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Just got off the phone with dad and really no change with gran today. He wasn't able to get to the hospital today due to the weather here but did find out for some reason they had a problem in the critical care unit and had to move everyone out and into rooms in the middle of the night. He got to talk to her on the phone but not long because she is still having problems breathing. I am sorry I have not been rating and helping out with my family lately, I have a lot of things on my mind right now and just have not been myself. I do appreciate all of you that have been checking in on me and the ones that have been putting up with me lately. I have some wonderful friends that I'm so thankful for, a few I know I have worn yall out this week so a special thank you for being there for me. I am in a bad place right now and not sure when I will pull out of it, I know a couple of you are thinking Oh lord I hope soon.....lol Dad said he was going down there to see her tomorrow ev

Denial...
This guy came into work today, and Ive seen him there before, but he never really talks to anyone. Today he decided to come up to me and ask me if I had any pot I could sell him. I looked at him and said "I dont even smoke pot" to which he said "You know, denial is the first sign of someone lying" I said "Well first off, for one, even if I did smoke, why would I sell to you? I know nothing about you, for all I know, you could be a cop. And second, its not denying it, if I dont do it, its me telling you I dont do it. Denying is something someone does when they are guilty and are trying to avoid getting caught" He turns around and tells me that the "Denying is the first sign of a liar" is a flawless and unargueable logic. That if someone "Denies" something they are always guilty of doing it. So I simply asked him if he was still molesting all those young boys. He looked at me and all I said was "Go ahead, deny it, dick" He left, and something tells me he wont be back. It feel

Emotes For Fubar
Okiedokie, since the actual emote didnt work on the paste job in the last job.. here is the link.. btw this blog is intended for my own personal easy access to the list. since my boolmarks are full of shit i use for everything else... http://fubar.com/emotes.php

Improper Phone Boning
Took a phone call before getting in my car today, hung up & placed back in my belt holster. When I stopped at the store, pulled it out to find I had a lil mishap. Now I dont recall any impact that drew my concern, so best I can figure is it got pinched between the seat belt dock and the rivet on my jeans pocket when I sat down, as that kind of lined up with the point of impact on the phone, albiet in the case at the time. Figured I'd throw that out there as a "watch out for". I had elected the insurance when I bought the phone, bout 7 dollars a month, so I called the Sprint store which directed me to the repair facility (didnt bother with their customer sevice line because I knew I'd get Maylaysia). Andrew at the repair shop said to come on down, that he had a display in stock. Was a small que ahead of me when I got there, but once it was my turn, he whipped thru it like a champ, and I was like new in 20 mins, with a new speaker to boot. As per usual, got a survey call to rat

For All Who Deserve To Know The Real Me
Well, appanrently, I'm a "horrible person" to some. Well, those who actually took the time to get to know me, know damn well, that I'm one to care, ALOT about the one's that deserve it. Well, one seems to think that after pushing me away, I didn't care, and when I tried to care, they didn't want it, THEN, made me out to be a cold-hearted, piece of shit stalker.I AM NOT A STALKER!! I do not stalk, I care not to stalk. I deserve to know why I'm getting treated wrong, for someone else's wrong doings. NEWS FLASH! When someone tells you one thing, then does the complete opposite, your credibilty, is pretty much FUCKED! But, lying about me, portraying me to be something I'm not, and then accusing me of things, is not the way to go about it. If you really wanna sit there, and make yourself out to be a victim of an abusive person, when someone else that actually is like that, your chances at sympathy, are slim. YOU made the choices you made. YOU chose to go down that road. YOU were fully aware

So Don't See A Doctor Or See A Nurse
I have been volunteering at the VA now for almost two months. I am starting to get into the swing of things. I think I have met all the people that work in the ED (it's not an Emergency Room, its a Department with many rooms.) I've seen some sad things, and a few disorented naked men. Most of my duties consist of taking patients to X-ray, Cat Scans, or to be admitted, as well as Lab and Pharmacy runs. I also wipe down the rooms when patients leave to get them ready for the next patient. I also stock the crash carts for each room to make sure there are plenty of supplies. I got a pretty nice compliment from the Nurse in X-ray last week, she asked how long I had been working there, and I told her I just volunteered, she said I was better than most they pay to work there. A week or two, we got another volunteer that was working saturdays. It can be slow sometimes on a Saturday, so to keep up from fighting over work to do, I pushed my hours back and now I work more around lunch

New Players & Getting Started Part1.
So You Want To Be A Gangster... Congrats On Joining The World Of FuMafia.This Blog is intended to get you started and enjoying the mafia experience.Just Like chess there are many ways to play, this is a description of how to build a successful player that is able to bounty hunt while building cashflow. After you gain a basic understanding you may elect to make another mobster and explore some of the other and more advanced strategies. THE BASICS:The Game is based on levels from 1 to 1000+. You can hold up to 1000 people in your personal mob. These 1000 people can not attack you or steal your money. For every level you advance, you utilize 5 people to fight and complete missions with. example: level 1 fights with 5mobsters, level 10 fights with 50, level 100 uses 500 mobster to fight. So as a new player, you want to accept these mobsters that send you requests. Send add requests to allies and your fu friends to build yourself a strong personal mob. Under mobbed people often are attacke

A Dance For All
Could this be a true story? A Dance for All. Copyright Ms. Cleavage 2009 The evening was getting late and my husband and I sat at the edge of the stage watching a very buxom young blonde with a very shapely body do her exotic dance in front of us and using the pole to the maximum. This woman was so different for instead of using the latest of the loudness of hip hop songs as her music she used some of the best of classic rock music and she gathered quite a large crowd since the audience was primarily of older gentlemen who can remember the songs. Her hair was full and wavy and not straight and stringy like the younger dancers. Most of her music was from the 1980s when my husband and I were dating and it all brought so many memories back to us of our younger days. With her mix of music were the sounds groups and singers such as Sade, and Marvin Gaye, Journey and Chicago and she moved around the stage being so sultry and sexy with Sade in the backgrou

On A Sunday
One hour, seven point one miles, seven-hundred and ten calories, highest speed thirteen point two miles, highest heart rate one-hundred-seventy-one. This blog. Falls. The Reservation. Cleaning the DVR. Totally diet breaking steak sub.

Dental Insurance - Is It Really Worth It
2-18-11 There is 2 types of insurances, PPO and HMO. With PPO, Preferred Provider Organization, the provider (dentist) can be either in network or out of network. What this means is if the provider is out of network, you can see any provider you want. It is the patient’s responsibility to pay for the difference of the treatment. For example, if a crown cost $1,000 and the insurance pays $700, the patient is responsible for the other $300. Now, if the provider is in network, then the insurance will dictate the cost of the treatment. This means that if the crown is $1,000 and the insurance says that their price is $900, the provider can NOT collect the $100 difference. The provider has to write off the $100. Collection of this difference is considered as fraud. With HMO, Health Maintenance Organization, you can only see that particular provider. Personally, I think HMOs in dentistry are a fraud. With this type of plan, the patient’s cleanings and xrays ar

Lost Art...
"I put all my genius into my life; I put all my talent into my works" ~Oscar Wilde "The important thing in writing is the capacity to astonish. Not shock - shock is a worn-out word - but astonish.” ~Terry Southern I know you're scratching your head, wondering, "Just what is she getting at with this?" The answer is quite simple. The lost art of meaningful, documented communication known as writing needs to become rediscovered. Written communication has been used for over 8,000 years in one form or another. It had been used to record history, debts, feelings, accounting, and random thoughts. It's memory has never failed, and it's purpose has never ceased to be necessary. It doesn't need electricity, or even paper. It's permanence as record will go on as long as there is someone with the interest to read it. In the "Digital Age" the importance of reading has been trivialized to the point that the art of the written word is rapidly becoming lost. The masterful texts that ha

Changes To Be Made In My Life
Hello friends, Recently I realized I need to make some changes in my life to better myself, FU is 1 of those changes. In a couple weeks I will be leaving FU, and I wanted you all to know instead of just vanishing.. I also want you all to know there is nobody to blame nor am I mad or upset with anyone!! If anything I am happy for all the Love you all have shown me over the few years I have been here, there are a few very special people on here that I have grown very fond of, and of course I will not miss the drama LOL, I have made many friends on here, some real and true, I have also lost a few, but things happen for a reason... There is 1 lady I will always hold close to my heart because without her I would have never learned some things about myself I never knew LOL Thank you!!! (You know who you are) Walking away is not that easy because of all of you!!! But I must do this to go find me again, If anyone wants to keep in touch I do have Facebook and Myspac

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i hate people. 9:28am reply ems1160: curious about something cancel Chat 9:37am more To ems1160: so you say constantly in my sb...what do you want? cancel Chat 9:38am reply ems1160: Suppose you are in a bathroom stall smoking a cigarette suddenly a penis comes through the hole and the voice on the other side says "surprise me" what would you do? cancel Chat 9:38am more To ems1160

Hotties Hotties Hotties
Hotties,and fellow friends lol idk any othre wayt to put it. Here is the deal,I need everyones participation especially from all my hotties and officers. I have seen numerous changes,but just because i give you a good nod that your doing good,doesnt mean for you to stop. In order for us to keep the hotties going i need everyones help, So first off i would love to hear everyone out what is something you wish the hotties had? Something we should change? and any others ideas you may have,you can place them here,but most likely they will be read faster if you come to me directly on my homepage. my officers know what they should be doing,and i do hope to see messages from you guys on Sunday in regards to your teams. Another thing is im looking for 2 new hottie officers Some of the things officers would need to do is 1.show love to the homepage/chief 2. You will be assigned a team,you need to show your team love,make sure they show it back,keep track of your team m

Cnn Tries To Tackle White Anxiety -- By Treating White Nationalists As Credible Sources (repost)
[Louis C.K.answers CNN preemptively. Warning: NSFW.] This was the headline yesterday at CNN: Are whites racially oppressed? "We went from being a privileged group to all of a sudden becoming whites, the new victims,'' says Charles Gallagher, a sociologist at La Salle University in Pennsylvania who researches white racial attitudes and was baffled to find that whites see themselves as a minority. "You have this perception out there that whites are no longer in control or the majority. Whites are the new minority group." Call it racial jujitsu: A growing number of white Americans are acting like a racially oppressed majority. They are adopting the language and protest tactics of an embattled minority group, scholars and commentators say. Considering the racial angst that underlies so much of the Tea Party movement, this actually might have been an interesting and worthwhile subject to tackle. And it starts out promisingly, with quotes from smart people like Tim Wise, d

Best News Ever!!!
I'm not sure how many of you know (or actually care) but for the past 2 1/2 years I have lived with my husband's parents and his brother and his demon seed daughter. Well this weekend we will be moving into our own place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooooooo excited words cannot express it. I plan on drinking and smoking and doing it all while naked in my living room. YAY ME

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 6
Day 01 – Your favorite song (Somebody to Love - Queen)Day 02 – Your least favorite song (Lips of an Angel - Hinder)Day 03 – A song that makes you happy (Fuck You - Cee Lo Green)Day 04 – A song that makes you sad ( Behind the Wall - Tracy Chapman and Wreck of the Day - Anna Nalick)Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone (Best I Ever Had - Drake)Day 06 – A song that reminds of you of somewhere - This one will probably annoy you, but it reminds me of Spain/Tenerife http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qd0Zd6BHOyQ Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain eventDay 08 – A song that you know all the words toDay 09 – A song that you can dance toDay 10 – A song that makes you fall asleepDay 11 – A song from your favorite bandDay 12 – A song from a band you hateDay 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasureDay 14 – A song that no one would expect you to loveDay 15 – A song that describes y

Lend A Hand To A Fellow Fu
HI EVERYONE! I AM GOING TO TRY A BLOG TO ADD PEOPLE WHO NEED HELP FOR LEVELING. ONLY SMALL SORTS OF HELP (or what I consider to be small) SUCH AS FANS, BIG PIMPIN GIFTS, FAMILY ADDS, DRINKS, ETC. AND YES, I ALSO CONSIDER BUZZKILLS AND PIMPIN SMALL! NOT THINGS LIKE MILLIONS OF POINTS! I'LL BE HAPPY TO ADD YOU HERE, JUST LET ME KNOW WHAT IT IS YOU NEED BY MAILING ME AND PLEASE EXPECT TO HELP OTHERS IN RETURN! [KARMA] So... could you?? WOULD you?? Help others out with some little things? It always helps you too!! You get points for everything you do and you just might make a new friend... IMAGINE! JUST IN CASE YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW TO CHECK ON SOMEONES LEVELING STATUS.... YOU LOOK AT THEIR STATUS BAR WHICH IS UNDER THEIR DRINK BAR. IT WILL EITHER READ "CHECK PROGRESS" OR IT WILL SHOW AN AMOUNT OF POINTS EITHER WILL BE A CLICKABLE LINK TO SHOW YOU WHAT THEY ARE NEEDING TO LEVEL. REQUIREMENTS FOR LEVELING ONLY!! ABSOLUTELY NO HOARING OR BEGGING OR SELLING HERE. MUST HAVE A SALUTE TO

Diaspora
The quickest way to a woman's heart is the knife.Especially one so categorically infidelic.All words appearing blue.All dreams following the same bent.The warmth of familiar ecclipsed by the strangethe scent stranger.Of. I dream foreign raveny temptresses with each fleeting wink.Forty, ten, twelve, a thousand.She's been out of my words for so longbut rarely out of my thoughts.Perhaps my heart if I had one. Of a lesser reality she whispers into me.Hollow upon empty.Empty upon origin.I'm a lesser man for her being.Yet these phantoms, these wraiths of entwined fingersand glistening sweat.Of powerfulinvoluntaryquakes. I find myself wakingwith increasing urgencya dewey panica gasping, grasping mess. Empty.Hollow.Lacking.Ever the worsethe nights she comes.

Shopping List
so, I am honestly thinking of going shopping this weekend. first I need a new phone, which is on the main list. but i am also thinking of clothes. so, shoes, new skirt, blouse, hose, garters ... but it's the length i am thinking of about calf or right below the knee. the shirt will be around the elbow and will be able to be worn with outfits .. everything must be and has to be interchangeable. so who wants to go shopping for me?? since i truly dispise shopping? ** i really need to hand in my woman card** LMAO and if you expects pics ... keep wishing fvkrs :P

Post Birthday
I just wanted to thank everyone for making my birthday fun. :) Thanks for the gifts, bling, ticker, blast, pimpouts, shitfaces, comments and well wishes. It made turning 30 bearable. :) I appreciate all of you and I'm glad we're fu-friends (awwww.) If you're Mexican or pretending to be ;) Feliz Cinco de Mayo!

Looking For Tat Ideas. Explanation Below.
So here is the deal. My Fiance is pregnant with my first baby. She will be having it sometime in September. We have confirmation through ultrasound that our baby will be a girl. So I came up with the thought that I might want to get a tattoo with the baby's name, and date of birth on it. But I want to make it special. Like I said, she should be born in September, so I want to come up with something taht will be special to signifying her. So, any advice, or input on different ideas on what the design should look at will be welcome. Thanks to everyone in advance who helps with this one.

Thoughts Of The Day 5/7/2011...
Thoughts of the Day.. 1. I wonder when I write things, people understand what I am saying. 2. I wonder if people understand the things around them. 3. I wonder why more people don't speak out when they are getting screwed over or see shady. 4. I wonder why people think it's ok to support known liars, players and cheaters on here, are they that ignorant or just that blinded by bling & attention? 5. I wonder if I am being clear enough for people to take action? 6. I wonder what the composite IQ of Fubar is. 7. I wonder if people on here know anything about the real life around them and things that effect it. 8. I wonder if I am too winded or should just keep things shorter to make quicker points, because alot of people aren't getting it based on what I am seeing. Maybe they just aren't aware it exists. 9. I wonder if people even care about anything above or just care about tomorrow's point bonus. 10. I wonder...if people can read or they just don't care ...o

I'm Not Fake!
So there have been some rumors floating around lately that I'm fake.. *cough cough*JohnnyDevil... I decided to write this blog and hopefully put those rumors to rest.. These pics are 100% real and not edited.. On this first pic.. my face is a bit blurry.. i need a new cam..I also hear Jessica Alba put her damn face on my body.. what a fake! For those of you boys that don't like the chest hair.. I'm open to the idea of shaving it.. yes yes I know..half of me has a sunburn. Scrapper edited his face on this one and claimed the shirt as his own.. "I forgive you scrapper the shirt is awesome" umm.. I plead the 5th on the last one.. so.. I hope this proved to all of you... but most of all to JohnnyDevil that I'm not a fake.. quit trying to catch me already!!!

A Little More About Me
in the past year a lot has gone on for me and my family..Fubar is an escape for me. i come to fu to rate pics which i love to look at.. i am not big on the nsfw pics fact for me is YOU SEEN ONE YOU SEEN THEM ALL SOME ARE BIG SOME ARE SMALL... the size of your penis is not important to me...your kindness and respect are important to me.... as i said i have had a lot change in my life in the past year....my sister my father and my son in law have all been diagnosed with cancer..so far no one is dying but my money and my attention goes mostly to the fam. traveling for treatments and traveling to visit sister can be stressful.... i enjoy chatting just as much as anyone else... as far as hooking up with anyone i do not have time or patience any more to try to get to know anyone on a romantic level....i did try a few times to get to know a few people but after being yelled and over the computer and told what i should or should not be doing i said enough is enough. I AM A FREE SPIRI

True Honesty (long)
I told myself I wouldn't say anything, about anything or anybody, but I suppose after 5 months of silence on my end (which is unheard of lol) I thought I'd set the record straight. And so if people still have questions, they can refer to this instead of annoying me by SB or PM. It'll just all be here. I've been on Fubar about 3 years now. 3 years in 2 months to be exact. I've done it all. I've worked in lounges, cammed, DJd, socialized. I've done the fun side of Fubar. And I've played the game. I've gotten competitive, I've gotten too far into it, too obsessed as I'm sure many people have at one point, if they're not in that point as is. I've made my mistakes, I've owned up to them. I've done things I'm not proud of. So what? It's called learning. It's called making mistakes. It's what humans do. It's amazing how we all, including myself, judge people and expect people not to make mistakes and brutilize them and harrass them to no end when we ourselves are guilty of the same things.

Ugly Bitchy Skank
brskillet: i would love your help now lol 2:34pm Suga Lips: I'll pass. 2:35pm brskillet: awww why 2:36pm Suga Lips: Because I get real sex from a real person. Some dude jerking off on the other side of the computer, doesn't interest me. 2:37pm brskillet: i was talking bout for real damn no reason to be a bitch 2:37pm brskillet: you really aint good looking enough to have an atitude 3:08pm Suga Lips: ROFL..my profile says I'm a bitch, maybe you should read. Kind of funny how when I turn you down, all of a sudden I'm not good looking enough to have an attitude. But damn, when you wanted your dick played with I was good looking enough. Loser. 3:09pm brskillet: skank 3:10pm Suga Lips: Umm a skank is someone that sleeps with tons of guys. I sure as hell not fucking you. 3:10pm brskillet: no a skank is an overall ugly bitch, and yep thats you there honey 3:11pm Suga Lips: But you wanted to f

Flashing....lights.....
Dear Ninja I recently began using a flashy pic as my default and I can't help but notice a correlation to flashy pic and fubar "popularity". I have read about simple "small minded" creatures such birds being attracted to shiny things. I wonder if it is my shiny pic that has brought all these "bird brains" to my profile or have some of the populations of fubar become aware of my Intelligence, Attractiveness, Sense of Humor, Confidence, Wisdom, Bulging Biceps, Bulging Crotch, Bulging Ego, .......................Nice Toes, Goals and Aspirations,...............Motorcycle, Cool Son, Dog......................................Swimming Pool, Nice Hair..................................................Bedroom Eyes, Smile...........Stop me at any time........ Dear Mr thinks-he's-wonderful, I'll stop you right there. The subconscious brain is attracted to things that move, flash, or sparkle. It's just what your optic nerves pic up on first. No one has become aware of all that o

This Is A Good One For The Holiday Weekend..
Think about this when you are grilling your shrimp this weekend... "...You've probably heard of shrimp on the barbie, but what about shrimp on a treadmill? The National Science Foundation has, and it spent $500,000 of taxpayer money researching it. It's not entirely clear what this research hoped to establish. But it's one of a number of projects cited in a scathing new report from Sen. Tom Coburn...".here's the vid: The full report can be found here... http://abcnews.go.com/US/page?id=13692367 I want THAT strong shrimp to slap on the grill...bah...Aren't you all happy Obama is lookin our for our gas tax dollars?...pfft..have a Happy Memorial Day weekend kids! Stay safe & avoid stupid...maybe go catch a shrimp or dozen...rofl..peace.

Death, Kabobs, And The Falls
Today was a strange day. For those of you who do not know, I volunteer at the local VA Hospital. This being Memorial Day weekend, I thought it would be a good way to commemorate it by volunteering Saturday, Sunday, and Monday instead of my typical Saturday. Shortly after I arrived, there was a patient who went into cardiac arrest. While I do not have any real medical training, I hung outside the room to be available to grab whatever I could to help, be it a saline bag, intubator, or whatever was asked of me. Sadly, the patient did not make it. My lack of medical training prevents me from doing much with living patients, but once they are no longer living, I can help out, and help out I did. I helped prepare the body for the morgue, by binding arms and legs, putting the patient in the pouch, human remains, and so forth. After that, the Emergency Department was having a barbecue. I have skills with grills, so I took over the cooking duties. For me, I deal with dead computers

I Need Help!
Not just mentally. I'm at the dreaded point where I need 250 ability points to level. A few kind souls have gotten me down to needing 206, but it still feels like way too many to go. I have fubucks. I have my own 15 ability points each day. I can do pic mods, rate your stuff, polish your bling... Anything else you can think of that you'd like in return for pimping me out, shitfacing me, killing my buzz, vouching, altruizing, cloaking... just let me know. I would be extremely grateful (not NSFW grateful, but that's better for you anyway :P)

My Motivation
: sexyfunguy Boulder, CO subject: R received: 06/7/2011 03:07 pm replied: no block this member I'm not trying to pick on you but to let you know u are one of Gods creations and your as u are whe your born.You were born a man and you still are.Changing your appearance will not make you something else.I was involved witt the gay/transgender lifestyle for a while.I was a crossdresser but I knew inside I was and still am a man.I have since come to know the Lord and what He wants from us and how we are to live on this earth.You can't go by your feeling as they will lead one astray everytime.I use to belive in follow your heart and what you feel but the bible does tell us not to follw your heart but to follw Jesus and His teachings.Its not about religion but a way of life.I pray and hope you will seek His will and what He has for you and not what you feel you think you should do.You were born a man and when you go before God you will be a man then.Y?opu st

Gawd I Feel So Yewsed!!!
7:53pm Loser: LETS GET NAKED AND DO THINGS TO EACH OTHER. 7:54pm Erica Marie: ROTFL! 7:54pm Loser: SEXUAL. lol 7:55pm Erica Marie: oooooooh yummy! can i mumm about it? 7:55pm Loser: do it i hope i make someone jizz with the awesome i hide in my pants :> 7:57pm Erica Marie: lol i've mummed my limit for the day 7:59pm Loser: we could just cyber. i'm pretty hot at that. i use big words and whatnot 8:00pm Erica Marie: well fuck... id have to stop masturbating to pay attention to what you say 8:01pm Loser: *totally goes down on your vaginer and whatnot, doing pleasurable things with his tounge and like, playing with your lady parts* 8:02pm Erica Marie: ~moans and twists around, spitting on my hand and rubbing it on my bottom to pull your weiner into it and stuff 8:06pm Loser: *mmm yeah you're so tight and stuff because it's your butthole and not your vagina which is tight but not as tight as your butthole because your butthole is connected to your anus as i shove all five inches o

You Left Me Here To Die
you left me you left me here to die you tore me in half i tried to tell you tell you something was wrong i showed all the sighns cried out for your help but you was never there i was always second to your game the secret you hid so well was me saying you adore me you said you cared when all you did was hate me you never cared at all your no good for me people said the proof is on my arms YOU LEFT ME HERE TO DIE!!

Only Me To Blame
Only Me To Blame Sittin' here by the phone, waiting for a call, hoping to go back to where I came, I had it all and just like that, I lost it , and things just would never be the same. I loved her so much, but never showed it, now things have fallen apart. I never thought what I was doin' would lead to a broken Heart. I was never so lucky, when I met her that day, then I ignored her feelings and threw it all away. Why was I so foolish? how could I be so dumb?, she left me for something better, now I'm standing here feeling numb. So here I am all alone with no-one to turn to, caught up in my foolish ways, I wish I could turn back the hands of time and go back to the good ole days. I wish I could say "I'm Sorry" but "I'm Sorry" are only words and now I live with the sound of her broken Heart, the last sound I ever heard.

Why Couldn't It Just Wait?
Why Couldn't It Wait? She told me not to worry, everything would be alright That was the last time I talked to her I'll never forget that night. She was my reason for living, She was my shining star the last time I heard from her she was getting in her car. What was so important?, why couldn't it just wait? I wish I could take it back but now it's too late. They say words can't hurt you, but that's not true at all, I got the words I dread the most when the sherriff made the call. I was told about an accident, out on route 99, for some reason her car crossed the double line, she didn't see the other car coming around the bend the skid marks started 50 yrds away and here is where they end. Among

Sore.
Yesterday I had my kickboxing class... but those bastards changed it up...it's now called total body blast I understand the title of the class...literally every part of me but my calves and my forearms is sore I am super proud of myself, but good lord.... there are these lil muscles back by my upper shoulder blades that i didn't even know I had I went for a nice walk after class...and am debating going today, but my foot is killing me....something tells me I should rest it

Stop The Crap
I know I have friends here, some closer than others. My true friends know I do not like drama at all. When my ex logged into his fubar account earlier, he had several messages. These were telling him he was an idiot for losing me and doing what he did blah blah blah I am furious about this. He is still my son's father, we drives me nuts,but it is no one's place to say anything to him. If I found out someone that claims to be a friend is doing this,I will delete and block you. I am getting very close to taking a long break from this place. if you like me at all, you would not bring me anymore drama thanks

[had A Character Idea]
So, having watched a lot of star trek I think that every ensemble should have a "super man". ... No not the man of steel kind of super man just... a non-norm. Anyway, I started blanking out from sleep deprivation and something kinda crept into my head. Plant sentient. I've only bumped into a few (dozen) stories where this has been done, but I think I can put a little spice into it make it a tad more interesting than your metalman, your rockman, your super-sense elves or demigod demidemons I think the first thought that comes to mind are the Ents from LoTR, Spar from Breath of Fire II, and Phyl from the "Aliens ate my homework" series. I think I gave myself some novel challenges though things like sensory organs, means of transportation and communication, advantages, disadvantages, season changes, etc. Phyl actually burped to communicate, and if I remember right there was something horrifying about his face under the petals. And I think he was potted. So... even

Don't Talk Shit To Me!
how is my "real" life relevant to you?after being married and having children...owning my own business, home and my 3 vehicles...i can do/spend whatever the fuck i want on Fubar!aslong as i stay within the TOS :D if you'r worried about someone check yourself first!

