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The Whole Enchilada
Stolen from the comments of Cammy's blog...a recipe by her...I can calculate the nutrition information should you want it. My enchiladas go a little bit like this:1 whole cut up chicken (you could use boneless skinless breasts too but I think a whole chicken gives it way more flavor.)1 large can of Rotell (whatever spice level you prefer - also a note, if you feel better about yourself at night you can stew fresh tomatoes and peppers and the like yourself rather than using a can... I find it makes absolutely no difference the taste so I stopped bothering.)2 cans of garlic infused chicken brothCorn tortillas1 large can of enchilada sauce and then 1 regular can (again, you can make the stuff from scratch if it makes you feel better and more productive but it tastes the same to me.)Cheese - either mozzarella or actual Mexican queso works best. Queso is harder to shred.So you put the chicken in a large stock pot or dutch oven with the rotel and the garlic chicken broth. Cook it for at le

According To You...
It's been in my head. Enjoy? According to you I'm stupid, I'm useless, I can't do anything right. According to you I'm difficult, Hard to please, Forever changing my mind. I'm a mess in a dress, Can't show up on time, Even if it would save my life. According to you. According to you. But according to him I'm beautiful, Incredible, He can't get me out of his head. According to him I'm funny, Irresistible, Everything he ever wanted. Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it, So baby tell me what I got to lose. He's into me for everything I'm not, According to you. According to you I'm boring, I'm moody, And you can't take me any place. According to you I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away. I'm the girl with the worst attention span; You're the boy who puts up with that. According to you. According to you. But according to him I'm beautiful, Incredible, He can't get me out of his head. According to him I'm funny, Irresistible, Everything

John Forsythe
LOS ANGELES — John Forsythe, the handsome, smooth-voiced actor who made his fortune as the scheming oil tycoon in TV's Dynasty and the voice of the leader of Charlie's Angels has died after a year-long battle with cancer. He was 92. Forsythe died late Thursday at his home in Santa Ynez from complications of pneumonia, publicist Harlan Boll said Friday. "He died as he lived his life, with dignity and grace," daughter Brooke Forsythe said. Despite his distinguished work in theater and films, Forsythe's greatest fame came from his role as Blake Carrington in the 1981-89 primetime soap opera Dynasty. Forsythe lent dignity to the tale of murder, deceit, adultery and high finance, which often brought Carrington into conflict with his flashy, vengeful former wife, Alexis Colby, played to the hilt by Joan Collins. Forsythe was an important part of another hit series without being seen. From 1976 to 1981 he played the voice of Charlie, the boss who delivered assignments to his beautif

Poem #2
late nights so tired eyes shut the thought of you races through my mind when you say that you love me my stomach just ties up its the best feeling in the entire world knowing that i have you in my life never in so long have i felt this way you make me go crazy without you i could talk to you for hours to days and id never get bored you make me so happy to a level that i cant explain i cant promise forever but il promise the idea i dont wanna know what life after you is thinking about it scares me but knowing that your my everything and im your life is enough to get me through each day each and every day i fall more and more in love with you you are what makes me.

What The Hell Here Are Some Of My Poems.....
words, words, words words... i'm tired of words in my head they are only symbols of the feelings not the true things that i've felt dillusional, hypothetical what if, why not, how come reality askew, if i only knew if others felt these damn things too A Children's Story The animals all joined a lodge Just like humans do They talked every 2nd Tuesday away While sipping on Jungle Brew One nights meeting finished up to quick All decided to hang around They told tales of their daring do's After every story on the tables they'd pound Alligator said take a gander in this maw I can make any man run, just with a smile I can laze in the River alone Cause I have teeth for miles Anaconda piped up, well thats nothing Al As he put down his jungle brew mug Men stear clear of even my suspected lairs When all I want to give them is a hug Thats pretty good Andy, But you can't top this Roared Lion from the front Man calls me the King Of Beasts My wife won't

Raist Rants
Well I have not really been doing much blogging so I thought that I would write one and get out some of what I am feeling and thinking about right now. I shall be finally going back to work by the end of the month at least for awhile. I did finally get the call from the US Census taker people to hire me. I had sort of give up on it and thought they had just not hired me for whatever reason. So I was of course elated to get the call. I had also been begging the gods for work since I am still going through something of a dark period even though it is very much Spring here now. Have you ever had that one person that no matter what you did that you could not get off your mind? Well I have one still and I know that it is very unhealthy to keep thinking of someone and also know that getting out and being around people is the best cure. It is going to be odd since I have been in a lot of seclusion at first but I have always been a work with the public type. Whether I was waiting tables or

You Didn't See Me
I post this every year about this time. I don't ride anymore, but I have a lot of friends that do.......a lot of people I care about. When you are out riding around in your cage, PLEASE be aware of those on bikes!!!!!! The following poem is for all you that ride. I have no clue who wrote it.....I know I didn't. Please feel free to copy it to your own site and spread the message. I'm sure that all of us have horror stories about someone that we loved either getting killed or seriously hurt on a motorcycle. I'm also sure the majority of those incidents could have been prevented IF the people in cars had been more alert. I only hope that I can help save one biker by posting this.++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++But, You Didn't See MeI saw you,hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line.But, you didn't see me,put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday.I saw you,pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.

The Bogged Down Man
Late at night When the moon is right And the dogs are out, You will find me in the moors. I'll be in the mud With a stick in my hand Waiting, for the bogged down man. He was old with grey hair, He had a hunchback suit, With light blue and yellow stripes. His teeth were old and yellow, His eyes were brown, His skin was red, white, black, and blue. His skin was peeling, His hair was falling out. Who was he? I'll tell you. The Bogged Down Man. The clock struck midnight. The fog rolled in. The body began to rise. It sat up with a jerk. It stood with a groan. With a glare he eyed my soul. Forward he marched The mud and flesh dripping off with each step. My blood rose high, My body grew cold. I was praying for day. Closer and closer he crept. Farther and farther i lept. With the flesh having fallen off The blood ran down its hands. Till nothing was left, but the bone. The hand reached forward And death scratched my soul. I looked to the face for recognitio

For Cw
As White as a Dove Is as pure as our love As strong as an Ox You cant put it in a box Just let it grow as you let a river flow For ever and ever you lover I shall be for you and me we belong together for ever and ever I shall love thee

Playground
A hungry soul for a passion so deep a slender body for an eye to keep Mounds steep with a curvey barrier sweet haven south on the carrier Soft yet firm rump on the straight away tender eyes for color unknown today Short radient hair whisping in the breeze the color of brown like that of the bare trees Hands rough yet delicate with sturdy fingers auroma bold and intoxicating in the air it lingers Soft wanting lips waiting for something special to smother a playing mind awaiting its cover A thirsty soul wants to come and play a toned body shines at it lays Rocky chest fuzzy with a heart that beats a mind with games never to cheat Bold yet glistlening demon stick on lower deck awaiting a hot moist cove

Ugh Ugh Ugh
Is it wrong to hate your parents? Ok maybe hate is a strong word. But I'm really just sick of the way they treat me and my family! It's to the point where I don't even pick up the phone anymore, I only respond to emails cause I don't wanna hear their voice! All they do is set off my chest pains and raise my blood pressure!! I'm so mad right now I can't even get the words out about how mad I am!

Love Triangle
you call me on the phone by the tone of your voice i can tell that somethin jus aint right,you tell me baby no matter what im about to say to you right now,just remember i love you and i never meant to hurt you,but this is somethin i cant keep inside no more,its gonna be hard for me and it gonna be hard for you when you hear the truth, baby ive been goin behind your back,ive been seein this girl for the past 12months,now shes havin my baby and we gettin married,i didnt mean for it to turn out this way,but we fell in love,please dont hate me,you go to understand i didnt chose this path,this path chose me.. tears start runnin down my cheek,its gettin hard for me to breath,i feel like im about to lose my mind,tell me boy why you had to do this,when i gave you all of me,you promise you would never hurt me so,and now im sittin her all alone,i wanna hate you,but deep down inside i know i can,its crazy how you broke my heart in two but all i got is love for you.. baby,here comes the hardes

My Craptastic Poetry, Part 3, Self-referential Prophesy.
ARCANA by DAMAGODDESS I am the Fool. I am the blind, the vulnerable, the outcast.Seeking, losing, never knowing. Play me with all you are, I will follow.I am the Magician. I am the mystical, the enigmatic, the hidden.Twirling, dancing, always learning. Know me for what I am, I will not acquiesce.I am the High Priestess. I am the esoteric, the strong, the Goddess.Sharing, shining, never dying. Love me with your purist heart, I will reflect.I am the Empress. I am the noble, the detached, the Queen.Looking, waking, always persisting. Take me for all I've been, I will not relinquish . I am Arcana, the natural and the divine. I am the Emperor. I am the ruler, the tyrant, the wisdom.Leading, winning, never breaking. Want me for all I've seen, I will take.I am the Hierophant. I am the learned, the arrogant, the ascendant.Wondering, thinking, always growing. Teach me all you have heard, I will not forget.I am the Lovers. I am the desired, the yearned for, the needed.Wanting, burning, never t

Stressed
I am STRESSED. I have been off work for 5 weeks now because of my health. It is not anything major. I do not have cancer, nor do I have heart diasease. I do have high blood pressure and diabeties. The federal DOT is starting to crack down on health issues with truck drivers so the doctor is being extra careful. But I am not making any money, my doctor has had my paperwork for my short term disability for 3 days...and I found out he is not going to be in the office next week. It's getting to me, I can tell, my friends can tell. They are asking if I have a headache, or why I am not smiling or joking around like usual. It's affecting my blood pressure adversely. I want to punch something. I need to get laid, lol. I need a good cry. I am getting to the point that I don't give a fuck. But. I hope you're having a good day.

Love
Love is not anger... Love is not hateful... Love is not jealousy... Love is not ungrateful. Love is beauty... Love is kindness... Love is precious... Love is pure blindness. So why do I see the ugliness? I see it in others close to me. I do not understand it. Can they not just let it be? Let love be love. Sweet and pure... Honest and true... So strong and secure.

Song/poem I Wrote ...
Im like cocaine I make u high ,I bring u to da ground on ur knees beggin baby plz but..... FCUK DAT GET BACK, FCUK DAT I HAD DAT.. Im like coccaine i made u high but now im just to mother fcuking fly so....... fuck dat get back you fcuked up what u had Im like coccaine im nice and slick but the drama u lay is way to thick , So lay a line let me blow ur mind To bad baby Im lein u behind Im Like cociane You fend me but why cant you just let me be ... You say you loe me more then ill ever know , I say baby its time to let go I say.... Fuck dat get back Fuck dat dont come back Im like cocaine You cant give me up bow down baby ur queen has had enough You tell me all the thing that i wanna hear but i wanna make this clear whispsers fuck dat get back fuck that leave dat Now Im like cociane ill bring you down ,so step back baby i dont need you around Im done with ur trickz,cause the games u play just make me sick .. Sick and tired of all ur lies empty

[the Manliest Man To Have Ever Done Manly Things As A Manly Man.]
Gatts gets me hard :3 what can I say? Also, I looked into kits for Berserk (which I now have volumes 1-33) Those kits range from $95 to $400 to $1000. *sigh* don't think I'll partake for a while. Other than that I don't really have any kits I'm just gagging to put together. DSH's cleaned smoothed and sketched. I really just need to break down and start priming my 1/144 Gouf... which I'm probably going to start right after this. Friggin royals are down five runs :/ umm ummmm um um um um um um *shrugs* I dunno I lost a little momentum after Neue Ziel was finished, but I can't expect more out of that than what I got, it was practice. Now here's a fair question:why would you seed and proliferate an unsubtitled DVD rip of something? Second one I found in a month.Cocksuckers.

Some Of My Writings
SWORD and SHIELD alas im found longing for the days of old fantastic wonder the stories are told days of dragons of knight and of mage ancient sages and the elves that never age duels by sword,by tooth and claw , by wizards spell honor and courage your deeds shall tell alas i was born much too late a world filled with technology is my fate oh to swing my sword at a monstrous foe cut by tooth and claw blood shall flow my shield arm weary but still guarding my side the ebb and flow of battle, luck has turned the tide subtle attacks stopped by a skillfull parry to win the day we must not tarry acrid smoke and horses breath hearing the shouts of pain and of death lances raise the charge begins tourney of the lords the best knight wins but dreams are false promises, my soul strings sever oh to escape this world and flee through the never for the days of yore my soul screams where dragons roar and gold and silver streams my

[+1 Magic Box]
My gubment monies came in.So did my paycheck andmy big box o' magic. (one hour later) Man these new tools Ro~ck. The diamond treated files were worth the extra ... $3. Seriously. So precise, so sturdy! And pretty fine too considering I'm using surfaced metal with a treatment to file plastic. I may have wasted my money on a couple things though. The pin vise I have comes with six (unlabeled) drills. The largest one in the set is TINY. And its slightly bigger than the set of drills I have. I have 30 drills each one incrementally smaller than the last. The smallest is about twice the width of a strand of hair. Seriously. So the 30 drill bits I ordered might be overkill, but I'd rather have over than under. If I could thread some metal or fiber glass filiments through the holes... MADNESS! Anyway, if I run into a situation where I need a BIGGER bit I'll have to special order em. I think I did the conversion on these things though I have up to five milimeters I think.On a mediu

A "thank You" For An Amazing Weekend...
Check the blog below and to the left with the same title...don't forget to rate , tell your friends and post your comments as always and please don't forget to rate it a 1, 3, 6, 10 or 11..:D

Just Me Writing
The life is a play that does not permit trials... Therefore, it sings, laughs, dances, cries and each moment of your life lives intensely... ...Before that the curtain descend and the work finish without applauses. Hey, hey, smile! more you do not hide behind that smile... It shows that that you are, without fear. People they exist that dream of your smile, as well as I. Lives! Tries! The life does not pass from an attempt. It loves! It loves above all, housewife to all and to all. Do not you close the eyes to the filth of the world, do not ignore the hunger! It forgets the bomb, but before do something to fight it, although you do not sit down capable. It seeks! It seeks what there is of good in all and all. Do not you do of the defects a distance, and if, an approximation. It accepts! The life, the people, do of them your reason to live. It understands! It understands the people that think different to you, them do not reproach. Eh! Looks... Looks to your back, as many as friends...

Bikers Wish To All
THE BIKER When you see us moving past you quickly: Don't take offense or think we're trying to "show off". Ninety five percent of the time, we're trying to get out of your blind spot or taking ourselves out of a potential dangerous situation that has evolved around us. Distancing ourselves from you does not mean we want to race, but that we're giving ourselves the edge we need at the moment. When you hear our horn: Don't take offense or think we're trying to aggravate you. All we're doing is letting you know where we are in relation to you on the road, and we're more than likely aware of your inattentiveness to us while you're talking on a cell phone, eating, reading or involved in some other distracting aspect to your driving. It's important to us, and you, that you know we're there. When you hear our loud pipes: Don't become angry and hostile toward us. Yes, some are quite loud, but for some, there's a purpose behind being loud. It's about letting you know we're close by and we're co

Encounter......
me on the street.... I smiled but you did not notice.... my heart raced at the site that is you.... my body quivered for you embrace.. There we stood inline with seperate purpose, but similar desire........ you look so lovely and gentle..... On the outside I am cool, confident and secure...... Some where inside there is a young man who feels that he is not worhty of your attention. Perhaps we share the same feelings of want, passion and desire. Perhaps the attraction is the same but the timing is wrong. Perhaps all it will take is for two eyes to meet..... perhaps that will be all it takes and then suddenly there is a distraction and as the two eyes are about to connect............ Perhaps...... but alas the moment is snatched away unfairly by the distraction and the moment, that oh so very special moment is gone........ Don't even let those moments be snatched away, smile at the stranger and take a chance that perhaps, just perhaps he will be the one.

Update 04/14/2010
April 14th update; Bearing in mind my last entry, I'm off sick due to stress & harassment etc . . . . . Today, there was another hand delivery of TWO more letters from work!! Yet again trying to set up a grievence meeting WHILE I'M OFF SICK!!!! Looks like I'm back on the sleeping tablets tonight :( I phoned my lawyer & emailed the letters to him, now I just have to calm down again . . . easier said than done, but I can still laugh about it, the old git's dug himself an even bigger hole now, TWO counts of harassment while I'm off sick, watch those zero's go on the end of my compo HA HA!

Roiling Hate
I'm told I'm an asshole, how bout I just blast you? Lay you on the floor and wait for the cops to swing through the door you're just one big fuckin bore, stupid whore, you should be sure that you stepping through the right door when you see me. Or you just let me beat you, show you how I do. One on one, don't need back on a fronta, an jus like the shutta of a camera I'ma ram ya. Damn ya lil bitch, I wanna see you laying dead in a ditch, man just like the forgotten god Lich, darkness explodes rich. Evil is my power, fear is the tower, I thrive and strive on the top, fuck cop shit, I'm taking whats mine, getting so fat on the way I dine from the fear you feed me. See, already your eyes twitch, so which way did your day go? I followed my flow and now you're payin the price, Blood is the vice in which I bleed but still my seed is what you need to breed Cower as I tower with this power...The spray, the shower of pain... Die mutha fucka die, why wont you just die? I know why, don't hold

The Babies Are 24 Hours Old!
Posted: Tues, April 13, 2010 @ 9:37p.m. Yes, they have survived....all 3 babies....for a little over 24 hours thanks to Ethar's diligent care efforts. When I came home today, Ethar told me that Lurch has taken over "daddy" duties. Lurch would sneak a baby out of the box and clean it if Ethar wasn't constantly watching. Lurch is extremely protective of them...he won't allow Fukker anywhere close to the babies. This is good since Fukker didn't respond well to them. The two black ones are girls and the gray one is a boy. This is one Ethar caught of Lurch blocking one of the girls from trying to wander, blindly, off the sofa. See the tuft of white fur sticking up on the gray one? I've named him Mohawk. Anytime the kittens are out of their box, Lurch is right there watching over them. He seems to instinctively know that they need their asses licked to stimulate the whole pissing process cause as soon as we finish feeding one of them, when we put it down....even if it's facing hi

Lost My "bad Boy" Ways...
Earlier, I went to meet a friend for eats and drinks after she got off work. On my way home, I pulled into a local gas-station for smokes when I saw a brand new shiny Corvette parked next to the handicap ramp SIDEWAYS using TWO parking spots. As I pulled closer, I almost parked right behind it thus blocking it... Now, the OLD Jai would've done it without a thought... But now, multiple scenerios came to mind, especially the fact I had a few drinks and if the cops were called, I'd get to re-visit my ole Portage County Jail... So instead, I pulled into a spot a few cars down. When I looked over, I saw dude getting into his car and quickly turned off my car, grabbed my wallet, and walked over HOPING I could get behind him when pulling out.... At the angle he was, I couldn't do it BUT walked straight up to his car while it was moving and even let it hit my idle cigarette in my hand and then walked straight to the door. I did'nt hear him say anything, and as I opened the door for som

Gay Vs Straight
Seriously there are straight people there are gay people and there are bi. I happen to have bi times and imp not going to deny that but honestly if urn gay don’t make a big deal out of it. If u doesn’t want ne one to know then doesn’t say anything. hell u could be as gay as a football bat and no ones going to care as long as u don’t make a huge deal out of it. ok should everyone that is straight run around asking for a silent day to support being straight... no so just stop I’m sorry but I’m a very blunt person if u don’t like it fine stay off but other than that I don’t give a shit. I will say that so gay all I want. Nobody sees it as a problem to say that retarded or that’s stupid. And there are retarded and stupid people out there so what. At least they don't announce it to the world they just live their lives.

Dreamer
youre always in my dreams at night, youre always in my thoughts, i dream about you day and night even though youre not around. i cant wait to be in your arms again. you make me a lot stronger everytime youre around me but when i feel weak youre there to pick me up and make me strong again. i couldnt have asked for a better best friend and you mean the world to me and nothing can change that. i love to see you in my dreams day or night and its only you i dream about. sometimes when i look in the mirror i see you in it with me but when i look again youre not there. now that i know youre a marine i feel alot safer and more protected and i want to thank you for that. i will always support you and you will always be in my heart

Just Shit In My Head Atm
Waiting On The Edge Of Whats Right For You And Whats The Right Thing To Do. There Is A Thin Line That Line Sometimes Becomes Blurred. It Even Disappears. What Do You Do Then. Do You Let Ur Heart Jump Or Do You Let Your Brain Make You See Reason. Do You leave Your Self Open To Happiness or Worse Misery. Or Do You Close Your Self Off Devote Your Self To Loneliness. What Do You Do When You See Everything You Ever Wanted But You Can't Have It. What Do You Do When You Find The Right One For You Only To Have To Watch That Person Be Happy With Another. Do You Wallow in Self Pitty Or Do You Suck It Up And Move On. What Ever You Do Don't Forget You. Only You Can Make You Happy Only You Can Love You The Way You Need. Because In The End You Is All You Have. So Treat You Right.

Hell
you gotta love this guys explanation of hell... The following is an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid-term. The answer by one student was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well: Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)? Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following: First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today.

Worrying
In this world you have two things to worry about: Whether you are rich, or whether you are poor. If you are rich you have nothing to worry about. If you are poor you have two things to worry about: Whether you are healthy, or whether you are unhealthy. If you are healthy you have nothing to worry about. If you are unhealthy you have two things to worry about: Whether you will live, or whether you will die. If you live you have nothing to worry about. If you die you have two things to worry about: Whether you go up, or whether you go down. If you go up you have nothing to worry about.

Not Crazy
I'm not crazy. W00-H00! (Not in a bad way so shut up!) Have you ever had one of those ex's that for whatever reason wanted to make you think the entire time that you were crazy and that there was something wrong with you? Have you ever had one of those times in your life that you began to believe them that something was wrong with you? Then have you ever started turning things around without them then go to that point where you had to find out the truth once and for all only to find out that everything that you thought that they were doing behind your back was in fact reality. I had all this happen and I am looking at the postive of it right now. The good from this being that I was right and I am learning from this to trust my own insticts and intuitions more. I am also free now emotionally to pursue a relationship with a really good guy that a month ago I was not ready to fully open up to and now I am able to do so. Okay so I can't think of anything else good about it right

Felt Sorry
I felt sorry for myself because I had no shoes until i met a man with no feet...... Anyhow I 'chuckified my shirt' Definition of Chuckified is : Anything dripped on your shirt from good greasy food. dig it p.s. I need to know if you cyber love me.................tell me

How Dare U Demand To See And Part Of My Body Wth Is Wrong With People
To The Downrater: i in no way have to show u any part of my body fuck you To The Downrater: u son of a bitch u act like i have to show u my feet stfu The Downrater: not the point....I always been nice to u....and u keep dickin me around....Im sick of it To The Downrater: i had it but i guess i deletled it .. oh well To The Downrater: lil obbessed with feet? geez i have better things to do then take feet pics i have a earache The Downrater: now I feel like Im buggin u so Ill ask one more time and then I give....do u have a feet pic or not? btw i relize its just feet , but i mean how can people demand to see any part of u and get pissed when u havent gotten around to it , when u in no way owe then anything

For My Friends
For the past few days, I have been a wreck. For those that don't know, I lost my grandmother on friday. This is just another lash of the whip on me for the past six months. First off, I would like to apologize to all of my friends, for not really being the person I should be, and for just being a basket case. I've had a lot on my plate lately, and it seems as though anytime something starts to go better, the gods look down and throw another lightning bolt in my path. It gets hard, because I have to keep myself together around my son, and so when I don't have him, the strain of holding it all back gets to me. I would really like to thank my wonderful family of the Revolution. You guys accepted me, and have really been great for putting up with me this week end even though I've been an ass. I'd especially like to thank Mysterious, Mystic, Bad Girl and Mudd. You four specifically have helped me from really spiraling. Also, I'd love to thank my bestie Zombie Cupcake, and her ro

Chili Judging Contest
CHILI JUDGING CONTEST:>>A Texas Chili Contest>>If you can read this whole story without laughing then there's no hope for>you.>>>For those of you who have lived in Texas, you know how true this is.>They actually have a Chili Cook-off about the time Halloween comes>around. It takes up a major portion of the parking lot at the city park.>The notes are from an inexperienced Chili taster named Frank,>who was visiting from Canada.>>Frank: "Recently, I was honoured to be selected as a judge at a>chilli cook-off. The original person called in sick at the last>moment and I happened to be standing there at the judge's table>asking for directions to the Coors Light truck, when the call came>in. I was assured by the other two judges (Native Texans) that the>chilli wouldn't be all that spicy and, besides, they told me I>could have free beer during the tasting, so I accepted".>>Here are the scorecards from the event:>>~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~>>Chili # 1 Mike's Maniac Mobster Monster C

Aniv Poem
The years have have come to us,Many seasons have gone.But through it all,One thing always remains strong. With each passing year,My love for you has grown.Your love for me unmatched,Takes me places I would have never known. Today on this most special day,A day that forever remembers our love.I wish for an eternity with you,And for you,Thank the heavens above.

