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Surgery
woke up this morning with the phone ringing.the doctor had a cancellation and I could see him at nine to have a cyst removed from behind my ear. so off I go and half an hour later the cyst is removed and the bad news is I may lose one of my piercings in my ear , will find out more when its healed

The Good Husband
Jack wakes up with a huge hangover after attending his company's Christmas Party. Jack is not normally a drinker, but the drinks didn't taste like alcohol at all. He didn't even remember how he got home from the party. As bad as he was feeling, he wondered if he did something wrong. Jack had to force himself to open his eyes, and the first thing he sees is a couple of aspirins next to a glass of water on the side table. And, next to them, a single red rose! Jack sits up and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and pressed. He looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order, spotlessly clean. So is the rest of the house. He takes the aspirins, cringes when he sees a huge black eye staring back at ! him in the bathroom mirror. Then he notices a note hanging on the corner of the mirror written in red with little hearts on it and a kiss mark from his wife in lipstick: "Honey, breakfast is on the stove, I left early to get groceries to make you your favorite dinner

Anna Nicole Smith Fate
2/8/2007 Dear Readers: In this newsletter I will do first the Astropsychological profile of Both Anna Nicole Smith and as soon as I can Lisa Nowak. This work will give you an idea on how important it is to know your relationship with the Divine by exploring your UCI (Unique Celestial Identity). Regardless of my many emails sent to NASA over the years trying to stop the launch of the shuttle during a waning moon and a Super Nova Window http://www.drturi.com/eclipse_predictions.php those "educated mental snobs" scientists are responsible for the death of many courageous astronauts. Now a serious dilemma is taken place because of their obvious INACURATE psychological assessments pertaining to the abnormal mental state of Lisa Nowak. Remember this powerful agency depends on your tax dollar to survive and they MUST by law explain their failure to all the taxpayers. This once more tells you that; when I write about "the infantile" science in many of my newsletters, I am not ex

Asinine Dereliction...
from my myspace page. Dated 9/26/06 Someone once told me that they found mutual mastrubation exciting...And I had to ask if whackin' it to the naked pictures of her that are online counted...And apparently, she didn't know she even had nude pics...Let alone ones on the internet. You should have seen her face when I told her she was one of dirtywhitetrashwhores.com's biggest money makers. Me and my big mouth. Random thought...Anyone ever have a midget kick them in the teeth? BEFORE SHE KICKS YOU IN THE JUNK? So...Some of you may be wondering, what in the fuck does this have to do with the set category...And all I'm gonna say is this... ...NOT A DAMN THING...well, anymore...I kinda sorta had a bit of an A.D.D. attack...If you couldn't tell from the title...damn I need a ciggarette. ***************************************** ...I hate chicken. I've never liked it all that well...Unless it tasted like something else...Like...Not chicken... Oh yeah.

Sorry I Havent Been Around..........
i will get back up and running soon i hope..takes time to start over when you have to start from scratch.but life gets better every day.love ya all lots..keep me in your thoughts. love lisa

Dolphins Need Your Help
PLEASE HELP BY REPOSTING THIS BLOG AND WATCH THE VIDEO. IT IS VERY DISTURBING THOUGH DONT WATCH IF YOU HAVE A WEAK STOMACH. THIS IS WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO DOLPHINS IN JAPAN. PLEASE REPOST!!!!

People Fucking Wake Up
Ok... Obviously I am a poet.. but it helps to get some feedback.. constructive criticism... so could you get some balls and leave a comment.. it can be in praise or in opposition.. just leave something damn it! Thanks! R

The Mommy
The past couple of days have been days that have reminded me just how short life is. How in the blink of eye your life can change or even worse be over. My daughter, Madison is in 3rd grade. I always hear her talk about a little boy who sits by her named Jordan. "He is always asking me for my pencils mommy!" She would always give them to him though. I didn't know much about Jordan until yesterday. Now I'd give anything to change that. Jordan's mom must have been busy yesterday morning. She first dropped Jordan's little sister off at an elementary school near their home, and then dropped Jordan off at his school which is about 30 minutes from their home . Jordan has an older brother who is currently hospitalized with strep, mono and bronchitis. The hospital is about a mile and a half from Jordan's school. So after dropping Jordan off she was heading to see her other son in the hospital..only a mile and a half away....within three blocks of the hospital she was killed. Another driver ran

Redneck Valentines Poem
Collards is green my dog's name is Blue and I'm so lucky to have a sweet thang like you. Yore hair is like cornsilk a-flapping in the breeze Softer than Blue's and without all them fleas. You move like the bass, which excite me in May. You ain't got no scales but I luv you anyway. Yo're as satisfy'n as okry jist a-fry'n in the pan. Yo're as fragrant as "snuff" right out of the can. You have som'a yore teeth, for which I am proud; I hold my head high when we're in a crowd. On special occasions, when you shave under yore arms, well, I'm in hawg heaven, and awed by yore charms. Still them fellers at work, they all want to know, what I did to deserve such a purdy, young doe. Like a good roll of duct tape yo're there fer yore man, to patch up life's troubles and fix what you can. Yo're as cute as a junebug a-buzzin' overhead. You ain't mean like those far ants I found in my bed. Cut from the best cloth like a plaid flannel shirt, you s

Proof Of Controlled Demolition At Wtc
A steel building has never fallen from fire not before 9-11 or since. These are very short clips, please watch them!!! Clip 1 Clip 2 Clip 3 Clip 4 Clip 5 Proof Of Controlled Demolition At The WTC by Jerry Russell, Ph.D Steel frame towers are built very strongly. They need to withstand the pressure of gale-force winds, the violent rocking motion of earthquakes, and the ravages of time. For this reason, they are almost impossible to destroy. Airplane strikes do not destroy skyscrapers. A bomber strike to the Empire State Building during World War II did not harm that building. The World Trade Center towers were designed to survive a strike by a Boeing 707. The 767 is more massive, so the building was stressed near its design limits. But if a failure had occurred at that moment, it would have been at the point of highest levered stress, near the base of the tower, and the tower would have fallen over like a giant tree in a forest windstorm. That, of course, d

Mother's Love
A little boy came up to his mother in the kitchen one evening while she was fixing supper, and handed her a piece of paper that he had been writing on. After his Mom dried her hands on an apron, she read it, and this is what it said: For cutting the grass: $5.00 For cleaning up my room this week: $1.00 For going to the store for you: $.50 Baby-sitting my kid brother while you went shopping: $.25 Taking out the garbage: $1.00 For getting a good report card: $5.00 For cleaning up and raking the yard: $2.00 Total owed: $14.75 Well, his mother looked at him standing there, and the boy could see the memories flashing through her mind. She picked up the pen, turned over the paper he'd written on, and this is what she wrote: For the nine months I carried you while you were growing inside me: No Charge For all the nights that I've sat up with you, doctored and prayed for you: No Charge For all the trying times, and all the tears that you've caused through

Nice....
So last night C knew that I had a really bad day and decided to give me something that he picked me up for Valantines early...and wow..... Nice huh....custom made..the indents in the middle and around the points are the palces where I can choose and have placed any stones or gems that I would like....its freaking awesome!!!!

I Cant Resist Chocolate
baby let's you and me dance, let loose, cavort and prance, desire's running hot and wild i have the notion to TACKLE you! i'll lose my mind, your rhythm to find, you just lay back, relax, watch and learn as i stradle myself over your slender hips impaled, I grind, gyrate, twist and turn.. narrowed eyes, pouting lips, i grip your shoulders as up, down, first slowly, then faster i accelerate.. your luscious dark brown eyes crunch up oh so tight, for that moment of release i know you can't wait.. passion's intensity flowing from within me, deep vertical friction ignites fire and steam, india's drum beat drives me to rock steady, bouncing harder with each gasp that you heave.. oh, my sweet pretty baby, do i drive you crazy? is that you, drenched in sweat, writhing beneath with fists clenched, grasping madly at the sheets? hmm.. i wonder, will you explode with one more tease? i can't resist! i'm between your thighs, tasting chocolate sweet,

You Want To Know Who I Am?
i am the awakening - i am the dream, i am the fruitful - i am the seed.. i am the whisper - i am the wild, i am the woman and i am the child... i am the softness - i am the still, i am the healing and i am the will.. i am the desert - i am the sea, i am the juice and i am the heat... i am the naked - i am the raw, i am the lover and i am the loved.. i am the longing - i am the release, i am the hunger and i am the feast.. i am the flesh - i am the skin, i am the mouth and i am the limbs.. i am the touch - i am the embrace, i am the sensual and i am the face..

Lets Ride
take me into the sunset of yesterday, where fireflies shimmy in candle dance, where love true and pure ecstasy reigns.. ride with me across this ocean of grass, lead me through the dark sea of my tears.. banish my fears, let me think only of you.. atop the mighty stallion of our passion - i cling to your back lest i be swept away, (come welcoming darkness, i bid the day adeu..) gentle full moon go before us, lead the way.. she, clad in an aura of softest silvery light spreads above her star-studded veil so bright.. my lover takes over, the night is his and mine.. digging spurred heels into this steed of vertigo faster we race, hotter becomes this wild chase.. steamy kisses consume, hearts rage in flames, sucked deep into the vortex of his fiery embrace.. the love that we make sprouts wings and we soar, past the stars...past heaven...past infinity..

~~~ Vigil ```
as night-time spreads her black velvet cloak over a sky troubled and fevered with strife, i wrap my comfort about your body so warm.. -- pulse racing -- as the watchful moon blesses the heavens with her soft radience illuminating the pale night, i pray to God as you dream that you'll be safe from harm.. -- blood stirring -- as the air stretches its legs in unbroken silence, the stillness of near dawn tinged by soft light, i gaze upon your dear face sleeping, i can't prolong -- breath catching -- brushing your lips with a kiss to assure you of my love, to let you know that i'll always be your dove.. to listen to the rhythm of your precious heartbeat.. -- soul half-smiling -- how beautiful is he, my love who lies so peacefully.. to watch over my angel, tis a thing so sweet.. so contented and satisfied, i fall asleep...

The Speaking Mind
the calm serenity of loneliness... the awkward silence of fear... the delighting fiercity in happiness... the utter perfection of sadness... the relenting comfort of one's tears... the betraying flicker of love... the cruel but pure intentions of our hearts... the invasion of half-awake dreams... the sigh of a bird in the throes of death... the never-ending wonder of a newborn's cry... the gift of living and enduring passion... the warm brush of destiny's lips... the mystery of a soul almost disclosed... the wisdom of a mother to her child... the tired, sleepless fool... the beauty of a single rose... the challenge of a familiar's curiosity... the peace of the dead... the feebleness of yearning... the annoying torture of wanting to be touched... the helplessness of going it alone... the poetic justice of words... the relentless whispers of the wind... the untamed dreams that await... another midsummer's night...

More Venting 2.9.07
Why, FUCKING Why?! did you want to see me bleed more lay more lowly than i did when you showed up did you want to see more tears more heartbreak more agony more fear and distrust was i a clever experiment to see if you could break the broken was i a hole and a heartbeat did you want to take all that was left and throw it away because i would have given it all for your smile if you had only asked

" Thank You Lord "
Rain falls cold on folded hands, a broken soul kneels down to pray.. crying out "Forgive me Father God, I'm sorry, I don't know what to say.." so often succumbing, falling short, I've messed up, gone far astray... tired of sinning, of feeling lost, realizing that these evil deeds sent Jesus to the bloody cross.. the very thought, it tortures me, and overwhelmed by the great cost the great God of heaven chose to pay, to rescue me from eternal misery - I fall face down to the ground, whispering, "Thank you Lord..." unable to find words to express the joy, the unbelieveable relief that I'm set free of hopelessness... no longer a slave to the shadows - from now to forever, a child of light.. I breathe in deep a breathful of peace, as slowly from my knees I rise...

Valentine ...
The legend says St. Valentine Was in a prison cell Thinking of his little flock He had always loved so well And wanting to assure them Of his friendship and his love He picked a bunch of violets And sent them by a dove. And on the violets' leaves He pierced these lines divine That simply said, "I Love You" And "I'm your Valentine" So through the years that followed From that day unto this Folks still send messages of love And seal them with a kiss. Because a Saint in prison Reached through prison bars one day And picked a bunch of violets And sent them out to say That faith and love can triumph No matter where you are For faith and love are greater Than the strongest prison bar.

When Will All This End
Slowly, slowly he walks behind I feel as if I’m loosing my mind I turn, I turn and face to him I ask “When will this all end?” He takes, takes, takes my hand. He says, “I’m trying to understand.” I speak, “Don’t try just do and know if you don’t stop then I will go.” Tears fall, fall down my cheek they burn my face… and make me weak. I run for cover to get away but pain is here won’t die, it stays.

In The Bed Alone Again
SO YOU R AT EZ NOW THINKING OF ME ASKING U DO YOU WANT ME TO TOUCH YOU ALL THE PLACE YOU LOVE TO BE TOUCH YOU ANSWER WITH YES PLEASE! WE LAY THERE IN R UNDERWEARS AS U PUSH YOUR ASS ONTO MY DICK. I TELL U IN YOUR EAR WHAT I'M GO'N TO DO TO DAT FINE BODY. I START TO MOVE MY HANDS SLOWLY OVER YOUR SHOULDERS IN SLOW MOTION AS I FEEL YOU BODY START TO RELAXE IN MY HANDS. YOU GRIND YOUR SEXY ASS ON MY ROCK HARD DIC! I RUN ONE OF MY HANDS DOWN FROM YOUR NECK TO YOUR BREAST WERE I START TO CARESSING THEM AS I RUN MY FINGERS ALL OVER YOUR NIPPLES AS I LIC AND SUC ON THE SIDE OF YOUR NECK MMMM..... I CAN FEEL YOUR NIPPLE START TO GET HARD BETWEEN MY FINGERS AS YOU SLOWLY PLACE YOUR HAND BEHIND YOUR ASS SO THAT YOU CAN PUT YOUR HAND DOWN MY BOXERS SO YOU CAN STROKE MY DIC YOU SAY OOOO, HOW I LOVE HOW HARD IT IS AWWWWW..... I ROLL U OVER ONTO YOUR STOMACH RUN MY HANDS DOWN YOUR BACK INTO I GET TO YOUR THONG WERE I RUN MY FINGER DOWN AND UP THE MIDDLE OF YOUR ASS PULLING THEM TO ONE SIDE SO I CAN

The Lost
I heard from someone that you are in love with me. That is something that I would never have seen. Your love I didn't notice as warm I thought that you would only harm. My heart was afraid to let you inside, Maybe it is something I would only hide. When you looked in my eyes and took my hand, Walked beside me on the beach, in the cold wet sand. I never saw it coming, your expression, your words. A poem flowing from your soul, I have never heard. I chased you and wanted you to hold me nights But you pushed me away, as if in flight. So I desided to keep my distance and stay a little cold Now you are hitting full force, acting so bold. Telling me you need me when the nights are long, Telling me tears are flowing when you hear, "Our Song." This is all news to me, this passion that you begun....... Can't you see, it's much too late, and your not the one? The rain will continue falling, the wind will be strong.... And I hope you can one day forget about "

Wtf!
Why is it that every guy on a community website feels the need to post the token shirtless myspace pic. It's the typical male ego that gives the rest of us a bad name. No one gives a shit about you and your chest, so if you feel the need to take one don't make it your primary cuz it's just fucking annoying.

As Of Recently...
My defense walls were built so high for a long time that I never really let anyone in. I walked away and never gave some amazing people a chance to really get in. It wasn't doubt that scared me, it was allowing someone that close to me. When you love someone you give them your heart, you give them a piece of you, a piece that they are capable of breaking but you love them enough to expect them to not. You give them that part of you in hopes they cherish it forever. Not being able to trust can be a killer, following an illusion will lead you no where. All the excuses, lies covering my true feelings, and the whole gambit pushed aside. I am starting to now see clearly. I owe this to a truly amazing friend, perhaps one of the best friends I will have in this lifetime. He knows me well enough to burrow under my skin and push all my buttons. He has gotten me motivated to make a change. No, he does not want me to change who I am, he wants me to better myself. Some people would call his

Bicurious
lately i have been wondering what it would be like to be with a girl not just a girl. i dont want to turn lez. cause i love matt. but i am thinking more of doing threesomes with him. even if i dont do that i still want to mess around with a girl. i dont know if that is badd or good. so i am starting to freak myself out cause i know a lot of girls do it but its weird for guys so i dont know what to do.

Regarding Religion
There are so many religions in this world, why do we criticize someone’s faith because it is not our own? I am of the Wiccan religion, yet Christians say I’m going to hell because I don’t believe and worship the same as them. No matter what the religion or their convictions, don’t judge them because you believe different. If I am going to hell, the Christian judging will be seated next to me. Just because I may not have quite the same beliefs, doesn’t make you any different than me. Why would my faith have such an affect on someone? Your beliefs aren’t better than mine, and my beliefs aren’t better than yours. I’m not criticizing you, don’t condemn me!

Surely I Can't Look That Old...
> Surely this can't be us.!!!!!! > > > Subject: "SURELY I CAN'T LOOK THAT OLD?" > > > > HAVE YOU EVER BEEN GUILTY OF LOOKING AT OTHERS > YOUR OWN AGE AND THINKING, > "SURELY I CAN'T LOOK THAT OLD?" > WELL... YOU'LL LOVE THIS ONE! > > I WAS SITTING IN THE WAITING ROOM FOR MY FIRST > APPOINTMENT WITH A NEW > DENTIST. I NOTICED HIS DDS DIPLOMA, WHICH BORE HIS > FULL NAME. > SUDDENLY, I REMEMBERED A TALL, HANDSOME, > DARK-HAIRED BOY WITH THE SAME > NAME HAD BEEN IN MY HIGH SCHOOL CLASS SOME 40-ODD > YEARS AGO. COULD HE BE > THE SAME GUY THAT I HAD A SECRET CRUSH ON, WAY BACK > THEN? UPON SEEING HIM, > HOWEVER, I QUICKLY DISCARDED ANY SUCH THOUGHT. > THIS BALDING, GRAY-HAIRED > MAN WITH THE DEEPLY LINED FACE WAS WAY TOO OLD TO > HAVE BEEN MY CLASSMATE. > AFTER HE EXAMINED MY TEETH, I ASKED HIM IF HE HAD > ATTENDED MORGAN PARK HIGH > SCHOOL "YES. YES, I DID. I'M A MUSTANG," HE GLEAMED > WITH PRIDE. > > "WHEN DID YOU GRADUATE?"

This Is To My Family, Friends And Fans
This is a hard blog to write but I wanted all of you to know. If you guys don't see me on tap in a while here's why. Back in 2000 I had my first heart attack, I've been on meds since then. In 2004 I had heart cath with two stints put in. Now because of alot of stress and heartbreak in the past few months, I had another attack on Jan 17th. Since then everyday seems to be a struggle with chest pains and other things. I've refused further treatments because I simply don't want to go through all of that and I don't want to pay for some doctor's new Mercedes. I've gotten everything in order, there are no loose ends dangling. My brother's kids will get their college education and he's going to be more secure too. I've even taken care of my ex-wife and the last woman I loved and will ever love inspite of what has happened between us. To all of you, I've enjoyed being a part of Cherry Tap since Christmas Day. You guys have been great, especially a couple of you that I grown very fond

My Mood
s i sit here typen how my mood is,some people think my life is wonderful and grand. only a few select knows what ive been through in the past year and a half. so much mental abuse i have taken within the past that it has taken a toll on me in a way that it is hard to forget, thats why i work 2 jobs so that i can try to foget the past but hasnt worked,i'm fine wile i'm worken but when i have a day or night off it comes back and beats me down, hard for me to have a social life , its scary because it makes me think i will go through the same mess over . i tried to have a relationship with someone special to me but couldnt not that i dont but its just hard for me right now. i have seen people go through mental abuse in the past but now i know how they feel and it hurts from deep in the heart , feels worse than loosing a loved one cause u get so beat up inside that u start beliving wut that person said u r, sorry for the messed up blog but this is how i feel, i want to have a r

Things That Chap My Ass...
TODAY I HAVE TWO MAJOR BEEFS..THERAPISTS AND THE BRAINDEAD PEOPLE THAT GO TO THESE QUACKS....THE THERAPISTS MAKE THEIR 6 TO 7 FIGURE INCOME BY TELLIN YOU HOW MUCH YOU SUCK AND HOW THEY THINK YOU NEED TO FIX IT...ALL THE WHILE THEY'RE ENJOYING THE FACT THAT THERE'S SOMEONE STUPID ENOUGH TO ACTUALLY PAY FOR THIS SO MUCH THAT THEY'RE DOING NAUGHTY STUFF TO THEMSELVES UNDER THE DESK...DID I NOT GET THE MEMO?...I MEAN COME ON, IF YOU WERE SMART ENOUGH TO REALIZE THAT IT IS WRONG TO TOUCH THE NEIGHBORS SHEEP IN WAYS THAT PEOPLE WERE NEVER MEANT TO TOUCH SHEEP...AND THAT IT IS NOT THE MOST MORALLY CORRECT OR SANITARY THING TO DO...ESPECIALLY SINCE YOU'VE MANAGED TO PATENT YOUR OWN TECHNIQUE...YOU SHOULDN'T FEEL THE NEED TO GO ON MONTEL AND SHARE IT WITH ME WHILE I'M TRYIN TO EAT MY SPAM SANDWICH MAN...LOOK AT DR. PHIL...THE DUDE LOOKS LIKE A GIANT TALLYWHACKER WITH A MUSTACHE...DO YOU REALLY WANT A GIANT MUSTACHED TALLYWHACKER GIVIN YOU LIFE ADVICE?...WE'VE BECOME A BUNCH OF WHINING PANSIE

A Lil About Me...
Well... where to start. I'm 29 years old. I live in Kansas with my boyfriend of 4 years, 2 rats (yes they are in our house on purpose) and a small bunch of fish. I grew up in New Hampshire and moved here because I had friends here and because it's a LOT cheaper to live here. I enjoy living in Kansas for the most part and don't see myself moving back to NH any time soon. I have an interesting job as a phone sex operator which I have been doing for the past 3 years and I totally love. I get to hang out at home. Make my own hours. No commute and no dress code. AND I get to cum for a living! Not too shabby if you ask me. Thats about all I can think of for right now but I'm sure I'll come up with more later *winks* (oh and YES those ARE my real pics!)

Be My Valentime Contest
i have been maxed out since 6 am and i am in need of my friends to help me. all i ask is that you leave a few comments leave lots if you like. it`s happy hour so cherry points double just click on pic plez and thank you mike

Reason
There was always a reason, There was always something to be gained, Now there are only bones to be broken, And ankles to be chained, There was always a matter, There was always a cause, Now there is only pain, And agony after the wars, There used to be conquests, There used to be prisoners that would never die, Now there are only slaves, Those run to their cells and curl up and cry, There used to be honesty, Now there is nothing but greed, That gives way to hell, As the filthy riches spread their seed, There used to be life, But now there is nothing at all, There used to be a majestic kingdom, Now it’s ready to crumble and fall, There used to be a reason, A way for us all to live, But we have stolen everything, And now there is nothing to give.

