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You Know Ya Waaaanna
Java (thats me) on air for my very first set with JFL radio today at 2pm est!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL ROCK ALL THE TIME on the number 2 most listened to radio station on itunes and the best fricken station on the net!! http://www.jflradio.com/main/ Come have a listen and let me know what ya think...Rockin out with Java 2pm est!!!!! Is there a better way to spend a lazy sunday afternoon? I think not!!

Peace
A closed hand has no place for a butterfly to land A fist is used for violence a fist traps air for someone to breathe open your hand let something beautiful land extend your fingers release some air let your neighbor breathe.

Ur Horoscope, W/ A Side Of Attitude
Aries: Today you will be walking and you’ll sprain your vagina. Even if you don’t have a vagina, you’ll spontaneously grow one and then you’ll sprain it. In fact, you just now grew one. Look in your pants. See? Also, please keep it fresh. No one likes a nasty vagina. Taurus: The stars have aligned in Uranus and they all agree that you’re a douchebag. You probably post too many goddamn bulletins and status updates. Be careful what you say to friends today, as it may used against you in a future argument. Though we honestly doubt you have any friends in the first place. Gemini: Today you’ll be in a public restroom trying to get the electronic towel dispenser to give you more than a one-inch strip of paper. You’ll be waving and gyrating like a jackass while water drips down your forearms. People will walk in, see you, and decide that they "can hold it for a few minutes until the insane lunatic mime leaves". Our advice is to never wash your hands. Cancer: The stars have alig

Where Were You When The Lights Went Out?
“And the LORD said unto Moses, Go in unto Pharaoh: for I have hardened his heart, and the heart of his servants, that I might show these my signs before him:” The first verse of the tenth chapter of Exodus, if you knew nothing of what had happened before, might leave you with the impression that the LORD doesn’t care if people suffer. That couldn’t be further from the truth, but the actions of Pharaoh and his people in Egypt oppressing the children of Israel (and doubtless plenty of other slaves captured in war or traded or otherwise) were so profound and so browbeating that it would take an “act of God” to liberate the LORD’s chosen people. Moses’ appearances in this, one of five books attributed to him, has been less than we may have expected during the confrontation between God and Pharaoh – ultimately, this turns out to be a competition between the LORD their [Israel’s] God and Pharaoh who was attributed to be a god. Sometimes in order to be broken and become humble, we have t

Love Fate Perfection
Fate: The supposed force, principle, or power that predetermines events... It also brings who comes and goes out of your life. It's fate who I've meet and who I let go of. I've been dealing with all kinda of fate these last weeks and not knowing what to make out of it. I sometimes feel as if I can't handle it anymore. I'm tired of no one seeing my pain and yet fate is what I keep running into. What does fate have to show me in there days. Why is all the fate I deal with fucked up right now and what is it meaning? Love: A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. I feel so lost when I read what love is suppose to be Becuase I feel so empty inside now and days. I feel as if its a unfinished painting that will never be completed because it has been put to the side and forgotten. Will I truely ever be found and finished and if i am will i be under

I Have No Clue Y
Its not something you can buy its not something you can ask why its not a person place or thing its not something you bring or make its not even something you take you cant grasp it you cant even handle it its not something you can control but you know its out of this world your emotions are always in a bind and you cant even speak your mind heck in all out of rhymes but i will always make time for that special someone to shine on that special day when all the little problems go away the day when i say i do when two become one and not just for fun or because you said that i was just there but yet you know the who what and where so when you ask yourself what is love its not sent from above its the moments that you and i have the moments we share together. written 03/23/09

Rantings Of A Bipolar Episode...please Try To Follow Along...lol
Error: Sorry, you've triggered our anti-spam trap. Your message will not be posted. Thank you for using fubar. WHAT THE PHUCK IS THAT, I TRY TO GO AND LEAVE COMMENTS TO MY PEEPS, EVERYTIME I CHANGE PAGES IM GIVING THE BOUNCERS MY ID, AND THEN THIS....WTF EVER....UGH. OKAY SO HERES THE DEAL, IF YOU KNOW ME YOU KNOW MY OLDEST DAUGHTER IS CURRENTLY AT FT. JACKSON FINISHING UP HER LAST 2.5 WEEKS OF BCT.....WE HAVE ALL OUR TRAVEL ARRANGEMENTS TO TAKE HER TO HER AIT IN ALABAMA...SHE WAS TOLD BY HER D.S THAT SHE WAS ELIGIBLE FOR THAT....SO HENCE US MAKING THE TRAVEL PLANS....WE GOT HER INVITE TO FAMILY DAY/ GRADUATION AND ON IT IT MENTIONS TRANSPORTING YOUR SOLDIER TO AIT IS ALLOWED WITH PRIOR ARRANGEMENTS MADE....SO I SAT CALLING LIKE A STALKER TO HER COMPANY LINES...THEY FINALLY ANSWER A FEW DAYS LATER, AND TOLD ME YESTERDAY THTA NO...HER AIT IS ON THE "MUST BE GOVERNMENT TRANSPORT" LIST..........WTF EVER.....THEY DON'T CARE THAT I JUST KICKED OUT MONEY FOR THIS???? I WILL GIVE TH

How Adam Got Eve:)
Adam was hanging around the garden of Eden feeling very lonely. So, God asked him, 'What's wrong with you?' Adam said he didn't have anyone to talk to. God said that He was going to make Adam a companion and that it would be a woman. He said, 'This pretty lady will gather food for you, she will cook for you, and when you discover clothing, she will wash them for you She will always agree with every decision you make and she will not nag you, and will always be the first to admit she was wrong when you've had a disagreement. She will praise you! She will bear your children. and never ask you to get up in the middle of the night to take care of them. 'She will NEVER have a headache and will freely give you love and passion whenever you need it.' Adam asked God, 'What will a woman like this cost?' 'An arm and a leg.' Then Adam asked, 'What can I get

Crushed
Hopelessly bound unfettered by the chains of love's grip - greatest gift, fate's cruelest curse. Wherefore do I weep at knowing the joy, the warmth, at feeling the peace, the fire. Wherefore do I weep unable to complete , to be, unknown the kiss, the flames. Wherefore do I weep at loving not living seeing not touching breathing not sharing holding not loving? All, because I, The Fool, am no more?

Ocean Of The Eternal
Pleroma When I'm not dancing the line of vulgarity, innuendo, and childishness, I'm swimming in the ocean of the Eternal. The latest island I've washed up on contains these words:"...The dead came back from Jerusalem where they found not what they sought. They prayed me let them in and besought my word, and thus I began my teaching. Harken: I begin with nothingness. Nothingness is the same as fullness. In infinity full is no better than empty. Nothingness is both empty and full. As well might ye say anything else of nothingness, as for instance, white it is, or black, or again it is not, or it is. A thing that is infinite and eternal hath no qualities, since it hath all qualities. This nothingness or fullness we name the pleroma..." This is from the first of Carl Jung's "Seven Sermon's of the Dead". Jungian psychology is the school of thought that I find the most satisfying. It's full of imagery and connectivity. Shadows and Persona. Anima and Animus. And now another name f

Just A Quick Look Back At An Old Group Here On Fubar(the Cowgirls & Cowboys Of Cherry Tap )lol Time Changes
ANYBODY RECONIZE ANY OF THESE OLD MEMBERS OR MAYBE STILL CURRENT MEMEBERS? THESE WERE THE DAYS WHEN THINGS WERE FUN.

All I Need
Your love surrounds me like the air that I breathe. Your kiss touches me as gentle as a breeze. Your touch is as tender as that of a child. Your hug is warm, meek, and mild. Each day we grow older and its plain to see, The love that you give me is all that I need.

Midnight Love Making
It was dark outside The blackest of black nights All you could see was the moonlight shining in The light reflecting on that rock hard stomach of his Ive been up all night just watching him sleep Thinking of what I could do to him As im watching that stomach Believe me you would be too I think of what to do Im like a jungle animal The urge takes over I lean over and i kiss his stomach I keep kissing working my way lower Hes waking up now He will know just what I want He tries to stop me from my quest But I keep going til I get to the best (part of him) Its just like my favorite childhood dessert a cremecicle I can make my way to the creamy center with just a lick or a blow I work on him for what seems like hours torturing him Going so slow, so sweet When he cums, I let him return the favor Its a lovers game Taking turns pleasing one another When he makes me cum I feel like Ive just exploded Day Dreaming of it all night while he slept But it d

Womens Seduction
First I would spend some quality time talking and getting to know each other I would change into a sexy black frilly mini skirt with high heels and sexy top and have some drinks and be listening to some good music. I would then dance and be a bit booted and dance in front of you. Sexily turn so you can see my bum moving good. Slowly I'd turn around and smile and start to strip my top off. Next my shoes and stockings come off. Opening my legs and showing you my sexy G string. Slowly pulling it across and slide my fingers in and pushing them in deep. Next I will put my head back and groan for you. Now telling you to get out your member and slowly stroke it while you watch me open myself and finger myself for a while. I'd come over to you so you can grab my ass and pull my pussy close to your face. Licking me real good and fingering me at the same time. This would make me buckle with pleasure. Moving my hips slowly I'd go down on my knees and take your cock and hold and admir

New Video Effect I Can Do With Your Pictures
so here it is as I started with a plain picture, I added the background,animated the water to move, added some bird effects as you can see and added a music track to it and turned it into a video to be uploaded as this could be a great music video for like on a profile :) as I edited the code so it can autoplay heres the animation I made with the water just being animated and being able to upload under her pictures at that here

Tiny Guy Story
Fred sat on the windowsill and looked out through the glass. Quite a storm was raging outside, rain and wind and thunder and lightning. He pressed his hand against the window glass. He noticed that the rain drops hitting the glass were just about as big as his hand. After all, Fred was only an inch tall. He was not always so small, up until a couple days ago he was a normal six foot height. And then he woke up one day and was small. Needless to say that both he and his wife, Ellen, were quite shocked. Though there was nothing for them to do. They had not told anyone. He had simply called off work, and in fact had not left the house since it happened. He kind of felt like a house cat, in a weird way. "Ready for the surprise," Called Ellen, her voice echoing from elsewhere in the house. He perked his ears up at the sound of her voice and smiled. She had taken care of him the last couple days. As he was so tiny he could do almost nothing for himself. He did not like r

Bonds Of Passion
How I so desire to entwine my legs around you, just as our souls entwine and spiral like thousands of twinkling diamond stars. How I ache to feel you deep within me, one with me and my heart, our bodies finally merged as are our souls and intoxicate on the blend of our essences creating a unique perfume. Heady and sweet. Oh, to feel your weight upon me, I, deliciously impaled immobile - to feel the force of loving thrusts each urgency climbing higher. To visualize it, is almost ecstasy - the moment of ultimate trust between such souls as you and I. How I long for that sacred moment when with throbbing pulses ours, I hold my breath to savour your gift of the purest of you, your essence. The ultimate blissful pleasure! I would hold you captive with my most intimate muscles until every pearl of 'you' was mine, greedily treasured, precious jewel. I would kiss away your tears of joy, as my own wash my eyes wi

Castle In The Air
The sun comes out The clouds go away When everything seems simple We feel we’ve found the way We see the horizon and what it holds We think were almost there But the sun starts to set and it all unfolds The darkness rains upon us fears and doubts Consumed by feelings of concern We yell but no one hears our shouts As it always does the sun will rise once more A castle in the air Giving us hope that it will not poor. A course of action destined to repeat Nothing we do will stop it. It’s intent slightly bitter sweet

Cum For Master~
"Take a deep breathe through your nose and hold it in for the count of 10, concentrate on Master's voice. Now, through your mouth, exhale completely and slowly. Continue breathing long, deep, breaths through your nose and exhaling through your mouth. Tense up all your muscles very tight, now, counting from ten to one, release them slowly, you will find them very relaxed." "As you read this you will hear Master's voice, with every breath and passing movement, you are feeling increasingly more and more peaceful and relaxed. The words are peaceful and bright. you will hear Master count from 10 to 1, as Master counts, you will become more and more relaxed, getting more and more open with each passing moment." "10 you will find yourself becoming more and more aware." "9" "8 you will find yourself becoming more and more relaxed." "7" "6 you will find yourself becoming more and more open." "5" "4 you will find yourself becoming more and more willing." "3" "2 you

Untitled *c3*
the way it feels isn't rainbows and butterflies what they wrote in story books are lies the world isn't always beautiful most have come to view it as dark and cold people aren't always warm-hearted and welcoming most are self-concerned and bold through struggle and strife i came to be one girl in this life who is hopeful and carrying on faithfully set in the ways to prove you all wrong to fight a battle like this you must be strong when things fall down, the other person we so easily blame however, deep inside, it was we that we should blame so easily the world, it have no bearing of our choice we are put here, one heart, one soul, one body, one voice i put myself there, i did it to me if only we all could believe 22 years of ups and downs, a few in and a few out i've come to find what living really means and what love is finally about

My Love Poems
I love the way you look at me, Your eyes so bright and blue. I love the way you kiss me, Your lips so soft and smooth. I love the way you make me so happy, And the ways you show you care. I love the way you say, "I Love You," And the way you're always there. I love the way you touch me, Always sending chills down my spine. I love that you are with me, And glad that you are mine. ---------------------------------------- A gentle word like a spark of light, Illuminates my soul And as each sound goes deeper, It's YOU that makes me whole There is no corner, no dark place, YOUR LOVE cannot fill And if the world starts causing waves, It's your devotion that makes them still And yes you always speak to me, In sweet honesty and truth Your caring heart keeps out the rain, YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof So thank you my Love for being there, For supporting me, my life I'll do the same for you, you know, My Beautiful, Darling Wife. -------------------

Greg Dulli - Lyrical Genius
Afghan Whigs Gentlemen (1993) My Curse You hurt me baby I flinch so when you do Your kisses scourge me Hyssop in your perfume Oh, I do not fear you And slave I only use As a word to describe the special way I feel for you You look like me And I look like no one else We need no other As long as we have ourselves But I won't cry about it Every time you get obsessed Every time I came undressed All ugly thoughts are gone I'm sure we'll all be friends I'll try to break your back You'll try to make amends Curse softly to me baby And smother me in your love Temptation comes not from hell but from above And there's blood on my teeth When I bite my tongue to speak Zip me down, kiss me there I can smile now You won't find out ever Hurt me baby I flinch so when you do Your kisses scourge me Hyssop in your perfume Oh I do not fear you And slave I only use as a word to describe The way I feel when I'm with you If I have to lie about it everytime I came undresse

Saying Goodby To The Past!
It is strange to think I have not seen you in monthes. I have seen the sun set and the sun rise, but nothing of your beautiful face. The pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could pass through the eye of a needle. I have missed you like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, my heart hardens like the frozen world you have bannished me to. Hope guides me, it is what gets me through the days and especially the nights. The hope that now that you are gone from my heart, my sight and my love I will NEVER see you again. As I gaze to the future, you have opened my eyes to what love should be, what you could never give me.

The Kill ~30 Seconds To Mars
"The Kill" What if I wanted to break Laugh it all off in your face What would you do? (Oh, oh) What if I fell to the floor Couldn't take all this anymore What would you do, do, do? Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you What if I wanted to fight Beg for the rest of my life What would you do? You say you wanted more What are you waiting for? I'm not running from you (from you) Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you I tried to be someone else But nothing seemed to change I know now, this is who I really am inside. Finally found myself Fighting for a chance. I know now, this is who I really am. Ah, ah Oh, oh Ah, ah Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you, you, you. Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you Come break me down (bury me, bury me) Break me down (bury me, bury me) Break me d

How Bad
How bad are you wanted?: Post this and see how many messages u get...don't be scared! (1) just friends (2) gorgeous (3) cute as heck (4) hot (5) fine (6) sexy (7) amazingly sexy (8) we can be friends with benefits (9) I'd take you to my crib (10) I want 2 make u my GF/BF (11) I love you baby

This Made Me Laugh!!!
I had to steal this, its about me and I find it funny as hell!! ok.. so now i get to bitch some.. ya i was seeing someone.. was going great.. been together almost 3 months.. i changed all my profiles to in a relationship.. i had a yahoo personals profile for over 3 years..lol totally forgot about it. well the guy i WAS seeing sends me a message sayin its over cause i was lookin for someone else cause he seen my personals profile.. ya news flash.. when i changed my profile pic on my yahoo profile it changed it for my personals profile as well.. i mean come on.. how fucked up is this? if certain people would have cared to read my info hadnt been edited in over a year. my kid's ages in it are will soon be 5 and 2.. ya my daughter is fixin to be 6 and my son will be 3 this summer.. i mean ya i was holding back because of certain issues like family.. ya know. i lost my job the end of january.. his hours got cut back.. i was broke for valentines day but it was our 2 month anniversary, so

Silly Shit!
Well, here I am again trying to come up with something that will beat the snot out of what I wrote this morning........ Hmmmmmmm what will that be??? We hold our breath! I have never talked about the art of taking a wiz.. draining the one eyes wonder worm... ETC.. ETC.. Why do some toilets look like horse shoes?? Are we supposed to feel lucky when we drop a load in a completely strange place such as the mall?? Or, during an accidental discharge you don't pee on the seat but spray on the ground? Or is it because some people wipe between and not around.. ahh I think i'm on to something now! What is up with the advertising with the bears and the dingleberries anyway? lol, they make toilet paper soft enough to sleep on, and now it doesn't leave dingle berries.. It's hilarious.. they moisten the toilet paper and put a 3 pound weight on it and drag it along the carpet.. OK 1st.. who the hell studied the average pressure that a human puts on her brown eye to wipe?? I mean i'm

Stupid Survey
~Have you thought about an ex today? Nope ~Where is the person who has your heart at the moment? On my footstool. His name is Meatball ~Would you date someone who lived in another state? Yes ~Could you handle a long distance relationship? Yes ~When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't? About 2 hours ago ~Relationships or one night stands? Neither ~When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face? about 3 weeks ago ~Is there anyone who doesn't like you? Probably ~Do you laugh a lot? Yepper ~Do you consider yourself lucky? Hahahahaha NO ~Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you? Dawn. She's my friend ~Do you think you're pregnant? No ~You have to get a facial piercing, what do you get? GROSS ~You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get? Portrait of Tamara Lynn on my right shoulder ~Could you cry right now? I can cry anytime l

A Serious Note About Elder Abuse
I usually enjoy writing very funny blogs and promise I will again but I spent a couple hours on the phone last night with a friend of mine in New York as I continue to develop a support network nationally for victims of physical, psychological and emotional abuse and those who are trying to deal with it in their lives. I realize there are already many non profits around that help with these issues but my conversation last night reminded me that abuse and mistreatment of others, especially the elderly is sometimes very subtle and easy to ignore or write off as being something that is necessary for "their own good". It is an issue that we all need to be watchful for in our own corner of the world andbe willing to get off our butts andget involved in others life to help those who are scarred and unable to help themselves. let me explain. Mt friend in New York has three sisters. She recently moved home to help care for her ailing Mom who is nealy 80. Mom lives with another daughter

Spring Cleaning!
I never really realized how many broken and non working things I had tucked in my stash.....until now. 34 vids bit the dust so far and I'm sure there are more to come. The mp3 player on my page isn't working for now either.Ill fix that when the website I got it from is back up and running. Cleared out about 16 users no longer on Fubar.I'm sure there will be more to come once I weed the people lurking on my friends list too. Other than that....nothing new to report until the wedding on April 19th. Ill be sure to post pics of that when I can. Enjoy the day!

Poem
Seeing the smiles of people as I walk down the street. Seeing a parent teaching their child about the world around them. I love the look on a child's face as they learn something new. The way their eyes light up as they start to smile. It makes the world seem so much easier than it really is. Amazing how we begin in life as children and then grow up to become adult. Things that have been in our lives as we become adults. Watching children playing the same way I did as a child. Seeing them smiling and laughing without a care in the world. Walking down the street watching as the people are greeting each other. Feeling so calm, enjoying the world around me. Seeing different types of people walking on the streets. People of different race, the young and the old, men and women. Seeing them smiling at each other. Feeling so at ease walking down the street. Stop by a chain link fence, to watch a street basketball game. Seeing the other people

I Promise
I can't promise you that dark clouds will never hover over our lives or that the future will bring us many rainbows. I can't promise you that tomorrow will be perfect or that life will be easy. I can promise you my everlasting devotion, my loyalty, my respect, and my unconditional love for a lifetime. I can promise that I'll always be there for you, to listen and to hold your hand, and I'll always do my best to make you happy, and make you feel loved. I can promise that I'll see you through any crisis, and hope with you, dream with you, build with you, and always cheer you on and encourage you. I can promise that I'll share my dreams my world, and every aspect of my life with you. I'll willingly be your protector, your advisor, your counselor, your friend, your family, your everything. And I believe that's what love is truly all about.

A Fun Blog Game
WARNING: This thread may become addictive and may result in brain torture and severe laughter! Please, keep this CLEAN, it's NOT tagged as NSFW and I want it kept that way..... Here we go: There's a bottle on the beach, washed up by the tide, you open it and out pops a Genie who grants you a single wish, although you may make a wish, the genie will grant it, with a twist.... for the genie is a bit demented with a sick sense of humor. The object of this game is to screw up the previous person's wish then make a wish for the next person to mess with. I'll Start: I wish I had enough money to never work again.

Nothing To See Here
I need to fucking get laid. I need to get my ass out of the house and just throw all my damn issues out the window swallow my fear and shy crap and just go for it. It's getting just plain stupid. Chick I'm talking with is great, sexy, kinda dirty flirty and I just....cannot move I am so beyond lame.

Try Not To Laugh
Just try reading this without laughing till you cry!!! It is the last paragraph that will do it!!!!! Pocket Taser Stun Gun, a great gift for the wife. A guy who purchased his lovely wife a pocket Taser for their anniversary submitted this:Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest... The occasion was our 15th anniversary and I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Julie. Pocket Taser Stun Gun, a great gift for the wife. A guy who purchased his lovely wife a pocket Taser for their anniversary submitted this:Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest... The occasion was our 15th anniversary and I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Julie. Pocket Taser Stun Gun, a great gift for the wife. A guy who purchased his lovely wife a pocket Taser for their anniversary submitted this:Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest... The occa

Emotion: Kill Kill Kill.
so i really needed some cash because i dont want to lose my truck[i love you!] so i give my boyfriend back a bracelet and a ring [because he mentioned he'd sell them to get cash, and they were gifts he gave to his late grandma, but he has other things that were hers and she actually liked/wore so its not a big deal] he holds on to them and i figure well their really his and maybe its a sentimental thing, so i would just ask him and hed say ok im going. and he would ask people where he could sell it on his own without me asking him see. i wouldnt have asked him if he didnt mention it or if his grandma didnt have all this other crap, etc but then THEN SECOND he needs cash for the same reason, BAM! its gone. sold in less than a blink of the eye i dont know about you but damn, i think thats dirty. so apparently im completely on my own. i guess im just annoyed/pissed/hurt because if it was the other way around, i would have helped him out. maybe im wrong to be feel

Great Love Starts With A Great Friendship
The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand nor the kindly smile nor the joy of companionship, it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that some one else believes in him and is willin to trust I found this on Queen Desa's page. This girl has so much wisdome on heer page that i would love to travel her mind in person.

Yahooooo
To all my friends that I usually talk to on yahoo when I'm at night at work: I have stopped using it at work, but not because I don't want to talk, but... because the fuckin thing doesn't want to log me in. So there...

Saying Good Bye
Hey ya'll, Just letting everyone know that as of may 1st i will no longer be a part of fubar. I have made a few close friends here whom I will keep in touch with & I love them dearly. they know how to get in touch with me. other than that FUCK ALL YOU OTHER FAKE ASS PEOPLE

Tainted Pt1
A black and corrupted soul, Lays awake in the bitter twilight, My damnation has fully been granted, I am no more then a spectre, A black and soulless void, I shall to you will be not even a memory. I am one of the lost, A slave to self reformation, Never should I have been within the light. I will revert to that in which I truly am. A dark one, lust incarnate This blood, you’re innocence. To me they are like the fruit and wine. You’re very tears like ambrosia too my palette. You’re screams are like angelic choirs to my ears. The very breaking of you’re heart will be my joy. I will sustain myself upon your pain. Throw you across that alter and devour you soul and all. Bring forth my damnation, Oh how I lust for it….

