Fubar Blog Posts 4

Wow I Am A 1
I guess I have a new friend lol she rated me a 1...I really think some here get off on down rating...to me it is just people being hateful...just needed to get it off my chest that she down rated me so low ...I do not think anyone deserves a 1.... http://www.cherrytap.com/user/950058

Ok This Is Bullshit
I have had this pic up since Jan. of 07 http://cherrytap.com/viewimage.php?u=41567&albumid=6285&i=1747316640 Now all of a sudden it is NSFW? What the hell? How can ART in the first place be NSFW? I don't get that in the least...I swear there are ppl on here that have nothing better to do than to find something to bitch about...I am really glad my life is not that sad...if you don't like something don't fucking look, it is rather simple. I REALLY hate fuckwads that wanna bitch about something instead of just walking away..If you don't want to watch a t.v. program turn it, if you don't want to listen to certain music, turn it, if you don't want to see my fucking pics DON'T FUCKING COME TO MY PROFILE, simple huh? Now back to your narrow minded life....

Love Is
Love is like a passionate desire that no one can obtain unless they work at it. It’s more than a feeling or concept that everyone seems to use without knowing its true meaning. People in today’s twisted, unrealistic society misunderstand the three little words that make a relationship thrive with life. They take those words and throw them around like a football, throwing it at a different person, not knowing if it’s real or just some simple way of getting the girl. Experiencing love is the greatest aspiration that two people can engage in. Love is not just some made up feeling of hope or lust; yet, it’s a emotion that blossoms when two people realize that they make that other persons’ heart skip a beat. It’s that feeling that they get when the other person walks into the room and their heart drops to the flooring knowing that the other person makes them truly happy. Be devoted to the other person mind, body, and spirit is what makes the relationship stronger everyday and by havi

Father's Day.
For a few of my friends out there, you are aware that I am a father. I have a 10 year old daughter out in the world. I say it this way, because the last time I really heard from her was over 4 years ago. Today really gets to me, not because I am considered a father, but because some of those out there that get praised for creating a child, yet do nothing to support them. Granted, I could do more for my daughter, even if I get no response from it ... but what about those that could do more for their children ... and choose not to? Why give them praise and credit? I think the single mother's that raise the children should get praised on Father's day as well. They are acting in the role of father & mother. A grand feat very few can handle. Now, I am guessing that my friends that do stop to read this, will see I mentioned that I was a father and leave cute lil graphics and messages for me. If you'd like, you can ... I don't feel much like a father, let alone a human being on

A Groaner (don't Say I Didn't Warn You)
A sailor was caught AWOL as he tried to sneak on board his ship at about 3 a.m. The chief petty officer spied him and ordered the sailor to stop. Upon hearing the sailor's lame explanation for his tardiness, the officer ordered the sailor, "Take this broom and sweep every link on this anchor chain by morning or it's the brig for you!" The sailor picked up the broom and commenced performing his charge. As he began to sweep, a tern landed on the broom handle. The sailor yelled at the bird to leave, but it didn't. He picked the tern off the broom handle, giving the bird a toss. The bird left, only to return and light once again on the broom handle. The sailor went through the same routine all over again, with the same result. He couldn't get any cleaning done because he could only sweep at the chain once or twice before the blasted bird returned. When morning came, so did the chief petty officer, to check up on his wayward sailor. "What in the heck have you been doing all night? Thi

Making Time For An Ldr
I have been in two long distance relationships in the past year. I am involved in neither of them now. There is a reason for this. Many do not understand the time that must be commited to communication. If it is a casual relationship, it is no big deal. But, when You add in the factors of making it a D/s relationship, you must, beyond any and all things, find time to communicate. I have found, most submissives, are ready and able to spend this kind of time with thier Dom's. It is the Dom's that have issues with finding the time, and ability to share with thier submissive. Communication between D/s couples is key in maintaining power exchange, mutual interest in the relationship, and the bonding factor that makes it D/s in the first place. So, how is a submissive to feel close to her/his Dom, if they are not around to communicate with. The Key factor here is MAKING TIME. Most submissives need to feel loved, wanted, safe, and get those lil fuzzies knowing that the Dom that they have

The Voice Of A Viper
The Voice of A Viper For many moons before you came, I roamed this land, untouched and free. The ones who knew me revered me. I was like a god in this land, limbless and unblinking I traversed the plains, mountians, streams, forests and trees. All was my domain, save for the air. I renewed myself seasonally, keeping an appearance of eternal youth. My scales were called beautiful, my colors too. And then...you came. With you came fear and misunderstanding. With you came guns and a religion that was against the natural order. You called me 'hideous' and 'the devil itself'. You called me 'disgusting' and 'slimy'. You took the ones from me who knew and understood me. You took me and the rest like me and broke our backs under your bootheels. You threw us in pits with no food or water, making us wallow in filth and hunger for months. You smashed our heads to the ground, cut them off, but we could still see and feel. You ate our flesh and wore our skin. And yet, you ca

A First Time Poem...(i'm New At This So Bite Me Lol)
I think of you You fill my thoughts My ever-waking nights I don't know why But I like it. You touch my dreams The way you smile A light that beckons me Warming me from within Keeping the nightmares away. My days are lost Without you here My loneliness an empty ache My soul crying out, alone, Always for only you. You bring out the best of me Everything I am, all that is good, I thank you for I am nothing without you You complete me. (that was my first attempt at poetry. if you liked it, then respond and let me know. If you didn't, don't waste your breath and my time with a response. Thank you and have a nice day. hehe)

Tomorrow Will Be 30 Days
Yes I beg alot....I am needy, whiney and nothing's gonna stop me now....Tomorrow will be my 30 days since joining CT. I would really like to lvl to Cherry Assassian by than. I ran a contest which is not going so well to try to achieve my goal. So i am asking for my friends and family to please bomb those contestants, which will help me reach my goal and also help the contestants win their blast. Just pic ur true favorite and bomb away. Thanks to everyone and for those who know me, anytime you need bombed, u know I am there. ~Angel~

Time For A Sweet Treat!
Strawberry Soda-Pop Cake: White Cake Mix Strawberry Jello Strawberry Soda-Pop Whipcream Vanilla Pudding (instant) is best Ok Take the white cake mix and do has normal, once the cake as cooled fully take a fork and poke holes all thur the cake. Take the Strawberry Jello and add the one cup of boiling hot water to melt the jello but don't add water add strawberry soda-pop. Once mixed up pour over the cake, place in Frig for about 1 hour. Take the instant vanilla pudding and mix as the box says place in frig for 10 mins. Ok after 10 mins take the whipcream and add it to the mix and mix it really well and once the cake come out of the frig after that hour take the vanilla and whipcream mix and place it on top of the cake. Place back in Frig for about 30 mins and you will have yourself and family one awesome treat... This cake must stay in the Frig at all times..

In Loving Memory~ Happy Fathers Day~ Daddy
"I Know We are Just A Breathe Away, But at Times It seems So Far Away." I knew that night, that GOD was going to call your name.. In life I loved you dearly, in death, I do the same... It broke "My Heart" to lose you... But... You did not go alone: For part of me , went with you, the night GOD called you Home.. You left me with peaceful Memories... Your love is still my guide; and though I cannot see you.... "You" are always by my side... Our Family Chain is broken,

2 Ladies Getting Ct Hitched In 1 Hour Live On Cam
Both of these ladies will be in the same room when They get CT hitched and live on Cam!!! Simply add Sunshynevideolive to yahoo messenger to watch these gals get CT Hitched...

For Those Interested
I will be leaving Thursday morning heading to SC. Not sure I will be on Thursday before I go. I'm driving and will be gone until the 27th or 28th POSSIBLY the 29th lol. I'm gonna miss you guys. I will be driving along rts 65 down thru In and into KY catching 24 in Nashville to 75 near Atlanta and then 20 on over to SC. If you're along the route and I actually talk to you would love to meet you :).

If Death Came Knocking At Your Door...
If death came knocking at your door, would you answer to see what's in store? Would you cry and scream? Beg to be saved? Or is a life beyond death the thing that you crave? Would you smile and greet death with arms open wide? Would you ask death to tea and invite death inside? Would you be at peace? Or would you ignore, if death came knocking at your door. Would you smile and wink? Take death's hand? Would you put up a fight and take a stand? Would your heart sink or would it soar? If death came knocking at your door. ~Karoline~ 6/17/07

Just Blogging
since when did cherrytap become real life? it's all a bunch of strangers having fun. how many of you are married in real life and have a ct hubby or wifey who is just about a stranger to you? it's supposed to be about the fun some people just make me soooo ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

Update!!!
k so everyone knows ive been gone a while but for good reason, dealing with leaving for recruit training now just the other day at meps i got some fucked up news.....im a half of an inch fucking shorter, now for those of you who are familiar with the hight to weight chart and its bullshitness you'll understand, now the chart says if im 60 to 69 1/2 inches i have to be 209 pounds to be able to leave, now im 69 1/2 inches exactly and my sgt says that i only need to be at 215 bc i can get away at 70 inches now as im being scaled im 214ibs and 69 1/4 inches as the doctor fucked up measuring me now i have to loose even more weight to get down...now this is the biggest pile of shit ever bc i can do all the pull ups and more necessary i can do all the running and more in little time necessary. so now the ship date may be pushed back further

Send Some Luvin In A Hurry
its suppose to be my hubby's day today and it ended up being about me.in the midst of running amuck cleaning and cooking,a metal rail(from the fridge) was sticking out of the garbage and my leg ran right in front.blood squirted on the floor and down my leg...didnt hit bone,dont need stitches..i dont think.and now my leg is elevated while my hubby cleans the blood off my just-cleaned-floor and disinfecting the floor and his flip flop i was wearing at the time....just great!

Arived From A Whole New Adventure
i finnally made it to the woman i love's house and man oh man was it an adventure. first stop we hit on the road was gallup new mexico. at that stop this drunk native american ask me and two other guys "flick your dick?" i wish i was joking. and after he asked he made a gesture to his pants zipper. needless to say i backed off lol. and there was still even worse that happened on the trip. when i finally got into michigan, benton harbor to be exact, there was a real looney case on the bus, and i mean this guy was making me feel looney lol. for instance before getting on the bus in beton harbor he had looked into a trash can and was talking to the insides. after he talked to it for awhile he gave it a drink from his water bottle, i'm not exagerating or fibbing in any way of what so ever. and after watering and chatting to the trash can, he turned to nothingness and had a convo and seamed to laugh at a joke that nothing had told him. and as we got on the bus he got real close to read my

I Have Had Enough!
Ok, I am here on CT almost every night and I go to the bulletins to check out what is going on and what do I see. Something about if you are a racist remove yourself from my list well guess what I did remove myself from a person's list because I am an american and my historical heritage is Irish and German and you don't see me cry assing about crap like the Mexicans do and yes you heard me RIGHT I SAID MEXICANS. They come over here illegally from mexico and expect us to kiss their ass by making our kids learn their language when their kids should be learning ENGLISH because that is our language in the US. Now if any of you don't like what I am saying to bad I have the right to speak how I feel and what I feel also. Yes, I am wiccan so what I don't push what I practice down anyone's throat so why in the hell should they be allowed to push their crap down my kids or my familys throat??? I see it like this if you are going to come over here you must learn our language and our law

Difficult Subject...
This is in reference to questions and comments I have encountered... It also keeps me from feeling repetitious... Any person who chooses to move or visit a land with a different tongue, I also believe should learn the language. (Especially if you plan to work, raise a family and gain citizenship) I agree that heritage, spirituality, etc should not be forced upon anyone. Land of the free, home of the brave... it's astonishing how many come to the US wanting our freedoms only to warp our own words against us in an effort to change that which they came for. Humans, we are our own worst enemies...

I'll Look To These Photos Years From Now
And feel the same as I did the day they were taken. Today was a good day for Zachy. He only spent about an hour with his dad, but oh well that just means more cuddles for mommy! We played cars in the house for a little while and then we went outside to play. I got some great shots of him and his two older girlfriends(Anna and Aubrey)! He loved going down the slide. He pretty much went down alone, but I had one of the girls hold his hand on his way down just in case....so yeah I had a 10 year old and 12 year old calling me a worry wart...how sad is that?! He did a lot of really good walking today in his brand spanking new superman shoes! They balance his ankles much better than the plain shoes he had before, so I'm glad I spent the $5 on them at the dollar store yesterday. I talked with my father today for a while. There was a lot of akward silence... We walked to DQ, but after I got him an ice cream, he didnt even want to eat it!!!! What a silly kid! I

Men Are Like...................
For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free. Here 's an update for you: Now days, 80% of women are against marriage,WHY? Because women realize it 's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage. Men are like.... 1. Men are like ..Laxatives ...... They irritate the crap out of you. 2. Men are like.Bananas . The older they get, the less firm they are. 3. Men are like Weather . Nothing can be done to change them. 4. Men are like .Blenders You need One, but you 're not quite sure why. 5. Men are like .Chocolate Bars ... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips. 6. Men are like .Commercials ....... You can 't believe a word they say. 7. Men are like Department Stores . Their clothes are always 1/2 off! 8. Men are like ..Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature. 9. Men are like ..Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion. 10. Men are like Popcorn .... They satisfy

If U Have Kids Please Read This
Parents need to know about the sick, sick movement known as "pedophile activism". I am not joking. Look up pedophile activism on wikipedia.org for more information. They have created these symbols, so that they can identify each other, create a support network, it's sickening: This is the symbol for "boy love" called BLogo This is the symbol for "girl love", called GLogo This is the symbol for "Childlove Online Media Activism, CLOMAL This is the symbol for all-encompassing pedophilia, CLogo This is not a joke!!! If you see these symbols on someone's myspace, they are a pedophile. If you see someone with one of these symbols on their clothing or jewelry, they are a pedophile. (Which, in my opinion, gives you permission to beat the fuckiing shit out of them.) Anyone with children, please please go to wikipedia.org (a free online encyclopedia) and search "pedophile activism" and you'll get the whole sick story. Also, please repost this in your b

56-the Crush
Sparks fly from inside Can't quite remember Was it in her eye Or just a long winter Losing sleep daily Elephants on my chest Vision lost clearly Here comes THE CRUSH Singing like a fool Dancing in the street It kicks like a mule Knocks you off ur feet Sky is a little more blue Rain is heaven blessed Nothing more to do Here comes THE CRUSH Thoughts collide Memories skip Like the rising tide The blush of her lips Painted shades of green In tiny hands a heart will bust What remains unseen Here comes THE CRUSH

Stalker
I just want everyone I normally talk to know that I may act stranger than normal for the next little bit. Earlier tonight someone sent me a shout and told me where I catch the bus when I leave my apartment. He knew what I had been wearing and who was with me last time I went out. This guy has been sending me shouts for four days and using lines from a video game a friend of mine had a hand in writing. St first I thought it was my friend messing with me. Tonight proved it's not. I know where my friend was when I went out Friday. I am very freaked out at the moment. I just wanted to explain why to all my friends.

Single
hurts to much to think it sucks i didn't have much time to think while i was in oklihoma training but i have cryed everyday since i been home break-ups suck i'm not looking for anouther relationship i just need friends and honesty ,and to get my shit togeather shattered heart

Random
Random Body: This may just be the most random survey you've ever taken!! 1. What is your best friend's Dad's name? Lon 2. What body part do you hate? ummm hmm can't really say..i'm pretty pleased..maybe my eyes, they're always lookin tired 3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had? blah i can't remember his name..but he was pretty hot lol 4. Have you ever made out in a movie theater? yesum 5. What body part do you wash first? shampoo first 6. Do you have any piercings? tongue belly button and ears..used to have nose..want to get labret but jay won't let me lol 7. Do you have any tattoos? one big one 8. Is your driveway steep? naw not so much...just long 9. What's your favorite flavored Pringles? sour cream and onion, chilli cheese or pizza ^_^ 10. Have you ever been tied up? umm yes actually.. 11. Whats the weirdest thing you've been grounded for? lol i spent my entire adolesence being grounded..nothing wierd really..i got grounded for sn

She Needs Our Prayers & Help!!
Dear CherryTap Friends, My Mom, Cherie (screen name WitchsBrew), was recently involved in an accident in which a drunk driver hit her head on while she was driving to work. She is now in the hospital and on a ventilator with multiple fractures and a serious concussion. This drunk driver has had 3 prior convictions of DUI and this attack on my Mom is the 4th. I am asking for your help in making sure this man does not commit this senseless attack on anyone else. Please take the time to sign the following petition so I have ammunition to take to the lawmakers and capital of Tennesse where this took place. Remember, this could have happened to your Mom, Dad, brother, sister, aunt, uncle, child, or best friend. It could have happened to YOU. Thank you, Kurt (screen name Oak) WitchsBrew's son Please post a comment to sign the petition

Lips Of An Angel - Lyrics
"Lips Of An Angel" Honey why you calling me so late? It's kinda hard to talk right now. Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay? I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud Well, my girl's in the next room Sometimes I wish she was you I guess we never really moved on It's really good to hear your voice saying my name It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel Hearing those words it makes me weak And I never wanna say goodbye But girl you make it hard to be faithful With the lips of an angel It's funny that you're calling me tonight And, yes, I've dreamt of you too And does he know you're talking to me Will it start a fight No I don't think she has a clue Well my girl's in the next room Sometimes I wish she was you I guess we never really moved on It's really good to hear your voice saying my name It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel Hearing those words it makes me weak And I never wanna say goodbye But girl you make it

Believed Me;if All Those Endearing Young Charms*
Believed Me,If all those endearing young charms, Which I gazed fondly today, Were to change by tommorow and fleet in my arms like fairy gifts fading away... Though wouldst be adore as this moment thou art; Let thy Loveliness fade as it will; And around the dear ruin each wish of my Heart would entwine itself verdantly still... It is not while Beauty and Youth are thine own, And thy cheeks unprofaned by tears; That the fervor of Faith and Soul can be known, To which time will,but make thee more Dear... NO;the Hearts that has truly Loved Never forget But as Truly Loved on the closed, As the Sunflower turns on her Gods when he sets; The same looks which she turned when he rosed...

Blah
I really wish something would bother me lately. I don't really seem to care about anything at this point. I'm totally alone, and perfectly content. Shit goes on around me, without me, and I prefer to remain in this little bubble... I just knew that after so many years, I wanted to make no one happy but myself, but in doing so, I have become completely numb. I'm not happy, not sad, nothing, just blank. And I'm not really sure what writing this was going to accomplish, but I just felt the need to get it off my chest I guess... thanks for wasting your time reading it...

Wants And Needs
wanting, needing the touch of his muscular hands to embrace her wanting. needing his tender lips touch her wanting, needing the length of his body on hers wanting,needing to hear the words i love you whispered in her ear wanting, needing his reassurance that he will always be there wanting,needing his friendship for eternity wanting,needing TO BE LOVED

Fl Telephone Poll
Telephone Poll The latest telephone poll taken by the Florida Governor's office, asked whether people who live in Florida think illegal immigration is a serious problem? 29% of respondents answered: "Yes, it is a serious problem." 71% of respondents answered: "No es una problema seriosa."

Spot
Spot on their foreheads For centuries, Hindu women have worn a spot on their foreheads. I have always naively thought that it had something to do with their Religion. The Indian Embassy in Washington, D.C. has recently revealed the true story. When a Hindu woman gets married, she brings a dowry into the union. On her wedding night, the husband scratches off the spot to see whether he has won a convenience store, a gas station, a donut shop, or a motel in the United States. If not, he must take a job in India answering telephones giving technical advice to U.S. citizens.

Twisted
He is so twisted I think he missed it He never really knew what he had Seemed to enjoy making her sad Said "I love you", but made her cry Knew just what to say, he didn't even have to try Showed his love by inflicting pain Thanks to him, she will never be the same See, he didn't kill her, just made her stronger And despite it all she will love him forever He sure as hell doesn't deserve it But I guess there is even love for the twisted

My Hands(brand New)
I WISH IT WAS MY HANDS THAT CARESS YOUR FACE THAT EXPLORES YOUR BODY TEASING THAT SPECIAL PLACE TOUCHING YOU WHERE IT COUNTS TREADING WHERE ANGELS FLEE MAKING YOU BITE YOUR LIP TRACING CIRCLES ALONG YOUR KNEE GENTLY SPLITTING YOUR THIGHS LIGHTING YOUR SKIN ON FIRE GOOSE BUMPS ON YOUR SKIN EVERY MUSCLE ACHING WITH DESIRE EVERY TOUCH FILLED WITH EMOTION EACH SIGH DRIPPING WITH LUST NAILS DIGGING INTO FLESH A PASSION DRIVEN TRUST STROKING YOUR PANTIES JUICES FLOWING FROM WITHIN YOUR BODY TENSE WITH DESIRE THE EXPLOSION SOON BEGINS MY FINGERS STROKING FASTER AS YOU BEG AND PLEAD FOR MORE HARDER AND HARDER AGAINST YOU YOU FINALLY CANT TAKE ANYMORE AS I RELEASE YOU YOU COLLAPSE WITH A MOAN I KISS YOU ON THE LIPS YOU BEG ME TO GO ON I WHISPER SWEETLY TO YOU "THERE IS MORE WHERE THAT CAME FROM" I LEAVE YOU CRAVING MORE OUR NIGHT HAS ONLY JUST BEGUN

Wild (explicit)
Lying naked next to you I know you feel it too Your pulse starts to quicken As my cock starts to thicken You roll over and spread your thighs I climb on top and look into your eyes You wrap your arms around me and press your lips to mine Your legs lock tightly around my hips I slip inside, such a tight fit Thrusting slowly in and out, making you so wet As I gently kiss you up and down your neck Pushing deeper as you begin to moan Your panting gets louder as my rod churns your honey hole Getting lost in ecstasy as we move as one Teasing your hard nipples with the tip of my tongue You pull my hair and arch you back as I bury my face between your breasts The room starts to spin as I struggle to catch my breathe I roll over, letting you on top I push even harder as you beg me not to stop Gripping you tightly by the soft flesh of your ass Pushing deeper, harder, faster, with all the strength that I have You scream "I'm ready to cum!" I say "Wait, I'm almost there" The

Give Me A 10
So I up load a pic and have a handful of ppl view it and I get only 2-3 ratings, wtf? Since you went and looked at it you might as well give me a 10. If you cant show love you might as well delete me, it will save me the trouble of having to delete you. Only true friends wanted on my friends list, plz.

