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A Hunger & A Heal
Does our love stand? Do you love me as you should? Do I cradle your heart in mine as a woman in love would? Have you the strength to carry me when sorrows drench my heart? Am I that wind beneath your wings when loss rips you apart? Come rest yourself, my love, upon the recline of my soul. Let us merge our longings and with kisses be made whole.

Valentins Day ..im Up To My Ass In Snow....but I Did Get Flowers And Turkey :/
Yeah.. i live in illinois.. we just had a blizzard.. we first got a quarter inch of ice... followed mt 12 inches of snow and 40mph winds.. wich put our temps with wind chill at roughly.....-12 below. But my furnace is working this time at least!!! My soon to be ex is trying to be nice.. and had some beautifull flowers sent to me and I awoke to some friendly visitors in my yard!!! I took some pics.. hope yo uenjoy... happy VD :/ ICE ON THE FRONT PORCH 50 FOOT PINE IN FRONT YARD VEIW OF LAKE ACROSS THE HOLLAR 6 FOOT DRIFT BLOCKING DRIVE MY 3 FOOT HIGH BUSHES... THEY NOW ARE LEVEL WITH THE FRONT YARD.. BURIED IN SNOW THESE ARE MY PATIO CHAIRS.. THEY ARE FROZEN TO THE CEMENT AND THE SNOW IS LEVEL WITH THE BOTTOM OF THE CHAIRS!!!! AND THIS THE BACKYARD AND HERE ARE MY SUCK UP/ASS KISSIN FLOWERS I RECEIVED... BUT THEY ARE PERTTY

V-day
so... this day is lame... and I am alone for the 2nd year in a row. Not that that is different from every day for the past year and a half. I think I am gonna seduce my hand. A little candle light, I might even sing to it or something. If things aren't working out, I'll slip it a roofie.

To My Special Lady
Just Because You Touched me. Just because you touched me I will never be the same. Just because you touched me my new mantra is your name, A name I gently whisper in a never ending prayer, And try to find the words to tell you just how much I care. Just because you touched me I’m a different man inside. I’ve found the kind of happiness I’ve always been denied, And just because you touched me I’m the luckiest of men, Because you felt me love you and I know we’ll touch again. Reaching me in places that were never touched before. My heart was cold and closed but you have opened up the door, And just because you touched me such a light is shining through. It only took that touch to make me so in love with you. Just because you touched me, as I felt your loving hand I knew that there was someone out there who could understand. And just because you gave to me the greatest love I know That I’ll be always touching you wherever I may go. Just because

Haters And Other Bs
I AM SO SICK OF THE "GROWNUPS" ON HERE ACTING LIKE WE ARE STILL IN JUNIOR HIGH. GO TO MYSPACE IT WILL BE MORE YOUR SPEED. I AM NOT GOING TO MENTION NAMES, YOU ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE BUT WHY DO YOU FIND SOMETHING AND PEOPLE TRUST ME IT DOESN'T MATTER WHO OR WHAT IT IS AS LONG AS IT GIVES THEIR BORING LIVES SOME MEANING. SO I GUESS WHAT I AM SAYING IS THAT I WAS TOLD BY CT TODAY TO HANDLE THINGS MYSELF AND I HAVE BEEN REAL FUCKING NICE SO FAR BUT THAT IS OVER, SO IF YOU HAVE PISSED ME OFF AND AGAIN YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, WATCH YOUR BACK ITS ON. STOP PICKING ON NEW PEOPLE TOO CAUSE I WILL WATCH THEIR BACKS, ESSENTIALLY WHAT THIS BLOG IS FOR IS TO TELL YOU PEOPLE AND EVEN THOUGH THERE ARE JUST A FEW FUCK OFF, GO TO HELL AND LEAVE ME ALONE. IT IS WONDERFUL TO BE THE CENTER OF YOUR UNIVERSE AND I KNOW BAD PUBLICITY IS BETTER THAN NONE BUT I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO. SO KEEP BOYCOTTING MY HAPPY HOURS AND WAIT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS. BY THE WAY MY HAPPY HOURS HAVE BEEN UNCHANGED BY THESE ASSHATS. S

Sex Not In The City
Ok so im banging this chic in a car in a school parking lot late at night next thing I see is a bright light, I thought either she has the whitest ass in the world or it's the cops, well come to find out she tans naked and it was a police officer.In full humping motion i'm asked by the officer to step out the car I told him in a shaky tone i'm cummin!! he said ok little did he know I was really cumming full out orgasm.Needless to say i was charged with disorderly conduct not by my sexual performance mind you but I guess fucking in empty parking lots is offensive, so once in court the judge asked what I was thinking to do such a thing I told him I was an alcosexamaholic he said and whats that?I replied i drink till i'm fucked sir but realized that wasn't the right thing to say to the judge so I decided to plead the fifth and wondered if I pleaded the fifth would he know i've been drinking.

Kenny Chesney Flip Flop Tour
This really iced my cake... Lost 2 best friends in the last 2 weeks and now Kenny isn't coming to Arizona. Oh and alone on V-day.... I wonder how much more pitiful I can get! DATE CITY VENUE 04/12/07 Omaha, NE Qwest Center 04/13/07 Des Moines, IA Wells Fargo Arena 04/14/07 Fargo, ND Fargodome 04/19/07 Greensboro, NC Greensboro Coliseum 04/20/07 Columbia, SC Colonial Center 04/21/07 Jacksonville, FL Veterans Memorial Arena 05/06/07 Indio, CA Coachella Music Festival 05/10/07 Grand Rapids, MI Van Andel Arena 05/11/07 Grand Rapids, MI Van Andel Arena 05/13/07 St. Paul, MN Xcel Energy Center 05/18/07 Columbia, MO Mizzou Arena 05/19/07 Little Rock, AR Alltel Arena 05/20/07 Lafayette, LA Cajundome 05/31/07 New Orleans, LA New Orleans Arena 06/02/07 Tampa, FL Ford Amphitheater 06/03/07 West Palm, FL Sound Advice Amphitheater 06/07/07 Columbus, OH Germain Amphitheater 06/09/07 Pittsburgh, PA Heinz Field** 06/14/07 Houston, TX Cynthia W. Mitchell Pav.

I Hate The Male Species! And Yes I Can Spell That Word.
Ok its final i hate guys they suck! Lol ok what would yall do if you had a guy, he sent a pic to you of a hot girl saying it was a yummy pic. Wouldnt you be upset. but then he claims he was just messing around, but this is after he said he was getting even with you for talking about your gay friend. Doesnt it sound just a wee bit jerkish to you? I have no reason to be upset? If he didnt think she was oh so "yummy" then he wouldnt be looking through her profile and pictures like he probally does all the time with these slutty looking girls on his friends list that i havent said anything about. >=(

Just Noticed...
I just noticed that I have more of my friends here that are online tonight. I guess im not the only one that thinks that today sux. i think ill look at it a different way tho because if i wasnt very single i would have spent at least $50-$100...at least. Its a wonderful day now lol. No worrying if i got a good card...no worrying if she will like the flowers...no worrying if she will like the ring/necklace/earrings that i got. Oh...one more thing i dont have to worry about...will i get laid tonight?? hahaha the answer is simple...no.... ok ok ok so much for feeling good now... damn!!! god today sux....

I Piss On Your Valentine's Day Whining.
What's the big whine about? I don't have a Valentine. Even when I had boyfriends on this day, it never was a fairytale-type deal! There is nothing about February 14th that makes it different from other days except all the cupcakes in the bakeries have pink frosting. If this day makes you so upset because you have no date, do you get upset every time you see a couple holding hands? I find that much more upsetting when I feel lonely. Do you write a big rant every time you see public displays of affection? How about trying this: make you FRIENDS some goodies (they are the people who matter in the long run). Buy yourself some fattening chocolate and flowers that will wilt in five days. Pick out how much you would spend on someone else, and spend it on yourself. You'll pick out the correct kind of chocolates that way! My family celebrates Christmas without going to mass for Christ. My family celebrates Halloween without setting a plate of food at the dinner table for the

Why Do Men Think Women Are Stupid!!!!!
I can't quite figure out one thing and the burning question is why do men think that women are sooo stupid and we can't see the signs of a player!!! Someday people will understand that I have been married and been through hell and back so i can see all the signs of a player and the signs of when someone is lying!!! I am gonna tell everyone now I have been through enough to understand that most men are really stupid and well they can't figure out that you can't play a player and I have been down that road in my life and i have played men, but remember i was much younger and that was when i had time for that shit. I have figured out that most men don't mature at all and all they think about is themselves!!! Well let me tell you I am much too old to but up with the bullshit anymore so please remember if you are going to try and get in my pants you better get alot of sleep if you think that you can get around me knowing that your a player I will figure out really fast so be prepared for th

Valentines Day
just another day in the life well i went to court on an order of protection only to find out that his lawyer is turning it into a child custody hearing. she flat told me that I needed my lawyer because she was going for permanent custody. the new hearing is set for wednesday the 21st. she tried to make it a 30 day continuance. i stated that 30 days is too long and that I was ready to proceed. well anyway, so much for happy freaking valentines day. i hope to have my guns loaded next week with my lawyer in tow. may the powers that be help this process to come to a reasonable settlement. thanks to all of you who said a prayer. love to all my friends. hope ya'll had a good day. Karen dove

Fuck You. Part Two.
my mutant raptor neighbors are at it again with their rocky-rambo-jurrasic park exhibitions. i loathe those wastes of human life with every bone in my achy body. ever since i screamed "fuck you" out the window [about five minutes ago] they have been parading around like elephants and shaking my ceilings just the same... minus the guttural screaming.

Sad News
Please join me in remembering a great icon of the entertainment community. The Pillsbury Doughboy died yesterday of a yeast infection and trauma complications from repeated pokes in the belly. He was 71. Doughboy was buried in a lightly greased coffin. Dozens of celebrities turned out to pay their respects including Mrs. Butterworth, Hungry Jack, Aunt jemima, Hostess Twinkies, and Captain Crunch. The grave site was piled high with flours. Aunt Jemima delivered the eulogy and lovingly described Doughboy as a man who never knew how much he was kneaded. Doughboy rose quickly in show business, but his later life was filled with turnovers. He was not considered a very smart cookie, wasting much of his dough on half-baked schemes. Despite being a little flaky at times he still was a crusty old man and was considered a positive roll model for millions Doughboy is survived by his wife Play Dough, two children, John Dough and Jane Dough, plus they had one in the oven. He is also survived by his

Wiccan Definitions
Athame: A wiccan Ritual knife with a double edged blade and usually a black handle. It is used to direct personal power and is never used for cutting. It has a variety of spellings and pronunciations. I pronounce it Ath-ah-may. Autumn Equinox / Mabon: A Wiccan festival also known as Mabon marking the second harvest. Balefire: A fire used for magical or religious purposes and is usually used in Ritual on Yule, Beltane and Midsummer. Bane: That which destroys life, is not useful, is destructive or evil. B.C.E.: Before Common Era; the non-religious equal to B.C. Beltane: A festival derived from the ancient Druid fire festival celebrating the union of the Goddess and the Horned God, it is also a fertility festival. It is also known to some as May Day Eve, Roodmas and Cethsamhain. Besom: Broom Boline: The white handled knife used in magic Ritual for practical purposes, such as cutting herbs. Blessing: The act of placing positive Energy upon

I Love Scrapper Ten Dollars To Repost A Bulletin
because of the bullshit from my earlier blog, a select few boycotting my happy hours it now costs ten dollars to repost a bulletin!!!!!!!! THEY CAN ALL THANK PORCH MONKEY AND SOME BLONDE SKANKY BITCH I FORGOT HER NAME I WILL FIND OUT. THANKS CT YOU MAKE ME FUCKING HAPPY

Joke Of The Day Lol
(I HAVE TO THANK MY SIS FOR THIS ONE!!!) PINCH MY N I P P L E S > > Keep this in mind when you have something to return and the > store gives > you a hard time - > > > A woman went to a K-Mart service counter and told the clerk she > wanted a > refund for the toaster she bought because it won't work. The > clerk told > her that he can't give her a refund because she bought it on > special. > > Suddenly, the woman threw her arms up in the air and started > screaming, > > "PINCH MY NIPPLES, > PINCH MY NIPPLES, > PINCH MY NIPPLES!!!!!!" > > The befuddled clerk ran away to get the store manager > in front of a growing crowd of customers. > > The manager comes to the woman and asks,"Ma'am what's wrong?" > She explained the problem with the toaster, and he also told her > that > he can't give her a refund because she bought it on special. > > Once again, the woman throws her arms up in the air and screamed, >

Make No Apologies...
I stare, I can't help it. I love the human form. So much so that I can't not stare. Reveling in the beauty...it's like slipping slowly, sleepily into warm water. I'm constantly feeling like I've been "caught" but I can't make any more apologies for it. It's who I am. Watching someone beautiful do something as mundane as turn the page in a book captivates me the same way leaves do when they're dancing at twilight in the summer breeze. Or fireflies...a little speck of brightness in a sometimes very dark world. I make no apologies. A beautiful friend, who heart I'm connected to by an invisible string of lifetimes, or a sensuous stranger who serves no other purpose but as a masterbatory point of reference. I make no apologies. In the movie "Unfaithful" there is a brilliant quote that banned me from guilt: "There are no mistakes in life. There are things you do, and things you don't do." I make no apologies.

The Way I Feel
Had a bad day, don't talk to me, gonna ride this out, My little black heart, breaks apart, with your big mouth. And I'm sick of my sickness Don't touch me, you'll get this. I'm useless, lazy, perverted, and you hate me. You can't save me, You can't change me, Well I'm waiting for my wakeup call, And everything, everything's my fault. Went to the doctor, and I asked her, to make this stop. (whoa) Got medication, a new addiction, Fucking thanks a lot. I had to relapse, I'm bad at rehabs It ruins everything. (whoa) So point your finger, at the singer, He's in the pharmacy. You can't save me, You can't change me, Well I'm waiting for my wake up call, and everything's my fault. You can't save me, You can't blame me, Well I'm waiting here to take a fall, and everything, and everything's my fault. And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet, Baby why the wake up call I'm the bad boy tell the tabloids everything's my fault. Whoa whoa whoa yeah, writ

The Aftermath
So we all survived V-Day. I didn't get much love :( Of course Ct was down most of the day..way to go! I won't be here tomorrow. I have to go back to Yale with my Daughter for an MRI of the brain with sedation. I have the flu and sound awful. After I get the kids off to school I am going to set Ventrilo back up. Its a voice chat program. Later I have to move my gentoo drive to a different box...loads of fun...YES imma geek! Lets get the day rollin with some music!

Are You In Or Are You Out?
I WANT TO KNOW AHEAD OF TIME BEFORE I ASK ANY OF YOU TO BOMB FOR ME..I HAVE BEEN IN A GIFT GIVE AWAY BUT NEVER A CONTEST.. THERES A CONTEST STARTING SUNDAY NITE.. IT RUNS FOR 5 DAYS.. WHAT I WANT TO KNO IS IF I ENTER IT WILL YOU BOMB FOR ME.. A SIMPLE YES OR NO WILL DO.. I AM NOT GUNNA BEG PPL TO HELP ME NO MORE.. BUT I HELP PPL OUT ALL THE TIME.. JUST TELL ME R U WITH ME OR NOT..

Retarded Icey Bumpa Cars!
I can't believe all this bullshit. So it snows yesterday and eveyone stays home because school is cancelled. I love that shit! I love having an open road, covered with snow or not! Today is quite a different story! Yesterday was the most relaxing drive into work I have had in a while. I left around the same time I usually do and only got to work five minutes late. The left lane on the highway was pretty well driven. So much so the jackasses in the tractor trailer trucks kept jumping in it, even though it is illegal for them to drive in the left lane on a three lane highway. Whatever no big deal. Still just cruised along 15-20 miles per hour below the speed limit. It definitely was messy but easy for a good driver with any experience with snow. Today however! There was a little freezing rain last night which coated the snow and the roads. More so towards Boston, but still enough to make driving difficult. Makes me laugh though. I love watching the assholes in four whe

Today
Today, I have to give mad respect to the woman who was mostly responsible for making me the person you see before you. I was rasied by my gradmother and great-grandmother. Today Feb. 15th, is my great- grandma's birthday. And even though her body has departed this earth, she still walks with me and gives me guidance. I love her like I love breathing..and I miss her more than even on this day. She passed away on mother day 1996 due to complications with alzheimers. That is a NASTY disease that I wouldn't wish on anyone.So here it isThank you Bessie Mae Robinson, for loving me and nurutring me and standing by my side, no matter what posotion I decided to take in life. You were a superwoman and the real meaning of what MOTHER should be.I love you..Nique (that's what she used to call me)

What If
what if you loved somebody you might never met ? Could you do that ? really deep down inside hurt for that longing of that person . Could you take your last breath and do it for them ? Could you cry for them ? Could you long for a touch you never had ? A kiss that you never felt ? Do we really have a choice in who we love ? Is it just something that comes out of no way with the last person you ever thought ? Am I the only one that longs for the touch of someone so far away ? Am I the only one that wishes for a kiss that has never been mine ? Am I the only one that wants someone that not yet really belongs to me ? Am I ? What if dreams did come true and we could be with anyone that we wished ? Would we still wish to be with that person ? What if dreams really do come true ?

Emotions On Paper...
my poetry... sometimes you win, and sometimes you lose it all depends on the choices you choose... one day it's left, and one day it's right before you know it you lost the fight... tears you've cried, and tears you've caused you start to feel your life is paused can't move forward, can't move back your only defense now is to attack ----- tired of chasing dreams that just fade, tired of fearing the choices I've made, tired of feeling that I'm all wrong, tired of singing the same sad song, tired of being the one who's to blame, tired of knowing that you'll stay the same, tired of fighting about everything, tired of you and the pain you bring, tired of crying into the night, tired of saying that we'll be alright, tired of keeping all this inside, tired of having my heart denied.... ----- Back to the drawing board again... things will never change... just when you think life is going good... it's gauranteed to get strange... It may start small...

Better Late Than Never Eh..
As most people will probably know.. I am not really into this whole valentines lark.. It is just a big commercial exercise.. like Easter, Christmas and just about every other holiday.. so just to show that I am not a complete miserable old bitch I will indulge the occasion by posting a belated Valentines Blog... don't get too excited..here it is.. ............................... ............................. ........................... ........................ .................... ................. ................ ............ ......... ....... ..... .... ... .. .

Oh Shit
A man came home from work, sat down in his favorite chair, turned on the TV, and said to his wife, "Quick, bring me a beer before it starts." She looked a little puzzled, but brought him a beer When he finished it, he said, "Quick, bring me another beer. It's gonna start." This time she looked a little angry, but brought him a beer. When it was gone, he said, "Quick, another beer, it's gonna start any second." "That's it!" She blows her top, "You bastard! You waltz in here, flop your fat ass down, don't even say hello to me and then expect me to run around like your slave. Don't you realize that I cook and clean and wash and iron all day long?" The husband sighed, "Oh shit, it started."

2-15-2007
So Ive been thinking alot today about people. Those people who no matter if youve known for brief moments of your life or those who have been with you for year, just end up disapointing you. I could write a novel on the topic thats bothering me, but I won't. Mainly for the fact Im sure that nobody will even read this. But I just dont understand people who live only for themself. They lie, cheat, and hurt those around them to get what they want. So be it I guess. Im not that kinda girl, I rarely put myself first, I dont lie about who I am, I dont cheat to get myself furthur in life, and I alwyas try to make those around me happy before myself. I hate to say it, but in my opinion if you don't do that (Or are unable to grow into a person like that), you're not someone I want in my life, no matter how minor your role is.

The Pain Is So Much, Not Even Motrin Covers It
I'm here dealing with this pain in my left ovary and only God knows how much it hurts, how much its taking a toll on my daily activity. I need help to do things, not all but some, around the house and my hubby just laid there. I understand, he had just came in from working a night shift. He knows I'm in a LOT of pain and doing most things kills me physically. But, I still got up, cooked him breakfast, washed dishes, cleaned up after my baby, etc. I just wish he would have tended the bed for me (I bend over quite a bit for that) or offered to help w/ the laundry. He said, "If you feel better and up to it, do my clothes." Great. I asked him if I ended up calling him to come home from work because the pain is severe, would he do it. At first, he said, "Yes." Then he said, "Try to deal with the pain as best you can and try not to call me. Do it ONLY if you really have to." I'm like, wow...I know if I had to get off work because he'd called and was in pain, I'd do it quickly. I then asked h

Warm Underpants, Scratching And Pringles.
Well today's trip down the rollercoaster track of terror, that is the out there thrill a minute adrenaline fueled steriod pumped heart racing tale with explosive special effects that ILM wished they could do...or what I call, "life", involved myself and a new discovery in my pants. Underpants straight from the dryer, are pretty darned special. And armed with this new knowledge, I sat on the couch eating sour cream and onion pringles, watching some Bill Bailey and had a good old scratch...where eventually I fell asleep and drooled...quite alot.

Over Rated
Love is for a fool I once thought different Men fight a duel A woman's attention Passion being the fuel nerved with tension A glint of steel Silence heard over echoes Death ending the ordeal Once how love goes Love is for a fool I once thought different She showed me i was a tool Now I know the difference Her heart was quite broke Violence is not love's request Passion is not through gunsmoke Loss of a life's zest Romance now being gone To who should her love be shown Who does her love belong A mystery forever unknown Love is for a fool I once thought different I drowned in love's pool now I know love's over rated difference

On Living On A Higher Plane
Go to your highest Thought about yourself. Imagine the you that you would be if you lived that thought every day. Imagine what you would think do and say, and how you would respond to what others do and say. Do you see any difference btween that projection and what you think, do , and say now? Meditations on Conversations with God. by Neale Donald Walsch

Why ?
Isn't Valentine's Day suppose to be the day that someone you care about, someone that you spend time with, someone that means a little something to you, not just someone you love.... I mean yesterday was the day that I truly knew in my heart that he'd come by and spend some time with me. Like he has in the past.... Not a gift, not a bouguet of flowers, not even a one.. Hey would you believe not even a call.. Wow and to think, I thought I meant something to him.... Was it me? Wasn't I nice with him... Didnt I give him attention... Wasn't I a good friend.. You see this would have been my 1st Valentine's Day in 6 years...So I wont lie to you.. I cried, yes I cried like baby..... Can anyone plz tell me WHY ! ! !

Getting Started
Ever since I got certified as a coach and trainer I've enjoyed helping people get the way they wanted to be. I figure I'll post some things on here for those who want a little help. The first thing you want to do when you get the idea of improving is to write it down. It can be as easy as "I want to get in better shape" or "I want to get rid of this fat." When you did that, think of some of the things that would go along with it that you might enjoy. If you once liked going to aerobics or using a stairmaster or just seeing other people at a gym. Write it down. Emphasize the fact that it will be good but it will be enjoyable too. After you did that, do one thing that will move you toward your goal. It could be going for a walk, doing 10 pushups, situps anything that you want but not too much. Make your first things easy so you don't kill yourself. When this is all done, think more about what you might want to do as one of your goals. I say one of your goals cause w

How Good In Bed Are You?
How Good In Bed Are You?Congratulations, according to our experts, you scored : 92% which makes you ExcellentYou are an expert in the bedroom. You know how to please your partner and keep them coming back and begging for moreHow Good In Bed Are You, find out at NaughtyQ.com

Military Wives/husbands
I st want to say THANK YOU to all the military wives/husbands out there who support their Soldier no matter what they believe in the political arena. my hat is off to all of you who go through more ups and downs in one day than most military members do yes we are in danger 75%-90% of the time but like you wonderful spouses we depend on each other to make it through each day. We are able to better do our jobs out where ever we may be just by knowing that you are back at home kickin asses and yaken names back there. So to all of you spouses like i said my hat is off to you and i salute each and everyone of you. I hope and pray that each and every one of your family members makes it back. I have been there and would go back again to give any of my fellow soldiers a well deserved break from what they see each day, and if i could i would help each and everyone of you if i were able. That is the way of the military family and i am proud to have each one of you in my family. Whe

I Hate Shoveling
The only part of snow I hate is shoveling. Everything turned to ice. I shoveled 2 hours yesterday and probably 3 today and barely got the car out. The tires were stuck in so much ice. So now I am sore and in need of a massage..lol. My ankle hurts like ____. I twisted it so many times on the ice. So now it hurts even worse than before..lol. Will it ever get better? My son is here till Monday. Right now he is talking on the phone with one of the kids from school.. playing RuneScape. I know.. boring stuff tonight, but I have my son with me so thats all that matters. I'll sneak some time in though while he plays.

Seriously Considering Doing The "family" Thing
I may not have many friends here, but most of them seem to be after the points. You'll have to EARN your way into the family. Just show me you're not in the race for points or using me for a contest, and you could get promoted.

