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I Really Need To Start Titling These
follow me into the mouth of darkness leave the world of the suns buning light and I shall lead you into the night follow me and exit this place then your life shall be reveald and you and your true form shall meet face to face follow me into the night to find the truth under the eclips of the moon abandon hearing smelling fealing and sight followme into the night

A Long Goodbye
To stare into space the look upon her face Am I home alas she asked to look upon the past Her spirit free from gravity will her children except the final freedom and goodbye The pain of heart watches the body slip and fade away like sand through a key hole Has she spread her wings will she watch us as she takes flight Will the emptyness fade or grow stronger as her love over powers our will Despair is in the air her might is strong we cant go wrong to be close again for her will to bring us together despite the struggle of forever

Glossary Of Yiddish Terms Not Alphabetised!
Chutzpah, unmitigated gall pronounced with a scottish ch as if spitting Meshugge, pronounced as spelled, crazy Heimish, homey leibidik, pronounced lay bee dick, lively mensh pronounced as spelled,, a respectable human being, sheyn, nice or beautiful, especially spiritually

Naked On Cam
c_nolan_03: i'm gonna go naked on cam, you interested? me: Why would I be? me: Like you and your small weenie are suppose to be impressive or something? Does it do a trick? c_nolan_03: make fun of me if you want, it's hot me: I'm sure in your mind it is

Work
Alot has been going on in my life.. in real life. Been busy alot just doing stuff around the house...and working more. Anyways.. been feeling kinda down lately with work. Just kinda depressing to see these drug addicts coming in to get there drugs..and not being able to tell them what ya really think. LOL. I sometimes think.. to bad it cant be like on television where you can just tell them how you feel. Also found out my gyno Dr has retired. Hes 70..but a young 70. I found out from his daughternlaw who works with me..that they found out he has stage 4.. melanoma cancer..and its pretty much throughout his body. She said he never even had a spot on him to give him a clue. Anyways..this has me down some to. When you have worked at a place so long..get to know your coworkers..etc.. real good..its sad when something like this happens. Anyways.. just down in dumps some. I have also been considering deleting fu. If not for couple people on here..I would have already. It has changed

Finding What I Want
The easiest way to find something special is to not be looking for it. dont go through life stopping at every single thing and thinking to yourself "is this it? is this what i really want?" i live my life for the moment, dont like to see everything and try to make it mine. yes, if i see something i want i will certainly go for it, but i dont want everything. one who wants too much will get nothing, one who wants nothing will get everything.

Fallen Friend
A star fell from the sky. I picked her up. She was a bright star. The brightest I have ever seen. I hugged her and squeezed her. I took her home and I treasured her. And kept her shining for all of time. But, one day something took her from me. I didn't know what it was till she told me. The star is a lil faded now. But, with the right touch she will be bright again. 'Tis the bond of friendship that will keep us both strong. Friends till the end of time is our oath. Never to be broken is the code. Thank You for brightening my life with yours.... JLM

My Poems
world crashes down the world comes crashing down it crashes hard. you feel alone but dont know why. you want love and happenness but these two are hard to come by. your heaart cant take much more. when the world crashes keep a look out. because it might be the one you love might be next. written by kimberly jean

What I Would Do.
All to often I see the question what would one do for those they love. To me their is only one anwser I can offer...try. What does that mean you might ask. Well I know I probly can never do everything she wants. I know I can't be everything she desires. But I will be damned if I can't try because really that's all love is an attempt. As the distance between us grows so to does an emptiness in us...but to counter that emptiness so does our love grow with the desire to hold one another. Also we know that soon very soon we shall face each other and on that day I will take her hand in mine look her in the eyes and say I may not be able to be all you dream of...but I can try because I know without a doubt that I am in love with you.

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Trust
How do you trust someone?. Who tells you nothing but lies? How do you trust someone that always makes you cry? How do you give your heart to one you just can't seem to trust? Know matter how hard you try. You always seem to find yourself alone at night holding on to your pillow so tight. Saying to your self this just is not right. Yet you allow yourself to put up such a great fight. To hold on to something that just is not there. Then you start wanting to point the blame. In the end your results remain the same. Nothing lost nothing gained. Emotionally you feel drained from all the pain. What good is love without trust. Love will just slip away in a blink of an eye. Leaving you standing alone wondering why. Trust is sometimes confused with pride. So then we look to our inner self to be our guide. We say trust me and I will trust you but this much is so untrue.

~life~
life is a game...u have to make the right moves to move forward...but at times things happen just outta the blue with no notice...as if we are being tested...some say god gives u what u can only handle...do people say this just to try to make the other person feel better?...why is it when someone dies and we all hear the same thing...Im sorry for your loss and i send my deepest condolences, we dont ask to be born or even get to choose the family we get born into...we are born-yet we live to die...think about it really...once we are born its like the clock starts...we all just have to make the best choices and enjoy our friends and family while we have a chance...celebrate the relationships that you have at this very moment...doesnt make sense to hold grudges with the people you truly love and care for...life is a party waiting for the gifts of friendship,marriage,children,brothers, sisters, nanas and papas and everything inbetween...there might just be one person in your

I Love You
you said i was enoughyou said that you caredyou told me that you loved mebut its as if im not even hereIve lost myself in you wordslost my self in your eyeslost my self in your so called alibies.you tell me that im enoughmore than you ever thought,you said i was a dream come truethe answer you had been searchingfor for more years than you can saybut it seems that you thought you sawsomething, feeling for someone else that wasnt there. and now you want eitherpunish me or punish yourself.I cant let let you go.i wont let you gohow can you let go of your lifeyour loveyour very reason for being..

I Miss You
I miss you more than i can say.your all i think about night and day.The sound of your voiceMakes me long for you to hear you even more..Your voice is like a songin my heart that i play andwill play for ever.When you sing to meit makes me hear the songin a whole new way..Make me feel it in my heartand in my soul.Is it hard to believethat i miss you when we had just talked not so long ago.. meer secondsor even a minute.I Miss you.but tis onlyuntil i hear your voiceor get your text.that i realizethat I dont want this toever end.Please tell me the time will fly.. so that I maysee you.. be able to touch you..hold you.. in my arms again...

Kiss Me In The Rain
I want to walk with youin the rain. No umbrellaover our head. feel thedrops as they soak us.feeling the cool drops on myface as you kiss them awaynot knowing if itsthe rain or tears.You holding me in yourarms. Kissing mebreathless. becauseof an upseting dayHolding me closer.Kissing meloving me.You look in my eyesand whisper "I Love You"I catch my breath and whisperback "I love you" and evenlower "with all my heart"She thinks he doesn't hearbut, he does..she doesnt know thatHe has a way to show her. thatshe is his heart as well.for in his pocket is a ring..in the rain he gets down on one kneeand asks her will you be mine for everUntil the day we part..She nods yes to him.. tears of joy in her eyesand kneels to the ground herself.. holding his precious face in her hands.. her eyes full of her love for him..They kiss again.. knowing that this time it willbe for a life time...

Missing You....
Have you met thatone person that takesyour breath away?The one that youlong to hear his voice?See his loving face?when you look in hiseyes you see a firethat burns only for you?The one thatyou feel that youcant live with out?the though of loosinghim tears your heartin to?The one thatwhen he whispersyour name, evenwhile drivingyou insane.You cant stop thinkingabout him. Waiting for himto call. Waiting for himto message you in the morningWaiting.. just waiting.. For my love to come andtake me away...Waiting....

Strangers
at one time we had love.we had it all.when it the world did itall fall.was it a month agoor maybe a yearwas it caused by to many tears.months upon monthsof passing in the hall,and many morewith out even a call.the distance has madeit. to where we donteven talk. Now we areStrangers that have drifted apart.

The Pain Of Love
How can i take the pain awaydoes it grow more and more everyday?I feel it in your voiceI hear it on lineour love can standthe test of timeI want the hurt to go awaybut it seems to buildand get in the way.Yes it effects meas much as it does youhow can it not becauseim so in love with you.This time will go fastat least i wish it willso at last my heartwill be able to feelDont let the pain tear usapart. That is somethingthat has worried me from the start.A start is what we havea future is what we wantand eternity for you and I..

Waiting
My darling, my lovemy lifemayhaps soon,one day i shallbe your wife.the distance that seperatesus is great i knowbut the love that we havewill and still grows.we can work on the distanceas time goes swiftly byfor that final daywhen we are side by side.until then we shallsavor everywhisperworddreamand planuntil we aretogether holding hands.

We.....
We used to talk for hours on endwe talked more abount just being friends..we talked about dreamswe talked about plansbut these things just meltedlike water on sand.we look at life in a different waywe have words that we cant saywe dont have what it takeswe would be making a huge mistake.we dont talk anymore,we dont seek each other out.we avoid each other with each passing dayI listen to you ramble on.about how so and so is like a songtrying to block out or decipher whatit really means.can some one really be so self centeredso much like a childwhere only comics and musicis all that they live upon?

You........
You wipe the tearsyou calm the fearsyou hold my handand my heart.You take my breath awaywith out even trying.you do it throughthe many miles thatdevide us.You make me quiverwith a look or a smileyou make me, forget to thinkYou make the timethat seems to crawlgo by fast, seemswith effort.You make me forgetto look at the clockwhen i must get upin a few hours.you make it hardto hang up the phone,because then again,i would be alone.you make me dreamof a life that i never thought I'd live.and make it a reality.you make me want youand only you.forever...

Ouch
I wish things were different, I wish I did this or I did that, But I realize yes you get one life to live and you have to make the best of it. I'm sure there are people out there who think the same exact thing like I do. I feel like I have made mistakes on past loves, jobs etc.. And Its something you can never get back, just have to suck it up and move on. I personaly wasn't thinking this would be my first blog on a website that I was just introduced too. I was starting to think most people on here were totaly fake and damn playing the "woe is me" card.. I came on here not looking for love, or sex, or a date... Just someone to communicate with on a deeper level due to my weirdness thats most likely hard to attain, I hope I get some people to pay attention to some blogs that im writing so I can write some more each day about what im doing, where im going etc.. that would be fun... Well in closing I hope whoever is reading this enjoys it somewhat and wants to know more about me or just

Forgiveness
FORGIVE: –verb (used with object) 1. to grant pardon for or remission of (an offense, debt, etc.); absolve. 2. to give up all claim on account of; remit (a debt, obligation, etc.). 3. to grant pardon to (a person). 4. to cease to feel resentment against: to forgive one's enemies. 5. to cancel an indebtedness or liability of: to forgive the interest owed on a loan. I was taught as a child that when you forgive some one of a wrong doing, you let it go. You don't hang on to it. You don't keep punishing the person who did the wrong doing. You don't make them jump through firey hoops as they try to earn your respect and trust back. If you forgive them you move on. And

Getting Worse And Worse
My aunt is scheduled to go in for a triple by-pass tomorrow. She has 90%, 70% and 99% blockages in areas of the heart and now a 70% and 50% blockage in the sides of her neck. As much as I'm hoping things will turn out for the best, I just have a really bad feeling about this. I hate it, but realistically, the odds aren't in her favor. Guess we'll just have to wait, see and pray.

Butthurt....(again)
Why is it… that in chat, when a guy says something that I perceive as rude, and I answer as nicely as I possibly can (with a twist of sarcasm I’m sure) that person gets all butt hurt and has to go all negative and asinine on me? Maybe its assumption that I am in turn being as rude to them as they are being to me (however I highly doubt this as I don’t honestly think they know the difference between being a rude as prick to being polite with manners). I try really hard not to stereotype but I really think that people don’t “know” how to communicate via this mechanism or any mechanism that doesn’t involve body language, tone of voice and all that other stuff people use in conjunction with the spoken word to draw their conclusions (aka A$$ume what the person is trying to say). In the age, of emails, instant messages and texting via cell it seems that people might have carried over some of the etiquette and manners over to these means of communica

Stupid F'n Gaaa Last A Little Longer Please!
Piece of caca mother effer. WTF? AAAAAARRRRRRRRRGH Im am very thankful for futopia right now. But, i gotta say it's not a happy thankful. I swear - no more foreplay... Any chatting or build-up of eachother's abilities is just crap. It only leads to disappointment. So yay futopian bliss of sexuality - BOO stupid fuckers that cant fuckin put out for more than 5 fuckin minutes! Mother Fuckers! My vagina swears revenge! Those bastards will all rupture a fuckin nut from blue balls i plan to give - if they hold out long enough for that! GAAAAA I dont kno whether im crying or plotting murder... I'm so crazy pissed - just need good booty - glad i can say it here cuz ya'll dont kno me... lol k... really hope i can look back on this one and laugh...

"the Chase"
The moment left them breathless.A beautiful couple, they locked fingers and touched togetherpalms of two hands, one belonging to him and one to her. He was sure that she returned as much as he gave.Her dark, yet loving eyes said so.Raindrops fell around the two, glowing in the lights that moved around them with the quickness of several lightning strikes.“Tonight is our night,” he told her. She replied with a warm smile.A rounded tear slid down her cheekand he was afraid that denial had set in.That worried look must have clicked in her mind, as she assured him that she was fine.Her voice quivered when she let go of the words “just a little confused”.That simple notion brought him to tears.“Do you think you could live without me?” he asked her. “I’m not sure,” she said with a deep sob. She leaned in and kissed him.He tasted the salty tears that her lips had absorbed.It was nice, probably the best since the first time.They stared at on

Stupid Boy
I broke up w/ Doug....and about last weekend we were talking and he asked if I would get mad at him if he started "messing around with other people" when he's at parties and shit. I said i didnt care. Anyways...later he texts me....and asked if I had any condoms to give him so he can be "safe". WTF!!

Super Easy Slow Cooker Recipe
Sorry I haven't updated this blog... I have a mini crockpot. It's adorable and I've been wanting to use it so badly! I found a super simple recipe and here it is: (note, this is how much I put in my small crockpot...you can adjust as needed) 1 can black beans, drained.5 lbs boneless, skinless chicken breast, cubed12 oz salsa.5 cups of brown rice Throw it all in the slow cooker and let it cook on low for 5-6 hours or until the rice is soft. Next time I might partially cook the rice before putting it in because it still could have been more tender. makes 4 servings nutrition per serving Calories 206.8Total Fat 1.6g Saturated Fat 0.3 g Polyunsaturated Fat 0.3 g Monounsaturated Fat 0.3 g Cholesterol 32.9 mg Sodium

Because In Truth, I Will Never Beg You.
In one single moment,your entire life turns around,you said it was eternal,and that was your vow,with one simple act you let us,simply crash and fall down. I can't imagine a lifewithout you and me,There's things I can't imagine doing,things I can't imagine seeing,It was never supposed to be easy,surely please, please, I beg you please.

Puscifer - Rev 22:20
Don't be aroused, by my confession Unless you don't give a good Goddamn about redemption I know Christ is comin', so am I And you would too if the sexy devil caught your eye She'll suck you dry But still you'll cry, to be back in her bosom To do it again She'll make you weak And mourn and cry, to be back in her bosom To do it again (Pray) Til I go blind (Pray) Cause nobody ever survives Prayin' to stay in your arms just until I can die a little longer Satyrs and saints, devils and heathens and lies She'll eat you alive Jesus is risen, it's no surprise Even he would martyr his mama to ride to hell between those thighs The pressure is building, at the base of my spine If I gotta sin to see her again then I'm gonna lie and lie and lie She'll make you cry I'll sell my soul, to be back in your bosom Gladly now please suck me dry And still you'll cry, to be back in her bosom To do it again (Pray) Til I go blind (Pray) Cause nobody ever survives Prayin' to stay in her arms just until I c

For Lisa
people come people go but every now and than theres ones u dont want to let go u will do anything to keep them close to show how u feel u give them ur heart u give them ur soul just to keep them from going but if they go u really cant stop them but u can always hold them with in ur heart for love is what i give and ask u not to go but its all up to u

Just Me
Hi to those of you who are taking the time to read this blog, its about me my likes, dislikes and just plain randomness. Where to start hmmmmmmm what about when i get up, how come i switch on my PC??? am I the only one? I wonder how many guys would think WTF is she doing putting on her PC even before she has any clothes on ;).

Why The Need To Fake?
TEACHER http://www.fubar.com/user/3857112 Sooo I get a friend request out of the blue. A 25 Year old Female. No message, nothing. "Her" Profile image is... I figure, right on... a teacher. I add and check this person out and I see photoshopped pics of the same chick over different model bodys and *very* poorly done. All face pics are in profile and repeated. I am thinking this had got to be a joke. I click through and I see things like flowers (which I can only assume somone sent "her") and pics of some dude that might be a boyfriend... as it has the MO of it... cheesey image generator protrats etc. Now in this folder of pics of the same chick's face plastered over modeling pics with totally different coloration, lighting, and tone.. there is a pic that appears 2x... reversed-out mirroring one another. I can only assume it is there as "tell" whom might be the real person behind the profile. Needless to say... blocked softly after. And the world is none th

A Poem That Gives You Goose Bumps...
A drunk man in an OldsmobileThey said had run the lightThat caused the six-car pileupOn 109 that night.When broken bodies lay about"And blood was everywhere,""The sirens screamed out eulogies,"For death was in the air."A mother,t=#@^^$ inside her car,"Was heard above the noise;Her plaintive plea near split the air:"Oh, God, please spare my boys!"She fought to loose her pinned hands;"She struggled to get free,"But mangled metal held her fastIn grim captivity.Her frightened eyes then focused"On where the back seat once had been,"But all she saw was broken glass andTwo children's seats crushed in.Her twins were nowhere to be seen;"She did not hear them cry, ""And then she prayed they'd been thrown free, ""Oh, God, don't let them die! "Then firemen came and cut her loose, ""But when they searched the back, ""They found therein no little boys, "But the seat belts were intact.They thought the woman had gone mad"And was traveling alone, ""But when they turned to question her, "They discovered

What The Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok look this is supposed to be a fucking place for us to escape all the children and ridiculous regulations that we have on myspace or facebook right? So why the fuck are they making it soo much like facebook. I hate this new shit. I keep lookin for the shoutbox I cant tell when someone is SBin me and does anyone else feel like a "blonde" today cause of this new shit. I WANT MY OLD FUBAR BACK DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Does anyone else feel like they are getting the shaft here about all this change and no ch ecking with us. THE USERS THAT PAY to keep it up and running. Seriously though we have to pay 100 dollars for a happy hour and pay out the ass for blasts so dont we have a say so on if you get to make the site shitty or not. i mean shit on facebook they dont have a say because well its FREE COMPLETELY. no need to enter in your credit card info for shit. thats why you dont have a say on there. so if your gonna make fubar like facebook then stop chargin for blasts a

The Bullshit Gets Deeper
so because i have a facebook and some of the people i have on there are friends of my wife i am trying to turn them against her. my subvertive tactics of accepting farmville gifts is underhand and turning her friends against her. fucking woman has lost the plot entirely.

Contribution
I was computer-less today & my boredom led me over to one of the several magazine racks situated about the library. In my quest for something meaningful and thought-provoking, I came across the Smithsonian portion of the monthly publications: Bosnia's Ancient Pyramids, Handel's Messiah, Animal Trafficking...Darwin And Lincoln.I had to read it--even if it took up my next class's work time, I was going to get into it.I found it coincidental and intriguing that Charles Darwin and Abraham Lincoln were born on the same day (February 12, 1809). The two men that contributed largely to what is seen & accepted in the world today--their genius, their legacies, and their humanity--were born on the very same day nearly 201 years ago. I skipped over Lincoln's article inside and worked my way through the 8 pages of "What Darwin Didn't Know," by Thomas Hayden.As I read and looked through the various pictures and captions, I noticed something different...Unlike most scientists in the 18

Dedicated To The Many Females I've Met That Would Mistakenly Call Themselves Women :-)
I'm Not Your Type I'm sorry but I'm not your type,You see I have no destructive needs,That come into you life and cause it to bleed,So you see I'm not your type,I have no kids and no baby mama,To always come between us and cause drama,So you see I'm not your type,I have no crazy stalking ex,Prank call your job and make you vexed,So you see I'm not your type,I have no costly addictions,That would end up causing us an evcition,So you see I'm not your type,I have poor examples of rage from my childhood home,That would cause me to live you with any broken bones,So you see I'm not your type,Yes i do have a job so you never will,Have to worry about going into your pockets to pay my bills,So you see I'm not your type,I have an open mind always ready to grow,Not a closed block that is only able to say no,So you see I'm not your type,Yes a strong carnal hunger is indeed part of me,But it's not like SEX is all i can see,So you see I'm not your type,Yes i do believ out beauty if os fo fine,Bu

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Ah It's Almost Easter!
Sping is a perfect time for new beginnings, and for Christians and Hebrews around the world this week is especially sacred. The pesach and especially the Seder, marking the beginning of the Hebrews freedom given to them by G-d to become a great nation. For them a new beginning, but many years wandering in the wilderness for purification. Easter, actually celebrated as Triduum, from Holy Thursday to Easter Sunday, for christians commerate the sarifice of God's son, Jesus Christ, to bring the gentiles to God and forgive the sins of man, rising on Sunday. Wishing all a very Happy Passover/Easter, and a new beginning for the rest of 2010. Doc

Lifesavers
I am here because I choose to be,This is where I want to be,I want you and thats ok,Because you want me too.I see beyond your scars,Beyond the bruises of your past,You say I am good for your soul,Yet you have made mine work again.So, slowly we go,Confident of the quality,Like a fine malt,to be savoured at length.

Why Or Why Not
When is it that you should trust someone. What makes it hard to trust others is when they lie to your face and say they would never do anything to hurt you when in fact they are doing it at that moment. Do they ever feel the hurt they give you or is it they just dont care. I think that if you dont mean it dont say it. I cant stand hurt anymore. I think ill just stay and be alone forever. Why not seems the best thing no one can hurt me. So tell me what you think?

Bhr Promo Contest
Bad Habitz Radio Promotion Contest We will be running a contest for the best promotion starting 4/15 and ending on the 30th. This can be a comment, bulletin, voice promo, video promo.... what ever you desire, be creative! Winner will win 2 million fubucks and a 10 credit bling. If you are interested in joining this contest please let me know (by PM or in the comments below) by 4/10... promotions will be due on the 14th so I can get them posted for voting. They will be placed in my stash, person with the most ratings and comments (yes, comments count as votes in this one) by April 30th will be the winner. It is up to you to promote your promo... I will only be promoting the contest as a whole.

The Race
Ok I promise this is the last of the food stories. I wrote this one the day after the chili dog one. This one is about roast beef Aujue. THE RACE The roast beef is challanging the Aujue to a race through the land. They started at the town square. They went forward about a block with Aujue in the lead. They turned the corner in front of the hardware store. Out of town they go. Look out for those trees, bushes, and brambles! SNAP! CRACK! OUCH! Through the swamp now. Roast Beef got through first. Roast Beef has a big lead. Roast Beef just entered the desert. Look! The race is not over yet. Aujue just exited the swamp. Aujue will have to hurry to catch up with Roast Beef, Aujue just entered the desert. Aujue caught up with Roast Beef. They are neck and neck. Aujue is in the lead. The positions change. They are neck and neck. A mysterious hole has formed in the middle of the town square. Here comes Roast Beef and Aujue. The fell into the hole! MMMMMM! That was good.