Witness
Human bones crunched beneath my feet, And animals fled from my steps, I turned their flesh into rotting meat, And upon their corpses I leapt, Angels run from my sight, And flee into the sea, The stars hide in the dark of the night, As soon as they approach me. I sit in crowded places, I just sit and I watch, Others move in darkened spaces, Away from my steely watch. I am the root of all their fears, I watch them when they least expect, In front of me they shed their tears And slink back to the holes from whence they crept. I am not a judge I am a witness It is not my place to punish you, Where I am just the witness, I watch you do what you do, It must be odd, to see me with nothing to give, And odd that I know everything about your life, I know, your family, your friends who you sleep with. And your unholy strife, I know about your might, I know all your all about your thoughts, I know about your sight, I know all about your hearing

Sleep
sleep is a funny thing. You want it so bad, and you lay down thinking that it will come, but no. So I red. I need to buy some more books so that my reading dosent go by so fast. I lose a couple nights sleep a week for lack of reading material. lol somebody get me a membership to the book club. do they sell that on cherry tap? I bet i could get points for doing that somewhere. Okay gonna go read Devil Wears Prada agian. The book really was better then the movie. The movie took alot of the detail outta it. But Meyrl Strep really did a good job being a bitch. Reminded me of a couple people i know. welp good night cherry tap...lol I'm talking to myself and yet still over a half a million people if I'm really luved.

American Made...harley Driven...
I would like to see if i am the only one around that feels this way!!!! I'm 40 years old and getting a little sick of the way things are going around the world. I run a law office in central Ohio. On a dayly bases I have to deal with Companies in the U.S.A. that when you call to do business with a company that is to be highly ranked in America.... the first thing you hear is "PRESS 1 FOR ENGLISH" I'm sorry we are in AMERICA why the hell am I pressing 1 for english.... Then if you are lucky enough to get a person on the other end.... 99 percent the person can't speak any english if thier life depended on it. We are paying these ass holes American dollars.... if they want to work in America and make our American money... MAYBE THEY SHOULD LEARN SOME FUCKING ENGLISH!!!!! All these unamericans always cry for equal rights when thing turn against them and we are to adapt to there needs.... I think they came to us.... we did not ask them to come here... YOU ARE IN THE U

Greed
A long, lightly tanned naked leg dangled from under the bedcovers. The owner of that leg, her dark red hair scattered wildly across the white pillow, lay nestled in the tattered whisperings of last night's dreams. She rolled over, trying to push away the insipid awareness of daylight that comes after a long happy slumber. She didn't want the day to start yet… not when the warmth of the soft king-sized bed and even warmer hardness of the body next to hers beckoned her to stay buried under the comforters and tucked away from the rest of the world. Her long slender fingers snaked out from under the pillow. Although the texture of his skin and the crisp feel of his chest hair were etched on her memory forever, the need for her to remind herself was overpowering. She could smell him already. Catching it more firmly to her, she buried her face in the pillow, rolling to her belly and sliding her arm across his lean waist. The other shapely leg draped intimately over his hip, brushing d

Had To Have You (old One)
I arrive at your door with heartfelt anticipation, longing to gaze into your eyes, to see the man I know so well. Knocking lightly, I am nervous, wondering, "did I knock loud enough?" I begin to step back and rethink my decision to visit you at the office, when you open the door to see the back of my head as I am turning to leave. Your deep voice pierces me. "May I help you ma'am?" Knowing I am at the point of no return, I turn to you, my eyes scanning you up and down then fixating on yours. I can barely speak, the sensual butterflies in my stomach have me in disarray. You graciously extend your hand to me and offer me a seat in your office. Trembling, I notice the enormity of your strong hands, and how handsome you are. I want to fall into your arms. As you guide me into your office, we exchange a soul-baring smile. The door closes and locks behind us. "I am pleasantly surprised to see you, baby-girl. I didn't know you would be in town. C'mere to me!" you say with that growl in

Just Something I Wrote!!
It was a soft night. No one around ,so I thought I'd lay you down. The grass was high and anyone who came by would only see us if they came to the lakes edge. So I helped you out of your white sun dress,pulled your black hair out of the ponytail. As the dress fell to the grass,your soft white breast fell to. You looked at me with those soft brown eyes ,I could tell you never been with another women. As I start to nibble at you left ear, I could feel you shiver and I could tell that you wanted release. So I started off slowly. I nibbled on your neck and as I did this my left hand came up to tease your soft pink nipple. It was so hard and so very lick able. So I moved down to tease it with my hot wet mouth,as I do this your body shiveres so sweetly. So I let my mouth tease your your left nipple as my right hand teased your right breast. As I sucked you started to relax. I started to hear soft sighs come from your sweet lips. I softly move my lip from your left breast ,you let out a littl

Dark Desire (old One)
Dark desires fill my heart, keep me in a world apart. Hold me close and keep me tight, fill me throughout the night. Make my choices, touch me true, tell me what you want me to do. Let me know and let me feel, make me scream, cause me to squeal. Master please, fill my senses, Push me till my body tenses. Take me over past the edge. Make me step off the ledge. As dark desires fill my heart and keep me in a world apart, let me know you love me true, Posses my body, my mind too. Your private property I will be. Craving you, and your ecstasy. Master, call me your own, and I'll answer with every moan. As dark desires fill my heart, and keep me in a world apart, I know that you're a dream come true, whatever it is, you decide to do.

Feeling Bad:(
Hey all.. Just wanted to say i am sorry for making anyone feel uncomfortable. For those of you that have no idea what I am talking about.. don't worry about it. I'm gonna just chill on yahoo for awhile.. if ya need me hit me up there.. I am feeling very emotional and not really wanting to cry.. and well i am sensitive and it could happen..lol. Once again.. Sorry guys.

Proud To Be A Dv Survivor
today is my Anniversary, you see 3 yrs ago today, i left my abuser.........with an order of protection, teen age son, custody of my then pre-school grandaughter, and no money.I had no friends, typical of being controlled, my family wouldn't help,("you all ways go back to him").And i stood strong... So I'm glad to say that I am ALIVE today, because somehow I got some courage...I believe that my strength is from all the wonderful friends I've met in these few short years.I would like to thank all the great friends I made here, you're support has been awsome.My love and blessings and allways know that I'm here for you......WEndy

I Hate Guys
Just cause I go over my bf's place once uninvited, he all of the sudden won't talk to me. I got a hold of him yesterday and he said he'd call me today after work. Well, no call! I did nothing wrong. Im so mad.... would you be mad if your gf came by unexpected ONE time??

Whisper
Whisper softly to me, love. Tell me how much you love me and just how much you need me. Your gentle breath in my ear is so exciting. Let me hear the words that fill me with the desire to make love to you. Your warm lips as they nuzzle my ear lobe and say those special words "Fuck me". Yessssssssssssss"I am so turned on by those words. While I lie here next to you, your hand as it rubs lightly on my back and then moves over the curve of my hip to gently rub my baby soft bottom. Can you hear as my breathing changes and the soft moan escapes my lips? Slowly my hips start to move as my pussy reaches ever closer to your cock. I feel your hardness against me. I move in close to you and begin to suck on your bottom lip. Running my tongue deep into your mouth to suck your tongue and kiss you ever so deeply. My mouth aching with the need to fill itself with your tongue. Your hands continue to caress my skin and you place the palm of your hand tightly against my mound. Slowly you begin

The Jitterbug
Although I am not much of a coffee drinker, I love this local coffee shop called The Jitterbug. It used to be a place where my ex-husband and I met with my best friend, Debbi, and her husband....almost every Friday night. Our husbands worked together and talked shop, while Debbi and I would do our thing. Sometimes that meant playing dominoes...or working a jigsaw puzzle there....Other times, we would just talk about the things going on with our kids, and husbands. When I went to work at the battered women's shelter a year and a half ago, that all ended. Until tonight, I did not realize how much I had missed going there with Debbi. The locale of The Jitterbug has actually moved two doors down from its original spot, and it is a different sort of place now....more modern and just a bit more hip.....Teenagers actually come hang out there some now, as I discovered tonight. I was excited about doing something creative tonight, but I had no idea just how the evening would turn out.

On Thoughts Of Love
how often have we thought and felt like the words below...may your feelings and thoughts not turn on themselves as mine did for a while..God Bless On Thoughts of Love As the stream gaily tumbles o'er broken stone so does your laughter leap through my mind. As the shine of summer sun lights my day so does your smile light my life. The sparkle of your eyes Does outshine the evening stars The curve of your form More exciting than the finest art The joy of your touch, satin feel of your skin The soft warmth of your breath Does bind and enchant me, more Aye more than the breeze of daytime zephyr Oh mine love, let me hear your words Say forever. always and beyond you shall grace my existance. Still this anxious heart that stands before you Trembling, more than the shyest deer Say, my love, say unto me Take this gift I offer More precious than gold or rarest gem Take this gift of me, and I will give you us. Caelwyn January 2003 Copyright retained

A None Titled Song
Just do what you feel You told me that you kill This shit is just so real Or maybe its surreal Take all this pain And just shove it down the drain You wanna take my love But you just lost in a dream Go ahead and cream You just a bitch I am sorry for being so cold Its just that of what you told You all in the past Just wont last Fuck your shit Thats about it Dont make me give you a shitler I have nothing to consider Not about you Get your shit together I dont give a rats ass though Stupid slutty ass whore It would of have been real You had to fuck up the whole deal Just get the gun Shoot yourself in the head Its a good day to die Dont call me hun To you I am just dead I wont be able to hear you lie So goodbye

Count Down Begins...
Im 30 days away from having my shoulder rebuilt and honestly scared as hell. I have talked to a few people who have had the surgery they say I need and have been told not to have it. To tell you all the situation, I tore my Rotator Cuff playing football five years ago. That is the group of muscles that keep your shoulder functioning properly. My shoulder comes out of socket doing things as simple as giving someone a high-five for example and I have to put it back in. This as you can only imagine hurts like a bitch! Im am not looking forward to the surgery, rehab or the time off work...

Truth
Y IS IT SO HARD FOR SOME PEOPLE TO TELL THE TRUTH...I MEAN REALLY, I DONT CARE WHAT AGE THEY ARE OR WHATEVER...Y CANT THEY JUST SAY WTF IS ON THEIR MIND...GAWWWDDDD I CANT IMAGINE GOING THRU LIFE LYING TO PEOPLE AND TRYING TO GET WHAT I WANT THRU LIES... FOR SOME REASON SOME PEOPLE HAVE IT IN THEIR HEADS THAT FUCKING WITH PEOPLE EMOTIONS AND FEELINGS IS ALRIGHT..SOMETIMES YEAH U MIGHT PUT YOURSELF IN A SITUATION THAT IS STUPID OR U KNOW ITS NOT RIGHT, BUT U WANT TO BELIEVE THAT PERSON, YOU BRING THEM INTO YOUR LIFE, FOR HOWEVER LONG AND IT ENDS UP JUST STABBIN YA IN THE BACK WITH ALL THIS SHIT... I CANT BELIEVE THAT SOME PEOPLE HAVE NO MORALS ABOUT THIS..IT COMES NATURAL TO HURT THERE OTHER HALF OR WHOEVER IS IN THEIR LIFE...MAKES ME SICK ACTUALLY... WHEN ARE PEOPLE GOING TO START GROWING UP AND TELLING THE TRUTH...EVEN IF IT DOES HURT THE OTHER PERSON..????????? DIDNT ANYONE LEARN ANYTHING FROM ANYONE ELSE THAT HAS BEEN IN THE SAME SITUATION... THEN TO TOP IT OFF, THEY IGNORE YA..

I've Moved On
I've Moved on I don't care about the Sunshine anymore. The Seasons Past to Quickly for me to see. . . One thing I should have been was a Better Friend to me. . . Far beyond Driven, No will no Go on. I see myself Hurting, for much to long. I'm sitting alone, round after round. my true Friends are strangers. In empty emotions I drown. So, night after night. I die a New death. the Feeling Grows Stronger. breath after breath. I see an empty man, Dead inside. To Stupid to live. To weak to die. . . .

Stash Update !
Hi all I hope your weekend rocks. I have been updating the picture and joke sections of my stash. I would be grateful if you could swing by and leave some love for me. If you have already done so, thank you very much (((hugs))) Hugs 'n' stuff Lin xx

Answer In A Blog...
1. Your Name: 2. Age: 3. Favorite position (s) ? 4. Do you think i'm hot? 5. Would you have sex with me? 6. lights on or off? 7. Would you have to be drunk? 8. Would you take a shower with me? 9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me? 10. Would you leave after or stay the night? 11. Do you like cuddling afterwards? 12. Condom or skin? 13. Do you give Oral pleasures? 14. Do you like to recieve Oral Pleasures? 15. Have sex on the first date? 16. Would you kiss me during sex? 17. Do you think I would be good in bed? 18. Three sum? 20. How many times would you like to orgasm? 21. Would you use me as a booty call? 22. Do you like foreplay? 23. What is foreplay to you? 24. Can we take pictures of the act? 25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Why?????
Why do people from your past think its cool to keep popping up ? Why is it so hard to understand go away and leave me alone? I'm so sick of finally getting healed from my past and that same person rearing their ugly little head to rip open the scars to pour more salt on the wound. Man give me a fucking break!! I have been through so much in my damn life that most people would have killed themselves after living through half of it.You'd think if this person ever really truely cared like they claim they'd just stop. For fuck sake have some compassion and go the hell away!! My mind is not your damn playground so piss off!! Ok done with my whining like a bitch for the day. Carry on! ~H~ Papa Roach Scars

Zeusy's Training...
So today 2/10/07 my mini pin Zeusy started his beginner doggy training classes....I'll keep everyone posted on how it goes along the way! I hope they do us some good with his socialization with people (men in general) and with his massive seperation anxiety issues!!!

About Me...
I put this on my main page too, but thought it was worthy of a blog entry also, lol. =) I find joy in both the simple and complex things in life. I crave the smell of wet blades of grass, the earth's soil after it rains, Grandma's homemade apple butter when she's canning... and a baby's sweet spot on their forehead. I enjoy the sounds of my Mama's laughter, my brother singing, good music on the stereo, and the thunder rolling off in the distance when I'm safe in the arms of the man I love during a summer storm as we listen to the rain on the window. I admire the beauty of the power of true friendship, butterflies in flight, a sweet smile on the face of a friend or loved one, the color of the leaves in the Fall, and the Snake River with the Grand Tetons in the back drop. I enjoy the feel of a soft, velvety kiss, having my hair brushed and played with, rose petals between my thumb and fingers, knowing that those who matter to me are safe and of knowing I

Moving Along Real Well
Well I finished my final complete edit on the book and sent it back. Now the publisher will format it, typeset it, and send me proofs for my final okay. After that we get the cover and other red tape. It's starting to get good now. Started writing the next book.

Great Gift Idea
A husband walks into Fredrick's of Hollywood to purchase some sheer lingerie for his wife. He is shown several possibilities that range from $250 to $500 in price, the more sheer, the higher the price. He opts for the most sheer item, pays the $500 and takes the lingerie home. He presents it to his wife and asks her to go upstairs, put it on and model it for him. Upstairs, the wife thinks, "I have an idea. It's so sheer that it might as well be nothing. I won't put it on, do the modeling naked, return it tomorrow and keep the $500 refund for myself." So she appears naked on the balcony and strikes a pose. The husband says, "Good Lord! You'd think that for $500, they'd at least iron it!"

Humanity
Humanity Where has the compassion gone? Where is your humanity now? What has happend to You? Where is your charity for you brother or sister who walks the street hungry and cold with no place to go? Does your heart not feel the pain? Not a tear shed...do you not feel shame? Is it not your problem, that men walk Skid Row with no place to go? Fill your bellies, sleep in your warm beds let not your heart be troubled. Ignore what is going on around you. Lie to yourself if it makes you feel better. But ask yourself...where has your Humanity for your brothers gone?

The Photos Are Real~
When I recieved the painted cat photos yesterday from my Aunt I couldn't believe that people would actually do that to their cats. I love cats, I believe though they should look like cats, not clowns and certainly not to be colored. Cats have a natural beauty. If you would not paint your face to look like a clown and go around like that all your life why should your cat. It costs about 6-10,0000 a year for their cats to look like that, the money could go to animal shelters. Please don't paint your cats.

Naughty Or Nice? Gee, I Guess I'm Nicer Than I Thought!!
Are you Naughty or nice Your Result: Your Nice! all sugar, no spice! You're all about sweetness, sunshine, and smiles. We've never met anyone nicer than you. Actually, we wouldn't be surprised to come across you sitting in a peaceful green meadow, surrounded by adorable baby animals eating out of your hand whilst your halo shines in the sun. Ah, we're just taking the mickey. But you are awfully good. Certainly, you may have dipped your toe in the naughty pool once or twice, but you generally stay in the shallow end, leaving the deep waters to the leather-and- nude-magazine crowd. It's all well and good to follow the straight and narrow, but it's okay to walk on the wild side once in a while, too. Have a drink. Organise a practical joke. Go to a strip club. Trust us - as long as no one gets hurt, it's fun to be bad! your Naughty! wild thing! Are you Naughty or nice

A Rose Witout You
With this rose, I not only give you merely a rose, but I give you my heart and soul. I send to you all the love I have to give, and anything else that would give me the chance to touch your heart. With this rose, I reveal all my thoughts and feelings about you that I have withheld for so long. I feel when I am with you... I am like a rose, not because of it?s beauty, but because I am able to bloom and grow with you. To me you are like a rose's sunshine, so full of energy and light, that never does it fail to lift my spirits. Just by the sound of your voice and that look in your eye. I could never tear my eyes from you, you are able to make my life worth living. But, without you, just like a rose, I would wither and die. Not all at once, but little by little, petal by petal. Slowly at first, because you have made me stronger and stronger each day you're with me. But eventually, without you, I will loose all those beautiful petals y

Dont Give Up On Me
When times are rough and times r hard and things are not going the way we planned just smile and know that i am yours and u r mine we will be stronger hand in hand. Know that i am ready for all everything from u and from the world, good and bad. Please dont ever doubt that for a moment Dont worry hayati..dont get frustrated or sad. Just dont give up on me, cause i will be here till the end. no matter what i will stand beside u, no matter who tries to offend. Just dont give up on me, cause my love is strong and true Forever u will have my heart, remember and belive I LOVE U Hosted by CherryTagz.com

I Have Had It!!!
Now my computer isn't recognizing my digital camera. Yeah, that means no new pictures for you guys after the Red Series. My LastFM won't work. I can't get a new version of Quicktime. I cannot install iTunes. 1/4 of the profiles here crash my computer/browser. I'm missing countless plugins. I NEED MY FEDERAL TAX RETURN AND A NEW COMPUTER NOW!!!

Chapter 4 Of My Ebook
OH MY GOD!!! In the story we have just checked into the hotel and I can be so naughty in my fantasies... I have teased every guy in the lobby with my long legs in a very short skirt ... oh yeah, and there is the sheer top too that shows all. The poor valet will never be the same after he got a shot between my legs as I stepped out of the car wearing no panties. We just stepped into the elevator and as the door closes I am planning to have my husband crawl all over me as we are the only ones in the elevator and we are going to the 86th floor in this very fancy hotel. Damn! I got so aroused writing it I need to take a breather. Time to jump in the shower and get ready for my fundraising presentaion. oh yeah... and I need to shave my legs too.

Waiting
I AM WALKING IN THE FIELDS OF LONLINESS WITH OUT U.. GOD, HOW I WISH U WERE HERE TO HOLD ME AND LOVE ME.. AND TELL ME THAT EVERYTHING WAS GONNA BE ALRIGHT.. I AM WAITING PATIENTLY FOR THE DAY WHEN U COME TO MY DOOR. WAITING FOR UR CARESS.. WAITING TO LOOK DEEP INTO UR EYES AND REVEAL ALL THE SECRETS THAT I HOLD SO DEAR.. ONLY TO U.. MY LOVE.. I AM WAITING...

Amazed
Night falls, passions ignite. Orgasmic pleasures await me tonight. Slowly he removes my shirt. Begins to nibble, lick, kiss my neck. As his hand runs under my skirt. Fingering me gently at first, then fast and hard. Scratching the vinyl of the backseat of his car. Slowly he enters me, I take every inch of him. Moans escape, the hunger coursing through my body so intense. Losing all control my head falls back, eyes closed. My mouth opened slightly, his name softly spoke. My back arching as ecstasy takes its hold. Faster, harder, longer, more. He takes me as no man has before. Ramming me, pounding me, making me scream; taking me as I've only dreamed. Thrusting harder he sends me beyond anything I've experienced before. Thrashing, orgasmic pleasures filling me to the core. I float back down to earth, still trembling, I stare into his eyes... simply amazed.

Untill The....
The sun rises above the hillcrest, As does the joy of my heart; Rays of warmth and love, From her I will never depart. Fresh dew upon the grass, Young birds chirp in their nests; I watch her gently sleep, My love to her I silently profess. I enjoy the stillness and calm, Watching as she smiles and dreams; She brings me to stillness and peace, Like that of a slow flowing stream. My heart and soul flow with love, And I smile as I quietly reflect; I’ve been handed a sweet princess, A sweet princess to love and to protect. A vow to myself I make, As she quietly sleeps away; To love and always cherish her, Until my last breath... until my last day

Apart
I'm glad that you can't feel it love, when I am feeling so alone. In those moments when we must be apart, and I just stare here at the phone. If only I could hear your voice, but we both know thats a lie. I wouldn't want to hang up, I swear I could just die. I wish that I could see you, watch your glowing eyes. Stare up at the ceiling love, or perhaps into the skies.. I'm glad that you can't know this, and oh my god it hurts. When I think of not seeing you, I feel it all will burst. Would you think me badly, if I told you sometimes I cry. Using every tear that drops, to mark as time goes by. I'm glad you can not feel this, The choking that always burns. It makes me sad to feel this way, and I know that I can learn. But I do not want to deal with it, and this please understand. Cause baby when your not with me, I don't feel like much a man. I'll end this now as I've said enough, and let to much inside show. But I thought that you might like it once, if I

Blinded
HOW SHAMEFUL IT IS THAT LUST BLINDS WHAT IS REAL. IT IS THE LUST THAT MAKES U SEE WHAT U WANT, WHAT IS REALLY NOT FELT OR MEANT FOR U. IT IS MASKED BY THE REAL LOVE IN THE AIR.. THE LOVE THAT U SO DESPERATLY WANT FOR UR OWN, BUT KNOW U WILL NEVER HAVE. BLINDED BY LUST... U WILL NEVER BE HAPPY.. U WILL NEVER SEE THE TRUTH...

