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Yo.
My blog is ranked 58th on Fubar... I have nothing interesting to say... Sup wit dat? Oh yeah, check mah status :p and I have noticed that since I deleted a certain fubarian that some of my so called friends have become nonexistant and some people are going to be deleted.

I Lay Myself Bare
Walk away Don't look back I'm laying myself bare For all to see The whispers surround me Like wind through the trees Not understandable But making sense I'm laying myself bare I can't take the hidden shame The bottled up emotions Everything has been inside For far to long Open up your eyes Look at ME Not my face Not my walls ME Just accept me the way I am Not as someone I'm not I can't keep living a lie I can't live as a mannequin A fake doll Having a suffocating Plaster mask Isn't how I was meant to live So I'll shed this skin Like old used clothes I'll shed this person Who isn't ME You all want me to be Someone I'm not I only want to be MYSELF How can I live In a costume? How can I live A lie? So, I lay myself bare I'll finally show the real me I put down this mask It's stifling and unsatisfying I take off this skin It's uncomfortable and fake I lay myself bare For everyone to see Accept ME as I AM For: Dorsey

Rest In Peace
WHAT A STORY!!!! Ed Freeman You're a 19 year old kid. You're critically wounded, and dying in the jungle in the Ia Drang Valley , 11-14-1965, LZ X-ray, Vietnam . Your infantry unit is outnumbered 8 - 1, and the enemy fire is so intense, from 100 or 200 yards away, that your own Infantry Commander has ordered the MediVac helicopters to stop coming in. You're lying there, listening to the enemy machine guns, and you know you're not getting out. Your family is 1/2 way around the world, 12,000 miles away, and you'll never see them again. As the world starts to fade in and out, you know this is the day. Then, over the machine gun noise, you faintly hear that sound of a helicopter, and you look up to see an un-armed Huey, but it doesn't seem real, because no Medi-Vac markings are on it... Ed Freeman is coming for you. He's not Medi-Vac, so it's not his job, but he's flying his Huey down into the machine gun fire, after the Medi-Vacs were ordered not to come. He's coming anyway. And he d

Colors Of Her Soul
Red Passionate, Intense Compassionate, Warmth Anger LOVE Green Quiet, Hidden Gentle, caressing Envious CARING Yellow Bright, Cheerful Happy, Bubbly Mask SHINING Grey Cold, Broken Grief, Sorrow Gone LONELY Blue Deep, mysterious Unknown, Proud Collected LOVABLE Purple Royal, majestic Beauty, poise Insecure BEAUTIFUL Rainbow of her soul Only look past the blue To see the amazing rainbow She hides from the world Making me special Because I can see The amazing person Underneath You should look too See the rainbow Her beautiful rainbow

The Time Of The End
The Time of the End--DANIEL 121 "At that time Michael, the archangel* who stands guard over your nation, will arise. Then there will be a time of anguish greater than any since nations first came into existence. But at that time every one of your people whose name is written in the book will be rescued.2 Many of those whose bodies lie dead and buried will rise up, some to everlasting life and some to shame and everlasting disgrace.3 Those who are wise will shine as bright as the sky, and those who lead many to righteousness will shine like the stars forever.4 But you, Daniel, keep this prophecy a secret; seal up the book until the time of the end, when many will rush here and there, and knowledge will increase."

Lap-by-lap: Talladega
2:22 p.m.—GREEN FLAG: Juan Montoya, for the first time in his career, brings the field to the green and the Aaron's 499 is under way. Lap 1—Juan Montoya leads the first lap as the inside line takes control early. Lap 2—There is now three lanes as the middle groove takes shape. Lap 3—Juan Montoya continues to lead as the top five pulls away from the field. Lap 5—LEAD CHANGE: Dale Earnhardt Jr. grabs the lead with help from Denny Hamlin. Lap 6—LEAD CHANGE: Juan Montoya gets back out front but it's short lived. Lap 7—YELLOW FLAG NO. 1/LEAD CHANGE: The Big One comes early as Matt Kenseth and Jeff Gordon get together causing the No. 24 to go around collecting Casey Mears, Jamie McMurray, David Gilliland, Clint Bowyer, Kevin Harvick, Kurt Busch, Elliott Sadler, Carl Edwards, David Gilliland, Scott Riggs, Brian Vickers, Mark Martin, A.J. Allmendinger and Kasey Kahne. David Ragan is the leader. Scott Speed gets the free pass. Lap

To All Who Wish To Read
being real means being you even when it's hard to do it means standing out even when people don't want you too it means crying for the right reasons and living life, the life you know must be lived it means if you make friends they are there because they are true to you,for you,because of you knowing what you love to do and not be ashamed of it because in that very shame is the same as not accepting who you are and being real means accepting the after, because after everything is said and done you want to know you got somewhere the right way

Psycho
So now that I finally got my wknds back, I am going to be active in my urban exploration group again. On Saturday I am going to an abandoned hosp in Chicago, probably at around 7 or 8ish. I am meeting with this guy from the group (the only person who is not flaking out on me), and while I know that he wants to get into my pants, he is the only person who is willing to go there with me (since its a lil dangerous). I am not worried about him, but hope there are no homeless ppl or cops there...

Big Daddy Punk A$$ Scammer
¨^»BÌG·ÐÁÐÐY«¨a™@ fubar This fine example of what should have been tossed into the wastebasket at a sleezy motel owes a friend of mine 75,000 fubucks for picture rates from 2 days ago. I know that 75K is not a huge amount of fubucks but I also know that alot of time goes into rating over 400 pics in one setting. So maybe we can show this scum some appreciation for his lack of effort to pay his debt. Much luv to the haterz and even more to my friends, REFORMED STAFFER X

Fuck You And Your Salute
I don't normally troll too many other blogs, but one caught my eye. Some little bitch crying about how people here don't care about her and, dammit, she is just going to throw a little tantrum and leave. I figure I'll post a very caring and sensitive message: "For fucks sake, you are 22 and female - get out and go enjoy yourself. Go to a bar. Go to a club. Go meet some actual people and quit spending "so much time and money" on any retarded site. Maybe you don't have any legs and can't go dancing so you don't want to go out. At least move your wheelchair back and forth and maybe you can meet real friends. Maybe you have no arms and can't clap to your favorite band so you don't want to go out. Learn to fucking whistle. People will think you look like that Venus Di Milo statue and will dig it. Maybe you have no head, which really explains why you stay online all the time. In that case you are pretty much fucked. Log off and go outside. Go speak to someone without using your keyboard and

That B*tch
ok so i was re-rating my hubbys pics and i always like to read what some of u silly girl have to say to him... and one of our friends commented on a pic that wasn't his wife(his net gf)and said she was beautiful i was like no shes not shes a home wrecker,that fucked up on lives because she has/had a unhealthy marriage. so she thought she would fuck someones Else's marriage up.yes ours wasn't perfect but i was depress and i needed a lil help. but that doesn't mean go fine some other girl and make her ur gf... it mean u go and find help for the one u love and support her with all u got. i forgave him but i will HATE her ...maybe im still hurt but damn the man that I LOVE them most likes to talk to some other girl that he has never seen, then to me his wife. im the one that pampers him and does whatever takes to make him happy not her and yet shes the one that gets the"I LOVE YOU" WTF.he shows he loves me but when he realize hes doing it he stops fast. so am i wrong for feeling a lil

Tomorrow's Funeral
Tomorrow's Funeral If you could see inside my soul,Would you like what you see?I look at myself and knowThis isn't how it should beTomorrow is just another dayJust like the one beforeI stumble and fallAs they each cast the first stoneI follow this trail of bloodLeading myself back home Tomorrow's funeral started back in eighty threeJust another long sermonOf how things in life should beThe choir boy lights another candleWithout realizing this is where joy endsSo much more than he could ever handleHe never knew this is where it begins Tomorrow's heart failureMy permission to lead into the after lifeDeath after life, I've lost my composureDecomposing everything they said.I'd do anything just to start overAnother dead man's ballet on his death-bed.Torn apart by an artifical sadnessI've done all I can doTomorrow, I'll give in to the madness

One Of The Best Monologues?
Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, so let me simply add that it's my very good honour to meet you and you may call me V.

Everybody's Fool
Perfect by nature Icons of self indulgence Just what we all need More lies about a world that Never was and never will be Have you no shame? Don't you see me? You know you've got everybody fooled Look here she comes now Bow down and stare in wonder Oh how we love you No flaws when you're pretending But now I know she Never was and never will be You don't know how you've betrayed me And somehow you've got everybody fooled Without the mask, where will you hide? Can't find yourself lost in your lie I know the truth now I know who you are And I don't love you anymore It Never was and never will be You don't know how you've betrayed me And somehow you've got everybody fooled It never was and never will be You're not real and you can't save me Somehow now you're everybody's fool

Who Wants To Be Bombed?
Ok I am FINALLY going to do it.... im going to run my Cherry Bomb tonight during the 8pm Fu-time Happy Hour. Please leave me a comment if u want to be bombed!!!!! TY TY TY TY TY TY TY TY TY!!!!! TY to everyone that has helped me get this far i really really appreciate it. HUGZZ AND MUAHHZZZ!!!!

Untitled
People often call me crazy and to this I simply reply Thank you very kindly I dont even have to try For me it comes quite easily I'm not bothered by it nor will I cry I see it as a compliment Now let me tell you why Most people do not think before they speak Most people believe in a bunch of lies Most people like to think they are religious But are heathens just as I Most people watch too much television Cant read a book past the first few lines Most people follow the lives of celebrities The only business I care about is mine If sanity is measured by most people's standards Crazy suits me just fine Cling to your antiquated ideals Live your fabricated lives

Reflection
Familiar lines and slopes Eyes that say I know That woman in the water Looking back at me A ghostly recognition Her heart was beating On her sleeve A pretty white blouse Thick With the blood of life Youth written on her face Each smile Every shy glance The light of hope Fire burning in her eyes Her rebellious need to dream Oozing from every pore To escape, run Turning into everything she imagined No fear of failure Remember being her once Just for a moment Before I settled Packing my dreams away in the closet And putting my heart in the fridge Change must come My repentance Fear and indifference cast aside My heart beating once again Dreams flowing through my veins I pray she forgives me Happy to have seen her here today To draw me from my misery So I could recognize myself Embracing lost beauty

N.f.a.
N.F.A. stands for No Fukin Aroun. and all this means is to stand up for a set of morals and ethics. no matter what the cost. have honor in your country women children and GOD. dont think that you can get respect with an iron fist. when you EARN IT. own up to what you did pay for it and dont bitch about it. forget about all the drama and the he said she said bullshit. you know i hope that somone will read this and i am not just typing for nothing. tell me how you really feel.

Men
I am so fuckin tired of this whole "you are married, so you can't talk to men, you can't talk to guy friends on the phone, etc" Being that women dont want to have ANYTHIN to do with me, I am kinda stuck with men folk as friends. And I love it. I dont have to talk shoes, shopping, kids, childcare, other pointless BS crap that I hate. Yeah, I talk to numerous guys, online and on the phone. I am all alone at work all night, and its nice to talk to someone human. Does it make me a whore? slut? sure, if you want to view me that way. I am pretty sure I dont give a fuck what random strangers think about me, so its all good. Peoples shallowness and stupidity boggle me... Like the dude that posted a mumm about his wife talkin to guys. I guess he assumes that ppl of opposite sex can only talk about how they wanna bang each other? wtf? I am tired of this shit, its old.

Prom Queen
"Prom Queen"[Verse 1:]I loved her fancy underwearI sit behind her every yearWaitin' for the chance to getTo tell her I'm the one she should be withShes popular with all the guysSo innocent in my eyeI could see her in my lifeshe would've had the world if she were mine[Bridge:]But see she had other plansI could not understandHer and her stupid friendsVarsitys biggest fansNever forget the dayShe laughed and walked awayAnd I couldn't stop herI guess she had it all[Chorus:]She had it all figured outBut she left me with a broken heartFucked around and turned me downCause she didn't think I could play the partBut now the prom queen, the prom queenIs crying sittin outside of my doorShe never know howHow everything could turn around[Verse 2:]They loved her fancy underwearEvery boyfriend every yearShe tried to keep em entertainedWhen they can hardly remember her nameShe did everything she could just toTo make him love and treat her goodShe found herself aloneAsking herself where did she go wrong

The Contest You Didnt Know You Were In.....
~work~ presents the 15 minute Fan Add Rate Blitz! At random times during Happy Hour, I will put up "15 minute friends blitz" in my status. During the next 15 minutes, I will be hitting random profiles from the scroller bar to F.A.R. . One of those people that hit me back in a shout or PM or gift message, will get at least 100 pics rated with at least 10's ( I am famous for my manual 10's, ask around lol), and get a bulletin with a link to their profile naming them the winner. It's the contest you didn't know you were in! Feel free to comment and send me your fubucks. Dave AKA ~work~

The Ballad
The Ballad Where the moonlight meets the waterOn a path of light,She was sitting on a river bank,Tears like diamonds sparkled in the night.She already knew without himLife could never be the same,When she heard his voice coming from below-He was softly calling out her name.Come with me,Join the waves at last;We will always be together,Just like in the pastCome with meTake the pain awayLet the river help us meet again todayFirst she thought that she was dreaming,As she looked in from above;To her mind then came his last dying words:“Someday we will meet again, my love.”Since the day his life was takenShe was living in the past.Now that Lord just gave her another chance,She will be with him again at last.Come with me,Join the waves at last;We will always be together,Just like in the pastCome with me,Take the pain away,Let the rive help us meet todayWhere the moonlight meets the waterOn a path of light,She was layng on a river bank,Weeping willows held her body tightShe alrea

Birch
birch tree, I see you stand all aloneIn a clearing, so far removed from others.You strive to belong in the woods with them,To be among your sisters and your brothersBut strong roots keep holding you down to the ground,All you can do is tilt your head and flail your armsHoping they will see your struggle, come to you,But they are attached as well, and can't abandon their realmsAs days and nights go by, you hear them whisper in the wind.You want to share your dreams at night, and celebrate beginnings of each day;But distance is too big, and they can't hear;You look at them with tired eyes, and quietly wonder what they sayThe day is coming to an end,The clearing and the forest stand in the darkYour green head is tilted down, you feel defeat,And clear bitter sap is running down your bark.You fall asleep and see the dreamsOf standing in the woods, with theirs your branches intertwine.You feel the wind caress your leaves,And bring your soul a little closer to divine.At night the clouds gathe

Napalm.
I am so damn bored. Job hunting is going terribly and one of my cats needs to go to the vet. Sure, the army pays me but Reservists get screwed over. We get no benifits, the pay sucks... Still though, it's work.

Mistake I Can Not Take Away
When the life got messed up all these little troubles appeared from somewhere You are losing your hope You are losing your faith Look up at the sky and think Life would be much easier if every time we made a mistake everything would be erased clean Would we ever learn anything Would we learn not to hurt others? When life is getting hard and you know it is your own fault Don't run away from things don't find solutions from escape The truth will never burn in fire it will come up, sooner or later When it is time to fight for your life cowards run away in the first moment The brave ones will fight for the last Don't abandon your boat captain it is not the boat's fault you went in the wrong direction

Carrousel
..................We ............Always hurt .....Those we love the best Does their love mean so little? Is that the way of true love- ....That our hearts feel safe ..........With those we ................Trust? .................Her .............Beautiful ...Smile cracked and fell flat As his wild words crushed her chest Tears screamed in silent protest ....Bleeding tears of love ........From her deep ...............Well ...............He ........Saw her pain ...And his heart twisted Turning blue with shameful guilt His anger had no place here ....He held her closely .......Please forgive ..............Me ...............His .......Words caressed ......Wiping away tears .Soothing her with his kisses She knew the beast would return ......Her heart swelled again ..............I forgive ................You ..................We ............Always hurt .....Those we love the best Does their love mean so little? Is that the way of true love- ....Th

Carolina Bike Rally April 25-26
News reel from this weekends Carolina Bike Rally Smooth riding for motorcycle rally that brought thousands to area April 26, 2009 - 5:43 PM With no known community complaints or law enforcement troubles, this weekend's Carolina Bike Rally was a "huge success," organizers said. The rally, held for the first time in Onslow County, was easily the second largest in the state, trumped only by Cherokee's annual Survivors Motorcycle Rally, said Mark Infield, editor of Full Throttle, a magazine for motorcycle enthusiasts. More than 5,000 bikers registered at the rally held at Cabin Creek Campground on U.S. 17 and an estimated 8 to 10,000 more bikers were in the area for the event, said chief organizer Steve Winsett. Not surprisingly, the rally was a real boon to the nearby New River Harley-Davidson. But sales manager Tracy Murphy said the opportunity exists to turn the rally into a yearly economic boost to the area. "I'd like to see it catch on and other businesses get involved,

This, That And The Other
Alrighty folks...I want your input again. More lovely and witty ladies for confessions (they need to have clear, good photos) and people in service for the 'we salute you' (this includes, firemen, policemen, etc.) Also, let me know what you think about the FWord and what you would like to see change. We need your opinions for FuApproved. Bring 'em!

Huggable,loveable,kissable Jen
I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH JEN'S SISTER MARY,And The Kids Are Doing Ok.. She Has The Kids And They Are Going To Stay With Her. Everyone is in a state of disbelieve And Waiting To Find Out Excatly What Happened.. Except What Is Going On In Their Heads As To What Happened.. We Talked Abt How Jen Made Everyone Laugh And Smile. And,That Jen Was Talking Abt How She Was Going To Get Her Arm Better And Was Looking Forward To The Last Surgery To Be Done On The 30th.. She Was Looking To Buy A House Out In Lake Orion,To Be Near Her Sister & Family.. Mary And Jen Went Shopping At Wal-mart One Day,And They Must Walked Around And Looking At Things And Realized That They Were There For Three Hours.. Mary Said That Was One Of Jen's Favorite Thing To Do..(Just Looking At Things). Jen,Liked Looking At The Deer When She Would See One.. Her Mom Was The Same Way.. Jen Loved The Nature And The Wildlife. As Soon As I Find Out More,I Will Have Another Update.. Please Keep Jen And Her Family In Your Tho

Native
Wake up in a land of dreams, enchanted with mountains hollows and streams, Where morning sun becomes your friend, And the gentle breezes of the four winds whisper for the day to begin. An eagle and a hawk soon soar above, While well below are the calls of robins and doves. A whitetail deer heads home on an early morning trail, While young squirrels spend the day hiding behind trees as they chase each others tails. On a lazy afternoon in the mountains a black bear takes a nap, After a delicious meal of ants and termites and a dessert of honey sap. For a moment evening sun sits on a mountain top before he descends down, And pretty soon native night creatures will be the only sounds. Then the mountains become covered with a smoky mist, As nature gives the land a good-night kiss. Every star is lit as they sparkle throughout the night, And treetops dance in the water with shadows by the

I Dont Call Him Daddy
November 2001 just a month after 9/11 while the nation was still in shock I was sitting on the back deck of my parents house with my father trying to absorb what he was saying to me while still in shock myself after learning in late September that the man I thought would never die was doing just that. He was diagnosed with stage 3/4 lung cancer and was given 3 months to live 6 if he was lucky with treatment. My father being the way he was surprised me when he came to me and asked if I wanted him to have the treatment if I needed him to live longer he was worried about my feelings about everyone but himself. He was asking almost begging for my permission to die looking him in the eye I could see how weary he was. How old he looked at the young age of 56 as if he had lived two lifetimes and wasn't ready to live a third. I said to him almost without hesitation don't you for one second feel guilty about leaving me behind you raised me to be strong and that is what I will do I will be str

Blah Blah Blah.. Read If U Want
I AmA GF ,A SISTER,A DAUGHTER,AND A B~I~T~C~H! LOLI Want$$$$$$, AND MY OWN HOUSEI HaveA BUSY LIFEI WishI WAS SOMEPLACE ELSEI HateHMMMM, LIARS AND LAZY PEOPLEI FearDYINGI HearVOICES IN MY HEAD,LOL, I LUV to listen to my baby sing to meI SearchGOOGLE ALL OF THE TIME FOR ANSWERS,LOL,I LIKE BEING A SMART ASSI WonderWTF THIS WORLD IS COMING TOI RegretMANY THING'S. IF I COULD GO BACK AND CHANGE A FEW THING'S I WOULDI LoveMY FAMILY AND FRIENDSI Ache? NUNYAI AlwaysCLEAN,COOK,ALWAYS DOING SOMETHINGI UsuallyDO THE SAME OLD CRAP EVERYDAYI Am NotTHE SAME PERSON I WAS YRS AGOI DanceNEVERI SingWHEN THE RADIO IS BLASTING SO NOONE CAN HEAR ME,HAHAI NeverI RarelyCRY,HAHA, I SWITCHED HERE,DID YA NOTICE?I CryRARELYI Am Not AlwaysPERFECT,BUT I TRY TO BEI LosePATIENCE,BUT NOT AS QUICKLY AS MY DAUGHTER DOESI'm ConfusedWHEN IT COMES TO FREAKEN 2 FACED PPLI NeedTO BETTER MY LIFEI ShouldGET THE HECK OUTTA BK ALREADY,LOLI DreamOF YOU BABY,LOLLLLLLLLLLLL,NOT!!!

Definition Of Love According To A 10 Year !!!
While walking one day with my 10 year old daughter she said to me Mommy will you ever get married again. Looking into her innocent blue eyes with concern in my heart as to why she was asking this question I said well I'm not sure honey why do you ask? Then she simply says I want you to be happy. Daddy was so mean to you. I want you to marry a boy (yes a boy she is 10 after all ) who gives you lots of hugs and kisses and makes you smile because your very pretty when you smile. Then just like any 10 year old she was distracted by a snail inching its way along the side walk and the conversation was over. The simplicity and honesty that we often hear from our children makes you wonder why do we make it so complicated. I learned something from my 10 year old daughter that day. I learned I cant punish all for one. That I did make the right decision to leave my husband because as much as I tried to protect her from the cruelty I endured she saw it. That I'm pretty when I smile lol. Tha

First In Line For Death
Every day while we go about our normal routine a lot of us are in a hurry to get things done. Bobbing and weaving in traffic just to get one car ahead honking at anyone who dares to not drive 15-20 miles an hour over the speed limit for fucks sake I am late get out of my way. We do this to get to the store or to our job or to drop our kids off at school or wherever it is we need to be which we left 15 minutes late for and has now become everyone else's problem. When we get to the store we have to find the closest parking space to get inside to walk down the isle taking every short cut we know to get what we need then go try and find the shortest line racing to get to it before the old lady with the 50 cans of cat food who we just know is going to write a check, pay with pennies or gasp engage the clerk in polite conversation taking up more of our precious day keeping us from getting just one car ahead. When we get to work we once again try to find the closest parking space because god

Missing You
Johannes i cant explain how much i miss you, you where my angel when things went wrong or i screwed up. My rookie year you looked out for me and constantly looked over my shoulder at everything i did. You were far more then just my instructer you became one of the kindest people i knew. No matter how many mistakes i made you always gave me a hand. You were someone who i trusted my life to on so many occasions. There were times we laughed and times we cried but no matter what we were there for one another. And i will always miss you and know that no one in this world can ever replace you for who you were and what you did.

