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Celebrity Sightings!
You all are so interested in how the "new guy" did, let me just throw it all out there! First of all, since I can check tests online I already knew he was clean. He showed up and I went down stairs to meet him, brought him up and showed him my test and I just went in for the kill. It took him a little bit to get started, but once he was ready, he never once let up (or went down) He was a great guy, very polite and respectful. And his was GREAT! It reminded me of one of those "sponge" toys you throw in water.. once he got his blood flowing, that thing GREW! His name is Mark Steel. Watch out for him! I told him that I would pass his name onto some other companies, he said that he was more of a Vivid and Wicked fan. I think Shanes World would be right up his alley with the surfing and stuff! His load was perfect. Shot one up into my eye and just when I thought he was finshed, out shoots another blast! I'm so happy to have had two GREAT scenes today! Sometimes, you just expect to have amaz

What Color Is Angels Heart
Your Heart Is Pink In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't. Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time. Your flirting style: Coy Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant What you bring to relationships: RomanceWhat Color Heart Do You Have?

My Dumbass Moment For Today...
OK, so I got a Photobucket account when I signed up for CT so I could get the url for my pics and stuff. Well what I didn't realize is that my account was public. I have been putting a lil of this and a lil of that in there. Needless to say there were several pics with all my goodies showing. I'm on there tonight uploading some more pics to make some stuff. Well I notice a thing saying something like 4000 viewers to my albums and I'm like WTF??? I then realize that my shit is out there for all to see. I quickly found where I could make it private and did so, for any of you pervs logging onto Photobucket at this moment to look me up. I just thought I'd give you all a good laugh at my dumbass moment for the day. I'm sure there will be plenty more to come. TGIF

Shutting Up Shop
Every year around this time I like to take a brief haitus from the hustle and bustle of online life. So starting from next Wednesday, I'm not gonna be around for a few weeks. Which is why I've altered the access to my photos. I'm still gonna be around for a couple of days to chat to my friends, but then I'll be gone, and I'll be back sometime in April. Laters. TBS xxx

Woemn That I Have Meet!
ok so there are about 25% of wwomen i have meet that dont meet the criteria for waht i wrote for the title! but hte other 3/4 fuck you! tonight i was taking hte cab home and a girl got on that i knew since i was like 5, iand i knew her for like 6 years, and hten i moved away , then i ran into her again in the town i live in now. . S he was super nice to me when she first saw me and relized it was me, we got along just fine. but then i found out her b/f was treating her like shit( aka, beating hte shit out of her) and i kinda mentioned to her that i thought it was bull shit and to walk away from it and if he tried abything theres like 50 guys that would beat the living shit out of him, wich htere really was ( mainly cause shes such a sweetheart adn so cute) but i kept telling her i didnt want her to leave cause yes i do have a huge crush on her! but tonight i ran into her ya she was plowed out of her mind, but i tried helping her nad beging nice like i alwasy am and she told me to fu

I Hate....
I hate this feeling of emptiness. I hate bein hurt.. i hate that i put myself out there to be hurt.. I hate not being there for my son.. i hate the feelings i have.. i hate The thoughts in my head.. I hate the ppl who tell me they wont hurt me then turn around and hurt me... I hate All this depression.. I hate not knowing what to do next.. I hate Wakin up in the morning.. I hate the fact that I lived a life so fucked up ... I hate when ppl tell me they know how i feel.. That sayin Been there done that.. is FUCKIN BULLSHIT.. No one knows what ive been through and how i feel inside... You will never know unless u walked in my shoes.. and i wouldnt wish it on anyone.. I hate The world.. I hate not being happy... But then i stop and think out of all of this... What i really hate is......ME... I HATE ME!!!

More Ranting.. From My Twisted Mind....
Fuck.. I dont even know what i wanna say so imma let my mind free and just write as i think.. So watch out this will be fucked up.... Ok here we go.. i miss my son.. I dont get to see him and I hardly get to talk to him then when i do talk to him like today My son was too busy to talk he was listenin to a song.. so he wouldnt talk.. That hurts but yet i know i deserve it.. Then ya go the whole fact that im living in a fucked up World.. And this world i speak of is my own mind.... Its FUCKED... im fuckin sick of getting hurt.. Im fuckin tired of being soo fuckin stupid.. And gullable.. I wish you all could see the world through my eyes.. Even for an hour.. You wouldnt be able to handle it.. The fucked up thoughts in my head... The shit i deal with.. The Fuckin abuse i take.. You'd never even know.. Its sooo fuckin hard.. Im 21 years old.. i shouldnt have this shit to think about or deal with.. i should be happy go lucky.. Not worry about how im gonna get things In order and straightene

My Valentines Day
Today was awesome for me. I woke up with a bad attitude thinking I wasnt gonna be able to see my boo and then I was able to cus my roomate helped me with that. (Thanks bro). I learned some things today about this day we call Valentines day. For me, its the first one in quite a few years that Ive actually been able to share with someone else. Usually its just another day but this year, things have begun to change for me. It wasnt about getting gifts to me or giving, well in a way it was cus I had to get my boo something:) but the fact that I was able to just be with her and cuddle and watch a movie and kiss her and hold her was the best. Thats what I have always wanted to share and I finally have. Today was about me showing my love through my eyes and my touch as it was shown to me. Im no longer in the pit that I use to be in and for once, I feel great. I truly mean that. Some of you have known me for awhile and this probably sounds like a complete stranger but trust me, its real. Im in

Moments In Eternity
MOMENTS IN ETERNITY Somewhere between the last moment of breath And that first touch of our lips In that moment when the eyes closed As the first loud pound of the heart Rocked through my chest Some where in that suspended moment of time My thoughts screamed in my head And I wanted to tell you The passion ran through From my body to yours Suspended in timeless space As the kiss lasted a lifetime My heart screamed out The thoughts inside my mind My soul set free As your passion flowed In a breathless second My body became one with yours In a twinkling of an eye A lifetime of passion came to us And as our lips parted My eyes told you I love you Joseph

My View Of You
-Every moment I look @ you I try so hard not to view you as a piece of meat or a sexual object; but yet I do against my inner will, is it the price to pay for being a man?- -The will to fight the urge seems weak and sometimes pointless; but the morals within my soul keeps me strong and focused- -For my spirit is separate from my body and it's pure and it's the core of who I am; it only wants to do good and thats all it knows- - but the body is tainted and full of false desires and illusions- -Should I give in to the way of the "NORM" or is my will to view things different worth it- -I suffer in silence and it's my strenght; I cry in silence and it's my courage- -Inspite of it all I must fight to keep my spirit within me true and strong- -for even if am right; am wrong-

I Am Me
I can be gentle, and I can be kind those arent thoughts that now come to mind I am selfish and I can be rude some may not like my blunt attitude I am unique owning many a flaw and I am more than I hold in my bra though in defense they are quite a treat I cannot fault those finding them neat I have many things some old and some new not everything tho will i share with you I am myself I need approval not I sit here alone with nary a thought I am a woman that is not my defense it is simply my reason this makes sense a.boudreaux 2007

Sorry
I want to publicly apologize to The Glitzy Girl about my last blog. I should have never have wrote that blog. It was a very stupid and idotic thing to do. Yes I am hurt but I need to be cool about everything. I need to let her go and live her life and cherish the memories that I have of us. Like all of our road trips and the time we went to Six Flags with her daughter. I will always love you and cherish the time that we spent. I will miss holding you in my arms and the smell of your perfume on my skin after I let go. I miss lieing next to you and cuddling with you. You are and always be the best thing to ever happen to me. I will always be there for you and I wish you the best in school and in life. I just hope that maybe, just maybe we will be back together and I then grow old with you like I want to. I LOVE YOU GEM

Snakes In My Head....
I'm back...sort of...and I hope I didn't offend anyone with my abrupt closing up...as no offense was intended. I DID take some people off of my friends list, and off my family list and I DID get a CT divorce, but that had nothing to do with my fit I pitched. There are a handful, maybe not even that, that has ANY idea of the personal shit I'm going through at this moment. Personal, and just plain chaotic, as in BUYING, CLOSING and MOVING into my new home. Final closing on my home is Tueday and I can't frigging wait. Aruging with surveyors and roofers is challenging..let me tell ya. I may be blonde you fools...but I am NOT THAT BLONDE... Because of the major health problems I've been through the last 2 years, I have people around me thinking I'm absolutely incapable of making or doing things on my own....and while I love them for their concern and care, it's DRIVING ME BONKERS...I AM NOT HELPLESS. I have my good days and bad days...and I go with the flow. Yes...my cancer may ret

Movies...
I want to talk about movies. Last weekend we went to see a couple of movies. The first we saw on Friday. It was called, "Epic Movie". From the commercials and advertisements, it seemed like a good choice. It starred one of my favorite actors, Kal Penn. Now, this movie brought on completely new definitions of the word, suck. It should be burned on the pyre of bad decisions (right next to '28 Days Later', 'Unbreakable', and 'Ishtar'.) and never see the light of day again. What in the world possessed the studio to make such a bad movie? It must have seemed like a good idea right after 'Narnia' came out, but with all the time that has passed, most of the jokes are too old to be funny. The second movie we saw made up for the horror that was 'Epic Movie'. We went to see 'Hannibal Rising'. This movie was good enough to make up for the evil that was the other movie, heretofore known as 'Crap-Fest 4'. Hannibal was a well directed, well written, and well acted film that I hearti

Will These Nightmares Ever End
here i sit a man looking back at the hell that has been my life and ppl still today think they know what is like to have lived through it well let us put a stop to that now here is my life and welcome to my hell and nightmares. i look back and i am 3 years old and i am alone in the house and a woman baths me and then takes me out of the tub and dries me off and keeps a towel around me and then reads me a story and lets me fall asleep but the sleep doesn't last for i am woken up to being touched and molested and then raped by a woman i was suppose to trust with my life but she betrayed that trust and sent my life to hell on a downward spiral. now a boy of 6 and in school and a small boy at that as i am pushed around because i am different and made fun of for something i can't help.but this young boy is different and turns to darkness for help and finds power through the craft and things start to change for the boy of 6.he learns to control his friends and make them do his wi

Update To My Friends...
My son is still hanging in...A day for him is very hard, The first thing he does in the mornings is to spend his first 2 hours vomiting...He has done this for so long...Sometimes it is hard to get him to focus on the good things because he feels as if he is being punished...He says it is not fair and sometimes he just wishes for a end...Was really hard when he was a teen as he felt as if he were a freak...We have been through so much but we still hang in...We have been working on getting ready for this surgery for over a year now and it has been a very long year...First we were looking for a donor list then we were told we had to have a live kidney...This surgery is expermental as it has never been attempted but it is a last resort for us and if it works we have found a cure for something that kills children...Please pray that it is a success...

A Pirates Alphabet....
A -- The favorite word of Canadian pirates, ey? B -- B stands for Beer! C -- Da ting we sails da boat on D -- Das beer! German pirates E -- 'e needs a beer F -- 'f only I had a beer G -- Gee, I wish I had a beer H -- H'aightch and everone one of us should have a beer I -- I wish I had a beer J -- The guy who sells us beer K -- Jay's wife, she's a looker! L -- Da place where bad pirates goes when dey dies! M -- 'em folks needs beers N -- 'nother beer O -- Oh I wish I had a beer P -- (*long pause*) Self-explanatree! Q -- A French word meaning 'line for beer' R -- A pirate's favorite word, Arrrh! S -- What you fall on when you drink too much beer T -- Why we beat the British U -- You should have a beer V -- Vikings! Svedish pirates W -- You and you should have a beer X -- Jay's former wife, she no longer sells us beer Y -- Why not have a beer Z -- Ze beer! French pirates thank you silveroak for shareing this!!!!

Missing You
Lately I have been thinking about you, wondering how you are doing, what you have been doing, are u watching us? I guess cause it is that time of the year our birthdays are jsut right around the corner, I remember how we use to party for them. I hope you are well my friend. I sure miss you alot. R.I.P my brother. Troy, I love You!!

Smile,its The Best Prevention For Early Wrinkles.....kkhhh
A doctor in Minnesota wanted to get off work and go hunting, so he told his assistant "Ya Ole, I am going hunting tomorrow and we don't want to close the clinic. I want you to take care of the clinic and take care of our patients". "Yes, sir..." answers Ole. The doctor goes hunting and returns the next day and asks: "So Ole, how was your day?" Ole tells him he took care of three patients. "The first one had a headache, so I gave him TYLENOL." "Bravo! Ya, Ole, and the second one?" says the doctor. "The second one had stomach burning, and I gave him MAALOX, sir," says Ole. "Bravo, bravo Ole! You're good at this and what; about the third one?" asks the doctor. "Sir, I was sitting here, and suddenly the door opens, and a woman enters like a flame. She undresses herself, taking off her bra and her panties and lies down on the table, spread her legs and shouts: HELP ME! For five years I have not seen any man!!" And what did you do Ole?" asks the doctor. "I put eye

A Real Dream
It was after that dream that it happened. That dream of Israel and us - you chased me around the chalky, high-walled alleys. I heard the slip of your foot as it slid in its sandal I could almost see it as you ran fast after me. Our always chase. Of course, you caught me; arms waist-wrapped, my pale-blue dress hiked we two laughing until our eyes met; pale green, black-flecked set off by a light tan - I saw that gleam. I knew it then. You knew it too: Led me back to a white-walled room where I offered and you took. We - lovers then. Over tea and honey I told you about it. "No choice," you said. My heart's fast beat and whir Such details I told, stammering. You said then, "What is it you are waiting for? You know it will be me." I could not argue. The dream mere confirmation. So there we were, remarkably alone, nobody to patrol - and you led me to a high-wooden, linen-sheeted bed where I stood and you so reveren

Zodiac Signs & Lovers - Thanks Sarah!
Below are descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictionist. Read your sign, then forward this in a new bulletin with your zodiac sign and label, or you'll get bad luck for the number of years stated in your sign description. .:VIRGO:. The Virgin Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward. .:SCORPIO:. The sex addict Can be mean. EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. The sexiest ever....Romantic. Caring. .:LIBRA:. The Best lover Beautiful people. Very romant

Thank You!!!
Just a quick blog to thank everyone that has helped me thus far with the contest I am in!! You all are AWESOME and I appreciate your help with the comments!!! MY FRIENDS, FANS, AND FAMILY ROCK!!! MUAHZ!! LOVE, ANGEL (TWINKLEBUG)

An Old Friend
I love sex... Well I do! "No you don't" Who said that? "I did" What the fuck? Who are you? "Oh, after 25 years together you don't remember me huh?" I'm sorry I don't know who you are, or for that matter where the fuck you're at. "I guess growin up and shit gettin all tall, you forget your friends, I been hangin wit you ever since you were a baby, we used to spend all our time together. Right before you'd go to sleep you'd play with me and show me pretty girls in magazines. We'd run off get some nuts in the woods. You took me to meet Jessica when you were 21, she always made me feel special until Huri came into the picture she was the first to make me feel stronger than I ever was.Those were special times. But lately you've been very abusive and treating me like a piece of meat! I'm tired of you I need a woman's touch someone who will treat me right and have me as her own." I'm sorry, but I still don't know you and I don't see you, so I'm not gonna feel guilty

Something New On My Profile!!
There is something new going on my profile and you all are welcome to sign on my guestbook as I just put that in there to welcome all new and old friends and please help yourself and love to see you all there and have fun!!!

Exposure Of A Dark Mind
Harmonious Applause! Accute sensations. Retribution a force Aware of false declarations! Laughter of course! Deplorable vibrations! Tremors in heart Hateful lies Ended apart! Sordid memories! Heartfelt disgust! Intolerable tragedies! Total mistrust!

Update
Well I swallowed every ounce of pride I had in me and told my friend lets forget it all and move on but, she still "needed time to think" I never thought for one second that I didn't want to be friends so I guess if she has to think about it then it really is over. My other friend and I mended fences and have moved on. For that I am happy but my heart is still heavy with hurt. I guess it is all a part of the life cycle and life's changes. With that being said it is time to repost one of my all time favorite poems. "A Reason A Season and A Lifetime"© by Brain A. "Drew" Chalker. People always come into you life for a reason, a season and a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. T

My Unending Search For The Truth... :)
Which one do you think is more believable? Theory of Evolution or The Bible and God Creating Man To me, Im really beginning not to believe in a God with all the questions I do have about the Bible itself. I just cant agree with the first couple stories from the Bible being written/lain about 3500 years ago. Man was on earth millions of years before the bible was first created. I mean how does man actually know what the hell happened millions of years before they were born? How could any of those people know what happened? I dont think Jesus was Gods son either... If God had a son, wouldnt the next logical choice be for his child be Adam and Eve therefore making them brother and sister and then every one of us being imbred with each other? Really, thats gross lol. But back on topic. If God had made the earth in 7 days, whether it be 7 days on our calender that we now go by or whether it be a week in Gods time (which we really dont technically know), then why in the p

Early Morning
Early Morning I awoke to feel the warmth of your chest and belly against my back, your legs tucked into the hollow of my knees and my butt nestled firmly, sweetly against your crotch. Through the haze of sleep I could feel a cool breeze billowing the curtains and swirling through the room; bringing with it the vague smell of spring flowers and forcing me to burrow deeper below the covers. Such a simple movement, the mere snuggle of my body against yours as I sought to capture your warmth, and yet it was enough to rouse you. Not enough to totally wake you, just enough to bring morning awareness to certain parts. You tightened your arms about me and buried your face in my hair. While still half-asleep you unconsciously pressed against me, instinctively searching for pleasure, as your penis rubbed against the soft cheeks of my buttocks. Without any other movement on my part I could feel you begin to expand, to swell and harden against me. Almost as if seeking refuge between the w

His Birthday
I knew that your birthday was around the corner, so I sat at my computer to book a day with you........just you and I, locked in a cabin nestled in the woods of for the whole day. As I browsed through what was available, I couldn't help but be so picky. I wanted secluded, after all this was going to be a day away from it all......no phones, no interruptions, no one to bother us. I finally came across this chalet sitting on a lake surrounded by acres of woods.....ah, perfect I thought........this place will be great! I have so much planning to do, I make an invitation for you and place it on your desk.......it reads "Make no plans next Friday, you're all mine for the day! I arrive at the cabin first, you will be meeting joining me later on that morning. My first task will be to get the fire started.......I can't wait to be in your arms in front of the fireplace, just lost in the security of your arms. I debated on what to wear, as I wanted something sexy......but wanted to be

Friends 2
piercedmama...Brooke, you always side with me ha ha, We both have mad love for each other, and you give me 11's damn I need to become a VIC to return that love! Show ya how I really feel ;) Charlie Freakin B and Trouble..you two are by far the funnest couple on CT, I have to say if I were to meet some people from here, you two would be at the top of my list, Charlie you can cheer me up when I am down, and Donna, girl you are a truly amazing woman! Alice..I remember when we had our little contest to see who could get to 400 fans first for me that was like 800 fans ago lol, maybe we should have a contest now to see who can get to 1500 first, you beat me to uber cherry, but I am fast approaching lol! I need another fucking BLAST! Jay...whats not to love about you, you are by far my most fave male point whore! You are a truly sweet guy in the way you go about asking me to whore you! Gotta love a man who wants to join the women in the points whore ranks! I really have some of

My Friend Is A Dork!!!
i have a friend whose name starts with J and ends with essica and she is a total dork, but luckily for her i love her anyway. we are thelma and louise, yin and yang, peanut butter and jelly, charlie brown and snoopy, calvin and hobbes, god and satan, squirrels and nuts, we are just that tight! so give a shoutout to my girl if u can figure out who she is. Peace out homies!

::doing Happy Dance::
HE GOT TO CALL ME AGAIN!!!!! ok..im done..on top of that i got a letter too....so yea really happy about that....kinda on cloud nine right now...lol ::sigh:: i cant wait to see him again....he sent me a pic....i saw my sean again....::aww::....i miss the loser lol....anyway he comes home soon for leave...& you all know how i feel about that...lol. just 13 days left guys...somehow it doesnt seem real...like im imagining it..lol...yea i know im crazy...but you all love me anyway...& so does he....

Me
My world feels upside down I yearn for joy, for love, for laughter I want to be happy To feel someone craving and adoring me No lies. No games. No pain.No tears. No more. Satisfaction. Passion. Smile. Everyone and yet no one Nothing Bring me joy Bring me love Bring me happiness Make me believe Make me see Make me smile Make me forget That I'm all alone

Tempting....
When eve gave adam the apple.... do u think they were just hungry? or did adam just think he would get in her leaf so to speak...... when noah built the ark for the animals and it rained for 40 days and 40 nights do u think he cleaned up the shit after em? when romeo took his life did he know juliette would follow? or was he just so over the bitch's nagging where for art thou romeo???? if i told u i wanted to be kissed with total passion and held on to like your life depended on it would u believe me???? or would you just give me the spanking i need????

Autumn Valentine By Dorothy Parker
In May my heart was breaking-- Oh, wide the wound, and deep! And bitter it beat at waking, And sore it split in sleep. And when it came November, I sought my heart, and sighed, "Poor thing, do you remember?" "What heart was that?" it cried.

Nobody But You By Charles Bukowski
nobody can save you but yourself. you will be put again and again into nearly impossible situations. they will attempt again and again through subterfuge, guise and force to make you submit, quit and/or die quietly inside. nobody can save you but yourself and it will be easy enough to fail so very easily but don't,don't,don't. just watch them. listen to them. do you want to be like that? a faceles, mindless, heartless being? do you want to experience death before death? nobody can save you but yourself and you're worth saving. it's a war not easily won but if anything is worth winning then this is it. think about it. think about saving your self. your spiritual self. your gut self. your singing magical self and your beautiful self. save it. don't join the dead-in-spirit. maintain your self with humor and grace and finally if necessary wager your life as you struggle, damn the odds,damn the price. only you can save yourself. do i

What Is It All For Part 2
I HAVE MADE ALOT OF MONEY IN MY LIFE . I AM NOT BRAGGIN JUST STATING A POINT. I HAVE MADE ON SOME JOBS 2500 DOLLARS A WEEK BUT I WORKED 80 HOURS FOR IT I GOT A NICE CAR AND A;OT GO JUNK.,BUT NOTHING I REALLY WANT LIKE A WIFE OR A TRUE FAMILY . I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER THAT I HARDLY SEE . IT IS NOT MY FUALT I TRY TO SEE HER AS MUCH AS I CAN,BUT MY EX IS A PAIN IN MY ASS. I HAVE FOUGHT HER IN COURT BUT EVERYTIME I GET THERE THEY FIND SOME BULLSHIT REASON WHY I CAN'T GET HER. I HAVE SEEN HER A COUPLE OF TIMES . SHE GOES TO MY PARENTS ONCE AND AWHILE AND MY DAD CALLS ME WHEN SHE IS THERE ,BUT I WORK ALL OVER THE PLACE I LIVE IN LOUISIANNA BUT I WORK IN TEXAS FLORIDA NAD ALL OVER THE PLACE . IT IS HARED TO FIND A JOB THAT PAYS WORTH A SHIT IN LA. I AM THINKING I AM WASTEING MY TIME TRYING TO FIGHT TO SEE HER ,BUT THEN WHEN I DO SEE HER I MELT . BUT IT KILLS ME WHEN I SEE OTHER DADS PLAY WITH THERE KIDS AND I WANT ONE OF MY OWN SO BAD. I ALREADY HAVE ONE BUT I DON'T GET TO SEE HER MUCH .

What A Great Start To The Weekend!!!
If you read this then im sorry!!! I just need to blow off some steam!!! lol god this weekend brings back shit I hate lol all I do is laugh when I always feel like im worthless like how many of the poeple hurt me in my past....tonight has been filled with Threats. Decieving,Disappointments,Broken Promises and many others of the sort....Right now I dont know if I can stay positive and let the darkness have me again like in the past and plus I have a sickness and in alot of pain and these pills im taking are making me feel sicker and depressed and plus im still coughing up blood!!!!! So Im guess Im writing so I can blow of some steam since none of my friends r on...So if anyone reads this im sorry dont worry about me, I'll be better in the morning!!!!!

