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“reflections”
“Reflections” Darkness resides over a world that use to be me, Trying to resist but unable to ever break free... Yearning to see a reflection not of myself but of the person I could not be, Cursed by a harsh slit of reality grasping on daily like the roots of a tree. Thoughts of why can't I just hold on to one dream, Pain pours out I just wanna let go and scream! This is my life not glamorous as you can see, But one day the darkness will fade this I guarantee! Homeless for now must stride to succeed, Standing with my cart hopes that someone hears my plead.. I never meant to lose myself but each day I fade, Concealed behind my mask held high like I'm going to a masquerade! Wait those weren't my words that I just said!!! Must have been my alter ego I named him Ed... I'm really quite normal please listen to me... I want to once again be part of this so called society

Crying,loving,laughing Or Leaving
The time i'v spent with you makes me laugh the dreams i'v had of you makes me cry without a touch the setbacks makes me wanna leave the soul you have has me loving you time is short dreams are far setbacks suck but your soul is perfect why oh why does Crying,loving,laughing and leaving hurt so bad......mabe one day the heart will find out but i will find out with out you.

The Right To Bear Arms
The 2nd Amendment - A well regulated Militia, being necessary to the security of a free State, the right of the people to keep and bear Arms, shall not be infringed.Arguably probably one of THE most important Amendments in our Constitution, in my opinion. While they are slowly chipping away at our right, they are slowly disarming us as a nation. Canada has a similiar law, although it is not written lately in their Constitution, it was previously written elsewhere in Canadian Law. Their right to bear Arms was derived from the same source ours was, English Common Law, English Bill of Rights 1689, and more... Interestingly enough, Canada is also attempting gun control on their citizens as well. 'Shall not be infringed'. And yet... slowly but surely they are. Little by little, one baby step at a time, with each law that is passed because someone went on a killing spree, or a child was killed, or what ever the reason, one more loop hole or some sort of tracking is placed upon LAW ABID

Love Making
The lover sleeps and amid his dreams His angel comes on sunlit beams. To waken him with kisses sweet, For her love for him is oh so deep. She wakes him with her caresses light Upon his skin and smiles so bright. And in her eyes, he sees the love She feels for him neath stars above. He comes to her to gently place, Kisses upon her neck and face. To caress her body and touch her soul. For together two become a whole.

New Chapter!!!!!
I have recently met someone that I am completely stricken by. Even though there are things goin on in my life that need work, She takes away all my problems. My first marraige was a bust. No biggie. I just dusted my shoulder off and moved on. But nikki, she has opened my eyes to something I thought i had before. Just thinking about her gives me butterflies. She has shown me that not all women are like my ex wife. She has given me something to live for. A reason to keep on trucking forward. And to finish this blog, there is only one thing i want to say I love you nikki!!!!!!!!!!! you are my aussie angel!!!!!

Go Love On Her
Yet another, sweet and very sexy owner...the gorgeous Jen....one of the biggest pair.........of beautiful eyes I have ever seen...Love ya babe....go show her all the love she deserves!! Jºη ◊ Manager & DJ @Bad Habitz Radio@ fubar

I'm Married But, You Know
Looking to have some fun! I'm 25 married I love my wife but she does not have sex with me enough. I am a sexaddict, I'm not trying to hook up just find someone to play with online. I don't know maybe hook up you never know

Demonic Hymn
Alone From childhood's hour I have not beenAs others were; I have not seenAs others saw; I could not bringMy passions from a common spring.From the same source I have not takenMy sorrow; I could not awakenMy heart to joy at the same tone;And all I loved, I loved alone.Then- in my childhood, in the dawnOf a most stormy life- was drawnFrom every depth of good and illThe mystery which binds me still:From the torrent, or the fountain,From the red cliff of the mountain,From the sun that round me rolledIn its autumn tint of gold,From the lightning in the skyAs it passed me flying by,From the thunder and the storm,And the cloud that took the form(When the rest of Heaven was blue)Of a demon in my view. Edgar Allan Poe

1ne Two (one)
earlier today I took a walk down high way 121 andacclimated myself to my surroundings, and I began to realize that I feel like a total fish out of water here..these plastic bible thumping fucks with a second to spare try to preach to me, telling me I'm a broken soul in need of redemption..hellonly one person's opinion matters to me in that department...my own.. anyways, I have been thinking about and planning a friday bash for me and a certain friend of mine here..now now now, only those of you that know me well enough will even have a clue as to whom she is...so I'm not telling..but I will say this-- she has been on my mind since i landed .

When I Was In Hospital
My thoughts are FUCKED My life is FUCKED Everything ive ever done is FUCKED Everything ive ever thought of was FUCKED Everytime I write its FUCKED I just want to DIE and END all the FUCKED up things ive done and END all the FUCKED up thoughts that run through this FUCKED up head of mine. I dont want anyone to feel sorry for my FUCKED up life anymore This is a FUCKED up battle that I cant WIN anymore You can tell me thats FUCKED up of me to think all you want to I dont give a FUCK anymore because I want to FUCKIN DIE and END all these FUCKED up things all for ONCE So FUCK everyone and FUCK me SIX feet under the FUCKIN ground FRLW 8-10-08

Songs
Sexy can IYeah, YeahAll we wanna know is....[Chorus:]Sexy can I, just pardon my manners.Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)It's a Kodak moment, let me go and get my cameraAll I wanna know is, sexy can I.Sexy can I, hit it from the front,then I hit it from the back.know you like it like that.then we take it to the bed, then we take it to the floorthen we chill for a second, then we're back at it for moreSexy can I, just pardon my manners.Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)It's a Kodak moment, let me go and get my cameraAll I wanna know is, sexy can I.[Yung Berg:]What's up Lil mama, it's ya boy YounginG5 dippin, Lui Vuitton luggage (ay)Gotta love it, ya boy so flyAll the ladies go (oh) when a nigga go by.Gucci on the feet, Marc Jacob on the thighShe wanna ride or die with ya boy in the chi.That's right, so I let her kiss the princeHer boyfriend, she ain't missed him since.[Ray J:]Sexy can I, just pardon my manners.Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)It's a Kodak

Only For Grown Folks
AN INTELLECTUAL OBSERVATION OF THE DIFFERENT TYPES OF COCKS MISERABLE DICK- When the guy is extremely handsome. He says the right things,does the right things. When it comes to sex, he is lacking in this department. He sucks your tits too hard, kisses your mouth too long, stays around your neck forever, fingers you like a GYN Doctor, licks your pussy like he was in a track meet and has a very small dick. You try to give him some head and only find that you are actually sucking a pacifier. This is so miserable. You think, "how can a guy so fine, so polite have weak game?" To top everything off ladies, how about just when in your mind your going to try to get the best out of this even if you have to make yourself cum and he beats you to the punch. DAMN, I cannot believe he came in 3 minutes!!! TOLERABLE DICK- This is funny dick. He eats major pussy. He eats it so good, your knees feel a little weak. It was good enough to make you shed a tear. Then he puts his dick in, for you to realize

That Aint Mine
http://www.youtube.com/v/KiOYCSq5u6c&hl=en&fs=1"> IM SO FUKIN MADDD...... THIS TRICK.. si sepas mi gentez.... orale contigo dia.. esta rukka llamada al yop ese yo tener un nene !?!?!?!?!?!? HELLLL NO !?!?!?!? ella es loka.... no cabritos por yo !?!?!?!?!

Survey
1. Who are you? *~* 2. Are we friends? *~* 3. When and how did we meet? *~* 4. Do you have a crush on me? *~*5. Would you kiss me? *~*6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. *~*7. Describe me in one word. *~* 8. What was your first impression? *~* 9. Do you still think that way about me now? *~* 10. What reminds you of me? *~*11. If you could give me anything what would it be? *~*12. How well do you know me? *~*13. When's the last time you saw me? *~*14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? *~*15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you? *~*

My Life
Its my problem, not yours Its my pain, not yours Its my sorrow, not yours Its my depression, not yours Its my story, not yours Its my worry, not yours Its my stress, not yours Its my frusttration, not yours Its my bullshit, not yours Its my fucked up life, not yours FRLW 8-10-08

Need My Friends Help!
I was just sent a link by a family member to a profile that was created yesterday, by someone using my pictures as themself. I went to support but was told there was nothing they can, or will, do. "there isnt anything that we can do .. block the member or ask them to remove your pics hun .. TOS 7 .. Member Disputes. You are solely responsible for your interactions with other fubar.com Members. fubar.com, Inc. reserves the right, but has no obligation, to monitor disputes between you and other Members." I don't consider this a dispute, but guess that's just my opinion. Maybe if my friends let this person know, that they know the "real" person in the pics, I'm hoping she will add her own real ones?! Not asking for any trouble, just a simple comment letting her know, you know that is not her! Thank you friends! Hugs, Cindy Darlene@ fubar If that doesn't work here's the page link http://fubar.com/user/3022546 UPDATE She deleted the profile after friends left co

Better
Ok so I have to admit, I feel better today than I have in a long time. Is it knowing my family is there for me no matter what? Perhaps tha my friends have really come through for me? Maybe its that Ihaven't communicated with the fucking PUKE in 7 days today (first time ever)? Or maybe its buying the Mac? LOL Another qupte I love ut have no idea who worote this one Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option Words to live by.....

Another Shift...please Read
I am changing some aspects of my profile again. privacy and such as well as placement. I know I have said it before, but the family list is rather long and I am no longer paying for a membership so I cannot change it. That is unless I remove enough people to do so. The thing is I actually love my friends haha! So I don't want to hurt feelings but I wonder if some would even notice they aren't on it any longer. Easily I can remove a few who never sign in anymore, but there are others that do on a daily basis that don't seem to make their way to visit. That road goes both ways ;) and well we know that! So just know I will be basing it on who actually needs to be given a place with a number and the rest are still very dear friends I care about. two blogs in one night amazing..and I did change the other blog to family only ;) incase you tried to click it and got an error message. sorry ;)

Effort Vs. Reward
June 18, 2009, will mark my three-year anniversary of being a member of this site. During this time, I've made friends, had encounters, run into old friends, and gotten a good look and the ins-and-outs of what Fubar, in whatever shape, form or name, has had to offer. Recent events, however, have made me ask myself whether or not what I'm getting out of this is worth what I'm putting into it. Initially, when I was putting this blog together, I thought about writing how being a bouncer has changed my outlook on the site's progress. I am not going to turn this into a "Bouncer is a Thankless Job" article. Instead, I'm going to take a more generalized approach, since a lot of my thoughts seem to be more related to how I'm interacting with people - friends and strangers alike. A recent conversation with a member (who turned out later to have feelings for me) went awry. I made the mistake of going to Yahoo chat and uttering the four worst words known to mankind: "Hi, how are you?" She res

Do A 180
When I was young, I was sort of poor, got picked on some because of my shoes, of all things. I believe it was 7th grade, I was standing there waiting on the bus and watching a young man getting picked on for the same thing by 3 bullies. I don't know if I did the right thing, but that main bully found himself on his back. Now I didn't know this young man, but when he walked up to me and said thanks, and stood with me there to our busses came, it brought a good to my heart. He felt safe there with me, I had protected him, stood up for hiim against the evil that he was experiancing. Well, the bullies didn't bother him again after that. At that age it's hard to figure out what is right or not, but in my heart at that time, I felt it was right, and for the first time I stiood up and defended a young man, and I remember I felt good about that. I never made friends with him but in high school, he came to me one day and thanked me again, told me was the only thougthful thing anyone had done fo

Ugh
I just want him to come home...he's in FL for another week..he's got no phone right now, so he has to call me..and it kills me to wait..got to talk to him for a half hour tonight. But he's not ready, he doesn't want to be with me..maybe one day..but I don't know...only time will tell. UGH. Why is life like this?

I Burnt It All For You
Butterfly KissesBrush Across My CheekWhispering WordsTo Sweep Me Off My FeetSing Song VoiceSaying My NameEverything You Do To MeDrives Me More InsaneLie After LieYou Swear Your Love Is TrueI Feel Like A FoolBecause I Believed In YouCriss Cross MarksDecorate My WristBegging MyselfTo Somehow Change ThisHeart Pounding HarderYour Face Haunts My DreamsSmiling Face, Teary EyesNothing's As It SeemsPhotographs ScatteredLaying On The FloorMatches Lit, In My HandTo Me, You Are No More

Dont Know What To Do
I'm scared.. no terrified.I don't know what to do.My heart and mind are at war.They're fighting over you.One says, "Let go,He doesn't really care.You need to move on,Wake up from this nightmare."The other tells me to hold on,You know him and his ways,He's scared of getting hurt.Screw what others say.The others... I forgot.They tell me to say goodbye.This isn't a real relationship.Why do I bother to try?You give me no hope,No ounce of affection.We hardly talk at all.It feels like rejection.Maybe I can't take a hint,Maybe you never loved me.Maybe I'm a stupid girl.Maybe this is how it has to be.I hold on anyways,Though it hurts everyday.I fell in love with you.What else is there to say?You thought I would forget,But now I think you see,I meant everything I said,about you and me.

Cancer
I just found out that my x My little girls mom has cancer I dont know quite how to deal being my x and all i am there for both her and my little girl I have been told it looks to have been spreading my x is scard and already to just give up and i am just plain worried about her and the girls. I was there for them for so many years and noe i am on the sideline just praying for the best She told me that my little girl does not know and i feel so alone on this one I am very strong never give up but she just does not have that fight right now I dont know what i am asking just any thoughts would be good I do not blog much so please if you have something to add or thoughts would be great I lost a friend to cancer when i was 14 she was 16 I did not deal with it than and this time i would like to find out more and what can be done I am looking on line to feed that need But real thoughts and real people make a diferance

Hurt
You said you'd never break my heart.You'd never make me cry.I believed everything you said.I believed every lie.You made me so happy.Just to be with you.It was the best relationship ever.With just me and you.I'm still not glad it's over.I may not ever be.You're still my one and only.Hope that you are happy.Don't think I don't miss you.It still hurts to hear your name.I love you more now than ever.But I won't be yours again.I thought the pain was over.But boy was I wrong.I feel it more each day.The hurt isn't gone.

I Guess He'll Never Know...
I guess he'll never know...how much I love him so.As days pass my love for him grows,yet his love for me never existed at all.I guess he'll never know...how happy I am when he is around.How his presence warms my heart,and he doesn't even notice I'm around.I guess he'll never know...how much he means to me.How much it hurts when he loves someone else.How my heart tears when I see him look into her eyes when I wish they were mine.I guess he'll never see...the tears I cry in my room.Wishing he could just see me,the way I see him.I guess I'll never have him in my life...to see his smile and glistening eyes.His one of those fantasies that never come to life,He will just be that guy that I can never be with.I guess I'll never know...What it would be like to have the guy of my dreams in my arms.

Let Me Dream
Let me dream.. Like I've never dreamed before.Let me dream that I'm in love.That I'm a free and flying dove.Just let me dream.Let me dream that I can be.Happy for the rest of eternity.And that one day you will seeWhat a perfect woman I can be.Let me dream that you secretly stare.And inquire about my when and whereLet me dream that I'm the oneAnd other than me...You want none.Let me dream that you think of me.And whether we one day will be.The lovers who had no chance.To be who they wanted to be.Let me dream that you are waiting there.And that life might at last be fair.Let me dream of your silly smile.And that loving me was worthwhile.Again..These are just dreams.That might never be real.But one day you might know..How hard secret love feels.

Unspoken Words
Everyone has that one person they love the most. The one that can make you smile just by a phone call away. One that makes stupid jokes but you laugh anyway. It's always that one particular person thats written all over your heart but don't even realize it. At times its that one person that you know you wouldn't be able to love. Watching people love, watching people hurt. Now I realized how much love can stab you like a knife because of these stupid rules that others spread around. Specific things that one can not do because others say they can't. Is that really love? Is it hard to accept truth? Questions building up inside me, making me more confused then I already am. Being stuck in the middle is not always easy. One thing I'd like to ask everyone. Isn't "Love" something that's shared by others no matter how much you dislike that someone or something? One that can learn to move on from previous wounds. One that can accept the truth. Sometimes I wonder how much better life would be if

Well Duh
budget cure: Marijuana taxes?In this desperate economy, some argue that legalizing and taxing marijuana could plug multibillion-dollar holes in federal and state coffers.Rate this ArticleClick on one of the stars below to rate this article from 1 (lowest) to 5 (highest) LowThank you for rating.HighAverage rating: 4.34 from 10597 usersE-mail us your comments on this article View all top-rated articlesBy John Dyer, MSN MoneyDaniel Stein says the salvation of U.S. taxpayers could be marijuana. As Washington breaks the bank on Wall Street bailouts, President Barack Obama's stimulus package and other spend-now, pay-later measures, most observers agree that politicians will eventually need to increase revenue or cut spending to cover the federal government's debts. Stein believes Washington could begin to balance its books now if politicians would take a serious look at his industry. The owner of two retail outlets that he claims generate $1 million in revenue annually, Stein says he pays

Helping People Who Are Bipolar ( Copy From Coppertop)
Helping a Friend or Family Member with Depression or Bipolar DisorderMood disorders such as bipolar disorder (also known as manic-depression) and depression affect millions of people. Their family members and friends are affected too. If someone you love has a mood disorder, you may be feeling helpless, overwhelmed, confused and hopeless, or you may feel hurt, angry, frustrated and resentful. You may also have feelings of guilt, shame and isolation, or feelings of sadness, exhaustion and fear. All of these feelings are normal. This page will tell you a little about what your family member or friend is going through, and how you can help your loved one and yourself. Things to remember: Your loved one’s illness is not your fault (or your loved one’s fault). You can’t make your loved one well, but you can offer support, understanding and hope. Each person experiences a mood disorder differently, with different symptoms. The best way to find out what your loved one needs

Up For Grabs Again ;)
Wanna own me???? I'm up for auction again!!! Come check out the goods! Click the pic to place your bid! Brought to you by yours truly... ~*~Trippy Bitch~*~R/L Fiance to Her Beloved Pain Puppet~*~Member of Fubar's Finest Melons~*~@ fubar

Thoughts...
A simple kiss from her the slightest touch to hear her say my name to feel her breathe upon my neck to see the sparkle in her eyes my life would never be the same No one comes close to her beauty her words are poetry each letter entrancing I have never seen anyone this beautiful I have never met another soul as graceful no else can match her charm She is not a dream real flesh and bone She is prettier than a rose Nothing or no one can compare to Violets

Always And Forever
If one day u feel like cring...Call me. I don't pomise that i will make you laugh but i can cry with you.If one day u want to run away-dont be afaraid to call me. I don't pomise to ask u to stop...But i can run with you.If one day u don't want to listen to anyone...Call me. I promise to be there for u but also promise to remain quiet. But one day if you call...And there is not answer...Come fast to see me.Maybe i need u. Remember everone needs a friend don't ever leave the one you love fot the one you like because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

Fake Ass Women!
Is it just me, or are the amount of profiles with people "passing" themselves off as women grown? Why is it every other god damn person that wants to add me is some level 4, fake ass chick with porno pictures their profile? Do i look like a fucking idiot? Seriously now, come on! Post a god damn salute, or dont fucking act like i am going to sit her and cyber sex your ass while you spank your shit sitting at home while your kids sleep in the next room! I wont bling you, i dont care if you bling me... You dont get access... You get fucking blocked!

