Long Consuming Dream
A lonely solitary sound floats slowly 'cross a mountain stream; a voice broad and and quite unfound, his song a long consuming dream. No meadowlark has pined as sweet or brought such beauty near complete; his plaintive strains of purity enrapture life in symphony. No springtime trill of whippoorwill which breaks the still of silent night can touch so much my naked will or shine as bright a healing light. No Sirens of exotic seas, heard off the Southern Hebrides, could lift so high my troubled soul now filled to full and joyous whole. He sings the ancient dialect of Highland Gaelic, lost to me, yet language lost does not affect perfection in its melody. And suddenly I see him now;He takes a low and private bow then sees me standing here amiss -from lip of bliss, he throws a kiss. Poem by Tammy C.

Even The Poor Slammed By Obamacare
Whether or not you now have health insurance, Obama's healthcare bill will cost you dearly.   If you don't have insurance, you will be required to buy it. The legislation specifies how much you will have to pay for the coverage before any subsidy kicks in.   All during the campaign, Obama kept speaking about affordable coverage. Now it appears that his definition of "affordable" might be a bit elastic.   If your household income is $66,000 a year, slightly above the national average, Obama's healthcare bill will require you to spend 12 percent of your income — about $8,000 a year or almost $700 a month — to buy health insurance before you get any federal subsidy.   Even those making less will have to reach deep into their meager resources to satisfy Obama's statutory requirement. Families scraping by on only $44,000 a year will have to pay 7 percent of their income (about $3,000) on insurance.   Those bringing in just $33,000 will have to ante up 4.5 percent of th

Personality Analysis
I saw this in a blog by MarQ and found it interesting enough to take myself. As written by MarQ, here is the introduction: Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI) is a personality indicator designed to assist a person in identifying some significant personal preferences. Katharine Cook Briggs and her daughter Isabel Briggs Myers developed the Indicator during World War II, and its criteria follow from Carl Jung's theories in his work Psychological Types.The Indicator is frequently used in the areas of pedagogy, group dynamics, employee training, leadership training, life coaching, executive coaching, marriage counseling, and personal development.If you would like to take the test to see your type.Click Here My results are below: Idealist Portrait of the Counselor (INFJ) Counselors have an exceptionally strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others, and find great personal fulfillment interacting with people, nurturing their personal development, guiding them to realize their hum

Old Man...
yes, i dropped off the face of the earth again.  but as always, i have returned from the void.  and with news this time! i am officially old.  i started having pain in my neck, shoulder, and arm about 1.5 months ago.  this has happened before, but i decided that i should have it checked out this time.  after hurting for two weeks, i went to a chiropractor.  he said the problem was my sacroiliac joint.  he treated me accordingly and gave me a list of things to do to help it heal.  it didn't get better. after another week of pain, i went to my doctor.  he referred me to a physiatrist.  he did much the same things as the chiropractor, but also took x-rays of my neck.  he said that it looked like arthritis.  so he prescribed pain meds, scheduled an mri, and sent me to a physical therapist. i went back yesterday to look at the mri with dr. spine.  it turns out that i have three disks in my neck that are thinning, and one of them is herniated.  this is being caused by the arthritis.  four

Two Choices
Two ChoicesWhat would you do?....you make the choice. Don't look for a punch line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have made the same choice?At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves children with learning disabilities, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and itsdedicated staff, he offered a question:'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does, is done with perfection.Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do.Where is the natural order of things in my son?'The audience was stilled by the query.The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, who was mentally and physically disabled comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'Then he told the fol

Why I Am Banned From Costco
  So anyway, was down at the local CostCo the other day to pick up a bag of dog chow for Nikki The Wonder Dog, when this elderly lady in line behind me asks, “Do you have a dog?” Well, what did she think I had, an elephant?  But instead of being snarky, I decided to be flippant.  “No, I’ve been putting some weight on lately, and decided to go back on the Purina diet,” I replied. “The Purina diet?  I’ve never heard of that one”. “Sure,”  I said.  “You keep your pockets stuffed with Purina Dog Chow.  Whenever you feel the urge to eat, you pull a couple of nuggets out and crunch on them.  It’s nutritionally complete, and very filling.  Last time I was on it, I lost nearly 50 pounds before I woke up one day in the ICU with tubes coming out of nearly every orifice.” She gasped.  “Did the dog food poison you?” “No ma’am,” I replied politely.  “I stepped off the curb to snif

Birthday Card From My Mom
This is the birthday card my mom sent me.... This card is good for one free drink! Then you open it...... Just fold into a funnel, and stand outside in a rainstorm. Laughed my ass off at that card love my moms sense of humour

Deleting
I have no VIP so if I want to upload more pictures, I have to delete most of what I have. I'm going to start that now. I'm going to get rid of pretty much every picture I have. I'm only keeping about 20 of the newer ones of me, a few of the ones that I think are funny, and a few of the salutes to friends and from friends. I just think that I have way too much and what's the point? Anyway, if you don't have a salute I made for you, you better get it today. By tonight, about 90% of my pictures will be gone. Love ya all!!!

Got It
The need for constent movement can drive you nuts. Wanting to get something done but not being able to for one reason or another. Feeling like you cant keep your hands still. Thousand things start flowing threw your head, and feeling like if you could just focus on one thing. Should i read, write, color. Want to paint but cant. Kids running around gleefully, with smiles on there faces. Thats when you think thats the reason for the worry, conflict. But there worth it. Life will threw some big ass curve balls at you when your not looking. Have that cry, little bit of a break down, but dont let it stop you. You know what has to be done and what to do. Dont be a pussy.  Do what needs to be done and dont cry about it. The only person you can truely trust is yourself, well maybe some people but they are my sisters. I am a bitch and noone else. Just remember i never told you.                                       Later

A Single Rose
A single rose f love A single rose of devotion A single rose of wish upon my lips A single rose of thought of you A single rose of desire to be granted A single rose of moment of careless bliss A single rose of love never to be broken A single rose for one last kiss

My Uncle Lincolns Real Page
It seems that a nasty fat chick named blaine has hacked my uncles page if your in question on which of his page is real it is the one i am linking here please block and or delete the other one   http://fubar.com/user.php?u=1230422&friend=1230422

What Makes Me
WHAT MAKES ME? created @ 2009-08-29 18:48:08   What makes me weak? My fears. What makes me whole? My God. What keeps me standing? My faith. What makes me compassionate? My selflessness. What makes me honest? My integrity. What sustains my mind? My quest for knowledge. What teaches me all lessons? My mistakes. What lift's my head high? My pride, not arrogance. What if I can't go on? Not an option. What makes me victorious? My courage to climb. What makes me competent? My confidence . What makes me sensual? My insatiable essence. What makes me beautiful? My everything. What makes me a woman? My heart . Who says I need love? I do. What empowers me? My God & Me. Who am I ? I AM A STRONG CHRISTIAN WOMAN!