Points Of Contact
Between playing a full schedule these days, and my lack of zeal for the remodeling job they did on the site... I may or may not hang out here much even after making this profile. The hilarious thing is that a lot of the MuMMers have been acting like they're ace detectives, "I know it's you Dana!" ... as if that were ever a secret. So to my few good friends here I wanted to post contact info in case you want to stay in touch with me elsewhere. I don't add many online aquaintances to my Facebook, prefering to keep it for people I actually interact with near-daily but I'm easy to find there: Dana Eddy Yahoo IM is similarly easy: danaeddy myspace.com/danaeddymusic myspace.com/conspiracytheorydallas

20 Things I Learned From Watching Empire Records
If you haven't seen the movie Empire Records than this entire blog will go over your head. 20. You can't kill yourself using a Lady Bick with moisturizing strip. 19. If you are a minor you can shoot up a store,hold customers hostage,and not do any hard time..you might even be able to get a job there. 18. Record stores stay open til midnight(even later on special occasions) 17. You can sell beer without a liqour license for 5$ 16. One is able to buy a record store(cheap) 15. You can be a total asshole to everyone yet still find redemption in their eyes if you play guitar in their band( this is a stupid deleted scene on the special edition dvd) 14. His name isn't fucking Warren!(I thought his name was Warren?) 13. Telling the manager he is superb more than once can get your ass kicked. 12. Rock n' Roll Heaven has a guest list. 11. The fat man walks alone. 10. Marc Sucks! 09. 1:37 is an EXCELLENT time to declare your love for someone. 08. One is able to embezzle 9,104(I count

Ginger Infused Peace
I awoke in a strange state today.I wasn't a bug.I wasn't a raging alchoholic threatening to drop out.I wasn't in love. That was the peculiar thing.Spring had sprung,and had doubley uncoiled without me. I contemplated this new position of inadequate apathy from the showerupside downat the toiletin the garageand even drinking on the back stoop half asleep in my pajamas. With my straw hat lopsidedand my bottle ajar I just gazed vacantly at the gathering virginal leaves, clumsily sprouting and reaching for the morning light. So thin and frailpassing light, filtering hope, and even tranquility through a brick stacked cellular veilthey look like I could safely kiss through themsafely fall head over heels cushioned on a field of their peers. Such unecessary things.Worship.Recreational sex.Novice prose. Yet as I contemplated the grass and the dimpled concrete against my cheekthat I wouldn't be me without them,and that spring is only green and fresh for so precious littletime. Then we r

Old Friends / Chat Contacts
Thank you Not Tellin' for reminding me. After I left fubar the last go round my laptop blew up. When I got a new one I had to reinstall YIM. When I did all of my contacts disappeared. If you are using YIM and would like to add me again please do so. YIM ID: Sasquatch5170

Fubar Or Fubook?
From what I hear alot of peoples are leaving FU because of just that they believe it's to much like FACEBOOK and would have to agree but I did see them changing it back yesterday although not sure if people r happy about it? I'm happy that they have gotten back to OLD SCHOOL unhappy cause I believe I'd been fucked out of my damn blast seeing they'd been doing the changes during that time period I'm not going to buy another, an yes I know it's hard to say but true justta waste of moneys & well they will not refund your money nor will they give you credit so anyways my Q? is r ya'll happy with them going BACK?

Just Something I Don't Understand.
Maybe you all can help me out. I seen a ticker and actually clicked on it. The person's name was a Seether song that I really like. I was just going to make a comment to them about how I liked the song. [shocking I know] Anyway, his profile was set to comment approval but he wasn't approving any comments. That's right, the guy has absolutely NO comments on his page. Odd? Another thing about this that I don't get. His ticker was saying he was buying bling credits. So much per credit. So you know he has to be about the points, why not approve comments? I just dont' get it.

I Think I'm Done
I think i have finally had enough, i think i am going to delete every account i have like fubar and facebook and myspace and POF and Mingle and Tagged. I am seriously tired of people adding me as friends but never talking to me what is the point in that!??!? I also hate people who pretend they care just to get in my pants and if they succeed i'm ignored again, so i think i'm done!!! I think i'll just be happier alone at least i wont get hurt that way. any tue friends will read this and maybe comment on it like saying wether i should close my accounts just let me know!?!?

Me
My life is an open book the pages are cryptic...My heart is a maze with no way in and no way out, My soul is a riddle the answer lost in time. To gaze into my mind is to go blind with the things you will find inside To look upon my body you won't see what is there...I'm an enigma one of a kind a diamond in the rough, a forgotten but always remembered person. Will you like what you see...you be the judge but don't judge me.

One Last Breath By Creed
ONE LAST BREATH by CREED Please come loveI think I'm fallingHolding on to all I think is safeIt seems I've found the road to no whereAnd i'm trying to escapeI yelled back when I heard thunderBut I'm down to one last breathAnd with it let me sayLet me say...Hold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinMaybe 6 feet ain't so far downI'm lookin downNow that its overReflecting on all of my mistakesI thought I found the road to somewhereSomewhere in His graceI cried outHeaven save meBut I'm down to one last breathAnd with it let me sayLet me sayLet me say..Hold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinMaybe 6 feet ain't so far down(repeat)I'm so far downSad eyes follow meWell I still believe there's something there for meSo please come stay with meCause I still believe there's something left for you and me...you an me...you and meHold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinHold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinMaybe 6 feet ain't so far down....Please come nowI thi

Regular Guy Vs A Cowboy
A REGULAR GUY- WILL WATCH SOMEONE IN NEEDA COWBOY- WILL BE RIGHT THERE HELPING A REGULAR GUY- MIGHT HAVE SOME MANNERSA COWBOY- KNOWS THE MEANING AND DOESN'T KNOW HOW NOT TO A REGULAR GUY- DOESN'T KNOW RESPECTA COWBOY- KNOWS AND SHOWS IT TO EVERYONE EVEN WHEN NONE IS SHOWED TO HIM A REGULAR GUY- HIS DAY STARTS AT MAYBE 7 IN THE MORNINGA COWBOY- MOST OF THE TIME ITS AT OR BEFORE THE SUN COMES UP A REGULAR GUY- WILL LOOK FOR A FIGHT SO HE CAN LOOK TOUGHA COWBOY- WON'T START A FIGHT BUT WILL SURE END IT A REGULAR GUY- DRINKS TILL HE PASSES OUTA COWBOY- DOESN'T KNOW THE MEANING OF PASSING OUT A REGULAR GUY- DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WHEN HE IS BORED AND HAS NOTHING TO DOA COWBOY- DOESN'T HAVE THE TIME TO KNOW WHAT BEING BORED IS A REGULAR GUY- WILL TALK SHIT AND THREATIN TO KICK YOUR ASSA COWBOY- DOESN'T TALK SHIT HE WILL JUST PLAIN OLD KICK YOUR ASS THEN LISTEN TO YOU A REGULAR GUY- WILL TELL A WOMEN HE LOVES HERA COWBOY- HE WONT JUST TELL HER HE LOVES HER HE WILL TELL HER SHE IS THE

A Personal Note To Jesse James
Jesse, You Stupid Bastard! You cheated on Sandra Bullock? How in the world can you be so stupid? You are married to one of the most beautiful women in the world; she has a body to die for, and her current wealth and predicted wealth is shadowed only by Oprah, who even Steadman will tell you, isn't attractive. But your wife, who recently beat out Julia Roberts in the polls and is now the named " America 's Sweetheart"; you also remember she just won an Oscar (which translates to more money per picture she makes in the future)...while you were shacking with that tattooed freak, who just happens to be a former stripper and is someone's mommy. You are really a piece of work! You are the most hated asshole cheater on the planet! And while the State of California is a no-fault state whereby you may be able to take half of your wife's wealth, in doing so you would only be hated even more...esp

D:
I kinda hope I do die in 2012 I hate the way this country is changing Im more affraid of the way we're moving. Is it ok to be scared? I kinda feel like Im screaming and noone can hear me. I want to be free again. But, for now, Im not an American.

The Heat Of The Savannah
Savannah awoke at 10A.M. Her long dark brown hair fell over her face. All that showed were thin lips that glistened from moisture and a chin that lacked blemish with a perfect roundness. She sat up and revealed a red silk night gown. The night gown clung to her body revealing breasts that appeared to be a size 32c. She turned out of her covers revealing two legs that were as smooth as the night gown she wore. Her thighs were slim but strong. No fat showed at all. Her legs joined behind a pair of black cotton panties. She stretched her hands out showing powder blue finger nails at the end of long slim fingers. She bent her elbows with the grace of a dancer and slid the hair off her face. Her dark blue eyes focused on the room in a matter of minutes. She arose out of her bed and walked across her room to sit in front of her mirror. She picked up her brush and began to comb her hair. After combing out her hair she stood and walked over to her dresser. She

Wish Me Luck!!!!!
I've been in pain for quite some time now that is why I have not been online much. The doctor has recently found out what the problem is. I have degeneration in the back of my neck, and a disk herniation. Both of these have my spinal cord in a very bad situation. There is too much pressure being placed on my spinal cord. On the 13th of this month I will be having surgery on my spine. They have to go in and take out a section of my spine and replace it with a piece of metal. They call it cervical fusion. Needless to say I am TERRIFIED!!!!!!! IF anyone would like to buy me a vip in exchange for fu bucks plz let me know. I figure this way it may give me some enjoyment while I'm laying flat on my back recovering. Wish me luck and send me good thoughts and prayers.........

Shine On You Crazy Diamond
Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.Shine on you crazy diamond.Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.Shine on you crazy diamond.You were caught on the crossfire of childhood and stardom, blown on the steel breeze.Come on you target for faraway laughter, come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr, and shine!You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon.Shine on you crazy diamond.Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light.Shine on you crazy diamond.Well you wore out your welcome with random precision,rode on the steel breeze.Come on you raver, you seer of visions, come on you painter, you piper, you prisoner, and shine! -Pink Floyd

Grrrrr Fml!
He held all of me in the palm of his hand. One word, One look is all he had to do. He would have anything I could give. But he walked away Turned his back and forgot it all. The endless nights we shared, The countless times we smiled. How does one walk away from something they say was a match made? How does one never look back? And yet I'm compelled to know if I ever cross your mind. Do you still see me when you close your eyes. Does my voice echo in your head. Do you see my eyes still staring at you while you ramble on to me. So I say go ahead walk away. You and I both know you will never find another like me. And you will compare what we had with all you search for. One day you will see that the small things are worth more than the larger picture. But by then you will have ran me off to the arms of another, who seen them when you wasn't looking. Never walk around with your eyes closed for when you do you never see whats standing in front of you. And by the time you s

The Fubucks And Fu Owned Crisis....
Check the blog below and to the left with the same title...don't forget to rate , tell your friends and post your comments as always and please don't forget to rate it a 1, 3, 6, 10 or 11..:D

Darkness Of Night
Her beauty came to me,In the darkness of night.I stared in awe of her beauty,Till the dawns early light. To hold such a vison,Would be any mans dying wish.The hours I spent holding her,For me was endless bliss. I see her image again now,With beauty endless for all time.And I wish for the night to come,So once again this beauty I might find.

Just A Song I Wrote
You’ll never know how much you mean to me You’ll never know how great our love could be You’ll never hear I love you baby And you’ll never feel my touch If you don’t open your heart If you don’t open your heart If you don’t open your eyes Try to feel this love so deep inside Baby please don’t say goodbye You’ll never know what a best friend I can be and You’ll never know what your love does to me and You’ll never know if you don’t take the chance Take my hand, this is our last dance I’m standing before you My love is strong, my love is true But you’ll never know If you don’t open your heart If you don’t open your eyes Try to feel this love so deep inside Baby don’t say goodbye Inside my heart lies a pot of gold for you to have and you to hold In this life you’re all I need you keep me safe, make me complete It’s all right

Today I Went Bankrupt
It feels like the diagnosis of terminal Cancer. To know that no matter how hard you work to avoid it, you aren't immune! I don't know if I will lose my car yet, but if I do that means I'll also lose my job. Its been awhile since my last blog. I wish I had something better to write about.

My Big Five Personality Test Results:
Big Five Word Test Results Extroversion (80%) high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.Accommodation (68%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex).Orderliness (32%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, random, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of structure, reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.Emotional Stability (48%) medium which suggests you are moderately relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.Inquisitiveness (68%) moderately high which suggests you are intellectual, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical. Take Free Big Five Word Personality Testpersonality tests by similarminds.com

Thank You Reality Tv...
Reality tv has its fans and critics and has since shows like 'Survivor' has made it prime time entertainment. It is all very similar no matter what show it is, a group of fairly diverse people are put into some sort of odd circumstance and feuds and friendships develop and drama ensues. This is all well and good as long as people keep paying attention. The thing that caught my attention as I am a reality tv watcher on occasion is how well it captures some aspects of our culture. On two different occasions I have watched people have been voted off for being 'the biggest threat' aka hardest worker/best player. This perfectly portrays what happens in a real workplace. Instead of the hardest worker being praised, more often than not they are brought down but other clicks and stabbed in the back by various means. So, on a small scale, reality catches this aspect of our culture quite well. And I know what most will say...'it's just a game'....'I would for all that money' ...My only point is

The Life Of A Coal Miner
It starts out early.. Way early in the morning.. It's still a little dark at 5:30 when the door swings open. I grab my eyes off the battery that charges it, my belt that holds the very breath that i breathe, my clothes that will reveal me from being invisible, and my hat that keeps the ceiling off my head.. I get to the playground where i meet up with many men.. Men whom are like none other.. These people are a different breed of human.. They're not like you.. These men are mentally the toughest and bravest men you will ever meet along with soldiers.. We suit up by 6 and head out the door.. One gets to the edge of a cliff where its like your standing in line for a tall rollercoaster.. You look down and see the the steel plated floor, but thru this floor u see the ground which is around 200 feet below you.. I always try to step on the steel beams that support the floor because while waiting for this ride, all i can do is think of what would happen if this floor fell.. We load onto an

The Journey
The Journeyby Bob Geesn4/10/10 I went to walk along the wayIt was a bright warm sunny beautiful dayThere were many people bustling about in a hurry, angry, and many shoutThings were not pretty on that roadI felt as I were being prodded with a goadThings got uglier along that wayI felt destruction emanated for me that dayThen up a head I saw off to the side a narrow gateStanding there was a friendly faceHe invited me in with a warm smileAsked me to walk with him for a couple of milesHesitantly I turned to accept his offerI was afraid that I get lose my and never profferIt was peaceful and calm as we went our wayEach step felt guided as a new peace surrounded me that dayThe road was straight and easy to walk as I followed HimI noticed that is was quiet and there was no longer a dinSo I looked back to see where we had beenTo my surprise I saw only one set of tracksMy burdens felt lifted from off my backThen I looked into that smiling faceI knew then I had found my Savior that dayWhat see

Sleep, My Dove.
When a MAN that truly loves HIS woman, sees her sleeping so soundly, so peacefully Angelic, HIS Heart, Mynd, Body, and Soul all intermingle. It's indescribably magical. Words flood HIS Mynd, Love engulfs HIS Heart, Need scorches HIS being, and Completeness consoles HIS soul. HIS universe is contained totally within the confines of her dreams. HIS imagination caress the galaxies as IT escapes time and space on it's journey to something beyond that which HE knows as HEAVEN. ~~~mystic~~~

Random Facts About..........me!!
ok, just thought I would share some "facts" about me that I dont think anyone knows, well maybe they do, cant remember lol..anyways, here they are....... 1****** I love to wear mens cologne on occasions, it makes me feel SEXY, BEAUTIFUL....so if anyone has a certain one they wear, tell me and I might wear it, heheheh... 2******Im NOT scared of bugs....I usually dont kill them either, just take them outside and set them free lol 3******Does not believe in ghost, UFOs....unless you can SHOW me in person, then I might change my mind lol 4******doesnt believe in "true" love or love at first glance, give me a break... 5******loves CHINESE food, sooo freakin yummy, I can eat it 24/7;} 6******wants to rule the world, come on, who doesnt.... 7******Im the only one on my block who has a NHRA drag racing tire as their tree swing......I got it from NHRA Nationals in Joliet, IL.. 8******Loves watching Scooby Doo cartoons;} 9******my handwriting type is Hippo writing... Hippo writi

Things I Like.
1.Pink Floyd my all time favorite band. 2.People who are real and stick to their morals and beliefs. It's not just enough to say you are and do. Show me. 3.People who have a brain. 4.People who are not drama queens. Highschool is over kiddies time to grow up. Oh also the world don't revolve around you and your petty probelms. Really I don't care . 5.Drawing, Writing, Playing, and Listening to music. 6.People who can be humane. 7.True friends. If you are a true friend when shit gets thick you won't turn away or tell me there is nothing you can do. When we are down is when we need those closest to us the most. And sometimes simply talking and listening is enough. 8.Books. Sometimes the best exscape from reality is a good book. 9.The smell of fresh cut grass. 10.The smell of the pavement right after it starts raining. And don't say it is the same smell as wet pavement no cause they're really two different smells. 11.The smell of coffee brewing. 12.Going somewhere with

Quiz About Me.
Alright kiddies it's time for a Quiz about me so please answer the best you can. No cheating or fishing for answers cause I wont give them. When you are done please copy and paste the answers to me and send it to me! I will let you know who gets the most right. 1. Name (Extra points for the one(s) who get my middle name) - 2. Favorite Band- 3. Favorite Movie- 4. Favorite Color- 5. Favorite Pastime- 6. Favorite Pet- 7. Favorite Food(s)- 8. Right handed or Left handed? - 9. Favorite old school video game- 10. Mothers name- 11. Fathers name- 12. Favorite superhero- 13. Favorite supervillain - 14. My fetish(es)- 15. Born and Raised in- 16. Currently live in-

Only If Love Could
IF LOVE COULD REALLY WIPE AWAY, EVERY SINGLE TEAR SO THEN WHY DOES IT HURT THE MOST, WHEN THE ONE I LOVE IS HERE. IF LOVE COULD EVER EASE THE PAIN, THAT IM FEELING DEEP INSIDE. SO WHY DOES THE PAIN INCREASE, WITH THESE FEELINGS I SEEM TO HIDE. IF LOVE COULD EVER KEEP ME SAFE, FROM HARM ALL AROUND. SO THEN WHY AM I BEING HARMED, AND KICKED ONTO THE GROUND. IF LOVE COULD EVER MAKE ME SMILE, AND MAKE ME SO HAPPY. SO THEN WHY DO I FEEL LIKE CRYING, AND FAILING TO BELIEVE. IF LOVE COULD EVER BE WRONG, BELIEVE ME I KNOW IT'S NOT COS LOVE IS THE ONLY THING, THAT KICKS ME OUTTA MY SOCKS.

Breaking News...god Is A Sock!
...and the Devil is a Hawaiian shirt. Or maybe a tube top. Or perhaps spandex... *chuckles* Well...if God IS a sock, I guess that would explain why my prayers to hit the lottery were never answered. I was praying to the wrong place. So, if God is a sock, would that make your sock drawer a holy place? A church per se? Because if that is the case, I'd like to start church services...and the donation box is right as you walk in. Maybe I could become the first Sock televangelist, and broadcast live from my sock drawer. Call 1-800-GOD-SOCK, and send in those donations, Folks...and I'll heal all your ills in the name of Hanes knee-highs! Hmmm...and that brings up another question...there are MANY socks in the sock drawer. Obviously, the others MUST be FALSE socks...Which one is God? Is he in MY sock drawer, or in someone else's? Or perhaps God is the missing sock you always end up having with after you go to the laundromat? (Nahhh...can't be. The missing socks in the laundry aren't

Antebellum - Need You Now
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor. reaching for the phone, cause I cant fight it anymore. And i wonder if I ever cross your mind for me it happens all the time Its a quarter after one im all alone and I need you now said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now, and I dont know how I can do without i just need you now Another shot of whiskey cant stop looking at the door, wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before And I wonder if I ever cross your mind, for me it happens all the time Its a quarter after one im a little drunk and I need you now said I wouldnt call but I lost all control and I need you now. and I dont know how I can do without I just need you now... wooh oo wooh oh Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all Its a quarter after one im all alone and I need you now and I said I wouldn't call but im a litt

[the Problem With Having An Idea...]
Is that I've got 20 other ideas that will eventually turn into projects. All of which probably involve fewer intricacies and require less practice than this one. Sooooo Deathscythe. I put down some preliminary sketches, and I decided to stick with the whole wings/redemption thing. And Out of my brain popped a seraphim. Why not? He has all the hinges necessary for six wings and a sword (what I often interpret the 7th wing to be in my work :P) So I have... Huge.Plans. For this kit. Color scheme is light metallic trimWhite body (pearl finish if I can get it)and dark purple panels Torso/waist mods:planning to reshape the panels to resemble a crusader's tunicpaneling some of the cockpit and less organic designsmay remove back-skirt, current design impedes maneuverability. limb mods:none planned at the moment Wing mods:extensive.Possibly scrap building all new wing/armor plates (or just sanding off some surfaces) and crafting "feathers" and attaching to the outside of all six win

Tink/debbi's Soon To Be Ex On Her Yim.
skein_of_chaos (4/10/2010 11:37:39 PM): You really are the worst human being alive. debbilaucella (4/10/2010 11:37:51 PM): who is this? skein_of_chaos (4/10/2010 11:37:59 PM): Fuck you douchebag. debbilaucella (4/10/2010 11:38:24 PM): well u can have the hoe skein_of_chaos (4/10/2010 11:38:32 PM): You go into someone elses shit and delete accounts, and change her passwords. skein_of_chaos (4/10/2010 11:38:38 PM): Thats invasion of privacy moron. debbilaucella (4/10/2010 11:38:48 PM): what r u talking about skein_of_chaos (4/10/2010 11:38:57 PM): I know who you are dumbass. debbilaucella (4/10/2010 11:39:03 PM): and ur point skein_of_chaos (4/10/2010 11:39:31 PM): And my point is YOU are not Debbi. skein_of_chaos (4/10/2010 11:39:42 PM): You are being malicious toward her for something YOU fucked up on. debbilaucella (4/10/2010 11:39:44 PM): deb is my wife debbilaucella (4/10/2010 11:40:01 PM): and she is logged on, on my comp debbilaucella (4/10/2010 11:40:04 PM): ur point

10/30 - Fractured Psyche
Fractured Psyche I'll always wonder when lightening struck your psyche with a bolt of despair so profound even the Earth gasped in dismay. Was it at the tender age where you were home schooled in terror? The syllabus consisting of hypocrisy, abuse and ignorance had you excel in reading the signs to survive. Is it any wonder the lessons taught in school never had any room to lay down roots with all the weeds of sorrow there? I imagine that is why you can never whisper now. Years of a garrote around your voice box would make me want to be heard too. Besides, maybe you think raising your voice will drown out the echoes of a childhood lost. Lost as the footing you attempt to gain maneuvering through the labyrinth of manhood. No one told you the odds of lightening striking the same spot so to you those rules did not apply. Each additional blow darkening your vision in direct proportion to the narrowing of your safety zone. Those who blew out their own c

Who Am I???
Even though I am 1crazyfcker I was given a name a long time ago and that name is Will. I'm a 38 yr. old full time daddy and it has been just David and I since he was 6 months old (he is 7 yrs old now). My entire world has revolved around David and it forever will, and I made a promise to myself when I became a full time single daddy that I would remain single and not allow a bunch of different women to come in and out of David's life causing him further unnecessary hurt and confusion. I have even stayed out of any sexual relationships so as not to break that promise and until fairly recently had done so 110%. David is a special little boy and has needed and demanded so much of me that I have been unable to have any social life at all so I decided to join FUBAR when a buddy told me about it just for the social interaction and outlet. I wasn't looking for a "hook-up", or relationship or anything intimate with ANYBODY. Then one day I went into this lounge (as music is one of my biggest pa

Written By A U.s. Soldier
Hope Rides Alone By Eddie Jeffers I stare out into the darkness from my post, and I watch the city burn to the ground. I smell the familiar smells, I walk through the familiar rubble, and I look at the frightened faces that watch me pass down the streets of their neighborhoods. My nerves hardly rest; my hands are steady on a device that has been given to me from my government for the purpose of taking the lives of others. I sweat, and I am tired. My back aches from the loads I carry. Young American boys look to me to direct them in a manner that will someday allow them to see their families again...and yet, I too, am just a boy....my age not but a few years more than that of the ones I lead. I am stressed, I am scared, and I am paranoid...because death is everywhere. It waits for me, it calls to me from around street corners and windows, and it is always there. There are the demons that follow me, and tempt me into thoughts and actions that are not my own...but that are n

A Friend's Question Answered.
WHAT'S THE ONE THING YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING? (a question a friend of mine just recently asked all of her friends,my answer follows, you are welcome to write or comment your answer, it is an intrigueing question.) What do I want more than anything? Your happiness, and I use the word "Your" both in reference to you specifically and the rest of the world as well. See I figure if You, and the world could all just find happiness, then perhaps I could find happiness as well... Isn't that really what anybody wants? Happiness? We as a society throw that word around loosely, as if we know what it means wholeheartedly, but can any one of us truly, without a doubt in our minds, say that we have experienced true happiness? Your favorite place is on the back of your horse, but that moment of bliss that you feel while you are there, is it truly the REAL definition of happiness? And, If so... how do we take that brief moment of bliss and learn how to experience it for the rest of our live

Point H04r!
As you know I'm very selective as to who I add on my friends list. I got an invite from a young girl, but she was local so I accepted. I had never said hello to her, until today. · friend MissJaclynn Cherry Bombed Lukethighrocker and earned 58,750 points!· MissJaclynn and Tainted Soul became friends!· friend MissJaclynn Cherry Bombed PuNkINPiE and earned 58,750 points!· friend MissJaclynn Cherry Bombed Angelf... and earned 58,750 points!· MissJaclynn and DeViLbRiNGeR became friends!· friend MissJaclynn Cherry Bombed submis... and earned 58,750 points!· friend MissJaclynn was Cherry Bombed by DJ DB AT DDR... and earned 12,455 points!· MissJaclynn and MOBIUS became friends!· MissJaclynn and AmandaCar... became friends!· friend MissJaclynn was Cherry Bombed by ssAyMssiK ak... and earned 12,455 points!· friend MissJaclynn Cherry Bombed Crystal Godd... and earned 58,750 points!· friend MissJaclynn Cherry Bombed Epic Diamond... and earned 58,750 points!· MissJaclynn and mister adorable.

