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Update
Steven has finished his first set of Chemo therapy and responding good to it. There is a new lump appearing in his stomach. so they are going to have a look at that over the weekend. There has been a bit of a concern with his blood levels, he is very anemic which is making him feel very lethargic. They are giving him a blood transfusion which will hopefully help that out There is a concern about his leg as well has he has a blood clot. so they are starting him on blood thinning treatment as well. They are hoping to transfer him back to a hospital near us on Monday (which will be easy for us to go to, until his next batch of chemo therapy in about a weeks time. I am going up this afternoon so I hopefully will find out more then

Good Friday Greetings, Everyone!
TGIF!!!! For most, we're at the start of a long weekend. How delightful!! The guys have today and Monday off from school. With a few less in the house, I shouldn't have to worry about phone calls regarding holes in walls, major food fight in the kitchen, or that small fire in the upstairs bathroom!!!! Yes, I have received calls of this nature in the past, lmao! The only thing I might hear about is Taylor trying to stuff Dakota down the toilet, if things get too bad, lol! Tonight is a special night, indeed!! I am going out with my niece and her friends to celebrate her 30th birthday! I AM GOING OUT!! I can't remember the last time I went out partying and that is pitiful indeed! She wants to party with her Auntie M - isn't that sweet, lol!!!! My reputation precedes me, I believe, lmao! Should be fun! I do need to pick up my daughter Jen tomorrow, so she can attend the family Easter gathering/Christening party on Sunday, being held at niece Maria's house! Yep, she's the one with

Ok, Lets Try This One More Time
Lets take a moment out of our busy day to clarify things a bit, shall we? Pretty much every day for the last several days I have had to delete and block people. Usually takes less than 10 minutes to figure it out. Why do I do that? Well, it usually boils down to two things. People just not taking the time to read my profile and, secondary to that is that people underestimate me and my ability/willingness to block you the hell out if you are an asshole. Yes, sometimes I like to chat with people on Yahoo or MSN. No, just because I have those programs doesnt mean that I am going to chat with you, just because you say hello to me in a shout. Only people who I suspect are not assholes ever make it to chat. Yes, I have a camera. No, just because I have a camera doesnt mean that you will get to see my camera turned on during a chat. I decide who sees what on my cam. That why its MY CAM. You can make the decisions about your own damned cam, ok? Yes, some people get to see me chat

Adendum To This Mornings Blog
Want to know one more way to win that all-expense paid trip to "Iggy Island"? Lie to me. Thats right, lie and you are gone. Now, Im not talking about the little white lies like people tell to keep surprise parties secret or saying "no, dear, that outfit doesnt make you look too fat", etc. Im talking about the important ones. A lie shows a lack of respect, both directions. If you lie, you dont respect me and you obviously dont respect yourself because honor is one of the few things you can take with you all through life and it comes from the inside out. No one else can give it to you. If you have no honor, what good is there? If you are married, say you are married. I sure do. You should be proud of your husband or wife. If you are not proud and think you should be online lying about your status, then do both you and your spouse a favor and just end it. If you are lying to me, I will sniff you out in approximately 2.3 seconds and its off to "Iggy Island" for you. If you work at

The X's???
I mean what the fuck is up with them... Comment bombing is just a cheap way to get points... I'd be happy if BabyJ and Scrapper fucked you fucking fucks over and deleted yins' account for that stupid shit. IF YOU DONT LIKE BEING BANNED FROM COMMENT BOMBING, GET THE FUCK OFF THE FUCKING SITE YOU WHINING FUCKING BABIES! Okay so with that said... Fuck you.

Killswitch Enguage Concert
Last night i went to the Killswitch Concert and let me tell you it was fucking Great . There were 4 bands- He is legend- who isnt that bad but the lead singer needs to slow down i think the faster songs were like what are you saying but the slower still heavy ones were better. Chimaira was next they were very heavy and rocked the place. Up next was Dragon force witch was a band that played what i like to call epic rock there were decent but i could'nt stop laughing. Then Came KillSwtich and Damn they know how to rock a place. the did a few songs i knew which was sweet i really need to keep up w them.. The lead singer (whose name escapes me atm) was cool he wanted the crowd to mosh so before the song hes like yall can mosh but be safe. Also he wanted the crowd to surf lol witch there are 2 big signs that say no lol but hes like take care of each other and do it then i see him talk to a bouncer and they were cool . Its nice to see bands like that be classy and ca

Rate This Motherfuckers!
Here's something I'd like to say although none of you fucks read any of this shit but DO NOT MESSAGE ME ASKING ME TO RATE YOUR PIC!If I wanted to I would. If this pisses you off.... O WELL! I'm sick of getting messages from asses wanting me to rate their stuff. Ive gotten like several messages in the past few days asking me about doin it. You message me wanting a rate or a comment ill block your asses! I'm not here to act like im in highschool or anything like that Im here to meet cool ppl and make friends. Sorry if I sound like an asshole Im just sick of having an inbox full of fuckers wanting me to rate their fucking pics

A Quickie For Gw!
Dick Cheney and George W Bush were having breakfast at the White House. The attractive waitress asks Cheney what he would like, and he replies, "I'd like a bowl of oatmeal and some fruit". "And what can I get for you, Mr President?" George W, looking up from his menu, replies with his trademark wink and slight grin, "How about a quickie this morning?" "Why, Mr President!" the waitress exclaims, "How rude! You're starting to act like Mr Clinton, and you've only been in your second term of office for a year!" As the waitress storms away, Cheney leans over to Bush and whispers... "It's pronounced 'quiche'

Girlfriend
Hey! Hey! You! You! I don't like your girlfriend! No way! No way! I think you need a new one Hey! Hey! You! You! I could be your girlfriend Hey! Hey! You! You! I know that you like me No way! No way! No it's not a secret Hey! Hey! You! You! I want to be your girlfriend You're so fine I want you mine You're so delicious I think about ya all the time You're so addictive Don't you know what I could do to make you feel alright? (alright alright alright alright) Don't pretend I think you know I'm damn precious Hell yeah I'm the mother (fucking) princess I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right (I'm right I'm right I'm right) She's like so whatever You could do so much better I think we should get together now And that's what everyone's talking about! Hey! Hey! You! You! I don't like your girlfriend! No way! No way! I think you need a new one Hey! Hey! You! You! I could be your girlfriend Hey! Hey! You! You! I know that you like me No

Woo Hoo!!
iiT'S FUCKiiN FRiiDAY!! AND ii'M GOiiN OUT TONiiGHT WiiTH MY X-SiiSTER iiN LAW TiiFFANEY, AND JENNY, AND AMANDA AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST MY NUMBER 1 CHRiiSSY!! WOO HOO WE'RE GOiiNG TO THE CLUUUUUUUUUUUB!! GONNA GET CRUNK AND ACT UP!! SO iiF YOUR NEAR BY THE PROViiDENCE AREA.. LOOK OUT!!

Happy Easter
To all my wonderful CT friends, have a safe and wonderful easter, during your celebration please remember to pray and bless the troops overseas who won't be home with their family and loved ones Ricki Get more @ CherryTagz.com

The "next 18 Yearz" Pill
Are you single and sick of your kids keeping you from having a nite life?Introducing "the next 18 years" pill. You dont take it...you give it to them!!!! They'll go into a deep death like sleep until...well eternity. *winkAnd you'll be getting all the dick u want 2 make up for the esteem you seem to be lacking Sick of the brats u so immaturely got stuck with becuz you like to fuck too much? Not smart enuff to make a logical decision like abortion? Did you think having his kid would actually keep him around? Tired of working 2 jobz for the 3 hellbabiez you never asked for? Dont give 2 shits about actually knowing how to raize your child? Feeling guilty about stealing honest taxpayerz money? Feel like your kids are cock blocking you? Try the "NEXT 18 YEARS" pill and take back your life NOW! ORDER NOW and get the "Been There Done That" birth control patch now FREE just 4 ordering!!! (BTW...if youre offended by this, it actually makes U guilty of it.)

Tongue
Well This morning I finally went and done it! It was not as bad as I expected (or was led to believe by certain haters...lol)I probably shouldn't say that should I.... ok... so it was soooooooo painful.... I am hard I am...lol

Top 10 Traits I'm Looking For A Girlfriend/wife...
Top 10: Traits I'm looking for in a wife/girlfriend I must admit that playing the field is a whole lot of fun, but so is being in a serious relationship -- provided that it's with the right woman. But how do you know if she really is the right woman for you? If she possesses the following 10 traits, you better hold on to her for dear life or, before you know it, a guy who already knows where it's at will get his hands on your "goods." 10. She’s independent. No one wants a girlfriend they have to baby-sit. Once in a while, like if she’s had a rough day at work, it’s great to be her shoulder to cry on, but if she can’t seem to function without you and is constantly after you, she will eventually make you feel like you’re suffocating, which is a surefire way to get you running out the nearest exit. On the other hand, if she has her very own personality and opinions, can stand on her own two feet, both financially and emotionally, and is able to enjoy time away from you - while st

Because
Because you are my love, I know the joy that comes from feeling closer to someone than I've ever felt before. Because you are my love, I know the passion of wanting to share everything I have, everything I am with you and only you. Because you are my friend, I know that I can count on you to hold my hand through the rough times and to be there to share the good times, too. Because you are my friend, I'll always have someone to make me smile; just when I need it most, to encourage me when I'm feeling confused or doubtful. And I know that I must be one of the luckiest people in the world to have someone like you- the perfect love, the perfect friend

Visitors To My Profile~read This First~
Thank you for visiting my profile! :-) It was nice of you to stop by. If you are a first time visitor, I think it's fair to tell you how I feel about what you are capable of doing on my page. If you would like to rate or fan me, that's fine. If you don't want to, that's fine too. Because of the very childish actions of some people on here, I have set all my pic folders and most of my blogs to friends only. My page comments are set to friends only too. If you would like to contact me, you can always send me a private message. I answer all messages! As for sending me a friend request...I do not add people who send me a request without even talking to me first. I consider these people "friend collectors" and I have no time or interest for them. However, if you show an interest in getting to know me, I will add you if you send a request. Showing an interest does not mean rating my profile, default pic and fanning me only. Talk to me. Ask me questions. Share a litt

My Poetry(please Read)
Never I get so close but yet so far to being truly happy And then I speak to you Then I go back to my old self you make me so crazy I am almost 20 years old you make me feel like I am two I don't want to be near you anymore I wish I could hate you But no matter what I will still love you nothing you can do will change that But sometimes you make me want to die Sometimes I feel worthless when I am with you I don't feel good about my self around you It's like being in a bubble of negativity But I can't break the bubble The friends that I love are slowly breaking it But you make it come back never am I going to be happy when I am with you Jessica L. Harper

Going Green
If you're like most people, including me, you honestly want to do more for the environment. Most Americans say that they know the environment is going to hell and are pained by it. But you're not sure how. You feel impotent. (About what to do, not in a "Melty Man" kind of way, geez boys.) (Bonus points for the Melty Man reference.) So, I've been doing some research on what we, as individuals, can start doing to help. Here's some ideas that are easy starting places. Set your printers, computers, copiers, and fax machines to go into sleep mode when not in use. Print and copy in double-sided. Yeah, it can be more work if your printer or copier only does single sides. It saves a tree. Just think about that pretty tree in your front yard. It'll get easier. Instead of throwing out a piece of paper printed only on one side, stick it blank side up in a binder and use that for notes at work, printing directions, etc. at home, taking notes in class, taking phone messages, g

What A Broken Heart Feels Like
Deticated to my Friend "Juliet" Tears fall forth from my spirit The knife that penetrated my heart Is being twisted and twisted The pain is exuberant, More tears. The vocal blade has been sharpened Delicately, the bearer of the blade Approached from behind, as like Brutes. As I turned for an embrace, I was pricked, More tears. I drew back to look deep into the eyes Of the one who betrayed me this way. The hand never removed itself from the handle Never tried to Hide it's guilt. More tears. My torn open breast bleeds forth On hands unrepentant, with no remorse As I look into the face of my betrayer A smile flashes back at me, More tears. With another twist of his wrist I crash to my knees This seems to discomfort my Brutus. So he leans over to whisper sweet comfort in my ear A Judas kiss on my cheek, then he disappears. More tears. The blade is still embedded in my flesh Deep in my bosom, blood still pours out Mixed with the tears of my spirit

Disease Of Your Affection
Don't lie to make me happy I don't need a tainted charm Your false feelings Bring emotional harm I am afraid of loneliness Our love no longer true But I can stand alone Without leaning on you Disease of your affection Penetrating me Your love like a virus Attacking violently Not to worry, I'll be fine I'll make it through the day But when tomorrow comes I'll have the courage to walk away

I Wish...
I wish that people would really read whats on my profile before talking to me...I am not here to hook up with anyone..I am not here to show people naked pics of me...Sorry not happening at all...If you are one to get into my private folders you might be suprised at what is in there...And another thing...DO NOT WATCH ME WHAT I DO....I like talking to people and if i rub yu the wrong way there is a block button use the damn thing and leave me the hell alone...

Funny Bull Sh*t
Alright check it out skank I am not fucking everything on cherrytap...for 2 you need to shut your ugly pie hole up because to be honest with you the shit you pulled with Chris and then what you pulled with Dennis no wonder nobody wants your skanky ass by telling them that you loved them the first fucking day that is just pretty fucking sad and fucking insane and low and degrading to a woman. For the life of god bitch stop with the mental crazy bullshit you skanky ass fucking fat whore and for real you do look good in make up but for the life of god you look pretty shit in that fucking pj out fit there...I mean do you have all kinds of mental problems or what or are you really that fucking stupid or something I mean I have never fucked nobody on the net and all that so thank you very much get your facts straight before you start saying all kinds of fucking lies...I mean for real you are just really crazy and need to grow the fuck up...I mean I know how you are and I know the stupidity g

My 'i Love Cunts!' Bulletin
Now normally I don't take with CherryTAP, but when some ugly she male looking cunt who i have never even visited her page, yet she has visited mines several times over the past few weeks, comes and leaves some dumb ass fucking comment like that and then blocks me Your a 40+ year old she male looking "woman"...so if your going to leave dumbass fucking childish comments on my page, atleast have the balls [as i am sure you do ;)] to not block me and act like a fucking adult [which obviously you can't] and give them a chance to respond.. Ok woop de fucking doo you commented my page with ur fucking dumbass childish comment, do u want a medal...if so i will pin it on ur ballz in closing GROW THE FUCK UP!! Emanon~~Forever Fake~~Father of The Fallen Ones@ CherryTAP

Father
Perfect anything. Despite the afterbirth. Underneath the spin. It's all there. If you just open your eyes. If you just crawl out of the thought. I'm becoming something else. Better or worse- I'm not really sure, and I'll probably be so far gone... that I won't even remember what I was. I need to wash away the stink. Erase the itch. Burn the sin. Fill me up to the empty drag me off the beaten path. Then I'll be something sacred. Celestially unholy. Like a giant mother mary vibrator. Like every moaning whore in your bed. Every horrified it. Heretic... They whisper inches from my ear as they continually fuck me in the open. Mind into nothing. Left a squirming dissoriented mess. Unwanted, undesireable, loathesome. Sweaty...sticky... Finally one step closer to the orthodox. And they want me. They own me. They take me. They WANT IT ALL They want me to dissapear. Devastating blurs of distance... trying so hard to be somewhere else. With each sa

Why Is Being Truthful So Hard For Some?
I know! I know! You are sick of hearing me bitch and moan about people and their fake ass main pics. Last one! I promise! Couldnt this all be alleviated with a couple of small additions to the onMouseover event that pops up the profile tooltip: AGE and GENDER It would prevent someone from clicking on... ohhhh I dunno.... a pic of female and landing in a males profile! For Instance... THIS FUCKING ASSHAT! Is a guy. A Lying Sack of Shit in my opinion. I just prayyyyyyyyyyyyy

This Is Why
I am alone. Like always. I feel very much unwanted. It seems like no one can love me because I have bipolar disorder, along with a few other mential things. These are products of a very tragic life. Things happened to me that I will not discuss here. I am 35, I cant see my kids, my family doesnt want me, I have no friends, outside of the ones on here and I cant keep a girlfriend. I am always good to them, but once my illness gets the best of me and the moods start to swing, they are gone. So I decided that I will forever be alone. For the simple reason that I dont want the heartache and the hurt of being rejected anymore. Its just not worth the pain. I know how my life is going to end, Im going to die old, gray, alone and forgottin. That is how things will end for me. But until then, I will live my life the best I can, keeping to myself, going home after work and going to bed in my cave/bedroom(blacked out the windows) and sleep alone, all because of the fact that Im sick.

Blah Money Problems
When i get a check, the money is already spent. I got my check on Wed, and by saturday i am flat broke. I can not blame it all on gas prices either, as much as i want too. This is all my fault. I hate money sometimes. I feel as though it controls me, makes me spend what i do not have. I feel worthless without it, and a slave too it. I spent most of my money on things that i do not need. What the hell, i tell myself. Do i want to be in debt forever? Do i want to miss money so much, that i almost feel willing to do anything for some more of it? Its the worst drug.

The Fool That Fell For You
he gets in her head wraps her up with the words he says you say how could you lie to me and pretend to be everything i need " you were so hot you were so cool now your so not and im the fool i didnt have a clue i was the fool, the fool that fell for you" cant you see i dont need your help let me free ill be by myself pack up your things and lie to somebody else i was lost in the lust and i thought i could trust but i forgot what it was to know the liar that you love it was all fake but one things true im the fool im the fool the fool that fell for you " you were so hot you were so cool now your so not and im the fool i didnt have a clue i was the fool, the fool that fell for you"

Ahdur
You scored as "Ghetto". You are what you are! Just don't talk to me..."Ghetto"73%Loner73%Stoner60%Emo Kid53%Geek/Nerd40%Goth33%Punk33%Hot20%Prep13%Jock0%What Highschool Clique Do You Belong To?created with QuizFarm.com

I Can"t Sleep!!
Friday night and i can't sleep if I tried...and I've been trying! I went for a walk to clear my head as I usually do every night. While I was walking I noticed the damn mailboxes all tipped over. lol Every corner I went to they were lying on their side. I asked my parents before if that was normal. If it was just a small town thing they do..or a ritual of some sort. :P No they said, it was the young people who got their kicks out doing that and I swear I laughed when I heard this. I mean, really...really, really is that what my girls have to look forward to? It scares the living daylights out of me. haha Ok..I'm not just talking about this. I just find it ridiculously wow... a few thirteen year old girls were wearing teeny tiny mini skirts. I saw my girls and thought, if those were my kids they would so not be wearing that at that age. The freaks out there is insane. I am out of that "teen" bracket but still in the 'young people' age...soon not to be though. Then I will have thirty

The Soldier
The Soldier I’ve fought up on high mountains, on dry deserts and on plains. I’ve fought in dazzling sunshine, and in snowfalls and in rains. I’ve fought my way through hedgerows, and on dozens of distant beaches. I’ve fought in dark infested swamps, with their gators, snakes and leeches. I’ve fought in ice cold foxholes, when feet were frozen numb. I’ve fought in stifling jungle heat, and rice patty’s stinking scum. I’ve fought down in dark tunnels, and in fields laden with flowers. I’ve been badly wounded in battle, and lay there alone for hours. I’ve fought with blind and total fury, and with gut wrenching fears. I’ve knelt beside downed comrades, and I could not hide my tears. I’ve fought with muskets and with lasers, with my helmet and my fists. I’ve fought hand to hand many times, those my bullets may have missed. I’ve fought from behind stone walls, from trenches and from tanks. I’ve paraded in splendid court yards, as people gave their tha

Update!
Just wanted to let everyone know that all is well and that I haven't forgotten you. My focus for now is where it should be with my son, daughter-in-law and the beautiful, brand new baby boy that they are expecting to bring home later today. His name is Will Allen. He was born at 2:15am on 6 April, weighing 6lb 7oz and 18in long. Now I have a 1 yr old granddaughter and a brand new grandson...perfect! Anyway, I should be back to normal by Sunday or Monday and I will attempt to catch up on messages/comments then. I can't wait to get to chat with some of you again as well...until then, take care.

Momma Janá
What ever happened to people doing for others when good has been done for them? People are so rude,crude,inconcidered,self centered and thoughtless. I wish that more people were more considered of others feelings. There are differant people everywhere;but others want to judge them for what they wear,how they talk,skin color and religion. Be kind to others no matter who or what they are.

Redneck Astrological Signs
Okra December 22 - January 20 Although you appear crude, you are actually very slick on the inside. Okra have tremendous influence. An older Okra can look back over his life and see the seeds of his influence everywhere. Stay away from Moon Pies. Chitlin January 21 - February 19 Chitlins often come from humble backgrounds. Many times they're uncomfortable talking about just where they came from. A chitlin, however, can make something of himself if he's motivated and has plenty of seasoning. When it comes to dealing with Chitlins, be very careful. Chitlins are best with Catfish and Okra. Remember that when marriage time rolls around. Boll Weevil February 20 - March 20 You have an overwhelming curiosity. You're unsatisfied with the surface of things, and you feel the need to bore deep into the interior of everything. Needless to say, you are very intense and driven as if you had some inner hunger. Nobody in their right mind is going to marry you, so don't worry about it. M

I Love You All
Friend A friend is a person to laugh and cry with, An inspiration, Someone who lends a helping hand, though friends may not be forever, And they may not end up together, the memories of a true friendship will last forever. A friend is not a shadow nor a servant But someone who hold a piece of a person in his heart. Someone who shares a smile, Someone who brightens up your day What makes a person a friend? Is by saying your Love will stay

Hey ...comment Dammit...lol
http://www.cherrytap.com/bulletins.php?b=803166770 that is the link to my bulliten, please read it and leave comments, and PLEASE make it a sticky...grrr when I get money I WOULD DO IT FOR YOU ...and um hello I'll have my settlement in soon so..uh um..yeah...you might want to start ass kissing now.....ok ok...at least tap my cherry...and give me some CT love..lol mmmm would a boobie flash get you to help out...ha ha here you go ( . ) ( . )

Not Easy Being Green
I wrote a blog yesterday on going green -- ways to help conserve our natural resources. Because of that, I wanted to say a bit about where I'm coming from and why I wrote it. I am not here to quote a bunch of facts and figures. I think that you can find facts and figures to support just about any position you want. I try to be commonsense about my opinions. And that's all they are -- opinions. I honestly believe that we need to continue working to conserve our natural resources. I make no claims about when, exactly, those resources will be exhausted. But I think it's only common sense that they will run out sooner or later. Oil, for example, is an exhaustible resource. While I personally do not agree with ruining natural preserves to dig for oil so that some asshole can drive a Hummer, even if you do, how can you dispute that that oil will eventually be exhausted? Just ask the guys down in Texas who were rollin' in it in the 70's and 80's. Trees grow, and we can make mo

How I Feel About The Way Men Talk To Me Lately....
You know, most of you havent talked to me on the phone or in person, youve seen my photographs...you tell me im hot, im sexy, im gorgeous, im pretty, how you want to come over and do me yada, yada, yada. Im sick and tired of that, I want someone who wants to talk to me for me, not talk to me about sex......thats all any of my friends want to talk about anymore, I dont have one male friend short of the ones that are already taken like my unkie goth that dont want to talk about anything else except about all the things they can do to me and make me do in the middle of the night. Mabye Im sounding prudish or...mabye im sounding stupid to some of you guys.....but in alot of ways, Im looking for friendship, mabye Romance.....possibly, but definately friendship and sex has gotten me into nothing but trouble in the past.......I only have one person in mind right now that i want to consider ripping his clothes off because he talks to me and treats me like a lady and a friend.....and he lets

Not So Good Today
I went up to the hospital today to see steven and managed to see his doctor as well, The news wasnt good, the cancer has spread to his testicles, they might have caught it in time, but we have to be prepared that he may lose them as well. He is getting his hair done midweek as well, they reckon its better to get it shaved than it just falling out randomly through the chemo. Hes got a couple of weeks break from the chemo and getting transfered to a hospital closer to home.