I Know It Hurts... I Am Sorry.
I Know it Hurts..... I am Sorry. *I am sorry to all those woman out there who has been disrespected, heart broken, or discraced by a man in anyway. I wish i could be there to help you, hold you, comfort you everyday. *Its not right the way most of these guys take advantage of your kind heart saying they love you and how they can't stand being apart *Come on guys, stop playing them for a fool using these nice warm hearted woman like a drug mule *They just want to love and be loved, is that so much to ask for? Yes they might get clingy, or jealous, or alittle crazy at times. But do you think you are perfect to your core? *I am so sick and tired of listening to all these stories of men being so selfish, cold-hearted, childish, overly possesive, and jealous. *All you need to do is Talk. when you are fighting or having an arguement don't go and call her names or begin to mock *Listen to what she says listen to her feelings, talk it out. don't get all

Blah Blah
I am sure those of you that are friends have noticed the unhappy face status alot lately.... just a brief explanation....I have been dealing with alot of depression and anxietly lately. We moved a few weeks ago into a different apartment and its still not feeling like home for some reason.... I miss my old neighbors..... When I wake up during the week, I head over to the old neighbors for coffee and hang out there till I have other appointments or until the boyfriend gets off work, I know it sounds weird, its weird to me as well. They put me on another anxiety med, one that I dont like to be on, suppose to be on it 3x's a day but I basically take it at bedtime cuz it makes me tired. Another issue I am dealing with is my legs are hurting me big time lately....not just my knees but I have been waking up with my hips hurting as well and hip shit runs in my family, my grandfather had his replaced twice, my mom had her's done, same as my uncle and that shit scares me! I guess the only thing

I Totally Stole This Idea From Tree Hugger
I want to... hold your hand I want to... hug you until you groan I want to... tell you stupid jokes I want to... tell you my secrets I want to... know all your secrets I want to.. know what you are thinking, before you do I want to... kiss your whole face I want to... know every thing about you, even the bad ones I want it all.

Author Unknown
Author Unknown Somewhere in the pages of a book written long ago, there was something about love everyone was supposed to know. Lost in translation from a language that is no-more was the true meaning of love and who it was meant for. Love was a feeling that was meant to be shared but where and how those pages got lost and people forgot how to care. What was on those pages very few people knew I happen to be one of them let me share it with you. Love is something special love is something true and if you think you're in love be careful , 'cause sometimes your thoughts can deceive you. Love is something to embrace, not something to fear, but if you forget to return that love, your love will disappear.

10 Years Ago September 10th
September 10th 2001 my dear son Adam was born, he will be 10 tomorrow :) Laser Tag and dinner...time flys, seems like yesterday I was holding him, now I stand to hug him as his chin rests on my shoulder...tomorrow will come too soon and I will be looking up and my chin will be on his shoulder when I hug him..

Fucking Freaks
:05pmreplyalex: baby 7:05pmmoreTo alex: pardon?7:05pmreplyalex: tu parle francais ??7:07pmreplyalex: you speak french ??7:10pmmoreTo alex: no7:11pmreplyalex: english ??7:11pmreplyalex: if i give u my address can u send me a picture for ur chest or ur ass :$ ??7:11pmmoreTo alex: yes7:11pmmoreTo alex: no7:12pmreplyalex: please i like ur chest baby :$7:12pmmoreTo alex: want a pic of my big dick too7:13pmreplyalex: hehehehhe i want to see ur ass :$7:14pmreplyalex: you can send me a picture in this address : yass.the.best1@gmail.com !! and i send u a picture for my dick 7:15pmmoreTo alex: so you wanna see my big dick then7:15pmreplyalex: you can send me ??7:16pmmoreTo alex: for why would i do that?7:16pmreplyalex: 1) i like ur chest 2) i send u a picture for my dick :$7:16pmreplyalex: so send me a picture for you in this address : yass.the.best1@gmail.com7:17pmmoreTo alex: i have a 9" kok can you handle?7:18pmreplyalex: you can send me or no ?7:18pmmoreTo alex: you really wanna see my kok?7

Its A Jugga Douche Morning
To Name Crisis: jugga douche is deleting our comments 6:46am reply Will: im deleting your comments becuase im not here for you nor your glory .. you and your hatin ass can get outta here 6:46am more To Will: not hating...i cant help it your an idiot with a lil dick 6:47am more 6:47am reply Will: see that right there was hatin ... for you to be as old as you are you sure do act childish.... 6:48am reply Will: oh but i get it ... you got your ol lady stoled from you by a lo.... keep hatin people like you make people like me famous 6:49am more To Will: no im wealthy she loves my money not your trailer...btw..your still a lil dicked idiot 6:49am more To Name Crisis: Will: see that right there was hatin ... for you to be as old as you are you sure do act childish.... 6:48am reply Will: oh but i get it ... you got your ol lady stoled from you by a lo.... keep hatin people like you make people like me famous 6:49am

How I Went From 0-50 On Fubar In Less Than 9 Months.
About 9 months ago a friend told me about a website called Fubar. I had no idea what he was talking about but thought I would check it out. And Ill be honest, he said there where lots of "hot" women on here. Which is true! I set up my account and had NO idea what I was doing or supposed to do. I was very shy about talking to people on here that I didnt know. But I soon realized that was one of the purposes of the site. Almost right away I had people that wanted to be my friend (some still are!). And they where all very helpful. Ms. Flintstone was my first REAL friend here. She helped me through a lot of the stuff at the start. There were others too, but she is still my friend through all of this and she is one of my best buds here. So, like everyone, I flew through the first bunch of levels rather quick. People told me I was going to get addicted to the game. I couldnt see that happening. Well, they where right! I quickly realized that to play this game you needed to become a VIP, w

Master Slave Contract
Contents reference of the contract. 1.0.0 Slave's Role 1.0.1 Slave's veto 2.0.0 Master's role 3.0.0 Punishment 3.0.1 Rules of Punishment 4.0.0 Permanent Bodily Harm 5.0.0 Others 5.0.1 Other knowledge about the contract 5.1.1 Temporary Mastership 5.1.2 Temporary Master and Punishment's 5.1.3 Temporary Master and Terms of address 6.0.0 Secrecy 7.0.0 Alteration of Contract 8.0.0 Termination of Contract 9.0.0 Uniform 9.1.0 Master's uniform 9.2.0 Slave's uniform 9.2.1 Sleepwear 9.2.2 Natural wear 9.2.3 'Home' wear 9.2.4 Necessity 9.2.5 Jewelry / Accessory's 9.2.6 Restraints / Bondage wear 10.0.0 Exceptions 11.0.0 Changes for the 'period' 12.0.0 Terms of Address 13.0.0 Slaves signature 14.0.0 Master's signature This contract is provided as a secure and binding agreement which defines in specific terms the relationship and interaction between two individuals, hereafter termed the slave and the master. This agreement is legal and binding.

"in Her Memory..."
Silence echoes between these walls Since you went away Spring does spring, leaves do fall I just wish you could’ve stayed Since then, a decade’s time has passed It’s all a blur, gone by so fast Yet I remember that day so well Upon reminisce, my heart does swell You lived a good life, long and blessed You had earned your time to rest As time passes, the mourn does wane Though finding sometimes, a smile does feign I hate what falls on fragile frame To soldier through the idled same And what always pulls me through Is inspired strength extracted from you It feels so much lays rest on one I will do for you, what should’ve been done I don’t know when, I’m not sure how But this I solemnly vow No rock unturned, no dust will rest

My Mum, This Was A Response To If I Shoud Get All Surgery Done At Once
Chase 9692 mins-- 29 of 33don't do it all...how many starving people could that money feed or better yet you could pay for someone who actually needs an operation to get one. If you waste money on this I hope you get an infection and die you selfish bastard or bitch... whichever

I've Fucked My Life Up So Much All These Years, All For The Pursuit Of Nothing.
Let me start off by saying, for all the good things in my life, and I know there are plenty, I am grateful for them, be it events that have happened, grand opportunities I’ve gladly partaken in, or people that truly care about me. Despite having a decent life, I cannot shake this terrible feeling at times, this loneliness that consumes me, and at times, I even act out because of it. It’s all so ridiculous, and I have not really fathomed how this could be so powerful, and beyond that, what exactly is the source of this? I feel tonight, I can honestly say I’ve come to a decent conclusion: my pursuit’s of women, that have gone absolutely nowhere, and will go absolutely nowhere. It really should have been so obvious, but I guess it takes time to really understand what’s at the core of such a deep feeling in your life. I do not blame women for my loneliness, or not being able to handle rejection, although to be fair, I’ve been treated bad in some prett

Yes I Can Be A Bitch On This Subject.
Finals are done tomorrow. Pats myself on the back. Ready for Christmas. Now to what I am referring to. I am just going to be as blunt as fuck and I don't give a fuck if it pisses you off or not. If it makes you mad then you must be one of those that do it. I actually took the time to go to a few of my friends page today and look at there photos. I saw albums upon albums basically saying you want in send me credits or this bling or that. I was sickened to my stomach. You can call me whatever the fuck you wish to call me but a fucking whore I am not. I respect myself more than prosituting my pussy or ass or breast out there for all to see. I am a highly sexual person but there is no way I would personally lower my standards. I am a mother, daughter, sister, friend etc: . There is no fucking way I could downgrade myself as some of you have. If I have hit a nerve then the fucking truth hurts. The same goes for men that do this. There are porn sites you can get this shit for free or fuc

Originality
so alot of friends addds I get are really bizarre..this one to,,he read my about me...and was original as all hell..so I wanted to share it Slackerj7 minsAbout me: I am a sad sack with a tiny peen who needs to search the net for girls willing to give me the validation that is missing in the rest of my life. If you accept me as a friend I assure you I will pester you continuously again in hopes of the aforementioned validation. So how about it you SEXY MILF, wanna cam? P.S. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

This Wasn't Even What I Wanted To Blog About
I was in the process of starting a blog post of some creative writing, when this occurred... The AntiChristYou were Pimp Handed: Photo Comments!You were just Pimp Handed upside 'yo head by: The AntiChristBlocked from posting photo comments for the next 3...... talk about harboring a grudge, lol This guy had pimphanded someone I love, so I went and started rating all of his pics a "1"... in SEPTEMBER!!!

My Cover Story
Several years ago, Dorothy rescued a loveable boxer after its owners moved away and left the dog behind. She named the dog Lil' Bit but she most often called her 'Big Mama'. "She was just the sweetest dog," said Dorothy. Big Mama suffered before she was brought into her home home being left tied to a pole by her previous owners. Soon after they left, Big Mama got her cord tangled around her leg and eventually chewed part of her leg off in order to get free. Dorothy's heart melted and she rescued Big Mama bringing her back to health. After many wonderful years in the her home home, Big Mama was killed on Tuesday, Nov. 29, allegedly the victim of an attack by two pit bulls that live up the hill from her home. According to the Pit Bull Rescue Central, a non-profit organization that seeks to educate about the nature of pit bulls, there is no evidence to show that pit bulls attack more than other breeds. However due to the report of the attack, the animals were picked up by the Dyersbur

Now In Spring
Now in Spring Had you left in summer when the sun lies heavy around us sweltering the meadows, and even the baby birds have gone without a last embrace, I would have merely smiled sadly and memorized the beauty of your face. Had you left in Fall when the trees grow brilliant once before they bleed their sorrow, and the flowers drop their petals on the dying lawn, I would have merely frowned to miss the quite autumnal redness of your hair when you were gone. And had you left in winter when we bundle up against the chill when barren trees are even empty of the birds, I know I would have merely sighed to lose the comfort of your hands as I watched you go. But you are leaving now in spring when every other lovely thing returns, when flowers, blossoms, buds, and birds are lining up for us to welcome home with kisses. Now I know the tragic irony of parting-- This is! Terry

Fubar Lesson 104 - Proof.
Here's today's lesson kids for those that want to do their own blow outs of people or feel the need to send stuff to me to look at, which I have no problem doing. Just a few things to know to make your case against what/whoever you are wanting to call out for the stupid stuff they do... 1. You need proof. Proof means screenshots of people admitting things. Be it Fu, Yim, etc. These are the most damning ones. Always start with this end to the means. 2. Avoid drama. Yes, avoid interpersonal drama. Just because someone cheated on you doesn't mean that they are a serial cheater. Are there serial users and cheaters here sure. But in order for it to have a max impact, it needs to be a widespread problem. For example, a red using cheater or higher profile piece of crap is a popular item. "Someone stole my fubucks and didn't send me the credits" could be a serial user or thief, but if you don't have a screenshot of the original deal and some variety of proof,it's not gonna work out and ther

Interesting Dimensions
This is a record for my own interests as much as anything else. Something I can look back on to prevent me from being how I was before. Shirt size 17" neck down to 14.5" Trousers/jeans down from 40" to 32/33 depending on type it seems. xxl/xl t-shirts probably down to large or maybe medium Roughly 40 pounds lost. Happier, more confident (for me) and plan on keeping it this way.

F*cked Up Things People Do 101.
F*cked up things people do 101... So get this right, I'm not going to name names because it's really not worth dragging people around over this but here's a story I got this week and something to think about...when I say don't believe people until it's real and you make it real... Dude (let's say "Mark") I've been talking to has been getting closer to a girl we will call "Kelly." Kelly says she has a child and lives with the baby's father but they are "not together." Or so she says. They call, text, talk on fu, etc. Normal fubar things... One day he calls her and she did not answer her phone. Couple of days go by and he finally gets ahold of her and she says "her phone fell in the toilet." Ok, that could happen theoretically. But what happend next eh, not so much. So later that evening, Mark received a phone call from Kelly, who has accidentally pocket-dialed him... ..in the middle of having sex!!.. This call goes on for about 17 minutes. Clearly they are not going to be together

Who Wants To Win Rock Star Or Boomy Bling??
Salute contest for rock star and boomerang blings? Send me your boob and/or butt salutes to me, they can be bare or with panties and bra, up to u, i will open a folder with all the entries, the most votes will win a rock star bling, the 2nd most votes will win a boomerang bling, 3rd wins 6 credits, 4th wins 25 million fubuk If you are interested or want more info, message me, i need at least 15 people to enter to make it happen, you can e mail entries, liknips@aol.com Will be strating it soon!!!! Contest over, hope all had fun first place lady luscious 2nd chevygal 3rd boobilicious 4th canjun

Website Postings
I was informed by a few friends today of a website that has pictures of women from FUBAR posted on it and not ur average pictures but the NSFW variety and asking for more. I will continue to observe this website and any of my fam or friends I find pics of I will inform you of as soon as I can I also have the information from the website on how to get them removed I think I will be posting more information as I find it here's the info from the website This is excactly what the website says. I was wrong about the Copyright form this should be the correct way. For picture/content removal requests, follow the procedures as outlined here:DMCA notices should be sent to anonib.com@gmail.comPrivate removal requests can be sent to n0u@hushmail.meAbuse of reports for removal requests or failure to follow the outlined procedures might result in a ban. http://anonib.com/forms/ this what this link says to doFirstly, if this is a picture of someone you allegedly know, you cannot request this

"pat" Was Already Taken ....so, Meet "wade" *dances*
Blessings, Good Fortune, Strength and Peace... I've decided to dedicate a blog to the wonderful people that cross my path for reasons I will not question, but will cherish and remember because I grew from the experience... Wade; Waiting for my bus yesterday... sitting on the bench, brushing my upper hairs, sipping on my joe and enjoying the sun "mmm nice out this morning" I think to myself and smile “I need to find some zen, feeling a bit tense and antsy”. I close my eyes look down and take a deep cleansing breath. I look up and notice an odd little man (I'm pretty sure it's a man) crossing the busy street. As he (she?) approaches I can't help but to think of "Pat" from the older SNL skits "Well, guess this guy is 'Wade' since 'Pat' is aleady taken" I think with a giggle that slips out of my brain down through my mouth. Wade looks over HUGE ASS EATEN GRIN says nothing and continues to sip on his joe and GRIN. I smile "Cool cat, happy as can be with his (er her?)

Happy Easter Twats.
Up early today. Hid the munchkins eggs last night and she was at the foot of our bed at about 7 this morning! She found all but the big money one(2 bucks!). I made a pitcher of Mary mix last night and got a pint of vodka for them. Who in the hell knew that it took about a half pint each in a 32 oz. cup? Anxiously awaiting the noon opening to have the next. While I was watching Linds bounce around looking for her last egg, I had the great idea to go to the store to get and hide 5 scratchies for Susie. This is more fun than crack! Anyway, I'm 3-S'd and enjoying my day. Got a turkey going in the oven after I get more Mary fuel. Breakfy is rockin. Listening to Sunday morning blues on the radio. For your pleasure if so inclined: wzlx.com Hit the listen live button before noon East coast time for some good tunes.. Hope you and yours are having a good day. We are. ♥ Love the one you're with. (Jesus, what a sappy fuck when I start this early!) \Later.... Dud

Sex Story #17
DREAMING... I thought about you all day yesterday...and I can't stop thinking about us in a room, all alone...you sound so romantic, so passionate and oh so sensual...I keep closing my eyes, picturing me standing there (against the wall) in my black dress, high heels, feeling your hands on my.body, soft and gentle, teasing me, unzipping the zipper slowly, kissing my back, unbuttoning my bra, feeling your finger tips run across my back, feeling the dress drop over my shoulders to the floor, I hear you step back, to check out the black silk and lace undies I am wearing, to only feel Ur hands on my ankles, taking off my high heels, so, I get better balance, Ur hands now running up each of my legs, finger tips running across my opening, feeling how wet I am already for you, cupping my ass with Ur hands, pulling my panties down my legs, stepping out of them, u part my legs, feeling Ur lips, kissing up my calf, moving from one to the other, up my thighs, to my ass, fingers sliding acro

Who Says Spammers Are Dumb As Stumps
I love fucking with spammers. This one likes to use the word "awesome" so I tried to please her by using it back as much as possible. Her status message: Status: hello awesome people...i need someone to help me here !!!! This was her original message in my inbox: > > hello awesome...how are you doing...am celia by name and you ...?wishing you the spirit to embrace in live.....!!!Friendship is not a game to play, It is not a word to say, It doesn't start on March and ends on May, It is tomorrow, yesterday, today and everyday!!!> > add me at yahoo for cam and chat also...this is my yahoo id.....swaskygee> The following is her reply to my message. Talk about dumb as a stump. This one ranks high on the dumb-fuck-o-meter okay then thank you very much.....please add me at yahoo.....swaskygee @ yahoo . com === 'PieDaDDY' wrote the following at '2012-04-19 06:46:31'..>> Oh my awesomeness one you are so beeutifulist in the world!!!!!!!> > > > > > > I love your awesom

Just Be Careful.
i've been rating a lot of greenies (newbies) lately to help a friend level. i have seen something disturbing this past week as i do so. i have seen three very obviously fake accounts (you're on here long enough, you learn to spot them), that men have been blinging (and who knows what else) quite heavily. i would caution you to demand a salute from a newbie before you spend any cash on him or her. these accounts are usually caught, and locked or deleted, but it may take awhile, and in the meantime, folks are doling out bucks on fakes. just be careful, my sweetlets -- i hate to see anyone taken for a ride. (h)

The Sellsword's New Pants (8) (repost)
He looked down at the still, half empty clay cup of hot water in his hand. Rapidly turning tepid and no longer smoldering with enthusiasm. Much like the assembled crowd. Stunned at his sensational story of accidental heroism. He felt its scrutiny, he felt the mocking, lackluster weight of the truth, and the paltry sum of his life in that mug. With a bitter, deliberate quaff he swallowed the rest of the warm liquid in one gulp, and placed the mug with a firm thwack on the table. His comrades had been completely decimated in that skirmish. Some forgotten, muddy keep, on some forgotten pretendercade for glory, promotion, or a hill of shiney rocks. Probably just cousins squabbling over fenceposts, and hundreds of hired killers, mutineers, and cutthroats, or hungry plowhands of too many dry summers had been brushed awaylike so many toy soldiers on a board. He was only alive today because he was tired, wet, hungry and crazy enough to throw his shoe over a ridge. What right did he have

My Grandmother. 4/27/12
My grandmother will be 96 on 9/11 of this year, but she will not be here to celebrate this birthday. For the past 32 years I have been able to pick up the phone and call. Get any kind of advice that i needed. Soon that will be gone. My emotions are raw, my eyes hurt from crying and I struggle with understanding so much in life. See, my grandmother fell on Tuesday. After the fall she complained of her stomach hurting very badly. A CT Scan was done to figure out what was the cause of the pain. We are told that she has cancer. Not just in one place but all over. The one woman that has been healthy, always on the go, is now sick with no symptoms to show. Yesterday Hospice came in and evaluated her. Took her to their facility to get pain management under control. All we can do now is keep her comfortable. After the facility doctors came in, he let us know that in cases like this, the patient usually dies in four weeks. I sit here feeling sorrow, pain, distress at times an

Anonib Is Down. For Now. Here's A Video About It Too...
Well, with the recent server moving situation on anonib.com (that's the truth they lost their server, so congrats, your complaints did some good), you might think it's safe...but it's really not. These people and the people who post there are like roaches. I found this video on metacafe explaining what and who hangs out there. If you know of anyone that posts there, hangs there or associates in any way, shape or form with it...this is what you're dealing with. The Truth About AnonIB.com - Click here for this week’s top video clips ..They will be back. Maybe this time we can get a little handle on it. Lock down your pics kids or have them posted next to real kids. Peace.

About To
I like to think that I'm one of those users that rarely blocks people and has my profile set to anyone on here. But I'm about to set my shout box to friends only. What makes BOYS think it's okay to come in my shout box asking me if my boyfriend is the one asking me to poke me in the ass. WTF? Really? Some people have absolutely NO class.

Fuowned
Yet another idiot on FuOwned. Who among you fails to realize that this site is a social networking GAME and one sub GAME on this site is FuOwned? It seems as though some people feel they have a real world claim on other players~ as if you can ever own another human being! Get real... I don't give a squirrel's furry nut sac if you have get bent because I buy someone from you in FuOwned. I don't do it to be a psycho, I don't do it because I feel I have some claim on any other person, I don't do it to be territorial~ or ay other lame`arsed reason you true nut cases come up with. The ONLY reason I buy people is because it's one of the sub GAMES I like to play. It's part of the GAME. If you can't afford it, find something else or play the game of Fubar more and make more FuBucks. If you can't handle competition, get offline and read a BOOK (can you even read?). If you're a jealous freak, seek a mental health professional for your issues~ daddy issues? abandonment issues? attachment

Redundant Much?
MARCUS GATE8 minshey baby I never seen someone so hot like u nice pics i like them all . u have nice body add me sexy i will like to be friends with u babe. but seriously what a catch..and hes local! Im really tempted to ask him what part of the city he is in..so I can avoid it like the plague...

Directions
Ever noticed how you can climb in a car with friends, or the friends climb into your car, and occasionally there is a discussion about "which way are we going". Nobody just jumps in a car and there is silence. There is that unwritten rule that you HAVE to talk about something. And one thing is which direction to get to desired destination. Freeway? Back road? The Boulavard with all the stop lights? YET.....if you were going there on your own...you NEVER have a problem getting there. You DONT even have to MUMM about it either!! So why is this always a topic of conversation?

This Bad.
What we had, what we werethe memory can be polished and worriedtil it has magic.A sweetness lacking sincerity.A purile filtermade of everything warm, safe, and soft.Like some smooth totem.Worn faceless, and blind.Cling to it, like the last thread binding hope.Captive, thrashing wildly in desperate agony.This is the death of goodness.The last breath of the charade,executed under the tyranical scrutiny of what wasand what should have been.Sundered, and brutalized for all to witness.A marked indifference to suffering.A cruel parody of justice.

Enough Already...
Just when I thought life had gotten the best of me it decided to knock me a little farther down. Today my husband got subpeonaed(sp?) at work with a restraining order against his kids. It seems they have decided they'd like to go live with her now. They claim that the living conditions here are unacceptable and that they can't handle living with my kids. OMG!! I keep this place spotless. The kids claimed they do all the cleaning...but all they have are regular chores! Taking out the trash, dishes once in a while and the oldest had to make dinner occasionally when I was kept late at work. There was even something in there about having to listen to us have sex. Sheesh! The walls in this house are thin but my god...it's not like we're yelling and screaming and hanging from chandeliers. Ugh. This is so unreal. Now we have to go to court on Monday and figure out what the hell is happening.

Mind Vs Heart
when i was child people use to say listen to your heart ,although its very difficult to listen it ,try it and keep on doing its an art ,they also use to say its always right ,but when i was child everything was fair enough even the heart ,even i was a good beliver , that its the heart which is always true to you ,and anything that you do what your heart says will be good for you . I don't know how many of you agree with it but its not always good to listen to it , its always not fair enough , most of the time listening to it can be painfull ,most of the time it confuse you ,most of the time its discourage you ,here is a scenario ,there was a boy who was deeply in love with a girl who used to be her best friend ,his heart say to propose her and mind says not to finally after lots of up down ,intially there was a war between his heart and mind with all those fight he remembered what he learned in his childhood to go with your heart ,so he decided to go with his heart and proposed the g

Friends
So it seems we have lost a really good friend. One I wish I lived closer too. I "had" a George pic of him and I was going to use it as my default today in honor of his "Fu-death", but it seems I can't find the damn thing! While looking for it in my George folder, I realized how many Fu-friends I have had through the years and have lost. There are 3 folders, one of George pics to cut-n-paste, one of point hoars and flat out hoars (because George just can't keep his weener in his pants), and a third one of Fu-friends pictured with George. Sifting through the friends folder I find the following "MISSING IN ACTION" George buddies: DIT, Coery, Ceri, GG, GBT, Applebottom, TJ, Jim, Kins, Julzzz, witty, Sho, Roxy, vixxenVB, boo, Gear, amy, Mrs B (sighs), Tinker, Giggity, Karma, Wendy, Love, JWH, MEL, and Wendy my fantasy wife (ok, maybe she wasn't a friend). It also made me wonder....should I load those back on? Maybe make it accessable to family or friends only? Some of those were t

Am I Missin Something..please Let Me Know...
Here we go N I dont ever make a big deal on this site ..but I have known this man for a long time probable as long as I have been on this site ..I just started to chat with him in his shout box n we became good friends n I mean just friends ..He is a older man that he admitted that loves women I didnt care cause I was his buddy ..It was nice getting to know what a nice n wonderful person he was to me ..I started helpin him out with leveling N out of the blue he tells me good bye today..N wont tell me what I did or said wrong to him ..alot of u folks might no him but I will keep that to myself ...Just a freakin shocker I would say..I was there for him ..n just listened n show him I cared ..after all the emotions he was going through of his Mother passin n a few other things.. My heart went out to this man cause of course my heart is a big flippin heart ..N now I am blocked ..I cant believe it ..I am shocked with this ..can anyone tell me what I am missin ..Love ya All

E.l.s Blog- What A Joke !! Beware Of Who Your Friends Are!
I want to start off by saying this "red" journey has been eventful. Just to let those know who want to be red, its not what you think. It's an easy way to cause stress in your life, have to defend yourself constantly and lose a lot of money. And put up with a lot of immature crap from people that have no RL. Now what I am about to say does not apply to all "reds". So now that i have that straight, I will move on. People who know me well, know that I had decided weeks ago that my fu anniversary was the end of my red journey. Why? Because I do have a RL, and it requires more of my time. Plus, when I first decided to try to be red several months ago, the "red" road was nice. Now it is so cut throat with people who live for this place, who are jealous and would cut their own mothers throat just to get ahead. Not a road I want to be on. I found myself reacting to what people were saying and getting dragged into the drama. When I realized this, I realized its not who i am an

For The Record....
Blah. I hate making "for the record" blogs. But sometimes they just need to be done I guess, especially around here considering how people are. Recently I was investigating an issue that alledgedly involved some racist comments, which are completely unacceptable in these here parts, and was mentioned in a blog. "For the record," I do not support anyone that does these things and makes these statements on Fubar.com. And also, "for the record," admin is/was involved and is monitoring all parties involved for future TOS and other violations. This is now out of my hands and above my pay grade. If I can't prove it, or if the proof itself is in dispute, then to me it's non issue and nothing can or will be posted until those said issues are resolved. It's funny, if you run a Google you will find my name mentioned in hundreds of not only fubar blogs, but offsite items, sites created to defame me, and just about anything else out there. At least 80% of those postings are unsanctioned. I on

Gotta Love Prince.....
Music lovers: I am sure you can appreciate the talent and the gift the artist Prince offers his listeners and fans! Since I am an OLD lady, lol, I am sure many of you on fubar only know of the commercial stuff like: 1999, Little Red Corvette, Purple Rain, When Doves Cry and more.... I bring the discussion of music up, because as I indulge in the fubar experience; I see all the different varieties of people and it makes me proud to see everyone having fun-IN HARMONY!!! I feel that despite the many efforts of the great civil rights fighters in the past; musicians like Prince, to me have been some of the great pioneers in getting us to 'ALL GET ALONG" and enjoy each other in the name of fun.... NO MATTER WHAT COLOR, SIZE AND RELIGIOUS BACKGROUND!!! May the timeless classics that play on the radio and dance floors across America by Prince...act as reminders to us that where there is good music... there are good times and great people!!!