Going For A More Healthy Weight For Me Again..
Well, I have been noticing some weight gain over the last seven months or so after my extreme weight loss goals that I accomplished last year in the first six months of 2008. I managed to go from 230 pounds last year in February to just under 200 pounds by my 30th birthday last year, and than by mid June, beginning of July I made it to between 175 and 180 pounds.. I felt much better after the weight loss especially since my acid reflux dissappeared after dropping below 200 pounds. In the last couple weeks I noticed some acid reflux again, and realized that I am at 210 pounds. My goal is to get myself to drop at least 10 pounds by my birthday again this year which is just over two weeks away. I have started as of Tuesday night this week with similar to what I did last year with control of intake on how much food I am eating. I had 350 calories approx. in 24 hours, and will probably have similar for the next 24 hours, and so on and so forth. Still eating some of the same foods I have b

Bad News
"There may have been some speculation about what this meeting was called for, and I hate to be the person to have to verify that your fears were correct. The Provost's office has come back with budget figures for next fiscal year (July 1 2009) and ICAPP funds have been withdrawn." Translation: Due to economic hardships, tax revenue has declined, the governor’s office is facing a much tighter budget and your jobs have been sacrificed to make the bottom line black instead of red. “The Dean is working really hard with the Provost to come up with some solutions, and this may not really be the end all, something may come up. But really, the best idea is if you start looking for new jobs.” Translation: There isn’t crap we can do about it. “I’d really like for you guys to get me your resumes so I can see if there is some place you might be able to go here. We are going to try really hard to find a place for you guys, but I can’t promise anything.&

Issues With Lounge Owner/staff...my Own Lounge Configs
"Issues with Lounges and Their Owners/Staff Members/Members": 1.~My First job was in DT. everything was fine and dandy, until something happened and i got booted by one of the staff with mods booted me, i then thought it would be best to just resigned from my Bartender Job within Double Trouble. and i was just a member of the lounge, then i started feeling like i wasnt even welcomed anymore and my respect went away, so i stopped coming around, and well i continue to visit now but only whenever i feel like stopping in. 2. ~My Second Job was in Angels and Demons (also a name of a movie which is recently coming out), well i was joking around and the co owner took my joke personal (which is STUPID), and well then i got into a convo with the Owner and well words were being side and well my mods got taken away just cuz i cant be myself. it seems that i cant be myself within these lounges cuz the people are too stuck up, it dont matter if youve known them for a while or not, theres a freedo

7 Kinds Of Sex
7 kinds of sex! The 1st kind of sex is called: Smurf Sex. This kind of sex happens when you first meet someone and you both have sex until you are blue in the face.The 2nd kind of sex is called: Kitchen Sex. This is when you have been with your partner for a short time and you are so horny you will have sex anywhere, even in the kitchen.The 3rd kind of sex is called: Bedroom Sex. This is when you have been with your partner for a long time. Your sex has gotten routine and you usually have sex only in your bedroom.The 4th kind of sex is called: Hallway Sex. This is when you have been with your partner for too long. When you pass each other in the hallway you both say "screw you".The 5th kind of sex is called: Courtroom Sex. This is when you cannot stand your wife/Hubby any more. She/He takes you to court and screwsyou in front of everyone.The 6th kind is called Religious Sex, which means you get Nun in the morning, Nun in the afternoon and Nun at night.OOPS. Don't forget the 7th kind of

Old Detroit
You lived in or near Old Detroit if:You took a "moonlight cruise" to Bob-Lo with Captain Bob-Lo or went to Edgewater Amusement Park. You shopped at Hughes and Hatcher, B Siegel, Peck and Peck, Himelhoch's, Robert Hall, Crowley's, Shoppers Fair, EJ Korvettes or Federals. You remember the trolley cars that went along Jefferson Avenue into Detroit.You remember the Detroit Train Station. You remember shopping at J. L. Hudson's and you rode the elevators there, which were "run" by an elevator operator. You remember the world's largest flag that flew on the side of Hudson's in downtown Detroit. You remember a Winkleman's and Sanders store in your neighborhood. You remember the "Big Snow", Buffalo Bob, Howdy Doody, Clarabelle, Phineas T.Bluster, Princess Summer-Fall-Winter-Spring. You remember Twin Pines Dairy delivered milk and juice to the chute on the side of your house and Milky the Clown performed magic with the magic words "Twin Pines." You remember the Good Humor man in a white uniform

I'm Am This Girl!!!
I'm the girl who will put her head on your shoulder, not because I'm sleepy, but because I want to be closer to you...I'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain, more than in an expensive resturant...I'm the girl who says, "Okay, but you owe me..." jokingly. Not because I actually want something, but because it means I get to spend more time with you and I care...I'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and I will have fun because it means I am spending time with you...I'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms...I'm the girl who never forgets all the sweet little things you do for me...I'm the girl who once I let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it. And even if we spend time apart, I'm the girl who never forgets you..I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss..I'm the girl who you can talk to about anything..I'm the girl who laughs at your jokes...I'm the g

Questions For Guys That Want To Date Me
Are you or have you been married & if not how long have you been single?What is your longest relationship?Are you looking for causel or exclusive?Do you have kids?Do you want kids?Do you have siblings?Do you do any kind of drugs?Do you drink?Do you smoke?Have you ever been arrested?Do you like pets? Do you go to Church?Do you have your own place?If no, have you lived on your own?What do you like to do for fun?What is your ideal soul mate, what qualities would you like?What color are your eyes?What is good about you?Is family important too you?What are you dislikes in a woman?Do you have a temper?Do you have pierces' and/or tattoos'?Do you mind tattoos' on a woman?

Answer Me This
1)Q. Can you cook?1)A. 2)Q. What was your dream growing up?2)A. 3)Q. What talent do you wish you had?3)A. 4)Q. If I bought you a drink what would it be?4)A.5)Q. Favorite vegetable?5)A. 6)Q. What was the last book you read?6)A. 7)Q. What zodiac sign are you ?7)A. 8)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Where?8)A. 9)Q. Worst Habit?9)A. 10)Q. If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?10 A. 11)Q. What is your favorite sport?11)A. 12)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude?12)A. 13)Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?13)A. 14)Q. Worst thing to ever happen to you?14)A. 15)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you15)A. 16)Q. Do you have any pets?16)A. 17)Q. What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?17)A.18)Q. What was your first impression of me?18)A. .19)Q. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?19)A. 20)Q. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be???20)A.21)Q. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?21)A. 22)Q. What color e

A Real Man
1.) A REAL MAN respects his mother and places his family first.2.) A REAL MAN RAISES HIS KIDS, not JUST out of pocket either.3.) A REAL MAN supports his woman to develop herself.4.) A REAL MAN doesn't worry about what others depict as a real man. Walk in his shoes first and then tell him what makes him A REAL MAN.5.) A REAL MAN doesn't Break Promises6.) A REAL MAN calls you beautiful, not hot, sexy, or fine as ****.7.) A REAL MAN sends you flowers Just Because.8.) A REAL MAN CALLS YOU on a daily basis - NO MATTER HOW BUSY OR TIRED HE IS.9.) A REAL MAN looks past what he's heard about you or what his friends think of you.10.) A REAL MAN wants to spend as much time as he can with you & won't get sick of you.11.) A REAL MAN comes over just to watch movies with you.12.) A REAL MAN kisses you on the forehead just because.13.) A REAL MAN doesn't tell you what he thinks you want to hear. He tells you what's real.14.) A REAL MAN should be treated like one.15.) A REAL MAN doesn't ask questions

Beethoven
Be calm,only by a calm consideration of our existencecan we achieve our purpose to live togetherBe calm,love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - youyou - my life - my all - farewellOh continue to love me -never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.ever thineever mineever ours

My Favorite Poem
Sacrifice YourselfDont Let my mind destroy meFrom Breaking in againPlease save me from my conscienceWhen it comes rushing in Oh please come be my hero Or maybe my heroinYou can brand yourself my saviorYou can call yourself my friend Show me light unto My darkness

Beginning Or End?
Memories from childhood stay with us forever,Taking us where we have been and will go,Pieces of life that live on and will neverLet us forget we were young long ago.Sometimes I wander back into those shadows,Quietly being who I used to be,Bringing to life all the joys and the sorrows,Days that can't die while they still live in me.Holidays linger and happy times glisten;I can see everyone active and well.I can still hear them if only I listen,Feeling each motion and breathing each smell.Life has such treasures that time's always stealing;Nothing can ever entirely stay.While you are young, you can capture each feeling;Make all the memories you can every day

Answers To Questions I Was Ask
Are you or have you been married? Divorced Do you have kids? Two girls youngest 18 & my oldest is 19, they do not live with me Do you want kids? No Do you have siblings? One brother who is older Do you do any kind of drugs? No Do you smoke? No Do you drink? No Have you ever been arrested? No

Eat This Not That
On our new Eat This, Not That! Web site, we rounded up the best foods to munch on when you need a mental boost—and found studies that show, in fact, that you can be up to 200 percent more productive if you make the right eating choices. Stock up on these items to halt mental decline, jog your memory, sharpen your senses, improve your performance, activate your feel-good hormones, and protect your quick-witted sharpness, whether you’re 15, 40—or not admitting to any age whatsoever! FOR SHORT-TERM MEMORYDrink This!: COFFEEFresh-brewed joe is the ultimate brain fuel. Caffeine has been shown to retard the aging process and enhance short-term memory performance. In one study, British researchers found that just one cup of coffee helps improve attention and problem-solving skills. Not That!: ENERGY DRINKS/TOO MUCH COFFEEEver heard of the concept “too much of a good thing”? If you OD on caffeine—too many cups, a jolt of caf from the late afternoon onward,

I've Decided To Be An Asshole
Really, I'm tired of all these countless, meaningless, exhausting conversations. Fubar is all about rates? Fine, I'll rate you. But I'm not here to entertain you when you're bored. I don't care if you're good looking or nice, unless you want to talk about some really deep things, like philosophy, intuition, etc, don't waste your time. It's not the only thing I want to talk about, but it is essential. I've had enough conversations about "nothing". P.S.: Did I sound like a bitch? Right. Fuck you.

Wtf
People piss me off here latley. They live with you and aer nice and sweet o your face but the first time you walk out they steal your shit. And they're family. WTF People. Have some respect and don't go throu my shit.

Obama
Hussein Obama is a liar and a fraud. He lied about Air Force I flying low over NYC for a photo op coz the a**hole won't show the pics! He lied about being not being born in Keny coz he will not present evidence to back it up, like a birth certificate and school records.

Darkness Falls
Disclaimer: This was written from pure creativity and is NOT a reflection of how I am currently feeling as previous writings have been...Enjoy! Darkness Falls Darkness falls like a curtain covering the windows of my mind, Blocking out the light that once brought a happiness you rarely find. What was once a pleasant place to dwell;

Even In Death
Give me a reason to believe that you're gone I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong Moonlight on the soft brown earth It leads me to where you lay They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home I will stay forever here with you My love The softly spoken words you gave me Even in death our love goes on Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love But no bonds can hold me from your side, Oh my love They don't know you can't leave me They don't hear you singing to me And I can't love you, anymore than I do And I can't love you, anymore than I do People die, but real love is forever.

Treatments 2....
I went through my 4th treatment today, it sucks so damn bad. They are going to do the last one in the O.R. on the 13th of this month now tomorrow I have to go in for my chemo which sucks as well, sitting there with nothing to do an really none to talk with, anyways I can not wait till this is done and over with.... Much love always from your friend Jaime!

Breathe No More!!!!
BREATHE NO MORE I've been looking in the mirror for so long. That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side. All the little pieces falling, shatter. Shards of me, Too sharp to put back together. Too small to matter, But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces. If I try to touch her, And I bleed, I bleed, And I breathe, I breathe no more. Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well. Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child. Lie to me, Convince me that I've been sick forever. And all of this, Will make sense when I get better. But I know the difference, Between myself and my reflection. I just can't help but to wonder, Which of us do you love. So I bleed, I bleed, And I breathe, I breathe no... Bleed, I bleed, And I breathe, I breathe, I breathe- I breathe no more.

The Way I Feel .....
I can't run anymore, I fall before you, Here I am, I have nothing left, Though I've tried to forget, You're all that I am, Take me home, I'm through fighting it, Broken, Lifeless, I give up, You're my only strength, Without you, I can't go on, Anymore, Ever again. My only hope, (All the times I've tried) My only peace, (To walk away from you) My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace) My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love. I can't run anymore, I give myself to you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, In all my bitterness, I ignored, All that's real and true, All I need is you, When night falls on me, I'll not close my eyes, I'm too alive, And you're too strong, I can't lie anymore, I fall down before you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. My only hope, (All the times I've tried) My only peace, (To walk away from you) My only joy, My only strength, (I fall into your abounding grace) My only power, My only life, (And love is where I am) My only love. Constantl

My Life
My Plan...Alright...most know that I am done with school...except for the CLEP test that I am studying hard for. This test should take care of the 3 credits of science that I am missing so that I can get my Bachelor's Degree. My plan is to move to Amarillo TX. Those that know me are probably saying...WHAT?! Yes, I hate Texas, but this time around (yes my second try for Texas) things seem to be falling into place. I am going to be applying for a case worker position. I know this isn't juvenile probation, but I cannot get that type of position without experience. So, we all have to start somewhere. I knew when I chose my career goal and my major that I would not be making a truckload of money, but that is not why I chose this. I am excited to venture forth into my new life and I can't wait to see the changes that God has in store for me.My bf...Part of the reason for moving to Amarillo is for Mr. Chris (he soo loves it when I call him that! JK). :D :D :D that's me grinning from ear to ea

I Am Tired
I had to bury my grandmother this morning.......everything went smooth and i was glad to see some family i hadnt seen in 15 years......Doesnt getting old have its disadvantages......Anyway i wanted to still say i missed them and was glad to see everybody....My gramma looked beautiful.....I miss her dearly and will always.......Miss all you guys tooo

Give Me My Chance To Shine
Why do you judge me, just by what you see? Do you even know what's within, What's underneath this skin? Is it my hair, Or the clothes I wear? Is it my face, Is that the case? Can't you see my pain, How I struggle to stay sane, When you degrade me, Just upon what you see? How could you do this? I know I wouldn't be missed, But is my life Worth being taken by this knife? I try to be nice, But I'm just like spice; Some like it, Some don't; Giving it a chance, most won't. Please just listen, Give my chance to glisten. Let me show you what's inside, Let me come out, so I no longer have to hide.

Into The Heart (battle)
Blood veins and locked chains The things you will have to cross A far away journey to encounter It is an adventure to reach the boss Yet are you willing to fight, Willing to sacrifice your king? A chess match is what it is With heart and soul on a string Moves will equal consequences Are you ready for the beating? You should be anxious, petrified There is no negotiation meeting Yet if it is the battle that you win And you tear the walls apart You will win the glorious prize And conquer the childlike heart A heart so soft and loving Locked up in walls and chains Into the empty halls you will find Whatever else the heart remains A naked body you will find and see With eyes so innocent and pure A kiss you are tempted to give The body, soul, and heart's cure But you will refrain yourself For you are the gentle knight Willing to sacrifice your heart In order to win the fight

Forget The Past; He's Her Future
To gaze upon his beauty, for her is pure bliss Why has she fallen so hard, for such a guy like this? She's in over her head, unable to think straight Just wishing and hoping, to have the side of fate With a smile stained frown, she gets through the day But once he is seen, her world returns from gray She can feel that her heart, skips every beat Because somehow in a way, he makes her feel complete He fills her heart with smiles, makes her feel like living life Is really worth it in the end, without the pain and strife Her heart yearns for his presence, more eager by each day Something about him's different; she can feel it in her vein She never thought this day would come; but he fills that empty hole The one inside her heart; the piece her first love stole He makes her worries disappear, and her stressful days subside If only they were meant to be, if she no longer had to hide Her breath is cut short, and her throat becomes dry Once he's in si

Closest Thing To Perfect; Farthest Thing From Me
Although you have your flaws And imperfections, as do I To me, you're simply perfect Perrless through my eyes You're always such a jerk But your sweet side sometimes shows You've told me that you cared And I'm glad you let me know My love for you burns with no end And my heart belongs to you completely You're the closest thing to perfect But the farthest thing from me You don't always know what words to speak Or how to make my problems go away But you can always make me smile And give me hope to live another day You're are the brightest person in the world And half the time, you're clueless as can be But still, my heart belongs to only you For it aches in pain for you; and bleeds I accept you with your flaws You're amazing, don't you see And you're the closest thing to perfect But the farthest thing from me. . (Dont i know how this feels)

*still Wants To Strangle A Salesperson*
yup... erm...can someone please disifer this for me?? I think I got the hotel...but ?? and I'm spose to deliver on Saturday's wtf? grrrrr.... shoot me... here...is...what...she....wrote... I spoke with ---- today . I e-mailed him a bid to sign.Once he signs proposal we will start on Monday May 11th . I will give you the official word once it is signed!!!!!!. But we are good to go on his word!! Thanks for ALL your help!!!

~ Mothers
I remember when I was little.. vaguely, in bits and very small pieces. Sometimes I find myself sitting and thinking about the few things I do remember, but they seem so large in my mind. Moms smile, her voice.. her drawings just laying around. I'd spy a naked woman on occasion and wonder who drew it, it wasn't until later I realised it was Mom. Random writings, bits of poems that made no sense to me, but still made me smile because they were her words and that's all that mattered to me. Her. Singing at any given time, just because. Always loving to listen to her. Her tears, one of the strongest emotional pains I've ever felt. My mom cried, felt. We had a fight here or there, growing up, I'd rebel as much as a teenage gal growing up in the sticks possibly could. The one thing that made me love her more than anything in the world was one simple sentence. "Jessica, I've never been a mother to a 14 yr old girl before... I'm new to this too." *smiles* Indeed.. she was perfect in her hone

Truths
Words are just that. There's no story to be told. Simply a voice when all that's wanted is to be loved. Trying is pointless.. When you know you'll never be as good as the rest. Fear isn't real but instead is change.. When that's the last thing everyone wants. No one wants to understand. All that's there are words... And who needs words when they are just that. No one needs to be wanted, but they want to be needed. Different is nothing but a tale.

