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Volume Xxvi - In Memoriam
Greetings, friends...I have just returned home from a long, draw-out trip...one of the most gut wrenching ones I have ever endured. My grandmother died back on the 29th in Macon, after a lengthy illness and struggling with respiratory problems. The visitation was yesterday from 6-9pm, and the funeral was this morning. We, meaning my wife and I, arrived in the Savannah area Saturday evening. We spent the evening in downtown Savannah, ate at a great restaurant called Tubby's Conch House, and watched the moon over the savannah River. Sunday, after a couple of hours on Tybee Island, we went to the visitation...after changing clothes, of course. She looked so very peaceful. So tranquil. So lovely, in a beautiful pink dress. Just as if she were sleeping. It was instant that I knew that she was NOT sleeping....but I held my strength until the end of the visitation that I wept. Made sure no one saw me...though my parents and wife did. The next day was the actual funeral,

For You Are The One...
For You Are The One For you I would climb The highest mountain peak Swim the deepest ocean Your love I do seek. For you I would cross The rivers most wide Walk the hottest desert sand To have you by my side. For you are the one Who makes me whole You've captured my heart And touched my soul. For you are the one That stepped out of my dreams Gave me new hope Showed me what love means. For you alone Are my reason to live For the compassion you show And the care that you give. You came into my life And made me complete Each time I see you My heart skips a beat. For you define beauty In both body and mind Your soft, gentle face More beauty I'll ne'er find. For you are the one God sent from above The angel I needed For whom I do love. - Chris Messick -

Pardons Granted By President Clinton
Pardons granted by President Clinton (1993-2001) PARDONS GRANTED BY PRESIDENT CLINTON Table of Contents November 23, 1994 April 17, 1995 December 23, 1997 December 24, 1998 February 19, 1999 December 23, 1999 February 19, 2000 March 15, 2000 July 7, 2000 October 20, 2000 November 21, 2000 December 22, 2000 January 20, 2001 November 23, 1994 NAME DISTRICT SENTENCED OFFENSE David Phillip Aronsohn D. Minn. 1961 Failure to pay special occupational tax on wagering, 26 U.S.C. § 7203 Wanda Kaye Bain-Prentice D. Ariz. 1982 Mail fraud, 18 U.S.C. § 1341 Antonio Barucco U. S. Army general court-martial 1945 Desertion in violation of the 58th Article of War Kristine Margo Beck D. Idaho 1981 Bank embezzlement, 18 U.S.C. § 656 David Christopher Billmaier D. New Mex. 1980 Possession with intent to distribute amphetamines, 21 U.S.C. § 841(a)(1) Terry Lee Brown E. D. Ky. 1962 Interstate transportation of a stolen motor vehicle, 18 U.S.

Birthday
i don't write in this blog thing much.... i just wanted to say thank you to everyone who sent me virtual gifts and those who wished me a happy birthday/canada day :P but i'm pretty much siked.... my sister bought me Beastie Boy tickets :D Denver Colorado.... oh word... i can't wait XD and i got $170 from the rest of my family (hopefully i can use this and try to beg a little more so i can go see john

I
i dont ask you all to rate my pictures or even come on my profile i dont mind rating but geesh i love you all and you make me feel good about myself and i thank you all for that you all are awsome,im going to have to take a break from ct other wise im going to have a heart attack i have a bad heart and well ct is realy getting to me

Creative My Ass!!!
CANT FIX WHAT AINT BROKE.....JUST IMPROVE! Have you taken the time to show that your love is blind? If so or if not you should still read this rhyme!! If you've gone as far as to forgive each lie...... Made it a point to forget when your other makes you cry...... Put up with the worst and been treated like shit, cause being wrong and found out they refuse to admit..... Gone as far as to take them blame on yourself, and you do it to show that their love is your wealth..... Did you never pass judgement? Did you belive in fate? Did you forget your past, to live in a moment thats great? Did you feel in your heart more than you could ever explain? Did you hide all your troubles so they'd not see of feel your pain? Were you proud at the fact that they always made you smile.... Not the fake ones but the real ones you could see without denial. Were you suprised one day to relize and honestly see..... You put them before you and it made you happy.. Have you ever explai

July 2, 07 Monday: Viva El Porto...
El Porto is fuckin awesome. It's most def. my new favorite spot. Mad props to NBC, the dude who recommended the spot and obviously knows his shit... I loved it. It started off mellow, i got there just around low tide. But it got pretty gnarly as the day wore on. By dusk, it was shoulder, to head high, then as the sun slipped into the ocean, there were a few overhead sets coming in. After a good four hours straight, I was pretty exhausted at that point, so i just watched people and really studied their take-offs, watched for little nuances when they made the drop and tried to absorb as much as I could. The only prob was, these guys were so good, that they took off with this effortless grace, and ripped that shit up!!! It was amazing watching these dudes, made me realize how much everyone sucks at the lame spots I frequent, or used to that is...El Porto is the shit, my new spot for sure. i liked the vibe, the waves were just scary enough to force me to step it up a notch, y

Vampire's
A Vampire’s (Vampaneze’s) Laments “I am the walking dead heartbreaker, my apologies, I'm happy you'll never understand what It's like to be trapped under six feet of solid glass, I can see out, but no one gets in.” His eyes flickered open, the automated process now by which at ten o’clock he’d wake and get ready. His night was beginning. But tonight, he didn’t feel like going anywhere. He was sick to death of running – running from police, from his family and from his conscious. He wanted to face up to what he’d done. This night, he’d not be the one doing any killing. He slowly lifted himself from the ground and set off toward the city. It was late, but there’d still be some cars about. For only a few decades had he lived as a vampaneze, but already, he despised his purple skin and crimson lips. It was time to end it. With no one to guide him, no one to love, he didn’t feel his life was worth living. A few minutes later, he was stood by a long road, with the occasional car

Sexy Morph Contest
I am having my 1st contest. "SEXIEST MORPH CONTEST" I need at least 10 people to enter. Contest will start when I have the 10 and run for 1 week. The RULES are 1. Morph must be SAFE FOR WORK 2. No down rates 3. You may comment bomb & rate yourself Winners will be 1st & 2nd for the most comments, and 1st for the most rates. So all you gals & guys get your sexy morphs links to me fast. Thanks becbec becbec@ CherryTAP

~~to Kill And American~~
Written by an Australian Dentist...and too good to delete.... To Kill an American You probably missed this in the rush of news, but there was actually a report that someone in Pakistan had published in a newspaper, an offer of a reward to anyone who killed an American, any American. So an Australian dentist wrote an editorial the following day to let everyone know what an American is . So they would know when they found one. (Good one, mate!!!!) "An American is English or French or Italian, Irish, German, Spanish, Polish, Russian or Greek. An American may also be Canadian, Mexican, African, Indian, Chinese, Japanese, Korean, Australian, Iranian, Asian or Arab or Pakistani or Afghan. An American may also be a Comanche, Cherokee, Osage, Blackfoot, Navaho, Apache, Seminole or one of the many other tribes known as native Ame ricans. An American is Christian or he could be Jewish or Buddhist or Muslim. In fact, there are more Muslims in America than in Afghani

Eyes Closed
Darkness has cast his shadow across the room...the only noise is that from the air conditioner on the occasion that it kicks in, and that of the soft whispers of breath coming from my mouth as I lay..thinking of you. I close my eyes and wait, and I feel you. I feel you, running your hands along my side...caressing my legs, up to my waist, and then my arms. I am warmed by the soft kisses on my neck and I roll on my back to let you caress all of me. I haven't opened my eyes, but I know you are going to touch me more....I know soon I will feel your hands cupping my breast...making me swell with love, for that is what I have always done. You wrap your mouth around my nipple and I suck in my breath. With your tongue gliding along my nipple you take the other and hand and cup my other breast, squeezing gently. You put your lips to my mouth, and hold them there... and I can't breathe...I wait...and finally you take your tongue and run it along my lips...wet and soft...and you kiss me.

What Is On My Mind
Well hmmm, I have been looking at this site for the last few hours now since I was told about it by JRS. I kinda like it. It is just as kewl as my space if not better in some ways. BTW www.myspace.com/mineonly1999 is my link. I am on yahoo also. Anyway I am here if any of you wish to chat. I suppose I have to learn to chat with everyone in the world now huh? I really try to stay in my area cuz I have chatted before with someone out of the country and almost got into a bunch of trouble. My sweetness gets me into trouble alot. Sugar has been my nick name for a while now cuz I am just sooo darn sweet. So if you all care to chat I suppose I will be around from time to time. I am hoping like heck to not spend as much time on the computer looking for the love of my life as I have been. Sounds silly I know but it is true. There is this amazing guy that I have met recently and I really do like him alot. I want to somewhere down the road be totally devoted to him. I am one of th

Yeah Yeah Yeah
Did that idea really come out of your brain? And what's more, are you seriously promoting it as the answer to the crisis in question? Well, as they say in a lot of bad movies, 'It's so crazy it just might work!'

If You Support This Fuc*ing Picripper Plz Remove Me From Your Friendslist Now !!
WARNING !! GO AND CHECK IF HE RIPPED YOUR PIC TO HIS ALBUM AND BLOCK HIM/HER/IT WHATEVER LOSER THIS IS FAT SONNY ALICE IN WONDERLAND bbG THE BLOG IN THIS USERS ACCOUNT WAS CREATED BY bbG !!! IF YOU SUPPORT THIS USER PLEASE REMOVE ME FROM YOUR FRIENDSLIST NOW !! =(^_^)= ENGLA lc@ CherryTAP

Who Is Your Best Friend?
Who Is Your Best Friend? Everybody needs friends, we all have friends Some friends are closer to us than our families If we happen to fall, there are friends to pick us up What will our life be without friends? There are many categories of friendship There are casual friends, bad friends and good friends The question here is – who is your best friend? Friends who can turn your tears into laughter Is your wife your best friend? I mean the friend you go to When you need honest advice Is your husband your best friend? I mean the friend who knows you More than you know yourself Is your brother or sister your best friend? I mean the friend who always assists you To solve difficult personal problems Is your father or mother your best friend? I mean the friend you feel safe to keep secrets Are your in-laws your best friend? I mean the friend you can tell anything Is your boss or co-worker your best friend? I mean the friend who can cover you up

Another Year
well every one its been another year since my dad passed. just 4th 2007 will bring it to 4 years and this time it seems to be the hardest its ever been for me. there have been times when i just wanna end it and then i think of the loved ones i have and how fucked it would be if i did that to them. this pain is so hard to deal with and i just wanna fade away. but with the help of friends and ma buttercup i think wait i know i will make it and move on. well this is all i wanted to say so thank you for checkin me out much love to you all. p.s. Dad I love You and miss you so much

For Everyone Who Prayed And Wished Me Well
I came home from the hospital Sunday afternoon by my demanns...no since in me staying there when what i need to recover now is rest and we all know you dont get that very well there with all the noise..I am brused from head to toe pretty much and broke my right arm in the car wreck I've had a miscarage so there wont be any baby but as far as my body goes I'll be ok mintaly it may take a long time...one would thinki'd be used to itby now since this makes child #8 but i guess you never get used to the ideal of losing something that could have been so preshies guess all i really meant to say was thank you all and i didnt mean to rambel here Blessings and thank you ~~~kiss~~~

Curse Of The Horror Movie Stalkers!!
Curse of the Horror Movie Stalkers!!! ============================================= Be queit Laurie Strode, don't make a noise Michael Myers is gonna kill half of Illinios and if that Shape doesn't kill us all we'll have to wait until next fall. but in the meantime, Jason'll slit your throat in Crystal Lake, New York, or a boat or mabey Freddy will get you in your dreams and fill up Elm Street with lots of screams. don't open that box you stupid ass or Pinhead and his crew will cause a bloody mass don't say his name five times you stupid bitch or Candyman will gut you like a fish. Jigsaw has a tumour in his head but that doesn't mean he won't chain you to a bed Leatherface will cut you up inside his home like Sherrif says, meat is meat and bone is bone. don't play with Chucky he's not a nice guy call you a whore and stab you in the eye and it that falls that acid rain soon you'll be, devouring brains. Ash has a boom-stick and a saw of chain with tha

Bbq Rules (this Is Sooo True)
BBQ RULES We are about to enter the summer and BBQ season. Therefore it is important to refresh your memory on the etiquette of This sublime outdoor cooking activity, as it's the only type of cooking a 'real' man will do, probably because there is an element of danger involved. When a man volunteers to do the BBQ the following chain of events are put into motion: Routine... (1) The woman buys the food. (2) The woman makes the salad, prepares the vegetables, and makes dessert. (3) The woman prepares the meat for cooking, places it on a tray along with the necessary cooking utensils and sauces, and takes it to the man who is lounging beside the grill - beer in hand. Here comes the important part: (4) THE MAN PLACES THE MEAT ON THE GRILL. More routine.... (5) The woman goes inside to organize the plates and cutlery. (6) The woman comes out to tell the man that the meat is burning. He thanks her and asks if she will bring another beer while he deals with

Life
we take everything forgranted people places and things most of us dont like change..but we have to rember that things do change people change places change,so we all just have to make the best of our life..some people are afraid to tell some one they love another ,when i was married for 20 years to a guy that didnt know how to show his love but through violence and mental abuse..my doctor told me one time that everyone has some kind of symtom of depression or bipolar,when i was first dignose with bipolar i was in denile im not sick i dont have anything like that but the more i notice my self doing certin things i new i did,life is too short to be waisting it away dont be afraid to go after what you want in life

Friends
Although you are a friend of mine and letters we exchange, I wouldn't know you on the street, and doesn't that seem strange? You hold a place within my life, unusual and unique; We share ideals and special dreams, and still, we do not speak. I picture what I think you are, perhaps you picture me. An intriguing game for both of us for someone we can't see. So for this friendship we possess, we owe this mail a debt, Perhaps the charm lies in the fact that we have never met.

News
Well,yesterday we went to see Daves doc and he told us that Dave is going to have to see a Spinal Surgeon and get his back fixed.He told us that drugs and phy theropy will not help.The bone is still pushing on the nerves and that in turn is makeing his leg numb and after a certion point his leg will get weaker and weaker then die.And Dave cant feel anything in his leg.One night he told me to pinch his toe so he could see if he had anything feeling in it what so ever and I pinched so hard with my nails I cut his skin and he felt nothing.I like the docs he has been seeing and I trust them.They have always been up front about everything from the first day we saw them includeing the chance of Dave haveing to have surgery. I saw this comeing and so did Dave.We had been talking about him haveing to have something done.I was ready to hear that he was going to have to have surgery today when we went in but when they said it I still got upset.Dave had to beg me not to starte crying in the ro

What Alcoholic Drink Are You
You scored as rum, you are rum. you are adventurous and fun loving, but laid back and cool. you like to travel and love good times. rum92% midori83% vodka79% absinthe67% champagne58% daiquaries54% bourbon50% beer46% wine33% whiskey29% what alcoholic drink are you (pictures)created with QuizFarm.com

Official Downrater Message To Leave That Will Proberly Grow Weekly
What I said to this Downrater. I Left this to 2 early am: What are you,Stupid or something? You don't Downrate a VIC.A Regular Rate ,I would have Come an Level'd you.Instead I come to Block you Post you in Stash,an Label you a Wolf Hater for all in my Family to come in Block an Stash you as well.Best to Crawl back where you came from an Learn some Respect. Everyone on this Bitches Comment Column she had Downrater,It really amazed me

I Never Knew What I Wanted...
You remember how we were talking about religion? It boils down to the way I grew up, I want proof. Why? The concept of faith is destroyed by proof. I wanted proof that you cared about me beyond the physical, I convinced myself I still needed proof because I couldn’t understand you actions. I understand now I must have been misinterpreting them and I should have trusted my heart and feelings- which I normally do. But reason and doubt wins out over time, I didn’t know how you responded to my comments on your blog, I can’t help but feel like shit because I am allowing my marriage to end, the only comment you made about my pictures on CherryTap was I should shave- you didn’t rate them. I took them down to show you no one else gets to see me, you are special, I don’t want you to think I would cheat with anyone else- that is what is most in my head. I have not told you- once a cheater always a cheater. Oh, God I don’t know myself well enough to know if I have faith or not. If I am loyal to

Just A Laugh
A senior citizen drove his brand new BMW Z4 convertible out of the car salesroom. Taking off down the motorway, he floored it to 150 kph, enjoying the wind blowing through what little hair he had left. 'Amazing!' he thought as he flew down the M40, enjoying pushing the pedal to the metal even more. Looking in his rear view mirror, he saw a police car behind him, blue lights flashing and siren blaring. 'I can get away from him - no problem!' thought the elderly nutcase as he floored it to 180 kph, then 220, then 240 kph. Suddenly, he thought, 'What on earth am I doing? I'm too old for this nonsense!' So he pulled over to the side of the road and waited for the police car to catch up with him. Pulling in behind him, the police officer walked up to the driver's side of the BMW, looked at his watch and said, 'Sir, my shift ends in 10 minutes. Today is Friday and I'm taking off for the weekend. If you can give me a reason why you were speeding that I've never heard befor

Holy Shit
Yesterday I had a complete shock. I realized that by this time next year I will be in the real world...no more school, no more job, and I freaked out. I've always been in school I can't really remember times when I wasn't except while pregnant. It's just weird because I don't know if i will have a job in a school district, hell any job will do. I won't have my job anymore since it's only for students, I won't have my scholarship money to pay for things. It's a very daunting thought. I always said that if I ever won the lottery, I would become a professional student (and get plastic surgery and a house but that's another blog). Unfortunately the lottery is no closer but graduation is. I think I'm just freaking out a little early. This freak out should be done in April. Ok I need to breathe. I am so scared of the real world and I am fucking 25 years old.

Another Day In The World
well its tuesday july 3 rd.first off let me say happy 4 th of july to all of you love ya! well im in portland oregon for the rest of the week to see my family and meet my new granddaughter what a trip makes me feel old just saying it lol..so have fun and be carful out there.and dont do anythinng to get put in jail over the holiday lol...have a great week see YA!!!

Happy Day To Me
Well its going to be a great 80's degree day today and I am actually in a better mood then yesterday. Yes going to work just killed my spirt yesterday. After being there for about 10 min my day just sucked. that was to bad because it started out so good. Well today I will not let work let me down again. I plan on going to Starbucks this morning and having a coffee and a sandwich to start my day today. I hope to start me on the right foot. After that I am just going to try not to let things get to me as much as I did yesterday. Also I want to go work on my Trike but my dad is leaving for the 4th for the rest of the week so there will be on more work done this week. So my kids are coming home tomarrow and well there goes my peace and quite! So i need to enjoy today for all it is.. one last day of quiet!! See ya later

Fun Sex Facts
1) 94% of men lie about their penis size. According to condom manufacturers, only 6% of men need to use extra large condoms. 2) The average man is 4-5 inches long when erect; no matter what you have heard ladies, that's the truth. Incidentally the average vaginal capactity is only 6 inches, for you women who think you can handle king dong. 3) 80% of American men are circumsized, though Pediatrics say it is not necessary. 4) No matter what all the ads say nothing but time can make your penis grow. (most men reach the end of their growth by the early 20's) 5) There is no correlation between penis size and shoe size, hand size, or nose size. 6) Blue balls does exist! It's technically called "prostatic congestion." 7) Only 16% of men shave their privates. - THiNGS MEN MiGHT WANT TO KNOW - 1) Only 9% of women around the globe consider themselves "attractive" (20% of British women do). 43% of women use the term "natural", 24% say they have "average" looks, 8% prefer

Freaky Vs. Kink
Is there a difference between Freaky & Kinky? Is a freak on something that comes and goes, and Kinky is more permanent? I hear them talked about interchangeably, but are they? Kinky can be anything from chocolate ice cream & maple syrup, to a fetish (feet or catholic school girls) Is freaky the same thing? or is freaky a bit more extreme, and for a shorter time? If you have read any of my blogs, you know I'm into BDSM, and I am a sub/slave, so that's my kink (or freak, depending on how you define it) I gotta tell you, I am surprised daily, by the amount of people who are into it, and by the amount who are taken aback by it. Could any of us live without a little freak?? I guess I could, and I have, for lengthy times, but I definately prefer not to! going too long, makes me crave it, and act out that much more! so.....what's your definition? Whats freak, and whats kink?

Foorprints In The Sand
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it: "LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me." The LORD replied: "My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial

The Neighbor
I had lived next to Tami for years. We had watched each others kids grow up, consoled each other over our divorces, and through our dating relationships. We shared a movie night when the kids were over, and occasionally went out for birthdays and anniversaries when the other was not actively seeing someone. The summer had been a hot one and the families had spent a lot of time together at my pool. Tami was not ultra conservative in her suit, it was one piece, but the zipper never quite stayed up, showing some very ample cleavage. I know she had caught me looking over the years, and I am sure she had worn an outfit or two just for my benefit. While there was always a sexual tension between us, it had never been acted upon because we were both afraid of what it would do to our friendship. There was not much about Tami I didn’t know, and vice versa. She had just broken up with her latest boyfriend, and I was without anyone. It was her Christmas party at work, and I was her date, w

Me
I love the rain* I love the smell of rain* I love monsoon season* I love walking in the rain* I love driving windows down, music up* I love skirts* I love a good book* I love doing nothing* I love animals* I love my family and friends* I love my Monster* I love going to a great concert with great people* I love jumping into bed in the winter time and the sheets are cold* I love flannel sheets* I love wearing bright colors* I love a really meaningful quote* I love the color purple; as in the crayon and not the movie.* I love any type of lilies* I love Snoopy* I love dragonflies. I love Edward Norton* I love Marilyn Monroe and James dean* I love text messaging I am Nikki. I am very indecisive. I am moody. I can be mean. But I can be nice. I am right handed. I drive a little red car. I drink to many energy drinks. I am stubborn and strong willed. Sometimes I really like to drink. And i really like to get stoned ;) I like to driving nowhere. I spend to much time on cherry tap, myspace

Walls
I have been hurt once again. Rebuilding brick walls that took years to fall...the questions circling in my head..too many for me to say...the first person to know a hole in it...was in 2003...I went from being battered to having someone that claimed to really love me in my life. For him to wake up one day and change his mind. I am starting to think that love doesn't actually exist between a woman and a man. Feelings have no factor in a relationship...it is all convenience and money...of which I have none....I held my wall fast until thanksgiving of 2006..I met a great guy...or so I thought....handsome, laid back, accepted me for who I was...I thought I was finally accepted...finally had the possibility of the dream...I know it exists...i have seen it first hand....20 yrs worth,through one of my best friends.....my dream was shattered...he decided to go back to an ex that I understand is a horrible person..I don't know her...so I cannot say for sure...but, he told me stories...and I c

Where I'm At Now
this is my second time on tap. the first time i had to delete because i was afraid i was going to die of brain cancer without being able to clear all the nsfw material (office pc). i'm 4 months clear of any nre tumor activity, but i am by no means out of the woods. i just like this place so much that i had to wander back in, even if it means left-handed typing only.

A Woman Go's To The Doctor's
A woman goes to her doctor's office, afraid of the strange development on the inside of her thighs. She has a green spot on the inside of each. They won't wash off, they won't scrape off, and they seem to be getting worse. The doctor assures her he'll get to the bottom of the Problem, and tells her not to worry until the tests come back. A few days later, the woman's phone rings. Much to her relief, it's the doctor. She immediately begs to know what's causing the spots? The doctor says, "You're perfectly healthy -- there's no problem. But I'm wondering, is your boyfriend a Harley rider?" The woman Stammers, "Why, yes, but how did you know?" "Tell him his earrings aren't real gold."