This Is Whats Up...
Well...I have been side tracked a little. Started having a blast on CT. Love it here. The people are awesome. My focus has been altered a little. As many of you know...or some that actually give a shit, Im working on going to the United States Marine Corps. I am 5lbs away from it.. So, with that being said I wanted to let those of you that actually took the time to read this that I may not respond to comments as quick as usual. I will get back to ya asap. If you took time to read this, thanks. For the rest of the fuckhead that dont give a shit about me.. Fuck you! So with that being said...Im outty. Take care to my friends... and terrible times to my enemies. Later, ~Stump/Brad

Women Fuck Like Men
Women Fuck Like Men I found an interesting question posted on a group site on myspace. The group is actually an interesting one. There seems to be a bit too much emphasis on using big words and puffing their chests out to elaborate intelligence, but hey, some people feel they need to do that. [CHOKE] Anyway, there was a question posed that asked if sex was bad for young women. First of all, I guess that old women don't count, therefore they are not part of that equation. [I hate that shit! Anything over 30 is considered old. Let me tell you turds about us old bitches. We are fucking sexy and when we fuck you, you know what the term SEXUAL really means, you got me? Anway...] So, back to the question....is sex bad for young women? Why is this even a question that people would discuss? Is sex bad for young men? Hello! When the young men are fucking, who do you think their inexperienced tools are penetrating? Well, some of them may be in something other than

The Nsfw Situation
Ok, the answer to this is very simple. If you dont like a picture, dont look at it! If its nude, ok, then it needs to go in a private folder as most people do. If your a person that needs to flag a picture because it has too much belly button showing..then this site is NOT for you. If i walk into a store and see something offensive in a magazine or something, am i gonna go bitch about it?..NO. Im gonna turn around, and ignore it. I CHOOSE not to look at it. Im not gonna waste my time, bitching about 1 picture, when there is so much worse out there in the world. If you see a picture that you dont like, ignore it and move on to the next one. There is no need to flag it unless its truly necessary. This is site is great, and its all about having fun. Flagging someone's pic because of a little bit of skin..you haters need to go find a new place to hang out. Feel free to repost if you like. That is my rant for the night. Thank you!

Cherry "marriage"
I've been thinking this for a long time, and I think I have been quiet on this topic until now...(correct me please if I'm wrong, I'm stoned) But...cherrytap marriage? Fun, whatever. Some people go nutso over that...then I see cherrytap divorces? yeah...to each their own, its totally cool and I'm not judging in the least I'm just writing to say: Whos gonna be the first person to make cherrytap alimony payments? C'mon...I know someone will. Where you at?

Update
HI... I am having my good days and bad... Week ago I had to go to the ER for all the tests again cause of chest pains...(DAMN WILL THEY EVER LEARN OR READ THAT IM ALLERGIC TO ADHESIVE?) They did a blood gas this time (too much radiation for a ct scan)I had one done years ago,,Blood from the artery HURTS! Worth it tho cause it was good results! Anyways...They ran a INR again...which i was gettng done every other day.. it was 2.7 so i got to skip a few days of having pro time! (want a level between 2-3) This week when i went in it was 2.6..So Im stable right now with my levels and dont have to go back until Monday! Hugsss to all of you and thank you for your wishes... Kelly

My Fine Is $665
This is fun to do. Just read the offense and if you've done it, you owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each offense and added up your totalfine. You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of yourfine. Ready? Go..... Smoked pot -- $10 Did acid -- $5 Ever had sex at church -- $25 Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40 Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25 Had sex for money -- $100 Ever had sex with the a Puerto Rican -- $20 Vandalized something -- $20 Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10 Beat up someone -- $20 Been jumped -- $10 Crossed dressed -- $10 Given money to stripper -- $25 Been in love with a stripper -- $20 Kissed some one who's name you didn't know -- $10 Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15 Ever drive drunk -- $20 Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50 Used toys while having sex -- $30 Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -

His Bidding (for Sir Joe)
For the second time that evening Montana shivered, the first time from the sound of her master's voice, the second, from the appearance of the building matching the address Sir James had given her!!! It was a private residence that looked absolutely gothic, with a front consisting of large thick stones, turrets, gargoyles, and of course covered with thick hanging vines! Montana unconsciously pulled her coat tighter together in front of her, and then with a little trepidation, climbed the stairs and rang the bell! For almost a minute nothing happened and she was about to ring the bell one more time, when all at once the huge carved door creaked and slowly swung open! It was almost as dark inside as out, as the only light that she could see came from several oil lamps hanging from the wall!!! Gothic wasn't the word for it, this place looked positively medieval!!! Gingerly stepping inside, she was taken aback at the sight of a dark robed person with a hood over his or her head!!! Once ins

Free Tibet
Haha not much to say! Im out of beer Need more but Im tired! Havint smoked weed in 4 days God reality so sucks! Crazy bush is goin to get us all killed! My myspace link is in my last blog thats where I usually am atleast once a day umm thats about it! Free Tibet....

Thanks
For all the get well wishes. I am totally ill. Temps 103 and I cannot quit coughing. I took Tatiana for her mri of the brain this morning with anesthesia. We just got back. Imma go die now. If I havent responded to you...I will I just need to snap out of this! xoxoxo Muahzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Letting You All Know
That I will be gone for the weekend...I'm leaving in 2 hours and i'm heading to Ohio...wish me luck and i hope the weather holds out for me! I will b back on Sunday! Try not to miss me to much! lotsa love, Sue

~~one Day!~~
ONE DAY! One day you're gonna want that girl. That girl that knew she wasn't perfect but tried to be perfect for you . The girl that believed the scraps of you, she was given were worth it . Because somethings were better then nothing, That girl who wanted nothing more, then to be there for you . And love you the way she knows she only could. The girl who sees your flaws. But values them as much as your strentgths. That girl who still can't bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it.. That girl who saw past your handsome face and treasured parts of you that no one else had ever appreciated. The girl who realizes she may never have your heart, but will carry the image of you in hers forever. The girl that sees this and still loves you . The girl that should have you, but doesn't, Even though she deserves it .. ~But One Day~ That girl will no longer be there. No longer there for you to step on, That special girl will shed no m

How To Get Out Of A Traffic Ticket!
A police officer pulls a guy over for speeding and has the following exchange: Officer: May I see your driver's license? Driver: I don't have one. I had it suspended when I got my 5th DUI. Officer: May I see the owner's card for this vehicle? Driver: It's not my car. I stole it. Officer: The car is stolen? Driver: That's right. But come to think of it, I think I saw the owner's card in the glove box when I was putting my gun in there. Officer: There's a gun in the glove box? Driver: Yes sir. That's where I put it after I shot and killed the woman who owns this car and stuffed her in the trunk. Officer: There's a BODY in the TRUNK?!?!? Driver: Yes, sir. Hearing this, the officer immediately called his captain. The car was quickly surrounded by police, and the captain approached the driver to handle the tense situation: Captain: Sir, can I see your license? Driver: Sure. Here it is. It was valid. Captain: Who's car is this? Driver: It's mine, officer. He

Great Day
Well as many of my close friends know I have started to workout at the gym. I go Mondays & Thursdays and once on the weekend (when I have time). Last week I met with a trainer at 10:30am to set up a work out plan. So as we are filling out all the paper work she asks me how much I weight. Well like I really want to know how much I weight. She tells me in order to set up my work out plan she needs to know what I weight. K before I had Tristen I was no more then 135lbs. After having three kids in three years I weighted 220lbs. Ya ya I weighted alot. Anyways I cut out all pepsi (which was so hard seeing thats all I drank) all junk food and started to eat better. I lost 22lbs in two weeks. So the last time I weighted myself I was 198lbs. That was a few weeks ago. Back to my story she weights me in at 182lbs I could believe it 182lbs I didnt think I weighted less then 190lbs but I did. I was so happy I am well on my way to my weight goal. My goal is to be under 150lbs by October 8th

How About You Lick My Ass, Instead?
http://www.snopes.com/horrors/food/tacobell.asp PLEASE READ VERY IMPORTANT.......... NEVER LICK ENVELOPES A woman was working in a post office in California. One day she licked the envelopes and postage stamps instead of using a sponge. That very day the lady found a cut on her tongue. A week later, she noticed an abnormal swelling of her tongue. She went to the doctor, and they found nothing wrong. Her tongue was not sore or anything. A couple of days later, her tongue started to swell more, and it began to get really sore, so sore, that she could not eat. She went back to the hospital, and demanded something be done. The doctor took an x-ray of her tongue and noticed a lump. He prepared her for minor surgery. When the doctor cut her tongue open, a live cockroach crawled out!!!! There were cockroach eggs on the seal of the envelope. The egg was able to hatch inside of her tongue, because of her saliva. It was warm and moist... This is a true story reported on CNN And

The Waitress
John had just broke up with his girlfriend and was feeling rather lonely. After all it was Friday night and his buddies all had plans with their girlfriends or wives. He sat around for awhile and watched some TV, even took a little nap. Finally, he decided he needed to get out even if he had to go alone. He got up, shaved and showered. He then put on his favorite cologne and his best casual dress outfit. The outfit was made up of wine colored silk boxers, black boot-cut jeans, dark gray cowboy boots, and black long-sleeve button-up shirt with gray flames around the torso. His black, shoulder-length hair was slicked back. He grabbed his black leather jacket and headed out the door. He slid into his candy apple red '65 Mustang convertible and headed to his favorite gentleman's club. Once he got there he pulled out his leather wallet and paid the ten dollar cover charge. He walked into the smoke-filled club and took a seat at a table on the right side of the main stage. He looked ar

Me Have Nsw Pics Hehe Please Read
Today I recieved a message from the cherrytap shop stating someone reported one of my pics as NSW!!!The ironic thing is I dont think it is and I am shocked someone would take the time to report me for it!!So I would like my friends and family to please take a moment to look at my "puff puff give" (funny ass) picture and tell me what you think.The pic is located in my default album and is really funny n I thought cute!If you hae the time please comment on it and let me know what you think.Is t NSW to you, or is someone just being a bit of a prude!!!I wish there was a way I could tell who reported it but I dont think there is.I also would not be so upset if the person who viewed it would have taken the time to write me a message and tell me they were offended.I think I have done a good job of putting my NSW pics in my "naughty" file so no one would be offended.So please friends and family take a look at my pic and leave a comment on it and give me your feedback, thank you. What it do

Office Visit
I decided to pay you a surprise visit to your office for lunch. I prepared myself in advance to be dressed to your liking. A nice short sundress, and as I debated if I should put on panties........I decided to wear them as they're going to be used today, for your pleasure! I approached your office, let myself in and closed the door behind me. You were on the phone with a very important telephone conference. I approached you quietly and straddled your lap, a sexy grin came across your face. I could feel that it hadn't taken long......you already were hard as a rock. Mmmmmmm I thought to myself as I sat down facing you........I could feel your hard cock under my ass cheeks. I gave you a small kiss and let you continue your conversation. I moved to your neck, placing small kisses and tiny nibbles on your neck. I can feel your hand wandering over my ass cheeks.....you're so aroused but can't be a full participant at the moment, but are loving the attention. I make my way down your chest.

Old N New
1. What is the leading cause of death with lesbians? - Hair balls. 2. How do you know if a blonde has been sending e-mail? - You see a bunch of envelopes stuffed into the disk drive 3. What can Life Savers do that men cannot? - Come in five flavors. 4. What is good on pizza but bad on pussy? - Crust ! 5. Why does Miss Piggy douche with honey? - Because Kermit likes sweet and sour pork 6. How can you tell if you have a high sperm count? - If your girlfriend chews before swallowing OMG! OMG! OMG ! 7. What do you get when you get Raggedy Ann and the Pillsbury Dough Boy together? - A red headed bitch with a yeast infection 8. How do you piss off Winnie The Pooh? - By sticking your finger in his honey 9. What is the ultimate rejection? - When you're masturbating and your hand falls asleep 10. What did Bill Clinton say to Monica? - I told you to lick my erection, not wreck my election. 1

Friends 3
Mind you none of you are more or less important by the order in which you are listed! Just so I don't get shouts cuz I didn't list you in the order in which you think you belong! Blondie...Girl you may be the only one who can really understand what effects my health may have on me, and it will be you who I turn to on how to make shit better! You being a Nebraska girl like myself and only about 6 hours away, maybe in fact the only person from the net I may have the honor of meeting!And if I do get to meet ya I am sure we will have a rocking good time! Sauceruney...damn man, you are by far the most perviest person I have on my family list, and for that little fact, you are the only perv I love with all my heart! You can make me smile when I don't wanna! Thank you! Deity...Even though your toking it up on the other side of the world, I feel like your my brother, you listen to me bitch, and you talk to me almost daily, I admire all you do and the things you do for me! Soldie

Columbine Game
I dont understand why everyone is so up in arms about this video game based on Columbine. Whats the big fucking deal? Its a goddamn video game. Besides, while the method used by the shooters, ie killing people, was completely wrong, their motivation is completely understandable. Theres only so much shit you can take before you snap. Deal with it. You wanna keep shit like Columbine from happening, pay attention to the shit that happens in the halls. Teach your kids to leave other kids alone. Like I said, I dont agree with WHAT Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold did, I do understand WHY they did it. Yeah, youre all gonna say Im sick and shit for saying that. But I guarantee you that, had you been in their shoes prior to the shooting, youd see it differently. Astonishing Panorama Of The EndtimesBy Marilyn Manson

So Right Now....
there is a car outside, playing this. It's hurting my ears, everything's vibrating, fools! Sweet Diana, make it stop? ...I'm going outside. They have the...."415s" are they called? The REEEAAALLLY loud car stereo..subwoofers and whatnot.

A Friday Nite On Yahoo..
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Why I Haven't Been On Much Lately
First off I would like to say Hello and Thank You to all my friends, thanks for the ratings, comments, adds and gifts. I recently had to move which hasn't been an easy task, living on SSI and trying to set up a new place that needed work to make my security and find people to help me move my stuff has not been easy to say the least and then in the middle of all that my mom's Lung cancer got worse. She ended up in the hospital on antibiotics and steroids. She's not doing to well. They gave her 3 yrs if they can keep the cancer at bay with radiation seeing her body is too weak for chemotherapy and she can't keep getting lung infections. She's only 57 cause she had me at such a young age so this really was so unexpected and has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with. I will be taking her in during the day to keep watch over her and her husband will have her at nights to keep her out of a nursing home. She has been very confused and is losing some of her senses and co

If....
if tomorrow does not shelter me in it's dark and dusty day... will u still be there to pick me off the floor? if the night comes and takes me in the peacefullness of my sleep.. what would u do if u was not here anymore? would u cry out loud with curses to the world or would u sit back and let the feelings go? would u shake ur fists in anger at a stranger... or just not talk anymore... would u hide beneath the smile u have and keep the pain out of ur eyes?? or would u not even know that u loved me until then.. would u then realize? if i leave this world suddenly.. would u be ready for the change? do u think that u would miss me or would u not remember my name? does anyone really know anyone? does anyone really care? cause u know what? i have a heart and it is a heart that i constantly share. so tell me now what would u do.. what if god took me today? do u think that u would be ready for that? or would u turn and just walk away? just remember that i leave

Blow Job
Blow Job God your skin feels so good up against mine The way you rub me, my cock feels so fine You work your way down my body with such grace With my manhood nice and erect, the pleasure upon your face Lightly licking the tip, balls cupped in your hands Long slow sucking, your doing great with all my commands Balls start pulsing I can feel build up in my veins Liguid starts flowing, cum is flowing driving me insane!

I Think It's Time..
I think it's time I take a break from Cherry Tap. At this point I can't say if it'll be a couple days, a week or longer. I can say I am not completely leaving Cherry Tap just taking a very much needed step back and a break. My reasons for this are very simple.. I joined CT to meet and interact with other "adults". To get away from the everyday stress and BS of life, CT was that for me until lately. When I am here and more stressed because all I see is nothing but drama everywhere.. "Friends" stabbing "friends" in the back, people leaving lounges or just leaving CT to escape people harassing them, people being threatened, stalked.. ect.. And we all know the list could go on and on. It's time to take a break. If I wanted stress and BS I can turn off my computer and just deal with everyday life. While I believe that you can meet great people on the internet, make good friends and even can meet even that someone special and take your friendships or other into your real life

Being Awakened For Sex...
Talking to a friend the other night. She was complaining about her bf always waking her up in the middle of the night by touching her in certain places on her breasts and "you know, down there". She was asking me if that were normal? She wanted to get some sleep and he was just constantly touching her sporadically throughout the night. Now, this is the guy that she was planning to marry someday and had known for a long time before that. She wanted to know if that was being abusive. I am saying to myself, "Heck, I would give anything to have a boyfriend in my bed who would be touching me. I'd welcome that!" Then, came the dreaded question. What would you do, if it were you??? Now, I was being forced to give my opinion in a crowded area of other folks about a sexual preferences. I so wanted to blurt out I would awaken gently and turn around so that we could make wild passionate love. Instead, I said, "This isn't about me though. Who is to say that my reaction woul

Uncovered
Uncovered Puddles of pain All over my face Empty arms With no embrace Words to whisper No ear to share The hurt inside No heart to care Body so cold Chilled from my past So much love to give No hand to hold Song playing Feet won’t move No Dance tonight I’m out of the groove People are paired Two by two Yet, I’m alone With thoughts of you A hand to hold An ear to share Yesterday’s stories Never told Blind eyes Without a care Seeing through me Deep inside Maybe one day I’ll stop trying to hide And allow you to see All of me Without a mask Bare to the bone Completely exposed Unprotected Without a worry Fearless too Because I have never Met anyone Quite like you~ Written by Melody 2/17/07

Party
Kids are away and hell we are off to relax have a good time, wear my freakni new boots and party, I love geting but naked!!!!! So I placed a new photo up and by the time it was uploaded it had already been reported. I mean damn this mys well be freakin myspace, damn I see so many ladies in thongs, and stockings and crap, and they never have any problems with their pics, however I post one up and someone obviously does not have anything to do than sit here and keep an eye on my page and report everything I do. Do they get extra points for reporting? Just curious, hell how cares off to party! I am thinking tomorrow I might create me a myspace page for the hell of it, and I can post my fuckin picsw any god damn where I feel free to, and don;t have some asshole sitting here reporting because they are so boring and do not have a fuckin life damn faggots.

Ranting Again
so i guess ive kinda come to terms with my baby sister being pregnant. nothing i can do about it except be there for her and help her to make right decisions. today she called me balling talking bout bobby left me. he says i spend too much time with my family and friends, not enough attention for him. i was furious so i went to see her. then she told me that he said if she doesnt take him back by the time the baby is born hes gonna take her to court for custody of the baby. well this guy will never get custody of that baby, so i kinda snickered bout it. but this is the same guy that 5 minutes before called her a whore and said the kid isnt his. i really hope she doesnt take him back he really makes her feel bad about herself

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!game Over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES LMFAO I ENTERED GAME OVER IN A GIFT GIVE AWAY!!HE IS ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS ONLINE.. HE IS ALWAYS HELPPING ME OUT WITH ANY THING I NEED..SO I WANTED TO HELP HIM GET THE GIFT I KNWO HE SO DESIRES.. SO IF YOU HAVE A LITTLE EXTRA TIME.. SHOW THIS GIFT GIVE AWAY SOEM LOVE.. NO RUSH NO TIME LIMIT.. SOON AS HE GETS THE 20.000 COMMNTES HE WILL GET THE YACHT ... SMOOCHESSSSSSSSSSS LADY KAOS

Ugh!!
DAMN IT!!!! i dont understand fucken people!! why when talking to someone another always have to put there 2 cents in too!!! just fucken leave it alone grr... an why is it that when if u are friends with a couple. an one of em gets mad at you cause they are a lil fucken whinnier! that they both suddenly become bitchy!!!! WTF is ur issues! ive been getting hella pissed off with our living conditions. an i know everyone will just say well then move out! its not that easy. so at first it was me an the couple living together for a year all was great, no fights arguments nadda. well some but ill get to em, then i go to manitoba for a month to visit my family get a call from one of em askin if it was ok for one of their friends to move in. k cool at least this time i was asked!!! sorry to the ones that read this im not always this bitchy, just when i have to deal with fucken morons! but the main things that piss me off is, he gets pissed off to easy, at anything an ever

My Own Private Iraq
I'VE NEVER WRITTEN A POEM OR WHATEVER THIS SHIT IS BEFORE SO I'M NOT ENTIRELY SURE QUITE WHERE THIS HAS COME FROM. NEEDLESS TO SAY YOUR COMMENTS GOOD/BAD WILL BE APPRECIATED. CHEERS JAY OUTSIDE...... THATS WHERE ITS COLD THATS WHERE FEAR LIVES LOVE.....LIFE WAR.....LIFE WORK.....LIFE PAIN.....LIFE YOU.....DEATH EVERY SECOND, EVERY MINUTE, EVERY HOUR, EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE... OUT THERE ALWAYS OUT THERE INSIDE..... THATS WHERE ITS WARM THATS WHERE FEAR DIES LOVE....ME PEACE.....ME REST.....ME HEAL.....ME HELP.....ME LIFE.....ME.....I EVERY BEAT, EVERY PULSE, EVERY BREATH EVERY TWITCH, EVERY THOUGHT IN HERE ALWAYS IN ME INSIDE-OUT..... THATS WHERE ITS HOT THATS WHERE FEAR IS BORN LOVE.....HATE LIFE......LIFE ?? WORK.....TOIL PAI

I Dont Understand
it was a chilly Valentines Day when i had to go to the doctors for my monthly prenatal check up.. im in the room waiting to see the Dr. and when he went looking for the heart beat was unable to find it so sent me for a ultrasound.. karen the tech did the ultrasound.. and all you saw was the baby with no heart beat i knew it was bad but hurt even more with Dr. Bennie coming into the room and said Gia im so sorry.. who do you need to call.. funny who do i call.. no one lives near by anymore.. so i called Terry in hysterics.. didnt know who to actually turn to.. called a few more ppl.. but of course none of them live in the same state as me..then called the baby's "father" who was visiting his girlfriend in Texas... at that point i realized how much he cared.. then ended up in the hospital for them to induce labor.. went through it all night.. talking to Terry and Brian.. while in labor.. they were the hands i got to hold over the phone.. not the baby's "father"... then at 535 am Emma Ros

Valentine's Day
What's a guy got to do? I sent someone a dozen roses for Valentine's day. Real roses not the online kind. Nothing, not a peep from her. Not even a "eat shit and die" peep. 3 days later I finally ask if the flowers were even delivered.. oh yeah, they were. uh..... wtf? So much for those survey's in cosmo! My dogs lick my hands and face and beg for a treat but I can't get another human being to acknowledge a dozen roses.... go figure. I think I'll try the "asshole" boyfriend next. I won't buy anything, never pay for anything, act like I'm always broke. Wonder how that will work out..... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Paralyzed.
[stay and listen] the cardigans. This is where your sanity gives in And love begins. Never lose your grip, Don't trip, don't fall, You'll lose it all. The sweetest way to die. It lies deep inside; You can not hide, It's the meanest fire. Oh, it's a strange desire, You can not lie That's a needless fight. This is where your sanity gives in And love begins. Never lose your grip, Don't trip, don't fall, You'll lose it all. The sweetest way to die. When your blood runs dry You're paralyzed. It will eat your mind. Did you hold it back? It comes to you in slow attacks; It's the meanest fire. This where your sanity gives in And love begins; Never lose your grip, Don't trip, don't fall You'll lose it all. This is where your sanity gives in And love begins Never lose your grip, Don't trip, don't fall. You'll lose it all. This is where your sanity gives in And love begins Never lose your grip, Don't trip, don't fall You'll lose it all; T

Guess Who Has Been Robbed In The Past 24 Hours.
Me. Yeah... over three thousand dollars of my shit and my roommates stuff was stolen, ransacked if you will... This includes ALL of our PS and PS2 games and both our consoles. All of our expansive and ... accumulated over years DVD collections. My N64 My Wii Chris' GC games 2 guns My door was broken down Chris' gun case was demolished and my consoles were left in THE FUCKING SNOW WHILE THESE ASSHOLES RAN AROUND WITH MY SHIT. All three suspects were apprehended redhanded- but now my roommate and I have to go over ALL OF OUR RECOVERED BELONGINGS WITH CLEANER TO GET RID OF THE FINGERPRINT DUST. ... Which I might add is a pretty big pain in the ass because its semi-adhesive and a gritty powder on... EVERYTHING. It's like getting peanutbutter out of shag carpet. So far only 3 games are unaccounted for. Our rooms are in complete dissaray. Our house's security is completely compromised. And we're both... Really pissed off. We're going to talk to a friend of ours to

For Papi
As Long As You're Near The first time we met, I could see, That you and I, were meant to be. Your eyes were so gentle, your smile so true, When you first held my hand, I just knew. Now the time has gone by, through laughter and tears, These days I shall cherish, for years upon years. Those memories we have, shall never fade, For those are the steps, that we have made. That was the past, the future is near, I anxiously wait, for what will appear. New homes, more laughter, and children so dear, Everything will be wonderful, as long as you're near. - Cristy Smith -

Being Poor Sucks Ass
You know, the longer I can't find a job, the more and more I get pissed off about it. There's supposed to be hundreds of thousands of jobs out there for people to have (according to commercials, lol), and yet it's like none are near my town. It sucks. I need money to pay bills, and I need money to fix my car, but I can't get money until I get a job. It's a viscious viscious cycle, and I'm hoping to end it soon. SO! Everybody keep your fingers crossed and maybe I'll get a job soon. *crosses fingers* Oh, and there's two possibilities right now because I know people at the stores, so I'm hoping they go through.

