Here I go again getting all philosophical or just babbling, take your pick. I am sitting here just drinking my coffee and as I often do, I sometimes reflect on past and recent events that occur.
Today is Sunday and am ending a 4 day weekend, much deserved after working a long stretch. Have I done much. Not really. I cleaned, which was much much needed, thank god. I ran errands, still have some to do, but that will have to be squeezed in somehow another time. But for the most part I chilled. Today I do have plans to go and visit with Dad and watch a movie. Mom is in the Philippines, she has been gone almost a month now and haven't made it over to see him since I work so much. Sad I know, really that I haven't been able to make time for family when I work so much.
One thing that was slightly different this weekend is I finally got to meet a friend after 2 other failed attempts. He is a really nice, sweet guy and full of energy. Did I mention goofy! Perhaps we'll get to meet up again and get out and do something different. Thanks for cracking my back..lol
Anyway, my main purpose for this rambling was work. I work a lot, I do. Sometimes I have said I work too much. But I think I am seeing it as my safe haven. I find that my work is my safety net. It is where I get to hide from the rest of the world and not have to deal with life in a sense. It is where I don't have to deal with what is and isn't missing in my personal life. At work I am around people, I am around life. Though most are acquaintances and superficial, no one tends to get close enough to potentially get close enough to chip away at the walls that are fragile and long to be broken. At work I am 100% in control. Well you know what I mean, at work there is a purpose. I guess that's why I throw myself in to my work so much, when I give myself to something or someone, I give 100% and so far, work has been the only thing worthy enough of that focus.