25 Things I Would Like To Know About You-check This Out!!!!!
You're on my friends list. I'd like to know 25 things about you. Just hit reply. Thanks! You'll be surprised how much you didn't know about your friends after this! 1. Ever punch someone in the face? 2. How old are you? 3. Are you single or taken, and are you happy about it? 4. Eat with your hands or utensils? 5. What do you dream about at night? 6. Ever seen a corpse? 7. Have you ever wished someone dead? 8. Do You Like Bush, the president? HERE COMES THE EQUALLY INTERESTING PART... 9. Whats your philosophy on life and death? 10. If you could do anything with me, where everything would remain a secret between us, what would you do? 11. Do you trust the police? 12. What is your favorite type of music? 13. What is your fondest memory of me? 14. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be? 15. Would you date me? 16. What do you wear to sleep? 17. Have you ever peed in a pool? 18. Would you hide evidence for me

~echo And Narcissus~
Echo and Narcissus in Greek Mythology Echo was a beautiful nymph, fond of the woods and hills, where she devoted herself to woodland sports. She was a favorite of Artemis, and attended her in the chase. But Echo had one failing; she was fond of talking, and whether in chat or argument, would have the last word. One day Hera was seeking her husband, who, she had reason to fear, was amusing himself among the nymphs. Echo by her talk contrived to detain the goddess till the nymphs made their escape. When Hera discovered it, she passed sentence upon Echo in these words: "You shall forfeit the use of that tongue with which you have cheated me, except for that one purpose you are so fond of - reply. You shall still have the last word, but no power to speak first." This nymph saw Narcissus, a beautiful youth, as he pursued the chase upon the mountains. She loved him and followed his footsteps. O how she longed to address him in the softest accents, and win him to converse! But it was no

Wal-mart Greeter...
Wal-Mart Greeter... A very loud, unattractive, mean woman walked into Wal-Mart with her two kids, yelling obscenities at them all the way through the entrance. The Wal-Mart Greeter says, "Good morning, and welcome to Wal-Mart. Nice children you have there. Are they twins?" The ugly woman stopped yelling long enough to say, "Hell no, they ain't twins. The oldest one's 9 and the other one's 6. Why in hell would you think they are twins? Are you blind, or just stupid?" "I am neither blind nor stupid", replied the Greeter. "It's just hard to believe you got laid twice."

Hahahaha
I got a call from Heather and she's about to break up with her boyfriend, and most of you probably know the background story of her and I. So would it be smart of me to pursue her or just let it go since in August I'm going back to school?

Alliance Or Merge
THIS IS TO ALL GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I WANT TO LET EVERY ONE KNOW THAT GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY HAS MERGE WITH THE CONFEDERATES MAKING US ONE FAMILY THIS IS A VERY LONG AND THOUGHT OUT DECISION BETWEEN REBEL AND MYSELF. 1)NOW ALL HEAD OFFICERS WILL STAY AS THEY ARE. 2)THE FAMILY NAMES WILL STAY A LONG WITH ALL HOME PAGES. 3)WE WILL STILL BE 2 FAMILIES BUT TOGETHER AS ONE 4)YOU WILL STILL ANSWER TO YOUR FAMILY UNLESS YOU CAN NOT GET TO ONE OF THEM AND THEN YOU GO TO ONE OF THE HEADS OF THE CONFEDERATES 5)THERE WILL BE SOME CHANGES IN THE BOMB SQUADS AND THAT IS TO FOLLOW. 6)THIS MOVE WILL BE VERY GOOD FOR BOTH FAMILIES 7)IF ANY ONE HAS ANY QUESTIONS PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK MYSELF, BIGDAWG, OR REBEL. 8)ALL OF MY FAMILY NEEDS TO BECOME FRIENDS WITH ALL OF THE CONFEDERATE FAMILY. 9)I WANT TO THINK ALL OF MY FAMILY FOR THERE SUPPORT IN THIS MERGER. HITTMAN6

Why Do People Have To Break Hearts?
I just got off the phone with a very close friend and ever since I hung up the phone Ive been pondering one question! Why do people have to break hearts? I mean espically the one that are labeled the "good ones" that a lot of people oversee.. The ones that wouldnt hurt a soul! Those are the ones that get shitted on the most in life.. A human being doesnt realize these kind of situations until there faced one on one. When it happens its a real eye opener to everyone.. Shows you that not everyone is the same theres many different kind of people almost like a chamelon with all its colors.. People wear many faces some are hidden and others are exposed! The only thing I can really say is if your a man and your reading this wondering why you havent found the "Right WOMEN" and are sick of going through Trial and Error with your other selections.. Please let me know and I will lead you to the right one.. Im not saying her name right now because I dont want to make her vulnerable anymore I trie

One
One One look, That's all it took, On that day, To take my breath away. One smile, In that country style, Against the fence, To make me body tense. One touch, Nothing to awful much, As we walked, To make it hard for me to talk. One hug, Nice and snug, Before I walked away, To make me want to stay. One kiss, Was total bliss, Not so chase, To make me red in the face. One night, It was all so right, Not one regret, To a night I won't forget.

Who Is To Say, What Is Right?
The better half of my afternoon was spent trading posts with my Power Exchange group from here in Dallas. I must say, they are some of the most effeciantly, well thought, classy, intelligent people I have ever had the priveledge to know. A question was brought to me from a member of the group. He is a Dominant, fairly new to the community part of this lifestyle that I love so very much. He seemed to find my insight and knowlegde exceptional and refreshing.. I was flattered.. and at the same time I thought," how lucky am I?" But what He said to me made me ponder a bit before I could give Him an honest opinion on my thoughts, and if you know me.. I rarely ponder when being asked questions about the lifestyle.. I pride myself on being well-trained and well-versed, and count myself very blessed by those that have taught me. The comment He made was this...."I just got it into my head, that if I took that degree of control from someone, and that level of resonsibility to them, I couldn't

You Are...
ou Are… You are the reason I smile everyday, And the star that lights my way. You are the answer to all my prayers, And you chase away all of my cares. You are a beautiful blessing to me, And your love has set me free. You are a dream come true, And now I give my love to you. You are the sparkle in my eyes, And why I no longer have to cry. You are the reason I feel so divine, And I'm so glad that you're all mine.

I Am...
I am... I am the face of beauty, and the eyes of seduction. I am the lips of passion, and the vioce of reason. I am the fist of justice, and the hand of mercy. I am the bearer of life, and the bringer of death. I am the smile of hope and joy, and the tear of pain and sorrow. I am dreams made flesh, and nightmares made reality. I am all this and more, for I am the embodiment of my Goddess.

Cripple Fight..
In now way am I trying to be mean when I wrote the subject of this blog.... Here's the story and it's true I swear. I got new neighbors in my apt complex I live in. Ok so truth be told it's gov't housing and you get a "wide" variety of people that come and go. From the people with no common sense to the just plain insane. Whatever, but never in the time that I've lived here have I known of neighbors such as the twosome I got a few weeks ago. I can't even remember their names but they are two younger girls and they both seem really nice. One girl is handicapped, I don't know what they call it but she walks on her tippi toes and talks out of the side of her mouth. The other girl, is blind. Alllrighty then. When i talked to the tip toe'd girls mom she mentioned that she had a room mate, not one time did she happen to mention that the girl was blind. Im just a little worried but not really because they have the right to live on their own and I actually applaud the parents and CAC for

Cherry Tap Family
lets see you have this place on your cherry tap called family. the place where the friendss that are the dearest and most special to you go right? today i wa slookin g a tmy family section on here and dont see anyone on that has really visited my profile much lately with the exception of a few. thos epeople know who they are.so i was thinking i just might clean it out and start again with the few that were mentioned prior in this blog.i put friends in my fmaily that i thought were special and dear to me but now tey are showinmg me a different side and i know that some dont ge ton as much anymore.so im really thinking about cleaning out my family on her eand leaving those few.i know things change and thats life but some dont even rate my pics anymore .

Lost And Wtf
i dought any one reads this but i just loseing my mind and just have to get this off my sholders and hope it helps me. about two mouths ago i found out that i might have a 13 year old girl. now is that BS or what wait after this long to scerw with someones head. thier is just so much behind this . but tha bitch is fucking crazy and i mean that literay tha other maybe father has malested her and is being prosacuted for it. but tha stupid broad is takeing my dauter ( maybe ) to see this guy ( wtf ) im trying so hard to get help but its not working this is why im lost . but today waz a bit better i did get a dna test ordered but i have to drive 275 miles to go do it and go to court than maybe after that i will take control on my baby and get her away from all of this crap. im sry to waist ya time if ya read this i just need to get this off my sholder .. but dam it still didnt help

Emergency Room
My Mom pam had to go to the emergency room at hospital....we went to walmart & then had call Dr Shah, she had major headaches..& high blood pressure was 173 101 shah had us go it emergency room. it was noise a lot. they finally got place that was quiet...it was couch lounge room was only room free. if friends & family could please say prayer for her...it greatly appecatied. ty. God Bless you all. hugsss ~Mary~

"for Once" Just A Poem.
A dear friend told me once that his feelings were this. If you love someone,then no matter how bad it gets you always love that person. Or something like that,don't recall word for word on how he put it. Thanks to that I thought I'd truly open up for once and hold nothing back,so here is the blog wrote in that spirit. For once let me be me. You say you'd love me forever. Yet you don't know me. You don't know the soul that lies here. The soul that screams to be free. The soul that has tasted the wind. The soul that has played with the night. The soul that craves for the taste of rain on her lips. The soul that screams for the family that runs in the shadows. For once let me be me. You say you'd love me forever. Yet you don't know me. You don't know the soul that lies here. The soul that howls at the moon. The soul that wanders in the shadows. The soul that craves to ride the waves of life. The soul that screams for release from the li

Any Of This Sound Familiar?
** This blog are not my actual thoughts for the night, they are just for fun. I thought that the few of you who read this may enjoy them and get a laugh because you know you're going to see at least one thing you yourself have thought . . . enjoy ** Oh good god it is fucking 3 am again and let me tell you 3 am knows no secrets or rules or even boundaries for that matter. There is nothing in life that doesn’t run through your head at this time . . . You sit and watch mindless television hoping to take your mind off of this, or that, or him, or her . . . But it never happens does it?! Oh no, instead you find yourself watching infomercials and wondering why the people are the same ones from the one before this and then switching to the music channels thinking I am bound to find something that I want to hear . . . But oh no all you can find are love songs about how great the love of their life is. Just what you need to hear at 3 am knowing you are all alone and contemplating eati

I Knew This Was Gonna Happen....
....so i dont know why it surprised me. i had some old friends drop in on me today while i was in the middle of sorting through all the stuff sean & i have collected since we started living together. ::thats 2 years of stuff people:: they were upset that im leaving soon. telling me that i should tell sean that i dont want to leave & that he can go do whatever the hell he wants on his own. i rolled my eyes & stood my ground. but of course that earned me 3 less "friends". whatever. i still have my military friends right? yea i thought i did. ~~~♥~~~ other than that little fiasco my friends {{ex friends??}} made today was pretty calm. i managed to brave this killer summer heat to clean & wash my car. it was funny really...the one time i wash my car myself & suddenly i realize how many guy live in this neighborhood. lmao...they offered to help but i told them i could handle it...& they stuck around until they saw all the marine corps stickers on my car. i now r

Lesson Learned
So...A lot of others know when they are getting there vic heh? I'd like to know who that is..please leave a comment on this blog LoL! _____________________________________________________ Subject: I thought you were going... On 6/18/2007, holliehottie@cherrytap.com wrote: to make good on those vics? No one has received one yet. Or were u just hoping this would all blow over & ppl would forget about them? Ya know, ppl would've understood if you had written us & told us you were having personal issues. It was the way you went about it that made a lot of ppl upset. I honestly could care less but I trusted you at your word. I admit that was my mistake. Won't happen again. If you got in over your head that's fine. You could've paid them out once a week until u got them done. I've spoken to them all & they would've all been fine with that. I don't know very many single mothers that could afford to send out 50 vics. I think you just got in over you head & created this drama to ge

My Ct Wife
THIS IS MY CT WIFE. I LUV THIS WOMAN & I HAVE GROWN 2 FEEL VERY CLOSE 2 HER. I HAD SOME CLOSE CALLS OUT THERE, BUT SHE'S THE 1 THAT CAUGHT ME. SHE HAS BEEN VERY SWEET 2 ME. HER NAME TELLS IT ALL. SHOW HER SOME LUV. I'M PROUD & HONORED 2 BE HER CT HUSBAND. HER CT NAME IS SWEETER THAN U THINK. HER MORPH HERE WAS MADE BY BAD BAD MAN SHOW HIM SOME LOVE ALSO THIS IS HER SON. HE NEEDS SOME CT LUVIN' ALSO. RATE, FAN, & ADD HIM. baller89@ CherryTAP THIS SWEET LADY SPENT SOME TIME ON OUR MARRIAGE CERTIFICATE. ADD, FAN, & RATE HER ALSO. IF YOUR LOOKING 4 SOME1 2 HELP, SHE CAN. ~X~Just Meee™~X~S.B.A.B.~ Œlìte Bõmber§~Œnfôrçer~X~@ CherryTAP

Updated Name
Well a shake-up it was lol.As you can notice by my name I am no longer a member of the GIT-R-DONE REBEL FAMILY.I was called last evening by the family chief of security and asked to leave.I was not really given any details as to why and I not gonna sweat it,it all good.The stealth bomber's as being my account etc,leave with me so any GIT-R-DONE Stealth Bomber's please feel free to send me a quick note and I will remove you if that is your desire.Also if there is any GIT-R-DONE family member's that want to be removed from friends list etc. here on this account say the word and I'll remove you no question's asked.I wouls like to thank Hitman6 for the opportunitie's he gave me while a member of his family and wish them all the best in the future. granadaghia75.

Fourth Edition To The Cherry Tap Artists Iist
Ok so this is the fourth addition to the Artists on Cherry Tap. I have added a few and deleted a few. The ones deleted removed thier work or they left CT. I want to say we lost a couple wonderful artists and I am not completely sure why but they will be missed! I so did appreciate Matt and Jeremy......if you see this I want you to know I am thinking of you and hope all is well. Ok, now I have had some problems with my computer this last week and I know there are a couple of you that I wanted to add to this but because of my pc problems I lost track of you. If you know who you are and I told you I would be adding you to this bulletin and you aren't on it ..........that is why and please please PM me so I can get you added to the next one! I hope that anyone who reads this will actually take the time to check out these talented people. It is so very much worth your time! Show them some serious attention and praise for sharing thier talents. It isn't always easy to put your stuff out t

Check Out This Snake!
Seems a sheep farmer was puzzled about the disappearance of some sheep on his farm. After a few weeks the farmer decided to put up an electric fence. About a week later, this is what he found! Now, I know we've all heard of people being eaten by snakes & I bet most of us have said, "If a snake tried to eat me, I'd blah, blah, blah & get away. Well, this is a Python & they're extremely aggressive & have a few teeth that they use to hold their prey while they wrap around them & then constrict. Could you get away if this one bit you & held on with it's "few teeth?" (Note: the wires are 10 inches apart.)

Mom's Ex-bf
so, basically my mom and her boyfriend broke up again.. after them being on and off again for 16 years. He's an asshole. She's bipolar.. and every time they get into a fight, he blames it on that and says she needs to go to the hospital. and everything. which is bullshit because he's fucking nuts himself. he supposedly has stomach seizures.. which has never been heard of in medical history like ever. so him and my mom met in the mental hospital. so whats that say about him? hes fucking crazy. he's addicted to his pain medicine and if he doesn't have any, he's trying to buy some off people. maybe he needs to go to the hospital and stay for awhile.. get some help. he's a dick. anyways, they break up and every time they break up.. he calls everyone trying to find her, trying to find out what she's doing, who she's with, and all this.. scared to death that she found someone else. get over it, charlie. she don't want you anymore. you've treated her like shit for long enough and she's tired

Anyone With Children Should Read This (copied From A Bulletin)
Parents need to know about the sick, sick movement known as "pedophile activism". I am not joking. Look up pedophile activism on wikipedia.org for more information. They have created these symbols, so that they can identify each other, create a support network, it's sickening: This is the symbol for "boy love" called BLogo This is the symbol for "girl love", called GLogo This is the symbol for "Childlove Online Media Activism, CLOMAL This is the symbol for all-encompassing pedophilia, CLogo This is not a joke!!! If you see these symbols on someone's myspace, they are a pedophile. If you see someone with one of these symbols on their clothing or jewelry, they are a pedophile. (Which, in my opinion, gives you permission to beat the fuckiing shit out of them.) Anyone with children, please please go to wikipedia.org (a free online encyclopedia) and search "pedophile activism" and you'll get the whole sick story. Also, please repost this in your bulletins,

Love
Do you really know what it is to be in Love? What is your feeling about it? Can you give yourself to a person, and love them or half ass like them? Well i've been there before, and it is like heaven on earth. To be with someone that has your back. To share everything with, the good and the bad, not to mention the unspoken. To give without thinking about it. It's funny because you can't get that feeling from everyone, because it's different personalities. The thing about it, you can lose it as fast as you got it. Taking things for granted, and things. You always need to talk things out. And you will forever be temted by things or people. So Becareful!!

Victim!
Okay I just got back from the worst attempted pick up ever. Guy: Good morning! Me: Hello. Guy: I like your tattoo, for real! Me: Thanks! Guy follows me into corner store. I get my cigarettes and walk out. Guy stops me. Guy: Can I see that closer? Me *ready to smack him in case he got fresh*: Sure. Guy: What's that mean? Me: Libra. Guy: Yeah? I'm a Libra too, that's what's up! Me: Well have a nice day.

~not Another Toy~
SO I DECIDED THAT ID SHARE SOME OF MY WORK ON HERE AND SEE WHAT YOU GUYS THINK.... PLEASE BE HONEST AND LET ME KNOW SOME OF MY POETRY I WOULD LIKE TO SUMBIT TO COMPANYS AND ITD BE GREAT FOR EVERYONES OPIONION... THANKS AGAIN ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ What part of me wanting you dont you fucking get... Yet I keep getting the shit end of the stick... I am fed up now, with you and your games... I'm walking away now, with my head down in shame... Cause I really thought we would of been a could match... I thought me falling for you, was one hell of a catch... But I couldnt of been more blind... And it's all coming to me so clear this time... I would and do everything possible for you... Still you dont have the slightest clue... It took some time but now I realize... That its not me with blinded eyes... I cant and wont change who I am for you... And if you cant see what your missing out on then your the foo... You always de

Just Cuz I Rate You
just cuz i rate you,comment you,add you,fan you doesnt mean i want to fuck you , suck you, or cam 2 cam with you!!!i dont so plz ,plz, dont ask me any more and no i dont have nudies on here or am i gonna put nudies on here!!!thanks kimmy :)

Self-titled
Theres a couple quotes that really explained how I feel right now and I thought they would go well with this BLOG! (People Change,Things Go Wrong, Stuff Happens, Life Goes On ; Learn from Yesterday, Hope for Tommorrow, Live for Today ; In a world where you can be anyone be YOURSELF ; (My Favorite)-> "Who are you to judge the life I live? I know Im Not Perfect-amd I dont live to be but before you start pointing fingers... Make sure your hands are clean." Bob Marley! ; The ONLY things in LIFE you REGRET are the risks that you DIDNT take ; The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return ; Pay no mind to those who talk behind your back that just means your two steps ahead ; (My 2nd favorite) BEAUTY ISNT SEEN THROUGH THE MAKEUP BRUSHES OR HAIR PRODUCTS..BEAUTY IS SEEN BY THOSE WHO CHOOSE NOT TO SEE IMPERFECTIONS, AND BY THOSE WHO LOVE AND THOSE WHO LOVE YOU. EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL, BUT SOME PEOPLE CHOOSE TO HATE ON OTHERS FOR THINGS THEY DONT LIKE. FORGET ABOUT TH

Still No Bar Tab
I still have no bar tab sayin my friends uploaded or blogged. the right side of my see all in bar tab is simply one line that refreshes but only holds one line of info. I will not be VIC next month for this reason. I can not and will not pay for MY page not to work. Support says clean your cache and cookies Ive done it a million times. I use both FF and IE browsers so it cant be that. Sign in to my account on my husbands name and still cant see it. So its MY ACCOUNT!!!!! Ill miss my 11s.. I sure hope someone gets on the ball on this... but its been 2 weeks Im not holding my breath.

Screw You!!!
To the ones that made me feel like leaving CT... I'M NOT LEAVING!... YOU CANT AND WONT MAKE ME LEAVE... Enjoy yourselves but next time, leave me out of your little games! I'm not, nor will I ever, let you play your games with me again!... To the ones that have stood by me and have always cared, Thank you from the bottom of my heart.. you are the ones that matter most!!

