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Tomorrow
Is Dec 8th/2009. Is Tuesday. Is post to snow. IS the day I get to stand up to a monster and punish him for all the days he had me scared,made me think less of myself,made me think I was a horrible mother and a worthless human being altogther,for abusing me both mentally and physically.ALso for stealing my car. Is a day I have been excited for but yet dreaded for the past year an a half. Is the begining of (well hopfully) non restless sleeps. Is the first day of the rest of my life. I thank all the ones that for the past year(or well over...like Robyn) that has been my sholder,my rock and inspiration to not fold under pressure thru out this whole ordeal. I feel like I will be breaking my oldest heart..because no matter what has happend between his father and I(he was never much of a anything to my youngest son) he has always looked up to him and I know will miss him greatly. I just pray he will grow to understand. I feel like throwing up just writing this out. whatever.

The Least We Must Do - A Jim Bell Common Sense Commentary
http://www.jimbell.com It's as simple as this: all of us, just doing what we do, are destroying our planet's life support system. To be more specific, it's not so much what we're doing, but how we now do it. Just to survive, we need water and food. We also need energy to live contemporary lives. The way we now get energy, water and foods and most everything else is eroding the possibility of having a secure supply of these things in the future. What should we do? The answer is to develop ways to live a make livings that are life support self-sustaining - ways that heal and nourish each other and our planet's ecosystem. This is the least we must do if want to leave our descendants the birthright of a happy, healthy, prosperous and completely sustaining world. The first step toward achieving this goal is to become renewable energy self sufficient. When a home, community, city, county, region, state or country controls its energy supply and price, it controls its economy, its ways of life

I Miss' Missing You
The rain falls slow and hollow an almost happy feeling looks me in the eye and runs to hide I could smile but the tears will bleed and the stiches on my heart my tear torn apart by the thought of getting you back vs. the thought of never really having you those dreams i had seemed so tastefully real the cottoncandy dreams coming into play I had your heart you had my we walked alone in a deep dark forest full of secrete emotions we walked the shores of forign worlds we walked the edge of insane we wonderd near and far only to find the love we were looking for was right there in our heart we wonderd to the edge of reason we strolled the walk ways of devine perfection we looked up @ the moon and said I could do better wetouched the sky so fast and then we found what we feared we found doubt we found hesitation we found a false cure for the nothing wrong we found hate in a moment influenced by fear and controlled by anger for this I would ask for you to say what you feel one last time tel

What To Do
so i was with this guy for a while all was great but we lived in seperate states. he wanted to move in with me i freaked thought it was a little fast. i have been there and done that before so jumping into things scares the hell outta me. we broke up kind of i mean we where still talking but i told him i didn't want him to move in with me just yet. so yesterday i found out from him that he is dating someone else but that he said he still loves me and wants to be with me and i am the only one for him and then he asked me to marry him and broke up with this girl. he still says he wants me and wants to marry me and all that. so i get on here today after telling him that i wasn't sure that was part of the whole jumping into things and see on his page that he is still fuengaged to her and hers said the same and said that they were still together i overlooked it knowing it takes me a while to change things too. so i go into the room where he dj's and both he and her are in there and you know

So I Shed This Tear For You
Tonight a moment of moments made my heart stop again those words you whisperd in my head gave my soal a taste of your offerings I held you up among the clouds so long I could not see your feet, feeling for feeling I gave you love you gave me confusion, Again I come to you with this taste the way we were will never be the way we are.... I saw you last night all i did was close my eye's I missed you so much sometimes it makes my soul shiver the end that came to soon haunts my lust for others the mistakes that chassed you away made me feel so estranged I looked into your eye's to risk the chance feeling of love again but something that never left can't come again, we held hands every moment together is the best moment I will never have the past hurt but now the hurt is what gets me through to ask for more pain those simple feelings you had for me created complex emotions, those love dreams became feard nightmares of lonelyness in such a drop that it stalled time long enough to get well a

Twas The Night Before Christmas ( A Soldiers Story)
TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS,HE LIVED ALL ALONE,IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OFPLASTER AND STONE.... See More... See MoreI HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEYWITH PRESENTS TO GIVE,AND TO SEE JUST WHOIN THIS HOME DID LIVE.I LOOKED ALL ABOUT,A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE,NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS,NOT EVEN A TREE.NO STOCKING BY MANTLE,JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND,ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURESOF FAR DISTANT LANDS.WITH MEDALS AND BADGES,AWARDS OF ALL KINDS,A SOBER THOUGHTCAME THROUGH MY MIND.FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT,IT WAS DARK AND DREARY,I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER,ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY.THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING,SILENT, ALONE,CURLED UP ON THE FLOORIN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME.THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE,THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER,NOT HOW I PICTUREDA UNITED STATES SOLDIER.WAS THIS THE HEROOF WHOM I'D JUST READ?CURLED UP ON A PONCHO,THE FLOOR FOR A BED?I REALIZED THE FAMILIESTHAT I SAW THIS NIGHT,OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERSWHO WERE WILLING TO FIGHT.SOON ROUND THE WORLD,THE CHILDREN WOULD PLAY,AND GROWNUPS

Monday December 7th 2009 11:47 Am (tacoma Wa.)
i been sitting here Year after Year....in my apt in front of this computer i have had like short relationships with ladies and well they dont last no longer than 6-10 months. Its hard to be happy hen the lonlines bug bites you with such vengeance and fiercenes that it takes everything out of you..and i mwan everything. Its hard to be happy when u put on a faker smileto show all you are okay, and just fine till they all go home or you go home and cry your eyes out till there are no more tears left to cry..yeahhh i know this is bad thing to write for the holiday season but there are many of us out here who at times really do not care, no im notone of them..but i could ber sooner than you think :]

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Lists
This blog is just going to be a list of things; kinda throwing it into one blog, so I'm not making a bazillion of them. Christmas list: now I don't usually ask for anything, I think it's more of getting stuff for the children, but I'm asking for things this year: A dish washer :) Make up brush set (all the different brushes you need to apply your make up) Make up (cuz I'm girly) A PedEgg (Misterfeet gave it thumbs up) Proactiv Teeth whitening strips (I want to try them) Cute or sexy panties Get my hair did (I want hi-lites or low-lites, something) A cruise (haha, right) A night out with hubby with no kids A MFM 3some (rofl) To win the lottery To have my clit stimulator on my toy work No talking back or fighting from my kids for a year (I know, when pigs fly) *************************************

Best Email Exchange Ever
The original post, written by David Thorne, with more background information is here. From: Simon EdhouseDate: Monday 16 November 2009 2.19pmTo: David ThorneSubject: Logo Design Hello David, I would like to catch up as I am working on a really exciting project at the moment and need a logo designed. Basically something representing peer to peer networking. I have to have something to show prospective clients this week so would you be able to pull something together in the next few days? I will also need a couple of pie charts done for a 1 page website. If deal goes ahead there will be some good money in it for you. Simon From: David ThorneDate: Monday 16 November 2009 3.52pmTo: Simon EdhouseSubject: Re: Logo Design Dear Simon, Disregarding the fact that you have still not paid me for work I completed earlier this year despite several assertions that you would do so, I would be delighted to spend my free time creating logos and pie charts for you based on further vague promises o

Stolen From Alix (and Everyone Else)
perfect breakfast: I'm gonna go with the classic. an omelet, with lots of cheese, orange juice, thick slightly burned bacon, and crispy hashbrowns. perfect date: Dinner and drinks, followed by a show (preferably a good one), more drinks, a walk on the pier, followed by rough sex that happens without planning. perfect kiss: nice and hard on the lips, followed by a bite on the neck perfect argument: something about rediculous pop culture. I'll pretend to be right even when I realize I'm wrong. perfect man/woman: Smart is number one. I like women I think are smarter than me. beautiful, funny (Witty is really whats important), someone I can argue about stupid things with, and then make up. Someone who is as spontanious as I am. The best times arent planned perfect shoe: I have two. beach mocosins (spelling?), I wear them everywhere, and buy a new pair every couple of months. they wear out quick. and adidas sambas. they take like six months to wear in, but once you do, the

The Box
finding within myself a part of me that shouldn’t be molded out of pain and many sufferings shadowing in the darkest corners of my soul defining me capable of compassion and many ugly things scratched upon the walls of this box are my insecurities there is a sense of security in being lonely that velvet box that once contained my soul is crumpled up like tumble weed and rolls when pain blows all sides frayed and torn, like a flag after the storm it no longer keeps me warm

Moon's Early Christmas Gift From Me!
♥I LOVE YOU, MY MOOON!♥ ♥Hi Moon, I know i look shitty but I got things to tell you anyway, so Ill try my best tojust sit here and look pretty for you while I say stuff to you...Sooo, Well, here we go...Moon, I love you very much with all of my heart and soul. You complete me. You are my everything that I want and need. You will be always be mine and my moon of my life. I cantgive you anything but my love and soul because they're special and more value than money. Like our song say,"im so happy I found you and I love being around you" which is very true,IT IS!!I know for the fact that we are brought together for a reason which I believe is LOVE thatwe both need and want. All i wanted from you is you, your love, your protection and yourhappiness. NOTHING will EVER EVER replace that nor take that away from me. Like I said in one of my poem, I got my moon in my hand n heart and u are always there and i know where to find you. So, here your early gift Christm

Right Now
y am i such a dumb ass for fallin for you you make it seem like all u want is just sex out of me y cant i b treated right? i have made a big mistake in my life and im so damn fuckin sick of payin for my mistake when do i get a break? why cant i find the guy that lives around me and that can and wants to treat me good ? i have a good heart and a good soul i fell for wat i thought was a good guy im so sick of the b.s. wat does it take to find a good man around me?

Grandaughter In Hospital
FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW MY GRANDAUGHTER WAS BORN ON APRIL 8TH 3 MONTHS PREMATURE. SHE WIRGHED 1 LB 1 OZ AND WAS 11.5 INCHES LONG. SHE HAS BEEN A FIGHTER SHE IS UPTO 9 LBS AND HAS BEEN IMPROVING EVER SINCE. SAT. NITE HER HEART RATE STARTED DROPPING. THE DOCTORS ARE SAYING THAT ITS BECAUSE OF HER HAVING TO BE ON A VENTALATUER SO LONG THAT IT HAS WEAKENED HER HEART. THEY HAVE SADATED HER AND SAID ITS NOW IN GODS HANDS. I THANK ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE SENT YOUR WELL WISHS AND FOR ALL WHO HAVE SAID A PRAYER FOR HER. I WILL TRY TO KEEP EVERYONE UPDATE AS TO WHAT IS HAPPENING. AGAIN THANK-YOU ALL GARY

Dec 7 Experimenting..yummy
Libra - Dec. 7, 2009Tomorrow Today's planetary configuration may ignite your thinking processes, but may not do an awful lot for your love life. You are feeling very independent and open to experimentation right now, and the thought of having to compromise or conform in any way in order to keep a relationship together may not appeal to you much. But this may be just a temporary phase, in case you are worried.

Winter Reflections
Not really a Rant: Those of you who know me, have heard me speak of my pet coyote (more correctly a coy/dog, coyote/pitbull). She's now 12 1/2 yrs. old and age is catching up with her fast. This morning i took her out into the back yard to let her get her morning excercise and it as the first morning with any real snow of this season. Watching her try to romp and search for the familiar scent was bittersweet. The morning of the first snow has always been special. Having been born in July, yup a Cancer coyote, her first snow ever was hilarious. The bunny trails she loved to run were covered and watching her react was hilarious. There were the years with my kids, both when we were a family and the years after. Now it's just me and the coyote. It makes me wonder about the speed at which time moves, i hardly feel old inside, but in reality old injuries have crept up and become arthritis and i move slow these days. The coyote, barely 1/4 my age, cursed with the shorter lifespan

Music Monday 9 (moved To Correct Blog)
Feel Good 1. New Soul - Yael Naim2. Burgeois Shangri La - Miss Li3. Paper Thin Walls - Modest Mouse4. (If you're wondering if I want you to) I want you to - Weezer5. Fiery Crash - Andrew Bird (not the most feel good, but beautiful)6. Bryn - Vampire Weekend

I'll Clean It Before I Come Home....
Christmas cards are in the mail. I got them all done yesterday while sipping on some nice wine. Really...I'm not gay. I did have the football games on while I was doing it, so yeah, that butched things up for me. I get a bereavement day from work for my uncle passing away. They're having a small ceremony for him that I need to attend so that comes in handy. I only have 5 floating holidays left to use for the next 6 months. That's a long time to hope that nothing will come up that I'll need those for. Do they have rehab centers for Facebook applications? The supervisor I can't stand is back from getting her vajayjay fixed. She probably had to have the tumbleweeds removed. I'm just making this shit up...I have no idea what she was getting done, but it amuses me to imagine her uterus as a barren landscape that Clint Eastwood walked through wearing a poncho. She's on my shift the next couple of weeks so I'm probably not going to be in the best of moods during that ti

Hiring Experianced Greeters
We at the Black Shamrock are looking for greeters. if experianced be great but not necessary. but we do need an assistant head greeter. and alot of other greeters more the merry. so if interested hit me up or come to the lounge we will be glad to add you to our staff.

Searching For Experianced Dj's
We at the Black Shamrock Are looking For experianced Dj's. We are getting ready to start our own stream into the lounge and would like to fill the possitions before we get it up. If you are interested hit me up in my profile in a private message or come in to the lounge. The Black Shamrock. we are looking for head assistant head and the rest each one will be evalutated by our staff and placed accordingly. when sending private message include how long where at when is best time for you. http://fubar.com/lounge/69759

Jr. High School Kids In Adult Clothing
Gawd I cant even imagin talking and acting like some of the fu peeps on here. I have been in this fu bar place awhile and read alot of blogs and mumm's. Sorry to say but in all honesty, most of the one's I read must be by J. High School kids cause can any body really be that imature to post such drival? Come on like : poop fedish, pee fedish, asking woman do they shave or go clean etc. Men (cough) getting pissy cause the woman wont show them their personal parts, or getting angry cause they wont send them nekid pics. For gawd sake go buy a magizine. Gawd!! Men or Women sending shouts to one another, saying, I 'm gonna delete you for what ever reason, or since your talking to that person, we are no longer friends. Or men or women taking away each others boyfriend, girlfriend. Let me tell ya guys, if another person can take away your man or woman, that tells me the relationship/friendship wasnt that strong to begin with. Get a life, will ya? And to me what is the most IMA

I'm Happy That This Is My First Blog. How Fitting. Thanks Alex, My Brother In Arms.
(Reprinted without permission from Henderson)If you’re an Infantryman:-Underwear is entirely optional at all times-who wears underwear?-You have pooped in the same bag you ate from.-You put that bag into your Ruck next to your sleeping bag.-You’ve pooped in a hole more than a porta potty-Every time you poop, you tell everyone everything about it.-You go on missions with your fly undone so you can piss while pulling security.-You have no problem running 5 miles drunk.-You have no problem maxing a PT Test drunk.-You have no problems doing a 12-mile road march drunk.-You have no problems but drinking problems, and you don’t think it’s a problem at all.-You would fight for a guy you barely know, as long as he’s an Infantryman.-You’d fight your best friend, even though he’s an Infantryman.-Monday morning formation should be taped and sent in to the Howard Stern Show.-You know someone who has done the following:1. Pissed themselves, shit themselves,

The Vote Is In....single Moms R Sexy Too Is Motw
HEY EVERYONE...TY SO MUCH TO THOSE OF YOU WHO VOTED....THE VOTES ARE IN AND MOTW FROM DEC.7-DEC.13 WILL BE SINGLE MOMS R SEXY TOO!!! THANKS GIRL FOR ALL YOU DO....AND CONGRATS!!!...HIT HER HARD LEVELERS....RIGHT NOW SHE HAS AUTOS TOO SO YOUR RATING WOULD BE REALLY BENEFICIAL TODAY...!!! Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄ƷSingle Moms R Sexy Too~2nd Alarm Hottie~@ fubar

I Want This Guy
i am this guy " ... created @ 2009-12-04 05:19:48 I’m the guy who will hold you close, not because your cold or shaking, but because he wants to be close to you.I’m the guy who loves to twirl you around into his arms anywhere and kisses you for no apparent reason other than loves you.I’m the guy who says, “Okay, what would you like to do tonight?” not because he wants to go to a game, but because he is interested in you and what you like.I’m the guy who would go anywhere with you, even to the opera or things thathe doesn’t like because he is spending time with you, and that is all he needs.I’m the guy that is cautious to give his heart, but when he does it is all for you and he would rather die then not be in your arms at night.I’m the guy who will bring you things for no special reason than he loves you.I’m the guy who will never give up hope, and no matter what will stay with you for eternity.I&rsq

Remember
Today is the day we remeber those that died and still carry the wounds when Japan attacked us. Let those that passed and are still here be Blessed by God and us and this great nation of ours, The United States of America. Norio

Our Love In My Words
It had been a long day of work when they entered the house she knelt down at the door in her short red dress that fit her body like a glove he sat there in his wheel chair smiling down at her the young woman knew her place as she got to her feet she slowly pushed the wheel chair threw the din in to a room with a magnificent fountain flowing in to a hot tub the size of a small pool in the center of the room glance down in to his eyes she sat on to his lap kissing his lip as his finger tips dancing across the woman’s gorgeous face down here neck slowly sliding her red dress down her shoulders as he looks in to her eyes and with out words tells her how much he loves her as the dress slides down her body in his grip he smiles leaning in kissing down her neck lowering the dress seeing her hard nipples peeking from under the top of the dress the man leans in kissing the woman softly whispering “were you a good girl tonight” as he lets her dress drift down to her ankle blush

How To Recondition Battery
Are you aware that when you learn how to recondition battery, it is also neccessary to learn some basics on how to improve battery and understand the various types of batteries. That way, the entire procedure will be easier to handle. Click here to read more - How To Improve Battery Life and How To Recondition Battery Discover what are the various necessary steps and tips on improving batteries used for cars, portable electronic devices and Wi-Fi applications. This also involves battery such as Nickel-cadmium (Ni-Cd), Nickel-metal hydride (Ni-MH) and Lithium-ion (Li-ion). Nickel-cadmium (Ni-Cd) – About 50% of the weight of this battery is from the cadmium present, which is said to extremely toxic and a possible human carcinogen. This makes recycling of the Ni-Cd batteries a must. Nickel-metal hydride (Ni-MH) – They are considered to be the best in terms of waste prevention as well as cost. They last longer and come in standard sizes to be used a variety of devices. It i

Knowing The Difference
Knowing the Difference Sex without strings,without emotional ties, A mechanical physical act with no true passion. A temporary release of nothingness. Achieved by anyone who doesn't care for anything. Aspirations of morally bankrupt masses. Goals of those who are frightened by the deep. Mortified by the possibility of opening ones heart to another. No passion involved. True passion stems from beyond the physical. An emotion directly linked to the heart. Passion is a long, slow, deep, hungry kiss which lingers on the lips for hours, in the mind for days, makes it's mark on a heart and burns into the soul. Passion speaks without words, without thought, it flows like an artist sculpting a lover with such emotion that the artist can remember, from memory, from the heart,

Graveyard In December
a graveyard in December everything around me is dead and dying a graveyard in December so dark now, but its not too hard to see I laid you down to rest, beneath the harvest moon it brok my fucking heart, i should be laying there too iver never felt pain so bad i cried, until that fucking night it hurt so fucking bad, the night you died a grave yard in December your broken heart still screaming out to me a graveyard in December what i've done still haunts me in my dreams my days and nights are filled, with blood curdling screams i cry your name out in my sleep i wake up sobbing, nightmares cutting so fucking deep a graveyard this December moonlight bathes the dead and drowns me My graveyard in December when my life ends drag my body through the streets

Six Feet Under
You said you want it (need it)then you've got a little piece of mewas it worth it?(you deserved it)what more will it take to make you see?Can you see it? (your reflection)what is it that your mind conceivescuz when i look (all I see)Is a little whiny bitch, beggin on her fucking kneeswhat made you think you could bend meyou're weak as shitwhat made you think you could break meyou'll never fucking winyou thought you had it? (my life)you'll never get another shot at methe battle is over (ill end the war)you'll never put me on my fucking kneesyou think you'll hit this? (no fucking chance)still want another shot at me?you're fucking crazy (insane)fucking little cunt, you'll never make me fucking bleedwhat made you think you could bend me?you're a peice of shitwhat made you think you could break me?you'll never fucking winwhat makes you think i wont fuckingtear you apartwhat makes you think that i wontrip out your goddamn heartNow you want your space?Ill give you six feetNow you need a brea

Anywhere I Lay My Head
Hollywood actress makes album of Tom Waits covers? I remember when this came out, Waits fans seemed divided into two camps, those who were vehemently opposed to the idea, and those who were prepared to wait until they heard it, and THEN say they were vehemently opposed to it. But I was intrigued, so put it on my wishlist and never got round to getting it. So thanks to my Secret Santa, I finally had a copy drop into my hands Saturday night, and you know what? It's FANTASTIC. All woozy synths and pump organs, and drone-y guitar, making for a wonderfully dreamy soundscape that is the perfect back-drop to Johansson's husky man-voice (true story, when my brother first heard a track off it a few months back, he said he was waiting for her to join in with the guy singing for a while before he realised it WAS her). At the same time both reverential to the material, and yet brings something new to it, with the one original composition on the album blending seemlessly. The versions of 'Fall

My Salute Contest
Hey all....Im having a salute contest. If you want to enter just SB me or send me a PM...It will start Mon..Dec 14th. Whoever can make me the coolest and most original salute will win a VIP or BLAST...winners choice. Contest will be judged on points....each pic rate is worth 1 point and comment worth 5. The contest will run for 1 month til Jan 14th. The top 3 salutes with the most points will be judged by me personally.....whichever I like the best will win the VIP/Blast. If you are interested let me know via SB or PM...Salutes can be SFW or NSFW....I will create a private NSFW folder to place entries in. Good luck, be creative, and have fun.

Reason For Loneliness...
Reason For Loneliness … I never understoodyour wayshow you couldselfishly indulge yourselfinto emotionally tearingapart others feelingsripping their thoughtsinto tiny little scrapsand scattering them on the floor like lost lego pieceswhy you would squish someone’s heart intentionallylike old jello at a laundromatsorting through the messagesof something you never wantedhow can you call yourself humanwhen in fact you do not feelyou lust for others paincausing it so you don’t feel left outyou wade in your own self-pityjust to deny anyone of any truefeelings for youif ever someone were to get closeyou'd delete their livesas if they were just wordson your computer screen of lifeyou never loved anythingexcept the fact that younever allowed anything tolove youso alone...so cold...so afraid...so empty...why did you do this to mewhen in fact you are meso desolate...so fragile...why have I never realized before nowyou are meand I’ve done this to myselfso a

How I Feel
I see your face in my mind as I drive away'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that wayPeople are people and sometimes we change our mindsBut it's killing me to see you go after all this timeMmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmmMmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmmMusic starts playin' like the end of a sad movieIt's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you downNow I don't know what to be without you aroundAnd we know it's never simple, never easyNever a clean break, no one here to save meYou're the only thing I know like the back of my handAnd I can't breatheWithout you, but I have toBreatheWithout you, but I have toNever wanted this, never want to see you hurtEvery little bump in the road I tried to swervePeople are people and sometimes it doesn't work outNothing we say is gonna save us from the fall outAnd we know it's never simple, never easyNever a clean break, no one here to save meYou're the only thing I know like the back of

Hope?!
i write this blog on the morning after my nephews bday was, its 12:45am and sleep is far from my mind, im listoning to my personal mix of music. so why write a blog, and the purpose of it. well lets just say today or sunday was a bad day for some of my friends, even one lost his dad, he said, whats the purpose, is there any hope to keep living? i cant aswner that, thats a choice we make in life. i would say yes, so look around u, who loves u, i know that i love u all, some more then others. do u love urself? i tell u this, no ones life is worth shit, if im a freind then u matter to me, if i love , ur really matter, dont let things keep u down when a hand reaches out to help u. friends and family help each other out, its what the bond of fellowship means, so when life sucks, and u think ur worth shit, then turn to a friend, i have hope for u and others do to. the choice is always left to yourself. five years ago in august, i was homeless, and i mean no home, no bed, no food, no washer

Vip Problems...no Help From Fubar..
Below is a copy of the letter I wrote to Fubar concerning my VIP I was given for my birthday by JUST PLAIN JOHN. He spent REAL MONEY for this gift, and it is not fair or ethical for Fubar not to extend my VIP when it cannot provide the expected service that is advertised. I was trying to add pictures tonight, since the VIP will soon expire on the 12th. I keep getting an error message telling me that I have exceeded my limit and am not allowed more unless I buy a VIP! I tried creating a new album. It let me upload the pics,then caption them, but when I hit okay, it came back and said 'ERROR: CANNOT ADD PICTURES. OVER LIMIT". iT IS frustrating to me. I have enough other problems to contend with. I am too tired to try doing this near midnight when home from work. All I asked for was an extension since the system is NOT working. What do YOU think?? Here is my letter to them: I wish to have an extension of another day of the VIP, because your system REFUSES to let me upload any p

What We See, And What Is Real...
We all want something we can't have, we want it so bad, that our thoughts and minds release everything else. Just to try and obtain it. The answer can be sitting in our face, right in our very eyes, but we chose to ignore it. It doesn't help us get what we want. Doing things seemingly out of our nature that everyone else sees us as, an enters a new twist on us. I know my own faults have came to that accord, an I'm still unsure on which directions its goin'. I feel it go one way, but pushed another. Tryin' to not make such things a priority, for with that, I know I am no more than an option... But wanting to be that first choice... will I be? probably not, but what is one to do when... When so much of you is pulled in so many directions? follow your gut instincts? Listen to your mind? follow your heart? Believe your eyes? I know what's said, I know what I read. I know what I feel. I know what see... but what is one to do... when there is no grasp... just the illusion of it..

