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For the past few days, I have been a wreck. For those that don't know, I lost my grandmother on friday. This is just another lash of the whip on me for the past six months.
First off, I would like to apologize to all of my friends, for not really being the person I should be, and for just being a basket case.
I've had a lot on my plate lately, and it seems as though anytime something starts to go better, the gods look down and throw another lightning bolt in my path. It gets hard, because I have to keep myself together around my son, and so when I don't have him, the strain of holding it all back gets to me.
I would really like to thank my wonderful family of the Revolution. You guys accepted me, and have really been great for putting up with me this week end even though I've been an ass. I'd especially like to thank Mysterious, Mystic, Bad Girl and Mudd. You four specifically have helped me from really spiraling.
Also, I'd love to thank my bestie Zombie Cupcake, and her room mate, my fu-fiance Element of Surprise. Both of you have been great at trying to keep me upbeat the past couple weeks.
I'm trying to get through my life. It's a struggle. I have to take it one day at a time. Sometimes it is a battle to even get up, knowing that depression is waiting there to pounce.
You, my Friends, my Family... thank you for keeping me alive.
None of you will ever realize how much I appreciate it.
For my Grandmother, and my Grandfather before her...
Rest In Peace.
(since I can't see it... click this link for the video... the death prayer at the end is not the same as what the link is.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tlNpR7CkM-4 )
Lo there I see my Father...
Lo there I see my Mother, and my Sisters, and my Brothers...
Lo there do I see the line of my People, back to the begining.
Lo... they do call to me.
They bid me take my place among them.
In the Halls of Valhalla...
Where the Brave may Live... Forever.