Umm How I Lost It?
Well guess I will blog about this...seems a lot of yall want to know how I have lost the weight...honestly its just working out and running/ walking 3 or 4 days a week, watching what I eat, (portion control works, lol). As for the other question it has taken me 3 years to lose 153 lbs and as of today 2 years to lose 100 inches! I am excited cause I just bought a new swim suit :D and it's 2 sizes smaller than last year! It has been a long road but I am a size 13/14 for the first time in 8 years! Anyway, I hope that answers your questions!

One More Lie
Just one more lie You try to tell One more bullshit story you try to sell I will show you true pain Deeper still then even you have shown me My tears shed Will never compare to your blood bled I will make you pay For this heartache and misery In every possible way It has taken me forever but I see the truth I see through you More then you can ever see me I know your passions your weeknesses Everything you want to be Of me you know nothing You've alwayz been blind to me So self consumed Simply driven by desire It's come the time to douse your fire As you bleed before me You'll finally know pain I will return every "kindness" that you've shown me I will do so slowly With a smile on my face

Fubar
If lounge coding is not restored by 10 am pst I will be deleteing my lounge and my fubar acount I am tired of this crap why dont you all screw with the coding for blast and for happy hours screw u fubar I had it I take my 15 bucks a month and the money I spend on bling packs and invested some where else but wont mention names righ tnow

Have You Ever
Have you ever felt you’re all alone? With an empty space within your heart And where you are, it never fells like home It’s like a cold place, it’s always dark Have you ever cried by yourself? Late at night with no one around And you feel your soul tearing apart itself As your tears fall with a deafening sound Have you ever felt lost not knowing? Who you are and what to do Not sure of where you’re heading or going Everything you had wasn’t so true Have you ever felt something’s missing? And no matter where you looked Nothing ever looked very promising It all seems as if it was all mistook Have you always kept this piece of hope? That would somehow someday Pull you through and help you cope While fate shows you the way Have you ever looked at anyone? And known that this is where you belong Like the way I know you are the one With a Heart fill with love so strong

Just
A small smile disappears Shadows crossing lowering, darkening And my mind weighs heavy. Pushing my very life away. breath gone, so very still. envade me, teach me. thoughts criss cross through a dark garden winding through the mind grabbing the heart beats slow, darkening still. And I push my very life away...

Gay Rapper?
Singer Rufus Wainwright is urging rapper 50 Cent to set the record straight about his sexuality - insisting he knows the hip-hop star is "gay." The openly-gay singer is a huge fan of the "In Da Club" hitmaker, but insists there is something the superstar is not being honest about. He tells Details magazine, "I love, love 50 Cent. I think he's just the sexiest (guy), and a brilliant writer. And I know he's gay. "It's okay, 50 Cent. Feel free to call me anytime. My boyfriend and I are experts. You can come over for dinner. And maybe dessert."

Inspiration
I know I sure feel at times like I have not made any impact in anyones life other than my kids..but after reading this story.. I realize we do make some impact more than what we realize.. and that alot of times we just dwell on the bad stuff. Once upon a time, there was a young woman named Sarah who lived in the village below the Mountain of the Golden Footprints. She was feeling very sad and depressed. Nothing or no one could make her happy. She had been very unhappy and depressed for a long time. "What is the use of going on?" she said. Nothing anyone said seemed to make a difference. Her best friend went to visit Sarah and told her the story of the Mountain of the Golden Footprints. "It is a special place where as the sun sets you can look out over the city and see sparkling golden footprints on the places and people where you have made a difference." "But I haven't made any difference in anyone's life," she said. There won't be any golden footprints for me to see. So why should I

Awakening......
AWAKENING As I awoke today you were on my mind, it seems lately you are always on my mind. The thought of you is always with me no matter where I go, no matter what I do. The thoughts of you may not be in the forefront of my mind, however they are there. The thoughts rattle at my brain like the gnawing desire of a drug. To a certain degree and undeniably the though of you and I together has become a drug, I’ve become addicted to and truly do not wish to vanquish from my mind. This morning as I awoke my thoughts were of you, as I walked along in mornings dawn my thoughts were of you, as I showered my t houghts were of you. My mind wandered to your wondrously beautiful eyes and imagined what it would be like to become lost in them. My mind wandered to your luscious lips and wondered what it would be like to drink from them, to feel the press of your lips against mine and the caress of our tongues together dancing and exploring each others mouths. My mind wand

To Lena
A month has passed since you left and everyday I think of you. Sometimes its thoughts of anger and resent. But mostly it is of love and regret. Nevertheless I cant seem to let go. To say that I’ll eventually get past it and I should move on is to say that we should never have been together in the first place. If that were true, I wouldn’t be writing you this letter and you wouldn’t be reading it. Yes its true we’ve had problems and doubts about us. I never wanted you to leave and why I told you to is beyond me. You said you fell out of love with me but why? I didn’t have a job. I wasn’t doing what was expected of a loving and supporting husband and father. I failed you and the children plain and simple. The fact that I admit it openly should be enough but its not. I once told you that you were trying to change me and that it was useless to do so. I said that thinking that I couldn’t be what you wanted or needed. The truth is, for whatever reas

She Puts The Yum In Yummy
SHE PUTS THE YUM IN YUMMY AND RIGHT NOW SQUIRTER KAYLA IS UP FOR AUCTION AND CAN BE YOURS!! THIS IS NOT A RATES CONTEST BUT THE PERSON WITH HIGHEST OVERALL BID ALSO GETS A PRIZE BLINGPACK SO BID! BID! BID!

R.i.p Peter Steele
April 15, today, 48 years old, Peter Steele died (Petrus T. Ratajczyk actually) due to a heart problem. The truth is that lately his health problems were becoming increasingly evident, but we did not think to leave us so soon. Before creating Type O Negative in 1989, band that came to edit 7 studio albums, Steele had been in bands like Carnivore and Fallout. This time it seems that the news of his death is serious, and is not intending to make a joke with this. In 2005 jumped rumors about his death because the band released a photo of a tombstone with his name on the website. Later withdrawn, giving as an explanation of the recent signing of a contract with SPV after his departure from Roadrunner Records. What is certain is that Steele disappeared for a time without explanation or his manager or the rest of his teammates and, although the keyboardist for the band admitted that they had done so he could enjoy a solitary retreat, seems also was part of that time in psychiatric hospital

Well His Surgery Was Today
Anthony's surgery was today and I was a mess. I can't eat, I can't sleep and I couldn't study for a test. I sent him a text this morning telling him I was thinking of him. I have lost 4 lbs in the last 6 days because I can hardly eat. He is deeply depressed over all his health problems. The last conversation we had keeps replaying in my mind. He barely talked. He kept telling me over and over again how sorry he was. He was breathing so hard and loud that I asked him what was wrong with him. I am hurting so bad and its not because he did anything to me. I don't know how I am supposed to deal with this. Its killing me that he is in so much pain. How do I deal with this.

Someone
Someone Lost inside my head Dreaming of your embrace Where everything bad gets erased You take me to our secret place. I cant help but feel ashamed I'm not innocent, how do i aim the blame Sometimes I hate what I've become You just can't see it, I lose control I'm just so glad to see Someone else just as fucked up as me. Maybe you cant understand just how you saved me You were a hero… Just in time.. you saved my life To find this love of mine I had to die inside My heart is still cut open wide Alone with my own fears You're the only one here You won't let me hide I can't escape your love You remind me every time i see you When I fell in love for the first time And every time I hear you cry It tears me up inside I find it so hard to believe You're just as messed up as me You take everything away I could never be better off without you I never say what I don't mean And I don't care if this is just a dream

Anyone Can Make An Error, Ensign.
It becomes a mistake when you fail to correct it. That line from Timothy Zahn’s debut Star Wars novel “The Last Command” has stuck with me for years. It came to mind this morning as Martha and I went to Prairie Federal Credit Union and closed out our account for repeatedly allowing (or someone higher up the food chain being able to bypass the guards against) the holder of a WalMart credit card charging for Home Shopping Network purchases and paying with money out of our checking account. My debit card being declined last night due to a negative balance of over two hundred dollars did not and does not put me in a good mood dealing with the person at Prairie Federal who’s supposed to fix this. Despite her Clinton-like “I feel your pain” spiel (last charge we found it took her a month and a half to fix) we’d had quite enough. Alas, I can’t send my Noghri bodyguards/enforcers after her the way Grand Admiral Thrawn did a junior officer

Falling For Someone On The Internet
First of all I want to say I am relatively new the whole Internet thing. I never bothered with computers in the past till my parents forced me to move to Florida with them last year till i moved back home to Colorado shortly after my 19Th birthday in January. Happiest day of my adult life when I left Florida to come back home. Anyway, when I moved to Florida I felt so lost and lonely so I discovered the Internet to communicate to all my friends back home. I did fine a lesbian website that I thought was OK but I don't know I just couldn't really get into the topics that they had on there. Even though I am still a member of the site I don't hardly ever go on it no more. Somehow, I stumbled onto this site somehow. Oh, be careful ladies on how you type the web address. I typed it wrong one time and all I got to say, "Wow, what a site it took me too!" Since I started this site I got to say I met a lot of nice girls from all over the USA. I don't think any of them where from any other cou

Why Are The Woman On This Site Ssoooo Mean And Vicious?
I HAD TO WRITE THIS BLOG BECAUSE I FEEL THE NEED TO EXPLAIN THINGS THAT PEOPLE ON HERE REALLY DONT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND! THE PEOPLE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST, ARE THEY TRULY YOUR FRIEND? NO MOST LIKELY YOU WILL NEVER TALK TO THE OUTSIDE THIS SITE! IN 2010 I'M NOT SURE I TRUST THAT THE PERSON IS NOT A MANIAC OR PSYCHO KILLER! TO THOSE WHO HAVE MET AND PEOPLE TURNED OUT NICE, IM HAPPY FOR YOU ALL YOU DID WAS GET LUCKY THAT THE PERSON WASNT GONNA KILL YOU! MY VIP IS GOING TO RUN OUT IN 7 DAYS AND I WONT RENEW AND I DONT WANT ANYONE TO BUY IT FOR ME I WILL ONLY DELETE IT! I DONT WANT BLING ITS FAKE, I DONT WANT BLAST, TICKERS OR ANYTHING YOU WOULD HAVE TO PAY FOR! AS FOR LVLING NOT INTERESTED! I WILL BE REMOVING MY SALUTES TODAY DUE TO THE RUDENESS OF OTHERS WHO ARE NOTHING BUT FAT JEALOUS PIGS! DO I WANT TO BE HIGH RANK ON HERE NOPE NOT AT ALL! WHEN YOU RANK HIGH ON HERE IT MEANS YOU ARE THE MOST F*CKED UP ON THE SITE! YOU REALLY IN YOUR LIFE WANT TO ACTUALLY BE FUBAR? I WILL ONLY END BY SAYIN

April 17, 2010
Today we are driving down to the Oregon Coast and spend the weekend at our favorite place to hang out ... Florence, Oregon. Monday is our 24 year anniversary and we will be spending our days geocaching along highway 101 near the dunes, cliffs and lighthouses along the west coast searching for treasures. I am sure that my husband will take some pics and even some videos of us during our hunt for the geocaches. And of course tonight we will be having some real fun in our room.

Spanky's Words For The Weekend
Pain...that is a word which could be used to describe the time from the moment you're born until the moment you die, life is a string of pain intermingled with a string of happiness, if we were to foresee our lives and see the pain we will suffer throughout our existence a lot would choose to end it from the moment it started, but to not live through each spell of pain to see the spells of joy would be a tragedy, because the joy we experience throughout our lives whether it be based in love, or other ways is enough to outweigh the pain

Rebirth
A bird is still a bird... No matter how many feathers it sheds... Time will take it's place and make it right again... A bird is not sad... Knowing the outcome... It waits... With patience... It is not a healing process... It is a rebirth... The bird will be stronger then before... The bird will fly again... by J.E.Bischoff

When You Fall
Someday I will be there,To gently catch your fall.Because the day that happens,You wil have given the greatest gift of all. No gold or mans wealth,Could be greater than this.The one gift you could give,And fill my life with eternal bliss. Beautiful I will wait for your fall,Then from you never again be apart.Because on that wonderful day,You will have handed me your heart.

Why Cancer
Why does God have to play the cancer card on my family? For those of you who know of me online I have 3 relatives with various forms of cancer. And its hurting me to know that I cant do anything for them. One aunt is in the Quad Cities area of Illinois and she has AML Luekemia, she was in remission but shes now out of remission and has started chemo to help. At first she refused to do a bone marrow transplant but for some unknown reason she has changed her mind and my father is a perfect match. So needless to say my fathr is going to give his oldest sister some of his marrow in hope that she will be cured. One Uncle somewhere in South Carolina has stomache cancer, he was originally diagnosed with . Now that he's found out about the stomache cancer hes refusing treatment and is "Leaving it all up to God as to what happens to me". To me that sounds like hes giving up the fight to live. He has children and grandkids to live for not to mention his nieces who love him dealy!!

Screaming Thoughts
The thoughts that go screaming threw your head. Wanting nothing but to just scream at the top of your lungs TO HELL WITH IT ALL. Yet you cant you just keep going on. Is all you want is to be just left alone or for someone to acctually understand you. How hard is it for someone to undertand another person. Wishing to beable to just grab ahold of a person and just look at them and tell them what they are doing wrong and what to do to fix it. If only you could. Life is not hard, it is you who makes it that way. Sure you come across oppsticals but thats what makes you learn better for the next time. Why is it so hard for people to say what they truley mean or what they want to say, or what there true ententions are? I know why, its easier to live a lie and get what you want from people then it is to just tell the truth. Some times its hard to find where the lye is, or when its coming out. Dont worry ill always find it. There not hard to deteckt. I suppose ill just sit here pulling my hair

Yesterdays Tears~
I wrote this what seems like a lifetime ago Yesterdays Tears Wish I could say, wish i knew how much longer, i'm to be without you Cold dreary days wreck my mind wandering around so lost, so blind Trying to lose myself, another place and time Looking around for some reason or rhyme Make the days faster, make life pass me by, let tomorrow be the last day without you by my side Let yesterdays tears of sadness be todays tears of happiness Lets walk through forever, starting today Take my heart, my hand, lead the way.

Blood
Blood is never thicker than water. If it were, it wouldn’t run cold. If it were, my pain would be your pain. My injustices would be your injustices. My faults and mistakes would be accepted with open arms. Instead they are met with whispered judgments. We never hurt the ones we love. We hold tightly to them. We cherish them. We want what’s best for them. We protect their lives and hearts as if they were our own. We would never embrace those that have hurt them. I have had enough of love through obligation. Keep your false flattery. Keep your kind gestures that serve only your sense of well-being. I would rather walk alone without you than walk alone with you.

My Uncle
Uncle Jerry, your quiet strength and unwavering love with few words spoke volumes to all. You faithfully lived in such a way that God's honor was always kept safe within you. Thank you for such greatness in your life. We all love you and will miss you."It is not death, but LIFE I greet . . . when He who loves me calls me home." Uncle Jerry, such an honorable man, you are finally Home!

10 Years Gone....
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore And I wonder if I ever cross your mind For me it happens all the time It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before And I wonder if I ever cross your mind For me it happens all the time It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now I just need you now Ooo, baby, I n

Storm
A light rain falls from the sky, And fog as thick as smoke Rests just above the ground. The clouds, dark and heavy with rain, Hang low but move fast. The air is full of the approaching storm. I look into your eyes And I see a storm there too; My heart beats faster as thunder crashes above. Tears fall like rain on my face, As you turn away from me. I call your name, but you don't answer. Lightning flashes through my heart and the sky, And my heart breaks with the clouds, As the rain begins to pour. Before you walk away, you look back one last time. Lightning brightens the sky again, And I can see the pain in your eyes. And then you leave and don't look back, As I stand with rain on my face and a shattered heart, Alone in the storm.

Anger Management
Anger ManagementWhen you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take itout on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out onsomeone you don't know.I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten tomake. I found the number and dialed it.A man answered, saying 'Hello.'I politely said, 'This is Chris. Could I please speak with Robyn Carter?'Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear 'Get the right f*** ing number!'and the phone was slammed down on me.I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. When I tracked down Robyn'scorrect number to call her, I found that I had accidentally transposed thelast two digits.After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again.When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled 'You're an asshole !' andhung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'asshole' next to it, and putit in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or hada really bad day, I'd call him u

Toxic Cloud
WARNING: ONLY Read This When You Are Able To LAUGH OUT LOUD.>>I went to Home Depot recently while not being altogether sure that course of action was a wise one. You see, the previous evening I had prepared and consumed a massive quantity of my patented 'you're definitely going to shit yourself' road-kill chili. Tasty stuff, although hot to the point of being painful, which comes with a written guarantee from me that if you eat it, the next day both of your butt cheeks WILL fall off.>>Here's the thing. I had awakened that morning, and even after two cups of coffee (and all of you know what I mean) nothing happened. No 'Watson's Movement. Despite the chilies swimming their way through my intestinal tract, I was unable to create the usual morning symphony referred to by my dear wife as 'thunder and lightning'.>>Knowing that a time of reckoning HAD to come, yet not sure of just when, I bravely set off for Home Depot, my quest being paint and supplies to refinish the verandah. Upon enteri

The Thickness
Running threw the thickness of the forest. Searching for the way out, but every turn leads to more endless forest. Screaming at the top of your lungs for hopes of someone to find you and help you, but no one comes. Your left to find your own way out. Maybe you dont want to leave the thickness of the forest sorrounding you. Falling in and out of a dream state. Maybe thats all this is a dream. You cant seem to find your way out of. What if your not suppose to leave. Maybe its better not to be found. The cool wind blowing in your face makes you feel at home. No longer feeling that desperation to run and get free. Maybe this is were your suppose to be lost in a world were you can only help yourself. Why not just lay down and let the trees and bushes take over. Fall deep asleep so as to not have to deal with it anymore. No, you will get up and fight your way threw the thickness. There must be a way out. Shouldnt there be?

Prospects Code/terms
PROSPECTS TERMS 1.All new Prospects must have a verified salute & a minimum " 10 new pics " of yourself 2. Must sign the agreement below as a comment of "I AGREE " in order to be placed into voting procedure. 3. Shout Box & Fu Mail must be open to all Officers for communications . 4. The Homepage should be added to Your Family while being considered a Prospect & remain in your family after admittance. Also your Team Leader should be added to your top friend so that you can find them easily . 5. All new members will be assigned a Team Leader who we ask to be placed in top friends so they can contact you also. Putting your Team Leader into Family would be nice if you have space & can do that . But not a requirement . 6. You may chose to add the name of the group to your name including the word "prospect" while awaiting results of the weekly voting done on the weekends. All results sent by Monday unless something comes up . Upon entry you'll remove "Pro

Faith
When you have come the edge Of all the light that you know and you are about to drop off into the darkness Of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or You will learn to fly.

Bondage Whore
She kneels in front of him, her eyes squeezed tight, her body glist'ning in the candlelight. She holds her breath and, trembling, waits for it - the flogger brands her skin with every hit and at each stroke she screams in shock and pain yet hungers for its searing kiss again. And down again, and down again, it comes Until she falls completely, and succumbs. Surrendering all conscious thought and will, she is a vessel only he can fill. Submission breeds a pleasure born of pain and as she cums the heat soars through her veins. Beneath the whip she writhes and cries for more The slave, the slut, the total bondage whore.

My Craptastic Poetry, Part 6, I'm Turning Into A Mushface.
BOUNDby DAMAGODDESShave you melted into me?crawled through the mire to believein everything you've lost and can be?have you broken yet, my sweet?from this precious one kneeling before me,eyes etched in the past beg to be freedfrom a lifetime of doubt and invisibility.how could anyone fail to see you, my love?have you let go of your chains?tied your mind to the ecstasy of pain,a place you can at last feel sane?have you surrendered yet, my slave?from this divine soul next to me, a heart carved in sadness and silent pleasfrom enduring too much pointless indignity.how could anyone be so unkind to my love?have you embraced what you are?looked inside and learned your worthfrom the change loving me is bringing forth?have you accepted yet, my pet?from this amazing man in front of me,a time lived in darkness and beauty unseenfrom endless shadows of uncertainty.how could anyone fail to hold you, my dear?have you satiated your need?intoxicated your will and let yourself bleedfrom the wounds of ab

Daddys Poem
Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mummy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the back wall, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name,

Ugh!
One I blocked one idiot who keeps asking the same shit over and over speaking of which would it kill you guys to be original gotta make yourself stand out saying im sexy as f*ck dont do it for me either some of the lines you guys use are lame yes im moody. And blowing me off too is a major no no for me its my biggest pet peeve. I just cant stand players too i smell them a mile away. Im still being harrass by that hacker loser get over i didnt fall for your game im not stupid by any means! get a freakin life!!!!!

Prayer For Strength
*looks towards the heavens and prays* please help my family and all those who are in pain and suffering, and for their family that have to go through their situations with them.. lord we all need you and we lay our lives in your hands ** dances around the room lookin at the sky** Lord help us in our times of need for you know what they are and allow is to gain strength from those of our family who have passed on before us. we love them dearly...