Eternal Rest
As I look down at the silver blade My memmories begin to fade Thoughts start to cross my mind My misty eyes are going blind Will anyone remember who I was My mind is slipping into a state of fuzz I start to remember all the times I had the good and expecially the bad My time is drawing near All of the sudden my heart flows with fear I pick up the knife All I can think about is taking my life Blood flows form my wrists like a river My body begins to quiver I realize this is for the best I am now happy in eternal rest

Imagination
I see a leaf up in a tree but when i look heres what i see i see a star of many colors the reds the yellows and all the others then i hear the laughter loud people shoutting out things in clouds but by the time i see the trees the breeze alone can change the scenes the sun comes out and shines so bright the leaves change colores to my delight so when you look upon a tree close your eyes and think of me.

My Daughter
Ariana who turns 11 on easter, should i choose another day to celebrate her bday, it being easter its not really her day. i never ran into this problem before lol. i got her a cake and presents.mmm i dont know, maybe ill let her rent a movie or game and next weekend have her friends over, even tho shes on spring break i still have to work hehehe maybe ill let her stay up later and bug her sister for the night. lol im just rambling now , anyways thanks for reading and if you have any ideas let me know!!!

Golden Band....
There is not way to describe the way I feel for you. Not enough words in out vocabulary to say what i need to. The only way I think you could ever understand, will be the day we say "I DO" and I give you your golden band. Everlasting cirle of gold. Makes you mine forever to hold With love always till the end of time. This golden band stands with our hearts intertwind. I will give you this band as a sign of our love as God and the angels smile from above. Sending down blessings of love so divine, as I become yours and you become mine. And when or if darkness falls upon us one day, know that our love will light the way. Through the shadows of night when the moon is bland, remember we r always connected with and by this golden band... Courtesy of MsTags.com

Oh Yea Baby
What kind of a LOVER are YOU? You are a PASSIONATE LOVER!When it comes to sex and relationships you put 100% into both. You like to have fun and try new things but you pay alot of attention to the PASSION that lives in side of each kiss, touch or meaningful word. You contain the whole package and any man would be would be very lucky to have a women like you! Take this test

Last Chance
Can i count on you if i bow my head and pray can i trust the words you send and make it threw the day i need your guidence to piont the way because the path is not yet clear i NEED YOU to piont the way because of all my fear I was lost and all alone until i saw the light but i was saved by love alone because it shined so brite thank you lord for hearing my heart when it needed you the most NEVER GIVE UP ON LIFE OR YOUR DREAMS

Apples And Wine
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree. Now Men...Men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with. Share this with all the good apples you know!

Look At This.....?????
Now That i have your attention. Id like to say that I voodoo am engaged to ~*~ SeXxY * MaMa~*~~*~ Soon To Be CT Wife Of VOODOO~*~Owner of A.F.H.~*~And ~*~ArchAngel~*~ Of Angel Family~*. Stay tune for our wedding date. Come chat with us in our lounge just click the picture. Voodoo ~Soon To Be Ct Hubby Of Sexy Mama~@ CherryTAP ~*~ SeXxY * MaMa~*~~*~ Soon To Be CT Wife Of VOODOO~*~Owner of A.F.H.~*~And ~*~ArchAngel~*~ Of Angel Family~*~@ CherryTAP (repost of original by 'Voodoo ~Soon To Be Ct Hubby Of Sexy Mama~' on '2007-04-07 20:45:42')

Please Explain
I don't understand why people are on here if they won't allow you to rate thier photos, send a shout, send a private message, comment or do anything that would be interactive on thier page. Can anyone explain why?

Fair Enough.
You Are Pop Art When it comes to art, you're definitely not a snob. You can appreciate the mainstream aspects of culture, even if you need to twist them a bit to make them your own. Whether you're into comics, retro pinups, or bold colors, you embrace what's eye catching and simple. As far as most other art goes, you consider it a little too elitist and high brow for your tastes! (Not true!) What Art Movement Are You?

Erotica Finished...yay Nsfw
She hadn’t expected it to turn out the way it did. At first it was just another night at home, but soon enough, it turned into much, much more. They had been dating for 9 months now. Jamie and Kyle spent 6 hours a night on the phone at first, and by now, they knew so much about each other, they thought there was nothing left to hide. The night started off with a few bottles of alcohol and a couple of friends over. Jamie had always found Kyle’s best friend, Mike, very appealing, and tonight was no different. The small group of friends played drinking games, joked around, and laughed into the wee morning hours. The party had dwindled down to just Jamie, Kyle, and Mike. Not ready for bed, Mike sarcastically suggested they play scrabble, but to his surprise they were up for it! “Drunk scrabble? Hell Yeah!”, Jamie was all about it! After the first few turns, Mike spelled out clit, Jamie followed suit and spelled cock, and the group continued with their now erotic scrabble game. As Jamie s

Today Sucked
ok soo i came to work and it was sooo COLD and wet.and like soon as i got to work they let this guy joe off and let him go home..i was like okay no biggie..but then later on my manager was like i could go home next but this girl i work with was like "i'll go home"....grr.. pissed me off.. not like i didnt want to go home or anything..bu ya...soo me and ash. were stuck there the whole fucking day with like a sporadic amount of customers..just wanting hot chocolate..ugh..soo basically everybody else closed early while we closed at like 11:15 fucking sucked..i swear i was pissed off the WHOLE day..and then i got kind of upset cuz of what some guy told me..but oh well shit happens..well i'll write more later...HAPPY EASTER..

Jades Cell
The footsteps rang out on the stone floor as they approached the heavy door of her dungeon cell. The feel of her binds around her ankles and wrists cut sharply into her tender skin. Each step closer her heart pounded faster and louder, surely her Master could hear her fear. Not once had he spoken nor looked at her as they made their way down to the place she dreaded so greatly. Maybe if she begged or pleaded then he would relent and forgive her, but she knew this time she had pushed his love just too far. Looking up she saw it, the cold, dark cell. He stopped and took out his key. The sound of his keys clashing together broke the silence. Still he did not dare to look into her pleading eyes. She knew that this hurt him almost as much as her self. The door creaked as her Master Darius threw it open. Then he turned to her, his face full of sorrow but they both knew this time she needed to learn a cold harsh lesson. "Inside now" he commanded, and with that the tears welled up in h

A Taste For Jade
I'm standing at the registration desk of the hotel we agreed upon, a small bag in my hand. I didn't pack much, as you requested. I don't think I'll need much else, this weekend, do you? The woman returns with my credit card and hands me a slip of paper. "You have a message, ma'am." I open the paper and read: "Jade...here are your instructions: Leave a key to your room in an envelope with my name on it at the Front Desk. Get to your room. Shower quickly. Lay naked on the bed, legs spread WIDE, and wait for me. Do nothing else. Hurry." My stomach flips as I read your note. What have I gotten myself into? As I crumble the paper, mindlessly searching for a trashcan, I realize that my entire body is flushed, warm, tingling. It begins. I quickly take the elevator up to my room, drop my small bag on the floor and hop into the shower, remembering your words. I'm so aroused already that I'm tempted to linger a bit, but I don't want you to catch me in here (God only knows what you wo

Easter With Interesting Jelly Beans
It's magical. It's incredible, and it just arrived! The new handy personal sized box of Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Beans, the jelly bean preferred by Harry Potter. Discover the wild flavors of EARWAX, DIRT, GRASS, BOOGER, SARDINE, BLACK PEPPER and the 2 latest new flavors ROTTEN EGG and BACON. And, everyone's favorite VOMIT. Think of stinky limburger cheese, think salami gone bad--that's VOMIT all wrapped up in the disguise of a jelly bean. Fortunately, the beans come with a mystical guide on the back of the box to help you recognize the flavors. 4.25 ounces. These products are manufactured by the Jelly Belly Candy Company. 10 Individual Flavors: Earwax, Booger, Bacon, Black Pepper, Vomit, Dirt, Soap, Rotten Egg, Grass and Earthworm I just want to know one thing..WHO tests this??

Happy Easter...everyone
" If you ever felt love, then you've most certainly been touched by an Angel. " " Join in on the movement and go out and do a ramdom act of kindness. Then say, " My Angel made me do it. " " For without being seen, Angels are present around us. " " Angels guide their immortal lives by the law of Love, not by our desires, however noble they may be. " " Angels bring healing into our lives, and when we need it, a snese of direction. " " Some people come into our lives and quickly go ... Some stay and make footprints on our hearts ... And we are never, never the same. " Im Your Saint Happy Easter...

Have People Forgot The True Meaning Of Easter?
As I took my children to church this morning I saw yards full of chilren hiding eggs, laughing and playing with their families. Most children these days think that Easter is all about the eggs and candy and the Easter Bunny of course. When my 6 year old asked me a few days ago if the Easter Bunny was real, I didnt lie to her again this year. I told her that it was just a story, then I told her about the true meaning of Easter. At first knowledge of the bunny not being real, she almost cried. But by the time I got done telling her what Easter really is all about she was tickled to death. She told her dad the Easter bunny was fake, of course he just looked at me wide eyed, not knowing what to say to her. I told him it was ok not to lie to her either, Boy! was her relieved!!!! I know Im rambling, but the reason behind it is this..........If your kids ask you this year about the Easter Bunny being real, what will you tell them? Are you going to continue to lie to them? I think yo

Three Things In Life
Three things in life that, once gone, never come back - 1. Time 2. Words 3. Opportunity Three things in life that can destroy a person - 1. Anger 2. Pride 3. Unforgiveness Three things in life that you should never lose- 1. Hope 2. Peace 3. Honesty Three things in life that are most valuable - 1. Love 2. Family &Friends 3. Kindness Three things in life that are never certain 1. Fortune 2. Success 3. Dreams Three things that make a person - 1. Commitment 2. Sincerity 3. Hard work Three things that are truly constant - Father - Son - Holy Spirit I ask the Lord to bless you, as I pray for you today; to guide you and protect you, as you go along your way. God's love is always with you, God's promises are true. And when you give God all your cares, you know God will see you through. ~~~***My God Reigns***~~~

She Can Go To Pakistan, And She's Right Here On The Ct
FTW Lost Goth@ CherryTAP OK here's the deal... I've known Lost Goth for a while now. She claims to be Wiccan, has lots of friends here on the CT and I'm gonna get blasted for this I know... But I feel it bears being posted. I just had a shoutbox conversation with her which is posted below. This bitch is going to PAKISTAN folks as soon as she can clear it. One of the terrorist capitals of the world. She claims to not hate America... My response? Well... you'll see it in the conversation and I say this to EVERYONE who wants to leave and go to a terrorist training/harboring country... I AM FORMER MILITARY and I ~*LOVE*~ this country... So my words are as follows: You don't like it here in the United States of America and you want to go to the middle east? GOOD! Get the FUCK out and STAY OUT! Read from the bottom up like you would on the shoutbox itself... DemonStorm FTW Lost G...: i dont hate America and i aint Muslim ->FTW Lost G...: You know wha

Sex Talk 1
Warning for my friend Jess.. me being blunt about sex and all that You may not want to read. haha I don't understand why guys feel an apprehension when it comes to their women using vibrators, or why women are shy/scared about buying them. For the men: You mean to tell me you don't ever look at porn and jack off? Yes, you're not using a toy usually, but if there was a toy out there that was just like getting a blowjob and vibrated, men would buy them. It's just like when guys use lube while jacking off. Feels more like a pussy than a dry hand. Hell, I believe that women should have toys. Most women have never had a good orgasm, or as I tell Lesa, "you had a stupid orgasm." The type of orgasm where you don't have just one or two, you lose count as they blend with each other, and when they finally subside, you're 'stupid'. Meaning you can't think, and your mind is all jumbled. It's a good orgasm, but for the next 5-10 minutes, you feel stupid as you can't even put togeth

Money
Money can be lost, gained, or spent in dreaming. Dreams about money are often really about power, control, and competency. Consequently, the larger perspective of who is interacting with you around money and what your role in the transaction is are important features of the dream. Many people who dream about money are controlled by it-the desire for it, the lack of it, or the inability to control themselves with it. This last category is seen most clearly in money dreams experienced by people who re drowning in debt. If you gain money in a dream, note from whom and under what circumstances. This may be a dream about blessing. The gain of money in this instance is more a gain of emotional power and renewal through a completed relationship that no longer depletes the soul. You may see yourself as having great wealth to dole out to others. This is often a symbol of needing to convey blessing onto others. The true need is rarely financial, but a need to help others. Losing money

When
when do you let someone into your life fully? show them your true messed up past or present? or how do you know that you can trust that person to really understand without being judgemental. im at a bridge and i dont know whether to cross it or go around again. i usually just avoid the bridge all together to be safe from falling in or worse, drowning. nobody knows everything and would they want to? true, life has changed but thats just it; its changed. i prefer to go forward instead of backwards, but they questions in their eyes are getting plentiful and more urgent. i need a lifeline..

The Slave Waits......
I walk in this dimly lit bar....my eyes adjusting after the bright sunshine outside.....it's cool in here.....I look around, not many people in here. "Good" my thoughts desire privacy. I sit down in a booth....in a dark corner....A waitress comes and I ask her for some club soda....she brings it and leaves. I look at the glass....and my thoughts wander to this lovely man. I wonder where he is. He controls my every thought...my love for him is boundless. He knows I am here, but I don't see him. Then....I feel him...I feel his presence. I jump slightly..startled...and look up...there he is, right in front of me. He holds out his hand to me and I take it and get up....wordlessly following him to a room in the back. He leads me in and locks the door behind us. He pulls me in his arms and kisses me hard...and very passionately. "Now" he says....and I hold my breath...waiting. "You know better than this....don't you Jade...you told me you understood?" He looks at me intently, and I bow my he

Dinner For Who?......
Words can not begin to describe how beautiful you look this evening...the dim light, the candles sparkling in your eyes. This is your favortie resturant, its where we had our fist date and you love comming back here. You look beautiful....flower print dress v neck...heels absolutly stunning. During dinner we talk, exchange kisses and those looks of yours that tell me there is more than dinner on your mind. We share a bottle of wine with dinner and you slide close to me and whisper in my ear..."Do you know what you do to me"? I kiss you gently and say no hun i have no idea, why dont you tell me as i brush my lips across yours.... You take my hand, kissing my finger tips and rest my hand on your lap....Hmmmm i think to myself....what is she up to, and you say "how 'bout i show you?" as you slide my hand up your soft thighs and reach your sweet lips,..im surprised your not wearing any panites....my god you know how to get my attention....you part your legs and i slide my finger inside

Deep In The Pit.....
~A gravestone stands solid, alone, on a grassy field, as the grass bends lightly in the breeze.~ Those images kept flashing in my head, which was bad news cause I was driving on the freeway. Not that my safety was in jeopardy, during rush hour, top speed was 10 mph. But flashbacks of graves weren't what I wanted on my mind at the moment. I was on my way to Tara and focus shouldn't have been a problem. Tara's interest in me began the day I started at CommNet as a technical support agent. She always told me she liked techy types. She worked in customer service, and both of us dealt a lot with customers, so both of us wore business suits at work. Thinking about her Aurburn hair up in a bun, or some do started to give me wood, which was good cause this evening we were gonna let our crushes grow into something further. All that thinking allowed me to finally get to the freeway exit. And a few minutes later, I was parked and looking at her apartment building entrance. It was a sm

Happy Easter To All My Friends And Fans
Since i have sooooo many friends and Fans, and Family its hard to post to each and everyone of you with leaving everyone off i just thought i do it this way: MySpace Graphic Codes HAVE A HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!Tim

Saturday Before Easter At The Club
Since we're going to Cancun at the end of this month, we're trying to save money to spend on our trip. So last night was our last time at the swing club for this month. I thought it was memorable. This was going to be the closest club night to my friend Todd's birthday, so his wife Misty had told the owner about the birthday, and they planned something for him. I think he had an idea beforehand, because we'd told him about some of the birthday celebrations. On our way to the club we drove by their van and I fell in behind them, but then they got off the road about 10 miles before we got there, so we went on ahead. We went into the club, with me toting our bag of clothes and other bag of alcoholic beverages. I put the clothes in a locker -- since the rooms are open for play until 2 AM, we can't leave the bags in our assigned room. In the main room, with the seating area, the buffet, the dance floor and the small stage for the stripper pole, only one of the three long tables

So Touching
Subject: So touching When an old man died in the geriatric ward of a small hospital near Tampa , Florida , it was believed that he had nothing left of any value. Later, when the nurses were going through his meager possessions, They found this poem. Its quality and content so impressed the staff that Copies were made and distributed to every nurse in the hospital. One nurse took her copy to Missouri . The old man's sole bequest to Posterity has since appeared in the Christmas edition of the News Magazine of the St. Louis Association for Mental Health. A slide Presentation has also been made based on his simple, but eloquent, Poem. And this little old man, with nothing left to give to the world, is Now the author of this "anonymous" poem winging across the Internet. Crabby Old Man What do you see nurses? .What do you see? What are you thinking......when you're looking at me? A crabby old man, .not very wise, Uncertain of habit .with faraway eyes?

Sex Servey Tell Me What You Want !
1. Your Name:? 2. Age:? 3. Favorite position (s)? 4. Do you think I'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Have sex on the first date? 15. Would you kiss me during sex? 16. Do you think I would be good in bed? 17. Three sum? 18. How many times would you like to cum? 19. Would you use me as a booty call? 20. Do you like fore play? 21. What is fore play to you? 22. Can we take pictures of the act?

My Birthday Wish: I Wanna Be A Rock Star!
for my birthday.... If only I could reach the status of being a Rock Star by then. My birthday is on April 13th. Can you help me make my goal???? During last week, I reached the Ninja Cherry status. That created the hurdle of obtaining over 74,000 cherry points. Tonight, I am at only a little over 55,000 cherry points to go. Do you think that my friends can help me get to a Cherry Rock Star by Friday. Six days, less than 10,000 points a day. Shouldn't be too hard. What do you think???? LOL... It may be the closest I ever come to being a rock star!!! :D Thanks, in advance, to anyone that helps me to be a Rock Star for my Birthday by the 13th of April!! Devine TxRose@ CherryTAP aka Kat

That's It, I'm Moving
alright, i just received a text from someone who i thought wanted to date me and shit, but you know what. She text me(forget fucking calling me)to tell me we should be friends. I hate ths sorry state(sorry to those of you whole like texas). I"m gonna sell my shit, and I'm moving back to florida. I'm tired of dating, trying to get out of debt and everything else. I'm just gonna stick with alcohol, music and that's it. Hell, I couldn't get laid if i wanted to. I'm better off alone and.......I don't know. I'm out, laterz Redneck

Ha. Damned Winamp.
This song is depressing me. *nodnod* Innocent When You Dream Lyrics » Tom Waits The bats are in the belfry the dew is on the moor where are the arms that held me and pledged her love before and pledged her love before It's such a sad old feeling the fields are soft and green it's memories that I'm stealing but you're innocent when you dream when you dream you're innocent when you dream running through the graveyard we laughed my friends and I we swore we'd be together until the day we died until the day we died It's such a sad old feeling the fields are soft and green it's memories that I'm stealing but you're innocent when you dream when you dream you're innocent when you dream I made a golden promise that we would never part I gave my love a locket and then I broke her heart and then I broke her heart It's such a sad old feeling the fields are soft and green it's memories that I'm stealing but you're innocent when you dream when you d

Wat Happend 2day
i found out what happened to my shoes & my clothes and other things, my uncle sonny took it and gave it to salvation army. well when i asked him about it, i said.. uncle sonny in my old house did you see a box of shoes, he said yeah i did i took it all and gave it to salvation army and i even cleaned out your room, and the basement. its like 1/4 cleaned now. im thinkin WAT DA FUCK! HOW DA HELL R U GONNA ASSUME, I DONT WANT MY THINGS ANYMORE, any pls he could of ask my thos r my things, n HOW DA HELL IS SOME1 JES GONNA TAKE UR THINGS AND GIVE IT AWAY N NOT EVEN TELL U ABOUT IT, WAT DA HELL IS DAT. its crazy, my day has been crazy. now i kno how it feels to be robbed. n u kno wat he didnt even say sorry, all he sed was oh i didnt kno u still needed that.

Don't Wanna Look
This dream bother Doug when I told him about it since I was still pregante at the time. I am laying in a room loungeing on a bed, when my eyes open. I watch Doug walk up to me, in his eyes I see a tears shinning thru his dead eyes. In his hands he is carrying a small black box with golden swirling designs on it. My hands tremble, my head shakes in a silent plea of no. Slowly he lowers the box and inside, i see the edge of a snow white blanket and a small limp hand clutching it. I wake up....

Thank You Thank You Thank You
THANK TO ALL THAT BOMBED ME IN THE MORPH CONTEST,IT WAS GREATLY APPRECIATED !! ** I WON WITH 16,430 RATES/COMMENTS ** SPEICAL THANKS TO "MORBID PRINCESS" FOR RUNNING A GREAT CONTEST. ALSO VERY SPECIAL THANK YOU BORICUA DADDY AND BLAZE ESPECIALLY.. YOU TWO BOMBED ME THE MOST !! MAD LUV A XOXOXOO

A Friend Most True
I need to know if you’re my true friend, will you be by my side until the end? Can I tell you my secrets deep, and trust them in your heart you’ll keep? We are neither of us without our flaws, can you accept mine as I will yours? I’ll be a shoulder to cry on when you’re blue, will you be there for me when I need you? No matter how busy I will make time for you, if you are busy will you make time for me too? I will take your hand and comfort your tears, will you hold me and soothe my fears? I will give you joy and many warm smiles, can we share that even across many miles? I will not forget what’s important to you, will you remember what’s important to me too? With you my most favourite things I’ll share, If only I know do you truly care? If you can accept me as I do you, then I will know you are a friend most true.

Unborn Child
THIS WOMEN THINKS IT CUTE TO BASH AN UNBORN CHILD. SHE CALLED ME AN UNFIT MOTHER AND SHE DOESNT EVEN KNOW ME. AFTER A NICE LITTLE FIGHT IN MY SHOUTBOX SHE BLOCKED ME. JUST SO ALL THE PARENTS OUT THERE KNOW WHO SHE IS HER NAME IS FIRE. Who in the hell would ever bash an unborn child has to be sick in the head.

You Did It Again......
How did you manage to do it again. to crush my heart in the palm of your hand. I trusted you with it, one last time and once again you didnt want it. Its as if I no longer exist. If i ever did for you. was the feeling you had for me lust. or true emotion? Why do i let it bother me? Why do i even care? I care about people too much and always get hurt. Is there a way to turn off the way the heart feels for you? Would you even tell me if You were ever true? does true love even exist? If it does then its something that i missed.

