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Strip Tease
from: alwayshappyhour any girls want to role play? United States subject: hey received: 03/25/2012 01:45 pm replied: 03/25/2012 01:47 pm block this member hi cutie i was wondering if i could interest you in watching a sexy strip tease show? i am 6ft tall 180 lbs and still in my dress clothes from work if that raises any interest lol. hope to hear back soon, take care. BTW..I responded telling him to bring it on!

Tell Me Why
Eggs have to be refridgerated? Is a chickens ass a lot colder than what I imagined? would a girl get a tattoo of a coat hanger about the size of a nickel on her armpit? A restaurant say there is a 15 min wait when most of the tables were empty? Am I so awesome? Scratch that last one, I just am.

Gilgamesh
Such delicate stacks of hope and feelingunder pestilent shadow of stumbling, ruinous titans.Cantankerous and riotous buffoons at the gateflailing carelessly with no concern nor consideration of majesty, and carefully paced affection.I took from that place a lonely fragment of peace.Watched it glitter in the shadow of my fistand tremble against my breast.This was home.An empty platitude against sundered splendor.Shattered, and clinging to the last thread of my humanity.

Kids
I have notice I am going grey alot lately..and I had to color my hair. I have found the problem. My youngest. He has had after school detention twice in a 2 week period now. First time was from mocking the teacher. He thought he was being cute. ..she didn't. Then today I get a call from his math teacher. She said he wrote a dirty letter. She had him read it to me. When he got on the phone he was crying so hard..and begging me to be able to spell it out..instead of read it. I told him teacher wanted him to read it to me..so sobbing.. he says"my dicks bigger than a tree..your dicks as big as someone whos three" This came from my 11 yr old. The thing with him is, when he gets in trouble its over funny shyt..and its so hard not to laugh. Just made me wonder what his teacher thought when she seen the letter. Actually he threw it away..and the kid told on my son about what he wrote..and teacher pulled it out of the trash. The other kid also got detention but it was lunch

Big Girls And Fat Girls I Have Something To Say
every where i look i see skinny women and women trying to lose weight and it really dosn't make sense to me i see a skinny woman and think to myself WOW IT'S BARBIE!. some men find that attractive but i don't i liik and think how long have they gone without food to try look like that. now i've had a skinny girlfriend or two and when i hugged them they didn't feel like they were there i thought i was hugging myself. and when we went out to eat i got myself a good meal they ordered the littlest amount they could took two bites and said i'#m full i can't eat more or i will put on weight. now that is one hell of a turn off when all you worry about is losing weight or gaining it why not just say who the hell cares they either like me or they don't it's not my problem. now i know some skinny people find it hard to put on weight i have a few family members who find it hard to put weight on but atleast those people try. not like the ones who get worried that fin air might make them gain a

When Will They Understand
Ok so here i am again. This one is not as easy as it seems cause i dont open up much but here it goes. How do you get one to see that some of us carry scars you know the ones that can not be seen and when someone opens one that was closed off and almost forgotten why do they not see that old scars never heal that they are just put away for a good reason. So now if you have not figured out i am going through that old scar and yet being pushed or nit picked at or asked why i do things that i do. Well answer this would it be easier to take time and try to heal once more or start back to hurting ones self to ease the pain to get away but when the marks heal all you have is a scar that shows there was so much wrong that none listened to the silent cry for help..The ones that are there for me know what i mean and what i go through so why cant the one that is suppose to closes his eyes to it all like im suppose to be better or that i should not have changed?????

Are You Willing?
I need that someone. That is willing to hold a relationship long and slowly. No lies, no messing around, just you and me building a relationship and taking it to the next level each time we spend every minute together. I need someone that won’t take advantage of me. Someone that loves me for who I am, not for my looks, and what I have. No sex, no making out. Let’s just cuddle and tell each other our stories. I need that one person that won’t take me for granted. Who'll love me unconfitionally. As if he we're a blind man.

Bored Stiff!
I guess I just got tired of it. No sex on weekdays, hardly ever Friday nights, morning quickies became a thing of the past and the same predictability on a Saturday or Sunday. It was driving me insane!!! I loved him so but I just couldn’t stand it anymore. I wanted a pair of wet panties violently ripped from my arse and shoved down my throat. I wanted my legs stretched apart in every direction. I wanted more fingers. I wanted his fist, and maybe even some of his arm. I’ve heard that this can actually be done. I wanted to cum all over the front of my pants and down my legs and walk around the apartment with my scent on my body for days. I wanted my face shoved in a pool of my own cum while being violently fucked from behind. I wanted hot cum splashed all over my face and dripping from my mouth. I wanted to gag on his rock hard cock. I wanted him to gag off my cunt, piss down his throat and stick my tongue in his mouth. I wanted my arse opened bigger than ever before. I want

In History
Men see "things" to be used and women see "people" to be used. That is why men see women as "things" and women see men as ""people"" to be used. Picture prehistoric Humans. Men hunted and scouted outside the hunting territorya and were gone for weeks. Women gathered from the resources around them because they had children or were pregnant. Because Human babies are so completely helpless the females gathered what they could while the males hunted. Vocal communication was crucial to that task for females. Vocal communication for males was actually a problem in hunting so they developed sign language. Women did not develp the same sign language...they were back at camp VOCAL language was not only safe but necessary. Language to say ""I am going out for berries to feed us while the men are gone so can you watch my kids?" Language and the idea of trust came from females. Men don't undrestand the idea of trust. There is no such thing as TRUST when you are hunting....what happens will happ

Hear Me Now!!!!!!!!!!!!!pt 3
So, by now, you know more about me than you thought you did. You never expected someone to have gone through this much hell, huh?!? Well, while the past two blogs, in fact, were kinda harsh and brought back some bad memories for me, it's better to get everything out and not keep it suppressed. And, I have nothing to hide. I am not ashamed of myself, or the way I was raised because even though I was physically and mentally abused and raped, it made me a better person on the inside. Sure, I have trust issues from everything that has happened but wouldn't you, if these things had happened to you? Oh, and also, the paragraphs are for someone close to me, as they don't like reading for long periods of time. So, if you have been reading, you know about me being raped and about how horrible my parents were to me.....it gets a little worse from here. After daddy died, I started getting checks every month from Social Security for $351.00 (in 1981, that was a lot). From then until the time I

Auto-tune Is The New Reverb, Overused Perhaps?
Auto-tune was originally intended to disguise "off-key inaccuracies", so vocal tracks can sound perfectly tuned despite being slightly off-key. Ha! Yes well no longer, it has become ubiquitous in pop music (crossing over to rock, r&b, hip hop) it has a sound all of its own. It deadens, flattens, makes the "singer" sound like an automaton, robot, at least to my ears. It can sound okay if it's done for affect, but used more than this, (especially if the singer uses it ALL the time) I will assume the singer either can't sing, or is always off-key. Imagine Janis Joplin using auto tune? Right, not a snowballs chance in hell. Imperfections, colorings, and inflections that a singer uses...will always win out over a device or a machine. A rock singer of any merit wouldn't use it. But I've been surprised to hear certain artists like Maroon Five and Chris Cornell do. And yeah...I don't use it. But never say never right? (Though I have put a bit of flanger on my BR vocals or a bridge for affect!

Bears
[sigh] It's killing me. I collect bears, in real life. I see they have a bear bling. Too bad it's fucking 7 credits! Anyway..send me a bear from the gift shop (fuBucks)...cause last I checked they had one, lol. I wanna see how many I can get :)

The Wedding Story
Okay it all started with a marriage proposal..... I am going to Fu Propose this is My Fu Marriage proposal...I promise to pimp only you, bling you with limited edition blings, HH, Special abilities, blasts and Godmodes till fudeath tears us apart...Do you think she will accep? Totally Rejected so I posted this next as my status cause I was broken hearted...I am FuEngaged. So I decided to FuMarry a70 years young FUBARIAN and I have the feeling the minute we take our Fuvows she will outlive me........from that point it went to this....OH WOW went to give me fu fiance the ring and her eyes rolled back in her head...the FU-neral will be tomorrow....and finally to this...Oh where is the Genu1deal Fu-Widowed button.......then finally this....My blushing 70 years young dearly departed fu wife had 6 ex fu hubbies before me. The 6 of us had to split her bling.

Leave
I'm sitting alone thinking of you. And the love I had for you. Now it's gone. I've said goodbye. I don't care about the tears in our eyes. What are you waiting for? I said I don't love you anymore. You betrayed me and my love. Now I must fly like a dove. I said goodbye,Why haven't you left? Leave my heart,my soul,and my mind.

Find Someone That Isn't Afraid
Find someone that isn't afraid to admit they miss you. Someone that knows you're not perfect but treats you as if you are. Someone who couldn't imagine losing you. Someone who gives their heart to you completely. Someone who says I love you and proves it. Last but not least, find someone who wouldn't mind waking up to you in the morning, seeing your wrinkles and grey hair but still falls in love with you all over again...

Out Of Step....
....and really just disconnected. You know for a while, I was feeling ok, and all seemed well, but this last week.... I just can't shake this awkwardness in everything I do, again. Work, interpersonal relations, and just life in general seems to be wrong. Everything, just wrong. It's not as though I'm going to stop being myself and I do keep trying to figure it out, but I don't get it, and just can't seem to figure out why. It probably boils down to people. Most of the time I'm very comfortable in the knowledge that I am different from 99% of them. Not better or worse, just different. I am not in touch with this collective idea that I need to impress, or best anyone, or that I need to be a sycophant, like so many of these people feel compelled to. I'm usually good with the fact that whatever the BS is they spout or live through, it's not part of my world. I can usually go through my day being exactly who I am without concern for the "fall out" they conjure in their need to comp

Alive Inside
It could be said of me that I am a musician. Though I prefer to think of myself as a laborer in the machinations of the sublime. This is not meant as churlish arrogance but, believe it or not, it is out of humility and love for music. I am constantly surrounded by music. I compose. I perform. I also teach it in a public school. It is a rare moment when I am not listening to, coming up with, playing, or discussing music. I have two degrees (bachelor's and Master's) in music and next year I begin my Doctorate. I love nearly every genre and strive to understand everything I can about why music effects us (or more selfishly, me) the way it does. I give you my impromptu resumé because as you read what I have to say, I want it to be clear that I am not a casual music fan. It is what I breathe and what I am both personally and professionally. And even with my scholarship and experience in it, there are times when I can be taken aback completely humbled by the awesome power that mu

The Republican Alphabet (repost)
Most people don’t know this, but in addition to a remedial civics class, Michelle Bachmann also taught a remedial English course. She started with the basics: A is for Anti-Christ. See B & O. B is for Barack – Isn’t that an “exotic” name for a President? George, Ronald and Sarah are far more American sounding. C is for Christ, who informs all of my decisions, including the ones where I discriminate against the poor and sick. Just like He would! D is for Death panels and they’re coming to unplug Grandma! E is for Electoral campaign finance reform. AHAHAHAHAAHH! Just kidding! The letter E is brought to you by, well, I don’t really have to tell you that anymore, do I? F is for Fascism!!! BE READY TO VIOLENTLY FIGHT THE FASCIST LIBERAL GOVERNMENT AT ANY TIME!!! Nothing bad ever happens when you live your life by this doctrine. If it does, it’s an isolated incident (see I). G is for God, Guns & Guts. Everything a population needs

Something New
Dark Desires the darkness in my life has been cast aside by an even darker light, this twisted, delightful, beauty that makes the darkness shine, to hold her would be so sweet, but to touch her a sin, to taste he lips would be pleasure, yet the agony begins, I fear the distance that keeps up apart,is not far enough, to keep me from falling into the darkest of loves, though she is perfect in anyway you can imagine, she is not free so our journey cannot begin, My dark desire haunts my dream each night and each morning becomes a shimmering light, leaves me breathless when I speak her name, and in my heart will always remain, a desire I must complete, for I shall never accept defeat.

Hope
Hope There is something inside that tells me this can happen, something that urges me to never give up, to go after this dream that wakes you with a smile, although it seems out of reach, it is just a few short steps away, keep reaching and stepping forward, until at last you can feel it in your hand, and once you hold it never let go, what is this feeling that I feel?, why is it telling me to keep trying? it is the hope that there is a chance, to feel love once more.

The Start Of Operation Restore Credibility Of Our Leadership On Yuwie
This how it all started for me. The wannabee writer. I always save my document when I write about a topic. Looking at my word document, it read 26 December 2007 6:29 PM We must restore our credibility and moral standing** Operation Restore credibility in our leaders U.S. Army** because rape victims say military labels them 'Crazy'**is this true? “Operation Restore credibility in our leaders U.S. Army” Mission: Call your Democratic or Republican Parties. Express your concern about Discrimination, Retaliation, Uncivil behavior, Abuse of authority, Sexual Assault, Suicide and Misconduct from Leadership. THESE NUMBER’S ARE FACTS AS OF TODAY Sexual Assault in the U.S. Army as of today. The 3,192 cases in 2011 amounted to a 1 percent increase over the 3,158 reported in 2010. The Army has consistently led the other services in the proportion of sexual assault reports, usually running about 2.5 per thousand, as it did in 2011. From Chicago Tribune When soldi

Observation Of People On Fubar
Some people on Fubar bring too much drama with them. They act like children and honestly I won't stand for the crap coming my way anymore. You want to judge me and disrespect my character. Take a look in the mirror, think of the way you treat people, and think all so who you want to be treat by others. Some lounge owners don't use good judgement when it comes to banning someone. I have been banned from a number of lounges for things I didn't start. I am tried of the immature behavior on here. Grow up those of you that act immature. I am not going to change my views on things for anyone. A suggestion to all lounge owners stop taking sides on things and hear both sides before you make a decision.

My Punishment
You say I have been naughty and bad, but I know you love me that way You say I must be punished for my deeds, You know I love it too Strip my body bare, take away my pride Swift slap across my face Grasp petite wrist in your strong hands twisting them behind my back Expertly the ropes snake around my arms Cinching tightly, I am yours This time I know you are serious But I have no fear My heart, body, and soul belong to you You prove this with the pain My reward is your pleasure and adoration now its time to pay my due Your calloused hand is firm as you grab my face Soft whimper my response It falls away, landing heavily on my full breast The sting bites at my nipples A sharp yank on the rope catches me off guard I stumble away but stop Your hand tangles in my hair keeping me upright Head pulled back, neck exposed Your mouth closes upon my neck as teeth sink in The pain makes me weak You pull my hair harder as teeth slowly rake down Pausing t

My What An Evening ;)
My whole body is throbbing, throbbing with a pleasure and a pain. I am exhausted and can’t move, I am lying here in exquisite joy; any touch or movement of the bedsheets around me is making my body tingle and zing. And there is also this intense throbbing between my legs, a dull ache which hurts, but hurts in such an amazing way. My body is numb and fatigued, I’m finding it hard to concentrate, but I will try my hardest to explain how I got here in the first place.The house was quiet and he snuck into my room while I was half asleep. I was awoken fully with the head of his hard cock brushing against my lips, my mouth parted to let it slip into my mouth, my tongue gently brushing over it, preparing it for the hard thrust down my throat. I took as much of it as I could, and as I bobbed my head up and down his long, fat cock he pulled down the straps of my nightdress, and gently played with my little boobs, pulling and twisting my nipples so they went hard between his strong f

Where I Belong
Sometimes you get used, to being alone. No one being there, when you come home. Other times you want someone, to wrap your arms around. To share stories with, to hear their sound. I have always been alone, it's just easier that way. Then why am I sitting here crying, today? I'm afraid and not to proud, to say so. I'm stepping into a world, I do not know. He shocked me one day, when he said. I never do this but, I can't get you out of my head. We've known each other for years, and I have watched you come and go. I have regretted not speaking up about, something you don't know. You and I have the opportunity, to be something great. If you want me to say my feelings aren't involved, well it's too late. He has always been, an amazing friend. The way his words made me feel, I don't know where to begin. My heart pounded, I melted right then. Simply because it was so, unlike him. The date is set, when we finally meet. After years of talking, it kinda ter

Frozen Water Fantasies Part 1
"Frozen Water Fantasies"Written By Ragdoll~ Aug 2005 Chapter OneI am lying across his bed, anticipating a night of passion. My own body moistened by the late afternoon humidity lingering in the air, coupled with my own sexual arousal. Alcohol has taken my mind over and replaced common sense with primal and urgent instincts. I am numb, but full of lust and deep desires for the man in my presence, to ravagly and completly consume my body and exhaust from me, my will to resist. In the waning glow of candlelight, I can see that my nipples are as erect as his body that I totally desire.I turn and see the full glass of rum and coke beside us on the bedstand. Somehow time is quickly moving, I must take action! I have to get what passionate ideas that are cultivating in my fertile mind, into our reality. He has to know that in my personal sexual world, there is no room for the boring and mundane. He has to see that there is no Normal or Ordinary.Just

So You Dont Understand Me....
Understand this: I am emotional and cry for almost every emotion i feel, I do easily forgive, And get hurt even easier.Understand this:I put everyone first and myself last, And you can just about bet everything i do is to make you happy, my goal has always been to never let you down.Understand this:I dont always say the right things, And sometimes even assume, I sometimes get loud when im angry.Understand this: I dont like being disrespected, talked down to or made fun of, I dont like being treated like a child or controlled.Understand this:I dont HAVE to deal with this.........Now you understand me?!?

Surrendering
Stepping through the doorway of the smoky bar Eyes adjusting to the lack of light She feels his gaze already upon her Foolish of her not to think he might be here A chill runs down her neck Realizing she has been caught

Welfare
I just need to vent about this for a minute. I also should state that weather or not it's any of your business, I am not on welfare. I do however have an opinion about it because my tax money is what helps fund it. It's not that I think there is anything bad about welfare in general, I just think that it needs to be reexamined. As far as I know, when it was started it was to HELP people and there was a limit as to how long you could be on it. Now, it could be like that in other states, but where I'm from...it's not like that now. There are plenty of people who actually need help. They don't need to get things for free, just help. I know of one person that had a job but couldn't really afford doctor bills, enough groceries to last, and other things that were NEEDED. They were riding the bus or getting rides to and from work because there was no money for a car. They tried to get a medical card to help cover some of her doctor visits, food stamps to help get a little f

[6 Sagas, 100,000 Views, 1000 Posts]
Let's take a moment to just sayHOLY FUCK!100,000+ views?1000+ posts?6 Blogs.6 Years.Been one whacky ride?Thanks all that are still around.Miss you if you're not.To everyone popping in at random, quiet intervals:sorry for the mess.- The Management.-------------------In other news. I hurt. A lot. For various reasons really. Most noteably is my shoulder. I put some of my music on this PC, so I hope I'll be writing with a bit more rhythm and feeling.Haven't ordered my new paint yet.Haven't filled out my paperwork yet.Haven't taken a serious look at a new jobyet.Man... been putting a lot off lately, I guess I've just been trying to recouperate over the weekends. I'm either that tired, or still adjusting.Royals lostdunununun10 games in a row.I know that my mood can be affected by their performance, but new job, and everything else going on... and I dunno, I'm in kind of a blah state with my entertainment/leisure time and that has kinda kept me grinding.All of this activity does beg the quest

Xxx Poem
DAYDREAM I LAY AWAKE AND YET I DREAMMY SEDUCTIVE MIND CONCEIVES A SCHEMEOF HOW I PLAN TO DO THIS RIGHTAND MAKE LOVE TO YOU THROUGHOUT THE NIGHTFIRST I'LL TAKE YOU OUT WITH ME TO DINEAND EASE OUR THOUGHTS WITH A LITTLE WINETHEN I'LL TAKE YOU HOME WITH MEAND LIGHT A FEW CANDLES SO WE CAN SEEI TURN ON THE RADIO AND LET THE MUSIC FLOWAND IN THE CANDLE LIGHT YOU SEEM TO GLOWAS I WALK OVER AND BEGIN TO REMOVE YOUR CLOTHESI TEASINGLY TRACE YOUR BODY WITH A WHITE ROSEALL YOUR HOT SPOTS THAT ARE CONCEALEDI WILL KISS AS THEY ARE REVEALEDI WILL KISS YOU DOWN FROM HEAD TO TOEVENTURING TO DEPTHS YOUR FANTASIES WON'T GOTEASING YOUR NIPPLE MAKING IT ERECTTHEN SWITCHING TO THE OTHER SO THERE IS NO NEGLECTSLOWLY MOVING DOWN FROM YOUR CHEST PAST YOUR WAIST TO FIND YOUR ENTICING SECRET THAT I'M DYING TO TASTESLIDING MY TONGUE AROUND YOUR LIPSTHROWING YOUR LEGS ON MY SHOULDERS AND LIFTING YOUR HIPSI FONDLE YOU WITH SUCH DELIGHTTHAT ALL YOUR MUSCLES BEGIN TO SQUEEZE TIGHTCONTINUING TO TEASE AND LICK YO

Broken Hearted
BROKEN HEARTED I LOVED YOUI LOST YOUI LOVE YOU STILLI'VE LOVED YOU TO THIS DAY AND FOREVER WILL...YOU TOLD MEYOU LOVED MENOW HOW DO YOU FEEL...WAS THE LOVE THAT WE SHARED EVEN FOR REALI HAD YOUYOU HAD MEWE VOWED IT WOULD BEUNTIL THE END OF ETERNITYTHEN AS QUICK AS LOVE ENTEREDIT HAD DEPARTEDAND I WAS LEFT HERE ABANDONEDAND BROKEN HEARTED.....

I Might Not Be Someone`s First Choice,
I might not be someone`s first choice,... but i am a great choice. l may not be rich ,.. but i am valuable.i dont pretend to be someone i`m not, ...because i`m good at being me.i might not be proud of some of the things i`ve done in the past,..but i am proud of who i am today..i may not be perfect.. but i don`t need to be...Take me as i am , Or watch me as I walk away !!!!!

A Happy Slice Of My Life. (boring Shit To Most)
Honest JOY! Family night at my home is full of laughter, joy and many times DRAMA! This family night was fabulous. It begins with a bear hug from hell from my great nephew Kylan (12) (he gives amazing hugs). Then my peanut...my princess...my Kynleigh (10), said "NO!!! That's my Aunt Kelly! She's mine!" She hugged me so tight I couldn't breathe. It was beautiful. Then the baby, Maddy (18 months) arrived, shy and charming as ever. Maddy warms up quickly! This baby can work an iphone like I've never seen! I wouldn't be able to do it! She also loves to go up and down the concrete stairs from the den to the backyard patio...which makes everyone a bit nervous, but you have to learn stuff....good and bad, right? Nothing bad tonight. We all have an eagle eye on that baby! Dinner is ready...we have so much food and tend to cater to the babies, no matter how old they are (always have fave food on hand). We had chicken & dumplings, butter beans and sausage, deviled

The Rose: Symbol Of All
This is Dedicated to AGGS The romantic scent of roses, Brings one thing to mind, To share the evening, With the woman I care for... Petals of beauty, Unfold in my hands, Perfect in every way, As I gaze into her eyes... Soft to the touch, Smooth and silky, Caressing them gently, As I hold her hands... The rose's stem, Wrapped in my hands, Making a wish, As I hold her tonight... However it ended, I can not say, But the rose I have, Brings me back to that day. SS copywright 2002

Howl.
I worked until it didn't hurt any more.Til I was a hoarse mass of sweat and screams.Too dry and angry to carry on.I worked until the cries were grunts.Til the grunts were hollow.Til the nails driven into skulls became uncountable.Til the great cleaving hacks were a reaped field of enemy.Til I wasn't lonely.Til I wasn't empty.Til there was just tight heat and mad drive.The strikes became clumsythe guard all but forgottennothing but rage and ripping sinewTrembling when stilled.Digging a sharp, itchy abrasion into cheek and bare chest.Cooling.Damp.Heaving.Fight.Howl.Defeat.Was I the last?The only?Did I care any more?Win?Lose?Hate.

Girls
Why is it, that the person you most want, can't be the one you get? I recently told a girl that I loved her, that I have loved her for several years. This fact was actually causing me stress and I think affecting my health. Now, this girl is several years younger than me, but she is quite mature and very smart. She is also, the most beautiful person I know. I have been afraid to tell her for a very long time, because I did not want to lose her friendship, which is very important to me, very. I truly did not want to know what it would be like to not have her in my life, in some way. I was not able to tell her face to face. She lives in a different city than me and I am on the road with my job. But I had to tell her, so I e-mailed her. I didn't get to put everything in it that I wanted, as I didn't want to overwhelm her. But I did tell her. She responded a couple of days later. Now, I have to tell you that I did not expect anything. Well, I did expect that she would not hav

[a Small Portion Of Time]
I'm not quite tired yet.Still a bit bored... and jamming my life with a fork.I haven't been able to pick up and run with my character concept yet.That's frustrating.What isn't frustrating,what is in fact awesome is losing 12lbs in a monthand being able to cook for myself for a week.So I combined a couple of my favorite thingspastaolive oilbalsalmic vinegargarliclemon juicespring onionsasparagusand pork sausage (or bacon)and parsley, basil, and chive blossoms from the garden.SaltpepperI dunno. Simple. Delicious. Took an opportunity to combine some of my favorite flavors, and as usual I asked if I was a genius, or if I just knew exactly how to make what I like.We might not ever know >>I like to blanch vegetables, or leafy greens like spinach and arugala in my strainer, and pour my noodles/boiling water over emI do it with brocolli... actually I've been on a green vegetable kick lately.BrocolliasparagusarugalaspinachartichokesBut I still prefer my asparagus fried in a skillet and cut tiny

Ernest
If time heals all, Then why am I still bleeding? You are long gone, A memory of love That blossomed quickly, Quickly disappearing Within the fragrant Emptiness and dark. We had few months: These bittersweet mementos Still live within me, Amulets of past, Your voice still lingers In the mourning whistle Of all four winds, A permanent good bye. So eighteen years have Come and left without Your touch, your smile, Your infectious calm. I still remember Every step you've taken, And I'm still grateful For everything you've done. If time heals all, Then why am I still bleeding? Fly swift, my love, Through everlasting space. Perhaps, this, too, Has its own meaning: Some memories Should never be erased.

5 Years....
I never thought I would be alive 5 years after my father's death. I truly didn't...but I am. I just knew I would die of heartbreak.....BUT I DIDN'T! Why didn't I? I had longed and wished for it, for so long. It couldn't be that I am stronger than I believe....JFC! That would mean I have some sort of backbone. WTF? I guess he taught me more than to make people laugh. Cheers! My Daddio....you are sooooooo missed and loved more than ANYTHING.

