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Exchange
Hood Mood do i look like a fucking ninja to you little fucking gir... Sacramento, CA remove friend subject: remember, you scratch my back...i fuck yours date: 2009-12-12 03:24:34 REMEMBERWe experimentally investigate behavior in sequential one-shot transactions which are governed by non-binding contracts. In a second, incomplete information treatment, contracts are binding for some players. While according to traditional game-theoretical analysis no trade is expected in the first treatment, full trade should result in the latter. However, we find that trade is even higher in the non-binding contract treatment. On the one hand, non-binding contracts - although they are cheap talk - do guide behavior, especially at the beginning of a business relationship, while reciprocal reactions prevail later on. On the other hand, in the treatment with binding contracts cooperative behavior appears to be crowded out.so rate my photos n

2009 Please End
diary it is clear to me that i have to get out of sacramento i cannot escape myself here this year has aged me tenfold this worst possible fate was fubar and the girl who came with it and the one i leave without i am so empty there is nothing left to drain out i dont believe in god anymore and love is the most awful thing i have ever lived through my very last friend on the planet fron the original set died i his bathroom injecting oxi cotin i am all that is left and i hate myself

Is Be Crazy Biotch
Yea, so we all know[ or.. Most do.. ] Bri has O.C.D Majorly. [ Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is an illness that causes people to have unwanted thoughts (obsessions) and to repeat certain behaviors (compulsions) over and over again. We all have habits and routines in our daily lives, such as brushing our teeth before bed. However, for people with OCD, patterns of behavior get in the way of their daily lives.Most people with OCD know that their obsessions and compulsions make no sense, but they can't ignore or stop them.]Mine are :Concern with order, symmetry (balance) and exactnessWorry that a task has been done poorly, even when the person knows this is not trueThinking about certain sounds, images, words or numbers all the timelemme Explain, Everything I have Has to have a mirror Image, So Lets say I have a fire place mantle and on that Mantle I have a mirror in the middle, On either side of that mirror has to be the EXACT same thing, so if I have a candle on one side I have to

She'll See
One day, She will wake up and notice You're not around, She might cry for a while, But soon there after the mist will go away from her head, and the clouds will be gone from her eyes,. And As the day's go by she will start to lose the memories, Of the good and bad times and she will stop questioning all the things she once questioned,. You can be replaced,. You can be forgotten and no matter how many times you want to try and pretend to be the greatest thing on the earth, YOU will fade

Funny
It`s funny how hello always ends with a goodbye, it`s funny how good memories can start to make you cry. It`s funny how forever never really seems to last, it`s funny how much you`d lose if you forgot about your past. It`s funny how friends can just leave you when you`re down, it`s funny how when you need someone they`re never around. It`s funny how people change and think they`re so much better, it`s funny how many lies can be packed in one "love letter". It`s funny how people forgive even though they can't forget, it`s funny how one night can contain so much regret. It`s funny how ironic life turns out to be but the funniest part of all, none of that`s funny to me.

Tjrerthb
Everytime before I eventually fall asleep, I would stare at this little light that I can see outside through my bedroom window. I'd stare at it for quite some time. Thinking. I cried myself to sleep again last night with both my cats on my side. It does make me feel good that they're there to comfort me. I day dream and think a lot. Not always a good thing but sometimes I can't help it. I try to think of postitive things but they usually lead to negative things. I wish that my negatives would just turn to positives. I'm always real sad at work. Some people can notice it at work, some think I'm just tired. I wish that I was someone completely different. I wish I was more special. I wish I didn't always have to be the one that has to make the move....sometimes I just wish they would come to me for once. I reach for things but they're out of reach...the other person needs to extend their reach.

Wake Up.
I hate your stupid smile I hate your mouth when you say please I hate your dumbass voice especially when it quivers my knees. I hate your eyes when you look at me I hate how your scent gets me high I hate your goddamn clothes and I hate it when you pretend to act shy. But the one thing I hate the most Is how you made me feel then you left me there all alone. I hate how you made it seem so real.

Lady Gaga Worst Dressed Star
Lady Gaga has not been known for her fashion sense but she does stir up conversation. I like looking at her when she wears skimpy tight things. She has a nice body that looks good in lingerie type outfits. When Madonna wore sexy outfits it didn’t radiate sexuality for her. Lady Goga oozes with sexuality when she wears sexy things. That doesn’t matter to Fox411. They have dubbed her “Worst dressed female star of 2009.” Check out the pics and see for yourself. Your style is impeccable at BlastFM no matter what you wear. Listen and enjoy. http://www.foxnews.com/slideshow/entertainment/2009/10/12/freaky-fashion-faceoff-lady-gaga?slide=1www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Hotel Experience Part 1
I picked up the phone and called Shezz. 'Hey, you got a guy for me yet?' 'Yeah, Sasha. Farrell. He'll meet you at Galleyway Hotel tonight at 8' 'WHAT! That's in like, 40 minutes. OMG. Shezz, u could've called earlier' 'Well, I only got the request like, 30 minutes ago. Anyways, get ready and go' 'OK, guess Ima have to right?' 'Right ! Now go !!!' I hung up and got ready. Best clothes. Primark. Well, I've only JUST become a prostitute! Gawd. But that outfit was hot!!! OMG. Bare Midriff tank top, Hot pants and 7 inch heels. WOWZA :D I stumbled out the door and hailed a London cab. The guy stared at me through his mirror the whole ride. When II got out, he declined my money. So I kissed him. He fainted. Oh well. I was 20 minutes early. I had brought my coat with me. Galleyway doesn't accept prozzies. So I put it on and got a room. I said to the receptionist. 'Can I have a room with CCTV please' 'We haven't got any ma'am' 'Look, don't give me that SHIT!. I know you got some' 'OK, ok. Here

How Am I
going to ever stop doing drugs it is the only thing i am good at i dont even fuck right anymore...and those two things go together although i dont know when i slept last at all this is not poetry i cant feel my thumbs i cant feel my lips i have had to piss for over three hours i have not been near water in over 24 hours i have people from another dimension giving me computer advice and yelling at them "your going to fast slow down i have to click on all this shit motherfucker who looks like a lizard man in a cloak party made of air and ciggeratte smoke" KUNT i cant spell i dont care i am over that fucking bitch, not you from last night....the other fucking FUCK YOU BITCH, you are not even up to speed on addiction, your doing it wrong your supposed to enjoy yourself k thats all for now motley crues first album...i dont give it enough credit...now i feel bad i am going to cry no i just play shout at the devil......who looks lime a lizard car insurance salesman

Early-morning Sick Ramblings About Emilie.
This was an email I wrote to the woman who's going to be adopting my daughter; it shares some thoughts and updates on the pregnancy. I'm 29 weeks along; so we're nearing the final stretch. My stomach's huge; Cori bought me a few maternity items for Christmas that really show it off. I'm a little scared, honestly, of the actual birth. They apparently aren't going to do any more ultrasounds, which makes me sad, and worries me because she was laying across my stomach before, in the breach position. I honestly kind of hope she doesn't change positions... A c-section seems less painful to my lady-bits and would probably be easier to heal. Emilie's getting very squirmy; was resting with my laptop on my stomach one day and she actually knocked it over. Every time she moves i can see my shirt move (which is a little scary, I have to admit... I blame all those science fiction movies I watch), and she stretched the other day and I swear i could feel AND see her hands and feet as they mov

Tyra Calls It Quits
Tyra Banks is following in Oprah’s foot steps. Tyra announced she is quitting her TV talk show gig. She now wants to produce movies. She thinks she can help (girls) feel fierce. Come again Tyra. What the heck is that feeling fierce? Can leaving the TV gig have anything to do with ratings? It did with Oprah. TV will be better off with less psycho babble anyway. Although, Tyra is nice to look at. What more then click here: http://entertainment.blogs.foxnews.com/2009/12/28/report-tyra-banks-to-end-talk-show-after-five-seasons/?test=faces BlastFM is not quitting any time soon. We are growing and working to get better just for you! You can’t beat that so give a listen and groove. ww.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

Guys Gone Wild
Gawker.com crowned him “Douche of the Decade” then wrote that he was a rapist. The alleged rapist is “Girls Gone Wild” founder Joe Francis. Joe is so mad that Gawker.com founder Nick Denton called him a rapist that he is threatening to suit Nick for $10 mil. Says Joe, "I lost a $10 million deal as a direct result of you calling me 'a rapist.' You will be paying me every dime of that back and more! Are you mentally retarded? Do your research first. I am coming after you harder than I ever went after anyone. I am going to wipe you off the grid!!!! YOU ARE DONE! I will take everything you have. You, Nick Denton, are truly the douche of the decade. Merry Xmas IDIOT!!! That's ruff. Click the link for more: http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2009/12/29/joe-francis-threatens-sue-gossip-site-gawker-rapist-label/?test=faces Listen to BlastFM to relieve any and all the stress you feel and it’s free! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

7 Babes Ski To The South Pole
This what I call tough. Seven babes from different countries skied 562 miles to the south pole. It took them 38 days. They averaged 15 miles a day with each of them hauling a 176 pound sled of provisions. They did to mark the 60th anniversary of the founding of New Zealand. One of the babes got frostbite so she didn’t make it. My hats off to these honeys. Next time I need a body guard detail you babes are hired! Check it out: http://www.foxnews.com/scitech/2009/12/30/women-reach-south-pole-mile-ski-trek/?test=latestnews Take your iPhone next time you travel to the South Pole and listen to BlastFM to keep in touch with the world. www.liver365.com/stations/blastcasterfm .

Gibran
THE SEVEN SELVES IN THE STILLEST hour of the night, as I lay half asleep, my seven selves sat together and thus conversed in whispers: First Self: Here,in this madman, I have dwelt all these years, with naught to do but renew his pain by day and re-create his sorrow by night. I can bear my fate no longer, and now I rebel. Second Self: Yours is a better lot than mine, brother, for it is given me to be this madman's joyus self. I laugh his laughter and sing his happy hours, and with thrice winged feet I dance his brighter thoughts. It is I that would rebel against my weary existence. Third Self: And what of me, the love-ridden self, the flaming brand of wild passion and fantastic desires? It is I the love-sick self who would rebel against this madman. Fourth Self: I, amongst you all, am the most miserable, for naught was given me but odious hatred and destructive loathing. It is I, the tempest self, the one born in the black caves of Hell, who would protest against serving this madman. F

1-3-2010
Aries (March 21 - April 19) An odd smell, probably like that of chocolate milk drying on a linoleum floor, will bring back a flood of childhood memories. You will remember your locker combination from seventh grade, for example. Ironically, this will happen during a boring yet important meeting, and you will disgrace yourself by calling someone "booger-face." Taurus (April 20 - May 20) A person wearing a bandana on his head and brandishing a cutlass will dash by you today, saying something that sounds a bit like "Arrrr." Gemini (May 21 - June 20) Good day to begin that toothpick sculpture you've been thinking of. You'll be the only private individual (aside from Martha Stewart) who orders toothpicks by the case. Martha goes through several boxes just sticking breakfast together, I hear. Cancer (June 21 - July 22) You will have a completely boring, uneventful day. Then you'll go home, eat the same thing you always eat, watch a re-run, and go to bed. Then you'l

Daily Humorscopes 1-4-2010
Aries (March 21 - April 19) You will become unwittingly embroiled in a turf war between rival Chinese restaurants, today, as you step off the sidewalk to avoid a person wearing an extremely large hat. Before the day is over, you'll find yourself angrily hurling potstickers at people you've never met. Taurus (April 20 - May 20) In the grocery store, you will see quite a few people with infants in their shopping carts. Try though you might, however, you will not be able to find the bin with the children. Perhaps they're sold out? Important Safety Tip: do not stop one of the women with an infant and ask her to show you where her baby came from. Gemini (May 21 - June 20) Itchy nose day, again. Just be glad you don't have to wear a spacesuit! Cancer (June 21 - July 22) A new love affair will have you all misty-eyed. Either that, or it's the onset of glaucoma, in which case you should seek immediate medical attention. Leo (July 23 - August 22) In an unfort

Love
The worst is holding on to someone who doesnt want to be held onto. Dont fall for someone enless they're willing to catch you. The thing about falling in love is that if you do it right, you will never hit the ground. life is too short to be anything but happy. So kiss slowly, love deeply,forgive quickly, take chances and never have regrets and remember that u wanted it at one point in time. Forget the past but remember what it taught you. Sometimes, you just have to smile pretend everythings okay, hold back the tears and walk away .if u want to see the rainbow u must go through the rain. if u want TRUE LOVE you must go thro the pain women were made from a mans rib not from his head to be superior, not from his feet to be walked on but from his side to be equal from under the arm to be protected and from next to the heart to be loved

Happy Mungday!!!
"Today* is Mungday, the Holyday of the Apostle Hung Mung, the Patron Saint of Chaos, and the 5th Day (Setting Orange) of the Season of Chaos (the first season in the Discordian Year) in this, the YOLD 3176. Hooray!Hung Mung is a Sage of Ancient China and Official Discordian Missionary to the Heathen Chinese. He who originally devised THE SACRED CHAO. Patron of the Season of Chaos.On the teachings and imitations ofSaint Hung MungSetting Orange Chaos 5, 3169 Anno LuminaOn Setting Orange Chaos 5 (January 5th), Discordians set aside the day to remember and commune with Saint Hung Mung, whose name means Primal Chaos, sage of Ancient China, inventor of the Sacred Chao, Official Missionary to the Heathens, leader of Operation Mindfuck and patron of the season of Chaos.This is the season of Chaos, the ancient universe as earliest humans saw it, where anything and everything is REAL. Apostle Hung Mung came out of this mindset and planted the seeds of the Taoist religion, whose followers don't a

The Chance
Every time I look at you, I see the pain you have been through. Every time you hold me, I feel how insecure you are. I can not change the past, I can not promis the future. All that I ask, is to be given the chance. The chance of a life time. The chance to fully be yours.

Brains V. Beauty
I respect the mind. i don't find many people who are able to engage me in conversation that holds anything truly interesting for me. Now however I find a new issue arising. Those precious few who seem capable of providing that ever so elusive conversation, and who happen to be stunningly beautiful. I'm torn. i want to respect them. To ignore the physical side of them and embrace the person beyond. However when their form is rather openly displayed i find that difficult to do. i search for brains over beauty. i enjoy both equally as much but place one over the other. And to be honest it depresses me when i see (and by the way this is in reference to at least three different people who i've met. And yes Kelsey you are one of them.) i see that those beautiful few decide to focus on their beauty. When they have the potential to be more. i'd say that perhaps i was of a more traditional mindset, but i know thats not true because of my active involvement in the BDSM communit

Gary
I hold him so close to my heart.I never told him how scared I was.He never saw what I really felt.We spent our first night under the stars at a park.I wanted it to last FOREVER.The first time I let u know that I was falling for u was when u had my phone.U never really told me u felt the same as I do.I sit up wondering what could have been instead of what is.Please end this pain u have given me.My heart is broken and I cant fix it on my own.Its been two years now and I don't see a change.U yell at me saying the three words most girls love to hear.I wish I could open up to u and let u see me for me again.I need u to start being honest with me.Wondering what u are doing day in and day out isn't what I need to be doing.Trying to trust is something I have been doing for awhile.I love u more than what my words and actions will ever say.When I gave u my heart I gave it for keeps.I trusted u with it all.Now I'm left sitting here trying to figure out why u caused me so much pain.U took Kaden in

First Timer
what up my fellow fubar's i have been here along time i meen from way back lost cherry cherry tap an way before that lol i have seen good friends come an go an i think i never have done a blog huh weird well tu da lol hopefully there will be more though im not much of a talker im more of a listener boy has that ever pist off some of my gurl friends lmao " y you never talk to me " couse aint shit going on up there lol if i have something to say i will say it well how was that for my first blog ? laterz all

Girl Freaks Out Over Burger
How many different ways does McDonald’s make a hamburger? I don’t know but every time I’ve eaten there they always taste the same. For Alesha McMullen of Kansas City, Mo her cheeseburger tasted different this time. So what does she do but tear up the McDonald’s restaurant. I could think of a less violent way of showing my displeasure. Read about the burger caper http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,582896,00.html?test=latestnews BlastFM is a veritable potpourri of musical styles. It never sounds the same. So you don’t know what to expect. Give a listen! www.live356.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Just Some Random Stuff From My Freewriting Folder
Welp, here's a little hobby of mine : writing. Not very good at it, but I like mixing up words. Always was enamored with freewriting in english class, mainly cause it's the rawest form, to me. So, I freewrite. It is what it is.... more than likely shitty lol Remember, they're just random things I'm pulling out of my folder. More than likely, they don't have titles, they're not finished(to me... so hard to end one. I like to come back and add), and they're also probably very shitty emo poetry lol. Well. Here goes... Oh my oh my what am I to do Take my pain and throw it at you? Nope, just can’t, I’m a big boy now Gotta chalk it all up to suck and move along somehow Find my feet where the path will lead Pitching cigarette butts like Johnny Appleseed A mordern day Rotten Johnny Appleseed So many misleading roads to walk So little time in the day in which to spend Mix my emotions with the raw asphalt Mixed emotions grow this work to rend Like a horse faced Johnny A

Poooooooooooooonch!
it all started from a bellyache, and me remembering my favorite moment in Bloom County history.... GothicPoet66 (2:51:45 AM): .. maybe eric estrda is trying to rip through my abdomen... Anarchy Ashe (2:51:52 AM): *LMAO* Anarchy Ashe (2:51:55 AM): PONCH! GothicPoet66 (2:54:41 AM): =P Anarchy Ashe (2:55:10 AM): How did he get in there. *pokes that spot* Ponch? GothicPoet66 (2:55:36 AM): *muffled sounds* Anarchy Ashe (2:55:56 AM): *puts ear there* Ponch?! GothicPoet66 (2:56:07 AM): Yes..? Anarchy Ashe (2:56:12 AM): O_O!!! GothicPoet66 (2:58:00 AM): oh god if i had a camcorder. GothicPoet66 (2:58:10 AM): that'd be a hilarious short film GothicPoet66 (2:58:16 AM): entitled: GothicPoet66 (2:58:23 AM): PONCH IN THE BELLY!!! Anarchy Ashe (2:58:43 AM): Just me pokin your stomach goin "Ponch? How did you get in there..." GothicPoet66 (2:59:03 AM): and have whoever's holding the camera be the voice. GothicPoet66 (2:59:09 AM): talking back to you. GothicPoet66 (2:59:15 AM): and it turns out to all

I Think Vips Should Be Given A Right To A Ponit System Like U Are Allowed To Give Them A Ponit If They Are Way Outta Line And If They Get A Certian Am
i think vips should be given a right to a ponit system like u are allowed to give them a ponit if they are way outta line and if they get a certian amount of ponits they are ban for certian amount of time .. but your only gaven a certian amount of ponits to give out a month to help prevent miss use of it ...

Judge Orders Woman To Wear Sign
I know you babes think your tough. But don’t put you hand in the face of a cop in Orlando. A judge ordered Alexandra Espinosa-Amaya to were a sign reading “I battered a police officer. I was wrong. I apologize.” I guess that’s better then going to jail for a spell. Next time you’re drinking baby keep your hands to yourself unless you’re petting someone. Check it out: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,582941,00.html?loomia_ow=t0:s0:a4:g4:r2:c0.000000:b0:z5 At BlastFM we expect you to wave your hands to the beat of the music. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Bad Medical News --- I Will Beat It
I've always been a big man and in rather good shape up until 2009, which has definately been my worst year ever. Today a bombshell was droped on me after going to a follow-up appointment for my knee surgery. The doctor tell me that within 5 years I'll need a total knee replacement which will essentially end my military career prematuraley. Also on the past year I've been placed on anti-hypertensive medicine and ant-arrythmic medicine. At 43 years of age I'm still young but unable to carry my 295 pounds on my 6'4" frame. This weight no matter how much of it is muscle is killing my heart and my knees. In order to beat it I have to start shedding the punds. So I'm starting off with an immediate goal of 10 pounds and once that achiebed 10 more. Until I shed 70 pounds. This way I'll save my health, knees, and my military career that I love so much. Wish me luck please I need all the help I can get. Vinny

The Eight Basic Scripts
The Eight Basic Scripts Robert Anton Wilsonfrom The Illuminati Papers System I - Biosurvival Scripts The biosurvival winner:"I will live forever or die trying." The biosurvival loser:"I don't know how to defend myself." System II - Emotional-Territorial Scripts The emotional-territorial winner:"I am free; you are free; we can have our separate trips or we can have the same trip." The emotional-territorial loser: "They all intimidate me." System III - Semantic Scripts The semantic winner:"I am learning more about everything, including how to learn more." The semantic loser:"I can't solve my problems." System IV - Socio-sexual Scripts The sociosexual winner:"Love, and do what thou wilt." (Anon. of Ibid) The sociosexual loser:"Everything I like is illegal, immoral, or fattening." System V - Neurosomatic Scripts The neurosomatic winner:"How I feel depends on my neurological knowhow." The neurosomatic loser:"I can't help the way I feel." System

Me
I don't know what made me what I am, but whatever it was left a hollow place inside. People fake alot of human interactionsbut i feel like i fake them all, and fake them very well. And that is my burden I guess. I don't blame my parents they did a wonderful job raising me, but they're both dead no. I didn't kill them, honest.

Enjoy The Top Western Song Titles For Last Year.
Top Ten Country Western Songs.10. I Hate Every Bone In Her Body But Mine 9. I Ain't Never Gone To Bed With an Ugly Woman But I Woke Up With A Few 8. If The Phone Don't Ring, You'll Know It's Me 7. I've Missed You, But My Aim's Improvin' 6. Wouldn't Take Her To A Dogfight 'Cause I'm Scared She'd Win 5. I'm So Miserable Without You It's Like You're Still Here 4. My Wife Ran Off With My Best Friend And I Miss Him 3. She Took My Ring and Gave Me the Finger 2. She's Lookin' Better with Every BeerAnd the Number One Country & Western song is.. 1. It's Hard To Kiss The Lips At Night That Chewed My Ass All Day

Meryl Streep Uses The F Word
There must be something about going through the change of life as we get older. How else do you explain Meryl Streep using the “F” word back stage at the Globe Awards show. She was telling Pop Tarts about Julie Child not understanding people using the “F” when talking about her cooking. Meryl is not known for cuss words but it’s understandable. Besides age has its privileges. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/01/18/meryl-streep-drops-f-bombs-backstage-golden-globes/?test=faces You have the privilege to listen to BlastFM any time you like. It’s on 24/7 just for you! www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Conan Gets Huge Pay Day
Would you leave a job you loved if your boss was giving you $30 million dollars? Duh? That’s what Conan O’Brien is getting to leave The Tonight Show. Jimmy Kimmel, who was concerned for Conan’s kids becoming homeless, doesn’t have to worry any more. They won’t miss any meals that’s for sure. Conan will do just great thank you. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/01/19/conans-staff-sticking-point-exit-negotiations/?test=faces BlastFM is doing great too. More listeners are book marking the station. Join the excitement and listen to some great music. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Everything Goes Wrong
Today is not going my way at all!!!! Woke up feeling sicker then sick, with a sore throat and a headache the size of China, so I laid in bed all morning playing online. When it finely came time to get dress for class, my dad had taken my jeans out of the drier when they weren't even fully dried, so that meant I had to re-wash them and dry them. (Grrrr) Ended up wearing my black dress pants to school and my Phillies' shirt and Eagles hoodie, let me tell you how cute I must have looked. At school, I was having a very hard time keeping my head up, so thankfully I seat by the wall and could lay my head on it and do my work. My teacher, who is a man, asked me if the wall was comfortable. Come on really? I had my hair pulled back in a full ponytail and was coughing and barely talking, and you are going to ask me a stupid question like that? Men really need to take a class on how to tell if a woman is sick. After school all I could think about was coming home and taking a nice

All About Me
I don't even know where to start, I work hard always think of others before myself. I have 2step daughters that i raised since i was 18 and they were 2 & 6monsold, now to be 27 and 25 i have my pride and joy jessica who will be 20 in march. i have 4grandkids and one on the way. I sometimes hate being so kind but i cant help it, Its like i have to think twice to be mean. I've had old boyfriends tell me how beautifull i am but still are so mean. I stay to myself cause thats the safest to me. I'm so afraid of love cause the min i fall is the sec im kicked. I wish my life was different, I wish someone would love me the way i would love them. not into the long distance love thing cause thats like still haven no one. i dont want to go to go to bed alone anymore but looks like i will be growing old by myself. so all can do is smile and just be glqad im alive. i love my daughter and my new granddaughter. they live in another state i miss them so much. i loved my ex husband for 17yrs for him to

Is My Playmate Really Gone
I'm going to miss my Playmate, sure there's Nicole and the kids but they don't know the real me, can't know the real me, and now the father is back. Things have changed, everything has changed, I always prided myself on being an outsider, but now I feel the need to connect with someone. I saw myself in Ron, but instead of helping him like Harry helped me, I gave him a piece of fortune cookie advice the he had never even heard. I failed him, he deserves better and he'll get it from now on.