Living Again And Letting Go
Living Again.. And Letting Go.... I have put a lot of thought into my past relationships and have decided to move forward no more going back. I wish I could have the one I want but sometimes the one you want you are better off being friends with. If it will never work then don't force it just let it go. So I have decided to move on it may take awhile for this to actually happen and for me to decide who to move on with. I want to keep my options open for the time being. I have a few good options on hand and a few I would rather leave where they are. I want to find out what I truly want in a relationship and out of life. I know to a certain point what I want but I need the rest to be outlined in my head more. I need to give myself time to be sure I am totally ready for this step. I do not want to hurt anyone and I refuse to be hurt again. Being hurt sucks. So I do not want to do it to anyone again. I have broke a few heart and hurt some people and I am truly sorry

Driving
OK so i have just had my first driving lesson and almost killed someone but on the whole i think it went well god how scary is driving stil im sure seeing me behind the wheel will scare people more any way hope you are all having fun out there and i will keep you posted on my new foray in to the world of driving tp

The Flight......tonight
Her flight from LAX to Iowa was perfect. Hope the rest of this little excursion goes as well, she thought as she exited the plane and filed into the bustling airport along with the other passengers on this lovely Saturday afternoon. Since her only luggage was the tote bag that she carried which contained the essentials she’d need, there was no need to locate the baggage carousel. She did, however, see a cozy lounge where she escaped from the crowd of people who were rushing to and from their flights. As she sipped her White Russian, the Brown haired Blue eyed vixen of a business woman thought about the situation. She had flown a thousand miles for a meeting. This, however, would not be a board meeting or a high-end meeting with some deep-pocketed client. It would be a meeting with the person she’d been in contact with via email for nearly six months. He’d written a story that she identified with so much that she wrote Him a complimentary communication. That led to additional ch

More Thought On Living Again And Letting Go
I have also been doing a lot of thinking about myself lately. I think that I have been in too many failed relationships. Trying to figure out what I have done wrong in each and everyone is hard because some of them I put entirely too much into. I have lost me in the process of all of this. Which is truly a sad thought. What I mean by this is I rearrange all my beliefs , hopes and dreams to fit what that person wanted at the time. I have decided not anymore. I want someone who wants the same things I want. There is someone out there for everyone. I want that one that is for me. I have put a lot of thought into this person and every single man I have been with has helped me to a point on figuring out who this person would be. I believe that people come in your life for a reason. Be it just to help you through something you do not know is coming or to show you something. Some may come and go but everyone leaves their own special mark on your heart and soul. It may be

The Storyteller (sonnet)
He's perfected his craft over the years Without hopes of gaining fame nor wealth Shared his many tales of laughter and tears Though none will collect dust on a shelf The words inside will be read many times And treasured for generations to come He has touched a heart with every line And left them wanting more when it was done A new story with each stoke of the pen When one is finished another unfolds Captivating from beginning to end They will not be forgotten once they're told Though he may disapear or fade away His words live on forever and a day

Nice Guys Finish Last
I found this on the web and thought I would post it: NICE GUYS FINISH LAST By: Garrett Hols It's amazing that assholes can get girls. Actually, now that I think of it, it's not that amazing. They are assholes at heart, but to meet girls they lavish their undying love. IT'S A CHARADE. They act nice, friendly, and they listen… until they get into what they're after. Their prey thinks they are in love with them, however when they realize what assholes their predators really are, they pretend like the asshole is really nice inside. The girl tries to change the asshole into a nice guy, but assholes will always be assholes. She gets upset and goes to the nice guy to complain about the asshole. But she claims to love the asshole… now this is where the theory begins. She doesn't want to look like she is easy so she wont dump the asshole right away, instead she will stay with the asshole. Girls are idiots. They don't realize that the nice guy has been there all along. He never had to prete

Dieing To Live
Helpless is who Iam Freedom is what I need Trapped and I feel damned I cut and I bleed Is there an out? Will I ever be free? My life is full of doubt Not too many options I see Hanging by a thread Slipping down the hole I feel good seeing red Hurting me is my goal Being stuck inside my head Begging to get out Hearing all the things it said Then you wonder why I shout? All of me is slowly dieing But so much I want to live With every ounce of me I'm trying I only have so much to give Elizabeth 3-15-07

My New Endeavour.
At the pressure and insistence of others, I have begun baking from home again as means of boosting my income. I think I must be crazy.... I have no dishwasher, but friends will not be dissuaded. I will have to keep it at a bare minimum, but it will be a big help to finances..... especially if I can do wedding cake.... In a month or so I may have to retreat, because the heat here is unbearable in the summer, I don't know if I will be able to have my oven on so much. I have alot of cleaning projects going on at the moment also, and only about a month to accomplish these things, just deep cleaning stuff, like washing ceiling fans and such, organizing the garage, cleaning carpets, and washing my lawn furniture. It's almost that time. Obviously I'll be staying busy, in anticipation of a houseguest that will be arriving in about a month, I would like all that stuff to be done so I can relax and enjoy spending time. Simone keeps looking at me as though I have lost my mind, while

The Real Me
Since only one person on CT knows me in real life im am going to lay it all out here. For better or for worse. (keep in mind im having a rough day). First, my name is Adam, im 26 yo and until recently was living with my wife and 3 children. Due to many issues between us 3 months ago my wife asked me to leave. In doing so I finally got the help i needed for my Bi-polar disorder. Which she says is part of the reason for the seperation. I was forced to move back into my parents house since i don't have a fulltime job (i was a stay at home dad). My illness caused many issues that i didn't see until i was being treated for it. I now find myself looking for ways to win my wife back. She says she still loves me but has no feelings for me. I am not a social person, at least since i stopped drinking and devoted my self to my family. I am not sure what to do at this point. I am jealous of a a male friend she has, though she says it is only a friendship. She hasn't asked for a divorce,

Got This From My Sis Boo Wahooooooo Girls Read It Lmao Or Sing It Haha
Will Survive... SING IT GIRLS!!! At first I was afraid, I was petrified. When you said you had 10 inches, Lord I almost died! But I'd spent so many years just waiting for a man that long, That I grew strong, And I knew that I could take you on... But there you are, another lie, I was ready for a Big Mac and All you've brought was a French Fry! I should have known it Was bullshit, just your sad pathetic dream Should have known there was no Anaconda lurking deep within those jeans! Go on no w - go, ! Walk out the door, Don't you promise me 10 inches, then turn up with only 4! Weren't you a prick to think I wouldn't find out for myself!? Don't You know we're only joking when we say size don't count??!! [Chorus] I will survive! I will survive! Cuz as long as I have batteries, My sex life's gonna thrive! With a handful of latex and my friend with multi-speeds! I will survive! I will survive! Hey! Hey! It t

Why?
why do random guys keep rating my pics? this makes me a little nervous. i mean i appreciate the love but its still kind of weird. maybe im just sooo into myself that i think guys are trying to hit on me? oh well... lol. and how do i rate someones pic without visiting their page? please let me know!

Mumm Right Reinstated!
Well, my MuMM rights have been returned to me. Now that I have them, not sure if I want to use them...lol I am pretty sure that no matter how I follow the new rules, I am bound to lose them! I shall ponder!

I Dream Of Rainbows
As a little girl I could not quite understand why the world had to be black and white. I always saw a rainbow of colors, everyone called it dreaming, pretending. "Come down from there", "get your head out of clouds" "Face reality". "Need no one" "Love your life quickly, never trust a soul". Well....... I still Hear the trees talk to me, telling me their tales, Hear the wind calling me, caressing me, her child. I wonder if that babbling brook still laughs when the children swim. I still like to lay in the grass looking high above into the clouds, my arms stretching toward the heavens. Or walking barefoot in the mud. How fun to blow bubbles with a friend. To me it seems that the only thing changed are the people around me. They are older, ignorant, full of blind dreams, dying everday. Having forgottend that at one time they did know How to live. amawitch/2007

What Makes Witches Different?
Casting spells and wearing pentacles? No. It's deeper than that, more powerful, more revolutionary. It's The Goddess. Witchcraft is one of the many religions that recognizes divinity in feminine as well as masculine form. Witches are not monotheistic; they do not believe there is only one god who lives somewhere upstairs. To witches, divinity is multiple: God and Goddess. God in the sky, Goddess in the running water; God in the stag of the forest, Goddess in the birds of the air. Witches find divinity everywhere. In creating rituals and art and spells and poems, Withes draw from the great reservoir of human wisdom called mythology. For untold generations, people have created stores that describe how they perceive the Goddess. There are innumerable Goddesses, so many they cannot be counted. Goddesses of the sky and sun, of the moon and stars; Goddesses of the rivers and the ocean; Goddesses of birth, death, love, war; Goddesses of the doorstep and the harvest and the spinning whee

.... And Today We Say Fairwell
It's been a while since I have blogged, I guess I've not had much to say. Now I have something to say so here I am. On the 31st of March sometime between midnight and 2AM my grandmother (forever known to you as my Gaw Gaw) passed away. My mother finally made it into town on Friday and we met at my Gaw Gaw's house only to find other distant family members had made their way through to pick out what they wanted. I wont go into the nightmare this has been. On Friday my mother picked up my Gaw Gaw's ashes and today we released her into the Gulf of Mexico... it's as close to the ocean as I can get here in Houston, Texas. It was a simple ceremony... we read Psalms 23 and then released the ashes with some rose petals at the same time and then we sang Amazing Grace... a song that was last sang almost 12 years ago at my sister's funeral... but I digress. Today was simple, you know for my grandmother to be so lively the bag of ashes was small.... The life that lived was so grea

Its Over Now
what is this numbers in your pocket? I remember when you used to throw those things away why do you want to keep in touch now who gave you a reason to act so shady baby you know you can call me anytime anything you needed I would give it to you oow thats how much I care for you wanna act now never call me back now turning off your cell phone girl you know that ain't cool I dont understand baby baby its a shame we gotta go through this we cant even talk girl we don't even kiss I never would´ve thought we'de be breaking up like this but its over now its over now you think that I dont know whats going on cause your always home alone and I'm always out of town you need to stop trying to play me cause you cant even face me I know you're messin around baby you know you can call me anytime anything you needed I would give it to you oow thats how much I care for you wanna act now never call me back now turning off your cell phone girl you know that aint cool I

Modivation
The female of the pair:) Okay so I've been separated for over a year and I tried to play nice always Have two boys and 13 years of putting up with a man that procrastination could of drove the pope himself into cussing a fucker out. I have been dealing with the kids the paper work the damn house cars.Divorce etc by myself and After I move out on my own start to get settled ask this fucker when he is gong to find a job where he can spend time with his boys this fucker has nerve to come over Easter dinner eat not say thank you nothing,then come today with one motive to ask me can he do his laundry here so fine do the shit ha then he hands me his mail mmm why well yet again fucker is asking me for money and he is taking shit out in advances on his checks and giving me some shit that he didn't get paid because of holiday full of crap according to papers so I ask no answer then he informs me he is going to file bankrupt before divorce and if I don't get the papers or do it then

Just To Let You Know, If You Don't Know It Yet.....
I am the peak of evolution, someday everyone is going to be like me!!!! I am the ever so cute, lovable AMY.......and there is no baddness whatsoever.......(ok well maybe just a little) hahhaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha Do you see my super shiny, well polished halo??? hee hee :-) Buried at PhotoCasket.com

Last Rights.....first Damnation (continued Part 2)
The next night came in a blure his eyes opened to seeing her resting on his chest her smile let her duel needle like fangs show through. He smiled softly as she awoke looking into his eyes * mmmmm , babe you I have to say is my favorite vampire ive made damn good hunter and killer and wonderful in bed* he heard her say this and his smirk grew, his duel thick blunt fangs were full grown in. Like four blades they shined in the moonlight his eyes glimmered a deep red as a knock at the door broke the silence, she turned to the door * who the blazes is it , it better well be important* the door opened and in walked a submissive female vampiress* Madame LaCrue...the lycans have joined in partner ship with the hunter clan one of your safe houses was hit no one survived*. Madame LaCrue's face sunk as her eyes glew deep red of anger and hatred*was my sister there...Madame we dont know , her body wasnt seen though*, the madam paced the room noding * knowing my sister shes at the meat packing pla

The Top 10 Most Annoying Celebraties Alive Today
10. Pauly Shore As if having to put up with this guy’s annoying antics in the late ‘80s and early ‘90s wasn’t bad enough, and just when we thought we had finally gotten rid of the brainless fucker, now he’s attempting to make a comeback by poking fun at his old image in movies and on television. Hey, did you know Pauly Shore couldn’t act? Did you know he used to be famous for about a year? Did you know he was Jewish? Hahaha that’s so hilarious!! Let’s make an annoying, tasteless reality TV show based around his life with stereotypical Jewish ethnicity jokes! Because after all - when all else fails, it's always funny to make fun of Jews and failed acting careers! However, because he leads such a dull and repetitive lifestyle we’ll simply hire script writers to “spice some of it up” a bit with sex and crudity. Look, Pauly Shore is dead. Gone. Kaput. His career ended when his hairline began to recede – and he’s practically bald now. Stop trying to bring back The Weasel. Let hi

Mr Chows, Drunk, Truth, Cassie, All In The Past Week
Okay, trying to catch up on my activities. I need to blog this for future use (as in book) Went to Mr. Chows last week on Wednesday. Brittany wanted to introduce her new boy friend to her porn friends. Porno Dan and Angelica Sin. But they flaked. It figures, most porn people (not all) are flakes. Didn’t matter they missed out on a lot. Especially all the great food We did get to sit upstairs in the Rockstar room. Only reserved for the true superstars with power and money. No celebrity this night. We met a few friends and had a great time eating and drinking. I think the whole meal with drinks came out to over $2000.00 Sorry no pictures of Brittany's boy friend yet. All I can say he is a very powerful person in the banking industry. The paparazzi were after Brittany, snapping photos at her. I kept bothering them by asking what kind of camera they had. I became the paparazzi stalker and they were running away from me telling me to leave them a

Never Wonder
When you look at me - I wonder what you see, Am I the everything - You say you need, Am I the answer to your prayers - the one you look for in your dreams, Chorus: i don't want you to ever wonder - Don't let one doubt cross your mind, Always want you to be certain - you're in this heart of mine, so when I say I love you - i hope you can see, My heart open for you - Oh...run to me, Girl there's nothing - That could take your place, I see every thing i need - in yuor shining face, You give me hope when all is gone - It's your love, Your love keeps me hanging on, I don't know where I'd be - if you weren't with me, I thank the lord every day - You're next to me, i thank you every with all my heart - for the love you give to me.

Crush
Feeding off the skull crush Spitting bone into the air Wipe away dries blood crust Look at the tableau I’ve prepared Reach inside and touch thought Taste the ideas that might still be there Crack the cranium with a hair line fracture Consuming your ocular fluids improves my posture Teeth around neck proclaim the stature It’s time to put the sheep out to pasture Cast out the tongue that utters master Organize the tools that are scattered You have buckled Torn and tattered Your breath sputters Used and ragged Please sir can I have another? And while we’re at it all the leftovers Suck the meat right off the bones And mail your skeleton back home With a salutation and a thank you note And a compliment to the well reared stock

To Love Another
To love another, one must touch, the deepest of their soul To make a love that will last, one never to be stole To be best friends through good and bad, for all times won't be cheery To laugh and cry when we feel, for emotions never weary To have the sense to know what's wrong when anger may set in To have the knowledge to calm the nerves so nothing will begin To never lay your head at night, without a kiss goodnight To always wake with, " I love you " with the mornings light To always listen, with both ears when one is talking to you To always feel the pain they feel when something is askew To never under estimate the love between you both To always keep some open space for individual growth To always be a partner, and always to embrace To always be a person, when one needs some space To forever keep an open mind, when one makes mistakes To always try to understand, when one is made in haste To keep your love true to one, the one you love the most To keep your

~hellion~
I SIT HERE IN A DARKENED SPELL. LIKE A CASTED OUT DEMON.. FROM IT'S HELL.. HAVING EVIL THOUGHTS OF TORMENT.. WITHIN MY MIND.. NO WAY OUT-NO WHERE TO HIDE.... AS I SCREAM IN PAIN.. I CAN FELL THE BLOOD RUSH.. QUICKLY OUT MY VEINS.. LIKE THE RAIN OF UNSAVED SOULS.... MOURNING TO BE FREE..... MY DARKENED HEART.. CRIES ENDLESSLY.......

Fill Me Out
Fill this in 1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do you think we will be friends? 8. Do you love me? 9. Do you have a crush on me? 10. Would you kiss me? 11. Would you hug me? 12. Physically, what stands out? 13. Emotionally, what stands out? 14. Do you wish I was cooler? 15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 17. Am I loveable? 18. How long have you known me? 19. Describe me in one word. 20. What was your first impression? 21. Do you still think that way about me now? 22. What do you think my weakness is? 23. Do you think I'll get married? 24. What makes me happy? 25. What makes me sad? 26. What reminds you of me? 27. If you could give me anything what would it be? 28. How well do you know me? 29. When's the

With Feeling!
Tonight asks a question, you can almost hear it, is it something honest? is it a question with all sorts of meaning? WHAT WHAT? listen close, listen is it asking the meaning of the world? The meaning of your life. All ears, listen close, it could whisper now. Or not, this game could be empty, and all sounds could be meaningless, this could be nothing but echo and shadow. but listen listen, meaning could be anywhere, keep your ears open, for some sort of sound from anywhere. Maybe this time with meaning.

An Elemental Boudoir
With a fevered body and a molten heart, I inhabit my own elemental boudoir. I see it: a strange vision. The landscape is scorched and entirely carpeted with ash and soot from the constant forest fires and the rivers of lava which never cool enough to set. There’s no sun, no daylight, just the deep blood-red glow of a rich observing moon. The sky is heavy and brooding. It’s heavy with passion. My heart has become a world of its own and I’m crawling naked through its earth. I want to be covered in it. But I don’t want to be the only one writhing around on this carpet of soot. I’m on my hands and knees, burning. I’m looking into the woods in the distance - a colossal black forest of smouldering bare trees. I’m hoping to see something moving in the shadows - a wild creature with penetrating eyes that’s going to come and ravage my body and consume my soul. He’s going to murder me with his eyes and fuck me back to life. If I don’t see him, lurking in the blackness, I’m going

Shit Goes Wrong So Read The Words To My Song
LIFE CRASHES WHEN LOVE CLASHES HEARTS BURN TO ASHES DONT IT FEEL LIKE YOU JUST GOT BLASTED FROM THE PAIN YOU CANT TAKE NOR MAINTAIN THOUGHTS OF DEEP EMMOTIONS RUNNIN THROUGH UR BRAIN LIKE A DERAILED TRAIN HOW CAN ONE BE SAIN YET AND OR EXPLAIN THE MISTAKES HES MADE AND THE PRICE HES PAYED WHEN LOVE HAS NO PRICE BUT THE REST OF YOUR LIFE IS FILED WITH PAIN AND STRIF WITH A PERSON WHO ASKED TO BE YOUR WIFE 3 DAYS LATER TURNS TO SHIT AND YOU FEEL LIKE A BITCH NEVER BEEN HURT SAY YOU CANT FEEL PAIN SHIT THATS A LIE..AT LEAST THATS WHAT IM SAYIN AS TEARS FALL CRYING AGAINST THIS BATHROOM WALL STAREIN AT THE MIRROR WISHIN YOU GOT A CHANCE TO FEEL HER HOLD HER TOUCH HER SHOW HER YOU REALLY LOVE HER YOUR ONE TRUE LOVER SO YOU THOUGHT THEN YOU LOST IF THERES A GOD WHY IS HE A ASS AND MAKE YOU SUFFER FROM THE PAST MISTAKES ARE MADE NONES PERFECT..........

Subject:finally, The Blonde Joke To End All Blonde Jokes
...AND THE WINNER IS....... A blonde calls her boyfriend and says, "Please come over here and help me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle, and I can't figure out how to get it started." Her boyfriend asks, "What is it supposed to be when it's finished?" The blonde says, "According to the picture on the box, it's a tiger." Her boyfriend decides to go over and help with the puzzle. She lets him in, and shows him where she has the puzzle spread all over the table. He st udies the pieces for a moment, then looks at the box, then turns to her and says, "First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble these pieces into anything resembling a tiger." He takes her hand and says, "Second, I want you to relax. "Let's have a nice cup of tea, and then .." He sighed....... "Let's put all the Frosted Flakes back in the box......."

Erotica: Movie
It started out like any other date night, instructions for the babysitter, reminding the kids to behave. Laurie is stunning -- even as she points out where the emergency phone numbers are, I catch myself ogling her in that sexy new dress I picked out for Valentines Day. She's slender with a tight ass and ample D cups -- her pale skin and red hair have always been my downfall. We decide to eat dinner quickly and head directly for the movie theater. I notice a twinkle in Laurie's eye as she finishes her food and leans into me when she talks to me. She keeps pushing those beautiful breasts together, challenging me not to stare as we make conversation -- it takes all my strength. She knows how to control me. She usually has me get our standard popcorn, Raisinettes, and a coke -- but tonight she says no and ... there it is again, that twinkle. She visits the restroom and comes back just as the lights are lowering for the previews. Unexpectedly, she pushes something into my pocket. I

About Me!!
Hello All, My name is Jeana (pronounced Gina). I will make this short and to the point. I am a single mother of 3. I have been married 3 times, yes 3!! It's not like I just go around getting married because it's something to do. I have a problem with lazy stupid people and all of my ex's were lazy and stupid. You're probebly asking yourself "Why did you marry them then?" Well they didn't start off stupid and lazy, that came with time!!! I am also a lesbian, OMG, yes I said "Lesbian". I don't consider myself Bisexual, Most bi women still have or want to have a relationship with both men and women. Not me, I just prefer women. And I have not problem with bi people, be who you are and what you want to be is my thinking. I have been attracted to certain kinds of women (butch) since I was 18 but thought it was a "phase". I just got out of a 2 year relationship with a woman who fit in the stupid and lazy catagory. Sometimes men think I tell them I am a lesbian so they will leave me alone

Water Vs Coke
This was emailed to me & I just could not believe this..... Very interesting! So is it True or False? WATER #1. 75% of Americans are chronically dehydrated. (Likely applies to half the world population.) #2. In 37% of Americans, the thirst mechanism is so weak That it is mistaken for hunger, that's why so many people tend to over eat. #3. Even MILD dehydration will slow down one's metabolism as 3%. #4. One glass of water will shut down midnight hunger pangs For almost 100% of the dieters studied in a University of Washington study. #5. Lack of water, the #1 trigger of daytime fatigue. #6. Preliminary research indicates that 8-10 glasses of Water a day could significantly ease back and joint pain For up to 80% of sufferers. #7. A mere 2% drop in body water can trigger fuzzy short-term Memory, trouble with basic math, and difficulty focusing on The computer screen or on a printed page. #8. Drinking 5 glasses o

R.i.p.2004
(M) Cpl. Roberto Abad, age 22, died August 6, 2004 (A) Sgt. Brandon Edwin Adams, age 22, died September 19, 2004 (A) Spc. Clarence III Adams, age 28, died September 7, 2004 (A) 1st Lt. Michael Robert Adams, age 24, died March 16, 2004 (M) Lance Cpl. Patrick Ryan Adle, age 21, died June 29, 2004 (M) Lance Cpl. Christopher Scott Adlesperger, age 20, died December 9, 2004 (M) Lance Cpl. Jeramy Alan Ailes, age 22, died November 15, 2004 (A) Spc. Segun Frederick Akintade, age 34, died October 28, 2004 (M) Lance Cpl. Nickalous Neil Aldrich, age 21, died August 27, 2004 (M) Lance Cpl. Michael Jacob Allred, age 22, died September 6, 2004 (A) Capt. Eric Lewis Allton, age 34, died September 26, 2004 (M) Cpl. Nicanor Angel Alvarez, age 22, died August 21, 2004 (M) Cpl. Daniel Ray Amaya, age 22, died April 11, 2004 (A) Spc. John Douglas Amos, II age 20, died April 4, 2004 (A) Cpl. William Madden Amundson, Jr. age 21, died October 18, 2004 (F) Airman 1st Class Carl Lovetta Anderson,

R.i.p.2003-cont
F) Airman 1st Class Raymond Losano, age 24, died April 25, 2003 (A) Staff Sgt. David Leroy Loyd, age 44, died August 5, 2003 (A) Capt. Robert Lawrence Lucero, age 34, died September 25, 2003 (M) Lance Cpl. Gregory Edward Macdonald, age 29, died June 25, 2003 (A) Pfc. Vorn Jimmy Mack, age 19, died August 24, 2003 (M) Lance Cpl. Joseph Basil Maglione, age 22, died April 1, 2003 (A) Spc. William Joseph Maher, III age 35, died July 28, 2003 (F) Master Sgt. Michael Harry Maltz, age 42, died March 23, 2003 (A) Pfc. Pablo Manzano, age 19, died August 25, 2003 (M) Cpl. Douglas Jose Marencoreyes, age 28, died May 18, 2003 (A) Sgt.1st Class John Winston Marshall, age 50, died April 8, 2003 (A) Staff Sgt. Francisco Martinez, age 28, died November 4, 2003 (M) Lance Cpl. Francisco Abraham Martinezflores, age 21, died March 25, 2003 (A) Chief Warrant Ofc. Johnny Villareal Mata, age 35, died March 23, 2003 (M) Staff Sgt. Donald Charles May, Jr. age 31, died March 25, 2003 (A) Pfc. Jose

R.i.p. 2001-2002
A) Sgt. Thomas Ferrell Allison, age 22, died February 22, 2002 (A) Spc. Marc Anthony Anderson, age 30, died March 4, 2002 (F) Master Sgt. Evander Earl Andrews, age 36, died October 10, 2001 (M) Capt. Matthew William Bancroft, age 29, died January 9, 2002 (M) Lance Cpl. Bryan Pahl Bertrand, age 23, died January 9, 2002 (N) Chief Hospital Corpsman Matthew Joseph Bourgeois, age 35, died March 28, 2002 (M) Gunnery Sgt. Stephen Lamon Bryson, age 36, died January 9, 2002 (A) Spc. Curtiss Anthony Carter, age 25, died February 27, 2002 (F) Tech Sgt. John Allan Chapman, age 36, died March 5, 2002 (A) Sgt. 1st Class Nathan Ross Chapman, age 31, died January 4, 2002 (A) Sgt. Steven Checo, age 22, died December 21, 2002 (M) Staff Sgt.T Walter Francis Cohee, III age 26, died January 20, 2002 (A) Cpl. Matthew Allen Commons, age 21, died March 4, 2002 (F) Tech Sgt. Sean Mitchell Corlew, age 37, died June 12, 2002 (A) Staff Sgt. Brian Thomas Craig, age 27, died April 15, 2002 (A) Sgt. B

Being A Mother
BEING A MOTHER After 21 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to take another woman out to dinner and a movie. She said, "I love you, but I know this other woman loves you and would love to spend some time with you." The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my MOTHER, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it impossible to visit her only occasionally. That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie. "What's wrong, are you well," she asked? My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news. "I wanted to spend some time with you," I responded. "Just the two of us." She thought about it for a moment, and then said, "I would like that very much." That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up. I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date. She wai

About My Father.
Before I write what I think I'm about to write today, I thought I should post some background on what's going through my head right now. I wrote this in January of 2005. ..just after I found out that my father was fighting a losing battle with prostate cancer: For starters, I've been given permission by someone very special in my life to quote his wise words in this post because they are just so fitting at this moment. So, at least I'm giving credit where credit is due. So from the mouth of my friend, Kyle... *Why do we saintify people once they die? It's utter bullshit. In my mind, if you were a prick when you were alive you're still a prick once you're dead. People shouldn't be rewarded simply because their life ran it's course. It's not like they did some great thing to exonerate themselves from their past deeds. Their heart just fucking stopped. Woo Hoo, big fucking deal. That's like congratulating a baby for shitting itself.* Right now, I'm faced with the unenviable task

Friends & Fans
I just wanted to let everyone know that I will be deleting from my list. If I take the time to try to get to know someone....and get no response...I see no reason to have them on my friend's list. I'm here to make friends.....not win a popularity contest. Hope you understand. Take care!!