Sexy New Content!
If you want some new EXCLUSIVE content from me - Go to MyGirlFund (dot com) and search for "Kyatto" (that's me) Get an account (and please say I referred ya) , then friend me so I know who you are and you'll get some sexy stuff I don't post on here! :) Please check it out! As Fubar will no longer be the host of my spicier and sexier side ;)

The Galley
There's nothing like a boatride by moonlight to get my panties nice and creamy. A friend of mine has a decent size boat, 30 feet or so, just big enough for a few of us to go out for some late night enjoyment. We anchor in a secluded harbor and enjoy the moonlight, the beer, and good company. A longtime acquaintance, we'll call him "Richard", has been eyeing me all night. His eyes follow me as I climb up and out of the galley to grab a beer. Once or twice, his hand brushes up against me, first against my hand, then on my waist, to steady me when I swayed a bit. It was only a matter of time. As we all sat up on the deck enjoying the view, I noticed Richard heading down to the galley. As he headed down, his eyes caught mine. The look was inviting; it promised much more than the casual conversation I was in at present.After waiting a few minutes to avoid drawing too much attention, I headed to the galley myself. As I turned around to back down the ladder to the galley, I felt Richards hand

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i got a few suggestions for bling :) i hope this gets read lol 1st i want a Texas Longhorns bling! yall should do the college teams again for the people that missed out on that bling. 2nd.. Activated blingi have a few ideas that could work out for yall.. 1st idea. Like Back Bling. If Someone Likes You You Get A Like Back Automaticly Boomeranges do rates. why not make one for likes? 2nd idea.. Family Bling.. If Someone Likes You Everyone In Your Family Gets A Like Back. 3rd idea... Make It Pour!! Family Bling.. Everyone In Your Family Get A Extra 25-50% Bonus Fubucks ok thats that.. moving on Birthday/Aniversery BlingEveryone Should Get A Happy Birhday Bling On there birthday or even maybe a boomerang on there birthday possibly?Fubar anaverserys..Make a bling that shows how long they have been on fubar 1 yr 2 yrs 3 yrs and so on.. and give them a boomerang and every year it goes up make the prize bigger. ok those are some of my ideas.. i hope yall take time to read this.. thanks

Creative Salute Contest
Creative Salute Contest Tired of seeing the same old salutes? Interested in putting your creativity and originality to good use? Interested in winning a Rock Star? Then read on... I'll be conducting a contest for the most creative salute that will run from Friday, May 11th until 12pm Fu-time on Friday May 18th. The person whose salute has the most rate votes wins a Rock Star. In addition, the runner up in rate votes will win a boomerang! Rules All salutes MUST NOT contain nudity (ie they must be SFW), but flirtatious is certainly acceptable - after all, this is Fu :) The contest will be capped at 30 entries, and all entries must be submitted to me by 12pm Fu-time on Friday May 11th There is NO entrance fee To submit a salute, upload the picture to a public (ie not private) folder on your profile, and drop the photo's link into my SB. Obviously, you will be giving me permission to rip this particular photo. Entries will be accepted on

Oh Dear Lord, I Am So Sore
3 fierce workouts in 3 days Walkouts with a torso twist, Some thing where we had to sit...against the wall with no friggin chair, ab work from the step...the boys were on a friggin roll :( I am sore as hell Like when I first started lol

Types Of People
As we go threw this journey called life we meet all sorts of people some are 1. hateful and mean. Those type of people really have no life so they feel the need to put others down 2. The brutally honest you can always count on them to tell you exactly what they think no matter what 3 The happy go lucky they usually think nothing is wrong with the world. those are just to name a few but no matter they are people. Everyone is diffferent no two people are the same how boring would that be. No matter what type of person someone is they all deserve to be treated with respect. Also remember though respect is also earned not just given. There are also different types of friends. 1. The friends that are true these friends will stand behind you no matter what, 2. The frienemy they pretend to be your friend but really arent. 3 The enemy someone who will openly say how they really hate you but they are really being a better friend to you then a frienemy. True friends have you back th

Fake Of The Day Update.
Here's an update on yesterday's fake of the day. Caught it scrolling again this morning (surprise, surprise - it will be up there all day.) And now its' not talking to anyone except for in their lounge. Cmon people, do they think you are that stupid? Someone needs to hold the people that run it accountable. If this isn't resolved by today I will be posting the owner's links in here so everyone can ask them why they have a fake assistant manager and profile promoting their lounge. I am done with this bullshit. Also, since options for rank/running have become limited, I'm trying different things. Make sure you check these blogs and your bartab for details...peace.

Anger Management....
Anger Management When you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know. I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten to make. I found the number and dialed it. A man answered, saying "Hello." I politely said, "This is Chris. Could I please speak with Robyn Carter?" Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear "Get the right f***ing number!" and the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude . When I tracked down Robyn's correct number to call her, I found that I had accidentally transposed the last two digits. After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again. When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled "You're an asshole!" and hung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'asshole' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really

Love
If I love, I love completely. If we can't talk all the time, I still love you completly. If I am silent, doesn't mean I don't love you. It simply means I love you more than I can tell you. Sometimes, I can't share things of my personal life. I still love you completely...........and I always will.

Family
Soooo I been famping a decent amount, and yes I boot people and yes I sell spots so that I can keep famping for my family! I don't really do it for rates cause I don't really care about that.. I don't do it for points cause I don't need points.. If you are in my family and you are on and u can't be decent enough to rate me when I'm famping you.. I will remove you! Over 300 people have me in there family, I do try to rotate people around and I will be again soon! Some people get mad and for that I'm sorry! It's my family, I wont tell you what to do with yours.. There's people I'd never boot from my family for two reasons.. 1. There my real friends ( Which means we hold conversations) ... 2. they famp me back sometimes! With all this being said I love my friends! Old & New.. Family or NOT I love them all!

Curious....
I was wondering if men realize the sometimes painful and awful things women do to be pretty for you? Most men like a woman with natural beauty....some of us are not blessed with that gift. Trust me on that! If you could only see me now. *gags a little* We shall start from the bottom up....feet, not my personal fave thing in the world but at least mine are cute. We scrub....exfoliate...trim and paint our toe nails. Doesn't sound so bad, right? Have you ever had a really rough girl do your feet???? Enough said. Legs...lovely smooth legs...shaving every fucking day, all the way up. I saw a friend that I had not seen in a while, one of the first things he did was run his hand up my thigh and simply said "just checking", he had commented before how smooth my legs are...all the way up. A sensitive subject next...I will not mince words. I have used wax, razors, I, myself, own electric tweezers....*gulps loudly* I have done it all to my pussy and even ass. Electric tweezers su

Georgie W's Response "i Thought Queen Elizabeth Was A Boat ... B.gates Has More Money Than Uk"
To read these political satire emails in chronological order (they will make the most sense that way), start with the oldest post "England's letter to take back USA as a colony." [George W. Bush voice] Notis of Revocableation of Your Revocableation: 1) I thought Queen Elizabeth was a boat ... in Long Beach. Hey, do y'all remember that big wooden plane ... what was it ... the Goosed Spruce? Man that thing was the shit! 2) Don't mess with them boys at the Micro Corp. Gates might look like one of those kids I used to beat up in grade school, but man does he carry a grudge. Plus, he's got more money than the UK, so I'd be more inclined to listen to him. 3) I love those crazy Austrians. Hell, with all their "G'days" and "Mates" and "bonzers" there just like the people in my great home state of Tex-as. [Bush singing voice] The stars at night .... are big and bright (clap, clap, clap) Deep in the haaaaart, of Tex-as!!!!!!! [/Bush singing voice] 4) I hate those liberal commies in Hol

Goodbye
I'm sorry for all of this sweetie, it's not your fault, I know I will never be good enough for you, may you have happiness everyt single minute and find someone good enough who will make you the happiest person in this world as you deserve to be , wherever I will be, I will be always loving you, forgive ,I'm too weak... these are my lasts words, my last tears, my last breath, I need to rest now, I will be in peace... goodbye my lover

Dying Dreams
At times I wish to run away And not look back again For all the pain and hurt I've had Has washed away all that I am I had lists of dreams and goals to conquer Failure has left me to rot Into all the aspects that I tend to hate Leaving me to wish that I had not Forcing emotions to spin away Into depths of despair and anguish My bare soul stripped to the core Exposing all the sin What is left for me to accomplish Except failure, lust, and loss of trust I'm bored alone, left to myself Watching that list, by choice, being crushed

Best Lips/smile
k boys and girls I'm going to run a contest of the best lips/smile. I will take entires from now til the end of the contest. Contest is open to all both boys and girls. Contest will run from 12:00AM EST 5/24/12 Til 11:59PM EST 5/31/12.Entry fee 5,000,000 FU buxSend links to my INBOX letting me know what pic you want me to use, no I will not pick a pic for you.Picture has to be a basic headshot. This is not about your chest, legs, or what your wearing/not wearing in the pic. 1st place will go to the most rates and I will spend 35 credits however you wish (no I will NOT transfer 35 credits to you) but if you want a rockstar which is worth 35 credits thats fine or any other combination of bling up to 35 credits2nd place will go to the most comments and I will spend 25 credits however you wish (no I will NOT transfer 25 credits to you) but if you want a famp which is worth 25 credits thats fine or any other combination of bling up to 25 creditsEveryone else will get a big pimpin gift from

Words...
You turn me on… Not like a light switch… Like an old oil lantern… Smoldering…from blackness…to enough heat to melt metal… Every sense slowly feeling the burn…until my brain is on fire with the thought of you… Until I can’t think, can’t breathe…until I burn. I wear so many masks…sometimes I don’t even realize it… Who I am, with different people, to keep certain things out of the light at certain times… I do my best to accept people for who they are…I rarely give anyone a chance to accept me… Someone close to me once told me that I’m masterful at giving away so much of myself without actually giving away anything… I can put it down as myself actually evolving, but that’s only part of the truth… The other part is that I refuse to stand in front of the mirror that is another person’s gaze…instead I reflect what I think they

Super Soaker Wtf?
Man Arrested With Shotgun Disguised as "Super Soaker" Squirt gun held shotgun shell, police said By DANIEL MACHT | Tuesday, May 22, 2012 | Updated 10:36 AM PDT This squirt gun packs serious heat. A 54-year-old convicted felon was reportedly arrested in California for carrying a “Super Soaker” gun that had been modified to hold a shotgun shell instead of water. Fresno police told KMPH-TV the arrest came shortly after they had been briefed about people who convert toy guns into weapons. Police said they encountered Randy Smith walking the streets while carrying the weapon around his neck in a sling. "He took the Super Soaker apart, was able to fashion a barrel to where he was able to make what's considered a zip gun, where you can fire one round through it,” Sergeant Mark Hudson told KMPH. “In this case it was a 20 gauge shotgun shell." A local gun shop employee told the TV station such a modification could be made for as cheap as $30, but woul

For Anyone Who Has Ever Lost...
Still falling Breathless and on again Inside today Beside me today Around broken in two Till you eyes shed Into dust Like two strangers Turning into dust Till my hand shook with the way I fear I could possibly be fading Or have something more to gain I could feel myself growing colder I could feel myself under your fate Under your fate It was you breathless and tall I could feel my eyes turning into dust And two strangers turning into dust Turning into dust Turning into dust Mazzy Star

In Defense Of Cougars.....
I have been a member of fubar for over two years now and have met a lot of nice woman who have become my good friends who I chat with frequently. And along the way I run into a Cougar occasionally. Cougars are older woman who are attracted to younger men. Many older woman who are attractive can still attract a younger man and many younger men are attracted to older attractive woman. Cougars today are like men use to be years ago when you would commonly see an older man with a much younger woman. But Guys the ladies have turned the tables on us. Older woman today are much more attractive and youthful looking than before. Many mother's on this site and in real life look like their daughter's sister. The acronym "MILF" has become popular with older attractive woman in recent years. Many Cougars who were recently divorced or in a long relationship experienced their Man's appearance slowly diminish.. Many men during a long marriage or relationship gain weight have a beer be

[notions Of Circular Time (survey)]
1. Where were you 3 hours ago?Probably in front of my computer watching a show on the wholose.2. Who are you in love with?Hmm... odd question at this point in my life.I'm gonna go with "ass-meat girl".3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?Nope.4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?Yes. A box for a windup robot.5. When is the last time you went to the mall?... ... probably over 5 years?6. Are you wearing socks right now?I am, and I'm thinking about removing them since the Royals just lost 3 in a row.7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?No. My goodness. No.8. When was the last time you drove out of town?Probably some time this week... it is pretty easy to get there.9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?Nope.10. Are you hot?I'm a little warm, hence the lack of clothing.11. What was the last thing you had to drink?Water.12. What are you wearing right now?aaaaaw yeeeeeah~Novelty boxers. Jinxed socks.13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?I let the rain do it.14

This Site Has Changed Alot
i remember when you can show your bikini here when it was cherry tap...now it has change alot..GOT TO HAVE CLOTHES ON..WHATEVER NOT LIKE I WANNA SHOW NSFW PICTURES...GEEES PEOPLE AND IF I DID I KNOW HOW TO DO IT...DUH...IM JUST VENTING..

Steamy Shower
I’ve been home alone all day cleaning up and making everything look nice. I’m in the kitchen finishing up the dishes, and I hop in the shower, hoping to be done before you get home. I’m just finishing up my shower when the curtain opens and I see Michelle there, naked too, she just walks into the shower and starts kissing me, roughly grabbing my boob pushing me against the wall pressing her body to mine. Hot water streaming down on both of us while she sucks on my tongue and lips one of her legs between mine rubbing into my pussy. Then she takes her mouth from mine, trailing down my neck to my nipples, already hard she takes them into her mouth sucking and biting them teasing them till I’m hotter than the water. Then she just drops lower, on her knees in the shower she starts to lick my clit, easing her way down inside me a little and back to my clit until I can’t stand anymore. My knees are weak and so she takes my hand and leads me

So Alone Tonight
So alone tonight no love I cry my self to sleep tonight alone tonight moon on my face dark over me I say not a word of love hoping love will come my way So alone tonight I wish I find love one day hold me dear to my heart true love true love So alone tonight no love I cry my self to sleep tonight alone tonight will love find me one lonely night someone love me tell me will I here these words one night So alone tonight no love I cry my self to sleep tonight bY Christine

The Facts On Love And Life Trrust Me Its Better Then It Sounds
this is the fact of love Love is blind! one minute you know where your life is going and where you want it to go this is when the lights go out and you realized that you are all alone that everything that you loved and everything that was yours is gone only for the fact that you have been blinded and you can’t find your way around this alluring empty quiet dark place which is love some might find there soul-mate but there are some who are so scarred by the ones they loved love is almost nonexistent some might find the light again but with this shallow hole of darkness only few can climb out. and this one is the fact on life life is hell and hell is life but how can you die if you havent lived and why you may ask am i saying this just read and you well understandlife is hell and hell is life why do you live just to die this is the question i have been asking my self for a long time. it took me forever to find the anser i have come

Sour Undone.
There's a blot between disgust and disdain.Calculating the moment you knew, and I didn't.When my dignity got caught all up in it.I remember feeling, and then not.But not in the same night.I remember a swift burn of vanilla and a fuzzy wobble down the hall.I remember both her arms wrapped around me.Shakey.Stable.Safe.You.Did this to me.Wet porches smell just like limestone...and a sunrise that never came.No post-sex wrapup and cigarette.Pants.Check.Keys.Check.Leg kicking against wood floors, neck cramps, pair of flea bites.And very dirty socks."Hey.""Hey.""I'm gonna take off.""Yeah.""Yeah."Every now and thenI find fairly delicate hands in mine.Looks.Lingery looks.Often without any deeper meaning.Those are the best.Sometimes.I could do something uncooltell you I'd miss youtell you I want to take you homeand maybe show you that sunrise that never came...

Delicious Memories Of Sensual Night
In the darkness of room I crawl on top of you, breathing deeply. Awakening, you feel my nipples press against your chest as I stroke your face gently with my hands. Your cock pokes me in the belly as my mouth draws closer to yours. Closing your eyes, you try to move your arms to engulf me, only to find they won't move. Puzzled, you try to look up at your hands as I fade away into the darkness. Your arms are pulled out to the side and above your head. You try to move them and wonder why they refuse to obey your command. You feel a very interesting sensation in your groin and look down, startled. Eyes adjusting ever so slightly in the dark, you make out your manhood being gripped in my hand, rapidly moving up and down until your erection has grown. The friction induced pleasurable sensation is replaced with an even better one as you feel my mouth close over your tip. "Whaaaa?" you gasp, now awakening more fully to find me kissing your cock. I smile at you mischievously,

Vampire Roleplay
MY ROLEPLAY WORLD IS A ABOUT A FICTIONAL VAMPIRE CLAN AND THE LIFE OF ITS MEMBERS, NAMELY THE KING (BASED COMPLETELY ON ME AND FEATURING POPULAR CHARACTERS FROM TV, MOVIES, MUSIC, VIDEO GAMES, COMICS, ETC) PICKING UP AFTER RECENT EVENTS. SO IF NAMES AND STUFF SOUND FAMILIAR I DID IT ON PURPOSE. DEAL WITH IT. AND FOR ALL THE SICK PEOPLE (LIKE MYSELF *SMILES DEVILISHLY*) THERE WILL BE NSFW PARTS IN LATER CHAPTERS, SO WHEN IT COMES TO IT I WILL MARK THE SECTION AS ADULT OR M. ANYONE WHO MARKS THE ENTIRE BLOG AS NSFW GETS BLOCKED AND REPORTED. CHAPTER 1: INTRODUCTION/THE STATE OF THE FAMILY On a quiet piece of flat land somewhere in the Carolina mountains. a large stone and steel castle sits silent after the divorce its king just went through. sitting in his study, thinking of the state of the family, the king, Brian, rendered near crippled from years of strenuous battles with demons, werewolves, monsters and human enemies over the past several years ponders what could possibly be next.

Men In General
What is it with men in general?, They tell you, you are hot, sexy, they can't stop thinking about you and then they never show you that they even know you are alive... I consider myself a nice person. I try to always compliment anyone who happens to come onto my page. I don't get mean, unless they can't take "no" for an answer. I flirt with everyone, because I like to flirt and my profile states that. They stick around long enough to see if they can meet up with you in person and for what?...just sex. It's like there isn't anything more important to them than to stick their cocks into anything that will squeeze it tight for them and they can get off. That is where the term "dawg" came from...did you know that? Who am I talking about in general? Men on fubar, and any other social networking site. I have had men get mad at me for not opening up my cam and playing for them. There is a reason why you mostly have to pay for this..I am not here for your pleasure only. I have feelings also

Hey, Guess What.....
I am not as unhandlable as I may want to be. I am not attracted to females, just curious. Here I am figuring if I haven't met Mr. Right, in person, yet maybe I should try playing with a female. I am not into rough and painful sex. After experiencing something that had me standing in the shower crying out in pain, it isn't favorited by me. I ultimately don't want to feel like a piggy bank without my cork. Its amazing, the things that I am asked on here. There is always the option of blocking but pissing off ya just gotta do sometimes. Fucking Deal With It!! If you wanna be mean and have that person be nice chances are its not going to happen. I am like a ray of sunshine on a cloudy day. Could not always say that. I see things worse than they are. OMG, I ain't a perfect sample of a southern California girl. My Bad!! Yes, I was born in California. Not Hollywood or L.A. but the Mojavi Desert. I spent most of my childhood in Oro Grande, with the rattlesnakes and scorpions. I can't an

Taking Over. (watch Me Fall Apart)
That’s not the worst of it And you don’t get it You don’t live it I need help now You ask me how I don’t know Just hold me as I shake Stand all blows you can take Im tired of being a shell, a fake, Take it away Please stay Tell me youll always love me anyway. I am weak and tired and afraid You ask me how I got this way ...I don’t know.

Update On Life
---UPDATE--- 6/14/2012 -- 5:43amI know I've been gone for a long while, but I can officially say I've never been better! Rumors are indeed true, that things really do get worse before they get better. I'm here to say now, NEVER let go of your dreams and true friends. Your dreams and friends will go wherever you go. Through the worst of places to insure support. My dreams have landed me with 4 business licenses. Tattoo's, Bikes, Paints and Graphics. Took me less than a year I might add! I've only been gone around 9 - 10 months. Still a long time, could have been done sooner. Which it kinda was... Like 6 months. I guess I've been wrapped up. But 9 - 10 months... Figured I would update you peeps like I said I would. So there it is and I'll do my best to keep all my friends updated! I'll post project pics and everything up as soon as I can!

Aim And Fire
Stutter I stare out the window at the setting of the sun Fragile fat tears making clean rivers against my dirty cheeks Guilty hands The brightness screaming blood infused eclipses full of a Shame That envelopes a darkness no sun beam could ever warm These pinks and reds, bruising purple hues confuse me Rotten sky full of fury for a rancid piece of cloud pie My eyes close in blinks and stutters Clawing at the smoke stained curtains I lament As The shadows shift and bend my heart to confront my own isolated moons Sadness swallows me

Fathers Day
Fathers Day I never knew you lost so young I here I look like you talk like you I have your eyes, Have your hands. I have your moods love like you. But how can that be, You ran from me lost in the dark woods at night. Fathers Day what does that mean to me I am lost thinking of the meaning of this day. Voice of my soul comes out of me Do you own me Fathers Day I am alone thinking how it could of been with you I here you passed away How you took your life. Fathers Day You ran from me lost in the dark woods at night. bY Christine

Eating The Barrel
Sell Out That Goddess is a Minister Bitter thinker of broken hearts and hate Her debt so high she can't begin to pay it back I watch in reverence as the she loses her clothes like a Hollywood stripper Scripture inked across her back says "The Lord will supply my needs" While her mouth curves in seductive wet kisses Her greedy Coal blackened eyes travel to the sweaty believer in the front pew

I Dont Even Know Wat To Call This
I feel SOOO low right now..and for all of you that are my friends...you may not know why...but please respect that I just wanna be left alone....I'm tired of screwing up and getting into people's way also...I am going to back off and fade away...for YOU..YOU know who YOU are..I thank YOU SOOO much...just for always being there...but pretending nothing is wrong when I just wanna crawl in a hole somewhere is not the person i am..I can't do the pretending thing when I wanna scream it..so I think just removing myself from the situation period is the best thing to do..and best for everyone else as well....to all of my dearest and closest friends...I love you guys and thank you so much..and to YOU..I don't care wat people say...YOU are always there for me...I can't help it..I just love YOU...

Do You Feel Me
As darkness comes you sleep alone I watch the one i've always known Turn in the coldness of your mind And light the focus of your smile Da da dum da da dum da da dum on a summer-breeze Somehow seeking softly into you Da da dum da da dum da da dum in a whispering Always there no matter what you do I can't stop falling where my heart comes calling Do you feel me Warming you like rays of sunshine I can't stop falling where my heart comes calling Do you feel me Warming you like rays of golden light Summer-breeze

Gone A While
So i have been getting hit hard from a lot of my friends about where i have been....its a tough one to explain, but those that know me at all will understand. i spent the last three years in a abusive relationship..the thing about it is that i would never normally allowed anyone to overcome me and treast me bad. long story short almost a year ago i had a self inflicted accident which ended in me pretty much dying ...i am now dealing with the after effects if this and trying get back on track..i hope this helps..any more questions please ask ...love to all my great friends...xoxo

Life And Bullshit
Don't ever give someone ur heart... keep it close.. don't ever give it away to someone.. Love is suppose to be easy if it's meant to be? I am so tired of fighting and crying. I just want to be me.. and it seems like it's never going to be enough. Time for me to just fade the fuck away.. feel my heart breaking.......

Orgy Lounge Graphic Contest
Calling All The Graphic Artists of the Orgy Lounge we have a contest for you!!! We need a new Logo for out Orgy Apparel! If Your Interested PLEASE READ on! :) Rules: 1. Must Be a Member or Staff of The Orgy Lounge 2. Image must be 500x500 and Transparent. 3. Image Must have NO Animation. 4. Images Must be in by June 30th 2012 5. Images must be east to read. 6. You can use any colors you want and dosen't matter how many. 7. Image must say The Orgy Lounge somewhere on it. 8. Image can not use any persons face... because of copyright. Contest will begin on July 1st 2012 and end on July 14th 2012. Winners will gain points by rates and comments... so if you want to win you have to send people to vote they can be of the orgy lounge or not... anyone on fubar can vote! 1st Place will recieve a Boomy and Their Image Featured on everything C51Creations has to offer! 2nd Place will win 6 Crts and put on T-Shirts/Hoodies/Tank Tops. 3rd Place will win 3 Pimpouts and put on th

Mumm For Me!
Let's see if I can drive this thing, been a while. I cannot make mumms nor can I make comments and of course you guessed it, that hurts my heart and junk. Please let me know if you would like to post a mumm for me, I got a million of'em, I will pay you 10,000 fubucks per mumm which is twice the cost of making mumms. Hey this might work out better, when I could make mumms I could only do five per day but if enough folks help me out here I could be making thousands per day! Imagine that folks!

Therapy
I have not been around much lately because I am undergoing lymphodema therapy. I started last Tuesday and then another session Thursday. I did not realize the pain this would cause and now I am even more limited to what I can and cannot do. Sitting here at the computer for more than 10 minutes becomes very irratating to my right leg and hip. If I lay down too long I also feel discomfort thus I am losing lots of sleep. This week I have to go back to back... Wednesday and Thursday so I will probable be in more pain for a longer period of time. I am going to try and get all those who keep the love coming my way back as soon and as often as I can. Please do not feel I am ignoring in sb if and when I am on. I stay logged in so I am either not at computer or I am busy trying to rate everyone as quickly as possible. Thanks to all my friends and fam on the fu for showing support and love through this tuff time. Hugs and much love all!

I Really Love That Rock 'n Roll!
Reeka mentioned to me that she found her dad's copy of Rocky Horror Picture Show on VHS. It called to mind fond memories of attending midnight showings at the Highland Village Theater, the Grenada Dinner Theater and hosting home parties. I wax nostalgic and post this video, with stills from the film. Also - the lyrics. Audience yells are in brackets next to the original. Have suggestions? Post 'em in the comments! :) Hot Patootie (Bless My Soul) from The Rocky Horror Picture Show Written by Richard O'BrienPerformed by Meat Loaf as Eddie Whatever happened to Saturday night?When you dressed up sharp and you felt all right?I don't seem the same since cosmic lightCame into my life - I thought I was divine!I used to go for a ride with a chick who'd goAnd listen to the music on the radioA saxophone was blowin' on a rock 'n roll showWe climbed in the back seat, really had a good ti-ime! CHORUS: Hot patootie, bless my soul! I really love that rock and roll! [Sex, Drugs and Rock And Roll!]

Wondering
Wondering Have your ever really wondered who are your true friends or who you can depend on from now until the end Have you ever really wondered what is real and what is fake of how much more nonsense your can truely take Have you ever really wondered if all the hurt will go away if the loneliness and sorrow will forever stay Have you ever really wondered if it will all be alright if you will always have to cry to get to sleep at night If any of these things you've wondered then it will be ok because you are still here to wonder another day.

Shades
I received a book for my birthday. I got Fifty Shades of Grey. I read the book in 2 days. I have to say that I'm addicted, lol. I went right out and bought the second book. I've finished it. Now I must go and buy the final book in the series. Grrr!! I really hate when I get wrapped up in something. It seems so take up all of my time and then I end up ignoring my friends. I'm sorry. However, I have to say..........I want a man like that. I do. Any takers?

For My Sun And Stars
My Body Aches not just for your embrace But the Gaze of your eyes upon my skin The Touch of your hand across my face Stirs the Longing at a quickening pace The Feel of your lips down my neck The Heat of your body against my chest The Warmth of your buried deep inside The Pleasure that flashes in my eyes One Sensation I can not hide Hands Entangled as passion we ride The Need see it

Will U Still Love Me???
Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect? Will you still love me even if I’m not the kind of person you wish I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I’d let you down? For though I yearn to take care of you as I should, though I desire to love you with a love that never falters and fades, my knees tremble this very moment that you hold me in your arms. Shall I kiss you? Shall I hold your hand and bask in the light of your spirit knowing that I have my darkness, knowing there will be times that the light of my love will sometimes be overshadowed by the darkness that is in me? Sometimes I’d be silent and I might bore you. I may not laugh at your jokes, and you may not understand the spell that’s enshrouding me. Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words what the hell it is that troubles me. I wouldn’t be good company then, and I couldn’t make you smile.

Trouble With The Cherry Inferno Achievement?
Ok.. So I know alot of you are having some trouble with the "Cherry Inferno Achievement." As it being a leveling requirement for all of us to get to level 51, we ALL have to do it at one point or another.. Some have tried it many times and have failed miserably. I thought I would too.. But I was running a God Mode one day and I decided I'm gonna come up with the perfect way to do this.. Luckily for myself.. I succeeded in the way to do it. Lucky for all YOU too.. cuz I will tell you exactly how it was done.. First off.. There is a blog on fu that I read and helped me a lot. http://fubar.com/how-to-own-the-cherry-inferno/b266817-1174186 In case you haven't seen it, it's worth it to check it out so please do so and follow it exactly.. There are a few Very Important details they decided to leave out.. Have no fear though.. I am going to explain that as well. Second thing you need to know is that you need to be comfortable and relaxed. No distractions. You will be sit

Death
11 years ago today, a really good friend was taken away. I still think of him each day that passes by, and relive the pain as the time goes by. 5 months ago, a woman came into my life, she took the pain away, made me think of something better, she made me think of our life together. She helped me to forget the pain that I have dealt with all my life, from losing people close to me, all the way through to my father's lies. I screwed things up with her, now my happiness I shall deny. When she walked away from me, I felt as though I should die. All I can do is sit here and cry as life just passes by. I have dealt with heartbreak before, but this time, my heart was tore from my chest, I have no heart any more. People say that I will be okay, that I will be just fine... but I feel that is just a line. No one will ever know what she means to me, words will never describe. I hate myself with all I have, I feel that I have died.