Thundering Sounds Of Silence
As the day turns to nightLeaving the sky aglow with residual light,My hungry eyes take in the feastThat tells me most, by saying least.A silent scene can stir the heartWith more power than mere words impart,And leave you breathless, standing still-Held captive by your own free will. Poem By Tammy C.

A Poem
Fallen leaves slain by the wind Swirl and whirl whistling to the sky Dropping one by one each petal that - was once moistured and adored - Now withered and dreary its juices all gone.   Where are now the butterfly that cherish me? I cannot beg to stay,drifted and gone - i am powerless to make them remain!   Now slowly and silently i weep as i fall And lay in the ground I dont know where to go.................           Annette.

Feeling Baby Move...
I've read that it feels like "butterflies" or "a fish swimming" or some other gay thing like that.  In actuality, it feels like baby is pinching and poking my uterus from the inside and is getting stronger...started feeling this a month ago.  Oh, there it goes again, lol.  Baby is always more active at night...p'haps 'cause that's when I am movin' around... I am going to be a mother.  Never would have guessed it...and as cheesy as it sounds, I am going to have a baby made from love.  I absolutely adore the father, and I couldn't imagine a better daddy for baby to be.  Being so in love kinda hurts... Wow, betcha can't tell I'm pregnant and full of hormones, eh?  :p  Kay, I'm done being cheesy...

Nice Quote
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."   Nelson Mandela (part of his inaugural speech)

I Wasn't Going To, But...........
I wasn't going to write about what happened Sunday watching the bears.  Figured all my friends here would leave me if I did, but then my friend and I talked and I decided what the hell, it happened and I can't take it back si I might as well share it my friends here like I have everything else. Anyway, here goes.....I mentioned last blog entry that Tina and her mom participated in our weekly sex party, nothing sexual happened between them but it was so fucking wierd seeing mom and daughter having sex in same room.  Anyhow, Tina and her Mom wanted to come back and join us again, at first I was No Fucking Way!!!! but all during the week Tina kept pestering me and since nothing happened between them and Tina's mom is so cute and sexy, I relented and said it was okay.  Guess I was thinkin with my pussy instead of my brain hehehehe!!!!!  Anywho, Sunday came along and I was waiting with my friend, the game wasn't until the night but we decided to make it earlier.  I was a lil nervous but ha

The Girl Who Silenced The World For Five Minute
This is a great video that you need to watch I gaurantee it will make you think http://media.causes.com/510213?p_id=2269550

I've Been Propositioned....
seriously 8-P this is what i was sent in a friends request.... hey sweets. So I couldn't help but notice your name. I love pervs...cuz pervs usually love me. If you're really a perv, you might be interested in what I have to offer. I have a large array of NSFW photos you can view. There are 34 pix and I add more as I see fit. I have pix of me rubbing my clit, using a dildo on myself, my tits, me tasting myself, me fingering myself. Anything you might want to see. Most girls charge at least a $50 pack to see theirs, all I'm asking for is a $20 bling pack. I have also started doing cam shows on Yahoo. I'll do pretty much anything you want me to do. Most girls charge a $100 bling pack or a happy hour to see them on cam, all I'm asking for is a $50 bling pack. Here's a little sample to tantalize you: I can move my hair away for just $20 I could be sitting there topless for just $50 Let me know if interested jesus christ... this kinda stuff should be illegal... stupid whores i swear...

The Killing Dance
in the midst of loving deaththe warmth of such re'surring breaththe end it seemsthe only wayfor our two soulsforever stayin satan's romance; razor bladesblood's eternal - never fadeslike demon dreams of red romanceour souls now there:the killing dance ©DS 1975

Desire You
DON`T SAY A WORD DON`T STAY AWAKEREST FOR A WHILE, FOR A LIFESLEEP QUIET MY HEART, I DON`T NEED YOU NOWAND IT MAKES ME WANTWANT TO FALLDARKNESS CALLING, COME TO REAP ME FROM MY LOVEI DESIRE YOU, FOR ALL MY HEART I`VE COME TO THISI WANT YOU TO COME, COME FADE MY SUNCOME AS YOU WANT, TONIGHTBURN SLOW MY HEART, I WON`T WEEP YOU NOWAND IT MAKES ME WANTWANT TO DIESAY ONE MORE PRAYER TO FALL DESIRESAVE ONE MORE HEARTBEAT TO CRY ©DS 1975

Imprisoned
Slender beams of moonlight enterthis darkened chamber as I kneel,always alone, always lost,frozen here,waiting.Tortured forms wrought in panes of glass loom asdust dances in the air,forming an image in my mind,rending my darkened soul.Terror on a lover's face.I raise my head, now crying out forthis oblivious darkness.©DS 1975

"dark Love "
It is a night of dark desire, a song of ethereal pain,wolves vent their loneliness. The eternal onewakens.Darkness shrouds her walking form,an eternal wanting.Her raven hair cascades overpale and delicate shoulders, and herfull blood red lips part slightly, to taste theblood streaming from thepale flesh beneathher.Now a night of darkness,I remember her.©DS 1975

Dark Betrayal
Around, all around, the shadows gather.My dread grows as the dagger of your words falls against my heart.It mutilates me, and darkly mylife's blood dripsto the fallen despairing leaves.In my madness I call your namewhile Death's shadow surrounds me.Now alone, my love falls upon uncaring eyes.This is because of you©DS 1975

Unfinished Bussiness
to all the fallen angels spread your wings and fly. wipe the tears from your eyes, the time has come to rise. let your voices carry high. let the world hear your cries. let your heart be your guide as you take to the skys. leave your cold and darkened toombs. clear your mind and heal your wounds. and the world will know the end is soon. mankinds fate is filled with doom. hear these words for all their worth. let them echo in heaven and stain the earth. ashes to ashes, dust to dirt. convicted for life, condemed at birth.  