Release
The shadows have all gone, The pain has had flee, Leaving only what, Was ever meant to be. I see the world before me, And the light within. So with open eyes i now embrace, What i have never been. The sorrow that has held me, Drowning in despair, The tears that never ceased, But seemed to fill the air, Could my soul, No longer bare. And in their place before me, In the place i hold so dear Is the life that binds, The life i never knew was here!

Happy Inside My Head
Originally written 8/31/06 A husband. Two kids. A house in the semi-country, old, but in good repair, split-level maybe, or two story. Four bedrooms, two baths with a garden tub in the master bath. A kitchen with a center island, lots of counter space and old beautiful tile floors. A library with a large fireplace and wall to wall, floor to ceiling shelves. A huge wrap around, partially screened in porch. A five car garage, custom built, climate controlled. A pool in the back, with a Jacuzzi next to it. An orchard, a garden with vegetables, herbs and the most glorious blooms. Stables at the back with stunning Arabian horses, or maybe just your average sweet old quarter horses. At least two dogs running in the yard, a couple of cats sunning in the window sills. And a goat. How pastoral. Do I want these things? Hell yes. BUT...in that five car garage, I want these: 1956 Jaguar XK140 Roadster, 1970 Plymouth Barracuda (Yeah, that thing's got a Hemi), 1972 Camaro SS, 1934 Indian

The Tweety Incident
Well I'm feeling well chuffed with myself. At 1.30am this morn i was chasing my cat down the road cos he had a baby bird in his mouth. I didnt have a lot on just thong and t-shirt lmao anyone watching would have got a nasty surprise. Anyway managed after a couple of rude shouts and quick sweeps to the floor to get this squawking bird off my cat. Dusty was not happy lol. Got the bird indoors, it was frightened and injured, losing a small amount of blood. It was still quite feisty which i used to get some water in the creature knowing it would get dehydrated from shock. I placed the poor unfortunate creature in the only box available (My friends stella is now sat on the side lol) I put a terry towling sheet in the box with a small bowl of water and placed the box in the spare room window slightly open, cos my cats can get in the rooms using the back wall, with the door shut. All night long I dreamt about getting help in the dream it was difficult on waking i didnt find it that eas

Inspired By Ben
I was just readng a blog of a very old and dear friend of mine, i was about one perfect morning he had and i thought to my self...I remeber having a moment like this once. sad isnt it?.. in 29 years.. one moment.. when i can remeber the breeze on my shoulders..dancingover my collarbones..and the scent of clover and dandelions with their sweet aroma filling my head.. a moment of clarity... i remeber thinking.. is this what it feels like to be happy? are the meds working? For a moment i saw the sunshine for the first time as it kissed every blade of grass...colors of jade and celery... as i gazed in the rearveiw mirror at my children.. it was as if i was seeing their angellic faces for the first time.. gifts of beauty and innocence bestowed to me.... i smiled and told them i loved them..and saw the joy on their faces..and then like the waters of baptisum my tears in all their salty sweetness for one moment seemd to was things anew. In that moment i knew i was loved... purpose.... at las

Bbq At My New House!
Theres gonna be a Texas gathering in North Carolina. BBQ at my house on Saturday April 14th 2007. The plan so far is to cook out here at the house then head to "Cadillac Ranch" afterwards. Message me for details and directions.

First Purchase..
One of the things I love doing best is masturbating… it doesn’t take much to get me aroused and when I am, my juices start to flow and I get that very familiar clutching feeling in my belly that tells me I must do something to take care of my needs… NOW!!! Well, I am not always in the position to do anything with a partner, hence my dependence on masturbation. Until now, my technique was pretty basic, but effective… one finger on my clit and the other hand cupping my mound, and the whole thing done while lying in a prone position to increase the pressure on my groin area. There was always one problem though… I like… no…. I LOVE the idea and sensation of being FILLED… really filled by something… (can you all guess??) .. Sometimes I would slip a finger or two or three in my dripping cunt and fill myself that way but it too lacked a certain something. Well, another thing I like very much is the idea of being WATCHED when I masturbate by someone who really cares about me…. and so…. the

Crazy Dream 1
ok i found myself in mesa amc 24's courtyard. i was w/ annie, cody w/ risa, chanti, nickie, n alyss. the nicks (if some of u get confused whn i say that, the nicks r nick curtis and nick sargent) n kyle were there 2, but not w/ us. i turn away frm the conversation we were havin 2 c where they went 2, n i found nick c in a fight w/ this guy. i didnt kno this guys n im quite sure neither did the rest of us except the nicks n kyle. he was wearin a black bandana on his head with black pants n a red band t-shirt. anyway, they were yellin at each other, thn i c nick c reach in his pocket. i left annie n thm n rushed ovr, cuz i knew he was reachin 4 his big ass knife. i got there just in time b4 he pulled it out. "nick its not worth it," i said 2 him. "its not worth it. hes not worth it." thn i heard the guy say, "what the fuck did u just say?" i turned round calmly n replied, "i said ur not worth gettin him in trouble, n hes not worth gettin u in trouble." i went 2 finish up w/ nick c, but t

Down With Old Ppl.
First let me start off by saying that not all old ppl are bad. SOme of you that are grandparents are super cool and kick ass. Then there are some, mostly those that populate the NPR area here in FL, that suck massive ass. I dont understand why they feel that I am put on this earth to spoon feed them. I dont mind helping because that is my job but dont fucking blow up at me because you cant get your thumb out of your ass and deal with your own issues. I work in a pharmacy, for those of you that didnt know. Let me just tell you all right now it is not my job to call your insurance companies to figure out why they dont want to cover your meds. Ok if you want to know so fucking bad go home get on your phone and dial that lovely number on the back of your card that says customer service. My job is to take the script and fill it, Dont bitch at me for the price that YOUR INSURANCE is charging you. I do not make up your co pay. Now normally I dont mind giving an insurance company a call to try

Had To Post My Newest
Haunted by images of seductive eyes looks that left me with breathless surprise Stirring inside with unbridled lust Longing for the soulful eyes of trust Passion boils and the fever takes hold Makes me pronounce ever so bold All the things I long to do to you Know only those eyes of yours can do Pulling me in and holding in your trance To hold you and feel you in passions dance Two as one we grind out the release Only in your eyes will my soul find peace Needing you more every moment so true Lost in your eyes and belonging to you By R Thomas Dinsmore

Bored Shitless
i guess i am meant to type summi . well rebel over the road till friday im bored shitless . what else i dunno give me a clu , btw gurls make sure ya knickers aint in ya skirt when ya leave the loo and fellas check that embarrasing wet spot k ? lol lov yas sarah xxxx

To All My Lady Friends
TO ALL THE WOMEN OF CHERRY TAP WHO ARE MY FRIENDS,THIS POEM IS FOR YOU YOUR WOMEN WITH BEAUTY AND GRACE YOU GIVE YOUR HEART,SOUL AND FAITH YOUR SMILE IS WARM AS THE MORNING SUN IT BRIGHTENS THE DAY IN THE NICEST OF WAYS YOUR EYES SHINE LIKE SPARKLING WINE YOU HAVE A FLAME THAT NO ONE CAN CONTAIN YOU HAVE A DESIRE THAT I ADMIRE MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE FOR I HAVE FOUND YOUR HEARTS TO BE TRUE. MY DEAR FRIENDS YOU MEAN ALOT TO ME AND I THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR BEING MY FRIENDS

Moving
so lately after all the crap that has gone on with my ex and I the last year or so I decided that I wanted to move away and start over and start fresh. I called my attorney to find out about what i need to do before i move and found out that it's possible for my ex to keep me from moving away. I was very sad by this so i got up the nerve to call my ex n tell him i wanna sit down n talk n talk about me moving away and about the kids and such. Surprisingly enough he was understanding...granted he doesn't like the idea at all since I'll be moving to Florida but he's going to work with me and not fight me or give me a big hassle! So i've been sitting here all day racking my brain about what all i need to do to move and what i need to take care of and everything else. I can't even think straight I don't know what i need to do first and who i need to contact first and everything plus i gotta get around the money for the truck and gas and pack....one of the biggest things i hate about moving

#1
you know it bugged me that people would come on my page and rate a pic of mine a 4 or a 7. but 2 people just droped a 1 on my pic. stupid bastards. look if you don't like someones pic thats cool but you are trying to be insulting and you are just stupid get over your self. if you feel you have to rate a pic of me a 1 cool. i am not trying to date you so stasy the hell off my page.oh yeah late at night when you are whacking off to internet porn that is me laughing at you.

About My Blogs
my blogs are NOT intended to upset, offend, insult, or dig at anyone! get this in and through your heads!!!!! i write to vent and i am having a tough time right now dealing with my health and my life changes that are imminent!!!! IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT I WRITE THEN DON'T READ MY BLOGS!!

The Extent Of The Damage.
AIGHT, SO AS SOME OF YOU MAY KNOW, I RUN A VINTAGE MOVIE AND CULT VAULT VIDEO SHOP.RECENTLY IT GOT BROKEN INTO BY CRACKHEADS. NOW BACKGROUND IS THIS, I DISAPPEAR TO FLORIDA FOR A LITTLE BIT, WHILE I WAS AWAY ONE OF MY STORE EMPLOYEES THAT I THOUGHT WAS LOYAL, DECIDED TO LET HIS CRACKHEAD FRIENDS TALK HIM INTO DISARMING MY SECURITY SYSTEM SO THEY COULD JACK MERCHANDISE THAT THEY WOULDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH. LITTLE ABOUT MY SHOP. I'M SORTA LIKE AN AUCTION DEALER. VERY LITTLE IN MY SHOP IS DIRECT PRICED. I DEAL IN CLASSICS AND VINTAGE. MEANING I HAVE TO FIND DEALERS AND SUPPLIERS WHO CARRY THINGS I COULD NEVER BUY FULL PRICE. I GIVE THEM ABOUT 10PERCENT OF WHAT THE PRODUCT IS WORTH, SELL IT TO TRUE MOVIE FREAKS. THEY GET MOST OF THE CASH I GET A COULD PERCENTAGE. I DO THIS WITH POSTERS, DVD'S, VHS, EVEN STR8 FILM REELS. MOVIE PROPS, PRETTY MUCH ANYTHING A MOVIE JUNKY WOULD FIEND OVER. THESE FUCKS BROKE INTO MY SHOP STOLE THE DVD'S, COMPUTER, PLASMA SCREEN MONITORS, AND TRASHED ABOUT EVE

In His Arms ......tonight
Sighing, I dropped my babydoll jammies on the bed and walked, naked into the bathroom, where the shower was steaming up the mirror. Slender arms reach up and undo my hairclasp, sending auburn tresses cascading down my back. Sticking my tongue out at the mirror's image, I turned, pulling the white lace curtain back and slipped inside. Leaning my face into the warm spray, I close my eyes and think of him. Slowly, I turn to lean against the cool glass blocks, my body's heat sighing at the comforting coolness. I drop my head back as my hair teases my ass, soaking up the warm water. Twisting my hair over one smooth shoulder, I lean down to pick up a bar of french milled soap, lightly scented, and slowly soap one long leg and then the other. My hands move between my legs, laving my pussy and then up over my belly, leaving a wet, soapy trail of fragrant suds. Closing my eyes, my hands move over my breasts, leisurely soaping them, rosy nipples hardening to the touch. Turning, dropping

Just Need An God Answer
how come nice guys finish last. when woman say your a nice guy somtimes i feel that is there way of saying your a loser i want the thug guy. what is it about nice guys that woman dont like is it that we treat you woman to nice and you are not use to it. i just kinda wanted an explaintion cause nice guys need to be first and not last on the list like the caveman

Woman's Care Garden
Woman's Care Garden - Plus Herbal Remedie Recipes Adapted from Herbal Remedy Gardens, by Dorie Byers. These plants are beautiful when grouped together, and will provide women with some of the remedies they need. The woman's care garden features potted herbs in willow or twig baskets of the appropriate size, placed in front of ground-planted fennel. One container holds the lemon balm and chamomile plants, the other contains the red clover. You can place Spanish moss on the surface and edges of each container that is nested in its basket to blend the edges and enhance the serenity of this spot. Container Garden Plants 3 fennel 1 lemon balm 7 German chamomile 1 red clover Here are recipes with which to use your herbs: MONTHLY RELIEF TEA Drinking this infusion will help relieve menstrual cramps, but take no more than 2-3 cups a day 2 teaspoons dried lemon-balm leaves 1 cup boiling water Steep the leaves in the boiling water, covered, for 10 to 15 minutes. Strain, th

~~lost & Found~~
I know most of you are dog lovers and will help us. Our neighbor has lost her Chihuahua and is desperate to find him. She does a lot of traveling and always takes her dog with her. Yesterday, she was sitting on the couch watching TV. She called out for her puppy with no response, and the back door was open. She has been putting up signs everywhere. If you see this dog, please let me know and I will notify her. Your help would be greatly appreciated.

Update With Babyjesus
Well, I went to find him on my friends list so I could see if my comment was still up there....GONE! Both him as my "friend" and my comment on his page. I know it was up there for about an hour though. So I'm under the assumption that he read it, deleted it, got rid of me on his friends list (no big loss there), probably blocked me so I can't post any more comments on there. But I think just because he deleted it and I'm still here, my account, for the time being, is safe. I guess that was his reply. Maybe he didn't delete my account because by the time he saw it, he saw the time it was done and realized too many people might have seen it and if he deleted me a mutiny of sorts might happen. Dunno. But I honor his deleting of being his "friend", friends don't delete other friends for voicing opinions. As I do appreciate all he's done, he is getting PAID to do this site and that doesn't make him GOD. Although now this site is going to hell in a handbasket as we speak. My 2 cents

Hmmmm....
I was listening to George Carlin earlier tonight, and I was wondering something.... Has anyone figured out yet that about 90% of what he says about his observations on life are right? For example.... Quote: "War is just a big prick waving dick fight... which is why all the bombs are shaped like dicks" You and I both know that it's aerodynamic... but.. have you noticed, that the shape... looks like a dick with wings? lol. "You don't need to be an expert in foreign policy to see, 'what? they have bigger dicks? bomb them!'" This year is his 50th in comedy and he turns 83ish, and he's still going... And he'll be around forever... and ever... and ever... because he doesn't believe in god... he believes in something he likes to call.. "The Big Electron... whoa...... whoa......" "It doesn't judge, it doesn't hate...." And always remember... he DID revise the list of the 10 commandments to 2... "Always be honest and faithful to the provider of thy nookie... and always try real har

Opening Up
I sleep at night with my hands in fists I've closed off my heart as well but there seems to be something about you like some wizard whose cast a spell. With patient determination you gently pry open my cell just one little finger at a time you pull me up from my hell. I do not understand you an enigma you seem to be like a puzzle I've yet to finish before I'll be able to see. Is it too much for me to hope for that this may in fact be love? I'm tired of being crushed and hurt by charmers devoid of the concept of love. We who believe there's love so true when no one is judged as un "fair". Life is not always as we planned it but bourne by two is easier to bear One can trust the other like a stoic column bare the brunt of all frustrations as honesty and truth's what they share. Equal partners in this odyssey faced with many ups and downs the sorrows, joy and successes when your true love you have found. You become more than the self you see you become more t

Low Raters, Pt 2
Okay, youknow what's REALLY sad? when someone can't even rate a salute at least an 8. It takes a lot of balls (or tits) to admit that you're a real person. Now... as for rates... I have YET to rate a salute anything lower than a 10. Nor have I rated anything else lower than a 10. And of course... "Remember to put all tray tables to their full and upright position." "Fine... who's going to put this guy in the Grateful Dead shirt and fuck you hat to his?"

~~only At K-mart~~
A woman went to a K-Mart service counter and told the clerk she wanted a refund for the toaster she bought because it won't work. The clerk told her that he can't give her a refund because she bought it on special. Suddenly, the woman threw her arms up in the air and started screaming, "PINCH MY NIPPLES, PINCH MY NIPPLES, PINCH MY NIPPLES!!!!!!" The befuddled clerk ran away to get the store manager in front of a growing crowd of customers. The manager comes to the woman and asks,"Ma'am what's wrong?" She explained the problem with the toaster, and he also told her that he can't give her a refund because she bought it on special. Once again, the woman throws her arms up in the air and screamed, "PINCH MY NIPPLES, PINCH MY NIPPLES, PINCH MY NIPPLES!!!" and doing so draws an even bigger crowd! In shock, the store manager pleads, "Ma'am, why are you saying that?" In a huff, the woman says, "BECAUSE, I LIKE TO HAVE MY NIPPLES PINCHED WHEN

Carlin, Pt 2
Okay.. more Carlin quotes.... "I've got just the place for low cost housing. I have solved this problem. I know where we can build housing for the homeless. Golf Courses. Perfect. Golf courses. Just what we need. Just what we need. Plenty of land, in good neighborhoods. Land that is currently being wasted on a meaningless, mindless activity. Engaged in, engaged in primarily by white well to do male businessmen, who use the game to get together to make deals to carve this country up a little finer among themselves."

Did You Get Your Cd Yet????
HELLYEAH, the new band featuring former PANTERA/DAMAGEPLAN drummer Vinnie Paul Abbott alongside members of MUDVAYNE and NOTHINGFACE, will hit the road beginning around May 20 with dates in the U.S. before heading over to Australia and making its way to England for an appearance at this year's Download festival. In a live interview that was broadcast Monday night (April 9) on the nationally syndicated radio show "Rockline", HELLYEAH bassist Jerry Montano (also of NOTHINGFACE) stated about the group's plans, "It's looking like we're gonna be hitting the road around May 20. Looks like it's upstate New York, and kind of coming all the way down through Ohio and down back to Texas. So we're gonna be out for a few weeks — maybe two and a half weeks — before we had over to Australia, the Download festival [at Doninton Park in England] and maybe another club date in London and then back here for [the] Family Values [tour]. So we're gonna be out doing it up." As previously reported, HELLYEAH

Pain...
Everyday struggles are starting to overwhelm me Stress is taking over my mind And i'm starting to believe that hell is for me And I have no place to confide... I can't do my job, and school is too rough I feel like there is no way out And I try to overcome, but its becoming too tough And failure seems more than a doubt... Why won't someone just come to my rescue Please don't leave me all alone If the tables were turned, I swear I would help you Please... I can't do this on my own... Then one morning, my good friend reminded me In order to acheive pleasure, there is pain And despite the pain, you can can always confide in me Becuase our friendship will never change... Now that didnt fix all my problems But one thing did become plain That I'm not alone in trying to solve them And that reduced some of my pain... -Nemesis the Nazerene- www.myspace.com/nemesis1979

My Grandpa
Okay so my Grandpas hip replacement surgery is this Friday the 13th.. Im going to Colorado, leaving Wednesday morning/afternoonish driving with my sister. Grandpa has now a 10% chance of survival instead of 0.. better then nothing but Im not keeping my hopes up. like I said hes made his peace with the world, he had NO regrets. Still, it feels like we are all going up to watch him die. My Grandpa, who for the past... as long as I can remember the Dr's telling him he wouldnt last past Christmas.. and hes still here. Hes been clinically dead 2 or 3 times, but is only aware of 1. Hes a fighter, but I think this time, he won't put up a fight. This is so hard, especially on my Dad. on all of us really, but my dad never really shows emotions all that much, although Grandpa ALWAYS said "A persons strength is not determined by their tears" who always shows his happiness and sadness the same. At any rate.. please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. I appreciate all of

Love Comes And Loves Goes
love comes and love goes just like the fragrance on the petal of a rose, some love is true and will last for all time. When is it time to let go, is it when they tell you that they still want to be with a love from the past? Is that their love that will last? Will that love that you have for then ever go away? can you still be friends like you were in the day? Will love ever come again? when will you know? how will you know, if you ever will find that special person that will love you for you and still be your friend?