You're My Heart You're My Queen
every single morning when i wake roll over and smile as i see your face run my hands up your body lick my fingers just to get a taste see you open your eyes as i run my hand back down your thighs see you smile with your devilish grin that's beggin for me just to slide in i roll over and spread your legs wrap them around me girl i can't hardly wait feel it start to drip grab your hips and get a good grip pull you closer and slide on in god damn i know this is heaven it's 6am fuckin till quarter after seven .... to be continued

Breakfast At Mcdonald's
Breakfast at McDonald's This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!): I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree. The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was abso lutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with. Her last project of the term was called, "Smile." The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions. I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally. Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning. It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son. We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, an

Someday
Walking beside me, along the glasslike lake my heart and my soul is yours to take. The smile in your eyes, and the warmth of your hand I feel all your love and beside you I'll stand. Through all that will be, and is yet to come with the steps that we take, more steps than some, discovering your mind, and knowing who you are I feel you so near, yet so you're so very far. One day I will meet you, the man of my dreams one day we will love and soon so it seems I feel you close...close to my heart I wait for the day that our life will start.... I am always waiting, waiting for you When you find me..we'll both know what to do

Now I Remember Why I Shop Online
I stop by today at Fred Myers(krogers for those outside of NW).. I decide to pick up my expansion to Civilization 4. They are one of the last places to carry PC games, since EB Games, and Software ETC.. choose to only carry like 4 pc games now.. I grab the box and wiat inline behind some bozo asking questions of the clerk regarding co-ax cables(as if they will know lol). The guy behind me goes. "Is that a game?" I'm thinking "Oh boy does this guy live on another planet" "Uhm.. yes it is" The guy then proceeds to lecture me on the ways we should devote our time to Jesus. Now, I am not even buying Grand Theft Auto or my usual shoot em up and kill everyone in sight, but a strategy game.. "why thank you kind weirdo" Now I proceed to buy some groceries, but its Senior Citizen 10% off day, so I am dodging people getting off of the senior citizen bus, and proceeding to bargain shop everything. This just made my day, assaulted by people with Go-Go Ultra X Electric Scoot

My Diet Is Working!!!!!!
HEY YA'LL! 2 ALL MY FRIENDS & THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE JUST READ MY PROFILE. I'M SURE U ALL KNOW I HAVE BEEN TRYING 2 LOOSE WEIGHT. WELL I WENT 2 THE FAT DR 2DAY & I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 39LBS! THAT MAY NOT SEEM LIKE MUCH 2 YA'LL. BUT IT'S A WHOLE HELL OF A LOT 2 ME. IT'S HELPING ME REGAIN MYSELF. LOL. I KNOW YA'LL PROB DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT. SO LET ME BREAK IT DOWN 4 YA REAL QUICK. I WAS PREG FOR ABOUT 4 YEARS STRAIGHT.THEN MY HUSBAND CHEATED ON ME FOR ABOUT A YEAR AFTER I HAD OUR LAST SON & STARTED TREATING ME LIKE DOG SHIT. ALL THAT HELPED ME PACK THE WEIGHT ON! I HAVE NOT BEEN HAPPY FOR MANY,MANY YEARS! AND IT HAS SHOWN! NOT JUST IN MY WEIGHT, BUT EVERYTING ELSE IN MY LIFE 2. I LOST MY SELF THREW ALL THE TRIALS THAT WAS THROWN MY WAY. I'M STILL UNHAPPY 2 A POINT. AND THAT IS SOMETHING I'M GONNA HAVE 2 DEAL WITH. CAUSE THAT IS ONE THING I'LL NEVER TRUELY BE WITH MY HUSBAND! AND I'LL NEVER LEAVE HIM DUE 2 OUR KIDS! I WILL NEVER HURT THEM!!! NO MATTER WHAT. SO I TAKE THEIR HAPPINESS AS MY

If You Can't Tell
I'm just in a bad mood, most of the time I can handle people, today I want nothing to do with them. Mostly idiots that have no thought process and think that they are better then anyone, I think I'm going to be stepping away from ct for a while... I'll see y'all later.

Darkness
Through the darkness and broken glass I'll come for you, if you only ask And there i'll stand Just for you Million miles between our lives can't keep us apart from our grieving hearts sealed with love God speed my darling For your name I'm calling For our love I'm falling... on my knees And if you cry, i'll hold your head up high I'll be there by your side I will be your guardian angel And if you cry, i'll hold your head up high I'll be there by your side I will be your guardian angel In the garden of lonely love I'll wait for you, 'till the time will come When i see you smile Just for me Love and loss embrace the pain You can't hide your tears in the rain I'll be there Just wait my darling For your name I'm calling For our love I'm falling... on my knees And if you cry, i'll hold your head up high I'll be there by your side I will be your guardian angel And if you cry, i'll hold your head up high I'll be there by your side I will be you

Alcohol
Dear Alcohol.... First and foremost, let me tell you that I'm a > huge fan of yours. > > As my friend, you always seem to be there when needed. The > perfect post-work cocktail, a beer at the game, and you're even around > at the holidays (hidden inside chocolates as you warm us when we're > stuck in the midst of endless family gatherings). > > However, lately I've been wondering about your intentions. While > I want to believe that you have my best interests at heart, I feel that > your influence has led to some unwise consequences: > > 1. Phone Calls and text messages: While I agree with you that > communication is important, I question the suggestion that any > conversation after 2 a.m. can have much substance or necessity. Why > would you make me call my ex's? Especially when I know, for a fact, they > DO NOT want to hear from me during the day, let alone all hours of the > night. > > 2. Eating: Now, you know I love a good meal. But, why do you > suggest tha

A Black Day
you call on me I hear you breathe the blind can still see the evil you bring i liked it better when you were gone I think its sick how you came along i feel a black day on the horizon a black day to brighten nothing one of those days that feels like death so come on and bring your black day my skin rips my eyes bleed your tune changes along with your deep seed we clash heads we battle minds I take you down and put you on display I can feel another black day it brightens nothing its one of those days that feel like death bring it upon me your black day sweetens me Ive seen into your lifeless eyes i know you want a thrill i can leave it all to die upon this fucking black day maybe then youll go away I love the feel of a black day

Anything
Friends are who you talk to.One who's there when needed the most.No matter the problem or the cost.A friend will understand in your time of need.And a very good person on advise to succeed.But to cross a friend and mean alot of harm.That they might not be there so don't be alarmed.Keep im mind a true friend will always be there full of love and tender care.To go far in life ahead a true friend will be there until your dead.Cherish your friends cuz you never know a friend will be there as people come and go.Look at me as i've hurt and been hurt myself,kicked into a ditch put on the shelf.I still care even though it was wrong,but we all get ours in the end wheither it's short or long.A period of time will only tell which are your true friends the rest go to hell.I know where i stand with most of my friends,hopeing it lasts forever from now until the end.My days of hurting people has i threw out the door you guys will not hurt from me nomore.I'm cherishing everyone i meet day to day.I'll

Love This Poem
Ok so I was watching a chick flick..In Her Shoes and heard this poem and loved it.. I Carry Your Heart With Me by E.E. Cummings I carry your heart with me(I carry it in my heart)I am never without it(anywhere I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling) I fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)I want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart I carry your heart(I carry it in my heart)

Night Swimming Part Four
Just a note this time first, I want to say thank you to someone very special for there sweet inspiration....I think you know who you are. I feel you shiver against me, as my hand slips between your thighs Soft whimpers escape your lips as i find your sweet spot Shudders run through you as my fingertips dance over it, then as quickly as i started i stop and move my hand away smiling to myself as I see the longing in your eyes " Not yet my sweet " I whisper into your ear Sliding down, I kiss my way down your back, my hands in front of you moving along your inner thighs, fingertips occasionally brushing against your soft lips making you tremble a bit befoe returning to your thighs Kissing the gentle swell of your bottom, giving it a quick nip on the cheek, I run my hands back up to your hips, now turning you towards me On my kneess beneath the watr, your beautiful body stands before me, I cant help but lean in to selfishly dip my tongue into your sweetness, tasting the

Ha Ha Ha
So. . .I'm totally thrilled because the department next to mine is running this Harry Potter promotion thing and as part of it they have posted gargoyles at each entrence. Beneath these gargoyles are the words "Abandon all Hope Ye who enter here" All I can think whenever I walk past is what great workplace morale that cultivates. Maybe not for them but I admit I burst out laughing every time I seee one. Its becoming a problem

My Life
I AM SURE THERE A LOT OF U MAD AT ME AT THE MOMENT BUT THATS COOL I DON'T KNOW WHAT WAS ALL TOLD TO YOU ABOUT THE DEAL WITH ME AND BEAR BUT THERE 2 SIDES TO EVERY STORY IF U GUYS EVEN NEW WHAT I BEEN THREW WITH HIM U WOULD UNDERSTAND BUT THATS KOOL U CAN GO BY WHAT U BEEN TOLD AND YES MY OLD CT ACCOUNT WAS DELETED BY SOMEONE THATS FINE I KNOW IT WAS DONE OUT OF MEANESS AND HATE TOURDS ME BUT I AM A STRONGE PERSON I AN'T GOING TO LET THAT GET ME DOWN SO NEXT TIME U GET PISSED OFF AT SOMEONE MAKE SURE YOU HEAR BOTH SIDES OF THE STORY BEFORE U JUDGE SOMEONE I KNOW I MADE A LOT OF FRIENDS THAT ARE CLOSE TO ME BUT AS IT SEEMS NOW I DONE LOST HALF OF THEM THEY CAN LIE ALL THEY WANT TO ME BUT I CAN FEEL THE HATE TOURDS ME I CAN HANDLE IT ITS ALL GOOD BUT BEFOR U JUDGE ON ME STOP AND THINK TO YOUR SELF WOULD SHE DO THAT FOR A REASON SO TO YOU THAT ARE STILL MY FRIENDS FRIENDS 4 EVER AND THOSE OF YOU NOT WELL NICE TO KNOW YA TILL NEXT TIME STOP AND THINK BEFOR U JUDGE!!!!!!!!!!

Happy 4th Of July 2007
TO MY WONDERFUL WIFE LENA THANK YOU FOR THE TIME YOU SERVED AND THE PROTECTION YOU GAVE US IN DESERT STORM. TO MY SON COLLIN AND MY BEST FRIEND HES EITHER GONNA FOLLOW THE STEPMOM AND SERVE FOR US OR HE WILL BE A FIREFIGHTER LIKE ME I LOVE YOU BOTH GOD BLESS.

Thoughts Of A Loved One
At 95 MPH She reaches over, To touch his skin The heat radiates From his body and she Feels safe in the Darkness of the night Her hand slide to his Thigh and feels the pulse Of blood beneath his jeans She throws caution to The wind and releases his Bonds of clothing. As she Engulfs him, she knows This is her man and where She belongs....By his Side and Beyond. For eternity At wide open throttle. This poem was written for me....Love you baby 07*02*07

Talent
Using your mouth Your sexual hidden talent is your ability to use your mouth. You are incredibly sensual, a great kisser and a seductive lover. You drive all of your partners crazy with your mouth. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

One
What is love? What is money? What is entitlement? What is apathy? What is drama? What is a mortgage? What is a house? What are kids? What is marriage? What is divorce? What is jealousy? What is life? There's no real answer, so I will not waste the course of my existence finding one.

Drama
"Drama - an imaginary condition made up by sad, lonely individuals with no real problems in their life who feel the need to drag stabile, well-balanced individuals who are trying to make a valuable contribution to society down to their level in hopes of making themselves feel better." this is the most awesome meaning of the word drama i have ever come across. and how did i get it Y/you may be wondering? well i have a lot of gay friends so they use the term a lot. LOL i ripped it from one of my friends who had a list of some terms used by them. it is an excellent definition of that word that N/no O/one likes. it just gives O/one too much headaches to where Y/you are crying "Calgon take me away!!!" if Y/you are a woman, or Y/your mind may think "where the HELL is the Excedrine/Advil for this f**king headache?" LOL well that is all for now. until next time *smiles*........ jya matta ne!

*dies*
Just thought I'd check my stuff on here real quick. I think I'm dying. My sinus infection has spread to my ears and now I can't hear anything but my own breathing. Fuck. Back to the doctor's. Twice this month so far. That doesn't even count the ER visits.My medical bills are going to be soooo fucking expensive. Well, you kids try to have a fun fourth. No firewirks for me- I'm pretty sure I'd be writhing in pain. Someone tell me how they were for them? kaythanksbye. -allie

Hi
Hi all. Just wanted to say I have been on here for a week now and I absolutely love it!! I love rating pics and rating people! This is an awesome website! Tomorrow is the 4th of July and I hope everyone has a great and safe holiday. Its my daughters birthday too, so I am excited!! She will be 12 this year and wow do they grow up fast! Thanks all for making this experience a great one for me!

More About Me (updated)
I am very openminded person,but I hate lies and games,that drives me nutz.I like people with ambitions and some kind of talent.I hate stupid people who have no talent but try to convince everyone around that they have what it takes to be called A "star".Or people who make alot of promises, but at the end or even fucking beggining they can't even mantain their one promises that they've made before

Thoughts Of A Loved One.....5
When you ran into his arms....I saw you. When you were together in the park.....you were seen when he held you close, and you smiled........I cried You thought all these moments were private....and for me they were. Watching you from so close, yet miles away..... except in my dreams. So much pain......Nobody can understand.....I don't even understand sometimes..... This has nothing to do with me or him.....:) Written for me on 07*03*07

Erasing Bad Memories Is Coming To A Hospital Near You???
New Drug Deletes Bad Memories Bill Christensen, Technovelgy.com LiveScience.com Mon Jul 2, 11:55 PM ET Do you have a really bad memory, or past heartache, that you would prefer to forget? Researchers at Harvard and McGill University (in Montreal) are working on an amnesia drug that blocks or deletes bad memories. The technique seems to allow psychiatrists to disrupt the biochemical pathways that allow a memory to be recalled. In a new study, published in the Journal of Psychiatric Research, the drug propranolol is used along with therapy to "dampen" memories of trauma victims. They treated 19 accident or rape victims for ten days, during which the patients were asked to describe their memories of the traumatic event that had happened 10 years earlier. Some patients were given the drug, which is also used to treat amnesia, while others were given a placebo. A week later, they found that patients given the drug showed fewer signs of stress when recalling

Dating
I am so frustrated, my son is almost 4, I haven't been on a date in God knows how long! I know that I should be able to date and not feel bad about it, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I feel like the time I take to go on a date would take away time from my son, and I just am not for that. My son is my life, I can't imagine taking time away from him just to make myself happy. I mean since day 1 I have always put him first and anything he needs, I want to make sure he has. Even if that means I go without. I am torn.

Love A Drift
Like two icebergs in an ocean, She slowly drifts away. The bond we swore together, Tears more and more each day. The tighter I try and hold, The less of her I feel. I can picture my life without her, And now it seems so real. It seems like just yesterday, She had tears of joy in her eyes. Now as she turns and walks away, She has said her final goodbye.

Mom
Well as far as the cancer doctor can see so far the cancer is not back. Her mental state is still a little off but is doing better. So hopefully she'll be home by the weekend. On another note my daughter and her friend left the hospital with my uncle, my uncle is diabetic and been having trouble with it. On the way home his sugar dropped and he became disoriented and didn't know what he was doing. He started yelling at my daughter and swerving all over the road. She told him to pull over so they could get out and he almost hit the guard rail my daughter had to pull the steering wheel or they would have hit. I left the hospital about 45 minutes after them and happen to come upon them stopped by the police. At one point his blood sugar wouldn't even register. My daughter and her friend had gotten out of the truck and called 911. They both were so scared they didn't know what to think. What a night and I thought I was gonna have a quiet evening at home.

Perfect Sky
I went back home tonight to watch the fireworks in the town I went to high school. Sure it was just a 16 mile drive, but it was a much farther journey for me. I have not watched fireworks at home on The Shortline for 20 years. Since then I have traveled all over North America and have seen some of the finest displays in the country. It's funny, I remember the towns, places like NY and Disneyworld that are known for great displays, but they really are not memorable by comparison. The past year I have made an effort to get back in touch with my friends and family that inhabit the tiny communities that I felt I had out grown, and yes I say that with an amount of shame and quiver in my voice. I'm sitting here in the same house I have spent the last 15 years and yet for the first time in a long time I feel like I am at home. I spent the early evening hours having my shirt tale pulled by small hands sticky with cotton candy while I talked to parents I grew up with. It's amazing to walk

Nature Makes Me Think Lots
You know today i was out walking in my neighborhood to our local park and it dawned on me how enormous nature and its surroundings are.It slso astounded me how very beautiful,but deadly it can be at the snap of a finger... The trees were swaying and looking lovely. It kinda reminded me of a human waving at another human. Nothing is ever promised or guaranteed in this life except maybe three things and they are taxes.death and well the life you have right here and now. Nature can be kind and beautiful, but in a flash it can be a bitch and deadly as all hell.. we tend to take for granted the beauty laid out at our feet sometimes and the opprotunity to truly appreciate it when it does unveil itself to our very own eyes and presence... when i say nature i dont mean just landscapes or surroundings or stuff of that nature alone, but also human nature it can be even more deadly or beautiful... i have made some good friends on this site ... ones i would die for ..honestly i don

Wooooooohooooooo
I went to ticketmaster.com tonight and ordered my tickets to see Jason Aldean in concert the 29th of this month in Corpus Christi. I am a huge Jason Aldean fan and he is one of the many I have been trying to see. I am so glad that I get to go. You know I will be front row center as always. HEHEHEHE I am so happy. Take care everyone and have a great 4th. Love yaz Toodles....

If You Had Me Alone
IF YOU HAD ME ALONE... LOCKED UP IN YOUR ROOM FOR TWENTY-FOUR HOURS & I HAD TO DO WHAT EVER YOU WANTED ME TO, WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH ME? TELL ME IN MY INBOX... CUZ ITS A SECRET... THEN SEND THIS TO ALL YOUR CONTACTS... YOU MIGHT BE SUPRISED WITH THE RESPONSES YOU GET. THEY COULD MAKE YOU LAUGH OR EVEN SMILE .. LOL.IF YOU DONT REPOST THIS YOU ARE A COWARD AND IS TO AFRAID TO SEE WHO ACTUALLY LIKES YOU.SEND THIS TO EVERYONE IN YOUR TAG TEAM. COPY THIS AND PASTE IT....

Family Reunion
Sorry, all my friends, but I will be gone til Sunday to Indy for a family reunion. For all the contestants, I will try to make it up to you darlings. To my new friends: I will tap you when I can! lol Have a super 4th of July, all, your friend, Apachahokee (a.k.a. Darrell)

Truth Or Dare
TRUTH OR DARE So here's the deal...You get to ask me *Up to 5 Questions!!*, no matter how crazy, inappropriate, or just random, and I promise to answer it 100% truthfully (thats the "truth" part) ....now I dare you to repost this and see what people ask you... and creativity counts! Repost in bulletin and blog.

Happy 4th All
Get More at COMMENTYOU.com RED WHITE AND BLUE THIS IS THE FREEDOM WE HAVE IN THE WORLD. I WISH YOU ALL A GRAND DAY. RED MEANS THE BLOOD THEY GAVE FOR US TO HAVE FREEDOM IN THE WORLD. BLUE MEANS THE JOING ON OF EACH OTHERS STRENGTHS TO STAND TOGETHER AS ONE WHITE MEANS THE PEACE THAT WE SHALL GIVE ONTO ONE OF OTHER. EACH OF US SHARE THIS WITH ONE AND ANOTHER. SHOW THEM THE LOVE AND CARING WE HAVE IN US FOR EACHOTHER. SHARE ONTO EACH PERSON YOU MEET TODAY. AND YOU WILL HAVE OTHERS FOLLOW YOU. YOU WILL GROW WITH A STRONG HEART Get More at COMMENTYOU.com Love Bratty

Hormone Hostage
Subject: HORMONE HOSTAGE This is every day of my life!! The Hormone Hostage knows that there are days in the month when all a man has to do is open his mouth and he takes his very life into his own hands! This is a handy guide that should be as common as a driver's license in the wallet of every husband, boyfriend, or significant other!! DANGEROUS: What's for dinner? SAFER: Can I help you with dinner? SAFEST: Where would you like to go for dinner? ULTRASAFE: Here, have some chocolate. DANGEROUS: Are you wearing that? SAFER: Gee, you look good in brown. SAFEST: WOW! Look at you! ULTRASAFE: Here, have some chocolate. DANGEROUS: What are you so worked up about? SAFER: What did I do wrong? SAFEST: Here's fifty dollars. ULTRASAFE: Here, have some chocolate. DANGEROUS: Should you be eating that? SAFER: You know, there are a lot of apples left. SAFEST: Can I get you some thing to drink with that? ULTRASAFE: Here, have some chocolate. DANGEROUS: Wha

~happy 4th~
Wishing everyone a great & safe 4th. Have fun but be safe.. Hugsss Cheryl Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from S e x i l u v . c o m Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from S e x i l u v . c o m Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from S e x i l u v . c o m Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from S e x i l u v . c o m

Can't We All Just Get Along
CAN'T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG??? .......... Ok so I can't even follow that either but I am curious of why someone who hates on you so much to the point they make up stories and lies on you so others will join in on their hating fun....... why do they keep checking up on the ones they hate? I mean if you hate someone why go back over and over and over and over again seeing what they are doing?? Why keep discussing about them? Asking what they are doing. I thought the point of hating someone was to NOT CARE WHAT THEY ARE DOING AND STAY AWAY FROM THEM.........right???? Once again i will never understand people......