Seriously Do You Hate Me?
Sooo...ok. I've been on fu for a year and 2 months now, almost 3. And things were great in the beginning, before the new levels opened. Could get bling for 100K per credit, ppl were more honest, ppl were more thoughtful when you did things for them. People were just...different. It's like now everyone is overcome with greed and "gimme gimme gimme" and it's all about THEM. In the last week I have helped 3 people level. 1 of them said "cool ty" when I spent an hour rating all their pix, sent people to bomb them, even offered to pay ppl to bomb them b/c they weren't running autos. This is a person I thought cared about me...he had 176K to level, I accomplished 121 some odd thousand on my own cuz it was double points day, then sent 6 or 8 ppl to do the rest. I was following them along and they were sooooo happy. But I get little to no recognition for it. The next day I see that person droppin big ass blings on my WORST ENEMY'S page. Yea I got a little mad b/c they know how I feel about t

Does Being Different Make A Difference In A Relationship?
I have been in a relationship for 7 years now, the longest relationship I have ever been in. This relationship I have been in is also my first sexual relationship. My girl friend and I haven't lived together for the last four years. We struggled with finances and lost our home. The one thing that makes the relationship interesting, I was born with Spina Bifida. Being disabled never seemed to be an issue. Until recently, there has been a change in attitude towards me and my well being. It really bothers me now that all this time leading up to now my being "physically different" has effected our relationship. I have always fought for our relationship to try and keep it together. I always had a hard time with relationships, because I am different. It really bothers me now that things are the way they are now. We fight alot there is a lack of attention and affection if any or none at all. The way things are headed now, the relationship won't last much longer, no matter how hard or

Freakin Cool
So im playing on facebook and this man sent my mom a link about the dinosaur tracks in my town & it turns out there are human footprints also! It's kind of awesome. The river is way too high over where they are to see them right now but our next dry season i am DEF going snap some damn pictures. http://www.bible.ca/tracks/taylor-trail.htm hopefully that link works. google chrome is kind of gay. Anyway if you're even interested it's called the Taylor Trail on the Paluxy River in Glen Rose.

Desires Are Burning With In
My heart is pounding, my throat is dry, I have this desire deep with in me that can burn a whole if u come near me. when i loook into his eyes my body quivers inside. My legs feel limber and they want to give way. My nipples poke out and tingle with great sensation. My bearth is hot , my lips are full, urning for some deep effection, Can't you see my body is aching ,calling you out by name, come realse me of this desire for my heart is on fire.

Fubar
This is the damndest thing I ever saw on the internet. I wish someone would help me figure it out. Do people meet in real life from thier introductions here? there's so much here I can't get my head around it all. I am very active on other social sites and blog extensively there. Don't know what to say here with all this weirdness.

Dj Battle, 29 May 9pm Est
ELECTRIK ENTERTAINMENT DJ BATTLE RULES 1.ALL MUSIC IS LIVE MIX...PRERECORDED TRACKS NOT ALLOWED (and we will know) 2. THERE WILL BE 3 PRESELECTED JUDGES. ALL JUDGES ARE RANDOM PICKED. 3. DJ'S WILL EACH DO A 15 MINUTE SET PER BATTLE WITH JUDGEING AFTER EACH BATTLE 4. JUDGED ON... 1. CLEAN MIX 2. VARIETY OF TRACKS 3. MIX ABILITY 4. THUMBS UP EMOTES WILL BE COUNTED UP DURING YOUR MIX AND COUNT AS POINTS ON SCORE AS THIS IS HOW THE LISTENERS WILL BE VOTING. 5. 500 K ENTRY FEE AND LOUNGE WILL MATCH TOTAL OF ENTRY FEE AND ALL FUBUCKS TO BE SPLIT BETWEEN TOP 6.

4 Da Playerz
Everyone is allowed to speak their mind...So just because Fubar says "3,920,318 members" don't mean this is not a tight nit group of people...everyone talks or knows someone who knows another...so for da dudez that think they can play it off that ur one women's man when ur not...HAAHAA...you'll get caught!!! So if you think you got game...well da girlz know better babe! Peace Out!

Hopeless
A litany of hopelessnessOverwhelming, envelopingmy very soul... Tormenting, tauntingThoughts so treacherousmy aching heart... Will the answers comeHaunting questionsgiving freedom... Cursing my mindRestricting my souleternal hell... Life in a tortured soulQuestions unansweredburning my mind...

Kinship
Kinship When you fall prey to hypnotic ideaspeople that promise history, pro-offered love,Do they realize the seduction in these words?Family knowledge, loyalty, and intimacy... Kinship Do they know how indescribably exotic this seems?After a barren, lonely, self-serving existence lead.A plant that knows sun only through paneled glass.A feeling of inadequacy, no matter a lifetime of reality. Kinship Overwhelming as the perfume of the flowers growing.All opening their arms declaring a closeness unknown.Fascination not to be interrupted by negativity.Such hypnotic ideas are foreign to me thus far...

Alive
Pain seering hot Once hidden, alive Coarsing thru me the depth of pain beneath the smile Dark and void It creeps in I breathe, alive razor edge fighting within the deep abyss Hidden it remains frightened, alive

She Waits
She hears the chimes Of time gone by without the knowledge Of one to hold her dear. She feels the wind whistling through the air without the heat Of ones passion so deep. She knows one is near to knowing what she is in depth of her soul She waits

You Spin My Head Right Round.....
The last person you kissed on the lips, are you two a couple?uh huhHow did you meet?Bowling. He was suppose to be on my team, but didn't show up for 2 weeks. So, he was put on another team.Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?Not smiling, but happy.Did you have a good day yesterday?Of course I did.What is bothering you right now?Nothing, right now....Have you ever broken someone’s heart?I'm sure I have.Ever had a sleepover with the opposite sex?SureBeen called pretty recently?Pretty, no. But I was called beautiful a few days ago.Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?Night.Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?No.Were you happy when you woke up today?Yeah.Do you hate the last person you kissed?Oh no. I love him!Did you and the last person you kissed date?.....we are now.Are you drifting away from someone you were close with?Sadly, I am.Are you taken/single?Taken.Is there something you wanna let go of?I don't think so, but it's early and I need

It Was All A Joke
I came to have a good time and spend time with someone that seemed to have wanted me around for my birthday. The first 3 days were great and since Monday everything seems to have been a joke. Everything he told me has been a lie. He wonders why I don't love on him or show affection and it's because that damn phone is his life. I gave mine up to be here. He seems to think that it was alright to make me choose between him and my best friend and seems to think my best friends words are what is coming between us and in all reality what's doing it is him. He is allowing someone's words and protective manner affect how and what he does with me. I have told him I can't do this and that it is too much. I am hopefully back on a bus Monday to return home. Some birthday huh?

30 Pimpouts & 20 Mil Fubux
Ok Im trying to get as close to leveling as possible and its not going to well. With the exception of a few ppl helping me out. So Im offering 30 pimpouts to be used through out a month. (use them how u want just let me know ahead of time. Limit 3 a day) and 20 Million fubux. Id like to get a Cherry Bomb and a Auto 11. But we can always work something out. Plz Shout me or leave me a msg or comment and let me know if you are interested in working something out. Plz share this blog if u can. Thanx Ravin Ive upped the fubux value to 30 million fubux instead of 20 million!

I Guess Philly Cops Won't Respond To Female Callers Anymore.
Monday, Philadelphia Police officers will no longer be responding to minor fender benders.Motorists will have to fend for themselves and call the nearest police district on their own.Philadelphia Police officials said they respond to nearly 70,000 auto accidents each year, adding about 10,000 do not require a police officer."We can save police response time and have officers available for more important, pressing issues," Lt. Frank Vanore explained.Beginning Monday, accidents that involve vehicles that can be safely driven away and no injuries to report can now exchange information and file a police report on the phone."If there's an issue that you don't feel can be resolved without the officer there, the dispatcher will evaluate that on the phone when you call 911 and then he/she will have an officer respond," Lt. Vanore said.Several other cities, including Chicago, are already utilizing the policy.

Hall Of Fame April 2010
Hall of Fame April 2010 Great Job Gladiators! Highest Earning Attacks4/25 WIN: Caligula ~-Glad... attacked killer kitty but still lost 4 health while dealing 16 damage and gaining $27,500 with 5 experience. 4/26 WIN: Jupiter attacked redmom but still lost 33 health while dealing 45 damage and gaining $42,000 with 18 experience. 4/26 WIN: NEPTUNE attacked The Kevster - ... but still lost 172 health while dealing 389 damage and gaining $81,000 with 11 experience. Highest Earner of All Time

To Bling Or Not To Bling.....
You know some thing about fubar that has always bothered me, is how people wanna be mad at you for wanting bling. Let's face YES we all want a little bling on fubar. So Why do people get so mad when they see someone ask or maybe even beg? I will be the 1st to admit I have done both. But on the same side I have done my fair share of blinging people at random and people who ask. I also however try to do other things for bling such as rate entire albums or make pictures for people. I try to be as fair as possible! But what really bugs me is how some ladies and some men for that matter, dont even so much as bat a fucking eyelash and they get any bling they want! Thats what pisses me off. So in conclusion does some begging a little really that bad? Cause on the backside you dont know what that person has done for that bling.... Please comment! Keep If Nice Please....

Strength!!!!
THOUGHTS RACE THROUGH MY MINDPUPILS DIALATED CAN'T UNWINDSTOMACH ACHES PAIN IN LEGSIT'S TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE THIS PLACEDISGUISE MYSELF FROM MY MYSELFTIME TO BECOME SOMEONE ELSE THE DRUGS DON'T WORKTHREE PINS IN THREE STRIKES OUTDEATH WILL COME WITHOUT A DOUBTO.D. AT 21 O.D. 27 THE REEPER WILL FIND METIME FOR CHANGE NOW IS THE TIMEDESPERATION DISPAIR THE DESIRE IS HERE2ND TIME IN IT'S BECOME MORE CLEARDEATH BY ADDICTION HAS BECOME MY FEARLIFE IS BEGINNING A NEW START AGAINMAKE AMENDS TO MYSELF MY GOD MY FAMILY MY FRIENDSI'VE BECOME BORN AGAINIT'S TIME FOR THE CLOUDS TO CLEARNO MORE FEAR NO MORE HATRED IN THE MIRRORNO MORE PAIN NO MORE TEARS THIS LIFE I'VE LIVEDIT STARTED OUT FUNONE DRINK ONE PILL ONE HIT ONE GUNHEAVEN ON EARTH BECAME HELL ON A RUNTHE FUN IS OVER PAST AND DONETIME TO GET SOBER TIME TO GET REALTIME TO SEE THE WORLD TIME TO FEELMY EYES ARE OPEN AND NOW I SEELIFE CAN BE BEAUTIFUL WITH SOBRIETY

Eh
I see you everyday Staring at me Full of contempt Hatred Total disdain I see you watching me As I go about my day I know this will will never get better I feel it in my soul I know these minutes will forever drag into hours Days The years that lie ahead Torterous Devastating Suffocating Impossible to come out whole I cut a part of me out Every single day And I hand it to you on a silver lined tray The blood of my veins The tears held withing You consume so much of me I'm blinded to who I should really be I can't see past all the pain Trying to make the right choices Decide for myself See for myself But I know deep down My decisions will forever be dependent upon your happiness This pain will one day subside And the numbness will rein again...

Cool Hangings
Nothing Important, more like a diary entry... took advantage of the gorgeous weather yesterday and went to a friend's cookout on a lake... real nice time... i got to display one of my odder talents and played oyster shucker for everone... i love rawboys... shucked about six dozen between 2pm and 8pm... drank, a good amount of vodka... didn't get wierd or out of hand and no blackouts... got a ride home from a friend who was playing designated driver for everyone... felt real good to just be normal... maybe i'm back... that's all... like i said nothing important... DP

My Dilemma
This weekend a male friend i have known for over 20 years told me he loved me and had for a long time. He said he could no longer be quiet about his feelings. The problem is that after being so close of friends for so long that if we started dating now and it didnt work i would lose a great friend. The dilemma is do i take a chance at dating him and maybe lose him as a friend or do i just tell him i am not interested in dating him in which case things could be so awkward i lose him as friend anyway. i really dont know what to do.

The Rules For Staying In My Family
ok people some of u seem to forget what the rules are for being in my family on here so here they are: 1). family add for family add!! and yes i do check to see if im in ur family, if i am not.... i will not give u warning but remove u from mine without hesitation 2). NO STEALING MY PICS!!!!! if there is one of my pics that u would like to have, just ask. 3). No going for more then a week without chatting with me or at least lettin me know that u was on my page (for those that are on a different schedule then me) for those of u that were lucky enough to get in my family, u know how u got there so please continue to be respectfull and dont break these simple rules. thanks, jami *aka*swtnsxyj

This Is How We Speak.
So in cleaning up my computer and deleting old files and pictures (a wonderful trip down memory lane on a peaceful Sunday, I must say), I came across this old conversation. Names edited, of course. But I smirked after I read it and figured I'd share. This is the type of convo I enjoy. Esoteric because we exist on a similar wavelength and don't NEED the extraneous explinations, not because we're trying to be snooty douchers. Make it click like this, if you expect my attention to be kept for very long: Me: You are always different from you, and always the same. But, internet shit doesn't count.Him: No, you know me in person. ME. The asshole.Me: The twitchy contorted hand/face music loving you.Him: What's different between him and HIM?Me: You're the same but so am I to the people that matter.Him: No. You wear sweatpants, and have less than perfect skin, and value knowledge over people. But you make yourself into a sex goddess online. Or others have, and you play along...Hmm...Me: I have

Non-toxic Cleaning Recipes
I found this in a magazine at one of the health/organic grocery stores I go to. Thought it was interesting and want to try some. I'm doing the fabric softener one now. Feel free to use and or all of these. ALL-PURPOSE CLEANER Suggested uses: hard surfaces like countertops and kitchen floors, windows and mirrors. 2 cups white distilled vinegar 2 cups water 20-30 or more drops of essential oil (optional) Tip: warm in microwave until barely hot to boost cleaning power for tough jobs. (only microwave in a glass container.) CREAMY SOFT SCRUB Suggested uses: kitchen counters, stoves, bathroom sinks, etc. 2 cups baking soda ½ cup liquid Castile soap 4 tsp vegetable glycerin (acts as a preservative) 5 drops antibacterial essential oil such as lavender, tea tree, rosemary or any other scent preferred (optional) Mix together and store in a sealed glass jar; shelf l

Sexual Hell Test
Your result for The Sexual HELL Test ... HELL LEVEL 3 Raw score: 81% There's a special place in Hell for you: the basement penthouse. You scored the nastiest possible score on the Sexual Hell Test. You have no sexual restraint whatsoever. You'll take pleasure however you can get it, and my guess is you get it a lot. If for some reason you don't right now, you will soon, as people in your category only tend to spiral down ever deeper into the abyss of carnality and delicious sin. Congratulations.I, personally, think that this category is the best. Paradoxically enough, sexual liberation and indulgence can only bring you closer to purity.AVOID: all but level 3 hellions like yourself. You wouldn't want to ruinanyone, now would you? Take the quiz here: http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-sexual-hell-test

Bring Me Down
by Miranda Lambert Sweet like a kiss sharp like a razor bladeI find you when I' m close to the bottomYou cant appreciate the time it takesTo kick a love I always knew was kind of wrongAnd as I'm putting out the flameSomebody brings up you nameOh oh oh ohBaby baby baby bring me downI want to be right where you areBaby baby baby bring me downYou can look me in the eye and break my heartBreak my heartSix AM unruffled pillowLaughs out loud at my trusting heartIt's like I didn't see the pennyI missed the fountain by a couple yardsIf you would only stay goneMaybe I could move onOh oh oh ohBaby baby baby bring me downI want to be right where you areBaby baby baby bring me downYou can look me in the eye and break my heartBreak my heartOH! Baby baby baby bring me downI want to be right where you areBaby baby baby bring me downYou can look me in the eye and break my heartBreak my heartOH! Baby baby baby bring me downI want to be right where you areBaby baby baby bring me downYou can look me in

Landslide
by Fleetwood Mac Took my love and I took it downClimbed a mountain and I turned aroundAnd I saw my reflection in the snow covered hillsWell, the landslide brought me downOh, mirror in the sky, what is love?Can the child within my heart rise above?Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?Can I handle the seasons of my life?Well, I've been afraid of changin''Cause I've built my life around youBut time makes bolder, children get olderI'm getting older too, wellWell, I've been afraid of changin''Cause I've built my life around youBut time makes bolder, children get olderI'm getting older too, well, I'm getting older tooSo take this love and take it downYeah, and if you climb a mountain and you turn aroundAnd if you see my reflection in the snow covered hillsWell, the landslide brought downAnd if you see my reflection in the snow covered hillsWell maybe, well maybe, well maybeThe landslide will bring you down

We're No Good Together By Tesla
(Keith, Luccketta, Hannon) Every day, yeah yeah, I wait till the morning light Ooh with a feeling, yeah yeah, something here ain't right When I think about it now, oh baby, ooh When I think about all the good times we had I knew there was something wrong, there was no chance for me and you Oh now, now I try to tell you baby, there ain't nothing we can do 'Cos I'm no good for you, oh no baby, you're no good for me Now it's been so long, so long, since the last time I've seen your face I tell ya, there ain't nobody baby, in this whole wide world Who could ever take your place, no way, oh no Now I try to tell you baby, there ain't nothing we can do 'Cos I'm no good for you, no baby, you're no good for me Oh, what I'm tryin' to say is, we're no good together You know we can't go on, we can't go on together, no, oh baby Honey we can't go on, we can't go on this way, baby, oh yeah Listen to me, oh listen to me, I got something to say, I got something to say I say that we're no good tog

So What Do You Want To See?
here is your chance to have your opinion count! give me your ideas on what you want to see in my pics!! and no i dont mean gross shit.... so the faster you leave me your ideas on what you want me to take pics of the faster you'll see what you want!! just leave me some comments is all you have to do!

Open Letter To Obama
By Lou Pritchett, Procter & GambleA LETTER FROM A PROCTER AND GAMBLE EXECUTIVE TO THE PRESIDENT* THE LAST SENTENCE IS THE MOST CHILLINGLou Pritchett is one of corporate America 's true living legends- an acclaimed author, dynamic teacher and one of the world's highest rated speakers. Successful corporate executives everywhere recognize him as the foremost leader in change management.. Lou changed the way America does business by creating an audacious concept that came to be known as "partnering." Pritchett rose from soap salesman to Vice-President, Sales and Customer Development for Procter and Gamble and over the course of 36 years, made corporate history. AN OPEN LETTER TO PRESIDENT OBAMA Dear President Obama: You are the thirteenth President under whom I have lived and unlike any of the others, you truly scare me. You scare me because after months of exposure, I know nothing about you. You scare me because I do not know how you paid for your exp

Keep Your Luvin Constictors Safe/an Your Rights To Own
the best way to pretect your pet constrictors an rights to own them is to speek out ,dont keep what u have to say in your head .an keep your constrictors housed propperly.not just some plywood box or aquirem they need propper housing good owners knw this.though.im not here to tell anyone how to keep their pets.but 4 u that keep them safe .an knw they need are help to live .please protect them from others such as gov .no person or goverment should hav the wright to destroy such creachers if it was a aligators killing humans they would just capture an remove to better enviromet.so why not do the same with pytons of florida im ashame i was born in a state wheir thy are destroying such creachers.an what they are not telling everyone is that the indigo snake can reach 12 ft i knw this because ive seen first hand that they can an do an indigo snakes can be just as dangerouse as any pyton to tell all of u the truth any snake can kill its in their nature .so dont let goverment bs anyone .a

Music
Standing firm against all odds guarding the most sacred home. We protect the realm of Gods our destiny is carved in stone. Three evil giants from the South are constantly on the attack. With lies and fire, from their mouths, but we always send them back. We are brothers, of the Norn, who are sharing the Old Father's blood. Marching down the left hand path, we are spawned by Asa Gods. Cuz we are we're the guardians guardians of Asgaard. Guardians of Asgaard. Guardians... of Asgaard. We have faced our enemies, a thousand times, or even more. Still they cannot make us kneel, one thousand years of constant war. The giants look for, any chance, to bring down Asgaards mighty walls. No matter what they send at us, We will never let it fall. Cuz we are... we're the guardians Guardians of Asgaard Guardians Guardians of Asgaard Guardians of Asgaard. Standing firm against all odds. We are guarding Asgaards mighty walls. We protect the realm of Asa Gods.

Rip Justaly69
just found out from a fu friend that justaly69 passed away. SHe was a very caring person, all my fu friends and family can say some prayers for her, write the link down and go say something nice. http:\\fubar.com\alybaby69 thanks suzie

Real Live Woman
by Trisha Yearwood I don't buy the lines in magazinesThat tell me what I've gotta beDon't base my life on a movie screenDon't fit the mold society has plannedI don't need to be 19-years-oldOr starve myself for some weight I'm toldWill turn men's heads - been down that roadAnd I thank God I finally know just who I amI ain't a movie starMay never see the view from where they areAnd this old town may be as far as I'm goin'What he'll hold tonight in his handsHe swears is so much better thanAnything this old world can show himI'm a real live womanIn love with this man I see lyin' here next to meLost in the way that he's holdin'This real live womanIn the arms of a man where I'll fall asleep knowin' there'sNothin' on earth he loves more thanThis real live womanI work 9-5 and I can't relateTo millionaires who somehow fateHas smiled upon and fortune made theirCommon lives a better place to beAnd I no longer justifyReasons for the way that I behaveI offer no apologiesFor the things that I belie

American Or What????
THE NEWS TOLD A STORY OF 4 BOYS WHO WERE KICKED OUT OF SCHOOL BECAUSE THE TEE SHIRTS THAY HAD ON WERE OF THE AMERICAN FLAG. FIRST OFF, " THE VISE PRINCE ASSHOLE" SAID THE SHIRTS COULD MAKE THE MEXICAN STUDENTS MAD, AFETR ALL IT WAS MAY5TH. WELL I SAY TO FUCKEN BAD!!!!!! IF THE FUCKEN MEXICAN'S WHO BITCHED ABOUT DOSENT LIKE IT GO BACK TO YOUR OWN SHIT HOLE OF A COUNTRY!!!!! ONE STUDENT WHO WAS MEXCAN, SAID IT WAS DISRESPECTFUL TO HER, WELL SORRY YOU DUMB FUCKING MAEIXCAN CUNT, SEE WAS ARE AMERICANS FIRST THEN WERE WE CAME FROM SECOND !!! YOUR NOT MEXICAN-AMERICAN....YOUR AMERICAN -MEXICAN AND THETS JUST THE WAY IT IS !!!!!!!!

