Fubar Blog Posts 1

Red Fire
The first thing I noticed Was the sun on her red hair Turning it to blazing fire As it tumbled Onto the white flesh of her shoulders The pastel shades Of her meagre top Struggled to contain the vibrancy of her breasts And her naked midriff tantalized The waistband of her skirt sat on her hips While the white cotton below Encased her rolling buttocks and strong thighs A gust of summer breeze Lifted her skirt allowing glimpses of her white thighs Then as she walked The sunlight behind her illuminated her form More than hinting at the delights Contained within the cotton of her skirt My thoughts then turned From her flaming red hair To a burning desire

Payback On The Telemarketer's! Lmao
Hello? Yes, can I speak with Ms. Gemii? Who’s calling? This is Mike ____. You’ve been selected to receive a free digital satellite system. With this— Let me ask you something. Were you a friend of Ms. Gemii? No, I’m just calling to offer— Hold that thought. [Speaking to someone else.] Get pictures of the body, and dust for prints. [Back to caller] Mike, you there? Let me bring you up to speed. You’ve called a murder scene. Ms. Gemii is no longer with us. I’m Officer Clark. I’m conducting a homicide investigation. What was the nature of your business with Ms. Gemii? I … I had no business with him. I’m sorry to have bothered you— I want to ask you to stay on the phone. This call has already been traced, and we may need you to come in for questioning. No, you don’t understand. I’m just— No, you don’t understand—unless you want to be charged with obstruction of jus

No Superman
I am no superman No man of steel, I am not super human Not endowed with special powers I have no heart of stone Nor feet of clay I am human Prick my finger, see me bleed I am no angel Nor am I devil I am not inhuman Not devoid of emotion I am just a man Ordinary, average Unremarkable With hopes and dreams Plans and aspirations And a heart to give When I meet her

Afterglow
She lay serenely in the afterglow The sweat of passion spent Vaporized and no more Her hair tousled, frames a peaceful face The red glow of the cheeks still visible Her eyes resting, her mouth open slightly Her full lips still moist, her pale skin smooth No hint remains of what passed The contortions of orgasm Which were etched into her innocent face Linger no more but shall again soon She lies beneath a silken sheet Stretched more tightly across her breasts Showing them in sharp relief The cool air from the open window Arouses her nipples Which stand proud through the silk She murmurs in her sleep and squirms in unison As her arousal continues elsewhere If her lover does not return Her satisfaction will be in her own hand

Heat
We came together In a frenzied embrace Mouths locked, Nostrils flared Snorting like fighting bulls Kissing, stroking, groping Fumbling with buttons and belts Hooks and eyes Until we lay in a heap Disordered in our semi nakedness I caressed her breasts Teasing her nipples First with fingers Before attending to them orally I moved my hand across her soft belly And pulled up her skirt My mouth alternated between Her swollen nipples and her eager mouth My slipped under her skirt And I reached up Until I felt the silk of her underwear I pulled them down to her ankles urgently Then I moved my hand steadily Up her long stockined leg From ankle to calf to her inner thigh The soft naked flesh above her stocking Before combing my fingers through Her luxuriant growth She turned her attentions once again To my ear frantically exploring it with her tongue I cupped her pubic bone in my hand And rocked it gently Then I slipped my fingers between her lips Into the creamy wetness She moaned gently in

Everyday
Now and forever,She holds my heart.No distance will stop her,No matter how far apart. Her love can fly to me,I can feel it in the air.When i see her beautiful smile,I know then why I care. God has blessed me with this angel,To forever my heart will stay.I smile and I thank him now,For her,each and every day.

Vow Of Silence
They say a person isn't supposed to re-enter his or her past , but there are times a person can't help it . The choice I have made is I have decided to put myself under a vow of silence , in other words as of today and maybe for a while I won't be having any words (vocal wise ) coming out of my mouth . This is my choice . I was like that growing up I have kept to myself , and at times it can get very lonely , but the choice was a hard on that I have to live with .

Like An 80-year-old
Before I go: An Apt TitleBy Unknown Original AuthorApr 7, 2010 - 12:25:27 AM Email this article Printer friendly page Before I go... Life like an Eighty Year Old. One day I had lunch with some friends. Jim, a short, balding golfer type about 80 years old, came along with them---all in all, a pleasant bunch. When the menus were presented, we ordered salads, sandwiches, and soups, except for Jim who said, "Ice Cream, please. Two scoops, chocolate. I wasn't sure my ears heard right, and the others were aghast. "Along with heated apple pie," Jim added, completely unabashed. We tried to act quite nonchalant, as if people did this all thetime.. But when our orders were brought out, I didn't enjoy mine. I couldn't take my eyes off Jim as his pie a-la-mode went down. The other guys couldn't believe it. They ate their lunches silently and grinned. The next time I went out to eat, I called and invited Jim. I lunchedon white meat tuna. He ordered a parfait. I smiled. He asked if h

Beat Ya Head In
Beat ya head inBeat, beat ya head inBeat ya head inBeat, beat ya head inBeat ya head inBeat, beat ya head inBeat ya head inWatch your brains fall outBeat ya head inBeat, beat ya head inBeat ya head inBeat, beat ya head inBeat ya head inBeat, beat ya head inBeat ya head inWatch your brains fall outI'm a late night creep slowly stalking down your blockAbout to commit murder with a jagged rockStraight looking for a victim one a fuckin' perfect sizeYou can run, you can hide but you'll soon to be mineI've got a piece of your mind and I do mean brainsThe taste of cerebellum really drives me insaneI was just a little hungry that's why you got slainI know it's not necessity but I don't complainI run the midnight shift when I'm killing where I liveDid you know that this time there's so many brains to giveJust dig them fuckers out with a knife or a shivYeah, this violent shits got my dick on stiffI'm a very violent vigilante hunting for my victimsWhen I see exposed throats I get the urge to slit

Uninspired (i Wrote This) Comment It :)
Ununspired unspoken still i have so much to sayi feel nothing still i am consumed by feelingsUnder achivedstill i over do thingsnothing to dostill i cant get enough donemany thoughts run throw my head still i cant see them the way i need toim not blindbut i cant see at timesim aware of everythingstill im cluelessi have faith in everyone Still trust no one i want so much still it means nothing to mei treasure the things i treat like shitim too fatand still too skinnyim so beautiful but what is beauty to you?So cool still so lamei get told im hot yet im so cold im so diffent still so plain i express myself still slienced can you hear me ?HELLO? AM I HERE?

Jibberish
~~Exposed~~ As much as I want to say I'm not hurt, I am. To have the people you figure would NEVER hurt you, always end up being the ones who hurt you the most... I just turn a blind eye to it. But this last time was a total letdown. To feel so much disappointment, even over something SO trivial... It bothers me to find out that I'm not some people's priority, when they're one of mine. Don't get me wrong, being single does have it's perks. Single people can stay out late, sleep with numerous amounts of people, and have no one to answer to. Well, but their own conscious, but you can squash that little annoying voice with tons and tons of booze. Cycle ensues. We don't get holidays, oh wait.. we have our birthdays. That normally ends up drunken alone, crying.. or sleeping with some asshole who doesn't even know your name. Not that i would know about the latter, of course. The worst thing about being single, everything. Weddings. How awkward. How many times do you

Free Stuff Rawks
The site surveys Im conducting has made for busy days of review and discovery, assess and report. Personnel out here in Cali have been cordial and accomodating, and not just in the forced kind of way induced by the reason for my presence. The trip brings back echoes of the road life and a more active era. I have to say Im enjoying the essence of waking up to buffet breakfast & coming home to fresh everything, before taking off to complimentary social hours for more buffet and free drinks, and falling back in to the room buzzed, fat and happy by sunset falling behind the palms and the smokey hills. I havent bought a meal since I arrived. Alfredo the maitre d' and I are becoming pretty good friends, and he gives me the lowdown on the local happennings. Turns out my accomodations are part the dallas cowboys spring training camp rotation, where they stay here and train at the facility just up the street. Seems its on 2 yr rotation, not sure where the alt years are spent

Just A Thought
she smiles and laughs like theres not a care in the world as happy as she can be, but when behind closed doors tears seem to flow and her knees hit the floor. asking why all this hurt and why all the pain shes driving herself insane. she drowning slowly in misery so deep no can save her now. shes falling and drifting just fading away can no one hear her cries? tears keep flowing and this girl keeps smiling pretending all in the worlds ok

My Fuckin Owner Rawks!
THIS BULLETIN GOES OUT TO MY FU OWNER T VIRUSHE'S THE ONLY VIRUS UR NOT GONNA WANNA REMOVE!!! PLEASE STOP BY AND SHOW THIS GUY SOME LOVE FOR ANGELNCHAINSTHIS BULLETIN WAS BROUGHT TO U BY DADDY DREW (repost of original by 'DADDY DREW ECS FOUNDER OF FEL' on '2010-04-08 22:21:57')(repost of original by 'AngelNChains ECS co founder N Playboy Bunny' on '2010-04-08 22:34:36')

Things Unsaid
There's this thing where you write what you have wanted to say to someone but have not. Ya might think I'm not really known for biting my tongue...and you'd be kinda right...which is why I've never tried this before but hey, everyone evolves (it's part of my plan to get new, better friends...ones without links). So here goes...the paranoid amongst you may not wish to read further. Why would I want to buy a skincare range from someone wearing an inch of make-up over obviously bad skin? Your lab coat doesn't make you look professional, it just makes you look like a badly-made-up bimbo in a lab coat. Fuck off! I'd like to blame you for me being that stupid. But I can't. I can blame you for taking advantage of it though. Are you really that fucking dumb, or are you just pretending cuz it's easier? Stop digging, you looked stupid 30 minutes ago. The promise is not broken, just unkept. Why on earth would you think that I would find such one-dimensional crap attractive? Just because i

In The Corner
In the corner, past the bed, if the closet door is open I can hide there. Sometimes when she is mad, really mad I can press myself tightly against the wall and she never finds me…too consumed by fury to think small. If she comes close to my hiding spot and it gets like that he usually draws attention to himself to protect me. I am not sure why, but he does. Oh, she takes what she can get too. She will start with that low nasty tone of voice that sends shivers up my spine and I can see her smile in my head that slow deliberate one. She will insult and intimidate him enjoying watching him squirm. She can see his fear battle his love for her as he bears the full brunt of her attack. Sometimes that is enough for her to fulfill her need for power but there are other times when it only whets her appetite for more. Those are the times that I love him the most. She has no conscience and no remorse pushing him, shoving him, pinching him, grabbing whole handfuls of his hair to whip his

Gotta Get This Off My Chest
I was in an auction, my first. my winner, DragonMaster775 is a looser. I spent 2 days rating and commenting on his every pic, blog, etc, giving him drinks all week and showering my new BF with mad fu-luv. he finally startin' shout boxin me.DragonMaster775:married or not, I WANT YOU...sorry..you are just too good to be trueme:Hi, BF!!! Yes, I'm married, happily with 2 kids. How's your weekend?(this was when my man gave him a cooler of beer with a message to check himself, to watch his game)DragonMaster775:I know you are married...My weekend is ok I guessme:r u seeing anybodyforgive my askin, it just seemed like from your pics that u've been hurt in the pastDragonMaster775:i am single and not seeing anyone..and didnt appreciate some guy messaging me about not being able to have youme:o that some guy is my hubby sitting next to me on his computer, silly. u really don't know much about me yet.DragonMaster775:either way, he is blocked and so are you. I make one comment as a joke, and ASSHO

A Christmas Story.
I MuMMed about this user before. I finally got sick of it and blocked him. If anyone knows me, they know I'm not fake. Bottom up. Per: I'm not fake, I just don't have time for needy people that expect me to give them all of my attentionHim: fake ass friendPer: sure thingHim: take me outa ur familyPer: okayHim: ok will doPer: look I thought you deleted me?Him: fu whore nowHim: well bye thenHim: yep All because I was commenting to Tom [Philemon] and buying Suga. I really don't have time for emo shit. I have enough drama in my life, why bring in other people's?

From My Heart
FROM MY HEART Empty...That's how I feel without you.Every day that we're apartFeels like an eternity.You move me...Make me feel things I thought I would never feel again.When I am with you,I feel a warmth wash over me.A warmth unlike any I have felt before.It picks me up and carries me to a far off place,A beautiful place...A place where nothing is known but love and caring.My worries fade to a distant memory,And all but you is forgotten,If only for the moment...My heart is overflowing with joy and love,The joy that you bring to me,And the love that I feel for you.Never have I come across anyone like you...Sweet, warm, tender, caring...I become overwhelmed in your presence, lost...Lost to my imagination, to the thought of you.I'm lost in a wonderful dream, and I never want to wake up.You... You are too good to be true...My knight in shining armor.The man I've been searching for...The man of my dreams.And now I have you,Yet I cannot have you.To see you would be heavenly,To touch you, d

Unfulfilled Love (the Cruelty Of Distance)
Unfulfilled Love (the Cruelty Of Distance) Far away,Too far,I can't go on,Yet I love him.His existence seems unreal,Almost a dream,Why do I put myself through this?Because I love him,And he loves me.What will I doTo pass the time?I will think of him,But that causes painAlong with the happiness.But I must think of him,My mind will not focusOn anything else.Time drags so slowly,10, hours or days?I do not know.All I know,it is too long,to be awayfrom him.I want to fall into him,lose myself in himBe one with him.he is my lightIn the darkness,I would go to him,But distance is,A cruel thing.The phone rings,"No I can't come out tonight"They ask why but I,can't tell the truth,They would only laugh,"I have business to attend to,Goodbye".I am alone again,Unseeing,Unthinking,Unwanting,Except for his warm skinClose to mine.My whole body screams,Let him come to me,But he can't,Or won't?"he would come if he could,Wouldn't he?Maybe he..."But the thought is too terrible,he wouldn't,I know

Wish Me Luck!!!!!
I've been in pain for quite some time now that is why I have not been online much. The doctor has recently found out what the problem is. I have degeneration in the back of my neck, and a disk herniation. Both of these have my spinal cord in a very bad situation. There is too much pressure being placed on my spinal cord. On the 13th of this month I will be having surgery on my spine. They have to go in and take out a section of my spine and replace it with a piece of metal. They call it cervical fusion. Needless to say I am TERRIFIED!!!!!!! IF anyone would like to buy me a vip in exchange for fu bucks plz let me know. I figure this way it may give me some enjoyment while I'm laying flat on my back recovering. Wish me luck and send me good thoughts and prayers.........

A Letter To My Friend~my Take On Fubar
Wow .. I am sorry that things got so screwed up for you on here. Yes it's true ..that what is supposed to be a game turns out to be real people and real feelings Outside of the box. It is hard to keep this place in perspective. We talk to someone ... at first... it's just fubar. Then Fu friends and fu Friends becomes a real friend. You soon find yourself caring very real love for these people. You Share and Comfort one another, even tho you don't know for sure if truly it is even the person you see in their photos. Even with cams it is just a speck of reality. For Some Fu marriage is Very real..the next thing ya know is you find your heart belonging to someone you don't really know At all. I Know people who have left their marriages for fulove. I guess being married for 37 yrs and having my husband here for real, every day living and sharing every aspect of life, has helped to protect me somewhat. But even I find myself asking myself how can I be so close to some of my best friends fr

Untitled
Falling inside again This nightmare always the same Still never enough Halting at the brink of discovery Moving into the darkness Leaking inside to cover up Dragging me down and under Entangled and undone at once Old memories I'm not in need but wish to know What are the tragedies The history behind the walls Pacing further down Familiar children's laughter Dissonant and out of time And their eyes are dead Watching myself in a pool of water Wearing the mask of a ghost Smeared all across my skin Rotten earth and insects Endless night Always preserving the calm Movement behind Bleeding animals in a field of fire There is no absolution Death is but a fairytale They are mere visions They are afraid of me Clear insight A smoke is rising nearby Dust covering my coat Blend together to spell my name Pale, covered me with sweat There are no words left Sole provider of death Distorted faith in myself Human harvest burning Blackest pages turning Twisted perce

How To Educate Young Children On Cell Phone Safety
I wanted to write this log because I think we seem to be ignoring some important statistics when we talks about young children and cell phones. In terms of the Yankee Group survey by 2010 54% of between ages 8-12 will have a cell phone. Additionally many phone companies are finding out "Multi Function Cell Phones" for younger kids with parent controls. We often wait until kids have cell phones from China Wholesale before we begin talking with them about inappropriate and appropriate safety. Before they have a cell phone I suggest that we be more proactive and start, such as playing a game (we read the instructions before we start playing).or driving a car (before we start driving we learn from the rules of the road before we start driving). Below are some tips I have collected for parents or teachers to start proactive early intervention cell phone safety tips. Please welcome to add your own! 1) Talk about when it is appropriate and inappropriate to make and

The Heat Of The Savannah
Savannah awoke at 10A.M. Her long dark brown hair fell over her face. All that showed were thin lips that glistened from moisture and a chin that lacked blemish with a perfect roundness. She sat up and revealed a red silk night gown. The night gown clung to her body revealing breasts that appeared to be a size 32c. She turned out of her covers revealing two legs that were as smooth as the night gown she wore. Her thighs were slim but strong. No fat showed at all. Her legs joined behind a pair of black cotton panties. She stretched her hands out showing powder blue finger nails at the end of long slim fingers. She bent her elbows with the grace of a dancer and slid the hair off her face. Her dark blue eyes focused on the room in a matter of minutes. She arose out of her bed and walked across her room to sit in front of her mirror. She picked up her brush and began to comb her hair. After combing out her hair she stood and walked over to her dresser. She

The Fairytales Facade
UTOPIAOh,My Love find metear down these doorsand break down these walls I have builttake me down to the road untraveledCome into my soul and take what you seekShow me My LoveLight the fires of desire that smolderKindle the flame that burns withincome and take me at your pleasureTake me My Loveto our utopia where I can be mebreathe the life into my souland feel my yearningswatch my body rise as you enter my soulOh Lovetake me to the heights of pleasurethat only you can knowtake me to the zenith and watchmy explosion turn to ecstasysee the joy hidden in my heartCome Loveand let me nourish youon the nectar of my desireslet me taste the elixirthat sustains your passionAdore me Lovemold me into a creation you admire and desireshow me what is gloriousand what is unfeigningcome and cherish the personthat adores you unconditionally...

Tiger's Religion In Full View
Tiger is back playing golf and he’s doing well as you would expect. The funny part is when tiger teed off an airplane flew over the course with a message about Buddhism, Tiger’s religion. I think you might want to read the sign. Check it out http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/04/08/plane-drags-banner-message-tiger-woods-sky-masters-tournament/ BlastFM is a sign of the times. Music you can groove to. Give a listen www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Ensign: David And The Census
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 9 April 2010 “And Satan stood up against Israel, and provoked David to number Israel.” 2 Samuel 24 and 1 Chronicles 21 tell the same story with slightly different wording – David as king of Israel called for all the people in the kingdom he ruled in the name of the LORD to be counted. This isn’t in and of itself a bad thing; in fact, in the United States our own constitution mandates it (Article I, section ii, clause 3, sentence two) and it’s hardly sinful to be counted as a citizen of one’s own country. But it’s the motive with which we do even the most necessary and obvious things that God weighs. I began with the opening of 1 Chronicles 21’s account; let’s proceed to t

And A Very Merry Un-birthday To You!
Last night I got home and everyone had just finished watching the DVD release of Disney’s “Alice in Wonderland”. The kids really wanted to get it when I brought them to WalMart Tuesday night to pick up Martha, and since we had just come into some money in a perfectly legal way, we bought the two DVD set marked as the “Special Un-Anniversary Edition”. It’s marked that way as a play on the un-birthdays (every day that’s not your birthday) celebrated at the Mad Hatter’s Tea Party in the 1951 movie. I got to watch the movie myself (Sarah and Jeffrey, again) while having dinner at home last night. The kids also went out with Martha yesterday and got new sneakers – Sarah’s got Disney Princesses, Jeffrey’s got Toy Story – that light up as well as a bowl and silverware just their size with the same design! This morning Martha and I agreed to get in some workout time at Anytime Fitness. So far we’ve been succ

A Little Something I Wrote
Listen...no sound...I was alone for the first time in a while. Everyone had left. The kids were with their friends and hollow was at the cabin. I had the dog at the vets overnight to have him fixed and tested for his ill tempered nature. I took an actual day off from work to take care of couple things I had committed myself to. I saw everyone safely on their way and here at just 4pm I was pouring a warm bath and putting on some music to begin the unwinding process. It has been so stressful and not just one thing or one area...everything it seemed was contributing to it and I needed this.A deep scrub to my entire body invigorated me, stimulated me, made me have an overwhelming desire to explore myself losing myself in the luxury of it all...hell I had my bathroom door open. The feeling of freedom was intoxicating.I allowed myself to satisfy myself thoroughly before I decided to move on to other things.I dressed in my simple black dress and changed the music channel to some

[i Dunno Where Sacaucus New Jersey Is...]
But they need to hurry up with my pin vise.And my metal finish.And my seam fixer.And my... everything. Third coat's down. I gotta say when the paint is still 1 or two color coats inwhite primer to black high gloss it looks kinda cool. It's not... quite right for my Kampfer. Which, when our systems went down for half an hour, I had time to look over the construction of the kit... we've got a few problems. Problems that make one consider several courses of action such as disassembling the outer plates and coloring individually and reassembling masking the holy bejesus out of the joints buying a new kampfer. ... and since most Kampfers are going for 40+ right now... woulda sworn I spent $20I think I'll piece it together.This still involves mounting a Gouf shield.Decaling.... that's plenty isn't it? ... and then I found God. Words... Dear god where are my words?

Self Realization
Self Realization My feelings, thoughts, and deep hurt, Honestly mean even less than dirt. In the grand scheme of things, In this time before I grow my wings. I don't know why I expected them to care, And this self righteousness comes from where? I just know that it's been here a while, Sometimes being my only way to smile. But I know now that it's not right nor good, I'm trying to change, do what I should. And I'm seeing myself through different eyes, I see I've become what I despise. The time is now to make the changes, To be prepared for when the world rearranges. To become the one I was always meant to be, Instead of this person in front of me. The mirror reflects a different me in every glimpse, In my eyes I see changes, new hints. The dreams drag on, each and every night. Do I freeze in fear? CHOOSE! Fight or flight? I know it's coming, and I won't forget. The time to stand or run and fret. Where will I go, and whom shall I be? Kept impri

If I Could Make A Wish
If I Could Make A Wish If I could make a wishAnd have it last forever and a day,I would take you in my armsAnd this is where I'd stay..For there's no one else I knowThat holds my heart like you,And I know someday, baby,You'll realize this is true.If I could make a wishYour lips would be on mine,I'd slowly sip and savor youLike only the finest wine.For there's no one else I knowThat gives me so much pleasure,And I know someday, baby,You'll see that you're my treasure.If I could make a wishOur bodies would unite,There's nothing I'd love moreThan making love all night.For there's no one else I knowWho gives me passion like you do,And I know someday, baby,All my wishes will come true.If I could make a wishI'd start by making things right,I'd take away all your doubts,And hold you through the night.For there's no one else I knowThat means as much you see,And I know someday, baby,You'll learn to trust in me.If I could make a wish.It would be just you and me,No worries in the wor

Love On The Internet
Love On The Internet Though I wasn't looking for anyone new,One day I got e- mail and in it was you.Charming, sensitive and so debonair,I strongly resisted it go anywhere.But letters and stories captured my heart,Filled me with passion almost from the start.Love on the Internet, how could it be?These things just don't happen to people like me.But doves and butterflies flew into our lives,Carrying messages we could not deny.Each person has meaning and love to express,And we could deny our hearts nothing less.It's a beautiful love that has grown between us,Something beyond any words we discuss.Much deeper than LOL, cyber kisses and such,Far down to our souls, beyond human touch.My love's not confined by what it can see,I feel you, I taste you, I experience your dream.Close my eyes, and I envision what in my heart I can hear,"Love knows no boundaries, no distance, no fear."It's the soul that captures God's love in a wayThat eternally melts hearts together to stay.Fused and se

Random Thoughts
here we go again...darkness is taking over! and what ironic...im conflicted about it! i dont really like feeling like im dark it doesnt feel like me but yet in the darkness my mind comes alive. so even though i hate these points in my life i thrive in them What is darkness....every loved ones face i contort into something ugly. colors dim. sounds drive me insane, skin crawls cant stand to be touched, looked upon, or thought of and my darkest/ favored thought.....that cold steel. why do i always go back to those thoughts. can anything help? yes just one thing...one person! one unending gesture! push, breakdownwalls. why does everyone give up? im dying inside...i feel it everyday how can no one see and if they do see why is no one reaching out? i cant pull myself back! im drowning and im locked in here. why is everyone still just sitting there...do i really mean nothing

My Heart Believes In You
My Heart Believes In You I kept my head up high,and then you came my way.I have been hurt so many times.My heart filled with so much pain.but now that pain has gone away.For I have found a place I want to be.This place I see is with thee.For in your arms I have felt and seen,a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe.A safe haven in your arms just for me.Now I give my heart to thee.For my heart believes in you.

69 Girl
So I get online and I see the status of Kyle. He saying that if you are a going to claim to be the hottest girl on Fubar, then you need to take a look at his family and friends. Of course that got me wondering what it was about and I asked him. I was quickly told the story and I seen the girl that said he should add him to get some "hotness" on his page. I'm not one to remotely think I look good, but I do know, however, that I am, in fact, better looking than this woman. I'm not sure if I should be offended or not. To know that she thinks she is better looking than me is kind of bad. I mean it's good that she's got all this self confidence and stuff, but wow. I'm not really sure where I'm going with this..but I will say this: A real 69 girl wouldn't have to advertise it and a real 69 girl wouldn't always have to be on bottom for fear of crushing the other person involved in the said 69. ;)

Overpaid Babysitter Or Underpaid Psychiatrist?
I don’t know if there is something wrong with the water supply or what have you, but as of the past four days I have had no less than three employees come into my office and cry. There are days when I wish I wasn’t a manager and I could just be responsible for myself. I definitely feel that way today. I have no clue as to why employees feel their manager is there to listen to all their problems and worst of all it seems as though they want us to give advice. I will be the first to say I am the last person you seriously want to seek advice from for your personal affairs and quite frankly I don’t feel comfortable hearing about all the sordid details of your life. Leave a little mystery to your life; some things are best left unsaid (at work). I am very well aware of the fact that some people when they lay their problems on your shoulders, they just want to talk about it and are not really seeking advice. This of course is all

D:
I kinda hope I do die in 2012 I hate the way this country is changing Im more affraid of the way we're moving. Is it ok to be scared? I kinda feel like Im screaming and noone can hear me. I want to be free again. But, for now, Im not an American.

Facebook? Anyone? Facebook?
ANYONE OUT THERE ON FACEBOOK? I LIKE ADDING MY FU FRIENDS TO FACEBOOK SO I CAN SEE WHAT YOU'RE LIKE IN (MOSTLY) REAL LIFE!!! IF YOU ARE, LEAVE A COMMENT WITH YOUR EMAIL ADDY OR EMAIL IT TO ME IF YOU DON'T WANT ANYONE ELSE SEEING IT. WOULD LOVE TO ADD YOU :) LOVE IRISH!!!