All My Love To You
You came into my life when I needed you the most You offered me your heart,your support and held me so close. You guided me out of all my misery You cared, you listened and you set all of my worries free You gave me strength when I was weak You reached for my hand to guided me back on my feet. You offered me your shoulder when I need to cry You encouraged me to stay strong and to always try. You are like a sweet angel from the sky You bring me so much joy and you lift my spirits so high. You always were the one that stood by me You assured me how beautiful my life could be. You took away all of my pain and sadness You gave me hope and showed patiences and erased my sorrows and madness. You have captured my heart and soul You are what I need you know You are truly my very best You stand out above the rest. You really mean the world to me You are everthing what true love should be. You are not only my friend and lover You are the one that I want

10 Times Its Size
> 6th grade science teacher, Mrs. Parks, asked her class, "Which human body part increases to 10 times its size when stimulated?" > > No one answered until little Molly stood up, angry, and said, "You should not be asking 6th graders a question like that! I'm going to tell my parents, and they will go and tell the principal, and you'll get fired!" > She then sat back down > > Mrs. Parks ignored her, and asked the question again, "Which body part increases to 10 times its size when stimulated?" > Little Molly's mouth fell open, and she said to those around her, "Boy, is she gonna get in big trouble!" > > The teacher continued to ignore her and said to the class, "Anybody?" > > Finally, Jimmy stood up, looked around nervously, and said, "The body part that increases to 10 times its size when stimulated is the pupil of the eye." > > Mrs. Parks said, "Very good, Jimmy." Then turned to Molly and continued, > "As for you, young lady, I have three things to sa

Here's To My Friends....
I hope you all have a safe and VERY happy 4th of July. When celebrating the holiday, please remember that the freedom we have didn't come by chance nor was it free. Someone gave their life. Someone gave and is still giving up their normal everyday life so that we can live in the free America that we enjoy. SO take a moment and remember these men and women on this special day and every day. Hugs to you all! Mary Courtesy of MsTags.com

4th July Pimpin
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Am I
There's times in a person's life where they find themselves asking themselves am i where i wanna be, am i serving my purpose in this world, am loving the the man or woman the right way, or am i just being a hypocryte with myself and to others. In their minds they are in deep thought about these questions and to everyone around them they seem distant or confused. Maybe cause they were hurt in the past and still haven't recovered from it yet. Maybe they are working where they know they shouldn't be. Maybe they are not happy witht themselves, and in this deep thought they are having the answers could be right there in front of them but they are afraid of accepting it. In the end all you do is wind up hurting or confusing the one's who love you most. It's a viscous cycle that many go through. All i'm saying is to the one's asking these questions open your eyes and you will recieve your answer's and to the love one's that are confused and hurt don't give up on us yet we will see why you are

Life As I Know It...
Is going downhill. I have no idea what went wrong, but I am no longer engaged, yet I am living with him. He's looking for 2 bedroom apartments... Before yesterday, I hadn't spoken out loud for 9 days. We just got a phone and internet in this cabin, but the internet is HIS. He makes me cry and I hate that. He belittles me and talks down to me. Apparently, everything is MY fault. I've been cutting...and contemplating death. I'm dependent on him. I have no money, no transportation, and there's an element of guilt to all of this. It kinda scares me. I've never been dependent on anyone, and he knows I'm dependent on HIM. He's not quite the person I thought he was... We had a therapy session with my therapist BEFORE any of this started. He said, 'I'm a sociopath and she's the only thing that makes me happy.' I called her crying yesterday, and she said he needs to love me for me, and not how I make him feel. The reason I was crying? He said he hated me. Then he took it back later and

Driving Lesson No [insert Numerical Of Choice Here]
WOW!!!! What a lesson... It absolutely siled it down!! The windscreen wipers couldn't clear the screen fast enough....There were rivers running down the sides of the windscreen, and me staring through a torrent of rain! The roads were flooded and I handled it like I'd been driving in adverse weather for years! If that had been my test, my driving instructor said I'd have passed it. Lets hope it siles it down on my test then LOL Damn it makes you really concentrate when you can't see 3 ft infront of your face! I can drive like that LOL It's when it's easy I make stupid errors! Bring me tough challenges...I can handle it LOL Awww and I got home, and there were a dozen Red Roses off Hubby waiting for me *smoochies*

Every Holiday I Have Something To Say...
It's the 4th of July...Independence Day! I believe in freedom, and I believe sacrifice is necessary for that freedom. We're pretty lucky to be descended from people who also believed that same thing! I hope everyone has an enjoyable holiday. I also hope that people don't become an enemy of freedom by drinking and driving. It's more than just a crime or stupid or dangerous. If you drink and drive, you're a terrorist! You, Osama, Saddam...if you drink and drive, you're all the same! You threaten the safety and well-being of every American on the road! You jeopardize the very freedom we enjoy when you drink and drive! We're Americans...regardless of race, sex, ethnicity, religion, or sexual orientation. In a world where genocide occurs everywhere from Africa to Asia to even Europe, it is extremely rare to be a citizen in such a mix! And, regardless of the mindless racism/bias of a few, we can all die in the same ways. We all bleed and hurt, and we all love our families. Plea

Terrorism
Terrorism: an american’s point of view Terrorism, a very broad term, described as acts intended to create fear or terror, it is a perception of threats and is a crime in all countries. With this in mind, would it be an act of terrorism by the american people to allow our children to starve and suffer, be threatened and tortured by the people that love them? Terrorism does not just happen when a plane is hijacked and people are killed or when one country bombs another, it happens when one person intends to invoke harm on another person. We, as americans, never think about the up close and personal until we are faced with the actual reality of it. Today, in America, our children are faced with that reality, take a look around you, what do you see? Our government really only considers terrorism when something bigger than ourselves has occurred. When we are attacked by another country, it is generally called “war,” when we are attacked by our own country, as seen in 1995, w

Suicide
Everything is what you think of while you sit alone How everything is How you wanted it to be Starting to cry you wanted something more Everything you found you knew you could never have You think your life to end would be better Be better for you Be better for everyone Only four questions are on your mind Would they care would they cry Would it change them those who say they care But most of all the one question you think Dear God will I be missed Oh well you say Just hurry up it won't hurt much One cut then another Write a note saying why would they read it say yeah right Tell yourself one more cut got to go Feel the blood around you you write only one word Good-bye.

Confessions #1
You drink to much.. You dont drink enough... Ppl drink to much... Your to drunk to care... There to drunk to care so you wake up next to a total stranger..... come visit the lounge i bartend for... http://www.cherrytap.com/lounge.php?l=8192#

What If V.2
What if Its still the big question for me and it always will seem to be What if I tried to be a better man to you Maybe you wouldnt leave me lost in the dark What if I was to go up to see you Maybe things would be clearer What if I was to never come back around, Would you even really notice? would anyone even realy care What if I was to die? How would it really effect you, for that matter would it effect you at all What if i got my shit together and tried to be a better man Would u truly love me the way you say you do? or What if this was really it and we decided to let things go would you just completely forget about me or would there still be a chance later in life What if this is our last goodbye.......... What if I still Loved you.............. WHAT IF???

This Goes To Afew Here
IM KURT AKA OAK SON OF WITCHESBREW , AND IT HAS BEEN BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION THAT SOMETHING WHICH DIDN'T HAVE TO BE SAID WAS TO MY MOM . MOM REMEMBERS NOTHING BEFORE HER ACCIDENT , AND I ASKED FOR IT NOT TO BE BROUGHT UP ! IF SHE REMEMBERED FINE IF NOT THAT WAS FINE TOO. WTF , IS THE POINT OF FRIENDS IF IT CAN NOT BE RESPECTED ON A PROMISE OR A WORD . THE NEXT TIME ANY ONE HAS SOMETHING TO SAY BRING IT TO ME " NOT MY MOM " I THANK GOD , SHE IS ALIVE , COULD OF BEEN ALOT WORST . AND WHAT WAS SAID SHOULD OF NOT BEEN SAID . KURT AKA OAK

Feeling
So lost inside, I can't seem to find the right path to walk. The only one I can find is the dark and lonely. It's so obvious in my head, but my actions never follow what I feel. I can feel the darkness and fire in my eyes when I look into myself in the mirror. I left a hole where my heart should be. Is it finally over? Have I sacrificed who I am to show you what you want to see? What did you want to see? I've shown you so much, and then you threw it all away. Now I am left alone. These feelings are all now left in vain, everything I have ever done for them all will all be forgotten. Lonliness has never betrayed me, I became the path I chose

Partytime!
Well, hell- Enough fucking around on Cherry Tap! I have to get my house ready for the party... Pools clean and so's my buzz... I am ready to go! Everyone- Enjoy your day! Have a great time on Independence Day! Hope you all get exactly what you want today! Dont take any shit off anyone and just as a favor to me, Kiss someone you love when they least expect it! Love to All- Kirk

My Vaction Back Home Akaboobookitty07
ON WEDNESDAY JUNE 20TH I WENT ON VACATION BACK HOME TO OHIO I BOARDED THE PLANE @3:00PM FOR A 5 HR FLIGHT BUT IT DIDNT WORK THAT WAY I WAS SUPPOSE TO HAVE A 2 HR LAYOVER IN NC THAT WAS LONGER THAN THAT I GOT THERE AROUND 4 OR 5 AND WAS SUPPOSE TO BOARD MY PLANE HEADED HOME TO OHIO AND BE THERE AT 8:55PM NOT THAT DIDNT HAPPEN I FINALLY BOARDED MY PLANE AT 10:05 PM THAT NITE AND FINALLY MADE HOME TO OHIO AT 1 AM I REACHED COLUMBUS OH AIRPORT WHERE MY BROTHER MADE ME WAIT ON HIM BUT THEN I FINALLY MADE TO ATHENS OHIO WHERE MY MOM LIVES AND WE HAD A GR8T TIME WE TALKED ABOUT THE OLD DAYS AND HOW MUCH WE MISSED ONE ANOTHER AND I TOOK HER SHOPPING TO WAL-MART ON THE BUS AND WE SHOPPED MY SISTER AND MY NEICES WERE ALSO THERE WHICH WAS WONDERFUL CAUSE I HAVE MISSED THEM TOO I HAVE PICS ON MY MOM AND MY NEICES AND MY SIS AND EVEN MY DOG STITCH THAT I HAD TO LEAVE WITH MY MOM WHEN I FIRST CAME HERE AND A NEW PIC OF MY NEWEST BABY COUSIN CHASE HE WAS ONLY A MONTH OLD NOT TO WORRY ALL I WILL BE

Deja Vu
"We have all some experience of a feeling, that comes over us occasionally, of what we are saying and doing having been said and done before, in a remote time – of our having been surrounded, dim ages ago, by the same faces, objects, and circumstances – of our knowing perfectly what will be said next, as if we suddenly remember it!" -charles dickens I wonder if there is a possibility we all truly know our destiny's if the future really is already laid out in our heads. Deja Vu truly is the wierdest feeling I think. I've had many Deja Vu experiences and there really strange and unexplainable like you suddenly have a ding like you know exactly what happens next and if you could actually hang on to that moment and understand it then maybe you really could know your future. It really wierds me out. I don't understand Deja Vu.

Dear Friends And Family
I'm in a morph contest, I need help to stay in the lead, Just one vote and comment would help me out greatly, but you can comment as much as you want the link is below: Thank you very much...

Dude-ity
How come all porn is about chicks? I go to the naughty store to get some straight porn and all I find are girl on girl or guy on guy. FOR FUCKS SAKE PEOPLE! All I want is some straight guy on girl action, and the camera not focused on her tits all the damn time!!!!! I should become a porn director - then at least I'd know that there is some QUALITY porn out there. What a waste of fucking time.

10 Things You Dont Know About Women
1. Women are innately self-conscious. This is not a choice; it's a genderwide condition. On a bad day, I look in the mirror and see my ten-pound-heavier alter ego. Her name is Bertha. On a really bad day, Bertha sees her two-hundred-pound-heavier alter ego. Her name is Brian Dennehy. 2. Women produce half the world's food but own only 1 percent of its farmland. So we're ﬁne with you picking up the tab. And after about three thousand dinners at Nobu, we should be even. 3. Women like porn, too. We just hate it when you hide the porn. 4. Women remember everything . Don't believe me? Ask your girlfriend where you met. She won't tell you it was at a party. She'll say it was a Thursday, she had just come from dinner, where she ate a veggie burger, and she was wearing her friend Cathy's pink top, which was big on her because Cathy is a big girl. You were wearing a blue button-down, drinking a Jack and Coke with two straws, and talking to Bill, that mutual friend. She waved and

Happy Indepandance Day...yeah Right
Just wanted to wish all my CT friends a very Happy 4th. Mine on the other hand is not that great. I'm stuck in bed, I can barely walk and in severe pain. I was supposed to go to WV and have a cook-out with my mother and my family, but I couldn't handle the 2 hour trip. So today is going to be nothing more than another crappy day for me. I will use my wheelchair tonight to go onto the front porch and watch the fireworks that the let off accross the block from me. The trees block some but I can see the majority of them anyway. I want a watermelon, so hopefully I can talk my hubby into stopping and getting me one. At least I can have something that resembles a 4th of July day. LOL...Anyway, enough of my babbling. I just hope everyones 4th will be a blast. Love you guys.

Noobs, Gotta Love'em
What is wrong with noob's these days, why oh so serious, LMFAO co556guy: Thats nice. ->co556guy: I REALLY DON'T GIVE A SHIT IF YOU ARE THE 2ND COMMING, NOW FUCK OFF YOU RETARD co556guy: And maybe I just know a few people who have been around longer than I co556guy: maybe not, but tact and such are universal. I don't get why people such as yourself even take the time to go around and insult people, unless they need to make themselves feel better about their sorry lives ->co556guy: lol, don't make me laugh, you only joined here today, you know nothing lol co556guy: Welcome to the land of account deletion ->co556guy: lol, whatever cunt co556guy: I don't think so. You have just pissed off the wrong guy. This might be the time for you to find a different site to be an asshole on ->co556guy: fuck off co556guy: You know, what you posted on my girl's mumm is just distasteful and rude. Appologize, go away, and learn to use some discresion. If you won't like it, just don't post any

Do We Ever Learn?
I have blogged a little off and on about a "certain someone". He moved here, lead me to believe we were in love, moved back to help his family, failed miserably, visited me once, called me twice ( in 8 months ), and now is totally ignoring me. Yeah, nice huh? Last conversation we had he said we were still "together" ( this was a month ago mind you) I have talked to him once since then and that was for a very short time. He has been online signing into my space and such, but hasnt taken one second to say hi to me or tell me he was ok. last I heard his wife ( well she was his ex wife but I think he wasnt too honest about that situation ) and the kids were being evicted from their home. That means he is somewhere and I have no idea where. Nice huh? Why cant he just come out with it and tell me he had no intention in ever coming back? Just keep me hangning and hoping for no reason. What an ass. I mean, I dont regret anything we went through. Some of it could have gone differently, but it

Interesting Observation
I've just discovered that I can go to work, never really do anything at all and still be paid. Generally I'm a hard working individual, I put myself into whatever it is that I'm doing. I started a new job (lets call it "Job X") over a year ago, I gave everything I could until it literally consumed me and tore apart my personal life. I saw those around me in the same positions doing nothing, just kind of being there and every now and then dropping an e-mail to the boss. I still pressed on, until one day it dawned on me that no one really cared. As long as spots are filled, there is no reason to step from the mediocre into the spectacular. To test my view, I stopped doing everything. Very abruptly, just stopped. I showed up, I filled a spot and I went home. To date not a single person has said anything... I get paid to eat, smoke and walk around talking to people! I obviously don't work in the hands on, technical world. That was a long time ago. The point I'm trying to mak

Why
WHY DID HE SACRIFICE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON,WHY DID THEY CRUCIFY HIM BECAUSE THEY KNEW NOT WHAT THEY HAD DONE.WHY DID HE EVEN THINK TO ALLOW US TO LIVE,BECAUSE OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST HE DECIDED TO FORGIVE.YES HE FORGAVE US FOR THE WAY WE CHOSE TO LIVE, BUT HE NEVER FORGOT ABOUT WHAT THEY DID.SO HE SHOWS US MERCY AS WE GO ON OUR DAILY WAY,AND FOR HIS MERCY AND CONSTANT FORGIVENESS I WILL ALWAYS PRAY.WE THANK YOU JESUS FOR DYING FOR US THAT DAY,I THANK YOU FATHER FOR LISTENING TO WHAT YOUR SON HAD TO SAY.BECAUSE OF YOUR ULTIMATE SACRIFICE EVEN FOR MY ENEMIES I WILL PRAY,I WILL PRAY THAT THEY WILL BELIEVE IN YOU AS I DO IN THE SAME WAY.RECEIVE MY SOUL FATHER TAKE ME IN MAKE WHOLE SHOW ME THE WAY,HELP ME FOCUS MAKE ME STRONGER AND IN MY HEART,MIND AND SOUL YOU WILL STAY......AMEN...PEACE ...PAPI..

An Explanation
It's been an interesting 3 days. As an experiment, I made this profile to see what would happen. Purely out of curiosity. I haven't led anyone to believe I am the real Paris. Anyone with the slightest amount of common sense can tell that I'm not her. I didn't even try to make the profile convincing. If I was just searching for attention, I could have gone to many people's pages and rate/friend/fan them, to climb the cybernetic cherry ladder. I could have responded to people in some sort of way, but instead only spoke directly to the few people that saw the humor in what was really going on. If I wanted to be someone else, and the profile be some kind of role-playing game, I could have found any random non-celebrity photo and made gave them a fictitious name. I could have not posted any pictures of who I am, or anyone else for that matter. But, then again, there are profiles like that out there. Profiles that have pictures of funny things and animals, but no inclination of WH

Cry
At first you made me feel special like I was the only one, But I'll never forget the things you have done At first I thought you were play fighting but later I found out I was just blind sighted I want you to hold me But I can't stand your touch As I feel you hug me, the pain becomes to much As I curl up on my shower floor crying all my tears I try to wash away my cuts and bruises To try and escape my fears You promised to protect me But I stop to wonder why the same hand that embraces me, is the one that makes me cry

I Will Always Wait For You
As I look into his eyes, and deep into his soul, I couldn't bring myself to say those words that would make me feel whole I think about you day and night, you are always on my mind There's no one else out there your one of a kind Even though you live far, I can still feel you near I wish I could hold you now please come take away my fear Please don't be afraid I finish what I start The love I have for you, is written deep in my heart I never thought I would care, for you as much as I do But I want you to know I will always wait for you.

Age Aint Nothin But A Number, Right!
It clearly states on my profile that I am lying about my age. I find it interesting to see how old people think I am based on my pictures and proficiency level of my writing as well as my pop culture references. There are those who know my real age and even the handful of those who were able to guess. I don't lie about my age to find myself a younger man. Hell, if that were the case, I'd set my age for older. It's currently set at "Forever 27" LOL and I get enough attention from the under 31 crowd as it is. I'm not sure if there is a trend going around about younger guys being interested in more mature "MILF" types, but aside from harmless internet flirting through cheeky comments, I wouldn't want to diddle an 18 year old. 29 however... but I digress. LOL.. A short time ago I created a fake profile to do a little sociology experiment. Well, it was also to be able to fuck with a dumbass, but that was just the icing. I wanted to see what kind of attention a relatively good lookin

Marys Revenge
THIS POEM ME AND MY SISTER WROTE, BECUZ OUR STEP MOTHER LEFT OUR FATHER, AND WE WERE VERY VERY ANGRY. SOO DON'T TAKE OFFENCE TO IT Vexed, Confused and out of breath find myself willing to pay for your death Just love to punch you in your thin lips while my sister gives you kidney shots in your butterfly hips Hope you realize by causing our dad so much grief you've just earned yourself, a whole lotta beef If our dad dies I'm gonna spend the rest of my life hunting you down cause its serious beef no foolin' around I will make sure you live your life with pure struggles cause you abandoned our dad your precious cuddles Be careful which streets you walk and be selective where you sleep cause were gonna make you pay for my dads broken heart that you still keep We'll come and get you, and we won't make a sound becuz the next time your family see's you your gonna be six feet in the ground So don't you think that you played us for a fool becuz I'll co

Happy Fourth
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from S e x i l u v . c o mSexy & Romantic glitter graphics from S e x i l u v . c o mSexy & Romantic glitter graphics from S e x i l u v . c o m I hope you you have a good one and you managed NOT to burn anything

This Week...
Well this week started out on a great note. First thing Sunday morning i Passed my CDl test so i could start driving 18 wheelers acrossed country Legally. Then tuesday i found a couple companies to drive for, which wont be a problem. Won my 2 softball games tuesday nite, then went to the bar to put down a cold one or 3 and ran into a great friend of mine that just got home from Iraq. I have never relized how much our troops do for us until i sat and talked with him about his missions over seas. Then today July 4th in which is my fav. holiday i have sat home and had a BBQ with family. having a bon fire and met some new great people on here. I hope i can meet some more in my near future. My life in the past three days has changed alot. I have relized the good and the bad choices that have made recently are catchin up to me. So please help me keep this great week going. Peace Ryan

You Know What Sucks?
You know what sucks? Well... the Cardinals are right now, for one. But what REALLY sucks is how people in St. Louis drive. NOBODY'S cars came equipped with blinkers. They are an optional feature in the St. Louis area. I have also found that we have 5 million people in the metro area- and not one single person, besides myself, knows that unless you're passing- you shouldn't be riding in the left lane. I HATE ST. LOUIS DRIVERS! God bless xanax... without it, there would be a lot more road rage!

If He.........
If he were a color, he’d be the bluest sky, As the sky touching my earth, Ever yearning for his touch upon me. If he were a feeling, he’d be like the vast midnight sky, Filled with shimmering diamond stars. Leaving me clutching the earth as I dizzily stare into his eyes. If he were a sound, he’d be the hushed rustling of leaves, On a warm summers day as I lay in the shade, soothed by his voice. If he were a scent, he’d be wild mint, gently crushed and fresh. Like catnip to a cat, intoxicating me to playfulness. He is my Master, leather and velvet, Leaving me deliriously swimming in emotions, Leaving me speechless in silent joyful song, Leaving me yearning for the fulfillment that is him, Leaving me lost but found. Leading me ever deeper into the unknown. ©cherrie 2007

I'm 84% Redneck (should I Be Upset By This?)
(x) have you ever lived in the country? (x) shot a gun? (x) own a gun? (x) hunted? (x) driven a truck? Subtotal = 5 (x) chewed tobacco? (x) gone camping? (x) listened to country? (x) owned a country cd? (x) fished? (x) worn a cowboy hat? (x) worn cowboy boots? Subtotal = 7 (x) ridden a horse? (x) seen a farm? (x) worked on a farm? ( ) lived on a farm? (x) fed a farm animal? (x) worn carhartt? (x) lived in a small town? (x) worked on a car? Subtotal = 7 (x) seen a nascar race? ( ) been to a nascar race? (x) been to an oval track? (x) seen a demolition derby? (x) seen a figure 8 race? (x) talked on a cb radio? (x) had a cb in your car? ( ) seen smokey and the bandit more than 10 times? Subtotal = 6 (x) watched the dukes of hazzard episodes? (x) owned more than two cars that don’t run? (x) been to a junkyard ( ) been a racist (x) been in a ford vs. chevy argument? (x) gone cow tipping? (it dont exactly work like that) (x) went frog gigging? S

Aww No Fun For Me :(
Well it's the 4th of July and I have to work how sucky is that?? What's worse though is I have to work in Salinas which is 200 miles aways from where I live and I start at midnight. I'm gonna miss out on all the good BBQ and fireworks since I have to leave by 8 to make it down there on time. Oh well I get holiday pay :D and maybe I'll see a few fireworks being shot over the bay on the way down there :D

"walking The Dog"
A little girl asked her Mom, "Mom, may I take the dog for a walk around the block?" Mom replies, "No, because she is in heat." "What's that mean?" asked the child "Go ask your father. I think he's in the garage." The little girl goes to the garage and says, "Dad, may I take Belle for a walk around the block? I asked Mom, but she said the dog was in heat, and to come to you." Dad said, "Bring Belle over here." He took a rag, soaked it with gasoline, and scrubbed the dog's backside with it to disguise the scent, and said "OK, you can go now, but keep Belle on the leash and only go one time around the block." The little girl left and returned a few minutes later with no dog on the leash. Surprised, Dad asked, "Where's Belle?" (YOU'RE GONNA LOVE THIS!!!!!!! !! ) The little girl said, "She ran out of gas about halfway down the block, so another dog is pushing her home."

100 Random Things About Me (in No Order Whatsoever)
1. I'm 75% Irish, 25% British (well, technically, Welsh). 2. I often wish I was full-blooded Irish (or at least full-blooded something). 3. I am a Scorpio and exhibit almost all behavioral tendencies (good & bad) the sign is supposedly known for. 4. I am left handed (in doing most things, anyway), which I believe is still less than 15% the world's population. 5. I was severely underweight for much of my childhood. 6. I'm a frustrated Philly sports fan who's losing more interest in all of it every day. (actually, I barely pay attention to the absurdity of it anymore) 7. I've become more political as I've gotten older. 8. I often use humor as a defense mechanism in serious situations, or sometimes just 'cause it's fun. 9. I'm generally very opinionated but pride myself on listening to others' viewpoints. 10. I have no time for people who don't respect others' beliefs. 11. I believe that a woman's body is her own f**king business, and not beholden to any

Lemon Cake
Lemon Cake Ready for the perfect summer dessert? Serve this fabulous cake with lemon curd or fresh raspberries, or just enjoy it with a cup of tea -- or a glass of iced tea. Credit: Barefoot Contessa Parties! by Ina Garten Servings: 16 Ingredients: * 1/2 pound unsalted butter at room temperature * 2 1/2 cups granulated sugar * 4 extra-large eggs at room temperature * 1/3 cup grated lemon zest (6 to 8 large lemons) * 3 cups all-purpose flour * 1/2 teaspoon baking powder * 1/2 teaspoon baking soda * 1 teaspoon kosher salt * 3/4 cup freshly squeezed lemon juice * 3/4 cup buttermilk at room temperature * 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract Glaze * 2 cups confectioners' sugar * 3 1/2 tablespoons freshly squeezed lemon juice Directions: Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F. Grease two 8 1/2-by-4 1/4-by-2 1/2-inch loaf pans. Cream the butter and 2 cups granulated sugar in the bowl of an electric mixer fi

How
How can you be so in love with a person, yet still have the most idiotic fights over the most idiotic things? Im 20, and Im pretty sure ive found the woman I want to spend my life with. Ive been threw hellish relationships the past 5 years. This is the only one that has ever made me think about not looking anymore. Now I like to comment girls, who I think look sexy or cute in whatever they wear in a picture. She does the same things to guys, but Im the one getting screamed at constantly about it. Thats not fair now is it? We've fought about this for a month now, its really startin to get on my last damn nerve. I dont know why she's feeling insecure. Im always with her & im always complamenting her. I think shes the hottest person in the world. Look at our picture together. But i dont know how much more stupid fights I can deal with. I dont like not knowing what to do. Anyone got any advice to a guy that needs it badly?