Update On Me
Wow, it's been exactly a month, well a day shy, that I've logged onto this site. Odd how I used to spend so much time on here but now I haven't had much interest at all. Doesn't mean I'm getting rid of my account...just hop in whenever. Life's been pretty good. Still in the process of getting divorced, it's unbelievable. I texted my ex a couple weeks ago asking him, AGAIN, when he will be able to pay for his share of the divorce...he told me in two weeks...which is this week now. I told him..well I hope so cause I was in the process of getting him served. I will be texting him again in a few days to see if he'll have the money, if not...He has till the end of this month, or he WILL be served. I'm fucking tired of waiting and all of his bullshit. I found out that he's been paying for his gf's rent, when she's still living with family, over doing his car payments and saving money for the divorce. That pissed me off. Dumbass still doesn't have his license...so dad is still the co sig

Lay-off Letter From An Excellent Boss!
Seems fair to me...... A Lay-off letter from an excellent boss!Dear Employees: As the CEO of this organization, I have resigned myself to the fact that Barrack Obama is our President and that our taxes and government fees will increase in a BIG way. To compensate for these increases, our prices would have to increase by about 10%. But since we cannot increase our prices right now due to the dismal state of the economy, we will have to lay off sixty of our employees instead. This has really been bothering me since I believe we are family here and I didn't know how to choose who would have to go. So, this is what I did. I walked through our parking lot and found sixty 'Obama' bumper stickers on our employees' cars and have decided these folks will be the ones to let go. I can't think of a more fair way to approach this problem.. They voted for change...... I gave it to them.I will see the rest of you at the annual company picnic.. THE BOSS -- If you want to be Dumb, You Got To Be

I Miss You Mommy
For My Mother in Heaven: If roses grow in heaven, Lord, pick a bunch for me ~ Place them in my Mother's arms &tell her they're from me ~ Tell her that I love & miss her, & when she turns to smile ~place a kiss upon her cheek & hold her for awhile ~ Because remembering her is easy ~I do it everyday~ There's an ache within my heart that will never go away......Happy Mother's Day in Heaven Mom

Top Ten Reasons Mothers Dread Mothers Day!!!
10. Women have to do all the work 9. Some Husbands don't feel they have to celebrate their wives on Mother's Day because they aren't "their mothers" 8. Many mothers are missing special women in their life on Mother's Day 7. Mother's Day is just like any other day 6. The family forgets and mothers end up feeling neglected 5. Mother's Day is more stressful than relaxing 4. It feels too forced/your family is not being genuine in actually trying to please you 3. Mother's Day sucks because it's not a statutory holiday 2. There is too much media hype surrounding the day 1. Gifts Well, number one on the list can be a tricky one, every Mom is different, some love homemade gifts while some want that day at the spa. The best way to approach the gift giving aspect of Mother's day is to go with the go-to advice "it's the thought that counts". ‘Thought' being the key word, you have to know what the special lady in your life would want to feel appreciated and go in that direction

True Friendship
TRUE FRIENDSHIP!! WHAT IS A TRUE FRIEND YOU ASK,,, A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO IS THERE FOR YOU,SOMEONE WHO IS REALLY TRUE BLUE. A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO WILL CALL YOU OUT WHEN YOUR WRONG AND HAVE YOU SINGING A WHOLE NEW SONG. A TRUE FRIEND WILL BE THERE REGUARDLESS OF HOW MANY FIGHT YOU HAVE AND STANDS STRONG BEHIND YOU LIKE MOSES STAFF. A FRIEND WILL STAY WITH YOU UNTIL YOU SEE, JUST HOW STRONG A PERSON YOU CAN BE,THEY WILL CRY WITH YOU, MAYBE EVEN FIGHT WITH YOU,BUT JUST REMEMBER THEY ONLY WANT WHAT BEST FOR YOU,

Tv And Stuff
More on TV commercials Current mood: cantankerous Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities Ok, so I'm usually up quite late and I've noticed something...even withthe TV on in the other room. There are three commercials that are getting a lot of airtime, and they are as follows:1. Extenze male "enhancement" pills2.Lipozene- fat reducing pills3. Chat phone linesand I just remembered another one4. Girls Gone Wild DVD's (still?) Am I mistaken, or are these commercials directed at fat, lonely guys with little dicks? Are they trying to tell me something? Am I up way too late?The answer to all three questions is a definite "YES"Not that I need any of the feces they are smearing all over the airwaves, far from it. I wouldn't mind the Extenze product, however. Surprise the shit out of my girlfriend with that one. Guess what honey, I've been feeding it a good diet. Check it out! BWHAHAHAHA!!! Another beef I have with commercials on late at ni

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I AM NOT IN THE MOOD TO BE AMUSED YOUR FEEBLE ATTEMPTS ONLY CAUSE ME TO SNOOZE IN FACT, I COULD NOT BARE THEM EVEN WITH BOOZE AS PERSISTENT AS YOU ARE, I WILL NOT BE MOVED I AM NO LONGER YOURS TO WOO MY AUDIENCE HAS TAKEN A DEAF EAR TO YOUR TUNES THERE IS NO SOUND, I HAVE PRESSED MUTE WHAT IS IT THAT YOU CANNOT COMPUTE I LOATHE YOU, YOU MAKE ME WANT TO PUKE IF ONLY I COULD GET MY HANDS ON A NUKE ID FROLIC IN YOUR ASHES AND SOOT

Too Prudish For America
I received a notification from Fubar that my profile picture was removed since i violated their guidelines. If you must know it was one of my pictures in my orange top. It is not bare cheste or not even lingerie. Among other things, it says, the picture should be "nothing deemed sexually suggestive". So let me get this straight. If some prudish fucktard thinks any photo is sexually suggestive, he or she can remove it. I have been told that my face is sexually suggestive. Perhaps I should post a picture of me in my burqa. Perhaps fubar needs to move its servers to Saudi Arabia in order to be consistent with its policies. Fuck yea, this is America, baby and we love sex. If Fubar is under the impression that it is the online version of a classy place, it should check out the top Lounges sometime. Just let us be. Fubar is what its users are. If its users are sexually suggestive, so be it.

Aplication For A Girl
EVEN iF YOU HAVE A BOYFRiEND OR GIRLFRiEND- DO THIS THING!I WANNA SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE SEND THIS BACK! DO IT NOW OR ELSE YOULL HAVE BAD LUCK FOR 5 YEARS STARTING NOW!!! ***{Ladies Title it "Boyfriend Application"}******{Guys Title it "Girlfriend Application"}******Basic Info***o1. Your Name:o2. Age:o3. Fave Color:o4. Whats your sign?o5. Phone Number (you dont have to do this one):o6. Location(you dont have to do this one):o7. Height:o8. Hair (color and style):o9. Piercings/tattoos:***Here Comes The Fun***o1. Are we friends?o2. Would you kiss me?o3. With tongue?o4. Would you enjoy it?o5. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?o6. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?o7. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?o8. Would you walk on the beach with me?o9. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?10. Do you/have you talked about me?11. Do you think I'm a good person?12. Would u take a nap with me?13. Do you think I'm cute?14. If you could change anythin

Read It, Learn It, Understand It And Love It!!
Read it, learn it, understand it and love it!! Your/You’re Your - Refers to something that belongs or relates to – Are those YOUR pants? You’re – You are – You’re an idiot There/Their/ They’re There- There is no such thing as a Santa Clause Their- They have sold their house They’re- THEY ARE- They’re on their way over there! Then/ Than Then- indicating a particular time in the past or future- I was much happier then. Than- When you compare something mostly – I am older than her. This is just one little pet peeve of mine and I see so many 30-65 year olds on this site using t

Alcohol
Alcohol Sedated and Numb I fade from his mind You give him what he wants His emotions go blind I am stripped of him I lose him everytime I long to be his angel But I see he isn't mine I was robbed at birth And again later in life You stole my father I gave up being a wife Constantly first and better I resign myself to alone You have ripped my life apart Left your sins to atone So I lock up my heart Let my love fade Sedated and numb by sadness My emotions drift away I concede him to you You win yet again I am never first And I will never win Melissa Lay May 12,2009

Auction Time!!!
hey fu lets get together for an auction, admission fee is 10,000 to enter, i need at least 10 people but can have more, you can offer and bid anything, if you bid and win then pay up, auction is start May 15th and end May 25th, if you wish to enter leave me a comment on here or send me a pvt message, the day of the auction i will turn off my comment approvals, person with most rates gets a 25 bling pack, 2nd place gets 10 credit bling, 3rd place gets 5 cedit bling! lets get to bidding, best of luck to those who enter!

My Fine Is...worth Every Penny
This is fun to do. Just read the "offense" and if you've done it, you owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each "offense" and added up your total fine. When you are done, post it in your notes. Change the header to "My fine is $........" You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine. Smoked pot -- $10 Did acid -- $5 Ever had sex at church -- $25 Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40 Had sex with someone on Facebook -- $25 Had sex for money -- $100 Ever had sex with the a Puerto Rican -- $20 Vandalized something -- $20 Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10 Beat up someone -- $20 Been jumped -- $10 Crossed dressed -- $10 Given money to stripper -- $25 Been in love with a stripper -- $20 Kissed someone who's name you didn't know -- $0.10 Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15 Ever drive drunk -- $20 Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50 Used toys while having s

Gremlins
I'm pretty sure most of us have all seen the movie Gremlins. I started thinking about that movie today. And the only thing I could think of was how irresponsible the dad was. I mean seriously who buys there kid a Mogwai? I don't care how mature and responsible you think your child is, that would be a horrible pet for anyone to have. It comes with 3 rules that you think sound simple but in all honesty aren't. Let's take a look at the rules shall we. 1. Keep them away from water. WTF kind of rule is this. I mean sure it makes the Mogwair multiply and spawn evil Gremlins. But why would you buy your child a pet that you can't wash and keep clean? What happens if it goes and gets in mud or something? Are you just supposed to let it wander around your home making a mess of anything and everything it touches? Not to mention would the furry little bastard start to smell at one point? But remember keep it away from water. So now you have to deal with a dirty smelly pet for God knows how

Lips To Lips
Kiss me goodnight before your eyes drift off to a place that I cant see. I shall not be in your dreams but here to wake you with my lips on your tummy. Good morning my love, how was your rest? Your beauty is over welming to my heart. Your soul is pure when we are such an outkast. Your touch is so gentle when you could be rough. Your hair smells like a garden of flowers and your skin is the rose that I hold so dear. I want to show you off to the world, be proud my love. They dont make people like us. Not afraid, Not worried, Not scared to be just...alive. ...With the rainbow and God by our side, never letting go of what makes sense..I pray that you will see that we are ment to be, maybe one day you will come true and no longer my angel in the waiting. ~wasnt wrote for anyone in my life..just felt like laying words down

Poetry
As the wind whispers The world results in change The clouds float by slowly Always out oWhich always hangs around Always out of range The tree's leaves fall Red, green, orange Beautiful for all As the wind whispers The grass lays down It bows to the sun Which always hangs around As the wind whispers The ocean ripples with life As the wind whispers A smile crosses my face Whispers in the wind Produce a kindred soul We all need somebody Somebody special to love ***Another poem I wrote in 99***

Web Gathering Places
what is it with all of these web places to gather i swore up and down id never get on myspace what happend i was talked into it now im getting harrassed by my friends and family yet again to join face book i mean wtf you got me on myspace isnt that good enough i mean come on now give me a break. so what do you all think suck it up and try to remember another password or just ignore them on this one feed back would be appreciated

Better Off Alone
I'll be coming home just to be alone'Cause I know you're not thereAnd I know that you don't careI can hardly wait to leave this placeNo matter how hard I try you're never satisfiedThis is not a home I think I'm better off aloneYou always disappear even when you're hereThis is not my home I think I'm better off aloneHome, home, this house is not a home, homeThis house is not a homeBy the time you come home I'm already stonedYou turn off the TV and you scream at meI can hardly waitTill you get off my caseNo matter how hard I try you're never satisfiedThis is not a home I think I'm better off aloneYou always disappear even when you're hereThis is not my home I think I'm better off aloneHome, home this house is not a home, homeThis house is not a home, homeThis house is not a home, homeThis house is not a homeI'm better off aloneNo matter how hard I try, you're never satisfiedThis is not a home, I think I'm better off aloneYou always disappear even when you're ahereThis is n

The Retro Pattern Test
You Are Charming You are a very glamorous person. You are naturally stylish and chic. You have an elegance to you, even when you are keeping things totally casual. You are enchanting. There's something about you that makes you stand out in a room. People may be surprised to learn that you're very down to earth - and even a bit of a romantic. The Retro Pattern Test Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

Zodiac Auction , (come Bid If U Havent (its For My Weekend Bday Bash!) Plz Make Sure Everyone Does Good On It )*if Ur In It Tell Ur Friends To Bid Fo
ZODIAC AUCTION , (COME BID IF U HAVENT (ITS FOR MY WEEKEND BDAY BASH!) plz make sure everyone does good on it )*IF UR IN IT TELL UR FRIENDS TO BID FOR U http://www.fubar.com/images.php?u=3687693&albumid=2061995&idx=0

Rules For Bombing
1) Read status of bomber for christ sake!!!! Leaving status comments, gifts, and rates dont help if they want you in the sb!!! 2) Make sure if bomber asks for links that they work!!!!!! And I'm sorry, if your skin has no contrast and I have to hunt for your bomb folder, you will not be bombed period, no exceptions!! 3) Do not link your profile...link a bomb folder!!!! 4) Do not hit my sb more than once during a single bomb!!!! I know this is a hard one to keep track of but it sucks when I have already bombed you and I get a message that says: "Hurry up! You've already bombed this person" 5) If I ask for autos only in sb....it means im trying to level....ALL I WANT IS AUTOS IN THERE!!!! I dont care how much you are willing to pay. Read the friggen status first. 6) Sometimes I will repay bombs...sometimes I wont. If you have autos on...I will most likely bomb you!! I dont ask for bombs when i dont have autos on...please dont ask me for a repay of bombing

Ronnie James Dio
Metal legend Ronnie James Dio dead at 67 AP, May 16, 2010 5:00 pm PDT By WAYNE PARRY, Associated Press Writer Wayne Parry, Associated Press Writer Ronnie James Dio, whose soaring vocals, poetic lyrics and mythic tales of a never-ending struggle between good and evil broke new ground in heavy metal, died Sunday, according to a statement from his wife and manager. He was 67. Dio revealed last summer that he was suffering from stomach cancer shortly after wrapping up a tour in Atlantic City, N.J. with the latest incarnation of Black Sabbath, under the name Heaven And Hell. Metal legend Ronnie James Dio dead at 67 AP, May 16, 2010 5:00 pm PDT By WAYNE PARRY, Associated Press Writer Wayne Parry, Associated Press Writer Ronnie James Dio, whose soaring vocals, poetic lyrics and mythic tales of a never-ending struggle between good and evil broke new ground in heavy metal, died Sunday, according to a statement from his wife and manager. He was 67. Dio revealed last summer that h

Masters Treat
It was Saturday and I was good all week so Master said I was going to get a treat tonight and I could not wait. When my Master got home that night I was waiting for him in the room on my knees. I listened as he did his normal thing while I staid where I was waiting for him to tell me my reward was going to be. "Well Kitty you where such a good girl that I told you that you where going to get a treat. Well I think I made you wait long enough so here is your surprise." He throw something to where it hit the floor right in front of me. When I saw that it was a new toy I knew what Master had in mind for the most part. "Be a good Kitty and get up and strip for Master before picking up your new toy and then get on the bed. Smiling I get up and do as he said, I slowly take off my close and then I picked up the toy before siding on the bed. I noticed then that my Master was only going to watch me while I use the toy on me. Blushing I look at my Master to see what I am to do first. "Now yo

The Beauty Of A Woman
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides

True Love
True love I do not believe in true love. I believe in MANY true loves. Sometimes one at a time. More often is several at a time. No one particular love more than another. Just different capacities. One has brought me to my knees... Another showed me new heights. Heights, without that love, I could have never achieved. I have been shown the path of submission. And been shown the path of the Dominant. Each time I have grown to learn about and accept ME. I now realize I can be both and embrace both worlds wholeheartedly! I have been beaten down by some...Put on a pedestal by others. No matter what has been done...It has made me who I am. Sometimes a little girl lost. Then other times, a woman so strong...you wish to run. Without those loves...I am nothing...nothing at all. Often that love is a wonderful bond that only friends can share...Does not mean you aren't a true love!!! It means you are truer than most! And when I find that bond...my affection is uny

In One Week Two Of My Artistic Idols Gone...
Such a fucking bummer. First Frank Frazetta goes which is utterly devastating in and of itself - I still had this crazy dream that I'd still get the chance to meet him. I did not. His wife had died last year and he had closed down his museum and website and I kind of knew that he may go soon after her, She was the main inspirado for his female figures and being together for so long I would imagine just a huge support to him altogether. He was quite old and had a very long and fruitful career and did what he wanted to do. "When it came to my art, I kind of went my own way - I didn't follow trends."

Ignoring Yourself
I believe that I suffer from two fundamental forms of fear: fear of not getting what I want, and fear of losing what I have. In that both stem from actual or "perceived" threats to my actual or "perceived" survival, I also believe that both aspects of fear are derived from my underlying fear of my actual or "perceived" death. It would then follow that a good deal of my daily anxiety is a result of my faulty perception. And by faulty perception I mean, "wow, am I a whack job or what?" Which leaves me with only two possible solutions regarding fear -- change my perception, or, failing that, ignore my perception. The reason I bring this up is that in the ever-widening world of self-improvement, I never see "ignoring yourself" offered up as a viable solution to problems of the mind. And yet, it works! Next time your head is filled with anxious thoughts, simply take note of it, thank your mind for trying to ensure your survival, then act as if you just got a stock tip from a homeless pe

I Never Told You
I miss those blue eyes How you kiss me at night I miss the way we sleep Like there's no sunrise Like the taste of your smile I miss the way we breathe But I never told you What I should have said No, I never told you I just held it in I see your blue eyes Everytime I close mine You make it hard to see Where I belong to When I'm not around you It's like I'm alone with me But I never told you What I should have said No, I never told you I just held it in And now, I miss everything about you Can't believe that I still want you And after all the things we've been through I miss everything about you Without you

All I Can Say Is Wow
Two Marines Were Refused Service at Charley’s Philly Steaks by Anti-war employee in Stockton, CA. The two Marines walked up to order lunch, the manager refused to serve them,she stated that they represented the war and she would not serve ...anyone in uniform. Here is the number 209-473-8858

Admit It Hugh Sex Is Over For You
Doesn’t this take the cake. Hugh Heffner, who is 84 years-old, is reported to have vanquished the Shannon twins from the Playboy Mansion. Their misdeed? They were messing around with younger men. Well, duh? Who in their right mind would think Mr. Playboy, at his age, can do anything except cop a feel. Hugh baby, just admit what we all know. Sex is over for you dude. Just relax in your leather chair and reminisce. It all comes to an end for everyone sooner or later. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/05/19/hugh-hefner-dumped-shannon-twins-dating-younger-men-report/ BlastFM is never over for the listening public. 24/7 baby and we don’t miss a beat www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfmhttp

Reloc Sd
I had to pull out of PH for a cpl days, and go do a walk thru survey on a ship in San Diego. This hotel is pretty off the hook. and steps tiers up the hill. This groundskeeper should get some kind of award. Wrought iron access gate comes out right onto Old Town strip with all the bars and vendors and shops. Just came back up to the room for a bit, then prolly heading back down to witness some more fiesta atmosphere and by some shtuff. Went out to the Butcher Shop, and had a kickass steak and calamari strips. The place seems very "soprano-ish" inside, with the red leather tuft booths. The walls are lined with celeb cameos who've dined there, ranging from Bob Hope, to Clint Eastwood, and yes....Chuck Norris lol. Anywho, Im local for another day, if anyone is nearby, come on round the Hacienda, I'll buy ya a drink :)

There's A Nut Case Out There! Lol
The other day I started getting messages from an unknown person. Of course it's a new profile with no picture or anything. Here are the messages in the order I got them. 5/19 subject: hi i guess you get to be mikes (BLS) news victim to be date raped and put down, but how much do drugies and drunks and guys with no job turn you on, gl with him and have fun going through everything that he put me through subject: ps lets also not forget how he don't have a car cus hes a drunk and can't drive with out crashing subject: pss while you at things with mike be sure and ask him about how quickly he forgot about the 100+ cams in wal-mart where he works to prove the harrassment he gave to me but anyway i am done gl you have ha

The Colors Of The World
The Colors Of The World The colors of the world they are green,white or black..They should not be filled with so much greed,hate or judgment..The colors of the world they are from the heart with love,passion and beauty..For I see the world as a place of being.. a place of life happiness and joy..where as we all should be happy for what we haveour families ,our beliefs and our lives..The love of the land..the fruits,vegetables,the trees and the birds...All the beauty around us..we should all breathe in the love..The love of life... © May21,2010 Patricia Adams

Just A Rant...
Where do I start? It's been a long 2 1/2 years of Fu-Nonsense and I think now is as good of a time as any to get some shit off my chest. For the majority of my time here, I have had a really good time talking to most of you but in recent times the goodness of this place has been sucked out to the point where I hardly even want to get on and do more than check my messages and go back to YIM. The constant begging, bitching and mindless conversation about nothing that really matters has honestly gotten out of control. For the most part, Fubar has become a place where mistreated people (both men and women) with more issues than Reader's Digest (seriously it's still in print but who reads it?) can escape their lives (kids, husbands/wives, and families) and feel like something more important. Before any of you take this to heart, realize that i'm excluding a small percentage of you, especially the ones that I talk to on a regular basis. I have been guilty of being somewhat addicted to the

Please Read :o)
http://fubar.com/mafia/?t=7676 IF YOU PLAY MAFIA OR EVEN IF YOU HAVNT...PLEASE JOIN TURF I JUST MADE...WE MAY LOOSE A LOT...BUT I LOVE LAUGHING...ITS A BRAND NEW TURF...SO AM ASKING MY FRIENDS TO JOIN & HAVE FUN KILLING PPL'S WIF ME :D...ALSO IF U KNOW OTHERS WHO WOULD LIKE TO PLAY & MEET COOL NEW PPL...PLS PASS THIS LINK OUT K....LUVS YA GUYS LORELEIXO

The Beginning
hello this my first blog so be nice. i am. going to share my life good and bad. the real me. I am jim am 53 and a single dad with 2 boys 16 and 18. I was married for 15 years. Ok when i was 7 i was adopted and that is when life went down. at 8 my dad started molesting me but i thought that was the way all families where. i was a very insecure person. I have and still do think that all people give up on me. I did not have a date until i was 17 and that was when i lost my cherry. I think i am ugly but have a big heart. I hate that people judge me for my looks before they ever get to know me. I joined the navy wheni was sixteen. i was homeless from 1975 until 1990. life was not easy but i would not change anything. ok this is a start now if you post and want to know anything ask and i will write about it, well write more when i get requests.

Long Time Here !
I've been here on and off 5 years im no top member not a fu fav by any means but i have enjoyed almost every minute of this place. ive made many lie time friends through this place it started as a social networking site now to me it just seems like a cash register but thats just my opinionas a matter of fact all of this is just an opinion my opinion i havent talked about this to anyone except maybe my uncle Dj Lincoln but just like Ms Mona he doesnt really come here anymore my first 2 years here i spent a small fortune on a site that was starting out and hell yeah i wanted to see it make it we only had my space at the time and that place wasnt very interactive and loaded with foul pedofiles and predators so when i found fu the lost cherry at the that time it was a treat many of us came here for something to do to pass the time a lot of us are disabled and dont get out much so it was perfect for us scrapper made us all feel welcomed myself included our late brother Fat Tony he was be

The Watercolor Test
You Are Highly Expressive You are dramatic, expressive, and even a bit temperamental. You are artistic and creative. You're always dabbling in something. You are very self-aware and introspective. You understand yourself well. You are on a constant journey in life, and you change frequently. You're a shapeshifter of sorts. The Watercolor Test Blogthings: Cheaper Than a Therapist

Clumsy Bitch
Well, its about that time again. To under go some changes.Mentally, and Physically. Im still looking for a job, but really hopping I only have to do part time,and my Husband can get a better job. Speaking of Husband, he and I are working things again. Some of you may of known that back in October we had some problems, but things are better now.I believe people can change, cause I know I have. I'm gonna be bleaching my hair soon.But instead of creating crazy damage to it, and trying to get it white blonde all at once,ecpsecially since i have a hell of a lot of red in it right now, i'm gonna do it gradually. The next step is gonna be a medium light brown with ash undertones, with plenty of highlights.And then go from there.Its gonna be white blonde, with the under layer in front black or chocolate brown. IM hella excited. Ive been wanting to this for a while. Today I was crazy clumsy. Stubbing my toes, and dropping things. I can be clumsy, but today, it was like every 5 minutes.It

Mumm
You know you are bored when you write a blog in the form of a mumm hoping no one will look at it. Should I never show my moobs, or only a little at a time. A. never, yechhhh B. A little at a time, what is the harm?

Hmm...
10:26am I just thought about something that really gets on my nerves. Whenever a guy is trying to get my attention or acts as if he knows me, they tend to call me or any girl "baby". I don't know why I've always gotten annoyed when a guy calls me baby. I mean it's cool if I know him and he's a friend or whatever and calls me baby, but it annoys the fudge out of me when it's a random guy I've never talked to or spoken to, or just a guy who is trying to pick up on me. I mean c'mon now. Can't a guy address a girl by her name? Or can't they just say something softer like hun? Maybe it's just me. Who knows? For example, the last guy I was dating called me baby so many times I got upset and told him to stop calling me that. He asked why if it was just a nickname and word he used. I said it was fine, but it was just overused that I literally wanted to just hang up on him or just walk away or not talk to him at all. We didn't stop seeing each other because of it, we just stopped

You're Welcome To Join
I know a few of you like to read my blogs, for whatever reason. Well, a good friend of mine suggested I start a writing project, so I have. I created a blog outside of here, so that I didnt' have to worry about where I have posted. I now have just a central point of blogging. You can go see it if you want. There will be constant updates as it's a project I want to work on, as well as work on my writing skills. If you're curious, here's the link: http://beingbubbles.blogspot.com/ Cheers.