Should I?
I am debating on if I should go to KFC and try their new grilled chicken meal? It's like 3 bucks or something for 2 pieces of chicken and a side or something.... I keep seeing it on tv......... I am bored to death.......

Running Auto 11's And Bombing
Hey y'all. I will be running Auto 11's tomorrow at 6 pm est. I will also be bombing a couple of hours later. Drop by and level up on me. I'd appreciate any and all help. Thanks y'all! I'd also like to thank my sweetie RockinBass for the Auto and bomb. Check him out and see why he's so awesome!

Sydicate Studios Studio A
SYNDICATE STUDIOS is a funky professional 48/32/24 track recording studio complex located in KANSAS CITY designed to give artists and bands a relaxed, affordable place to record with outstanding sound, at a fraction of the usual recording studio costs. - SYNDICATE STUDIOS is one of the best studios around!The space is ideal for both acoustic and electric instruments. It features over 1,500 square feet of floor space, two large isolation booths, the choice of a Yamaha C9 piano or a New York Steinway "B", and a large private artist's lounge. The control room is ideal for mixing as well as recording with its 60 input Neve VR console fitted with Flying Faders Automation and a full 5.1 surround monitoring panel. The control room monitors are custom built Waterland/TAD speakers with Hafler amps and Genelec nearfields. The studio is video ready with house sync plus video, digital distribution and WIFI. STUDIO "A"We boast a treasure chest full of the finest in classic analog equipment. Our

250 Miles On A Vespa - My Aching Taint
This weekend was our annual scooter rally, which means a ton of riding, many beers, and a sore back and taint for a week. I'm sure all you prison bitches can relate. Friday night we had a ghetto ass ride in Oakland (AKA "the hood"). We did the same ride a few years back and my buddy John dumped his 1968 Lambretta. He said he saw a dead body and it freaked him. Turned out it was a bag of garbage, but in Oakland, I'm sure it could have been a body. This year we had no such mishap. What we did have was a fucking freezing ride home at 2AM. Temp dropped to high 30s. My hand was stuck on the throttle in a sort of C-shape, like when I beat off too much. Of course the throttle was much smaller in diameter. It was so cold that I thought of just sticking my face against the engine while it was running. Saturday morning we met early and prepared for the Iron Butt ride - 125 Miles of canyons and hills and mountains. I'm sure you motorcyle riders don't think that is much, but those little 2 stroke

Sticky Note
Note to self: if you wake up in the middle and piss in an empty vodka bottle cause the bathroom is just to goddamn far away in your 900 sq. ft. two bedroom apartment then you are either a black out drunk or extremely lazy if you wake up in the middle of the night, later that same night, and piss in a half empty king cobra bottle and then drink it when you finally wake up at four in the afternoon, then please fucking tell me you remember pissing in the bottle or admit you are just a sick fuck and need to consider stopping all forms of substance abuse and if you have even a drop of self respect left in your thirty three years on this planet make sure that you try to keep these treasured moments to yourself, or at least place the information somewhere private as a reminder that the only individuals that find this shit amusing are all dead from drugs and alchohol

Got Cast Off Leg!!!!
Finally!! Still neet to use a crutch for long walks but doing good!!!! Can move the elbow and shoulder without pain. Still can't pick up anything with it yet. The tailbone on the other hand is really a pain in the, well you know. I mean there's not more I can do but sit on it!!! In the last month my Princess turned 5, my jock turned 11. My eldest who I used to think was my closest child, we go to all the hockey games, we used to talk about everything! But recently, I discovered he's having sex and smoking pot. Used the excuse I did it when I was his age!!!! I lived in AK at the time, it's legal there!!!!! He is also failing 2 classes he is good at! No wonder right!!! Girls and pot aren't good for school!!! It was all so upsetting because he has been tested and is gifted, Been reading since he was 2 1/2. One of my dearest friends told me this morning that, a great athlete wont be great if they have no drive! He should know he is a great athlete. He also told me that just because you h

Your Love Is Like A Drug
your love is like a drug. im addicted to you. times had change. its another day. but convincingly you made me take another dose of you. i cant have enough of you. please save me. i cant go another day without your love. without you its suicide. when i see your beautiful body laying in bed. i just want to rip off your lingerie and make love to you all night. your love is like suicide. without you i will kill myself.

Dont Even Know
wELL, MAYBE I NEED SUM ADVICE, IF YALL READ MY OTHER BLOGS THEN YALL ALREADY KNOW A LIL SUMTHIN ABOUT ME. HERE GOES, WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU ARE SO EMOTIONALLY HURT AND WITHDRAWN THAT WHEN A GOOD PERSON COMES ALONG, U PUSH THEM AWAY?? ANYONE?? GUYS LOVE TO SAY THAT WE LIKE GETTIN BEAT ECT ECT, BUT PPL DONT RELIZE IS THAT YOUR HEART GETS SO EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED AND UN ATTACHED U WANA KILL EM AND LOVE EM AT THE SAME TIME, NO US WOMEN dont LIKE BEIN BEAT, BUT WHEN A GOOD MAN FINALLY STARTS TO TREAT SUM1 RIGHT, WE ARE WONDERING WHAT THAT MANS INTENTIONS ARE THAT HES BEING SO NICE. WE DONT SEE IT (OR AT LEAST ME, TELL ME IF IM WRONG GIRLS) WE DONT SEE A GOOD MAN THAT WANTS "DAMAGED GOODS" WE WANA KNOW WHAT THEY ARE EXPECTING TO GET OUT OF HAVIN A FUCKED UP GIRLFRIEND. I DONT CHEAT, I DONT LIE, I MAY B 2 BRUTALLY HONEST AND ALL I EXPECT IN RETURN IS A 50/50 THANG GOIN AND HONESTY LOYALTY, FUCK THOSE MATERIALISTIC SHIT, IF YA NEED A MAN JUST FOR THOSE THINGS, GO BACK 2 SCHOOL!! U COULd say

Auto 11's For Those Of You Curious Souls
Purple-ish for mutie's benefit :P So I had a moment of unsolicited kindness...most of you know I am sort of generous when I am in the mood for it. Andy™ is on the cute side..and I love a man who isn't afraid to beg haha!! jk :P So I gave him the 11's and know I will get some extra points out of the deal. I don't do much on here anymore, but when I do I like to have the fu-monies to give gifts if I choose to. Or buy Robert from all the ladies ;) So please don't ask me if I sell them..this makes me giggle but insults me. I am not really the best point whore around nor am I seeking to earn enough fubucks to pay for a spotlight. My friends already helped me get to godfather ;) Thats more than enough for my silly ass! Have a wonderful night all of fu :P

Thank You Angels
Thank you every one who stopped by last Friday April 24th to show me your love. I was totally caught off guard and very much overwhelmed by all the support I was shown. My day stared off terrible and thought I might even be going to the hospital. But after a little rest things were better. I came on-line only to find out my real life daughter Tracie and Darklady cooked up the idea to get me to DISCIPLE. With a gift of an auto 11 from Tracie and a beautiful bulli made by DarkLady, I was set to go. And go I did! So much love poured in from so many wonderful Angels, I was in tears the better part of the day. There were ticker tapes, blasts and pimp outs, bombs from everywhere in FuLand, new friendships made, and Angels clicking away. When the auto ended, it was unbelieveable! Here are just some of the highlights: 2,441,007 POINTS EARNED 14,867 PICTURE RATES 58 BOMBS 1 TICKER TAPE 1 BLAST 5 PIMP OUTS Thanks to all you won

Feeling..i Dont Know
I went to my parents friday night to go mushroom hunting. I didn't find any but had a nice times with my parents. I am not sure how to feel though about something. My dad was sitting in his chair..just kinda.. I dont know. Like something was bothering him. I worried it was my kids..but they were fairly behaving for them. He is not one to deal with little kids and how they are though. Anyways.. he got up..and said "Nicole..comeback here with me. I was like..omg..whats this about. Anyone who knows me..knows I have always had a fear of my dad..and have always tried my best to please him. I still do. I do not know why..I am grown up now..and shouldn't worry so much about what he thinks at times but I do. My dad is a pessimist..and always looks at the bad side of things. That is why I am partly the way I am..although I try not to be so much like him. Well we went back to his spare bedroom..and he shuts the door. He said "Nicole if something should ever happen to me or your mom.. I w

Water, Rider, Everywhere
“Then sang Moses and the children of Israel this song unto the LORD, and spake, saying, I will sing unto the LORD, for he hath triumphed gloriously: the horse and his rider hath he thrown into the sea.” Chapter fifteen of the book of Exodus recaps the deliverance of the children of Israel from the clutches of the Egyptians drowned in the Red Sea (mentioned by name in verse four, and likely a tributary of it, a lake deep enough to wash the Egyptians’ feet and their chariots out from under them) in song that seems to emerge spontaneously, yet as it manifests the plan of the LORD – especially in verses fourteen through seventeen – it’s an expression of joy. I imagine people sang off key, I imagine some were weeping tears of joy so much you couldn’t make out what they were saying (remember, the original would be in Hebrew), and I imagine it was pretty awesome! While the whole song (often called the “song of Moses”) isn’t direct

Wtf
i think its bullshit when your soon to be ex wife tells her lawyer what she wants out of your settlement and shes lucky i dont go to get house that i paid for and light her ass up she wants my guns, my 990 dvds, and my moms ashes but shes not getting any of it because i sold them all to my step dad for 10 bucks that stupid bitch wants to fuck with me she has no idea who shes fucked with but she will soon find out, when i get my 72" flat screen tv with digital surround sound the sony system and my blue ray dvd player that bitch can go to fuckin hell and i want to send her there

Jenatalia!!!
Do you have feelings of inadeqacy? Do you suffer from shyness? Do you sometimes wish you were more assertive? If you answered yes to any of these questions ask your Doctor or pharmacist about Jenatalia.... http://www.youtube.com/v/Rew6On8ejNg&hl=en&fs=1&rel=0&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1"> Jenatalia is the safe natural way to feel better and more confident about yourself and your actions. Jenatalia can help ease you out of your shyness and will let you tell the world that you are ready and willing to do just about anything! You will notice the benefits of Jenatalia almost immediatly and with a regiment of regular dosage you can overcome almost any obstacle that keeps your from living the life you want to live. Shyness and awkwarness will be a thing of the past, and you will discover many talents you never knew you had . Stop hiding and start living with Jenatalia Jenatalia may not be for everyone Women who are pregnant or nursing should not try Jenatalia. Howev

Ah, Someone Elses Drama
Well as I sit here and ponder the weekends events, one particularly short but relatively eye opening scenario played out for me Friday night. On my way to Las Vegas for the umpteen-millionth time; actually as I was literally 30 miles outside of town, I got a call on my iphone (yes the one that is now MIA) from someone I have not talked to in a while because he has been hella busy working (so Im told). Well I answer the call "This is Tonya" and a very unfamiliar voice asks "You arent Tonya {some other last name than mine}" and I answered, No, Im Tonya Murray. She says, "Oh ok. Well... How do you know {insert poor fella whose girlfriend decided to randomly dial in his phone's name here} so and so?" I paused for a moment, mostly from shock I think and then answered her honestly that I knew him from a website. She then begins to drill me on how long I have known this person, how long have I been talking to him online, on the phone, etc. I really didnt know exact answers and she seemed re

Not Warning
The truth of perception lies in the beholder; lies behold the perception of truth. I have been taught that the world is a playground and that life teaches us to appreciate life...to be grateful and understand that someone out there has it much worse than I, yet at times I can't help but be a selfish prick. All knowledge has done is taught me that I don't know shit! Times like now are so unpredictable that even a mood ring will give up on me. Trying to do the next right thing and be a good person, help people that are less fortunite than me; even something as simple as trying to talk to people just to get aquainted is bullshit when all they can do is think about themselves. I try not to be like this. I don't want to be hypocritical but goddamn there has to be more to life than this. I may be rambling, anddoes it really matter if I am? Probably not. I think I'm just gonna stop here and wish that I didn't even start. And yet another wish unfulfilled. Oh well fuck it, this isn't an RPG,

I Just Had A Drive By Lol'ing ...
So I fire up the Fubar this morning and sitting in my shoutbox is a lone "lol". Nothing else. What is she lol'ing? I don't have any NSFW pics, so she's not lol'ing my manhood. "I can haz teeny peeny? Oh noes!" She didn't view my profile. So I'm guessing my unrelenting charm and sickeningly handsome appearance aren't what she's lol'ing. I suppose I might have appeared on that crawl thing at the top. So it might be a "crawl lol". I had 103 emails in my inbox at work this morning but all I can concentrate on is this. *ugh*

~thunder And Lightning~
~Thunder and Lightning~ Thunder is the sound made by lightning. Depending on the nature of the lightning and distance of the listener, it can range from a sharp, loud crack to a long, low rumble. The sudden increase in pressure and temperature from lightning produces rapid expansion of the air surrounding and within a bolt of lightning. In turn, this expansion of air creates a sonic shock wave which produces the sound of THUNDER. There can not be one without the other..... It's Raining here today....I love rain, hence the skin on my page.....works me up to want to Kiss all day mmmmmm.....anyway...I digress... The purpose of this blog is to give props to a dear friend of mine that is finding her way thru life....all the good, not so good, curveballs and fastballs.....and I hold her in high esteem for all she has done, not only for me but many, many others here in the FuNation. Thunder.....no matter who you are.....no matter where you are....you can not go without noticing 'Thunder

Come Bid
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2 Days And Counting...really This Time
Ok so here is the scoop...First of all let me say im sorry i havent been answering phone calls and just generally ignoring people...I dont love you any less...im just tired and done..I love being pregnant but I am so ready to have my daughter in my arms....which she ISNT yet...so this is whats happening...Went to the doc on Friday...she was still sitting pretty and nothing was going on...I was frustrated(hence no phones) Went back today and she is in the right position but sitting high up and not wanting to come on down. Doctor said nothing is going on down there still so i have been schedualed to be induced on Wednesday night.They will do something with something(but no pitocin thank heavens) and I should kick right into labor within twelve hours...so hopefully(barring anything bad happening I should be holding my daughter sometime on thursday....I could kick right in and have her wednesday night...or we may have to get other stuff done and it would be Friday morning...however...withi

I Think They Change
So, when people change you can usually tell. But the question is do you change them, or they change on their own. If you have a bad day adn people are short the next day does that mean they are just upset, or they found out that they are not liking you? If you tell someone something and they shy away from you, is it that they no longer like you as a person, or they are just thinking? So many people change for reasons that aren't understandable. I may have mood swings but I am never different for long. I always go back to the sweet ash that everyone loves. But then there are those changes that really confuse you, like when an ex talks again after not talking to you for months! Suprise.. I got one of those today

Time To Think
My brother-in-law opened the bottom drawer of my sister's bureau and lifted out a tissue-wrapped package."This," he said, "is not a slip. This is lingerie." He discarded the tissue and handed me the slip. It was exquisite; silk, handmade and trimmed with a cobweb of lace. The price tag with an astronomical figure on it was still attached. "Jan bought this the first time we went to New York, at least 8 or 9 years ago. She never wore it. She was saving it for a special occasion. Well, I guess this is the occasion." He took the slip from me and put it on the bed with the other clothes we were taking to the mortician. His hands lingered on the soft material for a moment, then he slammed the drawer shut and turned to me. "Don't ever save anything for a special occasion. Every day you're alive is a special occasion."I remembered those words through the funeral and the days that followed when I helped him and my niece attend to all the sad chores that follow an unexpected death.

The Awakening
"The Awakening" A time comes in your life when you finally get it... when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out...ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is your awakening. You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and

Hadyn- The Creation
Monday, April 27, 2009 Joy and beauty of ‘The Creation’ link up with Salisbury excellence MUSIC REVIEW Stephen Small, baritone soloist for the Salisbury Singers, sings as Raphael in Haydn’s “The Creation” Saturday night at St. Stephen’s Church. (RICH DUGAS) By Joyce Tamer Telegram & Gazette Reviewer Add a comment WORCESTER — Joseph Haydn penned the inscription “Laus Deo” at the end of each of his many compositions as an indication of his deep religious faith. He also enjoyed nature and possessed a joie de vivre. In his music, particular

Not Sure Why..?? Scroll Down ..... Hehehe
Reason, Season and Lifetime .. People always come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do. .. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. They may seem like a godsend to you, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. ... Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. ... Sometime

Well
I am going to be deleting my Fubar account its just because I really dont have alot of time any more. but if you value are friendship leave me an e mail and i will give you my e mail Phone # so we can still keep in touch. it has been a blast I enjoyed our time you guys are great. Much Love to you all Don Dago

I Don't Know Why
10th GradeAs I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so-called 'best friend'. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she were mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to know that I don't want to be 'just friends'. I love her but I am too shy, and I don't know why.11th GradeThe phone rang. On the other end, it was she. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After two hours of Drew Barrymore, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to

My Inspiration
It comes and goes with all the faces I see although I've found one with a higher decree She can make me smile when all I want is to cry the simplest glance from her gets me by Touching her as we speak just to stay in the moment her dimples appear heavenly sent Why has it taken me so long to realize to finally surmise heavens in front of my eyes All the balance of caring and naturing one another seems like breathing for this single mother My heart beats vibrantly within her hand unfolding loves petals with every step across waters & land leaving unexpected notes of my admiration everywhere the words come to life with our souls left to bare Like a children when they play we get lost in a few lusting displays bay But our bond is more than the physical attraction our own weakness is found strengthen with the others addition the air has no chance to whisper bye cause our breathe carries invisible kisses in the

Conservative Myths
What do the 17 faces above have in common... besides being unattractive, old white men? They're all conservatives, of course. All Republicans, except for one. Can you name him? That would be George Wallace (fifth from left), elected Alabama governor four times, and three-time Democratic presidential candidate. It's important to note that once upon a time greedy corporatists had the Republican Party pretty much all to themselves, while the Democratic Party actually contained within its "big tent" the "social" conservatives, mostly from the south. Wallace was one of those. Of all the figures above, he is the only one to ever regret and recant much of the conservative bile he spewed during his active political seasons. It seems even the staunchest of conservative Democrats can at last admit they were wrong. Republicans? As they will tell you themselves, they are never wrong. But aha, that's their mastery of wordsmithing, phrase-turning and disinformation at work... where the truth is

My Very First Blog
Wow! My very first blog in fubar. I think the last time i blogged in my blog in blogspot was like on February. I kinda give up because i feel that i can't really write everything that involved the family or friends and they do read my blog. I need to write something when i feel low sometimes. I dont wanna worry any of my family or think im having a problem cos i usually appear cheerful. Recently, i quited my job as an IT helpdesk, i know i made a mistake but i cant do the job that doesnt make me happy at all. My aunt would tell me i shouldn't be picky at this point of time. A beggar can not choose. It's too late to regret and i know that things happened for a reason. Right now, i feel a bit panic about job. I want to do teaching. Teaching kids will be fun although the pay will be lesser than my IT job. It's more rewarding to build children future than helping nagging users on the phone who dont appreciate my help =/ Anyway, apart from that, im still happy to see my uncles again. We

Its Valentines Day~
Its Valentines Day and I am at work.. As the day proceeds I get several emails from you very suggestive and full of love… A large bunch of red roses arrive with a card that says… “This is just the beginning I have plans for you tonight.. Your Master”. I cant wait for the day to end, the excitement building in me all day. I am wet and horny with anticipation. Finally its time to lock up and go home. You’re there waiting for me and lead me into the bathroom where a hot bubble bath is waiting. You tell me to strip for you as you watch.. I slowly take off my clothes peeling them from my body.. I get to my panties and you tell me to pass them to you. You notice they are wet and you sniff them and smile and say “pet you have had a good day I see, you better not have touched your self.” I assure you I haven’t. You then stand and let the robe you're wearing slip from your body to the floor and push it aside.. Your cock hard and throbbing in you

Her Diary/his Diary
HER DIARY:Tonight, I thought my husband was acting weird. We had made plans to meet at a bar to have a drink. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no comment on it. Conversation wasn't flowing, so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk. He agreed, but he didn't say much. I asked him what was wrong. He said, 'Nothing' I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. He said he wasn't upset, that it had nothing to do with me, and not to worry abo ut it. On the way home, I told him that I loved him. He smiled slightly, and kept driving. I can't explain his behavior. I don't know why he didn't say, 'I love you, too.' When we got home, I felt as if I had lost him completely, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just sat there quietly, and watched TV. He continued to seem distant and absent. Finally, with silence all around us, I decided to go to bed. About 15

Whore Blog
So I'm home from Texas...Thank Gawd! Its so good to be home and sleep on my own, well, couch. I ended up passing out on the freakin couch last night. *le sigh* Anywhoozle...anyone know anyone with an A11 auction or if they are selling ones? Mama wants to be a prophet soon but don't wanna work for it ya know!

Hugh's Chocolate Starfish
I will start of this blog stating that am a dirty minded individual... My dear and closest friend Hugh had updated his status to"I want to be a starfish, i know I'm going to get bullied for this one" I am not !00% sure of the wording but it did go something like that. As a true friend I had to ask the question on whether or not he wanted to be a chocolate starfish, to this I go a quick and decisive no!!! I wanted to make sure that Hugh wouldn't be bullied by anyone other then me so I told him i was going to poke his starfish with a stick. Hes very sad now that I picked on him, he just wanted to be the best starfish he could be.... I told him not to be so gay.... Love you Hugh Wicked

Guilt Trips
I was raised in a home where guilt was used as a method of control. Then one day I had an epiphany.Let me explain.Guilt is an emotion. Just like Love is an emotion. Now it is common knowledge that you can't make someone feel love. They either love you or they don't. No more, no less. Now, if Love and Guilt are both emotions, and you can't make somoene feel Love, wouldn't it stand to reason that you can't make someone feel guilt?Yeah I know there are going to be someone of you that say "It isn't that they make you feel it, they convince you that of it." But that logic still doesn't hold up. No one can convince me that I love someone. I either do or I don't. So why can't Guilt work the same way?Just because someone says you are guilty, that doesn't mean you actually are.Step back and use your conscience. That's why you have it.If you can scincerly look at the situation in which you are being accused and say that you haven't done anything wrong, then don't assume responsibility for it. Ta

Relationships
Moments ago I read a mum and decided to give my views on the subject. OMG! lol I opened up a can of worms I think lol. She was upset that her relationship wasnt the same and she felt her man wasnt no longer interested. Well all I said was sometimes in a relationship men become comfortable and feel they dont need to try as hard. Okay I stand corrected. I should have said Men and Woman become comfortable and feel they dont need to try any more. Wowwwwwwwwwwwww a couple of dudes got all butt hurt and I guess I struck a nerve or something. That wasnt my intent. So I thought awwwww best just to leave it alone and let them rant and get all pissy . Not gonna feed into their dramma lamas I think when you find someone of your desire, we meaning men and woman will go out of our way to win them over. Once we do and we have been with them for x amout of mths, years what have you , we seem to stop trying to keep up our appearance and just let our selfs go. And we stop trying t

The Tree Project Continued..
Up to over 300 ancestors now.. and that is just stemming back from my maternal grandmothers.. exciting!It's become addicting to work on my family tree.. I didn't want to stop last night, but finally my headache overcame my ability to stare at the screen. I'm not used to staring at a computer monitor for 7-8 hours a day!