My First Day Of College
This is going to be very long, but I need to vent. Okay, I attended my first class last night, and I must admit that it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. It was much, much worse. This course, as I understood it, was supposed to focus on business writing. It was my assumption that we would therefore focus on things such as resumes, business letters, and the like. Instead, I discover the class is really all about writing research papers. I might be able to handle that without killing myself, but the teacher added the bonus that everything we write about must be related to a local or national problem with the educational systems in our country. Why? Well, because education is our instructor's interest, and if she's gonna read all those papers, she might as well be interested. Here are some gems from the syllabus, with my comments: Course Requirements and Assignments Academic Blog (20%) You will maintain an academic blog that will serve as both a filter-style b

Shes In My Eyes(for Julie A.k.a Jewls)
I could sit and look at her for hours,this she doesn't understand. Her beauty is like waters flowing in a stream. Like the dawn of a new day,or the setting of the sun. She is all the things on my mind when I close ny eyes to dream. The though of her makes me think of meadows of flowers. Or a cloudless sky so bright warm and blue. She is all things in this world wonderful to look at. Even if I was blind her beauty would still shine through.

Family Pimp Out
Family pimp out time. One of the fastest growing families on tap. H.T.A Owner Pr03ffect C.T HUBBY TO KILLER BLUE EYES H.T.A OWNER@ CherryTAP §@u§ie-H.T.A. CREW LEADER@ CherryTAP Midnytize ~ H.T.A. Grenade~@ CherryTAP Cain H.T.A. Grenades Launcher - CT hubby to CrazyBytch H.T.A Bombshells@ CherryTAP ?iller?lueeyes ?CT wifey to Pr03ffect? *HTA Bombshell* Plus Size Pinup@ CherryTAP ~*BJ*~ H.T.A.'s Sweetest Bombshell & Recruiter@ CherryTAP Fallen Angel - H.T.A. Bombshell@ CherryTAP ~MEMBER OF THE SYNDICATE~(CLUB F.A.R)

I'm Too Horny!
If there's something I have noticed as of late, though I don't have enough energy in general, my sex drive has been far off the charts lately. I've found myself compelled to masturbate more than usual lately. I'm not complaining because one should be proud to have such a sex drive. I'm 25 years old and I keep wondering if I'll ever meet someone. But anyway, just another observation. Not the first one I've made either. I know that some of my NSFW photos drive certain people nuts and I happen to be open-minded enough that I would post that. I was a very shy person just a few years ago. I guess I've grown into who I really am over time.

25 Random Things About Me
25 random things about Me 1.) I like to sew…. Until it feel like work 2.) I love good food… You can usually tell how someone is going to be in bed, just by the way they eat. 3.) I can’t stand a lier or a thief … I would give someone the shirt off My back if I felt they needed it more than I did 4.) I love to write… Until it feels like work. 5.) I love to paint… It’s good therapy. 6.) I am sadistic… I get giddy when I get to cause pain 7.) I am mouthy… I refuse to bite My tongue… I don’t believe it is healthy 8.) I am stubborn to a fault… I won’t budge if I think I am right. 9.) I am a brat…. What’s Mine… is Mine… 10.) I love babies… They are our hope. 11.) I don’t like to drive… Other drivers scare the hell out of Me. 12.) I don’t like malls…just way too many people. 13.) I am a blogging fool … I love the feed back. 14.) The only way I know how to love is… Unconditionally 15.) Respect is a big thing to Me… To earn respect you must respect yourself 16.) I can work on

*sigh* I Give Up....
So yeah..I think that I may have messed up something that was gonna be really nice... I wanted something to happen...gave the green light and then started thinking about in the past the times that I'd done that and how it blew up in my face, that I lost that person, even for their friendship....So I changed my mind about the green light...I didn't want it to happen like it did....and if I could do it over I would... And now in my mind that the damage is done....No unfixing it...I was good and played by the rules..and it blew up in my face... And by green light I mean a shag...

· Sweet*bitch < Downrater
I got my first 1 rating on a photo tonight. How do you guys deal with down raters? I'm not all hardcore into the stats, but I like the motto "If you don't have anything nice to day, then don't say anything at all" I'd love you feed back on how to deal with this girl!

My Little Secret
As I Lie Here Listening To The Wind Blowing, Thinking To Myself What Have I Done, I'm So Confused,Not About How I Feel Towards You, But How I Mess Up Everything. I Just Can't Lose You,Thinking About The Good Times,But Bad Times Is What Hurts Me Mostly. Time Will Tell How We Really Feel Bout One Another. Sorry For Hurting You,For Everything I Have done, In Time You Will Understand Why,But Til Then,My Secret. These Tears I May Cry,Hurting Deep Down Inside, Hurting You Was Not Intended,Now Feeling So Lost,So Trapped. I Think About You Day And Night,Afraid Of Our Love,Scares Me Too Death.Not Knowing What To Do, But Yet So Afraid Of Losing You. The Wind Now Fading Away,Only Sound I Hear Is My Heart,Breaking From What I Have Done,Maybe Losing That Someone In My Life. Our Love Is Out Of A Fairy Tale,No Two People Can Love Each Other More,Then We Do,But What We Had Was Amazing.

Things I Been Through
im 22 years old been a gang member been a drug dealer, been an str8 hustler and a robber all that before i was 18. lost one of my good friends to one of the big homies to the set we belonged to, and that was str8 out of high school, stole cars and robbed niggas at school,callled the principal out to catch my fade, i was a fuck up but then i learned when i turned 21,i lost another close friend of mines, 2 of my uncles and my grandma, which she passed the day before i turned 22. life's too short for me to keep fuckin up. but now im 22 the people that cared most about me are gone and now im pretty much on my own everyday i wake up wondering whos next and i stay in the wrong area for my background .

Semi-annual Feline-apparel Sale At Victoria's Secret
Once I escaped from the dungeon and goblin-warrens, I spied some ruins nearby. Camped out within them were a pair of what appeared to be travelers. I went up to say hi (weapon sheathed), but apparently the cat-people say hello with an arrow to the breastplate. Bringing my sword to bear upon her furry countenance, I couldn’t resist the temptation to see if she reacted to being magically set on fire as well. No reaction, but I did defeat her, and proceeded to slay her human cohort. As I was looting the human’s corpse, I accidentally grabbed his pants. Seeing as I already had pants, and his weren’t worth selling, I dropped them next to the body. Now that I could safely return to the cat-woman’s body, I learned that cat-women happen to wear the exact same style of lingerie as 20th-century human women (black, btw). I must note, however, that she was not attractive in the least. Girl with cat-ears and maybe a little tail? Cute. Woman with an oversized lioness-head? Not cute. Her armor wasn’t

July 5, 2007
Some excitement is coming your way, so savor this sweet, slow day. It's a great time to recoup your energy, enjoy the company of loved ones or get outdoors. Later, you'll be glad you took this respite.

To My Friends
good morning to my awsome friends i hope you have a good day and i hope you had a great 4th,mine wasnt bad my mom came and got me and my daughter her and her bright ideas taking me to battlecreak for fire works and my mom drives so slow we mist them lol love you all

~ You Cannot Change What You Do Not Acknowledge~
= YOU EITHER TEACH PEOPLE TO TO TREAT YOU WITH DIGNITY AND RESPECT, OR YOU DON'T = YOU SHAPE OTHERS BEHAVIOR WHEN YOU TEACH THEM WHAT THEY CAN GET AWAY WITH AND WHAT THEY CANNOT. = HATE, ANGER AND RESENTMENT ARE DESTRUCTIVE. = UGLY EMOTIONS CHANGE WHO YOU ARE. = YOU'LL NEVER GET WHAT YOU DON'T ASK FOR. = BELIEVE THAT YOU DESERVE WHAT IT IS THAT YOU WANT. = TALK IS CHEAP. = MEASURE YOURSELF AND OTHERS BASED ON RESULTS- NOT INTENTIONS,OR WORDS. = YOU EITHER GET IT OR YOU DON'T. = YOU CREATE YOUR OWN EXPERIENCE. = YOU CANNOT DODGE RESPONSIBILITY FOR HOW AND WHY YOUR LIFE IS THE WAY IT IS. = YOU WILL NEVER FIX A PROBLEM BY BLAMING SOMEONE ELSE. = EVERY CHOICE YOU MAKE- INCLUDING THE THOUGHTS YOU THINK, HAS CONSEQUENCES. = IF YOU DON'T HAVE A PLAN, YOU'LL BE USED AS A STEPPING STONE FOR THOSE WHO DO. = IF YOU DON'T REQUIRE MUCH OF YOURSELF, YOUR LIFE WILL BE OF POOR QUALITY. = WE TEACH PEOPLE HOW TO TREAT US. = THE SAME PAIN THAT BURDENS YOU N

Just Want To Know Why
OK NOW IM JUST GOING TO SPEAK THE FACTS THAT I'VE SEEN HERE. THIS ISNT TO ALL OF YOU FIRST OF ALL OK. WELL OUT OF ALL THE LADIES HERE ON CT THE US GIRLS ARE FALLING SHORT ON KEEPING THEIR WORD. THE CANADIAN AND THE UK LADIES ARE HOLDING AT 100% FOR KEEPING THEIR WORD. I GIVE THEM ALL PROPS HERE. BUT I'M NOT SAYING ALL YOU U.S. LADIES DONT KEEP YOUR WORD I HAVE AFEW OF YOU AS FRIENDS THAT DO AND ..... I DO THANK THE ONES THAT DO :-) BUT I THINK WHEN YOU PUT UP FA,RATE AND FRIEND ME I'LL DO THE SAME OR RETURN THE FAVOR YOU SOULD FALLOW THROUGH WITH WHAT YOU SAY, NOT JUST PART OF THE WAY... HECK IF WE COME BY AND SPANK THE HELL OUT OF YOUR PHOTO'S AS YOU ASK REMEMBER YOUR REQUEST AND DO THE SAME GIRLS IS ALL I'M ASKING SAME WITH FANNING TOO.. NOW TO YOU CANADIAN. UK AND WORD KEEPING U.S. LADIES I THANK ALL OF YOU HAVE A NICE DAY

P.m.s.
Tired of looking at pics where she looks like she just sucked on a lemon? Does YOUR pic look like someone just farted in your general area? If you answered yes to any of these questions, or know anyone who can, please, continue reading! We have an epidemic on our hands! Apparently, it only affects females as far as we know. It affects 2 out of 5 women worldwide. You won't know you have it until you're exposed to any kind of image capturing device. It causes distortion of the mouth and jaw area, and in some cases, unusual squinting or bulging of the eyes. It's name.....is P. M. S.- POUTING MOUTH SYNDROME. Ladies, the effects of P.M.S. are completely reversible if caught in time. The treatment is very simple: STOP PUSHING OUT YOUR LIPS EVERYTIME YOU OR SOMEONE ELSE WHIPS OUT A CAMERA!! Seriously, it's not sexy on everybody, and definitely not EVERY SINGLE TIME. Now, I'm a nice guy so I'm not gonna put anybody on front street but, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! If you know someone who suffers f

What A Life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my life is seem to worthless already..im doing my best for everything but no ones cares about it.. In return they are the one whos going to hurt you alot... If i ever get the chance to wish something and that is, im not here in this world already.. I put my best in everything but why is it im the one who always suffer like this.. I give too much love for everybody but they are the one whos being abusive... I thought everything will be just fine but still its not... PEOPLE ARE BEING ABUSIVE TO ME AND FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE FOR THEM..what am i suppost to do to make them accept me for what i am??? The problem is that, they are not contented for what they have in there life and used to hurt everybody...

I Am This Girl
I'm the girl who will put her head on your shoulder, not because I'm sleepy, but because I want to be closer to you... I'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain, more than in an expensive resturant... I'm the girl who says, "Okay, but you owe me..." jokingly. Not because I actually want something, but because it means I get to spend more time with you and I care... I'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and I will have fun because it means I am spending time with you... I'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms... I'm the girl who never forgets all the sweet little things you do for me... I'm the girl who once I let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it. And even if we spend time apart, I'm the girl who never forgets you.. I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss.. I'm the girl who you can talk to about anything.. I'm the girl

This Is About Me.
ok so most people by now know or have figured out that im a cancer/gemini. well last night i was on the phone with someone that i concider a good friend doing some talking. so here are some explanations of the way that I am. I put up this front to almost everyone. The im straight forward and a major asshole front. its like a protective barrier and a test i guess. I have a major problem with getting close to someone and then pushing them away shortly after. I just don't want to feel anymore pain than i already do on a daily basis. i have been threw more in 23 years of life than most 60 year old's have been threw and thats the reason for the front. if you like me give me some time and the wall will come down. I always get the question from a certain someone asking me why i can talk to her on here or text messages, but can't look her in the face in the mornings or talk to her when she is around. Im sorry its part of the barrier and not much i can do about it. For some reason you ar

Your Patience And Love Is Appreciated
www.hostdrjack.com I WILL BE WORKING HARD ON TRYING TO ORGANIZE OUR CLUB FOR THE NEXT FEW WEEKS AND I AM BASICALLY WINGING IT LOL NO PUN INTENDED, BUT I AM LEARNING EVERYTHING AS I GO SO PLEASE BE PATIENT WITH ME AND I WILL DO THE BEST I CAN TO MAKE THIS A HONORABLE AND GREAT SUPPORT CLUB. I WILL PROBABLY BE A LITTLE SLOW AT PERSONALLY RATING YOUR STUFF FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS DUE TO PUTTING SO MUCH TIME IN GETTING THIS ALL WORKABLE AND FUN SO I AM ASKING FOR YOUR PATIENCE AND SUPPORT AND IF ANY OF YOU KNOW HOW TO DO A BLOG WITH A BACKGROUND AND THE LINKS OF OUR MEMBERS ON IT AND WOULD LIKE TO VOLUNTEER TO DO IT FOR US PLEASE LET ME KNOW I TRIED YESTERDAY BUT IT DID NOT TURN OUT RIGHT SO IF YOU DO PLEASE LET ME KNOW OK. I WILL BE POSTING THE RULES AND AGENDAS SOON SO PLEASE LOOK FOR UPDATES ON A DAILY BASIS IF YOU WOULD BE SO KIND. HOPE YOU ALL HAD A WONDERFUL 4TH! AND IF YOU HAVEN,T VISITED OUR LOUNGE YET COME ON OVER AND CK IT OUT AND PARTY WITH US! ONE MORE THING IF YOU HAV

Happy Birthday To Me !
Oh my God ! I'm 27..in 3 years time I'll be 30..That's a big number actually...lol but let's stick to being 27.. I never knew I would make it this far. Seriously 5 years ago I was lost and about doing nothing that brought meaning to my life. Now everything is falling into place. I feel so blessed to be surrounded by family and friends that care... Although there are some things that I wished were different this year...all in all I'm still thankful to be receiving the stuff that I have. Rather than focusing on what I don't have. Thank you so much Fred, Ruben, Lorenzo, Lee, Max...omg the names are endless...but hell I'm not complaining !!! Thanks so much guys !!! I feel blessed

The End Of Man
The End of Man Paul R. Mays 07/05/07 Mankind will sooner or later be wiped from this little ball we live on. This is a fact not an opinion. next week we could be hit by a mile wide hunk of iron and we're toast. A shift in the magnetic field of the planet will someday wipe 90% of all life from the tiny blue ball we call home. Someday the sun will burp and all life will be ash in seconds. Someday a super volcano will erupt and almost all life large enough to see with the naked eye will vanish within months or years. These are facts that have happened 12 times in the past. We have a record in the rocks that show 12 separate epochs in this balls history where almost all life was wiped at each event. So I wanted to give a view of the only option that can save our species from being nothing more that radio waves passing through space for some life on some far away planet to receive and watch reruns of "I Love Lucy" sent out into the universe a million years before, the ghost of

Gifts
Wanna know how hot you are??? You're OK-----teddy bear You're CUTE----red rose I'd Do Ya!!----any spicy gift You're SEXY----dozen roses Let's Be Friends----kitten We can party----any liquid refreshment Wanna get Married??---any big pimpin' gift Repost this and see how many gifts you get!!!

Y Do I Always Have To Put A Title?? The Song Speaks For Itself!
Takin' my time Choosin' my lines Try'n' to decide what to do Looks like my stop Don't wanna get off Got myself hung up on you Seems to me You don't wanna talk about it Seems to me You just turn your pretty head and walk away Places I've known Things that I'm growin' Don't taste the same without you I got myself in The worst mess I've been And I find myself starvin' without you Seems to me Talk all night, here comes the mornin' Seems to me You just forget what we said And greet the day Seems to me You don't wanna talk about it Seems to me You just turn your pretty head and walk away I've got to cool myself down Stompin' around Thinkin' some words I can't name ya Meet you halfway Got nothin' to say Still I don't s'ppose I can blame ya Seems to me You don't wanna talk about it Seems to me You just turn your pretty head and walk away Yeah, walk away Walk away Walk away.

Fuck You Soup
Take a little heartbreak, the real bitter kind, that leaves you real angry Add a dead end job, the kind where you bust your ass for minimum and sore feet Mix in over due bills, with some smartass 20 something debt collector calling at 10pm Put this in a big bowl of your past & the emotional baggage you lug around Make sure to add a new guy who blows you off and stomps your heart into the ground Finally, have your mom call you and lecture you about everything she hoped you'd be For a nice Fuck You garnish, a successful sister, who just made partner, how sweet! This is my version of Fuck You Soup! I highly reccomend a nice bottle of Vodka for this soup!

Back To Black
He left no time to regret Kept his dick wet With his same old safe bet Me and my head high And my tears dry Get on without my guy You went back to what you knew So far removed from all that we went through And I tread a troubled track My odds are stacked I'll go back to black We only said good-bye with words I died a hundred times You go back to her And I go back to...... I had to borrow Amy's lyrics to describe how I feel. I can not believe that I was foolish enough to be caught up in this fuckery. And now, as usual, I feel worthless and guilty. Mrs. Lotus Blossom

July!
Make Me Miss July! I'm on the bottom of the first page.;o( I need your help to put me into the tristate hotties calendar! Vote in the Calendar contest as well as playing cards contest! ** Remember, joining with my recruit number gives me five extra vote points! If you're not from the Tristate area, use zipcode-08869. My Recruit ID# is 325. Help me win!! PLEASE JOIN!!!!!!! It will really help me get further!

The Mike And Roy Show Hunt To Miss Mars Of Fubar
Hi gang here is how this will go down. In a never ending effort to shamelessly plug our show we have the Miss MARS Contest. The Boring Rules! 1 You must be a member of Fubar 2 Your photo (With you in it) must have one of the following in the photo.( Not photo shopped in either!!) The Words "Mike and Roy Show", MikeAndRoyShow.Com, Or one of many versions of our logo that has been made over the last year. (You Can make your own if you wish as long as the show name is on there)See Myspace.com/marsgirls in the photo area for printable/iron on copies the show logo. Keep in mind If Roy can't read or see Mike And Roy Show or the logo clearly. It won't count! 3 In good effort the photo should pass the NSFW rule. I know this may be hard since everything seems to be covered under that. This would be a contest I hope we will get many cherries involved in and not have to add a bunch of friends just so they can view a contest photo. Let's just say I hope it doesn't come to that.

Why I Do This
I am an Animal Rescuer My job is to assist God's creatures I was born with the need to fulfill their needs I take in new family members without plan, thought or selection I have bought dog food with my last dime I have patted a mangy head with a bare hand I have hugged someone vicious and afraid I have fallen in love a thousand times and I have cried into the fur of a lifeless body I have Animal Friends and friends who have animal friends I don't often use the word "pet" I notice those lost at the road side And my heart aches I will hand raise a field mouse And make friends with a vulture I know of no creature unworthy of my time I want to live forever if there aren't animals in Heaven But I believe there are Why would God make something so perfect and leave it behind We may be master of the animals, But the animals have mastered themselves Something people still haven't learned War and Abuse makes me hurt for the world But a rescue that ma

Life
Don't Miss It Take time To look around you See if your world looks like you want Make time To see what is not right Fix things so you can have what you want Don't forget People in your life who never leave People who are always there Take care Of those who are there Make note of those who truly love you Be careful Not to overlook The special ones. One day they may all be gone. ~Ang 4/22/2007

Taken For Granted.
Freedom With today’s political and social climate, we hear a lot of talk about freedom and in many cases the image of freedom is a misguided one proposed by those that actually wish to be safe, rather than free. Warriors look at freedom in a different light than those that will never have the fortitude, the courage or the determination to be warriors, which always at some point raises a conflict between warriors and those who only wish to be protected by warriors. Throughout history, families, tribes, villages, and countries have sought freedom from those that seek to control them and to various degrees many have succeeded in gaining their freedom, only to forfeit it once again by assuming that freedom includes the freedom to do nothing. Warriors on the other hand understand that freedom can never be gained, earned, won or maintained without sacrifice, so therefore freedom and sacrifice can never be truly separated. Non warriors presume that freedom is

My Return
After being gone for a month and numerous delays switching internet carriers I am finally back. Thank for all the love given me and concern while I was gone. You are all the greatest and very true friends.