Came By Small Plane
...I picked him up from the Airport for smaller planes...being he owned his own and decided to fly down to see me...knowing this man I have known for months and was attracted to..never met him in person...he was one of those..you know the type i like..as my 12 year old calls them.."lumpy"(body builder type) men....He stepped from the front of the airport, blond hair, blue eyes, perfect tan because he just got back a week earlier from vacationing in Greece...my jaw dropped. He was even more spectacular in person. I felt a little weird about my car being so old, but I realized he didn't fly down to see my car. Getting back to my place he and I talked a few minutes, he looked into my eyes and said "They really are even more beautiful than I had imagined.." and kissed me. That was it...from there all we could do was rip each others clothes off while we passionately kissed down the hall to my bedroom. Once we were in my room he threw me on my back and ripped the rest of my clothing off of m

For The Love Of A Wolf
As I sat looking into those lovely blue, grey eyes of hers, I wondered how I ever could have been so lucky as to have attracted this lady's attention. I caught my reflection in the water glass of the restaurant I had taken her to. Just a medium looking fellow I am, with dark brown hair and eyes. I am tall, but the thinness subtracts from that, barely held off by my broad shoulders. "Ah well," I sighed silently, "guess its the imagination and the personality which counts here." I grinned and winked at her, enjoying the way her eyes lit and the slow way her smile spread. She took my hand and asked, "And what may I ask brought that grin on?" "Hmmn?" I replied, "I was just wondering when you were going to tell me your name." She laughed and said, "Now I already have told you my name, Lady Wolf, what more can I tell you which would mean anything?" She finished this off with a grin of her own, that sent images of a wolf stalking its prey into my mind. Now this i

Broken Hearted
Today I came to a realization that when you love someone you have to tell them no matter how much you might fear you will get rejected. I have been in-love with man for almost a year and have been to afraid to even admit to myself till Valentine's Day came and went and I received nothin from this man and that I had really was hopin to get even a text message from him. And ofcourse I received nothing from him. The next day I got an email with him asking where the sex was with the Valenitines card I sent him. I replied that if I was there he would be getting some, but since I am on the mainland and he is in Hawaii he would just have to suffer with the thought of what he wanted from me since I didnt know where I stood with him. What do you think I got in return from that? I want it all.. what the fuck does that mean.. I am like so lost and confused that I want to scream. I have no idea on how to say how I feel to him and I will not allow myself to hurt..SO TO ALL MEN THAT THINK EVEN A LIT

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwww!!!!!
I'M SORRY ALL BUT THIS IS THE MOST DISGUSTING THING I HAVE EVER SEEN BEFORE IN MY FUCKING LIFE!!!! VIDEO'S LIKE THIS ARE WHAT YOU GET TO SEE WHEN YOU ARE DRUNK AS FUCK OVER AT A BASTARDS HOUSE WITH FAR TO MUCH TIME ON HIS HANDS!! I'M SO SORRY, BUT I COULDN'T BE THE ONLY ONE SUFFERING THROUGH THIS, SO ENJOY!!! PEACE OUT AND SHIT.-BILL. P.S. FULLY CLOTHED AND FUCKING DISGUSTED!!

Promises
We met in a world of online dreams, no way to know just how much is true, but I gave my word, to love, respect, only give my love to only you, I WON'T MAKE PROMISES THAT I CAN'T KEEP... It seems that everyday, there is another problem we must face, to come between us, try to take our love away, I told you , I was in this with you come what may, there is nothing, that will stop me from loveing you, I will stand beside you, come thick or thin, I know I told you, I give my word again, I WON'T MAKE PROMISES THAT I CAN'T KEEP... Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Shout.box.
to explain.... my shoutbox is family-only now. it is eternally screwy. firefox claims I need a plugin. I already have it, ARRRRGH!! so I manually reload the damn thing. that is, when it works. often, it's delayed HOURS. IE doesn't recognize CT at all. whatever. just don't shout. mmmmmmk? private message me. or comment. Do Not Shout @ Me. PLEASE.

Poem
THE MANY NAMES OF INTERCOURSE you make love to the princess you nail the goth chicks you pay to pound the strippers you feed the fatties dick you fuck the drunken strangers you pork the female jocks you screw the lonely housewife you give the whore the cock you shag when your in britain you jerk when your alone your gramma calls it whoopie a college girl you bone you cherry-pop the virgins you do it with the sluts you bang the chicks who dig the whips and chains *DeViLs lil SiStA* There's not a word than can describe that but Absolute Nirvana ... is the best I can do =) you feed the one night stands you'll never see again "tha salami" *** added 4 Cassy ;) Lady♥Lafter I'd call that some intense seriously rough hellacious fucking ;)

Push
It’s been a week past the due date and the blessing that’s been nesting inside me has not come out yet. My doctor made a decision to induct me. Well, although I heard a lot of mother’s before saying that giving birth is really hard and all that, I didn’t really think it’s a big deal… in other words, I was more excited than scared. They said it’s unusual for first timers to be really excited. But me, I just can’t hide the thrill that’s flowing in my vein. Especially that my induction was scheduled the night of February 13, I was thinking, I’m going to have the baby on Valentine’s Day! I’ll be having a valentine baby woo hooo!!! And then, I was induced! The contractions came every 40 seconds and yes! It’s harder than I thought. It hurts a lot, plus the baby monitor belt that was wrapping around my belly adds up to the suffering. I just couldn’t take it. So the doctor decided to remove the drug they put inside me to stop the strong contraction. They injected a pain killer in my hip,

To All Angel Family Members
As of next monday i will be handing every member a ct license signed by the family. The ones from the website. Everyone will be starting out with the red license than working up from there. You can read more about it here

Courage To Move On!!
They had been together for many a year, Now all she can feel is fear. She gave all that she could give, It just wasn't the way he wanted to live. He left without a backward glance, Not even giving their love a chance. She often wonders what she could have done, To keep him from going on the run. Now she is living all alone, With nothing she can call her own. She can barely make herself eat, Wondering if her life will again be complete. This woman is now moving along, Building her courage, and becoming strong. Time will heal her broken pride, Toward the sunrise her heart will glide

Erotic Writings..
You lie next to me and whisper my name in my ear. Your sweet and warm breath against my ear makes me moan out loud. As you lie naked beside me, I watch as you lean down. Your mouth as it meets mine and sends sweet sensations all over my body. Our tongues, as they meet and taste of each other makes the cum start to slide down my pussy walls. I have waited for you for so long. Waited to feel the pleasure of you as we have spoke of. My long fingers sliding over your face and on to your chest is heaven. Your kisses have me lost in a world of passion and desire. Your touch has every nerve ending on fire and the need for your hot cock is driving me over the edge. As we kiss deep, as my mouth devours your lips, as I suck your tongue in deep, I feel hands part my legs. My eyes open wide as I know you are not positioned in such a way as to be parting my legs. You renew your vigorous exploration of my mouth to keep my mind off of what it cannot comprehend. As you continue to play my mouth

Here's The Jist
Well as I said Here is the Jist .. I've been avoiding coming on here not only for not fully feeling back to myself physically but .. well emotionally .. Ive been on cry alert .. and have found myself wanting to push everyone away again and Ive decided I cant let that happen .. so First off I'd like to say Im sorry to all of my wonderful friends ...I dont mean to get into these lame ass moods .. its just sometimes life hits me like a brick and I wigg out .. and for some odd reason instead of doing the normal thing and bringing those you care about closer to you .. I push everyone away and hide my head in the sand like some ostrich .. I talked with someone yesterday who really put it flat on the table for me .. and it made not only a LOT of sense but made me really look at how others may see me becuause of how ive done things in the past .. sad thing is im sure ive lost freinds due to this .. and my being shy doesnt help in my wanting to talk to them again .. Anyway .. I'm kickin

Lovers Point
A guy took a blonde out on a date one night. Eventually, they ended up parked at 'lovers point' where they started making out. After things started to progress, the guy thought he might get lucky. After a few more minutes of fooling around, he asked his date, "Do you want to get into the back seat?" "NO!" she answered. Okay, he thought, maybe she's not ready yet. Now he has her shirt and skirt off and the windows are steamed. Things are getting really hot, so he asks again, "Do you want to get into the back seat?" "NO!" she answers again. Now he has her bra off, they're both very sweaty, and she even has his pants unzipped. Okay, he thinks, she HAS to want it now. "Do you want to get into the back seat NOW?" he asks again. "NO!" she answers yet again. Frustrated, he askes the blonde, "Well, why not?" "Because I want to stay up here with you!!!"

Sex Servey
Do you like it rough or sensual?: a lil of both Do you prefer to be with the opposite sex or the same sex? or both?: both How often do you like to have sex?: well with the right person that knew what they were doing and didnt expect me to d it all then all the time Is sex a top priority for you?: no Do you have sex face to face with your partner?: yes How often do you get drunk and have wild, crazy sexy with a complete stranger?: i have in the past but it has been a long time How do you feel about one night stands?: well i have had a few but i dont think that i would again with a man :P How many one night stands have you had?: 3 What's your favorite position?: me bent over standing Where's your favorite place to have sex?: outside Do you prefer to make love or f*uck?: make love Have you ever watched porn while having sex?: yeah How long do you usually fore-play b4 doing the deed?: well i have not had any really in a long time but it really

~~god Bless America~~
Subject: Fw: OVER THE EDGE > A Mexican drinks his beer and suddenly throws his glass in the air, > pulls out his pistol and shoots the glass to pieces. He says, "In > Mexico our glasses are so cheap we don't need to drink from the same > glass twice." > > An Iraqi, obviously impressed by this, drinks his beer, throws his > glass into the air, pulls out his AK-47 and shoots the glass to > pieces. He says, "In Iraq we have so much sand to make glasses that we > don't need to drink out of the same glass twice either. > > The American girl, cool as a cucumber, picks up her beer and drinks > it, throws her glass into the air, pulls out her gun and shoots the > Mexican and the Iraqi, and catches her glass. She says, "In America we > have so many illegal Mexicans and Arabs that we don't have to drink > with the same ones twice. > > God Bless America! >

Mumms.
Well today i thought up my 1st two mumms. "things are getting saucy" and "Burger off" It's been funny to see that people have such an opinion about everyday things. lol. There was a slight culture mishap, which was all my fault. I did'nt know that they did'nt have HP Brown sauce in the USA. But with some help from my new friend rev we got it sorted. Not a bad 1st few Mumms. cheers bye. please if you read leave a comment. It don't matter how big or how small. cheers again.

Newer Lyrics
Idolize Bring me your dead your tired your pitiful Suffer the masses humanity falls Lend me your time your lives give me your soul Follow the false one the messiah calls Heed the masters call One thousand points of pain Destruction drawing nigh False Idol speak my name Send in your weak your strong your precious few I will destroy them for I am your god Goddamn your priests your views religious fucks Simple minded fools surrounded by lies Heed the masters call One thousand points of pain Destruction drawing nigh False Idol speak my name

Imagine That
IMAGINE NO HATE,NO CRIME NOTHING BUT LOVE ALL THROUGHOUT THE DAY,IMAGINE YOU BEING YOUR OWN BOSS AND FOR WORK YOU CAN NEVER BE LATE.IMAGINE NEVER BEING SICK NO FLU AND STAYING CANCER FREE,IMAGINE YOU BEING ABLE TO DO YOU AND YOU NOT WORRY ABOUT ME.IMAGINE NO RACISM,PREJUDICE NO WHERE TO BE SEEN NOT EVEN IN OUR MINDS, HEARTS,THOUGHTS, NOT EVEN OUR DREAMS.IMAGINE YOU BEING ABLE TO LOVE ME AND ME LOVE YOU AND ABLE TO WALK HAND IN HAND,NEVER FEELING UNCOMFORTABLE NOT AFRAID FOR ME BECAUSE OF THE COLOR OF MY SKIN LOOK WITHIN.IMAGINE YOUR KIDS AND MY KIDS NEVER KNOWING MENTAL OR PHYSICAL ABUSE,NEVER KNOWING ALCOHALISM,DRUGS OF ANY KIND NO WEAPONS AND STILL HAVE THE RIGHT TO CHOOSE WHO MAKES THE RULES.IMAGINE BEING ABLE VOTE AND REALLY KNOW THAT YOUR VOTE IS FOR WHO YOU VOTED FOR,BEING ABLE TO LOVE WHO YOU WANT TO LOVE NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES AND NOT BE LABELED A WHORE.IMAGINE GIVING YOUR LIFE TO THE ONE CALLED CHRIST AND TRYING TO MAKE IT TO MEET OUR FATHER GOD,TO PRAISE HIM,LOVE HIM,HONOR

The History Of Pussy
Long before Dick came along and fucked it up, Pussy was in charge and even considered a God in some cultures. Pussy's best friends, the Breasts, have long been portrayed as caregivers of life and even worshipped as idols. There are many artifacts that back this up. In ancient times, Pussy was more carefree and given to many Dicks, as many as Pussy desired. Pussy even conveyed lust to other Pussies and orgy's were born. Then one day, Dick came along and convinced other Dicks that Pussy was less in stature and therefore, beneath them. Pussy actually liked being beneath Dicks, but not in social aspects. So all these Dicks wrote this big, wordy book called the Bible. Many Dicks had their hands in the writing of this epic book. One Dick was even revered to be the Dick of the biggest Dick of all, God. That remains to be proven, but many Dicks and Pussies believe this today. So Pussy became subservient to all Dicks and more or less became invisible. Dicks convinced Pussy that her act

Blonde Jokes And No The Irony Isn't Lost On Me
Blonde Jokes -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Q: What's the difference between a blonde and a solar powered calculator? A: The blonde works in the dark! Q: How can you tell if a blonde has been using the computer? A: The joystick is wet. Q: What does a blonde put behind her ears to make her more attractive? A: Her ankles. Q: What do you say to a Blonde that won't give in? A: "Have another beer." Q: What do Blondes say after sex? A1: Thanks Guys. A2: Are you boys all in the same band? A3: Do you guys all play for the Green Bay Packers? Q: How do you make a blonde's eyes twinkle? A: Shine a flashlight in their ear. Q: What does a screen door and a blonde have in common? A: The more you bang it the looser it gets. Q: What does a blond and a beer bottle have in common? A: They're both empty from the neck up. Q: What do blonds and spaghetti have in common? A: They both wriggle when you eat them. Q:

Along That Path
in the woods where the trees bend, the leaves move with a soothing wind, It was along that path my breath was taken, there she stood with eyes a'glimmer and hair like the raven, She spoke a tongue far from mine, but still her voice was as sweet as wine, it was along that path i had met this woman, surely this fair lady is waiting for someone, then she spoke again in a tongue of mine, and i soaked up that sweet voice, and at that moment she seemed to stop all time, leaveing me with but that only choice, in a blink she was nowehere to be found, I searched and hunted every place i could find, then i look upon the very ground, to find my soul to this path she did bind.

Uh..ya Know How......
why is it that you have to turn the radio down when you get close to where your going? like if youve been reading the directions the whole time just fine, but when you get a couple miles away you reach down and off it goes...and why do you always have to pee the closer you get to your house. i can not have to go AT ALL and then a block away im close to passing out from the pee pain. and why the hell do people look at the kleenex after they blow their nose? its boogers, same as always but maybe..if i keep looking i will blow gold dust out instead? and on that note, why do you always look in the toliet after you pump a grumpy? its shit. thats whats in there..just like last time. and why do women have to open their mouths when they put mascara on? i do it, cant help..i tried, just feels "better" if i can 'open my mouth'. and why do you do hand guestures when your on the phone...uh, they cant see you. and why do you NEVER blink when you play video games..maybe thats just me, but i swear to

My Boy!
Ah yes so I go to my sister's house Saturday to find out he says a new batch of words. First thing that made me laugh was he says his sister's nickname, but like my dad, so it's heavily accented. secondly i guess he had spaghetti and meatballs so he says, "a beepballs." Cutest thing EVER. It made ma happy inside when he said it to me. =)

Naughty Poll
NaughtyPoll.com - take your own poll! 1. How old are you?27-29 2. What is your sexual orientation?Bisexual 3. Have you ever given somone oral sex?Sure I have 4. Have you ever received oral sex?Yes, of course 5. How many sexual partners have you had?More than 15 6. What is your pubic hair style?Shaved bald, nice and clean 7. What is your choice of underwear style?Thong 8. Have you ever had anal sex?Yes I have 9. What is your favorite position?Girl on top, I like to be in control 10. How often do you masturbate?About once a week 11. Have you ever kissed a girl?Yes, for sure 12. Have you ever had sex with a girl?Yes, I sure have 13. Have you ever taken, or been in naked photos?Both taken and been in them 14. Have you ever had multiple partners at once?Yes, an all out orgy 15. Have you watched porn?Yes, of course. Who hasn't? 16. Have you ever been to a nude beach or nudist area?Of course, I go to nudist events all the time 17. Have you ever watched oth

I Still Don't Believe It
Its hard for me to look at myself and think of me as reaching a certain status. Like another level of acting. It's just weird to say that I talk to people like James Gunn, Tim Sullivan, Lloyd Kaufman, Dee Snider, Debbie Rochon. (If you are not aware of who these people are, simply google them) I emailed Tim Sullivan yesterday and I said, "He's so not going to respond" I mean, we were celebrity guests together before at a weekend of horrors, but that was just whatever. I was so shocked when he responded to me! It was like wow! I don't know. I still feel like that. When I meet these celebrities I just don't think I'm really meeting them, so I'm not starstuck, but after the fact, I'd say "wow I met....." and there is a longgggg list, LOL I'm very blessed

Have A Great Day!
I'm off to work in a bit! Sort of a long day, and belly dancing class tonight! Just in time, too. Western Wisconsin will have a high in the 30s today. A heat wave!! I'm ready for that. I will try to catch up on the personal greetings either tonight or tomorrow. I'm feeling like I'm getting behind! But then that's why I do this Daily Greeting blog. Old habits die hard! Have a wonderful day and a killer week everyone! Much love and warm hugs to everyone! Blessings on one and all, lol! I appreciate each and every one of you so very much!

What Do You See When You Look At Me?
WHAT DO YOU SEE WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME? DO YOU SEE A BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMAN, WHO IS PROUD OF SHE IS, WHO LOVES HERSELF FOR THE PERSON SHE IS, WHO REFUSES TO ADHERE TO A SOCIETY WHO SAYS SHE SHOULD LOOK OR FEEL SEXY AND BEAUTIFUL. DO YOU SEE A FAT DESPERATE WOMAN, WHO WILL SETTLE FOR ANYTHING AND ANYBODY? A FAT DESPERATE WOMAN WILL TAKE ANY ABUSE BE IT PHYSICAL, MENTAL OR EMOTIONAL? A FAT DESPERATE WOMAN WHO WILL LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU DONT LOVE HER? DO YOU SEE A SMART, BEAUTIFUL, INTELLEGENT, WELL PUT TOGETHER WOMAN OR JUST SOMTHEING YOU CAN CALL ON WHEN YOU'RE NUT SACK IS FULL AND YOU NEED TO UNLOAD AND GET GHOST BEFORE THE NEIGHBORS SEE YOU? SO TELL ME WHAT DO YOU SEE WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME? DO YOU SEE A WOMAN WHO IS FULL OF LOVE AND NUTURING THAT DESERVES TO BE LOVED AND TREATED LIKE THE QUEEN SHE IS? DO YOU SEE YOUR FUTURE WIFE AND MOTHER OF YOUR CHILDREN? PERHAPS YOU SEE A WHORE WHO IS MEANT FOR NOTHING MORE THAN YOUR OWN PERSONAL CUMBAG.

Accept Yourself!!!!
The Old Man said, `you are both ugly and handsome and you must accept your ugliness as well as your handsomeness in order to really accept yourself." My Grandfather told me one time that any person who is judgmental to another is also judgmental to themselves. If we want to be free of being judgmental, we need to first work on how judgmental we are to ourselves. If we quit judging ourselves and start accepting ourselves as we are, we will start accepting others as they are. Then we will experience a level of new freedom. Great Spirit, let me accept myself as I am –honoring both my strengths and my weaknesses. Have you ever heard the story about, The Man in the mirror? When we look at another and judge them we are actually finding faults that lay within our own mindset. We are seeing things that glow like radiant sun light but refusing to look in the mirror to see our own selves one on one. What we see in others is usually something that is showing in our own

Leaves
"A good friend of mine, Zach, who's six, told me that Fall is here. He explained the reason they call it Fall is because the leaves fall from the trees and gather in beautiful colors on the ground. He told me that he collects one leaf every Fall -- the most beautiful one of the season. He's been doing it since he was four so he's already got two in a shoebox under his bed. Zach says when he has a hundred of them he's going to make a book. I told him that will be a wonderful book. He said he knows. And he told me he'd be sure to show it to me. I had to ask him how he chooses the most beautiful leaf of the season when there are so many beautiful leaves. He said, "You just pick one and call it the most beautiful and then it is, because you picked it." So here's to leaves. The ones we keep and the ones we leave behind. I hope you truly enjoy this Autumn. Maybe even save a leaf. Choose one, call it the most beautiful, and then it is, right? And just know that all the ones you leave behi

Shove And Slap
Went to a costume party at the weekend. Got chatted up by Peter Pan (or a girl dressed as Peter Pan), then an inebriated Irish girl, dressed as the world's perviest Snow White, shoved my face in her cleavage. She then slapped me around the face for shoving my face in her cleavage. Women are strange and wonderful creatures. Drank two bottles of Merlot. Why is it all Disney themed costumes for girls are naughty? Walt was a bad man.

Knights In White Satin Post Logue Day's End
Breath deep the gatering gloom, Watch lights fade from every room. Bench sitter people sit back and lament, Another days useless energy spent. Impassioned lovers wrestle as one! A lonely man cries for love and has none! New mother picks up and suckles her son. Senior citizens wish they were young. Cold hearted Og, who rules the night! Removes the colors from our sight! Red is grey and yellow white, But we decide which is right, And which is an illusion.... The Moody Blues Days of Future Passed Circa 1967-1968

Almost Deleted
I stay very calm Until it gets real I get lots of offers Many emotions To peel I love when we Are joking Taking dirty too Or sometimes Just chatting I love whatever We do Yes, this is About you But about You and you too I want one person To feel better And it just might Be you So smile, relax Strap yourself in For the ride When it gets Really real You will feel Me inside

What Is.......
What is truly ment by the word "LOVE"? There are so many different forms of love so how you decided between the two. Is "true love" when u can look at someone, know you want to spend the rest of ur life with them, no matter what they put you through or what "quercks" they have? Or is True Love just the IDEA of that? Love is a word that is thrown around so much in todays society that it loses its true meaning. Love is a word that has been removed from my vocabulary unless it is towards, my daughter, my mother, my father, and my closest friends who are like family. Remember when you use the word love, make sure you mean it. Dont just say it, cause u think it will make someone happy. Use it wisely. NEVER LIE, CHEAT, OR STEAL. but if you must lie, lye in the arms of the one you love that loves you back, if you must cheat, cheat death and live life to the fullest, and if you must steal, steal a monkey

Just A Thought
The Grand Canyon: No one has ever built a bridge across it- or even wanted to. Walking across a bridge might get us to the other side quicker, but we would miss the point of the Grand Canyon. We shouldn't run across it. Everyone needs to stand there, see his own finiteness and realize there is only one way to the other side: through it's depths.

Lupus Update.
So other than the kidney failure my biggest serious problem with my Lupus is my heart. I can't control my heart rate and this prevents me from doing a lot of things. When it gets to high, I get cold, cloudy and pass out. When it gets to low I get warm and pass out. The are talking about putting me on a holter monitor to get a better picture of what's going on. I just want to be normal again. I want to be me again. Damn it.... What the hell happened to me and why do I deserve this?

The View Of The War From The Right...
Things that make you think a little: There were 39 combat related killings in Iraq in January. In the fair city of Detroit there were 35 murders in the month of January. That's just one American city, about as deadly as the entire war-torn country of Iraq When some claim that President Bush shouldn't have started this war, state the following: a. FDR led us into World War II. b. Germany never attacked us ; Japan did. From 1941-1945, 450,000 lives were lost ... an average of 112,500 per year. c. Truman finished that war and started one in Korea North Korea never attacked us .. From 1950-1953, 55,000 lives were lost ... an average of 18,334 per year. d John F. Kennedy started the Vietnam conflict in 1962. Vietnam never attacked us. e. Johnson turned Vietnam into a quagmire. From 1965-1975, 58,000 lives were lost .. an average of 5,800 per year. f. Clinton went to war in Bosnia without UN or French consent. Bosnia never attacke

Lonely
im so lonely these days all i want is to find a good woman and its something that i never seem to be able to find. Will i ever find someone to love me for me and to be honest and be a good woman instead of someone who comes to me and runs away or flips out for no reason :(. will i ever stop being lonely :(

Family Members, This Is For You!
I have a question for those listed as my family members. I have a new pic album and would like to post pictures of family members and past life companions. Most of my family members ARE past life companions, lol. If you are willing to provide a pic but would prefer not to be named as a past life companion, that's OK too. Just let me know! Have a great night everyone!

