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Sex Quiz
You have a sexual IQ of 156 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

To
This is just a vent so I may just babble. Last night I was talking to a man I had been talking to for a little while now, who I may mention I find amazing except for one small flaw, he angers quickly. I could totally see getting to know this person and hitting it off because we are so in each others heads. I did some things last night that I should'nt have and again I apologize to him. I'm Sorry! I am really a very good person and I want him to know this. He will probably never speak to me again and that makes me sad because we are both losing out. Anyway, if you read this, I hope you can forgive me. I want to be a lost poem in a stranger's coat pocket that conveys the importance of you, To assure you of my desire, To assure you of my dreams. I want all the possibilities of you in writing. I want to give you your reflection. I want your eyes on me. I want everything before you to follow us And leave a trail behind us. I want never to say good-bye to you, Even on

Anti-valentine's Day
Another day has come and gone But to many it is a special day They each other candy and flowers They have special meals They spend that special time together Not me I spend it my son and my dad It is another day that has come and gone No man to buy me flowers No man to spend money on me This is just another day to me So to all those who believe in love And celebrate this day I say these words Happy F****** Valentine's Day And with that I leave you

Out Of Control
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End Goal
the razored edge of grims blade calls to me, curious remnants pass through my mind, one half anticiapation one half need, with out sorrow nor even a sliver of fear, a welcoming unlike any other, no obligations, no possessions, no more problems, a silence eternal, a dream beyond all dreams, a place where my voice doesn't matter if it's heard or not, time becomes my relief forever.

I'm Walking.
I posted this in a bulletin as well, but I'm not sure if anyone pays attention to them... I am walking in the March Of Dimes WalkAmerica on April 14th. This organization helps thousands of babies every day. As most of you know, this hits home with me. I am asking now for sponsors and donations to help this wonderful organization. I promise you that if you donate it will go towards a great cause. If you would like to donate please go to this link. www.walkamerica.com/chelsea89 This means the world to me. Thanks in advance ♥

Get Back In The Game
So, you've dumped her. Or she's dumped you. Either way, once you find yourself single, thoughts soon come around to meeting other women. But getting back in the game, especially after a long-term relationship, can be daunting. The first steps back in the world of dating should not to be taken lightly. You shouldn't attempt to bed new women to take revenge on your ex, whether it's to lure her back with jealousy or as a way to get over her. You should do it because you're a single guy and that's what single guys do. It goes without saying that you have to be completely over your ex before you get back into the game. Women will immediately pick up on it if you're using them to distract yourself or numb the pain. Exactly how long it will take to reach this stage varies: Some will find themselves cruising around the local pickup spots the very next weekend, while others may find it takes months before they can even look at another woman. No matter what, it's worth the wait because

Stardust Implosion
This morning around 2:30 am, the historic Stardust casino was imploded. And i must say, it was the best lasvegas casino implosion i have ever seen. four minutes of amazing fireworks, then in a matter of seconds the 31 story tower was turned into a pile of dust.

Wiccan ( Lammas )
LAMMAS The First Harvest -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It was upon a Lammas Night When corn rigs are bonny, Beneath the Moon's unclouded light, I held awhile to Annie.... Although in the heat of a midwestern summer it might be difficult to discern, the festival of Lammas (August 1) marks the end of summer and the beginning of fall. The days now grow visibly shorter and by the time we’ve reached autumn’s end (October 31), we will have run the gamut of temperature from the heat of August to the cold and (sometimes) snow of November. And in the midst of it, a perfect midwestern autumn. The history of Lammas is as convoluted as all the rest of the old folk holidays. It is, of course, a cross-quarter day, one of the four High Holidays or Greater Sabbats of Witchcraft, occurring one quarter of a year after Beltane. Its true astrological point is fifteen degrees Leo, but tradition has set August 1 as the day Lammas i

Auctioned Off
so check this out. My friend is going to be auctioned off to cook at some random person’s house at his high school that he graduated from to make money for that school. So I am going to help him out. The menu will consist of: APPETIZER: Shrimp and scallop kabobs (that are skewered with fresh rosemary sprigs) over top of a shitake risotto (which is like a very sticky, and runny type of rice, with balsamic glaze drizzled on the bottom of it all. Sweet sausage ravioli with a sun dried tomato chili pesto, with veggie and potato ravioli baked in a cheddar cheese sauce topped with asaigo cheese and bread crumbs lime and tequila sorbet inside of a lime instead of a shot glass(to cleanse the pallet) SOUP: a melon five-spice soup (which will be served cold) SALAD: a bitter green salad with grilled marinated duck, with a orange cilantro coulis, and a Asian pear ginger coulis some sort of savory entremets (to cleanse the pallet) ENTRÉE: Sea bass en papillote with garlic

Talked And Now Leaving
Well I went to the cabin she was sharing with the deck hand and knocked on the door. She answered it with just a towel wrapped around her and I could see him in the bed with a sheet over his cock. I asked her if we could talk and she said sure and went back and grabbed some clothes and squeezed his cock and said she would be back. I had a hard time looking at her after that and we went to the feont of the boat. I asked her what she was doing and why and she said she was excerising her freedom and she was enjoying herself. She than asked me what gave me the right to question her affairs when I fucking grabbed any woman we met and would try to bed them. I had no answer for her and I began to cry. I told her I loved her and I was sorry if I hurt her. She said that that wasn't thepoint. I told her I never denied her anything she wanted and again she said that wasn't the point. I asked her what was the point and then she let me have it. She said that she did fall in love with me and was wil

And We Learn
A STORY MY MUM TOLD ME A LONG TIME AGO – I WANT TO SHARE IT A woman named Emily was renewing her driver's license at the Transport office now called the ‘dvlc’, she was asked by the clerk to state her occupation. She hesitated, uncertain how to classify herself. "What I mean is," explained the clerk, "do you have a job, or are you just a ......? "Of course I have a job," snapped Emily. "I'm a Mum." "We don't list 'Mum' as an occupation...... 'Housewife' covers it," said the clerk emphatically. WHAT NOW FOLLOWS IS HOW MY MUM TELLS IT: I forgot all about her story until one day I found myself in the same situation, this time at our local police station. The Clerk was obviously a career woman, poised, efficient, and possessed of a high sounding title like, "Official Interrogator" or "Town Registrar." "What is your occupation?" she probed. What made me say it, I do not know... The words simply popped out. "I'm a Research Associate in the field of Chi

Gone But Not Forgotten ....hopefully
hey all haven't been on very much lately, got a lot of bs goin on and just haven't been up to it . what time i have been around haven't felt much like being real sociable ...i'm still around though and hopefully thangs will start to chill some and i can get back to bein the ass i normally am lol. ya 'll be good and if that ain't possible then be good at it anyway.

One Day It Might Happen
Online friends are people we may never meet.... We see pictures, we see cams...It isn't the same.... We grow close...We care and love one another.... One day we may not hear from one another.... Our hearts will break... All we see is a name on messenger but the person we don't see anymore..... We pray....."Please come back".... All I ask is you remember me in the good times we had..... Keep me close to your heart....Friends forever... Pass this on to all your friends....If I get it back.... I know you care ( To a very special friend I have made on here. One day you never know if we will ever meet. Lets just pray we might )

The Law And Art Of Phhhttt!
I know i,m getting alot of funny looks from group members who've read the heading for this post...but after you get through reading,you might not be so confused. Too many people,especially those just starting out on a spiritual path,either start out guilty or end up guilty of the same crime...not knowing the law of PPHHHTTTTT.Well,what the heck is the LAW OF PPHHTTT....sounds like something straight out of MONTY PYTHON...I,d like to explain this LAW OF PPHHTTT....You wont find it in any text anywhere,because it hasnt been written down....its a lesson and a law most only learn when they are more experianced with their spiritual path...and ONLY if their minds are open enough to handle it....THE LAW AND ART OF PPHHTTTT is valuable though...prevents alot of frustration and stress and heartache,so let me share with you the LAW AND ART OF PHHFFTTT.. Ah,how many of us started out on our spiritual paths and were so eager to learn that we dashed headlong,reading at the speed

Sexiest Brit Verses Sexiest American - A Must Enter Competition
welcome to the hottest competiton on cherry tap yet!!! we have had all sorts from best ink to best kids etc this contest is the sexiest brit verses the sexiest american, you can be male or female, or both haha, the way the contest will work is a heat of the sexiest brit, also a heat of the sexiest american, the winners from each heat will go head to head to become the sexiest cherry, i am looking for contestants, so if you think the sexiest cherry crown belongs to you , contact middlesmash or candygirl uk the contest will start when i have 10 uk and 10 american contstants , so come on what a crown to hold there will by prizes for the winner of each heat and another one for the overall winner - what you waiting for !!

Simion
center> Simion is gonna cry like a baby As Him and Eve will be broadcasting live from panamtattoo.com (on location). Time for Simion to get Inked! 8pm Cst! Ya don't wanna Miss out! If ya do We'll let it slide as long as You COME PLAY WITH SIS!!! Tonight You'll get a chance to get on air and not only impersonate, BUT Take a shot at embarrassing ANY CherryRock Personality! # best Impersonations get a Prize! Tune in 10pm cst!! Click any pic to get there!

Conspicuous Daft
Ignorance Conspicuous daft The marble presses into your back Conspirator A talon is torn Everyone peck away at the worm Casting off with a locked reel All I need to do is feel Green is in the shadow’s field Hack the cast off with pruning shears Pinned down by enemy fire; my cock is all I got So until I black out I may as well fox-hole-trot As I take stock I realize someone’s been skimming off the top The shoe drops, opportunity knocks, I line up and take a shot There’s no way you have enough blood to make up the cost You’re crawling on your ass as your bullshit walks A nice long walk off a really short dock The bottom of the lake is a nice place to rot Treason pierces like a dart Scramble for a place to start Drain blood directly from my heart I have a pretty lax and far reaching perception of art Part the smart from the suicidal flock No matter how much time I kill I can never beat the clock I can shut down but I can’t be stopped All the meat I come acro

Hello All
Here i go again asking for help I only need 16000 more point to level up. This next level get me 1000 rates a day so that means i can help all u more. Thanks in advance. To all my new friends or thoses who didnt know. I try to rate everyone on everyones pages. I always rate 10s. Right now im maxed out on everything but i will get back to all who help me. oh if u havent rated or fan me yet please do I promise to return the love Thanks TECH

Buy A Blast, Chat To Morons
My blast has attracted some of the more "interesting" characters on cherrytap, read from the bottom. Please note this is a "real chat" lol, sorry for the typos, but it's hard to type when you are laughing so much.......... wayne 22: that is a lie i check you out you are not even on a leval of tret wayne 22: you went to school why would you want to hert people ->wayne 22: i am, i know Osarma, he is using my loo as we speak, to tell you the truth i could do without him here, he has very smelly shit, you cannot go for 3 hours after, something about the diet of donkeys he eats wayne 22: THE GOV KNOWS OF JIHAD THAY ARE NO TRET wayne 22: look i know that you are no part ov terist group why do you make it sound like you do ->wayne 22: you know jihad ? ->wayne 22: i do, i seek 50 virgins through jihad wayne 22: onley in arkansaw lol ->wayne 22: i have heard the people of the south have sex with there sisters and mothers, and sometimes even there fathers wayne 22: but you are not

Golf
dirty 1. Look at the size of his putter. 2. Oh, dang, my shaft's all bent. 3. You really wacked the hell out of that sucker. 4. After 18 holes I can barely walk. 5. My hands are so sweaty I can't get a good grip. 6. Lift your head and spread your legs. 7. You have a nice stroke, but your follow through leaves a lot to be desired. 8. Just turn your back and drop it. 9. Hold up. I've got to wash my balls. 10. Damn, I missed the hole again

Sinner
Forgive me father for I have sinned every day I find another way to not let you in Is there any other way to fall asleep at night other then bitter tears and fights? I turn out the lights and pray that it'll all just be a dream someones says their's a light maybe someday I'll catch a gleam I kick and I scream but I don't want a fight why can't you just leave me right here I only wanna sink into your floor. become a piece of the routine a crazy mixed up life swirling with hate I can't stand seeing your face It makes me want to rip out your heart is that bad? is it angry? Do I deserve what they say? Would it be better just to pop all these pills and whisper good night let the world drift away and leave me behind...? I'm tired of fighting the fear why can't it all just disappear? A fucked up dream whisked away by the light. ~Jess

My Life Is A Shadow
My Life is a Shadow I am a shadow in this world To some I am dead To others, a ghost of the past No longer seen by you Because the loss of love But here I am rite in front of you Drifting away in the distance Never to be seen again When you’re around me The world goes cold Now I feel empty Like the world you live in.

Have You Seen My Kitty?!?!?!
He took off last night! He's never really been outside before and he isn't wearing his tags! I've tried calling for him and have looked around the back and front yards =o(. He actually belongs to my sister. He did good with the doggy door being left open all weekend, so I didn't think twice about it! Now he is gone!!! He is about 8 months old - ugh this sucks! COME HOME COOPER!!!

R.i.p. Randy Stover
Randy Stover, 24, Vandalia IL, formerly of Clay City IL, drown Friday night in the Kaskaskia River near Vandalia at the U.S. Route 40 bridge. The Fayette County Coroner is investigating the death, but, have yet to release any findings. The Fayette County authorities began the search for Stover at about 8 pm after two young men reported that they saw a man go into the river and not come up. The body was recovered by authorities at about 11:15pm Friday night. I went to high school with this kid, he was a good guy until he got out of high school and got into drugs really bad. From what I got from other people talkin', he got arrested for drugs like a week before he drowned and he was livin' out there by the river. :(

"if A Man Wants You"~excerpt
This single line is worth keeping in mind when a person wants you... "He is a man, nothing more, nothing less." Substitute the gender if necessary, but we are all human, a wonderful condition, for it means both possibility and opportunity, and, it sums up all the potential there is, in man or woman, through eternity. ElCool43

Omg....
I was just offered my own site to display my scrapbook pages and kits on. It is suck an honor. I couldn't believe it when they came to me and offered to host a site just for me because my kits are great they say! Now I need to come up with a LOGO and a site name... Anyone got any ideas????

My Birth Sign
SCORPIO - The Addict EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predicts future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

Passionate Partner
You scored as Passionate, You love a Passionate partner, someone who will just sweep you off you feet and never put you down. You want someone who just goes at it and never takes their hands off you. You mike like it rough and fast but its all about what feels right and how good it all feels. Passionate partners are great but things can sometimes get a little out of hand. Please rate and comment and tell me what quiz this is when you do!Passionate94% Tease88% Begging75% Dominator75% Fantasizer75% Loving75% Easy Going69% Slave63% Seductive56% Reserved56%

Hospital
Hey ya'll... I'm still in pain, but doped up. ***UPDATE*** OMG! GOOD NEWS! I didn't cut my tendon after all. The doctor looked shocked at how bad it was when i pulled off the bandage to show it to him though. got stuck three more times for him to numb it so that he could see if i could bend my finger. So I couldn't feel shit, so i bent it as much as i could. I'm so happy. I am in a lot of fucking pain though ya'll.. I can't believe how much one digit could hurt. It feels like it broke really bad, cause everytime i move my other fingers on my right hand, or even my right arm, excruciating! I love ya'll and will be back on as much as i was once it heals anough for me to type faster again. Its such a pain in the ass trying to type. talk to ya'll later

If He Only Knew
If he only knew, my heart beats a thousand times a minute when he looks at me or touches me, that every waking moment my thoughts wonder back to him, and when we're apart I can't wait to see him again, and when the day draws near the end, I start to get anxious cause I know I will be seeing him again soon. If he only knew I lay awake at night and watch him sleep, and wonder if he dreams of me the way I dream of him, how could I have gotten so lucky to have such a wonderful man laying there next to me, and then , I thank god for all the time we have gotten to share , and that, I pray will never end. If he only knew how much I love him, will he ever understand, he's my heart, body, and soul, and everything I ever dreamed of, and with each and every passing day it just grows stronger, as to make me wonder how I ever did get along without him in my life, for I love him so completely he is the reason I am who I am today, and why I thrive to do better for him and myself. If he only

Good Soldier
Dear Sergeant, An Iraqi brought a gun to kill He told his friends that it was cool, And when he pulled the trigger back, It shot with a great crack. Sergeant, I was a good soldier, I did What I was told, I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got promoted fast But Sergeant, when I went on patrol today, I never said See u later, I'm sorry Sergeant, I had to go, But Sergeant, please don't cry. When the Iraqi shot the gun, He hit me and another, And all because the Iraqi Got the gun from his leader. Sergeant, please tell my parents; That I love them very much, And please tell my lady ; my girlfriend; That it wasn't just a crush. And tell my twin brother; That he is the only one now, And tell my dear sweet grandmother; I'll be waiting for her now, And tell my boys; That they always were the best; Sergeant, I'm not the first, I'm no better than the rest. Sergeant, tell my mom; I won't show up for leave And never to forget this,

Great Plains
The Great Plains wolf (Canis lupus nubilus) is the most common subspecies of the gray wolf in the continental United States. It currently inhabits the western Great Lakes region of the United States and Canada. A typical Great Plains wolf is between 4 1/2 and 6 1/2 feet long, from snout to tail, weighs from 60 to 110 pounds, and may have a coat of gray, black or buff with red-ish coloring. Like all wolves, the Great Plains wolf is a very social animal that communicates using body language, scent marking and vocalization with an average pack size of five to six wolves. The territory size for the Great Plains wolf depends on the type and density of prey. Typical prey for the Great Plains wolf consists of white-tailed deer, moose, beaver, snowshoe hare, and smaller birds and mammals. The historic range of the Great Plains wolf was throughout the United States and the southern regions of Canada. By the 1930s, Great Plains wolves were extirpated almost eliminated completely, in much of

Attention All My Friends
HEY ALL I JUST WANTED TO AT LEAST LET YOU GUYS KNOW THAT I AM ALIVE , RIGHT NOW I AM AT THE LIBRARY SINCE I HAVE NO INTERNET AT HOME..WELL MY LIFE HAS BEEN VERY CRAZY THIS PAST WEEK....MY SO CALLED BOYFRIEND HASNT EVEN LAYED A HAND ON ME LET A LONE A FINGER..PLUS JUST TODAY , I GOT A DIVORCE SUMMONS IN THE MAIL THAT STATES THE INFO BELOW : AWARDING PLANTIFF custody of the unemancipated children of the marriage AWARD PLANTIFF child support , including , but not limited to , a periodic payment , and where appropriate , a child care allowance , health care allowance , and allowance private/ and or college expenses. AWARDING PLANTIFF exclusive use and occupancy of the marital residence AWARDING PLANTIFF exclusive use and occupancy of the contents of the marital residence DECLARING PLANTIFF'S seperate property Granting each party the right to resume the use of any maiden name or other pre-marriage surname.....

No Name
How I long for your touch, I never thought I could miss you so much. Some of the things you do should make me so mad, but instead I'm feeling to sad. How I need you in my arms _ _ _ _. I long to see you smile again when you look at me, everytime I look at you it makes me weak in the knees. I think of you each and every day, hoping one day you'll find your way. Find your way back into my arms, to keep me safe from harm. I don't mean to be so sappy, but when I think of you it makes me happy. Is this love I don't know, even if it was I wouldn't let it show. We are just friends for now, but with these words I vow, I will make you mine someday somehow. How I need you in my arms so I don't feel so sad, How I long for your gentle touch _ _ _ _!

Font Face
An E/I Blog! Enjoy! These are Font Faces. Each Represents The Face name and how it will look in your Browser. Some May not be seen Properly by Internet Explorer and some may not be seen Properly in Firefox. All you need are the names and add to your html code as Font face. (Ex. Then add your sentence or paragraph here. This is to end your code.)Omit the period from in between on everything! Had to add it to break the code so you can see what it will look like before you save or submit your entry to Blog, Stash, or all your Profile About Me and intrest sections. PacFont Blood Blood Of Dracula BloodFeast Arial Arial Black Arial Narrow Book Antiqua Book Man Old Style Century Gothic Comic Sans MS Courier Courier New Cursive Estrangleo Edessa Fixedsys Garamond Gautami Georgia Hattenschweiler Impact Kartika Latha Lucida Sans Unicode Lucida Console Mangal Microsoft Sans Seriff Modern Monotype Corsiva

Goodbye
I sit on the verdant turf, In silent contemplation, Of all the smiles we shared, The unconditional love, And support, You once gave me. My heart-torn soul, Can not, Will not, Find the words, That must be spoken, A final, Goodbye. I remember all the time, We shared talking, About the future, Of hopes and dreams, All of that is gone now, Lost to time. I am lost without, Your arms that gave me, Comfort and acceptance, Your words that gave me, Reason and understanding, Confused and alone i sit. When I dream in the night, I still hear your, Voice, I still feel your, Presence, I try to hold onto it. But, The morning always comes, To steal those dreams, The only words I can find, The only words my heart will allow, Come unbidden to my lips. I love you dad....Goodbye

Paying It Forward..... Postively Contagious!!!
Just thinking to myself this morning.... Self! lol... I have 100 11's to pass out each day.... Even if I only do this 3 days a week (which, I don't; I do it nearly every day), that is 300 folks' lives that I have touched each week.... and that is not counting probably at least 100 more that I give at least a 10.... so, then that is, at a minimum, of 600 folks' lives that I have touched in some way each week by rating their photos, site, blog, etc. Imagine.... Just imagine.... what it would be like if every one of the FU members take on this very same practice!!! Can you imagine the warm fuzzies reached throughout the FU community???? Wow! Just a bit of food for thought this morning!!! Have you paid it forward to your FU members today????

Q & A
Do you……? Do you know what it is to long for something that you’ve once had and are afraid that you will never find again? Do you understand how it is to not feel anymore because you were once so devistated by the lose of someone, or something, that you were truly in love with? Do you understand what it is like to feel so alone even when you’re in a room full of people? I understand all of these things. I understand what it is to not be able to sleep at night because you’re heart weighs so heavily that it is like a ton of bricks. I understand what it is to be alone and on the outside of everthing going on around you. I understand what it is to be so afraid to feel anything because you’re afraid of the pain that was (and still is) so intense that you would shut down all your emotions just to escape it. Do you understand what’s it’s like to miss someone that is right around the corner? Do you know what it is to want to hold someone that doesn’t want to be held? Do you know w

Weekend
Went out this weekend with friends. Got a little drunk, but had lots of fun. Stayed out until the next morning. Guess I really needed to be out and have fun, forget about problems for awhile. Made some new friends. But I was lucky and no hangover the next day, but not unusual. Did some things that haven't even told my best friend about. Hope to have fun this weekend again. I guess that is all I am willing to say at this point.