What Do U Think Of This
a dozen roses with a single black rose among them a single black rose is the hole in my heart for that the love that i once had is no longer with me can you be the one to feel the hole in my heart

Contract (bdsm)
Contract (BDSM) In BDSM, a contract is an agreement, usually written, between the Dominant and submissive in a 24/7 or TPE relationship. It is the formal act of consent to the power exchange. Some are very formal and will detail exactly what is expected and can run for multiple pages. Others are as brief as a single paragraph. Either way, one is derived by negotiation on the part of both parties. BDSM couples consider the contract to hold equal moral authority to a marriage commitment. As such, constructing a proper contract is very much like writing a pre-nuptial agreement. General outline A typical contract contains many of the following elements. As there is no consensus within the BDSM community to the structure of a contract, this list is to serve as an example from which the Dominant and submissive may construct a document that both sides will accept. Petition The Petition acts in the same manner as a Cover letter for a résumé. In a petition a submissive will make

Confusion Is My Friend
At what point? I have serious issues with rejection, and this doesn’t always work well with love/relationship life. I want to be completely upfront with people from the beginning, but I don’t know at what point I should tell the people I have a desire to get closer to all my inner most secrets. Opening up to casual acquaintances dose what for me? And if I wait till they are no longer acquaintances did I wait to long to divulge my issues/ secrets? And doses that mean the whole thing is damned because it’s based o lies. As I see not telling is equal to lying. Inner conflicts are my friends; they have to be since they come around all the time and never clean up after they are done.

Love Is Blind
Love is blind and stupid too At least that’s what I learned with you Brought me to tears and confirmed my fears The shattering of my sanity is all I can hear Burned by this passion till I am no more then dust My ashes scattered by the winds of lust But there is something about you and I can't get enough Rooted deeply in the recesses of my mind So this is what they mean when they say love is blind

Better Left Unsaid
Something’s are better left unsaid Engraved on the heart, erased from the head Something’s people aren't brave enough to hear Even when the answer seems so clear So I write these words no one wants to face I can't let these thoughts that are so real go to waste With this pen I let flow The secrets of my soul This paper is my canvass Giving me freedom that is nothing short of miraculous Painting with words the pictures in my head Releasing the storms of my heart, created by things better left unsaid

Drive To Help A Handicapped Girl!!
I put this Bulletin together for my Great Friend: AMERICAN CHERRY's Daughter: Raven Raven in her Bed Raven & her Family Raven with her Dog After they came up with this Idea: To get Butterflies from Every State & Providence. Plus from other Countries. Its quite possibly a long stretch do get it done but I would be honored, if this Idea actually does come about. While you can read more about Raven's life story on Psi"Ryn blogs. Here is a small part of that History: Many do not know I have a severely Handicapped daughter. I contracted toxoplasmosis, no it is not an old wives tale it is something VERY real. It is a bug in laymans terms that inflicts itself on the host and if pregnant the unborn child normally killing that child. Its contracted from feral or outside cats that eat birds and other things to live. Not common but can be found in indoor cats as well. With that part all said. Raven wasn't suppos

Moving!
fucking hell im going nuts.. havent accomplished shit at work. just want the day to end, so i can go get fucked up , then pass out, to wake up to my new fucking place that is the nicest place i have ever lived in my fucking life... 2 pools, billards room, movie theater, fitness room.... holy fuck... need to be there now!!!!!!!

My Thoughts On Love.
MY FOREVER.MY EVERYTHING..MY ALWAYS..MY LOVE.. I GAVE UP ON LOVE THEN OUT OF THE CLEAR YOU CAME ALONG AND BEFORE I KNEW IT MY HEART WAS BEATING TO A NEW SONG! IT WAS A MELODY OF SWEET LOVE THAT I HAVE FOUND IN YOU AND NOW THAT I FOUND YOU ALL MY DREAMS HAVE COME TRUE. I ONCE BELIEVED I COULDNT LOVE FOR FEAR OF REJECTION AND NOW YOU HAVE SHOWED ME THEIR ARE RULES TO THE EXCEPTION FOREVER IN MY HEART WILL YOU BE AND WITHIN MY SOUL DWELLS YOUR PERFECTION. MY COLORS HAD FADED TO A DULL GREY AND NOW WITH YOU LOVE THEY SHINE LIKE RAYS NEVER WILL I TAKE OUR LOVE FOR GRANTED I SHALL LOVE YOU TILL THE DAY I DIE AND FOREVER EVEN AFTER DEATH WHEN WE RISE..YOU ARE THE BRIGHTNESS OF THE STARS I WISH UPON EVERY NIGHT THE GLOW OF THE MOON THATS SHINES SO BRIGHT.AND THE RAINDROPS THAT FALL FROM THE SKY ARE MERELY MY TEARS I SHED FOR YOU WHEN I SAY GOODBYE. THIS IS WHAT TRUE LOVE IS TO ME FINDING MY ONCE IN MY LIFETIME LOVE! WRITTEN FOR YOU BY ME ON JUNE 19 2007

I'm Sorry !!!
I'm sorry… That i bought you roses to tell you that i like you I'm sorry… That I was raised with respectnot to sleep with you when you were drunk I'm sorry… That my body's not ripped enough to "satisfy" your wants I'm sorry… that I open your car door, and pull out your chair like I was raised I'm sorry… That I'm not cute enough to be "your guy" I'm sorry… That I am actually nice; not an asshole I'm sorry… I don't have a huge bank account to buy you expensive things I'm sorry… I like to spend quality nights at home cuddling with you, instead of at a club I'm sorry… I would rather make love to you then just f**k you like some random guy. I'm sorry… That I am always the one you need to talk to, but never good enough to date I'm sorry… That I always held your hair back when you threw up,and didn't get mad at you for puking

Nice Guys Allways Finish Last !!!!
It's amazing that assholes can get girls. Actually, now that I think of it, it's not that amazing. They are assholes at heart, but to meet girls they lavish their undying love. IT'S A CHARADE. They act nice, friendly, and they listen… until they get into what they're after. Their prey thinks they are in love with them, however when they realize what assholes their predators really are, they pretend like the asshole is really nice inside. The girl tries to change the asshole into a nice guy, but assholes will always be assholes. She gets upset and goes to the nice guy to complain about the asshole. But she claims to love the asshole… now this is where the theory begins. She doesn't want to look like she is easy so she wont dump the asshole right away, instead she will stay with the asshole. Girls are idiots. They don't realize that the nice guy has been there all along. He never had to pretend to be a good guy to get girls because he is naturally like that. However, girls don't see it f

Alone
I imagined a life, full of promise and hope racing hearts upon clouds we would float Stars at night embracing our minds holding each other for for all of time I made a mistake and thought you cared that you believed, in everything we shared I am but a fool who let you get in to break down my walls, just to rebuild again I know that alone I will forever be why in the world would anyone want me I have nothing to offer but a broken heart I will never believe till death do us part I am a woman, made to be alone in this world of decie,t I call my home.

Ee Cummings
I will wade out till my thighs are steeped in burning flowers i will take the sun in my mouth and leap into the ripe air Alive with closed eyes to dash against darkness in the sleeping curves of my body shall enter fingers of smooth mastery with chasteness of sea girls will i complete the mystery of my flesh i will rise After a thousand years lipping flowers And set my teeth in the silver of the moon

Good Stuff
Playing cards with my girls on a blanket on the front lawn. My older daughter rubs her nose and notices a booger.. I point it out.. so she pretends to blow it at me - but some air got in there and it blew up like a big booger balloon.. I was laughing so hard I got stomach cramps! Kids in the neighborhood playing a game .. you have to call out the name of the person you're throg the ball to - while everyone's standing in a circle - soon people are shouting names- balls flying everywhere.. Good clean fun. I'm so glad summer's here - or almost!

Poem I Wrote For Maeve's Wiccan Blessing.
My poem for Maeve Because I fancy myself a lyrical soul, my gift comes in form of a poem. May you feel who a person is before you even know them. Empathy, my darling Maeve, the ability to read someone's soul... To divine whether their heart is true or false and remember the Empath's goal. Compassion, connection, feelings so strong. You may feel your heart has known for so long. Concern for how another feels, that overwhelming urge to hug can heal. To feel each emotion so deep and so true, that is what I bestow to you. I pass on my knowledge, my wisdom, my light. May you keep it alive in the darkness of night. May the flickering warmth and glow of that flame; empathy, true feelings and the absence of shame. Guide you, and protect you all through your days... From my soul to yours... Goddess bless you Maeve...

Secret Inside
Ever look so far deep inside yourself, you find a secret that was hidden, waiting to come out?!? What does one do with that secret, that growing gem? It wants to thrive and blossom, and has awakened the knowledge inside. I am a slave. I was born to serve, and only in pleasing my master, will I be truly happy.

Deadly Ducks.........
i went to go get gas this morning, and there were ducks at the door to the gas station. so i start filling up my car, and look over my shoulder. they were gone! i look down, and they were at my feet and were after me!!! they chased me around my car! so when i heard it stop pumping i went in, and the guy said they hang out there from 2 am til too many people show up. so i leave, they are waiting for me at the door. so i walk out, and i walk in between them, and they start quacking(they were about a foot away).....so i start walking. look over my shoulder, and they were chasing me to my car! crazy ducks!!!!

Is It Love?
He supplied your life with a good dowry as well. Who provided the world with a wonderful prodigy. In addition, any man can say ‘ I love you to a woman’ But when he says it, The questions, Can u feel it down in your soul? Does it arouse your passion.? Does it spark your internal flame? Does it satisfy the emptiness of your heart? Does it cover you with delight in the inward parts? Do you sign because it has affected you? Your eyes flood with tears because you are genuinely loved And you have been swept, caressed and loved on the inside. That you cry because it feels so right. Your emotions are so attentive ,your body feels like its floating on air. And you look in his eyes and see it’s genuine because His heart has been unlocked by the key he is beholding near. He cries in unison with the one he loves so dear, for he feels virtue leaving his body., giving to the one he holds so dear to his heart. Life nor death can separate their lives because it is bundled up in one l

Gimme 1 Second Of Your Time, Plz!!
SO this is one of the sweetest CT Couples I know and they were also in my Cutest CT Hubby & Wifey contest and did great! Please take ONE SECOND to drop them a 10 in their contest, there’s no comment bombing just a simple 10!! Press this link to be directed!! Thanks so much to all my cherries. Loves ya!!

6/19
well as most of ya know i am not on verry much anymore but thanks to you i won queen bitches contest and she sent me a vet thanks queen but dirty weeds would have been fine to xxx love ya went to have more tests done yesterday nothing new there check this out as i sat here reading a blog and my dog pissed on me ! ohh man !!! ok indirectly had one of my girls outside in the pen he was in his cage upstairs right above my head well he musta had to go cause he never whined a minute! i heard him start to go said naaa it can't be he was just out and he never even barked well a drip came threw from the floor board onto my head so ya he did and i thought damn i aint never on and my dog still is mad i came on lol its just been that kind of week folks i gues ill take my sore old carcass to bed now

I'm Sorry
I'm sorry.. if I'm not skinny enough for you to see my ribs. I'm sorry.. if I'm not pretty enough to be "your girl". I'm sorry.. if I'm not tan enough for you. I'm sorry.. if I'm not a playboy model so I don't act like a porn star for you. I'm sorry.. If i don't have a dream body that turns you on. I'm sorry.. if I'm too tall or too short for you. I'm sorry.. if i won't drop down to my knees to get you to like me. I'm sorry.. if my hair isn't just the way you like it. I'm sorry.. if I'm not the "hottest" girl you have ever seen. But most of all... I'm sorry that most guys can't accept a girl for who they really are.

These Dreams
These Dreams Heart Spare a little candle save some light for me Figures up ahead moving in the trees White skin in linen perfume on my wrist And the full moon that hangs over These dreams in the mist Darkness on the edge shadows where I stand I search for the time on a watch with no hands I want to see you clearly come closer than this But all I remember are the dreams in the mist These dreams go on when I close my eyes Every second of the night I live another life These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away Is it cloak 'n dagger could it be spring or fall I walk without a cut through a stained glass wall Weaker in my eyesight the candle in my grip And words that have no form are falling from my lips These dreams go on when I close my eyes Every second of the night I live another life These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away There's something out there I c

Life
In this life we all walk around looking for something. What that something is depends on the person. And a lot of the times what we are looking for is right in front of us. So every now and then stop and look right in front of your self or in the mirror and you my find what your looking for.

Pandora's Box
What does one do with Pandora's box? It's so inticing, and lovely, and shines brilliantly, so to attract attention. It calls out to me, wanting me to open it. Inside is my secret. Wanting to grow, and be nurtured. It wants love and attention, pleasure and pain. To open the box, and let out the secret is all I have wanted. The pleasure known physically, mentally, and emotionally. It is all consuming. I ACHE for it. To open the beautiful box, and invite the pleasure, may be the end of life as I know it. How scary, and yet exciting to think that my life may have such a drastic change. To lose what I have spent my life working for, is terrifing to think of, yet knowing that Pandora's box has the secret of LIFE for me. For, without it, I do not live. What to do? Open Pandora's box, and change everything forever, or deny it, and go on with life as I now know it?

Invisable
i wish he could see me here see how much i love him and how much i care id go to then end of the world for him and he doesnt know i was always there for him through the good and bad he talks to me bout these other girls and half the time im wishing why cant i be urs i wish he could see behind my smile cuz im not really smilin im really crying on the inside whens it gonna be my turn to prove to the world that i can be just as good as those other girls most of all whens it gonna be my turn to prove it to him

Today....was Flippin Awesome
cuz i finally got the yellow ribbon up around town. sure its only one town but im hoping & planning to move on to the other cities. i spent most of the morning with the girls putting up the ribbons & we managed to get ourselves a little attention from the community. im hoping that the extra attention with help find us a sponsor to help us out with the supplies. i paid for the supplies this time around because i really want to bring back the yellow ribbon. we had a lot of car honking & yelling out support for us. we even had a few people stop & help us put the ribbons up. we did have a car or two pull over & call us "supporters of the uniformed killers" & they even threw a soda bottle at us. people like that piss me off. but a little after that we had two guys come up to us & offered to help. they were brothers & one of them was an Iraq veteran & he lost his arm while he was over there. i don't know about you all but to have a veteran tell me that he'd salute us if he could me

Prayers
Breathing in and Breathing out My head leaned back my hands are tied I stand in here alone I Scream, question why Days slip by and nights I taste These memories run through my veins This medication can't save me And desperation, takes hold of me I wanted to believe in all of this I wanted to believe in you All i am, all i have Leads me down these roads again Take my hand, Show me the way And never bring me back here Determination is pushing me Persverance, is what i bleed These are my unanswered prayers The time has come for me to say goodbye God hear me calling

My Better Half
Traces of Lace~Empress of the Emerald Rune of Lestats Dark Covenant Family@ CherryTAP SHE IS MY TRUE BESTEST ONLINE FRIEND. HER BIRTHDAY IS THE DAY AFTER MY SISTER'S, AND SHE IS THE WORLD TO ME. SHE IS TRACES OF LACE...AS IN LEATHER AND LACE, ONE OF MY SCREEN NAMES. SHOW HER SOME LOVE PLEASE. BDAY IS JUNE 25 TH.

Quote For June 20
If Goddess religion is not to become mindless idiocy, we must win clear of tendency of magic to become supertition. Magic - and among its branches I include psychology as its purpose to describe and change consciousness - is an art. -- Starhawk When freedom does not have a purpose, when it does not wish to know anything about the rule of law engraved in the hearts of men and women, when it does not listen to the voice of conscience, it turns against humanity and society. -- Pope John Paul II Bonus Quote: The screen is a magic medium. It has such power that it can retain interest as it conveys emotions and moods that no other art form can hope to tackle. -- Stanley Kubrick This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

Come Click For Me
A wonderful friend of mine needs rates, please just take a moment and click the pic below and rate him, no comments needed just a rate. Please do this for me and if you do let me know and Ill send you a gift. Thank you so much to all that help out. Bites Dark Enigma

Keep Your Fork
There was a young woman who had been diagnosed with a terminal illness and had been given three months to live. So as she was getting her things "in order," she contacted her pastor and had him come to her house to discuss certain aspects of her final wishes. She told him which songs she wanted sung at the service, what scriptures she would like read, and what outfit she wanted to be buried in. Everything was in order and the pastor was preparing to leave when the young woman suddenly remembered something very important to her. "There's one more thing," she said excitedly . "What's that?" came the pastor's reply. "This is very important," the young woman continued. "I want to be buried with a fork in my right hand." The pastor stood looking at the young woman, not knowing quite what to say. "That surprises you, doesn't it?" the young woman asked. "Well, to be honest, I'm puzzled by the request," said the pastor. The young woman explained. "My grandmother once t

Very Profound Words
A few years ago an article for Essence magazine about forgiving my father for all he had done. For so many years I was angry with him. I do believe that when I was growing up this man hated me to my core. I don't remember any happy memories with him. And I'm sure there had to be some, but it's funny what a child will hang on to. Like the times when I would be in my room sitting, reading or playing and the hairs on the back of my neck would stand up. I would turn and look at the window in the door and there he would stand staring at me as if he could kill me. I used to pretend that I was somewhere else (I think that's where my imagination and story telling was born). He would call me profane names all of the time. He would beat me with anything that he could get his hands on. He would play terrible mind games with me all the while beating and abusing my mother-- especially when she tried to protect me. Needless to say I had a lot to forgive. And I needed to because the first 28 ye

How Do Men See You? Hmmmm
Men See You As Choosy Men notice you light years before you notice them You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait How Do Men See You?

6/20/07 - Interesting
Someone thinks you're cute and sends out an unmistakable signal. What do you do? Well, if you're interested, you send something right back -- then sit and wait. A little mystery can only add fuel to the fire. Ok on here that could be easily taken so many different ways. If I'm interested in someone that person definitely knows it...just like I know it if someone is interested in me. Now as for the mystery...LOL, do I really need any more fuel added to the fires in my life?

New Update
well my cousin is having surgery next week for them to go in and clean out her sinuses and lungs due to the cystic fibrosis. That is apparantly what is causing her to cough up large amounts of blood...She is finally in her own room so she is happy about that..You know how 17 yr olds are lol they want their own space.They are saying that she will be in at least 3 weeks..So for all of you praying please dont stop and thank you so much!

Dick Needs Help
Ok so tonight is my premier at the sanctuary bar in metairie.. i just got a call from the show coordinator that she wants me to change my song.. the entire track is 10 mins long but the song is only 4:30.... (remember when cd's had the secret song and you had to listen to the last track and then like 3 mins of silence to get to it>? well thats the case with this song except im not doing the secret song im doing the track) she wants me to change it.. im gonna take some more music with me but hopefully i will be able to show her what it is exactly ... and she will understand.. but just in case.. know of any good music software? preferably free.. ♥ PuNk

Part-time For Cts Most Wanted Male! Help Please!
Hey guys and gals, Part-Time Casanova entered a "CTs most wanted males" contest. Please help him out by rating and commenting on his photo there. Heck post a bulletin or tell your friends! Click the photo below to get there. THANKS!!

My First Contest
im in my very first contest thanx to gothic rose who rocks big time...and i need help in this contest...i help everyone out when and where i can ... so its time for me to call in the markers....so come on and help me out ...ty Knight here is the link ....

Poems
A single red rose, hidden under a mask of perfection, The sweet smell, the fregrance of enchantment, the power to make , the fairest of angels stand in awe. Looking at its outer appearence one can only see what lies on the surface. Within the perfection lies something very different, the worries, the constant battle within, never knowing for sure if perfection is truely enough, The thorns lie in wait to stab at any who dare to get close, the root buried deep where no one ever goes. There lies the real rose, the one no one ever looks for. Content with its beauty and lovely smell, the passion and life are often overlooked, But when you look at what lies deep down buried under the past, under the heartache and the pain, you see the soul of a flower shich so depreately wishes to be known. But for now it remains content to shine in the admoration of others, but as the sun sets and it stands all alone its heart breaks because no one really knows what i means to be

What To Do?
From what I know blog’s are a personal diary. So I will try and get it out of my system I moved here from NYC, trying to forget some one whom I love very deeply. Though we broke up he still cares for me and wants me in so many ways. We still saw & see each other as if nothing changed. when we broke up He had seemed to be in love, as if he panicked that he let me get so close to him. Maybe he was afraid of commitment. Maybe he was scared since all he knew was getting hurt, used, and disappointed. I don’t know what his deal was that day but, in a way he broke up with me, said some rotten things, and then as if nothing had happened we were back together but with out the commitment, I didn’t mind I love him and just wanted to be with him, I wanted to see him happy. I just wanted him. As the weeks and months went by, I was so happy but so very upset in a way. There was the fear rising what if I’m not the only one. Though he told me I was and he wasn’t looking, he was content with

My Very First Business Website
I have finally been able to create my first business website. It has everything I make on there. Please feel free to go visit it. Remember it will be updated every time a new item is made. Contact me for the link.

Queensland Rules
state of origin for 2007 is QUEENSLAND it rugby league best out of three games.. the two states are NEW SOUTH WALES (cockroaches) & QUEENSLAND (canetoads) (which is where i am from woot lol) we won back to back too (2006 & 2007)

Jealousy
I need to talk about this for a bit. What exactly does one benefit from this emotion. Or what good does anyone benefit from this emotion. ~~~~~~~ I'm thinking~~~~I can't think of one. So why is it there? Why do so many live with it? It destroys relationships and themselves. I know the affects jealousy has on peoples lives. It ruins them. The real question than remains, can one control this emotion. The answer is yes. But it takes work and determination. People who are jealous in nature are typically that way, which started at an early age. One's childhood. Your upbringing from birth and the teachings and examples set by your parents help make you who you are. The possible reasons being your parents not giving you the attention you needed, or watching them by their examples. Than you grow up into a non trusting world of lies, deception and being hurt by friends or a love one. And this is just your teenage years. Than you become an adult. You marry or get very serious with someone and

The Best Thing I Can Ever Do!
im hosting my own radio show soon on blogtalkradio.com and im kinda nervous only because i've never hosted before! i am really good at the whole "listening to what people have to say" thing but, anyhow! im gonna give it a shot and see how i do! it will be a challenge for me! im allways up for a good challenge lol! ok well if you really want to hear how it goes or just check the site out then my link is www.blogtalkradio.com/sexy1_4u! so i will be on there soon! im going to schedule a day for maby friday! but ok im going to finish up on here then im going to write my show out and get everything planned and ready to go! k wish me luck!