My Name
Ok so I know people have heard if not seen the twilight saga. just to let you all know I DID NOT create this name after the movies or books. I had the name Bella before I even heard of the Twilight saga lol. So yeah, just wanted to let yall know that I wasn't trying to copy the movies or anything :) Hope you all have a Blessed day or night. Bella Windwhistler

Playground
A hungry soul for a passion so deep a slender body for an eye to keep Mounds steep with a curvey barrier sweet haven south on the carrier Soft yet firm rump on the straight away tender eyes for color unknown today Short radient hair whisping in the breeze the color of brown like that of the bare trees Hands rough yet delicate with sturdy fingers auroma bold and intoxicating in the air it lingers Soft wanting lips waiting for something special to smother a playing mind awaiting its cover A thirsty soul wants to come and play a toned body shines at it lays Rocky chest fuzzy with a heart that beats a mind with games never to cheat Bold yet glistlening demon stick on lower deck awaiting a hot moist cove

One Flaw In A Woman
Women have strengths that amaze men.They bear hardships and they carry burdens,but they hold happiness, love and joy.They smile when they want to scream.They sing when they want to cry.They cry when they are happyand laugh when they are nervous.They fight for what they believe in.They stand up to injustice.They don't take "no" for an answerwhen they believe there is a better solution.They go without so their family can have.They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.They love unconditionally.They cry when their children exceland cheer when their friends get awards.They are happy when they hear abouta birth or a wedding.Their hearts break when a friend dies.They grieve at the loss of a family member,yet they are strong when theythink there is no strength left.They know that a hug and a kisscan heal a broken heart.Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail youto show how much they care about you.The heart of a woman is whatmakes the world keep

Lady Antebellum - American Honey
She grew up on a side of the roadWhere the church bells ring and strong love growsShe grew up goodShe grew up slowLike American honeySteady as a preacherFree as a weedCouldn't wait to get goin'But wasn't quite ready to leaveSo innocent, pure and sweetAmerican honeyThere's a wild, wild whisper Blowin' in the windCallin' out my name like a long lost friendOh I miss those days as the years go byOh nothing's sweeter than summertimeAnd American honeyGet caught in the raceOf this crazy lifeTryin' to be everything can make you lose your mindI just wanna go back in timeTo American honey, yeaThere's a wild, wild whisper Blowin' in the windCallin' out my name like a long lost friendOh I miss those days as the years go byOh nothing's sweeter than summertimeAnd American honeyGone for so long nowI gotta get back to her somehowTo American honeyOoh There's a wild, wild whisper Blowin' in the windCallin' out my name like a long lost friendOh I miss those days as the years go byOh nothin's sweeter than

Bloggety Blog
I am sick and tired of the job market in California. Last I read unemployment is up to thirteen percent. I am sure it is a much larger number then this. However it also irrates me that I live in an overpoppulated county that has more storage units, churches, stop lights and other senseless waste of perfectly good space, Then actual jobs. They tell us they wanted to boost the econmy and premote us to spend locally. Well here is an idea. Want people to spend money?? Create the jobs so that the people can make the money to spend. I am soooo thinking of relocating out of state.

Relationships
Marriage or Relationship With a Significant Other ... If you want someone who will eat whatever you put in front of him and never say it's not quite as good as his mother'sthen adopt a dog. If you want someone always willing to go out, at any hour,for as long and wherever you want...then adopt a dog. If you want someone who will never touch the remote, doesn't careabout football, and can sit next to you as you watch romantic movies

She's A Wonderful Wife
I want to tell you about how I got such a wonderful wife. If I told you we just started dating 6 months ago you might think we had a very short courtship. All this is true but sort of misleading. You see she's a loving hot beautiful wife, just not my wife, and yes we have been dating for 6 months. In the beginning at they say, I was cruising the net one day and saw a photo of an incredible brunette . She stood out so much from the other women on the site that I wrote a short reply to the posting telling her what a beauty she was. I never expected a reply since I’m sure she got dozens of the same messages. Turns out it was her husband who posted the photo, and he was the one who replied thanking me for the compliments about his bride. He sent me a couple of more photos that where as sexy as the first. Vince and I started exchanging emails every couple of days. He seamed like a good guy, loved his wife and knew what a hot one she was. We began chatting after a coup

The Broom
SEE THAT MAN THERE ACROSS THE ROOM? THE ONE IN THE TATTERD SHIRT AND THE BROKEN BROOM. STARTED HERE ABOUT SIX MONTHS AGO, WHY HE USES THAT BROOM NOBODY KNOWS. HE NEVER SMILES AND HE NEVER FROWNS, MINDS ALWAYS ON HIS WORK WITH THAT BROOM SWEEPING THE GROUND. I ASKED THE MAN A FEW DAYS AGO, WHY A BROKEN BROOM AND NOT ONE THAT'S NEW? HE PAUSED FOR A MOMENT AND THEN HE SAID, SOMEONE VERY DEAR TO ME IS DEAD. ABOUT EIGHT MONTHS AGO I LOST MY WIFE, 50 YRS SIDE BY SIDE IS HOW WE SHARED OUR LIFE. OH I WAS LOST AND DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I NOTICED IN THE CORNER THIS BROKEN BROOM. WASN'T QUITE SURE WHERE IT CAME FROM. EVEN THOUGH IT WAS BROKEN IT LOOKED BRAND NEW.COULDN'T UNDERSTAND, I WAS QUITE CONFUSED. THEN IT HIT ,THAT BROOM, IT WAS NEW. YOU SEE MY FRIEND MY WIFE WAS KILLED ONE NIGHT BY A MAN IN A TRUCK TOWING HIS BIKE. HE WAS ON HIS WAY HOME FROM A RALLY DOWN SOUTH. WHEN HE STOPPED AT THE BAR TO WET HIS MOUTH. ONE TURNED INTO TWO AND TWO TURNED INTO MORE. HE WAS FEELIN NO PAIN

Breath Of Life
View: Full | Compact My Notes Notes About Me Drafts A WHISPER IN THE WIND Share Monday, October 12, 2009 at 11:56pm | Edit Note | Delete AS I LOOK DOWN FROM THE HEAVENS SO HIGH, A SPARKLE I SEE RETURN TO YOUR EYE. THOUGHTS OF GREIF WHICH FILLED YOU HEART ARE NOW FADING AWAY AND GOOD MEMORIES START. I HAVE WATCHED UPON YOU FOR SUCH A LONG TIME HOLDING YOUR HEART SO CLOSE TO MINE. I HAVE SEEN YOU FALL, STRUGGLE, AND CRY. I HAVE BEEN THERE THROUGH IT ALL WITH A HELPING HAND TO SEE YOU TRY. MY LAST DAYS ON EARTH WERE SPENT IN PAIN BUT WITH YOU BY MY SIDE IT WAS NOT IN VANE. YOU GAVE ME A LOVE THAT NO OTHER COULD A LOVE I CHERISHED AND KNEW I ALWAYS WOULD. SO FOR ALL THOSE TIMES WITHOUT WARNING YOU GRINNED JUST REMEMBER MY LOVE IT WAS ME, A WHISPER IN THE WIND. B.W.C. P.S. TO WHO EVER IS READING THIS I AM NOT DYING THIS JUST POPPED INTO MY HEAD AND WANTED WRITE IT DOWN.....LOL

She Will Stay
The Echoes tracing in the mind. The Essence of You, she seeks. With hopes to one day find… Yet, deep inside herself, she retreats. her Journey taking her far and wide. In very few, she will confide. Aching for her Masters Touch… Bringing forth from her… so much. she finds herself seeking her One, Ever faithful in her Journey, her Quest. Knowing the past can never be undone, her loyalty constantly put to test. Your Call bringing her soul alert. Closer to You, with every day. Licking every wound of her hurt, Knowing one day with You, she will stay. The Essence of You, Bringing slave to her knees. Through and through… It is only You, slave aims to please. she crawls, she trembles, accepting solace along the way. Inside herself, she always remembers… The care You have on display. Leaving the safety of her nest… she crawls, doing her very best. she knows You await, she knows one day... her Fate. You beckon to her in every way, Safety for her,

Pool Table
"... ever had sex on a pool table..." slowly peeled off the label long-neck bottle she was drinking no secret what I was thinking, cowboy boots Wrangler jeans mostly Texas in her genes sunk the eight ball corner pocket tightened my nuts like a Craftsman socket, breast size, no mystery knew little of her history but history wasn't on my brain fine line 'tween crazy and sane, "...what the fuck, sure, let's do it..." "...sorry cowboy, I think you blew it..." smiled and licked her lips so sweet said, perhaps, some day we'd meet, down some dirt road, up some draw gave a number I could call were I ever passing through a itch to drink (itch to screw?), said no one knows tomorrow beg, buy, steal, borrow she racked 'em up, cue ball flyin' hands in my pants, soul sighing,

Love
How my thoughts are racing soooo... I just whispered aloud - "I love you...", and have the softest feeling - for real, no teasing. You 'get' to me so damnably easy... I don't know or understand why or how - you just do. It's because... somehow... we... belong. I know... silly me. I melt at some awkward times and just shake my head at others. But I want to hold you so tight and make love to you and hold you close afterward and make love to you and just 'be' with you and love you. Woman...the thoughts that just race by physical... mental... my stomachs a big knot and I want to sing, smile... just laugh... shake it off... but can't. I want you curled with me, around me, on me. I want to be in you - a part of you... held so very tight and close... and never let go. I want to touch you, taste... explore... mentally, physically... and more - so much more. I want to play and 'be' as only we can. How my thoughts are racing soooo... such is the beginning of 'loving' you... silly me.

Nice Try Whore....wanna Keep Goin?
United Kingdom subject: RE: Heyas received: 04/6/2010 08:28 pm replied: 04/6/2010 08:31 pm block this member hugs, i will look when i get back online. its 5.26am here. my angel, go ahead and do whatever you need to sort things out with john. im just doing a few rates, then going to bed, when im up later on I will check out your blog. then i can listen as well. hugs === 'Kloverlynn Sociopathic stalker magnet' wrote the following at '2010-04-06 20:19:36'.. > > Hey luv...I want you to check out the vid I loaded to my blog today..if ya want I will link ya...it is one I took right before I met John and adam was here...he is doing the guitar solo for Ozzy Osbournes "Crazy Train"...Just wanna share why I swoon over him with ya lol > > > Also..I was wondering..I have sooo many tings in my head..i wish i could chat with you..But am also wondering if you mind that I write John a letter..I need to say some things to fully break away. > > I took the salute he made me and the pics of he and I down

Dark Night
I see her first darkly through skein-nets of trees, she is a brilliant flash of white pensive and private, she broods in the woods the darkling woods thinking of the dark the dark demon of the night how he comes to her with dark-bright featherwings to enfold and restrain to capture and possess, how she writhes, moans and cries out……..wakes in the morning to an empty bed, how he haunts her heart spaces through the sun-filled hours with his dark hope……..with his demon grasp but then . . . . she sits in a sunny place till her perfect lover comes to sit quietly with her and does not touch her nor writhe nor moan with her nor delight her body but sits and says nothing while her dark bird hovers…….. unseen

Poem In Progress
" He walked m-16 slung at his side, through rice patties and forests day and night night and day he walked. He prayed he prayed before his hike and before he rested for the night, he prayed for the end to a war that in a perfect world would have never began. Then the day came the 8th of november his soldiers got carried away. Not by huey's or m-113's but by the angles a heavenly army. He came home got spit upon cursed and despised why? what for? For a country to be able to rest in peace forever more" just a new poem im working on

So I'm An American Idol Junkie. Sue Me.
I want to say American Idol is my guilty pleasure, but I'm not so sure anymore. American Idol has finally discovered some incredible talent. Talent that says a big "fuck you" to cookie cutter pop and does its own thing. Artists so compelling that it makes sitting through three hours a week of Simon's snivelling overly harsh criticism, Paula's insane enthusiasm, Kara's determination to mold everyone into a bland R&B artist, Randy's pathetic attempts at coming across as a hip young music producer, and countless tedious clips of their disgustingly charmed and appropriately overdramatized lives at "Camp Idol" worth sitting through, if only to get to the meaty center. The show still has its Clay Aikens and Kelly Clarksons and Daughtrys and blonde guys from boy bands and Britney Spears wannabes, but some serious contenders for actual rock superstars have crept their way onto the once woefully undeserving American Idol stage. And those talents are actually getting votes and staying on that s

A Personal Note To Jesse James
Jesse, You Stupid Bastard! You cheated on Sandra Bullock? How in the world can you be so stupid? You are married to one of the most beautiful women in the world; she has a body to die for, and her current wealth and predicted wealth is shadowed only by Oprah, who even Steadman will tell you, isn't attractive. But your wife, who recently beat out Julia Roberts in the polls and is now the named " America 's Sweetheart"; you also remember she just won an Oscar (which translates to more money per picture she makes in the future)...while you were shacking with that tattooed freak, who just happens to be a former stripper and is someone's mommy. You are really a piece of work! You are the most hated asshole cheater on the planet! And while the State of California is a no-fault state whereby you may be able to take half of your wife's wealth, in doing so you would only be hated even more...esp

Update: The Address Boob Gets Political.
Yesterday, I mentioned the Address Boob. Today I must mention with great sadness that the Address Boob will not be updated. See it all started when a manager came up to me and asked if I had any menial tasks that the intern could do. Figuring that Bill Clinton already proved that you can get in big trouble for that, I figured I would assign some actual work; updating the Address Boob. Now I wasn't saying the Address Boob was something that I wanted to own all the time, I just thought it needed a little stroking, but when it got back to the director that I was using the intern to do that, then I had to write a justification. Which really, I agree with the director, its not my job, I was just trying to do a bit of clean up, and give out some boring work to the intern. The manager that brought it up to me told me if I brought it to my manager then perhaps it could get done, though I was like, if I take it to him, it now becomes a large issue that I am going to have to spend my tim

For The Girls And About The Girls Lmao
She came out of the ocean,With her bikini in her hand.She looked towards her friend,And dropped it in the sand. As she walked closer,The other licked her lips.And slowly slid off her bottoms,Revealing her beautiful hips. The two met in a sweet embrace,A passionate kiss with no remorse.Thier hands running over each other,So softly touching,no use of force. Ones hand found its mark,And buried fingers inside.As the other licked her nipples,Begging her to go deeper inside. Soon thier faces disapeered,Buried in each others thighs.Each so into the other,It wasn't long before one cryed. Her hips raised and began to shake,As the other ran her tongue deep within.She begged the other not to stop,To never let this feeling end. Her hips raised then slowly dropped,As the others tongue ran up to her smile.Then they kissed and held each other,And laid intertwined for awhile.

Prisoners
for we are both prisoners of wild desireand we will never be free to be alone againthere are chains of love that bind us tighta lover's pact made between me and youshe smiles so sweetly and softly calls to meher eyes say that she will be always be mineher lush lips open to invite my fevered kisslocked in love's embrace till the end of timefor we are both prisoners of wild desireand we will never be free to be alone againthere are chains of love that bind us tightlove's bonds forged in passion's firefor we are both prisoners of wild desireburning all day and through darkest nightthese chains that bind our hearts so tighta lover's pact made between me and you

Your Right To Vote
I graduated from high school at the age of seventeen. Afterward, I enlisted in the Marine Corps, went to boot camp in San Diego, graduated from that and was sent to Okinawa and, later, Vietnam. The year was 1968. There was an upcoming Presidential election in November, but I couldn't vote in it. The voting age then was 21. I was old enough to defend our country against enemies, both foreign and domestic, but I couldn't vote for the people who decided friend or enemy. Ultimately, I had to wait four years, until 1972, to vote in my first election. Since then, I haven't missed a Presidential election and only a few mid-term elections. I love this country and the Constitution our Founding Fathers created establishing the framework of the United States. I love the fact that I have the right to voice my opinions in the election process and concider this to be one of the most important rights we have. There has rarely been a more critical time to exercise the right to vote. In a time when

Yesterdays Gone
The past crawls behind us,Yesterday is now gone.Today is now here,And its sun shines on. My troubles have gone,During the night made an escape.Today is new and fresh,New chances to alter fate. My once battered heart,From all the days before.Has now found new life,And will hide in yesterdays nomore. Beauty and love now walk with me,And into this new day we go.I know not where the day leads,But happily with her I will go. She is now my new light,My morning suns new rays.May she shine forever in my eyes,For all the rest of my days.

Tell Me Something About You
Well I'm a little bored and I thought this might be fun and interesting. I want you to tell me something about you that I don't already know. Good or bad, stupid or silly. Anything you want. Here's mine: I have a half brother who I've only seen 5 times in my life. We just recently reconnected on myspace & facebook :) and I'm happy.

Ozymandias
I met a traveler from an antique land Who said: "Two vast and trunkless legs of stone Stand in the desert. Near them on the sand, Half sunk, a shattered visage lies, whose frown And wrinkled lip and sneer of cold command Tell that its sculptor well those passions read Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things, The hand that mocked them and the heart that fed. And on the pedestal these words appear: 'My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings: Look on my works, ye might, and despair!' Nothing beside remains. Round the decay Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare, The lone and level sands stretch far away." By - Percy Bysshe Shelley

Best Dylan Thomas Poem
Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Though wise men at their end know dark is right, because their words had forked no lightning they Do not go gentle into that good night. Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light. Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight, And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way, Do not go gentle into that good night. And you, my father, there on the sad height, Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray. Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

At It Again...
Not drunk but still venomous I still let myself get dragged into bashing someone again... I'm not proud of this but feel I do have a right to be angry. Unfortunately, to explain why is a tad embarassing. I fell for a rather old trick and since the person who scammed me is a well known and very frequent presence in the MuMMs, my anger keeps getting re-enflamed. Worse for me is we have too many friends in common and I end up pissing them off, which is not my intention. I believe scammers, especially when real $ is involved, need to be trashed and I would expect the same treatment if I scammed someone...

But You Didnt See Me
TY, Pryj.... nice to know SOMEONE is watching for us.... BUT, YOU DIDNT SEE ME   I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line.   But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday.   I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.   But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall.  I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant.   But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief.   I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by.   But, you didn't see me, driving behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window.   I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children.   But, you didn't see me, when I took time off f

Videos Of Me
CLOSE MY EYES FOREVER http://ksolo.myspace.com/player/KMiniPlayer.swf?lang=en">> EVERY ROSE HAS ITS THORNShttp://ksolo.myspace.com/player/KMiniPlayer.swf?lang=en">> L O V E H U R T S http://ksolo.myspace.com/player/KMiniPlayer.swf?lang=en">> BRINGING ON THE HEARTBREAKhttp://ksolo.myspace.com/player/KMiniPlayer.swf?lang=en">> ROCK YOU LIKE A HURRICANE http://ksolo.myspace.com/player/KMiniPlayer.swf?lang=en">> A E R I A L S http://ksolo.myspace.com/player/KMiniPlayer.swf?lang=en">> http://kSolo.MySpace.com/brandifly69

Thinking, Its A Killer
I swear one of these days thinking is going to get the best of us all. Doesnt matter where you are, what you do, or how hard you try thinking always happens. I wrote a long ass one of these not long ago about how thinking is hazardous to ones mental emotional and physical heath and its true. I dont feel like refreshing those who read the one if you wanna refresh its the post before this go for a read this one will still be here. Okay if you went to read it the rest of us waited for you to get back everyone else sorry they were so slow and held us up shows they didnt really read the other one. I digress and will now continue. Let me ask you this, what do you do when you have so much shit going on in your life that you cant sleep and stay up all hours of the night because of all the thoughts going on inside your mind that you cant turn them off? you really dont have much choice but to try and figure what ever it is that is bouncing around your mind by thinking about it. I have notice

I Cant Stop The Words
"The Words" I cant stop the words that flow so easily from my mind at just the thought of You You thrill me to my soul rock me to my foundations make my heart sing with joy You are my all, my everything from this cold uncaring world You emerged the one spot of brightness in my universe the sun and moon of my existence You and You alone I thank the Lord every second for You K

Dragonfly By Shaman's Harvest
Maybe the sky's falling out around the babiesMaybe the world is going to spin out of controlI don't care anymoreWhat if I quit today working for the manWho said I have another, well, maybe I canits all gonna end anywayTell me doctor, whats the cure, for the wicked man's bluesFly Dragonfly (Fly Dragonfly)Fly Dragonfly (Fly Dragonfly)When the sky, falls to the seaI won't mindThe cause is meWhen the wind, blows through the treesI won't mindThe dragonflyFly DragonflyFly DragonflyWhen I comeGive me a beatand take my adviceJust let me beWhen the moon, turns black as nightWhen it eruptsOh, dragonflyFly Dragonfly*Insert guitar solo*Don't take so longI'll be here before you knowSee you in my mind's eyeFly DragonflyFly DragonflyFly DragonflyFly Dragonfly

And On And On And On
dotson: need to see more of you and your baby:P Me: Pardon? dotson: the pics of you and your baby are hot...would be nice to see more of you two together Me: There would be more, but he's not at home right now for us to take any. And thanks for the compliment. dotson: no problem. would love to see some steamy one's:) Me: That's not going to happen.

Loving Hearts Miles Apart
LOVING HEARTS MILES APART THERE ARE MANY MILES BETWEEN US, BUT OUR HEARTS SEE NOT THE DISTANCE. DRAWING OUR LOVE EVEN CLOSER, ON THIS MY HEART IT IS INSISTENT. WHEN WE TALK MY HEART SINGS, YOU'LL NEVER KNOW THE HAPPINESS IT BRINGS. JUST TO HEAR A WORD FROM YOU, KEEPS MY HEART FROM BEING BLUE. I LOVE YOU TRULY, YES I DO. I FOREVER WANT TO BE WITH YOU. FOR NOW I'LL SETTLE FOR THE PHONE, BUT KNOW IT'S IN YOUR DREAMS THAT I BELONG LONGING FOR THE DAY WE GREET, TWO LOVING HEARTS WILL THEN GET TO MEET. NEVER MORE TO BE APART, KNOWING IT WAS LONG DISTANCE WE GOT OUR START.

Blah
So BLAH is pretty much whats sums up this update. Let's see..... my rent is caught up for now, I'm sure it'll get back behind but oh well fuck it; I'm still topsy turvy about that brother living with me situation; who knew Fly Boys would be this awesome!?!?!?!?!? And look how long I waited to discover how awesome military dicks can be!! LOL Things with my kids are far more beautiful than I thought they would be a year ago. Things are sssoooooooo much better now that I'm divorced. And people tried to say I married him for my situation with my kids. Shit all he did was fuck up my shit with my kids worse than it was before him. Not to mention he let his baby momma ruin my kids toys cause she was so jealous that I had 2 and she was only forced to have 1 and she hated that. So she destroys my kids shit, and thats ok with him cause she's better than me. She never cheated on him. WTFE dude And life post 2nd divorce?? FREAKING FANTASTIC My FlyBoy is awesome wonderful and amazing and so much li

When A Girl....
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around. When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine. When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying. When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered. When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it. When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that. Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .... Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him. who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ..... kisses your forehead. Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Tiki Barber Runs A Sneak Play
This must be the decade of dumping the old bag wife. It happened again but with an unlikely guy. Tiki Barber, former NY Giants and now NBC announcer, has left his wife of 11 years and she’s 8 months pregnant for a 23 year old hottie. Young babes always win out it seems. Here’s more http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/04/07/tiki-barber-leaves-pregnant-wife-nbc-intern/?test=faces BlastFM is a winner 24/7. Give a listen and you will be smitten two. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Yes It's True
Once upon A time I saw you walk along A moonbeam; what a lovely boy I followed you around the world I love you, don't you see You stole my heart in 1-2-3 I love you, yes it's true You stole my heart and I'm gonna steal yours too April, June And underneath a harvest moon I dream in sleep I'm taking flight An aeroplane across the night I love you, don't you see You stole my heart in 1-2-3 I love you, yes it's true You stole my heart and I'm gonna steal yours too Once upon A time I saw you walk along A moonbeam; what a lovely boy Went with you around the world I love you, don't you see You stole my heart in 1-2-3 I love you, yes it's true You stole my heart and I'm gonna steal yours too

May I Kiss You
MAY I KISS YOU? I ask if I may kiss you.You just smile; no answer is necessary.My initial kiss is just a flirting of our lips.My tongue lightly flicking -Like I am asking, "Do you want me?"The tip of my tongue runs all around your lips. Touching every part,Inside and out -Over and over again.Tickling you, tickle, tickle, goes my tongue.Now I press my lips gently to yours.Rubbing your lips back and forth against mine.My kisses are hot and fast.I cannot rest long in any one place.I have such a need to go on.I trail kisses of passion all over your face.Then back to your mouth.Our tongues dance together.We are exploring.I circle your tongue with the tip of mine.You echo the pattern back to me.I lick the sides, underside and the top.You echo back.I suck your lower lip.You echo back.We repeat, repeat, repeat.The sensations are driving our emotions.We are wild for each other.You thrust your tongue in and out.The movements are rhythmic and stabbing.Simulating our love making during mating.I a

Wet
WET Wetness does not always pertain to waterin an ocean, river or lake;Sometimes it refers to how I feelwhen I remember your embrace.I only have to think of youto remember me in your arms;My legs quivering, my mouth moaningI have fallen captive to your charms.I long to feel your body on mineto know the taste of satisfied love;To lie quietly in your armswe fit together like a hand to a glove.You are the sweetheart of my lifeyou are my one sure bet;You never have to wonder babe . . .you can always keep me wet.

7/30 - Nocturnal Oppression
Nocturnal Oppression Existence is ethereal in those tenuous moments when you sit on the cliff's edge of your consciousness. Free falling upwards suspended by the nightmare that does not wait for you to sleep. Sleep, some call it elusive. No, sleep is the taunting schoolyard bully getting more satisfaction from keeping the flames of fear stoked while the punishment of a beating would be more than welcome. A finality in either direction would lift your sentence in the purgatory of insomnia. Shades of gray rule here as the only black and white visible is the gi and the black belt of the master manipulator and tormentor. You can almost hear the chuckle under his breath as you scavenger hunt for distractions. Distractions to either bore you into finally submitting to the sandman or to arouse you to total awareness. After the battle the sanctuary of your room transforms into a torture chamber where the guard delights in putting the rations of food just c

In Dreams
THREE WISHESIf I had three wishes,I would wish to trade lives,With a person so lucky,A woman,Your wife.Just to have one day of waking up beside you,Looking into those beautiful eyes,Tasting your morning lips.To make slow love to you'Til we collapse into each other's arms.I want to watch you shower andHelp with the hard to reach areas (wink).I will make your breakfast andSend you to work with a kiss and a smile.I would love nothing more than to be that personYou come home to after work,To greet with a hug.We can talk over dinner . . .Enjoy dessert much much later (smile).I want nothing more than to appreciateThe beautiful, kind, caring, gentle, honest, loyal and loving man you are.I would love the chanceTo show you what you deserve andEnjoy what she has.If I had three wishes . . .I would give away two, becauseThe only thing I want in this world,Is one chance with you!

In Dreams
IN DREAMS At night I dream of you,Coming to be by my side.I see your silhouette at first;I watch your calm, quick glide.Vivid images;Pictures in my mind.My night's love, my passion;All in you I shall find.Once again, you'll whisper to me,"Hello, my dear. "Your touch eases me,Removing any fear.Your gaze meets mine;The warm look in your eyes,It melts my heart. From now onNothing but blue skies!Tonight you romance me;Our bodies entwine.You enter; I gasp!Our souls combine.A touch here, a tickle there,It enthralls me; I am captivated.Our bodies move, the motion constant;My body's completely activated.Throughout the nightOur passion flows,Coming together,My emotion grows.For you, in dreams,Oh, how I care.But when morning comes,I am left in despair.Anther night gone and passed.I awake in ecstasy all alone.For you visit at night; In dreams you come.And I dread the coming of a new dawn.