Almost Deleted Myself!
LOL..I seem to be one of the many on here that is having a problem with their online and uploading of pics status. I thought it was just me, thought maybe someone hacked into my account and screwed me, but apparently its a glitch they are working on. Sooo..lol..in case anyone wondered..:P I'm here and I have new pics so come see me! LOL Hugs and kisses!

O.j. Simpson Fate
9/19/2007 Dear Readers: Here is another sample of what type of “Cosmic Code” newsletter you will get in order to build more cosmic consciousness and acknowledge why people do what they do because of their UCI (Unique Celestial Identity). Astropsychology is well ahead of conventional science and depict the soul’s relationship with the divine and its “programmed” fate. The will of man or the power of God is much more stronger than the pull of the stars but without “Cosmic Consciousness” or 99% of the population of this world, one becomes a robot of the stars because he/she cannot apply the will and work in harmony with the Universal Code. In this case I will use O.J. Simpson UCI to raise your own spiritual vibration in the understanding of how powerful the stars do regiment all affairs of mankind including our personal life. This is a segment from my book “The Power Of The Dragon” http://www.drturi.com/books.php where you can read and learn much more about famous and infamous peop

I Hate This Place
Well everyone i was living in Va . I was dating a navy guy he deployed and when he returned he was not the same person . It was just more than i wanted to handle i did not need another child to raise so i ended it and and i moved in with friend well that was nice but some strong feeling started coming out and i ended moving to ga and he moved to md we still talk and sucj but it is not same you get so use to be with someone for like 7 months and now were so far apart . im tryin to get back in school and become to become a RN and then maybe do some more school after that . im livin with my parents greta people there are but it is small town and i choose not to hang out with people i use to when i lived here before i made some bad choices when i was here last some im not proud of but all i can do now is move forward and im tryin but i so wnat to move back to va all my friends are there or in general area so we will see what happens i will try to get it updated . wow woohoo my first blog

Thanks Everyone
Thanks to everyone who helped me tonight, I am tryin to get to all of you to return the love, but there were alot of you, so its takin me a little time... plus I'm running out of rates real fast, so some peeps may have to wait til tomorrow...doesn't mean I wont get to you, cause I will.

A 2 Hour Thing
i thought id give it a shot...a contest that starts @7 fubar time(25 minutes from now)the link is on my page in comments i cant Stephanie Lynns Page so... Here She is... If ya can come help for any length of time...its 2 contests in one...most rates or most comments.... so if ya only have time for a rate ...it will be truely appreciated...Ill be going to bed very shortly after this 2 hour bomb fest but anyone who votes for me will recieve a party time gift from me tomorrow.....Thank you for your help

January = Slut
Pick your birthday month and read it. Then repost with whatever you are.) JANUARY = SLUT Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt b

The 411 On Me Atm
Well.. shitty days n night n blah. So Alots changed about me...i got a job and i have a life not to mention i miss alot of people. I now work for the board of Education and i work 5am to 5pm FUN! I have money now because of my job so I can afford to go ouit which is awsomeness, and i can get myself stuff i wantz. And as far as people I miss..they're all people that are no longer living. this past summr alone..i like 7 friends/family. in jus a matter of 2 months. I found out only a few months ago a friend of mine Jessica hung herself. She was like me in the fact that we did the same self mutilation BS and we were depressed. Alot of the time i felt she was the only one who could understand how I feel and why I felt the way I did. We were so similar, Same name, same likes, same dislikes. I miss her like all hell. I just wish we stayed in touch. I feel like her death is partially my fault because i didnt stay in touch. I guess one morning a friend of hers walked into her house an

Can't Do It Anymore...at Least For Now!!!
I give myself a lot of credit for enduring a lot of what has happened in the past few months. Life and circumstances have smacked me in the face and I have stood stedfast through it all. Today, reality threw me a new curve, but it is one I accept without any guilt or sadness. As some of you may know, I had enrolled myself back in school to get my Masters degree. After enrolling, I had learned I once again had cancer. Now I had to go to classes and have to endure treatments. If it seems like a lot, then you're right - it is a lot, and it is not easy. Constantly feeling sick while trying to concentrate on what the professors were saying was a chore. Getting to class itself was not easy either. Going anywhere from 2-9 hours a day from class to class while experiencing fatigue is the absolute worst. As of today, I have decided to seek a medical withdrawl from school and focus moreso on treatments. I have started the process to withdraw from school with the intent of possibly

Poem To Me From My Daughter
Please, Dad As winds sweep away the days, I look back on life through a haze. Remember playgrounds, parks and friends, In childlike gaze that never ends. The laughter in a game of catch, Shall memory ever attach…. To innocence in youthful eyes, Catching the ball to dad’s surprise. I recall my first bike and the first wreck, Who picked me up and said “what the heck?” Convinced me to give it one more try, While knees skinned, I forgot to cry. Just the joy knowing he was there, Make him proud my only care. There was nothing I couldn’t do, My heart held fast that to be true. Though teenage years were kind of rough, I sure wasn’t too big or tough. You taught me to defend what’s right, And never back down from a fight. So I learned the hard way to stand, Still with each lump, I found your hand. Drawing from you an inner strength, And stubborn pride of equal length. But there the line of fate was drawn, As though I blinked and you were gone. I found myself fac

Update On Fires
Here I am in Rancho Santa Fe in San Diego County with my friend, Ellen, that I've known since 6 years old... the fires got worse during the night, the winds picked up much worse and quicker than they anticipated, and now whole communities are evacuating all around us. We have been on phones for 2 hours (it's now 6am) calling friends and family to see what we can do. Ellen and her husband Bill are packed up with important things to take, and Im here to help with them and neighbors...this fire might be worse than the one 4 years aggo, right to the week that burned so much of Los Angeles down to San Diego. We can hardly breathe even inside with the smoke being blown this way. Winds have been gusting up to 100 mph in areas and at times pushing flames across highways and such. Not sure how Im getting back up to Anaheim an hour north of here later on today. But I'm here with friends and helping, that's the important thing to me.

Bullshit
I am tired of the day to day bullshit. People who tell you one thing and then do the excat opposite piss me off. I am not usually one to write blogs but needed a way to vent, with out involving anyone else! It gets old real fast when someone says they want one thing but you can never tell if its true, becasue they never make the fucking effort to show you what then want or how they feel. Things usually just don't bother me to much but when you fuck with my head and beat around the bush with things it drives me insane. I am to the point for the most part and maybe thats how i like things, i am not blunt persay but i can be and either you like it or go fuck urself. But this shit is gettign very old very fast, and i am tired of it! For all of you that aren't like this and are my good friends thanks again!! For the people that i am refering to, you might need to think things over or say goodbye!

Last Fu Winner
So we're all on the same page here i'm going to post what the Last Fu standing will get. *)A spot on the Top board of Fu-Friends *)A last fu standing award *)$10,000.00 fubucks If anyone wants to sign up for a spot for the next game Contact me and i will put you on the list.

Warning For Men
You have been warned! Police are warning all men who frequent clubs, parties & local pubs to be alert and stay cautious when offered a drink from any woman. Many females use a date rape drug on the market called "Beer". The drug is found in liquid form and is available anywhere. It comes in bottles, cans, or from taps and in large "kegs". Beer is used by female sexual predators at parties and bars to persuade their male victims to go home and sleep with them. A woman needs only to get a guy to consume a few units of Beer and then simply ask him home for no strings attached sex. Men are rendered helpless against this approach. After several beers, men will often succumb to the desires to sleep with horrific looking women whom they would never normally be attracted. After drinking beer, men often awaken with only hazy memories of exactly what happened to them the night before, often with just a vague feeling that "something bad" occurred. At other times these unfortu

My Love
If anyone wonders why I haven't been in your lounges, or seem to be distant, and not here much..........Well, as some of you know.I've been trying desperately to get my fiance here, or at the very least to to fubar. I have contact with her in email, and periodically by phone. My time online is very limited by my working hours, and now don't have as much time to be here. I will get to you as I can, and will return any communications, gifts, rates, and etc; as soon as I can. I love fubar, and all of you too. Cheers!

Contest
I have entered a new contest for the best smile, will all my friends and fans please help me out, give me lots of love and i will return the favor.. thanks onetnsweetheart just click on my pic, rate me and leave lots of comments...hugs to you all

The Name Mary, Maria
The Name: MARY © Georgios C Paraskevopoulos Mary is the usual English form of the Latinized name Maria of the New Testament Greek name Maria or Mariam (the spellings are interchangeable), which were from the Hebrew name Miriam. The meaning is not known for certain, but there are several theories including "sea of bitterness", "rebelliousness", and "wished for child". However it was most likely originally an Egyptian name perhaps derived in part from 'mry' "beloved" or 'mr' "love". My opinion of this name - probably correct (Not accepted by Theologists) Since the name Maria is used after Greek language became a global language it could be a Greek name and not a Hebrew name. Ma+Rhea 'Μα Ρέα' Ma=mother, Rhea=flow (ancient Greek). Rhea is identified with mother goddess Cybele from Asia Minor and is also known as Rhea Cybele and Magna Mater ("great mother"). Rhea is depicted between two lions or on a chariot pulled by lions. WHY MaRhea and not Miriam?

The Hardest Letter I've Ever Written
Response to the last... It's been a long 8 months, and I still read this every single day. Sad, no? Sad that a person like myself has built such a negative reputation that - in order to break free of it - I must flee to where I can try to start again, and again, and again, and so forth. I realize you probably will delete this as soon as you figure out who it's from (and if you don't, likely you'll negate it,) but I can only hope. Some things I felt it necessary to clarify: -I moved away, not because of "burned bridges", but because of the depression I set into long before Erica and I split. Yes, Erica AND I. I initiated it, but she was mutual on the subject (at least, outwardly,) and agreed that we were fighting too much to continue. -The "girls" I was bringing into the house was actually just one - Rabbit, whom I started dating before jail. -The depression I mentioned, it did some very nasty things to me. I am not stating this for pity, just as fact. While dating R

Great Grandma
Last night i just got the news that my great grandma passed away. WE just last sunday celebrated her 105th birthday!!! Shes been is Hospice for the past week getting nothing to eat or drink, which they say is actually better for them but idk. Anyway just kinda upset. Talk to me

About My Brother
ASTOUNDING EFFECT suddle and calm held in my palm a beautiful soul that once made me whole. A bond that could never be broken. a love left unspoken. Your heart was the token. A pain so deep it will forever run in my vains. Your fragile little body is what kept me sane. Now that your gone things will never be the same. Now i am left in shame. I left you behind and your smile will always remind me, your future i could never see. And now the one hurting is me. My dear little brother how could this be?

My Friend
heres something i think is very beautiful.. my friend chris mosley made about our friendship.. hes soo awesome.. after reading this go check him out and show him love ok.. luv ya.. muah n hugggssss..his link it at the bottom of this... our frienship is like a a small flutering bee flying throught the cold misty air looking for somewhere safe to land out of the wipping wind and the cold mist of day. finding its way to a beautiful fully nectered red rose with moisture on its soft fluffy red petals the bee lands. knowing its safe from the dark cold mist of air around him that then the are able to feel as one the frightened bee and the beautiul red rose wich sits there not really doing anything as it may seems but yet its warmth of safety enlightening the bee, its soft petals embracing the bees comfort, and its beautiful color showing the bee that beauty is more than just the outside but the inside. as the now fully calmed and loving safe bee sits there hopes and prayes to never leave t

100,000 Fubux Up For Grabs
~*Phyre*~@ fubar I take pictures of all my "fucomplishments" well i have 2 blasts up and i need a picture of both of them... The person who sends me a picture of my blasts first gets 10,000 fubux a blast! just put it in your pictures or put it in your stash... so i can find it please and send me a private message labeled " i found your blast" and i will send you 10000 fubux immediately... if you dont find it first you dont win... but to make it interesting if you find both (you dont have to be first) ill give you 50000 bux. And if you send me both of them before anyone one else sends me one ill give you 100,000 Fubux To take a pic of the blast you need to press the "print screen" button... minimize your explorer and open up your paint program... Microsoft paint will do! Then Hit paste and it will be in there... And i will give you 5000 extra fubux if you just get my blast with nothing else on the page... camera pictures WILL NOT BE ACCEPTED! If someone can sticky this

Dont Blog Much
HI EVERYONE.. I DONT BLOG MUCH AS YOU ALL KNOW.. I GUESS DOESNT MATTER IF I DO OR NOT.. NOT MANY READ ,MY BLOGS.. JUST HAVE TO PUT DOWN A FEW THINGS.. ONE 15 YEARS AGO WHEN I WAS ON HERE.. WAS SO DIFFERENT.. WASNT A LOT OF SITES I WAS SONEW TO THIS.. SO GREEN I GUESS YOU WOULD SAY.. MEET SOME WONDERFUL PEOPLE.. AND A LOT ARE STILL WITH ME.. THEY ARE ON A LOT OF SITES THAT I AM ON.. AND WERE IN MY GROUPS.. YESS I HAD A FEW.. THATS WERE I MET A LOT..NOW I DONT DO GROUPS.. TAKES TOO MUCH TIME AND JUST DONT HAVE THAT TIME ANYMORE.. SO SLOWLY I PUT A BALANCE IN MY LIFE TO WHERE I AM ON HERE FOR A LITTLE.. THEN I DO MORE OFFLINE BUT STILL KEEP IN TOUCH WITH A LOT THRU E MAILS OR WHATEVER.. AND A LOT UNDERSTAND.. CAUSE I DONT WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE SITTING HERE AT MY DESK LIKE I USED TO.. USED TO SPEND TOO MUCH TIME ON HERE.. BUT ONE THING.. I THINK WHEN I WAS ONLINE IT WAS MUCH BETTER.. NOW IT SEEMS NOT MANY REALLY CARE.. ALL THEY CARE ABOUT IS BLOGGING.. AND WHATS GOING ON WITH THEMSELVES.

Hey Yall
wow.. i`ve been tryin` for months tryin` to log in..now i`m in. there`s so many changes since i loged in.. well i`m startig back .. so um.. all of you out there don`t be shy to drop by...lookin` forward to make new friend,.... so get back to me k .chow

Something From A Daycare Baby's Uncle...matt Lewisson Usmc
TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS, HE LIVED ALL ALONE, IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF PLASTER AND STONE. I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE, AND TO SEE JUST WHO IN THIS HOME DID LIVE. I LOOKED ALL ABOUT, A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE, NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS, NOT EVEN A TREE. NO STOCKING BY MANTLE, JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND, ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES OF FAR DISTANT LANDS. WITH MEDALS AND BADGES, AWARDS OF ALL KINDS, A SOBER THOUGHT CAME THROUGH MY MIND. FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT, IT WAS DARK AND DREARY, I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER, ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY. THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING, SILENT, ALONE, CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME. THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE, THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER, NOT HOW I PICTURED A UNITED STATES SOLDIER. WAS THIS THE HERO OF WHOM I'D JUST READ? CURLED UP ON A PONCHO, THE FLOOR FOR A BED? I REALIZED THE FAMILIES THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT, OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERS WHO WERE WILLING TO FI

Surpressing The Creative Urge...
I find it kinda funny that were people actually given the gift of imagination, and yet not a lot of them use it. Have you ever had the ability to just look at something, and alter what it really is in your mind to make it into something better. Have millions of ideas about one particular thing, but no outlet or way to turn your ideas into reality. It sucks. I hate not being able to let out any of my ideas or having the means to be able to. Well either way, I say that if any of you have any ideas, please feel free to give advice.

I Think You're The One ...
HMMMMmmmm ... it seems that one of US is special ... ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ I think You’re THE ONE … The more I love you, the more you flirt. The more you flirt, the more I’m hurt. The more I’m hurt, the more you flirt. The more you flirt, the more I love you. ONE of US is dirt! ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Love 'n(no more) Stuff, RHEY ... September 08, 2007

In Love
when I first came to this site I know nothing about it but I lerned quick and wow it as goon along way and I meet this realy lovely lady (ace) on here and I am truly falling in love with her I can't wate to go see her in the stats when I go there in the newyear

10000 Fubucks The Easy Way!!!
Fu-Owned from Auction by Texas Camaro Nut!!! Happy Holidays To Everyone! I love you all!@ fubar PLEASE HELP MY FRIENDS AT PODARAMA FOR ME GO TO PODARAMA.COM and become a Member!!!Nate Bray was the first to bravely run to Dimebag's aid that night in Columbus, Ohio.Find out who Nathan "Nate Dogg" Bray really wasin this exclusive interview with Nate's Mom Susan!MetaliZatioN - Podcasting ONLY independent metal artists. -Vince

Never Try To Outsmart A Woman
Never try to outsmart a woman A man calls home to his wife and says,"Honey, I have been asked to go fishing at the big lake up in Canada with my boss and several of his friends. We'll be gone for a week. This is a good opportunity for me to get that promotion I've been wanting, so would you please pack me enough clothes for a week and set out my rod and tackle box? We're leaving from the office, and I will swing by the house to pick my things up. Oh! Please pack my new blue silk pajamas". The wife thinks this sounds a little fishy, but being a good wife she does exactly what her husband asked. The following weekend he came home a little tired but otherwise looking good. The wife welcomes him home and asks if he caught many fish. He says, "Yes! lots of walleye, some blue gill, and a few pike. "But why didn't you pack my new blue silk pajamas like I asked you to do." The wife replies "I did, they were in your tackle box". Never, never try to outsmart a woman...

Sólo Tú (only You)
Sólo tú by Senor Fantastico (that's me, lol) Sólo tú le das brillo y Amor a mi Corazón. Sólo tú me miras con tanta pureza y belleza interior. Sólo tú llenas de Alegría a mi Alma. Sólo tú conoces mis secretos, deseos y anhelos. Sólo tú me transmites calor con tus manos. Sólo tú me das fuerzas para seguir viviendo. Sólo tú me hablas con tanta dulzura. Sólo tú me escuchas con tanta paciencia. Sólo tú me acaricias con tanta delicadeza. Sólo tú me besas con tanta ternura. Sólo tú me comprendes con tanta sutileza. Sólo tú haces que me sienta el Ser más Feliz del Universo. Sólo tú me das tanta seguridad en mí misma. Sólo tú me calmas y tranquilizas cuando estoy mal. Sólo tú eres el que puede entrar en mi Corazón y en mi Ser. Sólo tú me abrigas cuando tengo frío. Sólo tú eres y serás el Dueño de mi Corazón. Sólo tú eres mi Sueño hecho realidad. Sólo tú eres y serás el que me ama y me amará siempre. Sólo tú eres al que amo y amaré eternamente!

Friendship
Those truly linked don’t need correspondence. When they meet again after many years apart, Their friendship is as true as ever. In the distant past, there was once a young and wealthy statesman who was on a diplomatic mission. Pausing by a river at night, he heard the haunting sounds of a lute. A passionate musician himself, he took up his own lute and eventually found a goatherd sitting on an old ruin. In those days, an aristocrat would not associate with a commoner, but the two men struck up a friendship through their music. Their playing was as smooth and natural as flowing water. Once a year, the ambassador and the goatherd would renew their friendship. Though they had the chance to play their music with others during the rest of the year, each man declared the he had found his true counterpart. The ambassador tried for many years to lift the goatherd out of his poverty, but his friend steadfastly refused. He did not want to pollute their friendship with money. Year

Why Am I On Disability?
Long story short?? Cause I'm fricken bonkers!!~LMAO~ Okay so I'm not completely bonkers but I assure you the drive there wouldn't be a long one! I assure you it isn't for the money! $727.00 a month isn't worth faking crazy, for those of you who have made such comments. I am on disability for a list of reasons a few of which include, aghoraphobia, social anxiety disorder, severe anxiety and depression, and bipolar. And since all of my jobs in my life have been people oriented and I no longer deal well with such things they put me on disability. What led to all those things? A lifetime of pretty shitty things, thinking that the best way to deal with them was to push it aside and laugh at life. Oooops I was wrong, and after one extreme event too many I had a nervous breakdown and became all of the above and then some. Although they say that I have had quite a few of those issues before my breakdown, I had learned to hide them and deal because I didn't want to appear needy, o

He Sees...
With his eyes, he sees her beauty, But it's not the thing that pulls Him to her. With his ears, he hears her sweet voice But it's not the thing that pulls Him to her. With his dreams, he feels her touch, But it's not the dream that pulls Him to her. With his heart, he sees another heart, One that has been tormented One that has lasted even through The toughest of times. With his soul, he hears her soul Tortured to the point of tears, Yet standing strong. With his words, he tries to touch her, And prays that she knows that His words are true. He sees more than just the beauty That was given at birth, He sees the beautiful angel That no one else appreciates, That no one else truly knows. The one that may have a tarnished halo, And yes, she has broken wings, Yet, someday, those wings will heel, And she'll soar above him. He sees the goodness in her heart, And even through the pain, He see the blessing that she is, Not because of her eyes, or hair, But

Still In Shock
I just had to put this somewhere because it shows me just how much he truly loves me and how completely amazing he really is. For Christmas, Donnie got me an absolutely gorgeous diamond cross necklace and diamond and sapphire ring. My mom said there was a story behind the ring, but Donnie would have to tell me....he couldn't tell me to my face, he had to do it over messenger, so here is the convo. I'm still shocked, and finally realizing that he really does love me. Donnie: so I never did tell you about that ring and what led up to it Me: no you didn't lol Donnie: Well here is the deal. I was going to ask you to marry me. I talked to Jelly, and your mom. your mom thought it was a great Idea and without hesitation Jelly flat out said no Me: omg are you serious? did jelly tell you why? Donnie: I told jelly that I would not do it because she was not ready, she had a look of horror on her face and I could tell she was very uncomfortable with the idea Me: wow, i think

Last Year
Being 24, having my two girls, and bein with "the man" that i was suppose to spend the rest of my life with. You would think I would've been happy, but in all reality that was not the case. I had a great job with a promosing future....and yet when I went home it was more like hell. Having to deal with the devil himself. Yeah I called him that for a long time. Not knowing if one word...one wrong move would set him off. Why is it that when you are with an addict you are the one to blame for the bad times? I didnt get it, I don't think I get it now. I wasn't the addict, why would I have to suffer that stronghold? I would look into his eyes and there was chaos and madness, a hatred for me that I had never felt before, and just before I would be thrown across the room, fallen to the floor and crying I would see this calm in Him. You know its sad what you will put up with when all your taught as a lil girl is to make it work, and that you don't just quit on your family. It w

Yes My 3rd Mardi Gras....
damnit.. its so easy to get a costume for halloween but one for mardi gras? it takes me forever... sigh.. need some good ideas cause ill be bartending AGAIN! lol... any ideas for this cute bartender? :D help a gurrl out yall! ♥ PuNkGuRrL

A Poem Written By Bubba For Me
Love is but a heartbeat My heartbeats a thousand times a minute with my love for you i long for the day when i can feel your touch i yearn for the day when i can have you in my arms It will be a day that i will never forget for the rest of my life Your my every thought My every dream my everywish come true When i have a bad day all i have to do is think of you and my bad thoughts dissapear my love for you grows more and more with each day my heart beats more and more every second as i think of you! I love you baby!!

