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Emo Kid Emoticons List //_^
The Sad Emo Kid //_; The Happy Emo Kid //_^ The Amazed Emo Kid //_o The Angry Emo Kid //_< The Pissed Off Emo Kid //_- The "I Don't Care" Emo Kid //.- The Sleepy Emo Kid //_~ how Emo Emoticons appear in conversation "I don't care" //.- "REALLY? HOLY CRAP!" //_O "GRRRR" //_< "YAY!" //_^ "My girlfried broke up with me." //_; "Just leave me alone." //_-

Please Tell Me !
How old are you? Are you single or taken? Eat with your hands or utensils? Do you dream at night? A secret about you? If you could do anything with me, and have no one know, what would it be? Do you trust the police? Do you have a crush on me? Why? If you could change anything about yourself what would it be? Would you cheat? What do you wear to sleep? Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to? If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? Which do you prefer - short or long hair? Do you sing in the shower? What's your favorite color? Are you naughty? What was your first impression of me? Have you ever done drugs? Will you post this so I can fill it out for you? Do you have a tattoo? Tell me anything that will help me understand who you really are.......

M-theory...
believe it or not i've been reading up on M-Theory in theoretical physics... and it's kinda interesting... time being the 4th dimension and the pulse of time being the 8th... but... it explains everything as a constant... everything started in one place an infinite point... time allowing movement(rotation)... but nothing moves... where i get lost is as we know today the universe is expanding.... and it seems to us subjectively that time is moving foreward... then you look at theories on time loops around like a giant circle and how everything has happened before and will again....

You Know It's Time For Coffee When...
You wake up on a Wednesday morning, today and start leaving comments on people's pages saying it's Tuesday. Wow. lol. Hope everyone is having a great week..be back with more fun stuffz soon :D

Dear Girls
hi girls, im russell and i just wanted to tell you all that i have the most beautiful girlfirend in the world ive been dating her for almost 6 months now and continue to break her heart by talking to you ladies like this and sending and recieving pictures

Haveing Bad Day Already
wow were do i start? i fell so lonely these days even tho we live together i feel miles apart.the courts seem to be screwing me as well. when does it get better? i feel like just cureling up in a corner and crying.

How To Turn Women On
No matter what you read in magazines and the like, the setting isn’t as important as you may think when turning a woman on. That means that you don’t need to turn your home into a candle store before you can attempt to bed your girl. It can be done anywhere – including in the middle of the street! Now look what I wrote – I said setting isn’t AS important as people make out, although it is important to a degree. A woman is going to feel much more at ease being sexual with you when she is alone with you, rather than in the street or in the middle of a public library. The truth is that woman can NOT control when they get turned on. What they CAN control is how far they let it go. A woman could be turned on whilst browsing the knife section of a hardware store – you just wouldn’t know it, as it wouldn’t be the place for her to start flicking her bean now, would it? What you are about to learn is to HOW to turn you

A Poem 4 My Love!
“Horribly horribly sad tonight. Accepting that the person you love simply doesnt love you anymore sucks. I have been crying for days, and cant function. It fuels a self hatred fire that drives me to escort. To prove I am desireable, wanted. But then I realize that it can never replace love. Never. There is no comfort in being wanted for sex, but not loved. I think it hurts more. I want to be loved. I want to make love to someone who loves me back, not sell myself to someone who doesnt know my name. But that choice isnt mine to make. I can sell myself, but i cant make someone love me. I used to believe in dreams and love, but i cant feel anything anymore. I think even god forgot about me. I cant even fake happiness enough to pull off a date anymore. I am ignoring it all, wallowing in sadness while the month slips away and i dont have the rent money. Hating every man Ive ever met, but loving the only one who doesnt want me.”

Do You Know This Story?
A scorpion needs to cross the river. He asks a friendly-looking frog to carry him across. “Do you think I’m stupid?” asks the frog. “You’re a scorpion. You’ll sting and kill me.” “No I won’t,” says the scorpion. “That would be completely against my self interest. If I sting you, I’ll fall in the river and drown.” The frog sees the sense in this and agrees to carry the scorpion across the river. Halfway across, the scorpion stings him. “Why did you do that?” asks the dying frog.

Good Guys Vs. Bad Boys
It’s such an obvious bad deal, the Bad Boy, especially when you take into account that you won’t be able to change anything about him (and you really shouldn’t jump into a relationship if all you want to do is change the other person). Despite this, the Bad Boy seems to keep winning. What is it about him that makes us crazy? I have condensed our most critical errors into a simple list 1.) Independence. A Bad Boy is not clingy. In fact, he makes it patently obvious that he doesn’t need you around. This lack of regard for you can appear to be independence. What draws most women in is the idea of a man who will not become sucked into us and lose touch with the rest of the world. We are drawn to someone who comes into our world with a world of their own. Of course, most often independence isn’t what the Bad Boy is about. He genuinely just doesn’t care. 2.) Spontaneity. Unpredictable like no one you’ve ever known, the Bad Boy is a

Pua Training
This is a short and inspirational video that will show you what PUA Training is all about and what you should expect to get out of one of their products and/or boot camps. Gambler, the PUA Training CEO, isn't afraid to admit and even show you that he was an AFC that turned into a pick up artist almost overnight, and with PUA Training he says that he can do the same for you!

Pick Up Lines ~ Be Entertained (for Men To Use)
WARNING: These are NOT intended to be used You will most likely get a negative response if you attempt to use any of these pick-up lines when approaching women. They are funny and intended for entertainment purposes only. However, if you have already had a conversation or two with a particular woman, you can open with something like "Want to hear this funny pick up line I've heard... (insert pick up line)". This will probably make her laugh and warm up to you. I suggest only using these in a scenario such as the one described above. With that said, on to the pick up lines... just remember, don't say I didn't warn you! "I want to tell you your fortune." Take her hand and write your phone number on it. "There's your future." "Your skin is so creamy I bet you never even had a zit on your ass." "Your dad must not have a penis. He's got a paintbrush!" Pick up a pack of sugar that actually says, "sugar" on it... then say

How To Eat Pussy
Let's Get Down To Business! Deep down, women love sex just as much as men do, although they aren’t usually as open about it. Ask a male if he masturbates and he will tell your straight up that he does, whereas you pose the same question to a women and 3 quarters of them will curl up into a ball and go into some sort of sexual defensive coma. We know why this is as it is relating to the emotional issues and the ‘Anti-Slut Defense’. You have tried, and tried and tried with women to get them into bed, but because of lack of experience in the field and lack of game you have fallen at the first hurdle. So after reading up about women’s emotional needs in regards to sex elsewhere around these boards, you have the information you need to get that girl into your sack as soon as possible. Now lets find out HOW to do it. How To Turn Women On No matter what you read in magazines and the like, the setting isn’t as important as you may think

Unforgivable By Armin Van Buuren Feat. Jaren
You used to light up the dark With your unrelenting spark It always put a fire in me You used to say I’m the one The only ray of sun you could touch without a fear of burning Well you used to try to please me Yeah you tried to please me Never said this would be easy Never said this would be easy Well then you tell her now While you hold her in your arms Are you pretending she’s me? Just how low will you go when Before you realize you know she’s the one But you’re going to use her anyway You just got there, now you’re leaving You just got there, now you’re leaving Your sweet nothings are deceiving Your sweet nothings are deceiving Well it ain’t over ’till it’s over And my world shuts down But this comes close, I’ll have you know It’s just a matter of time But it ain’t over ’till it’s over But I won’t be made a fool ‘Cause leaving me the way you did was just so unforgivable Well it ai

Changes
Im making changes to my life no one is going to like but these changes need to be made change number 1. I'm going to try to be a gurl 2. I'm not going to be pushed around anymore by anyone 3. No more people from my past coming back in my life 4. Move on from jacob 5. Stop smoking 6. Tell people my true feelings on things 7. No more hiding from the world 8. No more hiding at all 9. Get rid of the people that are no good for me 10. Get married 11. Spend more time with my mom. . . . . . . ..more changes coming soon

Untitled
I saw my true love for the first time, I needn't look twice, off in the distance, somewhere between Earth and Paradise. Put away in a memory, scenes from the past, hoping beyond hope, our love would forever last, love lost , love found, love where love was nowhere around. Just give me a chance to show you how I feel, then give me one more to prove to you that it'll always be for real. I didn't see it comin' But maybe I should've I was runnin' out of time And you were running out of love.

I Am.....
The deepest substance is torn from me and I find myself feeling rather weak most of the time. Shut down, never do I seize to cry. The shell is a facade created for people that choose to see nothing but. For people who cannot stomach the intensity of truth even if they swallowed it. I am the lonely willow tree on the top of the hill that you failed to notice because you were too busy smelling the flowers. I am the cracks in the sidewalk without life lying still next to the ones whom sprout roses. I am the product of my chosen experiences, not my environment. I am the vomit from your self indulgence which makes you sick. i am me.

:) I Love It!!!
Jay-Z ft Kanye West, Rihanna – Run This Town Lyrics http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVA-xTBeHyM (Rihanna)Feeling it coming in the air,hear the screams from everywhere,I’m addicted to thrill,Its a dangerous love affair,Can’t be scared when it goes down,got a problem tell me now,Only thing thats on my mind is who gon run this town tonight,who gon run this town tonite,We gon run this town! WassupWassup (Jay-Z)We are,yeah I said it we are,this is Roc Nation,Pledge your allegiance,get y’all fatigues on,all black everything,black cards, blacks cars,all black everything,and that girls a blackbirds riding with their dillingers,i get more in deppif you boys really real enoughThis is la Familia, I’ll explain later,but for now let me get back to this paper,[lyrics courtesy of killerhiphop.com]I’m a couple bands down,and im tryin get back,I gave doug a grip and lost a flip for five stacks,me im talking 5 comma, 6 zero’s, dot zero’s, jiggaback to r

Atm Procedures...
not ass to mouth! ATM with drawls you perverts! I thought this was funny because i can see it happening! MALE PROCEDURE 1. Drive up to the cash machine.2. Put down your car window.3. Insert card into machine and enter PIN.4. Enter amount of cash required and withdraw.5. Retrieve card, cash and receipt.6. Put window up. 7. Drive off. FEMALE PROCEDURE 1. Drive up to cash machine.2. Reverse and back up the required amount to align car window with the machine.3. Set parking brake, put the window down.4. Find handbag, remove all contents on to passenger seat to locate card.5. Tell person on cell phone you will call them back and hang up.6. Attempt to insert card into machine.7. Open car door to allow easier access to machine due to its excessive distance from the car.8. Insert card.9. Re-insert card the right way.

God Saw You By Author Unknown
God saw you getting tired, When a cure was not to be.So He wrapped his arms around you, and whispered, "Come to me". You didn't deserve what you went through, So He gave you rest.God's garden must be beautiful, He only takes the bestAnd when I saw you sleeping, So peaceful and free from painI could not wish you back To suffer that again.

The Reason - Hoobastank
I'm not a perfect personThere's many things I wish I didn't doBut I continue learningI never meant to do those things to youAnd so I have to say before I goThat I just want you to know I've found out a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is you I'm sorry that I hurt youIt's something I must live with everydayAnd all the pain I put you throughI wish that I could take it all awayAnd be the one who catches all your tearsThats why i need you to hear I've found out a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is You and the reason is You [x3] I'm not a perfect personI never meant to do those things to youAnd so I have to say before I goThat I just want you to know I've found out a reason for meTo change who I used to beA reason to start over newand the reason is you I've found a reason to showA side of me you didn't knowA reason for all that I doAnd the reason is you

I Will Use Your Sock :) Ty
Jesus H Christ..........break out the noise makers! Momma is real close to cummin................errrrrrrrr oops my bad really close to leveling. dig it Why?????? YOU ASK? BECAUSE i DIG you!! XO Cyn aka: TewDope

My Contest Entry
well here is what is going on i have been doing some paint schemes for my friend's racecar on toyota's contest i need to be within the top ten to have it possibly used so please vote for mine and i have one done out of 5 that i did and i will be putting the links up on here each time they are accepted. now there is only 11 days left for voting and i am still waiting on one to be accepted and then i would have the link and then people can vote. http://www.sponsafier.com/share/53264 http://www.sponsafier.com/share/44810 http://www.sponsafier.com/share/8010 http://www.sponsafier.com/share/91484 http://www.sponsafier.com/share/138096

Fortune Favors The Bold Who Seize Three Hairs Of A Woozy's Tail
Ten years ago … When I was reading “The Wizard of Oz” the other day, a closing note written by another author caught my attention. Dorothy, the Scarecrow, the Tin Woodman, and the Cowardly Lion all bouted with insecurity, but they knew what they wanted and they pursued it with all they had. That’s got to be my motive too, regardless of how confused I may get or how unloving I may feel. I will do a better job letting others see that I’m not an ogre. Like I said in prayer and like I’ve heard in many a sermon, my salvation and my relationship with God aren’t dependent on my feelings or my attitude or my health. But how much I am committed to God is dependent on me. To love and be loved can be, on this side of heaven, the greatest feeling two people can have. With Mom and J.D. [her fiancée at the time I wrote this], David and Connie [the people I rented a room from at the time I wrote this], and other couples (most I’ve seen cl

Random Band Lyrics2
"To Be Loved" Listen up, turn it up and rock it out party on, I wanna hear you scream and shout this is real, as real as it gets I came to get down to get some fucking respect taking it back to hardcore level you better be ready, put your pedal to the metal taking it back to hardcore level you better be ready, put your pedal to the metal. Go! Whoa I'll never give in Whoa I'll never give up Whoa I'll never give in And I just wanna be, wanna be loved Whoa I'll never give in Whoa I'll never give up Whoa I'll never give in And I just wanna be, wanna be loved I want domination I want your submission I see you’re not resisting To this temptation I’ve got one confession A love deprivation I’ve got a jet black heart It’s all fucked up and it’s falling apart Whoa I'll never give in Whoa I'll never give up Whoa I'll never give in And I just wanna be, wanna be loved Whoa I'll never give in Whoa I'll never give up Whoa I'll never give in And I just wanna

Pants Dilemma
A young man came home from the office and found his bride sobbing convulsively. "I feel terrible," she told him. "I was pressing your suit and I burned a big hole in the seat of your trousers." "Forget it," consoled her husband. "Remember that I've got an extra pair of pants for that suit." "Yes, and it's lucky you have," said the woman, drying her eyes. "I used them to patch the hole."

Random Band Lyrics
"Blood" I will forgive but I won't forget And I hope you know you've lost my respect You better watch out If you don't know whats going on around you You better think twice Before you fly off the handle and lose it You better join us Before you get lost in the shuffle You better rise against The demons that are gonna try and hold you down Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love? Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love? The ones you love, the ones you love, the ones you love Cause I'm not a pawn for you to play in your fucking game I've got dignity and a dream that I want to achieve The pressure, your troubled and you let me down I'm not deaf and all I hear are your empty promises Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love? Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love? The ones you love, the ones you love, the ones you love Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love? Yes it runs in your blood to

So...
I'm engaged. =]EHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!!!!!Now, the ceremony won't be for quite a while- I'm dirt po'. But i finally decided on a dress, I think. My dressWe're thinking of Draper's Cabin- a small ceremony because we'd be pressed for space. Instead of catering (SOOOO pricey), I was thinking maybe seeing if certain family members could cook- Like maybe george's mom, or my dad's mom Jill if she wants to come (I hope Grampa mike will!)... And having snacks (I'd kill to con one of them into making a honey ham. -drool-) like fruits, veggies, crackers and cheese, chips, mebbeh some sammiches (like those little club ones)... and having soda, water, and alcohol for those who are of age to drink (i'm thinking wines, some whiskey, some beers- that should cover most of the family/friends' preferences xD). Due to space, we could use george's parents' vans to drive people from parking to the cabin. He mentioned his uncle could do the ceremony. I plan on asking Cori if she's willing to photograph i

Just Writeing Ryhmes-2pac Beat/ Dissin Somebody Guess Who?
iam a motherfucker nut case a basket / iam be this way until they close my fucken casket/ man i got alot on my mind and iam stressin/ and iam just wait to go off you don't want to test me/ gives a fuck about this fubar shit/ it aint nothing half you motherfucker's on my page alway's frontin/ dont make me pull hoe card cause half you motherfuckers that be kickin it is a hoe job/ it's a list you motherfucker's that act like suckers/ get yo ass worn out out like some godamn chucker's/ i could call out names but if i do that iam really going to have to set yo ass a flame/

Every Man Should Read!!
(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't do it!(5) Loud Sigh: This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

Want Some Fubucks?
Want Some Fubucks? I Am Giving 25k For Every 100 SFW Pic Rates! Tryin 2 Level! Just Send Me A Private Message With The Total Number Of Pics U Rated & I Will Hook U Up! If U Do Not Send Me A Private Message Telling Me How Many R At Least Which Albums U Rated Then How Will I Know..lol! Thanks Everyone! SexyBiChris =)

Round Here
Lyrics to "round Here" by the counting crowns, the lyrics in this song,are so painful and so beautiful, I WISH more musicans put themselves out there like this, it's so hard to just connect, and when you hear something that just hits u deep down , we remeber no matter how lonley we are we are never truly alone. this is the very essence of what drives me to write and express my self Step out the front door like a ghost Into the fog where no one notices The contrast of white on white. And in between the moon and you The angels get a better view Of the crumbling difference between wrong and right. I walk in the air between the rain Through myself and back again Where? I don't know Maria says she's dying Through the door I hear her crying Why? I don't know Round here we always stand up straight Round here something radiates Maria came from Nashville with a suitcase in her hand She said she'd like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis And she walks along the edge of where the ocean meet

Money&chicks
I'm makin it while I'm spendin it,You can go to the Louie store,You can go to the Gucci store,You go to the mall,You gonna spend it all wat he do it for,You can buy the rags you can buy the bags,but there ain't no sign that say they the sway,But you can watch me an do your best impersonation,You need a lil time, a lil prepreation sooner or later you gonna have to face it,I'm like the penthouse you a fixed up basement,As far as chicks go I get it You take it I give em all franks the call me nathan.....

Things I Learned Growing Up In Louisiana
1) A possum is a flat animal that sleeps in the middle of the road. 2) There are 5,000 types of snakes and 4,998 of them live in Louisiana 3) There are 10,000 types of spiders, and all 10,000 of them live in Louisiana 4) If it grows, it'll stick ya. If it crawls, it'll bite cha. 5) "Onced" and "Twiced" are words. 6) It is not a shopping cart, it's a buggy. 7) "Jawl-P?" means, "Did y'all go to the bathroom?" 8) People actually grow and eat okra. 9) "Fixinto" is one word. 10) There is no such thing as lunch. There is only dinner and then there is supper... 11) Iced tea is appropriate for all meals, and you start drinking it when you're two. We do like a little tea with our sugar. 12) Backwards and forwards means, "I know everythin' 'bout you. 13) The word "jeet" is actually a phrase meaning, "Did you eat?" 14) You don't have to wear a watch, because it doesn't matter what time it is. You work until you're done or it's too dark to see... 15) You don't PUSH butt

Short Time
Another day has past,another day of trivial nonsense,or more...another day of losing someone so very special. Our own parents are,have been,and always will be one of a kind...to us. Lost my father today,now,both are gone. Heart goes out to all that have loved and lost,most recently,my friend Kel,Peace and All That,thinkin of you girl! Time is short,and it doesn't wait on nobody. My friends,cherish what you have...always. It could be over tomorrow.

Sounds Of Silence
Hello Darkness my old friend (smiles because the Darkness always knows) I've come to talk with you again. Because a vision soflty creeping Left its seeds while I was sleeping And the vision, that was planted in my brain Still remains Within the Sound of Silence. In restless dreams I walked alone Narrow streets of cobblestone 'Neath the halo of a street lamp I turn my collar to the cold and damp When my eyes were stabbed with a flash of a neon light It split the night And touched the Sound of Silence. And in the naked light I saw 10,000 people, maybe more People talking without speaking People hearing without listening People writing songs that voices never shared No one dared Disturb the Sound of Silence "Fools," said I, "you do not know, Silence like a cancer grows" Hear my words that I might teach you Take my arms that I might reach you

Broken
The words unspoken The sounds unheard The heart that's broken A mending is what's needed A messenger that can be given A life that has been liven Words of lies Things I despise Truth of heart; Where do I start Lost in the life Lost in the words How this is so absurd The lies The sorrow How love dies This is it This is the life This is the untold The untold of heart and strife

What Is Love By Debbie Schneider
L is for the laughter that flows through me when i am with you or even think about you, O is for the orgasmic pleasure you give me when we are together and you touch me too, V is for the vulnerability that ensues me when you gaze into my eyes, E is for for the everlasting loyalty and faithfulness that i give you with all my heart and my love and never any lies

Just Once
Just once I would like people to understand me sometimes. All these allegations towards me are wrong. I want out of this area, and had planned on moving closer to friends. Maybe my feelings were starting to get too strong for one in particular, but at the same time I was never told or warned about any of it. Instead I was lead to believe my feelings were ok. I may bite off more then I can chew at times, but usually I get warned or told off about it. Instead the person in question did not say anything to me about. Just went on and on about whats meant to be and gods plans. I am a believer in god, I understand there is a plan for all of us. But the plan does not include not telling someone when they have gone too far. Maybe I did in fact go to far. Maybe I need to show some constraint in future. But to allow me to think other then what I am told will not help me at all. Especially when what i am told is quite different from what I see or hear from others. So when I ask and question it, m

My Ego Boost Of The Day.
I stopped at starbucks today and was sitting there at a table waiting for my cup o goodness.A woman comes in, smiles at me, orders her coffee, walks by and looks at my phone sitting on the table.She says, "can I look at that, I am wanting to get one, but they are not on in the store, so I dont know if I want it or not."I tell her to go ahead and show her a few things on it I show her how it works, the way the web browser works, the touch screen, how the address book works.She plays with it for a bit, gives it back and says "you have a new number in there now, you should use it later." My day is good.

When You Know Its Time To Throw In The Towel
how you know when your finally fed up! lies pour in with every flip of a tongue things you belived in dont matter or make sense anymore , strength you had to keep on trying weakens with all the lies.memories that kept your full of joy are crushed with all the fake,not wanting too see whats yet to come. life is full of surprises , so i dont want anymore DEAD END ROADS , Empty promises are for daydreamers. i want a life full of true meaning filled with true love , trust , honesty , and friendship. I want a life with some one who can GIVE LIFE a chance who loves me for who i am and someone who will stand by me through it all, and never give up even when were losing.

