh? Good or bad, I just like to get feedback... Svengali Identity,I gave over.No questions,No regards.You, reins in hand,Randy drover(bent me over)(made me over)Down and down and thenKicksand kissesLies in your truthBut I seeI see it all the same(shame)Bonds loosed each by eachSelf to self again.

Why Do Women Have Sex?
So I came across this article this mornig on the ticker bar and it interested me immensely because I have my own theories about why women have sex. I have shared these with several of my closest male friends and in general, my male friends agree with me, while the pervs here and AFF and lavalife and even myspace and yahoo INSIST that women are as mechanical abnout sex as they are --> meandering through life, logging into the internet to communicate crass pick up lines and rub one out to porn while insisting men watch their cams.... LMAO the very very very rare few that do this..... are usually GUYS pretending to be girls online til the CAM comes on or "broadcast" some chics cam in lieu of their own; or they are attention whores that will do anything to insure they are the center of attention and so forth. So the article reads..... Why Do Women Have Sex? September 29th, 2009 By: Ben So a book was published a few weeks ago by two researchers who had surveyed more than a

Hockey Season
I Cannot wait for hockey season to start so i can hear this Man's Voice calling the games for the Buffalo Sabres. And one of the best announcers of all time . The Man , The Myth , The Legendary and sitll going strong . Rick Jeanneret .http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JEfbyrKnKc0http://www.youtube.com/v/JEfbyrKnKc0&hl=en&fs=1&">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Mov9vev-Owhttp://www.youtube.com/v/0Mov9vev-Ow&hl=en&fs=1&">

Rants And Raves
Before I start I figure Ill let people know that I use blogs as a place to get my feelings out, I normally tend to delete some rants a little while later once Ive calmed down. Oh and Im a terrible speller, and i suck at grammer and puncuation and paragrahs, ect. Anyway...... K well he appoligized and the doctor gave him some valums lol so hopefully alls good now. *crosses fingers*

Not Always Right | If At First You Don't Succeed, White Lie Again
(Note: I help callers with connection problems to our wireless zones along train lines.) Me: “Hello, tech support. How may I help you?” Caller: “I can’t access your network!” Me: “I’m sorry about that, let me help you. Where are you currently, sir?” Caller: “I’m traveling in between [city] and [another city].” Me: “Oh, I’m sorry sir, but there is maintenance being done in that zone. You will have to wait 20 minutes until you are back in a working zone.” Caller: “What can I do?” Me: “Just wait till the train is a bit farther on, and you will have a connection again.” Caller: “This is terrible! Where’s your manager?” Me: “Sir, it’s 4 am so I’m the only one working.” (The customer hangs up, but then calls back again.) Me: “Hello, tech support. How may I help you?” Caller: “F***!” (Once again, he hangs up,

Not Always Right | It's About The Destination, Not The Journey
Customer: “Yeah, I went to order your cream online and there’s a problem. It asked for my name and address. I want to order anonymously.” Me: “Well, we would have to have your name and address to able to ship you anything.” Customer: “Why? Me: “We need to know where to ship it to.” Customer: “Really?!”

Not Always Right | It's How Old Folks Say I Love You
(I’m ringing up a young man’s order. There’s an older regular customer drinking coffee at a table across from our counter.) Me: “Okay, your total comes to $5.63.” Young man: “Oh, all I have is $5. I left my wallet at home.” Older customer: “What’s he short, a dollar? Here, I’ll give him a dollar. Come here kid.” (The young man walks over to the older customer’s table to get the dollar.) Young man: “Thank you, thank you so–” Older customer: “WHY DON’T YOU GET A F***ING JOB?!” Young man: *runs out of the store*

¢Às¢Àe¢Àx Thru My Eyes
1. Assuming he can get a raging hard on when it suits you. Contrary to popular belief, men can't just flip a switch and get it up because you decided to stop being a frigid bitch. Getting it hard is your job. I suggest you figure it out.2. Expecting him to always lay on the charm and romance. Sometimes, that's nice. Sometimes. But expecting him to be all roses and candles all the time is like expecting you to act like a pornstar all the time. If you're not willing to do that, don't expect him to switch for you.3. Leaving him responsible for your orgasm. You know what gets you off. Tell him. If you don't, it's your own fault when he's snoozing and you're all wound up.4. Expecting him to cuddle. Men and women are wired differently. Sex makes most women want to talk and bond and all that shit. It makes men pass out. It's a biological thing. Stop fighting it, and stop holding it over his head, it's not his fault.5. Expecting him to fall asleep with you in his arms. That shit is uncomfortab

Lbb Entry #31
So silly little me is completely fed up with guys loosely using the terms sexy and baby. You do not know me so do not refer to me as such when first attempting to talk to me. So this morning i changed my status to say "calling me sexy, baby, or asking to see my nsfw is like asking to get blocked" Shortly after this douchebag pops into my shoutbox (read from the bottom up on the first image): Right before the "tryen" to be nice line he blocks me and continues to shout me. Few things for yah Myke #1 don't be mad because you don't and will not ever have access to my nsfw, #2 no need to be butthurt because I wouldn't flirt with yah the times you tried yesterday, #3 GET A FUCKING SALUTE, #4 It's funny how it's ok for you to call me a slut, whore, "ungreatful bitch", and a cunt yet when I'm not nice to YOU..it's not ok and you block me...that makes YOU the bitch not me :), and last but not least #5 LEARN HOW TO SPELL! Note to all you men: Just because I have a certain type o

Metaphysics
Yeah I copied and pasted. I haven't read enough to be any sort of expert on this but I find it quite interesting... Analytic metaphysics Main article: Metaphysics One striking break with early analytic philosophy was the revival of metaphysical theorizing in the second half of the twentieth century. Philosophers such as David Lewis and David Armstrong developed elaborate theories on a range of topics such as universals, causation, possibility and necessity, and abstract objects. Among the developments that led to the revival of metaphysical theorizing were Quine's attack on the analytic-synthetic distinction, which was generally taken to undermine Carnap's distinction between existence questions internal to a framework and those external to it.[36] Metaphysics remains a fertile area for research, having recovered from the attacks of A.J. Ayer and the logical positivists. And though many were inherited from previous decades, the debate remains fierce. The philosophy of fiction, t

Angels..dedicated To All The Cancer Survivors Out There.
Angels are Guardians of hope and wonder, The keepers of magic and dreams. Angels watch over you wherever you go, Keep each day perfect And promising a bright new tomorrow, Wherever there is Love An Angel is flying By. Your Gauridan Angel knows you inside and out and Loves you just the way you are. Angels keep it simple amd always travel light. Remember to leave space in your relationships So the angels have room to play. Your Guaridan Angel helps you find a place when you feel there is no place to go. Whenever you feel Lonely, A special Angel drops in for tea. Angels are with you every step of the way. And help you soar with Amazing Grace, After All, we are all angels in training; All we have to do is spread our wings and FLY.

Haiku Haiku...ukiah Ukiah
Once vividly green Now brilliant and varied be Softly down they fall. ~~~/~~~ Soft auburn of tress Deeply soulful brown of eye Such beauty is She. ~~~/~~~ Shinny black, it sits Current pulsing beneath it Yet, burn it does not. ~~~/~~~

My Promise
When your sad, i will dry your tears,When your scared, i will confort your fears,When you need love, my heart i will share,When your sick, for you i will care,When you are worried, i will give you hope,When your confused, i will help you cope,You will feel my love when we are apart,Knowing that nothing will change my heart.When you are lost and cant see the light,My love will be a beacon, shining through the night,This is my promise, my vow til the end,For you, above all, are my world, my girlfriend,These words on paper, show my care for you,From my lips, these words are spoken, will always be true,God has blessed me, with your hand in mine,Both our hearts, will constantly intertwine.Everyone lives through pains and sorrows,I promise together we will face all tomorrows,Happy with you, swallowed in love,Bless God for giving me you and everything above.

Death...
Has been a rough couple of days.. my hubbys grandma died monday. We just had the funeral today. I been doing pretty well.. up until today. I have been wondering about my boys though. I told them about her death monday but it didn't seem to have any affect on them. I was thinking.. they are of age now where they should start understanding some..and start crying or something. But there was nothing..clear up til last night. Then today during the funeral.. Brandon just started bawling. He was so loud..sobbing.. I thought he was gonna hyperventilate. He kinda collapsed off hubbys lap and was sitting on the floor. Somethings in life just break your heart..and I have to say that was one of the worst moments for me. I just lost it then. Then he was carrying on about wanting to buy a vcr tape of her. His one older cousin told him he would get him one. Anyways.. was a horrible day but its over. I am sorry for not being on here much this week.. due to all this. I have not been avoidin

Uncertain
Thoughts flood your head, feelings of guild, pain, loss, heartache, confussion.... When does it all stop? Your mind spins round, not knowing where to run..... the anxiety keeps digging till there is nothing left to dig. Things you thought you were so sure about suddenly become so uncertain, a lose of trust creates a wall of mis-guided thoughts, all understanding swept away as the anxiety takes control, your left asking yourself why!?? What do they want? Questions attack at you like knives, you doubt your self and everyone around you. Are you better off alone?? My life started like all life did, and it will end like all life will, we are but alive fpr a second in time, what we choose to do with that moment is up to the individual, but we all have choices, we all have responsibilities, we all have the chance to love and be loved by others, we will also feel great pain.... but is that just a part of every beings life???

Firetruck And The Cat
A fireman is working on the engine outside the station when he notices a little girl next door in a little red wagon with little ladders hung off the side and a garden hose tightly coiled in the middle. The girl is wearing a fireman's helmet and has the wagon tied to a dog and a cat. The fireman walks over to take a closer look. "That sure is a nice fire truck," the fireman says with admiration."Thanks," the girl says. The fireman looks a little closer and notices the girl has tied the wagon to the dog's collar and to the cat's testicles. "Little partner," The fireman says: "I don't want to tell you how to run your fire truck, but if you were to tie that rope around the cat's collar, I think he could pull more."The little girl replied: "You're probably right, sir, but then I wouldn't have a siren."

Mom's Phone
Because my mother had a habit of losing her cordless phone, I bought her a phone with a clip on it so she could attach it directly to her belt. A few days later, I walked into my mother's home and found her standing in the middle of the living room, halfway dressed. That didn't strike me as odd so much as the fact that she was holding her pants to the side of her head and speaking into them. "Don't look at me that way," she yelled. "The phone started ringing and I couldn't figure out how to undo this stupid clip!"