Want You Always
Want you,want you, you, you,Doesn't matter that you're not here,I forgive all the silences.I want you,I don't care,I know you'll disappoint,I'm a willing captive,Why fight?There's no point.I want you,Need to hold you in my arms,Need to smell your sweat, inhale your breath,Need you inside of me,That's where you belong,That's where you were meant to be.I want you, bald, fat and ugly,I really don't care,I just want you to be there.I want to open your door,Because I have my own key,I want to come in,Because you too, now want me.I want you to need me,I want to stare in your eyes,I want your promises,I don't care if they are lies.I want your body,Warm in my bed,I want you near me,I want you so bad.

My Heaven
My Heaven I look deep in your eyes.I see there what I feel inside.We share something between us,Neither one of us can hide.I feel your lips touch mine,I loose all my control,All it took was a look and a kiss,To know you were part of my soul.I see your hands on my skin,I want and need you to do more,The passionate look you give me,Tells me heaven is in store.I feel your need against my thigh,I know you will fulfill every wish,.We were made to fit together,And all it took was a look and a kiss.I look deep in your eyes,And I see heaven there inside,You make me feel so beautiful, What I feel for you I cannot hide.

[8. Let's Get A Quicky In]
I think I've finally figured out what I'm missing the most. You're sitting in a room.Drinking your favorite drinktalking to strangersand without noticebecause she has arrived right on timeshe steps into the roomplaces one hand on your shoulderand kisses you on the lips.Like it was the most important thing to do. GODI miss that. So last night I had a dream about ... ... ... is there a word for evil incarnate? anywayshe had a kidand I was sucked into the desert through knowing thatand was forced to watch her and the kid's life unfoldprotesting everything that I had been through in the interrimprotesting her happiness ... I woke up a few times.Once around dawn.And I just stayed up til my alarm went off because I was tired of going back to that awful place. I was asked to go to church this weekend with tiny blonde. I tried to politely decline but I'm getting really fucking tired of being asked. At some point it got out that I don't go to church and people haven't figured out that

Retarded Game Playing Bitch Leave Me Out Of Your Fucking Drama.
Show Recent Messages (F3) Debby Me: you thereDebby Me: you therekerry lively: I posted a vidkerry lively: of him drunk back stage after a show lolDebby Me: hiDebby Me: lolkerry lively: and he was like aww wtfkerry lively: lolkerry lively: he was a bear today he left me no choiceDebby Me: its strange i cant see the youtubes in blogs for some reasonkerry lively: i dunno i hve the link..what browser ya useDebby Me: mozillaDebby Me: but i wanted to chatDebby Me: im very confused about a few things to be honestkerry lively: that is whykerry lively: my friend uses thta and cant see themkerry lively: whatDebby Me: and i know i am a soft person, but im not stupid kerry, there are a few things that do not make sensekerry lively: whats thatDebby Me: why did you dog me in the pastkerry lively: umDebby Me: what did i do so wrong to youkerry lively: because it was easier to attack you than the man i lovedkerry lively: and honestly you came at me just as hard debbyDebby Me: whenkerry lively: wha

How To Clear Mobile Phone Data Before Upgrading Mobile Phones?
If you're desired to get an Blackberry Phone or another cell phones, there are certain security precautions that you should take when upgrading mobile phones .Before you sell or trade in your current phone, learn how to clear your mobile phone data. The last thing you want is some stranger having access to all your personal information. You can manually delete your information, but much of the data can still be recovered with the use of third-party tools. In order to ensure that you completely delete all the data from your Cell Phones from china wholesale, you should overwrite the data or reformat your cell phone. Cell phones are like PCs because they store data. You might think that for they were smaller, the task of clearing your data would be easier. Sorry, the fact is not. It can be difficult to do it with some mobile phones. Part of this is intentional by the manufacturers so we don't accidentally clear mobile phone data. The way in which you clear

Poem
Alone through the unknown By: Fire Lily 4/7/2010 The bringer of fire the bringer of light, The one who shines through the endless night. The barer of hope the barer of dreams, But beware the truth is not always what it seems. Beware the good beware the bad because love is something to never be had. Into the light from the dark, The one without a soul mate always to be apart. Time is something one always seeks to concur, in her life it is her true loves blocker. Through time and space there will always be a divide, She is truly one of a kind. When she was born the mold was broke, but she is one half of a whole that never can be spoken. But in the end she starts again, reincarnated to fight and defend. But through it all she concurs alone, for her sole mate is always ahead in time in places unknown.

Five Things We Learned About Obamacare After It Passed
"[W]e have to pass the bill so that you can find out what is in it, away from the fog of the controversy." House Speaker Nancy Pelosi, D-Calif., famously said that about President Obama's health care reform package. She was right. We are just finding out what was contained within that Obamacare law that Obama signed weeks ago. Here are five things we've learned so far: One: No sooner had Obamacare passed than the White House discovered that someone goofed. Despite all of Obama's promises and talking points, Obamacare as passed by Congress does not require insurers to cover children with expensive pre-existing medical conditions. Immediately, the White House got an assurance from the insurers. After demonizing them for months as callous profiteers on others' misery (in fact, the entire industry is barely profitable), Obama now tells Americans that they can trust health insurance companies to do the right thing out of the goodness of their hearts. Two: State governments discovered t

Not All Terrorism: Obama Tries To Change Subject
Not all terrorism: Obama tries to change subject By MATT APUZZO – 20 hours ago WASHINGTON — President Barack Obama's advisers plan to remove terms such as "Islamic radicalism" from a document outlining national security strategy and will use the new version to emphasize that the U.S. does not view Muslim nations through the lens of terrorism, counterterrorism officials say. The change would be a significant shift in the National Security Strategy, a document that previously outlined the Bush Doctrine of preventive war. It currently states, "The struggle against militant Islamic radicalism is the great ideological conflict of the early years of the 21st century." The officials described the changes on condition of anonymity because the document is still being written and is unlikely to be released for weeks, and the White House would not discuss it. But rewriting the strategy document is the latest example of Obama putting his stamp on U.S. foreign policy, as with his pr

Sa Aking Asawa
ako ay pag-ibig sa iyo magpakailanman! ito ay nangangahulugan na gumawa ng aking mga araw na kumpleto kung ako makita mo! i love you so much, it hurts! Miss ko sa inyo kaya much, kaya kong sigaw ng isang ilog! ako magkulang sa hold ka masyado, wala na hihinto ako mula sa pagkuha ng doon sa lalong madaling i am able! Ako isipin wala mas mahusay kaysa sa hawak mo sa aking mga armas at nagsasabi kung magkano ang i love you at kung maganda ka! Ako captivated sa pamamagitan ng iyong pag-ibig!

C'mon
I was told that my little house way back was a church of a sort and D tells me it was built by her father for her uncle. C calls me up to tell me what took place upon her return, like her TV, I have a logical explanation. The entire area is full of energy and it seems a cross hair is on my house. Take this cross hair out far enough it becomes a cross. This cross hair is exactly centered on my house. C'mon, Norio, do your thing. It's time to take your place isn't it Norio. Your waking up. You know who is the Dark Man and the Man of Sin along with who is The Grand Master. Intresting turn of event's. Energy to use to conquer my own self and have The Physician Heal Thyself. Great change as it is coming here is always looked upon as evil. I held back. Secret Brotherhood. We are all here for what I do not know? Glory to God Norio

Screen Names Explained
Drinking again and very bored. I am so ready for this dusk period in my life to end. I am ready to start working again now. I am listening to some older Type O Negative tonight. Suspended in Dusk. The song seems to fit though as it is raining quite heavily here tonight. So I thought that I would explain the name change on here that I have recently made. There is a Type O Negative album called October Rust that has stayed one of my favorites. I do think it is still my favorite album ever even though it came out in 1996. There was a magazine article that I had read that said that they almost named the LP 1313 in honor of The Munsters address of 1313 Mockingbird Lane. My first yahoo address is a varation of October Rust and 1313. Nowdays I tend to either go with something Raistlin or something 1313. So how did you choose your screen name here?

Basic Training Days
When I woke up at a quarter to six this morning, I was hard-pressed to think a good thought. Even with writing my daily devotion in my journal, my mind drifted back to today sixteen years ago during my student teaching when I got shoved by a student in front of the class I was teaching and sealed my fate … by doing nothing. Suffice it to say, nobody got expelled (especially not me), but I should have seen the writing on the wall then that I was not cut out to teach in high school – and if some professors had had their way, at all, ever. I still admit that classroom management is not my strongest point, partly because I didn’t then nor do I now count too much on other people to back me up when I have to be the bad guy who sticks to the rules no matter what. And back in the early nineties, I admit I really was a Pharisee about it. Last night I brought Sarah and Jeffrey with me from their grandparents’ house to pick up Martha at work so we could leave Ma

Most Ridiculous Fake Salute Of The Day...
Check the blog below and to the left with the same title...don't forget to rate , tell your friends and post your comments as always and please don't forget to rate it a 1, 3, 6, 10 or 11..:D

Love
in life u go thoght bsome much shit and so many people tell u what is best for u and sometimes just some times they are rigt and sometimes they make a mistake well i have someone in my life that i love and i dont want to lose and this erson helps and cares about me and makes me feel so good about myself he is the one person who has always aways there for me when i need him and will always be there for me

Most Ridiculous Fake Salute Of The Day...
Fubar. Real People. Real Fun. I like it. Anyways, Here’s today’s most ridiculous fake salute of the day.. This may not be the real person, but it sure is fun to make a fool out of these idiots..lol peace.

Fudaddy Forgets
FU DADDY A...: lol To FU DADDY A...: I COULD COPY AND PASTE IT IN A BLOG CALLED FUDADDY FORGETS To FU DADDY A...: HA HA I BUSTED UR ASS FINALLY LMAOOO FU DADDY A...: Shh you..lol To FU DADDY A...: IT SAFE WITH ME LOL To FU DADDY A...: WOW U ACTUALLY MESSED UP LMAOOOO To FU DADDY A...: ERROR: You can not use this page until you've reached the level of Oracle! For more information about Angel and Demon abilities please see The Bible FU DADDY A...: Oops not till 28 To FU DADDY A...: IM NOT AN ORACLE YET IM LOOKIN AT IT RIGHT NOW

From The Most Awesomest Person....
FROM RON POWERS: HER NAME IS YOUNG SAMI AND SHES AN ULTIMATE HOTTIE EVERY FELLA ON FU WANT A PIECE OF HER BODY IN A LEAGUE OF HER OWN THE QUEEN ON HER THROWN CATCH HER ON CAM THE ORIGNAL DANGER ZONE IS WHERE YOU COULD FIND HER SOME BAD CHICKS BEHIND HER SHORTY SO "BAD" BOY DIDDY SHOULDVE SIGNED HER DO I HAVE TO REMIND YA SHE SHINE SO BRIGHT HER SWAGGER JUST MIGHT BLIND YA KOOL SEXY KRAZY SOPHISTICATED LADY PFFT IF I WAS SINGLE I WOULD MAKE HER MY BAAAAAAAABY

Severe Thunderstorm Watch
URGENT - IMMEDIATE BROADCAST REQUESTED SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WATCH NUMBER 64 NWS STORM PREDICTION CENTER NORMAN OK 920 PM CDT WED APR 7 2010 THE NWS STORM PREDICTION CENTER HAS ISSUED A SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WATCH FOR PORTIONS OF SOUTHEAST INDIANA CENTRAL KENTUCKY SOUTHWEST OHIO EFFECTIVE THIS WEDNESDAY NIGHT AND THURSDAY MORNING FROM 920 PM UNTIL 200 AM CDT. HAIL TO 1 INCH IN DIAMETER...THUNDERSTORM WIND GUSTS TO 70 MPH...AND DANGEROUS LIGHTNING ARE POSSIBLE IN THESE AREAS. THE SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WATCH AREA IS APPROXIMATELY ALONG AND 60 STATUTE MILES EAST AND WEST OF A LINE FROM 25 MILES SOUTH SOUTHEAST OF BOWLING GREEN KENTUCKY TO 15 MILES NORTH OF CINCINNATI OHIO. FOR A COMPLETE DEPICTION OF THE WATCH SEE THE ASSOCIATED WATCH OUTLINE UPDATE (WOUS64 KWNS WOU4). REMEMBER...A SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WATCH MEANS CONDITIONS ARE FAVORABLE FOR SEVERE THUNDERSTORMS IN AND CLOSE TO THE WATCH AREA. PERSONS IN THESE AREAS SHOULD BE ON THE

Severe Thunderstorm Warning
SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WARNING INC041-161-177-080230- /O.NEW.KILN.SV.W.0023.100408T0142Z-100408T0230Z/ BULLETIN - EAS ACTIVATION REQUESTED SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WARNING NATIONAL WEATHER SERVICE WILMINGTON OH 942 PM EDT WED APR 7 2010 THE NATIONAL WEATHER SERVICE IN WILMINGTON HAS ISSUED A * SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WARNING FOR... FAYETTE COUNTY IN EAST CENTRAL INDIANA... UNION COUNTY IN EAST CENTRAL INDIANA... WAYNE COUNTY IN EAST CENTRAL INDIANA... * UNTIL 1030 PM EDT. * AT 938 PM EDT...RADAR INDICATED A LINE OF SEVERE THUNDERSTORMS CAPABLE OF PRODUCING QUARTER SIZE HAIL AND WINDS TO 60 MPH. THESE STORMS WERE LOCATED ALONG A LINE EXTENDING FROM DUBLIN TO FALMOUTH TO 14 MILES SOUTHWEST OF GLENWOOD...MOVING NORTHEAST AT 45 MPH. * LOCATIONS IMPACTED INCLUDE... HAGERSTOWN... DUBLIN... CAMBRIDGE CITY... CONNERSVILLE... FOUNTAIN CITY... CENTERVILLE... LIBERTY... RICHMOND... IN ADDITION...FALMOUTH...FRANKLIN...BENTONVILLE...MOUNT AUBURN... GLENWOOD...ECONOMY...EAST G

Tornado Warning
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For Cw
As White as a Dove Is as pure as our love As strong as an Ox You cant put it in a box Just let it grow as you let a river flow For ever and ever you lover I shall be for you and me we belong together for ever and ever I shall love thee

Splendid Ugg Boots
The ugg boots bring you some of the most fashionable boots for men and women today. You also will find the Ugg boots to be found on the internet and there is plenty in stock of all kinds of styles. The important thing you should know about Ugg boots is to make sure there not the replicas that impersonate the style. The Ugg is high quality boots that's made in Australia and the boots are made out of sheep skin. For many people, uggs are the cool boot to wear. To others, they are great pieces of craftsmanship that just scream. The Ugg Boot though is more than these simple statements. The Ugg Boot is made with high quality and high standards as well. Uggs made it to the United States back in 1978 when a man named Brian Smith decided to take a gamble and see if this unique, yet fantastic boot could make it in the United States. It was a chance because the Australian was worried that the Ugg Boot was too much of quirky Australian design to make a hit in the US. But the Ugg Boot took off i

The Bogged Down Man
Late at night When the moon is right And the dogs are out, You will find me in the moors. I'll be in the mud With a stick in my hand Waiting, for the bogged down man. He was old with grey hair, He had a hunchback suit, With light blue and yellow stripes. His teeth were old and yellow, His eyes were brown, His skin was red, white, black, and blue. His skin was peeling, His hair was falling out. Who was he? I'll tell you. The Bogged Down Man. The clock struck midnight. The fog rolled in. The body began to rise. It sat up with a jerk. It stood with a groan. With a glare he eyed my soul. Forward he marched The mud and flesh dripping off with each step. My blood rose high, My body grew cold. I was praying for day. Closer and closer he crept. Farther and farther i lept. With the flesh having fallen off The blood ran down its hands. Till nothing was left, but the bone. The hand reached forward And death scratched my soul. I looked to the face for recognitio

Getting Back To Writing Again
04/06/10 I want to get back to writing and I think this is the best way to start. Getting back to writing my journals/blogs. The weathah has been off lately… off = not sunny. Today the weathah is bettah in being sunny but still a bit chilly. I listened to the rain last night… a sound I love along with the sound of a train in the distance… So much going through my head lately… wheah do I want my life to go from heah. The cancer is back but I am relieved that going through the chemo isn’t neah as bad as I thought it would be so my quality of life is really pretty good. I loose my hair and I sleep a lot but I do ok. Need to keep up with my stretches and exercises so I can get back to things quicker once the chemo stops. I have the option right now of going to be with a couple but I can’t really do anything theah until this round of chemo is done... I don’t want to change horses in the middle of the stream… lol So much to think about I

Untitled
i am lost at sea looking for my way home i look around and i see a light i steer towards it i start to see the lighthouse weight starts to fade the pain disappears but then i realize something im not getting closer to home i am getting closer to crashing. i let the pen do the talking on this one leave me a comment and let me know what you think...

Can't Breathe
i think my soul has cancer too & there is no medical treatment it eats away at me like a worm through an apple in these holes there is nothing just shadows of separation as for myself & i we are not on speaking terms

Um, Yeah...how About No!
tinstar123:into phonesex me: well, if i was, this would NOT be the way to ask me tinstar123: yea....not good at this.....sorry me: you're not good at what? chatting online? tinstar123: askinfg for phonesex....im sorry me: well, would you walk up to a stranger in the bar with the opening line of, "Nice shoes. Want to fuck?" me: most women would slap you. tinstar123: dont know hoe else to say im sorry me: asking me for phone sex is the same thing. me:except i can't slap you. ha. Um.... yeah. No! This is not how you proposition a lady, for f*ck's sake! At least battle it out like Mr. Adorable and Pedro El Loco, who keep bidding on me in fu-owned.

Prayer For America
For more than five decades we have drifted away from the principals God set forth when he created this great country. We have deluded ourselves into thinking that we could replace God's laws with the laws of man. My hope is that we can band together to change our country. I truly believe we can do this by getting on our knees and praying to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. My prayer is not that we will not pass laws to make abortions illegal, but that there will be no one seeking abortions. My prayer is not that we will make pornography illegal but that they will go out of business due to lack of business. My prayer is not that we pass laws regulating morality, but that the people of this great country will become great again because the word of God is written upon their hearts. My prayer is that God will give us God fearing leaders who seek his counsel and forgiveness. That God will put these men and women into positions of leadership in our governments, our schools, our busi

Constant Thunder
I was once lost in darkness,A wandering nomadic fool,Teetering on the edge of reason,About to plunge into the abyss,Then a light shone down,Lifted me out of darkness,Touched my soul with grace,And beat love into my heart,That was when I met you,My loving wife,For so long now youHave continued to save me,Day after day,You gave me the reason to be,To live and to feel love,To go on and find my dreams,As long as you were there,I just wanted to let you know,That I could never fully expressHow much I feel for you,When I love you Seems so simple,How can you put into wordsThe power of desire I have for you,Pray to God,Channel the muse,And let my fingers type the words,My heart beats because of you,My soul is bright and alive,Because of you,And even when the trails of todaySeem to distract me,My love is always devoted to you,It is eternal within my heart,Like a constant thunder in my soul.

What The Hell Is Happening!!!!!!!
So as most people know we got an eviction notice like a month and a half ago, we worked that out with the landlord and he said half of his paycheck every 2 weeks. *No minimum ammount, no nothing just half of his paycheck. Then he comes over today, I barely got an hour's sleep. He's like oh have almost 1,000 dollars by this weekend or find a new place to live. HOW THE HELL CAN HE DO THIS WHEN HE AGREED ALONG WITH MY MAN, ON HALF HIS PAYCHECK TILL WE GOT CAUGHT UP? I mean seriously.........he can't do this if both parties agreed to it. By Idaho law a verbal agreement is the same as a written agreement in almost all aspects. I WANT TO KILL MY FUCKING LANDLORD WHO DON'T DO CRAP ANYWAY AND IT TOOK TILL I GOT FOOD POISONING JUST TO REPLACE A FRIDGE!!!!! Plus we're not that he hasn't fixed the electricity yet, the baseboard heater in our bedroom yet, etc. etc.

You Didn't See Me
I post this every year about this time. I don't ride anymore, but I have a lot of friends that do.......a lot of people I care about. When you are out riding around in your cage, PLEASE be aware of those on bikes!!!!!! The following poem is for all you that ride. I have no clue who wrote it.....I know I didn't. Please feel free to copy it to your own site and spread the message. I'm sure that all of us have horror stories about someone that we loved either getting killed or seriously hurt on a motorcycle. I'm also sure the majority of those incidents could have been prevented IF the people in cars had been more alert. I only hope that I can help save one biker by posting this.++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++But, You Didn't See MeI saw you,hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line.But, you didn't see me,put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday.I saw you,pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.

Fuck Salt!`
Im tired of the arguing, Im tired of the fighting, Im tired of the bitching Im tired of the complaining Im tired of this and Im tired of that Bust most of all Im tired of the fucking rats hahahahaha im fucking bored you dont like my little rhym well then i dont have the time..... wow a white boy that got flow who woulda known.... no but seriously i hate fucking rap music

New Exercise Program.
So, obviously this is my first blog so bear with me. I am making this as sort of like a public journal to keep track of my progress with a new workout program that I have started. It is really slack and if anyone has any tips or pointers on how I can improve this workout or my results feel free to post. I have been out of the game for awhile now, not really doing much exercise. I am sure that showws in my recent pics. So I decided to start with a real laid back program. It is a six week program that consists of 5 exercises, pushups, situps, pullups, chinups, and squats. I do about 15 minutes of warm ups before and after the workout. and I make sure to do stretches, especially afterwards. Day 1. Ate a full breakfast. 2 hard boiled eggs, a slice of toast with a thin spread of blueberry jam, a small glass of milk and a large glass of water. Took one multi-vitamin tablet. 15 minutes doing warm ups 5 sets of 10 pushups 3 sets of 8 situps, 2 sets of 7 situps 5 sets of 8 s

Shyness And Self-esteem
Sometimes people don't realize how their attitude affects my shyess or that my self-esteem really gets low when I feel like I've done something I shouldn't have without knowing. I know it's my problem. No one can really know that unless they know me. I guess that's why I don't really have friends and have a hard time making them. I don't feel wanted by most people.. well anyone really. I have a lot to offer. People just won't try to uncover what lies beneath the shy exterior. I try to put myself out there and wander into uncomfortable territory.. but then it never fails that someone will be gruff with me and then I don't want to go out of my comfort zone again. Sometimes people should just be nice and let things go by.. not question so much.. maybe if you don't know who someone is you should try to get to know them.. you might like them.

Hey Pretty By Poe
Well it's 3a.m. I'm out here driving againThrough the wicked winding streets of my worldI take a wrong turn break it but I'm too far goneI've got a siren on my tail and that's not the fineI'm looking forI see a stairway so I follow it downInto the belly of a whaleWhere my secrets echo all aroundYou know me now but to do better than thatYou've got to follow meBoy I'm trying to show you where I'm atHey prettyDon't you wanna take a ride with me?Through my worldHey prettyDon't you wanna kick and slide with meThrough my worldWell I've got a mind full of wicked desingsI've got a non-stop-whole in my head-imaginationI can't forget I am a sole architectI built the shadows hereI built the growl in the voice I fearYou know me now but to do better than thatYou've got to follow meBoy I'm triing to show you where I'm atHey prettyDon't you wana take a ride with me?Through my worldHey prettyDon't you wanna kick and slide with meThrough my worldHey prettyMy pretty babyRock it through my

Tornado Watch
MESOSCALE DISCUSSION 0284 NWS STORM PREDICTION CENTER NORMAN OK 0315 PM CDT WED APR 07 2010 AREAS AFFECTED...SERN MO...SRN AND ERN IL...WRN IN AND EXTREME WRN KY CONCERNING...TORNADO WATCH 61... VALID 072015Z - 072215Z THE SEVERE WEATHER THREAT FOR TORNADO WATCH 61 CONTINUES. THE THREAT FOR ISOLATED DAMAGING WIND...LARGE HAIL AND ISOLATED TORNADOES WILL PERSIST NEXT FEW HOURS. STORMS CONTINUE DEVELOPING ALONG AN EWD ADVANCING COLD FRONT FROM SERN MO THROUGH NERN IL. OTHER STORMS ARE DEVELOPING IN PRE-FRONTAL WARM SECTOR AND NEAR WARM FRONT ACROSS NERN IL INTO NRN IND. DIABATIC WARMING HAS BOOSTED SURFACE TEMPERATURES INTO THE LOW 70S ACROSS CNTRL AND ERN IL...RESULTING IN AN AXIS OF 500-1000 J/KG MLCAPE. INSTABILITY IS SOMEWHAT MORE LIMITED FARTHER EAST INTO IND WHERE LOW CLOUDS HAVE PERSISTED. STORMS REMAIN MORE DISCRETE ALONG THE NRN END OF THE LINE ACROSS NERN IL INTO NWRN IND. SOME OF THESE STORMS ARE APPROACHING THE WARM FRONT WHERE THE NEAR SUR

The Outhouse
THE OUTHOUSE PLEASE RATE FOR ME Ma was in the kitchen fiddling around when she hollers out, "Pa! You need to go out and fix the outhouse!" Pa replies,"There ain't nuthin wrong with the outhouse." Ma yells back, "Yes there is,now git out there and fix it." So Pa mosies out to the outhouse,looks around and yells back, "Ma! There ain't nuthin wrong with the outhouse!" "Ma replies, "Stick yur head in the hole!" Pa yells back, "I ain't stickin my head in that hole! "Ma says, "Ya have to stick yur head in the hole to see what to fix." So with that, Pa sticks his head in the hole, looks around and yells back, "Ma! There ain't nuthin wrong with this outhouse!" Ma hollers back, "Now take your head out of the hole!" Pa proceeds to pull his head out of the hole, then starts yelling, "Ma! Help! My beard is stuck in the cracks in the toilet seat!" To which Ma replies, "Hurts, don't it?!"

Love And The Elderly
please rate this for me! SEX AND THE ELDERLY...... The eighty-three year old lady finished her annual physical examination, the doctor said, "You are in fine shape for your age, Mrs. Green, but tell me, do you still have intercourse?" "Just a minute, I'll have to ask my husband, “she said. She stepped out into the crowded reception room and yelled out loud: "Bob, do we still have intercourse?" There was a complete hush - you could have heard a pin drop. Bob answered impatiently, "If I told you once, Irma, I've told you a hundred times....What we have is Blue Cross!"

Freudian Spell Check
Spell check finds no errors with the word "boob" Even if you meant to type book, as in "Address Book" Spell check will not stop you from sending an e-mail to 48 Admins and Managers asking them for their latest directory so that you can update the address boob.

Bacon-world Is Rad!
At first glance, these images look like painted landscapes covered in snow. However, if you look a little more closely you will see that the landscape is made of bacon and other cold cuts. These aren’t paintings but true photos! Also everything you can see in the photograph is made of real food! Pictures were photographed by Carl Warner, a photographer who works in London, and who made specialty of these food landscapes or how I like to call them - ‘foodscapes’. In recent years he has been commissioned by many advertising agencies throughout Europe to produce his distinctive images for clients in the food industry. Each scene is photographed in layers from foreground to background.