Mother Earth
"The ground on which we stand is sacred ground. It is the dust and blood of our ancestors Mother Earth is the source of life and the place all life returns to. She gives us life. She feeds us through our journey and she waits for us to return to her. The Indian way is to recognize the earth as the place of our ancestors. That is why certain places on earth are considered sacred areas and sacred land; this is the place of our ancestors. We all need to reflect upon the earth, the place where our ancestors lived. We need to have love and respect for the earth. My Creator, let me honor the place of our ancestors, Mother Earth. If we truely believe in our walk then all of this earth is Sacred not certain allocated places. Where Our Ancestors are buried is ground that should be considered Higher ground but with all the major expansion in cities now for population many of the Ancestors are being disturbed. The Whiteman does not wake his g

Life And Death
Life And Death On The Rez Social Breakdown Of Tribal Culture Revealed In Youth Suicides National statistics show suicide rates for Native Americans are twice that of national averages with wide variances for different tribes. Suicides on reservations in Nebraska, South Dakota, North Dakota and Iowa rank among the nation's highest rate of incidents. SANTEE, Neb. -- Life on the rez isn't easy. Just ask anyone who lives there, or those who know someone who has died there -- by taking their own life. "It's a hard thing to talk about," said "Joe," a Santee Sioux tribal member who did not want his real name disclosed. "Things like this didn't use to happen to our people; we didn't use to have a lot of the problems that we face today -- child abuse, domestic violence -- because everybody had a place and there were social repercussions for those things." But statistics show, suicide rates among Native Americans far exceed national averages. According to th

Speed Shopping
LOL.... I have been avoiding going shopping for some bits of groceries for the last few days. When I am low on funds (after paying for my rent check), I hate going into the stores for much of anything at all. BUT... The kitties were starting to growl because they knew their catfood was getting low. I was seriously beginning to think that they might turn into tigers. Yes, those sweet kitties of mine!! ANYHOW... I procrastinated today while needing to catch a nap and waited until 20 minutes before I needed to leave to work to run around and speed dress to get out the door. Yikes! Since I knew that I had given my cats the last bit of the food this morning, I got motivated when I realized what time it was. (Where does the time seem to go while you are at home???) LOL.... I arrive at the store. Race in. Grab the cart. Bee-line it for the catfood. Pick up some soups, lime diet coke, tuna fish, crackers, and a few assorted items. Then bee-lined it to the cashier

What Kind Of Man Do I Like?
MEN LIKE MY DAD! My dad had many occupations in my life time. If he didn't know something, he'd go to school to find out. You name it, he knew how to do it and if he didn't, he knew who to call. My dad was not one to sit around the house to often. He was always doing something or talking to someone. Anyway, here are just some of the occupations he had while I was growing up: Fireman Gas station owner In charge maintenance for the main post office downtown Houston Offshore drilling rig mud logger Paint contractor School bus driver He worked at Brown Oil Tools- I don't know what he did there but, he worked there and went to college full time. Was a route sales rep for Curtiss Candy Co. Owner of a tool store. (I ran it for him as a senior in high school) When he wasn't working, he was volunteering his time in non profit organizations such as: Being a coach for little league baseball and football Being an umpire for little league VFW - Commander for two yea

See Ya.
I just wanted to say THANKS to everyone who added me as a friend or fan. I'm leaving for awhile. NOT GOING TO JAIL :) Just taking a break. I hope you will all miss me and if i come back we'll pick up where we left off. LOVE and FRIENDSHIP to all. I'm actually going to delete the account Monday morning so feel free to show me love before i go(you know how the male ego is)

First Meet
Her stomach in knots Their meeting today She’s nervous as hell He’s on his way Starting out the window He pulls in the drive Her heart skips a beat Watching him arrive She walks out the door To meet and to greet Her palms are clammy She can’t feel her feet He exits the car Watching her walk He sucks in a breath But forgets how to talk Face to face Awkward and strange Do we hug do we kiss Finally here within range His arms go around her She leans into him Their fear melts away Both out on a limb Their lips meet Soft and slow Feeling the person They both come to know The passion between Grows deeper still Both fires building An ache they both feel Stepping inside Closing the door He pulled her close Then down to the floor Bodies entwined Exploring each other Both still in awe Finally with one another

Love?
A TWITTER IN YOUR STOMACH A FULLNESS FEELING IN YOUR HEART YOUR MIND STARTS SWIMMING YOUR STOMACH TIGHTENS WHEN YOU HEAR HIS NAME YOUR HEART BEATS RAPIDLY YOUR MIND GOES NUMB YOUR KNOW YOUR IN LOVE WHEN... YOU CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM YOU CAN'T STAND BEING ALONE YOU CAN'T STAND BEING AWAY FROM HIM YOU CAN'T FALL ASLEEP AT NIGHT BECAUSE YOUR REALITY IS MUCH BETTER THAN YOUR DREAMS HIS HAPPINESS MEANS MORE TO YOU THAN YOUR OWN

??????????
A WINK A LOOK A SMILE A WAVE A SHAKE A FLIRT DOES THAT GIVE THEM THE RIHT TO GIVE US A DRUG IN OUR DRINK A SLAP IN OUR FACE A PUNCH IN THE MOUTH A FUCK AS THEY PUT IT BUT TO US IT IS NOTHING MORE THAN RAPE

Yet More Alice
I don't drink tea Or white chablis I sit around and watch tv Don't send flowers Or take showers But I'll be there to pull your weeds Oh yeah I don't read books I don't french cook Or stroll around in galleries I hate opera I hate Oprah Don't fill my head with poetry You just want to squeeze my masculinity Why can't you leave it alone Hey, hey I ain't gonna change Hey, hey don't you love it this way Hey, hey I am what I am So please understand I'm not you fantasy man I don't do dishes And I'm suspicious Of any grown-up man who does I'm homophobic Don't do aerobics Just lay around and catch a buzz You just want to squeeze my masculinity Why can't you leave it alone Hey, hey I ain't gonna change Hey, hey don't you love it this way Hey, hey I am what I am So please understand I'm not you fantasy man Hey, hey I ain't gonna change Hey, hey don't you love me this way Hey, hey I am what I am So please understand I'm not your fantasy man You just

Who Am I? Who Are You? Why Are We On This Picnic?
Just finished watching the film , "Don Juan d'Marco" starring Johnny Depp and Marlon Brando. As an actress, I imagine that the hardest part for Johnny was keeping a straight face around Brando, who plays the brilliantly boring, angst-ridden doctor who must cure his patient, a kid from Queens who thinks he's Don Juan, the world's greatest lover. After I peed my pants from laughing so hard at the commercial break, I got to thinking..(Yes, this is the RUTHLESSLY honest blog section where you're going to get brutal and sometimes unpleasant insights into my character, whether you like it or not.) Anyway, I got to thinking, that the writer of the screenplay might be right: reality is a bit over-rated. My day job as a banker leaves a lot to be desired. I spend my days tracking interest rates, and chasing down mortgage programs for people that don't even want them. Hell, I don't even want a mortgage! Of all the ironies in my life these days, that has to be the most ridiculous of a

Every Woman Has A Name
You were so beautiful Like a child so young and full of life Seems a hundred years ago You saw everything So much more tragedy than good You even watched the world grow cold And even when your world was shakin' Even when your breath was taken Even when your blue eyes turned to gray Small town debutantes and queens Every woman has a name Cocktail waitresses with dreams Every woman has a name And every girl whose love survives A broken heart to stay alive You signed your picture in the frame Every woman has a name You had your love affair Some were perfect but most of them were pain Seems a hundred years ago It took you to the highest hill Left you standing frozen in the rain But you still feel the afterglow And even when your world was shakin' Even when your breath was taken Even when your blue eyes turned to gray Housewives cryin' on the phone Every woman has a name Sacred sisters all alone Every woman has a name And even on the coldest day When

Angst, Anger, And Symmetry.
I hate the internet. And I love the internet. There are two side to every story. They seem to conflict. But really they do not. In a nutshell it is all angst, anger, and symmetry. I loved a man. So very deeply. I would have died for him. In fact, a part of me did. He loved me. And I believe he felt the same. But a moment of insecurity made him ask me to do something that I could never do and will not abide. So, now it is over and we are both hurt. Strangly symbiotic isn't it? Here's to broken hearts. And, to lessons learned.

Patriotism
This particular blog might upset some people, so I'm warning you in advance. I hope that you will read through it thoroughly, and think about what I'm saying, and not simply attack me. Skipping to the last paragraph, in this case, is probably not wise, even if I am a trifle long-winded. The dictionary defines patriotism as "devoted love, support, and defense of one's country; national loyalty." But what really defines patriotism, in the end? The support of the government? Or the support of the essential beliefs upon which a country was founded? Because honestly, whenever the war in Iraq comes up, I'm always deeply disturbed by comments that people make. That if you do not support the war in Iraq, you are attacking the soldiers. That saying that our government lied to us, that the war in Iraq is an irresponsible one, is somehow being unpatriotic, and is a failure to "support our troops." I even read an extremely disturbing comment on a mum -- a man said he was going go r

Greater Love
Tell me, what greater love has a person than that they lay down their life for home and country. The poetry is by Wilfred Owen, written about what was called the Great War. There is no greatness in war, only in the people that go there to ensure our freedom and our liberty. Wilfred was a Brit, writing mostly about what he saw, but these words relate to any warrior (male or female) of any country who go out there and put their lives on the line...for whom?..for us. We live in times where ordinary warfare has been in part replaced by terrorism, but this is just war of another kind, cowardly, dastardly hiding in anonymity. Destroying civilians, people who are going about their every day business. Women, men, children, no respect for age, sex or belief. I give my thanks, small though they be fo rthose who still stand up and put themselves in the front line in order that I and my children may live in a world. Comments welcome. (PS: yes, I am ex military and from a family proud to have fou

12 Days Of Valentines
I got this at a Valentine's Party/Dinner I went to at Church tonight. This is sung to tune of 12 Days of Christmas. 12 Days of Valentine's On the _____ Day of Valentine's my TRUE LOVE gave to me: 1 balloon that says "I Love You" 2 special coupons 3 Love songs 4 sheets of love poems 5 terms of endearment 6 chocolate candy hearts 7 beautiful flowers 8 heart shaped cookies 9 bottled messages 10 million reasons why he /she loves me 11 Hershey hugs and kisses 12 ways to say " I'm yours FOREVER"

Wtf?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
um...yea i'm so PO'd right now. Why the hell did someone flag one of my pics as NSFW. only one of them should be, but i marked it that way. this pic was rainbow in the background and it said bisexual pride. wtf? who the hell is ignorant enough to flag it as nsfw? if you don't like gay or bisexual people then get the fuck off my page! gggrrr

Fluff And Tuff
ok darkness gone now... so for those who are a little scared of being dark here is a fluffy one for you... Watch me as i dance sing and twirl long flowing hair thank god im a girl i love you at sunrise and at sunset my hearts all a flutter and on that u can bet i will love you so sweetly till the end of time a constant smile on my face because you are mine see im not all dark. hehehehehehehehehehehe

Turn Back Time
If I could go and turn back time, I wouldnt be who I am. Im strong because the hands dont reverse. My past made me a man. Ive made a lot of mistakes and choices but still I dont regret. Ive survived so much in my very own life and still I dont break a sweat. The story of time is so cunfusing like cells and atoms and all the fusing. Some may even find it amusing. The story of time can leave so much bruising. So Im glad and Im sad for the past that Ive faced. Its made me much stronger today. And bit by bit I chip at the past until it finally breaks away.

Please Read If Your Wondering Where I Am!!
Heyy... Im getting my computer fixed So i wont have it until like FRIDAY!! Sucks I know, so i wont be on here much!! I will miss ya all, but please dont forget to come vote for meee and leave lots of comments! Thank you!! Click and Comment!!!

It's A Good Thing We're Wearing Wetsuits
I'm not sure where the whole day went...I know I didn't do a whole lot with it. I received my first letter from one of the grad schools I applied to. I was accepted into Geneva. It's one of my back-up schools so hopefully the other letters will be good news. Always wear your pieces of flare.

Double Face
I used to hate doing this nor I want to do this. Sadly in this world most always you has to have double face. No matter what your real feelings to the particular person put your best face on them. You never know (God forbid) you need them one day or worst they can make your life miserable such as they become your superior or know someone that can screw you on later day. Sucks huh yeah who said life is fair anyway!!! Best I can do is put up neutral face and try to get a better friend than the person so instead I can screw them hehehehe...

Notes From The Underground
When I first got involved in online communities like CT, myspace, etc, it really was all about friendship. It still is. I really and genuinely care about the people on my "friends" lists. And it's also a very cathartic thing for me, because I can stash all my photos, the things that are important to me, voice audition files, monologues, without cluttering my hard drive. And it keeps me out of the tavern which is always a good thing. I hate waking up with people I don't know, and while I have not done that in a long time, it's something I really don't want to deal with. Don't look so shocked. I'm as stupid as the next person, on occasion. I like to think I've gotten over that sort of thing and that I'm "above" it. And before you start thinking, "Aww...she just wants to be held..." lemme just disabuse you of that notion straightaway. I don't even like being held. I can't stand it, in fact, and I hate it so much that I am probably the only person you've ever met who has n

Goin To Bed
Horrible headache and nauseous goodnite “Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

What You Didn't Know About Me..
I try to be honest with everyone I talk to and I expect the same in return. I HATE head games!!! I'm pretty direct and hate having to read between the lines. I do think laughter is one of the most important things in life and I can even laugh at myself. If it's funny, it's fair game! I value friends and family so much, and enjoy beign around them. Friends tell me I'm level-headed and a great listener. I believe I'm just down to earth, sincere, and normal. I'm fairly shy by nature around people I don't know, but warm up quickly Once I get to know people though. I'm very much an outdoors kind of girl....I love the water--being at the sea or lake;in the country, boating or swimming.. ..I love to travel, though I've not been fortunate to have visited a lot of countries and places as I would have wished to. I love all kinds of music (except perhaps rap, hip-hop, and heavy death metal) I have a somewhat eclectic taste in music - it all depends on what moo

To War Or Not To War, To Kill Or Not To Kill
Its funny when first you shoot a target, it has no personality, no reality. But what when you see eye to eye the life to be eliminated?. Is there ever a good enough reason?. Does one glory in it?..of course not, but I ask you if the choice is them or you? to fight for your way of life? for your children?..would you not also say yes? and do what you must do? To war or not to war When first I stooped to kill the figure so far away A stick upon the hill My aim ne'er went astray When next it was my job to end a persons time T'was done with not a sob Just another peg on a line But what when you see look straight into their eyes can it really be? I must terminate their sighs? To feel the blade go in turn, twist and then withdraw why felt it such a sin against some unknown law down my cheek ran a tear so I could barely see I knew it must be done was either him or me Will I always remember? can I not forget the pain of that september Start of my lif

Notes From The Underground / The Sequel!
My brain is on and I can't turn it off. So back to the blog and more catharsis. I am not answering the phone today. It's wild outside and I can hear the screaming of the ban sidhe (ban-shee: An Irish supernatural spook otherwise known as the Wind). The rain is falling sideways, it's so wild out there. I live my life in a constant state of moral outrage. My mother says I have a "Low Misery Index". She's right. Little things bother me. A lot. (Insert WhackJob Divorced Therapist who says, "Does that interfere with your relationships?") One of the things I mentioned in the last Notes From the Underground is that I have little patience for 12 step programs. I just want to clarify and as usual, offense is practically intentional. Although there is some argument for these programs, namely that they work insofar as getting people to quit using, they are essentially, highly selfish and self-centered pursuits. The essence of what makes an "addict" is the inherent selfishn

I'm A Woman...
aint that the truth I got big ols boobs, and a bitchy attitue with a sexy voice! yep that makes me a woman! NO! I'm a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend and someone who's got feelings to. okay yeah i got some interesting pictures on my profile and I'll be the first to admit they make me blush. I'm a home gorwn country girl so pictures like that, that I have make me blush yeah they do. and to be honest i will take ur comments honestly I love them however there a point where it can be taken to far. so let me put it this way you DO NOT start a conversation with me by damn ur tites are nice I'd love to slide my cock between them and squirt all over them.. no no no no thats not a way to a girls heart! If your interested in a true friend or striking up a conversation fine so be it but dont come to me with shit like that you will get told off or ignored.. xoxoxox happy saturday night!

Point Whores
So whats the deal lately with the chicks offering naked shots to win contests? am i the only one that thinks thats totally horrible? are the contests on here such a big deal that women want to do that??

Poetry Eases My Soul
Time Will Tell by Indira Rojas As I dwell in my pain, and sulk in my sorrow, I ask Father Time, "What can you tell me? What news will you relay to me? Praytell..." He looked at me with a sad and sunken face, knowing what troubled me. This was his response: "Time will tell when you will be happy. Time will tell when your pain and hurt shall end. Time will tell when you shall divorce your nightmare. Time will tell when you shall separate from your love. Time will tell when independence shall be yours. Time will tell when solitary happiness is at hand. Time will tell when THEY leave you alone. Time will tell if he will come. Time will tell when you will live joyfully. Until then, Time has told: You are sad You are hurt You are betrayed You don't deserve that love You don't have your happiness You are surrounded by negativity You are controlled You are restricted You are not real to them" I pondered his choice words, and felt a tear run down

Veteran Cosmic Rocker
I admit my age and that i've been rocking since the early 60s. I have spent most of the day adding videos to my page and have been having a blast. I worked for a number of years as security for concerts in Cincinnati where I grew up. Age hasn't slowed me down because if anything my music tastes have grown a bit harder than they were. I've added a number of videos to my main profile page (and yes one is Weird Al)I have added some classics to the 'My Tracks'Section and will continue to add more music because music is a large part of me. I play 5 instruments and sing. I can sight read music and have a good range. I'm a bass but can handle parts much higher. Enjoy what i've put up because music comes from the heart. I know not everyone will enjoy all the tracks i've added and that's okay. Know there are 2 comedy cuts and the rest are rock. Enjoy and smile

Got My Bike
Picked up my bike tonight. It's in my friend's garage because my family decided to all of a sudden have a problem with me getting a dirt bike. The whole thing is stupid, but I'll get an ear full in the morning. I'm fucking 22 years old and I get treated like I'm a teenager all over again. Yay. But I was talking to some of the guys and a lot of them said they pulled the same shit I did ...going against their family... just so they could get a bike. They told me after the flames settle down, it'll be worth it. I only was able to get one photo of my bike in the bed of my friend's truck because it was dark. But it's posted. I need riding gear now.

Wicked Evil Nonsense
Yes. You read it right. Wicked, Evil, Nonsense. It's my personal designation for things, people, ideas, and events that I consider to be soul destroying. The following is a conversation I just had over the phone. (I knew I shouldn't have answered it.) "Pal" (and I use this term VERY LOOSELY HERE): So, guess what? Katie's pregnant. NOW what should I do? Me: Do? Pal: Yeah, you know...what should I do? Should I just give her the money for the abortion or what? Me: Whoa. What the? What are talking about? Pal: Well, she told me today she's pregnant. She's really upset....she won't talk to me, and she won't make up her mind about what to do. Me: Well, if she just found out, it might take awhile for her to understand the whole issue from her own perspective, much less discuss it with anyone else. Have you talked to her about the pregnancy at all? Pal: Well, not really. She just told me and she's pretty upset and she hung up on me. So what do I do? .

To My Darling Husband.....
To my darling husband, Before you return from your overseas trip I just want to let you know about the small accident I had with the pick up truck when I turned into the driveway. Fortunately not too bad and I really didn't get hurt, so please don't worry too much about me. I was coming home from Wal-Mart, and when I turned into the driveway I accidentally pushed down on the accelerator instead of the brake. The garage door is slightly bent but the pick up fortunately came to a halt when it bumped into your car. I am really sorry, but I know with your kind-hearted personality you will forgive me. You know how much I love you and care for you my sweetheart. I am enclosing a picture for you. I cannot wait to hold you in my arms again. Your loving wife. XXX P.S. Your girlfriend called.

Friends Without Faces
Friends Without Faces by Rusty Black We sit and we type and we stare at our screens, We can't help but wonder what all of this means. With mouse in hand ...we roam through this maze, On an infinite search...lost in a daze. We chat with each other, we type all our woes At times we'll band together to gang up on our foes. We wait for somebody, to type out our name We want recognition, but it is always the same. Soon friendships are formed - but - why we don't know, But some of these friendships, will flourish and grow. We give kisses and hugs, and sometimes we'll flirt, In IMs we chat deeply, and reveal why we hurt. Why is it on screen, we are so easily bold, Telling our secrets, that have never been told. The answer is simple, it is as clear as a bell, We all have our problems, and need someone to tell. We can't tell real people, but tell someone we must So we turn to our 'puters ...and to those we can trust. Even though it sounds crazy...

Please Read Someone You Love Or Care For May Need You.
TO MANY OF US VALENTINES DAY IS THE WORST HOLIDAY THERE IS, WAS, OR EVER WILL BE. ITS THE TIME OF YEAR LOTS OF PEOPLE ARE TURNED DOWN, DUMPED, DIVORCED, HUMILIATED, LEFT BEHIND AND MANY OTHER TERRIBLE THINGS HAPPEN. SO IM BEGGING YOU ALL PLEASE BE KIND, HELP, AND SHOW A LITTLE COMPASSION FOR THOSE OF US WHO ARE NOT AS LUCKY TO HAVE A COMPANION. AND PLEASE PLEASE KEEP AN EYE OUT FOR THOSE WHO MIGHT HAVE DEEP DEPRESSION AND MAY TRY SOMETHING TERRIBLE. SO PLEASE TRY TO SPREAD SOME LOVE, COMPASSION, AND HEART TO THOSE WHO COULD REALLY USE A LITTLE CARING IN THEIR TIME OF NEED. THANK YOU VERY MUCH IF YOUR READING THIS AND PLEASE REPOST AND PASS THIS ON. I SINCERLY THANK YOU, DAREN CLEAVER

Elements, Types And Principles Of Love
I am currently taking a Sociology class on close relationships, and we are learning about Adult/Mature love. According to Fromm, there are 4 different types of love: 1. Brotherly love This is the love of equals. Partners focus on what they have in common, as opposed to their differences. There is a sense of oneness between the partners, and is the most basic or fundamental form of love. 2. Erotic love This is a sexual love. There is a strong drive for physical union. Fromm argues that if a couple only have an erotic attraction and no other qualities (types of love), the relationship may not last long. 3. Companionate love This is the love between friends, or when a romantic couple have achieved a level so deep, past the erotic love, that they are great friends. This is an evolutionary state of a romantic relationship. It has intimacy or commitment; it may or may not have passion or erotic love. This kind of love can also be an element of a parent-child relationship. 4. A

Curtis E Wilson
"IN MEMORY OF A GOOD FATHER" MINE HE WAS IN THE NAVY FOR 24 YRS AND WE LIVED ALL OVER THE WORLD.. HE WAS A GOOD MAN HAD SOME HARD TIMES DID SOME DUMB SHIT BUT DSTILL LOVED HIS FAMILY... HE WAS THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEEDED HIM ... HE WAS THERE FOR ME DURING THE WHOLE 14 YS I WAS IN PRISON (YES I SAID PRISON) NEVER LETTIN ME DOWN NEVER PUTTIN ME DOWN FOR WHAT I DID TO GET IN THERE.... HE WAS A LOVING FATHER AND HUSBAND HIM AND HIS NEW WIFE WERE MARRIED FOR 19 YRS AND SHE IS LIKE A SECOND MOM TO ME ( I LOVE YOU DIXIE) SHE HAS PUT UP WITH A LOT OF BULL SHIT FROM ME AND HIM AND NEVER LEFT OUR SIDES FOR NOTHNG .... WELL THIS IS JUST THE START I AM MAKEIN UP A MYSPACE PAGE UP FOR MY DAD TO KEEP HIM ALIVE AND WHEN DONE I WILL POST IT IN HERE FOR ALL THE VISIT AND ADD....... IF YOU ARE A TRUE FRIEND OF MINE HE WOULD OF LOVED YOU LIKE YOU WERE HIM CHILD AND I LOVE ALKL MY TRUE AND DEAR FRIENDS OF CHERRY ............ PEACE AND LOVE

Sunday
Sorry... but I will not be online much at all today. I have let paperwork pile up here from my fundraising presentations I have been making for the past week and I do need to get it all turned in tomorrow. I know CT is addicting but I am going to need to go cold turkey today and ignore the computer. I do need to get things done. After doing all my paperwork I do need to finish chapter four in my ebook and then get busy with chapter five. I would like to get this all done by the end of the month and then build a web site where I can then sell the ebook to all online who wishes to buy it. I also need to find out how to set up pay pal on the web site, etc. So much to do and so little time.