Confessions Of Mortality: I Glimpsed Him
I dream of a Prince with moondust in his hair exuding the grave's glow; with his Demon Lover's Stare We'll raise hell at first. -Then we'll drink what we sow Depraved delights & wicked wines are among the first which will quench our thirst I need a new incubus to slake this wytch's fate His wintered silvery eyes may, whisper of forgotten wistfulness.. His bones might creak with sorrow. Still full of that tortured longing for fair Zeniths' honied kiss But I will know him- by what he grows Yearning for the freedom of tomorrow When the wind bring no more madness; borrowed or bloomed in his garden of shadows Then in our oasis when we find; our elusive phoenix We will renew & reburn Together COPYRIGHT WYLDFEY.COM

My New Pub ...for Science Mag .:p
The Quantum Gyroscop In this project we suggest to study noncovalent interactions between single wall carbon nanotubes, between concentric multiwall carbon nanotubes and between the inside of the tubes and carbon cages or other molecules which will be established inside the cage. Such interactions were claimed to be rather strong on the one side since nanotubes are observed to aggrgate into bundles or very stable multiwall hoses. Transport experiments demonstrated on the other side a current flow only through the outermost walls of concentric tubes with hardly any intertube leaking. Experiments will be carried out by light scattering spectroscopy in combination with analyses by scanning probe microscopy. Very special modes observable by the light scattering process allow to draw information on the tube-tube interaction and on the tube-cage interaction. Such modes have been observed sofar only in single wall carbon nanotubes but are expected to be also observable in multiwall tube

This Applies To Both Women And Men
This is wise advice Recognizing Abusing Personalities Many women are interested in ways they can predict whether they are about to become involved with someone who will be physically abusive. Below are list of behaviors that are seen in people who beat their girlfriends or wives. If the person has several of these behaviors (say three or more) there is a strong potential for physical violence. The more signs a person has, the more likely the person is a batterer. In some cases, a batterer may have only a couple of behaviors that the woman can recognize, but they are very exaggerated. The behaviors become more severe and serve to dominate and control the woman. 1. JEALOUSY: Abusers usually say that jealousy is a sign of love. Jealousy has nothing to do with love; it is a sign of possessiveness and lack of trust. Abusers tend to question their partners about everyone they talk to, accuse them of flirting when they are carrying on a normal conversation, or be jealous of time spent with fa

Dreamers Of Disappearance
Who doesn't know the fear of remaining a dreamer for ones whole life? Fear is the mindkiller, those illusions keep the soul trapped. The fewest reach out for the things that lay next to them... So I don't. Dreams are deceitful, they separate from life, they are sweet and addictive and oh, so necessary; and when you lose them it will break your heart and maybe your neck... I am not able to deny them, reality is such a grey condition. I keep on dreaming about a soul recognizing on a level which is more profound and living life to its fullest but who keeps on dreaming and philosophizing at the same time. A dear friend told me I'd been searching for the impossible, for there is no one who ever could correspond my requirements. But here I am with all my versatile interests and needs and there must be another person who dreams of the same things I am dreaming of... I'm looking for a quite obsessive relationship, very passionate and devouring, adventurous and thoughtful, childish and pla

Top Morons Of 2006
1. WILL THE REAL DUMMY PLEASE STAND UP? AT&T fired President John Walter after nine months, saying he lacked intellectual leadership. He received a $26 million severance package. Perhaps it's not Walter who's lacking intelligence. 2. WITH A LITTLE HELP FROM OUR FRIENDS: Police in Oakland, CA spent two hours attempting to subdue a gunman who had barricaded himself inside his home. After firing ten tear gas canisters, officers discovered that the man was standing beside them in the police line, shouting, "Please come out and give yourself up." 3. WHAT WAS PLAN B??? An Illinois man, pretending to have a gun, kidnapped a motorist and forced him to drive to two different automated teller machines, wherein the kidnapper proceeded to withdraw money from his own bank accounts. 4. THE GETAWAY! A man walked into a Topeka, Kansas Kwik Stop and asked for all the money in the cash drawer. Apparently, the take was too small, so he tied up the store clerk and worked the counter him

I Cant Wait For This To Be Over! Lol
Mike and I have been busy working in the apt downstairs getting it fixed up, painted and cleaned so that we can move down there. For most of the last week or so we have been down there patching walls...painting...shampooing rugs....etc and now the last couple days we have been moving stuff down there and getting things transferred over into our name. Today will most likely be the last day of it all though. We got a TON done yesterday and last night. The bulk of our biggest furniture is down there...now its just some boxes and smaller pieces left. It will just be really nice once this is all over with so we can spend more time putting things away the way that we want it and relaxing.

Sorry To Leave My Friends Hanging
One of my last entries I was trying to figure out what was going on with my cycle because I was late by about 2 days or so and couldnt figure it out because tests told me I wasnt pregnant. The dr told me to wait it out another day or 2 because when you use the cytotec to cause your cycle to start after a miscarriage it can take a few months to regulate your cycles from what the dr told me and sure enough...later on that night "it" showed up. Thanks to my friends that were here for me to talk to and reassured me. I was actually more scared of being pregnant than excited because of the fear of losing another one but about the time I decided I wanted to be I found out I wasnt....such is life. lol

I Aim To Please
I aim to please(Erotica) Every drop of blood rushes to the tip Swelling, pulsing, unbelievable trip Your tongue so wet and warm to the touch My cock so hard, I've missed you much! Your mouth slowly surrounds my cock Your tongue teases, my body is in shock Your hand caress my balls and shaft Your eyes look eager, you display a masterful craft Sucking my cock, and ever easily you please I want your pussy, it's your turn for release I throw you down, and rip off your pants My tongue begins to flirt, it's time to dance I start at your toes and lick at you feet My tongue works down to your tasty treat Once there I cherish your tasty fruit I start at you clit, my cock does a salute I lick that clit and finger you galore Your pussy is wet, your now my whore Hips bucking and wanting to explore I raise you up, now you're all on fours I tease you from behind and taste your wanting ass I rub my cock on it, I'm hoping

Intimate Shower
Intimate Shower Imagine slick skin sliding together as two people stand under the hot, pulsing spray of a thousand aquatic fingers massaging away the tension of the day...heaven. Add the erotic touch of human hands kneading, caressing and rubbing intimate regions and what you have is a recipe designed for explosion. Unlike the fantasy, bathing is an everyday necessity that most people don't put a lot of thought into. However, it can be one of the most arousing, intimate experiences a couple incorporates into their relationship. The main focus of a couple's shower is not sexual; instead it should be sensual. Increasing the level of intimacy by showering together and focusing on the erotic can open the door to new ideas. Heightening the senses can intensify the sexual encounter that may follow. The possibilities are endless. The key to the ultimate experience is communication, whether verbal or non-verbal, a willingness to try new things, and an open mind. Pre-shower pr

Naked Jelly Wrestling Jiggling Hot Chicks In Jelly.
I went to the pub last night and whilst putting the world to rights over a Guinness or five, a very valid point was made regarding Hannibal. What the hell was he drinking when he came up with idea of taking elephants over The Alps to invade Rome? "Right lads, we're off to invade Rome. One problem...its The Alps...they're big, snowy, cold and slippery. I'm sure you'll agree, they're pretty much nothing like the jungle or scrubland typical of Southern Asia or the African sub-continent". "Yes boss". "So we'll get some elephants..." And with that one, I left the pub, got a curry, went home and fell asleep on the couch watching Battlestar Galactica...and drooled quite heavily on my shirt.

How My Day Is......
hey hello. I have been on this site for a while but never really spent alot of time here, witch I think is going to change. everything in my life is golden right now. however that will start to worrie me as it always does. when everything is going fabulous I start to wonder why instead of just letting it flow. I worrie about anything and everything anything witch might or never happen. I turn 26 next week, I don't think its any big deal, brithdays that is. it is just another day. however on the 28th I will have 3 years being clean and sober, well I have over 3 years now clean from drugs. not really sure of the date that I stoped smoking pot. but on feb 27th 2003 I had my last drink. my grampa was having his 50th year party in AA and yeah he played a big part in my getting sober, god took him home when I was 3 months sober and I miss him. however I have found true friends in AA that mean the world to me, sometimes I wish I could remmber all their names lol. anyways everyone, thanks for

Passion (erotic)
Passion (Erotic) Lightly licking Softly nibbling Hands carressing Legs opening Head tilts back Temperatue rising Pussy dripping Nipples hard Blood rushing Clit throbbing Tongue hungers Begins to explore Tasting every drop Wanting to explore Cock hard Resting on the outside Wanting to pry Deep inside Hot moisture Readies the shaft Pulsating forward Hitting the zone Loving moans Lust begins Blood boils Deep inside Cum elates Begins to escape Shooting through From me to you!

Hi Ya'll
heyyy everyone ... Im sooo sorry if ya dont do the whole contest thing but I didnt either ..until now lol I can win a 30 day blast for the most comments in a sexy eyes contest .. If you bomb.. bomb away if ya dont if you could leave me a comment or 2 Id appreciate it sooo much .. and I'll help ya out if u ever need it to :o) huggzzz and kissess to all myyy friends and thanks for any help you can give me ... Love ya'll ... Kris Just click on the pic :o) thanks

Owed
I owe you a great deal This I know you feel Unable to ever pay back Is only what I lack My heart you steal My soul needing to heal Problems are all I stack Wishing Love wasn't at a lack Snapped back into reality Not one I want to see Knowledge of it remains Bound by chains With you I want to be Falling to my knee I bow with my shames For you I owe changes

Dark One
Dark one I CAN FEEL YOUR ESSENCE, YOUR HUNGER CARESSES MY SKIN. I CAN FEEL YOUR YEARNING, IT BEGINS TO FILL ME. MY STILETTOS, THE GENTLE SCRATCH OF THEM ON MY STONE PERCH. LIKE A LOVERS WHISPER IT SEDUCES ME, MY BODY BEGINNING TO TINGLE. BONDS, RESTRICTING ME, RESTRAINING ME..LIBERATING ME. THE SOUND OF MY LEATHERY WINGS AS THEY STRETCH OUT BEHIND ME. THE INTOXICATING SMELLS OF FLESH, BLOOD, LUST CALLING TO ME. WICH HUNGER SHALL I APPEASE FIRST..THIS YEARNING BECOMING A ACHING NEED? MY DARK SOUL SO HUNGRY FOR YOU.. WHY DO YOU HIDE IT? THIS DESIRE THIS NEED, FROM ME? I WOULD WRAP YOU IN MY SENSUAL EMBRACE AND LET YOUR MOANS OF PLEASURE BE HEARD BY HEAVEN AND HELL AS ONE. I WOULD NOT HURT YOU DARK ONE, FOR YOUR MY ONE AND ONLY.. I HAVE WAITED SO LONG MANY LIVES AGO I HAD YOU, NOW I FIND YOU AGAIN, ONLY TO FEEL YOU DANCE AWAY FROM ME IN ETERNAL SHADOW. YOU GIVE SO FREELY TO OTHERS, YET YOUR ALWAYS YEARNING FOR MORE. DON'T YOU FEEL YOUR INNE

Went Out For Karaoke Last Night
Well I sang a whole crap load of songs last night. They had a karaoke contest and I lost. It was just me and this other guy. You had to pay $2 per song entered and the winner gets the pot. Well I did 3 for the contest and the other guy did 1. They decide the winner by audience applause. (I knew I was screwed becasue it's more like a popularity contest, so the other guy got all the applause and me pretty much none) (even though I was WAY better.) All he won though was $8. I got 2nd prize which was a tee shirt and a shot glass. So I think I was better off. lol I'm not being a sore loser but I'd love to lose to someone who's atleast as good as me. I won't enter these things again. But I did have fun, though I pissed my hubby off. We went to another bar and my crazy girl friend was there and we all danced together. I got in trouble cause I sorta danced a bit dirty with a guy on the dance floor. It was probably wrong but I had fun. On the way home was not so fun.. but I won't go there.

Shout Box Entertainment
this is copy and pasted from the shout box so start from the bottom and read up... ROFLMFAO... this is the first convo i wake up to this morning... finish: (see now if he was a respectful man, me telling him i was all about my bf would have been enough to make him give up. instead he assumed i was some skank out for a big dick... and you know what assuming does... it makes and ass out of you and a bitch outta me LMFAO) me...: LOL no you dont (ROFLMFAO!!! he walked right into this one) sexy metal...: :(-tears- i have a bigger dick me...: no babe im sorry i have a bf that i absolutly adore its nothing against you, but the only person i want is him (ummm no sorry about your luck but i will commence with a polite let down) sexy metal...: u dont want it me...: nice looks like your having fun (looks like a fuzzy dead turtle wearing a blue latex body warmer) sexy metal...: wat u think (i begin to rate NSFW pics of him and his gf not really paying much a

Ghost Rider
Went to see Ghost Rider last night. It was three shades of wonderful. I give it 5 stars, two thumbs up, whatever you want to say to show that I loved this movie, say it.Nicholas Cage, even with his comedic take on the character, was the perfect choice to play Johnny Blaze. He gave the character a personality that you could really get into and like, but there were actually better characters in the movie, as there are in the comic. The focus of the comic is Ghost Rider, and whenever the focus on Johnny, they generally falter with the fan base. There were three characters that actually drew us a little better than Johnny, other than Ghost Rider. They were Caretaker, played by Sam Elliot (one of my favorite actors); Blackheart, played by Wes Bentley; and Mephistopheles, played by Peter Fonda (watch for the 'Easy Rider' moment). These three characters plus Ghost Rider himself make the whole movie worth watching. Also, the F/X were wonderful; with only one glitch that was very visibl

Just Me....
I'm Sondra I make too many mistakes. Sometimes i wish i were perfect and flawless but it's quite obvious that i'm not. I'm really not the trusting kind of person, never have been and probably never will be; everyone i meet disappoints me in some way. i guess maybe i'm used to it by now. I like being outside when it's cold and smiling when i'm not happy. I laugh when things are bad. I guess that's just a habit of mine, maybe one day someone will find my flaws endearing and maybe one day I'll find someone who really does think with their heart. Life is inevitable, I don't take it for granted but i do wish i could change it even for just one day. I have faith in time that everything will work out for me and my family. And i won't change for anyone. LOVE ME FOR ME OR NOT AT ALL!!

Random Thoughts Of Mine.
My unit will be heading to the sand box again here in the near future and I will not be joining them. Some might say good, but I am sad. Last time I was over there I took the bus from my part of the base to the chow hall. And that bus driver was an Iraqi man. I remember being the only one on the bus and just tring to hold a conversation with that man. One day he took me around the bus showing me everything. I think that he was tring to work on his english some and I was tring to work on my arabic a little. I believe that everyone looks down upon these people because just me tring to comunicate with this man made him jump with joy. It was like no one even tried. I have had the pleasure to go to third world countries in this world and I will tell you what. The United States is the BEST! If you ever think you have it bad, trust me you don't! It made me step back and wow, even on a shitty day I got it great! I saw a family of 5, yes 5 on a dirt bike! Familys of 10 living in a

Fleshlight..warning ... Lol
ho needs an xbox when you got a Fleshlight?! Some facts: The Fleshlight is a male sex toy, designed to emulate the sensation of various sexual acts for masturbational purposes. The Fleshlight gains its name from the flesh-like material used in its design, and from the plastic case that looks like a flashlight. Several inserts, including vagina, mouth, and anus-shaped holes, can be chosen from. The Fleshlight was designed by a former police officer who was looking for a means to overcome a period of abstinence while his wife was pregnant. It was granted a patent in 1998 as a "device for discreet sperm collection".

Too Damn Funny!!!!! (and Pathetically True)
This was a bulletin that I reposted today and it's just too good to pass up! Stop by and show this guy some love if you can because this is the funniest thing I've read in a long damn time!!! :P ********************************************************************************* ********************************************************************************* I saw something new today, a different level of social extortion that just cracked me up....."Buy me Blast to see my NSFW pics" lmao. So I have to seize this moment before it gets away, cause so many times we wonder where terms or cliches' come from. Sooo... I, Majik, user #160789, hereby proclaim and add to the Cherry Tap Dictionary, that is level of social extortion be deemed "BLASTITUTION", and subsequently its endeavorers to be apply called "BLASTITUTES". Have as much fun with that as you like, as I know you will. Gimme a repost or a kudo if you see fit, no pressure or questioning your friendship involved there.

A Funny
Taking a wee break from the golf course, Tiger Woods drives his new Buick into an Irish gas station. An attendant greets him in typical Irish manner, unaware who the golf pro is... "Top o' the mornin to ya". As Tiger gets out of the car, two tees fall out of his pocket. "So what are those things, laddie?" asks the attendant. "They're called tees," replies Tiger. "And what would ya be usin 'em for, now?" inquires the Irishman. "Well, they're for resting my balls on when I drive," replies Tiger. "Aw, Jaysus, Mary an' Joseph!" exclaimes the Irish attendant. "Those fellas at General Motors think of everything...

Taking A Break From Here.....
there are a lot of things going on with me right now.... a lot of upsetting things.... and i need to take a break..... i feel like i'm losing everyone around me...... and it's breaking my heart.... my friends are my lifelines.... the only thing that keeps me grounded.... keeps me from breaking down and slipping into the dark recesses of depression. i have felt more accepted in CT and at the dungeon then i ever have... even with my RL family. i've made some dear friends on here... been with me through it all. but i've made a lot of mistakes... gotten in over my head... and gotten other people in trouble inadvertently... and i can't handle it. those of you that are close to me you know how to reach me.... i'll be there.... i'll always be there... but as of right now... i need a break for a day or so to sort through my feeling and emotions... cuz right now my heart is breaking and depression is setting in... for i fear i'm losing someone that i've come to care very deeply for... you know

The Princess Story
This is a story I wrote for a woman who had a desire to be "lorded over" as she put it. She took to calling me "Daddy" and referred to herself as my "Princess". ------------------------------------------------- You walk into the kitchen after running errands and I am standing there by the fridge, half looking for something to snack on, half wasting time til you get home. I turn and around and smile as you walk over to me. We kiss, once on the lips, then on your forehead as I stroke your head, running my hand from the top of your head down the lenght of your hair. "How's my Princess today?" I ask. You tell me you are doing fine, but had a long day full of running around from place to place taking care of things. I give you a sympathetic look and another kiss on the forehead, then I turn you around and put my arms around you. We stand there for a moment, not saying anything, simply enjoying the feeling of being together. Then I take your hand and lead you into the bedroom, locking t

Too Many Walls Just Keep Going Up In My Life
Current mood: scare and worried. since I could not find the stamp for song I currently playing, I am kind of watching the Move A Walk To Remember, and listening to Many Moore's song Only Hope. I have marked my life to a Walk To Remember, even though no one is sick like the girl was in this movie, but then again I cannot say anyone is not sick as of yet, this movie will always be my movie I relate to it no matter what. Life does so many things to people these days, it just aint funny anymore. I know when me and my ex broke up in one the weirdest ways it could have ever happen, all I ever wanted to do was see her one last time. Then my parents spoke to me stating she may come back one day, my fathrr never got so close to me as he did and never though I hear the words he stated that day, that if it was meant to be she will come back. My mom said the same, but was just unhappy with how it all happened. My mother spoke to me and we talked and talked, she told me how she

I Love The Internet
Internet dating You can't be defeated Never rejected Just deleted You can end an conversation Without saying a word A click of the mouse If preferred Or you may even Make some friends Some will last Some will end

My Friend....
ONE OF MY VERY GOOD FRIENDS CHRIS HAD A LIL GIRL THE OTHER DAY 25 DAYS TO BE EXCAT.....SHE WAS ONLY STARTING HER 5TH MONTH.....SO SHE WENT IN TO LABOR THE BABY (RACHEAL) WEIGHED 13 OUNCES AND WAS 9 INCHES LONG....A LIL FIGHTER SHE IS.....UNTIL THIS MORNING I AM SADDEND TO SAY HER KIDNEYS FAILED AND SHE PASSED ON.....SO LITTLE SHE GAINED TO A POUND AND 1 OUNCE BUT SHE JUST WASNT STRONG ENOUGH SO I AM SAD OVER THIS I CANT IMAGINE THE FEELING OF HAVING SOMEONE SO PRECIOUS FOR ONLY 25 DAYS .....HELL I GET MAD AT MY KIDS BUT I LOVE THE, BETTER THEN MY LIFE ITS SELF....JUST WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS I GEUSS THOUGHT IF I WROTE ABOUT IT MAYBE IT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL A LIL BETTER BUT IT HASNT...... WELL, ON A DIFFRENT NOTE IT IS SNOWING HERE TODAY OMG I HATE SNOW ITS NOT BEAUTIFUL AND ITS NOT COOL ITS NASTY AND MESSY PLUS THERE IS NOOOOOOOO SCHOOL IT WILL BE EASTER BEFORE THEY GO BACK ...LOL....IM AHEAD IN THE CONTEST STILL THANKS TO SUM MUCH LOVED FRIENDS AND THERE WHIP.....I LOVE AND APPRICATE U

1588 Comments To Go..
Hey people .. Come help me wrap up this contest.. 1588 comments to go.. Please help a girl out.. For the person who gets me my 15,000 comments and emails me first saying they did.. I will buy them a silver motorcycle.. Thank you Everyone that helped out so far.. Lots of love goes out to you.. And a big kiss to the few main people who comment bombs me everyday.. you know who you are.. I loves you guys!!! you kick Ass!! Well here's the link.. you know how it goes.. Lots of Love and Kisses _~Pole Princess~

Lick It Up Bitch!
Females can't cum from sex UNLESS, they're on top..and they're on top why? so they can stimulate their clit..by doin' their lil snake charm grindin'grab on our pelvic bones..which..really does nothin' for us..so the key is..eat **** first..make her cum a few times...numb her up..then hammer away or soft and slow with alot of vaginal teasing with your magic stick to build it all up in the end, however u like...... now once ur inbetween her legs..don't just ****in' dive in there like a bum at a thanksgiving charity dinner...take your ****in'time I know **** is nearly irresistable...but don't act like it is.. lick her inner thighs, kiss them..kiss around her **** lips..kiss the lips etc. etc..finally once u've got your tongue on her clit..this is what u do..(u can use ur hands to spread her lips here if u want..that's all preference...it's easier to make em cum w/their lips spread..so u have easier access to their clit) now...roll the tip and somewhat flat part of your tongue around the

Keep Your Fork
(as many times as I have heard this story, I have always enjoyed reading this again and again and again! It is just oh so heartwarming.) There was a young woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal illness and had been given three months to live. So as she was getting her things "in order," she contacted her pastor and had him come to her house to discuss certain aspects of her final wishes. She told him which songs she wanted sung at the service, what scriptures she would like read, and what outfit she wanted to be buried in. Once everything was discussed and the pastor was preparing to leave, the young woman suddenly remembered something very important to her. "There's one more thing," she said excitedly. "What's that?" came the pastor's reply. "This is very important," the young woman continued, "I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand." The pastor stood looking at the young woman, not knowing quite what to say. "That surprises you,

New Computer
Sometime this coming week, I will be getting a new up to date computer. I am currently using a HP P4 2.66Mhz Laptop. I am looking into a HP with an Intel® Core™2 Duo. A T5500 (1.6Ghz) to T7200 (2.0Ghz) processor I will be shopping around though, but if anyone who reads this has any suggestions? I want to be able to have superior performance but at a decent price.

Love And Forgiveness
YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME SO WHY CANT YOU FORGIVE ME? YOU SAY YOU NEED ME SO WHY CANT YOU FORGIVE ME? YOU SAY YOU WANT ME SO WHY CANT YOU FORGIVE ME? AM I NOT HUMAN? AM I NOT ALLOWED TO MAKE MISTAKES? AM I NOT ALLOWED TO BE SCARED? IS IT NOT OK FOR ME TO MAKE ONE SIMPLE MISTAKE AND NOT BE THROWN AWAY LIKE I AM TRASH? DO YOU NOT MAKE MISTAKE OR IS IT THAT YOU'RE SO PERFECT YOU'RE NOT EVEN HUMAN? DO YOU LOVE WHEN IT IS CONVENIENT FOR YOU AND DISMISS WHEN IT IS NOT? TELL AM I NOT PRETTY ENOUGH FOR YOU? AM I NOT SUBMISSIVE ENOUGH FOR YOU? DO I NOT KISS YOUR ASS ENOUGH FOR YOU? YOU TELL ME WHAT IT IS YOU NEED AND I WILL MOST LIKELY DIE TRYING TO GIVE IT TO YOU BECAUSE YOU SEE I'LL WILL ALREADY BE DEAD BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE YOU, BECAUSE YOU DIDNT WANT ME, BECAUSE I DIDNT FIT IN TO YOUR PERFECT LITTLE WORLD.