Fubar Vs My R/l
I feel stupid for taking the time out to have to address a few things, but I'm tired of being a broken record and repeating things to people. Granted, nobody reads my profile so why would they my blog? But it's still worth a shot. At least I can be a bitch then since I can point to my profile and this blog. I'm a workaholic. Granted I foresee that changing, but still. I've been a workaholic for years now. It's how I get through my days. It's how I manage my stress and my anxiety disorder. It's how I manage to focus on myself instead of the R/L AND fu-drama that seems to creep up from time to time. I'm not always on fubar. In fact, I'm really only on every other day of the week. I leave my page up while I'm at home only so people can pimp me out when I'm not at my desk, and because I'm lazy and would rather click the home button once than to turn my computer n shit on hahaha. I've had a very, very bad year. In fact, the last 2 years have been incredibly awful and very bad to me. I've

10/02
When the words leave your mind and come out on paper ya sometimes find yourself inside. The feelings of hurt, the feelings of pain, and even sometimes the feelings of happiness or love. The funny part about it is sometimes ya read what you've written and love it sometimes not. When it isnt what you want sometimes you rewrite it over and over and over....until it clicks. My thought for the day is paper is expensive, so write thoughtfully, power is expensive so conserve your energy for when you might need it, and feel like, like you've never felt before.

What's Your Gift?
Your Gift Is Energy You are easily excitable, and you love to be on the go. You crave intensity. You need to live a dynamic, interesting, and challenging life. Otherwise, you get bored. It's hard for you to relax. You're constantly being inspired to do something. You're the type of person who finds success, innovation, and creativity easy. What's Your Gift? Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

Some Favorite Poems Of Mine
"The Apparition"By: John DonneWhen by thy scorn, O murderess, I am dead,And that thou thinkst thee freeFrom all solicitation from me,Then shall my ghost come to thy bed,And thee, fain'd vestal, in worse arms shall see;Then thy sick taper will begin to wink,And he, whose thou art then, being tired before,Will, if thou stir, or pinch to wake him, thinkThou call'st for more,And in false sleep will from thee shrink,And then poor Aspen wretch, neglected thou,Bath'd in a cold quicksilver sweat wilt lieA veryer ghost than I;What I will say, I shall not tell thee now,Lest that preserve thee; and since my love is spent,I'had rather thou shouldst painfully repent,Then by my threatnings rest still innocent."Astrophel And Stella, 31"By: Philip SidneyWith how sad steps, Oh moon, thou climb'st the skies,How silently, and with how wan a face!What, may it be that even in heav'nly placeThat busy archer his sharp arrows tries?Sure, if that long-with-love-acquainted eyesCan judge of love, thou feel'st a

Insomnia Is Not Insomnia Is Not Insomnia
Difficulty sleeping comes in many forms. Trouble Falling Asleep can be associated with tension, excess nervous energy (”heat”) or a depleted nervous system (”cold”). My favorite herbs for falling asleep are kava (Piper methysticum) for tension, hops (Humulus lupulus) for heat and valerian (Valeriana officinalis) for cold. (Detailed indications for these herbs.) Trouble Staying Asleep is usually associated with tension or excess nervous energy (heat), but it can sometimes be related to depletion (cold) as well. My favorite herbs for staying asleep are passionflower (Passiflora incarnata) for tension, peach leaf (Prunus persica) for heat and holy basil (Ocimum tenuiflorum) for cold. (Detailed indications for these herbs.) Trouble Waking Up (aka waking up with that run-over-by-a-truck feeling) is common in people whose bodies are sluggish or depleted overall. Lymphatic and liver-supporting herbs are the thing to use here. Some of my favorites are cleavers (Galiu

Urdglish
So Urdu is apparently as dependant on English vocabulary as Mexican Spanglish. I found this rather amusing. Especially since Pakistanis write English phoenetically, with a Pakistani accent. So things like "duty roster" become "duty roaster." I'm actually trying to learn Pashto, which is a retarded language with 5 different characters for our letter Z. So my friend Charles had to fix two toilets in one of our offices. They were western style. The Paki workers broke them by standing on the toilet seats to squat shit. Great place, really. I'm going to miss my friend Phil, and his inappropriate comments. Calling the locals "bloodty savages" in front of important people has always been good for a laugh.

The Biker
THE BIKER* I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday.I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall.I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief.I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I rode by. But, you didn't see me, riding behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless.I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our leather jackets and gloves.But, you didn't see me, and my brothers donate our old ones to those that had none. I

Chapter 10. Hunting
Hunting I was waiting outside her house in my car, windows down and the engine off. She didn’t hesitate this time, climbing into the passenger’s side quickly. I grinned my crooked smile at her. “How did you sleep?” I asked her. “Fine. How was your night?” “Pleasant.” I replied quickly. “Can I ask you a question?” she said. “No.” I grinned. “Today is still mine.” I wanted to know about people today: more about Renee, her hobbies, what they’d done in their free time. I also wanted to know about the only grandmother she’d known, some of her school friends, and about boys she dated. She didn’t really date anyone, so I moved on from the subject. I was however surprised at her lack of romantic history. “So you never met anyone you wanted?” I asked in a serious tone. She was grudgingly honest. “Not in Phoenix” I pressed my lips together into a hard l

Not Sure...
So here is my story. I moved to Arizona to start the next chapter in my life. I am really excited to be here, but am a little lost. Not sure what is in store for me. Had a pretty good life in South Carolina, but was never really happy there. Now here I am, no car, no friends, no job (I am disabled) and nothing to do. I know God has a reason he made it possible for me to move here. I just wish I knew what it was. I am going a little stir crazy. Love the peace and quiet, but sometimes we all need a little excitement. I could get a bus pass like a friend recommended, but not sure where the bus routes take you and where to get them. Guess I could call a Taxi and get around that way, but I feel that I might as well stay home, if I am going to be by myself anyway. I just need to learn to be more patient, I guess. Any suggestions are welcome. I am just having a pitty party for myself. Maybe I shouldn't even post this. I think it helps though to get it out. Thanks to all who a

Dating
I never knew it was going to be so hard to get back into the dating life. It seems like all the girls i meet are so meterialistic. What happened to people that know life is more than cell phones, cars, name brand cloths...etc.? I am not saying i dont buy shit like that but isent love one of the best FREE things in this world or am i getting to old?? I never knew trying to find that special person to spend the rest of my life with was going to be so hard. Its soo funny and sad how eazy it is to get random sex but finding someone you wanna be with....??? I just dont get it. I meet alot of people (girls) online and it always seems like all the ones that i might have intrest in live way out in bum-fuck egypt. LOL!! You get my point, They live far from me. It seems pointless. All the good girls are gone....... So sad. Someone tell me how me working hard and paying all my bills just to be somewhat poor makes me a bad person to date. I just dont get it.

Wishing I Was There!
i want to be there by your side i want to be there for all time i love the way you look at me and i damn well kno im your fantasy! you are the one i want at night i always want to be in your sight i want to see you every day and if i come to you can i please stay?

In The Alley
She returns to the bustling boardwalk gazing at faces of intoxication. An array of emotions stir the otherwise still air. She briefly stops to gaze at a lady holding a sign reading Jesus Saves. Not being able to help herself she offers a smile. A knot forms within her stomach for she perceives herself as condemned. She basks in the radiating light before slipping back into the shadows. She digs into the pocket of her cloak for her pack of dunhills and leans against the brick wall of the alley that offers solace. Peering from the corner of her eyes she observes those who pass by. Turning her attention away from the crowd she now watches the ember of her cigarette and the rings of smoke drifting through the air. Unaware and unconcerned with the time she slips into another realm where none of this truely matters. The shadows carress and dance around her. Flames of an ancient fire heat her skin. Her nipples harden as she becomes arroused. Her hand goes to her throat and with one traces d

Forever Love
As I sit here waiting for you, the tears never ending hope is all i have left hope that a part of you still loves me promises made of forever needing to feel your arms around me once again holding me but for now all i have is my dreams believeing now that you are my soulmate, the distance crushing please dont toss our love aside like yesterdays trash remember the good times as i have forget all the bad in every relationship there are trials that one must endure but if love is truly there then those trials become a thing of the past and love awakens hope so as i sit here waiting the tears always in my eyes please remember your promise remember why you loved me and please come back to my heart.

Music Of My Childhood
When I was little, I didnt have my own room, so I had to lock myself in the kitchen at night and listen to the radio with huge headphones. So some of the music, even tho kinda shitty, stuck with me for good, and it feels really good listenin to it now.

I Need Your Help Getting 3000 Rates....
I'm in a contest again! First person to get 3000 rates wins! Please help me out! :) Just click on the pic below :) Thank you so much! Feel free to send your friends :) If pic doesn't work here's the link: http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=884347&i=409670007&albumid=1862678

[some Free Advice About Approaching A Neurotic 170-200 Lb Animal]
Free advice is worth exactly nothing, but kidsdon't RUN toward a dog.Don't run toward ANY dog.Don't run toward any dog you don't feel comfortable with pinning, tackling, flipping, or outright judoing for your own bodily safety. That being said kids don't run toward strange dogs even if they're on a leash- and certainlyneverEVER approach a stranger. What the FUCK are people teaching their kids these days? That Amber Alert is a magical get out of a creep's basement free card?I remember stranger danger. I remember abducted kids in my hometown turning to cold cases, or winding up in texas with a whacked out blood relative years later. Do NOTtalk to strangers. Do NOTrun toward my dog, flail your fuckin chubby arms and squeal with glee. You are MEAT to my dog. It upsets her, and it annoys the everliving fuck out of me. Now, I assumed, because I knew better, that this was a rule when you were 10.I assumed incorrectly. Two young men about the age of ten ran across a street without loo

Don't Close Your Heart
I know how it feels to be on your own In this cruel world where hearts are bound to turn to stone Where you are alone And tired of breathing It's all going wrong And you just can't stand the pain any more You're too numb to believe in In anything Baby just don't close your heart Baby just don't close your heart Darling don't let me down I know how easy it is to let go Surrender to despair lurking at your door To lose your soul and all your feelings Strenght all gone And so many things left unsaid And deeds undone You've stopped caring 'Cause it's all in vainBaby just don't close your heart Darling don't let me down You are so alone And tired of breathing It's all going wrong And you just can't stand the pain Baby just don't close your heart Darling don't let me down Don't let me down Don't let me down Just don't let me down

Apple Ii
In a shower, J realized how much his mind was preoccupied with this nocturnal event after forgetting to wash shampoo out of his hair and letting water pound on his skin while standing immersed in a hypnotizing daze. When he came to senses, he quickly got out and started wiping his body with a towel, trying to clear his mind of these obsessive, nagging thoughts. Being on and off in this feeling of slow motion, he got to work late, just as he was afraid. Trying to pass the inquisitive looks of co-workers and feeling the mental burn of this walk of shame down the row of cubicles, he rushed to his desk, shuffling papers and frantically coughing to create some sort of a busy atmosphere to distract the vultures. Surely this will give them some food for thought during the lunch break; maybe some behind the curtains talk about his supposed ongoing drinking, drug, or gambling problem, or perhaps his problems with a female of any sort. Getting frustrated at a mere thought of someone laundering h

Where Are We?
Let us pretend that nothing has happened. After all, is the easiest way out. Let us keep ourselves busy. Le us look for thrills and exciment everywhere with anyone. That will help us move on. Let us convince ourselves that is worth it. Isn't the right thing what we are doing, right? We are not for each other, right?. So it does not matter. No harm was done. We were just playing at lets believe it can happen. Sitting at the table we are. Facing each other we shall. What is going through your mind? You ponder what is going through mine. Are we to just expose our differences? Are we to justify the reasons of our actions? Why bother you may say. I may follow up and reciprocate the cold feeling. In the end was it worth it? One thing is for sure if you believed in me just as I believed in you. Then I might say it was worth it and I would do it again. The question is, was our hearts in the right place? Did we cheat on them? You saw into my eyes, I heard your words. Are we to take actions up

This Is A Fake Profile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you all for stoping by. This is a fake profile so I ask you not to waste your money on bling. I do not want you to waste real money on a page that is here for entertainment and my break from my other page that is often filled with drama. eek! MY LOCATION IS NOT REAL EITHER. So if someone say, "This profile is fake" well I said it was. Thank you DON NOT BUY ME BLING, VIP, MARRIAGE, OR WHAT EVER COST REAL MONEY

This Is Sad Really
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZqvzpEPTZds If U find Urself asking, "Why would anyone do this to an innocent child just like anyone would be asking themselves...I’m going 2 ask U WHY NOT join Dreamcatchers 4 Abused Children & give a small donation so that WE can continue 2 do what we do as Advocates in hopes that ONE DAY we MIGHT live in an ABUSE FREE Society!