Girls Never Want A Guy Like This.
I'm sorryThat I was raised with respectnot to sleep with you when you were drunkI'm sorryThat my body's not ripped enoughto "satisfy" your wantsI'm sorrythat I open your car door,and pull out your chair like I was raisedI'm sorryThat I'm not cute enoughto be "your guy"I'm sorryThat I am actually nice;not a bad guy,I'm sorryI don't have a huge bank accountto buy you expensive thingsI'm sorryI like to spend quality nights at homecuddling with you, instead of at a clubI'm sorryThat I am always the one you need to talk to,but never good enough to dateI'm sorryThat I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere,but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friendI'm sorryIf I start not being there, and being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new guy you have comes aroundI'm sorryIf I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours, instead of getting a couple ho

My Sypnosis On Life. This Is Prolly One Of The Best Thing I Ever Came Up With.imo
So here it is my sypnosis on life. I believe that we are put here to experience certain things and no matter who you are in some form or fashion you will experience them. These things being love, and you best believe that before you leave God's blessed Earth you will experience pain. I believe that people are made to be loved, and that things are made to be used. Somehow in this twisted world we get the two confused. We love things and use people. Jesus taught us saying that "... a man's life consist not of the things which he posses..." Now if this is true, then LIFE, which many time we equivalate to HAPPINESS is not our car or our home is not even our mate. Now some may believe that this is happiness, while others perceive happiness to be some euphoric state of mind. I've come to learn that each man (and woman) must find there own source of happiness. Happiness is the external results of internal peace. When a person is at peace within themselves then and only then can

Burning Bridges
hey i did some thinking. after somethin happin to me.. you know alot of people say dont burn bridges. because you will regret it later. well im here saying if you dont burn some bridges. you will regret that. i know this because.i just went threw somethin with my x that i talk about in my other blogs.. well i 4 gave her about a month or so ago. for what she did. to me in the past. well.i never burn the bridge and i should have. because i let her come back in to my life in a way. i let her pour her heart out to me. tell me she missed me etc etc. and she told me alot stuff . and she told me she never stoped loving me. and she always will. and she was telling me she wants to see me so bad but she is scared i wont like her like i once did. and i was scared too but on the other hand i was thinkin i may not like her like i once did either but then i thought she was a girl i was inlove with at one time and that feeling you have never goes away so. i really did not care if

London Was Chilly
I was in London last weekend. The wind whipped right through me at Battersea Park, it was like a cold sharp knife seeking the warmth in my body, so it could slice and dice the heat into fragments to jagged ice through my old blood. Do not go out there people. I saw skinny folk jogging, I felt eternally sorry for them but they probably had better arteries than me, so who am I to judge? I walked down past the Latchmere theatre to find a hairdresser to get my ever present grey roots dyed as they push up through my scalp like persistent weeds. Why can't someone invent a chemical pill that you take which dyes your hair from 'inside' your head and grows out that particular colour? Why can't that happen? University's get funding to write papers on why biscuits go damp in tea or why women don't like slap stick comedy, why can't someone spend cash on the hair dye pill? Anyway I went searching for a hairdresser's and came across one where the woman hairdresser wears a Burka and as much

The Greatest Irony Of Love?
Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right,and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life..... And sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again... For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person... In my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else... Most relationships tend to fail...not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little... As we all know, the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right... Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but t

My Regrets
I regret giving up learning languages because I was bored. I regret losing much my mother tongue. I regret dropping out of my first college because I was 'bored'. I regret knowing some of the people that I know. I regret not being close with either of my parents or my brother. I regret always being stuck in the 'little sister'/friend section when it comes to relationship with males. I regret always feeling like a 'little sister'/friend to most males. I regret pushing away those males who are interested in me. I regret forcing those same males to treat me as a 'little sister'/friend. I regret not being able to approach the ones that I do like. I regret allowing other people to dictate who is suitable for me to like and who isn't. I regret forgetting to charge my toothbrush before I use it. I regret so many things in the past that is so hard/impossible to change for the future.

Were Are The Woman Like This... Fairytale Right It To Good To Be Real
Were Are The Woman Like This... Fairytale Right It To Good To Be Real .. I Want A Girl Like This I want a girl who will love me and not judge me for the things i do nor for the things iv done someone who will love me even when its at my worst i want a girl who knows how to be silly but be serious when needed I want a girl who will always surprise me and hold me when I'm down I want a girl who always thinks of me someone i can always think about i want a girl who can make a promise and keep it without breaking it i want a girl who will love me for what i have who doesn't just want the money or fame i want a girl who i can joke with and not take it so seriously I want a girl who knows how to play run around and just have fun i want a girl who sends me texts just to say i love you and mean it someone who wont just mess with my head i want a girl i can call in the middle of the night just to say i love and i miss you I want a girl i c

A Broken Heart
You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back. My heart was taken by you... broken by you... and now it is in pieces because of you. Love is like falling down... in the end you're left hurt, scarred, and with a memory of it forever. You're the one who broke my heart, you're the reason my world fell apart, you're the one who made me cry, yet I'm still in love with you and I don't know why. A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried, neither would a million tears, I know I've cried. Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet. Sometimes the memories are worth the pain. Sometime you just have to hold your head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye. For a few minutes you made me feel as though I actually meant something to someone. We are afraid to care to much, for

Just Some Stuff I Came Up With
Just Some Stuff I Came Up With “I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.” “The worst thing about getting your heart broken is going to sleep and knowing you're going to wake up and nothing has changed “Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stu

@@@@@@when You Know You Really Like Someone, Here Are Some Signs.@@@
@@@@@@When You Know You Really Like Someone, Here Are Some Signs.@@@@@@@ ......2-12-2010SOMEONE ASKED ME.. WHAT I THOUGHT SO HERE IS MY INPUT..I WROTE A BLOG ABOUT IT SO THE ONE WHO ASKED HERE YOU GO.@@@@@@@When You Know You Really Like Someone, Here Are Some Signs.@@@@@@@ but im also going to give thoughts of what other people may say/think. but that does not make it so.. ****falling*** fast***They are all you think about, from waking up in the morning to sleeping at night.You dream about them.You maybe don't always want to talk to them but me on theother hand i do. but you do want to see them/ be near them.When you see them you get butterflies.You find it hard not to look at them, even in a crowded room.You would feel empty without them.Being away from them for longer than a day is torture.You always smile when around them, and ( even if they don't) you think they are always looking at you.They always look amazing, no matter what. you can't stop blushing.when som

Take A Bow
.. take a bow i'm letting go.. you finally got me.. broke me down.. and totally crushed me.. breathing gets hard.. it's much like a chore.. i wish it would stop.. the pain is too real.. the heart hurts so much.. for any time to heal.... i'm letting go you finally got me. i'm done with this fight.. i'm done with this anger. i'm done with this hurt... i suffer no more. it took me so long .. to get back to good.. and it took but one word.. to rip it apart.. now here i am .. alone in the dark.. i'm letting go.. you finally got me... broke me down... and totally crushed me...

Love Grows, Fades, Dies, Only
Love Grows, Fades, Dies, Only ..In my opinion...Life is too short for confusion, you either do or ya don’t..There’s not a lot for time for the I don’t knows, and the I’m not sure’s... Take a breath and take it easy, life is not supposed to be taken for granted although, I bet everyo*n*ne has more than once in their lives... Love is the most overrused word in the dictionary, I guarentee it..Everybody Loves someone or something...To love and object, is not like loving a person, or at least it shouldn’t be. Love should be something sacred, and should be treated like glass, let go and it could be broken forever...In which it will eventually just be replaced...I mean c’mon who wants broken glass? It’s tricky; that glass...You*e* grasp it too tight and it will shatter beneath you...Leaving you with nothing but empty cuts of pain and anger...Which will eventually drain your soul of all it’s livelihood...Peering at shattere

Love Me Or Hate Me
I still admit to being an asshole I am just less of one now than I was earlier this year. Watching my daughters grow and show daddy how much they love me has changed my aspect of somethings. Still don't care if you love me or hate me I am just going to try and be less rude in the future.

Hate Me
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again? and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? and will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things i didnt do for you Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opin

Proposed New Diagnostic Criteria For Autism Spectrum Disorder
If the physicians involved with developing the new Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5), due out in May 2013, have their way, autism diagnoses will look very different. To begin with, the new DSM will completely get rid of the diagnosis Pervasive Developmental Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (PDD-NOS). Quite honestly, few of us (even those of us with kids who have the diagnosis) will miss this vague, confusing label. Secondly, and more significantly, the new DSM will eradicate the diagnosis of Asperger syndrome. This is a much more controversial move, as people with Asperger syndrome and their loved ones have grown to identify strongly with the term - and many see themselves as having characteristics that are quite distinct from autistic disorder. Thirdly, the new DSM will simplify the criteria for diagnosing autism spectrum disorders to the point where, from where I sit, it seems that half the population could be appropriately diagnosed (de

The Classroom
Class starts out rather tame as I start to teach a rather touchy subject and I notice as students around the room start to blush as I talk about masturbation, though in a very detached and clinical way. Then I spot you in the front row in that very short plaid miniskirt and white short sleeve shirt, half unbuttoned so your black, lacy pushup bra is clearly visible. When you catch me looking, you part your sexy legs, your knee high socks and heels forming a V that makes me look at your smooth pussy and my words catch for a moment and you see me get hard instantly. Your two loose braids hanging down over your shoulders giving you a look of innocence while your smile says you're a very bad girl. After a few more minutes of teasing me like this, I have no choice but to sit behind my desk and have the class continue on their own with their text books. You can tell I'm trying hard to not look at you, but my eyes keep coming back so you decide to tease me further next time I look. I glance u

The Picnic
We load up the car and I put the picnic basket in the back with a wink toyou and a quick warning not to peek. You giggle and brush your hand againstthe front of my jeans, making me gasp as your eyes widen at how hard I am atthe moment. I open the car door for you and you climb in as I walk around tothe driver's side. We drive out to a secluded spot I know of and I noticethat you can't seem to keep your hand out of my lap. By the time we reachour picnic spot, I'm dying to get you stripped down to make love to you. Ipull the basket out of the car and lay down the blanket before pulling youtight against me and kissing you passionately, my hands massaging andcaressing your breasts. We slowly lower ourselves to the blanket withoutbreaking our kiss and one hand slips from inside your shirt to slide downand caress your pussy through your pants. I hear you start moaning and Ismile before pulling your shirt off of you.I reach into the basket and pull out a bottle of chocolate syrup with amische

Home Cumming
You come home from a short trip and find a note from me on the door. "Baby, I'm sorry I can't be here to meet you at the door, but there are a few things I wanted to get done before you got home and, if you're reading this, I haven't quite finished up yet. I've called a babysitter and everything's all set, so if you'd like to take the kids over there, I can give you a proper welcome home while they stay the night. I love you and have missed you terribly." You smile at what my idea of a proper welcome home might be, and take the kids over, kissing them goodbye for the night from both of us. You get back home with a smile on your face, anticipating what I have planned, only to come in and find the house appearing to be empty. You close the door and look around, a little confused, before you notice the rose petals on the floor making a bit of a trail, but leading in an odd direction. You raise your eyebrows, thinking of how interesting the day might be as you follow the rose petals into t

The Birthday
You come home to what appears to be an empty house and wonder if I've forgotten your birthday. On the fridge is a folded note with your name on it in my handwriting. You open it and read, a smile growing on your face as you read what I've written to you. "No, I haven't forgotten your birthday, baby. Getting things together to make it just right for you. Today is all about you and your pleasure. Please go ahead and enjoy a nice hot shower and I'll be with you as soon as I can. I love you, baby. Never forget that.-James" With a grin, you head for the bathroom and slowly remove your clothes as you wonder what I have planned for the day for you. You turn the shower on and step in, letting the water just massage you as it runs over your soft skin and your thoughts turn to more and more naughty images of what kind of night it's going to be. Your hands run over your slippery body as you think and you start to moan as your fingers start to play gently with your nipples. Your eyes close as one

Valentine's Day
You get home from some grocery shopping to find my car gone and you wonder where I'd gone. you come in to put the groceries away and find a note from me on the refrigerator door. "There are some gifts for you on the bed," it says. "Go ahead and open them and be sure to follow the instructions I've left for you. You'll enjoy it, I promise. I love you." You head upstairs and find a couple of boxes waiting for you.You open the box on top to find a pair of black stiletto heels. Setting that box aside, you open the next one to find some very sexy black lingerie. Inside is a note telling you to put on the lingerie, but to not open the next box until you have. You wonder at what I'm up to, but go ahead and put on the half-cup bra that leaves your nipples exposed, the matching garter belt and the thigh-high stockings. You notice that I've neglected to put a pair of panties in the box for you and you wonder again as to what I have planned for this wonderful Valentine's Day. You open the last bo

Billiards
I put the kids to bed and head down to meet you in the basement to play some pool. I come quietly down the wooden steps to see you racking the balls and can't help but stop and stare at your beautiful, sexy body in that short miniskirt and your small tank top. You feel the heat of my stare on you and you turn to look over your shoulder at me, making you look so sensual that I nearly fall down the stairs from my knees going weak. You watch me come down the rest of the stairs in my black, deerskin cowboy boots, my black jeans and nothing else and I can see the love, lust, and passion smoldering in your brown eyes. I approach you slowly, almost like a panther stalking it's prey, and you can see my body trembling with desire for you. I kiss you softly as I try to control myself and we turn our attention to the table.You have me break to get the game started, and I'm so distracted, I do a poor job of it. I hand you the cue and you pick your shot. You turn to me and innocently ask me to help

Happy Tuesday
There he was … right in front of me. I never wanted to wake up from this dream. I had been waiting for this feeling, this excitement for so long. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it would beat out of my chest. We were snuggled together on the balcony of our room overlooking the ocean wrapped up in a soft blanket. Time just stopped. We talked about our hopes, our dreams, what we wanted in life. I was so content to just sit there in his lap with my head on his chest listening to him talk. It was just too good to be true. He picked me up and turned me around so I was facing him. We just sat in silence looking at each other and smiling. I loved how his hands felt on my sides, rubbing my back and touching me softly. I leaned in to kiss him slowly and just stopped in front of his face. Our eye contact was intense. I felt my body react to the connection and I started grinding my hips into him. I felt beads of sweat on my forehead from the overwhelming need of his body. While h

The Horseback Ride
I come in from working in the yard in nothing but my jeans and boots, mychest gleaming in a light sheen of sweat, and I catch your eye as you standby the sink in one of my flannel dress shirts. Just seeing you looking sosexy makes me weak in the knees and I walk over to you, pulling you tightagainst me as I kiss you long, slow, and deep. Your hands slide down mychest and dip into the waistband of my jeans and I gasp at your touch beforebreaking our kiss and walking back out the door. You frown in confusion,grab a very short skirt, and follow me out the door to find out what's goingon. Outside, you find me standing beside a horse that's all saddled andbridled and I gesture for you to mount up. You look down at your clothes theback at me, as if to say, "What are you kidding? I can't ride in this." Isimply smile mischievously at you and say, "Don't worry about it, baby.Climb on up." You look at me doubtfully then hesitantly slip your foot intothe stirrup. I groan as I catch sight of your

The Airport Trilogy
Your plane finally arrives and I stand at the end of the jetway, waiting for you with butterflies in my stomach. I watch as the passengers all leave the plane and I wonder where you are, when I see you coming up at the rear of the crowd. My heart rate increases as you get closer and my jaw drops when I finally get a good look at you. I can't help but stare at your barely there top with your very short skirt. The tops of your black, thigh-high stockings barely covered by the hem of your skirt reveals, barely, the straps of your garter belt. For a moment, I stand rooted to the spot and speechless as my eyes roam over your beautiful body. Then, you leap into my arms, kissing me deeply, and I try to raise my arms to hold you close but I'm stopped as my hand brushes across you and I realize that you aren't wearing panties beneath your skirt. The desire that washes over me makes me forget where I am and who is around us as I lift your shirt and lower my lips to your lovely breast. With no re

Holy Hell That Was Long!
What is the single largest item in your house?MeHow well can you write your name with your non dominant hand? Like a KindergartnerWhat color is your bedroom?WhiteWhat type of computer mouse do you use?The pad thing on the laptopWhat is your earliest memory? A bright lightHave you ever jumped off of a high dive?YepDo you take vitamins?NoWhen did you first become interested in sex?When I was bornDo you like to color inside the lines?SureWhat do you have set as your home page?iGoogleDo you have your own radio?Yup.Where would you hate to have to work?McDonald's.Who is on your speed dial?NobodyDo you prefer lightbulbs or candles?For what purpose?How much money did you spend today?NoneWhat are you sitting on right now? ReclinerDo you look at yourself when you pass by reflective surfaces?Who doesn't?Would you ever get plastic surgery?YesDid you play with shaving cream when you were a kid?SureHow big is your bed?QueenDo you like the smell of axe? Yes!What is your favorite flavor of lifesav

Faker
I get fucking annoyed with how fake some people are. Yeah I understand that its online and you want to show boat about how small your muscle is (HUGE) but it piss me off to no end for people to build themselves up as the real deal or what ever shit people think will get them the most attention. I am on here for one reason to meet new people and have some cool talks with. I dont care if you have a huge cock thats 65 inches long and can make you cum like a porn star or that you can fit 13 hotdogs into your mouth while singing the ABC's. TO me it's more info than i need and or want to know. I don't care if your a fake but also understand that I most likely won't talk with you. I am not a private person but also have boundries about what I let loose on these pages. Cause you might feel like you know this person but the sad reality is you might not (unless it's frinds you have met or married). People keep osting on their profile read this before you do any type of shit. But no man is going

Future Contest Ideas
I'm thinking of holding a huge contest. The prizes may include VIP for a month, ticker, bling, etc etc. It may all go to the winner or I may spread it out. The prizes would be confirmed before the contest starts and when its officially first announced. This way you can decide if you wish to partake or not. I was curious do you think a contest would be better if it was based on a feature (best smile, best eyes, etc) or themed (green bikini for st. patrick's day, best easter basket picture, best spring dress,) I'm kinda stumped for idea.s So feel free to post your thoughts so I can get working on this. Also feel free to sb me or message me your response if you don't want your answer public.

G'evening Readers!
How is everyone. I just tought I'd start this blog. Not sure why just yet. Ideas are coming. Got any Ideas for me? I usually just bitch and complain on these things. Comedically, that is. It's not whining. Gimme a topic and well see what comes of it.

Raven Made Me Do This, And When I Was Done, It Was Too Long To Post In Her Blog, So Blame Her.
What is the single largest item in your house?My couchHow well can you write your name with your non dominant hand?Not at allWhat color is your bedroom?Gray, black, and blueWhat type of computer mouse do you use?LogitechWhat is your earliest memory?Nixon's resignationHave you ever jumped off of a high dive?I dove off a 95 foot cliff... Many times.Do you take vitamins?NoWhen did you first become interested in sex?I'm a GUY! At BIRTH!Do you like to color inside the lines?I make my own lines.What do you have set as your home page?Yahoo.Do you have your own radio?Yup.Where would you hate to have to work?McDonald's.Who is on your speed dial?NobodyDo you prefer lightbulbs or candles?CandlesHow much money did you spend today?I'm about to go to the local farm and spend $5 for two dozen eggs that just came out from under the chickens this AM.What are you sitting on right now?Barstool.Do you look at yourself when you pass by reflective surfaces?Who doesn't?Would you ever get plastic surgery?If I

Very Important Rant
Ok not really but I feel like bitching. Trying to get 4 people to stick to a plan is harder than trying to negotiate multimillion dollar contracts. People (my friends) should let me be in charge of outings. They should just trust that the one thing I know how to do well is have a good time. I really do. I'm a walking, talking, pill popping good time and people should learn to recognize! *chicken neck/finger snap combo* I didn't really need drugs or booze 3 hours ago but now I am willing to walk 10 miles for them. 11.5 miles actually. My horoscope says to reach out to my elders this week. I think my horoscope is being written by a sadistic asshole. Ham and cheese hotpockets are for people with stomachs stronger than mine. I need a shower and a facial. *waits for dirty comments*

A Mother's Blessing
Ensaneti laughed at her daughter when she came running around the corner of the barn witha pair of soft white fangs firmly clamped between her cupid's bow lips. She stopped anddramatically spun in a circle with her arms raised and then lisped around the fake teeth: "I am Indu Solaris, take my hand, come along and listen to my song." Then she marched on the top of the hay bales that stood in front of the feed mangers of the milk cows her mother was tending. "That was wonderful, Indu! And what song is it that you will sing for me today?" Ensaneti ran a soothing hand down the stirring flank of Galleon, the best milker on the farm, and turned on her milking stool so that she could see her ten year old daughter standing in ashaft of sunlight that streamed in through the open barn doors. It pleased her that thecreativity that was so much a part of her and Rory's life - pre-procreation - had beenpassed down to their daughter. She still gave a show, every now and then, for favored towns, b

Empire State Of Mind Lyrics
YeahYeah I'm out that Brooklyn, now I'm down in TribecaRight next to Deniro, but I'll be hood foreverI'm the new Sinatra, and since I made it hereI can make it anywhere, yeah they love me everywhereI used to cop in Harlem, all of my Dominicano'sRight there up on Broadway, pull me back to that McDonald'sTook it to my stashbox, 560 State StrettCatch me in the kitchen like a Simmons with them pastriesCruisin' down 8th Street, off white LexusDrivin' so slow, but BK is from TexasMe, I'm out that Bed-Stuy, home of that boy BiggieNow I live on billboard and I brought my boys with meSay whatup to Ty-Ty, still sippin' mai tai'sSittin' courtside, Knicks & Nets give me high fiveNigga I be Spike'd out, I could trip a refereeTell by my attitude that I'm most definitely from...New YorkConcrete jungle where dreams are made ofThere's nothin' you can't doNow you're in New YorkThese streets will make you feel brand newBig lights will inspire youLet's hear it for New York, New York,New YorkCatch me at th

About Me...random Bullshittery
What is the single largest item in your house?My couchHow well can you write your name with your non dominant hand?Not wellWhat color is your bedroom?White,black and reds mostlyWhat type of computer mouse do you use?LogitechWhat is your earliest memory?My Dad's wolf HopieHave you ever jumped off of a high dive?No effin wayDo you take vitamins?Not in pill formWhen did you first become interested in sex?Ha!!Do you like to color inside the lines?WTF? Im not in grade school FFS!!What do you have set as your home page?MyyyyspaceDo you have your own radio?SureWhere would you hate to have to work?Chuck e cheeseWho is on your speed dial?NobodyDo you prefer lightbulbs or candles?Candles How much money did you spend today?Zero so far but Im bout to go pay a billWhat are you sitting on right now?At my computer desk Dipshit!!Do you look at yourself when you pass by reflective surfaces?Who doesn't?Would you ever get plastic surgery?SureDid you play with shaving cream when you were a kid?Haha yeah g

U&i
The rain so cold pelting against my raw flesh. I cried for him longed to be what i knew we never were. It looked to real through un-pure eyes.. The feeling's were all lies.. It was a holiday we both lost our selfs in a dream of something we both could never have been... I wake up never feeling so alone. I whispered to him the story of my soul. I held his sorrows and embraced there pain.together i thought we'd fight this thing. He whispered to me my hearts desire true love could it be.. he gave to me the thread to bind us as one.. I could not we were never meant to be.. the threads always came unravelled. the words whispered carried further than i could hear.. they landed upon someone elses ear.. I felt his heart beat and shared his air. I loved the feeling of never being there... the roots went dry and a silent ringing filled the air . his eyes were empty hollow we were never really there.. the roses he gave to me wilted away . they stood as a reminder that our love was a facade. sober

A Dark Angel
I lie flat on my back in a trench with no exscape in sight. I can feel him feeding off my fear. I close my eyes and pretend i am not there. My mind is tourtured my soul is beyond repair. This hole is gaping & still no light i can see.. I am one with the unknown . I found comfort waiting there. Arms wide open. I fall into its cold steel hands. Along my flesh it runs spilling me to the floor. as the river began to flow a dark fig appeared b4 me. it is i.. I take the blade from my hands..the only thing i found much peace or comfort in.Now i smear my blood into there after life. no more will they walk free . no more will they blame me. Free i will be! I cried to the king to take this hate from me.. I begged for forgiviness kneeling at his feet.. A great comfort came over me.. I did not have to speak my soul i gave to the.. i turn back into the ground in which i came from i sit and talk a while . our tears of sorrow he wiped away. she is the only one to save me from another day. i kiss her

Box Of Chocolates
This is the third or fourth recipe that I've used from Hello, Cupcake and I loved it. It's simple and adorable! This time I made the "Box of Chocolates".This is just a phone picture...hopefully I'll upload more later.It's mini yellow-butter cake cupcakes with chocolate ganache. I decorated with marshmallow hearts (cut in half so they weren't so thick), juju hearts, white icing, sparkle sugar that I colored red, and cupid mix m&ms. I didn't do the marshmallow step they recommended because the marshmallows were too big for my cupcakes. I think it turned out cute anyway.I bought a Spongebob heart shape box of candies (the only one left, on sale...YAY!) and put the cupcakes in and surrounded them with pink and red jelly bellys.:]

61 Days
As all my dreams turn to ashes I burn myself out on a ciggarette the farther you go the more I love you everyone says i'm a fool but I'm not through loving you yet. I'm the best chance you've never taken opportunity pissed in the wind 61 days I'll taste sorrow 61 days I'm dead again 61 days I'm dead again As I hang myself from this mantle I drown myself in this bottle of tears the harder you push the more I want you all my friends tell me I'm crazy but I'm not through needing you here your the best cheance I've never taken I don't even fit my own skin 61 days and i'll taste troubles 61 days I'm dead again 61 days i'm dead again As I see myself through old pictures I cut myself on memories the more you hide the harder I seek you everyone tells me to give up but baby that just ain't me were the best chance we've never taken why do we fight we just can't win 61 days till I taste freedom 61 days I'm dead again 61 days i'm dead again Copyright 2010 Jeffery S

Tormented
Comfort and consoleWe all do seekNot to distortBe submissive or meek. Looking outThrough a hazeGetting lostLike in a maze. Once, then twiceEmotions did feelBut just illusionsProven not real. Blackened shadowsPiercing dartLusting towardBrand new start. Tormented soulShattered heartHiding withinA colorful art.