The Almight Pimp Hand...and Other Annoyances...
Okay so there's another thing they REALLY need to fucking change here folks...the Pimp Hand ability bling...wtf is a member, who has been blocked, permitted to use the pimp hand on the member who blocked them??? Doesn't that totally defeat the whole purpose of BLOCKING some annoying fucking asshole out here? Ok, we aren't permitted to use any other ability bling on someone who has blocked us...we cannot even view the members bling...or polish it...so why the fuck is someone I blocked permitted any access to my profile? This mostly pertains the fucking queen c*nt of fubar...she thinks she's phasing me by taking away my ability to comment for 30 mins lol...my only objection is that she's permitted access to me when I blocked her vindictive, bitchy, spiteful fucking ass...just sayin

American Dream
The Dream, good job, nice house,car, husband/wife, kids, general prosperity. Everybody wants it, a good handful achieve it. The American dream; instilled in our minds early on in life. Other countries model themselves for it, while others want to destroy it. How did this idea become so highly regarded that some people are willing to do anything to have it? No matter what the cost, some of us try so hard to get to that "American Dream" that they can almost taste it, while in the same breath envy those with it already. So how can a person be upset with another who has that "Dream" or are really close to obtaining it? Envious of where they are and where they are headed. To that question I answer, everybody has a choice no matter how difficult it is, to find a path to thier "American Dream". To be envious of another person's ladder climb to that "Dream" seems in my opinion a little shameful and unfair because you have the choice to get to where you want to be. If you really want somethin

Contradictions Of Us
Contradictions of Us 7/4/2012 It hurts so badly. It feels so good… I don’t want it to end. I don’t fear that it could. This pain is pure pleasure, this pleasure, pure pain. I know I’m not crazy. I think I’m insane. I can’t feel what I’m touching. I can’t touch what I feel. This is so overwhelming. So real, yet surreal. This feeling stays with me, through the day and the night. It can’t possibly be wrong. It can’t possibly be right. You’re with me each moment, yet we’re so far apart. You live there, you live here, inside of my heart. We can’t be together. We’re together all the time. We can’t have each other. I’m yours and you’re mine. You own me, I’m his. I own you, you’re hers. I can tell you what I’m feeling. I can’t find the words. What’s happening here... I can’t quite explain. The contradictions

On My Dads Birthday - Rip - July 4th - God Called Another Angel Home To Heaven
My dearest uncle, may you fly to Heaven as show white dove full of glory,wrapped in God's love. The Father has taken away all your pain, a new life with Jesus is what you have gained. All your worries and all of your woes they are now just bad memories, what you endured only God knows. He sent down His Angels to meet in the sky, to bring you to Heaven, your home upon high. Although we will miss you every day, we will sense your Angelic prescens not only at times when we pray. We will feel you always, we will know you are there. Please stay by us always, let us feel you are here, if we know you are with us, then all these lonely nights and days we can bear. Whisper you love us and wipe all our tears, if you stand by us always then we all have no fears. Please take care of your family, guide them with all your love. You are now their Angel, you are now their Dove, forever and always in Heaven above. I will always miss you and love you uncle Per....Memories stay with me

Soulmates
They say that there’s a soul mate for everyone. I never was one to give in to such ways of thinking I was one who always felt there were no such things in this world at least as it pertained to me. However, one woman has changed my position on this subject. A woman I have admired from afar, A stunningly beautiful woman on the outside, blonde hair, deep green eyes that I got lost in from the first time I saw them. They also say the eyes are the doorway to the soul but little did I know what was behind those doors. Locked away behind all the no trespassing and do not enter signs was something so spectacular that even I could have never dreamt of it, the soul of a woman full of love and caring waiting for a man willing and strong enough to forge through the hard outer shell and breakdown the walls, a man willing to look past his own tough love experiences and show her that it is possible to be loved the way she herself loves, to feel as close to a man as she has always been told wa

About Me :)
Ummm ok so idk what I'm suppose to do on here since I never made one but um, hi xD I guess I'll start with saying a little about myself: I'm bi, I can get quite shy in person. I'm really nice and caring as long as you don't talk to me about stuff that pisses me off. I'm not a sex freak so I'm not into much sex stuff or jokes. I love shopping, I have an obsession for Pandas. I've loved them ever since I was little. I looooveee the band Black Veil Brides, they're amazing. And if you don't like them please either don't say anything or don't even bother talking to me at all. Thanks~ I also like going to the beach when I'm in the mood for it, I like camping as long as I don't get eaten alive by bugs. Things I Hate: Bugs, Needles, Heights, Berries, People who talk dirty, Parties (I'm not a party person and I can be quite shy), Alcohol and Drugs, Horror anything, Zombies. Things I Like: Being alone (not like, single alone but like, being in my room with my own space kinda alone.) Wat

I Wont Give Up
looking for a battlefield to lay my head to rest, i have seen and done more than enough in this life of mine, my body, mind and soul are tired after so many years being at war but for some reason i am still here and i will find the reason why regardless of where it takes me. This was my status today. I know alot of people truly don't know who i am so i figured I would go a little deeper into this. I have deployed to many different countries to fight than i have been in the army, I have trained and hurt myself countless of times but for some reason I have never gave up. I have seen many bad things in my life endured things I would never wish on anyone. But i have always bounced back. I have a fire or a thirst so to say that has not been quenched, I dont go out looking for a fight but I wil handle it when I need to. I seek out challenges in my life and I won't give up until I am able to complete it and if I don't watch out im on a one track mind until i make it there. It's wierd onl

[sore Back Song]
I'm a little dry... let's talk about food and games for a minute.Lately I've been working on my lemon rice from my Indian cookbook. We've had lots of citrus in the house, and I've got a stockpile of spice available, so I've made it almost every opportunity I could.I actually served a leg of lamb braised in lemon and garlic sauce to people that "hate lamb", and the comments were possitive, the shock of course was that it was "tender" and "mild". I contend that people like lamb (if they like any other red meat) so long as it is cooked and prepared properly.On the side was mango salsa (bit of a misnomer, but it's red onion, cilantro, lime juice), because we had... a crate of mangos to get through.I'm not crazy about actually sharing the specifics on this dish since I didn't design any of them, but I might share some of my audibles and tweaks I made.Later though... kinda dead, and lonely.My friends are scattering. Some already have. That weird... blazing burst of sociability is pretty much

A Magical Message
A Magical Message May I please have a moment out of your precious time. And share a dream with you that may just help you unwind. With this special message a dream is what we can create. With magical abilities with both of our hearts and souls at stake. Please allow us a moment to close our eyes being well aware. And dream of our biggest dreams if we only dare. We must believe this magic is truly happening right now to us. Being very gentle and kind to our hearts for it is only in ourselves we must trust. Allowing our imagination to begin stirring while feeling the warmth of magic occurring. Believing with both of our hearts that we know one of our dreams will create a desiring spark. Now see your dream take form and give a smile That type of smile you haven't had in awhile!

I Had To Create A Religion And This Is The One I Came Up With
The Religion of the Imaginists The religion of the Imaginists relies on deprogramming the human mind from believing that any one religion is the “only true” religion. Imaginists are taught to study religion as if it was a science class. They are given an full education on all other forms of religion spending one four month cycle every other year traveling to and studying with monks, priests, clergy and other secular faiths. They are shown the rituals of these other organized religions as well as their beliefs. After learning about other religions Imaginists are then given instruction and guidance in their lives. They are taught that everyone is part of a pattern or cycle in this life. They are raised to believe that they must fend for themselves and that all their desires in life are formed from our conscience desires. Imaginists must truly work for what they want nothing is given or comes without effort. Imaginists are taught that they were created and have

Random Thoughts.
well, my mother had a masectomy on july 11th, and she's doing very well. :) i was able to get emergency leave to be with her and for that i'm thankful. was supposed to go on a date tonight and he ended up bailing. story of my life. find someone interesting and they're married, live too far away, aren't wanting something serious or want to be too serious. it never fails. like for instance, i was chatting with a guy at the bar the other day and things seemed to be going extremely well. he was funny, and extremely attractive but i excused myself to the restroom and he was gone when i got back! thought maybe he thought i wasn't interested. i've been back to the bar 3 times and haven't seen him since. ah, one damn day i swear. :) that is all for now.

Epic Fails
People wonder why I monitor my comments and don't add a lot of friends. A little over a year ago, I started making note of some of the rejected comments and ignored messages I've gotten. Some of them are kinda funny, others are just disturbing. 100% true shit! Please, feel free to add some if you have any What do you like to do for fun?"masturbate to your pictures""hello?" "I bet you're good at sucking a massive cock!" "I promise never to cum in your hair" I don't take rejection well"Oh, I bet you've been rejected a lot because you are a big girl""there's always a gym, or liposuction" "What time does that mouth open for business?" "Can I ask you something?"Sure"Do you need a spanking ;)"Not from you "I'd love to tear you in half" "There are a lot of slutty girls on here"Yeah, it gets pretty ridiculous"I wish you were one of them" "Wanna fuck me?"No"Why, you on the rag, bitch?" "Your hair looks strong enough to pull" "Can Iz have ur phone #

The Friendship
I couldn't turn my back onyou I had t be a man So I left to serve my country Survive the best I can. Now here I sit in a rice field Trying to stay alive A NV camp close to our sights A stranger at my side. Yet not a stranger at all! Whether his hair is black, yellow or brown His eyes are green or blue Whether his skin is black or white He's just like me and you! He finds no rhyme or reason He fights the fears inside He wishes he were home again and thinks of those who've died, Yet I don't know his name or where he's from But I know his joys and his strife For a bond exists between us We value each other's life! We step once more in the underbrush Into a burning lit sky I fly And far below me I hear a sound.... "Why God why" Yes, why God, why?

Love
The beauty within flowing in the wind.Nothing but Love. Stained with passion, The flight of the heart is the most one will ever tak.Take love with all your heart and all your soul,For Love will always win your heart.

Wonder.....
as a tear rolls my cheek,i wonder if an angel falls when your out of hope as a tear rolls my cheek,i wonder if an angel falls when your out of dreams as a tear rolls my cheek,i wonder if an angel falls when your out of faith as a tear rolls my cheek,i wonder how many angels have fallen because of meas a tear rolls down my cheek,i wonder if their are angels....

Think About It.
This is some random bullshit because my head is about to explode. No one reads my profile, no one cares. I still hear the same old Bullshit day in and day out. Is there no real man out there that understands or knows what a woman truly wants. Yes my page and what I say in my status can be bad at times, but it is my fucking page. It does not give you the right to dis-respect me or talk vulgar shit to me with out my permission. I piss off a lot of people I know that. The truth is, when they get pissed off it is because I will not put up with there bullshit or I will not back down. So lets get back to the basics. Read my profile please. It plainly states what I will not put up with. I am here for me and no one else. Take it or leave it. Your choice. I am tired of feeling like I will hurt peoples feelings if I leave this one a comment or that one, that is called page stalking which was also in the profile. From this day on. I will be who I am. If I leave a comment to a mortal enem

Don't Blame Me
Here are either dumb jokes or status ideas for you - curtesy of LaffyTaffy.... 11. When is homework not homework? - When it is turned into the teacher. 12. Why did the skeleton cross the road? - To get to the body shop. 43. What kind of plant do you put in a cake? - Flower 44. Why don't ducks tell jokes when they are flying? - Because they would quack up. 105. Why do mother kangaroos hate the rain? - Because the kids have to play inside all day. 106. Why did the man take a hammer to bed? - He wanted to hit the sack.

I Blame Women!
I was speaking with a D.U.I. Instructor yesterday and he said, "I don't give a shit what anybody says, if a man isn't having sex he's depressed" .. He then went into detail about depression causing people to drink and things of that nature, and how drunk drivers kill people .. So then it got me to thinking .. If the women out here were having more sex with us guys, they could cure Alcoholism .. Would be less depression in the world .. and they would be saving lives daily!! I put the blame on you women for Alcoholism .. should be ashamed of yourselves .. smh .. makes me sick .. I shutter to think!! Don't talk to me anymore .. To think that it was you women this entire time!! I'll be back, I need a drink!!!

My Plea
They say the eyes are the gateway, to the soul. Stories lie within them, yet to be told. But not everyone, cares to look. They only want, what can be took. To add to the pain, not to take it away. To gain from it, it pains me to say. That I have closed my eyes, due to the pain. I don't wanna play anymore, tired of the game. I hope and I reach only adding, to the tears. Bringing to life, my worst fears. That there is no good, left in this world. That this plague I'm corrupted with, can never be cured. How can I be strong, when I feel so damn weak. So here I am on bended knee, please hear me. For this is my plea. I'm begging you to prove me wrong, somebody.

Who Came Up With Them And Seriously Are They Just A Guideline Or Someone Trying To Use Them As A Tool.
So much has been put into zodiac signs horoscopes who your compatible your idel opposite and the one I find funny you should never get together with the same zodiac sign. I reead the daily horoscope and most of time it never happens to pass the lucky numbers wont win you the lottery or make you rich. You read about the different signs and sometimes i wonder real who came up with this did they do a scientific study reasearch what although some things may match not necesarrily everything is right. What about the persons charcter actions beliefs personalit etc, Have there ever been any one that married the same zodiac sign and it didnt work out did it work out and just wasnt said I mean who actually started all this seems so much ita a way to make money and use as dicriminet facter. Yeah I read the zodiacs do I believe they are more then 60% accurate um no. Do I believe same zodiac signs arent compatible just because they say it cant be done doesnt mean there wont be someone that comes al

Poem
“The Other” The other plays and thrives in the darkness The other waits for his chance to strike and play The other hides himself extremely well The other in me is strong The other is never understood and ignored by 95% of the population The other is considered crazy and a lunatic The other never shows his true power of self The other only shows bits and pieces of himself on the surface The other craves the bad and evil that I push down, he thrives on it The other is a looser, depressed, angry, dark and evil person The other has been pushed down suppressed his whole life and is starting to break free of the hold that has been put on him The other is strange because he is the good bad guy, but on the flip he can be the evilest man in the world The other is my escape for everything bad that happens to me he deals with it, not me, he gets hurt not me

Poem
SUNNY DAYS LONG FORGOTTEN The days of her and I are over, Those are the days I miss the most I want those days again So many good times in those days, I miss my best friend and my greatest love Through each season day and night I spent with her, the good the bad we were together I do not remember the bad but did learn from it I remember the good I want what we once had, to evolve our relationship into something more I miss the little things, the ways she would shoot me to make me melt The way we both demanded and craved each others attention She made me the happiest and made me the most angry but still love her I wanted to strive to be a better person when I was with her I would like to be trying to cheer her up on her worst day than not be around her at all She always puts me in a better mood The days of feeling completely happy and whole are long since past We have not been together for quite some time and still feels just like yesterday that we first met I consistentl

Absentee Fu-spouses...
Okay...so it's starting to feel like fumarriage is too much like real-life marriage! LOL...you do it for what seems like all the right reasons...with someone you like alot, feel like you connect with...you chat and seem inseparable...then suddenly...you don't feel that connected anymore...lol...and it's not like it's cheap either! Sound too much like real life? Not only do you pay to enter into it...you pay to get out of it...and it's all fun and even sorta sexy at the start...but then...they dont visit your page as much anymore... Maybe the problem here is...I go all out for the person I fumarry...his page is the first I visit everyday, he always gets a LIKE and an 11...before anyone else...while meanwhile, I'm somewhere down the line (if at all) on the LIKE and rates list lol...yes yes I know, life gets busy, blah blah blah...so does mine, as fubar isn't life to me and it's only for pleasure and to let off steam...but you do connect with people out here...and if they seem eager t

So Much Better In Dreams
It's so much better in dreamsThis escape from this nightmare realityIf only you could understandIt's not a displacement of my beingHow can people be so cruelAt such a young ageTheir maturity in their rage is beyond their years.To ponder it, the end result is tearsThere's no day I don't attempt to liveToday is perhaps the anomalyI know the pain the survivors will sufferBut it's time to end my suffering.They will weep and wonderWhere did I go wrong?It's that I chose to give upSalvation through dreaming was no longer enoughIf you ever feel the same,Come join me for a walk in heaven.

Today
I wrote a screenplay today. The story has been writing itself in my head for a few years. I've had a synopsis written for a couple of years. All this hanging out with filmmakers made me want to put it on paper. So I did it. It's a thriller / horror. Almost everyone dies in the end. The protagonist is a con-artist. The damsel in distress is NOT really. So many awful characters...it's like being in the MuMMs.

My Views On How To Treat A Woman
1) Never take a woman for granted or neglect her. The moment you do, she’ll start scanning the field and you won’t know it. 2) Do not cheat on her, or cheat her. A woman’s revenge could be emotionally lethal. 3)Do not boss her around, push her to do anything she doesn’t want to do, or force her to give you ANYTHING. 4) Do not expect her to wait on you hand and foot. She will take your foot and put it in your hand. 5) Be appreciative for all she does for you and show her appreciation for being in YOUR life. When you start acting like she should be happy she is in YOUR life, she will go out to prove you otherwise. 6) Never lay a hand on her, unless it is to caress her. 7) Never make her second to anything. This is the biggest mistake any man can do. Don’t ever disrespect her or her family, even if she complains about them. It is OK for her to do it, but never for you. Remember this. 9) Always GIVE more than you take from her

More Surgery
Well it looks like I am going under the knife yet again. August 15th I will be having more surgery to remove another lymph node. Just when I was healing from all the other surgeries... SURPRISE! have to do it yet again. Doc says this should be the last so need all my friends to cross fingers and say a few prayers for me. I will be in touch as often as I can to update situation after the surgery. Othar than that everything else is looking really good :) Love to all my wonderful friends and fam here on the fu!!! :)

Time
This is something that I wrote about three and a half years ago and I found it so I figured I would post for others enjoyment. TIME is always a FACTOR in life. What YOU do with that TIME is the question. There are so many things that we want to accomplish, so many things we wish we could do/done better and so many things that we wish we didn't do. You can't sit back IDLY and let TIME pass you by YOU must LIVE in the PRESENT and and makeYOUR DREAMS YOUR REALITY. There is no reason to say the words I CANT! Try replacing those words with I CAN or This MAY BE HARD BUT I CAN DO THIS. Don't use the words I wont give up because in your mind you will shorten it and say I give up. In life if you want something bad enough then go get it and MAKE IT HAPPEN. There is only one person that you look in the eye everyday. So answer this question "Is this where I want to be right now in my life?" TICK TOCK TICK TOCK TIME will not stop for anyone.

A War ..against One's Self.
A war against one’s self. I wage a war against…myself. I am victorious yet I’ve lost at the same time. I desire and crave yet nothing nullifies my thirst. I love and hate. Myself. Others. Life. Death. I see yet I’m oblivious. I feel yet I can’t touch. I surmise yet I can’t verify. Truth trumps lies or is it the other way around? I am a beaten man. Beaten by whom you ask ? You know who you are. You win. Like a dog losing a fight , I bare my neck to you. You win. I can’t do this anymore. The constant search for acceptance or a friendly smile that says “all will be… ok”. But we know, in our heart of hearts , it’s.not.ok. Ok is transient. Ok today and not tomorrow. Constant change sometimes for the better , usually not. I’ve grown accustomed to feeling empty inside. Do I like this feeling? Not at all . But it’s a security blanket of sorts. It envelopes me. It embraces me. It’s what I kno

My Love For You
My Love for you runs deeper than any ocen My love for you overflows like a cup of fine wine My love for you is forever unwavering My love for you is pure as untouched snow My love is my promise I will never go astray My love is as stong as lion My love will endure through the years My love will comfort you when your down My love is the pathway from my heart to yours My love is your love and that's where it will stay

How Do You Know When A Man Loves You ?
Ill never for get you how you took my hands look into my eyes Ill never for get you when you kissed my lips so kind Ill never for get you when you talk so soft to me As sun set look over us we set side by side not saying a word I ask myself who is this man I never been kissed like this no matter what crazy thing I have done in my life this is one time I recognize how, exactly, a man loves, you might find that the man standing in front of you is, indeed, giving you his all and some. How do you know when a man loves you ? bY Christine

The Economics Of Leaving A Comment
The reality of why leaving a comment gets you more return rates and likes. If you rate, like, comment me I will definitely come to your page and rate/like/comment you back. If I have already rated you today I save the comment for tomorrow so I know to come back and do it again. It's not hard and you know that someone came by and actually did something nice for you today. For all those that rate/like without leaving a comment thank you. I'm sorry I cannot return the favor I have a life I don't follow my feed to rate people back. Sending a drink or leaving a comment is not that hard. Ok I am off my soapbox!!! Have a good one!!!

:(
I was reading the paper over dinner last night and happened to come across a half page article with the photo of a couple friends of mine. Lauren and Dallas. They looked so cute and in love. The byline was tiny and vastly over shadowed by the huge quote in letters about one inch tall. `We are just happy they are together now. ` I never saw the words Plane Crash Victims. Smiling me thought I should read this article and find out about my friends Lauren being an old co-worker. We used to work together for 3 years 3-5 days a week. We had a great work place we all went on beach days out for drinks to movie each other houses dinner a lot we were very close. Dallas was form my high school a few years older very kind he was the type of guy who in 12 grade danced with the shy 9th grader (me) who was trying to hide just a sweet boy I sure he was a nice man too. As I read it went over there wonderful romance and I truly thought this was a wedding announcement until it wasn`t. The article t

Accept Yourself....
Every day you must saySo, how do I feel about my life ?Anything is hard to findWhen you will not open your eyesWhen will you accept yourself ?I am sick and I am dullAnd I am plainHow dearly I'd love to get carried awayOh, but dreams have a knack of just not coming trueAnd time is against me now...ohOh, who and what to blame ?Oh, anything is hard to findWhen you will not open your eyesWhen will you accept yourself, for heaven's sake ?Anything is hard to findWhen you will not open your eyesEvery day you must sayOh, how do I feel about the past ?Others conquered love - but I ranI sat in my room and I drew up a planOh, but plans can fall through (as so often they do)And time is against me now...And there's no-one left to blameOh, tell me when will you ...When will you accept your life ?(The one that you hate)For anything is hard to findWhen you will not open your eyesEvery day you must sayOh, how do I feel about my shoes ?They make me awkward and plainHow dearly I would love to kick with t

Nothin Personal....im Not Trying To Be Impersonal...if You Care To Know
I don’t mean to be impersonal, and don’t take it personally. I cant respond to everyone’s inquiry at the present time im going thru all kinds of issues right now. from a virus on the puter, I cant respond sometimes...or it triggers the bouncer id check and every image i type in the text is wrong, no matter how many times I get a new image…i don’t know how to get around it and sometimes my typing doesn’t show, so I exit fu and try to come back. the browser will not take the address, it goes right back to my home page. It gets absolutely frustrating…I have to walk away My daughter is barely 4 months pregnant and is already having complications And has been put on bed rest-no work status until she stops bleeding and to ensure hers and the baby’s safety ill be making frequent trips to assist her…my schedule is pretty full and time available to shoot the shit is very limited. Not too mention my attitude aint so hot right now. Not

Liquid Cocaine
I wrote a status that I had Liquid cocaine for my birthday. Seems some of u thought I ment drugs.. and NO! It is a liquor shot! Here is how it is made. If you wana get really messed up and feeling great then try this ! 1 part Bacardi® 151 rum1 part Jagermeister® herbal liqueur1 part Rumple Minze® peppermint liqueurRead more: Liquid Cocaine #3 recipe http://www.drinksmixer.com/drink4853.html#ixzz24kgRn4oZ I had a hangover for 2 days! lol Drink responsibly !

Moving On From Fubar
I wanted to do this one last blog to try and say goodbye to everyone who reads this.I have been on here for almost 6yrs off and on and I have made some great friends,some of whom have moved on as well..I have seen so many different changes on here..not just the site itself but with the people as well(some changes not so good). When I first started on here all I wanted to do was make lots of friends,play the game and enjoy my time away from reality..although I have done those things I have also went through alot of stress trying to help others move up the ladder,help myself move up and so on... I mentioned changes that I have seen with the people,well...I have seen folks who were the nicest people in the world become some of the greediest people on here..some were friends of mine that I helped to get to the top of the ladder on here who seem to have forgot about me along the way..I have seen those who spend god awful amounts of money so they didn't have to do the actual hard work to m

I Walk Alone Into The Light
They took me to a place where nothing grew, to a place where only the shadows in the dust had time. They took me to a ward, a sun-bleached hospital where all the doors where so heavy that they did not need locks. They led me past rows of starched beds where our steps will echo long after we have all gone from time. They write your name just when the rain hits the windows and an evil wind shakes the trees, tambourine shakers of dead leaves. And they took me to a dirty beach where the ghosts of the surfers who drowned collect PET bottles for deposit. On a dirt road between fields where the flowers of evil where allowed to grow and change eternal forests into tabloids. And they point to a background, poison-yellow clouds, orange lamps, silent silos, jets' smoke trails, bone gray towers They whisper in my ear "do you see the future, do you see how nothing grows, nothing lives but nothing dies?" When you can finally see all the mechanisms behind. Then you will n

I Was Not Put On This Earth To Be Your Secret
At one point in my life I was in a 5 year relationship, where he never introduced me to his family. I could never figure out why and to this day I still don't know. It's not a good feeling when your own boyfriend doesn't acknowledge that you even exsist. You have to wonder, was I not pretty enough? Not thin enough? Not good enough? Sometimes those feelings still haunt me.... sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough, and I have to keep reminding myself that I am. I may not be the prettiest, or the thinnest, but I am me. I am loving, caring and giving. If that isn't good enough for someone, then they aren't good enough for me.

Cherry Bomb Request Page
My most recent level requirement is to cherry-bomb one album. Since a bomb's good for a couple hours, why waste it? Anyone who needs to be bombed in order to level is encouraged to post a comment so I can bomb you more easily!