Just Can't Take It
I don't even know what to say anymore. My closest friends know I lost my best friend when things with Candra ended. There are a few others I am close to, and the one who I talk to most has now left because of something in her life that happened tonight. Everyone I am close to is disappearing. :( I think I need to just stop trying

Hey Everyone!!
I haven't really been on here much at all for well a couple of years now. Or at least a year. I'm not sure I lose track of time way too easily. All the people that I've really gotten to know quite well have other ways of contacting me but the rest of you are stuck in fuLand. So, I just wanted to let you know I've come back from my hiatus. I'll try to be on here more often and what not. I just got so bored of this site for a while and I wasn't meeting any interesting people other than the ones I had already chatted with. Anywho... I'm back.. you know you missed me..lol jk

Repost From A Friend
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.To every guy that said he would die for her.To every guy that really would.To every guy that did what she wanted to do.To every guy that cried in front of her. ....To every guy that she cried in front of...To every guy that holds hands with her.To every guy that kisses her with meaning.To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....To every guy that would give his seat up...To every guy that just wants to cuddle.To every guy that reassured her that she was b

~senses~
~Senses~ she closes her eyesknowing He will be near soonshe senses Him near hershe feels His breath on her she smiles, knowing He is nearshe kneels, legs spread wideknowing exactally what He wants from her she senses His needs,His wants and desiresshe hears the crack of the whip,her senses on edgeHe knows what He wants..smiling He bends her over the chairat that moment all she senses is the smooth air she hears the crack of the whip and then a sting across her ivory skinOver and over again,until both of them are exhausted.He smiles.she quivers and shakesher senses on the edgeHe gives His pet kisses and reassures her of His love.They both feel each other senses and sit there in each others arms in bliss.

Tommorrow Means Nothing
Cutting through just like champagne petalsSprinkled over the blackest seaUrban stars will shine, electric, they keep on calling.As they beckon I'm enamored of the sight.No, everything won't be alright for me tomorrow.Tomorrow may not come.Ascending slowly with hopes of findingOne small moment of clarityEscape the blackness cast upon me.I still can't see as you bind me, murder me from miles away.I will finish this today for you.Tomorrow means nothing.Immobile lights will fly tonight.We'll watch them pass together as we part the rising sky.I won't die without you.These breathtaking heights lend sparkling sightsBut we won't fall forever.Tightly bound we'll chase the groundI won't die without you.Descending quickly with hopes of sharingAll the things you've shared with me,I'll chase the digital eye's below me.Through them you'll see as I fallWith digital omniscient eyesCapturing me one last time for you.Tomorrow you will see.Immobile lights will fly tonight.We'll watch them pass together a

Went To The Coast For Easter And Their Was The Bunny
So me and all my buddies go to ocean cove ,CA. And their we seen the most wonderful thing ever it was a bunny rabbit laying his eggs for easter so we all thought wow their really is a lil bunny rabbit to lay his eggs, but to our surprise that morning we take the kids to the very spot we seen the eggs being layed and let the kids look for a golden egg, but the children come back and say uncle justin I got lots off eggs see, and i look inside and to my surprise its just a carmillo, oh so we thought truth told it was s**t,but we never had it in us to tell them the truth and switched the eggs while they slept and yeah happy easter.

Indiana People ??
Anyone in the central Indiana area (Kokomo/Peru to be more precise) that has tried or wants to try the Dom/sub lifestyle or role play. Dominate male here always looking to chat with others that share a little kink.

Poem
PEACE I'm now at peace with myself. I'm no longer at war with myself. My whole life I was always putting myself down when things went wrong in my life. The times I tried to take my own life. There was always someone or some thing to stop me from ending my life. It took a lot of time for me to love myself. It took a lot of help to get me to where I am today. The help from my mom, who help me through the hard times. My dads, who could make me laugh when I need a good laugh. My little brother who always had my back when I needed it. My teachers who taught me the things I need to learn in life. The friends I could talk to when I needed to talk to someone other than my family. The times I tried to take my own life. There was always someone or some thing to stop me from ending my life. The peace I found after all these years. The peace has made me become the man I always wanted to be.

Loving You Makes Me A Better Person
Every time I think about you... I am reminded of the reasons why I love you from the depth of my heart and soul. And I wonder what I would do without You, without Your healing smile, Your words of faith, the caring and sensitive way You touch me so deeply, lifting me just when I need it the most. Without You what would I have ? What would I be ? I can not imagine existing in a world where someone does not love me the way You do. Your the only one who ever loved and accepted me for who I am. And I think You are nothing short of amazing. Your love will always be life's greatest gifts.

Auction
Hey! So, I'm in another auction. I need bids, bids, bids! So, come check me out, rate my pic, and bid on me! I promise to spoil you! Mwah! Jessi http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=2316619&albumid=1610916&i=592562123&idx=4

Prfile U.s Gov.
From: bikecop24To: Date: Apr 15, 2009 5:25 PMSubject: profiling by US govt.please read NOW AINT THIS SOME SHIT!!!!!!Profiling by the U.S.GovernmentBody: I don't have many friends left on my friends list on myspace because of my stance on government and religion. So I cannot get my message out like I would like to. So if any of you want to re-post this you have my permission.Homeland Security Warning.pdf (2026KB)The above came out yesterday. Why is it ok for the government to profile and label others when it is condemned for our police officers to profile or it has been stated they have. Well if they want to label me as a right wing extremist or a threat because of the list below, well Obama, DHS, and the socialist regime in Washington save the tax payers dollars and label me. If it has come to this kind of dictatorship in our Country that I am considered a extremist because I believe in the following put my name on your list.1. I stand for pro life not murder of babies.2. I believe a

Here's A List Of Ten Common Reasons Why Men May Not Want Sex
Medications. Antidepressants (SSRI-type) and antihypertensives (blood pressure medication) are often the culprit when a man has a lowered interest in sexual activity. These can also cause sexual dysfunction. Lack of sleep. When a man is in his teens or twenties, the opportunity to have sex will often overwhelm the desire to sleep. This is often true also when a relationship is brand new. But, as people and relationships age, sex can lose its compelling nature and a good night's rest can be quite tempting. Hormonal levels. The most important physiological stimulant of sexual desire is testosterone. Many men are mistakenly sent to have a blood test for total testosterone when low libido is the issue. While that information might be interesting to know to have a full picture of a man's hormonal levels, knowing the free testosterone level is much more relevant to how much sex he desires. Also, too much prolactin and SHBG (sex hormone binding globulin) can suppress sexual desire. So when

B7ebak My Shexshy Husband,
B7ebak my shexshy husband, Being away from you now is so much harder than it was before we met, held each other and kissed fell asleep and woke up side by side walked the old market and had lunch in the park even I know it is necessary and for a short time this is the only time for once we are side by side again, it will be forever where you go I go b7ebak my shexshy husband would take me a millions of lifetimes to begin to show you how much I Love you, Want you and Need you with me no one or nothing is important to me as being with you, making you happy, loving you, taking care of you, spending the rest of my life with you you are my reason for living, you are my life, world, universe, everything, and all bmoot fiek 7abibi WB. Mrs. FM 04/17/09 12:39am our time

Look For Your Angels
I have slapped the devil and cursed the divinity. The divinity had a plan for me and now I know my mission statement in life.I spent a good part of my life with the U.S. Army and a couple of departments of the Federal Government, (that I can't speak of, for a number of reason) going places and doing things that haunt me at times to this day. I was gifted with more brains than brawn and am grateful for all the blessings in my life today. I was told by several people to update my bio and give more of an insight on who and what I am and what I stand for. I honestly never felt that I had that much significance in the world to do this. For over 20 years I lived like a Nomad living out of a duffel bag and under a shady veil. I am held together with bailing wire, 132 staples, 5 broken noses, 6 concussions, numerous broken bones, and many bullet holes in my soul. Why I'm not dead yet is only an answer that the divinity can provide. Itried, never by my own hand but by the enemies I have encoun

So True
At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down Finally , the guys’ side of the story. (I must admit, it’s pretty good.) We always hear “the rules ” From the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note.. these are all numbered “1 ON PURPOSE! 1. Men ARE not mind readers. 1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You’re a big girl. If it’s up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don’t hear us complaining about you leaving it down. 1. Sunday sports. It’s like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. 1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way. 1. Crying is blackmail. 1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it! 1. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question. 1. Come to us with a problem only If you want h

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"Again" I think of you my heart skips in excitement I hear your voice my ears ring with joy I see your face and I'm filled with wonder I smell the sweetness of your hair my nose twitches with pleasure I touch your hand and my skin tingles with electric bliss I pine for you my hope is renewed I think of youand your beauty overwhelms me Again, Again, and yet Again

Cant Lose Him
I have lost every other guy that has meant anything to me. I push them away. I yell I scream. I complain about unimportant things. I say things that come to my head no matter how hurtful they might be. I met this guy. I have never met him in real life but i love everything bout him. It is scary how can u feel this way about someone unknown. I love his looks, his personality, his kind heart, his innocence. I love everything about him. But the downside is that i dont know how to have a healthy relationship. I dont know how to be easy going and loving all the time. I know he is going to leave me. So I am scared to open up fully to him..... I dont know what to do anymore

Internal Radiation Tommorrow?
They have me set up to do this @ 7AM and it's impossible seeing I've got the kids to get off to school and the fact that my husband is working day turns which means he leaves here @ 5AM not sure what the hell I'm going to do here. Maybe talk with the doctor and see if he can't find another time for me, then again my husband said to go ahead and keep the time because I need to go through with it, yes I know this however is it going to work out with all the shit I've got to do and with him working early mornings? Anyways he says he'll try & work something out with his BOSS to see if he can't work midnights in order to be there with me & maybe his dad can help with the kids or I'll have to ask my G/F Jamie next door, I don't know... We'll have to figure something out and it'll have to be soon....Oh yeah I forgot that they are an hour ahead of us so this means I'd have to be there @ 6AM my time..... Whew what a damn joke cause I've got to do a FLEET enama? Before they start the procedure,

'craigslist Killer' ( No Joke)
BOSTON — Police in New England released new surveillance photos of the so-called "Craigslist Killer," as they continue to hunt the man linked to at least two robbery cases and one death linked to the Web site. Police in Warwick, R.I., released the pictures Monday in their investigation of another robbery at a Holiday Inn Express Hotel there on Thursday. On Tuesday, the body of Julissa Brisman was found in a room at the Boston Marriot Copley Place. She was shot multiple times in the torso during a robbery and pronounced dead at a nearby hospital. The same man was photographed Friday at the Westin Hotel in Boston, where a 29-year-old Las Vegas woman was found bound and robbed, police said. Boston police are investigating more than 150 tips about Brisman's murder. Brisman, of New York City, advertised massage services on Craigslist and had a massage table set up in the room where she was shot Tuesday. The woman attacked in Warwick advertised lap dances on Craigslist. She was

Ace Cafe Auction
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Do Not Lie.
It has come to my understanding that when someone says they love you. They show it by never leaving you. Never fucking you over. Never turning their back on you. Being there for you. To hold you. To show you love. To treat you with love. To be the personification of love. Love is never boastful or prideful. Never lies or cheats. Never comes with strings attached. Love is kind, and patient. Understanding and committed. If you do not like committment, do not fucking tell someone you love them. God's of the universe damn you if you ever fucking tell someone you love them and then do not fucking follow through. Fuck you and you're wishy-washy ways. Fuck you and everything you stand for. Fuck you and the horse you rode in on. Fuck you for making me feel this way. Fuck you for making me say fuck you too many times to even make this sound coherent anymore. FUCK.

Dream On~
It all started on a Friday night. You see, I work two jobs and I also work every day of the week, but lately, who doesn’t work 7 days a week? I guess you might say that I have an odd combination of jobs. I am a computer programmer during the day, and in the afternoon and evening I work at a fast food restaurant. No, I’m not the manager there, I am basically a grunt. I only have two evenings off a week. One of them is Monday night (I’m a wrestling fan, you see, so I gotta watch Raw) and the other is Friday night. Normally I would do things I need to. Grocery shopping and laundry needed to be done on Friday, but on this night, I needed to unwind. There was nothing to prepare me for what was about to happen. I arrived home at about 4 in the afternoon from cashing my paychecks and picking up a few things I needed at the grocery store to tide me over until I actually needed to go shopping. I sat myself down at my computer and turned it on. I logged onto the internet and al

Ducks
i was so tickled with the afternoon yesterday -- since the whole i was sick thing most days i strive to see things that will be memories and leave that for the kids ...yesterday we were outside the day was sunny and warmer than it had been in a while ... the kids constance - becca- melody and macy were running and playing while matt of course was on the puter ... go figure ...but all of a sudden these mallards a girl and a boy flew down and began to walk around and quack - the kids went nuts so much so that i had to go get bread to feed them--we tried to get them to walk back over to the apartment but alas they werent buying it ... they did however come up to us very close and then we got to watch them wiggle their butts and quack more -- the girls were in a frenzy and of course becca wanted to pet them but they eventually flew away ... was the sweetest thing and i thought what a wonderful thing --we did the ducky song and talked bout them and i enjoyed that sooo much ... building mem

Myfreeimplants.com (need Help)
My name is KellieI am 18years from Orange Texas ...Im on this site called MFi (Myfreeimplants) its a site deticated too Woman to Raise money too get Breat Implants... Guys Go online and $$$ Donate too woman . .soo Girls if yall Read This and want implants Sign up too that site its easy and fun This is my Link : http://myfreeimplants.com/model_detail.asp?MOID=89111 So if Any of yall are Interested in Helpn a Girl Out Please Do anything would be Highly appricated =)What size Im looking to going to and 10 reasons why: 38DD Or BIGGER!!! 1.Tall broad shoulderd soo It would fill me Out Perfectly2.Had a Kid went from 34a-34DD Now a 36c(soo i got strechmarks and hopen to fill that skin all out)3.Itd be Nice too Have a Full Cup4.Theres STuff REAL & Small Boobs cant wear 5.I wanna Look like The Model Playboy/Porn Star Girls6.My Mom and sister Both got BOOBJOBs (34DD)7.It would make me Feel Good 8.Need a Reason too Buy Sexy lingerie, low cut tops..ect 9.Want Something to be PROUD Of And SHOW O

Angel Of Mine
I am blessed with the love of a angel,who's smile is brighter than the sun,with eyes that sparkle more than any star,whose kiss is sweeter than the finest of winesand love more powerful than any drug,no dream could ever compare to my angel's presents,nor replace the tenderness of her precious kiss,for me my angel is a dream come true,and my love for her will last until the end of time,I will always worship the times we haveand hold dear to my heart the linger of her last touch;until we meet again,each night I will look at the moon and sayI love you to my angel, and be thankful for my dream come true!

Omg!!!
Well, I was worried to DEATH about last weeks assignment! Who'd have thought! Does a happy dance!!!!!! Michelle, Excellent paper, I really enjoyed reading it. You are a very proficient writer. You hit all of the required topics for the assignment and detailed explanation of the implementation was fabulous. You have received full points on this assignment.

#1
Ok, my 1st blog & just f.y.i. it's called "Random Thoughts..." cuz my mind is always goin a mile a minute & how I write (proper English or slang) can offer insight to the mood I'm in. Thank you!! It has been one of those days where any spark can induce a fire buring outta control. I gotta lot on my plate (have for a long while now) & u know how u think u have the 1 person u can count on thru thick & thin, right & wrong, good & bad - u turn 2 them & they let u fall?? Yeah, had that happen 2 me - not the 1st time, but definitely the last time. So now, cuz I made the choice 2 say good-bye 2 all the drama, disappointments & consistent negligence he wanna try & help me, but I'm way 2 pissed cuz he let me fall 2 many times already. Now I'm 2 the point where my vision is clear, my thinking is positive & my motivation levels are off the charts - I have wut it takes now 2 do it all MY WAY, MYSELF!! I believe I gotta make a move to move on cuz my heart & spirit can't take anutha fall lyk this

Hell..
Hell I’d burn for eternity in the depths of your embraceWith your heart shaped flames kissing the sides of my face.Stretched out on a gasoline bed of hot coals and nailsIs as painful as the bliss of burning flesh that I smell.Devilish laser eyes burn holes through my heartAs the heat of lust boils our sweat dripping in the dark.And a tornado of emotional flames scorch my earsAs the taste of your hot magma evaporates my tears.‘Would try to escape my fate to bakeBut walking through fire makes nerves shake.No, not shaking in pain of your sexy flameLike a fiend I want to blaze ‘till I go insane.‘Till my eyes pop out and my body goes numb;‘Till the friction of our rubbing bones cause smoke to come.This is crazy I know. I must be under some Salem witch spell‘Cause instead of going to Heaven I’d rather stay in Hell.

Pit's
You know you meet great friends on Fubar and you become like family,then you find out you just became a friends with a sour cherry pit!Fubar is all about fun it's a place to escape from reality!Then some one comes along and starts drama,and why?Because if they can't be happy they start drama for other peep's on Fubar!My oppinion is come on stop the the dam drama like Rodney King stated"Can't we all just get along" and because of his statement the koas stopped so lets do the same on fubar!It's all about fun and partining!

Mike Disabled Pms? How Did He Do That?
'disabled pms/skins/midgets so i can finish up some maintenance.. should be done in 15-20 minutes. werd.-mike' This scientific breakthrough is fascinating. I want to know more. !!

Ghost And Death?
Today, sis asked me if i would like to join her and our aunties to watch malay horror movie in the cinema. By 7.30pm, we went to fetch my aunt who lives few miles away and moved on to Down Town east. Once we reached there, we meet up with my another aunt and cousins. It was quite a busy evening because tomorrow is a public holiday. Haha, i had my salted popcorns. It was alright, i didnt feel like eating anything heavy at that moment. Yay, we got the middle seats and it was a clear view but unfortunately, there was this boy with strong smelly feet resting his feet at the back of my seat and it was a bigggggg turrrnnn off! Even my salted popcorn taste horrible cos of the smell of smelly feet lol Omg, sometimes i just hate the sound effect of the movie. It's the sound that gives the suspense everytime the ghost appears. As usual, i would closed my eyes when i knew the ghost was about to appear. It was abit predictable. I was so scared that i finished up the popcorn without realising it

Nsfw - A Special Night With Special Lady Pt. 1
You are sitting in your office at work, and a flower delivery man approaches you. “I’m looking for Angel,” the man says. You smile and look up, “I’m Angel.” The man hands you a box of flowers and asks you to sign for it. You think to yourself, it’s not my birthday, anniversary, or a holiday, so who’s sending me flowers. You open the box and find that inside is your favorite flowers, a nice bouquet of daisies. You pull the vase out and see a card fall out as well. You open it to find a sweet card inside it. “Honey, I love you and I hope that this puts a smile on your face. The kids are staying with their grandparents and we have the evening to ourselves. Hurry home and I’ll see you soon.” You smell a faint whiff of my cologne and you feel yourself get a little excited just at the thought. You spend much of the rest of the day watching the clock and distracted. You are wondering what kind of plans I have cooked u

Could Be Mine
You could be mine,The taste of your skin rollingGliding over my senses.Erotic fantasies flashing overIn my mind, to let me know howMuch they don't compare to you.I can almost feel the soft press ofYour body, warm, firm, molding withMine to form a perfect being.Nimble fingers and hands workingTheir spell over my desires.We could be one, you know that,We could become trapped in ourFancies staying tied down in ourOwn little play world held back byA thirst that can't be quenched.I could be yours, wrapped in clearBlanket on display for your amusementTo show everyone the catch you've madeThe servant you're found, the lover you choose.We could be ours.

One More Thing!
I figured that once all this shit is over and know for sure they've gotten it all, I'm going to get a tattoo with the color for cervical cancer put on my neck with I Survived an won the fight! Let me know what ya'll think?

Nothing More Romantic Than Porn Vol 1
SugarI didn't realize that we talked that much on the phone. As much as shewas a stranger in my home she wasn't to me. She knew were the candleswere, and placed them about the bathroom. Filled the bathtub withscents she brought and turned off the lights. Fingertips pressedlightly against each button on her while blouse she then removed. Warmclasp pressed into her back she unhooked and let fall to the floor.Two buttons against her back undone allowed for her skirt to drop. Onestep over the rim and she sunk into the bath. White clouds of soapsprouted and popped against her chest. Her hands danced in her hair tokeep it dry outside the bath. Falling completely in but her faced, sheclosed her eyes, breathed in and waited.Walking in I knew things had changed. The new sent played heavy withmy eyes. Even the taste in the air seemed different. Not the coldapartment I had called home alone for so long. I laid down my thingsand looked around, fumbling in the dark. As I turned the knob of thebathr

World Full Of Emptiness
This world is full of people.people who love,people who hate.Ones that are there,ones that are far away.Not everyone in this world enjoys everyone elsebecause like me they fell alonein a world full of people!!!! Crystal M. Grossinger

Aint That About A Bitch Its Taxi The Movie
have u ever seen a man that lives 2 steps awy from his mom if u havent or fogot, have u ever seen taxi who the hell drives when they can sing ,who the hell lives 2 steps away from there mom ,well dont miss the movie its straight funny and for u should see the way he drives kinda like a manieak (lol)thanks for this oppertunity peps see ya

The Next Terrorist Attack
Subject: The next predicted terrorist attack Juval Aviv was the Israeli Agent upon whom the movie ' Munich ' was based.. He was Golda Meir's bodyguard -- she appointed him to track down and bring to justice the Palestinian terrorists who took the Israeli athletes hostage and killed them during the Munich Olympic Games. In a lecture in New York City a few weeks ago, he shared information that EVERY American needs to know -- but that our government has not yet shared with us. He predicted the London subway bombing on the Bill O'Reilly show on Fox News stating publicly that it would happen within a week. At the time, O'Reilly laughed and mocked him saying that in a week he wanted him back on the show. But, unfortunately, within a week the terrorist attack had occurred. Juval Aviv gave intelligence (via what he had gathered in Israel and the Middle East ) to the Bush Administration about 9/11 a month before it occurred. His report specifically said they would use planes as bomb

One Owl's Journey
Wings spread as i take off from my perch the tree of life contains oak ash and birch soaring above our great mother feeling the power of her grace feeling the energy from all things above and below searching to and fro until i see her face In our mother we live and have our being Love and beauty mixed with charm and passion this are the things that i will be seing Flight is as free as i can be excited full of the power of the stars ,fire and all else in between Up ahead walking the path a lady she smiles bids me welcome waving me welcome with a wand Her smile is soothing warm and comforting as i make my descent upon her shoulder I realize I am in the presence of a true Queen

Less Than Thirty-six Hours To Our Travels
Sunday morning I had our church’s third graders to teach in Parable Playhouse, our church’s Sunday school class done with puppets. That day Sarah chose to not go into another Sunday school class and hung out with her aunt Mary while I taught with Jeffrey at my side (I mean, he wouldn’t get away from it). My in-laws were out of town this past weekend so Martha, Mary, and I were the three adults watching over Breanna – who is thirteen and certified to be a babysitter, her sister Josceline, Sarah, and Jeffrey. So Jeffrey was in class (I joke that he and Sarah audit my class) and the kids even set out a pillow for him to sit on. Then three of the boys in the class lifted him up on the pillow … with great difficulty, they admitted! He is slightly smaller than Sarah – I’m still asked by people who see them if they’re twins – but he is very solid when you lift him! At one point in class, I had four kids acting with their puppets on

Love For One Person
love for one person when you love someone so much that it makes you hurt so much. you dont care what you got to do to help that person out. but what hurts is when that person just keeps their hearted closed to you.expectaly when the person use to talk to you about anything. it casues more emotional pain then anyone can relize. it even gets you so far down that it causes physical pain.

Cradle Of Filth- Nymphetamine
Lead to the river Midsummer, I waved A "V" of black swans On with hope to the grave And though Red September With skies fire-paved I begged you appear Like a thorn for the holy ones Cold was my soul Untold was the pain I faced when you left me A rose in the rain... So I swore to the razor That never, enchained Would your dark nails of faith Be pushed through my veins again Bared on your tomb I'm a prayer for your loneliness And would you ever soon Come above onto me? For once upon a time From the binds of your lowliness I could always find the right slot for your sacred key Six feet deep is the incision In my heart, that barless prison Discoulours all with tunnel vision Sunsetter... Nymphetamine Sick and weak from my condition This lust, this vampyric addiction To Her alone in full submission None better... Nymphetamine Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine... Nymphetamine girl. Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine... My Nymphetamine girl. Wicked with your charm I

Should I Just Give Up
Should i just give up on everything that i tried so hard for seem's like no matter how hard i try i cant make anyone happy i try and do as much as i can to see other people happy i just want to give up on everything im tired of all the bs and drama i try and not let it get to me seem's like i was more happier in Azorina i did not have all this stress and bs like i got here in S.C tired of all the crap someone keeps hacking into my gf things and mine witch is making me loose all my trust in everything i tried so hard for maybe when i ever go on my vac. in june ill see what is best for me i apply for alaska king crab fishing they will be hiering at the end of june i really hope they pick me i just think i need to get away from all the stress bs and drama maybe it will make me feel better.