Missin U
I had a dream da other nite an im prayen it hasnt come true dat u had met another women and dat u got another boo its been a while since i seen yer smile and woke up inside yer arm i miss those tender kisses an yer sweet but thuggish charm for da past 6 months i thought we had sumthin nobody culd tear apart but its been 6 weeks since i seen u an im left wit a broken heart i meet these guys an yea we chill and even talk on the phone but if i aint got u babi i wuld rather be alone they try n tell me im pretty like they think ill believe its true but i havent met a man dat culd hold a candle next to u we talk and we laugh but inside i think of you wishin we was together and doen the things we do i have feelings for sum1 and i believe i shuld tell u who he doesnt quite amount but hes so different then you i met him on a website and for him i really care when i had nobody to lean on beside me he was always there hes 23 years old and frum ohio and hes an ama

Now I Know Where I Fit On This Totem Pole
This is so freaking bs. So today as i was trying to get laundry out to the garage, I stepped on my son's shoe and slid down the step, twisting my ankle and landing flat on my ass. That's not the part that bothers me even though it hurts and all..I call my husband to ask him to come home and help me with our 5 kids(he's helping some friends scrap ceilings at their new house) and he asks if i want him to come home i told him it was whatever he wanted to do. So he said he was coming home. He calls back not even 5 mins later to tell me he was gonna stay cause they really needed him!! What about me? Am i just chopped liver. No i am just his wife no one important. I am tired of busting my ass for him, Then when i am hurt and need him i am left to chase my kids on all fours!! what a dork i must look like. Anyways i just needed to vent a little so now i am better!

Holla At A Nigga!
W'sup y'all. I just want y'all to know that I'm a real dude. And I'm on here to pass the time but while I'm here I'd like to have some conversation make a few friends you know! I pass the time by doing surveys, requesting, commenting, and rating. But you know that's really kinda lame you know.

Wasted Time
of all the years i wasted on you only to find your love wasn't true those countless nights i spent in your arms praying god would keep you safe from harm through all the pleas i could not see, that your love was slipping away from me. you held back,never to show the emotion you wanted to let go. when you were sick i would nurse you gladly i was in love with you so,so, madly i would have given my life to stop your pain when you hurt,my tears would fall like rain. did i not love you long enough? did i not love you strong enough? whatever the reasons,please tell me i'll do anything to have you here again with me i never wanted to lose your love you were my angel sent from above but since you've gone,my pain increases my heart is in a million pieces the love i feel for you will never die i never wanted to say goodbye so now you have heard my plea my spirit is broken beyond reprieve i hope you find happiness in everything you do but i will go on forever onl

Heart Knows
With every touch, My heart knows With every look, My heart knows With every moment spend, My heart knows That you are wonderful You make life bright So I may see You make life, So I may live. You are my one only. Even clouds race around you. Just as a ring around wife My love is ever-lasting! Copyrigth@2003

Eyes
Was a bulletin but was good enough I wanted to keep it here too There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.' One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend. He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him. Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.' This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always

Resolve
Every smile you gave me was it fake every hug you gave me was it merely to take Every soothing word what was the goal every day did you think the moral wouldn't unfold well here I am with clear resolve no farther do I have to fall I'm at the bottom but sun do I see you I don't need I only need me How dare you think you had the right to smile to hug to laugh and then behind my back so false you thought I never knew you thought I'd never hear or see obviously you never were a friend to me. I have resolve no farther to fall but on my own at least I know I am true and the only way is up without you.

Babbles...
Daylight must erase these etchings stolen on my soul blackout backtrack if but... no.. no.. no. Unfair to jump into these lights of a car made from mist brought about by broken minds a failed suicide like walking down an empty street in a holocaust town It's hard to move forward when you can't look back It's hard to dream on stolen truths meaning is but a million molecules which disolve with each new movement and nothing is real nothing not this moment, not the next not the tears which threaten to moisten this heart gone dry It's not okay to believe. Storys are just that. I cannot tell you a story lest I forget I cannot sing you to sleep without my voice. This parched throat may barely utter without choice I am not an answer but a conclusion my darkness is not merely the absence of light but an echo of something lost which is never had step back. I cannot fall if I do not climb and I cannot climb if I rip these wings Let go of these treacherous bindin

Buy Me Some Rocks!!!
So here we go again, another contest and I once again need your help. Buy me shamrocks lol! Every shamrock that you buy for me, I will post below for all to see! Help me with this one please!

Much Thanks
Just wanted to Thank everyone that had left gifts and messages while i was gone. Things are finally starting to calm down a bit around here , working on finishing up the homeschooling for the girls for this school year and still working on changing my eating to a healthy lifestyle....its been hard but it seems to be going well .....much love all around

Virus?
"Please don’t release this cold Don’t touch that virus…could contain the plague…1334…man." "Don’t you know that we made this disease, That maybe it’s just what the world needs, There’s plenty of flesh for that virus to feed. Let it run rampant for an hour or two- See if we can’t eliminate those worthless few… It we can’t deplete a good chunk of the populace- And turn the rest in to a bilboard for all of this… "Show the whole world, tune ‘em into the feed… That the real disease is the human breed… We destroy, and kill, and devour and consume- I think it’s about time for the whole, baby, 'boom'." Not funny? I don’t fucking care.

A Few Fun Things About Me...
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? no 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED last week 3. Do you like your handwriting? yes 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Salami 5. DO YOU HAVE KIDs? 1 son 6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? yes in deedy 7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? quite a bit actually...lol 8. Do you still have your tonsils? yes 9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Hell no! 10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? captain crunch..lol 11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? yes, well... sometimes 12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? somewhat 13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? butter pecan 14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? their eyes 15. RED OR PINK? red 16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I nag/bitch when things aren't done within a give time frame 17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? my dad 18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? not,

3-30-08
I went to a funeral. For a young man...Timothy Plaistow. He was a senior in high school. He also used to live across the street from me. I watched him grow up and when I stop to think about it...that's when I first showed the desire to work with younger people...as a child myself. He would round up kids and they all would wait for me to get home to play basketball or catch. When I hugged his mom at the funeral...she thanked me. She said that Timmy always looked up to me. I still can't stop the tears...I still can't stop crying about it. He committed suicide...and even tho I was no longer a huge part of his life...I can't help but feel like I still could have done something differently. Please pray for his family...especially his mom who had to bury him...and his younger sister and brother who he left behind.

Been Awhile
It's been a while since I blogged anything. Three months from now I will be having a birthday. I was reminded of this when asked how old I was today. So I did a little thinking on what I have to show for my almost 28 years of existence. Well I have had many ups and downs...a lot more of the downs it seems most days. Lets go back a few years...I did enough work in school to pass, though when motivated I was on the honor role. I played on the varsity football team all four years of high school. I graduated, went to college, dropped out, was working as a pharmacy tech. Went back to school paying my own way...dropped out again. The third time I went back to college I was paying my own way again, but also taking a class at night to become an EMT and taking classes on the weekends to be a firefighter. I dropped college and upon graduation from EMT class (with the highest grade in the class) I made a career of it. During my career as an EMT/Firefighter I met the woman that would later

Are You Disturbingly Profound Or Profoundly Disturbing?--i'm Disturbingly Profound--what Are You?? Link To Quiz In My Stash Quizzes.
You Are Disturbingly Profound You're contemplative, thoughtful, and very intense. Taking time to figure out the meaning of life is a priority for you. Because you're so introspective, you often react in ways that surprise people. No one can really understand how you are on the inside... and that disturbs them. Are You Disturbingly Profound or Profoundly Disturbing?

Three Man
Everyone starts off by rolling one die till someone rolls a three. This person then becomes the three man. The game then proceeds around the circle with people taking turns rolling the dice. The dice are only passed when someone rolls something that does not require drinking. Here is what each roll means: When dice total: - 3: Whoever is the three man must drink. If the three man rolls this then he may pass the title to a person of his choosing. - 7: Person to the right of "roller" drinks - 9: Person across from "roller" drinks - 10: Social...everyone drinks - 11: Person to the left of "roller" drinks Other dice combinations: - 4 & 1: Whoever rolls this become the Thumb-Master. They can place their thumb on the table whenever they want. The last person to do this must drink. The Thumb-Master can only change when someone else rolls a 4 & 1. - Doubles: When someone rolls double they give the dice to someone of their choosing. This person rolls the dice and must drink f

Rules And Guidelines
DB CREW PROSPECT RULES: 1. DO NOT ASK TO BECOME A PROSPECT IF YOUR HEART IS NOT IN IT. THE DB CREW IS NOT A FUBAR STATUS TITLE. IT IS A REAL LIFE CREW. FUBAR IS WHERE IT ORIGINATED. SO I REPEAT, IF YOUR HEART IS NOT IN IT DO NOT ASK TO BECOME A MEMBER. 2. YOU MUST FREQUENT THE FOLLOWING LOUNGES ON FUBAR: DBC CLUBHOUSE UNHOLY CONFESSIONS KEG, LEGS, AND BIKER PEGS REJECTS IN THE RAFTERS THESE LOUNGES ARE WHERE THE DB MEMBERS HANG OUT. YOU ARE NOT RESTRICTED TO JUST THESE LOUNGES. YOU CAN GO TO ANY LOUNGE YOU WANT. THESE ARE THE LOUNGES YOU MUST FREQUENT IN ORDER TO GET TO KNOW THE DB CREW MEMBERS. 3. NO DISRESPECTING THE MEMBERS. DON'T GIVE THEM A REASON TO DISRESPECT YOU. DECEPTION AND DISRESPECT WILL NOT BE TOLERATED, WE HAVE 0 TOLERANCE FOR THAT SHIT. IF IT IS BROUGHT TO OUR ATTENTION THAT YOU ARE SUSPECTED OF FOUL PLAY THEN A MEETING WILL BE HELD AND THE SUBJECT WILL BE BROUGHT UP, YOU WILL HAVE THE CHANCE TO DEFEND YOURSELF AND THEN WILL BE JUDGED WHETHER YOU ARE

Eternity In A Moment
There is a melancholy in the air And an emptiness deep inside A flux of emotions overwhelm me Rushing in like a rising tide The sun scintillates the breaking waves Creating diamonds upon every swell Each one is reminiscent Of the eyes that said farewell Bright and glorious for just a moment Then fading as quickly as it came A wondrous gift, although brief Has outlived it’s moment of fame Yet a fingertip beneath the surface Can create a false illusion So at the waters edge Our love has no conclusion I wish that I could stay forever Just outside of reality Avoiding the obvious truth And all it’s brutality And I shall try not to grieve For that which cannot be Instead be very grateful For that moment you gave to me The memory of your magnificence Is etched within my mind You may disappear from my sight But within my heart you are confined

Echo And Life
A man and his son were walking in the forest. Suddenly the boy trips and feeling a sharp pain he screams, “Ahhhhhhh!” Surprised, he hears a voice coming from the mountain, screaming, “Ahhhhhhh!” Filled with curiosity, he screams, “Who are you?,” but the only answer he receives is, “Who are you?” This makes him angry, so he screams, “You are a coward,” and the voice answers, “You are a coward. ” He looks at his father and asks, “Dad, what is going on?” “Son,” his father replies, “Pay attention.” The father then screams, “I admire you. ” The voice answers, “I admire you. ” The father shouts, “You are wonderful”, and the voice answers, “You are wonderful. ” Then the father explains, “People call this ECHO, but truly it is LIFE

Windows Xp
Windows XP Service Pack 3 is released. Do not install it if you think you are infected. http://www.majorgeeks.com/downloadget.php?id=5756&file=15&evp=693ee0b20204960edfd909666f809b26 Download, install, allow it to update and run a FULL scan . Uninstall it if you are clean. If you need help let me know.

Miss You!
Has anyones x ever told them this! That you are not aloud to say "Miss you" to your friends. Because apparently I have said it to 20or so males on my friends list! Yeah I have said "Miss you" to some friends because I haven't talked to them in ages! Just didnt know that wasn't aloud

Memorial Day
In these uncertain times, we realize more than ever the vital importance of the men and women who serve in our country's military. On Memorial Day, we pay tribute to our fellow countrymen who died in wartime, fighting to preserve the freedoms we enjoy today. On this solemn day, let us also remind ourselves that we must not take these freedoms for granted, but gratefully remember the men and women who made the ultimate sacrifice to protect them.

Hi!
so...it's friday again :) and i'm glad. i'm about to enjoy my 3 day weekend :) i got my hair cut last weekend. it's about an inch above my shoulders now. i'm going to take some pictures pretty soon so everyone can see it. lol it looks nice. and i get to go out tonight, and watch my favorite band, FLESHSUIT!!!!!!!! lol i

Smiling!
http://www.fubar.com/user/1509135 This took place in my shout, so read bottom up! HaHaHa! Mephistoph...: bye tramply lady ->Mephistoph...: i don't care. you make it sound like i asked you what you look like. did i? no. i don't care.. you coulda been anyone else and the answer would have been the same. so kindly move on. Thanks! Mephistoph...: i like to see who im talking to nothing else ->Mephistoph...: you have no reason to go cussing at me.. you are not secluded in the no area. and i don't give a god damn what you look like. so with that said kindly fuck off if you can't take no for an answer. Mephistoph...: fucking whatever sorry im not a damned hot fit guy for you ->Mephistoph...: yep, but will i get on it? nope. sorry. Mephistoph...: got a webcam ->Mephistoph...: depends on what it is. Mephistoph...: may i ask a favor

Wtf!
ok so heres the facts straight up and real... I am so fucken sick of ppl walken all ova me mistaken my motha fucken kindness for weakness... Im fed up, irritated to the point of tears..No its not my motha fucken hormones...Its fake ass bitches n playa wanna be's and im DONE! So here we go Turnen back into the old motha fucken Melissa...The Melissa i was before i left NC the Melissa that made full grown men cry and lil bitches tremble in fear...U want my man? Come and get him bitch cuz i garantee u wont be walken anytime soon...U want my son? Step up bitch...I can tell alot of u bitches wanna be me the fact of the matter is u can neva be me...U aint me so stop trying... My attitude is back...my dememner is back most of all MOTHA FUCKEN MELISSA is back...Best believe i dont take shit...If u dont like it kick motha fucken rocks...or imma kick ya ass... Im motha fucken out!

Friends
OK PEOPLE.. HELP ME UNDERSTAND SOMETHING.. I HAD THIS FRIEND THAT I CARE ABOUT.. ALOT. MET HIM IN 2002. HE WAS STATION HERE IN KANSAS FOR THE ARMY IN FT RILEY. HE WAS MY FIRST BLK MAN THAT I HAD SEX WITH.. BUT THIS HE GOT TRANSFERED TO GERMANY AND HE PROMISED ME THAT HE WILL COME BACK TO SEE ME.. AND HE HASNT.. HE BASICALLY TOLD ME THAAT I HAVE MY OWN LIFE HERE AND THAT I SHOULD LIVE IT. BUT HE TRAVELS BACK TO GERMANY AND SEE THEM.. WTF.. IT PISSES ME OFF. BECAUSE HE PROMISE THAT HE WOULD COME SEE AND KEEP IN TOUCH.. WHICH HAS BEEN KEEPIN TOUCH INTEL NOW... HE WONT EVEN WRITE ME BACK.. AND YEA IT HURTS.. BECAUSE I STILL CARE FOR HIM AND SO ON.. BUT NOT ON A SEXUAL WAY ANYMORE.. SO WHY DO PEOPLE MAKE PROMISES AND NOT KEEP THEM?

The Little Things
Know how people say " Dont sweat the small stuff"? this is soooooooo true. I had been letting stress control my whole life-relationships, job, even my health. The reverse can also be true though when you should treasure the small things. So many things I took for granted and passed me by while sitting on this site and letting much of my real life pass me by in the name of boredom or "relaxation" or "me" time. Not to mention the amoutn of money I have spent on this site. Between the blasts, vip, tickers, and contest prizes I have to have spent a minimun of $600. ( I have never bought a happy hour or even bling- apparently I have SOME restraint:P) All in the name of the almighty rank and legends. oooooooh ahhhhhhhhh. It all seems so pointless and humorous to me now. Funny enough even with a seemingly inactive profile I STILL manage to get innocent angel pics and such flagged almost daily. Must be part of being the top 100.Im shocked I have only dropped to 26. I have been enjoyin

Father's Day 2008
Well, it's Monday, 16 June. Unfortunately, yesterday was the first father's day since 2000 that I did not have kids around me. It was kind of a weird feeling. I mean, Father's Day, let's just take a moment and look at that. It's a day where your kids are supposed to be around, and time for you to spend a little extra time with them. They may make you breakfast, or it may be simple as just a few more minutes. I called my to be ex, and spoke to all 3 of my boys, but really took the time to talk to Wesley. Yesterday was also his 6th birthday. It seems weird to me to think that I have a 7 year old and a 6 year old, not to mention a 4 year old. It's funny, over the past year, I have really started to realize how much they, and everyone means to me. I mean, I am not the best at emailing, or calling, but when I talk to those who mean a lot to me, I make sure that I try to tell them how much they mean to me. Everytime I speak to my dad, my mom, my boys, some of my friends, I

Jordon's Poster On Ncmec
This is a link to Jordon's poster on the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children's website. http://missingkids.com/missingkids/servlet/PubCaseSearchServlet?act=viewChildDetail&caseNum=1096496&orgPrefix=NCMC&seqNum=1&caseLang=en_US&searchLang=en_US There is also a picture of her on my profile photo's in my Default album thing. Thank you

Eno Trap: Erutraped Eht
Insanity looms inside the looking glass. It's like a madness stuck on repeat, and I'm lost in the progression! I wonder, what's under the scar tissue? A rollercoaster I've rode too many times. Can I stomach one more go? Today, the black birds lied to me again, mocking me as the wind waged war with my face. All I look foward to is cancer. The cold taste of the grim reaper's porcelin lips. All this talk of the end; are we really pushed to oblivion? His hand is so close, at times I can see his thumbnail. The foot may bring luck, but beware of the hole! is this the dwelling of misfortune? The numbers now haunt me. The worst feeling from the most perfect melody. She gave me the perfect present, with a note that read, "It's yours, at my convience!" The letters drained into a pool of rubies. So close to completion of this creature I'm becoming. How will I handle the pain of burning wings? Smearing a grain of salt into the wound will act as my pain killer. She trembles from the quake, unaware

Free Music Download Site
Hello everybody, are you interested in getting free music for your computer so that you can burn CD's for your car or for a party you are hosting, well this site is awesome, they are fast with the downloading and they have good quality music to choose from, ok well here is the link and if you like it I hope you have fun with it.