Trapped
Trapped in a corner Out numbered. One on one Pretty sad huh? Over powered... (sighs) I am tired of fighting! Is ignorance truly bliss? I don't think so. Can't sleep Cause fear chases me In my dreams. I wake up in a Pool of heat Can't seem to breath. Panic and pain overwhelm me I can see and feel But the action is No where still. Falling motionless Over the edge Reaching out for A helping hand... Than there he stands The root of my anger... THE root of MY pain. THE ONE WHO GUILTS ME TO OBEY. (whispers) Can I ever escape?

Drugs
Ever noticed how much junk email is offering to sell you medication at reduced prices? Why is that? Are we all ill and just don't know it? Is there really that much viagra in the world that they can sell it at those prices? Are Pfizer employees being given huge amounts of performance enhancing drugs? Do Pfizer make these performance enhancing drugs themselves or do they buy them from a rival drug company? I've gone cross-eyed trying to work it out. Personal favourite junk email message: "Look twenty years younger!" I think my work collegues would freak out if a seven-year-old turned up to do my job. Plus getting served in bars would be a nightmare. I might have more luck with women though. Like the Prophet says: "Woman: I want a baby. Man: I don't. Woman: You're so immature! Man: You just said you wanted a baby!" Case closed. Just my opinion.

Dreads
What is it about dreads that people like is so gross. I know that some people don't actually wash their dreads and that is kinda nasty, but hey I go sometimes three days without washing my hair. The natural oils and stuff do my frizz well. And when I do wash my hair, I wash my dreads too. I mean after all it is just hair in a snarly ball. What's the big deal? I luv em' on anyone. And one day I will have my whole head done. I just can't find anyone who'll help me do it. People are scared to do a white girls dreads. =) Peace

My Seductive Style
Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover. What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Last Night.... Today
I wrote this last summer when me and my dog were stuck in AZ for almost 2 months with no way home. I was stressing more than ever before and in the end before we finally got home, this is what came from it. Last night I sat out with the stars and gazed wondering if they could hear the silent wishes I send. Truly beautiful in the glow they bask in. It reminded me of being with friends. Last night I sat out with them and pondered many, many, many thoughts of life. I pondered the reflections of myself in my eyes. I pondered the moments of all my strife. Last night my mind was far away from usual. I focused on things deep down that I felt. I tried to see beauty where none once stood. It was the stars, like eyes, watching me melt. Last night in that glow that shined from above I seen pictures of memories that I tried to forget. It was almost like real yet known to be past. The memories suppressed for so long I kept. So t

Dazzed And Confused
DRINK DRINK DRINK NO MATTER HOW MUCH I DRINK IT WON'T GO AWAY. CRY CRY CRY NO MATTER HOW MUCH I CRY IT WON'T GO AWAY. WHAT WILL TAKE AWAY MY PAIN? DRINKING DON'T CRYING DON'T SOMETIMES IT HURTS SO BAD I WANT THEM TO HURT AS WELL IF I START TO HURT THEM, WILL I BE ABLE TO STOP? OR WILL I JUST TURN INTO THEM AND KILL KILL KILL?

Witches Dance
Witches' Dance By light of Moon, I oft did hear, Their singing in the wood. Bright candle flames, like fireflies, Outside the Circle stood. They say the Witches gathered there, Wherein the dark did dwell, Afraid to meet within the light, The reasons I've heard tell. The Witches' dance, beneath the Moon, I would that I might go, To be so free and light of heart, And let my gladness flow. But the Witches passed beyond the mist, Some scattered, many dead, Their voices stilled, all laughter gone, The forest stained with red. The nights were full of emptiness, No Magick in the air. Much sadder was the world I knew, The forest much less fair. They promised to return some year, When portents would allow. There's changes in the wind these days, Perhaps the time is now. Earth power is awake again, And once more we are free. Our Magick has returned to us, In stream and field and tree. O who will dance the Witches' Dance, Within a forest glade? Come join th

Hints For Comment Bombing...
first of, IE really sucks for this, if u are able to download the web browser mozilla firefox, it works awesome for me... when i had dial up, i could have 2 browsers going in IE but w/ fire i could have 3-4 and it loaded a lot faster... now i have fire fox on DSL and it runs fantastic.. i can have 8 browsers open, 7 contests i mean and one for all my other things, like checkin mail and shit... make sure u have a couple browsers open, im fast so i vote w/ 7 open.. good luck all and pass this on to ur friends if they are having problems and are slow at voting, firefox will add a few seconds but it all adds up.. good luck on the contest all :) sarah

Uss New York
It was built with 24 tons of scrap steel from the World Trade Center . It is the fifth in a new class of warship - designed for missions that include special operations against terrorists. It will carry a crew of 360 sailors and 700 combat-ready Marines to be delivered ashore by helicopters and assault craft. Steel from the World Trade Center was melted down in a foundry in Amite , LA to cast the ship's bow section. When it was poured into the molds on Sept. 9, 2003, "those big rough steelworkers treated it with total reverence," recalled Navy Capt. Kevin Wensing, who was there. "It was a spiritual moment for everybody there." Junior Chavers, foundry operations manager, said that when the trade center steel first arrived, he touched it with his hand and the "hair on my neck stood up." "It had a big meaning to it for all of us," he said. "They knocked us down. They can't keep us down. We're going to be back." The ship's motto? "Never Forget" Please keep this goin

Fast Cop
In most of the northern states, there is a policy of checking any stalled vehicle on the highway when the temperatures drop down to the single digits or below. About 3 a.m. One very cold morning in March 2004, a state police Officer responded to a call: there was a car off the shoulder of the Road on the outskirts of Berea. He located the car, stuck in deep Snow and with the engine still running. Pulling in behind the car With his emergency lights on, the officer walked to the driver's door To find an older man passed out behind the wheel with a nearly empty Vodka bottle on the seat beside him. The driver came awake when the officer tapped on the window. Seeing the flashing lights in his rear view mirror and the state Policeman standing next to his car, the man panicked, jerked the Gearshift into "drive" and hit the gas. The car's speedometer was Showing 20-30-40 and then 50 mph, but the car was still stuck in the Snow, wheels spinning. The policeman, hav

Snow White's Sexual Agenda
Ever wonder how the seven dwarves got their names? Miss Snow White was a randy cow, And desperate for a fuck. So off she went into the woods, To try and get some luck! She'd almost given up looking, When she saw some chimney smoke. Then stumbled on a cottage, And went in for a poke. Her clothes came off in seconds. And she'd just removed her pants, When seven Dwarves came marching in, With a merry song and dance. Snow White just stood there speechless, And thought she was in heaven! Originally after one good shag, But now she could have seven. Straight away she took command, "My fanny need a lick!" And when one dwarf moved forward, She said "Oi-you'd better drop you pick!" So down he went onto all fours, And said "I ain't licking that!" "Not there, that me arse-hole, You DOPEY little brat!" The next dwarf started blushing, "Do we have to do it here?" Snow White said "Don't be BASHFUL! Unless you're fucking queer!" So reluctantly he whipped i

Wounds From A Stranger
how can you hurt me when you're worthless and you mean nothing. i don't even know you but your careless anger and spite, the words you threw past my face, the barbs in them caught as they flew by. they tore and they hurt though i pretended indifference. now they've festered and eaten a hole. how can words from a stranger who bruised my skin eat at me. like a cancer it makes me sick inside. makes me doubt myself yet again. how can you hurt me when you are nothing? i think it's only because i already believed you. © D. R. Hyden the format is inspired by a good friend of mine, the words were inspired by a drunk redneck stranger who managed to hurt my feelings and my arm.

Rofl Serves Em Right ;)
To my darling husband, Before you return from your overseas trip I just want to let you know about the small accident I had with the pick up truck when I turned into the driveway. Fortunately not too bad and I really didn't get hurt, so please don't worry too much about me. I was coming home from Wal-Mart, and when I turned into the driveway I accidentally pushed down on the accelerator instead of the brake. The garage door is slightly bent but the pick up fortunately came to a halt when it bumped into your car. I am really sorry, but I know with your kind-hearted personality you will forgive me. You know how much I love you and care for you my sweetheart. I am enclosing a picture for you. I cannot wait to hold you in my arms again. Your loving wife. XXX P.S. Your girlfriend called. >

L00k N00bz Mah Contezt
Welcome to Mah Friendliest Cherry Contest fo sho! Cast your vote for who you think is the friendliest cherry here on CherryTap Yarly. Since so manie of deh contestantz are so popular yarly u can vote fo more den one of dem if you want!! ^(O_o)^ Dis is an old skewl RATE ONLY contest, so deh comment bomberz can take a break fo sho. I know they are freakin tired yarly. Man contestz is E-z to vote in fo sho! ^(>_

Life
Life is about learning from mistakes and creating memories. Creating life. Creating beauty. Live. Life is about love and happiness. Letting go of pain. The past. Looking only to the future. We must. Life is a story that we act out. We choose our lines. We walk them. It all revolves around choice. Letting go is hard but must be done if we are to move forward in this journey we call life. Life is magickal and mysterious. Life is defined by actions. Life is real. So live like youve never lived. Love like youve never loved. Be happy like you want. It all comes from within.

Hottest Sex!
Yup that's right i've got the hottest sex around! hehe Anyways all i am asking for from each of my friends here is a lil bit of help! You see i'm in this contest and it's based on comments but you also get credit for how many rates you have on ur pic as well. So if each of you go and at least rates my pic and drops say 5 comments or so that should really help! If you help out i will buy u a gift and make you a sign pic if you'd like! now just go and click on the pic and leave ur vote and a few comments! Pretty plz? *bats eyelashes* Muahz! Sue

Bleeding
Bleeding My feelings draining from my body Like blood streaming out of an open wound My ability to love My ability to laugh My ability to feel pain I care not what happens anymore Fighting, stabbing, shooting, slit my throat Clawing my way out of a shallow grave Nothing matters ~Arcadies~

Misery Of Life
I sit here in my Jail cell called life Feeling a breath that is not my own. I wonder where life will lead me More pain? More misery? I don't really know. I see a light. I try to reach out but cannot Feel it. It gets closer and I notice It's a figure I reconginze. She tells Me she loves me...and I smile. ~Arcadies~

Man How Time Flies!
I have been realizing more and more over the last couple weeks that my kids are growing faster than I have ever thought or have gotten comfy with yet. I went shopping for clothes for them a couple weeks ago and I noticed how much bigger they were than I was thinking and also I have realized that my son is SOOOO much more mature than he has EVER been. They are looking at taking him out of special ed because his behavior is no longer a learning disability to him anymore and he has made this HUGE improvement in less than one school year. He has worked so hard and gotten so much better. He now has more friends and has gained the respect of the other kids because of his level of improvement. It sometimes hurts my heart to think that my babies will be 2nd and 5th graders next year. Its like it was yesterday that they were in my arms coming home from the hospital and I was changing their diapers. Although it hurts a little...I am so proud to see what they are slowly becoming. I am sur

Im Leaving... Part 3!!!!!!!!
damn, not again! well im in a lil bit better mood... if u havent seen my one bulletin, i won a puppy naming contest and won a platnium cherry! i wuz totally not expecting dat!!!! but yay me! haha! well, now sinz what i talked about in the first bulletin in this series... i decided for today dat i wanna be a point whore!!!!! lmao! everyone keeps posting bulletins such as "only 11,ooo points to go", "help me level up", etc, etc. well now its my turn, damn it! haha! i only need like 6o,ooo sumthin points to level 21!!!

More (presumably Dirty) Madlibs
So, I was doing some thinking and, y'know, I thought that __________ with __________ might be fun. It is, after all, what I would do with you if ________. Whilst I had you ______________, I would ____________ and let __________ __________ ________. After that, I'd invite __________ [ and _______ and ________ and _________] _______ to _________. And by now, you'd ________ ________ __________ with _______ all _________ _________!

Here We Go Again
So we had some work to do last night, things didn't go according to plan but I did the best I could. I get in today and right away, the boss wants to talk to me. Great, here we go again! Sure enough, he started into me about all the things I should have done, could have done, basically he was holding me responsible for 2 other work centers not doing there jobs. Where do they get these people? Why does it seem that my talent is finding them? So I've been pretty bummed tonight. I do my best but it's never enough. I'm catching myself in the negative downward spiral that I need to try so hard to avoid but I'm having such a hard time today. Nothing is helping. I get tired of doing what I think is right, pushing forward the best that I can and it seems like I keep getting smacked on the nose like a puppy who peed in the house. I will I could be like some people who seem to be able to not care. I wish I couldn't care. I wish I could be happy doing a halfass crappy job. Nope, not me.

"shakin' My Fine Booty!!"
i am not at all ashamed that exactly five minutes ago i stood up and not only did i "shake my booty" but i actuallly did what i now refer to as the "booty cha-cha"!! you know...the dance that goes to the beat of 1-2-cha, cha, cha...1-2-cha, cha, cha... yes ppl, i have been hit by the "booty train"!! and while i personally may not believe that my booty is fine enough that warrants me "shakin it", the fact that someone who i consider to be an authority on "fine" has scheduled a stop for the "booty train" at my location. and as such is so...i shake!! thank you...i think??!! there is only one thing that i am completely sure of in all of this though. and that is i am absolutely positive, without any doubt in my mind that i would have much rather witnessed her "booty shake" then have had anyone subjected to watching mine. some 'booties' are just magnificent that way!!! they look like they were just made for shakin'!! and the 'booty' that sent the train in my direction is definiitely one

Poetry
Eye's fixed on the star lit sky, i gaze past the moon the night so clear i can see the next galaxy. caught in the bliss of silence thoughts of another day gone, the count down to a new sunrise has begun. the next few hours are the most peacefull on earth, as i focus on the brightest star i can find with closed eye's i wish upon that star in hope of a new tomorrow. if i concentrate hard maybe the wish will ride the wind to carry my words to another place in time, maybe the wish will be heard by the one who can grant what i ask. if my words fall on deaf ears it will not matter none of my dreams have come true, even so i still look in the sky and dream away it give's my mind a much needed break to rest my spirit. if i could fly i would reach as close to this star as possible hoping to find the wish still alive carring across the atmosphere living for eternity, but i know there will be no flight my wings are strapped tight not allowed to spread wide and glide thru the sky, so i must be con

New Poetry
ok, this is some of my poetry i have written, i am sure i will post more of it as i get more comfortable with the idea of people reading it and most likely commenting... Cruel fantasies Of someone's dreams That's what we are We feel so far in here Far from their highest plans Far in our land 'Cause we were born In a cold womb I wish I could visit home To forget this cold They call us forgotten tears 'Cause no eyes cried for us griefs When I look for answers I just find this I realize we're forgotten tears I hope their god never finds us. ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Are you there? Is it wonderful to know All the ghosts... All the ghosts... Freak my selfish out My mind is happy Need to learn to let it go I know you'd do no harm to me But since you've been gone I've been lost inside Tried and failed as we walked by the riverside And I wish you could see the love in her eyes The best friend that eluded you lost in time Burned

Poem: Sorceress Poet
COPYRIGHTED MATERIAL PLEASE DO NOT COPY WITHOUT PERMISSION. THANK YOU. Sorceress Poet A wonder is the spell she weaves Entering our minds and souls Thoughts and emotions with us she leaves As she she strives to reach her goals She weaves her spell with words of ryhme Bringing us to places unseen Taking us to another time Showing us dreams which she has seen Walks With Wind we live your journey Hear the wind and know your dream Along with you we grow weary Feel how alone on this journey you seem Aylynne Cleary we know your hunger Feel the shame of killing your sire Rejoice as you've found another teacher An eternity before you, never to tire I thank you Sorceress for the magic you bring For the sights and wonders you bring us Poet You bring sadness at times, but our hearts sing Your life, your soul to us you show it And when you tire from the spells you weave You can turn to Dragon and under his wing Find comfort and solace until you leave For t

The Bee
One day a young man and woman were in their bedroom making love. All of a sudden a bumblebee entered the bedroom window. As the young lady parted her legs the bee entered her vagina. The woman started screaming "Oh my God, help me, there's a bee in my vagina!" The husband immediately took her to the local doctor and explained the situation. The doctor thought for a moment and said "Hmm, tricky situation. But I have a solution to the problem if young sir would permit." The husband being very concerned agreed that the doctor could use whatever method to get the bee out of his wife's vagina. The doctor said "OK, what I'm gonna do is rub some honey over the top of my penis and insert it into your wife's vagina. When I feel the bee getting closer to the tip of my penis I shall withdraw it and the bee should hopefully follow my penis out of your wife's vagina. The husband nodded and gave his approval. The young lady said "Yes, Yes, whatever, just get on with it." So the do

Just A Friendly Note
Well for crying out loud, here we go again. Today, chaos yells at me to come and check out the TAP and what's on TAP, another Stang profile. That makes 2 since Wednesday or so. This one, was going to post a gallery of my "men"...LOL, I guess the person meant HER man that was probably on my list. Soo, as I've once been an insecure, jealous girlfriend in my life before, I'm going to be kind and write her a letter. So, here goes.... Dear Ms. Jealous Insecure Girlfriend, I don't know who you are, nor frankly do I give a rats ass however, being the person that I am I intend to help you out a little bit. Yup, odds are good that I have your man on my friends list, odds are even better that he requested me....now, that said, as my avatar plainly states, "Don't hate the playa...hate the game". In case you are one who is unsure what that means, I could direct you to a 3 year old to explain it to you but I'll use my valuable time instead. Deal with him......not me. A

Wife In A Coma
A woman was in a coma, she had been in it for months. Nurses were in her room giving her a blanket bath. One of them was washing her private area and noticed that there was a slight response on the monitor when she touched her. They tried it again and sure enough there was a small, recognizable movement. They went to her husband and explained what happened, telling him, "As crazy as this sounds, maybe a little oral sex will do the trick and bring her out of the coma." The husband was skeptical, but they assured that they'd close the curtains for privacy. The husband finally agreed and went into his wife's room. After a few minutes the woman's monitor flat lined, no pulse, no heart rate. The nurses ran back into the room. "What happened!?" they cried. The husband said, "I'm not sure, maybe she choked.

No Hope
Lost in a terrible pool of despair wondering, wondering if I dare, Seeking a way out of this pain I take myself to a higher plain, Where these people cannot hurt me where they can never possibly be, It is a place of utter calm of lovely peace and blissful balm, They cannot find me, they know not where I go alone to find some air. This very lonely little child would love to find someone mild, Always destined to fight alone with never one friend in this home, It is a place where you do not speak you never, ever open your beak, This little child suffers in silence through all the years, all the miles, He has learnt it is far better To be quiet and wear the fetter.

Fuck Me
Fuck me with your wild eyes Take me to the floor Suck the pride from my mind Make me ache you more Strip me down with your gaze Spread me open wide Razed by that depraved rage Craving you inside Claim my waiting carnal crush Gorge me with your glare Rape my will with every thrust Drawn into your stare Call my willing wanting urge Hungry moments burn Natures surge as we converge Penetrate my trust

Literotica
I am now up and being viewed by the members of www.literotica.com. I just went over and they have my story up shown as a NEW publication. You can find it here: http://www.literotica.com:81/stories/showstory.php?id=297093 It is list in group sex category. I hope you like it!

Removal Or Not.....
I HAVE BEEN ON CT FOR A LITTLE OVER A MONTH AND MADE MANY NEW FRIENDS. I THANK THOSE OF YOU THAT HAVE COMMENTED, RATED AND JUST BEEN REALLY SWEET. HOWEVER I HAVE MADE SO MANY FRIENDS, AND I CANT KEEP UP,SO I DO APOLOGIZE IF I HAVENT GOT BACK TO YOU. I AM HOWEVER CLEANING OUT MY FRIENDS, SO THAT I CAN KEEP UP. PLEASE DONT TAKE IT PERSONALLY IF I REMOVE YOU, I DONT WANT TO STEP ON ANYONES TOES......IF YOU FEEL I DO, PLEASE HOLLA AT ME, IF YOU DO KNOW ME, YOU KNOW THAT I LISTEN VERY WELL. THANKS SUGAR Reply To Poster | Repost Bulletin! Leave a comment on this bulletin!

Homer Simpson Quotes
Operator! Give me the number for 911! Oh, so they have internet on computers now! Bart, with $10,000, we'd be millionaires! We could buy all kinds of useful things like...love! Just because I don't care doesn't mean I don't understand. I'm normally not a praying man, but if you're up there, please save me Superman. Son, if you really want something in this life, you have to work for it. Now quiet! They're about to announce the lottery numbers. Well, it's 1 a.m. Better go home and spend some quality time with the kids. Maybe, just once, someone will call me 'Sir' without adding, 'You're making a scene.' Marge, don't discourage the boy! Weaseling out of things is important to learn. It's what separates us from the animals! Except the weasel. Doughnuts. Is there anything they can't do? You know, boys, a nuclear reactor is a lot like a woman. You just have to read the manual and press the right buttons. Lisa, if you don't li

Real Men...
Real men take care of, and financially support, their children. Real men don't hit women. Real men don't abuse children. Real men don't lie. Real men don't cheat. Real men don't steal. Real men are not internet trolls. Real men are dependable Real men honor their commitments. Real men don't live with mommy. Real men work. Real men don't sponge off women. Real men don't feign a romantic interest in women in order to sponge off them. Real men don't rely on their looks or charm to get through life. Real men have honor...