I Wrote A Random Rant And Got A Reply That Made My Day.
I wrote a Random Rant and Got a Reply that made my day. Friday, November 20, 2009 at 10:06pm I grew up a Republican. When I was in high school, that was more about being sure everybody knew about my stance on firearms. Since it was my hobby to go shooting regularly, I needed those rights protected. After I moved out of my fathers house and started attending the local community college I began to realize that choosing how I viewed myself politically based on one thing was wrong. Especially since I leaned more towards the Democrat side of things on several other points. I'm pro-choice, but feel if you're "pro-life" enough to decide that I can't have an abortion, you better be first in line to adopt my kid. I'm also pro-marriage for ANY two people over 18 because it has NO negative effect on me. In fact, its none of my business who you fall in love and want to spend the rest of your life with. As such, I did switch over to calling myself a Democrat. I've since seen the light a

Wow This Is Just Wrong Fox News
EXCLUSIVE: An 11-year-old girl in Mexico allegedly raped by her stepfather and now more than four months pregnant says she wants to have his baby – despite pressure from women’s groups who want her to have an abortion, pro-life activists in the country say. They say attorneys for abortion-rights activists have shown up at the girl's home with plane tickets in hand in an attempt to whisk her away to get an abortion, but the child has said adamantly, “This is my baby. I’m having my baby. I will call my girl Alejandra.” The mother-to-be, from the Mexican state of Quintana Roo, has become the poster child for abortion rights in a country where laws pertaining to the procedure vary dramatically from state to state. In 2007, Mexico City passed a law allowing abortions to be performed without restrictions in the first three months of pregnancy. The law was challenged, but it was upheld on appeal. Since then, 17 of Mexico’s 32 states have adde

Could You
Can you take me soaring higher? Hold me close and set me afire Seize me, take me, bend and break me I want to see how far you'll take me Wrap me tight, in your sweet embrace Your touch takes me to another place I want to be filled up to overflowing My heart pounding without slowing Won't you come and set me ablaze Or would you leave me in this haze? ~me

The Heavens
The Heavens above are richer today. They have 2 new Angels in their Kingdom in the sky. One was a prankster with a ♥ of Gold. The other a fearless Beauty with the strength of a diamond. The Heavens above are richer today. Two Angels left this earth & flew away. They will be forever loved & remembered for the jokes they played, The ♥ they touched & the lives they have brightened. The Heavens above are richer today. R.I.P Eddie R.I.P Becca aka Satan's Bytch

Keith Urban
Stupid Boy lyricsWell, she was precious like a flowerShe grew wild, wild but innocentA perfect prayer in a desperate hourShe was everything beautiful and differentStupid boy, you can't fence that inStupid boy, it's like holding back the windshe laid her heart and soul right in your handsAnd you stole her every dream and you crushed her plansShe never even knew she had a choice and that's what happensWhen the only voice she hears is telling her she can'tStupid boy, stupid boyOhSo what made you think you could take a lifeAnd just push it push it aroundI guess you build yourself up so highYou had to take her and break her downshe laid her heart and soul right in your handsAnd you stole her every dream and you crushed her plansShe never even knew she had a choice and that's what happensWhen the only voice she hears is telling her she can'tYou stupid boyOh, you always had to be right but now you've lostThe only thing that ever made you feel aliveYeah, yeahWell, she laid her h

I Quit My Job...
Wow! It has been a long time! I am not sure what lead me back here, but here I sit looking at the scrolling avatars. I quit my job on Friday. My bosses were douchebags and I got tired of them expecting me to be Superwoman then yelling at me when someone else fucked up. I am not sure if that was the smart, mature thing to do or not, but I did it. Now, I am working on sending out new resumes and praying I find something quick! Wish me luck! Send a few drinks my way!

Very Sad
Woah! My first blog lol. I just think its very sad that I have a few friends on here and really only had like 3-4 good conversations on here that didnt not include the words. Add, Crush, Bling, NSFW folder. Seriously WTF???? Is this all that is going on in people's lives? If you need to be blinged or fanned or crush that much that it becomes a big part of your life, There is some very SERIOUS issues you have to deal with. If this offends people and you think I am being an azz please feel free to take me off your friends list and let me know so I can take you off mine. I will not bling anyone! I dont see a reason to spend real money on a website to put pretty pictures on your profile lol doesnt make sense! Fans are freinds that I talk to regulary and thats final so no asking why arent you on my fan list! Anyway thats my rant for the day!

Hi
I see you everydaybut I can't talk to youwhat am I always so shy around youI need you to notice me but instead you walk on byI am invisible, or was I ever realI wish that somedaysomebody could get me to come out of my shellI feel so lonelywhile you are always surrounded by friendsI guess I will never talk to youbut I will admire youfrom my little corner of the worldand hope that you will someday notice me and not walk on bywithout saying a wordbut smile and say "Hi"

Weed
a cloud fills my gaze finding my way out quite like a maze no matter how loud i shout my words fall on deaf ears, my mind in a daze, my friends yell their cheers, the flam is ablaze, my lungs fill with smoke, gasping for air, i begin to choke, as i sit in the chair, i start to tolk, un-steady is my feet, getting up is a rush quickly the ground do i meet, i hear the hush, relaxed and asleep, weed in the tin at home do i keep, this is not a sin, for god said all vegatation was good, and so we all stood, raised up our joints, puckered out lips to a point and sucked down that j i must say, smoke your weed, its all you need.

Who Really Wants To Be Here...
OK..I need to find out who really wants to be here. Only leave a comment if you truly want to be here. If you don't leave one you will be deleted. I really want this to work. But I need you to be active! So please leave a comment here letting me know that you want to stay!! Thank you all!! 8

Multi Chatting, Ice Cream, And Stupid Chairs
Who just doesn't love multi chatting... I'm definately not a fan. I mean, jeeze four sites at once and texting is a bit overwhelming,.. maybe not to you, but it definately is to me. Then, while I was multi-chatting, the ice cream carton I was eating out of started leakin, and in the hurry to make sure I didn't get ice cream all over me, I ran over my foot with a rolling chair. Fun, right? Don't you dare say yes... or I will ninja frog you.

Fuck Me?! Fuck You!!!!
Fuck my fuckin boss telling me that I CAN'T get with guys that I like! Just cause your fuckin wife looks like Oscar the grouch does not fuckin mean I gotta get with a guys that look like shit!! And if I like fuckin dating white guys more than hispanic guys. We gotta keep our people together. WTF?!?! then it's my fuckin choice not yours! FUCK YOU!! Fuck my EX. The fact that you had to fuckin embaress me by hooking up with someone that can rent shade is fuckin pathetic. YOUR Pathetic. Thank god I didn't fuckin marry you. FUCK YOU. Fuck you David. I was falling head over heels for you. You were the best thing that had happen to me in a long time but you... Fuck you just had to fly off the map and leave me fucking hanging!! You fucking wrote me poems, drew my fuckin potraits, and called me every fuckin day and for what?!? I was in love with you!! Uugghh FUCK YOU! Fuck the two ass wipes that works in the software dept at Fry's. You proved that there's RATS lurking around the

What Now?
`ve Been bc this past few months. been trying to balance business and life as usual. am beat. am dog tired... so Just this morning, I consciously found mahslef lying n the dusty floor of my room... with at least five roaches nibbling my feet, and dozens of mites, plotting to eat me alive. Good heavens! I couldn't even find mah bed! My room's a total mess. I can even smell the stinkin' shoes i wore a month ago & the pizza i bought a wk ago, maggots occuppyin' half of it & now forming its own dreadlocks... *groan* i can't even find time for myself. the net thing is close to extinction, i hate my love life as well. i missed havin' a massage...mah skin's real dry & and in need of tlc *sigh* so long for the good `ol movies and tv marathons. i feel like a dead mortal hanging in an invisible cliff. And now, I Hafta run. and yeah, i need ta clean my room... xoxo, claire

The Personality Profile Art Test
Your result for The Personality Profile Art Test... The True Art Lover 80% Abstract, 87% Impressionist, 70% Renaissance, 80% Japanese, 80% Islamic, 68% Agreeable, 3% Challenging and 80% Expressionist! Your test indicates that you have a preference all different types of art. It shows that you may not be a trend setter but you have a great appreciation for differences in individuals and in life in general. You more than likely try to be open minded in life and have a high level of intelligence. More than likely you have an understanding of culture and the value of embracing those cultures in life and how they make the world more interesting. Because of this you also exhibit a colorful and varied personality. People with high agreeableness scores engage positively with other people. They are keen to understand people's feelings and feel real warmth for others. As they are so empathic, they like to make sure other people are happy and will do what they can to put peo

To That One Special Woman...
From day one when we first met, I knew we would click.Our bond started to grow stronger and stronger as time went by, despite the few obstacles we had encountered. You make me happy when I'm down and you always bring a sense of happiness to me. Friendships are based on lotta things but what we share is more than a friendship. The bond that we have is priceless and no one can ever put a price tag on it. You came into my life and you made a difference on how I perceive things. Just want you to know that I think of you everyday. You know who you are. Again thank you for being a part of me..

My Thoughts
U know its sad when u can take a 11yr old with u for a walk through a spencers store and she doenst once question the amount of dildos on the wall or the shirts that talk bout anal or pussy but yet u come to a internet site thats SUPPOSED to be for adults and people cant stand to see the word fuck on a pic or some cartoon chicks nipples? seriously wtf is wrong with our society? in the middle ages they accepted sex and have nude art and statues but now we suddenly have to be cover those? seriously arent we supposed to move forward and not backwards. we need to teach out chicldren there is nothing wrong with sex or nudity.. maybe if we did kids wouldnt have such a complextion bout their bodies. Im not sayin go shovin porn on ur kids or run around naked or havin sex in front of them but dont act like its the most embarrasing things in the world either and avoid the issue and hope the school takes care of it when ur child asks.

What I Am Looking For In Someone ....
i want a man that makes me melt everytime i see him walk into the room. a guy that can take my breath away everytime he kisses me.. a man that makes me go completely bonkers over his every move. a man that knows i can please him in more ways than just one... a man that can show his heart to you and tell you that he loves you in front of a thousand people and you cant see a single person but him, cuz your totally in love with him. a man that makes your heart beat just a bit faster everytime he holds you while your down on your luck. a man that likes little things and isnt stressed over the big stuff. a man that when you kiss him you are completely astonished at how good it feels and its makes your whole body wanna shake. a man who when you cant get the nerve to tell him what you feel you just look him in the eyes and he knows what your thinkin and feeling. a man that your not nervous around, and wants you to spend time with your friends and family. a man that will call you at 6am to tel

Welcome The Founder, Ceo And Captain Of The Girls Next Door
FOUNDER OF THE GIRLZ NEXT DOOR CHAOTIC KYTTEN "FOUNDER+ fubar.com//user/2294575 Babyblueyes "CEO" FUBAR.COM/380467 LIL MISS CUTIE PIE "CAPTAIN" FUBAR.COM/1865752 IF YOU ARE INTERESTED IN BECOMING PART OF THIS GROUP CONTACT ANY OF THE ABOVE Much Love & kisses THE GIRLZ NEXT DOOR

Guy Code
*********** Guy Codes ***********1: Under no circumstances may two men share an umbrella.2: It is OK for a man to cry ONLY under the following circumstances:(a) When a heroic dog dies to save its master.(b) The moment Angelina Jolie starts unbuttoning her blouse.(c) After wrecking your boss' car.(d) When she is using her teeth.3: Any Man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally killed and eaten by his buddies.4: Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friend out of jail within 12 hours.5: If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off limits forever unless you actually marry her.6: Moaning about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge is forbidden. However complain at will if the temperature is unsuitable.7: No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for another man. In fact, even remembering your buddy's birthday isstrictly optional. At that point, you must celebrate at a strip bar of the birthday boy's choice.8: On a r

Wow That Was Quite Interesting!
just finished the cheery bomb n about 2 finish my auto 11's. TY my true blue fu friends, and TY 4 all the love and support I got along the way! Welcome my new friends. I really miss some of U guys who have left the FU or who just cannot b 'round much. I shall do this again!

Goddess In Heaven
Goddess in Heaven, the one I adore Before you I kneel and humbly implore Look not away at this slave at your feet Nor cast me out in the cold, empty street The thought of your power teases my brain The thought of your beauty eases my pain I long but to give you My body and soul And let your desires Take their toll I've nothing to give you but all that I am

Hedonism
Hedonism is a school of ethics which argues that pleasure is the only intrinsic good. The basic idea behind hedonistic thought is that pleasure is the only thing that has intrinsic value. This is often used as a justification for evaluating actions in terms of how much pleasure and how little pain (i.e. suffering) they produce. In very simple terms, a hedonist strives to maximize this net pleasure (pleasure minus pain).Classic Schools of AntiquityDemocritus seems to be the earliest philosopher on record to have categorically embraced a hedonistic philosophy; he called the supreme goal of life "contentment" or "cheerfulness", claiming that "joy and sorrow are the distinguishing mark of things beneficial and harmful".CārvākaCārvāka was an Indian hedonist school of thought that arose approximately about 600 BCE, and died out in the 14th century CE. The Cārvākas maintained that the Hindu scriptures are false, that the priests are liars, and that there is no

She Can't See It
Why can't she see it,When I know its there.When I tell her about it,It seems as if she doesn't care. She goes on with her life,Doesn't give it the time of day.Its not something that matters,Its just her,its her way. I plead my case to her,She tells me I'm to kind.She tells me to let it go,Like her,I can't get it out of my mind. If she could only see herself,Through my eyes someday.Maybe then I could convince her,At least in some small way. Her smile to me,Like the rising of the sun.May it be in my life,Till my time is done.

Im Here To Stay
That’s the way I amYou can’t change thisSo if you don’t like itYou can suck my kissI’m not trying to pleaseNot trying to takeI’m just trying to liveLife my own wayIf this offends youJust let me sayI’ll still be me tomorrow And I’m here to stay

F.u.ct.
"What is F.u.cT.?" Fuct is a group containing the best Fu has to offer. The best of the best. It's a group of people who are sick of the protocol & drama, and who just want a kick ass family that always has their back. It's built up by the 7 sins, because face it, you've gotta sin to win :) Others are invited to join the ranks, as well! "Can I join?" The team is looking to only grow stronger & bigger over time on Fubar. If you're interested, get in contact with any of the FucT members listed below. "What do I have to do?" All that we ask is that you rate, fan & add the members in the FucT family and over time add all of those who join along the way.We want to keep this a tight family and make sure everyone gets support as we grow into an unstoppable Fu-Army! Be sure to add FucT to your name, as well. It can go anywhere, abbreviated or not. We do require that you have a salute! "What do I get by joining?" Haha, sorry we don't have official FucT giftbaskets or anyth

Carnal
silently watching...waiting around...lustful corners...faces smiling...evading darkness...light leading...enacting fantasy...flitting here...there flirting...bedroom eyes...disguise,watching...secretly wanting...fantasy living...granted wishes...lustful carnage...hopefully seeing...wanton disregard...needs granted...darkness lifted...FANTASY LIVED.

One Love
I want a world of peace and humanity. One of thinking of the next person. Not of dollar signs and over emphasized egos. To have the grass stay green, the waters and oceans clean, animals living in harmony, A world of love. I am a realist and know this can never be, but it is worth trying to change the thoughts if by just one person at a time. Teach Love.

Orgasmic Delight
Tense breathChest tightworld movingtoo fast. Walking insmells intoxicatingsatiating even,Welcoming me. Excited chatterArtful colorsFlashes, flashesI KNOW. Spoken wordsDesign alivesoft spraycool to my skin. Leather chairComforting meInviting, callingsit, stay a while. PreparationVibrationsFirst touchOrgasmic delight. Telling meto rememberthe here, the now.Focus on a moment. No stressNo tomorrowsbreathing slowsSerenity.. Monetary exchangechitter, morerelaxed, softerExcitement gone. My solitudepermanentlycolouredupon my skin.

My Reality
my reality my desire for himso powerful, so poignantit transports me toa strange new state of mindas if the desire for himis a crystal with magical propertiesenabling me to seemyself like never beforei see inside my mindthe self assured, self containedperson everyone seesyet i am now aware of myenigma never visible to me beforei see that within the cool,analytical person i am lies anotheran insecure, lovely womana secretly hungry creaturedriven by emotional needs and wantsfilled with a longing for morean abstract and spiritual,more then a physical peacea true satisfaction...

Crystal Clear
Crystal clear sitting before me twinkling with light alive. Red soft splash swirled ruby gold sparkling red wine. Filling my senses with lust of thrist Lips wet with need. This Crystal glass touching my lips gently slowly drink. Tastes come alive tongue darting searching one last drop.

Time
Tick tock And the clock tick tock tick tock Beats out a drum tick tock Giving a year tick tock tick tock In but a day. Tick tock And the clock tick tock tick tock beats out a drum Tick tock Giving a day tick tock tick tock in but a year. Tick tock time flies tick tock tick tock and slows down tick tock shall this day tick tock tick tock ever end?

Debris
I am a tree. Strong and weak. Blowing still within the wind I do not see. I am alone, yet within a busy world. Sometimes I choose to not see and be only me. A tree, strong and proud. I am only me. Inside a mind of bark and debris.

Black Rose Dragon
black rose dragon on the prowl forbidden from her fruit Lays in waiting, fiery passion Vixen dripping in gold Skin aglow tempting, beckoning.. Slowly creeping closer Fiery turmoil at her gaze Her eyes unvailing her control black rose dragon on the prowl.. dances of eletrical sparks floating on the air Night sky eluding to Surreal dreams of fury & desire..

United States Marine Corps Oath Of Enlistment
I, (have someone recite your name for you), swear.... uhhhh.... high-and-tight.... grunt....cammies.... ugh.... Air Force Women.... OORAH! So Help Me CORPS.! ______________________________________________Put your thumbprint here & find someone to date it for you (http://www.midwaysailor.com/military/enlistment.html)

Broken Heart
Honest Questions lyricsCan you seeThe honest questions in my heart this hourI am opening like a flowerTo the rainAnd do you know the silent sorrows of aNever ending journey through the painDo you see a brighter day for meAnother dayA dayDo you wonder whats in store for meThe cure for meThe wayOh look down and see the tears I've criedThe lives I've livedThe deaths I've diedWould you die them tooAnd all for me(You say)I will pour the water down upon a thirsty barron landAnd streams will flowFrom the best of your bruised and broken soulAnd you will grow like the grassUpon the furtile blades of Asia by the streamsOf living water you will growOh.. you will growDo you knowThe story from the startAnd do you know meLike you've always told meDo you see the whispers in my heart against your kindnessMy eternal blindnessDo you see...Do you see a brighter day for meAnother dayA dayDo you wonder whats in store for meThe cure for meThe wayOh look down and see the tears I've criedThe lives I've livedT

The Personality Defect Test
Your result for The Personality Defect Test... Hippie You are 14% Rational, 57% Extroverted, 0% Brutal, and 0% Arrogant. You are the Hippie! Characterized by a strong sense of extroversion, irrationality, gentleness, humility, and a faint scent of marijuana, you no doubt frolic through fields preaching peace and free love! Immediately following that, you then frolic to the hospital with herpes! You are probably either very spiritual or needlessly paranoid about "the man", like most hippies, as a result of your focus on intuition and feelings over cold, brutal logic. You probably enjoy poetry, especially beatnik ultra-liberal crap about how horrible fascism is, even though your suburbanized, sheltered idea of "fascism" is having to pay two dollars per gallon at the gas pump. You are also very, very social. And like any hippie who would have no qualms about hitchiking across the country just to meet some interesting people, you also love to interact with others, even complete

Small Update
So, short little update for everybody that's been calling me, texting me, YIMing me, shoutboxing, private messaging me whatever lol Things have been a bit rough lately and I apologize if I've been short with any of you or haven't been around much. I've been spending the last week alone trying to pack all my shit up and move it to various places. I moved in with my dad, which has proven to be easier, yet harder at the same time, than I thought it would be. But it's good. It really has been. It's nice not having noisy neighbors and I can come and go as I please so whatever. It's been hard listening to him cough and struggle to breathe and he's spent most of his time in his room asleep so I feel bad for him :( On top of things this week, we found out my grandma might have cervical cancer. Being somebody that's dealt with that, I know how scary it is. Everyone in my family is on thin ice right now about it. My grandma has been losing a LOT of weight randomly lately so it doesn't look goo

Birthday Wishlist: Happy Hours, Any Taurus Bling
BIRTHDAY WISHLIST: HAPPY HOURS, ANY Taurus BLING ITS PRETTY SIMPLE CAUSE I LEVELED .. TO MY GOAL I JUST WANT HH'S TO USE ON BDAY I WANNA TRY AND TAKE UP ASMUCH OF MY DAY AS POSSABILE IN HH I POSTED IT FOR PEOPLE THAT ASK WHAT I WANT BUT I LOVE ALL Y FRIENDS REGUARDLESS ... OF GIFT OR NO GITY :) MY BDAY IS SOON .. BUT STILL HAVE LIL TIME ... 16TH , BUT I HAVE TO GET THE HH WEEK EARLY TO MAKE SURE ALL SPOTS ARENT TAKEN SO POSTING IT NOW ... XOXOXOOXOX

Poems
I want to say I'm sorry for many reasons left unsaid I want to say I miss you and the life that we once led I want to be forgiven and forgive myself as well I want to hold my head up high and no longer sit and dwell How do you learn to love yourself after perfecting self-hate? I want to shout ' I miss you so' yet knowing I'm too late So much time has already passed but one thing remains The thought of you brings warmth to me and that will never change We all make mistakes in life, Lord knows I've made a few Please know that doesn't change the fact I truly cared for you The love we shared may have been brief, and now it's just our past But the impact that you have left on me will forever last No matter where we go from here, no matter where we've been What I miss most of all, is not my lover, it's my friend

Evening Thoughts
Evening tints the sky with shades of purple........ as the day comes to an end. My thoughts turn to you........ as all the busyness of the day calms..... and my body feels the ache of wanting to be held. To feel hands searching...and lips tasting...... as all else fades with the sun......... and the mind and body gives itself over to the need within........ 4 - 2010 Guardian Angel

Why Am I Awake?
its 4:09am. I am awake. i want to sleep but i have a lot on my mind. so i figured, what if i write down everything thats on my mind.... well i feel better and finally go to sleep? I don't know whats wrong me. I don't know what triggered. I was hanging out with my best friends the other day. I was kinda like the 5th wheel. It didn't bother me at all. We went to TGIF, got our grub on, got our drink on then we went to go see KICK-ASS! which by the way is super awesome. It didn't bother me at first. Not till i got home I started to think holy shit why do I feel lonely? I even put that down as my status! ha! well i think i said....loneliness welcome back to my life. I started to think about silly shit. like the little things. Who doesn't like getting a text message from someone the like that says "I miss you!" or something among those lines? lol i don't know dude. maybe i'm crazy. hahahaha. it feels good to be wanted. but it sucks when you want someone and they don't want you the sa

Telephone Remake
This is just too funny. I had to share it! A couple of troop stationed in Afghanistan remade Lady Gaga's "Telephone". The one white guy is actually a pretty good dancer. lol Telephone Remake @ Yahoo! Video

Your Disease...by Kind Permission Of Lovely Linda
MEMO: "I AM YOUR DISEASE" I HATE MEETINGS. I HATE HIGHER POWER.I HATE ANYONE WHO HAS A PROGRAM.TO ALL WHO CAME IN CONTACT WITH ME, I WISH YOU SUFFERING AND DEATH.ALLOW ME TO INTRODUCE MYSELF. I AM THE DISEASE OF ADDICTION... ALCOHOLISM, DRUGS, EATING DISORDERS, ETC. I AM CUNNING, BAFFLING AND POWERFUL. THAT'S ME! I HAVE KILLED MILLIONS AND I AM PLEASED. I LOVE TO CATCH YOU WITH THE ELEMENT OF SURPRISE. I LOVE PRETENDING I AM YOUR FRIEND AND YOUR LOVER. I HAVE GIVEN YOU COMFORT HAVE I NOT? WASN'T I THERE WHEN YOU WERE LONELY? WHEN YOU WANTED TO DIE, DIDN'T YOU CALL ON ME? WASN'T I ALWAYS THERE?I LOVE TO MAKE YOU HURT. I LOVE TO MAKE YOU CRY.BETTER YET, I LOVE WHEN I MAKE YOU SO NUMB YOU CAN NEITHER HURT OR CRY... YOU CAN'T FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL.THIS IS TRUE GLORY!. I GIVE INSTANT GRATIFICATION, AND ALL I ASK OF YOU IS LONG TERM SUFFERING. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR YOU. WHEN THINGS WERE GOING RIGHT IN YOUR LIFE, YOU INVITED ME IN. YOU SAID YOU DIDN'T DESERVE THESE GOOD THIN

Read This U Will Love It..i Promise..p
This explains why I forward jokes.A man and his dog were walking along a road.The man was enjoying the scenery, when it suddenly occurred to him that he was dead.He remembered dying, and that the dog walking beside him had been dead for years.He wondered where the road was leading them.After a while, they came to a high, white stone wall along one side of the road.It looked like fine marble..At the top of a long hill, it was broken by a tall arch that glowed in the sunlight.When he was standing before it, he saw a magnificent gate in the arch that looked like mother-of-pearl, and the street that led to the gate looked like pure gold.He and the dog walked toward the gate, and as he got closer, he saw a man at a desk to one side. When

Documenting Small Talk...
small talk IS what this whole "place" is based on...yet that small talk can turn into nightly,dayly,monthly and maybe sometimes in person talk. not much haha but i still do believe in the connection between 2 people regardless of the matrix style set up of ananimity (sP?). in fact...small talk in person with people already known can get "deep". or it can lead to small little facts and fiction. talking about the past with someone can lead to them speaking about a past person who is currently making up shit of another. hhaahah i feel like i need to laugh typing this because i realize that i am trying to be vague to myself right now. but its the nature of the drug and the brain! ya ya the person who assumed new "leadership" or whatever high regard they would like to be mentioned as...the art exchange. i quit the fcuking event because of the bullshitting and horrible need for attention by those who had not much to show for besides a name! mother fcukers actually think im stupid be

Blueroses
A String of pearls Each pearl solitary In its uniqueness Beautiful yet flawed Contrasting her body Hair splayed - a halo Framing A face turned In self reflection A string of pearls Its length determined By the many dreams That strung it

I Just Gotta Say Somethign
okay im laughing my ass offf right now . i just saw a woman talking about putting pervs on her wall of shame .... lets take a step back and look at this . this is fubar . this is a place where you have women that would not get a second glance in the real world and would never make it into any beauty contest calling themseelves sexy this , cutey that and on and on and on . they sayu the camera adds 10 pounds well the internet adds 3 digits . a 5 in the real world is an 8 on the internet and here on fubar everyone wants to be a 10 ( or yout a hater or a downrater) but i digress . so you have all these average at best women showing themselves off in photoshopped and otherwise modifiwed photos callign themselvs hotty or sexkitten or whatever , then there gonna complain when some guy "pervs" them . i call it a case you get out of it what you put into it.