Walking Talking Rainbows
how can we really know anyone is it possible perhaps we can glimpse a spark of who he is and was or who she wants to be but as a whole we are part invisible because we aren't legos you can't build solid transparent color spectrums walking talking rainbows we can't even see ourselves for long constantly changing winding in the wind spiraling until the wind is hushed and our breath held captive and we see us its beautiful scary ugly peaceful and every other good and bad thing but always magnificent

Missing You!
tonite i have thought alot about my father. how i am so much like him and how he wanted so much for me to succeed. i see myself slipping away from who i am to someone who is very closed to the world. how can you be so close to someone? its nothing like having a spouse that you love. this that i found fits: Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from Sexi Luv.com

*omg.. Its Pretty Acurate 4a Freakin Blog Meme*
The Part of You That No One Sees You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful. What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

Geek.
mc chris. They dissipate the pungent odor of a power holder. Sand kickers comin’ sixty clicks upon the sonar. They’re gonna fold me over like a trapper keeper folder. If this was D&D, you’d see me jump into a portal. I’m a geek, spelled g double e k. I meet my boys in the basement about every day. Card table, comic books, and cans of coke. That we blow out our nose after a Star Wars joke. We got style. Tape on our glasses, zits on our faces and hair on our asses. Shiny shoes, belt buckles and pocket protectors. Tricked out back packs like my main man Venkman’s. We got problems, namely the jocks. The SUV suckers with class rings on their cocks. Otherwise known as the motherfuckers touchin' the tit. If I was Wolverine, you’d hear my knuckles go "snikt". I’m not perfect, the before picture of Peter Parker. I always trip and drop my tray in front of the girl that always sparkles. I got brains, fuck B’s and C’s. I got a grade point average higher than Hendrix on New Ye

Wrath.
?? Which Of The Seven Deadly Sins Are You ?? You are Wrath/Anger!Wow... who got you so mad huh ?? You have serious anger issues!! with a rage that seems somewhat deadly, and a temper that is easily raised, you are by far the scariest sin. You tend to let the little things get to you, and are stressed fairly easily - and woe be it to any of your enemies. On the positive side, you're independent, powerful and a definite leader, if you could just control your moods!Congratulations on being the toughest!! ...and the most independent of all the 7 deadly sins!Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

Oh, Brother!
Some of you have noticed my blogs tend to be warnings and bitchings about people making demands regarding my NSFW pix. There is a reason they are there. Yes, I do have NSFW pictures and yes I do post them. Yes, I do make a good deal of money as a fetish model and am a bit of an exhibitionist. Yes, I do post the images to help out some of my buds and have no problem or hang-ups about doing so...to a point. Many times, especially of late, people have been rude about it. I chalk it up to "they know now with whom they deal". You see, Im a bitch when it comes to being pushed around. Push me and you are apt to find yourself on your ass, quickly, figuratively speaking, of course. I accept pretty much all friends, unless their profile sends out psycho/stalker/scary vibes. I am happy to accept people as people just fascinate the hell out of me. In fact, I consider myself to be quite the people expert. However, I take no bullshit from anyone, male or female. I wont tolerate being lied t

Last Day On Here
while may dear ct friends today is my last day on ct for a while. iam leaveing tomm morning for my back surgery. wish me luck. ill try to come back on here as soon as i can. take care of your selfs and be safe love you all..

More On My Health
WELL THEY DID X-RAYS ON MY NECK. IT WILL TAKE 3-4 DAYS TO GET THE RESULTS BACK. MY DOCTOR GAVE ME 2 PERSCRIPTIONS. ONE TO KEEP THE SWELLING DOWN AND ANOTHER FOR PAIN. ONE IS A STERIOD AND THE OTHER IS NAPROXEN. I THINK. LOL THE ONE FOR PAIN MAKES ME SLEEPY. I GO BACK TO THE DOCTOR IN 14 DAYS TO SEE HOW THE MEDS ARE DOING AND SEE WHAT THE X-RAYS SHOW. IF THEY CANT SEE MUCH THEN I WILL HAVE TO GO FOR A MRI. I JUST HOPE THEY CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT IS WRONG SOON. NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO MAYBE HAVING SURGERY. WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW MORE WHEN I FIND OUT. TY FOR YOUR PRAYERS. BIG HUGS

Deployed Again
Well the time in Qatar was fun, looking back on it. I made a lot of friends and had a good time just being me. Now it is time to serve once again. I am sitting in the airport in Istanbul, Turkey. I will move forward from here to Tajikistan for one year. It sure seems like a very long time. I love the USA and I am going to miss it!

Blonde
A blonde walks into a pharmacy and asks the assistant for some rectum deodorant. The pharmacist, a little bemused, explains to the woman they don't sell rectum deodorant, and never have. Unfazed, the blonde assures the pharmacist that she has been buying the stuff from this store on a regular basis and would like some more. "I'm sorry," says the pharmacist, "we don't have any." "But, I always buy it here," says the blonde. "Do you have the container that it came in?" asks the pharmacist. "Yes," said the blonde, "I'll go home and get it." She returns with the container and hands it to the pharmacist who looks at it and says to her, "This is just a normal stick of underarm deodorant." Annoyed, the blonde snatches the deodorant back and reads out loud from the container........."TO APPLY, PUSH UP BOTTOM." -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- TV dinner still cooling?

Nasty Black Toothed Bitch!!
I AM PISSED. I AM WRITING THIS ABOUT THIS WELFARE COLLECTING, BLACK TOOTHED WRINKLE FACED BITCH THAT LIVES UP THE STREET FROM US. THIS "WOMAN" {AND I USE THAT TERM VERY LOOSELY} HAS GOT ME SO FREAKING MAD THAT I COULD SPIT NAILS! MY DAUGHTER AND HER DAUGHTER ARE NOT GETTING ALONG. THIS WOMAN INSISTS UPON CALLING THE POLICE FOR EVERY LITTLE THING THAT GOES ON. iF YOU FART AROUND HER , SHE WILL CALL THE POLICE! WELL MIRANDA AND HER FRIEND WERE UP THE STREET PLAYING, AND I WILL CALL THIS WOMANS DAUGHTER "TIFFANY" WELL TIFFANY CALLS MIRANDA AND HER FRIEND LESBIANS, AND TELLS THEM THAT SHE THINKS THEY ARE ALL COOL..... THEN MIRANDA AND HER FRIEND ARE WALKING PAST THIS GIRLS HOUSE AND MIRANDAS FRIEND THROWS A PIECE OF BUBBLE GUM AT HER HOUSE. WELL THE PARENTS COME OUT SCREAMING AND CARRYING ON, AND I TOLD MIRANDA, "THEY ARE GONNA CALL THE COPS ON YOU!!". WELL I WENT TO MY MOMS, CAME HOME, AND SURE ENOUGH, POLICE WERE ALL OVER THE OUTSIDE OF MY HOUSE. I GOT OUT AND ASK THE OFFICER WHAT WAS GO

Do's And Donts Of Throwing The First Pitch
Hello there, national leader, foreign dignitary, celebrity or hometown man who managed to survive while trapped in a drainage pipe! You've been chosen to throw out the first pitch at a Major, Minor or Little League baseball game! Good for you! But there's more that you need to know than just how to gnaw on a sunflower seed and where the best places are to grab your crotch. Baseball fans place a lot of confidence in their first-pitch throwers, and you've got to live up to it, unless you want to get pelted with the small novelty bats that they handed to all 40,000 people at the door. So listen up, Mr./Mrs. President/Ambassador/Oscar winner/shlub. Your reputation depends on it. Step 1: KNOW WHERE YOU ARE A few things that you can rest assured of without much worry: You will be at a baseball game inside a baseball stadium. Dress appropriately. (Water polo gear is not considered appropriate.) The stadium will likely be in a somewhat large metropolitan area, so you'll want to

Fucking Sick Of The Tears
After tears, talking, thinking, I've come to realize, don't hold on to hope, hope is bullshit. when you're down and out, and everything sucks, you try to hold on to, the one good thing going. But then it breaks. and crumbles away like everything else in my life. without notice, without explination. without anything to deal. Sobriety sucks, no more prescription relief, no alcohol to drink, no razors to cut. I want so badly to bleed It's been over a year. I want to get rid of this pain. I just want to feel. I'm hated by all, Ive lost all my friends, the only two things that are here are my notebook and pen. I write down my feelings, but they always seem fake. Like "I Love my Life!" When its life I can't take. I want to be whole, I want to be happy again... but all hope is lost, fuck it all. I'll lie here in bed, burn down a cigarette, lay down my head, and dream those dreams, wasted away thoughts, wasted away words, people think they understand, yet

Nothing Feels
NOTHING FEELS NOTHING FEELS AS GOOD AS YOUR LOVE YOUR WARM LIPS MELTING INTO MINE. TONGUES TANGLED,DARTING ROAMING TASTING ANY INCH OF YOU IS PURE ECSTASY TO ALL MY SENSES. ONLY WITH YOU DO I FEEL COMPLETELY ALIVE I CAN FEEL EVERY CELL IN MY BODY AWAKEN. EVERY FEELING IN MY HEART BURST FORWARD FOR ALL I WANT TO DO IS SHARE EVER OUNCE OF MY LOVE FOR YOU WITH YOU. EVERY WORD THAT CROSSES MY MIND I WANT TO SHARE THEM WITH YOUR HEART FOR YOU TO FEEL WHAT I FEEL FOR YOU ALWAYS.NEVER FOR YOU TO DOUBT IF I HAD THE POWER EVEN BEYOND DEATH I WOULD GIVE THIS LOVE TO YOU. NEVER HAVE I WANTED TO MELT INTO SOMEONE AND STAY ALWAYS AS I DO WITH YOU TOMARAN.FLESH BECOMING ONE MY HEART NESTLED INSIDE OF YOURS MY BONES SEARED INTO YOURS MY MIND OPEN TO YOU SO YOU'LL READ MY MIND AND KNOW THAT NOTHING FEELS LIKE YOUR LOVE.MY HEART BLENDING INTO YOURS AND POUNDING FOR THE TWO OF US SIMULTANEOUSLY FOREVER UNTIL IT STOPS ONE DAY AND EXPLODES INTO THE ATMOSPHERE AND OUR SOULS INTE

Spoiled Brats
Made in the USA: Spoiled brats The other day I was reading Newsweek magazine and came across some poll data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true given the source, right? The Newsweek poll alleges that 67 percent of Americans are unhappy with the direction the country is headed and 69 percent of the country is unhappy with the performance of the president. In essence 2/3s of the citizenry just ain'thappy and want a change. So being the knuckle dragger I am, I starting thinking, ''What we are so unhappy about?'' Is it that we have electricity and running water 24 hours a day, 7 days a week? Is our unhappiness the result of having air conditioning in the summer and heating in the winter? Could it be that 95.4 percent of these unhappy folks have a job? Maybe it is the ability to walk into a grocery store at any time and see more food in moments than Darfur has seen in the last year? Maybe it is the ability to drive from the Pacific Ocean to the Atl

Please Help Me!!!
http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=637585&i=1710487511 Mothers day contest starts Thursday April 12th at 6pm Pacific... Please bomb the crap outta me I can't afford a blast otherwise and I really want one *sniffle* lol... Please?! *licklicklick*

I'm Lemon Meringue
THIS IS INTERESTING........ If all of the desserts listed below were sitting in front of you, which would you choose. (you can only pick one!) DARN!!! Trust me... this is reputed to be very accurate. Pick your dessert; then look to see what psychiatrists think about you. After taking this dessert personality test, send this e-mail on to others, but when you do, be sure to put your choice of dessert in the subject box above. ALSO, SEND IT TO THE PERSON WHO SENT IT TO YOU. Here are your choices: 1. Angel Food Cake 2. Brownies 3. Lemon Meringue 4. Vanilla cake with Chocolate Icing 5. Strawberry Short Cake 6. Chocolate on Chocolate 7. Ice Cream 8. Carrot Cake No, you can't change your mind once you scroll down, so think carefully what your choice will be.... OK - Now that you've made your choice this is what research says about you...

Comment Bombers Needed
http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=637585&i=1710487511 Mothers day contest starts Thursday April 12th at 6pm Pacific... Please bomb the crap outta me I can't afford a blast otherwise and I really want one *sniffle* lol... Please?! *licklicklick* My Sweet Friend Piper is running in a Mothers Day contest starts tomorrow afternoon.I will be Bombing for her,from Thrusday afternoon till sometime Friday.Unfortunately I won't be around my Birthday weekend.So I'm seeking Volunteers to relieve me.This Contest is very Important for Piper an her beig a member of my Familly,it's very important for me as well.Thanks

Woo Hoo!
You Are Corona You don't drink for the love of beer. You drink to get drunk. You prefer a very light, very smooth beer. A beer that's hardly a beer at all. And while you make not like the taste of beer, you like the feeling of being drunk. You drink early and often. Sometimes with friends. Sometimes alone. All the party needs is you! What's Your Beer Personality?

Things Dumbasses Do On Cherrytap - Not Myspace!
Things Dumbasses Do On CherryTap - Not Myspace! One: Put so much crap on their profile that it is difficult to read, rate, or comment, and sometimes just crashes browsers and/or computers all together. It's called a stash, you get points for it, use it! Two: Throwing a giant fit and leaving. That's so middle school. Three: Having "rate me" and such in your username. Well, duh, it's CherryTap. Rating is what we do! But I bet no one would have thought of it if you had not reminded them! Four: Put private pictures in the middle of public folders. Your viewers can SEE the thumbnail, but we click on it and it says, "Sorry, this is private!" and you're stuck going back to the original gallery. I personally just close it and find someone else to rate. Five: Post/Repost bulletins that say, "Repost this or get off my friends list!". Fucking hell. I delete everyone who post those, even friends I talk to on a regular basis. I'm not here to be threatened! I accept just about ev

A Long Dirt Road
A Long Dirt Road By Cursed Cowboy A road less traveled is a road filled with meaning, Empty yet full with no one there. Everyone uses it but no one sees it, Its only there because we make it. Its never easy nor is it quick, for some who dare to make it. Its a road fill with hurt and pain, But for some love and joy. I choose the road less traveled, for I know I am safe there. Why do I dare to tread on this ground, For I ask myself why do I need this pain? It would have been better to take the easy road, Be happy and live my life with contentment. But I chose to take this road, For the ground come up to meet me with every step I take. It helps along catching me if I fall, Some times it hurt and makes me bleed, But I love this road because it understands me. This Road I speak of we all know, We travel it every where we go. I love this Road of life.

Personality Profile
(Originally Posted on August 2, 2006)Last night I was reading a book called Games For Naughty People by Brian Pillham. One of the games is called something like "How Much?" In it, three people have to guess how much it would take for a fourth to perform some act. Whoever gets closest without going over would win.In the sample list of questions, there were a couple of entries that would definitely distinguish me from most other people. One was, "How much would it take for you to masturbate in front of everybody here?"Here's the deal. One (well, a few) of my first sexual experiences were with prostitutes on a rotating stage in front of a crowd of horny Asians. I have gone to a nudist resort and, when I dreamed I was in my underwear in front of a large crowd, I pulled them down a bit to give people a better view of my ass. My wife and I have had sex outside. You could say there's a bit of an exhibitionist in me. I figure I'd do this for about $20-30 or so.On the other hand, anoth

Jealousy And Ratings.......grow Up
i have NEVER ever gave a bad rating to anyone on cherrytap. but i have came to believe there are a few insecure people out there that (now this is just my opinion ok) if u go to a site's profile page rate it,fan it or whatever it....u have the little "groupies" like piggyback cookies on whoevers site u rate, ready to pounce on u like shit on a stick. because here they come rating ur profile a 1, pics all 1's leaving u thinkin like what the freak!!!! SOoooooooooooooo groupie piggyback cookie people....if u rate this blog a 1 go ahead ur only rating urself. hehe

Prejudiced People
(Originally Posted on August 7, 2006)One thing that I have had to deal with for a long time is prejudice against my way of life. And I am not even talking about Satanism.I am a man who couldn't care less about sports. I don't like cutting the grass. I watch cartoons. I read constantly. I am bisexual (but not "practicing" right now; my wife and I are faithful to each other (although we are looking into starting swinging together)). Most people know I don't believe in their imaginary friend (Jehovah, Jesus, Allah, Buddha, etc).I have had to learn to find who I can trust with my deepest secrets. And there is nobody except my wife that I can tell everything.It's building up like a bubble ready to burst.And yet I know I can't tell the people around me anything like I want to. If I did, I'd suffer consequences I can't afford yet.Heck, if I went and egged the front door of a church-goer, I'd be hauled in on a hate crime. Yet I believe that if a church-goer came and trashed my car, I'

How Ive Felt Lately
I'm so Hidden and you're never gonna see I'm cold Forgiven all because of my beliefs I'm no Body that you ever wanna be Cause I know that the world is afraid of me [Monoxide Child] Now you can try to sedate me, assassinate or just hate me But there's nothing that you can do to me lately Now I'm greatly accepted in the mind so I'm confused and intertwined From being rejected so many times, I wanna leave it all behind So kind of you to pick up the album and give it a try for once And run and tell your homies that these motherfuckers will die for us So many questions, fingers pointing for answers Suggesting that I'm the cancer that lingers inside the pasture With green grass up to my neck, and situations that's too fast To think about and most people can't dream about A hundred million miles and every single second And every time you hear this record I want you to feel me on every sentence Reminisce from descendants of past treasures We'll embark o

Dreaming Again
Season of lust , our desires flow I think of us and the feelings grow Stronger and deeper than either knew Because of the soul connection with you Being so joined thought so far apart You live in my dreams and in my heart Dreams of passion and dreams that give All of my thoughts and desires live In the moments that we alone share Lost in the desire to be with you there To hold you and kiss you and be yours divine To know I am yours and you are mine Lasting as one and lusting our desire We are connect as one and build the fire That has forged us to be forever one soul Knowing that in love we grew to be whole You and I share one love dream true Loving and living our whole life new By R. Thomas Dinsmore What if we had never met Would you know me even yet Would you hear my souls longing call Would you long beyond all recall For the love we both had never known For the type of love that is so naturally grown That blossoms without effort and is true That m

Being Apart
BEING APART I think about you being so very far away, and my heart feels as though it will break. The deep love I have swells up inside me, and being apart becomes too much to take. I long to reach out and hold you so close, and feel your loving arms also around me. But my outstretched arms can clasp only air, and I feel cheated from you by the dividing sea. It's so very hard being this far apart from you; not even to see the beauty of your smile. If love was all that I needed to swim to you, I'd have more than enough love, for every mile. My heart aches from wanting to be with you, and to share this beautiful love we both feel. I hold on to knowing our day will soon come, and all of our dreams made, will become real.

My Friend Wrote This 4 Me
These times we find outselves we question ourselves was it all a waste? we try to cling to those moments which make us smile and yet we still wonder why not sure where to turn who is gonna care? who will show us the way? A shattered heart a fragile soul for those who wear their hearts up on their sleeves we need to find our path out of these woods find the opening seek the light and ye shall find. what you will find is up to you and you alone there is no one to take your hand and guide you along your road as hard as it may be the question for you is Is it meant to be like this? when will it turn around? when will you decide to stand and fight for yourself, and not the weak hearted fools that destroy us, and bring us down. They shake our branches for the fruits of our souls, and lives all that we work for all that we are. taken and plucked from our branches. as though they are free, and there is no cost. little do

Well Lo And Behold... I'm Kinky!!!!
I did one of those Quiz/Survey things and what a surprise... it said I was kinky. What do I consider kinky? Nunya. That's for me to know and for you to maybe find out if you happen to be the solid gold kewpie doll winner.

Book, Please Check This Out.
Author: Irma Louise Chase-Sholes (RIP) Front Back Entire painting by my Uncle Charles (RIP) I have blogged a few of her poems also. A journey, through poetry and verse written by my Grandmother to her children and loved ones, she wrote of the seasons, her emotions and feelings, relationships, and life. This collection of poetry has helped me to get to know my Grandmother, even though she passed away a year before I was born. Since publishing this book and passing it on to my loved ones I have decided that my Gramma would want me to share her work with the world and use it for good things. That being said, I am going to donate all the royalties from the sales of this book to the American Cancer Society, as well as to the research of the cause and cure for Alzheimer's Disease. I have chosen these research groups due to the fact that I lost my Father and Uncle to Mesothelioma and also I have several relatives that are stricken with Alzheimer's Disease. I know that

Theres A Few Peoples
On My Family List In Which I Will Be Removing Do To Them Not Showing Love And Or Rating My Shit When Posted,,, These Are People Who Should Mean The World To You However They Don't Look At You In The Same Way,,, I Will Not Be Adding Anymore To My List Untill I'm Sure That Whomever I Do Add Is Worthy Enough,,, Yes I Know This Some What Sounds Bad But Hey I've Done My Fair Share In Showing All The Love In The World To Ya'll,, Anyways Love You Guys Much And Do Hope To Hear From Ya Soon Till Then Have A Wonderful Day.... ~ Jaime ~

My Song
Anyone who has been on my list since the beginning knows this was my first CT song on my profile and the song is totally me. Mercy don't think she's pretty no more Staring at the stars through her back screen door She tries and tries to make it all work out No matter what she does She's left standin in the middle of doubt CHORUS In a lonely night And in the pourin rain You can count on me Sometimes she cries When shes alone at night Sometimes she weeps When she's feeling cold and weak Sometimes the pain It tears her up inside Sometimes she cries Ooh, I wonder why Mercy don't have a love no more Plays with her pillow Stares at the bedroom floor Used to have a million They've come and gone No matter what she does She can't figure out what she's doin' wrong CHORUS Living, loving, give it everything you've got After all the heartache Maybe give love just one more shot, yeah In a lonely night And in the pourin rain The only thing I really wanna k

Drift
driving home tonight, the fight is futile... i see the bluish gray black of the clouds as they roll in from the north... ready to rain down on me. torrid rage that rips me, the crash of the thunder within my soul... this was a long time coming... the swirling winds lift me up, opening my eyes to the light... break me wide open, let my heart ache for this moment, the moment i came alive for the storm.

Inner Pain
I wrote this for a friend that is like a sister to me basically and it was my way of saying you are not alone. Understand that people care. Understand that they will be there. You are not alone in this battle you fight. Dont ever give up. Just get through the night. Youve been through a lot. Its not hard to see. The sadness in your words remind me of me. I too at one time felt sorrow and pain. The sun was removed and all I found was rain. You have what it takes to make it on through. Youve got your sister and me. We are here for you. In a word or a hug. The gesture is shown. Know in your heart. You are far from alone. Right now is a test to see what you need. Find it within. Eliminate the people of greed. Your feelings do matter. Dont ever think less. When you feel bottled up. Get it off of your chest. Talk and cry. Please dont hold it in. Rise above your fears. Tell yourself you will win. Sis, you can do it. You just gotta believe. Set your s

Am I Really That Ugly?
i know that i am not the best looking guy in the world ,but someone on this site rated my photo a 1,and someone else rated the same photo a 6 So that being said ,i just wanted to apoligize to all my friends and fans who have rated the same photo a 10 for being so ugly

It's Not About You.
This will shock you. Take a seat. Here it comes. The universe does not revolve around you. It revolves around me. In kind of a wonky sort of circular motion that will most likely make you sick over time.

God Iunno
if u've read my photo pics of articles put in the paper bout my youngest you'll understand why I'm freaking out please, say prayers, anything, my daughter was just brought to the hospital by her daddy, she was bleeding from the nose and mouth, no explanation as to why, I will update when I can, just please pray or w/e u do... and hope this isn't serious

Stuck In A Hotel
Yeha its true, i'm stuckin in a hotel in Perrysburg, Ohio. In case you don't know where that is, its about 45 south of Detroit, I'm sitting here bored. so i'm going to spend the rest of the night on CT talkign with friends and commenting. So share the love. I'm going to run and get something to eat real quick, it's about 1 in the mornign here. so wish me luck. Evelyn.

Babies
So, I keep having dreams of babies. Of having a child. I just had one last night, in fact and a different one within the last week. I've had at least 2 other dreams of having a baby before. It's always a great thing too. I'm not really exposed to many babies, though a friend of mine just had one in February and my step-brother's wife had one back in November. I do love babies. And I do want some. The other day, I just thought about it for like 20 minutes and realized I wouldn't even mind having one -now-. I couldn't financially support one, but I still wouldn't mind. Of course, I'd rather be married or engaged before having one and more financially secure, but mannnn... I really want one! Plus, I hear making them is pretty fun too :D

The Morning After Reality
The Morning After Reality Can someone in all honesty fall in love with someone and know in there heart and in there mind that it will never happen. Can two souls be so alike.. being in total sincronicity with one another ..knowing that just a single kiss could ruin this. Why do complications of the heart always fog the better of ones judgment .. is it the lack or reason or thought .. can love have purpose other then just the common thread that we all see it as .. Why can loving someone have such larger meaning and devotion yet cant. What is truly love.. a thought or a concept of what happiness is. When does happiness become love, just the simple questions one never thinks yet alone asks .. Hippy

Yup, Still Insane (pt 2)
OK, kids, yup, still no deep thoughts. Well, I do have a blog on the oppression of women by women percolating but I've been obsessed lately with creating skins. Just wanted to share the skins I've been working on: Music Dragons Fish/Aquarium Bees Misc Also: Skins added Tuesday a.m. (updated on last blog but after most people who are gonna read my blogs actually read it) :) Remember, these are just some of the backgrounds I've used. I made seven goth skins, three lightning skins, etc. Anyway, hope you enjoy. Rip if you want. If you don't know how to rip skins, please don't hes

Hung Out To Dry!
Hung out to dry! I had a dream just the other day Instead of staying you walked away Ripping out my hearts desires our love melted in a burning fire I begged and pleaded for you to stay You shook your head and said no way You said you have had it up to here Holding your hands to the sky so near I pleaded with the gods and the devils too Even mixed up a witches brew Looking for a way to hold you near Struggling with pains wiping back the tears Upon the closure all you said welcome to a singles bed Its not your fault the sky is dim its just bad genes left to you from mortal men I know you tried that I can see But what you gave does not fill my need A warm heart is not enough I need life with material stuff The riches of love just feeds the heart Its just feels a small part I need a life with burning desire With some gold , emeralds and fire Passion like you can’t conceive So here is your rope thirteen knots Is all you need!