Steamy Coffee
Waking to the drumming of the rain I slept so well in your arms again. dreams of passion and tenderness of your body laying next to mine woke ready for love and hungry! Feeling refreshed and alive again. I love you so much, beyond all reason I tremble at the thought of you holding me close and warmly whispering words of loving in my ear. the rain has subsided to a heavy mist that fills the air with beads of moisture I slip into a pair of cutoffs and prowl the mist filled Garden out back, having a smoke and a mug of coffee the warm dew, covering my chest water pooling and running down me an errant trickle teasing my sences running over my chest and stomach and runs down along my pelvis wetting my hardness as I think about how much I want to make love to you the rain water dripping off its aching tip like the first drops that form to help to moisten the way for entry into you my godess I need your love so badly My fevered dreams of being with you nak

Another Lonely Saturday Night
you would say with all the women on CT, flirting and posting that you could find a good playful partner for on line chat, flirt and fun, but Alas, no, the moment i mention that i am looked down like a perv. I guess i am, but I am a NICE perv. So I will just take a short nap, take a shower and go and have a drink at the bar.

My Attention Whore Sister!! Lmao
So I am surfing around CT and up at the top I notice my sister, Toxic, is on a blast! After I got done pointing and laughing I had to get a screen shot! What no undying love for the sun shiney one?? *sniff sniff*

Rhetorical Rhetoric: I Think...therefore I Am Confused
These rantings are from this year, however, this one in particular is a month or two old already: Rhetorical Rhetoric: I think...Therefore I am Confused By: Jungle Bunny January 2007 My head feels like it's busting at the seams. Too many thoughts, scrambled in my head, perhaps this is what is meant by stewing in one's own juices. My thoughts are nicely marinating the brain tissue in my head, I just hope that one day, it doesn't boil over, spewing the contents of my thoughts in an explosion of shattered ideas. Confusion should be so normal to me by now. I mean, haven't I relived the same scenario over and over again? Things seemed to have fallen back into a familiar pattern, of the old me, the inexperienced youth, who once had ignorance on her side, excusing the past. Now, I am older, wiser, more confident. Yet what have I really learned in all these years? I thought I had learned. I thought being older and wiser made me invincible. Wanting to become a self-sufficient, s

Who's A Rock Star? I'm A Rock Star!
Who's a Rock Star? I'm a Rock Star! Who's a Rock Star? I'm a Rock Star! Who's a Rock Star? I'm a Rock Star! Who's a Rock Star? I'm a Rock Star! Uh huh, uh huh, uh huh. *boogies*

Mastered Another Song - A Rush Classic!
I knew the beginning part of this song for ages, but never sat down and figured out the bridge part in the middle - until yesterday, that is...yes, I have it down! I'm gonna LOVE doing this one live!!! Oh, yeah, the song is "The Trees", from the album Hemispheres by Rush. COOL song!!! Cheers, Zepman

I'm Still Alive , Lol.
Yes I'm still out there. Sorry havnt been on much, more or less couse the site has been VERY slow. I did get a comment if you sent me one. I need a web site that can have me one sent back to you. I'll be back on more, so hope it can be faster. Well, keep in touch ok, Thank you.

Blessed
im sure you all have had a time in your life when things were hard. you worried and worried over many different things and there seemed to be no way you could forsee to help yourself or others. i have been in that state for some time. i wont go into alot of details but let us say that i had finally gotten to a point where it was starting to affect me. i finally gave up on worrying and left it in the hands of a higher power. and then in a flash everything changed. i was blessed with a way to fix my looming issues and take care of somethings that had been put off for too long. im not going to bible beat anyone with my beliefs, but there is a power of good that watches out for all of us if we look to HIM. i will say this, i believe that HE has many names and faces. in my happiness i wish good fortune to all of you. blessed be you all

Despair
Sleep will not come to us; it will not relieve our pain, Sleep will not take over us, let us rest again and again, Whispers will not silence our screams and our sighs, Whispers will not block out the despair that opens our eyes, Love can never learn to breathe through crowded solitude, Love can never learn to be singular or a multitude, Our minds cannot combat what we are, they cannot fathom air, Our minds cannot be opened by our own despair, Time cannot awaken us from our counterfeit rest, Time cannot halt the feelings inside of our chest, We are the insomnia, the raging, and the sick, We are the suspended waiting for something to click, We are filled with hate, we are the chosen, I close my eyes but despair forces them open.

Cruel Rude People Suck
Some people are cruel! "jkatlee@yahoo.com" seems to think hes god making me feel like a piece of dog crap and calling me ugly and fat well some people like ugly and fat and I dont like to put pics up for the reason of rejection life sucks ! This jerk took my yahoo group I worked a year on and threw me out how many people have been treated this way? or am I the only idiot here?:(

Emma Rose...
Emma Rose There is a tiny garden, It's growing up above, She was taken up so suddenly, And filled with so much love, Her mommy loved her dearly, So many others too, Like family, friends, and neighbors, Now all feeling blue. Emma's very special, She has a job to do, She was given wings to wear so proud, So on the love she'll fly around, Spreading love to everyone, That ever frowns. So if you ever see, a flower or a tree, Remember that is Emma, Spreading smiles, love and glee. Written on February 17, 2007 11:00 PM For Gia in memory of Emma Rose who was called back home to Jesus. by Susan Du Four

Author Unknown
I found this poem and gave it to my grandmother over 5 years ago when my grandfather passed away and it touched me so i wanted to share it...idk who wrote it or the title but it still brings tears to my eyes.... I stood by your bed last nite, I came to take a peep. I could see you were crying, you found it hard to sleep. I whispered to you softly, as you brushed away a tear, "its me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here." I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea, you were thinking of the many times you passed that cup to me. I was with you at the shops today, your arms were getting sore, I longed to take your parcels, I wished I carried more. I was with you at my grave today, you tend it with such care, I wanted to reassure you that I am not lying there. I walked with you towards the house as you fumbled for your key, I gently put my hand on yours, I smiled and said "its me." we both went in, you looked so tired and you sank in to your cha

Stupid Person
This is a short convo I had with Brad/Lisa after he placed 2 stupid mumms in a row. He shouted at me and thats it...here it is, lemme know what you think. Read this bottom to top. >Lisa: well, if I do...i will be sure to hunt you down like a dog and fuck you in the ass...while cutting you and me...just to make sure you die Lisa: no need - you will get aids i dont worry ->Lisa: dig deeper man. deeper Lisa: homo ->Lisa: dude...if your gonna call me a name..make it good. Lisa: stumpy dick lol Lisa: lol you kick my ass ok homo ->Lisa: well...come to Okla so I can kick your ass, and then you'll find out Lisa: are you a guy or a girl you homo

Late Night Confusion...
I'm confused... Life was never really meant to make sense I suppose. You are suppose to keep guessing, wondering what lies around the corner. My eye is focused on that horizon, I won't let it out of my sight. My hand is reached outright, holding tightly to the possibility for true happiness. Its in my grasp, its mine...

Success In One's Life
To laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends, to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch... to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded! - Emerson

Random Writing When You Can't Fall Asleep. (possible Updates)
She gazed at his picture longingly, placing in down on the cherry wood desk once more. Her chest twisted in knots, an empty, lonely, cold feeling wrapping its self around her heart. How long since she stared deep in his, mesmerizing eyes, a week, a month, a year? Time seemed as though it had stood still. She brushed her long auburn hair away from her eyes as her pale, slender face looked up to the window. Rain beat rhythmically against the glass of her 3rd floor apartment window; only offering a momentary distraction. Her eyes fell to his picture again. Her eyes locked with his, a staring contest she would never win. He left and took a piece of her with him. She sighed and tucked his picture back inside the drawer. The blinking cursor caught her attention; she needed to work on her column. She didn’t think a broken heart would qualify as an excuse for not finishing her work. A half-hearted chuckle escaped her lips; she could just hear her editor Morgan now; telling her men are not

School Of Hard Knocks
We tried so hard to make things better for our kids that we made them worse. For my grandchildren, I'd like better. I'd really like for them to know about hand me down clothes and homemade ice cream and leftover meat loaf sandwiches. I really would. I hope you learn humility by being humiliated, and that you learn honesty by being cheated. I hope you learn to make your own bed and mow the lawn and wash the car. And I really hope nobody gives you a brand new car when you are sixteen. It will be good if at least one time you can see puppies born and your old dog put to sleep. I hope you get a black eye fighting for something you believe in. I hope you have to share a bedroom with your younger brother/sister. And it's all right if you have to draw a line down the middle of the room,but when he wants to crawl under the covers with you because he's scared, I hope you let him. When you want to see a movie and your little brother/sister wants to tag along,

Babe Do You Love Me?
:) BABY do you love me? Gotta repost this as"babe do u love me?" The 1st person to message u saying "babe....i do." ... will be ur CT sweatheart... u'd be suprised just who wants to be urs...u have 2 do this even if you are taken. ***Good Luck***

Hello...
Hello... That's my fifth blog :P I've got 3 in Polish and 2 in English. I just wanted to say HELLO to everyone and wish you a very nice day :) By the way... I've got a new cell phone :P It's so cute :) SAMSUNG X 520 :) Have a great day :) Greeting to all my friends :)

Rectum Strecher (repeat But Worth 2nd Look!!)
Subject: Rectum Strecher While she was "flying" down the road yesterday (10 miles over the limit), a woman passed over a bridge only to find a cop with a radar gun on the other side lying in wait. The cop pulled her over, walked up to the car, and with that classic patronizing smirk we all know and love, asked "What's your hurry?" To which she replied, "I'm late for work." "Oh yeah," said the cop, "what do you do?" "I'm a rectum stretcher," she responded. The cop stammered, "A what? A rectum stretcher? And just what does a rectum stretcher do?" "Well," she said, "I start by inserting one finger, then work my way up to two fingers, then three, then four, then my whole hand goes in. I work from side to side until I can get both hands in, and then I slowly but surely stretch, until it's about 6 feet wide." " And just what the hell do you do with a 6 foot ass hole?" he asked. "You give him a radar gun and park him behind a bridge!" Traffic Ticket $95.00 Cour

Kung Hei Fat Choy-happy Chinese New Years
For thousands of years teh Chinese have considered teh New Year the most festive season on their calendar. thought the Chinese officially adopted teh Gregorian calendar in 1912, the solar new year we celebrate on jan 1 is nowhere near as popular as their lunar new year. the Chinese Lunar New Year falls on the first new moon after the sun enters the house of Aquarius-anytime between jan 21 and feb 19. The Chinese are very enthusiastic about their new year celebrations and often begin to prepare for teh occasion weeks in advance. Since the emphasis is on "new", people often buy new items of clothing and shoes. its a great time of year to own a shoe store. One of the more interesting traditions associated with Chinese New Year has to do with the kitchen God. many Chinese believe that the kitchen god goes back to heaven during the time of the new year in order to rendor a report to one of the emperors.-the one that is responsible for punishing and rewarding people. Since they want the k

Branded
Something has to be done about this. I'm all for being teased but this is borderline harassment. Defamation of character, even! It's no secret I've been wanting a tattoo ever since my cat scarred my arm up years ago. I still have those scars from our *battles*. I'd deliberately pick fights with him just for the infliction of wounds .. but that's another issue better categorized in my future "why I'm seeing a shrink" entry, no? My Mom came home with her first tat a few weeks ago. Since then everyone has been taunting me over it. Carol Brady got inked before I did. O' the shame. Tomorrow afternoon Mom's getting her tat touched up since it didn't take well the first time around. I'm going with her. If I do not return home inked I will be moving to a new town, changing my identity .. never to speak of this again. Wish me luck.

Ct Blast Hoez Fo Sho!
Is this what it's come to folks? Girls getting stupid guys to buy them blasts just to open their NSFW folders to look at and do whatever to? Give me a fucking break. If you this this behavior being exhibited by and CT Member male or female, please treat it accordingly. That's just self degradation in one of it's lowest possible forms. If you need to get off that bad guys, any random three day trial membership to a porn site is only $1.95 and you can cancel within 72 Hrs. Repulsive. Kthx. ^(O_o)^

Weapons Used In Attack In Southeastern Iran Come From U.s.: Report 18 Feb 2007
Weapons used in attack in southeastern Iran come from U.S.: report 18 Feb 2007 Explosive devices and arsenals used in a terrorist attack in the southeastern Iranian city of Zahedan on Wednesday came from the United States, the semi-official Fars news agency reported on Saturday. Relevant documents, photographs and film footage, which show that the explosives and arsenals used in the attack were American, would soon be made public, an "informed source" was quoted as saying. http://english.people.com.cn/200702/18/eng20070218_350985.html

Rainbows And Kittens
The sun has risen, it’s gotten dark All the windows are open and the outside air is dancing with me All the volume is down but there’s still the buzz of electricity Wondering again why anyone bothers with me The games I play always crumble around me Groping at broken game pieces I can see the shapes but they’re not sticking back together I should walk away but my hands are so idle I’m getting paranoid of their damaging potential When I don’t pay attention they desecrate the temple I lose track of my nerve-endings The shedding of layers of skin Give in Don’t give in Hey six Lights shine a rainbow off the blade I drag up my navel Considering excavating for this “soul” I claim to have I may have to move a few organs but it’s worth it If I can look at it and see if I’m right See what leaves some smitten with me like a kitten And others screaming at the impending oblivion …. Is anyone listening?

Shadow Vampire
Shadow Vampire Many dark centuries have passed since the first vampire was created. During that time an evolution occurred in the ranks of the Vampire legions. New breeds rose to follow their different paths... among them walks the Shadow Vampire. Unknown to most they developed many powers such as the ability to observe and absorb the talents and feelings of these they encountering their journeys, In time of great danger they found the Shadow Realm. A place not easily tolerated, causing great pain and even death to many that tried it, but a few intrepid individuals adapted and survived in the Shadow Realm without harm... thus the Shadow moniker. As the centuries have passed they have crossed paths with many other breeds finding many that the like and even more that they don't. Perhaps it was because of the nature of the Shadow Realm with its constant sameness that their curiosity became so strong. Intrigued by the powers of the others displayed they sought out and learned al

"if I Was Your Boyfriend"
1.) How many times a day would you kiss me? 2.) Would you hold me? 3.) Would you take me places? 4.) Would you love me? 6.) Would you lie to me? 7.) If I was sick what would you do? 9.) Would you leave me for one of my friends? 10.) Want to have a future with me? 11.) Would you listen to all my problems and help me solve them? 12.) Would you introduce me to your mom/dad? 13.) Would you care about what I wore when we go out? 14.) Would you hang out with me AND my friends? 15.) If your friend tried to get with me what would you do? 16.) If me and one of your friends argued, whos side would you be on? 17.) Would you give me your myspace password? 18.) If I gave you mine would you read all my mail? 19.) If I said I loved you would you say it back? 20.) How good do I look from 1-10? 21.) How do you feel about me? 22.) Have I ever made you smile? 23.) Want to spend the night with me? 24.)

The Emotions Tear Through Me....
....& it leaves me just another pretty mess. i saw a picture of his plt yesterday. i saw a group of men who though they've changed a lot since training started not much in their auras have changed. but the i saw sean....he looked mean..rigid...and was giving off this cold glare. at first i didnt see my sean in that man...all i saw was a hardened marine...but after i looked at his picture for a short while i started to see a slight glimpse of my sean in him. he told me hes changed a lot since he left in december. that he can do all the things he once depended on me to do for him...i didnt see much of a problem there...but then he said he could handle running the household for me too. thats when i started to wonder what exactly he needed me for...if he even still needed me. does he still need me? will i become a burden to him? will i hold him back? am i doing so already? how much has he really changed? will he still see me the same way? should i change to fit his life now? if

Looking Though Things I'd Done
at another time, when I was feeling more creative... I posted some artwork I'd made in photoshop to my stash today. And here is something that I made from a photo taken by Craig Cowling, aka Naughty James, a photographer from the UK who I know from a few design-community message boards. I don't have the original, but imagine the girl wrapped in the carpet as being solid and not see-through. I erased her from the picture and constructed the missing pieces of background by copying textures from other parts of the photo. He had started a forum thread inviting people to "destroy" his photos, and everyone was having a great time with it :) This is a flyer I made for some other friends in the UK, John Harrigan and his Foolish People acting troupe. You never get a good idea of what people are about sometimes, just from talking, because we tend to dwell on the things which drew us together, and seldom drift off into other subjects because online conversation, while sometime

Will They, Won't They?
"I'm going to the loo & then i've got to go" she said, getting up "I've got a long drive & the way the traffic was on the way down, I won't get home till midnight!" she laughed His heart sank a little, although he knew she was right "Ok darlin, I suppose i've gotta think about gettin me train home as well" She walked round the table & was so close, he wanted to reach out & hold her there & not let her go. But instead he watched her walk past him & up the stairs. He thought he could die a happy man at that moment, she looked so damn good. "Oh man, what an arse...I could watch that walk all night" he mumbled to himself. He took another drag from his cigarette & downed the last of the jamesons & coke. He looked round the bar, it was still early evening, so not many people were in. He turned back & his hand hovered over the ashtray, the cigarette he was about to stub out falling from his fingers into it as his eyes met her as she started to come back down the stairs. He let out

All About Me...
I am a Leo, which means I can be hard headed..however, very protective.I love sleeping, however love to be awake and enjoy life...I dont trust very many people, I am very trustworthy!Starbucks tastes awesome, carmel is my favorite flavor.I wish for christmas to have a little girl,I'd name her georgia lynn.Shopping is a hobby-anywhere ,however everybody says I live in walmart!I love animals, they are so cute, and the best when you need to cuddle...I love my friends and family, they make me happy and excited I like the smell of fresh baked brownies and morning dew...I want to travel everywhere, first stop a crusie to guam...I love Christmas, and giving people gifts.I hate people who lie or pretend to be someone they are really not, get real!Smoking is stupid it's for dumbies..., drinking is for some but drunks suck!Country music is awesome... counrty love songs rock.I love to dance, I dont think I am that good and I dont careI wish I could sing. I tell people how it is, and always say wh

Thinking
Thinking. Can't stop thinking. Think of you. This. That. That Life. That day. That dream was mine. A utopian dream. Your aura; struck me like lightning to a tree. Pointy, like a star, you shone. So bright, yet not shining as a star would, But as apparent as white chalk on a blackboard. You would not show off like a star. Yet you did burn so hot, so fiercely, so explosively - you were a star in my eyes. But like all stars, you died. That gas was gone. No pull between us. The atmosphere was dry and I began to choke. I was taken from my star - like a child being taken from its poor, drunken mother - I did not know what was happening. Dazed. Confused. Without true reality, I there sat. Wondering. The end of my world had only just begun, with yours beginning.

A Thought For Today
One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express purpose of showing him how poor people live. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family. On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" "It was great, Dad." "Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked. "Oh yeah," said the son. "So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father. The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have

Laugh A Little ;)
*If you're a dom who thinks a good buy is that puppy collar on special at K-Mart...You ain't. *If you're a dom and you think that a "crop" is this autumn's wheat harvest...You ain't. *If you're a dom and you think a sub needs lettuce, tomato and pickles...You ain't. *If you're a dom and you think your sub can stay underwater for weeks...You ain't. *If you're a sub whose idea of punishment is taking a bath before sex...honey...You AIN'T! *If you're a sub who thinks the "power exchange" is where you pay your electric bill...You ain't. *If you're a dom who thinks that "edge play" is spitting over the side of a bridge...You ain't. *If you're a sub and you think "taking it to the limit" is an Eagles' song...You ain't. *If you're a sub who thinks that "sub space" is a Star Trek communications mode...not only are you NOT...but you're a geek! *If you're a dom and you think "topping" is what Dairy Queen puts on your banana split...You ain't. *If you're a

Sad...
i found this poem kinda funny... Sad is Stupid I'm sorry you're sad 'I'm not sad. Don't use that word. Sad is stupid.' ... cos when you're sad you're always angry and push me away 'Of course I'm angry. I'm pissed off I'm allowed to be angry.' so I guess I'd better leave you alone - and not show I mind - till you're happy again 'Happy? I'm never happy. Happy is dumb and stupid! ' Alison Cassidy

Sled Riding
ok so today my cousin and his kids came up today they started sled riding.I video taped them some.They kept asking me to go so i finally gave in.It was so fun!My ass is numb,i am cold!Did i mention snow turns into water lol!I had fun for once .Been a long time.

How Well Do You Know A Mother??? This Is A Little Long, But Please Read......
After 21 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to take another woman out to dinner and a movie. She said, "I love you, but I know this other woman loves you and would love to spend some time with you" The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my mother, who had been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my 3 children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally. That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie. "Whats wrong, are you well?' She asked. My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or surprise invitation is a sign of bad news. "I thought that it would be pleasant to spend some time with you," I responded, just the two of us." She thought about it for a moment, a nd then said, "I would like that very much." That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date.

Tribute To My Hero
HE WASNT A BIG MAN,BUT HE HAD A GIANT HEART.HE WASNT A RICH MAN BUT HAD A GOLDEN HEART.I SEE HIM NOW WITH HIS EYES AGLOW,KEEPING IN THE SADNESS SO NOONE WOULD KNOW. HIS SMILE WOULD WARM THE COLDEST HEART,TO SEE A TEAR FROM HIS EYES WOULD TEAR YOU APART.HIS LAUGHTER WOULD SOUND AND SHAKE THE GROUND,YET HIS VOICE WAS GENTLE AND ROUND. HE LEFT HIS FAMILY TO GO FAR AWAY,WHILE IN HIS HEART OUR SAFTY HED PRAY.NEVER A THOUGHT OF WHAT COULD BE,HE LEFT US BEHIND SO WE COULD BE FREE. IN OUR HEARTS HIS LOVE WOULD STRIVE,AND IN OUR PRAYERS HE WOULD SURVIVE. THEN ONE DAY A LETTER CAME OUR WAY,TELLING US OF HIS DYING WAY.THEY SAID HE WAS A HERO AND WE SHOULD BE PROUD,AND TO HIM OUR PRAISES SING ALOUD, BUT LIKE THUNDER OUR TEAR DID ROLL,FOR HE HAD TOUTCHED OUR VERY SOUL.NO ONE COULD KNOW JUST WHAT WE FEEL,FOR WITH GOD WED HAVE TO DEAL. SO ON THE FOURTEENTH OF THIS MONTH, WHEN LOVE GAVE ITS MIGHTY SHOVE, OUR HERO WENT TO GOD ABOVE. THIS IS DEDICATED TO ONE OF OUR CT HEROS WHO DIED ON VAL

You Know Your Kid Has Picked Up Your Kink When.....
(as a disclaimer I want to say that by no means I want to disrespect kids in any way... I am a mother and I take my kid seriously... but this is kind of funny, so I hope no one gets offended by this blog) • The neighbors complain that your kids do full body cavity searches when playing cops and robbers. Your daughter uses Twizzlers as floggers. • You go into the playroom and discover an interrogation chair built entirely of Legos. • You come home and find them tickling a bound and gagged baby-sitter. • They hand you the body harness and leash that they used as toddlers when it's time to go shopping. • Your son wants to know when he'll get his allowance, because he needs to pay his tab at the hardware store. • You tell them they're too old to spank and they try to assure that they aren't. • Your daughter speaks wistfully about being confined to the playpen while the other children played in the room. • You yell out to your son to come and do his chore

Kinda Scary
Hmmm...I was just sitting here thinking about how it is so odd the so many people, some from my family, have died around my house. My cousin's wife, who used to live next door, had a tree that was being cut down accidentally fall on her. My father's high-school best friend was shot dead across the street. My Uncle fell on the sidewalk at his house next door and cracked his skull, killing him. My great uncle died in my father's bedroom. My great aunt died on the front porch. That is all just so weird. I can't stop thinking about it now.