Weekend Update
Im sick my son gave me his cold and I could strangle him.. he also informed me that i will be the basketball moms taxi tonight... FUCK ME! It was valentines day.. i hate valentines day Im pregnant still went to the doctor this morning found out im anemic... no wonder i was craving red meat.. Oh and of course my baby was moving so much they couldn't get a heart beat... SHOCKER I want to crawl into bed and die. Our drainage pipe stopped draining and decided to do a reverse in direction and come out the basement instead... I cant do laundry or dishes which poses a not enough maternity clothes problem.. And to top it all off i saw the skinniest pregnant lady who's baby belly looked like a tiny sour dough loaf.. I wanted to feed her chocolate and butter... I have to admit watching the olympics doesn't thrill me, never really has. That is all.. Oh and answering witchies question who's crazier, thank you all for tryign to be polite but i know im the nuttier of the two that is all.

Kari Is Masters
Her beauty goes beyond all I know,Surpassing even a night full of stars.Well past the warmest day of summer,Softer than any rose by far. How God himself made such beauty,Puts me in awe of him.Just to speak of her beauty,For this I have yet to begin. My words cannot do her justice,To be in her presence is a true gift.Just one smile from her,A million hearts it would lift. Today for a momment she gave me a smile,A treasure I will keep forever.Beautiful sweet Kari smile for me again,I have not seen such beauty before or will I ever.

A Day In My Shout Box!...enjoy!
**Peoples names were changed to protect the idenity of those who chat to me My Chat To Everything...: dont worry, im just buying you off your guy all the time to increase your value..you're too cute to be worth less then 500 000 To ♥ɱ§. ḞYNξA...: sorry...not that desperate ♥ɱ§. ḞYNξA...: its a 25 credit bling pack to see To ♥ɱ§. ḞYNξA...: thats nice..im not even allowd to view them SPOHNMAN: oh wow.....a dickhead....now i see why ur an asshole To SPOHNMAN: you answer me in the mumm thank you! SPOHNMAN: why is that?? Wicked Raven: I have been well To Wicked Raven: So how have you been beautiful? KittieCupc...: hung? Wicked Raven: Ahhhh I see! To KittieCupc...: hung n sober KittieCupc...: you? KittieCupc...: broke and drunk. lol To KittieCupc...: how is you sexy? To Wicked Raven: im not suually on here this early..my time...rainning and didnt feel like going to work Wicked Raven: Well hello... how are