General Platt Wants Protection
General Larry Platt is upset that his song and likeness are being used without his permission. You remember him. The guy who sang “Pants on the Ground” for the American Idol audition. He’s looking for a “copywriter” to protect a song he says he’s sung for almost five years. The song came about because he didn’t like seeing young guys wearing their pants below the belt so to speak. Check him out: http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/01/22/idol-sensation-general-larry-says-pants-ground-stolen/ No need for copywriters at BlastFM. It’s available to anyone who wants to listen. Like you. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

My Cock Sucking Addiction
My Cock Sucking Addiction What would happen if I undid your pants?Releasing you from confinmentAllowing my tounge to begin it's danceI want to suck you til you're spentWhat would you doIf my mouth kissed your cock?What would you sayIf I made you hard as a rock?My tounge is working fastMy moans of pleasure fill the airI'll make your pleasure lastYou like it when I suckle thereI love deepthroating your cockLove the way you hit my throatPaying no attention to the clockFor my face, I crave a white coatMy hands on your waistSucking from my kneesYou love my fast paceThe way my tounge just won't ceaseYour hands in my hairMaking me take it allHolding me thereThe pleasure makes you fallYou've fallen to the bedbut, I'm not finishedHold onto my headI won't stop til you're deplenishedMy mouth keeps goingI twist to straddle your chestNow my wetness is showingand your cock is in between my breastsSucking hard, I want your loadLower my cunt to your faceThen in my mouth you explodeLick my lips, and sw

Dominated Love Slave
Dominated Love Slave Rule me, MasterYour slut craves your cockRub me just a little fasterShe loves you hard as rockTie me up to your bedYou know I like it thereLook down at my pretty headDeepthroating, as you pull my hairRun that shaft down this bodyTo my wet little slitYou know I love being naughtyOh yes Master, make me submitHelplessly boundAs you tease my centerThis throbbing moundMaster please enter!Making me dripMaking me yearnPull out your whipA lesson I will learnAs you shove the handle inI cry out in pleasureYou are a beautiful sinBringing orgasms beyond measurePull it out as your cock wants a turnTake it all like a good slave shouldClimaxing together, My body burnsMaster, oh, Master you are so good!Keep me here, at least one more dayYour cock at all times is all I craveKnowing now all thats left to sayI need to be your dominated love slave!

The Money Spell
Ok this is something that is a little hard to write about. It is much easier to get this point across face to face but anyhoo here we go. Money seems to me to be a representation of energy you exert a certain amount of energy at work which is harnessed and used to someone else's benifit. In return for this you are paid with an object named money. Simple enough right? But if you were to take a closer look into the money system you would see that the world is operating on a Fiat ( that means backed by nothing ) money system. Yep money is make believe it has no value other than value givin by us meaning the people not governments banks or corporations us. Seems like a really simple idea and it is but people rarely think of money in such terms. Why?MONEY IS A SPELL !! !!! Take out a one dollar bill and look at it! The eye of illumination eagles six sided stars anograms hidden goddess icons etc etc! It is a talisman! I can't tell you what to think or say why money is covered in sigils and p

I Remember
I RememberI remember the way it feltwhen you where on top of meIt was like you controlled meYour forced yourself inSo I gave up & let you winI remember the way you looked at mewhen I said NOIt was like you wanted to show you were in controlYou pushed harderand I tried to say no againyou covered my mouthso I gave up & let you win.I remember the sounds you made.It was like you enjoyed it too much to care.there were other people thereI should of yelled for themBut I was too ashamed; too afraidthey wouldn't believe meOr say it was my faultI remember everything you didBut don't worry your secrets safeI'm still afraid.Nobody will believe meSo I give up and I guess you win.

Men Who Are Shallow.
Men who are shallow should not even be on where there are women who are big. It is wrong for men to be so shallow and insensative. So do not bother rating me or even talking to me. I would rather talk with true friends or a true man.

Heaters Off (hay Who) (haystack Diss)
I ain't gotta hear this shit. Fat cupcake know he wrong for going at him. & why should it matter to you or stak what em does with his music. & in the relapse booklett he thanks him. Is that nough. Yea see ya shouldn't be worried or on em's dick. Least him & j squashed that shit. & proof was here he be mad at stak. Now i heard staks music i don't like it. Gravediggas odb house of pain cypress hill ice cube. Are better then that fat chump. I don't understand what he's saying. & Ya'll under em's skin to much for shit. & i'll be glad when relapse 2 come out. Lets see stak say shit then. You think cuz lyrics em says his shit should've been on psychopathic fuck whats that got to do with anything. Just leave em alone let him do him. As i said he ain't got to worry bout ya'll & stak he won't ever be famous like em & fif or icp for that matter even t.i & mystikal. Fif lloyd banks will kill stak. Ain't nobody like me care bout him. Matter of fact why don't ya get him pared up with officer ricky

Please Donate To The American Cancer Society
I am participating in relay for life at my university, last year I raised close to $200 and so far i have had no donations made. It would be greatly appreciated if anyone could make a donation even if its a dollar. This will not only go towards helping those that have cancer but maybe you somewhere down the road. Cancer can strike anyone even if they are healthy. Just think of those who you know that have either been beatened by cancer or have survived without the technology we have now more of them would not be with us today. Please help me make more birthdays for those who are battling the never ending fight of cancer. Just copy and paste the link below and it will take you to my donation page. I thank you so much if you donate anything. http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY10OH?px=10058366&pg=personal&fr_id=23681&fl=en_US&s_tafId=448407 P.S. My Aunt is fighting cancer severely. It has taken her bladder to the point it had to be removed so she has to have a cat

My Chaos
I've always enjoyed my work, it brings order to the chaos, fills me with civic pride. But what was that back there, it wasn't voodo. When I picked up the knife it's like I didn't know who I was. I come here to dump bodies not beer bottles. Now I'm just a litter bug.

Jonathan Safran Foer
When dad was tucking me in that night and we were talking about the book, I asked him if he could think of a solution to that problem. “Which problem?”“The problem of how relatively unsignificant we are.”He said, “Well, what would happen if a plane dropped you in the middle of the Sahara Desert and you picked up a single grain of sand with tweezers and moved it one millimeter?”I said, “I’d probably die of dehydration.”He said, “I just mean right then when you moved that single grain of sand. What would that mean?”I said, “I dunno, what?”He said, “Think about it.”I thought about it. “I guess I would have moved a grain of sand.”“Which would mean?”“Which would mean I moved a grain of sand?”“Which would mean you changed the Sahara.”“So?”“So? So the Sahara is a vast desert. And it has existed for millions of years. And you changed it!&rd

Windows
If the eyes are the windows to the soul, then grief is the door. As long as it's closed it is the barrier between knowing and not knowing. Walk away from it and it stays closed forever, but open it and walk through it and pain becomes truth. And now I'mfaced with the struggle for my own survival that I always new was coming. I've been preparing for this my entire life.

A Pittbull And A Dove
As i lay staring through bars; thinking of your eyes welled with tears; not knowing if your near or far; wanting to ease all your fears. Cupid floating in the air; in his mind thoughts of love; we are an odd pair; a pittbull and a dove. So quit being stressed; shed not one more tear; we've both been blessed; and can put away our fear. I may be a pitt; you maybe a dove; that don't mean shit; cause its you i love. Written By: Jay For: Heather

To Be Sad
To be sad Sitting here alone tonight, my mind wonders, filling with fright. These thoughts I ponder, are of my past. It makes me mad, cause once I'm happy-it doesnt last. I'm sick of the games, of which you play. They make me mad, and drive me insaine. So please here these words I say. I dont want just a lover. I want to feel the love

Fool
I was a fool to fall for your words. I was a fool to believe the tears you showed. The words you said sounded true but at the end I see the real you. You said you loved me. Now, I realize those are just words and never it was you. Your actions spoke more than your words. You might have said you love me but you didn't have the effort to show it. If you did love me, why did you have to lie about so many things? You shouldn't have told me any lies or if you did you should not of denied. You should learn not to live your life in lies. It seems like you care so much about satisfying your self that you don't see who'd get hurt. Kicking me is not right!!

Will You Be True?
It You told me onceYou told me notYou told me twiceBut i forgotSo tell me nowAnd tell me trueWill you lieOr can i really trust in youAll my friends believeYou're just another guyWho treats me like trashAnd tells nothing but liesNow i need to knowI need you to sayWill you be thereBeside me all the wayCan i trust youWith my fragile heartOr will you take itAnd tear it apartI can't affordTo have my heart brokenIt's happened too muchToo many harsh words have been spokenMy heart has been leftScarred and hurtToo many guysHave treated me like dirtAll i needIs another guy to be untrueTo leave me lonelyCrying and blueThat would complete the planOf the male raceTo steal my heartAnd throw it back in my faceI have to believeThis will not endBy you sayingLet's just be friendsI have to knowWill you be thereOr will you leave meLost in the pain and despairI have to believeI can trust in youYou will only be with meAnd always be true

Patterns
My work requires me to be an expert in analysing patterns, now a pattern keeps emerging from my past that is all too familiar. Harry lieing to me, no wonder he destroyed the file on y mothers death, it wasn't to protect me, it was to burry his own guilt.

Things
There are things That make us laughThings that make us cryThings that make us want to liveThings that make us want to dieThings that make us differentThings that make us the sameAnd things you dont want to let go of Even as you try There are memories that are dear to you And make you want to cryI lost some oneSome one dear to me.And some thingsThat I wish would go away.And things I wish would stay.No one can take your place.No matter how they try.No one can do the things you do.No matter who they are.No one can hold you like I do.No one can kiss me quite like you.No one can hold me in their armsAnd tight as you can.I miss so many memoriesBut even as I try To let go of the pain you causeAnd try hard not to cryI miss that way you warmed me upJust by holding me so tightI miss the way I kissed The flesh upon your lips.The crease of your body As it pressed against mine.I miss the tender rhythmAs you whispered in my earThe things that you said That I didn't want to hear.I hated the way you t

Good Night With Great Friends
I just had an amazing day/night with some great friends, one of whom I haven't seen since high school. The day started out bowling and talking, took five of us almost three hours to bowl two games. It was great, like we were back in high school, almost, Matt, Meaghan, Brittney, Kathy, and myself, four girls one guy. We all had so much catching up to do, it was crazy. After bowling we went and rented Sleepy Hollow with Johnny Deep, never having seen the movie, it was great, minus all the talking we did. But what I can remember of the movie, a lot a really really fake blood, it was like they didn't even try to make it look real, kind of funny if you ask me. Well I took Matt to work and went back to Brittney's house and Kathy, Brittney and I finished Sleepy Hollow then started watching this other movie Re-Animator, didn't finish it though due to having to take Brittney down to Blue Boutique so she can pick up a toy since her boyfriend is out of town. Let me tell you somethi

Naughty Application
NAUGHTY APPLiCATiON" Best and hottest one will get a reply......1. Your Name:2. Age:3. Favorite position (s)?4. Do you think I'm hot?5. Would you have sex with me?6. lights on or off?7. Would you have to be drunk?8. Would you take a shower with me?9. Have you ever thought about having sex with me?10. Would you leave after or stay the night?11. Do you like cuddling afterwards?12. Condom or skin?13. Do you give Oral pleasures?14. Do you like to receive Oral Pleasures?15. Have sex on the first date?16. Would you kiss me during sex?17. Do you think I would be good in bed?18. Threesome?20. How many times would you like to cum?21. Would you use me as a booty call?21. Can I use you as a booty call?22. Do you like foreplay?23. What is foreplay to you?24. Can we take pictures of the act?25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Love Unbound, For The One Who Is Still To Be Found
I know that you are not perfect and nor can I claim to be either, but please believe me, when I say that I want to be by your side, to hold your hand, to treasure you in the morning and in the noon-tide, to be next to you, to be held close to your heart now and for the rest of my living years, to comfort you, dry your tears and calm your most frightening fears, to fight your battles and show no shame to scream my love for you out loud all over the land

Possable Zombie Contagins Part 4
Neurogenesis What is it? You know all that conversy out there about stem cell research? Well, the whole thing with stem cells is that they can basically be used to re-generate dead cells. Particularly of interest to zombologists like ourselves is neurogenesis, the method by which they can re-grow dead brain tissue. You can see where this is going How it can result in zombies: Science can pretty much save you from anything but brain death; they can swap out organs but when the brain turns to mush, you're gone. Right? Well, not for long. They're already able to re-grow the brains of comatose head trauma patients until they wake up and walk around again. Couple that with the new ability to keep a dead body in a state of suspended animation so that it can be brought back to life later, and soon we'll be able to bring back the dead, as long as we get to them quickly enough. That sounds great, right? Well, this lab dedicated to "reanimation research" (yes, that's what t

The Definition Of Jaria
identified as a graceful beauty, everyone notices their charm but they remain modest dispite the attention. Down to earth sarcastic and witty. A great lover, who's fiery has good and bad. Stubborn and unforgiving but worth the chaos for they can fulfill your sexual desires to no end. Jariya is the girl next door, or the girl bestfriend that you wish you'd just date already. dumb exotic grace jaiya jareeya jaria by intell beauty Jul 24, 2009 share this

Life
so im sitting here watching vincent play his x box and waiting to see the doc.. i dont like going to the docs.. i have a kidnney prob and they dont know what it is wrong with them. i also have a back pain and they dont know whats wrong with that.. to top it off i get dizzy off and on these days.. im soooo scare do go i dont know what the out come will be.. so as i sit here my mind wonders on what may happen today. im still waiting for our tax money so we can get our car. my middle daughter fell yesterday hurt her back so i am hoping she is ok. she went to school but you never know... kids you know... so far this year isnt going the way it should... leave love if you like.. yours truely scared as hell, mandy love all my friends and family.. ♥

To The Following Company
Dear Kotex... down2basics: Dear Kotex:I recently noticed that the peel-off strip of my pantyliner had a bunch of Kotex Tips for Life" on it. Annoying advice such as: a.. Staying active during your period can relieve cramps. b.. Avoiding caffeine may help reduce cramps and headaches. c.. Drink 6-8 glasses of water a day to keep you hydrated and feeling fresh. d.. Try Kotex blah blah blah other products...Obviously the individual behind this was someone who has never possessed a functioning set of ovaries. Go ahead and tell a menstruating woman that drinking 6-8 glasses of water will help keep her feeling fresh.Like we need more fluid inside our bloated bodies from hell...but go ahead. See what happens and report back. I'll wait.While you're at it, dump out the coffee at work and remove the chocolate from the vending machine. I guaran-freakin-tee that the first responders will be females who just ovulated. This advice was some brain functionof a male.... right???Staying activ

Poem Of The Day...020710
Within the quiet moments Sudden changes can occur Calling out to you Leaving the decision Up to you.Within the quiet moments Sudden changes can occur Calling out to you Leaving the decision Up to you.

Mandatory Sex Ed For Kids
The ghost of Joslyn Elders, former Clinton White House Surgeon General, casts a great shadow. Ms. Elders, if you remember, said that children as young as 5 be taught masturbation in school. Of course that got her fired from the White House. But the U.N. has taken up her cause and has suggested the same thing. Even Planned Parenthood has taken up Elder’s cause. A report from Planned Parenthood “demands” that children as young as 10 be given a "comprehensive sexuality education". What’s next, porno for kids? Read what they consider appropriate for your kids: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,585108,00.html?test=latestnews BlastFM is family friendly. No porn, just great music. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Happy Valentines Day!!! Did You Have A Good Day I Did
my Valentine is the best got my nails done and 12 rose i love my man. he told me if he had more money. he would by me a ring i told him .i am happy to have you in my life you do not need to go all out like this .i am not a gold digger C&J 4 ever!!! tell me about yours?

Love Grows, Fades, Dies, Only
Love Grows, Fades, Dies, Only ..In my opinion...Life is too short for confusion, you either do or ya don’t..There’s not a lot for time for the I don’t knows, and the I’m not sure’s... Take a breath and take it easy, life is not supposed to be taken for granted although, I bet everyo*n*ne has more than once in their lives... Love is the most overrused word in the dictionary, I guarentee it..Everybody Loves someone or something...To love and object, is not like loving a person, or at least it shouldn’t be. Love should be something sacred, and should be treated like glass, let go and it could be broken forever...In which it will eventually just be replaced...I mean c’mon who wants broken glass? It’s tricky; that glass...You*e* grasp it too tight and it will shatter beneath you...Leaving you with nothing but empty cuts of pain and anger...Which will eventually drain your soul of all it’s livelihood...Peering at shattere

@@@@@@when You Know You Really Like Someone, Here Are Some Signs.@@@
@@@@@@When You Know You Really Like Someone, Here Are Some Signs.@@@@@@@ ......2-12-2010SOMEONE ASKED ME.. WHAT I THOUGHT SO HERE IS MY INPUT..I WROTE A BLOG ABOUT IT SO THE ONE WHO ASKED HERE YOU GO.@@@@@@@When You Know You Really Like Someone, Here Are Some Signs.@@@@@@@ but im also going to give thoughts of what other people may say/think. but that does not make it so.. ****falling*** fast***They are all you think about, from waking up in the morning to sleeping at night.You dream about them.You maybe don't always want to talk to them but me on theother hand i do. but you do want to see them/ be near them.When you see them you get butterflies.You find it hard not to look at them, even in a crowded room.You would feel empty without them.Being away from them for longer than a day is torture.You always smile when around them, and ( even if they don't) you think they are always looking at you.They always look amazing, no matter what. you can't stop blushing.when som

Just Writeing Ryhmes-2pac Beat/ Dissin Somebody Guess Who?
iam a motherfucker nut case a basket / iam be this way until they close my fucken casket/ man i got alot on my mind and iam stressin/ and iam just wait to go off you don't want to test me/ gives a fuck about this fubar shit/ it aint nothing half you motherfucker's on my page alway's frontin/ dont make me pull hoe card cause half you motherfuckers that be kickin it is a hoe job/ it's a list you motherfucker's that act like suckers/ get yo ass worn out out like some godamn chucker's/ i could call out names but if i do that iam really going to have to set yo ass a flame/

Changes
Im making changes to my life no one is going to like but these changes need to be made change number 1. I'm going to try to be a gurl 2. I'm not going to be pushed around anymore by anyone 3. No more people from my past coming back in my life 4. Move on from jacob 5. Stop smoking 6. Tell people my true feelings on things 7. No more hiding from the world 8. No more hiding at all 9. Get rid of the people that are no good for me 10. Get married 11. Spend more time with my mom. . . . . . . ..more changes coming soon

Sinful Sex
He lays me down & spreads me out on his bed.He tells me he wants to relieve my stress & help me rest my head.He runs his fingers through my hair & he kisses my lips,He takes away the tension by playing with me below my hips.As my legs are up high in the air,I feel like I have no worries or cares.He plays me so hard I let out a slight yell,& I wonder if something this good will put me in hell.

Vampire Sex
He times each suckWith the rhythm of her heartThe best damn fuckShe's ever had...Her last.Shudders of climax peak then wanAs palor grows palidHer struggles in vain.Weakend and limpShe rests in his armsAs gently he drawsWith tender, hot lipsThe last of her lifeIn loving sweet sips.

The Apology
What did you think of Tiger Wood’s apology? It seems most people haven’t changed their minds either way. What did this apology accomplish? Not much of anything except maybe paving the way for his return to golf. Oh, and one of his porn star sweeties is about to sue Eldridge. How much more can happen? Stay tuned and see. For more on the poll http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/02/19/tiger-woods-addresses-infidelity-scandal-public-appearance/?test=faces The poll for BlastFM shows BlastFM is #1 in its genre. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Fuck Your "lovey Dovey Shit"
Man, I'm so sick of seeing all these people sayin "I LOOOOVE My Wifey" or "I LOOOOOVE My Hubby" YOUR NOT FUCKIN LEGALLY MARRIED THIS IS ONLY THE FU!!! And if you are legally married then what the hell are you doing posting it on a random website??? Nobody cares what you and Prince Charming did today. Do I look like the type of person to comment on a fucking MUMM asking "What Should Me And The Love Of mY Life Richard Do Today? Six Flags Or the Zoo??" How about you take a leaping dive off a fucking bridge. Into traffic. That's not backed up. ANYWAYS!!! You may be saying to yourself "ahh fuck Dyzzy hes just jealous!!" Maybe I Am Maybe I'm Not. I know one thing tho, I'M NOT jealous of the fact that you adopted a fucking puppy today and named him Jacob or some bullshit cause you two can have kids. Probably because he can't get it up or you can't have kids. WHO CARES!!!!! Fact is, I'm sick of seeing everybody and their mothers in "Relationships" and then go blabbing it to the entire world li

For Pete's Sake, Get Over It.
Sometimes, i don't reply. Why? One, my computer's been having problems. I can't fix it until I can make it to Castleton to have Fry's fix my god damned vista, because they didn't give me the disc. Two, real life shit happens. I'm almost 10 months pregnant. I do not have the patience nor the stamina to sit on my ass at the computer all day. I need to get up and get moving; whether it be going to the barn to play with the rabbits, or going for a walk, or visiting friends, or even just going to another room and reading. Three, I just don't feel like talking to anyone at that moment. Bitching at me for it is just going to fucking piss me off. -_- go suck a dick if it bothers you. My RL shit is more important than a networking site.