10 Last Seconds
10 last seconds to change my mind 9 failed attempts to press rewind 8 little reasons to let go of it all 7 more seconds to make one last fall 6 drops of blood a crimson shade 5 fingers grip the blade 4 tears drip from my eye 3 reasons to tell one last lie 2 final seconds to say i love you 1 last thought...if only he knew

Hold Me By The Hand
Hold me by the hand And never let me go I'm afraid of falling But I'll never let it show Instead you'll see my smile And my web of truthful lies I'll let you hear my laugh But it will all be my disguise I can't show you my weakness I can't let you see my fears I can't show you my sadness I can't shed a single tear But the pain inside's so real I want things to be okay Why can't I make it better And make things last another day You were my only saviour When I was with you things were real I lived just for those moments The moments when I could feel They say that things get better But how long will it take I've been waiting here forever And yet my happiness is still fake Maybe you'll come back to me And I'll be happy again I can't go on without you Because you're my greatest friend Who is this person you ask me This person I miss so much It's not so much a person But rather a soul untouched So I'm standing here, incomplete Not able to carr

Well Here I Am
I am an artist, first and foremost, if you can look at the world and think "oh its stupid"... then I probably dont want much to do with you. that being said, go check out my artwork at http://prophet118.deviantart.com Maybe im not the best, maybe im the worst, but I do it because it makes me happy to create something

My Angel
Sitting alone in the darkscared, frightened and all aloneFelling helpless and lost in the worldJust when all hope was vanishing awaya hand appears in the darkand a deep voice cries out,"Take my hand, and wipe your tears away"Hesitant at firstscared to take a chanceReluctantly i take his handand let him lead the wayHe opened the door to my heartHe opened the door to my soulHe opened the door to a worldI thought didnt exist anymoreJust when I was about to give up on happinessJust when I began to give up on hopeGod answered my silent prayersand sent my angel to my door.Carla K.

Donde Yo Pertenezco (in English)
Where I Belong.. Without a touch You have done so much Your tender words and loving soul Looking in your eyes I can see your gentle heart It is longing to be loved Give me your hand And take me with you Show me what it is like To feel you hold me tight Loving me forever and never letting go Carla K.

Closing Shop
Walking into the mist leaving all in a stream as I stop and cross the bridge No more words stories or poems nothing just the howling abyss guiding my thoughts and my soul Wandering in the dark but strangely feeling at home Numbness is not bad at all no pleasure no pain nothing clean nothing that carries a stain Given it all i got but still cannot depart it has burned so hot in my soul i swear there are blisters on my heart

Donde Yo Pertenezco
Donde yo pertenezcoSin un toqueusted ha hecho asi muchasSus palabras tiernas y mirar amoroso de almaEn sus ojos yo puedover el corazon apacibleEs el anhelo paea ser adoradoMe da su manoy me toma con ustedMe muestra lo que su quiereA le cayo me tieneAdorar aptredome para siemprey unica soltandoCarla K.

Lover Ap!
BASICS: Name:Age:Location:Height:Hair (color and style):Eyes:Piercings/tattoos:Phone Number:OTHER: 1. Do you drink/smoke?2. Do you like bling?4. If so...would you bling me alot?5. Do you like movies?6. Would you send me to links of free movie sites?8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together?9. Would you spoil me with fu gifts?10. Would you fu marry me?11. If so...when? 12. Would you cam with me?13. How would your kindness? 14. Do you give nsfw shows?15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself? 16. Do you have any reps (ie: heartbreaker, prick)? 17. Would you give me a bling me just because?18. Would u VIP ME? 19. Would u put me in your name?20. Would u have text me?21. If so, whats your digits? 22. Would you tell your friends whats good on us? 23. Would u buy me a happy hour? 24. How smart are you?25. Do u have a specific body type that u like?26. If so wut is it? (fat, skiny, chubby, athletic,etc)?Post replys here please!

In Your Arms....
In you arms is where I need to beholding on so tighlyI keep praying for the nightknowing it will endbut not caring when that will beLooking in your eyesseeing your gentle soulLonging for your touchpraying you never let me goTouch me hold me caress meTell me you love me so Hold me in your arms so closelyI pray you never let me go. Carla K.

Meh Jai-bears
Okay, I recently started making Jai-Bears for folks. Not by popular demand or anything but just cuz I'm bored and thought it was an unique spin on the whole "salute" thing. Problem is, it's getting more "technical" now. The original "Jai-Bear" was made to cheer up a friend of mine who lost their father and wasn't feeling well. At the time, I could get away with making simple "Jai-Bear" using MS Paint. ...and have done since, keeping Jai-Bear's unique childish design. But as I now make more Jai-Bears, I find the need to jump from MS Paint to my favorite alternatives FLASH and Photoshop to make it easier on me. I hope Jai-Bear doesn't lose it's charm. And if you'd like a Jai-Bear, please help me with designing it.

Finding Love
Finding LoveAlone I sit thinking about youYou are many miles awayBut yet I feel so close to youWe started out as friendsNever really expected moreTil you showed me a worldI never really dealt with beforeYou made me smileWhen all I did was frownYou made me laughWhen all I did was cryYou showed me that loveIsnt about hurtful jealous wordsYou made me happyMore then words can expressWith your loving wordsAnd your caring heartYou made me realizeI still have lots of loveDeep in my heartI want to make you happyI want to make you seeYou own the key to my heartIn your arms I will always be!Carla K.

Burns
So, with me bein sick, hubby brings me chicken soup before goin out with his friend. And I manage to move the wrong way, and spill the fuckin boiling chicken broth on my stomach. To make it worse, instinctively I was tryin to stop the pan from fallin on the floor...with my stomach. So now my stomach is all red and sore from the metal pan.:( just some whining before goin back to the couch

Saying Goodbye
How can you say goodbyeto someone who's always been there,to someone you love,and to someone for whom you care?How can you put asideall the memories of the past,remembering all the good timesand making the remaining ones last?How can you ignore the painthat death can often cause,knowing you'll never seeor hear their voice again?How can you wait for timeknowing what's about to come,saying goodbye to someoneyou'll never get to see again? Carla K.

Feel My Pain
I want you to hurt like I do. I want you to feel this pain. I want you to bleed from the inside out. And I want your tears to fall down like rain. I want you to look in the mirror, and despise the person that you see. I want you to wake up in the middle of each night, your arms reaching out for me. I want you to feel so alone and to wish for me to be where you are. I want you to think back to the times when you inflicted the worst of my scars. I want you to face each day with the knowledge that Im not there. I want you to hurt so badly that the pain you can no longer bare. I want you to feel the way I feel when I live through each and everyday.

Not Giving Up...
Foolish mistakesEndless tearsWishing and hopingyou could be hereI was a foolwho just didnt see I threw away the lovethat was right in front of meendless apologiesjust arent enoughI guess I deserve thisall because of trustyou were always therewhenever I was blueI cant believe I thought you weren't trueI'll always love youI'll always be hereI'll keep hoping and prayingthat there is still a chance hereI refuse to give upbecause I love you soI refuse to believethat you aren't the oneI hope you seeHow much I'm sorryand I hope you find your way back to me

Self Pity
Self pityEver feel that no matter what you do in lifeIt is thrown back in your face?Ever feel that the harder you tryThe worse things seem to be?Wallowing in self pity,Blaming myself for the route my life has takenHow did I end up here?All alone in this endless pit of despair?Several times I have tried to climb out,But all the emotions and problems storedKeep dragging me back down.The blackness of this hellCovers my entire soulIt eats away at my heartNibbling at the tiny pieces of happinessThat I have left in this worldStruggling to find the answersTo help me out of this placeWanting so badly to feelA little piece of normalcy again Carla K.

Throughtout Time
Throughout the time that has passedmany memories shared between usmany obsticles we have overcomeStill our love has surpassed it all.When I close my eyes at nightI see your smiling facewith those big, warm loving eyesI feel you caress my bodyand gently warm my heart and soulwanting so much to feel youto spend days having you hold me closeSomeday, baby, this will happen.Someday, baby, I will never let you go! Carla K.

From The Trenches!
I'm looking for men in the military who have access to a webcam and have a great story to tell. Please also have plenty of photos. Feel free to nominate yourselves here, or those you know. Thanks!

Trapped Inside
Compressed feelings,Stored deep down insideScreaming to get outYearning to be freeA little child trapped insideFilled with great painWeeping in fearFear of the unknownShe is scared and frightenedShe wants so muchFor someone to hold herAnd let her know she is lovedShe has been wronged by the worldWronged by those she trustedHurt by cruel wordsTorn by constant liesNo one knows where she isNo one cares that she hidesShe is hoping somedaySomeone will dig down deepAnd let her frightened self out Carla K.

Where Do I Go?
Where do I go? Have you ever been so lost?Lost so far within your selfScared and frightenedNot knowing which direction to go?Confused on which path to takeEach could have a different resultOne path could lead to happinessThe other could lead to pain and despairJumbled thoughtsPressing your mindScreaming thoughts and demandsPeople judging and criticizingEvery error you makeTelling you different pathsThey feel you should makeIn the end it's up to youTo choose which way to goStay on the well traveled pathOr choose where othersAre too afraid to go Carla K.

[sighs]
I'll be back on here at some point tonight. Shouldn't be too late. I just have to reinstall Vista and have Dell on the phone while I do it. Apparently the "S.M.A.R.T" event that I am getting is because my Vista is bad. They scanned my laptop and everything is fine with it. So I'll be on tonight...some time.

Home
as i sit writeing this tonite .Iam so happy to have my tiny dancer in my life and in my arms ...........she sits down loading as i sit writeing this ... she is so sweet i will never know what she sees in me but i do know that i have never felt love like this .... nor has anyone ever shown love to me this way ...........tiny i love you you are my light .my flame,my soul ....... may life always be on your side

Ever Wonder
do you ever wonder why we are put in the situations we are put in, i do all the time, why we are who we are where we are and feel the way we do about things, i really dont know. sometimes i feel lost like i dont know who i am, there are times where i am happy when things are going on i start to feel like i know but when im not i still feel lost, i just wish i could keep that happines around, but how do i find that permenant fix

Text Forwarding
Okay so there's this site you can FW texts you recieve to and they'll post them... Here But here are a couple of my favs lol (914): Eric just called. Says he's trapped in a cul de sac because the road disappeared. Wants me to tell him what street has the bushes that whisper sweet nothings into you ear and the wobbling purple pokemon. Oh, and a "bigger and better" penis is growing out of his belly button. He took shrooms by the way. (281) wow. When I'm done with him he's going to have to pop his collar in necessity and not just douchery (803): We're hooking up, I have a toothbrush at her place, and yet on leaving her apartment a minute ago we said goodbye with a hi five. WTF?(843): You're upset about this? (847): is it wrong that I prefer my women with low self esteem and a smidgen of an eating disorder? (512): Don't come here someone got drunk and rolled the keg to buger king. no more beeer (818): On a scale of affliction to ed hardy, how douchy is

Retired
For those of you who don't know yet, after 2 years on the fu, i have officially retired as a fubar DJ & as lounge staff.. I have accomplished everything in the lounge world that one could on here, I have put out tunes and managed some of fu's top lounges, as well as owning a top lounge myself, not quite sure what ima do on the fu from here on out, but i will be droppin in from time to time to the lounges were a lot of my fam is... i have been considering guest dj'in, but if i did, it would be very rare and depend on the lounge, come holla atcha boi.. Nati ~

In My Heart
Mind froze in confusion Each breath toxic to my soul Tears flowing from glass eyes As life drains from the very core ...... Of my heart ...... Let me sleep, the peaceful sleep Take the very breath I breathe If love was meant to hurt this way I shall never love nor hold another ...... In My Heart ...... Please God send me back Where I can find a new beginning Erase the words that cut and bruise Strip me of the pain of betrayal, that aches ...... Within my heart ..... Let me sleep, the peaceful sleep Take the very breath I breathe If love was meant to hurt this way I shall never love nor hold another ...... In My Heart ...... Frozen in this tomb of unhappiness Unable to break the shackles that bind My mind twists and turns, never fully resting Images dance with a smirk, again and again ...... Tearing at my heart ..... Please let me sleep, the peaceful sleep Please take the very breath I breathe If love was meant to hurt this way I shall ne

Oracle Jlynne ..
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Never Be Me Again
ALREADY I AM SADDENED AS YOU HAVE TOUCH MY LIFE SO DO YOU MAKE ME SAD LEAVING ISN'T THE ANSWER FAMILY STICKS TOGETHER ALWAYS SLAP ME DOWN FOREVER FALLING STAY WITH US CAUSE WE CARE I CAN NEVER BE ME AGAIN MY HEART IS DESTORYED AGAIN I KNOW IT WAS CRAZY AT TIMES I FELT THE FEELINGS INSIDE ALWAYS GROWING IN MY MINDS EYE EVIL NEVER DIES IT JUST EVOLVES THATS WHAT WE ALWAYS SAID BUT TTHE LOSE FOR ME IS GREAT I FEEL WE LET YOU DOWN I KNOW YOUR REASONS I KNOW MY EMPTYNESS IS GREAT OTHERS FEEL IT TO BUT I CAN NEVER BE ME AGAIN BLACK HEART FOREVER SADDENED BY IT ALL . for those who have friends and family that go away but are never seen again , keep them close in your heart and always look down the road for the hope they return soon .

Timeless
Islovetimeless?Does it spanpassing of decades?Is it unaffected by space?Everlasting, eternal, ageless, older than time.True love surpassed the ages, more certain than death itself, souls drawn closer with each rebirth.Through the centuries our spirits met, we shared pleasures beyond earthly recognition.Awareness encompassed hearts that knew the joy of lovingin each life, never forgetting. Reliving moments,ecstasyof lovewefound.

Soulja Boy Tell Em- Kiss Me Thru The Phone
Soulja Boy Tell 'Em Baby you know that I miss you, I wanna get with you tonight But I cannot baby girl and that's the issue Girl you know I miss you, I just wanna kiss you But I can't right now so baby kiss me thru the phone, I'll see you later on Kiss me thru the phone, see you when I get home Baby I know that you like me, you my future wifey Soulja Boy Tell 'Em, yeah You can be my Bonnie, I can be your Clyde You could be my wife, text me, call me I need you in my life, yeah all day everyday I need ya And every time I see ya my feelings get deeper I miss ya, I miss ya, I really wanna kiss you but I can't Six, seven, eight, triple nine, eight, two, one, two Baby you know that I miss you, I wanna get with you tonight But I cannot baby girl and that's the issue Girl you know I miss you, I just wanna kiss you But I can't right now so baby kiss me thru the phone, I'll see you later on Kiss me thru the phone, see you when I get home Baby I been thinking lately so much about you Everyth

Comes And Goes....
Comes And Goes lyrics This one's for the lonely The ones that seek and find Only to be let down Time after time This one's for the torn down The experts at the fall Come on friends get up now You're not alone at all And this part was for her This part was for her This part was for her Does she remember? It comes and goes in waves, i.... This one's for the faithless The ones that are surprised They are only where they are now Regardless of their fight This one's for believing If only for it's sake Come on friends get up now Love is to be made And this part was for her This part was for her This part was for her Does she remember? It comes and goes in waves, I am only led to wonder why It comes and goes in waves I am only led to wonder why Why I try This is for the ones who stand For the ones who try again For the ones who need a hand For the ones who think they can It comes and goes in waves, I am only led to wonder why It comes and goes in waves I am only led to wonder why Why I try

Spread The Wealth Of Wisdom!
When the people fear their government, there is tyranny; when the government fears the people, there is liberty.Thomas JeffersonThe strongest reason for the people to retain the right to keep and bear arms is, as a last resort, to protect themselves against tyranny in government.Thomas JeffersonIt's not tyranny we desire; it's a just, limited, federal government.Alexander HamiltonThe truth is that all men having power ought to be mistrusted.James MadisonThe class of citizens who provide at once their own food and their own raiment, may be viewed as the most truly independent and happy.James MadisonThe Constitution preserves the advantage of being armed which Americans possess over the people of almost every other nation where the governments are afraid to trust the people with arms.James MadisonThe people are the only legitimate fountain of power, and it is from them that the constitutional charter, under which the several branches of government hold their power, is derived.James Madi

Wandering Feet
Wandering Feet by john p reed 2008.01.08 A life of false-starts excusedas exploring the many paths to myself.Direction-less, wandering feet carried meeverywhere but where I wanted to go.Searching for the warmth of the nest,I traveled into the depths of me.Decrying myself I recoiledfrom the solitude I saw there.The simple truth is that in the endI am, and always will be, alone.I laugh at my self-deception and, I think I understand God just a little bit more.

The Icy Winds Of December
The Icy Winds of Decemberby john p reed 2007.12.10 She waits in my futurea time when we have conqueredour solitary struggleYet, somewhere today my love walksunder the same winter skyin the icy winds of December.I wish I could know thatthe surety of my soulis mirrored in her's, andthat she truly understandthat she doesnt walk alonein the icy winds of December.