Survey Says (tagged By One N Only Roxane)...
You Can Only Type One Word. Not as easy as you might think. Now copy and paste into your blog and tag 5 ppl to do the same. Leave a comment to let us know you have done it, AND LEAVE THEM A COMMENT TO LET THEM KNOW THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED. It's really hard to only use one-word answers! 1. Where is your cell phone? Here 2. Your significant other? None :-( 3. Your hair? Long 4. Your mother? Georgia 5. Your father? ^^^^^^^ (Same) 6. Your favorite thing? Sex 7. Your dream last night? Passionate 8. Your favorite drink? Coffee 9. Your dream/goal? Survival 10. The room you're in? Living 11. Music? Rock 12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Texas 14. Where were you last night? Home 15. What you're not? Stupid 16. Muffins? Thanks!!! 17. One of your wish list items? Sex 18. Where you grew up? Georgia 19. The last thing you did? Breathed 20. What are you wearing? Shorts 21. TV? Sometimes 22. Your pets? N/A 23. Your computer? Laptop 24. Your life? Adequate 25. You

Rough Times
Things have been kinda difficult lately. I've had alot on my mind and alot going on plus someone just burned me pretty badly recently which messed me up in a big way. My emotions are still too raw to really get into details without falling apart but maybe another time. Instead of reaching out I tend to shut down when my level of upset goes off the richter scale but now I feel bad because I haven't been very consistent or a very good friend as far as acknowledging comments or returning the love. It just kinda goes with the territory but I feel bad nonetheless. I just want my friends & family to know I'm still here. For those who are concerned, I'll be fine and I do appreciate the people who care and the caring sentiments. I'll get back in the swing of things eventually. I just have to go thru the motions on my own terms - nobody elses. All I can ask is that everyone bear with me. I'll be back to my old self eventually then you won't be able to shut me up. :) {{{Hugs to all}}}

Life Is Good!
CAUTION: Bragging below, but I figured that with all the negative I have posted, it should be allowed. Well, another cool example of life in Kuwait. Today, I had lunch with one of my buddies. I was told that they were playing a new movie tonight, and that they were giving out tickets starting at 5 PM. So at 4:40 PM, I left work, showered, threw on some shorts and a t-shirt, and headed over to the Community Center. I was in line, and the guy was briefing us, that the people in line needed to be warned, there were only 120 tickets available. I went to text my buddy, only 120 tickets, HURRY! My cell phone rang, and it was my 1SG. I had sent the text to my 1SG. So I called my buddy, and told him to hurry. I was about number 35 in line. So we kept standing, and waiting. Finally about 5:50 they started handing out tickets. As I walked back down the line to talk to my buddy and see if he was going to dinner. He said yeah, and so I stood in line next to him. He turned out to be nu

Our Wedding
Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue. These Three Brides we Bring to You!!! Please join us on the Fu-festive day!!!! JaimeDawn~FUBOMBER FAMILY MGR/Co~owner DVault FUowned DDiamond&mymama FuWife2Crazymama&sTaR@ fubar ?? sTaRr ??@ fubar crazymama45//Asst Mgr Diamond Vault**FU-Bomber Family Manager*/Fu-Wifey to Jaime Dawn and sTaRr/Fu-O@ fubar

Beneath...
Beneath these guarded clothes is who I am. A danger to my own heart and to my dearest friends. For behind these crystal eyes is something I wish to embrace. A God not of Christians yet of a different place. I arm myself with daggers and armors of the East. Yet to me they are just jewels and clothes I wear beneath. I guard myself with coldness of just my piercing eyes, for I am not accepted by those who gave me life. I am no longer of just one dilect. I have learned something older than you. A word that goes farther into our past than even Jesus himself. A word he spoke in Aramaic, from his own mouth came forth. "Allaha" he said which in English would mean "God". Just take away one letter and that is who I love. "Allah". So beneath the clothes I love or not is who I am, your daughter, your sister, your wife and friend! I believe in Islam and Allah with all my heart. I only wished my loved ones would not be so torn apart. For in

I Got Tagged By Windy
Instructions..... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 6 people to be tagged, listing their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "you're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you.... 1. A great smile will win my heart (you were thinking boobies) 2. I had Polio when I was real young, but got all better. Healthy as a horse, now. 3. My 26 year old son, Kevin, died from Leukemia. 4. My daughter is gonna give me a grand daughter in less than a month. 5. I sang in the choir and a men's octet at my church in Denver. I sang many solos, even though I didn't like to. 6. I sold my ski boat, but still have my ski, wake board, and wet suit. 7. I love the ocean,, the beach,,, sand between my toes. 8. I Hardly drink at all. but one of my best friends owns a bar in Galveston. 9. I drin

Maestro Pimpout
"> Maestro needs leveling to GODFATHER! It's been a long time commin'!! Help him reach his goal of Fu-Level 25. He only has 600,000 to go! Lot's of stash to rate and interesting pics, It won't take long if we all help. Maestro™ ® ♫ - Fu Owned by, and Fu Owner of, the beautiful Berry, Berry Quite Contrary@ fubar Pimpout brought to you by... Berry,Berry Quite Contrary ~ Shadow Leveler~ Fu-Owned by Maestro!@ fubar

Kah'thiqa's Rise To Power (ch 1.2-3)
A week passes as she quietly observes the strange behaviors of the humans. Weary of her new guise, she waits until nightfall to stretch her wings again. The dark moon rises, the moon of the chaos dragons, the moon of greatest power for her. She emerges from her abode and walks to a clearing in the woods. A dark mist draws in around her. The mist clears as a beautiful black dragoness steps forward. The moonlight reflects small glimmers of blood red off of her scales. Her wings stretch to the sky and flap a few times. She was over-joyed to be in her true form again. She sets a small bush aflame and sits in front of it gazing. In a few slow breaths she calls forth the mists and her father. "With great honour I welcome you father," she announces while bowing. "My daughter, I am glad to see you are well. How goes your lessons?" he inquires. "They are progressing. I am learning much about these humans and their ways. I am assimilating into their society and will soon begin doing wh

Paybacks! Part 2!
Go F/A/R all of these Fu's and leave them a comment that say Paybacks are a bitch! lol In this case I think it's a good thing! excellentluv~@ fubar ~sensual-breeze~shadow leveler@ fubar "Master" of Desires@ fubar ButterflyMajic@ fubar Dj. Tesha-Rl Gf/Fu Wife/Owned By Franklin-Greeter at club Illusions..@ fubar Lucie in the Sky@ fubar ŞếΧΫ SŦA@ fubar ♥ ReDnEcK AnGeL ♥@ fubar Leave me a page comment and message tell me that you hel

Hmmmmm Some People
It has come to my attention that there are some ppl on fubar who just cant seem to grow up, they seem to think that its ok for them to comment on things and rate things the way that they seem to want to. But its not ok for you to, then they seem to want to hate on your status and call ya names and such, or they send u gifts annonmsly and say rude things in it......... A persons page is theirs to do with as they like, and that includes their status, If someone were to get to know me, They would find out that most the thigs I say in my status are a joke, Im a very funny and loving person, im honest, and im fair, just because im not a model or a "Hot" girl doesnt make me a bad person. Ya never can tell you might be missing out................ So if u feel u hve to write a blog about me, you could at least be adult enough to let me read it, not block me and send ur friends to my page to see who I am and what I look like so they can poke fun to........in other words "GROW UP,

I'm Here
After all the shit that went wrong with this move, I now am without a job. Fuckin Bob Chocola! He's the DM for CVS around where I live and since he and my old manager Khan are such good buddies he wont transfer me because I had to leave suddenly in Feb. They re both such assholes. Now again I am with out job and money. WTF!!!!! I can not catch a break!!!!!

True American????
It is time to change from REDNECK humor to TRUE AMERICAN Humor! Only it isn't seen as HUMOR, but the correct way to LIVE YOUR LIFE ! If you feel the same, pass this on to your True American friends. Y'all know who they are... You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: It never occurred to you to be offended by the phrase, 'One nation, under God.' You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You've never protested about seeing the 10 Commandments posted in public places. You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You still say 'Christmas' instead of 'Winter Festival.' You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You bow your head when someone prays. You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You stand and place your hand over your heart when they play the National Anthem. You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You treat VietNam vets with great respect, and always have. You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You've never burned an American flag. You might be a TRUE AMERICAN if: You know what you believ

Needing You
My need for you, Is greater than want. Thats what scares me the most, I've never wanted something so bad, let alone needed it. You are my sanity, My sturdy rock, My beacon, When all hope lost. I need to hear your beautiful voice, I need to have you close, I need to have you touching me, To know that you are real, Not some figment, I made up in my head. I need your kiss, To be in your possession, To feel needed, The way I need you. This is what I need from YOU.

Something To Remember
When you are feeling alone like no one cares, read this cuz its absolutely true Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep. At least fifteen people in this world love you. The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. There are at least two people in this world that would die for you. You mean the world to someone. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look. Always remember the compliments you've received. Forget the rude remarks. Thank you for being my friend.

Was A Fast
>>Was a fast tournament for us as we went 2 and out gettin beat bad the first time and stickin in there the 2nd time. Our pitchers were out of wack the first game and we had to go to our #3 before one was on. Then the 2nd game we commited 17 errors in a single inning. Not going to go far that way that is for sure.

My Son
My life for years has been solely involved with my son, since i got custody of him. we have hunted and fished and shared lifes ups and downs together.tonight i find myself all alone here missing him . tomrrow he leaves for boot camp tomorrow and i was worried bout him but he seems to have it under control. me on the other hand . am having problems dealin with it. i feel as if my life is walkin away from me and then i feel the pride that he has givin me for doin so well with this he is turning into a fine young man, to my amazement he surprises me with how smart he is on what he going in for. i feel alone and happy its a torn emotion. i am proud of him and i love him and support his decision .. and god will watch over us and guide each of us as our lives grow apart.

Death
Death can appear in dreams in many forms ranging from the near-death experience to wish-fulfillment projected on others. It may seem to be terrifying, or almost joyful in its sense of power. The near-death experience can be either a psychological phenomenon or a physical one. The physical phenomenon comes from lucid dreaming in a nightmare condition. You may become aware of the body paralysis of the REM state and feel powerless to defend yourself in the dream. This can create an overwhelming sense of vulnerability to the threatening circumstances of the dream and a near-death experience. The psychological facet is part and parcel of feeling endangered by your circumstances. This danger may be tangible or merely sensed in the dream. If it is tangible, the source of the danger is the area for interpretive work (whom, why, how, and what has endangered your life?). If the danger is merely sensed, it may symbolize ambivalence concerning a soul's transition into facets of self-awareness

Did You?
Did you ever sit On a bench in the park And feed hungry pigeons Til well past dark? Take time to help a stranger With a problem he had The way you were taught By you mom and dad? Pass the time telling stories To a lonely little child And watch as his smiles Made him laugh til he cried? All these things I've asked Summon an answer true So I ask once again Tell me ..............did you?

Sleeping Still Sucks/life And People
so sleeping still sucks.i don't know what to do to make it better. ive talked to people both professional and not and neither really helped.i wish i knew how to fix it though because constantly reliving everything is not fucking kool.ive taken pills and poked some smot but i don't want to have to that forever and if i did id still be on migraine meds and painkillers.its not a good way to live and i wouldn't trust myself around that many pills.im going to look into hypnosis i guess because i cant deal with this stuff in a good or "normal" way.ive been going to clubs more frequently though and thats helped a little. maybe ill just have to run myself ragged in the hopes that it will make me sleep so hard i wont dream.ive cut a lot of people out of my life too and thats also helped a little bit, but i feel bad because thats not how i want to be. i care about people way more than i should though. so sometimes its just better for me to be alone. that sounds so fucking awful.its not that i

Is This A Dream?
"Is This A Dream" Am I awake? Is this a dream? Am I somewhere in between? Whirling, swirling, magically thrown Into a hazy world of my own. Hug me, squeeze me But don't pinch me too tight, Or shout too loud or switch on the light. I'm afraid you see In case it's a dream These feelings I have And what they mean. I don't want to lose this inner glow. I want to nurture it. I want it to grow. But wait! I can't be imagining this. I feel your soft breath And your kiss on my lips. I know now I am awake This isn't a dream It's not a mistake. I know this is real Because I can see The love in your eyes And they're looking at me. ~ J.K. Kelly ~

My New Owner!
Please meet my new owner. She is the greatest thing that has come into my life since my son and husband! She has been so good to me since the day I met her! She is also my fu-lover and she loves me up hardcore! She is the sweetest person! You need to go show her the love! She always gives love right back and out of the kindness of her heart she gives love to people who never show her love back! This chick will bendover backwards for you in a heart beat and give you the shirt off her back if she could! I love this girl so much I don't know what I would do without her and neither will you! We are two peas in a pod and will always be! ~☮HippyChick☮~{Owned By~J+A+B=ME~}@ fubar

Damn Lier And Theiff
Here is yet another morph I CREATED that stormwoman deleted and is claming as her work.... This one was one of 7 I did for Jeff as the last of the morph's that I'd ever make...She deleted the whole file and a few other's including the blog that had them on it This is why Jeff got so pissed at her and stashed and blocked her IF you can't make the fucken thing's then stop!!!! don't be going around stealing MY creation's and claming them as your own!!! You could have been a great morpher but you had to be a jealous ass to me and harasses and play game's with me!!! Get a fucken life ...get a fucken clue and stoop these childless game's!!!!! I WAS your damn friend and even bought you a damn VIP ....I have NEVER done ANY THING to you and do not deserve this bullshit!!!! YesI'm pissed !!!

Average Joe
Ave. Joe believes that we should allow for off shore oil drilling. Ave Joe believes that Enviromental Issues are Killing America. I don't understand how some radical enviromentalists will put the planet over current human needs, we need to drill off shore, we also need to stop buying cars/trucks/suv's that don't get at least 30mph ! What was Detroit thinking ? Their cars (and I have one of their SUV's) suck, they are not dependable like a Toyota, Honda. Plus the looks are horrible and they weight a ton. Also, why are we bailing out those who had No business buying a house and now face foreclosure ? Lets see, if I make 40,000 a year (this is not my wages but an example) and I buy a House with no money down that is worth $500,000, Gee, unless I freak n dont know any MATH at all, I probably can't afford the House Payments on That !!! Lets take some responsiblity people, you Gambled and you Lost so own up to it !! Until next time.(:....

Fly Away
Spread My Wings Set Me Free Allow This Child To Soar To The Heavens To Sit On A Star To Watch From The Moon Fly Away Fly Fly Fly Away Fly Away Gazing Up You From The Heavens Guarding You From The Other-Side I Use To Hide I Use To Be Afraid I Use To Be Scared To Fly Fly Away Fly Fly Fly Away Fly Away Being As Free As I Want Not Being Afraid Of Anything Gliding Through The Clouds High Above Not To Be Mistaken For A Dove I Never Had That Love Fly Away Fly Fly Fly Away Fly Away It's Not My Fault I Felt That Way I Wanted That Life That I Could Never Have I Was Never Truly Happy I Was Sick Of That Life I Never Accomplished Shit Fly Away Fly Fly Fly Away Fly Away They Found A Hollow Body Void Of The Life I Once Lived Some Shed Tears Others Rejoiced But For The Most Part, I Stopped Caring Fly Away Fly Fly Fly Away Fly Away Never Was I Truly Alive Nor Did I Truly Live Chained To The Ground By My Own Ways Chained To Ever

If Neppi Can Blog....
So can i. :P I don't go in many contests, as some know. And i'd never ask anyone to bomb me. Thats why Sonny's contest is perfect. One prize for rates. One for bombing. All i ask is for one rate. Help a VIP-less guy out? Hit the picture. Woot Yaya. I know i'm a whore. :P

My Other Fu-owner, And Sweetheart.
I'm very lucky to be Fu-owned by this wonderful lady, who just happens to have my heart. Go show her lots of Fu lovin's, she's awesome! I love you baby! ¢¾Sassy68 Fu Owner of Mark . ¢¾ . Supporting our Men And women in Uniform ..@ fubar

Angels
IT is a heartache to loose someone that you loved so much.But you know how hard it is to think that they are in a better place not living with the wars and the hatetred and the violence I lost 2 kids an i know that they are in a better place an i know that they are looking down on me to make me feel better know that they don't have to deal with the rascial slurs or the hatred or any of the crap that the world is dishinf out right now IN loveing memory of my kids

Internal Pain
All this pain i feel I try to forget Try to pretend That it doesnt exist I smile I laugh But deep inside My soul does bleed Don't you see The tears you made The ones pouring down my cheeks An eternal waterfall of misery Don't you see my pain You bring to me Is on the inside Don't you know You're the cause of this pain?... cjb May 22, 2006

Nothing But A G Thang
I was at this Wendy's and they had a sign This Wendy's is Rated G - all ages are welcome Quickpost this image to Myspace, Digg, Facebook, and others! I thought to myself, fuck, I could have gone to an R rated Wendy's? I bet that chick has a great rack that the sign cuts off.

Contentment
Its amazing how one moment in life can right every wrong thats been done in one heavy blow. I am so damn content its like watching a cat curl up and cuddle in its favorite blanket. Understanding between two people that love each other is a beuatiful thing to behold and even more beautiful when youre the one with the understanding. Yep Angel woke up in love, in her baby's safe arms and in her contentment zone. All is right in my world at this moment and excuse me while a girl glows.....yep Im glowing. For once no tears, no hurt, no heartache just smiles, sighs an two lovers complete join me in the smile

Autopsy...ewwwww
Autopsy EVENT Name Occupation Birth Death Known for Aaliyah Singer 16-Jan-1979 25-Aug-2001 R&B singer dies in plane crash Abu Abbas Terrorist 10-Dec-1948 9-Mar-2004 Masterminded the Achille Lauro hijacking Joan Vollmer Adams Victim 1924 6-Sep-1951 Common-law wife of William S. Burroughs Nick Adams Actor 10-Jul-1931 7-Feb-1968 Johnny Yuma on The Rebel Steve Allen Talk Show Host 26-Dec-1921 30-Oct-2000 The Tonight Show Salvador Allende Head of State 26-Jul-1908 11-Sep-1973 Chilean President deposed by Pinochet Albert Anastasia Criminal 26-Feb-1902 25-Oct-1957 Gambino crime boss Pier Angeli Actor 19-Jun-1932 10-Sep-1971 Tomorrow Is Too Late Marshall Applewhite Religion 17-May-1931 26-Mar-1997 Led the Heaven's Gate cult to suicide Diane Arbus Photographer 14-Mar-1923 26-Jul-1971 Influential photographer Notorious B.I.G. Rapper 21-May-1972 9-Mar-1997 I love it when you call me big poppa Bonny Lee Bakley Victim 7-Jun-1956 4-May-2001 Baret

Quiet Emotions...
I always wanted more from you than you were willing to give; So now we've gone our separate ways each with different lives to live. The bond will always be there the friendship always intact; But the time for us has come and gone and the pages of time, you can't turn back. I will always be a friend to you and wonder how you are; The smiles and laughter I will remember and our fights have become painless scars. Sometimes on those busy days when you've a thousand things to do; Please let me glide slowly through your mind and spend some time with you. In that quiet moment when you're surprised to find me there; Just remember even with the distance between us I am still someone who cares.

Ldc Family Guidelines
****IN COMING MEMBERS****** In order to earn the ldc letters you MUST first fan, rate and add all exsisting members, and include " ldc family" in your friends request, Only then will one be issued the LDC letters ****ALL MEMBERS****** 1. MUST HAVE LDC IN THEIR NAMES 2. F.A.R ALL MEMBERS 3. REPOST BULLETINS 4. CONTACT A CREATOR OR OWNER SHOULD THEY DECIDE TO LEAVE. 5. In order to maintain an active family and to insure that everyone is included...It is MANDATORY that each member MUST sign every blog as they read them as proof that they have read them. Also, this way there wont be any new members who feel excluded and ignored.. 6. MUST repost each bulletin posted by the LDC Family 7. There will be 3 members picked each week and posted in a blog. You will have to show them family love by either commenting their pages, giving a drink, rating a pic, or something plus you will have to comment the blog each week stating you have d

Fu Bad Girl Bulletin
imikimi - Customize Your World HEY ALL YOU LOVELY LADIES OUT THERE I AM FORMING A FUBAR GROUP CALLED "FU BAD GIRLS" IF ANY OF YOU LADIES WOULD LIKE TO JOIN. YOU CAN CONTACT ME JUICY. TELL ALL YOUR LADY FRIENDS. THE MORE THE MERRIER. IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS JUST GIVE ME A SHOUT. MY LINK IS: *JuicyFruit(Bi)69*owner of Fu Bad Girls*fu gf to my sweet Velvet Moon*Rating Revolution*fu owned by@ fubar

A State Of Physical And Mental Suffering
Every night when I try to sleep I can't help but start to weep Every time I close my eyes All I hear are your cries I've done some things that go unforgiven To insanity I'm almost driven To have you here is all I desire The rage inside me burns like fire To my unborn child I write I hope one day we will reunite For my unborn child I yearn And for now the fire brightly burns

A Challenge To My Friends
Ok Guy's & Gal's Here It Is He Helps Everyone That Needs it So Lets See If In A Week We Can Make Him A Fu King .. Hit Him With Your Best Shot !!!!!So I Would Like All My Friends To Go Hit His Page As Hard As You Can Let's Make Him Level !!!!!! Lets Make Him A Fu King !!!! Brought To You By

List 4
Caleb Arron Dack, 39, Montclair, N.J. Carlos S. DaCosta, 41, Elizabeth, N.J. Jason Dahl, 43, Denver, Colo. Brian Dale, 43, Warren, New Jersey John D'Allara, 47, Pearl River, N.Y. Vincent D'Amadeo, 36, East Patchoque, N.Y. Thomas A. Damaskinos, 33, Matawan, N.J. Jack L. D'Ambrosi, 45, Woodcliff Lake, N.J. Jeannine Marie Damiani-Jones, 28, New York, N.Y. Patrick W. Danahy, 35, Yorktown Heights, N.Y. Nana Kwuku Danso, 47, New York, N.Y. Mary D'Antonio, 55, New York, N.Y. Vincent G. Danz, 38, Farmingdale, N.Y. Dwight Donald Darcy, 55, Bronxville, N.Y. Elizabeth Ann Darling, 28, Newark, N.J. Annette Andrea Dataram, 25, New York, N.Y. Lt. Edward Alexander D'Atri, 38, New York, N.Y. Michael D. D'Auria, 25, New York, N.Y. Lawrence Davidson, 51, New York, N.Y. Michael Allen Davidson, 27, Westfield, N.J. Scott Matthew Davidson, 33, New York, N.Y. Titus Davidson, 55, New York, N.Y. Niurka Davila, 47, New York, N.Y. Ada M. Davis,

True Love Exists
There will always be things in life that will stand the test of time... True love is one of those things. I used to wonder about alot of things, but love and whhether or not true love existed were never something I ever worried about. I suppose it is because I never truely loved anyone other than my children before. It wasn't that I didn't want to love anyone, it was just that love in the since of true love had never presented itself before, and I wasn't going out searching for it. I have always felt that if something was ment to be then no matter what you do it will happen. I just so happen to run smack into true love on March 5th of this year and oddly enough I ran into him on here. This is not your typical place to find true love, but obviously he was the man who was ment to be my true love, and this was the place I was ment to find him. Several circumstances lead up to our running into eachother, but they all happened in harmoney together to make for a perfect meet

Babby J Update
hey everyone, just wanted to post an update in a new entry so it didn't clutter the old one. MUMM's the only thing that has changed is that points are no longer being awarded for voting on GLOBAL mumms. this is an experiment after hearing the feedback on my last blog post yesterday and we haven't decided if it's staying this way or not. everything else has remained the same, including friends-only mumms. STASH based on feedback from a bunch of members, i'm not going to reset the old stashes when we migrate to the new hardware. the stash limit will remain the same (1000). LEVEL REQUIREMENTS since so many people wanted it, i've turned back on the salute requirement to move beyond level 10. also, i just wanted to get up on my soapbox and clear up a few things for anyone who's forgotten, or is new and doesn't know the history of this site. the site was originally created for *my* friends. everyday i'm amazed that other people end up liking it and wa

Grams
I always think about you even though you are not my mother or grandmother it is so hard to see you looking so sad an down an not happy I would hate to loose you in so many ways your son is the greatstest thing in my life an i love you all an it is so hard to know that you are in the hospitial I will always thing about you an i hope to see you soon , You are on my mind an i miss you so much i hope to see you soon love ya always an for ever

Stop Whining
This is primarily for my new accepted friends. Look I appreciate your rating me and such, put dont get all pissy if I dont rate you back, I understand most of yall are new and think its rate for rate, but lemme tell ya, Im not a point whore so i hardly ever rate back, sorry if ya dont like it but thats me, dont like it, delete me. ~XOXO~ Lexi♥

Hot Chick Alert!!!
Everyone should go and shower this hot chick with love. She is my new "owner" for the next 30 days. She is an awesome girl who deserves all the love we can give her. Kept In Corsets - Fu-owned by SexySavior & Pedro El Loco, Fu-owner of KatieMae, Sarge's Bad Girl@ fubar

Four-cheese Pizza
INGREDIENTS 1 can (13.8 oz) Pillsbury® refrigerated classic pizza crust or 1 can (11 oz) Pillsbury® refrigerated thin pizza crust 1/3 cup shredded fresh Parmesan cheese 1 tablespoon dried basil leaves 1 cup shredded provolone cheese (4 oz) 1 cup shredded Cheddar cheese (4 oz) 1 cup shredded Monterey Jack cheese (4 oz) 1/2 cup tomato pasta sauce DIRECTIONS 1. If using classic crust: Heat oven to 425°F. Spray or grease 12-inch pizza pan or 13x9-inch pan. Unroll dough in pan. Starting at center, press out dough to edge of pan. If using thin crust: Heat oven to 400°F. Spray or grease 15x10-inch or larger dark or nonstick cookie sheet. Unroll dough on cookie sheet. Starting at center, press dough into 15x10-inch rectangle. 2. Sprinkle dough with Parmesan cheese and basil. Top with provolone, Cheddar and Monterey Jack cheeses. Drop pasta sauce by spoonfuls over cheese. 3. Bake classic crust 12 to 18 minutes, thin crust 10 to 14 minutes, or until crust is deep golden brown. Cut

I Need Advice Please
i have been trying so hard to pick up the pieces of my life and it seem's like everytime i take a stpe forword someone always knockes me back 5 steps (family mostly)I'm not sure how to talk to them about this and if i try they don't listen to a word i say...How do i go about talking to them and make my point known with out starting a fight with them and blowing everything i've worked so hard to over come (i'm lost)...Any advice would help thank you

Ike
for those that havent seen me. ike kicked our ass. didnt have power for 8 days and some home damage. we were lucky, there were alot of people worse off than us. pictures from the storm and damage will come soon.