Your Song
It's a little bit funny this feeling inside I'm not one of those who can easily hide I don't have much money but boy if I did I'd buy a big house where we both could live If I was a sculptor, but then again, no Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show I know it's not much but it's the best I can do My gift is my song and this one's for you And you can tell everybody this is your song It may be quite simple but now that it's done I hope you don't mind I hope you don't mind that I put down in words How wonderful life is while you're in the world I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song It's for people like you that keep it turned on So excuse me forgetting but these things I do You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue Anyway the thing is what I really mean Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

Nightmare Society - 4/14/09
NIGHTMARE SOCIETY 1 of 3 entries into a Migraine Poem Contest Welcome to the Nightmare Society. For here you have been thrown, capitulated. Still, only after the most grueling of initiations. We are a non-discriminating society, with various breeds sharing a similar history. Our shared torment fueling instant bonds. However, mere headaches need not apply. We are migraine connoisseurs. Oh yes, we believe in nightmares, and not the dreaming kind. We live with them, in them, and despite them. Ironically, it is at times sleep that brings sweet relief. But don’t count on anything but the misery, she doesn’t disappoint. Triggers to our affliction is a loaded 9mm Berretta. 17 in the mag, 1 up the pipe. Like all lethal weapons, it delivers efficiency, accuracy, and agility. Members are of course wearing the requisite bull’s-eye. Shhh! Every individual strike of the keyboard bears the resemblance of 100 jackhammers singing in

Am I A Cold-hearted Bitch?
So lately, there has been many people, and friends of mine, that have been constantly whining, bitching, and moaning about one thing or another. Granted, I love Heather and Johnnydevil to death for putting up withme when I do it, but our entire conversation, every conversation, isn't me whining or half begging for pity and sympathy. I feel like I'm being a cold hearted bitch when I say, I really don't care. Especially when it's my male friends doing it. Be a man. Shut the fuck up, suck it up, and move on. Seriously. It's annoying. God gave you a dick, not a pussy. Fact is, is if your life sucks so damn bad, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! STOP sulking. STOP acting like God is picking on you. Stop acting like your life is over just because you're having a bad day. Isn't that a chicks job to be that over dramatic anyways? Or have I just been that out of touch with the majority of people these days that that's how it is now? I'm sorry if some of you think I'm being distant, but it's probably

Gigglesnort
Cleveland, OH (AP) - A seven-year old boy was at the center of a Cuyahoga County courtroom drama yesterday when he challenged a court ruling over who should have custody of him. The boy has a history of being beaten by his parents and the judge initially awarded custody to his aunt, in keeping with child custody law and regulation requiring that family unity be maintained to the highest degree possible.. The boy surprised the court when he proclaimed that his aunt beat him more than his parents and he adamantly refused to live with her. When the judge then suggested that he live with his grandparents, the boy cried and said that they also beat him. After considering the remainder of the immediate family and learning that domestic violence was apparently a way of life among them, the judge took the unprecedented step of allowing the boy to propose who should have custody of him After two recesses to check legal references and confer with the child welfare officials, the judge granted

Clean Your Own Backyard Out First...
As I've made mention before, I have been a fubar bouncer for a long time. That being said, I have to get this out, this is why I'm blogging this today. I'm only the messenger. When you registered for a place on Fubar, you were presented with what is called, Terms of Service. Those Terms of Service you agree to when you click the button to continue making your account. If you rushed right on by without reading it, that isn't my fault. If you clearly violate the Fubar Terms of Service, you can expect repercussions. I didn't make the Terms of Service., but I help make sure they are followed, and that Fubar stays a fairly clean place to socialize on. That is my job here. So. Please don't get in my shout box, or my PMs and blaming me for something that YOU did. For those that insist on YELLING at me, or calling me childish names? You know who you are. Do yourselves a favor and read the Fubar Terms of Service. or HEY! My support blogs have all kinds of information that is use

Love And Friendship
sometimes letting go of the past is so hard some use it as there great wall, the protecter of there heart! you past is just an outline of mistakes, failers, broken hearts, and wishfull thinking. everyday we meet people that reminde us of it, and we tend to turn away from them not to even give a chance to see if there diffrent! u can take the things youv learned from it and make better choices, or you can hide from it and no one will ever know the real you! basicly what it boils down to is when you meet some one and there interesting, stop looking at at your past and comparing the new!!! give people a chance, step out side the box that traps us all!!! trust me the comfert zone of knowing i wont be hurt was my security!!!! now iv eccepted my flaws some i cant change and some im working on! my addvice to u is dont let the love of your life or a new bestfriend pass by you cuz your past has tought u not to trust or love or u cant be open with people! maybe if we satart doing this, more wil

A Little Something About Me ...
I have come through the tunnel of darkness. The one that takes us down and makes us wonder if we are ever gonna feel free and light again. I suffered severe depression, PTSD blah blah blah, and a myriad of other things due to experiences in my life. And we all have them, experiences I mean, and we all deal with things in a different way. I have never been one to be rude and insulting. Direct perhaps, but not insulting and definitely not rude. I often use sarcasm, and my feminine wiles to get my point across. Hell, why have the body of a woman, if I am not going to use it to communicate in a feminine way. This is the temple chosen by my spirit to undertake its' journey in this life. I rarely turn people away and only have four people on my 'blocked' list. Three of which were put on only the other day. Why ?? Simply because anyone that degrades and downplays another individual, and their input in an insulting, demeaning and degrading way, cannot be my friend and is definitely

Ok...seriously...
I really hate when I'm in the middle of something on this dumb site and my OCD gets the best of me and I have to pause to write a blog because I'm so annoyed. First off, it's 6:15AM. I'm not particuarly happy I'm up, especially when I dont have to work for another 8 hours. However, I punked out and went to bed around 11 last night. Secondly, I've been up only about 20 minutes now. The sleep isn't out of my eyes, my hair is a mess, and I'm still no where near 100%. But I have to ask.....what on God's green Earth makes people think I would meet them off this site just with a snap of their fingers? I've met three people offf of Fubar. One I don't talk to anymore, one was a mistake, and the other was a douchebag. 0-3. The only people I would ever consider meeting, or plan to, is pretty much my top family. That's it. In fact, Heather's gonna be stuck in NY with my ass if she doesn't continue on her path of taking care of herself! And NY wasn't in my future plans so she better!!! :P Jus

Roller Coaster Hangover - 4/11/09
ROLLER COASTER HANGOVER (2nd entry in Migraine Poetry Contest) Dread coupled with strange anticipation are your only companions as you are dragged into that line, winding like an endless road to a known destination. This is not your first ride and most certainly will not be your last. Initial discomforts as you wait your turn are no match for the promised torture ahead; past experience making you a pitfall master. Self-warnings are useless, And preparations for the inevitable Have all the effectiveness of slamming a swinging door; you are chartered on a course for certain despair. The time inches near so quickly, ushering you to the reserved front seat. Your senses are incredibly magnified as your pulse accelerates and your heart starts to pound. Along with the ever increasing stomach cramps coming with every clickity-clack up toward the crest. Then whoosh! You are free-falling and your death grip does nothing to stem the panic rising like the b

Tattoo Care
People ask me what my after tattoo care is so I thought I'd post it here. This is the after tattoo care that I swear by. I always heal up in 4-5 days and I NEVER scab up. Mind you, this is subject to if your artist has a rough hand and scars you and the way that your body heals.First off, the physiology behind this is fairly sound. It keeps the blood plasma from pooling on the surface of your skin and ultimately forming a scab.After you have had your tattoo for 2-3 hours remove the dressing (my artist uses plastic wrap, it doesn’t stick and is a good barrier that won’t let a scab form in, on or around it).1) Run your water (either shower or faucet) to a temperature just below as hot as you can stand it. I know this sounds crazy, but it does 2 things: the heat sort of numbs the area effectively taking the burn away and the heat also draws the blood plasma up and washes it away. Run the water over your tattoo for no more than 3-4 minutes and wash the area with a fragrance fre

Caa #126
A very dear friend of mine, sister and angel needs prayers for her, her mom and her family. Here r/l sister passed away on Sunday and her mother is taking it very hard. Please send angel prayers of love, strength and healing to her, her mother, the family and friend. Love, Doc

Not Always Right | Dripocalypse Now
(I work at a commercial property development/management company. I got this call from a new tenant’s office.) Me: “Good afternoon, [property management company].” Tenant: “This is going to sound crazy, but I think Armageddon might have just started in the break room.” Me: “Okay, why do you say that?” Tenant: “I turned on the tap, and blood came out of the faucet. So, it’s either the end of the world, or turkey blood.” Me: “Turkey blood?” Tenant: “We just washed out a turkey in the sink; maybe the blood got sucked back into the pipes. I don’t think we should drink the water.” Me: “Yeah, that’s pretty alarming. I’ve never heard of that happening, but I will get you a plumber out there ASAP.” Tenant: “Great, thanks. Everyone thinks I’m crazy, but I swear, blood came out!” Me: “I will take care of this, don’t worry.” (I hang up and

Not Always Right | Golden Rule, Meet Golden Bulldozer
(I work for the city and am repairing potholes in a residential neighborhood. Suddenly, a resident comes running out in his bathrobe.) Resident: “Hey! What the h*** do you guys think you’re doing?!” Me: “We’re fixing these potholes, sir.” Resident: “You guys can’t be here! You did not clear this with the homeowner’s association!” Me: “Sir, I’m with the city and we don’t have to clear these repairs with any association.” Resident: “Like h*** you don’t!” Me: “Please step back sir. I have to continue working and you are too close to the job site.” (The resident runs back into his house and comes back out with a small bucket of yellow paint. Before we can stop him, he starts painting the dings and scratches on our bulldozer.) Me: “What are you doing, sir?!” Resident: “If you don’t have to clear repairs with us, then I guess I don’t have to

Not Always Right | Night Of The Loving Dead
(I’m a personal trainer and at the end of a set my client makes an announcement.) Customer: “So, I think I’m a necrophiliac.” Me: “Um, what?” Customer: “I think I’m a necrophiliac.” Me: “And why would you think that?” Customer: “Because I’m always tired and I keep falling asleep at my desk.” Me: “Narcoleptic.” Customer: “What?” Me: “You think you’re narcoleptic.” Customer: “Right. What did I say?” Me: “Necrophiliac.” Customer: “What does that mean?” (I tell him.) Customer: “Oh God NO!”

