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Please Help
Im not exactly sure how to get all this out and still make sense, I suck with wording sometimes, please bare with me... I have been with my kids father for 10 years, all together... we split up for most of 07 but we are back together now... have been since nov 07... when I was gone, he was with this other chic and while he was with her, he ended up getting addicted to pain killers. she had like three different types and was more than happy to share them with him... well, now he FINALLY wants to get off of them... he had his first appointment at a methadone (sp?) clinic this morning and he says he feels pretty positive that it will be a good thing here's where I need the help: Do any of you know anyone that has ever been through this??? Was there still a detox period?? Is there ANYTHING at all that I can do to help make things easier for him?? we might not always get along but I will always love him and dont want to see anything bad happen to him any suggestions are

Rez. Alert
Mar 26, 2009 12:06 ET Native Americans Face Third World Conditions at the Hands of Electric Company. Reports CAN-DO Central Electric Cooperative Disconnects Electricity in Nation's Poorest County Despite Freezing Temperatures. FORT THOMPSON, SD--(Marketwire - March 26, 2009) -Temperatures reaching below 7 degrees F with the wind chill and blizzards on the Crow Creek Reservation this week have become an emergency situation as Central Electric Cooperative continues cutting power, leaving many residents in the nation's poorest county without heat, losing their food, water, and in some cases, threatening their lives. 'This is blatant abuse and the destruction of a community,' stated Eric Klein, Founder of CAN-DO. 'What people need to understand is that when a person gets their power cut, they not only lose their heat and lights, but they also lose their food and often times water when their pipes can break due to freezing temperatures, costing the residents thousands of dollars in rep

Who Are We
That alarm clock cannot defend itself As water cannot walk on land Stars cannot fall to earth I cannot walk in space. We are all and we are none. The object rings The element splashes The energy shines The human laughs We are all and we are none. The object breaks. The element freezes The energy fades The human dies. We are all and we are none.

Pain
Ok I am in alot of pain and trying to keep up here I dont know if i will be on much more it is really killing me I am to the point that i was B4 and it sucks I hope I dont have to have Surgery again...Omg just venting and in alot of pain!!!

Taken
Without you Life is colorless The flowers Emit no scent There is no Bird song The sun forever Remains hidden Behind cloud The wind blows Bitter through The world Everything is frozen When you left You took with you All the worlds warmth You took the bright, Happy, lovely So here I sit Amidst the cold And the dark And I cry For the birds, The flowers, The sun, The world, But mostly I cry for the void That now resides Within my chest

Tough Times..hard Choices
i am so exhausted yet cannot sleep because there is so much on my mind. phillip and i have been together for over 5 years now and it hasnt been a day in the park by no means. the only thing we agree on is that we have two beautiful and loving girls. i want the gf/bf relationship to end. i am tired of being full of hatred and being mean to him that isnt who i am. when i am playing with our girls (which is everyday) i am so happy, i couldnt be happier being around them. i wont lie sometimes it is nice to have a break but i couldnt stay away from them for longer than half a day. phillip and i broke up last year around jan. and i went to stay at my moms for a while. i was miserable without seeing them everyday. i want phillip and i to seperate because we fight about everything and anything. he says mean things and so do i, but what hurts is that our girls are here when we fight. i dont want them growing up in an enviroment full of fighting and hatred. they are the only thing that matters t

Random
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle, but, if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best!Marilyn Monroe I knew i liked her for a reason

Poems
Fair maiden, on his back He soars through the skies Over mountains and streams Surveying all the lands The Noble dragon lord A princely sight to see The wind in his face And love in his heart For finding his true love Was not what he sought As he rescued the fair maid From her sacrificial fate But as into her eyes The noble lord did gaze Spellbound by her beauty His heart to her he gave How could a maiden so fair Love a creature like him The dragons questioned Her true love for him His eyes she now gazed into, And answered Him with truth I see your love and honour And so my life I give to you It's just the little homely things,The unobtrusive, friendly things.The "wont-you-let-me-help-you" thingsThat make our pathway light--And its just the jolly, joking things,The "never-mind-the-trouble" things,The "laugh-with-me, it's funny" thingsThat make the world seem bright.For the countless famous things,The wonderous, record-breaking things,THose "never-can-be-equalled" thingsThat all the

Funny Stuff
A woman brought a very limp duck into a veterinary surgeon. As she laid her pet on the table, the vet pulled out his stethoscope and listened to the bird's chest. After a moment or two, the vet shook his head and sadly said, "I'm sorry, your duck, Cuddles, has passed away." The distressed woman wailed, "Are you sure?" "Yes, I am sure. Your duck is dead," replied the vet.. "How can you be so sure?" she protested. "I mean you haven't done any testing on him or anything. He might just be in a coma or something." The vet rolled his eyes, turned around and left the room. He returned a few minutes later with a black Labrador Retriever. As the duck's owner looked on in amazement, the dog stood on his hind legs, put his front paws on the examination table and sniffed the duck from top to bottom. He then looked up at the vet with sad eyes and shook his head. The vet patted the dog on the head and took it out of the room. A few minutes later he returned with a cat. The cat jumped on the tab

Flames!!
Ok, I know my location says I live in Australia, but before that I lived in the United States. So thats where the majority of the Columbia River Gorge photos come from. Im justifiably proud of this region - its where I was born and where I was raised (not counting the odd times I did live somewhere else). The Columbia Gorge is also where a great many of the scenes from the movie Twilight comes from. Yes, its that beautiful there. Before you ask, while I miss the beauty, I don't really miss living there, simply because at heart I'm a wanderer, and I always take pleasure in seeing new places! That is after all why there are photos :P I moved from one state to another, and never ran into anyone I knew online.... I moved back home, and never saw people I knew in real life! I moved overseas, and what happens? I start finding people I knew from my past on websites I visit! Yes, Fubar is the current place where I have met someone who I used to know long ago.... how long ago? well, lets

Everyone Read
ok something has happened and i have to move back to tennessee...today is april 4th and i will be leaving this coming weekend...i will not have internet for a bit but i will be getting it back just as soon as i can...Fubar rocks and i have awesome family, friends, and fans...i will not forget anyone even though i will not be able to be on for awhile but im just asking that no one forget me...Lots of love to all my fu-people!!!

Women
Why Women Cry... A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry. Finally he put prayed to God who would surely know the answer. When God responded he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?" God said: "When I made the woman she had to be to be made special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. gave her the sensitivity t

Career Related
WATERTOWN, N.Y. -- There were few dry eyes at Saturday's memorial at Jefferson Community College for slain paramedic student Mark Davis. The 25 year old was shot while responding to a call on January 31st by the person he was trying to help. Mark Davis, an EMT, a brother, a friend, and a hero.

Fuck You
Basically, all that I have to say, I said in my subject line. I hate everyone, I hate everything, I wish Mom would flush it all away. Make things right again. But she won't. We haven't fucked her up enough yet to piss her off. Christ Cakes and Dollar Bills. I'm still waiting for this world to end. But shit, I'll probably die before that happens. Figures. I'm jettin now. If you read this, please fuck off and die. "Confrontation"Don't Be.....Silent.FIGHT.(violence, m

Mistress......
I will not use Mistress's bra as a sling. > I will not goose Mistress when she isn't looking.> I will not make funny noises when Mistress is on the phone.> I will not call Mistress's underwear "granny panties". > I will not expel gas and blame it on Mistress.> I will not make up cutesy names for Mistress's whips, floggers, or> paddles.> I will not put Mistress's blindfold on the Cat.> I will not try and give away any of Mistress's toys.> I will not giggle and yell "Quit Tickling" while Mistress is flogging me.> I will not participate in belching contests with other subbies.> I will not hide the remote from Mistress. > I will not snore while scening with Mistress.> I will not drool when we go into the leather shop.> I will not yell "Hail Satan!" when Mistress orders me to do something.> I will not say "Oh yeah! You and what army" to Mistress.> I will not starch Mistress's bra.> I will not drop kick Mistress's cat.> I will not use Mistress's hairbrush to kill bugs of any kind.> I will no

Blonde Joke
BLIND MAN IN A FEMALE BIKER BAR A blind man wanders into a Female Biker Bar by mistake. He finds his way to a bar stool and orders some coffee.After sitting there for awhile, he yells to the waiter, 'Hey, you wanna hear a blonde joke?' The bar immediately falls absolutely silent.In a very deep, husky voice, the woman next to him says, 'Before you tell that joke, sir, I think it's only fair, given that you' re blind, that you should know five things: 1) The bartender is a blonde girl with a baseball bat.2) The bouncer is a blonde girl.3) I'm a 6 foot tall, 175 lb. blonde woman with a black belt in karate.4) The woman sitting next to me is blonde and a professional weightlifter.5) The lady to your right is blonde and a professional wrestler.Now, think about it seriously, Mister.Do you still wanna tell that joke?' The blind man thinks for a second, shakes his head, and mutters....'No, not if I'm gonna have to explain it five times.

Harvard University Pays Tuition For You!!!
Harvard University Announcement Harvard University (free-no tuition) Harvard University announced that from now on undergraduate students fromlow-income families will pay no tuition. In making the announcement,Harvard's president Lawrence H. Summers said, ―When only ten per-cent of thestudents in elite higher education come from families in the lower half ofthe income distribution, we are not doing enough. We are not doing enough inbringing elite higher education to the lower half of the in-comedistribution. If you know of a family earning less than $60,000 a year with an honorstudent graduating from high school soon, Harvard University wants to paythe tuition. The prestigious university recently announced that from now onundergraduate students from low-income families can go to Harvard for freeno tuition and no student loans! To find out more about Harvard offering free tuition for families makingless than $60,000 a year, visit Harvard's financial aid website at:http://www.f

For You Cool Fubarians
I'd like to take this time to thank EVERYONE for showing me love. I already know I have the coolest friends, and now I've had the pleasure of meeting more of you. That's a definite turn on for me cuz I truly

Lyrics
You're My WorldThe Shelter From The RainYou're The PillsThat Take Away My PainYou're The LightThat Helps Me Find My WayYou're The WordsWhen I Have Nothing To SayAnd In This WorldWhere Nothing Else Is TrueHere I AmStill Tangled Up In YouI'm Still Tangled Up In YouStill Tangled Up In YouYou're The FireThat Warms Me When I'm ColdYou're The HandI Have To Hold As I Grow OldYou're The ShoreWhen I Am Lost At SeaYou're The Only ThingThat I Like About MeAnd In This WorldWhere Nothing Else Is TrueHere I AmStill Tangled Up In YouI'm Still Tangled Up In YouHow Long Has It BeenSince This Storyline BeganAnd I Hope It Never EndsAnd Goes Like This ForeverIn This WorldWhere Nothing Else Is TrueHere I AmStill Tangled Up In YouTangled Up In YouI'm Still Tangled Up In YouStill Tangled Up In You

Please Read
If anyone cares to read this, I'm canceling my VIP and letting it expire and taking time off from Fubar. I can't afford to buy myself auto 11s since I can't get one from anyone no matter how much I beg and plead. The most I can afford is a 5 credit bling pack for 4.99. I'm taking off. Maybe get on here for an occasional check up but I'm up to level 26 and that is a good level for me to stick with for awhile. Maybe something will happen while I'm away. laterz!

What A Jerk
this guy won me in a auction almost 2 months ago, he bid a 7 day blast but we agreed on a bling pack instead of the blast, i have yet to recieve anything from him. So ladies beware if he bids on you chances are he wont pay up.

Why I Am Not Inclined To Like Guys In The Armed Forcesl
I have a good reason. Let me see, start with John and the few months of chatting and two visits and many letters to him, I don't hear from him for a year. Then surprise he decided to start a chat again once. Then after a couple of texts back and forth and then again silence. Thn a few months later a text meant for his friend sent to me, that hurts. There is also Ben and two years of chat and my really trying to meet him he then starts to ignore me. Then Chris, he says he wants a relationship and then ignore me for month, then again texting me a while ago and then I am nice and then I am ignored from him. I forgot a marine from sevveral years ago, I forget his name but we chatted for awhile and then silence after a few months of chatting and never heard from him sense.

Real World Stuff
I thought this was a very good subject and well worth the printing and bogging. Teaching Tolerance The Need for a Clear and Practical Definition Eric Buehrer In recent years, schools have given an increasing amount of attention to issues surrounding diversity and tolerance. Character education courses, multicultural material, and even health curricula weave the theme of tolerance through their lessons. Incidents such as the murder of Matthew Shepard because he was gay, or the brutal killing of James Byrd because he was African American, or the attacks on synagogues and churches shock us into the reality that hate-motivated crime is still alive in America. While some people use these tragedies to create the appearance of a crisis largely for political reasons, it must be pointed out that incidents of hate crimes are relatively rare. For example, incidents of hate crimes in 2001 were only 0.082 percent of all crimes (including intimidation -- causing reasonable fear of bo

Mm How I Felt
the pain was like a sudden release truth bliss found my heart started to pound just by the sound the blood starts to drip i had to get grip teeth start to tare all i could do is stare and open my eyes and Indore this true surprise knowing that the feeling was so strong i knew this emotion i would always hold on.

How I Have Felt Or Wanted
Hello you goodbye me I need too get away from this feeling so you take over ill go away. Who would mind anyway. I don’t need to be all I want is to be set freeI’m entrapped in my own body. I fight but I lose maybe this is what I choose. It must be my fault all the bad things that have happenedAll the people who came and went. It has too be me I’m the one to blame I feel so much shame. Its like I disappeared went some where else during those times. I wanted to say no but I couldn’t get out. I felt weak in the knees and wanted to scream this isn’t me. But maybe just maybe I deserve this consist nagging in my mind. My heart has fall and broken so many times. All I want is to not care this I have tried. It seems I trust to much think maybe just maybe if I give them what want they will stay around. But hey not everyone stays mostly they all leave any way I cant keep you your not mine. Even if you were id chase you away after time. You don’t

I Got Flowers Today
Days have passed since I felt the wind upon my face. Days will come before I will see reality. But I am ready. I have worked my way out of this depression. I have slept through my days of not living up to my own standards. Too busy worried about others, now it is my turn. I will be better.