Update September 2012
So as some of you know, I was out of work from April :( in July I took on a venture selling senior supplement insurance, invested a lot of money in certifications, E & O insurance, business supplies; only to be led on, to wasting more in fuel costs etc. So I was miserable with this venture and contacted an old collegue just to see how she was doing, she started an agency almost 10 yrs ago and was in need of an assistant to help her with her business and grow it more. I started working for her last week, she is paying me 25% more than my last job and that is just a base..she is going to sweeten the pot with bonuses (got 3 bonuses today Coach, B. Makowsky & Kooba). I am stoked, timing was everything...although I must commute 17 miles which takes 45-55 minutes :/ I work out of her home and can wear lounge clothes..woot woot! Saves on make up and dress clothes :) I will dress business when we have enrollment meetings..I am excited about this new venture with an old friend whom I res

Theft
Sooo, last night the license plate to my car got stolen. I was parked right in front of my boyfriend's house. Hrmmm, I hope they are caught. And for their sake, I hope they have a shit ton of drugs in their car, lol. That is all :)

Since People Are Asking
I figured I should write this all down now so I don't have to keep saying it and before I start zoning out from my medication. For about 3 weeks my hip/lower back has been hurting me. I had no idea what was going on with it. I finally had enough of the pain today. I went to work with a limp, just like I always had been for the 3 weeks. However, after being there for about 30 minutes the left hand side of my lower back went numb. I really couldn't feel anything except for a tingle. I tried just leaning on the counter at work but it didn't really help. I worked my whole shift, in COMPLETE pain. I couldn't tell you how many times I was in tears from the pain. I feel like I need to say that my pain tollerance is very high. I went into labor and was 7cm when I decided I'd had enough of the feeling of "gas" I had. It did NOT hurt at all. I was in full on labor and had no clue. Anyway, I left work at 4 and by 5pm I was at the hospital. After finally getting seen, I was told it was my Scia

Bucket List
Just the other day I was talking to a married girlfriend of mine. She was complaining about how dull and drab her sex life was. She mentioned " sexual" things she wished she had done before getting married. WHEWW, it made me think of my own "sexual" things I'd like to do before I die! Here is my list of sexual must-dos before I die...... So here is My Sex Bucket List! Sex at a drive-in Mile-high club Married sex (the best kind, in my opinion Sex on a boat Sex in a body of water Play strip poker/Monopoly/card game Sex in the shower Sex standing up against a wall Sex with no kissing Sex in a tent in the wilderness Sex on the beachBlindfolds Using ice sexually Sexual role play Do an uncircumcised penis Whipped creamFrederick's of Hollywood lingerie sex Sex with someone much older Sex with someone younger (legal!) Sex in a foreign country, possibly with a foreigner A quickie in a skirt A longie in the rain Fisting Get your toes licked Sex in the ocea

Up To 40% Off Everything Listed In My Studio!! Orders Make Me Happy Happy Happy!! *dances*
STUDIO SALE!!! Save up to 40% off EVERYTHING listed!! www.greeningdrivecreations.artfire.com Every item in my studio is listed at 20% OFF! Leave an item comment (you don't have to be an artfire member to do this) and receive 10% off at checkout. Artfire patrons (members) receive an additional 10% off!! LIKE MY ARTPAGE ON FACEBOOK AND I'LL BLING YOU OR SEND YOU ONE OF MY NOTECARDS FOR FREEEEEEEEEEEEE!! www.facebook.com/greeningdrivecreations I also have uploaded pictures of what I created to my fubar album "Boxes, Bags, Jewelry etc etc etc" (in case fu's wanna check out what I do, but don't wanna leave the bar..hehe) *custom orders ARE available. HAPPY SATURDAY EVERYONE!!

Update
Life has been busy...crazy busy..but awesome...I know I'm an awful fu-friend anymore but thought I'd come back to check in with you all and to let you know...I'm pregnant! Only 6 weeks...so I'm due mid July...Anyone that has me on FB should keep it hush-hush...our other kids don't know yet... How have you all been? Anything I should know?

Asswipe Chronicals
Clear HistoryClose Dawn of Happiness Buzz: tipsy Level: Ninja (19) Gender: Male, ? Location: Pakistan Status: Was Hitler a good man?????? 10:58am Dawn of Ha...: hi how are you? 11:26am FvckingCan...: I am fine, you really don't want to chat with me...I am for freedom of expression... 11:28am FvckingCan...: which apparently you are not. 11:39am Dawn of Ha...: i would love to chat with you dear do you use same name for yahoo 11:42am FvckingCan...

12-15-12 Update
Many of you have noticed I have't been around for a few months, well things in my life have turned upside down. My husband of 17 years left me and has filed for divorce, my court date is Feburary 25th. I haven't had any access to internet until just recently and wanted my friends to know I havent forgotten you guys just been going through stuff. Love you guys and Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

So Many Ways To Fu-- And This Is Mine.
i will be changing my family up a bit to reflect more folks who like to play the Fu game. i'll be taking out some who are indeed good friends, but don't really care about Fu'ing so much. i'll still be stopping by most every day to rate/like you, but i'll have more people in my family who are active, and who include me in their families. if you want to take me out of your family, so be it, and i understand. please don't take it personally, though; this is how i choose to Fu, and my feelings for you have not changed one bit (i'd let you know if i had an issue with you). hit my sb if you wanna rap about it. love to all.

Here Is An Example Of My Erotic Story Writing. Posting Solely For Critique. Please Feel Free To Comment. Thank You.
Kevin and Avery are in small boutique type of place, looking at lingerie. Something for Avery to wear for Kevin later tonight. Kevin hands Avery a little violet colored camisole and panty set with garters and a pair of black thigh high stockings with a pair of violet colored 7 inch heels that strap half way up her calf. He tells her that he wants her to go into the dressing room, put it all on and come out to show him. So she goes in, and after a few long minutes, comes back out with her hair done up in a sexy messy bun. Kevin notices that Avery has a look in her eyes, and that excites him. He pulls Avery in and gives her a long deep kiss. He lifts her hands up above her head and spins her around to see all of her. He pull her in, so that Avery's back rests against his chest. She feels his hot, heavy breath on her neck. Avery bends down to touch her toes so that her nearly bare ass brushes against Kevin's cock. She notice that its getting hard. She stands up and reaches to let her hair

Be A Rebel , Love Life
Blowing wind and silent sea Burn the ashes that never flee Think again and think right I know the truth lie with lies Be the fire burn the ice Let smoke fly high Be a rebel inspire a demon enjoy the time create innovation Seven sin defines life Feel proud and use it wise choice is dusk dream is dawn Chase the sun and count it won

Few Thoughts
I enjoy fubar. I really do. Not in the way others enjoy it. In my way. That way usually negatively impacts upon the enjoyment of others, I do admit. Which is why I enjoy it. I enjoy the fact that some people are so consumed by their own need to be miserable they can't see how fucking hilarious their bullshit is. I enjoy the fact that some people don't realise they've said the same fucking thing 100 times and it wasn't funny the first time. (One of the worst sins you can commit, to my mind, is being boring.) I particularly enjoy the fact they really hate having that pointed out to them. I enjoy the fact that it is not what people say, it is who they are, that matters to people here. I enjoy that fact because I can exploit that fact. I can take your own moral cowardice and shove it in your fucking face and make you look like the laughably pathetic hypocrite you are. And I enjoy that. I'm really a very happy person. I intend to be even h

To Cheat Or Not To Cheat...
Those who know me know I'm married and that though I'm a big flirt online and have had plenty of cyber FWB's, I've never taken things over into real life. I've been tempted plenty of times, but there are a number of things that have always stopped me. First there's the issue of trust. I have no desire to mess up my marriage and so have absolutely no desire for my wife to ever find out. Having a real life sexual relationship with someone would involve a lot of risk and I'd have to be able to trust that person not only that they wouldn't intentionally reveal our relationship but that they'd consciously do everything they could to ensure it was kept secret. Next there's the challenge of finding someone who's looking for the same thing... I've met plenty of women who say they're not looking for a relationship, that they understand my situation, and that they have no desire to mess with it - only to have their feelings intensify and then they explicitly or implicitly tell me that they

A Word About Fu Drama And Friends
I had a friend, my heart says have, we no longer speak. There is a poem that talks about friends for a reason, a season or a lifetime. That person appears to have been a season for a reason and I will love them for it for my lifetime. I was going to speak about the whys but they are not important. What is important is that other friends have stepped up, unasked, to help. Please, no more. I am grateful for your love and caring but you are simply complicating things and hurting me and them. Please stop. Please stay out of my SB with your opinions on my relationship with my friend as well. It belongs to the two of us and our opinions are the only ones that matter where we are concerned. If you want to talk to me, no matter what account you use, sign your name. Hiding yourself says you know you are doing the wrong thing. Speak to me directly.

Self Reflection
I occurs to me that I've pissed away my entire life so far with nothing to show for it. All I do is work, sleep, get drunk, and come to fubar where I comb the four corners of the internet to find the handful of women who are willing to suspend their dignity/standards long enough to lie to me and say they like me. But then I resent them and treat them like shit cuz I have no respect for liars. What a conundrum!

That Time Of The Year Again
It never fails, as soon as the weather turns from cold to warm all the simple-minded idiots come out of their holes like locusts programed to make water cooler small talk about how "nice" the weather is to anyone unfortunate enough to be in close enough proximity to get trapped in their tractor beam of stupidity. I mean after all it's a universally understood truth that sun/warm = happy/nice day and vice versa that clouds/cold = sad/bad day, right? Problem is I hate the summer. It's not even just a matter of preference. Oh sure there's the depression and anxiety that turns into sheer anger from being agitated all the time by the suns brightness and heat but it's also physical. I get headaches from the light and if I'm not adequately protected I'll get literally ill to the point where i'm run down like I have the flu. This can happen after mere MINUTES. I'm not talking about all day out on a boat or the beach without sun screen here. I'm talking about 5 minutes in bleachers watching a

Not An Article As Such......but An Extract From The Daily Show
http://www.upworthy.com/its-official-fox-news-just-hit-rock-bottom-hard-and-repeatedly-3?c=bl3 And if I knew how to share the vid instead of linking here..I would. The Daily Show with Jon StewartGet More: Daily Show Full Episodes,Indecision Political Humor,The Daily Show on Facebook

5-5-13
It's been a while since I've done one of these. I usually end up putting them in the wrong blog. Oh well. Here is todays lesson. Thank you, iamMAIK for the letters :) Word of the Day:: Jiff To give a hand job to. "Dude, she gives me a jiff every morning before work." Acronym of the Day:: BDA Balls Deep Anal "Did you see that porno? Hella BDA!!!" Now let's combine them, shall we? "Since you don't ever give me BDA, the least you could do is give me a jiff."

Kelly Jay...
i don't ever want you to go awayi want you in this place and here to stayyou are the sunlight in my brightest dayhow i love you, Kelly Jaythere are so many things still left to sayi cannot keep your love at bayi feel you on the inside, it is my heart you swaythe sky is clearing and my clouds aren't grayi don't want it any other wayto you i'm indebted, my dues i'll paywith you alone i want to playi want to take your heart, if i mayto hold in trust and never strayso mold me how you want me, i am yours like clayand in your arms i would love to layi don't ever want you to go awayi want you in this place and here to stayyou are the sunlight in my brightest dayhow i love you, Kelly Jay

Beneath
Silent rage It burns It stings So deep Tossing and turning Turmoil Consuming thoughts Sleepless nights This is your doing! Tormenting is your being HATRED! Deep burning hatred I know you feel it Eating away at your disgusting flesh Laughing at your tormentious guilt You know I know One day you'll feel it all

Definition Of Sexy And Unsexy
Sexy is when you're attractive and you do anything....pick your nose, bend over to pick up a pencil, make eye contact, walk, breathe ect ect Unsexy is when you do all the exact same things as sexy people do but you're not attractive.

Big Reds Pony Chasing Academy's Policies And Rules
WELCOME TO THE ACADEMY!!! (This blog is under construction and will be updated from time to time as time allows. ) NO MOBILE PHONES for Pony Chasing!!! If u r on a phone u will loose too many ponies. Please inform me if u r on a mobile phone if I contact you to chase. I iwll find another chaser. CHASER POSITIONS: 1. I am the pony whisperer. 2. 1st up: u r the top of the list and the chaser at the moment. It is very important to be at the SB, shout box, if you are first up. If you need to leave the SB for any reason please tell me so I can make sure I have an alternate ready. 3. 1st Alternate: 2nd up 4. 2nd Alternate: 3rd up There are 3 things to do when I send you a dirty pony to polish. 1. Polish 2. Rate the owner. (Polishing of the pony goes by in the live feed of the owner so very quickly and is in the live feed for such a short period of time, most pony owners have no idea who polishes their pony or when it was polished. It is very easy to loose the time on o

Obamafuckingcare...
Interesting how the Feds didn't bother to enroll licensed agents or agencies to be Navigators, wouldn't it make sense to use people who have already had background checks, understand and know about health insurance and could provide educated answers and assistance to citizens...Instead they want Planned Parenthood, Religious groups, elected officials and Medical professionals..I am sickened how the Administration is handling Health Care Reform implementation.*insert sarcasm* .so if you don't have insurance, make sure you write your Congressman or talk to your Rabbi about your health insurance options within the marketplace...better yet, talk to your doctor to decide which plan is best for you.Obama admin..putting licensed insurance agents out of work and into the bread lines since October 1st 2013. http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2013/08/17/feds-announces-release-67-million-to-help-americans-go-shopping-for-obamacare/

So Easily Offended
So I'm talking to this chick and she obviously meant to message someone else but messaged me instead 1:58pm reply Della Le B...: well you do, I am a left handed red head with o negative blood, being different isnt all so bad 1:59pm more To Della Le B...: damn...you know your blood type? 2:02pm reply Della Le B...: yeah I do, I guess we are either mutants or a different species according to science 2:03pm more To Della Le B...: I've never looked into it...I had no idea 2:04pm more To Della Le B...: I need to get one of those DNR cards tho 2:04pm reply Della Le B...: it is a new Bling, not sure why he gave it to me, could be to prepare me 2:05pm more To Della Le B...: chat whore cross-over 2:05pm reply Della Le B...: if you like I can see if he can give it to you too 2:06pm reply Della Le B...: your profile picture suits you more

Do You Have An Inclination For Bdsm?
http://quizfarm.com/quizzes/Sex/poeticthinker/do-you-have-an-inclination-for-bdsm/ Take the quiz and find out.... Here are my results Sadist 100%Exhibitionist/Voyeur 100%Dominant 100%Experimental 86%Vanilla 29%Bondage 29%Degradation 14%Switch 14%

Was It Something I Said???
To Kristalynn...: I hope you don't take this the wrong way but you look like a cunt 1:57pm more Kristalynn...: I WOULDN'T GO THAT FAR... IM A BITCH THOUGH.. N... ON THAT NOTE... GO FUCK YOURSELF 2:21pm more To Kristalynn...: wait...there's a difference? 2:41pm reply Kristalynn...: HUGE DIFFERENCE... NOW... BUH-BYE 4:01pm more At which point she changes her screen name to DUI DuKeS and has a status about how she got pulled over for DUI on the side of the highway To DUI DuKeS: haha...you got a DUI...what a loser...BUH BYE yourself LOLOLOLOLOL 4:06pm more DUI DuKeS: ... well at least i ain't a fuckin fat ass nasty mog\fo like yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4:10pm more To DUI DuKeS: LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL Then just when I thought we were going to be best friends and she would send me a friend reques

Two Golden Dawn Members Killed In Drive-by Shooting Outside Athens Office
Crisis-plagued Greece was thrown into further turmoil on Friday after two members of the far-right Golden Dawn party were shot dead in what police called a "terrorist attack" outside one of the organisation's offices in Athens. Two men, described as a 20 and 23-year-old, died instantly in the drive-by shooting, according to a statement released by the extremist group. "Two helmeted terrorists on a motorbike stopped in front of Golden Dawn's offices in [the northern Athens suburb of] Neo Iraklio while the office was open and a lot of people were [gathered around] its entrance," said the party. "The co-rider got off [the bike] and in cold blood executed two young men at a distance of about half a metre. Before leaving the terrorists fired again … they literally emptied their weapons [of bullets] on top of them." A third Golden Dawn member, identified as a 29-year-old father of one, was fighting for his life in an Athens hospital after being severely injured in the hail of gunf

Just My Thoughts...
There are many things I wished I had done differently. I see a lot of my classmates and other friends and relatives that have made for a successful life. I keep failing at things I want to do, but I keep trying. One day my day will come as they say.

"you"
Forward: This story is mainly fictional, but yes, there was a muse to the story. From the begining to the "****" (stars) is complete truth and who I am. Ok, on with the story! ~ There are times in your life when you start to reflect on your past, trying to pin point when things actually changed and you were sent down a certain path that you find yourself on. I have found Myself doing this very thing as of late. And yes, I have accomplished My pin pointing. It’s not a secret that I am a Dom, and for those who have earned the privilege, I am Master. I am not a Dom because I am controlling. I am a Dom because people have chosen to allow Me to control them. They have allowed Me to be their Dominate, their Sir, their Master and their Owner. Some people say they could never do this, and I completely understand. It takes a very strong person to be able to give up this type of control, to have that amount of trust in one person and to know that in that person’s possession, th

Sexy Legs And Heels Contest
I thought since I love my heels so much I would run a contest. Rules: 1 pic per entry Must be wearing heels Winner will be decided on rates x comments Winner will get a 135 Bling Pack Album open in an hour Voting will start 1 Dec 13 and End 24 Dec 13 Must be your own pics so a salute required Min 20 entries to start contest

Patient 2
the rooster's head is slumped over the side of the cardboard nest i made for him, and his eyes will not open when i lift and cradle his face. i hold the water dish and realize it is pointless to try to dip his beak in it. his face is cool, his wattles stiff. the mites, hundreds of tiny black specks, are gathered on his hackles. they are dead, i think, thanks to a dusting of diatomaceous earth, a spritzing of vinegar. but their host is soon to join them. tears fill my eyes, and i sob, having failed him. that he is dying is not the issue - indeed, i contemplated butchering him. that he has suffered so, that he is dying of illness, of weakness caused by infestation, a malady i could have, should have, seen and prevented, that is what pains me. the ground is frozen, so i ponder how to give his body back to the earth. perhaps, before i finish the solar project, i will learn to build a funeral pyre.

What To Do!
seems as if many of us have been waiting for the blogs .....they come with bitching and bashing and all kinds a good shit.....oh just a damn thought omgsteeeeeve well beable to have so much fun in he's haha...i had to say it..lol!!!! so wonder if we will be able to decorate in here or shit like that but hmmm who caes we getta blog YAY!!! im so excited like a lil girl with piggy tails!! spank me happy damn!

When??
I am so worried that I will never ever get past this, that for the rest of my life I will mourn him. That I will never be happy again. I have tried so hard to put it behind me I know he would want me to be happy. Then just when I think I'm ready to be reborn amongst the living; I miss him that much more and I'm bombarded from all sides with memories of him and how much we loved each other. Our son picked him out in a picture for the first time. For most of you this seems like nothing; but for a child who has never laid eyes on his father except in those pictures, to say the word DADDY is a huge step. The innocence and love in that one word never to be heard by his father broke my heart in a billion pieces. It's been two and a half years, and it hurts just as freshly as it did the day he died. I pretend to be strong and I smile and make jokes and go on with my life and inside I'm dying. I want to live again I promise that I do..I just don't know how.

Yay For Me!!!
Okay. It's official. On September 25th, I'm starting my graduate classes to get my Master's of Science in Information Systems. So, wish me luck... Full time job, full time school, and takin care of the kidlets. Gonna be busy, busy, busy...

Things I Hate . . .
Stupid people . Slow cars in the fast lane . Long lines at the store . Abortions . Cheaters . Parents who don't control their kids in public . Vegetables . People that burn the American Flag . Gas prices . Drunk airplane pilots . Pro athletes that do drugs . Child molestors . Snobby people . Racism . Diet soda . Kidney stones . Fake people .

Who I Like On Lc/ct
Who i like on LC is as follows1.Nicckie,2.Foxy brit, 3.Blue,4.Jennifer,5.Isis CherryLick,6.Sw33tn3r,7.sexy pirate13,8.Candle,9.Veinfetish,10.Pixie Kisses,11. Tiff,12.Candy,13.Drty Grl,14.Ashley,15.Stoney16.MZ Bossy,17.AprilRose,18. Sweet_titts,19.Laken,20.MISS SHERRIE,21.Nurse Hayley,22.Drianna,23.~*~Haloz~*...,24.~ Shadow Hawk ~,25.Cassandra Lynn,26.Nympho,27.Chatqueen24,28.Baby Animal ¢¾,29.Bobbi Doll,30. I'll Keep You My Dirty Little Secret,31.Amy Amy Amy,32.Tuna,33.Kindred Heart,34 Angel(Angela),35.Starduster766,36.Devil in Cuffs,37.Miss Behavin25,26.'۞WÌLÐÇÄŦ۞® ÖWÑÈR ÖҒ Ŧ.M.Ä.Ғ.ŦRÄÌÑ,RÄÐÌÖ Ñ LÖÚÑGÈ۞', and others i might add to this Blog Later on from Bruce

Quote
We as human beings have all been affected by what happened on September 11th, 2001.... We as Americans... Even more so... I believe in fighting for our freedoms... In standing up for what we believe in I believe in our soldiers and know that what they are doing is a huge sacrifice....But how long should they have to sacrifice their family, friends, and loved ones? to continue standing up for what we as a nation believe? Don't get me wrong, I know that they have made the decision to stand up and fight for our country All I am saying is...Is there a limit? Do you really think that this will end someday? I believe that if we pull our men and women out now that what we are looking at for our future will be far worse than September 11th was. I'm not saying that I would not love for our military to come home, because I would love nothing more But is that a realistic viewpoint? I think that every human being questions our future I am no diff

Calender...
I was approached by this Agency this week. they asked if I would be interested in posing for a calender. I checked them out and they are legit and pay pretty good :D I guess we will see. I have checked out some of their past calenders and they are pretty nice. I don't know anything about modeling tho ugg..

New Poem For A Friend
"BLUE EYED ANGEL" THE BLUE EYED ANGEL, THE girl that everyone grows to love, The girl that everyone enjoys sharing their feelings with, The girl that everyone grows to love, The girl that everyone trusts with their secrets, The girl that everyone grows to love, THE BLUE EYED ANGEL, She is very trustful, She is very honest, She is very beautiful, She is very Modest, She truly is georgeous, THE BLUE EYED ANGEL, She is an amazing person, She has a great personality, She has a very good sense of humor, She is very caring, She is a great friend, THE BLUE EYED ANGEL, One I would love to meet, One I would love to greet, One I would love to treat with respect, One I would love to show I am not a player, One I would love to show I am a good guy, THE BLUE EYED ANGEL TRULY IS THAT, A BLUE EYED ANGEL FROM HEAVEN, Her beautiful red hair is like the morning sunrise, and the afternoon sunset its simply amazing, Her eyes are like the Rainbow no one

Loving A Lie
falling and falling like drops of rain broken hearts bring tears of pain u tell them ur love is true hoping they mean it back to you ur certian they mean it till u make a mistake and they give up and quit memmories haunting ur tortured soul to only find its paying its toll problems are arising and are friendship is frogotten shes got a new love and everything is rotten u told me u loved me and i was dumb to believe and now i sit back in sorrow while i grieve i'll never forget u or what we had all i can think about is how u made me so sad so do what u want and so as u please i now no u were just a tease

Remind Me Not To Do That Again
I got extremely shitfaced last night and ended up smoking some tobacco, so it was just a mini relapse, I now know that I wont be able to drink again till i am truly off the cigarettes but had to push it, I drank a bottle of jack daniels to myself, first time I have done that in a long time, had the hang over from hell this morning and had to go to work, I was in a bit of a rancid mood, so if I offended anybody in lost cherry land last night I apologise. Back on the nicotine patches and have locked meself up in the doghoose for my bad behaviour.

First Graders
There were twenty-five students in her class and she presented each child in her class the first half of a proverb and asked them to come up with the remainder of the proverb. It's hard to believe these were actually done by first graders. Their insight may surprise you. While reading these keep in mind that these are 6-year-olds, because the last one is classic! Strike while the ...........................bug is close. It's always darkest before ........... Daylight Saving Time. Never underestimate the power of.... termites. You can lead a horse to water but ... how? Don't bite the hand that .................. looks dirty. No news.............................. impossible. A miss is as good as a.................. Mr. You can't teach an old dog new... math. If you lie down with dogs, you'll ...stink in the morning. Love all, trust............................. me. The pen is mightier than the... pigs. An idle mind is .............. The best way to relax. Where t

I Hide(poem)
My Tears are so warm as they roll down my cheek, and why they are even there is really beside me. He wants to meet me plays in my head, over and over again with complete and total dread But why is the question that keeps going through my head why can't I show how beautiful I am, inside and out why does it scare me to let someone inside my heart. To see and feel the person I am I have mastered hiding so well so that he doesnt want me. But I want him, like I've never wanted anything before, I want his touch, his lips, I want to hear his Laughter I want his heart, I want...... But for him to want me I can feel this deep dark sickening pain in the depths of my soul so I hide.

No More Skinned Knees
Most days I go through with this numbness. Its like that calm errieness before a storm. Once in a while, my thoughts that I try so hard to keep on other things, the T.V., the computer, slip through to places I avoid. No one likes to afflict pain on themselves of this magnitude so I dont feel so guilty when I purposely avoid it. But try as I may, my mind roams. He ran his tricycle down the stairs. Ended up with 6 stitches. I think of all the times I hid the cleaning supplys, covered electrical outlets so he would be safe. And the time he got in a fight while protected someone even smaller than himself from bullys at school. He came home suspended with a bruised and bloody face so I took him for icecream and told him he'd done the right thing. Sitting in the operating room waiting area. Praying his surgery would go well. It did. These were my rights! They were my privileges. Well there are no more skinned knees. There are nightmares of a black car pulling up...the men clad in Army dress

Bloodstained Lips
I have been writing this stuff for awhile now. It's about a detective who is infatuated with this woman who killed a 56 women and men before she killed herself. (I need to do a lot more research about tracing body fluids and shit before I can make this more believable, so if someone can help me with stuff like that, that would be much appreciated) They link her through this notebook, where she basically talks with the ones she slaughtered, telling them, in detail, exactly how she killed them. He doesn't understand why she did this or even how she chose each victim. He doesn't understand her perversion with blood, death, and sex. This is the piece I worked on tonight (rough copy of course). Of course it's a part of the killer's writing, a piece of her notebook. Enjoy or something. I don't mind the comments. Good or bad, it helps me to realize what should stay in the writing and what can be taken out. I heard you scream. A chill ran down my spine. It stayed down below, where I

Where Are My
I've got all these people(I'm sure they're all nice too)on my "friends" list, yet I don't hear from 90% of them. What is up with that? I thought "Friends" keep in touch..and most of you aren't doing that...so...here's the thing..I'm not so great about keeping in touch with about 80% of these 90% that don't touch base(but that's cause I tried at least ONCE to reach out and touch since adding any of them, and they haven't reciprocated)...and with that, within the next 2 weeks, you will see quite a few of you dropping off my friends list. If you want back on...you'll have to request, and you'll have to explain why you want back on(those who really want to be my "friend" will do so without question). Those of you who DONT CARE, won't miss me, and I'm sure I won't miss you..but this is life, and I feel fake having a bunch of people listed under my friends list that don't give two shits either way...so off you will go..NO HARD FEELINGS, K? Hugs, and have a great life Those of you who DO

I Miss Him
If you have myspace you've already read most of this I posted it there a long time ago, but I'm having one of those days today..... I miss the way he smells. I miss running my fingers through his hair. He laid his head in my lap to watch movies and his hair was so soft. On the day of the visitation I sat in a chair at the head of the coffin and kept touching his hair. It was the only part of him that felt and looked the same. My mom finally whispered that I had to stop touching him...I don't really remember anything about that night except the feeling of peace when I was touching him. I miss watching him play with Jacob on the sand pile across the street. Lisa's house is there now but there used to be a huge pile of dirt and they played there all the time. They didn't know but I sat on the couch and watched them through the window for hours. They thought I didn't want to play but really I just wanted to watch them, he wanted a son so badly. I miss laying on the bed

First And Last Stupid Blog
You know whats stupid..people who blog every 5 minutes..about jack shit..or people who use the blogs to post bulletin type shit.. A friend posted recipes..now thats useful at least and i actually copied a couple. I'm gonna stop rating blogs period.. my blog..my rants.. fuck off

My Dad Died September 28, 1990
"Every once in a while I would see him smile and it would turn my day around. His loving smile, his gentle face, no one can fill his vacant place" R.I.P Dad Larry D. Havlik born to eternal life 9-28-90 I love you and I miss you.