Not Always Right | Time For Allergic Reaction
Customer: “Can I have the breakfast sandwich without tomato, please?” Me: “Sorry, sir, but the sandwich is pre-made. You can just take the tomato off it, if you want.” Customer: “No! I’m extremely allergic to tomatoes. That could kill me!” Me: “Well, if you want to wait five minutes or so, I’ll make you one special without tomatoes.” Customer: “That would be great.” (I go to the kitchen, wash everything that might have touched a tomato, and make the guy a sandwich. I come back out and hand it to him.) Customer: “Thanks. You got any ketchup?”

Sex Sells............
I have read 7 out of 11 (skipped 8 because it was OUT and read 9) The Sword of Truth by............Terry Goodkind so I don't have the 10th one and have no desire to read the 8th (the one I skipped) I am now reading TERROR by Dan Simmonds............so far it is fukked up but if you know me.........you KNOW I like Fukked up........ Anyhow.............have a suggestion on any good books? p.s. I was a library nerd back in the day (83-85 etc etc)................one book that sticks in my mind was titled "HER" It was about a man and a woman having an affair and the SEX was graphic and stimulating tew say the least...............odd how such a book would stick in my mind .......... *touch me I am a freak* dig it

Not Always Right | With Great Retail Power...
Me: “I’m sorry, ma’am, but it seems like your credit card isn’t working. Would you like to pay in cash?” Customer: “What? That’s not possible. Try it again.” Me: *after trying a few more times* “Do you have a different card? This one might just be having problems. Or you could just pay in cash?” Customer: “No! I don’t have cash. Just give me the items.” Me: “I can’t do that, ma’am.” Customer: “Why not? I need them to stop the world from ending!” Me: “Sorry, I still can’t.” Customer: “What sort of a monster are you? If the world ends, you’re to blame!” *storms out*

Not Always Right | Directionally Impaired
(I work at a theme park and the ride I operate requires riders to pull down their own lap bars.) Me: “When you’re all seated, please pull down on the lap bars in front of you.” (Everyone is seated, and all but one guest pulls down their lap bar. She’s talking to her friends, so I catch her attention.) Me: “Excuse me, ma’am, could you please pull down on your lap bar so we can get the ride going?” Guest: *blank stare* Me: “The black lap bar right there in front of you. Just go on ahead and pull it down so it’s secure.” Guest: *blank stare, puts hands on the bar* Me: “That’s right, just pull it down…” Guest: *raises hands in the air* Me: “…”

Not Always Right | Four Legged Friends With Their Two Legged Twits
(A customer comes into our pet store during the winter.) Customer: “When they salt the streets, it burns my dog’s paws.” Me: “Well, we have shoes for your dog right over here.” (I show her the different sets of shoes we have available.) Customer: “Wait, why are there four shoes?”

Not Always Right | Tasting Is Believing
(The pool I work at is run using a salt water system instead of chlorine. I am in the process of adding salt to the pool when a hotel guest shouts at me from a poolside chair.) Hotel guest: “Miss! What are you putting in that pool?” Me: “It’s just salt. It’s not dangerous to you or anyone swimming in it. In fact, it makes the water that much safer.” Hotel guest: “Salt? That makes no sense! No one puts salt in a pool! They put chlorine! Why are you lying to me?” Me: “Sir, I assure you that this is nothing more than food grade salt.” Hotel guest: “I don’t believe you! It has to be chlorine! Get over here!” (I walk over to the man with my bucket of salt, where he proceeds to stick his entire hand in, pick up salt, and eat it.) Hotel guest: “Oh…I guess it is salt. Can I have a glass of water?”

Not Always Right | Let The Flamewars Commence
Me: “Hi, how can I help you?” Customer: “I want to buy a PS3.” Me: “That’s great. Which one would you like?” Customer: “What do you mean?” Me: “Well, I have an 80GB and a 160GB available.” Customer: “What does that mean?” Me: “One has twice the memory of the other.” Customer: “What does that mean?” Me: “One system can store two times the amount of data as the other.” Customer: “What does that mean?” Me: “The 160GB system can hold twice the amount of songs, videos and game saves.” Customer: “Well, what is the difference between the two?” Me: “One system has twice the memory of the other.” Customer: “Can they both play PS3 games?” Me: “Yes, sir…” Customer: “Then what is the difference between the two?” (This went on for awhile. He ended up buying an Xbox 360.)

Not Always Right | I Can See Clearly Now The Brain Is Gone
Me: “Hello, may I help you?” Customer: “I need binoculars.” (I show him a selection of binoculars.) Customer: “No, no, no. Not one of these. I want one with a magnification of fifty or so.” Me: “I’m sorry, there are no binoculars with a magnification of fifty.” Customer: “Are you saying I’m wrong? I’m an engineer. I have two diplomas. Two! I know how things work, thank you!” (He grabs one of the binoculars, holds it the wrong way round and looks through it.) Customer: “This one’s broken!”

Not Always Right | Elmer Fudd Calling Line One
Me: “Thank you for calling [cellphone store], what can I do for you today?” Customer: “I’m having a problem with my phone. Can I bring it to your store? Me: “If you want to bring it to us, we’ll do our best to troubleshoot the phone. But if it’s physically broken it’s unlikely we’ll be able to fix it. If that’s the case we’ll be happy to look into options to replace the phone.” Customer: “What would you consider to be physically broken?” Me: “Just something like a broken screen or cracks in the casing, or any kind of moisture damage.” Customer: “Moisture damage?” Me: “Right. We can’t really do much about moisture damage to a phone.” Customer: “Would that include rabbit blood?” Me: “… yes.”

When I Think Of You!!
When I think of you, I think only of how lucky I am to have you in my life. So many times our paths had come so close, yet never crossed When they finally did, I knew I belonged in your arms. The way you smile when I make you laugh The tender way you hold me near The look in your eyes when you tell me how much you want me All fill me with wonder I thank heaven every day for the gift of you and your love, and I hope and dream of our future together I fell for you more than I thought possible Yet my heart keeps growing as each day passes. I belong with you and you with me and with the love between us we'll be together for eternity. Written by Dj Sexy Doc MSD

Not Always Right | Talk About A Long Weekend
Me: “Good afternoon, [theme park]. How can I help you?” Caller: “Hello. Can I just ask when are your firework nights this year?” Me: “They are on the 27th, 28th and 29th October.” Caller: “Okay…are they all Saturdays?”

For An Angel (written By B.b.wolf) This Is A Song A Wrote A Long Time Ago I Still Like.
There was a time so long ago when heaven seeemed so far away.All I could do was watch from afar shedding crimson tears.Heaven is where my angel was, so close yet so far.In her pressence I couldnt speak my name, yet she loved me all the same.One touch of her finger tips brought fire to my lips. *Chours* Heaven's just a stones throw away, you can use a coin toss to pay.Heads or tails, right or wrong, my own personal angel inspired this song.She told me "lay your heavy heart to rest on my silken soft lips, and wait for Heaven like the rest." I was trapt in a land of rising suns, each day feeling more undone.This place is always strife, and seemingly darker everystep I take.Dim street lights lighting a sad path further into life.Light comes in and fades out, im was giving into my pain and plight.Im silently slipping into "That good night." *Chours* Love is anything but forgiving, even when it causes my singing.Old wounds still stinging, her voice in my ears still ringing.For blades

My Brother Wrote For Me
I took a walk to the river, and I thought I heard you say, "You can walk on, ok?" When I got to the river I saw rain falling and the river swept it away. I want to be a part of something bigger, just don't change who I am, don't carry away my soul. I went on past it all, took the trail that's not a trail until I left it. Once I got to where I have never been, and where I was never going, that's when I met a man. He said, "How'd ya find the widerness, ok?" I tried to tell him it was the river, but the river had left. I watched him watch the way I was looking, and he gave a nod to let me know he wasn't going to help me find my way. I stepped on, kept my head up, up to high I triped on a branch and I fell to the sky. A reflection in a puddle before I splashed my face, I could see the clouds get all misplaced, but the sun it stayed the same. I stayed down, yeah I never got up. I like crawling in the mud oh yeah I love the muck. I can move as good as any man, and I can get there faster

Living In 2009
Living in 2009 YOU KNOW YOU ARE LIVING IN 2009 when... 1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave. 2 You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years. 3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you. 5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries. 7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen.8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it. 10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee.11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. : ) 12 You're reading this and nodding and laughing.13. Even worse, you know exactly to who

Italian & Lovely Bbw
Miss fine thick round italian & lovely. So many things i imagine doin to you. If i was next to you fine bbw. I'd love to be there & film ya. Be your camera guy & make love to you mami. Sexy fine sweet woman. I only could imagine havin a woman like you in my arms holdin you. & kissin your lips & all over your body. I love to hold your legs & smack your sides. Put my hands all over your ass & just like to be in bed next to you lookin at you in your eyes lovely italian thick mami. I'm glad to have met & talk with you. & that we became friends & got a connection goin & for you tryin to make me happy for that i thank you hun & i hope the future me & you can be & see how things go off. I love an italian bbw like you baby & always glad to be there & give you want mami. I know you can only imagine all of my black thickness inside you & i can imagine to mami. Well i love to continue talkin with ya hun & only hope it gets better mami darlin thick lovin italian beauty i love you & gonna keep doin

Short Skirts And Big Wallets
Attention all males seeking any and all females in short skirts Personality is irrelevant Conversations unneeded So long as she can service his ego. Attention all females seeking any and all males with big wallets Character is meaningless, Trust is non existent, but that is okay as long as he is footing the bill. The attraction will fade as sure as the sun will rise, because both are chasing the wrong dream. His wallet will not keep you happy forever Your short skirt will soon go out of style. Poem By Tammy C.