Every Friday! :) (repost)
EVERY FRIDAY! :) (repost) every friday im going to post a documentary... its up to you if you wanna check it out...if not...be kind and repost.. :) and for the first week.... i will be posting a pretty new documentary... check it out.. repost.. Fabled Enemies: A New Film By Loose Change Filmmaker Jason Bermas Seven years after 9/11, the supposed mastermind behind the attacks is still at large, and the nation is entrenched in multiple wars in the Middle East. Is Bin Laden the evil behind the attack or a mere front man in a larger picture, a Bogeyman? (repost of original by 'ERIC 4 RON PAUL' on '2008-09-26 11:36:40')

Why Are You Single?
I'm so sick of people asking me why I'm single. I feel like they're asking, "Whats wrong with you?" in a not-so-upfront way. What's wrong with me? Nothing. I'm 26 and not divorced. I have no children. It especially kills me when the people asking me have kids or are divorced. Good for you. You found love. How'd that work out for you? Oh! It didn't? Thats just too bad, but at least there's nothing fundamentally wrong with you since SOMEONE loved you before. Right? No. I don't buy it. Its like I live in a whole generation of people who lack simple self control. They aren't content just working, plotting, and creating a better future for the family they will someday have. No, instead they go make families and then struggle to keep it together the rest of their existance. And I'm the one getting asked why I'm single. I should ask people who are 18-24 why they're really in long term relationships --really.

Punkindog143
Are you friends with someone like this? Ok he pulled this shit once with me a week ago. I was re-rating ALL his pics because he did mine. And while I was re-rating he was throwing hate in my SB (and damn it I should have screen shot it too). Well now Ive been home 15 minutes and THIS is the bullshit I have to hear? (see screen shot above) ...apparently Im not allowed to respond to messages FIRST before re rating... Be careful of this guy! If you dont re rate he will blog about you...pfftttt!!!

Yahoo Idiots And My Amusment For The Night
so ok this person i cant remember where i was talking to him but he seemed half way decent so i agreed to add him to my yahoo and i didnt know he had a signifigant other and i honestly if some one just chats to me i dont ask lol so here is his wife ------------------------------------------ top to bottom since it is yahell ____________________________________________ Bobby Janzen (10/1/2008 1:32:35 AM): WHO ARE U i AM HIS WIFE angel (10/1/2008 1:32:55 AM): kool Bobby Janzen (10/1/2008 1:33:09 AM): HOW DO U FEEL angel (10/1/2008 1:33:13 AM): i was chattin with him on a web site angel (10/1/2008 1:33:40 AM): how do i feel? angel (10/1/2008 1:34:48 AM): ya caught me b4 i was about to shut off the comp maybe i ll catch ya next time im online have a nice evening Bobby Janzen (10/1/2008 1:38:27 AM): what Bobby Janzen (10/1/2008 1:38:36 AM): what web site angel (10/1/2008 1:38:46 AM): i dont remember its been a long time Bobby Janzen (10/1/2008 1:38:54 AM): what r u white an

Help!
COME ON YA'LL NEED A LIL' HELP HERE! RATE THIS PIC PLEASE...A COMMENT OR TWO WOULD BE GREAT orrrrrr BOMB IF YA GOT A FEW MINUTES FOR THUGPASSION! start on Wednesday 10/01 at 6:30 P.m est. JUST CLICK THE PIC BELOW HELP HIS SEXY ASS OUT!!!!

Ok To Make It Clear....
It comes to me from some that they feel a bling takes the place of rating someone ....pure example and I'll leave her name out but will go into details!! This individual I rated today was hmmm I gave 531 rates as well as her profile. That is 3,192 just in my rating her during happy hour!! Wow, for a guy that takes the time to rate 5000 pics a day she received 10% of my daily. So, I let her know and say hey did what I did for you....a few minutes later she blings me 2k cause it's HH...which gives her 2k as well. So for my 2k she benefits 5,192 total...I say c'mon I have just over 100 pics...her reasoning is she has carpal tunnel, I can relate as do I and a trigger finger on my left middle finger and I am left handed thus my mouse is on the left. Also, my spine has been cut open 3x in my 38 years ty from serving this country. It becomes clear to me with some that their laziness or choosing to do little for someone that gives a lot and gives more to their groupies is a sad thi

Tired..
time after time i'm made to fight... i'm NOt saying you're not worth it.. i'm saying give me time make things right over here! let me get things ready so when u get out here it'll be good... ever heard of JOB hunting, or apartment HUNTING... SHEEESH.. call me if you want.. I've TRYED calling you.. but you never seem to answer.. you F'ing know i love you... ACT LIKE IT

Royally Screwed
617pm PST Why does shit have to happen to me? What happened? I wish I could take things back and didn't do what I did. Here is what happened. It's simple, but difficult to talk about it. I'm crying while I type about it because it's one of my therapies. About a year and a half ago, i was approached by a person. I never really considered him a friend, nor lover, nor ex. He was just simply someone I'd known since I was 16 and years later, things happened. From the moment we started hooking up, I had a real bad feeling about what went on. It took me years to face up to it. i don't know what to say about it. So anyway ffwd until now... Guy calls girl. She is sick and doesn't want to go out. She knows she shouldn't go out with this guy. He has a g/f. She isn't interested in him. Mother dislikes guy. Guy dislikes girl's mother. She is stuck no matter what. Lose-lose situation. She decides she's going out. He takes her to his house. They're supposed to hang out.

Shit
Have you ever been to the point you just want to give up. Like theres nothing left to even keep fighting for. Like theres no reason to live. Have you ever been to a point in your life where you look back and see all your failures. And then look at the failures you're facing right now. Have you ever been homeless literally living on the streets. Making your way through that finally feeling like everything will be ok.Only for you to fail again? Even if you aren't the total reason for your failure? Have you ever justs wanted to crawl in a hole and die? I dont know why I'm asking these questions. I already know my own answers and God Knows anyone who reads this will have some rude comment to say. I'd be suprised if I got some decent comments. But what the hell. FuBar is full of real people. With their own opinions.So FuNation or those who actually read this. Go Ahead Hit Me With Your Best Shot!

Update On Life
Great news to post...he's come back to me. We've been back together for a week and a half. He called me the 6th and said "When I told you I wasnt happy with you I was just content, I may have been somewhat mistaken. I am not completely happy, but I'm not completely happy with anyone. But in 2 years you are what has made me the happiest and if you want, I want to give it another try" I bout fell off my chair to hear that!! :)

Beef Stroganoff
Beef Stroganoff 1 pound beef tenderloin steak or sirloin steak 2 tablespoons all-purpose flour 1 8-ounce carton dairy sour cream 2 teaspoons instant beef bouillon granules 2 tablespoons margarine or butter 1 1/2 cups sliced fresh mushrooms 1/2 cup chopped onion 1 clove garlic, minced 2 cups hot cooked noodles Partially freeze beef. Thinly slice across the grain into bite-size, strips. Combine flour and sour cream. Stir in bouillon granules, 1/2 cup water, and 1/4 teaspoon pepper. Set aside. In a large skillet cook and stir half the meat in margarine or butter over high heat till done. Remove. Add remaining meat, mushrooms, onion, and garlic. Cook and stir till meat is done and the vegetables are tender. Return all meat to skillet. Add sour cream mixture. Cook and stir till thickened and bubbly. Cook and stir 1 minute more. Serve over noodles. serves 4

Chicken A-la-can-can
CHICKEN A-LA-CAN-CAN 1 (2-3 lb) chicken 1 can cream of chicken soup 1 can cream of celery soup 2 tablespoons dried onions 2 tablespoons Worcestershire sauce 1-1 1/2 soup cans chicken broth 1 soup can minute rice 1 teaspoon salt 2 tablespoons dried bell peppers Cook chicken and de-bone; retain broth. mix all ingredients together in buttered 2-quart glass baking dish covered with foil. Bake 30 to 45 minutes at 350 degrees. Garnish with fried onion rings or noodles.

Back.....
Well i've taking quite a few days/weeks/months even years off of fubar. I just needed some time to myself. I felt like fubar was taking over my life. It was always fubar this, and fubar that, i just didn't want fubar to run my life. But i'm back, but i am not going to be a full time thing with me being on fubar. I am only here to keep up communications with all the very nice people i've met on here......even though you all have probably long and forgot about me :( Well here's hoping that isn't the case. ROCK ON PEOPLE AND I CAN'T WAIT TO TALK TO YOU ALL AGAIN!

Dumped
so how does it make sense that i bust my balls for someone for ages and she shits on me all of a sudden because i'm having a tough time cleaning up my act? my girl took off on me today because i didn't want to talk about an argument while she was still pissed off. all i wanted her to do was calm down and talk to me. and now i'm single. and it sucks. i really loved that girl.

I Want This!!
I know what I want, I want someone who will stand by me, and know what it means to be faithful, who doesn’t have to be shady, I want to be trusted, if they want to be trusted as well. I don’t want someone who says the same thing to all the girls. I want someone who can find my smile on the darkest of days, I want someone who can be honest with me, no matter how painful it might be. I want to be able to lie in bed on the weekend and just talk. I want to be able to look at that person and just smile. I want to be able to smile every time I think of them. I want to know they smile when they think of me. I want distance to never be an issue. I want them to know my darkest secret and not judge me for it, as I would not judge them for theirs, I want public displays of affection/emotion I want them to walk as proudly as I do. I want them to share in my confidence and I share in theirs I want to been seen as an whole and not the other half I want to be able to laugh and not think I'm crazy for

Spicy Portabella Mushrooms In Balsamic Vinegar
Ingredients: ------------ 2 Portabella mushrooms (they are Xpensive!) 2 large sweet red peppers 2 cherry tomatoes 1/2 red onion 1 tsp olive oil 1 tblsp fresh, coarsely ground black pepper Coriander leaves Sauce: ------ 1/2 capful *very good* BALSAMIC VINEGAR (this is the key - get one from a specialty store, the supermarket ones are too watered down. A good Modena type is good) 1/4 tsp Hungarian paprika for flavor salt to taste Preparation: ------------ 1. Whisk the sauce ingredients together 2. Wipe the shrooms with a moist towel and slice long. 3. Chop the onions along the grooves. Cooking: -------- 1. Place whole peppers and tomatoes on a foil in a preheated oven at BROIL. Keep turning them until the peppers are charred. The tomatoes will bleed into the foil...don't throw that water. 2. Remove peppers and make long slices. Remove the core and the seeds. 3. Mix the cherry tomatoes and the fluid they exude, into the sauce. Mix well until the tomatoes are crushed int

My Daughter
Daughter -Elizabeth Hall- Ever so gently I hold you in my arms beautiful butterfly. Diaphanous wings gently test the breeze promise predestined flight. A fragment of time passes such a short time it seems to the hands the hold you close. Gossamer wings grow strong and restless. The morning comes when you leave my hands and flutter triumphantly around me though remaining quite near a mere breath away. Each new day you venture futher perfect, pwereful wings carry you away from my protective hands as you seek the wind yet return at the coming of night. This day, though, my proud heart rejoices this day my bursting hears silently weeps. This splendid butterfly soars aloft to touch cerulean skies to discover her own laughter and joy, triumph and pain, free, unfettered, unique. No longer in need of these hands that have held you, but forever cradled in my heart.

Things I Want To Remember
dedicated to my grandfather and father figure Retired Sgt. Maj. Bobby K. Edwards you will always be loved remembered and missed.... let me curl up next to you one more time and lay my head on your chest like i did when i was but a small babe...let me snuggle closely and rubbing your face right after you shave and smell the old spice let but kiss your balding head once more while you nap in your recliner...let us walk in the pasture and pick wild berries for grams...just once more lets do all these things before you leave hold me by my feet as you did when i was just a baby learning to strengthen my legs to stand on my own for surely this is more than i can handle...you are leaving me for good this time...you are the first man i ever learned to trust...you are the father figure of my life you gave me all my values in life old fashions values, you have taught me what love is by example and now your time is coming to an end and a large piece of me will go with you....but you are immo

Respect For Veterans
Respect for Veterans Dear Civilians, 'We know that the current state of affairs in our great nation has many civilians up in arms and excited to join the military. For those of you who can't join, you can still lend a hand. Here are a few of Terms of Servicethe areas where we would like your assistance: 1. The next time you see any adults talking (or wearing a hat) during the playing of the National Anthem - kick their ass. 2.When you witness, firsthand, someone burning the American Flag in protest - kick their ass. 3.Regardless of the rank they held while they served, pay the highest amount of respect to all veterans. If you see anyone doing otherwise, quietly pull them aside and explain how these veterans fought for the very freedom they bask in every second. Enlighten them on the many sacrifices these veterans made to make this Nation great. Then hold them down while a disabled veteran kicks their ass. 4.(GUYS) If you were never in the

Sexy Love Train (closed)
Sexy Love Train Bombing Train for Johnny Riggs's Sexiest Man on Fubar Contest Contest ENDS Saturday, Oct. 12 @ midnight CST! The Rules: 1. Stop by Johnny Riggs's page, rate the pic, and leave 50 comments on his pic. 2. Rate, Fan, Add, and Comment each person on the Party List. If you are already friends with someone, check to make sure you have re-rated him/her and leave a comment... "Sexy Love" or something like that... 4. Private message Carrie when you have completed rating each party guest. She will make you a thank you tag... And add you to the guest list... 5. When new people join the party... You must rate/fan/add/comment them back... DO NOT just ACCEPT the friend request 6. Repost the bulletin so it can be seen by as many people as possible. 7. NO DRAMA... You agreed to the rules... So, be sure you follow through... No cheating... Please... ****************************** Below is the gift tag you will receive... Feel free

C-section
I am a very happy chick I have finally found out what day my c-section is going to be on. i'm having one because of my first daughter was a c-section and the hospital i am going to be going to isnt able to a vbac. so on December 19 i am going to have another beautiful baby girl.

White Guilt
WHITE GUILT IS DEAD By Tom Adkins Look at my fellow conservatives! There they go, glumly shuffling along, depressed by the election aftermath. Not me. I'm virtually euphoric. Don't get me wrong. I'm not thrilled with America 's flirtation with neo socialism. But there's a massive silver lining in those magical clouds that lofted Barak Obama to the Presidency. For today, without a shred of intellectually legitimate opposition, I can loudly proclaim to America : The Era of White Guilt is over. This seemingly impossible event occurred because the vast majority of white Americans didn't give a fluff about skin color, and enthusiastically pulled the voting lever for a black man. Not just any black man. A very liberal black man who spent his early career race-hustling banks, praying in a racist church for 20 years, and actively worked with America-hating domestic terrorists. Wow! Some resume! Yet they made Barak Obama their leader. Theref ore, as of Nov 4th, 2008, w

Thanksgiving
I really hate thanksgiving this year my boyfreind really needs to go fuck himself. I guess if u don't like someone now is the time to say it. I'm in denver. Well just north of there. Whatever rt? Not much difference. But anyhoo It sucks here. It's ugly and not that cold really. I'm from washington it's alot colder and snowier there. Truthfully I would have liked to have seen some snow today. I hate the broncos they r ugly and suck. I know the seahawks do to now but at least they got an excuse. Ok i may have offended someone from denver but i don't care. I had to make a reservation to go to dinner that was nasty and dirty. It cost like 75.00 for 2 not including drinks. and a tip. they didn't deserve one they were a bunch of fucking pigs there and if u didn't keep the reservation they chg u 25.00. Which would be fine if they were good but they arn't. Gross. I know it's cool here if u ski and snowboard and what not but i like that too. I do it in washington where ppl w

Contest Is Open!
the contest album is now open so vote for your fave! thank you to all that entered. the pics are awesome. you can still enter if you like and may enter up to 3 pics. don't forget that downrating other pics is encouraged. you can also come back and rate your fave pic on sunday since pic rates will be reset. i have opened the contest album so that everyone can vote on the pics cuz of several requests. so make a bully or a blog and pimp out your pic (or your friend's pic). in the event of a tie the tie will be broken by whomever gets the most comments in eight hours. i hope you all enjoy the pics.

Hospital
WELL TONIGHT I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL CUZ I WAS IN ALOT OF PAIN....I HAVE BEEN GETTING SHOTS IN MY BACK TO HELP EASE THE PAIN....WELL MONDAY I GOT A SHOT ON MY NERVE ENDINGS COMING OUT OF MY SPINE AND THE SHOT DIDN'T HELP AT ALL....MY LEGS FEEL REALLY TIGHT AND HURT REALLY BAD....WELL IT LOOKS LIKE I JUST MIGHT CONSIDER THE SURGERY AFTER ALL IF THE SHOTS ARENT GOING TO HELP ME.

New Pics Up, But With A Catch
WHat's everybody, this SPan Rican I just posted new pics that feature yours truly with my family from Spain at my cousin's wedding to check out. Its under My Cousin Wedding in Spain (Family Only)-Bling Me, to have access. That's right there's a catch, if you are under my family list, you're good. And you could go ahead & rate them, but you are under my friends list but not family list, here's the deal. Any member who's in my friends list, but in my family list, send me a bling, any bling, and I will add you on to the family list so you can go check em out & rate those pics. So, what are you waiting for. Go ahead & checke em out. Welcome to the Span Rican Zone!

Bringing Truth And Justice To Fubar
This poor idiot and his group thinks hes doing fubar justice by being a asshole. Like there isn't enough of them on here. Please go show him some love..because I don't think he got enough as a child...btw..read his page.. for good laughs! rorytmeadows-=[TruRaters]=-@ fubar

Adam, The Missing Link
Marshall Klarfeld’s groundbreaking new book, “ADAM, THE MISSING LINK,” blows the lid off a closely-held package of historical and scientific facts proving that the human race was created by genetic engineering technology nearly a quarter of a million years ago. “This is the biggest news story of the century,” says Klarfeld, an engineer-turned-investigative researcher. “Once the public has seen the facts they can’t help but accept our history as descendants of extraterrestrial visitors. The evidence is overwhelming and irrefutable.” “ADAM, THE MISSING LINK” tells of mankind’s creation by an extraordinary species that occupied planet Earth 450,000 years ago. The book is complete with 145 photographs of the symbols and accomplishments of this highly advanced civilization, that makes Klarfeld’s new book a spellbinding and ultimately convincing account of non-fiction. “The artifacts left on earth are convincing evidence of this enormously intelligent species and their many accomplishm

Weeweechu To Cute!
It's a romantic full moon, when Pedro said, 'Hey, mamacita, let's do Weeweechu.' Oh no, not now, let's look at the moon!' said Rosita. Oh, c'mon baby, let's you and I do Weeweechu. I love you and it's the perfect time,' Pedro begged. 'But I wanna just hold your hand and watch the moon.' replied Rosita. Please, corazoncito, just once, do Weeweechu with me.' Rosita looked at Pedro and said, 'OK, one time, we'll do Weeweechu.' Pedro grabbed his guitar and they both sang..... 'Weeweechu a Merry Chris tmas, Weeweechu a Merry Chris tmas, Weeweechu a Merry Chris tmas, and a Happy New Year!

Tribute To Mike Holmgren
as soon as i get the sound working on this comp i will post a tribute i found on you tube. lets get to it shall we . we won over the jets yesterday at qwest feild this game was the last home game for our beloved mike holmgren it was a good win and the players played with so much heart and soul winning one at home for there coach. as they battled the jets in below freezing temps announcers amazed at the fan turn out and the energy the players had.. saying we had nothing to play for play off hopes dead etc its not over till its over and the players took the feild one last time with coach at home as his wife raised the 12th man flag one last time.. mike holgren has been with us for 10 years never being fired from any appointment to any team. he is the best coach the seahawk franchise has ever had.. we thank you mike for all the years the sacrifice.... the best coach ever! now enjoy your break and have fun and maybe someday youll come back to us you will be so missed and

2009 Virgo Horoscope
2009 Virgo Horoscope Spinning Straw into Gold Have you been spooked by all the dire predictions about the world economy? Even you may be surprised at their effect on you. Determined to succeed in spite of it all, you'll be motivated to work even harder than you usually do so as to avoid any unsettling setbacks due to circumstances beyond your control. At midnight on New Year's Day, there will be five planets – the Sun, Mercury, Mars, Jupiter, and Pluto – all in Capricorn, connecting beautifully with your Natal Sun as well as with transiting Saturn in Virgo. This foreshadows a very successful year career-wise and the financial rewards that usually come with such accomplishments.