Something Men Will Not Want To Read But Do It Anyway!
Something few men want to discuss but every man should know. When we "girls" go through PMS and beyond....we can not help what we say and do. We become bitches...or more than normal for some. Most of us want to cry all of the time (give us chocolate and tissue)...the smallest thing you say ("hey baby") can be blown out of proportion and often we can and will break down or just break shit (my personal fave). Again, we can not help it. It is chemical (proven)....not to be confused with comical!!! It is certainly not comical! Until after the fact perhaps. If any other woman goes through the pain I do and she happens to be yours...good lord, by all means, baby her! I personally have never been through child birth but I do know what I feel every month and sometimes I would rather die. And trust me...I am not afraid of pain! So please be patient with the one you adore when she becomes totally irrational and tells you to move out, right after you tell her you love her! It's just ho

My Husbands Father
WOULD EVERY ONE PLZ STOP FOR A MINUTE AND SAY A PRAYER FOR MY FATHER IN LAW HE SEEMS TO BE SUFFERING FROM THE FIRST OR SECOND STAGES OF ALZHEIMERS AND LEFT HOME 2-3 DAYS AGO AND WAS FOUND LATER AFTER FILING A MISSING PERSONS REPORT HE HAD BEEN IN A BAD ACCIDENT HE WAS FLIGHT LIFTED TO A HOSPITAL IN WISCONSIN HE LIVES IN MICHIGAN NOT EXACTLY SURE WHERE IT TOOK PLACE HE HAD BEEN DRIVING FROM STATE TO STATE IN CIRCLES TILL HE LOSS CONTROL OF HIS WIFES CADILLAC AND WENT AIR BORN WHEN HITTING EXPRESSWAY EMBANKMENT AND THE CAR FLIPPING REPEATEDLY BUT HE WILL BE HOME SOON HE IS IN HIS 70'S AND HE HAS SUFFERED PUNTURED LUNGS BROKEN RIBS AND OTHER VARIOUS INJURYS PLZZ KEEP HIM IN YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS THANKS SO MUCH MWAAHHH GOD PLZZ STAY BY HIS SIDE RIGHT NOW WE LOVE YOU STAN

Merry Christmas !
It was the night before christmas an all through the house everyone felt shitty even the mouse. Dad at the whore house, mom smokin grass an i settled down for a nice piece of ass. Then out on the lawn there arose such a clatter, i sprang up from my piece to see what was the matter.He came down the chimney like a bat out of helli knew right away that fat fucker fell. He filled all the stocking with pretzels and beer an a big rubber dick for my cousin the queer! Herose up the chimney with one hell of a fart that son of a bitch blew my chimney apart! Heswore and cursed as he flew out of sight,.PIss on you all and have one hell of a night!Merry Christmas!

Let's Stop Reporting Mumm Attempts.
Look, I know I'm just another mummer and aren't mr. mumm authority but I've been doing it long enough to have a valid opinion so here goes... I've been thinking about how the mumms have slowed to a crawl lately. I remember the days when they flowed like wine. I miss those days. I thought about toning down my mean spirited comments and leading by example but that isn't any damn fun. Here's the plan... Let's stop reporting people and just enjoy the thing. A lot of people that get their globals taken away, never come back. Please stop reporting them so they keep coming back for more. It's getting to the point that we have to post mumms ourselves just to keep from falling asleep. Please try this. Please. Sincerely, James

~prayer For The Military Wife
Prayer for the Military Wife Dear God, I am proud to be wed to one who defends freedom and peace. My challenges are many and I pray for your love and guidance to meet them. Special to me are the symbols representing my religion, country, community, and home. I pray for the wisdom and grace to be true to their meanings. You are the symbol of my religious beliefs and the source of my strength. Because my life is full of change, I cherish the solid and constant spiritual foundation that you provide. Help me Lord, to be an example of your teachings. My national flag represents freedom. Let me never forget, or take for granted, the hope it shows to the world. Bless those who have made sacrifices for freedom.Please grant us your continued blessings, increased strength and infinite guidance, as we live to your honor and glory. Amen. - Unknown

Funny Christmas Quotes - Funny Quotes About Christmas
Christmas is a time when everybody wants his past forgotten and his present remembered. What I don't like about office Christmas parties is looking for a job the next day. More funny Phyllis Diller quotes *** The Supreme Court has ruled that they cannot have a nativity scene in Washington, D.C. This wasn't for any religious reasons. They couldn't find three wise men and a virgin. More funny Jay Leno quotes *** Many banks have a new kind of Christmas club in operation. The new club helps you save money to pay for last year’s gifts. More funny Anonymous quotes *** Christmas is a race to see which gives out first - your money or your feet. More funny Anonymous quotes *** I stopped believing in Santa Claus when I was six. Mother took me to see him in a department store and he asked for my autograph. More funny Shirley Temple quotes *** Christmas at my house is always at least six or seven times more pleasant than anywhere else. We start drinking early. And while everyon

~remembering Who I Am~
When I was thirty years old, I got married. For a while, I thought I had married the wrong man, but it is more true to say my ex-husband married the wrong woman. He had, I think, a very clear idea of the type of woman he wanted to marry, and I had a very clear idea of the type of woman he wanted me to be, the type of woman I really wanted to be: a woman to make my parents proud, to finally settle down, grow up. I had had disastrous relationships throughout my twenties. Had dated a string of unavailable men, either physically or emotionally, and wondered if it was possible to find love without pain, without getting my heart broken all over again. Here was a man who seemed to be everything I should be looking for, and if he didn't make my heart beat faster, surely that was more sensible. So I married with my head rather than with my heart; told myself that this was a different kind of love; this was doing the right thing. I had grown up assuming I would have a similar life to my moth

New Life In Orlando
Just an Update everyone because it's the most commonly asked, How I'm doin so far. Well I drove down in my chevy impala from Watertown NY to Orlando Fl. Just my kid, the dog and I with only the stuff that I could pack into it. My sis helped me find a very reasonable and wonderful community to move into which was ready for me when I arrived. The trip down was such and adventure seeing all the different towns and cities as I passed through them. I really enjoyed it a lot. I couldn't bring my bike with me so I left it with my bestfriend and will get it in the summer when I go back to visit. So far I haven't made too many friends yet but everyone I've met so far seems really nice. Only time will tell on who sticks and who doesn't. I still haven't figured out yet on how i'm going to manage school and work full time because the field I want to study requires a lot of hands on. For those who don't know I want to study Mechanical Engineering. Getting back to what I really love is very i

What Single Word Best Describes Your Life View?
Your Word is "Love" You see life as possibility to form deep connections with a few people. Relationships are the center of your world, and you always take time to bond with those you love. You are caring and giving. You enjoy helping those you love. And when it comes to romantic love, you feel passionately ... even in a very long term relationship. What's Your Word? Blogthings: We're Not Shrinks, But We Play Them On the Internet

Planned Quarantines And Tracking Of Those Rejecting The H1n1 Vaccine?
Swine Flu is bad enough…This is just downright scary … This was bough to me by Jessica, aka Confidence. Go check her out, she’s one of the best people I’ve met on here.. ♡´¨Confiidence¨´♡@ fubar And on a personal note, I’d like to thank my true friends for sticking by me and not just messaging-and-blocking if you don’t agree with something I post. And if you don’t agree, discussing it in an adult manner. It’s refreshing to see the good people, and the cream rise to the top. And the rest , well, ah whatever …anyone can make new friends every day on here if they tried and took the time. More later in the week…hope you all had a great weekend! Peace..

The Battered Truth
When I am asked why a woman doesn’t leave abuser I say: Women stay because the fear of leaving is greater than the fear of staying. They will leave when the fear of staying is greater than the fear of leaving. (At least this was true for me) Rebecca J. Burns/www.rebeccaburns.com Ok people its time for some truth..Yeah I know your prob sick of all this talk but really this time dont really care. Ive been sitting around my house all weekend playing with my daughter having one of my infamous bad feelings knowing somethings bads goin down somewhere..Later in the evening I end putting my daughter to bed and turning on T.V and here is Jerry Springer and it has some lady on there thats leaving her pimp bf cause he beats her for some circus freak..I honestly stopped paying attention after the first ten minutes because my mind started wondering back to all the friends Ive helped in situations where they had gotten beat or raped and all the friends Ive lost,the black eyes Ive go

Orange
Your Favorite Color Says You're Cheerful Joyful --- Enthusiastic --- Optimistic Outgoing --- Accepting --- Confident Loud --- Unruly --- Impulsive What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You? The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

Love
You Would Do Most Things For Love You are willing to go pretty far for love - but not far enough to compromise your core values. Love is a priority for you, and you'll go further than most people to hold on to someone you love. But killing for love? Or even taking a bullet? Probably out of the question. No matter what, you love yourself the most! Would You Do Anything For Love? Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

Fsdafasd
September Says That You Are Open-hearted You are a very idealistic person. You have so much compassion for the world that it can be a bit overwhelming at times. There are so many things that you want to do to make a difference. It bothers you that you can't do them all at once. You are quite creative. You are especially good at thinking up innovative solutions to problems. You may have high ideals, but you also have the tools to achieve them. You are practical when you need to be. What Does Your Favorite Month Say About You? The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

Feeling A Little Anti Social Today Lol
You Are Brie You are sophisticated and elegant. You know how to carry yourself well. And while you make a great entrance, you don't make a lot of fuss. You are really quite laid back and mellow. You don't have a care in the world, and you're not going to get worked up about anything. You are a natural romantic, and you have a tendency to day dream. You find it easy to go to your "happy place." What Kind of Cheese Are You? Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

Sadness
There is a darkness That dwells deep within me It is a sadness which I hide So no one else can see It tortures my soul And invades my thoughts And dims my inner light During the day it haunts me less But hits me hardest At night. The sadness comes from a tortured past from a life with too much pain A stormy past filled with sorrow That falls on me like rain But I know that with time and lots of hope I will someday rise above, And the sadness that lies Within my heart Will be replaced completely with love. by Melynda August 11, 2006

The Word
It's hard to say the wordEven now twenty years gone by.Just thinking about the wordMakes me feel anxious, wanting to cryI don't think about that nightAs much as I used to,But the memory will neverfade completelyA fight with a memoryThat I always lose to.I still feel it's my faultI still feel guiltyIf I hadn't been out that night,It wouldn't have happened to me.I've been told by a fewThat I am not to blameBut it's hard for me to accept thatSo I continue to live with the shame.I relive it in my dreamsEvery once in a whileI hear his evil voiceI see his wicked smile.He threatens my lifeIf I cry out or screamSo I let him take my body So continues the bad dream.He assaults me and tortures meFor six hours straight,Humiliating and degrading meHis intent is filled with hate.When the sun starts to rise,I'm finally able to break free.I'm injured and I'm bloodyBut I somehow manage to flee.I got away with my lifeEven though badly hurt.And now twenty years later It's still hard to say the wordI live

Made Me Think
So, I've been listening to a lot of a band called Epica recently. I just bought two of their albums on CD, was listening and following the lyrics. This one bit really hit me as being completely spot on, thought I'd share it with you all (or few that read this) "Wisdom, knowledge, science Develops, always, better, faster Defeats us Science, knowledge, wisdom Destroys us, always, ever, faster This is the final end"

Malebolgia And My First Mmr Review
Hello everyone out there I'm Dj SLAY. I Dj for Metal Messiah Radio Friday nights from 8pm till 11pm est. Okay enough of the shameless plug lets get down to business shall we ??? Being a Dj for one of the worlds most premier online radio stations, we often get music, and slammed with so much that it really is hard to listen to it all. Well one band that struck my fancy just from their name alone is a band called Malebolgia from here in the good ole USA. With singer/guitarist: Joseph Darling, drummer: Kevin Hedgecock, bassist: Timothy Knouff, and guitarist: Matt Lovett. Malebolgia's 2009 release of "Requiem For The Inexorable" is an 12 track masterpiece. "Requiem For The Inexorable" is my personal pick for cd of the year. With amazing song writing that is generally left to the big boys on major lables, Malebolgia sets a BLISTERING pace from begining to end. With brilliant Guitar/bass work and drum work that can only be summed up in 3 words ... OH MY GOD !!! Vocal work *and

For Pork Face
perfect breakfast: boiled eggs and porridge oats, if I'm hungover....full english at midday/afternoon. perfect date: dinner/movies/walking...talking about stuff. Not gonna put it out on the first date like some of you slutty peoples! perfect kiss: *shrugs* I don't know perfect argument: when I win perfect man/woman: decent looking (not a major factor but I don't want quasimodo), funny, clever...stupid people make me angry and frustrated, need to be able to provide for the family financially if I can't. perfect shoe: pretty high ones that make my bottom look good. :) perfect movie: ones that make me laugh and cry. perfect flower: I like orchids perfect time of day: whenever it is quietest perfect mood: happy and dreamy perfect dream: my dreams are never nice, either odd or scary perfect drink: I drink a lot of milk perfect name: For me it would be Lily or Evelyn, for my futu

Tattooed People Aren't As Giving
....they haven't met us yet!A marine who runs Toys for Tots says that statistically speaking, tattooed people "aren't as giving" as non-tattooed people. We totally disagree!!! In the spirit of giving, he presented us with a challenge to prove him wrong! We have THREE WEEKS!!!!Here at State of the Art Tattoos LLC, we offer DISCOUNTS for your DONATIONS---Donate new or gently used COATS for KIDS-- 10$ off each, limit 2.Donate new, unwrapped Toys for Tots--- 5$-20$ off = value of the toy!Donate FOOD! Each item gets you 1$ off-- up to 20$ offTattoo minimum is 40$--- you could get a 20$ TATTOO!!!Can't get the tattoo today?? Purchase a GIFT CERTIFICATE for you, or a loved one for the holiday gift that will last a LIFETIME! Wouldn't it be awesome to also tell them how you helped the community in their name!?You DO NOT HAVE TO purchase anything to DONATE to great charities for OUR COMMUNITY! Drop off any items you have to help the cause during our normal business hours!! (1pm-10pm WEEKDAYS 1pm-

Tattooed People Aren't As "giving"
..... they haven't met us yet! A marine who runs Toys for Tots says that statistically speaking, tattooed people "aren't as giving" as non-tattooed people. We totally disagree!!! In the spirit of giving, he presented us with a challenge to prove him wrong! We have THREE WEEKS!!!!Here at State of the Art Tattoos LLC, we offer DISCOUNTS for your DONATIONS---Donate new or gently used COATS for KIDS-- 10$ off each, limit 2.Donate new, unwrapped Toys for Tots--- 5$-20$ off = value of the toy!Donate FOOD! Each item gets you 1$ off-- up to 20$ offTattoo minimum is 40$--- you could get a 20$ TATTOO!!!Can't get the tattoo today?? Purchase a GIFT CERTIFICATE for you, or a loved one for the holiday gift that will last a LIFETIME! Wouldn't it be awesome to also tell them how you helped the community in their name!?You DO NOT HAVE TO purchase anything to DONATE to great charities for OUR COMMUNITY! Drop off any items you have to help the cause during our normal business hours!! (1pm-10pm WEEKDAYS

Damage
As I sit here crying without you by my side I think about all that I am sorry for I am sorry for the tears I am sorry for the damage I have causedYou saw beauty and I saw hateYou saw love and I saw diseaseI am sorry for the blood that has been spilled on my account for nothing I do will make up for thatYou searched for something unknown to you and begged for help but I turned you away afraid that if you found what you were looking for you'dbe gone forever.I am sorry for destroying the heart that brought ustogether because now that we are apart I cant find you You stand in frontof me but your still not there You gave your life for me you gave meeverything that you could You saw the disease eating at me and saw thatwithout ur help id be gone for good but i pushed you too far,I pushedyou to the point of no return I am sorry that I ended your life I am sorry that i destroyed the only good in my life You tried saving mebut it was too late it was too late to save the one you loved

Perfect---ly Stolen From Boo.
two blogs in one day???? don't faint please. perfect breakfast: big steak omelette from ihop at 3 a.m. after a night out. butterscotch rocks pancakes to go with makes it the pentultmate of perfection but fucking ihop stopped selling them. which...much to my chagrine, is actually a good thing since said breakfast almost puts me in a food coma. perfect date: a good show, a few drinks, sex in the bathroom because we couldn't be contained, getting the above mentioned breakfast...laughing our asses off, going back to whoever's house, getting a shower (more sex), climbing in bed, talking/laughing/story sharing until we pass out then waking up for more sex. no seriously. perfect kiss: spontaneous, passionate... catch me off guard because you get caught up in the way i look right at that moment, push me up against the wall, come in close, kiss me hard, bite my bottom lip... you get the point. perfect argument: ends with a solution, most likely a compromise... and like boo, i think the

Cupid
Too many ways to say… I love you in so many ways, I need you tonight… To save from this Cupid shot me with her arrow, And I’m left here walking with so much sorrow, For tonight I almost lost you… Can you believe? (Verse) I had to fall to stand, I had to crawl to walk, I had to mumble before I could speak, I had to… Say something stupid and then, Lie to you and burry my head in shame, And some where cupids’ heart is breaking, As her tear’s fall from her face… (Verse II) I fall to my knees and scream towards the heavens, God what do I have to do to fix this… There’s no walking into the sunset with the girl of my dreams, There’s no happy ending to my sadden tale… I remember throwing a coin into a wishing well, Wishing for the girl of my dreams, How could I’ve let you go?

[perfect Pilfered Questionare]
The perfect breakfast: Everyday- French bread, loose tea.Weekends- ho-cakes (or grits), 3 egg ommelette, thick bacon, orange juiceVacation- poached eggs, hollandaise, french toast with syrup, and bacon and hashbrowns and bacon... The perfect date: Roast duck, my exquisite black suit, cocktails at my place- lifestories, breakfast at 4 in the morning after passionate and clumsy first time-sex, or cuddling. The perfect kiss: The lusty wet one I receive with a hot skillful hand on my jock (bare, or over clothes) The perfect argument: Polite and abstract, preferably with my brother. The perfect man/woman: Not sure she exists, but I'd like someone I can respect and trust, keeps me in check without pressure. Three B's a must: Brains, bust and beauty. The perfect shoe: Chuck Taylors. The perfect movie: I would imagine Akria Kurisawa wrote/directed it. The perfect flower: Nightblooming cereus or jasmine. ... or chrysanthemums. The perfect time of day: Dinner. The per

Song Of The Domme
Big man, tough man, full of pride. I'm gonna take you on a long, hard ride. No use to scream, no use to fight. I'm gonna introduce you to the night. You only think that you know sin. I'll take you somewhere that you've never been. Hard man, hot man, burning with need. You never knew that you had the seed that'd turn to submission at the right touch. Take it from me, babe, you owe me that much. Humble man, broken man, down on your knees. Begging for mercy, lifting your pleas. I offer you freedom with my chains. Give me the passion that follows the pain. Quiet man, sweet man, peaceful and spent. You never thought that you could be bent. Perfect contentment now that you know, I got you, baby, and I'm not letting go.

Alcoholism
Its been brought to my attention that theres alot of people out there with what most call a disease, (i would rather call it a choice). ive been an alcoholic for 20 years ive been sober for the last 6, im proud of what ive accomplished. i volenteer for everything and give till it hurts. but to my friends out there that are strugling and dont know what to do, heres my thought. just look a little further then what ya normally do and you'll see the answer its right there. and when it feels like its the end, it probably is. so buck up and do whats right you'll know. and everything will be ok i promise. god bless and dont denie what is the truth frankielee

Put Me To Sleep
This time like another time the Angina put my to sleep. Wow, how serious we are about the Nitro and the beta blocker? Like this surgery? I experienced the right eye again. This time I was looking at the left eye of a woman. First time I was looking out from the right eye of someone and than to look back. Someone? The Order a front. TMO the same. Freemason just alike. It is said that pot is a gateway. The three alone are a gateway and some. At the hospital I was watchnig Jenna and how furious she became and I thought maybe I better shut this off. My Nurse obviusly didn't like her. Mason Moore I just watched and it was tha Tattoo that caught my attention. On the fingers and the abdomen. Sometihng similar someone had. Norio

So Here
A minute ago i saw a status message stating "my wifey is awesome" and i decided instantly that i would like to shank that person. in the face. if ever i am stupid enough to get married again, someone please take me out, get me drunk, and put me in a room with a band until i've changed my mind... if i ever decide to marry someone who referes to me as his wifey, go ahead and shoot me. all hope of recovering my sanity will be gone at that point. i am now roommate free. no more exhusbands and their former girlfriends living in this house. the silence is more than golden. yay for walking around however i please again. please, for the love of fuck, someone talk some sense into me should this option ever present itself again. i tried to take a nap earlier but i was interrupted way too many times. it made me ill. this is why i need someone to nap with. they will be in charge of interruptions. i have facebook. i get facebook updates on my phone. i hate when someone posts a lengthy s

Random Thoughts In My Head
It's funny how life always messes with my head how you made me think that you'd always be there Crazy how even as I miss you now I have do wonder, do you even care? Was I stupid to think it was real, every time you said you loved me How could it be the truth when you change your mind? Why did you even hold me? It's not like I lied or played with your heart I never left your side, I didn't split us apart. I can't just sit here and cry while your out there, I have to act like it doesn't hurt, and that I don't care. Fuck your sympathy, and your lies, just shut your mouth and open your eyes. Could you honestly say I didn't care, when I have always been there? Damn your selfishness, and your way... this is the real world, not some fucking play. Why would I have been there beside you if it didn't matter to me what you do? Not moving on and not standing still...

Killing Angels
How can you say that she wasn't used and abused and thrown away? What once was a beautiful soul you've turned into a black hole...You think you know what you see, but never a part of your world will she be. Don't you know you've killed an angel, don't you see you murdered her soul? Don't you hear her faith dying? Just walk away, you'll never know. How do you say you haven't torn her down and cast her out? What used to be a heart of gold has become only dead and cold...take no responsibility, forsee no shame, but for her death, you're to blame. Don't you know you've killed an angel, don't you see you murdered her soul? Can you hear her faith dying? You just walk away, because you don't know. You can't even see what you've done to her, blinded by your fears. Can you understand what is dead is gone? Withered away, it can't go on. Ashes to dust, dust to wind, she's gone now, never to be seen again. You knew what you were doing killing this angel, you always meant to murder

Caught In The Headlights...
If seeing is believing, and believing means being,then who sees in perfect hindsight while the brights are beaming. seeing might be seeming to be a little blinding for a moment to the one still teeming with thoughts that this feeling might be worth believing.If a feeling is from memories revealing all the past, it reveals that happiness can't last. The heartache of losing control too fast is nothing but overwhelming with pain too vast. Vast like the ocean at night in a storm, the whole crew is dead, soaking to the bone, you've forgotten the feeling "warm". Warm like the pain that I feel inside, like a thousand suns, ready to burn me alive. I try to hide behind a mask that will provide the protection to keep my soul from being fried. Although my emotions will always be denied, I have a feeling you see through me, all facades aside. And if seeing is believing and believing means being, then who sees in perfect hindsight while the brights are beaming, I'm screaming because feeling is

For You...
I think I'm falling harder and faster for you than with anyone I've ever known calling and spending my time with you I know why I'm no longer alone. You're nothing what I expected still there's nothing I regret and these are things you need to know. I've spent a long time waiting the fakes have come parading but I never want you to go. I know we're still on trial but if you go I'll cry myself to sleep at night. and I know that this feeling I have will never end if you just hold me tight. Because I think I'm falling harder and faster for you than with anyone I've ever known calling and spending my time with you I know why I'm no longer alone. I wasn't even searching for love or anything that meant I'd have to sacrifice my self-absorbed indulgence and boys are full of bull rants someone finally broke the ice. still I can't help but to say... that I'm falling harder and faster for you

Untitled...
seething, writhing, seering, jeering, demeaning, deceiving, describing, detailing, teeming, seeming to make no sense at all. leaving, heaving being, seein, wilting, jilting, peeling, reeling, agitating, hating my own skin as it crawls. creating, debating, hoping, praying, wanting, haunting, heeding, needing, avenging, decending into the depths of my soul. dreaming, hearing, stopping, living, having, needing, encapturing, enthralling, enwrapping, loving all that I have known and learned.

I'm Sorry Now...
Take my heart, rip it up can’t take it back, you’ve done too much. Look in my eyes, do you see tears? can’t take it back, wasted too many years. Can’t say "I’m sorry" now, it’s too late for that. Can’t rewind time somehow, can’t take it back. Can’t say "I’m sorry" now-- what’s happened is done. Can’t rewind time, and I’m already gone. Looking back at al the time wasted I can’t believe I tried so hard to make it work. Seeing is believeing, and I’m done breathing for you. You lied while I cried, you never cared. Take my heart, rip it up. Can’t take it back, you’ve done too much. Look in my eyes, do you see tears? Can’t take it back, wasted so many years. Can’t say "I’m sorry" now, it’s too late for that. Can’t rewind time somehow, can’t take it back. Can’t say "I’m sorry" now, what’s happened is done. Can’t

A Better Me...
I've had a lifetime to deal with all this pain, at one point, I think I went insane. I've always made it back to myself except I always lost a part of my self. I love who I have come to be but sometimes I wonder if it's me. would I be the same had life been easy? probably not, I prefer turbulent to breezy. At least I've had my lessons to learn, for their lives, I will never yearn. The pain has made me who I am today and I will have it no other way. I've had a hard past, that's easy to see but it has made myself a better me

Through The Looking Glass...
Who is it you want me to be? I can see it is she, but it is not me. It is not who I am or what I do I know it's for you but for me, what did I do? Prim, proper, perfect to the T you want me to be she but it is not me. Squander my life just for you, is that what I am to do? change myself to make you happy it is what you want is it what I should be? Why I want to change and why I care I don't even know you're not even there. you stare back at me and you know all how I feel and when I fall. when I see you I see your pain I know your life ours are the same. as I look in the mirror you're all I see, wanting me to change who I should be. prim, proper, perfect to the T

The Wallower's Way
As I sit here watching all the passers by I wonder why I suddenly want to cry is it because of dishonesty of words or is my brain just for the birds? Is there any way to explain this lunacy that has enveloped me? I can't understand it nor can I give it away How can I possibly use it to promise for a better day? Is there any reason I should be so sad when so much has happened for which I should be glad? I should just brush it off and get back up instead I sit here and wallow with my computer and my cup.