Ones Worth
You can have everyone around you but still feel like noone is there. What is there to do when you dont know what to do. Whats to believe when you feel theres nothing to believe. I want to know why people will try to make you feel speical only to bust there on ego. Not caring what they are doing to the other person. I dont know what to believe from anyone anymore. Most everything everyone says is a load of shit, so what is there to believe anymore. You dont know me no one does. You can have a basic understanding of who or what i am, but you will never truely know. why i just say if your in it to talk shit to me and think your going to foul me into believeing something that you dont even believe yourself. No one seems to care anymore about the other person or what the affects of what your actions do. so thats why i just say leave me alone. im not worth it.

Relationships...and Computer Problems
Well, after a hellish 2 year relationship I had ended about several months ago I'm back on the single scene again. I couldn't have asked for more of a waste of my life than to be put through what I had to endure, jeez. I had been told when I met him, by his own family that he was an alcoholic wth an addictive personality due to the fact that he was adopted when he was a baby and his birth mother was a sever cocain and crack addict and had to have her stomach pumped while she was pregnant with him. Needless to say he was another statistic known as a crack baby. I felt bad he had to go through that but at the same time I thought it had no effect on his personaility at all. and I don't honestly know if it did contribute to the way he was or not. When I met him I knew he liked to drink but I never knew, until we broke up, that he was an alcoholic and was in rehab for it. I also had no idea he was an avid pill popper until I discovered that for my own eyes. There was one night where he got

Looking Back
LOOKING BACK I KNOW I HAVE MADE MY MISTAKES MADE SOME BAD CHOICES AND WRONG DESSIONS. BUT ONE THING FOR SURE I HAVE ALWAYS LEARNED FROM MY WORNGS THATS WHAT MAKES A DIFFERENCE IN OUR LIVES LEARNING BY THE THINGS WE DID WRONG. SONGS TO ME HAS SO MANY MEANINGS ON HOW I LIVE MY LIFE HOW I LET PEOPLE TREAT ME AND HOW I TREAT OTHERS. AS A RULE I TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY I WANT TO BE TREATED WITH DIGNITY AND RESPECT. NO OTHER WAY WILL WORK IN MY OPPINION. SO HERES SOMETHING I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON HOPE IT MAKES SENCE AND BRINGS A SMILE TO YOUR FACE OR MAKES YOU SAY HEY WHAT A DWEEB LOL. LOOKING BACK I SEE THE WORLD AS IT HAS COME MY WAY I SEE THE MOON SO BIG AND BRIGHT AND THINK OF ALL THE TIMES WE HAVE SPENT UNDER THE MOON SOME OF THE BEST TIMES KISSING UNDER THE DARK SKY I FEEL YOUR LIPS AGAINST MINE AND I REMEMBER HOW YOU MADE ME FEEL THEN JUST S FAST I REMEMBER THE PAIN I WENT THROUGH AND THE THOUGHT IS GONE I LOOK OUT ON THE OCEAN AND IT COMFORTS ME I KNOW SHES ALWAYS THERE. I SEE HER P

Our Deepest Fear
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Tea Service
One day my mother was out and my dad was in charge of me and my brother who is four years older than I am. I was maybe 1 and a half years old and had just recovered from an accident in which my arm had been broken. Someone had given me a little 'tea set' as a get-well gift and it was one of my favorite toys. Daddy was in the living room engrossed in the evening news and my brother was playing nearby in the living room when I brought Daddy a little cup of 'tea', which was just water. After several cups of tea and lots of praise for such yummy tea, my Mom came home. My Dad made her wait in the living room to watch me bring him a cup of tea, because it was 'just the cutest thing!!' My Mom waited, and sure enough, here I come down the hall with a cup of tea for Daddy and she watches him drink it up, then says, 'Did it ever occur to you that the only place that baby can reach to get water is the toilet??'

Booking & Promotions
After a brief hiatus from the scene, I'm fully enjoying being back on stage rocking out for our fans and friends every weekend. But I've noticed that some things have changed and they indicate a bad trend... one I've seen played out in L.A. years ago to the point of absurdity. I guess I'll open up with a question and I'd like you all to answer as honestly as possible... speak your real thoughts and feelings on the matter, not what you think others want to hear. Question: Whos responsibility is it to fill up a bar or club, the establishment itself or the bands they hire? My opinion - These venues should have a game plan of their own. Drink specials, the best bartenders, great service, nice atmosphere, cool regulars, clean bathrooms, etc. and be able to draw people to their place based on that type of stuff alone. But recently the trend is "we only book bands that can draw X number of people on any given night" and to me that's backwards thinking. It's also taking advantage

Auric Frequency
Unarmed, I'm sharper than a knife, death stare in my eyes - no child, no wife. The war drum in my heart is my guiding light. I know when to retreat, but there's no flight, ready to surge and down to fight. I live my life like I've already died; Mars raised me right, a beast groomed for the arena where my trade is plied, fed strain and strife. My heart is hollow and the pain is ripe, broken and rebuilt - immune to blight. I severed my ties... to my body's hunger, and my mind's desire for a pleasant sight. The Grey is where I ride. I rebuke the black and the white, and blur the lines. Chaotic Good let's me do what I would through the prowess of mind and might. The Game's my spouse, 'cause the sickest bitch is My Life... I'mma tell ya' like this, I don't give two shits about ya' penny-annie-ass politics, galactic ego, and little dick... syndrome, yeah, you make me sick. You Napoleonic tick, you's a sour-ass bitch. I stunt on you parasitic little pricks... habitually, just to

Life Love The The Pursuit Of Happiness ....[[more To Come]]
Tell me how it feels to be loved, Tell me how it feels to be someones everything that when they see tears in your eyes that they caused it hurts them too. Tell me what it feels like to have something seem so perfect and yet it makes you feel shitty. Tell me what it feels like for someone to make you there everything and that they'd do nothing to upset you.... As i lay here and tears roll down my face I think if giving my heart away is worth it... is it worth the tears, the sleepless nights, the anger, the fear, the hurt, the feeling that how I feel and say dont matter. I can forgive but I never forget, especially when it comes to my heart. I cant forget the way I felt when I cried my eyes out with no ounce of hurt from the other person. So why cry you say? Crying is my emotional release the only thing i have besides these words that make how i am feeling well known. I try to hold back my tears but sometimes the pain and hurt I feel doesnt allow it. Its hard to give your everythi

Finally
Finally she closes her eyes,she’s been fending off sleep for hours.Listening carefully for lies,her concious stops struggling, cowers. Finally she’s fallen asleep,he’s been waiting to touch her all day.His fingers graze her soft cheek,telling all he’s been dying to say.

Our Little Secret
It’s twelve o’clock midnight,outside it’s raining.I feel my body die,thoughts so draining.An image of my deceit,so clear behind my eyes.Justifications in my mind,that my heart openly denies.Decadently savouring sanity,before it slips away.The demise of respectand my trust’s decay.Our little secret,of actions unclean,is no longer a secretand should never have been.

No One Loves You Like Me
we’re all lonely never befriended wonder when if ever our hearts will be mended but dont you worry it’s all ok you’ll realise this on a day like tomorrow it’s not that far away if you thought i didnt care you’ll see no one loves you like me we’re all lonely always pretended we’re all torn apart our hearts are blendered but don’t you worry its all ok there’s a reason for pain and sorrow what is it you say i promise you in time you’ll see and no one loves you like me

My Mind's Tardy Slip
There are alot of people who tell me I’m absent minded. I disagree. I always know exactly where my mind is…That may or may not be where they want it to be at any given time, however! Still, it’s hardly absent – if anything, It’s too many places at once! My mind’s very favourite thing to do is gallop. Yes. Gallop. It rides enormous white stallions across meadows of lucious green, where bees play with daisies and the wind can be smelled. It lays in the thickness of blankets of clover and drinks from streams of silver, Thunderhead at it’s side, whinnying gleefully, begging to gallop again. My mind rides that cloud fast and hard across the sky stopping for no man… and when Daddy asks me what I want for my birthday, I still say “a pony”...

5am Blanket
And so it rains.It sweeps over me like a sea.A 5am blanket pulled over me.A kiss so sweet before you leave.Hands so strong and rough.Like petals floating down,to land all over me.You rain like a sea,crashing over me.So sweet, just before you leave.

~moments In Life~
~THERE ARE MOMENTS IN LIFE WHEN YOU MISS SOMEONE SO MUCH THAT YOU JUST WANT TO PICK THEM FROM YOUR DREAMS AND HUG THEM FOR REAL...WHEN THE DOOR OF HAPPINESS CLOSES,ANOTHER OPENS,BUT OFTEN TIMES WE LOOK SO LONG AT THE CLOSED DOOR THAT WE DONT SEE THE ONE,WHICH HAS BEEN OPENED FOR US......DONT GO FOR LOOKS,THEY CAN DECEIVE...DONT GO FOR WEALTH EVEN THAT FADES AWAY,GO FOR SOMEONE WHO MAKES YOU SMILE..BECAUSE IT TAKES ONLY A SMILE TO MAKE A DARK DAY SEEN BRIGHT....FIND THE ONE THAT MAKES YOUR HEART SMILE.....DREAM WHAT YOU WANT TO DREAM~GO WHERE YOU WANT TO GO~BE WHAT YOU WANT TO BE~BECAUSE YOU HAVE ONLY ONE LIFE AND ONE CHANCE TO DO ALL THE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO.....MAY YOU HAVE ENOUGH HAPPINESS TO MAKE YOU SWEET...ENOUGH TRIALS TO MAKE YOU STRONG...ENOUGH SORROW TO KEEP YOU HUMAN...AND ENOUGH HOPE AND FAITH TO MAKE YOU HAPPY....THE HAPPIEST OF PEOPLE DONT NECESSARILY HAVE THE BEST OF EVERYTHING..THEY JUST MAKE THE MOST OF EVERYTHING THAT COMES ALONG THEIR WAY..THE BRIGHTEST FUTURE WILL A

Lighting For Thinner Pictures
Not much time today. The last tip for looking thinner on camera is lighting. Lighting from the side leaves a shadow on the oposite side. Your main light should be about 45 deg to one side. Indirect sunlidht through a window works great for this kind of shot. The shadowed side becomes less noticible so put the things you dont want to see in the shadows. Have a great day, and happy shooting.