Severe Thunderstorm Watch
URGENT - IMMEDIATE BROADCAST REQUESTED SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WATCH NUMBER 62 NWS STORM PREDICTION CENTER NORMAN OK 155 PM CDT WED APR 7 2010 THE NWS STORM PREDICTION CENTER HAS ISSUED A SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WATCH FOR PORTIONS OF CENTRAL AND EASTERN ARKANSAS NORTHERN LOUISIANA MISSOURI BOOTHEEL NORTHWEST MISSISSIPPI WESTERN TENNESSEE NORTHEAST TEXAS EFFECTIVE THIS WEDNESDAY AFTERNOON AND EVENING FROM 155 PM UNTIL 800 PM CDT. HAIL TO 2 INCHES IN DIAMETER...THUNDERSTORM WIND GUSTS TO 70 MPH...AND DANGEROUS LIGHTNING ARE POSSIBLE IN THESE AREAS. THE SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WATCH AREA IS APPROXIMATELY ALONG AND 80 STATUTE MILES EAST AND WEST OF A LINE FROM 45 MILES NORTHWEST OF DYERSBURG TENNESSEE TO 60 MILES SOUTH SOUTHEAST OF LONGVIEW TEXAS. FOR A COMPLETE DEPICTION OF THE WATCH SEE THE ASSOCIATED WATCH OUTLINE UPDATE (WOUS64 KWNS WOU2). REMEMBER...A SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WATCH MEANS CONDITIONS ARE FAVORABLE FO

Tornado Watch
BULLETIN - IMMEDIATE BROADCAST REQUESTED TORNADO WATCH OUTLINE UPDATE FOR WT 61 NWS STORM PREDICTION CENTER NORMAN OK 125 PM CDT WED APR 7 2010 TORNADO WATCH 61 IS IN EFFECT UNTIL 700 PM CDT FOR THE FOLLOWING LOCATIONS ILC003-005-019-021-023-025-027-029-033-035-039-041-045-047-049- 051-053-055-059-065-069-075-077-079-081-087-101-105-107-113-115- 117-119-121-127-133-135-139-145-147-151-153-157-159-163-165-167- 173-181-183-185-189-191-193-199-080000- /O.NEW.KWNS.TO.A.0061.100407T1825Z-100408T0000Z/ IL . ILLINOIS COUNTIES INCLUDED ARE ALEXANDER BOND CHAMPAIGN CHRISTIAN CLARK CLAY CLINTON COLES CRAWFORD CUMBERLAND DE WITT DOUGLAS EDGAR EDWARDS EFFINGHAM FAYETTE FORD FRANKLIN GALLATIN HAMILTON

Mankind Is Obsolete- She
She All around In a place unknown Many paths, many truths unfold There she stands reaching out alone In the dark She still breathes in light She’s there blowing kisses to the past Rays of hope Dotted skies she dreams Thinking of better times she lives and waits Begin Everything feels so numb and cold There she stands, reaching out alone Sinking ship that sailed too far away From home She’s throwing fear away, She won’t be frightened anymore Reaching out, I’m reaching out to you For hope And she sleeps with angels tonight, Waiting for you If I could give words to heal, I’d give them to you Are you there? Are you still there? I’m waiting for you, Reaching for you? Are you there? Are you still there? I’m calling out for hope to reach you

Mesoscale Discussion
MESOSCALE DISCUSSION 0282 NWS STORM PREDICTION CENTER NORMAN OK 1254 PM CDT WED APR 07 2010 AREAS AFFECTED...SERN MO THROUGH SRN AND CNTRL IL AND WRN IND CONCERNING...SEVERE POTENTIAL...WATCH POSSIBLE VALID 071754Z - 072030Z THUNDERSTORM INTENSITIES WILL GRADUALLY INCREASE THIS AFTERNOON AS CONVECTION DEVELOPS EWD THROUGH THE MID-MS AND OH VALLEYS. MAIN THREAT WILL BE ISOLATED DAMAGING WIND AND POSSIBLY HAIL. HOWEVER...AN ISOLATED TORNADO OR TWO CANNOT BE RULED OUT. TRENDS ARE BEING MONITORED FOR A POSSIBLE WW. A COLD FRONT EXTENDS FROM A SURFACE LOW IN WRN IL SSWWD THROUGH SERN MO...NRN AR AND ERN TX. WARM FRONT STRETCHES EWD FROM THE LOW THROUGH NRN IL...NWRN IND AND SRN LOWER MI. SATELLITE TRENDS INDICATE A FEW BREAKS DEVELOPING IN THE PRE-FRONTAL MULTI-LAYER CLOUD DECK CONTRIBUTING TO DESTABILIZATION OF THE BOUNDARY LAYER...AND STORMS HAVE RECENTLY INCREASED NEAR THE MO/IL BORDER. MLCAPE WILL LIKELY REMAIN AOB 1000 J/KG DUE TO MODES

"feel Good" Music Video!
I admit, I grew up right when rap was coming out... Showing my age :p And I still listen mostly to rap radio stations in my car, though my music collection is from all genres. Unfortunately, today's rap has gotten to be more of the same every year. I'm glad to see these new "college rappers" and YouTubers coming out and making fun, creative songs that AREN'T talking about 22s and bling... I saw this video on MTV this morning and IMMEDIATELY upped it in my stash, not only is it a catchy song but the video makes me laugh! (especially the white dude's facial expressions) BTW, I'll post in comments for you folks that get the dreaded WHITE BOX!!!! Enjoy :p

Sexually Explicit Rant
Alright kiddies LISTEN UP!!!!! Uncle Adam is here to LAY IT DOWN!!After watching the MTV True Life: "I Love Fuckin Hot Chicks With Sweet Asses and Suckin off Guys with Big Fat Cocks" episode, I have cum to the conclusion that YOU EARLY 20 SOMETHINGS NEED TO COOL YOU GODDAMN GENITALS IN A BUCKET OF LIQUID NITROGEN!!!!You are ALLLLL TOOO YOUNG to "PLAY" the pretend happy couple bf/gf game.That's for adults! Like ur parents!! It's a scientific FACT that ur genitals are too immature for a monogamous (sex with ur bf/gf and hook up ASS on the side when you "break up" once a week) relation-thingy. There is WAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY too much fuckin goin on! Now I know whatchur sayn "Fuck you, you had your fun, and now you got the fuckin balls ta tell me how ta life my #$@#$ life motherfucker????!!!!!!!"The answer is YES, that is eXXXactly what I'm doing. You wanna spread ur legs or whip out ur dick n play tha "fuck you I'm young n wild card", then I'll play the "Hey Junior, I've already

It’s The Busiest Time For Me
It’s this time of year when everything seems to be moving quickly and without much pushing. The Edinburgh Fringe is almost upon me and I have this year been really organised, my advert/images and posters are all up to speed. I just need to get a flat in Edinburgh and every year it costs me about three thousand pounds to get a decent place…that kills me…does anyone have a decent flat to let in Edinburgh during August? Soon I am off to Toronto to do Yuk- Yuk’s comedy clubs, then am off to Soho theatre and then off to USA to do gigs at Roswell, Georgia – Atlanta and am taking my co – writer daughter Ashley with me. She is going to video some blogs and we need to get our kids show for Edinburgh organised. Did I mention I was doing two shows daily at fringe? Yes – Ashley and I are doing a kids show at 12.50pm and my own one woman show is at 7pm. So to complete my travels, I am off to LA in June and have practically paralysed myself with nervousness and fear over the few meetings I

The Kill By 30 Seconds To Mars
What if I wanted to break Laugh it all off in your face What would you do? What if I fell to the floor Couldn't take all this anymore What would you do, do, do? Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you What if I wanted to fight Beg for the rest of my life What would you do? You say you wanted more What are you waiting for? I'm not running from you Come break me down Marry me, bury me I am finished with you Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you I tried to be someone else But nothing seemed to change I know now, this is who I really am inside Finally found myself Fighting for a chance I know now, this is who I really am Come break me down Bury me, bury me I am finished with you, you, you Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you Come, break me down Break me down Break me down What if I wanted to break? (You say you wanted more) (What are you waiting for?)

The Bird And The Worm By The Used
He wears his heart safety pinned to his backpack his backpack is all that he knows... Shot down by strangers whose glances can cripple the heart and devour the soul... All alone he turns to stone while holding his breath half to death Terrified of what's inside to save his life he crawls like a Worm from a Bird (ALL ALONE) (crawls like a worm from a bird) Whispers of...(just keep working...just keep working...im terrified) Out of his mind away pushes him whispering: "Musta been out of his mind..." Mid-day dillusions of pushing this out of his head make him out of his mind.. All alone he turns to stone while holding his breath half to death Terrified of what's inside to save his life he crawls like a worm... (crawls like a worm!) crawls like a Worm from a Bird CHANTING: (ALL ALONEEE) crawls like a worm from a bird (ALL ALONEEE) crawls like a worm from a bird (ALL ALONEEE) crawls like a worm... crawls like a worm from a Bird... Now he knows

If You Care For Someone...
you have to see things from their angle. Notice what they see. Be aware what they will question. Be mindful of their feelings. Whether just friends, partners, companions, or lovers...be aware.

All Outta Angst By Nofx
I'm not insane, I'm not bummed outI got no one to blame, nothing to changeI got no evil to fightOne thing's for sure, I'm all outta angstsociety don't bother meand there's something wrong with thatI'm off to Pakistan, learn the laws of Islamfundamentalism, forget that rock'n'rollno cigarette, no drink, in factit's difficult to think about getting laidwhen you don't even get to see her faceI'm not insane I'm not insane, I'm not liquored upI got nothin' to do, nothin' to loseI got no place to call homeone thing's for sure, I'm all outta angstsociety don't bother me, there's something wrong with that Next stop Mongoliadon't get to golf or fuck or bowl with yathrow out that handicapno stepping out till spring in fact it'sdifficult to sing when it's 20 belowand that's during the dayI'm not insaneI'm not insaneI'm not insane

Seeing Double At The Triple Rock By Nofx
WHOA!! Lets GO! It's 3 o'clock at The Triple Rock, another round of watching Paddy talkIt's where you wanna get snowed in when you get snowed inOutside it's 10 below, is it day or night, we don't care or knowWhat we know is that we don't wanna be anywhere but herePlease don't make us leaveWhen in Minnesota and you got a drinking quotaI'm seeing double at The Triple Rock, we're still here watching Paddy talkThen undress, then get out the duct tapeThe one question still remains, how much more art can we take?I'll let you know when the medication wears offI'm a religious drunk and this is where I prayThe church of alchoholics can't break up the congregationGive us air to breathe through carbonationWe are at liquor church, genuflecting on barstoolsWe're praying that the taps will keep the holy water flowingKey kicks of communion then a long night of confessionsComing home after noon seems to raise a lot of questionsWhen in Minnesota and you got a drinking quota Lets GO!!

Argh!!!!!!!!!
Dropped At...: yea i hav cam Suga Lips: Wouldn't that be visual? I don't have a cam Dropped At...: didnt say to i ment like on cam Suga Lips: I'm not talking to you on the phone Dropped At...: lol no but im more vocal flirting Suga Lips: ...I didn't know you considered this rocket science Dropped At...: how do we flirt or hav fun\ Suga Lips: I don't give it out Dropped At...: whats ur yahoo im Suga Lips: Uh..idk..I don't usually plan out my flirtations Dropped At...: lol ok so were can we start Suga Lips: I doubt anything changed in a day Dropped At...: i no just making sure u still can Suga Lips: You asked me this yesterday

Tagging Sfw Images
It REALLY, REALLY grinds my gears when people get something up their rears and go on a flagging spree. What you guys fail to realize, is that you're NOT getting "revenge". You're NOT "sticking it" to the member just because they ticked you off for one reason or another. What you're doing is making the job of a Bouncer DIFFICULT! Not only can you get into trouble for going on a flagging spree but it also shows serious immaturity on your part. We have to take time away from helping other people to go in and CLEAR EVERY SINGLE ONE of those images that you've tagged. The members who's photos you tagged, never even KNOWS that you've tagged them. So seriously people. Grow up and stop making things more difficult then they have to be for us Bouncers. That is all. Carry on.

A Little More Poetry That I Have Written.
I wish to lay beside you and gaze up at the starsand perhaps watch the alignment of Venus and Mars,lay there upon a blanket on a warm summer's eveand with you tightly in my arms, swear to never leave.I wish to walk beside you upon a sandy beachand look ahead to the future we have yet to reach,to stroll along with you, holding your sweet hand in mineas we splash away the whole day in the salty brine.I wish to grow old with you and see your hair turn grayhaving proved that through it all I would forever stay,to talk about our life and the pleasures we have known,amazed at how through it all our love has only grown.I wish to see you slowly walk down a wide church aisleand then to lift your veil to kiss you and see your smileto spend every precious moment of this dear lifebeing together, "Will you consent to be my wife?"------------------------------------------------------------------------------You tell me of your problem, but do not help, you ask;how do you expect one cares to do such a

More, Some Are To Provoke Thought.
Let me lay upon your soft lips a kiss so sublime,one so very sensual that it will alter timeand leave us in this embrace forever so it seems,to awaken desires and passions hid in your dreams.Let me embrace you in my arms as true lovers do,to show tender feelings in my heart inspired by youand hold you so tightly but with such loving care,spend that eternity with you safely held right there.Let me softly whisper the sweetest of words to you,not because you wish to hear, but cause they are true.Words of love and eternal devotion for just theeand let those words find a way into your heart for me.Let me prove that love exist and it is with us nowand give you the courage to know we will last somehowand in return I shall ask only one thing from youI only ask that you do the same things for me too.----------------------------------------------------------------------------I really do hate myself, so much is wrong with me.Why can't I just act the way that you want me to be?I know you love me l

Nsfw Poem
I awaken in the morning to see the sun shining upon my bedand I reach for your soft pillow where you lay your loving head.Feeling with my wanton hand I search but you are not there,I do not feel your warm soft breath or even find your flowing hair.This stark reality draws me hard to my senses as I start to fearit feels so very lonely to wake and find that you are not near.As I come into the reality, I hear the the running of the showerand realize that you have been awake far less than an hourI take a swig of Pepsi to clear the film that formed over nightand then a fresh mint lozenge to make my breath smell right.Then pretending to be asleep in hope to really surprise youand throw you upon the bed for a morning romp like we used to do.I can hear that you are washing your hair and think for a little bitthat perhaps I will sneak into the shower and start to kiss your titI decide against it as it might shock you and it would not be goodand that would be such a terrible waste of this hard m

More Poems, Mostly Love Ones.
I proclaim it loud for all the world to hear and know.I would shout from the roof tops, I am bashful though.I shall say it everyday and time will prove it to be true."I pledge my life and heart a life to forever to thee."These words I happily pronounce with joy and glee.When you are not here with me the clouds comeand I know not exactly where they do come from,but they are only driven back by the sight of you.My heart races at the merest thought of your smile,it gives comfort but makes me miss you all the while.Exquisite example of feminine perfection that you are,your lovely vision seizes my attentions even from afar.It gains control of my mind and does does mesmerize.With tantalizing skin so fair and lips as red as any rose,the graceful lines of your chin and gorgeous little nose.Your form as perfect as the falcon as he does soar,no man on this cold earth could ever wish for more.The soft way the sadness of life is melted by your eyes,your lilting tones that like heaven's choir does

Faithful ??
You tell me that you love me, but how do I know for sure,is there any way known that can show your love is pure?Is it a matter of faith that I must just assume to be truemust I go through life hoping that I am still loved by you? I always do my best to show you how much I truly careit is my every thought to make you happy and be therein hopes that you will never have a doubt about my love.I always want you to think of me as a gift from up above. I see all the things that you do for me and do appreciate,I worry so much that I will miss a sign until it is too late.We all have heard of the man who has sex just beforethen he leaves his house to go out and find some whore. There are women that will kiss their husband and thenthey will head off to have sex with some strange men.So I am left to wonder if there is a sure way to ever know that your partner will be faithful and still loves you so?

Life On Fu
I am real close to leveling..and when I do.. I am not sure if I want to play this fu game no more. I really don't see any purpose in it. Its quite funny..and I am not sure how these people on here do it. I bombed yesterday.. there wasnt to many people I seen with auto 11s..so I went to the Top people. You can always find them there. I went through 100s of them bombing them. Actually did the other day to. Barely a few even adknowledge that you bombed them. Makes me wonder..how are they TOP? Is it there looks..is it stupid men who bling them..etc.. thinking they are special..? Do these men think..that these women would really give them the time of day? Do they bling them to see there nsfws? Why would you when you can see tons of naked women on the net. I really don't understand it. I know they are not top by rating people all the time.. like some do. Heck..they cant even rate ya a profile rate..or say thank you when you bomb them. I am on a roll and fired up today I guess. LOL.

I Thought I'd Start This Off With A Classic...
I know it's a 10 year old post, but it's still funny. Everyone knows that if you are going to operate a business in today’s world you need a domain name. It is advisable to look at the domain name selected as other see it and not just as you think it looks. Failure to do this may result in situations such as the following (legitimate) companies who deal in everyday humdrum products and services but clearly didn’t give their domain names enough consideration: 1. A site called ‘Who Represents‘ where you can find the name of the agent that represents a celebrity. Their domain name… wait for it… is www.whorepresents.com 2. Experts Exchange, a knowledge base where programmers can exchange advice and views at www.expertsexchange.com 3. Looking for a pen? Look no further than Pen Island at www.penisland.net 4. Need a therapist? Try Therapist Finder at www.therapistfinder.com 5. Then of course, there’s the Italian Power Generator compan

The Real You ??
I hopped upon the internet and not true love to ever seekmore out of curiosity, just wanting to have a quick peekI have met some people there from all over this grand earthand a few have become close friends, for what it's worth I have counseled people from far away and others nearall most need is someone that will not judge to lend an earjust a trusted shoulder to cry on when life gets too tougha sympathetic soul that'll listen when they have had enough I never thought about thing like if their profile was realbecause their pain and emotions were, that I could feelThen one day quite unexpectedly I happened upon youand now I find myself wondering all the time "What is true?" "What do you want in life and what are you trying to do?""Is that exquisite picture that mesmerizes me really you?""Have I been seduced from afar by your grace and charm?""Why am I thinking these things and will you do me harm?" "Is there any chance that you wonder these things too?"rather the answer is yes or

What Do You See
I often just sit and wonder "what do you see in me?"how could even a friendship with such an angel be?What is it that you seem to sense that others do feel?It overwhelms to the point that i wonder if you're real.Will I awaken in the morning to find myself all alone,crying my heart out over where and why you've gone?Or has fate finally smile on me for being a good manand sent to me an angel that will love and understan'?I guess the future will show what happens and how,I am going to relish life and love in the here and now.All say that you are an angel standing here with mebut when I look in the mirror I wonder what you see.

A True Soldier
Mourn not for me this task that I set myself to doIt is just an expression of the love I have for youI take my self into battle and know that I may diewhen I am gone I heartedly beg you do not cryIt is I who volunteered to give my life as a Marineso that you could live your life as you have beenI will die with honor, the same way that I did liveBut it is not for honor that my one life I shall giveIt is a duty of the heart for those that I love soyou my fellow countrymen are why I freely go.So do not shed a tear for me when I am deadbut pay due respect to those left in my stead.

Truth Within
To some you are not the fairest to ever walk this landI know to some your looks seem a bit dull or blandfor some prefer models like in all those magazinesothers some famous actress playing out her scenes Well they are more than welcome to have their fantasybut none of them could compare to my joyous reality of having a lovely angel like you here to share my lifereality becomes fantasy when you become my wife. So let the dreamers dream and have their fantasyand I will live mine out as long as you are with meand when time here has passed for you and me,we will then still have each other for all of eternity.

Wonder
Upon some subjects I have been known to wonder,but there is one that I so often find that I do ponder.I wonder when and why disposable we all became,to many now just a number without your name?We are now Human Resources instead of Personneland there are other things that the story does tell.People now call all the others they know a friend,but know that they will not be there until the end.Wierd terms like "Starter Marriage" now do existadmitting before that their love will never persist.Whatever happen to having a love for all your lifeand understanding forever as husband and wife?It makes sense there are so many broken-heartedknowing nobody will miss you when you're departed,for if disposable is the way that others you do seesurely the condemning term must also apply to thee!

Yesterday Is History. Tomorrow Is A Mystery. Today Is A Gift.
One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, 'Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd.' I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on. As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him... He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, 'Those guys are jerks.'They really should get lives. ' He looked at me and said, 'Hey thanks!' There was a big smile on his f

So Far So Good...
I created my formspring account less than 12 hours ago and just answered my first 4 questions. To those of you who wrote those questions I say, "Thanks"!!! Keep them coming. I really look forward to answering more. Here are those first 4 Q&A's... Do you ever attend Domcon Atlanta by chris7201 I attended DomCon Atlanta only once, when I was the Guest of Honor in Nov. 2004. I would love to go again this year, but not with out a several hundred bucks spending money, at least. Delete Your Response What is your favorite activity to include in a session or scene? by blairtreves Not to sound to vague but, anything that pushes limits and challenges the submissive's will to please. My specific interests can vary greatly depending my mood and the natural chemistry between myself and my partner. The most consistent of my long list of interests often tend to involve some/many forms and variations of bondage, anything mentally or

Hehehehe I Love Me Sometimes
So....this guy (scubasteve2) decides he's going to be nice and rate a few pics of mine...rates all the ones of just me a 10, and comes across a pic of my husband and rates it a 1. I felt obligated to share my thoughts with him via PM. Subject: Excuse me but.... Content: I think you left your head in your ass. If you aren't going to show my husband the same kindness you show me, you can go fuck yourself. Thanks, and have a marvelous day!

Yorba Linda Memorial Service To Honor 19-year-old Marine Killed In Afghanistan
YORBA LINDA — Family and friends of a 19-year-old Marine from Yorba Linda will pay their last respects Tuesday to the teen who was killed last month while serving in Afghanistan. Santa Ana police will escort the body of Lance Cpl. Rick J. Centanni from a Fullerton funeral home to St. Martin De Porres Roman Catholic Faith Community at 19767 Yorba Linda Blvd. in Yorba Linda, for a 10 a.m. funeral Mass. Centanni's father, Sgt. Jon Centanni, serves with the Santa Ana Police Department's gang unit. Centanni and Sgt. Major Robert J. Cottle, a 45-year-old LAPD veteran, were killed March 24 by the same roadside improvised explosive device while riding in an armored truck in southern Helmand Province. Cottle also lived in Yorba Linda and both men served together in the 4th Light Armored Reconnaissance Battalion, based in Camp Pendleton. The two had grown close serving together as Cottle mentored Centanni. Tuesday's service promises to be a full military and police salute to Centanni

Hot Or Not
Someone please let this guy know this is not Hot or Not. What a doofus. · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '10'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '2'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '1'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '7'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '3'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '10'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '10'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '10'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '5'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '2'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '10'! · kawiboytwo rated your photo a '10'! Yes. I blocked him. I was tired of seeing him in my bartab.

"distant Love" A Poem By Michael Bullard
"Distant Love" Upon the beach at sunset they walk with one another, Each alone and far away from the soft arms of the other, But still they share the sunset at the ending of the day, And the passing of the clouds on their ceaseless way, Like castles adrift on a sea of blue white giants of the sky, Each one a silent messenger that moves on a gentle sigh, To him she sends her wishes on the softly blowing wind, That she will feel his tenderness from loving arms again, To her he sends his most gentle dreams of their time alone, Where he hears her tender voice and it's warm melodic tones, Where her image beckons in those last rays of dying day, Where the evening stars push back the sun into a field of gray, Each one sends a memory of times spent close and warm, When their arms enfold each other about their gentle forms, When they shared a passion that rolled like stormy seas, And desire tore at their world like harsh winds among the trees, She reaches out to touch the sun and allows he

This Is What Messed Up My Commute
This is the station I use to get home. There were literally 15 fire trucks, squad cars and ambulances. Good waste of city money, no? Red-ink stained cash was left scattered on a Near North Side subway platform Tuesday after a bank robber's getaway went south. The man robbed the North Community Bank at 800 N. State St. at about 4:50 p.m. But his stolen loot was harboring a security dye pack, designed to explode and render the stolen cash useless. After the robber bolted the bank and fled down to the Chicago Avenue subway station, the dye pack exploded, staining the bills and littering them on the platform, witnesses said. A pile of red-stained $20s could be seen on the stairs leading into the underground CTA station. Police arrested the suspected bank robber. Several ambulances rushed to the scene after the dye pack exploded and sent the ink into the air. One person complained of an irritant and was treated and released on the scene, Fire Media Affairs Spokesman Richard Rosado sa

Bi Hardbody Lookin' For Partners In Crime
Hey there and welcome to my place here http://www.FindBiLover.com I'm just getting my profile set up and will return with more about me later. As you may have picked up from reading my details above, I'm a bi, hardbody, professional guy who is in search or similar partners in crime!I'm searching for the all-too-elusive bi, hardbody woman / man for fun, frolic, fantasy... In the mean tiem, I'm certainly open to flirtations from couples and very select guys. More to follow here as well!

[ah Spring...]
I much prefer winter. No allergies.No tardsy co-workers fretting over thunderstorms (surely their families will be killed in the havoc of the maelstrom)No legions of ants swarming from every entry way on last year's trails.No cats fucking on my front porch. ...seriously I had to bang on my door and yell at a few of em. and this is when young mens eyes turn to the flights of blah blah blah blah blah blah Granted, I'm still a young man.And in these parts I'm the closest thing you'll find to an underwear model... okay I might not be a body builder but I'm the hottest non gym rat I've seen in the area. And yet... *idly throws his hacky sack at the wall* Its a real blow to one's ego when he's measured against other menand not immediately found to be superior. Maybe I'm still reeling from ego blow prime. Maybe that's why I lost all the weight.But I'm probably still the same awkward victimized stranger in a tighter skin. *le sigh* I just want to be loved. Let's spare ourselves th

Soulmate
Playmate vs. SoulmateIn our quest for happiness we must be sure that we don't settle for a Playmate when God has a Soul mate waiting for us. Sometimes this is a hard distinction to make. Playmates are tricky. They are so much fun to be with that even the smartest of us will be fooled into thinking this has to be our Soul mate. Worse yet too many of us attempt to make a Soul mate out of a Playmate.The danger of this is that later, after years of playing, we will meet our Soul mate, but it may be too late. We may have already made a Life mate of our Playmate and created life-long bonds (emotional, children, etc.). Alternatively, we may have been hurt from playing so hard thatwe are in no shape ourselves to be anyone's anything. How can we distinguish between the One, and just another one? First, we must be open with ourselves about who we really are and what our soul yearns for. Only you and God know what is truly in your heart and mind.Only you know what will make you truly happy and wh

Impossible
i remember years agosomeone told me i should takecaution when it comes to lovei did, i didand you were strong and i was notmy illusion, my mistakei was careless, i forgoti didand now when all is donethere is nothing to sayyou have gone and so effortlesslyyou have wonyou can go ahead tell themtell them all i know nowshout it from the roof topwrite it on the sky loveall we had is gone nowtell them i was happyand my heart is brokenall my scars are opentell them what i hoped would beimpossible, impossibleimpossible, impossiblefalling out of love is hardfalling for betrayal is worstbroken trust and broken heartsi know, i knowthinking all you need is therebuilding faith on love is worstempty promises will weari know (i know)and know when all is gonethere is nothing to sayand if you're done with embarrassing meon your own you can go ahead tell themtell them all i know nowshout it from the roof topwrite it on the sky loveall we had is gone nowtell them i was happyand my heart is brokenall my s

Fake Red Groupies & The End Of That Toolbar....
Well, looks like we all survived the “Great Easter Toolbar Fiasco” around here that had so many people threatening to commit a mass fuicide. I guess after this and the quick revert back to the old way, we can longer say that admin here on Fubar.com doesn’t listen to people when they complain en masse. It should be something to note though, that if enough people do get together, they can make a difference. I honestly haven’t seen that kind of an uprising around here since the referral cheater scandal of 2007... It’s something we should remember when we go to vote in November. It’s funny how something which must seem so damn drastic can cause such a dramatic change in everything. Just think about it, I can just imagine how people react to such changes in their real lives..