Convinceable
sitting here in stolen skin I can't believe I let you win no one believes me, nor do they care to them it was like you were never there. I'm old enough, strong and wise so how could I fall for your lies. I thought you were a friend so I reached out and tried to lend a hand. You

Inpenetrable
my eyes are filled with the things they have seen can't see what's in front of me because of these things can't sleep at night, afraid of my own room to let this be the best of me, would bring me to doom you can't find me, buried in my skin you took my body, but I'll keep my soul that's mine to keep, you can never get in inpenetrable shield on my soul

Revolution
it's time for a revolution don't believe in evolution the world makes itself what it is can't say adults are not like kids it's time for a revolution so stand up and shout we are the future we'll turn it inside out. Can you see the future coming

Fire Safe Cigarettes Have Even More Garbage In Them Please Read!
FIRE SAFE CIGARETTES have even more garbage in them please read! Petition needs 2000 signatures has right now 179 please please sign it Hi, I signed the petition "FIRE SAFE CIGARETTES". I'm asking you to sign this petition to help us reach our goal of 2,000 signatures. I care deeply about this cause, and I hope you will support our efforts. http://www.thepetitionsite.com/2/fire-safe-cigarettes

Senses You Sense In Me
do you want to be with me can you see what I can see breaking for my eyes to bleed can you see what I can see what do you want from me dear can you hear what I hear blood rushing out my ears can you hear what I hear do you think I'm a waste

Waiting
All these go so slowly one minute an entire day. an hour, a week. the entire day is a year... waiting on you to speak. If only you knew how much I liked you... I have goals, and they won't change, and I know you don't know what to do but I won't be in close range.

I'm Sorry.
I'm sorry for everything I did and everything I said. I'm sorry for making you wonder if I were alive or dead. I'm sorry I ruin things with my big, dumb mouth I'm sorry when things get bad I just run out I'm sorry for opening my mouth

When Will...
When will this ever end I don't want this love to send. my heart screams aloud but gets drowned out in the crowd. When will this ever stop I want for this just to drop. my eye drops a single tear to drown out my deepest fear. When will this ever heal

Dissociated
Lost within my make-believe I see nothing that is true, but now that I have found you, All my mind is swimming To the shores you bring me to, How much longer now In this sea of broken glass must I paddle on without you? Should you trample me down And turn my wasting mind?

Today Is Today
It was not tomorrow two hours ago, It was yesterday, but at the time considered tonight, but alas, it is no more. It is today, tomorrow is on it's way. It's tomorrow in China, but if I were there It would be today... but I am not there, so it is not yesterday in America, it is t

Want And Need
I don't want your salvationI don't need your sympathyI don't want your redemptionI just want you to be.I don't want your lifeI don't need your painI don't want your strifeI just need you back again.I don't want your comfortI don't need your bloodI don't want your worthI just want back your love.I want your handclosed in mineI need our soulsto intertwine.I want your bodyholding me closeto make me safefrom those who just go.I want your loveto keep me warmwhile all around there is a storm.I want your heartI need your soulall these thingsyou need to know

Sunlight Brings A New Day
Repeating every moment with you This is all we ever do; Everything is flying through my mind, why couldn't we be happy? I don't enjoy myself with you, But things cannot be changed, All the reasons we're together, Why are our clams all clamming up?

Daylight Again/find The Cost Of Freedom
My thoughts on this song: When i first heard this song iwas 18 years old just out of high school 1970 tho it came out in 69 a tear earlier it rang in my head for the longest time you prolly heard it too, you can listen to it on my stash..theres 2 versions..this i #2 the words to it. Think and let me know what feel about it Daylight again, following me to bed I think about a hundred years ago, how my fathers bled I think I see a valley, covered with bones in blue All the brave soldiers that cannot get older been askin' after you Hear the past a callin', from Ar- -megeddon's side When everyone's talkin' and noone is listenin', how can we decide? (Do we) find the cost of freedom, buried in the ground Mother earth will swallow you, lay your body down Find the cost of freedom, buried in the ground Mother earth will swallow you, lay your body down (Find the cost of freedom buried in the ground)

Bleh
Somedays there are ups and sometimes there are downs. When your heart belongs to someone else its hard to deal with the emotions that come and go. Sometimes you feel like your their one true love and they never want to live with out you....... then there are days when you realize your easy to replace and maybe your just another face in the crowd. Today is one of my down days, where I'm processing information and just dont feel special at all. I felt like I might be a little different then all the others. But maybe I'm not, maybe there is no reason for me to be separate from the others. I sit here crying and my heart aching over something that is stupid and small in comparing to everything else. But my heart has been hurt before, I've been told before that I stood above the rest and I ment more then the others. All lies in the end and I can not or will not put myself in a place where I am forgotten, not wanted or just not important enough to feel special. To more then the others, to be

Hmmm..
An ex friend of mine told me once "Your body is here, but your heart and soul are somewhere else". At first, I was confused, and didn't really understand what they meant. Until recently... As most of you know, I have moved from my home in Maryland... to Georgia (lived with said ex friend).. to Wisconsin (stayed with a female friend of mine)... and Now I'm in Washington. And now, it makes total sense. That ex friend of mine, was right this whole time. And I wanted to actually write this, in hopes that he reads this... because I do, in fact, want to thank him. Because of him, and his constant complaining, it made me realize, that I was in the wrong place. I should have made other decisions a long time ago. But now that I have, and it's finally my reality, I do want to thank him for being there, and making me see this. I found the love of my life.... on fubar... of all places. Odd, huh? But ya, know, I haven't even been here for 12 hours, and he's great. :) And this ex-friend

Good Morning
His eyes flutter open. Blinking against the morning light he shifts down into the bed, pressing his arm and leg a little more firmly against you.Taking a few moments to gain his wits and allow his brain to begin to function again, he turns over and carefully drapes an arm over your back as he takes in the sight of you.Laying mostly on your side/belly, an arm cast over the edge of the bed, your soft deep breathing is rhythmic in his ears. Gently his hand moves along your back, touching your skin and caressing you.He gives a tender kiss to your shoulder as he sighs and slides out of bed. Moving slowly so as not to wake you, he moves off to the bathroom intent on a shower. Whispering softly he says "I'll be right back love to wake you up."He strides quietly into the bedroom, wrapped in a towel about the waist. Running the fingers of one hand through his hair he looks at you and smiles. The morning sunlight catches the stray beads of water on his shoulders and back, causing them to gleam b

The Numerology Of 44
The Numerology of 44 (Dealing with my new age...)44 is a powerful number. Know why? Because the 4 vibrates with paying attention to detail and building a solid foundation for the future. In 44, that effect is doubled. Plus, the two numbers (4 and 4), adding up to 8, have an umbrella vibration of effective management, controlling group dynamics, building large structures (buildings, bridges, organizations), and financial control.44 is a “master number” in numerology, meaning it has an extremely potent vibration, but also falls back into its lower vibration when not held appropriately… In a nutshell, I find it to have meanings of sacrifice and balance, work and structure, yet exertion and decay.Impeccability, desire with insight, wisdom with reason, intensity, conviction, adeptship, heroism, self-control, discipline, controlled energy focused.44 is magnificence and manifestation - the master architect and alchemist who can transform an idea and structure into a powerfu

Ignore Request? Fuck That, I Wanna Deny Them!
Yeah, yeah, I know they changed the bit where you reject friend requests a while ago, but it still kinda annoys me that I can't DENY them. Why did they change this? Were some people so fucking sensitive that they didn't have the heart to click on DENY? But... that would make no sense since you could ignore requests back then too. Request says: Fanned and rated! Rev says: DENIED MOTHER FUCKER Request says: HI AD ME AN CHECK OUT DA COOL PEEPS IN MY LOUNGE Rev says: DENIED MOTHER FUCKER Request says: (blank request) Rev says: DENIED MOTHER FUCKER I know that ignore request is effectively the same as denying, but denying just felt so much more satisifying. Eat shit and die! :D

Fake Friends And Real Friends
Fake friends never ask for food.Real friends are the reason you donâ��t have food.Fake friends never see you cry.Real friends cry with you.Fake friends borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.Real friends keep your stuff so long they forget its yours.Fake friends know few things about you.Real friends could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.Fake friends are for a while.Real friends are for life.

Explanation
Hello to all my fu friends! Yes, I am back!!! Did you miss me? I have missed fu so much. And I am writing to explain my absence for so long. I had to take time away to try to mend a broken heart. See, I have been seeing someone off and on for 3 years. I truly love my Shadow Man. Still even though he shattered my heart and almost destroyed my soul with his departure from my life. I admit it... I am weak where he is concerned. I always have been and probably always will be. Anyway......... we spent alot of time in Fubar. It was where we communicated when we couldn't be together. And when he ended things it was too hard for me to come into Fubar. All I saw was his absence. All I felt was the pain of that loss. But just a few nights ago we had a nice face to face conversation and I am feeling better for it. He knows that I love him. I know that he loves me..... but in life we are in different places that can't be breached. I can't say that I will ever stop loving him. But I can and will

I Can't Make You
I've learned that in order for you to keep someone they have to want you backI've learned this the hard way, you can't make someone want to be friends with youA friendship has to swing both ways. Your a friend to them and they're a friend to you.But sometimes showing them that you care just isn't enough.You can't make someone hang out,call, text, or even miss you if they don't want it as well.As much as it hurts you just have to accept that and move on.The last couple of months have shown me this.I'm learning. Learning to leave those friendships behind. Trying not to scratch that bruise so that it doesn't bleed again.Leaving that stain and trying not to get it out, even if i tried it won't come out.

Trust
Trust is something that I consider a,lie.It deceives,makes you believe things,you wouldn't normally believe.Trust me,Trust me,Trust me.No, What is I don't?What happens if you say that,and I shouldn't have,Trusted you,Trusted you,Trusted you.What if you lied.Then do you still expect me to,Trust you,Trust you,Frickin TRUST YOU!I'm sorry but I don't,I just can't see myself,don't believe,I can trust,anyone at the momentSo,good-bye.Good-bye.Good-bye, my friend,I will believe that one day,If you do no more lying,I might one day,perhaps,trust you.

Let Me Go
See this heart ? it wasn't whole from the start.it would always beat fast, and i just wish it would've last.you made my world go around,and you lifted my feet off the ground.The day you unwrapped your arms,and let me go, was the day i know it was all a show.i just wanna know why you ran away?baby, why couldn't you stay? just a little longer,that's all i asked. i knew the moment would pass,but it's just all i asked.Do you ever think about me ?maybe see me in your dreams ?i wish you'd come back, and make my day happy and brighter again.I need back your warm and soft touch,nothing else really matters much.i miss you.did i tell you?i wish you would know,I've missed you since the day you unwrapped your armsand let me go.

When You Are Alone
For every min of the day you wish you could fine some one to love and yet your heart would like to feel what love mean when you are a lone there is no one to love thus how can one love if once heart doesn't know what love feel like for who would give a lonely heart some love.being a lone is only loneness for it only make one think of life but life is free and love is special for some one to love let one search for once true wait what does once eyes see for there is a light from the top of the hill for what does the light mean for there is a gentle heart that wish to share his love.when you are a lone there is no love but yet you fine your self wish for some one to love thus just to hear the birds sing about love bring tears to your eyes for what you want is to just to be love where oh where can one fine her true love for her heart cry for love.

Tell Me The Truth
I've one simple requestThe only thing left to askTell me the truthDon't hide behind a maskWas there anything there?Please tell me. I just ask for one thingAnd that's honestyDon't make me fall harderJust tell me pleaseDon't lead me into liesI'm begging, down on my kneesI feel so confusedWhenever I talk to youI don't know what to sayHow much I care, if only you knew...I've one simple request.To end this sorrow moodTell me how you feelSo I can restart life, renewed.

How Can I Be
How can I be so stupid To fall in love with youI feel like I'm being used upGosh, I feel so stupid nowAnd if this is what it feels like to be fall in loveThen I rather let it goI can't see myself looking like thisEverytime tears falls outCause it makes me feel stupidI know I can do better than thisAnd I don't need you in my lifeThere is still someone out there for me Waiting to be lovedSo yeah if I'm still being with youThen I must be stupid to still be in loveWith you.....

I Want To Say Goodbye
I want to say goodbyeBut I can't-My throat seals up- Like I'm suffocatingConstantly catching my breathe-Grasping my heartbeat, Trying to recapture you,But you keep fluttering Away.I feel as if I'm Dying as well-I Just want to be near you That would be enough for me.I am reminded that it's simply Just a dream- Playing with my emotions.I know the Grim Reaper has visited you,But I can't let go-I don't know how to move on;I drink to null the painI smoke to dull the memoryI laugh when I want to cryI am quiet, so its easy to hide...I only cry in front ofJack Daniels- a close friend.And I scream withBacardi- a nice Companion.... I don't know how to move on...

What I Am On Fubar.
Well , first off I am looking to add more friends. Mostly from around Pinellas County. And from the rest of the Tampa Bay Area as well. For now that is about it. More will be posted sometime down the road.

Life
Here we are, day in and day out! Sometimes the same thing over and over again and sometimes not. As we walk through every day on this earth hoping for something else to happen, or to get better, maybe you think you are fine. Deep down we all know we are not. We long for more, great. We secretly hope that we don't have to go on with our dead end physical torture. Asking GOD to help us make it through. Paying bills, trying to get enough food. As we lower our heads thinking we have been defeated. I am hear to tell you. Do not give up yet. We have to go through HELL on earth to get to HEAVEN. The things we go through make us strong and help us prepare for anything GOD asks for and from us. I have been through it all, and at the end I know that I will have earned my way into HEAVEN. So this life we have sux, and its hard, you may not have it as hard as someone else, or you may have it harder. GOD never puts on you more than you can handle. Life is HELL but what a HELL of a reward, I get to

Used Vs. Loved
Used vs. LovedWhile a man was polishing his new car, his 4 yr old son picked up astone and scratched lines on the side of the car. In anger, the man tookthe child's hand and hit it many times; not realizing he was using awrench.At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures.When the child saw his father.....with painful eyes he asked,'Dad when will my fingers grow back?'The man was so hurt and speechless; he went back to his car and kickedit a lot of times. Devastated by his own actions........sitting in front ofthat car he looked at the scratches; the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.The next day that man committed suicide. . Anger and Love have nolimits; choose the latter to have a beautiful, lovely life..... Thingsare to be used and people are to be loved, But the problem in today'sworld is that, People are used and things are loved...During the day, be careful to keep this thought in mind: Thingsare to be used, but People are to be loved ... Be yourself..

First Line Of Defence?
I wonder...people (r/l and online) are always saying I am 'cute' and stuffs blah blah blah. But I am perfectly capable of being non-cute and deadly serious (and secretly a little bit mean), but I think cute is just like a 'default' for me just don't really think about it much. Maybeh it's a defence mechanism? After nobody really gets mad at cute stuffs and most people tend to be nicer to you. (Apart from some freaky deaky's in the mumms, but that's kinda fun to play with too) Meh, I don't know. Is it a defence thing? We all know baby animals are cute and stuffs to invoke maternal/paternal feelings but they still get eaten by sharks and things. *Shrugs* What was my point again?

From My Heart To Yours
There’s a candle inside my heart and burns for you, And ooohhhh…all my love is all for you, And that’s all you really need to know, When searching for love…you don’t have to go very far, Because I am here for you Sometimes we lose our heads…reading in between lines and facts, Trying to prove love wrong or right…and ooohhhh, We fight to say the things….that’ll make us cry, And I…love you… that’s why I’ll never say goodbye, Ooooohhhhh…I am in love with you Sometimes we grow old…and die before we say what’s in our hearts, But I… will say it every day…and you… can hold my hand, As I close my eyes…and see you no more…. Till that day comes, I will love you… as you are and I’ll never hurt you, The love I have for you…never came from a book…it came from how you make me feel There’s a flame burning inside my soul…a

Looking For A Roommate
hi we are looking for honest down to earth roommate that has a job and there own car if you are him or her please contact us at 513-330-5056 our names are manni and jason rent is 550 but split in half so you have to pay 225.00 and half you the light and half of the cable bill and buy your own food things we dont allow are drugs and sex offenders (i do have kids )no drunksthere is a 200 dep with our landlord for a new lease you will get that back if you move out there is no smoking in my house have to smoke outside...me and jason are really laid back ppl if you get to know us...we are west side of hamilton,ohio..there will be a agreement that has to be signed and dated....

Perfect
The perfect breakfast: Papaya wedges, eggs scrambled with salsa and a dash chili powder, chee bikits, and java that soaks thru wall of your mouth and causes wave of sensation thru your face before you even swallow. The perfect date: One whereas its essense is supported primarily by the others presense. What is done and where is visited is merely environment, scenery. The perfect kiss: The anticipated one, the one fueled by mutual hope, and lingered by satedness and the full body sigh of relief, that it happenned. The perfect argument: ends in a tackling embrace, to shut them up. The perfect man/woman: Is into who you are, not their plan for who you should be. The perfect shoe: The one that puts pride in your step, actually affects your confidence level. The perfect movie: theater;special effects. home;ever guessing evasive plot, the one that makes you slap you forehead when it reveals itself. The perfect flower: a rain filled teacup Magnolia blossom, natures cologne.

Who All Thinks That Some People Take Fumafia To Seriously Then Speak Up :d
Fu mafia is just a game,why do some people take it so seriously,my whole turf Army of Darkness was deleted and i rebuilt it.Although it wasnt my turf before,I was only a soldier,but the bosses account was appently deleted because of some arguement.Anyway who else has that kind of experience in fumafia drama?

Perfeck.
*hops on bandwagon* The perfect breakfast: Morning lovemaking session, then coffee, bacon & eggs. The perfect date: Something spontaneous, creative, memorable, and fun, but not too much - don't want it to take my attention away from the person I'm with. The perfect kiss: Spontaneity is key, starts out gently, winds up almost drawing blood, ends with staring into my lover's eyes for what seems like forever. The perfect argument: One with no victor, only new understandings. The perfect man/woman: Hard to say, I haven't found her yet (well, maybe I did, but she's not "with" me, obviously) I know I've come close, though. I guess someone that is basically my equal or better, challenges me intellectually, and keeps me laughing, doesn't expect me to read her mind, and would sing/say the lyrics to "I'll Stand By You" by the Pretenders, and mean every word of it. Yeah, that works. The perfect shoe: Um. One that fits? *blinks* The perfect movie: Takes me somewhere beyond reality

Perfect
The perfect breakfast: coffee with lots of cream, eggs scrambled with monterey jack cheese, mushrooms, and chives. The perfect date: A lot of conversation, a little alcohol, somewhere with a view. The perfect kiss: takes my breath away and depends on the moment! The perfect argument: One that clears the air and ends in a kiss. The perfect man/woman: smart, funny, attentive and adores me :) The perfect shoe: a strappy sandal that makes me feel sexy. The perfect movie: leaves me happy at the end. The perfect flower: tulips The perfect time of day: sunset The perfect mood: exhilaratingand elevating joy The perfect dream: one that is so real that you wakeup and cannot be sure if it was a dream or if it actually happened....usually involves some kissing :) The perfect drink: really good red wine - or a vodka martini straight up with extra olives The perfect name: certainly not

Perfect ( I Got Tagged By Seamus)
perfect breakfast; My homemade biscuits and gravy. perfect date; Pack a cooler with grub n. stuff and go spend the day at the ocean. perfect kiss; Up against a wall, deep, passionate, with a touch of agression. perfect argument; I hate arguing, but make up sex is always good. perfect woman or man; One thats perfectly honest, Im an honest person and being straight with yourself speaks volumes to me. oh and nice pecs n some ink helps too ! perfect shoe; Toes in the sand. perfect flower; Daffodils my favorite! perfect time of day; Dusk and Dawn I love the hush, and the way everything wakes up. perfect drink; Homemade sweet tea, or some hot Oolong tea. perfect drug; Mary Jane, and Wolverine running naked.

Perfect (stolen From Everyone)
perfect breakfast; Sausage links, bacon, smashed eggs, and buttermilk pancakes (blueberry syrup) perfect date perfect kiss-with her perfect argument perfect woman perfect shoe perfect flower perfect time of day perfect drink perfect drug

Perfect
The perfect breakfast: Biscuits and Gravy, Eggs over medium, turkey bacon, with a cup of French Vanilla Dunkin Donuts coffee The perfect date: Somewhere new and unexpected, be creative and find out what I like first. If you're taking me on a date, you've had time to get to know me first to allow it. Thoughtfulness is key. The perfect kiss: just happens naturally with little effort or force. The perfect argument: resolves an issue. It's okay to argue and get heated about your side as long as there is some resolution at the end. A hug and a kiss with appreciation at the end. The perfect man/woman: holds my interest, makes me laugh, trusts me, feeds my ego and allows me to be me. The perfect shoe: Knee high black boots with 3 inch stilleto heels. The perfect movie: makes me sigh at the end. The perfect flower: is a classic deep red rose. The perfect time of day: mid-afternoon with the sun high in the sky and all of the world's glory basking in it as the hussle a

A Dream (06.14.06))
He never hear the door quietly open then close, nor the footsteps that followed. She crept up to the foot of his bed, and stared at him with her big chocolate eyes. A slight smile crept across her mouth: there he was, a man, completely unaware of her standing there, so vulnerable and docile. Trying to avoid any sudden movements that would disturb him, she hopped on a bed like a panther stalking her prey, and put a chloroform soaked rug to his face. Twitching for a moment, he fell back on the bed.When he came to his senses some time later, he realized that his hands and feet were handcuffed to the bed, and his mouthwas taped shut with thick duct tape. What happened?? After a momentary panic, he saw her stand in the corner with her arms crossed. In a black garter belt and tall leather boots, she looked taller than her real height. Fixing her dark hair, she wickedly smiled with that animalistic smile he saw earlier. Who was she? Where did she come from? It was up for him to decide.He watc

Perfect, Hoisted From Boo
perfect breakfast; canadian bacon, eggs sunny side up and an everything bagel slathered in butter perfect date; someplace dark and quiet, followed by hot tub under the stars perfect kiss; the next one perfect argument; grudge fuck, followed by make up sex perfect woman; one that is either blind to my many faults or thinks they are cute perfect shoe; barefoot perfect flower; crimson rose perfect time of day; sunrise, watching the world come alive perfect drink; strong kona coffee, an ice cold home or microbrewed beer on a hot day or an extra large white russian in the hot tub perfect drug; ganja

Random Useless Information About Me
69 Confession Questions These are my confessions... 1. The phone rings; who do you want it to be? Whoever I've been waiting for 2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? Always 3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener? Both 4. Do you take compliments well? Yes 5. Do you play Sudoku? I have 6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive? Yes 7. Do you like to ride horses? YES!! 8. Did you ever go camping as a kid? A lot 9. What was your favorite game as a kid? Jacks 10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you go for it? Hell NO 11. Have you lied to get out of a date? Yes 12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you? Yes 13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued? Whatever 14. Use three words to describe yourself? Loving, indepedent, worrying 15. Do any songs make you cry? So

This Coming Weeks Forecast.
Monday - Chance of Shitty Tuesday - Mostly Shitty Wednesday - Shitty with a chance of Horrible Thursday - Horrible Friday - Horrible with a chance of Oh My Fuck are you Kidding me? Saturday - Do you really need to ask Sunday - You dont have to work,so if you thought Thursday was bad Welcome to Nova Scotia.It is like Canadas arm pit.A Floriduh of the North kinda.Atleast the Ice Fog isnt rolling in yet. Gods little way of saying "Fuck you, you fat atheist... werd.