Batman Chronicles
She stalks through the darkened room in her black thigh-high stiletto boots making almost no sound. Her bullwhip wrapped around her waist like a belt for her tight, purple suit that accentuates the curves of her luscious breasts and sexy ass. Her black gloves run up her arms past her elbows and her eyes gleam behind her black mask as her dark hair spills down her back. She pauses halfway across the room, suspicious, but sees nothing that could be a danger so she continues across the room to the desk. She leans down, checking the priceless statue of Bast, goddess of lions, for any hidden security features. Her sexy curves are only accentuated by the tight outfit as she leans over, hands on her knees, to examine the desk for any sign of an extra security system. She smirks in satisfaction after a long, slow examination before reaching out to lift the statue from the desk's surface. Suddenly, she gasps as a pair of strong hands grabs her wrists and yanks her forward across the top of

Chemical Castration Needs To Make A Comeback
Just when you think you've seen it all, yet another inbred, sister fucking pedofile rears his ugly head... Someone actually believes it's ok to approach people on here and tell (in great detail) how they'd love to get hold of their children AND them at the same time.. Reported, blocked, and if they weren't across the ocean I'd LOVE nothing more than to castrate the mother fucker with a spork and let him choke on his own testicles... Here's to hoping for the opportunity... Due to this all pictures with my children and other family members will be moved to a folder accessible only to family members..

In Love
Im in love with the best man ever. Hes so perfect for me. He is a big part of my world. I love this man with everything. He means the world to me and I want to be with him forever. He is so great, I know I cant ever love anyone as much as I love him. I swear this man is my first ture love. He is everything to me. He is my world. He means the whole thing to me, I never want to be without him. He is part of the reason I wake up in the morning. He is always on my mind. I love this man so much. He is my world. Baby if you are reading this yes you are my world, yes I love you so much, you are my all.

Weathering The Storm, Written: 2-20-10
Written: 2-20-10 Pulling you close and drawing you near, Calms my heart and resolves my fear. Your gentle kisses and tender touch, causes the senses to overflow and my skin to flush. Senses alert and my body on fire, I submit my soul to you as I lay my offering upon the pire. Surrendering my love to you within the moment of life's creation, bonding of our souls beyond an earthly connection. Reaching up to touch your cheek, our eyes lock with no words to speak, Holding onto you tight, holding on with all my might. Like two ships lost out at sea, We've vowed to set each other free. My hands outstretched grasping at the air, our fingers intertwine and I KNOW you'll always be there. No one can love me like you do, From day one I promised and vowed my love to you. Once again I'm lost in the depth of your eyes, holding me captivated within the promise of no "Goodbye's". Waves crashing violently around us threatening to take us over, We hold on for dear life and search for cov

Poetry
Taken away,Destroyed,Thrown,And torn.Where do we turn?Who do we go to?Silent tears and cries unheard.Our innocence stolen.Always afraid.Unsure of who to trust.Everything gone and stolen away.Love is dirty.Everything contaminated.We want to care.We want to trust.But Stolen Innocence is all we have.

Poems
BROKEN DREAMS I love you more than life itself But I’m afraid to love. My heart is like the fragile wings Of a tiny little dove. I'm scared to get too close. I feel that I can't win. You'll love me for a little while Then you'll set me free again. I've lived so long on hopes and dreams I don't know what to do. I don't think I can trust my heart, For it belongs to you. I know you'll only hurt me Yet, I still keep running back. Between the paths of our hearts There's a worn and beaten track. You've got my heart held on a string. It’s breaking right in two. Enough belongs to me -to hurt- The rest belongs to you. I know that somewhere in your heart There is a place for me. I just don't know how to find it And there's no way to make you see. I can only hope that someday You'll wake up and you'll find, That while my heart belongs to yours, Yours, too, belongs to mine. A TOUCH NEVER FELT How can you ache and crave for someone's touch When you have never felt it?

I Made A Baby!
I'll post pictures later =] They induced me at the doctor today because i had PIH (pregnancy induced hypertension). We tried waiting for me to dilate more, but i only got 3 more cm (6 c total) before my body just quit- My contractions were at 600 Monteveyo (i dunno how to spell it o.O) units, when they needed to be at 200. so with as violent as they were (my epidural was AMAZING. i spent the induction playing munchkin), it would stress the baby and possibly hurt her. so i got to be cut open. It was amazing. i didnt feel a thing. i even napped. Took about 5 minutes, with 10 of waiting and about 20 to close me up. it was over almost instantly, and Emilie Christine Raisor was born- 7 lbs even, 21 inches long. she has my family's green eyes, and light hair (might be brown or blonde; george is a nat blonde, i'ma golden brown nat). Linda and I have been fawning over her and talking, and.. today was just a damned good day. I loved it. tomorrow will be full of pain and suck, but,

Latest Writing I've Done
One day I'll be strong and move on, Right now I writhe in pain begging it to be gone. One day I'll realize all you did was lie, For now your words still make me cry. One day I'll know what real love is, Today all I can think is "How can someone do this?" One day I'll find my way back to having confidence, Right now all your negative comments make too much sense. One day I'll bounce back and prove you wrong, For now I'm tired of fighting, my strength is gone. One day I'll be more than you ever dreamed, Today I am broken, in pieces, drowning from my screams. One day you'll realize all that you had, When that day comes I'll laugh and say too damn bad. One day you'll want it all back and plead, On that day I'll remind you how you so easily dismissed our needs. One day you'll see you let your best days pass, It's then you'll realize Karma is kicking your ass.

Silence
I sit alone pondering the road my life has taken. The wind blows through the curtains and windows. Birds chirping outside with the song of spring rising. My mind seems clear but not clear enough to make the decisions within my life that matter. I believe I know what I want. Then something happens and I am undecided again. I don't know what to do at times. I love and then I am not sure how. I wonder at times what my purpose in life is. I have always thought that the purpose that my life had taken was that of helping others. I help yet I receive nothing in return and I expect nothing either. I just wish that those around me in my life would just say thank you. Thank you for everything that you do. For making dinner so everyone is fed. Thank you for washing clothes so that we put clean clothes upon our bodies. Dinner was good. I would like to hear the words that I am appreciated by those that I do things for. Will I ever hear those words? Probably not. Will someone ever thank me for the t

Disappointed Again
Plans madePlans cancelledExpectingDisappointed againWhere is she?Has something happened?No callNo showScehdulingReschedulingTime and time againNo moreI am through With the games The run aroundI must really careAs I keep believing In what will never beIn what is notI need closerI need peaceI need clarityI need to be done with herHow do I do that?Is there steps I must take?Is there something that I must do?Something I must say?I know not where I am goingI know not how I feelI know not what to doNor what to sayAm I wrong for believing?For expecting?For hoping?For hanging on?I want to be madTo be angryTo be hurtTo lash outBut how can?Will I?I know notI am confusedJust a call That would be niceA noteEven that would be goodBut nothing I receiveNothing I hearWhat do I do now?How do I do it?

Little Angel
Little AngelLet me tell you a storyAbout a sweet little childWith locks of hair colour of sunshineRed lips colour of wineWith the smile of an angelEyes as blue as the seaLet me tell you about this childThis child was once me...Children's minds are full of dreams, hopes and aspirationsTheir hearts are pure and full of loveTheir future's for the takingTheir paths seemed paved by gold...But this little girl was differentNever content being a childShe was in a hurry to grow upShe wanted to be wildNot rebellious, or disobedientBut wild meaning freeAnyone & Anywhere but who and where she wasWas where she wished to be...That poor angelShe was robbedOf the happiness she deservedThat poor angel Cried painful tearsCries that noone ever heard...In the playground while others playedShe preferred to hide and weepPraying God to watch over herPraying that her soul He would keep...Not wanting to return homeBut wanting to run awayRun away to a dream, a better placeRun away, ANGEL, run awayBut as the su

The Noose
Written for me by an AWESOME writer and just a kick ass guy...love ya Brad. This shits just demented, I LOVE IT The Noose So glad to see you have overcome them. Completely silent now With heaven's help You cast your demons out And not to pull your halo down Around your neck and tug you off your cloud But I'm more than just a little curious How you're planning to go about Making your amends to the dead To the dead Recall the deeds as if They're all someone else's Atrocious stories Now you stand reborn before us all So glad to see you well And not to pull your halo down Around your neck and tug you to the ground But I'm more than just a little curious How you're planning to go about Making your amends to the dead To the dead With your halo slipping down Your halo slipping Your halo slipping down Your halo slipping down Your halo slipping down Your halo slipping down to choke you Bradley Michael Carmichael January 31/2007

Usmc!!!!
Semper Fi is our motto. It¢s one many have bled for, on land and sea. It¢s the motto of Americas finest, fighting men. The few, the proud, the Marines. It¢s a title that¢s earned not given. And it¢s a lot harder than it may seem. You see anyone can join the Army, Navy or Air force. But only the best can become a MARINE

Marines
Tempered by the fire of battle,Tested by fear and doubt,Held up by my God and my brothers. I have suffered,I have hurt,I have bled,I have lived, And I have died. I have wept for fallen brothers,I have prayed for my family at home,I have hoped,And I have loved. Though I've died, I yet live,I am reborn in each new generation of my brothers,I live in them,They carry my memory in their hearts,They honor me, And they will never forget me. This land I love,I have given it all I had to give,And I would do it again. I am one of The Few and the Proud.I am a United States Marine.

Spiff Balln
I'll rarely post anything of weight or moment. As the title says, I’m merely spiff-balln. So please take no offence and feel free to post comments at your leisure. Some of what you will find here is more for me than you, sorry; but true none the less. This will be where I post story ideas, my version of love poetry I right for my wife, and possibly story questions. For all you English teachers who have flinched while reading this, all I can say is, “I told you I needed help.” (*-*)

It's Like The Air That I Breathe
It's like the air that I breathe. But not in the way that most people mean that. I've always taken that phrase, especially when referring to someone you “love”, as meaning something that is desperately needed. Craved, Searched for. Panicked about losing. Can't live without and in exquisite fear of finding gone. THAT is not THIS. It's like the air that I breathe. When I take a breath, I don't think. It doesn't enter my mind that the air won't be there. I do not fear that the next time I take a breath, there will be no air to breathe. I do not fear that the oxygen I need to survive will suddenly go missing. I don't even stop to think that I know it will be there. I------JUST----BREATHE. His love is like that. I know. I know so deeply that I don't even have to think about it. It is a constant in my life. It has been there so long, unspoken. Just lived, and in living it, he instilled within my heart a deep, abiding faith that it simply IS. Without my even noticing.

How Can You Not Fall For Her...shes Amazing :)
I fell for who you are. I fell for what you are. I fell for you. I want to be with who you are. I want to be with who you are becoming. I want to be with you. Consumed by you I am. Consumed by you are my thoughts. Consumed by you, completely. Wishing for you. Wishing for the day. Wishing on that star in the sky. We found each other by chance. We found each other by fate. We just found each other. Roller coaster of emotions. Roller coaster of words. Roller coaster that i never want to get off of. I want. I need. I desire. With you I am complete. With you I am free. With you is where I wanna be. You hold the key. The key to make this more. The key to me. The key to us. The key that no one has been giving, With in you I entrusted my key. My key to all of me. Hold it near and never loose it. With in you is me.

About Me And Now
Sept. 14th 1968: I was born into the hub of the evolution of Peace Love and Flower Power. Bra burning was at front stage and acid rock was a big hit. Country had meaning and there was a fight for human rights.At a month old I was abandon by my real mother at Long Beach Memorial hospital.At 3 months old was placed in foster care to then be openly adopted by that couple.By the time I was 2 years old I had undergone 4 major eye surgeries to restore muscle function so I could see.I went thru alot of therapy and am very lucky today to see what I can. Wearing glassed does not bother me causethe miracle of the sight I do have is a gift to me. I thank God every day for it.By the time I was 4 years old I got spinal meningitis and pneumonia that caused me to go thru flash death. I had to learn to walk and eat and speak all over again. I was greatly teased because I slurred my words.It got to the point of me being beaten up at school.By the time I was 7 all that had cleared up then I was stung

Yup U Shud Know
It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is most painful is to love someone and never finding the courage to let the person know how you feel. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we should know how to be grateful for that gift. Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance - and you find out you still care for that person. A sad thing about life is when you meet someone that means a lot to you, only to find out in the end, that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go. When one door of happiness closes, another opens but often we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch, and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we los

To Accomplish
A feat to accomplish, to understand you would be like solving the riddle of life. To make you laugh would be like entertaining a crowed of millions.To comfort you in a time of need would be like comfort the nation in time like this our darkest of hours. To hold you in my arms would be like holding a treasure to great for value.To wake next to would be greater than waking to even the most beautiful of sunrises. To move you with this words would be like moving the greatest mountain. These feats are of the greatest but pale in comparison to one to which without they mean nothing.To make you realize this words are about you.

Please Help Us!!
PRAYING FOR KARSON proudly sponsored by FAYK www.sponsafier.com FAYK has used the Sponsafier to create a custom Cup car. If enough people vote for this design, FAYK will experience never before seen glory and fame as it’s showcased at the 2010 NASCAR Sprint All-Star Race. Hey Friends..Please help us out.In my hometown.we have a Little boy who has rare type of cancer and WE need alot votes for his car design For a care to be sponsoed in the nascar...SOOOO please help us out...and thanks

A Lil Taste
Here's just a little sample. Of how i kick spit the wicked shit. You bitches ain't shit but fake & phoney. You don't know me so stay your fake groupie ass off me. I'm killing 'em softly. I'm not mr.frosty better hard spitting a thousand g'z. & thats just only a lil taste of what i'm giving you. I spit nothing but the illest wicked creative shit. You don't know nothing of it. Suck it like my big 9 inch dick. I'm hard ain't soft i'm terrible the way i just come wrecking on shit. Fuck you & you & your so called fit. Shit is ish you wish that you could hang on this. But you can't cause your ass stank. Don't fucking think. Cause i can say whatever. & you know how i do this wicked shit so better. Whether fuck the weather. What you pulling switches like levers. You ain't clever. I'm back realer then ever who it be. That fine wicked g. That you thought would go away. Instead didn't. So fuck it here i am. The insane wicked spitter back on some shit. You never could fuck wit. I'ma dismantling sh

Jealousy...
a less than attractive trait, but we all carry it in some form or another. I tend to think that there are levels of jealousy. You know, more like being envious of a neighbor and his car, or accomplishments of a friend. You are aware that they worked hard and deserve what they have, but we all get that twinge. And then there is your standard run of the mill jelaousy, more than envy. That piece of bling a friend received from a man, the bike that the kid down the street got for his birthday, the vacations and adventures others get to experience while you are at home watching the kids...all jealousy...more than envy. Then there is Romantic Jealousy. A whole different experience. One I tend to dislike immensley because I can and will suffer from it should a nice man become part of my life. You can have your rules. No committment, no promises, no love, etc. But you are enjoying the ride. Enjoying your time well spent together with the NON-complicated arrangement and BAM!! He eyes and as

An American Soldier
I'm an American Soldier, just trying to get by. Sometimes I wish I could break down and cry. I'm over here protecting your freedom, Yet I feel you have forgotten me. Over here across the sea, I hear the words spoken to me, Words of hatred and of pain. It makes me feel there is nothing to gain. I try to hold on and keep strong, Thinking of home and how I'm not alone. I keep on thinking how I hate to be away - yet I know how much I want to stay. Being here is more than war - it is a time to let the Eagle soar. Freedom doesn't come naturally, it comes with time, and with me. It comes with people standing up - it comes with hope - not with luck. I will never think of war the same - I won't always give Bush the blame. I can not promise the date when I am home. But I promise you one thing, I won't leave you alone.

To Lena
A month has passed since you left and everyday I think of you. Sometimes its thoughts of anger and resent. But mostly it is of love and regret. Nevertheless I cant seem to let go. To say that I’ll eventually get past it and I should move on is to say that we should never have been together in the first place. If that were true, I wouldn’t be writing you this letter and you wouldn’t be reading it. Yes its true we’ve had problems and doubts about us. I never wanted you to leave and why I told you to is beyond me. You said you fell out of love with me but why? I didn’t have a job. I wasn’t doing what was expected of a loving and supporting husband and father. I failed you and the children plain and simple. The fact that I admit it openly should be enough but its not. I once told you that you were trying to change me and that it was useless to do so. I said that thinking that I couldn’t be what you wanted or needed. The truth is, for whatever reas

One Of My Short Stories So Tell Me What You Think
My head aches with the throbbing pain of a 1,000 spears. At first I couldn’t remember where I’ve been or even where I am at in this duration of elapsed seconds that seemed like days. As my focus sharpens the memories strike me like a bolt from the blue. Buckling under the pressure of the flooding visions of the past, I remembered every bitter detail. Two hours earlier… He walked down the street with a brown paper bag- acting like some sort of drug pusher-feeling the heat of the street life he was condemned to at the sorry age of seventeen. What the exact story is I don’t care, but I know his mom pushed him to the streets in order to feed her famine stricken twins, barely six years old. A wave of sadness swept over me when I saw Jack walking down the alley. In the last century of my life, I witnessed this world’s decline as if it was scrapping at the garbage heap of life. Jack’s fear streamed into his voice as he started to speak, “You have no idea what I had to do to get thi

New Drink
New Drink A woman and her boyfriend are having a few drinks. She starts talking about this really great new drink and wants to order it for him. He gives in. The bartender puts a salt shaker, a shot of baileys, and a shot of lime juice on the bar. She explains "first you put a bit of the salt on your tongue, Next you drink the shot of baileys and hold it in your mouth, and finally you drink the lime juice. "He goes along to please her. He puts the salt on his tongue-salty but ok. He drinks the shot of baileys-smooth, rich, cool, very pleasant. He thinks, "this is ok." Finally he picks up the lime juice and drinks it. In 1 sec the sharp lime taste hits. At 2 secs the baileys curdles. At 3 secs the salty, curdled taste and mucous-like consistency hits. At 4 secs it feels as if his mouth is full ofnasty salty snot. When he finally chokes it down he says "Yuck what do you call that drink? She smiles widely and says "Blow Job Revenge."

So Lovely
Love letter to the woman in my life. I'm so in love so involved. Oh how it feels to have you around. & be appreciative caring about me. I feel the same way of you & looking to connect it even more when your here. Next to me holding me & my arms around your waist. Looking in your face at your eyes. & our lips touching gently as they feel on each other. I'm glad to hear how i make you feel. Let all run down inside as it gets you feeling. That there is no one else can make ya feel like do & keep ya safe. & alright that i hope you sleep good tonight. Thinking of me. All comfy alone in your bed. Wishing i was beside you. Kissing you on your forhead. Waking up together. Always & will be forever kelly my dear i love you. & glad to be come around make you smile laugh & hear you. I only hope when you read this. Your heart only be pounding making you blush more & always feeling that there is someone you can count on. This may not be a good letter. I always hope your well & feeling better.

Bath Time Fun
I walk into the bedroom and grab my tattered redfleece robe. As I'm walking out of the bedroom my eyesfall to the open drawer of my dresser where my pantiessit. There, nestled between Cat in the Hat panties andHello kitty panties, is my vibrator, 2 porns and abottle of lube in a plastic baggy so that it does'tleak onto my panties. I bite my lip and stare into thedrawer. I've never done that in the bathtub, I think.I wonder what that would be like.Well, I guess I'm going to find out. I grab it out ofthe drawer and go into the bathroom, shutting off thewater. I dip my toes in the water and realize it'sstill a tad bit to hot so I turn the cold water onfull force. Now I'm really itching to get into thebath and try masturbating in water. Finally! Thewater is the perfect temperature. I slowly slide intothe water, the warmth enveloping my body, sendingslight prickles through my skin because although it'sthe perfect temperature, it's still warm enough toprickle my skin. I run my fingers throu

Fubars Sexy Kittens
Hey everyone, we are looking for fubar's sexiest!! Check out Fubars sexy kittens, the owner's page has all the info, http://www.fubar.com/3790622. They also have a website at www.fubarssexykittens,weebly,com (minus the commas and use periods). Any one interested in joining msg me or shelly.

Having Fun And Not Sure How To Approach This
I have been thinking, alot of my friends on here have my MSN. I dont mind giveing it out. Inmy books its a grea way to communicate. Faster to. So anyone that is willing to share or wanting to. GIve me a shout to my inbox and we will go from there. And those that dont. No worries I totally understand.

Gone Baby, Gone
My God it hurts tonight. It's merciless and poudning and I lay in bed with the covers over my head and it can always get through. I am white hot with shame. Led to be fooled again. Wool pulled over my eyes, head in the clouds, visions of happy family in my head. Dancing on my toes for weeks. Weeks. Months. Feeling so sure. What a fucking fool I am. What a fool to assume that any words spoken by that mouth would be truth. That any hopes wouldn't be dashed within days. That I could trust. These dark circles just won't seem to go away and I'm so frustrated I am close to exploding. Or at least that's what it feels like. Stupid girl is like a mantra. I shake my head, shake it, try to let loose to words so they stop repeating. Please stop, I'm pleading. This hurts worse than I thought it would. This graceful handling of lies and deceit is crumbling around me. I was doing so well but tonight I am falling to pieces.

Abc Says Lane Bryant Shows To Much Cleavage
Big girls, I mean plus size, Lane Bryant is fighting for you against ABC. Lane Bryant accused Disney owned ABC of being prejudice for not airing LB’s bra commercials during Dancing With The Stars. ABC says the commercials showed to much cleavage. Hey, since when is Disney concerned with to much cleavage. If you look at some of ABC’s programs they show more enough cleavage then you care to talk about. Give me a break ABC. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/04/22/abc-slams-lane-bryant-rejected-plus-size-lingerie-ad/ BlastFM is not concerned with cleavage just great music. Boobs can take care of themselves. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

National Geographic.....
This is explorer Ninja Bunny here...today we are going to discuss the recent discovery regarding the imnotreadyforarelationshipus imjustkindahorneyus. Due to the dwindling numbers of the female screwmeoverus andillkillyouus, it’s natural enemy, this pest has been thriving. However, we had yet to find a fully mature specimin.Its been widely believed that the imnotreadyforarelationshipus imjustkinsahorneyus is closely related to other species, such as the iloveyouus moveinwithmeus, and theiloveyouus letsstartafamilyus, both only seen in captivity, and the poisonus iloveyouus butitscomplicatedus. Great precautions should be taken to avoid the iloveyouusbutitscomplicatedus...if bitten, it will cause its victims to experience fatal heart failure.Only recently did this explorer discover something amazing... The imnotreadyforarelationshipus imjustkindahorneyus actually DOES mature...into theimnotgettinganyyoungerous letsgetmarriedus. Once this transformation occurs, the imnotgettingan

Face Book And Something That Pissed Me Off.
There is actually a group on FB that is called "DEAR LORD, THIS YEAR YOU TOOK MY FAVORITE ACTOR, PATRICK SWAYZIE. YOU TOOK MY FAVORITE ACTRESS, FARAH FAWCETT. YOU TOOK MY FAVORITE SINGER, MICHAEL JACKSON. I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW, MY FAVORITE PRESIDENT IS BARACK OBAMA. AMEN" yes, they actually spelled the names wrong, not me. Anywho, it has cause a lot of death threats, and hatred against the President.This screen shot here is one example: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=4044806&id=707347912 So people are reporting the group left and right to get it removed from Facebook. Now, there is another group which someone made, directly threatening that Bush should be killed. So, I reported that one too. Anyway, on to my point. I have a co worker who is a republican. For those of you who don't know me, I am a democrat. Well I told my co worker, who is also supposedly a friend of mine, about the hate group against Obama. And she thought it was funny. So I told her ther

I Am Never Here...
I am falling apart, no one knows. Alone I am tearing apart, nothing but sorrow. I can not fix whats wrong. Dying inside, this pain, my heart stops beating, I am falling into the shadows. I beg for you to love me, no one cares. I ask for you to be by my side, all you do is stare...I am falling apart...I am finally gone from here.