How To Find Out A Mobile Phone Number, Free!
It is daunted that find out a mobile phone number can be a job, more so when there is so much movement between networks and people keep shifting numbers owing to other benefits and different offers. In many cases the task looks impossible and for those who loose hope there are special agencies who make it their business to trace these TV Function Cell Phone numbers for a fee. You are welcome to try these agencies; but, try the following method for free before you make a payment. You might get something that you want before you haven’t sent a penny. Tracing HiPhone numbers can be difficult. Unlike landlines, cell phone numbers are usually not listed in phone books and can't be accessed by dialing Information. Many companies charge to trace cell phone numbers, and until recently, you had to pay the fee or not get much information. However, it is now possible to trace cell phone numbers free of charge. Instructions Step 1： Try simpl

Seether Fade Away
I wanna be there when you callI wanna catch you when you fallI wanna be the one you needI wanna be the one you breatheToday’s the day we’ll fade away, ohToday’s the day we’ll fade away, ohToday’s the day we’ll find our way grownToday’s the day we’ll fade awayI wanna be there when you cryAnd when you’re down I’ll help you flyI wanna be the one you needI wanna be the one you breatheToday’s the day we’ll fade away, ohToday’s the day we’ll fade away, ohToday’s the day we’ll find our way grownToday’s the day we’ll fade away, ohBut I’m coming back,and I’m taking back everything I canIt’s breaking me up and tearing me upIt’s all I haveAnd I’m coming back,and I’m taking back everything I canIt’s breaking me up and tearing me upIt’s all I haveToday’s the day we’ll fade away, ohToday’s the day we’ll fade away, ohToday&

That Means You. Assholes
I can't take this I hate the fact that everyones problems become mine. My own problems get shoved away in the closet. My thoughts and feelings are my own. I have such difficulty expressing them because evidently everyone elses pain and suffering is monumental so why should my worries even matter? Why should I be happy when all those around me are troubled? Of course my purpose in life is to just weep with them. Oh, and if you have feelings to share with me then please do not make them apparent. More MESS is needed! Much more. I don't think we have quite enough MESS in this situation.If I say something, I mean it. Just so you know. I do. I did. So don't leave me in the dark.I. Have. Had. Enough. People need to fuck off and be happy and let me go live in a convent or something along those lines. Joy for all.Maybe without the burden of everyone elses sorrow on my back I will become a demure, wonderful human beingBUT UNTIL THEN YOU CAN DEAL WITH MY ATTITUDERant over.Ooh, ooh wait.Yes, in c

Dose
Why am I going through all this? Very simple. Someone want to give a dose of truth instead of lies. Like a dose salt, it can be good or painful but if the salt has lost it's flavor, it is what? Think about the miners in West Virginia? Did you pray for them? I will very soon seek God to do so. Strange that I would seek God? I got a handle on The Bible. I have nothing to gain or loose from The Bible. If anything I said here and elsewhere is incorrect, please, prove me wrong with your Bible. You don't need a degree in Theology or Biblical Studies but The Laws of God has to be written on your Heart. What are The Laws of God? Ten Commandments are The Laws of God. Lies belong to what? Who lied first? Time keeps slipping into the future that is coming true to what I saw in the very first Trime. Second Trime as well. The third one has taken place and will finish very soon. Glory to God Norio

Inside My Head
i have a library overflowing with my favorite books, & my own movie theater with a whole host of DVD’s ... i have a room filled with sunrises & rainbows, & a room brimming with moonlit skies & twinkling stars ... i’ve built a small room of silence & a big ballroom of sound ... i have a basement packed with knowledge, a bedroom saturated with heated skin & satin sheets ... scattered broom closets awash with good jokes & bathrooms bursting with dirty ones; & all, all connected with corridors lined with memories & emotions ... & as i grow older i add more rooms as life adds more experiences, i never cease to build & clean & sweep, so that in the end [i feel] even the poorest can live in a mansion ... & when i’m sad & lonely homesick & alone i simply look inside myself & walk down those warm corridors, peeking into all the many rooms of my home, & stay there until i feel ready to face the world again ... [now] m

Reflecting
Most people are selfish these days. Selfish about feelings, love, everything. More concerned about how you made them feel. Rather than how they might of made you feel. More concerned with who they love. Rather than who loves them. More concerned with what makes them happy. Rather than who they make happy. Most people forget who they were 15 years ago. Who they loved, where they were, what they wanted. Most people dont realize if in that span of time, If they have made a difference in someones life. If they made a difference in their own lives. Or if anything has even changed at all. No one ever thinks of what they need. Always concerned with what they want. Want versus need, are two totally different objects. I wonder how many people ever take the time to step back, and look at the big picture. Look at their surroundings, home, life, family, city, state, the world. Does anyone take the time to notice the small things in life anymore? Or even enjoy such things in life anymore

Regular Guy Vs A Cowboy
A REGULAR GUY- WILL WATCH SOMEONE IN NEEDA COWBOY- WILL BE RIGHT THERE HELPING A REGULAR GUY- MIGHT HAVE SOME MANNERSA COWBOY- KNOWS THE MEANING AND DOESN'T KNOW HOW NOT TO A REGULAR GUY- DOESN'T KNOW RESPECTA COWBOY- KNOWS AND SHOWS IT TO EVERYONE EVEN WHEN NONE IS SHOWED TO HIM A REGULAR GUY- HIS DAY STARTS AT MAYBE 7 IN THE MORNINGA COWBOY- MOST OF THE TIME ITS AT OR BEFORE THE SUN COMES UP A REGULAR GUY- WILL LOOK FOR A FIGHT SO HE CAN LOOK TOUGHA COWBOY- WON'T START A FIGHT BUT WILL SURE END IT A REGULAR GUY- DRINKS TILL HE PASSES OUTA COWBOY- DOESN'T KNOW THE MEANING OF PASSING OUT A REGULAR GUY- DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WHEN HE IS BORED AND HAS NOTHING TO DOA COWBOY- DOESN'T HAVE THE TIME TO KNOW WHAT BEING BORED IS A REGULAR GUY- WILL TALK SHIT AND THREATIN TO KICK YOUR ASSA COWBOY- DOESN'T TALK SHIT HE WILL JUST PLAIN OLD KICK YOUR ASS THEN LISTEN TO YOU A REGULAR GUY- WILL TELL A WOMEN HE LOVES HERA COWBOY- HE WONT JUST TELL HER HE LOVES HER HE WILL TELL HER SHE IS THE

6/30 - May I Have This Dance?
May I have this dance? Sometimes your secret unspoken prayers are answered, but it is often long after they have been disregarded as any real possibility. Destiny never could keep timetables, her dance card already overflowing with the partners that will be interviewed before hitting your dance floor. You see it takes eons of scheduling to coordinate all who will touch your life and when. From family members to school teachers; from relationship partners to friends, and even the sales clerk. Each and every connection brings you either closer or farther away from yourself with the eye always on the ultimate prize. But you see, doing the two-step backwards is sometimes necessary to get to a particular point of destination, so even your mistakes are never missteps. Whether you are the wallflower one day or the belle of the ball the next, you are exactly where you need to be. So take a deep breath, smile, and look around serenely, for the music is always a

Fly High Maji
Just fyi, just about everyone but Southwest charges to check luggage in, 60 dollar minimum. Lil info so ya dont get a surprise at the terminal. After having my even trial sized toiletries raped and discarded, I had shaky "hold onto your drink" ride to Atlanta. Not sure where the turbulence was coming from, sky was clear, but there was definitely pockets of non-resistence, yielding that momentary weightless feeling repeatedly over SC and Georgia. Atlanta still proves to be my rabbit foot airport. Im 3 for 4 there with winding up with my gate being directly across or in short sight of the loft bar with its own escalator, formerly the Anhieser Busch beer garden, recently changed to the Hieneken Hole, but still one of the few concourses you can have a drink and a smoke. Their alledgedly free wifi is a labyrinth of redirects that basically make you give up and elect to blow 5 bucks on a direct paid connection, scavengry abounds, but not enough to lure the kid today. Im al

Raist Rants
Well I have not really been doing much blogging so I thought that I would write one and get out some of what I am feeling and thinking about right now. I shall be finally going back to work by the end of the month at least for awhile. I did finally get the call from the US Census taker people to hire me. I had sort of give up on it and thought they had just not hired me for whatever reason. So I was of course elated to get the call. I had also been begging the gods for work since I am still going through something of a dark period even though it is very much Spring here now. Have you ever had that one person that no matter what you did that you could not get off your mind? Well I have one still and I know that it is very unhealthy to keep thinking of someone and also know that getting out and being around people is the best cure. It is going to be odd since I have been in a lot of seclusion at first but I have always been a work with the public type. Whether I was waiting tables or

Out Of The Mouths Of Babes
My daughter is 9 going on 25 who has an attitude and like her mother is missing the filter that keeps you from saying every little thing that pops into her head without thinking about who it offends or hurts. On the way home from school today I ask the usual after school questions: Have a good day? What did you have for lunch? Do you have any homework? Well she tells me her day then quickly adds she almost dropped a color because some little girl talked about her. I said well why did you almost drop a color, she said because I told that little girl "If you're going to be two faced, at least one of them should be pretty." God I love her

Stanza 365 Week 12
Week 12 of Stanza 365 is underway. Today's poem was initially inspired by beginning of this week’s episode of Castle, which opened with a close-up shot of a gargoyle. Then, as usual, it took a turn. The Rules Don’t show any weakness, Never swallow your pride. No hint of emotion, keep it all locked inside. Try not to say much, words can give you away. Keep the world at arm’s length and remember to stay on your guard at all times. Anything could be a threat and above all else, don’t you ever forget that you can never back down, there’s no room to be wrong. Failure is not allowed. You must always be strong. You can find the previous day's poems (all 77 of them) at http//stanza365.wordpress.com/

How Many Can Handle This Input??? (the World And Universe)
Just got this off of Craigslist DC http://washingtondc.craigslist.org/nva/rnr/1679499752.html While I don't agree with everything that's written, it certainly is a good start. Enjoy There are so many reasons that frankly, it's hard to pick a place to start: First of all.....when 28% of you brain dead fucking morons give a blithering IDIOT like Sarah Palin positive approval ratings and think she ought to run for president in 2012, it really makes me sick to know I am lumbered with that many mouth-breathing Cro-Magnons I unfortunately have to consider as my fellow countrymen....trust me.....I don't. You motherfuckers are beyond help. And before you go thinking this is a "liberal" based rant.....that brings me to one more item on an ever-lengthening list. This "Liberal" versus "Conservative" paradigm that so many of you simple dunces buy into.....as BOTH parties sell you out to the multinational corporations, banks and special interests that actually run Washingto

Slim
I did a lot of things today. I went over to see D and looked at her tractor. I moved two bicycles by carrying one in each arm. Yeah, she saw how it did me in. I like it, because the chance of me going for any length of time is very slim. I gave up and I never quit. I refuse to quit since secret secret. I'd rather meet my friends where we're supposed to than to yield to idiots who has no right, since they never perticipated. You win and I get out. Congratulations! Norio

One Last Breath By Creed
ONE LAST BREATH by CREED Please come loveI think I'm fallingHolding on to all I think is safeIt seems I've found the road to no whereAnd i'm trying to escapeI yelled back when I heard thunderBut I'm down to one last breathAnd with it let me sayLet me say...Hold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinMaybe 6 feet ain't so far downI'm lookin downNow that its overReflecting on all of my mistakesI thought I found the road to somewhereSomewhere in His graceI cried outHeaven save meBut I'm down to one last breathAnd with it let me sayLet me sayLet me say..Hold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinMaybe 6 feet ain't so far down(repeat)I'm so far downSad eyes follow meWell I still believe there's something there for meSo please come stay with meCause I still believe there's something left for you and me...you an me...you and meHold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinHold me nowI'm 6 feet from the edgeAnd I'm thinkinMaybe 6 feet ain't so far down....Please come nowI thi

Esquire
I passed. Despite several sleepless nights before exam days, I passed both exams and will soon be barred in dakota territory. (It's called a swearing in ceremony, but, if I recall correctly, there isn't a lot of swearing. Just judges in robes and parents taking photos of their newly minted sons and daughters of law. And me going, "Fuck yeah! You want a will?! I'll write you a goddamned will! You want contracts? Shit, I got contracts.") In other news, the peeps are full-grown feathered ladies, and they're hell-bent on out-producing all the other chickens on the plains. From my five hens, I gather four or five eggs a day--enough for cakes a'plenty, limitless scrambled breakfasts, and many very pretty easter baskets. (My girls lay colored eggs! Not sure how the local racists are going to deal with this!) The dakota soil (and my basement) have finally absorbed the many snow drifts, and I've been outside preparing my garden beds, pulling out weeds and saving them for the ladi

What If By Creed
WHAT IF ~ CREED I can't find the rhyme in all my reasonI've lost sense of time and all seasonsI feel I've been beaten downBy the words of men who have no groundsI can't sleep beneath the trees of wisdomWhen your ax has cut the roots that feed themForked tongues in bitter mouthsCan drive a man to bleed from inside outWhat if you did?What if you lied?What if I avenge?What if eye for an eye?I've seen the wicked fruit of your vineDestroy the man who lacks a strong mindHuman pride sings a vengeful songInspired by the times you've been walked onMy stage is shared by many millionsWho lift their hands up high because they feel thisWe are one We are strongThe more you hold us down the more we press onWhat if you did?What if you lied?What if I avenge?What if eye for an eye?I know I can't hold the hate inside my mind'Cause what consumes your thoughts controls your lifeSo I'll just ask a questionWhat if?What if your words could be judged like a crime?

What Good Is Love
I waited for your love in hope,That ours would come again,And make me feel the things I felt,When we were one, back then.But time and distance have erased,The things I wished anew,And now I find myself alone,Though I am here with you.What good is love, that does not touch,What good is love, that gives you pain.What good is love, that makes you run,And makes you lost out in the rain.I traveled to another world,Out far beyond the one we knew,I thought that I could live again,And now I find I'm back with you.But what of hearts that beat as one,And what of passion and embrace,Is it too much to ask of you,To make these tears of mine erase.What good is love, that does not touch,What good is love, that gives you pain.What good is love, that makes you run,And makes you lost out in the rain.Too painful this - to journey back,To times of love and laughter free,The times we lay together withA sense of you , a sense of me.So now, I journey on alone,Forever wandering, in my thoughts,And I shall ask

Love Again
SHES WORKIN ALL DAYNEVER HEAR HER COMPLAINGOES HOME TO A EMPTY BEDWONDERS IF SHE'LL EVER FIND LOVE AGAINHES BEEN GONE FOR ALMOST 3 YEARSTIME TO MOVE ON SHE SHED HER TEARSTHO LOVE WILL NEVER FEEL THE SAMESHES DYING INSIDE BUT KNOWS THERES LIFE AFTER THE RAINSHES BEEN HURT AND LET DOWN SO MANY TIMESSHES BEEN PRAYING FOR SOMEONE TO MAKE IT RIGHTIN THE ENDSHE WONDERS IF SHE'LL EVER FIND LOVE AGAINSHE NEEDS A MAN TO HOLD HER TIGHTTHAT WONT LEAVE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHTSHES AFRAID THIS WILL NEVER CHANGEBUT FINDS THE STRENGTH TO MAKE IT THRU ANOTHER DAYSHES BEEN HURT AND LET DOWN SO MANY TIMESSHES BEEN PRAYING FOR SOMEONE TO MAKE IT RIGHTIN THE ENDSHE WONDERS IF SHE'LL EVER FIND LOVE AGAINSHES STARING IN THE MIRRORWITH A RUSH IT ALL COMES CLEARFINALLY SHE UNDERSTANDSTHE LOVE SHE WANTS COMES FROM WITHINNO LONGER WONDERS IF SHE'LL EVER FIND LOVE AGAIN

What The Hell Here Are Some Of My Poems.....
words, words, words words... i'm tired of words in my head they are only symbols of the feelings not the true things that i've felt dillusional, hypothetical what if, why not, how come reality askew, if i only knew if others felt these damn things too A Children's Story The animals all joined a lodge Just like humans do They talked every 2nd Tuesday away While sipping on Jungle Brew One nights meeting finished up to quick All decided to hang around They told tales of their daring do's After every story on the tables they'd pound Alligator said take a gander in this maw I can make any man run, just with a smile I can laze in the River alone Cause I have teeth for miles Anaconda piped up, well thats nothing Al As he put down his jungle brew mug Men stear clear of even my suspected lairs When all I want to give them is a hug Thats pretty good Andy, But you can't top this Roared Lion from the front Man calls me the King Of Beasts My wife won't

This Is How Every Girl Should Be Treated
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls.To every guy that said he would die for her.To every guy that really would.To every guy that did what she wanted to do.To every guy that cried in front of her. ....To every guy that she cried in front of...To every guy that holds hands with her.To every guy that kisses her with meaning.To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....To every guy that would give his seat up...To every guy that just wants to cuddle.To every guy that reassured her that she was

Exctasy
Her eyes, vivid hues of turquoise....Her skin pale and milky as the moons beams. Silk to his touch. His breath slowed with anticipation. Her lips lustirous lustrously pale, her fragant smell of rose pedal oil intoxicated him. He breathed deep in his nostrils once more her scent...He caressed her cheek with the palm of his tumb. She quiver under his gently touch. Ever inching forward they came until their lips locked. Exctasy.

If I Could
I would be the breeze across your cheek to wipe away your tears...I would be the sun on your face, to make you smile when your feeling down...I would be the rain falling over your face, crying with you when your hurt...I would be the grey clouds, a blanket to hide you from the world...I would be the seashore, the music to sooth the soul...I would be the tree under which you nap...I would be the springs flower blossoms, a friend always there to listen...If I could I would be the shadow at your side, so you'd never be alone a friend always there to past the dull moments away with...There is many things I wish I could be or do...But these things I may never be. But the one thing I can be is a friend, true to the end. Something that will never change or end. So this is why I write these things down, is for you my friend.

Without You
I cant imgine my world without you in it, This world seems dismal and drab. Where the music is gone from the air and replaced by the eternal sonota of the noctum serenading from a murder of crows. And the opaque clouds weep. But the way you look at me and smile, I feel replenished. An overwhelming bliss chases my woes away. You give me love to replace the deception I lost. You remind me of why I always yearned for much more. I'd never truely felt such ectasy before. And I will cling to it at any cost. Hand in hand we will frolic through the morning glory dew. Under the branches of the willow tree we could lay un an afeectionate lovers embrace. A somber breeze will set our hearts at ease. I feel intoxicated within your presence. Words cannot express how I utterly love you completly with every essence of my heart and soul, and every fiber of my being. I know your love will never be in vain. Never again will I have to feel such heartache and pain. I know you will never give into lustfull

Poetry
Oct. 21- Midnight.- For hours I have watched you waiting for the right opportunity. Finally it came! I snatched you right from the sidewalk without a sound. It comes so fast you probally dont have time to react to the events that are going on. Fifteen minutes later you lie on my table an assortment of tools within my grasp, Not to mention my favorite arrangement of blades. For a minute or so I admire you lifting a carving knife stroking the cold steel across your bare flesh. Nonetheless you make no movement knowing at any minute I could slice you to ribbons. The twisted gleam of a smirk came across my face as I rose the razor sharp blade over my head dramatically in a fashionable manner like a killer does a slasher film. These only words escaping my lips as such. "Lets see what your made of bitch!" The first thrust lodged the blade deep in your skull. You didn't even satisfy me with a scream. I switch blades, again I thrust the blade into your flesh this time up to the handle I pull

To Every Man N Woman Who Need A Reminder.......(i Did Too):)
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls.To every guy that said he would die for her.To every guy that really would.To every guy that did what she wanted to do.To every guy that cried in front of her. ....To every guy that she cried in front of...To every guy that holds hands with her.To every guy that kisses her with meaning.To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....To every guy that would give his seat up...To every guy that just wants to cuddle.To every guy that reassured her that she was

The Woman In The Blue Chair
During the early seventies I was a young man still in my twenties. I was on my own again after my short-lived first marriage and living in a fairly nice apartment complex in a small city. Though a bit depressed after the break-up of my marriage, I did find a certain amount of solace in my work and I did make an effort to get back in the dating scene. A friend of mine had found me a job working for a surveying company and I enjoyed the work. The pay was fairly decent and I was always an outdoors kind of guy, so things seemed to be going relatively well. Being outside during the day was something I really appreciated, especially in the summertime.One particular evening I recall distinctly. It was a beautiful, clear summer evening. I had walked to a local bar after work to have a few drinks with the guys and shoot a little pool. On my way back home, I walked passed an apartment building adjacent to my own. As I passed, I heard the distinct sounds of sex coming through a part

Me
My life is an open book the pages are cryptic...My heart is a maze with no way in and no way out, My soul is a riddle the answer lost in time. To gaze into my mind is to go blind with the things you will find inside To look upon my body you won't see what is there...I'm an enigma one of a kind a diamond in the rough, a forgotten but always remembered person. Will you like what you see...you be the judge but don't judge me.

Poetry
I saw you...and that was enough... To covet your heart your strength your love My vampiric heart began to beat... Needing to feel your lips on me Lust turned to love in our first gaze Setting my mind and my soul ablaze Touture terrifically clouding my mind Wondering if and when your be mine Feeling you feather light hands on my breast Your mouth pressed tight to me I cannot resist Exctasy flooding my very soul I cannot resist I'm loosing control Naked my body pressed tight into you The blood pounding in me so loud as I swoon Pleasure and pain pervade my body Crying out my love to you loudly Feeling you fill me as never before I love you I love you repeats my soul Slowly kissing every inch of your flesh Laying my head down apon your chest This coming together in perfect unison Will be forever now that its begun.

Smotri Site Cam Laws
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Poetry
is it wrong for me to loveto desire two parts of the same wholehalf of me is torn it seemsnever quite fitting all the seamsi burn for one i yearn for the othernever quite finding the niche i discoveredtempted by the forbidden fruit it seemsso soft so lush my mind seems to dreamlace and purity soft creamy skinlips red as rubies this is my one sini need to know am i living a liedoes my body desire something that will never be minewill i know can i you temptress of my heartif in this desire i play aparti must sit here and wait till the day that i findif i am missing an angel somewhere in my mind

Shoes
what's going on? where is everybody? I just bought some shoes on line. They're Dr. Marten ballet flats. I didn't know Dr. Marten made ballet flats but they do and I just got them for $30 bucks through Amazon. Hooray. I've been tearing up shoes ever since I started school and hoping these will stand up to beauty school. I went over to my sister's house yesterday. It is so awesome to have a car again. Hello sweet freedom. We went to dinner and a coffee place I love in downtown St. Pete. I'm going back over to her house to watch some movies and finish up some projects I have going on. I know my sister and I go through our ups and downs but there is nothing that can replace that bond. Plus it's just nice to have some where to go when the shit hits the fan. I've had dreams about that before. Not having anywhere to go and ending up at her house. I feel like last week was a crap week for a lot of people and I hope this week is going better for everyone. Blog update: If you get a chan

I Think I'm Done
I think i have finally had enough, i think i am going to delete every account i have like fubar and facebook and myspace and POF and Mingle and Tagged. I am seriously tired of people adding me as friends but never talking to me what is the point in that!??!? I also hate people who pretend they care just to get in my pants and if they succeed i'm ignored again, so i think i'm done!!! I think i'll just be happier alone at least i wont get hurt that way. any tue friends will read this and maybe comment on it like saying wether i should close my accounts just let me know!?!?

2010
the last time i posted a blog in here i noticed it was 2008...i did end up with ian..he was a great guy and we had fun..now ian ended up married to this he met after me..chris is getting married with a baby on the way..or did they have the baby..idk...i took a guys virgnity in 2009 and he has a wonderful gf whom he wants to marry...omg am i the real-life good-luck chuck..lmfao...nah...that was just a joke... also in 2009 i went through so rough times...like having two teenage kids one of them almost landing themselves in jail..buried a couple of friends as well...instead of having only two tattys i now have six..one of them for my nephew who was murdered in july....i miss him soo much....rip aj..aunty misses you...... i ended 2009 remeeting an old friend that lend to romance...donnie...we just broke up not to long ago...i miss him still and want him back...i am awaiting my test results for cancer...it might have came back and im freaking...but im strong woman who i think or rather i

One Question
If I called you up in the middle of the night, To tell you something is just not right, How would you act, what would you do? Would you take the time to talk me through? Or would you tell me it’s way too late, That my problems just have to wait, How would you act, what would you do? If I were to really need you. If I were to show up at your door one day, What would you do, what would you say? Would you take me in and keep me warm? Or leave me out there in the storm? Or would you tell me you’re busy and to go away, That I should come back some other day, How would you act, what would you do? If I were to really need you. Sometimes I just need to know you care, Just need to know you’ll always be there, Just a few loving words may be all it takes, To cure my heart when it aches, But I need to know that your love is true, That you’ll always love me like I love you, How would you act, what would you do? If I were to really need you.

Sexual Frustrated
its bad enough that i aint having sex now i dont even get finished off in my dreams thats just cruel.... the dream was starting off just nice my neck was being bitten...sucked on ever so hard...his fingers working their magic on my clit...his cock long and hard against my thigh....me begging for him to fuck me and to pull my hair.... what happens next>>>>the damn dog wakes me up...grrr i so need to get sum

Let's Have A Cougar Party!
I would love to meet other Cougars in the Walker/Jefferson County areas who would like to start meeting on a fairly regular basis for a fun evening of food and conversation. It would be so much fun to meet other ladies who love younger men in my area just to chat and generally have a good time.. maybe even plan a few trips or something. If there are those out there.. I'd love to hear from you. Send me a message... we'll get together.

He "loves" Her. Pfft..yeah Right!
As he continues undergoing treatment for personal issues, Jesse James has one overriding hope. "When all is said and done, he wants the same people who were living in his house before all this happened to still be living there," his attorney Joe Yanny tells PEOPLE. "And he wants to save his marriage with the woman he loves more than anything in his life." James, who checked into the treatment facility last month after allegations of infidelity against wife Sandra Bullock, "is doing as well as he can be," says Yanny. "He's focusing on what he's doing and trying to make himself better."

Dirty Basment Come And Have Fun Enjoy The Music!
Youre missing out on the blow up. Dirty Basement is blowing up, fast and strong. Hope youre still on the team. Come back and kick itClick this link to visit us in Dirty Basement ~Hiring all staff~ NSFW: http://www.fubar.com/lounge/70728-the management

5 Male Attractiveness In Women's Eyes
1. IntelligenceMale brains, or brains 'dilute' he owned the show kejantannya. Insight extensive knowledge and owned by men can make women feel amazed, and proud to hold intelligent man.2. Sense of humorThe man with the joke has its own charm. Therefore, a sense of humor could show the woman she could be flexible and not rigid.3. As patronessHaving condescension is one guy who liked her attitude. The way men treat women, such as reaching out to help women when to climb steep hills, or simply embrace, can make a woman smile. Attention men can make a woman's heart-flowered.4. AppearanceWomen love a man who was wearing a smart mix and match clothing, and willing to care for himself. But, no exaggeration, you know.

You May Call Me Empress Belinda
You are The EmpressBeauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.What Tarot Card are You?Take" rel="nofollow"

Just Something I Don't Understand.
Maybe you all can help me out. I seen a ticker and actually clicked on it. The person's name was a Seether song that I really like. I was just going to make a comment to them about how I liked the song. [shocking I know] Anyway, his profile was set to comment approval but he wasn't approving any comments. That's right, the guy has absolutely NO comments on his page. Odd? Another thing about this that I don't get. His ticker was saying he was buying bling credits. So much per credit. So you know he has to be about the points, why not approve comments? I just dont' get it.