Love Sick Puppy
Like a love sick puppy I sit and cry Like a love sick puppy I just want to die Like a love sick puppy I lick my wounds dry Like a love sick puppy I give up all hope of being the love of his life Like a love sick puppy I turn callous and mean Like a love sick puppy I bite the hand that feeds

Little Black Bird
Little Black Bird holding the gun see how far you can get on the run Little Black Bird see how heavy the weight has become Run Little Black Bird for your demons shall chase you Run Little Black Bird spread your wings and fly Poor Little Black Bird I see how you bleed and die No Little Black Bird there is no running for you and I

All The More Reason To Live Like Today Is Your Last
I disapprove of both and let me tell you why. Gods are created to suite the needs of people at a certain time and place given enviromental surroundings. Case and point, Zeus was king of the gods and beneath him were the numerous demi-gods of the time, one of love, one of harvest, one of the sea, one of the sun and so on. Ancient greeks, with infinite philosophy and ideals knew, not thought but KNEW that the greeks were the chosen people. decendants of the gods lust on human women and therefore men women and children were subject to the wrath of the gods. They punished pride and strength but adhored in sexuality and "sin". Reproduction is ideal and necessary in any civilzation as it is in any society before the 15th century as more sons mean more hands to work the fields. More young men to send and die to defend lands from foreign intrusion. And more young men and women to provide more and more generations. But the Greeks KNEW the gods lived upon olympus and controlled the underworld, e

I Will Meet You
    Im breathing in and out slowlyTrying to match the rhythm of your heartbeatFeeling as if I can hear your soul talking If I listen hard enoughI close my eyes Submersing myself in this momentAnd close off the rest of the worldJust to hear your peaceful breathingYour fingertips touch and smooth my skinAs they run along my back tenderly Your fingertips give me sweet chills on my armsAs they kiss the surface of my skinWe left the radio onBut it is drowned out by our beautiful silenceYou hold me closer and closerTo see if my soul is talking backI slowly open my sparkling eyesAnd pray that Im not just dreamingBut then I see your bright, blue eyes staring backAnd I cant help but fall in love all over againYou touch my face and smileWhile I sink deeper into your armsYou bring your lips closeAnd gently kiss me with passion I am frozen for the momentAnd continue to melt with the love you consume me withEvery instant seems like foreverAnd every embrace is one to remember

Stronger Without You (song Kinda?)
Sitting here wathing time go byLooking back at the mess you made of my lifePeople told me hes only playing games w/ youI laughed it off, even though I knew the truthWhen I first met you, you intoxicated meNow that I know you, its ugliness I seeNo longer Am I on my knees No more sorries No more begging pleaseI thank you for what I've becomeI'm stronger now that we're doneI gave you everything I hadBut to you my everything was badI could never put a smile upon that faceAnd look at how quickly im replacedAnother woman that I didn't seeAnother way you would try and break meAfter the things you said about me to my friendsI'm telling you, This is where it Ends!!You took my heart in your handsSaid I could trust you until the endThen you turned around lied and cheated meWas I the only one who didnt see?So many chances I've given youAt least for once I finally know the truthIf theres anything I've ever learned from youNever let a man completely own you

Gone (another "song"??)
You said I need youI said I love youWe said foreverBut what did we know?Who knows what happenedbut you are goneAnd now I'm left toCarry onYou kiss me You hold meYou love meYou leave meYou said you would neverbe like those other guysYou held me closeWith those lyin eyesnow I feel broken downjaded and torn apart insideI really wonderhow you sleep at nightYou take meYou hold me You use meYou leave meWhat kind of guy would do the things you doThe lies the cheating the manipulatingWhile convincing me I had your heart......You kiss meYou hold meYou love meYou leave meI loved youI held youI needed youbut now your goneNow I seeI don't need youI'm better than youAnd Now I'm gone

Self Discovery
Am I just another pretty face?Or Is there more to me than thatdo people see past the physicalto see the deeper me?Do they even try?Do they see me as that cute girlThe lonely oneThe funny oneDo they even remember me at all?Do I make my mark in this world As someone of worthor am I just another nobodyplaced haphazerdly on this earth

A Mother's Love
I hold you close at nightLooking into my own eyesThe miricle that you areI can never get overLittle one you are my worldFor you I w0uld do anythingI would give you the worldI would sacrifice my ownTo see that smile To hear that laughFor you to knowI love you

Doubt
How do you let someone in?Into those deep dark parts of your soulWhere no one else has ever gone beforeBecause you were too afraid to let themTo afraid they would see the real meAnd run screaming after seeing all thepain the hurt and the angerIs there someone who will lookAnd never runBut stay and pick up the piecesOf what has been undoneWho will put me back togetherOr will they stare at me in pityFor the things that run through my mindThinking I've gone crazyThen turn and leave me behindYou hear about the ONE who is supposed to comeand make everything rightbut how can I let him, When I wont let my pain out into the light?I pray for the day that he will comeUnlock the doors and stand while everything comes undoneWho will weather the storms with meWhile my life falls apartand always be thereTo sew up my broken heart

Deep Inside Your Love
What I wouldn't giveto livein the shadows of your loveThe protection the feeling of the power of your loveyour arms around me, holding methrough the night consoling meTheres no other place I'd rather bethan deep inside your loveInside your love I am safe and secureI have nothing that I fearyou set my soul at easeYou make me believein meI can never thank you for all that you've doneFor showing me all that you've shownYou make me better thanI've ever beenWhen I amDeep inside your love

Behind The Smiles
I'm the one who hides behindThat pretty face and those empty eyesThe one who puts on a smile so no onehears my criesFeeling so empty day after dayNot knowing how to make this pain go awayThis pain i've known for so longIt's hard to tell where it all went wrongHow can I show how I truely feelWho I truely amWhen I am not sure myselfThese words and these walls,tearing at me everydayFeeling like I don't belongMy smiles and my laughter just for showSo no one knows the inner tormet and despair I feelReaching the deepest deapths of my soulWhere I have no controlWhere I sit with my head in my handsRocking, cryingWaiting for it all to end

Religious Differences
Your words rise up against meIn my mind I find the words to useBut to voice them would be A death of our relationshipOur familyHow can you not see the liesThe changing of storiesOf beliefsHow religion is tearins us apartTHEY have you so enrapturedI feel you will never find true releaseTHEIR beliefs become yours And what they say is TruthYet there is no proof No substainable truth That THEY are rightMother I wish you could seeWhat I see from the outsideHaving been where you areI feel pain and sorrow for youEvery time we have this fightI try to bite my toungeTrying not to hurt youbut if I do not speak my mindAm I hurting you more?