The Grand Opening
The Grand Opening I had finally had sometime to myself. The boys were camping with they’re grandmother and I had sometime before school started. I have always wanted to visit Canada, so no better time than the present. I checked on tickets and hotels. I found a good deal leaving on a Thursday. I put the package on my card and commenced to packing. I didn’t know anyone there but was going anyway. I found a place about 5 minutes from Detroit. So, if it wasn’t all that I could just hang in the motor city for the weekend. I had talked to a friend in Dearborn and she had turned me on to this new club opening on Saturday. I wasn’t sure because I haven’t done the club scene in about 10 years. I had some family I wanted to see plus I wanted to do some shopping. I visited to some relatives and a few of my cousins took me to the mall. We caught up and I asked about the new club that was supposed to be opening. They said that they had heard of it but wasn’t sure if they were going to check

Ct Rulz
1. If someone is nice enough to rate you, rate them back. Men... DO NOT BE AFRAID TO RATE OTHER MEN! No one is asking you to date them... Just to Rate them~~~ 2. If you dont like someones photo, leave it and dont rate it at all. Just pass on it. Dont bother to rate it at all. You would not walk up to a stranger on the street and say... Feck man.. I would give you a 2... So why the feck you wanna do it here??? 3. If you dont like someone, dont talk to them. Block them. Babyjesus and Scrapper work hard to make blocks and things. You dont like them... Block them. Dont talk to them. 4. If someone is nice enough to fan you, fan them back. It is a nice way of saying thank you. And you both are getting points for it. 5. Keep your bs out of other peoples bulletins. Marq and Achilles are wonderful for bringing their shit to the bulletins of others. Why? Because they are mindless cowards and have nothing going on in their lives to fulfill them. Thus, they add people to their lists, t

True Or Fake ?????
Why do P/people think they have to be one P/person for O/one and A/another for A/another ?? Why can't we just be O/ourself and be cared for for being who W/we are ??? Does a computer screen make the difference or are P/people always going to be like this ?? I personally am on here as i am in real life if i say some thing to you its real not made up and fiction ... I wont t ell Y/you i am something i am not ..... I can be your best friend or the one who you can walk away from that is Y/your choice but don't tell me Y/you feel or are S/some one Y/you are not ... I will not be like that i truely care about O/others and if Y/you want a true friend look me up if not go away

It,s As Easy As Breathing....
www.hostdrjack.com CLUB RULES AND REGULATIONS IT,S SIMPLE........... PLEASE GIVE THE RESPECT THAT YOU EXPECT. OUR GOAL IS TO HELP OUR MEMBERS. WE WILL REMAIN A STRESS FREE AND DRAMA FREE CLUB. NEVER TAKE ANYONE OR ANYTHING FOR GRANTED IF YOU DON,T KNOW...ASK. SIMPLE IT,S LIKE A GOOD BOOK I READ ONE TIME SAYS DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO UNTO YOU... AS WE WILL BE CHANGING ALOT OF THINGS AS WE GO ALONG PLEASE FEEL FREE TO LEAVE ME ANY QUESTIONS OR SUGGESTIONS IN A MESSAGE AND I WANT TO KNOW YOUR IDEAS HEY I AM NEW AT THIS TOO... BE SURE TO WELCOME ALL OUR MEMBERS WITH RATINGS AND COMMENTS, I,M SURE THERE IS SOME THAT YOU DON,T KNOW. WELCOME ALL NEW MEMBERS THE SAME WAY AND BE SURE TO CHECK FOR UPDATES FOR AGENDA AND INFORMATION IN MY BLOGS ON A DAILY BASIS THAT,S IT! MORE INFO FORTHCOMING... HAVE A BLESSED DAY

Tuesday, July 3 2007 - Shell Beach
From my page at: http://www.wannasurf.com/community/index.php?option=com_wclogbook&task=showLogbook&id=6080&spot_id=3926&lbk_view=table&lbk_view=blog Spot: Pismo Beach, USA California Session's Rate: Nb waves ridden: A few....Almost Lentgh of the surf session: 1-2 hours Surfboard ridden: Good 'ol "Red" Weather and water temp: colder than LA thats for sure Waves height: less than 1m / 3ft Description: This wasn't at Pismo, it was actually at Shell Beach, probably a mile down from Piso. It kinda sucked, the waves died out before I could get acclimated to the colder northern waters, and the super slow waves that would just roll in without breaking, super sloooooooowwwwwwly. There were some good lefts and rights, which totally fucked me up. The LA beaches I frequent have equal opportunity waves that offer lefts and rights, so I don't get all that technical at this point. I'm gonna have to get used to that shit someday, so it's all good. I heard they had just c

My Birthday
So I rang in my 21st birthday by drinking it up in Vegas and I ended it by buying drinks for everyone last night and got totally plastered... today i have plans for some 151, malibu rum and pineapple juice!!! Can u say caribalou? I don't even know how to spell it!!! lol

Why Are We Fighting??? Can Anyone Tell Me?
hey everyone, i ahve not written in a long time, but i am going to try this again.. i sit here and i sit here day after day. just thinking of the world out there passing along. you know it funny i wonder what all the people in the world are in such a big hurry for. i seem to get more acomplished in my day by taking my time and thinking about what i am doing. people are fighting everwhere. out in the world yes but here too. come on people, think about it aren't we doing the same here as we are complaining about out there in the world ? yes ok i know the puter is the world , but we have to remember this; anyone can be anyone behind a puter screen and key board. i have lots of friends out there, but there are alot that i don't know either and i just have to give people the benefit of the doubt. then if they mess it up it is on them not me, and i know that i gave it my all to get along. then i just let it go. so why do we feel that we have to get even with someone??? if we take care of our

No
I sit here in a dark courner Crying alone. My heart I walled up keeping anyone from getting in. I am standing on an emotonial ledge. Teetering over the edge. If you are not here to save me then reliese your grip and let me fall. If you wont come here and be by my side then why bother holdeing on at all. I'm not intrested in a friend because that All I have. I am there teddy bear that they tell there secrets and problems to. when there done I am tossed aside or in a toy box only to be brought back out when another problem comes up. They don't cuddle with me at night, or wish to keep me as there own. I am thrown again into the darkness. So that is where I will roam.

Help Me Choose
I HAVE 5 PICS IN AN FOLDER MARKED, "NEED SOME HELP" PLEASE GO IN AND COMMENT ON THE PIC THAT SHOULD BE MY NEW PROMO PIC. THESE ARE THE PICS THAT I PRINT OUT AND SIGN FOR FANS. WHICH SHOULD I US.....PLEASE HELP ME OUT

My Check Up
i went to the doctor today and found out i have stage 2 breast cancer,so they are going to take the lump out and hopes to it not returningback for good,breats cancer stage consits of two stages and one is were they cannot detect the spread but can detect the lump in the breast and that is were im at they detected a lump but the will hafe to run lots of test to find out were it is and if theycan get rid of it with just meds or surgery.so what i have right now is a tumor in my breast which can be remoed. m happy to find out it hadnt spraded yet and all prayers that people are sendng me i thank you so much for with out you all id be lost.god bless and ill try my bestto keep everyone informed. please dont feel sorry for me thats not what i wan just pray and let god do the work.ty,luv honielynn

Needing Advice
Ok this is my delima...... I have 2 very good friends, and they used to be married then date then now again broke up. ( I know they are both gonna read this, but I really think I need the feed back on this one.) Any ways I have this big annual party that I have been having for a few years now( this will be the 4th one) and they both have attended every year. And to really put a spin on it this will also be the very Last one ever due to where we have it is being sold. Anyways... I am very good friends with lets call her Jane.. she is my best friend, and I understand she dont want to deal with her EX there, but on the other hand lets call him BOB, he has done the DJing for this party every year and really knows how to get it going and keep it going, he very fun and out going and alot of people who are coming asked if he was doing it again. Also I am still good friends with him to, Also my mother wants him there to dj. She even offered him Money to come and do it. Ive been honest wit

Something That Just Made Me Cry
I was reading my sons book to him titled I will love you forever.A part in the book has this in it I will love you forever I will like you for always as long as Im living my mom you will be.When I read that I started to cry since I recently lost my mom and love her so much it reminded me of how much I miss her and love her.

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Using your mouth Your sexual hidden talent is your ability to use your mouth. You are incredibly sensual, a great kisser and a seductive lover. You drive all of your partners crazy with your mouth. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

4th Of July Pics
Well I uploaded a few. But looks like CT is acting up. I have more to upload but I keep getting Error: upload not completed successfully.. try again? I used firefox. i have reoboted, refreshed and its not letting me upload them. I have tried everything. I went to the support lounge with no help.. I will try and upload the rest later. CT has me pissed at the moment :(

"just Friends"
I guess the term "just friends" doesn't mean shit anymore. It's all in who wants to f^ck who. Guess it's impossible for a guy to not want to bone every female that comes within reach. F^ck it, I'm out. I can't play these little games, even in an online atmosphere. I'm in a f^cking war zone, working 60 hours a week, going to school full time so sorry if I can't email people the way they want to be emailed. I know, it's my loss

Just Have To Ask
Why oh why do the same people continue to come lurk around my page .... seem to do nothing ~ Oh goodness I dont wanna know what they are doing ...Ewwwww and continue to send me a friend request that I have rejected time and time again ! Do they think I will change my mind ? Nope, Notta Does this happen to you to ? Please help me here .. I am again never ceased to be amazed by stupidty Ho Hummmm

Play Time
PLAY TIME By rattdoll The phone rang at 4:00 in the morning. I decided not to answer it, because it woke me up out of a sound sleep. You left me a message on the machine. “Wake up! Wake up and give me a call back, it’s important!” I get my lazy body out of bed and find the phone and call you. You tell me that you know I’m horny, and that you have some one that I should meet with. You tell me that your friend is just a couple of years older then you, and he has black hair, a fit body and very horny. I tell you, “Sure darlin, send him over.” You tell me that you’ll give your friend directions to my place and he’ll be there in about 20 minutes, then tell me bye. You call me back five minutes later and ask if I would like for you to come over too. I could not resist having your body, so I said yes. You tell me that you’ll be over in about a half hour, and hang up. No sooner then I hang up the phone, you

That Person
that damn person with no spine who likes to makr your pics NSFW some may have deserved it others showed nothing.Such a spineless idiot of a cowardly stain.At least have the courage to leave a comment as to why you rate the pics NSFW.

None
Well I fought my last and final boxing match today. Needless to say it was a victory for me knocking out the girl in the 4th round. I can't say i will miss the sport, don't get me wrong its been my thing since i was 14, but you can only handle going to sleep with a headache for so long. lol. It was a great way for me to end my 13 yr career as a female boxer. it meant even more having my dad there to support me. He's now suggesting I go back to wrestling. I don't think the world is ready for that yet. ; }

Malokata
MaLakota- MaLakota(I am Lakota)! Still holding onto our ways and our ceremonies,still a proud people.People want to be like us,they want into our ceremonies,want to know our language.They want to try to understand us or any other Native,the thing is,they can't ever reach that point in understanding.As my ancestors have tried to convey over and over since the European Invasion of this country; WE can NEVER be understood because our traditional way of life is completely different of those in the dominant society .Outsiders want to know how we perservere in the times of adversity..Lakota people will tell you that it is our way to suffer,it was meant to be that way for Lakota Oyate..It teaches us to strive for the best,teaches us to be humble but most of all it teaches us to depend on Tunkasila in the time of need,he's the only one who can actually fix our wrongs.So when Tunkasila thinks we learned our lessons he helps us to move on with no regrets so that we may go out and help others bu

For Team B
www.hostdrjack.com TEAM B IS DIFFERENT BECAUSE THIS IS THE CALVARY RIDIN IN TO KICK BUTT AND BRING OUR MEMBERS TO VICTORY!! THEY,RE GONNA LUVVVV YOU! SINCE YOU CAN ONLY RATE SOMEONE,S STASH ONE TIME EACH YOU SHOULDN,T GO IN AND RATE OUR CLUB MEMBERS STASHES UNTILL WE CALL YOU IN VIA BLOG TO A CERTAIN PERSONS STASH WHO IS CLOSE TO LEVELING. I AM GOING TO ASK EVERYONE TO LET US KNOW WHEN THEY ARE ABOUT 5,000 PTS AWAY FROM LEVELING AND TO LET US KNOW AHEAD OF TIME WHEN THEY ARE AT 10,000 PTS AWAY SO I CAN PUT THEM ON A LIST FOR YOU TO DO. IF ANY OF OUR MEMBERS STASHES ARE VERY LARGE YOU CAN FEEL FREE TO RATE THEM THE SAME AS YOU ALWAYS DO YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS NOW. BUT SAVE ENOUGH OF THE STASH TO GO IN WITH THE FAMILY AND BRING THEM TO VICTORY OK. AS I TOLD TEAM A I WANT YOU GUYS ALL TO GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER AND SO GO AND RATE OUR FELLOW MEMBERS PHOTO,S AND FAN AND RATE THEM AS USUAL. WE ARE A STASH CLUB FAMILY NOW AND TEAM A IS JUST AS IMPORTANT AS TEAM B IS

Asleep Continued
being wrong again that everything wont change when we return feeling this again i guess its better when we leave bridge: falling for you once more brings me back to memories weve made i have my decision to bring you back this love i dream at night god bless you all derekxxxxx

Just About Through With Ct
Seems people are more interested in point whoring than making meaningful friendships...I'm 38, I don;t need the adolescent BS that populates this site for much longer. Hope the door doesnt hit too hard on the way out when I make my decision. :)

Morning Sugar
As June Halstrom sat at her kitchen table drinking her morning cup steaming hot black coffee, she thought, "God, I wish I could just sit here all day!" It was cold outside, about twenty degrees, and June involuntarily pulled her terry cloth bathrobe tighter around her body. She had a lot of errands to run today, and the day wasn't getting any shorter! Her reverie was broken by the ringing the kitchen phone, and after answering it, it was her neighbor Bev who wanted to come over for a quick visit. June started to protest, but gave up when her friend said she was coming over and hung up the phone on her. Two minutes later there was a knock on the back door and Bev came in without waiting for her knock to be answered. "Now, Bev," June protested, "I've got a lot of work to do today, and I don't have time for any fooling around!" Bev plopped down on a chair and poured herself a cup of coffee, cocked her head to one side, and looked June over with lust in her eyes. "Now just a minute, Bev,"

The Life And Times Of A Single Middle-aged Mom
Okay. So gone are the days when I could throw caution to the wind and conduct myself like there could be no tomorrow. I was single. And I was young. And I had no kids. Now, I am middle-aged (or so they say). I will soon be *gasp* 45 years old. How sad. I don't FEEL 45. I don't even think I look it. I get hit on by men who should be dating my daughter. But she's almost an adult. A sure sign that I am getting OLD. I listen to popular music and like it (sometimes). I don't try to dress like I'm 21...I know my limits. My figure was never built for that even when I WAS 21...LOL. Oh yeah - and when I complain to my mom about getting old, she says "Think how I feel! I have a daughter that's middle aged!" Point taken. As I come to this milestone birthday, I think to myself "Is this it? Is this my existance? Am I to live out the rest of my life wondering where the time went and why I had to be a responsible adult, a good provider, a decent mom, and someone in a profess

Drums
Thank you, [$DEITY] for whomever you saw fit to instill with the need to create drums. FUN 20 minutes banging away on a kit are as good as a months worth of therapy, and that's a fact. and I get a partial workout too, without the bruises that Sensei leaves me as reminders to practice... MORE FUN Animal was right..."Beat Drums!!!" such a simple truth... I do love em, yes I do... *now let's see if I can hit my piano with something heavy...* :D

Paradise Awaits
in a room i sit all alone waiting to come home as my day goes on i think of you and you help me get through at night i wait to hear your words they give me sweet dream all night long as time goes by i think of you and when enough has past i will come home to you together a life we can build nothing can stop us nothing can stand in our way of building our paradise together we will stand side by side and walk through life hand in hand i once thought happiness could not be found you turn my world around you showed me joy for a long time i have not seen you have given me hope for my dreams when i look into your eyes paradise awaits

Family Emerency
TO FAMILY THIS RUBIA I WILL BE OFF LINE OFR THE NEXT FEW DAYS DUE TO THE FACT MY EX HUSBAND AN GIRLFRIEND ABUSE MY SON, MY EX HUSBAND WHO CHOKED AN SLAM MY SON IN TO A WALL OVER ICES PLEASE BARE WITH ME ANY ONE NEEDS HELP GO TO SHADOW OR CANDYRAIN ALSO CHERRY HAS A FAMILY PROBLEMALSO SHE HAD TO LEAVE FOR HER SISTHIER SHE WILL BE BACK ON STAURDAY EVENIN PLZ KEEP CHERRY IN THE LEAD IM SORRY LOVE RUBIA

Destiny!!!!!!!!!!!
When you're taught through feelings Destiny flying high above all I know is that you can realize it Destiny who cares as it turns around and I know that it descends down on me It's just another day the shame is gone hard to believe that I've let it go Destiny can't replace my life Scary shadows of my past are alive Destiny who cares as it turns around and I know that it descends with a smile It's just another day the shame is gone it's hard to believe that I've let it go away It's just a melody it bleeds in me hard to believe that I've let it go

Plubic Restrooms
Subject: Public Restrooms !! > > >It is not the destination but the journey > > > > When you have to visit a public > > bathroom, you usually find a > > line of women, so you smile politely and take > > your place. > > Once it's your turn, you check for feet under the > > stall > > doors. Every stall is occupied. > > > > Finally, a door opens and you > > dash in, nearly knocking down > > the woman leaving the stall. > > > > You get > > in to find the door won't latch. It doesn't > > matter, > > the wait has been so > > long you are about to wet your pants! > > > > The dispenser for the modern > > "seat covers" (invented by > > someone's Mom, no doubt) is handy, but empty. > > You would hang > > your purse on the door hook, if there was one, but > > there > > isn't - so you carefully, but quickly drape it > > around your > > neck, > > (Mom would turn over in her grave if you put it o > > n > > the FLOOR!), yank down > > your pa

So You Say
You say you love me, and I know I love you But you say things to me that just aren't true "I can't live without you" "I'll do anything for you dear" You say only things you think I want to hear What about honesty? Where did that go? Am I here just for sex? Am I just your hoe? That's the only time I feel special to you Feel needed, feel pretty, like you want me, too If this is real love, and true love it seems Then why do you lie and why are you so mean? I love to love you. You mean the world to me So why do you hurt me? Can't you see? I don't want you to leave, and I'm afraid that you will Every time you're gone, my world just stands still I don't want to hurt and I don't want to cry What's wrong with giving a damn about me? Do you think you could try? If your will is strong, and you want this to last Then give it your best effort and forget the past I know it takes time, so why not start now? You know what to do, don't ask me "how?" So why can't we foc

Wtfe
I realize the internet is an opportunity to meet a variety of people, and I think...if you can listen for a sec...here it is ....illusional love. Meaning..love can be felt, but not for real...The heart can feel what the eyes can't see, and its happening all the time . A lot of people feel somthing for the people they talk to on a regular basis, but you have to understand, as much as it is wanted it is not real. Until you meet. Till it becomes real and you meet...thats when the reality starts...I don't know ..just my opinion..I care about people that I have never met, and I think its more of an illusion then what we all care to admit.

Iggy
Well I logged off the pc before she got home from work. Needless to say I did hide out in my daughters room in the sweltering heat. (We hit records today with 101) She hasn't mentioned anything else to me, but I have this really empty feeling if that makes sense. The way that I see it, if I do have to go stay at my moms until I go back to Germany can't be as bad as staying here feeling like I am in jail or being treated like a 2 year old. At least at my moms I would have my own room and peace and quiet. The only thing I would not like is having to give up the job I got because there is no bus out there. With all of this bullshit I am damned if I do and damned if I dont. For me being a usually "UP" and Cheery person, I am feeling really hollow right now. My only goal at this moment is to be back in Germany with Rudi and that is not possible till at least August 20th, and thats only because passport bullshit. I do need to snap out of this though, because I hate being in this mode =(

The Marine
A United States Marine was attending some college courses between assignments. He had completed some missions in Iraq and Afghanistan. One of the courses had a professor who was a vowed atheist and a member of the ACLU. One day the professor shocked the class when he came in. He looked to the ceiling and flatly stated, "God, if you are real, then I want you to knock me off this platform. I'll give you exactly 15 minutes." The lecture room fell silent. You could hear a pin drop. Ten minutes went by and the professor proclaimed, "Here I am God. I'm still waiting." It got down to the last couple of minutes when the Marine got out of his chair, went up to the professor, and cold-cocked him; knocking him off the platform. The professor was out cold. The Marine went back to his seat and sat there, silently. The other students were shocked and stunned and sat there looking on in silence. The professor eventually came to, noticeably shaken, looked at the Marine and asked, "What the

Be Loved
My Beloved is the earth I am the flower longing to blossom inside of Thee forever He is the Star I am the moon that worships him as my shadow reflects His Blessed Light My Beloved is the Sun I am His devoted beam of light eternally mirroring His Mystical Sunshine He is the Perfect Pearl I am the shell that holds the secret inside as He grows ever more Divine with time He is the Face I am the tear that sheds for thee endlessly wondering will He ever look towards me? My Beloved is the Eagle I am the song I pray He sings..... echoing throughout the canyons of time Beloved hear my cry! He is my Heart and I the blood that rushes in and out calling His name ..... Beloved make me rich with Thy Spirit! He is the Sea I am the wave ceaselessly calling for Him as I long to reach His Shoreline time and time again... My Beloved is the instrument I am the note praying He weaves me into His Divin

Women
What is it about women? If you asked any woman you ever knew, what they are looking for they would all tell you the same thing. They all want a nice guy, someone with a sense of humor, that makes them laugh. Horse shit! that's what it is. I can't tell you how many women I've known that say that very thing but they will go out with, hell, even marry the biggest jerks on the planet.Men who treat them like shit. Abuse them mentally, emotionally even physically. Are they just born liars? do they just have a standard answer for that question, not meaning any of it?You try to be a nice guy. You try to treat them the way they say they want to be treated. What do you get? shit on. You heard me right. Women will go out with you all the time looking for another guy behind your back and will dump you when they find the one who will treat them like shit. And then have the nerve to sing that "I want a nice guy" tune again. Gees, why bother with being a nice guy. Why not just treat women like they d

Contest Starts Today After Noon (friday)
I found another contest this one alot nicer then the last, and it even offers awhole lot more! instead of 50000 comments this one lasts 1 week with as many as possible comments, it is a comment bomb contest but i will need the rates just in case too. It opens after noon today and i can't wait! It offers the following if your wondering: 1st place get 1 month VIC, 1 month Blast and a Happy hour! 2nd place will get: 1 month VIC and a 1 month Blast! 3rd place will recieve: choice of either a 1 month VIC or 1 month Blast, i'll take what i can get but i'll need your help! I will reward those who go the limit and drop as many comments on my pic as possible! rates and all, check my profile "ABOUT ME" section for details! I'll also post a new blog later with the link just in case, Thank you all so much and i hope to see your help, i will be there myself! Love The Beebs

The End Of Love,the Start Of Pain
The end of love, the start of pain The blood from my heart that now aches, stains With the thought of your image, the thought of you care Devoted to another, whilst my spirit is bare Where am I to go, where is my hope now Am I no longer important like our dedicated vows You promised to always be there, and love me no matter what But it seems you’ve moved on, loved another and forgot The breakdown of our relationship, the break of my poor heart You punctured it with your cruel ways; you stabbed it with a dart You took away my faith, my dreams, I now have nothing left My happiness has disappeared; a brutal act of theft You promised to always be there, but now it all depends On if you’ve found another love and when my heartache ends

Eddie Van Halen Vs. Eric Clapton
Well, the votes are in and believe it or not, Eddie Van Halen beat old slow hand! Eddie Van Halen-23 Votes Eric Clapton-18 Votes Read 'em and weep gang, 'cuz you voted! Mr. Van Halen has won three in a row!!

Ok 10 Things I Love ( Ready??)
Okay, so a top ten list is totally unoriginal. I'll always give credit where credit is due though.I just felt the need to fill in my "blaudiance" About those things that I am grateful for. 10. I will award the number ten spot to one of my favorite characters from Grey's the show. Alex Karev, as played by Justin Chambers, is your standard "bad boy" character that can't help but display many of his "good guy" redeeming qualities. Remember the scene when Denny died and Izzy couldn't let him go? In what would probably become the most memorable moment of the season, it was Alex that came to her rescue. After reminding you of that scene, need I say more about why Alex is my favorite character? Actually, what I find even more interesting is the fact that Justin Chambers is very much the family man. You may find it surprising to learn that he is actually 37 and married with five children. Is it just me or does his status as a family man actually make him even more attractive?

The Art Of Looking
Do you wonder if this is your chance, to examine the future and all that might last? Material things just gather the dust, whereas thought becomes life force and this is the thrust. A look in the mirror at the start of each day, a vision of emptiness...but a nice résumé. It's all in the cards ~ but its not yet a deck. sit back and slow down, take the time to reflect. Look clearly at life and into your own, understanding the choices that cannot be postponed.