Baby, Please Come Home.
I lay awake and I imagine. I imagine you're coming home. Your job has you working weeks on end without a day off. I always missed you, but I never complained. If it wasn't for your job you surely would not have a future, and we wouldn't have a future either. In my mind, time apart always made the heart grow fonder. as you sat down on the far corner of the bottom of the bed, I crawl up behind you, I rest my chin on your shoulder and look at you. Out of the corner of your eye all you can see is my long, dark hair, dangling over your shoulder. You can hardly see me, but you feel my soft kiss against your cheek. You grin and then tell me about your stressful day at work. You rub your aching shoulder and jerk yourself around hoping your back will crack. Baby, let me make you feel better. I gently start rubbing your shoulders as you sigh in sudden relief and then I lower my hands to massage your back. I slip my hands under your shirt and start rubbing just a little firmer.

Hastily Hunting For Monsters
Hastily Hunting For Monsters My blood flows freely as the white shark’s tooth pulls from my flesh. I scramble to escape, climbing to safety from the turbulent murky water. I must move quickly to escape my situation. Finally free from the immediate danger I examine my wound. All I can see is a hand covered in blood with no sign of the injury. I need to rinse the blood away and assess the damage to my hand. But first I follow my own blood trail to the clay face next to the water I had just made my retreat from. The trail stops and I see what I was searching for, a perfect two inch five to twelve million year old fossil megalodon shark tooth exposed through erosion from the clay. Paydirt! A fossil find well worth the injury and danger of rising water from the afternoon rain showers. Florida’s lush and green landscape did not always have the chance to exist. The landscape has gone above and below the ocean many times as time rushed forward. Through these changes Florida has a lar

To My Friends And Fans
good mornin all my friends this has been a rough couple of weeks and i am sorry to say tat i wont be on all the time like i have been for a couple of weeks i have some family problems right now so thank for all the support i will however all i can leave comments and check mine as well love ya guys

Morning
I guess its time to get the workweek started. :( Supposed to get a decent storm tomorrow and Wednesday, so we probably won't get anything. I have a meeting this morning... but I don't want to get out from under the covers..lol. I slept better last night and want some more. I think I only woke up 3times. But I better get up and get a shower anyway. Not awake enough to say anything intelligent here yet.

Which Is Your Worst Case?
Encountering a group of bear cubs? ---or--- Encountering a group of baby alligators? Be Aware The mother bear will defend her cubs vigorously Any adult alligator may respond to the distress calls of any youngster. Bear cubs may be large enough to kill a human An alligator may drag you into a body of water and drown you.

Goodbye (again Lol)...
It's time for me to hit the road. I'll try to drop in every once in a while, but won't be home technically for about 5-6 weeks. Which means no Valentine for me :(. (Which also means not having to buy expensive jewelry and flowers LOL). I have to admit, y'all amaze me everytime I come back with all the luv and kindness y'all show me. I appreciate it all, and will do what I can to return the vibe. Hope you all have a great Valentine's Day (single or committed). And Hope to speak to you all when I get back. Take care of yourselves

The 9 Secrets Of Happy Couples
Loving couples: In a world where 40 percent of marriages end in divorce, you can't help but notice them. There they are, finishing each other's sentences or laughing in some dusky corner of a Chinese restaurant. They seem so wonderfully in sync, and they make the work of being a couple seem effortless. Of course, no intimate relationship ever is, especially once you factor in life's built-in pressures, like work deadlines, laundry and your daughter's orthodontist appointments. But, says Jane Greer, Ph.D., Redbook Online's resident sex-and-relationships expert, there are certain core values that make some marriages more intimate and resilient than others. You could probably predict the list: trust, mutual respect, commitment and a strong sense of "we" in the relationship. What is surprising, experts point out, is that when you ask loving husbands and wives about the key to their devotion, over and over you'll hear the same things, specific habits that mirror these values. Learning t

Souls For Eternity In The Journey Of Love
Two people fall in love and commit their souls for eternity As they bond together as one, Two people fall in love and commit their souls for eternity As they bond together as one, They begin lives greatest journey When the time is right They will open a door God’s greatest challenge That brings the utmost rewards The proud reflection of you, Of all the goodness in your lives And all the love that is stored inside your heart and throughout your soul will reflect when you have a child Are you ready to begin that journey? And those who have ventured down that path already You know what I am talking about A journey filled with wonder, challenge and excitement A rich amount of joy When you have a child, Are you ready to experience a miracle? As new parents-you will.

Valentine's Day
Ok so it is almost Valentine's Day and we all are looking to have that one special person to spend it with. Well here is a lasting impression that will touch some people and if it doesn't you got issues. I want to spend the day with that one special person who can make me laugh, makes me smile when I am down, know's when something is wrong when I tell them that nothing is wrong, knows just what to say to cheer you up. What helps me get by day by day is the Idea that I have that person in my life right know and that she knows everything about me and if she thinks their is something she doesn't know she always can ask me about it and I will tell her. Anytime I am having a bad day she is their to cheer me up. Anyone who thinks they fit this can comment, but it is one thing I just wanted to talk about and get out so I can open up my heart to that special person.

You'll Love It
I'm a prisoner but I don't mind im the happiest jailbird youll ever find. love is my keeper passions my crime since ive been smitten ive been doing time. dont need no bail or trial by jury could try to escape but im in no hurry no hope for parole cause there is no repentence im a prisoner of love and love is my sentence

Zero To L.............................
This could be the worst news you ever heard, I still love you see so no need to be disturbed, A complex free for all my hearts in a big mess, While you’re in someone else’s wedding dress... Zero to love all in two weeks... Yet a twisted weave we’ve spun indeed! A furious finishing of this race is in dyer need... Some kind of ending from this fancy new start When you kissed me for a lifetime in a parking lot. Puffy white clouds filled my big black storm sky And your dancing hearts stuck right in both eyes... Then baby, you poked them out, one by one... But that’s ok... I’ll take whatever I can get with you my love... :) You should better know though if you must go, You wont go alone... Part of me is clinging stinging dying to hang on... And in the end if we must be just only friends, Needless to say that would be so ok... But you better not take off that wedding dress. If I catch you it’ll be an even bigger mess. I’ll jump on you like white on r

That Cracked Me Up!
Yesterday we let Quinn in for the evening so he ran thru the living room into the kitchen. Anyway Sibi was scared of him for some ungodly reason so she freaked out. Nene saw him and chased him. Then he grabbed onto his fur and started saying, “Meow.” That’s how he identifies cats. =) Anyway Quinn calmed down and let Nene pet him for a while, and then the Boy got PISSED when I let the cat down into the basement. Funny thing was Quinn kept trying to come back up cause the baby was petting him.

Appaulled
When I first came to CT, I was greeted with the standard, automatic friends. BABY J, Scrapper, CT Bouncer, Mr. McGill, etc... My first REAL FREINDS, which I won't mention at this time, were warm and welcoming. One of my friends; (a male and very well known), was respectful and TAKEN. Meaning he has a g/f. Now, I didnt come to CT to find love..ppffttt... Nonetheless..I accepted his friendship and EVERY ONCE AND A WHILE would leave a "friendly comment" on this page and he would do the same. It was clear that my new friend was "head over heels" for his love, and rightfully so. MORE POWER TO HIM. He'd put up her pics and leave sweet comments, and even went the extra mile as to putting her pic as his default profile. Several months had gone by, and as MY friends list grew, so did the moments in between of dropping in to say hello to him. I SAY ALL THAT TO SAY THIS... Today, I came in, was looking forward to chatting with my usual buddies, and what did i find in my "send gifts"? A gift fro

I Want To Live My Next Life Backwards!
I want to live my next life backwards: You start out dead and get that out of the way. Then you wake up in an old age home feeling better every day. Then you get kicked out for being too healthy. Enjoy your retirement and collect your pension. Then when you start work, you get a gold watch on your first day. You work 40 years until you're too young to work. You get ready for High School: drink alcohol, party, and you're generally promiscuous. Then you go to primary school, you become a kid, you play, and you have no responsibilities. Then you become a baby, and then... You spend your last 9 months floating peacefully in luxury, in spa-like conditions - central heating, room service on tap, and then... You finish off as an orgasm. I rest my case.

My Response To The Trash Talk About The Military Wives
military skanks huh? for your information the majority of military wives are either enrolled in school or already have their degree so that they can help with the income. We do not bitch or whine to those who are not in the same situation that we are in. In fact we do not bitch or whine at all. we are proud of what our husbands do. and you need to do your research first before you go off on us. We do NOT get extra income for "breeding" as you so put it. First of all we didnt' give you the "civilians" term... that's what you are, non-military. We do not get extra money for having kids. Nobody thinks you're beneath us just because you or your spouse chooses not to join the military. We completely understand that we signed up for deployments when we married our men. Yeah it's part of the job. It sucks but we deal, we don't whine or complain or bitch. As to your part about everyother job being just as dangerous, if your husband gets shot at everyday, has mortars aimed at his camp when he'

Do They Read What They Write?
The Year's Best (actual) Headlines Of 2006: Crack Found on Governor's Daughter [hmm!] Something Went Wrong in Jet Crash, Expert Says [No, really?] Police Begin Campaign to Run Down Jaywalkers [Now that's taking things a bit far!] Is There a Ring of Debris around Uranus? [Do they ever read what they write?] Panda Mating Fails; Veterinarian Takes Over [What a guy!] Miners Refuse to Work after Death [No-good-for-nothing' lazy so-and-sos!] Juvenile Court to Try Shooting Defendant [See if that works any better than a fair trial!] War Dims Hope for Peace [I can see where it might have that effect!] If Strike Isn't Settled Quickly, It May Last Awhile [You think?!] Cold Wave Linked to Temperatures [Who would have thought!] Enfield ( London ) Couple Slain; Police Suspect Homicide [They may be on to something!] Red Tape Holds Up New Bridges [You mean there's something stronger than duct tape?!] Man Struck By Lightning:

A Stuuning Word
There was that place and the essence of ripe pomegranates imagined in the flowers devoid of scent. There was the colour, openly crimson, of the flowers - and there was the tang, not confessed and green, of the pomegranates that would be, seeping through the cracks of time and falling into the substance, with petals ajar, of dream. There was memory, drank in gulps of other colours. And all of a sudden, there were two mouths and one sole breath - and the pomegranates, bitten, ripe, in the flowers of imagined scent. Sweet… … Like the reinvention of that place.

Warning
Ok, folks. I know that some of you know me personally...and some of you only know me on here, so I am going to issue a warning. I blog from the heart and I have some serious, some would say psychotic, view points that will possibly infuriate some people. So, read these with the knowledge that they are my thoughts and opinions. Steve

People Watching On Ct
After just a short time on CT I am noticing an interesting trend.... I have spent much of my time thus far just browsing profiles and looking for interesting people to talk to online and who knows, possibly become real friends with one day. I think I'm a little hard on some people though. I have met a lot of people through the internet, when I say a lot, I mean well over 50 and in several Countries, and let me tell you, there are some shady folks out there. As if you needed me to tell you that. Having said this, I tend to be more judgmental on the internet these days than I would ever dare in real life. It's Funny, on CT, more than I have experienced in a long time on any other web site, no matter how many profiles you read, comment sections, picture comments, etc.. you end up going around in circles. I always end up back at the same profiles I have already read. These of course being the interesting people. There seems to be a "group" of intellectual people and then this large

Iam Deleting My Account,goodbye
watsup people,those that matter anyways,its ya local neighborhood SOLDIER BOY "BANKS",I WANNA TAKE THIS TIME TO THANK EVERYONE FOR THE KIND COMMENTS AND MESSAGES THAT YOUVE LEFT ME,I'D LIKE TO APPRECIATE AND RECOGNIZE ALL THE GOOD FRIENDS IVE MET ON HERE,YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE,BUT AT THIS TIME IAM ALSO POSTING THIS TO LET MY TRUE FRIENDS ON HERE KNOW THAT IVE CHOOSEN TO DELETE MY ACCOUNT. I WONT SERVE AN EXPLAINATION,BUT WHAT I WILL DO IS LEAVE EXTRA CONTACT INFORMATION FOR THOSE WHO CARE TO KEEP IN CONTACT WITH ME THE FOLLOWING ARE REFERENCES YOU CAN FIND ME AT: Yahoo- st_69_04@yahoo.com Myspace- url www.myspace.com/mr_sdot AOL- sktskt07@aol.com AGAIN ID LIKE TO THANK ALL THOSE THAT MATTER FOR THE GOODTIMES BUT THE BOY HAS TO DO WAT HE HAS TO DO,SO THIS IS GOODBYE.

Sunday Morning Sex
I will never hear church bells ringing again without Smiling... Upon hearing that her elderly grandfather had just Passed away, Katie went straight to her grandparent's house to visit her 95-year-old grandmother and comfort her. When she asked how her grandfather had died, her grandmother replied, He had a heart attack while we were making love on Sunday Morning." Horrified, Katie told her grandmother that 2 people Nearly 100 years old having sex would surely be asking for trouble. "Oh no, my dear," replied granny. "Many years ago, Realizing our advanced age, we figured out the best time to do it was when the church bells would start to ring. It was just The right rhythm. Nice and slow and even... Nothing too strenuous, simply in on the Ding and out On the Dong." She paused to wipe away a tear, and continued, "He'd Still be alive if the ice cream truck hadn't come along.

Yeah So Whatever
So I'm not going into details, but last weekend sucked and no today isn't looking any better. I'm really tired of all the bullshit, being let down, ignored, or screwed over. I can't deal. I'll talk to ya'll if I get in a better mood. Otherwise, don't waste your freaking time 'cause I probably won't respond. ~OH...and whoever made me your crush, find a better person. It shouldn't be too hard.

The Gift You Gave Me
I followed the rose pedals to the bedroom The sweet sent of your perfume was enchanting Soft music in the background Our first song we ever heard together No light in sight But that of candle light All the worries of the day Disappeared Focusing only on the moment I opened the door to our room And found you on the bed You looked so beautiful Like a goddess incarnate I don't know what it is Maybe just a surprise But every time i look at you You become more beautiful in my eye's What is the occasion i asked And you told me not to talk Just to sit back and relax And you shared with me, a most sacred act The gift you gave me that night Was one that i will never forget Not in this life Or the next

You Play
Your eyes are your weapons. You control my heart. You stand in the middle. You play the part. The aura of your beauty, as you stare into my soul, makes me contemplate your unspoken goal. The scent of your skin, as I slowly breathe in, makes the erotic animal come alive within. Your eyes are your weapons. You control my heart. You stand in the middle. You play the part. I have no defense; my desire for you is so, viciously immense. I am just a man; like the flames that you fan. Your eyes are your weapons. You control my heart. You stand in the middle. You play the part. You are the temptress; you have control. I am the one who desires to know you so. Your eyes are your weapons. You control my heart. You stand in the middle. You play the part.

Shhhhhhhhhhh .......shhhhhhhhhhh
No need for words Just hold me Let our eyes Reflect our passion As mirrors To our soul Shhhhhhhhhhh No need to speak Our bodies Are the voices Unleashed and dying For the others Hungry touch Shhhhhhhhhhh No need for sound Only the moans Escaping from your Tortured need Raging as a beast Begging to be fed Shhhhhhhhhhh No need for talking Our souls Are whispering Urgent cries Desires all consuming In passions fire Shhhhhhhhhhh No need for words Only the pounding Of our hearts As sweet ecstasy Burning us alive Embers to ashes

Ohhh,quench The Thirst....
I am in need my corazon. My soul's desire is you. Come to me my beautiful one. Quench the thirst in my soul. I am in want mi amor. My passion is raging out of control. Touch me and fill the void inside me. Come to me my heart, my soul. I long for you my love. Devour me the way I long to devour you. Give all your love to me. I am in need my corazon. My soul's desire is you.

Direction
direction i had no direction till i lost my rudder while i could still steer my ship was without destination aimless in my journey thinking in my arrogance that i knew what i was doing knew where i was going then i lost my rudder i had no say on my destination and then i lost my mast and had no power for motion then i lost my will and didnt care anymore where i might go staring blankly at an empty sea going as the current carried me watching other ships pass by as aimlessly as i and then i began to listen to a voice i had lost long ago god began to speak to me to show me where i had been that what i had done and what i had acquired were for my own glory to sate my own greed that i had no destination when i traveled without him that when i believed in only me that i was bound instead of free he led me from my vessel/ego to walk upon the water of lifes tossing sea he reminded me to dream but stay true to the beliefs that

In Your...
In Your darkness i find my light Fore it is Your darkness that feeds my soul. In Your chains i find my freedom Fore bound by them, i am as i choose to be. In Your pleasure i find my own Fore it is my own deep dark desire. In Your arms i find my refuge Fore i know You shall keep me safe and warm. In Your eyes i find my world Fore i see my spirit dancing with Yours. In You, M'lord, i find everything i shall ever need!

Alan Update
I WENT TO THE SCHOOL THIS MORNING AND HAD A MEETING WITH THE PRINCIPAL. THEY WERE HELPFUL, THEY PROVIDED AN AID TO HELP WITH ALAN. WITH SCHOOLWORK AND ALL THINGS RELATED WITH SCHOOL.SO WE WILL SEE HOW LONG THIS LAST. ALSO I HAVE HAD TO MAKE A HARD DECISION CONCERING ALAN AND P.E. HE IS SO MAD WITH ME RIGHT NOW. I HAVE CHOSE TO TAKE HIM OUT OF P.E. FOR THE REST OF THE SCHOOL YEAR. HE IS JUST FALLING MORE AND MORE ON A DAILY BASIS, AND I HAVE TO THINK OF HIS SAFTEY. HE WILL STILL DO SOME P.E. BUT IT WILL BE A ONE ON ONE TYPE THING. I JUST FEEL THAT RIGHT NOW, THIS WOULD BE BEST FOR HIM. MAYBE NEXT YEAR A MIRACLE WILL HAPPEN AND HE WILL BE BETTER. BUT WHO KNOWS

So Vday Is Near
Yep good old vday is near!!! woo hoo, well for you lucky few. See i realized everyone of you are just like me, noone wants to be alone. Specially on this day! So i purpose that all of us single people hook the hell up! lol i mena hell invite ur friends over, go out, party, do whatever, just dont do it alone...why should us lonely heart broken people be alone? so i say we reclaim vday and celebrate our love 4 our friends, family and whatever else!!!! what im saying is simple, lets not be depressed this year!

My Disability
Well here goes, i hope i can get everything in. I was born with a heart defect; I was born with only 3 sections of in my heart, and a missing wall between my left/right Atrium. I only have a left Ventricle. When i was in the hospital when i was born i got Ecoli in my heart sack, so i had part of my sternum removed to drain the ecoli. Ive had bad lung circulation because of it, and my oxygen levels were so low it was if i was on MT. Everest without oxygen tanks, till i was age 7; when i had my first open heart surgery called a Fontan. I had a fake wall put into my Left/Right Atrium, and had to have my arteries re-plummed because i don't have a right ventricle my main artery that was supposed to grow there; wnt into my left ventricle, so it had to be re-plummed into my right atrium. Years later when i was 18; my heart was getting really stressed, my right atrium swelled up to twice the size if my heart. So i had another open heart surgery called Fontan II. I had a tube inserted into my

Are You Addcited To The Internet?
You Are 80% Addicted to the Internet In your opinion, life without the internet is hardly worth living. Could be, but you probably need a bit more fresh air and sunshine to think clearly. Are You Addicted to the Internet?

I Dreamt Of You
I had a dream about you I dreamt of you last night I shouldn't tell you this Know I shouldn't share these thoughts because it tears you, tortures you mind and heart and soul. I so ache to whisper in your ear these dreams of you, of me, of us My fingers remember softly caressing your flesh, touching, loving your face, the angle of your jaw, the curve of your cheek. My mouth remembers meeting your mouth, tasting your skin, breathing your passion. My hands remember traveling your body, exploring your heat, clasping your hands tight. My eyes remember peering deep into your eyes, melting into you, feeling your soul joining mine. I dreamt of you.

When U Are The Giver
When you are a giver, you have nothing to fear. You are powerful and you are loving. The trick in life is not figuring out what you can get, but what you can give. There is so much power in this type of thinking that it staggers the imagination

Locked In Shame
To be locked up with no escape always a fist upon my nape. Big chains they bind me with telling me that I don't exist. I have no place in this world, am only fit to be hurled. Down, down into the pool of the terrible shame of this fool, The shame, the shame, tol much for me I really feel like a tiny flea. Always to crawl on the ground, forever for them to pound and pound. I cannot escape, I know not how tell myself I'm a stupid cow, forever locked in the dark and gloom never to see the light of the moon.

As I Lay Here
As I lay here bleeding, dying on the floor, I notice that your picture is still hanging on my door. All those thoughts and memories come flooding back to me, and then the tears begin to fall for what we used to be. We could've made it work out, We could've made it last, but all that love and happiness is only in the past. As I lay here trembling, crying on my floor, I begin to wonder, if you care anymore. How could you make me hurt so bad? Why did you make me cry? It was then I realized I didn't want to die. But now I lay here silent, dead upon my floor, and as I fly to heaven, you knocked at my front door...

Gotta Love The Alcoholics Out There!!
SO the next time someone says you are an alcoholic cause of ALL that awesome Vodka in the house simply tell them all the Helpful uses it has!! 1. To remove a bandage painlessly, saturate the bandage with vodka. The solvent dissolves adhesive. 2. To clean the caulking around bathtubs and showers, fill a trigger-spray bottle with vodka, spray the caulking, let set five minutes and wash clean. The alcohol in the vodka kills mold and mildew. 3. To clean your eyeglasses, simply wipe the lenses with a soft, clean cloth dampened with vodka. The alcohol in the vodka cleans the glass and kills germs. 4. Prolong t he life of razors by filling a cup with vodka and letting your safety razor blade soak in the alcohol after shaving. The vodka disinfects the blade and prevents rusting. 5. Spray vodka on vomit stains, scrub with a brush, then blot dry. 6. Using a cotton ball, apply vodka to your face as an astringent to cleanse the skin and tighten pores. 7. Add a

I Am...
You Are Rain You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming. Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you. You are best known for: your touch Your dominant state: changing What Type of Weather Are You?

Give Him What He Really Wants For Valentine's Day
Well ladies, Valentine's Day is coming. I'm sure you all know that. I get really tired of hearing women whine over what they're going to get for Valentine's Day. Why do you think it's all about you? I'm here to burst your bubble...it isn't. It's about sex. Listen, the whole idea of going out to a romantic dinner [choke] and getting stale chocolates is for one reason and one reason only. It's a down payment on the after-romance bullshit. Yes, it's about what you're going to give to him after he's convinced you that he's spent all this time and money on you. ie: PUSSY. So, instead of you getting your panties in a wad and getting mad about it, go with the flow sisters. [Beat him to the punch] Besides, do you really need to go to a restaurant where you'll wait a fucking hour, then eat something that's probably going to make your ass bigger? Hell no! And the chocolates! Please baby, you can open a box of ding-dongs and get your chocolate fix. I'm talking not only pl

Things About Me..........