Fu-owned
I like the Fu-Owned thingy....it tells me who appreciates me enough to want to own me, and feature me on their page....I just get irked when dudes wanna get into a pissing contest over a chick that they know they couldnt have in R/L anyway.......I got called a prick this morning......I usually dont take offense to what people say on here.....but ...FUCK YOU!!!!!(YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE) that is all

My Elf Name...
I guess the last name comes from McD's McFlurry because I'm so sweet and satisfying :P Your Elf Name Is: Holly Mc Flurry Son of a nutcracker! What's Your Elf Name? Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

My First Name Is Passionate!
:D You Have a Passionate First Name You are a loving, emotional person. You think and act from the heart, and that sometimes gets you in trouble. You are very intense and impulsive. You go with your intuition, even if your intuition is telling you to make a very bold move. You tend to feel strongly about everything in life. You have big emotions that sometimes conflict one another. You have a wild streak, and you're known to be unpredictable. You chase your dreams. What Kind of First Name Do You Have? Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

Random Old Stuff...
So I can not seem to find sleep, so I am going to start a blog on here.. I mean why not... The things that are going to be posted in this first one are things I have written in the past. They express how I felt at that place and time... Some are poetic others just random thoughts, but all were written down to help clear my head. This was written on a day where I had waited all day to talk to that special some one and things just did not work out that way: I waited for what seemed like days to talk to you again, and then when i finally get the chance you are to fucking out of it to really even give a shit. I felt great almost all day... even took a bunch of pics because i thought i looked adorable... and all i wanted to do was finish my night off showing them to you and talking to you like we used to do... why was i so stupid to think that the small things that make me incredibly happy would actually matter to you. time to pop another sleeping pill, i dont want to cry anymo

Curvy Milf In Pvc Boots Sucking Cock
Hi everybody This week I am releasing "Whore's for you" which stars Naomixxx where the curvy babe is wearing a red see through fishnet dress and thigh high black PVC boots Naomi has been booked as a escort for a afternoon of fun where she lays on the bed and is asked to play with herself while fucking herself with a dildo It is not long before I give her a helping hand and Naomi is soon looking for a real cock to play with To see all the samples and the video clip check out http://www.jameswildfowler.com/naomixxx-blowjob.html Enjoy James Wildfowler www.jameswildfowler.com

Here I Stand
so i standi stand here alonewith tears slowly rolling down my face.from all the pain youve forever causedyet you wouldnt be able to tellthe night is crying tonight tooso tonight we cry togetheras I stand here aloneI know that if u saw me right now youd laugh at melaugh at all the painall the pain that you causethats filled my eyes till they are over flowingthe pain slowly rolls down my face but tonight u cant see itthe night is trying to help me by letting my pain flow threw itso tonight Im feeling so cold and alonethe night is trying but all it does is make me more alone and cold.so to night I stand here alone where u left meyet Im still alone waiting for uforever now Im dead insidethere was no way for me to get warm without you by my sideso forever now do I stand alonewith both me and the night cryingfor the love that you never cared aboutfor all the time i gave to youfor all the tears that are now rolling down my facethat you will never see because of the rainfor all the times I gav

Something From The Mind
i was all alone you left me all alonei was a broken soula wolf without feelingyou left me alonei cried alonei loved youbut now i want to kill youforget youbecauseyou left me alonei was all alonei thought you loved mebut what the hell do i know?i loved youim not as strong without youbut i will be strongi'll hold back it alland face it without youand when i fallbecause i know i willyou wont be there to catch meand thats what kills mebecause you left me all aloneand in the morningi'll know your gonean im left in this world without youcuz when it all comes down to ityou where everything to meand you let me fallyou left me all alonelike a rose in the raina wolf that can feelno more painand as i cryand think of youand watch you look at themthe way you once looked at me tooi'll smile saddlyturn awayand never let you knowbecause you left all me alone

Type
Mr. Jack Anderson practiced a type of journalisim called mukaluk, spelling is unkown by me. Take a littl bit of truth and put a lot of nonsense and although he is no longer here it was interesting that the FBI asked the family for permission to go through hes personal effects. I take the truth of my life and put a whole lot of nonsense and it is not meant for all to know what I am saying. I know that I need this surgery but it is not the end or the means to reach this end. What ever my end is I will honor it as I always try to my best but often I fail at it. I extended the Olive brach of Peace to Cheryl and she graciously accepted it. About that bet, I have a funny feeling Jo-Ann maybe collecting that $5.00 off of me. Although the near and distant future concerning me is darkness, I do get a glimpse here and there. The two world I did see at one time in my minds eye, the one of darkness has retreated giving away to a beautiful world. I think the Roman Catholics call this season Adve

When Love Fades
When Love Fades....... A man was sitting on the sofa watching TV when he heard his wife's voice from the kitchen. What would you like for dinner Love? Chicken, beef or lamb ? He said, "Thank you, I'll have chicken." "F*ck You. You're having soup. I was talking to the dog

Okay Am I Being Stupid??
Alright I'm pretty pissed off right now. I have a 4 year old son Aidan who is my whole life. My ex Wife seems to think that because she has the parental custody that she can pull anything she wants when she wants with me, just because he doesn't live with me full time that I have no right to say anything here and doesn't respect me at all. I work five 12 hour shifts a week in the ER just to make ends meet cause of her, so it's very important for me to be able to call my son every night like clockwork to tell him I love him and to let him know I'm thinking about him. Well here's the problem, she won't answer her phone! I have several times called and she won't answer her phone or will give me the excuse oh I didn't hear it, I don't have service out here, which is bullshit cause I have the same service as she does and they don't charge for roaming. Again last night she pulled this, I tried for over 2 hours trying to get ahold of her to make plans for me to pick up my son here today. Am I

Badass Of The Week: Lewis Millett (repost)
Lewis Millett"We had acquired some Chinese documents stating that Americans were afraid of hand-to-hand fighting and cold steel...when I read that, I thought, 'I'll show you, you sons of bitches!'" Lewis Millett really hated Nazis. I know that most of you think that Indiana Jones cornered the market on hating those guys, but Millett really took that shit to a whole new level. This guy was so cheesed off at Hitler and his goose-stepping morons that in early 1940 he dropped out of high school as a junior to go enlist in the Army and help the world teach Der Führer that fucking with freedom and democracy was like the political equivalent of sending up a giant Bat-Signal with the words "Please Come Kick My Ass" engraved on there instead of a bat. Well, this was great and all, but back in 1940 the United States had a pretty strict policy of not intervening in Europe's bullshit, and President Roosevelt kept coming out on the radio being all like, "whatever dudes we're not going to go

So Tired...
I've journeyed across rugged mountains, with violence gushing from my viens...but that has made me older then I should be, And now I'm tired.so tired. I've seen love drenched in crimson blood, And I've seen hate....cold, hard hate, Immersed in the brightness of Holy Innocense... I've felt the outcome of these battles in my heart and now I'm tired.... So damn tired. (written in 1986)

"the Nsfw Crackdown, The Mentally Ill And A Holiday Song"
Well my friends it is that time of the year again, time for Holiday stress, holiday shopping and all of the good and bad things that the holidays bring upon us. It’s a time where seemingly every year that you always remember things that happen during the holidays, making for a lifetime of memories. In Fubar World, it’s pretty much the same. You see Xmas Auctions, holiday bling pack specials, everyone it seems with a Santa hat of some variety on for the weeks leading up to the holidays. and in past years, have a present of some variety under your Xmas tree when you sign in, which you can’t open until Midnight 12/25 Pacific Time. When I lived on the east coast that amounted to 3 AM. Needless to say. There were some funny milk and cookies moments there. This year, we have a new twist , this NSFW crackdown policy for default pictures that was put in around Thanksgiving. Which basically said you can’t be in your underwear or slam you boobs into your default picture.

The List.
After getting drunk friday night to pass away my time, and get my mind off of everything, i sat down with a notebook and started writing like a retard on speed to get all of this out. With my lovely friends help, i came up with this list. most of it, unrealistic and will never happen. The majority of it, I will make happen. Now, for your reading enjoyment, i figured i would share my wonderful, thoughtfilled drunken LIST with everyone on FUBAR and MYSPACE so they can either have something to THINK about or something to LAUGH over. Because seriously, kids. We all have fuckin hopes. We all have fuckin dreams. ANd lone behold! these are motherfuckin mine. What I Want To Do Before I’m 75.(*red = done. *black = unaccomplished)[___] *year it happened in. 1. Go to Amsterdam and smoke weed in a smoke bar 2. Get drunk in an Irish pub in Ireland 3. SCUBA dive in New Zealand 4. Sky Dive in Australia 5. Get a tattoo in Belgium 6. Go to Japan for real sushi 7. Visit my relatives in

Ugly
I am feeling so very bad right about now. Idk why.I just been feeling like an ugly duckling lately. Feeling unimportant. I take full responsibility for these feelings, they are my own. There is nothing anyone can say or to do to change this but me. Just super sad right now....We all cannot be at our top game all the time. One of these days I will feel like I matter again. That day just has not gotten here yet.....Maybe I just need a good girly kinda cry....Or maybe it is as simple as just getting some... Who knows? Time to go grab some kleenex....

The Nsfw Crackdown, The Mentally Ill And A Holiday Song :d
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The Nsfw Crackdown, The Mentally Ill And A Holiday Song :d
Well my friends it is that time of the year again, time for Holiday stress, holiday shopping and all of the good and bad things that the holidays bring upon us. It’s a time where seemingly every year that you always remember things that happen during the holidays, making for a lifetime of memories. In Fubar World, it’s pretty much the same. You see Xmas Auctions, holiday bling pack specials, everyone it seems with a Santa hat of some variety on for the weeks leading up to the holidays. and in past years, have a present of some variety under your Xmas tree when you sign in, which you can’t open until Midnight 12/25 Pacific Time. When I lived on the east coast that amounted to 3 AM. Needless to say. There were some funny milk and cookies moments there. This year, we have a new twist , this NSFW crackdown policy for default pictures that was put in around Thanksgiving. Which basically said you can’t be in your underwear or slam you boobs into your default picture. Some people are c

If These Walls Could Talk
Winters creeping up, Seeping threw the cracks, And lifes passing us by, Seems like far to fast. Summers come and gone, you left your voice on my phone, I waited far to long, For you to come back home Words were left unspoken, This loves dead, Now whats lefts been broken, We cant take back whats been said If these walls could talk . Theyd tell you all the pain. All the tears that ive cried, Since you went away. They'd tell you how the whiskey, Always pulls me through, right down to the last drop, When I start thinking about you. If these walls could talk, They'd tell you a lie, theyd tell you 3 weeks in a row, Ive watched that damn sun rise. But truth be told, I dont think of you at all, If these walls could talk, Theyd get it all wrong. You asked me how im doing, something in your voice cracked. And for a moment I actually wondered, If you were wishing id take you back, So I told you all the reasons, Why were better off this wa

Avatar Policy Enforcement Update #3
*****FROM SCRAPPER'S BLOG***** We have been very cool with everyone about our new avatar policy and enforcing it. The majority of users are cool with it and have rocked on. There are still people who are playing musical avatars and blatantly disregarding the policy. As of today, we will be strictly enforcing the policy. 1. Any one blatantly violating the policy will have their photos flagged and they will NOT be removed. We have a special note on photos that shows us if it was flagged as an avatar. If it was, you will NOT get the flag removed. 2. If you want to complain about the policy, do it to a friend. The majority of our users are very happy and supportive. If you are going to be a negative nancy about it and have nothing nice to say, my only response to you is--Don't log in if you do not like our site. 3. If you are one of those people who try and justify your avatar abuse with conspiracy theories pointing to other users who are getting away with it, rest at ease....

Consumption
I'll put this through you.Outerverse transpired like a crushed kitten between the lines.Swirved for extra points.Hand-jockied, plump and imprisonedSomething to hold ontowhen they take your thumbs. Tastes like dirt here.The fog of your breath turns green and thick.But you can see through the bars.The sun is still shining, the stars are still smiling.You're not allowed to count them.You're not allowed to ask them. Just shuffle the grit between your toes.Hold your breath til you find yourself worthy.End on a highnote at a low point.Like some mewling bitch ground to powder and wetwarmmeat under heel. Wait until another piece falls off.There goes pride.There goes sense.There goes greed.There comes panic. Thundering and obtruding in my quiet corner of hell. Before long you'll find yourself digging your way to freedomchinaa new ponywith your forehead.Wittling the days across your remaining apendiges the soft parts go firstthe hunger takes second. Licking what few bits of color come with

Not Another One Tiger!
Talk about the flood gates opening up. News stories allege another babe was doing Tiger. Tiger my man you were busy bee or shall we say a prodigious sex machine. Can we just call you a man whore? Bro you got all us guy who have almost give every dime we have to score and you just say the word and you’re doing the nasty. At least this babe is sexy and soooo good looking. Heck man, with your stature you could score Cleopatra after Ceasar and Marc Antony. So I like your choice in number 4. Number 5 better be equal to or better then number 4 Dude. You think Mrs. Woods will want to rewrite the Pre-Nep again? I wouldn’t be surprised. My Grandmother told me so I’ll tell you, keep your zipper zipped up and your pants on. Then you won’t get into trouble. Good advice Tiger. Be one of the beautiful people and tune in BlastFM. Then people will no you have discriminating taste. www.live65.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

The Most Beautiful Memory About My Childhood
The most beautiful memory about my childhood is really a nice picture,usually with my mom in it. lt was a hot summer night,though the heavy rain was falling outside,with the frightening sounded thunder.Worse still,there was also an electricity failure,and then the darkness would strike me,making me daren't to sleep.However,before l trembled because of the thunder and the darkness,my mom must have already sat at the side of my bed,until l fell asleep.She always had an old fan in her hand,in order to cool me down as well as to keep the mosquitoes far away from me. lt was a quiet and peaceful night,when l was accompanied by my mom,and that is the most beautiful memory about my childhood!

In The Whirlwind Of Eternal Misery
Here I go. On and on. With no place to go. Stuck inside, this neverending whirl of life, Can’t get out, It’s draining my energies, my passions. No more care, no more love, but only fate and defeat. Forever hatred is coming. Death is already here. Filled with poison, anger, fear, nothing more. Slowly dying, an intense, miserable death. .. .. I’m hurting, more and more as the seconds go by, No one cares, I’m my only survivor. All else watch me decay. Its sucking the little energy I have left. Spiraling round and round with no end, Just sit there and watch me become obliterated. .. .. Anybody! Anybody! Hear me! Help me! I’m stuck in this whirlwind forever spinning. Just sit there and watch my misery. Watch me get hurt, tormented, and die. You take pleasure in my own torment. You love watching it rip and tear me to shreds. .. .. Go away! Suffocate! Die! Help me! I need you! I want you! Finish him. Forget him. Trash him. Stay in your et

Ripping My Cold Blackened Heart
Use me you fucking idiot, take everything i ever had. leave me with nothing but sorrow and pain, while you have all you could ever dream of. forget about me, like you ever even cared, laugh at my misery while i go deeper into this fate. false promises made, false hope held, lies are all that fills my head. i want to believe the fantasies said, but i must sell everything for you, even my fucking bed. you try me again, itll be the last thing you do, cant come close to me now. no chance in hell. im no longer your puppet on a string, i surpassed your evil demise and through the ruins. stupid nieve little boy i must be, fall for it over and over again. it never will stop, no way it can. i cant ever learn, until you rip my bleeding heart to shreds. do it once, do it again, it seems the pain will never end. your wrong, there's nothing left, just scars, rips, and tears. its gore, gore, gore. all hope is dead. no feelings, no life, just wasted little threads. cant put it back together, its tota

Rising To Nothing
Nothing i was, nothing i am, and for always nothing to be. not even a speckle of dust or ash upon the earth. why cant anyone see me? a ghost i must be. a ghost i am. a ghost i will forever be. quiet and alone, the 2 things i hate most, i must live with for eternity. no one to go but myself. no person except me. demons parade around me, my life. suffering is all i expect. torment is all i live for. the past haunts me, the future taunts me, the present is just lonely. no one to see, no one to please, no one to love. blood is how we live, it decays with death, and forever pleasures ourself. its as if im the invisible man of whom no one sees, no one cares about, and no one wants to see. ignoring me. ignoring my existance. ignoring this life on earth. i have been placed in the wrong realm of reality. i belong in the underworld with the shame and recluses i so long deserve. desiring one, i do. desiring the world, never. noticed i never will be. unknown for eternity. so here i am, risen to no

Just Give In
Why even try to cope with this pain the world bears upon me?Its too much, there is no point to live onward.Deeper and deeper into this eternal sorrow I fall,Will I ever get out? No. Why would I want to?No one out there cares. Its always the same. Pure hopelessness forever.The reaper has already taken my soul, my heart, is coroded with misery.Take this tension away, just give in to the pain. Allow it to happen.Accept its feeling, you can't hide. Know the sorrows exist, follow them and let them lead you. I can't overcome, for this torture is so intense, so strong, and I long to live the life of one that is happy filled with love. Too late for that. All hope has fallen.It is fantasy, not reality. One day, one dawn I ask to be put out of this suffering that exists for a lifelong eternity. I'm sorry but I am already doomed. My heart has been demolished completely in everyway possible. No way, no possibility of it being fixed, three months going on forever. I can't take it anymore, just take

Overdosing It
Restless mind, I am afraid,Warning signs are all over, where to turn to?No one understands. No one knows.Everyday life is twisted by my stress,My pain and misery makes me go insane.Constantly uptight, the world is against me,Bitch about this, complain about that.I wonder why you can't see what I see,You never seen the pain, you never wanted to die.I need something, I need it now.It is time for relief. I can't take the torment another moment.This hate has built up. I'm about to explode.Just watch me, here I go you wuss. I take one. And another one. And another one.Can I feel it yet? Yeah! Pop another one.It's fun to play with pills. I wonder how many I can go?Risking death is what I live for. Everybody's gotta die sometime.The sensation is great. 5 minutes, good. 10 minutes better.I'm grinding my teeth. All my problems have seemed to go away!It must stay this way forever. I must keep taking them one by one.I don't want to leave this world but I feel so good!Deeper and deeper i go into t

The Psycho Is Loose
Out and loose, finally freed,Now to finish what I started.Pain and anguish fills these streets.Go ahead, cry for help, no one hears you.Your sniveling attitude makes me wanna puke,Your happy little life makes me want to die.You are someone I just can't respect,So take it hard, your someone I reject.Look over there at the baby in the ditch,screaming for mercy, lying in a pool of blood.Come close to me, I'll tear you to shreds,I'll rampage upon your helpless little soul.Ripping your guts out is what I long for,hearing your cries of pain is priceless.I'll line you all up in a row, don't think I won't,BAM! They go flying out to sea. Reload.DAMN! You got blood on my new shoes,You bastards, Where you at?Don't hide, I can hear your whining,Better pray, your better off dead.You made the mistake, no second chances,Pay your dues for getting in my way.Go to sleep bitch, you won't wake up,You don't want to stay.Quit looking over your shoulder you paranoid little bitch,I'm coming at ya right betwe

Shut Up...
Rant Time!!!Duuuudddeeee... whats with people talking sh** all the time? They talk, talk talk. Then, when it comes to actions. There's... exactly... NOTHING. So... here I say, SHUT UP. I don't want hear your pathetic speeches about what your going to do. DO IT. If you do it, then you don't have to tell me how great its going to be when you do it. Why? Because then, you've already done it so you don't need to come rattle in my ear to get encouragement... Because, based off experience, people who talk about their glories and wisdom and greatness NEVER DO NOTHING TO ACHIEVE IT.... Here, I'm going to have a 5 million dollar mansion with a rolls royce... Just saying that sh** doesn't mean I'm going to have it... I may someday, but no time soon. My point? I'd rather SEE THE RESULTS rather than you telling me how your going to get all this junk. Otherwise, quite frankly, I DON'T BELIEVE YOU!Alrighty, my next bargain of the night has to do with people leaving me messages. Craigslist is very ho

What Is Your Inner Color?
Your Inner Color is Orange Your Personality: A total daredevil, you'll try any thrill. You're easily bored and you prefer to be on the go. You in Love: You see love as an adventure, and you find most men dull. You need someone who challenges you! Your Career: Your ideal job is flexible, fun, and maybe a little dangerous. You have the makings of a private investigator or extreme athlete. What's Your Inner Color? The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

Everything Is Going Black
Deeper and deeper into sorrow I go,Fading into darkness never to return.I turn away from the sun, flowers, and love,As I only see my heart as a burnt blackness.Everywhere I look, I see happiness,I'm surrounded by the pain of darkness.The world turns their heads away from me,Everything special to me has rotted away.So here I am, in my own pitch back world,the love of light has faded away to black.I want to be under the sun in the meadows again,I lost my love, for I am forever demolished.I shall hide myself until this darkness goes,could be 2 months, could be never.I want color again, but it seems impossible,My flowers, my love never to come back.Thus my whole world is black.Black to stay. Black for all that comes.

What Dollar Bill Are You?
You Are a Fifty Dollar Bill You're a bit rare these days, though people are aware of your existence. You are pretty powerful. You might not have what it takes to roll with the common twenties or the hoity-toity hundreds, but you have your own little niche going on. You like the finer things in life, but you also know how to keep your spending in check. You are the master of discount luxury. You like to pamper yourself, but you never go overboard. Some may consider you a big spender, but you know bigger spenders! What Dollar Bill Are You? Blogthings: 100's of Fun, Free Quizzes and 3 Stupid Ones

What Kind Of Brownie Are You?
You Are a Pot Brownie You're the kind of person who breaks all the rules. Pot in your brownie? Sure, why not. You are open-minded and willing to give most things a go. You want to avoid being stuck in a rut. You have an active imagination, and you're always dreaming up some sort of new scheme. Your live is a series of adventures, and you're always thinking of a new adventure before the current one is even over. What Kind of Brownie Are You? Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

I Need Some Me Time.
I spend so much of my life giving and doing for others that I am exhausted. I'd love to have a day in which I just kicked back, watched some TV, had someone bring me beer and food. If I can't find anything to watch then I want a strip show and a blowjob. What a perfect day!

Soft And Low.
Rolling stones shirt does not approve of your bullfuckery.But you're welcome to wear it while I reassess the position I've taken on the floor.How those glass candle holders got lodged in the wall, and how my blood got down here is beyond me.But I'm rolling with the punches.All forty six and twenty slaps with spare change in infinite threats and volumes of slander.Public private and intimate.If you told me where I'd be in two years, I figured this would've still been going on.Only, I'd have a bitchin beard. And you'd have nicer tits from bearing my first pair of twins.I'd still be afraid to write from my timid heart.And that eyetwitch would still be here.Never would've believed.This has been fun.We should reminisce more often.

The Right Way To Do It!!!!!
Its all about the sex.Getting in and out.Busting in and out.Screaming loud, Cussing words you've never heard before.Going into imaginary land.Feeling the highest state of ecstasy.The inner freak is coming out.Sex is what it's all about. No more hiding.Going hard, going deep.Constantly in and out.Slow and Quick. Soft and Violent.Open your mouth.Baby begging for anal.Too big, so use my finger.1 finger, 2 finger, 3? no more.She is a true nymph.nutting freely like a rain shower.Swallow some, swallow it all.Don't like to swallow? I'll clog the back your throat.Then you won't vomit!Choke you, romp you.Swing you over there.Have my way as always.No other way is best.Moans, groans, the only noises you make.Never-ending. Unable to stop.Loss of consciousness, out for the night.Sleeping deeply. She's gone.Turned her views, changed her ways.Come to my side. The good side.Reality you never knew existed.Next time, make it a threezie.Some for one, More for all!

What Kind Of First Name Do You Have?
You Have a Brilliant First Name You are a total brainiac who's very curious about the world. You are very interested in how things work. You are a bit of a made scientist and even maybe an inventor. You're always coming up with something new and interesting. And while you have a lot of mental strengths, you're also quite physical. You like to get out there and see the world. You love to travel, and you think that change can be very exciting. As long as you have the freedom to do what you want, you fit in anywhere. What Kind of First Name Do You Have? Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

What Does Your Favorite Month Say About You?
June Says That You Are Giving You are a warm person, but you never let your passions get the best of you. You are emotionally stable, and you are able to be generous to those around you. You especially love pets and children. You are a natural teacher and coach. Helping people comes naturally to you, and you always seem to know what someone else needs. You are highly emotional and sensitive, but you also have a thick skin. You can experience difficulty without letting it get to you. What Does Your Favorite Month Say About You? Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

My Ex
you know its funny and it makes me think alotyeah i know people iam stupidi have alot of feelings for this womanand its not all about looks its what she does and how she does things that made me fall so hard for heri told you she was married to a guy that she broke up with because she got scared of himshe ended up hurting him badly like she does with every guy it seems likeshe told me upfront she might still be married but she did not know for surewell she was planing to see me in nov 22 my birthdaybut she never came she decided to see me on nov 28we connected like old times holding hands me paying for a dinner that was way to muchit took alot of out of credit card that i did have but i did not complainthen after dinner we went to a ice cream placce again i paid i ended up letting her eat itthen we went someone to get something to drink captain morgan spice rumthen we went back to my place she told me again she loved meand she wanted my baby still of all things like i dumbass i got hoo

Lil Lost Petunia Parched (carmen's Story) Was A Comment That Went Waaaaay Over The 2000-character Limit So It's Found A Home Here.
Waitress: Ma'am? ur drinks on its way. So it'll be here in a minute, ok? Enjoy your stay at Rack & Pinion Cafe & Lounge & Bar & Grill...but the lone drink never made it to her designated consumer, it was DRINKNAPPED! (DU-DU-DUUUUU!)... lil Petunia Parched, a sweet lil martini with a splash of vermouth to make your head swim (like !BINGO-BANGO! swim) [Disclaimer: do not try this drink without a spotter or some form of (CONSCIOUS) adult supervision...you've been DISCLAIMER-PROOFED! (DU-DU-DUUUUU!] ...some nadbangin' twitmelon had stolen poor lil Petunia Parched from a waitress tray at 7:45, Carmen was expecting lil Petunia no later than 8:03, 8:06 at the latest, so Carmen became alarmed and texted the hotline for lost & stolen beverages (except baby bottles and sip-ups, cuz, well, kids need to learn responsibility for their own drinks - training for when they're old enough to buy drinks for friends BUT PLEASE STOP INTERRUPTING! thank you, may i continue now? ya sure? cuz YOU can finis

What Is A Women ?????
You know some times I am ashameed of being a man when I look at just how bad we treat women in todays socity its a crying shame for women are above all equal to us in all ways and some times i fee they are better,I mean we use them for sex toys ,cooks maids and sometime the punching bag,and no matter how we treat them they are always there for us,hell even mens so called best friends the dog will run away if misstreated but I have seen to many time a woman forgive and forget what a man dose to them but just try asking a man to do that,and you would have thanked that you started worlrd war 3 he's right cause hes the master and lord and what dose a bitch know anyway ; hell bros yall need to recap your thinking for your so called bestfriends the dog is the bitch and they left you for mistreating them.and you can keep pushing your women folk to and they to will abandon you,then what the kids next...you know whats going to happen as well as i do sooner or latter women are going to have c

Eric Woolfson
BERLIN (AP) — An agent says Eric Woolfson, co-founder of the 1970s British progressive rock group Alan Parsons Project, known for the hits "Eye in the Sky" and "Don't Answer Me," has died of cancer. He was 64. Gallissas Theaterverlag, a company that represented Woolfson in Germany, said Thursday the musician died this week in London. Woolfson's Web site said he died early Wednesday.Woolfson was born March 18, 1945, in Glasgow, Scotland. Together with Alan Parsons he founded the group, whose music was popular in the U.S. and Germany.After the group disbanded in the 1990s Woolfson continued to work as a music producer and composer of musicals. His musical "Edgar Allan Poe" is currently playing in Berlin.