Cowboys With Skoal
Ah yes-- Sex with a Cowboy Prior to her trip to Texas , Buffy (a New Yorker) confided to her co-workers she had three goals for her trip to the Lone Star State : 1. She wanted to taste some real Texas Bar-B-Que. 2. She wanted to take in a bona fide rodeo. And.. 3. She wanted to have sex with a real cowboy. Upon her return, the girls were curious as to how she fared. "Let me tell you, they have a tree down there called a Mesquite and when they slow cook that brisket over that Mesquite , it's ooooh so good. The taste is unbelievable! "And I went to a real rodeo.Talk about athletes...those guys wrestle full grown bulls! They ride horses at a full gallop,then jump off the horses and grab the bull by the horns and throw them to the ground! It is just incredible! "They then asked,"Well tell us, did you have sex with a real cowboy?" "Are you kidding? When I saw the outline of the condom they carry in the back pocket of their jeans, I changed my mind!"

My Thoughts...
Honestly, fakeness comes in many forms and sometimes it may take a long time for you to realize how fake one person can be. Fakeness can come in the form of fake pictures, pictures of someone who isnt them. Fakeness can be people who pretend to be your friend because it benefits them. Personally I think all of us have been burned a couple times, hell I had a friend over 3 years on the net turn out to be the biggest fake Ive ever known.. Sad really. how do you learn to find trust in people again... sadly its not always taht easy ... alot of good people may lose out on a chance to know you cause some twisted fuck decided to fuck with ya head...

Joke
For his birthday, little Joseph asked for a 10-speed bicycle. His father said, "Son, we'd give you one, but the mortgage on this house is $280,000 & your mother just lost her job. There's no way we can afford it." The next day the father saw little Joseph heading out the front door with a suitcase. So he asked, "Son, where are you going?" Little Joseph told him; "I was walking past your room last night and heard you telling mom you were pulling out. Then I heard her tell you to wait because she was coming too. And I'll be damned if I'm staying here by myself with a $280,000 mortgage & no bike.

Chris Benoit
Ok well i know a'lot of people out there think Chris Benoit is this monster and all, I have had some ask me why i have him on my page so much, I will set the record straight, the truth is I knew him in person he was my friend, if he did what they say he did or not will never change how i felt about him, he was my friend and always will remain my friend, I will miss him and honor what he stood for and what he did for wrestling, if people are not happy with that im sorry but I will never turn my back on my friend. i love you Chris and hope to see you again someday

Oh Hell....
Holy hell I feel sick right now. It's 6 in the morning and I can't sleep, I'm in that stage where if I lay down and close my eyes everything starts spinning and then what, well I get this lovely dizzy spell and then, Oh and then, i can barely use my legs ha. I swear I always get the shitty end of the pot. Oh shit well sorry I'm a bit loopy right now. More later.....

Moving Soon So I Will Be Missing For A While
Dark greetings to you all my dear dear friends and family! I am both sad and happy to say i will be moving in a few days to be with my beloved suzan ^_^ I am scared and so very excited and would like to let you all know im not ignoring you all i am but moving and do not have the time to get on the net much! also i have this neat little count down to when i move! ^_^i will be online as much as i can but with packing and moving interstate i will not be on much! ^_^ i hope to talk to you all when i get back online and tell you of all the things i have done and the happiness i had in moving my entire life for good to a place where no one knows me and i know no one!!! such is my life and time that this just has to come to pass i suppose! but anyhoo i shall go now! i am sorry and i can not wait to talk to you all soon! Until then talk to you soon ^_^ High Elder~WolfiePuP~((Founder)) L.D.C. (Alpha of the Lupin Clan) protector of Rebel Bitch@ CherryTAP

Fuck Cliques
Some of you may know that Ive been around CT since back when it was LC. Well, back then there weren't any "cliques". Back then it was every person for themselves. You made friends, and the ones that you really liked went into your family list. Those were the people you helped first. Then people started talking shit. Next thing you know there was one clique. Then suddenly there was another clique that popped up to fight that clique. Then there were off shoots of those cliques. Then more cliques. Now it seems that everyone belongs in some clique. Or feels the need to belong to some group. Im sure you all know someone that seems to spend all their time within that little group. Well, I say fuck that. Im all about helping my friends out, especially those that reside in that special place...my damn family list. If theres other people that want or need help I'll help them out. IF you ask. However, if you beg I will totally ignore you. Look, I'm all for having a preference as

Help Me Make Up My Mind Please!!!!
Here is my situation...super condensed version.... I'm divorced with 2 kids (boys going on 12 & 13). We have always lived in the same small town. All my family is here. All the ex's family is here. The ex is here. The boys get to see both sides regularly and though they LIVE with me, they get to see their Dad almost as much. All their friends and family is here... this is all we have ever known. NOW THE DILEMA: I am engaged to a great guy who lives in NC (about 5 hours from here). He can't move here because of his job. He wants me to move there. If I move there, that will mean uprooting the boys... and making all our family upset. The ex is fighting me on this... it will totally mess up our visitation schedule.... and we are going to court sometime soon to see if I CAN even move.... but I am soooo torn about this. Maybe it is just cold feet, I don't know or maybe it is my gut instinct telling me not to go? WHAT SHOULD I DO?????

I Need A Drink........
Good morning.........been up all night and I'm wanting to continue my party......please buy me a drink, send me a comment or just say hello......you are my friend on this crazy ass virtual Bar so show me some luv!!

Where's Slick? Part 1
Hello my friends! First, let me apologize for being a under-achiever lately in the friendship department. I have heard rumblings that some of y'all have been actively seeking what happened to me. You know who you are! I love you all XOXOX That being said, I do believe some excuses are in order. Well, I suppose that 'reasons' is a better choice than 'excuses' but either way I should explain. I do feel badly about just dropping off the grid, but as I have said here before, sometimes life gets in the way of having online fun. The bottom line is, my life has been filling up in many ways. First in a long list, is my youngest grandson Jude. 6 weeks ago he was diagnosed with congenital cataracts in both eyes. Poor little guy just turned 2 in December past (he & I share a birthday - how cool is that?). He was having difficulty with visual recognition and the doctor found him to be legally blind. Please understand that my son is deaf since birth, and my oldest grandson Gareth is als

Friday
FOR THOSE WHO CARE, I WILL BE AWAY FROM CHERRY TAP FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS. ME AND MY BOY ARE LEAVING TO GOTO HIS MOMS, THEN I AM STAYING THERE TO VISIT WITH FRIENDS. I SHOULD BE BACK SUNDAY. EVERYONE I KNOW IT WILL BE HARD, TRY TO SURVIVE WITHOUT ME. IF YOU ARE FINDING IT HARD TO SURVIVE, JUST SOME LUV TO THE SHOUT BOX, PROFILE, OR PRIVATE E-MAIL. IT WILL BE OKAY. LUV TO ALL, SEE YOU SUNDAY

Exhibit A
Confessions of a Pervert 2 Exhibit A Something changed after my encounter with Sylvie. In some ways I thought it strange, but the one thing about what happened that I couldn't forget, the memory that haunted me and gave me a hard-on every time I thought of it was the moment when I realized an almost total stranger was watching me, that she could see me, completely naked, and that my cock was getting hard right in front of her. It awakened an exhibitionistic streak I don't think I'd been fully aware of; I've never been shy about my body, and on the several occasions I'd been seen naked by strangers I found it more exciting than embarrassing. But in this building, this dangerous rathole rife with every kind of vice imaginable, I felt free somehow to indulge whatever lewd fantasy I could dream up. No one here knew me, none of them would ever meet anyone who'd known me as a more-or-less 'normal' person, and I would probably never see any of them again. I could become someone els

Strep Throat
I was diagnosed this morning with strep throat. I am out of work and alone for the next 3 days. Any hot men want to come and nurse me back to health, that would be wonderful. Just kidding, don't want you to get it.

19 Questions
19 LOVE QUESTiONS;; 1. Three Name You Go By: A. B. C. 2. Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now: A. B. C. *You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY. [01] Do you still have feelings for your ex? A: [02] Have you ever been given roses? A: [03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie? A: [04] How many times have you honestly been in love? A: [05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate? A: [06] Whats your current problem? A: [07] Have you ever had your heart broken? A: [08] Long Distance Relationships? A: [09] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend? A: [10] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"? A: [11] How many kids do you want to have? A: [12] What is your favorite color(s)? A: [14] Do you believe you truly only love once? A: [15] Imagine you're 79 and your spouse just died, would you get re-married? A: [16] At what age did you start noticing the o

Dirt Roads
LOVE THIS SHIT, OH SO TRUE, PEACE!!!!! What's mainly wrong with society today is that too many Dirt Roads have been paved. There's not a problem in America today, crime, drugs, education, divorce, delinquency that wouldn't be remedied, if we just had more Dirt Roads, because Dirt Roads give character. People that live at the end of Dirt Roads learn early on that life is a bumpy ride. That it can jar you right down to your teeth sometimes, but it's worth it, if at the end is home...a loving spouse, happy kids and a dog. We wouldn't have near the trouble with our educational system if our kids got their exercise walking a Dirt Road with other kids, from whom they learn how to get along. There was less crime in our streets before they were paved. Criminals didn't walk two dusty miles to rob or rape, if they knew they'd be welcomed by 5 barking dogs and a double barrel shotgun. And there were no drive by shootings. Our values were better when our roads were worse!

Tattoo Survey
1. Have you ever cried during a tattoo? no, I slept through em all 2. When did you get your first tattoo? when I was 21 3. What was your first tattoo? The anhk on my left shoulder blade 4. Which tattoo is closest to your heart?my blue rose "Tashanna" my daughters tattoo 5. Do you have a matching tattoos with someone? no 6. Do you have a tattoo that someone messed up on? no 7. Do you have anyone's name tattooed on you? Yes my daughters 8. What was the most painful tattoo you received? Umm none I slept LoL 10. Do you plan on being heavily or moderately tatted? Moderealty close to heavy 11. Do you have a tattoo that you constantly have to explain? yes 12. Have you ever gotten an infection from a tattoo? no 13. What is the longest session you've ever sat straight? 2 hours 16. Do you regret having gotten any of your tattoos? no! 17. Would you consider ever getting any of your tattoos removed? no 18. What are you going to get for your next tattoo? So

No Regrets..
He pushed me, my beliefs, my inhibitions, my body, my mind, my proverbial line.. I wanted him more than the air I breathe, in my bed, inside me, he was in my mind.. He took a piece of me, devoured me, like an angry beast, I willing fed his his hunger. The scratches down his back a reminder of the delicious pain he gave to me, like no other. I hated him, I loved him, I only knew for sure, I wanted him over and over, again and again. He did not need to ask or want, I submitted to his every desire, just for his touch on my skin.. Some would say I am weak, maybe he was my latest addiction, if so I want no rehabilitation.. We were feeding on each other now, like two animals, each of trying to out do the other.. I screamed out in pain and in pleasure, I pulled him in deeper and he satisfied my hunger.. The night turned to morning, finally we had no more to give, our bodies lay here intertwined, dripping in sweat, smelling of sex, my mind, my body, my soul, all give

Crying Stars Like An Sad Little Emo Girl
I went to the doctor's yesterday. I've found a doc (well NP) that I really like. Thats the upside to it at least. She talked to me for a long time and asked a lot of question. She came to the conclusion that I am indeed having panic attacks. There are other things that can give you the same type of symptoms. She also thinks that this is all because of stress. I'm not sure if I agree with that but I could just be in denile. She gave me a prescription for Zoloft and told me to make an appointment with a counselor. Yay? I don't know... here's to hoping it helps. XOXO

Where's Slick? Part 2
Here I go again, so much to say, so little time. If you made it thru part 1 and you are looking at this you are truly a fine friend. Unlike me. ;) The 2nd part of all of this surge in real-life activity is by far the more interesting and pleasant. After all, I have always had several family crises going on, and typically I do work a lot just by nature. But the other stuff has most definitely sucked up almost every other waking moment for the past 5-6 weeks. It seems that now I have a roommate. Not only a roommate, but a houseful of lovely creatures. I call her Captain Sweetheart, and she came with an 8-year old living doll known as Sweet Pea. Throw into the mix a pair of cats named Gracie & George, and The place is full. Before, it was just me and my little buddy Garfield the cockatiel. And a lot of quiet solitude. Amazingly, the bird and cats are getting along great. He likes for them to sit next to his cage and then he gives them little birdie kisses and talks to them. If th

My Horoscope Today
Very good one for me today. . . . If a certain situation is over, then let it be over. Stop hitting replay in your memory. It's time to eject that disk and move onto something new. If nothing else, at least notice how many times you think about it today.

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Lady At The Wheel
At a truck stop way out west Lay five rigs pulled up for rest Each sixteen tons of polished steel With a man at every wheel Then through the fog a sixth pulls in Its big head-lights cut the dim Air-breaks hiss as she steps down Need no more then that to turn heads around Stretching high she heads inside The drive she’d done still in her mind When the whispering starts she’ll just smile She’s gotten used to it with every mile She walks to take a window seat Take a sip of coffee or a bit to eat And through the fog she can see Her big rig waiting patiently She glances at the truckers there Laughing at their wild stare “What’s the matter with ye all?” “Never seen a lady haul?” Finishing her late night snack She’ll head off down the beaten track A bark is heard from her hound Caus’ he too knows they’re homeward bound As she climbs into her cab She thinks about the life she’s had Thanking God about this deal Caus’ she’s only alive behind the wheel

Dream Guy
I dont want a guy to shower me in gifts, an fly me to paris on weekends.I want a guy who notices when I get my hair cut, or when I dress up he compliments me on how I look. When I cry he wipes my tears, and when im lonely he makes me feel loved. A hug means more than any gifts or presents.... Someone who will love me with every single beat of his heart, who thinks about me constantly and wondering if im ok. Who can help me reach my dreams and goals. Who will protect me from my fears treat me with respect and love every part of me especially my flaws. Someone who can make me happy bouncing on air happy. I can but only dream that out there,there are guys like that,that are real and not just a dream, and one day my dream will come true.

Naughty Poll
NaughtyPoll.com - take your own poll! 1. How old are you?over 30 2. What is your sexual orientation?Straight 3. Have you ever given somone oral sex?Sure I have 4. Have you ever received oral sex?Yes, of course 5. How many sexual partners have you had?10-15 6. What is your pubic hair style?Shaved bald, nice and clean 7. What is your choice of underwear style?Boy Shorts 8. Have you ever had anal sex?Yes I have 9. What is your favorite position?Girl on top, I like to be in control 10. How often do you masturbate?Whenever I can 11. Have you ever kissed a girl?Nope, never 12. Have you ever had sex with a girl?No, I'm straight as can be 13. Have you ever taken, or been in naked photos?Both taken and been in them 14. Have you ever had multiple partners at once?No, never 15. Have you watched porn?Yes, and I own some of my own 16. Have you ever been to a nude beach or nudist area?Nope, I am modest 17. Have you ever watched others, or been watched having sex?

Please Read......
If tears could build a stairway And memeries a lane I would walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again. No farewell words were spoken no time to say "goodbye" you were gone before i knew it, and only GOD knows why. My heart still aches with sadness and secret tears still flow what it meant to love you no one will ever know. But now i know you want me to mourn for you no more To remember all the happy times life still has much in store. Since you'll never be forgotten I pledge to you today a hollowed place within my heart is where you'll always stay.

Last Night....
So i got right bloody knackered last night, and when I woke up this morning, I had a cat staring me in the face. ........wtf? I don't even own a cat. So I'm trying to figure out where the little beast came from and I'm still drawing blanks. Anybody missing a cat? fuck. that's the last time I drink Jagermeister through a beer-bong. Ow. my head. Shit like this happens to me alot. I get drunk, black out and wake up next to some animal in my bed. I'm going to sleep.

Depression
depression is a verry bad illness,some say it is by choice but in fact it is not,i have bean depressed since i was 10 ,i tryed to kill myself at that age,then again when i was 36 and then again when i was 40,depression and bipolar is nothing to mess will it dose get in the way of relationships who in there right mind wants to date and be a boy friends or girlfriend of a bipolar,i suffer from bipolar it dose not control me i control it but people who have depression or bipolar is still human we can still feel and love,maybe even more,it dosent mean im crazy it dosent mean im nuts,what it means is i have bean traumatize and my brain has chemical imbalance ,im not afraid to ad mitt that i suffer from it,if people took the time to understand it it would be a better place

Dreaming
Ever been in one of those moods or had a day that you felt nothing was going right, things not going well and you wanna be somewhere eles. Man I hate those days, just seems like with me thats the only place i ever am lol.

So Proud Of You Baby
Well I just wanted to tell my LOVE of my life that I am so proud of you. See she just wrote her exam to become a Pet Tech and she got her results back. Any ideas what her final mark was? Well let me say this it was a WHOPPING....99%. She has gotten the highest mark ever at her job> WAY TO BABY I KNEW YOU WOULD DO WELL. LOVE YA BABY

Anniversary
tommorow is my 10th wedding anniversary lmao want to know the secret to a long marriage? he's been gone for 6 yrs lmao sorry i had to joke about it because this whole separation marriage thing is a joke anyone thinking about getting married, run fast lol anyway i was feeling silly so now you see what happens

Tainted Anticitizen
New song in progress for Earthwhore. Blood trickles from accusing eyes, Matting hair and staining skin, Weighing down your soul, For your sin judgement. Grief in realisation of ethereal abyss, Godless in death despite attonement in life, With this your hope bleeds. Your intent is nothing, you are but fucking human, What more could you ever hope to be, When all you ever do is kneel and plead for the divine? Your faithful, begging, mewling humanity, Makes me retch in disgust, Are you not strong enough to face life, Without being part of a divine plan? If your symbol knows all, Your ascended lord, Why are the clues so cryptic? Why must circumstantial be treated as irrefutable? There is nothing for me here, No shining gilt light, Nothing but searing agony, Mercy in decay. Yet you still choose to beg for inhuman help, As if your fears of afterlife make sense, Hide behind your faith, my armour is disdain.

Do You Like
you had came over to the house and when you walked in, we went straight to the kitchen. i grabbed the chocolate syrup, strawberries, banana, and the peaches. you grabbed the whip cream, ice, and the grapes. we then went to the bed room cause thats all we was gonna need to tonight. you had laid across the bed and i began to slowly look into your eyes and felt your soft lips against mines. then i felt as our tongues started to play around with each other. while kissing i began to slide my hand up your shirt and start to unstrap your bra. and you was unbuttoning my shirt. then i started kissing all around your ears and outlining them with my tongue, then i started to make my way down to your neck and started sucking slowly all around your neck. then i went to your nipples and as i begin to suck on the nipples you started moaning. so while i am switching from nipple to nipple i started to unbutton your shorts and slide off your panties with my teeth. i then turned y

What I Want...
I wrote this back in October... it was posted on myspace... not much has changed... so I left it the same... here ya go everyone! Alright, alright, here ya go, you wanna know what I want, here it is. Enough of you ask on a regular basis, so let me give you a rough draft. If I could create a man, here are some of the things I would want from him, for him, and him to be about. Just SOME of the things. First of all, someone who can stand on his own two feet. He doesn't have to be led around by anyone. He can stand up and make the decisions in a relationship, he is the LEADER of our house. Our "Comander in Chief" so to speak. That doesn't mean I can't have an opinion, and I can't speak my mind, or that he won't take into account my ideas and feelings, it means he makes the final decision, and I'll back it 100 percent. I want a provider. I am so traditional in my thinking about how relationships work. I'm so very old school, and so many men aren't anymore, so this will probabl

Judging "books By Their Cover"
He roars into the parking lot on his Harley. His hair blowing in the breeze. He parks the machine, shuts off the ignition and drops the kickstand. He removes the leather jacket exposing tattoo covered arms. Tucking his jacket under an arm, he heads to the entrance. He stop before entering to shake hands with the pastor and a few other members of the congregation. Not exactly what one expects with a description as such. None the less, our society is full of people who fit this description. these people happen to be kind hearted, intelligent and useful members of society. TO judge them by what they wear or how they look is blasphemy. To tell them they are wrong to be the way they are is not only harassment but, taking away their GOD/DESS given right to be a unique human being, taking away their right to be an individual in a society that is so quickly turning into an army of robots. How do we want our children to turn out? Free willed unique individuals with a zest for life, or drones, b

Hooooohaaaaa
HOOOOAAAAAAAHHHHHHH You stay up for 16 hours He stays up for days on end. _________________________ You take a warm shower to help you wake up. He goes days or weeks without running water. __________________________ You complain of a "headache", and call in sick. He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward. __________________________ You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends. He still fights for your right to wear that shirt. __________________________ You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket. He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags. __________________________ You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you. He knows he may not see some of his buddies again. __________________________ You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls. He walks the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists. __________________________

People Suck
people are mean and just rude they dont care about how somthing they might say may hurt the persons feeling what ever some people just need to die they are a waste of skin and air i dont understand why they open there pie holes if they have nothing really to say come on if you have to breath the air the i could be uesing you could say somthing good

When I Say I'm A Christian
ONe of my all time favorite poems... it's perfect..~BJ Christians - By Maya Angelou When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'." I'm whispering "I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven." When I say... "I am a Christian" I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide. When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak And need His strength to carry on. When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed And need God to clean my mess. When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to be perfect, My flaws are far too visible But, God believes I am worth it. When I say... "I am a Christian" I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches So I call upon His name. When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not holier than thou, I'm just a simple sinner Who received God's good grace, some

Some Bastard Just Stole My Fucking Grill!!!!
So I go to the grocery store, get some big juicy sirloins, potatoes, corn on the cob to grill for dinner. (We just used the grill a couple days ago) I get back home and Sean goes out back to turn on the grill, only our grill is gone... Completely gone.. It was chained and padlocked to our railing that comes up to the back door. The chain was cut and laying there, our grill and propane tank are just.. missing. I asked the people upstairs if anyone asked them about the grill or if they saw anything.. Nope. So if anyone has an old grill that they don't want, I'm in need. Keep in mind I'm poor folk so free or cheap is better. Ooh even better if you have a propane tank. Ya, I'm more than a little pissed off about that. Makes me feel violated, like someone's been rummaging through my underwear or something.. Someone is grilling their food on MY grill!!

Anyone Else
anyone else want not to be friends list,this guy is mad cause i told him that he didnt have an 10 inch dick and now he wont rate my picture lol well let me see i dont ask anyone to rate my pictures you want to look there they are

Poem To My Babe Part One
Poem Engaged Love to the next level, lovers budding… Marriage’s door well anticipated Couple senses the power of connection… Desiring more party of soul mate Intention of intendeds manifest… Blooming for tomorrow onwards in time Compatibly longing partnership… Promising future with hearts confident Maturing commitments in world of love… Intimate assurance adoringly Progressing spirits to positive means… Kisses with meaning, and hugs enduring Beings purposefully linked by function… Jointly agreeable to peace servings Rite of passage to true love and duty Craving for the one; the other partner Sights treasuring what’s priceless and beloved On the same page accepting together Engaging in the life of romantic… Feeling presence of more growing treasure

Poem To My Babe Part Two
Poem Commit to Loving The visions are breathing… And the reflections of you linger I am totally overwhelmed by your striking beauty… Unable to control my attention process Your uniqueness, and your charm… Is dominating my focus Something about you is alive in my heart… Keeping me occupied, and falling in love further The lady in my sight of love… Someone’s keeping me energetic It is you who maintain the charge alive… It is you whom I adore I am dreaming about you… Even when I am in a crowd I can’t wait to hold you again… I look forward to the loving You are the woman of my essence… We are two meant as one Satisfied I am reserved… Yours I am We are mutually… We share equitably For the long haul… We commit to loving ceaselessly as an entity

Freedom Is Not Free!
PLEASE RIP AND REPOST!!!!!! FREEDOM ISN'T FREE.... I PLEDGE ALLEGIANCE TO THE FLAG, OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, AND TO THE REPUBLIC, FOR WHICH IT STANDS, ONE NATION UNDER GOD, INDIVISIBLE, WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL! For all of our other military personnel, where ever they may be- Please support all of the troops defending our Country. And God Bless our Military who are protecting our Country for our freedom. Thanks to them, and their sacrifices we can celebrate the 4th of July! We must never forget who gets the credit for the freedoms we have, of which we should be eternally grateful. I watched the flag pass by one day, It fluttered in the breeze. A young Marine saluted it, And then he stood at ease.. I looked at him in uniform So young, so tall, so proud With hair cut square and eyes alert He'd stand out in any crowd. I thought how many men like him Had fallen through the years. How many died on foreign soil How many mothers' tears? How man

.thanx.
so. breaking a tooth while eating a chicken artichoke wrap...is not so cool. neither is having to go to the dentist on the one week anniversary of living in our new house... thank god for dentists being open on friday...which never happens... thank god for dentists with a soft touch which didnt make me scream or cry. thank god for dentists who were willing to save the tooth instead of trying to talk me into a root canal...cuz seriously? fuck that. thank god for grocery shopping at nite so that now theres all sorts of loverlies in the house and uhm...ya i think thats it for now... booo @ Monkeys that scream for ice. so yeah ima go...rest for a lil bit...before i venture my numbed face into the kitchen and render up some rosemary mashed taters...with a side of...yeah iunno yet. and that is all.