Hey My Son Is Better
hey guys they got the results back on my sons kidney and how to trat him now hes has a bad infected in both kidneys ,but being trated with antibotics now ,so thank you for all the prays and support for us ,

By Permit Only
Happy Tunes Tuesday! For those who have not heard this yet, here is a song by my band "By Permit Only". I am on Bass Guitar and Lead Singer. My guitarist is in some of my photos with me. Please let me know what you think. I hope you enjoy it!

My Uncle
Well, my uncle has been sick for over a week. He has had a virus that has been going around. I had it myself. The difference being that my uncle has just kept getting worse and the doctors have been trying to figure out why he wasn't fighting the virus off easily. Well, the last of his tests results were completed today and we found out that he has a tumor in his stomach. From what they can see of the tumor, it appears to be about 3 inches in length and possibly about an inch in diameter. We know that the tumor is benign and not malignant, thank God for that. I am relieved to know what is going on at least though, just because this tumor is benign, it does not mean that he couldn't die from it because of its location and size. They have decided to try and newer treatment first and if that doesn't work then they will try an older form of treatment. If that still doesn't work, then they will do surgery. They are trying to avoid this due to the fact that he had surgery only a few months a

Love Eternal
In death there is beauty We will sleep like angels With the tranquility of innocence Death will not conquer our love As we are bounded by memories, And our love will flourish Death is our sadness For I will long for your flesh, But our journeys will not be far apart Death is our sanctuary From the woes of life In death we will find peace Death brings us unwavering hope For the time of resurrection In death we will find love eternal.

Additional Info Not In The First
The part of the brain that was removed (frontal lobe), controls many necessary emotional functions. I can not handle when people lie to me. If someone says that they are going to do something, and then don't, it gets to me. Also, I can not handle when people play me, especially women. Not saying that I am gay, but a guy could use me by taking advantage of how generous I am. I also misunderstand alot of things that people say, when they are joking. I do not recognize that they are joking, and take it personally. If someone informs me that they are joking, before they get too deep into something, I can understand. If a female lies to me, and acts like they want me, and then turn around and don't want anything to do with me, it hurts me so bad emotionally, that I go into a deep depression. If I had the part of the brain that was removed, I would be able to handle these things, like most normal people; but I am missing it, so I can't Hope this information helps you to better understand

Lost
Here I am sitting in a home with my 3 babies wanting and waiting for you. Wanting you here... in my arms. I see you online, speak to you on the phone, and see images of your beautiful face... and I grow sad... very sad... Because, for now, you so far away and I long for you touch, your caress, and your love. Some baby.. some... I keep telling myself that but SOON does not come SOON enough. I need a friend, lover, compainion... My children need a friend, ... are you that right person? I know your reading this... and I am sure your not going to reply to it... but just know, your in my thoughts... and sense I was a little child , you have been in my prayers... Love, Tony

So Now I Gotta Be A Bot !
Well withouth fail, some guy had a big ole cup o stupid for breakfast. As much as I would love to put his ass on broadcast, for obvious reasons I can't so we'll rename him Assclown. I see this bulletin From Assclown telling his friends to stop reposting bulletins or he's going to delete his account. Well, you know me...i'm a bulletin whore...LOL, articles, video's, pimps whatever. So, I write this very well formatted, ~Stang style constructed letter about how that is an impossibility and that bulletins and reposts are not only the best promotional tool the LC users have but it's a part of any online community. Bulletins get posted, they get reposted that's the nature of the beast. After this banter went back and forth about as much as I could stand, I finally tell him to "get off the cross, we need the wood. There are so many things to bitch about that he should choose something more major". Well that's when it started. He told me that he commented me once and I never retu

I Don't Get It....
Ok, before I start this, I want to make clear that I am not complaining, just making an observation. I'm single and I have no problem with that at the moment, I'm in college and I work and have amazing friends, plus I'm only 20 so it's not like I'm in a rush to get married but.... A lot of you on here tell me things like "oh, you're so pretty, beautiful, cute, sexy, gorgeous, etc etc, why don't you have a boyfriend?" And that's exactly what I would like to know. First of all, I don't think I'm all THAT good looking. I'd say cute, and maybe pretty on a good day, but that's about it. I hardly ever get hit on. Probably because I look like jailbait lol I know I don't look 20 even though I am. I guess it's just easier to tell someone that you find them attactive online. I mean, how many of you would really approach me on the street and ask me out? Probably not that many. I know I wouldn't really go up to any of you in real life and tell you that I thought you were handsome/hot/sexy. I'm

Why Are Guys Like This
Why is it that when you and your spouse, boyfriend or whatever splits up and he goes his own way and does his own thing but when you start to try and live life and start the healing process he has to try and stop it. He doesn't want you but doesn't want anyone else to have you. When you know it is onver and he knows it is over why can't he just go on and leave you alone instead of trying to make you miserable. I wish someone could explain that to me......

Candles For The Babies
It all started with seeing how many people I could get to put up a candle as their avatar on the night of October 15th for Pregnancy and Infant loss remembrance day. Then I thought since October is Pregnancy and infant loss awareness month....I would see how many people this has touched by trying to get as many people to put up the candle til the end of October. There have been some great friends of mine that have helped but sadly many of my friends and family have been letting me down. They can post and repost all kinds of bulletins about crap and silly shit but it would take TOO LONG to repost and rip this candle to put up. I have even made new friends solely through their support of my mission. I think that I am gonna make my page a pregnancy and infant loss support page....anyone wanting to befriend someone that has been there and understands or would like to befriend me because of my belief then great!

Fade Away Love
Fade away love, I trink i have shed enough tears, Fade away love, Take with you all my fears. Fade away love, I am done being nice. Fade away love, Because your heart is like ice. Fade away love, You never looked into my eyes, Fade away love, Take with you your phony cries. Fade away love, Dont ever call my name, Fade away love, Dont get mad your the one to blame. Fade away love, Dont even try to look me in the face, Fade away love, I turn walk away and pick up the pace. Fade away love, I wish to push it away, Fade away love, For today hasnt been my day. Fade away love, Your voice stings my heart, Fade away love, I should of listened from the start. Fade away love, I am so sick of being blind. Fade away love, Im tired there is no more time. Fade away love, So far far away, Fade away love, There is nothing left to say. So fade away love, To a place i cannot see, Fade away love, Because it was never meant to be.

May I Introduce My Son, Dylan Johnson
I'd like to introduce you to my little man, Dylan. This is the child who is having emergency surgery tomorrow morning to try & repair some nerves & blood vessels that connect the optic nerve to his brain. This is the little guy who I was asking y'all to take 30 seconds to care about what was going on in my LIFE, use the 2 muscles in your finger to repost (not respond) so that me & my son felt comforted knowing that SOMEONE out there was wishing us well & sending him a prayer or a warm thought. Now, some of us are just aquaintences, some closer to friends, and many of you I thought of as good friends, and I hope that I was ultimately correct for the most part. Those of you who have had even ONE conversation with me, or read my blogs know that I am a genuinely kind & positive person, with a kind word for every single soul & a very loving heart. And I'm saddened to say that my heart was hurt tonight.

Knowledge
True teaching is not an accumulation of knowledge. It is an awakening of consciousness. If you search for the laws of harmony, you will find knowledge. Popular belifes must be enforced, in order to discover the original thought. Know yourself,your begining will disclose your end. The body is the shrine of definety. In everything, it is the path that matters. If you defy an enemy by doubting his courage, you double it. Everyone finds himself in the world where he belongs.

Dylan's Surgery
Thank you to everyone who kept me & my son in your thoughts today. He did have his surgery, it took about an hour longer than anticipated, but he came out of it safe, bandaged for alomost the entire day and very scared b/c he couldn't see. Around 6pm the doctor came in & took the bandages off to check Dylan's eyes. As of tonight, his pupils are responsive (good thing) but he can't see anything further than about 2 ft away. That's hopefully going to improve over the next 24-48 hours, then we'll see about the rest. He's bandaged back up til the morning. Everyone seems optisitic about his procedure, so for now I'm just keeping hope & faith. I came home to grab a shower & clothes, then I'm headed back up there. I will catch up with everyone soon. Luv y'all!!

Good News
Well, the stutter in my uncle's speech is still there but the swelling from the surgery has gone down completely and the doctors say that the stuttering will go away with a little time and therapy. They did a scan and said that there is no major permanent damage to his brain. I had to share that news with all of you. Thank you all again so very much!

What Would You Do?
What would you do if you went upstairs to your bedroom and you discovered your wife or husband in bed with candles lit for a mood and there response was..."what the hell is this"!!! I got that last night, and let me tell you I was floored. I swear some days it does not pay to care.. :(

Poem
What if? What if I could be that man? To hold you and walk hand in hand? What if I wanted to make you smile? Or just sit with you and talk a while. What if I wanted to be there to wipe your tears? Would you let me hold you to take away all your fears? What if I wanted to be a good man for you? To let you know all my feelings are true. What if I wanted to paint a picture with you and me? Would you know that it was just meant to be? What if I can ease your mind, body and soul? Will you tell me secrets that were never told? What if I want my love to keep you warm? Keep you away from all the worlds harm. What if I could do all these things? Would you finally know how much joy you bring? Now I have asked you all I possibly could, So now I ask what if we would? By: Mario A. Pinder

Pics. To Make U Smile!!!!
(repost of original by '~~Lilly~~DJ_Rebels Wifey~~' on '2006-10-21 21:53:27') (repost of original by 'allamas69' on '2006-10-21 21:56:45') (repost of original by 'Lez Bunny' on '2006-10-21 21:57:29') (repost of original by 'DevilGirl~Family Member ~Stoner Chapter~subherbansmokers TOY~' on '2006-10-21 21:59:38') (repost of original by 'Skippy*143*SWAT*' on '2006-10-21 23:52:49')

Lesbians Only! No Guys
WHATS WITH GUYS CANT THEY READ? LESBIANS DONT WANT A GUYS FOR A FRIEND WE WANT GIRLS! AM I RIGHT? DOES ANYONE WANNA SHARE? GUYS CANT U READ? I DONT WANT ANYMORE FUCKING GUYS FOR FRIENDS I WANT GIRLS! U GOT IT!! NO MORE I HADE ENOUGH! GIRLS HELP ME OUT PLEASE! SORRY. :(

Weird Fact Of The Day
can someone help me to understand those facts? - he still comes to my page - he still have the collages he made for me saying "i love you maria" and i think a ripped pic of me too - if he was the one that said it's over... so, why he's acting like he's not over me? look at this lol LOL! as i said my dear friends, who goes far away without being kicked, comes back without being called! and cutie pies of my so loved LC, remember that Paybacks are the hell!!!! ahhh well i think it's funny, but please, comment and tell me what's happening... because i don't understand!!!!!! much love and have a great begin of week Maria

Babies For Sale?
I know we are all pretty much burnt out on the guy we refer to as "Wacko Jacko" but you know, it seems that man can't get a break. Some of you are already shaking your head thinking "break? why in the hell should he get one?", let me explain why, then I'll go on with why I started this blog in the first place. In the Jackson trial, the state failed to prove it's case. Our personal and emotional conclusions were based on information that was made public, there is information that has yet to be released but in court, the information was heard, the jury rendered a verdict and it was "not guilty", so in reality what we think doesn't matter it's what the law decided. Now, moving on. If you follow current events or court hearings, you'll know that Nancy Grace of Court TV has a female hard on for Jackson. Any opportunity that she gets to rake him over the coals she takes. Nancy gets on my last nerve anyway but that's neither here nor there. Her most recent accusation is that Jacks

Yesterday, Today And Tomorrow
There are two days in every week about which we should not worry. Two days which should be kept free of fear and apprehension. One of these Days is yesterday, with its mistakes and care, its fault and blunders, its aches and pains. Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control. All the money in the world cannot bring back yesterday. We cannot undo a single act we performed, We cannot erase a single word we said. Yesterday is gone. The other day we should not worry about is Tomorrow, With its possible adversities, its burdens, its large promise poor performance. Tomowwo is also beyond our emmidiate control. Tomorrows sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds; but it will rise. Untill it does we have no stake in tomorrow, For it is, as yet, unborn. This leaves only one day, TODAY. Anyone can fight the battkles of just one day, It is only when you and I add teh burdens of those two aweful eternities that we break down. It is not the experience of today that

Just For Kicks...
LOVERS LAY TOGTHER ON SOFT SILLEN SHEETS... THEY GAZE INTO EACH OTHERS EYES... KNOWING THAT FOREVER THEY HAVE BEEN CHANGED... MOONLIGHT SPILLS ACROSSED HER SKIN... THERE IS STARLIGHT IN HER EYES... COOLNESS OF AIR MIXED WITH THEIR HEATED BREATH... PASSIONS ARE ON FIRE... IN THIS PLACE TIME DOES NOT EXIST... HER SKIN SO SMOOTH AND FINE... WHILE HIS IS SLIGHTLY ROUGH... THEY MOVE, THEY MELD, THEY MINGLE... THIS IS THE PLACE WHERE TWO HEARTS, TWO SOULS BECOME ONE... ONE HEART, ONE BREATH, ONE LIFE... SENSES BECOME A LIVING THING... TO TASTE, TO HEAR, TO SEE, TO FEEL, EVEN THE SENT IS TREASURED... ALL THINGS ABOUT THIS NIGHT ARE SPECIAL... FOREVER BEGINS NOW... IN THAT MOMENT FOREVER IS WITHIN REACH... THE GOALS OF THE MOMENT ARE ALL THAT THEY SEE... THE VELVET TOUCH OF BODYS AS THEY TWIST... LIQUID HEAT UPON THEIR SKIN... THE SALTY TASTE OF ONE ANOTHER... AND LIFE BEGAINS AGAIN... Ok so this is not my best work... Let me know what you think... It did not quite come out as I envisioned

Cheaters
Romance and Relationships Ok people what is the fuckin reason people cheat???... what is the point in getting into a relationship knowing in the back of your mind that your gonna do it... what about stayin with just one person is so damn hard??? cheating is fuckin pointless... once some one finds out that u cheat they cant trust u... whats the point in a relationship if u cant trust the person your with... because they always lieing and being sneaky...and tryin to hide stuff... i know im probably writin this because a song i heard a couple hrs ago reminded me of my ex and how many times she fucked me over... but neways i dont know...

To Rate 10 Or To Not Rate 10...what Is The Question?
Ok...I have seen some people rant and rave about how rude it is to rate someone other than a 10. I have even seen someone that put up a little picture to justify why anything other than a 10 is wrong. I have seen someone post under their pics "Rate 10's or Don't Rate At all!". I have seen people call other people haters because someone rated their picture other than a 10. (I am laughing right now as I type this because someone is going through my photos right now rating all of them 10's). Here is what The Mouthpiece has to say about all of that: WHAT FUCKING PLANET ARE WE ON TO BELIEVE OUR ASSES ARE THAT DAMN FINE THAT WE ARE ONLY A TEN?? WHO FUCKING DIED AND MADE OUR ASSES KINGS/QUEENS TO TELL SOMEONE THAT THEY CAN'T RATE US ANYTHING OTHER THAN A TEN??? PLEASE TELL ME WHO THE FUCK WE ARE?? (Clearing throat)Ok. With part of my shouting out of the way, lets dip a little bit into this subject. A rating of a 10 means that we are ABSOLUTELY PERFECT. That means we have no flaws. T

Night At The Movies,part Iii©
I watch as her chest rises and falls as she catches her breath. That was quite a time she just had. There is a glow that all women seem to have after they have been satisfied. Their skin glows,the eyes sparkle,and their scent.....oh my,the smell of a woman. I feel almost like an animal stalking its prey,catching that scent,arousing that wildman that society has tamed. I breath her in savoring her inside of me. She sits back relaxed,lags still spread,her sex exposed for my eyes to make love to. As the movie ends,I tell her to straighten herself. No reason to give the poor young theater worker a heart attack and send him running to the bathroom to take care of his teenage hormones. It's gotten late but it's early in the week so there is no crowd as we exit the show. Going out the back entrance the smell of freshness hits me. It seems it rained while we played indoors. Offering my arm,she holds on and draws in close. Slowly strolling through the parking lot,dodging the newly formed pu

Heart Full Of Passion
When I think of sex, I think of connection. An eternal bond, linking one soul to another. Without this bond, sex is merely a physical act, limiting our ability to feel. Most people view sex through the eyes of lust. A powerful feeling. One that can confuse us to believe we are in love. Sex can feel great when with a person we lust for; however limits the ability to feel. It shuts off that inner connection the spiritual link (if you will) between the two individuals. I believe this connection to be vital. Without it sex is just based on visual stimuli or ones desire for immediate gratification. When I allow myself to tap into a person’s spirit, or to wrap myself in their ora, it is like you are connected as one. You can feel what they feel. Like following a path way of energy as your fingers gently pass across their skin. As though there is a communication between the spirits. When you take the time to bond with your mate, you can unlock the bodies’ true potential and turn w

Another Day
Another day has come and gone As I sit here drinking tea Very different then yesterday New things for me to see The pain has eased A new release, of many hidden secrets To deal each day, I must say Is much better then to hide it As I was whaling, oh, so much pain Has left me now refreshed A cool breeze blowing, now my way Oh, so blessed, to have another day

To A Wonderful Girlfriend That I Love So Much And Here Name Is Angel She Goes By Willie's Angel On Here Stop By Show Here Some Love
sense you and i got together i have felt alive again and i wanna spend the rest of my life with you befor we started daitng i didn't know what love meant but when we got together i started know what love was again i love you baby

I Want You!!!!!!!!
Hi all I'm new but I'm looking forward to stalking, I mean talking to each and every one of you. Stop by and show me some LOVE!! And I LOVE gifts. I want signs of YOU holding a sign with my name on it!! :) Be creative!!

I've Been Tagged By Hbh...and I'm Doing This Agains My Will
~*~Tag ~*~ Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things or habits about themselves. People who are tagged should write a blog with their own 6 weird things or habits, and state this rule clearly. Choose 6 people to be tagged, list their names, leave them a comment and tell them they are tagged and to check your blog for details. It's fun! Ok...so here they are.. 1. Even though I am 47, I still go out and make snow angels every time it snows. 2. I am a perfectionist, but only so with myself. I never demand or expect perfection from others 3. After making love, I NEED one piece of dark chocolate, in the shape of a heart, wrapped in red, gold or silver foil. It must be cold and straight from the frig. 4. When someone gives me flowers I enjoy them for a couple of days then hang them upside down in a dark, dry closet for 30 days to dry. I then do one of two things with them. I spray the flowers to maintain their original color and make a floral arrangement out

Dating Blog
Hey guys, I have noticed that a lot of people here have had problems when it comes to dating and what not. So, as a service to all the ladies, I'm going to talk about a couple of topics that you guys mention every week. To begin with, I would love to hear from you as to what you've had problems with. I'm a guy and have seen a lot of different things via my relats or those of my friends. So try me, can't hurt!

Serious Deleting Tomorrow
Tomorrow I'm going to be doing some serious deleting of all the people that came to me and asked me for my friendship but can never be bothered to come back and say just a quick hello. I am sick of people adding me so it looks like they have more friends. I am on here to meet people and make friends to chat to not just to sit there on a list. Alot of people know that I stop by their page at least once in a week just to say hello. If you cant be bothered getting to know me then why the fuck did you come add me in the first place.

Tells Alot
Have you ever noticed how many people go through the trouble of getting all made up and even put on the best looking panties money can buy. Yet they don't bother to pick up the dirty laundry or pick up the trash on the night stand. Then Take a seductive picture to post here. All I can think is what a messy house.

Am I Bi? Well.......am I?
I think that I have written this type of blog on just about every site that I've been on. I actually can't believe I've not blogged it here until now but I guess I'll take the time to answer the majic 8-ball question.......again....... AM I BI? I have a true appreciation for women and can acknowledge a beautiful one and also find something extraordinary in those that some may consider less attractive. Does that mean I'm bi? No. I am strickly dickly but that doesn't mean that I'm a homophob. Yes, that term can apply to women too in case you are unaware. I am very comfortable in my own sexuality which is why I am completely unaffected by the sexuality of others. I have female friends that have crushes on me, in which case I'm very flattered. Guys you may not know this but women are pickier about their women in most cases than guys are about their women...LOL. It is what it is. I am not a person who "claims" to be progressive. I am very progressive, however I've just

Shitty Day
Have you ever had one of those days where everything that can go wrong in the morning did go wrong. Like the idiot I am I set the alarm for pm not am, No hot water for the shower, defroster in the car didn't work, it snowed (yuck!), and the kicker...client report that I completed at 11pm was not formatted to their liking so now I have to redo the whole thing... Today sucks! Sorry I know I can now officially be called Debbie Downer! Anyone of you brave souls wanna take a stab at cheering my ass up :P Sorry I am sure I will be fine after the coffee does its magic on me. Kisses Jillie

Sad Story
Jasmine and Austin have been going out since 7th grade. Five years later, they are in 11th grade and Jasmine has been thinking about breaking up with him. One Friday afternoon, on their 5th anniversary, Jasmine and Austin where talking over the phone. *The phone rings at Jasmine's house* Jasmine: Hello?? Austin: Hey baby girl!! How's it going?? Jasmine: Alright... You? Austin: Pretty good. Are you still up for the movies?? Jasmine: I'm sorry I can't go. I promised my little sister that I would take her out to eat today. Austin: That sucks. Jasmine: I'm really sorry. Austin: It's alright. Can you go out tomorrow then?? Jasmine: I cant. Sorry but I have to go with Alyssa and her boyfriend to the mall. Austin: You know, it seems like you have been avoiding me these past few days. First you can't go out to dinner with me because you have a paper due. Then you can't come over because you are too tired, and today during passing periods, you totally

Long Ass Ramblings On Decks, My City, And Beauty
I have a deck. It's not huge, but big enough that it could have fit my grill that I sold thinking I wouldn't have space for it when I moved. (damn) The thing I love most about it is that it's got a great view. I face South, and if I can ignore the sprawl of apartments below me on my hill, I look at another hill completely overrun with trees. It's a long skyline and beyond the hill are the lights of Seattle. I love my city. I've always travelled a lot, and even as a child I was proud of where I was from. Tons of culture, very clean, polite and interesting people, minimal racism (at least, in my idea as a kid. i don't know, maybe still less than other big cities), we have a kick ass temperate climate averaging between 50-80 degrees (and now I sound like a marketing campaign), but most importantly to me: BEAUTY. The Emerald City; such a glamerous name for our jewel of a city. She's gorgeous but I wouldn't call her an Emerald. The colors are too muted, and though the sun DO

Been Away
I want to appologize to all my friends on here for not being around lately. First of all I have been building my business of web page design and it is growing. Second and even more cool (as far as fun goes), I have speant the last 2 weeks getting ready to be an online DJ. I will be starting my Radio Show tomorrow. It is on: It is the Mid Morning Madness with Sir Jim Show and will air every Mon, Wed and Thur from 9:00 am to Noon (Eastern Standard Time). PLEASE, listen in and send me your requests! I look forward to playing what you want to hear. Make sure you put your name in your request, so I know it is you. (You can also say from Lost Cherry if you wish or Cherry Tap or whatever we are called now..) Love you all and I promise to be on more often now!

Blah.
I still feel like shit. But im awake. My fever didnt really break any. Which kinda bites. I can only keep down yogurt. ♥ And I miss [[ you ]] ♥ Kay im done i think haha. OH! This song. Temporary insanity by alex johnson. Is my new favorite love song ♥

No Gas And 26 Miles To Go
I had a class for work today. Fun, customer service, blah blah blah. The drama happened earlier in my day on the way there. Now I am a fairly concientious person. I'm clean, I'm (I would say never, but lately that's just not true) usually early or on time, I take care of my cat, I pay my bills on time, I go for frequent oil changes, and usually I fill up the tank when it's around a quarter full. Last night on my way home, I noticed that the gage was creeping below the quarter line and I thought, "I should go get gas". But I had just gone into work on my day off and I felt that I had been virtuous enough for the day. Besides, it was JUST below, even with a longer commute this morning I should be fine, I thought. I get great mileage. Ummmm, not so. When I hopped into the car this morning, leaving about 10 minutes late as I have almost every day for the last couple of weeks (damn cherry), I noticed something a little off. The gage was much lower. I swear, it changed itsel

Does Scrapper And Babyjesus
YOU EITHER ARE FOR IT OR AGANST ME. I DO NOT CARE.I AM SICK AND TIRED OFF CHERRY TAP HEAD STAFF BABYJESUS AND SCRAPPER.THEY COULD CARE LESS WHAT THE MEMBERS HAVE TO SAY.THE MEMBERS MAKE THE SITE WHAT IT IS NOT THEM.WITHOUT THE MEMBERS CHERRYTAP WOULD BE NOTHING.THEY WILL NOT EVEN BOTHER TO "OPEN"A MESSAGE SENT IN BY MEMBERS.AND I FOR ONE HAVE PUT IN THE WISH LIST AND ALSO SENT BOTH OF THEM MESSAGES ABOUT PICTURE RIPPING.MY QUESTION TO THEM AND YOU IS."WHY SHOULD CHERRYTAP CONTROL OUR PHOTOS AND ALLOW ASS HOLES TO RIP THEM OFF FOR PERSONAL GAIN.IT WOULD BE A SIMPLE TASK TO ADD THE OPTION TO OUR SETTINGS LIKE THIER OTHER USSLESS SETTING OPTIONS THEYHAVE TO ADD A DROPDOWN LIKE THE OTHER SETTINGS HAVE AS "ALLOW PICTURE RIPPING"WITH A DROPDOWN "YES"OR"NO" IF YOU AGREE WITH ME REPOST THIS I FOUND OUT TODAY SCRAPPER IS THE BIGGEST ASSHOLE ON CHERRYTAP STAFF HE COULD CARE LESS WHAT THE MEMBERS HAVE TO SAY.HE BLOCKED ME TODAY FOR EXPRESSING MY PERSONAL OPINION TO HIM. Play Boy Bunny Rate

Rumors.
♥ ♥ Kay so whoever is spreading all the lovely lies. Stfu. Im here to set the rumors straight. 1. I have not now or ever been a fucking LESBIAN. ( No offense to them ) Its just not my choice. I prefer penis kay? 2. I am not or will i be anytime fucking soon be engaged kay? 3. I am not with some guy from fucking Japan ARE YOU INSANE? Dumbfucks. 4. I did not kill my father when i was 13 years old. Last time i knew he lived about 10 mins from me. Kay. 5. I do not have 3 kids. Are you fucking insane! I can barely deal with me. Shit last thing i need is 3 kids. Morons. 6. Kim is not my lover. I do NOT have sex with her. She lives in texas you assholes. Get a fucking clue dipshits. 7. I am not now have i ever pretended to be someone i am not. And im not fake. Dumbass. I have a webcam assbags. I know about 15 of the people on the site offline and in real life, and they can vouche for that. You guys are idiots if you even for one second believe any

Music Trivia Question 4 - Winner Maximus
I was born in 1911, I am a blues man that is more famous dead than I am alive. I was made famous by the non blues musicians who have recorded my music and even a movie was made about the "legend" of my life. The mystery of my death in 1938 still surrounds blues scholars but only I know what happened. Dead men tell no tales. I love these two part questions. 1. Who am I? 2. What was the name of the movie made about the "legend" that surrounded my life? Only answers posted on the blog will count and the first answer wins........good luck. WE HAVE A WINNER Maximus@ CherryTAP The answer is Robert Johnson and the movie is Crossroads. I used the term "legend" meaning story or fable. Good Job Maximus!