Pepsi , American Or Not , You Decide
Pepsi is coming out with a new can, the patrotic can. It will have a picture of the Empire State Building and the pledge of alliance. But in the pledge ao alledgance they left out the words "under God". The reason for this was that they as a company did not want to offend anyone. I think that we should not buy any Pepsi products for fear that we might offend them because the American Dollar has " In God We Trust " on it. I would not want to offend them just as they did not want to offend any of us.

Snuff
Bury all your secrets in my skinCome away with innocence and leave me with my sinsThe air around me still feels like a cageAnd love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage againSo if you love me let me goAnd run away before I knowMy heart is just too dark to careI can?t destroy what isn?t thereDeliver me into my fateIf I?m alone I cannot hateI don?t deserve to have youOoh, my smile was taken long agoIf I can change I hope I never knowI still press your letters to my lipsAnd cherish them in parts of me that savor every kissI couldn?t face a life without your lightsBut all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fightSo save your breath, I will not careI think I made it very clearYou couldn?t hate enough to loveIs that supposed to be enough?I only wish you weren?t my friendThen I could hurt you in the endI never claimed to be a saintOoh, my own was banished long agoIt took the death of hope to let you goSo break yourself against my stonesAnd spit your pity in my soulYou never n

My Bff
I wish I could figure out why you hurt so bad,I just can't understand. Does it bother you that I am only a friend?I know you want more,more than I can give.I am sorry that I can't give you want you needand give you a reason to live.It rips out my heart to see your sadness everydayIs there anything I can doAnything at all that will make you want to stay.You have so much more than I doSo many reasons to live.A wondeful son and caring mom. My mom hates me, she wishes I was never bornbut your mom loves you and does everything for her son.You have so many things going right,So why tell me why you are so sad tonight?You cry, I cry. You smile, I smile.You are my best friend no matter how bad things are.I will never leave you,Always by your side.I always will be until the day that I die.You mean so much to memore than you know.I don't know what I would do without you.the feelings are more than I could ever show.So as you lay down tonight and start to cry.Remember your best friend and I hope th

Love
Love is not forced, that's why we fall in love. Love never dominates it only truly only cultivates For love makes everything possible, for love is like heaven, in which God taught me how to love but not how to stop.

The Cost.
They vanish so fast,Like mists after dawn.I close my eyes one momment,The next they are gone. They touch like a summers breeze,Or a winters snow.Long enough for a memorey,And then they go. Even if I've never touched,I still feel the loss.They've touched my heart,For friendship,thats the cost.

No More Drilling In The Oceans!!
Dominica's 'Whale Whisperer' shares a remarkable story By: Pete Thomas, GrindTV.com Andrew Armour, who runs Kubuli Watersports on the Caribbean island of Dominica, has been called the "Whale Whisperer" because of his ability to communicate with sperm whales, particularly a young male named "Scar.""Once I'm in the water I try to reach them acoustically by making this noise in the water, and it's the same noise all the time so they know it's me," he says. "So I'm talking to them all the time in the water, and they start coming."To be sure, had Herman Melville been to Dominica and swum with its whales, he might have had trouble finding the inspiration to write the classic novel, "Moby Dick."Perhaps 200 of the fabled cetaceans utilize the surrealistically blue realm beyond the island. None has expressed ferocity toward humans or bitten the leg from a tyrannical (and fictional) captain.On the contrary, as people such as Armour have learned, these great leviathans, once hunted mercilessly

Dont Tell Me U Love Me
Don't tell me you love me if you are not sincere For a lie that strong can ruin my life and bring on a new fear. Fear to be loved, fear to love ever again It can cause my fragile heart to break, tear and bend. Think of all in life that will be missed because of one small broken promise So, when I put all of my trust deep within you Please don't tell me you love me, unless you truly do

2 Ways To Win An Auto Or Cherry Bomb
Two ways to win an auto or cherry bomb. One way is highest bidder on one which wiill be in my pics to bid on, and the second way is bling me a 5 credit or higher bling from now til tuesday at 9pm fu time, everyone who blings me will be put in a drawing to win, will get bombed, and will get a one credit bling also. Good luck. The bidding on the auto or bomb will also end tuesday at 9 pm fu time. Winners will be posted in my stats at that time. :)

And Another One Bites The Dust
frogstrodamus:im just tryin to tell people from the midwest about schwagstock. i got no financial interest in this. i just want cool peeps to trip with on the 28th of may. we got underground acts from europe coming to one of our events. it's fuckin schwagstock! you never heard? all the molly,cid,and dank you could ask for and i get shut down for tryin to share the word? you have no idea what u just fucking silenced. have fun not having fun. Me:I did not silence you, and if we wanted to know, you could have just PMed the details to us. The lounge is not a promotion place for the outside world. We were nice and cordial about it plenty long enough. And to tell you the truth, I hope you trip your mind into more stupidity than you already have. I am NOT into that kind of thing, and I don't care to keep hearing about it. Good bye, and enjoy your ignorance. frogstrodamus:well i did not know how this site worked, particularly since every time i'v been on here i got spammed out the ying

Obama Files
Do you CARE about the U.S. ? if you give a shit at all you will read these files ( note list on the RIGHT SIDEBAR ) and SPREAD THIS INFO internet wide. I call on you CYBERGEEKS to do this! http://www.newzeal.blogspot.com/

Papa Roach Lyrics... Jacoby's Be The Only One To Get Away W/ Sayin' Somethin' Like This To Me Lmao...
I Almost Told You That I Loved You lyricsSongwriters: Esperance, Tobin; Horton, Jerry; Michael, James; Shaddix, Jacoby; You know I love it when you're down on your kneesAnd I'm a junky for the way that you pleaseYou shut me up when you swallow me downMy back to the wall you're going to townI almost told you that I loved youThank god I didn't 'cause it would've been a lieI say the damnedest things when you're on top of meI almost told you that I loved youI hate to say it but it has to be saidYou look so fragile as I fuck with your headI know it shouldn't but it's getting me onIf sex is the drug then what is the cause?I almost told you that I loved youThank god I didn't 'cause it would've been a lieI say the damnedest things when you're on top of meI almost told you that I loved youI'm not the one that you want, not the one that you needMy love is like a fucking diseaseYou can give me your hand, you can make your demandsI'm the hardest motherfucker to pleaseI almost told y

Crazy People
by the Wreckers Only crazy peopleFall in love with meThey come from all overTo be with meBankk robbers and killersDrunks and drug dealersOnly crazy people Fall in love with meHe cam from CarolinaOn a west-bound freight trainHe didn't have no ticketBut he got here the sameHe left me a reminderWith nine months to goThat's why I killed his wifeAnd wrecked up his homeHe fled MississippiWith me at his sideA trunk full of moneyAnd no place to hideWell he loved his whiskeyAnd his fist loved my faceSo I buried that manAnd they wont find a trace

Meaning Behing It....
*jaded* described as: no longer interested in something, often because of being over exposed; exhausted; fatigued by over work: made dull, apathetic, or cynical by experience or by surfeit: satiated, tired, bored, worn out, done in, spent, drained, shattered, fed up, wearied, uninterested, listless. *juliet* is described: as a headstrong, intelligent, character in spite of her age. timid at times bc she is so young. considered to be the true hero. she is a balance for her impulsive romeo. she is the one who sets the boundaries in her relationship. her forgiveness indicates her mature nature in contrast to his passionate impulsiveness. a far more complex character than her family, or even romeo, can appreciate. by far the stronger of the 2. she is abandoned, beaten, betrayed and led into a folly. she forged ahead, faced fears, defied social customs, and went against her parents. just to lose her love and in so realizes her life is worthless without him. *a star-crossed lover.*

Think You Got It Bad, Quit Your Damn Bitching!
If you are 30, or older, you might think this is hilarious! When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were. When they were growing up; what with walking twenty-five miles to school every morning.... Uphill... Barefoot...BOTH ways… yadda, yadda, yadda And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on my kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it! But now that I'm over the ripe old age of thirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today. You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a damn Utopia! And I hate to say it, but you kids today, you don't know how good you've got it! I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have the Internet. If we wanted to know something, we had to go to the damn library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalog!! There was no email!! We had to

Let Him Fly
by the Dixie Chicks Ain't no talkin' to this manAin't no pretty other sideAin't no way to understand the stupid words of prideIt would take an acrobat and I already tried all thatI'm gonna let him fly -mmmThings can move at such a paceThe second hand just waved goodbyeYou know the light has left his faceBut you can't recall just where or whySo there was really nothing to itI just went and cut right through itI said I'm gonna let him flyOh yeahThere's no mercy in a live wireNo rest at all in freedomChoices we are givinIt's no choice at allThe proof is in the fireYou touch before it moves away - yeahBut you must always knowHow long to stay and when to goAnd there ain't no talkin' to this manHe's been trying to tell me soIt took a while to understandThe beauty of just letting goCause it would take an acrobat n'I already tried all thatI'm gonna let him fly.

Traces
Sometimes two hearts meant to meet,Never the path they seem to find.Ones mind alters away,Or the other was to unkind. Reasons why love is lost,A glimpse is all at times.Maybe if we seek deeper,A reason we could find. Loves do come and go,They're traces left behind.But I know this for my future,Love again I will find.

The Collection Agency
Recently, I was contacted by a collection agency regarding a hospital bill. When I told them that I would be making all my payments to the hospital, they told me it would be easier if I were to pay them instead. I told them, "Yeah, but it would be easier for ME if I pay the hospital so that's what I'm going to do." Honestly, your job is to harrass me until I pay some money. Why the hell would I do ANYthing to make your life easier?! Yes, I realize I could write them a letter telling them to cease phone call notifications, but if I do that, I may miss out on a chance to royally piss them off.

Oh Lordy Lordy
So I havent blogged on here for awhile. I can claim I have better things to do, but it doesnt matter right now. cause i wanna complain right now. So here it goes. I wish i could leave fast little comments on peoples pages. (shouting and scrolling down to leave a comment is not fast enough. cause most of the time you have to be thier friends. and these arent the type of people i wanna befriend.) Your profile pic scares me. Your playlist music is such crap it makes me wanna tear out my speakers. You arent sexy, no matter how big your tits are. Just because you have tattoos doesnt make you different. You dont need fucking numbers in your name you douche bag. I dont care if you rate my pics, and fan me, im still not gonna add your ass to my list. My 2 year old takes better pictures then you do. Your Flashies are annoying. Your Blast isnt original. And thats all for now.

Life And Music
my life can basically be summed up through a series of songs i listen to, some would make perfect sense to anyone others it is hard to see the relationship between the song and myself. sometimes i dont even understand that relationship myself. some musics' message to me is clear and like a fist to the face others....very subtle and nebulas. music is ever changing and becoming more complex as it progresses just as life is and as both continue i realize that my list of questions and fascination continue to expand just as my answers dwindle. so if i appear to sometimes be "caught in a mosh" well.... i am

Falling
events have occured recently that have caused me to slip away from myself and there are a few here that might actually care about this. there are things i have said/done recently that do not reflect who i am and sometimes it is a real struggle to maintain what i am, what i wish to be. as all of us are i am a work in progress and now reality needs to settle in and the fun must begin, letting any serious notions on this site just slip away and enabling me to be the more light hearted, and enlightened one i once felt i was. of course there is a good possibilty that i am not all that enlightened lol

This Little Guy Needs A Name!
Next Monday, I will be adopting this little guy and his sister. I have a name chosen for the little girl, Mocha, but I've yet to fall in love with a name for him. Ideally, it would somehow go with Mocha's name, because they are littermates. Possibly another coffee-related name, or a name that starts with M. So, I'm looking to my Fu friends to help me out here! P.S. The name MUST be SFW! :)

Dear Mr. President
MOVING TO MEXICO Dear Mr. President Obama: I'm planning to move my family and extended family into Mexico for my health, and I would like to ask you to assist me. We're planning to simply walk across the border from the U.S. into Mexico , and we'll need your help to make a few arrangements. We plan to skip all the legal stuff like visas, passports, immigration quotas and laws. I'm sure they handle those things the same way you do here. So, would you mind telling your buddy, President Calderon, that I'm on my way over? Please let him know that I will be expecting the following: 1. Free medical care for my entire family. 2. English-speaking government bureaucrats for all services I might need, whether I use them or not. 3. Please print all Mexican government forms in English. 4. I want my grandkids to be taught Spanish by English-speaking (bi-lingual) teachers. 5. Tell their schools they need to include classes on American culture and history. 6. I want my grandkids to see the Amer

What Has Oil Done...
What has oil done...to humanity?the environment?this planet?It created lines in the sand, greed, need, war, pain, bloodshed and turmoil.It created corporations and lobbyists and crooked politicians who say one thing while doing another.It created industries and factories, employing many to their own demise and even death.It created deceit, shortcuts, a driving insanity in all humanity - liquid gold.It created a carbon footprint bigger than any imaginable sci-fi beast.It created mud flats that once thrived to be decimated and destroyed.It created defective genes in what once was safe to consume.It created clouds of smog, choking out the sun and breathable air.It created a sickness, no vaccine can battle.It created waters no longer able to sustain life.It created catastrophic wounds unable of healing as mother earth bleeds this black sickness.It created a monster that is watching us fatten up like lambs before the slaughter.Note: These are just my recent thoughts and had t

I Havent Got A Clue
finchi My BlogAboutRecent PostsI haven't got a clue!!!!Syndicate this site (XML)Powered by Friendster BlogsAugust 10, 2005I would have finished writing a paragraph and i stillwould not know what blog stands for. Well....what the heck, i think it'sjust logging in whatever u have in mind. . What am I ??? Better yet,Who am I ? I asked myself. Most of the time I succeeded in leaving thethought behind and saving it for later. Other times I ended up feelingfrustrated and infuriated after hrs of laying in bed tossing and turningcoming up with absolutely nothing , when I should have been countingjumpin' sheeps to put myself to sleep. This vicious cycle slowly becamethe chronic and sole reason why I constantly ended up just barelystarting to sleep at 5:00 am when I had to get myself up and ready forgruelling 7-3 morning shift at a funky looney infested crazyhouse. Myprecious SLEEP had abandoned me at night, turning me into a full pledgedinsomniac trying to make it in the morning jugglin

Change Howyou Feel
CHANGE HOW YOU FEELWhat if you could change how you feel? Whenever you wanted. Would that be valuable?Read on.Some of you won't believe this until you try it.Some of you won't even try it.Some of you will try it and fail because you don't WANT to give up the feelings you say you hate.But if you are committed to growing and changing, this is a tool you will find invaluable. It takes practice to become competent, ESPECIALLY for men, because we have been trained to suppress all but certain emotions.But even men can succeed with determination and practice.Suppose, for example, you are feeling sad, but want to feel happy. You can do that. But not in the way you were taught. Most of you were taught to just stop feeling sad, and put on a happy face, and just BE happy. Didn't work so well, did it.It didn't work because whatever we resist persists. Your resistance to the sad feelings means they are still there, even if you tell yourself to stop being sad, and start being

More Rants
I can tell how youve photoshoped your pictures bitch. If I had 11's, I'd still only rate you a 10. I dont care if your name is in Red, you still are ugly,uninsteresting. I will not Fan Add or Rate you if i fucking dont want to. So stop flashing it at me. Your webcam sucks, but it still doesnt disguise your ugly face. Yeah i will ignore your friend request, without checking out your profile. Your glasses do not make you a nerd, nor do they make you a sexy librarian. Its retarded that you're sharing a profile with your husband/wife. Thats the only angle your boobs look good. Its ridiculous that you have rules on your profile.

Win A 135 Bling Pack :) Sbme
The winner will be determined by the overall number of rates/votes. If a tie in rates/votes,then the winner will be determined by the overall number of comments. {COMMENT BOMBING IS NOT ALLOWED, MUST BE LEGITIMATE COMMENTS. Or that contestant will be disqualified from the contest.} Requirements for salute{s} is as follows: 1.) Must be a brand new salute.2.) Must have "PeachZ" written anywhere on your body.3.) Must have your face and my name "PeachZ" in salute{s}.4.) Must wear "Spring time" clothing {i.e.; Shorts/tanktop; Bikini (can be bra and panties).Minimum salutes is ONE (1) salute. Maximum salutes is SEVEN (7) salutes. You may not have more then TWO (2) Safe For Work {SFW} salutes entered. You can enter one sfw salute and 6 nsfw salutes or 2 sfw salutes and 5 nsfw salutes or 7 nsfw salutes. The maximum sfw salutes you can enter is TWO.I am accepting the salute{s} untill an hour before the Salute Contest starts.The Salute Contest will start on 17 May 2010 at 11:00pm futime and wil

Romantic Love Reaches Out In Little Ways
Romantic love reaches out in little ways, showing attention and admiration. Romantic love remembers what pleases a woman, what excites her, and what surprises her. Its actions whisper: you are the most special person in my life

Yes It's Rambling, But I Am Good At It!
Here I am writing in this blog again. So many things are going on at once it also seems insane. I had a good friend of mine get married – was even invited to the wedding, but I couldn’t go. Sad I couldn’t go but am happy for him and his family. Everyone deserves happiness and this is one of the sweetest guys I know. So that’s a good thing right? Yeah What else is going on, hmmm … I am in a place in my life where I should be settled, one would think. But what is settled exactly? I look around me and think that I should be doing more somehow. Are things going well? I would say yes and no. Some aspects of my life are wonderful, I feel secure and happy. Other areas are not so rosy, they are up in the air really.

Songs For Mother's Day
Don't forget: Mother's Day is Coming! (Ha! As if I need to remind you! Lol!) Anyway, I have compiled a list of songs that, I think, are appropiate for that occasion. I stuck with songs that have a light-hearted (or, at least, up-tempo) vibe to them instead of songs by John Lennon (too sad), E.L.O. (see John Lennon), The Police (too psychotic), Genesis (too evil) and just about any country song you can think of ('nuff said). Some songs on here you might recognize, some you might not. At any rate, here's my Mother's Day Baker's Dozen. ARTIST: SONG: Jan Bradley Mama Didn't Lie Jethro Tull For a Thousand Mothers Kate Bush Mot

California Students Sent Home For Wearing U.s. Flags On Cinco De Mayo
Administrators at a California high school sent five students home on Wednesday after they refused to remove their American flag T-shirts and bandannas -- garments the school officials deemed "incendiary" on Cinco de Mayo. The five teens were sitting at a table outside Live Oak High School in Morgan Hill, Calif., on Wednesday morning when Assistant Principal Miguel Rodriguez asked two of them to remove their American flag bandannas, one of their parents told FoxNews.com. The boys complied, but were asked to accompany Rodriguez to the principal's office. The five students -- Daniel Galli, Austin Carvalho, Matt Dariano, Dominic Maciel and Clayton Howard -- were then told they must turn their T-shirts inside-out or be sent home, though it would not be considered a suspension. Rodriguez told the students he did not want any fights to break out between Mexican-American students celebrating their heritage and those wearing American flags. Dariano's mother, Diana, told FoxNews.com she and

Done
THIS IS MY LAST WEEKEND ON THIS SITE! I WAS THINKING ABOUT DELETING ANYWAY BUT THE THINGS THAT HAPPENED TONIGHT HAVE ENDED ME AND FUBAR. SO IF YOU STILL WANT TO TALK TO ME AFTER THIS WEEKEND GIVE ME SOME OTHER WAY TO KEEP IN TOUCH. IF NOT O WELL I GUESS WE WERENT THAT GOOD OF FRIENDS ANYWAY. I HAVE FACEBOOK, MYSPACE, YAHOO, AND GMAIL. SO IF U HAVE ANY OF THOSE AND STILL WANT TO TALK LEAVE ME A COMMENT WITH UR INFO.

What I Believe
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned I believe the grass is more greener on the other side I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality I believe that trust is more important than monogamy I believe that your most attractive features are your heart and soul I believe that family is worth more than money or gold I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness I be

I'm A Missus Gais!
Really. I got married today! But, yeah. We were engaged, and he decided that he wanted to get married as soon as possible. So we went down to the courthouse today, got our license, and had a really awesome judge marry us. Seriously, this guy was a badass. I went in wearing khakis, my gray-and-yellow-plaid punk buttondown, and my Cthulhu tanktop, and he goes 'Oh, wow! nice shirt, lovecraft fan." He. RULED. it was really romantic, and though I tried so hard not to, I kinda leaked from the eyes a bit. So, we're lifemates legally now. =] I love him ^^

If Love
IF LOVE COULD REALLY WIPE AWAY, EVERY SINGLE TEAR SO THEN WHY DOES IT HURT THE MOST, WHEN THE ONE I LOVE IS HERE. IF LOVE COULD EVER EASE THE PAIN, THAT IM FEELING DEEP INSIDE. SO WHY DOES THE PAIN INCREASE, WITH THESE FEELINGS I SEEM TO HIDE. IF LOVE COULD EVER KEEP ME SAFE, FROM HARM ALL AROUND. SO THEN WHY AM I BEING HARMED, AND KICKED ONTO THE GROUND. IF LOVE COULD EVER MAKE ME SMILE, AND MAKE ME SO HAPPY. SO THEN WHY DO I FEEL LIKE CRYING, AND FAILING TO BELIEVE. IF LOVE COULD EVER BE WRONG, BELIEVE ME I KNOW IT'S NOT COS LOVE IS THE ONLY THING, THAT KICKS ME OUTTA MY SOCKS. Something old I found and thought I would share.