Music First Song I Created
The First Mistake versus 1 There singing this to you just to tell you that I still think about you/I want to ask you how you been and who you with/how are you in this world/I still think about you and where would we be now/when you lay there all alone do you think about me like

Pisces
ABOUT PISCEANSPisces is hot. A strange thing to say about a water sign...or is it? Like Scorpio, Pisces is very much focused on sex. These two signs have quite a bit in common sexually. They are both mysterious, albeit in different ways. Scorpio fairly oozes unfathomable mystery--dark, decadent, and delightful. Pisces mystery is more subtle, more spiritual, more changing. Pisces is mutable water, after all. Ruled by Neptune, Pisces is at home in the 12th house of the zodiac. The touch of the Pisces alternates between hard and soft, but it is always memorable. Their eyes will melt into your soul. They know how to make any moment magical; they can turn even the worst situation or tortuous sexual position into a fantasy come true.What sets Pisces apart from all the other signs sexually is their willingness to try anything. Scorpio will indulge all sexuality too, but a Scorpio wants it to be their own idea. Pisces doesn't mind if you are the instigator, in fact, he or she enjoys your sugge

I Miss Ronnie Soooooo Much
My baby Ronnie is in jail, I miss him soooo freackin much, i dont waana live without him, i cant be in our house i cant look at our dirty clothes i dont wanna breathe cause it hurts.... i just want my baby back.........

Eternity
As the sun slowly fades into the horizonThe light of that day slowly goes to none,The light of that night then comes into viewYet, the light of my life- I shall always see in you.My sun, my moon, my stars up above,I see in you my one true love.The thoughts I have, the feelings I possess,Is that of you? I do so fully confess.Your beautiful words touch deep into my heart,I pray, these words and I shall never part.But what can I say you have done to me,Just that my love for you will last for all eternity.

Written By A Good Friend
Everyone Needs SomeonePeople need people and friends need friendsAnd we all need love, for a full life dependsNot on vast riches or great acclaimNot on success or worldly fameBut just in knowing that someone caresAnd holds us close in their thoughts and prayersFor only the knowledge that we're understoodMakes everyday living, feel wonderfully goodAnd we rob ourselves of life's greatest needWhen we "lock up our hearts" and fail to heedThe outstretched hand reaching to findA kindred spirit whose heart and mindAre lonely and longing to somehow shareOur joys and our sorrows and to make us awareThat life's completeness and richness dependsOn the things we share with our loved ones and friends Written by a friend for Me Someone I think is Special

When Im Gone
Theres another world inside of me That you may never see There are secrets in this life That I cant hide Somewhere in this darkness Theres a light that I can't find Maybe its too far away... Or maybe I'm just blind... So hold me when Im here Right me when Im wrong Hold me when Im scared And love me when 'm gone Everything I am And everything in me Wants to be the one You wanted me to be Ill never let you down Even if I could Id give up everything If only for your good So hold me when Im here Right me when Im wrong You can hold me when Im scared You wont always be there So love me when Im gone......

My Odd Thoughts
There are times in our lives that make us enter the realm of the unknown. We begin to see the other side of ourselves at this point. There is no turning back at this point, no u-turn. The path is set before us is hard and extravagantly rocky with all the pressures of outside influences. Some make it to the end, others do not. How we navigate and learn in this unknown abyss makes us more aware of the opposite side of life. We rarely see any influence that shows us a good way to crawl through this, but they are out there. There are songs, people, movies, and books that make the journey less desperate than it is. Focusing and surrounding yourself with these make all the jolts of pain and the face plants less than what they would be without them. The trek is something to be aware of, and if, only if, you make it out, are you wise enough to say you have lived. A million souls have vanished before I met you. Time was irrelevant and pain full when my eyes were open. I never understood what it

Poems
everyday i think of you what you would be like today how handsome you would be i think of your wonderful smile i think of your beautiful laugh and now i want to say to you i miss you my child To like someone is difficult To love someone is hard If you give it all you got

I Believe I Am A Pessimist When Comes To Online !
I am such a pessimist when comes to online anymore. I just do not understand many things on here..but all i hear is..its fantasy. Does anyone actually value friendship though?

Who Wants To Know Me
well im new to this, how i found out about this site, it was from my cousin's ex boyfriend... i have blue eyes, blonde hair, im abt 5'7, have an amazing protective loving boyfriend we have been together for 1 year. im currently a senior, will be graduating on may 30th, which means 2 days apart from my 19th bday on may 28th hehehe.. i can be outgoing, a bitch, rude, uptight, i have a major trust issues when it comes to people or anyone... i hate dramas, liars, perverts, pimps, sluts, whore, etcs... i do like to party but i have to control my drinking lol... whoever got myspace, and who wants to add me, then you need to ask me for it then i will find you... any more questions for me, ask away..

All Gave Some, Some Gave All
ETERNAL REST GRANT THEM O LORD, AND LET PERPETUAL LIGHT SHINE UPON THEM. I knew a man, called him Sandy Kane Few folks even knew his name But a hero, yes was he Left a boy, came back a man Still many just don't understand About the reasons we are free. I can't forget the look in his eyes Or the tears he cries As he said these words to me. All gave some, some gave all And some stood through for the red, white and blue Some had to fall And if you ever think of me Think of all your liberties and recall Some gave all. Now Sandy Kane is no longer here But his words are oh so clear As they echo through out our land For all his friends who gave us all Who stood the ground and took the fall To help their fellow man. Love your country and live with pride And don't forget those who died. America can't you see. All gave some and some gave all Some stood through for the red, white and blue And some had to fall And if you ever think of me Think of all your liberties and recall Some g

The Love Letter
to whom it may concern, I seen you from the shadows of my mind but you would never get close enough fo rme to see your face. I watched you coutionly as you sat there watching me not knowing what or when you would say something. Scared of if you would leave and not come back, but never reliezing that it was fear i was scared of but of getting to close to you. As a great woman onced said " If you dont go after what you wont then how will

My Best Friend
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING THROUGH THE DESERT . DURING SOME POINT OF THE JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND , TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE .. THEY KEPT ON WALKING, UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS, WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH . THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING, BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM. AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM THE NEAR DROWNING, HE WROTE ON A STONE: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE" THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU, YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW, YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?" THE FRIEND REPLIED "WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY. BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US, WE M UST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT" LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE Y

Hott Lips Spring Auction
HOTT LIPS SPRING STAFF AUCTIONDEADLINE REMINDER - TOMORROW MORNING 10 AM EDT (FRIDAY)HOW TO ENTER:LOOK IN DIBS' DEFAULT FOLDER OF PICTURESTHERE IS AN OLD AUCTION POSTERLOOK AT WHAT I OFFERED FOR IDEAS ON YOUR OFFERYOU MAY PICK FROM THOSE OR ADD OR DO LESS - IT'S UP TO YOU ---- THE FU-BUX IN THE AUCTION GO TO YOU... NO 10% OR ANYTHING TO LOUNGE THE OFFER NEEDS TO BE SENT TO HATESAFORD OR ME - FU-MAIL - DEADLINE: 10 AM EDT TOMORROW AUCTION BEGINS MONDAY, APRIL 13, 8 AM EDT & RUNS THRU FRIDAY, APRIL 17, 10 PM EDT TO BID - GO TO HOTT LIPS PROFILE PAGE - PIX - LEAVE PHOTO COMMENT ON PERSON'S OFFER PIC WITH BID OVER THE ONE UNDERNEATH WINNERS WITH HIGHEST BID WILL BE CONTACTED SATURDAY NIGHT 4/18 AT 9 EDT SEND AUCTIONEE FU-BUX - - IF NOT PD BY MONDAY - THE WINNER WILL BE THE NEXT HIGHEST BID.

Stuff
Heard this tonight and definitely hit a chord with me. Perfect song...especially the parts in bold...Justin Timberlake - What Goes Around Comes AroundHey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?You know I gave you the worldYou had me in the palm of your handSo why your love went awayI just can't seem to understandThought it was me and you babeMe and you until the endBut I guess I was wrongDon't want to think about itDon't want to talk about itI'm just so sick about itCan't believe it's ending this wayJust so confused about itFeeling the blues about itI just can't do without yaTell me is this fair?Is this the way it's really going down?Is this how we say goodbye?Should've known better when you came aroundThat you were gonna make me cryIt's breaking my heart to watch you run around'Cause I know that you're living a lieThat's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...What goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes all the way back aroundWhat goes around, goes around, goes aroundComes al

Letting Go
This was up on the bulletin board at a place I go for classes and meetings and support groups and I thought I would share it here with all of you. It's about learning when to let go. > To "LET GO" does not mean to stop caring. It means I can't do it for someone else.> To "LET GO" is not to cut myself off. It's the realization that I can't control another.> To "LET GO" is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.> To "LET GO" is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.> To "LET GO" is not to try to change or blame another. It's to make the most of myself.> To "LET GO" is not to care for...but to care about.> To "LET GO" is not to fix, but to be supportive.> To "LET GO" is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.> To "LET GO" is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.> To "LET GO" is not to be protective. It's to permit another to face their reality.> To "LET GO

On Air @ Dawnstarradio
Got a new DJ in town @ Party Pad Lounge Preforming Live From DawnStarRadioStarting Sat. April 11 2009 From 8 pm to 10 pm Cst time.His stage name is DJ BAMAHis show is called Lil Bit Of Country Come one come all if your not a member you can feel free to join or you can just enjoy the tunes. Thanks AKA DJ BAMAWillie

Train Of Life
'The Train of Life' Some folks ride the train of life Looking out the rear, Watching miles of life roll by, And marking every year. They sit in sad remembrance, Of wasted days gone by, And curse their life for what it was, And hang their head and cry. But I don't concern myself with that, I took a different vent, I look forward to what life holds, And not what has been spent. So strap me to the engine, As securely as I can be, I want to be out on the front, To see what I can see. I want to feel the winds of change, Blowing in my face, I want to see what life unfolds, As I move from place to place. I want to see what's coming up, Not looking at the past, Life's too short for yesterdays, It moves along too fast. So if the ride gets bumpy, While you are looking back, Go up front, and you may find, Your life has jumped the track. It's all right to remember, That's part of history, But up front's where it's happening, There's so much mystery. The enjoyment of living, Is not where we have be

Dad
Police Warning to Online MembersState police warning for online: Please read this "very carefully"..then sendit out to all the people online that you know. Something like this is nothingto be taken casually; this is something you DO want to pay attention to.If a person with the screen-name of DreamWeaverGrey contacts you, do notreply. DO not talk to this person; do not answer any of whispers or requestsfor private

Animal Food
Animal Rescue Please tell ten friends to tell ten today! The Animal Rescue Site is having trouble getting enough people to click on it daily to meet their quota of getting free food donated every day to abused and neglected animals..It takes less than a minute (How about 20 seconds) to go to their site and click on the purple box 'fund food for animals' for free. This doesn't cost you a thing. Their corporate sponsors/advertisers use the number of daily visits to donate food to abandoned/neglected animals in exchange for advertising. Here's the web site! Pass it along to people you know. http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com Click HERE for website! http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com/clickToGive/home.faces?siteId=3

Love Who You Love..... A Song That Says Alot
By Rascal Flatts..... I should have stolen every momentNow there's a page with not enough on itWhere we belongI guess I'll never understand itWhy do we take it all for grantedUntil it's goneCause then it's goneLove who you loveWith all that you haveAnd don't waste the time that flies so fastLove who you loveAnd say that you doHold on as tight as they'll let youLove who you loveGive all ya' got like its your last dayyour heart and soul before its too lateAnd pull 'em inSo close enough that they can feel itWith every single breath that you're breathin'Breathe it in again and againLove who you loveWith all that you haveAnd don't waste the time that flies so fastLove who you love And say that you doHold on as tight as they'll let youHold on, Hold onLove who you loveSay that you doyeah yeah yeahLove who you loveWith all that you haveAnd don't waste the time that flies so fastLove who you loveAnd say that you doHold on as tight as they'll let youLove who you loveyeah yeahHold on, keep on ho

Feelings
Well, Friday night was definitely interesting! We went to go see my favorite local band, Plan B, that I hadn't seen since late last year. Well, some old friends of ours came into the bar, which was a bit uncomfortable for me, as I hadn't seen either Michelle or Ann in quite a while. Being bi, I've been intimate with both of them, and Ann was my first girlfriend...the first woman I was ever in love with. She seemed very surprised to see me. She ended up dancing with me several times all night, we got down & dirty on the dance floor, and she & I talked while dancing. She told me how much she had missed me, that she couldn't go on with things the way they were, and she would like us to end our separation. Later, she said that she really wanted to have sex with me. I told her that I'm not a shy bi anymore, and that I have changed a lot since she knew me last. At the end of the night, right before the band finished their gig, she said to everyone at our table, "She is so beautiful! So gorge

Thoughts
Nothing matters anymoreI've turned away and locked the door I've turned the key and closed my eyes Let spill the tears and stop the lies I want no more to do with this place I want to leave without a trace To pack my bags and disappear To have no regret to have no fear To abandon all my life long dreams To stop the nighttime nightmare screams To leave behind the pain and despair To move on with existence without a care If only this could all be true To go away and start anew But I must live with these tears and lies So I'll lock the door and close my eyes Allow me to be my own person accept me for who I am. Not the person others think I should be. Sometimes I have a lot to say and don't hesitate to say it, but sometimes what I have to say can only be read in my eyes. Understand me my moods and my feelings on days when I’m feeling sunny and on days when there's rain in my heart. I'll never go back on a promise and I will always be there for when you need me. Understand me trust me

Stuff
Hair like a thousand strands of silk warmed by the sun...Eyes like liquid pools of serenety and calmness...Lips like petals blossomed on a newly birthed rose after a summer rain...The sound of her voice as she speaks my name like the voices of a thousand angels singing just for me...Her perfume like the fragrence of lilly and jasmine in a field of Ireland after a fresh morning dew riding on a gentle breeze...If I had 1 wish it would go as follows:I wish I were the man to fly her to Paris if she craved french toast for breakfast... The man to fly her to Italy if she craved pasgetti and meatballs for lunch... The man to fly her to the darkest hills of China if she craved a taste of the exotic for dinner... The man to fly her to deep within Germany if she craved the richest deserts in wich to follow her meal... That would be my 1 wish... As you can see these are just a few ways in wich she fascinates me... For every breath she draws into herself is one breath in wich she takes from me...