Well Holy Sh!t My 1st Luv/heartbreak Contacted Me Today
well holy sh!t My 1st Luv/heartbreak contacted me today , he totally ripped out my heart left me so manytimes in worst ways,hell even gave away my bunny to another chick lol i gave him everything from paying all bills, selling everything i had,car, etc etc ... stupid i know but i was 18 and dumb ! anyhow he contacts me today and mentions how I broke him how he couldnt even date again for 2 years and hes dead serons he all like i loved u like alot and you ripped me apart ITs just ironic i suppose how when someones hurting u u dont relize what ur doing to them too I suppose in alot of first love/heartbrakes in young love u both hurt each other alot and not realize it I remeber so much about him till this day i guess i always will and seems he remember even more about me .... I mean were done forever we been for years now.... We are friends tho and will always be.... which for most is hard o do after that so yer all im basically saying is im shocked to find out today how bad i hu

Bling Whores And Life
I suppose since I started the title out of this blog with bling whores, I'll start there first. And I start with this; LOL I make my own money, thank you. And if I get bling packs from others, they aren't free. I pay fubux. I don't get naked. I don't twirk shit on cam. Nothing. The most I've ever done for bling packs, was a topless salute. And I've got great boobs and I have no problem showing them off. That's the most you'll ever find on me. There are some days depending on my mood that I get very frusterated with fu and take things too seriously. But a lot of the time, especially anymore, I can't help but laugh. I'm sorry that when I have time to be here, I'm a rating fool. Just because you're getting bigger bling from some idiot on here, and I rate him, doesn't make ME a bling whore or chaser. Did I SB them? NO. Did I PM them? NO. Did I leave some sweet, suck up comment on their status? NO. Did I ASK them for bling? NO! Get the fuck over yourself. Seriously. You dont own him and

8/5
I wonder if there's a way I could arrange to skip work, play video games, eat strawberry sorbet, and have sex all at the same time. Would the world collapse from too much hedenism and awesome in the same place at the same time?If a day is awesomeand a tree is in the woods does it make a sound as reality is crammed down into a singularity? Only one way to find out. ...I left out motorcycle jumps.

30 Mil Fubucks Lottery!
30 million FuBUCKS up for grabs! DRAWING IS MONDAY 5-31-2010 at NOON FUTIME! Here's how it works. You Fupal me 500k entry fee.. Thats it! The fupal messages are given a number as they come in. the first one i get is #1, second one i get is #2... and so on... At drawing time i use an online random number generator. IT picks the winner, then I FuPal the winner the 30 million. I have done this before with great response. Check my LOTTERY WINNERS FOLDERS IN MY PICS For examples of past winners :D Thanks and Good Luck! FEEL FREE TO ASK ME ANY QUESTIONS :D

Death Is Knocking At My Door
I have finally reached my breaking point....I no longer have an escape...I have nobody to turn to. Death is much more clearer to me. My whole family has given up on me and has thrown me away and my own girlfriend has done the same thing to me as well. I feel I am better off dead than alive. I am lost in the dark fog that I can no longer see the light. I have given up the fight in me is no longer there, I have been fighting for thirty five years. I cannot fight anymore, I no longer have the strength

Late Night Ramblings (really Random)
So here I sit. Listening to the TV in the background, sitting in my parents living room telling myself I really should be sleeping. But I can't. I don't know why. I always seem to have trouble sleeping. My mind just goes and goes and goes. And normally things I think about are nothing to worry about or anything spectacular. It seems to run the most right before I try to lay down to sleep. I'm sure this happens to a lot of people. But have you ever wondered why? Maybe it's because I'm alone, nothing is really distracting me from the random thoughts I've got going on. My brain is stuck in the future. Granted I live my life day to day, I'm constantly thinking of what my life is going to be like in a year or two or 12. Will I be successful? Will I be as I am now? God, I hope not. That's just sad to think about. I guess I'm just to a point in my life where I'm ready for things to start happening. But that won't happen until I start making some moves. Which I plan on doing. But

Not Always Right | Sometimes The Customer Is Right About Being Wrong
Call Center | Los Angeles, CA, USA Me: “Hi, I’m calling from [Company] verifying that you are looking for information on a loan modification.” Caller: “I was, until I found out you could you couldn’t help me.” Me: “Well, sir, I’m not sure why you think that. We have been able to help lots of people. If you would like, I can connect you with a counselor who will be able to let you know what can be done.” Caller: “You can’t do anything for me.” Me: “I can assure you that there is something we can do. At least we can provide you with some information.” Caller: “You can’t do anything unless you are able to invade the Chinese.” Me: “Excuse me?” Caller: “The only way you can help me is by invading the Chinese.” Me: “Well, sir, I think you are right. I don’t think there is anything we can do for you. Have a nice day.”

Not Always Right | Stupid Bytes
Retail | Tennessee, USA Me: “Thanks for coming in! Anything I can help you find today?” Customer: “I need the internet.” Me: “Okay. You need to get connected to the internet at your house?” Customer: “No! I need the internet, idiot. Don’t you guys sell them here with lots of gigglebites and dial-up modems and the like?” Me: “You need a computer tower then? We have plenty of those.” Customer: “No! I need the internet! My friend has an internet and its fast and has 10 gigglebites.” Me: “Okay, I will do everything I can to help you. I would also recommend you grab a copy of one of our guides that should be a great help.” (I show him a copy of Computers for Dummies.) Customer: “Does it come with the internet?”

Where Do You Think Best?
You Think Best While You're Driving In order to be able to think, you need to be able to have time to think. Problem is, there isn't a lot of time for that in your life. When you are driving, you are finally able to let your mind wander. And it wanders to some pretty interesting places. Depending on the conditions, driving can make you feel elated, relaxed, or even frustrated. All of these varying emotions spark a lot of revelations. While the thoughts you have while driving may have a lot of noise in them, there's definitely some insight to be found. Where Do You Think Best? Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

I Did A Bad Thing Last Night...
So I went out for 'girls night out' last night and I drove. I knew I could have a little to drink but not a lot. I ended up having two cocktails and had about 5 shots...of colourful stuff. Not sure what was in there. I wasn't drunk. And I did go Casino for two hours to eat and just let the alcohol dissipate a bit. I drove home anyway. But if I HAD been pulled over I think I would have been in Bwig twouble.

How To Avoid Phishing Scam Bullshit!
I found this article about people phishing LIKES on facebook today and had to laugh, but it is no joke. These type of schemes jack up hundreds of people a day. I think of my mom or poor grandma getting phished this way. I have seen a few attempts to do this on fubar, but we have things for the most part locked down. The scary part is these schemers are always scheming. Golden Rules to not getting phishesd! 1. Don't be a tight ass and let your anti virus expire. Go to www.zdnet.com and download FREE antivirus and anti spyware. 2. Use a good email provider. Gmail, Yahoo, Hotmail, etc are all good and can be trusted. 3. Don't click into any email that looks suspicious. If out of the blue, a bank or paypal or any site sends you an email or redirects you to a page to enter your information, DON'T do it. Take the extra minute and log into that account and see if there is a message from whoever you are dealing with. Most likely there wont be. 4. If you do get hacked, change y

Brenda Is A Fake Here Is The Proof
Brenda: ok hold on..im confirming it ok? log in there first ok? so i can start cancelling the perminute charges ok? cancel Chat 11:47pm reply Brenda: ok dear....dont buy credits there ..it will charge you silly ok? cancel Chat 11:47pm more To Brenda: ok loged on cancel Chat 11:47pm reply Brenda: ok darling i processed your 7 digit id now ok? so we are gonna use this tunnel site ok? this is used to CANCAEL THE PERMINUTE CHARGES OK.so that we will have more airtime....tell me when youre ready...

Bla...nothing...
Papi so cool He def so fine Layin it down like a mastermind Hands roam firmly Touch so benign Feelin it when his hips meet mine Fingers dig in Pull his hair Lips roam slowly His teeth everywhere The growls so deep A primal force Papi so good Have me screamin his name Forgetting myself In every way

Life, Cute & True
Summary of Life GREAT TRUTHS THAT LITTLE CHILDREN HAVE LEARNED: 1) No matter how hard you try, you can't baptize cats.. 2) When your Mum is mad at your Dad, don't let her brush your hair.3) If your sister hits you, don't hit her back. They always catch the second person. 4) Never ask your 3-year old brother to hold a tomato. 5) You can't trust dogs to watch your food.6) Don't sneeze when someone is cutting your hair.7) Never hold a Dust-Buster and a cat at the same time. 8) You can't hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk. 9) Don't wear polka-dot underwear under white shorts.10) The best place to be when you're sad is Grandpa's lap. GREAT TRUTHS THAT ADULTS HAVE LEARNED: 1) Raising teenagers is like nailing jelly to a tree.2) Wrinkles don't hurt.3) Families are like fudge...mostly sweet, with a few nuts 4) Today's mighty oak is just yesterday's nut that held its ground.. 5) Laughing is good exercise. It's like jogging on the inside.6) Middle age is when you choose your cereal for

Happy 28th Birthday Josh..may You Rest In Peace
When I think back, Josh died in February 2003. He was a few months shy of his 21st Birthday. I was reminded today when I took a quick glance on my Facebook account to see what my family was up to. I noticed my cousin, Josh's mother, had made a post in honor of his birthday. The boy would have been 28 years old today... Josh was a real special kid. From the first time he could walk and talk, you could tell something was different about him. Josh had bright blond hair, big blue eyes and a raspy voice. He was full of life...without a care in the world. As the year progressed, Josh had shown a wonderful personality and sense of humor. After his younger brother Jacob had been born, he had convinced me that the new baby's name was Adam. As he grew up, he would come over to our house and after church he would wake my older sister up after she had worked late into the night waitressing. It was like clockwork. There would be a big bang..the blond boy would run by..and following would be my

Humanimals
I would like to put forth that we change what we call ourselves to Humanimals.I hear people all to often deny that they are animals or using the term in a derogatory manner. If you are not an animal, are you vegetable or mineral? We are the animal Human, we are subject to many of the same afflictions that other animals have, but supposedly have the intelligence to overcome them. We see them in our day to day lives, even make jokes about them. The 'terrible twos', the 'little adult' stage,the 'teenage rebellion', the 'seven year itch', the 'biological clock', and the 'mid-life crisis' are all examples. Most are designed to facilitate breeding and a diverse gene pool, but do not fit well into a monogamous relationship, if any wish further explanation on how these were meant to affect breeding, feel free to drop me a line and ask. If we are to overcome them we must be aware of them, educate ourselves about their effects, and be smart enough to overcome the; however in order

Why Yes, I Am A Horny Bastard...
So, the other day i had a conversation through the shoutbox. The conversation will remain confidential. Anyways, to sum up the latter part of the convo, I was told that I was a horrible person because I said that I had a tendancy to leave my mind in the gutter (more or less my words). I could hardly believe what I was just told. Because I'm admittingly a male with a dirty mind, I'm automatically a terrible person? I did some thinking and I now present to you the following gem of knowledge. I am a pervert. I'm a horny bastard who will not think twice to see someone naked or flirt with someone. And guess what? I'm perfectly okay with this and I'll tell you why. All my friends and loved ones know full well that I'm a dirty bastard and they're fine with it because they know something else. I'm a nice guy. I'm a gentleman and a sweetheart. My brand of humor and my mentality are what adds to my charm. Do I force myself on people when they don't want the perversion? No. Contrary to popula

Just A Few Words For You People
Ok, number one, read my fucking profile before attempting a conversation with me. Number two. I am not your baby sitter. I am not your girlfriend. You are not my boyfriend or my girlfriend. If I do not say hello to you right away, please stop freaking out and thinking that i just decided to stop talking to you. Get off of my ass for christs sake. I just cant keep up with everyone at once here you know. I have a real life, and sometimes I just wanna watch tv, or a movie, or read, or have ME time. So ok. there we go.

Love
ISLAND OF FEELINGSThere was once an island where all the different feelings lived: the feelings of Richness,Vanity,Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and Love.One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink. They prepared all their boats and left. Only Love remained.Love wanted to stay until the last moment. When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help.Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me?""No, because there are many silver and gold things on my boat. I have no room for you."Love then decided to ask Vanity, who was also passing in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, help me please!""I can not help you Love. You're all wet and you might damage my boat"Sadness was close by, Love asked, "Sadness, let me come with you."."Ooh ... Love, I am so sad that I need to be alone!"Happiness also passed by Love, but he was so happy he did not even hear the call of Love!Suddenly, a voice said, "Come Love, I will

Mobile Majito
Ive trekked 837.8 mls since Monday morning, checking in here and there when I got signal. My apologies to those that seem to have gotten a bit bent about my delay or lack of response during those times. Obviously Fu sometimes reflects a logged in status for some time after youre gone. Anyways, Im back in Ventura, and on hotel cable/wifi. So I should be more attentive per se, unless the bartab activity gets to looking like the ole bait & perch scenario that it has become at times. Hugs & ^5s, whichever applies.

What Lies Beneath - Breaking Benjamin
Take a breath Hold it in Start a fight You won't win Had enough Let's begin Nevermind I don't care All in all You're no good You don't cry Like you should Let it go If you could When love dies in the end So I'll find what lies beneath Your sick twisted smile As I lay underneath Your cold jaded eyes Now you turn the tide on me 'Cause you're so unkind I will always be here For the rest of my life Here we go Does it hurt Say goodbye To this world I will not Be undone Come to life It gets worse All in all You're no good You don't cry Like you should I'll be gone When you fall Your sad life Says it all So I'll find what lies beneath Your sick twisted smile As I lay underneath Your cold jaded eyes Now you turn the tide on me 'Cause you're so unkind I will always be here For the rest of my life Don't carry me under God sing for the hopeless I'm the one you left behind So I'll find what lies beneath Your sick twisted smile As I lay underneath Your cold jaded eyes Now you turn the tid

The Next Dance
the next dance under a clear moon lite night we danced again holding you close i could smell your perfume it fills my head and i close my eyes feeling our bodies against each other your head is on my chest we move to the tunes ever so slowly never wanting the song to end the touch of your hand in mine and my arm around you we move closer together and your arms go around my neck as mine move to your waist you look into my eyes i see into your i see your beauty you honesty your love and passion will i ever be a part of it who can tell but for now this dance is what we share as we listen to the mood of the music i close my eyes and i can see your face the music stops and we kiss i open my eyes and your gone i stand aloneon the dance floor i close my eyes again and see you and i smile and there my night ends with the memory of this dance the end

Men Vs Women
MEN VS WOMEN NICKNAMES - If Laura, Kate and Sarah go out for lunch, they will call each other Laura, Kate and Sarah. - If Mike, Dave and John go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla and Four-eyes. EATING OUT - When the bill arrives, Mike, Dave and John will each throw in $20, even though it's only for $32.50. None of them will have anything smaller and none will actually admit they want change back. - When the girls get their bill, out come the pocket calculators. MONEY - A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs. - A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need but it's on sale. BATHROOMS - A man has six items in his bathroom: toothbrush and toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel. - The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337. A man would not be able to identify more than 20 of these items. ARGUMENTS - A woman has the last word in any argument. - Anything a man says after

Fun In The Shower
I had just washed the shampoo out of my hair and was reaching for the soap when my hair was yanked back and I felt a familiar male body behind me. I was not able to turn my head for the grip he had on my hair but I did not need to see who it was since I already knew it was. My head was then turned to where I was forced to look at the wall. He then started to nibble and bite my neck and shoulder making me shiver and moan. When he was done he tugged on my hair making me turn my head again making me look at the shower screen as he nibble and bite the other side of my neck and shoulder. I moaned louder and wiggled my hips a little only to have my ass smacked and then I herd a growl from behind me. I stopped moving and just stud still. He bit me one more time on my shoulder before he moved his free hand to my nipples.He then pinched and pulled on my nipples before twisting them a little. I had to lock my knees to keep from moving my hips again from the pleasure I was gett

Loving
I love you with all of my heart I will never get over the feeling that I have so strongly for you I just keep thinking about how if I would ever lose you how I would spend the rest of my life trying to get you back And thinking about how my life will never be complete with out you in it You are my world You are my strength You are the reason that I get up ever morning You are the reason that I want to live You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me I just keep thinking of the mistakes that I have made in our relationship And how I would go back to take them all away I know that we will have our little fights and arguments Every argument that we have kills me inside But all that I can think of is’ In the end will we remain together? And I know that you will be there for me when I need you the most You sit there and say that I do not love you But you got it all wrong I love you more and more each day I love you more and more with every breath that I take and with eve

Points
I will be selling my points often. If you are interested the following are what I charge. If you want them let me know the day you wish to be alturized. 1 auto & 1 boomerang or 10 mil fubucks and 2 boomerangs If you buy me a 65 credit bling pack..I will use that to buy auto If you throw in a bomb along with any of these I will bomb during that time as well. Also looking for a hh in which you will get points as well. Sb me and we can discuss any deals you want to make.

Fake Smiles And Empty Promises
Fake smiles and empty promises Meaningless books on a shelf Silent screams from deep within Rescue me, I cannot rescue myself Broken dreams and shattered memories A life of tattered and broken remains Arms outstretched in desperation Searching for hope without pain Endless nights of painful thoughts Abounding ever more so clearly Nothing seems to ease the flood Of desolate and lonely screams Can anyone hear my silent whispers Screaming out from deep within Or is the world full of deaf ears Unwilling to be silent and listen The fake smiles and empty promises Drown me in my own nightmares Uncertain intents and purposes A world filled with much despair Can you hear me over the crowd Or is the world filled with deafness Here I stand amongst you all The fake smiles and empty promises Screams of silence go unheard Nothing is as it seems anymore I need someone to hear my cries Without judgment that’s unsure Standing before my broken life Can you rea

Like Totally
Another Ranting Blog I dont LIKE you and wont pretend to for points. You know whats more exciting then your pictures? Barney. Does it suck in here or is it just you? I repeat, I am Only rating you for the points.And then moving on. The best thing about you are your fake boobs. Only your mom thinks you're special. Smokin your mind out isnt cool. no matter what you learn at school. I'll clean your bling, but I aint rating you stupid fucking pictures. Oh fuck, I knew i shouldnt have rated you...oh man, now you're sending a request?damn..and you're still rating my pics and sending me drinks after I say no? I hope that boomerang comes back and hits you in the eye. Women on here hardly ever rate you back, or give any love back. Unless they think they can get something from you. And guys on here are pathetic, think if they tell a woman shes beautiful even if she isnt, that she will pose nude for him. Oh an i hate it when people come by, rate you, and leave you a status comment

Salutes
So I figure I'm gonna give this a shot. I've seen lots of people on here putting up blogs and stuff about selling things, so I figure I'm going to try it. Everyone likes salutes on here as I've become quite aware of in the last year and a half being on Fu. So I have a proposition for ya'll. If I know you well, I will make you a free SFW salute, if I don't know you...it's a 1 credit bling. "Special salutes" Top-3 credits per salute Bottom front/back (if you know what I mean)-5 credits per salute Full-10 credits per salute Fetish salutes You let me know what your fetish is, and we can work something out. I'm up to ALMOST any fetish (ie: feet, pigtails, naughty teacher, naughty nurse, etc) I'm also willing to negotiate fubux for salutes, or negotiate bling, etc. PPL who spoil me get spoiled back...I can promise you that. Look @ my #1 family's bling. Just think about that for a bit...and get back to me. x

Dance With Me With Your Soul & Body
We started running from the city. Escaping from our problems. Leaving our pain and worries behind. We kept running through the suburbs, through the small towns until we came across a meadow. But it wasn’t simply a meadow; it was a beautiful meadow with water flowing nearby and some trees around with fruit and berries. There was an open area that had the softest grass our bare feet had ever touched. You picked me up and spun me and I felt more weightless than a butterfly. Your arms, so strong, held me tightly and I felt safer than I’d ever felt on my feet. You lowered me to the ground slowly and carefully. I held you tightly to my chest as you gently gripped me with your firm hands wrapped behind my back. As I thought I realized that I never had to let you go, we had all the time in the world for the first time. We stayed in each other’s arms through the sunset and then lay down on the grass to look at the stars. I fell asleep gripping you like a teddy bear with you ho

Eminem Recovery I Love The Way You Lie....... June 29th. Records Go On Sale.
Eminem latest album do to be released June 29. The name of his newest record is called Recovery... http://uploads.mp3songurls.com/15-eminem-love_the_way_you_lie_(feat_rihanna).mp3 Link to the song Thats it mario thats why im Mizz Shady omg if I ever wanted a man hes the one wow hes so fine

Perfection!
I don't believe dreams come true/ Failure is for people who never come through/ It's hard to tell someone your heart is open/ When it's coming from someone whose heart is always broken/ Why does a man have to defend what's going on in his heart?/ I guess our pride is the only place we know where to start/ When did being honest become a part of something we have to confess/ An honest person would've never gotten themselves into that kind of mess/ It's impossible for me to go searching for my soul/ Cause you can't find something that has never been completely whole/ Speaking of holes, what about this one in my heart due to lack of affection/ I guess that's the main reason I will never achieve PERFECTion

Do We Need A Cheesecake And Birthdaycake Bling
I think we need a birthday cake bling in classics we have birthday reminders so why noy a birthday cake bling. A cheesecake bling would be nice too what do u think. What About An Old #7 Bling To Honor Jack Daniels Or A Black#3 for Dale Sr

High (lyrics)
I swear i can feel you right beneathe my skin i breathe you in youre the air, you sustain me Im high on you im hooked on you i fiend for you again you flow through my viens youre my quick fix baby i hear your voice its always in my head i cant feel you but i feel you presence, your ever in me im high on you im hooked on you i fiend for you again you flow through my veins youre my quick fix baby i feel your touch your fingers graze my lips i love you are the words that i long to hear im high on you im hooked on you i fiend for you again i just cant get enough of you you make me see things i never knew i cant get enough of your love thats all i got for now

Restricting Sex In A Relationship...
How Sex Can Be Used to Manipulate and Control a Partner's Behavior Have you ever had a girlfriend who refused to have sex with you until you washed the dishes or got a better job or until you proposed? Or, have you stopped having sex because you don’t like the way your girlfriend dresses in public? Unfortunately, controlling a relationship through sexRestricting sex because of major relationship issues can actually be beneficial. For example, perhaps you and your mate are engaged and you wish to wait a few months before your wedding in order to be intimate. If both parties agree, this can actually benefit the relationship by allowing you to focus on deeper issues within the relationship and to learn non-sexual forms of intimacy. Learning how to communicate with one another without relying on sex can give you valuable skills that will come in handy during later years when you have busy schedules and find less time for sex. At other times, the withdrawal of sex can be related to a

Darkness
watching the storm clouds rolling in feeling the darkness enveloping me waiting for the downpour let it raid down on me hide away my tears desperate for the light to shine in the darkness begins to smother me deeper and deeper i fall harder and harder it becomes losing all the light and the air darker and darker it has become

Defiance
The world is bright with darknessStarkissed hate and avariceMost humankind are worthlessNo meaning in their cowardiceDesultory seeds of hate Growing in this terra formed rapeOf ripenened sin and changeless fateEver listless, fake and twistedGreed immortalized with people's sicknessI hate you and you hate meThis is why we live and breatheWhat is horror but a stepping stone To Get close enough and crush your soulWhat is truth? What you say?To get close to me and fuck me anyway?What are dreamsSomething you may have?Nothing comes true unless it's badBetter believe it and see itYour enemy in an instantWant to taste you, not love youFill your head full of sorrowCaress you, obsess youMotherfucker, I just want to mess with youNot get real with youI hate you, this is why I live for you

Damn That Peacey Guy... But I'll Have To Remember This One!
Giving A Pizza His Mind Pizza Place | St. Petersburg, FL, USA Me: “Thank you for calling [Pizza Place]. Would you like to try our 2 for $20 special today?” Customer: “I hate my wife!” Me: “Uh…” Customer: “She’s such a b****! I never did anything to deserve this. She’s so demanding and I can’t deal with it!” *continues ranting for a few minutes* Me: “Sir, did you want to order a pizza?” Customer: “No, I just needed someone to vent on.” Me: “Oh. Well, I hope I helped.” Customer: “It feels good to get that out! Have a good night.” Me: “You too, sir!” Customer: *click*

Love
Something happened today that got me really thinking. I hate it sometimes when that happens. So, the question is... what is love? Is everyone lovable?My dad always said if I couldn't love myself then no man would love me either. How many think this is true? How does a person learn to love themself who doesn't know how TO love themself. Maybe someone could love someone who doesn't love themself and that person would learn they are lovable and would eventually love themself? Isn't it supposed to be about accepting someone for who they are inside and out.. with all their faults and insecurities? Oh well. I could go on but that is enough for now.

What A Douche Bag!
Joe Jackson's cruel attack -- that his wife, Katherine, is responsible for Michael's death, is but the latest in a rich history of reckless, untrue comments ... so says Katherine's lawyer and the lawyer for Michael Jackson's estate. Katherine is not commenting on what amounts to her husband's declaration of war -- that she refused to "keep [Michael] cheered up" because she didn't want to invade his privacy, and he'd be alive today if she had. Katherine's lawyer, Adam Streisand, tells TMZ, "The world knows that Mrs. Jackson has always been a loving mother and grandmother, and that she and Michael had a very special relationship." Streisand then drives it home: "The world also knows who Joe Jackson is and he seems bent on never letting us forget." Howard Weitzman, lawyer for the Michael Jackson estate, tells TMZ, "The inference by Joe Jackson that Mrs. Jackson was in any way responsible for Michael's death is preposterous. Katherine Jackson was a supportive and loving mother throug

Alone... Written By Me
Alone... By Me Here I lye, feelin alone once againstairing at the same 4 wallssearching for answers that never seem to comewondering were I went wrongthis fimiliar feeling of lonelyness setteling in tired of spending my nights all alonelooking for love in all the wrong placesnever able to be with the ones that I love Time to move in another directionharder then anything I've done in the pastlooking to the future not sure what I seewondering what Is the reason for thisI try to be what I am happy to bebut no one seems to see this in mewhat is it they are expecting from mealways the friend that will listen to youbut never anything more to all the friends I have I'm Tired of always being alonefeeling inadequite to all that I knowfeelings inside that bring me downfeeling inside like I am starting to drownlots of friends I do know I havetelling me i am not alonebut a human touch is what I want to knowyerning for the love that aludes metired of actually being alone. Always condemed

Why?
Why they feel the need to be honest about their feelings now is beyond me. My ex-best friend doesn't speak to me anymore partially due to her never trusting the relationship between myself and one the Honest asses, and her suspicions were right, at least about how he felt about me. Then the other expects me to go for him after what his mother put me through when I was 17 because of a crush I had on him at 14-15. Yeah right... I love them so much as friends, they are two of my best friends, but I just can't go there with either of them and take the chance of losing one or both...