36 Lil' One
OFF THE COAST OF AFRICA WHERE WE MET FLOATING IN THE SEA LAUGHING IN THE WET JABBERJAW FETCHING IN THE WAVES AND SPRAY COUNTING CLOUDS JUST TO PASS THE DAY GIGGLES AND SNORTS IN THE HEAT OF THE SUN OF ALL THE PPL TO HANG WITH I'M GLAD YOU'RE THE ONE..

Argh It's Stuck & Won't Go Away
*This is Forever by Papa Roach and it has been running nonstop through my head for days now so figured I would share my torment with you, though I do absolutely love the song and can relate to it very very well* In the brightest hour of my darkest day I realized what is wrong with me Can't get over you. Can't get through to you It's been a helter-skelter romance from the start Take these memories that are Haunting me Of a paper man cut into shreds by his own pair of scissors He'll never forgive her...he'll never forgive her... Because days come and go but my feelings for you are forever Sitting by a fire on a lonely night Hanging over from another good time With another girl... little dirty girl You should listen to this story of a life You're my heroine-in this moment I'm lonely fulfilling my darkest dreams All these drugs all these women I'm never forgiven . . .this broken heart of mine Because days they come and go but my feelings for you are forever One last

Frustrated.
This is just an entry for general ramblings and thoughts in my head this morning. I rated it nsfw for some language. I joined this site a couple months back as a favor to a friend. I wasn't going to stay. Then I got sucked in and met some really good people and I just couldn't go. Lately though - leaving here is a thought that creeps into my head more and more. I didn't come here to be judged for the pictures I post or my weight. Yes, I am married. Yes, he does know that I'm on here - fuck - he's on here too! He knows what photos I post and who I talk to. What I do or do not do (or what I post) on here or in my bedroom has nothing to do with you. How dare you fucking judge me - I don't see where you have any right to do so at all. You don't know me, not one bit. Maybe you should take the time to get to know the person behind the pictures before you judge.

Your Age By Eating Out...
Don't tell me your age; you probably would tell a falsehood anyway-but your waiter may know! YOUR AGE BY DINER & RESTAURANT MATH This is pretty neat. DON'T CHEAT BY SCROLLING DOWN FIRST! It takes less than a minute . Work this out as you read ... Be sure you don't read the bottom until you've worked it out! This is not one of those waste of time things, it's fun. 1. First of all, pick the number of times a week that you would like to go out to eat. (more than once but less than 10) 2. Multiply this number by 2 (just to be bold) 3. Add 5 4. Multiply it by 50 5. If you have already had your birthday this year add 1757 ..... If you haven't, add 1756. 6. Now subtract the four digit year that you were born. You should have a three digit number The first digit of this was your original number (I.e., how! Many times you want to go out to restaurants in a week.) The next two numbers are YOUR AGE! (Oh YES, it is!!!!!) THIS IS THE ONLY

This Is What I Think About Our Nation At War
I've said it before and I'll say it again. People are so stupid that all they want to do is to bitch, whine and complain about my boss and the President of the United State of America. I hate Liberals. I'll admit it. Im not saying Conservatives are any better but I rather have a Republican in office who would want to get those fuckers back for what they did to us on 9-11-01 then just sit back and take it like what would of happened if Gore would of won in '00 against Bush. Everyone knows that is what would of happened. We would of taken the losses of our 2500+ people who had died on those planes and in the WTC and Pentagon. But thats with a Democrat in office. With the Republican, he took immediate action against those who had taken responsibility of the attack. Now, Im not saying that Bush sending my brothers and sisters into Iraq was the smartest or best idea to have. We went into Afghanistan to find terrorists and kill them. Its not only in Afghanistan that terrorists

Attitude
ATTITUDE by Charles Swindoll "The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think, say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play the one string we have, and that is our attitude... I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes” I REALLY BELIEVE THIS

United States Map
UNITED STATES MAP - A father wanted to read a magazine but was being bothered by his little girl, Shelby. She wanted to know what the United States looked like. Finally, he tore a sheet out of his new magazine on which was printed the map of the country. Tearing it into small pieces, he gave it to Shelby , and said, "Go into the other room and see if you can put this together. This will show you our whole country today." After a few minutes, Shelby returned and handed him the map, correctly fitted and taped together. The father was surprised and asked how she had finished so quickly. "Oh," she said, "on the other side of the paper is a picture of Jesus. When I got all of Jesus back where He belonged, then our country just came together."

Just Can't Get Enough
TIME FOR CHAPTER 2 OF MY POKER SAGA. THE TRIP TO VEGAS WAS AWESOME!!!! SO GOOD IN FACT THAT I AM HEADED OUT TO THE CARD ROOM HERE FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS TO SEE HOW IT GOES IN A DIFFERENT ENVIRONMENT. BEEN A LONGTIME DREAM OF MINE TO PLAY THIS GAME FOR A LIVING AND AFTER MAKING MORE MONEY IN THE PAST 6 DAYS THAN I WILL MAKE IN THE NEXT 3 MONTHS AT THE POST OFFICE, MAY NO LONGER BE A DREAM. IN ANY EVENT, I WILL BE OUT OF TOUCH UNTIL MONDAY OR TUESDAY, 4/16 OR 4/17, SO WISH ME LUCK ALL MY BEAUTIFUL CHERRIES AND I WILL TALK TO YA SOON.....

Goals
i do alot of thinking about my life and my plans for the future. i think its good to make plans, so you have something to look forward to. but then i think you should always have a back up plan, just incase your plans dont work out like you want it to. and also try to enjoy live the best that you can, thats what im trying to do. im at the point in my life where im finally making planing and sticking with it, it goes to show that my plans do mean alot to me. im only 23, i know im young and i havnt done much, seems like ive been waisting alot of time doing nothing. and i guess my parents accident got me to finally open my eyes and try and do something with my life. from the accident i know life is short, and that you should do all that you want to and everything that makes you happy cuz you might not get the chance later, and never have regrets, cuz i think regrets only hold you back and keep think about the past and what didnt happen. i think in order to be happy you got

T.e. Lawrence (lawrence Of Arabia)
"Those who dream by night, in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that all was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes, and make it possible." T.E. Lawrence (Lawrence of Arabia)

4-12-07......new Pics!
I know most of my closest peeps have already signed my guestbook, but theres about 600 ppl on my list and only about 10 have signed in the week that i've had it up. not bitching or anything but i get to everyones new items fairly quick and would like at least most of you to at least sign my book, even if you dont get to the ratings. also if your past of the dark realm or wnc, if your being harrassed in any way, dont be shy, let me know and i'll take care of that problem!

Reflecting On Ct....after Being Here A Bit...
being invited to join CT by a dear friend from elsewhere, i had a natural curiosity for what it entailed....there are so many different 'social' communities out there, that each one needs to compete with the others in order to lure/attract members. obviously there are people who are members of a number of communities, myself included; yet there exists a need to stand apart from the others sufficiently so that memberships grow and thrive. to be honest-my initial week or two made me rather dubious, as to whether i do belong to a community that prefaces interests that don't coincide with mine....and that doesn't imply anything other than people have different tastes and pleasures, etc... one person's poison, another person's pudding, et al. slowly though, there has been a perception on my part, of people who both share, and embrace much of what i value and hold true on this earth. it began with the meeting of a most incredible of individuals in my life-words do not say enough. from th

Okay So.
In the words of Alex Varkatzas: This is my salt in your wounds, this is my I TOLD YOU SO Did you ever wonder why it was not a good idea to mess with women? we're crazy people, we will check everything and anything. the smart ones anyway. so guess what? after extensive research.... HE knows ME now.

Wonderful!
I have been here for almost a week and have to say that this is one of the best sites I have ever seen! Everyone here is so incredibly nice and friendly...and the goreous women; damn! I look forward to meeting more people and making some really good friends!

All Active-duty Troops In Iraq And Afghanistan Must Stay 90 More Days. Move Aids Buildup But Adds To Strain On Forces.
By Julian E. Barnes, Times Staff Writer April 12, 2007 Graphic WASHINGTON — The Pentagon ordered 90-day extensions Wednesday for all active-duty Army troops in Iraq and Afghanistan, stretching their overseas tours from 12 to 15 months in a move that will exert new strain on a struggling military but allow the Bush administration to continue its troop buildup in Baghdad well into next year. Defense Secretary Robert M. Gates' announcement came amid expectations that the Pentagon was about to order longer tours for some units, but the new policy is a far more sweeping and drastic step, stretching deployments for more than 100,000 members of the Army. "I realize this decision will ask a lot of our Army troops and their families," Gates said, adding that it would ensure that the administration would not be forced to withdraw forces before it was ready. "This approach also upholds our commitment to decide when to begin any drawdown of U.S. forces in Iraq solely based on cond

Vic Status
As of this morning, I am no longer a VIC member. I just wanted to let you know in case you're wondering why I'm not giving out 11's anymore. There are several reasons why I cancelled the VIC, but I'm not going into them here. No need to stir up the drama. I held onto my VIC for this long because I truly enjoyed bombing and leveling my friends with 11's. That is the only thing I'll miss. I love all of you!!!! Laurie

I Been A Bad Girl. I Love Too Much.
I feel like I've been punished. Sent to my room with no supper. A time out, so to speak. The last man to invoke those feelings in me is now an EX. I swore then I would never let a man get to me like that again. But here I am, feeling the same way. I so don't deserve this. All I do is love with all my heart. Unconditionally. Since when is that a bad thing? When I love someone, I pour my heart out. I am very obvious. Now, apparently, that has become a problem. I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. Well, I got a news flash for you, There is no inbetween with me. I am who I am. Deal. If you can't, well then, I'm so sorry for you. I'm keeping it to myself from here on in. Wish me luck, wish me love.

This Is Me To A Tee..
TAURUS: The Tramp Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long relationships.. J Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as........ Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as......... Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to #### with. Are the sexiest people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

Great! Great! News!
The kids and I do not have to move out of the house!! I talked to my landlord and he agreeds to but the house on a special government program that will enable me and the kids to stay and my husband HAS TO GO! We are changign the locks and putting his clothes out front for him to get. YAHOOOOOOOOOOOO

Good Bye For Now.
Well I know that I am not gonna say this right so I will say it the best I can. Good Bye. I will be around somewhere. Who knows where. Sooner or later maybe things will be as they should. But today is not what it needs to be. I know that form now on I will not utter the words I Love You Because I do not want to hear them back. My Heart has been walked all over one too many times to try any harder than I was. Now the Ball is in Your Court.

An Ode To My Past.
And to the person in my past that it applies to... LIMP BIZKIT LYRICS "Re-Arranged" Just think about it Lately I've been skeptical Silent when I would used to speak Distant from all around me who witness me fail and become weak Life is overwhelming Heavy is the head that wears the crown id love to be the one to disappoint you when I don't fall down [Pre chorus] but you don't understand when I'm attempting to explain because you know it all and I guess things will never change but you might need my hand when falling in your hole Your disposition ill remember when im letting go of... [chorus] you and me we're through and rearranged It seems that your not satisfied there's too much on your mind So you leave and I cant believe all the bullshit that I find Life is overwhelming Heavy is the head that wears the crown I'd love to be the one to disappoint you when I don't fall down [pre chorus] [chorus] .. you're no good for

Standing In The Rain
Ever thought of standing in the rain as a good pasttime? I guess seeing that I don't ever do it, I wouldn't know if it is or not. But I have always wanted to go outside and just sit in the rain while it pours over me. Kind of like a cleansing feeling. I see people on tv getting their shirts all soaked and hair plastered to their faces, but they seem so sublimely happy when they stand under the falling rain. I wish it were that easy. Guess I won't ever find out unless I try it huh? So anyone ever tried it and found it to be gratifying? Or any other feeling?

Wtf
i am so getting sick of Ct not letting me rate thins on happy hour whats the point of all those people spending 100 buks if they cant get what is worth it t them? i also dont like being blocked for 10 mmintes for rating how are we supposed to get our points if we cant rate NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!

Wtf
is anything on this site working tonight im not getting alerts when my friends upload new stuff the bullitans are messed up again and it takes me forever just to rate a few pics. Is this happening to everybody else or is it my shitty computer acting up again

Say Goodnight
Say Goodnight Say goodnight my friend This loneliness is about to end One more for the road and then Goodnight, Goodnight You gave up on your life Broken Glass, cuts like a knife Forever more I will adore Goodnight, Goodnight And I dreamed of flying Angels Of Loves first epic glance And, now my love has gone and put An end to our romance So say goodnight my Love I’ve got a date with the man above To apologize for my failure of Goodnight, Goodnight And I dreamed flying Angels Of storybook Romance Impassioned nights And snowball fights And Slow Romantic dance So I’ll say Goodnight and pray It’s what you do not what you say I hope you find your way and then Goodnight, Goodnight Goodnight All ~ jskins

My Love Profile
Pisces - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You're very tuned into your lover's feelings - and always doing something caring. Sweetness - you're the most romantic person your partner has ever met. You get easily swept away and are a total delight to fall in love with. Your negative traits: You are super duper sensitive and find it hard to get out of a sad mood. It's difficult for you to tell your sweetie no, even when you should. You often tell your partner what they want to hear, instead of being honest. Your ideal partner: Is straight from a fairy tale - the man or woman of your dreams Is a total romantic, with an artistic or creative side Loves to express their love to you, in all sorts of unique ways Your dating style: Dreamy. You like traditional romantic dates, like picnics in the park and candlelight dinners. Your seduction style: Fearless - you try what your partner suggests, no matter how unusual. Loving. You'll take your pleasur

Things R Lookin Better
well i moved here to kansas from missouri n jan wasnt diggin it at all...but now ive gotten a job 2 take up all that borin free time...plus have met chick that moved here same time i did but from florida...we have been kickin it n ive been enjoyin the time spent wit my family...n now im goin 2 b gettin a car next mth so i can go visit wit my best friend back home(she girl n pics wit holey jeans)n all my other peeps that r back home that i miss kickin it wit...so yea thhings r gettin better n it helpin change my additude bout liven here....

Lovers
What kind of a LOVER are YOU?You are a PASSIONATE LOVER!When it comes to sex and relationships you put 100% into both. You like to have fun and try new things but you pay alot of attention to the PASSION that lives in side of each kiss, touch or meaningful word. You contain the whole package and any man would be would be very lucky to have a women like you!How do you compare? Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic

From {***angeleyes***}
I just want to express my SINCERE THANKS to Maria aka...Sexy Mama, for running the first contest I was in, and to ALL my family & friends that have helped me win. You ALL know who you are, and I want YOU ALL to know how much I appreciate your dedication, extreme effort, & countless hours of comment bombing me, despite all those crazy error messages we were all getting. My God, you people are totally AWESOME!! Not only were those error messages a huge nuisance, but they were pretty damn annoying as well. I know at times I would get ticked off because it caused alot of problems here on my end. I can only imagine how you felt at times. I know the comment bombing and delays from the error messages took ALOT of your time away from other things you wanted or needed to get done on here, at home, or anywhere else. Please know that from the bottom of my heart, that truly means the world to me. It shows what TRUE and GENUINE FRIENDS you are, and I love you all for your great BIG hearts. I consid

Tired Of The Mundane
This is getting kinda boring...lame....and this site has so much stuff going on it slows my computer down...and there doesn't seem to be any Real, Genuine people out there...is that just the web...or is that how the world at large has become...disconnected???

Captivation
Morning Dawn Ok so i've been sitting here for last hour ha yeah no appointments till 11.30 hehe ;) But i got just one problem! My mind has gone blank!!!!!! Now i'm thinking i'm writing this so other people can read it wtf!? lol I dont have shit to hide besides real men can express their feelings and thoughts right? right!?? One sec need coffee brb ;p Back now :D Ran out of coffee so had to settle for tea yum yum...awww c'mon you know you wish your tea tasted this good lol So i'm trying to think of what i want to say to you that i havent already said a hundred times already. Choose your words carefully now boy haha Ok so i know that we fight alot, argue, call each other names, deny each others needs...oh wait shit, thinking about the wrong person here :p WONDERFUL WOMAN THAT YOU ARE. YES YOU FUCKER. CANT IMAGINE A DAY PASSING BY WITHOUT YOU. FUCKING HEART STEALER!! CAPTIVATED MY IMAGINATION AND HEART AND SOUL AND THEN SOME ;) You walked lightly into my life

People Are Stupid!
OK PEOPLE ITS NOT THAT HARD IF YOU DONT LIKE MY PIC OR PROFILE DONT LOOK AT IT! i dont understand all u loosers that feel the need to rate others down, probablly just to make yourself feel better, fucking childish as hell and pathetic! come on i thought we where all adluts on this site? guess i was wrong... looks like alot of you have alot of growing up to do, or so it seems!

How I See Myself 2
so ok a few month agos i wrote a blog about how some people can be cold to each other. what i mean by this is that people lookin at me like i should just stay home and not come out in public, well that happend a few months back after a Def Leppard concert, it got me down and wanting to kill myself and just leave this world to make pople happy. Well fast forward a few month and god im so glad i have friends like all my cherry friends who have helped me past that. I love life and i have so many wonderful people in my life. Kimmie my lil Skittles i love you babe and u are awsome. Di u rock so hard u make me smile all the time. Tammy what can i say about you, one thing i can say is Careing, your heart is alway open to me and i thank u for that. My buddy and Co owner Shewolf she has had my ear everyday and she was ready to come here and smack me down if i felt that way again ty hunny u rock ( and ya daughter is a funny one lol). and then theres Danni omg she helped me when i was at my lowes

Fucking Pathetic
3 fucking comments!! to 3 different people to thank them for adding me and I get this shit!! Error: you're temporarily blocked from commenting because you have repeatedly flooded the cherrytap servers. your account has been flagged as abusive. continueing to flood our servers will result in it's deletion. try again in 10 minutes. play nicer next time. --babyjesus aka the fascist antichrist, i know. How the fuck does that constitute flooding? Get a fuckin grip sheesh this place gets fucking worse.

Weather
OMG! It's April in Kansas and we are still getting cold, rain, and snow. I can't hardly beleive it. I'm ready for the sun and 70* temps. Hopefully this won't last but a couple of days more. I'm tired of the wet and the cold. It's time for the sun and the warmth. We lost our fruit. We had lots of apricots and they all froze. We also had the pear tree in bloom and the apple tree full bloom. Some of the apples my yet survive. But it looks like we are going to have below freezing temps again for the next two or three days so they may be a complete loss as well. We just got some more snow yesterday. So we may lose all of our apples. Oh well. Can always try again next year I guess. Hopefully if I'm in my new house by then I can plant some more fruit trees and have a little bigger orchard there. Well thats all for now.

For Hottest Cherry Of Ct
CONTEST IS A RATES CONTEST.. YOU MAY LEAVE COMMENTS FOR THE CONTESTANT.. BUT NO BOMBING!! THE CONTEST WILL RUN FROM WED. 6PM APRIL 11 TO APRIL 16 AT 6PM.. THERE WILL BE ABSOLUTELY NO DOWNRATING OF THE CONTESTANTS.. ANY ONE CAUGHT DOWNRATING WHETHER ITS YOU THE CONTESTANT OR SOMEONE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST.. YOU WILL BE REMOVED FROM THE CONTEST.. SO TELL YOUR FRIENDS NOT TO DOWNRATE ANY ONE IN THE CONTEST.. IN CASE OF A TIE.. COMMENTS WILL BE ADDED TOGETHER WITH THE RATES.. SO ADD A FEW COMMENTS.. BUT LET ME STRESS AGAIN.. NO CONSTANT BOMBING.. EXAMPLE: LEAVE ONE OR TWO COMMENTS AND RATE THE PIC.. HAVE YOUR FRIENDS COME AND DO THE SAME.. AGAIN NO NEED TO BOMB.. COMMENTS WILL ONLY BE USED IN CASE OF A TIE.. THE ONE WITH THE MOST RATES.. WINS THE PORSCHE AND A TAG THAT STATES YOU WERE VOTED HEAVNESSENCE'S HOTTIE CONTEST #1 HOTTIE..

Prince Charming
ok u can tell it is gettin close to spring cause ppl r talkin about love,prince charmin,and last but not least knight in shinin armour..well guess what no such luck!! to me i dont want all that i want a real person with real feelings. all i ask for is love and happiness. to sleep in my loves arms to wake up every mornin to his smilin face to feel his breathe on my check his hands on my side feelin his warmth and his love . to look in his eyes as he whispers i love you. to just be able to look in his eyes to know he means it.i want the hard times the bad times and the good times so i can walk every step of the way with him to grow closer as we get older. i dont care if he is a poor or rich man cause as long as i have his love i am rich. i believe i might have found this in one great man he believes the same as i do has the same thoughts i do but i will not say who is it just yet cause i dont want to ruin something before it gets started..one other thing on my mind what happened to bein

The Ambiguous Abyss
If it ever finds you in the middle of September It'll leave a sight that you ought remember Taking with it the life that is almost guaranteed A young child plays in the leaves Slowing life down to the speed of a parking lot Put experience in your very own prime time spot Things that can't be understood unless you're struck by the ambiguous abyss Taking something dark and have a new meaning for it

Hmm.......
So a bunch of my friends have told me that when i add new pictures they dont get the alerts! Is anybody else having this issue, r you may and not know it lol....So annoying, but anyway just thought id ask. I guess i can deal with BabyJ putting me in the corner for 10 min every once in awhile and im sure the unread messages alert that ive read 100 times will go away soon, but the picture thing bugs me lol LUVZ YA ALL

If Only My Heart Could Stop Hurting... For Once...
Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it. Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love. And sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts, but then just sometimes... everything actually happen and it's back and living happily ever after. * * * * * * * * * Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean? * * * * * * * * * When you are in love and you get hurt, it's like a cut... it will heal, but there will always be a scar. * * * * * * * * * You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel. Cause sadness due to love is breathing.... You'll have to breath at some point... * * * * * * * * * When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most. * * * * * * * * * When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I died. When you said always,

Whatever
Went on a road trip yesterday with a friend and her daughter. Crap I haven't laughed so much in , I don't know who long. Emily is 16 and is almost as cool as her mom. Was I that cool when I was 16? Not hardly. On the road home, we were messing with people in the cars beside us. We sang a whole buncha songs. Got a couple of new ones for karaoke, if I can remember to look them up.When we got home, we were in the middle of a really good song so we kept driving. Around town. We were messing with the people walking down the streat. Emily was embarassed. Apparently it's only ok to do it on the freeway.

The Grand Prix
So, the track of the Grand Prix goes literally, AROUND the building I work at. They are doing Prelims today, and it's SOOO loud. I have my ipod on full blast...I can STILL hear them. Oh, and the window rattle... And I was late for work because of traffic... And someone took my usual parking spot... And I havent slept in 3 days...