Attention Whores
We all know the standard Fu-whores... the ones who beg for rates, likes, bling, etc.. But there is another kind of attention whore on Fu as well as around the 'net. These are the people who think the world revolves around them and that, since you've said hello to them, they must have every second of your attention henceforth. I'm sorry, but I have real things going on in real life, not to mention probably several other chats which are undoubtedly more interesting. For example, this little boy who messaged me last night. It all started very sweet, calling me cutie and such. I said hello and gave a little banter before being called away by family obligations. Now, I do have a bad habit of not saying goodbye. I don't like goodbyes... even simple ones with people I don't know. Besides, I always have several people talking to me so it takes forever to say goodbye to everyone if I'm going to do it so I've gotten to where I simply don't. Those who care enough will understand, and those w

[this Is What Insomnia Sounds Like]
Working on a robit. Getting pretty far with it when I actually sit still and focus.This week I bought two games to play with other people >> and I still have New Vegas to replay (more than once) and Way of the Samurai 4 to play until my eyes rot out.One game was Magic online, trying to navigate the online player trades is kind of a whore, and everything's botted... and finicky. Not friendly to the new kids.Hopefully with some hunting I can replicate some of my real decks, they're ... a lot better than the shit-piles I'm working with presently.It's a lot like starting all over again, only with a VAST online community to siphon cards from.What else.Bored.Need whores.Probably cooking some ramen tomorrow.... the way I do it is something to get excited over. Still watching Galaxy Express 999 (the first anime I saw as a kid and actually liked), still consuming too much coffee and porn.And my idiot friend got back together with his abusive psycho bitch girlfriend...After I threatened to bury

Your Foot Size Will Tell You Your Age!! I Swear Try It !
First take your shoe size then you Mulitply it by 5.. then you add 50.. then you Multiply it by 20 then you add 1012...then you subtract the year you were born... :) The first digit/digits.. will be your shoe size while the last 2 will be your age :)

There's Beauty In Everything.
"Three passions have governed my life:the longings for love, the search for knowledge,and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind.Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.In the union of love I have seen,in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring visionof the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.With equal passion I have sought knowledge.I have wished to understand the hearts of man.I have wished to know why the stars shine.Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,but always pity brought me back to earth;cries of pain reverberated in my heartof children in famine, of victims torturedand of old people left helpless.I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,and I too suffer.This has been my life; I found it worth living."-Bertrand Russell

Just So Everyhone Is Clear!
As many of you know, that I used to be an ass to alot of people on here, some have forgave me, some forgotten, and some still havent which is fine, but I will not do what I did in the past, at least I can admit that it was wrong. But.... theres this one person who will remain nameless, that tries his hardest to make my life hell on here, he spends 24/7 making sure people will not befriend me, or talk to me, he will pimp hand me every chance he gets (which is fine by me), I have a life outside of fubar, he has screenshot after screenshot of me of what I did in the past, and has a photo of me in an album, just recently he created an album just for me, HAHA, talk about obsessed. I think his guy is gay from the looks and sounds of things. Also he cant seem to get over the past, but its all good if he goes around screencapping peoples broadcasts nsfw and non nsfw, just to bash them and he bashed on my girl, because what he felt like it? and that makes him a better person how? I think h

Yup..venting Again!
Ya know..I have ventured through my path of life..and seen weeds..rainbows...fire's and waterfalls...and through all of it....even the horrendous events..I have never lost faith or hope in the human race...I truly care about people in general...and regardless of all the ugliness I have seen..I still see all the beautiful there is in this world....and CONSTANTLY something so fucking ugly has to ruin that image in my head...SEX does NOT rule the damn world...it is a high like none other I agree..but it is flesh..it is really sad and down right PATHETIC how someones body or appearance can totally change a person...you know regardless of how many times people tell me how fucking lucky I am...my words to them are..step into my world and then tell me how goddamn lucky I am...it is a curse!..someones body can lead them down the wrong path..it can open up VERY dangerous doors..and all because someone does wanna be in that world but for the WRONG reasons!..not for the reasons that

Exploring Ones Self
Explore ones selfmonica has this urge while watching tv in the living room. An urge she has had before. A sexual urge. Normally she has someone there to make her moan. This time she can not wait. She needs to release. She looks around the room to see if any one is watching. Breathing heavy, biting her lower lip. She begins playing with her 34 C tits. Quietly moaning. She closes her eyes imagining herself with her roommate. She takes off her shirt and bra. Caresses herself as though her roommate were doing it. Removes her shorts Then she slowly moves her right hand downto her shaved tight pussy. Rubbing her clit, arching her back, moaning and pinch her big nipples. Her pussy is get wetter and juicier. Her pussy is making noises because its so wet. She decides to slip 1 finger in she lets out a loud moan when she is does. Her roommate hears her and comes into the room. Astonished yet very aroused the roommate watches her and touches herself through her clothes. Monica is fingering hersel

Sept, 11..........
Today is a day of remembrance of those we lost & those that survived a total tragic that should've never taken place.My fire crew watched & helped those injured,needed water or oxygen and so much more that we dealt with.Then a dear friend of mine went missing for weeks on end, til I heard over my scanner that a body was found. I was paged to rush over the person was asking for me. As I approached the body laying on the ground my heart dropped n shattered into millions of pieces. It was my dear friend that we had been searching for. The look in his eyes I will never forget it, he didn't want to die. He had his air pack in his back, unable to move & barely able to speak. I dropped to my knees with tears streaming down my face, he said to me "my dear child please don't cry, I have watched you grow up to a beautiful strong woman" he then held my hand the best he could. He had a message for his wife & children he wanted me to deliver for him. I nodded my head & told him I would tell them hi

Friendship Contract - None Of That Sissy Crap !
Friendship Contract - none of that sissy crap ... 1. When you're sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge on the bastard/bitch who made you sad. 2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you. 3. When you smile - I will know you're thinking of something evil that i will probably want to be involved in. 4. When you're sick - Stay the fuck away from me until you are well again, I dont want it ! 5. When you fall - I will laugh at you're clumsy arse, but I'll help you up when I can laugh no more. This is my oath ... Why ? ... because you're my friend ... Now copy and send this to 10 friends ... then get depressed because u can only think of 4 !!

His Suicide
Really fucked with my head I never figured he would ever take that option He was the most stubborn and prideful man i ever had the experience to marry He is the PorchDawg in my Blogs book YNTB here in fubar Illegal drugs is what destroyed our marriage it also destroyed his Renal system left him dependant on nursing facility care and dialysis Thus destroying the man he always saw himself as Strong Independant Self Reliant I was his GLSK..."Good Lookin Sex Kitten" The Only woman to bring his bachelorhood down When it had been widely known that him getting hitched... was never possible Going into trucking made it all bad... meth coke whatever was out there... Got mixed up with the wrong ppl out in Salinas California So Many bad things happened peoples bad choices do affect good people.... and wreak all kinds of havoc my adopted daughter got ahold of me to let me know... He pulled the plugs..on the machines that kept him clean and died the death i never saw fo

Application 4 Some Ass
Application For a Piece of Ass Name:______________________City:______________________State:_____________________Age:__________ Phone:______________SSN:_______________Hair Color:__________ Real Hair Color:____________ Eye Color:___________Dentures: __________ Weight: _________Height:___________ Waist Size: __________Breast or Bra Size: __________Marital Status:Married___________Single______________Divorced:_________ Other__________Are Your Breasts Real? ____________Do You Like Them:Sucked_________ Chewed__________ Kissed____________ Caressed__________ Squeezed________ Licked_________ Other_____All of the Above____________Can You Stay Out Late? _____________ How Late?_____________ All Night? _________ Several Days? ___________ Do You Like To Have Sex And Be Screwed All Night? ____________How Often? __________Do You Like Oral Sex? _____________ Pussy Size:Small ________ Medium __________ Large ____________ Extra Large __________ While Screwing Do You:Faint______ Fart_____

Wanting You
It’s an unusually hot night. I’m lying in bed…alone, thinking of you. Listening to slow, soft music, my mind slips into solitude, eyes closed. Air from the fan embraces my naked body. We had spent a beautiful day together, and then took our separate ways home. Now the memories of the time spent together fill my head and I smile to myself. Oh yes! The time spent together was too short, as always. Glancing in the mirror across from the bed, I glimpse my nude body. My skin is glowing from my body heat. Reaching for the light switch, I turn it off. The room remains dimly lit by the street light outside my window. The shadows on the ceiling captivate my mind for a few minutes before I finally close my eyes. I keep seeing your face in my mind as I last saw it, drawing away from our kiss goodbye. I imagine that I can feel your arms holding me close to your body, your lips on mine, sweet and tender…it takes my breath away! I want to pull you close to me and never l

80 / 20 Rule Of Relationship
Italian princes...: In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of what you NEED and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in your relationship. There is always another person (man or women) that you will meet and that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking in your relationship that you WANT. And believe me, 20% looks really good when you are not getting it at all in your current relationship. But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good 80% that you delete know you have, thinking that you will get something better with the other 20% that you WANT. But as reality has proven, in most cases, you will always end up with having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80% that you really NEED and that you already had. Be careful in deciding between what you WANT and NEED in your life.

Will Still Always Wonder...
...why people pay attention, respect and notice me more that I've lost weight? Sometimes it can be flattering but at the same time, it's a bit insulting. I guess I will never know. It's like I was the ugly duckling that's somewhat become a swan to where I'm more noticable than the past, why is that?

Read Me!
I must admit, I am less neurotic and much more productive being away from Fu. My work projects and home projects are exhausting but coming along with ease and I haven't killed anyone! LOL! I admit my life is still a bit stressful but I feel I am handling things better. My real FRIENDS have my email and a select few have my phone number. Please use them for messages and texts. I love and miss my Fu's...but, true Fu folks know how to reach me if they wish. And if I gave you my info and you failed to make note....I'm sorry.... I am reclaiming my life...I'm reclaiming ME! 44 is coming soon, I have spent my entire life trying to please others...it is my turn! I'm not saying I will stop trying to please others, because that does makes me happy, but it's MY turn. My well being is top priority at the moment. True friends (and I know you are there) will be here when I return. If I thought you were a TRUE friend and you are not here when I return....then shame on me for my

Shameless Vixens Entrance/acceptance
First and Foremost, thank you for taking the time to check out our group, Shameless Vixens. If you happen to have any questions in regards to the group, the process of acceptance, or any ideas, please let the founder or co-founder know. We are here to help each other in the daily grind we call Fubar. Please, enjoy yourselves while yo are here. ***Shameless Vixens, is not an NSFW required group. You may however, contribute NSFW material if you would like. Please contact the Founder or Co-Founder for further information on this. *** 1 Female and Males accepted 2 Family Add the Homepage. 3 Add all of the other members as friends. 4 Put SVH in your name 5 Agree to be voted on to become a member of our group6 If we vote yes then remove "Hopeful" from your name (or just the H if you put SVH) 7 Salute our Home Page. (Can also Salute the founders) 8 Be active within the group. Inactivity will result in automatic denial of acceptance. Let us (Founder or Co Founder) know of any per

Kiss Of Death
Kiss of death lips are red I won't say a word. I stand still in the night let me be. Kiss of death territorial in dark of the night cross over dangerously. Kiss of of death is shameless takes you in the night with out a dispute. Kiss of death registers your name at Hotel room 13. Kiss of death you get one meal for the road. Kiss of death don't judge me. bY Christine

Blowing Up The Wrong Shout Box. Good Job Shitstain!
Clear HistoryClose KINGOFKINGS Buzz: sh*t faced! Level: Cyborg Jesus (50) Gender: Male, 42 Location: Sweetwater, TX 3:58pm KINGOFKINGS: yo better watch out who u call a bitch asshole 3:59pm NoPantsJesus: Not sure who you're referring to

Wounded Heart
The day started out as any other day. A Friday of all days. Had to shop for some food, come home do laundry for work clothes and then off to work. Fridays always suck cause that is when the weekend travelers head north. I am a gas station attendant. I sacrifice time with my family, especially my kids, so I can make an income. I work hard and find odd jobs that I can do from home from time to time to help make ends meet. I can tell you it has cost me a lot to provide for my family. The economy is not getting better. I can't find a second job or even a better first job. I am told often to go back to school but that is even more difficult for me then finding a job. Well, on this Friday I was working and dealing with a large number of people who tend to snub their nose my way like usually. Til it got to the end of my shift. One of my regulars found one of my weak spots. Asked where my kids were because sometimes in the summer my kids and husband would come hang out with me at work. I respo

Tight...
Well lastnight I was looking at the checking account..and realized was very close to being under. Actually if the tv bill gos through monday that they directly withdrawal...i would be. I hate being fuckin broke here and there. I wish my job would straighten up where I would not have to worry about getting laid off..etc. Anyways.. I had a very humbling experience. I asked mom for money. First time in 20 yrs (being out and gone) that I ever asked.I think she must have enjoyed the moment somewhat..but probably hated the fact that I would have to ask. I only get this impression because she made me ask dad to. UGH>>>>I hated that even worst. He was ok with it though.. he said I guess you can. He was kinda quiet. I am sure they know its been getting tight at times for me. Anyways..they brought me over the money today. Mom told me to just consider it a early birthday gift and not to worry about it. (probably her way of making me feel good about not being stressed over paying

Just Maybe Not Forever
I kinda hope I am not alone in my thought process. I really figure there could be someone else that has thoughts that won't fade quickly while others just need a little breeze to disappear. Maybe, just maybe not forever, but they still can't be brought back quickly. In all the things I do hope to finish certain thought processes into production and then enjoyment. My dreams, schemes, and repeats. One day I will not be as busy as I am now. Before the year is out, I may start turning the knob on the door to my future and then what?? I don't wish to work free of paycheck satisfaction. I want to experience the freedom of loving life. I don't need to live in a mansion or have loads of cash..... maybe someday. I would like to see the sultry sunset while sitting in a comfortable chair on a porch of a house that I co-own. The 'Boys Of Summer' is playing in the background. I want someone to be there that will hold my hand and when I stand will wrap their arms around me. That someone won't hi

Train Of Thought: The Lake Of Fire
As I watch my brothers die in vain executed, standing like a human chain pools of blood, as thick as a glass pane so much death, so one can reign with patriotism overbought bullets and shrapnel fly filling this lake of fire high as i sit here and watch them die on top my train of thought

Hotd Sept. 27, 2012
Woof justice! After police chief resigns, town's only law officer is a dog http://usnews.nbcnews.com/_news/2012/09/27/14123233-with-officers-forbidden-from-carrying-guns-new-mexico-towns-police-force-goes-to-the-dog?lite By NBC News staff and wire services VAUGHN, N.M.-- A drug-sniffing dog now is the only certified member of the police force in the small eastern New Mexico town of Vaughn. Police Chief Ernest "Chris" Armijo decided to step down Wednesday after news stories reported that he wasn't allowed to carry a gun because of his criminal background. "He decided the attention was distracting," said Dave Romero, an attorney for the town. State officials said Armijo couldn't carry a gun since acknowledging that he owed tens of thousands of dollars in delinquent child support payments in Texas. Armijo also faces new felony charges after being accused of selling a town-owned rifle and pocketing the cash.

Fu Marriage Is It Really Worth It And Would I Make Someone A Great Fu Hubby .
Okay Ive been off and on fu for a while and ive never really stayed long enough on fu to really even contemplate this but is Fu Marriage really worth it. I know it involves a lot. Ive seen people come and go as i have in past 6 years. I dont care for much of the drama and Bs that goes on here. I know Theres an acheivement for Fu Marriage and Fu Divorce. Ive seen people get Fu engaged fu Married and Fu Divorced to some its a game some use as advantage to lvl and get most out of it and some do because they are serious. So just what exactly does it involve besides the Bling the Le Bling the ability Bling etc and what does make it last or fail. Would I make some one a great Fu Hubby is it all that important I dont think I trust anyone to take as a Fu wife on here and id probably get Fu divorved so leave me some input as for me dont ask me to Fuand marry you cause im not gonna do it achivement or not and not gonna Fu divorce you either just for an achivement. All commentary input advice et

Everythinghappens For A Reason...maybe It's Time To Find Out Wat That Reason Is
I am a firm believer in things happening for a reason....especially when it is an ongoing process..although the experiences may not be good..I believe there is always a reason for it...I mentioned Robert Smith and just some of the things him and his wacked out family did to me....but to keep on..after so much time has passed...there has to be a reason for it....I found out yesterday that he was just recently arrested and charged with aggravated assault on the person he is with now and child abuse on his own damn son...now if that alone isn't proof enough that this guy has to be disposed of..I don't know wat is...Maybe I am the key to all his madness...it started years ago when I was a child...to him and his family..I was nothing but a scared lil girl who had no one to help her...knowing they could do watever they wanted to me..and no one was gonna question a thing....they did it for no other reason than they could...they stole EVERYTHIG from me...my childhood..my sanity..my

Being Gay, Against God's Wishes..
Being Gay is a crime against God?Well here's a few of his rules I find slightly odd..Accusation, arrogance,judging, meddling, eating shrimp?Being baptized as a baby,seeing a woman with lustful cravings,wearing a shirt made of two kinds of fabrics,and waiting till Sunday to gather sticks..Menstruation, being raped,anxiety and having rage.Read the book you preach about,you'll understand why it fills me with doubt.You're a bigot, don't deny it.Stop using this book to justify it.

Got Liked 25000 Times In A Fuday
When they first came out with the achievement for 25K likes, I had a friend ask me - what do you think it would take to get 25K likes? My response was "Two Days!" I plan to share the details of what I did to get 25K likes and hope that in doing so it will help you plan out IF/WHEN/HOW to get it for yourself!! It is EXPENSIVE just FYI so if you are on a budget, you may want to reconsider until you can stock up on a credit sale!! What Day? You need to decide what day of the week you want to go for your 25K likes. If you could know what day there would be a fabulous like bonus then you'd be set cause any day with a 500% bonus for likes would be a great day. However, you can't know that in advance unless you have BabyJ's ear, so you have to play the odds. In general, Wed and Fri seem to be the busiest on Fu. Wed because it's ranking day, and Fri because it's Fri! lol I decided to go for it on Wednesday. The Friday HHs seem to fill up faster than the Wed HHs, so my hope wa

Proof Over Fiction
I need you more than I can ever express, I know there’s confusion as to what I feel about you, And I know my words hard to prove, But I know when you cry there’s no stopping you, For my words are true they’re both clear and expressive As to what I feel about you, You know your beauty captivates me, And everything about you still has me at awe, Somehow some way I’ll take you far away, Where you’re never by yourself And I’ll prove my love for you with my last dying breath, So you’ll know I wasn’t lying when I told you I love you, But I just need you to know I’m so far into you, And there’s no going back and I don’t want to, Is it me or is it getting hard to breathe? And If I have to do this all over again, From start to finish I hope you know I have no regrets, In the choices we’ve made and feelings we both share, And for how lost I get staring into your eyes, While the clock is ticking ag

A Good Day!!!!
I am having a wonderful day.. I have talked with friends.. talked with ones who are dear to me.. I get to watch football. and I am making homemade chicken soup..(its cold outside..perfect dinner for a cold day) I make an awsome chicken soup... LOL and I make my own broth... are you jealous???? LMAO.. I feel good and I am happy after a VERY rough week..I love my freinds on here dearly and I know I should get out into the real world.. but its hard when you have no money to do so... But the good news is I may have got a job.. (its taking forever to write this because I am doing it during the game ) LOL.. To my Friends and Family here.. PLEASE bear with me.. I will get my act together.. a little insecure and I have been hurt to many times recently.. hope everyone understands.. with that I will leave you. hoping you have a wonderful day.. dont give up on me yet.. I will be OK.. KISESS and Huggs...

And.....
Between us, there are so many miles Separately we share our smiles When I lay in bed at night I think one day together we will be But, that one day seems nowhere in sight I begin to toss and turn dreaming of you Then stop as I feel you near But upon opening my eyes You aren't really here I roll back over silently weeping Holding my pillow Thoughts of you begin to billow Like a dove with it's mate Soaring through the sky With such love and grace Together they fly Like theirs, my love for you is so alive There's so much of our life left untold No need to feel so alone

Well...
Hello my lil chik a dees... Update.. I am at the gym 6-7 days a week. I have lost 42 pounds, but I am turning my body into a leaner, more muscular ass kicking machine. I have been well enough, however, I do miss some of you. Some more than others (h) Seriously, if you wanna get ahold of me, you gotta hit my phone up...either call, text or email. I will post a pic from the gym soon.. mainly cause I want you to see me beating shit up :D

I Miss You So Much
I hope your doing fineAnd if you ever wonder,I'm lonely here tonightLost here in this moment and time keeps slipping byAnd if I could have just one wishI'd have you by my side I miss you I need youAnd I love you more than I did beforeAnd if today I don't see your faceNothing's changed, no one can take your placeIt gets harder everydayWell I try to live without youThe tears fall from my eyesI'm alone and I feel emptyGod I'm torn apart insideI look up at the starsHoping your doing the same god i miss you so much

One Of Moms Worst Worries!!
Today, my phone rang,,,It was a local number ,,,so I answered,,,It was the High School Police Dept. My heart skipped a beat.... I have a almost 17 year old son, He is different than most kids,,,He is Autistic, He has Aspergers Autism,,He is highly intelligent but has trouble in social settings...loud noises and bright lights effect his attitude.. but thats not all!! He also has a muscle disorder,,,His doctors say he leans more to the MD (muscular dystrophy) ,,,He has trouble walking,,,balance,,,and has absolutly no reflexes ...The doctors are working on getting him a firm diagnosis but my health insurance does not pay for diagnostics so after MRIs,,,Cat scans,,EKGs and EEGs,,,,It has cost a pretty penny :) still no firm diagnosis,,,but we will get there..... Anyways.....The officer says on the phone,,,,Tracy this is officer "NAME" your son is ok and he is not in trouble so please dont panic!! DONT PANIC???? why would I panic?? So what do I do I FREAKIN PANIC!!! He then tells

Making Cakes
A little girl and her mother walking through the park one day and they saw two teenagers having sex on a bench. The little girl says "Mummy, what are they doing?". The mother hesitates then quickly replies "Ummm they are making cakes". The next day they are at a zoo and the little girl sees two monkies having sex. Again she asks her mother what they are doing and her mother replies with the same response, "making cakes." The next day the girl says to her mother, "Mummy, you and Daddy were making cakes in the lounge last night eh?". Shocked, the Mother says, "how do you know?"She says, "Because I licked the icing off the sofa".

Me Friend Explanation Of A Wedgie To Me :)
Me ask a friend what wedgie be... he do very good description so me share with all you :) Credit to Thickles for good imagination and resources xoxo To answer this question you have to be able to stand with your back to a tree, one foot comfortably perched beside the other's knee, a blade of grass between your lips and cock an eyebrow to look sophisticated...When your body begins to perspire, it tends to become tacky to such materials as cotton. With sliding motion creating a frictional force; compounded with the tacky material the force repositions the material and once the force's friction ceases due to a change of movement, the material remains in the new location which therefore becomes it's new starting point to repeat this cycle of events...Once this cycle has repeated many times you see, the material becomes well wedged between the crack of your ass and will remain there now only with the perspiration which increases the tackfulness of the cotton material. The final result

Reasons I Don't Talk To You
This also applies to the women who don't respond to you. It's because... 1. You don't have a salute 2. You only have like 2 pictures 3. You're an assholes 4. You don't talk about anything other than sexual stuff 5. You have stalker potential 6. We just don't like you (yes it can be that simple)

War Is The Answer
This aint a test, fuck the rest.Time to set the record straight.Talking shit behind my back, let's hear you say it to my face?I've heard the words roll out your lips.You little trendy fuckin' bitch!The time has come to get you some, cause I just do not give a shit.Do you take me for a fool!?How's it feel to be a tool!?See to me you're just a cancer!Motherfucker!, War is the Answer!As of now the end begins, I want to laugh but there's no joke.To eat with the beast, and run with the wolves.On the Ashes you will choke.I know it's got to chap your ass, to think I just won't go away.Forget me not, I'm writing you off.I've got nothing more to say.Do you take me for a fool!?How's it feel to be a tool!?To me you're just a cancer!Motherfucker!, War is the Answer!(Get some!)You wanna disrespect me, you little fuckin' punk?Everything I've done to be who I am? As far as I've fuckin' come?I'll slap you so fuckin' hard, It'll feel like you kissed a freight train.Fuck you!

25 Things Bout Me.............
1. My favorite color is Hunter Green. 2. I picked my football team accordiing to my favorite color (GO GREEN BAY) 3. I have four children Malcolm Kelly Geoffrey and Braidy. 4. I have two grandchildren Aaron and Noel. 5. I love to cook. 6. I broke two bones in my life and both times alcohol was involved. 7. I was addicted to Rock of Love on VH1 (lmao) 8. I smoke like a chimney. 9. I drink like a fish. 10. I have trucker mouth. 11. I can multitask while taking a crap (phone, cigg, read, crap all at the same time) *takes a bow* 12. I am known as 'the bitch' to many..............only because I tend to say what others are thinking. 13. I get bored easily and probably have ADD. 15. Once I set my mind to something, nothing will stop me. 16. I love my family even though we all dont talk as much as we should. 17. I used to love to read and now I never pick up a book........dunno why. 18. I have been married twice.............. 19. I want a dog..............

[guess I'll Tell A Story]
Me and the little hung out Saturday night. I missed a couple phone calls, sent a couple texts, so when he asked if I was doing anything, and I wasn't, I quickly grabbed a six pack and went to his house to play Nintendo.Well, a couple hours into cigarettes (adjacent to a pasture, miles out of town in the dead of night) and 15 minutes into my latest lecture on how to overthrow the government, his dog Apollo walks by and I give him a little scritch and notice that he's kinda ... crusty. Not dirt crusty, blood crusty. I says "hey I think your dog has some blood on him, we should probably get a better look at him"so we kinda poke at him in the dark, and we're feeling a ton of dried crusty patches, and Apollo just kinda wanders off into the night.The little mentions that there was a dead cat in his driveway, and that he thinks Apollo killed said cat, and probably got a little tore up in the exchange.I'm a little leary, but I can't exactly wander into near blackness to find a foxhound.Another

Am I A Hostage?
I ask you to imagine this..... I came to be with a man that i thought would love and be my friend for the rest of my life. Moved five states away from all that i know to take a chance that has proven to be a diaster that has now lead me to depend on practialy local date chat stranges for help to sustain my needs day to day and my sanity.I have endured great hurt time and time again since March from a man whom takes pleasure in my pain. Not seeking pitty just understanding. This is just a handful of things that i have allowed myself to be exposed to in my current life. you know he's a dick when he spends your money you were saving to move where he is.you know he's a dick when you have to unload a moving truck by yourself except for one glass top and he doesn't insist on helping.you know he's a dick when after you arrive the second time he sends a message to another woman (same day he ask you to come back btw) proclaiming you're not a keeper like her.you know he's a dick when his frien

Salutes
Want to win a boomy? Rules: 1. Make me a salute with you in it 2. Incorporate a skull into the salute 3. Be creative 4. Must not be NSFW! Have fun with it! I will have a third party judge the pictures, that way it'll be totally fair! The winner will be picked and announced Nov. 03, 2012! I can't wait to see what you all will come up with,have fun and good luck!!! 1st place = Rock Star 2cd place = Autos 3rd place = Boomy

The Mirror
The Mirror Gaze in the mirror and what did I see, Inside the anger was staring at me. I felt I was tortured and stuck in a hole, With hatred and pain that took over my soul. You never loved me, and you did not care, So I gazed in the mirror and tried not to stare, That tortured life that you made me live, The things you have done I'll never forgive. You claimed to love me, but inside I knew, I could see through you, your words were not true. I've swallowed the lies that you fed to me, And unchained my heart to set myself free. She's back in my life now and there she will stay, Together forever I hope and I pray. The hatred and anger replaced by her love, I know I've been blessed by the Lord up above. Gaze in the mirror and what did I see, Peace and salvation staring at me. Now that I'm healing, I want you to know, I love you Cheryl, with my heart and soul. "The Mirror" by Kevin "G"

Jaw Surgery For Over And Under Crossbite Update..
Hello :) I went to see my oral Surgeon Yesterday and he said I was an awesome canidate for double jaw Surgery for my Over and undercross bite.. I had braces when I was 13 till I was 15.. Braces alone could not fix this issue, Now I have to get them put back on soon for the surgery to be possible.. He said sence I am in jaw popping pain he was going to try to get the ball rolling on this surgery as soon has he can.. While I was there We took several Xrays of my Head.. And he talked to me about what surgery will be like afterwards and that I wont be able to eat anything solid for 6 weeks.. He said most of my face will be numb for several weeks.. He will give me lots of good pain meds.. I dont have to be wired shut ! Just have to wear rubber bands with the braces for the 6 week healing period.. I'm very excited about haveing a normal bite and being able to eat properly.. Very hard to keep my mouth closed while eating with the bite that I have.. But somehow I have managed t

Ohai
Do you have fu-mobile? Do you use it often? Fubar needs your help. Take this survey. It takes like a minute out of your life. You're probably just staring at your screen doing nothing anyway. Be productive. http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/B8KPRFH GO! Thanks n stuff.

Just A Thought
Deep in thought all alone, You drift into my dreams. Wishing I could see you, By gentle flowing streams. Miles between so far away, Locked within my heart. I feel your passion inside, Where we’re never apart. But to gaze into your eyes, Would fill me with desire. Into blue depths your soul, Stokes my passionate fire. Though it cannot soon be, Our desired unity of lust. I give to you these words, For which you may entrust. I think of you all the time, Whether it’s morn’ or night. I feel your words of need, As one our souls take flight. Imagine a perfect union, At a mountainous retreat. Under enchanted forests, Our passions find defeat. On the shores of Big Bear, Along water’s steep ledge. Naked to the moonlight, Body and soul we pledge. The fantasies we dream, Find life in written word. Upon a warm soft breeze, Our whispers surely heard. Deep in thought all alone, We drift into our fantasy. Where fiery desires dwell, And wait for you and me.