Angels
DANI - ANGEL EXOTIC ANGEL PEBBLES EXOTIC ANGEL BABIET EXOTIC ANGEL SYN ANGEL EXOTIC ANGEL SEXY MAMA EXOTIC ANGEL PSYCHOTIC FREAK EXOTIC ANGEL VIXY EXOTIC ANGEL ALPHABITCH EXOTIC ANGEL BABYGIRL EXOTIC ANGEL BLUE EYED ANGEL EXOTIC ANGEL BLONDEBUNI EXOTIC ANGEL LANAH

Untitled Love Cry
Once a shy spirit,alone:she was risen from the shell to the open fields of love but they smiled a little glimpse for her fate would shun her back. Paining her heart to grief,and breaking up her spirits to tears, her glass heart to pieces and the return of her fears... she scurried back to her former ways, in which she knew her only refudge. And with her insides flaming like a burning hell, how was she to know her heart would burn so, darkness is the only something she knows. Was darkness her comfort,shading her from pain like a mother cares for her kin. With tears of blood and a heart so blind, was it merely another illusion cast by her tormenters? There is beauty amongst the breakdown, if she may rise then may she spark a new, perhaps she may too prove her means to venture in the fields of love.

Bad Day
This is where I get to write anything I want? Love that! Ok- so today is NOT a good day. Yesterday wasn't so great either. I am intelligent enough to know that this is situational depression/anxiety. Maybe intelligence doesn't have anything to do with it. Probably more like experienced enough to know. Doctor wants me on drugs... not the good kind mind you. No narcotics to actualy give me a boost, some energy, something to make me WANT to get out of bed! Noooo.... she wants me to take the crap that makes me calm. Yes, it does stop my heart from racing but sometimes it makes me just not give a flying rats ass about anything. What is so difficult about being honest? BTW- I am a quote maniac and this is MINE (don't steal it uness you give me props) "Each persons reality is merely their perception but perception is much clearer when the TRUTH is known." I understand holding something back if you might crush someone with the truth. But people, there are ways to get your

Jen Is Bored ;) And Because Jim Won't Read It On Facebook
1) Are you in a complicated relationship?Only when I make it that way.2) Do you hate more than 3 people?nope, just one4) How many houses have you lived in?75) Favorite candy bar?Snickers6) Have you ever tripped someone?Not on purpose...I think...7) Least favorite school subject?Math!8) How many pairs of shoes do you own?Jim says too many9) Do you own a Britney Spears CD?No!10) Have you ever thrown up in public?do frat parties count?11) Name one thing that is always on your mind:him

Reckless
Nowadays, there are millions of advice on how to keep safe from predators, online or in RL. Most of that advice targets women, being under assumption that only women are prone to become targets of violent crimes, psycho behavior, etc. I guess Aileen Vuornos doesn't ring a bell. While women are extremely cautious to meet new people from online, due to a hype that every outsider is a predator, men are always eager to hook up with any strange flooze out there. Its not too hard for a woman to lure a man in, then attack him with mace/knife/gun. More often than not, she might have an accomplice, which would carry out the deed. There are alot of psychotic women out there, nad its sad that men completely disregard this fact, and that all those warnings are mostly for women.

Chute Error
While being transported to basic training as a new enlistee of the Air National Guard, I accidentally opened a parachute in the rear of the C-47. The plane was piloted by a major and a captain, and I felt intimidated as I opened the cockpit door to confess what I had done. Expecting to be severely chastised, I was surprised by the captain's calm response. "Well, son," he said, "if this plane goes down, that chute is yours."

Pffst
wtf? Seriously... I like it when people cut to the chase, but if you want to make a futile attemp to get into my pants, at least try to be semi creative and semi attentive. I guess I look like an escort or a hooker, when tards that were lazy enough not to even look up my name ask if they could go out with me when they are in Chicago.

Vacation Planning-need Some Advice!
Ok, most of you know I'm taking my son to Hilton Head in a few weeks. This will be his first time to the ocean, so it's a very special trip for us. And Mommy needs a much needed break from reality. Now I need your help. I am making a list of things to pack for our trip and I'm wondering if you guys may have some insight on things I may need to pack that are not as obvious as say, beach towels or sunscreen. I want to be fully prepared and be able to continue to impress my son with my fantastic motherly skills. I am specifically focusing on things we may need for our days on the beach. Any advice is greatly appreciated! *Some odd things I have so far are- snacks that won't melt. Frozen bottled waters. Zip lock bags for seashells. A butterfly net for catching minnows in the tide. A good book for mommy and a waterproof camera. Thanks guys, you're the best! Let's see how your creative minds can brainstorm...

Being Positive
"Live your life in such a way that when your feet hit the floor in the morning, Satan shudders and says, "Oh no, she's awake!" >>>> You may have gone to bed last night weary> and wondering how, when and why?>> But thank God you woke up this morning and> placed your feet on the floor. And when you did,> I'm sure the enemy said... "*DARN, she (he) is up again!"*>> That's right. You are up again.> You may still be discouraged, but you are not defeated!>> You are up again. Your head is up!> Your gratitude is up! Your faith is up!> You are standing up on your faith.> You are cheering up and looking up.> You are speaking up and thinking up.> You are hooking up with the right people.> You are growing up and maturing in your self-esteem, self-worth and> self-control.> You are up and ready to make it through and up out> of your temporary circumstances.>> To get better sleep, reduce the news watching and> distance yourself from the negative people.> Prayer is better than prozac.> There is

This Site Called Fubar
This is the worst site ever!!!! I will Never come back! Its a waste of time!!! And everyone actually looks wasted in your nasty pics... (Jesus) Your site needs a lot of work!!!!!! which by the way you are nothing to Jesus!!! AMEN!!! AMEN!!! So much for trying to be like tom on myspace right!! HAHA!!! Go have another beer your site might look better

Confessions Of A Police Officer
I am a cop. That means that the pains and joys of my personal life are often muted by my work. I resent the intrusion but I confuse myself with my job almost as often as you do. The label "police officer" creates a false image of who I really am. Sometimes I feel like I'm floating between two worlds. My work is not just protecting and serving. It's preserving that buffer that exists in the space between what you think the world is, and what the world really is. My job isn't like television. The action is less frequent, and more graphic. It is not exhilarating to point a gun at someone. Pooled blood has a disgusting metallic smell and steams a little when the temperature drops. CPR isn't an instant miracle and it's no fun listening to an elderly grandmother's ribs break while I keep her heart beating. I'm not flattered by your curiosity about my work. I don't keep a record of which incident was the most frightening, or the strangest, or the bloodiest, or even the fun

Plan To Monitor All Internet Use
Plan to monitor all internet use By Dominic Casciani BBC News home affairs reporter Social networks: Data recorded - but not content Communications firms are being asked to record all internet contacts between people as part of a modernisation in UK police surveillance tactics. The home secretary scrapped plans for a database but wants details to be held and organised for security services. The new system would track all e-mails, phone calls and internet use, including visits to social network sites. Ministers say police need new tools to fight crime but opposition MPs and campaigners have raised privacy fears. Announcing a consultation on a new strategy for communications data and its use in law enforcement, Jacqui Smith said there would be no single government-run database. Communications data is an essential tool for law enforcement agencies to track murderers and paedophiles, save lives and tackle crime Jacqui SmithHome

Vibrators Vs Men!!!
Vibrators vs men!!! A vibrator doesn't have an orgasm first and then just stop "vibrating."Vibrators are never too busy watching the game on tv Batteries are cheaper than pick up trucks!! When we're done with them we can stuff them back in the drawer and not hear from them until we're ready. It's happy to keep going until we're satisfied.We can get a bigger one or one that has better options whenever we want without being called a slut.Position is your choice, not his.It always is hard.It doesn't leave a mess behind. You don't have to wear an ill fitting teddy to excite it.It doesn't care that you gained 10 lbs. It doesn't fall asleep and snore in your ear afterwards. You don't have to clean up the apartment before bringing it home. They don't get tired after the first time They never poke you in the back in the morning to see if you are in the mood. Iin the morning you don't have to fix it breakfast. Safe sex without a rubber A couple batteries and you don't have to put up with the sh

Everyone Who Thinks They Have Or Had A Hard Life Should Read This Story
I Read this today and it makes me realize all of us who think we have a hard life in the normal course of things dont really know what it means. http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090425/ap_on_re_us/us_the_blown_up_soldier;_ylt=AhemcwXKEXitj_ZJg8iLF49bbBAF;_ylu=X3oDMTJxMGVxcGpxBGFzc2V0A2FwLzIwMDkwNDI1L3VzX3RoZV9ibG93bl91cF9zb2xkaWVyBGNwb3MDNgRwb3MDNgRzZWMDeW5fdG9wX3N0b3JpZXMEc2xrA2luanVyZWRzb2xkaQ--

Delete
I am going thorw and deleting poeople so if you havent left me a comment or at lest said hi or fanned me you will go. All you have to do is one of them 3 things and you stay. i dont mean to be a jerk but im here to meet friends and this is like im here to buy bling. so come friday i will start deleting.

The Wolf Gang
Hello All!!! There is a new lounge in town called the Wolf Gang!!! Come one come all, and have a great time makeing new friends, and meeting with some old ones. Just folliow the link, and tell them SilverSlider sent you their way!! Unfortunately I can not always be on Fubar all the time to enjoy all my friends on Fubar, and the lounges I am a part of (military life takes priority), but I do try to be on here as much as the military will allow. So, follow the link and some fun for me!!! If I have the time I may drop in to see how you are doing!!! SilverSlider http://www.fubar.com/lounge/66557

Sleep Deprived
I am waking up at the weirdest hour each morning. For the past 3 nights I wake up at 3:45 am each morning. What a way to start my day. I am getting a bit tired of this sleep pattern and may see a doctor about it. Probably will put me on some stupid sleeping pills. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh... I hate sleeping pills.

Swine Flu
Swine Flu…I know how to stop it…Stop Sleeping with PIGS dammit! So we have that to worry about now. Europe warns Europeans about non-essential visits to Mexico and U.S.A. May be life threatening. Wow how many times have I been to Florida and wished that warning was given… Oh well and wonderful week is wished to all. However if you are a Flu Carrying Pig nice knowing ya. Good Morning Marrtay

Trading 11's For Fu - Bucks
Hey all i would offer you a Deal i am trading my 11's for FU - Bucks. 100 for 50000 50 for 25000 20 for 10000 Rating will be during HH. If you are interested then Message me or hit up my Shoutbox :D

Masters Creed
Dominant, he can cause his sub to cry real tears. As the consummate lover, he will then kiss the tears away, without ever stepping out of character. In times of trouble, a Dominant will leave the roles behind, to be a supportive friend and partner, never forgetting that this is still a loving relationship between two caring individuals. He is quick to understand the differences between fantasy and reality. He would never ask a submissive to put him before her career, or family, just to satisfy his own pleasure. To win his submissive's mind, body and soul, he knows he must first win her trust. He will show his submissive humor, kindness, and warmth. He must also show her that his guidance and tutoring is knowledgeable and deserving of her attention, that this is a man she can learn from, and trust his direction. He is romantic enough to be protective and chivalrous. When called upon, he will fight for his ladies' honor. He proves to her that he is someone she can lean on, and depend

Auction Going On Come Join The Funn
Goddess Heaven havng a auction monday to friday at midenight its a request pics for fucash come join the fun and the lounge we got lots of beautiful ladys taking part highest bidder gets there photo done more ppl more request to be done so come join us and have a great time hope to see u all there remember it first opens at noon my time so 10 hours from now please come enjoy there will be lots of funn and ppl and lots of drinks u won't regret it thanks from partymac24 owner of goddess heaven and all the staff and members from goddess heaven ...........

[rice Is Nice]
I've made a hundred fried rices, a thousand times with a thousand restrictions, and for a thousand leftovers. I've even used leftover fried rice to make fried rice.I think I could use some MSG if I'm ever going to compete with the commercial grades. And no- there's not a single fucking thing wrong with MSG- its sea kelp broth dehydrated into solid flakes. Now where was I? Ah yes, I'm always looking for the next big idea when it comes to rice. I mean- let's face it, 70% of the world uses it as their main dinner staple. It's dry, its easy, it keeps forever. Don't be a retard about this.So I was watching iron chef hoping to catch a few new fried rices, I saw crab fried rice, lobster fried rice, beef fat, pork short ribs, liver, fish- the works but it wasn't about the rices, it was about the sauce and the protein. Then I watched a chinese chef make his signature rice, and I ... couldn't stop thinking about it for a week. It's so simple, and yet... so brilliant. Boil some long grain

-random Words On Paper-
I used to thinkThere was no one for meThat I would be lonelyFor eternityMy nights were sleeplessMy days were grayThen I met you And the clouds went awayYou picked me upWhen I was downYou made my head Spin round and roundYou turn me onIn so many waysI'm walking aroundIn a dazeAwake or asleepAt work or at playMy thoughts are of youAll night and all dayYou're in my soulYou're in my heartI go crazyWhen we are apartYou mean more to me Than mere words can sayIf you wanted to leave me I'd beg you to stayWhen we walk down the streetI feel so proudI want to climb up a treeAnd shout out loud....

Old L.a Tonight By Ozzy Osbourne
Look In The FutureLook In To My Eyes And Tell MeEverything's All RightTell Me Where We're GoingI'm So Afraid 'Cos I Don't KnowWhat's Going On With My LifeBut It'll Be All Right TonightWill It Be All Right TonightAre We Doing All Right In Old L.A. Tonight?Sitting By The OceanMapping Out My Plans Of Action,Baby They Include YouI Wish You'd Send A MessageMaybe I'm Just Better Off NotKnowing Who KnewBut It'll Be All Right TonightI'm Gonna Be All Right TonightAre We Doing All Right In Old L.A. Tonight?Those Summer NightsWhen I Look In Your EyesI'm Falling To Pieces, PiecesOut Of My MindAnd I'll Never Know WhyI'm Falling To Pieces, PiecesWho Could Imagine Such A ThingCould Happen To You?It's Gonna Be All Right In Old L.A. TonightThose Summer NightsWhen I Look In Your EyesI'm Falling To Pieces, PiecesOut Of My MindAnd I'll Never Know WhyI'm Falling To Pieces, PiecesIt's Gonna Be All Right In Old L.A. Tonight

Can't Sleep
I can't sleep. There are so many things running through my head. Thinking about the person I am, the person I have become through the years. Things have changed so much, made me hard. Makes me wish for the days before the heartache, before the struggles, before the betrayals. I used to be so carefree, fun loving. How do you get those days back? How do you meet new people without wondering what their hidden agenda is? How do you trust when that trust you used to give freely and openly has been betrayed over and over? Friends come and gone, lovers come and gone. How do you know when a true friend comes along? One who will be there through thick and thin, not just for the fun times. I am tired of the bullshit. There is no room for it in my life.

Well... Well... Well....
where do i begin???? I look at myself today..... and im a perfect example of someone changing over time..... ive been thru things most people would never dream about having to go thru..... ive done things most people wouldnt have thought bout doing.... but with the things ive gone thru.... it came down to, you have to do what you have to do to survive... having a fucked up family and past.... most my life i had to do everything on my own, and survive on my own.... no im not saying im the only one whos gone thru that situation and i can sympathise with people who have... what bothers me the most is when someone from your past who knew you and how you USED to be... and they say they have changed.... "found God" why they cant take the time and the chance to see the person i have changed to be and become..... no im not phased by how anyone from my past looks at me.... thats not what makes me who i am today.... yeah the shit ive been thru is what has made me the person i am today.... my

Its Finaly Over
its finaly over, You say you love me, then you dont talk, you say thnigs are fine, then you walk out, you say you would never break my heart, it has been broken, you say its not my fault, but still you moved on, its finaly over, Life is smothered, because your no longer in it. bedrock

Why Good Men Go Bad
when i call u or text u or show up it mean i wanna see u or hear ur voice. when i say i care it means im here to listen and help in anyway possible. when my arms are open or heres my shoulder it means im here to comfort u. and when i say a joke even if its corny its to get u to smile. and when i say ur beautiful i mean it. when i say i love u means ill do anything for u. but when u dont call, or text, when u accuse me of something i didnt do, and when u say u love me to shut me up or u say just for the hell of it it hurts. when u talk to them other guys behind my back, when u repeatly do something that u know i dont like and ive asked u to stop, it kills me. and when u ask urself when u will ever find a good man then look up to what u have and if im still around i will forgive u. but if not then u took it to far and thats were a good man goes bad

Wish Spell
for my wiccan friends and/or those interested in spells and such,i thought i would share. a friend of mine sent this spell to me,not sure if it was created just for me or not..ive never really practiced them,just not my thing but maybe one or two of yall do... i think her site is alexstar.com if you want to check out her other services..very cool lady Wish Spell Take a small piece of paper say 10 inches x 10 inchesUpon it write your wish in detail. Over the most important words of your wish, drop some wax from a colour corresponded candle example... Green for money, blue for health etc. Before the drops of wax cool, press a piece of your hair you have found (do not pull it out, it must be a piece that you have found) into it. Fold the paper in half and in half again and say :- "May the Goddess and God of light and loveGrant me my wish and quiet my heart.I place my desire in your hands,For you to do as you will and as I deserve.So mote it be".

I Just Want Answers
WTF??? I will never understand humans. We all say we love each other and miss each other and its always bull shit! Y even bother? If words in this world mean nothing then y even speak? I know my questions will never be able to be answered but I have to voice them some how to anyone who will listen! I just dont get it! Y does everyone always leave? They either run away from u, die, move or just stop all communication without any reason! WTF is so damn wrong with me that no one stays? Can anyone please tell me?

Lyrics To "dirty Jersey"
This is the truth about Dirty JerseyWhen this track blows up, you'll already heard of me Cuz the game I spit is straight from the fuckin streets I always stay runnin from the fuckin Heat Throw your hands up and feel the fuckin beat It's guaranteed to get you out your fuckin seat Dirty Jersey is the place Where it all goes down Millions of fuckin parties

Bunchs Of Thoughts.. Hopefully Yall Get It. But Its Simply Me!
I am simply me. I am Ashley, a bubbly, fun, easy-going, carefree person. But then there are those times. I hAVe my bad days, bear with me. I have mood swings, but please dont swing back at me. I have times where nobody in the world can make me smile, but keep on trying. I am simply me. There are times when i want to cry, can you be there to lend me a shoulder? THere are times when i sit and think, will you give me advice, even if you think i am not listening? (cause i usually am.. even when you dont think i am.. but thats just ME) But the few keys to remember. No matter how sad i am, mean it seems like i can get. I am simply me. If i am a girl you like, keep on liking me. I wont be mad or sad forever. And you may be one of the people that can make me happy. I will always go back to the fun lovin, cares about everyone girl that i am. But most of all, will you be the one to hold me when i feel like my world is just a messy web of confusioin? Can you be there to hold me when the t

Because I Could.. Survey.
You....! Name Lillian Lux Ethnicity Latina Height 5'5 Hair Color Currently.. Red & Black.. subject to change Eye Color Dark Brown Your opinions please? Abortion It depends on the situation Capital Punishment Same as above Immigration I don't really honestly care War Is not for me America I live in it.. Gay Marriage I support it! The Economy Sucks Ball Sacks right now What??? Political Party are you Democrat *shrugs* Extrovert or Introvert Extrovert Favorite sport Don't really have one .. but I like watching Hockey occasionally Favorite person from that sport *shrugs* Favorite person I don't have a favorite person Bothers you Apperantly a lot of things like people randomly exercising in my living room & garlic breath. Are you passionate about Reading Do you really think about yourself I'm pretty cute but really messed up in the head. Mas! Favorite

*shrugs*
=) for them few i talk to.....yer not forgotten and are mostly missed......dunno all just having a hard time sitting down here=(( now that i got net working again) but goona try and be around.*hugs all around

Lyrics To "machine Power"
Our minds are an extremely powerful machineAll of its power remains to be unseenWhen put into use with all its strengthAll of the possiblilities will have no lengthA persons character describes their actionswith all of their thoughts surrounded by captionsAt times people may sound funny even insaneunderstanding them may cause your brain to strainIf you decide to choose to get to know their soulyou will find they too will have the same goal In life there are somewho speak the truth no matter whatwith their thoughts projecting them as a nutBut when you find the soul deep down inside their gutyou may find its their heart that has been locked shutWhat actions have causedthis to take placeAll the soulsthat they have attempted to chasehas taught them the past just doesnt erasethen they start all overwith a whole new face Then theres some who speak nothing but liesAlthough their thoughtsmay make eyes crywill the soul they possesbe sent to fryor will it be given wingsthat enable them to flyD

Pill Popperism
Just to clear things up a bit.. I pretty much am a pill popper not by choice. I have Diabetes and thankfully I don't need to be injecting insulin yet...so that leaves me with the pills. So, the meds are pretty annoying they make me feel sicker @ times. I'm giving up on them and resorting to natural remedies..diet..and excercise. The diet part scares the hell out of me because I finally got used to being me in my own skin and I am comfortable the way I am. It's silly I know but I do worry about losing weight.. I don't want to really. So, I take about 15 pills 3x a day ..I hope it helps and we'll see how it goes. Sorry..I guess I just felt like ranting for a bit.

Party!!!!
What the fuck is goin on world!? Its ya boy King aka Blaze, this is my first time ever even seeing FuBar.com and honestly this shit is FIRE!!! I mean i dont got the hang of a god damn thing here yet but this is about to be my new ish!!! I see all these cool, fun, beautiful people and i just cant wait to see who the are and wut theyre personalitites are like. I really hope there arent an haterz on this site cuz haterz suck!! But anyway im here to have some fun and get the party started so holla at me if u feel the same if so hit me up and say YES!! like me snd ill know u down lets go world lol l8tr youll be hearing alot more from me.