O.k. Here Goes Nothing!
Cervical Cancer has five different categories in its staging system. The system used is referred to as the "Figo" system (International Federation of Gynecology and Obstetrics.You will notice that within each stage is a "sub-stage" and represent levels within that specific stage of cancer.The staging system begins at 0 and ends at IV. 0 meaning the very early stages of cancer and IV being advanced.Stage 0Also called carcinoma in situ, stage 0 means that cancerous cells that have not invaded deeper tissues. The cells are superficial and are only found on the surface.Stage IIn stage I, cancerous cells have invaded the cervix, and cells are no longer just at the surface. Cancer is still confined to the cervix and has not spread. Stage IA: This is the earliest form of stage I cervical cancer. The cancer can only be identified under microscopic examination. Stage IA1: The invasion area is less than 3mm(1/8 inch) deep and less than 7mm (1/4 inch) wide. Stage IA2: The invasion area is be

A Dream
I’ve neglected & regretted All this pain. & today was filled with So much shame. I’m exhausted now, From all my thoughts. & I don’t know how To make things stop! But I have a trick, Up my sleeve. To make things pause, For 8 hours at least. It comes late, after the sun Has vanished. To the point were stars, Sparkle like magic. It’s called a dream. My own little world, A place where people don’t even exist. But the things I love are at my fingertips. It lets me run, for only a little while. Giving my life time to breathe. & handing me something I know I can keep. Just let me dream.

A Day To Remember- You Had Me @ Hello
I'm missing you so much, I'll see you die tonight Just so I can get to you before the sun will rise I know the signs are on and I feel this too None of that ever seems to matter when I'm holding you And I'm wasting away, away from you What have I gotten into this time around I know that I had sworn I'd never trust anyone again but I didn't have to You had me at hello. I've never seen a smile that can light the room like yours It's simply radiant, I feel more with everyday that goes by I watch the clock so I can make my timing just right Would it be okay? Would it be okay if I took your breath away? And I'm wasting away, away from you. What have I gotten into this time around I know that I had sworn I'd never trust anyone again but I didn't have to You had me at hello You gave me butterflies at the mailbox, you had me at hello.

Have A Happy One
There aren't enough words to express what I feel about the sentiments attached to the energies of today, Mother's Day. Sometimes just writing the word 'mother' says it all. I know that some of us are mothers ourselves, and so I honor, appreciate and applaud every single one of you. Herculean, this job of mothering is, and with really high stakes. And then there are those of us who today will be spending time with our own mothers who sacrifice, sing, smile and support; the ones we don't think we could live without. And there are those among us whose mothers and grandmothers have passed, but whose memories stay alive in the blue eyes, the compassionate touch, the fabulous chocolate chip cookies. We miss them every day. I know I do. Happy Mother's Day to every mother who walks this earth. You make all that's wonderful in the world even better. And most of the time you don't even know it. Lucky bamboo is a great gift that's believed to bring solid support to every area of Mom's life. There

Glass Moon
Tell me Remind me Chase the water racing from the sky Always beside me Taste the memories running from my eyes Nervous flashlights scan my dreams Liquid shadows silence their screams I smile at the moon Chasing water from the skyI argue with the clouds Stealing beauty from my eyes Outside the soundness of your mindBathing your soul in silver tears Beneath a blackened summer sky Praying for time to disappear Beneath a summer day Under glass moonlight Night awaits the lamb's arrival Liquid shadows crawl Silver teardrops fall The bride subsides to her survival By your hand I've awakened Bear this honor in my name

Paramore- My Heart
I am finding out that maybe I was wrong That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone Stay with me, this is what I need, please? Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you We could sing our own but what would it be without you? I am nothing now and it's been so long Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope This time I will be listening. Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you We could sing our own but what would it be without you? This heart, it beats, beats for only you This heart, it beats, beats for only you This heart, it beats, beats for only you My heart is yours This heart, it beats, beats for only you My heart is yours (My heart, it beats for you) This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you) My heart is yours (My heart is yours) This heart, it beats, beats for only you (Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart, my heart is yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away) (Please don't go now, please don

Survey Says~
Name of the last person that texted you?Joy This survey gets a little personal can you handle it?Of course I'm a Male. Do you think somebody is in love with you?Yes, as I am with her. Is it easy to make you cry?No, But I will if it has to do with my son, or animals. What would you do if your best friend died?My best friend and I made a pack many years ago...If either one died first the other would support and protect his family. Do you consider yourself lucky?Luck is Luck, I actually pay no attention to it. I bet you miss somebody right now?No, I'm actually secure with myself on any level. I bet you're thinking about someone right now?erm, yeah, does the word DUH come to mind? Can you honestly say your okay right now?Since I'm capable of protection for others, I can honestly say that I'm fine. What are you doing tomorrow night?Spending time with my son. Do you tell people you're okay when you're really not?Sometimes depending on the situation, du

Never Forget
A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beardssitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them. She said “I don’t think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat.” “Is the man of the house home?”, they asked.“No”, she replied. “He’s out.”“Then we cannot come in”, they replied.In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened.“Go tell them I am home and invite them in!”The woman went out and invited the men in.“We do not go into a House together,” they replied. “Why is that?” she asked.One of the old men explained: “His name is Wealth,” he said pointing to oneof his friends, and said pointing to another one, “He is Success, and I am Love.” Then he added, “Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home.”The woman went in and told

Who Is The Victorious??
Who challenged the impossible is meSo how I will not challenge youAnd you are just a human like meThe solution is with youBut just a usual man is meNothing but small pen with weak ink in my handApproaching toward every one with a beasty words from youAnd scattering the desire in the air like bombsBut it is extinguisherWhen every things still alive of my pen Still alive even after my deathSo I will challenge you in this present and the futureWho is the victorious you or me- - - - - - - - - -W.B: FAR7AN

Nsfw
She was asleep when he came in.... He was quiet in shutting the door and locking in securly behind him.Ben walked into the bedroom where she lay half covered by the bed spread her back lit by the mooncoming through the sheer curtains. He walked straight into the bathroom where he derobed and showered throwing ona new t-shirt and underwear he entered the bedroom once more she was still laying there undisturbed. As Ben crawledinto bed next to her he ran his hand around her back feeling the curves she was warm and smelled like an exotic island.He leaned closer to her breathing her smell it was invigorating and exciting he gently placed his lips on her bare shoulderletting his whiskers gently tickle her as he moved across her skin. She began to roll over on her side now there were no clothes to get in the way she was already naked, it must have been one of those nights when clothes were just uncomfortable,he began caressing her side gently, tickling her a little. She gave a small grin, sti

Great Father's Day Gift........
Watch this....This is the Ultimate Father'd Day gift Acme Lazy Boy Recliner Chairs, gas powered by Briggs and Stratton.Gas Powered La-Z-Boy At Oshkosh Flyin 2005 on Vimeo May have to copy & paste some of the link but well worth it!

From The Prophet - On Marriage (everyone Should View Love This Way)
From The Prophet - on Marriageby Khalil Gibran Then Almitra spoke again and said, "And what of Marriage, master?" And he answered saying: You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore. You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days. Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God. But let there be spaces in your togetherness, And let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another, but make not a bond of love. Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls. Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup. Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf. Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each of you be alone, Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music. Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping. For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts. And stand together, yet not too near together. For the pillars of the temple stand apa

Details
okay so I have decided to add some more detail about me in this thing. it will be interesting to see if anyone bothers lol!. So I am a safety advisor for a large energy company, and I make a very comfortable living from it, Im not going to post a dollar figure but if its that important to you ask me and I will be happy to tell you:). I love Hisotry and have studied it all my life, I hate math lol. electrical storms get me hot!! I know wierd, I was an only child raised by my mom who is my hero by far. I love to dance..yes im good at it and no im not gay! smells are huge to me I love smelling yummy and if a girl walks by and smells good..whew light the fire baby lol. in my profile I mention a passing interest in video games..and now the truth lol I have three different consoles in my house, a ps2 a super nes and a nintendo 64 and the Wii will soon be added. I love moives! Back to my job, I keep people from being stupid and hurting themsleves:) I am Highangle and confined spa

My Name
C : You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it. H : You are not judgmental.R : You are a social butterfly. I : You are always smiling and making others smile. S : You are very broad-minded. T : You have an attitude, a big one. I : You are always smiling and making others smile. N : You like to work, but you always want a break. E : You are a very exciting person. R : You are a social butterfly. O : You are very open-minded. B : You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people. I : You are always smiling and making others smile. N : You like to work, but you always want a break. S : You are very broad-minded. O : You are very open-minded. N : You like to work, but you always want a brea

Grandma
Well dad has been keeping me up to date about my grandma who is not doing well. I was goin to go down on Saturday and see her. But they are giving her 24 to 72 hours to live. I don't know if I should just take Saturday off of work and go down if she is still around or if I should just go down after work and then maybe drive home late and or stay the night in Iowa. I do need the money if I have to take off more time is she passes sooner, but I don't really want to think about it like that. This is my last grandparent around so I don't to see her in her worst but I want to see her, I love her. I just don't know what to do.

Application
ENFORCER APPLICATION--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Fubar Name:Yahoo Messenger Address:Fubar Profile Address:Have You Ever Been An Enforcer Before?:Where Have You Been An Enforcer At?:How Many Lounges Do You Currently Belong To?:Are You Staff In Any Lounges?:When Are You Available To Start?:Why Would You Be Good For This Position:Are You A Patient Person:Are You Easily Angered:Do You Work Well With Others:Can You Follow Directions Accordingly To Position:How Often Are You Available To Be In The Lounge: DUTIES OF AN ENFORCER--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Following the rules and enforcing them. A Must at all times, To limit the drama and excercise superb quality for that in which people can co

It Is What It Is.
Believers in fate would have you believe that we (humanity) drifts on the ebb and flow of the tides of life. That our existance has purpose, but that purpose is to exist and uphold the order of things purely through existance. I do not believe in such thngs. Through out my life, There have been made as many choices are there were different paths to choose. For each crossroad came new circumstances and new lives that would be impacted by my decision to be. I have reached a place in my life, purely because of the decisions I've made, be them wrong or not, they have put me exactly where I am today. Aside from the crossroads there were many times that i could not choose, that I would take the only path avialable to me, to take the path that HAD to be taken, and too has led me here. Today I am faced with yet another of these situations. Given a choice, and choose I must. To remain in quickly dwindeling safety, or to make a full break, and run hard and fast, to chase the dream I have had

Sex Question Of The Week...on Hump Day!
Wow I haven't posted a blog in a looong ass time (and anyone who says I shouldn't have posted this one either - BITE ME!) So here's the question...brought to you by Hump Day and our horny Fu-friends. Do you use PROPS in the bedroom? Clothes, toys, creams, lotions, ice cubes, altoids...anything that you bring into the mix. If so...what do you use? C'mon share!

Two Hearts
Two hearts intertwined...Different views...Different dreams...Different needs...Different wants...Bound by a fragile string called LOVE...Union as willed by GOD...A journey in life...May be pounded by the forces of nature...May be struck by the fiercest lightning...Yet two hearts bound by a delicate twine...STRONG enough...To stand the test of time.

Ever Just Wonder...
What really makes us feel? What makes us see? What makes us hear, smell, taste? Obviously, there's the physiological side to it. Chemicals, proteins, what-have-you. But if it's basically the same physiological process... Why is it such a different experience for every person? It's the human element. That's why. Our experiences and associations are different, therefor the neural pathways are different. But we are the ones who choose to make those pathways. I really, really love this class...

Silhouette In Riddles
I look in your direction but the wind stopped me, I walk in the wooden door and hang up my coat, The TV is glowing; better than any kind of company,A secret life- that I breathe and run in with myself.A messed up kitchen, I forgot to clean last night;Dinner with friends- another day in black and white,Spoons and forks laying there- noodles and Olive oil,An Italian smell circles around in the air of the kitchen.A silver sink- with water pouring out of the faucet, I look; I can see my own reflection looking at me, My heart is torn- shattered into shards of glass, Someone is on my mind that I cannot have; myself.It's all just one big secret that I'm living here, Foot steps up the creaking stairs- white room, Lavender freshens the air; I'm tired of what I know, I'm tired of guessing the things that I don't know.I take my clothes off and sit on the edge of my bed, There is something on my mind- feelings so real, I think and think some more until I get frustrated,I saw the love of my life- a

Destined For Greatness
the name is picasso , if u dnt likeme i could care less cuz i love me some me...im going to one of the world greatest chef one day i will make history throughout the world...now u might say thats cockyness but no only confident...

Mother And Daughter
Mothers and Daughters We're daughters and mothers not so long ago. We give and take and take and give along time'sendless row. Love is passed and love received to be passed onagain. A precious heirloom twice, twice blessed, aspiritual cardigan. I'll put it on and treasure it, the me I havereceived, and when the roles reverse again, I'll have whatI most need. So may our love go on and on, a hundred thousandyears; Mothers and daughters, daughters and mothers,through joys andothertears. ~Author Unknown~

I Hate Those Manic Times In Life.
I have this personality that is a blessing and a curse. No Im not bi-polar..I asked my doctor and went to a few to be sure.Im just highly emotional I guess you would say.I have what you call bad luck.People around me make comments like "with your luck" and "Gosh you have bad luck" that makes me feel bad. I am a blessed person don't get me wrong.Im well taken care of and have great family and boyfriend but bad things happen to me alot.Im accident prone.I hate it. Lately my luck has gotten worse.Ive had trial after trial lately and get quite down.But Im not the kind of person to stay down long.I usually get really angry or I cry it out and then Im fine and look forward to bettering whatever problem it is. I feel everything deeply.When Im hurt inside it takes me over completely and I wont sleep.When something happens to someone I love...well I take their burden on myself.I can't help it.I wish I wasn't that way but I am.I am a worry wort.Dont ask why Im writing this random blog..well I k

Hope Is A Wasted Emotion
You can watch the still of the sunset alone,Waiting, watching, hoping in shades of pink and orangeThat someone will break the scenery,Sit with you, and watch as the day submits to the night.Always a dreamer, cover it with logic you only half believeThey'll believe you, and they don't care.But I don't believe you and maybe that's whyI'm sitting here watching the first stars push through, alone.It's okay, listen you here; some people are bornTo live and feel in solitude,It will all be okay for me,As long as you don't tell me otherwise.

I Stole The Stars For You
I stole the stars, all for youTore them from the sky.Close your eyes, my lovePut out your hand, trust meDon't question me why.I've given you my all.The only light I ever had,I've just spared for you,Now in the palm of your hand,Darkness might not be so bad.Lead me into foreverWherever that may be.Stay with me, my love,Hold my hand, never let goWithout you, it's too dark to see.I stole the stars, all for youTore them from the sky.Trusting you to guide my way,Staying always by my side,Please never pass me by. Written for the Magic in the Sky!

Sisters
MAYA I DONOT HAVE THE WORDS TO SAY...ALL I CAN DO IS BE THERE FOR YOU ....YOU HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME FROM THE BEING...TO MY SISTER I WELL ALWAYS LOVE YOU...I CAME TO YOU JUST BEING ME NOW I AM A FULL EVIL TWIN.....MAYA YOU ARE LIKE FAMILY TO ME....ALTHOUGH I HAVE NEVER SEEN YOU IN REAL LIFE YET...ONE DAY I KNOW IT IS GOING TO ROCK MEETING YOU..I HOPE THAT YOU WELL BE A BIG SISTER TO ME STILL...WITH LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU AND YOURS...

And Here..we...go!
So..Friday i'm adding to my gallery of body art. I have much to do since the shit head artist I used to go to when I lived in N.O. didn't know the first thing about actual tattooing. Just because you have a tattoo machine and a shop doesn't make you an artist. Trust me, I know. So...I'm adding to my "darkside" theme on my left arm and I'm gonna get a lil something for my stomach. I don't have abs of steel but I don't care. My caring days are over! if you want a sneek peek at what I'm getting..I've made this blog NSFW so don't whine n bitch if you're some goody-two-shoes feminist. You were warned.. You have entered The Tiger's cage!

Mother
All things down n i'm insane painTake rememberin all the things you said. All the things you did. Always ever wondering why in life all the shit you did hurtin myself inside not fheelin why. Can't believe all the shit that was done. Askin myself why does the shit happen to me all the time. If knew long nough would of never got myself caught.Up in ur shit fhuck you skank whore bitch. I hate what the fhuck you done to me. Why do you have me in thinkin fheelin like there is no other i'm smothered fhuck what this world has done to me. I don't want to be bothered.Mother-All the pain you caused you flaused. Smothered my life was never meant to be. Mother-Fheelin like no other. Mother just a lost little brother. Smothered life ain't nothin to be. Just really can't see how i'm suppose to be.Don't get why all the hate the pain this world has to be put me through. Fhuck all ur shit the shit that you done to me why n why why do I fhuckin ask. If I saw you I prolly blindful you stick my 9inch in y

Here I Am Again
here i am again nothing to have to think about school over finish done for this year nothing to think about but my own just my own troubles i have now others problems seems tiny as to compare to mine own my bff is getting better she has no more problems to be concerned about soon she be running off finding a place to be dancing my problems become top thing its just too much for me to think i want things the way it was i want my nanay she was my only friend only one to accept me the way i am i miss that from her

Drh ~daddy Rocks Hard~ Has The Autos
That SEXY man we all know and love Daddy Rocks Hard has auto 11’s on all day today, and tomorrow May 28th&29 Enjoy his 11’s and the points you both gain from rating during the next 24 hours and during Happy Hours. So, Come rate his pics and BOMB him good and help him and yourself towards leveling…! Click the link to his page Daddy Rocks Hard™@ fubar

Seniority
Shown below, is an actual letter that was sent to a bank by an 86 year old woman. The bank manager thought it amusing enough to have it published in the New York Times. Dear Sir: I am writing to thank you for bouncing my check with which I endeavored to pay my plumber last month. By my calculations, three nanoseconds must have elapsed between his presenting the check and the arrival in my account of the funds needed to honor it. I refer, of course, to the automatic monthly deposit of my entire pension, an arrangement which, I admit, has been in place for only eight years. You are to be commended for seizing that brief window of opportunity, and also for debiting my account $30 by way of penalty for the inconvenience caused to your bank. My thankfulness springs from the manner in which this incident has caused me to rethink my errant financial ways. I noticed that whereas I personally answer your telephone calls and letters, when I try to contact you,

I Feel Sick
Silence envelops the moths inside, flying into my gut wall, again and again - I feel sick. My tongue of sandpaper, hopes your heart isn't as fragile, as mine. And my tears wish they could change the world for yours... But, I can no longer be the soul, standing behind you, as you fall, as I'm simply not strong enough to catch you.

Silly People
You find concentrations of silly and intellectually challenged people in the strangest and scariest places...take I90 for instance, it's a prime example. Here's some advice for those that need it. (You know who you are...I log a lot of miles in a week, I drive a black Chevy Trailblazer, and odds are I've flipped you off by now ) 1. 20 miles an hour BELOW the speed limit in the left lane is NOT acceptable. 2. If it's bigger than you, I would suggest you either be nice and let them pass, or speed the hell UP!!! 3. In referring to the aforementioned...if you're merging onto the Interstate and there's a SEMI that can't get over because of the Idiot mentioned in number 1...it's a good idea NOT to play chicken with him. Odds are he's thinking of ways to choke the living SHIT out of Idiot #1. You really want to piss off someone driving something that big??? 4. Driving at 75 miles an hour is not advisable when trying to put on your earrings or mascara...do us all a favor, go without or EXI

What A Lucky Clown I Am
HEY,hows it going my names eggz and im a clown,lol sometimes i walk when i should run, sometimes i run when i should crawl some times i hear but dont listen, sometimes i listen when i should speak some times i speak but dont see, but i look and i am glad that your still here with me i love you.

My Prey
My Prey I know you can hear the rustling Trampling under foot jungle brush Through the dark dense forest I feel your blood begin to rush Your heart pounds calling to me You can feel the lion’s eyes upon you Hunting for your desires A reckoning so long over due Slowly I circle my prey I see her tremble at the unknown She crouches down trying to hide But she knows she is not alone

The Word That Sends Chills
I am Dark Seraphim and this is what I am feeling…. I sit in front of this computer; my fingers are slightly swollen compared to them just a year ago. My path to enlightenment has resulted with knowledge but loss; it is loss of family connection. Right now through, I do not know whether or not I ever had those connections over the last few years. Now however, what I had with my family is now being tested. I am confused over everything in my life. I am in college, passing with a GPA of 3.925. Most would be happy during this time but I am not. I am tired, distanced, and feeling alone. I am surrounded by people who cared but don’t understand what is going on at the moment. My mother calls just a few days ago to tell that she may have cancer. That word just sends chills down my body and makes my mind speed with thoughts of many passing which would include my grandmother. My mother’s words echo in my mind as I know that word and its history with my mother’s f

Want And Need
I want to hold her, but I can't reach her armsI want to see her, but I can only admireI want to tell her, but I can only writeI want to be by her side, but all I have to share is nothing to hidePlease don't let me die alone in this placeAs I long to see your beautiful faceAll I need is to set my soul away from a memoryI need to hold her, see her, and tell her set me freeMy brother M. RIP 5/26/09http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zxtvHxQllzM

Poem
Reality Fire upon the never ending starsWish upon all the ones that aren't farAnd happiness will come your wayHopefully it will stay,Each time you look away at the skyEach time you ask your self whyRemember who are and what you want to beSo the mirror reflects exactly what you wanna see,You have to find your way through it allGetting up every time you fallPretend you really carePretending life is fair,You have to open doors that are closedCover the feelings that are superimposedMaking new friends when you really don'tLove them when you really wont,Say something you don't mean Tear open the never ending seamJust do get in that shining lightWhen in reality you'll lose the fight.

Poem
Wandering in darkness grope,Finding not a glimpse of hope.Fingers touch to find my way,Each foot fall, my heart betraysThe fear which drives me through the day.Suddenly the ground is lost,Flailing arms as body's tossed.Splashing down in crimson pool,The warm embrace is much too cruel,I curse this lowly, wretched fool.Floundering in this self made hell,Warmth increasing as I dwell,Within the confines I create,Screaming as myself berate,Giving in to this, my fate.

The Poet's Fix
I saw him while walking the highways of Neptune, Id heard that he lived on the moonI tried just to glance without drawing attention, but he caught me faster than soon His whispers were louder than anyone’s yelling and somehow Id caught that mans eyeI fell in love with his laughter from here ever after Id always remember that June He taught lessons in riddles that taste just like skittles and his best friend was old father time Love was his mother and Pluto his brother he spoke of them all in his rhymes

What A Geek Does At Work. (instead Of Work)
W I K I P E D I A I swear I can't get enough of it lol. I just randomly peruse through stuff there. Take for instance http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bystander_effect Is that not interesting as hell? Well I guess I am the only one! lol Anyways Bored at work breeds Wikipedia and Fark surfing as well as Fubar.

Outside
song in my head... And you Bring me to my knees Again All the times That I could beg you please In vain All the times That I felt insecure For you And I leave My burdens at the door But I'm on the outside I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside your ugly You're ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times That I felt like this won't end It's for you And I taste What I could never have It was from you All the times That I've cried My intentions Full of pride But I waste More time than anyone But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors 'Cause inside you're ugly You're ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times That I've cried All this wasted It's all inside And I feel All this pain Stuffed it down It's back again And I lie Here in bed All alone I can't mend But I feel Tomorrow will be OK But I'm on the outside And I'm looking in I can see through you See your t

Come Guys Show Us Hotties Lots Of Luv
Presents to you: I'm urs 4evers team of hot hotties!! IM URS 4EVER ASST CHIEF 2ND ALARM HOTTIE@ fubar ~Cindy~ '2ND ALARM HOTTIE' @ fubar ~VOLCANO GIRL~"2nd Alarm Hottie"@ fubar SO..KISS ME @ 2nd Alarm Hottie@ fubar {♥R3dHoT♥} *2nd Alarm Hottie*@ fubar *~*immortal*~* 2nd Alarm Hottie

It Nevers Rains.........
It never rains, but it always pours, at least in my life. My van broke down today, and I don't think its fixable. I am out of work and have no income. I can't even go and sign up for unempolyment benifits, that office is in another town thats 20 miles away. I can't even begin to look for a job, cause I would need a vehicle to find one. And if I did get one I would need a vehicle to get to it. Yea I give up. I don't know why it seems like I have to suffer so much, I really don't. I know people who are a lot worse and unkind than I have ever tought about being, and yet they seem to have it easy. I just don't get it, and I am done trying to figure it out.

Rip Turbo 6/6/09
Turbo lived for 21 years. I got her as a stray kitten who's mama was hit by a car. She was too young to be away from her mother... so I had to bottle feed her. She has been staying with my mom because my place does not allow pets. Her health has been slowly failing over the years and has gotten to the point where she is no longer taking care of herself, and hasn't been eating much. So, as difficult as it was for me to do... I took her to the humane society to be euthanized today. Rest in peace, Turbo. You will be missed.