Mirrors Of The Soul
I am drawn By the sparks in your eyes. Like a moth to a flame. I'am capture By the color in your eyes Like a light to a prism. I am pulled By the need in your eyes Like a tide to a shore But most of all I am attracted By the love in your eyes Like a women to a man.

Empty Tank
Here I am again...tired from not sleeping...Sad from not loving. I feel miserable again...here on this plane...Here on this earth. I've done it again...I stayed out all night. I feel it again...I dred this flight. Why? Because I'm sick...Sick of being owned... I write because I'm sick...Sick of being known. If I was normal...Would she like me the same? If I was just a stock boy...Would she still enjoy my name? I'd like to think she does and would...I believe in her and believe in me she should. I'm gonna lean my head against this window...Close my eyes and go to sleep. I'll wake up in the next town...With thoughts beyond deep. The days will go by as I will just act. As the days go by I can only look back...At the good times...the fun. At the bad times...the fun. I wonder if she misses me as much as I miss her...I wonder if she waits to see me...I wonder if she waits? I'd like to think she did and would...I believe in her and believe in me she should. My heart is so curious...M

Aiden's Update
UPDATE!!!................yesterday Aiden's left ear began to bleed. in january he had double tubes placed. as of last week he was diagnosed with his left ear being permanantly deaf. his audiologist noticed his left side of his mouth drags lower than his right. then it hit me. what she was saying made sense. he drags his left arm and leg when he crawls, he has no teeth on his left side, he can't hear on left side and he tilts his head that way. so his audiologist was it touch with his pediatrician. after the doctor visit yesterday, she said the tube moved but she looked @ his old CT Scan. she noticed something another doctor didn't. a malformation of his cerebrum. she figures it was from early pregnancy when he decided to lay on his side. he was also born under a lot of pressure and not enough oxygen. so, he is going for occupational therapy and an MRI. in two weeks we go see a craniofacial specialist. already, the doctor said it was a great chance he will need surgey on his cerebrum. a

Mypornprofie
As you know there are several places to build profiles on the Internet. I have a few up but http://mypornprofile.com/blog is my favorite website for a porn profile. This site does so much for promoting and has many abilities to upload videos and pictures. It is linked with Twitter. You can link to most of all the sites you are on as well. Right now they are doing a poll for profiles and I am asking all of you to go to the site and please vote for me Cindi Cammer!!Sweet wet kisses, Cindi

Just Keep Digging...
Let me give you some advice... The best way that one can dig themself into a hole with me is to talk about the kind of people they can't stand..and list off everything that I am. BWAHAHAH! Yeah... I'm really not amused.

Broken Angel
I have become a broken Angelno longer able to flyplease believe I gave it my alldeep down I really triedI have become to tiredto continue the fightand I know to some of youthis decision isnt rightbut you dont knowof the memories I holda lifetime of hurtthat can turn your blood coldso please dont blame meif I have a blank stareif even when we talkits me I dont sharefore i am not worthyto call someone minei am trying to finaly face it this timethey say there is someoneout there for mebut this is a dreamI no longer seeA broken Angelbecoming darker every daydeep down in my soulI dont want it this wayyet I really dont knowwhat else I can doI just knowthat my heart is thru...........Outlaw Angel

I Will Let This Angel Fall
as i sit hereand try to dry the tearsi am once again remindedof all the little fearsi feel my strength fadeinga little more each dayand i pray for the peaceto find me some wayi close my eyesbut no dreams to seenothing but blacknessin front of meyou ask how i ami will tell you just finebecause this pain i carrywill last beyond timei will wear a smile for all to seewishing just onewould look and seethat my soul is dyinggrows colder every dayGod please help memake the hurt go awayi drop to my kneesand surrender it alli will walk in the shadowsi will let this angel fall........................ Outlaw Angel

The Royal Forester
Note: This song first dates from the 13th Century. I am a forester of this landAs you may plainly see,It's the mantle of your maidenheadThat I would have from thee.He's taken her by the milk-white hand,And by the leylan sleeve,He's lain her down upon her backAnd asked no man's leave.Now since you've lain me down young manYou must take me up again,And since you've had your will of me,Come tell to me your name.Some call me Jim, some call me John,Begad it's all the same,But when I'm in the king's high courtErwilian is my name.She being a good scholarShe's spelt it o'er again,Erwilian, that's a Latin word,But Willy is your name.Now when he heard his name pronouncedHe mounted his high horse,She's belted up her petticoatAnd followed with all her force.He rode and she ranA long summer day,Until the came by the riverThat's commonly called the Tay.The water it's too deep my love,I'm afraid you cannot wade,But afore he's ridden his horse well inShe was on the other side.She went up to the king'

$1 Million For "a Day In The Life"
How much would you pay to have a handwritten copy of the lyrics to the song “A Day in the Life” written by John Lennon? The projected price could be more the $1 million that was paid for the lyrics to “All You Need is Love” in 2005. If you want to bid attend Sotheby’s auction on June 18. Isn’t that amazing what impact The Beatles still have. http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/04/30/lennons-lyrics-day-life-fetch-million/ BlastFM is not up for auction just yet. You can still hear great blasts of The Beatles and other groups 24/7 @ www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Unfinished Love
When you are literally a thousand miles away with true friends, drunk out of your mind, singingand generally happy but you are still constantly thinking about that person wishing they were here wanting to hold and be held, it tells you something about your heart. I have never believed I'd love someone like that and that it'd be one of the deepest pains i've ever had. I just don't know what to do with you...You got under my skin and your making amends is falling apart at the seams. I just want to know the right answer to this, the right answer for my life and not just for the moment.

Poetry
The thoughts that consume my heart and soul, Beat faster with in time. There is no end to this I find, The true confinement is within my mind. Trouble brewing deep in thought, Curses over love lost. Table of time, Why must you be so unkind? When does the preacher make his stop? Chiming to a tune long since forgot. Hark now do the angels hear it, Does it keep the solemn time? In the rhythm of this music, That is were I find my mind.

Poetry
Shimming in the moonlight, Sky is the faith in love that flies. Soaring throughout the mountain side, Heart's wonders do rise. Rare it is still and hard to hold, Like sand sifting through the fingers of your hand. Faith is strong, Yet love remains gone. We fill the void with not so wondrous things, Greed, hate, self hate, is the main. Humans are we a confusing lot, Longing for love, Yet we forgot. We forgot love so long ago what it really means for us all to hold. So softly and tenderly, Like a new born child. Real love is not meek nor is it mild, Real love my friend is so strong and so still;

Relationship Questions
Why is it that when I give a guy my number just to have him as a friend he doesn't seem to pass his number to me or call me ?? Is it because we work together or he's just an idiot to refuse to call me ?? He smiles at me when he see's me and when he pages me on the radio he seems happy to talk to me what is the delio ??? SHOULD I MOVE ON OR GIVE UP AND FIND SOMEONE ELSE WHO IS INTERESTED IN ME ??

Written For Me. Gotta Love All Four Of Them
I thought I had been in love before,I thought my last love was the perfect match for me,But i had thought wrong cuz when I met you,Everything became so clear,that I been waiting all along for you.Never have I felt something like this.Its amazing what you can feel though only words.Imagine what it will be like when we finally meetThough people don't believe what you and I have.the most important thing is, I don't dout it.and I'm sure you don't either. ------------------------------------------------I wrote this poem especially for you,to show you what my feelings are going through.The moment I saw you my heart was sold,the two of us together will never be cold.Your are my baby day by day,I hope you will never ever go away.All of you is what I need,Please tell me where it can lead.-----------------------------------------------The touch of his hands upon my body send chills though my soul/His lips upon mine oh how bitter sweet/His arms that hold me oh so tight lets me know am safe/The wo

Sums It Up...
I'm a snuggle bear, write poetry and blog a lot, in a hurry for a birdie I can snog a lot. I'm the kinda guy that you should get to know. Give you a neck message, make your vagina explode. I like pop punk, hip-hop and NPR. If I had a Huffy, you could ride the handlebars. Got some battle scars but that means I survived. Now I'm lookin' for a lady to walk by my side. Better like Boy meets World and Lost. Gotta have a little bit of soul, no WASPs. Red hair helps, keep those hips on lock. No fatties, no fuglies, I only hunt fox. Do you like Metal Gear, 'cause I wanna see your box. Do you like what you hear 'cause I got the bon motts. If you're a snuggle bear, got the cuddle onslaught. Yo, I rhyme about the booty, but I like it on top. You don't have to be a nerd, yo. Could you do the opera, could you do an Ergs show? I step off the stage and I'm totally alone. Maybe's why I'm always runnin' to the 'dro. I need a counterpart, need a better half; good sense of humor, yeah, you better like t

Adding To The Madness That Is Yadlowxp
Greetings Neighbors!!! There have been a lot of changes here on Fubar. It seems most of these moves are to get us experienced folk to interact with the newbies. If you are new to this place, let me offer you a hearty 'hello and how the hell are ya?!!". First, as a new neighbor to this place, I would like advise to do two things, READ the FUBAR Bible and create a salute. The first point is obvious, just to get to know what and how to do things here. The second admonishment is to ease some of our worries about you being a real person or some type of porn bot (which I would imagine do exist). Next, always remember that this is online and it is only as real as you make it. This means if you don't take some of drama that happens here, just be prepared to let some of roll off your back, because, life here really isn't all that serious. If you have received drinks from me. I am just being nice and neighborly. I am not trying to sway you into my bed or become your cyber junkie.

I Don't Like Mondays - Boomtown Rats
The silicon chip inside her head Gets switched to overload And nobody's gonna go to school today She's going to make them stay at home And daddy doesn't understand it He always said she was as good as gold And he can see no reason Cos there are no reasons What reason do you need to be shown Tell me why I don't like Mondays I want to shoot The whole day down The telex machine is kept so clean As it types to a waiting world And mother feels so shocked Father's world is rocked And their thoughts turn to Their own little girl Sweet 16 ain't that peachy keen No, it ain't so neat to admit defeat They can see no reasons Cos there are no reasons What reason do you need to be shown Tell me why I don't like Mondays I want to shoot The whole day down All the playings stopped in the playground now She wants to play with her toys a while And school's out early and soon we'll be learning And the lesson today is how to die And then the bullhorn crackles And the captain crac

Not Much To Say
DON'T HAVE A LOT TO SAY THIS WEEK SO I'VE WRITTEN REALLY BIG. I'M HOPING THE SHEER SIZE OF MY WORDS WILL MAKE UP FOR THE LACK OF MEANING IN THEM. SOMETIMES BIG CAN BE GOOD. THE GRAND CANYON IS GOOD. SOMETIMES BIG CAN BE BAD. WORLD WARS ARE BAD. I HOPE THIS IS GOOD, LIKE THE GRAND CANYON AND NOT BAD LIKE WAR. OKAY, THAT SHOULD DO IT. BYE, NOW.

Help A Girl Out...
POST THIS IF YOU AREN'T SCARED TO SEE HOW PEOPLE THINK OF YOU: 0 = EWWWWWWWWWWWW!? 1 = DEFINITELY NOT ATTRACTIVE. 2 = DECENT 3 = CUTE 4 = FINE AS HELL! 5 = I'D DO YOU! 6 = PRETTY DAMN SEXY! 7 = LOVABLE! 8 =I LOVE YOU!!! 9 = I WANNA MAKE YOU MINE!) You can have more then one answer with this

Survey
1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do you think we will be friends? 8. Do you love me? 9. Do you have a crush on me? 10. Would you kiss me? 11. Would you hug me? 12. Physically, what stands out? 13. Emotionally, what stands out? 14. Do you wish I was cooler? 15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 17. Am I loveable? 18. How long have you known me? 19. Describe me in one word. 20. What was your first impression? 21. Do you still think that way about me now? 22. What do you think my weakness is? 23. Do you think I'll get married? 24. What makes me happy? 25. What makes me sad? 26. What reminds you of me? 27. If you could give me anything what would it be? 28. How well do you know me? 29. When's the last time you saw me? 30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 31. Do you think I could ki

Repost
(Julie Snyder)I want to start this prayer chain for the family and friends of Julie Snyder, age 21, that was shot and killed in Springfield, Ohio. May God give them the strength they need to get through this tragedy. I pray that her soul may rest in peace. Please keep this prayer chain going by re-posting it on your wall. Prayer is the most powerful thing! Let go and Let God!!!!!!!!! God Bless you all!on Monday

Just For Today
Live the join while feeling the pain, tomorrow yet comes to bring another day. Even though its not promised, I must say this, we all have a leason to learn even if one isnt sure what that is just yet. Maybe things happen for a reason but we question on why. I have never felt as if I was good enough but blame the autistic side as a reason. People are strange and I am one of them as I ramble on with these words. I feel like I have alot to say but nothing wants to come out. Whats happens in the future if we have a hard time living for the day, the now..Can we forget about the yesterday and all the heart ache that came with it..Or is that impossible. I hate feeling this way. My mind is mentally tired and Ive had enough but no this isnt a get out of life feel note. I do have alot to be thankful and be blessful for..My children, the people who keep me leveled. My 2 little sanes. It could be worse though, I could be totally alone. I feel like I am though. I hate feeling this way..I really do.

Unexpected Threesome
How lucky am I? That was the thought going through my head while stroking the particularly smooth and fit thighs of a long time friend while kissing my wife. Not one and the same person I would like to emphasize. I often say that my wife is not only the person I love more than anybody else but also my best friend. A key I believe to our great relationship for the past ten years. A relationship that has survived for so long because of a true commitment and real trust.Many weeks away on business from my side with plenty of opportunity to play around and many weeks and months of trust from my wife. Trust I never once violated. Though if you would ask any of her friends they would not believe it. Not that I was blind, far from it, I just made a decision one day. The day I asked her to marry me.But a man can fantasize after all. No harm in that. She made it clear that an open relationship was not something I should entertain thoughts of. Fair enough. Though she has never been naïve enough t

Legal Vs. Illegal Murder (an Argument For The Death Penalty) (essay Part 2)
In addition to utilitarianism, we must also look at Capital Punishment from a natural law point of view. We cannot justifiably examine such a serious topic from only one face of the matter. Utilitarianism seeks it out based on the consequences, not the means. However, natural law looks at it from a completely different perspective. St. Thomas Aquinas gives an explanation of the need and legitimate use of capital punishment from a natural law point of view as follows: "Now every part is directed to the whole, as imperfect to perfect, wherefore every part is naturally for the sake of the whole. For this reason we observe that if the health of the whole body demands the excision of a member, through its being decayed or infectious to the other members, it will both praiseworthy an advantageous to have it cut out of the body. Now every individual person is compared to the whole community, on account of some sin, it is praiseworthy and advantageous that he be executed

Juggalos And Juggalettes Looking For A Place To Call Home!
Are you feeling like you haven't found the people that you connect with? Do you love the carnival? Do you love a group of misfits that will accept any person alive? Then find your way to http://www.fubar.com/lounge/backstagepassradio. We are a band of outcasts that live for the hatchet! We die with the hatchet! We are Juggalos and we're not like some biggot...we accept all people of all walks of life! We just want you to have fun and have respect to others!

Messed Up
I walk in the darkBecause that is the only world I knowLurking in the shadows behind every wallThe smell of lust in the airTwo lovers in the midnight glareA killer in the wind Wanting a taste of themCrying out in the night This creature does not fight.Taking what they want Giving what they willA cry in the distance Please end my painAn Immortality I can not standTake me to the world I seek to findTake me to where love is truely blind.

Randomness
I felt your love rush across me like so many waves; I lay motionless.I recognized the absence of your thoughts, I knew I was lost and late.I could've kept going, but coursing through me was fear.Fake. False. Flash flood. Front runner. Cracks, crevices, calm before the storm. Hold me whil I lay here and die.

Tandar The Dying...
Striking out from the church in the elvin city of Feanus, Tandar begins his first real adventure. Being a human in an elven city wasn't easy so much of his days were spent praying to the elven god Corellon Larethian. The god appeared to him while his village was being burned by the forces of the dark heart and lead him away safely to a group of elven scouts and bid them to take him to the church. The young boy grew to be a man there, training to be a warrior for justice. He didn't think he was ready to be out on his own but the head Priest said it was time. So now with sword on his hip and shield on his back, and prayers to his god, he returns to the human lands to find heros to fight against the coming darkness. A darkness that threatens to destroy all of the land. A darkness that knows he is coming and will do everything in it's power to see him fail. But there are others that feel the call and they shall all meet, and become a force of light to stand against the tide of evil that is

Fate As I Believe
Fate It really is true that everything happens for a reason.Our lives are just one, big plan that ultimately completes a person. Sometimes it's hard to believe this theory and sometimes it is hard to understand why something didn't exactly work out the way you had hoped at the time, but if you remind yourself that it's all part of the plan, it helps. At least for me, it does because i truly believe this. Whether it be a person you hope to date, fall in love with, break up with, get cheated on with, someone you meet in a grocery store, the reason you took the left turn instead of right, the reason you got pregnant, the reason you didn't get pregnant.. EVERY single component works in a certain way and directs your life how it is supposed to go. Granted, we all make decisions, but who's to say that those decisions aren't already made for you, as "part of the plan"You can not make someone love you.You can not wish for things to change or change a person's mind.It is the way it is for

One Wish
If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

A Not-so-easy Rider Rides Out
Gun cabinets were locked and stashes were re-hidden in Heaven this weekend when artist, actor, director, and photographer Dennis Hopper died after battling prostate cancer. Had there been a merit badge awarded for “Drug Induced Paranoia” from the late 1960s to early 1980s, no one actor would have been more deserving of the honor than Hopper. Talented, tormented, and delightfully twisted, the 74-year-old lived his life like a peyote buzz with a mescal chaser: wild and outrageous, then mellowing slowly at the end. We like our actors crazy, and Dennis fit the bill nicely. Sadly, they don’t make 'em like they used to. [Shout out: What do you think about ... Dennis Hopper?]

Ecstasy
I'm slowly taking your cloths off one by one till i get to your panties. I'm kissing your inner thighs slowly but lightly. I grazed my teeth across your pussy through your panties. I start pulling them off with my teeth. then start blowing on your pussy watching your thighs tremble with ecstasy. i come up and lay on my side next to you kissing your soft lips while i have my palm on your outer g-spot with my fingers moving in small circles on your clit slowly. then start tapping your wet pussy in a rapid motion. I'm kissing along your neck down towards your nice and firms breasts sucking and and using my other hand to squeeze them firmly. i stick my index finger into your hot and wet pussy puling in and out very slowly as i make my way down there with my tongue and lips. i pull out my finger and lick the outer lips of your pussy and then spread them out to lick the inner lips. i start flickering my tongue on your inner g-spot and sucking on it while i reach around with the

"trying To Forget Someone You Really Like.
6-6-2010"I always knew I would look back on my sadness and laugh; but I never knew I would look back at my laughter and cry.""Trying to forget someone you really like. is like trying to remember someone you never met.""Once upon a time I was falling , but now I'm only falling apart.""I thought I Was starting to love her, but she had to break my heart for me to know what shereally meant to me.."Time goes by, life goes on, and all I can think of is why you're gone.""I should have been more careful. I was blinded by your halo, so I never noticed the horns.""I wish you could look at me and see the person you once liked instead of the person you have grown to hate.""I may regret the way we ended, but I will never regret what we had.""Everyone always says there are more fish in the sea... but sometimes you just really want bass.""From an angel's wings, to a falling star, God made everything, but an unbreakable heart."This is what we call eternal love%u2026"Maybe one day I'll be able to tear

My Memoris
OPEN UP THE TOP DRAWER OF MY DRESSER, MOVE A PIECE OF PAPER TO SIDE. I SEE THE KEY CHAIN SHE GIVE ME WITH THE WORDS I LOVE. JUST LAYING THERE IN SIDE. I CLOSE MY EYES AND THINK OF HER AND ALL THE THINGS WE SHARED NOT HAVING TO DOUBT MY HEART WANDERING IF SHE CARED. I OPEN MY EYES AND ON THE NIGHTSTAND SITS A WINE BOTTLE CORK OF A BOTTLE OF WINE WE SHARED ON A COOL SATURDAY NIGHT. I CLOSE MY EYES AND REMEMBER THE TASTE OF THE WINE ON HER LIPS. AND OF THE SWEET LOVE WE MADE THAT NIGHT. EVERYTHING AROUND ME REMINDS ME OF HER. HOW NERVOUS I WAS THE NIGHT WE MET ON APRIL 17, HOW JUST THE TOUCH OF HER SKIN EASED MY WORRIES WITH JUST A KISS ON THE CHEEK. WHEN I AM DRIVING DOWN THE ROAD ON ANY GIVEN DAY I CAN LOOK AND FROM MY MIRROR HANGS A NECKLACE THAT SHE GAVE. I CLOSE MY AND THINK TO MYSELF THAT I WAS A LUCKY MAN I JUST HOPE TONIGHT SHE IS AS HAPPY AS ME. BECAUSE MY MEMORIES OF HER I CAN TRULY SAY I AM. B.W.C.

Initial Post
Hello Friends, If you have found your way here I think I can safely assume that you are concerned about out-of-control spending, out-of-touch legislators and the shameless dissemination of misinformation concerning the Tea Party.I plan to post as often as possible and would like to invite everyone to comment. Dissenting opinions are welcome. Feel free to correct me if you can cite sources. Civilized discourse is the goal of this blog.I had planned to at least attempt to assemble my complaints with the current administation chronologically, but there are two rather heinous affronts to common decency that I would like to address now.First; The unconscionable use of the so-called race card by the mainstream media. Has anyone on the left (not the ruling aristocracy, but rank and file party members) considered how utterly ridiculous it is to accuse a person (or group) of racism because they disagree with the democratically elected president? (I disagree with the majority of th

Permanent Tarp?
Permanent TARP? The $700 billion TARP (Troubled Asset Relief Program) faced enormous public opposition prior to being signed into law by President Bush on October 3, 2008. Slated to end December 31, 2009, Treasury Secretary Timothy F. Geithner extended the TARP program until October 3, 2010. Although one of the goals of the bailouts was to jump start lending, a January 30, 2010 report to Congress by TARP Special Inspector General Neil Barofsky says that, “Lending continues to decrease, month after month,” and that a separate TARP program announced in March designed specifically to boost loans to small businesses “has still not been implemented by Treasury.” The U.S. Government now owns 61 percent of General Motors as a result of the company exchanging stock for $52 billion in TARP money. $6.7 billion of that total was considered a loan and has been repaid with interest, but that figure is misleading. The Treasury Department is still in posse

Irony
IRONY "There has never been an administration, I don't believe, in our history more intent upon consolidating and abusing power to further their own agenda,"Hillary Rodham Clinton 2005"I'm sick and tired of people who say that if you debate and disagree with this administration, somehow you're not patriotic. We need to stand up and say we're Americans, and we have the right to debate and disagree with any administration."Hillary Rodham Clinton 2003http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJxmpTMGhU0&feature=player_embedded Posted by Richard E. Aman at 6:27 PM

:((
why do i keep going back to the person who doesnt like me the same. why do i try so hard to find the guy who will be the one for me. why am i searching for something that wont work. why do i keep trying to be with someone who shows no respect for me. most of all how come i end up with guys who use me/betray me. am i that weak to be used or not wanted? what's wrong with me?!