Issues
anyone ever heard of or been called a "DDR"? anyone talk to me and thought hmmmm hes being moody and weird!? anyone think to them selves, wow Deacon seems a little off today. did you think one of my blogs was a bit... not like me to do? well I believe someone has been in my account and have knoweledge that at least one blog listed I didnt write cus i was off shore and not online. anytime between the middle of march and last week, let me know if you think you talked to me. someone has sent emails, drinks and sb msgs to people from my fubar profile and it wasnt me. im trying to figure some things out ill be a coward if it makes you feel better...i told ya i would call you when i had time...but you kept calling and i figured out you were still loggong in to my fubar, and figured out how you did it...so now after four days of not answering your calling private #....quit ffs. i dont have time for this shit! dont go away mad just go away do you have every detail of every

United We Stand Corrected
United We Stand Corrected Written by: Ned Greeley & Baron VonMunchausen (a.k.a. Man vs. Mantis...check them out) Slope down and join me in the gutter.Follow valleys to a place where promises are always kept and pain is fabled, legend, lore.Tell me of the days when nickels bought the world as well as some memories and uphill both ways was somehow possible.Genuine and pure like Sunday morning diner eggs and warm interior of vehicles.Serious was kept in movies.Technological advances, cutting down the chances of birth dwelt innocence, my innocence.Attaining peace among smei-auto guns and hollow tip bullets that match the hearts of shooters around the world.Skepticism sold true intentions.Blind faith was fresh cut grass and ice cream men were heroes, marching happy tunes.Fuck the progress, the war.Fuck the magic computers.Fuck the ever changing fashion trends and not so reality shows.Fuck the politics.Fuck the president.Fuck the cars and the money.Fuck the sex.Give me peace.Give me sereni

The Perfect Fit
I could make a dress A robe fit for a prince I could clothe a continent But i can't sew a stitchI can paint my faceAnd stand very very stillIts not very practicalBut it still pays the billsI can't change my nameBut i could be your typeI can dance and win at gamesLike backgammon and lifeI used to be the smart oneSharp as a tackFunny how that skipping years ahead Has held me backI used to be the bright oneTop in my classFunny what they give you when you Just learn how to askI can write a songBut i cant sing in keyI can play piano But i never learned to readI can't trap a mouseBut i can pet a catNo i'm really serious!I'm really very good at thatI can't fix a carBut i can fix a flatI could fix alot of things But i'd rather not get into thatI used to be the bright oneSmart as a whipFunny how you slip so far when Teachers dont keep track of itI used to be the tight oneThe perfect fitFunny how those compliments canMake you feel so full of itI can shuffle cut and dealBut i can't draw a handI c

Broken Heart
for the night of april 26. 2009, was the night my heart was torn out of my chest, having this crushing blow, makes me toss and turn while laying in bed,mean while crying for hours apon hours make this night last for an eternity, the love of my life made my heart shatter in to billions of pieces recover is no more, the numbing feeling will soon set in making me not feel the love from another onces again, my eyes are blood shot from all the crying, i don't know if i can go on, my will hs been shattered as well, not sure of anything my best friend turns into the pillow i cry my self to sleep with tonight, feeling like this is the end of my life i wonder if i every shall feel happyness once more

Family Issues
Hello everyone, Ive been dealing with a lot of issues with my granddaughter. Looks like the move to Texas will be soon so I can take of her. I want to thank everyone who has stopped by and left comments and drinks. Hope to be back on in full force soon.

Day To Night
This is why I do the shit that I do. Have you ever sat back and really tried to figure out why you are the person you are? Well that's my goal for the next, however long it takes. It seems that I view my life in still frame. The monsters I've came across all came out for a reason and I see their faces, one at a time. Flash. It always goes back to that first one of everything. The first hit, the first line, the first tounament, tragedy, and most of all the first girl. I see that she-devil for the horned beast she holds inside her sirenesce body. She lit my torch, and dug my grave in the same look. Twenty-three. Thats three more than I needed. But, not as many as I want.

:p Boooooooored
ive been playin racin games cuz im so bored :O makes me think about maybe working on my mustang some more theres still a ton of parts i never got around to putting on it and theyre just laying there! LOL

Poetry N Stuffz
some poetry i've written over the years. not saying it's any good... feel free to tear it apart, i honestly couldn't give a shit. 05-04-03 i am far too imperfect for myself to accepti am far too fragile to carry thisi cried like a frightened child todayand she didn't carebrushed it offchanged subjecti cannot do this much longertired of worrying about everyonetired of remembering everything for everyonetired of being the only one who seems to give a shiti want to stopi want my heart to fall silenti want the world to swallow me whole**************************************************************************************************************facade (06-02-03)this incessant lack of passionlike chinese water torturewearing away my soulone drop at a timethis loveless voidi jokingly call homeis nothing but the placewhere i sleep and try toforgeti remember the warmththe smilesthe hands heldcaring embracesnow impossible from the other side of this roomgoing through motionsfrightened

New Rule
New Rules For 2009 New Rule : Stop giving me that pop-up ad for classmates.com! There's a reason you don't talk to people for 25 years. Because you don't particularly like them!? Besides, I already know what the captain of the football team is doing these days--mowing my lawn. New Rule : Don't eat anything that's served to you out a window unless you're a seagull. People are acting all shocked that a human finger was found in a bowl of Wendy's chili. Hey, it cost less than a dollar. What did you expect it to contain? Trout?

Losin My Brother In Law
My brother in law may not be american he may not speak english all that well, but he is the only brother that i have left. I've had a couple of brother in laws but he is the only 1 that i hav left. Well he is dying of cancer and has maybe a day or 2 left. He has ben hard to get a long with and he hasn't ben the best to my sister but still for somebody who never had a brother growin up it sux royally

Says It All
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKINGTHROUGH THE DESERTDURING SOME POINT OF THEJOURNEY, THEY HAD ANARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIENDSLAPPED THE OTHER ONEIN THE FACETHE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPEDWAS HURT, BUT WITHOUTSAYING ANYTHING,WROTE IN THE SANDTODAY MY BEST FRIENDSLAPPED ME IN THE FACETHEY KEPT ON WALKING,UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,WHERE THEY DECIDEDTO TAKE A BATHTHE ONE WHO HAD BEENSLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THEMIRE! AND STARTED DROWNING,BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.AFTER HE RECOVERED FROMTHE NEAR DROWNING,HE WROTE ON A STONE:'TODAY MY BEST FRIENDSAVED MY LIFE'THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPEDAND SAVED HIS BEST FRIENDASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU,YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'THE FRIEND REPLIED'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS USWE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWNIN SAND, WHERE WINDS OFFORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOESSOMETHING GOOD FOR US,WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONEWHERE NO WINDCAN EVER ERASE IT'LEARN TO WRITEYOUR HURTS INTHE SAND AND TOCARVE YOURBENEFITS IN STONE.THEY SAY IT TAKES AMINUTE TO FIND A SPECI

7up Is Busted! Drink Sprite!
A lot of people have asked me to find out if a certain fubar member is real or not. So without furthur adieu! Meet Carli! She's an 18 year old senior at Freehold twp high school (http://www.frhsd.com/freeholdtwp-new/) in Freehold, NJ. She's also a member of the Freehold twp high school cheerleading squad. her myspace link is: http://www.myspace.com/carliii here's a list of some other fake profiles using carli's photos: http://fr.netlog.com/m/profile/nickname=christinalostenzobabe

Just A Quick Typing...
A quick note about a few things:One, I finally decided to attack my family tree and find out more about my roots. I spent most of today just doing the maternal line of my family. Ancestry.com is AWESOME! I usually only can take a little bit of staring at a monitor at a time, but I think I spend at least six hours on the computer today, working on my lineage. I started with just a few papers that I received from my aunt, approximately 25-30 people.. and now I am at 181 of my ancestors figured out. Yeah!Two, I wish that if people hinted or suggested that they were going to do something that they would follow through. It's rather annoying to be expecting some sort of event to occur, when it was mentioned in promising words.. and then nothing. Not even a few words to say that it wasn't going to happen. GRRR.... And that's all on that topic. I am not usually one to dwell.Three...Being at home, grounded by my defunct car is pretty okay, I am figuring out. More about what happened with my car

It's Been Awhile
I guess I don't fubar much these days. I'm not sure what the last thing I posted on here was (I'll go check later) but life has been busy since Sis and I opened a store. We've only been running a few months now but I am enjoying it. There's really not much to tell other than that, but I'd love to hear what everyone else is up to so let's hear it!

1981 Honda Cb650
I bought this 1981 honda CB650 which hasn't been driven for 26 years. It was garage kept and i bought it for 800 dollars. I cleaned out the carbs, They were very gummy and the gas tank had a lot of rust in it, I finally drove it today, and got it up to 55 mph. Which is much better than yesterday. At 4000 rpms the motorcycle would bog down and would die and not restart. The only bad thing that happened on it this time, was the accelorator cable snapped and i had to push it home. I cleaned up all the dirt on it and repainted the gas tank. ( it looks new) and that was all that i did to it today. I will take pics of it and put them on my site when i'm done with it.

Thx
thanks for the proliferation of texts checking up on me from those of u who have my #, and thanks for all the worry (y'all more worried than i!) and... "advice." :p i think i'll live. i just got in from the hospital where i had to have IV fluids and pain medication, as well as anti-emetics. they had to give me the stuff they give ppl who have stomach cancer -- and it still didn't help completely. but anyway, i'm home, determined to go to work tomorrow, very very weak. there are some tests to yet be completed, but they're hoping it's just a kick-ass case of intestinal flu or salmonella. i'm off now, really too tired to even sit here and type and look at a screen, will get caught up this week.

Scooby Doo, & Marijuana
Yeah - the old cartoon was totally a commercial for pot & counter culture. Consider: Scooby & Shaggy were always hungry They were addicted to 'scooby snacks' (what was in them?) They were always paranoid. The mystery machine -had no windows and smoke coming from everywhere except the exhaust All the criminals were businessmen or politicians. I rest my case.

Love
why is Love hard ? I thought it was something everyone was to find, Maybe it's because poeple are not kind. I really didn't knoiw that love , had to be so crude. Sometimes it must be way the world is so rude. WHY is love so hard,it's not like playing cards? Where you are not hurting the ones you cheat, Because when you cheat , you fail the purpose of the feat . Because love is hard , that is why we where dealt with the cards . So deal with it and have no more lost love .

Sad.
This is just me having a really bad day, and needing to put my thoughts down. You don't have to read it. . .it's likely nothing relevant to you. . . Well, we all went up to St. Louis today to see my Grandma at Barnes. She's not doing so great. She's in renal failure, is fighting a bad infection, can't talk, on a ventilator, dialysis. . . and they're taking her off life support on Tuesday. So it's only a matter of time. . . I don't know how to deal with this. . .I don't know if I can handle another death in my life. This f'ing sucks. And my little girl will never get to know her great Grandma. . .never remember how sweet and giving and loving she was. And then I get get home from seeing my grandmother lying in a hospital bed with 10 tubes coming out of her, looking like a bag of bones, not even able to move or talk, and you know what Josh does? Yells about me not having his work clothes washed and calls me dumb and worthless. What a great ending to an already wonderful day, huh?

Bestmoviestar In Sex Stories
BESTMOVIESTAR I love to be turn on by a hot stories.So I decide to add here few of my Favorite Sex StoriesEvery month I am going to add a new one.I hope u join it.xooxoxKissesBESTMOVIESTAR send it but my fan mr. JJ Widow Neighbor My wife and I moved to a new, upscale neighborhood out in the suburbs. We have been married for over twenty years and are in our mid forties, but have never had children. We both work; my wife as a legal secretary and I am a realtor. Our new home is on a quiet cul de sac and there are no children close to our home, thank goodness. We have been here about six months, and have met a few of the neighbors, but have not made any close relationships. Our next door neighbor, Margaret, is a lovely widow lady, 68 years old, but doesn’t look it. She is tall and slender (about 5’9” and 135 pounds, or so) and keeps herself in excellent physical shape. She has a pool and says she walks daily and then enjoys taking long laps in the pool.

Make Out Music
Back in the 90's (college days) Journey had the cd for making out. I think this decade belongs to Sondre Lerche. Yeah - ya prob never heard of him - but type his name in to youtube and try 'my hands are shaking' So -what do ya think?

One Of The Things I Wrote
♦Wasting Time♦ I sit here watching the handles on the clock turning , The candles I have lit are still burning . The light from the candle is gone , Because you see the love I had is done . There is no one for the candle flames, It's late and I and I feel its me to blame . I thought you where coming for a date , But you didn't show and its late . It's not right , I wasted all that time , Thinking you where mine.♥

To Give Freely: Without Condition, Without Desire For Return.
s experiences and people move in and out of our lives, I reflect that to covet them and ask that they remain and always be there for us is a selfish response - a response that doesn't take into account the wishes of another. In essence, they don’t need you, so why should you need them? Yet the pain of losing someone can cut deep, and the fear of losing someone can lead one to drastic measures in a vain attempt to keep someone that doesn’t desire to be kept. But if we know that we have given of ourselves to the best of our ability - without regrets or hard feelings, than we can move on and keep the good memories while discarding the not-so-good ones. Our bodies are temporary, the actions and works and words that we leave behind will live on even after our bodies turn to bone dust, as our stories are told and retold, and our creations are passed down through generations. It’s common for people to question unconditional love, to advise those who practice it that the

Just A Little Something To Think About
It seems to me that the best relationships, the ones that last, are frequently the ones rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than the night before, like a switch has been flicked somewhere, and the person who was just a friend is suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with." When you plant lettuce, if it does not grow well, you don't blame the lettuce. You look for reasons it is not doing well. It may need fertilizer, or more water, or less sun. You never blame the lettuce.Yet if we have problems with our friends or our family, we blame the other person. But if we know how to take care of them, they will grow well, like the lettuce. Blaming has no positive effect at all, nor does trying to persuade using reason and argument. That is my experience. If you understand, and you show that you understand, you can love, and the situation will change

The Midnight Hour
It is dark this midnight hour High above I sit in my tower I watch and listen to every sound Down below I hear the hounds Yet , as I sit and wait Wondering what will be my fate Will he come for me here? Oh how I want him to be near Hark ! could it be him ? Oh how my chance are slim Yet , at this midnight hour I hope and pray Oh I do not know what to say I pray for the Defenders And I pray for the messengers I pray for all the people down below As the winds blow cold &

Feeling Better
After talking to a few close friends. I feel much better. If a person wants to be mad at you there is nothing you can do to change it. You have to sit back and let things run there course. There are no words that will express my sorrow and consern for the loss of what was believed to be a great friendship. You will be in my heart and prayers.

The Song Matters Not It's In The Freedom Of The Expression
What do I do? I dance . the songs are my emotions & their expression is in my movements ;which are an expression of my soul..............I need no audience for all are there. I need no direction because it results from my thought process. The dance that starts out fun & flirty often turns into a passion play of movements ranging from sensual to seductive to romantic grace in true art form . The others that start out needing comfort in expression can turn into the most soul releasing journeys. I guess in this it has taken me many years to fully understand the true joy I had with dance...it allowed me to be free to feel the entire gamut of emotions & never feel censure...My opinions were expressed.... I am so glad to have found my joy again through dance... I guess the funny thing is that all those years Ms.Ginger was right as we get older something inside ourselves changes we let life & conflict kill the drive for dance.... we let schedules & finances & other obligations take our lo

Lyrics
Never think What's in your heart What's in our home That's all I want You'll learn to hate me But you still call me baby Oh Lord Just call me by my name And oh, save your soul save your soul Before you're too far gone Before nothing can be done I'll try to decide when Shall I win I ain't got no fight in me In this whole damn world To tell you to hold off But you still hold on It's the one thing that Iknown Once I put my coat on I'm coming out of this all wrong She's standing outside holding me She's saying oh please I'm in love I'm in love Girl save your soul Save your soul Before you're too far gone And before nothing can be done 'Cause without me You got it all So hold on Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all So hold on Without me you got it all So hold on Hold on

My Cousin
Okay so for those of you who read my last mumm you kinda know the situation. I really cant hold this in anymore. SOme of you might have noticed a change in me. WEll its because i found out that for sure my aunt did abuse my cousin. For those who didnt read my mumm i will break it down for you. My cousin is 23 years old and has down syndrome. She is not very high functioning but does speak some and can do a lot of things most ppl can (ie: wash herself and feed herself). She was living with my our aunt (her biological mother is dead and her father is a drug addict in jail.) She has been livin with her for 6 years. Back months ago she was admitted into the hospital for "blood on the brain" that could not be explained and had bruises and cuts everywhere and her lip was split wide open. Adult protective services stepped in and said they were going to investigate but never did. After we questioned my aunt about what happend she stopped letting us see my cousin. Back in February i got a text

Life Is Great
I woke up this morning think that happiestness comes from the heart/within. Only we can make our own life the way we want it to be and if we cannot do for ourselves then who the hell will. Life is too short to count on others. If you want someting done right do it yourself. Is'nt life great.

Does Happines Really Exist
The happiness ive wanted is slipping away Moment by moment,day by day Theres nothing i can do or nothing i can say I had a deep down fear from the very first day It was all like a deam to good to be true I should have figured my luck That iwould end up sad,lonely,an blue I try an hold on with allof my might But something tells me i loseing this fight I give my heart,my love,my soul Just hopeing for happiness an someone to hold Life is misserable when you set all alone If it wasnt for my sons i would have already been gone My birthday i thursday i turn 45 I truely wonder how much longer in life im to survive Lifes getting harder each day that goes by Times getting shorter with each day that goes by Love life an happiness just passes me by There is one person thats brought a smile to my face Love lust an hunger for her i do taste Moment by moment day by day i want her with me In evey possible way All that im wanting is happiness at last So this ol country boy can

Smile For Me
come on now smile for meyou miss the one expressionyou forgot what it was to be happy the world hurt you many times beforebut we're not all the sameyou know you want to feel it again im not the samei wont leave scars of pain in your heartopen up to me and you'll see we'll both be fine forget those sad memoriesill erase them from youyoull be blank lets write a new storythis one will have a happy endingnot everything has to be dramatic sad ill put color in your cheeksill make you smile againill make you forget painful feelings i promise youll be whole againand you can give me the only thing i can ask formaybe too much to ask but boy, i dont want anything besides that let me have you by my side till the endi will never ask for anything elsesince the one and only thing that makes my life valuableis you and only you

Tears
They say our tears wash away all that is old,They are the cleanser of our very souls,And when they are through, make us whole. They stream down like the rain,Our emotions they do drain,Purifying evil demons of the past,So we may live happily at last. To bury deep, the sadness of life,Our tears wash away all strife,That we may hold our heads on high,And never again let our demons nigh. Our tears wash away all that is old, Never again to shiver from the cold,That has wrought our emotional stateAnd our demons they did abate.

Keep Me From Falling
I stand before the cliffThe wind blows through my hairFear and regreat pulse through my Warm but almost dead-like veinsI came here for a reasonA reason to fallNothing can stop me nowNot even the last person on EarthTime has stoppedMy heart has stoppedThings stop in motionMy mind say jumpBut my feet keep me in placeWhat should I do?I cant go back to youYou dont want meI wanted youIf I dont have you then I am considered nothingI turn around and face the forestThe ocean breeze shakes the limbs of treesThey sway with the windThe clouds roll out ward to a new place and a new timeEverything is quietI can only hear the oceanNot a voiceNot a heart beat becuase my heart is deadJust me and the cliffI close my eyesSay a prayerTell everyone good byeI tip back wardSomething grabs my handThey Keep Me From FallingIts youWith nothing but tearsA rush goes through meI dont want to fall anymoreExcitment runs through my faceI tell you I love youI want you My heart starts beating againI feel aliveYou look

A Poem By My Mother
poem Sunday, April 26, 2009 11:06 AM From: "MaryAnne Bartlett" To: "Daniel Vaughan", "Arthur Bartlett" I don’t usually show people “roughs”, but I wanted to share this one. Mom Crossed Over May 1, 2008 I called you and you didn’t answer I called you and you didn’t answer, as usual, Then I let myself into your house with my key. When I saw the back of your head Tucked into a pillow over the arm of your sofa It was the same as every other time you had fallen asleep waiting for me.

Campingmost Every Weekend From Late Spring To Early Fall I Am In The Mountains Or Over The Pass
Most every weekend from late Spring to early Fall I am in the mountains or over the passcamping. I am usually by myself – except for the dogs. I love it. Away from developedcampsites and out in more remote locations is where I end up. No picnic benches or metal firepits. I do, sometimes, bring a hammock though. Even in the winter, I have a hard time stayinghome when I can be out in the woods or along a river someplace. Besides following every trail and wandering dirt-gravel roads that I find, I like just being there. The quiet, if I’m not next to a river, stream or fall, is sometimes so profound I lose myself. Justthe sound of my own footfalls or the dogs racing through the green melts away any stress ortension that’s been clinging to me during the week. One of the reasons I dislike developedcamping areas is that so many people play music – generally too loudly for – it makes no sense tome, but I am me and they are them. And people singi

Pit's
You know you meet great friends on Fubar and you become like family,then you find out you just became a friends with a sour cherry pit!Fubar is all about fun it's a place to escape from reality!Then some one comes along and starts drama,and why?Because if they can't be happy they start drama for other peep's on Fubar!My oppinion is come on stop the the dam drama like Rodney King stated"Can't we all just get along" and because of his statement the koas stopped so lets do the same on fubar!It's all about fun and partining!

