thasupadiva or just plain DA DIVA's blog: "I Can't..Originally written on 8/21/08"

I have so much on my brain right now that I'm feeling the strain, and a little bit of pain, trying to sort thru a few things before I start crying out like tumultuous rain.

Trying to seek out what's in store I know I need more but don't want to feel like I'm trying to keep score but tired of feeling like I'm missing out on so much more

As the years have went by I appear to have been doing fine, but find myself wanting to whine because it seems like I'm running out of time

Never really wanting to stress to much sometimes people get tired of you, because you might appear you're complaining to much

Now that I'm getting older I've been looking back and seeing how many things had gotten outta order

Took control of my life because I was tired of the trife from folks who claim they got you but when it came down to it forgot all about me

So much on the brain to the point that I may have to refrain some of the many thoughts before folks start to wonder..."has she gone insane?"

Not trying to really dwell on that for too long because in the end God never steers you wrong

But still so much on the brain, I sometimes want to scream out can't you sometimes feel my pain!!! But nevertheless, I keep most thoughts to myself this is the only way that I can sometimes vent

 The pen in my hand has a mind of its own my words start to flow so I don't have to show my soul that's why I chose to put it on paper and just let it go

So much on my brain this is why I do this to keep me sane