Layin It Down
This morning i got laid off, im fuckin crushed. Ive only been at this place for a month now, a brand new booming pub. With alot of sexual innuendos in the kitchen, ya see, im a chef by trade (along with others skills)..and the only woman in the kitchen. Now im not saying this is biast or prejudice but alot of it is based on one mans decision..*sigh*. My sous chef is an arrogant bastard who only tones down his tude for the sake of the hot (ex moxies) waitresses, and takes every oppotunity i swear to bend over and show off that lovely hairy crack of his..Man, if i smoked the shit that would turn me off ..*just say no to crack*. I liked working there, mainly for the reason that this was a new start for me, i have lost a number of jobs due to others and NO im not laying blame elsewhre, obviously i have something to do with it. but i dont know what yet. Im at the end of my rope..on the verge of being evicted and i can barely see this screen for the amount of tears i cant hold back becaus

Self Injury
Alot of us, when we are depressed turn to self injury. What is it that makes us injure ourselves? Why do some people cut while others burn? For myself, I burn because I seek a physical pain to match an emotional one. But where does this compulsion come from? WHY do I have to burn? I cant answer these questions, and I dont think anyone else can either. But whatever the reason behind it, those burns help me through the endless night. Into the Darkness [Vocal Remix]By Kittie

Aw Hell...
doing a little research on opera apprenticeship programs for college students. i've wanted, nay dreamed of singing opera for as long as i can remember...but now, i'm strangled and silenced by my self doubt. i don't even know if i'm even good enough to pursue this as my career. to do this, i have to get my bachelor of arts in perfomance...but i cannot do music theory. in the same way i can't do much math beyond intermediate algebra and elementary geometry. i'm taking a break this semester, trying to stave off burn out. but right now, i'm so messed up, i don't even want to sing! it's so hard to even just sing alone in the fucking car. all through high school i was working toward one goal: to be a professional opera singer, even if it's just bit parts. can i do it? lately my head is so broken, just reading about auditions and applications is making me cry. it's like my heart is crying...im miserable. i have to stop now, i can't see the keyboard through the tears...goddammit

Nothing But Hard Work Here
im not the most popular person on this site by far, but i dont cheat and ive never used a script its just flat out hard work it wasnt easy getting to this level but ive it all with a little help from my friends haha ok crack jokes about the song now yeah ok now back to the subject just because a couple have to have it all your punishing everyone on the site now come on at least myspace is upfront bout their shit

Unpretty
Find the reflection you see to be so damn unpretty Find the reflection you see to be so damn unpretty I wish I could tie you up in my shoes Make you feel unpretty too I was told I was beautiful But what does that mean to you Look into the mirror whoÕs inside there The one with the long hair Same old me again today (yeah) My outsides look cool My insides are blue Everytime I think IÕm through ItÕs because of you IÕve tried different ways But itÕs all the same At the end of the day I have myself to blame IÕm just trippinÕ You can buy your hair if it wonÕt grow You can fix your nose if he says so You can buy all the make-up that mac can make But if you canÕt look inside you Find out who am i, too Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty Find the reflection you see to be so damn unpretty Never insecure until I met you Now IÕm in stupid I used to be so cute to me Just a little bit skinny Why do I look to all these things To keep you happy Ma

For Those That Talk
For those of you who actually talk to me, been fun, intresting, and crazy. lol. Shyone is supposed to talk to me but never does...that hits me in the gut with a 2x4 wrapped in razor wire. *sighs* Well have a great day. THEY SAY iT TAKES A MiNUTE...... .......TO FiND A SPECiAL PERSON, ....... .....AN HOUR TO APPRECiATE THEM, ...... .........A DAY TO LOVE THEM, ........ ..........AN ENTiRE LiFE TiME......... ..............TO 4GET THEM............. .......SEND THiS TO THE PEOPLE...... .............U'LL NEVER 4GET.............. .........ITS A SHORT MESSAGE.......... ...........TO LET THEM KNOW............. ......THAT U'LL NEVER 4GET THEM...... ...iF U DON'T SEND THiS TO ANYONE... .......iT MEAN YOU'RE iN A HURRY....... ..........AND THAT U 4GOTTEN......... ...............THE PEOPLE.............. .........YOU LOVE....... ......@.@.@.@..@.. ....@........@..........@ ...@............@....@@ ...@..............@@..@ ....@..............@...@ ......@...........@.

What I Want
So I met this chic, might I add hot as hell. At first, we didnt get alone so well. Then we started texting, now all I can think about is getting that sweet spot between her legs. I want to lay her down on my bed and start at her luscious lips and make way down to her bald, sweet pussy. I would start kissing around her neck, (while playing with her clit) kissing her all over her neck teasing her lips with my tongue, and slowly making way down to her pierced nipples. MMM baby you taste so good! While you are pulling my hair, rubbing your nails down my back you let out short yet very intrigueing moans of pleasure. I want you to feel my tongue running down your tummy. Running your hands all over my body me running my lips and tongue all over yours, we are getting hotter and wetter. (wet of course is what I want) I am slowly kissing your clit now running my tongue around and gently sucking your clit. Arching your back, holding my head, you moan louder and louder. I can feel y

Can't Fight This Any More...
I am so horny right now.My body feels like it is on fire.It feels so good,my hands rubbing all over my naked body.I'm so wet right now,my fingers sliding inside of me,god I wish you were here.I know you will read this,I just want to be your naughty little girl.Give me your soft kisses,your strong hands,lick my pussy,shove your tongus inside of me.God I can feel you already,I need you,we fucked four times that night,I swallowed you.You make me ache so bad for you,cum all over me baby,I am yours for the taking.My nipples are hard and waiting for your mouth,those tender lips,your passionate embrace,I need to feel you against me,I can't wait,I need it now.Make me moan in extasy,give me the pleasure you gave me then,I can feel your breath still,upon my body,as you explore my body.You have given me so much,all I want is to give it back to you.God,you have made me taste life in it's fullest,oh my god,I want to cum for you,again and again.I am yours for the taking,do with me what you will,have

What Pissed Me Off Today
Ok here goes my first vent of 2007. This morning I got upfor work at 4am like always. In my job i am required to carry a gun and wear body armour etc. So anyhow this morning i get to work and our company has just done a huge merge with another company. Non of management decided to train or organize anything before the merge. So as you can imagine everything became one huge cluster f@#$. Basically we ended up working anywhere from 12-20 hour shifts for less pay and no thanks. Before the merge we were paid $10 ph lame i know but it was a job....now we get paid by the stop which can range from $2 - $4 so basically we are earning less money and working twice the hours. So this morning i got to work to find out I had one of my team removed from our route which meant at least a 20hr day. I am currently in college and due to graduate in May. I lost it this morning lol and told my boss to basically shove the job you know where. Every employee is at breaking point which is not good when t

What Color?
WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? -blue People with blue eyes last the longest in relationships. kind pretty or handsome very good kissers.they always fall in love with there closest friends and never understand why, they are very funny and outgoing and don't care what people think or say,They are very satisfying and love to please. But take special care Not to piss them off! They can EXCEED your pleasure standards. -Green eyes - People with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, they have long lasting relationships. People with green eyes are also the horniest. They long for the touch of another. People with green eves are very sexy and very atractive towards the opposite sex. They are also very sweet and kind. -Brown eyes - STRAIGHT UP PIMPS!!!!!Sexy as hell,people with brown eyes are very attractive, adorable, love to make new friends. Will do anything for that special person. Kind and polite Can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. Best in bed can last up to

Thanks To Lestat's Dark Covenant Family
I just want to send out a sincere thank you to everyone in the family that has welcomed me so quickly and sincerely! It is a pleasure to have been accepted into such a great family!!

Doing It Together!!!!!
"When a community does something together, that community is very happy, jovial, connected and unified." The Indian People have always been able to adapt. If the hunting changed, we found new hunting grounds. If the earth changed, we moved to a better place. If the river changed course, we followed the river. But with every change, we kept our Indianness and spirituality. Our culture and spirituality have always been our strength. Our culture and spirituality taught us to live in harmony. We must change with the times, but we must maintain our culture and spirituality, always living in harmony. Great Spirit, You have taught us to survive. Let me always maintain my Indianness We have always been taught to be able to adapt. Flexibility is related to a willow in the high winds it bends and twists but seldom ever snaps and breaks. Am I a willow? Thank you for having people teach me the lessons of how to survive and be adaptable and flexible. >>~rebelbreed~

The Ring Around The Rosie
Just stashing this here, for more editing. IF YOU ARE EASILY OFFENDED BY DEBATES ABOUT RELIGION, DON'T READ THIS BLOG. The Ring Around the Rosie It is a real work-out these days to separate fact from fiction, with regard to witchcraft in the 13th century, culminating in the Inquisitions. Firstly, modern scholarship has suffered a serious lapse in sobriety, when it continues to accept as fact certain myths. Included in these myths are: a) that there were millions of witches in western Europe and b) that those same millions were persecuted by the Church. The truth is somewhat more mundane. But first, let’s examine the modern hysteria over the whole “witch burning” issue. These theories (rightfully called “fantasies”) were the brainchild of a man named Gerald Gardner, a nudist in England in the forties and fifties who apparently needed a religious reason to engage in nudism. His book, “Witchcraft Today”, published after the anti-witchcraft laws in England were repealed

With Great Expectations
My deep Desires Are growing Deeper within my Thoughts Desperately Awaiting your arrival With great expectations for you To fulfill my sensual Pleasures You only come twice a year And then It’s over so quickly you don’t Give me the opportunity to Savor The taste of your mouth Watering juice Leaving my Mouth With expectations of your Nectar as you Captivate my every Thought of exotic desires Of our encounter Anxiously Waiting to slide my Mouth On your tight buns Dripping With your special sauce Sinking my tongue on Your smelly onion Buns on My Mouth How I love your Delicious Tasting scrumptious Buns that Hold your tantalizing Ri

Random Words Well Placed.
Lips of molten steel, yet soft as feathery down. Memorable moments with a stranger, whom I have known so well. Teeth scrape on skin; claws mar flesh. Good and evil wrapped up in one. Memorable even as I try to forget truth that cannot be denied. Territory marked. Sealed with a kiss. Beaten into submission and made to feel weak. When strength is all you have, the weakness defeats the purpose. Some battles cry out to be fought. Cry HAVOC and let loose the dogs of war. The only option left. The touch is filled with lying intentions. But in the end, it's the only truth. Take my hand and I'll lead you past the briers and the barbs through the garden of discontent that has become a battlefield, littered with the bones of those who came before you... those without the strength... to fight the good fight and win the war. Battlescarred armor and shattered chainmail, bloodridden blades dripping with defeat. Push them aside and move on. If you stumble, I'l

Hmmmmm....
ok how shold i put this? is it stealing if smeone willingly gives you something? my friend jai is divorcing precious cause shs a lying bitch hes tired of all the lies and of course im getting blamed for it because i decided to befriend him... so now im a home wrecker... (now shes accusng him of stealing a car after )altrhough he just bought her a new one... so shes making him out to be a bad personm but is he? would you put up with shit from your loved one who just think of finding ways to hurt you? i wouldnt been there done that and now is putting vicious lies on here about it... Its a buch of crock she does something and funds away to make him out to be the bad guy... im tired of 2 faced ppl who try to play littler mind games and yes i hope she reads this... Jai im sorry if this makes you mad but there it is... give me your iunput my friends what do you think honestly?

Damn It!!!!
My new web site is gone. I was working on it and was in the filemanager and changed the name of a file to be more fitting and now the entire site is gone. I should have left well enough alone. Now I need to figure out what to do from here. Wow... do I feel stupid.

Sugar Coated Pasts...
u know im so sick of ppl gettin pissed off when they hear the truth...they expect some lil sugar coated conversation when they fuck someone over...gee i didnt know it was wrong to be pissed off about bein fucked over...but then again when u got a psycho bitch of an ex who will do anything to fuck u over what else do u do but become the biggest meanest asshole u can think of...im sick of this bs and her lil bitch ass...she likes to play fuckin games and then when her life goes down the tube im suppose to be nice to her fuck that...all i can say is im an asshole i know im an asshole and im sick of sugar coating everything u wanna know who i am i can be the nicest guy...but ppl take it for granted so ppl who deserve it ill be my normal nice self but anyone else u can kiss my ass cause im sick of ur bullshit and if u think im a real big dick for this all i can say is....TY!!!!!

So About Everything Yesterday..
Supposedly I got a strong enough response out of Angel Baby I had some negative things posted about me. I will take responsibility for posting that she was a cheater. I will fish out the Screenshot I have that proves it. We also know Fornicates does this shit, common knowledge on the site. What I was told, from Scrapper, it was a pretty nasty bulletin. He removed hers, and unstuck mine, because it was inciting some very bad words to fly. Violating the TOS. I'm totally for that. I'm just trying to find out what was said about me, and if my email really was posted there.

Voice Message
I have asked a few times but it seems that out of all my friends I only have 2 sweethearts that care enough to take the time and leave me a voice message on my page. I would do the same to all of you. It only takes a few seconds and the number is free. Just call and leave me a message saying hi so I can hear what everyone sounds like. My voice is there already so you can actually hear what a trolldoll sounds like. pleaseeeeeeeeeee!!! See i'm not begging you to Add Me, Fan, Me, Rate Me lol all I want is voice. take care Bren

Could You Really Love Me?
Could you really love me? I know you think you can... When you close your eyes and everything is perfect and unmarred by reality. But... Could you really love me? When life's harsh light shows me not to be the angel you desire? Not so pure, not always true. Could you really love me? When life knocks me down, When my face shows the wear of stress and pain, tears streaked down my cheeks. Could you really love me? When I stumble. When I fall. When I am bruised and battered from my own mistakes. Could you really love me? When I'm not your Goddess from afar. When proximity shows my flaws? Could you really love me then? Or would familiarity breed contempt? Would you laugh as I tumble from the pedestal you placed me on, so far, so high up. And walk away laughing, as I lay broken. Would you love me then? Could you love me then?

Nothing
I WAKE UP AND THE SUN IS SHINING.. I MADE IT THROUGH ANOTHER NIGHT. SCREAMS AND PAIN OF YESTERDAYSTILL FRESH IN MY MIND. WALKING QUIETLY LIKE A MOUSE NOT TO DISTURB. DISTURBING WILL WAKE THE BEAST AND THEN THE FIRE AND WRATH WILL RAIN DOWN. BE QUIET, SO QUIET. TOO LATE- THE BEAST GROWLS THAT MENEAVING GROWL AND I FALL TO MY KNEES. PLEASE GOD PLEASE... PULLING MY HAIR, TEARING MY CLOTHES. I FEEL THE STING OF THE BEAST ON MY FACE. I SCREAM INSIDE.. ONLY INSIDE.. FOR SCREAMING WILL ANGER HIM MORE.. MAKING THE FIRE BRIGHTER IN HIS EYES. OH GOD NO MORE, NO MORE. I AM SO NUMB.. COLD AS ICE.. NOT HERE.. DANCING IN FANTASIES OF A BRIGHTER TIME. THEN I AWAKE.. O FEELING.. NO HEARING.. NO SIGHT.. I AM NOTHING IN NOTHINGNESS.

Dominant One
Dominant one I see your desire written clearly in those beautiful eyes. I smell your lust bleeding from every pore. I tremble in anticipation, my fangs lengthening. My breast tight with hunger , my sex wet with need. I have the strengths of 300 years yet I am dominated by one man. I am a queen among my kind, power radiates from all of me. You approach,smiling,knowing what hold you have upon me. I see the silk dangling from your hand,the glint of steel from your belt. I bow in respect of my dominant,my eyes never leaving your face. Your hand reaching out to push me gently to my knees. I kiss your soft black boots inhaling the sweet oils that I use to shine them. I press myself against the soft touch of your hand. Oh dark one please release me from this tormenting ache for you. The silk slips round my pale wrist, you draw me as high as I can go. My toes barely touching the floor,with a soft command from you I spread my trembling legs. Your hand in my hai

To All My Ct Peeps
*********To all my fans, friends, and Cherrytap families. I will be doing a lot of traveling till March 5th so I may not be on as much. I however will have one of my Marketing Director do my updates and share part of my page. We will do many updates with new pictures and blogs. I occasionally check my page. I’m off to New York, London and Miami. Shopping. Winning, dinning and shopping everywhere. Ah, the true life of a Superstar. If you wish to send me a message please add my name to the Subject line. As they will be all forwarded to me by my Marketing Director.***************** Thanks Miss Brittany

The Evils Of Owning A Lab .. Well Mine Anyway
I've always been an animal lover .. Ive had so many different types of pets .. I was very lucky that my parents allowed us to save abandon animals .. strays .. etc.. well as many of you know I had my yellow lab blondee for 16 years .. she was a save .. she was owned by my dad who after buying her found out he was allergic to the dander in her coat . so .. she came to live with us . and the rest of the story went from there .. Now .. ive got this Neurotic pup named Askem .. He was saved from being put into the pound becuase the people that owned him realized after having him and another lab that they shed .. so .. he was given up .. and the lil monster has been living with me since . I adore him and he's made my life rather intersting to say the least his favorite thing to do is nibble ..he doesnt bite but he will if given the chance nibble on mike .. my pillow the blanket .. dorkvomit .. everything and everyone but me ..Hes become quite the cheese whore thanks to dorkvomit

Not Being On Lately
Just A quick Note to let people who care know I having taking time off of here.There is so much going on in my life.So many changes I want to make,Some of them are going to be trying and very emotional for me. It has come time to worry about me and my daughter.As my daughter gets older I watch what a incredible lady she is becoming. and the one thing I can truly say Is that My children are the one thing in my life I did right.I never had the chance to watch my son grow up.because he died,the worse part is never getting to know the man he would have become.He was taken from me in a daycare drowning.I am not writing this for your pity or sympathy.I am writing this so that those out there thats have children realize that they are a gift NOT a right.How much does it take to tell your child that you love them unconditionally.I need to better my life so that my daughter knows there is nothing she cant do.The REAL friends I have here, I want you to know how much you mean to me.Thank you so m

My Humor
How did the blond explain how his helicopter crashed? He said it was getting cold, so he turned off the ceiling fan. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why did the blond quit his job as a restroom attendant? He couldn't figure out how to refill the hand dryer. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- What do you call blonde twins doing bubble gum commercials? Double-dumb. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- How can you tell if a blonde has been using your lawnmower? The green WELCOME mat is ripped all to shreds. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Three blondes are sitting on a park bench eating ice cream cones. One is sucking hers, one is biting hers, one is licking hers. Which one is married? The one with the wedding ring, YOU SICK-O! -----------------------------------------------------

Happy Birthday Kurt
Happy Birthday Doll.Today you would be 40. You died when I was 13, and 13 years have passed since you died. In October I will be the same age you were when you died. The figures all add up, and the scenario still doesn't. You taught me more in a few months of listening to your music than a lifetime of people and lessons could ever teach me,and I thank you for it. You taught me that even though physically, I was alone, I wasn't really alone. All I had to do was tune out one part and tune in another, hear the music. All I had to do was not let the coldnesstake THAT away from me. They can take my heart, they can take every possession I own, they can take my body, they can take everything, but they can't take my music away from me. They can even put a bullet in YOUR brain, but they can't really take you away from any of us.It has taken me most of 13 years to understand that you aren't really dead. I wish your daughter could be putting a "lordy lordy Kurt is 40" sign somewhere, and razzing

Afraid
I'M NOT SOMEONE SPECIAL, I'M NOT SOMEONE RARE, ALL I EVER WANTED WAS SOMEONE TO CARE, SOMEONE WHO'S LIFE I COULD SHARE. HEARTS CAN BE BROKEN, SO I HAVE DECIDED I DON'T WANT ONE, MY LOVE IS A TOKEN, THAT I GIVE BUT NOT FOR FUN. I TRY TO BE GENTLE AND KIND, LOOKING FOR LOVE BUT SO HARD TO FIN, THE MEN LOOK AT ME FOR SEX, SO THIS IS WHAT I HAVE COME TO EXPECT. WHEN THEY SAY THEY LOVE ME, AND SAY THEY CARE, I AM SO TRUSTING THAT I DON'T SEE, THERE ONLY USING ME, AND LIFE IS'NT FAIR. I DON'T UNDERSTAND MAYBE NIEVE, TO THINK SOMEONE COULD LOVE ME FOR ME, SO WHY DO I CRY WHEN THEY LEAVE, I SHOULD BE USED TO BEING CHEWED UP AND SPIT OUT, GOD WHY DON'T I SEE. I GUESS I'M DESTINED TO BE ALONE, NO NEED TO WAITING BY THE PHONE, NO ONE IS CALLING, NO ONE WILL COME, I GUESS I'M DESTINED TO BE ALONE. XXXX

Having A Bad Day
It's just been a shitty night for me. I hate being the emotional person that I am, does me nothing but harm. Ever hold on to something because you pretty much "know" that there is still something there? Yeah, it sucks, and maybe I need to stop holding on even though I still believe we still have something there. Only girl I've kept talking to now months after breaking up, and I don't know if I can do it much longer I hurt, I really really hurt :'(

My Feet Hurt
so i am going to whine a bit about leaving my house this morning....i didnt want to. i went back to my full time job today after being off for seven months...also after having a baby.i am scheduled for 6 days this week, however i only work 6.5 hours per day so its not too bad. i am in a very fast paced environment where i am on my feet all day and i havent done anything real physical in all the time off because of the pregnancy.i am feeling the atrophy lol...my poor lil muscles just ache. on top of that, i work with a crew of people who are about 10-15 years younger than me, so that adds a little pressure to work harder than them so i can advance...ugh! kicked my ass today! the flip side is that this should progress my "post baby" weight loss by double the current rate of loss!lol i also recieved a very warm welcome from the coworkers,whom i have grown to love and missed very much! they are all wonderful and their smiles made it impossible for me to cry because i missed my baby! :) in

Lovers
as time slips by lovers await a day filled with hope love and devotion destiny is calling like birds in the sky they float along with the breeze no worries no cares love overpowers all wasted days and wasted nights memories are dying loves you lost loves you still long for finally the day arrives i do is all we say forever we shall be lovers

If Tomorrow Never Comes
ALWAYS SAY I LOVE YOU, TO THOSE HELD IN YOUR HEART, FOR TOMORROW MAY NOT COME... HOLD THEM CLOSE AND DON'T LET GO, HUG THEM, KISS THEM, HOLD THEM DEAR, SAY I LOVE YOU, LET THEM KNOW, ALWAYS LET YOUR FEELINGS SHOW. FOR TOMORROW MAY NEVER COME IF THEY PASSED IN THE NIGHT, AND THEY WHERE NO LONGER THERE, AND THERE BODY EMPTY, JUST LIKE A COLD STARE, COULD YOU HONESTLY SAY THEY LEFT, KNOWING YOU LOVED THEM, KNOWING YOU CARED. TOMORROW MAY NOT COME SO TO MY FRIENDS I SAY LUV YA TO THE SPECIAL FEW I SAY "I LOVE YOU". SO IF I'M GONE TOMORROW, YOU WILL ALL KNOW, I LOVE YOU, REMEMBER, IN YOUR TIME OF SORROW FOR TOMORROW MAY NOT COME. I LOVE YOU I CARE FOREVER AND ALWAYS I WILL BE THERE XXXX ANGEL

I Am A Jerk For What I Did!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The one thing that I swear I would never do I did today and now I need to come clean about it. I hurt the one person that I care about some much that she doesn't even want to talk to me anymore. I lied to this person and shouldn't have and for that I am truely sorry. On the Friday before New Year's I got a blow job from someone and then proceeded to go over to her house to hang out with her. She was then hit up by someone else online how told her about it and I lied to her and said it wasn't true. Well it has been eating at me for the last 2 months and now it is out in the open. I know that I was wrong and for this I will pay dearly for because I lost the greatest thing in my life forever. Thier is no excuses for what I did and thier never will be. All I can do is take my licks and be yelled at by everyone about it. I will never get back what I lost and I know everyone is going to tell me I told you so but it needs to be said and everyone needs to know how much of a Jerk I

Turned On In A Wierd Way
Don't ask why.. it just turns me on in some sick twisted way... and it sounds like...armageddon sounds like...armageddon sounds like...cum & drink with me .... cum & drink with me and I remember him fucking me. and I remember liking it I didn't know any better, and I remember the smell, and the pain, & the shame and I remember being afraid and thinking everyday--- every single day that it was my fault... oh but what happened to that little girl, who used to dream of one day ruling the world, who used to draw pretty pictures, in my room---beneath the moon destroying to create softly praying to god, what do I do now? what do I do now? as I secretly masturbate... but then I'd hear his hooves coming down the floor with a bible in his hand... softly opening my door and he'd say... DAUGHTER! the day of your atonement is due! well there's 3 million sinners out there... and that includes YOU! no daddy don't! (2x) LEAVE ME ALOOOOONE! (3x) NO

One Thing That Pisses Me Off To No End!
OK...There are somethings that will piss me off, yet I will let it slide right by. There is one thing, that I just can't sit back and let it slide like water off of a seal's back. I was watching an episode of "Dog The Bounty Hunter" and I saw a guy they busted for assault and battery...ON HIS EX-GIRLFRIEND. Let's just say that 53 year old was in a far different location than I was...not just in the physical sense, but mentally too! I can't stand men who beat up on women just because you're drunk(cop-out), you're bigger and stronger(you suck) or my personal favorite, a woman is "his property." (Where's the sales receipt?) I'm going to go on record and if this gets me kicked out of CT, then fine...I stand up for what I believe in. Let me find out a man is beating up a woman. I don't care if I know the girl or not. If he's such a big man....BEAT ME UP! It's a hell of lot different than him beating up the girl. Most women will not fight back. I WON'T HESITATE TO DO SO!