I'm a sweet girl for the most part.... In person, i'm shy if i dont know you... I still play in the puddles after it rains... I love men with green eyes, they can melt me... I get my feelings hurt easily, but i'll never tell you..... I can't stand for someone not to like me.... I love fishing, used to go with my grandma when i was a little girl.... I love baseball, my favorite team is the Chicago Cubs... My favorite color is pink.... I try to act tough like i don't need anyone, but i do.... When i'm in my car driving, i turn up my music really loud and sing along....(especially oountry)... The only bone i've ever broke is my right thumb, i shut it in the door of my dodge durango...(yeah i know...dumb ass)... I only have one friend thats a girl, the rest of my friends are guys... I've never been loved by a man, not even my own father..... My favorite flowers are shasta daisies, tulips, and yellow roses... Lol... that being said..i have never got flowers.. My most prize

Cry
I don't know what is so wrong with me today but i feel like shit....no, i'm not ill. Perhaps a l'il depressed and i don't know why. Just booked a holiday to Paris and still there's no smile on my face. I want to cry but the tears are damned. This is gay....make me smile? please?

A Moment Of Passion
A Moment Of Passion A moment of passion so easily shared, with no fear or regret. The memories flood through my mind, a moment of passion I'll never forget. A moment of passion is like a drug, it takes me so high. Needing to get another fix, a moment of passion can never lie A moment of passion when we are alone, you desire it too. Unable to control it, a moment of passion shared with you.

Sex Quiz
You have a sexual IQ of 156 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

Wtf??
Gangs are for pussies....I dont understand the whole fukin concept....never been in a gang, but it seems like ur all out shootin each other, bein "gangStaz", claiming territory??? How the fuk is that fun...u want some territory, quit robbin banks, get a JoB, buy some land, and then claim it....who the fuk wants to have to look over their shoulder everywhere they go, and have to worry about ur house getting "shot up" or whatever, getting in trouble together, but when ur locked up and u get caught, where tha fuk are they now...ur so called family??? sorry, i just saw someones profile, and just pissed me off, so i had to get this off my chest.....what do u guys think?????? let me know please...

A Very Long Ramble About Reincarnation And Evolution
“To die a little less ignorant of mysteries than he’d been born” Clive Barker, ‘The Inhuman Condition’ The Books of Blood Vol. IV I think that’s what I want carved on my gravestone. At least I would if I was planning on being buried. It’s cremation for me, I need to get out of this body as quickly as possible and get on with my existence. I’ve always thought that there must be a place where we exist, in potenia, before we are born. By that rational, there must be somewhere we go after we die. Perhaps they’re the same place. Spiritual recycling. Reincarnation. There is an old Jewish myth that there are only a finite number of souls in existence, and that after a persons death, their soul returns to the ‘Well of the Souls’ (also called the Guph), where it waits to be reborn in another physical form. It makes sense if you think about it. Physics teaches us that ‘energy cannot be destroyed, only changed’. Movement into sound. Movement into heat. Heat into light. A person’s soul MUST hav

I'm Not
I may appear happy But I’m not. This false smile Hides the pain And deflects questions I may appear strong But I’m not. I pretend to do Anything I want But I want more. I may appear carefree But I’m not. Inside my mind Are constant struggles Worries over tomorrow I may appear alive But I’m not.

Hospital Window
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation. Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window. The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the

Why Is It...
That every time the weather gets bad, people drive like full-fledged IDIOTS? Has common sense become THAT rare that when you get behind the wheel and there is ice on the road that you STILL drive 60 and 70 miles an hour? Sadly, such is the case here. We were prepared for the nasty weather. Yet, when I had to leave for a couple hours this morning, there were at least 10 accidents because dumbasses DON'T PAY ATTENTION. There were still the usual cell phone talkers, make-up appliers, newspaper readers, fast food eaters, shavers (yes, I've seen that one a few times), and general morons who seem to be so fucking color blind that they can't tell when the vehicle in front of them is STOPPING. To these people, I say thank you. Thank you for getting pissed off at me for going too slow for you on the highway. Thank you for slamming into the concrete barrier as you passed me. And thank you for giving me a good laugh this morning as you ranted and raved on the side of the road as you insp

...valentine's Day...is Tomorrow
urgh...i feel like death today...but then, i feel like death most days, actually. one of the joys of having a chronic illness, i suppose. and what is my illness, you ask? it's chronic pain syndrome called Fibromyalgia. here's a link to some information about it: http://www.webmd.com/content/article/6/1680_51250.htm if you're curious^.~ and now to valentine's day. alas, i am alone today...so i'm going to spend it by watching the History Channel and drinking caffeine-free Coke. th drink companies are always saying that they add caffeine as a"flavor enhancer." and actually, i find that the taste of this caffeine-free Coke isn't as "sparkly" as it's regular cousin. well, i didn't want this post to devolve into me bitcing about being single on thi day of couples. so i won't. there are plenty of people on earth who are single today, it's not just me. and most of those people don't have a super-cute puppy to snuggle with! right now Sumi (the aforementioned puppy) is sleeping on me (

Yet Another Yikes Story .that Also Amuses Me To No End.
You Rule, Vietnamese Waxer Lady My regular waxer was not available and I just could not bear the wild, untamed amazon bush jungle that my, well, bush had become for another day. So I came to you on my lunch hour, Anonymous Vietnamese Waxer Lady who works at the cheapie nail place. We were mere strangers before this afternoon, but after knowing you only an hour, I feel like I must point out the reasons why you rule. When it was necessary to get on all fours to do the “taint” part of the wax, you applied the wax so delicately to my bunghole, then asked, in what I assumed were two of the only five English words you know, “Too hot?” I responded yes, it was too hot. And without hesitation, you blew on it to cool the hot wax. YOU BLEW ON MY BUNGHOLE, Vietnamese Waxer Lady. Do you know how special that is? Nobody blows on the bung. Nobody. Since you were a bit clumsy with the wax, there were many bits leftover that did not get taken up onto the “Strip of Doom” as I like t

Cancer & America
Today I want to talk about something I don't understand. Some would argue that I do that all the time, and in this case they would be right. I get the idea of Jerry Lewis and his telethon, and God bless him for doing it for all these years, but here's what I don't understand. If he can come on TV and collect millions of dollars every year, from regular people and corprate sponsers, why isn't someone doing the same thing to try to find an end to cancer. I won't bore you with facts and figures, we all know how horrible this disease is. It strikes everyone from small children to the older generation, it comes in too many forms to even keep track of at times. So, why is it that nobody has stepped up to start a telethon for this killer of the masses? We seem to be ok with the idea that body parts have become disposable. Cut off a breast and hope for the best is not my idea of the way Americe should be treating this murderer of young and old, man and woman, black and white, and every oth

Love Or Infatuation
1) Do I treat the other person as a person or a thing? If you go out with him/her because he/she is good looking (a "prize" to be with) or a way out (a ticket to the movies), that isn't love. (2) Would you chose to spend the evening alone with him/her if there were no kissing, no touching, and no sex? If not, it isn't love. (3) Are the two of you at ease and as happy alone as you are with friends? If you need other friends around to have a good time, it isn't love. (4) Do you get along? If you fight and make up a lot, get hurt and jealous, tease and criticize one another, better be careful, it may not be love. (5) Are you still interested in dating or secretly "messing around" with others? If so, you aren't in love. (6) Can you be totally honest and open? If either or both of you are selfish, insincere, feel confined, or unable to express feelings, be cautious. (7) Are you realistic? You should be able to admit possible future problems. If others (besides a par

Erato Strike
It happens all the time. You read a poem. An image strikes you. There's no help for it, you have to write one too. Of definitions When ego fades to nothingness And soul hangs on the edge of something indefinable, Do you know where you are? Do you know who you are? In whispered directions In hissing of held breaths and gasps In joined climbing of a joyous peak How do you define The deed, the need, the outcome? Life worshipping life? When heart is full When speech is lost When a monsoon of sweat brings bodies to harvest in due time As hand meets hand and fingers flame caresses When the sanctity of Vedic chants infuses sweat- drenched murmurs, When kisses replace the one hundred and eight praises of divinity And heartbeats echo the tempo of temple bells As body worships body: What is prayer? What does it mean? A little death.

Just For Posterity
I'm not removing my previous blogs...why you might ask? just because I want them there as a reminder to myself and others...I've made peace with myself and others...but I still want to remember what happens when I trust too much or I care too much...and I want people to realize that I'm not the same lil pushover I used to be...I will stand up for myself this time around...and I won't rely on other people to do it for me...I love all of you...and hopefully there will be no cause for any further problems or drama...have a happy valentines day everyone...I'm celebrating my 1 month anniversary with my bf...go us!!! lol

You Wanna Kiss The Girl
You wanna kiss the girl You've gotta kiss the girl Go on and kiss the girl Kiss the Girl, The Little Mermaid Sometimes a second seems like forever. As you bent your head, eyes locked on mine, giving me time to step back or turn my face slightly to offer my cheek… I could step back. I could avert my face. I could smile and shake my head no. I did none of the above. I waited. Big-eyed, you teased me later, apprehensive but determined. I could have turned my face and your lips would have pecked a platonic kiss of affection and we'd have gone back to our bantering and fencing with words. Perhaps. That wasn't an option, not any longer, was it? So I waited. As your face came closer I saw more clearly, for the first time at such close quarters or in such detail, that gash in your left eyebrow, a small scar where no hair grew– a childhood accident perhaps. Was your mother beside herself with protective fear when it happened, I wondered, in a flash of sympa

Just Random Thinking
I realized something today about relationships especially romantic ones..and that is I don't always take my own advice lol I used to always tell my friend when she had a problem with her guy that as long as she has told him how she feels about a certain thing or what she wants or expects then he really should make an effort to be considerate of that and try to avoid within reason whatever he is doing or not doing that upsets her so much...that if he really cared he would make the effort. In her case it was him not calling when he said he would and not expressing his feelings like she needed. Well I've been guilty of the same thing as him, like today, not really considering the other person's feelings about something although he has told me, I heard him but didn't really try to be more careful and avoid it. And I do really really care about him. So what I've told her all this time isn't always true. It wasn't a major stumbling block but ya know what if it was and I just disregard

Lesbonics
>> > >Subject: Lesbonics >> > > >> > >1 . What do >>you call a pantry full of lesbians? >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > > A licker cabinet. >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > >2. What do you call an Eskimo lesbian? >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > > A Klondyke. >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > >3. What do you call 100 lesbians with guns? >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > > Militia Etheridge. >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > >4. Why can't lesbians diet and wear make-up at the same time? >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > > Because they can't eat Jenny Craig with Mary Kay on their face. >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > >5. What do you call two lesbians in a canoe? >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > >> > Fur Traders. >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > >6. What is a lesbian dinosaur called? >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > > A Lickalotapuss. >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > >7. What do you call a lesbian with long fingers? >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > > Well Hung. >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > >8. Did you hear that Ellen DeGene

Write Me A Poem
Write me a poem You said A pretty poem With birds singing Trees swaying in gentle breeze Butterflies fluttering in fragrant air Sun shining In sapphire sky Happy children playing In fields of rainbow flowers And cherry blossom snow Until the mystical moon tucks them in Their cozy beds and dreams A poem with fireflies Like dancing stars And... you know… ...Write me a poem like that You said But I cannot For my mind is oppressed With images of war Dying soldiers Never coming home Suicide bombers Guns and tanks Global warming Dying oceans Drying rivers Burning forests And souls who have given up So I cannot write your pretty poem My love

Men Have Know Respect For Us Women!!
Men have know respect for us lady's! They only think about 1 fucken thing, you know what im talken about. They try so hard get in are pant's, rather try get pussy than love us for who we are! I say fuck men who need's them. I date some guy on here thought would be sweet heart, shit he was a player, every time left he would flirt with other women just get them join his new lounge room!! He was so rude, the only thing had on his mind was my ass and pussy. And he said he loved me, which i new was a lie!!

Do Men Really Think Us Women Are Stupid?
I mean honestly? why do they try to lie to us even tho we know that they are fucking lying? Even when you tell them you want the truth and that just like we tell children you'll be in less trouble if u don't lie! I just fucking don't get it! I'm so sick of being lied to when i know the goddamn truth! I just wanna hear it and not have you play fucking games with me! Gah ok i'll end my rant now!

I Really Need A Job...
Guy Cooper guy.c.cooper@gmail.com TECHNICAL SKILLS Operating Systems: Microsoft Windows 2000 and XP Microsoft Windows Server 2000 and 2003. Free BSD, Solaris, Red Hat, Mandrake, Windows 95/98/NT Databases: SQL 2000 Server, MS Access General Software: Microsoft Office Professional 2000 and 2003, Norton Antivirus Server, Norton Antivirus Client, Norton Antivirus for Exchange, Ghost 8.0, Whatsup Gold, Adobe Acrobat Pro, Remedy, Veritas 8.0, Harristat , Rentina, WSUS, Websense, Pearl, Cisco Works, Windows Share Point Server Routing/Switching: Cisco Router 1760, 2600, 2800, 3600, 3745, PIX Firewall 501, 515, 515E Cisco Switches 2950, 3550, 3650, 4500 Services DNS, DHCP, WINS, AD, Exchange, Domain Controllers, RAS, TAC ACS, SNMP, Cisco Call Manager Clearance Currently maintains a U.S. Government Secret Clearance since 1997 EMPLOYMENT HISTORY Network Administrator ITT Camp Bucca, Iraq 06/06 to Present Provided network administration and telephony

Vote For Michelle
Could ask all my friends and family to help vote for Michelle in the Valentines Contest she needs all the votes she can get right now. Your help would be greatly appreciated by Michelle. Thanks Willie

If We Don't Talk
Ok peep if I don't talk to you regulary then I'm deleting you....I'm not in a popularity contest and not here jus for numbers...I'm here to make friends...so I'm going thro my friends now....and del all the peep I don't talk to atleast on a wkly. Thanks

I Spent All That Time........
I met her when I was 17, she was 15. It was something that Ive never seen before or experienced. Truly the most beautiful, funny amazing girl I had ever met. We started dating shortly after we met and instantly fell in love...certainly our first. About a yr into our relationship she became pregnant, I was then 18 and her, 16. Suddenly everything stopped...everything changed. The smiles, the hugs,the talks, and cetainly all the fun. We were always the "it" couple but now we were two kids making 3.35 an hour and a 16 yr old pregnant. I remember....(sighs)...working a very rare Sat. night at Burger King, I was outside sweeping in the rain...her dad walks right up to me and says "If I ever see you with her again, your going to jail"...my life completely changed. It get worse....The next day I learn she's going to have an abortion...ok so now I have at the time was the most amazing gf I have had ever seen or known, for sure the very first time I was in love and now I'm facing jail,a gf I ca

My Friend? Then Least Take The Time To Reas This....
I have 104 people on my list and only 5 or 6 have taken the time to do more than rate my profile. To me it shows that this place has turned into myspace with nude pics. People on here care more about contests and getting fans, having 1000's of people on their list(to help with contests), and the like. For them to do anything you have to "go vote for me" so forth and so on. Starting to sound like myspace to you? So if you are not one of the 5 or 6 that have helped me in any way thank you. If not then help me out some.

Time To Go I Think
I think its time to pull the plug. I think its time for me to leave, slowly fade away, like a bad memory. I am learning I cant understand anymore, so perhaps its best I just go. Lost inside a painful shell of disbelief and grief, I ponder , why am I here? I stare out a window and realize, I am lost in my own world of hurt and confusion. I misunderstand the simplest things, so perhaps I should go find my darkness again, hide from reality in the pain, for it is my only true love. Thank all those who made my stay here wonderful, although it was short. I hope I helped those who asked. But its time for me to go I think, time to pull the shades and turn off the lights. I really don't think I am needed here anyway, I don't fit in. Oh it was fun trying, helping this or that one with comments and such. But I feel alone, trapped in a world I walked into on my own. So if I hurt you I am sorry, if I lost you I am sorry, if I wronged you I am sorry. But most of all I AM SORRY.

Bye To Every One
hey to every one that dont know me tomorrow will be the end living with out love sucks living with abuse suck having no way out and the only one you love dont love you back you help the one you love out when you try to call wont answer wont call you back what is feb 14 with out love its hell on wells if i dont have a date by tomorrow i will never be able to live again i just wanted love and all i get in pain and hurt i want to be happy but fuck you all i hope i od tomorrow see you all in hell XOXO Danielle AKA rogue

Poem
I hated myself today. I wanted nothing more than to pick up the phone dial your number and tell you I love you. But I couldn't. The number is unlisted. Four years made my fingers forget how to reach you. I hated myself for forgetting. I needed you today. Pacing sterilized white halls; green smocks and strange faces my only source of comfort. I thought of you. You should have been there pacing along with me. You should have been there as my shoulder. Just as I wasn't for you. I hated myself for not being there. I drove by your home on the way to mine. I wanted to stop in just to say hello. To say I miss you. My excuses held me back. It was raining. I was cold. I didn't have any flowers. Besides, you'll be there tomorrow. I hated myself as I drove on. Walking into my room I saw your picture on my windowsill. And my dresser. And my walls. With newspaper clippings folded printed card other random mementos. I told myself I was o

Oops,did I Do This?
On some days,don't (us.WINK ) women just feel a little bit wicked... . My car was stuck on a city street It seems I had a flat As I bent over I heard a crash And I thought Oops, did I do that? As I passed two boys with ice cream cones I heard a sigh and then a splat Looking back their cones were bare And I wondered Oops, did I do that? While I was seated on a park side bench There was water where I sat The guys gazed as my white dress showed bare And I giggled Oops, did I do that? In tight shorts I passed the ballpark All the men began to hold their bats The coach was yelling as I walked away And I grinned Oops, Did I do that? In the elevator I noticed a piece of lint So I gave my rear a pat A woman slapped her boyfriend’s stare So I giggled Oops, did I do that?

Valentines Day
Ok As everyone knows tommarow is Valentines day!!! The day lovers spend time together and exchange gifts of love... Well I am single and hating it.... After coming out of A Relationship of years because the guy can't keep it in his pants and feels the need to cheat....I am hating the day... I loved him and in the end I ended up with a broken heart with no one to love me in the end soooo I will be all alone with no one who cares!!! Hope you have a great and loveable valentines day!! xo ~carla

Faimily, Friends And Fans Of Angel This Is For You
You're...My friends, My companions,Through good times and bad,My friends,My buddies,Through happy and sad,Beside me you stand, Beside me you walk,You're there to listen,You're there to talk,With happiness, With smiles,With pain and tears,I know you'll be there, throughout the years!You are all good friends to me and I am grateful to you all. I am glad we met and life would'nt be the same without you. luv ya my friends ANGEL xxxxxxxxxxxxxoooooooooo

My 1st Contest! Please Comment Bomb
Please Rate, but most of all Comment on My Pic. This is my 1st Contest, and I'd really Love to win that 3 day Blast! C'mon y'all help me out. Click on the pic below to be taken to the contest. Thanks in advance!!!

The Darkness
I FEEL THE BLACKNESS IN ME GROWING LIKE A CANCER LIKE A STICKY NICOTINE CAKED LUNG IT SITS AND ROTS ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT THE GOODNESS LESSENS BY DAY I AM AN UNHOLY MONSTER I LOOK INTO THE MIRROR MY REFLECTION IS SWALLOWED BY HATE THE HATE GROWS INTO FEAR FEAR OF MY SECRET BECOMING KNOWN MY SECRET MY SECRET DESIRES MY DESIRE FOR THE BLACKNESS LIKE A THROBBING ITCH DEEP DOWN I EMBRACE IT I MUST CHAFF MY ITCH I LONG FOR THE DARKNESS TO OVERTAKE OVERTAKE THE REMAINING GOOD THE LITTLE GOOD LEFT IN ME I AM THE DARKNESS IT COMPLETES ME THIS ROTTINGNESS IS MY SICK DESTINY

I’m The One
There’s not a part of your body that I’m not willing to explore. There’s not a line I won’t cross once we’re behind closed doors. Tell me your deepest desires and your darkest fantasies. I’ll fulfill every one of them, because I aim to please. Some of the things I know I will like, others I may not enjoy. I’m willing to try anything once, consider me your sexual toy. I’ll do anything with a woman, there are no limitations. You want to try something new, send me an invitation. Don’t expect me to read your mind, don’t expect me to know. Let me know ahead of time, just how far you want to go. Don’t be afraid to get kinky; don’t think you can go too far. Tell me what turns you on; I want to know what those things are. You may wonder why I am telling you this, wonder what’s in it for me. When you remember the time of your life, I’m the person you’ll see. I’m not looking for love or ever lasting devotion. Let’s just enjoy ourselves, when our bodie

Sexy Back
[Verse 1] I'm bringing sexy back Them other boys don't know how to act I think your special whats behind your back So turn around and ill pick up the slack. Take em' to the bridge [Bridge] Dirty babe You see these shackles Baby I'm your slave I'll let you whip me if I misbehave It's just that no one makes me feel this way Take em' to the chorus [Chorus] Come here girl Go ahead, be gone with it Come to the back Go ahead, be gone with it VIP Go ahead, be gone with it Drinks on me Go ahead, be gone with it Let me see what you're working with Go ahead, be gone with it Look at those hips Go ahead, be gone with it You make me smile Go ahead, be gone with it Go ahead child Go ahead, be gone with it And get your sexy on Go ahead, be gone with it Get your sexy on Go ahead, be gone with it [Repeat 6 times] Get your sexy on [Verse 2] I'm bringing sexy back Them other fuckers don't know how to act Come let me make up for the things you lack Cau

Broken Glass
closin in the night begins ive seen it all before I play along pretend im gone slip out thru the back door i cant see you anymore it seems its all come true the things we said came to pass and i feel at last you cracked this heart of broken glass and now i see the real me the one who cries himself to sleep i feel the pain from the things you do and i feel my world is broke in two and I cant see you anymore as I slip out the door i knew this would all come true i feel the end is here at last with each day that's passed you cracked this heart of broken glass

This Is Such A Turn-on
I Can't Stop Thinking About The Foreign-Policy Discussion We Had In The Shower Yesterday By James Harrell The Onion October 18, 2006 I can barely keep it together at work today. It's impossible to focus. Every time I try to get something done, my palms start to sweat, my head spins, and I think about you, with your eyes half-closed and your head thrown back under that hot, steaming water, talking about how our current foreign policy is counterproductive to its stated objective because it is allowing Islamic extremist groups to exploit the U.S.-led conflict in Iraq to recruit an ever-growing number of anti-American jihadists. You've always known exactly how to drive me wild. I'm going nuts over here. It's all I can do not to drop everything, sprint to the car, speed over to your place, throw you down, and feel your breath on my ear as you tell me that America's unpopular, misinformed actions and its unwillingness to open any productive dialogues have had the effect of alie

The Magic Moccasins.