Men Who Abuse Women !!!
->Your Master: no im turning you in to fubar Your Master: I am hoping you make a folder with me in it I would love my own special place in your albums Your Master: your a whore you turn me on ->Your Master: your a dawg you mek me sick Your Master: those who have read my profile or have talked to me know me so you cant say or do anything that would scare me Your Master: I would love to stuff my cock in your mouth and listen to you gag ->hottyguy21: your a dawg ->..::MissDe...: Your Master: would love to fuck you look what your fuhubby said to me dam what a dawg !!!! Your Master: why not hottyguy21: ur wet pussy mmmmmmmm bb i want it hottyguy21: cum in my mouth bb shadow: mmmmmmmmm Your Master: would love to fuck you

Unraveling
..foremost, dont assume this is a silly lil fubar romance gone awry.. those of you who kno me kno better.. that said, ive hurt the most genuine love of my life, in some way, today. yes, im married and my mays is my dearest friend in life; always has been.. and he's the most amazing daddy to my veda.. and my home and my friends and my world are beautiful and happy and fulfilling.. but stevil is my true 'One'. the one who balances the weight.. who settles my crazy head.. who nourishes my soul.. who holds me more carefully than anyone else.. who touches me more deeply than anyone else.. who carries me on bad days and blows me away on good ones.. the one who has, single handedly, made me feel beautiful and meaningful and at ease with myself.. the one whom i feel most comfortable with.. he's my soul mate. my family knows he's in my life.. my husband is even grateful for him.. its THAT genuine..that tangible.. but somehow, today, i lost him along the way.. and now im just fucking lost in the

The Upper Level List ... Who You Can Help
I do believe in awareness! This is the Upper Level List!! Only Level 30's qualify !! Can we hit hit the 300 mark? Let's keep it moving!! Gratitude: we have lost sight of that on the fu! But it's a must for this list! Upper Level List Top Sponsors : This are the sponsors they have spent real cash to help you! Thank them or get off the list! ד®ÎÇk¥ÐÏÇK™ Hey folks I run this list I set it up to help any level 30 member that knows how to say thank you can get free help!I do expect folks on the list to help other members it's only fair since, your getting free help. You must thank the sponsors & the people helping you to remain on the list! There is no clubs to join!!! Interested In Being A Sponsor Contact Me! ♥ CÄnðy Gi®£ ♥@ fubar Has Stickied 21 List for the Upper Levels that's She needs donations for spotlight so if you

Bad Day--r.i.p Big Brother
today has been a fairly messed up day for me Oct 9 my brother steves bday or would be Oct 10 he passed away. Ive put myself through alot of emotion today when in reality I miss my brother. He was a great guy always positive always wistling or singing a tune. i just feel so lost today--Miss you big brother!!

Intimidation And Criminal Threats
Intimidation (also called cowing) is intentional behavior "which would cause a person of ordinary sensibilities" fear of injury or harm. It's not necessary to prove that the behavior was so violent as to cause terror or that the victim was actually frightened.[1] "The calculated use of violence or the threat of violence to attain goals political, religious, or ideological in nature...through intimidation, coercion, or instilling fear" can be defined as terrorism.[2]Threatening behaviours are supposed to be a maladaptive outgrowth of normal competitive urge for interrelational dominance generally seen in animals.Like all behavioral traits it exists in greater or lesser manifestation in each individual person over time, but may be a more significant "compensatory behavior" for some as opposed to others. Behavioral theorists often see threatening behaviours as a consequence of being threatened by others, including parents, authority figures, playmates and siblings. “Use of force is

Sometimes People
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart. Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight,

Hala Hala
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Stupid Beggars Lol
~LiL * LaL...: your not very nice ->~LiL * LaL...: well i guess u either gotta sell ur soul or ur body lol....... if u want one that bad ~LiL * LaL...: i don't have a big time job like you prolly do, and my cash only comes once a month and i have to use it on mah baby girl ~LiL * LaL...: um, yeah i can't i am broke ~LiL * LaL...: but i only wanted vip for one month, but i can see that your not interested, so goodbye ->~LiL * LaL...: do you mean to tell me you cant afford 20 bucks? ~LiL * LaL...: are you serious? ->~LiL * LaL...: hell no! lol theres no reason you cant buy your own lol ~LiL * LaL...: would you be willing to buy me one pretty pwease ->~LiL * LaL...: anyway i bought it myself, i buy a full year ahead of time and get 4 months for free

Labels Are For Filing, Not For People
Whether you are straight, bi, queer, or curious in nature, remember you don't have to label yourself. And by all means, you don't have to justify yourself or your desires to anyone.... just be YOU.

Mmmmmmmmmmmm Totally Hot !!!!!!!!!
You meet me in your room theres candles lit everywhere you hand me a glass of wine to drink while you put on some soft music you walk towards me and kiss me softly while looking into my eyes........ you take my hand and lead me to the bed you tell me how beautiful i am even though im not wearing much but lingere' long black silk lingere' with a slit down the side all the way up to my hip to just enough for the easy access.... you lay me down on the bed and start kissing me passionately you whisper but sweet nothings in my ear , you take your hand and slide up my thigh while kissing me on the lips ever so passionatlely and softly you take your fingers and put them in me and start fingering me slowly feeling my wetness as i moan for more and more i can feel you get harder and harder as you are getting as turned on as i am you slip off my lingere slowly revealing my body and as you kiss me from my lips to my neck, to my chest all the way the way down to my stomach then you take your toung

True/false
I am a cuddler - false I am a morning person -true I am a perfectionist - True I am an only child -false I am Catholic -false I am currently in my pajamas -true I am currently suffering from a broken heart - false I am okay at styling other people's hair - true I am left handed -depends on what I'm doing I am addicted to my myspace -false I am very shy around the opposite gender AT FIRST - false I bite my nails -false

True Or False
I am a cuddler - true..untill my arm falls asleep or if she is sweaty from... I am a morning person -false I am a perfectionist - only when its important I am an only child -mothers..yes...fathers no I am Catholic maybe for halloween I am currently in my pajamas -false...im dressed..sorry :P I am currently suffering from a broken heart - fase! I am okay at styling other people's hair - i can cut mens hair with a clippers, crew cut. I am left handed -false I am addicted to my myspace -false I am very shy around the opposite gender AT FIRST - i pretend to be, to figure them out... i dont trust women I bite my nails -fuggin gross...no i dont I can be paranoid at times - false I currently regret something that I have said - false When I get mad I curse frequently - false, i r smart enough to express my fucking self! I like someone - true

Just The Girl In The Mirror
I look in the mirror and see a girl, Who is staring back at me. I don't know who she is, Because she's not the girl I wana be. She puts a smile on, While inside she is falling apart. She says, "I'm okay", As pain fills her heart. She pretends not to care, As everyone slowly walks away. She hides behind her mask, And pretends to be okay. She is scared to open up, And call someone her best friend. They all turn out the same, And never really care in the end. She is scared to let people close, It always ends up as heartache. She decides to trust someone, But it always ends up as a big mistake. She feels like a stranger in her own home, Like she doesn't even belong. She tries the best she can, But it always seems to be wrong. She freezes up at the word "love", People throw it around too much. Her muscles constrict, As she is afraid to be touched. She has ideas for the future, Hopes and dreams of her own. But she doesn't hold her breath, Because disappointment is all she has ever known. She

I Am Not Evil - You Think?
Well, Mr. Fister (a fubar friend of mine) and I had a need little convo about me trying to look innocent and still having my little, evil smirk going on. I simply made the statement I would be neutral evil (the old role player’s soul is coming through on that one) and he said, he would prefer the expression: Angelically Challenged. Yes, I put it up on my status. Was kind off funny. But here is the problem on things: I do not believe in the absolute good, nor in the absolute evil. Everyone has both sides – It is good to be Pagan. So Since I cannot be angelically challenged, I am probably just having fun And if Mother Nature would be around, she’d say: and do it like they do it on the discovery channel Be naughty and have fun!

Gaurds Down
Yeah i came on fubar to have a lil fun and just flirt and play around but it didn't end up that way...i've learned to care bout a few chicks and guys up here and lately i'm seeing that people don't care for u the same!! it kinda hurt when people treat others different from u but yet i'm their friend...so much for fu friends!

Weight
the light dims to embers as night creeps slowly ina romantic spark caressing the horizon in playand as the sun sets on another evening spent trapped withinI find that virtues forgotten have at last found staya purchase once so tenuous and uncertain with timefinally a nest, a home, a place to rest in my mindThe days drag on and the nights can't lastFighting a one man war I can't get pastClawing and tearing away with a fragile heartI find the weight of the waiting is the hardest partin the nights I once feared I find my greatest reprievethe moments of nothing at all, except all we could besometimes i feel so stupid, optimism comes hardbut I can't live forever trapped within my scarsso much better now than I was, I know all too wellthe voices haunting the mind in the quiet momentsI have seen the bitter, self-loathing, personal hellthe one that eats at your soul and never relentsand I managed a whole day to stem the tide of sorrowand for once I still have some hope left for tomorrowThe day

Take Whatever Time You Need ....
"Take whatever time you need to make peace with the past before you try to get a new relationship going." Time .... Now there is an issue. The pressure of time weighs upon the sholders. Time running out in this life time. Need to find the alignment, the gateway, the path again. No, not find, but realine. Out of sync? Well, not that eithor. Selfabsorbed? No, I don't think so. Beaten up? Yes, true, and proud of it. I've taken many a body blow and have yet to fall flat. It hurts, but it has yet to take me down. "Time is," as scripted in Generations, "the fire in which we burn." Time is the one thing I don't have. More has flowed past me than lies ahead of me. I still stand upon that hill. I see the valley floor below. Cottages and camp fires. Groves, Glades and Glens. All that once was is laid out. I stand. A cold wind cuts deep. It whipps my bannor. Too cold. Winter is here. Still watching. First flakes of snow on the blizzard to come. It will be long. It will be cold. Still,

What Else To Say
Thinking you got it right, but then theres always that curve ball that you werent looking for to just come and knock you on your ass. You think your one way, then you second guess your self. I always find myself fucking me over and over again. Theres no one out there that can make me feel worse then myself. I dont know why i even try to go looking for love or have it for what i think falls in my lap. Who whats to be with a mother of three kids. Im me and thats all i know who to be. I fuck up cant help it. I swear i must have been like hitler in a former life, cause i couldnt get good luck with anything even if i had a lepercon in my pocket. I am who I am cant help that. I dont trust people, cause it really sucks to let someone in and remember why i dont trust people. Really can only be mad at myself. It just sucks to feel alone all the time. But I dont know you tell me am i a dumbass or lonely? But i have no choice but to be strong. Being a single mom you have to show no fear, no weekn

My Survey Answers...
1. When is the last time you held hands with someone?months ago2. You wake up as the opposite gender, what's the one thing you do?ONE thing?3. Have you ever crawled through a window?yes4. Where is your mom?at her house5. Morning or night person?night owl all the way6. What was the last movie you watched?Definately, maybe7. Do you have a crush on anyone right now?yes8. You have a difficulty doing..?trusting anyone anymore9. Things about the opposite sex you notice first.eyes10. What do you do when no one is watching?private things...hehehe11. Ever been in love?yes12. What's something your friends make fun of you for?hairy13. What is your curfew?whenthehellever i come in14. Would you ever dye your hair red? never again15. You + alcohol =trouble16. What's your worst personality flaw?too trusting17. Which country would you like to visit?italy...scotland...ireland18. Do you want a well paying job or a job you enjoy?both if theres such a thing19. Do you wish to have the same best friends wh