Losers Suck!
Subject: A near flawless 2007 Chevy Duramax 2500 (ours) that was properly parked, I might add. The Offender: My husband saw a Hunk O' Shit pick up truck, with it's driver that looked like he was awaiting the second coming of the Mullet, parked unskillfully beside ours. Perhaps his truck horn mimicked that of the "General Lee". Husband goes in to the store, the Hunk O' Shit is there. Husband comes out of the store a few minutes later.....Hunk O' Shit is gone. But what is NOW there is a 2+ foot long gouge in the side of our truck. The insurance adjuster came out to the house a couple of days later. In a matter of less than a couple of minutes away from our truck, a $250 deductible and $2500 in damage occurs. The estimated time to repair it? 9 days. What is wrong with people these days? Since when is it okay to hit and run? I imagine Mullet Magoo going home bragging to his cousin-slash-wife, about how he "fought the man" today. Then he probably goes to the cooler in the bac

Ideas??
im downloading songs and need some ideas my NO list: nickleback country after 1985 r&b or hip hop guy gaga anything that has been severely overplayed on any top 40 station so i may reject others but post comments

I Love You
You are my everything, my one and onlyWith out you, I just feel too damn lonelyI adore the sound of your voice and your beautiful smileThat is why thinking about you makes it all worth whileI dont know why I do the things I doMaybe it's because I love you.You are the greatest thing that's ever happened to meWhen I try and dream at night youre all I ever seeI try to remember the good times we hadKnowing you're not with me makes me very sadI would do absolutely anything for youThat is why I love you the way I do. I try to imagine how things would beIf you were here right now with meWatching movies or just hanging outCause baby, that's what I'm all aboutYou know that I am always here for youThru all the good and bad. I Love You!

Significant Others
After a conversation at work today.. where one co-worker is completely against meeting anyone on line and does not believe that people can fall in love who meet online... and the other who says ya... it could happen and she knows someone it happened too... how many people believe you can meet your signficant other or soul mate online? Do you even believe in soul mates?

First Reactions Quiz
Okay this is called “FIRST REACTIONS QUIZ”. I have reacted to being sent this by actually filling this out. You have to type the 1ST thing that comes to mind whenever you hear these 35 things. You can’t think and go back and change your answers. Here we go: 1. Beer: Bud light 2. Anorexic: something im not 3. Relationships: are awesome 4. Purple: justice 5. Power Rangers: yellow 6. Weed: use to 7. Steroids:not good 8. Cartoons: saturday 9. The President: sucks ass 10. Tupperware: ha ha um no 11. Best vacation: vegas baby 12. Santa Claus: not real 13. Halloween: witches 14. Bon Jovi: hot 15. Grammar: mine sucks 16. Facebook: for family 17. Worst fear: dying painfully 18. Marriage: been there done that it sucks 19. Paris Hilton: Whore 21. Redhead: they r hot 22. Blonde: even hotter 23. Pass the time: reading 24. One night stands: meaningless 25. Donald Trump: bastard 26. Neverland: michael jackson ha ha 27. Pixie Sticks: sugar 28. Vanilla ice cream: blah

Interesting Conversation
An Atheist Professor of Philosophy speaks to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD, The ALMIGHTY. He asks one of his New Christian Students to stand and . . . Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ? Student : Yes, sir. Professor : So you Believe in GOD ? Student : Absolutely, sir. Professor : Is GOD Good ? Student : Sure. Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ? Student : Yes. Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him. Most of us would attempt to Help Others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD Good then ? Hmm ? ( Student is silent ) Professor : You can't answer, can you ? Let's start again, Young Fella. Is GOD Good ? Student : Yes. Professor : Is Satan good ? Student : No. Professor : Where does Satan come from ? Student : From . . . GOD . . . Professor : That's right. Tell me s

5th Place For Best Bullys :sexyirish
WELL...I SAY IT EVERY SINGLE TIME LOL. I ALWAYS SAY I'M NOT GOING TO BE IN AN AUCTION AGAIN...BUT HERE I AM. I REALLY HOPE THINGS GO WELL THIS TIME! 1ST AUCTION I WAS IN: GOT BAILED OUT @ LAST SECOND CUZ I WAS UPSET 2ND AUCTION: GUY DIDN'T PAY 3RD AUCTION: GUY TRIED TO GET MORE THAN BARGAINED FOR 4TH AUCTION: GUY WAS THE BIGGEST PERV AND KEPT TRYIN TO GET ME TO GET NAKED. SO LET'S HOPE THE 5TH TIME'S A CHARM!!! CLICK LINK AT THE BOTTOM TO BID!!! CLARIFYING THE BIDS CUZ SOME ARE HARD TO READ: Fubux bids- 1 SFW salute 1 pimp out Keep you sh*tfaced Daily

Im Not Old Im Not New I Am Me The Gambler A Simple Man
This is not aimed at my friends or fubar in genereal its a wrning to those of furevalution and all those that attack me in generalOK heres the the deal folks i changed my name because of a stalker and a group called a fu revalution well i changed my name to stop B.S not because i am a cowerd as i have been called but to protect my friends they dont deserve this crap i lost several friends because of it, well heres the deal now I am the gambler its a name i have had for a long time the name simple man was a name i chose cause it was how i was or am but no more it seems the simple man was not that simple im done for those of who knew me as the gambler you knew i did not white wash any thing ive always backed up and proved my words i did not take no shit from anyone well even though my name is a simple man im back and im not take ing no shit and if you are a member of fu revalation or assusated with them no need to hit my page you will catch hell im back be it as the gambler or

Blinded
She stared in the mirror for the longest time. Tilting her face from side to side, hoping for some recognition, but it was slow in coming. Her hair fell, as it always did, around her shoulders. Her lips were still full and a held smile that opposed how she felt was on them. Her slender nose which had a tendency to wrinkle when she talked, her cheekbones which always looked as if she had applied the right amount of blush, even when she wore none. These were all the same… Her eyes… It was something with her eyes that were different, she realized. They were the same hazel color that seemed to change depending on what she wore. It was more than that though. More than the color, it was the depth. Her eyes betrayed her and told of a world beyond them. One that was just out of her reach. Watching her from the shadows, there was a smirk upon his lips. He could see the confusion in her expression and instead of concern, he was pleased. The work he had put into this was too much. There

Do U Think Ur Da Hottest Female On Fu
do u thank u r da hottest female on fu? do u thank u can beat da rest of da women on fu? well hurr is ur chance ta prove u r da hottest female on fu i am runnin a contest ta see who is da hottest female on fu an winna will win a 65 credit bling pack winna will b based on most votes an comments on pic contest will b runnin june 20- july 3 so if u thank u got wut it takes ta win sb me or private message me wit wut pic u want ta use an wut u have ta say unda it an may da best female win u must not unda rate otha peeps in da contest an ignorant comments will not only git u blocked but ur friend will b out of da contest so keep it nice if u bling dis hosts page dat allows u 5 extra votes if u cant abide by da rules u will b out good luck ta all females

A Note......
I woke this morning feeling a bit disturbed and maybe a little vunerable. My about me section I felt just about summed it up for me but then maybe not.Then I started writing a blog here and there to show more pieces of who I am,just in case someone really wanted to know. I now wake up as I said above and realize that some of the ones I have gotten close to I may be hurting.I went through a spell of taking everyone out of my family because things were being said & even though nothing is being said at this momen, if I changed it around for my reasons it would be.I have never put in order who I like better or more than this one or that one I had my own system but from what I hear from others they take it as if you are number one then that is who you like the most..I dont do it like that,If I could I would put everyone first.So I am thinking of getting that gone again as well. I feel I need to say that I am only one person and even if one of the other girls get on I am still just that o

Fathers
Let us praise those fathers who have striven to balance the demands of work, marriage, and children with an honest awareness of both joy and sacrifice. Let us praise those fathers who, lacking a good model for a father, have worked to become a good father. Let us praise those fathers who by their own account were not always there for their children, but who continue to offer those children, now grown, their love and support. Let us pray for those fathers who have been wounded by the neglect and hostility of their children. Let us praise those fathers who, despite divorce, have remained in their children's lives. Let us praise those fathers whose children are adopted, and whose love and support has offered healing. Let us praise those fathers who, as stepfathers, freely choose the obligation of fatherhood and earned their step children's love and respect. Let us praise those fathers who have l

To My Son....on "fathers" Day...
Hey kid...I know you are hurtin today...for reasons you...shouldn't have too... Even though you don't ever say a word about it...I'm your Mom...and I know...k??? Just remember this...It's not you...It never was your fault...And...It never will be your fault...NEVER... Just be a better man than he is...Btw???...You already are...and I respect you for that... And I am sure in his own f'd up way...He is sorry now...But yeah...I know...It's too damn late... Again...His fault...His loss...and a great one too...k???

Meanings Of Kisses
Meanings of Kisses Have you ever gotten a kissed and wondered what it she really meant or what feelings he had behind the kiss? Here's our guide to what various kisses mean: Kiss on the hand - I adore you. Kiss on the cheek - I just want to be friends. Kiss on the neck - I want you. Kiss on the lips - I love you. Kiss on the ears - Let's have some fun. Kiss on the nose - Let's get silly. Kiss anywhere else - You're the best. Which do you like?

19 Reasons Why God Torched Jesus By Mark Morford
Why would God do such a thing? What could it possibly mean? Is the apocalypse nigh? Do I have to pay my parking tickets anymore? Herein, 19 possible reasons for His happy blasting of a six-story Jesus statue to fiery smithereens:* 1) You ever wake up one day and look at your leopard-print bedspread or your jacked-up Ford F-150 pickup with the airbrushed scene from "Lord of the Rings" on the side, or maybe see your fifth wife's giant box of pink wine in the fridge and go, "Oh my God, what the hell was I thinking?" You ever have that fine, epiphanic moment when you realize an eyesore's an eyesore and it's time for some, you know, housecleaning? And what better way to rid yourself of some of the more hideous crap laying about than maybe tossing it into a nice bonfire? By the highway? In Ohio? God has those moments, too. 2) The late, great fundamentalist nutcase Oral Roberts, he who singlehandedly inflicted the nightmare of the megachurch on humanity, he who invented Oral Roberts Univer

Douchbag!
Sometime in the last year I was talking to Chris aka DJ SONIC now DV8 in a romantic way. Then he just stopped talking to me. Never gave me a reason. Just told me he was busy. Then I'm blocked. No explination. The last time we talked everything was cool but then I'm blocked. I was pissed and hurt. Now He is with some girl and very happy. I'm happy for him. I just wanted him to be man enough to be honest. I could have been understanding if he had given me the chance. But thats his mistake. I wish him and his girl all the best! I am happy to know he was the douch and I didn't actually do anything. I am in an honest relationship and have been happy so I'm glad to know he is happy. And a douchbag.

Please My Mom Is My Life This Man Lied And Conts To Lie To Woman Here
I AM PISSED SOMEONE F**KED WITH MY MOM!!!!!! HE IS A CHICKEN SHIT ASSHOLE CAN NOT EVEN BE MAN ENOUGH TO TELL THE TRUTH.HOW YOU FEEL DUDE IF I F**KED WITH YOUR MOTHER LIKE THAT!I HAVE EVERYTHING YOU SAID TO MY MOM,RECORDED PHONE CALLS AND EVEN TEXT MESSAGES AND PHOTOS. YOUR LADY KNOW YOU WHERE CAMMING WITH MY MOM!!YOU TOLD MY MOM YOUR EX HAD A STROKE AND YOU HAD NO SEX IN OVER A YEAR!! WONDER IF YOU EVEN KNOW THE TRUTH!!YOU BETTER TELL MY MOM YOU ARE SORRY DUDE!!!BE A F**KIN MAN NOT A PUNK ASS LIKE YOU ARE!!http://fubar.com/3924186LADIES IF YOU ARE SMART STAY AWAY FROM THIS GUY HE IS A LAIR AND A CHEAT !!! CAN NOT EVEN TELL THE TRUTH TO SAVE HIS OWN LIFE. GRANDMA SITS TO CLOSE TO PHONE, BUT WAS IN SHOWER WACKIN IT RIGHT DUDE! HAVE THE PHONE CALL DUDE CAN NOT BACK OUT OF THIS ONE AND ALL LEGAL EVEN.JUST TELL HER YOU A CHEAP LAIR DUDE, AND TELL BROWN EYES YOU WHERE MESSING WITH MY MOM, SHE WAS NOT YOUR EX OR ALL COMES OUT/YOU WANT ME TO BACK OFF THEN DO THIS THEN I WILL BACK

Die For You
I'm sitting here today wondering, "Why is this gay"? Then I stop to see others just like me. As I glare at them it all becomes so clear. We fight for what's right, for what we have at home is more preciouse to us. We hold pictures of loved ones, gone and new. some in our mitch others in our kits. Don't cry for us today we will cry for you tonight hoping you are safe a lone in your bed. For this is the land of the free and the home of the brave we will always be brave so you can be free, we wish this unto you If we should die we will gladly dir for you remember us while were young cuz some gave few, while others gave all.

Some Of The Chat From The Piece Of Shit
Deb (6/14/2010 12:07:25 AM): even if tonight ...we where done i still worry about you ..i am making a statement is all !!!!Mike Hubbard (6/14/2010 12:07:49 AM): iknow baby hugs Mike Hubbard (6/14/2010 12:07:56 AM): i feel the same wayDeb (6/14/2010 12:09:25 AM): I wish you really understood how i felt......i have been trying to pull my feelings away some Mike Hubbard (6/14/2010 12:10:56 AM): i do babyDeb (6/14/2010 12:13:04 AM): you here or busy ?Mike Hubbard (6/14/2010 12:13:28 AM): im hereMike Hubbard (6/14/2010 12:13:37 AM): i said i do know how you feel babyDeb (6/14/2010 12:14:21 AM): your do Mike Hubbard (6/14/2010 12:14:56 AM): love you babyDeb (6/14/2010 12:15:07 AM): MikeDeb (6/14/2010 12:15:50 AM): so you have any questions for me, since i do most the talking lolMike Hubbard (6/14/2010 12:16:49 AM): is there any jobs for me there?Deb (6/14/2010 12:17:47 AM): in the city also in the area lol babe very small town Deb (6/14/2010 12:17:58 AM): everyone works in t

Nightmares
Clouds from above, And rain begins to fall. My world becomes dark, As you vanish from my life. Thoughts become jumbled, My mind goes insane. You turn and walk away, Not ever looking back. I shed a tear, Wondering if you will ever return. Lonely and single, The way it is. I'm used to it. Being myself, Keeps others at bay. Maybe I will change, Someday be happy. But until then, I fucked it up again. ...Michael LaBarge...

Funny...
> The Center for Disease Control has issued a warning about a new virulent strain of this old disease. The disease is called Gonorrhea Lectim. It's pronounced "Gonna re-elect 'em," and it is a terrible obamanation. > > The disease is contracted through dangerous and high risk behavior involving putting your cranium up your rear. Many victims contracted it in 2008...but now most people, after having been infected for the past 1-2 years, are starting to realize how destructive this sickness is. > > It's sad because Gonorrhea Lectim is easily cured with a new drug just coming on the market called Votemout. You take the first dose in 2010 and the second dose in 2012 and simply don't engage in such behavior again; otherwise, it could become permanent and eventually wipe out all life as we know it. > > Several states are already on top of this, like Virginia and New Jersey, and apparently now Massachusetts, with many more seeing the writing on the wall. > > Please pass this important

Rantingandraving
I hurt my forearm pretty bad on Tuesday morning while sparring. I blocked a kick and now I am in pain.(Just so you know I do not spar people as small as me, they are much bigger with more power) It felt like someone cracked a 2x4 across my arm. I was thinking of going to the doctor to see if it is broke or fractured but today it feels a bit better. So I am not gonna go unless it doesn't get any better. I have something new going on with me. My hands are shaking a lot and not lightly either. Not sure what that is. I can't hold my coffee cup up in front my face without spilling it if it is full. It has been going on for a few months now but I have been able to hide it. I don't think I am gonna be able to hide it anymore. I don't understand why the pictures of me sitting in my chair with my skirt and bikini top can not be used for my default. Maybe if my boobs were huge like these other girls then I would be allowed too. Guessing major cleavage is safe for work but flat chests

Fu Bar Etiquette
1. When Asking In Shout For A Vote On A Mumm or Pic Or Whatever You Are Needing...Have the decency to rate the people you ask!!! 2. When Asking For A Friend Request...Rate and Fan!! 3. If Someone Goes Out Of Their Way To Bomb You And You Don't Have An Auto...Say Thank you! 4. If Someone Fans You...Fan Them Back!!! Adding More.....

Oh No
"...and then you call me and its not so bad..." She sings to me almost cradling my thoughts I think moon lodge I am there not doing it well...not doing it pretty pretending someone else holds me in my not so quiet times loving the sounds of young voices bickering feeling the grandfathers warmth on my face wanting to tell each friend why they are so important to me chills run my spine at being so feminine but i am unkept hair, bottle toting, cussin self craving for the night to come cool breezes and sounds of street lights popping on waiting for that moment alone I sit and wonder when your voice will reach me the desire to have your hands grabbin at me the feeling of beautiful even after the last shot or not so clean shower my breasts know you my stomach knows you my lips sense your every breath I wont say no I cant imagine a minute of my day without craving I want to beg and I do with one strap hangin off my shoulder my head cocked to the side listening to y

Just Cause It Came Up
i was watching my gf go through some old pics of her in her highschool days and the thought went through my head as those days sucked what friends i had were more like acquantences , and it reflects on me still today with next to no friends and what friends i still have i only see online anyways. i guess getting out on my own really helped me mature though cause in school even if it meant i was gonna get my ass beat when i got home for fighting win or loose id fight in a heart beat well untill i moved out on my own right befor my junior year of highschool then i only answered to me but thats were people start to show you respect or resentment any ways the whole point of this blog is to point out im a looser and that i will never amount to much and thats what i think about that im sure none of this makes sense but i dont care no one really reads this shit anyways

Why Do I Try?
I get up everyday wondering why.......I go to bed every night with the same question. I really don't know why I try when all I ever do is make bad decisions. I just want to go to sleep like Snow White or Sleeping Beauty untill my prince comes but this is real life and I'm sure no princess and I have no prince. I always thought I wanted my little place in this world but I'm begining to believe that for me that place doesn't exist. I am a great friend or so I'm told but some how I'm not good enough for something more or thats real. I think the only reason I am posting this here is because no one cares and I want to be able to sleep. I would really like to be worth something one day but since I'm not worth anything by now I don't see that happening. I think I want to buy the book of DILLIGAF and study it. Maybe if I am cold and heartless not being worth anything to anyone won't matter to me. I just feel like nothing I do matters and I shouldn't try anymore. I would just like to not wake

Odds And Ends
In 1980, A Loaf of Bread Cost 51 Cents Jimmy Carter is president of the US President Carter announces punitive measures and embargoes against the USSR in retaliation for the Soviet invasion of AfghanistanMount St. Helens in Washington state erupts in a violent blast estimated to be 500 times as powerful as the Hiroshima atomic bombRonald Reagan is elected the 40th US president in a sweeping victoryUS Representative Michael O. Myers is expelled from the House for his role in the Abscam scandalHewlett-Packard announces release of its first personal computerMicrosoft announces their version of UNIX, XenixChristina Ricci, Chelsea Clinton, Venus Williams, Jessica Simpson, Macaulay Culkin, and Jake Gyllenhaal are bornPhiladelphia Phllies win the World SeriesPittsburgh Steelers win Superbowl XIVNew York Islanders win the Stanley CupThe Empire Strikes Back is the top grossing film"Lady" by Kenny Rogers spends the most time at the top of the US chartsU.S. viewers get caught up in the "Wh

Plastic People
One by one they step out of their mold looking all perfect and cute the hair the clothes the body that makes you count the rest just sit and watch them parading past in their new designer suits like life sized robots taking over the scene who's who? what's the difference? I can't tell they're just plastic people living in their own plastic worlds synthetic facessynthetic bodies synthetic love and they all fall in line one by one here and there they call us the posers the popular wanabes they laugh because we're different we laugh because they're all the same. Poem By Tammy C.

Angel
As I lay here in bedI start dreaming of youYou are very beautifulI start to see some wings tooIn a blinding white lightYou appear and come to meYou are an amazing sightFor my sore eyes to seeYou grab my handAs we fly awayWhispers in my earEverything is okayWe fly above the cityLoving the amazing viewYou becoming an angelIs late and long overdue

Heyheyyouyou
I use my blogs to write about real stuff mostly..and when I write a mumm it is usually goofy questions. So here is the latest in my silly little story I call my life. :) I have been going down to my Dad's on the weekends to help take care of him. He is really sick. This gives my Mom and brother some rest time because they take care of him during the week. I live 3 hours away from him and it bugs me that I can't be there at any given time if he needs me. To keep my mind off of the everyday stressors I train ALOT. I love every minute of it. The only thing I mess up on is I forget to eat. So I am having to put up signs next to things in my house to remind me to eat. Sounds silly but I don't know how else to discipline myself on that yet. Don't get me wrong I lOVE food, I just get so busy I forget to replenish. I am hoping to go to Vegas in September for a submissions grappling tournament , but we will see how my budget is around that time. I have a kick-boxing belt test tonight.

Want My Points For 12 Hours???
AS YOU ALL PROBABLY KNOW BY MY MILLIONS OF STATUS MESSAGES, I AM WORKING ON FINISHING MY LAST LEVEL ON FU. I NEED TO DO A MUMM, FINISH SOME POINTS, AND GET SPOTLIGHT. I HAVE HELPED SO MANY ON THIS SITE WITH SPOTLIGHT, LEVELING & MORE SO NOW IS THE TIME WHEN I CALL ON MY FRIENDS FOR HELP. WHICH AS MOST OF YOU KNOW THAT KNOW ME I HATE ASKING FOR HELP SO I HAVE COME UP WITH A PLAN THAT MAKES ME AT LEAST FEEL LIKE ITS A TRADE. ANYONE DONATING MORE THAN 10 MILL IN FUBUCKS TO MY SPOTLIGHT FUND WILL GET MY POINTS FOR 12 HOURS AFTER I GET THE SPOTLIGHT AS WELL AS 3 PIMPOUTS THE DAY I GIVE YOU MY POINTS. I WILL ALSO BE FINDING A WAY TO THANK ALL THE OTHERS THAT HAVE SENT SMALLER AMOUNTS....SUCH AS GIVING THEM PIMPOUTS, MAKING THEM PICS OR WHATEVER WE CAN WORK OUT. I AM KEEPING A LIST AND WILL BE MAKING A BULLY WITH ALL OF YOUR NAMES IN IT THANKING EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU FOR BEING THE SPECIAL PEOPLE YOU ARE. THANK YOU!!!