The beat of the drum sounds across the land. My heart is beating to its rhythm. The drum group sings the powwow songs and the people dance the circle. Elders lead the dance as the people move to the rhythm of the Mother's heart beat. I stand there just outside the circle and watch the people dance around the drum in the middle as they move around the circle. Such a beautiful sight, some in full regalia others in every day tee shirts and blue jeans. Some move very gracefully others just walk slowly taking steps to the beat. I see one Grandfather in the lead, he moves so smoothly, and with such grace. His dance is very fancy, with jumps and spins. He dances like a young man. I know this Grandfather, he has been a teacher to me before. I have seen him dance many times, but never have I seen him move so smoothly and gracefully. He has on moccasins I have never seen before. They are the most beautiful beaded moccasins I have ever seen. I am so touched by Grandfather's dance. Watching him,

Shouts Between Me And A Friend/.. Its True But Sad...
me...: BINGO ~them...: thats so friggin true....and nie girls get cheated on or used and abused...ugh or when u find someone they are 1200 miles away lmao Me...: Thats why i'm just going to stay single.. i'd love to get married but like the say go's nice guys finish last Them...: yeah noooo shit.... Me...: becouse women date the assholes.. that why it' is this way Them...: thats sweet.....its a shame most men arent like that ->~Me...: i feel the same.. cuz i'm single but i do try to make it nice for the ladies them...: no wy...thats just me and how i feel about valentines day lol ->Me...: that cool.. there for a sec. i did something wrong... them...: u didnt its kewl I just wanted something out f the normal tits ass and lips stuff that every damn woman is puttin up...lol ME...: i agree with the poem but not every guy is like that ... sorry to have offended you

Bad Day
Today was a bad day for me. Today would have been my oldest daughter Sherri's Birthday. She would have been 17. If not for a drunk driver. I've been down all day. Cried a couple of times. Cursed the fuck that killed her and her mom Lisa. The basterd got 5 yrs for two lives. He gets out soon. He gets to go on with his life, she doesn't. She was my baby, and she always will be. I miss her so much. The day she died I went numb and then cold. The lost of a child is something you never get over. It never gets easier. To me its like everyday since has been the same. I still cry over her, I still miss her. Guess I always will.

Woman To Woman Encouragement
Someone will always be smarter. Their house will be bigger. They will drive a better car. Their children will do better in school. And their partners will fix more things around the house. So let it go and love you and your circumstances. Think about it. The prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart. And the most highly favored woman on your job may be unable to have children. The richest woman you know - she's got the car, the house, the clothes - might be heartbreakingly lonely. So, love you. Love who you are right now. Tell yourself, "I am too blessed to be stressed." "To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world."

Im Done!
im done im sick of everytime i try to be nice i get hurt no matter how small the effort i get screwed! i ha ve very few friends that are true! im tired of being told one thing, and another happening ! i told my last g/f no matter what i'll be there! well she did coke. i drank liquor! and i got screwed! and thats just the way it always turns out 4 me! with every passing day the nice happy understanding mike that has always been is going away! i am trying to hold on but everytime i reach out for a life line it gets ripped away! danielle! you keep me afloat! you have been the best friend to me over all! and i love you for that! thank you! i think pretty much this whole rant is bacause i cant talk to you at the moment! i drunk! and hurting! and tired! noone else really seams to care! but you and like 1 or "maybe" 2 and they have known me 4 years anyhow!..........lol enough i shouldnt even post this because its a drunkin ramble!......lol but i will 4 atleast till i

I Dont Underdtand Y Guys Do This.....
Why Cant guys realizethey are not redy for a relationshipin the beggining instead of 2 months or so into it...... on February 13th no less.... The day b4 Valentine's day!!!!!! After i go crazy getting an outfit (lingerie and all) for Vday.... and i ran around to get a him an awesome Bday gift..... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ..

Punish The Deed Not The Breed
Against it. If any of you out there are my friends, I ask you out of the kindness of my heart to repost this. If you're not my friend, I ask you search for the source compassion in your soul and repost this anyway. More importantly, if you're in a position to, DO something about it. This is about California legislation being passed to exterminate pit bulls. If it passes in California, it could be on it's way to anywhere. Someone has to try to make a difference...what if it were your pet? Please pass the word along and post this...so as many people can see this as possible.

Network Provider Failure???
Who is their network provider??? I sure want to avoid EVER getting that one!! 2007-02-14 08:57:54 our network provider had an outage that effected our site, everything should be stable now. heads will be rolling, have no fear. :-) -babyjesus@ CherryTAP

Happy...
To all my friends/loved ones who are mushy-gushy, love sick.. Happy Valentines Day! To those who don't have their Valentine with them or just think its a stupid, commercialized day.. Happy "stupid ass, love crap" Day.. hehe Whichever it is to you, I love you anyways *big cheesy grin* Since I'm too lazy to get a comment to all my friends page, this will have to do. Its my blog and I'll booooowhooo if I wanna.. K, I'm done ... *jumps back into bed, under warm covers, and snuggles with her Frog*

Float And Drifting
i feel so lost drifting in the sea no destnation no hope of rescue the ones who would save me are to far away to help i know they care but knowing isnt enouph i need something to hold on to i need to feel real i need to feel hole but i cant im so lost so alone so aparte from those who would have me so for now i survive just barly there floating, drifting numbe to the world are they willing ? will they dive in before im to far to save

A Poet's Poem
We’re always searching For the divine But them We settle For a good enough find The magic is Out there And so very real It is not Butterflies But a calm That you feel No matter the subject Whatever request It all just seems Ok No type of unrest I savor Our time now Maybe think it The best I look forward To all of the rest A journey worth Taking Begins with Brave steps Just hold my hand As we jump off This cliff

Happy Valentines Day
Thankya to all my friends who thought enough of me to send me gifts :) I wish I had enough Cherry Bucks to buy ya all something special. Thanks for all the smiles and hugs and for being there every day. I hope you all find love and happiness, not just today but every day.

Those Born 1930-1979!
Those Born 1930-1979! TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED the 1930's 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's !! First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they were pregnant. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes. Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-based paints. We had no child proof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention, the risks we took hitchhiking. As infants & children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, booster seats, seat belts or air bags. Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat. We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle. We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE actually died from this. We ate cupcakes, whitebread and real butter and drank koolad

Be My Valentine
I wish you were my Valentine Though I may not be yours, And I may, in my ignorance, Be speaking to closed doors. I have no inkling of your heart, No hint what you might say; But when I think of you the sun Will just not go away. There is in you a loveliness That makes my darkness shine, And so I'll wait, if wait I must, To be your Valentine.

Ok Wheres All My Valentines ???
I WANT TO KNOW WHERE ALL MY VALENTINES ARE I BEEN ALL MORNING SINCE I GOT UP SENDING PEOPLE STUFF AND IM NOT FEELING THE LOVE HERE YOU ALL...I ALSO ASKED YOU TO HELP ME LEVEL THIS SUCKER OFF BUT NOPE NOT MUCH ALTHOUGH I GOT SOME NEW FRIENDS WHICH I APPRECIATE...LOVE YOU ALL:p TAMMY

Valentine's Day...
Valentine’s Day Cupid’s naked and wants to play With your heart today Bow and arrow in his grip Shooting fast from the hip Aimed straight for you Do not duck It’s your day of luck Breathe in deep Soak up the air Find the love Awaiting there Once it’s found Grab with both hands Hold on tight Don’t let it slip out of sight No dozen roses One would smell just as nice No box of candy needed If you are sweet Candle light glowing Thoughts of love inspire Holding you Kissing you Making love to you Let Cupid dance This Valentine’s Day Filled with romance Blue Eyes sparkle Snow piled high Let love drift And Capture your mind For happiness might be The reward you find. Happy Valentine’s Day to all those who dream, hope and believe in love… Written by Toone/Melody 2/14/07

Trust
I've found that in my life the practice of this proves true Truism Thoughts dictate attitude. It is important to master one's thoughts Don't waste time worrying about mistakes. File them for reference and do better Truism is a philosopy, not a religion. There is no right religion. All religions attempt to understand, communicate with, and contain God. It is wiser to listen to God. Many religious leaders try to manipulate followers with fear and superstition for personal gain or power and the others seem caught in their own madness. A Truist seeks truth and values honesty A Truist recognizes what is true and provable A Truist chooses to do good because it is the better way A Truist tries to be nice to others because it is a more beneficial course Truists question all things, but mostly themselves Truists realize that in order to be most effective, they must love themselves and consider themselves first

Jealous
to my only love to by only heart I'm jelous of the night that holds you when u are alone and i'm jelous of the light that meets your eyes all day long oh..if only my arms could be the home were you belong you alived inside me feelings were kept in a heart of stone now this heart has your picture with warm emotions is drawn just tell me you love me and i'll show u love no one's shown it's a crazy flamed love from the first moment has grown Don't you i'm without you a candle burning just for her own my love< i'm without you a song with no meaning or tone you're not just my soul you are a king staying on my heart's throne

Second Day Without A Fag!!!!
Well this is my second day without smoking and its driving me nuts, I was okay when i am at work but when i come home its pure torture even with the patches, i keep reaching out to grab the cigarette papers to make myself a smoke and then realising I am not supposed to be doing this anymore. I think thats the hardest part, also I just want to eat more as well its a good job there is no food in the house or I could be the size of a three bedroom semi detached house by the end of the week. I managed to avoid all the usual Valentines day shite or so I thought, the other half looked at me this morning and said "that's seven years then" I am so glad he aint one of these romantic bastards, his sarcasm is quite refreshing at times although it did take me ages to get used to it and realise also that he just cant help himself hahahahahaha we live and learn and rock and roll

The Flower Of Your Name
I’m thinking about you In a different way Nothing specific Just everything I cannot help But notice The effect of your Affection When it all gets Confusing You send a Suggestion You are already Within me I felt you beam your Way in I was not trying To fight you I like you under My skin A tailored soul Well accessorized Looks elegant Next to mine So draw The curtains Until you’re Certain Get your goodbyes Memorized

Today Is Not Happy
Its valentines day and a few very few people have told me happy valentines day.Guess what?ITS NOT!!!!!!! I am still mourning my grandmom and it is the one year anniversary of the day I had a miscarriage.What is so happy about that?Plus the guy I have been in love with broke up with me yeasterday.No one has giving me any valentines gifts except for one person.Thanks shmoo your a sweetie for that.So no nothing very happy about today.

Happy Valentine's Day, Everyone!
Just wanted to wish all my friends/family/fans and past life companions (Did I forget anyone?!)a Happy Valentine's Day! Hope everyone has a wonderful night! Had a rather long day at work and just got home. Nice to have more clients coming through the door, lol! Again, have a wonderful evening, everyone! Much love and warm hugs to each and every one of you!! Blessings all over the place!

Lustfull Eyes
Lustful eyes transversely scan the scene… Sight yearns for me undesired I have the one that I love… Through the temptations strong Envious lens reflect clear egotistic wants… My body language disapproves Conflicting communications in the dance… Red eyes are jealous as usual Shameless heart targets me… While I insist on my lover’s lips Eyes brazenly emerged determined to rule… In the absence of no subject Aching tears of crocodile proportion… Hopelessly performing for wholesome fantasy Tender innocence falsely on display… Jealous heart about to deservingly break Waltzing indisputably with my other half… Disco lights jazz above rejoice Devilish eyes hopelessly departed… Never to appear imposingly disruptive

In Silence
In the candle's gentle glow, I lay with my head on your chest. Words go unspoken, and I hear nothing, Except the beat of your heart in the silence. And there's a notion that I get, As you idly stroke my hair, That time is crawling by, If only for us two here, Stopping completely as our eyes meet. Your eyes shine brighter now, And I see everything just for me. I wonder if you always knew somehow, That look could bring me to my knees. But no, I can't be that transparent. Though here in the fading twilight, I wonder if you can see right through me. Because now, I'm not hiding anything. With a peace I haven't known in years, I bare my soul for only you, Content just to have you here. The moon shines bright outside your window, Making ours a world apart. Your gentle smile puts me at ease, As I fall asleep to the beat of your heart.

He's My Love
Every night before I rest, I see his face at its best, a smile big as day, I see it there as I lay, his eyes shining bright, sending out a subtle light, teeth so white I can see, me and him were meant to be, I close my eyes, and sleep with butterflies, I dream the night away, with images that will always stay, once I awake, theirs an extra breath that I must take, for every time I think of you, it is harder to breath the morning dew, I know I love you, and I hope you love me too, I know this is love, even when push comes to shove, no matter what I do, I will still be in love with you!

What A Life
Ahhhhhh nothing like thinking back to being the youngest of five boys in a most disfunctional family waking up on Sunday morning wiping the sleep outta my eyes or lack of sleep outta my eyes from all the yelling that kept me up so late.I can still freshly hear the wonderful sounds of my mom calling my dad a motherfucker as he burps takes a drink and says fuck you nevertheless its morning and as i head downstairs I can still smell the scent of alcohol looming in the air.I make my way to the living room hear the clanking of empty beer bottles as my feet kick them then I step over a few mounds of dirt from some broken flower pots that i'm assuming my mom wasnt trying to water and dropped but rather toss them against my fathers head, finally making it to the kitchen i turn on the lights and as I do the roaches scatter so I race them to the pantry to beat them to the cereal.Excited as I am because one thing we had alot of even being poor was cereal and kool-aid so as I make my mind up and c

Bedroom Eyes
That Special Women. You have bedroom eyes. Perfumed ivory are your tender thighs. Teeth that bite with cherried mouth. Scottish lilt from exotic south. Sensual, sloping, feminine nose. Arching back, a feline repose. Sexy waves flash silky hair. Lingering touch with fingers fair. Toes that flower to shapely legs. Musical voice that Romeo begs. Don Juan would try to woo your bed. Heavens angel I have wed.

His Pain, My Sadness
I have a deep sadness that deepens everyday.. knowing he is still here, knowing he is still breathing. I pains me to think of it.. though not the pain he is forever feeling. I speak of my Grandpa. My friend. He is 76 years old and not doing too well. He has lived a long enough life, is it cruel to pray that he passes soon? I can't stand the thought of his torture. even now my eyes well up with tears.. as they have been doing for a while now. When I talk to him of course he sugar coats everything.. not to worry his "Little Lamb". I miss him so much and I wish there was something I could do for him. ANYTHING to ease his agony. Fuck I hate knowing his current state... I love him too much to .. WONT YOU TAKE HIM OUT OF THIS FORSAKEN LIFE ALREADY!? END HIS PAIN!? END HIS SUFFERING!? I BEG YOU END IT NOW! TAKE HIM HOME TODAY! Yet I want to see him one last time before he goes. He lives near Denver Colorado.. God I miss him. I last saw him in 2005. 2 fucking yea

Part Ii
He crept in the room, not a sound was made. She’d fallen asleep on the table, her hair in her face. As he walked by, he tucked her hair behind her ear. She stirred slightly. Making his way around the table, he stroked his hand down her ass, her thigh…she sighed with content. When he reached between her lovely cheeks, finding her slit - I’ll be damned. She was even wet in her sleep! Softly stroking her sweet wet pussy, she slowly began to stir. “Wake up, cunt,” he said as he smacked her on her ass. Still stroking her wet pussy, he grabbed the back of her head by the hair. Pulling her head back, he leaned over to gently kiss her. Who was this man? Soft touches, sweet kisses…the complete opposite of the man before. With regard to the comment that is. She began to wiggle her ass, inviting Master to continue with whatever would be his pleasure. She felt him squat behind her and tried to prepare for whatever might be coming next. Softly, he slid his tongue between her w

Checkin In On Everyone
Hello to all my wonderful friends .. I hope youre all having a Wonderful Valentines day ..and If youre being effected by this snow storm I hope youre keeping warm and dry ..im going to take a couple of days and recoup from my wonderful stay in the hospital (Blah) .. but ill be back soon .. im making an appt with both my doc and the ortho surgeon tomorrow so .. Lets all keep our fingers crossed that ill get in there and all this shit will have been stress and well the arm will be okay ..* for those of you that dont know what the hell im talkin about I was in the hospital with some wodnerful chest pains .. queesy's and all that fun stuff .. so they did all the required tests .. and the Ol' ticker checked out Fine .. but they want me to have a full check over to make sure whats really goin on.. as for the arm .. well with all of this wonderful snow we've been having .. I took a shitter off the deck steps ( yeah go ahead and laugh I did ) and well I went one way and my arm went another ..

Heart Broken On Valentines Day
Its Amazing that sumthing soo stupid can hurt so much. I deserve someone That can see how special I am. Its sad really that you cant see whats really there. Theres No one else like me. No one will ever compare. Its too bad really, but its your loose so why should I care.

Love
love is a word people use to freely to get what they want out of another person.many people think they found love and then its gone..the word is so meaningless to people nowadays.you can never tell if someone really means what they say.my idea of love is when your in a crowded room and all you see is each other.your heart racing everytime you hear their voice or feel their touch.you want them to be the first thing you see in the morning and the last thing you see at night.love is blind to faults.being in love to me does not mean you lose yourself just gain another half.you should except the individuality of each other.never try to change one another.always be open and honest about everything even if it hurts.communication is important to make any relationship good.try new things to keep the passion alive.always remember you have to love yourself before anyone can trully love you.

Friends
I AM SO VERY DISTURBED TO SEE I HAD ALMOST 400 FRIENDS AND YET THERE IS ABOUT 20 WHO FAITHFULLY KEEP IN TOUCH. SO....I AM DELETING PEOPLE I NEVER HEAR FROM BECAUSE OBVIOSLY YOU HAVE NO NEED TO BE ON MY FRIENDS LIST! NEVER A HELLO, A GOODBYE, HAVE A NICE DAY, OR A RATING, SO SORRY BUT THE NEWSFLASH IS....YOU ARE NO FRIEND OF MINE. IN RETROSPECT....TO MY FRIENDS....YOU ARE THE BEST AND I LOVE YOU ALL!

Time For Zoey To Arrive!
Tomorrow morning at 11am, our little daughter, Zoey Rayne will be born via C-section!! It has been a long 9 months and we are so anxious to meet her. I am nervous about the surgery, but excited to finally meet her! I will post pics as soon as I can. Keep us in your thoughts :) Mely and Bad VooDoo

A Valentines Day Survey
ok, heres the deal--on valentines day would you(ladies) rather get... #1. roses(flowers) #2. candy #3. nighties & pj's #4. a stuffed animal #5. sex #6. all the above(or atleast 3 of these) and how do you say "thank you" to your man? just a survey please ladies, answer for me--and honestly dont be scared or shy!!!!!!!!!! have fun with it and HAPPY VALENITNES DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So Glad It's Over.
Valentine's Day is an obligatory holiday designed to make people spend their hard earned money on silly things like flowers that'll just die anyway and candy that'll just get eaten. Yeah, I said it. Someone had to. Can you tell that I spent my day NOT celebrating love? No flowers and candy. No cards and kisses. No moonlit walks and stolen embraces. But it was by choice. The person I would have wanted to share this day with is separated from me by a great distance and that whole "if you can't be with the one you love then love the one you're with" thing just never did work for me. Besides the entire concept of setting aside one day in a year to celebrate love is ludicrous to me. Think about it...trying to cram everything that love is into one 24 hour period...it's impossible. Besides, if you're not celebrating love every day of the year then you don't have real love to begin with. Love encompasses so many things. It is a bond...a complex emotion...a connection... Connection. Life is

Glug - For The Norse Folk ( And Any Body Else)
Glug 8 ounces water 1 cup raisins 3 cinnamon sticks 5 whole cloves 12 cardamom seeds 2 dry orange peels Boil ingredients for 10 minutes in saucepan, and then add: 1 gallon port wine one 750-ml. bottle brandy 16 ounces rum 1/2 cup sugar Bring to boil and let simmer 1 minute, then turn off burner and ignite. Allow the mix to burn for about 15 seconds. Serve hot. ________________________________________ Copyright © 1997 - electronic Gourmet Guide, Inc. All rights reserved. Glug Place in cloth bag • 6 cardamom seeds - whole • 7 cloves - peppers removed • 4-5 cinnamon sticks • 1 ginger root • Pinch grated nutmeg Cook slowly for 1 hour in 1 1/2 quarts water. Cook slowly in pot: a. 1 gallon port or b. 1 gallon burgundy • 1 lb. granulated (or brown) sugar. Less with a. more with b. • peels from 2 oranges • 1 lb. raisins • 1 pkg. blanched almonds DO NOT boil the wine! Heat slowly for the hour the spices are cooking. Remove the spice ba

More Poetry
Through Your Eyes Through your eyes I see the path I take Through your eyes I see the choices I make Through your eyes I see how the world should be Through your eyes Is how I can see Through your eyes Life is so clear Through your eyes I can see what I fear Through your eyes You see into my soul Through your eyes I became your goal Through your eyes You see into my heart You see me through your eyes While were apart

To My Master
To my Master... As i sit here and think of You, You are ever on my mind. Pictures from the past float through my mind For me to remember: Your touch, Your feel, Your strength, Your power; That i crave so when You are here My strength through Your power, My calmness through Your control, My peace through Your strength, My passion through Your direction, My direction through Your command. I am Your slave, in all the ways that You request, In submission, pleasure, pain, mind, body, and soul I am Yours as you wish, Your every whim or command. You chose me; my only wish is to please You As you may require of Your slave. With all my love to You, stormdreamer (aka slavegirl4mymaster) *big hugs and kisses*

Wiccan Paths
The Wiccan Traditions Just as in any other religion, the Wiccan religion has many different traditions or paths. Each path has its own distinct rituals and practices, and many are bound by a sacred oath so that their practices are held in secret, not allowing members of other traditions to know their ways. The list below tells about some of the different traditions of Wicca. Alexandrian Tradition Founded and based upon the teachings of Alex Sanders, in England. Ceremonial Magick and the Kabbalah have been included with the rituals of Gardnerian Wicca. Skyclad is a common practice in Alexandrian Ritual. As with other Wiccan religions, the duality of Goddess and God is recognised and the Sabbats and Esbats celebrated. Asatru Tradition Asatru is a Norse word meaning 'Belief in Gods'. This tradition is very ancient with its roots in the historical agricultural Vanir and warrior Aesir tribes of Scandinavia and Northern Germany. The main deities are the Goddesses

*i Cant F***ing Sleep*
*emits a small, slightly amused chuckle* NSFW content? Only if i start cursin! N believe me, at this particular moment, I'm just grumpy enough to go for it. But I wont. I will be a good lil Precious n mind my manners. Its not Y'ALL's fault I cant get any decent rest. Hell! I bet most of y'all reading this are sleep deprived as well. :( Pitiful club, eh? Insomniacs Anonymous *heh!* Honestly, its not so much that i CANT sleep as it is that I cant STAY asleep. for example, i finally fell asleep right about 6am. its just turnin 7am and im awake already, thanks to a heart-pounding nightmare. *Grrrrrr!* WTF?!?! now im not so eager to doze back off n revisit that dream. Yes, when i wake from a nitemare, it is pretty likely that i will rejoin it whenever i may fall back 2sleep. :'( I hate it. But im so @#$%&()+* exhausted!! My body aches and my eyes are burning mercilessly. i have 2b up, gettin ready 4work @ 2pm. i know... that gives me 7 hrs (minus a few mins) 2rest up. doze off.. easier s

Women...freedom Of Speech
Reasons Women Should Not Have Freedom of Speech... 1. She doesn't need to talk to get me a beer. 2. If she's in the kitchen like she should be, no one can hear her anyway. 3. If she can talk, all she'll do is complain. 4. Because she won't say "I will" instead of "I do." 5. No man wants to hear "first down" during a basketball game. 6. Because PMS is no excuse for whining. 7. No man needs or wants to hear the word "period" unless it has to do with hockey. 8. Women created tampon and yeast infection commercials during football. 9. Affirmative action. 10. When men whistle at them in the street, they should just shut up and obey. 11. If my dick's in her mouth, she can't talk anyway. 12. Oprah. 13. Feminists. 14. Because that stupid look on her face should not be accompanied by an equally stupid statement. 15. The 2nd and 19th amendments. 16. I don't want to be made to lie and say "I love you" after sex.