Waiting For My Dark Lord
In my black velvet dreams; your lips call to meskin pale as the moon; fangs dripping with anticpationyour bite is intoxicating; plunging me into a twilight abysswarmth rushes around me; senses tingling; passion flaringI awake; the daylight burns my eyesI'm left craving you and the darkness that follows

Piss Off
Recently I have been thinking about leaving this place. Too much drama.Too many people thinking this site rotates around them. I couldn't care less what level you areI dont need to know how many points you're away from the next pointless level.Why are people so eager and anxious to get to the highest level?It doesnt mean you're better then anyone one else.Doesnt mean more people love you. More then likely, it you whoring yourself out, begging, or spending money on shit you dont need.I thougt we were in a recession? But right and left people are shellin out 100 bucks for a damned Happy Hour.I miss CherryTap. Leveling was a lot harder, made it more satisfying to get there. I've been on this site for over two years now, seen a lot of things changed. It didnt used to be as fake, and cheapened as it is now. It was fun. I was here everyday. Now, there's so much begging for bling,that it gets annoying. Really makes me wanna just delete everyone but my close circle of friends, and block j

Cancer I Will Beat It
hi my name is dakota i just want to let you know and my friends i love dearly that i have cancer and i will fight hard the doctors say i can beat this they just caught it in time my mom passed in sept of 08 of cancer i dont want special treatment just want people come by and say hi i dont bite i love fubar and the people on here i have a wonderfull time on fu it keeps my hopes up to say hi to all people i do have a goal on fubar when i started i want to make it to level 30 i will that keeps me going i hope all will be here when i do make my level thanks all for taking time to read kisses/hugzzzzz UP DATE IM GOING TO MAKE SALUTE TOMMROW BUT IM GOING THREW KEMO OK DONT MAKE FUN OF ME I WAS GOING TO WAIT UNTIL MY TREATMENT WAS OVER BUT I WANT MY ANGEL WINGS PLEASE BARE WITH ME LOVE DAKOTA

I Am Not Crazy My Reality Just Differs To Yours
Good Morning All I just woke up and, as usual, have thoughts in my head that I thought I would share. In life we all have our own perception of the same thing, that will be based upon the blueprint of who we are ... Each experience in life, from how we were raised to how we grew up, to who we married and who we divorced, to who we screwed and who we shouldn't have screwed, shapes our lives and who we become based on learnings we have acquired from those experiences. There is no shame in sharing your learnings. There is no shame in asking for someone's advice so you can learn. Some of us learn by trial and error. Some of us learn by prevention, probably the safest way. But we do this by listening to those who have learnt through trial and error, probably the hard way. Some of us don't learn, because we can't escape a negative cycle. And we can't escape because we don't understand ourselves. Or we fear losing something that is part of us whether it is good or bad. So each of

Will He Answer
he said he loved mei was unsure if it was truemaybe he said it to every girli hoped i wasn't like all the restdoomed to fail before it beganplayed all too ofteni knew how sweet lies can bewanting not to feel bluei hesitated thinking i have heard this drivelall before and needn't fall againdesiring to be held in armsof a man only seen through a screenwondering if calling himis worth the risksknowing better yet desiring so much morefeeling as thoughi am missing somethingyet i have more than someand far less than otherswhere may i goas i ponderi find the more i lookthe more i get lostis this where i startedthe petals lying at my feetstill don't answer memaybe he will say iti love youi always willmaybe i should keep lookingeither way thinking i was lovedbrought a smile to my faceso i wonder will he answer

30 Questions
1. Have you ever been searched by the cops? Negative. 2. Do you close your eyes on rollercoasters? I rarely ride them. I know..I'm lame 3. When's the last time you've been sledding? We don't get enough snow to go sledding. 4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone? I'd much rather sleep with someone else. I don't sleep very well alone. 5. Do you believe in ghosts? Not really sure 6. Do you consider yourself creative? God no 7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife? 10-4. 8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie? Neither 9. Can you honestly say you know ANYTHING about politics? I know SOME about it, I just chose not to talk about it. 10. Do you know how to play poker? I know enough 11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? Yeah 12. What's your favorite commercial? I like the Freecreditreport.com ones 13. Who was your first love? His name is Brian. I don't talk to him now, lol 14. If you're driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around you, do you run a red lig

Silk And Tater
SILK AND TATER Ok Guys and Gals, I have avoided FU since returning home for a reason. Silk and I are both private people and we were trying to get better and come back to FU together with our stories of our AMAZING time together and pictures (6000+ that’s what happens when you go with a photographer LOL) of our trip. Well, that’s not going to happen for awhile. As some of you may know, (since the drama train here never stops) Silk and I both became ill the last few days of our trip. Since returning home on Tuesday night, I have spent all my energy trying to recover and do what I can for Silk from here. Personally I am drained and in pain and my end up in the hospital myself, but right now I’m trying to get better on my own, be Mommy and worry myself sick about him! He is doing a lil better right now, but not good and is still hospitalized. All well wishes, prayers and good karma sent our way are apprecia

Yes I Am!
Ok here's the deal. I finally have the chance to bomb my friends, something i have been waiting awhile to do. So here is what i want you to do. Before 9pm est time, I want you to shoutbox me the link to the folder you want bombed. You know this will benefit both of us. I dont want to waste time looking for a folder to bomb. If you want to tell your friends and have them get bomb too, then have them R/F/A me, if not already done, and then they can shout me the link. Hopefully this "virgin" bomb of mine will go good. Thanks to all my fu-friends in advance. I'll be by to bomb you later tonight.

Privacy Information For Lounge Owners
If you run a lounge here on fubar you will be interested to know that we've given you more options for your lounge privacy. Previously we offered only public and private (member & invite only) modes of lounge privacy. We now offer the following options: 1) public - everyone may view or enter your lounge 2) users must be logged in to enter (view) lounge (no more ghosting your lounge by logged out users!) 3) users must have salute to enter lounge - help keep your lounge free of fakes 4) members & invite only - Only subscribed members and newly invited people may enter 5) Staff & Invite only - Only staff and invited members may join, even subscribed members may not Please let me know if you have any questions of comments on the new functionality OR other lounge ideas thanks, -eric650

Amy's World
Just a random blog about some happenings in my world. So I was going to run my autos on Friday and use the last bomb I have so that I would level. I wanted to level on Friday because I knew my VIP expired over the weekend. After I leveled and my VIP expired I was going to take a break from this place. But it seems fate threw me a curveball and made me take a mini break now because my internet is out at home. Needless to say I'm kind of sad. I miss the VIP only because I have pictures I want to upload. Yeah, I know I'm lame. I don't think the internet god's want me to make it to Oracle. haha. So I think I'll just continue on my mini break. I want to say thank you to those of you who contacted me outside of fubar since I've been without internet. Also, those of you who left me comments, photo rates and comments, and gifts. I truly do love my friends on here. You all keep me from signing off permanently. Yesterday at work I went to go pick something up off the ground as we wer

Many Ways Of Love
i've seen love in so many ways some have been good... some have been bad... some have been nice... and some have been sweet... show me what love is all about learning and growing as love spins all around you spinning the right way you will run into it not knowing when or where but no love is like the love i feel right now for the one i love is the true love shining bright into the storm pushing the storm out of sight i shall scribe her name in blood... i shall scribe her name in stone... cause her name is scribed into my heart now

Mom (written By:kionna)
No matter where she goes She will always love us Where ever she is or she's with We're more important than it She sees my other side She helps my pride She's the one I depend on She will always be my mom Mom I need to THANK YOU For all you do Mom your special and cool Oh how I can trust you My mom she doesnt know What I never show I LOVE YOU THO You are my best friend The only person I know My secrets are safe with Thank you for loving us COMPLETELY!!! Written by: my daughter Kionna I lovers you too My strength in numbers!

A More Worthy Man Than Me
His name wa Anthony James, and he was my son for 44 hours and 55 minutes. so heres his short and eventful biography.It started on Thursday. Sharalon, Anthonys mother, and I went to dinner and had an awesome time. Then later she started having a sour stomach, or at least thats what we thought. We get home and she became more upset and wondered if something was wrong with the baby. It got so bad that she started screaming at me and we got into an argument that lasted all night and into the next morning.Friday morning, I had to leave for work mad. I worked at a developmentally disabled group home for 12 hours that day. Sharalon kept calling me and complaining about how it hurt so bad and I finally convinced her that she should call her doctor. This was at about 6 pm. I got home about 8 30 pm and I started noticing her wincing every couple of minutes. I took the phone and I called her doctor and told her what I had seen. The doctor said that we should head to the hospital to find out if ev

Importance Of A Quarter
a lot of you have asked why i flip a quarter to help me make choices. here's an explanation why.every choice you make usually comes down to the end of have one or the other. one is ok and th other isn't bad either. one way hurts someone and the other way lets something go. the quarter is a spectacular way of making the choice. each side of a choice has something good and something bad. someone wins and someone loses no matter which way you go. the random quality of a coin flip makes it easier when you are wracking your brain and your heart is unsure of the right direction. so next time you have something you can't decide of pull out a quarter. it'll be a lot easier than sitting there and doing nothing. also, it helps with minor decisions. what to eat tonight? burger or subway, coin flip. diet pepsi or diet coke, coin flip. red shirt or blue shirt, coin flip. see how easy it is?

Rules To Live By
i have thought long and hard about things that have been going on in my life and have come to a few conclusions. because of this i have started making a list of truths about myself. i am sure and certain you have all heard these things come out of my mouth but i think i should put it in a consolidated list.1) my name is James not Mr Fix It Man. your problems are not mine you fix them i'm too tired to.2) the truth is easier to handle than something you think i want to hear. so tell me the truth or shut up. too tired of people thinking that i am too tender to hear the truth. i'm not that breakable so tell me the truth not what i want to hear.3) do or do not there is no try. it seems that everyone i meet and become friends with i try to make better. this ends now. do it or not but do it your own damn self.4) money is not a high priority in my life. get over it.5) i am here to make friends and maybe meet a few special people. so guess what? you already have impressed me enough to get me to

Two-faced Baby
AFP - Noida - in India, New Noida'da three weeks ago in northeast Delhi'nin Indian baby born with two faces of the families of children with normal breathing can be fed announced. Baby girl names that are not yet exposed to the curious view by some is seen as a goddess. Father Vinod Kumar "First I saw a little bit scared," he is talking and the two-edged four-eyed baby ailesince Kumar were easily accepted. Family, children in need of surgical treatment on whether the doctor does not consider. In very rare cases the doctor found that the baby's skull in two with one another contraction is not possible to distinguish, but the baby is not in danger, to take precautions against complications that defense is necessary to control. Their health is normal when born, the doctor said the baby is being fed with a mouth to suck on another finger. Parents to feed the baby which is available for oral use it is. In India in November last with four arms and four legs was born Lakshmi Tata wake echo su

Running Into The Blaze
terror has looked at me so many times tring to just me to loose my mind on reality watchinng the walls come crashing down listening to the screams of help run into the blaze...... run into the fire of horror looking for the ones that need the help run into the blaze.... rescue the young and old bash bash the windows to try to get the light in... smash smash the doors in to find all that need our help hear the cries for help..... run into the blaze.... running into the fire as people pass by you running for their lives you run into.... running into the blaze...... feeling the heat and your adreneline starts to rush......... knowing you have to save the ones that need you the most

Any Single Femals From California Or Yu Think I"am A Cutie?
I"AM mike from Southern,California area.New on here too!! ----------- I LIKE & adore Big women & Gorgeous WOmen too So CONTACT ME on!!!!! www.myspace.com/mdbone39 , www.xpeeps.com/mdbone39 ,YIM is BONE93117@yahoo.com Mike from SOuthern,California & I LOVE -adore Big women --------------------- HOW Are yu today???bone: IF yur on YIM ad BONE93117@yahoo.com . THis is fun to download on yur YIM http://www.smileyhub.com/s.asp?im=Yahoo&ref=3&ses=136206581&rsn=2&app=40362533&cont=%5c@TCBE(20226)(0)$V=2,S=136206581$%5c@TCEE SO what of1) Type of guy2)NAtionallity yur looking for3)Whats yur age of guys yu like to dateDO yu like younger-older- White-LAtin-mix or any race of guys to date?Just curious!!!!!!!

Looking Into The Night Sky
Looking out into the night sky I know it is time to say goodbye. I will walk away with a sigh. There's nothing left here but the pain, I am going insane. What happen to the laughter, there's only tears. My friends have all gone, where did i go wrong. There is a different kind of pain here. I look out into the night sky, i realize there is nothing left but the words goodbye. we traveled a road of hardships, it has been rough, even tough at times. There is no more ryhme. We were friends but it was never meant to last forever. The seams cannot be mended. I have to say goodbye. I will walk away with a sigh. Tried to make you smile, through the miles. tried to make the bad, not so sad. But now where are you, somewhere in this world. I am no longer a part of your life, all i feel is this knife. It rips at my heart cause now we are far apart. As I look out into the night sky, it is time for me to say goodbye.

Dream Or Reality
walking down the row thinking of the love that is waiting for you what a lucky life you have now.... wishing she was by your side now but she is waiting for you... is this dream or reality... as you walk you keep thinking of how she makes you feel... bang bang you hear a knock on the door... as you look you know it was all a dream screaming no..... why did this dream have to end looking around you think could that really happen to me as you look out the window you see the one you was dreaming about oh wow there she goes looking so good just standing there so lonely bang bang thoughts go off in your head wow i could make my dream reality... seeing that delicous smile and sexy eyes your heart drops how i would love... oh how i would love to spend my life with her

My Middle Son
I have a middle son who I love with all my heart but that boy is so irrespondsible in keeping his word. We have asked him on several occassions to help us with a project at home that need another pair of hands. He agrees to help but then when the time comes, he has excuses why he cant. I know he has his own life and eventually is suppose to get married but ! How sad is it when he will drop all hes doing to go help his future mother and father in law and when it comes to his own family turned a blind eye. I have spoken to him on several occassions and it falls on deft ears . I ask hubby to speak to him and he just mumbles and says whats the point. I wish I could sit him down and tell him just how much it upsets his dad and I with out him getting all pissy with us and walking out the door. I feel so lost

Soothing Sunday
Sundays are such a relaxing day ..I tend to do NOTHING all day. Making me seriously regret working on Monday! I always miss my boyfriend on Sunday cause we are both too set to drive to see each other. I miss him today, I havent seen him since Friday afternoon. Well its ben a great pool day though my son is making me crazy by wanting all the kids to come over and play, glad no one is home. LOL Happy Sunday all

Going Home People.
Well friends, family, and comlete strangers, I am suppossed to be home on the 20th or so of May. Excited!!! I'm ready for a break, go home, take care of the personal matters that won't seemingly resolve themselves, and take my son spend time with him, and go on a road trip probably. Might take my son with me don't know. But hey I also plan on being: FuckedUpBeyondAllRecognition So if your interested in joining me let me know. Always funner to drink with a friend!!!

My Name
Imagine living for over a quarter century and answering the same question every single day. Kind of like the movie Groundhog Day, minus the suicide attempts and Bill Murray. It's not a question whose answer greatly impacts anyone or anything. It's just a simple question asked by curious people. But it's never-ending. Welcome to my life. Every day, almost without fail, I am asked about my name. What is your name? Is it your real name? What's your middle name? How did you get that name? Are your parents hippies? Were they on crack cocaine when they named you? Did they yell into a canyon before they named you? All of these questions and more on a regular basis. Quite honestly, it gets a bit tiring having to answer the same questions all the time. And I understand that people are curious - I'm probably one of the more nosey people you've ever met. But it's just getting old now, after almost 31 years. So let's set the record straight and get it all out once and for all. My name - yes,

Life
Support those who protect our country & in our community they fight for us everyday to keep us safe. we call them out for duty over seas they go some make it home some don't. we call them in the middle of the night when we have a prowler in our yard. they come to us when there is a fire so we don't lose our home. these men and women is our friends co-workers but most of there our FAMLIY. I am very proud to be part of there FAMILY

The Life I Have Lived...
So I dont know where to start this off at ... but this morning sounds real good. I watched the first most beautiful sunrise of my life n had a reflection on my life. Someone told me a few days ago when I found out who I am, let him know. He cant see this n maybe that will be my blessing ... but I know who I am now. I am NO longer afraid of me,the outside world or the people in it ... I am beautiful,passionate, loving, caring, alive. My heart is pure n truthful. Im gonna dig deeper into my past so those who know why this is being written, might understand what I did n an amazing soul that help me understand "That I am more than good enough for this world to see n know". This I dedicate to ... I am a women who survived the abuse of a man for 12 years. I wish sometimes for his sake I could say it was my fault but I know the difference now in a sick love n actual love. The first time he hit me, I was like wtf did I do. He said his lil ole apology n I forgave him. Then it got worse

Why Did You Leave
I knew this day would come, the day you would go away from me. I patiently await your return but your no where in sight. from dusk till dawn till the early morning light I wait for your sillouette to appear through the fog but i cannot see. i reach for you my vision blurry and my heart racing a mile a minute. when i fell in love with you i fell knee deep in it. now im all alone with no one to love or share my heart with now. i want you back in my life but to bring you back i just dont know how tears are a waste of time crying wont ease the pain i walk in the shadows of darkness looking for slightest bit of rain. but rain wont happen because my heart is in too much pain. i see you will never return now my shirt is all bloodstained. you left me to be in heaven and with out you im absolutley lost. im gonna be with you again no matter what the cost. as i raise my hands to the lord i pray he forgives me for my sins now i leap of he building eyes closed...... death is my goal

I Believe... Pt 2
I believe everything happens for a reason I believe I'd sell my soul to know that reason I believe good things come to those who wait I believe Im tired of waiting I believe I've had more than my fair share of pain I believe I'd give anything to make it all just go away I believe I still have a long road to travel I believe Im the higher powers' fucked up idea of a sick cosmic joke I believe I have no idea what Im doing here I believe I have waaaaaayyyy too many thoughts in my head I believe I have waay too many feelings in my heart I believe these words change nothing I believe getting them out makes me feel better anyways I believe its not by much though I believe that even though your heart is broken the pieces can still get smaller I believe I didnt think it was possible to feel so lost I believe I have been here too long I believe I wasnt supposed to make it out of that river I believe I've seen things that will forever haunt me I believe there is something miss

Synecdoche, New York
Possibly Kaufman's most nuts yet, and yet certainly his most beautiful. Pretentious, yes. Tedious, in places. But one of the more breathtakingly original movies I've seen in years. PSH is on top form, and supported by an amazing cast. Loved, loved, loved this movie. GO SEE IT! Kins said so.

The Loss Of A Child
The loss of a child is worse than any grief for a parent. What if the child is somewhere between life and death Lost Do they grieve the burden of a sick child. My friend j told me that God has a purpose in my life And that it will be proven I was lied to ever Believe I am of no use A waste of time. Sometimes I have and do grieve for being such a child and for those who care for me. Moments of grace enter As when my friend said what she did Implying I am cared not just for as in work But about That in doing so I am enjoyed.

Last Chance Help For The Q Baby Idol
I am still looking for help with winning the Q97.9 Baby Idol Contest. The voting ends Thursday and the number you need to enter if you decide to help is 0056. Please vote and the website is www.wjbq.com and you can vote as much as you want.

Elvis
I am sitting outside. My step-dad is blasting Elvis, and attempting to sing. It's so loud that I can't even hear the music on my laptop, when I have it turned up all the way. This sucks. I can't escape!!!! SAVE ME!!!

Her Shadow
Her Shadow Her curves cast the shadow Like a sundial slowly moving across the floor She awaits her lover’s strong touch Her heart pounding for what is in store She waits by the window As the sun moves through the sky Her lover journey’s home now His soul heard her passionate cry As the shadow drifts silently Her mind wanders to the past

Trivia #23- Episode 103
Ok, with a large crowd on hand and many of them actually participating, trivia was fun as always... Here are the results of last night's event: Mchgn---------------40Tempest-------------29Ferfer-----------------28Punkette-------------28Redlar----------------25Serenity--------------24MammaHelle-------21Xanrose-------------18Warmachine--------17Dwark----------------15Sheena--------------11Topfueler-------------5Crazybitch------------5DrMarko---------------5Tor---------------------5OP----------------------4CMoney--------------4Kerry------------------3DJPony---------------3 Congrats to Mch for winning the weekly 5pt bonus! Welcome in all the new participants and keep up the good work. NOW, here is the all important Running totals up to this date: Xanrose-------------------641Mchgn---------------------621Lost------------------------507Redlar---------------------480MammaHelle------------463Sheena--------------------387Nightshade---------------383Punkette------------------376MissAshley-

Your Eyes
When I'm lost in your eyes my world seems to stop I am breathless but I know I'm alive The whispers of my heart Echo through to the depths of my mind And I'm open to the feelings inside With every waking hour I am captivated with the essence of you So inviting a love that I know is true with every precious moment I see just how much love I hold in my heart for you Are you the deepest ocean moving along with the tide Do you feel the waves Crashing when I look in your eyes Are you the gift from the heavens That lights the evening skies If I spoke the truths of my heart where would I begin to start For I know that I love you I want you by my side for this lifetime But in the darkest of moments I would give my life over to know you are all right Because you are the one true love in my life

Anger
You stare deep into the mirror Analyzing with hate your reflection All you see is inability and failure Ugly, and utterly devoid of affection Anger and malice your enemy Doubt and depression his tools How can you ever love anyone If you can only hate yourself? Stunned, I stare at you I see such talent and potential Beauty simply radiating outward What others think is inconsequential Yet I don't think, I know You have such a brilliant mind One to make others contemptible Still, your incredibly kind So stop looking down See all that you have to show You're worth all of the world Surely now you must know...

Too Many Pieces
like a puzzle so many pieces, so much thinking, too much confusion. just to figure what goes where who am i and where do i go? is this right? no. is this wrong no? takes time, listening to minutes click off on the clock watching hour by hour, day by day pass me by will i be finished? when will i be complete? when not all my pieces are here. one lost, ceased to be found searching, looking, dreaming all i need is one piece. all i need... is you.

Is This Love?
You turn away When you're in my sight; Tell me, Is this love? You have me crying Through the night; Tell me, Is this love? You draw my attention, Then ignore me again; Tell me, Is this love? You like me once, But despise my taste; Tell me, Is this love? You don't know Where your heart is placed; Tell me, Is this love? You think That my true love will pass; Tell me, Is this love? You don't bother to see Who's in my grasp; Tell me, Is this love? Why can't you be What I can see Beyond your handsome smile? Just look at me, And you will see How love can take a while. Oh, for the precious longing Of a present from above, God has given you to me, And this is all my love.

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Midnight Kiss
A branch entwined, Leaves fall to the floor like glitter. Rosemary scents encrusted in the vines. A taste not so sweet, hardly bitter. Her hair caressing the nape of her neck. His warmth sheltering her from the bliss. Muscles tightening, hearts pumping. A careless breath, a midnight kiss. Glistening tears descending from the skies. A gift from the playful cherub above. Tender hopes, see it their eyes. This is their time, time to share their love. They know not what their future beholds, or how many moments like this they will grasp. But as their tale unfolds, You will see them testing you from behind your mask. They are the purity of desire. Orion watches over their plentiful risks. They are neither ice nor fire. They are Midnight Lovers, sharing a midnight kiss.

For Grandpa
This isnt 100% finished. I still want to add more pics. Grandpa, we miss you and love you. You are forever in our hearts Make an on-line slideshow at www.OneTrueMedia.com Make video montages at www.OneTrueMedia.com

Hey All
I beheld the dragon in his glory,"mocking"THE WORD between Heaven and Earth.In his clutches,the family followed by pestilences in the ages of men!!! But THE GREATER LIGHT brought it A-L-L to bear,BROUGHT A-L-L into the Light,but Men were content to"Sleepwalk in THE GREATER LIGHT!!!!! For I was in the time of"Instant Gratification Syndrome which"CONSUMED A-L-L"but the small and "Faithful Few."Where were The Men of GOD?!?",I asked JEHOVAH-NISSI!!.THE CREATOR ANSWERED,"One third of them holding offices betray A-L-L before him,For He"IS ONLY PLEASED"In His own intelligence!!!!!" Instantly My heart became grieved knowing,"THERE IS NO WISEDOM,COUNSEL,NOR UNDERSTANDING AGAINIST THE LORD!!!!!" Men had become smarter,"BUT WEAKER"in the flesh!!! Our days on the cusp of extinction.The world,you ask?!?,the brink of destruction!!! From SPIRIT to Earth to Flesh,the falling veil reveals Man's TRUE Distance from GOD and HIS KINGDOM!!!!!!!" Satan's laughter"FLEETING IN OBEDIENCE"before"THE GREAT I AM,F

Laugh With Me
Laugh with me For a little while Grin at me I love your smile. Hold my hand In your firm, warm grasp Meet my eyes Fall to the grass. Laughing like before Rolling around like old times Just hanging out, having fun Please can I call you mine? Hold me tight like when we last met Don't ever let me fall or go I'm in your grasp, I'm in your life I love you so damn much, don't you know? Help me to find the comfort Hidden within your arms Let me feel vulnerable But don't let me go. Rejoice for the terror has gone The resentment and anger has passed But still don't let me go Hold me tight within your arms So I can finally feel safe. Kiss me, hold me Never let me go Please just hold me tight I cant let you go. Laugh with me Fall with me Walk with me Rejoice with me. Smile with me Hang out with me Hold my hand And love me true as I have you.