How Stupid Are California Cops?
~~~~~~~~Sniplet from FoxNews~~~~~~~~~~~~ Gun rights advocates have a California police detective in their crosshairs after he apparently posted comments on Facebook advocating that "open carry" supporters should be shot. East Palo Alto Police Det. Rod Tuason apparently posted the remarks on his Facebook page in response to a friend's status update, which suggested that gun advocates who carry unloaded weapons openly — which is legal in California — should do so in places like "Oakland, Richmond and East Palo Alto" and not just in "hoity toity" cities. "Haha we had one guy last week try to do it!" Tuason replied. "He got proned out [laid face-down on the ground] and reminded where he was at and that turds will jack him for his gun in a heartbeat!" Several comments later, the detective suggested shooting the gun rights advocates, some of whom have carried firearms openly in recent weeks in California's Bay Area, particularly at Starbucks locations. "Sounds like you had someo

Special Thoughts
Why, Why, Why,Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries arealmost dead?Why do banks charge a fee on 'insufficient funds' when they already knowthere is not enough moneyWhy does someoneBelieve you when you say there are four billion stars; but have to checkwhen you say the paint is still wet?Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw arevolver at him?Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets?Whose idea was it to put an 'S' in the word 'lisp'?If people evolved from apes,Why are there still apes?Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles arealways white?Is there ever a day that mattressesAre not on sale?Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes thatsomething new to eat will have materialized?Why do people keep running over a string a dozen times with their vacuumcleaner, then reach down, pick it up, examine it, then put it down to giv

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WAL MART INTERVIEW Jennifer a manager at Wal-Mart had the task of hiring someoneto fill a job opening. After sorting through a stack of resumes she found four peoplewho were equally qualified. Jennifer decided to call the four in and ask them only onequestion. Their answer would determine which of them would get the job. The day came and as the four sat around the conference roomtable, Jennifer asked, 'What is the fastest thing you know of?' The first man replied, 'A THOUGHT.' It just pops into yourhead. There's no warning. 'That's very good!' replied Jennifer. 'And, now you sir?',she asked the second man. 'Hmmm.....let me see 'A blink! It comes and goes and youdon't know that it ever happened. A BLINK is the fastest thing I know of.' 'Excellent!' said Jennifer. 'The blink of an eye, that's avery popular cliche for speed.' She then turned to the third man, who was contemplating

Those Texans
Gabriel went to the Lord and said, "I have to talk to you. We have some Texans up here who are causing some real problems.... They're swinging on the Pearly Gates, my horn is missing, and they are wearing T-shirts instead of their robes; there's barbecue sauce and picante sauce all over everything, especially their T-shirts; their dogs are riding in the chariots and chasing the sheep. They are wearing baseball caps and cowboy hats instead of their halos.. They refuse to keep the stairway to Heaven clean, and their boots are marking and scuffing up the halls of Wisdom. There are watermelon seeds and tortilla chip crumbs all over the place. Some of them are walking around with just one wing; and they insist on bringing their darn horses with them." The Lord said, "Texans are Texans, Gabriel. Heaven is home to all of my children. If you want to know about real problems, call the Devil." So Gabriel calls the Devil who answers the phone

What's New Pussy Cat? Whoa Whoa Wo Wo Wo:p
I got to admit, this gave me a chuckle.. Funny thing how some stuff amuses me...Welcome to the house of kitty cats... We got Mufasa- orangy long hair cat that when u pick up he's like a rag doll... Old rag dol tiny quiet meeeuu(meow) We got Edgar a.k.a. Baby Girrrs, relative from fat bastard line. Who had a weird meow some times it is "Browl" or "Bow" Then we got the devil incarnated cat, Billi that her meows sounds like she is pissed off at the world, The one who likes leave animal heads(Got to admit haven't seen a chipmunk for a while-- This little ditty is about her I was at the p.c. downstairs after work , in my own little world,, when I heard an awfully strange cat sound... I looked behind me.. Nope.. not Mufasa..muffled...Then all of a sudden Edgar came out of my bedroom fast... as fast as he can do stopped by the furnace room... He was about to go into that room when hissing starts and Edgars Browls louder( Like there is a stranger cat in the house tha

Abbott & Costello
This is TOO good! Yes, this IS what they would do if they were still here! Read on: You have to be old enough to remember Abbott and Costello, and too old to REALLYunderstand computers, to fully appreciate this. For those of us who sometimes get flustered by our computers, please read on... If Bud Abbott and Lou Costello were alive today, their infamous sketch, 'Who's on First?' might have turned out something like this: COSTELLO CALLS TO BUY A COMPUTER FROM ABBOTT ABBOTT: Super Duper computer store. Can I help you? COSTELLO: Thanks, I'm setting up an office in my den and I'm thinking about buying a computer. ABBOTT: Mac? COSTELLO: No, the name's Lou. ABBOTT: Your computer? COSTELLO: I don't own a computer. I want to buy one. ABBOTT: Mac? COSTELLO: I told you, my name's Lou. ABBOTT: What about Windows? COSTELLO: Why? Will it get stuffy in here? ABBOTT: Do you want a computer with Windows? COSTELLO: I don't know. What will I see when I look at the windows? ABBOTT: Wallpaper. COSTEL

Pink....says It So Well.....
PINK LYRICS "U + Ur Hand"Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh ohUh uh uh uh uh uh uh ohCheck it outGoing outOn the late nightLooking tightFeeling niceIt's a Cock fightI can tellI just knowThat it's going downTonightAt the door we don't wait cause we know themAt the bar six shots just beginningThat's when dick head put his hands on meBut you seeI'm not here for your entertainmentYou don't really want to mess with me tonightJust stop and take a secondI was fine before you walked into my lifeCause you know it's overBefore it beganKeep your drink just give me the moneyIt's just you and your hand tonightUh uh uh uh uh uh uh ohUh uh uh uh uh uh uh ohMidnightI'm drunkI don't give a FuckWanna danceBy myselfGuess you're outta luckDon't touchBack upI'm not the oneBuh byeListen up it's just not happeningYou can say what you want to your boyfriendsJust let me have my fun tonightAiightI'm not here for your entertainmentYou don't really want to mess with me tonightJust stop and take a secondI was fine before

Please Help Out A Friend Today With 1 Rate
TERESA IS IN A POINTS CONTEST TO WIN AN A-11 OR BOMB, SHE NEEDS RATES & COMMENTS SO PLEASE DROP BY AND DROP A RATE TO HELP HER OUT THANKS SO MUCH!! SERIOUSLY, HOW MUCH OF YOUR TIME DOES IT TAKE AND WHAT ELSE DO YA HAVE TO DO? I THINK YOU CAN SPARE A FEW SECONDS. THANKS! RATES = 5 POINTS COMMENTS = 1 POINT GRRRRR!!!!! GRRRRRRRR!!!! GRRRRRRRR!!!! PIC LINK WON'T WORK HERE SO PLEASE USE THE ONE I POSTED BELOW IN THE COMMENTS AREA THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!

Together Again Lyrics -i Hate This Time Of Year
There are times when I look above and beyond There are times when I feel your love around me baby I'll never forget my baby I'll never forget you There are times when I look above and beyond There are times when I feel your love around me baby I'll never forget my baby When I feel that I don't belong Draw my strength From the words when you said Hey it's about you baby Look deeper inside you baby Dream about us together again What I want us together again baby I know we'll be together again 'cause Everywhere I go Every smile I see I know you are there Smilin' back at me Dancin' in the moonlight I know you are free 'Cause I can see your star Shinin' down on me Good times we'll share again Makes me wanna dance Say it loud and proud All my love's for you Always been a true angel to me Now above I can't wait for you to wrap your wings around me baby Wrap them around me baby Sometimes hear you whisperin' No more pain No worries will you ever see now baby I'm so happy for my baby Dream about

Morning!
I hate CQ. It sucks, it gives you a lot of time to think about stuff that probably should never be thought of, actually. Lol. I know I bitch about being single, and I know that I'm the only one who can change my current situation, but I'm starting to wonder if there is anyone who can actually put up with my bullcrap! For instance, I talk WAY to much. There are times when MY ears want to bleed from listening to myself for as long as I do. Then let's factor in my indecisiveness. I can NEVER make up my mind about anything. I'm the one who has to get her food to go because she couldn't decide what she wanted when everyone else did. Seriously! I cuss, alot. I don't know why, I guess because the words were always a part of my parents vocabulary...who knows! But nobody wants to take a girl home to meet their parents and the first thing out of her mouth is, "Well, damn, it's for sure shittin' about damn time I met you guys!" =/ I also have a tendency to dwell on the past. Like, the what could'

I'm Done!!!!! I'm Over It!!!!
I am at the point that I can truly say that I am done with guys. It is sad, just as I was letting guys back into my life, I start being used by them or lied to by them, or my favorite they start playing games. Guy A: Turns out he is married with kids. Hello??? I don't play that game. Guy B: Nothing but “Maybe's” and “Probably's.” In my book those two words are only used when you are playing games. Guy C: I get nothing but computer questions from. Yeah I know I am going to school to become a Network Tech, but that is school, when I'm away from it I want to have fun. I'm done, I can't take anymore of this crap. I have no idea why I thought I would try getting with guys again. Hoped it would have all changed from when I was 21/22, but it didn't so I'm calling it quite! Let all the other women in the world deal with the players, lairs, and losers, I don't even want to try to see if the next guy is one of them or not. So I will say my last g

Sorry I Have Not Been Here
Alot has been happening in my life that i hav not been here in awhile,now that i have just ended an 8 yr relationship with a man who i loved and trusted up till now , now i am single again, am i hurt? damn right i am, am i finding someone new? yes it is in the works, but locally not into any long distance relationships, i will try to visit here more often, the times that i have peeked in , alot has changed, some of the people that i used to know and chat with are gone. my health also has been a contributing factor to my absense, i have been having mind splittin migraines since i moved into my own apt, i haved changed my diet to keep my blood pressure down, and my weight is down , but its the migraines then the weird visions or dreams afterward, maybe wolf princess can decipher this , i might of picked up a mental gift or something, i dunno, it would'nt be the first time something strange has happened to me, about a yr ago i had to have a biopsy done on the right side of the che

The Truth About Me
Tell em all I'm on vacation,Say I went to visit friends,That you ain't heard or seen from me in quite a while,When they ask you where I've been,Tell em I'm out on the west coast where it don't ever rain,And that I'm probably doing fine,(Chorus)Just don't tell em I've gone crazy,That I'm still strung out over you,Tell em anything you want to,Just don't tell em all the truth,Yeah don't tell em all the truth,Tell em all I'm out in Vegas,Blowin' every dollar I ever made,Tell em that I must be into something bad for me cause,I sure lost a lot of weight,Tell em I'm out on the road with some old rock and roll band,Living like a gypsy can,(Chorus)The truth is that I'm asking you to lie,And we both know that it ain't right,But if you ever loved me please,Have some mercy on me,Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,Tell em anything you want to,Just don't tell em all the truth,Yeah don't tell em all the truth,I still need you,Yeah that's the truth,I still love you,Baby that's the truth.

Please Help Us Find Paige Marie Brewer
My mother is friends with the mother of this girl and this is the note that she left on facebook concerning the well-being of her daughter Paige...... My 16 yr old daughter Paige Marie Brewer has run away from home. She was living with my mother in Faribault MN to finish high school after my move to the cities. I visited with her Saturday and she showed me a card and bear that was sent to her. She said it was from a 17 yr old she thought was gay and "nothing to worry about". The card was proclaiming his love for her. I told her I didn't approve of her giving out her address on line and would revoke her computer privledges if she continues with that lack of judgement. She mentioned something about a man named Johnathon "The Impaler" Sharkey who thought he was a vampire and had run for governer. I thought it was just someone she was researching because of the Vampire thing, she seems to be enthralled with that lately and I figured it was due to the whole "Twilight" craze. I didn't

Made For Me By Baby Boo---melanie
"Even though I am far from you..I love you with all my strength.Ask the sleepless nights I've spent for you..Ask the miles I've walked for you..Ask the kilometres that my love travels every secondAsk every single drop of tear I've shed for you..Ask every drop of blood that came through my nose..Ask all the days I've gone without eating..Ask every single day since I've known you..how much love I've given you.Not just a gift bought on the eve of Valentine's day and given..My love has been nurtured, cherished and offered to you..I've never made you feel bad on any day..Then try to buy you the next day..I've really given my bestI'm powered by your love Hanaa..And fueled by the belief that we're meant to be. I didn't give you diamonds today though I could.because I'm instead giving you my true loveand all that's mine is yours too..More precious than any diamond in the world is..Swearing on my life to fight for you.What I've given you cannot wear and showYou can only feel and cherish for

Spelling Aguilera And Martha Enchanting
Caroline, long “i”, caring for her dad, A little weird is all right, Shropshire Lad. Twenty-nine with hair of dancing fire, Eagle’s wings, mounting high over all ire. Roller coaster like, the pick the brass ring – William’s eighteen, the once and future king. Aeneid’s author, I’ve learned to like, leads. Unbelievable becomes planting seeds, Let me help, do my best, jump and star-let Spelling Aguilera, filling the Net. The poem I’d written on June twenty-first ten years ago, “Spelling Aguilera” came to me as an icebreaker this morning. It’s from my days when I was looking for meaning everywhere and willing to apply it in sometimes mindless (or what seems to me now mindless) ways, in poetry that I haven’t written as much of lately. That’s a pity. Don’t remember who Caroline is, “A Shropshire Lad” is a collection of poems by A.E. Housman, I’m not sure who or what was twent

A Preview Of The Book I'm Writing
No one knows who made it. The legends differ. Some say it was the Great Old Ones. Others insist nothing less than the Elder Gods could have created it. Some even venture to boldly state that it was the Outer Gods themselves, in their infinite madness, who conceived the notion that their forbidden knowledge be written down for only the most unfortunate and damned of mortal souls to find. No matter what the legends argue, they all agree on the central fact of the Necronomicon: It was never meant for the world of man.It began it’s damned existence as Al Azif. “The Howling of Demons” is the rough translation of it’s christened name, given by Abdul Alhazred, The Mad Arab, hailed as the book’s author. Before anyone could question who or what inspired him to write it, he died a sudden and mysterious death. It was later that a scholar named Theodorus Philetas would translate it into Greek and re-christen it Necronomicon, “The Laws of the Dead.” In the

Fuck The Liar, How Do I Forget
i try not to think about it i try to ignore most days i do great then comes that one terrible night where i want answers i want explination. i wannna forget you i wanna earase you from my mind i wanna live like you never exsisted the pain you cause the issues you stirred. i had a wall up you broke it down just to break me. you complained i was negative to just prove me right. you wondered y i was the way i was and you my friend were the perfect example. i never asked for you to tell me the things you did you did that on your own. i never asked you to sppit out your lies of lovin me that was all your own work and for what. what fuckin enjoyment did you get from it.

If Ur Feelin Down Read This!!!!!!
I really need to talk to ya lord, since the last time we talk the walk has been hard. I know you haven't left me lord but i feel like im alone. I'm a big boy now but i still ain't grown still goin thru it pain & the hurt, soakin up trouble like rain in the dirt an i know only i can stop the rain just the mention of his name, In the name of jesus.

[we're Going To Kenya]
Cuz they've got lions and tigers. Did I already do the thing where I /raged about how much people call me and I'm seriously about 10 calls from disconnecting the fucker? I seriously forgot. On the upshot I just spent... 5 hours on the fucking phone. I had time to post a mumm and cook dinner... and eat while I was on the phone. Love my friends and family, but I'd have about twice as many models completed if I could just ... put everyone on conference call. Maybe I'll retune my bluetooth to my cell since... no one I want to talk to owns a PS3 anymore.God knows I'm on the phone enough. Big things though date... undate?date? ... date? ........undate? date is on for Sunday. This girl is awkward -and- coy at the same time.Totally complicates communication.I should have more face to face time with her. We're going to try and watch three movies this sunday. I think it went Forbidden Fortress... some movie she pickedand Quills. Yeah, not really snuggly movies. I think the next

Couldnt Explain Me Better
Senses Fail Ali For Cody Lyrics I'm giving up all expectationsThat I will live a meaningful lifeI once was filled with inspirationThat lion heart has lost his prideI am not the person that I thought that I would beI keep tripping over the same stepsThe stars aren’t beautifulAdvice is never usefulAnd I still walk the line held tight with my regretsI'd rather die than live like thisI’ve gotta give up giving in“Some people never will go crazy,What horrible lives they must lead.”I'm going to try and paint new sceneryAnd build a window to help me seeI am not the person that I thought that I would beI keep tripping over the same stepsThe stars aren’t beautifulAdvice is never usefulAnd I still walk the line held tight with my regretsI'd rather die than live like thisI’ve gotta give up giving inI have got my eyelids stapled shutI have failed but I'm used to itThe past is just thatIt's a sunken old shipThere will be moments I pretendThat I can raise it up

Lucid Dreamers, Your Time Is Coming.
Dreams are just your mind dealing with the day’s events, right? Nothing paranormal about that; everyone does it. I mean, there are places you visit often in your dreams. A certain house, a shop, a school… But these places are just figments of your imagination, right? Have you ever wondered about these places and the people within them? I know you’re out there, “Lucid Dreamers”. You’re the ones who can control what happens when they dream. You are just beyond that film, that membrane that separates us. Lucid Dreamer, have you ever wondered what that beautiful woman in your dream felt when you suddenly decided you wanted to fuck her? Oh, she seemed willing enough, didn’t she? Have you ever considered that you raped that woman, Lucid Dreamer? That she had no choice but to do everything you willed her to do while her mind watched on in horror? Remember, Lucid Dreamer, all those awful things you have done in your dreams… And c

~you Reap What You Sow~ Very Inspirational & Powerful~
You Reap What You Sow Good morning said a woman as she walked up to the man sitting on ground. The man slowly looked up. This was a woman clearly accustomed to the finer things of life. Her coat was new. She looked like she had never missed a meal in her life. His first thought was that she wanted to make fun of him,like so many others had done before. "Leave me alone," he growled.... To his amazement, the woman continue standing. She was smiling -- "Are you hungry?" she asked. "No," he answered sarcastically. "I've just come from dining with the president. Now go away." The woman's smile became even broader...Suddenly the man felt a gentle hand under his arm. "What are you doing, lady?" the man asked angrily. "I said to leave me alone. Just then a policeman came up. "Is there any problem, ma'am?" he asked.. "No problem here, officer," the woman answered "I'm just trying to get this man to his feet.. Will you help me?" The officer scratched his

Didn't You Know How Much I Loved You?
I remember the way you made love to me Like I was all you'd ever need Did you change your mind Well I didn't change mine Now here I am trying to make sense of it all We were best friends now we don't even talk You broke my heart Ripped my world apart Didn't you know how much I loved you Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby I gave you everything, every part of me Didn't you feel it when I touched you Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby Baby, tell me Didn't you know how much I loved you I can't get you out of my head I still feel you in this bed Left me all alone You couldn't be more gone From falling apart to fighting mad From wanting you back to not giving a damnI've felt it all I've been to the wall Didn't you know how much I loved you Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby I gave you everything, every part of me Didn't you feel it when I touched you Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby Baby, tell me Didn't you know how much I loved you One day justice

Poem 2-15-2010
Several times you have asked me What it is that I am thinking I never really answered Because I was still contemplating I wanted to tell you then What I was thinking inside But I was afraid that if I opened up You will want to run and hide Yet, here my thoughts I chance to spill With the hope that you may see That I am not a complex being Just a simple girl, that's me Just being around you Brings a smile to my face One that's been gone for so long, I thought no man could replace. When I look into your eyes A million words to say to you drift through my mind But with unfamiliar emotions swirling within The formation of sentences I cannot seem to find Your presence is ever so captivating I love to listen to you speak And each story that you tell Makes me see you're so unique

What Kind Of Horror Movie Are You?
You Are a Satanic Horror Movie There's no one scarier than the devil, and even just thinking about him (or her???) makes you shiver. You are obsessed with the idea of evil, and unlike your typical horror movie, the devil isn't someone you can just kill at the end. Even if you aren't religious now, it's likely that you come from a religious background and still think of the world in those terms. Your favorite movies explore the idea of satanic influence... stuff like Rosemary's Baby, The Omen, and the Exorcist. What Kind of Horror Movie Are You? Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

How Do Men See You?
Men See You As Understated You are an intriguing mix of girl and woman. You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men. Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you. You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well How Do Men See You? Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

Head Scientist Admits Global Warming A Hoax!
The head honcho of global warming has admitted that it was a hoax all along. Dr. Phil Jones of the University of east Anglia even said the world might have been warmer in medieval times. Holy hot summer Batman, man and cars are not destroying the earth like we were lead to believe. Where does that leave science as a legitimate profession? No where. You can’t even trust guys in white coats anymore. I vote for global warming anyway. It’s been to snowy and cold this winter. Click for more global warming hoax http://www.foxnews.com/scitech/2010/02/15/global-warming-insignificant-years-admits-uks-climate-scientist/?test=latestnews BlastFM plays some hot rocks 24/7. Check it out. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

What Aphrodisiac Are You?
You Are Vanilla You are incredibly sexy and sensual - yet still sweet and innocent. You have an exotic, mysterious vibe. You leave people wanting to know more. You know how to make lovers relax, calm down, and be vulnerable. You draw people in and make them addicted to you. You're a lot more potent than people think. What Aphrodisiac Are You? Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

What Is Love? (not The Song)
What is love?? Now n days i believe its just a word that mean "Hey I like you a lot, lets have sex"! Back when a person told another person that they loved them they would literally be devoted to that person for life but in today's fucked up society the word "love" is thrown around like the word "the", Common people! I know people after a month of dating are already throwing the "L" word around like an angry wife throwing house objects at her husband! Yeah i know that's a lot, really people..really! Have we forgot what that word even means? What it even symbolizes as? YES WE HAVE!! There is a difference between love and lust and now in days people are confusing them, way to go fuck tards! Ive been in love before, true love and i don't know if that person was in love with me as much as i him but i am one of the few who know the difference between both! When you wake up every morning with nothing on your mind besides that certain someone and instantly you start smiling, when you get the

Attention Seeking Whores
Ah yes, we all know who these people are! Hell some of you might be this person, but I have had my share of Attention seeking whores that I decided that it would be a good time to write about them! We all have encountered these little bastards at least one time in our lives, they are impossible to forget! The people who lie about outrageously impossible things to get people to focus all there immediate attention on them, such as “I was walking down the street and I saved a baby from a burning house!”. Hmm…okay superman keep telling people that story and maybe one day someone will believe you, I have faith! Or better yet the people that make up stories that is somewhat believable, such as getting shot point blank and not having any physical marks of it or have had to go to the hospital! Better yet talking about how they almost die on a daily basis. Those people are the ones that really crack me up! They have to make everything in there everyday life a tragedy so that

What Kind Of Book Are You?
You Are Humor You love to laugh at life, and if possible, get others to laugh along with you. You believe there's always a humorous side to everything. And your sense of humor ranges from upbeat to very dark. You are outrageous and very honest. You're often the only one willing to say what everyone else is thinking. You are witty and verbally talented. You like to play with words and say things in interesting ways. What Kind of Book Are You? Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

Which Of The Seven Dwarfs Are You?
You Are Sleepy You are an easy-going, relaxed person. You don't have a care in the world, and you find it easy to nod off anytime. People enjoy being around you. You are a complete natural, and you always act however you feel. Despite what people may think, you don't have a lazy bone in your body. You are a very hard worker. When work needs to be done, you'll work your hardest. That's why you're so sleepy at the end of the day! Which of the Seven Dwarfs Are You? Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

Often So Loud
It seems myspace does not wish for me to post certain document's. Often it is so loud, it is an afront to me and others. Someone came to look to give me an estimate. One mistake, bedroom. He said to me your going to make this attic into a bedroom. I never told him what I was doing and he nver asked but just blurted it out. Ya think he and others read my crap here and over yonder? Sleep well? Norio

Whimsical Creature
walking in the freshly falling snow, enjoying the look and feel of it as it dances whimsically to a music not heard by humans...the light of the moon and the lamps lit in the night glint off each flake enchanting, enticing, inviting me to linger in the brisk cold...entranced i stop and stare in wonderment at the simple beauty before me...the nighttime winter ground dazzling with the spark and twinkle of each newly fallen flake

The Personbehind The Mask
I know I may be young but I have been through so much that it isn't funny. Some things good others bad and things someone should never have to go through. I was 8 years-old when my parents got a divorce, I have a sister and a brother. My mom had a hard time raising us by herself because my realy dad was an alcoholic and didn't take care of us at all. My mom met a guy that she thought was nice and they have been married for almost 3 years. He has lived with my family for 6 years and the entire time has told all of us that we were worthless, stupid, bitches, and horrible children. I have had a rough time losing my dad because I loved him, and I soon became very depressed. After years of taking verbal abuse my mom this year had said I think I am going to divorce your stepdad because I want you guys to come and visit. I broke down and cried, to know my mom really did love me because she had never stood up like that before she let him hurt us for years. I was happy but now he is still ther

One Artist
Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. Do this if you like. Pick a band that has a lot of songs. My Artist:Three Doors DownAre you a male or female?Story of a GirlDescribe yourself:She Don't Want the WorldHow do you feel:RunawayDescribe where you currently live:Away From The SunIf you could go anywhere, where would you go:Better LifeYour favorite form of transportation:TrainYour bestfriend:By My SideYou and your best friends:Dangerous GameWhat's the weather like:Going Down in FlamesFavorite time of day:These DaysIf your life was a TV show, what would it be called:The Road I'm OnWhat is life to you:Life On My OwnYour current relationship:Right Where I Belong Your fear(s): It's Not My Time Thought for the Day:Be SomebodyHow I would like to die:Here Without YouMy soul's present condition:Not EnoughMost Faithful Companion:My WorldMy motto: It's The Only One You've Got

"life Goes On"
Take The Good With The Bad,Smile With The Sad,Love What You Got And Remember What You Had,Learn To Forgive But Never Forget Learn From Your Mistakes But Never Regret,People Change,Things Go Wrong But Always Remember "LIFE GOES ON"

Go Away!
GO AWAY LOVE DO NOT BOTHER ME THOUGH YOU'VE KNOCKED ME DOWN SOMEHOW IVE LANDED ON MY FEET GO AWAY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NOT STAY YOU STICK AROUND FOR A WHILE BUT DISAPPEAR ALWAYS GO AWAY LOVE, O ENEMY OF MINE YOU SEEK TO MAKE ME SUFFER WITHOUT REASON OR RHYME