Lost
im so lost its not even funny i dont know whats gonna happen next but all im sayin it better be good im tired of this path in life im tired of shady people and arguing everyday and night i want to be one of those happy people u hear about im tired of the everyday stress .. i really just wanna run away to the place that makes me feel safe but the jersey shore is like 4 hrs away ill make it u watch one day ill be one of those people even if i have to do it alone ill survive

Why Is It....
when one member of the oppisete sex fucks up we tend to go on a i hate all(insert sex here) their nothing but liars, and or chaters, users ect..... personaly i know not every man on th e planet is a lieing fucktard but the words still come out of my mouth on occasion. personaly i know 4 men who are not liers nor cheaters well.. that i know of anyway and i choose to belive that but even when men get fucked over by a chick they say it too is it just venting in a fit of rage or hurt what why..... and even though we know better why do we still do it? just a thought

What Do You Think? I'd Like To Share.
What are your thoughts on this subject? Since this forum was opened by a younger friend on my list...I thought I would share it with all of you so as to get her the answer she is asking for. I copied her message below...along with my response. ********************** ----------------- Message ----------------- From: Younger Female Date: Jun 20, 2007 6:15 PM Okay, it's not uncommon to see people in their late thirties trying to be cool on CherryTap, Myspace or other sites, or making the account for business, but what's with the 60 year old people on here? I don't know about you, but I think it's a little weird. My reply to her: Um...hun...Several of the best people I know on here are in the mid to late 50's. In fact, the second best friend I have...who is on CT, is 45. The older people aren't on here to be cool. CT, Myspace, and other friendship/networking sites aren't supposed to be popularity zones. It's about connecting with people and ma

Little Kisses
Little kisses nibbling thier love into my heart Eyes of a passionate Lady seeks my dreams Ardent love she gives from the soul of her heartt Little kisses of love coyious and flirtatious Flaming the heart of my desires Tickling each others lust in joyious union Be it by flowing river, sitting togther on a couch or a park bench Strolling on a beach arm in arm Little kisses ardent in love always there in our hearts In the bedroom, What the scandle right in front of parents or childern What ok kids you can have your kisses also How about a quick kiss at the kitchen sink Little kisses over champange or wine Little kisses under a moon lite night Fireworks flaring Yes even then little kisses Little kisses for a short good-bye or a quick hello But they are all sharing one big thing and that is love Mwauh Mwauh just to keep this going Little kisses to all thoose I love friends , family and everyone else But most of all little kisses of joy to To God and Jesus, for they are a

Well Tomarrow Is The Big Day
well all tomarrow is the big day and iam scared to know anything. i was just thinking tis a cyst or something else other than cancer and i hoping its nothing. Pray for her tonight and i will let everyone know when i find out thanks for everyone that has been there for me. much love hugs and kisses

What Happened?
to our family the pact we made??? lesson learned now stop hurting me!! Yes I caused alot of pain but not intentionally! does it even measure to the hurt this is causing me? sleeping, eating cant do it no where you are is where i want to go..

If She Only Knew
I'm sorry That I was raised with respect not to sleep with you when you were drunk I'm sorry That my body's not ripped enough to "satisfy" your wants I'm sorry that I open your car door, and pull out your chair like I was raised I'm sorry That I'm not cute enough to be "your guy" I'm sorry That I am actually nice; not an asshole I'm sorry I don't have a huge bank account to buy you expensive things I'm sorry I like to spend quality nights at home cuddling with you, instead of at a club I'm sorry I would rather make love to you then just f**k you like some random guy. I'm sorry That I am always the one you need to talk to, but never good enough to date I'm sorry That I always held your hair back when you threw up, and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car, but when we went out you went home with another guy I'm sorry That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere, but n

Forwards And Spam
Oh gees...PLEASE! I hate these things. If I don't respond it's because maybe I never read the darn mass message (HATE those) or because I think the one who sent it to me already read it so why would I send it to them AGAIN. Or because I refuse to be superstitious and the "send this to everyone and great things will happen" doesn't ring true and simply annoys me. Did the person sending this spam to me really believe it? This whole thing lowers my opinion of the sender. Not to mention clogs up my mail space, it's just junk I have to sift thru and I have a busy life, I don't need more stuff to clean up!! I saw your name, thought maybe you were thinking of me and wanted to say hi, instead I find I was just on your list and was subjected to this crap because YOU passed it on. Didn't you have anything better to do??? Like send me a real message?

An Ex Husband That Just Wont Go Away!
I have an ex husband that wont leave me the hell alone. He is trying to ruin the relationship that I am in right now. I was really hurt by him and it has taken me a long time to start feeling good about myself an trust a man again. He cheated on me a number of times, and still wont admit to it. But since I was being nice to him he thinks that there is something going on between us, he wants to tel my boyfriend that we have slept together and we haven't. He wants me to move with him to another town when I am in college here and my oldest is in school here as well. he not only cheated on me but he thought hitting was something a man should do to his wife. No one knows how much I dispise this man and I hate being hurt by him. He was only with me for money and I cant stand that. I had a heart attack a few weeks ago from the stress in my life and he is trying to make me have another one. He doesnt care about our kids together or anything like that. He only thinks of himself. Th

Rules Of Drunk Dialing
Rules of Drunk Dialing: 1. Only drunk dial when you are drunk. Everything else is false advertisement. 2. It is okay to call someone 27 times in one night. If you don't remember it, it didn't happen. 3. If you are going to drunk dial a family member, say something nice. Ex. "Mom I'm in McDonald's and they're playing our song. I love you" 4. Dirty talk while drunk dialing is always preferred. Who doesn't want to hear your best raspy, phone sex voice at 3 in the A.M. asking them to bend you over something. 5. Voicemails are always better. This way your friend can let their friends have fun at your expense for days, even weeks to come. 6. Drunk texting is alright... If you are prepared to read what you wrote the next day when you are sober 7. It is definitely a good idea to call all of your exes and remind them that you were the best lover they've ever had and everything they know, they learned from you. This way you can sleep well at night. 8. You can also ca

14 Reasons To Deport
(I got this from a circulating bulletin) I hope these 14 reasons are forwarded over and over again until they are read by the majority of Americans. Then they will have something to yell at their U.S. Congress members. 1. $11 Billion to $22 billion is spent on welfare to illegal aliens each year. http://tinyurl.com/zob77 2. $2.2 Billion dollars a year is spent on food assistance programs such as food stamps, WIC, and free school lunches for illegal aliens. http://www.cis.org/articles/2004/fiscalexec.html 3. $2.5 Billion dollars a year is spent on Medicaid for illegal aliens. http://www.cis.org/articles/2004/fiscalexec.html 4. $12 Billion dollars a year is spent on primary and secondary school education for children here illegally and they cannot speak a word of English! http://transcripts.cnn.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0604/01/ldt.0.html 5. $17 Billion dollars a year is spent for education for the American-born children of illegal aliens, known as anchor babies. http://

Question To Ponder
You are driving down the road in your car on a wild, stormy night, when you pass by a bus stop and you see three people waiting for the bus: 1. An old lady who looks as if she is about to die. 2. An old friend who once saved your life. 3 The perfect partner you have been dreaming about. Which one would you choose to offer a ride to, knowing that there could only be one passenger in your car. Think before you continue reading This is a moral/ethical dilemma that was once actually used as part of a job application. You could pick up the old lady, because she is going to die, and thus you should save her first. Or you could take the old friend because he once saved your life, and this would be the perfect chance to pay him back. However , you may never be able to find your perfect mate again. The candidate who was hired (out of 200 applicants) had no trouble coming up with his answer. He simply answered: "I would give the car keys to my old friend and

Omg Pottery Is Making Me Nuts!
WTF!!! Ok I have been a potter for 20 years hadn't thrown much for the past 10 but was able to pick up where I left off with out much trouble on size and stuff BUT every thing else has fought me every inch of the way! First my kick wheel gets messed up so I get an electric so I thought this is a good thing as I am getting older and don't like to work as hard LOL.. The first glaze load comes out like crap very under glazed so I get the next load ready & on the bisque firing one pot blows up and the kiln under fires so I glaze them and there just ok Ok next load bisque miss fires AGAIN but I glaze anyway MY BAD! The pots are just a little better then ok.. So we replace a burned out heating element wow now every thing should be great.. NOT! I put a load in yesterday for a bisque firing after waiting a week for the element to get here I flip my little switches every hour like I have for the past 20 years and 5 hours later the thing drops like it should, woo hoo I think I'

Mum Regarding Phone Sex
Just so you know, I personally know that having phone sex, while in a relationship, is a form of cheating. I posted the mum because I was curious what other people thought about it. I've talked with many people on here who see nothing wrong with it, and most of them are married. Assumptions, as well as rude comments, were made assuming that I'm stupid and that it's something I think is okay. FOR THE RECORD, I DO NOT THINK IT'S OKAY TO ENGAGE IN PHONE SEX, OR ANY FORM OF SEX, WHILE IN A RELATIONSHIP.

History Of Litha (midsummer)
Also known as Summer Solstice, Litha, Alban Hefin, Sun Blessing, Gathering Day, Feill-Sheathain, Whit Sunday, Whitsuntide, Vestalia, Thing-tide, St. John's Day In addition to the four great festivals of the Pagan Celtic year, there are four lesser holidays as well: the two solstices, and the two equinoxes. In folklore, these are referred to as the four 'quarter-days' of the year, and modern Witches call them the four 'Lesser Sabbats', or the four 'Low Holidays'. The Summer Solstice is one of them. Litha is usually celebrated on June 21st, but varies somewhat from the 20th to the 23rd, dependent upon the Earth's rotation around the Sun. According to the old folklore calendar, Summer begins on Beltane (May 1st) and ends on Lughnassadh (August 1st), with the Summer Solstice midway between the two, marking MID-Summer. This makes more logical sense than suggesting that Summer begins on the day when the Sun's power begins to wane and the days grow shorter. The most common other names

We're A Dying Breed And So Are The Girls Who Appreciate Us
We're a Dying Breed and so are the girls who appreciate us To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her. To every guy that gives flowers and a cardTo every guy that's said, "Sex can wait" when she is sick. To every guy who has given her flowers just because. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. To every guy that she cried in front of. To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes To every guy that wou

6/21/07
A certain comment really stings, but when you think about it, you have to admit that it wasn't necessarily malicious. It's just that this person was trying to get through to you and didn't know how else to put it. This is today's horoscope for me...which is so ironic! Some person has said repeatedly a comment that has continued to irritate me. I know it's not the truth but I don't care for what was said. I'm not that kind of person and do not use words like that. Yes, I'm aware this is very vague but just the thoughts in my head at this particular moment.

Diary Of A Stalker..........
Below is a list of people I am "Stalking". I will visiting their profiles each and everyday and leaving comments/rates, whatever I can. These people have given time and emotional support to me in one way or another. I will be adding more people, just wanted to get started on this post, so if you dont see yur name right away, trust me you will. These names are in no particular order, just grabbing them as I see them. Thanks to all of you. goose1060@ CherryTAP Goose 1060 cameronthecrow@ CherryTAP cameronthecrow Floetic@ CherryTAP Floetic ~*Blair*~@ CherryTAP Blair DoubleNaughtSpy@ CherryTAP DoubleNaughtSpy The Chief@ CherryTAP The Chief longnslow@ CherryTAP longnslow Yellow Rose~Wife of Furey@ CherryTAP Yellow Rose-Wife of Furey furey@ CherryTAP Furey BooBoo.......

Carole Lee Rebecca Banks
i am so lucky to have you in my life love . they say that everyone has another half to ther sole out ther some were . well in you i think ive found it love , you say you dont think your beautiful but how can that be love . when to me even a rose bows to your beauty , well i guess those three simple werds are so very true . I LOVE YOU with all my heart and sole love muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and a hug from my heart love .

I Am Undamaged
I am undamaged and I am a fighter When you think you have beat me, I will fight harder I will cry and I will hurt but, it will only fuel the fire You will see who I really am on my darkest day I am undamaged and I am a fighter You think I will regret and that I will cower That you are my last chance at beginning You were only a chapter, barely worth mentioning I will always love, I will always fight, it's who I am It's in my viens, it's how I live, you will not break me I am undamaged, I am a fighter..you will not defeat me

Nerves
I am starting to get a little nervous. I am getting married soon and my fiance is an absolutely wonderful man. My problem is that I have had a very sheltered life, and worry about if I am going to be able to please him. He definitely has a lot more experience than I do, and what experiences I have had have been with very closed minded individuals. Help! I want everything to be perfect with him because I love him so much and will do anything for him. I want to learn new things, but I'm not willing to cheat on him to learn them, and he will be back in the states soon. I will be seeing him in a month, so I don't have much time. Any suggestions out there?????

Ok I Give Up.!!!!!..please Leave Comments Here
Ok after numerous letters to CT..no one will fix my BAr TAb...so Im gonna have to try it this way...should you leave photo rates...or stash rates on my page...can you pop here..and let me know..that way I can get back to you..cos at this stage..nothing is saving in my tab..only friend requests...and profile comments up the top... Thanks guys sorry about this..but its the only way I can return the favour.. Hugz...Molly xoxo PS I will check this everyday...so you should get rates returned with in the same day...thanks again xoxox

My Black Prince
TAKE HOLD,OF THE KNOWLEDGE MUST BE TOLD.YOU ARE A 'BLACKMAN'HERE TO UPHOLD,THE 'TRUTH'.THE TRUTH IS THE POWER,THAT REFLECTS YOUR 'DIVINE LIGHT',ON ALL THAT'S WRONG,MAKING IT RIGHT. STAND STRONG! MY BLACK PRINCE TAKE HOLD,OF THE DUTIES YOU POSSESS PLANT YOUR SEED OF LIFE,TO REFLECT YOUR BEST KNOW THAT THE KNOWLEDGE AND WISDOM,YOU MANIFEST WILL BRING FORTH THE UNDERSTANDING,OF LOVE PEACE AND HAPPINESS. Please Educate Allah's Children Everyday THIS IS DEDICATED TO ALL MY BLACK BROTHAS,BUT MOST OF ALL,MY SONS,ROYCE,SAYDU,SHALLAH & KWA'MEL 'I LOVE YOU'

My Angel
My Angel By: Ashley In my whole life, There is no one else like you Someone who changed my life, Just by being you. You are an angel to me The music of your laughter still lightens my inner ear You showed me you believed, That there really is good here You are an angel for me. You showed me you believed, that there really is good here. You are an angel for me. You showed me that you care, When I am really down, you never turn away, Nor, show a saddened frown. You are an angel beside me Even when you're sad and blue, And life is hard on you. You always spare me one more smile Just like God's loving child that you are You are God's angel to me. You have done so much for me And giving me your time I have a gift for you, With this imperfect rhyme Thank you my angel friend!

Help Me ???
i dont do this often but i need everyones help ive reached my rating limit for my level so if everyone could help me level up i promise i will do my best to help anyone out if they need it in the future thanks ®__Pain__®

In Love
i came to ct to meet friends. and then somthing happen i fell in love. with someone from ct he makes me happy. he gave somthing back to me that i lost and that is being happy.my love for him is very strong and he makes me fell all worm inside.and he is so sweet to me.i think abought him all the time. he is very special to me.if it was not for ct i would of never meet him and this person is michigan cowboy joe thank you baby i love you with all my hart.

Untitled - Simple Plan
I open my eyes I try to see but i'm blinded By the white light I can't remember how I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight And i can't stand the pain And i can't make it go away No i can't stand the pain How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes Got nowhere to run The night goes on As i'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me? Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound But no one hears me I'm slipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So i try to hold onto a time When nothing mattered And i can't explain what happened And i can't erase the things that i've done No i can't How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes Got nowhere to run The night goes on As i'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me? I've made my mistakes Got nowhere to run The night goes on As i'm fading away I'm sick of this life I

If Your Gothic And You Know It ...
If you're Gothic and you know it, dress in black... If you're Gothic and you know it, dress in black... If you're Gothic and you know it, then your clothes will surely show it, If you're Gothic and you know it, dress in black! If you're Gothic and you know it, be depressed... If you're Gothic and you know it, be depressed... If you're Gothic and you know it, then your angst will surely show it, If you're Gothic and you know it, be depressed! If you're Gothic and you know it, slash your wrists... If you're Gothic and you know it, slash your wrists... If you're Gothic and you know it, then your scars will surely show it, If you're Gothic and you know it, slash your wrists! If you're Gothic and you know it, kill your friends... If you're Gothic and you know it, kill your friends... If you're Gothic and you know it, then the body count will show it, If you're Gothic and you know it, kill your friends!

I Am Compelled By The Brain Worms....
Another older blog, as I try to consolidate and close other sites down and keep to the only one I'm actually using :) All I can say is if you think monkeys are funny, take a gander.... It's from Joel Veitch @ http://www.rathergood.com who you might remember more from his "inspirational" yet lovable Quizno's "SpongeMonkey" Ad And in case you haven't gotten enough with these two, also try these;but be forewarned: they are not for everyone and have a bit of vulgarity... The Cute Harp Seals in "Seepage..." ...sorta reminds me of Olestra.... Or even a little more of the just not right with: Cat's Singin' about Fishies or a few Rather Naughty, Rude Hedgehogs

Nsfw - Huh?
I'm confused..how can using the word "Sex" be NSFW yet someone can post a comment on my page of 2 people having sex? Can someone explain this to me? What is NSFW? How do you recognize it? Maybe I am just having a blond moment but I really don't get it. :(

A Poem From A Submissive
My mind is reeling Becuase i'm feeling The need to just let go Overcome with lust It is a must This place i have to know Overwhelming, deeply delving into this black abyss Release is teasing Pain is pleasing He wakes me with a gentle kiss One the floor screaming for more He takes without a thought His to take He will not break this pleasure He has brought Yearning, burning, bodies churning softly in the moonlight cries of passion, pain and fire echoing, out into the night. His to have, to take, to use without a simple care and He will always fill that need Because He can take me there. Heather 6-09-07

Bout Wuts Goin On...
ok I told you all I would keep ya posted.. so here goes.. today was my apt with the urologist/oncologist... it was at 9:45 am, I found the doctor to be outstanding and to the point he didn't beat about the bush, which I can't stand so he stood good in my book, no he didn't tell me what I wanted to hear but he didn't sugar coat it either, cause I really hate the sugar coating.. I was informed today that the mass found in my left kidney is .. how do I say this.. well, ya know how the kidney is shaped like a lima bean (poor example but its the best I can give ya) well... my mass is... hell wait ill show ya..ok you see the kidney below.. well NORMAL people get there masses on the top or the bottom BUT me.. as you all know isn't normal mine is right by the number 3 or 4 area which contains a main artery, so therefor its more tricky to get to .. yeah me.. and they can't just cut out a part of the kidney due to the area its in.. the kidney has to go, so yeah I am going to be having m

Daddy' S Falling Angel
Pull these scars off my eyes Lost from the world A child searching for her dad You left me there alone With him to rape my world And I lived through the years a girl Pleading why In my dreams last night I saw your face You held me and washed away my tears Then i woke to realize you're gone I'm drowning in solitude again I thank god for my mother's love Through years of broken innocence She carried me through the light When you realize that fate is gone Just look at me and say goodbye So tell me how you feel So tell me how As these years and time go racing by I'm drowning in solitude again No this won't kill me

Chinese Horoscope
DO NOT CHEAT OR IT WON'T WORK AND YOU WILL WISH YOU HADN`T. TAKE 3 MINUTES TRY THIS - IT WILL FREAK YOU OUT. NO CHEATING!!!! THIS GAME HAS A FUNNY / CREEPY OUTCOME. DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT. IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY 1st. Get PEN and PAPER 2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW 3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for good results. 4th SCROLL DOWN ONE LINE AT THE TIME DON`T READ AHEAD otherwise YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN. 1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT. 2. Next to the NUMBERS 1 & 2, WRITE DOWN ANY 2 NUMBERS YOU WANT. DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER? 3. Next to the NUMBERS 3 & 7, WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX. SAME SEX IF GAY CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHE

Explodey Heart Thing
thats the name of some music i wrote a while back, and here are the lyrics i wrote for it this morning. make dance my thoughts of you make walls make insecurities who'd stand between us melt away like popsicles on summer days chorus: now i'm just me and you're just you and we're just how we should have been all along. make inhibitions pale you take away this silly veil of all the things i've learned to sell to everyone of how i really am calculating five times ten times ten again would make five hundred, how many years it'd take to show you just how much i love you when you stare me down you strip me down you peel away my layers now im just me and you're just you and we're just how we should have been all along. yeah thats all i got in me for now.

She Was Going To Be A Nurse
There was a girl who left here in Asheville at 18... She wanted to help so she joined Special Forces Civil Affairs... She Graduated from training and was shipped to Iraq... In Sadr City she was the only female in her unit... Her unit was assigned to augment SF A teams and Rangers... They gave the would be nurse healer a 50 caliber machine gun... And turned her into a killing machine like the rest of us... Everytime I see her downtown now at Joli Rouge or going to Denny's and the Waffle House on Tunnel Road with her BF-She sees me and starts to cry... And thousands other like her are coming home everyday just when congress is cutting funding for counselling for the returning veterans... I love this country-I spent the best part of 22 years fighting for it... However-We have an atrocious record of taking care of our returning wounded soldiers (Both Physical and Mental)...

A Victim Of My Own Morals
So I guess I am a victim of my own morals, meaning that I am who I am and I can't change that, I see a lot of injustice in this world and it sickens me. I know that I can't change the world but if I could this is what I would change, 1. first thing I would change is making sure every child had a enough to eat, before they went to bed at night, and a simple promise from someone who mattered at their bed side that things would be OK in the morning and its OK to believe , a home that was built with love and respect that no storm could tear down and no bank could ever take from them cause the mortgage "making under the poverty line" would only be 400 a year. 2,make sure that older Americans had a real voice instead of being carefully tucked away in some old age home,because other more "youthful Americans", think they have out lived their usefulness one day someone will know that they will be respected for the life, lessons that they have and can share that have meaning to others, the lin

Thinking Of You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thinking of you night and day,I wasn't expecting you to leave this way.I came home you wasn't here,now i'm sitting here shedding tears.I cry so much till it hurts,I'm sitting here feeling like a jerk.I loved the way you held me tight,letting me know everything would be alright.I'm sad don't know what to do,All I know is that I miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why Do People Care About Downraters?
i don't get it. people upload pics to be rated, then go ape shit when their pics are downrated. it doesn't make sense. i mean, isn't that the whole point? for someone's pics to be rated? plus, not everyone rates a ten and for the ppl who do it on purpose, instead of bitching and whining, all they have to do is just hit the block link. it's not that hard.