T.g.i.f. Vs S.h.i.t
A business man got on an elevator. When he entered, there was a blonde already inside who greeted him with a bright, "T-G-I-F." He smiled at her and replied, "S-H-I-T." She looked puzzled and repeated, "T-G-I-F," more slowly. He again answered, "S-H-I-T." The blonde was trying to keep it friendly, so she smiled her biggest smile, and said as sweetly as possibly, "T-G-I-F." The man smiled back to her and once again, "S-H- I-T." The exasperated blonde finally decided to explain. "'T-G-I-F' means Thank Goodness It's Friday. Get it, duuhhh?" The man answered, "'S-H-I-T' means 'Sorry, Honey, Its' Thursday'

Friend Adds
Well I decided to clean out my friends folder, for a few reasons. I have removed people from my friends list that I have never spoke too or who are not valid members or who have simply gone away. I still feel I might have more removing to do but we will see how this goes for now. I just found it was easier to accept friends requests than not too, and it makes it more difficult to keep intouch with people that I do really converse with. This is not some popularity thing for me to see how many friends I can have...good gawd in my real life if I have a couple great friends I feel blessed. I just rather be able to come on here and go comment to people I do chat with without having to sift through a bunch of pages looking for them... it just gets irritating after awhile...lol. The other thing I refuse to do is when someone comes to beg for ratings...I don't do it, and I find it very tacky when others do...lol I just want to chat with good friends, whether it be in sb, msn,ym or in he

There's Always One!!
Summarily deleted from my photo comments and blocked!! I won't humiliate the cunt by posting his name! 2006-11-06 08:46:57 I think you have some of the most beautiful breasts period.If I didn't have a fiance,I would fuck the shit out of you.I promise you no man on this board will sling dick to you like I would.Ienjoy having a women on all fours and pounding her insides.I hope my pics make you moist enough to start rubbing your clit all day.I'm in better shape since then to.This rock hard steel is for women like you who wish to get fucked properly. If a bloke spoke to me like that in the street, I'd happily put his balls through the top of his head! Numpty!!

I Am The Walrus (cover)
LSD'S COVER OF "I AM THE WALRUS", ORIGINALLY FROM THE BEATLES. IT'S A LOT HEAVIER THAN THE ORIGINAL, AND ADDED SOME INDUSTRIAL FLAVOR TO IT. YOU CAN ONLY TAKE A MASTER PIECE FROM THE BEATLES, AND MAKE IT "DIFFERENT", AND ADD YOUR FLAVOR TO IT, BECAUSE NO ONE COULD EVER MAKE IT BETTER THAN THE ORIGINAL. "NO ONE"!!! THE BEATLES IS JUST TOO FUCKING AWESOME!!! SO HERE'S MY VERSION OF IT. I ADDED AND CHANGED SOME OF THE LYRICS, AND I RE-WROTE THE MUSIC. I HOPE YOU LIKES. PEACE. CLICK THE SONG TITLE "I AM THE WALRUS", ON THE PLAYER TO HEAR.

Opinions Are Like Assholes...
Mike was kind enough to remind me today that there are assholes wherever you go by commenting with this nugget on one of my pictures: 2006-11-12 23:41:1 you are absolutely gross. don't ever visit my page again... And hey, he's entitled to his opinion. I'm well aware that I'm not society's view of beauty. But why the need to be rude? Why actually take the time to come to my page, hunt down a pic and comment just to try and make me feel bad? Almost makes me feel sorry for him that this is what his little ego needs to make himself feel like a big, strong man.

I Can Cure Your Hiccups!
I can cure your hiccups What Could Go Wrong? Authorities in Barranquilla, Colombia, said that Rafael Vargas, 35, tried to cure his nephew of the hiccups by pointing a loaded revolver at him to scare him. Vargas accidentally pulled the trigger, killing David Galvan, 21. He was so distraught that he turned the gun on himself and died of head wounds. I guess that is one way to cure the hiccups- he won't be getting them anymore.

Why Me?
Well, my computer officially won't even start. I'm currently at work and could be in big big trouble if I get caught doing this - but wanted to let the friends and fam know what's up. I hate my life right now. Taking it in right away, but I may be gone for a bit. So very very very sad right now. Pray that it's not completely fried, because I really can't afford a new one at the mo. Fuck. Hope you're all well, if I don't see ya before then.... Happy Thanksgiving!

Can I Have Your Honest Opinion On This
I was fucking about a while back in photoshop with what Stu had done for us for scarybirds and making it for the immortal ego project kind of logo, anyway if you can be honest and let me know what you think I would appreciate it, it was me first attempt.

Seasons Of Love (song And Lyrics)
THIS SONG IS CUTE, SAD, FUNNY, AND ANGRY. IT'S A SONG ABOUT A KINDA STRAIGHT LACED GUY WHO IS ON A BAY WITH HIS CAT "BOOTS", AND MEETS A KINDA BAD GIRL WITH A MOTORCYCLE. THE SONG TAKES YOU THROUGH 1 YEAR OF 4 SEASONS, RATHER THAN VERSES, AND TAKES YOU THROUGH THE REALATIONSHIP. IT'S A VERY GOOFY SONG, AND SUNG THAT WAY ON PURPOSE, BUT IT'S VERY COOL AND DIFFERENT. ALTHOUGH THE RHYTHM IS FOR THE MOST PART THE SAME THROUGHOUT THE SONG, THERE'S A LOT OF SUBTLE CHANGES, AND GETS A LITTLE DIRTIER WHEN IT GETS TO WINTER, BUT AT THE END, IT GOES INTO A HEAVIER ROCK SONG TO GO WITH WHAT HE IS FEELING. THE END GETS KINDA FUNNY LYRIC WISE TOO. Seasons of love (mellow then heavy) CLICK TITLE ON PLAYER TO PLAY SONG (SUMMER) ON a tropical day I sat on the bay with my “Boots”--I saw a girl in blue and before I knew, she came my way--she said ,”how would you like to hop on my bike and take a ride?”--well before I knew, that girl in blue became my bride--we would sit in the sun, a summer o

The Farmer
Joke of the Day! There once was a farmer who was raising three daughters on his own. He was very concerned about their well being and always did his best to watch out for them. As they entered the late teens, the girls dated, and on this particular evening all three of his girls were going out on a date. This was the first time this had occurred. As was his custom, he would greet the young suitor at the door holding his shotgun, not to menace or threaten but merely to ensure that the young man knew who was boss. The doorbell rang and the first of the boys arrived. Father answered the door and the lad said, "Hi, my name's Joe. I'm here for Flo. We're going to the show, is she ready to go?" The father looked him over and sent the kids on their way. The next lad arrived and said, "My name's Eddie. I'm here for Betty. We're gonna get some spaghetti. Is she ready?" Father felt this one was okay too, so off the two kids went. The final young man arrived and the farmer opene

Angels
All the things Ive done before this They dont mean a thing And all the words spoken before this Wont be said again Suddenly so much of me has No need 2 pretend Cause theres nothin like the truth To bring her back to u And everyone Ive met before this Aint seen me with u Angel My Angel Angel Angel My Angel Angel Youre the only one who knows what I go through Sometime u feel it even more than me And I dont know how I ever got by without u Theres nothing like the truth And Ive got nothin left 2 lose And every night I thank the universe that I found u Angel My Angel Angels Angel My Angel Angels And I dont have 2 wonder What the world thinks about me I know youre in my corner Youre always surrounding me With your love And if we all explode See we would never know But I just hope the pieces of my soul Reach out 2 u 2 find my angel My Angels My Angels Angels My Angels My Angels

Give Me A Break...
Alright, you guys know it has to be pretty bad for me to blog, since I NEVER blog on here... Since I am the insomniac from hell, I enjoyed looking thru mumm and giving my opinion (I am good at that~~~really I am;-) It's bad enough that that we put up with attention seeking and drama on bulletins~~~now it is seeping over into the mumms. It is just another opportunistic feature for people to cry "look at me", which is getting really old. )ANd since this mumm is public and current, I am not pointing out something you can't all see if you click on the link on your page~~~but this is the mumm that pushed me over the edge~~~ http://www.cherrytap.com/mum.php?id=6736) and then in another mumm, she has the nerve to cry that everyone that said she was an attention whore is just mean~~~I thought this site was for adults~~~~~ When I first came to Lost Cherry (yes, it will always be the LC to me), I really enjoyed this place. It was a great place to meet people and I spent many h

I Hate You
I hate you i hate you for the lies you tell i hate you for the love that failed i hate you for being you i hate you for not seeing me i was here all in your face you never seen me at all could not feel the breaths i take, where were you when i needed you most... when i cried did you even see the tears fall?? I think you walked away felling nothing at all..where you even here did you hear my call where you even here at all..was i something to fill the void?? Was i a game that you watched fall....do you even see me standing here waiting for you and the love you promised?? Did you really love me was it all a lie???? I gave you everything even my life if you asked...my last breath was for you i called out your name you laughed in my face like it is a childhood game, and now there is nothing left the tears have dried, i hate you,i hate you i hate you so...as the time goes by my hate only grows... i am under a spell so stupid in love..i gave my last breath as you stood and watch

Private Pics
Please if you stop by my page don not ask for a request to see my private pics. The people that are in my family album now are people that I speak to on a regular basis. I think it is quite rude that I get friends requests and on those they say" Can you add me as a friend so I can see private pics?" well the answer to that is NO. I am a classy woman and take alot of pride in my body not just to show off for the entire world to see. If that is not suitable for you then don't ask to be friends..Thank you much appreciated.. Kandi

Wtf?
My ex is pissing me the fuck off right now. She rarely see the kids anymore, she has only seen them 6 times since moving back the Cali, most those times are for only a few hours. She has tomorrow off but has to work Thursday so I told her come get the kids Tuesday night and bring them back to me Wednesday night, this was last week. She told me she wanted to do this...now I haven't heard from her since then. She tells me all the time "The kids mean so much to me" but this is how she acts. How can any parent, mother or father, do this to their children?

Referrals - Not Quite A How To...
I have had numerous requests from people asking how I (and how they) can get so many referrals. The first couple of people I told them I would give them details after the end of my first contest. When people kept asking, it became clear that I cannot give out the "secret" to everyone who asks. It seems only fair that if I can't give it to everyone, then I should give it to no one. Therefore, instead of giving everyone the exact details of how I (and you) can get 300 referrals in a day, I will give you a few hints in the form of questions for you to ponder. If you really want the referrals, then you should be able to put two and two together and figure it out based upon what I write here. I will tell you that what I do is able to give me 150 referrals with 20 minutes of effort. If I were to spend 40 to 60 minutes in a day, I could get somewhere around 300 in a day. I assure you I do not cheat. Mike and the CT gang can check their server logs to find out where my referrals co

Seductive Meanderings
Seductive Meanderings (this the story of a soft sensual tease – more to come – we've just begun) Tension rising of the baser affections The scent in the air a temptation to seduction The taste so sweet Like pure honey straight from the comb Whispered desires lead the way Contemplation neglected in this time of action Beautiful eyes filled with exotic wonder the body's betrayal of the mind complete legs spread wide no boundaries set the ultimate in pleasure experience satin bound ankles satin bound wrists silken sheets on which to twist the roar of the fire reaching out to claim all innocence candle glow on naked flesh melted chocolate drips on nakedness heated breath across taunt sensitive breasts breathing shallow short sharp pants the need of more causes to dance each rustle of the sheet a sensuously erotic art the chocolate slowly drips lower and lower the hand of lover on empty

I Confess!!!! I Am A Point Whore
Here is my confession....I have numbered them so you can all discuss my sins: 1. I care about leveling up 2. I care about rankings 3. I care about fans, profile rates, and pic rates. 4. I wouldn't mind getting into the top 10, or being at the top of the legends. 5. I check to see if I have top photos (which I RARELY do..unless I've bid on a spotlight) 6. I pay attention to when I bid on my last spotlight so I can start bidding on the next one. 7. I take pictures just for CherryTAP keeping in mind which ones people will like the most 8. I get disappointed when I fall behind in rankings like I did for the last two days 9. I enter contests ALL the time and request my friends to vote on them. For the record this actually gets me NO points. Only occasional ego boosts, although usually I lose! Now I say SO WHAT...I think it's fun. I'm a point whore and I'm proud of it. I also attempt to answer every email (yes sometimes it takes me a very long tim

Pain
I don't drink to forget i drink so i can suffer twice as much cuz in this world of pain nothing breaks the memory of your touch what was i thinking i should have kept drinking to flood you face from my mind but now it's over and i'm sober enough to know you fucked my mind love can seem like slow death if it's not returned you will feel your body and soul start to burn with desire and unrelenting pain the tears they cloud my eyes i bite my tongue till i taste my blood so you won't hear my cries hiding in my private darkness i put you out of my mind my fear of death being overcome by my hatred for this life

Assemble The Masses
Remember that everyone has problems. Sometimes, it might seem like it couldn't be any worse. And for you, it might be the worst feeling. But if you step back, you have to realize there is hope in everything. "Assemble The Masses" From the darkness, rises a shining light. And in this light, hope. Hope for a new day, a different future. Yesterday is gone, don't harbor on it too long. Live for today, keep an eye to the future. But never forget the journey. It is in this journey that we find strength to move forward. If today is too difficult, take a breathe and start anew. Often, a different pair of eyes will aid in the quest. Never forget the journey. I repeat this because too often, we search for the end, not the means. But what many learn too late is that once they reach that end, they are not any happier, nor have they gained anything they sought. They merely shift to another end, discarding the process that got them there. Live for the day, enjoy the moment, and

Taking A Ct Break
For a short while, I'll be taking some overdue down time. I am finding that I am becoming neglectful to my friends on CT and that bothers me. I am really trying to not burn out totally so I'm going to take some time off, do some writing, relax and all that good shit. I am going to log in to answer mail, check and see what you all are up to so don't believe any rumors that I'm leaving the site. I'm not. I'm not in any "trouble" or anything like that. The only truth about my downtime is that I need some...LOL I will still do the "ask stang" feature for the Newsletter, do bouncer stuff, check mail but for at least a week I'll be much more low key. That does NOT mean abandon me...LOL. You all are the reason that I'll be checking in and I will also be approving friends requests. You all are awesome and I have mad ass love for you. You can read some of my other shit at Stang's Other Blog I'll see you all on the downside.

*~fun With Yahoo - Session 13~*
h_balls2000: hi PiercedQT: Hi h_balls2000: how are u? PiercedQT: Good you? h_balls2000: fine h_balls2000: u asl plz h_balls2000: male or female? PiercedQT: 32/F h_balls2000: well do u like to be my mistress? h_balls2000: like a nurse to me and examin my dick and big balls PiercedQT: Sure - bend over and say "AHH" h_balls2000: ok ill show u my dick and balls and tell me what to do to examin them h_balls2000: i have a ruber bands and ropes and a tupe which inside the pen h_balls2000: ok for you my nurse? PiercedQT: You have all that inside your cock?!? h_balls2000: i did not try it h_balls2000: have u ever see anyone do it? PiercedQT: Yeah I'm sure guys just shove ropes and pens in their weenies just for fun and stuff... like all the time. h_balls2000: is't it dangourse PiercedQT: I'm sure it is - but good sex is dangerous... or so I am told. h_balls2000: ok u can see my cam? PiercedQT: Yeah I see it h_balls2000: ok u like to start

She Is To Me
She Is To Me I want to be her everything, and always in her heart, I want to be her ray of light when she is in the dark. I want to be her time alone if nothing left to do, I want to be her happiness when she is feeling blue. I want to be her song on key when she cant hear a sound, I want to be her diamond ring for where i'm wrapped around. I want to be her everywhere if nowhere left to be, I want to be her eyes right now All this she is to me. jw

This Is Bullshit!
OH FFS! I was doing my morning reading and saw where in South Carolina, a 12-year old boy was arrested for finding and opening his christmas presents early. I know, it sounds like some crazy shit you might have to research on Snopes but I've done the digging and it's true. The boy and his 27-year old mother live with mom's grandmother. The great grandmother had bought the boy the popular Nintendo Game Boy Advance for Christmas, wrapped it and placed it under the tree. The boy found the gift, unwrapped it and played with it. When the great grandmother found the gift missing the boy claimed to not know the whereabouts of the toy. The great grandmother tells mom that the toy is missing and upon further investigation, finds that the boy had been playing the game in his room, so she calls the police. She justifies this by saying "It wasn't yet his, he wanted it and he took it. I didn't know what else to do." She didn't know what else do do??!!! Hmm let me see, whoop his ass?

Christmas
HO HO HO!! Its almost here, the day we spend a yr planning for that only lasts a precious few hrs. Here is my dilemma, We never decorate the house until after my daughters bday to keep it a seperate occasion. Her birthday was sunday. That means i better get'r'done right?? I AM SO NOT IN THE MOOD to decorate this yr. I have no idea why. Could be the lack of snow and cold weather...this is Canada isnt it? Or could be the whole hustle and bustle of working too much and playing too lil. I know once i get started and its all up i will love it but they whole idea of digging everything out. Putting on the 100's of tangled lights that i so carefully tried to pack last yr and the needles EVERYWHERE just doesnt seem to turn me on. BUT....... My lil man, and my girl will be so excited once it is done, they loves the lights and decorations!! So i guess i better just get to it right?? Anyone else just not feeling the whole spirit of the season this yr? Or is it just me??

Carols For Special People
1. Schizophrenia --- Do You Hear What I Hear 2. Multiple Personality Disorder --- We Three Queens Disoriented Are 3. Amnesia --- I Don't Know if I'll be Home for Christmas 4. Narcissistic --- Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me 5. Manic --- Deck the Halls and Walls and House and Lawn and Streets and Stores and Office and Town and Cars and Buses and Trucks and Trees and Fire Hydrants and.... 6. Paranoid --- Santa Claus is Coming to Get Me 7. Borderline Personality Disorder --- Thought of Roasting on an Open Fire 8. Full Personality Disorder --- You Better Watch Out, I'm Gonna Cry, I'm Gonna Pout, Maybe I'll Tell You Why 9. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder --- Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells 10. Agoraphobia --- I Heard the Bells of Christmas Day But Wouldn't Leave My House 11. Senile Dementia --- Walking in a Winter Wonderland Miles From My House in My Slippers and Rob

The Walk Around My House
Last night when I came home from a Birthday dinner, two of my friends and I were dropped off by our DD at their house near where I live. My walk home is a short jaunt across a complex. They invited me to come in and have a beer with them, it was still early for a Friday and I accepted. When we walked in their home, we discovered that their son had left the television on and a scary movie was playing. We settled down with our beer, pressed the info button and discovered it was Friday the 13th, Part VII. We had a sense of humor about it and decided to leave it on. It was pathetic. The horror is all in the sound, the rest is lacking in many aspects of suspense and horror that we are inundated with in today's society. I quite easily jump at most of today's horror/scary films. I admit it, I'm a person with an abundance of adrenaline and I have a full-on body reaction. I'm not much of a screamer at movies, but I've spilled popcorn a time or two. I relaxed through this film and

Do You
Do you remember the kiss on that December nite, That was the day i turned on the light You Remember the look the first time that we touched, The way that we held could be not to much. You remember the words that went through your mind, You looked in my eyes and love we did find Do You remember my promise to not turn away, I said id stand by you and theres were i stay You remember you tested my love to see if Id leave, When I stuck around you couldn't believe. You remember time you had to leave for awhile, When you returned i was still there with a smile Do you remember the day that we said we would Wed, I can't seem to get it out of my head Do you remember the day that we had to part, That was the day that i lost my heart. Do You remember the sayin I'll leave the light on, I'll stand by my words and hope you come home JW

Formerly On My About Me
Don't bother to fucking add me if you're not going to talk to me. Oh and here's a clue about me: I don't give a SHIT about ratings. I am NOT going to rate your or your pictures unless I genuinely think you are an interesting person, or I honestly like your pictures. Stop fucking begging me to fucking rate you, you fucking needy-ass, whiny, cunt-rag, pussyshit, pricks. Life's not a fucking popularity contest, get OVER yourselves people. THIS IS THE FUCKING INTERNET. Goddamn, you people are honestly as bad as all the teens on MYSPACE. Jesus FUCK. I thought you were all ADULTS. Act like them for Chrissakes. I said this a while ago so I'm going to keep it on here, because I think it's a valid point. To (much) older men: I have no problem with you complimenting me, I honestly don't. However, I question your choice in words. It makes me a little uncomfortable to be called "hot" and "sexy" by a man more than twice my age, because in my mind, use of such words means you see me as an obj

Oh Jeez
Well tonight is the office xmas party at Hearts football club in Edinburgh, its a 70's theme night, I was panicking on what to wear and suddenly realised that most of my clothes were 70's hahahahah anyway they are having a sit down meal which I am bypassing as I hate being sat down when out and about, so will go later on I will have to polish me boots, so will get suitably trolleyed later on

Feeling Aroused
As I lay on my cozy bed, shivers began to travel through my body sending me wild thoughts of that special night we shared together....His breath on my skin, his tongue on my breasts, his hands on my body...I could recall his scent still trapped in the deepest part of my soul. I love him I said to myself. His touch makes my body quiver with excitement, as I remembered his lips on my lips I began touching myself...My nipples were soft and tender and then began to harden and feel the excitement that my heart was feeling, my heart started racing and with every breath that I took, my love palace began to get moist and wet, my clit ached for his touch and his tongue pressing against my burning desire. I touched myself and began feeling his hands on my burning flesh, I could hear him whispering his magical thoughts in my ears, his desire for my body, the hunger for my juice, the excitement of penetrating my tight canal. As my thoughts placed himself inside of me, my throbbing clit bega

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OK I NEED TO KNOW AND NOT DOING A MUM CUZ I ONLY GET A DAY I FIGURE U R THE ONES TO GET IT SO I ASK U...ME BEING A GUY..NO NOT A BABY SO HUSH NOW...BUT ANYHOW R MY COMMENTS TO GAY OR SISSY T BE SENDING OUT TO ALL U LOVELY LADIES???

How To Say I Love You In 25 Diffrent Places!
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Just A Little Poem, I Hope You All Enjoy.. Please Comment If You Like.
As you walk threw the trial's of life you find yourself in place's you dream, It isnt the land of milk and honey, but life's up's and down's so it seems; People come and go in your life, it's those who have made a difference that matter, To actually say I remember you when, life has given me love on a platter; Many whisper sweet nothing's in your ear, but think truly does it come to you as clear? I am the one you share the most with, that is the reality and not a myth; So we get jealous, its a natural thing, don't blame me for wanting more than just a fling; So as I sit here writing this little something from my heart, take the time to read between the chart; Your taste in music has opened my eyes, your journey from there to here, has kept me not wanting other guys; So listen to what this poem is saying about how you make me feel, I'm walking on clouds and taking in the rays of how happy you made life seem so real; shorty

I Am Fairly New
here but..there are some messed up things going on here!! i have been a member or cherrylicious all request radio and they are AWESOME!! and now it seems as though there is a station out there copying what these people have done and thats just not right at all!! what has happend is there were 2 owners dj HOOCHIE and dj tormented...dj tormented was fired yesterday cause she apparently couldnt handle what true friends were all about .. and she is now with a new station which btw is the copycat station!! all of the misfits that dj HOOCHIE fired are all over there and thats fine but what i dont like is they are talking crap about a person who has busted her ass for CLR and dont deserve being treated this way!! everyone that is left on staff at CLR rocks!!! those over at that other lounge well heres a bit of advice.....GROW UP AND GET YOUR OWN THOUGHTS STOP COPYING OFF OF CHERRYLICIOUS RADIO!! you people will drop to dj tormenteds feet like dogs in heat and thats just pathetic!!! GROW UP PL

Isn't Life Simple.
Life I as simple as 1 2 3 then why all these men want to play games on me.. I can see through the bs and flattery .. so be a man and be honest please.. I lay in my bed and these thoughts come to mind so I up writing them and trying not to sigh.. my soul just become darken and anger begins to feed.. Why does the mind play tricks on me.. I have been pushed to the dark side of no return.. See things pass me by as I grow old.. learn to see through the black clouds to find a shining light that shows it all not in site.. Things are as simple as black and white as long as you open your eyes you will see it without a doubt.. laying in my bed tossing about.. If this has what become of my life full of sleepless nights.. I turn my soul away from the devil cause he will never have the purity I see in me.. but yet these thoughts and feelings are beginning to consume me.. there darken and evil and full of rage.. There is no particular rhythm or reason it just me.. Isn’t life as simple as one two

Angel For Little Aeliyah
Go to sleep my angel and dream Of heavenly places and heavenly faces You shall be missed, my angel but rest in peace In this world you could easily get hurt Don't fret my angel you are safe in God's arms He will take care of you And will always be with you Mortal dreams of riches, but my angel You are rich for eternal life So sleep now angel you are full of love and beauty We will all be with you soon Sweet dreams my angel When you wake up you'll know that Your dreams have come true An Angel to guide you on your way An Angel to brighten your day When you need an uplifting thought A hand to hold or to hug a lot An Angel to sit with you awhile An Angel to make you smile Our Angel knows our dented soul. The friend comes from an unknown source and soon we feel complete once more. An Angel to encourage and guide An Angel to stay by your side. Wings of a bird Wings of an angel. Wings of living things. When you died you were given wings to fly white

Love Comes
Dreams come with a sweet haze, we think to never fade away. How sad it is, When reality chases it aside. But we hold to the thought- this idea of happiness- sure we can earn it's grace. Someday we will find peace in that strange place we call the human heart. Wonderfully enough- Love does come. And when it is gone, it leaves it's trace- a memory to look upon, and smile.

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New Years Resolutions…
Do people still do these things? If so have you been able to adhere to them? I guess I have a few things I would like to work on. 1. Take more time with writing out the books I want to do. I know that I could spend more time working on them; I have just been a slacker. 2. Quit worrying about trying to be with someone and just get my own life together first. That starts with my children. I need to do my best to get back into their lives, not just for them but for me as well. I’m thinking the best policy for me to take at this time that would allow me to get my head on right would be to not be in any relationship. So I plan on not getting involved with anyone for at least the next six months or longer if needed. I owe it to someone to take my time and get my “shit” together.