Role Play - Over Before You Started
jizz_supplier00: you hear a knock on the door. you feel nervous and don't think you should open it. you then hear a louder knock and a voice. "Please there has been an accident!" me : Sucks to be you

Without You
What if I walked without you?What if I ran without you?What if I stand without you?I could not go onWhat if I lived without you?What if I loved without you?What if I died without you?I could not go onYou left my side tonightAnd I, I just don't feel rightBut I, I can't let you out of sightWithout you I'm no one, I'm nothing at allWhat if I lie without you?And what if I rise without you?And what if I dream without you?I could not go onYou left my side tonightAnd I, I just don't feel rightBut I, I can't let you out of sightWithout you I'm no one, I'm nothing at allYou left my side tonightAnd I just don't feel rightI can't let you out of sightWithout you I'm no one, I'm nothing at allYou left my side tonightAnd I, I just don't feel rightBut I, I can't let you out of sightWithout you I'm no one, I'm nothing at allNothing at all

Hats Off To Charlie Daniels....at Least He Has The Courage To Speak His Mind!!!
HATS OFF TO CHARLIE DANIELS....AT LEAST HE HAS THE COURAGE TO SPEAK HIS MIND!!! I don't know how everybody else feels about it, but to me I think Hispanic people in this country, legally or illegally, made a huge public relations mistake with their recent demonstrations. I don't blame anybody in the world for wanting to come to the United States of America , as it is a truly wonderful place. But when the first thing you do when you set foot on American soil is illegal it is flat out wrong and I don't care how many lala land left heads come out of the woodwork and start trying to give me sensitivity lessons. I don't need sensitivity lessons, in fact I don't have any-thing against Mexicans! I just have something against criminals and anybody who comes into this country illegally is a criminal and if you don't believe it try coming into America from a foreign country without a passport and see how far you get. What disturbs me about the demonstrations is that it

Happy
You know when you get your body in that perfect sync of happiness? I know some of the younger people probly have no idea what the fuck I am talking about but hey you never know. ANyway back onto point have you ever had a moment in your life that just seems to be perfect. I mean trust me I know perfection can't really happen but god damn if you can't feel it. THis is how I feel now with my life probly for the first time. There's really only one real source to all of this and as with all typical love stories it started with a girl. This girl came into my life entirely by chance and at first I hadn't even noticed her to be honest. But none the less we met and talked a bit, strange isn't the way fate guides us to things we aren't even looking for. Anyway eventually we came to actually speak on the phone and I just remember from hearing her voice I could feel my heart beating like never before. It wasn't untill we got into a conversation which to most people would probly be considered stupi

The Things I Love About You
I love the way you make me laugh I love the way you make me cry Tears of joy stream from my eyes As I hear your voice, a loving surprise. I love you when you're angry I love you when you're sad I love you when you're glad When you tell me of the day you had I love you truly I love you deeply Ever since the day I let you meet me I missed you when you left I miss you now more than ever Making a mistake that I regret Hoping that you are a forgiver Without you, my life is strife But now I ask for a second chance Be with me and start a life Together forever, an eternal dance I wait for you as the days go by My love is growing inch by inch I cannot wait to see you again But I wait for you, and your warm kiss I love you

Mothers Day Love
To all the moms out there A mothers love, is incomparable to any other thing in this world her heart is pure for her children and for them she will make any sacrifice she deserves far more than any mere man can give her My hope this day for all of you that you feel the love and thanks that are so richly yours for doing that most thankless job of raising your babies May God bless you and keep you as my prayers are lifted up for you on this, Your day Happy Mothers day You Super Mom K

Timeless
Timeless I want to be a lost poem in a stranger's coat pocket that conveys the importance of you, To assure you of my desire, To assure you of my dreams. I want all the possibilities of you in writing. I want to give you your reflection. I want your eyes on me. I want everything before you to follow us And leave a trail behind us. I want never to say good-bye to you, Even on the street corner nor phone. I want. . . . . . I want so much I'm breathless. I want to bring my power in a poem to burn a hole in your pocket, So then I could sew it. I want you to be distant and feel you close. I want endless days when its day, And nighttime never to end when its night. I want all seasons in one day. I want the sun to set before us, And come up in front of us. I want to think you're thoughts, Because they're mine. I want only what's urging you. I want to get in the way of your barriers. I want you to be tender like you do already. I want to say we meet for a reason, A

Beautiful In Everyway
Beauty, it is what I see in your eyes. When I touch your body, it feels like silk. Your lips, like rose petals. Your hair, as Dark and as Beautiful as a moonlit summers night. Beautiful in Everyway. Your personality, that of a playful puppy. Your attitude, as Dark as the Darkest recesses of my mind. Your, body as pale as the Moon. Beautiful in Everyway. Words flow from your Lips like that of Poetry, fallin up on my ears, Lovin everything you say. Beautiful in Eveyway, that is what you are to me. Rick

Hunter Turns 6 Today 5/10/10
So comes the day that Hunter, my little boo-boo, or as I tend to call him, "The Boy", turns 6 years old. It might seem like another day to you, but for me it is a day that I am so glad that I have my boy. Everyday with him is a gift. Though he drives me out my mind half the time, lol, I swear this much is true, I cannot imagine my life without him. Everyday he amazes me with new things, whether it be his speech improving day after day, or seeing him start and finish a new task the he was previously unable to accomplish. I look at him in awe, as I am shocked by the wonder of this tiny life that is in my hands. At night when he is sleeping, I look at his sweet freckled face and dream of all the things I see him doing. Growing up and being an independent man, living on his own, having a girlfriend (or boyfriend, whatever) starting a life that I have helped mold in 18 years. I touch his delicate features, seeing my own features in his; his sweet little lips, cute button nose, little f

Unconditional Love
Through all that I been through this past few months has opened my eyes to one known fact, that fact is no one is ever promised tomorrow and never assume that our loved ones will last forever, and to love them regardless of thier faults and their imperfections. The only one that is perfect is our Lord God, and he loves all of us unconditionally. Well lets put our Christian walk to the test . and practice being more like jesus to forgive and forget, to not judge because someone doesn't live as you do and to pray for them instead of talk about them, That my freinds and fam is truely UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.I dare u to take that step with me.

( Jason Cant Be Ur Superman) Cant Wait 2 We Are So Over You Ain't Gonna Tie Us Down Anymore
i wish i could have quit you. i wsh i never missed you, and told you that i loved you, everytime i fucked you. the future that we both drew, and all the shit we've been through. obsessed with the thought of you the pain just grew and grew how could you do this to me?look at what i made for you it was never enough and the world is what i gave to you. i used to be love struck now i'm just fucked up

Not Much To Say
DON'T HAVE A LOT TO SAY THIS WEEK SO I'VE WRITTEN REALLY BIG. I'M HOPING THE SHEER SIZE OF MY WORDS WILL MAKE UP FOR THE LACK OF MEANING IN THEM. SOMETIMES BIG CAN BE GOOD. THE GRAND CANYON IS GOOD. SOMETIMES BIG CAN BE BAD. WORLD WARS ARE BAD. I HOPE THIS IS GOOD, LIKE THE GRAND CANYON AND NOT BAD LIKE WAR. OKAY, THAT SHOULD DO IT. BYE, NOW.

Random
I might not be that beautiful or the sexiest...Nor have the perfect body...I might not be anyones first choice....But I am a GREAT choice...I dont pretend to be someone else....Cause I am too good at being ME...I might not be proud of some of the things I've done ....but I am proud of who I am today. Take me as I am or don't take me at all.

Wtf Ever. Screw You, My Fu-ckin "friend"
subject: RE: SuperGirl sent you a Shot of Tequila received: 05/11/2010 05:47 am replied: no Seriously...I can earn points by sending drinks? I could give two shits about points or climbing the fu-ladder. I send drinks to all of my friends just to say hello since they ARE my friends. We have talked in the past and you even gave me your yahoo. Anyway...So, the only way I know to stop the gifts you find annoying is to take you off of my friend list. === 'ANNOYED WITH THE WAY I'M HER FRIEND' wrote the following at '2010-05-11 05:22:16'..>> if u are sending me drinks to earn points for yourself please stop. Its not like we ever talk to each other and the constant notifications are annoying.. > > > === 'SuperGirl' wrote the following at '2010-05-10 23:25:23'..> >> >

Wow
Bound to your side and trapped in silence Just a possession Is this sex or only violence That feeds your obsession You send me to a broken state Where I can take the pain just long enough Then I am numb -t hen I just disappear So go on fight me Go on and scare me to death Tell me I asked for it Tell me I'll never forget You could give me anything but love Anything but love Does it feel good to deny Hurt me with nothing Some sort of sick satisfaction You Get from mindfucking Stripped down to my naked core The darkest corners of my mind are yours That's where you live That's where you breathe So go on fight me Go on and scare me to death Dare me to leave you Tell me I'll never forget You could give me anything but love Anything but love Without any faith Without any light Condemn me to live Condemn me to lie Inside I am dead So go on fight me Go on and scare me to death I'll be the victim You'll be the voice in my head You could give me anything but love Anything but love

Going Back To Djing
Ill be going back to DJing, Im starting off on a friends site, he just started this is where you can hear it if you want [b] TUESDAYS 7-10 PM EST. & THURSDAYS 7-10 PM EST [/b] http://devilish-sinners.com/Home/DSRadio.html . The sound quality isnt the best right now but its constant music and when i get my mic back ill be live talking. You can make requests you can hit up my yahoo. if you have it. My yahoo is also linked on that page for requests. If i do not have your song...Ill get it or bust my butt trying to. If you could and you like hanging out with the tunes...Register for the website as well and let them know Ash sent ya lol ;) http://devilish-sinners.com

Some People.
I don't know, but I come on here occassionally, I rate a few pages sometimes, and I keep my photos friends only. I feel that I do not really bother anyone and that I do not really ask anyone for anything. And what do I get? Cursed out by someone that is the mate of my supposed friend. Very cute. Two blocks and a removal in one day, a near fucking record for me this year. Congratulations Rhino!

Who?
Who?Who deserves a second chance?Who deserves a reason to love?Who deserves a reason to be heard?I do, for I am the for true.I do, for I am the broken hearted,I do, for I am the weak.Who deserves a reason to live?Who deserves a reason to hurt?Who deserves a reason to be trusted?I do, for am the strong.I do, for am the one who has been hurt.I do, for I am the one who is true. Who deserves the right to be understood?Who deserves the right just to leave?Who deserves the right to make up lies?I do, for I am clarity.I do, for I am fed up.I do, for I am unsure of my self.Who deserves to drug through the mud?Who deserves right to get their asses kicked?Who deserves the right to cry?I do, for I am better than they are. They do, for I am the swift hand of justice. We all do….

Surgery Outcome!
Surgery was a success! (so far) The two procedures lasted a total of about 7.5 hours from start to finish. The had to go in on her right side (underarm) move the heart and lung out of the way and remove 5 discs from her spine. (They had begun to fuse together with the progression of the Scoliosis rendering her spine 'not flexible' for the second procedure) That procedure lasted about 1.5 hours. The rest of the surgery was to go in through her back, realign her spine using pins, rods, and screws (from what was told to me) to reduce the curvature of 80+% to around 20-25%. The whole surgery was a true success. She was sent to recovery where my sister and brother-in-law were able to go in and see her when they woke her up. She was saying she felt 'sore' but that was it.. and then complained she was hungry :) She is currently in PICU (Pediatric Intensive Care Unit) where she was expected to be for about 48-72 hours, however, based on her responses to everything from the surgery t

Your My Everyting
SHE IS MY EVERYTHING SHE IS MY HEART AND SOUL, LIFE ITSELF SHE MAKES ME WANT TO BE BEST THAT I CAN BE SHE BRIGHTENS MY DAYS AND INTO MY NIGHTS SHE TAUGHT ME TO LOVE LIKE I HAVE NO OTHER SHE MAKES ME WANT TO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST SHE GIVES ME HOPE WHEN THERE IS NONE SHE IS THE AIR THAT I TAKE IN TO MYSELF TO GIVE ME LIFE SHE MAKES ME WANT THE BEST THAT I COULD GIVE FOR MY FAMILY SHE IS THE SMILE ON MY FACE SHE IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMAN IN THE WORLD IN MY EYES SHE HAS CLASS, STYLE, AND YET SHE IS OUT GOING SHE CAN MAKE ME SMILE AND THE TEARS FALL JUST FROM KNOWING SHE IS MINE TO LOOK UPON HER IS TO WORSHIP THE GROUND SHE WALKS ON TO SEE HER IS LIKE WATCHING THE HEAVEN OPEN AND SEEING THE ANGELS DESENDING A UPON US TO LOVE HER IS THE GREATEST FEELING ANYONE COULD POSSABLY HAVE THE LOVE SHE SHARES WITH YOU WOULD MELT YOUR HEART TO ME SHE WOULD BE ALL I EVER NEEDED BUT TODAY I AM TORN CAUSE SHE LOVES SOMEONE ELSE WHO WAS THERE BEFORE ME YET SHE LOVES ME AS

Food For Thought.
While you SCREAM at your woman, there is a man wishing he could talk softly in her ear..While you HUMILATE, OFFEND, and INSULT her, there is a man flirting with her and reminding her how wonderful she is...While you HURT your woman there is a man wishing he could make love to her...While you make your woman CRY, there is a man stealing smiles from her.. "A woman is like a rose, treat her well and she will bloom, treat her badly and she will wither." Anybody agree???

Don't Just Stand There
DON'T JUST STAND THEREPatty DukePlease don't just stand thereCome and kiss me like beforePlease don't just stand thereLooking down at the floorIf something is wrongGive me just one little signIs there someone elsePlease tell meTell me what what what what's on your mindOnce when we'd meetYou'd run to hold me tightLife was so sweetUntil tonightPlease don't just stand thereGet it over if we're throughPlease don't just stand thereWhile my heart breaks in twoDon't be unfairHow can you be so unkindPlease stop hurting meAnd help meTell me what what what what's on your mind If it's a gameWe don't want to play itAnd if it's goodbyeWhy can't you just say itWhy make me cry like you doHow can you be so unkindPlease start loving meOr leave meTell me what what what what's on your mind **** you can listen on this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EUd1DXaKji8&feature=related

I Am Alive!
Okay, so I've been gone for a long time. I'm sorry, I've just been busy. I'm trying to get ready to go back to work and my time has just been spread a little thin lately. We had tornadoes here the other night. I am fine and so is my family. The tornadoes were pretty close though and it was a little scary...not gonna lie. I thought my little sister was gonna have a friggin heart attack. It is tornado season here now. We're used to this weather. My parents have a storm shelter that we go hide in when it gets bad. Please do not worry, I will be fine...even if my house blows away. Stuff can be replaced. Anyway, I'm here. I don't expect my life to calm down anytime soon though.

Well Do You!!!
Do you ever feel like you're experiencing a powerful and terrifying shift in your fundamental consciousness? Do you ever have thoughts that horrify you? Oh, dear God, was that me who just thought that evil thought? Do you ever open your eyes in the morning and wonder if you're the same person who went to sleep the night before? Do you ever think, "Aw, screw it. Why do I even try? What's the point? Everything always goes to hell anyway." Do you ever wonder if the guy bringing you your soup hates your guts because he has to wait on you and pretend to be pleasant all the while knowing in his heart that he's a better man than you and his current servile status is final proof of an unjust universe? Do you ever think, "People are only nice to me because they want something?" Do you ever think, "I'm only being nice to this person because I want something?" Well, the reason I bring all this up is to reassure you that I don't. Just thought you'd like to know... although I can't help but

Meds Just For Women ...
DAMNITOL Take 2 and the rest of the world can go to hell for up to 8 full hours. EMPTYNESTROGEN Suppository that eliminates melancholy and loneliness by reminding you of how awful they were as teenagers and how you couldn't wait till they moved out. ST. MOMMA'S WORT Plant extract that treats mom's depression by rendering preschoolers unconscious for up to two days. PEPTOBIMBO Liquid silicone drink for single women. Two full cups swallowed before an evening out increases breast size, decreases intelligence, and prevents conception. DUMBEROL When taken with Peptobimbo, can cause dangerously low IQ, resulting in enjoyment of country music and pickup trucks. FLIPITOR Increases life expectancy of commuters by controlling road rage and the urge to flip off other drivers. MENICILLIN Potent anti-boy-otic for older women. Increases resistance to such lethal lines as, "You make me want to be a better person. " BUYAGRA Injectable stimulant taken prior to shopping. Increases potency, duration, and

Seven Kinds Of Sex ......
Seven Kinds Of Sex ...... The 1st kind of sex is called ... Smurf Sex.This kind of sex happens when you first meetsomeone and you both have sex until you are blue in the face. The 2nd kind of sex is called ..... Kitchen Sex.This is when you have been with your partner fora short time and you are so needy you will have sex anywhere, even in the kitchen.The 3rd kind of sex is called ... Bedroom Sex.This is when you have been with your partner for along time. Your sex has gotten routine and youusually have sex only in your bedroom.The 4th kind of sex is called ... Hallway Sex.This is when you have been with your partner for too long. When you pass each other in the hallway you both say .... 'Fuck You.'The 5th kind of sex is called ... Religious Sex.Which means you get Nun in the morning, Nun in theafternoon and Nun at night. (Very Popular)The 6th kind is called ... Courtroom Sex.This is when you cannot stand your wife/husband any more. She/hetakes you to court and screws you in front of e

Written November 16th 2009
Fuck the way you look at me and the way you hold my gaze Fuck the way you talk me into looking forward to the coming days Fuck the way you come and go Making it all seem so worth it Fuck the way you try to play these never ending mind games Fuck the way you portray a different emotion every damned day Fuck the way you alwayz hold back never showing me the real you Fuck the way you alwayz show off thinking you can impress me Fuck the way you seem to be accessible only when it's good for you Fuck the way you ignore me until there's something you want Fuck the way you pull away when all I want is to have you close But most of all Fuck the way none of this matters I still look at you the same I still can't go back to being me

Proof The World Is Nuts
Proof That The World Is Nuts In Lebanon, men are legally allowed to have sex with animals, but the animals must be female. Having sexual relations with a male animal is punishable by death. (Like THAT makes sense.)*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* In Bahrain, a male doctor may legally examine a woman's genitals but is prohibited from looking directly at them during the examination. He may only see their reflection in a mirror.(Do they look different reversed?) *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

"rate Me,spank Me,"let Me Beat U With A Stick!!
I Fu alot.Everyday,on and off all day and I've noticed something I'd like to rant about.I come across alot of profiles with status' that are pretty much begging for rates.There's nothing wrong with that,most people,including myself enjoy having their profile and pictures rated.You look at your live feed and see a string of 10s(or 11s!!) and you get this little rush!"Hey,look at that,So-and-So is spankin me hard!:D" No,what bugs me is the fact that a high percentage of these people feel no need to return the rates they have begged for.Me,I rate for fun,because I know it gets me points,and to help out my friends.And in the case of rating people I don't know,I consider it paying it forward...if they return the love,great-if they dont,hey-I still got some points out of it and maybe got to enjoy some pretty cool pix.And every now and then one of those strangers comes back and rates all my pix or hits me with a bomb or buys me for a trillion dollars(I like those ppl alot,lol!) I think my boy

For The Record......
THE NAUGHTY KNIGHT'S FAIREST MAIDENS FEATURE WAS CREATED WITH THE INTENT OF DRAWING ATTENTION TO WOMEN ON FUBAR WHO WOULDN'T OTHERWISE RECIEVE IT. IT WAS A MEANS TO GENUINELY COMPLIMENT WOMEN WHO DON'T GET THE CREDIT THEY DESERVE FOR BEING DECENT PEOPLE. IT WAS CREATED WITH THE UTMOST RESPECT AND SCINERITY. BUT INTENT AND INTERPRETATION AREN'T ALWAYS THE SAME. IT WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE MY PERSONAL COLLECTION OF WOMEN. THAT IS NOT THE IMAGE I WANT TO HAVE REFLECTED ON MYSELF OR THE WOMEN FEATURED. I HAVE ALWAYS PRIDED MYSELF ON BEING A GENTLEMAN ABOVE ALL ELSE. YES I AM A SHAMELESS FLIRT, BUT I HAVE NEVER HAD A WOMAN FEEL THE NEED TO CORRECT ME FOR OVER STEPPING MY BOUNDRIES. WITH THAT SAID, I WILL NO LONGER BE DOING THE FAIREST MAIDEN FEATURE. IT ISN'T WORTH RUINING MY REPUTATION AS A GENTLEMAN OR THE REPUTATION OF THE GENUINELY DECENT WOMEN IVE CHOSEN TO FEATURE.

Behind Closed Eyes...
All I can feel When I close my eyes Is closeness All I can smell When I breathe in Is that familiar scent All I taste When I bite my lip Is that sweet, unforgettable taste All I hear When the room is silent Is thump, thump But when my eyes are open All I see is darkness

The Poppy Test
You Are Blessed You are a naturally grateful person. You believe it's important to be thankful for whatever you have. You've gained the most by traveling down your own path in life. You are a naturally spiritual person. You are your own best teacher. You try to figure out what you need and then give it to yourself. On a good day, you really shine. Luckily, most of your days are good days. The Poppy Test Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

Trip Complete!
As most of you already know, and some that may not.. Here's how it goes... Most of you know me, from the old days of AD (After Dark), some of which I have remained close with, others I have not, for more reasons than I care to mention. As most of you know, I have met the man of my dreams of FU, and I am forever grateful for that. I have since moved 2800+ miles to be with him, and live my life as his woman. Along the way, I made two "pit stops" so to speak. One planned, one unplanned. The first stop was to what I thought was a long time friend of mine, turned out to be a sicko, two-faced maniac, and no, I won't go into details, because there is no use beating a dead horse. The second stop, was to a friend helping me out of stop #1. This friend, was very so polite, and nice to me, knowingly that I was only staying for 3 weeks, They (her and her hubby) opened their home, and their arms to me for those 3 weeks. The time came for me to part with them, and continue on with my journa

I Always Will Love You
Standing here all on my own,watching life go by,taking in those dreadful words,...a tear drops from my eye,I stood there as i watched you run,and waited for the pain,love can be a painful thing,you used my love in vain,Why'd you leave me here to cry?,our love had felt so...right,why'd you go and break my heart,just like you did that night,let me kiss your lips once more,so I can see it's true,help me see your love is gone,that I can't be with you,don't leave me here to fall apart,to watch you fade away,tell me how you really feel,and why you just won't stay,I never thought I'd cry so much,I want to see this through...although you'll never feel for me.....I always will love you.