Desiderata--max Ehrmann Courtesy: Ms. Desa
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perenn

Art Review Via "color In Motion:the Sarcasm Of Jerms (the No Art Period) July 1st By Sacvs.wordpress.com
I was browsing the web and came across this really fantastic artist who blew my mind with his level of depth and emotion. The technique really gave insight into the fact that this cut and paste artist has been pushing boundaries not only within himself but art as a whole. It took me awhile to process everything with this piece, but after I did I left a new person. Take a look to see what I am referring to. This is the type of piece that puts a warm spot in all Hello Kitty fans and fans of progressive art in general. This art is beyond what you would call sacred, it basically shits on anything I have ever seen in my life. When art reaches this level I know that humanity has reached the finish line. Sorry for the sarcasm, but in all seriousness, add this artist if you still use MySpace, his creations are just as needed in this contemporary art world as Dali or Klarwein. http://www.myspace.com/drjermx “[...] you’re just a butter knife, i’m a machete [...]“

Mannish Boy
Muddy Waters-Mannish Boy Whoa yeah, oh yeahEverythin' gonna be alright this mornin'Oh yeahNow when I was a young boy, at the age of 5My mother said I was gonna be the greatest man aliveBut now I'm a man, I passed 21I want you to believe me honey I had lots of funI'm a manSpell M-A child -NThat represents manNo B-O child -YThat mean mannish boyI'm a manI'm a full grown manI'm a manI'm a natural born lovers manI'm a man childI'm a rollin' stoneI'm a man childI'm a hoochie coochie manSittin' on the outside, just me and my mateYou know I'm made to move you honeyCome up 2 hours lateWas that a man?I spell M-A- child -NThat represents manNo B-O- child -YThat mean mannish boyA manI'm a full grown manI'm a manI'm a natural born lovers manI'm a manI'm a rollin' stoneI'm a man childI'm a hoochie coochie manI'm a natural born lovers manI'm a rollin' stoneI'm a natural born loverI'm a hoochie coochie manWell, wellOh yeah, heyI'm a natural born lovers manWellI'm a natural born lover

Things 2 Cool Chics Should Never Say, But They Did!
I am owning my share in this I will be character known as 42 the other will be known as A! please keep in mind this was a conversation had over a few days in writing inside a random notebook. Someday I may PDF it and share cuz there is artwork too LOL. I am trying to translate it all directly from the notebook paper...I may have typos my hand really hurts (I am a dumbass sometimes)..ok on with the ridiculous filth 42: Pooptard Spaztastic Fuckalicious Monkey Face! A: KILL YOU! 42: Puss nugget retardo spackle turd A: if you close your eyes I'm going to punch you spuare in the face! with my dead arm! 42: (random drawing of jagged teeth and snake tongue) this is a symbolic cartoonish picture of your stankho chicken dragon breath ways! A: Oh Yeah?! Well you're dumb! so there you hairy sasquatch loving monkey poop eating sheep licker! 42: Shit Fuck Cock Suck Fuck Shit Jesus Christ Super Star ...LICK IT! A: What the fuck super fuck fuck fuck? Hell mother fuckin cock lickin fuckin fuc

For The Bee's!
Black & yellow fly swiftly through the blue, Wing's of Crystalline opaque Glass, Sun shining Through, Dive gracefully into flower's to drink the sacred dew, Spreading across the land pollen Mother Nature Kindly Sew. Come disturb our hive's & you soon will see, An army off proud Soldier bee's, Buzzing & flitting in there thousand's over the Hill, Tails raised forth , lance's carrying vengeance poison tipped, On that which try to destroy the hatred . within the hand that touche's our honey, Many will fall during the war, Broken & hurt, Carried gracefully back unto there hexagon slumber, Fighting for there gracious Queen, Her every will fullfilled, New spirit's are bred from there soul to carry the honour!

Huh???????
from: fubar shop Milpitas, CA subject: Credit Card Authorization required received: 07/3/2010 08:13 am replied: no block this member To avoid purchasing suspension, please fill out the form and get it back to us as soon as possible. Once users reach over $400, we ask that you confirm your billing information and authorize your spending

Wow
Today we went shopping for pants since I didn't fit into my old ones. I used to be a size 4/6 and now I'm a size 10 petite. :o Isn't that nasty?! I can't believe how fat I got! I only gained 9 lbs in a year, and I can't stand to look at myself. So all of you guys saying I have a perfect body, uh no I don't! I have a belly and fat legs. It's so hard to excersise when you're disabled. I feel so sad and depressed! The Wii Fit said I'm still Normal and in my goal weight, but wth does it know?

Romantic Interlude
ok so I dabble in poetry....hoping to get some more of it published...this one seems to be a favorite of all my friends...hope you like it. ROMANTIC INTERLUDE A touch A quiver A whisper A sigh A moan A hand A breast A thigh A smile A look A kiss A grin Both nervous about Whats about to begin Heat building Passion stirring Windows steaming Bodies purring Tender touches Warm embraces Erotic meeting Seductive gazes Soft skin Sliding in Pressure mounting Heart pounding Hours pass Then at last Relaxing release Cuddles and kissing These are all the things You're missing. -Summer Fry 2006

A Lesson Well Learned
as i sit here the days go bye and i think of you and cry and all you say is that i lie and dont care how i might die alone at night i think of you and wishing that i was next to you but rolling over and crying so hard knowing that my heart is scared and now i sit here battered and torn i remember the days and im forlorn boys may come and boys may go but you were the one that let me go its been days now and i still think of you crying so hard my face turns blue i loved so hard it cant be changed but forever my heart will be chained ty for the one man that will always be in my heart no matter what he has done to me! ty master i have learned well from your teachings

The Online Translator Pt 1
successfully blocked user Mmm, you're so kinky!=== 'BLOODY MADNESS' wrote the following at '2010-06-25 12:23:47'..>> > > well if you slap me in the face with it i will 1. not even see it and 2. not even feel it so who cares if it looks like a mosquito bite...whats make up for? > > === 'Vortex of Misery' wrote the following at '2010-06-25 12:21:24'..> >> > I will slap you in the face with it. If you try to call the cops on me I'll just tell them that mark on your cheek is a mosquito bite! Who's gonna feel silly then?> > > > > > === 'BLOODY MADNESS' wrote the following at '2010-06-25 12:18:54'..> > >> > > great. small dick, small chance, small expectations...> > > > > > > > > === 'Vortex of Misery' wrote the following at '2010-06-25 12:17:18'..> > > >> > > > That will work!!! > > > > > > > > See i'm easy to please!> > > > > > > > > > > > === 'BLOODY MADNESS' wrote the following at '2010-06-25 12:15:25'..> > > > >> > > > > bang? with what?> > > > > > > > > > want me

Flying A Bit Too High....
successfully blocked user! sending you back home. well if you were my friends dad and i would have caught you looking you'd either be in jail very soon or your daughter would hate you for the rest of your life because ONLY A EXTREMELY MENTALLY FUCKED DAUGHTER likes the idea of her dad checking out her friends sexually. get a fucking clue and start respecting women more and not seem like a nasty pedophile rapist. you might even want to look for women that are your age, they might want to put up with the stupid insecure crap of yours or cut your dick off right away, to all the other womens pleasure. oh and one more advice, put up a pic of yourself when you open your filthee mouth already to talk this much fucking bullshit, preferrably a pic of you shooting yourself...... stoneguy sent you a shot of Sweet Piece of Ass "if u were mY daughters friend.. i would have looked....oh boy" nope, never happened. or i just never noticed it....im happy i did not then oh boy.... stoneguy sen

Falling In Love
This is who I am. I have my own beliefs. It's what I've learned growing up in a world where love is thrown away every single day. I am morally challenged and I find it a good thing actually. If I keep getting knocked down I realize that if we fall we must learn to rise. I have a theory in which I say there are three c's. You have to be calm, cool and collected. If you are calm then know that you are aware of what you are doing no matter how tough the situation is. The cool is you never turn to violence even if the person had hurt you. Know that they are human as well. It sounds pacifistic and chickenish but the good guys that had not retaliated were the ones who made the biggest difference out there. Collected are the thoughts that you keep and even no matter how awkward or clumsy the situation gets there's always something to follow up in your head. Life is that unplanned and unpaid adventure you book one and you might not end up where you want to but if you have something that c

The Truth Hurts
back from vacation. eye opening experience. had a great time. enjoyed self but learned a hard truth. I was blessed for awhile with a wife and a good wife. My depression fucked it all up. Now it is lost. Being just friends does not work. I would rather be alone. Since I love with everything I had yet my sickness depression got the best of my I think it is time to live that new life the "Acceptance" phase. I do not think I could ever love again with heart soul mind and sprit. So on with a lonely life with my family nearby Mom (overprotective, worring, and always nagging), Danielle (good heart, lives her onw life, i like that about her, her two daughter which i am just an uncle to so i know how that is), My one friend John who I blow off regularly. I plan to do some artwork stone, glass, ect. Go on fun vacations, roller costers, disney ect). It is hard to face the truth but we all must do it, thank the (universe, god, yourself) for what you have. Blame only yourself for what yo

New Poem I Wrote
innocent as i beived your lies like a fairytale like a story a book to be read to be thrown away against the wall and forgoten or am i a toy no longer new used abused to bethrown against the wall and forgetten im alone and broken a misfit toy the fairytale without the happy ending the book i was afarid to open this is my Never ending story

La An Original Erotic Story I Wrote
LA he was my object of desire as a young teenager of 15 and we were together in another decade of time and space when we last together for five years. Our love never died but as we parted we said goodbye with a kiss 18 yrs and here it is now 24 yrs later we landed right back into each other's lives and arms. Everyone says they have a soulmate I attest no matter where I find myself he is indeed my soulmate. I have loved him for a long time and having him is my captivated desire. He is the one like no other that can bring me to submissiveness. I submit to his every request I take him like no other as he draws me into him as I willing let go and let him dominate me in every way possible. He is my master as I see him he is my thirst I quench he is my hunger he is my zest and he instructs me with his mind as I dont have to be told I know what he requires of me. When he calls he soothes my ache in my heart and I soothe my ache in my throbness that I want so much to taste him and be captivat

Para Ti
Para tieste beso en el vientote lo mandaré allíte dirá lo que siento... yo por tiNo he podido hacer nadaEn tu vida ahora sete sentiste ignoradaes probable, tal vezsi yo hubiese sabidohabría sido una ayudapero que importa yaAhora que..Tu puedes jugar siguiendo una cometaMientras sales por el espacio a pasearquizás puedas llegar ahora hasta tu metay un mundo distinto que no lograste hallarSolo que no debió de ser asíSolo que la soledad no es mas grande sin tiPara tiuna flor he traídote la dejaré allíbajo un cielo nubladomientras miro la luzestá pasando noviembrey tu... tienes 20 años siempreAhora que...Tu puedes jugar siguiendo una cometaMientras sales por el espacio a pasearquizás puedas llegar ahora hasta tu metay un mundo distinto que no lograste hallarSolo que no debió de ser asíSolo que la soledad ahora es grandeLa soledad es más grande sin ti...Para ti...

You Have ? And I Have Answers.
So, im going to attempt to be as polite as i possibly can here but as anyone who knows me know, im the politest asshole you will ever met. So buy your standerds this may not be polite at all, by mine its gonna make me look like an Angel. First of all, im sick of hearing " Why dont you ever talk to me?". There are many possiblitys to that. A) I avg about 3-5 rates a day, from people that dont have Boomers on. I'm logged in almost all day, so thats fucking sad as hell and its a good thing i dont live my life to get rates or id be totaly full blown nerd rageing like 90% of the rest of you guys do when you realise that,,, well,,,, Fubar is the absolute most important thing in the world and lord help us if we dont lvl, it may start global nuclear warfare. GET A FUCKING LIFE. B) Mass Commenting... If you want to talk to a person you give them your attention. YOU DONT give them one word replys because your too busy worrying about " OMG has everyone of fubar visted me today" while

Oil Spills Why Havent We Learned ..... From The Torrey Canyon Disaster
The Torrey Canyon disaster Oil spills: Britain's worst-ever oil spill in 1967 was handled disastrously, is still killing wildlife today contains many lessons for those dealing with the Deepwater Horizon tragedy At the time it was the biggest oil spill ever, and the first involving a new generation of supertankers. Looking back, the echoes of the BP disaster unfolding in the Gulf of Mexico are loud and eerie. The slick imperilled a beautiful and popular tourist region. Inertia and dithering were worsened by the buck-passing of multinational companies implicated in the mess. And no one knew what to do. Even BP was involved: Mother nature is a very powerful thing. Eventually, I expect nature did most of it." In fact it turned out that human ingenuity was not just powerless against the oil slick; it made it much worse. Three days after the ship ran aground, Anthony Tucker, then science correspondent of the Guardian, warned that no toxicity tests had been carried out on the

The Negative Side Of Organized Religion
First let me start by saying I do believe in God and I accept all religions so this isn't an anti-god post. I'm VERY spiritual... but I'm also very critical of what people turn faith into, the things they use it to justify and the acts they commit in the name of God. Tragically, religions have often split rather than unified humanity, have oppressed rather than freed, have terrified rather than inspired. Institutionalization of religion is part of the problem. As institutionalized religions spread the teachings of their founders, there is the danger that more energy will go into preserving the outer form of the tradition than into maintaining its inner spirit. This process is often referred to as the "routinization of charisma". Founders of any religion have a charisma which draws others to them. Their followers feel that these teachers have extraordinary gifts or abilities and that charisma gives them power to lead or control those around them. Often after the founders death those

Angel Or Demon?? (ability List As Of 7-9-2010)
Here is a list of abilities for BOTH sides. Personally, I have been both. They both have pros and cons. I prefer Demon as I can help out more friends in a day and can be a little more "evil". I have put this here so that those of you about to choose can see for yourself the abilities for both sides, giving you time to make up your mind. Also the page isn't available until you reach level 25. So take a look. Ask around. But choose wisely! **WARNING** Even though it CLEARLY shows you in bright YELLOW on the page that you will be charged to make your choice, I still get many people asking "Where did all my fumonies go??!!" It will charge you 10 million for your choice. If you don't have the full amount, you will be charged whatever amount that you have. Yes. You DO have to choose once you level. And yes, it DOES charge you now to make your initial choice!!

I'll See You In My Dreams
I'll see you in my dreams, hold you in my dreams. Someone took you out of my arms, still I feel the thrill of your charms. Lips that once were mine,tender eyes that shine, they will light my way tonight, I'll see you in my dreams.I'll see you in my dreams, hold you in my dreams. Someone took you out of my arms, still I feel the thrill of your charms. Lips that once were mine,tender eyes that shine, they will light my way tonight, I'll see you in my dreams.

So What
So first of all, to make sure i cover everything, im gonna make a list of talking points.1 . obsession over fakers. 2. stupidity and how it affects us all3. Ass kissing 4. Beggers, and those who hate them5. and maybe some nice things about the people I love. Okay, so the fist subject. I can see why people would get upset over fakes. I do from time to time. Point them out when I see them etc. but i am not going to make a whole ordeal over it. So this brings us to the next subject. Stupidity. If you're stupid enough to get blown over by the fakes, then you fucking deserve it. Its the god damn internet people, take it easy, its not real life. Take a fucking step back from the screen, and look around. Theres fakers everywhere. Fuck. This place makes me sick sometimes. Almost violently. Till I'm rubbing my temples wondering what the fuck these dumbasses are thinking (if they even have a mind to think). Okay adding a new subject. Drama and emo. We all can be emo at times. Even I am.

Birthday...
sooooooo...just curious as to what everyone else does on their birthday. I just celebrated my birthday with my family yesterday since everyone had the day off...but...for my ACTUAL birthday tomorrow...I'm going to sit home...smoke, listen to tunes and drink...that's what I did last year as well. I dunno...I've never been big into celebrating birthdays, honestly. I don't know why...birthdays just aren't fun to me...it just marks the passing of another year...I tend to look back in bad ways on my birthday...ya know...it's like the passing of another year full of shit I wanted to do, but never got to do...I dunno...I'm the same way with New Year's Eve...I pretty much just suck, basically! lol...I'm pretty sure the last line of this video is something I agree with...and if you don't love the Mighty Boosh...you suck! ;) but the quote at the very end, Howard saying "You should celebrate that day alone…in sombre isolation." lol it's the most terrible EMO line ever, but I feel the same

Drop It Like It's Hot!
Conversation with a 50-yr-old ... Bonnie: What do you mean? You’re adorable! Me: Eh. Nobody wants an adorable girl. They want a girl that’s like, y'know ... hot. Bonnie: Oh ... you mean like "drop it like it’s hot"? Me: Yes! Exactly. I’ll never be a "drop it like it’s hot" girl. Bonnie: No? Me: I’m more like a "pick it up slow" girl.

Dont Know What To Call It Yet Art At Work
snap back to reality the fact is my mortality is grabbin me through my days im experienced in brutality livin a life on da streets and havin everyone snap on me the worlds gone to smoke and took a crap on me its like getting slapped on the cheek by some chick off da street all i said was hey baby now this has got to change im tired of things discracin my name this is my last chance to make things straight with god and my family i gota stand up and say hey this is my time to change life is leavin on bus 8 pick up your stuff or skate i know your scared but i am 2 but i dont let it consume my fate u shouldnt do that 2 its bad for you now i feel sad for you because i got that heart that can hold enough love for 2 like morning bird bring the new day u gota understand that i do not play things u say leavin me with a disgust for another day

Fun With Words
Did you know that the words "race car" spelled backwards still spells "race car"? Did you know that "eat" is the only word that, if you take the 1st letter andmove it to the last, spells its past tense, "ate"? And if you rearrange the letters in "so-called tea partyRepublicans," and add just a few more letters, it spells: "Shut the fuck upyou freeloading, progress-blocking, benefit-grabbing,resource-sucking, violent, hypocritical assholes, and face the factthat you nearly wrecked the country under Bush." Wow! How weird is that?

My Trip To Walmart
ok you walk into walmart and you think ok im just gonna get some stuff i need. then you look down a row and see this FAT ASS HEFFER whos ass is eating her shorts.. you try too look away but your eyes are glued because their so damn fat. you think to yourself how could anyone let themselves get so fat. you look down at yourself and think "huh i guess im skinny com paired to them but damn i need to lose weight"......shit like that scares me its the whole reason why im on a diet 24/7 one of the reasons why im anorexic n bulimic . ok anyways, so you walk a little more fill your buggy with healthy fruit n special k cereal you look up n BOOM a fat ass guy who has no ankles. your eyes start to hurt even more. you stop in your tracks and look around in every direction and realize your the skinniest think in walmart. so by the time you leave you never want to eat again, to get to the car n up comes all the food you ate, now thats gonna be fun for someone to clean up!! SOMETIMES I WISH I WA

Long Day 1.75
Bored with this scene I ask her "Have you been to Gravity Hill?" "Isn't every hill gravity related?" "To right, but the hill I have in mind is special. You put car in neutral at bottom and gravity will pull you up." "Get out." she says. "I plan to and I want company. So what say you?" "Oh. I have nothing planned tonight. I'm fair game." "Great, it's a good thing I keep my hunting license up to date. Let's go." I pay the tab and leave tip for bartender. She smiles & waves, knowing I'll be back tomorrow night. Walking into the parking lot we head for the limo parked in far corner. "Oh, I didn't know you're a limo driver." "Eh, only when James takes a night off. You're in luck tonight. bar is fully stocked and he has no where else to go." "Isn't it cliche to have a limo driver named James?" she mocks. "Yes, terribly so. which is why I pay him extra." Derek is sitting behind the wheel playing some handheld gaming system. I open the door for her and follow her i

Domestic Violence....it's A Crime, You Idiots!!!!
OK...listen up, people. Who thinks it's right, ok, appropriate to hit your significant other or spouse????? IT IS NEVER OK TO HIT THEM!!!!! OR YOUR KIDS!!!!!!! Men, if you have a testosterone imbalance, or you're just one of those that think you're all that and a box of whupass--- THINK AGAIN! That is, if your neanderthal upbrining/brain will allow you to. You think it's impressive that you either: drive the muscle cars or the trucks?? Or those redneck trucks that double as elevated hunting platforms?? Or how much alcohol you consume??? Or how much pipe you've laid in town??? Or how much you're feared at work-home-the local bar??? How much you make on your job??? How much better you are at keeping up with the "Joneses"??????? Or all the rest of that bullshit you think is so damn important???????? You're NOTHING. You're not worth the dogshit on ANYone's shoes! You are THE most pitiful excuse for a man. A REAL man. Bunch of fucking, stupid, cavemen is what you are. I don't give a fly

Self Inflicted
You cut yourself wide open over and over again and you find yourself bleeding all over me and who I am. Just because you can't say no. I'm constantly running to your aid, helping you recover. Stitching ur wounds closed, keeping the stitches small so hardly any scar will show. The moment I turn my back they get ripped open again. My eyes water, to keep myself from screaming so hard and loud to where my throat bleeds. My fingers tremble and the needle pricks me everytime. But I'm still here. Sewing you shut. Days go by and you're healing so well. Then you disappear again. This time I can't find you. Its too dark and cold. I smell blood and my heart start pounding. The smell is getting stronger and I'm feeling more and more sick to my stomach. And in the distance I can see a light. Faded but just enough to see the glare off my clothes. I run as fast as I can. Limbs lashing at my face and neck. Shoes rubbing blisters on my toes and ankels, soaked with sweat and water from the dew on the gr

How To Put Youtubes In Your Tracks So Their On Autoplay
Ok of corse you want to go up to "my" then to "trackz" theres an embeded box at the bottom on the page theres where you enter the embedded code from youtube.com: So here we go...... then go to youtube.com type in the song you want and click it take the Embeded code from it like this: Then take that code and put it in the box on fubar for my trackz: Then DELETE Half the code Starting at < object > end it @ < embeded... like this: Now your code should look like this: Then take that and Put &rel=1&autoplay=1 after the first set of quotes but before the last quote: Hit Submit... Then wait for the page to load back to tracks and find the song you just uploaded in your tracks in the list and hit autoplay on profile After that it should come up randomly on your profile every time someone visits your page... you can upload multiple youtube videos and hit autoplay on all of them and they will be picked at random every time you refresh your homepage or some

A Photo Blog
So because I can, Im gonna right a little about myself. Just some random things.Things from the past.Read if you like. There will be pictures. Firstly, I miss being close to my younger sister Rachel. We were tighter then you can imagine.But things happen, and people change,and you grow apart.But one of the greatest nights of my life is when Rach and I were pretending to snort pixie sticks, pretending to be Gangster, and listening to BSB. Fuck we were fabulous. Still are. You wish you could be that gangster.Rachel and I used to get all dressed up just to take pictures together with the webcam.It always was a night of glam, and laughs.And random weird videos that no one would understand but her and I.When we were younger, rach and I would play Barbies all night. till like 3am.She always ended up playing with most of the barbies cause she had the better imagination.Pics of us when we were youngins: yeah. i looked like an old lady.it was for a christmas thing for school,he

Sigh I Mean A Deep Sigh
What do you do when all you can do is nothing? The feelings that you have are there and not so easy to change. I wish I could change how I feel and make life easier for you because in the end my life would also be just a little easier and my heart wouldn't hutn nearly as bad. I have to put on this brave face everytime I think about you and the fact that I can't really have you. I should be extremely happy with what I have an in the end I guess I am... But why do I keep looking? Is it because at one point I had nothing to look forward to and even though now I do I don't want to be in that situation again. I was alone for so long and it sucked... I mean I have really great friends but that love isn't the same... Ugh.... My intention was never to hurt anyone, so why is it that I do? I mean really... Sigh. Deep sigh

Just Getting This Out Of The Way...
Welcome to the head of one who has no head.I love my city. The insane drivers, the constantly growing crime rate.My neighborhood has recently accounted for 90% of all the break-ins in Columbus!I feel as though that should be an accomplishment...I love my car. My '95 Civic with one Chevy headlight that points at the trees and the one regular light whose dim setting no longer works, so i have to drive with my brights on.(people love me for that!) It's wobbly wheel and it's shot suspension.Hell, my car recently became another victim of our rising break-ins, even though all they got was my MP3 player.(that made me laugh hysterically.)I love my job. ...oh wait, I don't have one of those. My bad.I've been to numerous staffing and temp agencies, not hearing back from any of them for days, and they only seem to call when I'm sleeping.(where the hell are all the third shift jobs anymore?)I love people. Backstabbing, conniving, scheming, selfish people.Now I know full well that not everyone is

Hold On Tightly To What Is Truly Important In Life ..
My Friends...Hold on to faith; it is the source of believing that all things are possible. It is the fiber and strength of a confident soul. Hold on to hope; it banishes doubt and Enables attitudes to be positive and cheerful. Hold on to trust; it is at the core of fruitful relationships that are secure and content. Hold on to love; it is life's greatest gift of all, for it shares, cares and gives meaning to life. Hold on to family and friends; they are the most important people in your life, and they make the world a better place. They are your roots and the beginnings that you grew from; they are the vine that has grown through time to nourish you, help you on your way, and always remain close by. Hold on to all that you are and all that you have learned, for these things are what make you unique. Don't ignore what you feel and what you believe is right and important; your heart has a way of speaking louder than your mind. Hold on to your dreams; achieve them diligently and honestly.

You Are My Precious Angel
I'm sitting here staring at the stars And all I can think about is your precious face Your so perfect in every way how did I get so lucky To be able to say yeah she is mine I hope you know my Baby Girl just how much I love you. I may not be around everyday but not by choice IF it were up to me I would never let you go You are all I have ever wanted, my love will never end Your MY Baby Girl and nothing will change that I will be the one you can count on. I know I made promises before and broke them But know I am doing everything I can to make it up One day I will bring you home with me And all of this will seem like a bad dream So My Precious Angel please be patient with me.