Scent Of A Woman
Just before dawn breaksThe room greyYou lie awake tranquilWith hopes of more sleepDeep breath followed by a subtle sighOnly provided a stimulating scent to take hold of you With her back to you, she lays, still within the grasp of nights sleepStarring for a moment; taking in the sight of her silhouetted curvesBlanket cascaded along her lower back - teasing you, tempting you The faint fog of sleep has liftedAnother deep breath followed by a subtle sighLifting the blanket, moving inYour arm wraps and pulls her inRemoving the space between youHer skin rushes the blood within youYour head pillowed by her neck melts youThe hold of her scent swells youThe squirm of her hips pressing against you, signals you Her shoulder welcomes the touch of your lipsHer body loosens within your graspYour teeth provide a pinch of desireWarranting the faint moan of your nameHer breast cradled in your handAgain her ass presses against you...leading you Quickly movingSurprising herNow you straddle her backT

Cleaning Friends List
So it seems I've added way too many people. I have waaaaay too many friends and half of these people I dont even remember adding. Which means I havent heard from them since I added them. So why stay on my list then? I will be clearing out space today and tommorrow. So if you still want to remain friends and you think you might be deleted drop me a line, rate some pics or something..lol!! If we never talk or rate eachother then why stay friends? It makes it harder to find the ones I actually communicate with. So to leave it as that I will be clearing friends today and the next few days.Some of you know that you will NOT be deleted so dont be silly :P For all the others if you choose to let me delete you then Adios and Peace! xox -Lisa the Star-

If I Was Yours
If I was yours what would you do? Would you love me forever? Would you be true? Would you hold me all night? Would you dance under the moon? Would you scare away the nightmares? Would you laugh at my jokes? would you Keep me forever? Or would you leave when your through? Would you help me to live? Would you help me to love? What would you do? If I was yours?

Cheap Hearing Aid
A man realized he needed to purchase a hearing aid, but he felt unwilling to spend much money. "How much do they run?" he asked the clerk. "That depends," said the salesman. "They run from $2.00 to $2,000." "Let's see the $2.00 model," he said. The clerk put the device around the man's neck. "You just stick this button in your ear and run this little string down to your pocket," he instructed. "How does it work?" the customer asked. "For $2.00 it doesn't work," the salesman replied. "But when people see it on you, they'll talk louder!"

I Love You
I love the way you laugh, I love the way you smile, You have a way of warming up a room With your laughter, wit, and style I love to hear your voice, I love to hear you sing, Your heart can turn a simple song Into such a magic thing I love the way you give a hug, I love the way you kiss, The passion in your lips Fills my heart with joy and bliss I love to have you in my arms, I love to hold you tight, I love to listen to you breathe If I could hold you through the night I love you every moment, I've loved you from the start, Its you I gave my heart. We traveled through a maze To the finish line we gaze, Will you be there for me? I will be there for you. I love you.

Thanks Kishra!!!
i just realized something...i don't HATE kishtra. ( i don't like her either but i don't waste my time dwelling on the past or whatever) but i just had an epiphany! it's THANKS TO HER that i am with Jamie!!! i've been re-typing my old livejournals & putting them back online & all that shit that happened--happened for a reason. sure she deserves to be punched in the face for stalking us,spreading rumors& stealing from jamie but that was 4 years ago & i kinda owe her one....becos w/o her jamie never woulda told me he was in love with me & i never woulda realized that i could love him back as more than a friend...& now we've been together for 4 years & will be together for the rest of our lives!!! YAY!!! so THANKS KISHTRA!!! old journals entries i just re posted: I'M IN LOVE WITH MY BEST FRIEND (cos i didn't just jump into a relationship w/jamie. i tried to "let him down easy" at first cos i thought i didn't feel the same way!!) HAPPY BIRTHDAY (this is from a few days later after jamie &

Granulated...
I can see you slipping awayHold my breath asI count down the daysAs your face fadesSlowly with timeI sit to think whenYou were mineNow I sit alone inThis placeAnd I stare blanklyinto spaceSee the time slipThrough my handsFeels like the beachPlaying in the sandWith every grain Falling to the groundI know it's only lonlinessI have foundWish I could turn the Hands of time andGo back to the days When I was fineBut now you're goneThere's no more lookingBackIt was love and Compassion youhad lackedSo I'll wish you luck And happiness my loveFor I know I wasNot your one.

Everyone Needs Someone ( By Y Sister Maya )
""Everyone Needs Someone People need people and friends need friends And we all need love, for a full life depends Not on vast riches or great acclaim Not on success or worldly fame But just in knowing that someone cares And holds us close in their thoughts and prayers For only the knowledge that we're understood Makes everyday living, feel wonderfully good And we rob ourselves of life's greatest need When we "lock up our hearts" and fail to heed The outstretched hand reaching to find A kindred spirit whose heart and mind Are lonely and longing to somehow share Our joys and our sorrows and to make us aware That life's completeness and richness depends On the things we share with our loved ones and friends""

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Here And Now
I just saw this on someone's profile and felt compelled to share it: You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being a human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more then she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." - BOB MARLEY

Episode 103- A Hellcast Holiday
Last night was as crazy as ever, as Mch had connection problems, OP was way past drunk and there was a Bitch sighting! Yes, Nightshade made a return to the show and everything was ok till he went off the deep end and told Redlar to 'FUCK OFF ASSHOLE". So then i treated him as the female dog in heat that he was acting like. OP claims to have only had 4 beers all night, in his purple Bud Light cans and all, and has taken on new responsibilities in the show, as Deacon OP. This Hellcast Holiday is a week long celebration in honor of MCH, who has coined the term "Stab a ho in the face". So this week is "Stab a ho in the face week" on Hellcast Radio, and with such, we have found a show mascot, Hellena. As promised, she now has her own facebook page, just search Hellena Jane Hellcast and you will find her. More exciting photos of her life will soon be coming. Redlar, Mch, and Punkette were not drinking so Mamma Helle and OP took up the slack. Here is what we covered in the show: Hellcast New

Communicating In A Relationship
Complaining about us men (communicating in a relationship) Current mood: restless Category: Romance and Relationships Since joining Fubar.com I have come across a lot of blogs (by women) that involve what is wrong with black men and what they need to do. Well let me attempt to offer a rebuttle of sorts ....here goes: Don't be so shocked Ladies - guys do actually talk, and not just about the New England Patriots winning streak Most women think their man is the strong, silent type (or maybe the oblivious, silent type), and they wonder why he doesn't share his feelings.But here's the truth: Men do want to open up, about their hopes, their fears, and their passions. Yet put him alone in a room with you, and he often turns into a Sphinx. Why can't he take his eyes off the TV and talk about the state of the relationship, or the finances, or, heck, the backyard landscaping? Why in the world can't he just summarize his day for 10 minutes. Here's one answer: Because even men who

Hrmmm
I turn on my yahoo for the first time since the end of last month. I don't really know why I haven't been on there, but oh well. I have a few offline messages. Most of them are from my friends, just saying good morning. One of them was from someone I have blocked on here. I'm not sure if I should send them an IM or not. The reason I blocked him from here was because he made me feel like shit. If I didn't tell him thank you right after he sent something I'd hear about it. If I used my money and blinged someone else, I'd hear about it. He was making me feel like I was an object, not a person. He would even send me texts saying he missed me...even though we'd talked that morning and it was only the AFTERNOON. I don't know..maybe I blocked him too soon...but every single time I tried to talk to him about it and how he was making me feel, he would just say "whatever". Not even let me finish a thought to him. But another thing I got when I signed on to Yahoo.....a friend request. I thoug

I Own You~ Version Two
I get the call that he is minutes away. I am to put a blindfold on and wait by the door in my black robe only. My heart is pounding as I turn out the lights and place the blindfold on at the door. My nipples are so hard they ache, and I can feel the wetness between my legs, wondering if I should clean up or just wait there wet. The decision is made for me because I suddenly hear footsteps on the porch. Master is here!!!I hear the door knob turn and I freeze. My heart is now pounding. The door opens and he is so close I can hear him breathe and feel the heat from his body. I take a deep breath. He says nothing, but leads me blindfolded into the room and places me on a chair. I just try to be calm and wait, while he cuffs my hands behind my back, locking them. Then he spreads my thighs wide open and ties my ankles to the chair legs. I am fully exposed for his eyes. I take a deep breath knowing he's looking at me and praying that I don't disappoint him.The cool air on my skin makes my bre

I Own You~ Version One
"I own you-you are my slave and mine alone" again and again, as if it is a chant, you tell me as you fuck me with long smooth thrusts, kissing me fiercely, waiting until you know I'm about to orgasm. Before I actually do, you slip out of me, pulling me up and onto my knees, grabbing and pinning my wrists together tightly. I gasp, the pain so sudden, so fierce. You tell me that you want to prove to me that I can place myself totally in your care. You ask me to surrender to you, totally, to obey you without any question; you tell me you will cherish me for it. Your blue, blue eyes stare unblinking into my soft brown ones as you wait for me to agree. I have no choice but to accept. I know, as well as you do that I am yours. I cannot refuse you. "Yes, My Beloved, Master, I surrender myself to you and I will obey you." I gaze up at you, and nod. You look at me kneeling in front of you with my wrists clamped in one of your hands and the moist swell of my pussy in your other. The expression

Perfect Mothers Day Present For Two!!
Tickets are on sale now for "A Date With Mom" Mother / Son Dinner and Dance.Your tickets are available either through myself or the VFW Post 9439 @ 1800 Bryan Stock Trail (Call me if you have questions of course 307.333.4388)$35.00 Per ticket - 1 ticket equals one couple if you have three people and not two, the third one is $15.00 if you have a fourth, you have to buy another ticket.Only 90 Tickets will be sold.Friday, May 8th 2009 VFW Post 9439 (1800 Bryan Stock Trail Casper WY) on the hill, look for the military helicopter.7pm - 10pDinner 7 - 8Dance 8 - 10ANY AGE is welcome to attendMother / Son - Step Mom / Son - Aunt / Nephew - Grandma / Grandson, you get the idea.Casual to formal wear,its what YOU prefer.Door prizes through out the night.Proceeds to benefit the Shriners Hospitals.What better way to say, "Mom, I love you" then with Dinner and Dancing just days before Mothers Day.

Can't Decide What To Do??
This place has changed so much, Since the 1st time i joined. Everyone so friendly now seems like the people are not as nice as they used to be. When you accept a friend they would rate n fan you and respected you for who you are! Am so bored here nothing fun do any more! My question is what should i do should i stay here see if "things get better" or should i leave just take a brake for a while???

Tha' 225 Witness To Fu225!!!!!
I beheld the dragon in his glory,"mocking"THE WORD between Heaven and Earth.In his clutches,the family followed by pestilences in the ages of men!!! But THE GREATER LIGHT brought it A-L-L to bear,BROUGHT A-L-L into the Light,but Men were content to"Sleepwalk in THE GREATER LIGHT!!!!! For I was in the time of"Instant Gratification Syndrome which"CONSUMED A-L-L"but the small and "Faithful Few."Where were The Men of GOD?!?",I asked JEHOVAH-NISSI!!.THE CREATOR ANSWERED,"One third of them holding offices betray A-L-L before him,For He"IS ONLY PLEASED"In His own intelligence!!!!!" Instantly My heart became grieved knowing,"THERE IS NO WISEDOM,COUNSEL,NOR UNDERSTANDING AGAINIST THE LORD!!!!!" Men had become smarter,"BUT WEAKER"in the flesh!!! Our days on the cusp of extinction.The world,you ask?!?,the brink of destruction!!! From SPIRIT to Earth to Flesh,the falling veil reveals Man's TRUE Distance from GOD and HIS KINGDOM!!!!!!!" Satan's laughter"FLEETING IN OBEDIENCE"before"THE GREAT I AM,F

Russian Citizenship
not permanently, ofcourse. So my mom and I are going to get our Russian passports renewed together. She is going there in a month, and also thinks that its better to spend an arm and a leg on a passport thats good for the next amnt of years, than waste it on stupid visas all the time. I really hate the stupid visa system, esp when even some fuckin Ukraine doesn't require it, but wth. Turns out, however, that since I'm gonna be living in Moscow, I need a residential visa to live there (even though I have a place there, am a 5th generation Muscovite and was born and raised there). And ofcourse that registration thingy is not too cheap; what a fuckin rip off :( Its beginning to make sense why Russians hate my city so much.) Its the only city in Russia into which you cannot move as an outsider, and have to get docs to be a "citizen of the city", so to speak. My friend told me not to worry about that shit (she works as a lawyer at a police presinct in Moscow), but since I have a

Its A Small World After All
The title of the blog is so true. When I first signed up for this site (when it was CherryTap), I would add almost anyone who'd send me a request. I added this guy and we hit it off; we talked a lot. He ended up deleting his account a year and a half ago, but we still kept in touch through another social network and messenger. When our e-friendship started, I lived in NY and he lived in AL. When I moved to MS, he had moved to FL for a job and then ended up moving back. Last night, my husband and I went out to the bar to watch his band play. :D It was the first time we've met face to face. Pretty awesome. 2 years ago, I never would've thought I'd ever be in the same state as him, much less meet him and watch him sing. It was fun and I can't wait to hang out with him and his wife soon! Have a good Sunday all.

Awaken
Awaken from such a slumber see what life has to truly offer. Do not embrace with both hands undertstand it do not fear it for it is not real thee end but the beginning of a new tale. Darkness is not the lack of color you claim to not see it is the shadow in which most of society dwells...... Fear not help for it is much like the earth in which we reside living to kill, cheat and lie. Hunger for knowledge and if you do not agree research the matter to the highest degree. Grasp for understanding before casting judgement on that which is misunderstood. Blessing flow from the strangest of places, the depth of someone's faith can ony be measured on deeds and verbal actions. Unlock your hearts those that have suffered pain and rejection for with it closed you may never be hurt by another but you will woddle in loneliness are regret with the wonderful chances you shall miss. Are you and individual or highly intelligent robot? Meaning do you think outside the box of your own little

Me Iz R Moran..
Ford~ FALSE_ALARM_HOTNESS~ said: to be a true asshole.. just fart.. *fart* ----------------------------- Ψ-ζα℘hïκε⌈-Ψ said: Or I could rant about how Gandhi will rise from the grave and donkey punch Jesus in the back of the head after taking a righteous dump on the seats! EVERYONE PRAY TO ZOMBIE JESUS! WOO HOO! We all know that Easter really belongs to a fucking BUNNY! Jesus wasn't even born in December so what makes me believe he really died in APRIL! -------------------------------- intrepid trepidation said: psst easter is not always in april. --------------------------------------- Ford~ FALSE_ALARM_HOTNESS~ said: can thank the fucking church for that one, too.. --------------------------------- Devil's Worse Nightmare Proudly Owned BY:☆Minou Minou☆ said: It's pointless to debate religion because in reality you could debate the whole line of history that we have been forced to learn as wee

Blood Is Thicker Than Water,and Our Blood Is Thickest There Is!
Blood is thicker than water!! and our blood is the thickest there is! I got mine, and they got me... back to back for all eternity!! There is never a let down or fall from grace we don't catch. We may argue, we may fight, and piss each other off to no extream... but we never abandon. We are there through the thick and thin, through the worst of storms, through the darkest nights.. when the rest of the world has walked out... It is an unspoken truth and certainty. We are interwined and bound to each other with our love. our passion, and our faith. We are KEYS! and the better generation of the foudation we were given. We rise above and give our name a better meaning.. because we simply are the best of our blood. We are a family, we are THE FAMILY! not just by the blood that flows through our veins....and not just because of our last name... but because of who we are as human beings...we are close, we are bonded, and we got what most don't have... we triumph and we regulate.. we are the g

Wut
"APRIL 24--Terry Nichols, the domestic terrorist who teamed up with Timothy McVeigh to murder 168 people, 19 of them children, in the Oklahoma City bombing, is unhappy with his prison diet, which has left him struggling with "chronic constipation, bleeding, hemorrhoids" due to a lack of insoluble fiber. Remarkably, a federal judge yesterday rejected Nichols's bid for a preliminary injunction against the Bureau of Prisons, though a lawsuit filed last month by the 54-year-old killer remains pending...." ----------- uhm...why is that creature still alive? And has food in a first place? I bet his victims, alot of which were children, can't complain anymore. WTF is wrong with a system here?? That pos is leeching off our taxes, and has still rights to complain...wow...

Rambling Again
Here I go again getting all philosophical or just babbling, take your pick. I am sitting here just drinking my coffee and as I often do, I sometimes reflect on past and recent events that occur. Today is Sunday and am ending a 4 day weekend, much deserved after working a long stretch. Have I done much. Not really. I cleaned, which was much much needed, thank god. I ran errands, still have some to do, but that will have to be squeezed in somehow another time. But for the most part I chilled. Today I do have plans to go and visit with Dad and watch a movie. Mom is in the Philippines, she has been gone almost a month now and haven't made it over to see him since I work so much. Sad I know, really that I haven't been able to make time for family when I work so much. One thing that was slightly different this weekend is I finally got to meet a friend after 2 other failed attempts. He is a really nice, sweet guy and full of energy. Did I mention goofy! Perhaps we'll get to meet up again a

I Told You I Was A Bitch
I have a question for everyone. Now I already know this is going to affend some people, but I really dont care. Say your sleeping with someone and they have a girlfriend. Ok, yeah i know already presenting with a problem, but I do have a point. So if your sleeping with this guy, that should already tell him that I really dont care about the fact that you have a girl friend and i really would rather not hear anything about her. Then he wants to tell you that hey I really want to get back with my baby mamma I need help can you call my gf and tell her your fucking me so she will break up with me. Ok first off I am not to fond of putting myself in a situation were im going to have to beat some bitches ass. I know your saying how does she know that she can beat the gf's ass, but believe me i can if pushed. Anyways, well said baby mamma has a man and wants him and her man. Now if he were to get back with the baby mamma then that means i dont get anymore sex. So why the hell would i want to h

Njured Soldier Gets New Face - And Anonymity
"San Antonio - His first glimpse in the mirror was largely a blur. Sgt. Darron Mikeworth had just come out of a drug-induced coma - his mind was still in a fog and he was so weak he could barely stand. Three weeks before, in Iraq, a suicide bomber had raced up to the right side of his Humvee, igniting a barrel of explosives that tore into the machine gunner's face. He nearly died. Mikeworth awoke in a hospital bed, thousands of miles away. He was relieved he still had his arms and legs. He was thrilled, too, that his ears had survived the blast. But he had wounds he could not see, life-changing wounds. His wife, Dea, helped break the news: His face was in bad shape. His left eye was useless. And there was more. At first, Mikeworth was too groggy to absorb it all. He was caught up in hallucinations of basketball players shooting hoops in the hospital, of cars on the highway floating in air. He didn't know what was fantasy and what wasn't - until he shuffled into the physical thera

Well Its Over
its over. i got to meet my fubar friends. i had fun. there will be pics up in everyones profiles soon. would i do this agian? sure. there is one thing i wish i could change about it... but you can't change the past. the one thing that was the best was meeting KY!! we hit it off in person just like we did here on fu. she is great. i hope we can hang out again. it really was cool to see that all the people i have grown to love are real people. it really is to bad it had to end. maybe someday.. who knows!

Hell..
Hell I’d burn for eternity in the depths of your embraceWith your heart shaped flames kissing the sides of my face.Stretched out on a gasoline bed of hot coals and nailsIs as painful as the bliss of burning flesh that I smell.Devilish laser eyes burn holes through my heartAs the heat of lust boils our sweat dripping in the dark.And a tornado of emotional flames scorch my earsAs the taste of your hot magma evaporates my tears.‘Would try to escape my fate to bakeBut walking through fire makes nerves shake.No, not shaking in pain of your sexy flameLike a fiend I want to blaze ‘till I go insane.‘Till my eyes pop out and my body goes numb;‘Till the friction of our rubbing bones cause smoke to come.This is crazy I know. I must be under some Salem witch spell‘Cause instead of going to Heaven I’d rather stay in Hell.

Tonite
Ce soir a thousand eyes light the skymine shall fade within your eyessunset caresses twilight in brevitygaze thee now upon my sanityhazed in wisps of misty lightyour breath alone shall reign amidst clouds vaporous delight Rose red in visual ecstasytonight my love you bloom for mescreams echo of mere forplaytouching the kiss of dark displayrippled in crested tides of doomhearts collide within a swoonmuch more this night will allowfor only you my sanguine dollbarriers lay but in mortal time a puppet master preens sublimeyoung robust flesh is mine to ownstrings I pull from flesh and bonea tempest to fate shan’t be freeI can not let your carnage betonight your repose shall sate my lipsmy words are but a passing gift as love lingers euphoric evermore Ce soir nous dansons mon amour

Still Searching......
I been lookin for a girl that would be down for me....Though problems come around, she'd hold her ground for me.....And until the day I die she'll keep that vow to be.... Mines and only mines, no matter what might come between.....In love and relations, death has many faces....... No matter how I holds the cards they're still all aces....Made out like a bandit left no traces.......But where's my soul?Nobody knows, it seems that I've misplaced it..........Been stucc between many roccs and hard places......... Swam placid oceans and crossed creation......... Been on top of the world and been complacent....... Toe to toe with me I stood, and I got wasted......... And though I know the pain wont fade quicc....I'll keep pushin til the day that I come to that oasis......

Memory Upgrade
ok FU Friends, i need help. my comuter is sik and in need of a serious ram memory upgrade, ok, i know i can get some but what i need to know is how do i install it after i get it......i would hate to buy it and rub it all over my monitor trying to get it to work....i have a dell inspiron 6400 notebook.....i can do without the not having nothing better to do smart comments, i'm just looking for some help.....hook me up fu, kinda counting on you!

Friends Can Add Me To Yahoo
Ah here, this can be cool, if my friends here ever want to chat you may add me to your yahoooo!!! i am seattlebillyseattleadams@yahoo.com go ahead and add me. Friends only in here, though, if you add yourself give me your screenname from here so i know it is you. If I added you as family you are sure welcome to chat with me sometime. People are pretty cool stuff in here.