Twiztid- Diemuthafuckadie!
That's the shit Twiztid Twiztid we give it up wig splits Wig splits Wig splits Twiztid's givin wig splits. We cracked your head in half And what shit funny but we laugh Twiztid running this bitch for nine dash A car crash is no equivalent We far from innocent Crossing the valley and we gets ignorant. Acting belligerent on the daily Hoping that somebody insult me But I guess I'm dead wrong All by myself Fuck everyone else I'm in a hole And I can't breathe my lungs swole. Bad dreams when I sleeping Everybody constantly creeping Feelin so weak and I can't see em My conscience keep leaving me . Falling in and out Waking up with bullets of sweat and cotton mouth Them down south niggas don't know about this And niggas on the West side way too pissed. Because it's East side niggas talking hardcore shit Enough to get the North side hit, we the shit We legit like a muthafucka Chilling with million dollar peoples. Digging up graves and acting evil You looking for the sequel More like someth

Things To Ponder
Why some soldiers go into battle without even wondering why just do as they are asked even when others ask them why they have no answer other than my country needs me? A country boy will survive anywhere he is placed but continues to look for the country however a city boy can't survive outside the city? A soldier will lay down his life for what he believes in and protect those around him with no questions asked but come home at times to ridicule and say that is why I fight? Why is it easier to go with the flow of things and complain rather than make a suggestion to do the change that you see needs to be done? Why do we tend to push those away we love at times to protect them instead of drawing them closer into us? Did you know that it takes less muscles to smile than it does to do anyother facial expression. Never figured this out why do we need peace and quiet to think cause we should be able to think at any point and time shouldn't we cause we have to make decisions in life co

My Days", My Moments.
been busy lately.. and my world here and there has different stories.... but i guess, i am happy these days". my life here at home is smooth sailing' so far, ceasefire!!! no arguements, no discussions.. i am living pretty quiet these days.. and am happy too, coz , i am learning how to really assert myself to do the things that i want.without really asking my hubby's approval".. and i am glad he is starting to let me do things that i feel i enjoy doing". so i wake up early morning, send my kid to school, have my breakfast.. rush to my class, then spend few minutes chatting, talking non sense with my classmates, and rush to the gym for an hour of aerobics.. then again rush to do some shopping, by 11 i shd be home... a little bit earlier than cinderella's curfew,... and of course i will be busy cooking lunch... within one hour, i shd have my lunch ready coz my son will be coming home from school , and u know, his lunch must be on time.. or else, he will not really compromise o

Tonight We're On The Road!
When I arrived at home last night I had some time to myself since Martha was out with the kids (Sarah, Jeffrey, and my point-four child/sister-in-law Mary), so I placed some phone calls to my family. First to Gary, my brother (okay, technically he’s my half-brother since we have the same mother but different fathers; I’m the only child on my mom and dad, but we’ve never made a big deal of that) who owns a flooring business in Poplar Grove, Illinois to finalize the directions we’re taking to get to his house starting tonight. There’s a running bet at my workplace – where I go to get the money to open Fast Cash for the day, not where I’m typing this one – that our trip there which we’ve figured will take fifteen hours will actually take closer to seventeen. I’ll have to write that figure now; you can ask Martha, I’m a notorious record-keeper! I left a message with my stepmother Susan in Georgetown, Florida, and there&r

Dark Lotus- In Bloom
[Shaggy 2 Dope] We in bloom, many thoughts rearrangingpollen's everywhere, that's the reason that we're changingFlourish in the rise of the new timesTaking lives, nobody survivesYou got your hatchet, throw it in the skyFive petals appear right before your eyesSo don't get attatched to your head on your neckCause I'll disconnect, Dark Lotus in effect[Blaze Ya Dead Homie] Rise out the water for the first worst nightmareLotus petals bloom and take shapes off in the night airHere we got the wicked to share and didn't nobody careTil they see the shadow creeping, now they all scaredGone but not forgotten, in the dark they leave us rottingWith the crosses on our face that's thesymbol of the doubt rhymingDark Lotus return, the reason is the wordThe season for the sheperd is now to lead the herd[Chorus] This is the returning, everything you tried to buryIn between the patch of roses makesthe Lotus rise, Lotus riseWinds of deadly ages makes the blood drip down the pagesAnd between the dying rose

Tattoo Discrimination?!?!
Yeah, So I'm behind on the news...I'm slackin' in many other departments as well, but..catching up on some nearly 2 week old news I found that Joel Madden got discriminated against. He was refused flight to London because of his tattoos. Tattoo discrimination exists everywhere and can happen to anyone. While he managed to laugh it off, he still admitted that it made him feel small. People are so judgmental. I find it ironic that a lot of the times those that are being judgmental have some pretty freaky skeletons in their own closets. It's our bodies. Period. I don't see how a person with a tattoo is any different from one without. We are lawyers, doctors, soccer moms, cheerleaders, artists, good samaritans, athletes, church goers, seamstresses, military, government, and many other types of people. How we choose to express ourselves should not prevent us from flying, working, eating, or any other type of thing non tattooed people are able to do. That's how I see it. I see...One person r

Oregon Dad Shocks Kid With Dog Collar
What the hell is the world coming to. Just last year there was a guy in Wisconsin who tied and taped his kid up because he didn't want to wear his packer jersey. Seriously, people are crazy now days. I mean what if the kid thought the jersey was too big, or it might have smelled like ass. What if the jersey had a ketchup stain on it and he just wanted to wash it first. lol Noooooo the father decides to tape him to a chair. Now we have this asshole who uses a dog collar to shock his kid. What happen to a good ole fashion ass whippin. That's what I got when I got out of line. I guess that explains why I love my women to spank me with a spiked belt....lol it all makes sense now.

Cradle Of Filth- Nymphetamine
Lead to the river Midsummer, I waved A "V" of black swans On with hope to the grave And though Red September With skies fire-paved I begged you appear Like a thorn for the holy ones Cold was my soul Untold was the pain I faced when you left me A rose in the rain... So I swore to the razor That never, enchained Would your dark nails of faith Be pushed through my veins again Bared on your tomb I'm a prayer for your loneliness And would you ever soon Come above onto me? For once upon a time From the binds of your lowliness I could always find the right slot for your sacred key Six feet deep is the incision In my heart, that barless prison Discoulours all with tunnel vision Sunsetter... Nymphetamine Sick and weak from my condition This lust, this vampyric addiction To Her alone in full submission None better... Nymphetamine Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine... Nymphetamine girl. Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine... My Nymphetamine girl. Wicked with your charm I

Dieing Soul
as my soul dies so does my heart why should i keep going with this hole in my heart. they say once the soul starts dieing tthat there is no truning back. my soul was saved once by the love of a woman. but she is done now and there is nothing i can do to stop my soul from dieing. i dont know what to think anymore. the voices in my head are not making sence except the one telling me that im just a fuck up and to let my soul go cause there is nothing i can do to change the things that i have fucked up. and will never have the love i had from the one woman that loved with everything i had. so tried of a bleeding heart. my soul is just dieing from trying to fix the bleeding heart. and there is nothing i can do about it cause i have lost the love of my life forever. i gues ill just have to deal with having a dead soul and wait for the body to die. i just feel like i would be better off if i just faded away that way i can hurt or cause the one woman i love with al my heart and what is left of

Another One
..I site here and think here are two souls conneceted in the dark always hiding in the shadows trying to run from what is realy plain to everyone else also. one day there will be light on the two soulz that are traped in the dark but instill that day comes those are just lost soulz. and the whole world will know when the light shows the lost two soulz the way out of the dark cause also comes wtih them caos and mayham. one of the lost soulz are full of firer and darkness, the other soul is full of life and happiness. the only good that will come of the two lost soulz being free from darkness is the balance they will offer to others. so I sit here thinking of the two lost soulz waiting to leave the darkness hopeing and praying that the day will come soon. for it is then that this old man can put his mind to ease about his own life and get to living again. for when that day comes this old man will have fire in his life again.

Paramore- Misery Business
I'm in the business of misery Let's take it from the top She's got a body like an hourglass That's ticking like a clock It's a matter of time Before we all run out When I thought he was mine She caught him by the mouth I waited eight long months She finally set him free I told him I can't lie He was the only one for me Two weeks and we caught on fire She's got it out for me But I wear the biggest smile Whoa, I never meant to brag But I got him where I want him now Whoa, it was never my intention to brag To steal it all away from you now But God, does it feel so good 'Cause I got him where I want him now And if you could then you know you would 'Cause God, it just feels so It just feels so good Second chances they don't ever matter People never change Once a whore, you're nothing more I'm sorry, that'll never change And about forgiveness We're both supposed to have exchanged I'm sorry honey but I'm passing up Now look this way Well there's a million other girls Who do it just li

Black Wolf Story
Wondering wolfThe wolf wonders the land looking for that special one.now that the wolf has found her she is gone just as fast.She was taken way from him even though she says she keft on her own.Now the wolf wonders around lost in this big curel world.The wolf's soul is still with atht special female wolf even though she dosent want him. The white wolf fallows the black wolf around.she is always beside him no matter what happens.the white wolf would be lost if anything happens to the black wolf.whitout the black wolf in her life the white wolf just would fade away.even when the black wolf is aw2ay from the white wolf she dont know she is the frist and the last thing on his mind.The love the black wolf has for his white wolf knows no distance his love for her is what keeps him going everyday.even though they are not together the blac k wolf waits for the day they are reunited and are together again.But untill then they can only see each other in their dreams.The black wolf wake up every

Nin- Closer
You let me violate you You let me desecrate you You let me penetrate you You let me complicate you Help me; I broke apart my insides Help me; i've got no soul to sell Help me; the only thing that works for me Help me get away from myself I wanna fuck you like an animal I wanna feel you from the inside I wanna fuck you like an animal My whole existence is flawed You get me closer to God You can have my isolation; you can have the hate that it brings You can have my absence of faith; you can have my everything Help me tear down my reason Help me; it's your sex I can smell Help me; you make me perfect Help me become somebody else I wanna fuck you like an animal I wanna feel you from the inside I wanna fuck you like an animal My whole existence is flawed You get me closer to God Through every forest, above the trees Within my stomach, scraped off my knees I drink the honey inside your hive You are the reason I stay alive

Hollywood Undead- City
Let's watch it burn... Let's watch it burn... Let's watch this city burn the world. Chorus: Let's watch this city burn, from the sky lines on top of the world, Till there's nothing left in her, Let's watch this city burn the world. My body doused in ash, with two empty cans of gas, The only evidence they have is a police sketch of my mask. And it's hard at times to ask if you can save my heart for last, And it's hard to face the facts when the darkness fades to black. It's not just make believe when they make me take a seat, And they put amphetamines in the air and make me breathe. So come on and grab your children, look out for burning buildings, And villains who pillage, they're killin' by the millions. And billions of people die for a lost cause, So now I pray to my nation destroyed under God. It's the end of the world... All my battles have been won but the war has just begun. (Chorus) The city looks so pretty do you wanna burn it with me? Till the skies bleed ashes and this

Flyleaf- All Around Me
My hands are searching for you My arms are outstretched towards you I feel you on my fingertips My tongue dances behind my lips for you This fire rising through my being Burning I'm not used to seeing you I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing My hands float up above me And you whisper you love me And I begin to fade Into our secret place The music makes me sway The angels singing say we are alone with you I am alone and they are too with you I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing And so I cry The light is white And I see you I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive I can feel you all around me Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling Savoring this heart that's healing Take my hand I give it to you Now you own me All I am You said you would neve

Omg The Cost Of Plane Fares
OMG I spent most of the morning, on the web sites that promote cheap air fairs. What a crock of shit, if they think their flights are cheap they need a reality check. I checked out ..orbit, hotwire.com, expecdia you name it and I found one that I thought wowwwwwww awesome not bad tax and fee included okay great. And when I went to check out more info on it....I get a message, sorry the cost has gone up. I tried several times and same results. I even phoned some air lines my self and omg my jaw hit the floor. Are these people nuts? No wonder hardly any one flys you cant afford it. And to charge for bagage and now to use their toilets on the plane. ARE YOU FLIPPIN SERIOUS!!!!!!!! I was a wreck as I didnt want to have to resort to going grey hound again. Even they are getting costly. I made one more ditch effort and phoned a travel agency who basically told me the cost of two air lines. I just sighhhed. She then suggested something I t hought was great. She suggeste

Love For One Person
love for one person when you love someone so much that it makes you hurt so much. you dont care what you got to do to help that person out. but what hurts is when that person just keeps their hearted closed to you.expectaly when the person use to talk to you about anything. it casues more emotional pain then anyone can relize. it even gets you so far down that it causes physical pain.

Pain Of Love
pain of love the pain of being in love with someone that dont share teh same love for you can be more hurtful then being hit by something, but at teh sametime it can make someone stronger also.but there are those of us that it just litteraly kills us.

Wondering Around
wondering around as i walk the streets trying to find what im looking gfor i hear your voice in my head that is lovely voice teling me that ill find what im looking for and that you still have your love for me. then something brings me back around and i relize that it is just a voice in my head and wishful thinking. then my phone rings and it is you on the other end wiht that soothing lovely voice of you. i just long for the the day to hear those three speical words " I LOVE YOU" to come over the phone from your end again. i just hope one day to hear those words from you again. but when we get off the phone they never come out from you. and i start to think that i will never get the one think that meakes me the happiest in the world and that one thing is you

Yet Another Poem
i long for the day that i can hold you in my arms again. to be able to run my fingures threw your lovely hair agin. i would love to be able to press my lips agaisnt your soft lovely lips again. i even would love to be able to kiss every ench of that lovely very sexy body of your again one day. but i guess all i can do is hold onto the memories of our time together and wish and hope that one day that you will come back to my arms and let me hold you and all again one day

Not Yet Free
Optimisum, about the faith of the people that have accepted of the mission of improbable, to become some particle, pergedby the discouage of suffering, anger, hate, religions and war, Its tought to explain, debate, or even explore, but I diestraight to the core,And explosion of intrespect so quiet, he can definalty, yet he can breath into the sins lounges into the most remperedthugg,Tis a bull that has been thorugh the mudd with a point of the head of a heavy weight, from the cold detail of the hotreality of the butcher trap. To the grand Negro's flights of fancy from the astract mind of a hip hop super nerd, as long asthe truth is heard, The truth must be spoken, my youth has been smokin and drankin, drankin and smokin, a life like that may seem right, but that aint what the seem like, we aint tight unless yall tight, might bless me and all types, the goal is for all growns tobe sat upon by ture Kings. All pretenders must fall into the phantoms of they own character fall, But as long

Another One
i was a lost soul wondering around in the dark trying to find my way. then you came into my life. and the darkness went away. i felt like i had found what i was searching for. but now your gone out of my life and im cank in the dark not even trying to find my way. i just sit and cry out your name with tears of blood running down my cheeks. hopeing one day that my angel comes back to me and the light and the joy i felt will be back again also

As The Wolf Dies
AS THE WOLF DIES As the back wolf lays on the ground beaten,battered, and bloody. From the battle he has fouhgt for serval years. As he lays there about to die and let his soul go. A voice comes to him asking why givve up. The black wolf replies wiht a question of why not? He finds himeself relising that casue of his trying to hard to fight for what he love and lived in. That once he had it he didnt stop fighting. But now that ist it is all gone he relises that the warmth he is feeling is nto from the thoughts of his vicotry. But it is the warmth of his blood leaving his body fromt he serveral cuts and holes in his body. So the black wolf lays there waiting for death to come take his soul but it never happens

A Couple Of Poems
You said I was your soulmate and that you loved me more then anything. And I actualy belived you. what a fool I was to belive someone like you could love me like that. I dont deserve your love for the fact that I dont deserve the love that eveyone else doses. I dont decerve a beatiful creature as yoru. I had been told that I didnt deserve you. I told the ones that said it for so long that the god's and goddess's sent you to me for a reason. But just as fast as you came into my heart you was gone out of my life as a lover. The god's must have relized someone as evil as me didnt deserve you in my life as a lover. Or the god's are just playing games with me to teach me a leason. But god's did one thing sending you into my lif. they truned my heart of ice into a black heart of flames. so maybe the flames will protect me better this time around. Then the ice did. The Life of the Heart My heart started out pure as the morning dew. Then the evil set in as thurne

I Waited...
I spent so long waiting Sat here each and every night Your silence screamed at me I saw your face, it haunted me I can't remember how you laughed I could never hide from you You always saw my pain Your broken wings once sheltered me I sit and think of the times we shared You were once my faith Made the world a stage for me to scream I once asked you to heal me You walked away from us Why did I wait so long Because someone I once loved asked me to...

Promises
Promises promises are just words to make someone feel better. some promises are keep some sometimes and some are broken. to me promises are just words put together. promises that are broken can hurt some people very much. to some people promises are words of honor. But to me promises have no meaning anymore.

Lost Wolf
LOST WOLF As the black wolf walks thew the night. He wonders what is his purpose to be here. Just as it dont seem like it could get any darker in the black wolfs life. The night skies get even darker. At oen time there was light in his life. But now there is todal darkness. The black wolf wonders around in the fark and alone. Alone in the drak where no one can hear his pain. THe black wolf has relized it is safer for him to stay in the drakness of the night. seeing how in the darkness of the night it portects him from the hurtful rays of the daylight. For the last time he was in the rays of the day light hurt him so bad. That the wonds still have not healed. so it is safer in the night darkness so that his wonds are proteceted from the day light . for the black wolf knows one more time being hurt by the rays of the day light will kill him.

First In A Series (past)
No Kitty You Can Not Have My Toy. (5-4-09) Where Is My Tasty Treat? That Hot N Spicy Chorizo. (5-5-09) I Want To Fall Into Oblivion With You. Who Wants A Bad Girl? A Lion Fell In Love With A Lamb. Lonely Tears I Cry For You My Love. I Have Cried All My Tears Until There Are No More Left To Cry. Beauty Is In The Of The Beholder But Your Perception Determines What Your Heart Sees. I Love You Forever My Eternal King. Your Queen Still Waits For Your Sweet Return. Fuk The Bluebird Of Happiness, I Ate It.

Before I Go...
Before I go just let me say... I never wanted to hurt you I gave everything I had Looks like it wasn't enough Did I ever truly make you smile? Others are always asking why Why did I even try? I'm done with the pain Maybe someday we'll meet again Things may be different then How often do I cross your mind? I never could stand to see you cry I'm gone today I'll leave a smile for you I don't belong here in your world This is my final declaration I feel I've slipped too far I don't even want to fight I cant be the strong one Just let me fade away...

Jugga...what!?!?!?
Since I've lost my job I've had to go to these workshops in order to collect my benefits. Today was a job assessment day. We did a math and reading test. 2+2=4 and If Meg has 4 nickels and Pete has 2 pennies how much do they have? Stupid questions like that. But I digress.... 15 minutes into the class the door opens...and in walks this dude...about 6ft tall...280 lbs or so and in full, I mean FULL Juggalo makeup! WTF?!?! Big huge black baggy jeans, red boxers, a black shirt with ICP on fire on the front...wallet w/ the chain and the prerequisite eyebrow piercing. Are you joking me? No wonder the douchebag is unemployed. We were there to take these tests to help us find new jobs...not for a show. Today's workshop was mind numbing...Remember back in elementary when you had to do timed evaluation tests. The kind where you'd be done a half hour before everyone else? Yeah, thats what I did for 3 hours today. And did you know its prefectly able for a 30 year old woman w/ 7 kids

Sun
SO today the sun came out for the first time in a few weeks. Too bad I slept in alittle (well alot). I have a million things to do out in the yard but it will have to wait. Tom. Ill graduate for the second time. Im so glad to finished with school. Now I can relax be the bum that I want to be. Gottta go stock the mini fridge with more beer.......Thanks to those that have added me, Im begining to enjoy this FUBAR...hopefully more (better) pics will be posted soon.

First Job Hunting
Recently, our 18-year-old daughter started hunting for her first real job. She spent an afternoon filling out applications, leaving them on the kitchen table to finish later. As I walked by, a section of the application on top jumped out at me. Under "Previous Employment" she wrote, "Baby sitting." In answer to "Reason for Leaving" she wrote, "Parents came home."

Another Log On The Fire?
Tracy and Ron had only been dating for a little while and this was the last night of their very first trip “away from it all” as Tracy called it. They sat watching as the flames danced around the fire pit. Wrapping around each other like 2 lovers entwined, crackling and popping as the wood burned beneath. The stars above seemed to twinkle in rhythm with the flames and a sliver of the moon smiled at their harmony. No other evening of this trip had shown itself with such perfection and no other evening charged their souls as well. After laying a blanket out on the ground, Ron looks at Tracy and asks if she’ll come join him. Reluctant to leave the comforts of her seat, she walks over and lies down in front of him. Locked in a spoon, they continue to be mesmerized by the passion of the dancing flames. Ron puts his arm around Tracy and pulls her body tighter to his own. She responds with a smile, just barely visible by th

5/6/09 Fluffy Starr Blog
New Vlog: "Cosmo's Tongue" and other stuffs.... Another one for the dog lovers, or just cute animal lovers. No more Cosmo vids for a while. Is it overkill? Do you want more of me? Which parts? (Don't answer that!) More stuff coming soon. From the studio! But for now, another very cute Cosmo one HERE. Hope it makes you smile.

Shaped
shapedby john p reed2009.04.28 now is a momentsliced from eternityby our attentionlooking forwardthe unknowns we graspcannot be held, notin hope of more than we arein fear of less than we will be the now that we share andchoose to so foolishlywaste trying to shapewhat we will haveis also changed bythat hope of morethat fear of lessof what is not, yet, our now has becomechanged by, shaped bywhat we hope, we fearthe ghostly memoryof tissue promises and liesthat reshape the momentswe will slice from eternity asthe next moment rushes to us

Time
Timeby john p reed 2009.04.02 edit I dreamed of her larger than lifeA match to all I hoped to beDelighting and stretching all of me Their mocking laughter rang in my earsthey said to me "You thought time had no meaning? She is there, just then! There is nothing between you two nothing but Time! For all your claim toDivinity, you are still merely a mortal. It is time which binds your heartReach across Time, if you will.Master Time, and she is yours" "Master Time?" I asked.Why master what passes, We lovewe already have, won."