What The Hell?
So as if work hasn't been stressful enough, today 2 people are out today. So not only do I have to cover the extra florrs I have been covering, I have to keep an eye on the floors for one of the people that is out. And now I'm also supposed to drop everyting and do phone support too. I told my boss I cannot do it all. I don't know what he expects. Oh, and the icing on the cake - my boss asks the manager of another group to help out and he says his guys can help us out with stuff we can't resolve, but we have to do the primary troubleshooting. Yeah, can't say I've seen his guys putting in 10 hrs OT a week and skipping their lunch breaks. Some days I just so want to walk right out the door!!!

Confusion
All the time in the world. It is what the proverbial 'they' say that I have. I suppose allegorically speaking I do since there is no outline to life and how it should be lived. There are days where I feel I am wasting time or rather, my life away. Other days where I do not even think of it at all. Lately it is more the former considerably than the latter. So what do I do? It would be said by the same proverbial 'they' to do what makes me happy. I'm not entirely sure what that would be anymore. Could it be that fear and doubt have crept too far into my mind casting a murky shadow over my soul? Not entirely unlikely. I know what it is that stops me from choosing. My first step is to call it by it's name. Then I must face it.

Feelin' Mad Catwoman-y!
Last Friday I had lunch plans with my mum 4 noon... Did my random errand-ish blah, cleaned up, showered and changed. Was wicked giddy about the sunshiney goodness and smiled crooked as I slammed the front door behind me... turning slowly realized that my car/house etc keys were hanging from the Winnie the Pooh rack INSIDE. Blah! Ran around frantically checking all the 1st floor windows and doors. Of course all were lowered and locked. (insert GRR here) Scoured the yard and came up with a plan- 3 air conditioners, 10 masonry slabs, and a above ground pool ladder all facilitated my clambering onto the roof and ninja rolling to to slightly ajar 2nd floor bedroom window. Yay breaking into my own house by means of transcending my uber clumsiness :) After snaking through the 1/2 window I lay on the soft cream shag and just giggled.

God Heals
God Heals Remember when you heard the words - and your mind went blank - you were in another world God heals Remember in your darkest hours - when all that surrounds you is pain and sorrow God heals Remember friends' prayers - your family's encouragement - glimmers of hope from everyday angels God heals Quiet...you can hear Him now - always there - yet never this close God heals It's just another day - yet everything has changed - and you hear yourself say God heals Birds are singing - the sky is a beautiful blue - flowers are blooming... God heals Truths that you knew as a child - awakened again with new understanding God heals Remember when others can't - that life is a gift - each day to treasure God Has Healed

Vacation
okay since not everyoen knows i'm out on vacation next week, gone on the 23rd and i'll be back in my office on the 2nd. miss me, tease me send me nasty emails.. ya know the trick. ask me all bout it when i'm home and i'll see what sorta pics i can post and don't let me hear you were being bad... without thinking about me :P

Choke.
You are my angel. Clothed in ink and silken threads. You are the cataclysmic embodiment of longing. Enveloping me with your essence. Come closer. Run away. Show me a glimpse of what could be. Reach out with tapered fingers to close my eyes. Give a little. Take it away. Break my heart with little lies. And mend it with the truth inside. Slide into me with reckless abandon and stand aside while I cry. You make me whole. You shatter me with your indifference. The scent of you lingers upon my skin. I breathe. I choke. I wait for you every moment. I don't want you. I need you like my lungs need air.

Friends...
Friends are special and friendships are precious. People become friends and form friendships because they have things in common. Most people like to be treated with admiration, dignity and respect. Since friends are indeed special, the people we value as friends should be treated special with admiration, dignity and respect. In this way, there is a give and take dynamic that is always present which gives credence and credibility to how much we really do value our friends.

Late Night Reading!!!!
For years now, a group of my friends and I have been getting together once a month to play "Bunco", a friendly dice game. We are all close to the same age and it is really just an excuse to get together, socialize and have some fun with "the girls." One particular evening proved to be a very pleasurable time for myself and my friend Kelly. We are both married and have been good friends for a long time. Several years ago when our children were much younger, the "Bunco Club" was an excuse to get away from our families for an evening. Each of the Bunco Club members would take turns hosting the monthly gathering and come up with different prizes and other fun activities. Husbands and children of the hostess would disappear for the evening so we could talk about anything and everything. Somewhere along the line, we began watching x-rated videos at our Bunco parties. I'm not even sure how that practice got started, but we would watch them, laugh at the poor acting an

Remember Me
To Remember Me The day will come when my body will lie upon a white sheet neatly tucked under four four corners of a mattress located in a hospital busily occupied with the living and the dying. At a certain moment a doctor will determine that my brain has ceased to function and that, for all intents and purposes, my life has stopped. When that happens, do not attempt to install artificial life into my body by the use of a machine. Don't call this my deathbed, Let it be called the Bed of Life, and and let my body be taken from it to help others lead fuller lives. Give my sight to the man who has never seen a sunrise, a babies face or love in the eyes of a woman. Give my heart to a person whose own heart has caused nothing but endless days of pain. Give my blood to the teenager who was pulled from the wreckage of his car, so that he may live to see his grandchildren play. Give my kidneys to the one who depends on a machine to exist from week to week. Take my bones, every

Found Her
Ok, so I’m out in the back yard, with my dogs and I hear this noise that sounds like a kitten crying. So I go toward the noise, pass my outside dog. I look down over the hill into the woods, and I see this cute little kitten. She starts to come toward me; I have to get her because my dog might eat her. So I get her, and its so heart breaking that someone had discarded this cute little kitten. It touch me so much cause like her I had been discarded by the ones that I loved and who was supposed to love me in return. I take her to the house, my son comes out to see her, along with one of the dogs an let me tell you that’s when I found out she doesn’t like dogs. My other cat has taken and interest in her, so I let him out she didn’t like him either. She is starting to get use to the fact of the dogs and the cat. She has to sleep with me, she can’t be anywhere else. I know that she was dropped of cause if she was born outside most likely she would not have come near me. But she is just so

Rate, Fan & Add The Following...
H♥llieH♥ttie™ {President of I.A.R. Bombsquad & Founder of I.A.R Fan Train} .:Lµ¢¥:. {Vice President of I.A.R. Bombsquad & Co-Founder of I.A.R Fan Train} "Fez" Real Life Husband to H♥llieH♥ttie™{I.A.R. Bombsquad & FanTrain #1} SheeRa ~Monkey's CT Wifey~{I.A.R. Bombsquad & Fan Train #2} .Çrå§h. Real Life Hubby 2 †Lµ¢¥† .:I.A.R. #3:. BRAD - ©REAL MEN WEAR PINK ™®{I.A.R.#4} tastyflutterby{I.A.R.#5} Luscious♥Mami - Fan before friend, plz{I.A.R.#6} Texan Vixen*IAR Bombsquad#7* §~Trista~§{IAR Bombsquad#8} (: Taki :){IAR Bombsquad#9}

Be My Wife
Under the moonlit sky with stars shining bright, Looking at you on this gorgeous night, I have a confession, a question for you, Ive loved you right from the beginning, Ive watched you grow, So baby just know that all my life Ive wished for you and the day you Become my wife. I give you a kiss, your just standing there, So I run my fingers through your Long silky hair, I love you girl, more than you'll know, You've won my heart so don't ever let go. Your my darling, my best friend You'll never know what you mean to me, A feeling of happiness, like being set free, I always knew we were meant to be, Locked as one our hearts shall beat, There I'll pray our souls will meet. Looking fine we'll intertwine Now I plan to make you mine. So on this special night under the moonlit Sky with stars shining bright, I turn to you and look you in the eye, My love, my reason why, I love you...soo much, I give you my heart, you can have my soul, If you say you'll marry

The Most Romantic Song I've Ever Heard (imo)
It's the main song on my profile now, so take a listen. I know I'm a cheeseball but I just love the way it's written. If I ever got married (HA!) I'd want this to be played there, definitely. What love songs do you consider the best, or your favorite? Please comment, I'm so very lonely... :( The Luckiest by Ben Folds Five I dont get many things right the first time In fact, I am told that a lot Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls Brought me here And where was I before the day That I first saw your lovely face? Now I see it everyday And I know That I am I am I am The luckiest What if Id been born fifty years before you In a house on a street where you lived? Maybe Id be outside as you passed on your bike Would I know? And in a white sea of eyes I see one pair that I recognize And I know That I am I am I am The luckiest I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you Next door theres an old man who lived to his ni

Hurt Feelings
My daughter called me today. This is my Saturday to have my kids. She told me she was going to come with me this weekend and it made me feel so good I almost cried. We talked for a few minutes and then she said oh I can't come with you this weekend I forgot I have plans. Boy talk about a smack in the face. I was really hoping to get to see her this weekend since she doesn't normally come with me. Guess it will just be me and my son again. I'm sure we will have just as much fun as we always do. To bad my daughter doesn't realize all the fun she is missing spending time with her dad and brother. I know I wish my dad had been around when I was growing up. She doesn't realize that you don't get this time back. I hope one day she will realize it and start spending time with me.

Cams, True Friends, And Bullshit
Ok..this is a blog to rant, so if you can't deal with ranting, or you are easily offended, then don't waste my or your time reading on pass this part... It has come to my attention, since joining in here on the 5th of June of 2007, that some guys have actually had the nerve to ask for my email and then ask me to show myself on cam. First off, I do NOT just show whoever myself on that fucking thing. I feel degraded and insulted when all you want to see is my fucking body naked. I don't have a problem with my bopdy, but I do have a problem with a complete stranger wanting to see it. If all you are going to do is ask to see me on it, then don't waste your breath, because it won't happen. Hell, even the people that I am seeing (yes, I said people...don't ask...for another blog at another time), even they can't get me to strip down for them and turn on the cam. Yeah, they know me, and yeah, I tease them and say that I am naked, but you know what?? That is all for fun between us, a

How Happy Am I?
Merritt, currently your happiness baseline is 94, which is higher than 98 percent of the other people who took The Happiness Test. What this baseline means is that, taking both your high and low moods into account, your range of happiness, tends to be around this level. As most of us know from first-hand experience, happiness is a changeable thing. In fact, you've probably felt your own overall happiness level shift from year to year, month to month, or even day to day. It's natural to experience highs and lows at different moments in your life. If you expect to feel the happiest of happy all of the time, you'll probably be disappointed. However, you can strive to elevate your baseline of happiness, so that the lows you experience are not as low, and the highs you experience are even higher. A person's overall level of happiness is more consistent than an individual mood or passing feeling. Your baseline for happiness provides a kind of foundation for your emotions and

Shrimp Creole
6 Tablespoons unsalted butter 1 onion, thinly sliced 1 green pepper, seeded and thinly sliced 2 celery stalks, thinly sliced 2 garlic cloves, minced 1 bay leaf 2 Tablespoons paprika 2 cups skinned, chopped ripe tomatoes 1 cup of tomato juice 4 teaspoons of Worcestershire sauce 4-6 dashes Tabasco sauce salt 1-1/2 teaspoons cornstarch 3 lb. fresh raw shrimp, peeled and deveined Melt 2 tablespoons of butter in a large skillet and sauté the onion, green pepper, celery, garlic and bay leaf for 2-3 minutes. Add the paprika, tomatoes, tomato juice, Worcestershire and Tabasco sauces.

His Kiss
We stood in the doorway, his hands on my waist, the clock ticking loudly almost in haste. He moved in closer, his eyes locked in mine, I long for his kiss for just a moment in time. His lips meet mine and I feel the sensation, no longer must I wait to give in to sweet temptation. My knees go weak, my palms become sweaty, I go back to that place I have been so many times already. The world disappears, all that's left is him and I, and as we pull away I feel as though I can fly...

Can You Believe This Crap?
Ok, this is my first blog. Depending on the results, well we’ll see. I’ve read and voted on so many others and finally thought I would give it a try. Reading other peoples about other peoples thoughts and problems has sort of helped me deal with some of mine. I thank you all for sharing those things with the rest of us. The reasons for this little foray into my self expression will become clearer as you read on. I hope you all enjoy reading this, and will share your thoughts on this extremely confusing and demented look into my so called life. Now lets get to our story: About 2yrs ago I received a phone call from one of my sisters. At first it was a “How are you doing type?” conversation, but after a few minutes it turned to something very sinister. When I asked about my mother she proceeded to inform me that my mother had passed away. Not just that day but 2yrs before this phone call was taking place. I say again 2yrs before this phone call took place. After the initial shock of

Thnk You For All The Love
Thank you for all the love.Thank you to everyone for Rating,Fanning and adding me as a friend.Im having a hard time keeping up with my alert box So if you will do me a favor and comment in here if you rated my stash or pictures so I can come bck and rate yours.Im trying to write everyones name down but at this point I dont want to miss nyone.Thnk you agin.You all have made me thnkful for my friendships not just tonight but every day.Much Love

Friends List
Hello all! I've decided to do a somewhat massive friends deletion. I'm not mad or snobby or anything, I just can't keep up with everyone, and there are some people on there I've never even talked to. However, if you're in my "family," or I've talked to you at all recently, or, hell, even if you have something interesting in your "about me" section, I won't be deleting you, of course. :) I'd just really like to be able to navigate through my friends list and know who everyone is. If you'd like to stay on and we haven't talked in a while (or ever) just send me a message and let me know! Thanks everyone! Alissa

Why Are People Ignorant
Why do people think that they have to keep asking you to do something that you do not want to do. What I mean is by turning on your cam or showing naked pics. When this people ask you to do it and you do not do what they ask. Why is it that if they do not get what they want they say bye. I feel that them acting this way just shows what kind of person they truly are if they do not get there way. Come one we are not children here and if you do not get are way say bye. Grow up this is an adult site.

Internet Love
It happens all to rare in life, you meet someone called friend That special bond that holds us close, and hangs on till the end Even rarer those bonds form `tween those who've never met Who've rolled the dice, or drew a card, played on the internet We dawn our quotes and avatars, emoticons and all We roll on floors and laugh out loud, while hugs and kisses fill the hall But in you love, i've found much more than any friend could give A warmth, a love, a passion, a reason for to live. You never come without a smile, or kind and loving thought You rouse such feelings deep within me, i had long forgot Just dots and letters, a picture of flowers, it somehow isn't fair That these are all i have my love, to show how much i care And so my dear, don't wonder why, or how we got our start Just know one thing, my sweet sweet love, you'll always have my heart. Feel free to comment

Big Girls Dont Cry
AM SO FEELING THIS SONG.. CHECK IT OUT ON MY PROFILE..... I NEED TO TAKE ITS ADVICE AND BE A BIG GIRL NOW Fergie Big Girls Don't Cry Da Da Da Da The smell of your skin lingers on me now Your probably on your flight back to your home town I need some shelter of my own protection baby To be with myself instead of calamity Peace, Serenity [CHORUS] I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal, Myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But Ive got to get a move on with my life Its time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Don't cry Don't cry Don't cry The path that I'm walking I must go alone I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay [CHORUS] I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to with you It's personal, Myself and I We

Brain Challenge
This is weird, but interesting! fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can. i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

Something Abstract
You fill my Thoughts You fill my Dreams You fill my Desires Yet you do not fill my Arms The distance is Afar Time passes Slow The other end of a Phone And CT are what I Have As time draws Near The distance becomes Clear Waiting for Beauty My One and Only Cutie My smile says it All I'm in Neverland My tinkerbell Awaits 10 Seconds is Heaven

It's Been Too Damn Long!
I haven't hung out in Dominican places in forever and now I'm wondering what the hell is wrong with me! lol Damn, was tonight fun! From the food to the music to the dancing and the guys! lol Now I can't wait to get down to the DR, and I even convinced my friend to join me in bellydancing! :)

Butterflies... ( In Progress)
Heart fluttering and hands sweating she approaches. Slowly at first, her body trembling with anticipation. She softly kisses her lover on the lips letting her own lips linger just for a moment before pulling away to look deep in her eyes. She's waited so long for this evening she wants to savor every moment. She lets every noise and worry dissipate as she immerses in what promises to be the single most euphoric experience of her entire adult life. Her lover just as inexperienced as she traces her lips gently with her toungue and nibbles on her bottom lip while trying to contain the fire that burns within. Lena unable to contain herself any longer grabs a hold of Maxie pulls her close and kisses her deeply playing with her toungue as she caresses her breasts. Maxie arching her back grabs Lena by the hair and kisses her harder and deeper, moaning as she guides her to the bed (never letting her hands fall away from Lena even for a second). As they fall together onto the bed

Yeah A Lot Going On...
I am so swamped with school two people never showed for the group project and tonight one of the other team members send me an email say she won't be able to participate due to computer problems. It is 5:15 am and I have been up all night working on the project trying to fill in the gaps that the others left. I babysat for a friend tonight who has three kids. So all together I had 7 little turkeys running around Pheww! Talk about nerve racking when you are trying to work on a paper. I restarted my novel today. God I started it over a year ago and got side tracked with everything else that was going on. But I just keep adding things to my plate. Not like I think that I have enough going on. But a girl can never be too busy I guess cause I have been truning on my messenger to try to keep in touch with my friends. Those of you who don't have it and who I haven't been keeping in touch with I am really sorry. Money is tight right now so I am trying to keep my distance from everyone as to no

Broken Smile ( A Poem I Guess)
I Am Not Always Strong. Sometimes, I Feel Like Giving Up. But I Keep Pushing On. I Put On a Smile And Act Like Everything Is Okay, But its Not So I Put Up my Broken Smile and Put On a Show. Well Sometimes I Get Scared To, But Hush Hush Little Broken Smile. It Will Never Tell. The Secrets It Holds In Deep Down In Side. A Life is Only as Hollow as Its Deft, Tell Me How Deep is this Little Broken Smile. If you Knew Would you Weep or Would you Rejoys and Pray to your God that My Hell Will Never Happen to you. Could you Look In to My Blacker then Pich Eyes and Say It Will be Okay, When you Know Nothing. So take your Pitty and Fears and Leave me and My Broken Smile to Put on Our Show. Act Like Everything Is Fine, And Just Let Us Lie.... By Me...

Thinking Out Loud.
I like the way you make me smile The way you dry my tears with laughter The way you give up sleep to be there for me The way have to be so sweet The way I can't stop thinking about you at the same time I'm scared as hell I don't want to trust . I want to hate guys I want to just lay and cry at night I want to try and make myself believe that I'm ok When I know i feel like i walked off of a cliff and I'm falling falling really far and I'm hittin bottom and its hurtin like hell My Hearts been shattered like glass && I don't know what to do about it I hurt I'm angry I'm happy I'm sad I'm giddy I'm warry I'm single I'm just me and thats all I can be. By me This is just me thinking out loud I dont really know what else to say its like not even makeing sense anymore. I mean I'm so confused and frustrated. so yea yall can comment if ya want . P.s. This is Like Old Lol the Poem

Poem For A Broken Heart
WHEN I LOOK AT YOU I AM BLOWN AWAY "I LOVE YOU" ARE NOT JUST WORDS I SAY WHEN I THINK OF YOU I GET CHOKED UP INSIDE MY FEELINGS ARE SO STRONG THEY ARE IMPOSSIBLE TO HIDE I SEE LOVE IN EVERYTHING YOU DO I LONG EVERYDAY AND NIGHT TO BE WITH YOU I LONG TO HOLD YOUR HAND AND STROKE YOUR FACE I LONG TO CARESS YOUR SKIN AND FEEL YOUR WARM EMBRACE I LONG TO SEE YOUR SMILE THAT LIGHTS UP ANY ROOM I LONG TO HEAR YOUR VOICE THAT ALWAYS MAKES ME SWOON I LONG TO FEEL YOU TOUCH MY SKIN AND FEEL THE FIRE IT IGNITES WITHIN I LONG TO MAKE PASSIONATE LOVE TOGETHER I LONG TO BE YOUR WOMAN FOREVER I LONG TO SPEND MY LIFE BY YOUR SIDE TO SCREAM TO THE WORLD THAT YOU ARE MINE BUT SADLY YOU DO NOT BELONG TO ME I KNOW THAT NOW IT IS PLAIN TO SEE MANY OTHERS OCCUPY YOUR HEART AND MIND CLEARLY YOU ARE NOT ONLY MINE SO FROM THIS DREAM I MUST AWAKE IF FOR NO REASON THEN FOR MY HEARTS SAKE I WIPE THE TEAR THAT RUNS DOWN MY CHEEK AND I CLOSE MY EYES AND TRY TO GO BACK

Doctor Results
Well, I went to the docs yesterday after being unwell all weekand the news wasnt good. Seems that my stomach is producing to much acid, and could slowly be eating itself :0 so I have to go have a whole load of tests next week, and Im rather worried. On the plus side, my mate has a tattoo designed for me, so Im getting that done on monday. Soooo should anyone feel like cheering me up.....

It Was Time For A Clean Up!
okay, just finished doing a complete "clean up" of my laptop lol (call it inset the recovery cd to do a full formating-installation from zero) i'm still installing few things but now the laptop works smooooth and quick just like i love it so lets see what's up now lol i'll be in an out, so please be patient with me! ahhh and last night i had the meeting before the Graduation Celebration... well it will be next august 25, and 9:30am, with all the stuff we have to wear lol and all that

Thanks For Having My Back
Hey, Just wanted to tell everyone that had my back and helped me out the other day when I got down rated thanks bunches. I over reacted a lil bit had a crap day and well it REALLY ticked me off lol. Thanks for listening to my hissy fit and letting me vent.