Fetishes
Everyone has a fetish. Some are extreme, some are not so extreme, but everyone has them. The problem is that not all fetishes are accepted by society. With that comes shame and judgment. Everyone has been judged on their fetishes. I'm saying let go of that shame and fear. Embrace your fetish! Love your fetish!!! THIS IS A SHAME FREE ZONE AND A JUDGEMENT FREE ZONE. NO ONE WILL JUDGE YOU HERE.

An Outsider's View
From a barstool I watched, the dreams of men die. As they realized that, freedom of reality was nothing but a lie. I've seen tears of sorrow, and happiness too. I watched the years go by, from an outsider's view. I've tasted good food, and drank with the best. I've witnessed the hope, among those that failed the test. I saw the stars of the past, lose their shine, I have witnessed others thrown away, from the daily grind. Of my own fate, and why I'm at this place. I'll never know, since I don't recognize my face. The years have placed me, here at this stop. After my failure, to reach the top. I don't even remember, my own damn name. Since I became a pawn, in a malicious game. All I know, is that my true home is here. Among so many others, with the same sorrow and fear. Perhaps one day, I'll try to stop playing the fool. But until that day comes, I'll be here on my barstool.

Halloween Costume Contest~
okay, after having to take down my whole haunted trail... that took forever to put up. getting my sewer snaked after the drain backed water all over my basement, during Hurricane Sandy, and surviving the wrath of Hurricane Sandy , with 2 kids & my dad here...... I had a minute to whip this together for the contest, so if you could vote or comment that would be way cool !! :) http://fubar.com/fubar-halloween-2012/photo-8262179-0-1602600531 thanks & I hope all affected by Sandy are doing okay!! God Bless Happy Halloween and as always peace baby

Not For One Goddamn Minute!!!
Do you REALLY think,I can't let go?I've lost more in my lifetime,than most will ever know.I have fought every step,of the FUCKING way!!!And I am standing tall,VERY PROUD of who I am today!KNOWING that my parents,would rather WATCH ME FUCKING DIE.Than show me the love and affection,I yearned for inside.I was that SICK ASS families play toy,and each had a turn!Feeling the heat from the inside out,a fire that CONSTANTLY burned!Running for my life,thinking my cousin was dead.I ran for NOTHING!Choking on my very own bloodshed!! Hearing my own body,attacking itself!While starving to death,through all the pain that I felt!Having the only person I trusted,almost cost me my life!Staring back at my mother,through blood soaked eyes! Then watching as my grandmother,forgot a little at a time.Trying to hold on to what was left,of her mind.Not knowing the man I loved,most of all.Was sick,he was already gone when I got the call.Going to pay my respects,to the best man that ever lived!KNOWING he alw

These Webcams... Yikes
Okay so some of the webcams on here crack me up... I won't go into it because I don't broadcast (thank the gods)... But I just saw a naked guy who looks like he was in a fuckin concentration camp and look over at the next cam and the chick who is naked looks like she ate the camp. WOW! I will perv elsewhere, but thanks to those who are eye candy! VENTED

My Dad!!!!!!
My dad has a blockage behind his knee and the first time they went to check it he had 95% blockage in his groin area. So he had to have a major surgery to remove the plaque then. He has had a heart attack and a stint put in so I was scared because every time they do angioplasty something goes wrong. Today they made it to his knee but he has new arteries that go around the blockage so they cant do anything for the blockage and he has to deal with the pain until the new arteries make it down to his foot! Thank you for all of your prayers! Nothing bad happened today! I am so thankful!!!

Game Time
Welcome to a little game I like to call "Meet the Slutbag". We would have 3 contestants but for today's edition I'd like to feature someone special ... The real deal - no holds barred - whore of the year. KATE - http://fubar.com/2146570 She hails from Canton, Ohio (as most of you late night truck drivers know) and has a real knack for spreading her legs. Butttttt wait Chuck ... She's married! That's right folks married with children no less! Whom she pawns off on her poor husband when it's time to open up her wind tunnel she calls a twat. All she needs is 5 minutes of your attention and you too could become her next sexcapade. She's a legendary dirty, filthy, cum dumpster that needs your money (guess that's why she never filed for divorce - instead of getting a job, she relied on her husband to support her while she slept with any man that gave her the time of day). Hide your wallets fellas that's a lot of mouths to feed! So I'd like to wrap up this edition by saying ... "Winner

My First Erotica
Its my first bit of erotica that I wrote for a dating site. Got a 5 star rating, so I figure I'd share it here: Lay you down and caress your breasts and your sides as we explore each others mouths with our tongues. Then as my fingers trace down past your belly my lips trace their way to your breasts where I lightly suck and nibble your nipples for a while and softly stroke that velvety clit. As I play with your breasts and button, I slowly insert my fingers to feel your wet pussy. Then I smear that juice across my lips, spread it on your nipples with my mouth, and kiss you deeply so you can taste your own sex. Now I plant light kisses all the way down your front till my face reaches that hot patch and I lightly kiss your OTHER lips. The kisses become deeper and my tongue finds your clit as my hands reach up to pinch both nipples hard. I suck on it like a little penis, I drive my tongue into your hole, run it along the sides of your pussy, french kiss your snatch like I

The Next Level
Fubar - The Social Networking Game Social - This is what keeps me coming back. I like the talking and harassing with the friends I met on here. It's easy to click and become friends but it truly amazes me how I've connected with people that I have never met and have become friends. It was several of those friends that helped me in big and small ways to get past that pesky leveling requirement yesterday. Networking - Another thing I like about this site is chance to network/connect with people around the country and world. This is something I can't do on facebook. I think of facebook like blowing up a balloon. My list of friends there expand around me with people I actually met or are friends of friends. Fubar allows me to randomly jump around and meet people who are beyond 4 degrees of separation. It's pretty cool Game - I like games and admittedly I do like parts of the gaming system here - there are huge parts I don't like. I don't like being forced to buy my way

Numbered Ghost Bling Accounts
WHAT IS A NUMBERED GHOST BLING ACCOUNT YOU MIGHT ASK? It is an account with a number as the name because the owner of the account has been locked out of settings by fubar due to questionable impropriety. The ghost bling account has the following properties: 1. No ability to change or access SETTINGS. Therefore, the ower can not delete the account. 2. No ability to rate, like or comment. 3. Receives chats but can not send chats. 4. Ability to fan and add friends and manage family. 5. Abiltiy to activate bling and move bling but when polishing bling, only receives one point per polish. The owner of the polished bling receives 3 points. This is why I refer to it as a ghosted bling account. LOL

Under The Gun (more From)
The Guest You opened my chest prying apart skin and bone to get a glimpse of my heart The scalpel incising the love within me coaxing the beat to thump and thump Red ripe and sweet is my love and with no menu of choices You order it raw Hands reach inside and Oh! What a lovely pull on the strings that hold all of my secrets Your beautiful crimson smile dines hungrily on my passion and dreams tucked inside of Your fist Eat my heart out

Wth R Blogs Anyway?
ok, what is the purpose of a blog? (where did that word originate anyway)..if someone can tell me this then I will develope an interest in it, I'm gonna wait and see if anyone responds to this..hehehe

The Hard Lessonz
Lifes lessons are sometimes hard i had a very bad experience in a lounge last night where i thought i was at home.... and was in tears thats when i called a dear friend whom i had previously pulled away from and that friend had refused to go .. i was immidiately consoled and cried till i could not cry anymore the owner to the previous lounge the one i left came to my side in seconds and i was reminded how much he cared for his lil family the family i turned away from i learned a very valuable lesson ... those that love u never go and those that use u leave in seconds i would like to thank my lil family for never leaving my side even when i strayed from their side my deepest respect to DjK from The Original Bash Bros for loving us all as family and always being there for me i dont have the words to describe him just a knot in my throat as he has always been there for me and all his family his lounge is hands down the BEST lounge on fubar(h) I also found out that true love does exis

Sandy
Hi, It was VERY scary. The water was 3 1/2 feet outside, a foot and a half in my basement. It was maybe an inch from coming in my side door. The electric company just now turned on our lights on this block. We've been VERY cold. The storm took out my furnace, hot water heater, washer, dryer and car (which I still have payments on). I've dealt with Fema, the red cross, and my insurance company. On my block, most people had 4-6 feet of water in their basements. People not far from me died in this storm. I havent had a shower in 2 weeks. Be well.

My Thoughts
I have both heard and read a lot of democrats and liberals say that the election is behind us and its time to work together. I could believe that if they had tried to work with either of the President Bush's and liberals hadn't spent so much time accussing GW of being dumb and not really the president. What they are really saying is that the republican party should give in to this President on eveything and anything he asks for, that would mean giving away the rights of the people they were elected to represent. I am also weary of everyone saying how great a general Patreus was and that means he wouldn't lie about Benghazi, read your history people. The French Marshall Petain was the greatest hero of France in the first world war, he was also the man that surrendered to the Nazi's as soon as he became premier and ruled Vichy France as a fascist state and cooperated with Hitler without qualms. This current president is convinced that he and he alone knows what is best for this coun

Names N Words Defined ---> One Breath ---> Like Minded
Where ya at...!!! twas january r february nineteen n eightyfour down dere n LA nere N.O n dis here 1/2 breed was climbin da stairway ta da wheelhouse of da push boat da GIBBY III ta report ta da captain fer da first time in me new carreer as a deckhand on da might mississippi - twas right neer da top step when i heard da words 'where ya at' stoelzle (he did not pronounce me last name correct - lol - me really don't know meself - well - i sorta do but i gotta concentrate pretty hard ta do it - know it's definition tho) - dese words caught me by surprise - i first looked ta see where dey come from n saw a young man settin behind da wheel in his captains chair n saw two brown eyes on a stern face dat had a bit of a beard - he was a stocky sort n looked ta carry his weight well - his words had strength n i was quite sure he had no problem backin em up - i quickly glanced around n said ---> 'right here' ---> a smile broke across his face n he said ' down here in N.O. we don't say hi - hell

Cumming, Cumming
The night is cold tonight I lay next to your naked body my warm body next to yours moving slow to your movements, the night is clod tonight I lay next your naked body my warm body next to yours moving slow to your movements, the night is clod tonight I lay next to your naked body warm body next to your moving slow to your movements, Now it's warm tonight our body's are hot laying next to each other moving faster together, faster together, don't, don't stop my love I'm cumming I'm cumming don't stop... I fall in love, the night is hot I lay next to your naked body my warm body next to yours moving slow to your movements, the night is hot tonight. bY Christine making love to one I love

Need Help Deciding Please
so I keep having this problem w/ this overnight guy at work.. he has a big problem with putting his hands on me.... so yesterday i go in at six, started to count my register and he pulls his out 5 customers come in so i tell him to take them.. he gets mad.... he starts to take the customers and body bumps me... so i tell him to back off dont invade my space.. he takes my register tosses it to the other side of the counter.. so i go to grab it. he snatches it out of my hand and starts to open my register.. mind u i have half of the register money in my hand.. so i step back .. i start to call my boss (whos phone is going to the vm) he then tells me that its gonna be me or him by the end of the day.. so i go to put the rest of the money in the register he smacks my hand so hard it hits my face... so instead of calling my peeps to beat him down i call the cops.... the cops wont arrest him because they cant get to the cameras and the Sargent has known him for three years... so at first i w

Feels Like Rain
Feels Like Rain Down here the river meets the seaIn the sticky heat I feel ya' open up to meLove comes out of nowhere baby, like a hurricaneAnd it feels like rain Lying underneath the stars lying next to youI'm wondering who you are How do you do?The clouds blow in across the moonThe wind howls out your nameFeels like rain We ain't never gonna make that bridge tonightAcross lake PonchartrainAnd it feels like rain Batten down the hatches, BabyBut keep your heart out on your sleeveIt looks like we're in for stormy weather, that's no cause for us to leaveJust lie here in my armsLet it wash away the painFeels like rain Can you feel it? Let your love flow....

Today
Living with a special needs son is challenging at best. But when he acts one way in public and another way in private, it makes it difficult for me to explain to people and professionals. My son will be 16 in a few days, but most time he acts like he is 3 or 4. I was told today that his IQ is more in the 30's to 40's not the 50's or higher I was thinking/ hoping. He doesnt eat, but would rather be tube fed, he is adhd as well. Medications work, but they reduce his appetite. Today was a bad day. He was very aggressive towards me and the hospital staff. He was not feeling good which didnt help. The nurses and other staff are now seeing what I have been going through with him, and they are starting to do more with him to get him properly assessed. But it has been a long prossess and its still going to be going on for a long time..... I am having a bad time as well, I am severly depressed and have sever anxiety and panic. I have no one to talk to her in rl. I have a hard time talking p

American Children Are Hoping For Just A Little Smile
Most of you know me as that funny fat guy or the mean prick that photoshopped you blowing a donkey either way take a quick read . With the holidays upon us and so much bad stuff that happened this year all across our great country so many could use some help children always look forward to the holidays for presents big meals some warm clothes more than 3/4 of this country is just trying to get by with what they have between job loses raising costs on freaking everything (no not the bling packs on fu lol ty scrapper and baby j for keeping those costs down ) its so hard just to heat a home drive to work or by warm clothes even healthy food for your kids everythings sky rocketed on fu i see all the pic's posted of oh my look at my new boots or car people buying so much new stuff now look outside or even in your own neighborhoods take a look at the news to all our own devistated areas im not trying to take away from helping other countrys but ive always believed charity begin

Bdsm Version Of Lord's Prayer ;)
I found this online and thought I would share.... Our MasterWho art in dungeonHallowed be His nameThy make me cumThy will be doneOn earth as it is in bedroomGive us this day our daily spankAnd forgive us our brattinessAs we forgive those who are bratty towards usAnd deliver us from ourselvesFor thine is the MasterThe Power and my GloryFor ever and everSpank me Our submissiveWho art in chainsCherished be your nameThy pussy cumsMy orders doneOn satin as it is in leatherGive you this day your daily tasksAnd I will forgive your backslidingAs you will forgive me mineI will lead you into temptationAnd deliver you from harmFor mine is the dungeonThe Power and the GloryFor ever and everKneel now

T'was The Night Before Christmas!!
T'WAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS – OLD SANTA WAS PISSED. HE CUSSED OUT THE ELVES AND THREW DOWN HIS LIST. MISERABLE LITTLE BRATS, UNGRATEFUL LITTLE JERKS. ... I HAVE A GOOD MIND TO SCRAP THE WHOLE WORKS. ... I'VE BUSTED MY ARSE FOR DAMN NEAR A YEAR.... INSTEAD OF "THANKS SANTA" – WHAT DO I HEAR? THE OLD LADY BITCHES CAUSE I WORK LATE AT NIGHT… THE ELVES WANT MORE MONEY –THE REINDEER ALL FIGHT. RUDOLPH GOT DRUNK AND CRASHED THE DAMN SLED. DONNER IS PREGNANT, VIXEN'S OUT OF HIS HEAD. AND JUST WHEN I THOUGHT THAT THINGS WOULD GET BETTER, THOSE ARSEHOLES FROM THE TAX OFFICE SENT ME A LETTER. THEY SAY I OWE TAXES – IF THAT AIN'T DAMN FUNNY. WHO IN THE HELL EVER SENT SANTA MONEY? THE KIDS THESE DAYS – THEY ALL ARE THE PITS. THEY WANT THE IMPOSSIBLE…THOSE MEAN LITTLE SHITS. I SPENT A WHOLE YEAR MAKING WAGONS AND SLEDS, ASSEMBLING DOLLS, THEIR ARMS, LEGS AND HEADS, I MADE TONS OF YOYO'S –NO REQUEST FOR THEM… THEY ALL WANT COMPUTERS&hell

How To Be Happily Married
THIS IS MY TAKE.... LIKE IT... LOVE IT.. LEAVE IT.... I DON'T CARE........ MARRIAGE IS NOT EASY, IT TAKES TWO PEOPLE THAT CAN COMMUNICATE, COMPRIMISE. IT TAKES A LOT OF LOVE]AND GIVE AND TAKE. YOU WANT TO COMPLAIN BECAUSE YOU ARE IN AN UNHAPPY MARRIAGE YOU DID THAT TO YOURSELF AND YOU STAY BECAUSE WHY? IT IS STUPID.... DEAL WITH LIFE SO YOU CAN BE HAPPY AND LIVE IF YOUR CURRENT WIFE CANNOT GET BY IF YOU LEAVE SET HER UP TO TAKE CARE OF HERSELF, SCHOOL, WHATEVER. IF ITS JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE KIDS REALLY? GET REAL WITH LIFE DO YOU THINK YOUR KIDS ARE STUPID? THEY AREN'T THEY KNOW AND IT PISSES THEM OFF, MARRIAGE TAKES TWO PEOPLE THAT TRUST ONE ANOTHER, LOVE ONE ANOTHER AND WANT NOTHING MORE THAN MAKING THE OTHER AND THEIR CHILDREN HAPPY. IF YOU CANT DO THAT YOU SHOULD WALK AWAY.... YOUR FAMILY DESERVES MORE THAN THAT Report as NSFW [?]

Thinking
I'm just sitting here thinking about things. Not that it's really all that great, but I am. What am I thinking about at 1am? I'm thinking about years ago, no need in saying what year. Just that it was great times and I miss them. Why do things have to change so much? People get older, people move, people get new jobs...is it just life?

Broken
This morning I'm at a loss for words. The best person in my life has passed away and I don't know how to deal with it. I've lost so much this year and to be a little dramatic I welcome whatever the supposed end of the world has. i'm so angry that she is gone and that my children will never know how she loved them. My depression is at an all time high. Words can not express what I feel. I only hope to be reunited with her again. Grandma I love you so much.

Fake Profiles On Fubar
Its really sad how these fake profiles suck men in to believing they are real. SweeterThanSugar is one of the most fake profiles on here. Posting pics of Magazine models and Pam Anderson and Paris Hilton and pretending they are her. She may be a sweet person but shes hiding her true self behind someone wlsws pics. If you are really the person in your pics then add a salute.

What I Fight For
The silver blade gleamsFor the love I’m fighting forOr that’s being fought for meHearts beat for the love that I gained And the love I loseWings of angels, wings of demonsI am different from everyone elseDeceiving looks of royal purplesChanging looks unto blackBlood gem tear drops run To the ying yang sea

Lost My....
Lost my best friend in mist of the night, does it matter, does it matter it cost me, does it matter. I tell you I don't know who any body is any more, I'm lost in the mist of the night. Lost my best friend I cry alone, so alone tears of a river calling me. Lost my best friend in the mist of the night, does it matter, does it mater it cost me.... don't count on me when the clouds are gloomy the sky is falling. Imagine me gone, tears of a river taking me down. bY cHristine Tears of a river taking me down

Time Is Now
Music blaring very loudly, Bright stars shinning above, Cold beer easily at hand, Herb just waiting to be burnt, Body is all excited as hell, Mind simply running wild Your soft touch upon me Mysef pressed against you Emotions flowing like crazy Our lust buiding even more Now is the exact time We take full advantage Sending one another on off Right inti outer space.... PJ 11/13/2012 9:46pm

Entrance Letter For College Help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am a 31 year old single mother. I am currently working as a production sewer/machine opperator in a ballistic factory, making kevlar vests for the United states Army, Marines, and police departments around the country. I have chosen to go back to school because i have recently realized that i do not wish to spend the rest of my life thinking that I could have gone back to school to better my son's and my own way of living. My son is my reason and my driving force behind everything that I chose to do in my life. I would like to show him that going to college is in his best interest than waiting 12 or 13 years as I have. With my job being contract work I live in fear from month to month not knowing if i will have a job when the contract that we are working on is done, and not knowing if we have another one to follow it. I want a career that is stable enough to provide a good life for my son as well as myself. I belive that continuing my education with Guilford College is the best

Jacuzzi Fun
It had snowed outside and I came home early, from work. I changed my clothes and relaxed, in front of the fire. I was thinking about the week’s events and how much I needed this evening. Before I left work I had called a close girlfriend and asked if she wanted to join me. She accepted. I had not seen her in months. I was excited to hear her voice. We seem to have great times, together. I heard her pull in the driveway and decided to meet her, at the drive. I was wearing my kimono and nothing else. She got out of the car and I led her to the backyard. She smiled, as she noticed the jacuzzi was running. I kissed her and took off my kimono. My nipples were hard and tight, from the cold. She bent down to suck on them. I moaned from her warm mouth. I took off her clothes and led her in the Jacuzzi. She sat down and I straddled her. I kissed and bit her neck, rubbing her head and pulling her ears to move her head. I crawled down her body, lightly biting her skin on my way down. I suc

Cliffside Beginnings~ Revised
We were walking along the sand, in general conversation. The moon was the only light to guide us. We could feel the waves crashing against our bare feet. The cool air was brushing our skin. We noticed a large boulder, on the side, of the cliff. We decided, to climb it. You took liberty, to hold me, as we looked below us. We could see the ocean’s tide and the reflection of the moon on the water. It felt like the most soothing place imaginable. You sat against the cliff and guided me to sit, in front of you. I leaned back against your chest and you wrapped one arm around my waste. You pulled me closer, as you used your other hand to brush my hair aside. I felt your warm lips, on my neck. The mixture of your breath and the breeze rushed chills down my spine. You were kissing and biting my neck. I felt your hand move up my shirt and find its way, to my breasts. Your caressing caused them to harden. You could hear my breathing deepening and it pleased you. I reached behind me and tou

Catfish Tv Show
I absolutley love watching catfish the tv show. It is so crazy how people just can't be themselves. I am no model by any means but at least I have the self respect to be who I am and not make up this whole fake profile just to get people to talk to me. That's the funny thing about the internet, you never know who's on the other end of the screen.

Connecticut Elementary School Shooting
At a bit of a loss for words watching & listening to the horrifying,tragic events that have taken place today at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, Connecticut.My thoughts and prayers are with all of the parents & families of the innocent children who were so heinously killed,as well as the principal and others of the school, as well as the family of the sick,disgusting animal who also killed his own mother & brother.All losing their lives senselessly and tragically for no reason whatsoever.This is a new low,shocking,mind boggling display of how the mindset of some people in the world today has reached a very deep,disturbing,dark level inside.And we need to get a grip on paying attention to these people who show signs they are mentally/emotionally disturbed on a very deep & extreme level.People need to start to better paying attention to other PEOPLE.Rather than paying a majority of attention to Fubar/Facebook/Twitter, cell phone's/meaningless texts,celebrity gossip,drama, etc..A

5 Deadly Terms Used By A Woman
5 Deadly Terms Used By a Woman1) “Fine” – This is the word women use to end an argument when she knows she is right and you need to shut up.2) “Nothing” – means “Something” and you need to be worried.3) “Go Ahead” – this is a dare, not permission, don’t do it.4) “Whatever” – A women’s way of saying screw you.5) “That’s Ok” – She is thinking long and hard on how and when you will pay for your mistake.Bonus Word: “Wow!” – This is not a compliment; she’s amazed that one person could be so stupid.

If You Are Ignorant, Then Ignore This.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a *** everyday I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the one working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time. I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room. I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me. I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear. We are the couple

Holidays
Reality Check With the Holidays coming, peoples attitudes get worse and tempers are shorter. I have played Santa Claus for a few years and the children always will say "I Want" or "Gimme" this for Christmas, I have also heard adults say the same thing. When I hear that I start to think of the ones that are less fortunate then myself. I think of the ones that are in the Military keeping us safe, fighting for the rights of others so they can enjoy the freedom we have. They pay the ultimate price. They are Fathers, Mothers, Sons and Daughters. They leave loved ones behind to ensure we have our Freedom. I have Volunteer to work in kitchens on the Holidays so others may have hot food to eat so their bellies don't go empty. Seeing smiles on the faces is more then enough of a Thank You. Worked with Abate of WI raising money and toys for Families at Holiday times so they can have something to play with. Have adopted Families at Thanks Giving and Christmas so they would have fo

Ok Yall Know Im Tech Illit Now Its Posted Lol
PAY ATTENTION: Mary had a little Lamb, His fleece was white as snow. And everywhere that Mary went, The Lamb was sure to go. He followed her to school each day, wasn't even in the rule.He made the children laugh and play, To have a Lamb at school. And then the rules all changed one day, Illegal it became; To bring the Lamb of God to school, Or even speak his name. Everyday got worse and worse, And days turned into years.Instead of hearing children laugh, We heard gun shots and tears. What must we do to stop the crime, That's in our schools today? Let's let the Lamb come back to school, And teach our kids to pray!...

The 3 Creepiest Facts About The Real Santa Claus
The 3 Creepiest Facts About the Real Santa Claus By:Reuben Glaser 12-22-2012 12,321 views Add to Favorites We're all aware that Santa Claus is based on the very real St. Nicholas of Myra, correct? He was a 5-foot-tall Greek guy with a broken nose, he lived in modern-day Turkey around A.D. 200 to 300 and he was renowned for his generosity, his kindness to children, and generally behaving like the reigning champion of a hobo bare-knuckle boxing league. "I wish you a knuckle sandwich, and a happy throat-punch." But time warps all, of course. The Santa Claus we know nowadays is a stout, lily-white guy in a bizarre velvet suit who's loved by children for enslaving hundreds of Legolas' cousins. And truth be told, all St. Nick and Santa Claus have in common these days is the white beard. #3. St. Nick Was a Rowdy Bastard Yes, the real Santa was truly a rough-and-tumble son of a bitch. His exploits may have been embellished over the years, but the guy was constantly i

She's In Love....
Hopeless in love with a bad boy. Midnight love with a bad boy, taking off her panties for him in the darkness. Sex was dizzy. The guns where out, calls for control. She's in love with a bad boy. Dancing in a cold winter night. She's in love with a bad boy. She had no idea how long she had been in this hole. She's in love with a bad boy. She hadn't eaten in days. His garbage is in a cave. Her reputation entertained him to much. bY cHristine "Smoke on the Water" and "Horse with No Name".

Hugs
This is my first blog so I doubt anybody will bother to read this. However, my hugs project is important to me so I am going to do this (I just hope I dont come off like a raging idiot). Some times I get try to be Ms Industructable and handle everything myself. The results are often disasterous. Recently I allowed that to happen. I have few friends that live here so for some reason I shared. Suddently things changed. I was getting hugs from here that really helped me (everybody on here is really awesome). I realized the nurturing qualities of a physical hug and a fu bar hug are identical. I want everybody to experience a hug. My project isnt going quit how I wanted but its ok. I am getting lots of hugs and a few people have actually benefitted. I hope that in some small way I can also help somebody overcome an obstacle

Snow Falling ...part 4
Snow falling has she walks alone wounding if he is thinking of her. She judged him to soon, now she is afraid to upset him with words of reassuring him of love. She pushed him away so far away she can't love him. Her heart is cold as the snow is falling on this winter night. She made it home from the bus stop. The rain came to snow, as she lays down on her bed. She can smell him on her her palms are hot moving down on her body thinking of him. Screaming out this name. O David. O David. As she opines her lags and toss them back feeling her fingers going in side her. Deep, and deeper. Then she lets go, and her body felt weightless, and it seemed like she was falling, falling. A disparate part of her body jerked as if she had never felt this way before.Yes, Yes.. She opened her eyes..... The snow was falling steady this night. She had pick up a cig, thinking of him. the phone was ringing.... Short Story Part 4 bY cHistine

Disturbing Trend On Fu...
So something I noticed recently (and my awesome fu-wife blogged about, too) is the excessive amount of hatred I see on this site, read about in statuses, see in screenshots.. what the hell happened here? I never thought Fu was a bed of roses, but sheesh, some of the stuff I see on here now is downright terrorizing. If shit like this was said out loud to another human being, you could be sued, get the shit kicked out of you, or killed. Some of you all need to realize that it's not THAT personal.