Gold Watch
"As a symbol of our gratitude, we have created this special gold watch to serve as a reminder of your many years with the company. It needs a lot of winding up, is always a little late, and every day at quarter to five, it stops working."

Awesome Mom :)
Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body... I didn't know how special it

The Mountain Climber
They tell the story of a mountain climber, who desperate to conquer the Aconcagua, initiated his climb after years of preparation. But he wanted the glory to himself, therefore, he went up alone. He started climbing and it was becoming later, and later. He did not prepare for camping butdecided to keep on going. Soon it got dark...Night fell with heaviness at a very high altitude. Visibility was zero. Everything was black. There was no moon, and the stars were covered by clouds. As he was climbing a ridge at about 100 meters from the top, he slipped and fell. Falling rapidly he could only see blotches of darkness that passed. He felt a terrible sensation of being sucked in by gravity.He kept falling....and in those anguishing moments good and bad memories passed through his mind. He thought certainly he would die. But then he felt a jolt that almost tore him in half. Yes!! Like any good mountain climber he had staked himself with a long rope tied to his waist.In those mo

He Has Returned Again
When I was in my late teens to early twenties I always had these strange dreams that showed a dark shadowy figure in a black cloak haunting my dreams. He would always follow me around in the dream and appear at the worse times laughing at me and taunting me at the same time. I have not had those dreams of him in years until last night. Someone told me a long time ago that it was a forewarning of bad things to come and it usually was followed by a bad or life changing event. Why he would choose now to appear I do not know but it troubles me because that means something in my life has changed or is about to change. Well the dream of him last night was weird. It did not really make sense at all. Everything was all from my past but not my future or possible future. Everything that has ever happened bad in my life from my parents divorce at 6 yrs old to son going to juvenile hall was replayed. There were a few other things from recent events that were replayed also but for privacy reasons I

When You Start To Wonder About Life
A few hours ago, i got a phone call, telling me that my uncle, had taken his own life. This was a man , who all my life, was the only level headed one, of a huge family. Always the strong one, always there to help the others, always smiling, happy. But recently his business went bad, and he felt he had nothing left, but to take his own life. Leaving behind, a wife.. 2 kids, 2 grand kids.. and i can't seem to get my head around it all. How can the one we all knew as the strongest man, be so weak??? Does life really feel that bad for some people??? I know all this sounds cold, and uncaring, but suicide REALLY gets to me, so many people take that way out now, and i know that some just can't see a way out... but do they realize the destruction they leave behind? It's like I'm hurting, yet disapointed at the same time, that one of my own , would take this way out. Please don't get me wrong, i love him dearly, thats why this is hurting so much... I just wish he had of talked to us.

Listen Up
Unless you like credit cards and scams stick with the Laws(boys in BLue) But if you want to contact someone on this site stop making it seem that your so special that you have to have friends and that you your self is special..Let people know who you really are and stop blocking yiur file..If you look sexy people are going to wish they can screw you but the people you blogg and send liking's of dont make it so hard for them to cum if you really like them or are interested in them...open your leg's allready nobody actually know s where you are unless they are serial stockers and have an I.Q. of 210...Get real ladies your not going to sleep with any one who doesn't look good or you feel that they are actually n the city and you seen them before..If your not a pot head or drunk, Meth monster of shooter ...nothing is ever possible to talk to people who fuck and have orgies... what is this site really for ..I have good times not drinking even if i was drunk right now ..what makes me feel o

March Of The Pigs
Its only been a few days since I've touched down at DFW, and I'm starting to get into the groove of the out of state training for my job. My first test came only a mere hours after touching down and it earned me my place here for nine months..but training aside, my coming to DFW wasnt a fluke..should I explain, yes...will I explain? Not unless you deserve it. more to follow, I'll stay in touch Glenn, aka Anarchy

Uncle Ted's Morals
Billy's homework assignment is to think of a true story with a moral so he goes home and thinks about it all night and finally has one. The following day, Suzy raises her hand first and says, "My dad owns a farm and every Sunday we load the chicken eggs on the truck and drive into town to sell them at the market. Well, one Sunday we hit a big bump and all the eggs flew out of the basket and onto the road." The teacher asks for the moral to the story. Suzy replies, "Don't put all your eggs in one basket." Next is Lucy. "Well, my dad owns a farm, too, and every weekend we take the chicken eggs and put them in the incubator. Last weekend only 8 of the 12 eggs hatched. The moral is, don't count your chicks before they are hatched.'' Billy is last to speak. He says, ''My uncle Ted fought in the Vietnam War. His plane was shot down over enemy territory. He jumped out before it crashed, with only a parachute, a bottle of bourbon, a machine gun, and a machete. As he floated down he dr

Master, Please Let Me Be Your Slave
In Japan, maid fetish is big among the boys. It's a common theme in Japanese porn, and there are even Maid cafes where the waitresses dress up as cute maids to serve the customers teas and cakes. The costume is of course easily available anywhere. Being a costume lover and a sweet lady who loves to please her guys, naturally I had to own them and take some photos! You like it? More photos are available in my photos folder!

Easy Way Out?
Everyone hears the word "Suicide" and has their own views on the topic. I am always hearing people say suicide is the easy way out. Someone told me tonight (in regards to an issue with someone close that i love), "I have never thought about doing something like that, how could someone want to just take the easy way out? Are they really that incapable of handling their own issues?" It boggles my mind how one minded people can be. Is it really so hard to think that people come from different backgrounds, have different experiences, and deal with different situations every day? Everyone is different and we all know that. Why is it so hard to think that some people can't deal with certain issues the same way you can. We are expected to handle the problems of our world through relaxing, talking, thinking, venting, writing ect... No matter what happens to us in life we are told that it can be worked out. That's the way things should be done. When is enough, enough? I'm not saying that I su

The Perfect Prayer...
THE PERFECT PRAYER (matthew 6:9thru13)Why because Jesus himself told his disciples to pray this prayer and how to pray it. In the words of Jesus it goes Our Father in Heaven (Jesus is speaking to God The Father) HALLOWEDE be YOUR name (Honor your name) YOUR KINGDOM come YOUR WILL be done On earth as it is in HEAVEN Give us this day our daily bread (Jesus is asking the Father to supply all our daily needs including spiritual needs of which Jesus calls himself the bread of life.) And forgive us our debts (Our sins) AS WE FORGIVE OUR DEBTORS (VERY IMPORTANT that we forgive all others who offend us, the same as the Lord is forgiving us!) And do not lead us into temptation (we all know what that is) But DELIVER US from all evil (why) BECAUSE IT IS YOUR KINGDOM ALL OF THE POWER AND ALL OF THE GLORY FOREVER AND EVER AMEN (Means so be it!) author; JESUS CHRIST

Deaths Of Loved Ones -rip-
Im suffering from the loss of a few family members besides the past ones that have passed away. i will always miss the ones that have passed away, Im not over the ones that have yet and im not sure what i will do if i lost someone else this close, but i dont think it would be good, so i need all the support and such, like i would give it to you when you lose someone. my mood shifts whenever someone that i care for dies, which should be understandable right?!, so yeah... enough said... Fathers Side: Grandpa on my fathers side died when i was just a baby, dont really remember him all that well, but he got to see me before my eyes changed to brown. My Aunt on my fathers side, she died a few years later then my grandfather. My Grandfather, my dads step father, died within the years of 1990-1995 (doesnt remember the year that he really did passed away) My cousin on my fathers side, died of a car and train accident, she was only 17 when she passed away, when i was a baby when my teeth w

Thats Messed Up =o
A young husband and wife were sunning on a nude beach when a bee buzzed into the woman's vagina. The husband covered her with a coat, pulled on his shorts, carried her to the car and made a dash to the hospital. After examining her, the doctor explained that the bee was too far in to be reached with forceps. He suggested the husband try to entice it out by putting honey on his penis, penetrating her and withdrawing as soon as he felt the bee. The man agreed to try, but because he was so nervous, he couldn't rise to the occasion. "if neither of you objects," the doctor said, "I could give it a try." Under the circumstances, both agreed. The doctor quickly undressed, slathered on some honey and mounted the woman. The husband watched with increasing alarm as the doctor's thrust continued for several long minutes. "Hey, What the hell is happening?" "Change of plans," The physician panted. " I'm going to drown the little bastard!."

Important Please Read....
DON'T ACCEPT a friend request from a CHRISTOPHER BUTTERFIELD he is a hacker. Tell everyone on your list because if somebody on your list adds him u get him on your list too and he'll figure out your computer's ID and address, so copy and paste this message to everyone even if you don't care for them cause if he hacks their email he hacks your email too. CUT AND PASTE THIS :

New Life
My husband passed away back in June of 2008, this month I have gone ahead and begun a new life with a new man and am living with him. We've known eachother for 6 months now-so, it's not rushing into anything. I waited until long after the passing of my husband to begin going into the dating world again. It's scary living with someone again-but, it's a natural flow to the relationship that I'm having. Everyone have a blessed day-and hope to talk to each and everyone of you soon.

Convo Between Me And An "old" Friend
Okay This is within Trillian, trillian is an Instent Messenger Servous that allows afew other Messenger servers to be all in one area, the one i have is for YIM, MSN, AOL, and ICQ. i used to have icq but had to delete it, i dont have aol, but i do have MSN and YIM. the reason for me to get trillian is because of my MSN fuxing up. And thats why i have it, no idea why im explaing why maybe cuz of the Time stamps. LMAO, but anywho. They guy that im talking to is an "old" friend, thats not really a friend anymore cuz of his abusiveness of how others are different in their own lifestyles, and no this isnt the first time this type of convo happened this confo happened May 6, 2009 around 10-11am (check time stamp, its in millitary time i think). This convo is the 2nd convo with him about how i should live my life, as you can see im stubbern, LMAO! [09:19] guardianengel4ever: haveu learned anything bout the way the world works yet or not[09:19] *** Auto-response sent to guardianengel4ever: I

Why???
Why can't I control my heart? Why do I always screw up every relationship I've ever been in? Why do I love so hard yet walk away. Why? Why can't I just find a girl who loves me for who I am? Why can't I find some kind of happiness in my life? Why am I crying when I write this? Why? Why should I not delete my profile here at Fubar? Everyone says it is just a game. Why play games? Life is too short and love too hard to find to play games. Why was I such a fool to think I could find love here? Why? Why do I think I will actually find love? Why don't I just realize that I was made to walk this earth alone? Why???

Careful What You Wish For
Careful What You Wish For A government employee sat in his office, and out of boredom, decided to see what was inside his old filing cabinet. He poked through the contents and came across an old brass lamp. "This will look good on my mantel," he said, and took it home with him. While polishing the lamp, a genie appeared and, as usual, granted him three wishes. "I would like an ice-cold Coke right now." He gets his Coke and drinks it. Now that he can think more clearly, he states his second wish. "I wish to be on an island with beautiful women, who find me irresistible." Suddenly, he's on an island with gorgeous women eyeing him lustfully. He tells the genie his third and last wish. "I wish I'd never have to work again." Instantly, he was back in his government office.

A Hug
A HUG What is the meaning of a HUG? A HUG is something nice to give; it heals and eases pain A HUG can cheer, show love, and forgive; it even removes shame A HUG is something you can do to help a hurting friend... A HUG says, "you're Okay to me" - Let us start a trend cheryl

'star Trek' Tech We Use Today (almost)
ttp://tech.msn.com/products/slideshow.aspx?cp-documentid=19523950&Gt1=40000 'Star Trek' Tech We Use Today (Almost)For the past four decades, "Star Trek" has been influencing and predicting new gadgets and technologies. How close are we to Trek-inspired phasers, tricorders and invisibility cloa

Sex Letter 1
to be able to feel your touch to feel your skin on mine and mine on yours to drive each other insane to be one to be able for you to feel me inside of you to be able to watch your eyes fill with pleasureto be able to kiss your thighs to you hips to you puss to your stmoach to you beautiful sexy brest to your neck your chek to your lips back down to your neck your shoulders your brest your stomach your hips your puss your thighs yous legs to your feet and back up again every time i go back up to your lips i tease you with the head of my rock hard cock slowing entering you little by little until you cant take the teaseing anymore and i slowly enter your puss all the way i have tken every inch you let out a big moan you are soaking wet i slowly start to go in and out so passonitly deeply but gentlely your eyes are filling up the are sparkling you want more but i will not let you i take me time touching feeling i flip over and have you on top you sit on my rock hard cock you slowly let my

Day Two
Good morning world. Well today is the second day of "the diet" and I slept like a baby and woke up feeling like a million bucks. I definatly had enough sleep, unlike sunday night, so if I am sleepy today I'll know its the fast and not just me. I'm just a little hungry this morning, nothing a lemonaid and a glass of water won't take care of though. I know however there will be coffee when I arrive and OH I LOVE COFFEE. I know there will be cookies freshly baked and any other scumptious delight I can come up with, so today will truley be a test of faith or willpower or whatever it is I'm running on lol. I know I can do it though, I have to! I refuse to give up on this and I want the weight gone soooooooooo bad. So day two starting off fabuliously ... talk to you tonight! Ok so I gave in and ate. One of the kids I watch is turning 2 her b day party is saturday and I know I'm going to eat cake! I'll try again next week. It's not that hard the fasting, but the cravings rock my world. Oh we

Here Without You.....
A hundred days have made me older Since the last time that I saw your pretty face A thousand lies have made me colder And I don't think I can look at this the same But all the miles that separate Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight it's only you and me, yeah The miles just keep rollin' As the people leave their way to say hello I've heard this life is overrated But I hope that it gets better as we go, oh yeah yeah I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight girl it's only you and me Everything I know and anywhere I go It gets hard but it won't take away my love And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done It gets hard b

Memorable Quotes For Army Of Darkness
Memorable quotes for Army of Darkness I love this movie and I thought it would be fitting to have one of my favorite things in this world in my first blog. (I lifted this from IMDB - so call me a cheat if you want) Ash: Yeah! [after shooting King Arthur's sword in half] Ash: Alright you Primitive Screwheads, listen up! You see this? This... is my boomstick! The twelve-gauge double-barreled Remington. S-Mart's top of the line. You can find this in the sporting goods department. That's right, this sweet baby was made in Grand Rapids, Michigan. Retails for about a hundred and nine, ninety five. It's got a walnut stock, cobalt blue steel, and a hair trigger. That's right. Shop smart. Shop S-Mart. You got that? [first lines] [opening monologue] Ash: My name is Ash and I am a slave. As far as I can figure, the year is thirteen hundred A.D and I'm being dragged to my death. It wasn't always like this, I had a real life, once. A job Ash: [now Ash is in a flashback] Umm... Hardware

My Baby Boy...xxl
Well Momma was exhausted after she had me, took two nurses to hold me, and one nurse to slap me. Doctor turned to momma and he shook his head, wiped the sweat off his brow, and then he said , "This boys way off the charts, as far as I can tell, ooo brrrr momma he's a double X L!" By the second grade I was 5' 2"! Fifth grade I was wearing a size 12 shoe! Eighth grade I was shopping at the, Big and Tall, and the coaches had me playing High School football. Uncle Roy said "Boy you'll make the NFL! ooo brrrrr son, you're a double XL!" Double XL, Double XL! Dont call me on the phone just ring my dinner bell. Double XL Double XL! Im a lean, mean, love machine that likes to be held, ooo brrrrr baby Im a double XL! Here we go! Country cuties in Texas, string bikinis in Florida, Barbie Dolls driving Lexus, out in California. A skinny little pretty boy aint what they wanna hold, they want a real man with meat on his bones! I'll yank their Yankees, ring their Southern Bells, t

3am Wake Up!
Damn it all to hell! Wtf does there need to be drama? First i'm told that "so-and-so" isn't really single. he's seeing someone else... first off who the hell are you and why the fuck are you up in my business? second... goingout on a few dates does not make anyone anyone's property. I don't give a fuck who else they date just don't fucking lie to me. if i ask a question i want a straight answer. I might be a tad bit too trusting but damnit that is who i am. you want my honest opinion? people generally have 3 chances with me. I don't care if I'm totally in love with you or you're just an acquaintance. you screw up and waste your chances, you are done. i don't want you in my life again. I prize loyalty and honesty above almost everything else. if you can't give me that then dont bother. I don't appreciate being hurt or used so careful which side you choose to be on! tyvm now stop spreading lies.

Slayer - Bloodline One Of My Fav Slayer Songs
Eternal the kiss I breathe Sucked in your blood to me Feel my wounds of your God Forever reign immortality I smell of death I reek of hate I will live forever Lost child, pain of death Bleeding screams of silence In my veins your eternity I'll kill you and your dreams tonight Begin new life Bleed your death upon me Let your Bloodline feed my youth First breath 'fore I come alive Learn to kill Blood thirst the ways you feed your hunger Dark shy has no rival test your faith in blood Nightime as hunting packs of feeding frenzy I'll kill you and your dreams tonight Begin new life Bleed your death upon me Let your Bloodline feed my youth I am the first after last Commune by a single kiss Betray eternally I'll rip inside your soul Contaminating the world Deviding Godless sun Black art to face your death There will be a hit for me Lead - King Take the flesh of life itself Prepare to reign a thousand years I'll kill you and your dreams tonight Begin new life Ble

Help Me Please>>>>>
ok my fone got cut off and i dont get paid till tuesday next week and my daughters really really sick ill do anything if someone will pay it online for me just click this link below and enter 813-384-0957 as number my bill is 57.00 please someone help me https://payments.billmatrix.com/MetroPCS/Welcome.asp

Knee Surgey
ok so last monday i went in and had my right knee scoped basically i had all my torn cartlidge taken out . I went to the the doc for my follow up visit and found out that i have partial bone on bone and no dcartlidge left in my right knee so wich means within the next 10 yrs i will be going in for a knee replacement which should be fun NOT.

Ranting - Chapter 1 -
I don't understand this website. Noone ever write me, nor buys me a drink. Do I have to post some "half dressed pix or what".. I am a fun filled girl that can def keep a converstation going.... Well im off to bring the puppy to the vet.... Untill my next ranting take care

So I Write A Lil Smut Now And Then
I've shared some of my writings with a few on here and starting to feel comfortable with actually posting some of it, if the interest is there. I'll be honest, Im a perv but this is a great outlet for all those (he he) thoughts. this opener is also to see if there is open interest and if not, well I'll just keep'm in PM's and delete this blog. Below is a short story, some on here have read already. Most of what I put in here will be along these same lines, so if it dont interest ya now, it wont on the next entry either, lol... anyway.. The fog had not lifted as John headed out to his truck. Even the slight mist falling did not break his minds thoughts of the night before. No, it was still wrapped in the warm sheets snuggled close to his lover, still sticky from their night of passion. Vivid memories of her face screaming out in ecstasy, flashed in his mind as he started his truck. The moans echoing in his head seemed to oscillate with the motor as it warmed up. Ev

Love
Love isn't about attraction.. not about infatuation.. not about lust.. not about gifts and the lenght of time you spent together.. Bottom line? There's no reason at all.. TRUE LOVE is having to wake up each day feeling so deeply inlove and overwhelmingly happy whenever this person is around you without even knowing why.. making you forget the past.. cherish the present and wishing the FUTURE would be spending the entirely of your lives together...