Work Bites Biscuits
im sitting here at work bored out of my head trying not to fall asleep while i suffer thru what we call an ip relay call which by the end of the call im going to be saying go ahead :| lol some one shoot me please and take me out of my misery

The I-mess With Don Imus
Watch out radio shock jocks! Al Sharpton is listening... In case you hadn't heard, on April 12th, Don Imus was fired by CBS for a comment he made about the Rutgers University Women's Basketball Team last week. Justified? Let's review. 50 Cent calls women "Bitches" and "Hos" in his music...people sing along. Though Al Sharpton has said of Imus' recent comments, he "should be axed for one of the most dispicable comments ever uttered on the air", he took lead in the Tawana Brawley case and never apologized about the hoax...he's just trying to further his agenda. Kamau Kambon, author and owner of "Blacknificent Books" says white people "want to kill [African Americans]" and "we have to exterminate white people off the face of this planet" as a solution to the problem, which he says is "white people". This was said at a conference regarding the Hurricane Katrina Issues aired on C-Span...no one did anything to get him off the air or make him apologize. It was simply overlooked.

We Are The World
There comes a time when we heed a certain call When the world must come together as one There are people dying Oh, and it's time to lend a hand to life The greatest gift of all We can't go on pretending day by day That someone, somehow will soon make a change We're all a part of God's great big family And the truth You know love is all we need We are the world, we are the children We are the ones who make a brighter day so let's start giving There's a choice we're making we're saving our own lives It's true we'll make a better day just you and me Well, send'em you your heart so they know that someone cares And their lives will be stronger and free As God has shown us by turning stone to bread And so we all must lend a helping hand We are the world, we are the children We are the ones who make a brighter day so let's start giving There's a choice we're making we're saving our own lives It's true we'll make a better day just you and me When you're down and

Another One.....
Hey yall my friend entered me in his contest Hottest Girl on CherryTap without makeup...I know I am not but I am in it sooo if yall can show some love it starts tonight at 10 whatever comments you can do would be great! Let me know when and if you do so I can return the love! Thanks again all I know im a pain lol http://www.cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=618946&albumid=309422&i=756425829 ~ZombieGirl~

Will I Ever Be Happy?
A friend of mine opening up in his blogs has lead me to think I may do well to follow suit.If you read the "holiday blues" entry in this blog it gives a bit of history. I have made some progress since then to the point of even having supper with my ex, his gf, and their new grandbaby! WHOOPIE! Thats a blog all in itself LOL i had what seemed like a happy marraige but always felt something missing. Made some good friends online in yahoo chat and ended up falling for a guy that made me feel important again. of course when he moved here and you have to live REAL life, it turned out to be something different. With my ex i had all the material things and security, but seemingly no emotions. I felt like we were just roommmates coexisting in the same house. With the new bf, i had all the laughing, loving, emotions, but he had ZERO responsibility. Turned out to have $11,000 in back child support for a 10 yr old son he had never bothered seeing. That should have been a HUGE red flag for me.

About My Tags~if You Have One, Please Read!!~
I just made this and wanted to share it with everyone. :-) I hope all of you are having a wonderful day! If you have a tag, name tag, or license that I made for you, please make sure you have it saved to your hard drive. I am no longer a VIC, so my pic storage is maxed out. I will be deleting the old tags to make room for some new ones. If you have any requests, please feel free to leave me a message on this blog. I love all of my friends! You guys rock! Laurie

Have I Told You That I'm A Certifiable Jenius?
I'm a freakin jenius!!! You got that right...:) So - tell me...what else would you call someone who gets a free trip to Canada (Toronto), does the customs thing, the waiting in line thing, only to find out when he's at the rental car agency that his F*CKING DRIVER'S LICENSE EXPIRED ON HIS BIRTHDAY??? Oh yeah...JENIUS!!!! So...I'm in Canada...and a 45$ CDN taxi ride to my hotel, complete rearrangement of all amenities for the next two days...and I'm in my hotel room. I have to say, NutBoy is laughing his nutz off...I can feel it when he looks at me... So, I go online, and renew my DL (just now)...let's see if Hertz will allow it for a rental (it's supposed to be a legal form of DL when presented with my actual DL). We'll see in the morning...

Photo Ratings
OK, so I was sat here, rating a few pics, then I reached my limit, so I figured I would reply to all those who had rated my profile/pics etc, so I opened the alerts ALL thing in a new window, so I could get to everyone, then I come across someone rated one of my pics a 7 ... then I saw an 8, then a 9. So Im wondering WTF is going on, NO-ONE ever rates other than a 10, unless you did something to piss them off, and Im pretty sure I aint pissed anyone off here, nor have I ever rated other than a 10 even if I dont like the damn pic/profile or stash item!!! So Im presuming this person is either NEW, stupid or pissed with me for whatever reason. Whatever the reason is, I don't care, I will be deleting ALL my pics, so what if it means no ratings, I will simply stick to rating people's profiles and stashes, and hey, if I dont like, I might even start rating LOW! *end of pissed off rant*

Rambles Of A Fibber
I was in a grumpy, weird mood most of the day and now thinking about it most of the week. I'm not sure why. I guess I just was. I've a restless soul at times. This week is one of them. I've really enjoyed Cherry tap. I've been here awhile. I still want to call its Lostcherry all the time. So why am I writing this? I dont know. I'm bored and restless. I went out to dinner tonight with my sister, her new hubby and his mom. It was fun, good food and such. We tried to go PF Changs but there was a two hour wait. I was the first to arrive so I sat under the Chang horse for awhile. I got more than a lot of comments thrown my way. I guess i'm used to it but still some people....they really are not funny. Since PF Changs was such a long wait (I understand since its new to our area) we decided to go the BJ's Bar and Grill. Mmmm, BJ's. Good food and good thought in mind when one, i.e. a guy things of a BJ. Anyway, its was fun and good food. Right now, at this hear moment I realized i'm rambli

St. Maarten/st. Martin
My husband and I are planning a vacation trip to the island of St. Maarten/St.Marin in the Caribbean Sea for April 2009. It will be to celebrate our 23rd anniversary. I was just wondering if there was anyone at all from the friends and fans here on Cherry Tap who may have already visited the island who could give me some information on best places to stay and things to do while we are there for a week.

Today...
Wow...today is a good day. I drank until 2 AM, and got to work at 5. I'm tired, hungry, still drunk, and I smell like booze and cheap hookers. However I am still psyched about my promotion, so I'm happy..HOORAY for cheap hookers!!

Mine And Jelly's Theme Song!
How the hell did we wind up like this Why weren't we able To see the signs that we missed And try to turn the tables I wish you'd unclench your fists And unpack your suitcase Lately there's been too much of this Dont think its too late Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now I know you're wondering when (You're the only one who knows that) Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now I know you're wondering when Well i hoped that since we're here anyway We could end up saying Things we've always needed to say So we could end up stringing Now the story's played out like this Just like a paperback novel Lets rewrite an ending that fits Instead of a hollywood horror Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now I know you're wondering when (You're the only one who knows that) Someday,

The End
Well, it's over. I know I'm gonna be alright but that doesn't make it any easier. You give yourself and dedicate yourself to one person for a year and a half and what do you get? Kicked and stomped and more pain than you can describe! I hope I live long enough for him to get what is coming to him. I have a lot of good friends and I know they are gonna be right there along with my Family to support me and help me heal. The world keeps turning, the sun keeps shining and I will keep on living and hopefully one day I will love again! Wish me luck!

One Of My Inspirations
I think we all have those songs that we use to lift us up when we need a jump start on life. I thought I would share with you mine. I hope you enjoy it and may it help you get your day moving as it does mine. "Shackles (Praise You)" Whoo! It sure is hot out here Ya know? I don't mind thought Just glad to be free Know what I'm saying, uh! Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance I just wanna praise you (What'cha wanna do?) I just wanna praise you (Yeah, yeah) You broke the chains now I can lift my hands (Uh feel me?) And I'm gonna praise you (What'cha gon do?) I'm gonna praise you In the corners of mind I just can't seem to find a reason to believe That I can break free Cause you see I have been down for so long Feel like the hope is gone But as I lift my hands, I understand That I should praise you through my circumstance Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance I just wanna praise you I just wanna praise you You broke the chains now

Am I Weak?
I am so pissed. As you maybe know, I work with mental ill agressive people. Most of the people think that its a rough, macho culture at my work. It can be, but most of the time its pretty nice to work there. Most of my collegues hate the macho culture everybody thinks it is. Now I will tell you: I am small, normal lenght, love to wear 2 tales in my hair and tight bright clothes. For 1/2 a year ago I suffered from a depression and I had broke my rib during a fight. I got the feeling that some of my collegues now think that I am weak, just because of my looks and deseases. That really pisses me of! Any ideas what to do?

Finding Peace
While it has been a long time since I have blogged here I have not been without thoughts and emotions coursing through me. It has been a river of happiness, saddness, compassion, despair, desire, frustration, hope, and learning...... This mornig I've awakened in much the same manner as every other morning, looking to the empty space in my bed and wondering what tomorrow holds, and knowing that in the end I face that tomorrow on my own. At one time I would have looked upon that as a saddening thought, but these days I begin to see it more as a clean slate to a new place in my life. I try each morning to think not of what has been lost to me but more of what there is to be found in the space created. I suppose that is healthier... There are so many plans and goals swirling around in my mind that I have bearly the time to process them all.... I find myself wishing mostly to build a solid foundation for my children's tomorrows, and todays...I find it strangely fascination that while

I Sometimes Sit And Contemplate
I sometimes sit and contemplate, as the day draws to a close, What fate has wrought upon me; what might it, yet, impose? When down memory lane I wander, nostalgic thoughts ever stray, To much happier days; of my childhood, when life meant just pleasure all day. Soon, thoughts of my future intrigued me; I would scheme out what I would be When launched all alone on the merciless waves of a cruel commercial sea. With what mixed emotions I lived through each phase, ‘til my interest flagged with the passing of days; When all I had strived for seemed done but for nought, And my ship for success, in dire distress, had berthed; but at the wrong port! If I took the wrong paths on life’s journey, should I lay the blame to fate? Or to my own miscalculations; to my own lethargic state? But it’s useless to bathe in self pity; to attempt to clutch at a straw, For, I know, in my past there’s no glory, so why dwell on what’s gone before? There’s a moral to every story and equally s

I Am Going Nucking Futs!
Ok, this is killing me. I always want more time to sleep, play on the computer (not work as I normally am) and all that jazz. Now I'm completely laid up for the weekend and the hubby has taken the kids out shopping, I can do whatever I want online, sleep as long as I want, and yet I'm going crazy! So much needs to be done in the house, and I'm so sick of my leg being propped up, but i'm worried about a blood clot b/c the bruising is worse now. So I'm trying to do all the right stuff, but damn its hard. I think it's time for a beer lmao. Anyhow..hope everyone has been having a good day. If you ever wanted to chat with me, this is the weekend to do it! I never have time typically, but now all i have it time. I'm going to go take a nap right now, and then I'll be back on and ready to chat in about an hour or so. Hope to talk to you then, XOXO, Aimeelynn

A Test Ripped Off From Broken_hearted420
Full Name: [B] Andrew John Smith. Yes I know it’s not very exciting but I was third and Mum and Dad were running out of ideas and I was born in Britain where naming people after the shrubbery or geographic features has only recently found favour [/B] Date of Birth: 11-01-1964 Zodiac Sign: Capricorn Birth Place: Kelly Bray, Cornwall, UK Eyes: Hazel Hair: Reddish Brown (or Greyish Brown if I left it to its own devices) Height: 5 ft 10 Relationship: Separated from wife of 10 years since Nov 2006 divorce in progress Fears: Rating up to 60mg of Happy Pills a day and becoming on of the celebrity sad people at the surgery Smoking: Yes, someone has to pay for the National Health Service Drinking: Rarely Swearing: Depends Drugs: Not since smoking puff in 1983 Steal: No but if it’s left lying around I will pick it up Trustworthy: If I say I’ll do it, I’ll do it Tattoos: Still thinking about that Piercing: No Depression: Shit loads Suici

My Take On It All
Real or Not? Here is my thoughts on virtual vs. real love for what it's worth. You may agree you may not, but who has yet really put into thought anything about this thing we call love on the internet? I havent seen anything out there involving chatters and their experiences on this subject, but I have seen a lot of people (yes, real people not your computer) hurt, happy, sad, bitten, smitten, etc. etc. ad nausim. My only proposition is that it is happening to thousands. We see boyfriends, girlfriends, husbands and wives all online playing the love me game. We know many have issues and use the net as an escape from the realities of life in so many different directions that we cant count the ways. So here we go, let's love "let me count the ways." Loyalty is one of the biggest issues. Funny, in real life this one bites as bad or worse than online. Players, mind gamers, intimidators, all have one thing in common ... they are self-centered-egotistical-selfish-assholes (did I say THA

Who's Dependable? (for Women)
Time passes. Life happens. Distance separates. Children grow up. Jobs come and go. Love waxes and wanes. Men don't do what they're supposed to do. Hearts break. Parents die. Colleagues forget favors. Careers end. BUT - Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girlfriend is never farther away than needing her . When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you, or come in and carry you out. Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters, daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, mothers, grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins and extended family all bless our life. When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of

This Sounds Like Me Lol
Two bored casino dealers are waiting at the craps table. A very attractive blonde woman from Texas arrived ...and bet twenty-thousand dollars ($20,000) on a single roll of the dice. She said, "I hope you don't mind, but I feel much luckier when I play topless." With that, she stripped to the waist; rolled the dice; and yelled, "Come on, baby.... Southern Girl needs new clothes!" As the dice came to a stop, she jumped up-and-down... and squealed..."YES! YES! I WON! I WON!" She hugged each of the dealers... and then picked up her winnings and her clothes, and quickly departed. The dealers stared at each other dumfounded. Finally, one of them asked, "What did she roll?" The other answered, "I don't know... I thought you were watching." Moral --- Not all Southerners are stupid. Not all blondes are dumb. But, all men.....are men.

Dance Of Death
Dance Of Death Let me tell you a story to chill the bones About a things that I saw One night wandering in the everglades I'd one drink but no more I was rambling, enjoying the bright moonlight Gazing up at the stars Not aware of a presence so near to me Watching my every move Feeling scared and I fell to my knees As something rushed me from the trees Took me to an unholy place And that is where I fell from grace Then they summoned me over To join in with them To the dance of the dead In to the circle of fire I followed them In to the middle I was led As if time had stopped still I was numb with fear But still I wanted to go And the blaze of the fire did no hurt upon me As I walked onto the coals And I felt I was in a trance And my spirit was lifted from me And if only someone had the chance To witness what happened to me And I danced, I pranced and I sang with them All had death in their eyes Lifeless figures the

Why I Like Cougars...
First off - a couple definitions... MILF - I think we all know this one...so if you don't know what it is, send me a PM and I'll explain it to you... Cougar - An older woman targeting single men for dating / relationships / fun... Now - if you've read my profile, you know I'm attached - significantly so. Going on 7 years. That's a big deal...:) But...prior to meeting Krista, I dated Cougars almost exclusively...from the time I was 17 until I met Krista 7 years ago. You have to wonder, why...right? Well - there are many, many benefits to dating a Cougar over a lady my own age. 1) They have a decent grasp of who they are. There's usually no arguments created only because she can't determine if it's you she's upset with, or herself...It can save hours and hours of arguments that simply shouldn't have to happen. 2) They are supporting themselves - one way or another. Regardless of whether it's through child support, alimony, a career or a job...they are self suppo

Entry #1: The Little Things
A very special friend of ours told me I should blog this, so I am taking his advice and doing just that. Thanks JC (Aka Jeremy Crow) Chris and I have a ritual so to speak... as we drive to our jobs each morning, we talk to each other on our cell phones. Whoever leaves the house first - calls the other one and we talk till we reach our work place. Then through out the course of the day, we talk breifly - as time allows and we also txt back and forth. Earlier this week, Chris had forgotten to charge his cell phone the night before, so low and behold the next morning after we had reached our work destinations I received a phone call from a landline - it was Chris - calling to let me know his cell battery was dead and he wouldn't be able to call or txt me the rest of the day. A bit disapponted (because one tends to look foward too these daily happenings), but I certainly understood and let him know it was ok and I would talk to him when I got home after work. I don't even thin

To Realize
To realize The value of a sister Ask someone Who doesn't have one. To realize The value of ten years: Ask a newly Divorced couple. To realize The value of four years: Ask a graduate. To realize The value of one year: Ask a student who Has failed a final exam. To realize The value of nine months: Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn. To realize The value of one month: Ask a mother who has given birth to A premature baby. To realize The value of one week: Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper. To realize The value of one minute: Ask a person Who has missed the train, bus or plane. To realize The value of one-second: Ask a person Who has survived an accident. Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special. To realize the value of a friend or family member : LOSE ONE. The origin of this le

Unnamed
Walking through endless miles of need; I've come across a paradox Come face to face with greed. I love, in all your wonder I'll take a step behind myself There's need to stop the plunder. My soul is all an empty vastness waiting for reprieve, I've lost the will to try to take And all the will to leave. I've reached a place of quietness and just to hear you breathe I'll take the chance that you won't stay in all I'll still believe.

Summer Night
There lies a willow beyond a bending creek that sways with every whisper and there I come to seek the sounds of life unfolding I sit beneath her shade to hear the softest whisper of rabbits in the glade. Within the water purely I see the silver fish they dance about in sunlight as if were my wish. And there beyond the willow the soothing sounds of night enfold the creatures living an endless summer night.

Aahhh... A Blog For This Weekend...
so... I am sitting here... bored outta my mind!!! I cleaned my house... and I have nothing to do but wait for pooter to come home.. wow.. boring... My hamster is in his ball.. running around the apartment like a CRACK HEAD>>>>!!lol well.. thats about all... Kentucky is fucking boring!!!

Hey Hey Hey
hey everyone just thought i would drop by and let you all know what is going on. so i havent heard from bubba since the fourth. i dont know what to think anymore but i know i keep having really screwy dreams that are making me more and more worried that things aint gonna work out between us. im hoping that i am wrong but i dont know. honestly it just seems like he isnt half as into this relationship as i am. so i dont know what to think or do. and then my heart is slowly being torn in a few different directions which makes it even worse. i dont know what to make of it anymore. im starting to think one of my friends is really starting to wear off on me too.

Glorious Saturday, Everyone!
Well, I survived another night on the town with my niece and her friends, especially Kayla (browneyedbabe21), lol! Had another wonderful night, they actually let me stay in the Metal area at Dimensions this time, lmao!! Oh, thank you! And a good night was had by all, lmao! I made it to the store and did my 10 to 2, lol! Paula loves to have me work because we almost always have better Saturday sales - she thinks it's my energy, maybe it is! Next weekend is my nephew's wedding! Another reason to party, yay! I've been told there will be no "Chicken Dance" at this wedding dance! Breaking with tradition, that's my heavy metal nephew, lol! Taylor officially turns 16 on Monday, April 16th! He is still flying high over being asked to join a band with some of his friends! He's practicing like crazy, these days! Wish his homework got as much attention, lol! I think this is enough for today, lol! Have a wonderful Saturday night, everyone! Much love and warm hugs for one and all! Ble

Lost
ok so as you all know i am with a great guy and we have been together a lil over five months now. i have never felt that you could feel so much for someone until this guy. but now i dont know whats going on now. hes been away at training for a lil over two months now and doesnt seem like the same guy he was when he left. he kept promising me he would never change personally but i am starting to wonder. is it wrong for me to wonder this? should i just stop being such a paranoid idiot and not worry or does it seem reasonable for me to have this fear. before he left things were great and he always made sure to contact me one way or another but now its like very rare that i hear from him and it scares me cuz i know he is on a coed base and has been. god i jut feel so damn lost...any ideas???

Life
It always amazes me how a simple change in scenery and a move helps one's stress level. I am allot happier now that i have moved in with my bf. We started online then moved in with each other. Things are working real good for us as Todd has made me very happy and has balanced me out

Dr. Smith
A flat-chested young lady went to Dr. Smith about enlarging her tiny breasts. Dr. Smith advised her, "Every day after your shower rub your chest and say, "Scooby doobie doobies, I want bigger boobies." She did this faithfully for several months and it worked! She grew terrific D-cup boobs! One morning she was running late, got on the bus and in a panic realized she had forgotten her morning ritual. Frightened she might lose her lovely boobs if she didn't recite the little rhyme, she stood right there in the middle aisle of the bus closed her eyes and said, "Scooby doobie doobies, I want bigger boobies." A guy sitting nearby looked at her, "By any chance, are you a patient of Dr. Smith's?" Why, yes I am... How did you know?" He leaned closer, winked and whispered, "Hickory dickory dock..."

Car Accident
Just wanted to apologize to my friends as of late. I have been gone awhile because I had been in a major car accident and just now getting around. Things are back to normal now and I appreciate all of you and sorry to make any of y'all worrry. May God bless all of you and I love you for your loyalty and friendship. Sincerely, Chris

A Very Romantic Scene In Romeo And Juliet
He jests at scars that never felt a wound. [Juliet appears above at a window.] But soft, what light through yonder window breaks? It is the east and Juliet is the sun! Arise, fair sun, and kill the envious moon, Who is already sick and pale with grief (5) That thou her maid art far more fair than she. Be not her maid, since she is envious; Her vestal livery is but sick and green, (10) And none but fools do wear it. Cast it off. It is my lady, O, it is my love! (10) O that she knew she were! She speaks, yet she says nothing; what of that? Her eye discourses, I will answer it. I am too bold: 'tis not to me she speaks. Two of the fairest stars in all the heaven, (15) Having some business, do entreat her eyes To twinkle in their spheres till they return. What if her eyes were there, they in her head? The brightness of her cheek would shame those stars, As daylight doth a lamp. Her eyes in heaven (20) Would through the airy region stream so bright That birds wo

You Could Last 5 Minutes In The 80's
Back in the day.... When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were when they were growing up; what with walking twenty-five miles to school every morning ... uphill BOTH ways .. yadda, yadda, yadda And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it! But now that... I'm over the ripe old age of thirty (or more), I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today. You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a damn Utopia! And I hate to say it but you kids today you don't know how good you've got it! I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have The Internet. If we wanted to know something, we had to go to the damn library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalog!! There was no email!! We had to actually write somebody a letter ... with a pen! Then y

So Awesome!!!
Kimmy@ CherryTAP She is one of my bestfriends on here & she is so awesome I need YOUR help plzz!!! Come & show her some cherry luv – she can really do with some cheering up right now :] plus she always returns the luv U WONT BE DISAPPOINTED!! She is just such a beautiful person ANYONE WHO GIVES HER MAJOR LOVE (LIKE RATIN ALL HER PICS N STUFF) WILL GET A GIFT FROM ME

Internal Affairs
Sometimes you have what I like to call “the moment” between two people. It was the last thing I was expect on that cold December morning. I’d been hired several months earlier to come in and turn the parts department of a major local car dealer around. The new owner had purchased the store a couple of months before I got there and needed someone to come in and overcome the years of neglect that the parts department had been the victim of. In all honesty I’ve done this sort of work for years and this was the worst that I had ever seen it. I was averaging about 75 hours a week, and even at that pace it had taken me well over 3 weeks just to get rid of the stuff that was purely trash. It was tiring work. I’d arrive at my usual 6 AM this morning and was finishing the left over paperwork from the day before. This was actually my favorite part of the day as it was quiet and I could work without someone poking their head in and out of my office every ten seconds. (Oh the little things in

True Friendship
Are you tired of those sissy-ass "friendship" poems that always sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that actually speak of true friendship: 1. When you are sad -- I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard /bitch who made you sad. 2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you. 3. When you smile -- I will know you finally got laid. 4. When you are scared -- I will rag on you about it every chance I get. 5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be until you quit whining. 6. When you are confused -- I will use little words. 7. When you are sick -- Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have. 8. When you fall -- I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass. 9. This is my oath..... I pledge it to the end. "Why?" you may ask; "because you are my friend!!! Send this to 10 of your clos

My Mom...
i HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH SOME STUFF WITH MY SON AND LATELY IT HAS GOTTEN TO THE POINT THAT I DON'T EVEN WANT TO TALK WITH HIM BECAUSE I KNOW THAT IT WILL END UP IN AN ARGUMENT. HE IS 19, MARRIED WITH TWO KIDS AGES 3 AND 3 MONTHS. HE IS IN THE AIR FORCE AND STATIONED IN FLORIDA AT EGLIN AIR FORCE BASE. I HAVE NOT SEEN HIM IN A YEAR AND FIVE MONTHS AND I HAVE NOT SEEN MY 3 YEAR OLD GRANDDAUGHTER IN ONE YEAR. THE NEWEST GRANDDAUGHTER I HAVE ONLY SEEN IN A PICTURE. MY PROBLEM IS MY SON FOR SOME REASON DOESN'T LIKE ME ANYMORE. WE WERE VERY CLOSE AS HE WAS GROWING UP TILL HE HIT 14. THERE WERE REASONS FOR HIM BEING MAD AT ME BUT SINCE THEN I MADE AMMENDS AND ALL SEEMED TO BE OK. DUE TO AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP I WASN'T AROUND MUCH AND HE CHOSE TO STAY AT MY PARENTS. I LEARNED THE HARDWAY THAT I MADE A TERRIBLE DECISION AND MESSED UP. IT HAS BEEN FOUR YEARS NOW I HAVE MET A REALLY GREAT GUY AND WE ARE PLANNING ON GETTING MARRIED. MY SON HOWEVER HAS TURNED ON ME. HE DOESN'T WANT ME IN HIS LIFE

Lonely
EVER HAD ONE OF THOSE DAYS (or nights) when you are so lonely for some affection that all you want to do is stay in bed all day and hold a teddy bear...and no matter what anyone says or does it doesn't make it better...well in case you can't tell, i am having one of those days...my divorce will be final in 9 days so i guess that and the fact that i have no life outside of work and my kids might have something to do with it...(not for lack of trying) noone is interested and i can't figure it out...i mean i don't think i am that hideous looking and i have been told i have a great personality and sense of humor...and that i am fun to hang out with...can anyone help me...i need answers..WHAT AM I DOING WRONG???