Woes Of The Company Computer Guy (a Play)
The company computer guy is sitting in his office, checking out his message on Cherry Tap when he receives an alert that a trouble ticket has been assigned to him. He sighs sadly and switches windows to his I-Support program. The ticket reads: \"pc shuts down on its own...It does tell her we are sorry for the inconvienance. This is a HP laptop.\" The computer guy prints out the trouble ticket and heads out to check the laptop. When he arrives, he sees that the laptop is stuck in an endless reboot. The error message that comes up reads: \"system32ntoskrnl.exe is missing or damaged. Please reinstall.\" On a whim, the computer guy tries \"Use last known configuration that worked\" from the boot menu and is delighted to see that the laptop boots into Windoes and lets him login. This is only the second time in 8 years of employment that this option has worked for him. Just then the customer enters her office. Customer: I see you got it to work! That\'s great! Computer Guy

Scared
hi everyone plz no one worry last night i went to the hospital... and the doctors told me my kidneys are failing... now i might have surgery next week... so i ask each and every person i know here plz pray for me but if i do go away i want you guys to know that i would be leaving happy that i met all you guys hope everything goes great in life for all you

Clown School!
I know you were all expecting my big STD blog today, but I've decided to hold off on that for the moment. But right now, one thing I'd like to talk about it fucking Claire Adams! Can I just say that she turned me on SO bad today in her scene with Steve. All without even having his dick inside any of her holes! It was amazing. She used her hands and her feet. And that's it! She had Steve by the balls, literally! She was being THE biggest tease and I fucking loved it! It's not everyday that I shoot a scene where two people are completely turned on by each other. I mean, there are great performers out there, and then there are people like Claire and Steve. Man, if only there were more people like these two in this industry. My panties would be wet all day long. Just look at the way this girl bends. Did you know she went to clown school? You guys thought I was flexible, I'm nothing compared to this one! I'm pretty sure she could probably bend herself directly in half so her ass chee

40 Days And 40 Nights.....
This year I planned to go all out. I was going to give up the boozes, or maybe go the movie route and give of sex and masterbation...... but then I got a phone call...... You have to read "why do I work?".... so now the Feds want to take an extra 15% out of my paycheck because I make so much. I mean, 12k a year goes so far. They did say they would settle for $100 a month. Anyway, as of this writing I am giving up food. All I will do is drink water for 40 days and 40 nights. Guess we will see how long I will last before I do not wake up. How else can I live off $71 a month after all my bills and taxes. Those of you who read this think I am bluffing do not know me very well. I am very thick headed and just do not really care anymore. I mean, does the Government really think that if they suck me dry of any money I do not make and force me to live out of a box that they will get their money? No! They will just kick you in the balls and get what they can till I am dead. So I figure I

Thank You
Your love for me Has always been true. No matter what I seem to do. I turned my back, a million times. Thinking I could do things Without you by my side. I struggled all the while, Thinking that you loved me no more. Always living in denial, Hurting myself to the core. Until one say I will realize, That without you I am blind. And though I struggle all the time, You were never far behind. Always there to catch me if I fell, Never interfearing in my life. For you are a gentleman, as they tell Waiting patiently for me. To ask you to forgive me, Invite you to cleanse my soul. Show me the life you see, the me you want to grow. So, Lord, I'll thank you, Each and every passing day. I'll do the things you want me to, And face anything that comes my way. Because I know one thing is true, You will never give me more. Than I could ever handle, As long as I have you. © Alicia Marin

Wtf People...
OK, here's my latest adventure here on CherryTap. To start out it goes like this... When I browse profiles and see someone I might like to rate in a positive way and even get to know I do 2 things. I rate them a 10 and I Fan them. It kind of gives them notice they caught my eye and I can find them again from my Fan list. I don't ask them to come leave me votes or anything. So I don't see anything unfair about that ok? So this person (Click below) is one I did that with. Next thing I know I get the following e-mail. http://www.cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=47207&albumid=239647&i=3068522688# Hey hun...wanna do me a favor? Click on that link and leave me tons of comments on that photo. It's for a contest... You're a doll...thanks hun! *mwah* So needless to say I am a bit stunned thinking... you don't even say Hi and think I have no life but to leave TONS of comments for her contest. Gee.. Sorry. So I clicked REPLY and sent this e-mail back. Kind of Funny

Why Does No One Care 4 Me?
I have all these "friends" and when I ask for a little help I never get it!! Out of all these ppl on my list MAYBE 10 help me when I ask! I help ANYONE who asks me :( I just don't get it.

Friend Sent Me This.
WHY CONDOMS COME IN BOXES OF 3,6,12 A man walks into a drug store with his 8-year old son. They happen to walk by the condom display, and the boy asks,"What are these, Dad? To which The man matter-of-factly replies, "Those are called condoms, son. Men use them to have safe sex.""Oh I see," replied the boy pensively. Yes, I've heard of that in health class at school." He looks over the display and picks up a package of 3 and asks, "Why are there 3 in this package? " The dad replies,"Those are for high school boys, ONE for Friday, ONE for Saturday, and ONE for Sunday." "Cool" says the boy. He notices a 6 pack and asks, "Then who are these for?" "Those are for college men," the dad answers, TWO for Friday, TWO for Saturday, and TWO for Sunday." "WOW!" exclaimed the boy, "then who uses THESE?" he asks, picking up a 12 pack! With a sigh and a tear in his eye, the dad replied, "Those are for the married men. ONE for January, ONE for Fe

Deadly Kiss
I can't believe the shit you put me through, Everything is gone because of you. The pain tares at my heart, As the guilt tares you apart. I thought I was special to you, But I was a joke that didn't fall through. You became the very thing I was scared of, As you realized I was falling in love. You didn't care about the mistake you made, Because our relationship was your trade. At first I didn't feel any pain, Until I got slapped by reality yet again. You got what you desired, But at a price that would put out the fire. It still doesn't make sense to me, As to why you didn't try and see. What could happen when you walked through those doors, Cause now I am sitting alone on the floor. I need to know if it was worth it, If this pain I have, made you feel alive, even for just a little bit. Please tell me if everything that was lost, Was worth what it cost. If the tears I cry, Is what you wanted when you didn't lie. I need to know, So I can

Not My Style....but I Have Had Enough
I'M NOT GOING TO ACCUSE ANYONE OF ANYTHING HERE BUT I WILL LET YOU BE THE JUDGES ON THIS. WILL ONE OF YOU POST A SALUTE????? babi@ CherryTAP DJ ♥ Kitty Purr ♥ »ELLE« PhoeniXXX Radio@ CherryTAP 278738@ CherryTAP ELLE'S PREVIOUS ACCOUT ELLE'S ATTEMPT AT A SALUTE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU GO HMMMMMMMMM JUST REMEMBER I HAVEN'T ACCUSED ANYONE OF ANYTHING I'M LEAVING THAT FOR YOU TO DECIDE.....

Passion
Her passion took me From part of the way, To most of the way, To all the way; From the raging rapids To the waterfall, To calmer waters, To the still beneath. From seeing, To knowing, To feeling, To being Good, Better, Best. From nothing, To something, To everything; Without fear, Without judgment, Without hesitation; With honesty, With hope, With passion. Her passion took me To the place Where words stop short, A place beyond thought. Showing herself to me, Ourselves to us, And me to myself; All with passion.

Choosing A Wife
A man wanted to get married. He was having trouble choosing among three likely candidates. He gives each woman a present of $5,000 and watches to see what they do with the money. The first does a total make over. She goes to a fancy beauty salon gets her hair done, new make up and buys several new outfits and dresses up very nicely for the man. She tells him that she has done this to be more attractive for him because she loves him so much. The man was impressed. The second goes shopping to buy the man gifts. She gets him a new set of golf clubs, some new gizmos for his computer, and some expensive clothes. As she presents these gifts, she tells him that she has spent all the money on him because she loves him so much. Again, the man is impressed. The third invests the money in the stock market. She earns several times the $5,000. She gives him back his $5,000 and reinvests the remainder in a joint account. She tells him that she wants to save for

Going To Scream
ugh. i have no life. i did a 12 hour clinical shift, work 9 hours tomorrow, and school all day friday and work all friday night and sat night. plus i have homework due monday for midterms going to scream or have a breakdown wish me the best- catching up on homework

Am I Obligated?
So recently my mom set me up with her co-workers stepson, Brian... He seemed nice so after talking on the phone with him a few times I met him. He took me out to a nice restaurant and then for a couple drinks afterward. I was thinking it was going well! But then.. I don't know but he started putting the moves on... STRONG! He started trying to hold my hand and kiss me before we left the martini bar... I was a bit buzzed (ok mildly drunk lol) and so I let him, thinking ok whatever... Well for one... he kissed me like he was kissing his grandmother. I don't like weak ass kissing.. but at the same time I don't want to be mauled lol... It just didnt do it for me. So he took me back to my place and immediatly got out to go up to my house.. At this point I'm drunk and I honestly just want to go inside and go to bed. He invites himself inside. I don't want to seem like a total biatch... So we went inside. I got out a totally non-romantic, non sexy dvd (the movie Supersize Me) and put

What We Had
What We Had By Steven Cook I gave you everything I had to give Is my life over or can I live With these built up emotions and shattered dreams Telling myself, your not that obscene You walked away like you had nothing to lose At that moment I was depressed and confused Your strong and your beautiful, you’ll make it in time Only to realize, wake up and find That the man of your dreams that you had in your grasp Was the man that you had left in your past You’ll soon start to wonder and ask yourself why When the man that your with wipes the tear from your eye He’ll never know the truth about why that tear fell You’ll be sad and depressed and let your mind dwell You’ll think of me often about how I was true And how I should’ve been the one for you Its to late now you my dreams have been shattered One lucky girl will help me put them back together

Beer Guts...it Just Isn't Happening Dude!!
You know what people? I get sick and tired of seeing women put themselves down or go out of their way to please men. What the hell makes them so god damn special anyway? Lets get this straight. We're suppose to be 5'8", 125 pounds and blonde. Why are women so hell bent on trying to be something they're not? Hey, if this describes you, great! Now get the fuck out of here so the rest of us can discuss! What amazes me is this. The majority of men that demand this type of woman are so fucking gross it isn't even funny. They have these big ass beer guts and they're going to tell us what looks good? They have to get a mirror just to choke the chicken and I have to depend on them to know if I look good? Please turds! They haven't seen their own dicks in years. They couldn't get laid even if they had $100.00, standing on a street corner where hookers were giving $5.00 blowjobs. These men have no fucking right to tell anyone what looks good, much less, goggle and slober on th

Something Very Simple.
i should write something very simple. so that it might make sense, to the folks. i should write something very simple. so they'll all laugh @ my stupid jokes. but saying something simple, isn't as easy as it seems... when you'd rather go on and on, about monday's distant dreams... about hippo-chasing-baby-hosing-masochistic-bears, or fat old grammas, wearing loincloths, in rusty old lawnchairs. or drooling zombie-slingshot-weilding frat boys eating chew. and bible-thumping-jesus-humpers reading taming of the shrew. so it may not make a lot of sense, when i go on about the 'puddle-doom'. but it's much easier not to make sense... than to hear the voices in the room ;) (there Zeke, make more sense than the rest? HAHAHA)

The Black Sea - May 2004
The Black Sea - May 2004 Posted Date: Tuesday, December 27, 2005 - 2:19 PM Every now and then I get on what I call a NASA Imagery kick. The very hi-res pictures that NASA makes available piques my interest and captures my attention. I hope you enjoy them too...here's one of a couple I found to be exceptional. Phytoplankton blooms and plumes of sediment form the bright blue swirls that ring the Black Sea in this Moderate Resolution Imaging Spectroradiomete (MODIS) image. Sediment flows into the sea through the vast network of rivers that empty into it. The sediment tints the water tan near the mouth of the river and green as the dirt diffuses through the water. In this image, sediment clouds the Sea of Azov in the upper right corner of the image. Two powerful rivers, the Don and the Kuban, flow into the shallow sea, depositing silt in the waters. Sediment is not the only thing that flows into the Black Sea on river water. Some of Europe’ largest rivers also deposit fertilizer

Change
Well, tonight I was talking to a really good friend of a really good friend of mine. No Names will Be Mentioned in this work of art! We never really talked that much..but I thought I'd say hi. We talked for a bit...and then got my assed drilled. It was kind of uncomfortable..but it made so much sence. A chapter in my life that I dont care to discuss publicly has made an influence on me that I didnt see. I never woulda thunk it...until tonight. "I have found the enemy and he is me." I was shown a flaw in my character that is in the long run for the worst. I pride myself for being an honest person, hard working, and devoted. With all that being said...I am correcting the flaw, it may take some time...but will be worth the time and effort. I am not perfect and in no way will ever be. But!!! I can however, give it a run for the money. "Shoot for the moon, but strive for the stars."

A Little Of My Erotic Mind Before I Go To Bed
Sometimes I just lay in bed at night and imagine your lips on my neck. Your hands rubbing my round ass, as your finger tips trace up my back and over my shoulders. Your hands working their way to my front as I raise up enough to let your hands under me. Cupping my breasts as your fingers work their way around to my nipples. Pinching and rubbing. Your lips pressed against me as I raise my ass up so it presses against you, exposing more of my breasts, so you can cup them more. My head laying down on the pillows as your hands start to explore more of me. Tracing down my back once again to my panties. You place one hand on my hip as the other hand explores the heat that is placed inbetween my thighs. Your fingers tracing my plump lips through my panties, feeling my wetness, as you rub a little harder. Moaning breezes past my lips as you listen to me. You can feel my heart pounding through out my body. Every where you touch, I respond with a moan, or a move, or both at the sa

Meet Greasemonkey Folks
these are the 2 morons that brought greasemonkey here so now u know who to thank for fucking the site up ~♥Temptress~!check out my stash and add urself to my guestbook!@ CherryTAP SpiffyCool@ CherryTAP now you all know id never post an adress but i had to say it anyway cause im an ass but spiffy cool is the jerrkoff that made the greasemonkey acording to him so now things had to be changed on the site and it takes longer to rate because of him and her so heres the shout ill blog it too for all future reference so you know who to thank for fuckin the site up the one from the convo is right in the lower box ->~♥Te...: ok bye ~♥Te...: i fiued you knew from his yahoo name ->~♥Te...: ah ok well ill be removing me cause i got all personal info on your addy and stuff and will prolly post it since he wont stop so ill tty another time ~♥Te...: no wonder u havent removd me yet then lol ~♥Te...: spiffycool ->~♥Te...: ive only

Dated Feb 22nd Poem
Sunset That night i stood alone watching the sky turn blood red as the sun set down on me for the last time I looked down at my hands beaten and bloodied from a long life of work and i bring them to my face trying to wipe away the dirt and grime trying to erase the years of pain a single tear falls clearing a path along my face Drained of everything numb except for pain and sorrow lost within my own dreams shattered and useless I walked away not looking back By Jason Hartle

A Gothic Slave ~ Written By M'lord Lestat
A dark lady that roams endlessly through the night, She bows to her one true master that completes her life, She is a slave to none yet a slave to one, The one she searches for relentlessly under the moon or sun, She longs to feel his embrace to take her from from this place, She calls to him even though yet hes not there, She wanders through the shadows of darkness that only she can share, It calls to her and calms her fast beating heart, Knowing that no matter what the shadows that comfort her will never part, She continues to search for the one master that will call her his own, Through her darkened eyes and the chill felt in her bones, She feels his presence as he begins to stare deep into her soul, Then she falls completely under his control, She has longed for his touch and waited for this day, When her master would finally come and take her away, Yes master, She says I am yours to control, Bend me, break me, make me feel it deep within my soul, Then all of a sud

Beware:dave92100 **alert**
just want to warn all of you,for what ever reason, a friend of mine was treated extremely rude,on a shout this morning!! dave92100 approached her on the shout,and told her she was ugly and small!!and to go back to her husband!!all this I understand because he was "stroking himself" and wanted to to have cam sex!! she said she wasnt interested,and it seems he didnt like "refusal"!! another lady was confronted yesterday,by this same man!!treated the same way!! so just be very careful who we talk to,and who we add!!!there are SO MANY WEIRDOS AND JERKS,on every chat site. hope you dont get attacked too!!!

Balloon Fetish Video
Okay this is stange but people in the past have liked it. If anyone out there is interested in purchasing a video of me in bathing suits and lingerie with balloons let me know. NO NUDITY is invovled. I am bouncing on them, blowing them up, popping them, blowing them up until they pop ect. This is a pre order if I get enough pre orders I will sell them. Just need to let me know if you are interested or pass my info along. M

Moral Of The Story
Perched in a treetop, old Mister Crow was holding a cheese in his beak. Drawn by the stench, Mister Fox, down below peered up, then proceeded to speak. "Well, hello, fair Sir Crow! Lovely day! How you dazzle my eyes! How rare your display! Not to lie, if your voice is as fine as the cut of your wing, I'll know you're the Phoenix reborn in these woods!" At these words, the old Crow became giddy with pleasure and, thinking to prove his voice a treasure he opened his big beak and promptly dropped the goods. Fox pounced upon his prize and said "My dear, dear sir, learn now that every flatterer lives at the cost of those who give him credit. that lesson's worth a cheese, no doubt, so don't forget it!" The Crow, in shame and chagrin, SWORE, a bit late, never again to be taken in.

More About Me.
I was born the youngest of 4 kids a very long time ago. I had a normal childhood except for coming down with polio at the age of three. With the help of my family, a few good doctors, and the man up stairs I pretty much got over polio and after two years went back to being a regular kid. Polio left me with a weak leg that required a brace on it for me to walk and a damaged right lung plus a few other things I will not bore you with. I grew up on our family farm then after college I went to work for a local company as an accountant. I moved to North Carolina for ten years during the 80’s as the head accountant for a branch plant for the same company. I worked hard for the first 5 years then after getting all the systems in place I had it fairly easy the last 5 years. I retired from work in late 1989 because I was getting too weak to do the job the way it should be done. Then in February of 1990 my lung just gave out on me, as a result of havening had polio. I’ve been on the respirato

So Im Notorious
for odd out there dreams, but today i slept in, and i had a dream with more twists and turns in it then a horror movie haha i was with a bunch of my good friends from junior high at a bar, but the odd thing is her parents and little sisters were there, but i was holding stephainie, only thing is shes 14 now haha first major oddball thing, tiff was downing shots nothing out of the ordinary there, next thing i know were in some bust station or something like that, i still have steph in my arms so im scrambling arroud trying to find her parents i find bill and hes on some bus and tells me to find julie so i run trying to find her and shes just pulling away so im trying to figgure out whats going on so i find my friend mike and hes gonna take us home, but for some reason steph and i are back in the building and theres a pit bull that greatly resembled angel runs up and i pet the dog, and then it runs ahead and stops dead in its tracks and starts pawing at this one place in the floor and

Age
WELL IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TOMARROW!! I'LL BE 44 YEARS OLD.I HAVE LEAD A LONG AND ROUGH LIFE IN THESE 44 YEARS. I HAVE LIVED THE DRUG LIFE FOR 22 YEARS AND LIVED THE HALF WAY HOUSE LIFE FOR 1 1/2 YEARS AND THAT WAS THE BEST TIME IN MY LIFE THE DAY I FOUND OUT I WAS GOING IN IS THE SAME DAY I FOUND OUT I WAS GOING TO BE GRANDMOTHER. IT BOTHERED ME FOR THE FACT OF BEING A GRANDMA BOTHERED ME BUT THE DAY MY GRANDDAUGHTER WAS BORN I WAS THERE IN THE ROOM. I WAS CLEAN OF ALL DRUGS THEN AND HAVE BEEN SINCE, GRANDDAUGHTER WILL BE 3 IN MARCH, AND I ALSO NOW HAVE A 5 MONTH OLD GRANDSON. AGE HAS JUST BECOME A NUMBER TO ME BUT IT BRINGS ANOTHER YEAR CLEAN FOR ME ALSO. CK MY PICS OUT AND YOU WIIL SEE MY WORLD THAT KEEPS ME LIVEING A CLEAN LIFE!!!!

The Pain In My Heart
I knew it for some time this was coming but closure is always painful. The Love I have in my heart for someone has been completely ripped from my soul....I spend hours and days in tears wondering "why" would this be? I have done nothing but been honest, open, loving and understanding...When he hurt..I felt his pain..the connection is so strong. Aching I opened the mail this morning for "That" letter..painfully I read feeling my eyes swell with tears. "I Love you and miss you and long for your touch" is the phrase that made all the tears flow down my face. Never did I think that kind of pain was possible more than once in my life. Reeling from the ex husband and ex fionce who shattered me emotionally in the past I vowed never to have anyone hold my heart in that manner again. Much to my consternation I find myself back in the pits of agony. I learned in my life one thing....The definition of insanity is doing the same thing repeatedly and expecting different results. At this point

Hope I Succeed This Time
I am so sorry I am not around much these days and when I am I don't have much to say...I am going through hell again everybody...I am in a battle within myself and don't know if I will win this time or not...I have deleted alot of stuff and made my pics private, I have not blocked anyone...If you no longer see yourself on my friends list, that's because I haven't heard from you since accepting your friend request, if you would like to be on it send a new one...I just figure no one cares any way...Now I am a number, and not a name...some one asked why, that's all I feel like at the time...I hopefully will be back on a little more as I beat the demons but I have no one to talk to and don't have means to go to a dr., Soooo, I just battle within myself...My head says just give up, but my heart won't let me...Just please keep me in your prayers and please continue to show me that love ya'll are so good at.... I know that not many people will read this, but for those who are truly my frie

Sway
Sway Don't stray, don't ever go away I should be much too smart for this You know it gets the better of me Sometimes, when you and I collide I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time Don't let me drown, let me down I say it's all because of you And here I go, losing my control I'm practising your name so I can say it to your face It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye Let all the things you mean to me Come tumbling out my mouth Indeed it's time to tell you why I say it’s infinitely true Say you'll stay, don't come and go Like you do Sway my way, yeah I need to know All about you And there's no cure, and no way to be sure Why everything's turned inside out Instilling so much doubt It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired My head is battling with my heart My logic has been torn apart And now it all turns sour Come sweeten every afternoon Say you'll stay, don't come and go Like you do Sway my way, yeah I need to know All about you

It's All Beyond Me!!
I have never had a problem with guys on this site until 2 days ago, and hell I've been here a while now. In 2 days I've had 3 arseholes, OK the first I have my suspicions that he's a romance scammer, that was the bizarre convo the other night! and today 2 utter morons that don't seem to get the message, but I'm the bad one!! I'm the nasty bitch that apparently won't do this, or do that! Now I'm a racist because I didn't say hello to someone. Apparently I don't like him because he's black hmmm it has nothing to do with the fact I have HOW many friends? and saying hello to all of them (even though I try my best!) is ni on impossible! I don't actually like him because he's an over bearing, control freak and I picked that one up the minute he first said hello in my SB! I should have hit block then but no; I'm too bleedin polite! Well guess what I ain't fuckin sorry! I'm not sorry that I'm married, I'm not sorry that I have Kids, I'm not sorry that I don't cyber or cam!!

What Is Wrong With People
what the fuck is wrong with people on CT...I just read a bulletin about some twit crying because some of their friends aren't voting for them so this person is deleting the ones that didn't vote....Here I thought this site was to meet cool people not about fucking voting or else bullshit....I swear some people were better being swallowed then being allowed to breathe but hey thats my opinion Have a lovely day Draco

One More Diganosis Form My Docs About My Neck
Well i had one more appointment scheduled another set of injections, but the doctors decided to add something to it. They now beleive the rason for everythign is i have degenerative disc disease. Not to say its a real disease but it basically means, itll come back more then likely and that i may not be able to wrestle ever again......So on top of my job going bankrupt and being broke...... rents due and student loans to worry about...... im massively depressed.... dunno what i will do anymore.. pretty much have nothing and no one left

Emptyness....
My god life sucks.... Once again my dark side comes back. My surgery was postponed...Yet again! So I have to wait, I am not a priority anymore. I feel pain, desperate, hurting, empty... Like no one cares about me. I stand in front of my mirror last night with a blade wondering if anyone would miss me if I went away. I wanted to join my best friend in the after life.... But, I didn't. Maybe a am too coward to do such a thing....