Love Is Dead Kerli
This is the hardest part when you feel like you're fading All that you have has become unreal collapsing, and aching All I want, all I want is right here but love don't live here anymore (love is dead, love is gone, love don't live here anymore) love don't live here anymore (love is dead, love is gone, love don't live here anymore) I know that you think of me when you're beside her, inside her It must be so hard for you to deny it and hide it Oh, all I want All I want is right here, but love don't live here anymore (love is dead, love is gone, love don't live here anymore) and love don't live here anymore (love is dead, love is gone, love don't live here anymore) x2 love don't live here anymore (love is dead, love is gone, love don't live here anymore) love don't live here anymore (love is dead, love is gone, love don't live here anymore)x4 Oooh,love don't live here anymore

The Basics
Just wanted to put some info in here so everyone knows what I am doing with the group!!! I am brand new to this, and am open to any and all ideas!!!! This family is NOT like other families on fubar!! There are no requirements, we are just here to chill and have fun and support one another! I want you all to feel comfy with everyone in the group!!!! Cancer Survivors - when I see it in the friend request I am ripping a photo of yours to put in the default gallery, my way of showing the many "faces" of cancer. Send me a quick sb or pm with how long you have been a survivor and the type of cancer and I will update your pic to say that. If you don't like the pic I have chosen please pm me to say which pic you would like or if you would like no pic at all in the default folder! (I don't care to much about points for the family so this way the points go to you for rates!!!) Again cancer survivors, send me a private message with a little info about your battle or whatever kind of info you

Always In My Thoughts
All I need is you,With every breath I take,I think about you,As I lay here awake,Only thing on my mind is you,They said you were a mistake,But I still think about you,As I drown myself in the lake,I'm still thinking of you,In all these activities I partake,There all because of you,Here comes and earthquake,Broken in two I'm thinking of you,Now please take the stake,On my head put a picture of you,So They all know your the last thing going through my head...

Irish Pussy
So... I expose someone as a liar and a cheat and he blocks me. Dana IV said:We? Wait a minute, so you're a married man??? The way you trapse around on Fubar with your figurative cock hanging out, drooling all over anything with a vagina??? Dana IV said:You're a goddamned liar too. You have an "About Me" blog filed since... TODAY. Admitting you're not a single man. You disgusting piece of shit, I recall all those times you begged for someone to come meet you or contact you when you were out of state on business... you're just a filthy liar and a disgrace. I've always wondered why someone who claims to be Christian would display a graven image of a false god Buddha as his default. You need to seriously examine yourself, admit your lies and emotional infidelity to whoever it is you live with, and disappear. I'll leave when I damn well feel like it. See, I'm all about exposing the TRUTH. And at this particular moment I'm exposing the truth about you. I always thought you were some e

Search For Lindsey Baum ( Mccleary, Wa And Surrounding Area's)
The original Site for Lindsey Baum can be found at http://findlindseybaum.com/Here is something I took form the from page to show you. The site has more info including Tips, How you can help and more! This is something that my unit participated in. Some of us will be going back out on the weekends to provide more assistance. ANYONE can help search for Lindsey Baum so if you are in the area and would like to help, let me know. A $10,000 REWARD HAS BEEN ISSUED FOR INFORMATION THAT LEADS TO FINDING LINDSEY BAUM PLEASE READ LINDSEY'S BLOG FOR MORE CURRENT NEWS AND INFORMATION(SEARCHES SCHEDULED THIS WEEKEND CHECK OUT THE BLOG FOR MORE INFO!) Have You Seen Lindsey Baum? 10 year old Lindsey Baum disappeared from her hometown of McCleary, WA on June 26th, 2009 as she was walking home from a friends house a few blocks away.**Please note Lindsey turned 11 on July 7th 2009. Height: 4 feet 9 inches tallWeight: 85 poundsEye Color: BrownHair Color: BrownPersonality: Outgoin

The Things I Want
=====30 things I want===== 1. I want a 1500 square foot house on a hill with a view of the ocean and a lot of nature around it. 2. I want a Nissan GT-R with autostick, working AC, custom leather interior, 4 point harness, brass roll cage, purple & gold, purple & gold rims, lots of power adders, a navigation system and Z rated tires. 3. a chef style gas stove with a grill. 4. a huge refridgerator. 5. a garage with a complete automotive tool chest 6ft. tall. 6. Bigger Computer. 7. a nice laptop. 8. a very good digital nikon SLR with lots of big lenses. 9. Lighting equiptment for photography. 10. lots of backgrounds for photography. 11. my own airplane. 12. reflectors for my photography. 13. to have a photo studio. 14. to have a bedroom fo each of my cats. 15. have a gallery. 16. filters for photography. 17. a golf cart. 18. a pitching wedge.

In Tha'lover's Pain.
HEY MY 225 FAMILY AND FRIENDS,I HAVE MISSED YOU AND LOVVE YOU SOOO MUCH IT'S UNREAL!!!!! I have been physically hurting since the beginning of the month so i haven't been here for you,MY MONTANALAND225 FAMILY AND FRIENDS BUT I'M BACK NOW AND FOR KEEPS!!!!!.THANK YOU TO MY FAM AND FRIENDS WHO CHECKED UP ON ME WHILE I WAS GONE,OH,HOW I LOVE YOU.AND TO THE ONE'S WHO LEFT ME LOVE WITHOUT QUESTION,JUST CUZ,I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH TOO,HA,HA,HAA,HA,HA!!!!!"for those who reaally know me,thhis has been a time of discontentment for me cuz of different folks(or factions)who have their reasons for having their way bout who is(or not)in tha'225 family."THIS IS FOR EVERYONE FROM THIS POINT OUT,"FIRST I HAVE MET A-L-L OF YOU ON AN INDIVIDUAL BASIS,OR ONE AT A TIME,I DIDN'T KNOW OF ALL THE OTHER STUFF(and i use that word loosely)BOUT'YOUR WAR WITH THISS ONE OR THAT ONE.FOR MEMBER TO COME TO ME BOUT THROWING OTHER PEOPLE OUT ISS REALLY DISSTURBING TO ME CUZ EVERYONE AT SOME POINT

Twisted Playground Auction
TWISTED PLAYGROUND IS HOSTING ITS FIRST AUCTION THERE IS NO ENTRY FEE 2 WEEK OWNERSHIPS I ONLY NEED A FEW THINGS FROM YOU IF YOU CHOOSE TO ENTER FIRST IS I NEED YOU TO BE THERE OCTOBER 28TH AT 9PM EST SECOND IS I NEED A PHOTO OF YOU FOR PROMOTION THIRD IS I NEED YOUR OFFER AN OFFER IS THINGS YOU WANT TO DO FOR YOUR OWNER LIKE PIC RATES STASH RATES COMMENTS DRINKS OWNERS NAME IN YOURS ADD TO FAM

Awwwwwwww
he reads her blog with adorationas his cock thickens with anticipationshe smiles and feels warmth in her heartas she knows that this is only the starthe is humbled by her beauty and sweetnessand knows that she really is his only weakness!

My Life In Music
Here you go...if you ever cared to know how things work in my head...here you go! It's my "Inner Voice" playlist. Copy and paste link into a new window and read the explainations if you want...1. Saliva - I walk alone - This is pretty much my attitude lately...2. Ozzy - I don't want to stop - My life has been crazy, but I love it...for better or worse3. Everclear - Rockstar - Even though I'm getting old, the inner me still has the dream4. Hoobastank - Crawling in the dark - My mind works in a very different way than most, so I always feel like I'm searching for the reason why that is...5. Pepper - Crazy Love - This isn't here just cause I HAVE had some crazy love, but I'm a goofball in love and this song has the feel that I get in love6. Sugarcult - Bouncing off the Walls Again - I have momentary spastic episodes of high energy7. Stevie Wonder - Higher Ground - Alright, I might be a hippie, but there is a higher conciousness o

Reasons For If I Am Just Alil Not Myself .......
Well first off before i get started Please allow me to make any and all appologies ahead of time. Reasons for if i seem just not myself this month and going into the holidays. You see, This month on the 25th marks the 7th year of my moms' passing. Seven years might be a long time to some people to pine over a loved one but this woman who gave me life 36 years ago was my heart,my rock,my everything. Before she had died in 2002, my mom and i had a wonderful mother/daughter friendship. Yes we did have our ups and downs but what parent doesn't. Anyways, back in 2000, my mom had to retire from a job she had since 1970, first as a supervisor, then moved up to Tax Auditor within California's main hub for income taxes, Francise Tax Board. In those years i had grown up knowing alot of people who had come and went within the years.. either moving on to other jobs or retiring. Living with my mom ( So you know, i was 21 when i had my son and i had decided to stay with my mom) which worked out pr

Chapter 18
I must of passed out at the feeling of thinking I had heard my dead lovers voice talking to me at the gates of Castle Delrita for when I had awoke I was in my own room and in my own bed covered and laying peacefully. My door opened and I saw my Maid come walking in slowly as if she thought I was still asleep and didn't want to wake me from my slumber when I turned and spoke to her I suppose I must of scared her just beyond this side of reason for she screamed and then turned to see I was awake and shut it down quickly as one of the hallway gaurds came runnign in she stopped him at the door and told him she saw a mouse on the floor and that was the cause of the scream and nothing more so he didn't have to worry. She in turn shut the door and walk over to the bed and sat softly on it next to me and looked upon me with a worried look upon her face as she spoke to me " My love your starting to scare me more and more nowadays. If it weren't for the night time gaurd shift change I don't th

Chapter 19
Was I losing my mind standing here hearing the voice of my dead lover ? The Father to my oldest Son the same one that I watched die before my very eyes in front of my old home when he'd come to kill myself and my own child not caring what the cost to himself was gonna be ? I was losing my mind that's all there was to it that's all nothing more just my mind playing tricks on me from being so worried about my Daughter and Husband that it was shouting things out loud enough for me to think that they were real voices that's all it was. I'll go back to the Castle and take the kids out for some fresh air and see if my Daughter would drink anything while we were in the Garden. It'll be better once I'm back around the kids,it has to get better being around them I'm always happy and have a smile on my despite my Daughters illness I'm always smiling with her to keep her happy. " She's never gonna trust me once she knows it truely is me and not just her mind playing tricks on her from all she's

It Is I.
What do you seek, old man? I seek what was lost, and what will be. I am what was lost. Youth. Energy. Innocence. Naive. The simple view .... You were never that innocent ... True, you were older before you were younger ... Future, what would be, the shadow of what would become, wickking up the short line of time to the your past, my now. Did the darkness of winter's frost cast it shadow on the child that I was? Do you have to ask? No ... I suppose I didn't ... But what else it is Old Man? What did you learn? What do you know now that you were not to know then? That what is the past colors the present. The present foretells the future. Alterable ... yet .... Yet ... yet not ... unless .... Unless I knew from the begin what is the end .... But .... But I did, didn't I? I could see it coming. The collision. The crunch. Like train cars, accordian atop one another .... You saw it ... I saw it and I was no longer there .... You were as alone in the house as you are on this

Is There .............?
Is there any real men left out there ? Ones that are not liars + aren't cheaters , I really wander sometimes. From what I've heard from friends + what I've seen I'm starting to think they are a dying breed .