Hardcore Pics Are Now Family-only. Find Out How To Be In My Family!
My NSFW hardcore pics are now family-only. These are really naughty and hardcore pics of me having sex or masturbating. If you're not in my family, you don't get to see them and I won't send them to your email either. So the next question is, how to get onto my family list? People I know personally and whom I enjoy frequent contact with will be added naturally. I'll only add people voluntarily if we've established a good relationship. And yes, this takes time, given my busy schedule. On the other hand, if you really can't wait, you can buy family status with favours. This includes gifting FuBling, VIP status and blasts, or a generous amount of Fubucks. Also, anyone who Fu-Owns me or is in a Fu-Marriage with me will qualify for my family list in that amount of time that you Fu-own me or are Fu-married to me. Just a note though, Fu-ownership doesn't last very long and sometimes, I get bought by someone else before i even log in to acknowledge your ownership. So buy at your own discr

Translation!
Since my days on Fubar I have been easily confused or some might say lost in translation. Here are a few that now actually make sense now I know. If you have anymore let me know, I won't feel so lame when I have to ask in future! English Bold - American unbold AArse- Ass, Advert- Commerical, Autumn- FallBBoot (of car)- Trunk, Biscuit- Cookie, Box- BoothBarrister- Attorney, Bin- Trash Can, Bungalow- Single storey house, Bum bag- fanny pack, Bar maid/man- BartenderCChips- fries, Crisps- potato chips, Casualty/ A&E- ERCaravan- Trailer, Cupboard- closet, Candy floss- cotton candyCanteen- Cafeteria, Crumpet- English MuffinChemist- Drugstore, Car Park- parking lotDDummy- Pacifier, Double yellow lines- no parking zoneDressing gown- robe, Dinner jacket- tuxedoE - Cant think of any!FFag- cigarette, Football- Soccer, Fire brigade- fire departmentFather Christmas- Santa Claus, Flat- apartmentFlat mate- room mate, Film- MovieGGay- fagHHoliday- VacationIInsect- BugJJelly- Jello, Jam- jelly, Ju

Ex Stalking Me
http://www.fubar.com/user/2903072 This link is to my ex Billy he is stalking me bad I have blocked him on myspace and now fubar, he doesn't like the fact I am seeing someone on here and it's pissing me an him off. He already pissed a chick off on here so woman you better watch it.

Everything's Always My Fault...
that's my conclusion after what happened yesterday...my stepdad and I got into a really bad argument....til the point I just said fuck it and fuck you since I'm such a damn problem around here, he won't have to worry about it much longer....I was really pissed at that point and could've killed him so I just left the house...where I was going I didn't know and I really didn't give a damn...anywhere was better then being near him at that point....I went to a neighbors house and told them if anyone came looking for me..like my dad...that I'm not here...I really didn't wanna see him at all....so some hours later after I've calmed down a bit...who rings the doorbell....my dad...they told him and he left... So how's everything my fault.....fuck if I know still...it seems I'm just easier to blame for all the bullshit that's happening right now and I'm tired of it...really to point where I just want to end it all and be done

Maxim's Hometown Hotties Contest - This Week Only!!
Okay it's up!http://www.maxim.com/hotties/hotties_voting.aspx8th row, 2nd photo in - Melanie Pitts, Nanaimo, BCYou can vote daily. You don't need to log in, and you don't need to sign up. You can vote daily too! So what are you waiting for - GO VOTE - Please ;) Thank-you for your support!Enjoy your day!Melanie www.melaniepitts.com

Fubar Stalker Alert
http://www.fubar.com/user/290307 He think to solve problems you need to fight and not work things out . He is a drug addict and abuses alcohol . I really feel for his parents they have gone through a living hell with him . He was just recently kicked out of court ordered rehad for fighting. So if you dont want this kind of person on your page please block him .

Fuckin Hilarious
20 rules for drunk dialing 1. Only drunk dial when you are drunk. Everything else is falseadvertisement.2.It is okay to call someone 27 times in one night. If you don'tremember it, it didn't happen.3.If you are going to drunk dial a family member, say something nice. Ex. "Mom I'm in McDonald's and they're playing our song. I love you"4.Dirty talk while drunk dialing is always preferred. Who doesn't want to hear your best raspy, phone sex voice at 3 in the A.M. asking to bend them/you over something.5.Voicemails are always better. This way your friend can let theirfriends have fun at your expense for days, even weeks to come.6.Drunk texting is alright... If you are prepared to read what youwrote the next day when you are sober.7.It is definitely a good idea to call all of your exes and remind them that you were the best lover they've ever had and everything they know, they learned from you. This way you can sleep well at night.8.You can also call this same ex and let her/him know,

Here Are The Cullens A/f/r/us
COME CHECK OUT THE CULLENS PROFILES EDWARD ANTHONY MASEN CULLEN~MY HUSBAND~ Edward Cullen ( A Twilight role playing profile) Looking for my Bella@ fubar RENESMEE CULLEN~MINE AN EDWARDS DAUGHTER Renesmee Carlie Cullen 'A TWILIGHT ROLEPLAYING PROFILE'@ fubar EMSE CULLEN-OUR MOTHER ESME CULLEN ~A TWILIGHT ROLEPLAYING PROFILE~@ fubar ALICE CULLEN-MY SISTER Alice Cullen~ Looking for my Jasper~ A twilight Role Playing Profile ~@ fubar JASPER HALE-MY BROTHER Jasper@ fubar ROSEALIE HALE-MY SISTER rosealie cullen`A TWILIGHT ROLEPLAYING PROFILE`@ fubar EMMETT CULLEN-MY BROTHER Emmett Cullen@ fubar

Do You Know Twilight
GOOD MORNING ALL TWILIGHT FANS I JUST WANTED TO PERSONALLY THANK EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU ALL FOR BEARING WITH US AS WE WENT OUT HUNTING FOR THE ENTIRE CULLEN FAMILY...IN WHICH WE FINISHED THAT MISSION YESTERDAY WE WILL BE SEEING THE REST OF THE CULLENS AND EXTRAS HOPEFULLY SOME TIME TODAY IF ALL GOES AS PLANNED. WE WILL BE SEEING CARLISE COMING OUT ALONG WITH JACOB BLACK MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS SOUL MATE....WE REALLY HOPE TO MAKE THIS ALL FUN AND EXCITING FOR ALL OF YOU. WE KNOW YOU ALL HAVE YOUR FAVORITES FROM THE CULLENS BUT THATS OKAY WE LOVE ALL OUR FANS AND FRIENDS AND AS TIME GOES ON WE HOPE TO ADD NEW MEMBERS AND MAYBE EVEN INDUCTING YOU AS AN ADOPTED CULLEN LOL CAN NEVER HAVE TO MANY VAMPIERS....LATER WE ARE HOPING TO BRING OUT THE VOULTARY AND THE WOLF PAC MEMBERS BUT THIS IS IN THE FUTURE TO COME IF THINGS GO AS PLANNED...SO ANYWAYS HAVE A GREAT DAY AND AS ALWAYS BE SAFE AND STOP IN AN SHOW US SOME LOVE WE RETURN THE LOVE LOYALLY. MUCH LOVE TO YOU ALL BELLA CULLEN

Ted Nugent...
i was listenin to the radio this mornin...rod ryan(the dj for the mornin show i listen to) was talkin bout make a wish...he said that a 6 year old lil girl was given a wish...of all the things she could wish for she wanted to meet ted nugent!! just thought it was kinda interesting... ...yall know my blogs are always useless..lol

Free 2 Pc Kfc Meal
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Untitled Song 5-6-2009
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If One Day
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To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait" To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her. To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down. To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. .... To every guy that she cried in front of... To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes..... To every guy that would give his seat up... To every guy that just wants to cuddle. To every guy that reassure

Common Sense/poetry
when I foccu on whats good today, Ihave a good day,and when I focus on whats bad i have a bad day. i i focus on the problem, the problem increaces; if I focus on the answer ,the answer increases. others my glasses may be backwards in that caes I NEED TO TURN THEM AROUND TO SEE WHATS GOOD IN EVERY BODY ,instead f what is badin everybody thats placed in my life.

I'm Deleting My Account Friday!
Just wanted to let friends/fans know that I'm deleting my fubar account on Friday. You're welcome to contact me via myspace. www.myspace.com/veronica_renee if you want to keep in touch! Veronica

Caa #98
ANother dear friend has ciontacted me and her son also needs angel prayers, angel healing and angel love. Please sen out emergency prayers for him as well as all the other sons and daughter who may need our prayers. Doc

Going To The Dentist Anxiety
ok so at 9 am I have a dentist appt.. my first in 5 days. its a new dentist so that also makes me anxious. I dont like going to the dentist just makes me nervous I guess. last time they tried to pull a tooth out and it never came out b/c it hurt too much. in fact thats anothing worry.. they will still have to pull that same tooth out. but I guess if I just go and get it over with I will have no more anxiety or worries right? any advice?

A Melodoic Marine
A Melodic MarineBefore his legs carried him With strides that are longHis delightful little voice Was nare without songHe lived in a worldWhere momma taughtRight versus wrongBones, muscles and mindsGrew progressively strongHe learned that singingWas the way angels praySo upon the pianoHis sister did playAs papa danced a bowon the fiddleIn his own special wayMany deep voicesJoined in so they sayRound about the timeHair sprouted on his faceHis tiny tenor voiceNature did replaceWhere once beforeNo note was too highIt was now harmonious bassThat bellowed outAmazing GraceOff to fight evilWith modern weapon in handMarching and singingNow in distant sandWith thoughts driftingBack to a lone sisterbut a family well mannedAnd daisy filled meadowsExactly as God plannedDon’t think for an instantHis tunes aren’t missingBy those who carry himAs one of life’s blessingsA voice soothing and lowIs heard by many heartsFree to listenAnd in peaceful dreams His songs do their caressing t

The Gift And The Curse
Drinking sweet nectar from the flow of a stream Rose petals flying in a whirlwind around me Totally oblivious to the reality that I stand, yet escape Until a hand touches my shoulder, beckoning me to awake Sorry to disturb you, a voice speaks unto me As my eyes, regain their focus, on reality Standing before me with eyes wanting to know A soul with desire, that wants to go where I roam I have been searching for you Wordsmith, the voice speaks unto me Please take me with you, in your journey of dreams I hear you can create, Castles made of gold Make miseries disappear, as if they never unfold I seek your gift, I want to escape Grace me with your dreams, take me away.. I speak aloud; a gift you say? Not all the places I dream, are what you may call safe At times, I walk amongst the fires of hell Over shading the innocence, of a mind I do tell Not all Castles are made of gold, as you imagine, you see.. Some are made of black coal that houses doom, you will want to flee

A Tale Of Two Journalists; Roxana Saberi And Sam Dodson
I have recently written separate commentaries on two jailed journalists. One, Roxana Saberi, has received a great deal of attention from the mainstream media and her case has been widely reported on and disseminated across the globe. The other case is that of Sam Dodson. His case has gotten virtually no attention from the mainstream media. As he languishes in a jail cell refusing to eat his plight has only been discussed on few liberty oriented blogs. I begin to wonder why this should be and thought an examination of the differences between the two cases might shed some light on this phenomenon. It was interesting to note, as I researched these cases, that the Committee to Protect Journalists (CPJ) reported that last year there were 125 journalists jailed worldwide as of their census of Dec. 1st, 2008. Yet one must wonder exactly how accurate their count is in these times when the Internet provides a means for anyone to become a journalist. The CPJ itself makes an interesting stateme

I Love This Bar
i have to say that this place rocks u meet cool people have a great time and the lounges offer great tunes im not trying to hye up this place if u are a member u know what i mean so i have to say this place is where it at rock out with youre c***k out very one who read this thank for taking the time im new at it so u have a great night

Words On The Screen
Walking bare foot on the sand Listening to the sound of the birds Looking at your beautiful bare hand But all my words are left unheard... Saying that I hate...Don't I? Never understood my thoughts Calling the ghosts which caught my eye I come to a place where they do not... I hear the laughter of the faires, why? I think they are laughing at me I know that my world is a imaginary lie But there is no way out, it will never be Running away, hoping not to fall I go towards the black skies again I don't feel any pain, not at all But I do feel fear against them... The laughter continues, am I insane? The white snow falls on my hair... Isn't this just a cruel, weak game? If it is, they aren't playing fair... Nightmares continue, am I asleep? Reality still is scarier than my dreams My darkness is forever yours to keep There is no other way, it seems... No, I am not lost, I am just alone Facing the creatures, it is almost dawn Why do I hide from them on my own? No one helps me, now I a

The Mask She Wears
She wears it like a mask Each time she comes to me, A shroud to cloud my eyes, A veil I cannot see. But her mask is just a ruse, An aspect of her game. It hides the girl behind The fiction of her name. That name is but a symbol Of the role she plays for me, A promise unfulfilled, A hope of what could be. Removing all between us, Clothed only in her name, Her touch is my illusion, Setting heart and loin aflame. A mirage within a dream, A ghost of fragile youth, She is fantasy. And fire. And beauty born of truth. Her name is but a name, A symbol, just a mask - Concealing what I see, Revealing what I ask.

Paint For Me
Paint me a pretty rainbow and color it with reds; Bring to me a dream to spin with golden gilded threads And sing to me a song that lifts and puts on me a smile And when you're walking through my mind, stay in there awhile. Place upon my lips a soft blown kiss and if you'll be so kind; Leave behind a memory to impress upon my mind. Slowly back away from me when walking out the door And tell to me once more, what you're leaving for. Plant a rose of deepest pink to grow outside my window And after removing the thorns; a cutting upon my pillow. Make the moon again to shine and the stars to twinkle; Whisper to me a word of love that brings my eyes to sparkle. Come with me and dance once more; a slow romantic waltz, And p

Teardrop
A teardrop fell upon the rose That she held close to her breast. In sympathy, the petals closed, As she saw her love at rest. The rose it seemed to feel her pain As one by one her petals fell And upon the stem of thorns, Now fell the pouring rain. Bending down, she picked the petals And to herself, she drew them near; She saw, in the rose, her broken heart And on the petal, her fallen tear. Between the pages of a book, She placed the petals tenderly And the rose, it shed a tear, As if it cried in sympathy. The words, on the pages read, Forever, my love, remember me And when you see a rose of red, Remember, love, to remember me.

So Happy
i am so happy, i've got a wonderful future hubbie and things have been goin so good for me. it's not perfect but nothing is. me and my high school sweetheart have been on again off again for a while, and we're back together again and this time it's set. we have our three babies and are so happy together. i can't wait for the soon upcoming day where i'll be his wife :D i've never loved anyone the way i love this man. he's the only man that knows me and what i need. he's the first real man to come in my life that i respect and care about. we've had our problems, but worked through them all. he's wonderful and i love him lots :) it's a wonderful feeling loving someone this much. i'm so lucky to have such a wonderful sweet guy. i never thought i would be in love like this, it's incredible.

Pimp Outs
Do you want one? Just tell me if you do here and I will give them out in order of the comments. What's the catch? Nothing,I do it because I can. Just leave a comment and I will start again tomorrow. Remember,I only have 3 a day so have some patience :-) By the way,this new blog crap sucks!!!

Sing;e Amd Ready Tp Mimgle
hell ya happy no finally over that girl that i loved so much she broke my heart and im threw wit her but ne ways im back in the action if u want to hang out come down to odessa tx and we will for sure if not jus text or call me my number is 4323496833 ya ya

Why Women Cry
----------------- Bulletin Message ----------------- From: ☠☠"The Unknown" ☠☠ To: Date: May 5, 2009 10:29 PM Subject: WHY WOMAN CRY TY ANGEL! >~Nita aka ~eerie~♥~One Heartbeat Of Love~♥~WHY WOMEN CRYReposted with love by~~♥~One Heartbeat Of Love~♥~Thank youLadyInRed “Why Women Cry”A little boy asked his mother, 'Why are you crying?''Because I'm a woman,' she told him, 'I don't understand,' he said, His Mom just hugged him and said,'And you never will,'Later the little boy asked his father, 'Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?''All women cry for no reason,' was all his dad could say, The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry,Finally he put in a call to God, When God got on the phone, he asked,'God, why do women cry so easily?' God said: 'When I made the womanshe had to be special, I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentleenough to give comfort,

*sighs*
how do you tell someone you love them and dont want to live without them..... so they know you mean it? every time your away from them you feel alone.... and empty.... what do you do when your in love with someone...... when your sitting here trying to find the words to explain, and you know their all there.... but you cant seep to put them down...... plain n simple fact that all i can come up with is.... i love her with everything i have, and im going insane without her..... what more is there to say to that?????

Just A Little Post Script To My Blog From Earlier Today
I felt it necessary to add this...I don't want anyone thinking I'm going emo on them...lol...this is a reply I made to a comment left on that blog...and it truly does say what I meant...Hugs everyone! "i honestly do feel my existence is needed and appreciated...my thoughts on this blog were on how society is today...as if life is cheap...and peoples emotions aren't even important...the online life forgets that there is a real person behind that fake profile name...i have been told repeatedly that what happens on line isn't real...so anything goes...but real people get hurt and other real people doing the hurting don't give a damn...that's basically where i'm coming from in this blog...just a lot of thought into the minds of some of the people i have met..."

Extra $$$
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My Stomach Hurts Now =]
Well I just had one of the best laughs I've had in quite a while. It felt great. Now I'm sure you all are probably wondering what in the world it could have been. Well, I'll tell you =] I was lying on my bed, MuMMing. My youngest son had decided that his bed just wasn't "comfortable", so he moved to mine. The way I seen it, I could just move him back to his when he fell back asleep. But damn, he wouldn't stop moving. My foot had already been asleep because I was talking to Van on the phone for over an hour, sitting on my foot. At that point, it was all tingly and he was rolling all over it. It hurt. He then tells me that he wants to lay back in his bed. He goes and things are fine. My foot is normal and I'm not having a child rolling all over my legs. Then I hear it..."Mommy, I need to go pee!". It's not just a normal tone, it's pure panic. Like he will NOT make it to the bathroom. So I tell him to go. He runs to the bedroom door and then comes back telling me he can't get the door

Wuts Up
So ive had some shit been goin....fuckin no job. been single for awhile. usually i sit at home but i was kidnapped recently lol...not in a bad way of course. Ive recently just rejoined fubar and i missed it a lot. Im happy to have the friends i have on here. i hope for more of course...but this is just my first blog entry that id figure i would write. so hope everyone is doin well

Pet Loss Poems
if it shouls be that i grow weak and pain should keep me from my sleep; then you must do what must be done, for this last battle cant be won. you will be sad, i understand; but don't let greif then stay your hand. for this day more than all rest, you love for me must stand the test. we've had so many happy years; what is to come can hold no fears. you dont want me to suffer so the time has come, please let me go. take me where my need they'll tend, but please stay woth me'til the end to hold me close and speak to me until my eyes no longer see. i know in time you will agree, it was a kindness done for me. although my tail its last has waved, from pain and suffereing i'm saved. please do not grieve that it was you who had this painful thing to do we've been so close, we two, through the years; don't let your heart hold any tears. AUTHOR UNKNOWN I COPIED THIS FROM A WEBSITE THAT HELPS ME GET OVER MY LOSS OF PETS!!!

