DoctorJERMx's blog: "this is my brain on...line."

small talk IS what this whole "place" is based on...yet that small talk can turn into nightly,dayly,monthly and maybe sometimes in person talk.

not much haha but i still do believe in the connection between 2 people regardless of the matrix style set up of ananimity (sP?).

in fact...small talk in person with people already known can get "deep".

or it can lead to small little facts and fiction.

talking about the past with someone can lead to them speaking about a past person who is currently making up shit of another.

hhaahah i feel like i need to laugh typing this because i realize that i am trying to be vague to myself right now.

but its the nature of the drug and the brain! ya ya

the person who assumed new "leadership" or whatever high regard they would like to be mentioned as...the art exchange.

i quit the fcuking event because of the bullshitting and horrible need for attention by those who had not much to show for besides a name!

mother fcukers actually think im stupid because i have epilepsy..still?!

which is why im wrting right now!...because of that little squirt of a woman who is now telling her ex husband my ex copartner in the art exchange, that im causing my epilepsy!

that i created it?!

but she is running the art exchange now after a year hiatus for no good reason than she didnt create a fcuking thing but a dipshit looking sewn purse and no character dolls.

now theres god damn rumors going around about me...in downtown Riverside!

i feel like going to her house and waking her up with spray painting her car with my kryon, singing Lady GaGa shit! haha not that i know any lyrics or melodies but that would be fun for the whole family.

i quit...i gave up after a year of lack of help and pretty much lack of passion for art by my co-partner and owner of the venue.

so fcuk that anyway...they all have multiple paintings of mine in all of their houses and establishments!

that i gave them! because i was honored that they appreciated my work...it was a show of gratitude and friendship.

but i guess its old hat for these successfully unsuccessful "artists".

so im now the asshole that walked away from my own art event and now is known to have made up my incurable and random condition.

thats why i talk the thruth...regardless of who im going to offend with it or upset.

but with something TRUE (i.e. the truth)

opinion is was thing...everyone has one.

but there is only one truth in people.

some folks with inform another with seemingly confidential information about another in small talk...then the confidential "true" information is relayed back during small talk.

(it makes sense to me...if anyone is reading this)

being told i need to get out more.

after hearing an old respected past friend is going around "out more" telling people im a creator of my own condition that others have which they havent created or made up.

theres a good reason why i stepped back.

i should have known already that these things were being said ASAP when i stopped coming around.

with these certain people at least...the ones i disbanded from because of my viewing of their bullshitting ways.

yeah...im a fcuking god cuz i realize ive trusted shitty people. haha give me a god damn medal for being an idiot.

so yeah i go online and spark up small talk with interesting people.

and have conversations...be honestly interested in what they have to say as long as it not a fcukin put on.

which is easier to figure out on a god damn social site than in person haha.

i guess trusting a machine medium to converse with other real humans...there needs to be more of  a show of reality than at a party where distractions can be an attribute in fooling someone into believing whatever is in front of them.

plus..they say you shoulding even start sexting til after a month of "knowing" someone.

some people get down the first time they meet one another face to face.

its just not possible for that to happen via the paranoid matrix machine haahah.

so i'll get out more with someone i meet online.

if not...well i'll keep talking because...i can.

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