A New One, Enjoy :d
"The Flame" My body is aflame with the desire that is.......You ever and always my heart, my love is Yours Deep in your eyes I see the flicker of that tiny flame fluttering in the winds that buffet your lovely soul I see.......Forever there watching, hoping, waiting I would love, so dearly to add my flame to Yours to create a bonfire Where our hearts can be warm K

"who I Am"
This song sums up exactly how I feel and it does it perfectly. I want someone to love me For who I am I want someone to need me Is that so bad? I wanna break all the madness But it's all I have I want someone to love me For who I am Nothing makes sense, nothing makes sense anymore Nothing is right, nothing is right when you're gone I'm losing my breath, I'm losing my right to be wrong I'm frightened to death, I'm frightened that I won't be strong I want someone to love me For who I am I want someone to need me Is that so bad? I wanna break all the madness But it's all I have I want someone to love me For who I am Hey! I'm shaking it off, I'm shaking off all of the pain. Breaking my heart, breaking my heart once again I want someone to love me For who I am I want someone to need me Is that so bad? I wanna break all the madness But it's all I have I want someone to love me For who I am I want someone to love me For who I am

Snuff
Bury all your secrets in my skinCome away with innocence and leave a me with my sinsThe air arounad me still feels like a cageAnd love is just a camouflage for waDeliver me into my fateIf I?m alone I cannot hateI don?t deserve to have youOoh, my smile was taken long agoIf I can change I hope I never knowI still press your letters to my lipsAnd cherish them in parts of me that savor every kissI couldn?t face a life without your lightsBut all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fightSo save your breath, I will not careI think I made it very clearYou couldn?t hate enough to loveIs that supposed to be enough?I only wish you weren?t my friendThen I could hurt you in the endI never claimed to be a saintOoh, my own was banished long agoIt took the death of hope to let you goSo break yourself against my stonesAnd spit your pity in my soulYou never needed any helpYou sold me out to save yourselfAnd I won?t listen to your shameYou ran away, you?re all the sameAngels lie to

This Would Be My Wishes..
I was walking in the woods behind my house this morning and came upon an elderly lady who looked lost. I stopped and asked her if she needed help. She looked up at me with tears in her eyes and said that her grand daughter had run off and was lost. I told her I would help her look for the child. After looking for about three hours we found the little girl playing at the edge of the woods. The elderly woman thanked me and asked if she owed me anything for helping her. I told her no, and walked her and her grand daughter out of the woods . As I turned to go my own way, a blinding light appeared before me. In that light was two Angels. One of a Woman and one of a child. The older Angel spoke in a voice so pure it broke my heart. She said, "Because of your kindness in helping me find a child that was lost and now is found I shall grant you four wishes." I thought about it for a few minutes and asked. For my first wish, let it be Kindness, the kind that only one of pure

What Is Irish Pride
Many people ask me. Why Irish Pride ? Why on fubar? What is Irish Pride ? Do I have to be irish to be in here. Well i will answer each question here. WHY IRISH PRIDE and What Is Irish Pride Irish Pride is simple known as people who love there heritage that are irish, Most of them love to come together with other people with similar interest and share their love for the irish heritage and culture and mainly to have fun. We try to adopt it to make it accessible everywhere we are at. So simply its just for everyone who wants to be part of it. Why on Fubar Well at first we didnt know how it would go opening one here but we notice there is alot of irish people who like to party irish style and want to learn about the heritage. Besides why not fubar? Do you have to be irish to be part of the lounge? No you dont all are welcome to come and join us and have fun. We love people and we want to share it with the world. Just please come in and be respectful of it thats all we ask. We welc

Creed - My Sacrifice
Hello my friend, we meet againIt's been awhile, where should we begin?Feels like foreverWithin my heart are memoriesOf perfect love that you gave to meOh, I remember When you are with me, I'm freeI'm careless, I believeAbove all the others we'll flyThis brings tears to my eyesMy sacrificeWe've seen our share of ups and downsOh how quickly life can turn aroundIn an instantIt feels so good to reuniteWithin yourself and within your mind Let's find peace thereWhen you are with me, I'm freeI'm careless, I believeAbove all the others we'll flyThis brings tears to my eyesMy sacrificeI just want to say hello againI just want to say hello againWhen you are with me I'm freeI'm careless, I believeAbove all the others we'll flyThis brings tears to my eyesCause when you are with me I am freeI'm careless, I believeAbove all the others we'll flyThis brings tears to my eyesMy sacrifice, My sacrificeI just want to say hello againI just want to say hello againMy sacrifice.

The Silent Ranks
This is a Poem given to the wives deployment day. This is for all the Military Wives around the world. The Silent Ranks I wear no uniforms, no blues or armygreens, but I am in the military in the ranksrarely seen. I have no rank upon myshoulders. Salutes I do not give. But the military world is the place where I live. I'm not in the chain of command, orders Ido not get. But my husband is the one whodoes, this I cannot forget. I'm not the one whofires the weapons, who puts my life on the line. But my job is just as tough, I'm the onethat's left behind. My husband is a patriot, a brave andprideful man. The call to serve his country,not all can understand. Behind the lines I seethe things needed to keep this country free.My husband makes a sacrifice, and for love, so do we. I love the man I married. Our freedom is his life, but I stand among the silent ranksknown as The Military Wife.

Lyrical Genius
So this is a myspace blog from4 years ago that i can never find the only reason im putting it here is so i can find it haha read if ya want [my cheesy 20 yr old after thoughts behind the quotes amuse me. im such a fag] these always brighten my mod,,,, Current mood:whimsical (((((im bored so i think ill list thingz))))"bridges burn, people die, but real love is forever" "there will be no bawling! this is a christmas party, not a wedding" haha al bundy "and i think its going to be a long long time" stewie singing rocketman "he held my hand. at one point i looked down and couldnt tell whose fingers were whose. and that's when i knew" "knew what?" "magic" a conversation between annie and her mom in sleepless in seattle "i knew it the first time i touched her. it was like coming home. only to no home that i'd ever been" sam from sleepless in seattle talking about his ex wife "i dont believe in the democratic party or the liberal party. i just believe in parties

Needing Spotlight Donations
We need spotlight donations bad! I want us 2 get noticed more & keep on growning! Any amount will help! Whoever donates the most I will bling! Please help us out & help us grow! Thanks, SexyBiChris =)

Problem Statment For A Class I Am Taking
Wr 123: Problem Statement14 May 2010 There are many wonderful new developments in technology from cell phones computers, televisions and video games. My interest is in the video games and the possible effects of video games on our children. Many parents and doctors have stated that video games can be addictive ,also cause our children to become more aggressive. Some people have used video games as defense in court. Many people are supportive of technology advancements yet reluctant to accept video games for these reasons. In order to see if video games can actually make a child addictive we will need to know what test or method of research is used and who it’s used on. We will also need to address why children like to play video games. Possibly even if video games interfere with our children’s scholastic achievements. I have read many interesting articles as well as interviewing video game playing families. An interesting thing I learned is that in surveys, tests,

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So one of my best friends that I have known for like 12 years has decided to move.... I know it's selfish of me but I don't want her to leave..She's been my rock and myu sanity for so long that it's like now what do I do... She is closer to me then anyone inmy "family"...... I don't know what else to say other then without her I wouldn't have the bit of sanity that I do have right now.... I've always been the one to move away and she's always been here when I come back, and now she won't be here at all.... I feel like my heart is breaking..... I'll miss you Jennifoofoo more then you will ever possibly know!!!

[clowns Will Most Certainly Eat Me.]
Still waiting on that hummer. Ugh. I even went to eat indian food... with other people around just so I could see the christian. *nods his head a couple times and drifts off* I really keep forgetting how hot that girl is. She's got this modest demeanor and this body that just -pops- on my eyes in all the right spots. and then I almost passed out on the table and died- but I made it about 50 minutes longer than I had expected. It made me ... very dissapointed in how things had turned out with her, oh ... and my life in general. I remember the last time I filled out a medical history clipboard, a lot of questions about the quality of life and the level of your weeeehappies. Maybe I should ammend those sections a bit from my typical answers. When was the last time I had someone kiss down my abdomen? And when was the last time I looked this good? ... Highschool? >> what? Pre-surgery I had more muscle mass. That was right around then. Damn pedos. Twenty five.Twenty fucking fiv

Everyday
Every day I wake upAnd the first thing I see is your faceAs I wipe the sleep from my eyesI can't help but picture your smileI can't wait to hear youWhen you say that you love meAnd I need you to knowThat I care and love you too

Yesteryear
Walking down the streets of an ancient world touching bricks covered in history while following the footsteps of kings and queens the feeling of home begins to settle in and the past begins to draw near like a previous act of a play you're now starring in It all comes together walking down these foggy streets passing under street lamps untouched by time and by windows that have stared out on the world since there has been one to be found Everything makes sense yesterday and tomorrow next week and yesteryear No matter the trials you face and whether you quit or triumph these walls will still be here Even after you're gone and just a memory to those who loved you these foggy streets will play host to those who want to follow kings and queens long gone and even after you're forgotten just a name in a dust-covered book these windows will remember you turning a forgotten heart into a piece of history and an overlooked actor into the most amazing theater ever created

Why Inbreeding Is Bad
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Top40 Mixx For May
http://www.sendspace.com/file/izgeqx -Soundtrack - The A-Team -Taio Cruz feat. Ludacris - Break Your Heart (Wideboys Club Mix) -Rihanna - Rude Boy (Wideboys Club Edit) -Train - Hey Soul Sister ( Karmatronic Club Mix DRM ) -Lady Antebellum - Need You Now (ULTI-Remix)(121 Bpm) -Black Eyed Peas - Imma Be ( Wolfgang Gartner Mix DRM ) -Jason Derulo - In My Head (Wideboys Club Mix) -Christina Aguilera - Not Myself Tonight (Jody den Broeder Club) -Bonnie Tyler - Total Eclipse Of The Heart (Sound Systems AKA Jeff Valle & Mauro Mozart Dub Mix) -Lady Gaga - Alejandro (Afrojack Remix) -All American Rejects - Gives You Hell (Luvstuff Vs The Bloody Beetroots Remix) -Lady Gaga feat Beyonce - Telephone (Crookers Vocal Remix) -Alicia Keys - Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart (Chew Fu Insomniac Radio Fix) -Black Eyed Peas - Rock That Body (Chris Lake Remix) -Meck feat. Dino - Feels Like A Prayer 2010 (Club Mix) -Ke$ha - Blah Blah Blah (Redlight Remix) -Kesha - Tik Tok (BarakVanunu Electr

10 Things...the Beginning
This will, quite possibly, be an ongoing blog. I will add a new "10 things..." list as often as I feel the need to. Some will be funny, some informative, and some will make you think...who am I bullshitting, none of them will make you think. My first will deal with my favorite genre of music. METAL!!!! So, for your reading pleasure I present: 10 things every real metalhead should know 10. At least 4 sub-genres of metal 9. The differences between those sub-genres 8. The "Big Three" voices of metal...sure, there are plenty more, but if you know your metal, you know the three I am referring to. 7. The roots of metal, and the bands that were instrumental in shaping metal. 6. They should be able to describe in detail the "New Wave of British Metal" and the one band synonymous with it. 5. At least 2 details of any controversy metal bands have been involved in. (e.g., the PMRC) 4. The first four

The Doors - The End
The Doors - The End This is the endBeautiful friendThis is the endMy only friend, the endOf our elaborate plans, the endOf everything that stands, the endNo safety or surprise, the endI'll never look into your eyes...againCan you picture what will beSo limitless and freeDesperately in need...of some...stranger's handIn a...desperate landLost in a Roman...wilderness of painAnd all the children are insaneAll the children are insaneWaiting for the summer rain, yeahThere's danger on the edge of townRide the King's highway, babyWeird scenes inside the gold mineRide the highway west, babyRide the snake, ride the snakeTo the lake, the ancient lake, babyThe snake is long, seven milesRide the snake...he's old, and his skin is coldThe west is the bestThe west is the bestGet here, and we'll do the restThe blue bus is callin' usThe blue bus is callin' usDriver, where you taken' usThe killer awoke before dawn, he put his boots onHe took a face from the ancient gallery And he walked

[we Interrupt This Broadcast]
You ever just have a great opening line for a poem and then some dipshit calls you to tell you all about the latest installment to a game franchise that no respectable ludologist has liked or respected in 10 years? yeah. That happened. More on my crazy ass rants later. --------------------------------- Alright.I just got (stole) 100th window. I'm pretty sure most of you know Massive Attack from the House theme song. ... and Danny the Dog OST (Unleashed) I'm kinda into triphop and ambient. So I'm a little surprised and disappointed with myself in not having downloaded and listened sooner. Today the christian dropped a bombshell. And the moment the christian announced that she was dating the christian eunuch was the very same moment she said she was done with him. And I noticed that she really seemed to want my opinion and approval on what she was doing. Going even so far as to call herself a terrible person. I know one of two things about that- one she needs my input and persp

Deterioration.
Where the hell are my 3/4th shirts?and where the hell is the love? Y'know that thing between your legs. think its about time someone said itsaid something about somewhere about that time.That time it all came down on me and probably broke something that time that time that time don't you ever get tired of the people you fuck? Not just the fun way.But that way that gets people sick.Gets people poor.Gets people hurt. Always. In my favorite vein.Up my favorite arm.Down my favorite spiral.Up my favorite dose. Shakes are there.Blurs there.Light's there. Out out down and missing.Killed in action. Grasped in timeless.Grossed in endless. Marked.Sullied.Discarded in my vanity. Like everything else in the fire.

New Account...........need Leveled
_I really am not happy with the fu right now, I have an account and have had it since 2007. I get locked out of it, I try to message support and nothing I do works. So I emailed them and have not heard back yet. So Here I am had to make a NEW account so I can try to get my OTHER one back.............So please, have it in your hearts and help me BACK up through the ranks please.

The Good In All ...
Sometimes we find it difficult to see the good in people, places, or situations that aren’t to our liking. We focus on the things we don’t like in our lives as a way of fueling our efforts to create change. There is nothing inherently wrong with this, and it is one way we make progress. However, if we get too caught up in this way of looking at the world, we lose touch with our ability to sit back and simply say yes to everything on our plates, which is the true starting point for all successful activity. Sometimes what we really need is to encourage ourselves to look deeply into all things in our lives to see the inherent goodness at the heart of everything. At the core of this inquiry is the practice of unconditional acceptance, which can be scary because we feel as if we are being asked not to change the things we don’t like. But when we think this way, we are still operating on the surface of our lives. In order to feel the beauty and warmth of full acceptance, we

Stupid Encounters #36 (read Bottom To Top)
THE ROCKER...: no! To THE ROCKER...: so does that mean you prostitute her to pay rent? THE ROCKER...: cuz I spend all my extra cash on her! To THE ROCKER...: yet you can't buy yourself a boomer? THE ROCKER...: actually I buy here almost everything she had! To THE ROCKER...: Lol kk just remember you can't make a fuwhore a house wife THE ROCKER...: she told me 2! To THE ROCKER...: get you a boomer and you blackmail your wife? thats just creepy THE ROCKER...: what? To THE ROCKER...: Wow for real? Ok... so his stats said BUY ME A BOOMER AND I'LL GIV YOU ACCSESS TO MY WIFES NSFWS... THE ROCKER THE JARHEAD FUMARRIED TO VELVETVOLCANOGIRL@ fubar

America Is Doomed
The current administration and Congress, under the lie of saving us, basically bought the banks, airlines and auto companies. They have spent us into a debt, that if they stopped all spending right now, would take 100s of years for taxpayers to repay. The Federal Reserve, a private world bank, now holds over 60% of out 10trillion plus debt and foreign countries own the rest. Basically we are bankrupt. This is if we don't have any more disasters like the recent oil spill in the gulf, earthquakes, tornadoes,hurricanes, volcanoes or a terrorist act with a weapon of mass destruction. The latest communistic/socialist attempts by the U.S government, under the terms of social and collective justice, is to merge the faith base (churches) and the EPA. If that happens it would surely mean another purchase and thus control by the government. This time it is our churches and they will tell you how to interpret the Bible and could even include criminal charges if you don't believe the way they do

Let It Go! This Is Cool And Sooo True!!
LET IT GO ...by T.D.Jakes There are people who can walk away from you.And hear me when I tell you this!When people can walk away from you: let them walk.I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you,loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you,staying attached to you.I mean hang up the phone.When people can walk away from you let them walk.Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.People leave you because they are not joined to you.And if they are not joined to you,you can' t make them stay.Let them go.And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person,it just means that their part in the story is over.And you've got to know when people'spart in your story is over so that youdon't keep trying to raise the dead.You've got to know when it's dead.You've got to know when it's over.Let me tell you something:I've got the gift of good-bye.It's the tenth spiritual gift,I believe in good-bye.It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithfu

In Reference To The Salutes And Nsfw Blog...
You know, I see people commenting and bitching and talking a bunch of crap about girls who do things like salutes and access to NSFW, live web cam (which I do NOT do in exchange for anything, so please do not ask me), etc, in exchange for valuables here on Fubar. I would just like to say that, first of all, if you are talking crap and you are a man, or ugly, or snobby and uptight, you are just full of envy. Period. you are jealous that you do not possess valuables worth trading on Fu. I do not apologize or feel badly for you, life isnt fair. Furthermore, if I made a salute for every person who asked, for everyone on Fu who wants one, I would spend my days making salutes. So, I can either just say no to anyone who wants one, or I can give them an opportunity to earn one. Most of the salutes in my folder were done for friends because I wanted to, but a few were made for people I didnt really know, as a thank you for something they did for me. Things that I cant do for myself. Such

Hi I Am Need Friends Help I Lost My Sister And Need Help
i lost my sister today to a drunking driver she was 18 years old she was hit head on i am trying to raise some money for her funeral anyone willing to help me out you may send donations to Katherine Prater 915 Rocky Branch Raod campton ky 41301 ty for reading this and your help

Sad News For One Of My Cats :(
I had taken one of my cats, Tigger, to the vet today. For a while, he's been losing weight. I didn't think too much of it because he used to be a real big cat at 22 pounds. He's pretty stalky for his body and when he got down to 10 pounds, I got even more worried so I took him in. He also has been having some other symptoms of sleeping a lot, barely eating, throwing up sometimes and having a urination problem.I didn't think that it was going to be something major. He's still a sweet and loving cat. Never showed any other problems or in pain, but today I found out what was wrong.I told the doctor the problems he has been having and she insisted to take a blood test. So we got that done. She told me it looked like he had some type of cancer or something. I forget what she called it. It wasn't leukemia...it was something else. Something about his white blood cells not doing too well. It was either the red or white ones and that his body has been trying to fight what he has.T

I Need Opinions...
Hello Friends, I need your opinions. Please check out my Store Items photo folder. Let me know what you like and what youd like to see. The folder doent have all that I offer, but a good sample. I ask for you opinions so when My Custom Clothing store opens I want to know that lots of people will be happy with what I carry. I want to cover all genres that people would wear. So please feel free to tell me what you think. Thanks PF I will try to give love back......... :-)

Goodbye
The young man runs hard In a deserted land The trees are naked Lost in time Lost in his heart The memory of goodbye From what once was Lost in time Goodbye Goodbye my loved ones The man on the corner Screaming Gesting Noone surprised By the alarmist Life cursed Save me from my doom The poison on the ground The war that is coming Goodbye I think of you my loved ones Goodbye The sun goes down In the land of dawn The young man bites through his pain The young man is scared Afraid of the future Afraid of what will come The young man runs to his home To his loved ones To his love Sings his lullabye goodnight Goodnight my loved ones Dream whatever you want to dream I will stil protect you against wind and water The fire The rain The acid The air poluted as the city i will protect you from the danger luring Goodbye

Just For Today
Live the join while feeling the pain, tomorrow yet comes to bring another day. Even though its not promised, I must say this, we all have a leason to learn even if one isnt sure what that is just yet. Maybe things happen for a reason but we question on why. I have never felt as if I was good enough but blame the autistic side as a reason. People are strange and I am one of them as I ramble on with these words. I feel like I have alot to say but nothing wants to come out. Whats happens in the future if we have a hard time living for the day, the now..Can we forget about the yesterday and all the heart ache that came with it..Or is that impossible. I hate feeling this way. My mind is mentally tired and Ive had enough but no this isnt a get out of life feel note. I do have alot to be thankful and be blessful for..My children, the people who keep me leveled. My 2 little sanes. It could be worse though, I could be totally alone. I feel like I am though. I hate feeling this way..I really do.

Something You Could Learn From This/ Cmt . Rate Plz
i'm slowly but frequently having Nate out of my mind. it's okay to be upset. maybe i need a week, month, year to not talk to him. i need serenity and tranquility. the way i can get simplicity me trying to better myself.i should live my young life without being serious. I'm only 21. what's to say that god may have a rewarding future for me. patience isn't my strong point. neither is being open. i have talked to other guys on the net. they all seem like horny dogs.. what part of i want charming guys do you not understand? i know men was born to mate, but it does hurt to show intelligence every now and then? it seems like women have to teach guys what's wrong and right. i wish it was instant to know a woman's motives. but i do understand guys isn't always to blame.women hurt the good guys , which causes misjudgment of when a good girl tries to woo/love him.it's human nature to develop special feelings for another. it's a problem if you cant stop committing infidelity but 'im not going to

Sex N Headaches
Having sex can reduce a fever because of the sweat produced. Sex is also a pain reliever, ten times more effective than Valium: immediately before orgasm, levels of the hormone oxytocin rise by five times, determining a huge release of endorphins. These chemicals calm pain, from a minor headache to arthritis or migraines, and with no secondary effects. Migraines also disappear because the pressure in the brain's blood vessels is lowered while we have sex. So now we see that actually, a woman's headache is rather a good reason for having sex, not against it. - OMG Facts.

Succor
On my palms breathing through my kneestrying too hard to like it.Scraping every tip of every part on the jagged gravel.Learning to ignore the taste of these deeds Everywhere my youth explodes.Ether and essence combineweaving a double helixcataclysmic as time erodes. Guarding my sunshine placemy prescription isn't filledas the last dust of dawn.Obscured by a filanderer's faith. Today you're my favorite whoretomorrow my prophetyesterday my saint, my figment, displayed and portrayed in perfect form. I'd drink you from the sinkI'd take you in the bedroomI'd polish you in my dreamsI'd push you down the syringe if it meant for just one secondthat this was real.bargaining, denial, depressionyou were right to fear this lesson. Cut the linedrown upstream of the surging massesfade disappear succumb.Live with that bludgeoning decline of time.Maybe then. Maybe then.

Just Words ...
i am invisible just words on a page pages between the lines lines between the messages scrawled ...bathroom stall bar napkin a phone number at 2AM this is nonsensical ... as if i could love someone who gave me his number at 2AM when i came into the bar, looking for an easy love life without the soap opera drama & MTV. i was a wreck coming into this poet's lounge, this hearth of men with pockets full of strawberry condoms. i had on my plastic mask, the see through shield with the cut-out eyes, & it was meet, flirt, & bring home that night. It always worked out that way, & i never felt guilty, & neither did he. But this was a different game tonight, a poet'

Rest In Peace...
Ok so most of you don't know but May is a very rough month for me... 15 years ago this May 24th I lost a very very dear and close friend of mine... He had talked to me on the phone for over an hour the night before and he was fine.... The next day I find out he killed himself... I should have known, should have been able to sense something was going on or was going through his head but I didn't and I failed him.... To those who would say there was nothing I could have done you have no idea because I should have been able to do something, anything and I never even knew.... Some of you will think or say quit bitching and moaning about it and get over it to you I say has someone you loved ever killed themselves 10 minutes after talking to you?..... I felt I needed to post this so those of you I speak to often on here don't wonder what's wrong over the next week cause I will not be myself and I will be as fucked up as I can possibly be.....I'll do what I do every year....Pack a bowl or two

There Will Be Hell To Pay, Envy Part Iv
i got into my car. my engine didn't want to start and it took some coaxing to do it. i didn't mind, i half expected the girl to walk right back out into the lot in front of your complex. walk out and see me, enraged and righteous. i dared the bitch to walk out. i was ready, i wanted confrontation... when it didn't come, i switched on the heat. it wasn't a particularly nice day out, sure the sun was there, somewhere between clouds and sky, but it was cold. i backed out of your parking spot and into the street, doing a u-turn so i didn't get caught in a residential side of the neighborhood. i was going off of last night's directions, and i didn't want to get lost. with the heat on, i rolled down my window. i like the effect it plays on my body, i'm freezing cold and it's exhilarating, but i manage to stay stable because i've got the heat blasting onto my hands and legs. i reached over to the dashboard and grabbed a pack of cigarettes. i had quit smoking a few months back.