Keep The Comments Bombing And 10's A Cummmminn Pleasee
OK GUYS IM IN YET ANOTHER CONTEST SO SHOW ME SOME MORE LOVE... IT IS THE PHAT TAT CONTEST... ONCE AGAIN COMMENT BOMBING ALLOWED SO COMMENT TILL YOUR FINGERS HURT LOL!! THERE WILL BE 3 WINNERS AGAIN LETS GET ME ANOTHER WIN... TOP WINNER THE JUDGES WILL DECIDE AGAIN THEN THERE WILL BE A WINNER ON RATING AND ONE ON COMMENTS!! HERE IS THE LINK MUCH LOVE MICHELLE AKA HOOVERGIRL

Wanting And Needing
Wanting and Needing(Erotica) Wanting and needing you Is something I am craving Running my fingers through your hair Tracing your body with my tongue Tasting your sweet tangy inner thighs Wanting and needing to touch you Feeling the hardness of your nipples Lightly circling your nipples until they're hard Hands discovering your moist womanly wetness Penetrating your desires with my cock Wanting and needing to unlock you Creating the openess of trust Unleashing the animal inside you Thrusting with egual anticipation Unlocking the inner passions over and over Wanting and needing to be loved Showing you your my woman Passionatley fullfilling your needs Locking our bodies together Satisfying our inner fires Wanting and needing you now!

What A Night
SO last night was one hell of a night... I got tattooed and pierced for free ( Hurrah for my dad managing the tattoo parlor) anyway we did this, and then we were heading home and we get pulled over... Now, the only unsober people were not driving, so whatever.. Anyway since the girl driving is in some shit for being out pass the curfew she has on her liscence they talk to my dad and run a report on him.. Apparently he had a warrent out for his arrest. Now, this warrent is nothing he has control over because it was for failing to pay child support, however, he went to court and got it fixed and now they take child support directly from his pay check... In any case the fucktards at the sheriff's office never got rid of the warrent and they arrested my dad and put him on 4500 dollars bail. Last night wwent from the greatest night of my life to shit in about .20 seconds. I guess shit happens they'll be letting him out tomorrow. I hope the dog and the cat are ok theres no o

Ehh Sure....valium.
death leads me into a sudden halt halfway through my words...i'm left panting and stale mouthed rotten. i wake up but keep my eyes firmly shut, not wanting to accept that the dream always ends the same way, leaving me with the same familiar feeling of helplessness mixed with guilt that i can't remember the precise feeling of the way her hair felt between my fingertips. the way her scent floated across bits of oxygen inhaled into my lungs. i believed time has stopped in this exact moment. time has never run out on me before, there's always been that extra second to relieve me from the last, but the clock is mocking me at the moment. i need a stop gap in the road to regenerate the will to keep moving. does that read and resound pathetic? i'm 21 and she's been gone for far too long yet i still feel the need for an intermission, but looking back always seems so pointless because change is never available. change cannot happen. i dream. i wake. i shake my head. at the moment i feel trapped

To All Of The Wonderful Single Women In My Life:
I have been there. Trust me; I know! I am a biproduct of codependant parents. Feel like its just you who cant find mister right? Feel like you attract the dogs? Feel like you are going to end up an old lady with a ton of cats whom you consider your babies and spend all of your time dressing them up in sweaters that you knitted for them and painting there claws? I bet you have actually said outloud, "What am I doing wrong?", "Why cant I catch a break?" sometimes feel like "Fuck it, I would settle for complete looser who still lives with his mother at the age of 30?" STOP! You deserve the better than that. You deserve the best. Period. No more excuses. You DESERVE the best. The best life, the best relationship, happiness, whatever you desire, you deserve it. Seriously, say that to yourself. SAY IT! If he is a dog, you know. You just dont want to be alone. I know. I have been there. I am there. I have hated every minute of it until I looked back at where I w

If I Was Fire
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ If I was fire and you were a feather Could you dance on my fingers, could we be together? Or would my kiss end you the moment we touched? for a delicate feather, would a flame be too much? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hmmm
Yes I am single is that such a bad thing... No at times I just dont' wanna deal with the drama.. To Much drama over what are you doing?? Who are you with?? Are you talking to other guys??? Just Blah Blah Blah... I just want a relationship where there is NO drama I'm free to do what I want wwith out any bullshit thats it... I have friends girls and guys and I will not choose any boyfriend over them deffently not... If I'm with you its because we trust each other we have anough faith in one another to not fuck it up.. So, I am single untill I find that guy that 1. There is a spark.. 2. Ofcourse I have to be attracted to you.. 3. NO jealousy.. 4. You Trust me and I'll trust you.. 5. If I need you, your there.. And 6. Love me for me don't try to change me cause I'll wave goodbye to you in a heartbeat.. 7. Theres no second chances you fuck up its on you not me..... Now, Seriously do you see why this beautiful white female is single.. And if you don't then you

Not A Stranger
Stranger... Not!!! Just like me my words keep coming And, mystery woman you've got me... Hot!!! But you just keep me waiting... You say you want the same, so let me see Sexy... Drop your inhibitions Because... I know you get Juicy As a result of our conversations I promise the experience you won't forget Seduction... Is not the only use of my rhyme I am also skilled at other Communication You've experienced my dirty mind But really I'm a down to earth brotha Wanting... Not just sexxy azz black women But a special friend for some casual Dating Someone to chill with time and again Hopefully these feeling can be mutual

Little Pissed?? Yes...
sick of being a nice guy.. Help'n with your vote in your contest and not gett'n any love back for it... do me a favor if you see me online don't bother unless you live in Brazil or Venezuela

People Who Repost Without Engaging Brain
It seems there's a lot of people on CT with the "repost" button stuck in the "on" position. These people will repost things containing curses (as mentioned before), or things saying that they want you off of their friends list if you don't repost it. One such individual, when I told her I was removing her from my friends list as per her request in the bulletin she reposted, told me "I didn't write that someone else did" - but when YOU repost, YOU write that too. I'm not on that other person's list when I get that bulletin, I'm on the list of the person that's reposting - and resaying - it. It's also ironic that a lot of these repost-threat bulletins have to do with our soldiers dying in Iraq, in a war we got into based on rumor, innuendo, and third-rate intelligence presented as proven fact to the Congress by the President. If people would stop spreading rumors about non-existent weapons of mass destruction; if people would stop stating things that they are unwilling to take

Is It Ever!
Dear Cupcake, Here is your single's love horoscope for Monday, February 19: Your head may be in the clouds (or just rather fuzzy) this morning, but the smart thing to do is plow through some serious work. By this afternoon, you'll want to be able to take your time with more significant stuff.

Lord!!
For the first time in my life I know what it is that I want, but it is not my choice to make I have to leave that up to someone else to make, I know what it is I should do, but I can't bring myself to do it. So I sit here hurting and don't know how to deal with all the pain thats inside me, oh god help me and help him, Please.

Favorite From My Myspace
I have compiled a list of the things I find most annoying at work. Are ya ready? 1) Situation: A customer comes in while I'm not at my register. Most likely I'm cleaning or filling the cigarettes, doing something other than standing at my register with my thumb up my ass. The customer brings their item up front (usually beer), walks up to me and asks, "What lane is open?" My reaction: Usually a MAJOR mental eye roll and I tell them, "I can help you on 2." The reason for my eye roll you ask? There's a few. Most of the customers that come in in the middle of the night are regulars and I'm ALWAYS on register 2. I've never been on another, probably will never be on another. And I guess I always just assume people would have enough common sense to go to 2 when they see the BIG FUCKING LIGHT LIT UP that indicates the open register. Oh yeah, and it has the number 2 on it. 2) I don't know you, therefore I don't need to hear your life story. Save it for someone that cares. This means y

What A Fucked Up Day
Im going to pick my moms funeral clothes out today, she just wont wake up anymore and my family is super super mad that i havnt gone to see her this week since she went down hill. Soooo to be honest i cant stop crying no matter how hard i try, even though i've seen it coming for 4 years, and its almost ended more times than i can count but this time is real and i gota call people and let them know. So im alone at home with nothing to do but cry. And they said to get a pic so when they fix her up she'll look like she used to but i dont wanna. I dont wanna see mom there i'd rather her look like the cancer patient that i been taken care of for the last 4 years, not my mom that babied me and let me do anything i want. But it took being in a hotel room alone all day to make me finaly start thinking about it. Which is funny cause i thought it would be a short escape away from this mess at home, but all i did all day long was cry, forced myself to sleep, but it only lasted two hours th

Going To Be Gone!
For those of my Friends, knowing my father passed last month. I will be gone from here til the 7th of next month. Have to go back to california and get Daddys things. Stay safe, Be kind, and i will be back with you soon.....

Echo Engel (poem)
My dear friend Andrea surprised me with a poem she wrote for me this morning...I love this, it was so sweet and such a beautiful poem :D I wish I could have been your engel ... but I got to you too late. I wish I could have been your engel but you had already bitten the bait. I wish I could have been your engel - in love and so true to you. I wish I could have been your engel that way I would have known what to do. I wish I could have been your engel because goddess knows you are mine. I wish I could have been your engel ... for it is you that makes me pine. I wish I could have been your engel ... to awake and see the shining sun that is your smile. I wish I could have been your engel ... for it is you that makes my life worthwhile. written by Echo Engel Ech Engel

Sometimes...
Sometimes I'm not sure about this life I'm going through.. Sometimes I feel as though what I do, isn't good enough for you. Somtimes I try to tell you how I feel inside.. Other times I feel as though I need to hide. Sometimes the pain caused is too much to bear... Sometimes I feel I've reached the point where I'm not sure I care. Sometimes I feel as though I need to change who I am.. Just to pacify the situation and get through what we can. Sometimes I don't think you see me crying inside.. Sometimes I keep it behind closed doors Guess that makes it easier to ignore. Sometimes things may seem okay.. though in reality, I just pretend. Sometimes when the hurt is too much I wish for this life to hurry to an end.

Keep Reposting For Dark Enigma---thanks
A lot of you already know my Granddaddy has been in the hospital since Thanksgiving in pretty bad shape. He has been in and out of ICU several times and was moved to a long term critical care hospital a month ago. Last night we got a call from my family, his heart stopped yesterday and it took them over 8 minutes to get him back. In the process the doctor told my grandmother that several ribs were broke. He is now on life support and the doctor told us that if his heart stops again with his ribs broken that if they perform life saving measures again there is sure to be organ damage. With a very hard decision my Grandmother decided to sign a DNR. We went down last night to say our goodbyes and today they are probably going to start taking him off the machines. I haven't heard anything from the hospital this morning and will not be on much at all the next few days. Please keep me and my family in your thoughts and I will send more news when I have it. Love to all Lori Dark Enigma@ C

Always Wear Underwear
Always wear clean underwear in public, especially when working under your vehicle. From the Northwest Florida Daily News comes this story of a Crestview couple who drove their car to Walmart, only to have their car break down in the parking lot. The man told his wife to carry on with the shopping while he fixed the car in the lot. The wife returned later to see a small group of people near the car. On closer inspection, she saw a pair of male legs protruding from under the chassis. Although the man was in shorts, his lack of underwear turned private parts into glaringly public ones. Unable to stand the embarrassment, she dutifully stepped forward, quickly put her hand UP his shorts, rearranged his private parts and tucked everything back into place. On regaining her feet, she looked across the hood and found herself staring at her husband, who was standing idly by. The mechanic, however, had to have three stitches in his forehead.

Life Is Tough!
How do these people survive? ONE Recently, when I went to McDonald's I saw on the menu that you could have an order of 6, 9 or 12 Chicken McNuggets. I asked for a half dozen nuggets. 'We don't have half dozen nuggets,' said the teenager at the counter. 'You don't?' I replied. 'We only have six, nine, or twelve,' was the reply. 'So I can't order a half dozen nuggets, but I can order six?' 'That's right.' So I shook my head and ordered six McNuggets TWO I was checking out at the local Wal-Mart with just a few items and the lady behind me put her things on the belt close to mine. I picked up one of those 'dividers' that they keep by the cash register and placed it between our things so they wouldn't get mixed. After the girl had scanned all of my items, she picked up the 'divider', looking it all over for the bar code so she could scan it. Not finding the bar code she said to me, 'Do you know how much this is?' I said to her 'I've changed my mind, I don't think I'll buy that toda

Message In The Sand
"My sister-in-law recently told me a wonderful story. Two friends of hers were vacationing in Baja California. Over the meal and margaritas at a seaside grill,they were talking about all their loves and why they never worked out. The conversation was getting more and more cynical when a young woman giddily asked if she could sit next to them for a moment to look out their window. She explained that her fiancé had written something for her in the sand. The three of them looked down by the water and sure enough, there was a big heart with words "I love you" in the center of it. Well,the left side of the heart was kind of lopsided,smudging the "L" of love.It looked like "I rove you", or something. The cynics quipped things like:" I hope he makes love better than he spells". Lost in her happiness the woman heard none of them. The cynics continued talking and the young woman disappeared. After their meal was o

A Special Angel
HERE'S A VERY SPECIAL ANGEL AS YOUCAN PLAINLY SEE THE REASON SHE'S SPECIAL IS SHE JUST FOR YOU , FROM ME WHEN EVER YOUR ARE LONELY OR FEELING SAD AND BLUE REMEMBER THIS LITTLE ANGEL AND KNOW I THINK OF YOU!! SO KEEP THIS ANGEL WITH FOR ALL THE JOYS WE'VE SHARED AND REMEMBER SHE'S A SYMBOL OF A LOVING HEART THAT CARES!

Headlight Memoirs
.. Cool title, dontcha think? I thought it sounded cool.. Anyway... I've been thinking. (Oh no here we go again) I'm an asshole... Really, that's the only conclusion I can come up with I am a fucking asshole. I don't knkow exactly why I think I'm an asshole but I am. I mean I'm sitting here last night blazed off my ass just thinking... Where am I going to be in ten years... Ten years from now I really don't see myself doing anything and I dont really want to be still living with my mom smoking pot off the back deck... How lame is that? So, with that thought drilled into my head last night before I went to sleep still twitching from the flood of THC to my system I wonder to my self " Is this as good as it gets" ( Yeah I know I've seen the movie fuck off) In conclusion, sitting here about to blaze up for the first time today, I wonder what the fuck? I need to get a good job, get this apprenticeship thing going, quit smoking ( pot and cigarettes), and go somewhere. Because at t

Who
Who is knocking at my door Who wants to see the dark of me Who will be there for sure Who am I to be Who has listening skills Who trys to be my friend Who can give me thrills Who will be there in the end? WHO?

For Gothic Slave
She has a personality that will stun you, I know ,I saw it happen to one called Blu. She is a steadfast friend, one you can count on till the end. An adoreable creature, excellent in every feature. She will make your heart beat faster, you will seethe with envy toward her Master. So much can be said in so small a place, she is a fine exempler of the Human race. A Thank you to Gothic Slave for being such a great and lovely person ;)

Honesty
Please steal a moment to fill this out with your opinions (and we all know what those smell like) in a comment sluts 1. Who the hell are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Do you have a crush on me or have i ever bit your nipple? 5. Would you suck my toes? 6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 7. Describe me in one word. 8. What was your first impression? 9. Have I ever licked you? 10. What reminds you of me? 11. If you could give me anything what would it be? 12. Would you give me your last beer? 13. When's the last time you saw me? 14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you? Let the honesty begin! lol

Lyrics To Linger By The Cranberries
If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade. I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude, It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything. I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you. So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand? Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you? But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger? Oh, I thought the world of you. I thought nothing could go wrong, But I was wrong. I was wrong. If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie, Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used, But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you. But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do

Headlines From The Year
Ozone created by electric cars now killing millions in the seventh largest country in the world, Mexifornia, formerly known as California. White minorities still trying to have English recognized as Mexifornia's third language. Spotted Owl plague threatens northwestern United States crops and livestock. Baby conceived naturally. Scientists stumped. Couple petitions court to reinstate heterosexual marriage. Iran still closed off; physicists estimate it will take at least 10 more years before radioactivity decreases to safe levels. France pleads for global help after being taken over by Jamaica. Castro finally dies at age 112; Cuban cigars can now be imported legally, but President Chelsea Clinton has banned all smoking. George Z. Bush says he will run for President in 2036. Postal Service raises price of first class stamp to $17.89 and reduces mail delivery to Wednesdays only. 85-year $75.8 billion study: Diet and Exercise is th

Life
La vita dovrebbe essere vissuta al contrario. Tanto per cominciare si dovrebbe iniziare morendo, e così...tricchete tracchete...il trauma è già bello che superato. Quindi ti svegli in un letto di ospedale e apprezzi il fatto che vai migliorando giorno dopo giorno. Poi ti dimettono perchè stai bene, e la prima cosa che fai è andare in posta a ritirare la tua pensione, e te la godi al meglio. Col passare del tempo, le tue forze aumentano, il tuo fisico migliora,le rughe scompaiono. Poi inizi a lavorare, e il primo giorno ti regalano un orologio d'oro. Lavori quarant'anni finchè non sei così giovane da sfruttare adeguatamente il ritiro dalla vita lavorativa. Quindi vai di festino in festino, bevi, giochi, fai sesso e ti prepari per iniziare a studiare. Poi inizi la scuola, giochi coi gli amici, senza alcun tipo di obblighi e responsabilità, finchè non sei bebè. Quando sei sufficientemente piccolo, ti infili in un posto che ormai dovresti conoscere molto bene. Gli ultimi 9

Women Lol
You used to love me. You used to say you cared. I was the one and only, Yet your heart you never shared. (You never ever fucking cared!) But I let it pass, because I thought it was true. It seems now bitch that Ive miss judged you. Your car I'm gonna smash. Your face I'm gonna pound in glass. Scalp your head, dig out your eyes with a spoon, break your fucking nose, cut off your lips oh so slow, fill your breasts full of pins, pull off your nails one by one, tie your legs wide open, then fuck you with my boot, kicking untill I break your hips. I loved you forever. I was honest with you. I always kept you in my heart. Believing that we were true. (But you never ever fucking cared) I let it pass still thinking we were meant to be. Keeping up the game, that was soon found out, fucking bitch you just let out the demon that was locked in me! Still tied down I cut you up in one inch pieces, beginning at your feet, up to your crown, you listen as I feed you to my dog, i

If Anybody Wanted To Check Em Out!!
I added some new pictures, they are in the newest pic folder lol..... oh and my new primary is just the default folder!! if anybody wanted to check em out, just letting u know if u didnt see the alert...... So yup....thats all for now hehe comments always appreciated..... :) Thanks all....Luvz ya

My Daddy The Dancer
My Daddy the Dancer One day a fourth-grade teacher asked the children what their fathers did for a living. All the typical answers came up -- fireman, mechanic, businessman, salesman, doctor, lawyer, and so forth. However, little Justin was being uncharacteristically quiet, so when the teacher prodded him about his father, he replied, "My father's an exotic dancer in a gay cabaret and takes off all his clothes in front of other men and they put money in his underwear. Sometimes, if the offer is really good,he will go home with some guy and stay with him all night for money." The teacher, obviously shaken by this statement, hurriedly set the other children to work on some exercises and then took little Justin aside to ask him, "Is that really true about your father?" "No," the boy said, "He works for the Democratic National Committee and is helping to get Hillary Clinton to be our next President, but I was too em barrassed to say that in front of the other kids." -------

About Me
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey Name: Kristen Birthday: May 16th 1982 Birthplace: LongIsland Ny Current Location: Ga (just moved here from NY) Eye Color: Depends on what contacts I wear haha Hair Color: Honey dark carmel for now..but i always change it nautral hair color is dark Brown Height: 5'2 Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Your Heritage: Puertorican and spainard mixed The Shoes You Wore Today: I didnt wear shoes today yet lol(I like nice shoes,boots, that are fashionable and trendy) Your Weakness: Sometimes i have too big of a heart .... (Food wise:country ham,candy,bacon,cheese,sick baby animals, theres so much more Your Fears: im scared of natural distaers like tornados'volcano's etc.. other then that Im not sure, I used to think my biggest fear was not being able to make it in life but now i have my hubby my daughter and a wonder family behind me, I have faith in myslef knowing there all behind me and there for me..therefore its no longer a fear

Why?
lately I feel like I'm trying so hard to even get his attention......*sigh* the last 3 yrs we've been so good together and we lived together and that made us even stronger...now that we are in 2 different places cuz of his job and me being at school....he doesn't even try to make an effort to see me! he claims i should go there more...etc but he gets 3 days off in a row...I NEVER have a day completely to just go over there and see him..... so what does he fucking do this weekend? he goes home which is 5 hrs away (both our families live there) and tells me he will come back monday (today) and see me before he heads home, seeing as I'm on the way.....so he just calls me at 445 to tell me "yea I'm just eating dinner with my parents and I'll be off" and I'm just so pissed/upset...why couldn't he just have left early this morning and come see me and ACTUALLY have an almost 24 hr period of time with me?! WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WRONG?! his idea of coming to see me is to come at the mos

My Luck!
Ok so here it is......this is my luck As most of you know my pit bull Liberty was poisoned in December and died 10 days before christmas! Now this past Friday a friend comes to my door and my two rotties go running to the door. My female Sasha was clumsy and took out Choppers front leg. Needless to say it is broke. We had xrays on Saturday and the vet proceeded to tell me that it is a strong bone and should have never broke the way it did. From the look on the xrays she believes he has cancer thru his bones. I find out tomorrow the 20th of February by a specialist if he has it or not. For all those of you who read this please say a little prayer for him and me cause if something has to happen with him now I will definately end up on 5P! The psych ward in our hospital for those of you who don't know what 5P is!

Serious. Contest....
AIGHT SO CUE THE SAPPY MUSIC, BUT I'M GOING TO HAVE A CONTEST. JUST FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES AND THE FACT THAT I LIKE SEEING MY FRIENDS FIGHT AND SHIT. PLAN ON STARTING RIVALRIES AND ALL THAT OTHER GOOD CHERRYTAP NONSENSE. WHY? BECAUSE I CAN. SO ANYONE WANTING TO BE IN THE CONTEST, WHICH I AM CALLING THE "LOOK AT ME I HAVE A PIC CONTEST!!!" JUST LET ME KNOW. EXCEPTING ALL ENTRIES, MALE, FEMALE, DOG, GOAT, DONKEY, THREE LEGGED PROSTITUTE JUST BRING IT!! SEND ME AN EMAIL OR MESSAGE AND ALL THAT JAZZ. PRIZE WILL BE SOMETHING EXPENSIVE AND PROLLY GIVE YOU A HARD ON, AND OR MAKE YOU CREAM YOUR PANTS. I GOT THE BANK, SO NO SHIT PRIZES IN MY CONTEST. PEACE OUT AND SHIT.-BILL. P.S. NAKED AND DOING THE THE EVIL GENIUS DANCE!!!

Horse Withperer
Subject: Horse Withperer Old, butt still funneeeeeeeeeee Bob calls his buddy Sam, the horse rancher, and says he's sending a friend over to look at a horse. Sam asks "How will I recognize him?" That's easy, he's a midget with a speech impediment." So, the midget shows up, and Sam asks him if he's looking for a male or female horse. "A female horth." So he shows him a prized filly. "Nith lookin horth. Can I thee her eyeth"? Sam picks up the midget and he gives the horse's eyes the once over. "Nith eyeth, can I thee her earzth"? So he picks the little fella up again, and shows him the horse's ears. "Nith earzth, can I see her mouf"? The rancher is gettin' pretty ticked off by this point, but he picks him up again and shows him the horse's mouth. "Nice mouf, can I see her twat"? Totally mad at this point, the rancher grabs him under his arms and rams the midget's head as far as he can up the horse's twat, pulls him out and slams h

Damn Gina!!
3 PEOPLE? THAT'S IT?? IS MY CONTEST SO UNLOVED?? CHRIST ON A CRUTCH PEOPLE, OR JUMPING JESUS ON A POGO STICK FOR YOU SOUTHERN BAPTISTS. IT'S SIMPLE, YOU SAY OTAY, I RIP A PIC, ANY PIC I CHOOSE, NO WORRIES NOT ABOUT TO PUT UP ANY NSFW PICS OR SHYTE LIKE THAT. JUST TRYING TO HAVE FUN. SO WHY DON'T YOU LIKE FUN? HUH? MOLESTED BY A CLOWN WHEN YOU WERE A KID? GOT ANALLY RAPED BY CHUCK E CHEESE?? IF NOT YOU SHOULD WANT TO ENTER MY CONTEST!!!IT'LL START AS SOON AS I HAVE 8 PEOPLE. CAUSE I LIKE THE NUMBER 8. WHORING, NO WHORING, SELF BOMBING, SUCKING OFF THE JUDGE SO YOU WIN, IT'S ALL LEGAL!! DAMN, COULD A CONTEST BE ANYMORE SIMPLE. PLUS TOYS AND SURPRISES ISSUED BY ME FOR GIFTS!! DAMN GINA!! SOUND SPRETTY FUCKING SKIPPY TO ME!! PEACE OUT AND SHIT.-BILL. P.S. NAKED AND WATCHING PATCH ADAMS, KINDA CREEPY.