The Truth
Stupidity-The top of the list for Satanic Sins. The Cardinal Sin of Satanism. Its too bad that stupidity isnt painful. Ignorance is one thing, but our society thrives increasingly stupidity.It depends on people going along with whatever they are told. The media promotes a cultivated stupidity as a posture that is not only acceptable but laudable.Satanist must learn to see through the tricks and cannot afford to be stupid

Satanism
Satanism is one of the most misguided religions out there. often mistaken as devil worshippers in which is not the case. We are true believers of the earth realm where we are our own gods, free to do our will. We do not perform sacrifices or sacrifice virgins its all stupid misguided tales, we just simply believe in ourselves. The true pentagram in which is meaning of earth and or freedom to do what we want. Like i said earlier people should not judge of what they dont understand and assumed because we believe in something totaly different to the ones that believe in god, that we are devil worshippers, The truth of it is they we would not harm any liveing creature on this earth mother.

The Dirty Old Man.
I fantastize about ugly old dirty fat men! I'm only 27 and i date nice lookign guys but one hing that really turns me on is when i fantasize about much older, ugly, fat dirty men. The less attractive the better. Fat, hairy, ugly... something about being with someone disgusting is a big a turn on. I think it lets me be the princess, feeling more beautiful and needed than otherwise.

This Is A Poem I Wrote Shortly After My Dad Passed Away In 2011
I came to see you today You never spoke a word I sat down right beside you Silence is all I heard I called out your name You didn’t give an answer I told you that I love you The quiet was oh so bitter I looked at your final resting place The tears began to flow I just wanted to see my daddy The wind began to blow I could feel you standing there You told me it would be okay In an instant you were gone The wind seemed to carry you away My heart still aches for you Just to hear your voice again If only I could get one last hug I know I would be happy then For now I have to cry Keeping your memory in my heart You never really went away We’ll never be apart

Happy 5th Birthday Baby Boy!!
Today!!! 5 years ago i gave birth to my biggest baby boy...Mason Miles!!...Today im gonna share a very emotion story with you guys...After he was born and we brought him home...I suffered through Postpartum depression, something i was rarely new to since i didnt have it with my 3 before....After a week i was admited to St.Louis Jewish barnes hopsital to get better....After there for a week in a half i got to come home to my baby boy..But its a time i would rather not rememeber He was airlifted to St.Louis Children's hopsital within mins of me arriving home. With only a 50-50 chance of making it.He had lost nearly 4 pounds,from what he weighted at birth He then would spend the next Month Fighting RSV Today i have little memory of the first few weeks of his life...But he is my angel baby!!...Today he's one heathly 5 year old!!!...And a little monster at that but he will always be my angel baby no matter how big or old he gets...Happy birthday to my amazing little M&M...

Contest
Dec 31st, 2012 @ Midnight New Years Eve the CONTEST ends. THe pictures will be shut down and no more voting or commenting will be allowed. I will re-open after I have counted the comments and votes up and post the winners in a blog. This is how it looks for now, but anything can change between now and tomorrow night when this contest ends. 1st - Uniquely Me 2nd - TATTTITUDE 3rd - Sweet Angel 4th - Firefox 5th - TopCat If you entered more than one picture I took the highest scored one, I can not tally them together that would not be fair. These can change @ anytime and is not set in stone until tomorrow @ Midnight on New Years Eve. New Years Day I will do another blog confriming the winners. This is what I need to know. If you opt for a blingpack the highest one for the contest is 135 Credits for 99.00 dollars with 35 free credits and I will send a dollar bling of your choice to finish up the $100.00 dollar prize. In other words I need to know upfront what your choice is bef

2013-let's See
Selbstverwirklichung ist nun angesagt Neue Projekte und Erfahrungen stehen in der ersten Jahreshälfte auf dem Plan. Anschließend geht es darum, diese aufs alltägliche Leben anzuwenden. Der Mond, in dessen Zeichen das Jahr 2013 steht, rät Ihnen, dabei auf Ihr Bauchgefühl zu hören. Lust und Liebe Das erste halbe Jahr über bringen Sie viel neuen Schwung in Ihre Beziehung. Bei Ihren frischen Ideen und abenteuerlustigen Vorschlägen bleibt es in der Liebe aufregend. So lässt sich das Leben genießen! Ab Juli geht es etwas ruhiger, aber durchaus harmonisch zu – solange Sie Ihre Launen nicht an Ihrem Schatz auslassen. Besonders von September bis Mitte Oktober und im Dezember sorgt Mars für Prickeln. Wassermann-Singles sind bis einschließlich Juni sehr flirtlustig. Sie kommen schnell und ungezwungen mit neuen Leuten in Kontakt. Im April könnte mehr daraus werden und auch von Ende August bis Mitte Oktober stehen Ihre Liebessterne überaus günstig. Beruf und Finanzen Am Arbeits

Alcohol And Drug Addiction.
Ever consider the possibility that you may have a substance abuse problem? Well perhaps you do. If alcohol or drugs have ever affected an important part of your life, such as your relationship with a significant other, then you likely will want to ponder the subject a bit more. Ask yourself a few simple questions: Have I ever had a DUI? yes or no Have I ever missed work because you partied to hard the night before? yes or no Have I ever lied to someone about my consumption? yes or no Does my addiction take money away from those I love? yes or no If you answered Yes to any of these questions, you may have a problem. One that only gets worse as we continue to use. Seek help....now! It's not to late. Is this what you really wanted to hear? Those questions only get harder. Get help, your family is worth it..and so are you. Out for now....much love. Brian

Re Written
You lean over to me and whisper in my ear I want to fuck your mouth. Then smile and sit back continuing with your dinner. I move in my seat crossing my legs tighter together totally aware of the fact that you have not let me wear my panties, your weekend your rules and rule number one is no panties at all. As the waiter comes over to refresh our drinks you tell him that we are thinking of having desert. I almost moan out load, you only order desert when you are in one of your little €œtorture me€ moods. . While you are enjoying your desert, seated across from me, you take your foot, which you have removed you shoe and sock from, and start rubbing up and down my calf. Working your way up higher little by little, you have me spread my legs wide, as you move your foot in between my legs, rubbing hard against my pussy. You take your toes and start rubbing hard on my clit. As you let out a moan the people around you look over but can't see anything. You rub hard

So For Tonight
So for tonight, since it is my birthday, I want to have sex the way I want, so this is what I want…. First I will shower and put on the pink and black nighty, you will shower. While you are doing that I will be playing with one of my toys, getting all nice and turned on. When you come out you will kiss me like you mean it, then you will bend me over the bed giving me four of my birthday smacks. You will then sit at the edge of the bed while I get down on my knees and lick and suck your hard cock as far as I can down my throat. After a little bit of that I will stand back up bend back over the bed where you will finger me till I come, while getting two more smacks. After coming you will strip me out of my clothes, and lay me on the bed, where you will kiss and lick up the inside of my thigh till you get to my wet pussy. Then pulling my thighs apart and holding them you will, lick and suck my clit till I come helplessly in your mouth, then as I start to come back down you will s

Beasts Laws
The last few weeks I have been called some nasty shit by people that were both my family and friends on here. Some I haven't known long, others have been part of my fu experience since the beginning. When i was sick and wasn't on for a few days I got messages calling me shallow and a fake friend because god forbid I couldn't rate/like someone for a day or two. I run some ability bling and now all I care about is myself, I am selfish rank and bling whore who doesn't give a shit about anyone else. Ran a bomb with my status clearly stating I was trying for my cherry inferno and still got nasty messages about how I couldn't be bothered to random bomb someone. I was bothered by this for a while, but new year, new rules. I spend 99% of my time on FU rating/liking/commenting and helping other people. Even if I have a famp going or a RS I am working to help people finish their requirements or get their points. So from now on, if someone doesn't like me or what I do, your blocked. C

Obama Is A Socialist
Hello, I’m Wayne Allyn Root for Personal Liberty. Happy New Year 2013. With a new year comes fresh thinking and creativity. I’ve had a chance to think about our President and all he’s doing to America and our economy. And guess what conclusion I’ve come to? Barack Obama is a socialist. That should be pretty clear to anyone with a brain — at least anyone who hasn’t been brainwashed… I mean educated… in public schools by socialist teachers’ union members. Liberals and the media (I know, I repeat myself) constantly insinuate that anyone who says “Obama is a socialist” is crazy, ignorant, racist or extreme. Funny, a national poll shows that a 55 percent of Americans associate the word “socialist” with Obama. Another poll shows that a majority of Democratic Party members support socialism. A third poll shows that young people (among Obama’s most loyal supporters) now feel more favorably toward socialism

1/5/1213
Here I go, it's just a few days in the New Year lovers. I have so much to say. I love to Thank You for reading my sexy blogs. My new opportunities are out there and I will fly high to get them. So here we go lets have some fun this year hang on and enjoy and read. You sexy mother fuckers. Must say, I got you to read... that is a blissing in it's self. bY LoVe GiRL

Wrote For A Married Couple
I have had a moment to sit and realize that time really matters today, For four years have passed us by and it seems as if only yesterday. United as one in a small northern town, a matrimony for lifetime, It seems as if it were a day away when first introduced in that summer time. We’ve had extreme highs and witnessed lowest lows, But somehow we passed over life’s shallow burrows. And even though spirits were dampened by things We overcame what was deemed mystical failings. We shared our love from the first day, and still now, Holding hands like young lovers, but with a determined vow. You still have the charms that I’ve always thought dear. And you still have that honorof dedication, sincere. Life spares no challenges as the years pass quickly by, And we will deal with them each until our last goodbye. But for now let’s enjoy how we arrived here so ably And share “I love you” again on our anniversary.

Sappy Mcbealisms~
from the mouth of Ally McBeal..........there are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. i wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some loves that don't go away. and maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. someone who never lets go. someone who cherishes you forever. I agree......

More Proof Homewreckers Still Exist And They Wreck Marriages Too!
from: Horny Angel United Kingdom subject: RE: your private NSFW received: 01/3/2013 12:37 pm replied: 01/3/2013 12:39 pm block this member Yes if you can help me out with some credits please === 'babylion ' wrote the following at '2013-01-03 07:38:45'.. > > hey girl do you think i can look at your private NSFW pic please?

Part 8
She finding herself, Waking up feeling this is madness. She did here a door open. She must of had out of body feeling come over her. She got dressed for the day. She setting at her dressing table. Putting on her make up. As she looks at herself, a sadness comes over her. She has to see David again. There's some thing about him that she can not stop thinking about. She has her self a cig... and picks up the phone and calls David. bY LoVe GiRL Part 5 Short Story

Whats Wrong With This Picture
hello and welcome to my nightmare. lets see i quess i will start at the beginning. my bro started using herion in 1993. and ever since then it has been hell with him. but now it is at the peak of annoyance. i have custody of his 3 kids cus he cant man up. and its everyones fault but his and is wife. i have to the 3 yrs age also cus of drugs use.i have them this time cus of unsupervivion and poor livin conditions.its a shame that someone cant get their act together for their kids. he has threaten to kill me and has called me a child molester in public places and tried to get me locked up on federal charges of tax fuard. what a joke. i live in baltimore and the court system for the kids in baltimore want to give kids back to their parents,no matter how many times they fall down. so you see why at times im on edge. so the question is do you feel the system is broke and can not be repaired????? i will keep pushing on and taking everythiing one day at a time with the lord in my corner.

Sun Is Shining Part 10
Sun is shining on her face, She asked David do you have to go to work!. He looked at her said yes. And he got ready. Off he went. Told her she can stay here and sleep. Marissa was so happy to know she can sleep in and his bed was so nice feels so good and warm to her and save. She did not know how long he was gone, David was right next to her working laying there. Marissa was so happy to see his face. Dark hair, nice warm body next to hers. They talked about his work. She loves the way he smells and talks about anything, he's so smart. And at the same time he is so frightening to her. Marissa wants a better life for her self. She found a true friend. Respected from a man she never knew. They made love all day long. She experience beyond a feeling she never had before. This man is her next- door neighbor. "How can this be." bY LoVe Part 10

See You..
Night is young and missing you I know your thinking of me I feel it. What misunderstanding. "That day".. we could still be friends. I had to walk away this cold day that turned in to night with chills of pain. 'You hurt me so you don't know".. I cry with no tears. Blood on the walls. Stars fall no one can tell, I walk alone now. You made love to me I won't for get that. You made me yours for a long time. I will be missing you for SO long my dear Eddie R.... bY LoVe GiRL *(

First Time Part 11
First time Marissa meet David was back in July, on a hot summer day. Just thinking back on this day, all most makes her sad . He is not the same man back then, but she is not the same women. In hot July, before David came into her life .Her daughter got Married, this hot summer of July. Didn't go over to well with Marissa family. And she got caught in the middle. She lost her daughter over all the fighting. They did not care for her husband. She wish she could of helped her little girl through this but it's to late. Then she ask her best friend over to stay with her.This is when David came into her life. First he was coming on to her best friend. Anne was a pretty women tall, with light hair and blue eyes nothing like Marissa. There was a big fight this day with Marissa family her daughter was moving out...what a sad day for her she could not stop crying. And now that Marissa thinks back on this day. David had played on this... from the start.. he was not a good man. Part 11

Why They Call Me Sweetstuff
well when i was a little girl my DAD gave me that name sweetstuff, I love the name and the best times of my life where when i grew up in N.Y. I lost my DAD last july 18th 2012. MY DAD WAS A HERO. TO ME. HE WAS IN THE NAVY FOR YEARS HE HAD 6 KIDS 4 GIRLS ONE BOY I WAS HIS BABY GIRL. HE WAS MARRIED TO MY MOM FOR 58 years WE HAD A BIG FAMILY AND LIFE WAS GOOD WITH MY MOM AND DAD GROWING UP I WILL ALL WAY"S CARRY MY DAD"S HEART AND ALL WAY"S USE THE NAME HE GAVE ME SWEETSTUFF. GOD BE WITH HIM RIP WILLIAM H.WOLFF SR. MY HERO

Is It Lust, Or Is It Limerence? Crazy In Love Might Be More Than Just A Catchphrase.
She saw him from across the room. Their eyes met. She made her way across the crowded dance floor to reach him. It was like a slow dance as she made her way to him. Finally, they stood inches apart and gazed into each other’s eyes. She believed she had found her Mr. More Than Right. From that moment forth, she placed him on a pedestal and her perfect lover could do no wrong. She pined for him with an acute longing, and she obsessed about him day and night. One problem: He did not feel the same. Still, she believed and hoped that one day he would. She had fallen into a state of limerence. And she was hooked bad. Limerence might sound like nothing more than an odd word, but it actually is a condition that some think should be classified as a mental disorder. The term, created in 1977 by psychologist Dorothy Tennov, refers to an overwhelming obsession with someone and an intense desire to have those feelings returned. Limerence is more than just a crush because a person becomes o

My Thoughts Written
Moderation is the mantra of a man that wants to live forever. Sometimes to do it right you have to go hard..If you don't go hard you will reach a point where you look back on your life with regret! Life is a big whore so fuck it. Don't be its friend, don't think its fair, don't believe in the fairytales the movies tell you. Life is harsh, cruel, and unfair. All we have is the will to strive and move forward, adversity is around every corner. In a world ruled by greed and envy all we can do is push. pretending everything will be ok is shit. Only you can change your life,we are sheep living in a world run by a few men who have their hands in all the cookie jars. All you can do is take care of you and yours. Life is a whore. Don't try to change her, don't try to save her. Fuck it. enjoy the little things, time passes so fast before you know it is all over. There is no room for mistakes or regrets so make every move count. stay true never change and listen to Judas Priest mor

If Its Only Fubar?
IF IT IS ONLY FUBAR... THEN WHY ARE SO MANY PEOPLE GETTING UPSET...THEY HAVE REAL LIFE SO STOP N REALIZE THAT WHEN U SAY IT IS ONLY FUBAR THEN FORGET FUBAR N GET ON WITH UR LIFE... YOU DON'T NEED FUBAR AS SOME OF US OTHERS THAT DO...DO UR DOG GROOMING OR UR OTHER STUFF DONT BLAME FUBAR CUZ U CAN'T ACCESS IT FROM UR PHONE OR U GET FRUSTRATED WITH LIFE...DON'T TAKE IT OUT ON THE PEOPLE THAT ENJOY MEETING PEOPLE ON FUBAR OR ENJOY THE SITE IN GENERAL...IT'S A PLACE TO MEET FRIENDS, N I FOR ONE ENJOY THE SITE AND THE PEOPLE ON IT...SO WHEN U SAY IT IS ONLY FUBAR N U DON'T LIKE THE DRAMA FIND ANOTHER SITE DON'T TRASH THIS ONE..

A Letter To Normals
A Letter To: Normals : Having FMS means many things change, and a lot of them are invisible. Unlike having cancer or being hurt in an accident , most people do not understand even a little about FMS/MSP and its effects, and of those that think they know, many are actually mis-informed. In the spirit of informing those who wish to understand...... These are the things that I would like you to understand about me before you judge me.... - Please understand that being sick doesnt mean Im not still a human being. I have to spend most of my day in considerable pain and exhaustion, and if you visit I probably dont seem like much fun to be with, but Im still me stuck inside this body. I still worry about school, and work and my family and friends, and most of the time I'd still like to hear you talk about yours too. -Please understand the difference between "happy" and "healthy" .When you've got the flu you probably feel miserable with it, but Ive been sick for years. I cant be miserable

I Went To Hell For You....
I went to hell for you... so you think your a man I think not. Your alone now. As I write I find the sun shines love will grow it will snow the moon will shine. I will love again. So go fuck your self... I done all I did for love. It end with treasures true feelings I have with me. That are dear to me. I'm happy I had this time to feel love, sex, feelings that you do not know about or could feel in a life time. I can write about. That is your hell. So sad, so sad that a man thinks he played me. Not so. Your trap in your hell with a gun to your head. Smoke away in dream of monkey on your back. You can face days or nights!!!!. Yell out no one to here you. Set back in your room and grow your shit. Low, Low in this life you can not face. You think you had me. You think you can put fear in me. You think you can puck me... I think not.... I'm 10 steps ahead of you.. fuck you. and your ?????? bY LoVe GiRL .... I know what is going on lol....

Mistakes
Mistakes, keep cumming love you all night kiss you goodnight. Mistakes moon is full making love to you all night long. I walk out that night. Mistakes saying I'm in love this night. Mistakes sun wise that morning true lies all this pain walking away. Mistakes taking a bus to candy land. Mistakes waking my head hurting thinking of you. Mistakes you pulling me in. Mistakes dancing the night away. Mistakes give all I got. Mistakes don't want this night to end. Mistake let you take me in... bY LoVe GiRL ... "All I know I don't want this night to end".... trusting it Mistake... was bad thing... so bad... end it ....

P O E T ---
Pulsating moments when my mind and body compete against one another to see which will feed the fastest! Orgasmic thoughts transcend to physical movements, Explosive! Tick ... tick ... BOOOM! The intense moment that you understand this and the meaning behind it,is the transitioning period where you will crave me -- again.

Street Lights
Street Lights ... she up town girl... she dress for the night up town girl.. smoke a cig she a women of the night.. she so nice and sexy you want her she so cool in the night you want her she so cool in the night so hard on the eyes you love her you'll love her first time you won't let her go she is so!!!!!. Take her in for the night street lights city moving faster she moves falling stars calling out her name sad, sad sounds falling off the walls. Take her in the night lover take her away Street lights but a dream..she up town girl in the night falling stars she wishing bY LoVe GiRL just saying lllllll

Sleep Unfound
These nightmares are from fear to fall asleep Worried they will come like wolves in the night creep The actions in these nightmares are souless intentions The darkest part of myself that never goes mentioned I can only save those treasured enough to stay And the rest are left to find their own way Often to face the horrors they did upon others Simply just to make them suffer Most are the ones who have crossed me in life So they can exist in the terrors of death and the end of a knife Yet in others I find myself running away My own fears sometimes leading me astray Eventually I will find peace once I close my eyes Or haunt me until the day my last breath dies

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I got a notification yesterday that said they deleted my avatar because it did not follow the rules - it most like had bare chest, bra/bathing suit showing, bar skin, etc. So I click on the link to see what they were talking about. It was a poster that said, "I like to snatch kisses and vise versa" - Someone turned that in for not being safe for work. Now - it was not my profile picture. It was on my second page of pictures in my default folder. It was a neat way of informing others I am bisexual. I have seen MANY default folders as well as PROFILE pictures that have bare c*cks in them. I never turn them in even though they rightfully should be. Why? Because this is an ADULT site! I can be ADULT about it. I can either choose to ignore the pics, ohhh and ahhh over them, block the user, or simply get off of the page making a note not to return. But again, I am ADULT about it. Why people on Fu have to turn something they may not agree with in or why the people on Fu would find that offe

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So I was friends with this guy Brandon n He told me he loved me n I believed him than he got very rude n called me every name n every book n told me he lied n never loved me. Well he apologized yesterday N I believed him. I gave him another chance today N he did the same thing tonite He turned on me n called me every name in the book even a useless bitch. I am done witht he asshole. N for all I care he can rot so woman plz watch out for him on fubar n thanks:) Baby Sassy:)

Facebook... Come And Join Me ...
Love Girl 3 likes Love Girl Timeline Now Now Personal Website I'm writing a book, I do not have a name for it. I'm writing poetry!, I love for you to join me set down for awhile have a cup coffee and enjoy! bY LoVe GiRL

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The Warning( From my dreams) I found myself walking along On an old cobble-stone laneRunning side by side the AtlanticOf an ancient Eriu' seaside town I knew I was to meet him hereThat dear soul once bound with mineHe visits me inside my dreamsFrom the place where theres no space or time. The sun shone warmly upon my face The wind brought me gently to the placeOf an old stone bridge with a sittng benchA stream below rolled down into the sea. There he was bent over the wallAnd staring at the stream belowHe jumped o'er the wall and down the bankI followed as much in wonder The water foul and of sulphur smellKneeling down he began to drinkDo not do so, good soul said IIf you drink that you will die. He gazed at me with piercing eyesA painful sorrow across his faceRising up he climbed the bankHe was now to leave this place We walked along in silenceMe wondered with time to thinkWhat water have I been drinkingThats made my soul to stink. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

No Fly Zone
Government to Enforce No Fly Zone Over Super Bowl Pilots warned they could be shot down by missiles Paul Joseph WatsonPrison Planet.comJanuary 29, 2013 In another illustration of how law enforcement in America is becoming increasingly militarized, the government plans to enforce a no fly zone over the Mercedes-Benz Superdome for this Sunday’s Super Bowl. Pilots have even been warned that if they enter the restricted area over New Orleans their aircraft could be targeted by missiles. “The United States Government may use deadly force against the airborneaircraft, if it is determined tha

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A sceech fills the air ... Dark Torment is on the move.... sailing through the heavens on black leathery wings... toppling over air currents. Swooping low out of the heavens... The people below scattering .... A loud screech and Dark Torment disappears .... The people below stop.. Some begin to look around. There is no sign of him. In the distance a scream is heard. An elderly woman. Then nothing. .. a low fog rolls through the streets.....it spreads like water under their feet.. ... Panic sets in and people start to run ...the fog snaking behind them .. Anyone in the fog ... .. their bodies burst as if from within .. and fall silently into the fog. The game is afoot! The Dark One is playing now. covered in the blood of the innocents Dark Torment rises out of the fog... Outstretching his arms ...the fog reacts like tentacles .. lifting and pulling the living towards him his gaping maw open.. they burst above him and rain the precious lifes blood upon him... He roars .. as the fog ri

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Stupid man. Go on the run yeah run, run that's all you've done. Stupid man. They say your stupid man. Your all fuck up in the mind. Stupid man. You eat women's heart throw them away like the dog you are. Stupid man. You drink blood to feed off others to stay alive. Stupid man. Writing is on the wall. Stupid man, stupid man, stupid man you are. bY LoVe GiRL... "You think got me" Yr. 1213 mo. 1/30/13 time: 3:37 PM

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I SIT AND THINK HOW MUCH PPLE LAST FEW MONTHS GAVE ME SO MUCH HOPE AND GAVE ME TO BELIEVE IN AGAIN ....... I SIT THANK GOD THAT I HAVE SO MUCH GOOD FRIENDS ON HERE THEY ARE MY FAMILY THAT I LOOK FOR EVERY DAY AND REST OF MY LIFE ... I SIT AND THINK HOW COME I DESERVE BETTER PPLE THAT HAVE HELP ME THROUGHT MY HARDTIMES AND GOODTIMES ... I SIT THINK WONDERING AND HOPEING THAT ONE DAY I WILL MAKE MARKET ON THERE LIFE TO ...EACH DAY I WAKE UP AND THANK GOD THAT I HAVE MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY I HAVE HERE..........THANK U GUYS FOR EVERYTHING .................

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Hello Everyone, Some may have noticed I have been gone about oh a week an maybe a day or two to go with it. This is not what I am writing about, but to let those that may have wondered, here is the scoop. I decided to take some relax time and spend a few days in the hospital to get a much needed surgery done. I am home now, but sore as fuck and on some pretty good meds, but anyway. While I was there I had a lot of alone time and this place called fubar that we all seem to live on because we simple don't have anything else to do and it has become our life or we just enjoy being here stirring up shit or using people or making some are on here for love or there true friends. I am not sure why I am here to be honest, I do have a life but on my down times I do find I am right here with you. This was my thoughts while I was there, there were many but this one kept coming back to me like grinding teeth. There are many pros and cons on being on fubar. One of the main thing that so many

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How lonely the night sky would be if the moon did not have the stars to keep him company.... to entertain him with their ever brightness, their twinkling, their ever cheerful nature. He sees them dance. He sees them shine. He is thankful for the friendship. He is happy :) He knows he is not alone. He smiles and shines back.

Birth Certificate
Obama’s Lawyers Officially Admit Birth Certificate is Fake Susanne PoselOccupy CorporatismApril 20, 2012 Lawyers for the Obama Administration announced that Barack Obama’s long form birth certificate was a forgery. Under penalty of perjury, the lawyers said they were forced to say that the birth certificate was valid. A lawyer representing the Obama administration say the birth certificate was knowingly purveyed to fool the American public into believing he was legitimately able to be President. However, they purport that Obama knows he is not a natural born citizen. Obama stated at a White House briefing that the birth certificate subject is “irrelevant”. He must think that by dismissing it that he can make it go away. This invalidates the Obama Presidency and makes him ineligible to be President in 2012. Pen Johannson, Editor of the Daily Pen, stated in his editorial that this controversy should set off a firestorm of constitutional questions

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most of my friends know that i randomly make custom pictures for them, most of the time using one of their pictures, for no reason other than i'm just trying to do something nice. well it seems some people would rather i be a complete asshole. if you would rather i not use one of your pictures, send me a msg asking me nicely to not use your pictures. you'll find that i'm quite reasonable about this approach. do NOT come to me with an attitude, acting like a total cunt. trust me my attitude would & can easily make yours rather pale in comparison. so if you want attitude, so be it. but let me warn you now, you will NOT like it. ask around, i honestly don't give a fuck if people like me or not. i'm not here to please or serve you, so you can take your cuntness somewhere else. i'm not a hard person to get along with as long as you treat me how you want others to treat you. treat me good, i'll do the same. treat me bad, prepare for the shitstorm you unleashed. so with all this having been s

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From my friend DISPOSABLE: The Second Ammendment is not about the right to own a rifle. It was put in place by our forefathers who knew that an unarmed citizenry is helpless against a tyrant and that another inalienable right is to protect ourselves. With it they were declaring that the people should always be able to defend themselves against the government. That in fact, the goverment should never be harmed to the point that the citizens were defenseless.They could not see the day when things like tanks and cruise missles would exist, upsetting that balance completely; but I am sure that they would panic to see what little protection we do have being stripped away and limited by that very Government.