What You Are
YOU'RE A LIAR, YOU'RE A CHEAT THOSE SWEET NOTHINGS YOU SAY SHOULD ROT YOUR TEETH YOU'RE AN IMPOSTOR, YOU'RE A FAKE ANY PROMISED MADE YOU ARE SURE TO BREAK YOU'RE A CON-ARTIST, YOURE A CROOK STEALING HEARTS WITH EVERY LOOK YOU'RE A SNAKE, YOU'RE A WEASEL DEPICTING HEARTBREAK AT LOVE'S EASEL.

Ranting
ok.. just ranting about nothing important and blowin off a lil steam. dunno.. its just one of those days. seem to be running into a lot ppl that don't really listen to what anyone else is trying to say but like i put in the caption are just tuning you out till they can sneak a chance to start speaking what they want to say. if i can stand there and listen to you speak for five minutes straight w/out coming to a point then at least do me the common courtesy of letting me have a few seconds to give u a response. no i'm not sayin that every thing ppl say to eachother has to be all proper like but damn.... lately it seems that if i almost have to be rude to ppl unless i want to hear them drone on and on for ten minutes w/out coming to any semblence of a point and when i try to respond i get cut off like i wasn't speaking before i get three words out. lil common courtesy is all i'm askin.

Attention Fu-guys
ATTENTION ALL MY FU-GUYS!! in lue of my recent divorce i wanna c which of u fuboys measure up. check out my "tools of the trade" folder, pick the tool that u would like 2 use, place that tool next 2 your tool snap a pic & send it 2 me via email plz....... i dont just wanna c a pic of ur junk clearly i can do that just by clicking on most of ur sites.....there 5 4 suggested opttions provided 4 u u may also use a bottle or anything else u think might help me put sum kinda round about guess 2. it doesnt matter if its big or small hard or limp its just been a long time 4 me im really sad right now & i could really use a pick me up....no pun intended oh & do me a BIG favore dont just leave me a comment saying how it measures up or ask me if i wanna c it on cam....i think i've been pretty clear about what im wanting oh also as a lil added insentive i will open up my nsfw folder 2 u 4 a bit par my request....hope 2 c u all soon send pix 2 mistress_anival@yahoo.com thank u & have a great

Air Is The Detached Mental Element; In Keeping With Its Position As Traditional Opposition
Air is one of the light elements. This means that it is not necessarily involved with anything physically present, and, as it happens, air prefers it that way. This element is distant, thoughtful, reflective. This is the element of the mind, of rationality, of pure logic. It keeps its distance from things so as to consider them better; this gives it a unique sense of perspective. On the other hand, air is often an outsider. It is generally not involved in what happens, it is merely an observer. Occasionally, it will get engaged in a purely intellectual sense, without the deep emotional or physical commitment that personalities of other types look for. After a time, air will sort of drift off, having completed its prime Ñ mental Ñ responsibilities. Additionally, air cannot be confronted directly. This is like trying to attack the wind Ñ it does not work. Air will either have a range of perfectly logical defenses against a direct confrontation, or it will simply back off, us

Read This!!!
I spent the summer between my 2nd and 3rd year of college suckling on the parental teat in South Florida. It was the absolute prime of my "do anything to get laid" phase. I was recently freed from a 4-year long-distance relationship that began in high school and I wanted nothing more than to have sex with as many girls as possible. Most of the things I did that summer are not story-worthy; you can only tell the same, "I got drunk on Dom and fucked this hottie" story so many times before it gets annoying. That summer I experienced every random sex situation that a 20 year old can imagine: fucking on the beach, getting head from random girls in club bathrooms, sleeping with 3 different girls in a day, getting so drunk I passed out during sex, getting arrested for receiving fellatio in the pool at the Delano, blah, blah, blah...Jesus. What does it say about how fucked up my life is that I don't consider these stories to be extraordinary anymore? Anyway, while most of my stories may no

Dinner
So this year I decided to make dinner myself instead of going out. Still had the intimate setting, low light, candles, etc... I made for her: Steak marinated for three days, Mahi Mahi, roasted red potatoes, and vegetables. I made the same thing for myself only chicken instead of Mahi Mahi since I don't eat seafood. It was bangin, now I only wish I had a real kitchen and nice pots and pans to work with.

Chosen One
Chosen One (R.I.P) ‘Nothing is heavy to those who have wings’ Of all the words I’ve tried to write To express my thoughts and feelings The ones in your remembrance To try to start the healing Are proving the most difficult No matter how I try I think about the laughs we had And soon enough I cry So here is my best effort I hope I do you proud You were a rare enigma Would stand out amongst the crowd Always one for laughter The cheekiest of guys The life and soul of the party With no tolerance for lies As passionate as any And faithful to the last Tell tales of your adventures All chances you would grasp For experiencing new feelings And making the most of life Always to be found laughing Causing playful strife For you my friend were Chosen To be a friend of mine And I will remember always Our memories over time It’s not for me to understand Why it was time to go You have been with me always And your absence won’t

Macarena By Los Del Rio
Oh, oh, oh Ha ha ha ha ha... I am not trying to seduce you When I dance they call me Macarena And the boys they say que soy buena They all want me, they can't have me So they all come and dance beside me Move with me, chant with me And if you're good I'll take you home with me 1) Dale a tu cuerpo alegria Macarena Que tu cuerpo es pa' darle alegria y cosa buena Dale a tu cuerpo alegria, Macarena Hey, Macarena (rpt 1) Now don't you worry about my boyfriend He's a boy who's name is Vittorino I don't want him, couldn't stand him He was no good so I ... ha ha ha Now come on, what was I supposed to do? He was out of town and his two friends were sooo fine (rpt 1, 1) I am not trying to seduce you Macarena, Macarena... (rpt 1, 1) Come and find me, my name is Macarena I'm always at the party Con las chicas que estan buenas Come join me, dance with me And all you fellows chant along with me (rpt 1, 1, 1, 1, 1)

Fu Ownership
Im not sure what most people do when they own someone on here as each person has their own personal limitations Financially Im not able to buy bling and all that crap and prolly wouldnt even if i could. I will not buy anyone that has not bothered to ever say "hi" to me or that I do not care to say "hi" to. Heres some of the things I do for my "pets" (fuownees): 1. I will try to keep ur buzz meter full. 2. I will try to keep at least 1/2 ur pics..if not all (depending on how many u have) rated. 3. I will leave u comments when I can. 4. If u are close to leveling I will try to help u out. As a "pet" in good standing I try to mantain at least some form of convo, even if its only through the gifts n drinks I set or through messages. Those that can peak my interest could then be added to my family list, allowing for a whole new set of perks. Those on my family list have the right to use the SB to talk to me and they have the right to view n rate any family only pics I might put up as

Bike Week In Daytona Beach!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey Gang it's Greg Lee! Start making plans for the summer!! It's gonna be WET AND WILD!!!! GL Entertainment Group and the Oasis Tiki Bar and Grill PresentsBIKE WEEK DAYTONA 2010!!!! Feb 26th thru March 7thdoors open at 11am 18 and up FREE 21 to DRINKFountain Beach Resort313 S. Atlantic Ave.Daytona Beach, FL Kick off BIKE WEEK with Greg Lee. There will be special events and contests. BIKER Bikini Contest, Beer Drinking Contest, Beer Pong Tournaments and Live Music all day long. There will be after hours party in the Bar with Karaoke and more. $2.00 Drafts $2.50 Bottles well and shot specials all week long!!!! PRIZES AND GIVEAWAYS!!!!!!

You Will Always Have A Friend In Me
People go everyday not knowing what they may lose... Not knowing if that day someone will bring them bad news... I’ve known many in my life that have been through heartache, Scared from the nightmare they may never awake... I know you have been through a lot and I am here to hold your hand... Through all the trials life has in store, by your side I shall stand. Although I can’t erase the scars, I hope to help them fade. Don’t forget all the good memories, all the smiles you have made. I know it’s hard to say goodbye, to finally let them go. Missing them and praying that they know. I know it’s hard to lose someone to know they are no longer here. To wake every morning having to face a terrible new fear... I promise to lift you up whenever you are down... I will place a smile on your face whenever there’s a frown... I love you unconditionally you are my very best friend... All the pieces to your broken heart I will do my best to mend... Lives are lost daily, I know it isn

With All My Heart
I never really believed, In this whole "LOVE" thing, But when I first saw your face, I could hear my heart sing. That sweet smile on your face, The gentle look in your eye, Just one look at you, And I could hear myself sigh. I gathered my courage, And walked right up to you, From that day foward, I knew it was true. We just started out as friends, And talking on the phone and computer, But I couldn't take it anymore, So I let my true feelings be shown. I told you how I really felt, The love I had for you, My worst fear was you'd turn away, But that turned out not to be true. You told me you felt the same, But had the same fear as me, From that day foward, We knew it was meant to be. I hope we'll always be together, And things will never tear us apart, I'd also like to remind you, That I love you with all my heart. This is dedicated to my man and he knows who he is Written by: M David

My True Love
The first time I saw him, my heart turned on fire. My body was filled, with lust and desire. His eyes pierced my soul, I fell to the ground. In my mind I knew, that my love was bound. His eyes was so sparkling, his touch so divine. From that moment on I wished he was mine. When I’m all alone, out in the night. He comes along, and finds the light. When I am sad, and life’s no fun. He will be there to be my sun. In every moment, of my life. I always wish, he was my husband. After this is said, you maybe know. That this special man, is my true love. Written by: M David

A Peom Caused From A Broken Heart
You Will Be Cut The sun rises from east to west never knowing where its gonna end up next.The clouds in the sky move slowly up high.The movements of the ocean are clam an steady always perpared an ready.Wish i could say the same aobut life but I cant cause life is like a double edge knife cutting into you with both sides.An the faster you struggle to take it out the faster you start to lose your breath an slouch.Sitting alone on your couch trying to bring words of pain up out of your mouth.But the harder you try to speak the less you start to see.Next thing you know you cant hear an all you smell is fear.Then comes these tears cause your trying so hard to fight back the Fears Of Life.An all of a sudden you stop fighting an give up just let go of everything including life.An all because of that double edge knife.Thanx for reading my poems yallz plz leave me some comments if you like em!!! Thanx yallz by Sane aka TravisBe Eazy Yallz

A Special Birthday In The House
DID YOU KNOW THERE'S A BIRTHDAY IN THE HOUSE THIS WEEK, FEBRUARY 16th!!! IT'S NOT JUST ANY BIRTHDAY EITHER, IT'S AN ANGEL'S BIRTHDAY. AUTO-11s. BLING PACKS. BLING GIFTS, HAPPY HOUR* GIFTS, BLAST GIFTS, FUBUCK GIFTS, CARDS, AND PROFILE COMMENTS NOW BEING ACCEPTED. IF YOU SEND BLING 10PK or HIGHER, AN AUTO 11 OR A HAPPY HOUR, I WILL TAKE THE TIME TO DO SOME VERY SPECIAL THINGS FOR YOU IN RETURN. NO MATTER WHAT YOU SEND, WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE, MY BIG THANK YOU WILL GO OUT TO ALL! I APPRECIATE ALL GIFTS. TVM FOR ALL GIFTS PAST AND PRESENT! ~THE BOOMBASTIC PRINCESS LEIA! ~/~ Princess Leia~/~Please leave me love!~

Behind The Scenes Of A Strip Club....(the Truth About What Happens In Dressing Room &champine Room Etc)
Ok i wanted to do a blog on this because i see women worry about thier men , i see people have a cerian idea about dancers etc So im going to tell you how it is behind the glitz and stage etc....ok Well frist of all , dancers are not just doing it to get thru school most of the time start out that way but the money gets to easy so you tend to forget about .... since you make more then a doctor and etc anyways ...thats also the reson its so hard for a dancer to stop its hard to go back to making a regular salarly ....Dont get me wrong , Some dancers actually ethier have 2 jobs some good jobs .. some are going to school.... some are also models some actually were dotors well known in there country then came over her and lacked the schooling they need to be one here ...Some are single mothers , Some are married , Some are Lezs, some hate men , some just like the easy money but.... what goes on in the dressing room:well see dancers are normal chicks no there not sexually charged chicks

Conflicted
I feel like either the shittiest person in the world right now, or the dumbest. Neither title I wish to have, but I have one of them. I'm just not sure which one. I broke up with Matt. On a voicemail. A fucking voicemail. How cheap is that? How pathetic is that? I know I had no other way of doing it. It's not like he'd answer his phone or lives here. But I feel awful. I feel broken. Either I'm getting played like a fiddle, or I just added to his pain... And I know he's been gone for a month, but I get it. I know nobody else does, but I do. When Donnie broke up with me and called off our engagement the day after Christmas, I fell apart. And not because of that; because of everything that I kept built up inside of me over the last million years. I crashed. I took a 2.5 month break from life. The only people I talked to or saw were my parents and my psychologist and psychiatrist. I refused to answer texts, voicemails, emails, shit on Fubar or Facebook. I shut down completely and I didn

10 Things About Me.
I am a hopeless flirt with EVERYONE. 9. I am a people person. 8. I do get upset if I think I hurt your feelings. 7. I love the word fuck a lot! 6. I work a lot. 5. I am getting better with compliments. 4. I can be very OCD and Random 3. I tend to be a comment whore and smart ass. 2. I have the biggest heart ever, yet I am no fool. 1. I am like no other you will ever meet.

Queen Of Random
If I asked you ….would you Just sit awhile and not say a word? Be my friend and expect nothing in return? Keep a secret even if I upset you? Lend a shoulder if I needed to cry? Tell me if I hurt you even if it hurt to tell I did so? Walk away and never say a word? Tell me as often and in a manner you’re comfortable with what I mean to you? Laugh with me not at me? Love me unconditionally?

2010 Is The Year Of The Metal White Tiger
from http://www.theholidayspot.com/chinese_new_year/ Chinese New Year starts with the New Moon on the first day of the new year and ends on the full moon 15 days later. The 15th day of the new year is called the Lantern Festival, which is celebrated at night with lantern displays and children carrying lanterns in a parade. The Chinese calendar is based on a combination of lunar and solar movements. The lunar cycle is about 29.5 days. In order to "catch up" with the solar calendar the Chinese insert an extra month once every few years (seven years out of a 19-yearcycle). This is the same as adding an extra day on leap year. This is why, according to the solar calendar, the Chinese New Year falls on a different date each year. New Year's Eve and New Year's Day are celebrated as a family affair, a time of reunion and thanksgiving. The celebration was traditionally highlighted with a religious ceremony given in honor of Heaven and Earth, the gods of the household and the family ancestors.

Fu Means Luck In Chinese.. So You're Either Good Fu Or Bad Fu..
Fu - the Chinese word for 'luck' Fu is a lucky word. It is very easy to say it. Around the Chinese New Year, people often put up a poster with this word on it - upside down! It's the only time when a Chinese word is posted upside down intentionally. Like this. How do you write it? It's not hard. Just follow the order and write it stroke by stroke. It is not necessary to write with a brush. You can use a pencil or ball-point pen. As a matter of fact, 99% of the time the Chinese write with a pen like everyone else. from /www.chinapage.com/word/luck.html>china page

Strengths And Weaknesses
What are Yours? Lets get to know a little of each other here... What are your strengths.... within the game ...within Yourself? What are your weaknesses...within the game ... within Yourself? What can we do as a team and family to make ourselves stronger ?

Twisted Thoughts
Should all these thoughts be in my head what if i acted on them what would happen if those thoughts were actually said I know feelings would be hurt lives would change How do i get around these things How do deal with all the lies The lies that have been fead all the games that have been played Everything in my mind is spinning Now i lay here in bed wondering when this all will end when will i see the person i know i am i know hes in there somewhere i know these thoughts will subside i just hope it all happens soon and i hope i find myself before its too late before my whole world is dead

Poem 2
Take my hand Lead the way Tell me all You want to say Whisper softly In my ear All those things I yearn to hear Kiss my lips Touch my skin Bring out passions Hidden deep within Pull me close Draw my body near Your gentle touch upon my skin Will take away any fear

Sext Butt Salutes
Hi all, im running a sexy butt salute contest, its open to both male, female and cpls butts, lol First prize is 5 million in fubuk, if i get more then 50 entries it will go up to 10 million fubuk, so start sending me your butt salutes and lets get this party started

Desecration Annihilation
For the women who have been beaten and bruisedfor those left hurting from all the abuse This is our standOur lifeblood No longer will we be pushed aroundNo longer will we be used We will not tolerate the hateWe will not let you make us feel this way To the men who hurt us to find releasethe men who bring us to our knees You're power is not found in the force of your handCausing me pain doesn't make you a man You mistook our love for weaknessOur trust for acceptance But that love has been removed for strengthAnd the trust turned to determination Your malevolance will not be toleratedOur offenses will be justified I will not sit here allowing you to hurt meI wont let you break me I am not weakI will not go down quietlyEven if I dieStill you will not own me You can't take my lifeIt's mine to liveMy heart and soulThey are mine to give

Grrrr!!!!!!
I was at IHOP with the boyfriend a few nights ago and the Talking Heads song, "once in a lifetime" came on. I know they used the song in a movie, during a part where they skipped over time. However, I can't think of the damn movie. Someone help me out!!!

My Way Or The Highway....
I'm thoroughly estatic Valentines is finally over.... My friends are awesome all txting me Happy V day and crap. I got myself a new necklace and a puppy. I'm soo good to me lol. Things are were going some what nice for me till about 5 yesterday this guy I know decided to ask me to come over and hang out. Not go to the movies or dinner but to go to his place. I was ok with it at first and explained I have a new puppy so all my time off whenever possible I have to have him with me. The guy is like what you can't have anytime to yourself by yourself. I'm thinking um if i'm with you i'm not by myself. ... Mind you not even 20 mins before this conversation he was just telling me how much he loves dogs. How in the world can you love dogs so much but want me to leave my 6wk old pup behind just to "hang out".... Seriously I told him I'm going home to play with puppy feet and I'll catch up to him another time. Then i'm like wondering was I a last resort? What the hell. Why can't I have

Butthurt: A Fubar Short Story
2nd Alarm Hottie posts a MuMM: "Ok, mummers, they say good guys finish last…I say good girls finish last. I’m tired of getting screwed over and in honor of Valentine’s Day I’m considering turning in my halo and going wicked bad. What do you think?" A female MuMMer responded: "Funny thing... You are the one that choses these men that break your heart! Think about it! By going bad to you mean being a cock tease or a whore?" 2nd Alarm Reply: "Men? No. One man I was married way to long for there to be men..lol. I meant neither. Guys do like bitches...same as Girls like the bad boys they think they can change..or the one that arent really "that" bad." My comment on that: "Guys like bitches?Ummm that would be a NO." So an undetermined amount of time elapses and I'm uploading pics when I get this in my shout box. It's of course the 2nd Alarm Hottie: "Its been my experience..and not that ive had alot, since I was married at the age of 18 until I was 38 that

My Life My World I Love You So Very Much
YOU&ME Your words spoken so sweetly. The way you know how to make me feel Just the sound of your voice, Makes me want to complete all my dreams You've changed my whole point on life, And turned it into something with meaning You made me realized that not all men are the same. Just when i wasn't looking, You came into my life, You picked up my broken world and put it whole again, I wasn't even looking for a man but there was something I liked about you that opend my heart back up and now I'm for ever yours!

Retropeace
Ive watched the different waves of disposition represented in the bartab today, ranging from the content, to the elated, to the opportunistic, to the contemptuous, to the down right wretched and gnashing. And I realized that I had my ideas pretty much all along, but it was really reconfirming as to just how much disfunction resides in this place, often masked by portraying a very hardcore and inpenetrable persona. I likened it to somewhat like your birthday per se, whereas you may say "eh, Im not planning on doing anything, no big deal", but yet at some point when the day arrives, it gets under your skin a bit, thinking that you should be doing something significant, or that someone else should have took the initiative, etc, and it either overcomes you with reflection or you quickly get past it. Ive watched that very transition today, repeatedly. Ive watched it go from nonchalant to literally boiling out. They want ppl to see how they feel about it, else they would just log out as t

Horny
All I could think of was she looked even better in person. Face like a doll, body of my dreams, and eyes that make your heart stop. We smiled and hugged, she felt so good in my arms, so soft and warm. She smelled wonderful, good enough to eat. She looked up at me and I leaned in and kissed her. Her full wonderful lips felt so good. We kissed softly at first then slowly deeper, I could taste her now, our tongues danced together. I felt her hips push into me and her amazing breasts smash into my body. We knew right away we needed some privacy. We walked away thinking the same thing. Along the way we slipped into a deserted alleyway. I pulled her close and kissed her hard, my hands moving over her ass cheeks in big circles pulling them apart then pushing them together. I kissed the side of her neck just under her ear and traced my way down. “ I want you so bad “ I whisper. She lets out a low moan. My fingers trace there way down between her cheeks and feel her warmth, its damp

Help Meeee!!!
Okay, so heres the story I met an AMAZING person last year and I immidiatly fell in love, like, we're a perfect match. we like the same things, we've both been out of the country we're into the same things, its just scary how alike we are. The thing is... is .. I dont think he shares the same feelings I do, I mean, like, he created a fake girlfriend on facebook, it just seems weird that he would do that, but hey, whatever floats your boat. But like when ever we're together we're flirtin like crazy and wrestling and just being lovey dovey.. I really really like him.. FUCK THAT. I LOVE HIM =[. I just cant do this anymore, I want to tell him how I feel, but I'm afraid I'll scare him away, what should I do. I'm so confused. I messaged him on Facebook basically telling him that I loved him but I used another person to blame my love on (I said I was in love with my best friend (which is him but I said it was someone else)). I honestly dont know what I would do without him, when I'm in s

Fumafia
So I figured I'd post something about this because Scrapper was doing a little censoring of me. Here's the full story: People have been bitching about the mercs non stop, why? BECAUSE THEY WERE A STUPID IDEA IN THE FIRST PLACE. In an attempt to silence the naysayers, because the staff on this site doesn't want to give up their cash cow, the bitching section was created in Scrapper's blog. Eh ok whatever, but the thing is, Scrapper is allowing the flamers/cheaters/whatever you want to call them to run said blog section. He allows them to attack the people there, who had their CONSTRUCTIVE ideas moved from the other sections, and if the people fight back and put the losers in their place, the post isn't approved. I flat out called out this douchebag, EVIL J, and asked him if he had a life outside of the game...oh wait that was one of the Scrapper ass kissers so my post wasn't approved. What a big surprise. This dbag thought he was winning because he had this obsession with hitlis

Happy Valentines Day!!! Did You Have A Good Day I Did
my Valentine is the best got my nails done and 12 rose i love my man. he told me if he had more money. he would by me a ring i told him .i am happy to have you in my life you do not need to go all out like this .i am not a gold digger C&J 4 ever!!! tell me about yours?

Stripper Song
What Song Should You Strip To? Your Song Is Super Freak "That girl is pretty wild now The girl's a super freak The kind of girl you read about In new-wave magazine" Freaky? Yes. But you're also pretty darn funny. Click the link at the beginning and take the survey then post the results in here!

Empty Soul
My heart is openMy heart is bleedingI feel the pulse I can hear the beating But the emptiness insideSwallows me wholeFeeling lost inside myselfWith no where to go Hating what I've becomePushing the pain awayMore like a quiet monsterI become each day Wishing I could tear into myselfPull out my own heartWould I feel any differentIf I were farther apart? Wanting to remove myselffrom the source of my feelingHating the emotionsthe pain leaving me reeling I scream out within myselfCovering my ears from the noiseThe pain breaking apart my insidesTearing me from the inside out I claw myself to try and ease the painScratches cover meI'm bleeding outEmptying my heart in vain

10 Things About Me That You Dont Know
Here are ten things about my you didnt or did know 1. I am a good Friend 2. I am careing 3. I am opened minded 4. I am expermental 5. I am honest 6. I am Protective when the times are needed 7. I Can Keep Your Personal Secrets that you tell Me inside of me like Vault 8. I look threw other peoples prospectives before acting out or saying anythinf 9. I like Goth Chicks ( and for the people who wanna lable me cuz i like something different PISS OFF)10. I have an odd stress reliver wich is being bittin on the neck it can be with fangs or with out fangs i perfer with there you go

3d Porn? New Sensations Sez, 'why Wait?'
Octopussy was certainly one of the worst James Bond movies ever made, even with Maud Adams as the female lead and Kristina Wayborn as her No. 1 assistant-which only made it that much more ripe for parody. And who better to give it a shot than New Sensations, which scored three Best Parody noms going into the 2010 AVN Awards show? But the scions at NS have taken this parody to the next level: It's in 3D! "We've teamed up with a company called Funky Monkey Media; they do strictly 3D productions," said New Sensations publicist Janeen Gensen. "The gentleman who owns Funky Monkey has been involved in doing mainstream 3D products for quite a while. He has moved into doing adult, so the first release that's going to come out is a play off of the James Bond movie Octopussy. I think that means we'll be the first ones to have a 3D feature out in the market." Octopussy 3D was helmed by a newcomer to adult, Funky Monkey's Jay Lalls, and stars Audrey Bitoni in the title role-though we're guessin

Recovery, My Best Friend By Debbie Schneider
Recovery, so grateful I finally found you; You are the only one that was always there for me, No matter how many times I lied, cheated and even ran away from you too; I came back, and you were still there for me, I was just to blind and stoned to see; Recovery, my best friend; I had so many people I thought were my friends, people I could count on in my addiction, But they were the ones that got me here; The truth is, I realized they were not the definition of a peer; They were just a people, place and things; But today and just for today, my best friend, I call recovery, my King! My God! My Higher Power!

Quicksilver.
That tall glass of milk isn't for me.Perched backwards on a chair.Curved to play all the highlights.Stray tendrils of hot-pink in her eyes.Something that barely concealed a come-fuck-me stare.This can't be real.I didn't just stroke that fishnetted hide like a stray cat.Watched that rear bump up to meet my hand.I didn't put my teeth on her hips.I'm not being sized, subdued and mounted by some science fiction neon princess.But for the recordshe bites pretty hard.And has the most adorably tipped tongue.Like a wet surgical swab down my abdomen.We'll call this "deconstructionalism" "minimalist sado-massochism"Pet, and Pet.Belts on my wristlips in the strangest places.A rainbow of flavorssomething sugary but tart.Thick but rich.Mercury mouth. Smooth and poison.The kind that takes all night.The kind you smell on your face after.That familiar ache in your body.That empty in your chest you can't relate.

My Heart Grows Weary!
My heart does grow weary now, it's grown so very tired, always waiting always hoping for that one true love, the one that only exist in my dreams.. I'll search no longer, I'll give it up and hope that maybe someday it will come to me, but then again maybe not.. Perhaps I will find it sneaking in like a silent stranger in the night, there will be no more wearing my heart on my sleeve. If I never in my lifetime catch the heart of another, maybe it just wasn't meant for true love to come to me. All my heart ever finds is the pain of being broken over and over again. Still my heart will always hold a love that waits so eager to be shown. I'll keep it forever to myself, and release it's feelings out into the wind, along life's shore, maybe it will blow my way again someday. Each tide taking a piece of it out to the stormy seas, never to come back and cloud this heart of mine. I've prayed, and I've tried to be all that I can be, and yet only false love finds it's way to me.

To Know Me And What Im About