"remembrance"
The air is my breath earth my body trees my clothing Do you remember? The sun is my companion my friend my lover Has he forgotten? You dig into my veins to take my blood greedily using every drop then I choke on fumes You cut holes into me fill them with your refuse then cover them up allowing the wounds to fester I shake from the pain I howl from the pain Do you feel me? Can you hear me? I bathe myself in the waters but I burn where I can't reach You used to help me You promised to take care of me I try to quench my thirst with rain but all I have are my tears Have you forgotten me? Listen and remember before it's too late

Boys
Well men seem to be after one thing these days and that is SEX!!! Which all fine but my problem is the ones who want to do FREAKY shit, and i get all this in the first meeting sometimes....UMMMMMM not all of us are on here to HOOK UP and if that is what i wanted it would not be right after meeting you....and as for you showing me your package UMMMMMM dont want to see that either...unless i ask dont put that shit out there it will only turn me off and i will not talk to you....JUST letting you all know!!!

My Butterfly
My Butterfly We laid in the lush green fields On that warm summer day Watching the clouds pass buy Watching all the butterflies play I could feel our tensions rise She strokes her hand across my chest My finger tips run up and down her spine Each others lust we ingest Her body slides on top of mine Her long hair hangs down on me She sits back and slides off her dress

Death's On My Doorstep
Death and I are at war once more. This time my mother. I have already battled him and lost my father, grandfather and mother, to him. It is a price I pay for having yanked so many out of his grasp when I was a cardiovascular tech at a local hospital here in Tulsa. Now I am on death watch tonight. She is slipping away slowly, I hope that I can face death once more, before it is my turn, and spit in his eye.

Funny From One Of My Buds
this is from one of my buds -- i died on the floor laughing loll Last weekend I saw something at Larry's Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked my interest. The occasion was our 15th anniversary and I was looking for a little something extra for my wife Julie. What I came across was a 100,000-volt, pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were supposed to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety. WAY TOO COOL! Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded 2 AAA batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button. Nothing! I was disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I'd get the blue arch of electricity darting back and forth between the prongs.?? AWESOME!!!? Unfortunately, I have yet to explain to Julie what that burn spot is on the face of her microwave! Okay, so I was home alone with this new toy, thinking

I Fall For You Everyday
A Love Letter to the Love of My Life Dear my darling gorgeous Felicia Greetings, in the most romantic name of our love... I want to inform you that I send great pleasure To the ONE I LOVE. Felicia, you hold a very special place in my heart, That no one else could ever hold. I love you more than life itself. I'm so crazy over you. If you should break this love I have for you, All the stars will fall from the sky, And the mountains will fall into the sea. There are so many things I love about you. Without you in my

Being A Perv* ;)
Being on Fubar for so long made me realize that i m not the only Perv on this fuckin planet lol I am so glad that i found some very good pervs friends on fu and i m happy that i will never be alone again .. lol So thankyou all the perv out there especially the sexy perv hotties on here that i love to listen and talk to and get to know their crazy ideas and creations on Fubar ;) So dont ever stop being a sexy perv that i love you all to be... muahh to all my sexy perv ladies..... you know who you are ;) So you better leave *Pervy* comments lol

The Fog
Day in and Day out i awake to the same confusion.. Is this all that is out there for me, or am i not in the right place.. How do i find my way, is there a guide to help me navigate my way... I try and push my way through the fog only to keep running into the walls.. I will continue to keep my eyes on the prize and make my way through this haze called life...

I Love The Conversations I Have With People, When They Make Me Think:)
Date: Jun 12, 2009 5:20 PM Subject: RE: Body: I do. They say what they think people want to hear. Let me ask you if you were on your death bed and loved someone with all uour heart but they did not love you would you want them to lie and tell you they love you or be honest and break your heart before you go? There in lies your answer. People don't like hurting others feelings. Though one thing they do not realize is that though it may hurt your heart will heal it is better to be told I don't love you than I love you and find out later on they never did you that said i think saying it and taking it back to appease someone is the biggest betrayal of the heart ever. I don't believe in fate, I believe we make our own destiny and we have a say in what fate sets in motion. I don't believe it is soly up to fate. I believe there is more than one person out there for everyone, I do not believe in one soul mate. If that was true everyone would always be single. We would always be alo

And Bullshit There Was Election"
yesterday we had our election for the presidenialt"election".... and so many people voted, or i may call was fooled and cheated, of what they called 'election". i am one of them.. lol.. i was ready to partiipate hoping for some reforms, but'... now leave me really confused, disappointed... i feel that evrything was just a political drama. blah blah... i'd just cant express really what i am feeling about this.. was there really democracy in iran? my answer is yes!!! BUT I CAME TO CONCLUSION WITH ITS DIFFERENT DEFINITION DEMOCRACY HERE, MEANS.. POOR THE PEOPLE, FOOL THE PEOPLE AND BUY THE PEOPLE.

U Got It Bad By Usher
Oh, no, no, no, no, no... When you feel it in your body You found somebody who makes you change your ways Like hanging with your crew Said you act like you're ready But you don't really know And everything in your past - you wanna let it go I've been there, done it, fucked around After all that - this is what I found Nobody wants to be alone If you're touched by the words in this song Then baby... U got, u got it bad When you're on the phone Hang up and you call right back U got, u got it bad If you miss a day without your friend Your whole life's off track You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house You don't wanna have fun It's all you think about U got it bad when you're out with someone But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else U got it bad When you say that you love 'em And you really know Everything that used to matter, don't matter no more Like my money, all my cars (You can have it all back) Flowers, cards and candy (I do it just cause I'm...) Said I'm fortunate to

Looking Back To That Day
Looking Back to That Day Lying on the bed we created Our thoughts focus on the love we have shared We begin to recount the years I remember the first day my heart was ensnared My Fire’s soft voice whispering My ears bask in her ever word Her voice still fills my heart She is the most beautiful song I have heard My Fire smiles at me and I still melt Through the years of learning her touch There is one thing I know for certain An eternity in her arms is simply not enough

Excito
ok, for all the folks from excito diabolus wondering why i left the lounge, this blog is for you. i left after some shit i was told by some friend i made in excito. and aaron, it's my business that i left, QUIT TELLING PEOPLE TO ASKE ME WHY I LEFT! I am done with aaron's drama. Uzza, you are still my friend. we are both mom's. Sorry to all those i may have pissed off.

Wmd Shoot
The WMD shoot is finally over. Yesterday was spent baking in the sun at the Mojave desert and today was at a sound stage in Santa Monica. Great shoot, footage, crew, actors and good times had by all. I really think this movie is starting to come together.

Like My Favorite Pair Of Jeans
your eyes are as green as the trees on the mountain. your smile is like the sunrise on the ocean blue. your touch is like an earthquake. the way you smell is like the breeze of wild flowers in the wind. your heart beat is like the sound of cool waves coming in. being with you is like the time stopping for a moment. waking up to you is like life sighing with content. a simple hug is like wearing my favorite pair of jeans.

If A Man Wants You...
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate f

Chapter 1
It was June 1990, Dad came up to Pennsylvania to help us move to Florida. His friend had built a duplex, and in hopes of moving us to Florida they had built one unit larger than the other. We loaded up the Uhaul and Grandpaps car (Mom's had been wrecked and totaled the week before) and we moved to Florida. Leaving behind the only life we'd ever known was hard. I didn't really want to go and in the end I have several times regretted leaving PA. But, once Dad packed our stuff in the Uhaul there was no turning back. Over Thirteen hundred miles and a lot of misery, later we arrived. We were instantly disappointed. The only other kids around were kids we didn't fit in with. There were the landlords two girls, but they had their friends and their interests were so different from ours. There were two other girls in the neighborhood, one was older and a junior, and there was another she was a lot younger. The older, Abigail, was extremely snobbish. She had braces and was, at the time at least,

Right/wrong
In cases of this sort, let us say adultery, rightness and wrongness do not depend on committing it with the right woman at the right time and in the right manner, but the mere fact of committing such action at all is to do wrong. -Aristotle

How Do I??
HOW DO I TELL HER THAT, MAYBE THAT I LIKE HER. HW WOULD SHE FEELS,WOULD SHE THINKS IM CRAZY. I MEAN YOU SHOULD SEE HER, SHE'S AN ANGEL FROM UP ABOVE I TRULY WANT HER IN MY WORLD... I WOULD NOT HER BUT ONLY CHERISH HER,I WOULD NOT HIT HER BUT ONLY KISS ON HER. WHAT AMAZES ME IS THAT SHE DOESNT CARE ABOUT DIMAONDS AND PEARLS SHE ONLY CARES ABOUT BEING THERE.. BUT I WONDER IF I CN STEAL HEART CUZ ITS ALREADY TAKEN BY HER COUNTERPART(NOT A MAN)... MAYBE I SHOULD JUST GIVE UP, SHE MIGHT THINK THAT IM A NUT. BUT MY HEART SAYS DNT LET DOWN...

In This Heart
IN THIS HEART, THERE'S NO SUNSHINE, BUT ONLY RAINTHERE'S NO JOY, BUT ONLY PAIN.HW CN IT BE RECONSTRUCTED, WHEN IT'S BEEN SHATERED TO PIECES THAT'S MILES AWAY.IT DOES NOT KNOW THE MEANING OF LOVE, NO! NOT NO MOREIT DOES NOT KNOW WHOM TO TRUST, EXCEPT THE ONE ABOVE.SO THIS HEART COUDLN'T TAKE IT, IT CHOOSES TO SEL-DESTRUCTLOCK ITSELF UP AND PUT THE KEY AWAY, WHERE ITS BEYOND ANYONE THOUGHTS....

Love And Dating 101
I have fount there are lots of rules or guidlines to follow in a relationship that are very important like it or not. Here is my list of must do’s to save any relationship. So if you truely love someone please read and try to apply what you can. These go for guys and girls. 1. Never go to bed angry! this is very important. Always discus and try to solve any problem as quickly as possible.2. NEVER lie to your partner. no matter what honesty is very important in any relationship. it is better to tell the truth and earn trust than to be caught in a lie. Honesty is very important. it solves problems and lets the other person know what is on your mind and how you feel.3. I love you should only be said if you truely mean it. never say it to make things easier. if you feel your love for someone is fading talk about it with your partner before its gone and all you have is resentment twards the other person. If you dont want to fix or save the relationship then go your seperate ways do

The Expo
Chicago Body Art Expo So I arrived later than I had expected. The train did not leave when they had it on the schedule, but four hours later... I was in beautiful downtown Chicago. I just love the old feel of the city and even riding in a cab from the Union Station train station to the Navy Pier, you can feel it. My favorite part is going down to Lower Wacker. That place is so dirty and fantastic! Everytime I am down there I want to do a photoshoot! I ended up buying a three day pass into the Expo. The first day, I was suppose to have a couple friends meet me there, but the economy is hitting hard.. even for amatuer porn stars. The last two days, my hubby ended up going with me. I think even though he was probably bored most of the time... he likes it.. why else would he volunteer to come with me. He even talked me into getting a new tattoo (not like that is hard). He ended up getting a dermal piercing. Those things are so fucking cool. He also got a new tattoo on his for

Keeper
Their marriage was good, their dreams focused. Their best friends lived barely a wave away. I can see them now, Dad in trousers, tee shirt and a hat and Mom in a house dress; lawn mower in his hand, and dish-towel in hers. It was the time for fixing things. A curtain rod, the kitchen radio, screen door, the oven door, the hem in a dress. Things we keep. It was a way of life, and sometimes it made me crazy. All that re-fixing, eating, renewing, I wanted just once to be wasteful. Waste meant affluence. Throwing things away meant you knew there'd always be more.But then my mother died, and on that clear summer's night, in the warmth of the hospital room, I was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn't any more. Sometimes, what we care about most gets all used up and goes away...never to return. So... While we have it... it's best we love it... And care for it..... And fix it when it's broken.. And heal it when it's sick. This is true... For marriage.... And old cars..

My Poems
If you see a hill of foamIt is my poetry that you see:My poetry is a mountainAnd is also a feather fan. My poems are like a daggerSprouting flowers from the hilt;My poetry is like a fountainSprinkling streams of coral water. My poems are light greenAnd flaming red;My poetry is a wounded deerLooking for the forest's sanctuary. My poems please the brave:My poems, short and sincere,Have the force of steelWhich forges swords. By Jose Marti

Commence
dear kunt that is my name for you diary i dont give a fuck about spelling grammer or michael jackson i have snorted enough speed in the last two days to kill a small horse it looks like a fairy tale outside today like hanzel and gretal or something i want anna to call me and be nice or i am going to fuck sone slut the first one i see i am so dehydrated how the fuck do you spell that maybe i am dead like darth jackson elvis i want to fuck and drink and fight and fuck and destroy so i dont feel anything ever again unless anna calls and is nice to me

Faith (too Much Time On My Hands)
Have you ever seen a sand clock? Have you flipped it over and observed those tiny grains of sand all over sudden come rushing through the funnel, one just like the other, hurrying to get to the narrow part, pushing and shoving while being concentrated in a tight spot, just to fall through and join its counterparts all the way at the bottom?For hundreds of thousands of years, since the beginning of humanity, we have been going through a gigantic sand clock of life, starting all the way in a top chamber the moment we are born and making our way down every second without stopping. Unlike the sand clock, however, we do not get to start all over again once we reach the bottom and the clock is turned upside down to repeat the process. This is where this analogy ends and the reality of our existence begins. Since the beginning of human experience we have been trying to find the explanation for our presence and the reasons for overcoming the struggles that life throws in our face. Do we ponder

Happy Birthday To Me...i Guess
Well today is my birthday and my own family doesn't really care. I know that birthdays are just regular days just like any other day but I kind of wish that my family would acknowledge it...I am just glad that I have friends that love me and tell me happy birthday.

Boring Day
Work was just blah...people said that I looked good in a white shirt....but it's nothing that I'd wear often. Im starting to have a cold...ugh..hopefully it goes away by tomorrow. I don't want to be sick on my days off. I'm gonna drown myself in cold medicane before I go to bed. Was happy that I didn't have to work with that cunt today...yay...I got my yearly review. I ranked at highly successful, highly successful and then successful...The highest you can be is highly successful........yay me..I so rock. Rich's mom is in town for whenever...hopefully she won't be here too long. She gets on my nerves fast...ya know how mother in laws can be...yap yap yap yap yap.... She brought hom a bunch of crap home...I have no idea how the hell she even stores that stuff in her little crossfire car or even in her truck...she's a truck driver. I just cleaned up this room and she has it all stored all over the floor. At least she hasn't been home when I get off work..she's always wanting to grab

Attributed Poetry
HERE..HERE I SAY...THE HEART OF POETRY HAS NOT YET DIED..FOR US NEED NEVER DIE..DREAM... THE SUMMER SCREEN RETURNS YEARN..AND THE AENEID OF AGE OLD..BLOWING VICTOR IN MORNINGS TO COME..MERGING NOW WITH ALL I LEAVE IN THE WAKE OF MY STEPS..MY HEART IS LODGED IN POETRY AND ITS ADVENTURE..FREELY...WITH ALL I LEAVE IN MY WAKE..POETRY COMES..ANGLE OR DEMON..POETRY COMES FREELY LIKE A BIRD IN THE CLOUDS..I OFFER IT THE SKY..AND IT ALIGHTS FIERCELY ON MY HEAD AND EATS..WHAT IS AGNOSTIC IN ME..BUT NOW ITS NOT JUST THE DAWN..NOT JUST THE SONG OF BIRDS BREEZE..NOT JUST ME..MY PAIN..MY GAIN.. POETRY COMES...HERE..I'LL TELL OF COASTAL WAVES AND THE REVOLUTION..HERE POETRY COMES WITH A BEAUTIFUL SWIFT SWORD OF MY ARMS BLOOD IT FLOWS...WHO AM I..WHO HEARS THE DREAM OF MY CURSED YOUTH FOR WHOM DO I SPEAK..AND THAT OF ME WALKS THE FIGHT THO LIVES DEMISED IN SHEETS OF WHITE WE GRIEF..WE CARRY THEIR EXSISTENCE IN ACTION IN SPEECH..WHAT EAR WILL SAY YES TO MY WORDS..THE MOUTH OF THE POET FILLS WITH ANTS

Babble
I CUT MYSELF TO FEEL THE PAIN I BRING UNTO OTHERS, I YELL AT PEOPLE TO MAKE MY POINT CLEAR, WHEN IM IGNORED ALL THE TIME, I BITCH BECAUSE, I WANT TO,AND I WANT TO BE HEARD I LAUGH CUZ MY LIFE... IS A TOTAL WRECK I SING CUZ IT, SETS MY HEART FREE!!! I FLIRT, SO I CAN FEEL NOTICED I CRY CUZ I FEEL INCOMPLETE AND IM HURTING EVERYHERE!!! I FIGHT FOR WHAT I STAND FOR, AND WHAT I DON'T I READ, TO GET LOST IN THE FANTASY I DRIVE AWAY, TO LEAVE ALL MY MISEREY BEHIND I OVERDOSE, SO I CAN BE AND FEEL FREE!!! I DIE CUZ THERE IS, NO OTHER REASON TO BE ALIVE!!! I'M SORRY IF IM HURTING ANY ONE SHARING THIS....IF I DON'T ILL, THERE WOULD BE TO MANY ON ANSWERED QUESTIONS!!!

6-28-2009
Hmmm..... let's take some things in perspective. There are things you CAN change, things you CAN'T change. Why in the world, because this was posed to me, would you change jobs in the middle of this recession???? If you have a job, HOLD ON TO IT!!!!!!!!!!! There is NO guarantee that ANY job is safe, until we come out of the recession. And that is going to take a few years. And on another topic....why do we, in this society, no longer hold onto morals and ethics anymore? Well, boys and girls, it's because of the internet. Oh hell...here come the left wingers! I don't give a shit what anyone says. The internet has opened up a whole new world in the art of infidelity. Yes, boys and girls, infidelity nowadays is so rampant that even the courts don't recognize infidelity as a grounds for divorce anymore. Now, it's labled as "irreconcilable differences". Hmmm...what does that say about us, as a whole? It says we have no morals or ethics anymore. We're not teaching our kids that its ok to l

Fubar Is Screwed Up
ok my friends list keeps messing up i have like 130+ friends one day i get on it only shows 60 something another day i get on it shows them all pretty fucked up went to fubar for help ha didnt know anymore than i did :) are u having same probs? just wondering

Sometimes...
Sometimes - I just need someone to talk to, to lend an open ear. Sometimes - I just need to share my problems, Sometimes - I just feel sad and lonely, and don’t know what to do. Sometimes - I pray with all my heart for a friend, Sometimes - I want to take a walk, and I want someone by my side. Sometimes - I need a bigger shoulder, on which I can cry. Sometimes - I need to see the sunshine, but the clouds are in my way. Sometimes - I just need a kindly word, and my friend, just to make my day. Sometimes - I just need a simple hug, to bring joy into my life. Sometimes - I just need to know that, there is more happiness than strife. Sometimes - I just need a simple smile, or to give, instead of receive. Sometimes - I just need to remember, that that i have friends, that they will always be there . but sometimes, i'd just want to walk away, to be alone just by myself, not to even even care.

My Life Is A Adventure!!!
Well as most know that I will be switching college's soon since I am on my last semester with Everest University in Melbourne,FL. Right now I am babysitting full time with two wonderful kids an expanding myself. Update on my heart condition, I have to cut caffeine doctors orders right? NOT gonna happen I love coffee and soda especially tea, I am not cutting caffeine. Also doctor told me I could get pregnant he suggest I don't, as for that I am not sure even if I can anyways with how high my stress level gets anyways. An for my hardest subject to talk about an yes it is true my grandmother Patricia Joan Kissel passed away my moms mother, she died June 12th,2009 at 3am or sooner than that, we went to Florida for her funeral which it was beautiful have pictures of it thanks to my brother Matthew for having his camera with him. My career also is gonna be if I can do it is Film & Video,Photography and English Teacher those are my goals to reach as well as my GED. My life has turned around s

Looking At
looking into your eyes i see your pain i see your love i look closer and see the heart that beats forever wanting and yearning for love i draw in closer to feel your breath against my lips it takes my breath away our heads meet and touch they roll together and i can smell your perfume i lean in abot closer and can feel you shake you breathing quickens when our lips bearly tuch as they do oour lips part and we kiss deeper and deeper till we are holding eachother soclose we feel like we are one looking into your eyes our lips pressed against each others a deep kiss that will bring a tear to your eye when it over but it ever will be as long as your with me this kiss will last forever in our hearts and minds even when i am gone da end

The Harvest
"The Harvest" (feat. AMB) [AMB 2x] Its the time for the harvest Time of the harvest Its the time of the harvest Your time [Bonez Dubb] My ride broke down on a mountain of dust im lost With nobody around i cant fuck with the cost Of the cell phone or tow truck or even the cops Nobody gonna find me untill my cold heart stopps (I started walkin' and all of a suddent the sky became rain) Seen a house on the way looked fuckin' insane With no windows or locks so i stepped inside the room Anything can really happen so im trying to leave soon (And then i seen a blade) Hangin' down from the wall theres no explaination for the crazy shit i saw Got me trippin' but i reached for the steel anyway Thats all i can say because after that day They say too many peopole died at that main highway I guessed i murdered them all when im possesed by the blade So they lockin my up for life and now im gone And the only thing on my mind is what i did wrong [Chorus 2x] Its the time for the

One Lick At A Time
One Lick At A Time I could almost hear her panties hit the floor As my hand reached to open the front door Her heart pounding like waves against the rocks I could hear each click as our handcuffs locks Candles flicker illuminating sweat covered flesh A body of lust underneath black lacey mesh My Love waits to serve Her Desire Her Desire yearns for what My Love does inspire Shedding coverings for My Love to see my attention Soft moans escape lips without mention Tip of my tongue slowly makes way up soft skin

Adding People For Nudes Then Removing Them
I have reliased that no women on this site wants to become Real net friends.so what i do is add them long enough to see their nudes.then after I'm done i remove them.i never use to do this untill i have added women & they set on my list like a fucking dust collector.so i have come to realise that no lady's on this site is worth no more then the price of adding them & seeing their nudes sense they can never talk to me after i add them.this is why my list stays low.I HATE YOU MOTHER FUCKERS THAT ADD JUST TO GET THE POINTS.i mean why add a fucking STRANGER to your FRIENDS list.Their not interested in a friendship with you.So I'm cleaning out my list AGAIN!!!.

California's Nightmare Will Kill Obamanomics
California’s Nightmare Will Kill Obamanomics: Kevin Hassett Commentary by Kevin Hassett July 6 (Bloomberg) -- Last week, we discovered that the state of California will gladly pay you Tuesday for a hamburger today. With California mired in a budget crisis, largely the result of a political impasse that makes spending cuts and tax increases impossible, Controller John Chiang said the state planned to issue $3.3 billion in IOU’s in July alone. Instead of cash, those who do business with California will get slips of paper. The California morass has Democrats in Washington trembling. The reason is simple. If Obama’s health-care plan passes, then we may well end up paying for it with federal slips of paper worth less than California’s. Obama has bet everything on passing health care this year. The publicity surrounding the California debt fiasco almost assures his resounding defeat. It takes years and years to make a mess as terrible as the California

10 Things About Me
The rules are: Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird random things, facts, or habits about yourself. 1. I miss my long hair.. 2. The sight of blood physically turns me on. 3. I'd screw Sean Connery and be his bitch. 4. People who chew with their mouths open is a huge pet peeve. 5. i once gave head to my close friend. 6. i like to lick random people 7. I'm in love with Queen Latifah! 8. i want to learn languages so i can make fun of people. 9. Piercings and tattoos turn me on :D 10. when i was like 13 i drank an entire 1/5th of tequila by myself and then a 1/5th of Crown Royal

My Story Of Heartache!
My wife and I ( Terri) have been married for almost 4 years now. We have 2 kids together. Well about 2 months ago we were living in Houston, Texas and she said she wanted to move back to Waco because she was not happy in Houston. Thought being a good husband, I said O.k. So about 2 months ago we moved here and the second day we were here she told me in bed that she no longer wanted to be a wife or mother. She then left and abandoned the kids and I. Well, in 3 weeks time she got with a 20 yr old boy named Josh and got pregnant. Since then she has been with his brother, and cousin...which is a female. She has been with one of her friends babys daddy and his sister which Josh's brother held her down while she was passed out and directed my wife to go down on her while he fingered her ( I believe that is rape). She has also been with another friends sisters babys daddy, and some guy named Milky. She also one day in a fit of rage came at me with a knife saying she was going to kill me and s

Is Not The Same
You are so many people that, please tell me, who I’m I speaking to? Don’t you see that you are not the same? You are the one who says: “stay with me, I promise to give you storm, give you a bad time…” I promise, (if you are listening baby) to give you art… Because is not the same to say: “Stay and we will see” than “Stay, and we will see’. Is not the same “to be” than “to be at”, is not the same “to be at” than “to stay”, No way! Neither “to stay” is the same as to “stop by”. Is different to be conformed or to fight, is not the same, is always different. Please open the door, give me some air because I will suffocate. Iis not about which side you want to be on, to be in one side or to be on the side… (You see), I don’t know how to say it, is not the same, it is different. To live is the most dangerous thing life has to offer

Recently Written Poetry
The first one is a bit more classical and I think I may try too hard at it... Change Winds of change come sweepingTheir breath a gentle breezeWillow branches weepingAnd oak leaves barely sneeze Grasses bow beneath the weightOf transparent changes' passingChange of seasons' quickening gaitTurbulence no longer lacking The longer the winds blow unheededMore resistant to the galeThe more damage done excessiveAnd more likely one is to fail So when the gentle sighing kissesThe skin of your upturned faceBe sure to note it, lest you miss itHasten your collective pace The second is a bit more edgy, I think. I dunno. Wrote these between classes, so I didn't spend much time on them. That's always the best work, though. lol. Do this Don't make me do thisI don't wanna do thisWhy do I always do this?Please don't make me do this Get your act together girlBefore this falls apartBefore you fall apartWhen everything unfurls You always end up this wayWanting ever to goNever can you st

When You Fall In Love
From the movie: Captain Corelli's Mandolin "When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part."• Don Juan DeMarco "Have you never met a woman who inspires you to love? Until your every sense is filled with her? You inhale her. You taste her. You see your unborn children in her eyes and know that your heart has at last found a home. Your life begins with her, and without her it must surely end."