Her..... Him To Cum.. Err.. I Mean Come!
Her The library has always been a very erotic place for me. It’s so peaceful. The smell from the books drives me crazy. I think what really gets me is that everyone tries so hard not to be noticed or bother anyone else.. And being deaf I'm extra worried about being noisy. Back in college I was working late at the library, trying to finish up some last minute research for a report. Sitting in one of the far corners, I was pretty much secluded. Periodically, someone would walk by, but for the most part, I was alone. I’d been working for two hours and needed a break. Getting up, I walked to the drinking fountain and back to my corner. I had passed by one area and seen two teenagers secretly kissing in the corner. The image was strangely erotic to me. The smell of the books, the tension, everything, it was all starting to get to me. Sitting back in my corner, I tried to focus on my research. The pages were blurry to me. My brain didn’t want to think anymore. I’d seen enough sta

I Lost Everything!!!!
ok..so i moved into this house...and when the water was turned on..there were two huge water leaks under the house..when the landlord found out....BAM he decided that to say that we were never approved to move in and we were tresspassing and gave us a week to get out...all because he didnt want to fix the pipes.....then he said I never singed a lease and that the house was not ready to move into..yet there was a for rent sign and he gave me a key...needless to say after my week was up and we had not yet moved our stuff he had the police kick in the doors to the house and all my stuff was ransacked and ruined and gone through by all who walked by...I lost everything i owend...now everything I could save fits into my jeep...which goes to show that when your life is sucking ass...it just gets worse!!!!!

Apples And Wine
Yep I have decided that I must be a moroon when it comes to picking guys, I always seem to pick the ones that are either out to hurt me or are just plain liars. So I need some reassurance that yes, there are actually good men out there, good men that appreciate a good woman. Good men that are not out to hurt me, play me or lie to me.....I really need to know that they exist. Apples & Wine Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but they are easy to get. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right person to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree. Now Men....men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up t

How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have
You Are 92% Sexy Your Sex Appeal Is: Off the Charts! Let's face it... you're one of the sexiest people around. And you don't let anyone forget it. You're crazy hot, and you deliver on what you promise. You are definitely one wild ride.How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?

Best Kid Contest!
~*~ Kid Contest!~*~ I'm doing a kid contest! Kids any age can join! 1st Kid Is...... with 1 comments 2nd Kid is...... with 1 comments 3rd Kid is...... with 1 comments 4th Kid is...... with 1 comments 5th Kid is...... with 1 comments 6th Kid is...... with 1 comments 7th Kid is...... with 1 comments 8th Kid is..... with 1 comments 9th Kid is..... with 1 comments 10th Kid is..... with 1 comments 11th Kid is...... with 1 comments 12th Kid is...... with 1 comments 13th Kid is......

Yesterday.
ok soo yesterday was pretty fucking busy at work i mean like really cuz it was cold outside soo people want coffee but damn lol..and we also had a christian festival going on ugh...and what made it worse is people asking questions when we were all fucking busy and it was STUPID questions.. like "where do we order"...what the fuck..did people get brought up in the zoo..shit.. i can not deal with alot of stupidity..at all...and then somebody seems like they dont want to talk to me anymore.. OH FUCKING WELL..im done with trying to talk to people that dont want to talk to me...fuck that

Selfish People!
Seems there are tons of them here...........what is the deal with points actually?? Someone Please let me KNOW just what good they are for real!! When I DO take the time to ASK someone to be my Friend, it is because I see something in them of pure Value! Not, just what they can do for my " Standing" in this place......to me that is worth nothing....what matters is being there for each other, listening when needed, give advice if asked....just seeing how things are going for them & honestly MEANING what you say! Not a charade.......people NEED other people,not points and rates and comments .....so guess this will be ignored also..well guess what?? I do not care, I am a friend to those that value me as a person, nothing more or less. So have yourself a Wonderful time, harm no one in your quest for Fame & Blessings to one and all that spare a Moment to read my venting!!!!!!!! Hugs all....

Keep
i have fallen prey to the hands of fate once again i see a road i cant use to make amends i think im finally doing ok sometimes i sit and drink the night away but in this life that we lead sometimes our feelings mislead and the head and the heart don't see the same one hates to lose and the other feels shame so then its right back to the start another lonely broken heart I think this time ill take the blame for the sake of keeping things the same the past is long gone now and ive kept it together somehow its all i can do some happiness is overdue i think its time to go back to the start no more loneliness or broken hearts ive laid to rest all the blame no more sorrow no more shame just a man that is finally free it finally feels good to be me

Beauty
the warm autumn breeze cascading through the sparse, discolored leaves of the large oak tree the cool breeze blowing gently across your face the light blue gentle sky with the small whisps of clouds sailing across it the little orange, brown, and red dots littering the lawns the wild river meandering peacefully readying itself for the winter chills ahead contempt with the movement across its jagged rocky floor the silence in the air, screeming to us the warning for the upcomming dead of winter to me this is true beauty the beauty of mother natures artistic charms

Erotic Story
"I'm inviting a girlfriend of mine over to dinner tonight, don't forget," I said one Friday morning. When you come over that evening, you could hear two feminine voices in the living room. I sit down between you and her on the couch, and after ten minutes of small talk, I turn the lights low and gently start making out with her. I'm kneading and caressing her tits with an erotic urgency. Finally saying that we should get naked and get in bed! I lay down in the middle of the bed and propped up the pillows so you and her could lay down on either side of me. Soon she slides down a little and mouths my tits. Then we are tonguing each other's open mouths as we play with each other's bodies. You slide your hand between my thighs and I opened up for you excitedly. Mmmmm I groan as I begin to feel aroused. I start fondling your cock while guiding her hand onto it too so that both of us are teasing your rock hard cock. And then she puts her warm, moist mouth close over your cock... and

Ten Thoughts To Ponder For 2007
Number 10 -- Life is sexually transmitted. Number 9 -- Good health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die. Number 8 -- Men have two emotions: Hungry and Horny.? If you see him without an erection, make him a sandwich. Number 7 -- Give a person a fish and you feed him for a day; teach a person to use the internet and he won't bother you for weeks. Number 6 -- Some people are like a Slinky... not really good for anything, but you still can't help but smile when you shove them down the stairs. Number 5 -- Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing. Number 4 -- All of us could take a lesson from the weather.? It pays no attention to criticism. Number 3 -- Why does a slight tax increase cost you two hundred dollars and a substantial tax cut saves you thirty cents? Number 2 -- In the 60's, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal. And,

All Good Things Must Come To An End...
a whole Roasted Turkey breast sour cream mashed potatos stuffing corn on the cob asparagus sauted with garlic and shallots pan gravy breadsticks I just spent the better part of my afternoon making what could easily be considered a Thanksgiving meal...for 2 people. Two people who don't really even eat that much. Which got me to thinking..I really need to get this catering shit up and off the ground. It's pretty much the only thing i love to do I just have to motivate myself to really work on this Which also got me thinking...after tonight..i'm done drinking. till friday night *smirks* lol No more drinking during the week..i can't keep doing that and actually concentrate and get my shit together let's see if i can pull either off. btw dinner was deeeeeeeliscious ^_^

Baby Drama.......
So my daughter and I had a birthday party to attend today,but instead fo going I let her mother take her.Normally this wouldnt be a problem right,WRONG!Her mother took her there,ate then left her and went somewhere else.Now the party was important because it was a close friends daughters party.If I would have known this was gonna happen,I would've went.My daughter hasnt seen her mother for longer than 4 hours in over 2 weeks.She always has something more important to do.What could make a MOTHER act like this towards their child?How could something else become so much more important?How as a Father do I explain her mothers actions to her?Hopefully she will change her ways before our daughter realizes that she doesnt care.So for everyone out there that matters,I wont be around as often and this is the reason why.Ill be busy being a father.When i am around please say HI because i will miss you.

The Stranger In The Mist
Amy and Michelle were the best of friends. They met five years ago at the law firm where they are both legal secretaries. They decided they wanted to have some fun and went to the local dance club. Amy wore a red loose-fitting short skirt with a black mesh shirt and lacy black bra. Her shoes were your basic black pumps and her nails matched her little red skirt. Michelle wore a short, baby blue dress that would raise up when she spun around on the dance floor and gave anyone, lucky enough to look at the right time, a little peek of her ample backside. They both did their share of flirting and slamming down tequila shots. Michelle had not eaten much all day so the tequila was having more effect on her than Amy. Around midnight Michelle decided she was tired and not feeling good so she called a cab and went home. Not long after she left, a tall handsome guy approached Amy. As he got closer Amy gave him the once over. Long brown hair, dark and soulful brown eyes, and no wedding

For All Of My Fellow Sagittarians
Sagittarians have a positive outlook on life, are full of enterprise, energy, versatility, adventurousness and eagerness to extend experience beyond the physically familiar. They enjoy travelling and exploration, the more so because their minds are constantly open to new dimensions of thought. They are basically ambitious and optimistic, and continue to be so even when their hopes are dashed. Their strongly idealistic natures can also suffer many disappointments without being affected. They are honorable, honest, trustworthy, truthful, generous and sincere, with a passion for justice. They are usually on the side of the underdog in society they will fight for any cause they believe to be just, and are prepared to be rebellious. They balance loyalty with independence. Sagittarians are usually modest and are often religious, with a strong sense of morality, though they tend to overemphasize the ethical codes they follow and worship beliefs about God rather than God Himself. This means

Another Relapse-part 5
4-15-07 Papi RH ( Need Entries For-Sexiest Texan Girl Contest)@ CherryTAP Yet again, I have had anoter relapse 8:30 AM CST, I'm not sure about my levels. Till tomorrow, but please pray that they will be as they should. Ryan

Poem- Would You Like To Dance?
Would You Like to Dance? Kristina R. Manuel April 15, 2007 The music is soft and slow- Through the smoky air Appears a heavenly glow As I wonder, "What could be there?" Gravity pulls me Towards the most beautiful vision I have ever seen- My heart races into another division- "Could this be a dream?"- You spot me from across the room- Thunder and lightening Fill my veins and chest with a sudden boom- Our eyes connect- Every time you smile I'm smiling right back- I take your hand As I ask you to dance- Without a second glance You follow me in a lovestruck trance- You have touched me with your gentle hand And broke my nerves of steel- Sparks fly as we collide Our bodies burn as we smoothly glide Dancing on the edge Through a passion of burning desire- With every touch the flames grow higher- The world around us disappears As I pull your body close to mine- Tender kisses, so sincere... As you whisper gently in my ear, "Would you like to dance?"

4/14/07 Shoot
I've been told by a few friends that their Alert Boxes aren't showing when I update my photos (or anything else, for that matter - Hope this shows up!) Anyway, for anybody who cares to see them, I posted pix from the shoot we did last night in my Newest Pix folder. Thanks and have a great day!

For The Guys
I gotta know something......what do you look for in a woman....looks, personality....all of it..what appeals most to you......do women have to look like Barbie to get your attention??? Come on....be honest....I really wanna know!!!

Attn All Fff And Cb/cg's...
OKAY YOU KNOW WHAT I HAVE HAD ABOUT ENOUGH OF THE SHIT THAT IS GOING ON WITH MEMBERS IN HERE. YOU GUYS WANTED ME IN THE POSITION AND HOW THE HELL YOU ALL EXPECT ME TO DO MY JOB PROPERLY IF YOU CAN'T CLUE ME IN ON SHIT. SO THIS IS YOUR FIRST AND FINALLY WARNING ALL CHANGES WITH MEMBERS WILL BE BROUGHT TO MY ATTN IMMEDIATELY IS THIS UNDERSTOOD!!!! THIS MEANS WHO IS IN THE GROUP & WHO ISN'T, WHO IS DATING WHO, WHO BROKE UP WITH WHO AND ANYTHING ELSE THAT IS REVELANT TO THE GROUP AND IF SOME OF YOU DONT LIKE WELL YA CAN LICK ME WHERE THE SUN DONT SHINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IN THIS GROUP... I AM THE LAW!!!

Heart Felt
Pariah I have been numbed from this actuality turned into your pariah all for nothing Wanted the truth, Force fed deceit Nothing could amend this felony Tore my hopes to the darkess depths Burnt my essence to the core I have never felt thrown away I believe i deserve so much more than you Crawling through the dark On a floor of broken glass seeking the soft embrace of hope and reverie Reaching towards that light that renews my faith in love only to be brought back to the same dark lonely place I will be here no more...

Marriage Proposal
He bought me a diamond ring on cherry tap and sent the "will you marry me..." message with it. I didn't want it to get deleted so I am saving it to my blog. YES!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! === 'BILLY[ I'M GOING TO BE A DADDY AGAIN] JACK' spewed forth the following at '2007-02-03 00:56:27'.. > > "will you marry me..."

New Start
Hi Everyone! Just wanted to let you know that I am starting my new job. I am nervous and excited. I think it will be a good change. One problem... I will not be online during the day for awhile... As soon as I get settled in you will see me but for now you will have to just get a jillie fix at night or in the morning :P Well I am off like a prom dress! Cya!

4. 3. 2.....1!
My 21st b-day is in 4 days! I cant wait till friday. All i know is i have to go to a mandatory store meeting at my other job at 9 on saturday god i hope my hangovers not bad... lol i rarely get out much anymore with work and a baby, so this has been planned for months, I bought a new outfit for my b-day and im redying my hair...(Getting rid of this burgandy it faded already) I ordered some new body jewelry online and bought myself a blast I guess thats my birthday present to myself. Everyone thinks 21 is such a big deal because of the alcohol status..Thats not really the main reason im excited. At 21 i now look back on all my mistakes and think of them as Well I was young...Trust me Ive made a few...Basically from my 18th birthday on up...I made all the wrongs decisions for the right reasons... Now I look @ 21 I have a beautiful healthy 9 month old (who now gets into everything by the way) 2 jobs a great family...and the few friendships I have... real friendships i have have lasted f

Don't Treat Me Bad
I never thought you'd hurt me I guess you live and learn That when you're playin' with fire you're bound to get burned I've been mistreated, I've been used before I get kicked in the face still I come back for more But I won't cry no more 'cause the tears are all in vain We can pick up the pieces and start it all again Let's just get back to the way it was before Oh, girl I can't take anymore Chorus: Baby, don't treat me bad Well, this could be the best thing that you'll ever have Baby, don't treat me bad (Well) you can do anything, but baby, don't treat me bad Oh, don't treat me bad I gave it everything, but you threw it all away I can't take anymore of these games that you play I've been through heartache and I've been through pain And it's hard to believe you still treat me this way But I won't cry no more 'cause the tears are all in vain We can pick up the pieces and start it all again Let's just get back to the way it was before Oh, girl I can't take

Ucla Study
UCLA Study A study conducted by UCLA's Department of Psychiatry has revealed that the kind of face a woman finds attractive on a man can differ depending on where she is in her menstrual cycle. For example: If she is ovulating, she is attracted to men with rugged and masculine features. However, if she is menstruating, or menopausal, she tends to be more attracted to a man with scissors lodged in his temple and a bat jammed up his ass while he is on fire. :)

What To Do In 2007...cute!
Sleep as much as you can... Read books that you enjoy... Play with simple things... Do whatever you want whenever you want... Look for affection when you need it... Get serious once in a while... Forget about diets... Show some affection... Get angry once in a while... Change your look... Be happy, above all, regardless what your challenges may be... Have a great year! May your troubles be less, your blessings more,and nothing but happiness come through Goddess's love each day.

Irc?
Wanna check out a cool way to chat? IRC is pretty cool. I have been doin it for years. You should joins us and meet some cool peeps. The first link is java and the second is mIRC which is a stand alone program and kick ass for irc! Get Realitybytez mIRC

I Hate Needles....
I really hate needles especially ones that are used for medical purposes. I can handle getting a tattoo, but what I can't is getting a spinal tap. That big needle coming at me just makes me cring. The thought of being paralysed or having them screw it up is frightning enough. I have to have several because of my MS. They check regularly the protein levels in my body. Yeah for me. I don't have any family or friend's to talk to about all of this except my hubby. If it wasn't 4 him I would have to give my injections myself. It was a huge deal being diagnosed mid way through my second pregnancy. I am the only person in my family with it. Multiple Sclerosis I always though that it was something u were born with. I never realized that u could have an adult onset & it come out later in life.

Love Found Me
In through the darkness with a flood of light A cloaked man stood and stole the night His aura was sweet, his scent so pleasant He brought my heart to its knees As if it were an unworthy peasant His voice ripped holes threw my hearts darkened shroud He spoke with confidence as he stood so proud Come to me and you shall feel the light One of eternal love that’s ever so bright Your heart will not ache for love no more For in you life I shall surely restore As my darkened features lifted so I seen the face that I’d die to know And then with a proud and handsome grin He tore open my heart and let his light in.

Real Friends..
You guys are the best! If your wondering who i'm talking about, you, reading this now! Because you care enough to read this, because you may have read my whiny ones I posted before. Because you maybe tracked me down in an instant message. Thank you. The biggest thanks for those select few. Gypsy18519,for putting up with my moods on a constant basis and remaining my friend through it all! Cola, for always being sweet to me no matter what. Dark Corset Beauty, very personal reasons there, but she knows why. And most of all, Dark Angel, without her, my recovery might not have ever began. Love you all! Thanks for being my friend. And you guys I didn't mention, The ones who read my blogs and cheer me up in the lounges, and send me comments, Thank you guys so much, Too many of you to mention! I do have friends. I love you all!

Monday Bitches
ATTENTION:LADIES,...WELCOME TO THE CLAN,... WE ARE THE MONDAY BITCHES,...WRECK YOUR DAY, WE ARE FIGHTERS WHEN WE ARE MAD,AND PERHAPS EVEN A LITTLE COCKY,MONDAY BITCHES YES,A CUSS WORD BECAUSE IT'S MONDAY,I'M PROUD FOR YOU TO CALL ME A BITCH,FUCK GO AHEAD,MAKE MY MONDAY BITCH A DREAM COME TRUE,FOR I AM NOT THE ONLY MONDAY BITCH,...BELIEVE ME,THERE IS STUFF US MONDAY BITCHES BITCH ABOUT,LIKE BAD DRIVERS THE GODDAMNED RAIN,THE BITCH WHO LOOKS AT YOU WRONG,IF LOKKS COULD KILL,NOW REALLY BITCH,...MONDAY BITCHES ARE A LITTLE JEALOUS AND SPITEFUL,FOR AWHILE,...AND QUICK TO FLIP THE FINGER,...BUT MAYBE YOU CAN MAKE THIS MONDAY BITCHES DAY,... OR MAYBE THIS MONDAY BITCH,JUST NEEDS TO GET GOOD AND FUCKED.---GUYS CAN BE MONDAY BITCHES TOO.

For I Am A Fool
WE all know how cruel this world can be. Dspite all the beautiful things and concerts we get to attend and music we listen to theres also ass holes! lol About a month ago, I met this gentleman ( i thought) lol and we were slowly just communicating. After a while of talking quite frequently, he offered to take me out on a date. I told him I wassent looking for a realationship however i would love to get to know you as a friend first. So I went and saw a movie with him. We saw Ghost Rider with Nicolas Cage, great actor. After the movie was over he was just saying how he would feel pretty much honered to go on a second date with me. I had no reason not to as well. So a week goes by and hes been cold to me and weird. I have no clue why i know i did nothing wrong however not knowing caused my cobwebbed brain to wonder quite a bit. So days go by and I get nothing from him, so i kept beating myself up wondering what i did wrong to scare him the way it seems i did. Last nig

Sand And Stone
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING THROUGH THE DESERT. DURING SOME POINT OF THE JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE. THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE. THEY KEPT ON WALKING, UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS, WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING, BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM. AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM THE NEAR DROWNING, HE WROTE ROTE ON A STONE: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE ." THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU, YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW, YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?" THE FRIEND REPLIED "WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY. BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US, WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE W

Hater Hater Hater Hater Hater
OK...SO I BASICALLY WONT FAN ANYONE THAT WONT FAN ME...CAUSE SERIOUSLY ALOT OF PEOPLE WONT! SO I WENT TO THIS WOMANS PROFILE....AND I ASKED HER TO BE FRIENDS...DID NOT FAN HER! I SAID TO HER IN SHOUTBOX I DONT DO NO FANNINGS ILL ONLY FAN IF YOU FAN BACK,SHE DIDNT SAY ANYTHING ALL SHE WAS LEAVE HER PIC ON MY PROFILE...SO I WAS READING HER PROFILE MORE AND MORE...AND IF YOU ALL READ IT..WHOA THIS WOMAN DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT HER FRIENDS...SHE ONLY WANTS EM CAUSE THEY HAVE THE MONEY...IF YOU READ MORE..IT SAYS TO GET IN MY FAMILY YOU "HAVE" TO BUY ME A 3 DAYS BLAST..SO I LAUGHED AND I SAID..HMMM I WENT TO HER IN SHOUTBOX AND SAID..WELL HOW ABOUT THIS..YOU BUY ME A 3 DAY BLAST AND ILL ADD YOU TO MY FAMLY...*ONLY KIDDING* CAUSE YOU ALL KNOW MY HUMOUR.THIS IS WHAT SHE WRITES BACK...TOOK A SNAGIT SHOT! AS YOU SEE HERE IT SAYS "BLAST FOR FAMILY" HER SHOUTBOX COMMENT BACK TO ME! AND OH YES SHE BLOCKED ME SO I COULD NOT REPLY BACK. HER COMMENT TO ME ON MY PROFILE! NOW! DID I SAY ANYTH

Why Do Things Seem To Change
as ive lived my life ive noticed one thing that never really changes peoples opinions of you change constantly and a majority of them say its because you start acting differently or you change but how come ive been told this many time over by lots of people ive actually cared for yet some of my more constant friends even agree i havent changed my personality or anything yet im told by others im different yet the feelings i have to these people are the same i care to much i guess hope someone can provide me with a explination to such a thing