MY LIFE HAS BEEN HARD THIS PAST YEAR MY MOM DIED AND THE MOTHER OF MY KIDS LIKES TO PLAY GAMES WITH THE KIDS HOWEVER THERE IS A LIGHT ON FOR ME HER NAME IS STACIE(MOMMYNUTT) I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART AND I AM THANKFUL I HAVE HER IN MY LIFE AND IN MY ARMS. SHE IS GREAT TO ME AND MY BOYS . SHE DONT TAKE ME FOR GRANTED NORE DOES SHE WANT ME FOR WHAT I GIVE TO HER ALL SHE REALLY WANTS IS TO LOVE ME AND SHARE IN MY GOOD TIMES AND BAD. A WOMAN LIKE THAT DONT COME ALONG BUT ONCE IN A LIFETIME AND I KNOW I HAVE THE MOST AMAZING WOMAN IN FRONT OF ME WITH ARMS WIDE OPEN FOR ME. TO ALL THE HATTERS ON FU HONESTLY KISS MY ASS YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND LEAVE ME AND HER BE TO LIVE OUR LIVES .THE PAST IS THE PAST AND WE ARE MARCHING TO A FUTURE FULL OF LOVE AND HAPPINESS. SHE HAS BECOME MY EVERYTHING AND WOW I WOULDNT WANT IT ANY OTHER WAY. AS FOR THE ONES WHO EXCEPT US AND OUR RELATIONSHIP AND RESPECT AS SUCH YOU ALL I LOVE YA AND THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONTINUED SUPORT.OUR DRAMA OF OUR PAST IS COMEIN

Help
I'm all alone in this world. Through the darkness I am hurled. I call and call and call and call yet I'm never heard. If only I could fly like a bird. I'd fly away from this mess. Maybe then I would act my best. I hold it in for the sake of all. Yet whenever I get up they make me fall. I help all that I can, but it is thrown back at me. If only I could be a bird silent and free. Help me please if you think you can. Otherwise...... don't hold out your hand.

The Velveteen Rabbit
"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side near the nursery fender, before Nana came to tidy the room. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?" "Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real." "Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit. "Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt." "Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?" "It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in your joints and very shabby.

Im Anti Valentines Day.....but This Is A Good Song
By Your Side lyricsSongwriters: Hale, A; Adu, Sade; Matthewman, S; Denman, P S; You think I'd leave your side babyYou know me better than thatYou think I'd leave you down when you're down on your kneesI wouldn't do thatI'll tell you you're right when you wantAnd if only you could see into meOh when you're cold, I'll be thereHold you tight to meWhen you're on the outside baby and you can't get inI will show you, you're so much better than you knowWhen you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back againI will find you darling and I will bring you homeAnd if you want to cryI am here to dry your eyesAnd in no time, you'll be fineYou think I'd leave your side babyYou know me better than thatYou think id leave you down when you're down on your kneesI wouldn't do thatI'll tell you you're right when you wantAnd if only you could see into meOh when you're cold, I'll be thereHold you tight to meOh when you're lowI'll be there by your side babyOh when you're cold, I'll be thereHold you tigh

A Txt Fantasy I Typed The Other Day
I know what you meant. Did hubby not cuddle today? Aww... Nope.... In that case as he is getting ready ahead of u I sneak out of the closet and curl up behind u... Holding u from behind... Caressing ur boobs with one hand kissing the back of ur neck and upper back. Soon u feel a stiffness in ur lower back. U reach ur hand back to find and play with it... Mmmmmm....now THAT, i like....=) U find it and I let u play briefly before I shov ur hand back above ur head and roll u on ur back. I bind ur hands so u can not use them. I continue playing with ur tits with one hand making my other one and mouth lead to your already dripping snatch... I start fingering licking and biting. U enjoy Oh wow! Arent u amorous this morning. LOVE IT! my fav way to wake up.... I'm not done yet... Oh nice..... After a min or two of licking u I say 'eww ur pussy tastes sweaty and nasty' so I take u by ur bound hands to the shower, bind u to a side rail and begin to wash u. Making sure kitty is all fresh and clea

I Do Not Know What The Hell Is Going On
I do not know whats going on my list of status messages has been removed was Liz Vicious Right when she told me that FUBAR cenors what people say? I was scared cuz of what happen to Liz Vicious so after i made my first photo Album I asked a bouncer to look at ALL the photos and let m know if they were a problem But now another bouncer seems to me marking them NSFW. Oddly enough after i had writen some stuff about Liz Vicious. It seems odd that both my status messages and my photos would come under attack like that at the same time right after talking about Liz Vicious. I am kind of scared to even post this BLOG I mean is FUBAR rally going to be upset at me for wondering why these things seem to be connected? am I not allowed to talk about my friend Liz Vicious? I know one thing for sure I went out of my way to ask a bouncer to look at my photos after i sent them and she said I should be OK and let her know if there was a problem. I have done that so i hope this works out ok.

Losses
You know, it's truly amazing how losing a friend or family member can completely change your entire perspective. As a people, we're constantly complaining about trivial matters and thing of little to no consequence. We all walk around with some kind of chip on our shoulder and we never take a single second to pause and ask how someone is doing and how things are in their life. Today, I lost a friend. A very dear friend. We were in high school together and though we'd lost touch since graduation, the bond was always there. We were in a very small class, there were only 73 of us, and we all knew one another rather well whether we wanted to or not. He was a great person, and he'll be in our hearts and prayers always. It's times like these when I hate living so far away from home and the family of friends I have there. Zack Hastings was a part of that family of friends, and now he's gone. Everything happens so suddenly, and as I said before, losing someone puts things into pe

You And I
You and I by Michael How I miss the softness of your voice Sweetness of you kisses The gentle touch of your hands The evanescent smell of your scent Tender warmth of your skin And how you held me in your eyes Wishing I could have it once again Like the night we held each other Close as we were not too long ago How I miss that night you was there Holding me so close in your arms Hearing the sound of your sigh Surprised and thankful that you came back That one night care free and happy For that little time we were one, till our good byes We're both in love just enough to know That by our side is were you and I will be And where we should've been along!!

Recipe To One's Heart
Recipe to One's Heart by Michael With just a sweet thought A twinkle in the eye The curve of the smile Gentle touch of the hand Whisper of kindness Assurance of friendship Security in a hug Is how to touch ones heart

Gentle As A Dove
Gentle as a Dove by Michael Time waits for no one when it comes to love The moment is there if you dare to take a chance Waiting in the wind is the soft gentle breeze of a smile The fresh breath of air even it's for one dance Softness of the flower in a field of grass just swaying The beauty of it's color stands out above the rest Gentle of a touch like feathers of dove in your hands How your heart beats within their caress With every peek of sunshine gleaming from their eyes Brightens the day of the cloud I am on!!!

True Love
True Love by Michael From my point of view you're well built With curves and points I like to try From the top to the bottom you're beautiful How I love going down on you Stopping for a while to admire the beauty Taking every curve so slowly Down to the valley where it's the best Just to look up takes my breath Slowly following the curves back up Taking my time climbing on you Looking down and seeing where I was Knowing I'll be back there soon For this mountain I truly love

Admiration
Admiration by Michael The hunger lingers for that moment in time Longing for those whispers of gentleness Never to know her to only a dream Anticipation for her words of kindness Trusting her with all your soul Knowing nothing but only her heart Faith in her to catch me when I fall Standing there with a smile of virtue The reverie of her never will I touch Thankful to the knowledge that she shares I am humbled by warmth from her eyes To awake anew to a life full of love

To Tell You
To Tell You by Michael I needed to tell you how I feel but would you listen I needed to tell you about my heart but what would I say I needed to tell you of my love but I will never go there I needed to tell you about my dreams but you're in them I needed to tell you but would you still be my friend

Charm Of Your Smile
Charm of Your Smile by Michael Just to see your smile lights my way Distance will never to keep us apart And into your arms is where I want to stay Having you hold me with that loving glare Keeping me close to your heart And me showing you how much I care Hearing your sweet voice whispering my name Reminds me how I felt from the start And feelings for you will always stay the same

Is It A Dream
Is it a Dream by Michael How real could a dream be? To see the beauty in one's eyes as they look upon you To smell the scent of the one you long for To touch the softness of their hands in yours To hold them with no fear of loosing them when you let go To hear their voice when the morning sun peeks over the horizon To feel their heart beating next to yours while you sleep So tell me how real could it be

Life Would Be So Wonderful
Life would be so Wonderful by Michael Life would be so wonderful when you try not to look For when your heart is open and eyes are closed The one you've longed for is just in reach When your hands touch the mind wouldn't know Ever so slightly holding each other so very close Until your goodbye's are said and gone You wonder if you'll ever meet again Till the time is right you will wait for that day Hoping they'll wonder back into your light Praying for the same excitement from long ago Then and only then will life be so wonderful

I Will
I will by Michael Fall for me and in my arms I will catch you Look at me and in my eyes I will touch you Feel for me and in my heart I will find you Trust in me and in my mind I will hold you Believe in me and in my life I will love you

Elated Flame
Elated Flame by Michael The sun is always shining even on a cloudy day With a smile in my thoughts and on my face Wishing everyone to have a wonderful day Knowing that nothing for them would go wrong Stopping to say hello and to assure they are good Reinforcing that everything will be okay Wondering why I am so cheerful and happy I wished I knew that answer, but I'll never ask Never to know why I am so happy and never sad For the cards I was dealt I should've folded To be so optimistic and full of cheer is not so easy When alone in the dark and unable to see There is always one light that guides the way An eternal flame of hope to inspire those around me

Shards Of A Broken Heart
Shards of a broken Heart by Michael To have such lovely eyes smiling at you Being there is were you was lead Thinking life didn't give up just yet To be given a smile so honest and true Knowing that is were you need to be Enjoying the love given so careless and free But then something did change in the night To the unknown everything seemed to be good Oh how fast a heart can be shattered By things transpiring of the unknown Never, never to be reviled to those accused Given not a chance of redemption, just to be excused Dare not to look back and to never to know why Just to linger in the dark and shoved aside To be alone and cry to thy self.

Ardor Of A Smile
Ardor of a Smile by Michael Mesmerize by the glimmering in their eyes Longing for the time to hold love so close The chill of the seasons forging their passion The warmth of their feelings are to be shaped Their beauty like snow flakes are one of a kind Sharing their strength with each other's touch To hold in your memory of a gentle smile To see the beauty in their face For all time to come love will never be erased In the mind's eye will it be etched to stay!

Choice's
Choice's by Michael Time comes when you must decide To look at what you want in life Never to know without trying Wondering what should you do Never to need and never to fall Don't just wait and watch it past Time is not to waste but to be spent Always looking forward and never back The choice's you make is your fate

Sorrow Is The Silence
Sorrow is the Silence by Michael Blue moon was in the night sky Longing to see the stars in your eyes Thoughts of you raging threw my veins The silence of your soft voice bringing me pain Only to get over your memory was easy to do How great, for you, my affection is, only if you knew

Devotion
Devotion..by Michael How love lingers while being alone In love with one that you can never hold To see them smiling once again Knowing that they're happy is barely enough Standing there not to be seen nor heard Still you wish you could be that one When the sun rises and their smile comes alive Just to see the glorious beauty of their eyes Still you're there waiting, hoping to be that one To share your heart and thoughts, for that is true love

You Are
YOU ARE by Tx0utlaw May what ever light falls you will shine When the darkest of days is like the night You should always use sparingly your time For you are a light that will always be bright If silence is to be broken your voice shall ring Even in the vacuum of space shall it echo in the void Never should you waver to let a love song sing For you are the tone that will light that spark Like the warmth of the sun you shall be loved From a caring heart beat that you will believe Held with the strength of gravity gently as a dove For you are that angel of my affection you shall receive

What Do Men Want From Women
Men are looking for a trustworthy girl, someone they can have faith in and someone who will be there for them. This may sound like an odd thing to say, but the fact is, some women are not trustworthy and many are not faithful either. So many in fact that men are increasingly wary. That kiss at a Christmas party may not count, or the flirtatious behavior with the gorgeous barman and in fact its all great fun and part of a woman's character. But reverse the situation and as a woman, you hate him doing the same. A man can never forgive a woman being unfaithful and so he is looking for someone who he really does trust Men want a woman who will commit to them. Though increasingly this is hard to find, it doesn't take away the wish. Men want a girlfriend who they can share with and trust and be open with. Commitment is not a one way street and therefore men are struggling to find the levels of commitment they found previously. But the need is still there. Men don't want to be alone.

Ewwwww, Stretch Marks!
So Helly, the ebil hussy sent me a link to another icky pic. I am going to get even with her. So here is my plan.... I am going to have all of us send her the nastiest ickiest pics that we can find. I wanna fill her shoutbox for the next several days with these links. I figure that we all owe her for these links so it's time for a coordinated payback :D xoxo

Top Of The World
WHEN I'M WITH YOU I FEEL AS TALL AS I CAN BEBEING WITH YOU IS LIKE BEING ON TOP OF THE WORLDLOOKING DOWN TO SEE WHAT THE OTHER PEOPLE DONT SEEWATCHING THE ONES WITH NO ONE TO LOVEBEING TOGETHER IS LIKE NOTHING WE HAVE EVER KNOWNTOGETHER WE ARE ON TOP OF THE WORLD IN LOVELOVING AND LIVING SEEING WHAT NO OTHER CAN SEETAKING EACH DAY ONE DAY AT A TIMETHIS FEELING OF BEING ON TOP OF THE WORLD MEANS SO MUCHYOU NOR I CAN EVER BEGAN TO SAY WHAT IT MEANSFEELING THIS LOVE PUTS ME ON TOP OF THE WORLDBEING IN YOUR ARES PUTS ME THERE ALSOTASTING YOUR LIPS FEELING YOUR HANDSSEEING AN HEARING YOU MAKES IT ALL RIGHTWITH YOU I AM ON TOP OF THE WORLD

Whispers Of Love
sweet as the love that you whisper in my ear sweet as the love you show me every day sweet as the kiss which i feel on my lips sweet as you are knowing that a love as undying as ours will live on throught out the years kisses shared tears that have falln an been kissed away like nothing no one has ever known as sweet love like ours is so rare theres none like it to be found happy as the day i met you happy as the day we both shall die but for today it is our love that keeps us going a love living an breathing so bold

My Angel
for the longest time i have walked only part of a being never feeling whole alway's searching for the one angel that would fill the emptiness in my soul little would i know that it would be 2 one in which i would sleep and be pleasured and one in which it shall be friendship and possibly love void of lust a true innocent and pure completion i wish for it not to be like a building that withers overtime and rusts nor like the stars that eventually burn out and consume but rather like the belife in a god or as time itself that never stops flowing

Caa #132 - Update #3
Though Addysan is gaining weight, the Doctor is still worried about the fluid on her brain not draining as fast as they would like. They have scheduled surgery for Tuesday, February 16th. Please keep her in angel prayers of healing and love. Love, Doc

What?
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?It meant I was havin sexTears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason?I got smoke in it and it burns!If you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass?At this moment, I would consider it with the proper PPD'sHas anyone ever promised you forever?Yep... Happy Singles awareness day.. (stolen from robs status)Do you get high? NoSomething bothering you?My bank account at the moment..(the acronym atm didnt seem to be useful there) Has someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else?allow me to rephrase? Has anyone not?When was the last time you cried?NO COMMENTWhat color shirt are you wearing?whos wearing a shirt? Or pants for that matter!Where did you sleep last night?My Girl, My girl, Wheree did you sleep last night?... i like NirvanaAre you happy right now?Well, im not pissed off at the worldWho/what do you hate/dislike currently?TSA and the people who are lilligagging on

Happy Single Awareness Day Lol
My awesome good friend Johhnydevil made this for me. Im all alone this holiday, not by my choice. I had gotten dumped and not handling it very well lol..So maybe someone out there might wanna be my Valentine??? This friend of mine has had a very rough patch lately and today has no Valentine. And that just stinks¡¦so¡¦.let¡¯s help find her one! It shouldn¡¯t be too hard. I¡¯m sure there¡¯s plenty of dudes out there looking for the same¡¦sooo¡¦. With that I give you.. ¢¾Italian Princess¢¾Fu owned by dblet2¢¾@ fubar And of course, Happy Valentine¡¯s Day to everyone, may it be special for you all :D Enjoy the Autos today, they are very rare. Lol Peace.

Valentine's Restraining Order - To Funny!
Saw this on a different site and swiped it to post here - Valentine Restraining Order I cut you out this festive card, In pretty colors, pink and blue, Because I found it much too hard To say just how much I loathe you. It took some effort, as you see, Just to say, Stay away from me. Just kidding. . . Happy Valentines!

Hateher... Oh, Sorry, Dyslexia. :p
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you? The world. Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason? Pick one. If you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass? For 5 grand, I'd climb in. Has anyone ever promised you forever? Yes. Fail. Do you get high? Not purposely. Something bothering you? This question. Has someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else? Yep When was the last time you cried? *looks at watch* What color shirt are you wearing? Black Where did you sleep last night? In a fucking sleep study center, with wires hanging off of me. Are you happy right now? Content. Who/what do you hate/dislike currently? Love. What's something your wanting right now? A hug. A real one. *sigh* Does someone have a crush on you? A few. Do you have a crush on someone? Go DIAF. Do you wish someone was with you, right now? No. *whistles innocently* Pick a w

Was In A Wreak And How I Feel.
Okay, here is what happen...We was driving down the highway and this truck in front of us was loosing wood. So My husband lowed down and the SUV behind us ran right in to us at 70 mph. I hit my head on the dashboard... yes, we all had our seat belts on. Now my kids is doing okay, however me and my husband is hurting real bad. my husband is hurting from his neck down to his lower back. Mine pain starts from my neck down to my tail bone. We did go to the ER. The car, well the trunk is pushed up to the back seat.Im in wow , because my kids was in the back seat in their car seat, and they walked out of it fine. They was scared but in a good shape.I keep telling them that their angle was watching over them. Anyways now I'm scared to get in a car or go on the highways where it happen. when my husband trys to get me to go I freak out and cry. Is that normal?

It's Not Like That.
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?Not like that.Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason?Stupid kids.If you got paid 5,000 dollars would you stick your hand in an elephants ass?Um no.Has anyone ever promised you forever?I stopped believing in promises. They mean nothing.Do you get high?With a ladder.Something bothering you?Yea, but I adore her anyways. Has someone told you they'd always love you then went for someone else?Um no and if they did I wouldn't believe them anyways.When was the last time you cried?Again, stupid kids.What color shirt are you wearing?Black. Where did you sleep last night?At my place. I'm nice and slept on the pull out.Are you happy right now?Yup. Gushing even.Who/what do you hate/dislike currently?I'm really not fond of Pepsi. You asked.What's something your wanting right now?A hug. A real one. Does someone have a crush on you?According to a certain someone, everybody. :|Do you have a crush on someone?I don't buy Crush

Valentine's Dis
So here's what happened... I asked someone out for Valentine's Day three weeks ago knowing they were pretty busy and seeing other people too and wanted to beat everyone else to the punch. So they said yes and I planned a whole day of stuff to do and fun and dinner to make. Two days ago this person says what time do you want me on Sunday? And I answer,all day. They say, ha yeah right 5 or 6? She sais she has to study for a nursing test and do a few things around the house. I am fine with that cuz I can do dinner and figure other stuff out. Then I get off of work this morning at 7am, go home and prepare dinner so it's easier to make later. Then I want to surprise her while she is studying by delivering a huge rose to her. I drive over to her house at 8am and find that she's not there. Knowing her she hasn't been all night. So instead of studying she is out all night and all morning with another guy when she originally said yes to spending the day with me and then said she

The Candy Box Test
WTF is up with all of this serious busines????? :/ You Are Serious and Intense You don't take anything lightly, including your choice in candy. You don't like to make any mistakes in life. You are responsible and dedicated. You don't let anything slip through the cracks. You still like to have fun and indulge on occasion, but you are more of the type to only eat one piece of chocolate. You build now so that you can enjoy yourself later. You're all about planning for the future. The Candy Box Test Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

Billboards Top 50 "sexiest Songs" *snorts*
Recently, Billboard has released its top 50 sexiest songs of all time. Me being the music buff that I am... Find this list absolutely deplorable. What they say on how its ranked... "Songs are ranked based on an inverse point system, with weeks at No. 1 earning the greatest value and weeks at No. 100 earning the least. To ensure equitable representation of the biggest hits from each era, certain time frames were weighted to account for the difference between turnover rates from those years." This was taken directly from Billboard.com. So without further ado, here are the 50 "sexiest songs" according to billboard. Yes, I will add my own commentary as I go down the list. 50. Foreigner – Urgent 49. Cyndi Lauper – She Bop 48. Ray J – Sexy can I 47. Adina Howard – Freak Like me 46. Cassie – Me & U 45. Ton Loc –

Since It's Valentine's Day...:o
You Have a Serious Heart You believe that love is not a mystery. Love is respect, nurturing, and affection. Love is not drama. You love with your head before you love with your heart. It's not love if it doesn't make sense. Your heart is not easily tricked or fooled. You only have feelings when it is the real thing. Your love life is only a part of your whole life. Love has its place, but you don't obsess over it. What Kind of Heart Do You Have? Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

Open Heart
Open HeartReturning Home Approaching life with an open heart means that we have opened the door to a greater consciousness within ourselves. Spiritual teachers have always pointed to the heart as the seat of consciousness, and recently Western science has found evidence to support this realization. It turns out that the heart has its own central nervous system and is not simply under the rule of the brain as formerly believed. Anyone who has taken the time to explore the heart knows this and, more important, has realized that the heart is the source of our connection to a consciousness greater than the ego. Approaching life with an open heart means that we have opened the door to this greater consciousness, taking up residence alongside it in the seat of our soul. When we open our hearts, they may feel tender and vulnerable, which simply means that they need our loving attention as we cleanse and heal them of past hurts and blockages. This process asks us to practice some of the

Just Like Heaven By The Cure
"Show me how you do that trick The one that makes me scream" she said "The one that makes me laugh" she said And threw her arms around my neck "Show me how you do it And I promise you I promise that I'll run away with you I'll run away with you" Spinning on that dizzy edge I kissed her face and kissed her head And dreamed of all the different ways I had To make her glow "Why are you so far away?" she said "Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you That I'm in love with you" You Soft and only You Lost and lonely You Strange as angels Dancing in the deepest oceans Twisting in the water You're just like a dream Daylight licked me into shape I must have been asleep for days And moving lips to breathe her name I opened up my eyes And found myself alone alone Alone above a raging sea That stole the only girl I loved And drowned her deep inside of me You Soft and only You Lost and lonely You Just like heaven

Nights Encounter
She slowly glided across the floor,As her eyes turned to me.Wearing nothing but her stockings,All her beauty naked before me. Leading me slowly with her eyes,On the bed our bodies now met.I went to lay on her,Her eyes told me not yet. I eased myself slowly down her,Kissing and licking on my way.I knew my destenation all to well,With her now it was time to play. My hands rubbed over her skin,Around her ass so beautifully round.I ran my tongue along the edge of her clit,From her then became the sounds. Her beathing deepened as my tongue played,Into her hole my fingers went.I moved them all around her inside,As I smelt her pussy's sweet scent. Her hands now entangled in my hair,Pulling me deeper within.She grined her hips into my mouth,Her orgasim was now to begin. Her first wave hit my mouth,As I clenched on around her waist.My tongue working her so deep,Wanting every last taste. Her hips in the air hands tight on my head,Her pussy pulsing against my face.My tongue had worked its

Letting Go
In your hands is a very precious creation so fragile, so valuable that if you keep on holding it, it either stay or fall apart. But you loved this creature so much that letting it go would be comparable to letting go of your life as well, so much that sometimes you wished it would always be there, so much that you tend to be selfish so as you could make it stay for as long as you want. There comes a time in our lives we chance upon someone "so nice" and "almost perfect" and we just find ourselves getting so intenselyattached to that person (sometimes even without realizing it!). This feeling soon becomes a part of our daily lives and eventually guzzles our thoughts and actions to the extent that we dagged it as one of those "too good to be true" things. Then in our desperate attempt to get closer, our efforts are still futile and we still feel sorry for ourselves. One person once said, "Never let your heart run your life. As much as you can always be sensible and let your mind speak fo

New Skin 2/14
Aha! You thought I was gone huh? Not really...just had a rough couple of months and had a few life changes. I'm pretty much back now (at least I think I am, even if a little less sane). I did a skin for the fu-angels...as always you're free to rip any of my skins that are marked PUBLIC in the title. Best viewed on 1024x768, as usual. NOTE - This is the last skin that will be made at the usual screen resolution, as I'll be changing to the recommended setting for Vista and Windows 7...alas...XP is a dying breed, although I loved it so! Here's what the skin banner looks like, with the background to match. If you rip skins, be sure to disable any photos in your albums that are marked to be used as background images (or your page will be weird when people load it). Happy Valentine's Day..take care everyone! Cheers!

The History Of The Thong & Saying Good Bye
Odd one can really learn history from reading Cosmo. Yes I did say history. The first thong was invented in 1974 by Rudi Gernreich with his unisex thong bathing suit, no it never took off in the US but was a big hit in Brazil, and if you have seen one I am thinking this is where the whole Brazilian wax came from. It wasn't until 1981 when Fredrick's of Hollywood came out with thong underwear did women started to really wear the things, and then in 1986 the company named Hanky Panky came out with a stretchy lace material that stopped the digging into-your-hips ridge. Skip forward almost a fully decade to 1999, everyone's favorite song came out, “The Thong Song,” by Sisqó, and in 2000 Britney Spears danced on the MTV Video Music Awards stage in her rhinestone thong. But come 2005 Scarlett Johansson posed on the cover of Cosmo in boy shorts, which turned into their biggest selling issue, and slowly started a new trend for women who went out to buy boy shorts for themsel

Bullshit
My granps walks around here like he has a stick up his ass he is always pissed off at everything most of all his old age and the first person that he sees he unloads his anger out on that person and most of the time its me. And he also has fucking porblem with me being on the computer and i dont give a fliying fuck what he says if he keeps on i am going to tell him to take the computer and shove it right up his old fucking ass.

Let It Burn
I don't understand why See it's burning me to hold onto thisI know this is something I gotta do But that don't mean I want toWhat I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just I feel like this is coming to an endAnd it's better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you I gotta let it burnIt's gonna burn for me to say this But it's comin from my heartIt's been a long time coming But we done been fell apartReally wanna work this out But I don't think you're gonna change I do but you don'tThink it's best we go our separate waysTell me why I should stay in this relationship When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy babyPlus there's so many other things I gotta deal with I think that you should let it burnWhen your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want toBut you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used toEven though this might bruise you Let it burn Let it burn Gotta let it burnI'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on On the other s