Me
its like no matter what i do i just cant find that some one.....i tought i had it clinched but again i was wrong.........im always wrong......always hurt......no one knows the real me.......i dont even know the real me anymore......i feel so lonely, so hurt......even in a room full of people i am compleatly alone......no feelings ne more.....every time i get feelings for one person they are ripped away and im numb all over again......totally useless....feelings were just ment to be killed.......i dont think i could or will ever love again.....im stripped of all feelings and emotions.....but like a drone i live day to day with that little smidgent of hope that something might happen....but my world of doubt clouds the hope out and it is engulfed by rage...i just dont know what i am supposed to do with my life...if that is what u call it......how depressing...i look at all these people who are fake, i just want to strangle them...they have no idea what it is to be alone....stripped of ev

I'm Such An Asshole
I'm such as asshole...   As seen at TripAdvisor.com:   I stayed at the Rendezvous Melbourne in July 2009.  While the room was nice and the service was good, their complaint resolution was atrocious.  The bathroom lights are motion sensitive and were not working properly.  They would not turn on when I entered and not turn off when I exited.  What’s worse is that the lights turned off when I was in the shower THREE times.  I had to sleep with the bathroom door closed.  I complained about this five days in a row.  All five days I was told it was fixed.  It never was.  I ended up changing hotels.  [The Best Western Atlantis’ new wing had just opened.  The rooms were nearly identical in design and appearance to the Rendezvous and the service was unsurpassed.  When the wireless internet wasn’t working properly, they upgraded my room to one with a city view (beautiful) and a wired internet connection, comped the internet and did my laundry for free.  Excellent experienc

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Ok
hey pplz so i thot i would try this out and see i am tryin to new things so yea who ever wants to know anything bout me lemme know i have 2 yr old daughter for those who dont know and her name is madison so yea um.... anyone wanna know anything lemme know!!!!!!!!!!!

Introduction
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Great Idea For Every Car
High-speed chase ends when OnStar halts stolen SUV Stop thief: California carjacking suspect nabbed after GM's OnStar halts fleeing SUV By Tom Krisher, AP Auto Writer On 6:35 pm EDT, Monday October 19, 2009   Buzz up! 34 Print DETROIT (AP) -- When two Visalia, Calif., police officers swung their cruisers behind a sport utility vehicle that had been carjacked at gunpoint early Sunday, they prepared for a dangerous high-speed chase. The 2009 Chevrolet Tahoe roared away with officers in pursuit, but shortly after the suspect made a right turn, operators at General Motors Co.'s OnStar service sent a command that electronically disabled the gas pedal and the SUV gradually came to a halt. The flustered thief got out and ran, but was quickly nabbed after he climbed several fences and fell into a backyard swimming pool, police said. It was the first time since OnStar began offering the service in the 2009 model year that it was used to end a chas

Quick Update...
My school schedule plus kids has me busy from 6:30am to 7 or 8pm.  I'll be on more now that I'm getting accustomed to being in school plus changes in medication. I was feeling light headed and tired, my blood pressure was up so I saw my doctor and he gave me samples of Benicar HCT.  He informed me it was the same thing I had been taking but it had an added diuretic.  I was feeling the same days later, checked my bp, it was fine.  I told my dr I started taking my bp med at night because I was feeling so tired during the day and thought it might be responsible, he said no and told me to take it in the morning.  He decided on blood tests to check for diabetes. All last week, which incidentally was my first week of school, I had symptoms of being diabetic, I even got sick after eating simple carbs or sugar.  While visiting my mom she checked my blood sugar after eating and it was in the high 200's..normal is 125 or less.  So I not only braced myself for a future as a diabetic but started

Auto 11
I'm an unemployed, disabled USAF veteran...yeah, I'm milking it but at least I'm trying to make a trade and NOT BEGGING FOR WHAT I WANT!I want an auto 11. This is what I have to trade for it:5 million fu-bucksMy daily 11's for a month/negotiable30 demon ability points/negotiable2 tickers after they re-setUnlimited demon family addsUnlimited Mumm votesAll pics rated within a 30 day time periodEverything I'm offering can be used on you and/or friends of your choice. TRADED ON NOVEMBER 3, 2009. WILL NEED TIME TO REPLENISH MY OFFERINGS BEFORE ANOTHER TRADE CAN BE DONE! SEND PRIVATE MESSAGE PLEASE AND THANK YOU!

25 Scientifically Proven Ways To Make Yourself Smarter
By Tara Miller Almost everyone would love to take advantage of ways to boost their brain power and become smarter, no matter how smart they already are. Below are 25 scientifically proven ways you can do just this. From surprising activities such as watching TV or riding a motorcycle to brain-healthy nutrition choices, try a few of these ideas and see if you notice any improvement in your intelligence. What You Can Do These activities all offer ways to improve your cognitive abilities, so pick up a crossword puzzle, drink some water, and listen to some music to make yourself smarter. Watch specific types of TV shows. Outlined in the book Everything Bad is Good for You: How Today’s Popular Culture Is Actually Making Us Smarter by Steven Johnson, TV shows that include certain elements such as many overlapping plot strands, a relatively large number of primary characters, moral ambiguity, and no narrative hand-holding produce benefits for the views that build intelligence. Som

Quieting The Mind
The goal of this exercise is to quiet the constant din of thoughts generated by the ego-based mind. This noise keeps you from living in the ecstasy of the present moment, the only moment you really have. The never-ending clamor keeps you from ever really “living”.  Remember, these thoughts are not “you”; they are the work of your mind. Your mind is a tool you own, and right now that might seem hard to believe because you, like many other people, may have been taken over by your own mind.  You can become the “watcher” and as such, not let the thoughts seize control of your life. You can become fully conscious. You can return your mind to the status of a tool that you choose to use when you see fit.  And now, the exercise:  Sit down in a comfortable place. When you first do this exercise, you might find it easer to do this in a quiet

Herbs I Like
www.BOIRON.com   Arnica montana Trauma, Bruises, Muscle Soreness Common name: Leopard's bane   Graphites Helps reduce scars Common name: Graphite   Symphytum officinale Promotes healing of bone trauma Common name: Comfrey   Staphysagria Promotes healing of surgical wounds Common name: Stavesacre  