Christmas
Sorry been busy alot lately. Hopefully by end of next month I will be able to chat more. A few have asked what I got for christmas..but not here long enough to really type it out to everyone. Anyways.. got quilt.. clothes..some perfume..bathrugs..a gift card for krogers(Which I liked..since moneys gonna be tight for few weeks)..plus some money. Thats about it. We got up at 640..did Christmas here..then went to inlaws..930 to 1240.. came home ..rested for 1/2 hour before my mom and dad showed up..which was unexpected. Usually we go there. They were stopping in to do it here..since they were on there way to see my uncle. My uncle is doing worst..hes home with hospice now. Think he probbly only weighs 100 lbs now. Not sure how much longer he can keep going. All I was thinking about lastnight for a hour was how can there be such a disease..to make a person suffer like this. After mom left..went to work..from 3 to 730. Got to leave early. Anyways..that about sums it up. Happy Ho

Let Me Sleep Longer
I woke up this morning after a night of having no dreams that I could remember. I opened my eyes to see your face just inches from mine. Your head was resting on my extended arm. I had no idea how I got here. I was not in my own bed. I could not remember anything of the night before. Your eyes were closed. Peacefulness radiated with a glow from your face. All I could see was from your neck up. I assume the sheets covered the rest of your body as I didn't look down. I lay there several minutes admiring you and absorbing your glow as I tried to remember what events could have lead to this awakening pleasure. Just as I was thinking about getting up and letting you sleep your eyes fluttered slightly and slowly opened. You simply looked into my eyes then a smile seemed to rise on your lips like the sun coming up. The warmth of your look filled my body and softened my soul. I reached up and gently traced your face with my finger tips. Pushing back your hair from the sides of your cheeks

Death Of An Innocent
To those who have ever chosen to drink and get behind the wheel of a car.... read this.... and maybe next time you will think before you do that...before you make the decision to take someone elses life into your hands. Death of an Innocent I went to a party, Mom, I remembered what you said. You told me not to drink, Mom, So I drank soda instead. I really felt proud inside, Mom, The way you said I would. I didn't drink and drive, Mom, Even though the others said I should. I know I did the right thing, Mom, I know you are always right. Now the party is finally ending, Mom, As everyone is driving out of sight. As I got into my car, Mom, I knew I'd get home in one piece. Because of the way you raised me, So responsible and sweet. I started to drive away, Mom, But as I pulled out into the road, The other car didn't see me, Mom, And hit me like a load. As I lay there on the pavement, Mom, I hear the policeman say, "The other guy is drunk," Mom, A

Application For Staff Position
APPLICATION INFO FOR Position @ Aphrodites Wet & Wild Bar : All applications will be considered for hiring and approval, THANK YOU. WE ARE LOOKING FOR HEAD GREETER,BARTENDERS,ASST.MANAGER,ASST. PROMOTER, ENFORCERS, GREETERS YOUR FUBAR Screen NAME: FIRST NAME or NICK NAME: POSITION OR POSITIONS YOU ARE APPLYING FOR: OTHER LOUNGES YOU ARE CURRENTLY WORKING FOR: FIRST DAY YOU ARE AVAILABLE TO START WORK: Your Schedule HOURS AVAILABLE Mon. - Sun. Monday: Tuesday: Wensday: Thursday: Friday: Saturday: Sunday:

Tbr Auction!!
Join The First Ace Cafe Terror Brothers Radio Fubuck / Gift Auction! Auctionees will be pimped out on ACE lounge bulletins regularly throughout the auction and the auction will be shouted out in the lounge by the DJ's Contact Terror Brothers Radio For More Details, Click The Pic Below! Auction Information *25K entry fee, Minimum start bid 100k *send entry fee, picture link, and what you want to offer to TBR in private message *NO DRAMA - this is cause for immediate removal and blockage *ACE Cafe and TBR are not responsible for non-payers. If the winning bidder does not pay the runner up will be notified. Auction starts: Starts - 24th Jan Ends - 31st Jan 5pm EST Date May Change If Not Enough Entrys Ace And Tbr Will Not Promote Individual People, We Will Put Out Bulletins With Everyone Included. Sponsored By The Ace Cafe And Terror Brothers Radio

C H E E R S !
Wow, I love this site. The old saying is "I'm not an alcoholic, they go to meetings. Drunks go to bars." Now this is some bar alright, lots of friends, fans and sharing pics and drinks. DRAMA FREE. Gonna miss you all but this long 4 day weekend I get to spend it with my 9 year old baby girl. Enjoy and behave yourselves. xoxox Sophie

Friendship
ok this is just something i have been thinking about alot lately.... Alot of people knows its not easy making friends,but over the weeks/days/months you actually learn about them.Not everyone is judging another person.To me friends is someone that i look fwd 2 seeing when i come around to see them, get a phone call, letter or even when u see them come online. Im not the one to judge anyone unless they are passing judgments against me.Learn about your true friends and you might actually like what you see, hear or read about them.I love making knew friends and those who know me,knows how i cherish my friendship.

To Love A Borderline 2
Stay the hell away from these people they will only bring you down. It's always the same. They go from being extremely caring and loving to hating you within seconds. They wont show there true side of who they really are until they have you hooked and emotional attachments are formed. Once they know they have you the madness begins. They will rage at you for no reason, be abusive, want nothing to do with you, become extremely clingy, and smear campaign you to everyone. The relationships never work out because ultimately you are their trigger. Infact borderlines behaviors get worse when they enter a relationship. These people can never keep it together, as hard as they try to act normal they can not sustain it for any reason. Infact.. Normal is very scary to them.. How to Spot a Borderline? They will tell you they love you within 2 weeks They will tell you their darkest secrets very fast They will put you a pedestal and idealize you They will force a bond very fast that d

Growing Old
Growing Old Growing old with you is a dream I long for to wake each morning to see you there the rise and fal of your bosom as you take each breath watching over you as you sleep more peaceful then ever before and as you wake to be the first thing you see to see you smile to kiss you and say "I love you" all this I long for for that is my dream to be with you. Christopher Wayne Rhea Copyright ©2009 Christopher Wayne Rhea

Emotion Codes
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Beautiful Xo Is In A Contest....
Beautiful XO is in a contest....please go by her profile and check out her blog...thank you xoxo *~beautifuL XO~ ஐ*ღDangerous Curves Memberღ* aka •°o.O ªmªñÐª O.o°•@ fubar

Lemon Tart With Strawberries Recipe
* Active Time: 35 minutes * Total Time: 1 hour 30 minutes INGREDIENTS Tart Shell 1 1⁄4 cups all-purpose flour 1⁄4 cup confectioners’ sugar 1 Tbsp fresh rosemary leaves 1⁄4 tsp salt 1 stick (1⁄2 cup) cold unsalted butter, cut into pieces 1 large egg yolk mixed with 1 Tbsp water Lemon Filling 1 (14 oz) can sweetened condensed milk 5 large egg yolks 2 tsp grated lemon zest 1⁄2 cup lemon juice Decoration: 12 strawberries, hulled and halved PREPARATION 1. Tart Shell: In food processor, combine flour, sugar, rosemary and salt; pulse until rosemary is finely chopped. Add butter; pulse until coarse crumbs form. Pour yolk mixture over crumbs; process until dough forms a ball. Press onto bottom and sides of a 9-in. tart pan with removable bottom. Place in freezer 15 minutes. 2. Heat oven to 375°F. Line tart shell with nonstick f

What Happened Last Night?
I'm seriously asking what happened on here last night..if anything. I wasn't feeling well at all yesterday, and after working, I felt worse. I ate my dinner around 6:30 and thought to myself, 'I'll just take a little nap'. That didn't happen, I ended up sleeping until 9 this morning. Yes, that's only 8 minutes ago. I still feel like crap and feel like I could go back to sleep, but I'm not going to do that. I think I got enough sleep to last me days. What I really need to do is cough really good. Right now I'm coughing but it's like I can't ever cough hard enough. Still feels like I have something stuck in it. [sigh] I also think I should go make some coffee and then take my medicine. I'm suppose to take it twice a day, but seeing as I slept most of yesterday, I only took it once.I love you She-ra!!!♥

Auto 11s Contest Round 2
Hello my fu friends I'm in a auto 11 contest and I need your help if you could drop by and rate my pic for me I'll even pay you 1000k for one rate. Private Message me for the payment. So if you could come by and give me just 1 rate that would be awesome! Thanks Click The Pic Below To Rate My Pic!!! While you are there plz F/A/R The Sexy Hostess Your Sexy Hostess:PebblesinAZ...Owned by Dragon Master...FAN ME, RATE ME, ADD ME Bully Brought 2 You By:♥SinfulBrat♥ RLW2 BigDaddy + Owned By Sayhey2008

Why God Made Moms !
WHY GOD MADE MOMS Answers given by 2nd grade school children to the following questions: Why did God make mothers? 1. She's the only one who knows where the scotch tape is. 2. Mostly to clean the house. 3. To help us out of there when we were getting born. How did God make mothers? 1. He used dirt, just like for the rest of us. 2. Magic plus super powers and a lot of stirring. 3. God made my Mom just the same like he made me. He just used bigger parts. What ingredients are mothers made of ? 1. God makes mothers out of clouds and angel hair and everything nice in the world and one dab of mean. 2. They had to get their start from men's bones. Then they mostly use string, I think. Why did God give you your mother and not some other mom? 1. We're related. 2. God knew she likes me a lot more than other people's moms like me. What kind of little girl was your mom? 1. My Mom has always been my mom and none of that other stuff. 2. I don't

Softball
Junior Krista Sitka went 2-for-3 with a run scored on Wednesday in leading UTSA to a three-game SLC season-opening sweep at Texas A&M-Corpus Christi. CORPUS CHRISTI — Sophomore Danyé Holmes tossed five scoreless innings for her fourth straight win and junior Krista Sitka went 2-for-3 with a run, as UTSA completed a Southland Conference series sweep of Texas A&M-Corpus Christi with a 6-1 victory on Wednesday at Chapman Field. The Roadrunners improved to 8-7 overall with the sweep, marking the third 3-0 league start in the last six seasons and the first since 2006. The Islanders fell to 7-11 and 0-3. A day after tossing a complete-game shutout in the series opener, Holmes struck out three and carried a no-hitter into the fifth inning in running her record to 4-2 on the season. The Sugar Land native allowed the lone hit, a single by Sandy Schumann with one out in the fifth, and one walk in extending her scoreless innings streak to 19 and 2/3. Sitka had two of UTSA’s three hit

My First Blog On My Birthday
Not mush to really say. But thank you to all my friends and Fubudd's for the Bday wishes. And the growing fun i'm having on Fu. Have met alot of great people on here and hope to meet alot more. So feeel free to stop in a drop my a line. Or bling or blast. LOL. But I you do stop in at least Rate me and Date me and say HI BIL. Thank you and have a great day.

Time To Fire Up The Grill?
A married couple is working in the back yard one Sunday. She's working her flower beds, and he's cleaning the grill. While scrubbing the grill, he looks over at her ass, then back at the grill, then back at her ass. Finally he says, "Hey hon, ya' know your ass is as big as this grill." Naturally, her feelings were hurt, but to her credit, she said nothing, just kept working. Later that night as they lay in bed, he began to feel "Frisky". So he moves closer to her. She moves away. He moves closer again. Again she moves away. Finally, he asks, "Whats wrong with you?" She responded, "Surely you don't think I'm going to fire up this grill for one little weenie do you?"

My Owner...luv Him Lots!!!
Show Him Lots Of Luv!! *Teddy Bear Beer Hunter *Spanker* Proud Owner of Make Me Be Good!!@ fubar Brought to U by Me: ® ♕ Make me be good! ♕..Proudly Owned By Teddy Bear Beer Hunter@ fubar

Lets Get Level!!
LET'S GET THESE 2 LEVELED THEY HAVE AUTO 11'S ON HH HOSTESS TO DISCIPLE ღ JoJo ღ@ fubar GIVE HIM HIS HORNS!! ^ ^ ♥♥§è×ý ßåbý ßlµè Êýè$ ™©**CAPTAIN of the CONFEDERATE BOMBERS@ fubar

Ash Ash Baby ...
YO VIP THAT BITCHLET Ash Ash baby Ash Ash baby All right stop celebrate and listen Ash's birthday this day should be bitchin some day I will grab hold of her tightly show I love her being a fool daily and nightly will she ever stop Yo I dont know turn on the light and she'll glow shes so extreme she rocks like a vandal she will up stage will wax any chump like a candle dances thru mumms can speaks her doom killing lame brains who are acting like goons deadly game she plays to her own melody hey speaking the truth isn't a felony love her or leave her then your just dead weight you better hits bulls eye or the bitch wont play there's a problem Yo she'll solve it watch her right hook or your head be revolvin Ash Ash baby Ash Ash baby Ash Ash baby Ash Ash baby Now lets get her party jumpin with the mummers kicked in and some tunes pumpin quick give her points for the points shes a shakin she's shaking her ass like a pound of bacon

St. Patty's Day Real History
Today, folks all over will wear green and hoist a pint in honor of "Saint" Patrick (who was never actually canonized a saint, btw). But if you ask them about the man they celebrate, they actually know very little. "Didn't he drive the snakes out of Ireland?" Well, not literally. In fact, snakes are not, nor have they ever been, indigenous to Ireland. ST. PATRICK & THE DRUIDS OF IRELAND Patrick was a Christian priest whose job it was to convert the population of Ireland to Christianity.. The Druids, however, stood in his way. The Druids were very important people in Ireland at that time, and their symbol was the Snake of Wisdom. Druids could be priests of the old religion of Ireland, but there were also much more. One part of the Druid class were the "Bards", whose job it was to remember all of the history of the people, as well as to record current events. Because the Irish Celts did not rely on a written language, everything had to be memorized. Bards were poets and musician

Disappearance
If I happen to one day just disappear for awhile, it will be because of problems on the home front. Those of you that know me well, know that I have been staying at my mom's since I came back from Germany. The whole ordeal was suppose to be for 3 months and now its been a year and 3 months. It is causing problems for them, I am constantly hearing them fight although I stay in my room most of the time. Today she reminded me again (it's a daily thing) that my 3 months were up a long time ago. She said I need to start saving my money (what $$?) for a place to live or to find someone looking for a roommate. She said that her husband is talking a ridiculous amount of rent he wants to charge me, but didn't say the amount. They are fighting constantly, although their bedroom is below mine I hear the constant raised voices. Friday, I have an appointment for my wrist to see if I get on medical. If I do, I will get a very very little grant for the short time I am on the medical. But if I n

You Can't Use The Force On This One, Baby
Sometimes ask why why, want to die? I want to die If I could I would not now "Don't do that" Why not? sexless or not, insides scraped out I am a basic skeleton of disgust you already hate me I die always in you you won't mind It will be beautiful.....

My Kinda Riddle
If a canoe walks by and four doors fall off, how many pancakes will it take to cover a doghouse in the middle of summer? Just keep this in mind the next time someone says that there is no such thing as a stupid question....

Georgia: It Only Took 22 Minutes
Despite an ignorant and mouthy defense attorney who thought it would be a good idea to attack us rather than defend his actual client, a jury took only 22 minutes to convict Reymundo Anguiano on both counts he faced. Reymundo was then immediately sentenced to seven years in prison with eight years of probation.The defense attorney, who our operatives that were in court testifying described as looking like "a cross between Yoda and a puffed-up frog", had attempted to smear our reputation and our work, to try to make the jury dislike what we do. He went on and on with the same old bluster. The jury was intelligent enough not to bother with the idiotic ramblings of the defense attorney and saw that his client was a dangerous sexual predator.There are now only two cases remaining from the Georgia sting. It will be interesting to see if those juries manage to break the speed record of the Anguiano jury on reaching the same verdict. The Anguiano log will be posted in the coming weeks as we c

I Found This Amusing.
Love is the same as like except you feel sexier. And more romantic. And also more annoyed when he talks with his mouth full. And you also resent it more when he interrupts you. And you also respect him less when he shows any weakness. And furthermore, when you ask him to pick you up at the airport and he tells you he can't do it because he's busy, it's only when you love him that you hate him. Judith Viorst

Can't Sleep
I can't sleep. There are so many things running through my head. Thinking about the person I am, the person I have become through the years. Things have changed so much, made me hard. Makes me wish for the days before the heartache, before the struggles, before the betrayals. I used to be so carefree, fun loving. How do you get those days back? How do you meet new people without wondering what their hidden agenda is? How do you trust when that trust you used to give freely and openly has been betrayed over and over? Friends come and gone, lovers come and gone. How do you know when a true friend comes along? One who will be there through thick and thin, not just for the fun times. I am tired of the bullshit. There is no room for it in my life.

Nosey Ppl
i'm sick of every one sticking their noses in my business ok i have moved on and i am doing fucking wonderful so if u are the type of person who want to dictate to me how i should live my life u should leave me alone and try living ur own first

Fuck-a-ma-fuckin-bitch
I hate shopping, even at the best of times. By 'best of times', I mean when you can go to a 24 hour supermarket in the dead of night where there is nobody around to piss you off, and you dont have to wait a week to get served at a checkout. SO, when I am forced to go shopping at peak time on a Saturday afternoon, things soon start getting heated. Behind the wheel of a car, I consider myself to be level headed, clear of mind, and rational. Put me behind a buggy, and I make Fidel Castro look like Mother Teresa. Supermarkets piss me off beyond belief. Big time. I'm 99 percent certain, that in some god forsaken hell pocket of society, they breed people purely for the purpose of annoying other shoppers. These creatures are nurtured and trained to meander around shopping malls in trance like states, waiting to strike you with their customized buggies that are designed for maximum shin-scraping pain. These people can stand in the dairy aisle for hours on end, picking up boxes of butter, readi

My New Special Friend
http://www.fubar.com/user/2206180 Read From The Bottom Up As Always ->ASSPAIN !!: your fun->ASSPAIN !!: GENIUS! why didn't i think of that?! oh wait maybe because the 99c store tacks on taxes so its not actually 99cASSPAIN !!: @ LAST WORDS...99C store->ASSPAIN !!: awww your special and my mom told me to be nice to the special peopleASSPAIN !!: WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU CONSIDERED BATHING?->ASSPAIN !!: that all you can come up with?ASSPAIN !!: ALSO...YOU NEED TO GET SOME FEMININE HYGIENE PRODUCTS,AS YOUR HOLES ALL SMELL OF MOLD AND MILDEW->ASSPAIN !!: you think your opinion matters->ASSPAIN !!: awwww thats cuteASSPAIN !!: HEY! YO!,AND WELCOME TO FUBAR AND YOUR FIRST FEW POINTS!! JUST MAKE SURE YOU MAKE IT A HABIT TO KEEP YOUR "TITS",COVERED UP,NOBODY HERE REALLY NEEDS TO SEE THAT KIND OF THING HERE,

Till The End
there so much going wrong. you cant make anyone happy. you cant find happyness with in you. nothing but pain. you ask why. no one ansewer's. you try to move on. but there no point. you have dreams. of a better life. you never see that happen. your trying but nothing works out. you live for a reason that's in you. that makes you smile everyday. you spend your life. in darkness. thats all you know. where yourself is happy. the most. what more can you do. except live one day at a time. intill your time is up. the end.

Dj Schedule For Week Of 5/20 - 5/24
Hey everyone-just wanna apologize for the schedule gettin out so late-we have been busy doing special shows the last few days! We want to thank everyone for all their love and support to Bada Bing! If any changes need to be made for the schedule pls let Queeny or Bounty know...thanks again for everyones support! Hope you all have a great Memorial Day weekend and ty to those who serve and who have served in our military-we love you! Much Big Love! Wednesday Bounty (8pm est - 12 am est) Sexy Humpday Party PET (12am est - 3am est ??) Humpday Thursday Bounty (7pm est - 12am est) DOUBLESHOT Darth (12am est - 3am est) Friday PET (7pm est - 11pm est) TGIF Jam Darth (11pm est - 3am est) TGIF Saturday Bounty ( 8pm est - 12am est) Slammin Show Darth ( 12am est - 3am est) Sunday Queeny ( 8pm est - 11pm est) Chillaxin PET ( 11pm est - ????)

Do You Wanna Cum Play With My Feet?
Saturday, June 27th 2009 2pm - 8pmFoot Party Hawaiian Luau! Get ready, it's back by popular demand, and this will be bigger and better then ever!! As we bring the hottest ladies in Tampa for another hot Foot Party Saturday June 27th 2pm - 8pm ! In addition, bringing you one hot theme party with our first annual Hawaiian Luau Foot Party! If you have never been to a Foot Party at Club Elite these have been the biggest and best turnouts yet! With so many hot new ladies joining each party it's sure has become the hottest event I have ever seen…woohooo! YOU DO NOT WANT TOMISS THIS ONE! Tonight we will be having our sexy ladies dressed up inthere most sexy Hawaiian outfits and beach sandals. And yes guys we know you have one ofthose Hawaiian shirts sitting in the dresser or hanging up and a pairof them flower swimming trunks you are just waiting for perfect Night tosport around in and finally get some use out of them...hahaha.Therefore, this event is not just for the ladies to

Because Dating Sucks
Yes, I know it and you know it. Two people enter with hopes raised, into forced conversation and awkward exchanges. You try. You try again. Then out of the blue, there it is... somone who "gets" your silly jokes, and snaps right back with their own, which you actually think are funny too. A glance.. eyes connect. Conversation last for hours.. where did the night go? I call you up for a spontaneous outing.. and of course, You say yes. It's really great that we can laugh at that.. I didn't think anyone else thought that was as funny as I do. Drinking a few too many beers, and spending the evening spilling secrets.. only to laugh about it all later. Remember that time the car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere, and we had to walk back to civilization? You know.. when we really learned to love/hate each other walking on that warm summer night? Remember strolling downtown at Christmas with the flurry of snow swirling all around us? Yeah, so I saved the little piece of wisdom from that

You Know My Name....
its a stealer of joy from time to time, its a thief of desires, and hope what is it? it's depression and I may be suffering from a comorbid symptom related to the ADHD I have...I just have to find out..

Private Pics
Well im letting all you guys know that to view my PRIVATE pic folder you got to be in my family, and either buy me a vip, auto 11 bling or a cherry bomb bling, i WILL NOT just let anybody view my private pics sorry but thats how it goes thanks nikki If you sb me and ask to see my folder then you will be ignored

David Carradine Died??
My Dad used to watch him in the kung fu series when I was a kid.:D I can't believe at 72 he has left this world.:( Life is rather odd. No other thoughts at this time. No biography info.... sorry I'll leave that to Highwaysong.;)

~*dear Mr. President *~
Dear Mr. President Come take a walk with me Let's pretend we're just two people and You're not better than me I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep What do you feel when you look in the mirror Are you proud How do you sleep while the rest of us cry How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye How do you walk with your head held high Can you even look me in the eye And tell me why Dear Mr. President Were you a lonely boy Are you a lonely boy Are you a lonely boy How can you say No child is left behind We're not dumb and we're not blind They're all sitting in your cells While you pave the road to hell What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay I can only imagine what the first lady has to say You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine

They Say.
Darkness engulfs me,No light to be seen,No sense of reason to be,Craving for death like a feign,You left with no notice,Taking my heart with you,My picture on life is out of focus, The words it will get easier becomes more untrue.Some say it was for the best,Some say it seems so cruel,I sit at the place you lay at rest,Anger rises inside me like a fuel.They say God has a reason for everything,That he don't place more on us than we can handle,Then why can't I bare this suffering?Why does tears flow down like water from a ladle?He was wanting a family,He was straighting his life up so fast,God who we cry upon faithly,Gripped all his dreams and shattered them in a grasp.All I know,and all I can say,this is the pain that has been sowed,If I can keep faith; save me a spot beside you for that day. ღ Dedicated to my brother. I miss you bubby. ღ

Reading, Playing, And Anal
Reading, Playing, and Anal You caught me enjoying another one of my favorite past time hobbies, Reading. As I am reading I start to feel the urge to run my hands all over my soft luscious body. Before I knew it I had my soft satin cami and panties off. Running my blue toy over my perky nipples brought tingling throughout my entire body. Vibrating in and out of my wet pink pussy. It made me cum so hard you can see it all over the blue shaft. My big round ass was wanting some attention as well. So I shoved my cum covered toy deep in my tight ass. Bringing myself to a satisfying orgasm. In the member's playground there are closeup of my wet pussy and tight asshole, with and without the toy. There are over 10,000 photos and 97 video clips in my member's playground. I also have 35 videos with many more in the works. XOXO Love XOXO Exotic Flame-- Hugs and KissesExotic Flamehttp://www.southern-charms4.com/exoticflame/main.htm

F'd Up Month
so this month has been rather f'd in the a. My other car gets repoed, had to replace my fuel pump and two of my cloest friends suffered deaths i their families. One being like a second mom to me. fucked up month indeed.