Verse Cry
… I can’t see’em comin from my eyes, I gotta make the verse cry.. can’t hold this pain staining my brain, so I gotta make the verse cry… … their she goes as I said hello my names fuego, smiles of her face ending late night convo.. thoughts of us walks in parks the talks inking in her visual, traveling huge towns.. the sights, the tours, encoring more never soar or left in frowns.. sexy, independent, intelligent intellect, own money own thoughts what man wouldn’t want that.. won’t take a dime from me, every thought of her is how it’s suppose to be… … I can’t see’em comin from my eyes, so I gotta make the verse cry.. I can’t see it coming from my eyes.. the pain it stains my heart my brain, so I gotta make the verse cry.. …time goes fast tics on the clock goes the beat of my heart, knew it from the start we’d never part.. a team, a force a loves regimen making our mark.. who’d

The Warehouse (medium)
The police break into a warehouse and find a man hanging from the rafters. He is ten feet off the ground. The door was locked from the inside. There is no other entry into the warehouse besides the one door. There is nothing else inside the warehouse except a pool of water. How did he hang himself?

You Are Leaving Because I Want You To.
You are leaving because I want you to, the moment I want I can stop you. I know that you need me, so it doesn’t matter what you will is, I still own you. I want you to go to other worlds and I want you to meet other people, I want other lips to kiss you so that you may compare me forever. If on your trip you shall find a love that understands you and you feel that he loves you more than anyone, then I will turn around and I will disappear witn the sun when the dusk dyes.

Tamerica's Five Most Overpriced Cars
America's Five Most Overpriced Cars 1. Dodge Ram 2500 2. Mercury Grand Marquis 3. Jeep Liberty 4. Dodge Nitro 5. Dodge Durango Notice 4 of the 5 are Chrysler vehicles. And we are bailing our this company? WHY???

The Innocent Criminal Genius
The simplstic character that is your every being is a tauting unmerciful shadow of a doubt a tainted ego of surpressed emotions the alter today is not that of tomorrow untouched memories of an uncertain alteration a striking disadvantage to all who bother uncertainty between pain and pleasure is kept within pain being the top of the pyramid of heirarchy your analytical mind bottles up the thoughts of distress to which your anatomy configures to adapt adaptation is nothing to the unkempt mind the barrier you hold is twice that of the great wall an iron mask destroys all who speaks the known the thoughts of what could be are shot down guards take no mercy on the wondering soul a mastermind of imperical genius to which no one would ever go the impecable manner to which you suceed is far greater than the greatest serial killer I am indeed imposing on your general idea as well as incinuating that you are the one the one crimal mastermindhowever you're innocent to prove

Destrehan Manor Museum
Destrehan Manor Museum The Destrehan Manor Museum can be found in the lower Mississippi River Valley, about thirteen miles north of New Orleans, and eight miles from The New Orleans Airport. Directions: Take Interstate 10 West to Exit 220 (I-310 South), stay on I-310 for about 6 miles. Exit onto River Road, and turn left at the light. (Warning: There are no signs to advertise this museum or even street signs, thanks to Katrina?). (Side bar: The few signs we did see in LA, they expect you to pay attention, because no time is allowed to see it, making it hard to even make the turn.) If you are unfamiliar with this area, this makes it difficult to even find, unless you are armed with a really good map and great verbal instructions from a museum staff member. Be sure to call the museum for directi

Myrtles Plantation House
Myrtles Plantation House THE MYRTLES PLANTATION It 's not surprising that this mansion is the most haunted in the region, as it has a violent past. Ten people were killed or murdered in the plantation mansion itself, or on the grounds near it. At last count, there are at least 12 restless ones residing here. LOCATION: One can find Myrtles Plantation 30 miles north of Baton Rouge, Louisiana, which is just on the outskirts of St. Francisville. Tours and mystery weekends are offered, and people can stay overnight. The current owners are carefully restoring this gorgeous mansion in such a way as not to interfere with visitors and over-nighters at this most popular bed & breakfast inn. 7747 U.S. Highway 61, P.O. Box 1100, St. Francisville, Louisiana 70775. John & Teeta Moss, Proprietors DESCRIPTION: One would

Forbing Railroad Tracks
Forbing Railroad Tracks The train tracks that run through the town of Forbing are said to be haunted by a man with no head. The story says that the man was hit by a train many years ago and taking off his head. He can be seen at midnight looking for his head, but you can only see a light from his lantern moving down the tracks. There is also a story of a school bus full of children that was hit by a train. It is said if you put flour on the front of your car , place your car in neutral right before you get to the tracks, that you will be pushed by over the tracks by the spirits of the children and they will leave tiny hand prints in your car where they pushed your car over the tracks to safety.

Taylortown Bell Tower
Taylortown Bell Tower Taylortown is a small town right outside of Bossier City. There's not much in Taylortown, but it's infamous for one thing, which is the bell tower. At one time, the bell tower was part of the Methodist Episcopal Church of Taylortown, when it was built in 1907. The church was designed by John Dorch and built of Gothic-style architecture. The church was only used for sermons once a month by a circuit pastor, who stayed at the homes of town residents, due to the great distances between the churches on his circuit. As the small church's congregation dwindled down, the church was eventually abandoned. Legend has it that a bride was waiting in the bell tower for her fiancé, who has killed in a car crash on his way to pick her up. She apparently was so grief stricken that she fell down the steps and died. Others say she hung her self in the bell tower, and on moonlit nights, you can hear the ringing of the bell and a woman's scream. Another tale is th

A Females Hair!
I AM A NATURAL BRUNETTE BUT AS YOU CAN SEE IN MY PICTURES SOMETIMES I GO BLONDE! IM ON THE FENCE OF IF IT LOOKS GOOD OR NOT! LET ME KNOW WHICH LOOKS BETTER AND PLEASE BE KIND, NO NEED TO BE RUDE! XOXOXOXOXO AMY

To My Future Husband
To My Future Husband You speak my language You are my voice You are my thoughts You are me You see through my vision You think with my mind You write by my hand You know me You feel my heart beat You endure my pain You seek my comfort You breathe me Be my muse Let your heart lie nude Open your soul Feel me You are my love You became my life You are my partner I am your wife Melissa Lay February 16,1999

"a Woman's Breathe"
Someone wrote this for me ... Hardly ever will you discover a woman that displays no cover. Open and fresh, illuminating her very person, from the inside and from her heart, you can see, feel and believe in her very heartbeat, that travels from within and that passes through life, touching and encompassing all that she meets,... with her precious breathe,... Hope you like it,...my impression of you... Thanks Steve :)

The Feed!.."adult Content"
While fingertips trace upon the skin, the lustful feel of a lovers touch... the yern for a passionate deeply seeded kiss, the feel the tip of the tongue does.... Lightly and slowly it slides, it circles, slightly feeling the the arch of his back... kneeling in front of him for her feed, while feeling comfort within her throats back.... Dancing and swirling of the hot of her tongue goes, a kiss, a suckle , only moans said.... soft yet aggressive strokes from her felt, while his hand rests the back of her head... as the pace becomes slightly faster, as his head slowly lay back... she feels the seed that the feed fills, while her lips do not part away from that... while inbedding deeply within he feels, the velvet narrow way while she closes it's hollow... for in this one feeding she has been given his essense, the fruit he bare's she has taken, she swallows.... as written:~Dark Jules~

Moving On Out!
Today is the day I no longer have to see the liar, YIPPEEEEE!!!!!! I have some good news and some bad news, bad news first.......I was going to store my stuff and go back home for awhile but my moms husband - not my dad, my daddie lives in texas - he doesnt want me to stay there, had a big argument with them already this morning while my friend and some guys from work were packing the truck. So I was like pissed and depressed. Anyway when I got back to my place I told my friend and he told me not to worry that he would figure something out. The truck is all packed and I sent the boys from work out to get something to eat while me and my friend talked. He talked to his friend that has the home for rent, she says I can rent but it will be about a month b4 I can live there, she is having it worked on right now, so i have to wait, so another downer.......but the good news is that my friend offered to let me stay with him until I can move into my new place. I was like OMG!!!! he is so

Rantttttttttttttttttt!
UGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I just want to scream at the top of my lungs and release some of my rage!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It has been sometime since I have had to go off on a tangent about something and you fuckholes probably think that I am losing my touch - but listen up.... cause the hornet's nest has been stirred and once again I have reached my breaking point on life in general. It never ceases to amaze me the amount of energy an ex-relationship will put into getting under your skin... I mean how fucking stupid can they be? They know what you are capable of and still they want to stomp on the thin ice of your patience as if to almost beg you to drown them in your rage. The stupid fuckbag who lent his sperm to the cause of creation of my children is a prime example... he always gets brave and thinks he is going to cross the line and I am going to just cower and accept defeat when what I really want to do is smash his lying, filthy, theaving, condemning, condescend

Covert Desire
Covert Desire It is notsoft whisperstimid caressesor gentle couplingsfor which I longMy covert desireis not bound bytaboos or inhibitions It is dictated by aprimeval hungerraw and savageYou take me pushing my face to the floordominating mepulling my hair spanking me our bodies colliding primitive and instinctivehard urgent thrusting deep and throbbingunrestrainedlike a fervid stormyou give me your thunder

True Love
Late at night youare all I can think about. The pain I feel when I cannot talk to you. The fact that I miss you more and more with each passing moment. After such a short time of talking to you. The way I feel about you. The way my heart pounds when I hear you laugh.The true mate to my soul. If you can make my walls crumble after such a short time. But know my love is til the end of time. To the keeper of my heart, I love you, I think the good lord that I have found you.

Stupidest Dream Ever
There I was, apparently twisted up like a pretzel, asleep. All this muscle aching, due to sleeping posititon, and various contusions and injuries from being involved in a hit and run accident (I hit, they ran - not my fault at all) - led me to dream about cleaning. The cleaning was mundane, but the treasure I uncovered from deep inside a dusty drawer looked vastly interesting, especially as I was waking up and anxious to see if Morpheous had given me any gifts from the dreamworld. The object was a leather box, rich in color (though dusty), with an old-fashioned sort of car embossed on the outside and the words Edsel 1938. Who the heck knows what was on the inside. So then I fully woke up - enough to realize that absolutely no cleaning has been done, but I was bending my left knee at a 96 degree angle or something really weird. But OH, I was sure the leather box would be a miraculous thing to have remembered - a 1938 Edsel. Time to google: Well, it may not be as lame (PUN ALERT!

Why I Hurt
This is for one special person on here that I hope someday finds me here and reads this, she knows who she is... For what it's worth... I'm an ass For what it's worth... I'm lost without out you but I can't bring myself to ask for your forgiveness. For what it's worth... I hope you find happiness For what it's worth... I'm sorry For what it's worth... I will always love you

Mizury - No More Dental [free Download]
CLICK ALBUM COVER TO DOWNLOAD TRACKLISTING:----------------------------------- 1. INTRO 2. SMASH 3. HOOD CHRONICLES MISSOURI 4. SUICIDE IS DA ANSWER FT. REMY DA D-MENTED 5. HO-DESSA 6. COMPLICATIONZ 7. E-THUGS PT. 4 FT. REMY DA D-MENTED8. MOMMA E TALKIN SHIT9. MY WORDS [POEM]10. KARMA 11. ITS ALIVE & TALKIN FT. REMY DA D-MENTED 12. YAHOO RAP & HIP HOP FT. DA DIZZY DEVIL 13. FUCKUGHBEAT & FUCKSUMHATERZ 14. 40 BARS OF STRESS [MY FAMILY] 15. REDCORNJOHN13 VS. MIZURY [THE N WORD]

Survival Guide For Taking A Dump At Work
Survival Guide for Taking a Dump at Work We've all kicked back in our cubicles and suddenly felt something a brew down below. As much as we try to convince ourselves, the WORK POOP is inevitable, hence the reason youʼre sitting here right now. For those of you who hate pooping at work as much as I do, I give you this Work Poop Survival Guide. Memorize these definitions and pooping at work will become a pure pleasure! ESCAPEE - Definition: A fart that slips out while taking a leak at the urinal or forcing poop in a stall. This is usually accompanied by a sudden wave of panic/embarrassment. This is similar to the hot flash you receive when passing an unseen police car and speeding. If you release an escapee, do not acknowledge it. Pretend it did not happen. If you are standing next to the farter at the urinal, pretend that you did not hear it. No one likes an escapee, it is uncomfortable for all involved. Making a joke or laughing makes both parties feel uneasy. JAILBREAK (Use

First Time
The clock read a little after 1am. My eyes felt heavy and the slight chill in the air made the hairs on my chest and arms bristle. After two beers and three movies, I was tired, but every nerve sung with excitement and anticipation. I had come over just to spend time with you, and though you had promised to be good, my heart secretly wished for something else. You insisted that I stay, not even waiting for a response before you threw the bolt on the door. Taking my hand, you led me to your room and you settled down into the bed. I quietly stripped off my clothes, down to my boxers, and crawled in behind you. Circling your waist with my left arm, I pulled you against the crook of my body and nuzzled your neck. You moaned softly and turned you head towards me to find my lips. An involuntary shiver ran through me; my abs tightened and my body curved in a stretching twist. One soft kiss begat another, and another, until soon our hands roamed greedily and our mouths gained momentum.

Country Star Trace Adkins Becomes Comic Book Action Hero
"Luke McBain" Is First Original Concept Comic Book Series By A Country ArtistCountry music sensation TRACE ADKINS can now add action hero to his ongoing list of career accomplishments. In November, 12 Gauge Comics unleashes "LUKE MCBAIN," a four-issue comic book series featuring a tough Southern hero that is based on the platinum-selling country star.Other music artists have been involved with the comic book scene including Gerald Way of My Chemical Romance and Tori Amos, but Adkins is the first country artist to be featured as a fictional character in a comic book project.Writer David Tischman (Red Herring) created the idea with 12 Gauge publisher Keven Gardner, and they spent a lot of time with Adkins to make sure "MCBAIN" feels authentic.

Where Was I........
When Sam got here last night, I could tell she was crying earlier, I gave her a hug and we all three sat down at kitchen table. She told us that her bf, now xbf, called her parents and told her nasty lies about her, like she was a stripper and prostitue and said she has had like 4 abortions. WHAT A FUCKING JERK!!!!!!! I was so enraged I wanted to drive over there and slapped the fuck out of him!!!!! Oh dont ever get me pissed!!!!!!! My friend was able to calm me down and also calmed down Sam. My friend said he would take care of it and went into his study and got online and then his cell and talked to someone. After he got off the phone, all he told us was that it would be taken care of and that Sam wouldn't have to worry about that asshole anymore. He didn't say anything else. We all had some cereal and then went to his bedroom, something happened last night that I am trying to sort out right now. I have always enjoyed having sex with him, the pleasure he gives me is nuthin l

Eclipse Solar
By INDRAJIT KUMAR SINGH, Associated Press Writer Indrajit Kumar Singh, Associated Press Writer – 2 hrs 8 mins agoTAREGNA, India – Scientists, students and nature enthusiasts prepared Tuesday for the longest total solar eclipse of the 21st century, while millions planned to shutter themselves indoors, giving in to superstitious myths about the phenomenon.The eclipse will first be sighted at dawn Wednesday in India's Gulf of Khambhat, just north of the metropolis of Mumbai, before being seen in a broad swath moving north and east to Nepal, Myanmar, Bangladesh, Bhutan and China.The eclipse — visible only in Asia — will reach its peak in India at about 6:20 a.m. local time (8:50 p.m. EDT; 0050 GMT), and will last 6 minutes and 39 seconds at its maximum point.It is the longest such eclipse since July 11, 1991, when a total eclipse lasting 6 minutes, 53 seconds was visible from Hawaii to South America. There will not be a longer eclipse than Wednesday's until 2132

Everybody Knows
It gets harder every day, but I can’t seem to shake the painI’m trying to find the words to say, please stayIt’s written all over my face, I can’tFunction the same when you’re not hereI’m calling your name but no one’s thereAnd I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,I still can’t believe you found somebody newBut I wish you the best, I guess.‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knowsHow to make it work, or how to ease the hurtWe’ve heard it all before, that everybody knowsJust how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more tryOne more tryOne more try'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knowsI don’t care what the people sayThey brought it all in anywayBaby don’t fill up your head with he-said, she-saidIt seems like you just don’t knowThe radio’s on, you're tuning me out,I’m trying to speak, you’re turning me downAnd I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,I

Work Today
Work went ok today, pretty much the same boring stuff as always. My friend keeps telling me I should go back to school so i can get a better job, I keep telling him I want to meet a rich man or woman and be a kept girl hehehehe!!! There is this one lady at work, she is so tiny she looks like a lil kid but she is like 40 or something, everytime I get to start liking her she starts bitching at me about something or another.....kinda wanna spank her when she does!!! Anyway, no one work, except my friend knows that I am bisexual, I think the people I hang with on breaks would freak out, oh I know the girls would, the guys would just drool like they always do hehehehe......Anyway, this one team lead, her title, she and a couple of the other team leads always go out after work for a few drinks, I'm not really into drinking that much, numbs my pleasure too much.....Anyway, there is talk about that they are lezzies and the talk gets pretty crude, I think they are just friends who hang toget

Pismo Beach...
I have read alot about human quirks. About the way we form social groups. It is very interesting. You know the classic line from the movie HIGHLANDER - There Can Be Only One!!! - apparently its just a fact of human beings interacting naturally. If you take five leader types and put them in a place together, for a prolonged period of time, one of them will retain the characteristics of the leader - another will become the jokester, one will be the philosopher, one will be the go-fer, and one will be the enforcer. Nature sorts us out, so that we might better preserve our kind. It is the prime directive. God make us resiliant. We, with such soft skin, and dull teeth, no claws, not even fur to allow for some resistance to a bite. Yet we thrive. Mind power, Sweeny - Mr. McGavin expoused to his amazed neighbor as the glow of electric sex from the controversial leg lamp from A Christmas Story bathed good old Cleveland Street.

I Should Be Crying But I Just Can't Let It Show
Pray to God you can copeI stand outsideThis woman's workThis woman's worldOooh, it's hard on the manNow his part is overNow starts the craft of the fatherI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a lot of strength leftI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a lot of strength leftI should be crying but I just can't let it showI should be hoping but I can't stop thinkingAll the things I should've said that I never saidAll the things we should of done that we never didAll the things I should've given but I didn'tOh darling make it goMake it go awayGive me them back to meGive that little kissGive me your handI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a little strength leftI know you have a little life in you yetI know you have a little strength leftI should be crying but I just can't let it showI should be hoping but I can't stop thinkingOf all the things we should've said that were never saidAll the things we should've done that we never didAll t

I've Been Anti-social As Of Late..
guess i will leave out on a acid bath quote... (cause i can) "a highway of emptiness and i'm getting bored" anyway guess that is why i haven't been around... dunno... talk to ya later *waves*

The First Time
As I walked up to the door, with my heart racing in anticipation, all I could think of was her beautiful face, as I had saw pictures of so many times. I rang the bell, and as I turned with nervous energy, it happened. She opened the door, and there was a sweet silence as our eyes met for the first time. The feeling of losing myself struck suddenly as I got lost in her chocolate brown eyes. I was mezmorized by her beauty. The way her hair flickered in the breeze, was like a swaying palm tree on a beautiful island. As she reached out to me and her hand touched mine, I felt an electricity, that I had never felt before, run through my veins like a flood. I softly placed my hand on the small of her back, and the other on the base of her neck, and pulled her ever so closely. I slowly placed my lips upon hers, as she softly let out a single sigh of passion, and we kissed as if there were no one else in the world who were meant to be there more than we were. As we ever so gently eased apart, I

When This World We Kno Endz
Waz my destany fuck it ? let me chase it than face it evan if i don't make it id rather fall off than fake it? nothin can hol us back where we take it evan though i kno those slipery serpants out there layin waitin an playa hatein an i kno its frustr8in jus tryin to live rasin 4 & 5 kidz with no time 2 give FUCK THe World 4 ME!! Life Ain't A JOY 2 LIVE ! Itz like a roller coster ride with 2 bustin friendz itz prolly why we all bust 4 chips rush for shit to get it quick get a grip on your life be4 the world an the millenium flip! may all these wordz that i wrote give a young brother hope Lord knoz itz hard to cope with all this hate an the dope.

Comin Out
not really. So I was bored today, and posted a funny ad on Craigslist about being an evil fat bitch that is bored. I got one response, and the guy was like 15 min from me. So we hung out at a local bar, talked, and made fun of people in Russian (he is Serbian). He didnt hit on me at all, and totally respected the fact that I'm married. It was cool, we are gonna do it again.

Today
Today is the day i am going to redo my picture folders. I wanna give my friends a more taste of me but also want to keep my real nawty pics for my fam! Yesterday I was all alone, my friend was at work and Sam was off with her brothers. So I decided to go to local forest preserve and walk for a few hours. I love to walk keeps me in shape, well that and sex. I never really had any bf's or gf's in school, was pretty much a loner and didn't think I was all that pretty and definitely not sexy. Kids use to tease me about being gangly. Anyway, I didn't lose my virginity until I was 18, prom night, a gf date got some guy to take me, he was in college and found out after we had sex, that he had lost a bet, so I was the boobie prize, so it was like another year before I had sex again and it was the same, not real thrilling at all, kept wondering what all the fuss was about, that everyone always talked how great it was. I went to college for a couple of years, didn't really get into the w

Geordie Dictionary
A aave - Taken from the English words "I Have".alfie - To inform an authority about somebody's actions. (e.g. y' puarly alfied on us)allreet - Used as a greeting term, "How Are You". (e.g. y'allreet charva?) B bastard - A fatherless child. Used as an insult.beauty - See belta.belta - Used for expressing how good something is. (e.g. that car's puarly belta)bollocks - The male genitalia. Used to describe something as rubbish. (e.g. y' talking puar bollocks ye are)bucket - When a charva is depressed he might sit in a small room or cupboard with a bucket. This is another way to inhale the illegal substance contained in a joint. C charva - A resident of the West End of Newcastle. The Charva invariably believes that s/he speaks perfect English, has perfect diction, knows the meaning of life (TWOC'ing) and is the centre of the Universe. (e.g. how ye, y' charva)charve - Verb, To Steal. See taxed.clamped - To be corrected, nearly always used in conjunction with the word puarly. (e.g. y' pu

I Am Here
I Am Herei am here, do you see me?i am here, do you hear me?i am here, can you feel me?i am here, in your heart. i want you here, so i can see you.i want you here, so i can hear you.i want you here, so i can feel you.i want you here, in my heart. i was there, did you see me?i was there, did you hear me?i was there, did you feel me?i was there, in your heart. you were here, i saw you.you were here, i heard you.you were here, i felt you.but you left, and broke my heart. Melanie

This World
This World this world is no longer happy its become dark and desolate we are all at war with one another when will it all end? now hurricanes have ripped through our country and many lives are gone but what about the ones that made it where are they to turn? can anyone save us, from this devistation or are we doomed to live in this hell forever in this not so great nation? can anyone, anyone please answer these questions? Melanie

Impossible To Please
A group of girlfriends is on vacation when they see a 5-story hotel with a sign that reads: "For Women Only." Since they are without their boyfriends and husbands, they decide to go in.The bouncer, a very attractive guy, explains to them how it works. "We have 5 floors. Go up floor by floor, and once you find what you are looking for, you can stay there. It's easy to decide since each floor has a sign telling you what's inside."So they start going up and on the first floor the sign reads: "All the men on this floor are short and plain." The friends laugh and without hesitation move on to the next floor.The sign on the second floor reads: "All the men here are short and handsome." Still, this isn't good enough, so the friends continue on up.They reach the third floor and the sign reads: "All the men here are tall and plain."They still want to do better, and so, knowing there are still two floors left, they continued on up.On the fourth floor, the sign is perfect: "All the men here are t

To All Of You
this is a message to everyone because clearly ppl have gotten besides themselves as of lately. so i am about to just vent a lil frustration. It amazes me when i try to help ppl the pure audocity of the shit that ppl say to me. as if to blame me for all the shit that they have gotten theirselves into and honestly think that i am supposed to somehow feeel. sorri the only thing you guys make me feel sorri about is that i ever wasted my fucking time helping u.