Who Are You?
Ladies Only ... Which Movie Star Are You? This is kind of fun! Ever wonder which movie star you are most like? Don't read ahead please! Well ~ A team of researchers got together and analyzed the personalities of movie stars. The gathered info has been incorporated into this quiz. There are only 10 questions so it doesn't take long. Number your paper from 1 to 10, then answer each question with the choice that most describes you at this point in your life , and then add up the points that correspond with your answers. Send this to all of your friends ( including person who sent it to you) with your star's name in the subject line. Now . Don't look ahead or you will ruin the fun! 1. Which describes your perfect date? a) Candlelight dinner for two b) Amusement Park c) Roller blading in the park d) Rock Concert e) Have dinner & see a movie f) Dinner at home with a loved one 2. What is your favorite type of music? a) Rock and Roll b) Alte

Remember Our Veterans
REMEMBER OUR VETERANS EVERY DAY AND GIVE A LITTLE PRAYER. THEY ARE THE ONES YOU SHOULD THANK FOR THE FREEDOM YOU NOW SHARE. HONOR THE MEMORY OF THE ONES WHO DIED THEY DEID FOR YOU AND ME. AND THANK THE VETERANS WHO STILL LIVE THEY ALL KEPT OUR COUNTRY FREE. A THANK YOU DOESN'T SEEM LIKE MUCH BUT IT'S ALL THAT WE CAN SAY. OUR THOUGHTS, OUR HEARTS AND FEEELINGS GO OUT TO YOU EACH DAY. GOD BLESS YOU FOR ALL YOU'VE DONE

Rip It Out
come on, do it. Take it, take it all. why not? you took my mind, my soul....ripped out my heart. everytime you touched another woman, you took a piece of me. I am now left with nothing..no self esteem...nothing. It took me yeaqrs to build one from my fucked up child hood and you took it away from me in 6 yrs. why are you still with me? to punish me? to kill me softly? i will never heal this time..never. i will always be a nothing....thank you.

Alone At The Beach -- My New Poem
Alone On The Beach The beach is not the same Sunsets we used to watch are not as beautiful The reds and golds are now shades of grey Ever moving toward black Their fire turns to ice before me Sounds of the waves Rhythm to our songs Blend into nothingness Eventually fading into nothing Birds no longer fly above The sky is empty and dead Other people laugh and kiss I watch them as we often did We joked Wondering if they were talking about us My hand reaches out for you Where your hand always was Hand prints we left on so many nights Gone in the cool summer breeze There is nothing left but sand A thousand memories And my tears

Midnight Angel......angel Of The Morning...
Beauty is whatever we make of it. To me you are a beauty. But more so is your are not only beautiful. But you are truly my kind of wonderful. I think of you when someone says that's pretty. Or that is beautiful. You come to mind. Because you are the beauty I know. Who I can only see as so... You make the "word" beauty your own by far. I think you are so beautiful. You are the beauty that makes my world shine. You fill my world with beauty and happiness. From the tainted darkness of my once gray heart. From my dark and cold ice that was once my heart. Is now fluttered with beauty. The beauty you bring to the world. You bring to me. My world with you in it. Is a world that is a place I can be happy to be in. A place I never ever want to leave. Your beauty could light up the nights sky ever so bright. My night and every night with you. Has the brightest star. The brightest star that shines ever so bright. That glows oh so heavenly. The kind of glow that ma

Pretending
Started with a tiny flirt, a smile it did bring, you have always been there. when storm clouds unleash the rain, you are so easy to talk to, I have told you everything, all my hopes and wises, all my fears and pains, you say that you love me, I believe it's true, We have plans for our forever, I gave my heart to you, we promised to find a way, to always make it through, nomatter what life holds, I'll face it all with you, I will love and trust you, give you my everything, but before we take the next step, there is something I need to know, Is your love for me real, or are you just... Pretending?? Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Will You???
I saw you in a dream,so real yet not,do i dare touch,fearing to be caught,will u disappear?can i read wot ur thinkin?your thawts your deeds your thinkin?can i touch you,can i feel you?or will you disappear?do you feel me,do you see me?or will you disappear?can u feel my tears,can u hear me calling?can you feel my touch?or will u disappear?fade into a dream as shadows on a wall,whispers in the night 2 aafraid 2 call,can you hear me tell you ill love you all my life,or will u disappear?angry words are spoken,upsettin tears and strife,can u feel me wanting,lying in your arms savin me from all harm,will this all become real..............or will you disappear??

A New Weight-loss Program
Subject: A Successful Weight Loss Program A guy calls a company and orders their 5-day, 10 lb. weight loss program. The next day, there's a knock on the door and there stands before him a voluptuous, athletic, 19 year old babe dressed in nothing but a pair of Nike running shoes and a sign round her neck. She introduces herself as a representative of the weight loss company. The sign reads: "If you can catch me, you can have me." Without a second thought, he takes off after her. A few miles later, huffing and puffing, he finally catches her and has his way with her. The same girl shows up for the next four days and the same thing happens. On the fifth day, he weighs himself and is delighted to find he has lost 10 lbs., as promised. He then calls the company and orders their 5-day/20 pound program. The next day there's a knock at the door and there stands the most stunning, beautiful, sexy woman he has ever seen in his life. She is wearing nothing but

9 When You Get Weary Walking
The reaction to these blogs is getting weaker every day so I'm probably not going to continue them any longer. If any of you are counting on them for a program you're putting together, let me know and I can help you out. A lot of these things I'm writing are in my book "Motivation, Get it, Keep it" too. Now on to the potentially last blog on fitness. As you are going along on your walks there are probably going to be times when you just don’t have a real enthusiastic outlook on what you’re doing. I’ve run into this with both walking and running and it tends to take the normal fun out of the activity. One of the things that I learned over my years is that if you pick up the pace or change what you’re doing just a little bit you will come out the other side feeling better. Let me explain. Say for example that you’re walking along and it seems like a pain in the neck, your calves are getting stiff, or it’s taking more effort than it should. Now this is going to sound comple

Ugh.
I have to go to a surgen today and i really don't want to cause its going to hurt like hell. The broken ankle thing hurts :( The pain killers don't work. Nothing helps. And i just want to cry :( Ouchies. ♥ ♥ ♥ Rate my blog please. I don't have enough energy to write more.

Fighting
A hand on my side your words in my face tell me why love is an eternal bond you make it a test everytime you tell me you dont love me i know its not true hearts have collided more than once but still we make it through i dream about flying away like peter pan in the air but everytime it seems your lies bring back down to earth a ball and chain im shackled at your side i try to break free i want to fly fighting is a way for frustrations to break free sometimes i wish our lives werent you and me remember the words we said on that glorious day till death do us part is the life i must obey a death of a soul a life of a heart i hope this fighting will end so we can make a new start

I Cant Get This Damn Song Outta My Head
soo i heard the fresh prince song this morning and now i cant flippin get it out of my head!!! ITs freakin funny tho!! i thought it was nice for my first blog to talk bout the original fresh prince! LOL! everyone knows that song its like insane how many ppl sing it and how many remember it!!! well *hugz*

Loved This...borrowed From A Friend!
Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you

Tower In The Sky
It was but yesterday we met in a dream. You have sung to me in my aloneness, and I of your longings have built a tower in the sky. But now our sleep has fled and our dream is over, and it is no longer dawn. The noontide is upon us and our half waking has turned to fuller day, and we must part. If in the twilight of memory we should meet once more, we shall speak again together and you shall sing to me a deeper song. And if our hands should meet in another dream, we shall build another tower in the sky.

Kids Who Cant Sing
can someone please explain to me who would actually buy that kids bop crap? its a bunch of songs sung by kids singing off key and that naked brothers band show, gawd someone put me out of my misery rhetorical questions really but if someone can shed some light, please do

How Rude.
If I committed a crime against a toilet like the one I encountered when I went into the men's room today, I would either try to hide the evidence or turn myself in. I just can't accept the premise that going to the bathroom is that tricky a proposition.

Who Will Read This?
I am horny.. I want have several sex tonight!!! would you lick my wet pussy? I would suck ur cock I want ur hot cum all over on my face, in my mouth so I can swallow it whole.. I want spanking ur ass until ur ass become red.. stratch ur back until it bled or not. ;) what else. I would say lots more.. I might bite you ;) gotcha.. get ur attention ;) I will know who would read this kinky blog :P

Beneath A Silver Moon The Wind
Beneath a Silver Moon the Wind Beneath the silver moon As Wind I danced on crisp white snow I wore her as a jewel on me For everyone I know I swept into the shadows A silent drifting light As I became the song from the horned owl rising into a starry night To wisk into the grey wolf Panting hot and cold white mist against the chilling air Was pleasant and love kissed I came to stalk the one Who silenced me with rain I came to fly with ease A dragon I became Spit-Fire from a flaming sun And Earth Oh how I dwelled Beneath a Silver Moon The magickal muse concealed A spiralling I go Across the ice my breath Beneath a Silver Moon the Wind And Babe hath come to rest To bring the fruit And plant the seed Upon the wind and the moon Into my Breath a Goddess Oh come she may yet soon! For I am the Wind Each Breath I am Beneath the Silver Moon! © 2007 Lori Foster/Rain 7:13 Waxing to Full

A Promise To Everyone
I have some wonderful friends on here, i really truely mean that. I been talking to some of yall today and alot of yall r concerned bout mt me not taking enough time to rest, exspecially after just getting out of the hospitial. Well after thinking bout it, yall r right. So right here and now i promise to take this weekend off. I just locked up all my gunsmithing tools, told all my clients i am closed this weekend and will be opened till monday.I give you all my word, not a bit of work till monday. I'm gonna just catch up with my friends here on ct, do some reading and watch tv, cook out n bbq tomorrow. Just gonna take it easy. Honestly i thank yall all and i am truely blessed to have good caring friends lke i do on here. And each and everyone of yall has my word, no work at all till monday. So if ya want to message me, call or chatt please feel free to, i look forward to it.

Update
Hey everybody, as you can see i am home. I am doing well, still a little sore and groggy,lol. Thank you to all of my wonderful family, friends and fans for all of the support, gifts, messages, comments, and hopes & prayers. Hope to be back to normal soon,lol. Thanks again ya'll you rock. Hope fully soon i will get back on track and get my thank yous out personally (still a lil to silly to keep up right now), I will try to do all of the tanks yous and whatnot soon. Big hugs to you all. Hope all is well for you and yours!! Lil Mama

Year 3000
Ok, my daughter has been driving me stark raving mad with this song by the Jonas Brothers. Which she plays over and over. Cheesey as hell but I am trying to live with it since it's a lot better then some of the music out there that no 11 yr. old should be listening to. Anyway, had me thinking back when I was about her age and what I listened to and loved that was cheesey....I hate to admit it but I can recall that it was some crap by Shawn Cassidy..LMBO I know you're laughing but oh well. Anyone care to share the cheesey song/group they loved way back when? Would love to hear.

Cut Off
This is the intended purpose Bare with me this morbid discourse Now I clutch tightly at the purse-strings Did you think that I was kidding? Beast unleashed by the stench of virtue Look at what you've gotten yourself into I declare psychological warfare I'm laughing here while you cry there I don't need your fucking favors As it turns out you're not my savior You've pissed away all of your luck I just stopped giving a fuck We have lost all saving grace Can you read "Done" on my face? Now your vibrating space-heater Doesn't fucking need you either They have become all cracked and blackened When they fall off I'll still be laughing Now you're battle line detracting Since you see this actually happen Even with my organs failing I was always good for an impaling Now you've lost your final grip I'M NOT PISSED OFF, I DON'T GIVE A SHIT I wouldn't have minded if I was whipped But can't even manage to weild it So good morning to you too, your flower has become a snatch

I Just Visited A Page That Was On The Blast Thingy
was think wow thats raven riley:/ get to the page this girl has a few pics of raven on her page and no denial that she isnt raven even her salutes look odd like pics that are already somewhere then someone sticking a finger in front with her cherry name how odd think the whole damn profile is fake and you guys are fucking dumb to think she is raven riley "rollseyesz"

Dayly Prayer Of Hecate
Oh blessed hecate crone, mother, and goddess hear my prayer, bless me with open eyes oh hecate the crone so I may see all the blessing you bestow apon me, oh mother hecate bless me with your comforts thru the times of trail and tribulation and teach me how to overcome them. oh goddess hecate bless me and all i care for with your many joys so mote it be so blessed be!!!

Rude
I go on to others pages to rate them ( mostly women's) and to look, and what do I see, men who will leave the rudest comments to women, what is wrong with these men?? what is going on in their lives that they have to say the filthiest things to women in most cases they don't even know.. Lets take this into real life, your at the corner and your waiting for a cab, bus, person and a man come up to and says, hey your hot can I see your pussy?, A women goes out to eat with her husband / boyfriend and the waiter comes to the table and says, hey want to see my menu I have a wonderful tub steak you might be interested in.. well this is not acceptable behavior in the real world why is it ok on the internet?? MEN on here are fucking rude assholes with very little minds and too much time on their hands mostly there dicks in their hands, I am over whelmed with the disgust and filth that comes from the keyboards of 90% of the men here I am taken back by this sick and twisted sense of reality,jus

A Soldier
There is discipline in A Soldier you can see it when he walks, There is honor in A Soldier you hear it when he talks. There is courage in A Soldier you can see it in his eyes, There is loyalty in A Soldier that he will not compromise. There is something in A Soldier that makes him stand apart, There is strength in A Soldier that beats from his heart. A Soldier isn't a title any man can be hired to do, A Soldier is the soul of that man buried deep inside of you. A Soldier's job isn't finished after an 8 hour day or a 40 hour week, A Soldier is always A Soldier even while he sleeps. A Soldier serves his country first and his life is left behind, A Soldier has to sacrifice what comes first in a civilian's mind. If you are civilian - I am saying this to you..... next time you see A Soldier remember what they do. A Soldier is the reason our land is 'Home of the free', A Soldier is the one that is brave protecting you and me. If you are A Soldier -

My Pc And "bugs"!!
FYI: I have Windows XP and use McAfee 2007 Anti-virus, Spybot and Lavasoft Ad-Aware SE for de-bugging!! Picked up a horrible "Trojan" that none of the above would remove permanently!! Hell the damn thing would "pop up" while I was de-bugging!! I added the free "Windows Defender" and ran it on full system scan. All the crap disappeared!!! If you are not using the Windows Defender, I would suggest downloading and installing this free program. It does indeed work!!

Is The Bush Administration Planning A Nuclear Holocaust?
"We have discovered the most terrible bomb in the history of the world. It may be the fire destruction prophesied in the Euphrates Valley Era, after Noah and his fabulous Ark.... This weapon is to be used against Japan ... [We] will use it so that military objectives and soldiers and sailors are the target and not women and children. Even if the Japs are savages, ruthless, merciless and fanatic, we as the leader of the world for the common welfare cannot drop that terrible bomb on the old capital or the new. ... The target will be a purely military one... It seems to be the most terrible thing ever discovered, but it can be made the most useful." (President Harry S. Truman, Diary, July 25, 1945) "The World will note that the first atomic bomb was dropped on Hiroshima a military base. That was because we wished in this first attack to avoid, insofar as possible, the killing of civilians.." (President Harry S. Truman in a radio speech to the Nation, August 9, 1945).

Journey
Journey As a child I was young and naïve Being wild and free Seeking out adventure Till I became a teen As a teen I was full of good intentions Helping all that I would see Paving the road in life Wondering were it leads me Now in my twenties Standing at the Gates of Hell With death all around me My path I couldn’t tell The Devil greeted me slyly Standing at the door Come on in my friend Lets just have one more He took me by the hand For no other path I could see Down the hall of Seven Sins A walk that altered me Entering the room of Shattered Dreams Fear came crashing down on me What has my life become? But a faded memory The Devil’s laughter filled the room As I bolted for the door With darkness all around me I fell to the floor As I lay there crying Wondering how this could be I prayed to find a light To come rescue me Then I heard a voice Calling out to me Come with me my child For I shall set you free The voice soun

In Florida
I am now in florida.. had a safe flight in. been here a couple days actually but thats me, mr procrastination, didnt post a blog like i planned upon arrival.. but I'm posting one now :P the weather is great, especially after last weaks weather at home being all temperatures below zero. so I have 2 weeks to enjoy the florida weather and hope the cold has lessened when I get back, hehe

It's Here
We are getting our first major snow storm of the year here,we have got like 10-11 inches or so,so far,could get up to 20 inches...I will take pics after it is over... Now its windier than crap out so its moving around a lot,good thing I am not going anywhere my car is surrouned by drifts,so if anyone wants to come shovel see me.....LOL

Losing Hope.....
When did people become disposable? A long time friend and I went to dinner last night to do some catching up. He's had a helluva time with his x wife. I've always supported him, even though I was never fond of her (or her me for that matter). Now he's paying dearly and hurting like hell. I can relate. I just cant seem to get it right. When you meet me, you know who I am-the good, the bad, everything. I'm honest, I have a huge heart, I can be a bitch, I get angry-I'm HUMAN. Apparently not all of us are though. It seems to me when you make a commitment to someone you should follow through. I've known this man since I was 14 years old. I have never let him down-always been there when he needed me, and stayed away when he needed space. He's such a good friend....such a good person. But that isn't what I'm trying to get across....What we don't understand is when it became okay to run like hell instead of stick around and try to work things out. Why communication breaks dow

Just A Little Bit About Me...for Those That Want To Know
Hey someone told me that I should post a blog about myself so here goes....I am a single mom who is soon to be 30...god am i getting old..I have a 5yr old son who is my world, plenty of pics posted of him...his name is Tieler.I have been married once and only once..I was engaged married and divorced almost all in the same year..Whoa!! you say..well he decided to get busy with his bosses' sister and get her pregnant while we were married, needless to say that ended that..Why do people do things to intentionally hurt people.. I have never cheated, never needed to or so I thought..oh well enough about that..Trying to find someone who is honest just doesnt seem to be happening for me..guess thats the way its supposed to be I guess. Most guys dont like women who have curves, well guess what if you dont like curves...stick with your bean pole fake women who treat you like shit..go for show, instead of whats on the inside..I live in North Carolina..born and raised, I have been here all my lif

Love
You know what, I’m going to break it down. Life, it’s crazy. Love, it’s even crazier. When it’s thick, it subsumes you, and sometimes you become powerless to it. When you find yourself at that state, you live to love, you breathe to love, and sometimes you even hate that you love. The worst part is how suddenly it hits you. You wake up on day, and you realize that you’ve lost your heart to that person, you’ve lost yourself to that person, and most importantly, you’ve lost your soul to that person. If that person is deserving of it all, it’s beautiful, and swallows you both whole; but, unfortunately, sometimes that person shouldn’t have ever been trusted with any of it from the start. I once read that love is not a conscious choice of the mind, but an unconscious occurrence of the heart. Bullshit. Love is a choice. Everything you do in your life is in one way or another a result of a choice you consciously and intentionally made at some point. The brain is a powerful tool, and it can be

A Dark Poem I Wrote When I Was Down.
here i sit feeling alone in the darkness.feeling the loneiness.creeping into me.but the light thats there i cant see i think there is no reason for me.to even to be.i know that i have many a friend.who will stand by me til the very end. right now i feel blind.because im in a bind.ive been told that people are there to help me.who will help me see i think my heart is in love.but its afraid to be broken like a crystal dove.friends and family alike have been there for me and try to be my light.but i still cant see it even if i try with all my might. the storm clouds are rolling in.and the air is getting thin.for everything is collapsing around me.and there is not light for me to see. twirling like im in a whirlpool of despair.for nothing can be make me prepare.for what is on the horizion of my life.even though im going through this time of strife the light is going out in my life now for i dont know what to do.or where to go.for right now i feel my heart breaking into a mil

Domestic Violecevictim,8 Month Old And Sibblins
WELL I HAVE SEEN THE DOMESTIC BULLETIN FLOATING AROUND FOR AWHILE BUT SOMEHOW IT HAPPENS EVERY DAY.LITTLE 8 MONTH OLD JOHNNY,3 YEAR ONL MARSHAL AND 6 YEAR OLD CHARLENE DIED AT THE HANDS OF THEIR LOVING MOTHER BECOUSE HER BOYFRIEND AND HER GOT INTO A FITE WHILE HER HUSBAND WAS AT WORK. I HOPE YOU CAUGHT ALL OF THAT,BOYFRIEND,HUSBAND??? HERE IS THE STORY AS I KNOW THE FACTS.MIKE RYLEY WAS AT ONE OF HIS JOBS WORKING TO PAY THE BILLS AND HIS WIFES EXPENSIVE NEW CAR. JEFF ADSHAW WAS AN UNEMPLOYED DRUGGIE HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH MIKES WIFE. MICHELLE WAS A26 YEAR OLD X CHEERLEADER FOR A PRO FOOTBALL TEAM. JEFF WAS SHOOTING UP IN FRONT OF CHARLENE AND WAS YELLING AT HER,MARSHAL STARTED HITTING ON JEFF FOR HURTING HIS SISSY.MICHELLE CAME INTO THE ROOM AND WHEN SHE SAW THE FIGHTING SHE THREW DOWN LIL JOHNNY,KILLING HIM INSTANTLY,JEFF THREW OFF THE OTHER TWO KIDS AND HIT MICHELLE.MICHELLE GOT A GUN AND WILDLY STARTED FIRING IT HITTINGMARSHAL.HE DIED LATER IN ROUTE.JEFF THEN GRABBED THE REMAINI

People
You will find in your life, you will meet people. Some will seem to be so close you can feel it and others will be a touch away. But somethng is for sure if you keep the ones that are true to you close you the others a touch away will be there.

Block.... Come On People! (repost) - My Reply....
I saw this bulletin, and wanted to comment on it.... is there anyone out there in cherryland that thinks that when you block somebody on here that it means totally blocked like where they cant see your page at all or do you like it..the way it is now where when you block the persons you blocked can still see everything your doing..friends and all that....i think when you block someone it should be alltogether....i know when you block now they cant comment and rate..and all that but i would like to have it when you block there blocked alltogether like on myspace wich im sure many people in cherryland also have so if you have a myspace and have blocked people on it then you understand what im talking bout cherytap doing...just like myspace when u block they see nothing...not like now when you block they can still see your page and all that..if there is anybody out there...and i mean anybody who agrees or disagrees please sign your name to this so i cant take it t

My Future
I Dont want to get married, because being attached to some1 is a trap. I will never have kids because I hate those lil fuckers. If I ever do become preggo I will get an abortion. I hopefully wont fall in love because love is lust and it comes with stupid problems that I dont need in life. Like lying cheating abuse fighting... small penis... lmao And I will hire a man maid to clean after me becuase we woman don't need that stereotype anymore. And I will watch him clean and cook for me in a thong (jk). Ill also be either a therapist or a psychologist. And figger oiut why I am a nympho... oh yea and why people do the things they do. AND THAT THAT OTHER SHIT CAN SUCK MY KISS :)

Disobedience Not Tolerated/ Part Ii Written For Her
She was home cleaning so the house would be the way her Master likes it. She hears the front door open. It is her Master, he has come home early from work. He puts his keys down on the coffee table and walks over to the couch but he does not sit. He looks at her and says.."Jade, “Come to me.” She gets down on her hands and knees and crawls to him. He reaches out His hand and assists her to her feet, grabs her by the hair, pulls her to him and kisses her hard on the lips. He begins to caress her breast and hears her moan. He then pinches her nipple hard and a moan of both pain and pleasure escapes her lips. “Jade I do love the way you moan my pet” he says to her. He grabs her by the waist and quickly turns her away from him and bends her over the back of the couch. She panics. She has underwear on which is against the rules of his house. He lifts her skirt and sees her disobedience. “What is this” he says to her. “Do you not know the rules of my house?” “I’m sorry M

Scorpio The Sex Addic
SCORPIO:. The sex addict Can be mean, EXTREMELY sexy, Intelligent, Energetic, Predict future, Most erotic, Freak in bed, GREAT kisser, Always get what they want, Sexy, Attractive, Easy going, Loves being in long relationships, Talkative, The sexiest ever....Romantic, Caring, 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

Photos
why the hell do people feel the urge to put hunners o almost identical pictures taken af their webcams, or the archetypal myspace foto takin a picture wiv one arm oot the side? do ye not have any friends to...you know..take the picture of you for you? an then to ask yer mates to rate them.. if i rate one, as they're all the same, can't you just imagine that i rated them all identically? what's the point?

Close Call
now that Im almost back to where Im supposed to be, Im gonna tell ya something that happened to me. happened on friday the 16th when my music promoter was in. I went to the doctor for a follow up for my back. Found out that I need surgery on my back thanks to that shit ass accident I was in a year ago. I told the doctor that my pain meds werent working anymore and needed something else. my body became immune to the lortab 10's and flexiril 10's and the injections didnt work. so thats money wasted there. so he prescribed me some new meds went and had them filled. well low and behold I had a reaction to the pain meds and wound up sicker than the dead. sure felt like it. I couldnt keep anything down for 4 days and just started getting my appetite back. I may appear that Im online but 90% since that day I have not been. Keep me in your prayers guys as I endure yet another bullshit year with this.