Tipps
why do people assume when you work for tipps that you are rich. For example the government says that an employer does not have to pay you but 2.13 two dollars and thirteen cents an hour. All they have to do is malke up the diferrence between that and minimum wage which is soon to be 7.25 an hour. But only if your tips dont make it up first then if you get compensation like 1.25 for gas and mileage then that counts against it also. yet the same company can charge your customers a 2.00 dollar delivery fee. well if they can charge that and make .75 cents off of my gas and tires and blood sweat and tears why the hell do we pay so much for the damn food anyway. then customers ask is that not your tip no asshole that is the companies way of dicking me out of a tipp from dumb ass like you. yes you are paying for a service but why they give us 1.25 but charge you 2.00 so now they get paid .75 cents for nothing just so you can dick us out of a tipp the 1.25 is what we get for compensation for u

Watch Over You
Watch Over YouLeaves are on the groundFall has comeBlue skies turning greyLike my loveI tried to carry youAnd make you wholeBut it was never enoughI must go Who is gonna save youWhen I'm gone?And who'll watch over youWhen I'm gone?You say you care for meBut hide it wellHow can you love someoneAnd not yourself?And when I'm goneWho will break your fall?Who will you blame?I can't go onAnd let you lose it allIt's more than I can takeWho'll ease your pain?Ease your painWho is gonna save you when I'm gone?Who'll watch over you?Who will give you strength when you're not strong.Who'll watch over you when I've gone away?Snow is on the groundWinters comeYou long to hear my voiceBut I'm long gone

Useless Gift Or Interesting Chance
My cat was sitting on the back step with a racoon a moment ago. Then my fat russel terrier, who has only one job in his mind - to guard me from everything - ruined it by rushing at the glass door and generally abolishing the communal peace vibe. There is no point to that commentary - beyond my appreciation of simple loyalty. Even when it ruins an interesting visual gift. I wrote a story about my Escapees - the donkey, the hound, and the chicken. In it I mentioned a bee. The innocent, wondering, curious baby animal of my story - from whom wisdom sometimes tumbles all unknowing - made a connection between the bee, family, flowers, and pollination. Except in his young mind he called the benefit of pollination a KISS. ''We are a family. We are a beautiful flower! The honey bee may come and kiss me!'' He laughed. http://www.fubar.com/blog/288863/1005436 (for those interested) And then a few weeks ago, perhaps a day or two before my beloved grandson, Harper, died from the leukemia he h

Life
hey yall i thought i would put my two sence into this site. i dpnt know how many of you that are on here are like me that are confused about life i want to go back full time in the military but they wont let me any ideas on how to get over this let me know

Please Help!!
Hey everyone I need your help for my Owner *Silly*Ice* she is in a contest rightnow and needs to be Downrated....Please follow this link and rate all the other members a 10 or 11 and rate SILLY ICE a 1.....I appreciate the help! *Love to my Fu-family* NinjaMunki http://www.fubar.com/images.php?u=2334045&albumid=1643755 REMBER RATE SILLY ICE A 1 and EVERYONE ELSE 10 or 11!!

Mo Fakes Here
If you are fake and want nothing mor ethen my hard eaned money to to your bling pile, then go away and don't let the door hit you in the ass. Those that have actually taken the time to know me know what I have been through and my ture friends would not be fake and backstanners to me. ITs not cool to play with a combat veterans fucking head. I used to kill people for a living.

Isabella Lolita
I’m Isabella and I love fulfilling your taboo sex fantasies. I have no restrictions, no boundaries, and anything goes with me! If you have extreme desires, I want to fulfill them- from extreme age play, to daddy daughter incest phone sex, to rape play, bestiality, water sports, scat, and beyond. If the twisted taboos you crave involve a kinky young teen that’s ready to play hard, then look me up in yahoo under callmadisonisabella I’m waiting to suck daddy’s cock now.

My Father
http://randy-zakas.virtual-memorials.com/main.php?action=view&mem_id=10465&page_no=1 the site above is a memorial for my father the reason i am posting this is because my father was one of the greatest people i know it's been a year and a half since he passed away and there is not a day that goes by that i dont think of him. i guess what im trying to say is cherish what you have with your parents because you never know when they can go. it was something i didnt expect but i just keep on living because thats what he would want.

My True Love
I wonder if I dreamed of you-if you would appear?To make my nights full of love,and always hold me near.I wonder if I thought of you-if you would feel it in your soul?Like two spirits in the universe,who always seem to know.Even if the stars went blackand the sun were to shine no more.They could find their way to each other,no matter how far the shore.Safely in each other's arms, to bid the rest of time.Finding Eternal Loveso many seek to find.Caring for each otherthrough the worst of storms.Leaning on the arms of loveand never need anymore.This is how I feel for you,I've known it all along.You are my one true loveMy world.. My heart.. My soul!

2nd Chance
This song really has opened my eyes to a lot of things I've been thinking about and what I do believe - Sometimes you have to say goodbye and let go to move on. My eyes are open wideBy the way I made it through the dayI watch the world outsideBy the way I'm leaving out todayI just saw Halley's comet shootingSaid "why you always running in place?Even the man in the moon disappearedSomewhere in the stratosphere"[Chorus]Tell my mother, tell my fatherI've done the best I canTo make them realizeThis is my lifeI hope they understandI'm not angry, I'm just sayingSometimes goodbye is a second chancePlease don't cry one tear for meI'm not afraid of what I have to sayThis is my one and only voiceSo listen close, it's only for todayI just saw Halley's comet shootingSaid "why you always running in place?Even the man in the moon disappearedSomewhere in the stratosphere"[Repeat Chorus] Here is my chanceThis is my chance[Repeat Chorus]Sometimes goodbye is a second chance!!

A Walk In The Barracks
Today I went down the Jefferson Barracks National Cemetery. It was quite the emotional experience for me. I'm not necessarily the most emotional of men either. It did occur to me more than once that I was walking in the company of many great men and women. It was in many ways sobering. I knew that this particular place was big, but I never knew that it was as big as it is. It is a sobering thing to see some of the real, actual cost that has been paid for the freedoms that I enjoy...that we all have and enjoy. It was also a reminder that we as a people have a huge responsibility to take care of these freedoms...to preserve them. Posterity: you will never know how much it has cost my generation to preserve your freedom. I hope you will make good use of it. ~John Quincy Adams

Living On The Road
Well I am finally in Los Angeles, the flight was fine, in fact it was good as I got to have 3 seats to myself which fits my wee fat body perfectly. I am staying at The Inn on Venice Beach which technically isn’t in Venice beach but it’s not far from it and it is pretty nice. The downside is the room they gave me had an adjoining room which is separated by a thin door so at 6am I was woken by a wee old American woman who was clearly deaf and was shouting her entire holiday plans at her deaf husband. “Marlin, we really should go to the Universal Studios and then get a bus to Santa Monica, what do you think Marlin?” I lay there wanting her to either sleep or die; her husband responded by coughing really loudly, that was just a blessing to hear that early. Where are LA crime lords and old people killers when you need them? I spent the night having insane dreams that there was a hole in the arch of my foot in the sole and I was squeezing out of this hole a tube li

Imbroglio
imbroglio \im-BROHL-yoh\, noun:1. A complicated and embarrassing state of things.2. A confused or complicated disagreement or misunderstanding.3. An intricate, complicated plot, as of a drama or work of fiction.4. A confused mass; a tangle.

List Of Hotties Officers
Show OUR Chief and YOUR Deputy Chiefs and officers love!If you have not added and fanned them to your listPlease make sure you stop by their page and do so.Firechief/Founder 2nd Alarm Hotties Maranda ♥ ~*~2nd Alarm Hotties~*~ Chief Deputy Of Operations & SWAT ~*~ Sweet&Sexy♥TONYA♥Deputy Chief 2nd alarm hotties(The One and Only)♥ JoJolicious ♥ Deputy Chief 2nd Alarm Hotties/Promo Teambooty2you**ExcAsst.To theChief/2nd Alarm Hottie's**♥Hey Jude♥Asst. Chief 2nd Alarm Hotties♥~♥™StarShine™♥~Asst

Sunbather (joke)
Sunbather A woman was staying at a hotel and she decided to go sunbathing on the hotel roof. When she laid down her bikini top fell off. But, she didn't care because no one would see her anyway.After a while she heard footsteps; it was the hotel manager. She hurried and covered herself up.The hotel manager said, "We don't mind if you sunbathe up here, but we really would appreciate it if you would keep your bikini top on!" She answered, "No one will see me anyway." The hotel manager replied, "I hate to break this to you. But, you've been lying on the dining room skylights."

Sydneys Bday
So today was an absolutely WONDERFUL day. thank goodness the weather was great. well it wasnt sunny but it was warm and NOT rainy! had an AWESOME time at the park today for sydneys birthday.....even though COREY made us late....and trying to blame it on his daughter hehehe......it was great. they played hula hoop and water balloon toss which was fun to watch. then we went back and played buzz word at the house. well jess and i got to talk about mike's ex gf whatever her name is, and jes was talking about how the girl fell outta the truck completely wasted and guess what? jess fell outta her chair. OMG i swear everything stopped and everyone was laughing so hard. it was the funniest thing in a LONG time!!!! lol. raquel took a couple picuters. funniest thing of the day. was a great day overall after we got everything settled down with juli. Corey makes me feel really important in his life. he comes to me and asks me how i feel about things and my views on things when it comes to his da

Last Night...
So once ya get out of this pitiful military town Texas isn't too terribly bad, and was actually very pretty once ya get to San Antonio. Sea World was quite the challenge. It was hot, but we had fun...was just a long day with the 2 1/2 hour trip down there. I'm headed home tomorrow, THANK GOD! I can't wait to sleep in my own bed, and be amongst my belongings. Texas just isn't my cup of tea...I'm used to anti-confrontational people and decent customer service...Yay for Minnesooooota! And if one more cocksucker rags on my accent...I may choke a bitch.

About Me
well where do istart i am a 31 year old who is single and i have never done anything like this before so i thought i would try it i have no kids and i am single still lookin for that speacial someone i love to travel spend time with friends and family camping and anything outdoors people who know me say i am easy going and funny

Wtf?
Yay for first blog!!...sooo I'm in a ranting mood. An if you honestly don't wanna hear it.......don't fawking read this xD I felt the need to do this don't know why. Im bored. SoI'm actually kinda sick with fu. Like really, My whole meaning to come on is to feel better an get away from the drama that is in my life. Yet I sit here an find myself being hounded by the masses with stupid little things. People getting pissed off bout little things. All I got to say is...its the internet....the mfkn internet. If a little thing lIke oh I don't know...this is clearly just an example...you piss someone off by NICELY stating your kinda put off by the way the are approching you? you get a whole mfkn speech about how your a horrible bitch an you have made them feel like shit....sorry..again the mfkn INTERNET.. I unno..I just don't -shrugs- But Im kinda thinking of leaving fu really...... guess this is what this was about...Im thinking of leaving fu....so yeah peace

In Your Eyes
Do you know the night seems so right when you are near Like the moon and its rays beaming our path clearThe sweet winds blow a rythem that flows with our hearts so we dance we sway with ecstasy and dip to pleasurable partsWe stand still in time though our bodies are covered in sultry blissI relish every kiss the slightest touch of your skin brushing against mine feels like The ultimate sinBecause I don't think such joy is meant to be felt on earth I don't think that God him self seen it at our birth LIke the original Adam and Eve Life is not as what other perceiveIts more than this moment of carnal lust a subtle embrace of endless love I

Lifes Journey
Isn't it funny where you have these days where nothing seems right at all. Days where you feel your going to have a break down and yet no one seems to be around. Your mind racing with all these different thoughts and for some odd reason you cant comprehen anything that is going around you. Your body feels this emptiness that seems like its there to stay and you feel so alone that even God himself has walked away. The only thing you hear from anyone is all the negative talk in which it brings you even more down or even more far away then you all ready are or at least feel. I'm sitting here squeezing my head as if it is a pimple ready to be popped, thinking of why I feel so down and alone. Though I can't understand why and maybe thinking that if I wrote it down that maybe my hands can do the thinking for me. I have come with many different ways of how to explain how I feel. Like my baseball theory. ( Life is like baseball because no matter how many strikes you get, you have to

Say You Love Me Back
You hide behind your mask and i can't make you come out most people only see what they wish yet most people aren't me you tell me to leave yet i stay and try to befriend you i miss you in your mask you hide in that mask of lies you hold me close and share your dreams yet i know you're only telling me what i wish to hear don't do this to yourself don't hurt yourself like this i could make it all better if you'd only believe i am the mask you were people only see me and people only see what i want them to see let me back in let me help you heal your hurts i only wish to encourage this person i see within so hold me even closer lover and let me heal your wounds let me be to you what no one was to me in childhood let me say the words i always longed for they to say i love you lover, until death do us part i love you lover so hold on tight i love you lover I'll never let them win the fight i love you lover just say you love me back

The Mask
A mask of plastic happiness often covers her sadness Her beliefs hidden from most Afraid of, but willing to face the unknown Wondering where her place is in this life She has come close to sharing herself Never completely revealing anything to anyone Feelings of invisible chains corner her When she dreams, reality shatters before her very eyes Accomplishments she strives for just at hands grasp She feels lost sometimes, not yet finding her notch in this world At times the glimmer in her calm eyes slowly disappears But within her heart a silent flame burns her inside and out She roams day by day, playing roles Strength unknowingly resides in her History repeats itself once again The translucent veil she so proudly wears Little by little answers will come, pushing it aside One day there will be no more mask for her to wear One day her beliefs will be known One day she'll know her place in this life One day she will share herself ONE DAY this mask will be NO MORE

What I Believe.......
I believe in a well-placed lie can topple an empire.I believe that all you need to know about a person is in how they look at you.I believe that a gun speaks louder than words.I refuse to believe in the presence of good and evil. I merely believe in the differences between choices and the consequences associated with such actions.I believe in the power of the human spirit, and its ability to overcome any obstacle with the proper motivation, education, and attitude.I believe in being a leading man in my own life, not just a supporting actor.I believe that haveing one best friend is a blessing. Having two is a miracle.I believe in teh overwhelming power of pure love, given freely and stronger than steel.I believe in the healing power of a good cup of tea and a good book.I believe that every person should have one piece of chocolate cake in their lifetime.I believe that inside every person is a fire waiting to break loose. It is up to that individual to use that fire to make their life be

More Poetry
Love RenewedLove, eternalbound by fatetwo hearts dancingwith no though of hateRenewed by time,and a gentle wordthings left unspokenlike water through a narrow fjordCold and alonea man once wasbut the fire was in himto do much moreYou came to mein the dark of night,and gave me your heartfor one more fightto fight the peoplewho hold us captivewith opinions and judgmentsthat had no placeone strong man, one strong womantogether in this worldforever entwined in a dance of love

More Poetry
Untitled UntitledSitting in the still of nightthe stars refuse to shineand then you shone with dazzling lightand I knew that you were mineThe heat of your eyesyour breath on my skinthe feel of your bodymakes me smile againA light so brightthat breaks through the nightthat smothers my souland makes me feel rightTo hold your handand know you're mineinflates my heartand makes me shine A Fire InsideHonor boundand honor bredborne in blood of deepest redDarkest nightdevoid of lightno sign of hopea swinging ropea choice to be madehard to thinkmy thoughts begin torapidly fadeI remember most fondly of my friends oh so dearwho walk right beside meand take away my fearhonor most highfirst in few livesbut for my ownthere is none highera fire insidea passion quite brightto live life to the fullestand do whatever is rightto loveto laughto live to learnthe fire inside a love to earn

Recent Poetry
Lost A misty morning,damp with frost.I walk aloneand I knew I was lost.Ahead in the distance,I saw a light most welcoming.I smiled to myself,and thought it most becomingof the smallest cottagestraight from a fairy talenestled in the woods, where no one could tellof the magic around it,and the love insideof the smiles that frame itand the happiness belied.I walk to the cottageand knocked on the doora woman pulled it openand walked across the floorsmiling at me,with a dazzling lightthis beautiful womanbecame my heart's delightThe darkened forest of my lifebecame quite brilliantand I realized deep insidethat I was kind of resilienta rubber band,swaying in the breezeneither breaking, nor tearingbearing heat and the freeze.The strength this woman gave me, because a guiding lightand I walked away that evening,feeling even more than right.I strode to my home,quite a few miles awayand hugged my small familyand began a new dayfull of hope, love and harmonyof voices that sing on the breeze,and

#1
Ok, my 1st blog & just f.y.i. it's called "Random Thoughts..." cuz my mind is always goin a mile a minute & how I write (proper English or slang) can offer insight to the mood I'm in. Thank you!! It has been one of those days where any spark can induce a fire buring outta control. I gotta lot on my plate (have for a long while now) & u know how u think u have the 1 person u can count on thru thick & thin, right & wrong, good & bad - u turn 2 them & they let u fall?? Yeah, had that happen 2 me - not the 1st time, but definitely the last time. So now, cuz I made the choice 2 say good-bye 2 all the drama, disappointments & consistent negligence he wanna try & help me, but I'm way 2 pissed cuz he let me fall 2 many times already. Now I'm 2 the point where my vision is clear, my thinking is positive & my motivation levels are off the charts - I have wut it takes now 2 do it all MY WAY, MYSELF!! I believe I gotta make a move to move on cuz my heart & spirit can't take anutha fall lyk this

Steve
Steve is graciously possessing me for 2 weeks :-)♏=Steve=♏ ENFORCER@DDR(SHADOW LEVELER)@ fubar Now this could be said one of two ways!1.)He was the only man BRAVE enough to take me on..OR2.)He was the only man STUPID enough to put up with me.♦MsCharlotte2U®~No Rate~No Add~♦Taken by Steve♦@ fubarHmmmmmm...I'll say he is a BRAVE soul!!!No matter how you look at it, he is a genuine sweetheart and a great friend to have.So please be kind and show this wonderful guy all the love he so deserves. The best thing I ever did was bid on this stranger the very first time. Pimped by:♦MsCharlotte2U®~No Rate~No Add~♦Taken by Steve♦@ fubar

Under My Mask
Imperfection is only a mask hiding what really is the ultimate beauty. You just have to go throught hell to take off that mask. Can you do it? Or are you scared of what you'd find?Did you know?I love rainstorms.Did you know?Even though i wear black a lot, i love bright colors.Did you know?Even i watched Pokemon because my son took over the TV.Did you know?I'm quiet, but that doesn't mean i'm never loud.Did you know?I like to play chess.Did you know?I'm not good at it.Did you know?I try so hard to be perfect, even if i look like i could care less.Did you know?Sometimes i feel like my friends are only my friends because they feel sorry for me?Did you know?I'm afraid of bugs. Mostly spiders.Did you know?I don't really trust anyone.Did you know?Before i've thought that my family would be happier if i wasn't born.Did you know?I draw.Did you know?I love fantasy stories like Magyk, Flyte, and Phsik.Did you know?I'm good at Scene It? Disney version.Did you know?I feel like i'm only in the way

What Do You See?
When you look at me, what do you see? My skin, my face, or my inner me? When I look at you, into your eyes, I see the universe upon high. I see the powers of genuine love. The tenderness of a morning dove. The melody of a newborn song. The arms in which I belong. The you in you is what I see, I hope you see the me in me.

Drifting
Drifts of snow, Blown by the wind. Changing and moving Again and again First to the fence line, Then to the gate. Consigning the garden Once more to its fate. Drifts of sand Next to the sea. Relics of wrecks Lost in the lea Drifts of clouds Away in the sky Dancing and darting And fooling the eye. Drifting leaves Afloat on a pond Sharing reflections From sky and beyond Drifts of the mind In cracks of the day Taking the cares Of the world away Drifting brings comfort To mind

Much Needed Break
just a short note to all my family and friends,im taking a very much needed break from here.i will be back next weekend sometime.ill miss you guys...joe and nancy you guys know how to get ahold of me if ya need to.

Please Read Everyone-ty(help Needed)
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- Seek Not My Heart - Its Dead -
Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies, Do not you hear my heartfelt cries? Below the branches, here about, Do not you sense my fear and doubt? Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams, Do not you hear my woeful screams? Upon the meadows, touched with dew, Do not you see my hearts a'skew? Beneath the thousand twinkling stars, Do not you feel my jagged scars? Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze, For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees. It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies, Accompanied by heartfelt sighs. It's drifting o're the gentle rain, A symbol of my silent pain. It's buried 'neath the meadow fair, Conjoined with all the sorrow there. It's lost among the stars this night, Too far to ease my quiet fright. No gentle winds, seek not my heart, For simply ... it has torn apart.

Are You True?
I hate all these questions that keep running through my head. Someday I'll probly find out that the light was always dead. What is it you said to me that day when i was down? You said I was the best girl ever; Now I only feel like a clown. Do you really think I'm that dumb not to learn the truth? I guess it's true what they say you can't find love. If only you could tell me the answers I want to hear. I don't want this to be a wasted year. You said you loved me and you always would. I thought it was true but then what I learned wasn't good. You could never guess all the emotions you've put me through. But how am I supposed to know if you've really stayed true?

Do I Love You True?
You turned to me and asked, did I really love you true, would I love you always or one day make you blue? I must confess your questions caught me by surprise, so I held your hands, then gazed into your eyes. My love for you is stronger than mighty Samson's arms and so deep I could not bear to ever see you harmed. The sight of you elates me on those days I wake up sad and when I feel your touch, it's the best l ever had. I will love you longer than the seas caress their shores and beyond the day when the sun can rise no more. Past the day eternity will have to take it's final breath, my soul will always love you, even after death. You are the single flower in this garden called my heart, I planted you there in love and never will you part. So if you ever start to wonder if I really love you true, remember my love's forever as long as you are you.

Why
if you dont need an answer, hen you dont have a question, if you dont have a question, then you dont have a problem, if no one has a problem, then everyone is happy, if everyone is happy , why are there love songs

Wow Some Ppl On Here I Swear
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I Need Your Halp!
Jessika is going for the Spotlight.She is a great gurly, and would truly appreciate any help you generous Fu-kers could give her.So please, click the FuPal logo and donate what you can. Any and all help is genuinely appreciated. While you are there F/A/R her... She returns all love.This pimp-out created by:

Come Find Me
hey i got an email from someone who wanted to chat so i came through and now i can find him please look me up again i would like to know you i like to meet new people an friends have some time on my hands now see ya soon

Horoscope For April 25th, 2009
The heat is getting even hotter between you and someone else today -- but you're going to have to cool it! Unfortunately, while this person is physically available, they are not emotionally available, right now. You need to pull your heart out of this situation and look at it with a practical eye. If they can't meet you in the middle, you need to go on without them, despite the fact that moving on will be difficult. You deserve someone who can totally connect with you.

Xbox Is Back And In Gaming Mood!
So, my xbox got fixed (again), and now back home, hooked up, and ready to go. Haven't bought any new games in almost six months, sadly, but I did just buy Castle Crashers, and still playing Rock Band like a mofo (finally have double-kick for my drums, so certain Expert songs are WAY easier now!). If anyone wants to throw down, add me on XBL, gamertag: tf5bassist. That is all. :D

Dear Diary,
I have learned so many things in the mumms this past week: never fuck an unwashed carrot.... you could die you can make a U turn in the mumms whorelet is an awesome word Rev takes epic shits. they shall remain nameless but no animal is safe from them suprise buttsecks is always a great romantic last minute gift I can not mumm, talk shit to Helly in the shoutbox and watch hockey at the same time. extra large tampons and midol should be handed out at the mumm door I actually found a juggalo that I like I am posting all of Porch's comments in the mumms when he is blocked cuz that is good times (y) Most of the people that mumm are some sick ebil mother fuckers and I heart them all. Being called an ankle is an insult. Who knew? It has been an exciting week my dear diary and I am sure I will have even better things to tell you in the very near future.