The Whipping
There was a class of young people that no teacher was able to handle. Two or three teachers had been run off from school this year by these young people. Finally a young man out of college heard about the class and applied to the school. The principal asked the young man "Do you not know what you are asking for, no one has been able to handle these young people, you are just asking for a terrible beating." After a few moments of silent prayer, the young man looked at the principal and said "Sir, with your consent I accept the challenge, just give me a trial basis."The next morning the young man reported for class. He said to the class "Young people, I came here today to conduct school, but I realize I can't do it by myself, I must have your help. One big boy, they called Big Tom, in the back of the room whispered to his buddies" I'll not need any help, I can lick that little bird all by myself." The young teacher told the class if they are to have school, there will have

Fubar Or Fubook?
From what I hear alot of peoples are leaving FU because of just that they believe it's to much like FACEBOOK and would have to agree but I did see them changing it back yesterday although not sure if people r happy about it? I'm happy that they have gotten back to OLD SCHOOL unhappy cause I believe I'd been fucked out of my damn blast seeing they'd been doing the changes during that time period I'm not going to buy another, an yes I know it's hard to say but true justta waste of moneys & well they will not refund your money nor will they give you credit so anyways my Q? is r ya'll happy with them going BACK?

The Root Of My Happiness? A Yes, A No, A Straight Line, A Goal.
ubmissive Needs/Wants taken from Submissivewomenspeak.net These aren't my wants or needs ,these are the wants and needs of the sub from the website given. I thought they were pretty funny. This sub is extremely selfish, it can't always be about her. Even the needs are stupid. If you are able to type out that you "may" be to submissive and need to have no way you can "escape" him; this means you're really not submissive and you're trying to set rules. I say just let your Dom be dominant in his own way. I want to play frequently, much more frequently than he chooses to. - He must not be hitting it right... I want him to do new things to me or more elaborate things to me than he already does. - Maybe you should help him plan something.. I want him to do all those active things he is incapable of doing because of his physical disability. -? I want him to do the same things to me--and with the same intensity--as he did during our first week together, when I was in "su

Things I Like
1.randoms walks 2.Gone with the Wind 3.Vera Wang 4.being lazy 5. massages 6.playing with Kingston & Tetris 7.Being told to "shut the fuck up" 8.Pouting 9. the number nine 10.Legends of the fall 11. shoes 12.Pussy 13. Cock 14.PSP 15.nipple weights

A Story For U
I'm imagining a sunny care free day/ I had cleaned up a bit for you while you relaxed in front of your computer. Looking at the way your polo shirt clung to your shoulders/and how your long shorts just begged to be unbuttoned/I felt the heat from my pussy grow to a raging inferno/I tiptoed over to you, and twirled your black leather chair around/|My black tank top clung to my chest, sweaty with the heat and my desire/My short denim shorts slightly rode up, as I bent down to your level (letting you get a good look down my shirt) and I told you that I needed your cock in me, and that I needed it now. /I licked my lips, and surely my eyes danced with sexual frustration at seeing you but not touching you, but you completely ignored me. You had scoffed at me, telling me to restrain such urges, and that there were some dished downstairs that needed to be washed. You started to turn your chair back to your computer, but I couldn't help it. I couldn't stop my hand from rising up

A Little Something
I give sloppy blow jobs. There is no resemblance to the demure, shy persona (I think I) carry around me when I am not sucking dick. There is no pinky held daintily aloft when I grab a meaty handful of penis. I forget all of my Manners once in front of a cock. My eyes will gleam with greed. I will lick my lips. I will not always wait to be invited before my twitchy fingers lurch forward. I will not offer to share, nor will I let a guest go first. There is not enough for everybody, it is mine and only mine and you cannot have any. I don't ask before touching. It will not be clean. I won't be nice. I do not respect it and I will ignore anything and everything around me. I will call it names, mean and dirty names, names that would make my mother blush. I will bully the bastard into giving me exactly what I want and I will not say please or thank you for doing it. And I will gloat and brag and show off the results of my efforts. Silence is not golden when I am sucking dick. I

Feelings
I hate the system. I hate how our taxes are worthless. I hate how we need to have a car, a. k. a. a polluting machine of death, insurance for that car, insurance for our health, insurance for our death, insurance for our home, and our computers, and our everything. I hate how we have to pay for such nonsense, how everything is so required. I hate the stigmas of doing something other than what the masses do. I hate the prejudice. I hate the lack of health education in the schools. I hate how doctors can't do anything but take your money. I hate how the police don't care about your problems or you. I hate how the firemen don't care about saving your home, only the money they get paid, and putting out the fire the easiest way. I hate how generalizations are so general, and how my arguments fall flat because I point out the truth in stereotypes. I hate how people can stand there, a cigarette between their fingers, and a soda in the other hand, and preach about this and that,

7 Classes Of Submissiveness.
Class 1: A pain slut. This woman is not a submissive at all, but simply enjoys sensation play. Class 2: The abused woman. This woman associates pain (emotional or physical) with those closest to her. Thus, when a dom hurts her, she feels loved and secure. Class 3: The deprived woman. This woman is one who was raised without the love and support she deserved. She wishes to regress back to childhood and relive it positively. Discipline, punishment, structure and heaps of love are what this woman is looking for. Class 4: The desperate woman. This is a woman who is desperately needy of a stable relationship. For one reason or another she has not managed to create such a relationship. She then believes, that if she will give a man her all, she will find the relationship she craves. This woman is not a submissive at all. She is simply doing the math. If the relationship works out, she will be happy. However, if the relationship collapses, she will be furious at what her dom di

The Submissive
They told me - You are Woman.....Go out and conquer the worldThey said - be strong.....Don't betray your SistersYou don't need a manYou are sufficient unto yourselfThey told me 'submissive' is wrong.....and degrading..........that I need bow to no manI lived that truth Strong, Independent, Intelligent, Capable, In Charge, In Control......Until - a new truthYou told me - you are woman.....Go out and conquer the world..........Then come home and sit at my feetYou said - come to me in strength.....and I will protect you..........and celebrate your strengthYou said - kneel before me.....give me your woman's body for my pleasureand I will raise you from kneeling.....to heights you never imaginedYou said - let me into those locked rooms.....give me accessTrust Me with every part of you.....and I will treasure it allYou said - there are more truths in this world,.....and revealed them to meand because of you.....I am forever changed

Tagged
Tagged The rules are: Once you have been tagged you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose 8 people to be tagged, list their names and why you chose them to be tagged. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are Tagged" on their profile and to read your latest blog. Hope you enjoy! 1. I have hairs around my boobs and I pull them ~ i feels nice 2. I like gay porn 3. I rarely make sense 4. I can masturbate to the sound of anyones voice. 5. I masturbate with my right hand. 6. I can be unusually perverted. 7. I love to be spanked, slapped or Humiliated - it gets me off. 8. I think i like the Gorean Lifestyle. 9. I love to sing. 10. I masterbate to much.

Me
ok imma get this shit off my cest don't give a fuck who is anyone reads this but be forwarned I can't spell k... ok well in november 2005 I watched my first born son Jake take his last breaths he died of sssids which ultmately made my ex Susan kill heself since then my life has been a mess 2 years later I was driving in west monroe louisiana when an 18 wheeler knocked me off the highway killing miss Marry horrablle disfiguring my ex who shattered her hand, spine, tail bone blowing an overy, cutting her liver, put her into a coma for 2 weeks now I don't like to drive I'm scared to get into relationships and when I do I get fucked over like last year moved in with this "friend" who steals my idenity cops won't help then got with tis bitch Allissia over the summer fell inlove se cheats on me with 2 ppl we split I go to job corps about feb this year idfky but I got back with her gave up job corps all the promises she spit were nice shoulda known better really and now idfk what to do wish

This Is The Last Freaking Straw!
I'm soo fucking pissed right now. This is finally it. I have had it with trying to make it work with my husband. He is still drinking and playing world of warcraft 24/7. He rather spend 7 hours on that damn game than 2 hours with his own daughter. He lost his patience tonight, was cursing the game for about an hour freaking straight. Cursed the computer. I've been handling our kids all day! Its like 3 am. Our daugher started getting a little fussy. I figured he could handle her for a minute. And went to smoke a quick cig. All was fine for about 2 min, I hear her start crying a little louder. Thought I heard something shatter. Hear him slamming a door inside. He then comes to the back yard where I'm at. Says nothing to me, has a cig in his mouth, and goes to the side of our shed. Guessing to smoke his cig and pee. I put out my cig, still had half left. Thats how short my time was. Anyways, go back inside. See that our daughter is in her swing. He must have put her in there in a hurry ca

5/30 - Found Woman
Found Woman My thoughts hold you like lifeline where you offer comfort and smiles as readily as you once did. I don't feel the passage of time so much as I feel the empty chair at the table of my heart. My love has always been more all-you-can-eat buffet than a 7-course meal that always has a polite finish. But I'd rather barnacle glue your image to my memory than to ever scatter the way you made me feel to the four winds. You could charge interest for eternity on the debt I owe you for bursting into my life at the exact moment I almost surrendered...me. Instead you had me evict those squatters; Doubt, fear, and insecurity got their walking papers because you saw me through eyes unfiltered by my past. So I tried on your views like the shopping spree of a lifetime. Each garment of your desire tantamount to revelation incarnate, leaving me yearning for more colors, more styles, more, more, more of all you had to offer. My fingers feverishly reading

How I Feel...if You Don't Like It Too Bad
I guess I'll use blue since that's how I'm feeling lately. I'm just sort of in a funk lately. I've been losing a lot of friends. And I know it's only a matter of time until I feel like I'm gonna lose everyone else too. And over the last 10 years or so I've lost many friends to moving, death, marriage, etc. Everyone always starts out saying the same thing. "Oh we'll stay in touch I PROMISE"...everyone always promises. And out of all the people who have promised, I think 2 have actually kept the promise and that's VERY VERY rarely that I ever hear from them. And one of them is on Facebook that's the only reason I ever hear from her. And I've lost a lot of people who I thought were friends on here to a certain bitch who thinks she's hot shit, thinks she knows me, and probably has a miserable life and likes to take it out on other people. A lot of you who will read this knows who she is. But on another note...I feel like I've been replaced in a lot of peoples' lives. I sti

The History And Availability Of Iphone
The iPhone is smartphones designed and marketed by Apple Inc. It functions as a portable media player (equivalent to a video iPod),and an Internet client (with e-mail, web browsing, and Wi-Fi connectivity),a Camera Cell Phone (also including text messaging and visual voicemail).The iPhone is a line of Internet- and multimedia-enabled smartphones.Everybody knows that the iPhone can make Cell Phones from China Wholesaler calls, surf the web, play music & movies, and a lot more. Today I will talk about the history and availability of iPhone. The History of iPhone Apple has proven to be one of the major players in the consumer electronics industry. Having established their name as a company who designs their products to be trendy, functional and innovative, they have released yet another gadget that has been and continues to be a big hit. Although the iPhone from China Wholesale became a part of pop culture in 2007, development of the techn

Photoshoot?
Sometimes, the greatest nights are the ones that you never see coming. Alone on my couch, I was just getting home from work and had no idea that it was one of those nights. It was a night just like any other, I got out at 8 and came straight home. Took off my pants, turned on the tv and hopped on the computer to check messages and see if anyone interesting was online. It took about 30 seconds for me to get an IM from you. I thought it was a little strange since I hadn’t heard from you in weeks, and but I was still excited to finally hear from you. “Hey” was all your message said, but nothing more was needed. “Hey, whats up?” I asked you back. “I want to do a shoot.” You told me kind of taking me by surprise. For as long as I have known you, you were never interested in doing a shoot. Why now I thought? Why all of a sudden? I had asked you probably 50 times, and it always ended up being some excuse about how y

Donald Is Naked
I heard so many great and goofy things from my kids (on the subject of Disney’s Goofy, did Pluto just stand in the wrong line for brains before coming to Earth or what? They’re both dogs, but Goofy got the bipedal construction and intelligible speech while Pluto got the strong scent) that it’s hard to know where to start. I’m trying to put together a discernible description of what happened on Easter Sunday yesterday, but that was so yesterday … anyway, today’s title comes from a stop we had to make for some drinks for lunch, and our drive took us past one of Minot’s plazas that’s dominated by a bar called The Blind Duck. We had to ask Sarah to repeat “Donald is naked” a few times before we got what she was saying; the duck in question is the logo of The Blind Duck, wearing dark glasses and seen over a hockey stick and puck. In case you are confused, “naked” actually means unprotected or sheer (e.g., &ldquo

A Little Devil
I have this wonderful friend. I know a lot of people don't like him and that's fine. Just understand that I do, a great deal. What to say about Johnnydevil. Me and him have had a rough past. We've both moved on and now we have a better friendship than we ever did. He tells it like it is and isn't afraid of what people will say. Sure he gets backlash, but most people do when they are being honest. There is always people that don't want to hear it. He's been wrong before and I've seen him say he was sorry, that takes a real adult. Now, I know this is short, and I probably could have said a lot more, but what else is there to say? He's honest, caring, and a wonderful friend. [If you aren't his friend or don't like him, please don't leave any rude comments on here. This is a place that I write about MY friends. If it bothers you that you are my friend and he is mine, then remove me. I don't ever choose sides and I never will. He hasn't told me to not be friends with someone becau

[growing Pains]
Well... *sways a little*I may have had a big glass of cognac tonight. Shut up! It takes the edge off. While the site rebuilds I...oh yeah I got my first layer of color down on the remainder of te neue ziel. A few more days and everything should be cured. I'm a little concerned about the thickness and the application of the media since its so much wetter than my original formula (god damn its easier to cleanup though) Right now I'm doing 4:5 paint:thinner3:5 was recommended, but waaaay too thin. 9:10 would probably be ideal. It comes out clean cleans up... clean, but *shrugs* So the plan the plan the plan shshshshshshshsshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *suddenly misses Chris who was infamous for doing that when he was drunk, even when you weren't talking* I'm not really that drunk, just... silly :) anywayI've got some lines down for my cannon. I have ... SEVERAL design problems with it alreadylike load bearing and...well that's the main thing its a CANNONand the way I have it desig

Un - Break My Heart By Toni Braxton Someone On My Other Site Added This And I Liked It,
copy`d from what i added there, my`n was from dif, things then shows on this video. someone else added this on here, and i went back to find it and could not, so i got it off you-tube, I had said on it, that I have felt this way for more years then i can count, even in secret while still with husband, not really i think he knew it for years to, and now it`s been there for so long that i think it`s sealed in there like concrete.

Do You Think U Need Angermanagement Than Read My Poems!
every finger in the room is pointing at me i wanna spit in there faces but that would be so mean so instead i sit in silence trying to block them out but like always my anger comes out i got a kick for a bitch thats wanting my lover i got angry words for my evil my fucking sister my hearts be chained due to fucked fate im three days passed my menstrol cycile so go ahead mess with me today. im sick of all the bullshit im really on edge my past is catching up with me im about to put it to rest voices in my head i know they aint real but it agress with me screaming kill bitch kill im sick of faulse promises and all the fucking lies im sick of being trampled on and sick of tears i cry so look at me and call me names tell me how having a 2yr old at 19 is strange tell me that im a slut , a whore ,a bitch tell it to me but u better say it in my face you wanna see my anger i hope you have a gun cuz me and my blade is gonna have a little fun it might hurt a little well m

Check The 20
I stopped at Glassboro, Sears Hardware for some hook and loop 5", 8 hole sanding disks or paper. New crew or maybe people standing in for others. Here comes one and another but by the time I'm walking out there are three law enforcement. Did you check the $20.00 FRN to be sure it is legit? It is rather new. I know I'm such a bad guy driving that type of car and it is profiling and it is against the law. I did laugh at the whole fiasco. I have physicians and all sorts of people committing fraud, lies, and breaking the laws and they're wasting time and money because of someones inability to tell a bad guy from a good guy. Bad guy isn't so polite or looking for a hook and loop which they know nothing of. What does Sears Hardware have that a bad guy will want so bad. Lord have mercy. You know Vineland in New Jersey hasn't a clue about Safe Job or Seniority. Easy to save the Sate of NJ a lot of money. Dump those in charge who know not what I just said and that's about all of them. Politi

Old Friends / Chat Contacts
Thank you Not Tellin' for reminding me. After I left fubar the last go round my laptop blew up. When I got a new one I had to reinstall YIM. When I did all of my contacts disappeared. If you are using YIM and would like to add me again please do so. YIM ID: Sasquatch5170

Ginger Infused Peace
I awoke in a strange state today.I wasn't a bug.I wasn't a raging alchoholic threatening to drop out.I wasn't in love. That was the peculiar thing.Spring had sprung,and had doubley uncoiled without me. I contemplated this new position of inadequate apathy from the showerupside downat the toiletin the garageand even drinking on the back stoop half asleep in my pajamas. With my straw hat lopsidedand my bottle ajar I just gazed vacantly at the gathering virginal leaves, clumsily sprouting and reaching for the morning light. So thin and frailpassing light, filtering hope, and even tranquility through a brick stacked cellular veilthey look like I could safely kiss through themsafely fall head over heels cushioned on a field of their peers. Such unecessary things.Worship.Recreational sex.Novice prose. Yet as I contemplated the grass and the dimpled concrete against my cheekthat I wouldn't be me without them,and that spring is only green and fresh for so precious littletime. Then we r

Teardrop
If I could be a raindrop, there isn't a crevice I wouldn't explore From the moment I landed on your head, I'd adventure to the floor I would never want it to end I would be searching for something more If I could be a raindrop, there isn't an inch of skin I would miss Drizzling past your jade colored eyes, hoping to get lost in your kiss The feelings all come rushing back; you deny them reason to exist If I could be a raindrop, I'd take my time, I wouldn't rush Rolling down your chest, your breasts, your cheeks begin to blush The cool sensation sends shivers down your spine It's this contact you miss so much If I could be a raindrop, I wouldn't allow myself to be shy Trickling down your abdomen, powered by the electricity you supply Making my way below your waist, hoping to be impossible to deny If I could be a raindrop, I would entice you with my touch Streaming down the inside of your thighs, your hands begging for something to clutch What is unknown is that you hold my heart, and it

I Figured We Was Friends
As the bus stopped and it was her turn to get on, she became aware that her skirt was too tight to allow her leg to come up to the height of the first step of the bus. Slightly embarrassed and with a quick smile to the bus driver, she reached behind her to unzip her skirt a little, thinking that this would give her enough slack to raise her leg. She tried to take the step, only to discover that she couldn't. So, a little more embarrassed, she once again reached behind her to unzip her skirt a little more, and for the second time attempted the step. Once again, much to her chagrin, she could not raise her leg. With a little smile to the driver, she again reached behind to unzip a little more and again was unable to take the step. About this time, a large Texan who was standing behind her picked her up easily by the waist and placed her gently on the step of the bus. She went ballistic and turned to the would-be Samaritan and yelled, 'How dare you touch my body! I don't even

I'm Already Broken, You Can't Break Me Anymore
You can't break me to pieces,I'm already broken.You can't make me cry,I'm already crying.You can't make me hurt,I'm already dying.Through this I know the worst has come,My nightmare has just begun.I feel scared and alone with no one around.I choke on my sobs, but you'll never hear a sound.I want to be breathless, to feel no more.I'm already broken, starting at my core.I'm weak and I'm fragile if you don't already know,I do my best to make it not show.I'm broken and shattered, shaking inside.All I want to do now is run..and forever hide.Maybe if I'm alone no one could hurt me anymore.I can live in my own pain and misery,Maybe he won't even miss me.

Pedophile Mothers?
Now I’m not familiar the TV program Twilight but I understand there are underage male actors in it. With the hysteria around older men having sex with underage young people, ROFL Razzi has published a picture that says a 1000 or more words about moms. Check it out http://roflrazzi.com/2010/04/04/celebrity-pictures-twilight-moms-cheering-cops/ BlastFM is good for moms, dads or young adults. Great music 24/7 for your listening pleasure. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

To Answer A Few Questions For All
Ok just here to answer a few question for some of the not so considerate people...i have not been on much for 2 reasons...(1) my heart is in A-Fib and they are trying to control it and i went in Thursday for a Cardioversion and it was NOT succesful and still working on that....(2) A ladder fell on me that my cousin was on and fell 15ft and i broke his fall but crashed my knee into the concrete and gouged n cut n bruised my back up really BAD.....i DONT want no sympathy but i have had a FEW so called FRIENDS wanting to know why im not returning the rates and love....Soooo i guess be mad if ya want or be patient and hopefully soon i will return back to as NORMAL as i Can Be....... THANKS CAPPY

The Farmer And His Problem
THIS IS WHY WE LOVE OLD PEOPLE A farmer stopped by the local mechanics shop to have his truck fixed. They couldn't do it while he waited, so he said he didn't live far and would just walk home.On the way home he stopped at the hardware Store and bought a bucket and a gallon of paint. He then stopped by the feed store and picked up a couple of chickens and a goose. However, struggling outside the store he now had a problem - how to carry his entire purchases home.While he was scratching his head he was approached by a little old lady who told him she was lost. She asked, 'Can you tell me how to get to 1603 Mockingbird Lane ?'The farmer said, 'Well, as a matter of fact, my farm is very close to that house I would walk

Can You See The Light
Can you see the light, or are you still just blind,or can you be lost,in the shadows of your mind,open up your eyes,and together we will start,we will star to walk,and never be apart,and together, we'll run....take a look at me,and open up your heart,see the light i feel,and we'll never be apart,is your mind still dark,or is the daybreak nearing,is it my love you fear,or the love for me your feeling,and together, we'll run....open up your eyes, and let your fears rush out,feel the love I give,and they'll never be a doubt,oprn up your heart,and we will start as one,we will start to walk,and together we will run,and together, we'll run....

Drain On Society...?
yes yes a great virus eating away at the wonderful economy and social planning of this country. why? filing for food stamps...working on getting disability... im one of THOSE people. looked down upon because i need assistance and im not robbing folks or ripping off people to get it. im also not lying to get a better piece. ive had the fcuk up jobs that i worked my ass off at and i was still underwater. seeing that i have a condition that almost cost the same as rent to keep at bay. now im practically dead to the world. if i fcuked up and needed rehab because i was a crackhead with 5 kids...it would be understandable to "help" me. but since it seems as if nothing is wrong and i have nothing or no one to look after besides myself...im seen as a deadbeat lookin for free shit. which is bullshit but...alot of society has horrible eye sight and wont get glasses. i didnt BUY this condition...i didnt obtain it via peer pressure or a need to fit in. so i say fcuk off to those who wo

Vagina Island
To whom it may concern, I am fairly busy this week with work and I will only appear during "smoke breaks" ... I also regret to inform you that I have decided to take Witchie along on the ride. So for those who care or dont were off for the week. Catch us if you can. PS those of you with a vagina who have been assigned a platinum membership feel free to join us on the week long excursion WIcked, babo and Witchie

Donnie
yes this one has a guys name in it..but i just had to blog about this guy....he is my ex boyfriend....and we had amazing sex....the last time we had sex was like amazing..yet it was nothing special....i think it was due to the fact that we aint a couple anymore it was free and he did things that tore out my heart...but he felt sooo good and sooo right...even though he broke my heart he made the sex worth while.....is that why the sex was amazing cuz my heart was finally in it???? i dont know but thats what im thinking...i mean he spanked me something he knew i loved for like the first time ever..he let go///as i did i??? would i like him back ion a heart beat....lol...am i getting him back probably not

Wow Time Flys
whoa seems like yesterday i was 16 and in trouble all the time...becoming a new mom...was it really only yesterday my mom was crying over something i did.....that was 1994 now its 2010 and my kid is 16 and getting into trouble now im crying over somthing he did.....yes karma is a bitch.... life throws things at you sometimes.....sometimes its hard,sometimes its not....someties its rough but you always got family to back you up...that way i am lucky yes my kids are driving m nuts but hey they are my kids and i love them very much...truly no matter what life throws at me i know i will always have my family so for that i am thank-ful

20 Things I Learned From Watching Empire Records
If you haven't seen the movie Empire Records than this entire blog will go over your head. 20. You can't kill yourself using a Lady Bick with moisturizing strip. 19. If you are a minor you can shoot up a store,hold customers hostage,and not do any hard time..you might even be able to get a job there. 18. Record stores stay open til midnight(even later on special occasions) 17. You can sell beer without a liqour license for 5$ 16. One is able to buy a record store(cheap) 15. You can be a total asshole to everyone yet still find redemption in their eyes if you play guitar in their band( this is a stupid deleted scene on the special edition dvd) 14. His name isn't fucking Warren!(I thought his name was Warren?) 13. Telling the manager he is superb more than once can get your ass kicked. 12. Rock n' Roll Heaven has a guest list. 11. The fat man walks alone. 10. Marc Sucks! 09. 1:37 is an EXCELLENT time to declare your love for someone. 08. One is able to embezzle 9,104(I count

Dot Dot Dot
Do you know how many people your best friend has had sex with?We've talked about it before, but I don't remember.Do you think this year will be better than the last year?Oh yes. What all did you do last night and who were you with?I stayed at home and I was alone. Is there anyone who doesn't like you?I'm sure there is. I'm fine with that.How late did you stay out last night and how did you get home?LOL, I was home around 6pmDo you think things will change in the next 3 months?I'm sure it will. I can't wait.Who was the last person to hurt you?Not really sure.What are your plans for tomorrow?bowling and being with John.Does anyone know your password besides you?no one.Would you take any of your ex's back?No.What are you doing after this?Not sure.What was the first thing you did when you woke up?Fixed my oldest boy his lunch for school.Do you need to say anything to anyone?No...I think I'm good.Is there one person you look at and automatically smile?yeah. =]Do you wish anyone in particu

Temp
Often the damadge caused by Insulin is temporary and sometimes permanent. It is criminal to hide it in a surgery that was not needed. I was dead on 1/14/09 and only to be alive and doing much better not because of any surgery or medicine but because I lisetened to that quiet voice of God within rather than the howling madness of medicnine and its ability to hide any crime they wish by sticking togeather. Hold the ranks as God dismantels your sacred oath. Glory to God Norio

On The New Fubar.com Set Up....
My thoughts on the new setup.... Now I know that this might come as quite a shock to some people but I feel like there are a few things that I need to say on this subject.... First off, i'm really sick of seeing blogs, bulletins, mumms, etc. on how much people don't like the new setup of the site.... In all honesty, I don't think it's the best thing myself but at the same time, i'm not going around bitching about how it is. I feel that if you don't like the way the site has changed, maybe you shouldn't be here. No one is twisting your arm to keep you here. No one it holding a gun to your head and making you spend money on here. If you don't like it, why not leave? Bitching and whining only pisses people off. Which, in turn, is NOT productive in ANY fashion. Secondly, I am glad that BabyJ has said that they are trying to make it an option to where you can either use the new setup or the old skool setup. That's a great idea. But, have you people who are sitting ther

Mass Of Wicked Destruction
Back like insane its that wicked motherfucker kris. What you thought you could fuck with this. Thought you was the hardest. But you ain't. So back off before you get your shit fucked wit. I'm to hard like wicked. Ain't no way you could do this how i do it. Nor live how i spit it. I'm not whats in here. I'm the shit. Besta recognize who the fuck you dealing with. Hard like the perfection this spit this. Despite what you can't think how i write. & i'm just so out of sight. Crazy with that hard gutter flow. No easy believe me. Metaphor don't worry about how i deliver. With ya body in the river. Killing off with instinct. I'm so distinct to have ya off at the precint. With much intent heaven's sent from what i repent. I don't care what you think of me rhyming. Nothing like you & me in common. I'm bombing fall down. Way underground spitting with that wicked shit. Who it be mr. innovative & creativity. Nobody you know real or wicked as me. Hot shit to rock. I rap beat you way out of your map

This Is From A Friend
Who I can share my dreams with,and walk on sandy beaches,to talk to when I need a friend...One,When the road gets long and heavywhen sunny days turn rainyand everyone has gone, still here...Could you be The One?You could be The OneCould you be The One for me?So many lonely nightsI've cried myself to sleepWaking up to lonely days...And then I looked into your eyesAnd I saw the love you keepAnd I wondered, could you be The One?Two,To share their lives togetherand face whatever weatherthey will grow to be as OneCould you be The One?You could be The OneCould you be The One for me?Would you be The One..For Me.