Most Ridiculous Status Of The Day
We all know about the bling beggars and how annoying and sick of that we all are, but this takes today’s cake. Not even a salute. Let me run off and PayPal it some cash. If anyone sees any stupid statuses like this out there, feel free to screenshot them for submission. Have a Happy Valentine’s Day Fubar! May all of you have sex…in real life… Peace.

Test
Sit comfortably and be calm. This is a serious test, not a joke.. Put your thinking process aside - i.e. put your brain in neutral gear. 1- Find the C below. Do not use any cursor help. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO COOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Feb 14
So this day is a lovey dovey holiday I'd just rather ignore. Now everyone thought that might have been just cause there wasn't a man to qualify for my valentine. So along came my valentine and I'd still rather just ignore that holiday. Look if I love ya I love ya and if I don't I don't. I don't need some stupid day to make me all lovey dovey and remind me to tell you I love you. I can see where a good majority of people might need reminded to pay attention to their mate but does everyone have to participate in valentine's day? Does anyone know of steak and blow job day?? March 14th is steak and blow job. I'd rather have a steak than a rose. Really I feel like there is too much focus on the financial side of valentines day. Back in the day when this holiday first transpired money was not the focus of it. The point was to remind everyone to show some love and money isn't needed to show love. You can get creative and make cards and crafty lil keep sakes. There are always tons of ways to s

Will You???
WHEN A SOLDIER COMES HOME This email is being circulated around the world - please keep it going. When a soldier comes home, he finds it hard.... ....to listen to his son whine about being bored. ....to keep a straight face when people complain about potholes. ....to be tolerant of people who complain about the hassle of getting ready for work. ....to be understanding when a co-worker complains about a bad night's sleep. ....to be silent when people pray to God for a new car. ....to control his panic when his wife tells him he needs to drive slower. ....to be compassionate when a businessman expresses a fear of flying. ....to keep from laughing when anxious parents say they're afraid to send their kids off to summer camp. ....to keep from ridiculing someone who complains about hot weather. ....to control his frustration when a colleague gripes about his coffee being cold. ....to remain

02-12-2010
i don't really remember much since it was last night/yesterday, but i ran out of my grandparents' house. i'm getting a bad feeling, but i don't remember why i ran out. i run between the two posts that are the gate in their fence and immediately get entangled in what feels like meat cord, it's very thick, solid and hard, but i didn't see it when i went towards it. i'm trying so hard to get out, but i can't escape. i look to my right and see a large dark spider (not as big as a tarantula, but fuzzy like one) and a lot of smaller ones. this is wierd, because my grandfather's house is infested with banana spiders, which look nothing like this. i look to my left and i see another one so close i can feel it. i think i saw more little ones, but idk. and typing this up, i'm feeling constant pinpricks and bites, but there's nothing on me...

Jason
I have made alot of mistakes in my life and I am trying to learn from them...But the biggest mistake I made was calling it quits with Jason...I loved him and I messed things up for a guy that didnt give two shits about me...I was stupid....I know that now and its too late to fix things...I have tried to move on with my life, but I can't forget him....I know that he knows that Im still around, and I know that I hurt him and I cant tell him enough how sorry I am....I just thought I was Needing Some Change when I did what I did, and now I realize all I Needed was him....Im sorry Jason, I still love you.......

I Had A Romantic Fiance Once, This Is What He Wrote To Me, I've Translate It To English
My baby has a heart of snowso brittle and sharp that willand it melts as easily as the ice in the drink she left at the barThe winter is hard on the lakeand the light lasts only a few hoursI look out over the white snowwhere the moon and the stars glistenHer green eyes makes me dullShe says: "Never take anything for granted"and we're talking about where we are going tonightbut I guess we mean the entire lifeMy baby has a heart of snowas fresh snow dizzy when the wind blowsas a quilt as a father and tearand pulls and turning me into neurosisIn springtime she talks about autumnShe sees the clouds that are waiting behind the forestand then she speaks with another voiceto always be faithful to the artOh tonight she wants to fall freelywe take another round, and I invitemy baby has a heart of snowas far as the purest, softest powderand now she wants to fall freelyMy baby has a heart of snowas far as the purest, softest powderand now she wants to fall freely

Jail House Rockin' In Saudi Arabia
So you want to be a rock band in Saudi Arabia. No you don’t. Reports indicate the radical aspects of Muslimism can wind you up in the can for rockin‘. In Saudi Arabia there is the religious police called Mutaween. They go around arresting bands for giving concerts without a permit. Guess what? You can’t get a permit to play rock music. So you think you have it bad here in the good old US of A. Best you think twice about criticizing America. Read the story http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,585779,00.html?test=faces BlastFM is without question rocking the world. Ask them in Croatia. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Arch Of Atheos Magazine
Em was bored and decided to take quotes from a conversation that my daughter and I had and create an interview. I found it quite amusing! The Orginal conversation is in blag "Oh Heavenly father" to the left.

From Melody To Fran To Nicholas To Peter ... To Me
Sixteen years ago … Matthew 13:31-34 February 13 91 days [to graduation] 13 weeks 3 to intern! Margie Duncan 9402.13 [Jesus] told them another parable: “The kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed, which a man took and planted in his field. Though it is the smallest of all your seeds, yet when it grows, it is the largest of garden plants and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and perch in its branches.” 31,32

Winners Of The Contest!
And the Winners of the Blog for Bling contest are…. First Place : Receives either a $20 Bling Pack or 7 Day Blast ! Ellie@ fubar Second Place : Will Receive Two Pimpouts A Day 2/14-3/14! Mz Iowa@ fubar Third Place : Will Receive One Pimpout A Day 2/14-3/14 ! Buzzkillin Beauty@ fubar Thank you for everyone who voted and participated, it is much appreciated! Now back to our regularly scheduled programming..lol

One Of Those Things.
Recent events have brought this to my attention, and it's something I want everyone to know. As some of you may know, my relationship status on facebook has said I'm engaged to Theresa for a good few months now. I got back from America just over a week ago. First day back at work on Friday, my mum says to me "Your brother's friend phoned him the other day, say's your engaged" (words to that effect). I hadn't told my mum or brother yet, wrong, I know, but I had an idea of the conversation afterwards and wanted to avoid it. My mum was hurt I didn't personally tell her, but supportive nonetheless. Anyway, back to the point. This friend of my brother's is no stranger to me, we've talked many times, yet instead of asking me if it's true, he phones my brother. That really, really pisses me off to no end, I mean, beyond words. Phone call from my brother few days after, goes off on me, as he does. What are you doing, you don't know this woman "I've known her more than two years",

Orianthi - According To You
According to you I'm stupid, I'm useless, I can't do anything right. According to you I'm difficult, hard to please, forever changing my mind. I'm a mess in a dress, can't show up on time, even if it would save my life. According to you. According to you. But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible, he can't get me out of his head. According to him I'm funny, irresistible, everything he ever wanted. Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it, so baby tell me what I got to lose. He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you. According to you I'm boring, I'm moody, and you can't take me any place. According to you I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away. I'm the girl with the worst attention span; you're the boy who puts up with that. According to you. According to you. But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible, he can't get me out of his head. According to him I'm funny, irresistible, everything he ever wanted. Everything is opposite, I don't feel

Live Auction For Club Paradise Members
If you are a member of Club Paradise, you can join our live member auction if you are interested. It will be held on Tuesday, February 23rd at 8pm est. There is no entry fee. All we need is your offer and your pic link. It will be limited to the first 25 people so please leave a comment on this blog saying you want to be in it and we will get back to you with the details. Thank you for all your support from the Club Paradise staff.

Poem By Summer Maddox
You are my muse You are my light That guides me in the dark You are the breeze That warms my my heart You inspire my thoughts You guide my hand And form words of poetry It is a bliss To my heart to know you It is the tears in my eyes To show you the feelings In my heart When we are apart Life seems to long When we are together Life seems not long enough You remain in my dreams You remain in my soul You will always reside in my heart Even when i part from this world You are my muse By: Summer Maddox

Broken
BRAND NEW LIKE ALWAYS MUCH REWRITING EDITING NEEDED BrokenBLED OUTNO MORE TEARSscar tissue all thats leftresidual callusing of 25 yearsconstantly searching exceptional waysto fake it through just one more daysuffering is true solsticeno longer hungry for lifefinding fullness from the cannabolism occuring from insidescaveging all remnants of false hope left behindand to those of you out there still trying to keep warmtread carefully on thin ice its prone to shatter,natural law tells us were meant to become cold and uselessit is preordained into the verry essence that is matteralway be good to those around with a smile on their faceyou dont want to be the one to clean up all that messI prefer a glass half empty, a glass half full creates quite a splatter

These Feelings That I Hide
I never told anyone how I truely felt about losing my one true friend. I feel lost cold alone. To lose someone so close is like losing a peice of yourself. This guy Matt was everything to me. He was even more of brother than my own. But he's gone never will love, live, speak, drink, smoke, laugh, cry again. At times I can't stand to still be in Virginia since his death. Hell at times I feel like ending it my damn self. Not very many people knows the hardships that I've endured since his death. Losing my father, my great uncle, my ex, my grandmother, and my life. I feel like three inches tall most of the time because I've beared this pain. That's the German blood that courses through my veins. It's the West German belief that We are to bear the weight of our ancestors sins. I do everyday. Call me crazy.. cause I am.. I shall carry these burdens for the rest of my life.. even if it kills me.

Lucky To Be Alive
Two days ago I was in accident. it was feb. 11, 2010 at 7:15 p.m. I was making a left turn and some dude ran the red and hit me head on. When I came to I heard a lot of shouting. My car was filled with smoke and I could smell fumes from where my engine used to be. When I finally got out of my car i turned around and saw how bad it was. the front of the car was pushed all the way up to the windshield, the engine was almost in the passenger eat and the dashboard was shattered. the steering wheel was bent. both airbags deployed and my seatbelt held......no cuts, bruises, or broken bones. I was very very lucky.

Questions.
Is tomorrow too late. We never live but only die in search for the purpose to live. Some have questioned the very fabric of extance but how can you truely attemt to understand something that is never ment to be understood in the first place. For this I've been fading into the background.. sometimes attemting to cease to exist. But is this possible? Yes it truely is. I went to prison for a bullshit reason but to my friends, my family... and ex I ceased to exist. I was just a vacant memory. But once people learned of my homecomming they removed their masks of ill emotions and memories.. and treated me like a long lost treasure. WHAT THE FUCK!.. I spent three years of my life away from these people and all they can say is.. "Hey man where have you been?" Well asshole I was stuck in a fuckin cage. But I bite my tongue and pray for a better tomorrow. So what bridges I've had are now burned and what friend, family I thought I had are now severed. And I have a feeling there's plenty more to c

Mirror Me
LIKE ALWAYS HUGE WORK IN PROGRESS, alot of rewriting and editing to be done MIrror meMirror me first thing i seeupon morning wake i stare at theeflaws and imperfections appear rapidlya torrid reflection of a 25 years pastthe burning from rage neatly hidden undera dimpled smile guarded by lock and keymirror me you cant fool meothers see wit, charm, humor and beautyI see a scared little boy desprately hidingwho fears to abide my adultly responsibilities life is still a game, i tell them all, close there eyes and count to threei found the perfect spot, it's a dark damp place called complacency ,the happy people never go in there, and even if they do ill convince themwith all my clever guile , they have the wrong man,after all im just a small child, another lost soul,demand i recieve a pardon, and fall back to my latent self-destructive tendincies,they thought for sure this time they caught me,I was always the one in controlMIrror me at night i look once morewhat in the mornig were

Test Vid2
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Test Vid
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The Men That Post Nasty Shit In Shoutbox & The Women That Let Them
while im ranting heres one more......OK THIS HAS GOT TO STOP!OK LOOK...YOU NASTY FCUKERS , posting sh1t in womens shout boxes sexually horrabile shit nasty videos pictures and stupid ass gross questions ...EFFIN STOP IT WE DO NOT WANT TO SEE IT LEARN THE DIFFERNCE BETWEEN A SITE FOR ADULTS AND A ADULT SITEAAND AS FOR THE WOMEN .... the ones that let them think its ok stop letting them treat you like scum demand they treat u with the respect you deserve you are not a peice of sh!tthey do it cause they think its ok and its not men we laugh at u or rant about u we do not get turned on by shit like thatwomen are emotional creatures u wanna get to a girl that way treat her like a human being a flower even ..... touch a woman heart and u get the world women dont like men that act patheic it does not make u look like a pimp we can tell u dont get any and that why u acct this way ur gross and patheic we want nothing to do with men like thatk thnx

Warranty
Sáimh-Ioldánach™ - Brass Knuckle Poets Society said: She speaks like her night stand keeps a book, and her boom box knocks tracks with out a single radio hook - track 1 tells you to think twice, 'cause her love's like fire and ice, and track 2 tells you that you got shook... track 3 tells you put it in perspective and perspective's why she made you look. She's poised in elegance, like she's stands to the left of the King, with her left guarded by her bishop and her rook. Track 4 tells you, imagine if she ruled the world... imagine that - she's like black diamonds and pearls, to a crook. She got you selfish. Track 5 tells you it ain't her fault, you want her to your self and can't help it. A-U-D-I-O is how she spelled it and G-A-S-M is how you felt it. Style so unique - turn up the volume and find some humility. Don't even speak. Lemme clarify the frequency. She's a solid gold independent track to a sea of fake records and radio freqs. Your highs and lows are distorted - I think y

Hitlisting
How shall we organize our efforts with hitlisting ? Shall we put in place specific hitlisters only? What determines if we hitlist someone or not? If a person is building their character should they be hitlisting? How do we determine is self hitlisting is a good call or not? When we get hitlisted what determines if we heal or not ? What determines how we should go after a bounty and at what degree do we continue going after a bounty?

Training
What kind of training do we want to do ? Do we want trainers or an all help concept ? What criteria do we need on being able to help train another person ? Can we truthfully see our strengths and weaknesses and accept them? Can we truthfully accept a respectful criticing of the play of our character ? Can we conduct trainings without any power trips (as in my way is better than yours or I am better than you attitude)?

Strategies
What kind of a crew are we ? Where do we want to build to? What are our goals? What determines a call for war? (only the Boss or UnderBoss can call a war or truce) What preperations are needed before goin to war?

[beautiful]
Man... look at the metal finish on those verniers and barrelsSo... I'm putting together the MS 18E Kampfer. I have one Arm completed, 2 short stock shotguns, and 2 bazookas. I'd like to say that this suit really embodies the blitz.Guns guns gunsBazookasSturmfaustsShotgunshead gatlingsBeam sabersMine-whip Covers AP, anti armor, light infantry, I could level a goddamn city block with this thing. A whole lot of joints on this thing say "screw this" and I do exactly that I'm not microthreading eye-glass screws through a cubic centimeter of plastic on an already stable and fitted joint. I did on the gouf custom, and didn't see the fucking point. I wonder how this guy got that great luminescent blue and that high sheen metallic. Great color combination. Now the impulse to go custom on mine... I think it comes from the fact that my first model ever was a Super Deformed Kampfer. Adorable little guy. I had no idea what he was, but we picked him up in a random shopping district in T

Rant >_< Men Are Sloppy Effin Nasty Pigs Sometimes
IM SOOOO EFFIN PISSED MAn, ok so i get these perverts in my shout box sometimes talking about sexual shit i dont want to fuking hear about .... like asking about glory holes,asking if they can show there privates,talking about there desires in disscusting ways,asking about sub behavior,sending videos ,asking for cam sex,asking for nudes or why i dont post them , the list goes on and on and on ....Now i get a picture of some guy with his dick on pochotonos pet racoon stuffed doll with shit rubbed all over it , like i really wanna see that nasty effin crap i am discussted and almost wanna sware off men lolmen like that need to drop off the face of the earth im so offended ..YOU SLOPPY MOFO UNCLE FESTER CUPCAKE FUKING GROBBLING LITTLE POPTARTS!FOR THE LOVE OF HOLY CHESSE AND FCUKING FRENCH TOAST I DO NOT WANNA SEE UR TEDDY GRAMS GET DA FCUK OUT OF BEDROCK KAYUR BATTLE SHIP HAS SUNK.....So what the wrost u get here?P.S-

Colonoscopy Journal
ABOUT THE WRITER Dave Barry is a Pulitzer Prize-winning humor columnist for the Miami Herald. Colonoscopy Journal: I called my friend Andy Sable, a gastroenterologist, to make an appointment for a colonoscopy. A few days later, in his office, Andy showed me a color diagram of the colon, a lengthy organ that appears to go all over the place, at one point passing briefly through Minneapolis. Then Andy explained the colonoscopy procedure to me in a thorough, reassuring and patient manner.

His Eye Is On The Sparrow
It was chilly in Manhattan but warm inside the Starbucks shop on 51stStreet and Broadway, just a skip up from Times Square. Early Novemberweather in New York City holds only the slightest hint of the bitter chill of late December and January, but it's enough to send the masses crowding indoors to vie for available space and warmth. For a musician, it's the most lucrative Starbucks location in the world, I'm told, and consequently, the tips can be substantial if you play your tunes right. Apparently, we were striking all the right chords that night, because our basket was almost overflowing. It was a fun, low-pressure gig - I was playing keyboard and singing backup for my friend who also added rhythm with an arsenal of percussion instruments. We mostly did pop songs from the '40s to the '90s with a few original tunes thrown in. During our emotional rendition of the classic, "If You Don't Know Me by Now," I noticed a lady sitting in one of the lounge chairs across from me. She was swayin

David Cook - Little Sparrow
Little sparrow, little sparrowPrecious fragile little thingLittle sparrow, little sparrowFlies so high and feels no pain.All ye maidens, heed my warningNever trust the hearts of menThey will crush you like a sparrowLeaving you to never mend.They will vow to always love youSwear no love but yours will doThen they'll leave you for anotherBreak your little heart in two.Little sparrow, little sparrowPrecious fragile little thingLittle sparrow, little sparrowFlies so high and feels no pain.

Thorn In My Ass
Wells Fargo faces multibillion dollar class action lawsuit February 13, 1:45 AMLong Island Libertarian ExaminerMichael Schmitt Wells Fargo MS Wells Fargo National Bank, the fourth largest bank in the United States, is facing a multibillion dollar class action lawsuit for what could be the largest mortgage fraud scheme in American history. The lawsuit, allegedly, will dwarf every class action lawsuit before and could very well bring about the collapse of the mortgage giant. A widespread pattern of deception and fraud has been noted by this writer, http://www.examiner.com/x-33820-Long-Island-Libertarian-Examiner~y2010m1d8-Obamas-mortgage-modification-fraud and in other places. It is alleged that Wells Fargo utilizes "switch-and-bait" and other deceptive lending practices in its mortgage modification unit. In the process of telling customers to take a temporary lower mortgage payment, Wells Fargo collects billions of dollars in stimulus money and then turns around and unilate

Blinded.. He Needs Me
HE LUVS ME, I KNEW IT ALL ALONG HE NEEDS ME, I KNEW IT ALL ALONG SLO DOWN NOW, BLINDED I COULD NOT SEE LET ME NOW, IF IT WAS MEANT TO B I WAS INLOVE WIT HIM, BUT THE DIAMOND WASNT RIGHT THE DIAMOND IN MY EYE ,THE TREASURE IN MY SIGHT LIVE HOW I WANNA LIVE DO WUT I WANNA DO YOUNG AT HEART, LOVE STRUCK SO SINICAL IF IM PLINICAL IM A ANIMAL THEN GO CROSSED UP WIT HANNIBAL LIGHTNING STRIKES AND SERPANTS SLASHES ALL CLASHES CLEAR THE MASS'S RED PASSION EXOTIC FASHIONS AT THE MATCHIN SHO WE THRASHIN I NEED HIM NEXT 2 ME WIT THE TRICKLE OF THE NIGHT THE FOCOUS OF MY SIGHT WE CAN WASTE AWAY THYS LIFE SLOW DOWN NOW BLINDED I COULD NOT SEE LET ME NOW IF IT WAS MEANT 2 B HE LUVS ME, I KNEW IT ALL ALONG HE NEEDS ME, I B RIGHT HERE HE LUVS ME, PLZ PLZ JUS 1 MORE NIGHT HE NEEDS ME, ILL B RIGHT HERE HE'S THROWIN THINGS AT ME NOW THE FEARS THEY WILL NOT STOP THE BURN IN THE FLAME THEY FEEL THE SAME I CRINGE MY TEETH WHEN I HEAR HIS NAME WHEN I S

Dear Friends....
ok i need help lvling i have asked for help over and over and i have been helping yall lvl why in the hell cant yall help me??? when i get a cherry bomb dont ask for me to bomb you cause im not going to just because yall arent helping me and if you dont like this...then deleate me from your friends bye now....

Men : Get A Clue On Valentines Cheap But Romantic Ideas Your Woman Will Love Sooo Much
Ok Look I see alot of people hatin valentines or feeling bad cause they ethier dont have the money or feel like they are not sure what to get other then necklaces and or what not...here are some cute cheap but very meanful things to women - Roses are sweet but they are over done how about getting their fav flowersif you cant afford a bunch how about placing her av flower in a card? see a woman will keep the card and the lower for ever.- Candi box of candi over done take the time to make her homade candyall you do is heat up the bakers sweet or semi sweet chocolate oin a pan lay down wax paper and u can ethier dunk preztels or strawberries or even just pour it on plastic spoons to use for her coffee.. then place in fridge till hard then wrap or place in a bag- buy her favorite book and place wax papper between two pages and place a rose in side it and give her the book-draw her bath bubbles pedals and all ,wash her hair do not get sexual just yet... you keep all ur clothes on after

From A Sweet Friend...
This poem you wrote fits in very well with this particular blog...And also reinforces what I was saying...If you leave the Fu, you don't need to disappear without a word...Altho I came back, I left a way for people to find me...If they cared enough to look :( hugs sweetie "SAY LATER"SOMETIMES I SIT AND WONDER WHYTHE SADDEST WORDS ARE STILL GOODBYTHE PAIN THEY CAUSE WHENEVER SAIDSTILL FILL THE HEARTWITH PAIN AND DREADSO WHEN YOU FEEL THE WINDAND KNOW ITS TIME TO FLYALLWAYS END WITH LATERAND NEVER SAY GOODBYWRITTEN BYMRFADED MrFaded-owned by Sweet o Sweet@ fubar

Gods And Godesses Of Love
Egyptian Mythology - She was Isis The Original Feminine Goddess Archetype Sumerian Mythology - She was Ishtar Goddess of Love Greek Mythology - She was Aphrodite Goddess of Love Roman Mythology - She was Venus Goddess of Love Norse Mythology - She was Freya Goddess of Love and Beauty Hindu Mythology - She was Radha Goddess of Love - Wife of Krishna Aztec Mythology - She was Tlazolteotl Goddess of Love, Fertility, Sex, Childbirth Greek Mythology - He was Eros God of Love Roman Mythology - He was Cupid God of Love Aztec Mythology - He was Xochipilli God of Love Hindu Mythology - He was Kama God of Love He Carries a Bow and Arrow like Cupid

The Story Of Cupid
There is a very interesting story about Cupid and His mortal Bride Psyche in Roman mythology. Venus was jealous of the beauty of Psyche, and ordered Cupid to punish the mortal. But instead, Cupid fell deeply in love with her. He took her as his wife, but as a mortal she was forbidden to look at him. Psyche was happy until her sisters persuaded her to look at Cupid. As soon as Psyche looked at Cupid, Cupid punished her by leaving her. Their lovely castle and gardens vanished too. Psyche found herself alone in an open field with no signs of other beings or Cupid. As she wandered trying to find her love, she came upon the temple of Venus. Wishing to destroy her, the goddess of love gave Psyche a series of tasks, each harder and more dangerous then the last. For her last task Psyche was given a little box and told to take it to the underworld. She was told to get some of the beauty of Proserpine, the wife of Pluto, and put it in the box. During her trip she

There Is Always An Answer
A great dog storyBy Catherine Moore 'Watch out! You nearly broad sided that car!' My father yelled at me. 'Can't you do anything right? ' Those words hurt worse than blows. I turned my head toward the elderly man in the seat beside me, daring me to challenge him. A lump rose in my throat as I averted my eyes. I wasn't prepared for another battle. 'I saw the car, Dad. Please don't yell at me when I'm driving.' My voice was measured and steady, sounding far calmer than I really felt. Dad glared at me, then turned away and settled back. At home I left Dad in front of the television and went outside to collect my thoughts. Dark, heavy clouds hung in the air with a promise of rain. The rumble of distant thunder seemed to echo my inner turmoil. What could I do about him? Dad had been a lumberjack in Washington and Oregon . He had enjoyed being outdoors and had reveled in pitting his strength against the forces of nature.. He had entered grueling lumberjack competitions, and had placed o

The Real Little Mermaid Story She Dies.....
When the Little Mermaid turns 15 she ventures to the surface. She sees a ship with a handsome prince, and falls in love with him. There comes a great storm, and the prince almost drowns, but the Little Mermaid saves him and she delivers him unconscious to the shore near a temple. Here she waits until he is found by a young girl from the temple. The prince never sees the Little Mermaid.The Little Mermaid asks her grandmother whether humans can live forever if they do not drown. She is told that no, humans have an even shorter lifespan than mermaids. Mermaids live for 300 years, but when they die they turn to sea foam and cease to exist. Humans, on the other hand, have a short lifespan on earth, but they have an eternal soul that lives on in heaven even after they die. The Little Mermaid spends her days longing for the prince and for an eternal soul. At last she goes to the Sea Witch who sells her a potion that gives her legs, in exchange for her tongue; the Little Mermaid has the pretti

[something Good Happened]
I found something interesting on a couple tabs on my box of tea the other day... Yunam black tea mushrooms...I said "alright, you know I can make this, and you know I can make it better- I accept your challenge!" So the recipe basically calls for tea braised mushrooms in a classic combination of chinese flavors and thickeners. It didn't particularly specify which mushrooms, but it did call for a double strength brew of black tea. I have loose tea on hand at all times, but its a hassle to make at work without some extra equipment so I used my loose tea, about... 1 1/2 tbs of black ceylon, that grade above powder, that step below leaf. I knew I'd be at my deli today and I knew there were dried porcinis, and the recipe called fora "1 mug" to 5 cups of mushroom ratio. .... I'm not going to eat five cups of mushrooms. So probably closer to 1 cup of mushrooms for me. Also, the recipe didn't say "oh yeah, and make rice", called for green onions, which I had none on hand so I used a clo

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Another Add To The Sh!t List .... Wth Is Wrong Wiff People >_
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What To Do All By Yourself On Valentine's Day.
For those of you who don't have that special someone on Valentine's Day, I've got a few tips on what to do to get you through the day. 1. DON'T GO OUT! If you leave your house, you're gonna see couples everywhere and you don't want that. 2. Order in food. You could cook dinner for yourself, but, that's just too depressing. 3. The cable stations will be deluged with chick flicks and the radio stations will be playing love songs, so, rent some wartime movies ("The Hunt For Red October," "Das Boot," "Platoon," etc.). OR, anything anti-romantic (i.e., horror). For music? Anything LOUD!; Metal, if you've got any. So, there you go and Happy Valentine's Day!

People Still Say Ni@@a? Effing Stop Racist Sh!t
εṃøвαɾвïε O_o said: ARE YOU FOR REAL ? wow you couldnt be more lame that seriously the best you can come up with since where using 3rd grade insluts , do u have hbo? omg u have horrible body Oder.. ohhhhhhhhhhh MY GOD LOL GEEZZ O_^ CraZy D1Am0nD said: yeah hooked on ebonics worked for you. ghetto trash εṃøвαɾвïε O_o said: LOL ANOTHER 3RD GRADE INSULT ...here u go call sings 1-800-97-jenny hows that for oldschool insults lol CraZy D1Am0nD said: what is this reference to old school? i thought they tore down schools that were old? εṃøвαɾвïε O_o said: lol are u that retarded? CraZy D1Am0nD said: i may be retarded but that is better than being a nigger