A New Role In Lotro
MDB.com today broke the news that David Wenham will likely star in directed by Sam Ramie’s the film version where the role of Alsace. David Wenham from Australia, New South Wales, have been in the "Lord of the Rings Online cd key," which starred in the role of Farmer, and participating in the exercise been Frank Miller film "300" and "Van Helsingr." The origin and the real degree of speculation have not yet been confirmed. As early as 2007, the Lord of the rings online Game card version to determine when, Blizzard has announced that the role of Alsace Prince will not appear in the film version of them, but we all know Blizzard is a good game is its constant production of company, so on Alsace will appear on the big screen, we do not have to worry too much. On 2007 on Blossom, Blizzard has stated that the story targeted at the Alliance camp, but Chris Mertzon said one of a coalition party's roles will be very out of color. Not long ago, according to director Sam Ramie introduce th

The Leo Sex Horoscope And How To Sexually Please Leo
So, let's take a look now at the individual positions of Mars and Venus, starting with the female horoscopes. Gender Mars Venus Description Sun in LEO Femalehoroscope Mars in fire Venus in fire excessive sexual desires, extramarital affairs, instant-sex, loves visualizations, passionate, love at first sight, indiscreet, wants to be amused and entertained(!), enthusiasm, supportive family, quite blunt, wants a sports-minded partner, gorgeous with venus and mars in Leo, nearly always has children Venus in earth wants to be amused and entertained (!), sensual, loves physical beauty and luxury, materialistic, money through marriage, social, exhibitionism, multiple marriages, traumatic events re parents/family Venus in water wants to be amused and entertained (!), domestic, the atmosphere, ambience and surroundings are extremely important (!), tumultuous affairs, strong desire for love, sensual, well-liked, loves dancing, lover/partner has sex aff

Compatibility Of Leo
Compatibility of Leo the sign of the Zodiac Leo are born between July 23rd and August 23rd Leo and Scorpio love compatibility There will be an instant mutual sexual attraction, equal in force between them. But Leo finds it hard to cope with Scorpio's jealousy and possessiveness. Intense, smoldering Scorpio is on a too short fuse, while Leo is much more buoyant. These two very strong willed individuals generally create some rather stormy moments. Generally in such relationships there will be no "romanticism", but these two are capable of sensual loving and good, long partnership. Leo and Virgo love compatibility Here is a good chance for a happy partnership. Magnanimous Leo will overlook Virgo's tendency to be critical, while Virgo will take pride in Leo's accomplishments, good humor, and lovable nature. Virgo will bring in that couple's sexual life large amount of emotional heat and understanding. Leo will respect Virgo's clever and alert mentality. Virgo will try to

Ever Growing Darkness
so small  the light that pasts the walls anymore, no longer the darkness stands out for now it has became the surroundings, pain is most plentiful and fully enjoyed, marks on the walls are not those of signs for help but rather signs of comfort. each new breath welcomes the shadows ahh yes  they are coming  it is time to become them

Bls Storie..sdmf 4 Life...
Ok yall know I love to write stories so here is my bls storie lol..     I am ready to go put some cunts IN THIS RIVER, because they should of killed me when they had the chance. SDMF BLOOD IS THINKER THAN WATER.! If anyone shall ever fuck with the family there is going to be a  SUICIDE MASSIAH. Were never BORN TO LOSE, its a CONCRETE JUNGLE up in this mother fucker. Others should of been STILL BORN because they worship a COUNTERFIT GOD. I am going to take THE BLESSED HELLRIDE to THE HOUSE OF DOOM because i am BOARD TO TEARS. So the moral of this storie is lets FIRE IT UP!!     by dee oct 19 2009..

Another Thankless Blog, Lol :$
I try very hard here to THANK PEOPLE, when they do something/anything for me, here or in real life.. I guess, that is just the way I was raised. I do not get this, Thankless Mentality.. The Begging, Whining, Deserving Atittude. Our Dog acts better, Sioux knows, he is not allowed to even, look at you, while you are eating, anything.. He Looks away, and waits patiently. When done eating, He Then knows he might get a treat. He Wags his tail and smiles his THANK YOU.. But these Fubar People, WTF is up here? I Ran two bombs yesterday... Bombed like 150 people.. out of all of that and a happy hour, after going through my mail.. Only about 15 people, even bothered to say/type thank you.. Now, when my friends bomb me.. I always bling them a one credit bling.. If I miss someone.. it is an honest mistake. as I always have over 98 plus messages, Sooo what? How can I add more beggar whiner thankless freaks here, only to block/delete them later.. How do you tell the "nice', people with Morals and V

Hear New Music Artists
With all the different music genres and artists out there is it any wonder you can’t hear most of them on terrestrial radio. Your favorite radio station plays only a limited number of songs and artist because of their limited vision. Well, now that internet radio has taken hold in the entertainment market place, you can hear artists you will never hear on the “radio.” what that mean is internet radio gives a platform to most if not all new artists and their music. Read about it at Radio And Internet Newsletter (RAIN). http://textpattern.kurthanson.com/ BlastFM is one of those stations that give you artists heard no where else. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

Birth Sign
I'm a PISCES   LIBRA - The Asshole (9/23-10/22) Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. *5 years of bad luck if you do not repost.   SCORPIO - The SUPERIOR One (10/23-11/21) Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. Amazing in bed. *15 years of bad luck if you do not repost   SAGITTARIUS-THE SUPERIOR SEXUAL PARTNER (11/22-12/21) Loves to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it..Cool. . *24 years of bad luck if you do not repost    THIS CAPRICORN - The One that Waits (12/22-1/19)

Ppl I Leveled For G Levelers
      This  is the ppl i leveled today     jwk5337@ fubar ♥ ♥  Janice ♥ ♥@ fubar  Lividwasteland@ fubar LilSmily09@ fubar  RexZombie@ fubar          October 22th 2009 ppl tp level NOTE IF U ARE IN MY BFFS FAMILY CONTACT HIM G LEVELERS ONLY N HAVE HIM LINK YOU TO MY BLOG  HE KNOWS U ALL BETTER THAN I DO! THANKS LINS       armyguy5050@ fubar Munchkin@ fubar spartan92@ fubar jle672@ fuba

Oh Sh&t
We'll I dont have mumms , status or a online icon and im kinda slowly disapearing from fubar. So if you want you can add me to your myspace  just   look for  Meowzette   myspace.com/meowzette