Auction
Ok...I'm gonna try this again! I'm in my first ever auction!!! YAY! So go check it out and rate my pic and place a bid on me if you want!! xoxoxo Ginger :) (just click the link, cus the button thing doesn't want to work for me for some reason!!!)

Cabo Wabo Mas Tequila Cookie Recipe
1 tsp of water1 tsp baking soda1 cup of sugar1 tsp salt1 cup of brown sugar1 tsp lemon juice4 large eggs1 cup nuts2 cups of dried fruit1 bottle CABO WABO Tequila1 Sammy Hagar c.d.Grab your favorite Sammy Hagar c.d. and CRANK THAT FUCKER UUUUP!!!Sample the CABO to check quality.Take a large bowl, check the CABO again, to be sure it is of thehighest quality, pour one level cup and drink.Turn on the electric mixer...Beat one cup of butter in a large fluffybowl.Add one teaspoon of sugar...Beat again. At this point it's best to makesure the CABO is still OK, try another cup ... just in case.Turn off the mixerer thingy. Break 2 leggs and add to the bowl and chuckin the cup of dried fruit, Pick the fucking fruit up offa the floor...Mix on the turner. If the fried druit gets stuck in the beaterers justpry it loose with a drewscriver. Sample the CABO to check fortonsisticity.Next, sift two cups of salt, or something. Who giveshz a sheet. Checkthe CABO WABO. Now shift the lemon juice and strain

Real Life Things
200: My middle name is: Kay199: I was born in: Iowa City, Iowa198: I am really: bored and tired197: My cell phone company is: A T & T196: My eye color is: blue195: My shoe size is: 7194: My ring size is: 7193: My height is: 5'1192: I am allergic to: cats191: My 1st car was: Ford Probe (very briefly)190: My 1st job was: Iowa City Press Citizen paper delivery girl189: Last book you read: The third book in the Twilight series188: My bed is: a very comfy four poster wrought iron full sized bed187: My pet: is a 11 pound Bishon Frise named Cloud186: My best friend: is my mom, Adam, Josh and Jenny.185: My favorite shampoo is: Garner Fructise184: AIM name: don't have one183: Piggy Banks are: cute182: In my pockets: lip gloss, cell phone and pen181: On my calendar: TONS of stuff this month! From garage sale to Snow Demon show, to Lammasfest180: Marriage is: an ideal that I don't know is achievable to keep going in the long run anymore179: Sponge Bob can: die lol178: My mom: is awesome. 177: The

Funny Story
My flight was being served by an obviously gay flight attendant, who seemed to put everyone In a good mood as he served us food and drinks. As the plane prepared to descend, he came swishing down the aisle and told us that "Captain Marvey has asked me to announce that he'll be landing the big scary plane shortly, so lovely people, if you could just put your trays up, that would be super."

Rip Chucky
Last night while I was trying to sleep My friend's voice I did hear I opened my eyes and looked around But he did not appear. He said: Tammie you've got to listen You've got to understnad God didn't take me from you, my friend He only took my hand. When I called out in pain that night, The instant that I died, He reached down and took my hand, And pulled me to His side. He pulled me up and saved me From the misery and pain. My body was hurt so badly inside, I could never be the same. My search is really over now,

This Pain Is Just To Real
This pain is just to real The things I feel and the things I need Are not here So every now and then I drop a tear I cant sleep I just seem to weep Im trying to forget those bad memories and those nightmares But they keep coming So I keep hiding. Nobody here is confiding So I keep crying remembering those nightmares My mother in heaven is sighing because im falling in her footsteps if there is a god I don't think he is a good god Because everything I wish for never comes true I wish I had some clue to y this happened to me Its just to real..

Sick And Tired Of Being Sick And Tired
im so sick of doing everything that i can to make someone happy and it not being good enough. i mean every now and then it would be nice to feel like someone gave half a shit about the stuff that i do for them even if its not alot....i mean sometimes a girl just wants some flowers and a kiss to know that shes doing something right but half the time i cant even get a little thank you for being there and dealing with the stress of dealing with a crazy baby momma or thank you for takin care of our little girl all the time i mean anything would work alls i want is a thanks every now and again but i feel like no matter what i do its not enough and i feel like im competing against the past and the girls he never got to have i mean its kinda funny that his "friend" gave me the stink eye and didnt even mutter a hello. is it me or is that rude like im not going to even say anything to the mother of this mans kid and im going to stick my head up this guys ass......i dont know ladies let me know

Most Important Blogs
Being offended is a choice to be a victim. Have you ever thought about how silly it is to go around being offended?There are people who turn on the radio and get offended because they hear someone speaking in a certain tone or saying a word they don’t like. Some people have a whole list of words that they are offended by, and anytime someone says one of them, they go off into a tantrum.Albeit, it’s just like allowing someone else’s behavior decide how you are going to be emotionally. You can be the person whose emotions or strings are pulled by someone else, depending on how they choose to act or what words they choose to use.You choose your own emotional responses, and you own them. You can blame others for how you choose to feel and pretend that you are a victim.Or you can choose not to give anyone permission to take away your happiness, joy or good mood away from you.You can give away your power and allow someone else’s behavior to pull your strings….O

My Ramblings
so i got uber jealous tonite when i have to remember who it is He sleeps with every night...jealousy is not allowed in a kajira mind and it keeps creeping into mine...how do i stop it and when will i be able to fully trust that nothing will go on?

How I Want It
the day goes on and i'm sitll here and i nener understand the things that happens but i keep going. i may never understnad but i will get over this things.i get up every day and i go to sleep every night thats what happens one day it will change hoping 1 day soon

Free Bling Packs And Autos
Hello all you sexy ladies. I am thinking of running a contest where the winner would get a 65 bling pack or a 3 month vip or a 7 day blast(winners choice) How to enter:friend and fan mesend me 50k fu bux and your sexiest picture winner will be determined after a month by who has the most photo coments please repost and foward to any of your friends who would like to enter Hiya ladies, I am buying bling packs and auto 11s. The deal is I will be giving away 3 bling packs and 10 auto 11s. I know your gonna call me a pervert, but I love the womans body. So heres what you have to do, Find the best way to be sexy, nsfw pics,send me panties,bras ect... cam time works,phone time ect.... Anything sexy!!

Let Me Slip {just Close Your Eyes}
It feels like you're so far away even though you're right here. I feel like such a fool for love when all it brings is pain and fear. It feels like I don't have you even though I guess I do... ... it feels as if it's out of sync -- the feelings that I have for you. I feel as if I'm losing though you're telling me I've won... as if I'm closer now to failing than I was when I begun. I'm so afraid to lose you though my heart is giving in because although I really want you I feel like I'll never win. Nobody thought to warn me that I'd ever feel this way -- as if I'm running in a circle while someone sprints far away. I just wanted to fall in love and now I'm wishing I did not because it's easy letting go when you were never holding on. I'm holding onto you, though I try hard to loose my grip because it hurts less letting go than knowing that you let me slip, and even though it's hard to say just what the ending's gonna be I must admit, it feels as if you'

Stuff
Being the dreamy young stud that I am, I am only accepting high quality applications. Don't bother applying unless you meet the following requirements: 1 – You're at least a 7.0 2 – You will work out at least 3 times a week while we are dating 3 – Since you are a female and will probably lie and cheat, I expect you to be very good at this so that I do not

Lets Talk Hustle
JasonsMoneyBlog.com RSS Feed Subscribe to the RSS Feed Add to your Favorites How I Make Over $5000/month Thanks to Google Working Part Time From My Living Room Posted on April 06th, 2009 | 15 Comments by Jason Hayes - Downey, California Imagine making around $5,500 to $8,000 a month from Google, only working Part-Time a few hours a day. Not a ton of money. But, very solid and good. I was able to replace my previous job’s income, working less than 10 hours a week on my computer at home. Hi, my name is Jason Hayes and I live in Downey, California.

L_ღ_v_e?
I'm not worried bout the ring you wearCuz as long as no one knows than nobodycan careYou're feelin' guilty and I'm well awareBut you don't look ashamed and babyI'm not scaredI'm singin' Follow me everything is alrightI'll be the one to tuck you in at nightAnd if youWant to leave I can guaranteeYou won't find nobody else like me

Pain? Ever Had It?
born in to pain and hurt growing in pain and hurtliving in pain and hurt sleeping in pain and hurt waking in pain and hurt cuting in pain and hurt bleeding in pain and hurt crying in pain and hurt i know nothing other then pain and hurti use drugs to end the pain and hurt but all i get is pain and hurt is there nothing other then pain and hurt

Auction Cowboy's & Cowgirl's From Hell Lounge
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Warning!!!ladies A Picture Theif Is Amoung Us!
Hi all as u all know I have a girlfriend we both have seperate accounts she is time-x check her out she on my top friends..I also have a man she is looking for one blow her up!!!any who ....some person or should I say thing has taken 3 Pics off my girlfriends page and started an account with different name and or location but my girls pics are on there..we have tried to contact this person we have commented this person with no reply..jus deleting our comments....so plz if ur gonna post sumthing becareful....here is the fake account

Battered Soul
My life tormented A childhood of painSpent bruised and scarredHours locked in a small dark roomTo scared to shout for helpWith only spiders for companyDay after dayThe bruises cameTo ashamed to show the worldHow could I have explained? The screaming stoppedThrough fear of more painThe inner screamsStill ringing in my earsThe nightmaresNever fadeAnother dayDarkness consumes my beingWishing for someone to set me freeAnother fist flies my wayPain shoots through meLike a thousand knivesPiercing my soulOnto adult yearsStill bruised insideOnly to find loves the sameIs this normalWas it something I did? Walking into doors seems like a bad habit for meOne black eye after the nextHere I was againHiding in a dark cornerHoping the monsters wouldn't see meHoping they wouldn't bring more painWill this ever end? The child inside so battered The child inside so scared

Karma
well, my dads wife that just passed has triplet daughters that are almost 34 yrs old. Their sperm donor for a father found out that they have severe Cerebral Palsey when they were one and said if he can't have perfect childeren, he didn't want children. So needless to say, he had nothing to do with them their entire lives. well, he was shot, ...

Thank You All
i want to thank every one who had me in their prayers last night. i woke up yesterday morning feeling really wierd with chest pains, being dizzy an breaking out in cold sweats. really week feeling. i went to work thinking nothing about it. one of my co-workers told me to check my blood pressure so i did, it was 148 over 1o4. it told me that wasnt good. at 6 pm he came to check on me an told me i was really flusstered looking. he made me take it again, this time it was 156 over 108. took me to the office an one of my managers took me to the er. with in a short period of time it jumped to 176 over 118.. needless to say i didnt have a heart attack.. got more test to do monday morning. i will keep you all up to date. again thanks for all the love an kind words an thoughts for those that i was able to contact..

Jamie Foxx Is A Cocksucker!
Big deal when Imus calls stereotypical black basketball players "nappy", but no biggie when this Obama loving primate calls Hannah Montana a "white bitch"? So, where is fat ass Sharpton? Where is the left wing hypocrite media? Blacks will NEVER change. You're all no good. The media sucks. You're all disgraceful white sellouts.

Random Thoughts
Who knows the thoughts we think but us ourselves. Those tormented dreams that haunt us at night may be from bad food or a movie we have seen. How do we understand the human mind in the vastness of its space? No one can truely understand us unless they know us or talk to us. A college conversation or friends words may spark a flame in our minds and open a whole other doorway that previously had been closed. Sometimes good comes out and other times bad can spew forth. Whatever comes from the mix, it is bound to upset someone. That is why they say words cut as knives. If what our words are, hold

Tired
I have learned that you can't please everyone. You're damned if you do and damned if you don't. I went to bed lastnight in tears because of this. Words can hurt far more than anything physical. I'm just going to step back and reflect on things for now.

Eggs And Tears
She rose to her feet once more as she straightened out her dishevelled clothing. She slowly smoothed down her summer dress. Her tongue slid from her scarlet lips to lap at the small trickle of my cum that was trying to escape, she wanted every drop. She looked down at the lifeless figure on the ground. It was me. My eyes were wide open, whether with shock or excitement she neither knew nor cared. She’d got what she’d wanted and I got what I needed. She turned, looked at me and walked away, to her home, to sleep away the daylight hours until she could have me once again… ... more to follow.

Hi Welcome To My Head How May I Help U?
ive been thinking alot about this past year and i find myself feeling really sad and lonely...mostly for old friends that i no longer have. yea i shouldnt think about it but i cant help it, desparately tryin to hang on to happier times long gone and it hurts. i long for the ppl i lost, how can i say im sorry and lets forgive and forget? i wish to so much but they dont, of course there is nothing i can do about it but i wish there was.. why do i have to do this to myself? i wish i had an answer but i dont. my memories are all ihave left and they are so painful..... i just want my friend back i miss him so much. :( so if you know me real well you know that i among of the biggest procrastinator this side of the flint river lol.

Just A Thought Or So...
Im a fan of words. I enjoy putting them together and taking them apart (not the words themselves.. more like forming sentences, and novels.. and soliloquies). Im also a fan of literacy. In which case, please refrain from using u and ur when engaging in an e-exchange of words (hate mail included). Im very aware some people like to think using shorthand saves time. Well, if you cant spell out a full word you happen to use everyday, dont bother sending a message. It will save your time, and mine. This includes, but is not solely subject to, the proper use of your, youre, there, their, and theyre. Reading and writing is taught in school for a reason, enjoy it while you can. I dont expect you to be a mastermind, just THINK before you SPEAK.1. Be a good person as best you can; all cases are relative to the individual. 2. Live as much life as you can. 3. Pursue something you deem worthy of your time in your relatively short amount on earth. 4. Respect all.

Fairy Tells..
in life we cant play games all the time....we cant be serious all the time either...so find the damn happy medium some people live them..others wish to have them.. the fairy tale ending...happily never after.. well at least for some.. for others we are just pawns in a story that revolves around the stars.....hoping that one day the main characters

Band
well we're still in the struggle of finding a name for the band...so far we're nameless... :p A few names have been introduced by the other band members...but we are still searching for the right one...got any ideas?? Drop a line..