Wtf Fuck This
why do i keep going back to the person who doesnt like me the same. why do i try so hard to find the guy who will be the one for me. why am i searching for something that wont work. why do i keep trying to be with someone who shows no respect for me. most

Tired Of The Cunt Already
from: happy now gonenew blog, explains everything. friends only. ♥United Kingdomsubject: RE: ermreceived: 06/4/2010 01:46 pmreplied: no block this memberi have my own mind, and i adore you=== 'KloverIsellmyselftothehighestbidderlynn' wrote the following at '2010-06-04 13:45:25'..>> LOL yes that is true...but he hates me so much...I dont think he is gonna like youand I being close..he fails to recognize any positives I may have> === ' SweetOne ECS fuengaged to Zombielover' wrote the following at '2010-06-04 13:43:51'..> >> > hugs i know.> > but you and are close, and i love it that way, i can chat to you about anything> > === 'KloverIsellmyselftothehighestbidderlynn' wrote the following at '2010-06-04 13:41:49'..> > >> > > Ihope he dont..just from history...ya know?> > > === ' SweetOne ECS fuengaged to Zombielover' wrote the following at '2010-06-04 13:39:27'..> > > >> > > > he wont, he knows i adore you kerry> > > > === 'Kloverlynn' wrote the following at '201

More Lies And Attention Whoring
deletefrom: SweetOne taking...new blog, explains everything. friends only. ♥United Kingdomsubject: RE: gahreceived: 05/31/2010 07:40 pmreplied: 05/31/2010 07:44 pm block this memberi know. makes me wonder when it would have been my turn.. where he would have turned on me.i could not go through that again, it would kill me.and you are only going through it for the first time hugs.a person mailed me and said.. how could you just fu divorce john.and i dont have to answer, i know why, and im not taking a chance again with my feelings.i know! how sore it can make your heart=== 'Kloverlynn' wrote the following at '2010-05-31 19:38:09'..>> you know what Deb? I kinda understand..because Iknow firsthand how wonderful his words and seeming sincerity can make ya feel> > > honestly..I had to read his comment to you in your blog like 10 times..and I was STILL like NO this isnt happening..then i went apeshit on him in his sb lol> > I am just embarrassed by my actions..I reall

More Lies And Attention Whoring Part 2
SweetOne taking...new blog, explains everything. friends only. ♥United Kingdomsubject: RE: SweetOne ECS sent you a Red Headed Harlotreceived: 05/30/2010 09:12 pmreplied: no block this memberhugs=== 'Kloverlynn' wrote the following at '2010-05-30 21:11:41'..>> well yeah I mean NYE it was I love you I miss you I cant wait to see yu...2 days later I was a dirty cunt who was not worth the stink off his shit> === ' SweetOne ECS' wrote the following at '2010-05-30 21:10:10'..> >> > that is the scary part, i must admit.> > one of the reasons i ended our relationship, how he can turn so fast> > === 'Kloverlynn' wrote the following at '2010-05-30 21:09:05'..> > >> > > Eh...wont stop him from trying. I dunno..he hates me...and I guess that is fine..if I could go back and redo shit I would..I am glad this happened kinda...because well..I am MUCH happier..but...he was my bestfriend..and he turned SO quickly..i was stunned> > > === ' SweetOne ECS' wrote the following at '201

Proud To Be White
Proud to be WhiteMichael Richards makes his point......................Michael Richards better known as Kramer from TVs Seinfeld does make a good point.This was his defense speech in court after making racial comments in his comedy act.. He makes some very interesting points...Someone finally said it... How many are actually paying attention to this? There are African Americans, Mexican Americans, AsianAmericans, Arab Americans, etc.And then there are just Americans. You pass me on the street and sn eer in my direction. You call me 'White boy,' ' Cracker,' 'Honkey,' 'Whitey,' 'Caveman'... and that's OK.But when I call you, Nigger, Kike, Towel head, Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Beaner, Gook, or Chink .. You call me a racist.You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you... so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live?You have the United Negro College Fund. You have Martin Luther King Da y. You have Black History Month.. You have Cesar Chavez Day.You have Yom Hashoah.

What About Ted
I have been sitting here thinking deeply, quietly for that fact too lol that now i know what iam thinking of. lot of people in my life i love and have loved very much to show affection, and such for, try to be nice and respectful byt they take it with a grain of pepper and it burned thir tongues and feelings away thinking im bein rude and unexceptable. well iam sorry for that, i say things out of text and out of mind at times, i do this because i guessi try and get attention alot but no it doesnt work that way it back fires so for now i may just be the silent partner...that wont work either i guess but its all i have left (h)

Heart Broken
"Doesn't Mean Anything" Used to dream bout being a millionaire, without a care But if I'm seeing my dreams and you aren't there Cause it's over, that just won't be fair, darling Rather be a poor woman living on the street, no food to eat Cause I don't want nobody if I have to cry Cause it's over when you say goodbye All at once, I had it all But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone From above, seems I had it all But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone Now I see myself through different eyes, it's no surprise Being alone would make you realize When it's over, all in love is fair I should've been there, I should been there, I should've should've All at once, I had it all But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone From above, seems I had it all But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone I know I push you away What can I do that will say how I love Take these material things They don't mean nothing It's you that I want All at once, I had it all But it doesn

The Woman That Was Me
once thought i knewhow life should bebut all this painis slowly killing mei feel the darknessgrow deeper in my heartfeel its slashesas it cuts me apartto look in a mirrorjust makes me crybecause the woman i knewhas slowly diedshe once had a heartso strong and truebut after shatteredthe pieces she threwi wish i could rememberjust once to seei want to know how it feltwhen i knew me Daddyzlostangel

Tiki Barber Takes Another Big Hit
Things are going from bad to worse for Tiki Barber. Tiki was canned from his NBC gig which paid him $300 grrr (I stole that from Jim Rome). Now he tells the court that he can’t pay the divorce settlement to his ex. What a fall from grace for a guy that was one of the best running backs in the NFL. I will bet u dollars to donuts that his hot young lover babe will leave him too. What’s the guy to do? Let that be a lesson to all us guys. If you can’t pay the freight then leave the sexy merchandise alone to those who can afford them. For more http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2010/06/23/broke-tiki-barber-afford-divorce-settlement-alleged-affair-nbc-intern/ BlastFM is free to those who like great music. Tune us in and groove the rest of us 24/7 @ www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

My Last Breath To You
When our bodies fail usfrom frailties unknown,we may often forget,how much we may have grownWe are all joined in a cycle of life,which is usually describedShowing emotion and strifeWhen you awake one morningand the with windows wide,you may feel me again,flowing deep inside.I gave my last breath,to feed the trees. Now the wind has carriedthe fruit of my last laborto feed your living needYou see we all live on,donating a small amountTo the cycle of lifeWhich in the endwill leave no doubtSo, when you breath that spring air,deep into your soulRemember where the last breath cameand I will have your heart to hold

As I Slept
I arrived home later than I had told Di, when I rang her earlier that evening, it was after 11pm. As I entered our bedroom, there she was, sound asleep on the bed, she looked so peaceful, laying there on her back with her arms stretched behind her head, with only a sheet covering her lower body, stopping neatly tucked up under her exquisite breasts, I undressed and had a quick shower. As the water ran over me, the thought of her on the bed, in her nakedness, aroused me so much, my cock stood proudly to attention, the fine stream of water spraying from above, danced down on my knob, so exciting me, I thought I would cum in the shower. Enough I thought, I left the shower and dried, threw on my robe and strolled out into the kitchen, a big cold glass of iced water, flick on the TV, and catch the last bit of the late news, and then to bed. Sleep came easy to Di, and she looked incredibly beautiful when she slept, her eyelashes resting against her cheeks and her full red lips slig

I'm Not Sure
well i've never bloged before but i hear it's good so i'll try...i have so much stuff going on in my life that when i get the think to sit and think it's kind of sad..i mean i have good friends to help me and stuff but i guess that it's just hard

Celebrity Divorce And What They Cost
Divorce is never an easy thing to do. Most people who get divorced do so in a few weeks without much property to split. Only child support is the real issue with them. What about the mega stars? What happens when they divorce? Usually it is messy and lots of doe is at stake. For instance, Paul McCartney’s much publicized divorce. And this guy didn’t have a prenuptial agreement. Can I hear a “stupid.” There is a list of the 10 top celebrity divorces and what was gained and lost. Tiger Woods is number 1 on the list. Check it out http://www.foxbusiness.com/slideshow/markets/industries/entertainment/celebrity-divorce-settlements/?slide=1 BlastFM helps keep you entertained by playing the best music in the world. Tune in 24/7 @ www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

To All Who Read
im 29 lookin to chill and meet new people... im layed back relaxed and take care of me and mine....im new to this so bear with me... but get at me... i date black men got 3 mixed children and love to live life to the fullest... let it do what it do... and remember u got 1 life live it to the fullest ...

Chatters Wanted!!!!
WANTED!! NEED NEW FACES IN CLUB PATRON AND MORE SO IN LOST SOULS. THERE IS GREAT PEOPLE IN THERE 2 CHAT 2 AND LISTEN 2 GREAT MUSIC AS WELL!!! COME IN AND SEE WHAT IT IS ABOUT!!! IF U LIKE IT, THEN WE WILL LOVE FOR U 2 JOIN THE LOUNGES!!! MORE THE MARRIER!!! HOPE 2 SEE U ALL THERE WHO COME!! THANKS AGAIN!!! ANGELGIRL7873

Poem
....One minute your hot the next your coldone minute you want me the next you don't knowwhat should i do when my feet wont moveI'm stuck on you and cannot movei don't know why i can't roam but i know i shall move onYour made of stone, cold as iceI don't know how i could believe your liesyour a dog, a man of sinsomeone doomed to never winyour twisted games i shall not playmy will gets stronger everyday so as far as you i shall pray.

Just Feel Bored..i Just Want To Chat..
hey there..i felt bored right now..i dont know how to chat here!.and i want to meet new people here..wanna chat at yahoo?.heres my id!.sophiamadisonsmith at yahoo.com..i also have msn.sophiamadisonsmith at hotmail.com ..hope theres someone wanna chat with me..im online now!.

Bad Things Made Better
recently my best friend passed away at age 62 a vietnam vet.a true biker.he died in the hospital after i got back to texas,it tore me up knowing i couldnt afford to go back and say good-bye.not only did i lose the best friend a guy could ask for but cant pay tribute.well yesturday i got a call mike we took a collection and got you a bus ticket up to tell him good-bye i didnt think i had friends anymore let alone some that would do that.after the tears stopped i actually smiled a lil.feels good to know there are some good people left in this cold world.so proud to call them friends....

It's Funny...
but it seems like that emptiness never goes away, but is only owned by someone else. i thought i had succeeded in forgetting, only to remember again. it's not always so bad, but at times like this, thinking about her just makes me want to die. ironic, since she never cared. would she come to my funeral? would any of them? why is it i find myself liking the girls who care for m the least? is it their disdain? am i just not good enough? and each day, i try to fill that void, somehow. seems as if i'm so empty that i can barely move, though. none of this even makes any sense. to all of them... kristen, jenni, lindsey, jasmine... i loved you all, lost you all, and i deserved no better than that. to the rest of you? i don't even know.

Dreams Of Lilith
Dreams of Lilith 2003 This piece of work commemorates my showing at Echo Gallery in Chicago, IL starting on March 8, 2003. This piece also features the beautiful image of Playboy Model/Artist Muse Veronika, who is also the curator of Echo. According to the Jewish tradition, Lilith was the first wife of Adam, before Eve. They say she was Caine's mother, not Eve. Since Lilith was created from the same source of Adam, both having been formed from the ground, they were equal in all ways. When he tried to make her submit to his will, she rebelled and flew away (Lilith didn't want to lie under him during sexual relations, because she considered that position as "insulting"). She went near the Red Sea and coupled with the Djinns, giving birth to a lot of demonic children (called Lilim). God, in order to try and convince her to come back to Adam, sent three Angels to reason with her (Sanvi, Sansanvi and Semangelaf), but Lilith refused to return. The Angels punished her by ext

7/26/2010
finding it very hard to get online and update my page and tell you all about the funny and stupid crap I keep running into with all the oc punks and bitch i have to babysit. anyways, its getting hotter and the days are way longer than i like them to be. but hey, another day another 10 cents..lol. I'm hoping to have something really funny very soon to put up here...til then, be safe and don't take any shit.

The Age Of Techology
DON'T LAUGH!...This is SERIOUS!, for the over 55 generation: I thought about the 30 year business I ran with 1800 employees, all without a Blackberry that played music, took videos, pictures and communicated with Facebook and Twitter. I signed up under duress for Twitter and Facebook, so my seven kids, their spouses, 13 grandkids and 2 great grand kids could communicate with me in the modern way. I figured I could handle something as simple as Twitter with only 140 characters of space. That was before one of my grandkids hooked me up for Tweeter, Tweetree, Twhirl, Twitterfon, Tweetie and Twittererific Tweetdeck, Twitpix and something that sends every message to my cell phone and every other program within the texting world. My phone was beeping every three minutes with the details of everything except the bowel movements of the entire next generation. I am not ready to live like this. I keep my cell phone in the garage in my golf bag. The kids bought me

"the Man Of My Dreams" A Poem I Wrote That Is Published Along With "can't Sleep Thinking"
The man of my dreams, Is not as he seems, blinded by his touch, I just love it too much, He wispers in my ear, He sneeks up my underwear , Hes up to every measure, He gives me pain He gives me pleasue, He knows my deepest desires, He uses wipes and wire he never tires, My sex fantasy come true until I come to,

Jenny Block Says Food Is Sexy
One of my favorite sex writers, Jenny Block, is back with sexy food. I never thought food was sexy. But, Jenny says food can be sexy. I usually believe what ever Jenny says. Next time I’m stuffing my face with a burger, I’ll look at before I bit into it to look for its sexy side. Here’s Jenny http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,598124,00.html BlastFM is your mood creating music station. Hit us up for a grand musical experience 24/7 www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Spirit Of Loss
Wandering the streets, no one sees him. No one seen him in life either. He was just as intangible then as he is now. He drifts past people living their lives, working, playing, laughing loving. His funeral was just as empty as his life as well. Nobody came to see him off. Nobody cried for him when he killed himself. A few people on the internet might have noticed he stopped logging in. But none cared enough to look in on him. if not for his landlord noticing the smell from his little shabby one room apartment he might have gone unnoticed for another week or 2. So now he drifts past them and weeps for the life he never had.He dreams of a happiness he never found. He makes his way across the city to a girls place he knew from the internet. He drifts through the door and up the stairs. She is sitting at her computer, writing in her blog, she is so beautiful, yet he could not tell her so in life. He reaches out to touch her face, and his hand passes through, hanging he head he starts to tu

~a Wasted Sacrifice~
Behind the Gates of Loveland Across the path of stone You found the field of paper flowers, love Where me heart lay, alone You smiled at it You picked it up You took it back home with you You cared for it And loved it And to it.. You spoke lies You tossed it out Onto the ground A wasted sacrifice.. That field of paper flowers, love Is where you found my heart You kidnapped it.. you shoved it down You planned this from the start In that field of paper flowers, love My heart beat, strong && true.. You kidnapped it.. you shoved it down This heart.. is over you ~Fyre~

The Worlds Gone Mad!!!!!!
ALRIGHT I HAVE SOMETHINGS I NEED TO GET OFF MY CHEST BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN HOLDING ON TO THEM FOR WAY TO LONG NOW AND HOPEFULLY SOMEONE OUT THERE CAN GIVE ME SOME ADVICE ON MY SITUTATION....AND I APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE IF I OFFEND ANYONE BY MENTIONING GOD THROUGHT THIS BLOG CAUSE I DONT MENAT TO...FRIST OF ALL FOR STARTERS I ALWAYS BELIEVED THAT YOU SHOULDNT CHANGE THE WAY YOU LOOKS THAT CANT BE REVERSED BECAUSE GOD CREATED YOU THE WAY HE WANTED YOU TO LOOK AND BE...RIGHT? AND IF IAM WRONG PLEASE FORGIVE ME...THE SECOND THING IS I ALWAYS THOUGHT AND BELIEVED THAT OUR PARENTS WHERE PUT ON THIS EARTH TO GIVE US THE TOOLS WE NNED TO BE PRODUCTIVE ADULTS AND TO HAVE THE TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD WERE SUPPOSE TO HAVE AND I KNOW THAT ONCE WE REACH A CERTAIN AGE THAT OUR PARENTS ARE NO LONGER LEGALLY OR SPIRTUALLY RESPONISABLE FOR US...BUT WHAT I DONT UNDERSTAND IS HOW A PARENTS CAN JUDGE OR EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY ABUSE THERE CHILDEREN WHEN THEY AINT EVEN LIVEIN RIGHT THEMSELVES.....AND SO

The Way I Feel Today August 17, 2010.
The way I feel today August 17, 2010. The way I feel today, is I’m being punished and I am nothing but a piece of dirt on my family’s shoes for they ignore me. My fault I guess because I created another profile on Fubar (my ex has gotten my son to think Fubar is porn and the source of the Trojan virus that infected her laptop. If that was true then all the computers using their internet access, wouldn’t they? I am loosing weight from the lack of food and drinking a lot of water in these wicked hot days, The reason for the lack of food is because my Food Stamps have not yet arrived and I am out of food. I was rationing my food to one meal a day to make to it until my Food Stamps arrived, but I miss calculated. That is okay since I have been drinking lots of coffee to curve my appetite, so I won’t go to bed feeling hungry like I did when I was a young boy. I will not bother with that family that talked me into buying this mobile home since they do not really treat

Only A Mirror (a Really Effed Up Dream I Had)
i follow the footprints that were laid before thine eyes,as i walk unto where there are eternal blazing skies.rivers of blood caress the calloused feet of all in suffering,and all hear the condemned laughter that covers there blubbering.screams of anguish fill my eardrums as i follow the path,puss filled sores envelope my body feeling satans wrath.as i trudge along into the world of nightmares revealed,i know that my wounds from here will never heal.then when everything goes dark the heat dissipates, i fall to my knees and avast begin to concentrate .but my efforts prove futile as racing thoughts develop,no voices are heard as torment begins to embellish.as all seems lost i see the face of Satan himself,ebullient is he, garnished in his great wealth.basking in the light of all his self ordained glory,this is truly like an Edgar Allan Poe allegory.then as i pull my head upward to take a last peer,i realize that if truth be told it was only a mirror.

Death Of The United States Of America
ALL EUROPEAN LIFE DIED IN AUSCHWITZ The following is a copy of an article written by Spanish writer Sebastian Vilar Rodrigez and published in a Spanish newspaper on Jan. 15 2008. It doesn't take much imagination to extrapolate the message to the rest of Europe - and possibly to the rest of the world. REMEMBER AS YOU READ -- IT WAS IN A SPANISH PAPER Date: Tue. 15 January 2008 14:30 ALL EUROPEAN LIFE DIED IN AUSCHWITZ By Sebastian Vilar Rodrigez I walked down the street in Barcelona , and suddenly discovered a terrible truth - Europe died in Auschwitz ... We killed six million Jews and replaced them with 20 million Muslims. In Auschwitz we burned a culture, thought, creativity, talent. We destroyed the chosen people, truly chosen, because they produced great and wonderful people who changed the world. The contribution of this people is felt in all areas of life: science, art, international trade, and above all, as the consc

How I Feel Today, August 19, 2010.
How I feel today, August 19, 2010. I felt more depressed his morning for I had slept until 11:34am. This is usual for me, since I would normally be up by 9:00am the latest. I found out yesterday, while online that two people who graduated with me had passed away with cancer. This made me sad and mad at the same time. Sad for the loss of two of my classmates and mad because of my ex and my children denying me access to the internet to stay in touch with my world in MA. I am feeling a little better now because my ex mother-in-law brought me a TV dinner for lunch. I am still waiting for the mail to be delivered since it is 1:14pm and still no mail! I am listening to classical music on PBS on the radio, this sooths my soul and is quiet and peaceful enough to think! My ex mother-in-law wants to move back down south, to Ray City, GA but I would rather be in Adel, a few miles east of there. But this is just a thought. My wish to be cremated is still there and I thought about it more this morn

Big Brother, Big Sister
be careful what you say and doand we'll be still be coming for yoube silent or tell a liewe change the question on a revolving paradigmvideos and laws1st amendment amended for our causethe cause may change next weekpay attention to what you thinkor we will blog or postyou out-of-date mindsetcausing you embarrassment and regretfacebook watches overreport your friendsfor misnomersturn in friends of friendsfor shameand they will do the sameyour mind, impurescientists working on curerant:i can't identify with any raceor place my genderi say how wonderful life isto join the mass pretendersi can't dissent or i'll lose my jobor suffer berating by the hip mobi can't use my understandingor educationto utter a word if it clasheswith popular innovationwhether i have the factsand proof i'm evilbecause the majority suckles from the teat of wikipediaamerica has become a landof pop culturewith no culturalismif you declare to be differentits called an -ism-isms are untoleratedby the so-called land of

Refitting The Pieces...the Author Against The World.
In the course of examining worldviews of various belief systems, and the author’s personal experience with each one, the author does not discover any startling revelations, nor does the author attempt to immerse himself into the worldviews that differ from his own. The author’s own worldview is that of Christian; however, not of any particular denomination. The author, being raised Southern Baptist by an Independent Baptist Minister- his father- and taught tolerance, not intolerance, of other religions or those religions’ viewpoints. The author was also made to understand that despite being tolerable of another’s worldview, the author must make stringent efforts to not be swayed, guided, or indoctrinated in these views. Each worldview presents an ananthem to Christian upbringing, growth, and moral/ethical decency that the author was initially raised with, became, and lives by. Upon review of the worldviews studied: Naturalism, Human Secularism, East

Violence
why do stupid people resort to violence? idk y the fuck im thinking bout this shit @ 4am but i am. violence is just a stupid load of SHIT sry but if u wanna act like a bully tell me and i'll lock u in a cage w/ zombies or bears idfk

The Little Thimgs
Different places ive been too and seen crack me up. its the little things such as , in Albany, New York there isnt any Sonics. Alot of people i talked to didnt know what a frito chili pie is, In Oklahoma there are Quiktrips everywhere, once again not in Albany. Traffic was insane. Seemed like you could take a cab anywhere for 6 bucks, which was worth it. For you smokers, cigarettes are like 10 bucks a pack. I did however meet alot of interesting people, had alot of different food, the weather was really awesome. The Catskill Mountains ,well everyone should take a look see.