World's Hottest Job Markets
I just finished looking at an article in Forbes that ranks the world's hottest job markets. The US was ranked 10th! WTF is going on? I have my opinions but I want to know what you think. nuff said

The Whispering Voice
theres so much you have to offer theres a lingering question its just how you push it out that pushes in to all the offers make me feel like im alive take my breath away again can you feel the button pushing do you see the finger in theres so much you have to offer dont dare try to run and hide theres a lingering question i know the answer is within its just how you push it out i dont care how you take it in TAKE MY BREATH AWAY! (take it out again) TAKE MY BREATH AWAY! (just push it right back in) theres so many questions out here theres so little answers now theres a riddle that just bugs you the way to go is now cant you feel me pushing deeper? cant you feel the blood flow out? cant this pain be all so sweeter? I know you close your eyes to sin TAKE MY BREATH AWAY! (push onto me your way) TAKE MY BREATH AWAY! (watch me slip into...)

Rooftop Garden Martini
Rooftop Garden Martini An alternative to a mojito, this mint-and-thyme-infused martini is topped with a splash of club soda -- and it's the perfect refresher on a warm summer night! Credit: Zoe Goldfine and Lesley Devrouax Servings: 1 Ingredients: * 15 mint leaves, plus mint sprig for garnish * 2 thyme sprigs * 2 teaspoons sugar * 2 ounces vodka * 1 ounce fresh lemon juice * 1 ounce simple sugar * Ice * 1 to 2 ounces club soda Directions: In a cocktail shaker, muddle the mint leaves with the thyme and sugar. Add the vodka, lemon juice, simple sugar and ice and shake well. Strain into a glass with ice, top with a splash of club soda and garnish with a fresh mint sprig.

To Makayla
I DON'T REALLY KNOW THIS BABY I JUST KNOW THAT SHE IS SOMEBODY'S BABY,IT IS EVIDENT THAT SHE IS VERY SPECIAL TO HER MOM'S AND HER MOM'S IS A VERY SPECIAL LADY.TO HAVE TO SEE HER BABY IN CONSTANT PAIN AND TO HEAR HER CRY NIGHT AFTER NIGHT,FATHER GOD I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE BIG PLANS FOR HER BUT TO SOME THIS IS JUST NOT RIGHT.HER NAME IS MAKAYLA AND FROM WHAT I AM TOLD SHE IS AN ABSOLUTE DOLL, A BEAUTIFUL 16 MONTH OLD BABY GIRL SHE HAS ONLY BEEN HERE FOR A WHILE.JESUS PLEASE SEE THIS LITTLE ANGEL THROUGH HER PLIGHT, EASE HER PAIN HOLD HER DOWN SEE HER THROUGH ANOTHER NIGHT.HELP HER TO KNOW BECOME THE DOCTOR OR LAWYER SHE COULD GROW TO BE,SAVE HER FATHER LIFT HER UP SHOW HER THE SAME LOVE THAT YOU HAVE SHOWN ME.I BEG OF YOU FATHER PLEASE,PLEASE KEEP HER SAFE MAKE HER STRONG HELP HER FIGHT,SO THAT SHE CAN GROW AND BECOME A WOMAN AND MAYBE ONE DAY BECOME A WIFE.......AMEN..MUCH LOVE MAKAYLA GET BETTER LITTLE ONE...PEACE

This Shit Stinks
Eau de Lawsuit: Woman Sues Over Scent Jul 5, 6:10 AM (ET) DETROIT (AP) - An employee in the Detroit planning department who claims she is severely sensitive to perfumes and other cosmetics has sued the city, saying a co-worker's strong fragrance prohibits her from working. Susan McBride's lawsuit, filed Tuesday in U.S. District Court in Detroit, says the work environment is in violation of the Americans with Disabilities Act. She wants a ban on such scents at work - and unspecified damages. City spokesman Matt Allen declined to comment, telling The Detroit News the city does not normally comment on litigation or personnel issues. McBride, who joined the planning department in 2000, says problems started a year ago when the co-worker, who isn't identified in the lawsuit, transferred into her department. "This employee not only wore a strong scent, but also plugged in a scented room deodorizer," the lawsuit states. "Ms. McBride was overcome by the smell almost instantly

Who Needs Men If They Are All Liers
Friday, July 06, 2007 Who needs men if they are all liers Current mood: irate Category: Romance and Relationships Let's a Big Breath Out...Where do I start. My chest tightens just at the thought of writting this. First of all I know people are getting mad at me because I am not commenting or paying enough attention to them, I wish I had all the time in the world to do so. I can say I'm just about as sick as I was in January when I went in the hospital. How is a single parent suspose to get help when they have no one to watch their child. I didn't mean to start this blog so harshly but its true. Everything is falling apart and I can't keep it together....people are just making it worse. Friends want me to go places with them, I really need to be at home resting and cleaning house. I get online and I get bombarded with IM's Sarah..sarah...are you there hello Hello...If I wanted to talk to you I would say HELLO. I really didn't mean this to be so harsh. I love al

Living Wills (guys View)
While I was watching the playoff games last weekend, my wife and I got into a conversation about life and death, and the need for living wills. During the course of the conversation I told her that I never wanted to exist in a vegetative state, dependent on some machine and taking fluids from a bottle. She got up, unplugged the TV and threw out all my beer. Sometimes it's tough being married to a smart ass.

Burdens Of Life
ways of dealing with the burdens of life: 1* Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue. 2* Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them. 3* Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it. 4 * Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their Maker. 5* If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague. 6 * If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it. 7 * It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others. 8 * Never buy a car you can't push. 9* Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won't have a leg to stand on. 10* Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. 11* Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late. 12* The second mouse gets the cheese. 13* When everything's coming your way, you're in th

Every Time You Say My Name
Every time you Say My name Do I have it written on my face? It's a feeling I don't embrace. To hurt some one the way you do. What if it was to happen to you? Would it make you feel like me? Would it make you very unhappy? Let me tell you how it makes me feel. I feel like hiding and crying. And like my life means nothing at all. Can you try to see my pain? The pain you have caused inside. Why I hang my head in shame. Every time you say my name. Because I know nothing nice will follow. Did it make you feel happy to make me cry? To know that you hurt me so. Do you even want to know? Why I hang my head in shame. Every time you say my name. Because I know nothing nice will follow. When will you finally grow up? And see everything you have done to me. When will you feel like I do? So desperate and unhappy. Why I hang my head in shame. Every time you say my name. Because I know nothing nice will follow. I have forgiven you for the past. Will this niceness from you

Im Just Bored So Im Gonna Ramble
hey all i just wanted to say thanks to everyone that has helped me out in any way shape or form! i am new to ct and so far i like it! just to give you a little description of what im like and all that stuff.... my name is Ashley i live in aberdeen south dakota with the love of my life Greg! he is such a sweetie i wish every man was like him! i have a 2 1/2 yr old daughter her name is Lia i have 3 neices one nephew and another on on the way! i have 2 sisters there names are cassie and lindsay! they are both younger then i am! i have also kinda adopted i guess you could say three more beautiful little girls! they are my boyfriends girls but i love them just as if they was mine! they are 8 5 and 4! i am a very outgoin person i love to meet new people and im a good person to get along with until you mess with me my family or some of my close friends then it is a different story! and well if you want to know anythin else alls youhave to do is ask and i might tell ya lmao!

Done With Boys
I have decided that I am going to try my best to be like I was when I was 17. Im not going to care about what guys think about me or care about guys in general. Life is easier when there arent any guys in it to fuck things up :P. I need to be able to prove to myself that I can live happily without a male companion. I have been in relationships since I was 18 with less than a month in between each one. This is the first time since I was 17 that I have been single for longer than a month. As I told Jen, I must figure out my life before I can let anyone else into it. So that is all for my first post. Good day and Good night!

Computer Issues 7-6-07
nearly a month later I can safely say I am never going to resolve these computer issues without professional assistance....such is life. now I have missed everyone so much....and life has been tranquil and interesting since my last full day online...if I have missed your birthday..happy belated...if I will miss it...happy birthday. if I haven't taken the time to comment..here is your "COMMENT" LOL I will catch up when I can..be patient...or I will tell you to get bent...it wasnt my fault viruses and hijackers wanted to attach themselves to my computer...but I am willing to try to be nice if you are :Þ now my blogs are not read by as many people as I would like so I doubt half of what I type applies to those of you who do...I thank you for your time..and interest in my not so exciting life :) xoxo I am catching up a little at a time..spamming windows and viruses be damned..if the computer blows up it was a slice! Alana

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The Mystery Of Life?
The time has come to face up to the truth, whatever the consequences, those are the rules. Nothing happens by luck or by chance, the timing is perfect and your world is enhanced. Some of the travelers who get on this ride, are not ready to see it, to think or decide. They just need a push, a shove or a guide, the great illusion is inward, and not just outside. It's the secret of life that flows in us all, but why understand it and why climb this wall? Nothing is simple as we hide under our beds, all is a paradox and it's all in our heads. Fantasy is lucid on this trip through the dream, the path travels inward ~ building high self esteem. Overcoming all images of fear and of strife, thought creates reality ...that's the MYSTERY OF LIFE!

Currently....
I hate when your mind and heart are in different places. Being yanked in two directions causing your head to be in a spin. My heart longs for the feeling of being securely wrapped up in strong arms, holding you close long into the dead of the night. Laying your head against the warmth of their chest, listening to their steady heartbeat and breathing. Knowing that there is nowhere in the world you rather be that moment. My mind is telling me to quickly retreat. Build up your defense walls, don't allow yourself to be hurt again. Where is the happy median?

Chinese Proverbs
Virginity like bubble, one prick, all gone. Man who run in front of car get tired . Man who run behind car get exhausted. Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day. Foolish man give wife grand piano, wise man give wife upright organ. Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok . Man with one chopstick go hungry. Man who scratch ass should not bite fingernails. Man who eat many prunes get good run for money. Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk. Panties not best thing on earth! But next to best thing on earth. War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left. Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house. Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night. It take many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it. Man who drive like hell, bound to get there. Man who stand on toilet is high on pot. Man who live in glass house should change clothes in bas

Mommy Don't Go
When I was a little girl you bounced me on you knee you'd tell me I was pretty and I always tried to please When I had a bad day It was you I'd go running to you'd tell me it would be alright ... I believed in you I remember I was 1 years old the first time you left All your clothes in your closet were gone I couldn't catch my breath I feel to my knees and cried I cried, mommy, don't go I've been loving you all my life your my hero, don't you know? If I were better, would you stay? please mommy don't go When I was in highschool we talked alot on the phone you'd say you were proud of me that I'd never be alone Through those years when you were gone I shed many tears All the things that you were missing I just wanted you near I remember I was more grown up the next time you went away you'd been gone for a few years you had a debt to pay I fell to my knees and cried I cried, mommy, don't go I've been loving you all my life your my hero, don't

Life Is A Circle
I tried it once and I'll try it again, I saw what was missing, and I knew it right then. What's missing is trusting, what's there incomplete, since life is a circle, our paths were to meet. We've tried it together and we tried it alone, and now it's not happening, guess I'll go it on my own. I'll find it ~ the future, without you or with, since life is a circle, I create my own myth. Your life is like the circle, all things are near complete, you learn the perfect lessons, and create from what you reap. Life is like the circle, of love and hate and fear, sometimes happy, sometimes dismal; it's never very clear. Glimpse the cosmic causes, that make all life come true, and choose your partners carefully, there's an awful lot to view. Lust is like the circle, it begins right where it ends, you start out being lovers, will you end up being friends? Choice is just the factor, that makes all life renew, you'll get what you have asked for, since it's destined here for you.

If Only For A Minute
If Only For A Minute, I Could Tell How I Feel Deep Down Inside. If Only For A Minute, True Love Was Actually True. If Only For A Minute, We Could Be Together,Side by Side. If Only For A Minute, I Wouldn't Be So Afraid. If Only For A Minute, I Love You Would Be The Easiest Thing To Say. If Only For A Minute, I Would Long To Hear Your Voice. If Only For A Minute, I Loved You And You Loved Me Too.

Wondering...how He Can Say He Loves Me
every get that thought about how can someone say 'i love you'? well im wondering that right now. i was recently bitten by a brown recluse. i told the man that claims he loves me thru a instant msg a few days ago when it happened (thats the only means bc he's in iraq) and i can understand him not saying anything about it or getting back with me bc he's been busy. well tonight while talking to him and agrueing about somethin else i mention it again. saying you know i expected to you show some concern about me telling you that i got bitten by a brown recluse but no nothing. and he's like sorry ive been treating gsw. ok i understand that, and i let it go. just waiting to see if it crosses his mind to ask about it, i wait and wait and wait, nope still nothing. so as im getting off to go take a shower im like oh btw i mentioned it again and you still show no concern so nvm forget about it. still he says nothing which this time is fine means he's listening, good for him. but i cant help but w

New Fantasy Portrait By "magik"
"Hello friends, I like to present "Spirits in the sky" my first native american themed fantasy portrait. I hope you enjoy . " Bikers, Art Lovers, Check out his work..He is VERY Dear friend of mine..His work is beyond extraordonary...You won't be disappointed..He's a supercool man, with a beautiful family and "Magik" fingers..Magik ROCKS!!!....Give him a shout, tell him "Cherry" said "Hi".... P.S. NO I don't get a kick back, i just love his work and him!..Thanks

My Decision
No one really knows whats going on in my mind, I've been acting happy and content, so you think I'm fine All alone in my bedroom My mind darkens more I hope they find me in a puddle of blood on the floor He caused all these pain and tears Now I can't seem to yell It seems like I'm going through A never ending hell So the way to end it all Is to run this razor across my wrist They wouldn't expect it It would be a twist So as time goes by I haven't ended it yet What I'm waiting for Is something that no one Will forget Slowly the front door begins to open As people rush in the door It has become the perfect time to die I'm now laying on the floor I wish they understood, what he did to me He broke my heart He told me he wouldn't But he ripped it apart But now I'm safe from his evil grip I'm on my way to heaven now My very last trip So now that you've found me,found me please don't cry I'm sorry that I didn't say I Love you and good-bye

With That Being Said
With the previous blog being said..lol I have to admit I have a freaky side to me...am just a bit of an exhibitionist in me, and I don't think its so bad if I want to show...LOL So I opened up my other pics..I took one out, but the others will stay... I mean I think I look ok for my age...LMAO

Count Our Blessings
situations too, can sometimes get a little out of hand that it overwhelms us. and me particularly, being a control freak, freaks out. its like the placid lake just busted a dam and a horribly big wave keeps towing me in and pulling me under. but fortunately we are survivors, knowing when to sink and ride the wave plus an optimist, that means learning to like the wave. not to do that will only prolong the agony. its still agonizing when you grin and bear it, yes, but no one else needs to know that.

Jessica
She's there for me when I need her A very good friend I hope she know I'll be there for her till the very end Someone I can talk to when I'm feeling sad knowing that shes there for me makes me very glad Even thought she lives far away, I know she'll always care All her thoughts and feelings I hope she knows she can share She talks to me and helps me when I'm feeling depressed Helping me release these sad feelings that I some how supress And if I could catch a falling star I'd do it just for her and share with her its beauty on the days she feels blue Thank you for being there for me till the very end But most of all thank you for being my very best friend

Broken Penis.....
A guy out on the golf course takes a high speed ball right in the crotch. Writhing in agony, he falls to the ground. He finally gets himself to the doctor. He says, "How bad is it doc? I'm going on my honeymoon next week and my fiancée is still a virgin in every way." The doc said, "I'll have to put your penis in a splint to let it heal and keep it straight. It should be okay next week." So he took four tongue depressors and formed a neat little 4-sided bandage and wired it all together. It was an impressive work of art. The guy mentions none of this to his girlfriend. They marry and on their honeymoon night in the motel room, she rips open her blouse to reveal a gorgeous set of breasts. This was the first time he ever saw them. She says, "You are the first, no one has ever touched these breasts." He pulls down his pants, whips it out and says, "Look at this, it's still in the crate!"

Dashed Hopes
Just when you think things are going up hill, the train your riding on derails, and all the hopes and dreams you had placed on that train, are destroyed in the carnage. It seems that relationships are quite a bit similar to derailed trains, and just when you think you're on the fast track, along comes something that puts a stop to it. *sigh* Why can't I just have a relationship that doesn't have any potential train derailments? Sad and Lonely in Arizona....

I Don't Get It...
Someone, fill me in... How the hell are most of my pictures NSWF? HOw the hell is a stomach NSWF? Ass and pussy I under stand that.. But a body shot, fully dressed, besides the ones in my bathing suit...HOw the fuck are they NSWF? Seriously..

,,|,,
dear horrorscope. blow me. ♥ me Waiting for someone else to make up his or her mind is a surefire recipe for frustration. While you can't force them to move (or should you), you can go out and live, learn and enjoy your own life. So get to it.

Unexpected
You have read, maybe, about my trips back and forth to Florida to see my uncle been in and out of Comas for the last 6 months or more. his medical condition was nothing short of amazing according to the Drs well, this morning, at 6:05am I got a call from my mother. My uncle died. However, it's not the uncle we've all been preparing for. This is likely the bigger shock of it all because Uncle Jim (the one who passed) seemingly had nothing wrong with him whatsoever. So, that said... fuck!

Finally Moving On
Wow, ever felt like there's hardly anything in your life that feels right? And the one thing that does feel right...feels far away? God. I've been thinking so much lately. There's so much shit floating around in my head right now. I'm not entirely sure what to think about it all. My one thing that feels right...I need them so bad right now. But to be perfectly honest....I think they want someone else. C.T is kickass...but sometimes it just sucks ass. Comments are a bitch and I hate the fact that I'm nosey. My one thing that feels right....you might be jealous of your someone else's "friend", but I'm jealous of your someone else. That was probably uber confusing. But oh well. Makes me think "Do you really even care about me at all?....and if you do....then do you have feelings for someone else ALSO?" It really hurts. I'm so glad I can't see the messages you send to her. Anyone else feel guilty about something? I sure as hell do. I should have known I couldnt let completly go of the

To The Love Of My Life...
I still don't know who she is.. and this song gets me every time I here it and I daydream about the one... so here is something different to who it may concern. maybe one of you ladies will fill in the name... "Hey There [Insert name here]" Hey there [Insert name here] What's it like in New York City? I'm a thousand miles away But girl tonight you look so pretty Yes you do Times Square can't shine as bright as you I swear it's true Hey there [Insert name here] Don't you worry about the distance I'm right there if you get lonely Give this song another listen Close your eyes Listen to my voice it's my disguise I'm by your side Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me What you do to me Hey there [Insert name here] I know times are getting hard But just believe me girl Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar We'll have it good We'll have the life we knew we would My word is good Hey t

Jokes Nsfw
What's the difference between snot and cauliflower? Kids will eat snot. %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%5 A man goes to his doctor for an annual check up. The doctor says "I'll need you to come back tomorrow with a urine sample, a poo sample and a sperm sample". The man replies "Right so doctor, I'll bring'em by tomorrow" When he gets home his wife askes "Well what did he say ?" The man replies "He needs me to bring in a pair of your underwear." %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% Bad Bernie was in prison for seven years. The day he got out, his wife and son were there to pick him up. He came through the gates and got into the car. The only thing he said was, "F.F." His wife turned to him and answered, "E.F." Out on the highway, he said, "F.F." She responded simply, "E.F." He repeated, "F.F." She again replied, "E.F." "Mom! Dad!" their son yelled. "What's going on?" Bad Bernie answered, "Your mother wants to eat fir

Army Wives
The average age of the military wife/girlfriend is 20 years old. She isn't old enough to buy a beer, but is old enough to manage a whole household on her own and maybe she has a kid or two. She probably never saw herself loving a man who was in the military, but she loves him regardless. Her penmanship has improved over the last few months, due to the excessive letter writing she has been doing. She cries a lot, because she misses the man she swore to love. Her life isn't complete without him. She looks very tired, because of her many nights without sleep, due to a late night phone call that never came or a call that came and kept her up all night, just because she heard his voice, she is too overjoyed to sleep. As a wife, she is classified as a dependent, but she is totally independent. She tends to her household, her kids, her school work, and her job, all without her husband/boyfriend. She manages to wear a smile, even though inside she's crying.

The 4th Of July...
How was everyone's holiday? Ours was interesting. Started off going out to Grapevine lake to see the big fireworks show out there with my Beazil's parents. My best friend, Becky and her son came along to watch. Beazil's parents decided to stay home last minute, but we still wanted to see the fireworks so we went on without them. On the way there, I started smelling something and said out loud, "Man, I hope that's the car in front of us. It smells like something is burning." Beazil replied in a tense voice, "It's anti-freeze. There's smoke coming out from under the hood." Of course, that had my alarm bells ringing and I jumped. "What?! Smoke?!" I hadn't been able to see it cuz it was only a little and it was blowing away on the drivers side as we went. I immediately looked at the temperature gauge and it was on H-O-T!!!! I freaked. I tried to tell Beazil that he had to stop the car now! EVERYONE knows that if the thermostat says it's hot and it's smoking..