Finally Biotches!~
Marked today by Master and the smudge below the artwork is that of his Social Security numbers...It doesnt actually look like that but i wanted to protect Master from identity theft. Feelings: I'm very happy but it gives me a sense of calm knowing that this is a permanant relationship as is his mark on my flesh... Its very entoxicating the whole experience...the burniing of the needles as the ink sinks into my flesh...when i looked at the mark in the mirror i actually began to weep...so happy so proud.... so permanant Update ya all later...Joy~

Bleh Bleh
Work went by sooo slow. People there was surprised to see me working because I haven't worked on that shift in forever. Had one dude bugging me saying he's never seen me around, asked my age, status and all.. He thought I was 18 years old. Nope...im 28 yo.. I told him that he'd probably be seeing more of me cause i plan on working more days in the tuture. Rich's mom came into town and wanted to grab dinner. She said she didn't want to be out in the heat so wanted to wonder around. We went to McMenemins...I had some Tuna mango salad sandwich. I swear she is so dense...She doesn't know that Rich and I are seperated. But i was pretty much throwing things out giving signs that things aren't how they used to be. Told her that we don't really talk, do things together...blah blah blah and how I've been real irrated with him. Some reason, she just didn't get it. Rich has been sleeping on the couch for godness know how long...years? Since he would always claim he was too lazy to go up the sta

The Stranger In My Heart
i've fallen for a stranger... my heart he has stolen, but he does not know. i wish i could tell him... but another has stolen his. i see him frolic with his new love, while i watch in agony as my heart shatters... tell me oh broken heart of mine, what am i to do? you tell me to forget, but how, when he shown me that i can love so deeply. how am i to forget when my heart yearns for his touch, his love, his very soul? i beg of you, do not wish me to forget, for i have fallen so terribly in love with a stranger. a stranger i can never have in my arms... i pray to the gods above. hear my pleas and answer my prayers, guide my forsaken lover to my tender, broken heart, for only he can heal the wounds that were unitentionally inflicted upon my soul... Sincerely yours, Raven Renae Cassiana

Football News
Positional Power Rankings: RB packagesby Adrian Hasenmayer, FOXSports.com The days of the workhorse running back that dominates the ball seem to be dwindling. Consider that last season only five running backs legged out more than 300 carries, while a decade ago, in 1998, the NFL's RB leaderboard included 11 backs hitting the 300 mark.n today's NFL, more and more teams are staying true to the numbers, specifically 300 (number of carries in a season that merit concern) and 30 (the hypothetical age when RBs start breaking down). The result the past several seasons has been the growing popularity of the RB-by-committee, which used to be solely out of necessity but now is deemed necessary by many teams in a league full of approximately 50-60 high-speed car wrecks per game for running backs.Which teams are the most well-stocked at RB in 2009? For the purposes of our rankings, the goal for every team is to find two, if not three, guys who can come in and start in case of injury emergencies. I

The Weak Mind
Sad is the lonely heart that be am I to wonder does he really love me if so why not take a stand remember you sir took my hand I am the one you are to marry to say nothing to me is scary I come to you out of my way go home is all you say not glad we are to see my face maybe I should slow the pace ask me here for you a smoke seriously is this a joke from you no hug or kiss a couple of cigs and dismiss married to your job are you just bite your lip and chew I'm tired of hearing you hate work think and love me sometime jerk I Love You means nothing now shouldn't have to "make this work somehow" you don't try to make love be it just should do you see now you're angry with me didn't want to hear my side of the story I want to be around you but I hate this place too we are falling apart I want it to be like the start going on a date once a week the toliet is flushing take a peak I hope it's stopped in the main otherwise watch it go down the drain weak and frag

Find Someone Else
I gave you all I had and give you what I have taking nothing but joy from my fears of anguish the words of my pain and sorrow you turn around and use against me every bit of sentiment I disperse is destroyed by your simplistic character a heart of glass full of love you managed to take of the shelf with pleasure break it into a million pieces each piece struggling to pick itself up only to be stompped on by fear and self pity you envision your self worth as nothing better than dirt yet it still exceeds mine at least by your demented souls vision I gave up so much of myself only to be dumped into the trash and not just any trash but trash of your victims to live to see the pain is not enough for you it must be relived each day to comfort the release of your own pains recollection you're doing to me as she did to your demise to understand your own self worth you trash mine to see yours is much better to envision a promissary commission for what has been take

Fear....?
so a so-called friend stole my phone a couple of weeks ago. i wasnt pissed about the phone, just the 700 pix and vids of my son from the last yr and a half stolen from me.when it happened i knew i wouldnt get them back, but i looked on the bright side. i still have my son, and a lifetime to take more pix and create more memories with him. anyway the so-called friend has been causing a lot of trouble. throwing around empty threats. and it seemed at first i was afraid of him coming to attack me, then i realised, im not the one when im wasted off my face to phone and make death threats or threaten to wreck someones car. i thought i was afraid of him, but i realised, im more afraid of turning on him and not stopping. he's wronged a lot of people who were supposed to be his 'friends', including me and my bf. but i wont stand for it. if people think im a bitch for standing up and saying no more bull, fine, at least im a pedigree. but im not takin anymore shit from anyone. all my life ive h

Day One Of County Fair
Took the kids, a lamb, a tack box, and all sorts of supplies to set up for this weeks fair. Wow -what alot of work - loading up, unloading, paperwork, watching over the trolls, just to have them take thier entries and a 4-H lamb. I can now appreciate all the extra work my parents did, so I could enjoy it when I was a kid. I'm thrilled about passing this tradition on to them. They had a blast, already made some new friends and are excited about going there each day this week. Its only day one, and Im exhausted. Not sure how I am going to juggle the next full week of work AND the fair, but - things that are worthwhile are always doable. *Yawns.......

A Little Pissed
I absolutely hate being ignored! I've really felt as if people are ignoreing me as of lately. I feel as if in the lounge I'm a staff member to ignores everything I say, and I in fact am only talking to myself. I'm me.... THis is who I am, i'm not gonna pretend to be someone i'm not to get some people on a website to like me. I'm all so pissed because people don't understand what married/commited relationship means, i will not, i don't want to, and I'm not interested in cybering with ANYONE, stop asking, stop trying to... AND NO I WILL NOT SEND BOOB PICTURES! i just don't know what to do, I don't know what I'm going to do. I just feel like maybe this isn't the place for me, or maybe I need to shop around and see where is for me on this site.... I just don't want to always feels like im talking to myself... It sucks. and 90% of the time thats how i feel.

Marriage
I don’t know much about marriage other then what I’ve seen and what I’ve heard married people talk about but I came to a conclusion that I can’t imagine myself having the feeling of being imposingly bond to one person for life. And it’s not that I am scared of the commitment; it’s that I am scared of arguing over who’s turn is it to wash the dishes, being misunderstood at times and having a difficult time conveying my thoughts and feelings into words, losing the desire to have sex with the women laying next to me every night, having to take the back seat of her heart because of our children, or resenting someone over limiting my freedom to be selfish. In top of that being conformed to my choices that brought me to my marriage and being unease about that choice but at the same time afraid to let it go. To settled for the marriage because of its convenience. To have my life become a sort of prison cell that has in unlocked door but I'm not too su

Yup
"But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on."

Question
Q: How many women with PMS does it take to change a light bulb?A: One! ONLY ONE!!!! And do you know WHY? Because no one else in this house knows HOW to change a light bulb! They don't even know that the bulb is BURNED OUT!! They would sit in the dark for THREE DAYS before they figured it out. And, once they figured it out, they wouldn't be able to find the light bulbs despite the fact that they've been in the SAME CUPBOARD for the past 17 YEARS! But if they did, by some miracle of God, actually find them 2 DAYS LATER, the chair they dragged to stand on to change the STUPID light bulb would STILL BE IN THE SAME SPOT!!!!! AND UNDERNEATH IT WOULD BE THE WRAPPER THE STUPID LIGHT BULBS CAME IN!!! BECAUSE NO ONE EVER CARRIES OUT THE GARBAGE!!!! IT'S A WONDER WE HAVEN'T ALL SUFFOCATED FROM THE PILES OF GARBAGE THAT ARE A FOOT DEEP THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE HOUSE!! IT WOULD TAKE AN ARMY TO CLEAN THIS DAMNED HOUSE!I'm sorry ... What was the question?

Looking Back
Looking back i see the things i have done the some right some wrong i look back at the things i have done and see where i went wrong i correct those things so they dont happen again but the thing i can never change is my heart my heart will always be out there will always be exposed there for the taking there to get ripped apart no matter how hard i try to keep it safe keep it covered up it always finds its way into the hands one one who could care less i can make you smile i can make you blush but thats who i am i show my feelings as they are once i have my heart back on my sleave i try my best not to let it go so easily but i guess thats just who i am but on the other hand once is all it takes you only get my heart once and never again so every time i look backand see the wrongs i have done the hurt i have caused its the payback for myheart getting broken by someone else so i live my life how i see fit love me hate me but dont pitty me for i am who i am and its my own doing so what y

Living My Life As A Lie
I wrote this let me know what you guys think ....... looking in your eyes I can see myself the person I have become by being with you,I can feel the cold and bitterness that releases from inside youthe hatered that fills your heart....I know now that the person I once was is no longer thereyou've filled my heart with fear and disappointment,but I now know it was all my fault for the way I am todayI let you tare me down till there was nothing left to give,you used me and beat me... and looking at all of that now I know your not worth itIm moving on to something better leaving you behind cause I can no longer going to look into yours eyes and live that lie

Thinkin
i sit here tonight thinkin over my past.and i always come to this one place and stop i guess thats a happy place for me in my life. i wish i could bak and do things over for sum sufficent reason but we can't. Now its all bout the bills and the family . I wish sometimes he only knew i stayed up late at nite crying and wishin he was mine again. and that i could wake up beside him and look n2 his lite blue water like eyes.and feel his soft gentle rose like lips. But back then we made our choices and now we have been gone our very own separte ways. and it breaks my heart to see how diffrent of a person he is.thats y im here tonight. layin here cryin cuz he has changed and so have i .

A Blind Eye (ch 1. Act 1)
Hatred. Violence. Anger. Wrath. Red. Red splattered the floor, sightless eyes staring up at the ceiling. The anger of a person's wrath clashing with the loss of life. The Jury stood up, twelve people from different walks of life. They sat through a six month trial period, listening to the horror unfold before them in graphic detail. It was the State VS. Robert Mathison, charged with Breaking and entering, Rape, Sodomy, and ultimately murder. A table rested on it's side, the phone cord having been cut. The butcher knife lay dead center in the middle of the female's chest, a phantom's mask covering her face. Her lips were parted in the form of horror, an expression that held no true emotion behind it any longer. Not a breath left her lips, not a word from her tongue. Ultimate silence. Only one spoke. "Governed by the state of Lousiana, charged with Breaking and entering, Rape, Sodomy, and Murder in the first degree, we find the defendant not guilty." A gasp r

The Latest On My Eyes
So I went back to the Eye Dr today. It wasn't good news. He thought the drops he gave me last week would help. I think they did help my left eye, since I can still see to type lol. My right though is still all a blur. I sit with my face 6 inches from the screen. So now he says he does not know what is wrong and is sending me to another dr for his opinion.

Avenged Sevenfold-critical Acclaim
Shhh be quiet, you might piss somebody off Like me motherfucker, you've been at it for too long While you feed off others insecurities You stand in front of me and bite the hand that feeds (Self-righteousness is wearing thin) Lies inside your head your bestfriend (Heart bleeds but not for fellow man) Broken glass, your fake reflection I've had enough it's time for something real Don't respect the words you're speaking Gone too far, acclaim So how does it feel to know that someones kid in the heart of america Has blood on their hands, fighting to defend your rights So you can maintain the lifestyle that insults this family's existance Well, where I'm from we have a special salute we aim high in the air Towards all those pompous assholes who spend their days pointing fingers Fuck you Shh be quiet, you might piss somebody off Like the heartbeat of this country when antagonized too long I'll be damned if you count me in as part of your generous hypocrisy Collecting enemies (Tabloid g

Another Leveling Group
Another Fubar Leveling Group My new Fubar family is going to be called the Fu-Rockers. I'm looking not only for people who want help leveling, but people who want to develop genuine friendships on the fu. The Fu-Rockers family will be unique in that we dont only help our family. We help ANYONE who wants to level up. Here are the rules of the "Fu-Rockers." 1) You must add "Fu-Rockers" somewhere in your nickname. Does not matter where. 2) The Fu-Rockers will tolerate no drama of any kind, and discriminating against Anyone of a different race or sexual orientation than you is strictly forbidden. 3) In order to join, you must be willing to rate/fan/add every person whom has joined before you, as well as newbies entering the family after you have joined. 4) You must have a salute photo, or I must know you personally. No exceptions! 5) You must realize, that while this is a family, that DOES NOT mean that anyone in the family has to Cherry Bomb/Bling you just because you are in o

How I'm Feeling
I'm so tired of people not doing what they say they going to do and so tired of friends not being there when they say they going to be. I honestly feel like I'm alone here and I have no one here with me. I fucking hate this place even the people I cared about the most have let me down and you sir know who I'm talking too. You of all people know that I love you and your opinion mattters to me but apparently because of your new girl I mean nothing to you and it angers me. I try to talk to you and all you can say is what am I suppose to do? Be a fucking friend you jackass I tell you I have no where to go and you say what am I suppose to do fuck you stick your head further up her ass and go fuck yourself. Damn I never trusted anyone and I trusted you and you broke that trust and love. You don't care if you did you would say more than that and you would try to stop me from moving. You were all I had to hold onto and now I have nothing enjoy your girl and when you get hurt guess what I won't

Warning!!!
WARNING If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all who claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think everything you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told you should want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you're alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become a statistic. You have been warned.

Tricks
Great Tricks played by Vagina The vagina, usually associated with sexual intercourse and childbirth, can be employed in a variety of other ways. In addition to serving as a money-box the vagina can also play the part of a billiard table, a game seemingly favoured in parts of Scandinavia. One writer (J. C. Lauret in “The Danish Sex Fairs") remarks “The ladies will lift up their skirts… They will sit against the wall, their legs spread well apart. The gentlemen will take their places on the opposite side of the room… Everyone has a try. The object is to flick the glass marbles into the hole of this delightful billiard table. One can guess at the winner’s reward...”

Give Me And Idea And I Will Write For Ya!
So... I am full of ideas, but someone challenged me to a writing contest. So send your ideas to me and I will reply with a story to fit your thoughts aand desires. Be it Kinky or sweet and loving, I'll make you cream through words. Try me... What do u desire, want, need, yearn for...?

The Things I Really Want…..
The things I really want….. I want a real home that pulses with life. I want an honest-to-goodness kitchen, and someone to cook for. I want a Christmas with everyone home; filled with peace and love, and NO ONE resenting anyone for anything. I want to go for a walk at sunrise—alone—without being afraid that I’ll get dizzy and fall down. I want to make popcorn, and explode butter, and eat really decadent ice cream sundaes, and watch funny, silly, scary movies, and argue over who washes dishes, and revel in the peace and quiet, and talk and laugh and share secrets and joys and heartaches into the wee hours of the morning and bond with my best friend (What a lovely surprise gift from God she is! And it wasn’t even my birthday!), for days and days, knowing I’m accepted for just who I am. I want to stand up without wondering if I’ll throw up. I want my children and grandchildren to have truly happy, fulfilling lives and to know without doubt that I LOVE each and every o

Breed Specific Legislation
Have been fighting this crud for several years now havee seen it not only limited to Pit Bull type dogs but also Dobermans, Rotts, etc. I have owned Pits since I was a child and never had any bad dogs. Wanna make them better get rid of some owners who think the dog makes them tougher. Get rid of the Aholes who own various breeds and all the dogs will benefit. Remember your dog is what you make it. My red nose has been on fundraisers for animal care with hundreds of other dogs around and never raised a hackle. If you are against this type of government control keep in touch with your elected officials.

U.s.s. Abraham Lincoln And The Lighthouse
This is based on an actual radio conversation between a U.S. Navyaircraft carrier (U.S.S. Abraham Lincoln) and Canadian authoritiesoff the coast of Newfoundland in October, 1995. (The radioconversation was released by the Chief of Naval Operations on10/10/95 authorized by the Freedom of Information Act.) Canadians: Please divert your course 15 degrees to the South toavoid collision. Americans: Recommend you divert your course 15 degrees to theNorth to avoid a collision. Canadians: Negative. You will have to divert your course 15degrees to the South to avoid a collision. Americans: This is the Captain of a US Navy ship. I say again,divert YOUR course. Canadians: No, I say again, you divert YOUR course. Americans: THIS IS THE AIRCRAFT CARRIER USS LINCOLN, THE SECONDLARGEST SHIP IN THE UNITED STATES' ATLANTIC FLEET. WE AREACCOMPANIED BY THREE DESTROYERS, THREE CRUISERS AND NUMEROUSSUPPORT VESSELS. I DEMAND THAT YOU CHANGE YOUR COURSE 15 DEGREESNORTH--I SAY AGAIN, T

New Drugs For Women!! Lol
MORE NEW DRUGS FOR WOMEN DAMNITOL Take 2 and the rest of the world can go to hell for up to 8 full hours. EMPTYNESTROGEN Suppository that eliminates melancholy and loneliness by reminding you of how awful they were as teenagers and how you couldn't wait till they moved out! ST. MOMMA'S WORT Plant extract that treats mom's depression by rendering preschoolers unconscious for up to two days. PEPTOBIMBO Liquid silicone drink for single women. Two full cups swallowed before an evening out increases breast size, decreases intelligence, and prevents conception. DUMBEROL When taken with Peptobimbo, can cause euphoria resulting in enjoyment of country music and pickup trucks. FLIPITOR Increases life expectancy of commuters by controlling road rage and the urge to flip off other drivers. MENICILLIN Potent anti-boy-otic for older women. Increases resistance to such lethal lines as,

Sci Fi Favorites
I was corresponding with a beautiful woman called curiously Cuddle slut, (I think it was the name that attracted her to me…) any event, Got me to thinking about my Sci Fi Favorites. Lest see. Love old Star Trek, Was a Fan of Next Generations, (Next Gen to us Geeks), Deep Space Nine, (DS-9) but not too much into Voyager or “Enterprise”. Though I watch a couple and it’s OK, just not buying that it was all before Kirk, The new Star Trek Movie Rocked Can’t wait to see the next one or how it develops. Was a Fan of Farscape, (Miss it terribly), and Stargate SG1, Stargate Atlantis, Interested to see how the whole Stargate Universe is going to pan out. Love Eureka and Warehouse 13. Loved Serenity. When I read I read mostly Fantasy. Love the whole Dragons and sorcery thing. Last book I read, and I d read often was called “The Name of the wind,” which I highly recommend. Loved Hyperion, and how it blurred the lines of sci fi and horror. Also loved

Over That Reality
Twisted and broken leaning to and fro thoughts are bound no more gone are the dreams of yesterday a new day has begun to dawn be gone the memories of yesterday begin the rebirth of the new seek out the heart of the one you love but do not seek out the past that path is gone now torn up to shreds now pressing forward a new way to live

Interesting Meetings
I had such a wonderful conversation with this girl, I couldn't help but copy, paste, and save it. BUT! Since Im lazy... Go bottom to top (but I replaced her name) Mystery Girl: night *kiss ->Mystery Girl: kk night night hun Mystery Girl: you too. i will be on tomorrow probably so hopefully i will catch you again ->Mystery Girl: Hope to talk to you soon? and that you have Sweet dreams and happy thoughts forever Mystery Girl: good night ->Mystery Girl: I will hun xoxo Mystery Girl: i know im going to Mystery Girl: hmmm then you should sleep real good tonight ->Mystery Girl: same hun... gettin a bit sleepy that and u have me so turned on... lots and lots in common Mystery Girl: dalin as much as i dont want to i think im going to have to head to bed Mystery Girl: lol ->Mystery Girl: I should shouldnt I hehe, it looks like aa powder kit though, and like you i want to stomp grapes Mystery Girl: omg you should totally try it! ->Mystery Girl: hehe id love to make my own wine, i have a ki

Not Today
"You are my heart" you said "Without you I'd be dead" What kind of fool are you? Do you have any idea, any clue? Who would rip out their own heart Then take it and tear it apart That's exactly what you've done The damage can't be undone There is a permanent scar It will never fully heal, not by far The mark you have left won't go away It will be there day after day Somehow it may be mended But our love can no more be splendid Things will never be how they once were Memories of that time just a blur My trust you abused A promise you misused Someday we may be OK But not today

I'm Not That Girl.......
My inner most intense emotions are sadness and rejection. I'm always on the side of rejection, It laughs in my face on a constant and there is wherethe sadness comes in. I always wanted to be happy and when i am i hold on to it for dear life. As though if i were to let it slip through my fingers i would just crumble. I'm not writing thins so i can get sympathy votes or little messages of nice things. Im writing this because i am deeply depressed. It's wrong to feel unwated. Its even more hurtful when those who claim to want to get to know the "real you" want to know some other people on the side. In the end i never win. I'm just not that girl for the guys. It's like back in grade school. When a game starts im always the last to be picked, the one the other team was forced to pick just to make the game even. Forever to be on the side lines and never really play the game. I just wan't to be that girl that people dont feel embaressed to be around. Not ashamed to hold my hand. Someone who

Attitude's
" The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than success, than what people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance,giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we embrace for that day. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our ATTITUDES."........

A Holiday Love Story
Two years ago as I hung the ornaments on my tree and put my ceramic Baby Jesus in the manger, I had more than the holidays on my mind. A diamond ring sparkled on my left hand. After years of teaching me contentment and comfortable singleness, God had led me to say yes to Bill Page – a godly man who was an old friend, a widower, and a pastor. On December 30, 2001, Bill and I married. So this month I want to share with you a love story – but not the one you think.When my first husband died 16 years ago, many people quoted Psalm 68:5 and Isaiah 54:5 and tried to comfort me by saying, “God will be your husband.” It didn’t work.I repeatedly told the Lord, “I want You to be my God. I don’t want you to be my spouse. I want a flesh-and-blood husband.” God did not get mad or withdraw. He stayed close and waited.As my grief lessened and my single parenting intensified, I turned to the Lord as never before – as I had turned to my husband befor

I've Had It!!!!!
Ever since January 2009, when my dad was forced into retirement, his ability to remember anything from two hours ago to two months ago has been getting worst and worst as time goes on, also he has been getting very angry, yelling at everyone over everything. (Kind of reminds you of rabbit dogs you see in movies, but you can shoot the dog.) He never does anything wrong, everyone else has did something wrong. The worst part is if you bring up his memory lost he get even angrier and starts yelling more, and on top of that when you tell the family doctor he just thinks you are being mean, but that is a whole other story.It has been 8 months now and the anger that my dad takes out on everyone, mostly me, is getting to be way too hurtful, to the point that I spend half of my time shut up in my bedroom without leaving until my mom gets home from work, or I leave the house when my mom goes to work and go to my sister's or grandma's. Does anyone care, no, they just keep saying that he is si

Soul
the pain i feel rippin thru my soul, to live with out u or ur love , to know the eternal burnin of ur lose, beyond all one knows . i beg for the gods to make you see just what u r doin that is killin those who love you , and help you get thru it . but it beyond the stars the pain i see when ur gone, and i completely alone . my only heart ripped to shreds by the sheddin of ur mortal shell ...you will leave me in eternal hell. i would give anything to make you see just what u r to me . i feel your pain from miles away .... it 's all i can do to not run to you and try to fix it , but im at a lose ....its beyond my control....and all i know .....if you go my incubus .....you will crush my soul...but if i truely love you should i let u go....and hope you will always know just how i will miss you so ....sighes ....till the day i die .