Akikan!
ok so i was wandering around the net, and came across another funny-as-hell anime (in my opinion of course). Name's "Akikan"! I am still watching it, but so far it's about a bachelor student who finds a special soda can that turned into a magical girl when he took a sip... and ever since that day, his life is gone to chaos.

Friends Of Fu What To Do
never done a blog doing it here cause most of my real life people are not here and things may get to where they dont need to go a good friend well brother got married on the 20th on june my gf has been real clingy in the 5 weeks of planning said wedding talking of us getting married and kids i still dont really want either we have an open relationship we swing togrther too but lately i want to go fuck something other than her just ram this poor woman get out frustrations of the nice and cuddly gf since she is being all cuddly i dont know how to tell her i want to have a play weekend we have the open relation ship but she still gets jellious that im going to leve her witch i dont want to do i love her i just dont want marrage or kids when we started this relationship she said she would never get married again but she REALLY wants kids being uneployed and the house we want to sell being foreclosed on cause fucken nicor shut power off in dec cause they claimed they did not know where

Men
For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free. Here's an update for you: Now days, 80% of women are against marriage, WHY? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage. ------------------------------------------ 1. Men are like ..Laxatives ..... They irritate the crap out of you. 2. Men are like.Bananas . The older they get, the less firm they are. 3. Men are like Weather . Nothing can be done to change them.

Presión En Mi Vida
The air around me suffocates, it mask away my pain. My senses tell me something’s wrong but things appear the same. The sin that sits within me, it tears my soul in two. I look for refuge; but find myself abandoned by YOU! I feel so bitter, so consumed, I can feel the rage! I can’t distinguish love from hate. These tears they dangle from my chin and my emotions feel like stone. Your words they inflict a pain upon my heart. That I can’t sway alone. There was a time you and I; were chasing down our fate. Our first kiss it felt justifiable, each other’s arms a perfect escape. Now I find myself in tears, alone into the darkest nights.

Am I Ever Going To Come Out Of This?
In the past month things have been pretty fucked up for me. I have lost my Job, My house, My laptop, my friends, and some of my family.Most of the people who said "I will be there for you." left. Im running out of reasons to keep going. Right now my main reason are my bosses. They have taken me in during my time of need and proved to e tht good people are still out there. I am apprenticing in their tattoo shop. I Love it. I cant wait to finish my apprenticship so i can tattoo and do something I love for the rest of my life. At least i have a man in my life i love with all of my heart and soul. Grant i love you, and cant wait for you to get here so we can be together. Well thats enough of a rant for me this morning, im sure there will be more to come tonight :) Have a good day everyone.

Revenge
I sit in the dark corner of your mind waiting, waiting till i can savor the delicious moment of your demise.You locked me away , so long go but you never forgot me you never forgot your dark past and i'll never let you forget it.You tortured and brutalized me for years till you one day my body was lifeless and i was no more.You killed my spirit,my soul and my love but as sit here i countdown the days till im relased from my internal prison and able to get my revenge.The day i am freed from this hell you will know what it is like to be a murdered soul living amoung the lonely and deprived.You will know my pain just give it time.

Pre-booty Call Agreement (feel Free To Fill This Out)
PRE-BOOTY CALL AGREEMENT This pre-booty call agreement (hereinafter referred to as the "Agreement") is entered into on the day of_____ , 2009, by , between________ and__________ . THIS AGREEMENT SHALL COVER THE FOLLOWING RULES AND PRINCIPLES: No sleeping over - unless it is very good and we need to repeat it in the morning. No meeting in public except for dinner or drinks before the events of the evening No calls before 9 PM - we don't have shit to talk about. None of that "lovemaking" shit - only sex allowed. No emotional discussions (i.e. Where are we heading with this? Do you love me?) Theanswer is no, so don't ask. No plans made in advance - that is why you are called the "backup," unless you arefrom out-of-town, then it's only a one-time advanced arrangement. No calling each other "friends with privileges" we are not friends, just sex buddies. Calling out the wrong name during sex is OK - don't be offended. No extra clothing - I don't want your ass leaving

Gone
well i just want to let my close friends know i wont be on much anymore i need to get a break from this place and try and get my real life together it seems to have all fallin apart... but slowly comin back together ... ya win some you loose some... and all dark hidden things will come to the light in time ya know but anyways those of you who i hold dear to my heart have my number and ya always know i love you all but there isnt anything really keeping me here anymore... it gets old looking at a screen and not talking or doing anything because you have no desire to be here... i will check in from time to time or i may get a wild hair and just stay but as of this moment i am gone... remember to live , laugh , and love love always tab

Thinking Of You
I sat there in deep thought with no cares of what was going on around me. People moved about, like fast forward in a movie All I wanted was to be with you one last time. I wanted to here you laugh, tell me im making to much of it I wanted to know that I can walk thru your door and your right there. But when I walked thru your door, it was dark, sad, empty. You weren't sitting at the table, reading your books, You weren't there when I sat in tears wishing you were still with me. They say time heals all wounds. Why hasnt this healed?? Why does my heart ache every time, I think of you. Why did it happen to you, you were stronger then any of us. You laughed at us all when we made a big deal out of everything. You had such strength in you, that it flowed of onto all of us. What am I gonna do Ma? This hole in my heart aches. I miss you more then anything, and I wish it wasnt this way. RIP MA

Poem
I Love YouWith my every breath,With all I have left,From the deepest depths,Of my heart, I love you.With all of my strength,With a thousand miles' length,Every thought I think,I think that I love you.For the length of forever,As long as we're together,Through good and bad weather,For always, I love you.When no one is there,When you think no one cares,When love seems too rare,Remember, I love you.When everything's gone,When all has withdrawn,When hopelessness dawns,Don't forget, I love you.When you fall down,When your dreams come unwound,When hope can't be found,Be happy, I love you.When you make mistakes,When you're filled with hate,When you're old and gray,Even then, I'll love you.Until the very end of days,Until God takes my breath away,Until death separates our ways,Even after then, I will always love you.

Just Some Thoughts....
Am I living in a fantasy world? Do I need to give up hope? Am I the only one whose toes curled? In the end will I look for a rope? These are questions I ask each day when doubts cross my mind. But all I can do is hope and pray that one day your heart will be mine. After such a brief time with you I miss all of the simple things. I will name just a few since each time I think of them my heart sings. I miss looking into your eyes so deep and knowing that you really care. Your tongue against mine in a gentle sweep while running my fingers through your hair. I miss the steady beat of your heart so strong as I laid my head on your chest. I miss the feeling that nothing could go wrong since you had me feeling my best. I miss your voice as you whisper my name and tell me the things you want to do. I miss feeling it in your touch that this is not a game and hope our feelings we continue to pursue. I know you're not perfect, but I hope you know I trul

God Bless America
YES, I'M A BAD AMERICAN I Am the Liberal-Progressives Worst Nightmare.. I am an American. I am a Master Mason and believe in God. I ride Harley Davidson Motorcycles and believe in American products.. I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some Liberal governmental functionary be it Democratic or Republican! I'm in touch with my feelings and I like it that way! I think owning a gun doesn't make you a killer, it makes you a smart American. I think being a minority does not make you noble or victimized, and does not entitle you to anything. Get over it! I believe that if you are selling me a Big Mac, do it in English. I believe everyone has a right to pray to his or her God when and where they want to. My heroes

I'm In A Contest! Please Help!!!
Hi All! I've entered myself in DJ Wild's "Sexiest Men in Fu" contest, and I could really use everybody's help! Let me know if you stop by and vote for me, and I'll be sure to drop by and give you some thank you rates! :)

5 Factor Personality Test
You are Extroverted, Agreeable, Neurotic and Open Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go"! Conscientiousness: You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have high neuroticism. It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed. You often worry, and your worries preve

A Hot Taste
You whisper into my earSweet things that make me weak,Then you look into my eyesWith your mysterious provocative gaze,Causing you to touch my skin To feel the burning of your flames,Caressing me with a love that is real,Then you kiss me...As I feel your wet eager lips Our hungry tongues indulging in their craving,To feel the poison...Of your blood boiling throughout your soulSending electrify emotionsStimulating pure intoxication,As your hands flows over me;Touching every curve and every part of me...It seems I move my legs apart automatically,As you lift me on the mystical rideWhile my body you know I will guide,Just listen to our songMaking love all night long,The flames of passion, desire and loveIs taking control over us,You put your hands in my breast,As I feel a sensation so exciting,When you kiss my nipples with your eager lipsEvery time you do that,It gets more and more fulfillingLet me feel those sensations,As I feel you deep inside meFeeling a rage so incredible to resist,As

Life Lesson's
Do you ever look at your life and wonder how and the heck you got where you are and how life seems to sometimes be in slow motion and other times its like 5 years went by and you didn't even blink. i have to say that although i mite not always make the responible or best decision when it comes to my life i would not change a thing besides my mother dying of course but other than that i have meet so many cool people and experienced so much and really found out just who i am. Life is easy when things are goin smooth and it all just flows but who are you and what do you do when life throws punches at you and in times of trials. Martin Luther King once said "the ultimate measure of a man isnt where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." Sometimes things get out of wack and stuff happens out of your control and you are forced to endure the pain and push on. But i do believe everything happens for a reason and eve

Five Guides For Aoc Leveling
Recent 5 guides for AoC power levelingThe AoC players will be highlighting these lots in the coming weeks as these guides help convey a lot of new information on the game. These guides will cover the new changes to the systems including items, classes, gems, and many more! So if you're just getting back to the game and seeking some informative articles on how to utilize the best of the recent update then drop by ConanVault and check out the guides below:Systems• Itemization • Gems/Crafting • Stats & ParametersPlayfields• Tarantia Commons • Attilius Mansion (Inside Tarantia Commons) • Crows Nest (Inside Tarantia Commons)Classes• Demonologist • Guardian • Necromancer • Priest of Mitra • Tempest of SetThe players can find the full list of guides exclusively on ConanVault! They are helpful for the Age of Conan Power Leveling.

9/20/2009
BREAKFAST: Flatout - Light Italian Herb, 1 servingBanana, fresh, 0.5 large CARL BUDDIG, Smoked Sliced Turkey, light and dark meat, 1 packageFrench's Spicy Brown Mustard, 1 tspIceberg Lettuce (salad), 1 cup, shredded or choppedBanana Oatmeal Cookies RECIPE, 1 serving LUNCH: Cucumber (with peel), 3 cup slicesAthenos Greek Style Hummus, 0.5 tbspBaby Carrots, raw, 2 medium DINNER: Egg, fresh, 1 jumbo Apple juice, unsweetened, 7 fl oz Eggo Pancakes (3stack), 1 serving Sugar Free Syrup, 0.25 cup Blueberries, fresh, 0.5 cup Cheddar or Colby Cheese, Low Fat, 1 oz egg white, fresh, 1 large SNACKS: Cookie, Oatmeal Raisin, Home Recipe, 0.52 ozTums, 1 servingTortilla Chips, 1Salsa, 0.5 cupChewing gum, 2 stickApples, fresh, 1 small TOTALS: Calories:1,362 Carbs:206 Fat:41 Protein:51 THREE CUPS OF WATER -------------------------------------------------------- yeah so.. i had to do the tums for the calcium.. was way below.. sodium levels were high AGAIN.. i haven't had a good day with t

Except To My Comic Book :randell
He sat at his dinning room table looking at the blood on his hands in the dim light of the streetlight coming through the back window. Tears ran down his face slowly, pink trails creasing the blood that covered his face as well. What did he do? Where did her go? Whose blood was this, his, or worse yet someone else? Soft weeping gave way to loud sobs as he buried his face into his hands again. Looking through his bloody fingers, he could see that the clock on the wall read three am in its red digital glow amid the darkness of the room. The red, he thought, looked like the color of blood. This brought a new wave of sobbing muffled by his bloody palms. "Shut yer fuckin’ hole," pierced the darkness coming from the living room. Randle did not need to look through his fingers to know who it was. He knew it was the old man, the one who always insulted him, the one who always laughed at him, the one who always made fun of him. The one who calls himself Daddy. "Don’t talk to me

Stupid Haircut
last night I was reading in bed about 2 am. I heard the upstairs neighbors coming in from the bar. i have never met them but i am pretty sure there are about 20 of them. And they all weigh about 300 pounds. And they are part of a clog dance crew. And they also bowl in their living room. Also they like alternative rock and saying "wooooooooooooo" i guess one of the dance crew got left behind and he came stomping up the stairs a few minutes after the rest. Then i heard someone try and open my door. Of course it was locked so i just continued reading figuring he was to drunk to know where he was and would soon see his mistake. But he was too drunk to realize. So i sent baxter to the door to give ssome warning barks. But this guys was still too drunk so he started knocking. I got up and double checked the lock and put my eye to the peep hole. "may I help you?" i asked. "you can let me in!" he said swaying back in forth. "no" I laughed. "why not" he said a little annoyed. "Beca

Auction Time Come Bid On Me
SO I DECIDED AFTER A LOT OF CONVINCING ON SOMEONE'S PART NOT SAYING WHO UM COUGH COUGH TILA TO ENTER AN AUCTION. IT'S A ONE TIME THING NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN AGAIN SO WHY NOT TAKE THE TIME TO OWN ME FOR A MONTH. I MEAN COULD YOU REALLY GET ANYONE SWEETER THEN SUGA ;). LOVE YOU ALL AND THANKS IN ADVANCE.....O AND BY THE WAY THIS DOES INCLUDE FAMILY ACCESS, SOME BLING AND A PIMPOUT OR TWO ;). http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=1051450&albumid=1861833&i=3426695828&idx=12

Come On Over And Help Me To Show Some Luv And Comments To A Dear Friends New Pictures.
This blog is taken from Mistress of Wolves with her permission.. please read and follow the links ^_^ i don’t ask for help ever but i do ask that you be nice and share the love ^_^ Mistress of Wolves Art Sanctuary™@ fubar As some of you know he is working toards being a pro photographer. Last night was his first shoot at a burlesque club. I am asking my friends to please stop by (page link below) & rate a few of these. Please? It would mean the world to me. There's less than 50 pics there in all (just 43). Comments would really be appreciated too. Do this & I will come rate 100 of your pics. Just PM me you have done this. NonSemper_Aestas@ fubar

Lily Allen Says It Best
my friend benji had me listen to this song in his car yesterday, and now i'm smitten with it. i blogged it for the enjoyment of my friends. hope you giggle, like i did. if not.. too bad for you :)

Allegory Of The Cave, Part Vii
" I shall do so," he said, " with your help." " Do you then believe that dialectic is to be set as the coping-stone on top of our educational structure, and that we can rightly place no other science higher than this, but that our system of the sciences is now complete ? " " Indeed I do." XV. "Well then," I proceeded, "it only remains for you to determine the principle of distribution, to whom we shall assign these studies, and in what way we shall apportion them." "That is clear," he replied. " Do you remember what kind of men we selected when we were first choosing rulers ? " " Certainly I remember." " I would have you then further grant that men of the character we mentioned must be chosen, that we should prefer the staunchest, the bravest, and, as far as possible, the fairest. And, more than this, we must not only require them to be endowed with a noble and steadfast nature, but also to possess traits which are suitable to the education which we intend to give them." " What

The Idiots Return!.. Trucker0918
In a friend request.. WoW, so Sexy. I just rated your picture a 10 and added you to my friends. Please, I need your help in Fubar land. Please, Add me, Rate me, and Love me (I tryed). Thank you for your help. Peace be with you, and have a nice day. Jeff Riiight... As you'll know if you're in my friends list, I don't add anyone, because I don't collect friends. Anyone who takes the time to read at least a bit of my profile will obviously get the same in return, and even though I'm not on here too often anymore, I still talk to everyone in my friends when I am.. so asking to get rated/fanned whatever bollocks just to add someone else to your list really pisses me off. As for "help" on fubar, help with WHAT? The popularlity contest between you and the thousands of people you've never and most likely will never meet? Getting people to "rate" you based on a photograph so you can level, and get more photographs and bullshit.. so pointless. I came on here because a friend suggested i

Untitled
Passion of Love, Passion of Lust, Can one truly live without the other? With love comes emotionally turmoil: Love, Hate, Lust, etc... Why do we do this to ourselves? Can we not love without hate? Can we not love without the urges of lust? Does anyone truly know the differences between them? What is love really? Does it even really exist? Is there such a thing without the destructions that may come with it? hmmm I wonder....

Dont Leave Me All Alone
DONT LEAVE ME ALL ALONE ----------------------- Don't leave me all alone Desperate and lost Take down those walls arround me and help me come to you Let me be your companion Be the guide that will lead me Because i been on this journey for so long And so tired, come and realease me Take me back to your land Filled with music and dreams Lead me to your land Let me live in your clouds Dont leave me all alone Take my hand and show me The way that leads to you Help me this way to get to you Take me to your land Filled with music and dream

Never Fall Down
its a lonely place inside my head what can i do to get outta bed i sit alone here in my cell deeper and deeper i fall into hell is this real now or is this pretend can you hear me now just lend a hand hopin and prayin to find myself down on my knees i cry out to you chorus i need to look back at my life i need to follow to find my faith i need you jesus to come into my heart now more than ever i feel your love in me vs 2 its a lonely place inside my head what can i do to get outta bed i sit alone here in my cell deeper and deeper i fall into hell is this real now or is this pretend can you hear me now just lend a hand hopin and prayin to find myself down on my knees i cry out to you chorus i need to look back at my life i need to follow to find my faith i need you jesus to come into my heart now more than ever i feel your love in me bridge i will not fall down i will not give up i will not fall down i will not give up never will i go

Quantum Leap
So I've decided to start contributing to the fubar Blogging. I've been on here for a while now and never tried it. This is my first one, and right now all that's on my mind is how much I love a show from the late eighties and early ninetees. Does anyone else love Quantum Leap as much as I do? I have netflix, and I remembered loving it as a kid so i started watching it again from the begining. I'm hooked. It's cheesy at times but I think that's part of it's charm. Plus Scott Bakula in drag is hilarious. "OOh boy"

When I'm Gone
When I'm gone just carry on don't mourn rejoice every time u here my voice just know that I'm looking down on u smiling and I didn't feel a thing so baby do't feel no pain just smile back! I hate bein alone this shit sucks! Fuck a hater fuck a snitch!

Need Someone Close To Brownsville Tx
I need a small bit of help. I'm trying to find someone who is in or near Brownsville Tx. Who can do me a HUGE favor. I didn't get to Philidelphia quick enough. So I either need to find someone in Brownsville or fly there myself. There will be reward for what I need done. I need some one with a camera to take some pictures for me. It will be easy and not hard to do. This means a lot to me. So if you know anyone who can help let me know.

Online Poker Hot Tip!
I like online gambling and especially texas hold'em and specificly this site.It have articles, tips, advices, poker strategies and more free information! http://www.soulcast.com/texasholdemtip/

Just A Lil Banter!
Im sitting here being ooo soo lazy this AM or evening if you will and just have alot on my mind!!! lol i am not gonna sit here and try to catch my miss spells, or my punctuation. lol i am on IE not firefox so this could get ugly spelling wise!! those of u that know me well know my fingers are way faster than my brain!! I been sitting here looking through some pics from a friend that is stationed over in Afgan, as u will see in my pics i Uploaded a few of em!! Just yesterday i was fussin with my mom about the shoppin and the blah and the blah lol i just been really bah humbug this year, So i was getting ill with a few things on fubar and i decided look through the pics cus i had been meaning to do it!!!So i layed here and i really looked through those pics and I really let it sink in whats going on over there, ever since my cousin got killed in Iraq a few years back i have kinda blocked it out and some how managed to just pretend that its not going on till i came in contact with KW

The Broken Chain
We little knew that morning, that God was going to call your name. In life we loved you dearly, In death we do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone; for part of us went with you, the day God called you home. You left us peaceful memories your love is still our guide and though we cannot see you you are always at our side. Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same; but as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again. - author unknown

Hammerfall
I am broken now; a broken soul, my broken life a bottomless hole, a shattered dream that gives me hope: the hope to one day find those who broke me, so that I may pay them back in kind. They hide in shadows, plotting and scheming, and all the while the streets are teeming with bodies piled up so high, they’ll swallow us whole and blot out the sky, like mountains of gold that bury the bloody conscience. They shake your hand, and eye to eye, they smile broad to cover their lie, pretending you can’t feel the knife, the cold hard steel to end your life, pressed to your ribs like a lover’s lips, ready to steal your heart away. They took everything from me, so I will give them all that remains: my rage, my hate, my guilt, and my pain, my blood, my sweat, my deadly tears, so they may know what darkness fears. Like the scars earned from a misspent youth, my loaded gun will find its truth. Let the hammer fall.