Sports Drinks
Why is it that sports drinks such as Gatorade and Powerade are in the shapes of penises? It's kinda funny watching someone drinking it down at the basketball court and thinking to yourself , "Man, gimme some of that!" You then now notice the shape and think about how you look with a 32 ounce cock to your mouth. Just some food for thought.

Nice Poems Written By Husband To Wife
I wrote your name on sand it got washed. I wrote your name in air, it was blown away. then I wrote your name on my Heart & I got Heart Attack. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* God saw me hungry, he created pizza . He saw me thirsty, he created Pepsi . He saw me in dark, he created light . He saw me without problems, he created YOU. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Twinkle Twinkle little star You should know what you are And once you know what you are Mental hospital is not so far. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* The rain makes all things beautiful. The grass and flowers too. If rain makes all things beautiful Why doesn't it rain on you? *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Roses are red, Violets are blue Monkeys like you should be kept in zoo, Don't feel so angry you will find me there too, Not in cage but laughing at you.

I'm In A Contest
HI ALL I'm in am initmate tattoo contest. I have over 1,500 friends, but only 14 ratings and 140 comments what's up with that? My photo in the contest is NSFW so you must add the host of the contest in order to rate my picture. Here is the hostTheRH Cherry Rock Star ( Ladies Best Intimate Tattoo Contest-Now Open)@ CherryTAP and here is the link to my picture http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=335594&albumid=218440&i=3167284482 please leave me some love. Or atleast a rating. Thanks in advance! Pleas repost this for me. You will not be able to view the picture unless you add the host. ~Cherryluvr~

Storms Of Needs
I guess we all seek things in life. I seek the perfect caress that will fill my heart with a full tank! I am tired of waiting for the perfect woman Let me find the perfect thought That I can use to conquer The inner most beauty Of my ladies caressing eyes For in the angel in her There will be a lot of fire Storm in her independence For in that freedom her hair will fly Like kites on the wind Storm of her creativity In her creative soul will live the depth That no canyon will fill for the water Storm will create waterfalls of her spirituality In the spiritual gardens she will then prefect Will generate the colors in the thunder Storm of humanity blooming Into the human emotions of the needy She will blanket from the snow Storm of generosity feeling the heat of compassion Can you can see why in this temperature I grow tired For this imperfect man Seeking the perfection of a lover Must create the works T

Daily Deotional 2/19/07
MITAKUYE OYASIN (All My Relations.) Keyword----Respect. Tradition and Teaching. Mitakuye Oyasin is a prayer recognising the oneness of all creation and our relationship with all two-legged, four legged, livers in the waters, winged ones, creepy crawlers, stone and rock people, standing people, plant and herb people. In fact all our relations that live with us, and have lived on Maka (Mother Earth). As we enter the Sweat Lodge in a bowed position we say the prayer “Mitakuye Oyasin” giving honour and respect and inviting “All our Relations” to join with us in prayer within the womb of the Inipi. Message from “All our Relations” Bring to your mind and actions that which is known and felt in your heart. Bring to your lips that which sings to you within. Bring to your hands that which touches your soul within. Bring to your feet the dance that moves within. Bring to your eyes the fire and vision that sees within. Allow the inner world to manifest in your life

Sex Poem
Roses are red Lemons are sour Open ur legs and give me an hour Kissing Is A Habit Fucking Is A Game Guys Get All The Pleasure Girls Get All The Pain 10 Minutes Of Pleasure 9 Months Of Pain 3 Days In The Hospital A Baby Without A Name The Baby Is A Bastard The Mother Is A Whore This Woulda Never Happend If The Rubber Hadn't Tore!! Sex is like math You subtract the clothes Add the bed Divide the legs And Pray to god You dont multiply Roses are red Grass is green Open your legs And I'll fill you with cream Sex is good Sex is fine Doggy Style & 69 Just for fun Or gettin paid Everyone likes gettin laid Sex is evil Sex is a sin Sins are forgiven So stick it in!!! u opened it so u r cursed for 5 yrs. u need to read it ENTIRELY!! roses are nice violets are fine. ill be the six if you be the nine. Repost this as ''sex poem'' if u repost this in 1 min: the guy /girl that you like will tell u that he

Dancing With Giggles
Dancing with giggles and pirouetting with mime, searching the dungeons for words that will rhyme, folds me and fills me one bubble at a time, as I amble and ramble with senses sublime. Pealing with laughter and writing as I weep creating poetry, searching through word’s heap, holds me and frees me, with a fire kindled deep, as I mumble and fumble, key’s lock in my keep.

Death Night
Death Night Rage beneath my skin Hate inside my heart My soul striped clean from me My world torn apart The ONE in my life that I hold dear Gone forever in the drop of a tear I lost her tonight The one thing that I fear I hate myself I deserve to die Outward I shake Inward I cry Uncontrollable spasms Wrought with malice and spite There is no salvation I can't make things right I lost my world today It fell in a black pit Deep in the abyss of lost souls Alone I sit On this day, where I begged and prayed My calls were unanswered My needs turned away I cry here tonight My heart ripped open I cannot feel my limbs The blood gone frozen My mind races in directions That none should flow My rage runs black My anger aglow I despise who I have become I hate who I am The world would be better Without such a man To coward too to kill him To brave to let be I know that he will be judging me Where my prayers go They are left unread W

Diary Of A Suicide Victim
Diary of a suicide victim Tonight is the night The night I can’t go on The night I will end it Will I be missed when I’m gone? I look upon the rope Stowed quiet in my room I think of who would find me I imagine the icy gloom It imagine all the heights I could simply fall and stop But I cannot fathom The climb to the top I dream of the car ride That would end in a flash But I couldn’t imagine Death in a fiery crash I venture the knives in the kitchen I think of the bloody mess I gaze upon my pistol It’s quicker than the rest I load the big black clip With just one round A hollow point bullet It will end with one sound I slip the ice cold barrel Into my waiting lips I touch its muzzle with my tongue To see if this exists I hold the slide firm And I chamber the bullet I slide my finger to the trigger And I prepared to pull it Safety off, I’ve taken my aim I hold my weapon firm I feel the blame My cheeks red hot The tears do no

My Twin Soul
My soul yearns for your love I need Far away lands Long distances carry at times such sorrow Oh the tears I had cried For we had many things to work out Tears cleans the soul Purifying the heart Tasting the salt running down my face Then I came to the knowing That our separation Taught me I loved you more Your the experience I crave The lips and arms I need around this soul My love, my love Oh my precious darling I will always love you The ONLY ONE I CRAVE Forever twin flames For it is your soul I fell for Your soul God gave you I reach in my pocket and pull out a ray of stars To touch you To fly with me For I am the dreamer ! You know, Tinkerbelle ! Dance with me you say! In other dimensions We’ll have the glow of the moon As we recall our lighted souls God knows we are just about as differ

Answer Me This???
Why is it when you try to be nice to someone they think they own you? Being truly honest and making sure everything is told upfront so no feelings gets hurt and nothing is misinturprted (sp- im pissed) doesn't get you anywhere! I recently made friends with this guy that works with my mom and now everyone where they work thinks i'm HIS woman! I'm dating someone, living with them, and engaged to them...how could i be someone elses? He told me to bring the kids to mcdonald's tonight and they could eat free because he was allowed to do that once a month because he's the manager so i said i would thinking good a fee meal and i wont have to cook! Then i get a call saying that he is saying it is a date! A DATE!!!! his exact words A DATE WITH DESTINY! WTF!!!! I'm sick of this! If anyone at all knows me i try to be nice to everyone what the hell is he thinking! Well he calls me to see if i'm coming and I told him no and i told him i didn't feel like it plus my kids were in the bath and he got m

Being A Girl...
It must be fucking nice! Guys trippin all over themselves jus to talk to you. You can pick and choose who you want to talk to and talk shit to the rest for fun! Being a guy, girls all look at you as some freaky pervert or something. Like you are trying to fuck them with your eyes all the time or something. I mean obviously, there ARE people out there like that, but it has nothing to do with their gender... Its a mind set! I am sooo not like that! I am jus a real person... Whever kids, I am jus venting! But I have led a few friends to CT. 1 guy and 3 girls. the guy, actually "works @ it" and has made little progress, the 3 girls, could give a shit! THEY are all higher level cherry than I am! I referred their asses! WTF?! I am done ranting, thanks for readin if you got this far :P

Can I Get A Hug?
Damn I never meant to hurt anyone. Especially myself. I was always honest from the start. I have so many things happening all at once. I need to weigh them all. Seems as though my head and heart are at war. Both sides pulling me apart. I am so confused. There are things that are very clear. And yet so damned fuzzy. I want to be happy. I want to be loved. I want to love. Brick by brick my walls come down. Yet it feels like something is right behind me Building them up again. Like a gremlin, or a nasty old troll. I know I hold the power. I know I hold all the cards for my battle. I just need to get hugged really bad. :(

The End......
I got a call about 4 hours ago that my great-grandfather passed away. He was a young 96 years old. He's one of those people that you just expected to be around forever cause he always had been. He had a head full of wisdom and didn't mind sharing it with anyone. Up until the latter years of his life, he refused to go to doctors. He made his joints feel better with WD-40 and he was also a firm believer in those vitamins they call "Rooster Kings." He always told us those were the two things that could take care of anything. Seeing as how he lived to be almost 97, I see no point in aruing with his beliefs. Papa worked for everything he ever had. He was known in his hometown for being a great mechanic. Even in his last days here on earth as that cruel fucking alzhimers took over his mind, he would lay in his bed and tell us that he needed to get up and go to work. The bills wouldn't get paid with him laying in a bed. I'll miss my Papa. Damn he was an awesome man!!!! I a

Eternal Love
tagfantasy.com In the tranquil hours of night I walk in your soul You live in my heart With each beat With each breath We are one Dawn merges with morn I melt into you You capture my spirit Our hearts swell with passion Our bodies weep with ecstasy We are eternal love My Lord, My Beloved, My Everything I'll Love You Endlessly.

My December
This is my December This is my time of the year This is my December This is all so clear This is my December This is my snow covered home This is my December This is me alone And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was Something I missed And I Take back all The things I said To make you Feel like that And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was Something I missed And I Take back all the Things I said to you And I give it all away Just to have somewhere To go to Give it all away To have someone To come home to This is my December These are my snow-covered trees This is me pretending This is all I need And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was Something I missed And I Take back all The things I said To make you feel like that And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was Something I missed And I Take back all the things I said to you And I give it all away Just to have Somewhere to go to Give it all

Random Thought
from behind i have been grabbed by a set of claws marking the end of hands driving me to the ground from where i stand digging into my neck-tendons and muscle-strands on my knees, it's a good place to be i just need to have you infront of me but you stay right there behind me one hand tip-toes to my chest and pulls me close the other hand holds me by the jaw and thrusts my head beneath your breasts a massage of talons digging into flesh my blood rushes i swell as you release the excess bending over my shoulder you put your mouth to my distress as you feed your face is dressed in the mess i fall lower on my knees wrap my arms around you and make you sink with me until we are chest to chest painting you with my flowing caress play with THAT mess my beautiful monstress

Infidelity & The Life Of David Gale
"fantasies must be unrealistic. the minute you get something, you dont, you cant, want it anymore. to exist, desire needs absent objects.. so desire supports itself with crazy fantasies.. this is what pascal means when he says that the only time we are truly happy is when day dreaming about future happiness.. or why we say, the hunt is sweeter than the kill or be careful what you wish for not because you'll get it but because youre doomed not to want it if you do.." -excerpt from the life of david gale interesting concept.. yea? you want something, this object, this person, or this ideal.. whatever it may be that you want, but. once you have it, it ceases to be a want, a desire, a goal.. and becomes a possession, lover, etc etc.. and its at this point that one or two things happen. your desire must either be replaced, or evolve. it can be replaced easily by something similar but a level above, or it can evolve.. like if it were say a significant other or a new

Life
life is strange... i was at work tonight and thought about this life is a game, its nothing but a game, life is waht you make of it, you have bad times and good times but sometimes the bad times over power the good times, but you just have to let it go and move on. its funny how shit happens and its also funny how we think, right now the main thing peole are talking about is the snow...its to cold or its to much..then we will get to summer and so on, happens everyyear and people bitch about the same shit. life is grand...you have to live everymin for everymin.. how come people bitch so much? how come so many people are fuckin unhappy..you cant take life so serious it will bring you down so fast its not funny..

Current Events
well here goes. my friends suggested i do this in hopes of enticing some girl out there to talk to me in a romantic sense. problem is I always seem to either come off as creapy, or the "just Friends" guy....the last 4 girls that I have dated have given me the "just friends" speech. now dont get me wrong, i love to have good friends, but what i need is not another drinkin buddy, i need someone to be romantically involved with. I dont know whats wrong, according to allot of ppl i have talked to a girl would be, and i quote, "crazy not to want to go out with you!!". last time i checked i wasn't grotesque....i just dont get it. you women confuse the hell out of me. anyway, i am due to come home around May 21, and am looking for an attractive girl who is not affraid to be decisive and knows what she wants out of life. thats all i really ask for. and yes, if you have a friend, forward me her info and ill look into (damn right im starting to get desperate, lol) thanks for all the help lol

I Posted My 1st Bulletin..
its pretty funny and its a message for the ladies..I speak for all men here.. enjoy! The guys side! We always hear "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note ..... these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE! 1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down. 1. Sunday = sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. 1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way. 1. Crying is blackmail. 1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it! 1. Yes, and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question. 1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what you

We Must Fill The Internet With A Demand For The Release Of The 84 Pentagon 911 Tapes.
PLEASE REPOST We must fill the Internet with a Demand for the RELEASE of the 84 Pentagon 911 Tapes. We need a full court Blitz of the Internet, gang. You can use some of the stuff from below or just add your own stuff. Demand The Release Of The 911 Pentagon Plane Crash Tapes ! So What Is The Pentagon Covering Up About The 911 Chash? The 911 Pentagon Tape Witholding is a Conspiracy Fact ! There is a cover up and a conspiracy by the Bush Administration and the Republicans in Congress and it is a fact, not a theory, other wise the 911 Pentagon tapes would have been released almost 5 years ago. Unbelievable the Bush sheep like followers don't want to see what was on the 911 Pentagon tapes. Now if this had happened under President Gore the Republicans would be demanding the tapes. There is a cover up and a conspiracy by the Bush Administration and the Republicans in Congress and it is a fact, not a theory, other wise the tapes would have been released almost 5 ye

Depressed...
so for the last few weeks,my son has really been pushing things.he treats me like im nothing like im just dirt to him.he will get in my face and yell at me.if hes not being just completeing rude to me he acts like im not on the earth.But when Dave is home Dylan still wont mind me but he does act different toward me.He acts like Dave is god and im a dog.And theres been many times ive cried and dave has always made me feel better.Dylans always acted like i was a no body. Well today i called my mother to ask her for help to ask her for some advice that might help.She told me it was all my fault.he acts this way becuz I havent done a good enough job as a mother to him.i called davecrying my head off.i called her for help. i put myself down all the time so much so that i dont need others to do it for me.ive been crying for the last i dont how long and my son keeps asking me y im crying, i love my son he is my life.i risked my life to have him.ever since i was lil ive always wanted to

Can You Be Creative
Lets see how many of you can be creative? Bulletins-blogs IN MY OPINION are suppose to be a place to post your thoughts,expressions,artistic,poetry,graphics. I challenge anyone that reads this to be creative...share your thoughts-opinions-art-who should be our next president? Anything besides "comment bomb my pics please" Lets see who has a mind:) . I don't mean to insinuate anyone is stupid,and I apoligize if anyone thinks that. I challenge anyone that reads this to try:) I will start of with this...lets see if you can be more creative. Oh does anyone know how I added different colors to the text?

Unafraid 101
I lost the rules To this game But I still Recall how To play I just love you And hope You do the same I know that You want to But you still feel Restrained But you should Just do it Shatter those Chains That is how We begin Then react As things change Excuses are for The weak Fear is not An ally If this does Not last long Yes It may sting A bit Truthfully spoken It will most likely Hurt like shit But we’d have A reason The truth of Our tale We created our Garden To see what Shall grow And planted our Hearts Now we see How it goes

Heres My 2 Cents On All This Crap
Music Video:BOSSY (by Kelis)Music Video Code provided by Video Code Zone SO HERE GOES MY 2 CENTS ON THIS WHOLE NEW SITE CHANGE... I DONT GIVE A FUCK...ITS 30 SECONDS TO WAIT I AM HERE ALL THE TIME ANYWAYS.. BUT I DO THINK FOR THE PAY FOR MEBERS THEY HAVE THE RIGHT TO BITCH BOYCOTT W/E. THIS SITE ISNT ABOUT FRIENDS.. ITS ABOUT COMPETITION..DONT GET ME WRONG I HAVE MET ALOT OF PPL ON THIS SITE.MOSTLY FROM ME SPEED COMMENT BOMBIN THERE ASSES..LMFAO! I DONT NEED THIS SITE TO TALK TO MY FRIENDS .. I HAVE THEM ON MY YAHOO LIST..BUT I DID BRING MOST OF MY FRIENDS TO THIS SITE.. FOR FUN..AND YES THEY HAVE MET NEW PPL.NOW QUIT UR BITCHING AND SEND MY PAGE SUM BLING!!!!AND PLZ DONT FUCKING REPOST THIS.. YOU WILL WASTE 10 $ AND IT WILL TAKE YOU TWICE AS LONG TO MAKE THAT BACK NOW .. LMFAO!!!!!!!! BABY J IS THE MUTHA FUCKIN MAN HE GOT US ALL TRIPPEN!!!SO BIG PROPS TO BABY J FOR KEEPIN US ONA SHORT LEASH.. BUT I DO THINK THE EL CHEAPO CAN AFFORD A BETTER SERVER AND MAY

Tuesday 2/20/07
Not much going on with me today other than going to my friend's shop later this afternoon to get a hair cut and working on this page a bit more adding stuff to my stash and other things to earn more points. Hope everyone that is reading this has a great day.

To All My Friends
to all my friends i have to say this you all are the best there is you make me laugh when im having a bad day you all can be a crazy bunch of goof balls or even a bunch of smart asses but that is what i love about ya'll you come to my page leave me some love whether it be funny, pretty, perverted, or sweet they all are quite neat i show my love in many ways until my computer wants to be an ass than i want to throw it away my bouble birdies pic you all like or love it i salute you my friends this poem is almost at its end now to finish this poem and finish it now ya'll always make me say LOL!! HaHa i love you all so very much hope this made you smile bet ya'll thought this poem was over this silly poem could go on for miles ok im done for now until my next poem that is my friends keep it real and keep it safe and true as i do you.... written by yours trully angel

Bosses Suck
This might sound like whining, but then again, that's why its my blog. The racism in the warehouse I work at is atrocious. My supervisor (KS) himself is ok. His boss (WS) is a blatant racists. HIS boss (RS) is physically afraid of him. If you are Caucasian in our warehouse, you can expect to be overworked, threatened with suspensions and verbally assaulted. If you are African-American, you can get away with whatever you want to do. I was put into a position that I was not qualified to handle. It was known that I was untrained to do this job, and it was expected that I would have trouble. WS actually said that he expected me to fail. When I was on light duty for the injury I sustained at work, they suspended me for not violating it. They included the fact that I didn't finish an assignment that they gave me, even though they didn't teach me how to do the paperwork. They've since assigned 2 people to do the same job, and they never finish the paperwork. Some

Men
i would first like to thank someone for smaking in the face. the women might agree with me on this on. there 2 kinds of men chicken shits and assholes, chicken shits are the one who make up excuses for why they dont want to be with soomeone, anbd assholes are the ones who use you for a ONE NIGHT STAND. the good men are about 5% out there, thats very hard to find... a wise person once told me that if you dwell on the past it will bite you in the ass, well he was right and the past is the past and you have to learn and grow from it, tell if i am wrong on this one.. how come men have to think of excuses and they cant tell you how it is? we would rather hear the truth than feed us a bunch of bullshit..honsty is the best policy, life is a game women case men and men case women and you know what life sucks. its easy why are women and men so insterested in casing each other...why cant people just live ther lives and if something happens then let life go the way its suppose to...life happe

You Woke Up Where?
If you woke up one mornin and saw me in your bed wat would u do? 1) go back to sleep 2) slap me 3) cuss me out 4) jus tell me to leave 5) climb on top of me and cuddle 6) give me face 7) make me breakfast 8) ask me my name (lol) 9) call the cops 10) Other..(Explain Please)

The Biker
When you see us moving past you quickly: Don't take offense or think we're trying to "show off". Ninety five percent of the time, we're trying to get out of your blind spot or taking ourselves out of a potential dangerous situation that has evolved around us. Distancing ourselves from you does not mean we want to race, but that we're giving ourselves the edge we need at the moment. When you hear our horn: Don't take offense or think we're trying to aggravate you. All we're doing is letting you know where we are in relation to you on the road, and we're more than likely aware of your inattentiveness to us while you're talking on a cell phone, eating, reading or involved in some other distracting aspect to your driving. It's important to us, and you, that you know we're there. When you hear our loud pipes: Don't become angry and hostile toward us. Yes, some are quite loud, but for some, there's a purpose behind being loud. It's about letting you know we're close by and

Deep Throat Made Easy
Deep throat Made Easy Here for the first time ever are simple and explicit instructions on how to deep throat a penis. Position is important; you'll want to in position where you can extend and straighten your neck by slightly tilting your head back. This helps line up your throat with your mouth allowing the penis to slide in deep. The best position for beginners is with the receiver lying on his back with the giver lying on the stomach along side. You can prop yourself up on your elbows. The penis must be THOROUGHLY LUBRICATED! I can't stress this enough. An erect penis will slide much easier along the tongue and into the throat if it is well lubricated. Once you're in position, slightly tilt your head back and extend the tip of your tongue just past your bottom lip. Flatten the back of your tongue just as you would if a doctor were using a tongue depressor to look in your throat. (Extending your tongue helps flatten the back of your tongue. Force your throat open as you w

From Sheri
Make sure you are always open to new, honest, productive, and creative ideas. When your thinking becomes rigid you are destined to failure. Do not delay action until all factors are favorable. You will find yourself doing nothing because conditions are never "JUST RIGHT!" YOUR LIFE IS NOW! LOVE LIVIN IT!!!! SHERILYNN WILLIAMS

"your Side Of The Stars"
Gazing up into the night of a star filled sky Visions of you are in my mind's eye For your love has touched my imagination With feelings of wonder and total fascination Looking up at the stars that I see Sets my mind in motion to wander free Free to wander places near and far As I love you through the stars Whether we are one or thousands of miles apart Through the stars I love you with all my heart Oh, how they glow like my thoughts of you When you look up you will see my love shining through And when you see them twinkling ever so bright Your heart will know I'm thinking of you tonight No matter where you may be, yes wherever you are My love will find you on your side of the stars

Awwwwww Babe I Love You~i Need You
I just got off the phone with my babe she Don't sound soo good awwwwww her voice sounds sooo harsh. I Love you babe Please get well for me I need you in my Life I Love you dearly! Shes # 1 In my life with much tears shed!Heres her link! *Lil Princess*@ CherryTAP My heart is Big for you babe!