On The Road To Oregon.
The day has finally arrived. "D-Day!" I will be leaving in just a few hours to take a 3 day trip to see and be with my Kally Boo! I have waited for this day to come. Love is the basis for all relationships and I have earned her love. She has earned my love. So much so that I am willing to make this move to be with her. With the Grace of God on our side there is nothing that can stand between us...no matter how hard they try! Create yours at BlingyBlob.com!

Gibson And Moobaby Are In Soooo Very Much Trouble...
I came home Friday and discovered my home ransacked. They had turned into "Thing 1" and "Thing 2" and knocked over just about everything in site... including a blue flower vase that I had filled with flat marble-like objects instead of soil in a particular flower arrangements. I am still finding pieces of them all over the place. I think that they might have played floor hockey with the pieces as well!! I am glad someone is having fun in this place. Between school, studying, sleeping and work, I haven't had time to thing about having some fun. Any suggestions for something fun to do these days???

Friends Til Thee End
A hero is someone that reaches high above the stars Grabs someone's wishes and prays that they'll go far A hero never gives up on what they believe is true They'll be all they can be and they'll do all they can do A hero is someone who thinks highly of others Protects and provides for one another A hero stands by you through thick and through thin May not always get along but you're friends til' the end They're someone on whom you can always depend To stay close by through life's troubles and winds Keep your head up high and stay strong if have all of these things Because everyday you live with them by your side is a blessing

Military Life!
It may take you two minutes to read this, but if you do not take the time to read this you are one of the people this post is talking about. ____________________________________________________ You stay up for 16 hours He stays up for days on end. ____________________________________________________ You take a warm shower to help you wake up. He goes days or weeks without running water. ____________________________________________________ You complain of a "headache", and call in sick. He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward. ____________________________________________________ You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends. He still fights for your right to wear that shirt. ____________________________________________________ You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket. He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags. ______________________________________________

Insensitive People
Im aware Im a grown up now and I shouldnt have to explain shit to anyone, but every so often one too many people will say some insensitive shit to me or about me, and its usually directed at my weight. So to clear this shit up once and for all!!! Throughout my childhood up to the age of 19 I was a LOT thinner than I am now. Not super model thin, but I wore a size 14, nothin too horrible. I had a doctor tell me I had thyroid issues and put me on synthetic thyroid supplements or some shit, because I used to think, if a doctor gives it to me, I must NEED it, so I took them for a few months. At first there was no change. When I hit 20, I had gained almost 150 pounds due to the pills. A HUNDRED AND FIFTY!! Turned out I didnt NEED them and they totally fucked with me. I changed doctors after that and the new doctor took me off the pills and did a battery of new tests that hadnt been run before. He found out that I had a knee condition called sliding patella syndrome, and it was g

Passion Released
At night I lay cozy in my bed, While images of you dance through my head. You are standing there naked for me to see. You are beautiful and vibrant, a total fantasy. You walk slowly towards me with that look in your eye. That wanting, haunting look that gets me so high. Come closer my love and closer still. I have a void I want you to fill. Reach out your hand and caress my face, Oh please, oh please pick up the pace. I want you so bad I could just scream or cry. Touch my neck, now my breast, now my thigh... I feel your hot breath upon my cool skin, I feel your cock probing to get in. My body painfully aches for yours, I want you inside me... on all fours. Now enter my love, and feel this pure bliss, Fuck me, suck me, seal it with a kiss. Faster and deeper, now slow and then steady. I wanna make you climax, are you almost ready? Your breath and your moaning are growing strong, I realize now that it will not be long. I writhe my hips against you, just to tease.

Let's See What Silly Sentence U Come Up With (borrowed)
Let's see what silly sentence you come up with..Pass it along to a friend and be sure to leave a comment *winks* enjoy Take the last letter in your first name: A - I fucked B - I have C - I need D - I sucked E - I gave head to F - I got wet n wild with G - I tasted H - I played I - I swallowed down J - I blew K - I got down and dirty with L - I loved M - I hated N - I was desperate for O - I ordered P - I partied with Q - I had quickie with R - I got rowdy with S - I sold T - I turned on U - I gave birth to V - I stripped for W - I milked X - I gave head to Y - I aroused Z - I sold Take the last letter in your last name: A - a hobo B - a male stripper C - a cat D - a pencil E - a naked statue F - a firefighter G - a goat H - a MILF I - a bastard J - a male prostitute K - a clock L - an adult toy M - a Louis Vuitton bag

My Doggie
My doggie, which I call him my baby puppy is 15 years old and dying. He has been a memeber of my family since before my mom died and he was her little buddy, like he is now mine and he isnt going to be a part of my family much longer. My pictures have him in them because he is so special to me.

30 Lines To Make You Smile : )
1. My husband and I divorced over religious differences. He thought he was God and I didn't. 2. I don't suffer from insanity; I enjoy every minute of it. 3. I Work Hard Because Millions On Welfare Depend on Me! 4. Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them. 5. I used to have a handle on life, but it broke. 6. Don't take life too seriously; No one gets out alive. 7. You're just jealous because the voices only talk to me 8. Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder. 9. Earth is the insane asylum for the universe. 10. I'm not a complete idiot -- Some parts are missing. 11. Out of my mind. Back in five minutes. 12. NyQuil, the stuffy, sneezy, why-the-heck-is-the-room-spinning medicine. 13. God must love stupid people; He made so many. 14. The gene pool could use a little chlorine. 15. Consciousness: That annoying time between naps. 16. Ever stop to think, and forget to start again? 17. Being "o

F*cking With Head
This isnt about anyone in particular...but just an observation of all the people and situations combined. Do not take offense. It is just to let you know what goes on upstairs in my head. I have to get this out before my head explodes into a million particles of crap. For those who know me and have noticed me acting different, it is okay. I have not changed, but it is the real Christina coming out. She has been in hibernation for quiet some time. The strange music, the artsy stuff, the attitude........all meeeeeee!!!!. I am tired of being the person that everyone expects me to be. I dont care anymore. I am tired of living my life walking on eggshells worrying if i will offend anyone, hurt them, and treat them special when i dont have people do that to me. Bitchy ..yeah i know. But shit get over it. lol. I have lived most of my life playing by the rules, being fair, putting up with peoples shit for so long, Basically a pushover. I worked my ass off to get the thing that

11 Things I Really Hate What Woman Say
1. oh iam very hounest then you find them in a lie. 2. oh i want someone that is hounest then when you are they cant stand it. 3. oh we can be friends. 4. oh iam not like all woman then you find them to be like all the rest. 5. oh can you buy me this and dont stop asking for things like gold diggers are. 6. oh iam not cheating on you then you find them in bed with someone else. 7. i really hate when they say i love you and dont mean it like its a word to be toss around. 8. i really hate when someone filrts with you becuse you never no if they like you or not then you get hurt in the end. 9. i really hate when you want to meet up they alwasy make up something. 10. and this is the very woser of all any woman can say and do is i still love my bf even tho he treats me like shit hits me talk down to me takes my money cheats on me. 11. i really hate when they do find someone nice and sweet and that well do them right they dont want that guy but they do want the one that beats them

The Knife Game...
It was only the briefest of touches, a light brush of the fingertips over my cheek. My stomach tightened instinctively as I turned away and covered my face with my hands. I didn’t want him to see, to see my eyes, to know what I felt within my soul. For a moment it felt as if a light feather, the soft spines had been brushed over my body and I trembled involuntary. Waves of thoughts, moved through my mind, a numbness overpowering me. I ached for his touch again, but also feared what it could do to me. His hand traversed through my hair, tilting my head back as I glanced up for a moment, his eyes lit with a smile much brighter then touched his lips. The only word I can think of to describe how I felt at that moment was that I melted. A rush raced through me, as quickly as the sun would melt a shard of ice. As I pooled at his feet, I had no choice but to close my eyes for I knew he was easily able to cause me to boil, an eruption of emotions that could no longer be contained. I am s

Complete
passion once seeking has found a home resting on shoulders no longer alone two become one as the evening fades fate's final chapter of love that was made Each day to exist in each others eyes no more misery or branded lies only tomorrow can be felt in each touch only this moment completely in trust.

Princess Diana 10 Years Later And We Never Forgot You R I P
Princess Diana - Candle in the WindUploaded by Anneliese Candle In The Wind 1997 Music by Elton John Lyrics by Bernie Taupin Goodbye England's rose May you ever grow in our hearts You were the grace that placed itself Where lives were torn apart You called out to our country And you whispered to those in pain Now you belong to heaven And the stars spell out your name And it seems to me you lived your life Like a candle in the wind Never fading with the sunset When the rain set in And your footsteps will always fall here Along England's greenest hills Your candle's burned out long before Your legend ever will Loveliness we've lost These empty days without your smile This torch we'll always carry For our nation's golden child And even though we try The truth brings us to tears All our words cannot express The joy you brought us through the years And it seems to me you lived your life Like a candle in the wind Never fading with the sunset When the

Just An F.y.i
this type of crap...... 2007-06-23 21:24:49 holy fucking check out the tits on you i mean do you mind if i add you as a friend please philkelley@ CherryTAP gets you BLOCKED! thanks, have a nice day...buh bye now!

On Top Of My Stupid Bitch List.
Being a mother I have tried to raise my children to have respect for all people. They can be rambunctious at times... but when we are in public they listen. Today I am out shopping, there is a boy about the same age as my son pushing the cart while his mother shops. The mother is walking through the aisles and choosing this and that at random. Meanwhile her son is drag racing the cart up and down the aisle. Hitting a top speed of 12.53 miles an hour... the kid rams the cart into my spine. I have a bad back to begin with. So that kind of jolt knocked me to the floor. This was not a pleasant feeling what so ever. The thing about this whole situation that galls me the most is, she considered it my fault. I am laying on the floor and she comes up to me and says "You know.. you really should watch where you are going from now on and look out for people pushing carts." Not one word to her son. She did not reprimand him for his actions... nor did she apologize. People

A Marine's Responsibility To Our Fallen Never Ends
Oklahoma City, April 1995 Two United States Marines were among the 68 people killed by the terrorist bomb that destroyed the Alfred P. Murrah Federal Building. The Federal Emergency Management Agency deployed teams of firemen and police officers from New York City to help search the rubble for survivors and recover the dead. Several of these volunteers were Marine Reservists or former Marines (there are no "ex-Marines"). Police officer Michael Curtain, a Marine first sergeant in the Reserves, discovered a body pinned in the wreckage wearing the blue trousers with distinctive "blood stripe" of a Marine. He knew he had found the missing remains of Captain Randolph Guzman, executive officer of the recruiting station. Curtain asked permission to retrieve Captain Guzman's body--dangerous, laborious work. He found three other former Marines to lend a hand. Manny Hernandez, another police officer, said, "It was something I had to do. I had a squad in Nam, and whenever we lost

I Am So Honored To Get To Get These Poetry Award Achievements' !
Dear Martin, It's just a few short weeks until your poetic accomplishments will be honored at poetry.com's and the International Society of Poets' Summer 2005 Convention and Symposium, to be held at the Washington Hilton Hotel, Washington, DC, from August 19-21, 2005. I'm writing to tell you exactly what to expect and how to prepare for this special moment in your life. First, we have scheduled for you to receive your Outstanding Achievement in Poetry Silver Award Bowl immediately after you present your poetry in front of your fellow poets. You can count on a true international audience for your poetry as we already have poets registered from 50 countries around the world! Second, the award you will be receiving is so large and heavy that it may be a good idea for you to bring an extra suitcase to carry it home. The Award is a magnificent work of art (a $200.00 value) that measures over 10 inches across and over 11 inches high, handcrafted in silver, with your name custom-e

Erdomne Version Of Other One ;)
The setting sun casts its shadows through the barred window high in the wall. spread out before me there you lay. your body glistening in the faint glow of a torch spills it light through the cracks in the door.... As my eyes adjust to the dimness , you start to take shape. your long silky strands of fire red hair brush gently accross your shoulders. Across the cell I see you cowering in the corner. I see the reflection of sweat running down your face and neck. Your enchanting eyes sparkle with rays of excitement as I follow down the path of the sweat. I come to your soft shoulders and enticing neck showing out of the peasant shirt. Your bosom heaving with passion as I notice your clothes ripped and torn (from some long time off run through dark woods). Your long smooth legs exposed on the left side from the hip down. Yet even under the present conditions, you stand there as enchanting and seductive as any women of the high court. As The setting sun casts its

I Must Be Emo...
Dear Diary, Mood: Apathetic My life is spiraling downward. I couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry Concert. It sucks cause they play some of my favorite songs like 'Stab My Heart Because I Love You,' and 'Rip Apart My Soul,' and of course, 'Stabby Rip Stab Stab." and it doesn't help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either, like that guy from that band could do, some days you know. . . I'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be You'd be non-conforming to if u look just like me I have paint on my nails and make-up on my face I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs 'Cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag I call it freedom of expression most just call me a fag 'Cause their dudes look like chicks, their chicks look like dykes 'Cause emo is one step below transvestite Stop my breathing and slit my throat I must be emo I don't jump around when I go to shows I must be emo I'm dark

Vacation
This goes out to all members, From July 7th to July 22nd I will be on vacation & in the interim our dear Theresa will be available for any questions or problems anyone has. She is very qualified & ownes The Society Of Wolves our affiliate group. You can click on her name in our "member listing." I will miss you all tremendously but I am not allowed to bring my laptop (It doesn't work anyway)I hope you all are good to each other & help towards level each other up.In the event Corky's contest starts plz vote for our "sweetlady" Stacey. Well have fun, most important!! Much Love Pete

Rip
Yesterday morning, as I was headin to see my grandpa, my mother and I got a call that said he had passed away.. He went peacefully ... ate breakfast closed his eyes and never opened them again... no pain... I will miss ya grandpa WILD Bill!

Floored
Ummm,ok,where do I start lol.I had met someone from another chat site, hmm maybe a month or so ago that he was DJing at and I liked the music he played. He's a fun loving person and he's got a great sense of humor.He's always making me laugh. I liked him from the first time we met. Apparently they'd started out here on CT.When they left that other site I told him I wished I could still hear him on air.That's when he told me about CT and he suggested I join,so I did. I thought we were becoming great friends.We talked nearly everyday and for hours at a time lol :)) Last night he logged on and prepared to take air.I said,"Ok,I'm going to hop into the room too". I was sitting here listening and enjoying his show as I always do, when he starts saying he has someone in his life that he thought a lot of and he liked a lot.I thought to myself,"Omg what's he gonna say"!?!? lol.He then proposed to me,asking me to be his CT fiance'.I was floored.I wasn't expecting this at all.Of co

Update On My Mom
HI ALL just an update date on my mom. nothing has really changed since my last blog. she went to docs friday and the byopsy they did was inconclusive. so she has to go see a specialist for more test. so iam going to call her tomarrow and see when that one is. plus alot of other BS that went on this weekend and getting drunk and all so today iam just going to chill out and try and relax hahahhaha that is funny. Mike

Myspace
I have had a myspace profile for quite some time. About 40% of the users there are commercial spammers. Some are easy to detect, others are more sneaky. Some will actually try and phish your password and then spam all your friends with your account. People post huge files to you profile which makes it take forever to load even with broadband. Some member profiles actually crash my computer and/or my router. Here is the rant part. Yesterday I tried to send a bulletin to all my friends to tell them about cherrytap and the message got blocked by myspace and I got sent a warning message about my account. Myspace is running so slow today and I keep getting error messages. They better fix things, or I am leaving. Beth

Cheaters: A Cautionary Tale
Guys think they are slick, and they are at first. But with the wonderful world of the internet which includes Myspace, face book, cherry tap, yahoo and Google things are found out. So this brings me to the topic at hand. Cheaters. Being a semi attractive woman, I get hit on A LOT on the internet. Guys can’t help it, they think with their dicks. On any normal day I will just flirt back and leave it at that. But there is always one guy who slips through the radar, who I let get close to me because he SEEMS like a nice guy. This guy who slips through always knows what to say, what not to say and wants to make plans to meet up. That’s when the problems start. You see this one guy can’t just plan a date. This one guy has to work around his WIFE’S schedule, so that she does not find out about the girl he wants to meet up with and if he plays his cards right sleep with. He does this covertly, only talking to me when he is out of his house and does not answer his phone when I ca

I'm A Grandma!!!
As of yesterday at 9:41 p.m. eastern time, my step daughter gave birth to a healthy baby boy!!! Gabriel Alekzander King = 5 lbs 18 oz and 18 inches long... Soon I will be posting pictures of him when I get some...

For One Of The Comments On My Blog
first of all what you do while looking at my picture is your buisness i dont want to know what you do with your fucking little peckers and as far as trying to be sexy i dont have to try dear and if anyone else wants to say something about this ill just delete all my picture and quit ct

This Is To Sum 1 Who Had My Heart And Lost Him :(
if a kiss was a raindrop, I'd send you showers. if hugs were a second, I'd send you hours. if smiles were water, I'd send you the sea. if friendship was a person, I'd send you me . this was to sum 1 important to me and im dieing inside with out them in my life anymore

My Thought's On Friend's....
i want to start off by saying that, i am one truely honest person....i like u as a friend and only a friend unless i tell you otherwise!! if you are here just to try to make more than that, you might as well move on...unless you are like really really hott...like my crush...lol. but anyway's i just want to meet new people and have REAL conversation's!! please don't shout at me with some crazy shit like...do you like your toes sucked...come on now!! shit like that will make me want to block ya!! i don't get personal as i am a very personal person. i am a REAL PERSON....don't try to get your rock's off with me... cuz it won't happen!! if you can't accept that...then you need not add me!!

U Know Who You Are
don't get me wrong as u start to read this.... i love all the friends that i have made that are true, but i gotta tell you. some of you need to come at me with a lil bit more respect, maybe u think cause i have six kids i am easy, i dont know??? i can't figure out what it is maybe you need to just go to my photo page and check out the bbw rules cause that is me all day!!! the ones i am writing this for knows who they are, so i would appreciate if u back off before i have to get bitchy. thanks, sexxymamma*6

Cleaning Out My Closet
Starting tommorrow I will be cleaning out my Cherrytap friend closet ....The god ones know who you are and well the ones that serve no purpose that I have shown love to and never had the first conversation with "adios" .. no offense but I have a list of really awesome people I will be adding and requesting to add me ...and I have a great group of friends; you know the kind you can count on ... what friends are supposed to be so ... theres the deal .. and if your deleted you will most likely notice this or give a ratts butt anyway ... to all my friends "Muahs to you " to the rest good by!!!!

Male Vs. Female At The Atm Machine
MALE VS. FEMALE AT THE ATM MACHINE A new sign in the Bank Lobby reads: Please note that this Bank is installing new Drive-through ATM machines enabling customers to withdraw cash without leaving their vehicles. Customers using this new facility are requested to use the procedures outlined below when accessing their accounts.""After months of careful research, MALE > & FEMALE Procedures have been developed. Please follow the Appropriate steps for your gender." MALE PROCEDURE: 1. Drive up to the cash machine. 2. Put down your car window. 3. Insert card into machine and enter PIN. 4. Enter amount of cash required and withdraw. 5. Retrieve card, cash and receipt. 6. Put window up. 7. Drive off. ********************************************** FEMALE PROCEDURE: Unfortunately, most of this part is the Truth.!!!! 1. Drive up to cash machine. 2. Reverse and back up the required amount to align car window with the > machine. 3. Set parking brake, put t

This One's For The Smokers
I'm sure most of you have heard that they want to increase the tax by 156% on cigarettes. Its bad enough that, in Ohio, all public establishments are now NON-Smoking. It's had an effect on the local bars and eateries. I've heard from several different people --the ones I used to party with--that anymore, due to the non-smoking law...the bars are pretty much dead. I know it doesn't matter much to the non-smokers. But its a crock of s***! ============== Here's the flyer: ============== Now if this is a concern to you (the smokers) then visit NO CIG TAX click the "what you can do to help link" enter your zip code and have emails sent to your state reps and those who are responsible for voting on this. ============ Have a nice evening.

Ct's Sexiest Cherry Contest
I first want to Thank You personally MsDallas for hosting the contest and to all the Godfather/CT Mafia Family Alliance and friends that helped me to win, there are so many of You to thank that i can not name You all but i thank each and every one of You that had a part in my winning from the bottom of my heart!!!! I also would like to say congrats to all the other contestants that have won or just even took the time to participate in the contest, great going All!!!

Sisters
A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced tea and visiting with her Mother. As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter. "Don't forget your Sisters," she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. "They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you may have, you are still going to need Sisters. Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them." "Remember that 'Sisters' means ALL the women... your girlfriends, your daughters, and all your other women relatives too. "You'll need other women. Women always do." What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman thought. Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a married woman, for goodness s

I Have New Pics Of Me And Sarah!
Wolf was in fine form as he set up a photoshoot (and yes, sadly, that's all it was) with my good friend Sarah. I would have loved to have done more than take pics. ;) Hope you enjoy! It's in the new folder!

