CantSleepClownsWillEatMe's blog: "Venting"

Well I logged off the pc before she got home from work. Needless to say I did hide out in my daughters room in the sweltering heat. (We hit records today with 101) She hasn't mentioned anything else to me, but I have this really empty feeling if that makes sense. The way that I see it, if I do have to go stay at my moms until I go back to Germany can't be as bad as staying here feeling like I am in jail or being treated like a 2 year old. At least at my moms I would have my own room and peace and quiet. The only thing I would not like is having to give up the job I got because there is no bus out there. With all of this bullshit I am damned if I do and damned if I dont. For me being a usually "UP" and Cheery person, I am feeling really hollow right now. My only goal at this moment is to be back in Germany with Rudi and that is not possible till at least August 20th, and thats only because passport bullshit. I do need to snap out of this though, because I hate being in this mode =(