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I am done with cowards I am done with empathy I am done with compromise I face the unknown with clarity of purpose Without fear or doubt of retribution And I will always survive Because I matter DAMMIT I move because I choose to And that is why I do ANYTHING

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It's amazing how often we run from things we supposedly want. We hide from what we call ourselves pursuing. And in doing this...we miss happiness and seem to embrace misery, cuz afterall it wants company. it's just funny to me. We are unable to receive the gifts life has to offer because we walk around with closed fists. Closed off to true friendships, meaningful relationships, even love. So we retreat inside or even look up above and cry out "Why?" It's a shame because with self reflection then surely we would come to realize that the reason why are hearts are heavy and broken lies within our own closed minds. People say eyes are the windows to the soul yet we've installed and closed the blinds. It's ironic that those born without sight...even they can still seek and find. if you really seek then what you find is that you're using the wrong senses and in order to find certain things you have to let down your defenses...and be defenseless?

Watch Out!!!
So there is this guy on here who is 27 in supposely catholic in goes to church twice a week. I thought he was a friend. He calls disabled people with disablilites mental. He doesn't respect them or anything. Well guess what buddy god will get u n so will Karama lol. Wanna know who it is sb me ty:) sincerely urs sassy:)

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This mornings run was Horrid. 2 miles in 20 minutes 21 seconds aver mile time was 9:40 total calories burned was 312, with a 76 foot climb......ugh....alright it was just day one work out one still shitty..... hitting the gym during lunch.

Silence
what do you do when the world seems to be against you when everything goes wrong no matter what you do who do you turn to when everyone turns their back when your lost how do you get back on track when your stuck in the mud and your sinking fast wondering how long it will last your back against the wall, pain in your head making you wish that you were dead when your all alone and bleeding slow where do you run, where do you go when your bones ae broken and your torn inside when theres noone to help you and nowhere to hide when the moon turns black and the sun burns red what will silence the screaming in your head

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I won't be online tonight - super excited and a lil bit nervous as this is the first time one of my kids will be staying overnight. The ex is really sick with asthamtic bronchitis and the kids have been home on school winter vacation for a week - I get Dad duty with bring them dinner tonight, giving the eldest a ride and back to his youth group, youngest staying overnight, and tomorrow will bring all 3 of them to Target to let them shop for food they want and one item of their choosing up to $20. I have been busy and traveling and working or kid duty all week - almost as if I was back living with them. I'm forgetting about needing some time off- just happy I have these opportunities just to be with them. I don't have any furniture yet to speak of - just a bereau and an office desk. My youngest (10) is actually excited because he has wanted to "sleep on the carpet at Dad's place" in his sleeping bag. lol

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Cold in the night she has been gone far to long not saying a word or a tear fall from her face. Cold in the night the fog cover the ground not seeing her foot steps that lead her to a new place in her life. She fallows the stars that takes her home where she belongs. The cool grass, sweet smell of flowers on a summer day she can eat them like candy. Spell of love comes over her. She eats red one, pink, blue the taste over whelms her. She lays on the cool grass and keeps eating the flowers and hoping this spell last for ever. She embrace this feeling. Cold in the night she is home now with flowers in her hair with a pink dress on dance free with love in the air no one can stop her now she had a taste spell of love she embrace still another will not know of her this summer day. bY LoVe GiRL

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"i'm Alright.i'm Okay"-a Poem I Wrote A Few Yrs Ago For My 5 Yr Old Nephew Who Drowned
My 5 yr old nephew, Seth was amazing.He never used to cry. Which was unusual for a 5 yr old. Everytime he would fall or get hurt, he would just get up, brush himself off and say "I'm alright, I'm ok"-hence the title of this poem. Also, there was something he did that we all called "googly eyes" where he would smile and bat his eye lashes. Which I also mention in this poem. We love you Seth. See you soon, buddy Tearfully we watched you As you slowly slipped away Although it hurt to see you go We could not make you stay A golden heart stopped beating A joyful smile at rest God broke our hearts to prove He only takes the best You brightened up the darkest day When you flashed those "googly eyes" It put a smile on our face When it hurt too much to cry Now when we see your picture You look back at us and say "Don't cry, I'm here with Jesus. I'm alright,I'm ok"

I Was Going To
I was going to do a "work/acronym" blog, but I've decided against that. YOU are amazing. I love you. I have for so many years. No matter what happens between us, that has never changed. Others have some and gone but we've always managed to find our way back together. YOU are my best friend....

Mistake
Is it really a mistake to want to make sure something is real? Is it really a mistake to never know? I would think it would be more of a mistake to never find out. To spend the rest of your life wondering. To constantly feel the need of something and never being able to get it....because you chose to not find out. Maybe I'm going about this wrong. Maybe I need to step back a few steps. Maybe it would be a mistake. I have no clue. I just know that seeing that fucking sucks. Oh well.....back to photobucket and skins. Ugh.

The Meanings Of Words And Actions
Promises these thoughts are from Feb A promise is a commitment. When you keep promises and / or even just remember and acknowledge you are breaking a promise to someone; you tell that person that not only are you a person of your word who values your commitments but that the person you made the promise to is important enough for you to remember your promise. How much is your word worth? How much are you worth if your word is worthless? I don’t ask to always be at the top of your priority list, because I can promise you that you will not always be at the top of mine. It is hubris to think that you should always be at the top of someone’s priority list and not healthy for either party. That said if you tell me I’m a priority in your life, your actions need to prove it. As a champion talker I will affirm actions speak truer then words. It is a fallacy when people say they speak louder, because they are often quieter. Indeed you have to pay attention to someon

What Do You Think ?
What do you think of our new POPE FRANCIS, will he change the world. As the world see him he prays to change the world. Gives us a blessing. He gives peace to all the world. Cardinal Bergoglio has chosen the name Pope Francis. This is live in Rome. at the end As he stands there and tells us to pray in silent. bY LoVe GiRL This is Breaking News

Delicate Destruction
Delicate destruction Like painstakingly darning a sock People don't do that any more of course But the tools remain In museums Destroying the edges of what is there To mend the whole for the long run A decision is made To darn or not to darn Surgery? Cut out what is dying Or dead before it's time THAT is the decision To be made cooly Like a surgeon A very Delicate Destruction Indeed

Lyrics
Lyrics for March of the Zombies V1 The voices in my head are forcing me, controlling me. There telling me these Things I know that cannot be. I woke up to this thing i thought was a lie, just to realize, i died! v2 the flesh on my body rotted away. my social conformity now trapped in decay. my spirit raised by societies senselessness. a soul caught in hell by this animated consciousness. c1 the song in my head says you'll bleed for me, bleed for me the song in my head says you'll scream for me, die for me the song in My head says you'll scream. V1 blackened by fire my purpose is here. a union of sound and soul to make it all clear. the call for torment you'll scream to the skies. the march of the zombies i see in my eyes c1 the song in my head says you'll bleed for me, bleed for me the song in my head says you'll scream for me, die for me. the song in My head says you'll scream.

Sheep In Wolves Clothing
The words I love you get used way to often today. Beware of all the Sheeps in wolves clothing outthere. You fall for them, Bring them into your home only to find out that they are not who you think they are or who they "claim" to be. They hide you from their families and friends as if you are yesterdays garbage. They fill your head full of empty promises and when you ask for their help around the house or to help pay bills all of a sudden they are homesick and want to leave. That is when you find out about all the others before during and after you. The late night cybering on webcams, text messages and phone calls to God only knows how many people. Yes, this happened to me but I am not bitter, I am thankful this all happened because it gave me more insight on how not to trust someone. Not heard from them in almost a week now. Although I wonder if they are ok, it is a relief not to have the added stress with them here. Time to move forward and get on with my life. Just be careful wh

Bath Time Fun
I draw my bath carefully making sure the water is at the hottest temperature possible. I light three apple cinnamon candles and place them on the edge of the bath tub. Grabbing the bottom of my shirt I pull it up and over my head, reaching back I undo my bra taking it off and letting my big plump breasts free. Wedging my thumbs into the top of my shorts I push down and wiggle out of them along with my panties. Carefully stepping out of my shorts and panties I turn out the lights, get into the tub, and gently sit down into the hot steamy water. As I sit back moans slowly seep out and I feel my nipples suddenly stand erect! I turn on the radio, lay back and begin to message my nipples and squeeze my tits. My pussy starts to throb causing my clit to get hard making me wet. I move my right hand down my soaking wet body lifting my leg I place the side of my pinky on the right side and wedge my lips open, sliding my middle finger slowly inside my pussy... feeling my juices surround my fin

Sexy Sex
You open my legs like a bag of chips. Carefully spreading them to their farthest point. You then, adjusting your position...reach in and gently feel around. Once you find that one spot you begin to softly rub my clit with your thumb and glide ur finger tips along my pussy lips. Feeling the wetness seep through and you begin to work your way in. Once inside my vast lands of juiciness I want you to spread it all around and insert a finger super slow...taking care to feel every throbbing muscle as you go deeper and pull out. I grab your hand, bring it up to my mouth and suck my sweet nectar from your fingers. Watching you come closer you press your luscious lips against mine and passionately kiss me as you as you penetrate my soaked love hole. Going deeper and deeper you begin to grab my breasts and thrust your hard cock faster and faster. I wrap my legs around your body holding you close. I reach down and rub my pussy. I grab your rock hard shaft giving a tight squeeze you fuck me faster

Single/lost Weight
Well alot has been going on with my life, I'm happier than I was. For starters, I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years, at first he made it difficult, and wanted to work it out, but I still wanted to part my way, so we both agreed, I will not tell you why, because of still anyone harrassing me.I still live with him but we do our own things, I will be moving out when I can finally get a better career. I started loosing weight because I was happier being single, and wanting out of the relationship, I lost 20lbs so far, and I am still going. I AM SOO HAPPY!! I notice the change, and I am looking real good. Been talking to new people, I am aiming for men about 29-35 years old no one younger, because I want to start a family and my own life soon. But first I'm going to enjoy being single, and focus on myself, and have fun before settling down. That is what is been happening with me lately.

Run Away
I'd run away with you tonight if I had the chanceLeave this old, dusty town behind without a second glanceCatch a plane, bound over this endless, wide seaAnd fall gently into your arms, just you and me I'd grab your hand and we'd run deep into the nightHiding from the stars above, shining so brightThey'd give away our secret, that we've ran away like thisInstead of mark a new chapter as we're wrapped up in a kissWe'd catch a plane out of town, going somewhere sweetA place where we can kick back, just us two, and kick around our feetA careless place for the two of us to slowly settle downRelax and slowly get used to the places all aroundHidden from our families with their disapproving staresWe'd have each other, near and close, the source of all our caresOur life would begin, sooner than we thoughtBut the one we truly wanted would have finally been sought Perfection finally received, if this could be trueSo, I'll give you a proposition and see what it is you doMy love for you grows stro

Prayer
I place my heart in your hands God , for you to hold it and treasure it first , like no other you are my father , the lover of my soul You knew me before i was born , you know how many hairs are on my head you know my heart , and you of its sincerity you know my future , my past and my present .. Lord , wrap your arms around me and comfort me in times of lonelieness , send your holy spirit to keep me company til you bring my husband to me ..Lord help me to best to be the best i can be ,and to help the noes you cal on me to help and let me lethe ones you call on to help me , May i put aside my foolish pride , and look to you for wisedom , and guidence.. trust in you even when all seems hopeless .. Love always your daughter in christ Briar

Democrats Are Like Sherman Marching Through Georgia...
The bottom line for the Democratic Party is centralized control of the masses by people who are simply a whole smarter than they are. That’s why they talk about “how smart” the party leadership is. Remember Bill Clinton, Rhodes Scholar? John Kerry, smartest guy to ever graduate from Yale (even his grades were worse than GWB’s)? And then there’s out current President, a graduate from Columbia and Harvard Law, whose grades and LSAT scores are sealed forever in a memory hole? There’s a problem with all those smart people though. They really aren’t all that smart. Scheming, greedy for power, effective manipulators, yes. Smart? Not so much. Look at the evidence. The US is $17T in debt with no hope of doing anything but digging a deeper hole over the next decade. Dark blue states and cities are insolvent and going bankrupt. Illinois, California, Detroit, Chicago, a half dozen major cities in Pennsylvania and the latest to hit the radar, N

Envy Vs. Jealousy...
I didn't inherit the envy gene. And I am glad. No one on this planet is doing or has anything that I cannot attain or feel I should have instead. Envy is a painful or resentful awareness of an advantage enjoyed by another joined with a desire to possess the same or better advantage. Some people even enjoy creating evny. Maybe to feel superior. But I am like, why do they even need to? Ive had money, cars and cutie girls in bars. But Ive always had my own song to sing. I actually love to see people come up and get phat. What I dont like however, are arrogant conceited people who brag as if they are capabale of something no one else is. And that is nonsense to me. Not envy. People confuse jealousy with envy. But jealousy like prejudice is not always negative. Sometimes jealousy is even legitimate. Not weak and insecure like most people like to accuse. If you feel indignant because you are a top performer at work and some newbie dork gets a raise or promoted ahead of you, that is not evi

A Very Colorful Leaf
A very colorful leaf Arrests attention to itself So you pick it up Assuming that it will at least be a token A reminder of it's beauty And there it lays on your table Changing color BUT still carries the reminder of the color it had That made you pick it up And put it on your table A living thing once and always a living thing In perception But that is an idea An idea only grows like a plant When it mutates And changes Changes to what is actually happening In the idea The constant catch 22 of perception I carry the IDEA of the colorful leaf Not it's body

F A Q
Hopefully this portion of my blog will answer some of your questions. Q - How many tickets to I have to buy to guarantee I win the FuPony? A - This seems to be the most common question asked of me since I started the lotto for the pony. The short answer to this question is none. This will be a legit drawing, on cam, for all to view if they choose to do so. I DO NOT & WILL NOT rig contest's nor do I participate in underhanded practices, in real life or on Fubar. The only guarantees I make is there will be 39 prizes, including the Fupony, totaling 2,000 credits awarded. Q - Is your FuWife in the drawing for the pony? A - Nope. I'm not even FuMarried, silly. Q - If I show you my NSFW pics or Bling you, will you give me tickets? A - If you would like to share your NSFW pics with me I'll probably look. Also, if you would like to Bling me, that would be much appreciated. But, no, you won't be getting any tickets for these things. Q - Can I buy tickets for someone else or can

My Top 10 Drummers
Well I'm heavilly into the metal scene and here's my top 10 !!! #1 Mike Portnoy - Dream Theater, Adrenaline Mob, Liquid Tension Experiment and Avenged Sevenfold #2 Vinnie Paul - Pantera, Hellyeah and Damage Plan #3 Joey Jordison - Slipknot #4 Igor Cavalera - Sepultura #5 Chris Adler - Lamb of God #6 David Silveria - Korn #7 Nick Menza - Megadeth #8 Gene Hoglan - Death, Strapping Young Lad DETHKLOK and ZIMMERS HOLE! #9 Dave McClain - Machine Head #10 Dirk Verbeuren / Ryan Van Poederooyen - The Devin Townsend Band/Project - Deconstruction Album

War Remembered
Reading the article I read earlier and then watching a show I'm watching really has me in a state. Need to write. Need to share. I don't "miss" war. I don't "miss" the violence and fear. Yes, fear. I was afraid at times. The fear usually came after the action, but at times, lying under a bunk listening to rockets fall only 100 meters or less from me...having no trigger under my finger to fight back...that was immediate fear. Not knowing when or where the last one would fall. Was that the last one? Was that? I still hear the whistles so they're still incoming. The sickening "crunch" sound of the explosions that can only be understood by those who have heard them. Then silence...briefly...followed by sirens warning us of an attack that we were clearly already aware of. Is it safe to move? Fuck it. I have to get to the TOC and start making sure no one was hit, or if they were, how badly. That leaves a permanent mark. No matter how much you joke about it, it leaves a mark

This Is Me Being.....
And I will never be the same I can barely speak your name I'm clutching empty clothes Lost in a void that only grows In a skin I've grown to hate And if you only knew That this is all that I can do Its God's honest truth I just miss you I can still hear your voice Though its surrounded by the noise The noise of loss and love And all the prayers that weren't enough To trade a miracle for your choice And if you only knew That this is all that I can do Its God's honest truth I just miss you And I had to be high When I told you she was the love of my life And I'm so damn sick of goodbyes I'm over kisses leaving scars as reminders I'm alive If I could take all of your pain I'd hide it all away I can say one things for sure You know I hate it when you hurt And you're worth every minute I wait If you only knew That this is all that I can do Its God's honest truth I just miss you [song in comments]

Corner Of The Bed.
Still irkedshe somehow landed 20 feet away without a word, a thought, an anorexic hug heavy with cigarette smoke and shared showers.I guess I didn't have anything to say.I hadn't made a move, a clattering sweep to solve every problem, and I hadn't uttered a word in sympathy.I kissed your wife.or rathershe kissed me.I wrote poetry in her name, and body.I never really had anything to say about that.How she always smelled like rainy saturdays, and was gone with as much stillness.We could've talked about that.

Baring Her Soul
leave me alone mr moon pictures sometimes it's important to open up and bare one's soul....there are so many people hurting and scared.......to show and share grief lets others in to see they are not alone....we are all connected through spirit and heart and though experiences might differ...no one escapes or is left untouched by life, love, heartbreak and death. As you travel around the fubarian world and the real one.....never forget to open your heart and to help where you can....we are all in this together....and it is sooo much more then about points and rates.......its about being a friend and touching a soul...... **************************************************** Last night she dreamt. . .she cast her soul out amidst the stars and flew upon the wings of Brother Hawk, breathless, yet safe in His gentle care. her need drawing her--guiding her to seek the wisdom of the Ancient Fires. Brother Hawk gently setting her down before them amidst the people slumbering quietl

Angel Butterfly Princess
The angels sing of your cosmic beauty. The gods stand ready to defend your honor. The goddesses praise your kindness to all creatures. The cosmos shines to give you light at all times. The sirens love to be in your presence. The elves sing of your love to all races. The earth flourishes under your care. Everywhere I went I heard about your celestial beauty. When I finally laid eyes on you my breath was taken from me. I had never seen such a beauty in all the cosmos. When you looked at me I fell to my knees bowing down as you walked towards me. You laid your hand on my shoulder telling me to stand. You asked me what I was thinking about you. I told you that were an Angel Butterfly Princess.

Equal
I posted this as a note on facebook, and seeing as how I've seen a few "against equal" pictures here, I thought I should post it. Of course it applies to both sides, I know there are some not so great people on both sides of the equal rights debate..however, this is coming from MY point of view. I have the same picture as my profile picture on facebook as I do here. I didn't want to really even post the picture that I have up now. Not that I'm against equal rights, it's just that it's such a hot debate topic that I'd prefer not to get in the middle of it. However, as you can see, I changed my picture. It has taught me a few things. 1. Simply changing a picture makes me a different person than I was this time yesterday. I guess when it's a picture of me and my boyfriend, I'm good enough to be friends with. What changed about me though? My views? I guess in order to be friends, a person must agree with absolutely EVERYTHING the other person says or does. If that

Easter And Opening Day...
Hello kids. Just a note. There's some explosive crap I'm working on as always and with the Easter Holiday coming up and Baseball Opening Day Sunday I probably won't be here much if at all. But you all know what to do. Happy early Easter. Peace.

Real Beauty
Beauty has been defined in many different forms such as outer beauty and inner beauty. Solomon put it best of as to what beauty is about. If a person is beautiful on the outside, but hideous on the inside, he refers to it as a pig with a jewel in it's snout. Real beauty is defined as someone with a heart of gold, not by one's look. People have a hard time seeing past a person's features to see who they really are. If you have seen the movie "Shallow Hal" where Hal is hypnotized to see only a person's true beauty, you will know what I'm talking about. If you haven't seen it go watch it. The world would be a better place is we didn't have a tendency to judge a book by it's cover. Open that book and read what's inside. You might be surprised at what you'll find.

A Long, Stressful Day.
You walk through the door, plunk you keys on the counter and remove your jacket. You hear soft music playing in the back, as you pour a glass of wine, kick off your heels and rub your sore feet. Taking a sip of wine, a little dribbles down your chin and you lick it off, enjoying the rich flavor. You become curious about the music and walk down the hall to the bedroom. Ther, you see I have the massage table laid out, some scented candles lit and the soft music playing. I look over at you and ask "Rough day?" "Hell yes!" you reply. "Let me see if I can help, then." I say. I move close to you, take your wine and set it on the dresser. I lean in and kiss you, relishing the taste of the wine and your lips. "Mmmmmm" very nice. I slide my hands up your arms, caress your cheek down to line of your jaw and begin unbuttoning your blouse. I remove it, then turn your around, and start massaging your shoulders, and then slowly remove your bra. Laying your clothes on the bed, I return a

Not Mine But Funny
FBI JOB OPENING... The FBI had an opening for an assassin. After all the background checks,interviews and testing were done, there were 3 finalists.Two men and a woman.For the final test, the FBI agents took one of the men to a large metaldoor and handed him a gun. "We must know that you will follow yourinstructions no matter what the circumstances. Inside the room you willfind your wife sitting in a chair.... Kill Her !!" The man said, "You can't be serious. I could never shoot my wife."Then the agent said, "You are not the right man for this job. Take yourwife and go home."The second man was given the same instructions. He took the gun and wentinto the room. All was quiet for about 5 minutes. The man came out with tears in his eyes, "I tried, but I can't kill my wife."The agent said, "You don't have what it takes. Take your wife and gohome."Finally, it was the woman's turn. She was given the same instructions,to kill her husband. She to

For The Love Of My Life, Karen
I lie awake at night and think of you I think of all the things I didn't do All the things I should have said and done To let you know that you're the only one For me (chorus) I used to lie awake and watch you sleep Now I just lie awake and only weep My head is spinning 'round just like a top My heart is aching and it just won't stop I've lived a long life but it's incomplete No one has ever meant so much to me There's just two things in life I miss the most Your tender kiss the way you held me close So close (chorus) I used to lie awake and watch you sleep Your naked body lying next to me My head is spinning 'round just like a top My heart is aching and it just won't stop I lie awake at night and think of you I think of all the things I didn't do All the things I should have said and done To let you know that you're the only one For me, For me By: John Milligan (guitarzzan69)

Kids On Cam
Kids on Cam in Excito Diabolus (Not Allowed for the Following Reasons) I'm Pretty sure that Everybody enjoys seeing their friends' kids on cam, giggling, acting goofy, and smacking their parents in the back of their heads with toys. I know that i enjoy it. However, Fubar TOS apparently is against it, so as much as i hate to say it, i have to enforce that rule so that Excito Diabolus doesn't get deleted. Again, I'd like to say that it is not My Wish to keep kids off of the cams, it is only My Wish to keep Excito Diabolus up and running. I'm not saying to avoid getting on cam when your kids are around or to keep your kids out of the room. It could be as simple as pointing the cam at an angle so that the kids are too short to be seen. Or at an angle so that you are the only thing between the cam and the wall, maybe. So, if someone in the lounge tells you that you shouldn't have your kids on the cam with you, they are not doing it to be an asshole to you, they are doing

Worth It
They took the elevator from the lobby to the 21st floor, standing close together in the small space, their arms brushing. She looked up at him as he looked down at her and they both smiled somewhat shyly. When the doors opened they headed down the hallway, her small suitcase in his hand, and when they reached his room she waited while he slid the card into the lock. With a faint click the lock released and he turned the handle, standing back as he held the door open for her. She walked into the suite and looked around briefly before bending over by the closet to unlace her boots.Standing in the doorway, he watched her for a few seconds before closing and locking the door. He stood still behind her, watching, as her movements caused her jeans to strain across her bottom. Setting her case on the floor he took a step toward her, his hand reaching out almost involuntarily to brush across her ass. She stilled her movements when he touched her but didn't pull away, merely resumed unlacing he

True Friend
I remember when we first met. I said to myself you will make a great friend I bet. I talked to you alot because there was something about you that intrigued me. Then I learned what it was as I was finally able to see. You listened to me as I cried. You were there for me when I felt like I was tried. You have done nothing that would break me apart. You helped me to pick up the pieces of my heart. From the start you have been great. Your heart knows no hate. You are really awesome. Your beauty will never end because it always blossoms. Your caring for others will never end. You are a True Friend. ================================================================================== I dedicate this poem to Carpe Diem Read Profile here on Fubar.

Erotic Fiction The Conclusion"
he got her just after the curtain. the entire row was empty and the carpeted floor served their purposes fine. Before she could get to his swollen dick he had his mouth filled with her sensitive breasts. his tongue went wild darting from left to right and then circling round each brown nipple until Denise couldn't hold back a light groan. "Mmmmmmmm...you taste good baby" she had caught up now and was doing a good job on his dick but only with her hand. 'why don't you taste my snatch? It's oozing with all sorts of goodies." that was all the encouragement he needed but she gave him more. she hiked up her skirt and thrust her pussy into his fave. there were no panties to impede progress. hi mouth went straight to work on her clit then traveling all the way up to her ass hole. Every now and then his tongue would thrust into her juicy pussy and each time she'd react with a shudder. Meanwhile, she'd moved him into a 69 so she could have a few good sucks. his balls were so fucking pl

An Evening With The Stars
Dusk settles in... The air still, heavy & thick, surrounding me in a dry, stale heat Drag after drag I ponder, lost in meaningless thought My mind searches my heart, My heart searches my soul listening for the reason, yet hearing only silence Sifting through the debris for pieces that will once again make me whole Understanding this need for chaos, But desperately seeking order I sit alone, going back over the years like a video reel in reverse and as doubts bear down upon me, weighing heavily on my shoulders, I begin to let it all go... A risk worth taking & chance to begin a new chapter, yet ever apprehensive of the unforeseen This life is mine, no longer belonging to the demons, nor the fear that had been holding me back

Lover's Song
In the crisp breeze of the night she sits basking in the moonlight singing songs of longing for her love to hear desperately wishing for him to be near The sounds of the night blend with the tune of her lament in her sorrowful sullen song one can hear her discontent gravely reaching out nearly losing her self control desiring nothing more than the comfort of her lover's soul. ~RavenMoon

How To Make Youtube Videos Autoplay On Your Public Profile
How to make YouTube videos autoplay on your public profile Before I start, this blog will only tell you how to get the embed code and add the autoplay function into it. That is it. So, first you need to go to YouTube and find the video you would like to place on your profile. Once you find the video you want you will click the SHARE link below the video as pictured below. After you click the SHARE link you will see the EMBED link which you will need to click also as pictured below. Make sure you have USE OLD EMBED CODE checked because Fubar does not support user's trying to embed Java into the site, you will need the old embed HTML as shown above. Highlight the HTML code in the box above Video Size:, Copy it and Paste it into your About Me section. You can get to your About Me section by going to your Fubar homepage, clicking MY, SETTINGS, ABOUT ME & INTERESTS. Now paste the code into that box as pictured below. After the HTML has been pasted into your ABOUT ME se

Friends, Love, Life
I have been given the greatest gift anyone can be given. Love. True love at that. I fell in love with him quickly, but i know this man is my soul mate. We have so much in common, a few differences in opinion on things, but thats ok because thats what makes us perfect for each other. He shows me unconditional love no matter how busy his day is, theres always time for us time. For once in my life I know that the love and time that i put into what we have together is shared and its amazing. I have several true friends that have been there for me no matter what is going on in my life as well. Sabrina, Apollo, Drake, Chelsea, Mel, Lou, Shawny, Daveo and the rest of you know who you are I thank you without yall there have been several things i wouldnt have been able to deal with. Life is almost perfect the next thing will be being in Liams arms where i belong but that is close to happening as well theres nothing stopping us. He pushes all the limitations i had set for myself and has given me

Relationship
"A relationship is about TWO being on the same team encouraging, uplifting and always being there for one another! You are too good to be taken for granted, unappreciated, or expected to shoulder the majority of the load! If your mate is not your best friend, sidekick and down for you whenever or wherever, then you deserve another mate who will appreciate the great person you are! Worrying, stressing and second guessing yourself is not a healthy way to live!"