Edward "umaga" Fatu
(CNN) -- Wrestler Edward Fatu, better known as the hulking, tattooed WWE superstar "Umaga," died Friday of a heart attack in a Houston, Texas, hospital, a family friend said. Born in American Samoa, Fatu, 36, was a member of the famous Anoa'i wrestling family, which includes cousin Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson, his two uncles, who wrestled as The Wild Samoans in the 1980s, and brothers, Sam "Tonga Kid" and Solofa Jr. "Rikishi," according to Wrestlers Rescue, a support group for retired professional wrestlers. The two-time WWE Intercontinental champion, also known as "The Samoan Bulldozer," squared off with the likes of Triple H, John Cena and Ric Flair before the WWE terminated his contract in June for having violated the WWE's Wellness Program and refusing to enter rehab, the WWE said on its site. The organization offered its condolences to his family in a brief statement on its site. To friends and family, Fatu was a devoted father who was looking forward to spending more time with

I Have Become Patrick Bateman (sans Body Count)....
I have all the characteristics of a human being: flesh, blood, skin, hair; but not a single, clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside of me and I don't know why. My nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days. I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip. Everything failed to subdue me. Soon everything seemed dull: another sunrise, the lives of heroes, falling in love, war, the discoveries people made about each other. The only thing that didn't bore me, obviously enough, was how much money Tim Price made, and yet in its obviousness it did. There wasn't a clear, identifiable emotion within me, except for greed and, possibly, total disgust. I had all the characteristics of a human being — flesh, blood, skin, hair — but my depersonalization was so intense, had gone so deep, that the normal ability to feel compassion had been eradicated, the victim of a slow, purposeful erasure.

Offer
I am unfit as a man let alone a Human Being if I cannot or refuse to offer my hand in Peace to Cheryl! I have done so. I'd rather be apart from her knowing that I did what was good in The Eyes of God instead of baseness on my own self a mere man. Three ways to define myself and two are already taken care of. One is that I will complete my donation this month to finish the year. I did not sware it but intended to carry it out. Two, Medicare assignment means something. If a physician or a hospital accepts it, that is all they receive from their patient along with the secondary if any. No secondary means that the patient is responsible for that part. To ask for more in payment beyond that is against Fedreal Laws. Politely I will remind someone but who knows he can't even read a medical report. Three, I guess Mr. Spitz and the IRS doesn't know when to stop or quit, giving me the upper hand. Again, politely but loudly I will let them know what this upper hand is. I have no problem to pur

Leaving Fu For A Lill While
Well I have made a choice to leave this place for awhile, at least until after the Holidays, Monday will be my last day on here until after the new year. I have got some things to sort out and get accomplished . I have made a choice to leave here for this duration, I will be back so don't forget about me, {haha} I will miss a lot of you, I have a very few on here that I have gotton close too, if you are close to me than you know who I am talking about. My children and myself are going to start a new project and it's going to take a great deal of my time, not to mention my work schedule is going to be hectic as well. So anyways, love me hard while I am here and dont forget me when I am gone, Love, peace and harmony to all who have made fu an experience I wont ever forget. As always, Lisa Ann Marie O'Bryan

The Type Of Woman Im Looking For
I am , writeing this because it seems people dont read profiles but say they do.and this caused a problenm yes a big one one were i wound up banding a person and i dont like doing that... ok folks I have said im not here for a hook up ,and really im not im here for fun and kicks,but yes I do flirt and carry on,I do have a way with words both with speaking and in writteing but because i flirt dont mean I want ti bed you or that im trying to get you as a girl friend....and if i was im sorry to say that it would be a woman im intrested in noi just a girle lol I have raised my kids anddont wish to raise any more the womaen that i do fall for will be mature in all ways..... For those of you that dont know me and most of you dont,and for those that think they do i forgive you.cause you dont, I am a normal man ,a human,that alone ought to tell any decent woman to run like hell and do not pass go and do not collect $200.00 lol...yes im a perve a shoveanistic sexest and a user in my own way s

Faces
I want to scream in your face put you in your place, see how it feels when you're all alone? Tearing you apart, all your precious dreams turn into silent screams. Worms'll tear you up, what's it like not having any luck? What will you do when I'm gone, When there's noone to finish your last song? Blood all over and noone to clean, what's it like when it's you who screams? You don't have control over me anymore, now you can't call me a whore Don't corne

Chapter Six: Plans
"A little to the left. No, my left! Ohh jeez, it's gonna fall!! For God's sake, go to your left!" A team of male humans were trying to place a mounted catapult down to provide perfect crossfire for the expected armies of Avari, and James was attempting to direct them. "Okay, okay, okay, for the last time, this is your left, this is your right!" "Why don't you just point us the right way? We never learned your funny directions." A big man with a gruff beard struggled to hold his portion of the load. "Okay, then take it that way!" James pointed to their right just for fun, and the entire team collapsed from exhaustion. James gave a laugh, and went to clear away the branches in front of the catapult so they wouldn't have to move it again. A short while later, the other catapult was set up to point in the same direction, and James imagined the piles of bodies that would soon pile up in front of them. That's when he noticed that Faust was behind him. "Oh, hello Master! How has it been o

So Yeah Being A Daddy Is
THE GREATEST THING IN THE WORLD!!!!! My children made my day today.If only for the short time it was,they were AWESOME!!!They didnt fight.They showed manners.AND they made me feel like I was something.Good things dont ever last,so it ended eventually and they went back to being bratty,but for those couple of hours LIFE WAS GRAND. Weezy and I found ourselves with a little alone time tonight and let me tell you.I love my family and would not trade them for the world,but time with just her and I is a BLAST. I asked her what she wanted to do while it was us and she picked going for a walk to get coffee.No,I dont let my 6 yr old drink coffee,but she knows if I get one she gets a cookie or something of sorts.What got me was that she wanted to WALK there,And it was EVERYTHING I hoped it would be.Weezy is not normal most people would think,but she is definitely my kinda beautiful.Never in my life did I think something as small as her wanting to hold my hand would make me the happiest m

Our Troops
This is my first blog ever so maybe it want be a disaster. I wass just thinking about te country we live in and all the laws I don't like, all the things that our goverment does that I don't agree with or just dislike. Then I started thinking about the things that make this a great coutry to live in and to be proud of. And the number one thing I thought was our troops in the armed forces. You know our troops are some of least selfish people in the world, they are out there ready and prepared to take a stand and fight for me and you. So that we can live in this free and democratic society that we call America. And it is not because anyone makes them, they volunteer for this. They take a stand for something that they feel is right. I blive anyone in the armed forces is a true hero and deserves more support than they are given. We have allowed our country to go to shit. This is the country that they are fighjting and dieing to protect. I'm not dishing the president but he d

About Me By Me
I do not define myself by how many road have appeared in my path. I define myself by the courage I've found to forge new roads. I do not define myself by how many disappoinments I've faced. I define myself by the forgiveness and the faith I have found to begin again. I do not define myself by how long a relationship lasted. I define myself by how much I have loved, and been willing to love again. I donot define myself by how many times I have been knocked down. I define myself by by how many times I have struggled to me feet. I amnot my pain-- I am not my past. I am that which has emerged from the fire. I say what I mean and I mean what I say. If you are easily offended, I am not the one. I have no filter for my brain; what goes thru my mind--comes out my mouth. I don't intentionally hurt anyone, but I have no control over anyone's perception/perspective. I don't 'want' to control anyone else; I have enough to deal with controlling myself. I am Spirited, independent, unpredictable, di

Christmas Bell
Someone took a lot of time setting up this message. THE BELL I KNOW WHO I AMI am God's child (John 1:12)I am Christ's friend (John 15:15 )I am united with the Lord (1 Cor. 6:17)I am bought with a price (1 Cor 6:19-20)I am a saint (set apart for God). (Eph. 1:1)I am a personal witness of Christ. (Acts 1:8)I am the salt & light of the earth (Matt 5:13-14)I am a member of the body of Christ (1 Cor 12:27)I am free forever from condemnation ( Rom. 8: 1-2)I am a citizen of Heaven. I am significant (Phil 3 :20)I am free from any charge against me (Rom. 8:31 -34)I am a minister of reconciliation for God (2 Cor 5:17-21)I have access to God through the Holy Spirit (Eph. 2:18)I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realms (Eph. 2:6)I cannot be separated from the love of God (Rom 8:35-39)I am established, anointed, sealed by God (2 Cor 1:21-22 )I am assured all things work together for good (Rom. 8:28 )I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit (John 15:16 )I may approach God with freedom a

Pictionary
Come play pictionaryBad Habitz Style!Join us January 23rd, 10pm (est). Prizes will be awarded to the top 3 winners! Come play pictionaryBad Habitz Style!Join us January 23rd, 10pm (est). Prizes will be awarded to the top 3 winners!

Old New
The Eagles last, they mention Old Order and New Order. The Old Order will let go to The New Order. I laid in bed in silence this afternoon all closed up and thought what am I fighting? I do not wish to be here for the future. A passage from The Bible but more conventional. He or she who lays their hands on the plow and then looks back is unfit for The Kingdom. I was informed by The Order that in the future I will be required to define myself. This week I will define myself in three ways. The Order and TMO will be happy in how subtle I did it. Norio

Tears
If tears could build a stairway and thoughts a memory lane I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again No Farewell words were spoken No time to say good-bye You were gone before I knew it And only God knows why. My heart's still active in sadness And secret tears still flow What it meant to lose you No one can ever know. But now I know you want us To mourn for you no more To remember all the happy times Life still has much in store. Since you'll never be forgotten I pledge to you today A hallowed place within my heart Is where you'll always stay. God knows why, with chilling touch, Death gathers those we love so much, And what now seems so strange and dim, Will all be clear, when we meet Him. I Knew you for a Moment

Very, Very Scared, Upset And ........
this happened after I went to work this morning. we had a home invasion of sorts... Couple guys tried to get in from back and front of our house. Luckily my Dog (Cindy Lou) was here because she stopped the guy in back. Mom went out for morning cigarette and coffee. didnt see him in the back yard. Cindy Lou chased him and got a piece of him.... Dad went out front and the other guy fought with him. Mom came back in with the dog. Dad was screaming and fighting. the dog went after that guy and mom dialed 911.... My dog is ok after being kicked ... My dad is not all that ok. hes in the hospital after fighting this guy. hit over the head with something and cuts / bruises.... Im so upset right now because the police never notified me until hours later before I left work.. I got home and began writing this.... Now im more pissed off at the police and these 2 idiots who tried or did hurt my family. before coming home I went to the Hospital for Mom and see how dad was doing... I

How To Build A Solar Water Heater
Learn how to build a solar water heater and cut down on your overall power usage. You can build a system that heats on demand, or just hook your existing electric hot water system up to a homemade solar panel and some batteries. Click here to read more - DIY Solar Water Heater and How To Build a Solar Water Heater One of the main components of the solar hot water heater is the solar collector. This collector is usually a box like fixture with the water lines running through it. A plate painted black at the bottom of the box would absorb the suns energy and heat up, the box would have a glass cover that would act like the cars windows and intensify and hold the energy inside. A solar hot water heater that is located on the roof. It's basically a large light collector with tubes running over it. Depending on the temperature, water will run through these tubes to get heated up, and circulated back to a large tank or even back to an existing electric boiler. The idea is that the boiler w

Avatar Policy Enforcement Update
From the desk of Scrapper: We have been very cool with everyone about our new avatar policy and enforcing it. The majority of users are cool with it and have rocked on. There are still people who are playing musical avatars and blatantly disregarding the policy. As of today, we will be strictly enforcing the policy.1. Any one blatantly violating the policy will have their photos flagged and they will NOT be removed. We have a special note on photos that shows us if it was flagged as an avatar. If it was, you will NOT get the flag removed.2. If you want to complain about the policy, do it to a friend. The majority of our users are very happy and supportive. If you are going to be a negative nancy about it and have nothing nice to say, my only response to you is--Don't log in if you do not like our site.3. If you are one of those people who try and justify your avatar abuse with conspiracy theories pointing to other users who are getting away with it, rest at ease....the people wh

You
its been a long time since i've stared into your eyes i miss everything bout your taste the way you make me feel i hate to leave town and blow like joe but its my job to take care of you and support you in everything you do but i love when you call i get tingles down my spine i shiver with pleasure when i hear your voice only choice in my life to make is you

All Your Lies
You Promised That You'd Walk With MeBut Now I'm All Alone (LIES!)One Set of Footprints In The Sand (LIES!)You Never Carried Me Home (ALL YOUR LIES!)All Your Lies!All Your Lies!All Your Lies!There Are No Words To Express My HatredFor Your Lord And Your God That You Hold So SacredYou've Wasted Your So Called Faith In LiesWhen You're Down In Life Is He Really By Your Side? No!The Man Upstairs Don't Give A Fuck About YouWhy Rely On A Fraud I'm Just Speaking The TruthBest Believe I've Been Through Anguish Sorry And DefeatYou Promised If I Followed That You'd Always Walk With Me, Huh?But Where The Fuck Were You When I Was Suffering?Face Down Deep In Shit You Never Once Saved MeAnd So I Blaspheme Your Name Every Chance That I GetDeny Christ, Burn A Church Because I DisrespectThe Holy, The Blessed Ones And The Feeble MindedCause Their Eyes Are Open Wide But Yet So BlindedThey Ignited The Fire That Burns Deep Inside of MeSo I Deny Your Fuckin' Heaven And Forever BlasphemeYou Promised That You'd

Dream'n
Out in the dark night I look up aboveMoon so beautiful I think about loveHow grand it would be if you could just seeThe sight above and be standing here with meMy arm around you an your soft hand in mineI'd be just like heaven at least in my mindBut miles apart each other we may never seeSo I look at he moon and dream of what could becurt

Stolen From That Tramp With The "down" Syndrome.
10 things you hate about me. 10 things I hate about you created @ 2009-12-05 11:51:41 Name 10 things you hate about me and I will return the favor. Ready? Set.. Go! fuck yourself.

2 Minute Microwave Fudge
Ingredients 1 pound of powdered sugar 1/2 cup cocoa 1/4 teaspoon salt 1/4 cup milk 1 Tablespoon vanilla extract 1/4 pound butter/margarine 1 cup chopped nuts Directions Mix all dry ingredients together in a 8x8 inch microwave safe pan (important to use this size pan). Add milk and vanilla extract. Place chunk of butter/margarine in center ( leave butter as whole do not chop up). Microwave on high for 2 minutes until bottom of dish feels warm. Stir vigorously and blend in chopped nuts. Put in mold or whatever and chill for 1 hour. * Use real butter for best results.

The End Of Days
Hear the wail of a million demonsLate night an angels are scream'nNight so black can't see'm come'nhear'm march'n to the devils drum'nAngel's army try'n to respondNo time left waited to longflash'a fire hell opens the gateya want'a pray but its way to latetemperature sores even ocean’s steam'nfirestorm an now you can see'm60000 wide they keep a come'nkeep'n in step with the evil drum'nearth a shake'n from all the pound'nya have hope ya see the angels come'nAngels battle no chance to winworld's lived much to long in sinarmy's meet angle's cut downnothing left but a bloody groundlove's dead our souls a die'ndevil laughs n god's he's cry'ngod lost n he's left aloneno souls left he can call homeno souls left he can call homecurt

The Devil Came Calling
The Devil came callingOn a dark cold nightWe sat and there and talkedIn the campfires flickering lightThe air had a chillLike I’d had never felt beforeCause the Devil came callingTo settle up the scoreHe knows me wellAll bad things I’d doneHow I’m a friend of old DeathAn not much like anyoneSaid boy your times nearBest change your waysNext time I come callingWill be the end of your daysNot a visit like last timeYou came down to meYou’ll stay there foreverAll though eternityBeen there just one timeOnly insane can go an stand the painCold on the inside as fire sears your skinAbsence of love with nothing left to gainMoving like a pantherHe gets up to goStops in the shadowsLooked back to make sure I knowMy spine turns to iceSet shivering in fearSweat burns my eyesThe Devil is hereThe camp fire eruptsFlames fill the skyHell’s on earth this nightCan only scream or cryHe leaves as he cameStars return to the skyCool breeze clears the airI’m not ready to dieI

I See, I Feel
I see a line of cars and their all painted blackI see flowers and smell the smell of fresh turned earthI see the hot sun shine down on a small over dressed crowdI see sweat mix with tears from sad eyesI see the lid come down and then I"m aloneI see the darknessI see nothingI feel a rumbleI feel the earth ripped apartI feel the evil in this placeI feel the devil's hot breath on my faceI feel so cold insideI feel searing fleshI feel all love is no moreI feel forever curt

Alone In The Darkness
Listen to the Night HawkDive in the evening skyThe howl of a lonesome coyoteSuch a mournful cryWater running down a streamFighting rocks to get byEver looked up to the moonEver asked it whyTogether AloneLife is just survivingSuch a sad sad way to beAlone TogetherTogether AloneWind rustles through the treesGrass waving at my feetCloud drifts across the moonThe darkness happily I meetWalking down a lonesome trailThrough the trees I see the skyHappy for the darknessNo one can see me cryTogether AloneLife is just survivingSuch a sad sad way to beAlone TogetherTogether AloneIn love but not lovingA friend but not a mateMarried without a wifeStuck with my sad fateTrapped in my lifeWnata be wild and freeJust go on livingFeeling sorry for me curt

Avatar Policy Enforcement Update
We have been very cool with everyone about our new avatar policy and enforcing it. The majority of users are cool with it and have rocked on. There are still people who are playing musical avatars and blatantly disregarding the policy. As of today, we will be strictly enforcing the policy. 1. Any one blatantly violating the policy will have their photos flagged and they will NOT be removed. We have a special note on photos that shows us if it was flagged as an avatar. If it was, you will NOT get the flag removed. 2. If you want to complain about the policy, do it to a friend. The majority of our users are very happy and supportive. If you are going to be a negative nancy about it and have nothing nice to say, my only response to you is--Don't log in if you do not like our site. 3. If you are one of those people who try and justify your avatar abuse with conspiracy theories pointing to other users who are getting away with it, rest at ease....the people who are abusing it will get se

Events
You can now vote on which events you would love to see in Bad Habitz. Click Here to vote or submit your suggestions.Upcoming events and birthdays are now posted in the BHR Event Calendar. Don't forget to Sign up and add your birthday!

The Revolutionary £45m Film Made Using Mini Helicopters That Shows Life In The Oceans Like Never Before (repost)
These are the stunning images shot for an underwater film created using revolutionary technology. The film took four years to shoot and costing a staggering £45 million to produce. But it's easy to see why: 500 hours of unedited film were shot using remote-controlled mini helicopters, divers, hydrodynamic cameras dragged behind boats and top speeds, and carefully tied poles. Enlarge Just going for a little flight: A long-beaked dolphin is caught on camera by a mini helicopter as it leaps from the water in an unspecified location in one of the images from the film Enlarge Behind the scenes: A mini helicopter hovers above a whale during the four years of filming Enlarge Health and safety?: A diver moves carefully through a sea of jellyfish The film, Oceans for Pathi, is set to be launched next year. Cameras have penetrated shoal

Jaded
Where to start, or maybe its the end. Dont know. You go threw life always second guessing yourself. Trying to figure out the right way to go. Why is it no matter which way you go it always seems like your going in the wrong direction. So which one is the right way? Ive never know love so dont know what its like to lose it. Is this emptyness that im always feeling or is this how im supposed to spend my life. Always helping others, making sure they dont lose there love, but never seeing mine. How can i sit here and give others addvice about matters of the hart when it doesnt seem that i have one. Everyone around me seems to have found it if not right now at least once in there lives. I dont know. People tell me try hard, it will come. What ever im done trying. With every day i feel myself becoming more and more cold harted. I wouldnt say i was jaded because in order to be jaded you have to of gone threw something to put you there. Well i suppose im feel i have been jaded by life so guess

The Irish
If you have Irish friends and you're having a bit of a challenge understanding their ways, this little story might help. How to get to Heaven from Ireland(from a school master friend in Ireland ) I was testing children in my Dublin Sunday school class to see if they understood the concept of getting to heaven. I asked them, 'If I sold my house and my car, had a big garage sale and gave all my money to the church, would that get me into heaven?' 'NO!' the children answered. 'If I cleaned the church every day, mowed the garden, and kept everything tidy, would that get me into heaven?' Again, the answer was 'NO!' By now I was starting to smile. Well, then, if I was kind to animals and gave sweets to all the children, and loved my husband, would that get me into heaven?' Again, they all answered 'NO!'. I was just bursting with pride for them. I continued, ' Then how can I get into heaven?' A six year-old boy shouted out: " YUV GOTTA BE FOOKN' DEAD...."

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A guy traveling through Mexico on vacation lost his wallet and all of his identification. Cutting his trip short, he attempted to make his way home but was stopped by the U.S. Customs Agent at the border. "May I see your identification, please?" asked the agent. "I'm sorry, but I lost my wallet," replied the guy. "Sure buddy, I hear that every day. No ID, no entry," said the agent. "But I can prove I'm an American!" he exclaimed. "I have a picture of Ronald Reagan tattooed on one side of my butt and George Bush on the other." "This I gotta see," replied the agent. With that, the guy dropped his pants and showed the agent his behind. "By golly, you're right!" exclaimed the agent. "Have a safe trip back to Chicago ." "Thanks!" he said. "But how did you know I was from Chicago ?" The agent replied, "I recognized Obama in the middle."

"speak To Us Of Beauty."
"Speak to us of Beauty." Where shall you seek beauty, and how shall you find her unless she herself be your way and your guide? And how shall you speak of her except she be the weaver of your speech? The aggrieved and the injured say, "Beauty is kind and gentle. Like a young mother half-shy of her own glory she walks among us." And the passionate say, "Nay, beauty is a thing of might and dread. Like the tempest she shakes the earth beneath us and the sky above us." The tired and the weary say, "beauty is of soft whisperings. She speaks in our spirit. Her voice yields to our silences like a faint light that quivers in fear of the shadow." But the restless say, "We have heard her shouting among the mountains, And with her cries came the sound of hoofs, and the beating of wings and the roaring of lions." At night the watchmen of the city say, "Beauty shall rise with the dawn from the east." And at noontide the toilers and the wayfarers say, "we have seen her leaning over the e

In The Darkness Of The Void
Here I stand, alone. Forsaken.Nothing around to see, No one to turn to.Pitch black is all my straining eye can make out.Will it end? Will it go?Following the footsteps of the past, leading to the same result.Repeating the horrendous nightmare over and over again.Gaining hope and losing it quicker than the shot of a silver bullet.Silence and deadliness is everything. Get used to it.I keep following a false light I see in my head.It always ends up back where I started.I might as well sit here and stay.No use running aimlessly anymore.Too much hatred out there anyway.Full of death and spite.Sick of fabrications and deceptions.If you want something done f*cked up, leave it to a Human.So here I am, here I stay.Out of everybody's miserable ways.Stay away! Stay gone!And let me Rest In Peace.

Beautiful Eyes, Beautiful Face
Beautiful eyes, beautiful face,I'm shy to talk to you.You're the eagle I must watchNo matter what I do. You're the beauty, wild and free,The mistress of my eyes,Rolling through exultant air,Alone in pristine skies. I would take you for my ownCould I but have your wings,Could I but go where night beginsAnd frozen sunlight sings. Could I but have you for my love,How might we fly together!But I must watch you from belowAnd long for you forever.But I must be the one belowAnd long for you forever.