Soulmate "i Wonder And I Seek" Someday
I have loved and lost so many timesHave shed many tears countless nightsI have wished and prayed to find the oneMy own soulmate, of a special kind.Out of nowhere, out of the blueMy life took a spin and there was youThe sun shines so bright I can finally seeThe greatest gift of love from you to meI love you not for the great looks you haveBut for the beauty you have deep insideI love you not from the sweetest voice I hearBut for the words you speak without a soundIts not just your smile that lights up my dayNor the warmth of your tight embraceIts not just the laughters that brings joy in my heartBut its also the soothing words you whisper night after nightYou are kind and gentle with a calming effectTo a life tested with agony, sadness and defeatYou are sweet and loving with a heart so givingWhich I cannot help but get so many refillsWe are so much alike and so much in tuneAlmost a perfect match to my definitionWe blend so well, we love beyond measureAnd still we res

Long Day 2.75
"Well, your parents sound very supportive. Mine were alright. Mom taught me how not to feel sorry for myself. I made the mistake of telling her how no longer had the desire to live and mom grabbed me by the throat and pushed me up against the wall and said 'Look, you want to end your life? I'll do it right now. Do you want me to do it? I will. I'm your mom and I love you but I'll end your life if you want me to' you can see what my answer was. And dad? well, let me just say his best fatherly advice I can remember him giving me was 'Son, they are all pink on the inside' when it came to dating advice. They taught me in a round-about way. They were old school and I don't regret having them as parents. Hey...I'm low on my drink. Let's head back." Thinking I painted my parents in negative way, I decided to change the subject. "So, have you stayed in Anchorage the whole time you been here?" "Sadly, yes I have. Busy starting the business and such. Settling in apartment and such." "Well,

The Smoothie Test
You Are Zany You are energetic and very fascinating. You don't mean to be different - you just are one of a kind. You are curious and creative about the world. You're often trying out interesting combinations of things. You say "yes" to as many things as you can, and you feel sorry for those who turn down amazing opportunities. You believe that you can never know what you'll love. If you take a risk, you might surprise yourself. The Smoothie Test Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

I Gave...
I gave I gave the best of me to you. I sat silently as you stole it away. Without a fight left inside, I imagined being your prey. Hunted for what YOU wanted. Discarded when you were through. How did that meat taste???? So tender and easy to chew? This meat gets tougher everyday. Another day it grows colder. She thanks you, Able to carry this weight on her shoulders. Never to abandon her passion, Though now, guarding it more. Such a shame with all she can give. She shall NEVER be YOUR whore!

Does Open-carry Warrant Alarm?
This link is to an article I found regarding Kurk Kirby of Vancouver, Washington. Kirby was at a strip-mall and had the police called on him for "". This is for Case Number 91647 out of Clark County. Kirby has scheduled appearances on 9/28/10 and 10/01/10. In Washington State we have an entire section of the RCW dedicated to weapons. RCW 9.41.050 is entirely regarding the carrying of firearms, and the only type of firearm it discusses is those which are concealed. In this case there is nothing that was done wrong that violates any section of this code as his weapon was out in the open. The portion of code in question here is RCW 9.41.270 regarding "Weapons apparently capable of producing bodily harm - Unlawful carrying or handling - Penalty - Exceptions" and states that "(1) It shall be unlawful for any person to carry, exhibit, display, or draw any firearm, dagger, sword, knife or other cutting or stabbing instrument, club, or any other weapon apparently capable of producing bodily

Gtfo
OK ENOUGH IS ENOUGH ...YOU TWO INVADE MY FUCKIN TERRITORY, TALK SHIT ON ME, AND IM THE ASSHOLE??? REALLY??? WHY DONT YOU SIT AROUND AND LISTEN TO WHITNEY HOUSTON TUNES ALL DAY AND FUCK OFF.I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU WERENT STAFF I WOULDVE BANNED YOUR ASSES A LONG TIME AGO!!! YOU ARE TWO OF THE MOST MALICIOUS PEOPLE IN THE FU WORLD EVER!!!!

Have You Ever Had...
Some time ago , I had one of the worst 1st dates that I could ever remember. I worked with this lady , and we always talked at work ,so I ask her to go out to dinner with me one night...Well that night arrived ,and I drove over to her house to pick her up ,walked up to the front door ,and escorted her back to my car ,opend and closed the car door for her . We got to my favorite Italian restuarant ,and once again I opend and closed the car door for her ,then the door to the restuarant ,and were seated at my favorite table .The waitor come over and presented us with a wine menu as well as the dinner menu .I already knew what I was having on both ...my date looked over the menu and was having problems deciding on what to hav...so she ask me to just order what I was having. At this point the waitor returned to our table with the dozen longstem roses in which I had gotten earlier and had dropped them off there before going and getting her .While he was giving the roses to her I orderd dinn

Transylvanian Recollection (revised By A Very Special Friend)
I feel nothing, numbed by an unknown energy, now i sit here about to make a wish your blood on a dish, drowning itself amongst the bitterness. Embrace the life to my lips a breath grazes my lips gently, my mind dances with transylvanian memories of times depleted by the night. I see yet my eyes are closed, I see for i am no longer blind. Into the darkness i walk, I see, this place isn't so dark after all...

Want??? A Very Racy Story I Wrote A Very Long Time Ago!
Want? She watched him pull up in front of her apartment, amazed that her feelings were so strong after all this time. They had met once after talking for a couple months, he was a real good online friend. The first time they met, both of them were so nervous that they didnt touch once. She wanted to run over and hug him, but her body didnt move as she watched him walked up to her and put his hands on her cheeks. The words from her stories ran through his mind as he leaned over and slid his tongue over her lips and kissed her. Shyly she looked up at him and whispered, "Better than the dream." Laughing he thought about her dream she had told him about, months ago, after they met. Looking up at him, she ran her tongue over her lips and asked if he was ready for their weekend, as he smiled, she took his hand and walked him in to the apartment. She smiled at him as she unbuttoned his shirt and teased him with her fingertips barely touching his skin, "It would be nice to feel my tongue

Erotic Story #1 From Jb
our lips touch as our tongues entwine. i feel you hand roaming across my clothed chest, moving down you grab my shirt removing it and dropping it to the floor. i can feel your hot breath along my neck as you bite my neck. you work your way down to my chest. flicking your tongue quickly over my nipples. a moan escapes my lips. you hand have found my pants as you start to undo them. i grab your wrists telling you not yet. i slowly remove your shirt. kissing and biting your neck. i unhook your bra revealing your breasts. i lay you on to the bed, kissing your lips as my hands caress your chest, my fingers pinching and pulling at your nipples. i start moving down your neck your nail clawing at my back. i encircle your nipples with my tongue as listen to your breath. i quickly suck one down, dragging my teeth along your skin as a pull off it, tugging on your hard nipples with my teeth. i kiss down your belly as my hands remove your skirt reveal your lacy pantie

Fire Safety Few Thoughts
Before I pass on a few fire safety tips let me start by saying that I am the Fire Prevention Officer at a 60mil doller facillity. I only mention this so that you can get an even bigger kick from the inferrences you will surely create. 1. Check your fire exstinguishers regularly..if a member of your household uses one and does not inform you..this could have tragic results when it is needed. 2. Ensure you have enough garden hose to reach any space in your house that may possibly need extinguishing. 3. Keep all drop ceiling tiles in good repair and in place..these are crucial fire safety items when there is a void between floors that contain highly flamable items such as insulation..plastic/flexy piping..ect. 4. Check/clean your dryer venting duct on a regular basis..ensure that there are no obstructions or excessive lint build-up..this is crucial in households where 40-50 loads of laundry are done a week. (No exageration) 5. Always use hard metal pipe for venting whenever possible

Amii Stewart - Knock On Wood
I don't want to lose you This good thing That I got 'Cause if I do I will surely, surely lose a lot 'Cause your love is better Than any love I know It's like thunder and lightning The way you love me is frightening You better knock, knock on wood, baby I'm not superstitious about ya But I can't take no chance You got me spinnin', baby You know I'm in a trance 'Cause your love is better Than any love I know It's like thunder, lightning The way you love me is frightenin' You better knock, knock, knock on wood, baby Think I better knock, knock, knock on wood Think I better knock, knock, knock on wood Think I better knock, knock, knock on wood Think I better knock, knock, knock on wood Think I better knock It's no secret about it 'Cause with his lovin' touch He sees to it That I get enough With his touch all over You know it means so much It's like thunder and lightnin' The way you love me is frightenin' You better knock, knock on wood, baby Think I better knock, knock, knock on wood T

If Tomorrow Starts Without Me
IF TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME If tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see, If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today, While thinking of the many things, we didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, As much as I love you. And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, and took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, in heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind; all those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye. For all my life I'd always thought, I didn't wan't to

Dude...that's My Bike!
After a commute from hell last night (humid outside, waiting 30 minutes for bus to show up to have sweaty, smelly Polak sit next to me) I had an unfunny funny. I get off the bus. The stop is in front of a McDonald's. The one half of the parking lot was completely empty with the exception of this big, bright, fire engine red motorcycle. It wasn't a little. Truly hard to miss. It stood about chest high. ONLY thing parked in this half of the lot. Just the bike. NOTHING ELSE! (Yes, there is a point. WAIT FOR IT!) Now enter big white van pulling around. He decides he's going to park and go inside to order. Not surprising. The drive thru at this McDonald's is HORRID! Hey, there's no cars parked on this half of the lot. Let's park here! (Can ya'll see where this is going?) Pulls up, starts to back up into a spot. Beep, beep, beep...CRUNCH! You hear the driver spit out "SHIT!" Enter pudgy Fonzie wanna be looking guy running up. "Dude...that's my bike!" Now obviously the man has a reason t

I Have A Dilemma...
Okay. I'm usually a "live and let live" kinda guy. No, really! I am! This week I got invited to a Facebook group about Fetishist (if you don't know him, don't worry about it. But you might as well stop reading here and move on.) Now, typically I would have ignored the request. I figured it wasn't so big a deal, but I was curious. I know of him here, but, well, I have no interest in his particular fondness in plastic-bags-as-sexy-clothing. So I went to look. I had to giggle. I joined. I didn't realize that he is a Facebook Friend of mine already. He noticed the group, that I had joined it, and suddenly he's in my chatbox there all the time. I resented it at first. I felt like, Dude! You're a joke! Go away! Then I started feeling kinda guilty for laughing at him, and he made me feel more guilty. I wanted to delete my FB account and start it over. But chatting with him some, I realized he just was like a lot of us - lonely and wanting attention. I won't apologize for my giggling at

[i Steal (3) Things]
Three names I go by:1. Ace 2. Chief 3. XRThree Jobs I have had in my life1. dry dock2. coat check3. social worker/data entryThree Places I have lived1. Independence2. Topeka3. Three Favorite drinks1. Dark tea2. Root beer3. Wisky and its many variantsThree TV Shows that I watch when I get to watch1. Mash2. House3. Good EatsThree places I have been1. Tokyo2. Saint Thomas3. Grand CanyonPeople who text me regularly1. Gabbi2. Chris3. ChristopherThree of my favorite foods1. Spanish Chorizo2. Rice3. EelThree friends who I think will respond1. who2. fucking3. caresThree Things I am looking forward to1. getting my models2. building my models3. customizing my models

Bregalad's Song
O Orofarnë, Lassemista, Carnimírië! O rowan fair, upon your hair how white the blossom lay! O rowan mine, I saw you shine upon a summer's day, Your rind so bright, your leaves so light, your voice so cool and soft: Upon your head how golden-red the crown you bore aloft! O rowan dead, upon your head your hair is dry and grey; Your crown is spilled, your voice is stilled for ever and a day. O Orofarnë, Lassemista, Carnimírië!

New Chapter
Some books never opened,Some pages never turned.But slowly deep inside her,Her fire again now burns. She has turned her page,And write a new chapter she will.And once again slowly,Her heart will once again feel. She will capture someones heart,In her book of life it will go.And again this beauty will shine,And her fire forever glow.

"the Man Of My Dreams" A Poem I Wrote That Is Published Along With "can't Sleep Thinking"
The man of my dreams, Is not as he seems, blinded by his touch, I just love it too much, He wispers in my ear, He sneeks up my underwear , Hes up to every measure, He gives me pain He gives me pleasue, He knows my deepest desires, He uses wipes and wire he never tires, My sex fantasy come true until I come to,

Haters
So what they keep talking about you and hating on you. What do you think a "hater's" job is... to hate. If you have someone hating on you right now you better think of how to get 5 more people hating by Christmas. You need haters to make you stronger... without haters most people wouldn't try to become better. Just tell them "bitch you just hate me because you can't be me..." - Katt Williams

What's Been Going On With Dzr
Well let me start by saying I'm sorry to all my friends and fans. This has been an exhausting year. When I first started DZRadio, I was working for myself and had pretty liberal hours. With the economy going to hell in an handbag I was forced to take a job for someone else, and my hours are extraordinarily high. Then you combine that with the fact that I am back out in the field working in the heat everyday. I have found that I have been exhausted pretty much everyday. I've also been working injured ( broken toe, shoulder problems, etc). Life in general has made it difficult to DJ on a regular basis. I had hope DZR would continue to operate without my constant presence, but that doesn't seem to be the case. DZR will still be around, but please be patient and I will eventually get it and myself back to where it should be.... Danger

Sometimes I Just Cant Believe How Dedicated Our Users Are.
I appreciate it when people go above and beyond. What else do you have to share? Send it my way please. To order a Shirt please follow these directions exactly how they are written. US Orders = $24.00 1. Go to PayPal 2. Send tshirts@fubar.com $24.00 3. Make sure to include the following information -Specify if it is Mens or Womens -Specify the Size S,M,L,XL,2XL,3XL -Specify the shipping address -Specify your fubar user ID or URL Outside US Orders = $30.00 1. Go to PayPal 2. Send tshirts@fubar.com $30.00 3. Make sure to include the following information -Specify if it is Mens or Womens -Specify the Size S,M,L,XL,2XL,3XL -Specify the shipping address -Specify your fubar user ID or URL

My Garden- Just Something I Wrote
My Garden I have a garden high on a hill So full of life; so full of beauty… Upon that hill so majestically Rests a single red rose for me To care for and to nurture What started out as a tiny seed, Has now become The only thing I will ever need The seed was planted two years ago From then I have walked many times To that seed on the hill I have talked to, laughed with, and cried over This tiny seed planted so firmly in the ground And over the years I have watched it grow To the blooming beautiful bud that it is today It looked to me for comfort from the stormy days And for warmth from the cold winter nights I was there when his buds began to wilt With a gentle touch I guided him toward the sun In his own way he thanked me everyday For the tenderness and care I had shown His beauty glowed across my garden An angelic glow surrounded him Like an angel sent from above One day I noticed another seed growing Next to my beautiful rose I noticed a new glow

My Late Night Rant
YOU KNOW WHAT IS FUCKING HILARIOUS??? PEOPLE WHO ARE ARE SO STUPID. PEOPLE WHO ARE LIKE OH YOUR NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO BE ON MY TOP I MUST HAVE SIZE 5 BARBIES ON MY PAGE ONLY...... FIRST OF ALL. YOU TALK TO ME EVERYDAY. YOU MESSAGE ME AND WANNA SHOW YOUR JUNK AND TALK ABOUT SEX AND YADDA YADDA BULSHIT, BUT WHAT UR TELLING ME IS IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO BE SEEN ON YOUR PAGE. NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO POST COMMENTS ON YOUR STUPID STATUS'S... RIGHT?? PLEASE.. PEOPLE LIKE THIS NEED A REALITY CHECK... YOUR ON THE SAME SITE AS WE ALL ARE... THIS IS WHY 95 PERCENT OF MY FRIENDS ARE NOT POINT WHORES.... WITH NO MIND OF THERE OWN...... I FEEL BETTER NOW... XOXOXOX HAILZ

Kathy Noneya
Kathy Noneya Interesting conundrum Describing perfection Personified In you Apple white skin Blemish free Yet fresh As from the tree Eyes inquisitive Clarity spoken Coffee alert Soulful understanding Lips full Jellybean sweet Broadened smile Knowingly Hands Alabaster, Finely Chiseled Piano Elegant. Softly beckoning. Pretty not beautiful Athletic not an Olympian Famous but not a celebrity, Smart but not a rocket scientist Walls erected Feelings protected Silent screams Love me, take me Heart strength Nurture complete Happy but not euphoric Loves abound Most important My Friend A lover of life Who captures My mind David

Is Thi All I Am?
Is this what I have to become All my nature and being to be undone Is the cover that entire people can see? Is there a place in this world for people like me? Am I to walk alone? To find no companion no desired attraction no love to be A heart slattern broken, a soul gone dead To walk this world in the world of dread To see the couples link as one To see the passion from the window open wide To see passion I will not know for my self In addition, to bring joy, pleasure, you decide. I guess this is the life for me To watch the world and let it be And know that it is safe to say No one to stand by my side

More Science - Space Balls
So, over the past few decades, these metal balls have been mined out of South Africa. They are either solid metal or a metal sphere filled with a spongey interior. What's so amazing about these balls, called Klerksdorp Spheres? Well the most amazing thing is that one of these spheres was taken to NASA where they conducted some tests concerning how well-balanced it is. At the time, NASA's equipment could not accurately measure the balance of this sphere. In fact, it was so well-balanced that the scientists claim that for one of these balls to exist in either nature or created by man, it would have to have been formed in zero gravity. Now the kicker. The layer of earth that they were excavated from predates intelligent life on Earth. Read the article: http://www.forbiddenhistory.info/?q=node/26

Alms
Eastern haze. Crickets playing frog.The air binds and dragslike wet garments against leatherNo cause for consumptionjust gasps betweenecstatic moansand pleading ransomsTracing the beads of your sweat down the gentle slopes and valleys with the tips of my fingersthe tip of my tonguethe tip of my amplewideintellect.Both faculties in question seriously underestimatedunderappreciatedand certainly under used. Better than a pocket full of beta blockersand a bottle overflowing with tremors, terrors and dreamsThe kind that wakemid resolutionvacant arousaldistinctlingeringsensationThe smell of dry hair and conditionerlaundered linenswet kisses in the best placesthe sharp dig of manicured fingersand the pulsating grind-churning and billowingof yet another mundane dawn without you.Possitively bursting with disappointment

Nsfw, Camming, And Insulting Friends Of Mine
I have a friend on here, and several other friends of mine have noted this, that they are continually being hit on by men and women who want them (my friend(s)) to exchange NSFW pictures, or webcam with them naked. My friend(s) say "No", but that doesn't seem good enough. I have advised them to inform the webmasters and real life managers of this site, of the offenders. Hopefully, they will eradicate these violators. In many states, webcam'ng in the nude is a felony cybercrime, and you can (men and women both) be arrested, should the offended party take it to that level. Extremely embarrasing to be put on the "Sex Offender" list of you local, state, and Federal law enforcement agencies. Plus, most sex offenders are on this site and many more like it. To you, who are on that list already, you can be arrested and your suspended sentence will become active and you will go to prison. You will serve your remaining time, and the time for this conviction. So, my advice: when a woman, or man

Fu-anal Much, Mike?
So, in a conversation with a new friend, I attempted to say (this site's name) sucks at night. After quite a few failed attempts, I changed it to say this site is dead at night. The reply went through. Is today prove-to-me-that-the-site-owners-and-admin-are-childish day or something? After that bit with scrapper and now this, I'm really starting to wish there were some way for me to communicate how retarded they've made themselves seem to me.

I Am Not Evolved From Monkeys....cause I Can't Climb Trees Very Well ( Part 1)
I am going to start a series of blogs this morning that will run for ...well I don't know how long. Probably until I get finished. I thought it would be interesting to look at where we are on this planet, our place in the universe and how we might take all those pieces and fit them together in this little puzzle we are doing called life. Just some nice light reading with your coffee in the morning. It really is, however, the very essence of what we think about deep within as we struggle with all that occurs in our lives. The ups and downs, the loss and tragedy, the joy of our families and children and loved ones. The necessity of gaining material goods and the need for love and happiness. The disgust many of us feel at those who do not care about others even though they ride in the same cosmic boat and never seem to pick up an oar and give a helping hand. Instead they want to hurt us rather than help us. Let me say to start with that I am not writing this to convert you to a

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All these goddamn voices inside my head screaming your name wanting you dead I can't take the internal pain the drama your fucking endless game I feel this endless rage ringing throughout me meet the end of this 12 gauge Just like you to think you're enough when you do nothing at all fuck you thinking you're tough You spew venom with every word you claim to be loving for me this is unheard Not forcing this anymore I can't do it I can't fight knowing I will lose this war Take myself out of your life before I end this bullshit and show you real strife I don't want your apologies for the many things you have done

Getting Deep ..i Am Not Evolved From Monkeys Cause I Can't Climb Trees Very Well..( Part 2)
Fortunately for all of you that read my work, I have a very simplistic brain. This is good news because it takes not much concentration to follow this blog. On the other hand it might be good to read the other blog in this section before you get into this because we are taking on some very weighty and unanswerable questions today. Some would say why discuss this if you have no answers. I would respond because most of the religions in the world do the same thing and they have no answers based on fact either. Why not just join in and have an opinion. Better than sitting around wondering if others feel what I do. If they do not they wil tell me I am an idiot. If they do have something in common with my idea of our place in the universe they will realize they are not alone in their beliefs. I just want to have peace and know where I am going cause no one gave me a road map with rest areas when I came popping out of Mom's womb and the doc slapped me on the butt. So lets think abou

Salutes
I have been thinking about Salutes and how some of you have special "trademark" type salutes... well since i have coined as you were in blogs and mumms and such, I am requesting some of my own special salutes. the request: Simply make a salute for me with the words "as you were" on the paper. It can be just that, or with Deacon on it too. and since i am so lazy about making salutes, I will offer a shit face or buzzkill for whome ever you like, yourself or someone else. some of you might get a return salute cuz I owe some anyways.. so like always as you were :)

Im Getting A Mac :)
So those of who just don't know what it is I do, I'm a student at TSTC Marshall double majoring in Multimedia Publishing and Webmastery. That being said, I got my hands on a MAC Book. What does this mean? MACs are the leader in graphic and video editing. So to celebrate this (and my going back to class starting August 30th) Anyone who comments on this blog will recieve a free image made by me. :D Will p.s.anyone who had pictures made from me before knows my work was never crappy.. but having a MAC Is so much better to make purdy stuff with :D

[the Meat Of Kings]
It is at least100 outI was promised 85 high.So I'm quitting at the halfway point, snacking on some ceranno, getting my front yard done in 2 hours (1 hour of break to prevent heat stroke) is good for me even on an 85 degree day.I found a few beautiful things in my travels though.A conversion kit.$89 on an $80 kitmixed feelingsover 150 new parts. Hi Nu Full armor conversion.Now, there's a 1/144 conversion for the Full armor Nu Gundam from Bandai, there's a 1/144 and 1/100 conversion for Hi-NuIt looks about the same (different paint scheme, and not as many funnels)I have never seen a Hi-Nu full armor conversionalsokinda weirded out that I can find this on tatsu-hobbybut not the Rx-78 full armor conversionnot that I think I would use the RX full armor conversion.At least not on my G3. And ... you can just buy Full Armor Gundam as a standalone 1/100. No hacking of an RX-78. No expensive conversion.Also a conversion I wasn't aware of the Zeta II. I like it, but I'm

How Was I Born
How was I born? Daddy , how was I Born? A little boy Goes to his father and asks 'Daddy, how was I born?' The father Answers, 'Well, son, I guess one day you will need to find out anyway! Your Mom and I first got together in a chat room on

Storm
The lightening wrote the name of God, Across the green grey sky. The thunder crashed, "His will be done", The hills took up the cry. The sweeping wind with mighty rush, Snatched up the bold refrain. In benediction of the dust, At last there came the rain.