Snuff Bottle
This is a snuff bottle, about three inches tall, obviously Asian. I'm not sure about the date on this, but I doubt that there has been a high demand for these things over the past 100 years. The photograph doesn't do justice to the detail. The writing and painting of the bottle are on the inside, painted through the quarter inch hole in the top of the bottle. I see this, and I think to myself, "That's impossible!" This is a little piece of history, a treasure in my collection of art. I am honored that I have been given guardianship of it.

Random Facts About Me..
100 truths about yourself 001. real name ¨ WHy I am Angela 002. nickname ¨ The most obvious are angie and ang..oh yes and midget. WhooT you can call me whatever you wat 003. single or taken ¨ Now does that matter, if you want to be a friend you will if you only want to get in my pants then you won't talk to me. 004. zodiac sign¨ Saggitarius 005. male or female ¨ Female the last time I check..unless I some how grew a penis and balls over night.. 008. cell phone ¨ Meh. I hate phones. 009. best friend¨ I talk to people here and there but meh 010. hair color ¨ I dye it blue black but it is fading so it looks black 011. long or short ¨ Long I love long hair 015. are you health freak ¨ ha ha ha no but I do obesse over my stomach and chest. 016. height ¨ 4' 11 and 3/4" 017. do you have a crush on someone ¨ Meep. 018. do you like yourself ¨ eh sometimes 019. piercings ¨ 11want to count them?? A majority of them are in my ears, I also have my tongue pierced, and b

You're My Angel
You are my angel That flies through the night You are my sunshine My daylight You are my only true love forever And if you will ever leave me I know i won't make it through the night With three words Only three words I want to proove my love for you And those three words are: "I love you"

Cougar's Moments Of Fame Part I: The Beach Babe's Bungee Bathroom Break ..with Boobs!!!
The Beach My friends and I had decided to go to a beach, we had been planning this for months. I went and bought my first bikini. I was only 15 and all my friends were jealous that I had gotten one and they still couldn't. I was so anxious to show it off. We were having a good ole' time on the beach, when one of my friends had a brilliant idea. Hey, let's dare Cougar to do something. She'll do anything!!! Yes, it's true, I will do anything dangerous, funny, death defying and downright stupid for a good laugh, to cheer up a friend and just to make sure I am not bored. My friends came up with a triple dawg dare. I couldn't refuse that, no way in the 9 circles of Hell! They dared me to bungee jump in what I had on. My pretty little bikini, with about as much decency as would a porn star in public. I thought nothing of it and accepted and off we went to pay the price of insanity. We got there, I was so excited. This was something I was wanting to do for a while.

Another Story
Those who have read my blog know I faced a lot through my marriage. It left me wondering who I was. I was broken and without so much of what made me who I was. I had to find that again. I went through counseling, to help find that. Most therapists ask you to journal, to write your thoughts down. I preferred to write stories and poems. I took part of the ending away on this one, and will rewrite the ending someday. The Walls I am a coward behind my walls Alone I sit among the rubble of the walls that once protected me. My castle lies in ruin. My world lies in desolation. The daily battles have left me exhausted. I am battered and broken in body, mind and spirit. Today was like any other day. The air was filled only with my cries of terror, and those of my enemies as they come to torture me and slowly wear me down. The day was dark, no sun shone through the gloom. No sun ever comes, and the night sky is void of stars and moon as well. The day was long,

Feelings......of....loneliness
For all the men and women who have felt at some point Or are feeling at this time scared and lonely Painful feelings of despair. I capture his heart and Soul, And placed it in my Heart And made him part of me. He’s so involved in his Own self, That he can’t see the pain And loneliness that is Driving me Insane He gives comfort and a Shoulder to cry to everyone What about Me? Why can’t he show me? Those feelings I stand before Him All undressed For I have bared my Soul to him He’s never Made me part Of him I am in pain why Can’t you See This loneliness in my Heart is killing Me And sometimes I just Want to scream. Why? Why can’t I be a part Of you? My heart is tearing With this pain And empty feelings of

Bday Stuff
I think I might be getting sick. I've got that blah achy feeling. I also have a sinus headache, earache, and a little cough. I also have a toothache but I'm sure that isn't related lol. I got quite a bit accomplished in these last couple of days. I did a big clean in Tasha's room. Bagged up stuff she doesn't play with and organized the things she does.I even went through all her drawers and took out the clothes that don't fit and organized the ones that do. I labeled each drawer so it's easier to find stuff. Today I had lots of errands. I had to go to the post office, court house, Walmart, and Dollar Tree. I had to pick up some stuff to work on a new scrapbook I am doing for Patrick's grandmother. The dollar store has great stuff for only a buck. I got a few 5 sheet packs of decorated paper and some stickers. The book I'm making is pictures of Patrick's cousin. He is 2 years old and Patrick's grandma adores him. I wish I would have been able to find some baby themed paper or stickers.

Message To Him In A Bottle
A Message To him She feels undesirable and Lonely inside her soul All she can do is cry and desired Not to exist This sadness that no one sees On her visage the tears She holds back for fear He may see her pain Always Feeling worthless in everyone’s Eyes always wanting to hide Lose herself from her cruel And worthless life Believing she’s just Taking up space in this world And feeling no one will missed Her or think to call, nobody will Notice she’s gone She doesn’t have a friend To confided her Anguished thoughts, finds Herself wishing for someone to Care, she’s always feeling Pathetic and out of place she has Isolated herself from humanity and Wrote all her painful thoughts in a Note book Placed it inside the bottle she keeps Locked inside her soul where she Stor

The Balls In Women's Brains????
Tried to upload the image to the photo album, but it wouldn't take. So, the next best thing was to translate it via Photobucket...and here it is: This is supposed to be a woman's brain. The joke with the image in the email I received was that: Every one of those little blue balls is a thought about something that needs to be done, a decision or a problem that needs to be solved Good thing a man's brain requires only two balls. Ironically, although the image is supposed to be a joke, I feel like my brain really does work like that!! :D Hee hee... :p

Sickly
I WILL NOT BE AROUND MUCH THE NEXT COUPLE DAYS...... I AM ON SOME PRETTY STRONG DRUGS.... TO GET RID OF THIS CRAP I HAVE... LEAVE ME SOME LOVE AND WHEN I GET BACK ILL GIVE YA SOME HEALTHY LOVE BACK ... LOVE YA ALL

Short Story[the Way To Forever]
Every pair of eyes in the establishment turned toward the darkbrowned, muscular young man who had arrived in the yellow Corvette that had screeched to a stop in front moments before. He returned their gazes defiantly before descending the three steps to the sunken floor and crossing the room to sit at the end of the bar on that side. The green pattern in his shirt glowed eerily within the nimbus of a sign on the wall advertising Royal Beer, and his dark eyes seemed to glow likewise as he stared at the neon words. The female bartender placed a napkin in front of the brawny youth and said, “What can I get for you?” “Beer—any kind but that.” He indicated the sign on the wall. “And make it a pitcher.” “Sure thing, handsome, but I’m gonna need to see some ID.” He reached in his pocket and slapped a hundred-dollar bill on the bar. “Will that do?” She palmed the bill and tucked it in her bra. “Helluva good likeness.” He was still glaring at the sign when she returned w

To Las Vegas
I have an Buisness Meeting out in Vegas so I'm Leaving in the begining of March and I get back on the Third of March so I won't upload the pics till I get back just like the saying "What happens in Vegas. Stays in Vegas" Vash

All About Becky Survey
Part 1: YOU Were you a planned baby? yes my parents wanted a little girl. Were you the first? nope iam the baby Were your parents married when you were born? Yes What is your birth date? November 14th 1976 Part 2: The Family Are your parents married or divorced? married An only child? nope i have two brothers If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest? youngest Which parent do you get along better with? Mom Do you have step-parents? no Part 3: The Friends What do you like to do when you are together? wow i like to do alot, drink, camp hang out and be crazy. Do you share the same interests? Most of the time Which friend(s) can you tell everything to? my best friend grace, Justin, and Andrew Part 4: Your Personality Do you have low self esteem? sometimes Do you get depressed about things easily? i try not to but sometimes i do. Are you happy? iam ok Do you live life to the fullest? I really try to Part 5: Ap

My Opinion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So the new thing with the pictures got me thinking. Yeah I know thats an achievement all its own (har har har!)But anyways, It got me to realize - Maybe what we should all do is get back to what LostCherry/CherryTap is all about. Meeting people and making friends - Meaning stopping this drama - and actually leave messages on peoples pages. That was what truly amazed me when I joined this site in September. It was that people openly left comments. Not because they HAD to, but because they wanted to. And it was fun trying to find neat little graphics for your friends pages. Even if you don't send graphics - Friendly conversation never hurt anyone. Did It? I mean as long as it isn't some bullshit drama...Its fun. After I talked to a few people in shouts, I wanted to add a few more thoughts of mine.I wanted to add that - Even with all the changes - some good, some not so good..I'm still as addicted to this site as I was from the first day I joined. I have made some amazing friends fr

Dare Devil.
Dear Cupcake, Here is your horoscope for Tuesday, February 20: Truth or dare? You'll take both -- and a double-dog dare while you're at it. You're fearless when it comes to getting a new venture off the ground or discussing a matter that everyone else is too scared to bring up.

Theunloved® Is Saddened....
How many of you know that this has always been the symbol of †Th€Úñ£ºv€d®†? "It is so much a symbol of my Existence, I made it a permanent part of me in the form of a tattoo on my left arm. Yet why must people take it and place it in their photo albums without asking first"? Atleast you can do is ask first!PLEASE ASK!

Thank You
THANKS TO ALL WHO KEPT TAYLOR AND OUR FAMILY IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. SO FAR ALL SIGNS ARE GOOD. http://www.wishtv.com/Global/story.asp?S=6114930&nav=menu35_1 THE LINK ABOVE HAS THE OFFICIAL STORY AND VIDEO

Aight, Some Contest Updates.
SOOOOOOOO, IMMORTAL LOVE IS KICKING HARDCORE ASS!! CYRSTAL IS IN LAST PLACE, AND I GOT SOME PERVS BOMBING MY SITE!!! WOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!! WAS GOING TO MAKE IT A THREE DAY CONTEST, BUT NOW I'M CHANGING IT TO WHEN EVER THE HELL I LEVEL UP. ONLY ABOUT 16,000 POINTS TILL LEVEL, AND I GOT TIME. HAVE NARROWED THE PRIZES DOWN TO THIS 1ST PLACE, FREE MOVIE TICKETS FOR A YEAR. ANY SHOWS, ANY TIME, NO SELL OUTS, FREE. I GOG THE BANK FOR IT. ALREADY WORKED OUT THE DEAL WITH MY PROMOTERS FOR MY SHOP. ALL THE REST OF YOU GET PRIZES TO, BUT I WANT EFFORT PEOPLE!! DO THE MATH FOR WHAT I'M GIVING. FUCK THE BLASTS, AND HAPPY HOURS. I'M GOING BIG!!! SO WHORE YOUR ASS'S OUT SOME MORE, AND I'M STILL LOOKING FOR SOME DIRTY BRIBERY, SO GET TO IT!! CHEATING IS ENCOURAGED, SO DO YOUR WORST. MOST FUN, AND FAIR CONTEST EVER!! PEACE OUT AND SHIT.-BILL. P.S. NAKED AND MANIC!!!

Rebuilding The Site
Lesson learned. # 1. Do not launch a web site until it is ready to be launched. Now that I have vented and released all my frustration and anger I have decided to rebuild the website. I am rebuilding the site but will not announce it as being ready for viewing until I know it is ready for viewing and it is COMPLETELY done. I will not be adding things to it in piece meal works. I will have it completely finished when I announce it as being done. I do know that there will be a new title for the site. Now it will be called "Erotica by Ms. Cleavage". It will be a free site, except I will be asking for donations of only $1.00 from each of the short stories. It will be on the honor system of course but a button for pay pal will be at the bottom of each story page where if you really enjoyed the story you can show me that you did by donating $1.00 to the "we want you to write more stories fund". So anyway... over the next week or so I will work on the site every n

Omg I'm So Excited!!
So this coming up weekend i'm making a trip to Niagara Falls to pick up my wonderful hot and sexy gf CanadasBaddestBrunette and her daughter!! They are going to come stay with me for the week!! YaY! You know what that means? it means tons more new pics of her and i Wooo hooo how freaking awesome is that!! i bet your all excited!! oh yeah n she's sharing my bed with me!! *evil grin*

Our Relationship...
Pt.1 It started when i was 14yrs old. My father told me, "son, you're gonna see some crazy shit in highschool. Dont join a gang, dont fight over girls(or dumb shit...its highschool!!! EVERYTHING IS DUMBSHIT!!!), and dont do drugs on school property. "Come home and i will get you high." Well,he did. He taught me how to grow and cultivate, curring,short cropping,whatever. 87% of smokers say they dont smoke schwag-bullshit!!! i'm a pothead like Kobe Tai is a porn star. i dont like to smoke garbage but i will if i have no option. Hey, thanx 4 reading this!! more of this to come but i'm tryin' to get high now!!!!!later.........

Aeroplain Wind
The difference Is startling The damage You can betray What once was seen As pure regret A soul without A dream A life not alive Needing to hear Angels sing It is your turn To play guardian A moment You can save Dismantle The emptiness Just say those Words And use their Name They remain Identical But never Just the Same

The Lexus
A woman walked into a Lexus dealership to browse, and spotted the most beautiful, perfect "loaded" Lexus. She walked over to inspect it more closely. As she bent forward to feel the fine leather upholstery, an unexpected little burst of flatulence escaped her. Very embarrassed, she anxiously looked around to see if anyone had noticed. There, standing right behind her, was a salesman. With a pleasant smile he greeted her, "Good day, Madame. How may we help you today?" Trying to maintain an air of sophistication and acting as though nothing had happened, she smiled back and asked, "Sir, what is the price of this lovely vehicle?" Still smiling pleasantly, he replied, "Madame, I'm very sorry to say that if you farted just touching it, you're gonna shit when you hear the price."

Sleep Last Night?
SLEEP LAST NIGHT? Bed a little lumpy... Toss and turn any... Wish the heat was higher... Maybe the a/c wasn't on... Had to go to the john... Need a drink of water... ? ? ? Scroll down Yes... It is like that! Count your blessings, pray for them, Talk to your Creator and the next time when... the other car cuts you off and you must hit the brakes, or you have to park a little further from Walmart than you want to be, or you're served slightly warm food at the restaurant, or you're sitting and cursing the traffic in front of you, or the shower runs out of hot water, Think of them... Protecting your freedom!

End Goal
the razored edge of grims blade calls to me, curious remnants pass through my mind, one half anticiapation one half need, with out sorrow nor even a sliver of fear, a welcoming unlike any other, no obligations, no possessions, no more problems, a silence eternal, a dream beyond all dreams, a place where my voice doesn't matter if it's heard or not, time becomes my relief forever.

Darkness
I SIT HERE IN THIS ROOM FEELING LIKE A PRISONER-SURROUNDED BY THE DARKNESS, SMOTHERING ME UNTIL I CANNOT BREATHE. PAINED FACES IN MY HEAD-IN MY HEART-WHY AM I HERE? ALL THESE VOICES SCREAMING, ENDLESSLY INTO THE NIGHT.. NO END. NO RESTING FOR ME NEVER.. ALWAYS HERE IN THIS ROOM. ALWAYS WITH THESE MEMORIES OF WHAT COULD BE. TO SEE A SUNNY DAY AND ENJOY THE RAIN ON MY FACE. BUT MY REALITY SETS IN AND LIKE A DAGGER IN THE HEART I KNOW IT WILL NEVER BE. NOT UNTIL I AM FREE OF THIS LIFE HOLDING ME.

10 Things I Hate About You Poem
I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you are always right, I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you are not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close not even a little bite not even at all.

Wishing
this is a blog about wishing? I wish I could have a better life. U know just throw out the old and bring in the new. Well why oh why cant I do that. My life sucks as far as everything is concerned. But who will ever know what ever happens. I guess I will end this blog for now and write some more later

Bad News Again
I got a call from the Dr.'s office yesterday.. My creatinine is very high right now and I am now showing more symptoms of kidney failure. I guess the steroids didn't work. Don't really know where or what to do from here, but I'm scared. I haven't really talked about it until now. Maybe I think that if I talk about it, it will be real. I'm not ready for this ride. Just when you think everything is getting better life slaps me upside the face again. Guess it's my life and it's not gonna stop slapping me. Sometimes I wonder if this is punishment for something that I've done. Maybe if I was a better person, I wouldn't have to be in so much pain or fear. Maybe then I could live and be happy.

*******the Secret *******
2/20/2007 Dear Reader: I am working really hard on my new book "The Rest Of The Secret" and I decided to give you a little sample on how "The Law Of Attraction" can work for good or for worse in one's life. Again remember that I do endorse the movie "The Secret" but this fast and empowering production seem to be more like of a Tony Robbins speech. You indeed received a fast service and like McDonald burger this treatment may not be good for your body, mind and soul. In my upcoming book I teach numerous implacable Universal laws that are an intrinsic part of "The Law Of Attraction" and I teach also "The Law Of Opposite". Realize that you will not become a millionaire get a better health or get a great job by wishing for "The Law Of Attraction" to do all the work for you. It is imperative for you not to be deceived and realize that you will never be able to reach your goal with only 60 minutes invested watching a very positive DVD. Your chances of success are as good as yo

Liars
So many people talk about fakes and liars when really they,infact are gulity of it thereself I really hate that I try to be real and me all the time I can't help it if you don't like me or who I am I'm a complicated person I try to be nice and friendly to everyone and what I say I mean I'm real,and open...I'm a little crazy, but I'm not fake and I'm not a liar like some people!

Oh Man The Other Day...........
WAS FREAKING HILARIOUS!!!!!!! WELL TO ME, BUT NOT TO MY DAUGHTER. SHE'S STILL PISSED. BUT IT'S HER FAULT CUZ SHE'S THE ONE THAT BOUGHT ME THE FREAKING LAZER THINGY. WELL TECHNICALLY I PAID FOR IT, BUT I HAD NO IDEA THAT THEY HAD ONE IN THAT STORE. SHIT AND ONLY $1.99. SO SHE KNOWS I'VE BEEN WANTING ONE FOR AGES SO I COULD PLAY WITH MY BABIES (KITTIES). SO ANYWAY, I'M IN THE BATHROOM, LOL, JUST KICKING IT AND I TURN THE LAZER THINGY ON SO I CAN CATCH THEIR ATTENTION RIGHT. LOL. SO ANYWAY I FLASH IT ON THE LIVING ROOM DOORWAY CURTAIN! LMFAO!!!!!!! AND THE NEXT THING I KNOW!!!!!!!! MY DAUGHTER IS GRABBING DALLAS AND RUNNING TO MY ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LMFAO!!!!!!!!! ALL I HEAR IS OH SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! COME ON DALLAS!!!!!!!!!! AND SHE CHARGES INTO MY ROOM AND SAYS SOMEONE'S TRYING TO SHOOT US WITH ONE OF THOSE GUNS THAT HAS A RED BEAM THING ON IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Free Video and Image Hosting Graphics Funny Images Layout Graphics SO I START LAUGHING MY ASS OFF AND I SAY NO BABE

Jelousy
Well, what a week! Not much to say except it really really sucks. I am jealous of time a certain someone spends with others. I know jealousy is terrible and I shouldn't do it. Funny thing, I was never jealous when I was married, but he destroyed my self-confidence over 11 years I have never been a jealous person and I hate the way it makes me feel. I feel whiney, bitchy and I don't even want to be around myself so can't figure out why I would want to make the people I care about suffer. I know I will get in trouble for not talking to this person, but I have a hard time communicating my feelings, most of the time it is just easier to bury them under myself. Besides how do you tell someone u care about u r jealous, when u shouldn't be in the first place. I just think if he knows what a problem I am he will leave me. Oh well, guess I just got to learn to get it under control or something. Any suggestions? I would really appreciate the help

Ps
ok, I sent that by accident not once but twice. The rest of it is that my grandmotherr is going into a retirement community so I will not be moving to NC but rather to stay with friends in another part of RI where I can walk and take busses to plenty of jobs.

Free To Join And I'll Give You 11
Seasons come 1st the new arrives,sprining up like majic out of the ground all around us,look up out of the blue its true they spring out green waving at us,then the fall kina like life,everything gets dull,dingy,dry,and then the ulltiment,die,but un like winter ,then spring will bring it all back,death wont.Think about a loved one or close freind,thinkabout,the seasons come and go. just thinking was bored too . this is a free and enjoyable site so sing and i'll give you 11

Wings...
Do I deserve to keep these wings I had fought so hard for? My past filled with fires, explosions, cops. Just one more crazy kid, right? Is that what I am, crazy? No, not me. Couldn't be me. Could it? All the wrong I had wrought and all the rotten that had wrongeth me. Stage 1: a simple pretty fire in a trash can, harmless right? Stage 2: One word. Maltov. Jail time, easy. Stage 3: Random choosings of anywhere from low-end to high-dollar cars, then watch em' burn. Many arrests but not one conviction. Thank you, thank you, I am the bullshit king. Then drugs came into play. Before this I was just an innocent kid, kind-of. Until the day I became Arsonist One. Then out of nowhere, a beautiful creature had doth been bestowed upon me. I of all, BLESSED. I changed everything, without her asking. Just talking with her made me desire a fresh start, a new life. Love. 1 year goes by, best year of my life. Everything was going my way for once, or so I thought. My beautiful butte

Vote!!!! Comment Bomb!!!!
Hey ya'll.. I'm in the Killer Blue Eyez Contest... I am SERIOUSLY lagging behind.... COMMENT BOMBING IS ALLOWED, SO PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REPOST THIS ON TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS, HAVE THEM BOMB ME... THERE ARE 2 DIFFERENT PRIZES.. ONE FOR THE MOST COMMENTS, AND ONE FOR THE MOST RATINGS!!!! THE WINNER OF THIS CONTEST GETS A 3 DAY BLAST.. AND I KNOW I WOULD *LOVE* IT!!!!! PLEASE HELP ME OUT GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WOULD TOTALLY APPRECIATE IT!!!!!!!

Tomorrow
Tomorrow HAS to be better than this day was... I have once again learned that people can be ugly to each other on the internet... I have learned again that people do not always tell the truth when they tell you something.... I have learned that this is after all just the internet and for some it is just a game.... I am headed to bed now.... I have talked to my man Forth Horseman..HE makes me feel good about all around me..He shows me what it is like to be wanted...no matter what is going on in his life, he always makes time for me... I truly and deeply love you Forth Horseman....I am excited about our future together...It will be a good one... Now to dreamland...goodnight all... Poet's Heart....

Packing, Working And Meditating
Today was a hard day. I had to have my assistant help me pack for my trips to New York, London and Miami.. I have to have two completely different wardrobes when I’m in New York and in Miami as the weather is different. That’s Harsh!! While I had packed and was ready to go I remembered I have a shoot. So have to add another suitcase just for that. Four suit cases, maybe even FIVE. I’m so fucked!! Before I leave have to do all my paperwork stuff, weekly reports from my employees, new dance packages, Arghhh I got still a lot to do Time to mediate before I go. I didn’t have time to book my interviews. Oh well next time. Got my hair done today a little pink for me. With all the madness of traveling. I’m so looking forward to going to Miami and relaxing in the sun. Just showered, used my tanning bed, less than two hours left before my limo picks me up. I think I’m going to meditate before I have to get ready again.

Why Is It So Quiet Around Here Tonight?
Hey everybody, whats going on?? Everyone is so quieet tonight!! What are u all up to?? Why wasnt I invited? hehe Just wanted to say hi and see whats up with u all.....Say hi if u like.....ill be around!

Today After Grandpa's Funeral
I think of many things that I've done in my life, and realize ... I'm ok with dieing ~ I've raised my child and been a good Mother ~ I've been a great commanion and friend to many , and done everything in my ability to strive for success . I've put my own life aside to take care of the people that needed me the most. I took care of my dieing brother, I cared my ailing father, and now I'm tending to my disabled mother. I've never really had much of MY OWN life to live.. but I've lived my life through others !! I've been all over the US, and been to or at least through at least 30 of the states. I've even ventured into Canada several times. I've ran my own successful business. I've bowled, I've owned part of a racing team , I've swam in the ocean.. what more can a person ask for ?? SO yup... if it's my time to go.. then know I'm just at rest now. And my body is at peace !