Pest Vs Pets
It is that time a year, seasons are changes. As this occurs we as pet owners well see more pest, like ants, that decide to enjoy the buffet, we set for our beloved furry friends. One way we can cohabitate with these 6 legged pest WITH OUT using pesticides which are toxic to our pets and family members, is with the use of baby powder. YES, I said baby powder. Take an old plastic place mate dust it really well with baby powder and set your pets’ food bowls on it. Ants do not cross baby powder, keeping your pets’ food safe from unwanted guest. Baby powder can also be used around the base boards in the kitchen, just remember to clean up the excess, so no one slips, because baby powder and slick surfaces can be fun and slippery, it can cause one to fall. Working in Veterinary medicine for over 10 years as an Animal Nurse I have pets come in from toxins that we as owners use to keep our homes and yard pest free, and there are other products that are not deadly that can be used to

So.....
So i'm sitting here, alone of course, Dylan is in bed, watching this show on divorce. It's got me fuckin cryin. Shit! It's also got me pissed off, i'm sitting here watching two couples who are obviously still in love with each other, just completly throw it away over stupid ass shit! They are CHOOSING to walk away from their marriage. I didn't get that choice. It was made for me. Yeah I know, I wasn't legally married. But we were together for so long, we refered to eachother as husband and wife. It was just easier. But I want my fucking family back! I miss him, and watching this show has really made me realize that. If i'm really sitting here crying, then I am really not ready to move on. My god, it's been almost 3 years and I still can't get the fuck over it. Fuckin hell! Seriously, how the hell do you get over something like that?Maybe if we both agreed upon it, it would have been easier. But I didn't want this. I didn't want to be left alone, I didn't want to tear my family apart.

Horny Days
Don't you always hate those days that your just extremely horny and there isnt anything you can do about? It seems even if you fuck or masterbate, that 5 min later you want more and it seems to go on all day long and you think to yourself wtf is wrong with me lol. I may be the only who gets this horny on somedays lol idk.

10 Things I Love About Him
10 Things I Love About Him 1. I love his warmth to accept anyone for what they are including me. 2. I love that I can trust him with anything. 3. I love his ability to see a bad situation and make it better for everyone. 4. I love his eyes, I love to stare at them and get lost. 5. I love it when he holds me tight. That's when I know things will be alright. 6. I love it when he smiles....he so cute when he actually does it. 7. I love that he wants to know about me and what's going on with me. 8. I love it that he can just look at my face and know that I'm having a bad day and trys what he can do it fix it. 9. I love that he wants to be friends and find the good in anyone. 10. Most of all I love the way he loves me. I trust you with my life and that of our children. You are my light at the end of the tunnel. I don't tell you near enough how much you mean to me or exactly how much I think about you in a day. When you are weak I am strong. When I am weak you are strong. I

Thoughts
We are all looking for connection.A feeling of being a part of something.Knowing that someone somewhere is intrested in you and what you have to say.The people in your life start to feel like strangers.Not all the time but you have those momments where you feel alone even when there are tons of people around. Just a thought I had to get out of my head. It's out and now time to have a drink.:)

A Night Of Passion
A Night Of Passion! its' friday night Amanda is about to get home.she arrives at the door finds a note.reads go straight to the bathroom and enjoy.so she goes inside walks in the bathroom finds a hot bubblebath waiting surrounded by lavender candles.she undresses and enjoy a relaxing bath.she gets out puts on her robe off the door and finds a note.reads go into the bedroom wear the dress on the bed and get ready.ill meet you in the dining room.so she puts on the tiny purple dress does her hair and makeup.no bra just silk panties and heals.walks into the dining room where i greet her with a kiss,i sit her at a table done with roses and candles .i bring out her favorite meal and we have a romantic dinner alone.soft music plays as we talk.after i pull her close dancing slow and close our bodies against each other.her hands around the back of my neck,my hands sliding down the open back of her dress.kissing as we sway to the music.she is pulling me closer as she gets excited.i pick her up

Dr. Suesssser
my ears are bleeding and so is my nose its from crank and death metal i suppose what will bleed next probably every girl who reads this or my toes so hop on pop and bring the mop the cat is out of the bag and my dicks in your ass and your pussy is thing one and your ass is thing two who will mop up all this goo not me surely not you maybe we can get a mop up crew thats all for now your pussy smells like rotten glue does glue rot does glue rot does your kitten make clear snaught what size tampax does was she bought on a cot with a knot and some clots and some class my cock is pucking in your ass bass is a fish your pussy is a nice red dish how many peaces on my list? now your knowing your dissmissed no phone call now shes pissed

Topping
What is bottom topping, you may ask yourself. Well, that is when a submissive tries to control a scene or situation, manipulating the dominant to their desire, rather than what the dominant wants from the scene or situation. Topping from the bottom is considered inappropriate behavior in most D/s circles. It can have many connotations, some of which make the dominant seem to be the less dominant person in the relationship. It also can be looked upon as the submissive trying to get the attention of their dominant because the submissive feels that they aren't getting enough. Why is bottom topping such a big issue? When a dominant is no longer in control of the situation, their role is diminished. They are nothing more than a participant in the situation or scene. They lose their credibility as a dominant, because as the dominant, they should be in control. T

Big Brother Problems
No, I don't mean the show where the douchebags all vote on who the biggest douchebag of the week is and then who gets to be the supreme douchebag at the end of the show. My relationship with my brother has been quite strained since my daughter was born and I'm not sure why. Well, I have some ideas, but nothing definitive. My whole family has been up to meet my daughter, except my brother and his family. This fact hurts me more than I think he knows or understands. When I left California in 2003, the hardest part was leaving my brother. We went to every Raider game together, we always went to concerts together, and he was one of my best friends. We would always see each other at the holidays and I'd make occasional visits. He and his family visited Florida once and Boston once. Both times, were incredible. But, both of Florida and Boston had something to offer other than me and my wife. Florida had Disneyworld, Boston was just Boston. Calgary has nothing. It's nice, but I

Late Night Math Contemplations
Conversations of an actually very acute mind making sense of fluff, yes all these years I avoided math and that is why I don’t have my flipping doctorate now and going back for it. (Hubby has very acute mind as well, but very bad English LoL) ME: I seen you first time was in the middle of -97 - (-27)-40-(-59) Hubby: silly nerd emoticon ME: which is not the simple logical thing you think it would be, oh no because if you are subtracting integers (negative numbers, I don't know why they can't just call them negative numbers...) then you add the opposite rather than subtracting them. and then so you change the -97-(-27) to -97+27 and so on, but you for some reason on the next number the -40 don't instead u throw () around it and call it a permanent integer ME: and then so it is a negative number throughout all the other transitions unless you add on another set of integers at the beginning for some daft reason, I have no clue why you would but IF you did then that w

The Battle
this is just forwarded on from a friend. its a nice thing he wrote. The Battle When you have a setback you must focus your energies. Unfortunately, most people focus on he problem and not on the solution. They take their eyes off the goal and focus on the challenges all around the goal. They spend all of their time worrying about the problem and very little time thinking about the solution. If you are going to think about and dwell on what might happen, why not think about the good things that can happen, the positive things that can happen? Worry does not solve problems. It usually adds to them. Worrying is a misuse of the imagination. Most people worry themselves into bad health, which creates more problems and more worries. Medical experts agree that most disease is not so much what you eat, but rather what is eating you. Worrying never solves problems. Do not focus your energies on the problem, because the problem is already here. Focus on creating solutions and then acting on

Sunflower Fubar New Member
You are correct- I did judge, and misjudge at that! It comes from years of learning to be cautious; I was fearful of what I read in your profile, and I put up my armor. If you cannot accept my apology, that I suspected you of ulterior motives, then there is no more that we need say to one another: agreed?=== 'MasterDaddySIR r/l bf to MDSIR's Slut.' wrote the following at '2009-09-08 17:38:10'..>> if you know how to read and wear glasses , all I did was rate your profile and fan you , I did not do anything else , I did not judge you ...> > but you sure have provin me you do judge > > > === 'Sunflower' wrote the following at '2009-09-08 17:35:45'..> >> > Ok, ok-I give: whatta you expect? Your website comes off as a brochure for "this is all this guy wants"- just look at your profile, and tell me if it doesn't exactly describe what kinda female you are interested in, ok?> > > > Like I said, if I was wrong, I apologise for jumping to the wrong conclusion.> > === 'MasterDaddySIR r/l bf to M

Too Far Away From Me
It seems I think about you all the time. I was pouring a cup of coffee this morning and as the rich black fluid filled my cup I felt your hand reach up from behind me to stroke my chest and embraced me warmly. When the cup was filled, I turned and you were gone. It’s that same ache in the pit of my stomach, the cold truth that you are too far away from me. I sat at the table and slowly sipped my coffee and as I raise my eyes from my cup, you smile at me brighter than the sun could even dream; only to fade quickly to the reality of an empty chair. The ache grips my heart once more, squeezing every bit of joy from my soul as you are too far away from me. I drink the warm coffee again, slowly raising my eyes, hoping to see you come back to me but only rewarded with the brown leather back of that damned chair. Please come back…even if for just a second, please let me see you. I stare into my cup and think of how wonderful mornings would be if I could only have you here. Real

The Bee Gees Asked It Best...
And how can you mend a broken heart?How can you stop the rain from falling down?How can you stop the sun from shining?What makes the world go round?How can you mend this broken man?How can a loser ever win?Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again.

.......[9-10-09]
A DREAM OF THE SWEETEST BLISS CONSTANTLY PLAYS IN MY HEADWRAPPED IN THE SOFTEST AND WARMEST EMBRACETHEN I OPEN MY EYESTO SEE A LONELY AND COLD ROOMHOLDING NOTHING BUT THE MEMORIESOF WHEN WE LAST METCONSECUTIVE 180 DEGREE TURNS OCCURED SINCE THENINFATUATION.....WORRY....ANGER....SADNESS.....THESE WORLDS ORBIT MY MIND DAY BY DAYTEARS FALL.....DEEP SIGHS.......THOUGHTS OF LETTING EVERYTHING GOA SHATTERED SOULTORN PRIDEHAPPINESS RIPPED FROM MY CLUTCHES....AGAIN...ONE WOULD THINK IT WOULD BE EASIER EACH TIMEBUT IT NEVER WILL BEAS THE SHARDS OF A SMILE BLOW FARTHER INTO THE WINDDRAWN CLOSER TO THE TORNADO OF EMOTIONS BUT THE BLIND WORLD WILL NEVER BE AWARE OF MY PSYCHOLOGICAL STRUGGLESSO I'LL FIGHT ALONE UNTIL MY MENTAL WAR IS FELT.....-LORD ZERO THE SHADOW DRAGON-

Modern Day Tea Parties
I bet all these people voted for george bush 2 fucking times. no they want to support "no one" and act as if no mistake was ever made and that they were "in it for america" all along. notice how nothing was mentioned about the bush administration, a failure of a war with no weapons of mass destruction ever found to this day, a fucking texas oil gangster running amuck blowing up whomever he chooses with no qualms that repercussions will come, thousands of innocent people killed including americans (my cousin).... Not even bill blowjob clintons administration was mentioned. it is seriously fucking sad that for a country so advanced we are so afraid of change, because it will eventually lead to the demise of us in the end. im all for people standing up to big government, but its so obviously apparent here what side of the fence these guys are on. sheep in wolves clothing to say at the least. I havent even been to a doctor since 2003, or a dentist in 3 years, and it isn't be

Ramblings
Been awhile since I last wrote here and I thought it was time to keep my peeps up to date on my so called life.....Anyway, Trish does not live here anymore, her kids were surprised at her choice and decided it was best for her to go live with them in Florida, we do keep in touch with email and she told me she has found a lady friend down there and they are having an affair, which is like so cool!!!! Sam is back at work, she enjoys having her summers off and really liked this past summer, I'd hope she did, she learned how to eat pussy and use a strappie very well....anyway she is getting back in the swing of things and we only have sex every 3 or 4 days now. Which is cool, means I can seduce other ladies for our bed....hehehehe. I had said earlier that sam and me were going to get a place together and had found a place but we decided that it would be much better staying with my friend, we all get along so well, no of us gets in the way, we mesh so well and besides it is nice to have

First Time Connecting
At first you think “What the hell am I doing up here?” You feel slightly sick as you climb out of the man basket onto the 12” beam for the first time, almost like you need to lay down somewhere. Your mouth is dry, but your hands are wet inside of you cloth gloves with the Ironworkers logo printed on the oversized cuff along with the number of the local which you are apprenticing for. Quite suddenly you are over whelmed by a wave of vertigo so bad it robs you of your ability to stand up, try as you might your legs won’t push you to stand upright. All the sudden 12” doesn’t seem like it’s a lot of room to stand on, much less walk on. You fight the urge to “coon “ the steel, which is when you sit on the top flange, and push on the bottom flange with your feet while pulling yourself along with your hands, kind of like scooting yourself along, to the next point where you are suppose to be connecting the next piece of steel with

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Normally i get hungry after waking up because that's how I grew up....wake up..eat breakfast with dad....bible read..whatever... Only ate half my breakfast...forced it down since i gotta work today.. Back to 20 lbs gone. Just wanna rip the fat out and give it to some twit that could use it more than me.

Facebook Blog
Hello Everyone, I just recieved this next message: "URGENT!! Apparently the FAN CHECK Application is a VIRUS that takes 48 hours to kick in. Even if you are tagged in a photo the virus still attacks you. Please inform all you friends and remove/...delete the application ASAP. Copy and paste this as your status so word gets around quickly.

Bar
hey this is for anyone and everyone, i am planning to open a bar in a few years and would like to get peoples input on what they look for in a bar. i know we all been to bars and damn this suck i wish they had this or this is great why dont more bars have this.

My Mind
growing cold and i don't care my eyes reflect no life anymore i laugh at the pain heart break is that best you can throw at me i've taken bullets and knives had my body broken my soul split in half these eyes are lifeless but in reality they just show your future once you cross me insanity seeping out its cage heart enclosed in ice betrayal abandonment just appetizers for the main dish kidnap rape, abuse, attempted murder, suicide so much shit my soul ripped in half mind more shattered then broken glass this is my war against the world turning your back on me not realizing i'm just wasting for my chance to lash out to drag your ass to the ground slam this fist in your face let you taste your own blood laughing as i wail on your ass can't take it anymore 6 hollow points to the chest tears falling for my eyes as i look at my own tattered bleeding body laughing in front of me eyes as cold as ice body growing colder as i end i weakness walking off gun in

Drowning
I can't escape the lonliness, like drowning it suffocates me. I fight to swim, but I'm weak. I fight to breath, but I'm filled with pain. I fight to live. No one reaches for me. No one there to help me breathe again. I drown in the darkness, alone. ˜Anonymous

Release
The constant stirring In my soul Takes me deeper in thought Where you have control Whisper in my ear Of what might be Desiring to touch you Allowing myself to be set free Your bold, strong physique Temptations in exotic dreams Lifts me higher in you With no remorse or schemes Alas, my love Whenever the two shall meet Erotic satisfaction Aewaiting your release

Wiccan, The Religion
"We are not evil. We don't harm or seduce people. We are not dangerous. We are ordinary people like you. We have families, jobs, hopes, and dreams. We are not a cult. This religion is not a joke. We are not what you think we are from looking at T.V. We are real. We laugh, we cry. We are serious. We have a sense of humor. You don't have to be afraid of us. We don't want to convert you. And please don't try to convert us. Just give us the same right we give you--to live in peace. We are much more similar to you than you think." Margot Adler 4 "If you take [a copy of] the Christian Bible and put it out in the wind and the rain, soon the paper on which the words are printed will disintegrate and the words will be gone. Our bible IS the wind and the rain." Herbalist Carol McGrath as told to her by a Native-American woman. 5 "I don't think witchcraft is a religion. I would hope the military officials would take a second look at the decision they made." G.W. Bush (R), as Gov

I'm So Almost There
Last night I had not planned to stop at my in-laws’ house to pick up Sarah and Jeffrey; Martha had agreed to do that since we both got off work at the same time and I could meet them at home. But I had made plans to go somewhere I knew Martha really wanted to go and figured since Mary was at work it would be great to have a few hours with the family “out on the town”. I came into the house and my kids hugged me (I can’t wait for them to grow a few inches because right now their heads come to between my legs), then Sarah cut in: “I thought Mommy was picking us up.” Thanks a lot … but Martha came in three minutes later and I talked her into us all going to Pretzelmaker in Dakota Square Mall. Sarah rode home with her and Jeffrey with me so we could head out in one vehicle. The boys enjoyed pretzel dogs (they WILL fill you up) and the girls had pretzel bites. After finishing dinner, with the kids wanting to carry the diaper bag and the food

Keep The Upper Level List Alive!!!!
ok people Trick_Dick and Candy girl have worked their little butts off for so many of you and now it there turn they need level 30's for the UPPER LEVEL list to keep it going They have put hundreds of dollars into this of their own money and still are don't you think it only fair to help them out with anything they need and one is to get level 30s for the list i know i am doing my share to help in anyway i can and NO i'm not a brown nose'r! they helped me so much it only fair that i help in return "KEEP THE LIST ALIVE"

The Rose
Some say love it is a river,that drowns the tender reed. Some say love it is a razor,That leaves your soul to bleed. some say love it is a hunger,an endless aching need... i say love it is a flower....and you its only seed. its the heart afraid of breaking..that never learns to dance. its the dream..afraid of waking that never takes the chance. its the one who wont be taken,whoo cannot seem to give.. its the soul afraid of dien...that never learns to live. and the night has been too lonely,and the road has been too long, and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong. just remember in the winter, far beneath the winter snow. lies the seed that with the suns love,in the spring becomes a rose.

It Finally Happened...
after being whored out by ninjystars i got hit up by a lounge... fuck and here i have been off their radar for the last 6 months... but at least i got to have a little fun with it... ->NaughtyGir...: get back to me when they do till then i have no interest standing around pretending i'm having a blast when you can't even have a decent conversation... i can do that at a bar just fine NaughtyGir...: not yet ->NaughtyGir...: naughty girls on cam showing their bits? NaughtyGir...: and naughty girls lol NaughtyGir...: um no just good ppl -> NaughtyGir...: are there whores there? NaughtyGir...: sure the more the merrier ->NaughtyGir...: is this one of those things i am gonna need lube for? - >NaughtyGir...: what kind of party? should i bring a friend? NaughtyGir...: http:... come and party

In The Eyes Of A Child
In the eyes of a child there is no fear In the eyes of a child there are no tears In the eyes of a child there is only laughter song and play living life as full to every day In the eyes of a child no one is wrong no one is weak everyone is strong In the eyes of a child everyone is allowed to play there is no reason why others cant stay In the eyes of a child there is no rich there is no poor everyone gets along In the eyes of a child there always room for another In the eyes of a child they live as if they were sister or brother laughing, playing, fighting too In the eyes of a child there is no reason to cry only tears of joy no reason to sigh In the eyes of a child a few words light up their day a few words that everyday you should say. In the eyes of a child a smiles is all they need to live and grow In the eyes of a child I love you is all they need to know.

Another Day For The Black Wolf
The black wolf awakes with the feeling that his white wolf was beside him. When he relized she was not. He let out a howl of pain and let the tears fall from his eyes. As the black wolf starts out for his day out he see's his white wolf every where he looks. With the tears still falling off his face. The black wolf prays to the gods that he can make up for the pain he casued in the heart of his white wolf. He finds himself looking at his own reflextion in the stream as he gets a drink from it. All he see's is emptyness in his eyes. Where there use to be happiness and joy when he was together with his white wolf. The black wolf wishes she knew how much he misses her and needs her in his life. Without her in his life his life is empty and meaningless.

Childbirth
A married couple went to the hospital to have their baby delivered. Upon their arrival, the doctor said that the hospital was testing an amazing new high-tech machine that would transfer a portion of the mother's labor pain to the baby's father. He asked if they were interested, Both said they were very much in favor of it.The doctor set the pain transfer to 10 percent for starters, explaining that even 10 percent was probably more pain than the father had ever experienced before. But as the labor progressed, the husband felt fine and asked the doctor to go ahead and kick it up a notch..The doctor then adjusted the machine to 20 percent pain transfer.The husband was still feeling fine. The doctor then checked the husband's blood pressure and was amazed at how well he was doing.At this point they decided to try for 50 percent. The husband continued to feel quite well. Since the pain transfer was obviously helping the wife considerably, the husband encouraged the doctor to tra

Hey Whats Up
kevin joe i am 22 yrs. old just found out about this site dont know what this site is about, so i am about too find out i live in DUNCAN B.C. I LIVED HERE ALL MY LIFE IM USUSALLY ON FACEBOOK AND MYYEARBOOK.COM IM GOIN UNIVERSITY RIGHT NOW I AM UNEMPLOYED

Xxx
i approach you from behind, i put my arms around your waist and kiss the left side of your neck. i move up to your ear, and my moist kiss wets your lobe. i breathe warm and soft on your ear and you shiver. you turn to my kiss and touch your lips to mine. my tongue softly and gently passes your lips, moistening them, and i taste your tongue. i kiss your lips passionately and move back down to your neck. my hands slowly move down your waist and my thumbs hook on your panties to pull them down. as i'm pulling them down, i gently bend you over. i have you step out of them and they lie in a wad on the floor, glistening with your desire. i get on my knees and start kissing your inner left thigh, moving up to your pussy. with my hands i spread your cheeks wide open and i give you a long wet lick, from clit to ass, tasting you all at once and leaving my saliva on you to mingle with your own wetness. my thumbs spread your pussy lips and i press my face into you, tasting and kissing you. i lap m

Songs
Please baby can't you seeMy mind's a burnin' hellI got razors a rippin' and tearin' and strippin'My heart apart as wellTonight you told meThat you ache for something newAnd some other woman is lookin' like somethingThat might be good for youGo on and hold her till the screaming is goneGo on believe her when she tells youNothing's wrongBut I'm the only oneWho'll walk across the fire for youI'm the only oneWho'll drown in my desire for youIt's only fear that makes you runThe demons that you're hiding fromWhen all your promises are goneI'm the only onePlease baby can't you seeI'm trying to explainI've been here before and I'm locking the doorAnd I'm not going back againHer eyes and arms and skin won't makeIt go awayYou'll wake up tomorrow and wrestle the sorrowThat holds you down todayGo on and hold her till the screaming is goneGo on believe her when she tells youNothing's wrongBut I'm the only oneWho'll walk across the fire for youI'm the only oneWho'll drown in my desire for youIt's on

Girls In Roller Skates
CHURCH OF SKATAN death...murder...suffering.........its madness...distress, unhappy... she never waits... its...it is just so hard for me...like....the...like the worst of all possible fates i try...i am patient....need to be beside her..things things in my head... the constant debates...the coupon clipping.....the boxes..the old wooden crates...dragging behind me..old fuzzy pictures...cigarette lighters that dont work but are still in my inside pocket of my heavan vs. hell, black leather jacket...model one with the dragon scale armor..so i can vanish in style as i fall to the ground....and scrape against the planet with its asphault exterior and steel metal grates bent lead covered spoons...cheap paper plates...really bad pizza...i think b day party pussy would round out this day...i will just put her right in my mouth and i bet she will taste hate...my mind always does that...recoils in horror and just black resonates....cause this fucking sixteen year old cunt..with h

Vampire Heart
You can't escape the wrath of my heart Beating to your funeral song All faith is lust for hell regained And love dust in the hands of shame just be brave Let me bleed you this song Of my heart deformed And lead you along this path in the dark Where I belong Until I feel your warmth Hold me like you held onto life When all fears came alive and entombed me Love me like you loved the sun Scorching the blood in my vampire heart I'll be the thorns on every rose You've been sent by hope I am the nightmare waking you up From the dream of a dream of love Let me weep you this poem As Heaven's gates close And paint you my soul, Scarred and alone Waiting for your kiss to take me back home Hold me like you held onto life When all fears came alive and emtombed me Love me like you loved the sun Scorching the blood in my vampire heart

Hurt, Confused
I'm feeling hurt and confused, my gf is moving out. She that it's to reduce the stress between us and our kids. Between us there is 6 kids; 3 boys, 3 girls. The girls are mine. I'm afraid of losing her and it's tearing me up. I hope she knows what she's doing cause it'll drive me mad if I do lose her.