[censored] Is A Shallow, Petty Cunt
Ummm.... so you know Histrionics were pretty much thrown out of most psychiatric treatments around the 60's. What you are probably referring to is Borderline Personality Disorder. This is a painful and devastating illness that is catastrophic to those that suffer from it and those that care for them. Your taunting of a psychiatric disability is just cruel and, frankly bigoted. What would you have done to her? Strap her down, give her shock therapy? medicate her til she was a fucking zombie? Seriously. Your cattiness might indicate that you too suffer from BPD. Maybe you should look THAT up. You're a joke. You cling to propriety on fuBar like it was some legitimate form of celebrity. I suffer from mental illness (schizotypal personality and ADHD if you were wondering) so you mocking someone just shows the quality of your character and the lack of your virtue.And BTW, saw your porn. was so disgusted I could even finish it. And I enjoy hentai. Thats fucking saying something. EDIT: Thi

A Soldier's Heart
A Soldier's Heart They don’t know why we do it. They don’t see what we see. They don’t know why we risk our lives for a war that isn’t even ours. It’s not for publicity but for love. That is it. It is all for love. It is as simple as that. For the brotherly love of the men next to us and for the loved ones we have left back home. The times are changing and freedom is no longer free. So we must fight to keep our families free and safe. For we are not afraid to die because we will know in our hearts that our family will be safe. It is truly an honor to give your life for the ones you love and know. So we do this for our moms and dads. Our brothers and sisters. Our friends back home. For the stranger on the side of the street. For the people who have crushed our hearts. And for the guy who said that we would never amount to anything. Because we love and care about them all and always will no matter what they have done. That is why I am a s

Iranian Airspace Huh?
I get this kind of stuff emailed to me constantly by family. Yeay me! I'll usually Snopes it and send them the link that disproves their latest chain letter but Snopes din't have anything on this one and it's actually kina clever. Conversation overheard on the VHF Guard (emergency) frequency 121.5 MHz while flying from Europe to Dubai .. It's too good not to pass along. The conversation went like this... Iranian Air Defense Radar: 'Unknown aircraft you are in Iranian airspace. Identify yourself.' Aircraft: 'This is a United States aircraft. I am in Iraqi airspace.' Air Defense Radar: 'You are in Iranian airspace. If you do not depart our airspace we will launch interceptor aircraft!' Aircraft: 'This is a United States Marine Corps FA-18 fighter fully armed .. Send 'em up, I'll wait!' Air Defense Radar:

Not Always Right | Ain’t No Mountain Wry Enough Aka Ike?
Fast Food | Melbourne, Australia Me: “…and a large Dew.” Customer: “I’m sorry, did you just call me a Jew?” Customer’s wife: “But honey, you are a Jew.” Me: “Oh no, sorry. I meant a large Mountain Dew.” Customer: “Oh really? Really, I’m flattered but I’ve never been to the mountains.” Me: “Ah, sorry?” Customer: *comically bangs his fists against his chest* “I am the large mountain Jew!” Customer’s wife: * to me* “I am so sorry about him. Honestly, I can’t take him anywhere.” Me: “Really, it’s fine.” Customer: “The large mountain Jew goes anywhere he wants to!”

Tonight...
Tonight, two of our friends that we don't get to see very often were in town. Of course, we go out to a bar with them. One of them suggested a bar because she looked it up online and saw it had karaoke. So we invited yet a third friend (we is of course, myself and Karen). Our friend that lives near us that we invited hasn't had dinner yet so we decide to go to the bar about an hour earlier. We get there. There's a strip club and sex shop next to the bar. There's a car in the parking lot that appears to have been shot up by the entire cast of Goodfellas. Undeterred, we walk in. There's signs everywhere concerning proper attire (no gang affiliated colors and such). We ask the lingerie-clad bartender about karaoke. They don't do it. Apparently, the bar had changed a lot since the online site was posted. We call our friends and tell them the news and of course they tell us to just meet at our friend's place and we'll figure out something else. We meet up and decide to go to a bar that

Sheet's
DO U KNOW WHAT THEM SHEETS WOULD SAY IF THEY COULD TALK WE PROBABLY WOULDN'T WANT TO HEAR IT,WHO WAS ON THEM BEFORE WE WAS OR IF SHE WAS WITH BEFORE SHE WAS WITH YOU,OR WHO YOU WAS ON THEM WITH BEFORE YOU WAS WITH BEFORE HER ON THEM SHEETS,WE THINK WE ARE GONNA BE ALRIGHT LAYIN ON THEM SHEET'S NEXT TO WHO WE THINK WE ARE COMFORTABLE WITH ON THEM SHEET'S UNTIL WE FIND THE NEXT PERSON OR PERSON'S,THEM DAMN SHEET'S GOT STORIES AND WE KNOW IT,YOUR'S,MINE,THEIR'S,AND WHAT ABOUT THEM MOTEL AND HOTEL SHEET'S UUUGGGHHH,DONT WANT TO ASK THEM NASTY MOTHERFUCKER'S. REAL WORD'S FROM DEEEZZZNNNUUUUTTTTSSSS

Untitled
There's a knife in my heart Where you played the part Thinking we were both so smart Until we learned I was simply a tart So please... don't even start Filling the rend which will never really mend only for death might I send so my life I can lend so others can fend Don't really wanna talk about pain So I'll mention your stain While my heart lays slain The conversational bane that splits us in twain...

I Hate U
I hate U for doing this to me I hate U for leaving me when U said U would be there no matter what I hate U for not caring about the baby I am having I hate U for the fact that MY baby wount have its real dad I hate U for making me cry when all I really want to do is smash ur face in with a rock But most of all.... I hate U for being U..

Beauty
It sometimes amazes me how looks seem to matter to so many people. What does that really say about a person ? What do looks say about anybody ? Perhaps you have good genetics, or know how to make the most of what you have seems like in this world Beauty will get you further. I love to watch the girl that is pencil thin that says omg I'm so fat. Whats that say about people of normal size ? Or the person that constantly says oh Im so ugly I sometimes want to say Yes you are! I mean when do we look past beauty at someone's accomplishments? Understandably people are attracted to beauty or good looking people. I have met many a man who were so handsome but seemed so ugly to me. Their attitude their "cockiness" was a complete turn off to me. Maybe its all some people have ... How sad to skip over an intelligent person who is charming, funny and witty for someone who is just beautiful. Over time as the beauty fades and the attraction dims what are you left with? I am proudest of my accomp

Making The Most Of This Misery
You tell me how great it's going to be But deep down you know you can't be with me So what do you build me up with hope for? It does me no good to have faith in a photo I'm holding you close, but you're pushing away So I'm making the most of this misery 'Cause I can't take you home But I won't leave you alone While I can hold you close I won't let you go Well I want you to know that this is torture And it's damaging me forever, for sure I know you're afraid to be discovered But nothing can stop determined lovers. Yeah. I'm holding you close, while you're pushing away So I'm making the most of this misery 'Cause I can't take you home But I won't leave you alone While I can hold you close I won't let you go

Where Do I Go From Here
What do you do when you dont even know whats right or wrong, whats real and whats not. Its so hard to watch the one you love, love someone else. It hurts so much to be played with and to have your heart ripped out like it was nothing. I feel like such a bad person I want him to hurt as much as I do and thats just so wrong. I dont now how to pick up the pieces and keep moving. Everything seems to take great effort. What am I supposed to do? How do you just forget someone that was such a big part of your life? I wish I had that magic wand and could make everything better and nothing hurt. I feel so numb. I want to put all my feelings and my heart in a box and lock it away and never open it again. I dont want this pain. I know I should be thankful that I had love in my life some people never experience that but right now I dont feel very thankful. I just wish I knew how to stop hurting

This Absolute C*nt Of A Week
So for those of you who whine and complain that I'm never here...this is what the last week or so of my life has been like: Monday the 9th was my birthday. I was spoiled by many I care about on here and who care about me too, but there are a few people out there (you know who you are) who I've taken care of on your birthdays and I didn't even hear happy birthday. I'm not expecting a ton of stuff (even though I've given away blings, blasts, and on one occasion a happy hour on YOUR birthdays), but at least ACKNOWLEDGEMENT of my birthday would make me realize you're not just a douche who's using me. Tuesday the 10th I get a frantic call from my friend Dorinda who's 16 saying she's pregnant by a meth using not-doing-shit-with-his-life 19 year old tool who thinks that it's funny when people blow weed smoke in their babies' faces. I ended up caught in the middle of their drama and her mom thinking I knew about it all along. Come to find out that was the first day they even had sex. So W

Marriage(all Must Read)
MARRIAGE When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten year

I Am
I am—yet what I am none cares or knows;…My friends forsake me like a memory lost:—I am the self-consumer of my woes;—…They rise and vanish in oblivion's host,Like shadows in love's frenzied stifled throesAnd yet I am, and live—like vapours tost Into the nothingness of scorn and noise,—…Into the living sea of waking dreams,Where there is neither sense of life or joys,…But the vast shipwreck of my life's esteems;And e'en the dearest, that I love the best, Are strange—nay, rather stranger than the rest. I long for scenes, where man hath never trod,…A place where woman never smil'd or wept;There to abide with my creator, God;…And sleep as I in childhood sweetly slept,Untroubling and untroubled where I lie;The grass below—above the vaulted sky. ………………………………………………—John Clare

God Help Me
As I sit here, I laugh quietly to myself as everyone else sleeps in peaceful slumber. I can't sleep because so many things stumble thru my minds slate. I have things that have to do with school all the way to them being in band, soccer, football or some other sport. Sometime I wonder if being a mom is all that I can give. I feel like a complete and total failure and I wish that I had a way to erase time. I am only getting heavier and looking worse as time goes by, a lot has to do with how I feel about myself but I can not seem to find my motivation in life. Does anyone have a TRUE motivation?? If so I would like to hear about it because the pen is close to paper/ razor close to wrist....

Born Again
My scattered dreams have made me a bitter man cuz the broken glass has cut away at my soul. The what could've been reflections haunt me in my sleep and taunt me in my mind. My broken heart has made me a hateful man cuz the scattered pieces made my love fade away. The ever glowing warmth that easily flowed through me just became a frozen block of ice. My defeated pride has made me an angry man cuz the wicked shame has brought upon a shadow. The once lively person has just become dead to be born again.

Need Song Mash-ups?
Okay, so I found this little jewel and it makes me happy. There's a lot of songs out there. A lot of them can be put together with the right... stuff. This site has mixed songs - a TON of them! Best part it. THEY ARE FREE!!!!! on the first page, just scroll down and find the mash-up you want. Right click to download for most of them. I'll post some video examples of songs in the comments. http://partyben.com/downloads/ The Mayberry single ladies one is one of my faves lol (Y)

Pain
Sometimes things in life just hurt. No matter how much you try to put them into perspective they just do and there are no words to explain why. What's worse is giving your heart to someone that simply can't give theirs back to you. You try to reason in your mind but the heart has a mind of it's own. You can't fault them for the way they feel because they have reasons of their own but there comes a point in time where you have to begin to think selfishly about your own heart. What makes it worse is when that person you finally give your heart to is also your best friend. You don't want to push too hard and lose that love because you also stand the chance of losing that bond of friendship. But when the love is one sided I guess sometimes you have to gamble. You then stand at a crossroads because you know this is all you will ever be but try telling that to someone's heart. You can try and turn a blind eye to what you see but it's always there in the back of your mind...sending you littl

Reason, Season, And Lifetime
When somebody comes into your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend and they are. They are there for the reason that you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will do or say something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, and their work is done. The prayer you have sent up has been answered and it's time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amoun

California People & Culture
California is known variously as The Land of Milk and Honey, The El Dorado State, The Golden State, and The Grape State. Prior to the Gold Rush, California had more Native Americans than all the other states combined. Author Jack London , who wrote The Call of the Wild, once ran for mayor of Oakland on the Socialist ticket. The first motion picture theater in the United States opened in Los Angeles on April 2, 1902. Scotsman David Jacks spent considerable time marketing a popular local cheese, which in turn became known as Monterey Jack Cheese. In 1947 a young woman named Norma Jean was crowned Castroville's first Artichoke Queen. She went on to become actress Marilyn Monroe. The first person to personally receive a star on the Walk of Fame in Hollywood was actress Joanne Woodward. She received it in 1960. During his engagement at the Fillmore West in San Francisco , Otis Redding stayed on a houseboat in Sausalito. While there he wrote his last song and greatest h

Sexy
Why do some people put the word sexy in their user names? Especially when they are so big , Goodyear should be written on their sides or so skinny they need food shoveled in them? A. They actually believe it B. To fool the feeple

New Day
So much on my mind not enough space to lay em got enough compassion to just not say em Don't know what's to come don't know where I'll be simply enough to know this girl isn't me Could lay down a rhyme or two or simply lock my lips baby you got nothin on me can't compromise my bliss. Knowing nothing of me and the words inside my head. You know nothing of the woman that sleeps in your own bed. Throw out some connotations of how I am in your eyes Throw of out a few more, make me subjective to your lies While you're at it take my pride and shut it out from within. Baby this isn't what you think it is your blinders should be running thin. You know enough of me to bypass my every thought give me enough room to analyze my loss. What you will never realize I see it all so clear Love the way you lie to me and attempt to ignite my fear. Look back a few years, realize I'm fearless. Laugh in the face of adversity, I will take on the world. Conquering it all, Yo

Random Ramblings Of A Crazy Person
I can't sleep and I have writers block. :( So I'm going to ramble about the things that are bothering me and maybe that will lift the block I hope. My dad is sick. Like dying sick most who read this didn't know that. I don't talk about it because no one wants to hear me cry like a bitch all the time. I hate that he's sick. I hate that I had to move here to help my mom with him. I hate that by being here it reminds me that I'm not like the rest of my family. I hate watching my dad come home from dialysis and not be able to walk up stairs or talk because he's too tired. I hate that my kids will have no memories of him before he was sick. Most of all I hate that I have to be the strong one through all of this because it's not fair for my mom to have to be strong while she sits and watches the love of her life die. I don't think I've cried over him being sick in front of her since we found out seven years ago. Maybe all I need is a good cry but I can't do it because I'm afraid i

Cubby Going Green Day
Misfit's Idea :P Copied from JeniWren You're are probably all aware that it is make CUBBY GREEN day. He is being a bigger HOAR than ever with the help of his friends. We all want him to be a the first man to be GREEN! Can you please hit the 'LIKE' button when you see him scrolling or one of his blasts. You can also access him through the active bling section on your profile page. Your help is very much appreciated :) Thanks

Single Mothers....
Done messing with women who have children. You wonder why you can't find a good man? Let me enlighten your minds.... You have torn us apart in the most painful and unspeakable way. Not only are we madly in love with you, but your children also and when you just happen to decide you want something else, you throw us to the curb and take away what we hold most dear....The family that we were apart of. So now, I am single. Never again will a woman with a child get their hands around my heart.

I'm Much Better
The sky has turned dark like my dying spark. Not from the rain but from the pain I felt so long ago. I wanna say that's over and I want you to know. I'm much better now that my heart's begun to heal. I'm much better now that the hate I no longer feel. I'm much better cuz a smile's resurfaced on my face. I'm much better cuz I can return to that loving place. My world was turned upside down and my smile to a frown. Not because you never talked but that you walked impulsively out on me. I no longer care and I want you to see. I'm much better now that my heart's begun to heal. I'm much better now that the hate I no longer feel. I'm much better cuz a smile's resurfaced on my face. I'm much better I can return to that loving place.

Speedy Gonzales
Lately I have been stuck on old cartoons (Loony Tunes, Merry Melodes, etc.) and someone reminded me of a song Pat Boone did in 1962 which made it all the way to the top 10 on the charts. Speedy Gonzales Written by Buddy Kaye, Ethel Lee and David HessPerformed by Pat Boone (spoken)It was a moonlit night in Old Mexico.I walked alone between some old adobe haciendas.Suddenly, I heard the plaintive cry of a young Mexican girl...(in obnoxious soprano)Laaaaaaaa!La-la-la-la-la-la-la-laaaaaaaaaa!La-la-la-la-la-la-la-laaaaaaaaaa!La-la-la-la-la-la-la-laaaaaaaaaa!You better come home Speedy GonzalesAway from tannery rowStop all of your drinkingWith that floosie named Flo!Come on home to your adobeAnd slap some mud on the wall!The roof is leaking like a strainerThere's loads of roaches in the hall.(La la la la)Chorus:

One Hell Of A Ride
Well I quit SER today....had to be the hardest thing I have done in a long time. I was with that lounge from the beginning, when the only concern was fun and anarchy, when torturing listeners, booting emo ppl and telling it like it was reigned supreme. IT WAS A FUKKIN RIOT lmao. Times change though and ultimately ppl do, your listeners change, your lounge members change, staff changes, and ultimately so does your shows, and ultimately fun is replaced with boredom and loathing.....I love Djing, I love making ppl laugh and smile, and I lost that love somewhere along the way....so time to hang up the mic and headphones for a while....time to leave SER while I still have the good memories....SER is my family, always will be....but just cant be part of it anymore

A Warrior's Fear
A Warrior's Fear A Warrior's Fear What is a warrior to do Warriors are trained to know what to do Even during down time there is something to do Cleaning, training, resting and training Our lives and missions become intertwined But there is always the next mission or objective. A warrior's life is dictated by their mission Whether its a problem to solve or a life to save Their duty and honor guides their actions In a never ending and ever changing way Even through fear a warrior will do Warrior use that fear to keep them alive, however Whether in fear or not the mission stands The fate of others are in your hands. But over the years, even the finest blade dulls True warriors turn to train the next generation To teach and learn new tools and toys of the trade Traditions of duty and honor we give to all For all give some but others give all. For the last warrior standing who gave their all

Peter Tosh
As for the majority of Jamaicans, life was spent scrounging for a dollar, struggling to put food on their children's table, and a roof over their head; That was if you can find some brush or metal with which to build one. It was difficult to find employment, and many of those that were employed were done so temporarily. Peter had greater visions for the Island of Jamaica. He was upset with the treatment of his people, and he did nothing to hide his feelings. It is believed by many that this is the very character trait which led to Tosh's murder. The voice of the people was eliminated by three supposed robbers who stole not one material object. At the tender age of forty three, Peter Tosh was silenced, as were the hopes of many Jamaicans. Peter Tosh was born into this world without a father or mother with the responsibility, or the time to raise young Peter. He was raised by his aunt, although Peter's personality would have you believe that he raised himself. An extremely self-reliant

Tazer For His Wife
A guy who purchased his wife a pocket Taser for their anniversary submitted this. Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest. The occasion was our 15th anniversary and I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Julie. What I came across was a 100,000-volt, pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were supposed to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety....?? "WAY TOO COOL!” Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. "I loaded two triple-a batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button. Nothing! I was disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I'd get the blue arch of electricity darting back and forth between the prongs. "AWESOME!!! Unfortunately, I have yet to explain to Julie what that burn spot is on the face of her microwave. Okay,

Being Naive
I have been on Fubar since ’06 and with me being in the Army I don’t get much time to be on. I have watched the site change and I have changed with it. I remember when you could go days without adding a new friend or being someone’s family was an honor. And people would chat with you just because. But there is one aspect of the site I cannot wrap my head around no matter how hard I try. Lately it has come to my attention that your success depends on who you have in your family. Which I understand fully, but not being successful because people do not like your family members is rather childish. I know I will probably get bashed for this if anyone would take the time to read this, but oh well such is fu life. Maybe it’s just me…scratch that, I isn’t me. I have witnessed it a few times in my shout box. I would love some feedback and don’t worry, seeing people on the worst day of their lives have given me a thick skin. Tell me what you think. May

[ah To Be Young, Handsome And Scarred]
Rejoice for I had to take a muscle relaxer...and then I got really high.God I'm bored.Like... bubble wrap bored.like, reorganize my game/DVD collection bored.God that's bored.But I did watch Dr. Horribleand I want some snazzy goggles... partly to cover my disfiguring scarpartly for the AWESOME.This reminds me of my first blog entry on this website.Minus the chronic painand the dogand the...no I'm pretty sure NiN was playing in the background then too.I need a dreamscape.A saga.Or at least a mindfuck.and all I've got are these pillsand these keyswhat happens when I run outand I need more?Good fucking times.Good fucking times.I always end on a low note.I'm gonna grab my sandles, my rings, run my hands through my hairI'm outta here.

Choices .. The Razorwire Tightrope
I like it here. That special place that makes a person feel a live. That state of being on the edge of every thing. It’s like tight rope walking on razor wire across the Himalayas. Invigorating, Dangerous. Worrisome. Painful. Exhilarating. And most of all Alive. I have been walking that tightrope for a long time. It wears on you. The most amazing and perhaps amusing thing is it is an addiction. Most people back away from it for fear or safety. Other stay back not because they don't like it, just because they simply can't handle it. It's too much to juggle everything else when something places you on the edge. The problem with being on the Edge for any reason is most of the time it seems as though there is nothing you can do to control your situation. It then comes down to the only choices we have ever had in life. Accept it or do not accept it. In Short Step up or Step aside, as Mr. Titus put it. Step up or step aside. Accept it or refuse to. These are the only choices we reall

Help Me Save My Beloved Computer
Problem: My Windows XP machine, which is the one I love to death, is developing a really bad habit. The hard drive will light up and then it will get really slow… It almost seems like it is caught in a loop, trying to find something, and that takes precedence over everything else I am doing. There have been a couple times when I have rebooted, CHKDSK runs during the boot up process. It tells me the drive is dirty. This machine is old and I have gone through deleting stuff, admittedly some of it was probably stuff I should not have deleted at all. The machine still runs, just not like it used to… Anyone out there have any idea what could be causing the hang up? Is the system unstable and needs to be recovered. Is the drive worn out and need to be replaced? Virus? I have never had a problem with viruses on my computers. Anything is possible. Any help would be appreciated. I want to save my XP machine. It has programs on it that I can not replace without considerable exp

Til Death Do Us Part
He promised, she seethed. He promised and yet again he failed to deliver. She paced the room, her eyes flickered toward the closed door. Liar, she thought. He's such a liar! She stalked back to the fireplace and saw a picture of the two of them at the fair, taken only a few short months ago. His eyes were a warm blue, yet the gaze was cold and distant. It was as if he was staring straight through the camera, she noticed. She loved him, of that there was no question. She just hated when he made promises then broke them. Today was important, and he knew it. So it meant a lot to her that he kept his word and came home on time. The sound of a disgruntled engine broke the silence of the living room, and she spun around waiting for the door to open. Anger flowed through her, making her blood feel warm and giving her skin a healthy glow. Wanting a final moment to herself, she stormed into the kitchen. Walking around the island, she hoped for something cool to drink.She wasn't sure what she wa

Dark, Demented, Devious, Depression, Disillusion
Dark, Demented, Devious, Depression, Disillusion. Look into my eyes and tell me what you see. Can you see behind the eyes into my soul? Can you see the chaotic glint that entwines my being with reality. The thoughts race around my head. People, emotions, actions. Irrational people who lack control over their own being. Pain and emotions are controllable. They are easy to reign in and pull back, feeling nothing but the numbness that creeps into my soul. Cryptic thoughts flow through my brain like a tornado, ripping away self confidence and replacing it with a new self identity which is barely contained. Kiss me gently. Hold me tight. I am yours for the moment. You have my being but my soul is locked away. No one is allowed full control. Kiss me. Breathe into me as we kiss. Fill my soul with the passion you feel. Hope makes me long for the feeling again, the disillusioned longing to feel something beside the chaos. Innocence seems like a far off imaginary ideal, one which vanishes int

Youngblood(s)
(At the very least, the young ones are fun to talk to) Hey! Yeah you. You tasty young snack over there. C'mere. We gotta talk. Yes. Yes I do see your well defined abs. Whats that? Oh no thanks. I've seen a dick before. I'm sure yours is lovely. Okay, put the biceps away. This is serious business. What? Oh thanks. I'm glad you like my "bewbies". Huh? Now why on Earth would you want to do that to me? What is wrong with you? So....moving on. What's your name? REALLY??? I hardly believe that your parents named you "Cock Monster". So what are your plans in life? Cool. So you plan on fucking me till you die??? That is REALLY ambitious! I beg your pardon? Um, No. Blow jobs aren't considered and Olympic Event. Okay. GOOD talk. Hope you learned something. Lets do it again soon.

Justin's First Game... Mizzou Beats Illinois 23-13!!!
Britt gets his first game action against Illinois Israel Potoczny israel@lebanondailyrecord.com Sep 7, 2010 ST. LOUIS — Former Lebanon High School football and wrestling standout Justin Britt got his first action on Saturday with the University of Missouri football team as he split time at left guard during the Tigers’ season opening 23-13 win over rival Illinois at the Dome in St. Louis. Junior Jayson Palmgren got the start at left guard, and played the first four plays, then Britt rotated in for three plays. The two players rotated in and out with Palmgren getting four plays, then Britt three throughout the game. “It didn’t really hit me until pregame, then I started getting real nervous,” Britt said. “It is a lot faster than high school ... but I thought I did good for being my first game. It is definitely a different atmosphere, but it is something that I can do for the next four years. “It is faster than practice, and coll

Stuffs
Welp, good news I AM TUMOR FREE :D:D:D:D:D yay :D on another note.. i have been told by my best friend that Thursday.. I have to go with her to this club called Cowboys.. no it isn't a country club... cowboys is the football team here.. I really REALLY loath that place... but its her birthday and she says thats where she wants to go.... damn her..

Ice Queen By Lizz Tayler
"Well, well. This is quite a situation you've gotten yourself into, isn't it?"I say nothing, glaring angrily at my captor from across the room. God, how I detest this man! My heart is full of venom for this vile, brutish creature who dares to masquerade as a human being. No, I quickly correct myself. He is not human. He is not even worthy of my hate.As if reading my thoughts, he looks deeply into my eyes and his mouth lifts in a half-smile. Slowly, deliberately he walks towards me. "I'm well aware of how unpleasant your feelings are towards me at this moment," he says quietly. "You are furious. And I understand why." His face is very close to mine, his dark eyes piercing. "But I am sure you are just as furious at yourself for allowing yourself to be put in this predicament. Am I right about that?" I am silent, but my mind acknowledges that he speaks the truth. How foolish I was to trust this man! How could I have been so careless? What was put forth as a harmless invitation to dinner a