Misinformation About Our Flag.
In the wish to be totally fair, apparently the quote that prompted this blog was actually correct in that it is from a cadence that the writer learned while serving in this great country's military and was used to help boost the moral of our brave soldiers. So, though not academically correct, his definition is musically correct! Praises and thanks to ALL of our courageous soldiers! We love you! Hello friends and friends to be!Today I read a status that gave some information on what the colors of our flag stood for and I knew the information to be wrong. What was more upsetting was the fact that the writer is 50 years old and lives in New Hampshire. I figured that this was scary, many young people would assume that he should know the truth and so would take the information as the truth! So, me being me, I looked up the actual true answers, cross checked them and here it all is, and then some! Remember, always check information, people make mistakes. You are responsible for wha

Red Sky In The Morning..
The gathering clouds on the horizon are a sign of what is yet to come. Staring.. the waves of the ocean driving against the hull.. I stand at the ready. There is no turning back, and stopping will only prolong the inevitable. I know that I will survive, but I am not the only one on board. I have others to think about. The cold salty air gnashes against my skin as the winds continue to rise in their fury. I am about to turn around and face those who are looking to me for guidance. Before I do, I cleanse any doubt or fear from my face. As I slowly turn, I feel a hundred pairs of eyes glaring back. I see their worry, their fears.. yet I can not show mine. I clear all hesitation from within, and with a wicked smile and a firmness in my voice I give my simple command. "It's going to be a rough ride, so grab some lashings and hang on tight!" With that I turn the wheel to face the raging storm ahead. I can feel the bow creaking beneath my feet, moaning it's displeasur

Just A Taste
As she walked through the grocery store she had no clue what to make tonight for dinner. Tonight was to be date number four with her new boy friend and she was in the mood something special. As she turned into the dairy isle she could help but drift into a naughty though as she passed the whip cream section. She had always fantasized about having whip cream applied all over her breast; feeling the cold cream over her breast then a hot tongue suck and lick it off was more than she could handle. Her new boy toy was not yet proven in a sexual sense but after the thought of the whip cream she felt a desire to have the relationship move to the next level. So she decided to txt him a coy message saying, “ I hope you have a sweet tooth.” She tossed the can of whip cream into her cart and continued on to the vegetable isle. He was sitting at his desk as his blackberry began to vibrate on the desk. He was feverishly trying to finish up the proposal for his number one accou

A Kajira Pole Dance Written By Yours Truelly
she stood in the middle of the room, her heart was beating hard against her chest.. she could feel eyes of the Free drinking her in.. she stood motionless waiting for her cue listening for the sound of the rumbling drum to play.. her breath was heavy against her red stained lips.. slowly she raised her sunkissed arms into the air crossing her rists and stretching out her limber fingers as if she was reaching for the stars.. the drum began to roll softly and she could feel the beat swimming thru the air.. slowly she began to sway almost afraid to move.. she there was a crowd watching her waiting judging her almost.. her hips began to slowly sway the scarf that was tide around her waist bellowed with her graceful movements.. lifting her golden gaze breifly to the crowd seeking the glance of her Master.. then pulling her stare away hesatantly.. her wild tresses fell around her bare shoulders as she began to move with in herself.. the beat of the drum getting louder as her hands dropped f

Why Society Looks At Us Different.
It would appear, that our society has managed to put a new amount of pressure on people and how they live their lives. For most of my adult life, I've been overlooked, second guessed, and ignored by the majority of people. I was never considered for promotions, nor was I considered a catach by the girls. In fact, I was quite the opposite. I was often given a long list of reasons as to why I wasn't the one when I tried to advance in the work force or tried to start a relationship. But the second I enlisted in the military, all of that seemingly changed overnight. I came home from bootcamp, and found I have my choice of jobs, simply becasue I now had the military backround. Girls who in the past, never gave me the chance, were now being sweet and kind to me. I foolishly thought it was due to them growing up, but I was, as usually, blissfully unaware. It would seem, that people have forgotten to look past what a person has to offer or what a person does for a living, and to realize that

Patience
Love is patient, love is kind.It does not envy, it does not boast.It is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.It is not easily angered,It keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil,But rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trust,Always hopes, always perseveresLove bears all things, believes all things,hopes all things, endures all things.Love never ends.Love never fails.

Mom
R.I.P MOM 1932 2004 I LOVE AND MISS YOU MOM!! MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY !!! Don't Cry For Me When I'm gone; don't cry for me...I am not dead; I'm in sweet eternityI'll live forever; I'll wait for all of youWhen it’s your time; it’s what God would have us do.He called my name; He said come homeI did not die; please do not cry; I will no more roamI'll be by our Savior forever; soon, you tooWe’ll walk in the light; praising God in all that we do.Do not mourn for me; I have sweet victoryI'll walk in Gods’ garden; and glories seeI am not dead; He set me free; an Angel called to meIts beautiful here; Heavens’ full of cheer; you'll see.I did not die my love; I only went aheadI knew you’d understand; though I know this, you'll dreadThat will pass too; do all God would have you doMaybe up there God will let me have; a glimpse of you.I did not die, so do not cry; I'll meet you here one dayJesus will send an Angel to

Istanbul-turkey (dry)
Aerodynamics Front Wing Angle: 5 Rear Wing Angle: 4 Braking Balance: F 47% - R 53% Pressure: high Brake Size: standard Balance Ballast Distribution: F 60% - R 40% Front Anti-roll Bar: 7 Rear Anti-roll Bar: 11 Suspension Front Ride Height: 1 Rear Ride Height: 2 Front Spring Stiffness: 8 Rear Spring Stiffness: 9 Gearbox Gear 1: 87 mph Gear 2: 107 mph Gear 3: 126 mph Gear 4: 146 mph Gear 5: 167 mph Gear 6: 189 mph Gear 7: 210 mph Engine Throttle map: standard Fuel: full AlignmentCamber front: 1.50 Camber rear: 3.40 Toe front: 0.15 Toe rear:0.50

This Game
Time for me to speak and stop being so silent all the time. I've seen enough now everywhere i look people are asking for credits, bling, ratings, comments it's starting to get me annoyed i understand this is a game. it's a game that has gone way too far with some people. when i was introduced over to this site i was told it was a fun site to meet new people, not what i'm seeing now this is beyond a joke if you want to blow all your money be my guest but don't get me involved with it i am not spending a thing on this site and if that means not leveling after a certain level so be it. CERTAIN WOMEN WHO KNOW WHO THEY ARE i'm getting annoyed of talking to beautiful women and when we get on yahoo it all changes they try to get me to sign up to a certain cam site saying "you can see me" i'm not fucking interested leave me alone. i don't have a credit card nor do i want one i ain't putting details up on line no chance in hell so stop trying and wasting my time just leave me the fuck alon

A Journey Taken By Myself On Fubar
I cant remember who or how i got to know the site called fubar . my journey has had its up and downs . i have made alot of friends and have lost alot of friends on here . when i say lost it wasnt my doing these people would listen to others and form thier own opinion oif me and then they were out of my fubar life . you have people who own lounges but think that thier lounges will prosper if they were run like a military camp. that is furthest from the truth most of those lounges are gone by the way say through their owners wrong doing . i was staff in these lounges and when i was out of work i would camp in their lounges sometimes 10 hours a day . kept them open and when the owners got one complaint about me they fired and banned me from the lounge after putting more than a 40 hour work week in their lounge . this happened many times to me not asking if anything happened just shutting me out kinda left a bad taste in my mouth and ruined my lounge experien

My Family
TO JOIN MY FAMILY IT IS VERY VERY SIMPLE I DON'T WANT BLING I DON'T WANT CREDITS I DON'T WANT THAT KIND OF STUFF THAT STUFF ISN'T MY SYLE TO JOIN MY FAMILY TALK TO ME A LITTLE AND TELL ME YOU ADDED ME TO YOUR FAMILY THEN AS SOON AS I HAVE MADE SURE YOU HAE I'LL ADD YOU TO MIND SEE QUICK EASY AND FREE HAHAHA.

Fake It - Seether
"Fake It"Who's to know if your soul will fade at allThe one you sold to fool the worldYou lost your self-esteem along the wayYeah[Chorus:]Good god you're coming up with reasonsGood god you're dragging it outGood god it's the changing of the seasonsI feel so rapedSo follow me downAnd just fake it if you're out of directionFake it if you don't belong hereFake it if you feel like affectionWoah you're such a fucking hypocriteAnd you should know that the lies won't hide your flawsNo sense in hiding all of yoursYou gave up on your dreams along the wayYeah[Chorus]WhoahWhoahI can fake with the best of anyoneI can fake with the best of em allI can fake with the best of anyoneI can fake it allWho's to know if your soul will fade at allThe one you sold to fool the worldYou lost your self-esteem along the wayYeah[Chorus]Fake it if you're out of directionFake it if you don't belong hereFake it if you feel like infectionWoah you're such a fucking hypocrite

Rise Above This - Seether
"Rise Above This"Take the light, and darken everything around mecall the clouds and listen closely, I'm lost without youCall your name every day when i feel so helplessI'm fallin' down but I'll rise above this, rise above thisHate the mind, regrets are better left unspokenFor all we know, this void will grow andEverything's in vain, distressing you though it leaves me openFeels so right, but I'll end this all before it gets meCall your name every day, when i feel so helplessI'm fallin' down, but I'll rise above this, rise above thisCall your name every day, when i seem so helplessI'm fallin' down, but I'll rise above this, rise above this doubtI'll mend myself before it gets me(I'll mend myself before it gets me)I'll mend myself before it gets me(I'll mend myself before it gets me)Call your name every day, when i feel so helplessI'm fallin' down, but I'll rise above this, rise above thisCall your name every day, when i seem so helplessI'm fallin' down, but I'll rise above this, rise ab

Bloody Irony
Without her he is lost nothing is important anymore. He can find no purpose, he is not himself. When the razor cuts he feels no pain, he just thinks of her, and lets the blood run down his fingertips. His world has revolved around the thought of her, the words she writes, the messages she leaves. But then it stops he hears nothing for days, then weeks he has become nothing more than a shell going from day to day on a sort of auto pilot. Never looking up at the people around him, never talking unless spoken too. His friends forget him, he no longer leaves his home except work. One day he thinks he sees her while working, but when he gets closer he realizes that it is not her, it never will be. She has moved on and has started a new life, with someone who was worthy. Someone who has caught her eye, and heart. Now he sits at his desk, cutting himself waiting for the message that may never come. Waiting for the love he lost, the love he has thrown away. Feeling nothing but hatred for himse

Lost
As I walk through the forest nothing looks familiar, it is all the same. same trees, same rocks, same shrubs. I hear giggling, or am I going mad? I don't know how long it has been. I eat Berries and drink from streams. Little by little I feel my thoughts leaving rationality. scent, danger, gunpowder, how do I know what is it? I don't know runrunrun, safe am I? what is that? something, big must get away? no they are all around. no escape, bite!claw!hit!kick!scream! NO!!hurthurtletgopainneedle?howdoIknow?whereamI?lostagain?

Just A Biker I Saw You!
JUST A BIKER But, You Didn't See Me I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection plate last Sunday. I saw you, pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk.. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you, roll up your window and shake your head when I drove by. But, you didn't see me, riding behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our leather coats and gloves. But, you didn't see me, a

For My Baby
For My Baby Every night I fall asleep to thoughts of you and every morning I wake up looking for you.When I am down I all I do is close my eyes. Because your always with me.When I am hurt it's thoughts of you that make me forget about everything. When I am filled with worries it is you that calms me down. Your my first and last thoughts at the begin and end of my day. Your my one and only person I dream about and do anything for.I hope to make you feel like you never have felt before. Thank you for coming into my life. I love you baby

Sincere Tells All
Sincere tha poet lettn loose Many nights sittin n this four wall room,dreaming of the dayz i kept u warm till the early morn,feelings raging like a monsoon storm,this pain in my side like a thorn searching for love since i was born Sincere tha poet lettin loose my kneck free from the noose holla gf duck duck goose try walkn in my shoes To all my reals the one who lived tru walk those hills never has blood spill never had to kill to express the fakes i detest no need to impress no matter how i dress live life real b4 you spit on the rest Back again the lord in my heart no matter how much strugglin love jugglin my words my expression bubblin with my pin governments crumplin fakes back track steady stumblin this live got a nikka humblin realizn we all scrub again again materialistic people befriendn it don't matter what your riding in Never can they comprehend it heavenly sent thug walkin a women i'm never striking taking my time never inticin backstabbers forever fig

Handle With Care
Handle With Care Dig down deep open that door you can see your soul ur skeletonseverything staring back at you.To what exstent do you keeping needingbefore your desires and wants are fullfilled and your heart realizesthat your worn down and sad.You have given your all away yet you stillhold a empty shell your heart the very thing that beats to the oblivionof eternal love and that my friends is the part we need to handle withcare...look I realize that we all have history and bad stories and sumof us had to survive and others sheltered but to find a mutual connectnand fall in love with friendship and crazy non sexual attraction themystery either way you will never know and in the end you wont havethat soulmate or true relationship that always makes you happy or smileand feel complete I guess the dream ends here Time to wake up peace outlater...

My Final Blog Forever On This Internet Shit
hi how are you well lets see i once lived in castro valley my dad probaly still lives there i havent seen him n 15 years and well it strikes a bad chord but i still live on and hope for my family one day.i like your photo seems like i say that alot but ya i got respect and class for all women.I spend alot of time writing you can find most of my work on myspace manny2300 my screen name but other than that i guess i just plain have given up on any one understanding me my apperance is hard for a reason i really avoid fakes and sincerly if any one looks past the cover they have found there self a stong man a determined man a tru man i have lived every experience you could possibly imagine.I never hide from these experiences they just make me who i am and well my protective nature has kept me from pain that seems to follow untill the last few years Ya i lived now without human contact nor urges this is just a set up for heart breaks so i guess why these people put profiles up and claim the

Wont Tolerate Low Life People...
I am done dealing with retarded people in my life, you fucking backstab me you will be eliminated, I will not acknowledge you, you will be put on ignore, block, gone from my life, afterall I did for people, I am kind hearted, never mean, I'm a sweet person, with a good heart. but you fucking hurt me like that, you are a sick mental human being who shouldve never been concieved. I hope bad karma gets you good. Because thats what you fucking deserve. The End.

The Confederate Flag And Free Speech: It's Long Past Time To Stop Mythologizing Our Ancestry
The Confederate flag and free speech: It's long past time to stop mythologizing our ancestry Published: Wednesday, March 16, 2011, 7:00 AM By Guest Columnist By Jeffrey Fuller After reading about Ken Webber, the Medford school bus driver who was fired for refusing to remove a Confederate battle flag, which he called an expression of his "redneck" identity, from the antenna of his truck while parked at a local school, I was reminded of my own upbringing in Missouri near the home of the notorious Confederate guerrilla and outlaw Jesse James. Coming of age in an area where Southern sympathies still exist, where Jesse James is still celebrated (even I, a liberal historian, struggle not to brag about the nearness of my roots to this legendary and murderous man), and where the "Dukes of Hazard" just made sense, I've often found contradictions in the realities and fictions surrounding the South and an understanding of who we are as individuals. The brief background information about Web

All About Me
I thought it was time that I told all my friends here more about myself and my life so far in this world. My name is Jessie, I am 19, soon to be 20. Was born in a small town and still live in one. I can't ever imagine myself living in a bigger city. Nothing against those who do, but I like the wide open spaces where I can spread my wings and explore. When I was 12 years old I was diagnosed with a rare Non-Hodgkin Lymphoma. From that moment to this very second I have tried to live my life the best way possible. I have failed at times and when I was 13 I had sex for the first time with a boy from school. I thought it would make me feel older, all it did was make me feel worse than before. For about a year or so I was what some would call a slut, my grades where dropping and I was having sex with boys and I even started smoking pot and thought about but didn't smoke crystal meth. It was my lowest part of my life so far but it got worse. After years of emotional abuse to my mom

The Bishops' Law In Sex
1. The more beautiful the woman is who loves you, the easier it is to leave her with no hard feelings. 2. Nothing improves with age. 3. No matter how many times you've had it, if it's offered take it, because it'll never be quite the same again. 4. Sex has no calories so eat up. 5. Sex takes up the least amount of time and causes the most amount of trouble. 6. There is no remedy for sex but more sex. 7. Sex appeal is 50% what you've got and 50% what people think you've got. 8. No sex with anyone in the same office. 9. Sex is like snow; you never know how many inches you are going to get or how long it is going to last. 10. A man in the house is worth two in the street. 11. If you get them by the balls, their hearts and minds will follow. 12. Virginity can be cured. 13. When a man's wife learns to understand him, she usually stops listening to him. 14. Never sleep with anyone crazier than yourself. 15. The qualities that most attract a woman to a man are usually the same ones she can'

Autism Awareness Day April 2nd.....
Apparently April 2nd is National Autism Awareness day. Autism Speaks wants us to "light it up blue" because every disorder deserves a color. Blue, puzzle pieces, rainbow colored ribbons with puzzle pieces....what do you think of when you think of autism? I get angry. I get scared. Then I get angry again. If you Google Autism Treatment you will see what we are up against. There were over 17 million pages that appeared. I scoured one or two of those and found no less than 70 different treatments. The general scuttlebutt is that there is no one cause, and no known cure. This is a disorder, or by some accounts a disease that is at epidemic proportions. One in one hundred and ten children will be diagnosed with some form of Autism. It seems to be attacking our boys more than girls, however when girls are diagnosed they seem to be more severe. The fact that there are so many theory's and no real answers scares the heck out of me. I have started to realize that for us, my son became a vi

Will Love You Forever
Will Love You ForeverI love you so deeply,I love you so much,I love the sound of your voiceAnd the way that we touch.I love your warm smileAnd your kind, thoughtful way,The joy that you bringTo my life every day.I love you todayAs I have from the start,And I'll love you foreverWith all of my heart.

Full Circle
To me our love is magical, one I've seeked for very long, My love has finally come full circle, Everlasting and so strong. In past lives I've known your love, The bond was always there, In this life, It's even stronger, Such a sacred love we share...All my life I dreamt of you, wondering if we'd meet again, I knew the gods finally seen to it, When you asked me to be your friend. As soon as I looked in your eyes, I knew you were the one, Your smile your words, your energy, Warmed me like the sun...People may not believe in past love, But together it's something we share, All I had to do was dream, and you were always there. My friend, my lover, you mean so much to me, that words cannot describe, I was lucky to have you then and now, You finally complete this life... All our dreams are waiting for us, My lover and my friend, Our love has finally come full circle, I'm ready to begin it again...

Horoscopes
The Mean HoroscopesAquarius (Jan 23 - Feb 22) You have an inventive mind and are inclined to be progressive. You lie a great deal. You make the same mistakes repeatedly because you are stupid. Everyone thinks you are a jerk. Pieces (Feb 23 - Mar 22) You are a pioneer type and think most people are dickheads. You are quick to reprimand, impatient and full of advice. You do nothing but piss-off everyone you come in contact with. You are a prick. Aries (Mar 23 - Apr 22) You have a wild imagination and often think you are being followed by the FBI or CIA. You have minor influence on your friends and people resent you for flaunting your power. You lack confidence and are a general dipshit. Taurus (Apr 23 - May 22) You are practical and persistent. You have a dogged determination and work like hell. Most people think you are stubborn and bullheaded. You are nothing but a goddamed communist. Gemini (May 23 - June 22) You are a quick and intelligent thinker. People like you beca

My Story
Hi,My name is Colin and this is my very first blog. Where to begin...The beginning I suppose. I would like to relate to you a true story, it will sound unbelievable but every single word is true. It all started 21 years ago..I was just a normal guy,went to the pub five nights a week and clubbing all the weekend.Then I found myself deep in the brown stuff,I became an addicted gambler.I don`t know if you have ever been in this situation but it ain`t funny.I was putting all my wages in the one armed bandit in one day.It started off very well at first..I was winning,winning a lot.Then my luck ran out and I was putting in pound after pound in the machine.I didn`t realise I had spent all my wages until I was on my way home and just happened to look into my wallet and there was nothing there,no money for my keep and nothing for the rest of the week.I said to myself this would never happen again.How wrong I was every payday the same thing would occur until it got to the po

Men ..... Lmao!!!
1. Men are like Laxatives They irritate the crap out of you. 2. Men are like Bananas The older they get, the less firm they are. 3. Men are like Weather Nothing can be done to change them. 4. Men are like Blenders You need One, but you're not quite sure why.. 5. Men are like Chocolate Bars Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips. 6. Men are like Commercials You can't believe a word they say. 7. Men are like Department Stores Their clothes are always 1/2 off! 8. Men are like Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.9. Men are like Mascara They usually run at the first sign of emotion. 10. Men are like Popcorn They satisfy you, but only for a little while. 11. Men are like Snowstorms You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last. 12. Men are like Lava Lamps Fun to look at, but not very bright. 13.. Men are like Parking Spots All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped

Just Some Poetry That Makes Me Feel Alive
Whenever you feel that darkness is falling on you,whenever you feel there is nothing you could do,i will be there even before a word you could say,to brighten your life in each and every possible way. I will stay awake all night so that you can sleep,dreaming about our love that has been running so deep,i know even in your dreams you always think about me,there are no more words like you or me,it's always we. For the flying birds the sky is their best friend,for a loving heart you are everything that god could send,every second spent with you is like a day spent in heaven,your the most beautiful of the angels that god has given Being with you I always forget everything happening around,life is always at peace, even if there is lot of sound,someday if i die,don't ever feel that i have left u alone,I'll always live in your heart because of soul mates and true love .. Your smile, your lips, your kiss,Your eyes, your gentle touch, With empty arms I reach for you,I miss you now so

A Way Of Life
If you Agree to the Terms as a Fu-Kitteh OR a FU-Kittek Tamer Please Comment to the Blog Below saying you have read it! FU-Kitteh Creed of Ethics We as Fu-Kittehs will not side step Class for anything We will not lower ourselves to petty Kitty Fights We will always stand beside our Tamer who chooses us Our Kitteh Mate ( our tamers secondary) will have our back as I will hers We Do not judge or ignore any new Kittehs. We will always Remain a family. Any bickering among the Kitteh Klan will be settled by our QUEEN! And the King tamer has Final say! There is no room for rumors or drama in our family. And first and lastly to The Kingdom we are faithful.

This Is What I Get.
it's my fault. i was wrong for wanting a slow life. i was wrong for wanting to be good. get me a fuckin sugar daddy and go places, son. seriously. fml. sigh. not even seriously. but still. i feel like my sense of adventure died when i turned 21. tired of this playing it safe BS i've been trying for over a year now. sitting here is certainly not going to fix anything. gotta grab life by the horns. and break it's fkn neck. but i'm tired, horribly ill, and broke. adventure can fucking wait a sec.

Help If Ya Can...
My name is Hailey Dunn. I went missing on December 27, 2010. I am now 13 years old. The Department of Justice found that while most are recovered quickly, almost 800,000 children like Sarah may be reported missing in a single year. That’s more than 2,000 children each day. You can help in the effort to bring them home by looking at the photos of the missing children featured here. If you have any information about the children you see, call The National Center for Missing & Exploited Children (NCMEC) at 1-800-The-Lost® (1-800-843-5678) or email hotline@ncmec.org. You will be receiving photos of other missing children on a regular basis. Look at their photos, review their descriptions and contact NCMEC if you have any information that might help find them. You can help bring a missing child back home to their family. Click here to get started.

My Road
"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be. I want to leave this Earth knowing that maybe I learned something important and shared it with another human being. I think it's time for us to acknowledge more than what we see in the course of our daily lives. It's time for us to open our eyes and look at the world in a different way. All of us! We need to celebrate our gifts, our friendships, and our family. We need to look at other human beings and see the beauty in that person, and not be afraid of the differences. So, with that in mind, the best we can do is to look and not be afraid of our own fraities, so that we can celebrate our beautiful souls".

It's A Sad Thing.
It's a sad thing when women have to use their bodies to get whatever they want, instead of using their personalitys and charm to get it. Oh wait, i almost forgot, how silly of me. Most women lack personalities and charm.