R.e.m. - Everybody Hurts (sometimes)
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours aloneWhen you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang onDon't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes Sometimes everything is wrong, now it's time to sing alongWhen your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)If you feel like letting go, (hold on)When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on Everybody hurts, take comfort in your friendsEverybody hurts, don't throw your hand, oh no, don't throw your handIf you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are longWhen you think you've had too much of this life to hang on Well, everybody hurts sometimesEverybody cries, and everybody hurts sometimesAnd everybody hurts sometimes, so hold on, hold onHold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on (repeat & fade)(Everybody hurts, you are not alone)

Cover Letter
I need some proofreaders. I'm drafting a cover letter for a job I'm applying for. I never know how it sounds because it's my writing and I'm bias. Let me know what you think. Thanks! This letter is to express my interest in discussing the Head Athletic Trainer position posted on the NATA Career Center web site. The opportunity presented in this listing is very appealing, and I believe that my experience and education will make me a competitive candidate for this position. I am finishing up a two year fellowship working as the head athletic trainer at a high school. After working with these high school student athletes I know the high school setting is for me. I am a proven leader by the organizations I have been apart of during my undergraduate and graduate career. I take pride in my work and I always strive for excellence in organization and professionalism. I grew up playing sports, so I am very much a team player. If given the opportunity, I know I would be an asset to you

Sick Puppies - All The Same
I dont mind where you come from As long as you come to meBut I dont like illusions I cant seeThem clearlyI dont care, no I wouldn't dare To fix the twist in youYou've shown me eventually what you'll doI dont mindI dont careAs long as you're here[Chorus]Go ahead and tell me you'll leave againYou'll just come back runningHolding your scarred heart in handIt's all the sameAnd I'll take you for who you areIf you take me for everythingAnd do it all over againIt's all the sameHours slide and days go byTill you decide to comeBut in-between it always seems too longSuddenlyBut I have the skill, yeahI have the will, to breath you in while I canHowever long you stay is all that I amI dont mind, I dont careAs long as you're hereGo ahead and tell me you'll leave againYou'll just come back runningHolding your scarred heart in handIt's all the sameAnd I'll take you for who you areIf you take me for everythingAnd do it all over againIt's always the sameWrong or RightBlack or WhiteIf I c

I'm A Barbie Girl
I’m a barbie girl, in the barbie world Life in plastic, it’s fantastic! you can brush my hair, undress me everywhere Imagination, life is your creation Come on Barbie, let’s go party! I’m a barbie girl, in the barbie world Life in plastic, it’s fantastic! you can brush my hair, undress me everywhere Imagination, life is your creation I’m a blond bimbo girl, in the fantasy world Dress me up, make it tight, I’m your dolly You’re my doll, rock’n’roll, feel the glamour in pink, kiss me here, touch me there, hanky panky… You can touch, you can play, if you say: “I’m always yours” (uu-oooh-u) I’m a barbie girl, in the barbie world Life in plastic, it’s fantastic! you can brush my hair, undress me everywhere Imagination, life is your creation Come on Barbie, let’s go party! (Ah-ah-ah-yeah) Come on Barbie, let’s go party! (uu-oooh-u) Come on Barbie, let’s go party! (Ah-ah-ah-yeah)

..and Blocked
BIGTITMAN:i bet they are me:You bet what are? BIGTITMAN:your lips are like sugar me:Oh BIGTITMAN:both lips top and bottom me:Hmm BIGTITMAN:just a guess sexy me:I see BIGTITMAN:i would love to lick your lower ones me:How nice for you BIGTITMAN:well i hope for you lmao me:I don't think it would happen BIGTITMAN:it did in fantasy me:I live in reality BIGTITMAN:not if you on here you dont dear and your on here a lot trust me i know me:Uhh..just because I come on a website because I'm bored, doesn't mean I don't have a life. BIGTITMAN:thats why everyone cums online because there bored WITH REALITY DONT FUCK ME HON BEEN ON WAY TO LONG SELL THAT SHIT TO THE NEWBIES me:You're delusional. You need to log off if you think telling women you want to lick them actually gets you somewhere A couple things: I like pasting convos now--no reading bottom to top! And should I be creeped out he knows how often I'm on here when IDK WTF he is?

The Skanks Go At It!
OMG! I love the magazine comment! Michelle McGee has more insults for Chelsea Handler that she needs to get off her chest. The first of Jesse James' alleged mistresses lashed out at the "Chelsea Lately" host for the second time Friday via Facebook. "Dear Chelsea, glad to see my grandma's old clothes put to good use in your wardrobe. Her mu-mu's look AMAZING on you," the tattoo model, 32, wrote. "P.S. You need to hire another midget to hold up those saggy boobies of yours...all that breast feeding from Chuy has really taken its toll." Chuy Bravo is Handler's personal assistant and occasionally appears on her E! show. McGee's burst of vitriol Friday is her latest response to a blog post Handler wrote last week. "Michelle really believed that Sandra [Bullock] and Jesse were separated and was 'shocked' to see them together at the Oscars," Handler wrote on Tuesday. "I guess she doesn't read magazines, which makes sense since she basically has one on her face." In her first response

A Summer Holiday In 1969 (short Story)
There is nothing better than escaping the slum ridden streets of Glasgow in the searing heat of 1969; I know this, because I did it. I was eight years old and looking forward to going to a caravan in St Andrews. Two things to remember here, caravans are magical when you are eight. They contain a table that turns into a bed, they have wee gas lights that enclose a delicate fibre hood that glows like a witch's eye and caravans have secret compartments that suddenly turn into cupboards that include cups. The other thing to bear in mind is caravans are right near a beach. I was eight and almost wetting myself with the sheer delight of getting into that magical caravan. I saw caravans on the telly, they looked amazing and sometimes old gnarled gypsies lived in them and had an exciting horse to pull it, or you saw skinny bikini clad ladies with scarves tied on their heads and sporting horn rimmed sunglasses sit outside sipping drinks at a picnic table and sometimes they would just jump u

Memorium
There is a bridge of memories From here to Heaven above, That keeps you very close to us It's called the "Bridge of Love". As time goes by without you And the days turn into years, They hold a million memories And a thousand silent tears. To us you were so special, What more is there to say Except we wish with all our hearts That you were here today In the garden of our thoughts. The time is always spring? Memories grow sweeter, For our remembering?For the beauty of the flowers Is the language of the heart. And love lives forever Where dear ones never part. We never ask for miracles, But today, just one would do, To see the door push open, And see you walking through. If we could have one lifetime wish, One wish that would come true, We would wish with all our hearts, For yesterday and you. The things we feel most deeply, Are the hardest things to say, For we, your family, loved you, We miss you more each day, For life is not the same, Since you have gone away. Our heart

Heart "there's The Girl"
You're a polished diamond Now you're feeling kinda rough Yes I know how long you been searching for the perfect touch You better hear what I say I can tell your eyes are just about to give you away Cause there's the girl that you were after Feel your heart beating faster now There's the girl that you were after Can you say that you don't want her anymore Just take my word now Cause you know it's true she ain't good enough for the likes of you You better hear what I say I can tell your eyes are just about to give you away Cause there's the girl that you were after Feel your heart beating faster now There's the girl that you were after And all the time you can't get past her There's the girl that you were after Broken glass, complete disaster There's the girl that you were after Can you say that you don't want her anymore I believed you once When you explained That it wasn't to tough To forget her name Cause there's the girl that you were after Feel your heart beating faster now There'

Heart - Who Will You Run To
You're not sure what you want to do with your lifebut you sure don't want me in itYeah you're sure the life you're living with mecan't go on one single minuteAnd there's a new one waiting outside this doorand now's the time to begin itYou found a new world and you want to taste itBut that world can turn cold and you better face itWho will you run to when it all falls downWho's gonna pick you world up off the groundWho's gonna take away the tears you cryWho's gonna love you baby as good as IYou won't know what it's like to live on your ownYou've always had me there beside youYou think it's easy finding someone out therewho's gonna care as much as I doWhat's gonna happen baby when you find outthat there's no one there to cry toYou can tell the whole world how you're gonna make itYou can follow you heart but what ya do when someone breaks itWho will you run to when it all falls downWho's gonna pick you world up off the groundWho's gonna take away the tears you cryWho's goon

Heart - Will You Be There In The Morning
I'm lying beside you just thinking about usToo tired to go to sleep and too much in loveI know I'm crazy but I can't close my eyesI'm scared you won't be there in the morning when I riseWill you be there?Who do you dream about are you alone in your sleep?To who will you reach out?Oh, let it be meOh baby, you're my obsession, my addiction, my drugDon't want to be without you when I wake upWill you be there in the morning, will you be there when I want you?Will you be there when I wake up, Oh I need you to be there in the morningWill you be there?Well, you're so close to me but I feel so aloneThe more I touch you the more I wantDon't know what to do about me loving you but I pray to God that you feel it tooYou're my obsession, my addiction, my drug, so let the candle grow into a great fire of loveWill you be there in the morning, will you be there when I want you?Will you be there when I wake up?I need you to be there in the morning!I wanna love you forever,Don't want a lov

Heart - What About Love
I've been lonelyI've been waiting for youI'm pretending and that's all I can doThe love I'm sendingAin't making it through to your heartYou've been hiding - never letting it showAlways trying to keep it under controlYou got it down and you're wellOn the way to the topBut there's something that you forgotWhat about loveDon't you want someone to care about youWhat about loveDon't let it slip awayWhat about loveI only want to share it with youYou might need it some dayI can't tell you what you're feeling insideI can't sell you what you don't want to buySomething's missing and you got toLook back on your lifeYou know something here just ain't rightWhat about loveDon't you want someone to care about youWhat about loveDon't let it slip awayWhat about loveI only want to share it with youWhat about loveDon't you want someone to care about youWhat about loveDon't let it slip awayWhat about loveI only want to share it with you

Sleeping Around
open relationships my freind she want to have 1 idk what 2 think about she has boyfriend that loves an take care of her an she tell he is great in bed she just wants more than him she dont want to leave him jus a 1 night stand here an there .wjhat do u think about that an her leav commentplz thanks

Heart - Alone
I hear the ticking of the clockI'm lying here the room's pitch darkI wonder where you are tonightNo answer on the telephoneAnd the night goes by so very slowOh I hope that it won't end thoughAloneTill now I always got by on my ownI never really cared until I met youAnd now it chills me to the boneHow do I get you aloneHow do I get you aloneYou don't know how long I have wantedto touch your lips and hold you tight, ohYou don't know how long I have waitedand I was going to tell you tonightBut the secret is still my ownand my love for you is still unknownAloneTill now I always got by on my ownI never really cared until I met youAnd now it chills me to the boneHow do I get you aloneHow do I get you aloneHow do I get you aloneHow do I get you aloneAlone, alone

Gunna Be A Mindless Ramble
So I been seeing alotta shit around this dump. And yes I am gunna type like I talk if ya coose to think I am uneducated for fine i dont give much of a fuck. Besides if people think you are stupid they underestimate ya. Imma go ahead and drop a little news, I know Red has been catchin some heat, people thinking i am trying to fuck with her to get her away from jared. lemme clear sum shit about that up. I have met the guy.he is a decent guy but is not the guy for her.he tries to change her.But that aint what is causin this. He cant deal with her disease.he flat out said that he dont think he can be the man there at the end because he is not nurturing.She deserves a man that will be.I been with her thru more shit than he can begin to comprehend in tha last 16 years, including her being stabbed. No it wasnt me lol. So Jared has moved into the 4th bedroom,like they did when she was with John.I will let her explain fully if she chooses to. Bottom line tho there marriagehas been over since D

Cisco Certification Benefits For Your Personal And Professional Life
IT industry over the last few years has made progress that is beyond your imagination. There is rapid progress in the fields of windows and networking. While Microsoft leads the windows world, similarly Cisco System, Inc. is on the top of networking service providers list. Cisco with each single day is introducing new networking equipments and data management solutions. Cisco offers three types of certifications for those already in networking field or intent to pursue a networking career in near future. These courses are available under the heads of Associate, Professional, and Expert categories. These certifications can be taken according to different networking aspects such as Routing, Switching, Network Security, and Service Provider. If you want to move up to your networking career then it’s very important to take some Cisco certifications. Cisco exam dumps is a wise choice towards your better future and it brings a lot of benefits for your personal and professional lives

Oh Wow, Some People Think I Am A Murder?! O.o (hunting Rant)
Okay I am going to start this off by saying, Your a fucking moron if you say you don't eat living things. Everything grown in a garden is liveing at one point all plants have to live to grow, duh lol. Anywoo, now I am a murder because I like to hunt. I do hunt for fun but I also eat most of what i kill and if i don't eat it someone or something dose. Not one bit of the animal gets wasted, and another thing atleast the animals i have killed has had a chance to live life. Unlike the packaged meat in your grocery store, those animals was raised to be slaughtered. And no I don't think I am better then anyone but i damn sure aint lower then lower then anyone just because i enjoy hunting. Okay well I am about done, just one more thing. If you disagree with hunting and you see some one has a hunting album on here. Don't fucking look.

Poetry
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky. In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there were one set of footprints This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints. So I said to the Lord, 'You promised me Lord, that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there have only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why? when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?' The Lord replied, 'The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand, is when I carried you. MY BEAUTIFUL FAMILY MEMBERS WHO ARE NO LONGER HERE WITH US IN A PHYSICAL FORM, KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH! I WILL ALWAYS HAVE PLACE IN MY HEART FOR YOU!

To My Family And Friends
My Dear Friends! Time is flying and tomorrow will be my last day at home for a while. I am going to a hospital for back operation. I have been dealing with often terrible pain for over a year, on morphine and limited with my activities. One of the best neurosurgeons will remove my bulged disk which is blocking sciatic nerve, remove some of the vertebra and replace it with coral and clean some fat and calcium deposits there. Of course I am scared, there is always a risk in every operation BUT I trust my doctor and believe that all will end successfully. When I come back home, I will be wearing specially molded/removable cast, very limited with my movements, mostly lying down and walking a bit. It will take weeks until I will be able to do more but I am prepared for that. For now, lets just hope for the best. I will miss talking to you, visiting your pages and leaving comments but my thoughts will be with you. Lucky me, I met a few extraordinary people here and cherish them all. You are

Fubar Changed -- So What!!!
Ok, Fu changes. SHUT UP AND READ THIS FOR 1 MINUTE. **BEFORE YOU ATTACK ME I HAVE A VOICE HERE TOO. IF YOU CAN POST A MILLION BULLETINS I CAN POST 1 BLOG. I HAVE AN OPINNION JUST LIKE YOU** Stop fucking whining. You don't like it? Don't threaten that you're going to delete your page. DO IT. Fubar isn't real life, deal with it. If something changed in your life you wouldn't die because of it and I don't see you dead now. Why sit here and riot over a change on fubar? Why not go out and HELP change something else? Is Fubar that important to you? I know what you're thinking -- I spend money here and they change everything without asking. Well guess what? SO DOES THE GOVERNMENT!!! Instead of sitting here bitching and complaining..how bout you go sign one of them petitions out there that is going to stop the Health Care Bill? Get your life into perspective. What the fuck is fubar to you? It's a website. I can't even come on here and have fun anymore cause everytime Im on here

I Hate Fucken People Any More
I am so fucken sick of gawd damm, narrow minded, self centered, ignorant, rude ass, judgemental people, I could scream. I am at the point of my life were I have seen and dealt with all walks of life and very very few have I seen that dont fall under one of those areas I have mentioned ubove. Bunch of back stabbin, money grubbin dick wads. They dont want to get to know the person, they want to see whats in it for them to hang with that person. And when they are not getting a free ride, they toss you to the curb like garbage. Or they piss and moan about their problems, and when your in need of a ear, or something they turn their backs on you. Ya thats a true friend ..NOT!!! People from my perspective, just dont give a fuck about any one but their own needs and wants. NO.. thanks if thats all todays people are in general I will pass. Rather live alone, and just have my pets around me. All they want is a warm bed, food and love. They love you back on condistionally. All I can

Why Won't They Stop Breeding?!?!?!
2:52:42 AM: Me: Welcome to (company name)! My name is (you know me). How may I assist you today?2:54:24 AM: Robyn: Can you help? I have tried putting items in my SAKS BAG... it goes into the BAG, then it disappears.2:54:42 AM: Robyn: What is going on... are you having tech difficulties?2:55:04 AM: Me: We are not having any issues that I am aware of at this time.2:55:17 AM: Me: May I have one of those item numbers so I can try to find out for you?2:55:24 AM: Robyn: Sometimes, i try to add an item and it will not load into the BAG.2:56:03 AM: Robyn: I Loaded a VINCE leather jacket... now it is gone.2:56:18 AM: Robyn: Maybe I will try tomorrow2:56:36 AM: Me: Do you clear your web browser cache frequently?2:56:51 AM: Robyn: no2:56:57 AM: Me: That could be one of the problems since we did update the check-out page in the past week.2:57:07 AM: Me: Try that and see if it doesn't fix the problem.2:57:33 AM: Robyn: In the pass, I could load an item... return the next day to finis

I Am The One:
I AM THE ONE:...who comes up with a situation......for u to put ur head on my shoulder......who can make things all better......who gets ur first text message......who takes u to get ur first tattoo.....that wipes that tear from ur eye......picks u up when u fall......helps u deal with the loss of ur first love......who lets u have ur first beer......u call when u just need an ear......who takes u camping......that shows u how to teepee someones house......that will ring random door bells and run away with u......helps u get away with staying up to late......who doesnt make u eat the nasty veggies......who feeds u lots of choc b4 goin home......checks out ur first date......parks around the corner to pick u up so ur friends dont see me......takes ur training wheels off ur bike......lets u steer the car as i'm driving......lets u play video games all day long......tells u everything will b ok......who will fight for u whenever, however, whoever......that will love u no matter what.....

Dear Agony
"Dear Agony" I have nothing left to give I have found the perfect end You were made to make it hurt Disappear into the dirt Carry me to heaven's arms Light the way and let me go Take the time to take my breath I will end where I began And I will find the enemy whithin Because I can feel it crawl beneath my skin Dear Agony Just let go of me Suffer slowly Is this the way it's got to be? Dear Agony Dear Agony Just let go of me Suffer slowly Is this the way it's got to be? Don't bury me Faceless enemy I'm so sorry Is this the way it's gotta be? Dear Agony Suddenly The lights go out Let forever Drag me down I will fight for one last breath I will fight until the end And I will find the enemy within Because I can feel it crawl beneath my skin Dear Agony Just let go of me Suffer slowly Is this the way it's got to be? Don't bury me Faceless enemy I'm so sorry Is this the way it's gotta be? Dear Agony

More,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
"Ache" My heart aches, for the one I love She is the one, the only one for me I feel so lost, without her so alone, bereft Oh how I long for her touch her smile the brightness she brings with her the smell of her hair All that she is I ache for Her K

Points Of Contact
Between playing a full schedule these days, and my lack of zeal for the remodeling job they did on the site... I may or may not hang out here much even after making this profile. The hilarious thing is that a lot of the MuMMers have been acting like they're ace detectives, "I know it's you Dana!" ... as if that were ever a secret. So to my few good friends here I wanted to post contact info in case you want to stay in touch with me elsewhere. I don't add many online aquaintances to my Facebook, prefering to keep it for people I actually interact with near-daily but I'm easy to find there: Dana Eddy Yahoo IM is similarly easy: danaeddy myspace.com/danaeddymusic myspace.com/conspiracytheorydallas

Seriously..wtf?
I don't understand how sick fucks can do shit like this! TRENTON, N.J. -- Two men and three teenage boys were charged Saturday with gang-raping a 7-year-old girl who was sold by her 15-year-old stepsister at a party at a crime-ridden apartment building, police said. The five arrested range in age from 20 to 13. Three live in the apartment building where the girl was attacked March 28. Police said the 15-year-old girl went to a party with some men and the younger girl tagged along because she was worried about her stepsister's safety. The 15-year-old sold sex to men and boys there, then took money to let them touch the younger girl, police said. Then at least seven men raped the 7-year-old.

Lost Love (or Dream Of You)
Its been a long day Here in my bed I lay; Dreaming of you Oh so sweet. A caress, a smile For only awhile Leaves me weak and broken at your feet. I dream of kisses and whispers, I dream of things that once were. But awakening now I'm wiping the tears from my cheeks. Lost to me you have been for far too long. But your power over my heart and my head will continue; But not after I am dead.

Waaaah Jessie
When is Jesse James going to start acting like a man? The 40-year-old checked out of Arizona's Sierra Tucson Treatment Center just one week after entering for his cheating addiction - and all because wife Sandra Bullock (wisely) refused to take his phone calls! The West Coast Chopper owner bailed on his treatment when he realized - like a big old baby - that he couldn't have his way. "He wants the marriage back," a source tells RadarOnline of Jesse, who entered the facility on March 26. "And then she refused to take one of his calls from the rehab center and he got furious and left." While Sandra, 45, is busy moving out of the couple's Los Angeles home (moving vans were spotted at their abode April 2) Jesse, who was outed by In Touch Weekly for his affair with stripper Michelle ‘Bombshell' McGee on March 17, has been staying with a male pal, reports Star magazine. Nice way of proving you want your marriage to work, Jesse. It serves you right if Sandra leaves you!

Just Alittle About My Feeling.....
ITS JUST AMAZING HOW PEOPLE TREAT PEOPLE HERE, HOW SOMEONE CAN TAKE SOMEONES HEART AND JUST DESTORY IT WITHOUT ANY REMORSE, I CALL THEM HEARTLESS PRICKS AND BITCHES SORRY TO HAVE TO PUT IT THAT WAY BUT ITS JUST A FACT..EVEN THOUGHT THIS IS A WEBSITE PEOPLE GET ATTACHED AND DEVELOP HOPES AND DREAMS OF MAYBE A POSSIBLE FUTURE. I do not understand how people can think that just because fubar is only a website, that the people on it do not have feelings. I do understand that this place is not real life----on here u can be whomever u choose to be. for some that is a fake person whom they have always wanted to be. for some that is a person who they wish they were a copy of. for people like me----my page is only an extention of myself. my page----although not completely filled out is 100 percent true of who I am as a person. this can leave me vulnerable to those who choose to take advantage of you for wearing your heart on your sleeve. weather I am in real life or fu-life, I do have feel

Another Year Gone
So... Next week is my birthday. My life has really had a lot of changes in the past year. Some good, some bad. Through this whole roller coaster, I've really tried to keep what little sanity I've had left. I don't know how well I've done that, but hey... what can you do? I've had the support of several good friends, who mean more to me than they'll ever know. Sometimes though, things get a little rough and I just don't know how to get through it. I guess right now it is hard. I'm by myself most of the time, and really have no friends or family to speak of that live close enough for me to just say "hey, come over and watch a movie or something." Really, I'm just rambling... no point to any of this, except to get out some of what I'm feeling, and try not to feel so alone.

Erin Andrews Threatened
Celeb Erin Andrews has been getting hate emails threatening to kill her. what’s up with that? She only did Dancing with the Stars and is an ESPN reporter. It has something to do with Michael David Barrett who went to prison for stalking her. Read more if you dare http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/04/02/death-threats-espn-reporter-erin-andrews/ BlasFM doesn’t threaten. We just encourage you to listen 24/7. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Movie Review
I rarely ever really write movie reviews. When I do, it's not ever really long and I don't give much of the movie away. Anyway, here is my review. Last night I watched "Boondock Saints II: All Saint's Day". The only way you would even begin to understand it would be watching the first one. The first one is amazing. If you haven't seen it, do it...NOW. Boondock Saints. Get it. Now on to the review for the sequel. I had my doubts because most of the time, sequels aren't really all that good. This one is ALMOST one of those movies. The time between the first one and this one is 10 years, so all of the characters have aged. Some more than others. But I can overlook that. At the beginning of the movie the editing is really choppy. I think they could have done a little better on that. It's still something that isn't horrible. They have a few new characters in the movie. I was a little worried about them when I heard about it. I'm really not sure what to think about it. They jus

[lets Take A Moment To Talk About Pig]
*yawns*Is been a while since we talked about food.Let's talk about pig. Let's talk about the spensive cerrano ham I ordered for lots of moneys And I will probably order more. It came in a 3lb case thin thin thin cut and cryovacced. It's good plainits good on leafy saladits good fried on toad in the hole.its good in fried rice Salt and paprika cured. Made me a believer in spanish paprika, I picked up a tin just to remind me of the flavor between packs. Here's some of my favorite things: Take some sheets, cube them into about 1/2 inch squares and add them to a bowl of cold couscous (with cranberries) and a handful of uncooked soybeans.Tablespoon of balsalmic/olive oil/horseradish.cracked pepper and sea salt to serve Toad in the holeTake some day old bread, cut a hole, drop an egg start fryingone side sets,flip it set it add a disk of fried cerrano. and it starts waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahspecialty foodwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahtoo expensiveWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH ...SHUT UP

This Song Rocks
SYSTEM OF A DOWN LYRICS "Cigaro"-System of a DownMy cock is much bigger than yours,My cock can walk right through the doorWith a feeling so pure..It's got you screaming back for more.Cool, in denialWe're the cruel regulators smokingCIGARO CIGARO CIGARCool, in denialWe're the cruel regulators smokingCIGARO CIGARO CIGARMy shit stinks much better than yours,My shit stinks right down to the floor.With a feeling so pure,It's got you coming back for more.Cool, in denialWe're the cruel regulators smokingCIGARO CIGARO CIGARCool, in denialWe're the cruel regulators smokingCIGARO CIGARO CIGARCool, in denialWe're the cruel regulators smokingCIGARO CIGARO CIGARCool, in denialWe're the cruel regulators smokingCIGARO CIGARO CIGARCan't you see that I love my cock?Can't you see that you love my cock?Can't you see that we love my cock?We're the regulators that de-regulateWe're the animators that de-animateWe're the propagators of all genocideBurning through the world's resources, then we turn an

Steps
John and I have been talking about moving in together for a while now. We both have known that there are some steps that need to be taken before we can do that. Here are those steps: 1. I need to get a car 2. We both need to get better jobs. 3. We need to find a place to actually live Step one will be officially taken care of on Wednesday. One of his neighbors has a car for sell. It's not a new car, but it has been VERY well taken care of. It's a '93 Chrystler New Yorker. It has only had 2 owners and has 72k original miles. It's all leather interior, with no damage on it. There is no rust or dents. The only thing wrong with it is some of the clear coat is coming off the trunk and the top. It runs really nice. It's quiet and is smooth. I'll be able to get to the bank on Wednesday and get the money out of savings and go to the DMV and get it legal. =] I'm excited about that. As far as number 2, when I take my vacation I'll be going to take the civil service test so that I can

One Hell Of A Year We Say Iu Was The Place To Be In 2008
After watching him cover the youth beat for the 2008 election, few would have initially expected Luke Russert, son of the great late Tim Russert, to end up broadcasting on Election Day from the Indiana Memorial Union. It was certainly a welcome respite given that, for far too long, most of the media attention received by the University was focused on the NCAA violations of Kelvin Sampson. Coming here certainly seemed like a good call for Russert. The presidential race in Indiana was decided by some 26,000 votes – a number smaller than the enrollment at IU. Given the drastic turnout on this campus, we might very well have been a deciding factor in which way Indiana’s 11 electoral votes swung. This year has certainly been an exciting year for IU students to make and witness history. We were visited by everyone from Feist to Bill Clinton. John Edwards broke his media silence in the IU Auditorium. The president-elect himself, Barack Obama, dropped in on the Little 500 women

Truth???? All Comments Accepted :)
Well since so many people are running around with their own reasons and assumptions and everything else as to why I am no longer in fu mafia, perhaps I should set the record straight myself, LOL, even though I am quite enjoying the rumors, they're awesome and funny as hell! Well, I, formerly known as Carmella Corleone on fu mafia Owner of Redeemers Will Prevail, deleted on my own on the morning of April 1, 2010, nope no April Fools Joke either. I had been thinking about it for quite some time for many reasons. Main reason was I had reached my goals in fu mafia. 1. I had worked very hard on my turf and brought it into the top turfs in fu mafia and it continues to have very strong players and will continue to grow even without me, accomplished. 2. I had reached level 1000 and was the first to do it in fu mafia and was the highest level in fu mafia, accomplished. 3. I was the only woman who held the number one position the longest FAIRLY in alltime best/top

Funeral Blues Or Known As Stop All The Clocks
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone. Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone, Silence the pianos and with muffled drum Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come. Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead Scribbling in the sky the message He is Dead, Put crêpe bows round the white necks of the public doves, Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves. He was my North, my South, my East and West, My working week and my Sunday rest My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song; I thought that love would last forever, I was wrong. The stars are not wanted now; put out every one, Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun. Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood; For nothing now can ever come to any good.