Just So She Knows...........
heres the scope peeps...................... ~I like this girl, she likes me back..She still Loves her ex and I know this and I understand.She needs to know that I feel about her and that is I only want the best for her no matter who shes with I just want to see her happy..Even if I never get a chance, I will always be by her side forever cause thats how i am, all I care is that her feelings, I am more than happy to push my feelings aside for her to see her happy~ Anyways I wrote all my feelings because I want to remind her what kind of guy I am, and I want to show other guys that its not giving up to push ur feelings aside for the girl u care about just to see her happy!!! Everyone forgets what being true is (no offense my friends just writing in general) anyways I hope everyone had a fantastic tuesday night and Hope u have a great wendseday!!!! love, ~Tommy ~ ^_^

Poems I Love. Enjoy.
AIGHT, SO HERE ARE SOME POEMS I LIKE TO READ FOR INSPIRATION, AND ALWAYS MAKE ME HAPPY. PROLLY DID THIS BEFORE, BUT SHIT I CAN'T REMEMBER. SO ENJOY. Edmund Vance Cooke How Did You Die? Did you tackle that trouble that came your way With a resolute heart and cheerful? Or hide your face from the light of day With a craven soul and fearful? Oh, a trouble's a ton, or a trouble's an ounce, Or a trouble is what you make it. And it isn't the fact that you're hurt that counts, But only how did you take it? You are beaten to earth? Well, well, what's that? Come up with a smiling face. It's nothing against you to fall down fiat, But to lie there--that's digrace. The harder you're thrown, why the higher you bounce; Be proud of your blackened eye! It isn't the fact that you're licked that counts; It's how did you fight and why? And though you be done to death, what then? If you battled the best you could; If you played your part in the world of men, Why, the Critic

It's Almost Over
In less than 36 hours I will finally be laying eyes on the one i left behind 23 years ago. Not exactly sure how I feel about that, (BULL SHIT) I'm frasked the hell out! but happy at the same time. I'm trying not to have any expectations and not doing to well with that but......... anyway I cant believe that I am going HOME....... backwards.. something I swore I would NEVER do but guess it has to be done. Oh i wish I could STOP the static going on in my head at this very moment I was hopeing that blogging would help and for the most part it is and I am greatful for the quiet, for the space to get all these words that are flying around in my head OUT! If you are reading this please forgive my rambelings I'll be better when I return and thanks for the time you took to read it. I am feeling that my world is spinning and I have no controll of it and that I do not like and when this trip is over and life is back to normal (whatever that is) I'm sure the control will return, the last time I

Miles Away
I longed to hold you , to have you in my arms, we have such hope's and dream's, of what our love could be, but you where mile's away, I reach out for you, another night to make it through, thats when I need you most, but you where miles away, If i could have one dream come true, I'd be right there with you, we would have it all our way, we would share everyday, make love and hold you tight, it would all be right, like it's ment to be, but just for now, we must go on somehow, cause you are miles away... Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Biggest Fears
Does it seem the things we want the most in life are the things we fear the most? I want my son with me all the time. But I fear I wouldn't be a good father, everything he needed. I wonder if I have been alone too long. I know I would be a good father... I just fear that I wouldn't be. If that makes any sense. I want to be loved. But I think I fear that most of all. I fear opening up that much again. I fear the lies and the games. But I want to be held. I want to have someone to share with. And I want to have someone tell me they love me... and really mean it. It's been too long.

If Your On My List Take A Look Plz!!
!!!!FAN ME!!!!! SEEMS THAT i Am FANN OF.. (310) BUT MY FANS (265) I HAVE (548) FRIENDS.AND (22) FAMILY MEMBERS..NOW I AM ASKING YOU IF YOU HAVENT FANNED ME PLZ DO SO THESE NUMBERS ARENT MATCHING UP IT ONLY TAKES ONE CLICK DONT BE SO LAZY.. ITS NOT LIKE I AM ASKING YOU TO RATE EVERY THING ON MY PROFILE..NOW GOOD MORNING CHERRY TAPPERS AND HAVE A HAPPY HUMPDAY! SMOOCHES LADY KAOS Lil Troy Wanna Be A Baller

Advice 2
"If you meet an intelligent American who smokes and isn't completely MAF (mad as fuck), shift automatically into friend making mode. It's sure to be worth your while" James Hawes, 'A White Merc With Fins'

My Clever Answers To Survey Q's
my clever answers to survey Q's is being happy overrated?: well... yes, the whole current obsession with happiness and personal fulfillment boils down to selfishness, conversely, there is much to much focus on depression and melancholy, to the point where people think that is cool.... all stems from the removal of God from the public sphere and the secularization of society. next question what about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: how can you really know pleasure without knowing pain? blurring that line is the best thing about sex... ok, one of the best how depressed can you get?: oh fuck this question, fuck your "depression" and your "medicine". everyone can get depressed, and it all sucks. there is no way to measure that shit do you inflict pain on yourself?: its hard to pull my own hair and spank myself and still 'spank' it if you know what i mean, and as for that other type of adolescent bullshit, i'm over that are you a mean bully?:i'm mean, i'm not a bull

Anyone Wnat A Cherry Blast???
Ok.... So im holding my first competition.. ...The winner is the first person to get 5,000 comments. And the winner will get a 1 day Cherry Blast... ... the competition will start when I have enough entries and will end when someone has enough comments... If anyone has any questions send me a message and I'll get back to you. Your more than welcome to comment bomb yourself! When you have reached the 5000 commets please send me a message and I will get your cherry blast. Thank. Klara xxxx Design your free custom bulletin now at bulletintalk.com!

Hi Everyone
well today is a very good . it is warmer out then before and the snow is melting and i love the spring time and summer time to. i hate winter to cold for me. I do want to move to a place where it is warm all the time. well i am going it is my son 9 birthday tomorrow i have to g him some presents so i will be back on later. to all my friends thank u for being her and listening to me when i am down in the bumps and to the special ones i love u guys as bestfriends.

Well Shit....
What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract geeks! Your stunning intellect and love of sci-fi and video games allures the geeks like nothing else. Maybe it is the sparkle in your eye that makes them want to text you, who knows. Geeks make good partners, but tend to be arguementative. If you are a TRUE geek magnet, you will know if that was spelled correctly, and actually care. If it is a bad-boy/bad-girl you are seeking, you are barking up the wrong tree, unless they are just 'bad' behind a PS2 console.You attract rednecks! You attract unstable people! You attract Yuppies! You attract artsy people! You attract models! What type of person do you attract?Quizzes for MySpace

Off To Nyc Tomorrow!
If you are submissive and you wish to book a session with me while in NYC please see my contact info at: http://thenycollective.com/mistress/persephone.html I'm not an escort so please don't be gross and ask to sleep with me. Not happening, BDSM,fetish exploration and roleplay only. Not sex, ok? Do I even have to say this?

Kids Say The Darnedest Things
My daughter is 12 years old. The other morning on the way to school, I was telling her about something I heard on the news. A teenage boy had died in a house fire, after going in three times to save the children in the home. I told her that was such a beautiful thing to do, to give your life for a child. She said, "Well, mommy, grown-ups are like that. Once you get to ADULTERY, you've pretty much lived your life." I'm thinking she hit the nail right on the head with that one! Christine

I Have No Never-again
I have no never-again, I have no always. In the sand victory abandoned its footprints. I am a poor man willing to love. I don't know who you are. I love you. I don't give away thorns and I don't sell them. Maybe someone will know that I didn't weave crowns to draw blood; that I fought against mockery; that I did fill the high tide of my soul with the truth. I repaid vileness with doves. I have no never, because I was different- was, am, will be. And in the name of my ever-changing love I proclaim purity. Death is only the stone of oblivion. I love you, on your lips I kiss happiness itself.

A Little About Me
Well, I was born and raised in Saginaw, MI. attended Bridgeport H.S. . I went right into the Navy after graduation as a way to escape an abusive step-mother. I spent 4yrs. seeing the world and my only regret was getting out when I did. I returned to Saginaw and following one bad job and relationship after another I finally joined the Army National Guard and landed a job as a juvenile counselor dealing with juvenile delinquents at a residential treatment facility. I am 5'-10" and 220lbs ( I added a few pounds after I discharged from the Army and quit smoking). I have brown hair(when I let it grow out) and hazel eyes. Any thing else you wanna know, just ask

Embrace Of Gaia - The Final Song In The Ep
So here we are, the song which shall be the finale for the Earthwhore EP (tentatively titled "The Cleansing Rage") has its lyrics written. Once the music has been written I'll start on the vocals, which may bring about some additions to these words. Hopefully the album can end on a high note, or at least go out with the blazing glory its lyrics aspire to portray. Here we are then: Goddess embrace me, for I bear thy cure, Eradication of diseased matter, Elimination of infestation. Endless rage blinding shattered sight, Blood runs from my arm, Shedding apocryphal life. Now I fall into thee, Fold my soul into thy essence. Eternities in darkness reviled, The iron fist of man, In this my final hour, One final strike to carve out the heart, Annihilate man for She who suffers, In Gaia may I attone for my sins, May my death bring forth this new era, Era of peace and regrowth. The better-fated of man, Tranquil in eternal sleep. I glance at the path behind me,

Untitles Poem
Living in the line of fire Turning the corner on destructive anger A tough ride, the speed of life Charging the gates of infinite wisdom No one lfet behind Grace of words Breaking bad habits Flee and purse life Exclusive faith in hope To get loose from the noose of times of lies Just say the word A true disciple of wisdom, for God All things are possible So stand or kneel in Gods presence And be counted

4 Nuns
There were 4 nuns wating at the pearly gates of heaven. St Peter comes out to welcome them but tells each nun that to enter they must answer a question and the response must be the truth. St Peter first goes to mother superior and asks "have you ever touched a mans privates?" to which mother superior replies "NO, never". St Peter accepts the answer and allows mother superior to go through the pearly gates into heaven. St Peter then comes to the second nun and asks the same question to which the nun replies "Yes sir, with my hand". St Peter says "ok, not a problem, just wash your hand in holy water and you can come in. St Peter then comes to the 3rd and 4th nun who are for some reason squabbhling. St Peter says "Now, Now, theres no reason to fight, there is plenty of room inside for everyone to which the 4th nun shouts "If you think I’m washing my mouth out in the holy water after she’s had her arse in it you’ve got another thing coming.

Hmmm....
Ya know. Its funny to me that men and women get jealous over a guy/girl who thinks they are hot, sexy, ect. I was that way and still am alittle bit but this is the conclusion I came to. Its a GOOD thing when we women and you men get hit on, and told how beautiful we are. As well as men, hey if a woman thinks your hot and so does 100 other women chances are.... your hott! Jelousy is 100 percent natural....in fact my b/f just last night was highly upset because of the fact that I have mostly men on my friendslist. To be honest I wouldnt get mad if there were girls outside of cyberland who thought my b/f was hott. Its a fucking compliment. I will be the one he climbs into bed with everynight, not them and the same way if it were switched! You men and women should stop being so possesive. We know our boundries and if you cant respect that then you need to take your crying somewhere else. I just think that too many people in relationships waiste so much time fighting about talking to

Ok I Bitched So Now I Will Tell You What I Love
I love happy hour, i don't know why I love meeting new people and making friends I love my close friends you know who you are and you each hold a special place in my heart I love reading blogs and writing them Thats all the nice you get today :)

Chinese Sick Leave
"I NO COME WORK TODAY!!!" Hung Chow calls into work and says, "Hey, I no come work today, I really sick. Got headache, stomach ache and legs hurt, I no come work." The boss says, "You know something, Hung Chow, I really need you today. When I feel like this, I go to my wife and tell her to give me sex. That makes everything better and I go to work. You try that." Two hours later Hung Chow calls again. "I do what you say and I feel great. I be at work soon......... You got nice house!"

Anna's Baby Daddy...hmmmmmm
Here's my theory on Anna's baby Daddy....I can't be the only one! Daniel + Vicky Lynn= Daniellynn Get it yet? Her son's the baby's father! That's why we STILL don't know who the father is... That's why he killed himself... That's why she killed herself... 'Cause eventually DNA testing would be done and we'd all find out. Now it doesn't matter 'cause they're both dead. Who do you blame? Howard's gonna be in the shit 'cause he was always around and he's gonna get into a mess of, "How did you NOT know this was happening"... Who's with me on this?

To Smart For 1st Grade
to smart for 1st grade Body: Body: First-grade teacher, Ms. Brooks, was having trouble with one of her students. The teacher asked, "Harry, what is your problem?" Harry answered,"I'm too smart for the 1st grade. My sister is in the 3rd grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the 3rd grade too!" Ms. Brooks had now had enough. She took Harry to the principal's office. While Harry waited in the outer office, the teacher explained the situation to the principal. The principal told Ms. Brooks he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the 1st grade and behave. She agreed. Harry was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test. Principal: "What is 3 x 3?" Harry: "9" Principal: "What is 6 x 6?" Harry: "36" And so it went with every question the principal thought a 3rd grader should know. The principal looks at Ms. Brooks and tells

¢¾ April = Hot
¢¾ JANUARY = SHYNESS Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your rep

My Contest I Am In ...
THIS IS FUCKING SAD I HAVE 562 FRIENDS AND ONLY MAYBE 5 OF THEM HAVE EVEN DROPPED A VOTE OR COMMENT THAT IS FUCKING SAD..I GUESS DON'T ASK ME FOR HELP IF YOU CAN'T RETURN THE FAVOR ..CALL ME A BITCH THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I AM .HAVE A GOOD DAY ...

Sorry For Not Being On Lately
TO ALL MY FRIENDS & FANS, WELL I FINALLY BOUGHT ME A HOUSE AND CLOSD ON IT ON DEC. 21, 2006. THEN THE PROCESS OF PACKING, LOADING AND TAKING TO THE NEW HOUSE, UNLOADING, UNPACKING IT ALL AND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHERE TO PUT EVERYTHING AFTER ALL THE PAINTING WAS DONE, THEN THE NEW CARPET THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE HOUSE, NEW TILE IN BATHROOM AND KITCHEN, NEW VANITY & STOOL PUT IN BATHROOM AS THIS WAS IN GREEN...UGLY AS SIN TOO. GOT IT ALL PUT TOGETHER NOW...WELL, ALMOST. EVERY ROOM IS DONE BUT MY BEDROOM...GO FIGURE. GETTING PICS PUT UP AND WAITING ON FAMILY PICS FOR MY FAMILY COLLAGE WALL. I'VE GOT LOTS OF BEFORE, DURING AND AFTER PICS OF MY HOUSE BUT NO ROOM TO ADD THEM ALL AT THIS TIME...THIS SUCKS...LOL RATE ME, POST COMMENTS SO I CAN GO UP AND I WILL RETURN THE FAVOR NOW THAT MOST OF THE WORK IS DONE WHEN I'M ONLINE. HAVE A GREAT DAY!!

Condoms
WHY CONDOMS COME IN BOXES OF 3,6,12 A man walks into a drug store with his 8-year old son. They happen to walk by the condom display, and the boy asks,"What are these, Dad? To which The man matter-of-factly replies, "Those are called condoms, son. Men use them to have safe sex.""Oh I see," replied the boy pensively. Yes, I've heard of that in health class at school." He looks over the display and picks up a package of 3 and asks, "Why are there 3 in this package? " The dad replies,"Those are for high school boys, ONE for Friday, ONE for Saturday, and ONE for Sunday." "Cool" says the boy. He notices a 6 pack and asks, "Then who are these for?" "Those are for college men," the dad answers, TWO for Friday, TWO for Saturday, and TWO for Sunday." "WOW!" exclaimed the boy, "then who uses THESE?" he asks, picking up a 12 pack! With a sigh and a tear in his eye, the dad replied, "Those are for the married men. ONE for January, ONE for February, ONE for March, ONE for

Who Are My Real Friends?
I thought I had real friends on here but for some reason they have lied or mislead me. I am not sure what is going on and it breaks my heart. What did I do but love someone they all loved. I don't love his looks. That made me stop what I was doing and start listening to him. I saw the hurt in him from all his writing. I wanted to show him that he can be loved for who he is and not for his looks. I had a chance to talk with him last night and becasue a friend had told me he loved another I thought his talk was play but to him it was not. Again this person has mislead me ot think otherwise and now i may have lost him all together. Why? I have had an awful day. It started this morning and it hasn't ended yet. I made mistakes today and felt a fool and VERY stupid. I went to the dewntist just to have a tooth fixed and when they gave me a shot I cried. My whoel body shock. I was so scared and it was like everything that has happened to me this day came out in that chair. I ha

My First Contest Entry!! Please Help Me Out!
I have entered my first contest. As of right now I am about 500 comments behind the leader! LOL! But I believe in the underdog! PLEASE HELP! Comment bombing IS allowed! :) Travis Go here:

Rip Royell Walker...
Fuck man this is too soon jo...we just lost Bo young...wtf...shyt it was tha same wit chu young...i knew you since you was young too...we all played ball....damn jo you could've did somethin wit yaself...you was good n basketball i don't know why you went tha route you did...but shyt man i ain't even gonna lie to you...you done some shyt jo...some real dirt...it was only a matter of time...it seem like when i left tha block...erybody changed and was on some different shyt...well.. you live n you learn young i just hope ya lil brova learn somethin from this...that its much more to life than guns n drugs...I'ma hold you down nigga...RIP...

Hey America,wake Up
ive been hearing about feed the children and help this and that countries for years and americans have always helped and then footed the entire bill.these things are good and we will be blessed in gods eyes BUT there is a problem here. ive traveled all over this world and yes there is poverty,war torn lands and disaster all over.there isnt a continant i havent been to ,a country i havent been in,that these conditions didnt exist,EVEN IN AMERICA.!! i went on a bike cruise with some buds a few years back and let me tell u what i found,it horrified me to no end and im a war vet, in a town in mississippi i saw kids eating out of garbage cans,in new york i saw homeless people wearing the same clothes for months on end,in dc i saw,N FRONT OF OUR CAPITOL,2 dead,decaying bodies that were in an old houses back yard,in sout carolina i saw junkies selling everything from stolen goods to their own children,in california,where at the time i was a detective,i saw old folks ran out of their homes

To Whom It May Concern :)
how is it possible to think that "someone" could step in a "take" what u say is rightfully urs? havent u heard of free will? u may say what u want about me.. but a friend i will always be still. i am accually in a state of shock that u would think these awful things it is not my nature to hate u or despise ur words.. i am not the one who gave the wings. the decision that was made, was made purley by the one who flew one day u will find a love .. a love for only YOU. and if u think that person will give up i think u r very mistaken. she is not a hater, in anyway, sorry... this one is taken. MyHotComments / HotFreeLayouts

Hate Poems
Controlling a Caged Animal I don't want to be controlled any longer. I try to seperate myself, free myself of these bonds I hate so much. You say you'll stop, but it continues, more than ever. I grit my teeth, bear with it all that I can. I can't, I shouldn't have to. You think you're right, but you're wrong. So very wrong. What you do to me, is just like an animal, pent up in a cage, abused by its master, no food, water, or love. You think it's right, you believe it's discipline, but do you ever realize how I feel? What I go through? I don't think so. I'm caught in a trap, to be abused forever. © Barbara Anne, 2005-06-22 Animosity The hate you feel won’t go away. I don't even know why you bother to stay. I'm here, though I don't think I'll play. The rage builds and builds, poisoning my emotional fields. Perturbing what my mind wields, these assholes with their cash shields.

Aggravation! Venting!
i'm on a roll tonight...everything and everyone are insanley getting on my nerves...i literally can't stand the sound or sight of any fuckin human being speaking to me or looking at me today...maybe it's because i had to deal with annoying patients who just feel sorry for themselves..yeah they are sick but come on...how much compasion can you have for a human being...some of them just look for sympathy...all they want is attention and to be noticed...i've never seen such a bunch of cry baby's...who bitch and moan and demaned things on top of all that behavoir...i'm starting to believe the most craziest people live in brooklyn..new york...these people are just fuckin psychotic...they need psychiatric help not medical!i say if your crazy fine! but keep your madness to yourself...donot! i repeat donot involve strangers or staff members...actually don't involve your own family into your hell! if you need help ask for it properly but don't just unload and demand things because your insane a

You
You are everything I've always sought, With me in my every deed and thought. Together I always want us to be, For everyone, the entire world to see. Hold my hand and never let me go, Look at me with love so easy to show. Brighten my darkness with your light, How I feel is so suddenly right. Your heart so longingly calling out, Filling me with joy and making me shout. At the top of my lungs I yell and scream, Lucky enough to have found my dream. I hope that you truly feel the same, And smile at just the thought of my name. Because in the end one thing is true, For now and forever I will always love you.

I'm Losing This Battle Called Life
I feel sick to my stomach with self-hatred. Every time I get a little confidence it gets brutally knocked out of me. My body aches with the sorrow I feel. What is good about me? What is special? Worthy? Because I honestly can't see a thing. My veins are full of pain, I want to tear them out.

Sad.
Omfg. It hurts. Anthony can't get any sleep because im miserable, seriously miserable, it hurts like fucking hell. The pain killers aren't working. ♥ :( It hurts -cry- And anthony is so sad looking. I feel so bad. :( =( I hope you all are doing better than i am -sad face- ♥ ♥ ♥ Rate my blog please :(

Secrets...
When your head is full of secrets, it feels like the weight of the world crushes down on you. You become isolated, irritable, pissed off at anyone breaking this revolving chain of thought, as they dare to disturb the endless stream of fragmented hopes and memories of the surrounding confusion. Those secrets start to expand, as the thoughts compound in the head. Stretching the limits of what a human brain can hold. I feel my head may burst soon, it feels as if the skull and flesh encapsulating those thoughts are bursting at the seams. The need to get an outside perspective becomes all consuming, the inner turmoil becomes a churning frenzy of self-doubt and negativity. Nothing feels better than to realize, that perhaps i'm not so unique, knowing that my inner turmoil is faced by others, knowing that my feelings are mirrored, that perhaps my so called "secrets" are not really secrets at all. Just knowing that others know what I know, that they have their own uncertainties to sort

The Rest Of Mine (for Cassie)
There's no guarantee that we'll see tomorrow Heaven only knows how long we have So there's no way I'll ever for one second let you wonder Just how long my love for you will last 'til my last breath, 'til I'm called on high 'til the angels come and I see the light To the very end, 'til I give in To the last beat of my heart No I can't swear that I'll be here for the rest of your life But I swear I'll love you for the rest of mine 'til my last breath, 'til I'm called on high 'til the angels come and I see the light To the very end, 'til I give in To the last beat of my heart No I can't swear that I'll be here for the rest of your life But I swear I'll love you for the rest of mine No I can't swear that I'll be here for the rest of your life But I swear I'll love you for the rest of mine

My First Mock Death As A First Responder Lol The Names Are Wonderful
At 10:30am I was on routine patrol in the west section of Pleasantville Co. when I was dispatched to 1427 Ridgeview Road. Upon arrival at 11:50am dispatch advised that Sgt. Senior was busy but that if I needed a coroner or a detective to radio him. At the residence Ms. Ida Williams met me at the front door and informed me that she had not seen her neighbor, Mr. Daniel Be-Old for four days and that she was worried about him. She then told me that he was a widower, he was 70 years old and he had recently been released from the hospital. I thanked her and asked that she wait for me to return. I then went to Mr. Be-Olds residence and noticed immediately that a car license number YBW 2245 NC State tags and a truck license number XTY 2231 also NC State tags were parked in his driveway. The yard needed to be mowed and upon further inspection I noticed that there was a John Deere lawnmower and expensive tools lying in the yard. I knocked on the door several times and no one responded so I then

My First Mock Bill To Congress
Bill H.R. 1817 105th CONGRESS 1st Session To establish tougher penalties for driving while intoxicated laws In the House of Representatives May 19, 2006 A Bill To establish tougher penalties for driving while intoxicated. 1. Be it enacted by the Senate and House of Representatives of the United States of America in Congress assembled, Section 1. This act may be cited as “Restructuring Virginia’s driving while impaired laws”. Section 2. Findings and Purpose (a) Findings- The Congress finds the following: (1) In the Commonwealth of Virginia the following is the current law of DUI; § 18.2-266. Driving motor vehicle, engine, etc., while intoxicated, etc. It shall be unlawful for any person to drive or operate any motor vehicle, engine or train (i) while such person has a blood alcohol concentration of 0.08 percent or more by weight by volume or 0.08 grams or more per 210 liters of breath as indicated by a chemica

My Culture Vuntut Gwitch'in First Nation
this is a poem that was made because the US wants to put a pipe line through our caribou breeding grounds which in turn cause my people to lose tradition when it comes to traditional caribou dinner. We have lived off the caribou for hundreds of years no and if they put that pipe line through the caribou breeding grounds the numbers will decrease because the caribou will not beable to have their young in a place they know and trust so they will slowly parish. this poem will be in english first then it will be in the Vuntut Gwitch'in language the amount you comment this will tell me how many people still care about the wildlife. any ways here is it in english.enjoy Imagine Imagine a land Of powder blue sky Where caribou roam And many birds fly Imagine a river So wide and so clean Imagine a people So strong and so lean The Vuntut Gwitchin A proud ancient band Live off the earth And love this land See now the sky Turn ashy and blac

A Poem I Wrote
Always in my heart you make me feel more loved than I've ever felt and happier than I've ever dreamed. The love and understanding you have is something I have searched for my entire life. Always in my happiest and saddest moments, you are my best friend and confidante. I come to you for everything, and you listen to me without judgment. Always, deep within my soul, I know we have a love like no other. What we share is something others only hope for and dream of, but few ever experience. Our love is magical beyond belief. Always, without hesitation, you give of yourself completely. You have reached the very depths of my soul, bringing out emotions I never knew I had and unveiling an ability to love I never thought possible. Always and forever you will be my dream come true, the one I have waited for all these years.

