lately I feel like I'm trying so hard to even get his attention......*sigh* the last 3 yrs we've been so good together and we lived together and that made us even stronger...now that we are in 2 different places cuz of his job and me being at school....he doesn't even try to make an effort to see me! he claims i should go there more...etc but he gets 3 days off in a row...I NEVER have a day completely to just go over there and see him.....
so what does he fucking do this weekend? he goes home which is 5 hrs away (both our families live there) and tells me he will come back monday (today) and see me before he heads home, seeing as I'm on the way.....so he just calls me at 445 to tell me "yea I'm just eating dinner with my parents and I'll be off" and I'm just so pissed/upset...why couldn't he just have left early this morning and come see me and ACTUALLY have an almost 24 hr period of time with me?! WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WRONG?!
his idea of coming to see me is to come at the most inconvienent time...(10 fucking pm) when I'm getting ready for bed and he knows that.
I'm just so upset. so freaking upset.