Clumzy Old Fool (written At 1am)
ok i basicly just got home from three plus hours in the ER cause i miss stepped going down a flight of stairs and hurt my right thigh and my right arm. they took x-rays and nothing is broken, but both muscles don't like to be stressed much at all right now!!! after laying there for a few minutes i got up and GAWDS did that hurt!!! my first thought was to get in my car and go home and call my Mistress, but it hurt so much getting up that i instantly scrapped that idea. `nod nods` i then thought about going back up the stairs to my Friend Ralf's room and scrapped that idea when i took a test step and it hurt like hell. `nod nods lots` i thought about knocking on one of the doors close to me, but it was just after 8pm and none of them had any lights on, so i thought they were empty. i finally hobbled my way (sex inches at a time) to the lobby and called Ralf to come down and drive me to the ER. my car is spending the night at His place since He had to drive me home. (up-date 2/22

Blog Nsfw Flags
hey folks, we've recently added nsfw flags for entire blogs, and for individual blog postings. please use those when posting adult/nsfw content! also, please help us by going back through your existing blogs and flagging any necessary postings. thanks! -mike

Ct Crap I Just Can't Take Anymore!!!!!!!
I hope you can take the time to add your Name and Repost this as much as possible! (ONLY if You AGREE)!! NUMBER ONE: The Anti-Spam thing is a good idea.......For Photo Comments ONLY!! To avoid the new Point Whore Contests that are ALL about Comments & Points!!! Sometimes allot of thought goes into Comments for our Friends Page, that we want to send out to allot of Friends! With the Current Anti-Spam thing, we can't!!!! NUMBER TWO: I think this is a great Adult Alternative to MySpace! The Key Word Being ADULT! When a Member is brave enough to post a NSFW Photo, they should get the same points awarded for rates and Comments that ANY Photo would get! For allot of people, they have Chosen THIS SITE (There are Lots of Others) to explore their exhibitionist side, to work through their inhibitions, or just for FUN!! At least treat them the same as a Regular Photo!!!!!!!! Don’t Impede One’s Personal Adventure of Life !!!!! MAKE THIS PLACE FUN TO HANG OUT AGAIN!!!!! KEEP

Friendship 2
Life is full of trials and shit But don’t you ever stop and quit Its when times are bad our friends are there They aren't just here to stand and stare The weights you feel are pulling you down Are shared by us all to relieve your frown Just lift your chin and think a while And the clouds will clear to reveal a smile That smile will build up day by day To one the resembles a summers day Both warm and bright with that tingle inside That says my happiness I cannot hide So don’t let these dips that appear in your life Get you down and cause you strife Cos with your friends you’ll soon be where You were before as they really do care Written by me for all of you... Keep smiling :-) Daz

Blue Rhino Paws
Like mothers milk From mystic breasts The love flows And keeps you Alive You never realize What you’ve spent Until it costs Everything You’ve got Was it worth it Trading sanity For nectar Or were you Just following Erection Thru the channels Of good enough Selection You seek the Pleasure But miss the Passion You never lack Some tenderness But die from Malnutrition

Your Favorite Comment...
I've been on CT a week now. Met some great friends and family. Some people write great profiles, others not so much. And of course, almost everyone goes straight to the pictures which inevitably leads to ratings and comments. So I ask the question: What kind of comments do you like to see on your photos? I ask this because many comments are unoriginal, lack substance, border on rude, etc. So when you view your photo comments, what brings a smile to your face? All my best for you. Sean

Plz Read
Love Is Not Jealous - How many of yall can say you have never wished to have sumtin some1 else has , be able to feel what some1 else feels.... Love Is Not Vain - How many of yall can say u've never become obsessed wit ur own feelings..that uve never wrapped urself in a bubble where only u matters...cared so much for urself that others become to not matter one bit? Love Does Not Leave You Standin Out In The Rain - How many of yall can say u've never hung anybody out to dry for ur own personal gain....that u've never turned ur back on a person Love Is To Kno Wit Each New Day U Are Embraced - How many of yall wake each new day and look forward to what it brings....and how many of yall see each new day as an opportunity to make others lifes miserable becuz urs are too...to inflict a posionous spin on it...or to try and make every1 else as negative as u r? The Difference Between A Friend N A Judas ...a friend will be happy if your happy.. ...a judas will hope ur ha

So Wahts New??????
well my life is going nuts but at least i found a light.......the question is should i move towards it or stay in the shadows? I have came out of the shadows before and i was totally destroyed. So should i keep my distance where i feel safe or should I chance it???? God this is confusing!!!

Got My Classes For 2007
Today, I thought was goin to hectic, confusing and just outright nuts!?Surprisingly, I had no trouble, they had my information processed n I did my paperwork for the classes with making choices. You have to have alternates for classes since this was day 2 and I could nt go yesterday. Well, the Director of Nursing signed off on my schedule, gave me my next point of reference and off I went. Health waiver, Paying for Tutition and then get my books the whole thing came to 800.00. Ouch!!! But my job is goin to reimbursh me, when I get my final grades. I wont be round much til I get squared with my studying and sleeping time. Hope you all wont forget me til I get back, but know that I will miss you all and you all are in my prayers!!School starts Jan. 18th!! Bless All My Friends!!!

My Teen's Letter To His Bro
Now, read this with a grain of salt. It's a post my son sent to the lead guitarist in his band who is Casey Jones'n it out in Cali...Even if his views may seem whack, the boy does know how to word things..lol..He writes music also. hey you fuck! your very existance is blasphamous...and thats why we all miss you so much...when will you arrive to tell us of your journeys in search of the american dream on the roads of a corrupted and dilluted land that was glorious before the coming of the "white man" and the hate he brings with him...i too have had time to ponder a great many things and have come to many meaningful desicions, at least in terms of what i intend to do with the hand that our twisted sadist of a creator has delt me in giving me lynn and seven for parents...but im finding more and more through thought that the old saying is true, "there is more than one way to skin a cat" and having said that there is more than one way to live a life. everyone cannot be happy or at p

I Will Cancel My Account First!
For a second, please view me and this post as just Gypsy Queen Stang....not bouncer. I need for you all to seperate the two for a second. Now, I will not mention any names but really need to vent. I saw a bulletin today (I'll leave the user links out) but the text subject read: "let me do this again-- SHE WAS DONE WRONG BY ALOT OF PPL- AND HAS A HEART OF GOLD-CHECK HER OUT---" This bulletin goes on and on about how a woman, who had like 2 or three fake accounts on here at one time is actually "good as gold". Let me tell you something about fools gold. It looks pretty and makes awesome jewelry but in all actuality, it's not worth shit. I do not want to discount the courage that it takes come clean after running a fake profile, but, I don't want it to go unnoticed that in defending her fake persona, she was belligerent, disrespectful to members and staff and over all unpleasant at best. I have seen that bullshit propaganda going around about how much she's changed.

First Date!
Sexy & Romantic glitter graphics from www.sexiluv.com THIS IS MY IDEA OF A GOOD ONE! It's early in the evening on a nice late spring day when I arrive to pick you up for our date. I arrived and you came down to meet me. Your are wearing a nice flowing skirt that accentuates your legs and a nice loose fitting blouse that just hints at your cleavage beneath it. I am taken by your warm friendly smile and you feel your face blushing slightly at having thought and fantasized about me previously. I hand you a single rose I had been holding behind my back and I see you blush a bit in response to the unexpected gift. We move to the car and I open the door for you helping you into the seat. I catch a glimpse of the lace tops of the thigh high stockings you’re wearing underneath the skirt and I felt a stirring begin in my loins. Before I closed the door, you looked up at me and said, "I hope that I'm dressed alright, since you wouldn’t

People Know How To Be Mean!!
Today I woke up feeling great about myself. Feeling confident in how I looked, the way I acted, about everything about myself.. I put my heart, my soul, and my body "hehehe" into this site.I know I'm not the typical body type that people dream about, I do have a few extra pounds.. But working my ass off every night to fix that!! I'm not on CherryTap because I want people to tell me they want me, not for the points, for the freedom of my sexuality , I believe every person is beautiful in their own way.. weather they like to pole dance, which once you try it, you'll love it!! or do yoga, or work out at the gym, or just stay in and play on the computer.. But today a friend of mine places a mumm on his site about my video that i'm pole dancing in. Asking if everyone thought I was awesome like he thought.. TO his, and my surprise.. people can be VERY mean.. I understand that it's not everyone's cup of tea.. But why write something thats incredibly rude to the person who is in the vi

I Gotta Go, Bye!
I've talked to some of you about this, but I wont be able to afford internet access anymore and I'm guessing by summer time I will and maybe have a cell phone too that anyone here can reach me on. Wellp, I got lots of stuff to keep me busy. If I am any bit lucky to pop up online, keep in mind that it wont be from my own computer or pocket, so I surely wont be able to chat or talk for long intervals. I will use this time wisely to finish writing/publishing a book. And I will be helping some family member(s) out as my priority arrangement. So if I actually want to get anything done, I best do it offline and take myself serious. You all should do this too, make something of yourself before it's too late in life. If any of you know Shay, well he's gone too and most likely wont be returning at all to this site but at least he'll be doing even more tedious tasks than I. Blood related family has to stick together. "Look to see me no more" (Rich Little) but I will be back.

More Spelling
I know, I know, I am an anal spelling nazi, but it does mildly annoy me that the designers of this place can't even take the time to spell things correctly. The sheer joy I should feel from being notified that some nice person has a crush on me is slightly tempered by the fact that I am told that they have a crush on me 'rite' now. End of rant. Please feel free to bitch slap me and tell me to get over it. -30-

Saturday Night - Part 3
Where we left off. Without warning I opened my mouth wide and with one tremendous lunge into his groin I took the entire length of his cock deep, so deep into my warm and moist mouth. He let out a gutteral moan as I felt the tip of his cock poke the back of my throat. I continued to balance his balls and play one over the other as I slowly closed my mouth down hard over his stiff cock and slowly pull my head back away and could almost feel the veins of his cock tickle my tongue as I pulled my head back. It had grown so hard; so thick and so long and now it is so wet from my saliva. Now on to part 3. I pulled away and let his cock literally pop out of my mouth from the suction of my lip's grip on it. I glanced up at him and his eyes were glued down on me as he witnessed me pull away. His eyes were so wide and I could tell he was enjoying what he was seeing and what he was feeling at the same time. My mind began to wander and I thought of what I could do to

Welcome To Northern Maine!
You're all invited to visit me in Northern Maine...but there ARE some rules and things you should know first... 1. That slope-shouldered farm boy you are snickering at did more work before breakfast than you did all week in the gym. 2. It's called a "gravel road." No matter how slowly you drive, you're going to get dust on your BMW. We have four wheel drive because we need it. Now just drive, or get the hell out of the way. 3. We all started hunting and fishing when we were nine years old. Yeah, we saw "Bambi." We got over it. That steak you're raving about? Good huh? It was hooked to the ass of a moose just a week ago. Now...if you spit it out after I tell you that, I will personally pack you into your suitcase and send you home. 4. Any references to "corn fed" when talking about our women will get your butt kicked...by our women. 5. Pull your pants up, and turn that hat around. You look like a freaking idiot. 6. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of mall

The Politics Of Yard Work
I just moved into a house last fall, and the lawn looks like shit. Figuratively and literally, as it is mostly brown, but it doesn't feel as nice and squishy under your feet as shit does. I figure the lawn just needs some attention. You know, fertilizer, regular mowing, a stiff raking. So I went on the internets and purchased a push mower. The kind that doesn't take any gasoline. Because I don't want to support the terrorists when I'm mowing the grass. I see my neighbors mowing, and I just want to ask them, "Why do you hate America? Why do you hate freedom?" Sons of bitches. The mower arrived, and I ripped into the box like it was a birthday present from the rich aunt you hate but who buys you nice crap. I spent about an hour putting it together. Or rather, putting the handle together. (This involved an elaborate ritual which included a bottle of dish soap and me with a foam hose and a metal bar on my kitchen floor. When I got the foam hose to slide onto the metal bar, the excess di

The Silver Cord
Have you ever met someone that when they looked into your eyes you felt that they where piercing you right to the very center of your soul? Seeing all your deepest darkest fantasies. You know ... that part of you that you have never shared with anyone. Yet this person seems to know them all without your having to say a word. And you feel like you are completely exposed. That thought is very erotic. Now I don't know what kinds of things you think about ... as you recall all those wonderful feelings ... while you read this, But I wonder if it went something like this.... Was it as if there was a cord of light connecting you to them? And as you went inside and began to ... melt with the warmth of that connection, you felt as though you where looking at your future ... like your future was right in front of you. The more you began to.... listen carefully and ... really look and ...hang on every word. It was as if the rest of your environment just started to disappear with the passio

Announcement
Good Monday morning to all of you. I have given it some great thought and with much encouragement from some of the members here and over on my Yahoo group so I have made a decision. I am going to begin writing erotic stories and try to sell them to publishers. Over on my Yahoo group I posted the same stories that posted here but strung them out to make it into 3 parts rather than just the 5 I posted here. The response was overwhelmingly ecstatic from the readers. The guys and the women both loved how I got them so HOT just from reading the story and many were sending me messages asking when the next part will be sent out to my blog. I have already chosen the the subject matter for my first attempt at turning a short story into a full length book. The book will be based on first attendance of a private swingers party at a hotel suite. Plenty of sub story lines possible there and one that is close to my own heart since we wish to go to a swingers party anyway. So obvious

Poos 2 Cents Worth!!
1) Don't order steak at the Waffle House. They serve breakfast 24 hours a day; so let them cook something they know. 2) Don't laugh at southern people names. (Merleen, Bodie, Luther, Ray, Tammy Ann, Maribeth, Inez, etc.) These people have been known to whip a man for less. 3) Don't order a bottle of pop or a can of soda. This can lead to a whipping. Down south its called Coke. It don't matter whether it is Pepsi, 7-Up or whatever else, it's a Coke. 4) Don't show allegiance to any college football team that isn't in the ACC (NC State, Duke,Clemson,Georgia Tech, Wake Forest And I Guess UNC). All the others are just a bunch of pansies 5) Don't refer to Southerners as a bunch of hillbillies. We know our heritage. Most of us are more literate than you (e.g., Welty, Williams, Faulkner, and Twain). We are also better educated, and generally lots nicer. We have plenty of business sense (e.g., Fred Smith of Fed Ex, Ted Turner of Turner Broadcasting, Sam Walton of Wal-Mart). Natural

No Damnit
NO GOD DAMNIT YOU ARE NOT SEEING ME NAKED...NOR DO I WANT TO CYBER WITH YOU... SOOO STOP ASKING ME THAT SHIT..IF U WANT TO SEE NAKED WOMEN THERE ARE SO MANY WOMEN ON HERE THAT WILL ACCOMIDATE YOU..... READ MY FUCKEN PROFILE BEFORE YOU ASK ME INSTEAD OF WANTING THAT SHIT.....I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU JACK OFF OR YOU ARENT SEEING WHAT I HAVE BEHIND MY FOLDERS UNLESS I WANT YOU TO....NOW STOP ASKING THAT SHIT... Ok i feel better now....Continue with your browsing

Seuss Me
On a plane in the air on the bed in a chair fuck me here fuck me there hell you can fuck me anywhere In the nude in a skirt no panties on or just a shirt In my mouth in my ass in my pussy just make it last I have plenty of usable holes pick your favorite and let er go Lets get a whip some ky too a pair of handcuffs yes this will do Whip me here smack me there fuck me bitch EVERYWHERE!

Just Some Stuff I Wrote
What Love Is Love is cuddling even when you are angry at each other. It's calling just to say hi at random times of the day. Love is telling your lover your panty size. And, It is aslo knowing her size fellas, keep up! What is Love? Love is knowing that you are with the right person. It's more than just knowing But feeling it, too. Love is always telling the truth even when it hurts. And, knowing what to say to ease the pain. What is Love? To be honest I just do not know what Love is. All I know is that I feel it when I am with you. No matter if by computer, phone or in person. I feel what love is and I feel like it is ME and YOU. Thats what love is to me, so what is it to you? Joe Bellmore Copyright ©2007 Joe Bellmore __________________________________________________ Long Distance Love It starts with a meeting in a far away place. Two people meet and both think its fate. Then comes a day when they must separate. The smiles leave and

The Invisible Seed
Being a love farmer is probably the finest gig on the planet. All you have to do is give a fuck. That is it. You need to care. Not for mere amusement of pleasure, but rather for the enlightenment of your soul. You nurture and harvest it, then serve it up fresh and tasty. This is what I am so vaguely explaining. You find someone that in one way or another is somewhat appealing to you, and you take an interest. Not necessarily a member of the opposite sex, or whatever orientation you happen to be into, but just another person. You may find a link on music, fashion, politics, similar or relatable domestic situations, and you share thoughts and observances with them. If they are in need, you listen, and maybe offer a piece of what you hope could be good advice. Then, you’re back to your life. You feel for them in a real way, but it does not create a burden or a constant ray of sunshine. It is just something you get to enjoy. It plants a seed in you. You let it grow and change, then you tak

Places To Be Naughty! Add Your Place To The List!
Places to be naughty!!! Add a place to have sex 1. the bed 2.The car 3.bathroom 4.pool 5.kitchen floor 6.the sofa 7. Mutha F'in School 8. in da shower 9. on the counter 10. on the beach 11. in a hot tub 12. on a trampoline!!! 13.in a tree house 14. in a lake 15. Outside in the pourin rain 16. in a mr. john (portapotty 17.back row at the movies 18.the park 19.mom's bed 20.front steps 21. someone elses car...while they're drivin 22.in the locker rrom 23.in a pavilion 24.on a baseball field pitchers mound at night 25. in a public bathroom 26. a park slide...haha i bet aint none of ya thought of that 27. Granny's rockin Chair 28. In my room *wink* 29. a roof top 30. in public 31. in an ikea room!!!!! 32. ON the dryer 33. On a boat 34. Sauna room in public, yep and a kid walked in absolutly horrible 35.Reynan-dressing room of Nordstroms 36.At my work; Marriott Hotel, just check in a room when we arent busy and go!!! 37. D'Anna---in a tanning bed!

Dude...
so i'm sorta sick...like...my throat is all messed up. so my voice is pretty much gone... but it's kinda great...because i can do the most perfect impressions of patty and selma from the simpsons!! basically, i sound like a smoker.

Becca Nmi
In addition to being an odd girl for a variety of reasons, I am different than most everyone else in a semi-noticeable way. I have no middle name. My mother has never really explained to me why she chose to not give me a middle name. She always tells me that it was such a stressful time for her and the rest of the family. After all, she was an unwed, teenage mother and the Colonel's daughter. My middle name was just something that she didn't consider. "Huh?" I've asked myself that question many times. "How could she not consider it?" My dear Uncle, who was off making a name for himself in college at the time of my birth, tells me that I have no middle name because even my first name was barely considered. I was supposed to be a boy. I have a boy name, he reminds me - that is, a name that I would have had if I was born the right gender. He likes to irritate me by calling me my boy name, which, in fact, does include a middle name, quite often. He mostly does this when he leav

Screw You Guys...i'm Goin' Home.
Women are a never-ending source of amazement to me; the more they cry out for attention, the more they get it from me and then it's like I'm hearing the crickets chirp. Fine...you know what? You don't have the time for me, I don't have the time for you. It doesn't take an Einstein to know when you've been chatting with your buddies and flirting...I may be dumb, but I'm not stupid. There's no need to blow sunshine up my ass and say things you really don't mean. If all you want is an ego-boost, let me know ahead of time...I'll be as pleasantly insincere as I can be just so you can feel better about yourself...cuz it's all about you...right?

Mom
Mom..it's been 5 years today that you were so violently taken from us..Never did I know that when I told you goodbye that morning that it would be the last time we would see you alive. You were My best friend for 45 years..and not a day goes by that I don't miss you. The days we spent together are always remembered and cherished.. There is NO ONE that ever replaces a Mother,and there will never be a better friend to Me.. ALL taken away by a fuckin Crackhead!!! I LOVE YOU MOM!!! R.I.P. Edith Mae "edie mae" Jordan. 4/24/37-2/1/02

Booty Call Agreement
Booty Call Agreement This pre-booty call agreement (hereinafter referred to as the "Agreement") is entered into on the _____day of __________, 200_ ,by_______________________, between ____________and______________. THIS AGREEMENT SHALL COVER THE FOLLOWING RULES AND PRINCIPLES: 1. No sleeping over - unless it is very good and we need to repeat it in the morning. 2. No meeting in public except for dinner or drinks before the events of the evening. 3. No calls before 9 PM - we don't have shit to talk about. 4. None of that "lovemaking" shit - only sex allowed. 5. No emotional discussions (i.e. Where are we heading with this? Do you love me?) The answer is nowhere and no respectively, so don't ask. 6. No plans made in advance - that is why you are called the "backup," unless you are from out-of-town, then it's only a one- time advanced arrangement. 7. All gifts accepted - money is always good. 8. No baby talk - however, d

What's Wrong Here??
what's wrong with my thinking here?? I have spent most of my life, bouncing from job to job, mainly because I lost daycare because my ex would pay them while she had custody. I had alot of friends help me out. Now I am getting on my feet, I will loan people money and , of course they are supposed to pay me back. Of course, that doesn't alway happen, but it's ok. Remember the golden rule?? Also, I am the world's worst housekeeper, am a total slob when I want to be (it comes from years of being alone). I really didn't care. I still have my son living with me, don't charge him much to live here, although he is 22. I loan my daughter and son in law money to buy a car or rent a new house, while I live in a run down mobile home. I give my mom $100 a month to repay her for the money she has given me over the years. Now am being told I need counselling because I let people walk all over me. I admit; I have my insecurities and defense mechanisms, but, who doesn't??

Enough Is Enough!!!!!!
I have gotten the same damn bulletin over and over and over again for the past 10 hours. I really hate to put my bulletin board on "family only" because sometimes I DO get something interesting that I like to read. If I looked a bulletin once then I'm probably NOT going to look at it again... ESPECIALLY if I keep getting the same one over and over. Please.... please STOP THE MADNESS~~~~~~~~~~~

A Teaser Of A New Story
This is a teaser for you too. It is a new story I am writing about a threesome between a guy, his date , and a limo driver. To switch gears and write a story like this from a male perspective is very challenging for me. I really enjoy trying to visualize the imagry as a male and I try to see myself as the female in the story as I write. So it actually becomes a fantasy for me and I am the subject but from a guys sense. Does that make sense? LOL This is the opening for the story and of course it does get much juicier. I may submit this to www.literotica.com next as a short story and see what happens. I will submit it now to my new found editor for the site and see what he thinks of it. As you can see I have been busy writing and that is why you may have found that I am not online much now. Working and writing can consume a bunch of time. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ We were in the back of a lavish black new limousine driving from a delicious dinne

Holy Crap.
look at the shit that just landed in my shout box: DEPRESS AN...: do you ahve a webcam if so want to make $500-2000? DEPRESS AN...: do you have a webcam? followed closely by... longrun: i love great sex id realkly love great sex with you and then... Good Copen...: god damn you have nice big tits tact is just flowin on the tap today!

Private Photos
I have three folders of private photos. Two are for friends to view. One is for family only. The family-only pictures are for my family only because I don't want the rest of you to see them. If I wanted you to see them, I would have put them in the other folders. I thought this was self-apparent. If you ask to be made family so you can see my private photos, I will remove you from my friends list. If you ask to see my private photos and make some sick comment like "incest? intrigued!" you will be blocked. Don't believe me? Just ask this guy: KC Guy@ CherryTAP

Novel
That's the full sneak peek of the story. Let me know what you think. For all things Scarybirds, check out Daughter of Hell's page and the website. I opened my eyes and sighed. That exhale of despair was that same sound that welcomed me every morning. I was so tired of putting up with life. I just wanted to be happy. For one lousy day, I wanted to be able to breathe again. Every time I thought things were starting to look up, the powers that be would send me spiraling down a new hell. I got out of bed and went along with the same mind-numbing routine I always did. I hated my job. The money was decent but I worked ninety-hour weeks. I could never catch up on sleep, and I was losing touch with the few people that I thought might actually give a damn about me. On the way to work, I drove passed the house I grew up in. It was sort of masochistic for me to go out of my way to see something that reminded me of feelings that I will never experience again. I can not recall much but there

Am I The Only One
days have passed and still no sign of us not a hint of what used to be when you lived in that part of me this blinding silence lives in every room of what once was a happy home now we're sitting here all alone could this be that it was all a lie and we're just afraid to say good-bye am i the only one who sees what we've become i see no sense in going on or asking what went wrong we sit and stare at what could be we both just grew apart you see and through no fault of my own it's our house but not a home it's strange to know there's truth in what i say baby, i know you feel the same and the truth is no one's to blame two lonely dreamers playing by the rules all we thought of was me and you now we're faced with the truth i'd love to say that this is all a lie but that just means i'm scared to say good-bye could this be that it was all a lie and we're just afraid to say good-bye days have passed and still no sign of us not a hint of what used to be

Me...right Now
Just wanted to say I am sorry to all of you for not being the happy, cheerful, loving Tink lately that you have come to know on here. I lost the person and relationship I love due to the war - not by death, Thank God...but because of time and distance and the fact that he will be going to Japan after his deployment in Iraq and not coming home to California. It is difficult at best and some days are better than others...none the less, I am hurting a lot and may make comments or statements that are out of character for me or may not be as attentive to you as I would normally be and I APOLOGIZE! Please bear with me during this time...I truly need my friends love, support, patience and understanding. Much love, Tink

Fnck Jedi!
Let me first just say that Josef is the greatest makeup artist to ever live! Tell me I'm wrong, I dare you! and you'll dare me to delete you from my friends list! Jk! So I woke up this morning and I asked Aiden how he wanted to see me today. You know because I'm a service sub. I aim to please. So he said "Fuck Jedi!" If you're familiar with the Jason Ellis show, you'll know what we're talking about! So for my first scene today with Ethan, it was Fuck Jedi! To prepare for my two scenes today, I did some yoga and meditation. I had to get into the right state of mind to suck off two perfect strangers in one day. You know, I may be Belladonna, but I'm also Michelle Sinclair, an ex-mormon from Salt Lake City, Utah. I'm just a gentle kindered spirit. I have feelings too! Just kidding!!! I'm such a silly character! But I did do some stretching because Aiden wanted to see if I could get both legs behind my head. I guess I stretched a little too long for him because eventually he

My Love
commentburner.com I HAVE WAITED SO LONG FOR YOU,MY LOVER, TO COME TO ME, TO STILL MY MIND, MY BODY, MY SOUL. YOUR ARMS BECOME MY SHROUND SO THAT I MAY FIND REST, AND YOU EMBRACE ME THROUGH UNDISTURBED SLUMBER. I WAKE TO WORDS YOU WHISPER AND THEY BIND MY MIND AS EROTICALLY AS THE VELVET ROPE THAT BIND MY WRISTS. MY DESIRE IS A FIRE THAT EVEN THE MOST TORRENTIAL RAIN CANNOT QUIET. MY HEART IT BEATS AND MY BODY TENSES WITH ANTICIPATION OF YOUR TOUCH. AN ETERNITY OF WAITING FOR YOU , MY LOVER , TO BE ONE WITH ME MY MIND, MY BODY, MY SOUL. AND WHEN YOU SHALL PASS FROM THIS MORTAL WORLD, MY SCREAMS OF DESPAIR SHALL PENETRATE THE VERY DEPTHS OF HELL TO CREATE SUCH AN INFERNO THAT EVEN SATAN CANNOT BEAR, AND I PREPARE TO FOLLOW, FOR I KNOW THAT YOU ARE WAITING AND YOU WILL ENFOLD ME TO YOU, FOR I AM YOUR HEART, YOUR BODY, YOUR SOUL.

My Desire
In the still of the evening Without sunlight to intrude I see the twilight's in your eyes As the moon sets up the mood Playing music soft and low While romance fills the air I can't help but feel aroused The very moment you come near You submit to my embrace While candles flick their flame And the smell of sweet perfume Seems to drive my lust insane As I look into your eyes And run my fingers through your hair I taste the sweetness of your neck As I nibble at your ear I then whisper words of love As you answer with a sigh And in a very sexy way Your sweet body comes alive Your the heat of my desire As we slowly come undress I then start to lay you down While you welcome my caress With your luscious sexy curves You have a taste I can't resist And your breast show some response When I touch them with a kiss As I soak inside your love To a sexy love condition Feeling passions start to rise While making love in all positions You give me so mu

Why Do I Bother To Bare My Soul???...
i don't care about ratings... i don't care about crushes... i don't care about comments... i only care about genuine friendships... but it's sad if i have to search for it in here... so tell me... am i a fool to bare my soul?...