Quaff
quaff \KWOFF; KWAFF\, verb:1. To drink a beverage, esp. an intoxicating one, copiously and with hearty enjoyment. transitive verb:1. To drink (a beverage) copiously and heartily noun:1. An act or instance of quaffing.2. A beverage quaffed.

School Girl Nite 2
ok everyone back by popular demand we r having school girl nite again tonight starting at 11pm but this time u get to ask one thing for the cam girls to do just for you. its gonna b a lot of fun so plz come join us.

Fu Bar Boredom
It's only every the first few weeks I'm back on this site that I find it entertaining. After that, everything gets fucking boring. I don't know what it is,but this site bores the shit out of me. I'll do whatever it is that I normally do. (which is next to nothing) Make a few "friends" only to have them turn out to be whiney ass bitches. Prime example is someone who's given me a lot of drinks on here the last few days. I thought "cool. Made a friend. Go into the lounge today, and she's accusing me of being an ass to the other bitches in the lounge. I ignored her, and was subsequently banned from the lounge. If that's how people really are here, fuck it. Don't need the drama.

Salutes
Well, ive decided...i want them. Lots of them. Ive even deleted an entire folder to accommodate them, lol. I want YOUR salutes; With the Anonymous Motto "never forgive, never forget" upon whichever canvas and with whatever medium you so desire; as well as my aforementioned name, "Anon" or "Anonymous". Poo, blood, crayons, markers, flesh, pubes...anything. Male, female, and tranny are welcome; as well as albinos and midgets. If you necessitate some form of compensation, im willing to assist you in that aspect.... SO, get to it, NAO!

The Aisle Seat
The Aisle Seat Two Radical Arab Terrorist types boarded a flight out of London . One took a window seat and the other sat next to him in the middle seat. Just before takeoff, a U.S. Marine sat down in the aisle seat. After takeoff, the Marine kicked his shoes off, wiggled his toes and was settling in when the Arab in the window seat said, “I need to get up and get a coke.” “Don't get up,” said the Marine, “I'm in theaisle seat, I'll get it for you.” As soon as he left, one of the Arabs picked up the Marines shoe and spat in it. When the Marine returned with the coke, the other Arab said, “That looks good, I'd really like one, too.” Again, the Marine obligingly went to fetch it. While he was gone the other Arab picked up the Marines other shoe and spat in it. When the Marine returned, they all sat back and enjoyed the flight. As the plane was landing, the Marine slipped his feet into his shoes and knew immediately what had happened.

Hooker Flowers
Well, I liked the new "pro flowers" gift till I realized they got rid of the seasonal gift section. The VIP gift, flashing hearts, is in there. :( My VIP expires in 2 days and I like that gift and now I can't buy it for anyone. That's my rant. Kind of lame, yes, but still a rant. As you were.

50 Signs Of Fibromyalgia
50 Signs of Fibromyalgia:1. pain2. fatigue3. sleep disorder4. morning stiffness5. cognitive or memory impairment6. irritable bowel7. chronic headaches8. TMJ syndrome9. numbness and tingling sensation10. muscle twitching11. skin sensitivities12. dry eyes and mouth13. dizziness14. allergic symptoms15. mitral valve prolapse16. heel or arch pain17. brain fatigue18. painful periods19. chest pains, noncardiac20. depression21. panic attacks22. irritable bladder23. multiple chemical sensitivities24. joint hypermobility25. suicidal26. personality changes27. lightheadedness28. disequilibrium29. severe muscle weakness30. intolerance of bright lights31. alteration of taste, smell, hearing32. low frequency, sensorineural hearing loss33. decreased painful sound threshold34. ringing in the ears35. exaggerated involuntary rapid eye movement36. changes in visual acuity37. intolerance of alcohol38. enhancement of medication side effects39. intolerance of previously tolerated medications40. severe nasal

What Is Fibromyalgia?
DefinitionYou hurt all over, and you frequently feel exhausted. Even after numerous tests, your doctor can't find anything specifically wrong with you. If this sounds familiar, you may have fibromyalgia.Fibromyalgia is a chronic condition characterized by widespread pain in your muscles, ligaments and tendons, as well as fatigue and multiple tender points — places on your body where slight pressure causes pain. Fibromyalgia is more common in women than in men. Previously, fibromyalgia was known by other names such as fibrositis, chronic muscle pain syndrome, psychogenic rheumatism and tension myalgias.Although the intensity of your symptoms may vary, they'll probably never disappear completely. It may be reassuring to know, however, that fibromyalgia isn't progressive or life-threatening. Treatments and self-care steps can improve fibromyalgia symptoms and your general health.SymptomsSigns and symptoms of fibromyalgia can vary, depending on the weather, stress, physical activity

Being Yourself!!!
If you ever think you are alone remember you are one of over a billion people on this planet.Pace yourself; you have a whole life to fill.God has given you everything you need to suceed.Keep your head up and a smile on your face; unless you can't.Wish upon a star, you never know what might come true.Always think of way to have fun, then go and do it.Try, Try, Try and you'll Suceed, Suceed, Suceed.Always rely on your friends and family for things you can't do yourself.Never think you can't do something, because that is the only way that you can't.If you keep looking back, you'll never move forward.At a certain point, you need to stop thinking of others and start thinking of yourself.Try as you might you can't change someone that doesn't want to change.If you know what you want-go and get it.If you love someone don't give up on them.Never change for someone who won't change for you.

Love The Hate
a shedevil a succubus a down-low dirty bitch a cunt a whore I'll suck the life from you and so much more. a liar a tramp an outlaw of means a criminal a fighter a shit starter...(please)..who me? you label me so often are you obsessed? you love me you hate me it's no matter to me I live my life beyond your opinion someplace where my spirit is free you must have no life at all left so much time spent thinking of new insults but still I stand unwaivered and unbroken and all you can do is go and pound salt I wouldn't spit on you if your teeth were on fire is that your way of saying I fill you with desire? I love the hate I feed the flame you'll never destroy me by calling me names

Beloved Imortally
I hide hide behind my laughter hide beneath my fears far below my smile and oceans amidst my tears I see see with the eyes of a mystic soul beyond the stars and the moon deep within a wounded heart above the morality of religeon amongst the rebellion of a generation I feel feel the beat of your heart the warmth of you breath the coolness of the breeze the mist of the dawn I touch touch with the tenderness of an angel with the softness of a flowers petal with the curiosity of a child with the care of a healer I love love with the heart of a dreamer to the depths and heights of none before me without knowledge of a beginning and end without reserve without disguise I kiss kiss with lips painted wine the furrowed lashes of your brow the buttery softness of your neck the weathered hands you place in mine I take take the precious offer of your love the leap into your arms the fall from the heavens the union of our souls the heat of our blended desire I

Rise!!!
With society in this twist of genocidial hateforced to fear by a government that does nothing but regulateand propagate confusion within the weakto put words into motionreleasing kept mindsthis used to be our priveledgenow it is our crimeSILENT NO LONGER with ignorant mentalityup on a soap box with a plan for realityHow can one stand?How can one speak?and yet find the strength to go out and preach?to teach?to RISE againstNO MORE, say youshall we be lambs to the slaughterbleeding outto feed our fatherto fight his war which fuels his gainRISERISE, I beg youdon't be plaina wise man spokebefore he was brokeand said fear NOTHING but fearevery great man who has had a planhas been reaped in the prime of their yearthis power is scaredand the speaker can no longer be silencedfor his message was givenbefore they brought him violenceSo SPEAK i say youtell all who will listenthat it is our dutyand our missionas a peoplered, white, yollow and blackto rise upand take the power back!

The Demoralization Of Me
There are so many thoughts racing through my mind so many things that fill my brain the thoughts alone swim like rancid fish in waters filled with plague they twist they turn they fight they swerve they consume and own the real they bite they tear away an unleash a poison that fills me deep with fear I am just a woman phenominal raw and wholly devoted creative and deep but your wicked words seep and steal away the sense of self and release my rage how can I be? be a sweet little angel a model citizen a sister a friend a daughter with perfect politeness with divine innocence when you scutinize demoralize and make me want to rip your eyes from their prying sockets? I want to smash and smother your hate your disgust and intolerance of the life that I've made You don't even know me only what you claim to see so how do I look with one eye open? how would you like to bleed? you pollute the world with your ignorance and lies you judge and seten

The Moon And Me
In the solice of the moon beneath it's shimmering light all the world is still atleast it seems....tonight the whisper of the wind as it rushes over me sounds like voices chanting when it rustles through the trees alone in thoughts I ponder existance reality alone there my heart is peaceful once laden with fear and wonder for all the tears I've cried are sunk and now asunder I feel a power rise in me as it shimmers upon my skin alone like me; it radiats and manages to force a grin we're not so different the moon and me both mysterious and haunting and bound to the lives we lead both secretly powerful not flaunting our wears both distant and lovely ever-changing and fair outwardly alone but like secret lovers we sneak into the darness of the night to comfort to empower to dream

Your Kryptonite
man of steel you make me swill and soar and swoon so intoxicating words enticing and invigorating making me moist and warm so deep in thought with a swarm of emotion tempting you to take a swim in my ocean let me fuel your passion make your fires burn be the object of your fantasies teach me I can learn let me be the whispers in your ear the sweat upon your skin let me push you away a little just to pull you close again i wanna make you weak make you lose control bewitch your mind and make you mine even if it takes some time don't ask me why don't tell me no don't try to fight I wanna be your kryptonite

Fare Thee Well
empty arms that long to hold you pouting lips yearning for your kiss weary body aching to be near you you must know you will be missed ears that hunger to hear your voice feet that beg to journey just to find you there pages filled with poetry to let you know I care hands that pray for your safe return a mind that thinks you are rare a heart that hopes it gets to learn of your loving care my friend it's sad to see you go even worse for you to be gone goodbyes have never been my thing so, I'll just say so long until then catch you later a tot bien, ciao don't forget me remember the way home because here is where I'll be waiting and I hate to be alone.

In The Shadow
abandon me bewilder me my heart is lost without you a dark and lonesome seed without the warmth of your smile void of the light in your laughter sinking deep within the soiled earth to hide to hibernate so lost without you the darkess grows around me and spins a tangeled web so cold so sheltered a wimper and a cry for all that I have lost for that which I cannot reclaim withered here and weak in just the shadow of your name

Kreative Kissable Kissers Kiss Me!
kissable kisses and kissers alike kreate krafty kisses and kiss with delight kiss with a smile kiss in a pile kiss all the while and kiss while you wish kiss with eyelashes kiss on the lips kiss with sunglasses and make your hips switch kiss when your krying when your lying in green grass and when your angry kiss my ass kiss with courage kiss with pride kiss with lovely lips painted like wine kiss like kreative kissable kissers do kiss me, and I'll kiss you kiss me here kiss me there kiss me in the rain or on a train or in a plane but never, never, make it plain kiss me soft or in a loft kiss me high kiss me low kiss me with my hair in bows kiss me sweetly kiss me neatly kiss me beneath the sea kiss me with your eyes shut tightly kiss me slow try to delight me kiss me fast and first and last in future and past with my hand to grasp where my necklace clasps and while people applaud kiss me just kiss me before all my kisses are gone.

Writing Lyrics Can Be Compared To...
....a woman. Or rather the ideas and sound to them. Sometimes your ideas are good and you are on the ball making every smooth move and transitioning like a pro as the lyrics shape themselves and the ideas come to you without any hassle, other times you wipe out and things just don't seem to go your way cuz the ideas are against you just being a bitch. Lol, ah well, guess you have to roll with the punches. Too bad I have work early tommorow morning. At least I could find a way to sort things out in when it comes to writing lyrics.

Live, Laugh, And Love By John Mcleod
Live….laugh…and Love By John McLeod Live well dear friends In all you do, Tho' paths be old Or paths be new, But to yourself Be ever true, Live well! Laugh often friends Tho' passing years Bring, sometimes, smiles And, sometimes, tears, For mirth forever Warms and cheers Laugh often! Love much dear friends For love will bring The healing joy And hope of Spring, Where pain and fear may never dwell Nor anguish touch…. And so Live well, Laugh often too, And more, dear friends, Love much!

Stuff
A packet of one hundred $100 bills is less than 1/2" thick and contains $10,000. Fits in your pocket easily and is more than enough for week or two of shamefully decadent fun. Believe it or not, this next little pile is $1 million dollars (100 packets of $10,000). You could stuff that into a grocery bag and walk around with it. While a measly $1 million looked a little unimpressive, $100 million is a little more respectable. It fits neatly on a standard pallet... And $1 BILLION dollars... now we're really getting somewhere... Next we'll look at ONE TRILLION dollars. This is that number we've been hearing so much about. What is a trillion dollars? Well, it's a million million. It's a thousand billion. It's a one followed by 12 zeros. You ready for this? It's pretty surprising. Go ahead... Scroll down... Ladies and gentlemen... I give you $1 trillion dollars ... (And notice those pallets are double stacked .) So the next time you hear someone toss around the phrase

About Me, At A Glance.
Hi, I am a looong time single guy, pretty basic, that has his own beliefs. I think you'll find Im quite unique, I' haven't had a house hold pet since 1989, I never smoked, or did drugs, had tattoos. The are alot of things I had regreted, not done etc. I don't get out much, my partying days are pretty much faded..Im mellowed out.Im in my own world alot, quite the outcast. On spare time, (which is rare) I journey around, wander around. Right now, Im at the point where, I (having just got shit straightened out) finally am able to see where I should be going in my life. Never having had a g/f, being in a relationship or mingling, perhaps now before my 28th birthday is the time to be somebody"Any objections? Is this the Ultra idea?

Questionaire Numero Uno
BASICS: Name: Age: Location: Height: Hair (color and style): Eyes: Piercings/tattoos: OTHER: 1. Where would we go on dates? 2. Who is your favorite artist? 3. Do you drink/smoke? 4. Do you like the rain?i 5. If so...would you play in it with me? 6. Do you like movies? 7. If so would you stay up and watch them with me all night? 8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together? 9. Would you kiss my neck? 10. Do you play any sports?

Scammer Alert !!!
These two owe my foster mom $100's of dollars for graphics for their Radio station here on fubar and myspace..Thay owe me for getting band's for them and designs ..DON'T trust them thay will use you and louse you them blame it all on you and bad mouth you to everyone.Thay also have been having people kick in donations to keep the radio station going BUT spend the money on concerts and booz. Rev.Ethar-CoOwner/FuPastor@DarkmoonEnterprises@ fubar Pryjmaty~Co-Owner @ Darkmoon Enterprises~@ fubar Save yourself the time and just ignore these louser's (repost of original by 'http://fubar.com/user/54395">*Lady Witoka*#1 Master Morpher Owner Of Darkmoon Graphics & Kingdom Of Wolves Fubar Married 2 tg1492' on '2009-05-05 09:50:07')

It Wasn't Supposed To Be Like This...
Yeah, this is another negative one, GTFO now if you don't wanna read it. I'm sure most of this has to do with stress and not my radiation treatments. But I'm losing hair in clumps, I have irritable bowels, daily headaches, and now besides the itchy, red, blistery skin, the entire left chest / armpit area feels like a massive bruise. I don't know how much of that is related to my raking mulch around in my landscape beds, and how much might be some kinda radiation side effect. And I'm nauseous, and have some nasty reflux going on. Thank goodness I only have 8 more days of treatment left. I'm crossing my fingers until May 15, and hope I'm doing better a week later on my birthday.

Trauma
My pain is deep this hill is steep this mole hill in my mind. My choice are my voices that speak when only spoken to this world i live is as painful as a shank i feel like a junkie on crank. My mind is grey its in a state of a daze known only to me. this world could be alot more fun if i didnt feel so over run with life and love and matters of the heart it only is nothing but a giant brain fart. With love and time there is nothing left to chance so you do what i like to call the safety dance.

Intresting Laws In Washington State
StalkingRev. CodeWash. § 9A.46.110. 1992. Amended 2006.(1) A person commits the crime of stalking if, without lawful authority and under circumstances not amounting to a felony attempt of another crime:(a) He or she intentionally and repeatedly harasses or repeatedly follows another person; and(b) The person being harassed or followed is placed in fear that the stalker intends to injure the person, another person, or property of the person or of another person. The feeling of fear must be one that a reasonable person in the same situation would experience under all the circumstances; and(c) The stalker either: (i) Intends to frighten, intimidate, or harass the person; or (ii) Knows or reasonably should know that the person is afraid, intimidated, or harassed even if the stalker did not intend to place the person in fear or intimidate or harass the person.(2) (a) It is not a defense to the crime of stalking under subsection (1)(c)(i) of this section that the stalker was not given actual

Feelings
I feel temporary to your world.... You have the strangest effect on my world.... I feel out of sorts and full of loneliness....... You say you want me for ever yet make me see temporary.... Your eyes say it all...... Maybe in another time and place we wouldn't have been so TEMPORARY

*snorts*
hey babe yu are so sexy is ther anyone in your life cuz i would luv ya lol so wht r u lookin for on here im tryin this out for fun ^^^this dude claims to be the CFO of a major corporation *giggles uncontrollably*

Thoughts Of Peopel On Fubar
is it me or does everyone on here sound greedy as hell. i mean i see some profiles with messages saying "bling me now". really???? and if i dont then what. im sorry but i work my ass off to earm my money so y should i spend it on somethign that is meaninless here let me pay money to buy u a stupid icon.... sorry but not happening. and fo rthe peopel who fall for that bullcrap im sure are the same peopel who are always scrounging people for money cause they spend it on here. and aother thing about the blings is that i must give u a bling to see nudes of people...... guess what still not interested. sorry but in my opinion if im buying u bling to see ur nudes doesnt that basically make u a prostitute????? and further more it makes u look slutty if u have more than 10 nudes. yeah sure ur gonna say im just showing what i have and comfy with my body. well i dont mid anyone saying they are comfy with their body but showing it to guys on here who are nly here to get nudes and do crap with the

Spectacular!
I was thinking since one of my blogs had given me the nickname, "spectacular" I wanted to see how many Purely Spectacular flowers I could get from the gift shop. I think they are only about 65 FuBucks, so seems like a cheap enough thing to ask for. ...hey at least I'm not asking for a blast or Happy Hour. =]

Songs Through The Years (1966 Top-100
The Top 100 Songs of 19661. The Ballad Of The Green Berets SSgt Barry Sadler2. Winchester Cathedral New Vaudeville Band3. Cherish Association4. (You're My) Soul And Inspiration Righteous Brothers5. We Can Work It Out Beatles6. Monday, Monday Mama's & Papa's7. Summer In The City Lovin' Spoonful8. Reach Out I'll Be There Four Tops9. The Sounds Of Silence Simon & Garfunkel10. You Can't Hurry Love Supremes11. When A Man Loves A Woman Percy Sledge12. My Love Petula Clark13. You Keep Me Hangin' On Supremes14. Hanky Panky Tommy James & Shondells15 Wild Thing Troggs16. Paint It Black Rolling Stones17. Paperback Writer Beatles18. 96 Tears Question Mark & Mysterians19. Last Train To Clarksville Monkees20. Strangers In The Night Frank Sinatra21. Poor Side Of Town Johnny Rivers22. Lightin' Strikes Lou Christie23. These Boots Are Made For Walki

Why
Why do you cry why dowe die why must lie and why must innocent men fry. The sickness of life only passes once in awhile but when we finally get to the end it feels like the longest mile I only ask this question is why does this happen why must we be ill i ask this question becuase of the life i lead one of torrment and denial also one that i have already defiled the word of mouth is life is short cold lonesome cause of mistakes i have made this has only made me more jaded and frayed. In this life the are winners but also dont forget there are losers which are you choose wisley cause your passion will make you decide

Dilema
So, I am still sick and all, but I really need to get my ass in shape, and its beautiful outside. But my house is a mess, which I am kinda afraid to touch. And if I work out now, then I'll have to take a shower before work, and I hate taking showers... whaaa!!!!