The Bipolar In Me
As some of you know I do suffer from a mental illness, but most are unaware. I now feel an urge to try an explain it's effects on me and give some insight on what it is like in my mind. In September 2003, I walked off my job, got in my car and drove. I didn't know where I was driving to or why. All I knew is that I had to get away. For approximately 2 to 3 hours I was missing. My friends, family and employer didn't know where I was. For that matter I didn't even know. I was stuck in y own world behind the wheel of a car driving to an unknown destination. Eventually I realized my cell phone was ringing in the passenger seat. It was my fiance (now my wife). She talked me home and once I arrived I went to the bedroom, curled up in a ball and laid there staring into nothingness. My now wife, immediately went to the phone book and found an emergency psych clinic to take me to then asked me to go and get checked out. For quite awhile everyone knew something just wasn't right with my b

Happy
for the 1st time in a long time things are going really well for me. i am dating a wounderful woman named tiffany*love you baby* my ass hole father hasnt been around, and im about to get a new job and say f*ck off to my current manager. i hope things keep going this way

Back.....
Back…. 6/24/07 There are things I wanna say but I cant figure out how To say them to you without hurting At least one of us. I love you, I truly do and you say You love me too. In fact you were the one to say it first. But then after a short time you Tried to run but something wouldn't Let you get very far from me. I however was going to let you run as far As you needed to without standing in your Way because after all that Is what you do when love something right? “Let it go and if it comes back its yours.” Yet I'm beginning to wonder if you Ever truly came back to me. For you see in the beginning we could Talk for hours on end about everything And anything. Yet now I feel as though you are Leaving me out in the rain And just simply shutting me out. I can't stand this feeling, I know you've Asked “what's wrong” so many times And time and time again i've said “Nothing I'm fine“. I want this feeling to go away. I want things to be like they wer

Features Some Ppl Dont Know About.
1) smileys for shout can be found here http://cherrytap.com/emotes.php# 2) You can Block ppl from ripping pictures from any folder except default the feauture is in your album options. 3) do ppls page skin slower your computer down you can now block most skins on ppls pages by blocking their skins which the option is in your profile settings. I WILL ADD MORE AS I GET THEM

A Little About Peeps On Friends List...
i have several issues that i could actually write on tonight but for now i am sticking to a subject i have been meaning to get to for a while now....people on my friends list. since joining cherrytap i am amazed at how many friends i have acquired and many of them i have contact with on a regular basis...yet i find myself getting behind when it comes to visiting pages. one of the reasons being it is a very busy place here on the tap and between mumms (which i really enjoy) and actually visiting pages and chatting with people i cant seem to keep up. so i just want to let all the ones on my list both friends and fans that i will get to you...lol. i try to get at least 4-5 people a night and instead of giving just a few rates here and there i actually look over profiles, check out blogs, pictures and stash and i leave as many rates as possible..it takes a while but that is the way i do it. if i am going to be giving some cherrylove then i am going to be giving alot. so hang in there and

You Found Me
Is this a dream? If it is Please don't wake me from this high I've become comfortably numb Until you opened up my eyes To what it's like When everything's right I can't believe You found me When no one else was lookin' How did you know just where I would be? Yeah, you broke through All of my confusion The ups and the downs And you still didn't leave I guess that you saw what nobody could see You found me You found me So, here we are That's pretty far When you think of where we've been No going back I'm fading out All that has faded me within You're by my side Now everything's fine I can't believe You found me When no one else was lookin' How did you know just where I would be? Yeah, you broke through All of my confusion The ups and the downs And you still didn't leave I guess that you saw what nobody could see You found me You found me And I was hiding 'Til you came along And showed me where I belong You found me You found me When no

Brain Power
"Even if you're not a genius, you can use the same strategies as Aristotle and Einstein to harness the power of your creative mind and better manage your future." The following eight strategies encourage you to think productively, rather than reproductively, in order to arrive at solutions to problems. "These strategies are common to the thinking styles of creative geniuses in science, art, and industry throughout history." The practice of genius (Guide blog #1) 1. Look at problems in many different ways, and find new perspectives that no one else has taken (or no one else has publicized!) Leonardo da Vinci believed that, to gain knowledge about the form of a problem, you begin by learning how to restructure it in many different ways. He felt that the first way he looked at a problem was too biased. Often, the problem itself is reconstructed and becomes a new one. 2. Visualize! When Einstein though

Stupid Ramblings
Have you ever sat and wondered why it is that you are different than everyone else? Why everyone around you appears to be so happy and then there is you? Why everyone else seems to have everything all figured out and then there is you? Ok well if not then you may was well stop reading this damn blog now, if you have feel free to continue reading and maybe find something that you can relate to along the way. I sat for a long time today thinking about the people I know as well as about some people I do not know and well, comparing my life to theirs I guess. I don’t normally do that sort of thing, but I have been doing many things lately that I normally do not do, so this wasn’t a huge shock or anything to me. The things that I was comparing made me look closely at my life of course and see what I have done and what I still have yet to do and what I hope to accomplish. How have I managed to live 30 years and really have nothing to show for any of those years except a child? Se

Hey All
I AM SORRY THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN HERE IS AWHILE OR ON MESSANGER! MY MOTHER HAD A STROKE BUT, FELL AND BROKE HIR HIP HAD TO HAVE HIP SURGERY AND I HAVE BEEN HELPING HER RECOVER! RIGHT NOW SHE IS STILL NOT HERSELF FOR SHE DOES NOT KNOW ME OR MY FAMILY. WE ARE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT IF THIS IS DUE TO THE STROKE OR THE MEDS THAT SHE IS ON AT THIS MOMENT! THANKS FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES FOR THEIR WERE SO MANY THAT I CAN'T GET BACK TO ALL OF THEM! GODDESS BLESS YOU ALL, LAURA

Soul Not Alone
You think your soul wanders all alone The things you have seen only few will have known You wander though not as alone as you think You did not see me beside you because we were out of sync That breeze that you felt when you felt so low Was just me there to remind you so that you would know No matter how alone you feel in your travels I will be there to keep you strong, see to it you do not unravel Through your days and your nights that your feeling so weak I am there to remind you how you are so unique I would miss this lonely soul and it's very special light How when it shines it shines ever so bright I know this lonely soul was not always this way It shall be bright as a beacon again one day And until that day comes I want this soul to know I will be there to watch the beauty when once more it is aglow

Burning.
Pretty words wrapped in velvet. The tinkle of laughter in the air. Bright sunshine daydreams. In which you are standing there. Sweet echo of emotion. A fever of desire. Waiting a lifetime just to hold you. As I turn to ash in this fire.

Oral Sex
Let me say this up front: I love to lick pussy. I love the smell of pussy. I love the taste of pussy. This blog is not to tell folks how to lick pussy. Every woman is different, and you'll have to experiment to find out what gets her off. (this kind of research is fun to do!) I've been married 17 years, and the one sure thing that drives my wife crazy is when I go down on her. First, I lick and kiss her thighs in a circle around her pussy. Then I move in towards her fat pussy lips, softly biting them. After that, I run my tongue between her lips and into her tight hole. I begin to rotate between the inside of her pussy, the outside of her lips, and sucking on her clit. Everyone once in a while, I "mistakenly" slip my tongue across her backdoor. After about 30 minutes, her breathing becomes rapid. This is the signal to isolate her clit and attack it with my tongue. I know she is close when she squeezes her thighs tightly around my head. Her back arches, and her hips begin to th

Quote For June 25
On Monday mornings I am dedicated to the proposition that all men are created jerks. -- H. Allen Smith Bonus Quote: And I said, I don't care if they lay me off either, because I told, I told Bill that if they move my desk one more time, then, then I'm, I'm quitting, I'm going to quit. And, and I told Don too, because they've moved my desk four times already this year, and I used to be over by the window, and I could see the squirrels, and they were married, but then, they switched from the Swingline to the Boston stapler, but I kept my Swingline stapler because it didn't bind up as much, and I kept the staples for the Swingline stapler and it's not okay because if they take my stapler then I'll set the building on fire... -- Milton Waddams, Office Space This public service is brought to you daily by CT's Yoda©, speak to you I will!

Unfaithful
Ever been unfaithful to your partner? Ever look at your partner when u are back after an affair? Ever think its wrong? Ever wondered why you did it? Ever think of stopping it? Is there a valid reason for being unfaithful? Is it wrong to ever started it. What is the reason of doing that? I stopped the car, looked into the mirror, another day went by, another day i was with the other woman, I know its wrong and i cant controlled myself I told her that I am going out with the boys, and it won't be long She gives me a smile and say " take you time" And I left. Walking to the door I see her opening up the door Filled with smiles, Telling me dinner is ready. I stared into her eyes and I wondered Does she know? Maybe she knows I'm unfaithful but she will never asked. It breaks her heart but she is holding on It kills her inside but she just wants me to be happy. I dont want to do this anymore, I dont want to hurt her anymore, I dont want to tear her apart, B

Is It Me?
Just curious, it doesn't bother me really, I am just trying to understand. Many times I have had the honor and priveledge to talk to some great, fun and interesting people. The conversation goes swimmingly and we say our good-byes. The next thing I know, I never hear from them again. Am I reading more into things than I should? Just wondering because it would be nice to know if there are things about me that I should be working on. I always look to better myself.

Saturday With The Kids
Well my daughter went with me saturday. Only because her mother made her. Which really suprised me. I don't think my son liked it to much though. He's used to being the center of attention and just doing guy things. We still had fun though. We went to see Wild Hogs. It was a good movie. I want it on DVD. After I dropped my kids of the ex called and told me my daughter said she didnt want to go with me any more. I thought she had a good time but I guess when she asked to text a friend with my phone and I told her no, that really hurt her feelings. She's used to getting everything she wants from her mother while my son on the other hand doesnt get half of what his sister gets. I treat them both equal and I guess thats why my daughter hates me. Maybe one day she will realize that I love her and care for her but I'm not going to give her everything she wants to make her spend time with me. My son and I have lots of fun without spending money. My daughter on the other hand thinks spending m

This Moment
As i lie in this moment Frozen since that day I've been drowning in questions Over and over again Your legacy lives on And you are by our side Right here with me The time has come for you to fly Now that you're free You will always live near me I know you saw their faces And how they lined up for you We know that you were looking down on us As the sky filled with reds What I would give just to be with you This world feels cold and grey since you went away I see your smiles and love in your sisters eyes One day we will be one, when we reunite I know your're by my side Right here here with me Here by my side I'll see you again my friend You will be, always by our side Can we run away tonight And hide from tomorrow The glass is cracking tonight Shattering our fears away The silence in here fades And it's only your eyes that I see We die in this moment And i dont want to wake from this I can hardly breathe Suffocating on what you gave me Take me, pull me a

Hymn Of The Black Dragon
From a battle I come, This Dragon I ride, Blacker than night, Death rides by my side. From the Hall of the King, The Battle Hymns sound, The marching of Dwarves, is shaking the ground. We’ve polished our boots, And oiled our swords, To the Northlands we fly, To slay Goblin hordes. Valhalla awaits me, Wodins’ true son am I, I join the Heroes, To Asgard we fly. Ragnarok calls to us, We are storming the wall, The Sons of Muspell, and evil Surt will fall. From a battle I come, This Dragon I ride, Blacker than night, Death rides by my side.

Wow, Ct Is Really Addictive
Only been here a few days, made hundreds of friends, fans. And gotten almost 35,000 cherry points, about to become Friend of CherryTAP. I never imagined that this place would be so addictive, but it is... What will tomorrow bring? Hmmmmm....

Read It And Weep .. Just A Thought..
Ok here it goes. I have been reading online here and there recently about downraters .. as well as people talking shit to other people .. and u can like or not like it for all i care but my point is this. Do you think that bitching about being rated an 8 instead of a 10 really honestly matters in the grand scheme of things ?? I mean cmon people .. you put so much value in C.T. that you over all life will be over if u get downrated just a little ?? If it really is about life or death for some of you people .. then maybe u really shouldn't be here and should go back to "Cry"space or what have you. No offense but for those living life .. they will indeed understand what i mean when i say that life is way too fuckin short to be bothered by petty stupid bullshit. I love C.T. for its ability to post whatever the hell i want to and reguardless on whether you like it or hate it .. post it anyway just because i have that right here. If you have that much of a problem with someone elses o

Six Flags
Ok, this weekend was fun, but I'm wore out! Saturday, my boyfriend, brother and sister-in-law, traveled a little over 2 hours to go to Arlington, TX to Six Flags over Texas...spent all day there, stayed the night in a hotel, then, got up Sunday morning and went to Hurricane Harbor (used to be Wet-N-Wild water park). Got a little sun burned......but, it was fun....the calves of my legs are killing me though! Think I'm getting too old for this stuff!!! ;)

Ways To Turn Down Unwanted Men !!!!
HE : Can I buy you a drink? > SHE : Actually I'd rather have the money. > > HE : I'm a photographer. I've been looking for a face like >yours. > SHE : I'm a plastic surgeon. I've been looking for a face >like yours. > > HE : Hi. Didn't we go on a date once? Or was it twice? > SHE : Must've been once. I never make the same mistake >twice. > > HE : How did you get to be so beautiful? > SHE : I must've been given your share. > > HE : Will you go out with me this Saturday? > SHE : Sorry. I'm having a headache this weekend. > > HE : Your face must turn a few heads. > SHE : And your face must turn a few stomachs. > > HE : Go on ,don't be shy. Ask me out. > SHE : Okay, get out. > > HE : I think I could make you very happy. > SHE

Usually I Don't Do This But....
I'm pissed off this person come to my profile go to my pictures and then riped them off put them on her page and not even rate them or comment ask if she can, now usually I don't care but this two specially I made them so is like she's stilling part of me. I already told her but looks she don't give a crap is thsi person does anybody know if I can make her take them off her gallery??? Her nickname is ***** please tell me What to do!!!! UPDATE: Found out that if you exposed them it works finally she delete them but not before calling me all sort of names Can you belive her???

Nudist Colony
A man joins a very exclusive nudist colony. On his first day there he takes off his clothes and starts to wander around. A gorgeous petite blonde walks by and the man immediately gets an erection. The woman notices his erection, comes over to him and says, "Did you call for me?" The man replies, "No, what do you mean?" She says, "You must be new here. Let me explain. It's a rule here that if you get an erection, it implies you called for me." Smiling, she leads him to the side of the swimming pool, lies down on a towel, eagerly pulls him to her and happily lets him have his way with her. Later, the man continues to explore the colony's facilities. He enters the sauna and as he sits down, he farts. Within minutes a huge, hairy man lumbers out of the steam room toward him, "Did you call for me?" says the hairy man. "No, what do you mean?" asks the newcomer. "It's a rule that if you fart, it implies that you called for me." The huge man easily spins him around, bends him over a benc

Broken Heart, Shattered Dreams, & Love's Chaotic Symphony
Alone I search this world of shattered dreams... Picking up the pieces of my broken heart So please forgive me, if I say to you That happiness is just a word to me... Now don't be fooled, This hollow smile that I wear, Is only here to protect me... Until I've collected all the pieces of my broken heart... Please don't turn away just yet, For you're the only beauty in my world And this journey between my heart and mind.. Grows harder to travel every day I'm not sure yet why you're here Or if this is just another shattered dream, But know I love you for just being... As I struggle to survive love's chaotic symphony

Clubbin
we see each other across the room my love for you now in full bloom your eyes glistening in the colorful club lights i move towards you like a bird taking flight i push against the music and i push against the crowd the vibe i feel between us it's deafening its so loud wait what am i thinking, first i need to dance I'll see if you come to me. I'll give you a chance i don't want to rush, don't want to seem to desperate i want our meeting to be something good, something perfect i see you watching me as the music pimps and my body sways i do nice things for you to look i have my little ways and then you start moving forward and i begin to smile when was the last time i kissed someone i think.."its been awhile" and here you are standing in front of me your face is so beautiful its a sight to see then you take my hand and i move away from it all i pitched ans being the good catch you are you caught the ball now we're dancing and to the music together we

I'll Be There For You Lyrics
Rembrants I'll Be There For You Lyrics So no one told you life was gonna be this way Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A. It's like you're always stuck in second gear And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year but.. I'll be there for you When the rain starts to pour I'll be there for you Like I've been there before I'll be there for you 'Cuz you're there for me too... You're still in bed at ten And work began at eight You've burned your breakfast So far... things are goin' great Your mother warned you there'd be days like these Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought You down to your knees that... I'll be there for you When the rain starts to pour I'll be there for you Like I've been there before I'll be there for you 'Cuz you're there for me too... No one could ever know me No one could ever see me Seems you're the only one who knows What it's like to be me Someone to face the

Sad Today ~
Last night as I went through bulletins as usual i noticed a certain person whom happened to be a black gentlemen whom a bulletin had been posted about down rating him and to help him out..... whites downrating him because his name happened to have the name black in it .... I went in cautious that b/c of other foolish "White" haters he would be cautious to accept my friend requrest and my aplogogies for the ignorant haters that happen to be my color and race ..... I was ashamed .... I am still am ashamed .... He did accept and also returned the love to me ... which was the last thing I expected... I only wanted to try to make a wrong right .... let him know how I hurt for him and that I wanted to be his friend ..... Come on people really cant we just love eachother and if we dont then keep it to ourselves ... as a result of this stupidity and ignorance I have been burdened all day... I am just venting a bit b/c this truly saddened my soul

Going Away!
To all my sweet and lovely friends, you know who you are! I'm going out of state tomorrow for a few days so I wont have CT access for a few days.. I should be back by the weekend though. We will see! I will miss chatting to you guys and girls! So if you don't see me.. thats why! Have lots of fun and leave me msgs and comments if you so desire ;)! I will check my yahoo IM via my mobile phone periodically.. so if you have my IM..you can say hi to me that way! Byee!!!

Dear Dogs And Cats
Dear Dogs and Cats, The dishes with the paw prints are yours and contain your food. The other dishes are mine and contain my food. Please note, placing a paw print in the middle of my plate and food does not stake a claim for it becoming your food and dish, nor do I find that aesthetically pleasing in the slightest. The stairway was not designed by NASCAR and is not a racetrack. Beating me to the bottom is not the object. Tripping me doesn't help because I fall faster than you can run. I cannot buy anything bigger than a king sized bed. I am very sorry about this. Do not think I will continue sleeping on the couch to ensure your comfort. Dogs and cats actually curl up in a ball when they sleep. It is not necessary to sleep perpendicular to each other stretched out to the fullest extent possible. I also know that sticking tails straight out and having tongues hanging out the other end to maximize space is nothing but sarcasm. For the last time, there is not a secret ex

(s)lush
1 lemon, squeezed 8 large strawberries 1 t. sugar (don't forget me!) 6 ice cubes vodka (be generous) Put the above in a good blender. If you don't have a good blender, sell some of your crappy CDs (all of your CDs, if necessary) and buy one. Pulse. Pour into your prettiest glass, add a straw and a drink umbrella (only if it's raining). Drink several of these, then go outside and find some fresh flowers. Pick them, regardless of whose yard they are growing in. Glue or otherwise attach the flowers to your body and take photos. In a couple hours, we'll have a lovely CT flower snatch. Er, patch.

So. . .i Boycotted Myspace
I've boycotted myspace on the grounds that they have their whole home page decorated in idiotic Bratz movie promos the fact that there is in fact a bratz movie kinda makes me want to yack but I have decided to boycott till they took it down. I did not however take into consideration my total addiction to myspace. I've pulled up the log on page four times totally prepared to check my myspace and then I see the bratz feel disgusted and think to myself that I should boycott or something. . . .then I remember I already have. . . . I spend way to much time on line apparently. Meh its all good

Wwe Suprstar Chrid Benoit Found Dead
We are still awaiting further details, but PWInsider.com is extremely saddened to report that former WWE and WCW World champion Chris Benoit and his wife, former WCW and ECW personality Nancy "Woman" Benoit were both found dead today in Atlanta, Georgia. Obviously this will be a huge developing story in the days to come but at this point, we'd like to express our deepest condolences to the Benoits' family, friends, and fans at this time. A meeting is currently ongoing at WWE TV and it is expected that tonight's three hour Raw will now be dedicated to Benoit's memory. 6:09 Update: WWE.com issued the following statement this afternoon: "WWE is sad to report that Chris Benoit and his family have been found dead in their home. Police are currently investigating the circumstances surrounding the deaths. Tonight's Raw will be a tribute to Chris and his family."

Lmao @ People Who Fill Up Their Photo's With Fake Pictures
I find it hilarious that this guy fills up his pictures with photo's of this bald headed guy and it's not even him! He told a friend of mine it isn't him! He makes fun of fat women and says most of the women who come here are fat but yet he can't use his own photo! I think somebody has something to hide, eh Mister Fatboy!

Kaleb, Abortion, And The Tragedy
Just did some reading and research about a baby named Kaleb. What a tragedy. I guess after becoming a father I'm more sensitive to things like this. Friend of mine from Piqua is expecting her baby in 7 weeks. She posted a bulletin concerning abortion. If anyone hasn't checked it out they should. It contains some graphic pics and anyone who doesn't realize that it's a living innocent human being doesn't deserve to exist. Kinda made a hypocrite out of me, because I don't believe in the death penalty, but what choice did that baby have? Democrats like to rant that women have a right to choose. I agree. They do. They have the right to choose, bitch legs open or bitch legs shut. It's that simple. I believe anyone who has an abortion or performs an abortion or even assists in an abortion should be systematically destroyed. It's horrible. If a baby can be born 5 months premature and still survive to be a healthy baby then what right does anyone have to end that baby's life? T

Tonight's Agenda
I was working on a short story tonight, taking a break here and there to play on CT, and tolerating nothing worth watching on TV. A few minutes ago, something caught my eye outside my window. There are a few fireflies out tonight. So I fixed myself a drink and took my laptop and a blanket outside to the grass at the edge of the woods. Does it get any better than this?