Want A Salute From Me
I get a lot of requests for salutes. And to be honest, I don't really have the time or desire to make them for everyone that wants one. So here is the deal.... If you want a SFW salute from me they will cost a 65 credit bling pack. A NSFW will cost a 135 credit bling pack. 1. Send me the bling pack. But sure to say that you are sending it for a salute. Otherwise, I will think you are just being nice and you won't get one. 2. I will make salutes at least once a week. So, be patient. 3. Requests are just that - a request. You get what I decide to do. You can of course, let me know what you would like, but that doesn't mean I will do it. 4. Put ALL info. ( be sure to let me know what name you want me to use - your screen name or a real name. However you spell it - is how it will be done.) in your fupal transfer message. As I do not always get to read all my message. Any message you send outside of the fupal transfer - there is NO guaranteed I will read it. Sorry if you think this is me be

Happy Birthday Papa
LAND OF THE FREE. THIS LIFE IS FULL OF HAPLESSNESS, ANGST AND PENT UP RAGE. MEN, WOMEN AND CHILDREN TRAPPED, HELD HOSTAGE IN A CAGE. HISTORY WILL TELL THE TRUTH THE ANSWERS MIGHT BE CAUSE FOR SURPRISE. LET THE RAIN FALL FROM THE HEAVANS AND CLEANSE THE SK...IES. OH, YES BACK IN THE DAY TEACHER WARNED, BEWARE OF THE DARKNESS OF DECEIT; SEARCH FOR THE LIGHT AND BE BOLD LEST A FALL TO DEFEAT. IF INDEED, IF THE ANSWER IS SOME HOW, JUST BLOWING IN THE WIND, YES IN THE WIND, CAN WE HARNESS A REMEDY AND ERASE THIS SIN? MAKE A PLACE, YES, EVEN A HOME IN THE HEART, FOR THE NOTION OF FREEDOM AND PEACE. TODAY, TAKE LEAVE FROM THE TOIL, THE STRIFE AND FEEL THE COMFORT IN RELEASE. IN ALL THINGS GOOD AND WHOLESOME FIND THE CHANGE THAT THE MASSES SEEK. IT IS THERE IT IS RIGHTEOUS AND IT IS A STRONGHOLD FOR THE MEEK.

My First Time
My First Time I think have Always had a fetish for older women, because of this first experience,sorry to say i was very shy in Highschool, I was a track and cross country state runner and a track star. i was so shy, guys had to ask girls out for me and most girls wanted to be friends. So I was still a virgin till the age of 21, you might say bullshit! but its very true noo bullshit. I was a church guy and was saving myself for marriage and my wife. I had a lot of morals back then still so sex it not one lol. i had just turned 21 and my parents helped me get a 1989 Mustang GT Gray blue pen stripe and a 5.0, a sweet car. Anyway me and a friend David were on the prowl, so went to a city Called Alvin where the kids on fridays and sat run the strip and meet people. Well David saw a couple of girls yelling at us and one was friend of his, so we pulled over and talked for a will. A girl named Mina said "Herb nice car, can i drive it. I said " sure if i can have you phone number and we go o

Fun Stuff
So i broke up with the sober challenged person I was dating... after he just couldn't recover from his month long drunken stupor. :-O ~~~~~ Bought a new vehicle only to have it break down...>:-( ~~~~~professor at school is just an arrogant d**k. ~Takes pride in embarassing my classmates and thinks its jokes. I just walked out one day. Everyone else standing around his desk hoping for him to change his mind and not fail our essays. WTF ever. ~~~~Taking off to Tampa for a week, an old friend is coming back and is thnking of moving back and wants to start a serious relationship. ( yes with me) Which is cool I like him and he is employed, has no drinking problems, he is a good guy...love can come later I suppose. ...tg. ooo was feeling like its the last straw but actually my life is pretty damn good. I am doing good and can't wait for Halloween. Thinking I should egg someones house...lol JK I wouldnt do that. ;-/

The First 5 People To Get To Me Somehow..
Via comment, note, whatever it is.... I will tell you what you are on this earth for. I don't mean exact job position or anything. lol It runs deeper than that. This... that I do, is not really reading the Tarot. It involves your birthdate for me to figure this out, along with my knowledge and sometimes my intuition. I do read Tarot for fun anymore to predict things. When I am able. I stopped charging for now, because I started to hate it. Such is life and Karma, huh? But go for it... and send me your birthdate. I do not need anything else. Do NOT tell me your name, your state, your childhood.... nothing but your birthdate. LOVE, RJ

I May Just Be Getting A Bit Controversial Here, But I Don't Care.
****Latest posting from a blog I have on blogger by the same title**** I may just be getting a bit controversial here, but I don't care. What could be so controversial? Well, it may not be controversial at all, but it sure does seem to be a touchy subject. How do I know? Because no one really talks about what being a "single parent" really means. For me, what it means is very clear. I have never had any help financially or otherwise from my son's biological father. He hasn't been anywhere near the picture since I was 2 months pregnant. I have completely raised my son on my own, with no help from family members. Though we did live with my mom for several months, she did not do anything at all to help raise him (feed, teach, discipline, etc.) and outright refused to babysit for him during that time, even at night when he was sleeping. She herself agrees with this assessment. THIS, in my humble opinion, is the definition of a "single parent". What has increasingly b

Never Let You Go
I'll Never Let GoI think about those times we hadBut evertime i do, i get so sadYou were always there for meIn the same spot where i could see youI cant let go of these thoughts in my headSeeing you smile and remembering what you saidI cant believe that you're not hereYou left me full of doubt and fearI don't know if i can move onI want to make you proud but the journeys too longI dont know if i could ever move onjust picturing you there, when now your goneYou showed me everything i had to doand now i know how few people there are like youYou're one in a million in the earthbut you're one in forever in my heartI know you're not too farbut dealing with this is just too hardI know you're watching from aboveI will never let go of your loveYou'll always be in my heartIll always work my best to make you proud!

Why Drifiting Was Created
After seeing this vieo I suddenly understood why the Japanese created such an excellent (sport)??.. I've always loved watching drifting and any other form of high powered car shows... but this takes the cake for sure. http://www.totallynsfw.com/videos/videos_toyota_supra_drift_xxx/

Commercial's
What would you do for a klondike bar? My favorite answer: "I'd buy one at a store at a discounted price." You sir are excactly the kind of customer we are looking for. Why what would you do? Read my blogs? (see my fubar status)

Climax
To touch, hand caressing To kiss, tongues tasting To breath, smelling desire To watch , smiles of pleasure Hands; sliding over naked flesh Mouths; licking raw skin Noses; scenting glistening hide Eyes; caressing shadowed nudity Bodies; clinging, playing, teasing Touching, quivering, wanting, feeling, Lusting, free, entwined, enraptured Reaching, searching, tingling Legs; straining, crushing, parting, Joining, twisting, tensing, trembling Rocking, thrusting, slowly, gripping Pushing, tightening, thrusting, faster Mouths; gasping, tasting, biting, Licking, moaning, sighing, smiling Kissing, nibbling, sucking, whispering, eating, crying Senses; fleeting, dying, growing, Stretching, raising, higher, Soaring, building, wanting, straining, Climbing, exploding, settling, relaxing.

Beth Does - 501
Almost everyday through the years, I lost bets, friends and too many tears. Course one thing held true again and again, I kept the guys warm in bed with just one sin. School work and teachers kept me busy, when guys and boos weren't keeping me dizzy. Never heard and talk of me in school, back of the bus and at parties I was cool. All alone with a guy when it was cold I was not, in ecstasy I heard him say your hot. Now I am not a call girl but I do feel, the couple of minutes is an even keel. Many have tried to make me an angel, I am. Time with me is heaven not hell. Time is now ready to speed by, we need more time you and I. Can you now understand me, I want to you to unlock my passion with your key. Beth does and what more, on the couch, bed and floor. She can, she will; Beth does, and love is always what it never was.

Ptsd
And to think, I hesitated. Life's last chances became lost opportunities for me. PTSD has caused me a great deal of headaches and sleepless nights. In the military I was somebody; I was a hospital corpsman that served Navy and Marine Corps units. Now, six years after being discharged because of PTSD I feel lost. Nothing I do seems to fill the void of who I once was. I am back in school getting a degree but I know deep down that the action is merely superficial and hollow at best.

Maybe We'll Meet - 652
One day all your dreams will come true, its said if your hope is strong it helps too. Your free to think how you wish, its you I won't forget. There is someone for everyone, maybe, this isn't meant but then again it could be. It will soon be four years, gained memories lost tears. Silently I pray for the chance I need, only to ask this question hear my plead.... Joel, let the meeting take place, so I may see if the voice fits the face. All you tell me of yourself I keep, it my heart it comforts me as I sleep. All- away I use to call you by, now 1- 800 all- gone, there is reason why. I'm five hundred miles away and well, talking to you is heaven but I am living in hell. My heart does hold hope, maybe we'll meet, and I know I'll like you so all is sweet.

On Down Off Up We Go - 673
Tomorrow is almost here, time to turn and dry my tear, People usually want me to fuck, with their mind because I do suck. And so do you I won't let myself tell, don't want anyone I'm going to hell. Failure to communicate is usually the case, and the last place noticed is my face. In this game there is alot that could count, all of it doesn't matter when its time to mount. That just figures, all work and no play, no love all lust, so that is what is up today. On its felt the most, down its push to roast. Off not yet, do it all again, up get dressed but lets sin. We never will anyhow, Go, get to leaving right now.

Sam Seduces Muscle Stud (1/3)
cranbourne123@hotmail.comSubject: Sam Seduces Muscle Stud (Part One)Disclaimer:This story contains scenes of a sexual nature between a man and a teenageboy. If this is not to your taste, or is illegal where you live, or youfind it morally offensive, then read no further and leave now!!The story is purely imaginary and bears no resemblance to any living personor persons as far as I know, much as you or I might wish!Sam Seduces His Muscle Stud (Part One)Sam sat eating a bowl of cereal as he read the note his mom had left him."Enjoy your first day of school holidays, honey. Don't forget Mr Reynoldswill be here around 9 to finish building the backyard fence, he'll lethimself in the side gate. Money's on the counter, don't get up to too muchtrouble. Love Mom xx"Sam smiled to himself and wondered whether inviting the town's footballteam into his house and having them fuck him silly all day constituted toomuch trouble in his mom's eyes? "Ah well, fantasies" he thoughtdisappointedly. Although

Let Me Out Of The Closet
Pnut: do i need to let you out of the closet? Pnut: lol Friend: Lmao. Fuck you. Im not in the closet. Im at walmart Pnut: even worse Pnut: lmfao Friend: I know. I hate this place but i needed 2 do some shopping Pnut: youd fit right in wouldnt you? Friend: Hey, i worked here like 1O or 11 years ago. Omg! Now i feel old lmao Pnut: lmfao stop touching your cock Pnut: you wont feel old then Pnut: lol Friend: Fuck u and the horse u fucked last night lmao Pnut: i love you to Pnut: lmfao

Solitary Seduction
There’s a tingle a yearning a pulsing in that quivering little lip,Hot deep surrounding pleasure senses zone,Fingers part pretty pink pussy lipsSlips n2 wetness Wordless whimpersDesire pulsates in frenzyHungrilySecret fantasiesExplored without limitsPassionPerversely infectiousPlaythingfor a timeManipulated moments become realities silky pleasure sensors satisfied Solitary Seduction

Days In Rehab
Days in Rehab, As We Sit and think, Why we had so much to drink. \Days in Rehab, Can we survive? Should we not know That drugs can take our lives? \Days in Rehab, Is there a cure? With all this addiction, We're not quite sure. \Days in Rehab, How can we cope? We're still addicted To crack and coke. \Days in Rehab, God, are you there? "Please, Help Us" "Hear our Prayer"

And So It Goes?
There was a time I felt so much anger, fear, and even hate towards the world that I knew I would never live had I done nothing. That was why, long time ago, I started a Zen path. It was to be a short-term regimen and I had the time since I had no job. However, due to unforseen circumstances, I could not finish. Part of the reason I could not finish was because of my current job. Oh how it sucked the life out of me and anyone who works there. During my first two years at this office, I kept a smiling face and a noble heart, yet the wear and tear of the daily grind was getting to me. It got to a point I could not sleep. However, as of last week, I decided to say "fuck it" and decided to go back on the Zen path no matter how tired I am. I must say, I am glad that I am back. Life is good and I somehow think getting back on the path will get me a way out of this crap. It might even get me to China where my true love waits for me. I understand some of you might not believe in Zen, Budd

To The Physicists Out There...
Why is that it's possible to send a beam of neutrinos through 240 meters of solid rock, but you can't come up with a decent veggie burger or protein-rich food that doesn't involve slaughtering living things (sure meat taste good once in awhile, but why can't u make something that tastes like meat, or even better); let alone a way to feed the hungry people of the world and help cure disease? I won't even mention the fact that the money your projects spend probably couldve solved the hunger problem (and many others) without your help at all. Schrodinger's cat is alive. MOST OF THE WORLD DOESN'T KNOW OR GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THAT CAT. i LOVE my cat of my own though; i'm it's pet human. Stop looking at the stars for answers to questions you can never answer; AND START ANSWERING MORE IMPORTANT QUESTIONS HERE ON EARTH. I'm sure I could go on AND ON AND ON AND ON BUT MY CAT IS HUNGRY AND WANTS FED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Pictures
My pictures will be PG-13 and that is that...i am not one of those who will do that to get attention and stuff..not like that..and i will not look at yours not here for that i am here to make new friends and meet people...as far as i will go is bikini pics and others..nothing more..u wanna see that go to some other place..thanks

If I Was Magic
If I were you and you were me I would no longer feel lonely, and you would be experiencing pain that you didn't know could possibly be. I might have a life then and know happiness, but I don't feel you would like my torrid mess. I have been truthful and I know not everyone everywhere is, and that is sad living shouldn't be determined from hit or miss. I would like to give what I get and more, but alas I often find a closed and bolted door. I like writing very much and it is very often how I reach out to hopefully touch. Your heart and maybe even your mind. I guess that could sound sick. If anyone took the time with me I know they might not like what they find. It is just easier this way, to let you in a little on my life day by day. If I was magic, no one would go hungry. If I was magic, no one would die lonely. If I was magic, all of the world would know love is universal. Love isn't color based or only weaved for only those that have been chased. Every soul means the wo

Luv Ya - 815
As much as you might not want me around, the best thing in your messed up life has been found. I am great and I am the very best, that has fondled you late at night and got you undressed. There isn't anyone who is better, and absolutely no one getting you wetter. I don't expect you to stop and start to think, because you don't talk or walk alright when you drink. You are really wrong in thinking you are always right, with way to many wrongs there is never a peaceful night. There may be no music with no party going on, its just flashbacks coming up until dawn. Love is known by few and many don't even see, that love isn't good sex, its the magic no one can see. To try to explain why now is a must, in this age we must better ourselves and take it out so it doesn't rust. How do I say it so you will understand, well, we need to start going right or we will over populate hell. Everyone highly rich or sadly poor, each person can learn love and open the door. Or build walls to protec

Nix.
I need to hurt someone.Just to see what it's like.Not in some petty, literal waylike burning down a forest.I need something intimate.Personal. Methodical and catastrophic.My forearm hasn't worked.That slow decay of my insides takes too damn long.Tire irons leave a distinct pattern.What does that really leave?Bite marks. Incriminating evidence.Cum stains and neck bruises.That's more my speed.Put it down. Take three steps back.And if all else failstake. Take take take take take.Until there's just nothing left.Then you throw it away.Laugh at it.Hate it.I wonder what it's like, reallyto be horrible like you...

The Craving Of Him
While fingertips trace upon the skin, the lustful feel of a lovers touch... the yearn for a passionate deeply seeded kiss, the feel the tip of the tongue does.... Lightly and slowly it slides, it circles, slightly feeling the the arch of his back... kneeling in front of him for her feed, while feeling comfort within her throats back.... Dancing and swirling of the hot of her tongue goes, a kiss, a suckle , only moans said.... soft yet aggressive strokes from her felt, while his hand rests the back of her head... as the pace becomes slightly faster, as his head slowly lay back... she feels the seed that the feed fills, while her lips do not part away from that... while inbedding deeply within he feels, the velvet narrow way while she closes it's hollow... for in this one feeding she has been given his essense, the fruit he bare's she has taken, she swallows... written by:~Bella Dharq~

He Is Dead And I Am Happy About It...... Sort Of
I just found out that my step father is dead. I am happy that he is burning in hell. He used to beat me and he molested me and he may have molested his oldest daughter who is a couple of years younger than me. She tried to talk to me about it 20 plus years ago but I was a teenager and didn't want to be reminded about it at the time. I was too busy self medicating to drowned the memories of the abuse. I do regret not killing him myself. I read his obituary and his third wife had no clue who he really was. She thought he was kind and would do anything for anyone. She wrote how he served in Viet Nam which disgusted me because he joined the Air Force made it through basic training and was bounced out right after on a section 8 never going to Viet Nam. She wrote how he was a great father, the POS adopted me when I was 4 and abused me until I was 8. He was legally my father and never paid one dollar in child support. Only the 2 daughters that him and his 3rd wife had were menti

Star Struck - 809
Day one I didn't know what to expect, if only I knew I must lie to protect. The night came and so did you, now I fell I must protect yet pursue. Your feeling you dared to show, some were nice but naughty; fast food on the go. What we did I won't ever tell, I know what is sold I can't sell. I won't make any kind of claim, since I know you would deny knowing my name. Also it is understood you are busy, with the likes of Bloody Mary or Dizzy Lizzy. I am lucky I had that one night, others didn't get that much, right?? They usually aren't close enough to see, a second who is nobody to you but somebody to me. So the lights go down and you close your eyes, I kiss you and slide in your 7 inch tongue depressor & teasing it to rise. Here we are full of luck, that night it was nice to be star struck.

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Straight From The Heart
Love in so many ways can be the most amazing thing in the world. You nuture it, it grows. You neglect it, it dies. What is love anyway? My opinion is that is its something that makes you smile. The warm feeling you get when someone walks into room or you hear their voice. Most people go through life not even getting the pleasure of knowing what love really is. Some have it right in front of them but choose to ignore it because of past relationships. I have had the pleasure of knowing what love is. Love is an amazing thing if treated the correct way. Love is always being there. Love is saying your sorry when your wrong. Love is doing whatever humanly possible for another person Love is unconditional. Love is real or is it? Live for today, Love for tomorrow.

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Very beautiful she is as she walks in the shadows of the moon. She comes across a path that leads to a pond… She comes across a man sitting by the body of water she walks over and sits down beside him “lovely night tonight” she says as the man turns toward her… “Yes it is, what are you doing out here my love?” he asks “I was going for a walk and just happened to find this trial, why are you all the way out here?” she responds… “I was just thinking about how much I love you” he responds then throws a stone into the beautiful calm lake before moving closer to her… “I love you” she says before she gets pulled into a very passionate kiss waking her up from her dream to see her lover laying beside her as she drifts back asleep in his loving arms....

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hey for anyone interested in reading this ill just give you a run down.. i have been writing poetry since i was sixteen this one ive shared with you so far was written by me at 16 using all the songs up to the finish of it that prince has written..the prince songs are in purple.. i was asked by a wonderful friend that i should share so i will feel free to read and comment or leave cuz it is really bloody long :P so i hope you like it :) We head down to erotic city where we can funk alright Round and round I drive my love machine cuz money don’t matter 2nite, We cream 2 the cross down alphabet street 2 the glam slam All night we dance on doing the housequake and the funk n jam

~we Meet Again~ Part. 2
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~~~"FAITH"~~~Increase our faith so we may seeWhat you’re doing in our livesAnd all that we’ll accomplish in youSo our faith begins to riseWe need to be reminded, Lord,Of the small mustard seedAnd how the same amount of faithMoves mountains if we believeAs we walk in pure obedienceWith confidence in you,Our faith begins to grow and flourishBearing more abundant fruitWe must go beyond the limitsOf our comfort zones,Our faith is activated at those timesWhen we walk into the unknownFor it’s when the safety net is gone,We realize we need our Lord,When there’s nothing left to fall back on,We must lean on God much moreAnd faith is released in our heartsAs we bend our knee to pray;We shall be strengthened as we walkAnd commit to Him each day." ~MEGAN~

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If i could choose to live my life there'll be no if's to say if i would choose to hold ur hand there'll be no words to say without thought without pride leave the things that see to weaken us without fear without lies let the magic turn ur life aroundif i would choose to touch u there would u touch me there too if u would choose to stay with me i'll spend my life with u without thought without pride leave the things that seem to weaken us without fear leave ur lies let the magic turn ur life around -ael- 09/25/2012

To Love...
I feel like I failed at relationships over my life. Loving someone is difficult and even more difficult when its not returned or if they shut you out. It hurts to be lied to and I feel like a fool if I believed what was said to me. I am broken because I trust with everything in my being that things will be good if someone says that things will be good. I never expected to be where I am at in this point in my life. I love to plan things in advance so things go smoothly for me. You can not plan love though. I want more then just a simple piece of paper saying I am devoted to someone. I want more then a relationship based on sex. I want to be able to sit and have a conversation about things we like and where we want to be in the future. I want someone to hold me and tell me things will be ok when I am weak. I want to be able to hold someone when he isn't feeling strong. I want to be able to cuddle up together for a movie or to watch t.v. or to sit and talk about just everything we have go

14 Signs Your Online Relationship Isn't Working Out
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People Chasing Waterfalls
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Mit android tablet, ich glaube, ich havent jede langweilige Zeit nicht mehr. Jeden Morgen auf der U-Bahn kann ich im Internet surfen und Musik hören oder lesen E-Bücher, das ist wirklich die langweilige Zeit interessanter und angenehmer. Wenn ich gehe auf Reisen oder müde von Arbeit, kann ich spielen Tonnen interessante Spiele und Anwendungen jederzeit ich will. Ich brauche meine sperrigen Laptop mehr mit mir zu nehmen, weil es laufen die meisten täglich mit softwares.When ich Filme, Ich fühle mich wirklich entspannen keine Freude. Mit 9,7-Zoll-IPS-Touchscreen und Maximale Auflösung 1024x768, werden Sie exquisite Bild, glatte Linien, lebendige Figuren und Tönen Gebäuden und Anlagen hat sich mit Farbe und life.With die mächtigste und beliebte Android 2.2 OS genießen, genießen Sie alle Anwendungen ( Spiele wie Angry Birds und Fruit Ninja und Anwendungen wie Facebook, eBay, MSN) aus dem Android Market für free.In ein Wort, das eine hohe Leistung Tablet PC ist, glaube ich, dieses Produkt k

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Endlich, nach einer Woche der Vorfreude bekommen wir endlich einen Blick auf Jessica Biel hochzeitskleider, das sie am 19. Oktober trug, wenn sie in einer italienischen Hochzeit in ihrem Hochzeitsalbum in People Magazin veröffentlicht Justin Timberlake heiraten. Jetzt als Mrs. Timberlake bekannt, ging Jessica gegen die traditionell getragen weißen Kleid und entschied sich für eine schöne rosa Konfektion von Giambattista Valli erstellt. Viel spekuliert wurde, wer der Designer ihr Hochzeitskleid würde von langjährigen Lieblings-Designer Oscar de la Renta Elie Saab dessen Laden Jessica wurde am Anfang dieses Jahres zu sehen sein, gegeben. Am Ende ging Jessica mit langjähriger Freund und Designer Giambattista Valli. Das Kleid, ein Brauch, Kreation für die Braut war eine schöne rosa trägerlosen Kleid. Die Farbe war nicht eine weiche Schatten erröten Pinkl noch war es ein widerlich pepto rosa, aber ein Schatten von rosa für die Gleichen von Rosen vorbehalten. Das Kleid war eine Kombination

Poetry
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Passion Embrace
PASSION EMBRACE In the dark of the night You come to me. I am heavy with sleep As you slide your body Behind mine. I shift and sigh, Settling in to your curves As you fit yourself to me Under cover of night And warm blankets. Slowly I awaken. Every cell aware of your presence. I breathe you in, Your scent, Your warmth, Your touch. My mind floats on clouds of Aroused awareness. As your hands explore My curves, My body awakens further. My nipples tighten With anticipation. My thighs flex, And my pelvic floor contracts With a rhythmic pulsing that matches The beat of my heart. I press into you, Feeling you hard against me. I open slightly in Invitation. I am moist with longing. My breath catches In my throat. Your fingers graze my nipples and I Arch and gasp in response. Your hand explores ever lower, Enslaving me with its power To bring pleasure. I am fully awake now. Awake and hungry. My body is taut with longing

Go To Hell....
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Then Again.....no Wait, Maybe Not
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To You And You...and Even You Too!!
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Good Till The Last Drop
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Offer Still Stands
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No, No, No Not Now
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Hi, I took and figured; guess I was right. Just a few days here or just a few weeks there, could be no one would notice. I missed a few days, don't even fully feel like I did. Sometimes its like the days run into eachother. The activity in my brain doesn't slow down. Once in a while I am very thankful, ever since people started seeing me as a mental mistake. I am not that bad. I am not a vegetable or invalid. I have taken time to realise how people see me to the point of just wanting to ignore me. I even am not so sure that I want to be alive 100% of the time. I know that its no ones fault except mine. It is in how I take things. I want to think that I am stronger. Kinda like love is a battlefield. It really is and I am not into hurting anyone. That means I am weak and the strong don't usually want the weak. Its the safest place to be for now. I want more strength but I am not ready. I am not sure how long I have to wait until I no longer walk alone and until I can trust anyone aga

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Sharayah - Amy Grant
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Yeah, Its 1-30-13
Hey I will be going to the doctor today. I need to get seen again in order to get a back brace and a tens unit. I would like to maybe suggest a cane too. Its alot easier than taking my walker everywhere. I realise there are somethings I don't come out and admit to, but I never lie. I just know when to keep my mouth shut. I am sorry if finding out any information about me, scares you away. I am still human, just not Wonder Woman. In the long run I accept anyone. We were put down here to get along with eachother not live in anger. Y'all can decide either way, its up to you. As the close arrives to the first month of the new year gets close, I am glad mostly for the choices I have made and the earth surviving to see another year that alot of people thought we would never see. Take care!!