First Night Fun
My opening night at Wellington was just bloody great! A huge turnout and a wonderful audience - Ziggy and the guys at San Francisco Bath House are just the best ever!They really know how to run a comedy gig and we comics appreciate that.I am glad my first night went good, it really tired me out. As soon as my show was over I went straight to the hotel and was asleep for 9.30pm!I got some lovely emails this morning from people who were at the show and they mentioned how poignant the ending was, it really is an emotional show at times, but funny none the less. Am glad the Wellingtonians took to it.The downside is I still DONT have a phone that works, I have been given two mobiles but BOTH need either unlocked or thrown into the ocean for not working well. Does anyone have a cheap pay as you go phone that needs just phone vouchers and can lend it to me until 25th May? Please? The comedy fest crew down here in Wellington are awesome, they said "Call us and we will get you anything you need

Light
dedicated to someone that has helped me pull myself up and out of the dark he knows who he is :D xoxo baby Light i see the light at the end of the tunnel i move towards it and it begins to receed i move towards it, running now but still it receeds finally it disappears and all thats left is darkness it was a lonely and dark world till your hand reached you and found me in the dark

Platoon Of The Dead Premier In Salem, Or
YAY! It's finally here, the moment i have been waiting for! The Platoon of the Dead is finally here! May 29th, tentatively set for 9:15 PM, the Northern Lights Theater Pub in Salem, OR will be holding the premier of John Bowker's Platoon of the Dead! For a mere $3 you can enjoy a superb zombi movie with the actual makers and stars of the film. The time may change so stay tuned! http://www.northernlightstheatrepub.com/ 3893 Commercial St SESalem, OR 97302(503) 585-4232

The Media
yo has anyone had a chance to stop and think about how the media tries to constantly scare us with this shit first it was ebola the anthrax now it swine flu they want u to believe it nothing more than the work of terrorists but we have the biggest terrorist organization in america and it caled the media wake up people

Quote Of The Day
"I'm not dressed to answer the phone!" Yea, this is what my mom said when her friend was calling to see if she was coming out to celebrate cinco de mayo. Do you really need to be dressed to answer the phone? If so, I guess I'm always doing it wrong :P

My Hospital Stay
Ugh lol Just wanted to let everyone know where I have been. I am very sorry for not returning drinks and such, I will be working on it all day. I just spent the last 28 hours in the hospital with a bleeding ulcer. :( Yuck! But it has been cuterized, and I'm all better and home now. Thank you all for the warm wishes! Your the best! :) Lots of Love!

Query
anyone out there actually dying of the swine flu? havent seen anyone wearing masks around here a all. no hoarding either. or is it just media hype again like the bird flu and sars? and I wonder, when I end up coughing cause I smoke or sneezing cause my freezing apartment seems to loose the capacity to have hot water when its cold in there in general-not that its cold outside right now but yeah theres a ghost or something in my little place cause its always at least ten degrees colder in there than outside, and I dont have air conditioning people!

My Mom
so my mom has liver disease and i am helping taking care of her. i know people who are taking care of their mom that is real sick and i guess i never knew the stress that they go through. well i know now how stressful it is to have a mom that is dying and slowly. i never knew how i would feel when this time came, but now i know how it feels and i dont like it. it is the hardest thing in the world. since i have started this i am at the doctors with her twice a week and yet she can get so hateful. i know it is the encephanlopathy that the disease causes and that the disease makes her do some of the stuff but it is very hurtful and stressful. i am stressed out about how she is doing. i dont know if i am gonna wake up tomorrow and she is gonna be and it doesnt help that she is depressed and not sleeping. i needed to vent but i have no idea what to write either because what i feel is so little to what she is going through. i am trying to understand what she is going through but i dont thin

Pumping Gas
TIPS ON PUMPING GASI don't know what you guys are paying for gasoline.... but here in California we are also paying higher, up to $3.50 per gallon. But my line of work is in petroleumfor about 31 years now, so here are some tricks to get more of your money's worth for every gallon..Here at the Kinder Morgan Pipeline where I work in San Jose , CA we deliver about 4 million gallons in a 24-hour period thru the pipeline. One day is diesel the next day is jet fuel, and gasoline, regular and premium grades. We have 34-storage tanks here with a total capacity of 16,800,000 gallons.Only buy or fill up your car or truck in the early morning when the ground temperature is still cold. Remember that all service stations have their storage tanks buried below ground. The colder the ground the more dense the gasoline, when it gets warmer gasoline expands, so buying in the afternoon or in the evening....your gallon is not exactly a gallon. In the petroleum business, the specific gravity and the tempe

Mosquito
THINK SPRING!!! MOSQUITO REMEDY THAT WORKS!! Never hurts to know or try a new method.I just thought I'd share this since we have a mosquito problem here...And Listerine has no DEET in it, which is nicer for spraying on your children and grandchildren! The best way of getting rid of mosquitoes is Listerine, the original medicinal type. The Dollar Store-type works, too. I was at a deck party awhile back, and the bugs were having a ball biting everyone. A man at the party sprayed the lawn and deck floor with Listerine, and the little demons disappeared.The next year I filled a 4-ounce spray bottle and used it around my seat whenever I saw mosquitoes.And voila! That worked as well. It worked at a picnic where we sprayed the area around the food table, the children's swing area, and the standing water nearby. During the summer, I don't leave home without it.....Pass it on.

Comment Contest
ok so i was thinking..... i will give 20k fubux to the most original comment on my pix. starting today and ending on sunday. there is a comment pix folder, these are the only pix i will accept comments on for this contest. now come on guys and girls give me your best shot. good luck

Songs Through The Years (1965 Top-100
listing for a fu-project later this year The Top 100 Songs of 19651. (I Can't Get No) Satisfaction Rolling Stones2. Yesterday Beatles3. Turn! Turn! Turn! Byrds4. I Got You Babe Sonny & Cher5. Help! Beatles6. Mrs. Brown You've Got A Lovely Daughter Herman's Hermits7. You've Lost That Lovin' Feelin' Righteous Brothers8. Downtown Petula Clark9. I Can't Help Myself Four Tops10. Help Me Rhonda Beach Boys11. Stop! In The Name Of Love Supremes12. This Diamond Ring Gary Lewis & Playboys13. Get Off Of My Cloud Rolling Stones14. I'm Telling You Now Freddie & Dreamers15 I Hear A Symphony Supremes16. Eight Days A Week Beatles17. Hang On Sloopy McCoys18. Mr. Tambourine Man Byrds19. My Girl Temptations20. Over And Over Dave Clark Five21. Eve Of Destruction Barry McGuire22. Ticket To Ride Beatles23. Game Of Love Wayne Fontana & Mindbender

If A Tree Falls...
and no one is there to hear it, does it make any sound?Such are the thoughts running through my mind today. That saying makes me wonder about a person's existence. If one person ceases to exist, what effect does it have on the rest of the world if they know?According to what I found on the internet, the estimate world population in February 2009 was 6,761,600,203. I sat here and thought of it in these terms:Take the entire world population and line them up in rows side by side and have them all close their eyes. Then have a hand reache down and pluck one person out of that 6 billion plus people. Everyone opens their eyes and looks around. Who is going to know that one person of that vast number has vanished without a trace? Well, there are at least three people. The person in back of that missing person and the person on either side would most likely notice them to be missing. The person in front would not know, because they would not have seen the person behind them unless they had tu

I Deserve
I have made mistakes in my life, I have let people take advantage of me and i have expected way less than what i deserve, But i have learned from my bad choices, and even though there are some things i can never get back, And people who will never be sorry, I know better next time and want settle for anything less than what i deserve..

Fake Profile Warning
http://fubar.com/user/2014445 Using images of an online NN model named Megan QT. I only know this cause I love porn! Spread the word and don't buy anything for this faker. If anyone knows who will get this accoun down, let me know. Thanks!

Update
Well i've been away from the fu for some time now. And I figure theres a need for an update on me... Well when I first started on this site I never know i'd meet the man of my dreams. Shit what am I saying I never thought i'd meet the man of my dreams (That Bartender aka Jacques)ONLINE! let alone fubar lol. But I did and I couldnt be any more happy. I've made some really great friends on this site people that in due time I plan to meet in real life. One of my closet friends on this site is Fo0ly aka Tee shes more then a friend shes like a sister to me. We talk about everything from men to kids to imagine if's lol. She is by far the greatest person on this site, she doesnt put up with BS so dont try and bring that to her door lol. She has Fu Ninja Skills lol. Hmm gosh I cant believe that tomorrow i'll be 23 in October it will be 2 years I have been on this site crazyyyyy and I made Oracle before I jumped the fubar ship. Now im back and I really wanna make Angel.. so hint hint if u wa

Links
Last of a Dyin Breed: http://www.myspace.com/pussycatpimpgoddess http://www.tagged.com/lastofadyinbreed http://Twitter.com/PimpGoddezz http://www.myyearbook.com/lastofadyinbreed Smack Daddy: http://www.myspace.com/pussycatplaymatezsdp http://www.tagged.com/smackdaddypimpnest Motitaz: http://www.myspace.com/pussycatplaymate http://www.myspace.com/530gigglez http://www.myyearbook.com/motitaz83

Never.....maybe
After so much time and prayer....You have helped me to realize that our time together is truly ,completely ended.Never in my wildest dreams would have imagined that it end this way.Never did I think being kind to someone would cause so many problems.Never did I believe opening my heart to care about another person would make it so difficult for ANYBODY. Never did imagine I had so many faults ,as you were clear to point out to me,that could hurt someone so much. Never ....did I ever think by praying with you ....for you ....I WOULD be the one to ruin our friendship.Never did I think I would cause you so much anger .....maybe....just maybe....you were right.I was irrational,hysterical,loud,and hard to get along with...maybe becaused I cared.Maybe if I never wanted you to be at your best. Maybe...had I been better at my "job".....Maybe realizing you were right along about everything.Maybe.....just maybe......I had never made you so angry ......Maybe if I helped you more....Or maybe if I

What The Fuck Today!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok...so my day starts at &;30 with my neighbors dogs bustin thru the fence and comin after us...sooo...that needed the cops and animal control...then it was off to my doc where i got ZERO good news...then I come home to log into fu for some fun and find ot some silly cunt I pissed off last night had marked 15 of my pics NSFW....got them fixed but what a fuckin hassle.....so Yeah great fuckin day. *end rant* and sorry..had to vent..(h) you fuckers ;)

Budah
A couple of cenuries ago there was a small village of monks. At the center of the village there was a huge golden statue of budah. It was the center peice of their lives. When word got out that there was a tribe of Monguls raging towards their village they knew they had to do something. The monguls were terrorizing villages on a path straight towards them. So everyday that the monguls got closer they would put clay over the budah. Everyday the monguls got closer they would cover up a little more of the gold until finally it appeared to be just a giant clay budah. Eventually the monguls reached the monks small village. When they got there, they terrorized, robbed, raped, pillaged, and burnt the small village to the ground after murdering all the monks. Seeing a giant clay budah, there was no value to it, and it was to much work to tear down or do anything to it so they left it.Some time ago, I don't know ten twenty fifty years, I'm not sure, a group found the giant clay budah. While res

No Title
Completely consumed by emotions and a thought Mind and spirit together working a vision that comes to naught a shadow of happiness lurking somewhere in the room cannot stay long as its swept away with a nice straw broom thoughts come and go just as the seconds tick tock things change at every level just like the hands on the clock never the same time for more than the moment never the same person for more than the same moment.....

Salutes
I just wanted to let the friends I owe salutes to know that I have not forgotten. Being sick and other things with home have been kinda crazy. My face looks horrible so I'm waiting for it to hopefully clear so I can get my salutes out to you all. Thanks for understanding. xoxo lisa

Drum Corps
If you want to hear fiery horns, banging drums and all-around good stuff. Check this out!! This the Madison Scouts Drum and Bugle Corps playing "Malaguena" from there Gold Medal year in 1988. Enjoy!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f67sHIfu9Hs

Join Slp Become A Suicidal Servant
http://www.suicidelabproductions.com/apps/auth/signup?next=apps%2Fauth COPY AND PASTE THE LINK ABOVE TO BECOME PART OF THE SUICIDE LAB PRODUCTIONS MEMBERS PAGE!!! LOTS OF NEW APPLICATIONS COMING SOON!!! CATS420

A Few Things I Hate
I hate waking up in physical and mental pain everyday. I hate being able to easily say "I love you" but in reality not being able to actually "love" anyone. I hate the constant whispering and voices in my head. I often hate the fact I wake up in the mornings. I hate feeling like a burden on my family and friends. I hate the feeling people think I'm over exaggerating my pain. I hate breathing.

Confused And Angry
my father is leaving my mother for a girl whom is only two years older than me....i feel betrayed because this girl use to be my friend. what do i do? do i just sit back and not say a word or do i get angry and let my feelings be heard? i am fixing to have a baby and i don't know if i should allow my father the right to see his grandson or do i ckick him out of my life for being so cruel to my mother as to carry on with this girl all these years and just now telling my mother he hasn't been in love with her for 16 years? What do i do?

What Is On Your Hot List???
"The indispensable first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: decide what you want." -- Ben Stein A Hot List is basically a to-do list with one key difference: it only includes topics or tasks that really matter to you, those that genuinely affect your quality of life. You know -- the ones you never get around to! The ones that will make your life your own! Keep a prioritised Hot List handy to remind you to claim 5 to 15 minutes to focus on and write about what counts in your life. Even 5 minutes is better than nothing. Start small and the momentum will build. "You have to decide what your highest priorities are and have the courage -- pleasantly, smilingly, nonapologetically -- to say 'no' to other things. And the way you do that is by having a bigger 'yes' burning inside." -- Stephen Covey

Oasis (a Passing Wish)
Oasis [a passing wish]A few seconds, that stretch into moments, into hours.... I would inhale you breathe you as you lay sleeping.I would if I could, spend these moments tracing sunlight's dappled patterns on your skin with fingertips rife with the scent of our loving.Willing you to wake, open-eyed wonder at our nearness, eyes smiling in shared remembrance.a few seconds, that stretch into moments, into hours.... Gentle and loving the morning would be

Bling Me This Blast Me That
for the love people, this place cracks me I am not and will never ask to see your nsfw, so you can bet that I will NEVER!! bling you or blast you or 25 second vip to see them. the reason this cracks me up is why the hell are you posting photos you supposedly are so intent on letting only a select few see! Premise I am asking for money for you to see me naked..theres a word for that lol! if you post the pics you know your wanting people to see it, if you didnt you would not have even taken the bloody pics in the first place. like I said cracks me up:) hugs and luvs, JC

Cherry Crumb's
Cherry Crumbs You used to come for coffeeand tell me of your dreams,of the loves in your lifeand the broken bones.I never spoke of my dreamsI just listened and made cherry tartsYou ate them and left little crumbsWhen you left I kissed them from the table

This Morning's Wish
A Morning's Wishby MetatetronA morning's fleeting wishI would have you hereto sit with me, nearbyon this cushion.My hands would feed youwarm cinnamon rolls,icing from my fingers,tea in large cups.The soft sound of your gentle laughterpulling at the tendrilsof my dreamtime.Instead of these thingsmy eyes tear in the light.Coffee and toast are myonly morning companions.--fin--

For Those Who Truely Care
Hey Everyone!!! Sorry I Don't Come On Very Often! As My Real Friends On Here Know I'm Expecting In October. I Couldn't Be Happier. Me And My Love Are Doing Great And The Baby Is Good Too! I'm Less Than Three Weeks Away From Finding Out What My LIttle Bundle Of Joy Is. I Am Truely Sorry To Those I've Losta Connection To! I Miss Everyone Deeply But Just Don't Have As Much Time As I Used To! Michael Broke His Leg And Dislocated His Ankle And I Am The Only One Working For The TIme Being. There's Also Much We Need To Do To Prepare For Our Baby But Life Couldn't Be Better Even With Our Many Obsticles! Keep In Mind That I Come On To Check My Mail So If You Still Care Drop Me A Line And I'll Surely Write You Back! Peace And Love To All! ♥Nichole

Five For One
Five for Oneby Metatetron oneI opened my eyesgreeting the brand new day.Still, you are not here.twoMy empty cold bedkissed my lips a good morning.I wished it was you.threeAgain this morningbirds sang outside my window.I dreamed of you.fourI did dream of youas I do every night,your pillow empty.fiveIt is too early.I try to find sleep again.Winter winds blowing.

My Daughters Graduation !!
I'm so excited !! I could piss on the floor like a lil puppy !!! Heading to Kansas Friday for my daughters graduation. She will be the first of my kids to graduate from high school. I am very proud of her for everything she has done. She has been working full time for 2 years now along with going to school and after this she is going to further her education and become a pediatric nurse. I am so blessed to have such great kids !!

I Miss The Sky
I Miss The SkyIt hit me all at once, that something I did every day, to catch my breath, no longer works for me. One more thing lost to me. - JohnI miss the sky.It used to be, right there, when I looked up.When I needed a breather, a break from the world,I could just lift my eyes, and see the skyClouds drifting in the breezy sunlit blueSometimes, when I was really stressed,I could faintly hear Hendrix say, “ ’Scuse me, while I kiss the sky….”As I lifted my face into the sun, and blew the clouds a kiss.Peace would come, a moments respite it’s trueToday, I needed a break, a moment of peace, and As I have done countless times in my life, I looked up, I saw the clouds there, floating on the breeze, But all I could see were thoughts of youThen it was I realized, that since you diedWhen I look at the sky, seen through a sheen of tearsit’s just clouds, there, in the air.I miss the sky