"black Jack" Variant 1
HOW TO STOP ISLAMIC TERRORISTS...... it worked once in our History... Once in U.S. history an episode of Islamic terrorism was very quickly stopped. It happened in the Philippines about 1911, when Gen. John J. Pershing was in command of the garrison. There had been numerous Islamic terrorist attacks, so "Black Jack" told his boys to catch the perps and teach them a lesson. Forced to dig their own graves, the terrorists were all tied to posts, execution style. The U.S. soldiers then brought in pigs and slaughtered them, rubbing their bullets in the blood and fat. Thus, the terrorists were terrorized; they saw that they would be contaminated with hogs' blood. This would mean that they could not enter Heaven, even if they died as terrorist martyrs. All but one was shot, their bodies dumped into the grave, and the hog guts dumped atop the bodies. The lone survivor was allowed to escape back to the terrorist camp and tell his brethren what happened to the others. This

Thank To Friends
I just want to say thank you to a lot of people on Cherry Tap that have made my time here worthwhile. All these people have made me feel welcome and have been great friends. In this world there is nothing better than having good friends. Friends are people who you can count on being there. I would love to thank Dorrie,Phoenix,Sid_Recording,Dalesman,and Firefighter's Mom for really making me feel welcome.Yesterday I met another nice young man and he also made me feel welcome and his name is JoshJ. Thanks to all of you for being a good friend.

My Kids....please Read
My little ones have been sick since last week with some sort of virus,, not sure what it is however they have been vommitting/shitting like gooses,, the doctor says the only thing I could do is to keep fulids in them but the damn thing is,, it comes right back out... I'll be taken them in today to get checked an see what else there is,, because right now I can not handle these little ones beinging this way,, damn near lost my son Edward when he was only 2-3 y/o from a virus like this he lost about 4-5lbs and I hope it doesn't happen again... Please pray for these little ones for me guys,, I know deep down ya'll have a heart... I'm not asking for much but this is my kids we're talking about....Thanks 4 your love an time!!!!

Round 3 In My Tattoo Contest...any Takers?
I am looking to open round 3 in my ink contest tomorrow...Friday Feb 23rd if I have at least 10 entries by then and I have 9 at the moment...anyone else have any ink they would like to show off and see if they can get a big pimpin gift by winning?

What Do You Think?
You call me "Cracker", "Honkey", "Whitey", "White C*#t" and you think it's OK. But when I call you Black, Kike, Towelhead, WOP, Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Gook, nigger or Chink you call me a racist. You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you, so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live? You have the United Negro College Fund. You have Martin Luther King Day. You have Black History Month. You have Cesar Chavez Day. You have Yom Hashoah You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi You have the NAACP. You have BET. If we had WET(white entertainment television) ...we'd be racist. If we had a White Pride Day... you would call us racist. If we had white history month... we'd be racist. If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives... we'd be racist. If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships...you know we'd be racist. In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we march

Thank You All!
I just ranked up to level 13 - ripe cherry! Thanks to all my lovely family, friends and fans that regularly rate all my shit. I'm sorry that I'm too fuckin stoned and lazy to visit your profiles all that regularly - but if you need a boost up on points and shit just let me know. Thanks to you guys who are bombing the fuck out of my pic in the UK's hottest CT guy contest - I entered this for a laugh but I really do appreciate the effort you guys are putting into it. If you haven't voted already or are bored and want points for doing very little - please check it out and comment bomb! Click on pic if you're interested. Say hi to the lovely lovely Candy for asking me to take part in her contest. *Candy*-*Patron Family*-@ CherryTAP

22nd Febuary 2007
Well I am a complete arse, I forgot to put on here that I was away for a few days nad just got back. Seems there was a fault with CT whilst I was away shows I received comments but it aint showing me them so will try in my unique wisdom try to work out who msent them and reply. JP aka Naughty Fecking Brit xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Jouster's Home Of The Dgg Family.
There's a place where Dj's are spinning And people are down to earth and relaxing Trying to keep the drama down And the making sure that no one has a frown Just kicking back having a good time Which we all know is somthing that is tottaly a crime There's are hott ass women and Damn sexy guy's We're dancing singing and having a ball every day So if ya wanna come and play All ya haft to do is follow the Link http://cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=5018

A Submissive's Bill Of Rights
A submissive's Bill of Rights You have the right to be treated with respect. Not only do you have the right, you have the right to demand it. being submissive does not make you a doormat or less of a person than anyone else. The word "submissive" describes your nature and in no way diminishes you as a human being. You have the right to respect yourself as well. You have the right to be proud of what you are. Being a submissive is nothing that should ever bring you shame or feelings of reproach. Your submissive nature is a gift and should always be a source of pride and happiness. You have the right to feel safe. Being a submissive should not make you feel afraid, insecure or threatened. Submission is not about living on the edge or flirting with fear. In any situation you should feel safe or there can never be true surrender. You have the right to your emotions and feelings. Your emotions and feelings come from you and they are just as valid as anyone else's. You have a right

Life Is Hard
life is so hard huh? why? i dunno either? ppl who have problems with others should just send them to hell n just look forward but its easier said than done huh? good luck to all that are going thru sum bad shyt

Thought This Is Worth A Blog
Due to the climate of political correctness now pervading America, Kentuckians, Tennesseans and West Virginians will no longer be referred to as "HILLBILLIES." You must now refer to them as APPALACHIAN-AMERICANS. And furthermore HOW TO SPEAK ABOUT WOMEN AND BE POLITICALLY CORRECT: 1 She is not a "BABE" or a "CHICK" - She is a "BREASTED AMERICAN." 2. She is not "EASY" - She is "HORIZONTALLY ACCESSIBLE." 3. She is not a "DUMB BLONDE" - She is a "LIGHT-HAIRED DETOUR OFF THE INFORMATION SUPERHIGHWAY." 4. She has not "BEEN AROUND" - She is a "PREVIOUSLY-ENJOYED COMPANION." 5 . She does not "NAG" you - She becomes "VERBALLY REPETITIVE." 6. She is not a "TWO-BIT HOOKER" - She is a "LOW COST PROVIDER." HOW TO SPEAK ABOUT MEN AND BE POLITICALLY CORRECT: 1. He does not have a "BEER GUT" - He has developed a "LIQUID GRAIN STORAGE FACILITY." 2. He is not a "BAD DANCER" - He is "OVERLY CAUCASIAN."

I Need A Wide Smile On Your Faces Now!
A nun was walking in the convent when one of the priests noticed she was gaining a little weight. "Gaining a little weight are we sister Susan?" he asked. "No, Father. Just a little gas," Sister Susan explained. A month or so later the priest noticed that she had gained even more weight. "Gaining some more weight are we Sister Susan?" he asked again. "Oh no, Father. Just a little gas," she replied again. A couple of months later the priest noticed Sister Susan pushing a baby carriage around the convent. He leaned over and looked in the carriage and said,... "Cute little fart." ************ ********* ********* ********* A cocky Department of Agriculture representative stopped at a farm and talked with the old farmer; "I need to inspect your farm." The old farmer said, "You better not go in that field." The Agriculture representative said in a "wise" tone, "I have the authority of the U. S. Government with me. See this card, I am allowed t

Thankyou Everyone!
Thank you to everyone for your support of a newly blossoming relationship. I believe that one of the reasons this relationship has developed is because we started out as acquaintances, which turned into a friendship. This friendship has been around for the better part of a year. I have long held a belief that the strongest of relationships come from following a course similar to the one we are on. Where it goes none of us can say, we just know that the bond we are developing is already a very strong one, which can only get stronger as our love for each other grows. To be in a relationship involves this growth, both individually and as a pair. Kutie is a beautiful woman with so much to offer to a man like myself. I have been able to realize just how much of a “catch” she truly is in the last few days. It has not gone over my head just how much of a “catch” I am to her. There is a warm, happy feeling that comes over me when she tells me how lucky she feels to have “a guy like m

Random Thoughts
Yet another day I sit in front of this screen. Porn? Masturbation? You? I chose you! As you come up behind me and run your nails down my back, my hair begins to stand! Your reach around with your lips to mine is what I have been needing. As your press your body against mine I get more and more hot. You know i want you, i know you want me, we meet in the middle. The middle being my bedroom.....again. As I take off your shirt, I give gentle kisses to your pierced nipples. I tell you how good you smell, as all I can think about is your wet clit. I kiss ure tummy, your push my head down between your legs. Your pussy is so wet and taste so good, as I bury my tongue deep in your pussy you let out a very sexy moan. MMMMMM your pussy tastes like sugar.

Confirmation That People Suck!!! Please Read
I am writing this blog because this is just a subject that pisses me off..... On my way home today I stopped at McDonalds to get something quick to eat. As I was pulling out of the parking lot and back onto 67 I heard sirens. I look up and I see an ambulance in plain view so of course I didnt proceed. Needless to say, there arent too many people out there that knows what it means when you hear sirens much less SEE the ambulance. The ambulance had to stop and wait while greedy, selfish bastards kept on driving INSTEAD OF PULLING OVER!!! This may sound like a stupid subject to blog about but when I see this happen....it aggravates me to no end. People are in too much of a hurry to pull over for an EMERGENCY VEHICLE. What would they have done had it been for one of their family members or friends?! How do they know it wasnt? And to the person behind me honkin at me, you're lucky I didnt get out and whoop your ass for being so RUDE! So from now on, if you hear sirens try to figure out w

'fan_me_then_add_me' Has Got A New Webpage And It Is Paying Everyone Back That Mad It Mad
this is fanme/addme's new page it can't do anymore on their page cause of no salute, so watch out its on the prowl with a new page this is her original page her name is 'FAN_ME_THEN_ADD_ME' it is believed that it is a man or just in my opinion john kerry http://cherrytap.com/user/335649

Im Sorry Everyone !!!!
Sorry havent been on lately my cuzen needed me, she dealing with crise's in her life right now! We just found out that she has blood clot's both her leg's she very scared she going to die in her sleep. She has all ready made well out case she happen's to die! Dealing with this has made me very sad, because we are so very close! The Doc, said's there's filter in her blood vine's, but the Doc. Said's if the blood clot's start building up in the filter there's a possable chance could brake and she could die from this!! So yeah im very scared and worried about her, I just need friend's help me get pass this, every night before go bed pray and cry that everything will be ok with her.

The River (lol)
The River Three men were hiking through a forest when they came upon a large, raging violent river. Needing to get on the other side, the first man prayed, "God, please give me the strength to cross the river." Poof! God gave him big arms and strong legs and he was able to swim across in about 2 hours, having almost drowned twice. After witnessing that, the second man prayed, "God, please give me strength and the tools to cross the river." Poof! God gave him a rowboat and strong arms and strong legs and he was able to row across in about an hour after almost capsizing once. Seeing what happened to the first two men, the third man prayed, "God!, please give me the strength, the tools and the intelligence to cross this river." Poof! He was turned into a woman. She checked the map, hiked one hundred yards upstream and walked across the bridge. GO AHEAD! SEND THIS TO A WOMAN WHO NEEDS A GOOD LAUGH, AND A MAN THAT CAN HANDLE IT.!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Green Lantern...
Your results:You are Green Lantern Green Lantern 85% Spider-Man 80% Superman 75% Batman 60% Robin 60% Hulk 60% The Flash 60% Catwoman 60% Iron Man 50% Supergirl 45% Wonder Woman 35% Hot-headed. You have strong will power and a good imagination. Click here to take the Superhero Personality Test

I Am Me
I AM ME I can be gentle, and I can be kind those aren't thoughts that now come to mind. I am selfish and I can be rude, some may not like my blunt attitude. I am unique, owning many a flaw. and I am more than I hold in my bra; though in defense they are quite a treat, I cannot fault those finding them neat. I have many things some old and some new, not everything tho will i share with you. I am myself I need approval not. I sit here alone with nary a thought. I am a woman that is not my defense it is simply my reason this makes sense. a.boudreaux 2007

Super Hero Test
Your results:You are Superman Superman 85% Green Lantern 70% Robin 70% Spider-Man 70% Iron Man 55% Hulk 55% Supergirl 50% The Flash 50% Wonder Woman 45% Catwoman 45% Batman 45% You are mild-mannered, good, strong and you love to help others. Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz

My (hopefully) Short Time Away
I wanted to apologize for my disapperance. Since the storms, I have had no power, water, and sometimes sewage problems...yuck. Got to love life. *smiles* My mother has been in and out of the hospital. My step son has been problemsome...lol....as all teenagers are....*just kill me* ha ha....Anyhow the stress of everything going on has left me with some problems with myself. Stress has a way of doing that. I am constantly tired and shaking like a leaf. For those of you that know me, I shake anyhow...lol....but now more so than usual. There are times I can not get up and function, but I am working on that. I hope everyone is well and will forgive me for not dropping a line. I am hoping to make myself well in a short period of time, but I did not want to appear rude to anyone. I appreciate any and all comments. Anyone that has visited, I apologize for not getting back to you. I will hopefully be able to meet you at a later date. Be safe. Be well. Thank you for the gifts.

Friends
Sometimes in life, you find a special friend; Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop; Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is Forever Friendship. This is the sacred RED ROSE.

One Last Goodbye
My mind ponder on memories of you and me, My heart will cry theses tears you’ll never see. I’ll show them my wonderful smile, I’ll tell them I’m over my trials. Show them everything is okay, When really I regret the pain I feel everyday. I’ll pretend I have moved on, That our world we had is gone. When really the fire is only a spark, That will forever burn in my heart. I can tell you all I want that I’m fine, That this is only another day in my timeline. You have left behind scars, But I’ll move on to remember the stars. The ones that sparkled and shined in your eyes, The pain will always be in that last goodbye. But it will soon pass you, And you won’t remember what we went through. I will fade away like the sun in the sky, If not please at least try. You don’t need the pain or misery, Its not that important for you to shed tears over me. One day soon I’ll see you with another girl, And all I’ll be is another person in this mysterious worl

Web Of Lies.
Web a lies. This is a web a lies. This is a web a lies and many does it catch. Many a victim fall prey to the web of lies. One lie told. One lie hurts. One lie grows. One lie turns to two. Before you know, your nothing but a lie. Your nothing. A lie. Zero.

Love
Love READ EACH SENTENCE SLOWLY AND THINK ABOUT IT Love starts with a smile grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff. BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there Nobody is perfect Until you fall in love with them

Growing Up
As I was driving down the road to choir practice I started thinking of all the good things about where I grew up. That church is where my Dad was minister for almost 40 years. The more I thought, the more I knew I grew up in the perfect place. When I describe the town I grew up in, some of you may think I am nuts. More people live there now, but its still pretty much the same. When I was growing up, at themost I would say 200 people lived there. It was just 2 roads that intersected. Actually there was a third road, but we had to mow it. No stop lights,fast food, movie theater, grocery store, bank, sidewalk. Those things were all a 20 minute drive or more away. Today its still about the same. They finally got cable a couple years ago. Where Dad lives they still don't have it.. just a couple miles away. I know... sure doesn't sound perfect by todays standards, but if I had my choice of anywhere to raise my son, it would be there. The house was huge. I had the smallest

Why
why do i have to go on like this? why does he look at me like i am nothing. it hurts. smak me in the face with a hammer and it does not compare to the pain i feel when he looks at me that way. it makes me want to rip my eyes balls out so i cant see it anymore. I just want to throw myself on the couch and hide behind the pillows. I want to rip my face off cause maybe, just maybe it isnt good enough for him. take my heart, rip it out i dont give a flying fuck. what can i do to ease my pain. maybe im not good enough i know. he says when can i smile for more than one time a week. when is my misery going to end? what am i doing wrong? i know i gained weight but, damn you pop out 3 kids in a row and get cheated on umpteen million times and tell me that you will look like a super model after all the stress...I ask him why do you look at me that way? he replies with "how the fuck am i supposed to look at you?" what am i supposed to do? i wanna feel pretty for 1 day of my damn life. what the

Tis Blessings
tis gift i give to you is what i call my promise of kinhood i will see you through your good times when everthing is well i will see you though your worst when it seems the world is slipping away i will be ther to luagh to cry and very most ....be a friend. for it is for friends that warm our hearts and give us great joy they are the treasure that makes us tuly rich for friend you can never be alone.

A Smutt Story.....
I look deep into your blue eye's stairing into them with deep pashion as I reach out my hand n run my fingers through your blood red hair and taking my left hand n placing it on your hip pulling you close, leaning down kissing you softly on the lips running my right hand through your hair n down to the small of your back pulling you close against my waist, sliding my left hand from your waist to your arse and squeezing it it n pulling you up towards me, Kissing your lips mor passinatly and nipping them slightly running my hands up your shirt and across your bare back sliding my nails across it lightly but enough for you to feel them, moving my right hand to ya bra and undoing the claps then sliding it back down your back and slowly backing up n sliding your shirt off at the same time. I slide my fingers up your arms softly and slide your bra off as I do I run my fingers across the waist of your pants n slow undo them, then grabbing you and pulling you close against me kissing you

A Struggle
You know, you always read about how people wander around submitting themselves to all sorts of arcane or strange rituals to cleanse themselves. I mean that is what Scientology preaches about in case you were ever curious. Yes, I read that damn Dianetics book. Anyway, the central idea that I am trying to convey here, is that I feel better when I write about my past or emotions. While the majority of men adhere to the silent, brooding type that tend to self-destruct, I like being emotive. Heck, I am of Italian descent! Did you expect anything less? So, that being said, it is time to share a long standing pain. I have shared the most embarrassing moment in my life, the deepest regret, and now I feel that it is time to share something that I struggled with since I was a teenager. This is not easy for me to write about and only two people know the depth of my struggle. So, I am not too sure how this will be accepted, but I need to end my hiding so that it may help others should they ever

Me Through Music...
As I was driving to work, I came to the realization that there are particular songs people should watch out for as signs to how i'm feeling, what i'm thinking, and my general attitude at the moment... i've known something similar to this, but mainly it was based on memories... I came up with a bit of a list, I'm sure there are many more songs that may shed light to my mood as of current, but for now, this is it... ~ Thrice - Deadbolts, STP - The Big Empty: I feel like driving REALLY fast. ~ Authority Zero - One More Minute, anything by Green Day or The Offspring: I'm reminiscent, I'll be a little happier when i'm done. ~ Rockapella - For The Longest Time: I'm thinking of Erika. ~ 3 Doors Down - Here By Me, 3 Doors Down - Here Without You I'm missing her and I feel we're not doing too well, but I pray it passes. ~ Incubus - I Miss You I'm right next to her, but it's not close enough and I still miss her. ~ Revelation Theory - Over The Line I'm cont

All I Want
i felt this way a few times b4 but neva so intense, tha way u leave me wanting more gasping in suspense, catch me plz im fallin, plz dont let me drop, kissing ur addictive lips might make my heart just stop,...it wasnt u who hurt me last but i hold it to ur type, u know just what i mean, cuz u know just what i like,...tha wound he left behind might neva fully heal, to have this feeling now just seems so sureal,...shattered plates, broken hearts, pieces of my soul, this was tha only love i was ever shown,..i can see thru tha smoke n all i see is u,..ur tha 1 i want, i swear that this is true, just gimme a minute to explain my self n what it is i feel, if i fall in love again i want it to b real, not just a lick, a fuck, n i see ya sumtime soon, i want u to stay with me in tha bed n "spoon"...i swear i swear im fallin plz catch me b4 i do, cuz all i really want,...............is to b with U.

Have You Ever
have you ever been going through stuff and you find stuff that reminds you of an ex?? i find myself wishing each time that i would have just thrown that stuff away when they dumped me then i wouldnt have to relive the pain again... thank goodness for fire lol makes you feel a little better about getting rid of it. makes me kinda wish my mom would have told me to do that in the beginning. this has happened to me a few times... once i made my ex andrew a little thing out of beads that said his name... it took me hours to do it and then i gave it to him and he said i dont want it you keep it... so i just tossed it in a drawer and ive run across it multiple times and it just pisses me of so much that i just throw it back in the damn drawer.... another would be this video that i made for the same bastard... it took me about ten days to complete this and when he got it he was like ok... and i was like did you listen to the song too?! and he was like there was a song? and i was like *sigh*yea

Orfay.com
seriously this site is full of old cunts crying to the owner when someone stands up to them and having the person deleted............ 1. the owner is obviously a faggot 2. these gangs of fucking old cunts are sexual predators that prey on unsuspecting females because they have never been the subject of attention 3. they cry when someone standsup to them 4. anyone wanna pay these cunts a visit and give them a beating for me?? go on i dare ya

Who Is Wet_lips? (me)
I just want to put this out there first...I am a normal woman. I am an exhibitionist. I am a college graduate. I love my family and friends and my 2 dogs (I have no kids-yet.) I've never been married. I have a regular job. I love literature, art, things that tell a story. I love to cook and enjoy fitness. I love being outside in nature. I am single and usually tend to be shy when with a man. (I have yet to be with a woman, although I dream about it daily lol) I long to be with someone I can open up to and completely be my naughty self with. I love working as a cam performer because it gives me the freedom to explore and to let loose. For example, I get to talk dirty, which I"m still too shy to do face to face, but on the phone, or in front of the cam, is just fine hehe In fact, it's QUITE the TURNON!!!! I get to meet different people, much like we do on here or any other social site. The only difference is, yes, I do get some money for it. Obviously though, I'm not rolli

You Know, Crow Tastes Just Like Foot
Good Morning and how are you?... I am ok myself. Sort of still licking my wounds after being a bad boy last night. You know you would think I would not like the taste of my own foot… But apparently just ever so often I have to re-enter it into my mouth just to make sure I remember the taste of it. It all started out, I am thinking you want to hear this because I am telling you, but just sit tight and I do not need judging because I already was and made up for it but crow does not always taste good. Especially the foot version of it. So it all started out two nights ago. Mandy emailed me that she did not want her mother or I to be mad at her and she apologized, but she was caught cheating on a test and failed it. No problem… Apparently the test was in Spanish and it was her first year in Spanish and taking it in the 12th grade sucks, taking Spanish in any grade sucks… but as a senior to many things are going on, and Spanish is not one of them. Plus I have other issues on learning foreig

Defeat
I've lost hope... I quit. 4 days till my flight and she has still not called written or reached me in any way. I suppose I should have known better. I know most love is blind and I must be Ray Charles. today is the day. If I hear nothing I cancel my flight. Jesus Fucking Christ!! I did not want it like this. Fuck.