I Didn't Know...damn It ...just...f'n Dammit.!!!..
Feb 5, 2009 Lux Interior, lead singer of The Cramps, has died. Rock'n'roll heaven just got a lot weirder. Lux Interior , madcap and lascivious lead singer of classic goth punk-a-billy band The Cramps , has died at age 62. R.I.P....Darlin'...R.I.P...

Collage
Love is the river of life in this world. Think not that ye know it who stand at the little tinkling rill, the first small fountain. Not until you have gone through the rocky gorges, and not lost the stream; not until you have gone through the meadow, and the stream has widened and deepened until fleets could ride on its bosom; not until beyond the meadow you have come to the unfathomable ocean, and poured your treasures into its depths ~ not until then can you know what love is Henry Ward Beecher Love is the same as like except you feel sexier. And more romantic. And also more annoyed when he talks with his mouth full. And you also resent it more when he interrupts you. And you also respect him less when he shows any weakness. And furthermore, when you ask him to pick you up at the airport and he tells you he can't do it because he's busy, it's only when you love him that you hate him. Judith Viorst Top 10 Reasons You Know You're A Mom 1. You can't step into the tub without slippi

My Thoughts
Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.Friends are like balloons: once you let them go, you can't get them back.So I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you This is dedicated to Rodney J Smith,My Fiance' Born 7-18-64 Died 12-30-08 A new day dawns once again. I stare at where you used to lay your head. I close my eyes, your face I plainly see. That smile that could always bring me to my knees. Those eyes that saw into the very soul of me. My heart aches for the touch of your hands on my skin. The taste of your kiss on my lips. I've come to understand what the meaning of lonliness is. I wipe away a tear.It's almost more than I can bear. I pray for the strength to get me thru another day without you! By: San

Be For Real!
visited 31 states (62%)Create your own visited map of The United States or Like this? try: Vendian Being single isnt easy, but I guess it's still from my pickiness.I have met quite a few people on here and it has been a joke just about every time. So I m posting this blog entry to prevent myself and anyone else from a broken heart so be for real. I am looking for someone who is very attractive, handsome,goodlooking, has a beautiful smile, has a nice cock( bigger the better), isnt jealous, wants a gf eventually, loves to eat pussy (i return the favor if your worthy),

Here
if some of you are wondering why it is that i dont leave animated comments or such on profiles?...well wonder no more...it seems that i have been "tripping the spam filter" after about 8 or so profile comments...and once that happends i end up with bouncers all over the place every time i want to look at a profile...heck i was even bounced when i wanted to check into my blogs... so since this is getting a little wierd...i might not be doing many profile comments...i klnow i know..i havent done alot before but i might just not do any at all now....so to those of you that feel i havent made contact...please bear with me

Venting
So the last couple months i have gotten really bored with the site... same ol thing begging and pleading for ppl to rate or anything... People always want the help but MOST arent willing to return the favor.. I know its all about points, and such and if you dont have autos running now or a Bomb ppl dont even look twice at you. I remember when i first started onthis site, ppl actually rated each other to help out. Or if you had/have blings ppl would actually trade with you or whatever... Ahhh life before Auto 11's!!! There are over usually an average of about 50k ppl on here at any given time...and the funny thing is.. ITS ALWAYS the same ppl srolling by the top of the screen.. ALLLLL day long.

New Obsession
So yeah... I have had my tongue pierced for a few years and have always wanted to get something else done. So I decided that I wanted to get a Monroe (a stud where Marilyn had her beauty mark). So I got it done on Friday and I absolutely love it... so now I want to get more done... Uh oh. LOL so yeah now I have a new obsession.

Dark Thoughts
This sickness is consuming and terrifying to my soul. I try to breath but only choke on the oily slick putrid foulness of it. Words are empty without a promise to back. I am at a stalemate without a completion of my circle. I feel like a puppet on a string of fiery chains. Sharpened hooks dig deep into my heart to rip away the flesh. Not sure of love in this darkest hour that holds no real truth. Is the dream I wanted so far away and just out of my reach? I hear not your words of encouragement in my soul anymore. The threads of sanity start to shred with the absence of need and comfort within. Time starts to bend , twist and contort into something sick and demented. Happy thoughts no longer hold me in joyous sway as my world starts to slowly crumble and faulter all around me. I know I am loved and special to some but most of them never speak those words to me. I feel like a prisoner in my own home when the repetitiveness starts to overtake me everyday. I want to whisper in his ear care

My Stuff
His emotions are impenetrable yet his shoulders are soft for those that need someone to lean on. His hands are firm yet know exactly where they need to be. If he has his arms wrapped around you, you're either in the last moments of your life or the safest place you could ever be. He's stubborn but will let you have your way just to see you smile. He's deadly with a rifle and gentle with a child. He plays poker with the devil but guards the gates of heaven. He curses like no other but is a perfect gentleman. He has a thousand yard stare but when you look into his eyes it's the most comforting thing you've ever felt. The Marine Corps trained him as a weapon but raised him as a lover. He knows every part of a M-16 and he knows every curve of his woman. There is no other man like him. Whether you love him or hate him both is a privilege. He could be your worse nightmare or your sweetest dream. Some veterans bear visible signs of their service: a missing limb, a jagged scar, a certain look

Poems
I never thought I'd ever hold handsI don't hold hands anymoreThe memory of holding handsMy friend dies as I can't save himIt's my job and I failI can't believe I was such a failureHe looks in my eyes As he fades awayI tell him he's not aloneI hold him closeHolding his hand tightbecause I failed at my jobI get the body bagSlide his tags in his teethand attach one to his bootMy friend he died I'll never hold hands againThe last one died I failed himI can't hold hands again Copyright

Sexy Story Some What I Did Better Before
he gently wraps his arms around me gently breathing on mehe begins to remove my topbut also with gentle kisseshis hand moves down the side off my armhe then moves in closer into mewanting to make me feel goodhe then brings his one hand down tomy ass and just with his finger tipsrubs againts my skin,he begins to get a little ruffand it begins to get a little moreintenceeach minute he presses againts meputting my hands againts the wallbiteing me just hard enough to feel good we begin to bump each otherthe blood in r vains move fastermy breathing is so deep and heavyhe takes both hands and puts them on mybreastpushing in to me before he entershe kisses all the way down my backlicks and nibbles all the way downto my....he gently plays and nibbles and looks up at meseeing my face with such intence and sweat comeing downhearing me moan places his hands on to my belly and down my legsstimulateing every sexual nerve, he picksme up from my legs and gently puts me on thebed pushing harder on to

She Tries So Hard To Hide
Lies And Deception,Hurt And Pain.From Then 'Till Now,Nothing Feels The Same.Endless Tears,And Sleepless Nights.Is There Enough Love To Stay,Or Too Little To Fight?Happiness, Or Love?Or Just None At All?Fighting For Stability,I Continue To Fall.I Cant Hear Your Excuses,And I Cant Speak.Broken, Yet Somehow Together,Ive Become So Weak. There is a girl who smiles lots,Although she's sad inside.The pain she feels inside her chestShe tries very hard to hide.It's enough to fool her motherAnd enough to fool her friends.Sure, outside she's smiling,But inside, the pain never ends.Sometimes she fails to smileAnd sometimes her cover slips-But she holds back the tears,And bites down on her lips.She clutches her chest tightly,As she slowly walks along,Fooling everyone in sight-They don't know anything's wrong.

Always
I hope to always be the oneThat takes your breath awayI hope to always fill your thoughtsAs you go about your dayI hope to always be the oneThat you dream of at nightI hope it's still my face you seeWhen you close your eyes so tightI hope you always feel the loveThat I have for only youI hope that you knowEverything I feel for you is true.I pray that what we shareWill last for eternityAnd when you need someone so badKnow you can always turn to meI pray that the hurtWe sometimes feel insideWill one day come to an endAlong with tears we've criedI hope to always have this feelingThat you bring to meTake another look into my heart...I love you...honestly.

Silent Thoughts
A simple thought of you and I'm gone again,Just thinking about your sweet face.Wishing I could touch your body,While giving you kisses all over the place.I'd caress your back,As you stare into my eyes.The thought of you here next to me,Puts my body in a rise.Your hands all over my skin,While your tongue traces my lips.The feeling begins to intensify,As you move just past my hips.I imagine you inside of me,And I let out a slight moan.The thought of you making love to me,Begins to set the tone.Slower in the beginning,I want to feel your every thrust.Your kissing my neck now,As you touch me on my bust.I run my fingers through your hair,As you breathe into my ear.I bite down on my lower lip,Just wishing you were here.You pick up the pace now,And I begin to lose control.I imagine your face looking down at me,As the ecstasy takes its toll.You rub my face with your hands,And softly kiss me on my cheek.You can tell just by my smile,How much the thought of you makes me weak.I take a breath and

Never Let Go
So restless at night, when I dream of youI open my eyes, hoping it came true.It didn't again so with tears in my eyesI hold my pillow to soften the cries.But distance means nothing in love that's trueAnd though I long for one touch from you,I'll squeeze that pillow while we're apart,You hold me too, you hold my heart.No one has ever made me feel so complete,My whole life was lived just so we could meet.I'll dream of you now, on into the night,Hoping that soon you'll be holding me tight.My dreams will come true one day, I know,Just hold me close, and never let go.

Would U Just Listen
Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,How you felt around me? The memories we shared,And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.You were my first love and my true love, that will al

Brook
I took this lil test and this is what my answer was, what should you parents named you~ BrookeYou are very self-conscious, but you are beautiful. You worry about what other people think about you yet you are all they think about. You are very caring and sweet, but you can be aggressive.

Interesting!
HATFIELD, England – In the search for Earth-like planets, astronomers zeroed in Tuesday on two places that look awfully familiar to home. One is close to the right size. The other is in the right place. European researchers said they not only found the smallest exoplanet ever, called Gliese 581 e, but realized that a neighboring planet discovered earlier, Gliese 581 d, was in the prime habitable zone for potential life. "The Holy Grail of current exoplanet research is the detection of a rocky, Earth-like planet in the 'habitable zone,'" said Michel Mayor, an astrophysicist at Geneva University in Switzerland. An American expert called the discovery of the tiny planet "extraordinary." Gliese 581 e is only 1.9 times the size of Earth — while previous planets found outside our solar system are closer to the size of massive Jupiter, which NASA says could swallow more than 1,000 Earths. Gliese 581 e sits close to the nearest star, making it too hot to support life. Still, M

Darkness
all i feel is the blackness of fear closing in on me. im alone noone to help pull me out of this dark place. i look around wondering in anyone notices im slowly slipping away into myself. someone help i ask quietly but noone is there to hear my plea.

Wow
Ok so right now I am so glad I have no more children in school.... They are STRIP SEARCHING CHILDREN in SCHOOLS They are saying they DO NOT have to abide by the 4th ammendment They say they DON"T have to have probable cause... (probable cause being reasonable proof .....) How far are schools going to go with their dictatorships They say they can do this WITHOUT a parent present Without a warrant Now I understand the concern for safety in the schools and that guns and drugs are a big focal point

It Happens
Never say I love you if you really don't care. Never talk about feelings if they really aren't there. Never hold my hand if your gonna break my heart. Never say you are going to if you don't plan to start. Never look in my eyes if all you're going to do is lie. Never say hi if you really mean goodbye. If you really mean forever then say you will try. Never say forever, because forever makes me cry.... Missed my alarm clock ringingWoke up, telephone screamingBoss man singing his same old songRolled in late about an hourno cup of coffee, no showerWalk of shame with two different shoes onNow it's poor me, why me, oh me, boringThe same old worn out, blah, blah storyThere's no good explanation for it at allChorus:Ain't no rhyme or reason No complicated meaningAin't no need to over-think itLet go, laughingLife don't go quite like you planned itWe try so hard to understand itThe irrefutable, indisputable fact isIt happensMy trusty-rusty had a flatI borrowed my neighbors Cadillac"I'll b

Shadowed By A Sigh
Thunder in the distance shadowed by a sigh. Vibration from a thousand jets .......flutter of butterflies. Roaring of the ocean calms to a trickling stream. ....Active volcano ............just .... radiator steam. Lost in another's eyes? Take a swim through their veins? Electric sparks as lips meet Savor a honey kiss ....What is so powerful .................or ....mighty in such force? Love that's pure and crystal clear. ........All for you of course. For His Memory Of Her, I hold her truth safe always!

Air, Water, Fire
Standing high on the rocky mountain top She stands mesmerized by the beauty below A sea of trees and fields spread out before her Like the strokes from an ole masters brush Finely painted with textures and colors of nature Sweet smells waft through the air assaulting the senses Essence of pine meadowland and wildflowers Raising her arms in the air as a goddess in worship Turning her face to the sun, rays dare to kiss her cheek Soft blue dress swirling around her in the breeze Wind caressing her bronze skin tenderly like a lover Birds sing her praises and angels lend her wings Turning to face me, my heart races and falters She smiles, I catch my breath and gasp for air Her touch is a fire that only she can quench As our lips meet, I am no longer solid mass I am air, water, fire; I am all things for her

Learning To Dance In The Rain
Blood pulsing in my veins as your body is crushed against me Steam rises from our heated bodies as the cool rain drenches us My arms around your waist my eyes locked on your reflection Moving to the rhythm of the rain and the music of our hearts The wind whispers in the trees a song of sweet seduction Perfumed fragrance of flowers scent the air with a touch of musk Nature's orchestra playing softly as we step and sway as one Locked in embrace, lost in love, dancing, unaware of the cold The moon partially hidden by clouds peeks out to watch Winking its approval of the romantic scene before it Brushing the hair from her face, I lean in for a much-wanted kiss Our lips meet; kiss accepted and returned in the heat passion The rain stopped and the clouds part, stars illuminate the sky Air fresh and clean, still we danced oblivious to our surroundings Learning to dance in the rain holding tight to our tender love So shall we dance in life, conquering troubles and strife

Infinite Eternities
Laying here, Insanity, Stupid reactions, Of Humanity. I lay here tonight, Broken dreams. Scattering thoughts, Dead it seems. Pointless to hope, When nothing heals. Trying to cope, But nothing feels. Understanding, Such a word. Lost in nightmares, Never free. To be, Myself... Why so difficult? To open up, Let him in. Feel the fire, Embrace the sin. Loving to have, Only to feel. To be lost, In a moment. A moment, That was never real. Is this a dream? Or my sad reality? Am I awake, to draw blood again. My skin burns, My pain wins. Tonight, I'll lose it. Lost it all, In hopes I'll trip, In my dreams, Then fall. Never hitting the ground, Nor making a sound. Only echo, Is my hearts last pound. That lasts... An eternity, In my dream. I'll stay here, I'm safe. I'll cry here, I'm free. I'll die here, I'm eternity.