I Promise I'll Write A Reasonably Long Blog Soon!
Another brief one! I'm in the land of quickies, it seems, lmao! I am off to work shortly to treat a client. My client list continues to grow - which is a good thing, absolutely! I will try to get back online after I'm home, but Jessica, the visiting youngest daughter, will be here expecting to visit some more, lol. The city fireworks extravaganza that was canceled due to rain (here in Sparta) on the 4th will be held tonight. The family wants to go, so we are going! It's usually a pretty good fireworks display. I was looking forward to the Mercury Retro being over on July 9th. I was reading the info at Night Light News (a weekly astrology site) - lo, and behold! One lovely planet after another is going to be going Retrograde from now until the end of the year!!!!! We will be dealing with all the attending issues, one after another!! Oh, joy!!! Where are my vitamins?! I'll discuss more on this when I have the time, lol! Just be prepared, my friends!! Have a fantastic Saturd

A Steamy One For The Ladies
Beyond the sweaty satisfaction, of lust spent in coitus action, there is a place she burns to be, chains of love that set her free. A thousand times she could explode, and still yearn to journey down that road, release is just a mild sensation, compared to the journey's destination. Alone, she cannot find her way, unless her Master has His say, beyond the fever and the love, surrender's what she's dreaming of. Beyond the violent crashing waves, beyond the point where soothing saves, beyond the pleasures of flesh, where heart and soul do truly mesh. This journey for the brave and bold, no timid soul could have and hold, no utterance could ever capture, the arcane wonder or the rapture. It lies beyond the deep subspace, I take her there at careful pace... Fragile, pliant, open, scared... With skill I've made her so prepared. Through fearful tears I am the way, impossible to speak and say, she yearns to share and to impart, the burden of her soaring heart! All she is this moment lives! No

Hear Me Tonight
The stench of yesterday’s spilt beer swells in my nostrils from the poorly constructed and oddly carpeted stage, in the little hole in a wall dive bar. The hum from the amplifiers and the monitors is an auditory reminder of what is about to unfold, as I grip my wood and steel that is strapped around my sweated shirt. Crash, Crash, slam. Drums sound good, as he winks to me with his approval. Thousand thoughts and a thousand moments of panic swell in my heart and head. I attempt to place myself in a private world, where I cannot see the two hundred eyes fixated on us, as we are cast from the darkness in the random array of blue green and red spotlights. The house lights fall to the darkness that will swell in the hearts of those who witness. While two sounds linger in the smoky black, the crowds howls, like demons ready to feed, and the hum of the amplifiers, ready to unleash the hell, that all crave. The howls turn into growls of starvation, as the four shadows tip toe in t

Need Your Help Real Quick
This is the link to a picture I have in a RATES ONLY contest. Comments do not count. No comment bombing, etc. Just rates only. So if each of my friends go by and rate it just once, I will have a shot at this one. I have alot of friends here and my friends have alot of friends, so if you could repost this bulletin where your friends can see it too I would appreciate it. http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=723777&i=3891847458 Thanks in advance for your reposting and rating the picture for me. Please repost

No End
A day from work and not one call Just me and these here walls The silence is peaceful but no voice is heard It gets depressing and then i hear the birds The birds sing is enough to keep me sane But it is a womans voice, that I need to gain When is it my turn to get that somebody I need That one and only I have longed for ... call it greed But greedy I am not just love i seek I am tired of the liars cheaters and freaks So where is my beauty queen, my sweetheart Is she here there or are we far apart is she younger, older, or the same age as me Is she smart, funny,taken, or free Is she tall, short, skinny, or fat How is her hair, strait, curl, long, or flat Are her eyes brown, green, hazel , or blue All I am asking is when do I find you So where in the hell is my one lady friend That I search for ...until no end

Blast Points
When I went to bed.. I had 508,805 points my blast went active and I recieved 5000 points and my points are now 507,274 Now Im no math wiz but that aint 5000 points is it??? Just a new way to get screwed I guess

Start Of A Bad Weekend
Well, today is the start of a bad weekend. This morning I had to drop Jason off at the Jail. He has to spend 2 days in there. It was a stupid mistake really, and I was pissed off at first about it because it had to do with my kid. But now that all seems inconsequential. I hated taking him up there. He has never been in jail before. I know he hated going as much as I hated taking him, but now it has me all depressed. I have been trying to prepare for today all week. But I guess no matter how much you prepare for this, it still bites ya in the ass. He's only been in there for an hour and I miss him terribly already. I am not sure how I am supposed to act about it. I mean, I am definately upset, and I am feeling a bit depressed. Well hell, I am not sure how I feel. I do know that it should have been me sitting up in the Jail instead of him. Alec is my son and I should have been held responsible for him. I should have left the damn interview the moment I found out that Jason didn't go bac

Earth Angel...earth Angel
I DO believe that Earth Angels is gonna make it!!! Out of 36 members...11 dropped by my page, and had me leveled in I do believe, less than an hour. That's how fast it was going...I couldn't even keep up! YOU GUYS ROCK!!! Thanks soooooo much!!! It's been a busy morning on CT. I have done my best to send friend invites to all the members of Earth Angels. I do hope I haven't overlooked anyone. So..if you didn't get an invite from me...just send me one, and I'll add you right away! Thanks again for the leveling! I'm well on my way to Cherry Assassin!!! Now...if I don't go do something about this house...my hubby is gonna have a fit when he gets home from work....lol But...I will be back! Take care Angels!!! Lev

Yea Ok
I clicked "im bored" well cause i am ... so i was rating pplz pics an then all of a sudden it told me that i couldnt rate anymore photos ... wha is that all about ... im still bored ... r they tellin me i cannot b bored anymore ... lol...

Beneath The Abalone Moon
Beneath the Abalone Moon “Who is there?” I wake and whisper to no one. Daylight, pallid and weak, pulls at me Stealing back the sky from last night’s full moon. The threads of cobwebs still in my head the wisps of dreams still in my eyes have me moaning and stretching and reaching for you. My warm hand Your cold pillow Hot tears on my cheeks. With their pained whimpers and ragged breaths, This morning’s sobs mock last night’s ecstasy, When, amid the first tender blooms of spring, beneath that swollen moon I gave myself to you, Where that shimmer-washed garden became our cathedral. The silver abalone moon was priestess to our union And the countless stars bore witness to our first everlasting kiss. You held my face in your hands finding love’s mirror in bluegreen eyes. Your thumb traced my garnet lips, learning their every curve. I nibbled it , suckled it , wet it with my tongue watching lust flame in your sun-flecked sea blue eyes. Ethereal mist rising fr

The Phone Call
I just got done with my phone interview for the Miss Rhode Island USA pageant. I think it went well. They have interviews all weekend and decide on Monday. If they pick me I will be getting a package in the mail with all the information.

Rawr!
Is it so horrible to want to stay single for a while! GRRAWWWRRR! *hits something* One guy just wont leave me alone. He's sweet and he's really cute and everything, but we're too different. Way too different. And I told him to back off. He hasnt. And then...I finally got a good night sleep last night. Nine hours of deep, deep sleep. That's more sleep than I've gotten all week right there. And it was heavenly. I woke up this morning and teh parentals were gone. They took the bike out today. I planned on laying around all day, and they were alright with that. Ten minutes later, my phone rings and I have to find the spare key and take it to them. My father managed to lock his key in his motorcycle. He's fucking brilliant, I tell you! GRAWR! So I had to get out of bed and put some clothes on and drive to a whole nother town to give him a key to get his other one out. This is the second time I've had to rescue him from a key crisis this week. He locked himself out of the house earl

Where The F*#! Is Jim Thorpe?
i just read Sports Illustrated's Best Athletes By Number list... some of these picks are fucking retarded. i cant imagine any serious sports fan could read their list and NOT wonder what the fuck they were smoking when they made it. (see #7 for proof) so here is theres, and mine, side by side: SI List :: My List 00 Jim Otto 0 Gilbert Arenas 1 Warren Moon :: Jacques Plante 2 Secretariat :: Derek Jeeter 3 Babe Ruth 4 Bobby Orr :: Lou Gehrig 5 Joe DiMaggio 6 Bill Russell :: Stan Musial 7 John Elway :: Mickey Mantle 8 Cal Ripken Jr :: Yogi Berra 9 Ted Williams :: Maurice "Rocket" Richard 10 Pele 11 Mark Messier 12 Tom Brady :: Terry Bradshaw 13 Wilt Chamberlain 14 Pete Rose :: Bob Cousy 15 Bart Starr 16 Joe Montana 17 John Havlicek :: Dizzy Dean 18 Peyton Manning :: Charlie Joiner 19 Johnny Unitas 20 Barry Sanders :: Mike Schmidt 21 Roberto Clemente 22 Emmitt Smith 23 Michael Jordan :: Pete Maravich 24 Willie Mays 25 Barry Bonds :: Mark McGwire 26 Rod Woods

Blinking Computer.help!!!
How do I wipe everything off my computer and start again.. I put in windows xp and said restall it took 2 hrs and it was back to the same again nothing was removed.. I tried to restore but it will only let me do todays date.. my daughter downloaded a file and it made the comp miss files.. I need to wipe the hard drive and restall everything.. but the computer won't let me./. got a mind of it's own. Anyone ideas let me know xx

This May Be Twisted, But I Don't Care
1. How many times would someone have to drive a car over you before the tread on the tires wore out? ~Ok well now lets see we will have to take into account my height, my weight, the type of car, how much wear the tires already have, the speed at which they are driving over me . . . And then there is the fact that the person must be completely out of their mind to think that they could possibly get away with this, and insanity plays a major role in all aspects of life 2. What's the worst deal you ever made with the Devil? ~This one time I was sitting there thinking, hmmm I’d really like to be able to play soccer so . . . The ext morning I woke up next to a midget with a llama off to the side in a very compromising position with no real memory of how we got the strap on to do that . . . And I still can’t play soccer as was promised 3. What do you do when your underwear creeps up the crack in your ass? ~I have to excuse myself from this question due to the fact that I only wea

Update On My Mumm From Yesterday
*SweetLuv199* UPDATE ON MY MUMM FROM YESTERDAY!!!! Help PLEASE on a new tattoo design Ok My CT Friends..... I'm in need of a little help with a design of my new tattoo I'm getting done this Monday on my lower back, It's a thorny vine with 3 roses 2 black roses on each side of a blood red center rose, my question is this, Should I have it done in a solid pattern or a silhouette?? 59 votes 199 views 13 comments Solid 49.2% (29 votes) Silhouette 50.8% (30 votes) I have decided to go with the silhouette style not only will it last longer the colors will not bleed into each other (= Pictures to come some time next week I get my Tattoo done on Monday the 9th (=

Poem
The empty feeling of being alone, When the one you love has suddenly flown, The lonliness felt deep down inside, No night has passed that I have not cried. My bestest friend he had become, But suddenly now my emotions are all numb. I was certain a message had come from above, and had given me permission to give him my love. The darkness is now starting to set in, I fear that I will never be able to love again. The pain that I've endured seems to be more than I can bare, I feel as if noone will even care. Author - Just Me... 06/04/07

Downraters And Honest Opinions
Ok, so I've heard some downraters say that they are just giving their honest opinion of people's pics when they rate. Great, it doesn't really matter what anyone thinks anyway. Here's my honest opinion...I never give anyone less than a 10 for the simple fact that if they are confident enough in themselves to put pictures up on the internet, then they deserve a little respect! That is why everyone gets 10's across the board from me, no matter how blurry, dark, bizzare or disturbing some pictures may be...and whether or not I personally find them physically appealing. Ya see, I was brought up not to judge people based on appearances, good or bad.

Dear Friends
Just wanted to let you all know why I won't be online much! Ok here goes. I was dating a guy from CT for 4 1/2 weeks. I found out he was a cheater and lied to me several times. I know 4 1/2 weeks is not along time. But thats 4 1/2 weeks I lost meeting other people. I lost several friends cause I was dating him. My choice to be offline more right now then online is due to in part of I found out what a true jerk he really is. I know a few guys are mad, upset or disappoined that I was dating him & I am sorry but I thought there was something there. BOY was I wrong. I still wanna be friends with those who are upset at me. I LOVE ALL OF MY FRIENDS DEARLY!!!!!!!!!!

Friends And Mexicans
WE HAVE MOSTLY GOOD POINTS..... FRIENDS: Never ask for food. MEXICAN FRIENDS: Are the reason you have food. FRIENDS: Will say "hello." MEXICAN FRIENDS: Will give you a big hug and a kiss. FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs. MEXICAN FRIENDS: Call your parents mom and dad. FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry. MEXICAN FRIENDS: Cry with you. FRIENDS: Will eat at your dinner table and leave. MEXICAN FRIENDS: Will spend hours there, talking, laughing and just being together and then take a plate to go. FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back. MEXICAN FRIENDS: Keep your stuff so long they forget it's yours. FRIENDS: Know a few things about you. MEXICAN FRIENDS: Could write a book with direct quotes from you. FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that's what the crowd is doing. MEXICAN FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds' ass that left you. FRIENDS: Would knock on your door. MEXICAN FRIENDS: Walk right in and say, "I'm home!" FRIENDS: A

Spaghetti
A wealthy man was having an affair with an Italian woman for several years. One night, during one of their rendezvous, she confided In him that she was pregnant. Not wanting to ruin his reputation or His marriage, he would pay her a large sum of money if she would go to Italy to secretly have the child. If she stayed in Italy to raise the child, He would also provide child support until the child turned 18. She Agreed, but asked how he would know when the baby was born. To keep it Discrete, he told her to simply mail him a post card, and write "Spagh etti" on the back. He would then arrange for child support Payments to begin. One day, about 8 months later, he came home to his confused wife. His wife said, "Honey, you received a very strange post card today." "Oh, just give it to me and I'll explain it," he said. The wife Handed him the card and watched as

Daddy Is Back In The Hospital...
LIFE REALLY SUCKS IT REALLY ISNT FAIR THAT EVERYTIME SOMETHING GOOD HAPPENS THE WORLD DOES A FLIP AND IT ALL GOES WRONG...I GOT A CHANCE FOR AN APARTMENT AND A JOB....MY CT WIFE WANTS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME NOT EVEN AS A FRIEND...MY MOM CALLS ME AT 6AM TO TELL ME GET HERE UR DAD IS NOT BREATHING. I ARRIVE AT MY MOM'S TO GET IN THE AMBULANCE FOR A RIDE TO THE ER...MY DAD IS DOING WORST THAN HE WAS BEFORE I AM SO SCARED I AM GOING TO LOSE HIM...THINGS JUST SUCK FOR ME...WHEN CAN IT START GOING GOOD AGAIN..LIKE MY DAD COMES HOME NO MORE PROBLEMS AND MY EX-CT WIFE TELL ME WE CAN AT LEAST BE FRIENDS! THAT WOULD BE NICE...OH ONE MORE NICE THING..MY GIRLFRIEND IN TEXAS STOPS HANGING OUT WITH THIS CHICK I HAVENT MET AND DONT FUCKIN LIKE!!! OH OK WELL I WILL KEEP EVERYONE WHO CARES UP DATED ON MY DAD AS SOON AS I KNOW. HE HAS TO HAVE A STRESS TEST DONT FOR HIS HEART AND A TRANSFUSION..OF BLOOD BECAUSE ALL HIS BLOOD IS BAD! TALK TO U ALL LATERS...OXOXO'S AND THANKS FOR UR LOVE AND SUPPORT! *NIKK

Family Memeber In A Tattoo Contest
all bbw/bhm bombbers are not to go to bomb her she has not help cherry but maybe 50 comments so no family help at all this comes straight from rubia Delicious Trouble....Comment bomb away

Don't Know What It's Called But It's By Madonna
Little girl Don't you forget her face Laughing away your tears When she was the one That felt all the pain Little girl Never forget her eyes Keep them alive inside I promise to try It's not the same Keep your head held high Ride like the wind Never look behind Life isn't fair That's what you said so I try not to care Little girl Don't run away so fast Think you forgot to kiss Kiss her goodbye Will she see me cry when I stumble and fall Does she hear my voice in the night When I call Wipe away all of your tears It's gonna be alright I fought to be so strong I guess you knew I was afraid You'd go away too Little girl You've got to forget the past Learn to forgive me I Promise to try But it feels like a lie Don't let memories play games with your mind She's a faded smile Frozen in time I'm still hanging on But I'm doing it wrong. Can't kiss her goodbye, but I promise to try.

Think About It And Tell Me What U Think
1) No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry. 2) Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't meanthey don't love you with all they have. 3) A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart. 4) The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right besides them knowing you can't have them. 5) Never frown,even whenyou are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 6) To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 7) Don't waste your time on a man/ woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 8) Maybe God wanted us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. 9) Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 10)There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep trusting and just be mor

Hello To All My Friends
I just wanted to say hi to everyone. My husband just got home from his week long business trip again and is home for the night and then will be out on the road again until Thursday when he will be home again for a day and head back out again. This summer is going to be a long and frustrating summer I can see that right now. He will be gone six days out of seven on the average it appears. Then on August 20th we are out again for another week long vacation to the San Francisco bay area. How have you been? 36d hugs, Ms. Cleavage

Taxes
Tax his land, Tax his bed, Tax the table At which he's fed. Tax his tractor, Tax his mule, Teach him taxes Are the rule. Tax his cow, Tax his goat, Tax his pants, Tax his coat. Tax his ties, Tax his shirt, Tax his work, Tax his dirt. Tax his tobacco, Tax his drink, Tax him if he Tries to think. Tax his cigars, Tax his beers, If he cries, then Tax his tears. Tax his car, Tax his gas, Find other ways To tax his ass Tax all he has Then let him know That you won't be done Till he has no dough. When he screams and hollers, Then tax him some more, Tax him till He's good and sore. Then tax his coffin , Tax his grave, Tax the sod in Which he's laid. Put these words upon his tomb, " Taxes drove me to my doom..." When he's gone, Do not relax, Its time to apply The inheritance tax. Accounts Receivable Tax Building Permit Tax CDL license Tax Cigarette Tax Corporate Income Tax Dog License Tax Excise Taxes Federal Income T

Excited And Nervous...
Well, I have one week, and I am going to finally meet Greg aka !Natas....I'm scared, and I'm hoping that he isn't going to kill me, at least not on the first date...lol Once again, I have never went and met anyone from online, so being a totally new expirience, I'm really not sure what to expect....I'm sure we will be fine, we have talked for quite a while online and on the phone, so I am hopig all will go well.... I have 2 tests this week, and my midterm in 1 class the next tuesday, so I really need to get to studying... Well, for now, wish me luck and cross your fingers for me, my nerves are seriously worked up and I need all the help I can get...~kisses~

My Bruised Foot.
yesterday(7/6/07) was my towns fireworks show. so there me and my friends were at the local hardees parking lot. at one point me and my boyfriend were coming out of hardees and he ended up stepping on my foot and bruising it. i don't know how it happened but it did. it hurts like a..... lol!

Hospital
Ok.. i went in for the 1st part.. and it didnt go as well as we all hoped, BUT i am OK!!! and home now... so thats good right? waitin now to hear about whats goin on and when its goin to take place.. so ill let yall know when i know.. love yaz wendy

This Is A Good Quote
We should study; knowledge has the power not only to make people smart but to make them good... Flow with whatever may happen and let your mind be free; Stay centered by accepting what your doing....

Brujah Clan
Brujah The Brujah are inheritors of a majestic and ancient legacy, which is unfortunate. Tonight's Brujah seem less like a clan and more like a mob. Punks, terrorists, revolutionaries, criminals, gangbangers and the like make up the Brujah; the clan seems to be united in nothing save its contempt for the institutions of vampire and mortal society. Well, this is not entirely true; Clan Brujah are among the most savage vampires, and the most trivial slight or annoyance may trigger a howling Brujah frenzy. The Brujah's disunity keeps the clan tenuously in the Camarilla, but Brujah thugs routinely defect to the anarchs, the better to strike against their hated elders. Even the "tamer" Brujah annoy the elders and princes routinely through acts of defiance and rebellion. Despite their recalcitrance, however, Brujah are valued as warriors; they are perhaps the most dangerous vampires in a straightforward battle. To anger a Brujah is nigh suicidal - and Brujah are notorious for their tempers.

When Our Bodies Come To Meet
When Our Bodies Come To Meet When I see you I can Feel you In my soul - my heart takes flight. I can hardly wait to taste you In the darkness of the night. I feel your breath so hot and sweet Circling in my soul. When our bodies come to meet It's then that I feel whole.

Why Am I Single??
Ok lets get this out in the open, I will share this with you.. I have been single for almost a year, My ex- left me when I was pregnant.So I had to go through all of this alone..Going to the doctors, hearing the babies heart beat,having Cory alone and now raising him alone..I thank god everyday for the gift is has givin to me..He has been a blessing in my life.If it wasn't for him and my family, I don't know where I would be today. I will not settle for anything but the best, when it comes to love and relationship..Tell me how can you give your heart when all that has been done to it, is it has been thrown away..I am so sick of someone saying they love me and just leave me..And I won't have it happen to my son ever...Once for him was enough.. So until someone can prove to me and my son that life can be better than being left all the time, I will stay single.. EJ

Whispers
i try to open my eyes i can not see.... i feel my skin there is nothing there.. what is wrong with me.... i look again..i can not see... i hear small voices, faint but so close.. i can feel the whispers... whats wrong with me.... i can hear crying far off, but why... i hear my name through a sob... what is wrong with me

"push"
Every time I look at you the world just melts away All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am And when you fall you offer me a softer place to land You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together You're the one true thing I know I can believe in You're all the things that I desire you save me you complete me You're the one true thing I know I can believe I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe No matter what I say or do 'cause you're too good to fight about it Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go You won't stoop down to battle but you never turn to go There are times I cant decide when I can't tell up from down You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown But you pick me up & brush me off and tell me I'm OK Sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day

" To My Dreamer "
no matter the distance how ever far apart destinys truest soulmates are always together in heart i miss you everyday but there little tears to shed as long as your beig loved cared for and protected it will be ok i hope you find happiness and do everything you want to in life i'll always be there for you morning noon and night i love you so much and while we are apart remember destinys truest soulmates are always together in heart

" Poetry "
The sound of her own voice startled her. In the room that was empty, Alone for the first time. For so long she had been intertwined, Encompassed in another, She found that she was a stranger To her own self. The echoes of her words Resonated from within, Like the soft chime of a bell. Gently stirring her consciousness To awareness Of her thoughts Her dreams Her spirit In the room that was empty, Alone for the first time, She began to speak again.

How Much Caffeine Is In Your Soda?
How Much Caffeine is Really in That Soda? Posted by Zonk on Saturday July 07, @09:05PM from the buzz-buzz-buzz dept. The Fun Guy writes "The Institute of Food Technologists summarizes some recent research on food. All things considering, it should settle some arguments among geeks about the caffination of beverages. 'Caffeine is a well-known stimulant added as an ingredient to various carbonated soft drinks, but which drink contains the most, and how can consumers know? A study in the Journal of Food Science used high-performance liquid chromatography to analyze the caffeine contents of 56 national-brand and 75 private-label store brand carbonated beverages. Caffeine contents ranged from 4.9 mg/12 oz (IGA Cola) to 74 mg/12 oz (Vault Zero). Some of the more common national-brand carbonated beverages analyzed in this study were Coca-Cola (33.9 mg/12 oz), Diet Coke (46.3 mg/12 oz), Pepsi (38.9 mg/12 oz), Diet Pepsi (36.7 mg/12 oz), Dr Pepper (42.6 mg/12 oz), Diet Dr Pepper (44.1 m

Linda's Spank Bridgade Update
Below are the members of Linda Spank Brigade. She has asked them all to spank me as much as they can, cause Linda told them all how naughty ive been. Me, naughty?....whatever!!! Linda's Spank Brigade members LINDA AKA LUCY LOO BRITISH BABE WENDI POOH STAR WHISPER DIANE BRITISH BOMBER NO.1 AMY AKA LINDA'S PARTNER IN CRIME When each member of the Spank Brigade stepped up to spank me. I lifted up my Kilt and when i did this each lady fainted to the floor. And now i have ALL the Spank Brigade in custody. If each member wants me to free them then they have to do something for me...lol All you have to do is send me a Spicy Gift from the Cherry Tap Shop UPDATE WIND DANCER HAD BEEN SET FREE CAUSE SHE GAVE A ME A SPICY GIFT, 'EDIBLE PANTS'. SO, IF SHE CAN DO IT THEN SO CAN THE REST OF YOU, LOL. IF YOU BUY ME A SPICT GIFT I WILL REMOVE YOUR PICTURE AND THEREFOR YOU WILL BE SET FREE

My Son Is Going To Camp
will tomorrow i wont be around my son is going to his camp that he loves and who does alot for him a speech and hearing camp hes gone for 6 weeks its going to be the longest six weeks of my life i should be use to it but i dont want him to leave me but i know it will help him mmore then the school. so off to bed i go soon 3 hours of driving to do tomorrow to get there and 3 hours to come home. but its all good i think this is the best camp there ever was. lions camp badgers here we come are u ready for my son lol. later all talk to you all when i get bk going to say night to my son for the last time until he gets bk home

Idiots Twenty Four Seven!
WTF? Do you losers EVER read?? LILY THAI is NOT ME; NOR I'M HER!! READ MY FRKN PAGE! WE MAY OF SOME SIMALAR FEATURE'S BUT I'M 100% NOT HER TWIN!! LILY THAI IS SOME CHIQ THAT I THINK IS HOTT!! READ MY DAMN PROFILE!