This Made Me Cry
I'll tell it rather simply; I'll say it plain, and true- There are no riches, no treasures, or possessions that ever could compare with you. You are kind, and caring; Humorous, fun, secure, and true; Sensitive, sweet, and understanding; Truthful, and helpful with honest eyes; Always there..... Yes that's you; You're one of a kind, different from others; You'll always be there, I know that's true; Appreciative, warm, and precious like gold. I'll always be here.... Always for you. ================================================================================== This was written by one of my Friends/Family here on Fubar named patti the brat. She wanted me to have it, and said I could post it on my blog here.

Trapped
why is love so hard sometimes why do i feel unwanted and unloved most days i just want to go away and disapear into thin air sometimes i wish i was never around no more hurt no more pain no more giving my heart to anyone all i do is get hurt get told i m worthless get treated like shit what did i do to desrve this pain i need love too not jsut the pretty ones the nice sweet ones need love just as much i feel like im not wanted most days the walls close in on me and im traped in this life i no longer want to be in

No Strings Attached Snuggling;trending Sensual Intentions Surrounded By Sexual Misconceptions
Note: this was written on Dec 7, 2012 on my other blog on another website which connected specific topics with other blog entries. You are most likely a hopeless romanticfollowing my blog for an instant emotional and intellectual connection within yourself. My recent blog posts may have helped you release your daily stress from work, school or taking care of children. Possibly, you could have all three of those emotional burdens hindering some time alone for yourself. You may argue that you do manage your time wisely to schedule personal time alone from reality, however it is only limited to meals, showers and sleep. It is unfortunate that my presence is absent to fulfill your innermost desire for physical touch and the embrace of two bodies with legs intertwined by engaging in no strings attached snuggling. There is a guarantee that you can find someone else who will make you completely comfortable with that taboo concept of snuggling with strangers. You may decline to take part

*sigh*
"Chalk Outline" I've been cursedI've been crossedI've been beaten by the ones that get me offI've been cutI've been opened upI've been shattered by the ones I thought I lovedYou left me here like a chalk outlineOn the sidewalk waiting for the rainTo wash away(Wash away)You keep coming back to the scene of the crimeBut the dead can't speak and there's nothing left to say anywayAll you left behindIs a chalk outlineI've been coldIn the cryptBut not as the cold as the words across your lipsYou'll be sorry babySome dayWhen you reach across the bed where my body used to layYou left me here like a chalk outlineOn the sidewalk waiting for the rainTo wash away(Wash away)You keep coming back to the scene of the crimeBut the dead can't speak and there's nothing left to say anywayAll you left behindIs a chalk outlineAll you left behindIs a chalk outline(All you left behind...)You left me here like a chalk outlineOn the sidewalk waiting for the rainTo wash away(Wash away)You keep coming back to th

Darkness… Consume Me No More…
Darkness… Consume me no more… Darkness falls all around as emptiness fills my heart; my soul. It consumes me. You have consumed my every being. I am nothing but an empty shell. There is nothing left, nothing to give…… Nothing to live for. My heart lies bleeding at your feet. I have created my own darkness. I have created my own sorrow. I have created my own pain. I can’t make that go away. I can’t make things right. I loved you from the day I met you. I knew wanted to love you for the rest of my life. In my own dark world, I will love you until my last breath is taken. I will live in my own misery for the pain I have caused…. Because of the past I can’t let go. The past that created my own misery, my darkness…. Coldness starts sinking down deep into my bones. How can you do this to me? You haunt me everywhere I go. No matter what I do I can’t get rid of you. You’re my past, that&rs

Shining Beauty
It is rare to find things in life that are worth it in the end. People do things that stand out for a short time. They gain fame for curing a disease, or helping those who are in need the most. Time passes for awhile before they are no longer remembered. It is what they say, or do that stays with a person in the end. Alot of people are only out for themselves in this modern world. Some people try to help out, but might want something in return. Few people give freely from their heart without asking for anything in return. The remaining people are rare because what they do is talked about throughout history. These rare people have a quality that shines brighter than the sun. They have a compassion that goes deeper than the oceans. They have a kindness that stretches further than the East is from the West. They have a willingness to listen when nothing else will. These people have a shining beauty that is always on fire. You are one of these people.

What Do Others Think On This Subject ?
I love the Vampires Saga's because it shows sensuality in love and freedom. The vamp can make his victim come under his mind control so he can tell her to serve him unconditionally and she does so with joy. Then when he partakes of the free flowing blood , it send her body into continuous orgasmic joy and so she continues to obey willingly. Another thing is when the coven needs him , will stand beside and face what-ever battle is to be fought . They seem more family connected than any human I've ever seen. And basically I don't trust most people anymore , because they don't seem to really care. Have meet so many fake-ass idiots that truly makes me want to hide. To find a cave deep in the Earth and just go out when the moon is shining and feel the night air caress my skin. I think if there is truly Vampires that they have been given a bad rap. Because at least they know how to keep their love close. And a love like that is truly worth waiting for ..... just saying. Any comment is w

Nsfw And Barely Sfw
Time to dig into your thougts and feelings on the matter. So many people thing different about things so just wanna see where you weigh in on the subject. There is no wrong answer, just express your opinion on the matter. Does NSFW and Barely SFW photos make you a whore, slut or any of those other things? Or does it just mean you are confident with who you are, condfident with your body, and dont care about what other people have to think about you. especially the fubarians. No bashing will be allowed, just put your comments on it. Thanx

Bring The Heat!
Bring the Heat! www.backwoodskick.com/store Years ago I worked for a local Green House and during that employment I learned I had a love for an usual item. As you can tell from the picture above the item I'm in love with is peppers. Their beautiful colors and wicked curves excite me something awful. And if you think a child in a candy store is a hassle you should see me when I'm on a mission to find peppers! Today just so happened to be one of those hunting days. I knew I was in for a rough day as I listened to the rain pour against the side of the house. I had been asked to accompany my mother to her doctor's appointment in which , I actually don't mind at all and enjoy the road trip. However, today's trip was going to be different. At 1am I was at the p.c. googling away for produce companies in the Columbus, Ohio area that carried and entertained special request. Tons and Tons of listings but, who would earn my business? What company could handle

Need A Ladies Opinion, Please.
You say that you are not beautiful, I disagree. You compare yourself to the other women around you, I say that their beauty pales in comparison to the beauty the you possess. When you walk under the sky, the sun hides behind the clouds in shame for it cannot compare itself to you. The moon and stars come out even during the day to witness such beauty as you. The birds weep silently because the cannot come close to the angelic sound of your voice. The wind stirs just to be able to caress you skin, skin which is softer then the finest silks. Skin that I would rage against the Heavens and Hells for just one touch. You lips are softer then rose petals, which i would suffer the slings and arrows of my enemies, for just one kiss. To hear you speaking and singing is to know utter joy and peace. To see you walking is to place shame upon water for it cannot ever hope to flow as gracefully as you.You have but to speak my name and you know that I will arrive. I wrote this for a friend. I would l

Shining Star
There was a star that fell from Heaven one day. The angels started crying because they missed this one star. The sun shone brighter so that others would be able to find this star. The animals came to defend this star. The plants offered shelter, and food to keep this star alive. This star grew strong, and had the kindest heart. This star was always wishing that people could be happy. The friendship of this star is desired by all. This star is a shining star. This star is you. ================================================================================== I dedicate this poem to my #2 Friend/Family member on here JoJo. I feel like she deserves this for being a great friend to me. ================================================================================== NOTE: I want to clarify something to everyone on here. I dedicate poems to ladies on here that are really good friends with me. They are all either in a relationship, or wanting to be single for now. I respec

20 Random Truths About Debi
I have a big heart that is pieced together with stitches made of appologies and forgiveness I may be a woman, but I am not a girly girl, I can dress nice and change my flat tire without even thinking twice. My favorite color is red, I love every shade. There is really only one thing I need to make my life complete and that is for someone to love. I have all this love and no one to give it to. My vice is Java Monster, yes I realize they are not good for me, but I really don't care. I love my kids, they are my world, but there are days that I wish I would have waited to have them with a man that would have stuck around. Being a single parent is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. When I tell you I love you, I mean it, yes we may be friends, but I love you like family. I am really generous, anyone who knows me knows this. But never mistake my kind generous heart for a weak one. I am on disability right now, I am sick, I don't let too many people know this up front be

She Only Calls Me To Pretend...
she only calls me to pretendshe wants to tread this path againshe seems to know when i'm at peaceshe only calls to see that ceaceto ruffle my emotionsto drown me in an oceanshe's unsettling like the windshe only calls me to pretendshe treats me like i'm smalland i'm at her beck and calllike i'm a lapdog at her feetjust begging for a treati can't see where this all endsshe only calls me to pretendshe don't call to talk about the weatheror to say she's dressed in leathershe don't say that she's been missin' meor maybe there is something else to seeshe don't talk about what might have beenshe only calls me to pretend

She Is Oh So Special...
in all my life, i've only once thought these thingsi can't ever be close to anyonei don't ever feel the need to clingbut now i see a picture, and the earth revolves around the sunnot even once have i said this thing beforei have never wanted to try so hardin light of that, it means so much moreand so much more my senses jarredi will tell you head to toei will tell you heart and soulas the moon wax and wanesi find myself not new but changedi have opened myself to newer portalsand seen the dawn a continent awaysuddenly, i feel that i am immortali can't keep your image at bayi'll never know the reason whyi still don't read between the linesbut it's all those things i know you'd dothat have me wrapped inside of you

Pain
pain is all i ever felt in my life hurt is all i know tears is all i cry . smile i never knew how to laugh how to smile and or how to love i was never taught those things i was taught to never be happy never speak my mind never stand up for my self i was taught i said something wrong i got beat and thats all i have ever know is pain and hurt . when i was younger everything i did was wrong to my parents my sister and who i was with at the time i spoke something they didnt like i got yelled at or hit i went some were i shouldnt have gone i got yelled at or hit . it seemed like nothing i did was right in there eyes or in there minds i still feel like i have to watch what i do and what i say so i dont get hurt or yelled at again i hide in my shell like a turtle to protect myself from harm . harm from men harm from family and most of all harm from myself iam tired of having to shelid myself hope one day as i grow older i can take my guard down and not be so afraid and not be in so much pain

Government For Sale...
As much as many consider the failure to end the filibuster in the senate a victory, it feels as a hollow one for me as it also points out how pervasive the lobbyist money is in Washington and that we as people, whether we agree or disagree with our elected representatives can never be confident in them voting their conscience, much less ours. We complain about how this segment of the government doesn't serve us, that this group is taking advantage of the system, etc. In the meantime, we can never be assured that those in Washington haven't been bought by anyone. The fix? Choke off the money coming in the Washington backdoors and you'll find people representing you who are there to represent, not people representing the highest bidder. I don't mind dissent, I thrive on it at times, but I don't want to hear that the NRA, the ACLU or anyone else for that matter bought legislators to drive ANY agenda down our throats. If the agenda doesn't stand on its own then maybe it ne

The Widowed Bride ,traditional Poetry
The Widowed Bride A tremendous act of kindness, by him brought love aboutThen sprawled beside a glassy pond their passions acted out A sunny day did rise and swell that perfect April morn 'Twas damp with chill, one wintry night a tiny lass was born Her papa was a strapping lad, who never shirked from choreUpon her mother's aching heart, they sent him off to war Their hearts were locked in mindless bliss, that Spring upon the heathToo soon their deed tore all apart, mid silence bound to keep With sturdy limbs, bright eyes of gray and hair of tousled curlMuch interest in the child turned, who'd fathered such a girl? The letters came to cheer each day, upon the sheath, no markBut day by day each soldier's fall, revealed his beating heart Sublime the day the war had passed and soldiers all came homeBut not for those whose caissons rolled, her secret love be known

A New Star Is Born
In the throes of indescribably pain, I had a vision. As the agony grew , beads of sweat trickled Down my creased brow. I closed my eyes , In meditation so I could rise above the feelings of reality. As the penalty was fading , there before me was ... A beautiful eye of blue cobalt, In the orb of black, The swirling darkness , was like the feeling of a new birth, In the womb of an imperfect woman , A new name , a new Beginning , As I rose above the pain , reborn in another time. I must bare this gracefully because the future will be pain-free. 4Like · · Unfollow Post · Promote · Share

True Blessing
I want to thank you for being my friend. I want to thank you for listening to me. I want to thank you for giving me advice. I want to thank you for the support you have given me. I want to thank you for encouraging me. I want to thank you for picking me up when I was down. I want to thank you for being kind to me. I want to thank you for giving me hope again. I want to thank you for helping me to believe that there is a lady that is right for me. I want to thank you for assuring me that I will make whoever that lady is happy. I want to thank you for showing love to me as a friend. I want to thank you for getting me to turn back to God. I thank God for allowing you to be part of my life because you are a True Blessing. ================================================================================== I dedicate this poem to Lady Carpe Diem because she deserves all this, and more. Kristen, I will miss you when you go, and I will always love you. God bless you, and your fa

Car Troubles
It was a Thursday evening and I had a list of errands torun on Friday morning so I had to get the car oil changed and new tires put onas I got to the repair shop I realized I had forgotten my credit card andcouldn’t run home to get it or I would miss my appointment and would have towait which was something I didn’t want to do as me and my husband were about togo on a romantic getaway this coming weekend since I’m one of the lastappointments I decide I’ll try and seduce the mechanic for the cost of what Ineed as he’s finishing with my truck I look around and realize it’s just us Ilet my hair out of the clip lift my skirt just a little to show off my ass andfix my shirt as I walk up to my truck and he’s just getting done lowering it tothe ground we walk over to the office to talk about the bill I walk in front sohe can get a good view of my ass when we get inside he sits at his desk andstarts saying it’s gonna cost me $500 I walk up behind

Found At The Foundling Door
On a day when there was no rain to dampen my thoughts, You were no more trouble than a pair of shiny dollars, Just waiting to be spent. We'd gather our smiles and slip around, Like a clutch of pups, undeterred by the troubles ahead. You were young, needed everything, I had only ourselves. Together we were a great invention of laughter. But now, the tears are too great. For our love will not survive the stares of the angry eyes. My mistake should not impede your happiness. I will hate myself, knowing that you were once mine. But I couldn't hold you and my youth all together. So I part with you here, where the foundlings have new possibilities. I will go with the rain, to leave you i

~hardware For Your Software~ Part. 4
Heavy pants escaped Dennis’ throat as he gave hard heavy thrusts into her, each one forceful and wonderfully pleasant as Lex nearly arched up to meet them one after the other. Her hands extended above her head, reaching above for the edge of the mattress, instead grabbing the bed’s comforter and pulling at it. The jolts reverberating through her limbs and flesh was enough to make her stir crazy now, her eyes fluttered shut and opened to look up at him. His eyes closed, as he still kissed and nurtured her leg he held to his body, his hips slowly increasing in tempo with each thrust *slap slap slap slap*. “Oh yes, yes baby. Just like that,” she breathed, pulling the blanket harder with each thrust in an effort her to not focus on the immeasurable sensations flooding her senses. His lips brushed down the calf and held his hands shifted positions, his left arm went lower down her leg to her left hip, and his right arm went lower, gripping his left forearm to reinfor

The Pride And Arrogance Of The Infantryman
“Infantrymen have a pride and arrogance that most Americans don’t understand and don’t like. Even soldiers who aren’t infantrymen don’t understand. The pride doesn’t exist because we have a job that’s physically impressive. It certainly doesn’t exist because it takes a higher level of intelligence to perform our duties. It’s sad and I hate to admit it, but any college student or high school grad can physically do what we do. It’s not THAT demanding and doesn’t take a physical anomaly. Nobody will ever be able to compare us to professional athletes or fitness models. And it doesn’t take a very high IQ to read off serial numbers, pack bags according to a packing list, or know that incoming bullets have the right of way. The pride of the infantryman comes not from knowing that he’s doing a job that others can’t, but that he’s doing a job that others simply won’t. Many infantrymen haven’t

How To Approach An Attractive Sentence
Hey baby!Check out my strong verbs!Dig my quotation marks, they're loaded with detailed jargon.Say, you have some great exclamation points, Can I be your indirect object?You may accuse me of using crude superlatives, suffice it to say,My language is unbiased and suitable for all ears and eyes.See, I was just eliminating some unwanted sentence fragments,When I noticed your lovely semicolons.Yeah! Real hot topics! What'cha say we experiment with a little revisionOver a couple of dry cliches, like the italics do? They're so romantic, those italics, with their titillating foreign accentsMaybe I'll let you punctuate my colon as a mark of introductionBut only for money, fame, or power.I won't capitalize on that other stuffReally, I have only one question mark for youI hope you didn't misplace your modifier Or were you gunn'a split with an infinitive?Cuz, I really think we could make beautiful musical lyrics togetherWell don't mind my obvious dangling participial, parenthetically,I'm just run

Hated By All
Fuck all the haters who don't give a damn! Fuck all the fakers who don't give a shit! Fuck all the lowlifes who don't fucking care! Fuck all the liars that can't tell the fucking truth! Fuck all the backstabbers who don't have the fucking guts to stand up to me! Fuck all the cowards who hide in the damn shadows! I am fucking hated by all, and I no longer give a damn! Maybe I would be better off dead, and then the world can say fuck you to my corpse! I say fuck that shit because even with all the fucking hate I am still fucking here, and I don't give a damn! Fucking hate, or fucking love me, and either way you are still fucking thinking about me! How the fuck does that make you feel?! I don't give a fuck how it makes you feel because you don't give a damn about me! Keep fucking hating on me, and I will still be fucking better! What the fuck do you have to say to that, Bitches?! Why the fuck can't you answer the damn question?!

Conversation With A Liar
Alana Buckner Hey girl, im online whats up? 9:21pm Nicole Taylor About Brandon, do you think he might be this hacker going around getting into people's accounts? I just had a big problem getting into my xhamster account and now Im wondering if its him... 9:23pm Alana Buckner No girl, He is legit. I deactivate mine when i wont be on for a while cause i dont have a firewall or a anti virus on my computer. My Mom is going to pay my cable bill for me this week so i can keep my internet. 9:24pm Nicole Taylor How are you sure it's not him? 9:24pm Alana Buckner Why would it be? He never even gets on facebook LOL. 9:25pm Nicole Taylor Its not facebook. It was my xhamster. Does he know my profile? 9:26pm Alana Buckner LOL, No... He dont even know i have one. All he knows is i am interested in doing porn. He is cool girl. 9:27pm Nicole Taylor Dont tell him my profile unless you totally trust him. There are viruses going around that follow what you do and then send you spam and shit. 9:2

Nobody Home ~ Sifi, 3mf Writing Contest
Anthony, I hope you get this...I'm not sure how to tell you. I guess I just have to come right out and say it. I went into the centrifuge tonight, I thought I would go blind from the bright light. The remote control got smashed, so I need you to reset every thing from there. Well, I knew you would just talk me out of it, but I'm fine but all your theories were right. So...I am talking to you from 100 years ago! Since I am able to hear the voice message on my cell, I think your concept of time parallels was right. If you hear me pick up or call me back. So exciting...click Anthony! Okay, it's 2 am, call as soon as you hear this. I know you will because I called my voice mail and changed the message and called back. God it's cool, call it and listen, it's like I'm talking to myself in the future. I really want to thank you for giving me this, well this great chance to work in your lab. Don't think I just wanted to take the glory or something, that's all yours. You just co

Crazy Loverboy
Everyone was happy throughout the kingdom because today Princess Alyshia was turning sweet sixteen, and there was celebrations all around. Castle Etacron was bustling as decorators hurried to make the grand throne room worthy of the royal family to be viewed upon by all the subjects of the small kingdom. There were drinks, and food for everyone while the children enjoyed all the games that were setup for them to play as the day passed. Finally, it was close to sunset when the birthday celebrations would begin for Princess Alyshia. Everyone gathered in the grand throne room as the doors were shut. King Morbius sat on the grand throne with his wife, Queen Candice beside him, and their daughter, Princess Alyshia sitting on her throne just below them. It was a very special day until right at that moment. Suddenly, there was a great blast as a fireball blew the doors apart. Lightning shot out from the smoke killing the guards that rushed to face the intruder. Coming out of the smok

Angels Are Praying For You
I have been praying for you to get healed since I learned what happened. I have asked my family to pray for you as well. They have reached out to others asking prayer for you also. I asked my church to pray for you this morning. The guest preacher, and his wife are asking more people to pray for your healing. I went to a revival at a different church earlier, and again I asked for prayer for you. There was also a guest preacher, and they are all praying for you now. No thanks are needed for any of this on your behalf. The angels are praying for you as well so that you will get the healing that you need. ================================================================================== I dedicate this poem to my Friend/Family member on here Lady Carpe Diem. Kristen you have lots of prayers going up for you to get healed. I do not need thanks, but just thank God for everything.

Aim//
Serenity And I opened up beneath the calm of your words like a flower Crimson red petal touching upon your lips Tasting of rain and earth You pull me into The sun of your smile and I am weightless This heart harvests and is full of seeds for you to grow on your windowsill Watch me bloom Just Watch me

Punish
THE POLICE GAVE MY SON A COURT DATE BECAUSE SOME ONE AT SCHOOL SED SOMETHING TO ME THEY TOLD MY SON WHAT UP WITH UR SISTER FOOL HE SED STUPID THATS MY MOMS AND THE OTHER GUY SED EVEN BETTER U CAN CALLED ME DAD SO MY SON STARTED A FIGHT I AM MAD BECAUSE THE POLICE WAS INVOLVED SO KNOW HE IS STIIL UP SET WHAT CAN I DO NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE IN A SITUIATION LIKE THIS BEFORE I DONT KNOW SHOULD I GIVE HIM CONSEQUENCES BICAUSE HE IS 16 YEARS OLD WHAT U GUYS THINK [teal][u]Orkut Scraps[/u][/teal] - [red]Thank You Scraps[/red]

Just A Kiss
Who would be unknown to love if love were only known to you? If there ever was a chance to taste the sweetness of love's gentle kiss it would be a moment shared in paradise for the very touch and taste of your kiss would be the supreme delight of the heart as it would engage in a fine chance of excitement and joy that would come with the romantic activity. How would one be able to recover and return to the normal reality knowing that they have walked into a place where heaven has engulfed their eternal being in just a kiss?

Loving Embrace
i cling to her essenceshe moves with such a wonderful presencei catch a glimpse of a smileas she laughs with joyat the antics of a small toyi long for her in vainwhile i stand out in the rainshes my only true loveas precious and pure as a dovealas im only a ravenso ill never know the warm havenof her loving embrace

So You Don't Have To Love Me Anymore
I’ll be the bad guy,I’ll take the black eye,When I walk out,You can slam the door,I’ll be the S.O.B,If that’s what you need from me,So you don’t have to love me anymore.When you and our friends talk,Make it all my fault,Tell ‘em I’m rotten to the core,I’ll let it all slide,Get ‘em all on your side,So you don’t have to love me anymore.I will keep,All those memories, of the good times.Yeah, there were some good times.So when you think,Of you and me,They won’t even cross your mind.If the wine you’re drinkin’,Leads you to thinkin’,That you want what we had before,Girl you can call me,I’ll let it ring and ring,So you don’t have to love me anymore.Yeah, I will keep,All those memories, of the good times.Yeah, there were some good times.So when you think,Of you and me,They won’t even cross your mind.If you need me to make you cry,I don’t want to but I’ll try,So you don’t have

Another Fu Break... Sorry Guys....
Going to be off of Fu for a bit, please feel free to boot me from fams and such if you need the room for famps. I will be keeping my profile open and everyone added to family, the game has just become a money pit and not much fun anymore. I do realize that the game changes but I don't think people should have to spend $50 on a happy hour just to level, especially when they don't run the old bling pack sales like they used to. I spent a good amount of money a couple years ago leveling, took a break only to find I had dropped about 5 levels and lost abilities. I don't think you should treat "customers" like money trees, and lets face it, not like Baby J is hurting for money that bad with people forking over $650 on a silly fu pony. Anyways, enough ranting and raving about crappy shit. I hope you all have a wonderful summer, please feel free to add me to yahoo or email me there~ beautifulmiracle2006@yahoo.com I may check back online every so often but my sb will be closed so if you want t

The Gift
The Gift Standing silent The earliest – 1670 The latest still Fresh not yet Disturbed by The settling of time Family plots carefully Tended crowding The solitary stone Inscribed – “Unknown” Circa 1900 Early evening Land breeze bends Each grass blade, S entinels thousands Guarding singular Tombs Spring blossoms pushing Through the same Soil shared by Louisa M. Shorter 1857-1950, Rebirth As tree buds prepare To explode into A cacophony Of colors – Red, yellow, the White Dogwood Soon to bark A tree In place, Planted On the occasion Of her passing Now her favorite Companion who Each day a gift B rings renewal A butterfly alights On my diet coke, it Pauses and speaks Well of hope – life S pring dances with Hundred forgotten Headstones? Not Really… a Cardinal Comes to visit and The brown of winter’s Remorse gives way To the enveloping green Of a new season david

My Heart
You have given me hope. You have helped me to cope. You have watched everything I do. You have learned that everything I say is true. You have shown your love to me. You have let things between us to just stay in the past letting them be. You have smiled to cheer me up. You have given me drinks out of your cup. You have grown close to me not wanting us to be apart. You have been given my heart.

My Love
You have doubted yourself, and I have encouraged you each time. You have thought that you are not pretty, and I have kept telling you that you are beautiful. You have said you are sorry for something, and I have told you that you are fine. You have felt sad when you have hurt my feelings, and I have told you I am not mad. You have wondered why I am so good to you, and I have told you it because you have my love.

My Soul
I have called you beautiful. I have cheered you up. I have listened to you talk. I have taken the pain from you everyday. I have been there for you when you needed it the most. I have prayed for you to get better. I have shown you my love I have for you always. I have opened up my heart to you telling you my secrets. I have let you see into my soul.

My Life
I will always care for you. I will always be nice to you. I will always listen to you. I will always worry about you. I will always show kindness to you. I will always appreciate you. I will always accept you. I will always love you. I will always sacrifice my life for you.

Your Body Talks
Your body talks to you Like a far off memory Of stories told with A kind soft voice And yells sometimes too But it is yours To do with what you want Either listen or ignore It Your body The kindest friend you have It carries you around Say thank you occasionally

Rendevous
She lay there. Wanting. Bareskinned glorious. Pallid skin luminescent with the moonglow. Eyes fixed on quiet desperation. Finger pressed to ripened lips. Then she whispered.... "I want to taste your cruel intentions." And so offered a glimpse of her womanhood in all it's dewy magnificence. I turned the key and left. Footfalls.

Just A Pet?
I sit at ur feet naked and knowing this is my place but yet I feel as if I want more. U grab me and sit me on ur lap. I blush and turns my face away from u so u cant see but u turn my face back to u. I look into ur bright green eyes and the feeling of wanting to do as u want me to cross my mind."what is on ur mind my little pet?" he say to me as he brushes his lips across my neck making shivers go up my spin."u master." I say almost moaning. He pulls me away and puts me over his knee and spanks my ass."want to lie to me again?" He ask."Im not." I say as a little moan escape my lips."stop the lie!" He say again this time his voice has a growl in it and he spanks my ass hard this time hitting it over and over again."ok! Ok I will tell u master" I say. He put me on my knees in front of him. "I want more master. I mean not onlt ur pet.""is that so? Well I was going to wait for this but..." He said pulling out a box from his pocket and opening it. There in the box was a ring with a big hear

My Life
I have been through many rough patches in my life. I have had bad relationships and bad friends. I made a million wrong choices in my life. But I realized that all my life I was only making efforts to make my friends stay and make my relationships work. Although I know that I can’t keep all the people happy all the time, I was only trying to make other people happy at the cost of my happiness. But now I will live for myself and for my self- respect. I am not here to live up to anyone’s expectations. I will not allow anyone to take me for granted anymore because I will never be a victim of deceit or manipulations. I am free spirited and I have learned to live and survive on my own terms. I am invincible and you cannot break me even if I get emotionally worked up. You can win my heart with love but I will never be a victim of anyone’s selfish motives. I have my own unique personality and I am confident that I can handle my life beautifully.