Smooth Criminal
As He Came Into The WindowIt Was The Sound Of A CrescendoHe Came Into Her ApartmentHe Left The Bloodstains On The CarpetShe Ran Underneath The TableHe Could See She Was UnableSo She Ran Into The BedroomShe Was Struck Down, It Was Her Doom Annie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK, AnnieAnnie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK, AnnieAnnie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK, AnnieAnnie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OK,Are You OK, Annie (Annie Are You OK)(Will You Tell Us That You're OK)(There's A Sign In The Window)(That He Struck You-A Crescendo Annie)(He Came Into Your Apartment)(He Left The Bloodstains On The Carpet)(Then You Ran Into The Bedroom)(You Were Struck Down)(It Was Your Doom) Annie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK AnnieAnnie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK AnnieAnnie Are You OKSo, Annie Are You OKAre You OK AnnieYou've Been Hit ByYou've Been hit ByA Smooth Criminal So They Came Into The OutwayIt Was Sunday-What A Black DayMouth To Mouth R

You Are Not Alone
Another day has goneI'm still all aloneHow could this beYou're not here with meYou never said goodbyeSomeone tell me whyDid you have to goAnd leave my world so cold Everyday I sit and ask myselfHow did love slip awaySomething whispers in my ear and saysThat you are not aloneFor I am here with youThough you're far awayI am here to stay But you are not aloneFor I am here with youThough we're far apartYou're always in my heartBut you are not alone 'Lone, 'loneWhy, 'lone Just the other nightI thought I heard you cryAsking me to comeAnd hold you in my armsI can hear your prayersYour burdens I will bearBut first I need your handThen forever can begin Everyday I sit and ask myselfHow did love slip awaySomething whispers in my ear and saysThat you are not aloneFor I am here with youThough you're far awayI am here to stay For you are not aloneFor I am here with youThough we're far apartYou're always in my heartFor you are not alone Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'And girl you kn

Random Thingies
Shit gets personal, are you ready?Depends on the circumstances.Cocaine, crack, heroin, oxy, acid, ecstasy, k, peyote, mushrooms, opium... How many have you done?3Does anyone not like you at the moment?Definately..I'd fart on them.When was the last time you got complimented, and what did they say?Just a few minutes ago..and nunyaHas anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?Yeah a fewDo you hate being home alone?I love it just not for prolonged periods.Plan on getting drunk or high tonight?I hate alcohol.Can you last in a relationship for 3 months?Been at it for a lot more than that.Do you hate it when people smoke around you?SometimesWould you be more likely to fail Science or Math?Math Have you kissed one person more than 20 times in 09?on the lips?Has anyone ever told you they liked you in a really sweet way?No not really..never actually.Are you under the influence of anything at the moment?CoffeeDo you REALLY love ALL your family?Not at all.Are you one of those people who

Man In The Mirror
I'm Gonna Make A Change, For Once In My Life It's Gonna Feel Real Good, Gonna Make A Difference Gonna Make It Right . . . As I, Turn Up The Collar On My Favourite Winter Coat This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind I See The Kids In The Street, With Not Enough To Eat Who Am I, To Be Blind? Pretending Not To See Their Needs A Summer's Disregard, A Broken Bottle Top And A One Man's Soul They Follow Each Other On The Wind Ya' Know 'Cause They Got Nowhere To Go That's Why I Want You To Know I'm Starting With The Man In The Mirror I'm Asking Him To Change His Ways And No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place (If You Wanna Make The World A Better Place) Take A Look At Yourself, And Then Make A Change (Take A Look At Yourself, And Then Make A Change) (Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na, Na Nah) I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish Kind Of Love It's Time That I Realize That There Are Some With No Home, Not A Nickel To Loan Could It Be Really Me, Pretending That They're Not A

Dear Santa
Dear Santa, I've written you for three years now asking for a fire truck. Please, I really really want a fire truck this year! Love, Joey Dear Joey, Let me make it up to you. Christmas Eve, while you sleep, I'm gonna torch your house. You'll have more fire trucks than you'll know what to do with. - Santa Dear Santa, I don't know if you can do this, but for Christmas, I'd like for my mommy and daddy to get back together. Please see what you can do. Love, Teddy Dear Teddy, What, and ruin that hot affair your dad's still having with the babysitter? He's banging her like a screen door in a hurricane, son! Let me get you some nice Legos instead. - Santa Dear Santa, I left milk and cookies for you under the tree, and I left carrots for your reindeer outside the backdoor. Love, Susan Dear Susan, Milk gives me the shits and carrots make the reindeer fart in my face. You want to be a kiss-ass? Leave me a bottle of Jaegermeister and a couple of Cohibas! -Santa

If Only Dreams Could Come True
Tonight as I struggle to sleepAll I can do is think of youWanting to hold you in my armsAnd make sweet love to you.Tears slowly cloud my worldAs I hold my pillow tightWishing you were beside meTo make things right.I cry myself to sleepHaving dreams of youYou lying beside meAnd cuddling me too.We looked into each other's eyesAnd that's all it tookA night of passionate loveWe could have wrote a book.I've never felt more lovedThan I did this one nightIt was just perfectAnd things felt so right.Then I felt my pillow dampThe tears had fell like rainI realized you weren't thereThen I felt the pain.Once again, Only a dreamThat had seemed so realThe tears now unbearableWill my Heart ever heal?

Leave Me Alone
Aaow!-Hoo Hoo! I Don't Care What You Talkin''Bout BabyI Don't Care What You SayDon't You Come Walkin'Beggin' Back MamaI Don't Care AnywayTime After Time I Gave You All Of My MoneyNo Excuses To MakeAin't No Mountain That ICan't Climb BabyAll Is Going My Way ('Cause There's A Time WhenYou're Right)(And You Know You MustFight)Who's Laughing Baby, Don'tYou Know(And There's The Choice ThatWe Make)(And This Choice You WillTake)Who's Laughin' Baby So Just Leave Me AloneLeave Me Alone(Leave Me Alone)(Leave Me Alone)Leave Me Alone(Leave Me Alone)(Leave Me Alone)(Leave Me Alone)Leave Me Alone-Stop It!Just Stop Doggin' Me Around(Just Stop Doggin' Me) There Was A Time I Used ToSay Girl I Need YouBut Who Is Sorry NowYou Really Hurt, You Used ToTake And Deceive MeNow Who Is Sorry NowYou Got A Way Of Making MeFeel So SorryI Found Out Right AwayDon't You Come Walkin'-Beggin' I Ain't Lovin' YouDon't You Get In My Way'Cause(There's A Time When You'reRight)(And You Know You MustFight)Who's Laughing B

Love Quotes
1. If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be. 2. If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back theyd never ask you to. 3. If you judge people, you have no time to love them. 4. Two souls with but a single thought, Two hearts that beat as one. 5. Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.

They Don't Care About Us
Skin head, dead headEverybody gone badSituation, aggravationEverybody allegationIn the suite, on the newsEverybody dog foodBang bang, shot deadEverybody's gone mad All I wanna say is thatThey don't really care about usAll I wanna say is thatThey don't really care about us Beat me, hate meYou can never break meWill me, thrill meYou can never kill meJew me, sue meEverybody do meKick me, kike meDon't you black or white me All I wanna say is thatThey don't really care about usAll I wanna say is thatThey don't really care about us Tell me what has become of my lifeI have a wife and two children who love meI am the victim of police brutality, nowI'm tired of bein' the victim of hateYou're rapin' me of my prideOh, for God's sakeI look to heaven to fulfill its prophecy...Set me free Skin head, dead headEverybody gone badtrepidation, speculationEverybody allegationIn the suite, on the newsEverybody dog foodblack man, black maleThrow your brother in jail All I wanna say is thatThey don't r

Flagpole Issues
SPECIAL EDITION, Dec 4, 2009Share this:Legion to support WWII veteran's fight for flagpole. `We will pay his legalbills if necessary,' says National Commander.WASHINGTON – The American Legion has joined the fight being waged by a Medal ofHonor recipient against a Virginia homeowner association's demands to remove aflagpole. Col. Van Barfoot, 90, a World War II and Vietnam veteran, was orderedby the Sussex Square Homeowner's Assocation to remove the flag pole from hisfront lawn after he flew the U.S. Flag on Labor Day and Veterans Day. Theassociation is claiming that the flag pole is not "aesthetically appropriate.""The association underestimated the fight left in this elderly veteran and nowthey have to contend with the determination and persistence of Col. Barfoot's2.5 million friends in The American Legion," said National Commander Clarence E.Hill. "Col. Barfoot has hired legal counsel. The American Legion is prepared tohelp with the expenses and fight these disgraceful actions

Need Someone Close To Brownsville Tx
I need a small bit of help. I'm trying to find someone who is in or near Brownsville Tx. Who can do me a HUGE favor. I didn't get to Philidelphia quick enough. So I either need to find someone in Brownsville or fly there myself. There will be reward for what I need done. I need some one with a camera to take some pictures for me. It will be easy and not hard to do. This means a lot to me. So if you know anyone who can help let me know.

Dixie
This is hard, so it's going to be short. Dixie died this morning. Whatever happened with the seizure yesterday just appeared to be too much for her body to handle. She just a took a few deep breaths when she layed down and just stopped breathing.

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Sounds Dirty...
10 Things that Sound Dirty at Christmas... 10. Did you get any under the tree? 9. I think your balls are hanging too low. 8. Check out Rudolph’s Honker! 7. Santa’s sack is really bulging. 6. Lift up the skirt so I can get a clean breath. 5. Did you get a piece of the fruitcake? 4. I love licking the end till it’s really sharp and pointy. 3. From here you can’t tell if they’re artificial or real. 2. Can I interest you in some dark meat? 1. To get it to stand up straight, try propping it against the wall.

Santa A Woman?
THE TOP 15 *OTHER* SIGNS SANTA CLAUSE IS ACTUALLY A WOMAN: 15. Santa *remembers* it’s Christmas. ‘Nuf said. 14. Reads children’s letters in office instead of in bathroom. 13. Never explains what exactly you did to deserve that coal in your stocking; if you have to ask, maybe that’s the problem! 12. Employs little people in a sweatshop and co-hosts TV talk show, “Regis and Santa Lee.” 11. Despite the closet full of red coats with big black belts, *still* insists she has nothing to wear on Christmas Eve. 10. “Mrs. Claus” wears work boots, has a crew cut, and drives a ‘68 El Camino. 9. A man simply would not care if you were naughty or nice. 8. Actually seems to shake like TWO bowls full of jelly. 7. Bowl full of jelly, my ass. It’s water retention. 6. Constantly whining about equality until it’s time to clean out the reindeer stalls. 5. Matching shoes and belt? Only a woman would accessorize a pantsuit like th

School 1959 Vs 2009
Scenario 1: Jack goes quail hunting before school and then pulls into the school parking lot with his shotgun in his truck's gun rack. 1959 - Vice Principal comes over, looks at Jack's shotgun, goes to his car and gets his shotgun to show Jack. 2009 - School goes into lock down, FBI called, Jack hauled off to jail and never sees his truck or gun again. Counselors called in for traumatized students and teachers. Scenario 2: Johnny and Mark get into a fist fight after school. 1959 - Crowd gathers. Mark wins. Johnny and Mark shake hands and end up buddies. 2009 - Police called and SWAT team arrives -- they arrest both Johnny and Mark.. They are both charged them with assault and both expelled even though Johnny started it. Scenario 3: Jeffrey will not be still in class, he disrupts other students. 1959 - Jeffrey sent to the Principal's office and given a good paddling by the Principal He then returns to class, sits still and does not disrupt class again. 2009

Pass A Smile
I smile when I am shy I smile when I want to cry I smile when I am sad I smile, when I just go mad I smile when I am envious I smile when I am very jealous I smile when I am happy I smile when I feel shaky I smile when I am emotional I also smile when I act abnormal I smile when I am overloaded I smile when I miss my beloved I smile when I think something I smile when I think just nothing Do you know why I am smiling? When I smile at you? Dear, I think it’s a very tough question I asked you! ! Never mind whatever be the reason behind my smile, Dear, just pass me a smile, at least I feel good for a while Missing the way you make me smile and brightens my day

5am Truth
Once again I am up at the ass crack of dawn,Letting my mind wonder through past events,present situations and what the future holds,as the T.V stops on this show Cheaters, In which I start laughing at the open intro just because the host reminds me of a nosey realative that is just to eager to get dirt on his uncle or step-father..Honestly as I watched the show simply because there was nothing else on at 5am I started to wonder why do these people cheat on their partners..Ive been cheated on twice before never wanted to know why just dropped it and left yet everytime I see it they always cheat lower.. They have this beautful/Handsome succseful, careing person at home and they get cought cheatin with the town skank..or on cheaters their cousin. It left me puzzled dose that mean most people have just become that greedy and have come to feel that they are intitled to whatever they want? I remember my grandfathers and other old schoolers teaching how to get a date, how to tre

George Carlin
Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate. A Message by George Carlin: The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years.

That Which Has Not Been Dealt
The truth of two hearts Spoken in the Darkened hoursBetween the meeting of Rise and SetStarlight carries all the UnsaidUntil all that is...existsfor what is not spokenmay never beand what has has always been What a bliss to lingeramongst the Known and Feltnot having to embracethat which has not been dealt

Betting Blood
I am somewhere between death and rebirthI am the one who took my last breathRefusing inhalationKnowing that I would encounter heavenOr you would stop me from ceasingBut you let me dwindleAnd I found no heavenWhen there was no body to house meAnd no world to surround meThere was nothing to distract meFrom the denials I have been embracingWhat a fool was IBetting blood on fairytale endingsI will renounce the brothers grimForget the words “happily ever after”Just breathe life back into meGrant me rebirthAnd for it I will never leapNot for the idealistic or the quixoticForever carrying my mistakeIn the breaths that I take

No Death Just Dying
I dreamt you died I was left standing, On every lie; My mind surrounded me With tangible pain; I dreamt… I wept, Wept ‘til I held no more Then the rain lent me its tears And for all the tears, I drowned No one else, just I When I awoke There was no death, Yours; nor mine But the tears lingered on my face And the pain lingered in my heart While you live and breathe I am dying under the weight of you and me

The You You've Always Been
Look in the mirror See the person you want to be Punch through, to the real you Ain't that a Bitch Let the blood trickle Carrying Heart's secrets Let them flow from you... cover you No skin to hide the you you've always been no way to get it back with in

Death Of An Egg
A friend and I sat on a wall Until one day he fell a great fall And I sat and watched As he cracked and broke Thinking how he’d laugh at the joke People came from far and they came from near They came from there and they came from here They gasped and they cried As they watched the men try And they tried, and tried, and tried But the glue wouldn’t stick And the pieces wouldn’t hold It was quite a disaster that did unfold Now I sit on the wall, and I cry and I pray ‘Cause I know that will be me someday I sit on the wall, and I cry and I pray Because I am wasting away Wasting away watching over your grave

Crumbs Of Love
maybe i'll love you tomorrow but tonight i'm letting you go i have been waiting these hours waiting for you to show but you havent, oh no you havent the chairs are off the floor and the bar is empty now i could wait some more but why, i'd still be alone i will walk the long way home being Gretal with crumbs of love praying they get eaten so i can never return maybe this love is a weed pull it and it will grow back but tonight i am going to pull it i dont want it i want to be alone no more ghosts just alone no more shadows just alone maybe i'll love you tomorrow but tonight i'm letting you go

Letter To My Soul Mate
I want you to know I haven't given up looking for you girl, I'll keep searching every town and city in the world. You're always there for me in the corners of my dreams, I don't know what to tell you cuz there are so many things. Maybe I could start off by saying that I'm trying hard, and on my road to becoming a man I've come really far. I'm glad your not here right now to see me this way, it's been nothing but hardships and heartbreak today. But I wont give up on turning my book to a new chapter, I'm searching my soul and digging up my own bright rapture. Because when I see you baby girl I know I better be smiling, otherwise I'll be missed in the crowed and lost in the filing. Until then I'm going to help people more like family and friends, I'm going to get stronger until I have unlimited strength to lend. I'll keep reading and writing, I'll keep singing and fighting, I'll keep loving and growing, so when you meet me you'll know me. So when you get this letter keep it close to yo

Westlife- I Want To Grow Old With You
Another day without your smile Another day just passes by But now I know how much it means For you to stay right here with me The time we spend apart will make our love grow stronger But it hurts so bad, I cant take it any longer I want to grow old with you I want to die lying in your arms I want to grow old with you I want to be looking in your eyes I want to be there for you sharing in everything you do I want to grow old with you A thousand miles between us now It causes me to wonder how Our love tonight remains so strong It makes our risk right all along The time we spend apart will make our love grow stronger But it hurts so bad, I cant take it any longer I want to grow old with you I want to die lying in your arms I want to grow old with you I want to be looking in your eyes I want to be there for you sharing in everything you do I want to grow old with you Things come and go I know but baby I believe Something strong burning between us makes it clear to me

You Know You Want One......
♥ CUSTOMIZED FOR YOU AND YOU ALONE♥ OK so we all see people that have awesome profiles or those cool name Tags on their pages.... and you think hey i like that i want one.. well come to me... I can make you what you want and how you want... or if you want give me the reigns to make you something awesome... And yes before you ask.. I do charge. But not really money, give me that fake shit.. the bucks - fubucks®. I dont ask for anything you have to pay real money for, all i ask for is fubucks and to pass the word around. This is my way of making money for spotlight and other free fu stuff without begging for it and you getting nothing out of it.. so if you want one my many customized pics and skins i can do or know someone who does - just hit me and let me know.. I am willing to negotiate [[to some extent - lol]].

Wicked
Yo chuck we got runnin in mixes and da headpfones Ha ah hahaha Wicked! Ha Ha! 1 2 3 and I come with the wicked style, and you know that I'm from the wicked crew, you act like you knew, but I got everybody jumping to the voodoo. You kickin' wicked rhymes, picket signs, me and my mob got a truck full of 9's. Play ya and I'll slay ya, I got thug-made dough by the hey-a. Ready to BUCK, BUCK, BUCK, but it's a must to DUCK, DUCK, DUCK, before I bust ya, looking for the one that did it, you want my vote, no you're never gonna get it, cause I'm the one with the tight mad skills, and I won't choke like the Buffalo Bills. Sittin' at the pad just chillin' Larry Parker just got 2 million, oh what a fucking feeling! That nigger done pass me the pill, and I slam dunk it like Shaquille O'Neal. Wicked, wreckin' baby I'll rock that test tube baby, take it... 'Cause I get Wicked! I told them not to keep on their fire Yes I Wicked! I told them not to keep on their fire Yes I Wicked! I told them not to

Triple Threat Brownies (repost)
September 7, 2009 Just about everyone I know loves brownies. They truly are the perfect treat, rich and dense, chocolatey and chewy. What’s not to love about a brownie? Some days, a plain old brownie is exactly what you need. Other days, you might want to live on the edge and try something new. Today? Today is the day you try something new. These brownies have a cream cheese frosting middle, a sprinkling of peanuts, and a topping of chocolate peanut butter rice krispies. Yum, right? You can start out with your favorite brownie recipe or you can be a cheater like me and just use a box mix. There are times when you want a delicious homemade brownie, but in this recipe the stuff from a box will work just fine. Bake your brownies according to your recipe (or box) and allow them to cool completely. Whip up some cream cheese frosting and spread it all over the top. I usually prefer buttercream frosting, but I was worried it would be way too sweet for this and I was probably

Good Ol' Homemade Brownies (repost)
October 15, 2009 This may be a cooking blog, but I find myself sharing some of my deepest, darkest secrets (never having tried oatmeal before, for instance) here. So far you all have accepted me and all the horrible things I’ve kept hidden for years and years. I can only hope that you will continue to stand by my side as I reveal this next bit of private information about myself. I prefer my brownies to be made from a box mix. I’m sorry, okay? It’s just who I am and I have to be me. Writing a cooking blog isn’t going to change who I am. It just won’t, okay? Except, well, I’ve recently discovered a brownie recipe so beautiful and delicious and rich and fudgy and chocolatey and oh goodness, I should just go ahead and admit it. I’m over the box mix brownies. No more, I say! No more! Just go ahead and scroll back up there and look at those brownies! So full of chocolate! So gooey! So fudgy and scrumptious! This recipe starts out by melti

Undo It
I should have known by the way you passed me byThere was something in your eyes and it wasn't rightI should have walked but I never had the chanceEverything got out of hand and I let it slideNow I only have myself to blame for falling for your stupid gamesI wish my life could be the way it was before I saw your faceYou stole my happy, you made me cryTook the lonely and took me for a rideAnd I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo itYou had my heart, now I want it backI'm starting to see everything you lackBoy, you blew it, you put me through itI wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo itNa, na, na, na, naNa, na, na, na, naNa, na, na, na, na, naNow your photos don't have a picture frameAnd I never say your name and I never willAnd all your things, well I threw them in the trashAnd I'm not even sadNow you only have yourself to blame for playing all those stupid gamesYou're always gonna be the same and, oh no, you'll never changeYou stole my happy, you made me cryTook the lonely and took me for a rideAnd I wanna u

Sometimes Even A Clown Cries
life is full of mysteries and wonder,but most of all its full of living,ive had a pretty good life i thought,until i met someone who made me realize that it wasnt over,but rather just beginning again,This woman filled my life with such joy,but also some sadness,but i never doubted that we would be together the rest of our lives,so my tears went from sadness,to happiness when we moved in together,thers nothing like hearing a little angel call you dad for the first time,or waking up to the love of your life telling you that she is the happiest woman in the world,for you being there.this week we put up our first tree together as a family,and i got to put on my wedding band,this week was the best week i have ever had,ive laughed and ive cried,but most of all i have lived,and i plan on laughing and crying with her for the rest of our lives his lips quiver at the thought of kissing hers,her legs weaken at the thought of his kiss,his arms stay strong at the thought of holding her,her heart r

Two Years Today!
It's been two years, That you have been gone, Today, It hurts me to think, That this morning,Two years ago was the last, Something i wish i could rewind, The lost, Gives me pain, Kills me day by day, In a way that i can't change, All i need, Is to see you and ask why Did you know, And why didn't you tell, I need you mama There is just so much, I can't say, All i can do is take everything day by day, One day i will See you again, We will reunite, With each other, Until that day, I love you Mama!!

Dirty Deeds And The Secret Of The Fool~by Jd
Herald me the fool, For unless im mistaken i am repeating this again, Just when i was in the processof rebulding my empire, Up in arms and im ready to walk away. Look at me as if you know my serect, Do you know whats its like to live self destructive everyday? I used to believe that i could push past the obvious, Obviously my heart is not allowing me to settle for second best. Looking through this hall of mirrors, Frantic now seems like i've searched eternity and im right back to square one, Climbing over these mentally made barriers, Somewhere in the rubble i muster up just enough self control. Standing on the peak of personification and realizing that i have let the "others" be in command for too long, My spirit is so far gone and im feeling weary, Listen to me screaming now, This will crash and burn with me just wait til i explode. Through this god awful conquest, You made me forget just whats its like to have a heart, Then the tides changed and some part of me drifte

Left Not Right
Lying here stripped On the floor, bare to the world all that I am instances of joy...instances of tears comfortably sickened by my own frustrations...pain...anxieties...passions... Feeling wanted Lost in a moment Gratitude for not being found.....out Trying so hard to make this last forever Biting my lip, making every breath count for something The yearning burns so wildly The earning makes me only want more than I have the imagination plays so many tricks on me And yet what would I do if it were real want it, need it, be it more Take it for every lil thing it was worth Use it up into oblivion....I cry out thinking of how wonderful it could be how wonderful it is I can not be broken down...and then I am and not just for a second...but for good and over and over again I survive the fear... the absolute disregard for my own self preservation and then everything comes to me in waves excitement, pleasure, action and reaction the storm of words brewing in my mi

No Runs, No Hits, No Errors....
The perfect breakfast: Stack of blueberry pancakes, bacon and some damn good coffee. The perfect date: Staying in with a movie you both love, snuggling under a blanket, some popcorn and wine, and forgetting about the movie before it's even half over, making a mess in every room in the house. The perfect kiss: Gently brushing your hair aside, caressing your face, kissing softly at first, sucking on your bottom lip as I pull away slightly, before kissing more deeply and parting your lips with my tongue as my hands move down to pull your hips in closer. Something like that. The perfect argument: Any argument with a person that isn't arrogant enough to think that they are right about everything. The perfect man/woman: Intelligent, a little geeky, pretty eyes, kissable lips, sexually adventurous, doesn't let me get away with anything, challenges me in every way. Awesome boobs, submissive personality and appreciation of buttsecks optional, but appreciated. The perfect shoe: Giant f

Broken
Broken created @ 2009-08-23 22:33:37 Her screams break the silence around her, But they are never heard by others. She lies in bed... her pillows collecting her tears. Her heart has been shattered..... Shattered by the one meant to protect it, To love it, to provide for it. The baby lays next to her sleeping peacefully.... Unaware that one of its' lifegivers has left it, And in that leaving has left wreckage and a void... She wonders what she did to deserve getting beaten, and cheated on.. As she thinks, the heart that was once whole, Becomes a briar patch of thorns which grows into a wall... Only one small hole remains for access to her heart... That hole is for her child. She grits her teeth hard and vows "Never again!" With that vow made, she moves on with her life, but...... Behind those thorns lives a woman beautiful, Filled with love screaming to get out. She ignores the screams coming from the woma

Single Moms R Sexy Too
HEY EVERYONE.....SINGLE MOMS R SEXY TOO IS RUNNING AUTOS...AS OF 11PM EASTERN TIME....SHE HAD 22 HRS LEFT....HIT HER UP AND SHOW HER LOVE WHILE EARNING URSELF SOME EXTRA POINTS Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄ƷSingle Moms R Sexy Too* 2nd Alarm Hottie@ fubar

Happy Stuffs
Lets do a stuff I love blog. I think this kinds blog encourages more comments. Just make a list of stuff that give you a heart on...Idk if this is even fun or whatever lol but who the fuck cares just do it. K so heres my lil list in no particular orderFamilyMy dogsFriendsNail polishGumToe socksScarvesCoke zeroMusicMoviesWinterThe darkWarm blankiesChai tea lattes Riddles/puzzlesJalapeno cheetos Lol ok it wasnt thaaat fun haha but it reminds me of good stuff and I like to be cheery during the holidayz dammit. Have fun with it or dont wtfever you wanna do

My Birthday
Sunday December 6th is my birthday . Can you help me celebrate it by helping me reach disciple ? That is my goal for my birthday . Well that and 1000 friends . But the level would be great !! Thank you for reading this .