Real Life And Internet
I'm sorry for everyone I've hurt even if I didn't know I did. I'm not really an evil person and I try to be nice to everyon. For those of you who don't know, I am married. I will struggle to work things out with my life and my husband until he gives up. If you may have thought I lead you on I am sorry for that too. I didn't realize it. But I'd rather just be friends, nothing else. I love talking to everyone and its fine giving compliments and recieving compliments but it does not mean I will leave him for you. I have a familly with this man, and yes I do love them all. But I'm not gunna be the heartbreaker anyone wants me to be, because its only gunna hurt you. With all this being said, I hope that I will still have many friends and that no one will stop talking to me. I love my friends, they are just like family but over the net lol.

P - 13.02.2010 - Feelings Burst Out
I know the grammar is far from perfect but I wrote it myself and I'm dutch so give me credit :) --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I always thought it was perfect I always thought it was forever You and me, a dream came true Though I didn’t know how to be I did what I thought I had to do I did what I could Maybe it was more then I should But know it was because I love you And until today I didn’t stop loving you But I had to say goodbye too soon No more thinking of you No more kissing you No more holding you I know I am being weak now But it’s how you made me in the past You were the one when I met you And I still feel the same… I know I have to let you go now I know you have chosen another path But remember that I cherish you And that I wish you have a great life Even if it’s without me Because I know I love you more than anything in the world Goodbye for real, but never

Global Warming Hysteria Strikes Again
Writing in today's Morning Bell, Conn Carroll explores theLeft's latest hysterical claims about global warming: Today, NBC (which is owned by General Electric) will begin broadcasting the 2010 WinterOlympics from Vancouver, Canada. Only two events are scheduled for theopening day (alpine skiing and ski jumping), but even those events willbe difficult to pull off. Why? There is no snow in Vancouver. AndInternational Olympic Committee President Jacques Rogge knows exactlywhat is to blame: global warming. Rogge tells AFP: Globalwarming of course is a worry, it is a worry for the entireworld. Considering that NBC/GE has already received billions in TARPbailout cash from the Obama administration and is actively lobbyingfor a global warming energy tax bill so that it can receive billionsmore in government green-energy subsidies on top of the millions italready receives, we are sure to hear lots from NBC announcers about how the lack ofsnow in Vancouver is just another reason Washington ne

Males Vs Females
IT'S SIMPLE AND NOT THAT HARD. CATS AND DOGS DON'T GET ALONG. MALES&FEMALES HAVE HAD MANY PROBLEMS BUT IF WE SAT DOWN AND CALMLY TALKED-----AT LEAST WE WOULD LISTEN. LISTENING AND COMMUNICATION ARE THE KEY. WE ARE ONLY HERE ON EARTH FOR A SHORT TIME SO LET'S MAKE GOOD USE OF IT.

If Your Gay And U Know Clap Your Hands ....
OK LOOK ....Theres nothing wrong with being gay i luv gays actually hahaBUT YOU KNOW WHAT I FCUKING HATE.....WHEN MEN MAKE FAKE ACCOUNTS OF GIRLS TO TALK TO MEN ....OR WHEN MEN MAKE LEZ ACCOUNTS TO SPEAK TO WOMEN ...YOUR NOT A LEZ SO EFFIN STOP LIVING UR LITTLE LEZ FANTANSY THRU THE NET.. if u need to in realife put on a wig and be the little B1tch u are.AS FOR THE GAY MEN .... MAKE UR OWN ACCOUNT AND STOP TRICKING MEN INTO TALKING TO UR FAKE ACCOUNTS .... GO GET UR SELF A REAL GAY MAN IF UR A GAY MAN (note: this will not work if ur a doushe with no style cause gay men have great taste Js..)THERES MY RANT HAHA

Fubar Ego's Vs Real World Rant
We all know them , The men and women that think they are the hottest thing since french toast at ihop.....They are stuck up , Consided way to into themself because they alway get 11's or blings or whatever ...Sure thats annoying but New Flash Everyone gets 10's and 11's if not its considered down rating ... and People leave comments they will always say something nice about you , and oh ur sexy & ur hot might as well be a stamp or cut and paste cause its so widely used thats one of the reasons i hate being told that ....Buts what even more annoying is the guys that think they are real world pimps and have nothing but mostly fake aka non salute people that speak to them and they think they are to good to even reply to people ...then theres the ones that think everyone wants them to the ponit u cant even be nice to them cause they think ur intrested...then theres the worst the fakes that think they are hot cause they get told there hot even tho there using someone else pic or how abo

I'mmmmm Back!!!!
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Ash
As I walk into today,Yesterday is left behind.All the worries it brought,Slowly ease from my mind. Today is brand new,Full of new hopes and dreams.A new chance to be happy,At least it is for me. Yesterdays sorrows can not hold me back,Todays hopes will pull me through.The only way my day would be better,Is if I get to spend it with you.

Journal
we lay awake livin praying and thinking. we lay awake hoping for love from many. few of us knows whats wanted from heart but many knows whats just wanted from the start. life isnt carma of so why are so many, wishing and praying for that one to be with. if life was fair we would all be friendly if life was fair we wouldnt want much. life is unfair so we sit and we cry. wishing and praying for someone to wipe that tear from your eye. few of us find that one who we should be with and of that few only few stay with. we get so scared from hurt pain and lies. we get so hurt we just want to run and hide. we feel deep in our heart deep deep inside that someone may be there but never do we confide in those ones who truely are there. we think and we thought we have the best things. we wish the ones were with are the ones in the end. we use and get used and dont even care, those who matter isnt always going to be there. life is unfair it scares us to death. those who matter usually have there he

Life
My days are filled with anguish and pain.My nights are engulfed with an endless strain.Through the day I search for a way to end the feeling of emptiness in my life.But then night comes and reality cuts me sharp like a knife.For it is at night I realize I have accomplished little in my years.This is when my eyes begin to fill with tears.Although I know tomorrow will bring rays of sunshine to a few.For me it will bring another dayFilled with raindrops and dew.I do have hope for my future toHave joyous days.But this will take time, patience,And walking through a somewhat endless maze.

End Of Love
The end of love, the start of painThe blood from my heart that now aches, stainsWith the thought of your image, the thought of you careDevoted to another, whilst my spirit is bareWhere am I to go, where is my hope nowAm I no longer important like our dedicated vowsYou promised to always be there, and love me no matter whatBut it seems you’ve moved on, loved another and forgotThe breakdown of our relationship, the break of my poor heartYou punctured it with your cruel ways; you stabbed it with a dartYou took away my faith, my dreams, I now have nothing leftMy happiness has disappeared; a brutal act of theftYou promised to always be there, but now it all dependsOn if you’ve found another love and when my heartache ends

Romeo And Juliet
A tradjec tale of two that were not allowed to be together, but there love was stronger then there families rules to keep them apart so Juliet staged her death, but sent a letter to romeo but he never got it and when he saw her her dead he killed himself. After that Juliet woke up and saw he had killed him self so she killed her self to be with him in the afterlife, because there love was true to each other. I love this, because I would kill my self to be with my one true love. True love knows no bounds, and prevails through fire, but false love kills the soul and bleeds the heart of life.

Something To Think About
People believe in love, but there is no such thing as love only attraction, because when when someone better comes along then that attraction moves on to something better. If there was such thing as love then what is felt would keep that love together forever no matter what obstacles there are love always prevails and keeps two people together no matter the cost.

Possitive Image Fo Vampirizem In Washimgten State
Vampire Article - The Washington Post, courtesy of the AVA - A Vampire's Life? It's Really Draining - Washington Post http://www. washingtonpost. com/wpdyn/content/story/2008/11/14/ST2008111401409. html A Vampire's Life? It's Really DrainingForget 'Twilight.' These Folks Pale in Comparison to the Stereotype. By Monica HesseWashington Post Staff WriterMonday, November 24, 2008; Page C01 The vampire drank cola at the movie because the vampire does not drink blood. She remarked that the giggling teenagers buying popcorn in their capes were really, really great, but the vampire herself wore jeans and a gray T-shirt, as she breaks out vamparaphernalia only for special occasions. And after the 9:15 showing of the new hit film Twilight, the vampire went straight home with her teenage son, because the vampire is a doting mom. The vampire is Linda Rabinowitz, also known as Selket. She's in her thirties, lives in central Virginia and radiates warm approachability. If you needed a quarter t

[we Have Begun Negotiations]
She waited all freaking day to get back to me.That's an entire weekend I'm going to piss away that I could've been at someone else's house watching moviesand various other activities. Like playing pong.Wait... I can still do that. I don't have anything particularly interesting to say. Tomorrow will be good because it will be quiet.I won't have to beat anyone to death with an improvised weapon unless I want to.And... I dunno, isn't that cause enough to celebrate? No?Well fuck you then.And fuck the boat you came in on.And fuck that boat's mother. Alright, I've all but decided on a few lineups. "Paint it Black" Zaku II 1/100 with Hot Licks decal.Now if I could just find a 4 inch mic stand... Dom colors 1/144 Gouf with 9 ring chinese broadsword 1/100 Mass produced Zeta C-class.I know... a few things about this kitIt has fewer beveled armor surfaces, and fins rather than plates when compared to the original Zeta.It has blue beam sabers.I like that.The story's inundated with

Great Just What I Need....
My mothers word to her Dr. when she was told that the spots in her lungs were cancer and that there were more on her second CAT scan. She said this in an "oh for fucks sakes" way. Yeah,I couldn't see her saying it any other way. She has everything planned out. No funeral,just a get together at our home. She gives herself another year maybe. Knows that she wants her ashes with my fathers and to have them spread in the Colorado mountains. her words on that..."For god sakes don't get caught throwing your father and I out the window by the cops!" I thought I was gonna die! Althought,that would be a great story. I always hope my mother knows I love her and I always hope I will be like her. I love my mom :)

My Gorgeous Atheist Friend
Ah yes he IS sexy and one who don't believe in anthing.duhh hence Atheist Ok he knows who he is...haha...but for the ones who don't his name it is Emanon The Intelligent,,and who enjoys debating in Politics...HAHAHA and major Porn addict....haha...I adore this creature.ahh yes I do......Why do I adore him?? oh many reasons .....hmm...he cracks me up.... fantastic SICK sense of humor!! haha ...Ahh yes sick.he loves blood..ah the taste of human flesh..haha. Lmao...I can talk all day about my dear friend..that non-emotional creature ....Nazi grammar freak :P:P:P.......hahah I enjoy picking on him Now in closing,,,He's a GREAT FUCKING guy!! ..I wish they were MORE Emanon's out there...however .there is always original and that is he !!!

A Tribute
A leaf on the wind, in the stream, in the sky A flap of wings, a rustle of feathers A shrill cry, a glint in the sun A splash in the water, a drop of blood, death. High in the sky, my mind wanders The sights, the sounds, the air My friend, the Hawk, lives his life Far away from everything, from the worries of mankind. Gentle air currents lift him high Landing in the palm of the hand of God Space holds nothing over him For the sky is his, and his alone.

Oh Heavenly Father...
During one of the several snow days we have recently had, my daughter announces “Mommy, I am a Christian and I need to go to church. When will you take me?”Well quite floored, I asked her how she knew she was a Christian? Her response was “Because I believe and God, and you don’t.” After explaining that many religions believe in a god or gods, we had a discussion based on what my lunatic sister had been teaching my daughter, facts, and the stuff in the bible. We discussed this for several hours, me asking questions, her asking questions, and actually had a very good discussion. At the end of the conversation she said she wanted to think and we would talk about it again later. Thinking nothing more of it, we went several days without any further discussion on the matter. Finally, tonight on the way home, she announced “Mommy, I know why bad things happen to people. It is because God is really evil.” I laugh of course, and say, “ok honey, w

How To Block Porn With A Good Porn Blocker
Keeping a close look your children's internet activity at all times to know if they are or are not being honest is close to impossible for a parent to do so. Take a look at the availble filters online such as a porn blocker. There are a couple of things that a good porn blocker will do that a "content control filter" won't. Click here to read more - Best Porn Filter and How To Block Porn 1. A good porn blocker will block new porn websites. Did you know that there are over 4 million porn websites and counting? Knowing that, do any of the ones on your list say that they will block even the new sites that are popping up everyday? If not, scratch it off! 2.Do the porn blockers on your list work with all browsers? Some of the software out there is only compatible with certain internet browsers like: Internet Explorer or Firefox. You want one that works with them all! That way your child is protected if he/she decides to try to download a new browser. If the ones on your list are not comp

Valentine's Day
So Valentine's Day is in 2 days. For the first time in a while I have a boyfriend that I can buy for. Thing is, I have no idea what to get him. I was thinking of 2 CDs, but then thought that might be tacky. Is it? I'm helpless!!! oh and no "hookers and blow", I already suggested that to him and he said no, but he would like to see me try and score some blow because he doesn't think I can. =/

Fubar Emo's & Point Sluts
As when I am online on here...I see many status that gone emo ..So many people whining,,pondering,,asking "why ,why" and some who question life"..haha I sit back and laugh..Hahhah...I find it funny..So much attention wanted from such whining status'.....Ok you all whiners..if you want my attention..Grab a sharp blade then a camera and slice your arm....your tongue,,and slit your throat..I will be happy to see this !! ....Hhaha just call yourself EMO!! Now you point sluts...Hahah I smell you slutty points from miles away..HAHAH "you" would pay fubucks for a bling,,,,pimpout...and the thing I do not like..is the begging.....If you HAVE to beg for something on here...then you don't really need it ....hah..on the other hand....if you want REAL money.just go slut yourself out on the real streets.......Just saying... Have a wicked blooded weekend !!! hahahahah

John Sheds A Few Tears
Hey! John, there’s no crying in rock music. With John Mayer it’s OK to shed a few tears on stage. Tears are suppose to show sensitivity in a man. The only thing it shows me is that he spoke without consulting his brain. And who hasn’t done that? Now some Hollywood exec wants John to have, of all things, sensitivity training. I thought he showed that on stage with the tearful apology. For more tear jerking click it http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/02/12/john-mayers-hood-pass-revoked/?test=faces At BlastFM you won’t shed any tears. You’ll just have a good time. Click it and see www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Obvious
I have stared at a hollow grave. The waves of my life just rock me to sleep. It's the only thing I feel I have to help. And when I am asleep my haunted memories let the nightmares unfold me. No matter how hard I try I can't help but remember it. Don't fall down because an angel should never touch the ground he says. And I'm higher than I was yesterday. Believe me. But I'm a shattered torn tree in a deciduous forest. You can grab me by my waist and never let go. I'm waiting for the answer. I'm waiting in the deep silence. I'm waiting to fight through what's right and what's wrong to get me to you. A simple thing as your touch can pull me out of the hollow tree. I am buried here with this weight over my shoulders. And I want you. I hear your whispers they have spoken to me in a world that no one else can see.

Chineese New Year
Well first off Happy New Year! What is the US doing to ring in Chineese New Year? It may suprise you.Let's start with are NASA=NAZI buddies they have big plans for the cassini satelite starting with a spectacular sunrise from behind saturn. While I am sure that will be facinating indeed the meat of the story is afterwards. The satelite will then turn it's gaze to Mimas one of Saturn's moons. What interests me about Mimas is that it is a dead ringer for the Death Star of Star Wars fame. I will link to one of my favorite authors wordpress blog at the end of this post for a more in depth description. This in the same week the announcement was made that NASA will officially be placed in the defense department where they will be safe from prying eyes behind the national security act. The same week our space program was largley privatized it is much easier to shift blame to an "evil" multi-national corporation when one's hand gets caught in the cookie jar. The same week NASA launches the sun

Must Read
Around age 10 my dad got me one of those little badass compound bowbeginner kits. Of course, the first month i went around our landsticking arrows in anything that could get stuck by an arrow. Didyou know that a Farmall tractor will take 6 roundsbefore it goes down? Tough sumbich.That got boring, so being the 10 yr. old Dukes of Hazzard fan that iwas, i quickly advanced to taking strips of cut up Tshirt doused inchainsaw gas tied around the end and was sending flaming arrows allover the place. Keep in mind this was 99.999% humidity swampland sothere really wasnt any fire danger. Ill put it this way- a set ofpost hole diggers and a 3ft. hole and you had yourself a well.One summer afternoon, i was shooting flaming arrows into a largerotten oak stump in our backyard. I looked over under the carportand see a shiny brand new can of starting fluid (ether). The lightbulb went off. I grabbed the can and set it on the stump. I thoughtthat it would probably just spray out in a dissapointing mann

Superficial Holiday
yep u guessed it! once again society is sucked in by corporations trying to make money.. the so called "holiday" actually makes me sick. I love to be loved on like any other women but there is something about valentines day that doest work for me. how can one person justify love but buying gifts from a store?? to me that isn't an I love u. if one is to celebrate the "holiday" of love then one must show it from the heart. that means men get off ur asses and show ur women u care enough other then to buy her stuff and women get off ur asses as well and show ur men how it feels to truely love em. if u have shitty opinions for reading this keep em to urself. cuz honestly i dont really care just my feelings on the crappy holiday.

Saliva - Rest In Pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did It has not healed with time It just shot down my spine You look so beautiful tonight Reminds me how you laid us down And gently smiled before you destroyed my life Would you find it in your heart To make this go away And let me rest in pieces (let me rest in pieces) Would you find it in your heart To make this go away And let me rest in pieces (let me rest in pieces) Pieces Look at me, my depth perception must be off again You got much closer than I thought you did I'm in your reach You held me in your hands Would you find it in your heart To make this go away And let me rest in pieces (let me rest in pieces) Would you find it in your heart To make this go away And let me rest in pieces (let me rest in pieces)

Intro
What you know and what you think, are opposites. What you think and what you see is nothing compaired to what really exists. In this ceremony shall you give praise to the reflection. Through these words shall you understand the numbers five, six and seven. The metamorphisis has begun. The skin has been shaped. The stitches now ripped out and the wound is exposed. The choice is upon you now. Choose, shall you live like the Spaniel that rolls upon its back when kicked. Or shall you indulge in desire and vengence. Join me on this day and prepare for the next chapter In Nomine SickTanicK.

Unholy Blood, Unholy Grail
Ah shit, here we go again, descendInto the depths of your mortal sinsStare into the abyss and piss on the crucifixAnd live for yourself, fuck them and reject the spiritYour Magdelene was nothing less than a street walkerAnd Jesus Christ is not my fatherAnd if he is he's a deadbeat dadAnd I'm glad that back in the day they crucified his assI eat the souls of Christians for dinnerI take away the faith and turn them all into sinnersWorld wide I want to watch them dieCause this is only the beginning of religion genocideSo you can go ahead and call me a selloutBut the matter of the fact is that you fagots are jealousBecause I have the nuts to say what you won't saySo take heed today's your judgement dayDrink forth, the taste is bitterInside the symbolism is my message deliveredThe Heavens weep as we all prevailAnd drink, unholy blood from the unholy grail, uhDrink forth, the taste is bitterInside the symbolism is my message deliveredThe Heavens weep as we all prevailAnd drink, unholy blood

Cornerstone
Welcome to my unholy executionLife is just a lie so death becomes the one solutionI am the cyst that grows upon the lambGod damn the blaspheme is too much for a mortal manI am me, without me, he's unknownMay the darkness gives light to illuminate the throneI bestow the path and that path is homeWhile the rest sit alone I stand up on my ownTriple seven, I'll never make it to HeavenInstead I, spit venom to the Holiest of reverendsAnd I sever the veins as a tie to GodAnd I drink forth from Sodom like my name was Marque de SaudI have not come to bring the world to peaceI have come to lead the children to the beastI have come to feast upon the whore that is called BabylonWith my phallic swordI am the Prophet, the beast, the number triple sevenI have ascended, beyond the God that reigns in HeavenI have come to know there is no law beyond my willIn this message, the cornerstone is now rebuiltEverything is built into a structureIn the shape of a dick that is ready to fuck yaSodomy is a part of

7 Vital Sins
Pride is the first of the 7 vital sinsTo become it is to be over and over againRecognize your potential without Gods graceYour inner fire must burn away any remnant of faithIn this place how can you get by not knowing what tomorrow holdsBecause tomorrow you may be dead and coldYou have to have pride to know that you're gonna surviveAnd so this sin is vital to your lifeEnvy is a sin that we all commitBecause we base our whole lives on each others accomplishmentsWe all want to be the best at what we doThough it's been done by the person before youWe take examples of each others successAnd try to do it even better so in turn we are enviousYou have to envy to build up your own goalsAnd take control because death is inevitableGluttony is to consume more than you needBut life is worthless without a taste of everythingTo drink forth from this vital sinIs to be truely grateful of everything that life givesTo not indulge is to not live lifeAnd you only live it once I suggest that you live it ri

The Abyss
I stare in the abyss, it's staring back at meI'm lost between the depths of my insanityForever nothing, I am my own enemyAnd now I face myself and now I face myselfI stare in the abyss, it's staring back at meI'm lost between the depths of my insanityForever nothing, I am my own enemyAnd now I face myself and now I face myselfInto the void I stare the blackness overwhelms the sensesBut overall I'm feeling nothing you can call me senselessI keep on going in this life because I am relentlessYou tear me down but I build myself back up, hence thisSong I wrote when I stared into my own abyssThere is no love here, no faith and no accomplishmentsThere's only hatred, I live on self punishmentSelf flagellation, I hurt myself for the fuck of itDon't get it twisted cause this ain't another sad songI've passed all that, I stood up and I moved onBut I've felt more pain in my life than any normal person out thereBy my very own pain I maintain the proof to myself that there's no one up thereI take my

Path Of Initiation
My blood boils with rage and burns slow like sageAnd with every song I write I fill up another pageIn this grand grimoire you can open doorsMentally let my words sink into your pours, yeahAnd into your mind you'll never know what you'll findThese premanitions are more than a simple signIt's more deep than mankind, more deep than a false Savior,More deep than the hands of timeIt's like every word I say is a part of this puzzleDon't be mistaken the answer is forever shuffledWithin the artwork, tracks and numbersThis is initiation for it you must sufferTake my hand, let me lead straight into the fireYou bought the record so it must be your true desireI am the Prophet speaking to my congregationDisciples now prepare for the path of initiationThis is the path of initiationThe cycle of death brings forth creationYou must die for illuminationDivination is your destinationThis is the path of initiationThe cycle of death brings forth creationYou must die for illuminationDivination is your desti

Spoken Words #1
My mind is ripped like Bible pages torn and scattered in the ancientlands. I spoke to the hidden one and the hidden one told me I must writethese Doctrines of The Damned. I must spread them across the Aeonsof time and space. For the eternity of damnation is nothing more thanfive minutes in this world and so I take cover in what some call a Uholy place.I have evoked a feeling and conscequences brought forth by the waking dream of society. I have enclosed Gnosis and power for those who will choose to listen. But for many that get this record their minds will become more of a confined prison. I will pray for you, but not to some fake God that shakes his fingers at us, yelling down to the earth for we do not follow his will. But to the dead souls decades past, remember always for the weak will be nothing more than killed. i have traveled vast distance and seen these United States. I have spoken to the prophet a politician with contracts and a breifcase. And he said unto meYou are dead, but

Portrait Of The Devil
My body is the canvas, your brush it is the weaponYou paint me Hellbound while you paint yourself in HeavenI am the veil that is lifted from the ignorantI give knowledge, I teach Disciples disciplineYou preach intolerance and bigotry through the subconsciousAnd your political religious system makes me vomitFuck America for trying to put me on a crossMy name ain't Jesus and no my soul is not lostYou think that it is about all the shit I talk aboutBut I'm a catalyst for any kid that has a doubtAbout the system or religious institutionsCause for some of these kids my music brings a positive solutionBut you, you fill their heads with this nonsenseThe world is fucked up and you ain't helping progressSo next time you point the finger at mePoint it first to the news broadcast on tvI will see no evil because that's all I seeAnd I will hear no evil because that's all I speakYour God is dead so you crucify meI'm the Devil, the Devil, you paint a portrait of the DevilI will see no evil because th

Force Of Destruction
By the father (You'd)By the mother (Hey)By the prince (Vav)By the princess (Hey)By the father (You'd)By the mother (Hey)By the prince (Vav)By the princess (Hey)Belasti ompedaBehold the mighty voice of my vengenceRepenteth not now I hand down the sentenceI am a monolith of wrath to my enemiesAnd now I call the fire forth from my inner seedI call upon the messengers of doomTo slash with grim delight any motherfucker that I chooseAnyone who's ever stabbed me in the backOr has wished me death I now curse upon this trackAnd you ain't gotta believe because you'll soon seeYour lives fall apart cause you tried to break meGo in haste and travel safelyI don't gotta lift a finger and you don't gotta face meOne day your life will shatter like a peice of glassAnd at that moment I will have my last laughAnd you will see the power of the left hand pathWhen a simple car ride turns quick into a blood bathIncant and conjure for the purpose of deathMay all my enemies come unto their last breathIgnite my

Ritual Rape
I watch you as an outsiderI consider this a drug with each dose I get a little higherYour my obsession whos got me stressin'The main target for release of my aggressionI sneak inside your room and watch you in your peaceful sleepI stand in silence all my secrets you forever keepI stay quiet so you don't wake upAnd as I go through your stuff I'm puttin' on your make-upEyeshadows and lipstickI wanna look just like you when I show you why my name is SickI put your panties on and sit up on the cold floorYou are my object but then again you're much moreI slowly slide the covers off and get in bed with youYou toss and turn you're not awake and that's incredibleYou're not my first and you won't be my lastStay asleep and stay quiet and I'll make this fast, yeahYou try to run but there's no escapeThere's no escape from the ritual rape (from the ritual rape)You better know I'm here to seal your fateAnd your body I will desecrate (I will desecrate)You try to run but there's no escapeThere's no es

Save Yourself
Get off the cross and save yourselfI feel no pity for the God of the weak manGet off the cross and save yourselfRepent if not for this is the Doctrines of The DamnedI feel no pity for the Son of a God that is weak and forgivingLest we forget religion is the reason for blood it be spillingI never asked for you to climb up on that crossCause I was the one that was on the ground whipping you like a fuckin' dogPut the spear up in your side, the Son of God is crucifiedNow how in the fuck can the Son of a God be put in the place of a man who can dieAll these questions are forever whispered to your childrenFuck a record sale and the Lord himself it's a motherfuckin' army appealed itGet off the cross and save yourselfI feel no pity for the God of the weak manGet off the cross and save yourselfRepent if not for this is the Doctrines of The DamnedI never asked for Jesus Christ to die for all my sinsAnd if repentance is the Christian way I don't repentI refuse to be enslaved to that gory figureTa