Fake Sunshine?!
New Blog!!! http://www.fubar.com/blog/207243/1074969

Fake Sunshine
Fubar Profile Link: http://www.fubar.com/2931246

Heavy Metal Pussy Cats! Metallicats! : Key Of Awesome W/ Mark Douglas
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AAfpq6EPKck

Starting Today -
I would like to try and send alittle something sweet out everyday to my new found friends, in hopes of sharing something sweet and maybe give you inspiration and hope.I know that everyday I cant, But please know your all thought about. What I have realized I need to change most is my idea of how unimportant I am; how little I impact the larger world. I believed that those little things might be nice but weren't that important. My heart knows differently. I may not be able to stop a war or feed the hungry masses but I can say thank you. I can make a difference in one person's life by taking the time to smile at a stranger, send a comment to a friend, or do any of the little things my heart asks me to do. Change is often about taking a risk. Writing this blog is that kind of risk. Maybe I don't have anything to say that rates as important but then again maybe it isn't what I say that is important but that I am willing to say it. So instead of writing pages and pages of thoughts that

He Is,...
he is the key that unlocks my heart, he is the hug that is warmer than any other,The heart that melts me,The butter that makes it sweeter,The love I had always dreamed,If this is real,{IT IS} Its a lovestory,what is next?for this is happily ever after.   sweet&kinky copyright 10-18-2009

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Bottle Top!
Ever see a comercial of a product that's either an interesting idea and yet you can't help but laugh?     BOY OH BOY DID THIS TICKLE MY FANCY!

Throat Punch
  I don't know who I want to throat punch first: RR or Sho.   RR bet Sho she couldn't be helpful and nice in every MuMM for 24 hours or some bullshit (check in her pics for the SS of it.) It's getting ridiculous!! She is actually HELPING people! WTF??     STOP IT ALREADY!!!!   /rant

Illiteracy Is Cool?
Events that have taken place in the last several weeks have got me to thinking. However, There is just one thing I cannot figure out. This is in reference to no specific individual, just something that I have noticed over the years. I know what my personal opinions of it are. I was just curious as to what others may think. I am sure most if not all of you have seen me busting some poor schmucks balls in the MuMMs for his/her lack of attempting to spell, punctuate and using just basic grammar rules. My personal take on it is, the majority of this behavior is usually done for two different reasons. The first reason being that the person is an actual idiot and too stupid to even try to do things the proper way. The other reason is that the person is just too damned lazy to even attempt to do anything correctly. Typical misspellings, I can forgive as shit happens. I see the English language slowly eroding away to shit. I mean when they are adding made up shit from Rachael Ray t

Let Me Tell You Something
  Leeds was sunny and I love autumn, isn’t that something? The drive through Ilkley and Skipton and all across that area with the trees and foliage turning bright gold to vivacious red was awesome. That’s officially me getting old, I am a leaf peeper! But I have to say the Midlands countryside is just stunning to see at this time of year, and Leeds looks so quaint, who knew it was hotbed for terrorists? It looks so peaceful and nice as well!   As I was walking through sunny scary hotbed of terror that is Leeds, I sat by the little river and took in the view. A man approached wearing inappropriately short shorts, you know what I mean, over 40s mens shorts should be below knee, under 20s men shorts can be showing some clam if they want, they are young and their skin still fits them. This man was in his 50s and was grossly over weight, the shorts were disgustingly tight, and I couldn’t stop staring at his crotch which is disturbing to say the least.   Of course sag

Always Remember To Brush Your Teeth After Smoking Crack
I seen this and had to share it - enjoy! ROTFL! Always remember to brush your teeth after smoking crack Choder I stayed at work late yesterday to finish up a few projects. The newest new girl asked why I always wear headphones. At first I played nice and told her I stream Sirius and some of the comedy stuff is NSFW, but then she said she thought it was because of people yelling across the office. The office manager came out, and I made a comment about how a lot of it was to tune out the ol’ stink behind me, and everyone had a chuckle and agreed she’s way too loud. On my way out, I noticed she made some additions to her pantry, most notably a toothbrush, and an aquarium-patterned dixie cup sealed with packing tape. I didn’t have time to investigate then, but since I knew I’d be in before her today, I ninja-pic’d some evidence. And listen, I know some people are weird and brush their teeth at work. That doesn’t make it normal. And

Rally!!
Rally to save Michigan Film Incentive! Monday Oct 26 @ 7pm The Crofoot Ballroom Pontiac, MI FREE!! Join supporters and members of Michigan's Film Industry as they Rally to preserve the Michigan Film, Television, and Video Game Incentives.     

Feds Issue New Medical Marijuana Policy
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20091019/ap_on_go_ca_st_pe/us_medical_marijuana By DEVLIN BARRETT, Associated Press Writer Devlin Barrett, Associated Press Writer – Mon Oct 19, 1:07 pm ET WASHINGTON – Pot-smoking patients or their sanctioned suppliers should not be targeted for federal prosecution in states that allow medical marijuana, prosecutors were told Monday in a new policy memo issued by the Justice Department. Under the policy spelled out in a three-page legal memo, federal prosecutors are being told it is not a good use of their time to arrest people who use or provide medical marijuana in strict compliance with state law. The guidelines issued by the department do, however, make it clear that federal agents will go after people whose marijuana distribution goes beyond what is permitted under state law or use medical marijuana as a cover for other crimes. The memo advises prosecutors they "should not focus federal resources in your states on individuals whos

*cough* *sniffle* *snort*
So. I'm home dressed up in layers like a hobo, making a used tissue pyramid and coughing like an aged alcoholic. I had coughing and a runny nose all week, but the fever just hit me today. The lack of sleep the past couple of days,  the smoking and not that many juices might have had a slight part to play. Might. I admit to nothing. As such I'm sipping lemon tea with honey and imagining what kind of kingdom would have used tissue pyramids... Furthermore I have no idea why I'm writing about it. Must be the fever talking. Also to warm my feet the only thing I could find were a pair of slippers (might be the wrong name) shaped like sheep with hearts on them and. yes I kid you not, pierced ears. With silver earings. No. They are not mine. Seriously. I'd rather batter my head repeatedly against the wall and plunge my head in a barrel of napalm than buy such a thing. They do keep my feet warm though. The bastards. I have locked the door in fear of someone seeing me in them or eve

Mom
Mom went to the lung Doc today. They told her and my oldest sister it was either lung cancer or an infection.  They are going back in Feb to have another CAT scan and if it has grown they will do a biopsy. Her chances for cancer are high since her younger sister died of lung cancer. Maybe it's just me,but I don't get the waiting thing. Why not check it now and not months down the line?  There will be no treatment for it,because she is to frail to survive that,but waiting makes no sense to me. Not my choice and I respect that.