People
people are so weird.. they have such a problem with someone and hate them so much yet, they wont stay off thier page and are constantly poppin in and out of thier pics and thier home page..lol i think it is so funny.. get a life people...if ya dont like me or the things i do or say ..then stay the fuck off my page and out of my bizz..have a wonderful day...T

My Own Prison
By trusting in others, I've created a wall, can't be broke through, it will never fall, I thought friends were forever, I was a true friend to you, you hurt lied and betrayed me, I should have knew, I'll live in my prison , safe and alone, a warm dark place where I can be alone, A room with no windows, no need for bars, I will never forgive you, I'll never want out, it's all gone to far, Just stay in your world , with your fake friends and fake dreams, don't act like you care, when chips came down, you where never there, I Created my prison, sweet home to me, no warden no gaurds, no more make believe.... Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Diy
I built a gun rack today. Alright, it was for holding air cannons and smoke-ring guns, but I did feel a twofold surge of manly pride. One, LOOK AT WHAT I HAVE CREATED, or DIY pride and Two, guns. I hate real guns, but mine are cool and make kids laugh, so there.

After The Dr. Appt. This Morning
Just as I suspected... I have rotator cuff damage in my right shoulder. I received a cortizone shot into the joint... a piece of cake. I am to go to physical therapy for six weeks 3 times each week ... The xray showed that I have a calcium deposit on my joint that is boring a hole into the tendon that goes over the top of the shoulder and down the arm. Surgery may eventually be needed. The pain is worse now after the appointment from all the twisting and strain I put on the joint while being examined. I did notice that the dr. could not take his eyes off of me during the exam and he was a bit more flirtatious than I would expect for a dr. to be on our first visit. It may have been the turtle neck sweater I was wearing which hugged my body. And when I had to remove my sweater for him to give me the shot. I wish I had a camera with me when he tried not to stare at my cleavage as I sat there with only my bra on. Of course I was wearing pants...lol

North Atlantic Sail
North Atlantic Sail by Ms. Cleavage Copyright 2007 I was dining on the deck of my boat and I saw you lying in the deck’s lounge chair sunning yourself in the North Atlantic early evening sun, topless. You only wore the skimpiest of bikini bottoms with white bows of string holding this bottom on your body. Otherwise your body would have been completely nude. What a sight to see on this warm evening. The setting Arctic sun and your loveliness before me were too much for the senses to handle. Your breasts are magnificent. Your nipples are erect with the sea’s air tantalizing them as they are exposed for me and the God’s to see. I walk over to you to offer you a glass of only the finest of desert wines for our post dining pleasures. You open your eyes to see me approach. You offer your hand to receive the glass into the delicate grasp of your fingers. You sit up to drink your wine and your large, delicious breasts settle on your chest to display their ripe firmness. You are spe

Neo
READ THIS BULLETIN FIRST HERE IS THE LINK http://cherrytap.com/bulletins.php?b=1257499482# OK NOW MY PART SINCE THE IDIOT WOULDNT LET ME POST ON HIS BULLETIN..THIS IS WHAT I TRYED TO LEAVE BEFORE I FOUND OUT HE WOULDNT LET ME.. ok im going to leave another comment then im gone..Marq is my friend and a cool guy..He is the founder of the SK family..We do GOOD for people who deserve it..you know this...Tell me once when you've heard a bad thing we have done??..Maybe you should tell the whole story on why hes an "asshole" and not just your sugar coated one...you were a complete dick with the whole Sk situation...You thought maybe you could feed off the popularity...and HOW u deleted him...just a thought..PLUS u using his shit without giving him credit..and lots lots more. you can delete this if you want to...I dont really care...Wow. if you cant handle the remarks you will get from posting shit bulletins like that dont fucking make them. THATS ALL FOLKS. -Ash (I DECIDED

Pay Attention Damn It!!!!
AIGHT CONTEST I'M THROWING, I DID LAY OUT SOME RULES YESTERDAY. COURSE I DIDN'T GET LISTENED TO. I SAID NO FAKE ACCOUNTS!!! BY FAKE A MEAN 6 DIFFFRENT PEOPLE, ALL LEVEL 9, ALL AGE 37, ALL HAVE FAMILY BUT NO FRIENDS, ONE PIC, AND HAVE ONLY BEEN ON CT SINCE THE 15 THROUGH THE 19. SOUND FAMILIAR?!?!? I DUNNO BUT I THOUGHT THAT WAS AN EASY THING TO AVOID, JUST GETTING YOUR FRIENDS TO BOMB FOR YOU CAUSE THIS IS A FREINDLY COMP. I MEAN I KNOW I SAID CHEAT OVER THE LAST WEEK, BUT COME ON I WANT TO BE AT LEAST PAID ATTENTION WHEN I SET A NEW RULE. I SHOULD JUST END IT NOW CAUSE I'M PISSED. INSTEAD, I'M CHANGING THE DEAD LINE. MIDNIGHT, TONIGHT!!! NOT PACIFIC TIME, GOOD OLD EAST COAST TIME. I GOT ONE OTHER LITTLE THING THAT WILL PROLLY PISS BOTH SIDES OFF, BUT NO WORRIES. NOT GOING TO GIVE THE CONTEST TO THE DUDES, OR THE THE ONE WITH THE LEAST VOTES. JUST KNOW WHILE DRINKING AND DRUGGING TODAY, AND DID I MENTION I HAVE SLIGHT ANGER ISSUES??? REMEMBER THE EAR? I GOT A BRAIN STORM, BRAIN STORM W

Tell Me In One Word!
You know someone had a bullentin out that said to describe in one word what you think of me.I thought that was just to damn cute.I loved it.So I thought why not put a blog up & maybe it wouldn't go to my shoutbox or private mail like it did in the bullentin. Now when doing this please repost this anyway you wish & I will damn sure tell you in one word what I think of you.So if you post here I will post there.(Fair Enough)I know the little games we play but hey I am bored here in utah.

Friends
Well after long thoughts about the friends list last night and this AM , I must say I have several friends some speak to me , some are jealous for no reason, some only added me for points , and I have some that true are my friends and speak to me. After all this maybe the internet but I do have feelings. I am posting this to see really what true friends are there. I will give this a matter of 3 days to hear a reponse from my friends then it is time to throw the ones out who are just on my list for no reason. I will let you decided if you are gonna be a true friend. A simple I wanna remain friends or throw me out is easy to repond to. I am not here to be a puppet on a string , drama, or your sex buddy, Yes I know I have sexy pictures that is because I am proud of how well I take care of my self , body , and soul. Thank you very much have a wonderful day Much Love Angel in Waiting

Supporting The Troops
supporting the troops isn't the same thing as supporting the war. After all, the current adminstration isn't supporting them. We went into this war under false premises, didn't give them the equipment they needed, and spread them too thin to do any good. Then tried to put in a government headed up by a man that is wanted by at least 2 Middle-Eastern Governments for monetary fraud. Now that the public is waking up to the non-commitment to the war, the current administration is trying to place a bandaid by only commiting 30,000 new troops when the advisory commitee recommented at least 3 to 4 times that many. And we never should have gone in because had nothing to do with 9/11. We all ready had our troops committed to Afganistan. As far as I am concerned, they should be impeached for perjury for the lies they told the UN and the American public. So, just let it be said, I support the troops because they are doing their job by following their orders, but not the war, becau

Dating On The Tubes
After witnessing me flip out for what was probably the second time in a month, a friend on here suggested to me that perhaps I should sign up for a dating service so I could meet some "real life" people in my area. A month and a tantrum later, I created a profile on a dating site. The profile shows a bit of my bitchy side, as I don't want a bunch of wife-and-baby seekers contacting me. In that profile, I tried to offer a more "real" version of sugar--someone who is smart and sassy and who is looking for someone equally smassy. I’ve had the profile for about a month now, and my experience with it has been, well, less than satisfying. It's a bit like the people powered mower, if you will. The first few people who contacted me were frightening. The first message was from a 34-year old goateed man. He wrote: -------- Hey Now [Sugar], Name's Mick. Maybe you've been looking for me. I've read a book or two. Fiction or nonfiction? Literature or biography or history or techni

My Secrets
1. Is that your natural hair color? Well yes and I have highlights 2. Where was your default pic taken? outside my house 3. What's your middle name? Marie 4. Your current relationship status? I have no fucking idea 5. Honestly, does your crush(s) like you back? Again...No fucking idea what he thinks 6. What is your current mood? agitated 7. What color underwear are you wearing? Black 8. What makes you happy? (honestly) My kids and my friends 9. Are you musically talented? I can play keyboard and flute 10. If you could go back in time, and change something what would you change? So many things 11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be? A bluebird 12. Ever had a near death experience? no 13. Something you do a lot? homework 14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now? I melt with you 15. Name someone with the same b-day as you? Adrian Pasdar 16. When was the last time you cried? this morning 17

Fucking Over It!!
I DON'T WANNA PRESS 1 FOR FUCKING ENGLISH!!!! YA KNOW WHY?? CUZ I LIVE IN THE MUTHER FUCKIN UNITED STATES!! WHERE I WAS TAUGHT TO SPEAK ENGLISH...AND SO WERE MY PARENTS AND THERE PARENTS AND SO FORTH. WHY THE HELL IS OUR SYSTEM SO DAMNED CATERED TO THE SPANISH SPEAKING POPULATION!?!?!?! I DON'T FUKKIN GET IT!! AND YA KNOW WHAT ...I DON'T WANT TO EITHER! MY SON IS HALF PUERTO RICAN ...SO BEFORE ALL OF YOU START THROWING THAT RACIAL CRAP AT ME...THINK AGAIN. MY SON HOWEVER WAS TAUGHT ENGLISH AND SPEAKS ENGLISH AND TAKES PRIDE IN KNOWING IT IS THE LANGUAGE THAT OUR COUNTRY SPEAKS..HERE IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA!! HE WASN'T RAISED AS A CHILD ON SEASAME STREET IN FUCKIN SPANISH OR DORA THE FUKKIN SPANISH SPEAKING EXPLORER..HE WAS RAISED WATCHING CHILDRENS SHOWS > THAT TAUGHT HIM TO LEARN ...ENGLISH!!! AND I WILL PROUDLY ADD THAT HE HAS BEEN AN HONOR ROLL STUDENT FOR 8YRS RUNNING. BECAUSE HE WAS TAUGHT THE IMPORTANCE OF EDUCATION..WHICH BY THE WAY INCLUDES LEARNING TO SPEAK ENGLISH..C

Beautiful People!
Just a slightly different edit of the vid with my wife applying make-up to me. Hell, I feel like Peter Jackson here with the directors cuts. Next movie I do is gonna have fuckin commentries in it. Can you say hell yeah?

Not Everyone Loves Raymond
I remember the exact moment when I knew my marriage was over with. It wasn't a fight, it wasn't a shocking discovery. It was laugh, a hearty chuckle. Let me explain. I was happily married for about a year. My husband and I got along fairly well, we enjoyed each other's company, and the sex was outstanding. After the first year, the sex was still top-notch, but we really couldn't stand each other outside of bed. And so we turned to television. We could both (sort of) toleerate the company of people on the screen, so we preferred them to each other. Mind you, I've never liked television. It was simply that I liked television more than I liked him, so I found myself on the couch a lot, watching shows that I couldn't stand. One night, while at the office late, I was chatting with a co-worker, telling him that I was about to leave and that I dreaded going home to the television. My co-worker, who knew of my marital troubles, asked what my husband was doing, and then cr

Horoscopes
I can’t believe when you meet someone, some people still ask ‘what’s your sign? ‘What’s your sign?’ - how dated is that? Going to ask me if I was at Woodstock too, hippie? It’s stupid - like everyone born within an entire month of me is exactly the same. I was talking to one girl - every bit of conversation would go straight back to that. “You like movies , you drink Miller Lite, you wear a watch? - That is so Scorpio. Looking like you want to slap me to shut me up - totally Scorpio.” Stop saying that! She was so annoying…. I almost didn’t sleep with her. Then the next morning - “Are you going to call me?” Well, I would, but you know us Scorpios.

Grrr
People piss me off. Lets start with the damn point whores. Some of us have been here for a long time and we worked really hard commenting and ratng to get where we are. I personally have done very well here for a sweater girl. (no nudes) WHat pisses me the fuck off is all these contests and giveaways which ARE for the sole purpose to help the person get points so they can have a status. Or the stupid vic giveaways...HELLO those VIC gifts are cheap. You want a vic gift? ill send you one. Friends here are not very loyal and most only care about who can get them where or who atm can make them more popualar. I quit trying to be popular in highschool. Ive done some of the comment bomb contest but its hard to ask your friends to keep commenting. Any comment bomb contest over 3 days is ridiculous. Concentrate on friends not points! Grow the Fuck up

I Am Officially Old!
My 55th birthday was Thursday. I can now just walk away whenever I want, with full retirement. They can tell me to retire if I happen to screw up bad enough, but they can't fire me. The best part is that whatever happens, Tsula has a guaranteed income, and not a bad one, for the rest of her life. So yeah, I'm celebrating being officially old. And fireproof. And still healthy. And may all of my friends be as lucky in their pursuits as I have been!

Please Read And Tell Me What U Think
i just got three messages from cherrytap shop stating some of my pics a nsfw. i want your opinions on this i really do. i have no pics where i am nude. all my pics i have clothes on. but have seen pics on tap where they were fully nude. but did not report them as nsfw. what u think? even said my default pic is nsfw!!!!!!!!!!!

Yet Another Random Jerkoff Who Shouted Me
READ FROM BOTTOM..IT IS TAKEN DIRECTLY FROM SHOUT->toadcreekt...: yea and that "other person" is my gf ....you really do need to get ur self a life there cuz trying to acquire a 19 yr old male ...isnt working for utoadcreekt...: I wish I could go on but I get up for work at 9pm and that is that. hope to catch you again. it doesn't matter what you think of me, just know that some other person really is into you!->toadcreekt...: well use what you want for what ever purpose that you want ...since none are of me i really could care less...toadcreekt...: it's OK, I'm just messaging back to you while I get thru all your pix and download the ones I like so I can "USE" them later! Please think what you will, but I appreciate you!->toadcreekt...: well since i cant convince u i am a male....why dun ujust see me as an uninterested female and leave me alone....either way works for metoadcreekt...: you are just such a perfect example of the sort of girl I wish would magically find me attractive and

To My Cherries
Sweet, kind, sexy Amazing Generous So many words fit Them all We share laughter And tears We provide Ventilation Change our atmosphere A creature inside me Whose release You supply Effective affection Not time gone To waste If ever given Temporary possession Of your soul I know I can Make it smile My friends My Cherries The cyber angels Sent thru the waves To enchant me For a while Over & Over Again

A Tale Of Two Bunnies
The story behind 'fuzzy bunny': This story is actually about a fluffy bunny but when I named myself on CT I improperly used fuzzy and decided to just leave it. I have a house in Michigan that my business partner and I are fixing up and renting out. I used to work with him at Coachmen RV and sometimes my 'plumber's crack' would present itself. He would always tease me about it, and when I would appologize he'd tell me he thought it was cute. I was up working in my house in MI one day and was sitting on my knees working on the second floor. I felt a draft in said plumber's crack, and the way it worked out there was the bathroom mirror positioned next to me making it possible for me to witness this glorious sight first hand. I got such a kick out of it I went to tell him. He said, "I told you it was cute, didn't I?" and I responded, "it's not as cute as a fluffy bunny, but yeah, it's cute." Therefore, lacking a better idea for a name, I erroneously deemed myself fuzzy b

Squirting
aighty i figured i would edumacate all squirting feens and anyone you reads this... i got bored of explaining this actually so i went searching and found my fav explation... so i would like to thank http://www.very-koi.net/tutor/female/female.htm for there very indepth teaching... all i have to say is have fun reading. if i offened anyone oh well stop bieng prude... History of Squirting If you were to refer to literature over the last 50 years you would be lead to believe that females have only been able to ejaculate since about 1980. Of course this is absurd, and just shows how "the experts" can be wrong for decades on just about anything. Many knew the experts were wrong, but had little success in convincing anyone. Needless to say this lead to many problems, needless surgery (to fix the poor women who would ejaculate), expensive counselling (got to find out what happened when they were children to cause this "problem"), and in some cases divorce. "The G Spot" by Alice Kahn L

The Way I Feel
alone, hurting, sick, empty, helpless, hopeless, needing, wanting, wanted, needed, longing, searching, reaching, finding, losing, abandoned, lost, found, open, closed, dark, broken, wore down , decieved, betrayed, loved, I hate these feelings, I feel inside tonight.. The Way I Feel ( 12 Stones ) by flycodes.com

Deleted Mum
I posted a mum last night that the Admins apparently decided was NSFW or offensive. Imagine that... me posting something that someone would find offensive. Quite frankly, I'm shocked. This was the mum, or a fair paraphrase of it: "your hott wana cyber?" Does misspelled cyberbabble turn you off? That is, does someone telling you, "your hott i wana cum in ur pusey" make you wish you had never discovered instant messenger? Or--for men--does reading "ur sexy i suk ur cok n mak u cum wit mie tung" make you wish your dick had a literacy requirement? A. No spell = No cyber B. Piss in my gene pool

Reelin' Em In/nfl
Three teams loading for the Super Bowl run, and one of which I guarantee will make it are: Patriots, Broncos and Niners. The free agency has been good to these teams, now let's see them duke it the fuck out! Oh, BTW, I hate the Pats.

Skins I Have Created Section 1
hello everyone i just recently learned how to make skins and im loving it , it can really be addicting. and since i love all my cherry friends so much i have been trying to make a variety so that hopefully all of my friends can find something. my skins are available to rip all i ask is that you leave me a comment letting me know what you think of them so i know if im doin any good or not. also would love to have some ideas of what you would like to see me do as well. and of course anything you want to do for me in return would be greatly appreciated. below are the headers of ones i have made as of now ,and are available for use. but you really need to browse my skins go to to bottom and preview them to get the full effect. *****pls repost this so that everyone can see it pls and if you make it a sticky let me know and i will make you a custom skin of something you like with your name on it.****** love n bites embyr embyr ~Lioness of The Flesh ~Co Founder of LDC Family~*~Foun

Life
Life sometimes is not fair and sometimes life can be beautiful....From a birth of a baby to a death of someone or something that is dear... From every situation there is a reason why it is so....for we might not know that reason.....but we just look at it have face it is to be..... When I was a child I always believe that when you die you become a star in the galaxy with all the others that has gone....I still believe that is so today....My thoughts are you are never alone..... I haven't given up even though at times I wish life will hurry up but life is funny that way the more you want it to hurry up the more slower life becomes... So to all my friends whom I am truly am grateful of knowing til the day come when I stop breathing I will live life as it comes to me.... " For Death Is No More Than A Turning Point Of Us Over From The Time To Eternity" **WILLIAM PENN** I am taking life as it comes....Like all of us.... Who know what the future may hold.....

Happy Birthday, Honey
I know this odd couple. They're both about 23, maybe 24 years old, both still in school, both pursuing the same degree. He's about 5'8", quite smart, but completely nondescript. He is an unflavored, unsalted rice cake. She's about 5'10", brilliant, and gorgeous. Perfect skin, model face, model body, long beautiful dark hair. She is a value-size pouch of PopRocks. They're engaged, and he is completely doomed. They compete against each other in school, for jobs, at play... and she beats him at everything, every time. He should just thank her for humbling him for this long and move on with his penis still intact. I heard a story about them the other day, though, that completely blew my mind. As in, it gave my brains a stellar blowjob. I came all over my own face. The inside of it, of course, but still... amazing. For his birthday, she gave him anal. As a gift. As in, Happy Birthday, unwrap my asshole. A friend told me this story, and I was shocked.

Ratings
Don't you just love it when somebody gives your profile or one of your pictures a low rating, and they can't even be big enough to say they did ? Not that it really matters in the real world but come on at least be brave enough to let it be known you did it. i have to wonder how they handle real life situations....do they still hide behind moms skirt.....lol. well I feel so much better now that I got that off my chest

My Inspiration
I WONDER WHY IM ON THIS EARTH TODAY WITH ALL THE HURT AND SUFFERING IN MY LIFE BUT EVERYDAY IS A BONUS AND I RAISE MY HEAD UP HIGH TO SHOW THE WORLD IM A SURVIVOR AND IM VERY PROUD TO SAY SO MANY THOUGHTS OF HOW TO MAKE THINGS BETTER ARE RUSHING THROUGH MY MIND OF INSPIRATIONAL FRIENDS WHO SPARE ME THERE FREE TIME OF SMELLING ROSES IN A GARDEN TO BEING THERE FOR ME this poem is dedicated to RIGRAYWOLF a very special friend who inspired me

My Sons Farewell Words To Iraq
Wednesday, March 28, 2007 Brotherhood 1st off I want to start by saying as much as I hate this country I would come back any day of the week, not because I like war or the adrenaline rush of getting shot at and shooting back, but because of the brothers to my left and right and all the others, I would do anything for any for the guys I've grown to know and love and they would do the same in return, The secondary goal here besides the mission is to bring as many of your brothers back home safe to live another day with their loved one's. Despite the harsh facts that going to combat your gonna have casualties. It's just a fact we can't avoid no matter how good you are or how much high speed training you have somebody's gonna get hurt or worse, you just expect the worst and hope for the best, and pray every chance you get. Well I'm gonna end by saying thanks to all my brother's and the families and friends that have sacrificed so much through this whole ordeal. Want to t

I'm Sorry For My Pessimism
Really... very sorry for being so down lately. With my operation coming up- having my lower intestines removed- (April 5th... wish me luck- and a fast recovery... and hope they don't find cancer) you would think fate would be just a little more kind. Nope.... all at once the bad news starts pouring in from every corner of my life. Starting with my boyfriend leaving me. Nice timming don't you think? My brother decided to enlist... he's going into the special forces- well done bro, thanks. And other little details, that alone seem trivial, but compounded seem foreboding, like a granite tower of obstacles. Anyway... not looking for pity or sympathy... I want to appologize for the little breakdowns I seem to be having along the way. Seems like the closer I get to my surgery- the less optimistic I can remain. Please just be understanding and patient... I'm distracted too... so when I don't have time to talk or I blow you off- understand it's not you. I'm strong- I tend to rebound from

Sensual And Erotic
What is your opinion on what is truly sensual and erotic? No, it's not a quick lay! For example, I find that just kissing can be very sensual (provided it's done right. Or a simple body massage. I think for the most part that people are afraid to unleash their sensuality and really don't have a clue as to what being erotic is all about.

I Am Me
IN ALL THE WORLD, THERE IS NO ONE ELSE EXACTLY LIKE ME EVERYTHING THAT COMES OUT OF ME IS AUTHENTICALLY MINE BECUZ I ALONE CHOSE IT I OWN EVERYTHING ABOUT ME MY BODY, MY FEELINGS, MY MOUTH, MY VOICE, ALL MY ACTIONS,WHETHER THEY BE TO OTHERS OR TO MYSELF I OWN MY FANTASIES, MY DREAMS, MY HOPES,MY FEARS, I OWN ALL MY TRIUMPHS AND SUCCESSES, ALL MY FAILURES AND MISTAKES BECUZ I OWN ALL OF ME, I CAN BECOME INTIMATELY ACQUAINTED WITH ME BY SO DOING I CAN LOVE ME AND BE FRIENDLY WITH ME IN ALL MY PARTS I KNOW THERE ARE ASPECTS ABOUT MYSELF THAT PUZZLE ME, AND OTHER ASPECTS THAT I DO NOT KNOW BUT S LONG S IAM FRIENDLY AND LOVING TO MYSELF, I CAN COURAGEOUSLY AND HOPEFULLY LOOK FOR SOLUTIONS TO THE PUZZLES AND FOR WAYS TO FIND OUT MORE ABOUT ME HOWEVER I LOOK AND AOUND, WHATEVER I SAY ND DO, AND WHATEVER I THINK ND FEEL AT A GIVEN MOMENT IN TIME IS AUTHENTICALLY ME IF LATER SOME PARTS OF HOW I LOOKED, SOUNDED, THOUGHT AND FELT TURN OUT TO BE UNFITTING, ICAN DISCARD THAT WHICH IS UNFITTINGS, KE

Crush
Ok, this may sounds nuts but its driving me nuts! Who has clicked on me, adding a crush...this drives me up the wall and I don't click on crushes...so come on spit it out. Ok, you guys are teaming up knowing this drives me nuts; who just did that? Who is teasing me? If you tell me we can always have Sex on the road....hehehe TomTom

The Gators
This momma gator has decided she likes my yard as her home Can you spot her If I move closer... Can you see her now She is about 9 feet long. can you see the 5 babies with her Cat's not afraid. She likes to throw sticks Cat wins, but the momma will be back soon

I Might
who pays attention? imma bout to delete hydaway, do you want it gone? let me know should i keep it? and ya know im not asking mummers. they are just strange pplz so ill ask you here.. if i dont get responce ill just delete it kk ty

This Is How I Feel Sometimes
4. Jumpdafuckup 2000 Soulfly [w/ Corey Taylor "#8" (Slipknot)] Jumpdafuckup! Muthafucka u don't understand All my hate! Muthafucka u don't understand All my rage! Muthafucka u don't understand All my pain! Muthafucka u don't understand... You seem to sever all my frequencies I'm tethered to your energies And everything turns inside out I can't be killed but I'm not too proud Maybe you would like to peek through the curtain At the same mistake you know you always make But...all I really want to know is Are you gonna lay the fuck back down Or jump da fuck up? Walking in da streets and looking at all this shit I'm full of hate, don't fuck with me Walking in da streets and looking at all this shit Open up your eyes and fucking see We got the tribe against society We got to fight the real enemy Get da fuck up, stand da fuck up Back da fuck up All this is making things a bit insane And I don't care who stares or stays The only thing that matters is

Feeling Great!
For those that haven't talked to me in a while, I've got great news. I finally found the motivation to get things back on track. Last June I slowly let my life fall apart when my mother was diagnosed with cancer. As a result of that I let myself get out of shape and I gained back the 50 pounds I had lost years ago plus some extra. I am proud to say that on February 26th (6 weeks ago) I started eating right again and as of today I was down 20 pounds, only 50 more to go. :) I was able to put on a pair of jeans I bought last August but never fit. I've been going strong and have felt no real desire to cheat. My goal has been 1600-1800 calories per day and 30 carbs and I consistantly stay on target every day. Tonight I did my first real workout in over a year. I'm exhausted but it feels great. I bought a balance ball and 2 pound weights for sculpting and worked out in the basement. Superman stretches, stomach crunches with the weights, push ups, bicep pushes, leg lifts, s

I Do Want Some Cheese With My Wine
So it's friday night and I feel like having a drink of wine. I go to the kitchen get a nice bottle of Pinot Grigio, reach for my wine glass... I reach for my glass and it slips and falls and hits my head. now okay that's not too bad, i am used to crap like that happening (not the most graceful swan on the lake). So, no big deal.... i grab my bottle of wine and my bottle opener! wouldn't you know!!!! My bottle opener is freaking BROKEN!!!!! Okay I admit it... that just down right ticked me off! I took a deep breath and grabbed the next best thing... a screw driver and a hammer. Yep! time to take action in my own hands!!!! so as i start pounding away at this cork that just does not want to budge.. i swear it felt like freaking ages!!! all of a sudden it gives way! yeah you guessed it! not only is the cork swimming in the wine (which i knew would happen) but i am wearing half the freaking bottle!!! hmmm... i wonder if i can squeeze a glass of wine out my shirt???? :)