Giving In
"Giving In" Will you, walk me To the edge again Shaking, lonely, and I am drinking again Woke up tonight and no one's here with me I'm giving in to you Take me under I'm giving in to you I'm dying tonight I'm giving in to you Watch me crumble I'm giving in to you I'm crying tonight I'm giving in to you Caught up, in life Losing all my friends Family has tried, to heal all my addictions Tragic it seems, to be alone again I'm giving in to you Take me under I'm giving in to you I'm dying tonight I'm giving in to you Watch me crumble I'm giving in to you I'm crying tonight I'm giving in to you (Oh fuck) I look forward, to dying tonight Drinks 'till I'm myself, life's harder every day The stress has got me I'm giving in Giving Giving in, NO! Take me under (I'm killing all the pain) I'm dying tonight (i'm sick of all this pain) Watch me crumble (I'm killing all the pain) I'm crying tonight I'm giving in to you Take me under I'm giving in to you I'm dying tonight I'm giving in to you

Devil In The Church
One Sunday morning, everyone in one bright, beautiful, tiny town got up early and went to the local church. Before the services started, the townspeople were sitting in their pews and talking about their lives, their families, etc. Suddenly, Satan appeared at the front of the church. Everyone started screaming and running for the front entrance, trampling each other in a frantic effort to get away from evil incarnate. Soon everyone was evacuated from the church, except for one elderly gentleman who sat calmly in his pew, not moving... seemingly oblivious to the fact that God's ultimate enemy was in his presence. Now this confused Satan a bit, so he walked up to the man and said, "Don't you know who I am?" The man replied, "Yep, sure do." Satan asked, "Aren't you afraid of me?" "Nope, sure ain't," said the man. Satan was a little perturbed at this and queried, "Why aren't you afraid of me?"

12 Signs You're In Love!
12 SIGNS THAT YOUR IN LOVE TWELVE:You walk really slow when you're with them. ELEVEN:You feel shy whenever they're around. TEN:You smile when you hear their voice. NINE:When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her. SEVEN:They're all you think about. SIX:You realize you're always smiling when you'relooking at them. FIVE:You would do anything just to see them. FOUR:While reading this, there was one person on yourmind this whole time. THREE:You just smiled because it's true.

Check This Place Out
are you looking for fun if so go to this bulletin and repost for details http://fubar.com/bulletins.php?b=446032674 am paying 40k to the next 20 people to come join we have a great selection of tunes and good people so come hang with us

Soul Groups
These basic ideas of past relationships and their present influences are not only true of individual relationships but also of group relationships. From the beginning our souls have tended to travel together in groups, and the very act of traveling together for such long periods creates forces of attraction that help to maintain and build on these group relationships. Nearly all souls on the planet today were together in past ages of human history. As a result, the relationships among the peoples of the world today are a reflection of their past activities with each other. The souls who came in to this planetary system and entered the realms of consciousness associated with this region of the cosmos comprise our largest soul group. This group can then

Hate Me
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again? and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? and will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things i didnt do for you Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opin

Save Me
As I put the razor to my skin,I feel the adrenalin,the pain is a sudden rush to me,as the blood falls to the floor I see my pain and worries disappearing.I hide my scars in fear of what you may say,but without you these scares will not exist.My love, my life, my reason I sit here and bleed.My smiles, my tears,my heart tares more and more.You deny your love, I deny my pain.The pain I feel when your not by my side.Some call it love I call it suicide.The razor can only go to deep,a person can only bleed so much,but the pain never ends.My nights are cold, my arms are empty The cuts cover up the pain,My smile covers up the hurt As you walk along to blind to see my hurt the days get harder the nights never seem to end I fake a smile and wipe my tears away I forget the truth. For when I am with you it feels so right. Without you I find myself lost and confused. Broken and torn. Kiss my pain away, Wipe away my blood filled tears, I long for you to save me

Confused...
Pray for me everyone. I'm soo confused about my husband right now its not even funny. When I met him in march I already had a son from a previous relationship. I ended up getting pregnant in May, with a baby girl. He moved down here at the end of June. We got married November 18th of last year. Had my baby girl December 8th. Everything was going great with us until he lost his job about 2 months ago. We have been staying with my mom. And he just basically quit caring all together about having a job. Our income tax came right about that time. So he's been just gung ho about staying at home. For the past 2 months, I have felt like I'm single with a roommate that just happens to the father of my baby girl and husband. Since he has moved in with us, he has not had to do dishes once, take out the trash or anything. I do all of this. All he does is Snooze all day till about 3-5pm. Wakes up, then logs onto World of Warcraft. Plays it all freaking night, pausing maybe twice if I insist he help

Yan Tan Tethera
Here in the UK Shepherds tended to place more importance on sheep than pretty much everything else, such as shool and church (in fact, when a shepherd died, they would pin a bit of wool to thier burial suit so that God would know why they never went to church). As Such, many never learned numbers. But in shepherding, its pretty important to make you you haven't lost any sheep. So the ancient shepherds in Northern england and southern scotland used this rhyme called Yan Tan Tethera. There are quite a few variations based in local dialect, this one is from Cumbria where my Grandfather (who taught it to me) grew up. 1 Yan 2 Tahn 3 Tethera 4 Methera 5 Pimp 6 Sethera7 Lethera 8 Hovera 9 Dovera 10 Dick11 Yan-a-Dick 12 Tahn-a-Dick 13 Tethera-Dick14 Methera - Dick15 Bumfit 16 Yan-a-Bumfit17 Tahn-a-Bumfit 18 Tethera-Bumfit 19 Methera-Bumfit20 Jiggot I think its rather lovely, hance why I shared it here.

A Soldier's Christmas Story
A Soldier's Christmas Story A soldier nervously finders his weapon and stares into the darkness watching for any sign of the enemy. He is alone this night because yesterday his best friend, who usually shared this position with him, was killed. He misses him, he was a brave man who left a wife and two small children behind. The soldier hopes that he will survive this war and someday be able to tell the little ones how bravely their father had died defending freedom. He doesn't know exactly what time it is but his instincts tell him that it is approaching midnight on this Christmas Eve. Soon it will be Christmas morning at home and his own family will be getting up to have breakfast and open presents. His breakfast will consist of some cold sparse rations and a sip of water from his canteen. There will be no hot cider or coffee for him and no turkey dinner later in the day. He hopes his family enjoys the Christmas celebration and understands why he can't be with them. There are people i

Again He Walks The Dark Road.........
When she touched his shoulder, he looked up. There she was, smiling. And he cried. The joy spreading back through his broken heart. This Angel with the blackened wings rose once again. He took her hand and she led him down the path, the way she wanted to go. In the blind joy, he refused to feel the wire being twisted into his limbs. He didn't believe he was a puppet. But soon she was leading, guiding where she wanted him to go. He trusted her, foolishly. And when she was done she cut his strings and let him fall, fall so far away. She smiled and walked away. Discarded once again, the Angel went numb and turned to his only companions. He reached for his weapons, and clenched them tight. He flared his wings proudly and stepped forward into the unknown, ready to go back to war. It was a new war however, the war at home.

Driving Me Mad
I can't fvuckin bear it. I am currently sharing my office with an over paid and under busy consultant. Problem is, he makes so much noise when he eats. Biscuits, sandwiches, whatever he has for lunch - oh and he has biscuits all the friggin time. Gah, I'm pretty tolerant, but this drives me mad. chomp chomp, slobber, heavy nose breath. Not a good thing in my current mood which swings between dejected and horribly angry. I need a punch bag.

Pain
whats the point in living when i cant live a life with you, i want to be ur everything, i want nothing more then to be ur girl, i bleed inside everyday, it hurts all the time i just want to make it go away, nothing will heal this broken heart of mine

Just Me Barking In The Dark And Ranting...just Ignore Me As Usual
I JUST WANT TO SAY FIRST AND FOREMOST...STOP FKKN PROMISING THINGS TO ME IF YOU'RE NOT GOING TO KEEP YOUR PROMISES. "OH I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU" "OH I'LL GIVE YOU A CALL" "OH I LOVE YOU" BLAH BLAH BLAH. IT'S HARD TO BELIEVE ANYTHING ANYONE SAYS ANYMORE. IT JUST SUCKS. I GET PROMISED THINGS ALL THE TIME ON HERE. HAS BEEN A YEAR AND ALMOST 3 MONTHS THAT I'VE BEEN HERE, AND IF I HAD A DOLLAR FOR EVERY TIME SOMEONE ON HERE SAID THEY'D BLING ME BACK AFTER I BLINGED THEM, OR FOR EVERY TIME SOMEONE SAID THEY'D BUY ME AN AUTO OR BOMB OR BLAST OR SOMETHING, I'D HAVE ENOUGH TO BUY A GODDAMN FU-PONY PROBABLY. "I'M GONNA SPOIL YOU ROTTEN"...I'VE HEARD THAT AT LEAST 2 DOZEN TIMES...HAVE YET TO SEE THAT HAPPEN EXCEPT FROM 1 OR 2 PEOPLE. I'VE BEEN LIED TO SO MANY TIMES...WHO DO I BELIEVE NOW? THIS IS SO STUPID...PEOPLE REALLY NEED TO LEARN HOW TO TELL THE FKKN TRUTH. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HELP ME, THEN SAY SO. WE'LL MOVE ON. DON'T LIE. HELL HALF OF YOU ARE 2 AND 3 TIMES MY AGE. ACT LIKE IT!!!! IT'S

Did You Hear B J Today
He has to keep this website running and many blessings and many thanks for my many thanks and blessings of family and friends on here. Let us forgive Baby J, even if he is not a Christian, for he has sinned greatly, but he has allowed a Christian voice on this website so mercy unto him as long as he believes in freedom of religion and speech. I f nothing, he has believed in the constitution.

Chillie Bomb
chillie bomb this chillie bomb that...... with you! we know we should have known. never known and surly never understood... just our own self distress we have won. together we will finish and never diseave cause life is our diseas and thats all we know. never bleeding just releasing the disease of life and the angles. angeles protect we resurect.so no such thing as perfect its just the reverse its bigger then the universe deeper then reverse its the cause of demise but really its just how we realize today tomarow next week its where we came from not where we are going that really makes the stand and on our feet we still stand hand in hand forever and a hundred times we glide through like sleeping i think we'll self explode cuase in the end theres nothing to gain but you know we'll always maintain yesterday never dies tommarow we wonder will we comprimise our past for the present contain remain save the stain save never move on never ending game of life keep it still or move on ponder c

Nurse, Are My Testicles Back ?
A male patient is lying in bed in the hospital, wearing an oxygen mask over his mouth and nose, still heavily sedated from a difficult four hour surgical procedure . A young student nurse appears to give him a partial sponge bath. Nurse,' he mumbles, from behind the mask 'Are my testicles black?' Embarrassed, the young nurse replies 'I don't know, Sir. I'm only here to wash your upper body.' He struggles to ask again,

1 Big Bad Ass Festival, Grab Your Helmets!!!!!!!!!!
INDEPENDENCE FESTIVAL 2010 READ NOW!!!!! Current mood: adventurous Category: Music May 5, 2010 - Wednesday INDEPENDENCE FEST 2010!!! READ NOW!!!!! Current mood:READY!!!! It is that time of the year again that all the snow melts away and mankind can creep out of their houses and get blinded by the sun light. The other thing is bands play festivals and people get to come out and have a great time!!!!!Well here is the deal so far: Bands: Check the main pager for details ! Hosts:Jerrdog WBYR 98.9 The BearJim Rose Circus (You Tube Search) Ticket Cost: $30 Pre Sale / $40 at the gate (Included with camping and is 'General Admission')VIP Packages: TBA We are working on CHARTER BUSES from major cities(Let us know if you are down for it, and we will make it happen)Date: June 25th - 27thLocation: The Water Bowl6811 N Old State Road 3,Muncie, Indiana 47303GPS Cords: (40.251992, -85.369354)‎ +40° 15' 7.17", -85° 22'

Death Is Knocking At My Door
I have finally reached my breaking point....I no longer have an escape...I have nobody to turn to. Death is much more clearer to me. My whole family has given up on me and has thrown me away and my own girlfriend has done the same thing to me as well. I feel I am better off dead than alive. I am lost in the dark fog that I can no longer see the light. I have given up the fight in me is no longer there, I have been fighting for thirty five years. I cannot fight anymore, I no longer have the strength

Thoughts For Memorial Day
As we head into Memorial Day weekend this year, I thought I'd take the time to give some thoughts I have on the holiday. It really is making me think of my grandfather, Walter this year. When I trace our family tree, through Walter, back several generations, we get back to John (who I believe would be Walter's Great Grandfather, but there may be more or less Greats in there. LOL!). I bring up John because he was a Civil War veteran, who was lucky enough to make it home. For those who weren't so lucky, like John's brother, who died in the Andersonville prison in GA, a new holiday was created so that their graves would not be ignored (at that time, the dead were burried where they died, rather than returned home). This holiday was known as Decoration Day, and eventually became known as Memorial Day. Walter, who was born in 1920, was among the many that received draft notices after the bombing of Pearl Harbor began World War 2, and he was assigned to be a mechanic in the Army Air Co

Love
Something happened today that got me really thinking. I hate it sometimes when that happens. So, the question is... what is love? Is everyone lovable?My dad always said if I couldn't love myself then no man would love me either. How many think this is true? How does a person learn to love themself who doesn't know how TO love themself. Maybe someone could love someone who doesn't love themself and that person would learn they are lovable and would eventually love themself? Isn't it supposed to be about accepting someone for who they are inside and out.. with all their faults and insecurities? Oh well. I could go on but that is enough for now.

Weirdness...
OK.. I'm living with Lewis and his Mother apparently. I'm not feeling well and so I'm in our bed. Members of his family are in and out constantly, why, I have NO clue. Next thing I know, we're in a car. He's driving.. ODD. He parks outside what looks like a ton of tents set up for vendors for some sort of carnival or something. We need to get something somewhere but have no idea what it is. So we're fighting through crowds and such and he's telling me to stay close so we don't get separated. Next I know, we're inside what looks like a dingy, run down Flea Market of sorts. People from all walks of life are everywhere selling everything you can imagine. There is even a Subway tunnel that runs through the place. Somehow we get separated. He was there and then he was gone. I start freaking out calling his name. Asking people if they'd seen him. No one can help. I end up finding someone who will let me use a phone because mine is dead. For some odd reason I knew he was mean

My New Lounges
Well yall its that time again. I have 2 new lounges that are hiring dependable staff and everyone is welcome. Great places to have fun and no drama is allowed. Don't like drama and drama doesn't like me. Hit my shoutbox if u would like the links to them. I won't mind giving them to you at all. Everyone have a fantastic rest of your week.

About Regret
Quote to live by(cannot for the life of me remeber where the quote is from or who to attribute it to possibly the Buddha?): · No matter what happens throughout life, always, regret nothing, for all eternity. Without any single exemption that Life inevitably will throw at you, whether it is love, hate, guilt or any other nefarious plan used to keep us from Enlightenment. Once we are successful and truly have no regrets, the illusion that we are all pawns, becomes clear to us. Because we now know it is just an illusion. We are then capable of anything, we now are capable of anything as long as we continue to live without regret.

Stardust To My Sweet Friend Mamma Sandy
TRUE FRIENDSHIP IS RARE IN THIS LONG WALK OF LIFE BUT IN YOU WHAT I HAVE FOUND WHAT IS A TRUE FRIENDSHIP. YOU GIVE TO ME A FRIENDSHIP THAT IS DEAR & SWEET , YOU GIVE TO ME WORDS OF ENOURAGEMENT, YOU GIVE TO ME THE TRUEST OF TRUE FRIENSHIP THAT WILL CARRY ME THROUGH & TEACH ME THE THINGS I HAVE NOT LEARNNED THUS FAR . YOUR FRIENDSHIP GIVES TO ME A POSITIVE WAY OF LIFE THAT WILL HELP ME ME SHARE WITH PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THE GOOD THINGS I HAVE INSIDE. I CHERISH THE FRIENSHIP I HAVE FOUND IN YOU FROM HERE TILL OUR END. MAY GOD BLESS YOU WITH THE LOVE YOU DREAM OF & STRENGTH TO DEAL WITH ALL YOU MUST GO THROUGH ALONG THIS LONG WALK OF LIFE . MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU MY DEAR SWEET FRIEND. I LOVE YOU MAMMA SANDY!!!!!!!!!!! GOD BLESS YOU !!!! LOVE YOUR CUP CAKE!!!!

Al Qaeda On Strike
al Qaeda on StrikeMuslim suicide bombers in Britain are set to begin a three-day strike on Monday in a dispute over the number of virgins they are entitled to in the afterlife. Emergency talks with Al Qaeda have so far failed to produce an agreement. The unrest began last Tuesday when Al Qaeda announced that the number of virgins a suicide bomber would receive after his death will be cut by 25% this February from 72 to only 60. The rationale for the cut was the increase in recent years of the number of suicide bombings and a subsequent shortage of virgins in the afterlife.The suicide bombers' union, the British Organization of Occupational Martyrs ( or B.O.O.M. ) responded with a statement that this was unacceptable to its members and immediately balloted for strike action. General Secretary Abdullah Amir told the press, "Our members are literally working themselves to death in the cause of Jihad. We don't ask for much in return; but to be treated like t

Accomplishment Through Different Chef Careers To Drive The Top
For Revere Ware Cookware fill, preparation is physical as puffing. They were born to make, so they are course tired to pursuing a culinary progress. Who can knock them? After all, the art of cookery can be magical. You assemble original ingredients, mix all these together and you end up with a affect for the surface. This is why the content prices in pulverized dining restaurants are oft quite heavy. The nutrient that is served in these establishments is practically a create of art. Of action, you don't screw to be an "haute preparation" chef if you don't necessary to. You can e'er plan to be something added. Luckily for you, there are individual chef careers that you can opt from.Pursuing a Culinary AdvanceNumber of victorious chefs started out early in their grooming and instruction. They scholarly to know cookery steady at a young age and more of them yet end up beingness Revere Ware Cookware chefs. A organism with the fitness of a great chef sure exhibits the object for cookery at

My Pain Is Deep-i'm Sorry I Hurt You!
This goes out to a special woman who recieved a broken heart from me,I'M SO SORRY! A young boy foolishly in lust with no knowledge of love/torn between the streets and whats good/birthed in the world of sin with no support from family or friend/forced to survive in a life of emptyness/maddness,saddness/struggling to acheive what was foolisly attractive/ his actions birthed a mind filled with hatred,/life flows by like scenes from the matrix/ making everything he encountered sacred/ corruptions what made him/ it's sad when I look at myself in the mirror/knowing what Heartache I gave her/ Lord save her/ best I ever had/ so long to those nights of comfort/ summer winds blow the voice in my head is yours/ but you'll never know/for that I'm sorry/spill my heartache in poetry/ live long those beautiful memories of when you comforted me/ the only great things in life I had was what you gave me/ Please forgive me/Lord save me too/ For now I know what she went through/gave me life I never

My Spirits Free
MY SPIRIT'S FREE 18 WHEELS AND ANOTHER LOAD.ONCE AGAIN ON THE OPEN ROAD .THE HIGHWAY BEKONS, "COME RIDE WITH ME" ONCE AGAIN MY SPIRIT'S FREE .I STARTED THAT DIESEL AND WARM IT UP , THERE'S NOTHING LIKE THIS GOOD OLD TRUCK. IT CARRIES ME FROM PLACE TO PLACE ,SO I CAN SERVE THE HUMAN RACE..I LOVE THIS JOB THERE IS NO OTHER, ACROSS THIS LAND I SERVE MY BROTHER .MY FAMILY WAITS SO PATIENTLY,FOR HOMEWARD BOUND I SOON WILL BE...AND WHEN MY LIFE IS OVER HERE, DONT CRY FOR ME,DONT SHED A TEAR. FOR I WILL STAND @HEAVENS GATE, AND PATIENTLY AWAIT MY FATE. THE JUDGMENT BOOK IS OPEN WIDE, FOR ST.PETER SAYS LET;S LOOK INSIDE, A JOB WELL DONE IS WHAT I SEE, AND NOW MY FRIEND YOU'RE HERE WITH ME.FOR YOU HAVE SERVED MY PEOPLE WELL,THROUGH STRESS AND PAIN ANS SOMETIMES HELL. SO HERE ABOVE THE PROMISE LAND,ALONG GODS SIDE IS WHERE YOU'LL STAND' BUT IF TO DRIVE AGAIN YOU CHOOSE, THE FINEST TRUCK I WILL GIVE TO YOU .TO TRAVEL FAR ON HEAVENS 'S ROADS.THE HIGHWAY HERE,ALL PAVED WITH GOLD..SO WHEN IM GONE DO

For My Son, My Marine!i Remember The Day You Were Born; I Can't Believe It's Been Eighteen Years, You Started Out As My Little Boy; And Grew I
I remember the day you were born; I can't believe it's been eighteen years, You started out as my little boy; and grew into such a good man, You have always been so independent; You have accomplished every goal that you have had for yourself; You have exceeded every expectation throughout your life; I am so proud to say; You are my Son, You are One of the few; The Proud; You are a Marine. Love your Mom

New Blog
hello... the old blog has gone. so it is the best to start over again. at first i will introduce some older material that could still be seen here. i am sure it is interesting for the most people. when you don't like it... just don't watch. the blog is marked as nsfw. i would like to show you what a former slavegirl from me wrote about her training. Ex-Slavegirl S I will never forget the day "Misterak" known to me now as Sir... my Master, my Owner came into my life. He changed my life for the greater. I had always fantasized about being a slavegirl, being owned. However I had never been in touch or talked with a dom that had an effect on me to completely surrender myself to him. Until Sir sent me an email simply asking me if I make a good slavegirl. I was fascinated by him form the start. His authority is ever present when he is near. Sir is not onlydom but he is charming, witty and extremely intelligent and well educated. Beeing in his presence is a

20 Million....
fuBucks to the person that is willing to buy me a bomb. Yeah, I know....but I'm so close to leveling, it's not funny, lol. Anyway, if you are willing to do it, DO NOT just send it. Send me a message first and wait for me to reply. I have to get my kiddos in the bath and in bed and I don't want people thinking I'm trying to rip them off. I WILL send the fuBucks to the person that sends me the bomb...but I just want to message them to know they are for sure going to do it. Hope that makes sense, lol.

[ah To Be Young, Handsome And Scarred]
Rejoice for I had to take a muscle relaxer...and then I got really high.God I'm bored.Like... bubble wrap bored.like, reorganize my game/DVD collection bored.God that's bored.But I did watch Dr. Horribleand I want some snazzy goggles... partly to cover my disfiguring scarpartly for the AWESOME.This reminds me of my first blog entry on this website.Minus the chronic painand the dogand the...no I'm pretty sure NiN was playing in the background then too.I need a dreamscape.A saga.Or at least a mindfuck.and all I've got are these pillsand these keyswhat happens when I run outand I need more?Good fucking times.Good fucking times.I always end on a low note.I'm gonna grab my sandles, my rings, run my hands through my hairI'm outta here.