Stigmatized Deviant.
It wasn't like she cared what others thought of her. The comments, as acidic as some of them flowed, especially from other girls were something she learned early to blithley dismiss. However hard she tried to stop thinking about the pervasive and constant acidity that everyone shoved her way, she still managed to be compassionate and resolute in her convictions. Thumbing through the Communist Manifesto, she let her eyes drink over the words she had read a thousand times. Convictions seemed the only link with Karl Marx, Lenin, and Chairman Mao she held fast. It still wouldn't go away.It sat like a splinter just under her skin. Stinging just enough to get her notice, but hovering just slightly beyond annoyance. Looking out the misty pane glass window to the busy street outside, chocked with traffick, streaming with automotons of Business and commerce, she caught a glancing view of her reflection. Frail, Plain, Female, and white. Most of the time she thought herself ordinary

No Parent Left Behind
I promise you cannot read these and not laugh out loud These are REAL notes written by PARENTS in a Tennessee school district. (Spellings have been left intact.) 1-- MY SON IS UNDER A DOCTOR'S CARE AND SHOULD NOT TAKE PE TODAY. PLEASE EXECUTE HIM. 2-- PLEASE EXKUCE LISA FOR BEING ABSENT SHE WAS SICK AND I HAD HER SHOT 3-- DEAR SCHOOL: PLEASE ECSC's JOHN BEING ABSENT ON JAN 28, 29, 30, 31, 32 AND ALSO 33. 4-- PLEASE EXCUSE GLORIA FROM JIM TODAY. SHE IS ADMINISTRATING. 5-- PLEASE EXCUSE ROLAND FROM P.E. FOR A FEW DAYS. YESTERDAY HE FELL OUT OF A TREE AND MISPLACED HIS HIP. 6-- JOHN HAS BEEN ABSENT BECAUSE HE HAD TWO TEETH TAKEN OUT OF HIS FACE. 7-- CARLOS WAS ABSENT YESTERDAY BECAUSE HE WAS PLAYING FOOTBALL. HE WAS HURT IN THE GROWING PART. 8-- MEGAN COULD NOT COME TO SCHOOL TODAY BECAUSE SHE HAS BEEN BOTHERED BY VERY CLOSE VEINS.

Oh .... This Thursday Morning
This is Thursday and I am beginning to feel the excitement of the weekend coming. I am already feeling the hands of my husband so gently dragging his fingertips up my inner thighs as I spread my legs slowly as if inviting him to nibble my vaginal lips. I can nearly feel him lay his tongue on my clit and so slowly at first just touch it and my reaction to that touch with pulsations of the intitial contact quiver through my loins. I can almost feel the spasm of the first orgasm build within the deepness of my body as the pulsations quicken and his tongue darts deep into me. I can imagine the head of his cock gently touching the lips he was licking and nibbling and begin to stretch my love opening just a bit as he enters. As he fills every inch of me with his manhood I can feel yet another pulse of a new orgasm reaching for its peak as he begins to pound hard into my waiting and wanting pussy. I can feel my grip around his cock with my vaginal walls as he slips in and ou

Dont Wanna See That!
Ok..(bitch-mode) Here's the complaint I have for the moment.I know that this is not going to apply to most of you, BUT to the one's that it does,please pay attention CAREFULLY..ok????blink blink. When you come online and you decide , for whatever reason, to ask me if I wanna see your ummm hmmm let me think here....oh yah, your''Ha Ha'' (formerly known as the twig and berries on a man). When I say, ''No Thank You'' whilst smiling sweetly... that means ''No Thank You'' ( who knew!!!) We already know what I think when asked if one can view my ummm ''area's'', so we wont go into that. (Yes I have a mouse in my pocket..shut up). Now here's the reallll kicker.. in three minutes when you feel yet another urge to ask if I shall wish a view of the previously referred to ''Ha Ha''...remember, I said ''No Thank You'', so once again with less of a smile, NO THANK YOU, BUT THANKS FOR THE INVITE...not really but ok..hmmm have a little conversation about whatever a few more minutes

Have You Caught Yourself Asking Why?
When you were little do you remember asking your parents why things were the way they were or how they got that way.. I do.. Hell I still do it.. So I decided since everyone I know is posting stupid things like chain letters and love notes and how to get free stuff like ringtones and things.. I would post this instead.. I will ask a question and then you give me an answer.. And I will tell you what the book says.. Yes I'm a dork I have a book about tell me whys.. But I love to read so.. I know you will know most of the questions.. You probally learned them in school.. So Please humor me I stay at home all day with nothing to do.. Atleast this is a way to get to converse with all of you.. If I remember to do it half the time.. But we will see how y'all like this one.. In honor of valentines Day Here is the first question!!! How did the custom of kissing start?

Gross Joke
Three vampires walk into a bar and order drinks. The first vampire asks for blood. The second vampire asks for blood. The third vampire asks for some hot water. The bartender is baffled. "Why don't you want blood like everyone else?" "Because," says the third vampire, pulling out a USED tampon, "I'm making tea."

Pay It Forward People!!!!
You know what is so frustrating? Every single day that I am on Cherry I help people out. Whether it be rating their profile, pictures or pics in contests. It's the NICE thing to do. I figure that person will PAY IT FORWARD and eventually it will get back to me, right? WRONG I ask for help every once in a while. I have only been in a handful of contests and I have so far, only hosted one contest and it seems so hard to get people on CherryTap to go vote or rate, or fan or whatever. PAY IT FORWARD people!!!! If you get help from friends or random people on Cherry you should help your friends and other "random" people too. That is the concept of paying it forward. It just makes the world a better place. :) Then, once you have mastered this concept on CT, try using it in real life! You never know what kind of difference it could make. Ok...off soapbox now. ***kisses*** BeerQueen

My First List
1. BURNIN LOVE, ELVIS PRESLEY 2. MY WAY, OLD BLUE EYES 3. COME A LITTLE CLOSER, DIERKS BENTLEY 4. DRIFT AWAY, DOLBY GRAY 5. AMAZED, LONESTAR 6. THROUGH THE YEARS, KENNY RODGERS 7. THIS MAGIC MOMENT, JAY AND THE AMERICANS 8. ROCKIN ROBIN, BOOBY DAY 9. PRETTY WOMAN SONG #20 LOL, ROY ORBINSON 10. MY GIRL, THE TEMPTATIONS 11. AT THE HOP, THE ALL NEW DANNY AND THE Jrs 12 THAT'LL BE THE DAY, BUDDY HOLLY 13. MAYBE BABY, " 14. LA BAMBA . RITCHIE VALENS 15. JAMBLAYA. HANK WILLIAMS Sr 16. IF YOU COULD READ MY MIND, GORDON LIFGTFOOT 17. COMON MAN, JOHN CONLEY 18. LADY, KENNY ROGERS 19. HE STOPPED LOVING HER TODAY, GEORGE JONES 20. THERE GOES, ALAN JACSON 21. ISLANDS IN THE STREAM, KENNY ROGERS / DOLLY PARTON 22. NOBODY KNOWS, KEVIN SHARP 23. THE OTHERSIDE, RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS 24. THE LONG AND WINDING ROAD, THE BEATLES AKA THE FAB 4 25. UNDER THE BRIDGE, RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS 26. IF YOU'RE GONE, MATCHBOX 2O 27. I'LL FLY AWAY, UNKNOWN 28. IF I FELL

My Life Flashed Before My Eyes
I have lived in Upstate New York all my life. I am well aware of how to drive during treacherous road conditions (over 20 inches of snow and still counting from the Valentines Day Storm, Temp with windchill is about -15) Anyways this mornings commute sucked ass (not like I didn't expect it) The average speed on the expressways was 35. There were cars spinning out from the icy conditions. So I was following the flow of traffic and going the same speed. Ok now to the story.... So this guy in a this big truck or TDM (Tiny Dick Mobile) as I like to call them pulls in behind me and starts laying on the horn. Like I am Moses and can part the red sea or something. I look in the rearview mirror and he is flipping me off telling me to move... Mind you there are cars ahead of me basically at a standstill there is nothing I can do. So what does Jackass do... He gets over on the unplowed shoulder and guns it to pass the semi that is next to me. The semi has to hit the brakes quick and begins t

Dont Know
ive been bacc for bout week and ive already seen the down side of upright so i know i should walk away from the whole thing but at the same time no matter where i go there it is right in front of me its no big deal to me im used to it its a life style i live it im going to continue to live it right so wut ever n e way ive never done the blog thing but there it is doesnt make sense but its here

The Darkness, The Light & Now I Hunt
p>I watch you laying there tossing,turning, then finally opening your eyes. Yeah, it's you the one in my dream. I have searched and now i have you. MY eyes glowing to focus on you better as you walk around the rm trying to figure out. Why were you in my dream? I don't know but we will soon find out. I'll just sit here from my perch,watching, until your back asleep and i'm going to be the Lord of your dreams. HAHAHAHA!!!!! Pay close attention to this cause this is a new twist for one and all. ENJOY!!!! OMFG, what a dream i just had, this has me nervous and it seemed so real. Who was that guy. It's like we known each other but never met a day in our life. Oh i need to get a clear head here it was just a dream. But i feel like someone is watching me. Just following me, wait a minute there he is, why is he walking to me with that devilish grin on his face. Again no words are needed to be spoken btw us, grabbing my hands we go. Where, when or how we get her i'm standing back in the club.

S.b.a.b. Members List
We are just a group of close friends that do associate with one another alot. And help each other always, in any way we can... ~Just Meee~™®~X~S.B.A.B.~X~@ CherryTAP ◊ Saxxy ◊™®©@ CherryTAP ~Dontcha™~?~Elite*Bombers~@ CherryTAP ~ Lady T ~ K.K.S. ~ S.B.A.B.~H.A.C~ Member ~@ CherryTAP ~Arkey~Brat~To~You~S.B.A.B.~@ CherryTAP Maniacal Bliss@ CherryTAP Devilish_Angel ~member of~ S.B.A.B~@ CherryTAP CntryGoth™~V.I.C.~@ CherryTAP Vicky~S.B.A.B.@ CherryTAP

Drunk Dials & Text Messages
1. Only drunk dial when you are drunk. Everything else is false advertisement. 2. It is okay to call someone 27 times in one night. If you don't remember it, it didn't happen. 3.If you are going to drunk dial a family member, say something nice. Ex. "Mom I'm in McDonald's and they're playing our song. I love you" 4.Dirty talk while drunk dialing is always preferred. Who doesn't want to hear your best raspy, phone sex voice at 3 in the A.M. asking to bend them over something. 5. Voicemails are always better. This way your friend can let their friends have fun at your expense for days, even weeks to come. 6. Drunk texting is alright... If you are prepared to read what you wrote the next day when you are sober. 7. It is definitely a good idea to call all of your exes and remind them that you were the best lover they've ever had and everything they know, they learned from you. This way you can sleep well at night. 8. You can also call this same ex and let them know, th

Hey Everyone...check It Out, Submit A Song And I'll Put In A The Contest Starting Soon ^_^
Hey Everyone, Ok, so when I was myspace I had people in on this contest called "Battle of Songs" and what you do is submit a song and then I'll submit them in a contest and you can vote for 2 or 3 songs u like in the contest!!! then at the end of this month I will count up the votes and who ever song wins first place you'll get a blast from me!!!! My contest will be coming soon but first I gotta see whos interested so plz poeple if u wanna win a blast, im starting up my old contest so Submit and see if your song rocks enough to win it!!!! Thanks Everyone, Talk to you all laterz!!! Peace my Cherry Friends!!! From, ~TOMMY~ Aka Salvation Rules: you can vote for any song(even ur own) you can share the link to the blog contest and use friends to help u win. so if u submit a song give me ur name and song you want to submit!!! and the contest will start soon peepz ^_^

In So Short Of Time
In so short of time you have stole me away. Your love was myt rescue. Now life seems okay. In so short of time youve erased any doubt. Im beginning to learn what real love is about. In so short of time youve turned my frown upside down. Im missing you and needing you when youre not around. In so sahort of time youve erased so much sorrow. I now fall asleep hoping to see tomorrow. In so short of time Ive begun to live again. Youre not only my Boo but youre also my friend. In so short of time you have helpede me believe that if I set my goals high I will one day achieve. In so short of time I have given my heart cus I know that you love me. It wont be torn apart. In so short of time we both fell in love and I know this is real cus you are all I can think of.

Relationships Need Help
yo whats good friends family fans and fans of .... i need your input on this i have a friend how yesterday (valentine day) went to his girl friends house and spent the day with her when he left he went home and to his surprise his girlfriends best friend is there waitin for him he talks to her to find out why she is there and she says im lonly and i want you my friend walks out the room calls his girl and tells her what she said and to come get her his girl said fine shes on the way when she gets to his house she finds her friend tryin to kiss him and she gets mad and leaves him but takes her friend which she is still friends with what you input in this we wanna know what ppl think of this

Strippers Rock
Well, i got convinced to go out last night, right? Totally against my will, as I am in a pissy fucking mood.... Well, we went to area 51... and i am telling you what... that shit was great!! Well, could be better, but ya know. They have to wear latex shit on their nipples cuz oklahoma is that prude.... fucked up huh??? I thought so. So robin can't be a stripper *lol* my nipples would be all infected all the time *lol* maybe they have another "cover up" that isn't latex? Anyways, though, it was fucking crazy.... so i chatted w/ a bunch of them, they're hella awesome. PLus, they all have the BEST shoes... uh, i love their shoes!!! anwyays, made robin a very jealous person, cuz i am like, damnit, i wish i looked that good!!! Such is life... off to class now...

Need Ideas!!
Im throwing a party in 3 weeks.. And I need some help.. If any girls got any ideas for games .. I got a few in mind that usually go over well when i throw parties.. but i would love to add in a new game or two.. and for the guys and girls.. one of my games consist of all the girls doing alot of truth or dares along with shots.. send me some good dares or truths i can use for my game.. Lots of Love and Kisses ~Pole Princess~

What's Your Kinky Turn On?
You scored as Chains/Handcuffs. Your turn on is handcuffs and chains. You like being cuffed/chained to the bed, or cuffing/chaining your partner down. You love the pure ectasy of being in complete control... or letting someone else have complete control over you. Sex isn't sex without control.Chains/Handcuffs83%Blind Folds67%Bondage50%Whips42%Blood25%Biting0%What's Your Kinky Turn On?created with QuizFarm.com

Some One Save Me From My Nightmare
Ever have one of those days were things are ok and then its like a smack across the face things start to turn upside down and u want to scarem for bloodly murder... Well here is my call SOS someone save me i have no clue what has come over me but i feel like i have lost control with everything ...Im normaly open minded and can say whats on my mind but when it comes down to something i cant seem to bring myself to do it and dammit to hell its agervateing me to no end...Can someone save me...Well hell i just want one person to save me but it feels as he has lost controll him self and dont see that i am even at this point ...I wonder why i bother why i fight to keep trying If i yelled who would hear me...If I cried who would hear me...If I were to walk away who would wonder were i was at...Would I even be missed ( yeah some ppl would miss me) i know that much.... Im needing my SoS...will i get it idk but to be honest im starting to think that i wont because im looked at as this s

Allow Me To Explain Myself...
yesterday... february fourteenth... two thousand seven. also known as this robots manufacture date. i wake up... unplug myself from the wall and throw on a pair of jeans. it's freezing! i yawn... take a look out the window... and notice that the weather is not so good. shit weather... on my birthday? NEVER ::chortle:: i throw on a trogdor hoody (burninating EVERYTHING) and run downstairs. no time for coffee... gotta take chris and dad to work... i need the vehicle today. boots... hmm... ::thinks:: boots... where are they? jackpot. i throw on my boots... grab a scarf and a pair of gloves and i'm out the door. "CHRIS! grab my cigarettes! and don't forget to close both doors!" i get in the van... mmm... it's warm. dad and chris pile in... dad in the back... chris in the passanger seat... me driving... chris is fucking with the radio... "TURN IT BACK TO G ROCK! i'm driving... it's my say" i look at the clock... it's quarter to nine

The Age Old Question
I have never measured my dick never had anybody measure it, I just let it grow. Me I think I have a small dick. MAYBE, I watch too much porn and have been put to shame many times. So I'm thinkin if it comes up to your belly button and maybe past you have a nice size. I had one female say I'm alright. Now you know that shit ain't cool ladies there's no middle ground. I'm either adequate or not, don't say I'm 'aight' I hate that shit. So tell me does size matter and what is your way of seeing how big and long it is? Be honest... Realest

Red Neck Pick Up Lines!!
1) Did you fart? cuz you blew me away. 2) Are yer parents retarded? cuz ya sure are special. 3) My Love fer you is like diarrhea . I can't hold it in. 4) Do you have a library card? cuz I'd like to sign you out. 5) Is there a mirror in yer pants? cuz I can see myself in em. 6) If you was a tree I were a Squirrel, I'd store my nuts in yer hole. 7) You might not be the best lookin girl here, but beauty's only a light switch away 8) Man - "Fat Penguin!" Woman - "WHAT?" Man - "I just wanted to say something that would break the ice." 9) I know I'm not no Fred Flintstone, but I bet I can make yer bed-rock. 10) I can't find my puppy, can you help me find him? I think he went inta this cheap motel room. 11) Yer eyes are as blue as window cleaner. 12) If yer gunna regret this in the mornin, we kin sleep til afternoon. and.... the best for last! 13) Yer face reminds me of a wrench, every time I think of it my nuts tighten up.

The Democrat Strategy On Iraq Is Finally Clear.
We've known all along that they want to cut and run before the job is done. But they've been afraid to confront President Bush directly. Today, Democrat Rep. John Murtha let slip what he and Nancy Pelosi really intend to do, and it is genuinely frightening. They call it their 'slow-bleed' plan. Instead of supporting the troops in Iraq, or simply bringing them home, the Democrats intend to gradually make it harder and harder for them to do their jobs. They will introduce riders onto bills to prevent certain units from deploying. They will try to limit the President's constitutional power to determine the length and number of deployments. They will attempt to keep the Pentagon from replacing troops who rotate out of Iraq. They may even try to limit how our troops operate by, for example, prohibiting our armed forces from creating and operating bases in Iraq. 'Slow-bleed' is exactly the right name for this incredibly irresponsible and dangerous strategy. Cutting and running is bad e

Sleeping At Your Desk...
FIVE BEST THINGS TO SAY WHEN YOU GET CAUGHT SLEEPING AT YOUR DESK. 5. "They told me at the Blood Bank this might happen." 4. "This is just a 15 minute power nap they raved about in the time management course you sent me to." 3. "Whew! Guess I left the top off the Whiteout. You probably got here just in time." 2. "Did you ever notice sound coming out of these keyboards when you put your ear down real close?" And the NUMBER ONE best thing to say if you get caught sleeping at your desk... 1. Raise your head slowly and say, "...in Jesus' name, Amen."

Mmmm....
Right now, I wish I had someone with me. Someone who could run silky hands down my sides and make me shiver with tempting kisses on my skin. I want someone to get behind me and lick and play and finger and fist to their hearts content. Someone who will then tie me up so I'm not facing them, so when they slip their big hard cock in, I can't even move when it almost hurts cause it feels so good. I want them to fuck me over and over, pounding thrusts, pulling my hair and smacking my ass while I cum all over their cock. I want them to ride me for at least an hour until he cums hard in my ass, just ramming it in until he cums, not taking his time or anything. Mmmm....God I'm so horny....I gotta go masturbate...

Innocence
Somewhere between the last thought I had and the newest thought I was having there was a void. The space so empty, so dark , so timeless. It may have been a nano second it could have been an eternity, my mind became a blank ... like a long dark tunnel a space so frightning yet so comforting. Inside that void, that timeless space, the world was quiet, still, tranquil, my being was suspended in nothingness. All around me, the outside world was turning, living that moment.... but I was oblivious to it. My world in my time and space .... I had escaped .... I found my way home, that time between the last thought I had and the newest one I was having with my mind so blank .. I was once again an innocent, I could rejoice ... I was a child. Joseph

La Lune
You are The Moon Hope, expectation, Bright promises. The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window. The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition. What Tarot Card are You?Take

Hunger
The world comes at you, and asks, "what do you want?" "What do you want?" It is rough to reply, you don't know. Love? Joy? Wealth? All these things seem possible, all these things are there. But want? Desire, for want of these things, seems like mere hunger, and desire for a non - animilastic nature, suggests better. Is it all hunger? am I merely a shark? Because I can be fed, and I can keep swimming, survival talented shark I am. Is this what defines me? I reject this, I reject hunger for the sake of hunger, I will forgo joy, if it is mere reaction, I will give up happiness, if it is only consumption. Let me always be ravenous.

Laugh !!!
That’s a good girl let me see those cheekbones Shoot 16 times before I need to reload Drag your tongue up and down the “P” road Pin me down in a savage throat hold Press hard against an organ that won’t fold Press those glossy lips and never let go Turn off the lights and see your pretty face glow You don’t get to play on your chest until after you swallow Roll with the thrust you’re so impressive You know better then to try to caress it A nice brutal grip I need it aggressive Treat it like an adversary and beat it into submission Pucker those pretty lips let me see them glisten That’s it, right there, you’re gonna get a christening I’ll fill you up with something you know you’ve been missing Break me down and give me a fixing

You Never Know.
You know the day is coming It's only a matter of time. You pack your duffle bag You store you're gear You wait long as you can You see the kids off to bed You crawl into bed with you're wife She drifts off to sleep in your arms and you wish to god the moment could last forever You slip away from her arms You strap on your boots. You place you're Helmet on you're head and pick up you're rifle. You look back one last time and head out the door. You walk down the street holding it all back. Never knowing Never sure. Will this be my last time home you never know. So You just go...