Phew
So any of you who cared/remembered. I made a blog a few weeks ago about my grandad being ill. My dad who scared the crap out of me letting me think something really bad happened and drove me into an emotional breakdown. Gah. Anyways he's a lot better now because now my auntie KNOWS that he should be having regular check-ups at the hospital and stuffs. Last time he scared us all because he just REFUSED to go to the doctor. Grrr why are old people so stubborn? Anyway...it was a big sigh of relief when I found out that nothing too serious had happened, but I still scared. He's old and has diabetes and stubborn and won't change his friggin eating habits. All my dad and uncles yell at him so bad for not trying to get better it's kind of horrible. Last time all THREE of them were yelling and yelling one after the other, they were so loud and scary. I hate the way they do that. I think he might actually lose a foot, last time I was in HK to see him his foot looked purple and just weir

Prayer Of A Lover
PRAYER OF A LOVER Everynight when I pray, I thank God for each new day. I also thank him for something sweet, I thank him for each time you and I meet. He has Blessed me with his grace, He gave me the chance to see your face. He has taught me much, My favorite lesson was the joy i felt at your touch.

The Race
Ok I promise this is the last of the food stories. I wrote this one the day after the chili dog one. This one is about roast beef Aujue. THE RACE The roast beef is challanging the Aujue to a race through the land. They started at the town square. They went forward about a block with Aujue in the lead. They turned the corner in front of the hardware store. Out of town they go. Look out for those trees, bushes, and brambles! SNAP! CRACK! OUCH! Through the swamp now. Roast Beef got through first. Roast Beef has a big lead. Roast Beef just entered the desert. Look! The race is not over yet. Aujue just exited the swamp. Aujue will have to hurry to catch up with Roast Beef, Aujue just entered the desert. Aujue caught up with Roast Beef. They are neck and neck. Aujue is in the lead. The positions change. They are neck and neck. A mysterious hole has formed in the middle of the town square. Here comes Roast Beef and Aujue. The fell into the hole! MMMMMM! That was good.

Leo
LEO - The Cool One(7/23-8/22)Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and sexy. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you'll ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with... u might end up crying... 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.CANCER - The Smart One.(6/22-7/22)Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck if you do not repost.ARIES- The Irresistible One(3/21-4/19)This Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.SAGITTARIUS-THE SUPERIOR SEXUAL PARTNER(11/22-12/21)Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Inte

Chile
Before you read this one and get confused i feel i should explain it a little. This story was written in a creative writing class I had in my junior year of high school. I had this class the period before lunch. Now at the beggining of each class we would do a 5 minute quick write. I would always try to write a story in that time. So on the particular day this story was written lunch that day was chili dogs. Hence the idea for the story was born. Sorry it is so confusing. CHILE Once there was a dog named Chile who went to Chile on vacation. Chile rode on a train through Mexico. On the way to Chile, Chile tasted many different types of chili. They ranged from mild to extra hot chili. When Chile got to Chile he went to the local restaurant and ordered chili. Chile thought the chili tasted pretty good. While Chile was eating chili his owners called for him yelling “here Chile! Here Chile!” Chile heard the call and ran to his owners. When he got to his owne

[spending Spree]
I ordered my pin vise (hand drill) and drills.and 4 types of glue (they have different effects and applications) (also about the most expensive things on the list)and an assorted pack of about 200 rivetsand some plane filesand some enamel cleanerand some top coat and a bottle of MAGIC andsome shell casings/bullets/ammo beltsHopefully they're a useable size.They're 1/35 scale for real armaments and artilery. Because after 100$ ... I got a discount and I was right at $90. So I threw in the extras. I couldn't find anyone willing to post em next to a god damn ruler :b but I can use em. I know I can even if its to make ONE assault rifle clip or a cannon shell. For fuck's sakeJurassic Park II ? Really? Oh...so what's the magic for?Did you notice that I bought enamel cleaner? ...Of course you didn't. There's a line of enamels that finish with a metallic effect. I bought a 2 oz bottle of alclad enamel high polish aluminum. Its supposed to go on black high sheen acrylic. The rest of t

Claim Game
you claim love , for me , for life , for us , but I don't believe I claim love , for you , for us , but I wear my heart on my sleeve to be with you in front of all , that snicker , that point , that have no clue that I see them , waisting time out there own little lives, but I am always focused on you like walking and breathing , like swimming and getting wet , like getting lost inside your eyes like singing a song , after we've made love all day , it's like living to be alive with out you I would shatter , broken beyond repair yet I am steel encased in thick concrete , as long as you are there by my side , my life , my everything , no

Bhr Promo Contest
Bad Habitz Radio Promotion Contest We will be running a contest for the best promotion starting 4/15 and ending on the 30th. This can be a comment, bulletin, voice promo, video promo.... what ever you desire, be creative! Winner will win 2 million fubucks and a 10 credit bling. If you are interested in joining this contest please let me know (by PM or in the comments below) by 4/10... promotions will be due on the 14th so I can get them posted for voting. They will be placed in my stash, person with the most ratings and comments (yes, comments count as votes in this one) by April 30th will be the winner. It is up to you to promote your promo... I will only be promoting the contest as a whole.

Winds Changing
I feel the winds changing I tire of sitting and sitting not doing a thing alas my freedom does quickly approach like a kite cut free from its string these words come direct from our muse for this tale he feels trapped and quite ready to go in which ever way the wind wishes him to head he in trust his life to its flow I feel the winds changing I claim no address I detest the thought of getting mail to the same location for the rest of my life I'd rather catch the breeze and sail I am a balloon on the loose I have NO set path theres no telling my direction the blue sky, the clouds, the sun's gentile kiss these are my only protection no more is needed what more can one ask a hot meal from time to time well thats about all and

Bad Reaction
My head starts to spin, its the weirdest i've felt, my chest gets these pains, my heart starts to melt, my hads with the strength of 1,000 men fold, stop moving get limp numb and cold , i can no longer kill, I go into a trance theres, a sparkle and a light heavenly angels dance , the hounds of hell howl, here is the overview, I'm completely destroyed, when I'm here the words, i love you...

Questions That Haunt Me!
QUESTIONS THAT HAUNT ME!Can you cry under water? How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered? Why do you have to 'put your two cents in'... but it's only a 'penny for your thoughts'? Where's that extra penny going to? Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity? Why does a round pizza come in a square box? What disease did cured ham actually have? How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage? Why is it that people say they 'slept like a baby' when babies wake up like every two hours? If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?

Twisted Lovers
once upon a time these two were quite deadly, destroying all in there path willing ,ready, a city turned to rubble, one sex at a time by the time help did arrive twas much to late feelings hurt hearts crushed, you were lucky enough to survive good fortune to you, by the end of it all, if you were not torn apart from the eye found screaming in the dark {I cant be alone} {so fuck it id rather die} but when these two met, the world knew fear , a new fate had befallen them all no one can save them, no one would dare try, there is no one out there to call one hell of a storm brew , they felt the need to collide , and there power was then x10 when the two finally met , they knew no reason , to ever part ways again yet their normal routine, was not in their actions , they seem to be quite at peace no violence displayed , they were well behaved , it seemed to have calmed the beast

Why Or Why Not
When is it that you should trust someone. What makes it hard to trust others is when they lie to your face and say they would never do anything to hurt you when in fact they are doing it at that moment. Do they ever feel the hurt they give you or is it they just dont care. I think that if you dont mean it dont say it. I cant stand hurt anymore. I think ill just stay and be alone forever. Why not seems the best thing no one can hurt me. So tell me what you think?

Of The Demons Of Desire....yet Another One Mind Blowing!!
I wanted her to not only die, but suffer. I wanted to grind her soul into nothing.I wanted to bend her into treble cleft screams and leave her in a locket, safe inside her jewelry box. I wanted to make her so very mine that her fleshy little frame snapped. And her frail heart would drip down a broken record uterus, gathering bacteria in her panties that perverts would mistake for menstrual blood. I wanted to throw her out in the garden with last week's mystery casserole and not have the decency to bury her. I told myself: She'll decay with dead flowers that should have blessed my pillows and kitchen tables while they still lived, and the dogs will piss on her while she tries to sleep. I wanted to be her end, but I ended up with her pale orchid mouth, feathered and damp and pretty as all, seducing every molecule of life from my lungs and leaving only a deep, frantic hole. I wanted to paint her cheeks with bruises, the color of want, but I died as her cheeks flushed the pinks and white

For The Queen The Demon Of My Desire...another Passionate Piece Written For Me...these Blogs Blow My Mind
I feel a fire flickering inside of me. Pouring out into delicious sin. I felt my hand crawl up. Slowly, tickling the little hairs on your skin. you sighed lustfully. Wrapping your arms around your neck. Would you give me everything I desire? Everything and more. Oh, how I crave your fire. Quenching to burn. press your embers to my pale and quivering timber and ignite me, lover... consume me with licks of flame and torrents of heat. your wetness can't deter these flames, only add the deliciousness of sweetness and sweat, skin slipping against skin as we writhe into a crackling frenzy, building to the explosion we both crave. if we're going to hell for the sins of this flesh, let the road to hell be paved with sweet exchanges and little kisses, lusty sighs and heated gazes Keep your hands on me. All through the night. I want to enraptured you. you know you rock my world. With each lazy slow roll of the hips. We know god is secretly watching us. His hand against his.. mmmmm. I pres

Thoughts On Easter...
Easter is not a time for groping through dusty, musty tomes or tombs to disprove spontaneous generation or even to prove life eternal. It is a day to fan the ashes of dead hope, a day to banish doubts and seek the slopes where the sun is rising, to revel in the faith which transports us out of ourselves and the dead past into the vast and inviting unknown.

Love The Way
I Love The Way I LOVE THE WAY YOU CUP MY FACEWITH TENDER HANDS AND SWEET EMBRACEI LOVE THE WAY YOU KISS MY LIPSYOUR GENTLE FINGERS AROUND MY HIPSI LOVE THE WAY YOU STROKE MY HAIRTHE GLINT IN YOUR EYES,I KNOW YOU CAREI LOVE THE WAY WE MAKE LOVE AT NIGHTBODIES ENVELOPED ALL SNUGGLED UP TIGHTI LOVE THE WAY YOUR HEART BEATS IN TIMEBEAT FOR BEAT IN TIME WITH MINEI LOVE THE WAY YOUR SOUL TAKES FLIGHT TOGETHER WITH MINE TO AN EROTIC HEIGHTI LOVE THE WAY YOU LOVE ME TRUEIN ALL YOU SAY AND ALL YOU DO

Written For Me By An Admirer
Your lips are swollen by the taste of my sperm. Its like poetry but way god damn sweeter. feel like a whore, but only I can touch. Only I can see the jewels that I love so much. It feels so good to know that I own your pussy. And only I'm the one grow hard for, and you fuck. That your arms, your fingers, your love. Is mine and only mine. Its like art the way I spread my hands down your body. The way I kiss your skin until it puckers. you feel your thighs tremble, as I pull you onto me. Kissing away the sweat, and tears. The hopefulness and all your fears.As I grab the blankets and pull them over you. You lick away my sperm off your mouth, and you taste a certain kind of spice. As I kiss your brow. Digging my cock into you. Cherishing you like you'll break, but roving like you need to break. you feel your cum drip down onto your skin. Its like oil seeping deep within our pores. The world begins to spin round and round. You breathe out and breathe ecstasy back in. As I feel you everywh

One Year
IT'S ABOUT A YEAR SINCE MY GREAT FUBAR ARRIVAL. WHAT HAVE I LEARNED: 1. I HAVE MET SOME NICE PEOPLE ON HERE 2. PEOPLE GENERALLY DON'T PAY ATTENTION TO ME OR MY BLOGS&MUMMS 3. I HAVEN'T BEEN REALLY CLOSE TO ANYBODY 4. THE LOUNGES ARE KINDA INTO CLICKS 5. MUMMS NEED TO STAY ON THE TASK AT HAND 6. SOME FOLKS NEED TO TREAT EACH OTHER WITH RESPECT -----WAY TO MANY ARE LEAVING THE SITE BECAUSE OF THIS. 7. SOME OF THE LADIES ARE REALLY BEAUTIFUL 8. YOUNG LADIES NEED TO STOP LURING US MEN TO THEIR CAM SITES 9. ANYTHING YOU HAVE TO BEG FOR IS NOT COOL

Easter!!!!
Easter Blessings As we celebrate this Easter morn, praise and thank the day He was born. Understand why He hung on a tree He paid for our sins at Calvary. They mocked Him and scorned Him, accepted all lies They crucified Him and a thief on each side. He looked up above, cried can't take anymore take this cup from me, let it pass, please, my Lord. Joseph from Arimathae, wrapped His body in a linen cloth laid Him in a sepulchre while His followers watched. They buried Him in a tomb let the Sabbath pass returned with prepared ointments they had stored in a glass. When they discovered the stone had rolled away, they remembered His words, He would rise the third day. He was born to be our Savior He died for you and me He paid the price for us He died so we could be free.

Intro
On MySpace I have a blog where i choose a song that I like to post each day, and now I'm going to do that here. Today's son of the day is "Fireflies" by Owl City. Go here to listen: http://www.purevolume.com/owlcity. Go here to see any of my previous posts: http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.ListAll&bID=532190487.

How To Be A Gentleman
1Good hygiene is a must. Don't just use a bar of soap, but do scrub yourself. Make sure ears have no wax in them and that privates and facial hair are clean and at least trimmed nicely. When applying deodorant or cologne, don't use a lot. Also, make sure you don't use too much hair gel (it's sticky).2Pay attention to how you look. Wear clothes that fit your body well, eliminate flashy clothing and avoid fashion "faux pas" (i.e. baseball hats cocked slightly to the side). A simpler wardrobe will keep the emphasis on you, not your clothes, which will change your outlook. Get regular haircuts.3A true gentleman is polite to everyone, in action and words. Always be aware of how you can help people. Wait an extra few seconds to hold the door for the person behind you. Offer to help an old or pregnant person get their grocery bags to the car. You don't have to be paranoid or risk killing yourself (i.e if you've got a precarious grip on something heavy, don't open the door for so

Our Love
You hold my hand, I caress your lips, You look into my eyes and my heart beat skips. I stroke your back skin so soft and smooth, I admire your face, every line, every groove. We move in a little closer, our bodies entwine, you touch my neck, it sends shivers down my spine. You whisper that you love me and I know it's true because I feel it in my heart and I love you too.

Poem Of Love
When I was little, I had a lush dream, That one day I find And marry a Queen. She'd sit by my side, Up there on our throne, With princes and princesses So we're never alone. I can honestly say, My dream has come true And you'd never believe Just how much I love you. I may not be king And you may not be queen But together we're perfect Just like in my dream

Poem I
Breeze skipping over water, Water reflecting lights strung over the bridge, Lights shining in your eyes. The fresh, bold feeling of something new, As winter melts into liquid spring, And summer takes shape and ripens alongside love. The petals from the flowering trees, snow for the summer, Floating down around us as we kiss, Once, twice, then forever. You aren’t just my sunshine. You're my sun.

I Make This Solemn Promise To You
To be your lover when you need to be loved, your doctor when you are ill, your army when you go to war, your umbrella when life rains down on you, your rock when you get weary, your shield when you need defense, your spirit when you are drained, your pillow when you need to rest, your voice when no one can hear you, your ear when no one will listen, your comfort when you feel pain, your hero when you are under duress, your sunshine when darkness falls, your answer when questions arise, your inspiration to overcome obstacles, your hand to hold when you are frightened, your kiss that wakes you everyday, and your "I love you" each and every night. I am yours... all of me.

12 Ways To Know That You Love Someone
TWELVE: You talk with him/her late at night and when you go to bed you still think of him/her. ELEVEN: You walk really slowly when you are with him/her. TEN: You don't feel Ok when he/she is far away. NINE: You smile when you hear his/her voice. EIGHT: When you look at him/her,you do not see other people around you.You see only him/her. SIX: He/She is everything you want to think. FIVE: You realise that you smile every time you look at him/her. FOUR: You would do anything to see him/her. THREE: While you have been reading this, there was a person in your mind all the time. TWO: You've been so busy thinking of that person that you didn't notice that number SEVEN is missing. ONE: You are going to check above if that's true and now you are silently laughing to yourself.

Lifesavers
I am here because I choose to be,This is where I want to be,I want you and thats ok,Because you want me too.I see beyond your scars,Beyond the bruises of your past,You say I am good for your soul,Yet you have made mine work again.So, slowly we go,Confident of the quality,Like a fine malt,to be savoured at length.

What's Love Got To Do With It?!
Nothing at all anymore... why get married anymore? Why even have a relationship?! 9 times out of 10 one or both parties in the relationship will cheat... even if they dont have actual sexual contact with the other person most will talk sexual online or on the phone via actual voice or texting... so there in lies my question... What does love have to do with anything anymore... NOT A FUCKING THING! If there was there would be more marriages lasting for many many years like our grandparents era.. and not as many divorces. So if u want to be with alot of other ppl and u cant make that solid commitment... DONT FUCKING GET MARRIED OR START A RELATIONSHIP!! Its not fair esp. if the other person is faithful and really does love you.. do yourself and that person a favor save the drama and just dont start anything u cant handle. And if u do it might hurt to end it, but would hurt alot more to be fucked around on!

Blank Page
A blank page looks up at me this nightBut when I look back at itIts you that I see Struggling to find the right wordshere i sit thinking of you Holding you close thats what I wanna doTo smell your hair as you snuggle closeTo feel the warmth of your skin as I pull you to meTo kiss you and hold you close A blank page looks up at me this nightBut when I look back at itIts you that I see

My Favorite Poem
This poem is titles I GOT YOUR BACK. It is probably the greatest poem for the military I personally have ever read and I wanted to share it with all my friend son here. I hope you like it as much as i do. I GOT YOUR BACK I am a small and precious child, my dad’s been sent to fight… The only place I’ll see his face, is in my dreams at night. He will be gone too many days for my young mind to keep track. I may be sad, but I am proud. My daddy’s got your back. I am a caring mother; my son has gone to war… My mind is filled with worries that I have never known before. Everyday I try to keep my thoughts from turning black. I may be scared, but I am proud. My son has got your back. I am a strong and loving wife, with a husband soon to go. There are times I’m terrified, in a way most never know. I bite my lip, and force a smile, as I watch my husband pack… My heart may break, but I am proud. My h

My Truth
Avalanches rolling through my skull, destroying my pure thoughts, corroding my ideas, blending both sides of my thought process so that all is obscured and intertwined. No longet recognizable my soul cries out in anguish , searching for a beacon to guide it from the self-destruction it seeks. Listen for the bellowing sound my soul cannot ommit, resonating so far its deluded by space and time. See what evils are hidden from your simplistic sight, and feel the pain burdened on my shoulders for an eternity, yet I am oblivious to the pain. Suspended in an unescapable cage deep within my mind, only able to peer outward as if watching someone else act in my stead, yearning to once more be able to control my body. Silenced I am at every sound uttered from my pitiful lungs, suffocated by unrelenting assailants, and betrayed in so many ways it has become a familiarity. Denied the individuality I have sought out for so many years, cast aside as if all I have done was worht less than nothing, as

[4 Years Later]
What you thought I'd spend money on this site to mark the occasion? Maybe I'd beg and plead for pointzes omg! Nope.I've seen the whores the fakes the jaggalos the martyrs the advertisers and the garage rappers all come and go. If you haven't figured it out by now, you haven't spent more than 30 seconds on me. I'm not here for that. I'm not sure why I'm here. Seriously.The amateur porn that it was is pretty much gone, and 90% of you are very boring. But then there's the 8% I like to mock, the 1% that shock meand the 1% that engage me. Thanks for that. So how did I celebrate this momentus occasion? Mostly in my garage. I didn't get everything I wanted done today. I probably need oneONE last layer of primer, and there's a set back, some paint pooled in the head/visor and ... gunked up the part the mixture was too wet, and I didn't move the piece enough when I was applying the paint. Woopses happen. While the paint was drying I popped back inside and sanded my Gouf's sword

On The Battlefield
Deep breaths, listen for the pause. I clench my gun, pop up, shoot. Two more die. Rounds crackle by my head and everthing slows down. Anger takes over. I move from behind cover. Nothing matters anymore. Sight, shoot, kill. The explosions are dull thuds in the background. The rounds zipping by leave trails in the air. I hear each bullet I fire, each shell that hits the ground. Reload on the move. Fire. Run, aquire, shoot, kill. Its so eaasy. Im not afraid. Im running, sprinting, killing. Then I see her. Like I remember. She walks through the carnage, undaunted by the chaos. I unwiittingly lower my weapon and walk towards her. Everything is still but us. My weapon hits the ground and I drop to my knees in front of her. She smiles, but not in a loving way. Its to late, I cant move. She raises her hand and touches my chest. Its like a round going through my heart. I fall back, and I see her walk away, free. Then I succumb to the darkness and wake up screaming.

3/30 - Give Me The Coast
Give Me The Coast Give me the coast, any coast. Being a Jersey Girl at heart, I have been baptized in the Atlantic Ocean. Learning to appreciate and respect both its power to soothe and destroy in equal awe. At 5, I was blessed to bury my toes in the sands of Salinas, the beaches of my heritage in Ecuador. At 13, I built sandcastles at the shores of Malibu. At 21, I learned to sway my hips to the rhythm of St. Martin's waves. And most recently, Florida's coastline hugged me like a long lost friend. Yes, give me the coast, any coast. Because each and every one is a siren's call I must heed. The pull and push of the waves mirroring my blood rushing to keep time as my soul kisses the sweet solace yet again.

Preparing For Resurrection Sunday
December 12, 1987 I’ll tell you, today was not one of the more exciting days of my life. My second day of being sixteen, and I had to spend it at home. I wanted to go to the dance so badly, but my father told me to stay home and watch things while he and Mother went out to celebrate their anniversary. I don’t see what the point is in my remaining home; I’d just have to lock the house up for three hours. Oh, wait a minute, I’d have to … funny, I can’t think of what I was about to say. I think that sitting here now is so unfair. But I suppose parents have to seem unfair to us sometimes … it keeps us on our guard. April 3, 2010 At least I think this was the journal entry Martha referred to Wednesday evening when she, Mary, Sarah, and Jeffrey were making their attempts at cleaning more of our house while I was at work. I’ve got this big folder out that I’m planning to use as research for a book, and this contains sc

My Own Device
Do not fear my destiny Do not fret my fate Do not worry my being For I have lived more than most I have loved all I could I have seen more than nearly all Life has lived, love has lost For all I sought, had None is left, my heart distraught Pinnacle was achieved, won Gutter found, displaced Personal vision No longer valid, just a waste Wanderlust a disservice Home nonexistent, alone From whence I came Now I roam, useless, forever forlorn

Ultimate Hotties Positions Available
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Every Where You Go There You Are.
I know its the overly used lame statement but it kinda puts into perspective something important. I was thinking back to when i was younger and how everything i did was a grand adventure. Back when then we would walk all the way from Irvine to the tustin market place. It would take hours and we would go through ditches and sewers and fields. We would notice every bit of the area stopping to explore what ever was interesting. As we grow older our worlds start to expand and things start moving by faster. We stop taking time to notice all those things that used to be fascinating. I guess what im trying to say now that i seem to have fallen back into routine of life is that i need to enjoy the fact that here i am. It seems that much of my life is working toward the ends with out taking a thought about the means. I suppose in a constructive perspective we should start with the ends and then work out the means but life isnt that simple. Life isnt like a video game where u get this great priz

Knitting Myself Back Together
So I have missed blogging far too much now so I had to be reborn in some sese at least. Now if I can remember how the blogs work and such. I have always been something of a writer though and taking away my ability to write just sort of sucked in this way. However I thought that I would start my first blog with my most recent knitting project. I am currently working on my first pillow case. I know the pic does not show very well as my webcam sucks but this is what I have done. It is now just about a foot long and I just started the dark green layer on the top. So how have you fuckers been?

Out In The Rain
It was like a sign. I walked outside and like a que from a director it begins to rain, a desperate attempt to wash the pain from my body. Purity falling from the heavens above and touching my skin. The anger and resentment mixing with the water and becoming acid, burning away the ground beneath me. Just another example of my essence destroying something good. And my wings wrap around me to keep me warm. My weapons unfazed by the destruction. Figures. This destroyer able to keep destryoing. Walking through life in all of its beautiful moments, being the outcast nobody wants to acknowledge, but secretly glad is there. But this war isn't about attrition, its about preserverance. This Angel without a god Soldiers on.

Log 1
Tried twice to submit a salute and failed. I know why the first one was wrong but the second one didn't show my forehead so that blew it I suppose. Who knows! I can't seem to get my camera to fit my whole face and the fubar ID both. It just won't go in the frame. I dunno enough about my digital camera to figure it out. lol Any suggestions would be welcome! Thanks!

More About Me
Your name:Megan Marie TrustyOldest/youngest/or middle sibling:youngest middle childYour dad's name:John David Trusty-HaskettWhat kind of phone do you have?a land lineFavorite type of music:Country and Melodic Death MetalHow many pillows do you sleep with?as man as I can get my paws on, but usually just two.What do you find most of in your room?mismatched socks or wires...How many piercings do you have?3 *ears are gauged to 1/4 inch, then my tongue*Who is your neighbor across the street?Rena and DavidDo you dye your hair?never have Own a pair of skinny jeans?um, ew, now lolHow many cell phones have you owned?2What were you doing this morning at 8am?Umm, thinking if I could get away with drinking coffee.What are you wearing?pants, shirt, and a sweater.Are you mad at anyone right now?Actually, no..Last person to send you a text?Um, I think it was Jamie.How many different drinks have you had today?Hmm, water only so far.Do you draw your name in the sand while your at the beach?I've neve

French Epicurean Peas
4 slices bacon, diced 1 Tbsp diced onion 1 Tbsp flour 1 (17-oz) can peas, drained1 Cup milk1 4-oz can mushrooms, drainedsalt and pepper to tastePartially fry bacon. Add onion and cook until golden. Drain some of the grease, leaving about 1 tablespoon. Add flour and stir well. Add peas and milk. Cook until heated through. Add mushrooms. Cook and stir until thick and bubbly. Makes 6 Servings