Heroes Or Thugs.....you Decide
A hero is defined in Webster's as: A man admired for his achievements and noble qualities. A hero to me is a person who saves another life, a person who will walk thru fire to help someone, a person who passes knowledge and life experiences on to others. Someone who can fix the zipper on my coat when I get locked in it. All these are done without a request and hopefully without some kind of monetary reward. Growing up, didn't we all have heroes? Someone who we put up on that idolatry pedestal? I know I had a hero, but it wasn't a real life person. It was Nancy Drew, the teen who solved mysteries by finding a slip of paper in the hidden staircase. As we grow older, different types of heroes emerge. I never gave this much thought until I read the news on line this afternoon. It caused me to wonder what has happened to our idols. Is there no one for kids to look up to? I'm not even going to travel down the celebrity "idols" A handful or less are even worth idol a

Chris Benoit
i have been a fan of benoit for yrs . we will miss you man blessed be RIP 1967 -2007 ............ FAYETTEVILLE, Ga. (AP) -- WWE wrestler Chris Benoit, his wife and son were found dead Monday and police said they were investigating the deaths as a homicide. Lt. Tommy Pope of the Fayette County Sheriff's Department said the three were found at their home about 2:30 p.m., but refused to release details. Pope said results of autopsies on Benoit, his wife Nancy, and 7-year-old son Daniel were expected Tuesday. Benoit, 40, was a former world heavyweight champion, Intercontinental champion and held several tag-team titles over his career. "WWE extends its sincerest thoughts and prayers to the Benoit family's relatives and loved ones in this time of tragedy," the federation said in a statement on its Web site. Benoit was scheduled to perform at the "Vengeance" pay-per-view event Sunday night in Houston, but was replaced at the last minute because of what

Just Sayin...
I think I may have offended someone that I think is really cool, and I am hoping that i didn't, because that would really suck....you just don't know how far is too far for some people....anyways, my trip to Virfinia is back on, and is less than 3 weeks away...I am a bit nervous, but I'm sure everything will turn out great!!! School is better, but Geology kind of sucks...its not that interesting to me as it is, but my professor is sooooo boring that i want to go to sleep....I just use his class time to read my chapters and highlight my own notes from the book so I can keep up....My creative mind has been put on the back burner for a while, which my fellow mummers have probably noticed...I'm working on bringing it back though...in the mean time I will just leave comments and rate people until I can come up with some interesting questions to spark conversation...until then...~kisses~

If You Cannot Respect The Dead, Then What The Fuck Can You Respect Anymore, Goddamn It?!
Ok, this one goes out to all those MUMMER-fuckers that thought it was soooo damn funny to make find humor in this. As most of you may or may not know, with the numerous mumms that have gone on tonight, WWE Superstar Chris Benoit was found dead in his Atlanta home today with his wife and son too. Chris was supposed to have appeared at the PPV Vengence Sunday night to compete for the ECW Heavyweight Championship, one of the few belts that had eluded him through his career. He instead had rushed back home to his wife and son, because they both were very sick and had reportedly had been throwing up blood most of the weekend. No one had heard from them the rest of the weekend except for a neighbor who had called 911 late Sunday night. Now, you could imagine the extreme saddness that's being felt, not only by Benoit's extended family, but by wrestling fans worldwide. He was known not only to WWE fans, but also old school ECW, WCW back when he was with the rebirth of the Four Horsemen, and ev

Hearts Desire
Just things I have written throughout my myspace experience..hope you like...:) I just wanted to write that everyone has a heart's desire. Thousands of people everyday..looking for the same thing. Their hearts desire. My hearts desire is to find peace within myself, know that God is first and foremost, and meet the man that makes me whole...in all aspects of life. Does my hearts desire match anyones? Or is that too much to ask? Not only do I believe this not to be true, but I also believe we become so clouded in our thinking, we may not see what we want is closer than we imagine. Even if it's miles away. Hearts Desire. Reachable...:)

Truths Of Vamperism
Ok people who say anyone whom calls themselfs vampires are all attention freaks read this!!! Vamperism was first seen in war like peoples cultures the exchanging of blood and taking of heart was signs of bond and power over ones enemies. In other cultures blood ceremonies can be found even in the christian faith blood rituals are found in the norstic christian sect blood ritual was used as marker of faith in god and fellow brethern. Now a days vamperism as a culture stands for reform through means of not being stuck in the socal box most people stay traped in and vampirism can also be a faith of the darker more chaotic dieties and theres many way of drawing from a *willing* source taking of aura (psi) blood(sang) or dreams or spirit energy(manta).

Absolutely Priceless! Laugh..
The first grade school teacher had twenty-five students in her class and she presented each child in her class the first half of a well known proverb and asked them to come up with the remainder of the proverb. It's hard to believe these were actually done by first graders. Their insight may surprise you. While reading, keep in mind that these are first graders, 6-year-olds, because the last one is a classic! 1. Don't change horses............until they stop running. 2. Strike while the...............bug is close. 3. It's always darkest before...........Daylight Saving Time. 4. Never underestimate the power of...........termites. 5. You can lead a horse to water but...........how? 6. Don't bite the hand that.............looks dirty. 7. No news is....................impossible. 8. A miss is as good as a....................MR. 9. You can't teach an old dog new..............math. 10. If you lie down with dogs, you'll..............stink in the morning. 11. Love all, trust...

Woohoo!!!!!
i just found out...((like for realz sean just texted me like 2 seconds ago))...that later on today hes gonna talk to admin & get all the final stuff in order for the move. he said that after that was taken care of he'll find us an apartment & come home!!!! he even told me to go shoppping ((omg he must be really happy if hes telling me to shop)) & get myself a new outfit so we can go clubbing when he comes home. ::gasp:: hes gonna take me to my element...a club. i ♥ clubbing. i havent gone since he left for the marines...oh yea this is gonna be one h*ll of a homecoming. ::does happy dance::

Clan Lupin Promotions
I am pleased to announce the promotions of three valued members of clan Lupin! there service and dedication to this clan are beoynd what i had hope and this is why i am so pleased to give them this honour! there IS now two elders to Clan Lupin, any questions can be directed to High Elder WolfiePuP Thank you all and congratulations to these great members of Clan Lupin! ♥Shadow WolfMistress♥2ND ELDER of Clan Lupin♥Protector for Mystic†Kyttiekat(L.D.C)@ CherryTAP £ost ÍnŤheÐark♦£DCF♦Third Elder of the Clan Lupin♦Lady Pain's Protector&#@ CherryTAP Goddess Of Oceans Wild Guardian Of Clan Lupin (L.D.C)@ CherryTAP

Evil But Funny
Blind people are fun to practical jokes on…….they never see it coming When a house near a large airport goes up for sale…….sell it to a deaf person….they won’t complain about the noise If a blonde is annoying you, give her a card that says “turn this card over” on both sides…..then just sit back and enjoy the fun Stand in front of a candy store handing out Ex-Lax as free samples of a new candy….then check the papers the next day to see if the sewer backed up. Tell your grand mother that the latest fad is to go braless…….just watch where you’re walking if she believes you. Ask your Mexican friend if he bought the latest DBD Ask the next person you see in a wheel chair what kind of gas mileage they get on that thing

Remebering Chris Benoit
A look at the career of the "Rabid Wolverine" June 25, 2007The sports-entertainment world has lost a Legend, as WWE is saddened to report that Chris Benoit and his family were found dead in their Atlanta-area home today. Benoit was 40 years old. A trainee of the legendary Stu Hart, Benoit began his career in 1985 in Calgary after training with Stu and the Hart Family in the infamous Dungeon. Benoit idolized former World Tag Team Champion Dynamite Kid, and the high-flying style Benoit utilized throughout his career was influenced heavily by the British Superstar. However, his training in the Dungeon helped mold him into one of the best technical grapplers in sports-entertainment history as well. Benoit competed for Stu Hart¡¯s Stampede Wrestling organization from 1985-1989, where he held both the British Commonwealth Title and the International Tag Team Title four times each, before heading to Japan, where his career truly blossomed. He originally competed as the masked Pegasu

Returning
HELLO MY FRIENDS , MY FAMILLY , MY FANS AFTER A VERY LONG I WANTED TODAY TO STOP TO SEE ALL OF U I WISH EVERY THING IS GOING WELL THERE WITH ALL OF U WE HAVE BEEN HERE FROM A LONG TIME I THINK WE ALL FAMILLY HERE SO CAUSE OF THAT I WISH ALL THE LUCK FOR ALL OF YOU MY FAMILLY MY FRIENDS AND MY FANS WITH ALL MY LOVE AND ALL MY RESPECT MATREXXXXXXXX HOSAM

Insomnia Reboot
The Falcon wing breaks the swan voice pierces the air The Robin Dances to the valtures music Beat the drum beat the drum What madness I seek in my mind Insomnia, insomnia takes hold The beauty of rest is troubling and forgotten Operatic is the man who is a warrior and a king Paint, paint me a favoring dream A woman's brush for hair is the canvas Lite the candle and kill the child To bring life to ardent love A new day dawns Touch an unicorn in an eve's hope and joy The writing of the word is killing death Hop bunny, hop for a feast awaits Scream of the blood butterfly, scream Where does this reality of madness go Stab me, Stab me, no wait kiss me, rap me or I you Now world is at universes door Bullets, bullets stars, stars Red, blue, green and white All is gray and black In the bed now naked the sheets are turned Life goes on Bleack and white is not the final word Hiss snake, hiss of the grayness that comes Naked child runnning lambs are turkeys

A Little Time In The Sun
Was a beautiful spring day so I thought I would get to work on my tan so I headed out to the pool with everything I needed for a quiet afternoon. Laying there reading my book feeling the sun's rays heat my skin up but that was nothing compared to way the book getting me aroused. As the characters in my book were in the heat of passion my own libido was in full swing. I slowly slid my hand across my breast, the soft touch of my hand I could feel how stiff my nipples were. The more I read the lower my hand went, slowly like a lioness stalking her prey my hand slipped into my bikini. My fingers found my clit, pressing down ever so easy as they glided across it. I slight gasp as a finger fell into my pussy, so moist I could feel myself getting wetter. My finger touching my special spot I pushed in deeper, burying my finger deep in me. Dropping my book in need of my other hand, I quickly pulled down my bottom piece. Feeling the suns warm rays on me, I added a second finger. My fingers wo

Songbird
Songbird Songbird songbird in the tree; I long to hear you sing for me; Your voice is what I wish to hear; For in my soul I hold you dear; I know the reasons you wont sing; But only sadness does that bring; I ache to keep and hold you tight; For in my hands all will be right; I know that this will never be; Your heart and spirit must stay free; Night is coming so you must go; Your wings the silken air do row; For each flap a tear does fall; I know I'll never hear your call; Little songbird on your way; Try to think of me someday; Songbird songbird.

Fist Wrapped In Blood
(Come on!) Finish me off, follow the plan break all the bonds, sever the ties and now your mission is complete, find and destroy me. torturing me, with words from your lips filleting my skin, pulling my teeth please forgive me for not being good enough. Drown your sorrows in my pain (pain) and it's something you can't explain. when I'm choking on words you'll never say (say) and you'll never feel the same (Same!) Bound and gagged, I cannot move or speak these things I want to say, I can't explain them anyway so if I had it all again, if I could start from the first words I ever said I would do it all the same. Drown your sorrows in my pain (pain) and it's something you can't explain. when I'm choking on words you'll never say (say) and you'll never feel the same Your joy is my pain my fingers are yours to cut off and my bones are yours to shatter in pieces. my teeth are yours to pull out and my soul is yours to slowly rip apart. I can't trust anyone

Hi Everyone
Just wanted to stop in and leave a quick note for you all. I apologize for not being in touch with you all for the last few weeks. I have had some big changes going on in my life and i have not been online. As you all know i was living in Wisconsin. Well now i am living in Mobile, Alabama. I feel pretty crappy that I have'nt been responding to you my friends. Rest assured it has not been because of any other reason but me concentrating on being happy and sorting out my life. I have a lot of friends on here who not just merely a name on a list. Some of you have been a great comfort to me in this totally unpredictable world we live in. Anyhow I just wanted to let you all know that I am well and doing good. I will be in touch with you all soon. Play safe and take care Hugs n stuff Tigsy xoxoxo

Alone
So much noise battered her brain. Where was it coming from? Aneeta left the safety of her retreat to investigate. She looked tenderly back at the small bundle laying on the bed, soundly asleep. She eased the door closed slowly, silently, so as to not disturb the sleeper. Moving meticulously down the hall, pausing at the closed doors as she passed, listening, needing to find the origin of the assault on her ears. Part way down the hall, behind her, a door creaked open. Turning, she peered through the semi-darkness, and made out the shape of a large, doglike creature emerging from the room. Its huge tongue hung from one side of its mouth, teeth exposed as its breath rasped in and out. Yellow eyes swept over her, laughed at her. The head turned and the creature sauntered in the opposite direction. Its slow, purposeful steps took it up the hall noiselessly. Aneeta froze in place as it reached the door to her room. As if obeying some unseen hand, the door opened for the creature, and

Benoit Strangled Wife, Smothered Son
AP: Benoit Strangled Wife, Smothered Son By GREG BLUESTEIN, Associated Press Writer 46 minutes ago In this undated photo released by World Wrestling Entertainment, ... ATLANTA - Pro wrestler Chris Benoit strangled his wife and smothered his son before hanging himself in his weight room, a law enforcement official close to the investigation told The Associated Press on Tuesday. Authorities also said they are investigating whether steroids may have been a factor in the deaths of Benoit, his wife and their 7-year-old son. Steroid abuse has been linked to depression, paranoia, and aggressive behavior or angry outbursts known as "roid rage." "We don't know yet. That's one of the things we'll be looking at," said Fayette County District Attorney Scott Ballard. He said test results may not be back for weeks. Autopsies were scheduled Tuesday by the Georgia Bureau of Investigation. Authorities were investigating the deaths at a secluded Fayette County home as a murder-suic

Please Read This, Maybe It Will Explain
Well the last 2 weeks have been pretty hectic and I am sorry if I have disappointed anyone, right now my Mom is #1 and I need to spend as much time as I can with her, she is having major side effects from the radiation and things are not looking good at all. I have been back and forth trying to keep everything in order at her house and mine and it is just beginnning to be a bit stressful, so please do not think that I am ignoring or trying to hide, when i am at my Moms i have no cell service when i go out i do but cant use this shout box but i am trying to be with her as much as i possibly can right now so I am sorry if I seem like I am ignoring you. just for those who do not know me well, when i get stressed out i shut down and keep to myself, right now i am that way it is nothing against anybody it is just me and my defense mechenisms (sp)? trying to kick in and with everything that is happening right now, I am not sure how to deal with it, I know and expect that my Mom is not goi

Chris Benoit
Im sorry that these people are dead and the situation that caused their deaths. No one will ever know what happen in that house, they can only assume. Now is the time to heal and not slam the family. If he was taking steroids why didnt WWE know this and do something to help him. Aren't the wrestlers suppose to take drug tests before a match. See we dont know what happen just let it go.

My Angel Eyes
My angle eyes are as brown as the sky is blue, yet only one lights my day, only one makes me warm, only one is truly real, the real one can also light my night and can give you chills. The real one is also there in my dreams the truest color I can imagine is the brown of my angle eyes.

Cherrytap Football League (cfl)
THIS IS A CT FOOTBALL LEAGUE BASED ON RATES GIRLS AND GUYS INCLUDED HOW TO PLAY THERE WILL BE SIX PPL TO A TEAM EACH ..EACH TEAM MEMBER MUST COLLECT RATES FOR THEMSELVES AND THEN THE TOTAL WILL BE ADDED FOR THAT TEAM. THE TEAM WITH THE MOST COMBINED RATES WILL WIN GAME!! THE TEAMS EACH TEAM WILL CONSIST OF SIX PLP (COACH, QB, RB,WR,LB,SS) WHAT I NEED TO GET THIS STARTED VICE PRESIDENT (2ND IN COMMAND OF THE LEAGUE) COACHES(ALSO OWNER OF THERE TEAM ..IN CHARGE OF FORMING TEAM) THERE WILL BE SEASON END REWARDS FOR THE FOLLOWING COACH OF THE YEAR QB OF THE YEAR RB OF THE YEAR WR OF THE YEAR LB OF THE YEAR SS OF THE YEAR PLAYER OF THE YEAR CHERRYTAP SUPERBOWL MVP CHERRYTAP SUPERBOWL WINNER One Week Blast Will Be Given To Each Member Of Superbowl Winning Team Games will be held every Tuesday AND Sunday. The length of season is yet to be determined based on number of teams. COACHES: Select 5 players for ur team. Assign

Heres What Happed With Chris Benoit
Benoit’s wife Nancy was murdered Friday by asphyxiation. She was in the office area of the house, dead, for close to a day - Benoit’s son Daniel was murdered Saturday by asphyxiation. Daniel was confirmed to be in his bed when law enforcement officials found him. - Chris Benoit committed suicide late Saturday early Sunday. No type of suicide note or anything in the house was located. - Authorities are still waiting further results from crime lab and toxicology reports which could take several weeks to get back. - Only one prior arrest of Chris Benoit is known. It was allegedly for a DUI, but nothing can be confirmed. There is no knowledge at this time if there was a history of domestic violence with Chris Benoit. It was also not know whether or not a divorce had been filed. - Lots of prescription medications found in Benoit’s house that police believe to be illegal prescriptions at this time. However, he then said that police found anabolic steroids but would not say wha

Choices
Alright, as of late I have been literally Bombarded with some really Tough decisions. I have finally made those decisions, and I love all my cherry friends, but only a handful have any idea what I am talking about. I have to literally tell myself daily that life is very short and volatile. I hope that I can look back on my life when I am old and grey (well MORE Grey) and know that I can rest quietly in peace, with the comfort of having made choices that although sometimes Hurt other people were pointedly in the direction of my own happiness. the next several months will be tough for me as I have made some decisions that will actually take place hopefully within that time frame. I am happy about them, but will be tough on me none the less. I am acutely aware that no one on this earth can "make" someone else happy, although I firmly believe that having the right someone there certainly does go a long ways in the right direction. I will be returning home, after an extensive l

I Can't Understand
This is so many times now how can this be, someone I want doesn't want me. He looks at me so nice, he looks at me so sincere, but when its time to touch he doesnt want me near. Can you please tell me what is wrong with me? Just tell me what type of person you want me to be. I'm always so nice, I'm always so sweet. So tell me then why is it all the bad girls always have me beat.

A Time
A Time There was a time When I thought you were for me. I saw no flaws in my choice; I guess I didn't see. You didn't treat me nicely Despite how I treated you. I cared for you, I loved you And that you even knew. I kept telling myself That you could change your ways. But you proved me wrong Every single day. I didn't know what to do then, My heart was already broken. You broke my heart and you used it Like some kind of game token. You gained satisfaction From other people's pain. You never even cared for me YOU DROVE ME INSANE!!! I realize now that its impossible To even be your friend. There is no chance left for me, Our relationship's at an end. I can't believe I never saw it before. What had blinded me? Everyone knew this would happen How come I couldn't see? I guess I was overconfident That this would work out fine. I guess I was mistaken, I had crossed the line. Things will never be The way th

Defining Not Giving A Fuck
So, with all the bullshit on this site, the world and everything in between, I decided that giving a fuck doesnt work. I simply dont give a shit about a damn thing. Well, thats not true. I do love my kids and my wife, and a select few friends. Outside of that, I dont give a fuck about anything. Even you. Yes you. I dont give a fuck about what happened in your life before today. I'm living in this moment. For this moment. Mistakes? Yeah, I've got em. Who the fuck doesn't? But I refuse to see them as regrets. They are lessons learned. Not to be repeated. Im I where I want to be. Not even close. But thats the challenge isn't it? To get to where you want to be. I have half my puzzle figured out. I have my family. Thats been the real challenge. Holding it all together. Thats how I realized that everything else...well, its bullshit. I can't control a goddamn thing. I can't give a fuck about what happens in the rest of the world. I can't change it. I can only contr

4th Of July
On the 4th of July I would like us all to proudly display this pictue on your profile, members & non-members, thank you very much..pete click on this picture, it will take you to my site where you can rip it!!

A Journey Of A Thousand Miles...
-Full Version: If you've read my other blogs, you know that I'm all filled with poetry and idealism. I am that girl who used to sit behind you in homeroom reading a Sweet Valley High romance and doodling little hearts and flowers all over her notebook. Well...at one point of my life I was. Now, Anne Rice has replaced Judy Blume. Razorblades and devil's horns have replaced the hearts and flowers. Much of the imagery I surround myself with is dark and ominous and sensual. I'm that little girl all grown up. I've been wanted. I've been needed. I think I may even have been loved once or twice...not that it did me any good. I've been had. I've been cast aside. I've been battered and broken and lifted to stand on my own two feet. Now, I know what I want. But, I'm also grown up enough to see reality through all of that imagery. No matter how long I wait..no matter how patient and pliant and caring I am, I may never have it. It's taken a lot for me to learn to accept that

Can Someone Explain Why
Okay I will admit that I do not follow wrestling but please tell me why people are making a maytar out of this Daniel Beniot guy? He strangled his wife and suffocated his 7 year old son...... If he was anyone else would people make him a maytar? I think not we would call him a coward for what he did.... He make have been a great wrestler but to me he is a coward that killed two people before taking his own life..... He is not a person that I would want my kids to look up too.....Do you? If people get offended I am sorry I just dont understand why he is made out to be something so special when he did something so horrible...

My Dear Friend
A DEAR FRIEND OF MINE FROM HERE ON CHERRYTAP IS QUITTING DUE TO THE FACT HE HAS CANCER AND IS IN SO MUCH PAIN HE CAN'T SIT AT THE PUTER AND KEEP IN TOUCH WITH ALL THOSE HE CARES ABOUT ON HERE... HE IS SUCH A GREAT GUY AND HE DOESNT DESERVE TO BE GOING THRU ALL THE PAIN HE IS .... HE IS GONNA TRY TO GET ON WHEN HE CAN CAUSE HE WILL MISS ALL HIS FRIENDS AND THOSE THAT TRUELY CARE ABOUT HIM WILL MISS HIM.... PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM AND IF POSSIBLE AND U WANT TO LET HIM KNOW U R THINKING ABOUT HIM... IF U WISH TO DO SO I WOULD APPRECIATE IT... HUGZZZZ TO U ALL AND MY LOVE TO U ALL CASSIE

Our Nature
Why is it we find ourselves sometimes giving control of our feelings and emotional responses over to another? Not total control, but we let them influence those things to the point where we can't understand them ourselves anymore. Getting lost in a person because they felt right, and then you realize you feel incomplete when they aren't around. Then when they say something unexpected, the anger sets in. That confusing point where we realize, I don't have complete control of my emotional responses. I did last week. Why don't I now? Its unnerving. I'm taking back possession of my emotional responses and keeping them my own. The world at large isn't ready for them anyhow.