Drama
Ok I am so fed up w/all the drama on here it is just crazy people talking about others get a fuggin life would you mind your own business, and another thing dont be pointing fingers until you know your story and get them straight...=)

New Attitude
Ok today is a new day..... I had a really bad week..I decieded to approach today with a new attitude. Things in my personal life have been kind of up and down but it could be so much worse. I know its me. I can be such a witch sometimes. Yes I said it..lol. Some of it is my meds. My siezure meds sometimes make me just so moody and when i am not eating right I feel shitty. Over our vacation I didnt eat right and being depressed I gained like 4 lbs which seems like nothing but 4 lbs for me is hard to get off. I eat only 1200 calories a day to maintain my weight,,,that sucks lol. But anyways I always said I believe in signs just have to look for them. so last night I said today would be my new day. When we got into bed last night they was a firefly in my window I have never seen one that close and i am 34 years old. We watched it for over 30 minutes maybe longer I felt at such a peace after. One of my favorite songs is firefies by Faith Hill. So i think as silly as this sounds this was m

True Love
Please love , dry your eyes .. There's no reason for you to cry . You loved him lots ; I know it hurts , But all these tears he's just not worth . He made his choice , now let him go ; His mistake , and he'll soon know . It won't be long , he'll be on his knees .. But walk away , and ignore his pleas . The day will come ; Your heart won't ache . No more nights will you lie awake . The tears will stop , as the memories cease ; His name won't hurt , and the pain will ease . But until the day that all this ends , Remember that you've got your friends . Just take our hand , and we'll help you heal ; Showing you how true love feels .

If I Could Be Beautiful
If I could be more beautiful Would you tell me I'm the one? That your life revolves around me Like the planets to the sun If I could have eyes like heaven, Would you stay and look at me? Forever in my loving arms, In nothingness, yet happily If I could have skin like paper, Would you swear to treat me right? Like a princess left abandoned, Could you be my shining knight? If I could be more seductive, Would your heart start to race? Or would it remain indifferent To the passion in my embrace If I could be more beautiful, Would it be me you finally see? What it is you see in her, I wish you would see in me. If I could be just a bit better, Or more loving or less of, If I could be more beautiful, Could I be the one you love?

What To Do What To Do
i hate being alone. i hate being in a meanless relationship. so i broke it off. now hes feeding me lie after lie. just trying to stay with me. im not falling for it. why do men do that? why do i have to be the one to keep going through this? will i ever find the right man? will i ever find the one and only man for me that will just take me out once in a while? wont hide me from his family and friends? and some one that will

Murphys Law
Today we had our first show in Rally Advance Excellent, as pursuant to his name sake what could go wrong did! Qualified in Exc, and No Qual in Adv so we did not get any "points" toward our title . So far we have never qualified on our first outing in any level, most of the times it has been my fault and I assume that responsiblity, we did have a good time and met some nice people , Tomorrow is another day and we can relax now the first blunder is behind us Some people ask me how I can take in dogs, and give them to new homes. Just under 2 weeks ago I delivered a female dog to a couple from Pa. it was bittersweet. Betty had been with me for 6 months and yes I do grow attached, rather quickly! well I got up this morning to this email.. and this is how and why I do rescue Have to share - we had a great day with Betty! The company left this morning and we had a road trip to Scranton, about 45 minutes away. Of course, Betty went with us. Had lunch at a buffet and Boopster had a piece o

Bigdaddytheking
This is the truth about Dirty JerseyWhen this track blows up, you'll already heard of me Cuz the game I spit is straight from the fuckin streets I always stay runnin from the fuckin Heat Throw your hands up and feel the fuckin beat It's guaranteed to get you out your fuckin seat

Watch Out For This Guy...
Randy the Vampire...http://www.fubar.com/user/301551 This jerk is going around & stealing pictures. Don't bother downrating him, just block him right away...try to do it when he's not online since he'll be able to get to them before you can block him. There's nothing you can do but set your profile to "friend's only" & mark your folders the same. Just a head's up so he doesn't get yours, too!Kat

Found The Love Of My Life
im so blessed to have met the perfect man in the world he is more than my boyfriend he is my best friend and i dont know what id do without him he makes me a better person inside and out and i fall more in love with him each word that he says he is the best and i couldnt be any happier than i am right now. thanks baby for being you your so perfect and i cant wait to be with you

Cherokee N.c,
DON'T ACCEPT a friend request from a CHRISTOPHER BUTTERFIELD he is a hacker. Tell everyone on your list because if somebody on your list adds him u get him on your list too and he'll figure out your computer's ID and address, so copy and paste this message to everyone even if you don't care for them cause if he hacks their email he hacks your email too. CUT AND PASTE THIS : I'm leaving out today for Cherokee NC for there annual bike rally...It's something i do twice a year spring and fall...It's a chance to see old friends and make new ones...I always look forward to this event every year..Have been going for the past 15yrs..Saturday nite 38special will be in concert so i'm very excited to see them..It's a chance to see some of the most beautiful Harleys and some really trick out bikes...I will post pics when i get back...I hope that all of you all will have a great weekend as well..See you sunday nite or monday morning.......

Maybe Sad Possibly Angry
Im fucked off. Ill admit it i am. The guy who i had a fling with who is married got in touch with me a few days ago. I should imagine he was probably BORED and felt like torturing some some so he picked ME. I am fucking angry because it was like he just wanted to FUCK with my head. Its not fair. Im TIRED of being messed about. IF YOUR MARRIED

Profiles In Arrogance
Recently in his speech in France, Barack Obama called America "arrogant." 1 I'm sure the French loved it -- And so did the liberal press. But who is this president who calls the American people arrogant? This is the same politician whose supporters anointed him "The One" and a candidate who boasted that his election would be remembered as "the moment when the rise of the oceans began to slow and our planet began to heal." 2 This is the same man who indicated his disdain for small town and working Americans when he said they "cling to guns or religion or antipathy to people who aren't like them," while addressing a group of San Francisco caviar and champagne liberal elitists. How arrogant is that? Arrogant enough? In truth, President Obama seems to champion the twisted "Blame-America First" mentality of the worst of the American left. More importantly, it shows an absence of wisdom to criticize the United States while on foreign soil, and then join with the Pelosi-Reid Democrats i

March Of Dimes
My son is doing a fundraiser and we want your donation! Plz help for this great cause(March of Dimes),donations can be made via PayPal to the account tink4u1981@yahoo.com. Nothing is to small,thank you in advance.

Curiosity
Ok.. do not take this personal if u r friends with the person..but I am curious to how the Happy Hour girl whos up now.. has like 14 happy hours in one day at times..and is always having them. Seriously.. is she a millionaire..or do they just give some of the older top people free stuff?

Just For You
Don't waste your time, cos a hata's gonna hate!!! that's wat they do, as long as they know they doing their job well, they r gonna keep doing it. So the best thing is to be entertained by ignorance, brush em off, kick em to the side and keep walking. cos morals

How Do We Heal A Broken Heart...
How do we forget someone We once loved so much How do memories ever fade Of their soft gentle touch How do we walk away When we don't really want too How do we forgive someone Who lied when they said they loved you How do we trust another When we've been deceived before How do we open our hearts When they're still so sore? How do we start to see the light After living in so much grey How do we turn our back When we want so badly to stay How do we move on When it hurts so deep inside How do we put a stop To the tears we always cry How does the pain Ever go away How do we survive When the one we loved walks away...

Just Me
I dont know who all will ready this but oh fucking well i get alot of time to think about shit and one of the things that dont make since is what woman do to use men like puting down rules like saying we cant fuck other women but if your woman is bi she can and we dont say nothing about it well this is how i see it fucking has one perpose and that is to breed and fucking for any other reason is breaking the rules of fucking dont get me wrong i love to fuck i just dont think women have the right to put rules on us men specially when the rules dont apply to them well all men need to say fuck that do as we please and if the woman wants a man they have to except it or be single whats up everybody hows everybodys day i'm bored and at home if anybody wants to know me just ask or dont Hi my name in just i'm a truck driver been around some i'm a cool easy going guy that likes anything fun to do

Back In The Mix
Send a heartbeat to the void that cries through youRelive the pictures that have come to passFor now we stand aloneThe world is lost and blownAnd we are flesh and blood disintegrateWith no more to hateIs it bright where you are?And have the people changed?Does it make you happy you're so strange?And in your darkest hour, I hold secrets flameWe can watch the world devoured in its painDelivered from the blastThe last of a line of lastsThe pale princess of a palace crackedAnd now the kingdom comesCrashing down undoneAnd I am a master of a nothing placeOf recoil and graceIs it bright where you are?And have the people changed?Does it make you happy you're so strange?And in your darkest hour, I hold secrets flameWe can watch the world devoured in its painTime has stopped before usThe sky cannot ignore usNo one can separate usFor we are all that is leftThe echo bounces off meThe shadow lost beside meThere's no more need to pretendBecause now I can begin againIs it bright where you are?And hav

Sat 4/25/09
I am dating Chris, Cdub. Recently i have had a lot of females try to strart drama between him and i and say that im not the only one and that they are with him and what not. and i have girls that are blocking me and hating on me because im with him. i know nothing of u females nor do i care to know anything of you females. i dont care if he talks to you or if he flirts with you. i care if he touches u. i care if he travels to see you. i am confident in me and my relationship that it wont happen. he tells and shows me that he cares about me and wants me. im tired of everyone tryin to sabatoge it because yall didnt work out. so what?! move the fuck on! i care about him a lot and ill do what it takes to make sure we work. im not going to jump to conclusions when someone says they are dating too or going to get married. im sorry if you are going to get married you should know what his damn work schedule is. everyone just needs to back off. seriously.

Just Do It
It seems as if there is a group of men on here and possibly women that feel. That they need to target me for their own sick pleasure. I know who one of them is for sure now. I see them move up and me move out they say things to poison peoples mind against me. Or they just take advantage of moods they manipulate others into thinking they are their friends. You see to some of you this is just a game but their are some people on here with cancer or other sickness. Then there are those who really think that they can meet people here because of the interaction. It is only a breeding ground of people who only care about themself and being popular.

Bored
ive been playin racin games cuz im so bored :O makes me think about maybe working on my mustang some more theres still a ton of parts i never got around to putting on it and theyre just laying there! LOL

Fucked Up
So other than the 35 days in May that I was losing my mind and begged him not to contact me... We haven't gone more than a week without seeing each other. I can't help it... I love him like I never have loved anyone. I am a better person when he is in my life, whatever the circumstance.

Hugh's Starfish!!
I will start of this blog stating that am a dirty minded individual... My dear and closest friend Hugh had updated his status to"I want to be a starfish, i know I'm going to get bullied for this one" I am not !00% sure of the wording but it did go something like that. As a true friend I had to ask the question on whether or not he wanted to be a chocolate starfish, to this I go a quick and decisive no!!! I wanted to make sure that Hugh wouldn't be bullied by anyone other then me so I told him i was going to poke his starfish with a stick. Hes very sad now that I picked on him, he just wanted to be the best starfish he could be.... I told him not to be so gay.... Love you Hugh Wicked

Do You Change Or People Change?
So, when people change you can usually tell. But the question is do you change them, or they change on their own. If you have a bad day adn people are short the next day does that mean they are just upset, or they found out that they are not liking you? If you tell someone something and they shy away from you, is it that they no longer like you as a person, or they are just thinking? So many people change for reasons that aren't understandable. I may have mood swings but I am never different for long. I always go back to the sweet ash that everyone loves. But then there are those changes that really confuse you, like when an ex talks again after not talking to you for months! Suprise.. I got one of those today

Colors Of Her Soul
Red Passionate, Intense Compassionate, Warmth Anger LOVE Green Quiet, Hidden Gentle, caressing Envious CARING Yellow Bright, Cheerful Happy, Bubbly Mask SHINING Grey Cold, Broken Grief, Sorrow Gone LONELY Blue Deep, mysterious Unknown, Proud Collected LOVABLE Purple Royal, majestic Beauty, poise Insecure BEAUTIFUL Rainbow of her soul Only look past the blue To see the amazing rainbow She hides from the world Making me special Because I can see The amazing person Underneath You should look too See the rainbow Her beautiful rainbow

Hidden Within
Hidden within me Are words longed to be said Are things sometimes forgotten Spinning 'round in my head Hidden within me Are memories and times And little tiny things And many poems and rhymes Hidden within me Are feelings I hide Because I choose not to show them But don't ask me why Hidden within me Are millions of things That will never be shown For the fear of what they'll bring Hidden within me Is a healed up heart It was broken at one time But now I'm too smart Hidden within me Are things no one knows Are things that I hide And will never show Hidden within me Are times of troubled passed But hopes for tomorrows That will always last Hidden within me Is nothing you don't know So I share this with you So we can learn and grow

Mi Vida Loca!
For a couple weeks now I had wondered what I was going to do with the kids on Mother's day. We usually do something new and fun...an adventure on Mothers day. An old friend, Chris, called me up and invited me to his moms place for a bbq/pool party. Chris and I have known each other for 21 years now. We had a hiatus when I hit about 20 and we got back in touch last year, but nothing changed, we just picked up where we left off. I adore his family...I guess I just forgot how much until today! The kids and I had so much fun laughing and swimming. We're going back the next two weekends for swimming and "family" time, lol. It was nice to get my smile on for a change. Chris' mom was the mom I didn't have in jr high and high school...she is another surrogate mom for me now as well. Funny thing, her name is Debbie...just like my Mama Deb :-).Cousins, Aunts and Uncles were there today, and I just felt like I was at home. I needed that. Since Dave and I seperated, I really felt like I didn't hav

The One You Forgot
A simple word can break my soul Rip me in half, no longer whole. I'm shaking at the very thought Of being the one you forgot. You're everything in life to me The reason why I want to breathe I smile just when I think of you And all those things you say and do. Yet, if you don't feel the same No one can we really blame. It's just the way life sometimes goes You can't escape all of its blows. But I wish this once to be free Of the hope we'd never be. That's something I don't want to face. Don't want to feel so out of place. I've planned everything around us Now it may not be enough. Threads are barely holding on And your words can break their bond. Or you can make them tighter still Renew my strength and my will. Keep me believing love is real If you return the way I feel Please don't hurt me, but if you do Make it gentle. Help me through. I love you and fear that time Will cost me my peace of mind. I pray I didn't wait too long To let you know

Constant Bad Day
Hey everybody, If you all think that you have had a bad day, then after you read this blog then you might think differently. Lately i have been looking for a job, but havent been able to find one. I keep filling in applications and checking in about them but it seems like no one wants to hire me. I live alone with no income whatsoever. i am lucky when friends and family give me food. i also get a food basket once a month from a local church but it doesnt come until almost the end of the month. right now i am running really low on food and i have no money. lately i have been collecting cans to make a little bit of money. right now i have no minutes on my cell phone. i have no power at home. i have to gas to cook anything on the stove. i go to bed early cuz i get bored and am lonely. i also have no running water. i go to my sisters to take a shower. i get my drinking water from the local park. I also have 2 kids but luckily they live with their mother because i cant afford to take care

If For One Night
Dreams after dreams, all my life tried chasing each one of them as an excuse to stay alive ambition after ambition, all my life couldn't get close to anyone of them but they became my reason to survive in this life which was so full of chaos you came tearing all clouds apart and made me forget who i really was so much love all over me your heart surrounding my heart now so different life seems to be with this new faith inside me i look above to the creator and pray to not make this present a memory just one more wish if he could hear if i could stay one night with you and watch you sleep my dear if i could keep my palm under your head caress you hair all night long and make you sleep on my dream bed wishes after wishes, all my life hoping to make few come true my life has never been same since i have met you

Her Biggest Lie
My biggest lie was not being truthful to the one I love ..... I lied about who I was but more so to me than anyone I hide behind a mask that wasnt even mine ..... The worst part of it all is I hurt someone who means a great deal to me in many ways ..... He cant hate me anymore than I hate myself because its not who I am .... My feelings were true all the talks werent lies Ive been beatin Ive been raped but Id take any form of punishment than this .... I thought I have felt the worse but GOD I was wrong this is killing me ..... All my life I have waited for someone truly like him the heart of someone who might actually care The heart of someone who could love me and not tear me down the kind of person who could bring me what I needed most LOVE ..... Some know and have forgivin me and in them I found more than I thought possible .... GOd please help me ..... Im begging for his forgiveness through my tears for they seem

Contest
Ever wanted to own me and make me do as you say? Well im not so sure about the making me do what you say but i am in a contest to own me!!! So come check it!! Im offering a lot so please come check me out. Click on family member #8. Sorry would have put a link in but i cant figure it out after a tiring day at work.

Bad Day!
Today had to be one of the worst days ive had in a long time! i never do one of these blog things! but it was tough! i gave up my company today that hurt i have beed doing it for a little over a year and i had to give it up today! then i got stiffed for dinner was supposed to go to dinner w/ some women from work and relax and here i sit a gain in my Semi all alone. Story of my life!

Outrage Over Arlen Specter
I hope Arlen Specter's party change outrages you. It should for two reasons: First--Specter claimed it was philosophical--and pointed his finger of blame at Republicans all over America for his defection to the Democrats. He told us all to go jump in the lake today. I'm sorry, but I don't believe a word he said. Arlen Specter committed a purely political and self-serving act today. He simply believes he has a better chance of saving his political hide and his job as a Democrat. He loves the title of Senator more than he loves the party--and the principles--that elected him and nurtured him. Second--and more importantly--Arlen Specter handed Barack Obama and his band of radical leftists nearly absolute power in the United States Senate. In leaving the Republican Party--and joining the Democrats--he absolutely undercut Republicans' efforts to slow down Obama's radical agenda through the threat of filibuster. Facing defeat in Pennsylvania's 2010 Republican primary due to his left-win

The Forgotten One
The girl walks alone Only loneliness this world has shone Every night she silently cries As her emotions she tries to hide A remnant of someone real Is all she feels Shes no longer even remembered in this place By her fear every night she was chased She used to be But no longer can you see For she is long dead And this is what upon her tombstone was read "Hear lies the fallen girl Unknown to this entire world Left to die alone Now the earth in loneliness she roams."

Starry Night
They sat in the grasslooking up at the night skyfive minutes later they were holding handsand looking into each other's eyesshe looked down at the grassbut he tilted her chin upthere were butterflies in her stomachand at that moment, she knew she was in lovehe kissed her ever so gentlyas if afraid she might breakhe was the one who saved herand together they helped each other escapehe was amazing to herand didn't seem to have any flawsin a room full of peoplehe was the only one that she sawshe sat wrapped in his armshearing his steady heartbeathe was her one and onlywho had swept her off her feethe loves her tooshe's his angel from up abovehe would do anythingfor his one true lovehe knew he was in loveby the way he felthow every time she came aroundhis heart would just start to melthe snapped back into realityand looked back down at the girlshe was adorable to himand to him she meant the worldwithout her would be likepiglett without poohif he lost his beautiful angelhe would not know wh

Life Passing Me By
iM HANGING OUT ON FACE BOOK FEEL FREE TO JOIN ME AT http://www.facebook.com/L.L.Biggie?v=feed&story_fbid=215807931559#/L.L.Biggie?ref=profile i'M HOOKED ON THE GAMES THERE Well I turned another day/yr older yesterday and I'm not very happy I want to be a free bird to do as I please like I used to

It's 1 am... 4 quarters and a heartache later.. I called to say hello... Im sure I shouldve called befor... to say I miss you... But what I really needed was to hear it from you ... For the first time I can remember without saying you told me how you felt .. That you beleive in love an d truth and honest...

Fubar Familys
Hope everyone is enjoying the sun...... well this week we had a 2 spider that needs alot of love and I sure hope that our family will show the love ...... http://fubar.com/user/2441311 and http://fubar.com/user/816900 I f you could help me please go to this page and show him some mad love he is a very good friend that is new here and I been doing my best to help him, but could use some help.....

Auction Blog
I am currently taking donations, in order to buy someones points for 12 hrs. I hope you will all help me out people that donate a mil or more will be featured in this blog and i will ask that everyone show them mad love for their support in my attempt to level to 27 http://www.fubar.com/photo.php?u=623440&albumid=1636920&i=4199129370&idx=0#3212835412

Dont Wanna
When we talk its like every night we shoutand the things you say....its all i ever cry aboutall your questions that run through your headlike if you love me? and if you really cared? shall i go aheadi tell you that i loved you with all my hearti loved you now and i loved you from the starti don't know how to help you Ive showed everything i felti have given you everything there is..my best card Ive dealtand now that you don't know anymorehow do you think i am to deal with my heart you toreyou tore it into pieces that night you shared this with mei was blinded by your words Ur true feelings i couldn'tseei don't want to let you go.....i never wanted to you knowbut now that your hurting also i should let you gobut just remember I'm doing this for youif i had to choose we would be together until "i do"and even though thats out of the picture nowand as we are going our separate waysjust know that my love will always be yours through all my daysand that even though you broke my hearti will l

You Were All I've Got
Hurt me,break me..it doesn't matter anywayno..don't say a word,just turn around and walk awayi don't need you,i can do it on my ownno..i don't want you,I'd rather be alonego away,oh..please just don't come back againit's just a matter of time,I'll get used to the painyou're sorry..really,please keep it insideI'm learning now to live,without you by my sideI'm trying real hard,i know you're no longer mine"am i okay?"..yeah,everything is finei just lost you,the one thing I'm living forso what?you just so simply walked out the dooryou're not coming back..yeah,i know you won't"i don't have to cry"..you see babe,i don'twhat's wrong with me?"..no,I'm all okaynot a big deal,I've just had my heart broken today"you will stay away to comfort me",thanks it really helps me"you don't wanna see me sad",I'm smiling..can't you seeif this faking will help you,i shall make you happy before i goi will keep all the suffering to myself,i promise i won't let it showyou ask me"do i forgive you?" i reply"why s

Fu Slammers Family
i am starting fu slammers family and it will be a family that will help and assist other family members level and other problems that members are having.and help there friends when possible

Forgetting Is The Hardest Part.
It doesn't matter if your heart breaks They don't even know you're there, It doesn't matter if you're shattered, Or If you've forgotten to care. Because the lies all crash down on you now, you can't act like you're happy anymore, You're hurt beyond repair tonight Just leave, walk out that door. The pain it's all too much to take, Try to run away from yourself, You say that goal is too unreachable, But impossible is what you do so well. Drown everything you used to be, What used to shine out of your eyes, Let this hurt over come it. and finally let down your disguise.

God Mistake
u come down here to help but u keep messing up all the time .he tear your wings and say u on your own ,wft u donot want to be here with all the hate ,killing. so u sin all though years u know its wrong ,when u come down thats all we do so god mistake to put u here.

No Strings
This Blog is about No strings attached FUN. Not just sex but hanging with friends and not having to answer for it after the fact. I have checked out some of the online sites that promise you they have what your looking for , thier full of it. Spouses say go on and go have fun with your friends but what happens when you get home, you catch hell. Don't beleive me,call the spouse from work ,ask to go out for a few and spend a couple of

Life
Well a lot has happened in such a short amount of time. I'm no longer with my husband but I am now with a very special man with the same background as me as far as relationships goes. I can honestly say that everything that happened happened for a reason and it just wasn't men to be with Chad. Travis only time will tell.. but so far I like where things are heading and how slow things are going. almost as if everything fits just right like it was meant to be. ATM just waiting for school to start up and get bk in the swing of things.... cant wait to get this two yrs over with and work on the next 4yr degree.... want something work hard for it!!!! She's making the move from pre-school to Kindergarten this year, she graduates on the 12th. I've made her a dress this year, she's going to re-use her regalia from last year with two new designs an eagle and talons

My Sick Day
It was a rather depressing day at the office so I decided to call in a sick day. My boss was not overly thrilled but he didnt object to my leaving early. What would a caring compassionate guy like me have to be depressed about? Well, it started three weeks back when Marsha and I got into a huge fight resulting in her telling me she was moving out of our apartment of a year. She said I wasn't satisfing her needs. What else could I do? I fingered that lovely clit until juicies ran. I would eat her out pushing my tounge deep into that wonderfully tight cove of love until she screamed. I always put her needs ahead of my own selfish satisfaction. Isn't that what love is? Well, I thought it was. I thought we were doing great as a couple. All our friends said we were good together and wondered what the hell went wrong when Marsha packed a bag and walked out of our life. I didn't look forward to walking into the apartment still full of Marsha's belongings. I thought her leaving it behind would

Pimpout From Ice
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Teens Aquitted In Beating Part 2
Friends and relatives of two teens accused in the beating death of a Mexican immigrant struggled to contain their relief as not-guilty verdicts were announced on the most serious charges against the former high school football stars Friday.Gasps filled the courtroom and some had to be restrained by sheriff's deputies as they tried to rush the defense table after Derrick Donchak, 19, and Brandon Piekarsky, 17, were acquitted of aggravated assault, reckless endangerment and ethnic intimidation for the death of Luis Ramirez.Piekarsky was also found not guilty of third-degree murder for the death of Ramirez, who died of blunt force injuries after an encounter with the teens last summer.However, the all-white jury of six men and six women from Schuylkill County jury found Piekarsky and Donchak guilty of simple assault.The case drew national attention to the small town of Shenandoah, Pennsylvania, highlighting race relations and polarizing the community on who was to blame for the incident.L

Landind Zone
on profile picture;in korea at the time air force. but was so drunk;from korean beer and a drink called sojo; that I was in north korea! peace! back from trip early ;san diego ; weather turned little bad! drinks on the house! wanna see some funny ass old japanese monster movie then check out ultraman vs red king in video stash!

Love
I love him, I love him, I love him, and when he comes i'll follow, i'll follow, i'll follow, he'll always be my hero, my hero, my hero from now until forever, forever, forever.. i will follow him, follow him where ever he may go, there isn't an ocean too deep, a mountain to high i can't reach, he is my destiny.

Love
The way I feel I can't explainThe gratitude insideFor all the days and all the nightsYou spent right by my sideFor every hug and every kissTo send me on my way,For always putting me to bed,To prepare me for another dayFor loving me through the hurtAnd pain that’s come my wayFor holding on to me so tightThat I can barely breatheFor never letting goOf the hope you hold for my lifeFor keeping it so close to you heartAll this timeFor yelling at me when I'm out of placeFor telling me the truthFor forgiving me for what I sayCause I no it hurtsSo now I say what I feelAt this time and dayThat mum I LOVE YOU all the timeSo happy mothers day

Party Lounges
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Because....master Says So......
He is the master and he is going to do everything he wants with the couple who experience hardships in their sexual life, he’s going to give it a new life and his cock is going to help him… Of course I knew what was going to happen but I also saw plenty of emotions on the faces of a young couple – embarrassment, excitement, even fear before the man they knew little about and who demanded to call him “Master”. However, people say I look like a reliable person who can be trusted. This time it worked as well. After a few phrases which didn’t mean much the tension went down a bit. This is Alex. He is just the same I’ve expected. He considers himself intelligent (because he graduated from Harvard) and sexually skillful (because he likes fucking). He obviously loves his wife but in the letter to me he calls her “a bit strained” and says she “isn’t sensual enough”. The situation seems familiar to me. Many women suffer

Payment Terms For Rates.
I will pay 30k FuBucks for rating my full folder named "Bomb/EZ Rate 1" during any Happy Hour or 10K for every 100 rates during HH. Please pm for payment, no gifts with the message included or sb either. Private message only and I wil be confiming your rates so any info associated will get payment to you quicker (who's hh, time of day, etc.). Thanks for participating in advance and thank you to all the people I have done this for. Have fun guys.

You Tube Video
Your smiles can brighten any moment, Your hugs put joy in all our days, Your love will stay with us forever and touch our lives in precious ways... The values you've taught, the care you've given, and the wonderful love you've shown, have enriched so many lives in more ways than can be counted. HAPPY MOTHERS DAY with Love Hey Guys,

Fleeting Thoughts
In the silence she sits fleeting thoughts in her mind Awaiting the destiny that lay before her Cherishing every image of him in her mind Longing for the day that she can call upon him to be with her Yearning for the feeling of her hand rapped tightly into his Wrapping each other in a sweet embrace she longs to be his Awaiting the touch and the feeling of her breath on his neck To be able to grasp the feeling of the emotion he has been yearning for his whole life Slowly and steadily she approaches this mystery she would like to call her own Knowing in her heart that this is what she has truly been longing for The feeling is indescribable as he approaches this beautiful woman for the first time in his life Feeling as though he has yet to be complete without her Within this sweet embrace she realizes that this is the man that she was made for With tears in her eyes she whispers I love you

Asses!!!
well sum people think their shit dont stink but im here to say that they do!! Kiss my ass whom ever thinks ur better than me. Fuck you and the horse u came n on...and do not forget that im a fucking bitch and ill bite u n the ass just like you tried to fuck me in the ass!

Real Talk
Mom had her first round of chemo yesterday. Let's just say she isn't the ideal patient. She acted like a coke addict going through withdrawl for like 8 hours. She kept kicking me too lol - - supposively it was the pre-meds; the combination of benadryl and steroids that did her in. She can't remember any of it but I think that's because of all the ativan we gave her.I've been so so tired even before we came to Philadelphia. The Cancer Treatment Center of America here is definately amazing though. Even the people there want me to go get checked out back home (they only accept people already diagnosed with cancer) for tonsillar, lung and chest tumors. When mom had her complete scans at the hospital they found a spot on the right side of her skull and her liver too. It sucks because that means she can't have radiation yet and her condition is so agressive they wanted to do both at

Mosquito Remedy
THINK SPRING!!! MOSQUITO REMEDY THAT WORKS!! Never hurts to know or try a new method.I just thought I'd share this since we have a mosquito problem here...And Listerine has no DEET in it, which is nicer for spraying on your children and grandchildren! The best way of getting rid of mosquitoes is Listerine, the original medicinal type. The Dollar Store-type works, too. I was at a deck party awhile back, and the bugs were having a ball biting everyone. A man at the party sprayed the lawn and deck floor with Listerine, and the little demons disappeared.The next year I filled a 4-ounce spray bottle and used it around my seat whenever I saw mosquitoes.And voila! That worked as well. It worked at a picnic where we sprayed the area around the food table, the children's swing area, and the standing water nearby. During the summer, I don't leave home without it.....Pass it on.

Tips On Pumping Gas
TIPS ON PUMPING GASI don't know what you guys are paying for gasoline.... but here in California we are also paying higher, up to $3.50 per gallon. But my line of work is in petroleumfor about 31 years now, so here are some tricks to get more of your money's worth for every gallon..Here at the Kinder Morgan Pipeline where I work in San Jose , CA we deliver about 4 million gallons in a 24-hour period thru the pipeline. One day is diesel the next day is jet fuel, and gasoline, regular and premium grades. We have 34-storage tanks here with a total capacity of 16,800,000 gallons.Only buy or fill up your car or truck in the early morning when the ground temperature is still cold. Remember that all service stations have their storage tanks buried below ground. The colder the ground the more dense the gasoline, when it gets warmer gasoline expands, so buying in the afternoon or in the evening....your gallon is not exactly a gallon. In the petroleum business, the specific gravity and the tempe

If It Should Be
if it shouls be that i grow weak and pain should keep me from my sleep; then you must do what must be done, for this last battle cant be won. you will be sad, i understand; but don't let greif then stay your hand. for this day more than all rest, you love for me must stand the test. we've had so many happy years; what is to come can hold no fears. you dont want me to suffer so the time has come, please let me go. take me where my need they'll tend, but please stay woth me'til the end to hold me close and speak to me until my eyes no longer see. i know in time you will agree, it was a kindness done for me. although my tail its last has waved, from pain and suffereing i'm saved. please do not grieve that it was you who had this painful thing to do we've been so close, we two, through the years; don't let your heart hold any tears. AUTHOR UNKNOWN I COPIED THIS FROM A WEBSITE THAT HELPS ME GET OVER MY LOSS OF PETS!!!

The Best Part Of My Day:)
The best part of my day after a long hard day at work or the stress we all face and problems we all seem to share weather it be money,family ,or just the everyday bullshit we face i can honestly say my wife is the best part of my day with a careing word or a simple i love you i know we will be ok. I cnt believe all the shit this woman has delt with before me and now with me shes a trooper my energy my breath when i cant breath and my heartbeat when i want to give up shes a little fiesty at times lol those eyes that are so beautiful can show just how pissed she is by a glance ,they also show the loving tifanie who is loyal considerate and goes without and doesnt complain just says baby it will get better she is my world and 6-13-08 was the best day of my life baby you are more than amazing i love you:)

Toxic: Dr.pepper
This Monday, April 13, 2009 photo shows a recipe titled "D Peppers Pepsin Bitters" in a ledger book from the Waco, Texas, drugstore where Dr Pepper was invented. Poking through antiques stores, Bill Waters stumbled across the tattered old ledger book filled with formulas. The maker of the soft drink says it's not the secret formula, but that hasn't stopped the book from generating interest at an upcoming auction. (AP Photo/Donna McWilliam) (Donna McWilliam, AP / April 13, 2009)

New Life Started
My husband passed away back in June of 2008, this month I have gone ahead and begun a new life with a new man and am living with him. We've known eachother for 6 months now-so, it's not rushing into anything. I waited until long after the passing of my husband to begin going into the dating world again. It's scary living with someone again-but, it's a natural flow to the relationship that I'm having. Everyone have a blessed day-and hope to talk to each and everyone of you soon.

New Life...new Bf
My Plan...Alright...most know that I am done with school...except for the CLEP test that I am studying hard for. This test should take care of the 3 credits of science that I am missing so that I can get my Bachelor's Degree. My plan is to move to Amarillo TX. Those that know me are probably saying...WHAT?! Yes, I hate Texas, but this time around (yes my second try for Texas) things seem to be falling into place. I am going to be applying for a case worker position. I know this isn't juvenile probation, but I cannot get that type of position without experience. So, we all have to start somewhere. I knew when I chose my career goal and my major that I would not be making a truckload of money, but that is not why I chose this. I am excited to venture forth into my new life and I can't wait to see the changes that God has in store for me.My bf...Part of the reason for moving to Amarillo is for Mr. Chris (he soo loves it when I call him that! JK). :D :D :D that's me grinning from ear to ea

Extreme Weightloss Plan And Goals.
Well, I have been noticing some weight gain over the last seven months or so after my extreme weight loss goals that I accomplished last year in the first six months of 2008. I managed to go from 230 pounds last year in February to just under 200 pounds by my 30th birthday last year, and than by mid June, beginning of July I made it to between 175 and 180 pounds.. I felt much better after the weight loss especially since my acid reflux dissappeared after dropping below 200 pounds. In the last couple weeks I noticed some acid reflux again, and realized that I am at 210 pounds. My goal is to get myself to drop at least 10 pounds by my birthday again this year which is just over two weeks away. I have started as of Tuesday night this week with similar to what I did last year with control of intake on how much food I am eating. I had 350 calories approx. in 24 hours, and will probably have similar for the next 24 hours, and so on and so forth. Still eating some of the same foods I have b

Pot Could Save Poor Economy!
budget cure: Marijuana taxes?In this desperate economy, some argue that legalizing and taxing marijuana could plug multibillion-dollar holes in federal and state coffers.Rate this ArticleClick on one of the stars below to rate this article from 1 (lowest) to 5 (highest) LowThank you for rating.HighAverage rating: 4.34 from 10597 usersE-mail us your comments on this article View all top-rated articlesBy John Dyer, MSN MoneyDaniel Stein says the salvation of U.S. taxpayers could be marijuana. As Washington breaks the bank on Wall Street bailouts, President Barack Obama's stimulus package and other spend-now, pay-later measures, most observers agree that politicians will eventually need to increase revenue or cut spending to cover the federal government's debts. Stein believes Washington could begin to balance its books now if politicians would take a serious look at his industry. The owner of two retail outlets that he claims generate $1 million in revenue annually, Stein says he pays

Unspoken Words
Everyone has that one person they love the most. The one that can make you smile just by a phone call away. One that makes stupid jokes but you laugh anyway. It's always that one particular person thats written all over your heart but don't even realize it. At times its that one person that you know you wouldn't be able to love. Watching people love, watching people hurt. Now I realized how much love can stab you like a knife because of these stupid rules that others spread around. Specific things that one can not do because others say they can't. Is that really love? Is it hard to accept truth? Questions building up inside me, making me more confused then I already am. Being stuck in the middle is not always easy. One thing I'd like to ask everyone. Isn't "Love" something that's shared by others no matter how much you dislike that someone or something? One that can learn to move on from previous wounds. One that can accept the truth. Sometimes I wonder how much better life would be if

Let Me Dream
Let me dream.. Like I've never dreamed before.Let me dream that I'm in love.That I'm a free and flying dove.Just let me dream.Let me dream that I can be.Happy for the rest of eternity.And that one day you will seeWhat a perfect woman I can be.Let me dream that you secretly stare.And inquire about my when and whereLet me dream that I'm the oneAnd other than me...You want none.Let me dream that you think of me.And whether we one day will be.The lovers who had no chance.To be who they wanted to be.Let me dream that you are waiting there.And that life might at last be fair.Let me dream of your silly smile.And that loving me was worthwhile.Again..These are just dreams.That might never be real.But one day you might know..How hard secret love feels.

I Guess He'll Never Know...
I guess he'll never know...how much I love him so.As days pass my love for him grows,yet his love for me never existed at all.I guess he'll never know...how happy I am when he is around.How his presence warms my heart,and he doesn't even notice I'm around.I guess he'll never know...how much he means to me.How much it hurts when he loves someone else.How my heart tears when I see him look into her eyes when I wish they were mine.I guess he'll never see...the tears I cry in my room.Wishing he could just see me,the way I see him.I guess I'll never have him in my life...to see his smile and glistening eyes.His one of those fantasies that never come to life,He will just be that guy that I can never be with.I guess I'll never know...What it would be like to have the guy of my dreams in my arms.

Hurt
You said you'd never break my heart.You'd never make me cry.I believed everything you said.I believed every lie.You made me so happy.Just to be with you.It was the best relationship ever.With just me and you.I'm still not glad it's over.I may not ever be.You're still my one and only.Hope that you are happy.Don't think I don't miss you.It still hurts to hear your name.I love you more now than ever.But I won't be yours again.I thought the pain was over.But boy was I wrong.I feel it more each day.The hurt isn't gone.

Dont Know What To Do
I'm scared.. no terrified.I don't know what to do.My heart and mind are at war.They're fighting over you.One says, "Let go,He doesn't really care.You need to move on,Wake up from this nightmare."The other tells me to hold on,You know him and his ways,He's scared of getting hurt.Screw what others say.The others... I forgot.They tell me to say goodbye.This isn't a real relationship.Why do I bother to try?You give me no hope,No ounce of affection.We hardly talk at all.It feels like rejection.Maybe I can't take a hint,Maybe you never loved me.Maybe I'm a stupid girl.Maybe this is how it has to be.I hold on anyways,Though it hurts everyday.I fell in love with you.What else is there to say?You thought I would forget,But now I think you see,I meant everything I said,about you and me.

I Burnt It All For You
Butterfly KissesBrush Across My CheekWhispering WordsTo Sweep Me Off My FeetSing Song VoiceSaying My NameEverything You Do To MeDrives Me More InsaneLie After LieYou Swear Your Love Is TrueI Feel Like A FoolBecause I Believed In YouCriss Cross MarksDecorate My WristBegging MyselfTo Somehow Change ThisHeart Pounding HarderYour Face Haunts My DreamsSmiling Face, Teary EyesNothing's As It SeemsPhotographs ScatteredLaying On The FloorMatches Lit, In My HandTo Me, You Are No More

Friend Or Foe
The time i'v spent with you makes me laugh the dreams i'v had of you makes me cry without a touch the setbacks makes me wanna leave the soul you have has me loving you time is short dreams are far setbacks suck but your soul is perfect why oh why does Crying,loving,laughing and leaving hurt so bad......mabe one day the heart will find out but i will find out with out you.

Boredom At Work
MEN ARE JUST HAPPIER PEOPLE NICKNAMES:• If Laura, Kate and Sarah go out for lunch, they will call each other Laura, Kate and Sarah. • If Mike, Dave and John go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla and Four-eyes.EATING OUT:• When the bill arrives, Mike, Dave and John will each throw in $20, even though it's only for $32.50. None of them will have anything smaller and none will actually admit they want change back. • When the girls get their bill, out come the pocket calculators.MONEY:• A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs. • A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need but it's on sale.BATHROOMS:• A man has six items in his bathroom: toothbrush and toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel . • The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337. A man would not be able to identify more than 20 of these items.ARGUMENTS:• A woman has the last word in any argument

Untaimed Anger
For the past several day I have been angry. Everyone knows this kind of angry. Its the pent up rage you feel and it makes you more angry when you dont even know what it is that your angry at to begin with. I've been going through a rough time these past 3 or 4 weeks and havent been able to find much comfort. Some of my closest friends seem like they don't care much about my problems and almost care free in their own worlds. The only comfort iv been able to muster is sitting in a small room with nothing but an air mattress, my laptop, and a small TV. A lot of the time I feel angry at everything around me from the floor creeking, or birds chirping. My total silence from the world seems insignificant but at the same time sane. There is one person I am thinking of right now and she has kept me calm and smiling through the last few days. She is quickly filling in what I felt to be a hole that would never be filled. Most people would consider this person in a way to be "the one". It's stran

Value Of Life
Well sometimes you never realize the value of your life until something major happens or almost happens. I got to get a reminder today to enjoy every day as a blessing when I got to see a car heading my way going the wrong way on the highway. I guess I probably should elaborate. . . . I was on my way to work just like anyother day, but my friend had me driving today. Well as I was traveling on one of the major 4 lane highways in this area I see a car heading straight for me on the wrong side of the road. I am lucky my defensive driving payed off I was able to slam on the brakes and move safely to the left shoulder. . . And as I was regaining my composure I noticed all the cars around me stopping and pulling off. . . .I am not sure what happened to the driver or if she ever realized she was going the wrong way or the highway patrol got her. . . .I am just thankful that myself or anyone in the vehicle with me was uninjured.

Nite
Our occational encounters are full of heat and passion and I hate when they end.As your hands move slowly over my body I trembal with wanting and excitement.Excitement caused by your soft gental touch and the wanting for it to never end.Your lips softly kiss mine and then move to my neck and then on to other parts of my body.As your hands move slowly over my naked body I shiver with delight.Your hand slowly finds it's way to the inside of my thigh.Your lips seem to slowly go in the same direction.They make their way over my breasts, my stomach, until they reach the inside of my thigh.My heart pounds so loudly in my chest and it feels like it is going to explode.As you slide inside me the fire with in me grows and burns.As our two bodies become one I moan in pleasure.The weight of your body on mine nearly takes my breath away.I gasp and as I do, you push deeper inside of me.You pull me on top of you and manage to stay inside me.As I rock back and forth on top of you I start to feel the

True Love
~~you know ur in love when u cant fall asleep because reality is finally better than ur dreams~~ Im writing this because I cant sleep! He has taken over my every thought and I feel like I have just won the lottery! Everyday I ask myself "How did I get so lucky?" I have finally found the perfect man! My Prince Charming! After a failed marriage and 4 yrs. of hell in an abusive relationship My Time has finally come to be Happy!! He tells me I'm beautiful when I know I look like crap, he kisses my forehead and gently holds my face as he kisses me(and OH how he kisses me!), he holds my hand for no reason, he enjoys fascinating 420 moments with me, he joined fubar and hurried up to level 10 just so he could own me, he downloads and listens to music hes never heard of just because I like it, he made me a cd of his fav songs to me, he told me right off that he was falling in love with me and wasn't scared of saying it, he watches stuff I like just to learn more about me, he drives 45 min each

Birthday
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"submission" ......... Part I
August in Florida is always torrid, especially in the southern part of the state, and he could not help but sweat. Not from the weather, since he was still inside the conditioned air of the house, but from the beat of his heart. It had been racing for weeks, but today it was damned near fibrillating. Today he was going to finally meet her after months of online chats. Deep inside, he had felt like he met his soul mate the first time they talked, but now was the real test. For some reason he felt like a high school kid going on his first date again. His thoughts strayed over the past few months as he showered and bathed himself with trembling hands.

If There Is One Thing I Can't Stand
If there is one thing, I can't stand is when people have to use kids like pawns in their chess game here, it's pathetic and it shows that they give a damn about nothing but themselves, My girlfriend, Kate, her sister called us crying because the jackass of a boyfriend says she's owes him money to fix his car, funny thing is, he got turned into CPS by his other girlfriend for beating on her kids and yet the mother of his children, Kate's sister is threatening to not let her see the kids, so I looked up the legal aid office in Redding, CA. to help her and I am honestly furious at this SOB for threatening her, she don't deserve that, she has already lost her job because of her and I told her, she needs to fight for custody of them and stay clear of the bastard! He's a prick and anyone that uses kids for their own chess game let alone kills kids should be facing the death penalty and forget this life in prison crap, they don't deserve wasting tax payers money by letting them do life in pri

Pimpin Aint Eazy
bein a single mother of 2 beautiful babies u best b-leave pimpin aint eazy! i love my babies they my life. my girl april dawn is my best friend as well as my cuzin. her baby is my baby. u mess wit her u mess wit me so bitches best step off. i love life and live it 1 day at a time the way u should! im ready 2 start a life wit sum 1 4 da rest of my life if i find him hells yea if not im goin keep on keepin on. peace out 4 now! :P

Body To Body
Body to Body,Soul to Soul.I seek your Passion,I seek it all.I need to feel your lips touch mine,the dew from your lips is the sweetest wine.Your tender touch is warm and gentle,The way you love me is so sentimental.The peace your love brings is rapture to my heart,I guess the passion was there from the very start.You move down my body to my aching breast,I feel your heart pounding from within your strong chest.I feel your lips as you take in my nipplelicking and nipping you start to suckle.I feel the arousal build from within,I show you my approval with an passion filled grin.lower and lower your lips do they kiss,not a patch goes unoticed, not a patch do they miss.your lips and tongue are warm as they touch,my pussy oh how it aches, it aches very much.It aches for your fingers, to find that button of pleasure,It aches for your love to send into rapture.It aches to feel that hardness that is hiddenThe hardness of your pleasure rod, that aches to be bitten.I kneel before you to repay th

I Remain Amazed
Somedays I still find myself thinking about him. Not nearly as often as I used to. The pain of heartbreak has been dulled down by time and effort to replace his memory with other people places and things. The new life I have started without him is so much more rewarding and healthy. There is no reason for me to ever think of him again. Those days are past me now. I finally got out. Going back even if only in my head would be insane. This is what concerns me most. I really must be crazy and need some clinical help or maybe some drugs to fix my broken parts. I still go back to those days in my head. Sometimes I try to figure out just where I got so off track. Why could I not see what was right in front of me. Could his lies have been that good. Or did I need to believe them. Why would I want to be so mislead. He was never that good at the game so how come he won? My heart got broke but more than that my spirit was wounded and left to die. I now that no one can explain to me

Confusius Says
Confucius Say... Man who wants pretty nurse, must be patient.Man who drive like hell, bound to get there.War doesn't determine who's right. War determines who's left.Man who lives in glass house should change in basement.Man with hole in pocket feel cocky all day long.Girl who sit on jockeys lap get hot tip.Girl who sits on Judge's lap gets honourable discharge.Man who keep feet firmly on ground have trouble putting on pants.Man who leap off cliff jump to conclusion.Man with tight trousers is pressing his luck.Man who run in front of car, get tired.Man who run behind car, get exhausted.Passionate kiss like spiders web - soon lead to undoing of fly.Foolish man give wife grand piano. Wise man give wife upright organ.Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok.Man who scratches ass should not bite fingernails.Panties not best thing on earth, but next to it.Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house.Man who fight with wife all day, get no piece at ni

I Wish You Enough
Recently, I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments togetherat the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the securitygate, they hugged, and the mother said, 'I love you, and I wish youenough.' The daughter replied, 'Mom, our life together has been more than enough.Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom.' They kissed, and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the windowwhere I was seated. Standing there, I could see she wanted and needed tocry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy, but she welcomed me in byasking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?' Yes, I have,' I replied. 'Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forevergood-bye?' 'Well...I'm not as young as I once was, she lives so far away & has her ownbusy life. I have some challenges ahead, and the reality is - her next tripback will be for my funeral,' she said. 'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough.' M

When We Moved To The U.s
when we 1st moved to the states in '74 we didnt know English. We had a cat named pussy( no joke). We didnt know it meant something else. Well, one day our cat got loose and my mom was walking around the neighborhood calling " here pussy pussy". Then she asked ppl if they seen her pussy.Im not joking. We didnt understand it then-but now when we look back, it is too funny!! Just wanted to share it with you. The things we went thru when we moved here.Ill share more stories with you.

Mother
when you think of a mother what do you see? i see someone who is too good to me always there when the times are tough pushing me through when the going gets rough loving me despite all my faults even being my own personal bank vault just think of all the sacrifices and tears she has had to pay dont forget your mother on this special day

Where Is My
my fu lover or Fu Hubby? I don't know why men aren't interested in me, can someone tell me why no one would want me? I would love to have someone to care for me and I them. If you you are interested or can explain to me what's wrong with me please do. Is there someone out there for me?

Happy Mother's Day
To all of the super mom's out there the ones that are mom and dad, the ones that after a 8 hour jobs come home to cook, clean help with homework, take the kids to the soccer games, ballet clases, or karate, the ones that never make time for themselves, but are 100 percent about their children this Bud is for you, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.

Housisms
Housisms from Season 2 House: "Where are you going?" Foreman: "You're an ass." House: "I know. Where are you going?" - No Reason "I always say if you're going to get shot, do it in a hospital." - No Reason Jack: "I don't want to hear semantics." House: "You anti-semantic bastard." - No Reason "She looks just like you. You have the same fro." - Who's Your Daddy? "Pretentiousness is hereditary. Just because they haven't found the gene yet..." - Who's Your Daddy? "I'm a really good secret keeper. I've never told anybody Wilson wets his bed." - Who's Your Daddy? "Tonight, L Word marathon." - Forever "Unless Chase broke his neck falling off his polo pony, he had no reason to be in the ER." - Forever "I ask you, is almost dying any excuse for not being fun?" - Forever "Ideas are not soda cans. Recycling sucks." - Forever "Oh, Level Three. Have you called Jack Bauer?" - Euphoria, Part 2 Wilson: "You're accessing a webcam?" House: "Cuddy's shower. You a fan of the Brazilian?" - Eup

Lyrisikz
*Suspend memorizing logical monograms..imbed sentimental disclosure thats eating thru your routine..shovel shit to bury the diffrence between dislikes .. .digging out of cured caskets .eject poralisis...regurgitate dirt and lurk..drone apprehend and mutate half dead gaskets splitting around reshaped spines..rough worn tension inserts with no escape.. paired with broken nails.....finding hope in corners.. provoke stressed pellicle soaked as he comprehends the descent portrait failing..Nailing the post into the ferminted foundation..rebar.. spaced far.... filled out defensive to keep legit..stall survalience.. distributed evenly alongside the wall spraying..laying still, beleiving ..releaving pressure as heart pound..hazing wound bleeding onto the ground..scaling agriculture only to fall victim to hovering vulture ..splitting chest cavities to ingest vitals that rupture when punctured by inconclusive abuse, steady at smothering the insecuritys that wisper heavy..meet machedy..split heads

Two Days From Renfrew...
Dear Kenny, Thankfully the odds of you reading this are almost nonexistent. You've shredded my heart into pieces. Now you say you'll call and I've sat by the phone all day waiting. Of course you don't call. You were supposed to be the one. Supposed to stand by me. You don't. Yet, even now, I sit by the phone while waiting for that collect call from the county jail. Why? I have no idea. And I promise you, next time, when you do call, I won't necessarily be here anymore. You've taken enough years from my life. I won't let you have another day. I could have spent the entire day readying for Florida, yet I spent it all pining for your sorry ass. No more. Karina I'm nervous as hell. But excited. I don't know. I haven't even started preparing yet, which is bad. I have to have everything I need because I'm fucked if I forget anything. No way to get stuff sent down to me. i can't believe Kenny decides now to be supportive though. He's the loser ex boyfriend, who doesn't know the meaning of t

Why Am I Here?
hmmm.. I love sex I am Bi I have a man I love women too I am not a swinger I am a paradoxical human sex is sacred and beautiful buffing our spirits through our bodies I like to share woman are not rivals beautiful human beings I adore them Men are home to me allowing an expression of femininity from me Woman offer a different angle of expression of passion

Find Me Where I Lurk!
You can find me lurking in the ICU/CCU in my town doing that nursing thing I do!! I am the Inked RN!! lol If you're interested in hearing all metal, and meeting some crazy, kick ass people, check out Excito Diabolus!! HAHA, good times. lol

Desperation
Throw a dog a bone I'll take it if I have to Go real fast like there's somewhere we can get to What's the use of standing right there on the edge if there ain't nowhere to fall What's the use in hanging on tight to the phone if nobody might call Desperation There's danger in frustration Complicated words slipping off of your tongue and ain't one of them the truth I'm still desperate for you Tell it like a lie live it like a movie Give a heart away like it don't mean nothing to me What's the use in making all the plans that we made if you weren't gonna go [ Miranda Lambert Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] What's the use of slapping on a smile for a face if your eyes don't wanna show Desperation There's danger in frustration Complicated words slipping off of your tongue and ain't one of them the truth I'm still desperate for you Well it's too damn bad you didn't have a chance to make me your best friend You were too caught up in giving too much up and not doing what you should ha

Wtf...darn Work ...:(
So yeah ...long story short... my work computer can no longer access fubar ...:( and as most of you know ...my laptop at home is toast lol! So ....for those of you who wish to stay in contact with me ... hit me up on yahoo ... nopilots13@yahoo.com or drop me a line at nismodet@live.com Those of you who i chatted with regularly... i hope to hear from you ;)

Different
Casey may or may not of killed her child, but too many people out their mad cause she didn't get found guilty, need to remember one thing, let them that hath no sin cast the first stone. in other words go home people and go to work and quit worrying about other people, , and get your own life in order..... Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as: - Knowing when to come in out of the rain; - Why the early bird gets the worm; ... - Life isn't always fair; - And maybe it was my fault. Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies, don't spend more than you can earn and adults, not children, are in charge. His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6-year-old boy charge

Hmmm Can I Get Some Help?
im in another auction and its not only for ownership but most rates count also so rate my rear til its sore please place a bid if you can im a good little pet !! im litter trained and all and i wont bite ya well unless ya ask me to lol

Sinful Thoughts
you can tell alot from a woman by how they take care of their feet. hat's off to all you women who show pride in taking care of themselves! not to mention, i do have a small foot fetish. 8) love a pretty female, isaid FEMALE, foot. peace out, luv ya.

My Owner
aGEM4life [SinnersFamily-SBG] --Proudly Owned By Willie -- FU Owned By GANGSTA - DESIGNZ & Muma_e@ fubar This my truly awesome owner Donna, aGEM4life. Ive been friends with her on here for awhile now. Shes great and deserves lots of fu love guys.. Wish I could make this into one of the frilly blogs with backgrounds and stuff but hey I cant so here it is...Love you Donna

Ebonys Romance
embrace me o loving night, i look into the knight skye, and seee why i fell in loveturning from your cousin that burns so bright in the day and reveals everything that should not be, you my night i return to whos surrounds me envelops me and soothes me to allow me to live in your sanctuaryunder your eyes lighting my way under your carpets serenity, while your friends who sparkle with delight, the stars dance wiht us into the waning hours of our limited time

Words
I hurt myself today to see if I still feel I focus on the pain the only thing thats real The needle tears a hole the old familiar sting Try to kill it all away but I remember everything. **What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt** I wear this crown of thorns upon my liars chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here. **What have I become? My sweetest friend everyone I know goes away In the end And you could have it all my empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If i could start again a million miles away I would keep myself I would find away.**