Whoa Wierd...
I just applied to become a suicide girl. Kepp ur fingers crossed for me! I did it cuz it seems like it would be fun, is not the pathetic main stream modelling and thats why im interested. I wanna do something like that before its too late, I want some awesome pixx of me, nude ones, underwear ones, u name it I just want the opportunity to get myself out there. So yeah, ill letcha know if I hear anything, from what I hear it can take a while to hear anything. Just wish me luck lol

Keep Your Fork
There was a woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal illness and had been given three months to live. So as she was getting her things "in order", she contacted her pastor and had him come to her house to discuss certain aspects of her final wishes. She told him which songs she wanted sung at the service, what scriptures she would like read, and what outfit she wanted to be buried in. The woman also requested to be buried with her favorite Bible. Everything was in order and the pastor was preparing to leave when the woman suddenly remembered something very important to her. "There's one more thing," she said excitedly. "What's that?" came the pastor's reply. "This is very important," the woman continued. "I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand." The pastor stood looking at the woman, not knowing quite what to say. "That surprises you, doesn't

My Rifle Club
THE ___UNITED _________STATES _______________MARINES ______________________CORPS ___________________________SEMPER FI ____________________________________OOHRAH We stole the anchor from the Navy, The rope from the Army, The eagle from the Air Force. And on the 8th day God rested. We stormed the gates of Heaven and stole the earth from God himself. WE HAVE BEEN RUNNING THE SHOW EVER SINCE. SEMPER FI OORAH OORAH

Oil Burners And Life
You know a friend, a very good friend, just made a remark to me that reminded me of my childhood. Now, you have to realize that I never think about my childhood, because my family life was pretty hard. I know others had it harder, but it was difficult for a young child to understand what was going on. My father was a police officer, a very good one, too. However, he and my mother absolutely hated one another. He took to the bottle A LOT. So, my sister and I became the literal punching bags for him to release tensions. My sister more than me, because I stood my ground and told him flat out that either me or my children would make him pay for his inadequacies. The actual words were obviously more forceful and I think that I hit on this topic in a previous blog. But, that is not the central issue around which my mind is currently wrapped. After my sister left, my mother basically shut down. So, I ended up doing EVERYTHING around the house. Now, for a 7 year old boy, this wa

My Heart
my heart here,... My heart less than a mile or two away And yet my heart isn't all the way there,... Yet I care. It is more than 3,000 miles away It is my heart my love, How do I explain this to my dear heart??? my dear heart you really know where you want to be.---And it is not here. The one I want to be with is with someone else that is hard on my dear heart. Cause I won't say I love him, I won't kiss him,but he holds my heart and maybe unaware.

Wanna Know??
You wana know who I am? I am you and you are me: I am your brother,your sister; We are descends of distance tribes that were once united by land. What? Pangaea, the scientist call it. I refer to it as one nation. And so, my brother you know who I am. The genes that unite us are ancient. The same gene that ties us to our mothers: thereby taking care of mother earth is our responsibility. That gene you feel when you hear a native drum, are represented by those chills that runs through your body as the sound travels through the distance. Running through your body, remember, is the blood that units us. That same gene that you feel when you smell the copal (incense); that smell that acts as purification and prayer, which our mother provides us. That ancient memory. The memory that comes through visions that our grandfather peyote provides us to see and remember. Those genes that help me survive Sun Dance every summer. The dance when I walk with the sun for four days

Good Things
There are so many different types of people in our lives. When you come to the point where you think you've figured them all out, a new one pops up and takes you by surprise. My life has had so many ups an downs that I gave up on planning and trying to figure it out a long time ago. I just take what is given to me and make the best of it. Well, I have to say that life has done it to me again. In a good way, that is...lol So that's two good things in a little over a week and that's a new record for me and life...lol... I hope the positives keep flowing my way. Thanks to all that have said a prayer for me. It's really working.... Take Care All... :)

Bullchit..i Come Here To Get Away From Kids, Don't Need More Here..lol
THESE ARE THE REASONS I BEEN REVOKED WILL EXPLAIN BELOW THIS..... i have revoked no 3 for the following reason i have been fair to all and will remain fair to all and in for the sake of been fair please do read the last blog and the reason i changed the way i send out the targets i put every ones contest as i had requested over the weekend up in one release as to be fair with comes to bombing there was a deadline ,2 late links arrived which i could of chose it ignore but i did not and in updated the list member 3 chose to skip one of the links and opened and bombed the rest in spit of the link was in the middle of all she bombed all but 1 , I OBSERVED THIS AND AS SHE NEVER EVEN VISITED THE LINK AND CONTINUED TO BOMB THE THE OTHER`S, I WAS LEFT WITH NO OTHER OPTION BUT TO REVOKE HER MEMBERSHIP WHICH I HATE HAVING TO REVOKE ANY ONES MEMBERSHIP BUT WE DONT NEED THAT KIND OF BEHAVIOR OR BAD FEELING`S THANK YOU PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT DAMIEN MY VENT NOW AND WHY... welll

How To Make A Toga
HOW MUCH FABRIC TO BUY ? * Six Yards: this is the official recommendation. I think it's too long. * Five Yards: a little closer to reality, but still long, how much draping do you want? * Four Yards: good enough for a simple man's toga, or a child's toga. Many people find FOUR YARDS will do the trick for almost any kind of toga. For those of you who have NEVER bought fabric, YOU control how much LENGTH you buy, the WIDTH is a standard width that all fabric seems to come in which is about five feet wide, roughly. I simply take that width, fold it in half, goes once around my waist (a good place to hide a belt), then over the shoulder and just drape from there. It takes about three feet to go around your waist, and you need to wrap it at least 1.5 times around your waist before you throw the remainder over your shoulder (either shoulder). Then bring the fabric back to the waist, and tie it up or wrap it some more or whatever. Wo

Fan Me, Rate Me, Hurt Me, Hate Me...
A thousand faces Streaming by Finding the right one Just a number to some Words on a screen What does it all mean A photo or two Taken just for you Behind the screen With peeking eyes A lovely morning Sweet dreams Goodbyes When I wake Through the sea Of many I will find you Kind words Gentle thoughts How much is true Fake pictures Real ones too What to believe Who knows Everything goes In search To hold One willing to see What true beauty is That special someone Just for me Will I find you Or you me Maybe today A Good morning your way Will be the start Apples And Cherries The forbidden fruit One taste Will leave you hungry Thirsty for more For the unknown Of what’s in store Fan me Rate me Friend me too Is all I read Such a sin Like a persons worth Is on a scale from one To ten I want to be Your friend I want to show You your worth Not by a number But the way they Make you feel When you read What’s on m

Haters!
This is my official shout out to all of those haters who are slamming me for hooking up on CT with a girl you like. You guys know who you are! I wasn't originally looking for love here at CT. Neither was she! It just happened. Get over it! She loves me...I love her. If it was any of you guys, I'd hold no ill will toward anyone of you! If you're still hating on me, then I feel bad for you. That's just what I think about the whole thing. I came here originally to see what the buzz was with CT. I like it. The atmosphere is good. I found some people I like! I have no time for haters. If you want to hate, take it somewhere else. I don't need it!

Italian Artist Guido Daniele
Here's one for you... When Italian artist Guido Daniele was hired by an advertising agency to create body painting of animals, he loved the idea. "I researched each animal in depth to see how I could transfer it to a hand, and then set about bringing it to life." The hardest part of his job is watching his creations disappear down the drain after they're photographed. "I'm getting used to it," Daniele shrugs. "At least I get to start each day with a fresh canvas." Guido Daniele lives and works in Milan. (Here is him and some of his hand art.. simply amazing) ENJOY!

Going On My Next Assignment Soon
Friday I got an offer on what may be my next contract. It is one of the best I've ever had and that alone was pretty exciting. I had promised another company's recruiter that I would inform her if I got another job offer and so I did. I had been told that they were going to make an offer two weeks prior but nothing happened. Anyway, there was some panic about me getting another offer so they asked me to not accept until today as they needed some guy to sign off on the offer. Today I was informed that the same guy was now in New York and wasn't available to sign off so I told them okay, I'd accept the other offer. They couldn't understand why I couldn't wait one day. I reminded the lady that it was now two weeks, not one day. It will be interesting to see just what they finally offer. Regardless of how it goes, I expect to be back on the job in about a week or so.

The Sexual Awakening
“Happy Birthday son”. I woke up bleary eyed trying to get my bearings, focusing on my mom bending over me with a long box gift wrapped. I gave her a kiss and thanked her, wondering what it could be. I opened the box and found it was a telescope. She also had bought me a tripod and a copy of the solar system. She said “I saw you looking in the hobby shop and realized that you’ve been talking about the stars a lot.” I gave her a hug and started to assemble the telescope. “Don’t look at the sun, it will damage your eyes,” she said, going down stairs. I read the instructions and then started to look at the horizon. Living on the edge of town was an advantage. Clear views of the downs, sheep, horses, even rabbits looked as close as the houses opposite. I saw a car coming down the street and I zoomed in and saw it was Penny sitting in the front seat next to her dad. Penny lives nearly opposite our house and she had her thirteenth birthday two days ago. She makes a point of telling me that sh

World Domination? I Think Not...
You Are Not Destined to Rule the World You are destined for something else... Like inventing a new type of cupcake. You just don't have the stomach for brutality. But watch out - because many people do! Are You Destined For World Domination?

Make A Wish
THE LADY FROM MAKE A WISH CALLED ME ABOUT ALAN'S TRIP TO DISNEY WORLD. THEY HAVE THE DATES SET UP FOR US TO LEAVE ON JUNE 19 AND RETURN ON JUNE 24 ALAN IS SO EXCITED. HE WAS VERY EXCITED WHEN I SHOWED HIM WHERE WE WILL BE STAYING. IF ANYONE WANTS TO CHECK IT OUT THE ADDRESS IS.. www.gktw.org WE ARE LEAVING ON MARCH 8 TO GO BACK TO BIRMINGHAM TO SEE HIS DOCTOR UP THERE. I WILL BE GONE FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS. ALAN NEEDS TO SEE THE PULMONOLOGIST. HE SAW A PULMONOLOGIST HERE IN MOBILE LAST YEAR AND EVERYTHING WAS FINE. HOWEVER HIS DOCTOR IN B'HAM WANTS HIM TO SEE THE PULMONOLOGIST UP THERE. SO IM HOPING EVERYTHING WILL STILL BE OK.

First Blog Thingy
How many times have i fallen how many times have i cried how many time were you there to lean on how many times to catch me when i fall a dream is a dream and a life is a life the deeper the cut the sharper the knife tell the truth learn to lie give a damn then you die i have better ones that i will post when i have time......

Ready To Pop.
In nine days I will officially be in the Do Not Call registry, and I certainly hope it works. I have gotten SEVEN phone calls today so far, all of them for Randal Burger, who I hope got someone else's number right away as well... someone on the calling list for EVERY FUCKING COMPANY IN EXISTENCE! Just seconds after I hung up from one call, the phone rang again. There was a pause so I knew it was a telemarketer calling, so I waited and heard a VERY loud, "HELLO?" I went off, "NO! THERE IS NO RANDAL BURGER HERE SO IF YOU THINK THAT'S WHO YOU ARE TALKING TO, NO NO NO NO!!!" The guy laughed and said, "Ah, okay, have a good one." and hung up. OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!

I Must Be The Only Asshole!
I don't understand people at all...how can you befriend some one...give them your time and show that your intrested in being friends and then suddenly with out a warning,disappear with out a trace!...totally have disregard for a person like that...now i'm not one to trust people but when you figure to do finally,they just fuckin prove you right!...people are full of shit...i mean really are! And how come when a person comes on strong and you show that back to them,they suddenly call you the crazy one...you suddenly are labled a stalker...so what their telling me is that their full of shit...they can dish it but can't handle it back at them! I'm not even angry here....i'm seriously disapointed...i thought i had better taste in picking friends...i give and give and all people do is take me for granted!...everyone who knows me...likes me!..i've never hurt anyone intentionaly...always stepped aside for the better of my friends...whatever they wanted they got regardless of my feelings...no

9 Minutes & 30 Seconds Of Fame!
Okay, so here is my first attempt at a video blog. I've been asked to do one of these by so many people, so it seems that people are more interested in WATCHING me rather than reading what I have to say! You have been warned! Let me know which you like better? Click if you're having trouble viewing I'm not sure how often I'll do these video blogs, as you may or may not know, even though I only talked for 10 minutes, it takes a lot longer than that for Aiden to capture the video, compress it, upload it, convert it and post it. But then again... that's what I pay him for!

The Wisdom Of Older Women
The Wisdom Of Older Women When I had been married for 40 years, I took a look at my wife one day and said, "Honey, 40 years ago, we had a cheap apartment, a cheap car, slept on a sofa bed, and watched a 10-inch black and white TV. But I got to sleep every night with a hot 25-year-old blonde." "Now, we have a nice house, nice car, a big king-sized bed, and a plasma screen TV. But I'm sleeping with a 60+ year-old woman. It seems to me that you're not holding up your side of things." My wife is a very reasonable woman. She told me to go out and find a hot 25-year-old blonde, and she would make absolutely sure that I would once again be living in a cheap apartment, driving a cheap car, sleeping on a sofa bed, and watching a 10-inch black and white TV. Aren't older women great? They really know how to solve your problems in a hurry!

Dimensions
I am very curious about everybody's opinion about penis size. Keeping mind that most nerve endings are within several inches of the opening, both male and female, what does every body prefer. long and narrow, short and fat, somewhere in between, or an extreme can message me directly if you want

Hearin Gproblem
HEARING PROBLEM 2/07 @JOE FRESH I SAT IN THE DARK WAITING TO HEAR FROM YOU I WAITED BY THE PHONE LOOKING AT IT STARING AT IT, TRYING TO USE TELEKENISIS TO MAKE IT RING BUT IT DIDN’T I CHECKED THE PHONE TO SEE IF IT WAS ON I ADJUSTED THE RING TONE TO ENSURE I COULD HEAR IT HELL, I EVEN CALLED MYSELF TO MAKE SURE IT WAS WORKING BUT STILL IT DIDN’T RING AS I SAT IN THE DARK WAITING TO HEAR FROM YOU THE NIGHT GREW LONGER MY BODY GREW COLDER MY HEART BEGAN TO WEAKEN AS SECONDS TURNED INTO MINUTES MINUTES INTO HOURS MY NIGHT TURNED INTO DAY TRANSFORMING MY NIGHTMARE INTO A DAYMARE AS I WAITED TO HEAR FROM YOU ALL SORTS OF POSSIBLITIES BEGAN TO GROW IN MY MENTAL STATE THE SEEDS OF DOUBT WERE LEFT TO SELF CULTIVATE GROWING OUT OF CONTORL ON THEIR OWN LIKE A CHIA PET ON STEROIDS OR SOMETHING I STOPPED DREAMING, I STOPPED THINKING THEN THE PHONE RANG IT WASN’T YOU; IT WAS THE ALARM….. AND I AM STILL WAITING TO HEAR FROM YOU

Mine Are Brown!
: B|L|U|E| |E|Y|E|S| -People with blue eyes last the longest in relationships. They are kind, pretty or handsome,very good kissers and are really hot. They always fall in love with their closest friends and never understand why. They are very funny, outgoing and don't care what people think or say. They are very satisfying and love to please. Are straight up WARRIORS when necissary. If you repost this and you have blue eyes you will have the best kiss sometime in the next 5 days. |G|R|E|E|N| |E|Y|E|S -Sex Addicts!!! People with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, they have long lasting relationships. People with green eyes are also the horniest and most beautiful. They long for the touch of another. People with green eyes are very sexy and very attracted towards the opposite sex. You will meet the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with if you repost this. |H|A|Z|E|L| |E|Y|E|S -People with hazel eyes are very loveable. They are really h

Some Sad News
So i just got done talking to my mother. Docs told her that she may only live for another 5 years or so. Not very good news to my ears. She\'s been having so many heart problems, and surgeries. And nothings helping? wtf? So she told me she was making up her will. And leaving her $200k house to me. ; Just makes me sad. How am i supposed to accept that? I dont want my mother to die. blah nik

News
Ok...many of you know I am currently doing what I have to to get in the Marine Corps. Well I weighed on a buddies scale...and then I called my recruiter. I went to the office and weighed in at 184 1/5lbs. I had to be down to 185. So tomorrow Im gonna meet with my recruiter and update the paperwork...re-take the ASVAB...and go to the hotel. Then Wednesday Im gonna go weigh in officially. If I pass everything...Im then a Marine Recruit. Thanks for the "Support" you guys have given. Anywho...im off of the net for a couple days...yea for me.

If I Was Your And Yous Only?
1.)How many times a day would you kiss me? 2.)How many times a day would you just want to hold me? 3.)Would you take me places? 4.)Would you love me? 5.)If we went out on a date would you have me pay for it? 6.)Would you take me anywhere special? 7.)If I was sick... what would you do? 8.)If we had sex...what would you do afterwards? 9.)If one of my friends tried to get with you what would you do? 10.)Would you tell me? 11.)Would you listen to all my problems and help me solve them? 12.)Would you introduce me to your mom/dad? 13.)Would you care about what I wore when we go out? 14.)Would you go to the club with me? 15.)If your friend tried to get with me what would you do? 16.)If someone tried to fight with me in front of you what would you do? 17.)If a girl/guy tried to talk or dance with you at the club what would you do? 18.)Would you give me your myspace password? 19.)If I gav

Why Couples Dont Have Sex
why couples dont have sex.. funny Body: Dear Wife, During the past year I have tried to make love to you 365 times. I have succeeded 36 times, which is an average of once every ten days. The following is a list of why I did not succeed more often: 54 times the sheets were clean 17 times it was too late 49 times you were too tired 20 times it was too hot 15 times you pretended to be sleep 22 times you had a headache 17 times you were afraid of waking the baby 16 times you said you were too sore 12 times it was the wrong time of the month 19 times you had to get up early 9 times you said weren't in the mood 7 times you were sunburned 6 times you were watching the late show 5 times you didn't want to mess up your new hairdo 3 times you said the neighbors would hear us 9 times you said your mother would hear us Of the 36 times I did succeed, the activity was not satisfactory because: 6 times you just laid there 8 times you reminded me there's a crack in the ce

Second To None
These are some words I need to say to you and you'll know where Im coming from by the time Im through. When I tell you I love you,DON'T TAKE ME THERE. When I stroke your ego when your feeling blue and trying to show how much Im feeling you.DON'T TAKE ME THERE. When Im up all night trying to make it right, and agree with you to avoid a fight, DON'T TAKE ME THERE. When you feel like you have no friends, I'll be there for you until the very end, SO DON'T TAKE ME THERE. So when everything is said and done, What Im trying to say boo is,THIS GIRL COME SECOND TO NONE!!!!!

The Perfect Boyfriend
Stolen from elsewhere... every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life. â€¢ give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in. â€¢ leave her cute text notes. â€¢ kiss her in front of your friends. â€¢ tell her she looks beautiful. â€¢ look into her eyes when you talk to her. â€¢ let her mess with your hair. â€¢ touch her hair. â€¢ just walk around with her. â€¢ forgive her for her mistakes. â€¢ look at her like she`s the only girl you see. â€¢ tickle her even when she says stop. â€¢ hold her hand when you`re around your friends. â€¢ when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. â€¢ let her fall asleep in your arms. â€¢ get her mad, then kiss her. â€¢ tease her and let her tease you back. â€¢ stay up all night with her when she`s sick. â€¢ watch her favorite movie with her. â€¢ kiss her forehead. â€¢ give her the wo

Bad Day
i hite fake ass people in my life i thought i had good people around me but i was so wrong i got stabed in the back like five or six time today im so fucking sick of all the bull shit. im going back to my life the away i need it to be (me, myself and I) is all i need

Bored!
So what do winter's sunny days do for you? Make you wish you where anywhere but work! Off on a road trip! Sitting on the beach! Playing frizbe in the park! Cruzin with the top down! Anybody have any other ideas?

Since Everyone Wants To Talk
This is to everyone that seems to think that my personnal life is that interesting to talk about. We will start off with the whole wife thing that is so gratefully thrown up in my face all the time. Yes I am married and seperated, no she is not coming back and yes I am getting a divorce. My wife walked out on me and my son 2 years ago and hasn't looked back since except to see my son. Second, if I was dating someone I would never cheat on them no matter what is thrown up in my face. When I am with someone it is until it is over or other wise. I am honest about everything and yes I know before anyone feels the urge to say it I did lie about something to someone I care about. So you can drop that subject to, it is done and over with and we have moved on from their. Third thing I need to say is about people going around and telling people that I don't like them. If I instant message you and am talking to you then it means I like you. If I don't talk to you online or on the pho

That Heat Needs To Simma Down
So in 1st Biggest Loser contest at work I lost almost 7lb in a month and won about 50 bucks. This round is even better. In 3 weeks I have lost almost 13lbs, thanks to football of course. So that makes it 20lbs that I have shed so far. And hopefully on my way to winning that 110 dollar prize. Yeah, I'm not conceited but Im looking pretty good. Whats worse is I have been flaunting it too. Only negative...pants are falling off and cant afford to buy new ones right now. Ahhh well. Its worth it.

Our Valentine's Date
Story I wrote for my girl since we couldn't be together for Valentine's Day... I show up at your house in a purple and blue sweater, black slacks, and black shoes. You open the door and my heart beats a little faster as you smile and I take in how beautiful you look in your blue, full-length dress with a plunging neckline and matching high-heel shoes. You invite me in and I hand you the dozen long-stem roses I brought, six red and six white with baby’s breath wrapped in green tissue paper. You tell me they are beautiful and give me a thank you kiss on the cheek. We then embrace and have another, more passionate, kiss. After you put the flowers in a clear crystal vase, you grab your coat and I help you put it on. We then head to the restaurant where I had made reservations the week before. As we approach the door of the restaurant we are greeted by a man in a black suit who opens the door to let us in. We are then greeted by the hostess. I tell her we have reservations a

As Time Slips Away
as the days go by the time i have slips away from me and i cry as it does i know one day i must die and i nore anbody can stop the inevatable and right now i am scared to know when that will happen so please comment me back on this entry it would make me smile a little bit. Thank You , Lost In The Dark

I Need Your Help!
I need your help please, I have been nominated to appear in this weeks contest for "The Hottest Girl in Porn." I have no idea how this happen but it would be great if I could simply place in the top 3! (lol) So I am asking all my friends if they would cast there vote for little old me! Here is the link to cast your vote: http://www.thehottestgirlinporn.com Thanks again for helping me out and I have a few new videos and pics that will be going up in the group this week so be ready because they are going to be HOT! XOXO Kitty Langdon

Depression
Depression Depression in so many It's always so sad to see The numbers are uncanny Just take a look at me So many in pain unseen As depression numbers rise Sometimes life can be so mean Just look into my eyes Afraid to go home Don't know how to deal You're feeling so alone This is how I feel Zoe Elsworth

Reminds Me Of Miguelito. =(
Breathe - Kittie You, You aren't really here with me You never were Sweep the dust from our eyes once again Watch the sunset of our hearts for one last time At sunrise I'll be gone Another pistol loaded This time it's mine Breathe Just for one more day and you'll come back to me You're so cold I, I still wonder whether you'll come back to be Just hold on Sleep, Sleep now love, the sun extinguishes itself I will never look back, look for something else Deliver me with your sweet song and take me home Take me home again Another pistol loaded This time it's mine My heart just bleeds devotion Give me a sign Breathe and you'll come back to me I wish you'd come back to me

Glorious Tuesday, I Think!
I need to remember that the day after belly dancing class I'm stiff and sore! I'm moving just a tad slower this morning - the instructor worked us hard last night, lol! Crazy weather! High is in the low 30s today, so everything is slushy and mushy. Yuck! We've got a Winter Storm Warning posted for Wednesday night into late Thursday night, complete with snow, ice, and thunderstorms, lmao! Gotta love it! I have to say that my youngest son Taylor is getting damn good on his guitar. Love to listen to him practice, which he will do for hours at a time! He is getting some rather interesting sounds out of that electric guitar of his, doing lots of experimenting! He even gets out the acoustic once in awhile. He has an ear for picking up songs and techniques, without benefit of instruction. Would love for him to have lessons again, but his grades need to improve bigtime!! Mom is trying to get tough, but it truly hurts me more than it does him, I think! Rock on, Taylor babe!! My friend

I've Been Pushed To My Limit
I HAVE SOMETHING THAT I WANT TO GET OFF OF MY CHEST..I'M NOT GOING TO NAME ANY NAMES OR ANYTHING..BUT I WOULD LIKE SOMEONE TELL ME SOMETHING..I'VE TALKED TO A FEW FRIENDS ABOUT THIS AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO UPSET ANYONE OR ANYTHING..BUT I'VE SAT HERE AND THOUGHT ABOUT IT.. SO I'M JUST GOING TO BITCH FOR A MINUTE..LOL.. NOW I HAVE THOUGHT THAT I'VE MADE IT PRETTY CLEAR THAT I'M NOT READY FOR A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP OR ANYTHING..I DON'T WANT TO GET MARRIED I'VE ALREADY BEEN MARRIED..BUT THERE HAVE BEEN A FEW MEN ON HERE THAT APPARENTLY THINK THAT A WOMAN CAN'T POSSIBLY BE HAPPY WITHOUT THEIR ATTENTION..WELL GUESS WHAT WE CAN BE!! JUST LIKE MEN CAN BE..IS IT NICE TO HAVE SOMEONE TO TALK TO ABOUT STUFF ? WELL SURE IT IS..DO I MISS BEING HELD AT TIMES OFCOURSE I DO..DO I MISS HAVING SOMEONE TO TALK PROBLEMS OVER WITH ? WELL YEA I DO..BUT DO I HAVE TO HAVE SOMEONE HERE WITH ME ? NO I DO NOT.. NOW LET ME EXPLAIN SOMETHING ABOUT MYSELF..AS FAR AS MEETING SOMEONE ONLINE THAT I MIGHT W

A Raise ??
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons: I do physical labor. I work at great depths. I plunge headfirst into everything I do. I do not get weekends or public holidays off. I work in a damp environment. I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation. I work in high temperatures. My work exposes me to contagious diseases. Sincerely, P. Niss ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Dear P. Niss: After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons: You do not work 8 hours straight. You fall asleep after brief work periods. You do not always follow the orders of the management team. You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations. You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working. You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift. You don't always observe neces

Would You
Would YOU? LOL. Be desriptive if you want to be ;-) here u go bigboy..these r the answers for u anyone answering this for me if ur brave enought to answer then post it on the comment box below..private messages dont count haha.. 1. Would you have sex with me? i think we would have to meet first lol 2. What positions would u want to be in? im a freak i do it all 3. Would u suck/LICK me?yes aint that part of the fun 4. Would u sex me hard? yes love tiring my men out lmao 5. Would u have sex with me the first night u met me? if i wanted yes 6. Would u let me pull your hair while i did you? thats what hair is for aint it 7. Would u do me in the shower? yes 8. Would u handcuff me or tie me up to the bed and then do me? yes u been a bad boy 9. Would u have 3-some with me? depends on the other person 10. What about me makes u want to have sex with me? ur ideas and words are erotic a turn on for me 11. Would u talk dirty to me while we sexed? yep

You + Clue!
Okay, which fucking part of "do not even ask" is difficult to understand? I am not adding people to my family. Asking me after I said not to isn't going to help your case. Trying the very un-subtle method of adding me to your family and kissing ass though we've never talked before isn't going to work either. Besides: YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT'S IN THE FUCKING FOLDER!!! Read the comments on my recent NSFW pictures. One of my family members complains that they are hotter than the pictures in my family only folder. Okay? OKAY? FUCK OFF!