The Tax And Spend Health Care Plan
Last week, the Congressional Budget Office released itspreliminary cost estimate for the health plan put forward by SenatorMax Baucus (D-MT). The plan would cost $829 billion over ten years butstill reduce the deficit by $81 billion.The White House and liberals in Congress say the report confirmsPresident Obama's promise that big-government reforms "will help bringour deficits under control in the long term." The leftist mediajumped on board, heralding the CBO's numbers as a "green light" forObamacare. Does it sound too good to be true? There's a good reason why: Heritagehealth policy expert Nina Owcharenko points out that the report is farfrom rosy. * Just a preliminary analysis. The CBO makes very clear that itsanalysis is based on Sen. Baucus' plain-English draft proposal.It is not based on final legislative language, so the costestimates are subject to drastic change.* Real cost may be far higher. The $829 billion ten-year costcould easily underestimate the real burden. "Virtu

Yes! Before You Die!!!
Cancel your credit card before you die..........(hilarious!)A lady died this past January, and Citibank billed her for February and March for their annual service charges on her credit card, and added late fees and interest on the monthly charge. The balance had been $0.00 when she died, but now somewhere around $60.00. A family member placed a call to Citibank.Here is the exchange :Family Member: 'I am calling to tell you she died back in January.'Citibank : 'The account was never closed and the late fees and charges still apply.'Family Member : 'Maybe, you should turn it over to collections.'Citibank : 'Since it is two months past due, it already has been.'Family Member : So, what will they do when they find out she is dead?'Citibank : 'Either report her account to frauds division or report her to the credit bureau, maybe both!'Family Member : 'Do you think God will be mad at her?' Citibank: 'Excuse me?'Family Member : 'Did you just get what I was telling you - the part about he

Capricorn
Capricorn in Love In order to love a Capricorn, you must understand what motivates them. Capricorn can be romantic, but no matter how great their love for you, the achievement of their objectives is their paramount drive. They are capable of great commitment and are responsible to a fault, putting the needs of their loved ones above their own. But their ambition is the driving force of their nature, and a Capricorn without a goal is a sad Capricorn indeed. Your Capricorn lover may not be the most romantic soul you have known, but his or her heart will be true and when they marry it is usually for life. Capricorn’s desire to be successful at everything in life extends to relationships, and they may try to control their loved ones if they feel out of balance in their life.

I Am Alone ... Again ... And Always.
(Author note: Don't get confused by the titles of the installments. I pick of the last ling to keep then in sequance. It beats calling then part one, two, etc. Too, be warned, these are not always spell checked; it is raw work.) Shifting, the wind whips from behind. Pushing us on. The steed, a pinto, charcoal and black, snorts, paws at the ground, impatient, he awaits my leave. Patting his muscular neck, I signal my understanding. He carries me along the path that only he can sense. That canyon grows darker, colder, deeper. We slowly spiral down. Rocks. Outcroppings. Isolated twisted trees. Some bare. Some with the last of autumn’s dress. Red. Gold. Now brown. The wind tugging on the last of the lightless kiss of frost's own pain. Descending. We twist among the debris of the lower ridge. Ahead there is a shimmer in the air. Like heat rising on a desert road under a high noon's blaze. No blaze here. Heat rippling from below. Or maybe ... not sure. We approach. Does the steed se

Check This Shit Out
this is so screwy how can someone come into our lives that we helpped no less got a person out of a bad situation and screwed us badly by leaveing in the middle of the night with out saying good bye or anything we did everything for this person we drove in the middle of the night drove 13 hrs total gave her our home to stay got her back on her feet feed her dinner every night even after she got her apt. she still came to our apt and ate dinner bullshitted with us and played like nothing is wrong and vanished ..well thats it .. no more helping ppls out we get screwed over every single damn time so this is for everyone out there.. becareful on who u talk to and hang with on the net cause 1 day u might get focked in the ass royle like we did btw the person we helpped out on here is no other then broken focker

Poetry
I gave you life, but cannot live it for you. I can give you directions, but I cannot be there to lead you. I can take you to church, but I cannot make you believe. I can teach you right from wrong, but I cannot always decide for you. I can buy you beautiful clothes, but I cannot make you beautiful inside. I can offer you advice, but I cannot accept it for you. I can give you love, but I cannot force it upon you. I can teach you to share, but I cannot make you unselfish. I can teach you respect, but I cannot force you to show honor. I can advise you about friends, but cannot choose them for you. I can tell you about alcohol & drugs, but I can't say "No" for you. I can tell you about lofty goals, but I can't achieve them for you. I can teach you about kindness, but I can't force you to be gracious I can pray for you, but I cannot make you walk with God. I can tell you how to live, but I cannot give you eternal life. I can love you with uncondi

If You Are An Infantryman
(Reprinted without permission from Henderson) If you’re an Infantryman: -Underwear is entirely optional at all times-who wears underwear? -You have pooped in the same bag you ate from. -You put that bag into your Ruck next to your sleeping bag. -You’ve pooped in a hole more than a porta potty -Every time you poop, you tell everyone everything about it. -You go on missions with your fly undone so you can piss while pulling security. -You have no problem running 5 miles drunk. -You have no problem maxing a PT Test drunk. -You have no problems doing a 12-mile road march drunk. -You have no problems but drinking problems, and you don’t think it’s a problem at all. -You would fight for a guy you barely know, as long as he’s an Infantryman. -You’d fight your best friend, even though he’s an Infantryman. -Monday morning formation should be taped and sent in to the Howard Stern Show. -You know someone who has done the following: 1. Pissed themselves

Love Poems
A special world for you and meA special bond one cannot seeIt wraps us up in its cocoonAnd holds us fiercely in its womb.Its fingers spread like fine spun goldGently nestling us to the foldLike silken thread it holds us fastBonds like this are meant to last.And though at times a thread may breakA new one forms in its wakeTo bind us closer and keep us strongIn a special world, where we belong.My love, I have tried with all my beingto grasp a form comparable to thine own,but nothing seems worthy;I know now why Shakespeare could notcompare his love to a summer’s day.It would be a crime to denounce the beautyof such a creature as thee,to simply cast away the precisionGod had placed in forging you.Each facet of your beingwhether it physical or spiritualis an ensnarementfrom which there is no release.But I do not wish release.I wish to stay entrapped forever.With you for all eternity.Our hearts, always as one.

Final Resolution
Final Resolution Oh, take some other man, be at your leisure That the fruits of life you might more readily enjoy; And blossom in your spring, yet reaping flowers Erst the snow collects me when the rose still blooms for you. Feel no regret as you behold the wake Forget remorse as I fade from view, Know no loss in what you must forsake While God and Nature take me far from you. I would have tarried one more hour, A day, a week, a month just to be at your side, But the heat will follow summer's ev'ry shower My dissolution comes across the years, I cannot hide. This old heart aches and breaks and wishes for a dream, Where you and I could be as one, But I am neither fool nor madman Lucid reality has us all undone. But feel no grief when I'm not with you, And do not cry when I no longer ramble on; there are years that were meant just for you, And I'm not made to see the dawn. I had my time, I laughed, I frolick

I Won't Name Drop. Sorry.
I suppose given the shitty mood I've been in the last week and now having a sore throat and no voice led to my irritation to bitch. First off, idk how many other peoplew atch the little blue news tickers that scroll. Some are quite interesting, some stupid, and some amusing. One caught my eye about the flu though. All I can say is "DUH!" Some people are fucking retarded. Where has common sense in this world gone? Seriously? Where has THINKING FOR YOURSELF gone? Just because the government, or a doctor says its ok, or says this is what has to be done, do you really trust them 100%? NO. You should NEVER trust 100%. Ever. Take time to read. Take time to investigate. Take time to get more opinions and seek other options. Just because they government or healthy agencies say one thing, doesn't mean they're right despite what most ignorant people think. Below is the aritcle that I found rather interesting, but I like to read. Most don't so I'm sure not too many will seek to read it. I haven'

Pull Me Up And Bash Me Down....
Okay it's time for the world to wake up! Fat girls are in! We're here, we're wanted, we're sexy, we're loved, we're fat....DEAL WITH IT. I just got done talking to a supposed porn star who sat there and told me I am not what the world wants to see. LOL Oh yeah? Well, the fact is that I can barely go out in public without being hit on or having men follow me. Men love us fat girls. We are the reality. Any one of us can be plain as heck or be sexy and wanton as any toothpick bytch out there. We love sex and being sexy as much as lil Miss Toothpick. This message that you keep trying to sell that thin is in, well it's not being bought cause it's not truthful! Fat is where it's at! There is a large audience for fat women in television, movies, modeling and many more areas. So why not in the porn industry? I know I have had many offers. So, deal with it already!!!

Hit List #1 For Original Gangsters.
1. Lost Cherry http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=7919 2. Freakwilde http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=7167 3. Tiger http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=2591 4. Murphy http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=4644 5. Trips http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=4215 6. Shell http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=6787 7. Tatt master http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=175 8. Scotty the Owl http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=64 9. SexyAmber http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=6740 10. Honey http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=7566 11. RP http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=83 12. Insainly http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=186 13. Foxtrot http://fubar.com/blog/312525/1071935 14. Bekee http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=17 15. Jen4urthoughts http://fubar.com/mafia/?p=897 16. NunyaB

Last One
What do you do when you feel you have nothing. Opening yourself up just to be shut out. Whats the point. Just have to keep in the back of your mind that you are the only person you have. You make people mad. Cant help it. Never mean to, but happens. So, what is there to do but to just forget about it. Everyone has this vision of grewing old with that one person, but i never had that. Always thought it would just be me. Im not worth it, so why try. Theres hope, but only for emtieness. Theres nothing there, just something that beats. Who am i to have or be with anyone for any reason. I gave that choice up. I am who i am and im not going to change that for anyone. If that means im to be alone for life then so be it, i can live. What i really need to do is stop being such a pussy. Be the bitch that everyone knows me as. Hell why not. Dont like me. Hate me. I dont care. Why should I. My friend put it to me perfectly, were here to make the guy a better one for someone else. Well heres a shot

This Is A Poem/song I Wrote, Tell Me What You Think
Two young people sitting in a room Loud and noisy its a high school He sits next to her and she notices him She pulls out a peice of paper and this is what she wrote She said what's youre name I'll tell you mine He said its alright everything is fine She said I feel so lonely He said so do I And the note came to these final words Hey how are you? And later yes, I DO 10 years later sitting in a room waiting for the doctor to tell him the news holding his breath waiting for his wife he hears her crying and she's almost hurled and a newborn girl is brought into their world Their baby is now all grown up Sitting in her boyfriends pickup truck she walks into her parents home at last she finds their old no