Daddy It Hurts !!!!
ok in this blog im going to talk about something that is very hard for me to talk about cause yes its happen to me from the time i was 6 to 8 and beside bits and pieces of my story im going to use the lyerics of me and little andy from dolly parton and an pome by an unknown author...you know i try to be honest in all my writteings in these blogs someone asked me a question "what do you think about kids and haveing them in this time and age"? hmmmm this should be easy to answer but as i thought it become very difficult,becaue i go back to the time of my youth a time where a stpfater thought he was god and controller over me a time when i was physicaly menteally and sexually abused yes sexually abused by this man...and all the pysical and menteal therpy i had to go throug,well i answerd negativly to that question by saying " i dont want kids" and I thought that would be it but the question has hunted me alot sence so again i find my self excapeing through my writeing child abuse is a

Who Why What
Who is this telemitsu? Why would I say what I did to telemitsu? What did I say to telmitsu? Who placed the corpse of The Christ on my hospital side rail? Why would someone do so? What is the meaning behind it. Who wrapped me in cloth and blanket like a mummy? Why would someone wrap me like a mummy? What is the meaning behind that action? Who motivated me to leave like I did from the hospital? Why did I leave? What is all this about? Telemitsu will never look for me on the net. Why would I knowing this communicate to him, because he will get it third hand. What I said is we move forward. Corpse without the cross behind it is a warning just like the wrap like a mummy. It meant my death and to carry it out and hit the road as given to me. This is my past catching up to me as given to me by someone I gave a warning of death. Enemy is with you. Paid me back in full. Now I will pay her back in full. I have never laid an eye on her. It has been some time since then. She will use every decepti

Sup Homies Intoxication Is Back Yall
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Hunger
Always forward ------------------> What if there's a stop I'm dying to make? The push towards progress The push towards the elusive "goal" stifles me. I've never been good at multi-tasking I can't remember me and love you. I can't move forward and take in all the sites. I sit here on the beach and I am overwhelmed by how perfect this moment is. Just enough breeze to keep me company The waves rolling in slowly If I didn't come here with the muse, I might let the ocean talk me into bed. But I have words to write A neglected soul deep within my breast screaming, "What took you so long?" "What? You couldn't call ... you couldn't write?" I used to be afraid of being alone. I was afraid of what people would think. Now I am terrified to be surrounded by them. I cherish the moments alone with my thoughts. When I am surrounded I feel silenced. My words are not my own, but the ones carefully prescreened and approved for general audiences. I no longer worry about what others think - just you. So

At Least Ashley Didn't Kiss And Tell
I always liked Ashley Dupre because of her beauty and sexuality. But now I love how she utters the truth about women who have sex with celebs then sell their stories to the tabloids. Ashley has chided the mistresses of Tiger Wood for talking money and gifts from him then throw him under the bus for more doe. Then she asks, “And I was the hooker? At least I kept my mouth shut.” You tell em baby. Besides Ashley you’re way better looking then any of the babes Tiger chose. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2009/12/04/ashley-dupre-tigers-alleged-mistresses-hooker/?test=faces We don’t hook at BlastFM. We play the best music on the planet just for you. Besides we want you to listen and tell others about us. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

Vous êtes ... Je Serai ... Emsemble Nous
Vous êtes le soleil qui place mon âme sur le feu. Vous êtes la lune à qui je dis tous mes secrets. Vous êtes la mer qui porte mon coeur sur ses vagues. Je serai vos étoiles, brillant seulement pour toi. Je serai votre vin, remplissant votre bouche de baisers. Je serai votre nourriture, votre âme n'aurai jamais faim. Ensemble nous serons forts. Ensemble nous saurons le bonheur. Ensemble nous aurons l'amour.

Me? A Grown-up? Nah! - 12/4/09
ME? A GROWN-UP? NAH! Summers used to flow like molasses And try as they might, elders' forecasting of time's demise always fell on deaf ears. "It will not always be this way." "When you get older..." Was it jealousy? Envy perhaps? What was the trigger? They forgot that they too once wore bulletproof vests against the pelting of Father Time's seconds. Remember those seasons that stretched like taffy? Where September's freshly sharpened pencils took their time in mocking hopscotch freedoms? When do we stop just living our lives and start picking it apart like dissections in science class? I felt like I swallowed a jawbreaker when I first uttered these horrific words: "You will understand when you are older" Thank goodness the little girl that was me tagged me, told me I was "It" and ran away giggling. And in that moment I stopped the cycle. I may have become an adult but I will never be a stuffy old "grown-up" So there!

Please Read
Hello everyone! Im sorry it's taken me so long to get this up, as I know some of you have asked what's wrong?? It's been a long busy few days and very bad day for me! For those of you who don't know I moved to GA from TN. I gave up my life, job, home, friends and family to move to GA. The reason for that is because my fiances mother was diagnosed with stage 4 uterine cancer. As the doctors done test after test they also found it in her spine, lungs, and liver and other areas of the body. She was diagnosed in April of this year, she spent nearly a month in the hospital. Beginning in May she had radiation and ended June 9th or so. June 14th I began my journey of providing 24/7 care for her as I was in nursing in TN. She began chemo shortly thereafter. It's been very hard, challenging yet rewarding to do this. Do I regret it NOPE! Yes I get frustrated I'm 26 and basically have no life unless I basically tell someone look I need a break! Which isn't very often. Anyway, 2 weeks ago she

Wino Wisdom (repost Ii)
“I don’t hide inside the bottle. The bottle hides inside me.” Patrick M. slowly camouflaging a bottle of gin at the Lion’s Lair. “Why should I apologize? It was my beer!” Bessie after spilling her Sierra Nevada into Darius’ lap at Matty’s Corner, Black Rock, CT. “You know, man, some people may call you a stoner, but to me you’ll always be a drunk.” Mike L, 23, complimenting his buddy Duffy over a bottle of Windsor and bong loads in a California hotel room. “They treat me like a king in this bar, because I act like one.” Tony T., roughly 25 minutes before being “crowned” by the bartender and carried from the bar for helping himself to one of his minion’s beer at the Corner Bar, Newark, NJ. “Why you reading a book in a bar? That’s

Wino Wisdom (repost)
“I am standing. The room just turned sideways is all.” Mark pondering physics from the floor of an after-hours party. “Alcohol is the devil. Woo-hoo! I’m partying with the devil!” A rather scruffy-looking brute backsliding with the best of them at the Drunkard National Convention of ‘08. “You can get away with wearing just your underwear. You can get away with vomiting on yourself. You can even get away with screaming insane shit at me. But, for the love of Christ, not all three at the same time.” The most easygoing bartender on planet Earth laying down the law at the Troubadour Lounge. “Don’t you dare let me remember this. Ever.” Unnamed woman addressing a shot of bourbon before exiting the Lancer Lounge on the arm of very recent acquaintance of questionable quality. “Always fall to your left. Drinks, yours especially, are much less likely to suffer.” Sage advice from Irish Sean at the Good Time Saloon.

Her Greatest Need
Her greatest need Silently she kneels awaiting His arrival. Does He even realize her reason for survival? A gentle smile consumes her face. She knows the answer as his arms embrace. Lifting her from her place on the floor. A caress from His hand! Who could ask for more? A loving touch now, will only be brief. For the darkness in His eyes must be released. She knows by the look she sees on His face. She will submit to His will with beauty and grace. She wonders tonight what she will have to endure. But she knows the pleasure for both will be pure. Grabbing her hair with the tightest of grasps. She weakens from His touch as she softly gasps. Giving her very being over to Him. Knowing she must satisfy His every whim. Proudly she follows where He may lead. To give pleasure to Him is her greatest need. She feels a sting on her ass from His hand. Tears stream down, happy she is in His command.

Overheard Everywhere | Time
And, If You're at All Interested, Napoleon's in the Supply Closet. Employee #1: It's been such a slow day. I feel like I've been here forever.Employee #2: I know, right?Employee #1: How about you? Today been slow for you too?Employee #3: Nope. I discovered time travel.Hardware StoreAgoura Hills, California

Overheard Everywhere | Pole
...From the Sketchy Dude Gyrating Next to Me. Teen princess to another, in changing room: Oh my god, she's so trashy. Who would ask their friends to a a pole-dancing class there? The pole dancing studios I go to in the city are like sexy and hot. But at that one, I got carpet burn.Changing RoomsSydneyAustralia

My Life...
Been a while since I did a mumm. I been so busy lately..havn't talked to everyone about whats been going on. I been working a bunch lately..and just feel exhausted alot. Not feeling my best. So, beginning next year..I am gonna be getting checked out..blood work and all to see why so tired. Also..January 14th I will be getting a breast reduction due to back pain. I will not be on much during that time. I am hoping this will help me feel better some..since I been having alot of neck..back pain. Just letting all know what will be going on..why I am not on much lately.. or why I wont be on then. I hope no one will forget me..but alot have already. hugs..me

You Really Really Want To See Dont You ?
ok since my shoutbox has been blowing up and everyone wants family add this is what the rules are . If I want to add you ...I will. Since it is almost Xmas I am gonna offer this 1 time and 1 time only. If you want in my family you can email me an offer. I will take the best and most sincere offer in my email ONLY. Dont shoutbox me or leave it here. I may retract the offer if I change my mind and if I do so I will not accept your gift or whatever. I am not like these other girls who beg and ask for anything but if the offer makes me smile then you might just be part of my special friends. If you look I think I only have 3 in my family now and thats because I felt they were special enough to be there... these are my rules and I will not change for anyone.

Poetry Workshop 6/17/09
Windows to the soul Are they really? Do you ever question the validity of this well-worn cliché? Is it as easy to see as the colors and flecks? Or do the eyes require beams of light to unveil the sedimentary layers of truth? Ironic that this phrase gives any comfort at all. Such a desperate need to spelunker into the many caverns of other's emotions, while we still reach to close the blinds lest they see ours.

N Voluntary Muscular Contraction
A professor at MEMORIAL UNIVERSITY OF NEWFOUNDLAND, was giving a lecture on 'Involuntary Muscular Contractions' to his first year medical students.Realizing this was not the most riveting subject, the professor decided to lighten the mood slightly. He pointed to a young woman in the front row and said, 'Do you know what your asshole is doing while you're having an orgasm?' She replied, 'Probably deer hunting with his buddies.'

Awesome Song
(Verse 1)I wanted you to know That I love the way you laughI wanna hold you high and steal your pain …awayI keep your photographAnd I know it serves me wellI wanna hold you high and steal your pain[Seether & Amy Lee](Chorus 1)cause I'm broken when I'm lonesomeAnd I don't feel right when you're gone away[Seether](Bridge)You've gone awayYou don't feel me here....anymore[Amy Lee](Verse 2)The worst is over now And we can breathe againI wanna hold you high, you steal my pain awayThere's so much left to learnAnd no one left to fightI wanna hold you high and steal your pain[Seether & Amy Lee](Chorus 2)cause I'm broken when I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enoughcause I'm broken when I'm lonesomeAnd I don't feel right when you're gone away[Instruments][Seether & Amy Lee](Chorus 2)cause I'm broken when I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enoughcause I'm broken when I'm lonesomeAnd I don't feel right when you're gone away[Seether & Amy Lee](Chorus 1)cause I'm broken when

Skinny Chicks Vs Fat Chicks
why do all these skinny chicks keep being mean to these fat chicks, dony u skinny chicks understand a fat check can crush ur ass with a single ass cheek...or a body splash and u may be confined to a wheel chair for ever...im just saying.... never know when u gonna get crush by a fat chicks breast, or they may just decide to sufficate your litttle ass between they breast. ive seen it happen...skinny chick be walk down the block feeling good and all of a sudden some random fat chick made at the worl done grabbed on and using her for a toothpick, and done grabbed the other 2 or 3 in a head lock, and done killed them with her breast....only survivor be the chick that got used as a toothpick...just saying ...be carefull.....

Forever And Always
when im with you eternity is a step away my love continues to grow with each passing day this treasure of love i cherish within my soul how much i love you youll never really know you bring a joy to my heart ive never felt before with each touch of your hand i love you more and more whenever we say goodbye whenever we part know i hold you dearly deep inside my heart so these seven words i pray you hold true forever and always i will love you

What I've Learned From Fubar...
Okay, counting all my accounts I have had on here in the past, my 2 year fu-versary (or whatever u call it) seems to be coming up pretty fast. I figured I would sit here and blog this as a retrospect on my time spent here, and compile a list of things I learned from fubar. 1. I am a male, yes, and therefore, I possess the wrong genitalia on fubar to have any crush(es). 2. People will go as low as to prositute themselves (i.e selling their Yahoo ID, cam sessions, and/or phone number for bling credits, VIP, or whatever intangible item Fubar has to offer), therefore making Baby J/Scrapper their pimps. 3. This website is like the neverending lunch period from hell in high school, where the MuMMers sit at one table, the loungers sit at another, and the attention mongers (keeping this sfw) are at the other lunch table, etc. etc. 4. As in number 3, in order to be accepted in any of these groups, you have to think of the prison mentality. Just think you have been incarcerated for a few

I Can't Take It...
ANYMORE! I have to vent! Our UPS guy is a PRICK! I'm a VERY nice person, I've been called adorable, lovely, sweet, personable, and DAMMIT people love me! But every time I see this guy, I say hello, he says nuthin, he throws the package near me, sometimes at my feet, or THINKS he knows where I will store the copy paper and he will bypass my desk and take it away from where I will be storing it!! I sign his little brown hand-held and say "Thank you.", just like everyone should do...silently the PRICK turns around and walks his ass out the door. U - U r a P - Prick S - Sir I'll tell ya what "Brown" can do for me...they can kiss my ass for putting up with the PRICK! Venting complete!

It's Our Party, And We'll Fight If We Want To.
My buddy, Dr. Kerdorkian, and myself wanna let off some steam, so we've decided to have a party/kick people's asses. We've compiled a small list of supplies we will need. If there's anything you folks would care to add to the list, to make this massacre, I mean, party, more enjoyable, please feel free. a wire wisk,a jump rope,boxing gloves, a tarp,a cool beer hat thingy,ooooh, a beer bong,batteries, assorted bags of chips, A SPELUNKING HELMET WITH RAD LIGHT ON IT, football cleats,a case of Mickeys big mouths 3 scarvesa weightlifting belta bag of flour4 eggsa case of .40 s&w ammorappelling gearbacona catmemory cardsabsinthea large bowla small bowla greased twister mathershey's chocolate syrup....

Worried
I found out when I got home from my morning class that my girl Boxer, Dixie, had a seizure. Anyone who knows how much I love my dogs knows how worried I am. Dad took her to the vet. She definaely didn't have a stroke, but the vet is sure she had a seizure when my dad told him what had happened. He took some bloodwork and will call us tomorrow. She won't lay down. She seems so lethargic, like she will end up sleeping on her feet. She's been pacing for over an hour already and that's just since I've been home.

Ever Slept With...
Two sailors on shore leave, walking down the street. They spot a beautiful blonde. First sailor asks his friend "Have you ever slept with a blonde?" Second sailor replies that he has. They walk on further and see an even more beautiful brunette. First Sailor: Have you ever slept with a brunette?" Second Sailor" Why yes, in fact I've slept with brunettes on many occasions" They walk on a little further, and see a gorgeous, voluptuous redhead. First Sailor:" Have you ever slept with a redhead then?" His companion looks at him and replies "Not a wink!"

Focus
As my focus changes this will become less. I have to see about this on again and off agaon surgery. Insurance tends to make some go on while others go out. Had I stayed that week end nothing would of happened. Maybe this week I would of made it home. By the looks of things I may have it done by the New Year but which New Year is not known. Joined The Order? Rosicrucain Order AMORC in San Jose, CA. No, I get nothing for it and mention me because they love me since I am so negative towards some of their behavior. Although they have been very polite to me and do not ask me for any money I still am hesitant to go beyond the mention of them here. Norio

Here Is What Is Up With Intoxication Lately
CLICK THE PICTURES AND JOIN IN ON THE PEOPLE AND TUNES INTOXICATION home of the INTOXICATION LOCALS and great parties and AWESOME people intoxication is a great place to hang out at... join the intoxication locals for all kinds of stuff... they love to drink and have fun play games.. talk about any thing you want and dance naked and all kinds of stuff so join them and party hard with us any day of the week just join up and rock out to the tunes of W.A.R. yall.... SPONCER RIGHTS join sandman and the rest of the homies at sponcer rights co owner of the station eric has it locked down with some good people ready for you to meet and make your new firends... join them right now! W.A.R. TAKING REQUESTS AND PLEASING THE LISTENERS

...........stuph
...my uncle passed away last night. I think it's something he wanted. He hasn't been healthy...every procedure he'd undergone to get better seemed to make something else work. I wasn't particularly close to him, so I'm not feeling all that sad. I do feel bad for my Aunt. He was all she had...no kids. I don't know why I'm sharing this...but I am. Got my car inspected this morning. Kicking myself for not doing it while I was on vacation. I don't know why I have to get a brand new car inspected every year. Well, I do...it's so the state can leech more money out of us without actually calling it a tax. Smooth. I understand the safety issues, but I've had this car 2 years and next year I'll be turning it in for another lease...I shouldn't need an inspection for a 2 year old car. Also picked up the Christmas cards and finished the last of my Christmas shopping (well, actually going to stores Christmas shopping...a few more online things to do). I got extra cards because I

Is It December?
Yes, it truly is December. I know this because everywhere I look is fake snow, bright baubles and scented shopping malls. I do love it though. Husband isn't a big Christmas fan, he has made it clear the tree can go up, but it mustn't get in the way of the flat screen telly and it better not flash too much, as that exacerbates his Aspergers Syndrome. I told him that him talking about the happy Christmas tree exacerbates my hormones and makes me feel like taking him straight to punchy town, he told me such a place didn't exist. I said it was a metaphor - he said he didn't like metaphors - I said "shut up or I will poke your eye with a Christmas bauble" it went on for ages, suffice to say I won and he dragged the tree from the cupboard with an annoyed face. Every year we go through the same crap. I don't want a gift as I don't need anything and I can buy stuff myself. He doesn't want anything as we can never get him what he wants (his own house with padded corners, a butler a

The Thought
The come hither look on her face Our naked bodies pressed in a long embrace Your skin soft under my finger tips Always wanting to kiss your lips Hands cuping your ample breasts Considering your body a beautiful quest Gripping all of your curves Time now to get rid of all your reserves Moving down to your most precious of parts Making love like sweethearts Spreading your legs inserting my tongue Moving around excitement has sprung

Happy Birthday To Humor, Hope, And Harper
I have written a lot in the annals of the Fubar Blog sector. I wrote it for me. Days pass and the things and moments and emotions that are so powerful pass too. "This too, shall pass" - is a phrase I am often told regarding hardships, sorrow, fear, doubt, pain and all the other things I might feel inclined to rant about, to shake a fist at, to stomp into the dusty road of my life. But it also holds true for those moments of laughter and pure joy that I swear I will never forget, but sometimes I might - sometimes I do. So I write it down for future review. I will print it out for my children and grandchildren, and great grandchildren and great great grandchildren to read. On December 4th, 2006 I wrote about a symphony. It was a metaphor for the magical moment of watching my grandson, Harper Wayne Gibson be born into the world. It was flowing with the energy of my daughter, Fae, laboring to bring her son into the world. Today is my grandson's third birthday. I have no address to send hi

Start Things Off For Now
I'm not sure what to write about in this blog.. I was thinking of it being a place to showcase my story idea's for my manga/anime titles that I'm working on. But then again I thought that this would be about my lyfe & intrests in all things like anime/manga, cosplay, going to con's, tech stuff, bdsm...sex etc.. Well I guess that I'll just use it by a post by post ideaboard on what ever is on my mind @ the moment. Masturbation" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xbayi8_masturbation-orgasm-y-clit-rubbing_sexy">Masturbation Orgasm ♥ Clit Rubbing #02Uploaded by aiho534caiho534c. - Find" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">http://www.dailymotion.com/us/channel/sexy">Find more steamy, sexy videos.

At Least One Will Make You Smile
You can't read this and stay in a bad mood 1. How Do You Catch a Unique Rabbit?Unique Up On It.2. How Do You Catch a Tame Rabbit?Tame Way, Unique Up On It.3. How Do Crazy People Go Through The Forest?They Take The Psycho Path! 4. How Do You Get Holy Water?You Boil The Hell Out Of It.5. What Do Fish Say When They Hit a Concrete Wall?Dam!6. What Do Eskimos Get From Sitting On The Ice too Long?Polaroid's !7. What Do You Call a Boomerang That Doesn't work?A Stick.8. What Do You Call Cheese That Isn't Yours?Nacho Cheese.9. What Do You Call Santa's Helpers?Subordinate Clauses.10. What Do You Call Four Bullfighters In Quicksand?Quattro Sinko..11. What Do You Get From a Pampered Cow?Spoiled Milk.12. What Do You Get When You Cross a Snowman With a Vampire?Frostbite.13. What Lies At The Bottom Of The Ocean And Twitches?A Nervous Wreck.14. What's The Difference Between Roast Beef And Pea Soup?Anyone Can Roast Beef.15. Where Do You Find a Dog With No Legs?Right Where You Left Him.16. Why Do Gori

I Have A Delemia
Was thinking of making this a mumm, but I need complete input ... Most now know, and how irritated I am about this. My status and icons don't work (grrrr) ... so the latest thing I am now being told is that Fu status isn't supported by FireFox (which is the browser that I adore using) now saying that, I am being told I need to change browers .... I refuse to use goggle, nor will I use IE .. I am thinking of opera. If someone knows of anything better I can use that would be wonderful. and PS ... I think I did misspell a few words but ... damn the spell check doesn't want work in the blogs either ...

Do You Every Ask Yourself Why? Here Is The Best Answer I Have Found!
Sometime we are rough around the edges cold and seemingly without purpose We question this we question that Not even knowing as a matter of fact As Our Lord and Savior sits back He watches with a keen compassionate eye As we go through life day by day wondering why ... Why the trials, the daily struggles we must endure heartaches , broken dreams and so much more Not now we say, no more no more Yet our growth comes from those very things that pull and tug at our very core Our finite minds unable to comprehend God has a road map for a better end So our impatience tries our very being leaving us without seeing A much brighter future He has stored up for our taking Here comes stress and discouragement filtering in Before we know it...here is an open door for Sin ... Yes anything that separates us from God and His Magnificent love for us is sin An important lesson God has layed before us Trust In Him and win ... Not in riches which are only temporal Not in material gain, for they collect du

The Ugly Truth
This is gonna be ugly people..Been up most of the night watching T.V..And I started wondering what Is wrong with our country our world even..Every commercial had a woman no bigger then a size 6 promoting some crazy makeup or weight lose product like it was the end all be all to be this one size or look this one way..I couldnt understand what made it so important to be such a "Barbie Doll".. When the average size for women in america is 14..Is that really wrong Is that really to big for mainstream america to handle.. In Africa the bigger the woman is the higher her social status is yet here the bigger the woman the lower she becomes.. Have Men truly become that shallow and retarded..to only see a size not a person..My grandfathers would be cussin was out if they saw how most of us treat these very smart and beautiful women because they didnt fit into social norms..I have to say that men have to start steppin up and actin like what we are..Men..I see alot of men on here with st

Husband Down
A husband and wife are shopping in their local Wal-Mart. The husband picks up a case of Budweiser and puts it in their cart. What do you think you're doing?' asks the wife. They're on sale, only $10 for 24 cans,' he replies. Put them back, we can't afford them,' demands the wife, and so they carry on shopping. A few aisles further on along the woman picks up a $20 jar of face cream and puts it in the basket. 'What do you think you're doing?' asks the husband. 'Its my face cream. It makes me look beautiful,' replies the wife. Her husband retorts: 'So does 24 cans of Budweiser and it's half the price.' On the PA system: 'Cleanup on aisle 25, we have a husband down.'

Activating Special Ability Bling From The New Bling Page
Many people are confused about activating special ability bling. 1. Go to your bling pagee. 2. Find the special ability bling that you want to activate. 3. Hover you mouse over the bling. 4. Look for the activate link and activate your bling. People have been confused about this new activation process. Please remind them to check the tool tip before assuming.

My First Words...
Plain and simple...This is just gonna be my rants and random thoughts about everything from things in my life to the random stupid shit I see in the news..Mybe one senctence or 3 pages never know my only advice is if you dont like what I write dont read it..If you have something worth saying then by all means say it love to hear other opinons on whatevers goin on.. other then that peace... ~Dan

All On How U Look At It
When you look at the world in a narrow way, how narrow it seems! When you look at it in a mean way, how mean it is! When you look at it selfishly, how selfish it is! But when you look at it in a broad, generous, friendly spirit, what wonderful people you find in it. Horace Rutledge

True, Or Not
There is no safe investment. To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket-safe, dark, motionless, airless-it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside of Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell. Jack Lewis (1898 - 1963)

I Gotta Remember To Read This Everyday
Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live; it is asking others to live as one wishes to live. And unselfishness is letting other people's lives alone, not interfering with them. Selfishness always aims at uniformity of type. Unselfishness recognizes infinite variety of type as a delightful thing, accepts it, acquiesces in it, enjoys it. Oscar Wilde (1854 - 1900)

Want You
i sit and watch you we talk almost every nite even in your druken stoper i cant shake you what has taken my brian if you would only open up to me you would see iam not like your ex i would love you hold you and cry with you it broke my heart to watch your pain last nite you stumble around the room i was feeling helpless i couldnt be there in case you got hurt i cried last nite and yes the words i said i meant even tho you cant seem to let me in i hope one day you can see me as a person you can like or love we talked about our kids last nite iam bloggin this to you so you can remeber even tho you probally wont remeber just always know that iam here for you no matter how far we are i will be there for you to cry to remeber your not alone in your pain you know my pain love ya queen

This Is So Typical, Yet A Complete Outrage.
Here's a story that caught my eye. See what you think. WWII vet fights homeowners group over Va. flagpole By ZINIE CHEN SAMPSON (AP) – 15 hours ago RICHMOND, Va. — One of the nation's oldest Medal of Honor winners was back in the fight Thursday, this time against a neighborhood association that wants him to take down a front-yard flagpole. Supporters, including a U.S. senator, have been falling in behind 90-year-old retired Army Col. Van T. Barfoot, a World War II veteran awarded the lofty Congressional honor for actions including standing up to three German tanks with a bazooka and stopping their advance. Barfoot put up the 21-foot flagpole in September in front of his suburban Richmond home. He raises the American flag daily at sunrise and retires it at sunset. "It's really ridiculous to want to keep the flag from being flown," he said in a telephone interview. "I've heard some terrible excuses out there." The Sussex Square homeowners' association says the flagpol

Making My Point
Yanno it feels good when you post comments in your status and it finally hits home with someone. Won't mention his name cause, I am not that low as to Center someone out. Since he's not the only one who used poor judgement. I have been posting status comments about men, for example: A man is not a man who stoops so low as to bash women. It is not funny nor is it amusing. He just shows his ignorance etc etc. Any how this dude didnt like what I had to say, yet in his blog he had the never to say all women were cough ..cock teasers more or less. Sooooooooooooooooo I just cut and pasted my status comment and well he didnt like it. And laffin believe it or not said, I was generalizing that all men. I said "see I proved my point didnt I"? you didnt like what I said, and I dont care for what you said. All men/women are not the same. Just because a few women may have screwed you over dont mean all will. Then he made a comment about me being a man hater..GAWD!!!! I am soooooooooo

Thoughts From Mind, Body And Soul
When the sound of your voice touches my soul, warms the very eden of my existance Eyes meet across a crowed room, smiles are shared, our skin radiates like the sun, as the passion builds from 2 souls becoming one... The touch of my hand to the small of your back, brushing your hair aside and a whisper in your ear...The hum of your surrondings turns you into putty in my hands..