Tears Dance In The Garden Of Eyes
Tears dance in the garden of eyes I have been surrounded by your thoughts. Holding the toy of your thoughts, close to my heart The coming and going breaths say to me They pay no heed to me, naive tears They dont stay on the doorstep of the eyes My tears cant cross the step of my eyes it is the work or your thoughts, which "guyon waar" has. By dropping through the eyes, how i wash the tains of the heart when the moon and stars laugh, i stay alone and cry After going far, you have forgotten me How i have wronged you, tell me After making one yours, you shouldnt abuse them Where have you gone after obsessing me with love Without you my heart finds no peace Since you have separated, i cant sleep I hold your pains close to my heart and raise them Tears from your memories, wash my face from remembering you, even my tears cry Matters of my remain in my heart These people ask, and what can i s

Thursday Rant
Good Morning. K this morning has been soooooooooo fun. First yesterday and today I uploaded pics. My family is about all that rated em. PLENTY OF YOU VIEWED THEM. Why not rate em. Rate em a 1 ..I don't care whatever. JUST dont hit and run. Just like my blog. You read the damn thing comment it!. My other bitch is these damn pervs askin me if I wanna watch them wank on cam. I am not that kind of girl. I don't care, I will never ever look at ur penis boyz. And quit asking me to rate ur nsfw pics. You dont get points for it and I don't need subjected to that horror. TYVM And a song cuz I am fookin Pissed

To Women
Getting home tonight, for the first time since Friday, I felt a significant comfort. It's always good to make your way home eventually, despite how much fun you had for the past few days. I kicked off my shoes, and noticed them like gaping maws begging for my feet to be put back in. I ignored their cries and went to the bathroom. This is where I first made this thought. As I finished, I leaned forward and put the toilet seat down before I flushed. Why did I do this? I was raised by women. I was taught the utmost respect for females and I cater to their every whim whenever possible. I have always done the best I can, and usually I understand why certain needs have to be met. However, I do not understand why I have to put the toilet seat down. We, as men, have no problem lifting it up. Even if we get up in the middle of the night, we lift the toilet seat up. It's reflex to us. So why is it that even if you get up in the middle of the night, you fall in the toilet if w

Thoughts
Today has been a trying day and some of my so called "friends" have said some shit to me that has really pissed me off. No matter what I do it seems that people seems to not give a fuck about how they sound to me but can fly off at the fucking mouth whenever they feel the need. I better respect them but they can shit all over me. people come to me with their problems and I try to help out. Sometimes words cannot say how a person feels. Sometimes I am at a loss of words and all I can think of saying is "Oh..ok," or "ummmm...ok." It is not that I don't give a fuck about you or your problem, it is just out of lack of words. But some people react way to fast with their emotions and say any fucking thing to me and I am suppose to just take it? Not no more. So this week I am gonna really evaluate what the fuck is important to me. Who do I want to really get close to? Who do I just want to say fuck off to? Who can I trust to understand me? Who can I trust that actually wants to know ab

What Is Catholism Coming To?
Pope Benedict abolishes limbo The 800-year-old concept of limbo, in which unbaptised babies who die are said to be stuck between Heaven and Hell, has been abolished by the Pope. Benedict XVI said there were 'serious grounds' to believe that children who died without being baptised could go to heaven after all. His decision followed a three-year study by a theological commission. The problem has been the Catholic belief that baptism is the only way to remove the stain of original sin that they think all children are born with. In the fifth century, St Augustine said babies who died without being baptised went to Hell. In the 13th century, theologians came up with the concept of limbo as a place where dead babies were denied the vision of God but did not suffer. The latest report said: 'There is greater theological awareness today that God is merciful and wants all human beings to be saved. 'Grace has priority over sin and the exclusion of innocent babies from Heaven doe

New Update 4/23/07
I went to see the urologist today about my bladder. There is a possibility that my Uterus caused damage on my bladder. He is going to talk to my other doctor and he is going to go in and see whats wrong with my bladder when my other doctor does my hysterectomy. So basically 2 surgical procedures are being done at once. and of course I started feeling better yesterday and now today I am hurting all over again from his physical examination on me. Hopefully I will feel better again by tonight or tomorrow morning. It took a lot out of me just to sit or stand in the office waiting for my doctor to come in. I couldn't sit or stand. ugh! I am trying to see the rainbow on the other side. My post-op appt. is tomorrow 4/24/07 and hopefully she will be scheduling my hysterectomy then. I just want this over. The pain is getting unbearable.

Anyone
Can anyone tell me how someone that is suppose to love you ask you to marry them give you the ring and then turn around and the same day , the very same day of asking you to marry them, tell another person that they care for them and want them? I am at a loss here someone please explain this to me.

Moving And Other Tribulations
Wow, it's been a long time since I've written a blog... It turns out I have some health issues that are resolvable it just takes a lot of work on my part. As in working out, and spending a lot more time in my kitchen working - preparing healthy food. Plus I just got a promotion, sort of... which also means I have to move. That is, unless I want to commute through 40 miles of Seattle's most notorious S curves. So guess who's packing like a mad woman to get ready for this imminent move... Like in a week. And since one of my health issues is high blood pressure.... well, you can imagine. So, yes, I'm sorry, I haven't responded to messages in a while... and I don't remember the last time I shouted anyone but a coupla family members... I'm too busy packing up my life for the second time in a year, making green leafy concoctions for myself to choke down, and panting my ass off on the eliptical machine. And soon I'll be trying to take over a new job and likely working some he

For My Kick Ass Posse Group!!!
♥♥♥ ATTENTION POSSE'S ♥♥♥ I WANT TO MAKE SURE EVERYONE HAS ADDED AND INTRODUCE THEMSELVES TO ONE ANOTHER. WE NEED TO KNOW EACH OTHER. IT MAKES FOR A STRONGER GROUP... I AM COUNTING ON EACH OF YOU TO TAKE AN ACTIVE ROLL IN THIS GROUP IN EFFORTS OF PASSING AROUND TO EACH OTHER IMPORTANT MESSAGES LIKE THIS ONE HERE AND OTHERS THAT MAY COME UP... I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO DELETE ANYONE DUE TO LACK OF BEING INFORMED BUT I NEED TO GET OUR NUMBERS IN ORDER ALSO.. IF SOMEONE GETS DELETED WHO DIDN'T WANT OR EXPECT THAT PLEASE TELL THEM TO COME AND SEE ME. THEY WILL BE ISSUED OUT THE NEXT NUMBER THAT¡¯S AVAILABLE AND ADDED BACK INTO THE GROUP... THEY WILL NOT BE ABLE TO RECLAIM THEIR OLD NUMBERS BACK... THIS GOES WITHOUT SAYING BUT I WILL SAY IT ANYWAY. WE ARE GREAT ABOUT TAKING TURNS IN THIS GROUP. THAT IS WONDERFUL HOW EACH OF US GIVES IN THAT SINCE. NOW WITH THAT SAID MOST OF YOU TOTALLY AGREE AND PRACTICE THIS BUT SOME MIGHT NOT BE AWARE OF THE WE TAKE

Will I Ever Win Just Once??
PLEASE HELP ME .. I WOULD LIKE TO WIN JUST ONCE.. I NEED 5000 COMMENTS AND AT LEAST 500 A WEEK TO STAY IN THE CONTEST.. I WILL SHOW LUV IN RETURN IF NEEDED. THANK YOU TO ALL THAT WILL HELP ME ACCOMPLISH THIS TASK.*MUAH* SO JUST CLICK ON THE PICTURE BELOW AND IT WILL TAKE YOU TO WHERE YOU NEED TO COMMENT AT.. THANK YOU AGAIN

My Bday Prezzie
Ty Baby... I love him!! This is Mooey Bear and he Comes from Vermont! Hes hand made and all that jazz!!! Show my baby some love cuz not all guys would buy their girlie something so cute and sweet for their birfday! þ£ªÿFµ£GøÐ@ CherryTAP

**********passion***********
******************PASSION****************** *************By Magic Mike ************** ******THE POET C-TOWNS FINEST********** Let me take you into a world, that is explored by every man, woman,boy and girl.. It is a world of color and warmth and dreams, and we all search it out it seem's..This is the world of passion where fires of the heart burn, and all will enter only a few to return.. What it is that comes deep from the soul, and turns the meek into the bold..I will give it to you like it happened to me,and if you have been there then you believe.. It was a night out and to the club I went, to spend some money and not mess with the rent.. So at the bar I saw a vision, and in that moment I made my decision.. So I stepped to this dream before me,and said would you like a drink on me.. She laughed and said I see your game, trying to get on before you even know my name.. But I saw you when you first walked in, and I was feeling you even then.. So I said it's all good, and we

The Words Of An Old Painter.....
3 MAY 2007 Yesterday, an unexpected call became the reason of a short trip to the sea. Me and my bosses were suppose to get top Constanta, a city on the shore of the Sea, for business matters. Today, we woke up early in the morning, and after a 2 hours and a half drive, we arrived in Constanta. It has been a sunnybut windy day. I could see from the car, the waves crushing on the shore and i was thinking how much i missed my friend....The Sea. After the worked finished, with a crying voice, I asked my 2 bosses to take me to salute my friend.....MAREA (The Sea, in romanian). The Cliff was almost empty. A "NO FILMING" signwas posted right in front of the stairs leading to the Sea. The Old Casino, almost abandoned was still there.....like in my Childhood. My father used to tell stories about men loosing their fortunes in that place and being forced by honour or pride to kill themselves by throwing from the top of the building on the rocks washed by

Ratings
anything below a ten is hatein how can you come on somebodys page and drop a sorry ass six what did that person do to you don't like the way they look color of their skin you don't like how they on level 20 and you still on level 7 sounds like your persoal thing its all you deal with yourself go hate yourself i know everbody does'nt get along in this world but we on the computer how do you hate thru the computer put down the hateorade get you some kool aid and if still want to hate ok just know this bring hate on my page i will rate ya a 1 and block you

For Dimand Earing Or A Mens Ring =3700
1ST TO DROP 7 COMMENTS ON THE SPONSORS PAGE WINS..NUMBER YOUR COMMENTS 1-7..AS SOON AS U KNOW U WON CONTACT THE SPONSOR NEXT CONTEST SOON AS THE SPONSOR SAYS SHE HAS A WINNER.. ~*~Myth~*~~*Divine*~CT~*Mistress*~@ CherryTAPMAKE SURE U DROP COMMENT ON HER PAGE NOT HERE

What You Guys Think Of A Happy Hour Contest??? Corvette Giveaway....
Comment bombing who ever has most gets the vette? Who actually reads my blogs? Its an idea running thru my head. I never officially had a contest...Anyone, interested?

Update!!!! Plz Read!!!!!
UPDATE!!! With the help of his sister in law.. We have found out that Jeff has a lot of fake accounts in CT. The following profiles are his under different names and pictures. SUPPORT UR TROOPS@ CherryTAP BAD BLOOD@ CherryTAP THE EVIL BITCH ANGEL@ CherryTAP MASTER GUNNERY SGT JEFF ONEILL@ CherryTAP HE IS NOT IN IRAQ AND NEVER WAS! HE IS NOT A MARINE.. NICE COSTUME EH? HE IS A FAKE USING IT TO GET PEOPLE THAT HE CAN TAKE ADVANTAGE OF. HE TRIES TO GET MONEY FROM SINGLE WOMEN TO SO IF YOU HAVE BEEN TAKEN BY HIM.. YOU KNOW HOW TO REACH HIM. THIS HAS ALL BEEN VERIFIED BY HIS COMMON IN LAW WIFE'S SISTER, WHO LIVES IN THE SAME HOUSE WITH HIM. I SEEN HIM ON THE CAM THERE SITTING WATCHING TV. i AM NOT DOING THIS TO BE VENDICTIVE. HE IS TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ALL THESE PEOPLE. THE TROOPS WHO ARE FIGHTING FOR US. THE WOMEN FOR PHONE CARDS, COMPUTER PARTS, AND EVEN TELLS YOU THAT HE WANTS TO MARRY YOU AND THEN WANTS YOU TO SET UP A BANK ACCOUNT AND PUT MONEY IN THERE TO HEL

Cant Say It Enough
i want to thank all the WICKED family that have taken me in.... i hope i do you proud... and to all the peeps ive friended and that have friended me ty so much for rocking out with me... bring in ur friends to ct and stuff get them to join so they too can rock at WICKED INTENTIONS .... ty jules and kev.... and special ty to trin and mystic... u guys boost me so high ... *blushes* so much love all around if it wasnt for all of u i wouldnt be living my dream of being a dj CRANK IT UP!!!!!!!!!!

Jus Like You
Im tired of lookin out my window, seein shadows of you. And I cant hang out wit my girls cuz im checkin my rearview. You callin, breathin all hard like I cant hear you. And everytime I go to the club you just happen to be there to. All I ever wanted was to be with you but when I needed you, I had to compete with clubs, drugs, the streets, and PS2. Out all night chasin bitches, with ya weak ass crew. But I guess when you're in Rome, you do what Romans do. but, uh, they go home alone. Just like you. Wishin they would've held on. Just like you. Probably callin, playin on phones. Just like you. I'm so through dealin with niggas. Just like you. Cause I done had a few niggas. Just like you. I had the ballin type that call all night, keep claim he comin through. I had the CEO, that would bring me dough, cause he thought he had something to prove. I had the so called "God Man" who thought he could do everything God can. So he was closer to

A Friend
A FRIEND IS IS SOMEONE WHO WILL PLAY, AND WILL ALWAYS STAY. A FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO'LL GIVE A SHOULDER TO CRY, AND DOESN'T CARE IF ITS DRY. A FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO CAN CONFIDE, AND ALWAYS GIVE YOU A RIDE. A FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHOM YOU TRUST, EVEN THRU SMOLDERING DUST. A FRIEND WILL BE THERE FOREVER, AND WILL NEVER SAY NEVER. A FRIEND WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART, WITH EVVERY NEW DAY'S START. THIS BLOG IS DEDICATED TO MY TRUE BEST FRIEND.... YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.......

Hit & Run On My Son .........
Today, "Mothers Day" ................. My son was hit on his skateboard by a car with two young kids in their early 20's.... Heavy Sigh They didn't stop to see if he was ok, they slowed down just a bit and then sped off as if they didn't care, there was 2 friends along with my son when this happened and several by standers who saw it all.... My son suffered from very badly bruisings on his butt and up his lower back along with his leg, and a broken wrist (cracked) other then that he is ok Please ALL take the time to think when behind the wheel driving ANYTHING, you can seriously hurt someone.......... My 17 year old son was LUCKY today !!! it could have been his life taken away..... I guess my gift for mothers day was my sons life!! and I'm very Thankful for that !!!

I'll Kick Your Grass
I just mowed my front yard. It took about fifteen minutes, with my lovely people-powered mower. I did the back yard last night--also about fifteen minutes of work. Well, work might be an overstatement. I mowed while I was on the phone with my mother and sister, wishing them a Happy Mother's Day. I absolutely adore my people-powered mower. I think it's divine. No messing with gas or oil, no loud noises or lung-clenching clouds of dust and clippings. My mower's so clean--and the act of mowing so idyllic--that I mow in a skirt, generally, plodding around my yard in flip flops. I'm thinking about installing a beverage holder on the handlebars of the mower, but I don't know how well that would work. Regardless, it would be fun. There are a few problems with the mower, though. First, it doesn't cut dandelion stems very well. And since I'm not the kind of person who likes to dump a lot of chemicals on my lawn, I have a few dandelions. OK. I have a lot of dandelions. I've

Dear Hater
DEAR HATER I WANT THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY PAGE AND HATEIN ON ME JUST WHEN I'M FEELIN DOWN YOU COME BY TO HATE ON ME I SAW THAT 3 YOU LEFT ON MY PIC AT FIRST I GOT MAD BUT I LET IT GO CAUSE I DON'T HATE YOU I DON'T KNOW YOU TO HATE YOU SO I GO TO YOUR PAGE I WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU HATE ME THEN I SEE WHY YOU ONE ULGY BASTARD YOUR MAMA LOOKING SHE DRANK A FIFTH OF (OH HELL NAW) CAUSE THATS WHAT I SAY WHEN I SEE HER YOUR SISTER WILL HAVE SET A BEAR TRAP TO GET A MAN, YOUR WIFE HIT EVERY BRANCH OF THE ULGY TREE WHEN SHE FELL OFF TWICE YOU STILL DON'T KNOW IF THE KIDS ARE YOURS ALL THAT GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE BUT YOU FIND THE TIME TO COME HATE ME THANK YOU HATER WITH YOUR HATE I FIND THE POWER TO RIZE AND NOW I KNOW WHY YOU HATE ME SOME MUCH YOU WANT TO BE ME BUT THE WAY I SEE IT YOU GOT IT GOING ON YOU GOT WIFE ,KIDS , STAY AT HOME WITH YOUR MOMS, I DON'T HAVE ANY OF THAT SO MY LIFE IS NOT A BED OF ROSES I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SEE I NEED AN ARMY TO SOLVE THE CRAP IN MY LIFE B

If A Man Wants You
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man wasn;t treating you as you deserve then heck no you can't be friends! A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better". You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've gotten a bunch of children by a bunch of women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends se

Something That Bugs Me
I am having issues today. I would make a mumm but the mumm people are mean. So here it is. It may be a ME thing cuz i have issues. Do you men all like chicks who shave off thier eyebrows and paint them on? I think it looks scarey. I was blessed with nice eyebrows but it just looks weird to me. So is it sexy?

Gus Riding
YOU WILL LIVE ON Tall man in leather with animal grace Such depth in your eyes what a beautiful face You stole my heart when you gave me your soul I still hold it inside but I'm a fragile bowl How I miss your deep voice softly speaking my name Or calling me "Sugar" lighting my flame I so miss everything about our life The way that you asked me and made me your wife You made everything else, me happy most of all When we ate you cooked it You made the art on our wall You made our nest perfect you made me walk tall I miss the ways that you loved me How you loved to wear black Your tattooed shoulders Your tattooed back My face misses your hands My body does too My head on your chest Hand stroking that tattoo Your strong arms around me Holding me tight Kept me close to you All through each night Your voice in my ears Professing your love Making me laugh Dispelling my fear

I Will Mention No Names But This Is How I Feel And Take It For What Its Worth Please Comment We All Want To Know How You Feel
I wish we could have just one day When we'd all be together again When everything would be okay A break from how it's been I doubt we've ever gone more than a week Without some tragedy striking A little excitement we seek But this is too much for anyone's liking I wish we could have just one day Of no sadness, no sickness, no anger, no tears And after we all went away There would be no reason to fear That it would be the last time No reason to wonder whether Another disaster or crime Would keep us from being together Between all the hook-ups and break-ups The specters of death, pain, and heartache The worry, the terrifying shake-ups The love won, lost, doubted, the heartbreak I wish we could have just one day When we could just laugh, joke, and tease I wish all this drama would go away And leave us all in peace

Champagne And Strawberries
dozing in the warm spring sun I wake up and see you laying there and a warm feeling of delight just fills me and I feast my eyes on your body and the soft skin that is so inviting. You are breathing so gently and I cannot resist touching you. I reach out and let my hand follow your wonderful feminine curves, your mound is soft and your nipples have already started to react to the touch as if flicked on by a switch. I run my hand down your legs and up again over your mound and tummy just hesitating in your navel area drawing little circles with my finger, I move my face to your body and let my tongue circle around your hard nipple closing my lips around it, feeling the warmth of you on my tongue. I move to your nape of your neck and kiss you around your ear and then kiss you on the lips and I can feel the hunger and passion for you rise in my loins. I want to please you orally and taste your wonderful sweet femininity but not just that I want to mingle your sweetness with some cha

Why Is Wrong To Feel?
In rebuttle to those whom have given me shit and called me a pussy for havin feelings and tryin to express them. First of all, FUCK YOU! Yes I am a man and yes I have feelings. Does that make any less of a man? It's not just other men that seem to think that men should not express their emotions. I have gotten comments by women as well, sayin that I shouldn't exprss myself like that cause it makes me look like a pussy! Well here it is! I am a human being! As tough as I want to be and have to be I have feelings too! So if you don't appreciate how I personally feel or choose how to express myself then fuck off! If you wanna test my bravado to see if I'm tough enough to be a man then step the fuck up! If you can fight me then you can hug me! That is what real human beings do for eachother! I jut don't get how expressing your heart makes a inferior impression of you on certain people!

What Do You Consider A Friend?
OK... I really have to wonder as to what CT is all about. There are those that are Family - those who I am blood or related to in some way or another or have a variety of contact with outside of CT, then there are fans - yeah - even Derek Jeeter doesn't know I exist yet I still am a fan of... But Friends on CT... That is a whole other genre. What makes a friend? Is it someone that actually takes the time out of their busy schedule to once in a while drop a line, have a chat in the shoutbox, drop a comment every now and then, send a message to, rate new items in pics, stashes and blogs and really tries to keep in touch like many on my list (that is constantly growing because I give everyone that actually reads my profile and respects my wishes from the get go a chance to prove them self that they want to be a friend) or is it truly "cherry pickers"? I know I am not perfect, but I do at least try to be a friend that keeps in touch with the people on my friend list once a week. Thi

Moron Contest, Result Just In.........
->redneck770...: and learn to fucking spell, you sound like a retard redneck770...: i have both.. go fck your self you ugoly old russin douchebag ->redneck770...: what are you talking about, you moan and grumble*, get a job or a life........ ->redneck770...: i think the word you are trying to write is "about" redneck770...: with that comment you shouldnt be whining abotu bad pres ->redneck770...: In English ? redneck770...: with that comment you shouldnt e whining abotu bad press *in a long and detailed and whiny bulletin (featuring lot’s of screen shots) I was only talking last night with the bucket about how long till i got some retard yell, comment or whine at me who failed to recognize the second most powerful man in the world, i said 4 days, it appears even i misjudged the stupidity of some, only took 3.…… America weep for your children. First prize in the moron contest goes to this ---->

Just Needed To Get This Off My Chest! Lol
This has been building up now for a long time. I actually used to go through my Friends List every so often to "clean out" the people that I had never heard from. Alot of people just want to see how many friends they can get. They never say one word to ya even if THEY are the one that requested to be friends in the first place. lol Yes, I know I have WAY too many so called "friends" on here. But honestly, I just got tired of going through and deleting people because it's a HUGE pain in the ass!! lol And I will also admit that I don't rate everybody's photos, I used to but got tired of rating photos for people that never rated mine or even took a minute to say "Hi". Now, if I am the one that sends a Friend Request, I always rate the persons photos. I'm not on here to "collect" friends or just for ratings. I have actually met ALOT of really good friends here. But the thing that made me break down tonight and write this is... I noticed one of my "friends" uploading photos tonight. Being t

The Saddest Day Of My Life
as of recent my best friend of 14 years died. my dog. i got her for my birthday 14 years ago today. her name was maggie and was the best friend i could ever ask for. i dont really know what else to put in here at this time except for the fact that i miss her so much. rest in peace maggie, you will be greatly missed and always in my heart.

My Love Is A Flower
Bad poetry by Becca! ************ My Love is a Flower My love is a flower with a delicate petal You make me crazy, like bad heavy metal. I yearn for you tragically, it said in the book But your Mom hates me, she says I can’t cook. I look at you and think you are a cutie All you say is that I have a big bootie. When you are away, I remember you by wearing your shirt You just yell at me to stay out of the dirt. My love is a flower, a rose with no thorn You like to push on my boobies like they were a horn. I giggle at your humor, I laugh at your jokes My uncle put all of your baseball cards right into the spokes. I call you up and wish you were here On your way home, you say, after just one more beer. Driving to me, you get a DUI from Officer Harris You did it on purpose so you could spend the night with Paris. My love is a flower with a scent like nectar You are secretly in love with a fellow named Hector You confess this to me, it comes as a shock Whe

Draw Me A Picture....cry Me A River...
"Draw me a picture...cry me a river..." That's the theme of today's special edition of "Real Life on Tap" as I like to try and talk about, vent about and such. Things that people do and how they act on here sometimes defies all logic and common sense. Personal interactions with people normally, let alone in an online social site such as this take on a different meaning for each individual that logs into here, whether it be with one profile, or for some people on here, multiple profiles. Today's topic is the now-apparently-departed web author Jeremy Crow. Jeremy Crow has for quite some time now, taken an apparent dislike to the level of near obsession, to me and the Orly owl, my brother and even my girlfriend as well as some other notable cherrytap figures whose names I won't mention here. Calling us "fakes" and "frauds" while in the same click of the keystroke claiming that he was not here for rates, popularity, etc..etc. Sometimes Mr. Crow's "Musings" sounded more like jealo

All You Need Is Love? Lmfao!
So, last night (UK time) I noticed a little bit of drama in the MuMMs and being drunk and stoned I decided to make a MuMM encouraging people to be nice to each other, say nice things to each other... ...well, Ginger posts a booby pic of herself and the next thing I know is that the lovely lady MuMMers are showing themselves in all their fuckin glory. I now know some of these women better than their own fuckin doctors, heheheh. Anyway, I got to bed at 5am Sunday (UK time), get up around 5 hours later, go out and do some shit, come back home a couple of hours later and open my MuMM and there's over 5,000 views and 1,000 comments. And a shit load of pics of Bat's cock... You tell me - is "show some love" US slang for get your freak on? heheheh. Click link below to view this MuMM (click "view all" comments in the MuMM - it'll only take you about 20 mins to read the whole fuckin thing) CT NUDE FEST! Gotta fuckin love you guys...

Chapter 3: The Picnic
I’m sitting in my back yard, staring up at two giant oaks that shroud my little grassy nook for most of the day, thinking of how different this is from where I grew up. I grew up on the great plains, able to see farther than my short legs could carry me. My parents’ farm was eight miles from the nearest town, which was home to twenty people. The second-nearest town was a booming metropolis of four-hundred. Lacking any kind of social outlet on the farm, I turned to books for entertainment and company. I read voraciously. Mostly crap. My parents’ book collection consisted of the bible and a few self-help books, as well as a guide to stain removal. The selection of books available at the library wasn’t much better. I went to an under-funded catholic school, and the library was one room, about the size of my bedroom. The school’s book collection was much like my parents’, minus the stain-fighting recipes and plus a shelf or two of Nancy Drew. Even if there had been a greater

The Storm
The mumms suck, and I'm feeling creative, so I'm going to write. What you are about to read is an unedited rough draft. This is what pours out before any edits or proofreading. This is my raw writing at its finest. The Storm A brilliant flash of light illuminated the dark room, followed shortly by the rumble of thunder. Michael loved this kind of night. The electricity in the air always energized him, and had the added effect of scaring his cat, who always curled up in his lap, shivering when the thunder rattled the house. Michael sat petting his cat, listening to the heavy rain rumbling on the roof, the dull roar penetrating the room. His cat, Circe, purred loudly, almost drowning out the sound of the rain. Michael wondered why he wasn't outside, letting the rain cleanse his body and soul. Most often when it stormed like this, he'd enjoy the rain and the electricity he felt being in the middle of the storm. He supposed that with the power outage tonight, he'd

"transition" (explicit!!!)
(Inspired by the track "H." by Tool and a friend) "Transition" I leaned up against the wall. My eyes looking up to the place where your eyes will be, staring at me staring at you. I can feel your soul and my clit jumps. That warmth, wetness and aching emptiness for you between my thighs...I close my eyes. My heart's pounding and I recollect a memory of a touch I have yet to feel. Soft yet firm, pleasure and pain. My back arches to you, my invisible lover, my dear friend. I turn my head to the right and expose my neck to you...to...devour me....consume me. My hands find their way behind my back and they stay there. Phantom fingers pry at my soft folds...searching for deliverance. Ahhhh.......slick, salty & intoxicating. You plunge your hands into the core of my soul. Your mouth searching hungrily for...more. Biting my lips, sucking my tongue...writing stories to me with your tongue on my neck. I'm moaning but keeping my station on the wall. OMG....my