Linking Monopoly, Numb3rs, Ot3p
I am playing Monopoly with a vast number of other North American citizens, which means I have an opportunity to give my change to the Ronald McDonald House charity practically daily. I have never seen the television show Numb3rs, but I am told it is very interesting, and since I lose my glasses like Velma, the precept of crime solving mystery shows is fitting. Ot3p FREAKING ROCKS!!!! I was never in to female lead singers in a hard core band and I was just about to ask my husband to get me off the sidelines of the mosh pit (my favorite place to stand, close enough to get the energy, far enough back to not get head butted) when I heard this most lovely primal, deep roar, then a lighter female voice and all of a sudden I put two and two together and realized that the roar came from the woman - who liked hats. Win Win. Perhaps you too are playing Monopoly. Here are your odds: One in Six chance of winning a food item. Here is the list of items that odds are you will NOT get: 8 - Twenty

Make You Think Of Anything?
I remember when... When you used to look at me like you do him. We used to talk all the time. We couldn't get enough of each other. My heart leaped when I talked to you. You were even in my dreams. Now..I rarely see you except in my nightmares. Your voice is distant, your eyes are dead. Carrying on a short civil conversation is like pulling teeth through my anus, I can't wait until you shut your fucking mouth and let me be on my way. I remember when... You used to make me laugh, and you laughed at all my stupid jokes. Life was carefree and you made me a better person. Now...you make me cringe, and you sneer at everything I say. Life is tedius and you make me a bitter person. I remember when... I couldn't wait to touch you. To hold you, run my fingers through your hair. To kiss your soft lips, and caress your flesh. Now...I ache to be out of your reach. Touching you is atrocious, your hair is an oily knotted mess. Your skin is dry and flaky, your lips are like an oversunned tuna. S

Random/weird Facts About Mz. Iowa!
I was really bored....lol1. I cannot eat a waffle without peanut butter. Period. Pancakes I like peanut butter on too, but I don't need peanut butter. Waffles, there's just no go without it. Yes, I put syrup on them too, and yes, they're amazing. Don't scrunch your nose at me until you've tried it. And don't pick a goofy kind of waffles like chocolate chip or blueberry. Then yeah, that sounds gross lol2. One of my favorite snack foods that I don't eat very often, I call my "swimmer food." When I was in high school, I hung out with the swim team pretty often because I was a swimmer most of my life, and I was dating a guy on the swim team. My best friend and I used to stay after school in the pool area doing homework and watch our boyfriends practice. And we'd get a bag of cheetos and peanut butter M&Ms and mix them together like chex mix, and get a Mountain Dew. I rarely eat it, once in a while it creeps up on me, but I always ate it during swim season, thus why I call it my "swimmer fo

Back To The Weightroom.
      Back into the weightroom. Don't feel strong, gotta get strong, so it's back to the weightroom. Nothing fancy mostly the 3 major compound movements, lat pulldowns or pullups, some type of rows, crunchs and a little cardio I'll post my max every 3 months for the 3 major compound movements; bench, ATG squats and deadlifts First entry: Bench - I pushed my covers off of me this morning. Felt good afterwards and my form was good. Deadlift - Lifted my dead ass out of bed. Kinda shaky until coffee intake was acheived. ATG squat - I was only able to squat to toilet level this morning. Lots of power though and very smooth movements. See ya in 3 months!  

Too Skinny
So I took my son to the doctor today for his 3 month med check...well, he's under weight...the doc wants him to gain about 8 or 9 lbs....otherwise she may end the meds that he's taking...and I don't want that because they really help him maintain his focus...so I have to try and fatten him up in the next 2 months....her only suggestion was to use whole milk with chocolate syrup....anyone else have any tips? I could google it but ya know...my friends always have awesome advice.

User Box For Fumafia Meeting Rooms
I gotta say, you guys are making this place rock.. I just have one small request though.. is there a way you could modify the "My Turf" meeting room so you could see who all is in the room similar to how it works in the lounge?that would be awesome, so we would know who all is in the room!Thanks, Much Love-Your Name Here   Please Copy/Paste and send to scrapper or BabyJesus

December 07
December.. December, month of blood loss (see my blog 56 Days) County Code Violations, Sun Tans, and fire pits.           So I get home and see these two pieces of paper on the door. I walk up looking at them thinkin 'Somebody is gonna be in for a surprise' because I think it's a summons for someone that doesn't even live here. No It's a compliance order from the county code enforcement. Yeah, I was surprised. It's cold, it's December, this is going to suck.           Behind the house is what can only be described as, and has been affectionately nicknamed, THE JUNGLE. In that over six foot tall tangle of growth, somewhere, are several tables, five chairs, a swing set, a patio couch, a former indoor couch, various yard tools, lots of dieing lumber, several small trees, a fire pit, and probably a lost pigmy tribe. (Something riles up the dog, and plays with the dog, and sometimes we swear we hear drums, though that could just be the neighbors stereo) Not to mention that there are

Can't Sleep....?
  Sleeping pill. Make sure you don't overdose.   -REL

Prisoners
They’re many lost souls in prisons and, in jail. So many of them are forgotten and, lonely.  Their heart are broken.  We don’t see all the pain they have buried inside. Some prisoners feel hopeless and, empty. We don’t see the stuff they go through everyday. They have no one to talk to. Some of them wake up nightmares. The light in their soul slowly grow dim. Some lose their will to live. Some are always fighting to stay alive. Most feel like giving up because, everyone has given up on them. They change while they’re there. Some of their heart become stone. So many of us judge and, criticize them. Yet we don’t why they’re there, or what caused them to do a certain thing. We forget all of us are God’s children. We don’t know how or, why they strayed away.  Some feel like they’re all alone. Where they’re it’s very violent. Some act out because they feel like they have nothing lose. Still others wait for the death bed, slow