Sorry
Diary i cant talk to you anymore that scary man inside my head with his voice that sounds like a whip cream bottle says i can only talk to him now, cause i fuck everything up, just between you and me, he seems really focused almost otherworldly, i will miss our jokes and calling you a cunt, and doing dope with you, and watching darth vadar, looking at porn....uh... HOLD ON MOTHERFUCKER...FUCKING CUNT...I AM ONLY GOING ALONG WITH THIS CAUSE YOU ARE BLACKMAILING ME WITH MY DESIRE sorry Diary...the man in black says i have to end you. WHY WOULD YOU HAVE ME KILL PARTS OF MYSELF YOU SICK FUCK...YAH YAH...PROMISE TO YOURSELF, MYSELF, YOUR JUST A FUCKING GHOST TOO YOU KUNT...I AM JUST GOING TO PUT THIS OUT THERE...THE BLACK ARTS ARE JUST THAT...YOU ARE EMPTY...THATS WHY YOU PICKED ME....I DID NOT PICK YOU...YOU THINK THAT IM AFRAID OF YOU...FUCK YOU...FUCK YOU...FUCK YOU MOTHERFUCKER..GO FIND SOMEONE ELSE TO HELP YOURSELF TO... I WILL NEVER TAKE YOUR HAND...THATS WHAT YOU WANT I KNOW I

My Head Is Exploding
I'm glad she's sane, because I'm obviously not. Well, I'm crazy about her at least. Which to some degree makes me crazy, because I have no businesss being in love with her, but I am. I honestly can't get her out of my head. If I've thought about you less than a thousand times today I'd be surprised. It's amazing how quickly this struck. Sudden and powerful. I'm to a point where I'm not even questioning my decision to cross emotional lines. This is probably my problem. I've completely given up on self control. Which is dangerous when hearts are involved. I have no fear for myself. I've been dead for so long that it doesn't even matter what happens to me. I worry about her, and most of all, I worry about the kids. What kind of person am I? I guess I can't even answer that question. Well, I can...a selfish one. So what can I do but hope for the best? I don't know. Too complicated. Too tangled. All I'm sure about is what I feel. I'm certainly not sure how th

I'm Sorry...and I Wish You Knew I Was Talking To You...
but you don't...because you won't see...or you don't care...I don't know what I did so wrong to make you so angry with me...I do my best not to step on anyone's feelings on here...God knows it's happened enough to me...but I feel I've done something very wrong and lost a good friend...I just don't understand and I can't talk to you...I would have to admit why this is hurting me so much and I can't do that...It's my secret to keep...The same as I can't tell the real reason why I'm giving up the profile I worked so hard on...Giving up the friends who have forgotten I exist...Oh well...I'm happy where I am right now...And if I had it to do over...I wouldn't change a thing...Except for knowing what I did to make you turn your back on me...You couldn't have hurt me more if you drove a knife thru my heart...But if that's the way you want it to be...I have no choice but to accept it...I don't and won't beg for forgiveness for the real or imagined wrongs...I'll just say "I'm sorry"

Doctors
Got into the doctors today and he took a look down there says everything looked good for the cancer part, however both legs were swellon and he wanted an ultrasound done to see if I had a blood clot some where well that test came out o.k. although he wanted more blood work done they took from both fucking arms it felt as if they were vampires sucking the life out of me... Anyways I don't know nothing as of yet, but I'm sitting here vommitting my fucking guts out and don't understand why? Maybe it's from all the damn stress I've been going through lately do to all the medical problems I'm having an the fact that I kicked my oldest son out of the house or just to many gosh damn pills I'm on/taking, lemme say it sucks so bad not knowing weather your going to live or die from one day to the next... Yes I maybe free from cancer so they say but with the rest of this shit thats going on with me... Getting a damn staph infection in my blood stream & now all this, feels as if I can't win for lo

I Have A Wagon Full Of Dicks. I Invite You To Cram Them Down Your Bitch Throat.
YES, I'M FUCKING FAT, I FUCKING KNOW IT. YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE A FUCKING COCKBITE ABOUT IT AND POINT IT OUT AND MAKE FUCKING COMMENTS ABOUT SNACK CAKES (WHICH I DON'T EVEN FUCKING EAT, MORON, YOU CARRY A FUCKING CHILD AND MAINTAINING 100 LBS. THAT SHIT ISN'T HEALTHY). SO THE NEXT FUCKING PERSON WHO DOES IT, I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN AND SNAP YOUR FUCKING NECK. GOD FUCKING DAMMIT. Hooray. Now I'm going to develop a complex that could endanger my child. What, you want me to be bulemic? Fine. fuck you.

There Is No Light
Well tomorrow is the day, or today, Saturday, October 3, 2009, my sister, brother-in-law, and niece are fully moving out of their house and back home with Mommy & Daddy (plus I'm here too!). There is a very long list of down falls and the list is getting longer by the minute. . . Today (I haven't gone to bed so it is still, Friday, October 2, 2009) the guy from Dish Network came in and hooked everything up. Well after I was told that I would be able to watch whatever my sister DVRed down in her room on my TV, I found out it was a LIE! So I don't think I will ever get to watch tonight's Numb3rs and/or Dollhouse. I'm more the pissed off. Also I have gone through the search TV programs a good 30 different times, and I cannot find: Days Of Our Lives, NCIS, NCIS: LA, Law & Order: SVU, Dollhouse, Numb3rs, Three Rivers, CSI, Vampire Diaries; on their every day channels, i.e. CBS, NBC, ABC, Fox. This whole idea my sister got in her head about “cheap is better” blows big

More Acceptable Than Sacrifice
“Have you many friends, Will?”“No, not many.”“A good answer. For he that proclaims many friends declares he has none.” “The White Mountains”, chapter 2 By [wisdom] kings reign, and princes decree justice. Proverbs 8:15 On the last day of Minot’s annual Norsk Hostfest (pronounced “Hoostfest”, for the “o” has a forward slash through it), the largest Scandinavian culture festival in North America, I have my doubts about where the church is going. A few weeks ago the representatives of churches through the Evangelical Lutheran Church of America met in Minneapolis and one item on their agenda – essentially, the calling of pastors who are practicing and committed homosexuals – was approved and it’s dominated discussions over the last few weeks in our church. We had a congregational meeting about what Bethany Lutheran (which is an ELCA church) is going to do; technically, we don’t have

Layout...
Hi! This is my first blog for Fubar. In my blogs I am going to express my feelings, and what is on my mind (hince " On My Mind" blog title). Currently on my mind is my heart. I am a female, what else do we think about other than our heart. My love just broke up with me about a month ago and I am still hurting from that. My family is going through some hard times, so I am being the support of the family. Umm... Um... Uh... Sorry ADD kick in lol. I am starting to realize what I want out of my life, which isnt very much. I guess all I want to be when I grow up is happy. Currently the economy sucks, no one can really survive, and this is causing families to fall apart (just like mine), I guess these are the times in which you need to look up towards God and get down on your knees as pray for help. I currently have no job, I am living with my dad, and I have no life. Now, come talk to me before Mike broke up with me and I had a job, car, my own place, a life, and happiness. Dont you find it

Apple
"This is the best apple I've ever had". He plunged his incisors into a thin red waxy skin, piercing it with a crisp popping sound and letting a stream of sweet juice run down his chin and drip onto his shirt. She looked up and smiled, revealing a perfect row of even ivory teeth. This sent shivers down his spine, and he felt hairs stand on the back of his neck. There was something about that smile that made him uneasy. With semi squinting icy grey eyes unchanged by the smile and transfixed on him in a way a predator might eye its prey, it was primal and cold, almost animalistic.All of a sudden, there was nothing. With a vertigo-like sensation of a failing vestibular system, a blanket of darkness fell over his eyes, immersing him into a complete and perfect nothingness, his brain buzzing with electrical connections going haywire. Unable to be supported by weakened joints, his limp body slowly folded onto the ground.***********When John woke up, he was laying in his bed on top of the cove

Why Me
I am not much of a blogger but I love to conversate and seeing how this is a way to do it on here, here goes! Why me ask yourself why did you accept and or pick me as a friend. Did you read the about me section or just on looks alone was your choice made, for the record im okay with either but I find the latter a tad more ego boosting lol hey im Italian how people percive my looks is important:). Moving on if you read what little I have put in and then decided than thank you as well, its not that im lazy or dont want you to know but this is my like 4 th go around in this place, and its just gets old having to put everything in again. However for the record on why I picked you I always read the profile if there is one but I wont lie as im scanning looks do get my attention. So if you want to know more about Why me and there is a lot to know I assure you then please start a conversation and what easier way is there than to have somthing to ask:). see ya!

Listen Up
For the record, I AM NOT HERE FOR SEX. If you can't respect that then you don't belong on my page. I'm here to meet new people and maybe I'll meet someone I can care for but I will not have cyber,cam,or phone sex,so don't ask.It does nothing for me and I respect myself way too much to go that low. Just because I might find you attractive doesn't mean I want to have sex with you on here,so forget it.If this is harsh,I'm sorry but this is my feelings on the subject. God bless, Princess

Booking & Promotions
After a brief hiatus from the scene, I'm fully enjoying being back on stage rocking out for our fans and friends every weekend. But I've noticed that some things have changed and they indicate a bad trend... one I've seen played out in L.A. years ago to the point of absurdity. I guess I'll open up with a question and I'd like you all to answer as honestly as possible... speak your real thoughts and feelings on the matter, not what you think others want to hear. Question: Whos responsibility is it to fill up a bar or club, the establishment itself or the bands they hire? My opinion - These venues should have a game plan of their own. Drink specials, the best bartenders, great service, nice atmosphere, cool regulars, clean bathrooms, etc. and be able to draw people to their place based on that type of stuff alone. But recently the trend is "we only book bands that can draw X number of people on any given night" and to me that's backwards thinking. It's also taking advantage

Lover Of The Dark
Review From Athena Press This is the review I was sent for the book I wrote Lover of the Dark is a short novel that displays a considerable sweep of the imagination. Its best feature- or this i how it struck the reader, being an enthusiast for the vampire novel, which was popular long before Buffy, and will be long after - is its readability and fluid narrative. It is also creepily sexy. Eljacee uses an approach that embraces, among other elements, a highly induvidual creative fantasy, as a resault has produced a very workable example of a popular genre Like many a writer before and after, she uses the creative imagination coupled with a good use of language to develope a metaphor of the human predicament of today. But the figures that inhabit this landscape are believably ourselves, they are not the creatures of science fiction or fantasy literature, although they inhabit an invented land of magic realism..What they certainly are, and what their environment d

My Soulmate
I sit here in the darkness waiting for the light knowing patience is the only option wishing we were together again oh to feel your arms wrapped around me the taste of your sweet kiss how i wish i could gaze into your eyes once again how i wish your heart still belonged to me the choice is forever yours do you want me to stay and be with you or do you want me to leave forever never to darken your doorstep again never to have that light back in my life the pressure builds inside butterflies turn my stomach in knots hoping you will make the choice that i want to hear with the distance that keeps us apart realizations come tumbling in at this moment in time i know we are meant to be you are my soulmate, my one and only if not you, then i want no other no one else will be able to fill the void in my heart only your sweet words of kindness and love can return the spark back into a flame that i know is hidden deep down for in my heart i know we are meant to be so with these final words i let

Pinocchio
Pinocchio talks to Gepetto: - Daddy my dick is all jagged and crooked so I have no success with girls. - You know, my son, I didn’t care too much about that detail, but that should not be a problem. Go to the shop, take a sandpaper and fix it. After some time, Gepetto asks Pinocchio: - Well, did you resolve the problem with the girls? - Daddy, since I got the sandpaper who needs the girls anymore.

Hope U Havin A Good Day
1. Bring a cell phone and order a pizza when the judge starts talking. 2. Bring a zip-lock bag full of grapes and launch a few at the defendant when the judge isn't looking. 3. Giggle uncontrollably when they show the evidence, if any blood is present. 4. If they ever bring up the possibility of an accomplice, duck your head and quiver. 5. Stand up and yell "OBJECTION!" to everything the judge says. EVERYTHING. 6. If you're the defendant, wait until the judge starts talking about you. Proceed to hide under your table. 7. If anybody attempts to communicate with you in any way, stare off into space and blow spit bubbles. 8. Sing "The Song That Never Ends" incessantly. 9. Get the judge to look at you. Lick your lips and motion that you'll "call him" 10. Actually call him 11. Bring a kazoo. 12. Act like you're doing something important, and ask them to "keep it down" 13.

Awwwwwwww
he reads her blog with adorationas his cock thickens with anticipationshe smiles and feels warmth in her heartas she knows that this is only the starthe is humbled by her beauty and sweetnessand knows that she really is his only weakness!

Looking (song)
Driving down this road tonight,Can't get you out of my sights,Gettin away from all the fright,Going to you before the night.Strolling down the avenue,Wishing all my dreams came true,Just want life to act like glue,and put me right next to you.I'm thinking of you baby,You're driving my mind crazy.My thoughts are never hazy.You're my one and only baby.In your arms and in your eyes,I can see past any lies,Just keep me close by your side,and we can have a wild ride.I crave the feeling of your touch,You have me wrapped up in your clutch,I just want to see this through,Heaven is hell without you.

Kidney Failure
Has anyone had Kidney Failure ? If so, what does it feel like ? I recently had a Kidney Stone. Since then till 3 days ago I would breath deep and feel something pop in my side. Now the popping feeling has been replaced by a constant pain in my side. Which feels like I been punched.

Evil
I never had to say goodbye You must have known I wouldn't stay While you were talking about our life You killed the beauty of today Forever and ever Life is now or never Forever never comes around You never heard me break your heart You didn't wake up when we died Since I was lonely from the start I think the end is mine to write Forever and ever Life is now or never Forever never comes around People love and let go Forever and ever Life is now or never Forever's gonna slow you down You'll never see me again So now who's gonna cry for you You'll never see me again No matter what you do You'll never see me again So now who's gonna cry for you You'll never see me again No matter what you do I never had to say goodbye You must have known I wouldn't stay While you were talking about our life You killed the beauty of today Forever and ever Life is now or never Forever never comes around People love and let go Fo

Days Go By
We are down to 5 more days until I leave town, to go to my Slot Tournament in West Wendover, NV. My grandparents are going to go out with me, which means my grandpa will drive! Why does it make me happy to know they are going with me and grandpa will be driving? Well my sister just gave me Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol, and with someone else doing the driving I can read! I don't know how much I really like the idea that they will be there, because that means if I do come across some guy I will kind of have to sneak him into my room. But hey like that will truly happen. Other then the count down to my birthday and trip, I haven't been doing much then studying and going to class. I have two more test to take before the stuff starts getting hard! Ahhhhh!!!!! *LOL* Everything is going to be alright, though, I have a great teacher who is able and willing to answer and questions I have on things I do or do not understand. Family life is slowly starting to get into a routine so

The Killing Dance
in the midst of loving deaththe warmth of such re'surring breaththe end it seemsthe only wayfor our two soulsforever stayin satan's romance; razor bladesblood's eternal - never fadeslike demon dreams of red romanceour souls now there:the killing dance ©DS 1975

Succubus
The sin inside your head, eventual demise;I come to you at night and crawl inside your mind;I'm here to corrupt; to put your soul in compromise,Just let me put your whole existence in a bind.Succumb yourself to the immortal creaturesThere is no need to try and fight;The darkness will erase my features,You'll never see what came to you at night;The carnal feast will leave your body limpid,The moments of your weakness run like bloodline through my veinsI'll drain your body of the lifesaving liquidAnd take you to a place where darkness reignsMy passion is like phoenix rising,I'll seize the night, and lead the way;But now I see the bloody gleam on the horizonAlas! I'm due to slowly fade away...

Vorel.
So I've been thinking about messing around with my fursona a bit.I've already decided on her piercings and tatto, but i don't know if i want to give her markings or just leave her solid black.Ideas?As for her stats..Height- 7ftWeight- 145Chest- 38DWaist- 28hips- 37Shoe size- 9.5Age- 19Gender- FemaleEyes- GoldHair- long; usually either black or purple.Her outfits... well... Her main one is a green/black verion of my red and black one with huge bunny ears and coat tails. Her usual top will be a purple tank top with purple webbing on top (like that top in the sims two, with the collar and mesh? >.> someone hasta know what I mean!), and her pants will be purple baggy bondage jeans with black accents, or purple kik-style jeans. her shoes are usually either a pair of black combat boots with buckling up the sides, or a pair of purple/black skate-style shoes. her necklaces are usually a leather choker with an o-ring and a silver ankh on a silver chain. bracelets... usually either leather with

Feeling.........
I can't really put how I feel into words right now, all I know is that I feel empty. I'm so bummed out and blah, I can't figure this out anymore. I can't figure out what I want to do with myself, my life, I sure as hell can't figure out guys...but then again they can't figure us ladies out either. Is there really any point to even try anymore? Is it worth the risk of getting hurt even though you've been hurt too many time already. Why does every guy I meet have to be the same? They straight up tell you they like you or make you believe they do and then all of a sudden screw you over. I know guys mature at a slower rate then us, but in all honesty I doubt they'll ever grow up. You find someone who has everything in common with you, you can't wait until you wake up in the morning to talk to them, you think maybe this time it'll be different...no still the same. Its hard to be the nice girl with the great personality, the cute girl who would do anything for anyone, the girl who sees the b

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Dana IV said: I personally don't see what other places on Fubar are conducive to conversation other than the MuMMs and Blogs. Chats are a dime a dozen and that's what lounges are. The mafia game bulllshit is all over the fucking internet and I'm sick of seeing it. I'm meme'd out. ~joseph™ said: I like fubar for the instantaneous commentary etc. Since I have a 30 inch monitor I like to muli task with several windows opened to me for work or socializing! Dana IV said: Don't front. You look like a skeezy real estate goober who tries to dress like Bob Guccione and talk out of his ass all day while you're *not* selling houses. You also look like you do coke. Your photos are an adventure in comedy, because you've managed to morph your face into so many scenes of unreality, it staggers the mind. The absolute sack it took to paste your civilian mug complete with male cosmetics on the body of an Army MSG blows me away. Your partisan bullshit non-MuMMs suck so much ass, it's

My Old Poem Done Bye My Dear Friend Firestar I Still Love It.
RainShe cries upon the world with her tears of pain and sorrow.A heart so full of love and compassion for all, ButLost to why all doesn’t see her or feel her hidden desire for love to belong within all.I stand under her tears like rain,I feel and know her pain, so I cry to her pain.Rain, oh sweet rain forgive me not caring enough.Let me show that life is truly can be free from all this death and destruction of reality.Let the sweet rain fall no more from your heavenly eyes.If rain must fall than Let it fall for joy and hope.Rain oh sweet rain forgive those, who can see.Touch them with your loving embrace with your sweet tears like rain.Guide them back to the path of reality.Sweet rain…Oh sweet rain,Please cry no more unless its for happiness and rejoice that love has a found a way.Rain upon me.Let me hold you close to my heart.Let me know that your tears embrace me with love and happiness.Rain falling from her heavenly eyes of sorrow,Please weep no more.Rain….Can yo

Beautiful
You are beautiful because you have a heartAnd that is a beautiful thing You are beautiful because you have a brainAnd that is a beautiful thing You are beautiful because You give adviceAnd that is a beautiful thing You are beautiful because God made You that wayYou are beautiful because in my eyes THERE IS NO ONE MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN YOU You are beautiful because you have confidence You are beautiful because you have determination and wit You are beautiful because you have goals and you plan to reach them You are beautiful because you are always there to lend a helping hand You are beautiful because God made you beautiful Master Perverted One

40 Mistakes Men Make While Having Sex
NOT KISSING FIRST Avoiding her lips and diving straight for the erogenous zones makes her feel like you’re paying by the hour and trying to get your money’s worth by cutting out nonessentials. A proper passionate kiss is the ultimate form of foreplay. BLOWING TOO HARD IN HER EAR Admit it, some kid at school told you girls love this. Well, there’s a difference between being erotic and blowing as if you’re trying to extinguish the candles on your 50th birthday cake. That hurts. NOT SHAVING You often forget you have a porcupine strapped to your chin which you rake repeatedly across your partner’s face and thighs. When she turns her head from side to side, it’s not passion, it’s avoidance. SQUEEZING HER BREASTS Most men act like a housewife testing a melon for ripeness when they get their hand on a pair. Stroke, caress, and smooth them. BITING HER NIPPLES Why do men fasten onto a woman’s nipples, then clamp down like they’re try

I Want To Feel That I Lived My Life
It is now that life is mineI have gotten a moment here on earth and my longing has brought me here what I have missed and what I have got Still it is the way I chose my confidence far beyond the wordsthat has shown a little bit of heaven I never reached I want to feel that I am alive all the time that I have shall I live as I want I want to feel that I am alive know that I am enough I have never forgotten who I was I have just let it sleepperhaps I had no choice only the will to exist I want to live happyfor that I am I be strong and free see how the night turns into day I am here and my life is only mine and the heaven I thought could be shall I find somewhere I want to feel that I lived my life

The Quiz
You look nice alrightAnd I like the way you nod after everything I sayLike it actually means something to you And I like your record collectionTownes and Jens with a hint of Rickie LeeAnd you've cleaned up the bathroom, made a really nice soupbut a bit too much sci-fi in your shelf with DVD's But there are things you need to know about meI'm weak right now, so weak right nowI need proof before I dare to open this heartSo I've prepared a quiz for youWould you freak out if I said I liked you?Do you walk the line?Is your IQ higher than your neighbours?And is it very much higher than mine ?Can you sleep when I grind my teeth?Do you look away if I slob when I eat?Will you let me be myself?Can you at all times wear socks? Because I'm still scared of feet.Do you talk in the middle of Seinfeld?Do you read more than two books a month?Do you get racist or sexist when you've had a few?Is it fine if I make more money than you?Have you slept with any people I work with?Is there anyone you'd rather

Washed Away
I'm falling, sinking way down deep I'm lost, alone and I can't sleep like waves, I rip and get sucked in then crash, real hard and then I spin I'm lost alone and it's my friends I lack you saw me leave but didn't help me back my wall is up and will not drop the pain is strong and will not stop I cry, some tears to void the pain like rain, they fall but I'm still insane I drift, way out and it's too late I'm free, at last! but it's not my fate...

Eh, More Writing...
Fireworks,flashlight,anything that brightens up the night.We trickle candle massand stick like candy flossto what feels right.Cavemen,trilobites,history is greedy, guard your rights.I rewind for primal want,but nonchalant you speakfrom holy heights.I heard you say I'll die for you

Suffering Silence
Anxiety overwhelming sanity Obsession falling from vanity Anger ruling over humanity Depression harnessing my own profanity Repetative actions that cease to quit Agonizing patterns I will not admit Intimate letters of stranded fit Seeking definitions of blank unused wit Reality shattering to keen stabbing shards Insanity and reason rolling dice, playing cards Light retreating as darkness regards Pistols of paranoia sinking deep to hearts reward Sorrow of helplessness twisted to fate Clouded blue eyes of hysteria await Hallucinating scenes of a false soulmate A life of perspective, whom all underrate Desecrate

A Big Issue That Has Popped Up On Me
As some of you know I'm a Nurse. Well I went for my yearly. And they done a Ekg and found some issues with it. And had me go in and have a echocardiogram done and we found out that my, the pulmonary or pulmonic valve is between the right ventricle and the pulmonary artery. I've have a leak in it. At this time we are unsure when they will fix it. Or if it can be fix. I have to see another Heart specialists and then I will know more of when I see him or her. I know alot of ppl have had this kind of surgery and be fine. Seening that alot of my friends and family are here on Fu. Me and a few others thought it would be best if I blogged to tell you all at once. I will keep you all updated as I know how things are rolling out on this . Thank you ....... And Please don't look at me any differnet I'm still the same camo. Just a sick camo. muahs

Wtf
why is it when family looks at you different when you start to grow up and make your own choices and then they get pissed when those choises arent the ones they would make? take my wife, shes not anything like the rest of my family she grew up in the city and has her own mind. she dosent serve me. we are a team. my family cant accept this. and thats how i was taught by them. hell i dont understand. are women there to be our servants or are we susposed to be complementary of each other as husband and wife? i love my wife but my so called family cant understand our relationship. wtf. am i wrong.

The Person Behind The Name.
As my name suggests i am my Dungeon Masters slut, i am only for Him and Him alone. We have been together now for four months and it has been the most eye opening months of my life. I have come to terms with who i am and why i have been it hiding it all of these years. It all started when i was 14 years old and i would be hanging out with my friends and we would go out for walks in the night around our community. Most of my friends are older than me and knew older guys that would come around. We would get in the car with them and go off drinking with them. As the night would continue a guy and i would leave the car and go somewhere somewhat private and would have sex, i would be with the same guy for a few times and then would move on to another guy. When i was 15 i met my now ex husband. I was with him until i was 24, i wasnt very satisfied in my relationship with him. It was always about him getting his rocks off and leaving me to my own devices, which was far better than what h

Why The Fuck Am I Posting This
continued mumm:now I'm getting thrown on me his contemplations of suicide and I'm not really sure how to take things. Not that I am going to be suggesting to follow through with such negativity, I was wondering what would be a good way to commit suicide. Is a quick, anticipated death better or is a long drawn out death better, such as taking a bunch of pills and drinking alcohol in the tub?

Party Party Party Party
I could bartely sleep waiting for our party to start the next night. Me and Sam cleaned up the place and my friend went out and bought a bunch of new toys for us girls to play with after they lose their virginity, I just know we are going to have a huge orgy afterwards. Anyway......the time finally arrived and the four girls from our posse showed up wearing barely anything at all, that was a good sign that party was going to be awesome, the two guys showed up and my friend took them to his study until it was time to fuck!!!!! Then the virgins arrived, I was a lil disappointed when only 10 of them showed up, really only 9 from the orginal group but one of them brought her step-sister with her.....anyway it didn't matter if we only had 10 girls it was still going to be a fuck fest!!!!! We poured drinks for the girls and we chatted a bit to ease their nerves, since it was sam's and my party, we got to choose the 3 girls we wanted, we took sue and also her step sister sara, then megan