Suffer Not That Which Fails To Live.
Doubt is a powerfull thing in everyones life. Doubt is an all consuming force that infects any and all human beings at some point. But how far can doubt be pushed upon you before you find yourself breaking. How long till you need something drastic just to prove you are still capable of making it though the day? It does not take like for the soul to become over burden with the plauges of doubt and sorrow. Some get to a point where they can not be saved, some can not reach out to another human because no one can know that they suffer. I am an isolated being and even now I have my doubts as do we all. Some of the people closest to me couldn't even begin to tell you of things I've seen of things I've suffered. I long ago decided that at the end of the day no matter what you will be alone to face that which plauges you. I did what everyone else has I tried to reach out but ever did I fail to actually grasp onto this "hope" that everyone else seems to have. What do I like I ask myself agai

Rate And Re Rate Please
Morning everyone can ya all help out my Fu Owner he could use it!! All you gota do is rate this pic for him and re rate it if you have already done so!!!! Thanks in advance http://fubar.com/photo.php?u=2183445&albumid=1924716&i=4200997077&idx=0

Tgiff!!
Yes, I said TGIFF. Thank God It's Fucking Friday! This week went by quickly but had some snags. My fucking health insc is trying to say they're not going to cover my surgery (from back in Oct.) without a referral from my primary doctor. But I have yet to even SEE my primary because I was put on an 8 week waiting list. Besides, it was emergency surgery. It had to be done to save my fucking life. Why the hell do you need a referral for something that's already been done and was a matter of life and death? Isn't that what the damn insc is for to begin with?? Ugh, some people. That's the fucking government for you. I still need a damn job. Every good prospect is 30 mins away meaning I'd have to take the commuter which = 15 bucks round trip. I'm starting to run out of things of value to sell. I wouldn't even BE in this situation if I wasn't so damn nice and actually made the ex pay what he should instead of the pathetic amount he does. WHEN he does. Bastard is over 200 bucks behind as

" I Am This Guy " ...
I’m the guy who will hold you close, not because your cold or shaking, but because he wants to be close to you.I’m the guy who loves to twirl you around into his arms anywhere and kisses you for no apparent reason other than loves you.I’m the guy who says, “Okay, what would you like to do tonight?” not because he wants to go to a game, but because he is interested in you and what you like.I’m the guy who would go anywhere with you, even to the opera or things thathe doesn’t like because he is spending time with you, and that is all he needs.I’m the guy that is cautious to give his heart, but when he does it is all for you and he would rather die then not be in your arms at night.I’m the guy who will bring you things for no special reason than he loves you.I’m the guy who will never give up hope, and no matter what will stay with you for eternity.I’m the guy who once is in love, will always love you and never will forget

Tired Of The Bs And Double Standards
wtf.... why's fubar being utterly stupid and gay all of a sudden? honestly don't care if I get deleted or not, where's the fun in this site nowadays anyway.... can't even rate someone without getting stupid ass rating too fast errors or invalid out of 11 errors (which is fuckin stupid cause I don't use 11's unless they're already activated on someone's profile AND still get that message even when they are), people gettin deleted for stupid shit, some accounts still making it passed 10 without a salute, TONS of profiles without a salute.....and to top it all off, I have a friend who had lots of her pics deleted INCLUDING her salute pic by someone in her family, gets back on fubar later that day and can't even get a single point until what? the bouncers say she posts a salute......... WTF? there's tons of people without salutes leveling up everyday so why should she be any different? very few on this site talk to me anymore anyway.... always try to start conversations with people when I

The Lies People Tell Themselfs Are Never Quite This Good
Nothing can make you Unbeautiful. Beautiful is a state of mind and a point of view. It is not something you can lose or misplace. You are beautiful for everything that makes you YOU and not just like someone else Dont EVER let ANYONE make you feel anything less than beautiful.... Beacause maybe its not you, maybe they have ugly eyesight.

Wierd Guy
Well this was a guy on "hotornot.com" if you are all familiar with it...but anyway...he said he wanted to meet me so I decided to send him a message...which simply said.. "How are you?"...and well this is what I get and it really makes me a bit queasy...but maybe it will make you laugh...Here it is copy and pasted exactly as he wrote it. "I am stuck at home with a chest infection and feeling all floaty, so feeling brave, or perhaps stupid would be a better description! I shall be upfront and honest from the start, best way to be. I am on here looking for a partner, but part of the reason I am doing so online is I have a quirk (or, kink, I guess, to be more accurate) that I want to explore but find difficult to bring up once I know someone or face-to-face early on. It is a little weird, but hey, life is too short to be too wound up about these things. So, please bear with me on this one and read it all and think about it before you consider running away from meHopefully we find each ot

I Want This Guy
I’m the guy who will hold you close, not because your cold or shaking, but because he wants to be close to you.I’m the guy who loves to twirl you around into his arms anywhere and kisses you for no apparent reason other than loves you.I’m the guy who says, “Okay, what would you like to do tonight?” not because he wants to go to a game, but because he is interested in you and what you like.I’m the guy who would go anywhere with you, even to the opera or things thathe doesn’t like because he is spending time with you, and that is all he needs.I’m the guy that is cautious to give his heart, but when he does it is all for you and he would rather die then not be in your arms at night.I’m the guy who will bring you things for no special reason than he loves you.I’m the guy who will never give up hope, and no matter what will stay with you for eternity.I’m the guy who once is in love, will always love you and never will forget

It Felt So Different This Time
I'm so sorry I involved you In this little quest of mine It's not your job to make me happy It felt so different this time. I may have seemed so critical, I expected far too much from you: It's not your fault I'm insufficient It felt so different this time. I married at least two women Whom I didn't like: I really thought That I could save them; It felt so different this time. There must be some fatal flaw in me, The pattern's there for all to see; But still I feel I really love you, It felt so different this time. Forgive me all my personal intrusions, If I must go, I understand, I'm sorry if your lifestyle this way moves you; It felt so different this time.

We Are Not The Same.
I see so many of them...these people who sing a song of sorrow yet always they try again they always welcome the destruction of there own immortal soul. I can not understand this driving force which makes people welcome this agony into life. I do not understand how people will open the gate way to the very core of there being to another just to have that person jade the purity that was once there. Is the idea of being alone truely so horriable to some? Is it truely so hard to be fine with yourself and no one else? I don't get how you can be so welcoming to destroying yourself and do not misjudge I know it works for some of you. I know some of you will find a happiness in another. But what of those who don't? What of us who choose to be alone? Those of us who consider our emotions to be nothing more than an error in our system, to be a disease upon the body? I find it funny how people don't consider that what they chase is not always love sometimes it is but attention you seek and hones

Lets Do Alittle Ranting... Just Alittle
Ok, been awhile since I ranted on anything so I'll update you on some shit that's got my brain of fire.One... Verizon is fucking scamming me like a politician scamming the American people. They nailed me with some bullshit charges and I'm fighting tooth and nail to get them to take that shit off my bill. I hate big business with a passion.I have tried to reason with them but it looks like I'll have to tell them to fuck off and not pay. So if anyone has tried to call my house number and got some recording that mostly tells you that its not working, you now know why.Two.... I really really am starting to feel that every woman I try to start a relationship with is either fucked in the head, or just fucking retarded. If I ever hear the phrase "Lets just be friends" I will go off and tell the dumb cum dumpster to fuck the friendship thing cuz why in the fucking hell would I be friends with a confused, immature, game loving cock tease? Lets either date or just let me blow a nut in your face

Uggs Boots Are For Everybody
Ugg boots are fast becoming a hot fashion item in the US and Canada, and for good reason. Ugg boots are wonderful Australian footwear that is making their presence felt in the worldwide fashion footwear arena.Uggs boots are what are known by some as sheepskin boots. These uggs have been made in Australia for tens if not hundreds of years, and are well known all over Australia. However now they are making an impact on foriegn markets.An Ugg boot is made from the skin of an Australian merino sheep most commonly. The wool part of the skin faces into the inside of the boot and so lies against the leg. This results in a warm soft feel to the boot that is found only from wearing Uggs boots. The Ugg is unique in the level of comfort it offers to the wearer, and devotees of Uggs will maintain tenaciously that Uggs are the most comfortable boot on planet, unsurpassed by any other form of footwear.

Hey Tiger... Sand Traps Suck!!!
I know by now alot of you out there have heard about this crap Tiger is going through. I know alot of you have their opinions about whether he cheated or not. And, I know alot of you out there are thinking exactly what I'm thinking.... Who the fuck cares!!! Yes, Tiger was an upstanding man in the golf world, and everyone thought he could do no wrong. Yes, Tiger is worth over a billion dollars, and yes he is hooked up to one hell of a hottie Elin Nordegren. Who most men would kill to be married to and, in between her legs nightly. But, really... is this really shocking to everyone? Are you telling me that your surprised to find another high paid athlete cheating on his hottie of a wife with a not so hot bitch who can't keep her two pole pleasers shut. I'm sorry to say but that really doesn't shock me one bit.. In fact I was waiting for this to happen. Again, only in America were there is no honor or loyalty, and if you got millions to throw around, hopeless women will throw there vagin

Giving Comments For Nsfw,its A Tricky One To Do Right!
Whenever I rate NSFW pics its hard to not to sound like some fuckin perv,honestly we all have a lil bit of it in us honestly. Yes I like to be straight up(lol)to the point and honestly forward with my words to every picture that caught my eye! What one woman likes another doesn't, rude crude nasty naughty dirty or filthy...soft sweet sexy sensual whatever I say just please remember If I ever cross that line,let me know I'll never do it again!

Before It Was All Said And Done~by Jd
Open your wings and consume me, Into the depths of your heart i travel. Feel me like a overwhelming drug in open veins, I am eternal and yet somehow abrasive to your inner soul. Stream line straight into your very being, We have come far enough to trangress all the usual fronts. At time we contemplate and realize we know only so much, Yet here we are standing face to face, Comfortably knowing just enough. Put me to sleep now, Rest your heart upon me and let me listen close, Irregular and somehow soothing to this constantly thoughtful mind. Listen with a whisper and shut your eyes, Taste the honey suckle trickle from your lips, Lost in the silence of the most monumental kiss, You are thou which i cannot resist. Touch the inner walls, You found the door that released my demons, They were locked away and i had lost the key, Until you reached inside me. All the imaginary voices seemed to be set silent and now a hearts filled with content, You have twisted the very h

New List For 12-04-09 (will Finish Later)
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Compassion
New York (CNN) -- Six months ago, a Long Island convenience store owner turned a would-be robbery into an act of compassion. On Wednesday, the shoplifter made amends with a $50 bill and a thank you letter for saving him from a life of crime. The story began in May 2009, when Mohammad Sohail of Shirley, New York, was closing his Shirley Express convenience store one night. Security camera footage from that evening shows a man wielding a baseball bat barging into the store and demanding money. Sohail had a rifle ready and quickly aimed it directly in the robber's face, forcing the man to drop the bat and lay on the ground. Unbeknownst to the man, Sohail never loads his gun. According to Sohail, the man immediately started to plead with him, tearfully saying, "I'm sorry, I have no food. I have no money. My whole family is hungry. Don't call the police. Don't shoot me." "When I see him starting crying [those] things, I really feel bad for him," said Sohail. "I say, oh man, this is some

Asylum
Asylum I giggle as I lay, The meds are taking effect. But as your sitting with me, I’m not far gone yet. You wanna hear a story, While your sitting in the corner? About my good friend Dan, And how he met the coroner? Well I’m not sure how to start it, I don’t know where to begin. I hope your not religious, This tale is full of sin. You see I’d sit up straight, But I’m strapped on to the bed. They bound all of my limbs, And even bound my head. I guess that have a right to, After what I’ve done. But I’ll never say I’m sorry, Just because I won. You see Dan wasn’t smart, He went after my life. My lover and my master, He stabbed him with a knife. A dirty trick it was, It wasn’t fair you see. But as I sat there crying, Something snapped in me. Oh look at me rambling, You look kinda scared. Don’t worry I won’t hurt you, But then again who cares? I remember how blood sprays, The first time that you slice. And how it slows

The Tart
I can't recall the last time I ate...today? I probably lied to someone about that. I can recall the last time I felt pain...mental and physical......that was tonight. Though no one wants to know the true person inside. They avoid the pain, the despair...they just want the happiness and the points....the fucking points! LOL I AM NOT POINTS!!!!!!!!!! I AM FUCKED UP JUST LIKE YOU! I JUST DO NOT PRETEND TO BE SANE!!!!!!!!!!! None of us are...Just a few are more than others. I drink...a lot....I sleep nude...a lot...I cry....sometimes...I love...to goddamn much! I am HUMAN! I am me. Love me or leave me....I refuse to be anything but what I am...a sorry fucked up soul that craves love. That is the TART!!!!!!! PEACE

To Whomever Cares....
After an extensive stay in the hospital I am finally home, was eager to return to a normal life and touch base with everyone only to come back and find that those who I thought were true to the core werent...I've learned so much in the past week...about myself, life, and others...Should I apologize? If I do what do I apologize for? For being severly ill to the point of being placed in ICU for a few weeks? For not having any outside contact other than close family members? You tell me...I am back..for how long I do not know....as far as FuBar goes probably not very much longer...as far as my time here...thats up to the man upstairs....I would like to thank those that have been true to me...I love you all very much and while I know its hard and sad to go...I feel it may be for the best and for me to spend my time with family...I thank you all and love you all very much!

Finally Ok In My Own Skin.....
Ok so I am finally starting to go through my divorce 2 yrs later. I am living in Wisconsin with some family to get my life back on track. I am finally ok with the fact that the ex husband left me and has moved on to be with someone else. I am finally ok with who I am and dont really care what anyone else thinks of me. To be in this place in my life feels so good. I have found God and can hope that that works out. Just cant wait to see wht else is in store for me in life.... Love ya Nikkie Hugs&Kisses

Not Sure What
lost in my own world of memories, wishin i would jus drownd. there not toturous. there not terrifying. there memories of things good, dead and gone in my past. memories i would prefer to shed away. let them die, lyk there killin me away. i dare not put them away. for this must never be done they say. there movin in, there here to stay. not sure how to act. lyk a war goin off inside my head. good and evil gettin ransacked deep inside of me. the blood oh so good runnin down the sides of my head. theyve broken free, destruction, devastation at all costs.

What Was The Point Of Lex Luthor?
“A human being who dared to challenge a god, he was surely the greatest of his kind. I often look back upon those days and wonder what he might have accomplished without me. The triumphs he might have achieved in the name of his species. Perhaps he existed to keep me in check or, as someone once hypothesized, perhaps it was the other way around. This is why he despised me so.” Superman’s arch-enemy inspires equal resentment on Superman’s part, but I have no doubt it’s tinged with a grudging respect for all one man with what seems like all the cards stacked against him is able to accomplish. It seems it is just Superman whom Luthor wants to beat down, not the entire human race. The excerpt above comes from an alternate history of Superman, the graphic novel “Superman: Red Son” (ISBN 9781401201913) that posits what would happen in the champion of “truth, justice, and the American way” had instead landed in the Soviet Union

Alone In This Bed
Waking up without you It doesn't feel right To sleep with only memories It's harder every night Sometimes I think I can feel you breathing on my neck Tonight I'm reaching out to the stars I think that he owes me a favor It doesn't matter where you are I'll hold you again I wish I could hear your voice And don't leave me alone in this bed I wish I could touch you once more And don't leave me alone in this bed Not tonight, not tomorrow I've got the feeling that this will never cease Living in these pictures It never comes with ease I swear that if I could make this right You'd be back by now Tonight I'm screaming out to the stars He knows he owes me a favor It doesn't matter where you are You'll be mine again I wish I can hear your voice And don't leave me alone in this bed I wish I could touch you once more And don't leave me alone in this bed What about the plans that we had We'd been crazy not to go Meet me in capeside I wish I can hear your voice And don't leave me alone in this bed

When Miscomunications Make Ur Week
so on facebook i jokingly engaged my friend cole.... for some reason this girl from my highschool saw it and felt she needed to verbaly bash me for being engaged. im been out of highschool for 2 years and have not once spoken to this girl since. so the idea that my life can mean so much to her completly suprized me. for some reason she felt she had to tell me how fat and ugly i was, how im a horid person whos addicted to drugs and my "husband" must be blind or retarted. so i did what any other person in my mental state would do.... take pics on myself on photobooth and put them up lol. this is were it gets good. for some reason i got just a blast of people from my past telling me how good i look and that was enough for me to be satisfied. yet its not over the next day i get some really inteligent guy who isnt to bad lookkin sit next to me in my class and just have a beutifall conversation with. wile im leaving class i meet to of my best friends walking on the street. so after all thi

The Metropole
Ok the time has come my new lounge has come I still have allot more to do yet but it's comming along pretty well. but I will announce the grand opening shortly but I still want everyone to come in and relaxe chill and have a few drinks just exuse the construction process it will be better here is the link so you can stop in and check it out http://www.fubar.com/lounge/69955

The Stranger
Questions go unanswered I think to much they say Feels as if my heart is dead already Like everything was taken away I want to cry But I hold back the tears Cause I never can voice my opinion Even when I do It falls on cold deaf ears I'm the stranger you once fell in love with I'm the stranger that thinks to fucking much

Definition Of True Love...
What is you definition of true love? True love is when you put your partner's interests above your own. It is when you will do anything the see them happy, even things that may go against what you believe. It is called sacrifice and true love is nothing without it. PLEASCOMMENT YOUR THOUGHTS ON IT! :) I THINK I PRETTY MUCH SUMMED IT UP THOUGH, BUT I WANT TO HEAR WHAT YOUR THOUGHTS ARE!

Itchy Balls
Television is a fixture in my life that compares to no other. Its like an old internet.. you ever wonder about all the information we wouldn't have known if it wasn't the TV. Think about where we were before TV... then think about how that had exponential decreased in purpose with the internet now. its crazy.. My basic enjoyment in my life for a few months was my ex girlfriend. When it was going good it was probably the best emotions I've ever had. Made going to the beach better, playing video games better, made going out to the mall better... how often do you go to the mall alone and see something funny but since you are alone its not as funny.. somebody to vibe off of..even if its a platonic relationship.. Now that this void I have in my life is there cause I don't have that best friend/girlfriend in my life I have attempted to fill it with my old friend television/internet. Then I remember all the reasons why I don't watch it anymore.. The oversaturation of reality TV aka

Oy Vey
Congratulations to the idiot of the week... Ross Carlton 14 hours ago behavior modification repot lol wtf no wonder colleg kids are so stupid teachin thim shit like that hay if you cant make somthin to sell thin your just makin up a job go be productiv WELL! I just I'm stupid then because I'm in college? I'm disappointed that he can't even seem to spell. Had he half a brain and spelled correctly I could have at least presumed he had a reason behind believing such a thing. tsk tsk... morons. Behavior Modification is actually part of your learning process to become a counselor, psychiatrist, psychologist or doctor of behavior. Sadly, I think you may need to visit one of the above and return to grade school to spell properly.

Irony
Ok so I'm watching the news which I rarely do these days because it's so filled with tabloid journalism that I can do without. What pops up is the growing "scandal" on climate change. I see daily postings on facebook about climategate ranting about sham this deception that and these people will finally get exposed. Me personally, I believe is global warming. Its crazy to sit and think that mankind can do what they please on this planet and have no ill effects. The same holds true for my views on evolution. I am a person of faith, but my faith does not lead me to ignore the fact that evolution happens everyday. To do so is ludicrous. So back to the story..lol. How was this critical information on the lies of Al Gore and other "liberals" found? It was hacked!! Hackers illegally went into computers and stole information. The keyword here is "illegally" because when I last checked hacking was a crime punishable by fines and prison sentences. So the people against global warmin

Last Poem From Jail
no title I sit here in this prison cell slowly drift into hell The walls of stone and gates of steel how I wish I was not here These white washed walls and pale grey floors make me miss the great outdoors These guards in black with silver cuffs the always try to act real tough Little do they really know that we're the same down below To much time to sit and think of all my life both bad and great Had I not come here at all I don't know where my life would have gone Has anything really changed at all? Probably not, still to hell I go I do not care cause it's where I dwell with my demons and devils I love my hell So maybe I'll be here again I just don't know how, why or when

I'll Be Your Friend ..............
I'll be your friend - Robert OWensCome by here if you ever need someone to talk too,someone to understand all the little things you go through,I don't like me sometimes, give me your doubts but don't carry that weight on your shoulders,until the end of time.Oh I'm not going to ask for anything in return, cause helping is the reward I've earned...I'll be your friend until the ...end of time....I'll be your friend.You can depend on me you'll never ever have to worry.Never never no no.no no no no.I'll be your friend,I'll be your friend.Until the end ...of time,standing by your side...friends....Trust me...you can trust in me...I'll never let you down.------------------ First let me say that I celebrate the whole "Robert Owens" catalog. Cripes, I sound like one of the Bob's from "office space". Moving right along...I do..really. I believe what Robert is saying "sarcastically" is that people always come to him for advice,a loving embrace, a kind word etc but he recieves nothing in return

The Poker Player
Two couples were playing poker one evening. Jim accidentally dropped some cards on the floor. When he bent down under the table to pick them up, he noticed Bob's wife, Sandra, wasn't wearing any underwear under her dress! Shocked by this, Jim upon trying to sit back up again, hit his head on the table and emerged red-faced. Later, Jim went to the kitchen to get some refreshments. Bob's wife followed and asked, "Did you see anything that you like under there?" Surprised by her boldness, Jim admitted that, well indeed he did. She said, "Well, you can have it but it will cost you $500.' After taking a minute or two to assess the financial and moral costs of this offer, Jim confirms that he is interested. Sandra told him that since her husband Bob worked Friday afternoons and Jim didn't, Jim should be at her house around 2 p.m. Friday afternoon. When Friday rolled around, Jim showed up at Bob's house at 2 p.m. sharp and after paying Sandra the agreed sum of $500 - they went to the bedroom

More Poems While In Jail
no title As time flies on I'm alone all Struggles in life I face on my own The Darkness dwells in my created hell trying to tell me all is well I know the truth but I cannot rebuke the devil within So I cannot win But if it were gone I would still do plenty wrong for I am a broken shell a silent bell left stranded in a desolet hell Fear not for me just let my fate be That's the way it is has been for eternity

More Poems From My Soul Written While In Jail
Alone Alone, Darkness Consumeing Alone, Darkness Embraceing Alone, Darkness all I'm tasteing Alone, Darkness I am wasteing Blanketed by oblivion Darkness not letting in My ray of hope outside my grasp Realizing darkness is all I have Alone, Darkness Confusing Alone, Darkness I'm looseing Alone, Darkness this is the end Alone, Darkness I finally give in

Chris Johnson Is Buying Each One A Car, Maybe
Tennessee Titan running back Chris Johnson hold his offensive linemen that he would buy each of them a car if he breaks the 2000 yard barrier. At the time Johnson only gained 824 yard. So the likelihood of achieving that feat was slim. Well Johnson has averaged 143 yard a game over the last 4 he’s played in. All he has to average 126.9 yards a game and he will break it in week 17. Good my man! For more click http://sports.yahoo.com/nfl/news?slug=cr-inconvenienttruths120209&prov=yhoo&type=lgns Be the one who breaks the listening record at BlastFM. We had one person listen for 5 hours and 31 minutes straight. E-mail us from the BlastFM site when you are listening to break the record. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

Just Random Funny Sayings
y don't u come over to myspace and google my yahoo so i can blow my load on ur facebook while u lick my twitter we sang this in jail to all the diddlers and it would piss them off so bad cause we would put their names on blast lmmfao All around the mulberry bush the (diddler) chased the child the child thought it was all in fun till (the diddler) got him!

Paying 1 Million Fubux For 2400 Pic Rates
Ok....You might think I am insane...but I want to level before my VIP runs out in 5 days. I am 3.8 million points away from level 28!I will pay the first 10 people to rate all my pictures 1 MILLION FUBUX each. There are roughly 2400 pictures. PM me to let me know if you are doing this. You will have 24 hours to complete. I will keep names on a list, if someone does not full fill the quest, the next person will get a chance to do it.I need you to leave comment at the end of each folder so I know you rated them. You will be paid as soon as it has been verified. Link to my profile♫DJ Carebear♫@ fubar

Being Paranoid
i am becoming a bit paranoid nowit has been some time now since i went to the 2 doctors that was design for my casesince my lawyer told me to go tothings went fine however when i try to call heri either get the voice mail or i get the investigator that is for my case i dont know what is going to happen or if iam going to prisonbut at this point i just dont care no more iam done caring i have lost everything that i ever did care about nowstill no word on if i have to find a place to live or notand even if i do what is going to happen to my stuff and my cati cant pay rent if iam locked upi feel like iam broken and used up ready to be just either replaced or just toss away like garbagethat is how my life is beginning to turn out and that is how i feelthey say everything happen for a reason then please do tellthis year i wont have a xmus or any other day probably more then likely and the funny thing is i just dont care iam tired of fighting iam tired iam trying iam tired of making a eff

Am I Crazy?
My job has me going nuts! Last month I drove over 6000 KM's between a few places going to work and back. I managed to have a near record month for sales, and although that makes me happy. I do have to pay for all my travel, food, hotels.... when I go to work. I can claim it all as write off's but still it doesn't help me today. So, today I'm at the office submitting business and I find out one piece got held and I'l not be paid on it until next week. so today I got paid under 300 dollers, but my rent is 460. My last trip was more expensive than I thought and I spend more on it that I ultimately made from going out there. My old job has me on staff again which is nice so yesterday I went and gave an old guy a bath. Saturday I'll do a 12 hr over nighter to take care of another elderly man. next week i'll have a truck load of cash coming, in, but its feast or famine. I collect food for the food bank with my job but over the past several months I end up eating the food because i