As The Lord Commanded Moses
“And of the blue, and purple, and scarlet, they made clothes of service, to do service in the holy place, and made the holy garments for Aaron, as the LORD commanded Moses.”  Although Bezaleel the master craftsman isn’t mentioned by name in the thirty-ninth chapter of Exodus, it’s a fact that he, Aholiab, and all the people commissioned by the LORD to make the tabernacle and all its furnishings through Moses are still working hard at the base of mount Sinai.  Even the people called upon to serve the LORD in the tabernacle, the priests – beginning with Moses’ older brother Aaron and continuing through his family line – and the Levites – meriting service in the tabernacle due to their standing with Moses against the worshipers of the molten calf in chapter thirty-two and reinforced in chapter thirty-eight – have to look the LORD’s best as He directs. Chapter thirty-nine’s description of the priestly vestments or wear mirr

Unknown Title
The chest seems to tighten The eyes seem to burn Something within us urns Life is stressful Love is chaotic Yet something about you is hypnotic I'm there for you You're there for me So how can nobody really see I hold you up You never let me down Oh how I hate to see you frown Juggle the problems Juggle your life How can there be so much strife Give me your hand Come let us stand Together we deal Together we seal My heart to yours Your heart to mine What we have is all divine I'll never let you fall You'll never be alone This is love Love is what I've shown

Money For Nothing...
Some of you already know this, but for those who don't: I partly support myself financially from rental income. Yeah, I'm a landlord. This is NOT a job, it's money for nothing (well, if you discount the mortgages I'm still paying off on some of my properties it is). It is, however, a pain in the arse sometimes. For example, I employ a handyman to look after my properties. If he can't fix something he has the authority to call an expert from a list of plumbers, electricians, joiners, etc, that I provide him with. My tenants are told that if anything goes wrong with the fabric of their place, or the fixtures and fittings, etc, that they should call him. They're also told that they should only contact me with regards to their ability to pay rent. Yet, I still get calls about fucked up plumbing, electrics, etc, when all I can really do about it is to call my handyman dude and get him to call the tenant. But, let's be realistic. That isn't work. Far from it. Anyway, to get to the reason f

We Are All Beautiful - Amen
Amen - so be it. 

Tappin' That Ass In Iambic Pentameter
Just because Alix challenged me to do this awhile back - The deep thought here is what if introductory emails on Fubar were required to be in iambic pentameter?  The content and tone don't change - just the rhyme and meter. Yo Girl, I want to tap and smack that ass You look so fine and tittilicious lass Like steel, my peen is true, my peen is tall For real, I want to screw, you'll take it all This pretty much made my brain hurt and I think I fucked up the meter.  But you get the point.  Reply in rhyme, if you will.

Touch
Touch your soul In the shine of your eyes Lies the key to my dreams The warmth of your smile Keeps my heart in its seems   I wish that I could return All that you make me feel Even if I could only send part back Your life would be over filled with zeal   To many days I do not have the words So many hours go by without your voice Time drags on when you are not in touch I wish in my feelings I had a choice   I dream that I could warm you heart To make your smiles endless would be a great goal Make your days shine with happiness To reach out and bring a smile to your soul

No Real Name
Steel Grey eyes like the storm above Hold so much force and power One swift move or slight glance Feels better than a hot shower   A sweet smile that is relaxing Truly calms ones feelings Full cheek and lips That can bring about sweet dealings   Soft vibrant hair That loves to dance in the wind Watching its sweet dance Makes thoughts slip one’s mind   A relaxing joyful voice Makes the heart leap with joy So soothing and warm It is truly better than any toy   So much is unknown Yet everything seems so devine At times it is to speak Though I truly wish you were mine.

Poll Being Done.
1. How old are you? 2. What is your sexual orientation?   3. Have you ever given somone oral sex? 4. Have you ever received oral sex? 5. How many sexual partners have you had?

Touch Your Soul
In the shine of your eyes Lies the key to my dreams The warmth of your smile Keeps my heart in its seems   I wish that I could return All that you make me feel Even if I could only send part back Your life would be over filled with zeal   To many days I do not have the words So many hours go by without your voice Time drags on when you are not in touch I wish in my feelings I had a choice   I dream that I could warm you heart To make your smiles endless would be a great goal Make your days shine with happiness To reach out and bring a smile to your soul

The Walk
  Into the darkness they walk two souls looking for shelter not knowing where they are going not knowing where they have been looking across the endless darkness, in search of a light to bring home never traceing the steps back always looking, but more hoping trying to find a way through the darkness a way to safety a way to show what they can give so many places they have seen many people they have touched Yet never once be touched back the way they have touched others looking for the path they once knew yet have never found again hoping that they meet one day, and can show what they feel Wondering along, hoping that day is soon.

Grey
  The grey and dark have come. Her cold touch fills the air. Into the newness January stands alone. Seeking to touch those with out care.   The softness of her voice cools all that can hear. Her chill bears down deep on toughs around. Gloom, is seen for miles. For her heart can not be bound.   Everything has gone past the point of old. In her eyes, you can see hope of a new. Hope and trust try to push on. Yet even the frost kills her dew.   Lot of things still hang in the balance. Hope and luck are in there fight. Fear, sorrow and cold strike hoping to prevail. Both sides wage at each other with all there might.   Eternal is the feeling. Long are the nights. Warmth seams to be to far away. One hopes they can survive the fright.

Thinking About The Past
ive been thinking alot about this past year and i find myself feeling really sad and lonely...mostly for old friends that i no longer have. yea i shouldnt think about it but i cant help it, desparately tryin to hang on to happier times long gone and it hurts. i long for the ppl i lost, how can i say im sorry and lets forgive and forget? i wish to so much but they dont, of course there is nothing i can do about it but i wish there was.. why do i have to do this to myself? i wish i had an answer but i dont. my memories are all ihave left and they are so painful..... i just want my friend back i miss him so much. :(

Peg Soul
Yarrr! My head be screwed on kinda sideways today. *hacks*  *spits in garbage can* Still feel blah, but no better or worse than yesterday.  It's toying with me, I know it is. I hate getting into serious conversations in the mumms.  I should know better, I DO know better.  Especially when my head is kind of fuzzy and stuffs.  Sometimes you just want to talk about something interesting with someone you find interesting.  That part of it usually goes well and is enjoyable.  Then there are those that just want to try and push buttons and shout their point of view.  There is no debate.  All you get is dick swinging and word twisting. Give me words, and I will take them.  Don't give me my own back.  I already own those.  It's a pathetic way of arguing and as far from actual debate as you can get. It's about 40 degrees outside and about 95 degress in this office.  I have the window open and I feel like a McDLT.  This is not going to help me feel better. I want cake.  A yummy yellow ca