Gifts
so how many of u enjoy the CT gifts? i know they really mean alot to me when givein to or received from someone specail.... i would love to thank my sweetie for the gifts she has given me.... just love them all.... x2 and for all the other lil costly gifts she has sent..... i still do....... tongue......

Would You Even Notice?
its tuesday. i get up and put on my happy face. coffee, work. eh. tonite, i'll have a couple beers, with or without friends...and get on CT for a while to flirt with all the beauties on here. and while i'm on here, its fun. but then i turn off the computer, and its just me, myself and i. some days i wonder if i was the only man left if anyone would even notice me.....

North Carolina Family
i am thinking about starting a north carolina family,now this all depends on the kind of response i get..we will help each other in contest,have our own page,and this will be a drama free family,i do not like drama,so there wont be any..if you are interested in joining,this family,send me a private message,and let me know..we will be there for each other..thanks ..brenda

The Precious Few
A cry goes up, and out they go, the nation is at war With no demands, they pack their bags, and slowly close the door The wives they plead, and children cry, but daddy he must go Wars been raged, freedom challenged, and all the soldiers know The bullets fly, the briefly lull, this battles might is fierce Creeping low, then sprints to move, but through his chest was pierced The letters come, to love ones left, from daddy gone again Mothers cry, confused about, how long till the battles end A fear runs through, bodies shake, a telephones haunting ring Terrified, by what it hides, what message it will bring As soon as answered, the wife collapses, the children wondering why The telephone said, I'm sorry ma'am, your husbands no longer alive Now walking through, the garden of stone, it's a little more understood The grave stones speak, though mild and meek, it echos through the woods Your husband was brave, and welcome here, looked after he will be Just like th

I Quit My Job...
Job from hell has been ditched. I have no other job lined up. I'm a bit scared. I will be cancelling my VIC status. :( Can't let any little expense get in the way right now. I'm assuming I'll get my full month's worth, but just in case... 100 11s are up for grabs. Damn it, what to do..

Speed Skating With Pink Nitro Wheels!
Do you remember the days when you used to go roller skating? Well I do. And I always remember the roller skating rink as my first kissing experience. Yes, that's right, my first kiss was at Skate World in Seaford, Delaware. I even had my own pair of speed skates with the pink nitro wheels. 50 bucks they were. I had to beg my mom to buy them for me and $50 was a lot of money to her! Claire and I must have crossed brain waves that day. She called Aiden that day and asked him if we wanted to go roller skating, but he never told me about it. Later on, I told him I wanted to go roller skating, he asked if I had talked to Claire and I said no. It was meant to be. So we went. I looked online to find the closest rink, and I found Skateland in Northridge. More like sweat/vomit land. The skates I rented were still warm and moist when I put them on. Eewwwwww. So gross. I wish I brought my own spray to disinfect them. It's kind of funny because I didn't get the same feeling from Skateland t

Body Image
my but is big and round like the letter C and ten thousand lunges have made it rounder but not smaller and thats just fine its a space heater for my side of the bed its my ambassador to those who walk behind me its a border collie that herds skinny women away from the best deals at clothing sales my butt is big and thats just fine and those who might scorn it are invited to kiss it

Vaseline
A man doing market research knocked on a door and was greeted by a young woman with three small children running around at her feet. He says, 'I'm doing some research for Vaseline. Have you ever used the product?' She says, 'Yes. My husband and I use it all the time.' 'And if you don't mind me asking, what do you use it for?' 'We use it for sex.' The researcher was a little taken back. 'Usually people lie to me and say that they use it on a child's bicycle chain or to help with a gate hinge. But, in fact, I know that most people do use it for sex. I admire you for your honesty. Since you've been frank so far, can you tell me exactly how you use it for sex?' The woman says, 'I don't mind telling you at all... My husband and I put it on the door knob and it keeps the kids out.' And you thought it was gonna be a dirty joke !!!!!!

Our Doll Collection
How I got my porclion dolls. First started out with a very small one that was giving to me.Then from there it seemed to grow so fast. Im really proud to say my dolls are everything to me .We have over 80 of them big ones small ones baby ones an als musicial..They are mine an my daughters.I also have my 2 dools which r not porclion that comes from my Mom an Dad which are really a keep sake.I will cherish these an pass them down to my daughter who will appiciate them. Darlin Mother

To Lestat's Dark Covenant Family
What do you guys think about a member card? Do you think it would be practical to have one or would it be a waste of time? Who would make them? What would the card look like? Let's hear some thoughts.

Pussy
FIRST YOU START BYE KISSING ON HER EARS SLOWLY CARESSING THEM FOR BOUT 2MINUTES NEXT U MOVE SLOWLY DOWN 2 HER NECK SLOWLY CARESS IT WIT UR LIPS AN TOUNGE AN SEE WAT IT TASTE LIK THEN U MOVE 2 HER CHEST VERY SLOWLY KISS IT THEN MOVE DOWN A LIL MORE 2 HER THIGHSCARESS THEM VERY SLOWLY THEN CARESS HER NIPPLES BY SUCKING THEM VERY LIGHTLY THEN U MOVES DOWN 2 HER THIGHS AN CARESS THEM BY KISSING THEM UP&DOWN EXTREMLY SLOW SO SHE FEELS IT THEN U MOVE DOWN 2 HER LEGS SLOWLY FINALLY U PUT UR FACE IN BETWEEN HER LEGS AN PUT UR LIPS ON HER * AN EAT IT LIK APPLE PIE BUT DO IT NICE AN SLOW DNT BITE MAYBE A NIBBLE AN CARESS HER * BYE MOVING UR TOUNGE IN&OUT IF U WANT 2 MAK IT THA BEST SHE'S EVER HAD USE FOODS LIK HERSHEY CHOCOLATE SYRUP, OR STRAWBERRY SYRUP AN CARMEL SYRUP OR WHIP CREAM BUT CARESS IT IF U DO AN IF IT'S UR FIRST TIME READ THIS VERY SLOWLY TRUST ME IT WORKS AN IF U HAV A TOUNGE RING IT MAKES IT EXTRA FUN 4 HER ESPECIALLY IF IT'S VIBRATES

I Suck
There's someone here that I really wanted in my life but I wrecked it being my typical ass head self. To that person I just want to publicly say to you that I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. Just please know that I have been throuh so much in life that I no loner no how to let people in , I only know how to protect my heart, I never intented to project this bull shit on you. Unfortunately I found out to late that in the process of protecting that heart I pushed away someone who had no intention of breaking it.Once again I'm sorry , I know that doesn't fix anything but I just hope some day you forgive me for it. This song is explains best how I feel..not my lyrics so please don't give me credit for it. Invincible I memorized all the words for you But if you only knew How much that's just not like me I wait up late every night Just to hear your voice But you don't know that's nothing like me You know I wonder how you already figured out All these things that I t

Rate Me / Fan Me/ Friend Me
TO all my CT friends, family and fans. I have yet to ask for anything so I am now. I did some of you favors when asked now I am calling on you to return them.. Help a sistah out make me feel I belong and I promise you Courtesy of MsTags.comI won't forget. SO if I see you on my page on this blog I will drop you some luv on your page and rate your pic or page..Come on now friends SHOW ME SOME LUV!!!!!!!

To All The Firefighter And Ppl Who Support Us
IVE BEEN HERE ON CHERRY TAP FOR AWHILE NOW AND NOTICE THERE SEEMS TO BE ALOT OF FIRE FIGHTERS ON HERE BUT NOTICE THERES NO GROUPS WITH THEM SO AS MYSELF BEING FIREMAN185 I MYSELF HAVE DECIDED TO START A FIRE FIGHTERS GROUP AND AM INTERESTED IN HAVING OTHER FELLOW FIRE FIGHTERS JOIN THE WIVES GIRLFRIENDS HUSBANDS AND OR IF YOU JUST SUPPORT FIRE FIGHTERS ARE WELCOME TO JOIN THE GROUP THE NEW GROUPS NAME IS " THE FURIOUS FIGHTING FIRE FIGHTERS OF CHERRY TAP" I'D ALSO LIKE TO MENTION THAT I AM STILL SECOND IN CHARGE OF THE COWGIRLS AN COWBOYS OF CHERRY TAP JUST HAD TO STEP DOWN FOR AWHILE DUE TO SOME THINGS GOING ON AND YOUR FIRST IN CHARGE WHICH IS FIREMANS FIREGIRL185 IN PINK IS STILL PART OF THE COWGIRLS AND COWBOYS OF CT BUT JUST STEPPED DOWN ALONG WITH ME SO WE COULD WORK OUT SOME MINOR DETAILS GOING ON AT THE MOMENT BUT AS YOU KNOW WE WILL BOTH BE BACK SHORTLY AND JUST NEED TO KNOW WE ARE STILL BEING SUPPORTED. THIS DOESNT MEAN WE ARE LEAVING THE COWGIRLS AND COWBOYS OF CT ~THE COWGI

Which Kind Of Panties Am I ??
You Are Thong Panties Woman, you are one hell of a ride! You're a total wild child - and you live for crazy times. Men are attracted to you like flies to honey, even though they know they should stay away. You need a expert cowboy who can keep in tune with your free spirit! What Kind of Panties Are You?

Attn Attn
i am now officially CT married lol yeah bitches i got a ring and everything! we'd have a CT wedding..if i even knew how to do that ok now i have to go get to know him better lol Matt..what's your middle name??? ^_^ adore ya dollface :)

Flame Of Life
WHEN I WAS YOUNG AND DUMB IN THE MARINES. I WOULD PRAY FOR WAR AS MY DRILL INSTRUCTORS TOUGHT US. NOW I'M OLDER AND MORE WISER AND PRAY FOR PEACE.AS MY HEART HAS TOUGHT ME. FOR IT BREAKS MY HEART WHEN ANOTHER BROTHER ARMS IS LAID TO REST.FOR HIS OR HER FAMILY TO NEVER SEE AGAIN. TO HOLD, TO SMILE AT, TO GIVE A WARM KISS TO. TO LIVE ON WITH THE PAIN OF THER LOSS.I LOVE MY COUNTRY BUT MY GOD PLEASE STOP THE KILLING.TILL THE WAR ENDS ALWAY FATEFUL. SEMPER FI. OOHRAH

Why
We live in a world of so much pain and we fester and feed on others pain instead of trying to soothe them in their dark moments i may not like brittney spears but shes a person it jus seems like everone is taking her pain as a show of entertainment instead of a moment where she needs help not the gawking eyes of millions or the court dramas over dead stars or the war thats going no where but more filled graves people come on and wake up wake i say and stand up for some moral decensy its a time in life we all need to help heal we need to seek how to better our ways and our beings but no it keeps going on and all i can ask is why but i keep faith that one day many more voices will spring forth from the shadows of doubt fear and pain and ask the same question of why it jus takes one to start it all

To My Friends.....
Hey everyone, Just wanted to say sorry that I havent been around much. I have been really busy with work and some other stuff too. Anyway, I will try to be on more now (if anyone cares blah) so to all of those who missed me (oh come on atleast one person has to have missed me) Say hi. Is it just me or is this site kinda slow? I mean, I have trouble loading pages sometimes and its starting to piss me off. I guess thats what happens when you have dial up like me. No, I'm not a cheapo, I just cant get dsl out where I live yet. Ok, I will now shut up and sit here like a moron. Have a good night or morning or whatever it is where you are. =)

Singles Ad
This has to be one of the best singles ads ever printed. It is reported to have been published in the Atlanta Journal. SINGLE BLACK FEMALE seeks male companionship, ethnicity unimportant. I'm a very good girl who LOVES to play. I love long walks in the woods, riding in your pickup truck, hunting, camping and fishing trips, cozy winter nights lying by the fire. Candlelight dinners will have me eating out of your hand. I'll be at the front door when you get home from work, wearing only what nature gave me. Call (404) 875-6420 and ask for Daisy, I'll be waiting.... Please scroll down Over 15,000 men found themselves talking to the Atlanta Humane Society

No One
steel on velvet silk on stone sun-warmed leather set against chrome you're a contrast to what I've become no one has touched me like you red horizon at days end brushing scarlet over your skin blushing places I long to kiss no one has touched me like you You in my arms, breathless and sure a barefoot ballet on a bare hardwood floor so much in sync, it seems that we barely move no one has touched me like you white lace curtain open wide single candle, trembling light my bold passion suddenly shy no one has touched me like you no one has touched me like you like you

Stressing
My life seems empty and broke to the core. I am filled with regrets that I want no more. My life isnt perfect and it never will be. I am locked in myself when I want to be free. My life seems so twisted when I think of mistakes. Ive made so many of them. Its a hard habit to break. My life is all torment now and Im stuck with the guilt. Im so full of temptation. Im in for the kill. My life is just a misery. My life is just a blur. My life is like a cancer. Im waiting for the cure.

I Feel Yicky
friggin co-workers.....if you KNOW you are sick... ie...you went to the doctor and he told you that you have strep throat....how about stay home rather than breathe your damn germs on me... i feel like twisted horse shit....and just when i am feelin better...WHAMMO it strikes again.... my throat feels like i am swallowin ground up glass, i can't breathe...but when i DO manage to get a full breath in my lungs i start to cough....GRRRR DAMN CO-WORKERS!!! it's a good thing i like her lol k i am done...you may now shower me with sympathy

Here We Go Again!
Happy Hump Day, everyone! Winter Storm Warning in effect from 6 p.m. today until 6 p.m. Friday evening! We're talking snow tonight; rain, freezing rain, sleet, snow and thunderstorms tomorrow (WTF!?); back to snow on Friday! Up to a tenth of an inch of ice is predicted, that should make for super fun driving, lol! Gotta love Wisconsin! Gotta love Winter!! You know the mantra: THEY BETTER NOT CLOSE THE SCHOOLS!!!!! I was reminded this morning after talking with a friend that CherryTAP is an online nightclub or pub! Like any nightclub, people are going to cruise into and out of your life, just as they would in any "real world" club! And it is just as painful - to be in someone's life, friend's of sorts, and then have them drift elsewhere!! I know it's been in the Bulletins from time to time, but please guard your hearts, dear friends! Cyber break-ups hurt just as bad as the real thing sometimes!! Been there, done that! I know I tend to get attached to people, even though I try har

My Touch
Strip away the divine within me flay the flesh quickly pain was my gift from cuthulu given to me when i was born severed and no longer tethered to my mortal mother i strive for the strength in spirit within my mind is my blade my pain is my armor my eyes my shield from lies i see past the first layer so superficial i strip away the second layer withmy nails ahhh so close i smell your core the essance that makes you live through the ether i wrap my coils around you thick black tendrils of my own energy constricting binding chocking GASP for air to late....I have you you are MINE!!!!!! inside you i force my will against your own power you fight as i absorb your heart your light your love and your energy I consume you i taste you i revel in the taste of your soul at the second before death o stop removing my tendrils from your core throbbing pain replaces wherei was again you are empty once again i am full

Poem
Real as in a picture yet it cant b seen,more beautiful than nething,as vivid as a dream,precious as rare jewels,a bond between two hearts, a symphony of feelings,when time spent apart,sharing common interests working thru all fears,looking@yourself as 2 were in a mirror,finding common ground on issues not agreed,givin in2 arguments and tending all ur needs,bein there 4 always is all i want 2 do,holding you foever,becos our love is true

Think About This
Got this from a friends blog on 360 , very well put I thought, just wanted to share. Think about this for a while.... If I happened to show up on your door step crying, would you care?..... If I called you and asked you to pick me up because something happened, would you come?..... If I had one day left to live my life, would you be part of that last day?.... If I needed a shoulder to cry on, would you give me yours?.... This is a test to see who your real friends are, or if you are just someone to talk to when they're bored....

Ive Been Everywhere In Texas!
New towns keep springing up, but I like to think I've been everywhere in Texas. I've been to Abilene, Addison, Alamo, Alamo Heights, Aldine, Alice, Allen, Alvin, Amarillo, Anderson Mill, Andrews, Angleton, Aransas Pass, Arlington, Atascocita, Athens, Austin, Azle, Bacliff, Balch Springs, Bay City, Baytown, Beaumont, Bedford, Beeville, Bellaire, Bellmead, Belton, Benbrook, Big Spring, Boerne, Bonham, Borger, Brenham, Bridge City, Brownfield, Brownsville, Brownwood, Brushy Creek, Bryan, Burkburnett, Burleson, Canyon, Canyon Lake, Carrollton, Carthage, Cedar Hill, Cedar Park, Channelview, Childress, Cinco Ranch, Celburn, Cleveland, Cloverleaf, Clute, College Station, Collyville, Commerce, Conroe, Converse, Coppell, Copperas Cove, Corinth, Corpus Christi, Corsicana, Crockett, Crowley, Crystal City, Cuero, Dalhart, Dallas, Desoto, Deer Park, Del Rio, Denison, Denton, Dickinson, Donna, Dumas, Duncanville, Eagle Mountain, Eagle Pass, Edinburg, Edison Road, El Campo, El Paso, Ennis, Euless, Fa

Asian Panda Death Flu
Apparently, I caught the Asian Panda Death Flu (as explained to me by Vlos). I've had chills, sweats and a high high fever. Also, I've coughed so much my throat is raw. Which led me to sound like a chipmunk on the phone with Julie. She was highly amused. Its subsided to just malaria today. Still have a bit of a fever, but no chills. Still sweating a bit. Eww. That explains why I've been kinda away from the site.

How Can You Just Walk Away
i don' understand how you can just walk away from someone you said you loved it's just not right if you love them talk it out don't shut down and not say a damn thing it's like the saying goes in order to work things out you need to get to the root of the problem....i could never walk away from someone i love dearly and he knows who he is he's my heart my soul and my best friend i just hope he doesn't just stay away for good.....i'd die for this man i really would i can't stand the thought of losing him it makes my tummy hurt

Matt's Mayo Diet
Me: I've been entirely way to hungry lately. Me: that shall stop... Me: tomorrow. Matt: yes, i have a trick to help with that Matt: imagine two really old people having sex covered in mayonaise Me: ok that's just wrong Matt: hungry?

Words Women Use
Words Women Use Fine This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use "fine" to describe how a woman looks - this will cause you to have one of those arguments. Five Minutes This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the rubbish, so it's an even trade. Nothing This means "something", and you should be on your toes. "Nothing" is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. 'Nothing" usually signifies an argument that will last "Five Minutes" and end with 'Fine' Go Ahead At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty big trouble. Go Ahead (With Raised Eyebrows) This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over "Nothing" and will end with the word "Fine". Go Ahead (Neutral Expression) This means "I give up" o

My Daugther
I JUST WANTED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW THAT 1)SHE IS HOLDEN HER OWN 2)THE DRS, SAID SHE IS NOT DUE TILL THE 18TH OF MARCH, BUT AS IT LOOKS NOW THE BABY WILL BE TAKEN BY C-SECTION ON THE 9TH OF MARCH,DO TO HER HEALTH AND TO MAKE SURE THE BABY REMAINS HEALTHY. 3)WE KNOW IT IS A BOY RIGHT NOW 8 LBS AND 1 OZ. THANKS FOR ALL THE PRAYERS AND PLEASE KEEP HER IN THEM SHE WILL STILL HAVE A LONG FIGHT AFTER THE BABY GETS HERE WITH THE CANCER . YOU GUYS AND GALS ARE THE BEST

Bionic Women !!!
OK here is the deal.......March 22nd at Jefferson Hospital.....I will undergo a real scary surgery. They will take 2 bones from what I have no idea but anyway 2 bones one to be put in the c-5/c-6 and one shaved down to make my neck & spine of normal curvature at the c-4/c-5!! Like it is a shock to me that I am defective..lol... then take a metal plate to keep them in place it will take 4 to 6 months for recovery! I am sure I will be needing the company of my Cherry Tap Bud's Wish me strength and endurance!

Pussy Types
LAZY PUSSY- this is when there is no movement on the woman's part except trying to stop full thrust of the dick into the pussy. She says faster; faster but still is not putting any effort into the action at hand. THE WENDY'S WINDOW PUSSY- This is the girl you pick up around 12:30 am, when everyone is sleeping and she knows that you are coming so she is waiting by the door. You don't have to beep the horn or call her from the car because she knows the deal. She usually is not the best looking girl. You are never seen with this girl in public places and you hate that she mentions your name to her friends. There is no reason to ask how your day was because it is too late for conversation. It is all agreed upon before she even gets in the car. Nine out of ten times, there is no talk of relationship, because that might spoil the mood. THE CONQUERED PUSSY- This is the girl who teased you for about two or three years and finally you do get your chance and you please the pussy in a way i

A Huge Welldone
Courtesy of MsTags.com Please all my wonderful friends , wish my daughter Bex a huge welldone.As ive just done her parents evening at school ... And she is doing fantastic .... I flew all the way home . I'm so proud of her xxx

I Am Back
Just wanted to say hello to all my friends and family and fans. Sorry I have been off for so long. I am back now and want to see what all my fiends have been up to. Please stop by and say hello and update me on your lives. I have truly missed everyone and a few special friends. Please come by and let me know you still love me. Hugs and Kisses to all.......muaw

Q & A About Candles By Tabby
~Candles By Tabby~ I've been asked many questions about party lite, candles and all that goes with so I thought I'd make it easy... Q. What is party lite? A. Party lite is candles, candle holders, and candle assecories. Q. Do I have to go to your show to order party lite? A. NO. Q. How do I buy from you if we are miles apart? A. Tell me what you want, i fill out the order form and you pay by check, money order or credit/debt card, then in 2 weeks receive your order. Q. Is there afordable items? I dont have alot of money. A. yeah, there candle holders as low as 6.95, and tea light candles are only 10.95 per dozen. Q. How do I get a catalog? A. ask me and I can email you one or i can send you one postal mail. If you have any other questions you may have please dont be afraid to ask because no question is stupid I will answer any that I can... Email me or call me! ***************************** Well I've had a few people ask what is partylite good

He's A Good Jewish Boy . I Bet He's With His Mom.
So, I'm standing at a bus stop and they pull up. A car load of well meaning, bible thumping nut cases that are just frantic! The middle aged professionally dressed woman rushes forward...She takes my arm and with trembling voices she asks...."Have you found Jesus?" Her eyes plead with an urgency that is out of proportion to a bus stop. Now normally I just politely decline the sermon, and free religious paperwork that such folk pawn off on unsuspecting by-standers. But, unfortunately for her, she is the fourth car to accost me in the last 9 minutes. So by now I'm beginning to wonder what the heck is wrong with these people. I mean if its not Christians it is the Jehovah's Witnesses. Can a simple Druid get no peace? So calmly as I can muster, without being sarcastic I reply, "You people lost him, again??" The woman looks confused. This is not the response she was hoping for and she needs to regroup. She takes a deep breath intending to launch into her sales pitch for her God

Are You Afraid?
Are you afraid, Afraid of spreading your wings? Are you afraid, Afraid of showing your beautiful soul? Are you afraid, Afraid to speak your mind? Are you afraid, Afraid to take a risk? Are you afraid, Afraid of falling? Are you afraid, Afraid to love? Are you afraid, Afraid to get bruised? Dear child, Don't be afraid. Because to fear small things such as these, Is to fear living life itself. And to fear living life, Is to never live at all. (I've NO idea who penned this)

My Quiz Results !!!
I didn't lie or embelish on any of them.... Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it. You have the confidence to make the first move. And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best. Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing! Are You a Good Kisser? Your Seduction Style: The Charmer You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement. You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you. By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power. And then you've got them exactly where you want them! What Is Your Seduction Style? What Your Soul Really Looks Like You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet m