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I sit here with a wall built around me so that no more pain can come in or out I hear voices screaming at me to come out and no matter how much I want to I cant!!!!! I scream back for everyone to leave but they all stay around me and the wall that bounds me and my thoughts… no where to go no one to see I sit there thinking of everything that is in my mind depression consumes my mind and spirit to where I can not release it… so much pain, lies, and abuse bring me to this point in my life… will I ever get better will I ever be free? No one knows… the time I have in this wall that is around me will decide what my life holds so hold on and keep screaming for me to come out cuz one day I will till then just deal……
ok so theres this guy jesse right??? and we became really good friend just talked everyday and he was there for me and i was there for him and all this great stuff.... well come to find out we r alike in everyway the only 2 diffrents between us is he is a guy and loves heavy heavy metal and i do not..... so anyways we get togeather and we r all happy and shit then one day he goes poof on me...... then comes back and everything is just not the way it was before its way diffrent and i start to feel like i have lost my best friend in this web of personal stuff......... so anyways i am hurt and lost and confused and its to the point of having a bad brake down then guess what he goes poof again lmao wow he must be a ninja huh??? so 2 days ago i see that he was on my fubar and see that he is owned and has as his number one some bitch and the only bitch thats on his friends list so at this point i am pissed cuz last i knew we were gonna try n work things out..... well then i get on my aim and guess who is on his s/n and i get that jesse has done and killed himself!!!! wow 5 a.m wake up message and that it was his friend on his account then today his other friend gets on his fu and is a total dick to me and my friends in my lounge and just makin me feel like i am worthless and that i nvr loved jesse and in witch I DID/DO love him..... welll then guess who pops up JESSE so all this time he was alive and let me think he was dead when he really wasnt........ so what do i do????? i am so hurt and so confused and so lost on this whole thing its not like jesse to be like this at all..... he has nvr been mean to me or anything and now its like my jesse went poof and this thing thats takin over him is just a mean dick face ass....... 2 days of no eating n no sleeping cuz i was so lost and the only thing i could do was stay on here with my friends and try not to lose my sanity since my family is on vacation and lol my daughter liked him so much and i had to tell her what was going on yayaya go me no fuk that yayaya go JESSE!!! anyways any help or advise is much needed ty....
u come to me with scars on ur wrist u tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
just came by to say goodbye i didnt want u to see me cry i am fine
but i know its alright
this is the last night to spend alone look me in my eyes so i know u know i am everywheres u want me to be
this is the last night u spend alone wrap u in my arms and i wont let go i am everything u need me to be
ur parents say everything is ur fault but they dont know u like i know u they dont know u al all
i am so sick when they say its just a vase u'll be ok ur fine
but i know its alreght
this is the last night to spend alone look me in my eyes so i know u know i am everywheres u want me to be
this is the last night u spend alone wrap u in my arms and i wont let go i am everything u need me to be
last night away from me
the night is so long when everything is wrong
and u give me ur hand i will help u hold on
tonight
tonight
this is the last night to spend alone look me in my eyes so i know u know i am everywheres u want me to be
this is the last night u spend alone wrap u in my arms and i wont let go i am everything u need me to be
i wont let u say good bye i will be ur resoned why
the last night away from me
away from me
there comes a point in everyones life where they wanna give up on alot well i guess this is mine!!!! everyone knows i am a nice person i keep the peace i dont really say much and i let others run all over me :( sad huh??? well now i am to the point i am not i try to let everything go that has happened this week but others dont wanna let it go no they wanna talk there shit and feel good about rubbin shit in my face!!!! well u know what yall ppl that r doing that can fuk tha fuk off sideways!!!! what can i not make anyone happy i mean really happy??? if i am here it seems like ppl aint happy if i am gone ppl aint happy i mean come on what do yall fukin want from me??? i am one person and i cant make everyone happy even thou i try my damnest to well fuk it all to hell!!!! my life is compacated enuff well there it is so fuk it