The Wheels On The Bus Go Round And Round
Ok so today was another day on the bus. I thought it was personal that people didn't want to sit near me until I saw someone else dressed like me and nobody would sit near him either...There is definate clothing discrimination on the bus. Two more crazy men today...One followed me into the Wendy's Stood next to me and started talking about the nice job they did cleaning up the place and how KFC now smells like bad fish...He kept talking and didn't notice I had walked away. Crazyman number 2 was walking around the bus stop doin the Arsenio Hall...Waving his arms then points at a tree...or maybe it was the building in the distance starts strutting and saying "Yeah Yeah Yeah".... Then sits and has a very animated arguement...I don't know with who as he was facing the cars and nobody was near him....Then he started kind of dancing while sitting. God the bus is fun....

Let's Do This Together........
Cancer hit home in August of 2003-when we lost my Dad to colon cancer; and in April of 2008-when we lost my Aunt to ovarian cancer. I'm doing this walk in their honor and hopefully together we can help raise enough money where they will be able to discover a cure for this horrible disease that takes our loved ones away from us. please help me click on the link: http://main.acsevents.org/goto/reservealife_mfgailor

'golden Girls' Star Bea Arthur Dies At 86
celebs: Bea Arthur FILE - This Aug. 29, 1988 file photo shows actress Beatrice Arthur accepting her Emmy award at the 40th annual Emmy Awards ceremony in Pasadena, Ca. Family spokesman Dan Watt says the 86-year-old Arthur died at home early Saturday, April 25, 2009. He says Arthur had cancer, but declined to give further details. (AP Photo/Reed Saxon, File)Associated Press LOS ANGELES - Beatrice Arthur, the tall, deep-voiced actress whose razor-sharp delivery of comedy lines made her a TV star in the hit shows "Maude" and "The Golden Girls" and who won a Tony Award for the musical "Mame," died Saturday. She was 86. Arthur died peacefully at her Los Angeles home with her family at her side, family spokesman Dan Watt said. She had cancer, Watt said, declining to give further details. "She was a brilliant and witty woman," said Watt, who was Arthur's personal assistant for six years. "Bea will always have a special place in my heart." Arthur first appeared in the landmark c

First
I have recently gotten a DVD player, and my neighbor has been kind enough to let me run through his collection of great shows on disk...Ive been checking out the commentary stuff to, it can be interesting when youre at home dying of cancer all the time to have something to do. Im sure Ill come back to this subject again but yeah, first off I just want to say I was soooooo happy when the folks on the futurama commentary for the episode set at Amy's parents ranch on mars admitted finally that the green symbol on Amys moms hat is indeed a pot leaf. I had previously thought I was going mad seeing pot leafs where they werent but I wasnt. So HA HA I am not COMPLETELY delusional!!! Also, the guys who made Sealab shouldnt have bothered with commentaries as they really added nothing to what was once such a great and originalistic show. end transmission

This Is For Lilith's Liar (one Of The Cooliest Lounges Around On Fubar)
This is a pimpout for all you lounge goers 4 one of the cooliest lounges on Fubar. If you like metal and good conversation mixed with cool peeps, sexy guys and gals then Lilith's Liar is for you. WARNING: YOU MAY GET HOOKED. YOU MAY GET LICKED AND SPANKED. LOL. Lilith’s Liar LILITH'S LAIR@ fubar Click the lounge link below or copy and paste to enter Lilith’s Liar http://www.fubar.com/lounge/51376

2 Watch You Leave...
To Watch You Leaving . . .is to know such pain, it's jagged edges tearing into my soul. As a stake from the garden tears into the warm, dark earth.To Watch You Leaving . . .knowing all the while that never again will I fit myself, warm with sleep, against your solid back.Nor hear your steady breathing. Or feel the beating of your heart.To Watch You Leaving . . .aware in every moment of every day that my dreams, my future; once tied with silken ribbons to yours, will never come to be.And the mornings once so silent and hopeful, us gazing at the mountains and so gently awaiting forever - are now but small pieces of my past.To Watch You Leaving . . .your heart a tight fist of anger and your dry eyes betraying nothing of you. I cry for both of us, my love, because you will not.To Watch You Leaving . . .is to know that I've lost my place on this earth. My station. My heart's home. That I will wander, forever a nomad. Alone and afraid. And in my troubled dreams watch you leave, again and aga

Gentle Breeze
The gentle breeze of the air around me,The sound of the ocean slowly rolling,The beauty of the sunset,The feel of the sand as I walk along a beach,Can never compare to you. The sweet smell of a rose,The kiss of the snow as it falls to the ground,The bite of the rain as if falls on me spinning in the street,The love of my family and friends,Can never compare to you. Nothing in this world,Can compare to the way I feel for you..The way I feel when I'm with you,Nothing can compare to tour embrace,I would give everything... to feel... this love,The love you once had for me

Wtf
so I notice a bunch of folks wont like to hear from me cause I dont have any "salutes" posted. well, I have one and IM TRYING TO UPLOAD IT but all I get is error messages. So once again I am being deliberately and conscientiously excluded. No worries im used to it. A-holes!

Bea Arthur
LOS ANGELES (AP) — Beatrice Arthur, the tall, deep-voiced actress whose razor-sharp delivery of comedy lines made her a TV star in the hit shows "Maude" and "The Golden Girls" and who won a Tony Award for the musical "Mame," died Saturday. She was 86.Arthur died peacefully at her Los Angeles home with her family at her side, family spokesman Dan Watt said. She had cancer, Watt said, declining to give further details."She was a brilliant and witty woman," said Watt, who was Arthur's personal assistant for six years. "Bea will always have a special place in my heart."Arthur first appeared in the landmark comedy series "All in the Family" as Edith Bunker's loudly outspoken, liberal cousin, Maude Finley. She proved a perfect foil for blue-collar bigot Archie Bunker (Carroll O'Connor), and their blistering exchanges were so entertaining that producer Norman Lear fashioned Arthur's own series.In a 2008 interview with The Associated Press, Arthur said she was lucky to be discovered by T

Some Of The Cooliest Peeps On Fubar
I wanted to shout out to all of Fubar and my friends some of the best, brightest and cooliest people on Fubar that anyone could ever meet. If you want some cool friends you want to check them all out. Tonya Tonya~Lady of Liliths Lair@ fubar Tim AKA Gypsy Nervous Wreck* AKA,Gypsy**Liliths Lord of Security*@ fubar Megz ~Freak of the Irish~DJ Evil Pissy Bitch~Owned By ☣HoweyFeltersnatch☠@ fubar Memnoch ~Memnoch~ ( S.D.M.F) ~5150~@ fubar Nemesis DJ Nemesis the Vampyre@ fubar Giggles ~*~Giggles~*~@ fubar Jennie Jennie Angel Of Lilith's Lair & Fu- Wifey To Lemy@ fubar Lemy ♰ Lemy ♰ Yummerz ♰ Minion & DJ Of Lilith's Lair Fu-Hubby To Jennie@ fubar Rebbie ~*~Rebbie~*~Owned By ~CynzDreams~@ fubar Syn

Omg!!!
Well, I was worried to DEATH about last weeks assignment! Who'd have thought! Does a happy dance!!!!!! Michelle, Excellent paper, I really enjoyed reading it. You are a very proficient writer. You hit all of the required topics for the assignment and detailed explanation of the implementation was fabulous. You have received full points on this assignment.

Vacation
I have two options for a summer vac:a) a family reunion with in laws in Nor Cal for 2 weeks, which I love going to cause they are awesome and I miss them.or b) 2 weeks in France at our friends' house. Ive already been to France, and hate it, plus dont know the fam too well, soo... grrr, hubby is leaning towards Fwance of course.

Pedos
"A 22-year-old has been charged in federal court with transporting child pornography after authorities found more than half a million child pornographic images on his computer hard drive, according to a news release Friday from the U.S...." ____ I guess someone doesn't know where delete button is...

Holy Cow!
Holy cow this chic is going to actually do something tonight rather then sit around and do absolutely nothing. A friend is having what she calls Rockband night, there will be other people that I don't know there, so I will be taking my daughter. There will be drinking, but I may only have one since I am going to be driving and since my daughter is underaged for 2 more years. I am tired as hell, woke up at 6:30, and for some ungodly reason stayed up. Everytime I try to lay down to take a nap my damn phone rings. I don't think I am destined to sleep today. Just wanted to say hello to everyone and have a great Saturday!

Laterz All
Many of you on this site has never even hear of me well for those that are in that area let me give you a little rundown about my times here on this site. 1. I have been a member of this site since day one when it first have started and been a member when it was known as Lost Cherry I also was here when it was known as Cherry tap and as its known know as Fubar. 2. I use to have the number one train on here it was called The Devils Train which been around since almost day one. Before it took its last ride it had 450 members on it till I took it out and removed it from my bogs . 3. I use to be a member of IAR I was number 36 on it ( Insane Asylum Rejects) , S*U*P (Shady’s Underground Posse) , Team Shocker, Confederate Bombers, FU-Gees, Happy Hour Slammers, Jades Dirty Diamond Crew, Rating Revolution. So I have been around and I am sure there is more that I am forgotten about I have meet several amazing people on here if your wondering who it is well their all in my Family.

Reality
Greenhouse Effect As Earths lush green canopies fall.Concrete prairies and black tar rivers,liter the surface of a world;in the throws of revolution,fueled by the fires of industry.Enormous cathedrals of molten glass and metalcast shadows over the tallest mountains.Inching wheels forwardin the drag of the devils sleeve.Pistons forge steel cavernscoughing and sputtering oceans of pollution,over a planet in peril;Slowly dying from man''s machines

Story Time...
For everyone that wants to get to know me I am a girl, thats not your average girl I'm a gamer, I'm a reader, and I'm a human being I'm the kinda girl that love to be around people and hates being alone. From what i hear I'm loving and caring and from what one person says I'm a sweeheart. I am the kinda person that will give a person a home, the clothes out of my closet, the food in my fridge just to make sure that they have everything they need to get back on their own two feet. I have been told at time I worry too much.......I just might begin to think they are right. I can be a bitch at times, but those times are few and far between. You have to really upset me or really piss me off to get me in that kinda mood. Or have me be really tired.... One more thing, I'm not one to hurt. Cause I do believe in Karma, and I do believe that it will come around and bite you in the ass. And I have seen it happen... So if you like what you see in me and want to talk them

Darwin
DENVER -- A pregnant woman who was fleeing a bear when she was struck by a slow-moving car said she would honor the euthanized animal by giving her baby the middle name "Bear." Ashley Swendsen, 26, said she thought the bear followed her more out of curiosity than malice because it kept a distance of about 10 feet Thursday morning on a hiking trail in northwestern Colorado Springs. As she ran, she thought, "If it was going to hurt me, it already would have." Swendsen managed to scramble up an embankment and was crossing the street when she was hit by a slow-moving car...." My 2 cents: Well, I HATE that bear for being so fuckin slow, and that car as well. So the bitch will go on reproducing, having named her cunt runt Bear. I've got a novel idea-maybe I could name my first born Hitler. FFS... Stockholm syndrome towards a bear? Thats new... (thanx Mike Hunt)

Just Me
I'm a just me no matter how you see it. I'm not normal,trendy,pretty, I'm just me. No matter what happens to me, No matter what anyone else sees, I'm just me. I may not be the funniest I may not be the cutest I may not be the most popular I'm just me For all the people that don't like me, Just look the other way. For all the ones that love me, Don't ever leave me. For anyone else, Try me on for size. Cause I'm just me. I will tell you that, I am not one to mess with, I am not one to hurt. Cause I beleive in karma, And that will get you burnt. So love me if you want. Hurt me if you dare. I will be standing here, waiting for someone to care. Cause I'm just me

End Of The World Friendship
I HOPE OUR FRIENDSHIP LASTS TIL THE END OF THE WORLD,FOR IF I SHOULD PERISH THAT YOU WOULD GO ON AND STILL LOVE ME AND BE MY FRIEND,AND THE SAME IF YOU SHALL GO BEFORE ME,IF WE SHALL PERISH AT THE SAME TIME IF THE WORLD SHOULD END,LET OUR LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP CARRY TO WHERE IN TIME THAT WE SHOULD MEET AGAIN.

That Crush You Have
One minute If I had one minuteTo hold her Let her know much I careOne minuteTo whisper how I love her Softly in her earOne minuteTo make this more than a feelingbecause another minute without herIs more than I can bear

Yayyyyy, My First*_*happy Hour*_*level On Me & Help Me Make It A Success
MY VERY FIRST **HAPPY HOUR** AND AUTO 11's WILL BE ACTIVE LEVEL UP ON ME AND HELP ME MAKE MY HH A H U G E S U C C E S S SUNDAY 04/26/09 4pm FU TIME (7pm EASTERN) CLICK BELOW TO ENTER @FUBAR ~NITA~ CoOwner@Static/ FuWife & R/L FIANCEE 2*_*StuD-MuFFiN*_*/ Owner@~Charmed~&CharmedRadio/ PIPER@CHARMED BOMBERS/ SaintsBodyGuard/ MELI's BIG SIS ~Charmed~ Radio

I Wanna Know....
I would like to know your current favorite song and your all time favorite. Mine are current Careless whisper by Seether (i know a wham remake) :P All time i think it would be Ballad of Curtis Loew by Lynyrd Skynyrd Ok whats yours ?

Yahoo
hey all.... miss all my friends. beween then computer issues and just being busy have not been on here much.. if you wanna talk to me more often just yahoo me... mad_curves_n_tx@yahoo.com i have it on my mobile so i can be accessed better--- luv and miss u all MUAH mad_curves_n_tx cant see the underscores above in that link mc

Finally Got Me A Hh, Thank You Chris
MY VERY FIRST **HAPPY HOUR** AND AUTO 11's WILL BE ACTIVE LEVEL UP ON ME AND HELP ME MAKE MY HH A H U G E S U C C E S S SUNDAY 04/26/09 4pm FU TIME (7pm EASTERN) CLICK BELOW TO ENTER @FUBAR ~NITA~ CoOwner@Static/ FuWife & R/L FIANCEE 2 DjWoofie/ Owner@~Charmed~&CharmedRadio/ PIPER@CHARMED BOMBERS/ SaintsBodyGuard/ MELI's BIG SIS~Charmed~ Radio

Love In One Distance ( I Love You )
In the growing shadows, There was in me a growing battle, I couldn't see my way out , I was so full of doubt , I couldn't fill any love , Not even when i soared high in the sky like a dove so far above , I as looking for the man i have seen so many times in my dreams, And i didn't know which way to turn it seems, I don't want to be that half of a soul anymore, I want my Dream Man, whom through out time,I have always adored, I want to give myself to him like i did before completely , To have him touch me , kiss me , to love me like he use to oh so sweetly , This Dream Man and I in our past lives fit together so perfectly so deeply , In this new life I want to find this Dream Man for keepys, He might not be tall like most , But, He is everything to me and he doesn't care how tall he

Unsure
What does a person do when they can feel that they are falling for someone. Knowing that you both have been hurt and are still hurting. When you want the person to know that you would do anything for them. But you are so scared to say anything. So afraid they don't feel the same way. So afraid that by wearing ur heart on your sleave, you will get it handed back to with a no thanks I don't want that. How do you tell someone that they make you feel like you haven't felt in a long time. how do you tell them that by being together you might be able to make the pain go away.

Love Heals
Your love heals this heart that was broken This is more then a token I know now with LOVE anything is possible again Even thou this is where LOVE begins I want this LOVE to never end If i could wrap this LOVE i have up for you I would defiantly Send Baby, I thank you for this miracle

Pippi Longstocking, Stuart Little, And Enjoy Modern Life Through Modern Packaging
Nine years ago … Has your brain ever felt like it was tuned to one of those classic rock radio stations? I don’t mean classic as in old necessarily (no Benny Goodman), but classic as in one station in this area that touts, “the best of the 70s, 80s, and 90s.” Well, today’s title [from "Enjoy" onward, it was a 2000 journal entry] comes from the line of a play from middle school that I was in (darn, I need one of Clothahump’s perm. ink spells … but more on him tomorrow). And the date of my performance in “The Dazzling Diamond Caper”? I say, in my best DJ groove, “April 25, 1986.” Jesus hung from a tree, I just woke up from a nap under one. Anyway, the point of what I’ve learned today is very large. Crescent City [Florida, where I grew up] IS a mission field, and right now I’m being watched, even when I don’t believe I am. From staying with David right now when Connie and Raymond have left to ge

What Happened!!!
I AM GETTING ALOT OF PEOPLE WHO AFTER THEY SEE MY PICS THEY ASK WHAT HAPPENED TO MY LEGS SO HERES WHAT HAPPENED LOL I WAS BORN WITH SPINA BIFIDA THEREFORE THE SENSATION IN MY LEGS WAS NOT SO GREAT TO BEGIN WITH. I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL AT THE TIME AND WORKING AT MICKEY D'S. I ENDED UP WORKING A 23 HOUR SHIRT AND WHEN I CAME HOME AND TOOK OFF MY LEG BRACES I HAD OPEN PRESSURE SORES ON BOTH LEGS. I ENDED UP FIGHTING THOSE SAME SORES FOR A LITTLE OVER 3 YEARS. THEY GOT TO THE POINT WHERE I WAS LIVING IN EXCRUTIATING PAIN EVERY DAY STILL WORKING A 40 HOUR WORK WEEK (HAD JOB AT A HOSPITAL FOR 2 1/2 YEARS WITH THE SORES) NEVER ONCE MISSING A DAY OF WORK WITH THE SORES. THEY WERE BAD ENOUGH FOR WELL OVER A YEAR THAT YOU COULD SEE BONE WITH THE NAKED EYE. A SEVERE STAPH INFECTION SET IN THAT ALMOST KILLED ME AND AT THAT POINT YES I COULD HAVE KEPT FIGHTING THE SORES BUT I WAS TIRED OF LIVING IN PAIN AND FIGURED THEY PROBABLY MAKE BETTER LEGS THAN THE ONES I HAD ANYWAY. SO ON SEPT 13 2006 I FOLLO

A Great Day
since yesterday was my bday, it was fun! been wanting a another tattoo and i got one. I got a hatchetgirl on my forearm. and I do like it alot. anyways. everything was doing great until today!! I went to work and I thought i was working today. before i went to work i had to go through 3 serurity. well the 3rd one told me i need to cover up my tattoo which i totally forgot, so i went home. i had to work at 11am, so i went back to work, and when i pass all 3 security, i went to the place and told me i request the day off. which is bullcrap. I didnt request that day off. the park opens saturday and sunday and I request the 24th just in case which is my bday and i did not requested today 25th off. so i wasted quarter tank of gas and i didnt know the park was open on fridays. ive called the place thursday about my sceduale and never did answer me back. so ive took today off. and since i have sundays off, which is a good thing. i have the whole weekend to myself. and i had to call in late t

I'm Kinda Heated.
I saw my dad for the first time in 6 years. It was 4 hours of guilt tripping, word twisting, evil manipulation tactics. The man just got gum cancer but still smokes cigs and yells at me caring. If he didn't already have cancer I'd have beaten the shit out of him. It's kind of defeated my week, and it's still sat.

This Made Me Lol
"BLOOMINGTON, Minn. -- Police said a 23-year-old man is in stable condition after he pretended that he was falling off a bridge over the Minnesota River, then actually fell off the bridge. Police got a call just before 5 a.m. Sunday from a 21-year-old man who said his friend fell off the Highway 77 bridge and into a marshy area about 30 feet below. The caller said he was driving north when his friend, who he said had been drinking, told him to pull into the bridge's emergency lane so he could urinate...."

I'd Pay To See This
I want to see someone rob a bank in broad daylight by threatening to kill a tickle me Elmo. I had a dream about it and I damn near pissed myself laughing when I woke up. Robber: "Give me the money or I will blow his fucking head off!" Elmo: "Oh god, I just stuffed all over myself..." Police outside: "That sick bastard, we've got to get a sniper in here!" I mean it was REALLY elaborate for a dream involving stuffed animals. But the best is at the end when the robber get's away... fuckin tickle me elmo kills him and takes off with the money.

My Site
For the moment my site is down. It needs ALOT of work for one, two I need to pay the hosting company to keep it up and I don't have any money at this moment in time. My regular bills come first. In other news I am now an auntie as of this month and I'm very happy. I have a nephew and he is the cutest baby ever! (corse we all say that about the babies in our respective families). I've also been doing photoshoots and working hard at my jub as a dancer. Life has been a little stressful but I will be ok. I'm hanging in there.

Fear And Love
Fear keeps a lot of people from achieving their professional goals but it also keeps people from taking risks personally. Everyone has battle scars when it comes to love. I always say that the world is full of damaged people inflicting pain on other damaged people. However, you cannot simply give up. There are a lot of what ifs. Hell, what if the sky falls tomorrow and you never found the true love that you seek because you were so scared. We have to get over the past. That man or woman who has moved on and it is not fair for you to be stuck in limbo because of what happened. People never really recognize the long standing ramifications for their actions.(until it's way too late) They go on about their business and do not know—or care—about those who have to try to pick up the pieces. All of that being said, live again and love again. Sure, it is a risk. It is always a risk. Just be cautious and follow your gut instincts. You can know somebody for twenty years and they mig

I Hate To Say
When I think about you I’m not sure how to feel.It’s like I’m holding onto something that never was real. For the past two years my heart has been chained to you.I gave up on the love of others. To you my heart was true. I just need to feel loved and have my heart set free.As much as it hurts we were never meant to be. You will always be special in my heart and my soul.You’re just not the one that can make me feel whole. No one can fill the space my heart has for you.Learning to love another doesn‘t mean that I wont be blue. You are still my best friend and no one can take that away.Just tell me it’s ok and let my heart find its own way. If I lose your friendship I don’t know what I will do.But honey I deserve to have love and happiness too.

Just Saying My Opinion
I HAVE SEEN AND HEARD SEVERAL PEOPLE HERE AS LATE. TRYING TO PROMOTE ANOTHER ADULT SITE WE KNOW THEIR ARE SEVERAL BUT THIS IS ONE IN PETICULAR. BELIEVE WE AS A FREE COUNTRY HAVE THE RIGHT TO GO TO AS MANY AS WE LIKE . I HELPED FIGHT FOR THAT PRIVELEGE. THE PROBLEM WITH ME IS DOWN TALKING FUBAR BEING HATEFUL ABOUT IT. THINK IF YOU AS A PERSON HAVE THIS FEELING THEN LEAVE. YOU DONT GO TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS AND WHINE AND AND TRY TO CONVINCE THEM TO LEAVE AND GO TO THIS OTHER SITE. i SAY YOU HAVE A PROBLEM IT IS YOURS DONT GIVE IT TO OTHERS. IT RUINS EVERY ONE ELSES FUN. JUST SAY YOUR GOOD BYE'S AND LEAVE SO ALL WILL BE HAPPY' WOULD LIKE TO HER ALL OF MY FRIENDS OPINION ABOUT THIS. THANK ALL OF YOU IN ADVANCE. fU ON