I don't understand people at all...how can you befriend some one...give them your time and show that your intrested in being friends and then suddenly with out a warning,disappear with out a trace!...totally have disregard for a person like that...now i'm not one to trust people but when you figure to do finally,they just fuckin prove you right!...people are full of shit...i mean really are! And how come when a person comes on strong and you show that back to them,they suddenly call you the crazy one...you suddenly are labled a stalker...so what their telling me is that their full of shit...they can dish it but can't handle it back at them! I'm not even angry here....i'm seriously disapointed...i thought i had better taste in picking friends...i give and give and all people do is take me for granted!...everyone who knows me...likes me!..i've never hurt anyone intentionaly...always stepped aside for the better of my friends...whatever they wanted they got regardless of my feelings...no matter if these friends were in person or internet buddy's...i'm totally stuck in this place where i feel like i can never make friends again...this is why i dropped everyone i knew and hide myself away from the world...and now when i just thought i can be normal again...BANG! like a fuckin bullet to my head...i die all over again...i guess i'll never learn...i'm like the coolest...most funniest...most caring and kind person you can ever meet...if you step on me...well then you'll wish you were never born and i mean that with all my heart...a friend, i'll protect you and take care of you for life...an enemy, i'll bury you and your family aswell...i'm just being honest and whom ever knows me...understands that or doesn't...no one ever had a good reason ever to dislike me...and you will never ever meet a person like me...they broke the mold when they made me...i'm not conceded i'm just REAL!...some people can't handle that or know how too...that's not my fault but i can teach you how atleast...i'd like an explanation ,which i'm not gonna get and i guess i'll go back to my oldself and not trust or give a fuck about anyone...life is lonley like that but it saves you a whole lotta hurt! yes i'm hurt!