Answer To Ms Desa Question
ok i think i have a lot to offer i could show that you can survive if you want to. I know that it seems impossible. but i am proof it isnt. Is it hard hell yes. But life is not easy you get what you put into it. i think that sometimes people just turn their backs and ignore, one thing i have learned is that there are a lot of people that say they are friends but are not, it is better to have one true friend then 100 so called friends. I have learned that you dont tell people your life if you dont want to impact theirs. I have also learned that there is only one person you can depend on and thats your self and warning sometimes your self even let you down. I also know that talking about can be healing and also it can hurt. dont put your self out there if you are not a strong person. another thing is say what you mean and mean what you say . I will post more when asked and would love to meet more people like me. \peace out jim

Claiming They Miss A Soldier
I have noticed since coming back online that some females that used to be on my friends list are claiming that they are STILL missing a deployed Soldier. One woman claims that she is missing a guy now for going on two years. Unless she is supporting more than one Soldier emotionally, there is no one I know of that has deployed for more than 18 months per deployment. I hope that some of these people learn that there is more than writing in a profile about supporting troops and posting the same pictures and tags everyone else has. I think there are many women on here that use servicemembers and live vicariously through them. I only wish we could use peoples names in Blogs, many young Soldiers need be warned about the Uniform chasers on this site. Some of these women that cannot support themselves or all the children they have from past broken marriages are looking for an easy meal ticket. I know it because I have chatted with a good few myself. Hiding behind photo shopped pictures and

Not A Joke!!!
Police Warning to Online Members State police warning for online: Please read this "very carefully"..then send it out to all the people online that you know. Something like this is nothing to be taken casually; this is something you DO want to pay attention to. If a person with the screen-name of DreamWeaverGrey contacts you, do not reply. DO not talk to this person; do not answer any of whispers or requests for private in Pogo. Whoever this person may be, he/she is a suspect for murder in the deaths of 56 women (so far) contacted through the Internet. Please send this to all the women on your buddy list and ask them to pass this on, as well. This screen-name has also been seen on Yahoo, AOL, AIM, and Excite so far. This is not a joke! Please send this to men too...just in case! Send to everyone you know! Ladies, this is serious. Jennifer S. Faulkner Education/Information Specialist Roanoke Fire-EMS 541 Luck Avenue, Suite 120 Roanoke, VA 24016 (540) 853-2257 (phone)

Life Sucks
Tonight was not a good night. Someone who I really cared about told me they stopped the "fuengageent" so she could get "fumarried" & 'fundivorced". Told her that hurt cause seeing on here I am fuengaged to someone made me feel on top of the world. Told her how hurt I was & gave her a hypothetical situation not knowing something like that actually happened to her. No matter what I said she didn't believe me. Now she has me blocked & now feel even worse than Idid earlier. Don't know what to do. Life really is a bitch!!

5:21am...still Awake Still Thinkin
yes its after 5 in the morning yes im still awake thinkin to hard wondering to much.. there are so many thoughts racing through my head i doubt that ill sleep i cant help but close my eyes and remember the good...the bad...the mistakes made...the nights i layed awake staring into the nothingness...the times when i used to stare deep into the stars n know everything was gonna be fine...my first full moon with him walkin on that beach the sand between my toes the water around my ancles walking hand in hand knowing it was true...the last night we spent together...the ones who left us...the ones who gave up...the late night phone calls...the early morning walks...the last words said to those certain people...times where nothing but fire made me smile...and many many more...all these things make me wonder what if it were different sometimes i wish they were... yet at the same time all these memories created me...they evolved into my life they can't be helped anymore so now i start to paun

Pumpkin
I got stood up Saturday. Second date with Pumpkin. He is supposed to come to my house, sends me many txts to this effect and then just never shows up. I don't know what happened. The next day I get a txt asking if I have Valium or Vicidon. I say, "no, sorry." At 1:30 am I get a txt saying he'll be in my area today, and at 3 am nother "Don't you care?" As if somehow this is about me not caring.

You
You are my world.You are my life.You are my everything.You are my husband.You are my best friend.You are my lover.You are my dreams come true.You are my shelter, my cover.You are my sun in the sky.You are my moonlight at night.You are all the good in the world.You are all that is right.You are all that I see.You are all that I feel.You are all that I need.You are all that is real.

Feelings Of You
How can I say the words that will tell you how you mean to me. How do I tell you that falling in love with you is like a huge wave crashing against the beach shore, wild and free. Or that a kiss from you is like seeing the stars shining brighter. Oh the feelings I get when you hold me in your arms... it's pure extasy. And just one look from those beautiful green eyes... Takes my breath away. You are everything I have ever wanted in a man and more. I am very proud to be able to be yours. A day doesn't go by that I don't think about you and wonder if you are thinking of me. Am I on your mind as much as you are on mine? Do you feel the same as I do? Do our two souls belong together and our two hearts beat as one? Can you feel it as I do? Is this real?

What Kind Of Egg Are You?
You Are a Poached Egg You are a competent and successful person. You are obsessed with making sure your life is well organized and scheduled. You have an incredible sense of focus and determination. You don't let yourself make many mistakes. You are a high achiever. You like to challenge yourself, and you get great satisfaction from being the best at something. While you have high standards, you aren't really all that competitive. You only compete with yourself. What Kind of Eggs Are You? Blogthings: We're Not Shrinks, But We Play Them On the Internet

What Color Rose Are You?
Your Are a Blue Rose You represent the unattainable and fantasies Your vibe: larger than life and intoxicating Falling in love with you is: like seeing a whole new world What Color Rose Are You? Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

The New Bounce Therapy
well i have been tryin out this new therapy n its become an addiction lmao just kidding but it really does work you see when your down and depressed or thinking to hard just grab a pair of springs and start to bounce...mynes become the bounce of DEATH..i bounce almost continously and i became tigger...the more you bounce the less it hurts the less you think n the more relief you get. So now since half of my identity has been traded in for a set of springs my wings r currently placed on the hanger so they dont get crinkled or damaged because you never know when they are going to have to be pulled out of the closet. Although Tigger is now my identity deep down i will always be the death forsaken angel but at this moment in time i gotta be bouncing to keep my mind sane the sanity is hard to gain n im very thankful for the donations made by Angel_wyld and Dragon...angel gives me a new set of springs everyday and dragon gave me a helmet i love my family they even keep me safe when im tryin

For You
Its you I love ,and will forever.You may change,but I will never.Time may come when we will part,but time will never change my heart.So tender and true ,but now its gone from me to you.So take care of it as I have done,for you have two and I have none.I never really knew you but only as a friend,but when I saw you noticed me I let my heart unbend.If you ever wander I don't know what I shall do,For you are your own person and I will always love you .

With You
Just want you to know your on my mind, lately that seems to be all the time.omg girl you are so damn fine.Just watch and see Im gonna make you mine.Kissing you on the forehead and holding you tight,cuddling and caressing all through the night. being with you is oh so right! I am not up for a one night stand,with you I am looking for the full time plan. just trust me and go hand in hand,I promise to be the greatest man.never be mean or treat you like crap,just let you know that you are all that!with you it would be great as far as I see,loving you til the end of time is great by me.with you in my arms is where you should be.

Untitled
Just the mere thought of you Puts a smile on my faceYou are ther only starShining in my outer space If I traveled the worldI would never findsomeone who was more beautifulYour are one of a kind You lift my spiritsWhen I am feeling downYou give me strengthWithout having to make a sound With each passing dayI fall more in loveYou are a precious giftSent to me from above I hope I was able to expressand help make you seeThe feelings in my heartYou are everything to me

The Kiss
THE KISS DREAM:36018:NSFW IT WAS THE DREAM THAT WOKE ME UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT,&IT FELT SO REAL.IT WASN’T PLANNED,WE WERE JUST HUGGING EACH OTHER GOODBYE CAUSE HE HAD TO GO WE WERE CLOSE WE CARE ABOT EACH OTHER AND OUR LIVES GET VERY BUSY SO WE DON’T GET TO SPEND VERY MUCH TIME TOGETHER.SO ANYWAY AT THE END OF HIS VISIT WE KISSED IT WAS BREIF,SURPRISING AT FIRST BUT OH WELL, OKAY,IT WAS NICE IT WAS SWEET.KIND OF SHOCKING AND WE STOPPED AND WE LOOKED AT EACH OTHER&THEN WE WENT AND DECIDED THAT US KISSING WASN’T SO BAD.AND THEN WE LEANED INTO EACH OTHER AGAIN AND STARTED FRENCH KISSING THIS TIME OUR TONGUES INTERTWINED AND MAN IT WAS AWESOME!!!AND I WONDERED WHY WE HAD RESISTED SO LONG.AND AS WE WERE FRENCH KISSING WE HAD O HOLD EACH OTHER BACK SOME BECAUSE TIME WAS PRESSING. WE ALREADY PLAYED AND HE WAS GETTING HARD AGAIN,I DIDN’T WANT TO GET CARRIED AWAY AND GET HIM IN TROUBLE.BUT I DID WANT HIM,SO I DECIDED THAT WE’D PROBABLY HAVE TIME FOR A QU

Thoughts
OK SO THIS IS MY 1ST BLOG ON HERE, I HAVE SO MANY CRAZY RANDOM THOUGHTS RUNNING THRU MY HEAD LIKE IF I LEFT TOMORROW WHO WOULD KNOW AND IF I SHAVE MY HEAD WHO WOULD STILL TALK TO ME FOR MY AMAZING SOUTHERN CHARM OR WOULD CALLS AND TEXT STOP HMMM PEOPLE ASK IF A TREE FELL IN THE FOREST WITH NOBODY AROUND WOULD YOU HEAR IT, WHO GIVES A MONKEY BUTT ABOUT A SILLY TREE SOUND, I HAVE NO CLUE BUT I'M SURE THE ANSWER IS ON A SHIRT SOME WHERE HMM NOW I'M BLANK IMAGINE THAT

Just Trying To Get It All Out
Have you ever been hurt so bad that you didnt think that the pain would ever end? I have. Im only writing this out so I can get all my thoughts out in one Place. Im one of the few people in the world that takes a long time to love some one. But I love hard and that Love runs deep when it happens. The problem with that is that loveing that hard your bound to get hurt, and wounds that deep dont heal. Giveing some one that much of yourself is a Risk, always is. and the pain is greater. when you Love like that you never expect them to leave you. To fall out of love with you or just simply just forget about you. When some thing like that happens your world crashes down right on top of you. I know pain and I have felt the hurt of some one just leaveing, and forgeting about me. In time the wounds will heal but the Pain never seems to go away. The Biggest Problem with all that is the next person pays for the last ones mistake

Legal Vs. Illegal Murder (an Argument For The Death Penalty) (essay Part 4)
On a different note, the following argument against the death penalty can also be made: “Ok so my opinion...seeing everyone is putting one out there. I personally do not believe in the death penalty. This is for multiple reasons. First of which being the whole, “wait they are innocent” deal. But also my biggest reason is because the death sentence just kills them and it’s over. Usually there is no suffering involved. The only people who really suffer are the ones that cared about them. I think we should make the evil bastards sit the rest of their life rotting in jail or prison. Make them suffer the rest of their lives. That should teach them more a lesson. Look at suicide bombers...they don't care if they die as long as they kill someone else. What is these psychopaths are the same way...I say we make them live the rest of their lives thinking about what they done and suffering for it. Put them in a tiny cell with crappy food and no one to talk to. Take away

One Drop
Dark clouds fill the skies the air grows cold Turning to look around though all is empty,hallow without sound without light Shimmers of what once was there gone and no hope of coming back Madness settles in tears fall in endless streams Darkness comes long before even one drop can ever dry

God's Garden
My aunt wrote this whem mom died. God looked around his garden, And found an empty place. He then down apon the earth. And saw your tired face. He put his arms around you, And lifted you to rest. God's garden must be beautiful, He only takes the best. He knew that you were suffering, He knew that you were in pain. He knew that you would never Get well on earth again. He saw the road was getting rough, And the hills were hard to climb. He closed your weary eyelids, And whispered "Peace be thine." It broke our hearts to lose you, But you didn't go alone. For part of us went with you, to his heavenly home. This says it all! We love and miss you very much. From all your family Susan Elaine Steffen

Stupid Encounter # 37 - Juggahoes
FeindishTi...: I'd rate a - number but they don't have To FeindishTi...: Oh go rape a baby with a hatchetFeindishTi...: an if you said that shyt to my face I'd prob slap the piss out yacancelChat3:12ammoreTo FeindishTi...: so you slap girls?To FeindishTi...: i mean dont worry most juggalos do beat woman but what most juggalos dont know is that most people carry guns and so if you pull out your hatchet you will be DOAFeindishTi...: I never hit a girl before in my life but that was some fucked up shyt to say!cancelChat3:17amreplyFeindishTi...: an I've taken gun out of people hands completly unarmed so eh an guns are stupid anyway!cancelChat3:18amreplyFeindishTi...: you know shyt about a lo or a letteTo FeindishTi...: hatchets are stupidcancelChat3:26amreplyFeindishTi...: the hatchet is a symble for the warrior dumb ass!cancelChat3:27ammoreTo FeindishTi...: yeah well a gun is a symbol for americaFeindishTi...: you ppl are really stupid you think we just go around killin pll an shyt you kn

Rip Rip Stomp Grrr
Ok, so, yesterday I did pretty well... eyes teared up for a split second and I held back the flood... refused to cry AGAIN. But then, today, HERE THEY FUCKING come. I start talking about my ultra sound appointment and I cry. I swear, it must be my hormones. I've been dumped before dammit, but I guess it does make a difference when this time it's the father of your baby. I know I'll be ok and I know that just because he doesn't love me, I'll get by. Being so emotional sucks... at least if I've got to be all emo, I could be angry and not this pitiful sob story. Heh, today my goal is to be pissed off all day instead of sad. Sounds good, right? j/k.

I'm Moving On
by Rascal Flatts I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demonsFinally content with a past I regretI've found you find strength in your moments of weaknessFor once I'm at peace with myselfI've been burdened with blameTrapped in the past for too longI'm movin' onI've lived in this place and I know all the facesEach one is different but they?re always the sameThey mean me no harm but it's time that I face itThey'll never allow me to changeBut I never dreamed homeWould end up where I don't belongI'm movin' onI'm movin' onAt last I can see life has been patiently waiting for meAnd I know there's no guarantees but I'm not aloneThere comes a time in everyone's lifeWhen all you can see are the years passing byAnd I have made up my mind that those days are goneI sold what I could and packed what I couldn'tStopped to fill up on my way out of townI've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn'tI had to lose everything to find outMaybe forgiveness will find meSomewhere down this lonel

No One Listens To Me,do They?
Do you ever feel like screaming or feel you are not heard.Well everyone in todays world,women do get heard & I will be heard. I will not allow anyone to take away my fun here.I am totally upfront.I admit I flirt,talk,cut up it is who I am people,but when someone tries to take that away from me I get angry.It is down right insane. So many assume I am with this one or that one over a status,if you want to know ASK ME!!! I have no reason not to tell you the truth.I am a peaceful type person & I honestly dont need the drama crap coming from this place. My life is full as it is . I come here to relax,meet knew people,talk to the ones I have gotten to know and dog gone it if I want to meet people I will.No one has a hold on me.No one owns except with fake money on Fubar.Come on guys. I am getting so aggravated over all of this that I dont even talk that much anymore.I dont feel comfortable to be me and it stops today. Another thing that is getting to me is this.Just because I approv

Andrea Rose...
Some walk through this world heavy and sadFew possessed the magick Andrea Rose had.Most people focused on what brought them strifeUntil Andrea Rose brought rainbows of joy to their lifeVery Ancient was this child’s precious dear soulFor she knew how to make a broken heart wholeShe brought to us all the balance of wisdom and playAs she introduced wholistic wellness into everyone’s dayWe had her but for only a few short yearsShe taught us how to love and let go of fearsBut now she can dance in the Angelic faeries lightsBringing back their magick to illuminate others dark nightsHer spirit continues the work she set out to doFor she was one of very the Chosen fewNow we release her to fly with the faery/angels aboveBeing eternally grateful for Andrea Rose’s Legacy of Love

My Sorrow For You
My sorrow lyes in a heap of roses I pick for you in the graden of life where I bleed for you where my sorrowing heart bleeds and crys for you to come and save me from this mess and take me away.. My sorrow lyes in a heap of roses I pick for you in the graden of life where i lay awake waiting for your kiss to set me free from my sleeping pain that burns deep to the core, My sorrow lyes in a heap of roses I pick for you as I lay awake in a sleep for your kiss to break my spell of hell this is My sorrow lyes in a heap of roses I pick for you just wish i could take your pain away because my heart only beats for you

B I T C H
When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch.When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts ordo things my own way, they call me a bitch.Being bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart.It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speakagainst it, I am defined as a bitch.The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead ofbeing everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.It means I have the courage and strength to allow myselfto be who I truly am and won't become anyone else'sidea of what they think I "should" be.I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!So try to stomp on me, try to douse my innerflame, try to squash every ounce of beauty hold within me.You won't succeed.And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I embracethe title and proud to BEAR IT. B = Beautiful I =

Day 1
lost...thoughts of happiness and gentle kiss ... i wonder ...hold my breath for a time...what do we keep...lost..only memories..or a piece of soul...what loves if you are lucky heart mind and soul...lost... would you give...give your soul..to be shared...loved...maybe that is the answer....maybe that is your fear...lost

Man Stuff
"It's not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of good deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actualy in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcomming; who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat." Teddy Roosevelt. Man.

The Kiss
meeting for the first time looking into you eyes holding you close outside the moon is full the music flowing in our heads swaying slowly dancing in the moon light i kiss you softly our lips our mouths part and tongues touch your eyes sparkle and i hear you moan as we kiss visions you this fill my head as i close my eyes i see us holding each other kissing in the moon light one moment that will forever be eched in my mind till that one day we will meet that one day we will kiss the one day we will be in each others arms till that day i will dream this dream of kissing you in the pale moon light under the stars

New Tatts
got 2 new tatts today for my b-day. both are awesome and one is for my radio station. its the station id and logo and it kicks ass. ty to vintage ink in san antonio for the awesome work. pics will be posted in the next couple days so watch for em.

Just My Luck
I ended up with an older woman at a club last night.She looked pretty good for a 60-year-old. In fact, she wasn't too bad at all, and I found myself thinking that she probably had a really hot daughter.We drank a bit, and we had a bit of a snuggle, and she asked if I ever had a 'Sportsman's Double?''What's that?' I asked. 'It's a mother and daughter threesome,' she said.'Oh...' I said as my mind began to embrace the idea, 'No, I haven't.' And I wondered what this daughter of hers might look like. We drank a bit more, then she says with a wink that tonight was 'my lucky night.I went back to her place. We walked in.She put on the hall light and shouted upstairs:'Mom, you still awake'

I Pray For You
by: Jared and the Long Road to Love I haven't been to church since I don't remember whenThings were going great til they fell apart again So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to doHe said you can't go hatin' others who have done wrong to youSometimes we get angry but we must not condemnLet the good Lord do his job, you just pray for them I pray your brakes go out runnin' down a hillI pray a flower pot falls from a window sillAnd knocks you in the head like I'd like toI pray your birthday comes and nobody callsI pray you're flyin' high when your engine stallsI pray all your dreams never come trueJust know wherever you are, honey, I pray for youI'm really glad I found my way to churchCause I'm already feelin' better and I thank God for the wordsYeah, I'm gonna take the high road and do what the preacher told me to doYou keep messin' up, and I'll keep prayin' for youI pray your tire goes out at 110I pray you pass out drunk with your best friendAnd wake up with his and her tat

Gone But Never Will Be Forgotten
Many heroes fall during battle this fight for freedom often costs these men and women we send to foreign shores often it these lives that are lost but they will not be forgotten we honor those souls that slip away and know that they've become angels In heaven, on this day The memory of them lives on as we sleep we see their face the dreams seem so very real we often imagine their warm embrace God has given them free reign to whisper gently to the trees to glide effortlessly among the clouds and dry your tears with a breeze So as long as we are alive we will hold them in our hearts and as long as we can breathe our heroes will never be apart So as we bury you with honor we will grieve, then heal & pray and even though we'll miss you you we'll be reunited in heaven one day

Welcome To My Life...
Welcome to my world, where I carry around dreams, a few diseases, & the determination to live life my way. Up until a few days ago, my attitude checked out ok, & I thought, Yay!, I am winning, but then someone or something comes along & knocks me back down again & I feel like I've accomplished nothing & that my life has not been what I thought. I feel like I'm a novelty that people want when it suits them, but they don't want me when I don't live up to their ideals of who I should be, & the novelty wears off. Then they go off to continue with their lifes without a second thought of what they did to me by coming into my life for such a short period, & how it has & will affect my well-being. The sudden ups & downs are harder on me than any of the medications they have me on so that I might live a longer & more fullfilled life, which is a bunch of crap, because no one sticks around a person who is sick all the time. And that's just the beginning...strange as it sounds, I do love my life.

This Day
we honor our brothers and sisters. we honor their deaths their fight for our freedom. we honor the men and women past and present . that have died and still fight on. thank you from my family to our gi,s may you go home soon.

R.i.p Brodie Malcolm Collier
In memory of Brodie M. Collier Current mood: sad Category: Life At night when I fall asleepyou are all I dream of...The one who's always had my heart,my angel from above...I want to hold you in my arms,comfort you when you weep...Be there to tuck you in at night,then gently kiss your cheek...I want to tell you sweet dreams before you lay your head to rest...Then whisper softly in your ear,"to have you, I'm truly blessed"...I want to be able to love you,prove to you that your my ultimate joy...Then I wake up crying tearsbecause I'm without my little boy...My days without you hurt so bad,But I have alot of memories...And every day 'till we meet again,I'll wish I had you here with me...Not a day goes by that Mommy doesn't think of you my precious angel, but I know your not hurting anymore and I'm grateful for that.....Save mommy a seat, because when I meet you up there, i'll never leave your side....I love you so much Brodie, you were and always will be my sweetface....I miss you my

Could Your Tax Dollars Be Better Spent?
Taxpayers in California will pay $1.6 billion for proposed ballistic missile defense in FY2011. For the same amount of money, the following could have been provided: 474,335 People Receiving Low-Income Healthcare for One Year OR 17,103 Police or Sheriff's Patrol Officers for One Year OR 20,960 Firefighters for One Year OR 191,086 Scholarships for University Students for One Year OR 287,592 Students receiving Pell Grants of $5550 OR 842,734 Children Receiving Low-Income Healthcare for One Year OR 181,709 Head Start Slots for Children for One Year OR 566,488 Households with Renewable Electricity - Solar Photovoltaic for One Year OR 20,732 Elementary School Teachers for One Year OR 1,510,636 Households with Renewable Electricity-Wind Power for One Year

Gaza And The Blockade
Here are the available facts: On May 31, the Israel Defense Forces intercepted six ships, known as the Free Gaza flotilla, whose stated purpose was to break the Israeli blockade of Hamas-controlled Gaza in order to deliver humanitarian aid to Gaza. Since Israel withdrew from the Gaza Strip in 2005, 10,000 rockets and mortars have been fired on the Israeli civilian population. The naval blockade imposed by Israel has been necessary to limit the amount of munitions entering Gaza. In reality, the objective of the organizers of the flotilla was primarily to provoke Israel and magnify international scrutiny of Israel's blockade of Gaza. The flotilla was sponsored by an organization called the Turkish Humanitarian Relief Foundation, which is tied to various Islamic terrorist groups including Hamas and al-Qaeda. Upon learning of the flotilla, Israel advised Turkey and other governments that it would not allow any "humanitarian mission" to breach its defensive blockade of Gaza. Isr

Life...
Ever wonder why when everything seems to be going good, things are looking up and all is well, something or someone always messes it up? Ever wonder why these people or things do it?? IDK... just a lil hurt, annoyed and aggravated... :(