Its Not Me
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Shave And A Haircut....2 Bits!
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So Many Down.....
So many down... Today my daughter turns twenty. Some sweet memories and some not so sweet. I can't complain, everything happened as it should have happened. If she hadn't entered my life when she did, I damn well know that something would be missing. I might have started settling in North Dakota. Don't worry, I know that's crazy. I have been with some men, but nothing steady. Even if it is better than going without, I am thinking that none of them ever deserved me. To have lived a rather poor life most of my life. I am no stranger to begging. I am not cursed with an ego or vanity. I want to be a lady, but maybe that is why I can't. I have no rich daddy, my daddy died when I was 16. I have troubles working, because my legs are weak. I have only brought two kids into this world. Raised them with no father figure. Nothing went that awfully wrong while I grew up. I know you are suppose to finish high school and get married before or after college. I am just not as well off as most.

Sole Writer Of This Joke
i put a lot of pressure on myself probably more than i deserve i know the me i tend to be im fucked without restraint maybe i should take a break allow myself to breathe but i feel the more i suffocate the better off you’ll be for if let loose i shall devour and destroy all you have rebuilt i’d poison the seed and turn sweet wine sour i’ll don a cloak, no remorse no guilt i’ll engulf and swallow up any good i might have done i’d be a tidal wave of thorns in the side of all mankind i would offer up as sacrifice the battles i have won i would pluck these eyes of insight ensuring i be blind i’d never worry about the feelings someone else might feel i would trample their emotions yes, their essence i would kill so you see it is self discipline

Something Different
Baby oh, baby I am just not, the kind of girl that shouts "I'm HOT". But baby I know I hold heat, a kind you just can't fucking beat. Its so hot, it keeps me warm, it is a vacant, well heated dorm. I am not looking, still on hold, I will wait, don't worry, I won't get cold. The whole me is for just you, when we are one, us two, perfection will live on and grow, everyday will be right just feel me and you will know. This fever I have is in me, all over is something different, don't you see. to aid in making everyday complete, something different has left me soft and in heat.

The Propensity Toward Inertia...
i am either stuck in a rutor i cant get over this humpi can't tell the differencewhich really doesn't make much senseeither way i'm completely stalledno motion at all, i can't even crawlhow do i get myself out of this jam?do i just remain as i am?do i not give a damn?exactly where do i goif i don't even knowwhich way is up and which way is down?i can't tell the difference twixt a smile and a frownit's frustrating to travel from so very farto find myself trapped like a fly in a jarto not know which way to turnfrom all these things that i yearni never knew this road had such a high costnor that i'd end up stuck or just losti'm desperately in need of somethinglike a roadmap for which to clingor one signpost to say"hey fucker you're stuck and you've gone the wrong way"

Sorry, I Can't
If I should just give up, it would be the wrong time to do so. Our destiny is waiting just around another corner. It isn't that far away. If you can sit there and plan for tomorrow or sit and day dream about the summer while its like winter outside, something deep in your soul can imagine what you hope happens in our destiny. I can and will dream on up till and way past my last fubuck, up till and way past my last breath. My dreaming and hoping won't cease to dance just because of death. Ever get that feeling something isn't right?? Ever question anything in this whole wide world?? Course you do , its a little hard to believe anyone would just accept everything. If you do, you aren't ready to believe that you could make a more beautiful minute, hour or day. We all can make magic happen. We all can create a good feeling in each and every person, even the ones we don't know. The world may just continue to turn for a long time, it may just stop in a few years. I heard many times to liv

Help With Leveling
Ok, I'm going to rant and rave on this one which is why I marked it NSFW. I find it real funny that all the people on here ask for help to level up. I have been asking for help now for the last week to get a simple acheivement completed. I need to be added to families to complete this acheivment. I have helped plenty of you that I don't know to help level but yet when I ask for help with something, I go un-noticed. This is very upsetting when I see others that have kind of the same achievment, be added to families but at a higher level such as they need 250 new family adds. I only need 25, i've already gotten 11. I have been asking for help for over a week. Everyone else who needs help getting family adds that need like 250 of them ususally get them in a day or two.... What gives? This is the kind of treatment that turns people away from this site. I have been a memeber for years and have nvver felt like I really exist on this site. I'm almost to the point where I am going to delete m

"is She Easy To Please?
with a pop his dick was standing erect again. Without words her turned his body around and mounted her. in one movement he slid all the way inside her well- lubricated pussy. and then fury overtook them both. they were riding a wave and it was going to break soon. He pounded ferociously but nothing was too much for Denise. she stuck her finger in his ass hole and groaned, "Give it all to me. I can take it. I want all your come baby. The overture was almost over. with each thrust he seemed to move further into her body. his balls bounced gently against her ass and her round breasts were buried beneath his massive chest. both bodies moved as one now, hips undulating to their own rhythm, far more passionate than the orchestra's "god, you're making me fly. i can't fight it back. I'm coming now. fuck me harder. Harder. i want it all." And he gave it. his cum went shooting into her like a series of liquified bullits, round after round his dick creamed it all into her. Denise's pu

Tentative Duress...
i've been fighting this lonely battlethat no one else can seei'm no closer to hearing that dying rattleof the ugly part of mei still struggle with temptationthat is whispered with a kissi've crossed the threshold of exasperationi can't take much more of thisi feel myself grow weaker ever more and every dayi am haunted by an unseen seekerthat will not go awayi find myself thinking of a lifeone i might have missedmaybe someone dropped a hinti sure didn't get the gistso i pissed it all awayit came too fast and ran it's coursei never had a chance to examine the sourcei must be blindit stood right before my eyesand i let it slip awaythe earth is dry, the sky is spentthere is no chance that i can repenti beheld a golden seasoni stood spellbound in it's warmthnow for all my treasoni lie engulfed within a swarmof whispers and of guiltthis house of sorrow i have builtit's full of shame and stakes it's claimon a throne of bitter blameit's what i face each passing dayit fuckin' will not go away

More Of My Story
Denise was on her way out one day when her girlfriend said "hey denise, stop for a second will ya?" Denise turned around stunned that she was there and recognized Jill, the girl lived below her. "Hi Jill i'm going to find a restaurant. Can you suggest one? Something nearby but different." She had no idea if Jill would get her meaning. hey you seem a little different yourself since i met you. Is anything wrong? I really meant it when i said just knock if you need anything.' "No, i'm feeling fine. really. i'm just hungry." she wondered if her recent decision was that obvious. "Okay Denise, i was gonna invite you over for a meal but we can do that some other night. try the true love restaurant around the corner. some nights it really moves. /and the food is always good. "thanks a lot, Jill and denise was on her way. but when she got there Denise was disappointed to find she was literally the only customer. /no one else was in the place aside from the waiterss, who doubled as c

Sometimes, Maybe Barely...
i kinda wish life was a little more like magici could just snap my fingersand all this shit would disappeari wouldn't have to spend my timerunning through the havoci could find myself like a sea at dawncalm and crystal clearanytime my thoughts would bring me underneath the weatheri could wish for some protectionlike a raincoat for my braini would find it easier to pull myself togetheri could wish for all that's meloncholicto find itself restrainedanytime my legs felt wearylike they couldn't hold me upi could snatch another pairfrom what appeared to be thin airi could drink the fine elixirfrom the goldest of all cupsi could sprout wings to fly awayfrom all these burdens that i beari could finally wish awayall the mistakes that i have madei could finally live my live like a portrait pleasantlyi could hold aloft my armsand let the sunlight never fadei could live my life unscarrednot so fuckin' cowardly

She Is Oh So Special...
in all my life, i've only once thought these thingsi can't ever be close to anyonei don't ever feel the need to clingbut now i see a picture, and the earth revolves around the sunnot even once have i said this thing beforei have never wanted to try so hardin light of that, it means so much moreand so much more my senses jarredi will tell you head to toei will tell you heart and soulas the moon wax and wanesi find myself not new but changedi have opened myself to newer portalsand seen the dawn a continent awaysuddenly, i feel that i am immortali can't keep your image at bayi'll never know the reason whyi still don't read between the linesbut it's all those things i know you'd dothat have me wrapped inside of you

'why Three In A Bed Isn't A Crowd' - The Polyamorous Trio
For the record, our Rayna is gorgeous! She is, indeed, absolutely fabulous! ---- When Sylvia's husband said he wanted to become a woman, she stayed with him. But then Zoe, formerly a married man, joined the relationship Patrick Barkham The Guardian, Saturday 20 April 2013 Zoe O'Connell, left, Sarah Brown, centre, and Sylvia Knight, who live together in a polyamorous relationship. Photograph: Sarah Lee for the Guardian Like many students, the shy boy who studied computer science got drunk in the college bar with a girl from the year below. They snogged and – sharing a love of photography, computers and cups of tea – fell in love. Six years later, they married. A few years on, however, and this everyday story turned in an unexpected direction when the young man's hair began to thin. "That was the point I was no longer able to be in denial – time was catching up, testosterone was catching up. I had visions of myself as an old man sitting

I Have Been Here Before
Haven't you?? I know you have, its almost like deja-vu. Spring has sprung, you have the birds and the haters, both drop shit everywhere. I am not gonna let myself drop to their level this year. There is a brighter horizon for me. I can't say, I will just go and forget, because I won't. I even love those that hate me. I am like my nickname and this angel won't strike back. Whoever ruined their cheery day wasn't me. I haven't even tried to fuel their awfulness. It is just their chosen way. On to bigger and better things, Mother's Day is coming and my son's birthday is the day before. He will be thirteen and my daughter is twenty. Yeah, that sounds about right lucky seven years apart.** My daughter told me, for some reason, everytime she put money down on my Mother's Day gift. I am almost sure I will love it. If she didn't love dragons, I would be more sure.**My enter key decided to rest so I improvised.** I'm gonna close for now. Remember to always ask before you tak

No Stranger To Pain
Into a guarded heart he saunters as it wonders what he ponders While miles away she stands alone a Princess of stone atop her throne Fear of what she does not speak "What do you seek" she asks quite meek A soul searching for its reflection longs for perfection in such sweet affection This man who presents a certain allure Tragedies cure with a look so demure Pleading with the fickle stars above For a taste thereof this torturous love Copyright 2013 Ella Valentine

With The Currents
Undulating emotions Days of ups, Days of downs Seeing all too clearly and yet not at all Content in this Happiness Headstrong, Unbreakable But a silent fear and sadness beneath Fear of Failure Fear of Loss Sadness for all that was given up Missing it in quiet moments Not grieving, not angry Simply learning to live again Feel the waves of up and down But hold tight to the center The reality that surrounds This is the Life... Copyright 2012 Ella Valentine

Its You I Found
Oh baby, you are so into only me I'm so into only you, Do ya know?? do ya know what I want to do?? We have just alittle alittle time to make fun, Come on savage lets get this done. Make a wish slide it in, We make us cry as we start to sin. Babe you feel so right this can not be wrong, We are in a warm bed and I have needed you for so long. I have thought ever since we met, its only you I want to make me wet. F.U.C.K. fits on the four leaf clover, and I wish for you 2B who I see in the morning when I roll over. I searched its you I found, on any ole level,

Getting Stronger
I just went and turned my key in, I gave my broken garage key to management. Here is what I don't fully grasp. My son, who is only 13 now, goes to put away his bike. Sticking the key in the lock, he goes to turn the key and it breaks. Either he was frustrated and had a burst of energy or the keys of today are getting weaker. By his show of strength, I will feel more protected when he is home alone with me. Guess that means I don't need anyone to protect me anymore. I don't need anyone to keep me warm in bed either, we have a large white cat and a smaller orange one. Fluffy Gem keeps my head warm, he gets most of the pillow above my head. Sparta sleeps by my feet, perfection is not so distant. Having someone to talk with is just something all together different. I don't mind not having to share my covers, but someone to hold me and have morning coffee with would be nice. I still haven't cleaned the blinds. According to my 20 yr. old daughter, management won't take the down so I clean

More Isn't Right, All The Time
Okay, alright maybe I can't change the world overnight. I accept that. This site, for starters, is what I am targeting as we speak. Seems small but it is getting bigger everyday. There is more than enough people that don't even bother to grasp the concept. I ain't by no means asking the gamers to grow a brain, just to realise that when they count all the gamers there are others that don't play. For all the mummers, there are those that get despaired from your cruelty. Take a rain check, there is no need to be an ass wipe outside the bathroom. Not to mention how your actions are like the actions of a child. Last I checked children weren't allowed on here. You were new at one time. Did you get on this site just to see if you could swim?? I ask everyone to stay safe, but I can't handle all the same treatment you need to be handed. I am not miss perfect, but I have a heart. How many of you can claim the same?? If you unleash terrible feeling in the mumms, you sure has hell can't, by any s

From The Twilight To The Morning Light...
too soon and we must departand it rips a fragment from my heartthere are so many things that i still want to saybut there are not enough hours in the dayhow i wish that we could lingerand join hands and entwine our fingersand whisper softly to each one anotherthere will never be no otherand to have our eyes hold the other's stareand know there was no other carenot a doubt inside our fragile mindsthat we were meant to be two in kindthat from the moment that we first metwe knew this day in stone was setand in our hearts we saw it clear as glassthis love's our token, it shall not pass

Something I Can Never Have - Nine Inch Nails
I still recall the taste of your tears. Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears. My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore. Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore. [Chorus:]You make this all go away. You make this all go away. I'm down to just one thing. And I'm starting to scare myself. You make this all go away. You make this all go away. I just want something. I just want something I can never have You always were the one to show me how Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now. This thing is slowly taking me apart. Grey would be the color if I had a heart.Come on tell me [Chorus] In this place it seems like such a shame. Though it all looks different now, I know it's still the same Everywhere I look you're all I see. Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.Come on tell me [Chorus] I just want something I can never have

A Ringing Bell
And from the distance, I heard a bell ringing.The sound was soft, and danced upon the wind to my ears.I felt pulled toward it, and so I followed blindly.I stood within a chasm, deeply dug with no obvious way up.But still the bell rang,as if it was calling me.I braved the jagged rock, the moist, slippery soil, and climbed out.I looked back within the chasm, and saw what I overcame.There it was again, the bell, bidding me to come, begging me to arrive.My legs battered and bruised, my heart heavy and broken.I ran unknowing of my destination,I passed through seasons, blurring by my eyes.But I knew I had to go, my arrival was important.The bell still rings, I must find it whatever the costs may be.And then I see, clearly, there was no bell.Just the sound of you weeping, and the feeling of your heart breaking.But I am here for you now, I love you.

Dark Thoughts & Emotions
Sometimes I just want to dig a very big, deep, dark hole... and throw myself into it..then just forget I exist... I guess it wouldn't any different from the emotional turmoil I now am in and I can't blame anyone for it, its just got to be my fault...it always is in the end... I once gave everything I had to give, and that turned out to just be love.. but love was not enough... it never was, though at the time they said it was... until...I gave up... but how many tears will have to shed to make it better? and how many tears would make it okay again? or how many promises would need to be broken... before it was them saying 'we're through'? And even if those words never passed through their lips.. and the unhappiness continued to grow... when things get so distorted and lies become truth... then what would have happened to me? to them? but they say that I am running when times get tough... and I explained so many times, I didn't run anywhere.. I walked peacefully to freedom... freed

There Goessssssssssssssssssssssssssssss Another Rat Traitor To America Which Steroids He Takes Won't Help Him,,,keep Going Your Doing Great
She don't even want to do fukn nothing right by choice but I stick to the script no matter how false she is or has been,,one true heart and true to America canfollow the worst situation & pcik up the trash to bag up teh true evil & trash that has done wrong,,,Keep going the lion is hungry,,Anotehr fukn rattttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt lets get it.... http://youtu.be/uEC3s9c3EYQ

Hide.
I sit here, tears streaming down my face....I don't know why ....and yet I do..my brain is so muddled with thoughts..so frustrated and unfocused ...I can't concentrate on just one......thought, that is..and I just want the problems to disappear...all the things we must endure..to find that peace and happiness that...I have waited most my life to find...I miss some things as they once were...I miss so much sometimes...I don't know what to feel ...and yes I know that's odd, for me...I feel crazy...and insane...I feel like some days I'd be better off..locked away...away from the thoughts that drive me to ..that place deep inside where I feel so ...ugly...miserable...disgusting...ashamed...fustrated..horrible..cruel.....spiteful...jealous....I saw somewhere once...a girl said..I don't want to die....but I'm so fucking tired of living...and I add...tired of living this way...tired of feeling the pain...that I cannot block out..I miss you, and you, and you, and you...I miss so many close to

The Beast
my feet, on the ground, I'm running in slow motion..I'm trying to get away, but no matter how hard I try to move faster, the slower I go. I'm tired, the weight of the world on my shoulders..I know I must go on, keep pushing forward, the gates are in view, yet there's something chasing me.It's angry, mean and vicious..I can hear it growling, the heat of it's breath on my heels.Nipping at my ankles, "Don't turn around" I hear myself say again and again.I move closer to the gate, it's locked and I don't have the key..I'm searching my pockets, but I know they are empty. My loved ones holding on so dearly to the iron bars, and they are screaming, pointing behind me..Never making it to the gate...I see their faces contorted with terror,as the beast finally engulfs and attacks its prey..my heart is racing as I try to run still..The world goes cloudy then black, and I sit up in my bed nearly screaming, barely whimpering..I ache, all over, and fall back to pillows, tears run down my faceas I cl

Hope
a candle in the distance...careful steps guide me there..sitting on a window sillin the dark of night..I know not what guides me but this light won't extinguishhope will keep it burning...through this night that I must face..

Not So Tongue In Cheek...
i'm a worm inside of a treei'm a sucker for philosophyi'm not happy, i'm freeyes i know i'm diseasedi am worthless, i'm mei'm an actor who puts on a facei am eating off the dirtiest platei'm unhappy, i hateoh i know it's my fatei am worthless, that's greati'm a poison inside her mindshe pretends to see through eyes that are blindi am never happy with liesand she obstructs my climbi am worthless, that's finei am naked, i haven't a shirtmy soul just breathes to be hurti'm still unhappy, i chirpyes i know she comes firsti am worthless, i'm dirt

Answers For Those That Have Asked Me About A Fantasy Fest Vs. Hedonism Ii Resort Vacation/holiday
Hi there....Here's a question I get asked frequently especially around the time of my Annual June Group Trip to Hedonism II resort in Negril, Jamaica. How and why can I afford to go to Hedo in June when Fantasy Fest in Key West, Florida every October is less expensive (or so I think)? Let me say this and state some facts, figures, details so that you can draw your own conclusions. I would say, and many FantasyFesters in my group would confirm, that Hedo is less expensive for a week vs. FF and offers both more freedom and more options for the travel dollar and time. And let me add: Either choice is the right one as both should be on everyone's "bucketlist". NOTE: I have been to FF 11 times since 1999 and Hedo 8 times since 2006. The biggest cost for either trip are room rates and for the 7th Annual Hedo Group Trip trip next month nightly rates start at US $139 per person, per night, double occupancy or $278 per room per night. Many rooms go more per night in Key West during FF wee

My Past (the Looking Glass)
the footprints that i've left behindare unswept from my mindthe picture's as clear as it ever wasi know all of this becausei am haunted by the visionsof all that has come to passmy mind still sees the imageas though the present were the pasti hear footfalls instead of echoesas though a specter walked behind mei have this feeling that i can't let gothough it begs me to be freei feel a fragile whispertickling against my eari fight against an ice cold shiveras i sense the shadow nearthe silence starts to call my namehow strange this foreign soundthe laughter's never quite the sameas it is when you're aroundi feel a tugging pulling at my eyesi see the specter like a rage ablazeshe circles twice as though to gauge my sizethen returns a burning gaze

Whistling To The Tune Of You...
my voice is an instrument that i use to sing to youwhistling silent whispers, something like a tunehow i plant these thoughts, and embed them in my mindoh, i'm thinking softly, i dream we dine with winei used to restrain my tears and bury them in my soulbut now the current is in motion, and you have sewn up the holei am not encompassed by my troublesnor bothered by my worriesi take my time and act deliberateno longer through this life i scurrywhere ballads once were sadthey have new timing and new beatthere is joy behind my laughterand a feather beneath my feeti was never fond of heartachebut it seems as though my fatei've been swallowed in emotionsmost of them are hatenow i whistle winds of rapturemy mind oft to think of youunsilent whispers that i captureand it is you who called the tune

The Goodness Will Come If You Can Wait
1, 2, 3, 4, should I start off where I ended before?? Nah, it is a new day. I would like to say that things are great, but that would be a lie and I find it very hard to lie. Sometimes I wish others were like that. I need to tell you when I ask that much from people, they get down right mean. I didn't fricking say it was time to get rude. If I said 'don't tell me any lies', would you take that has me saying 'I want you to do your best to make me hate you'?? If people can't be nice without trying to be, then they are not someone I want in my life. Somedays I am strong and somedays I'm not. I ain't gonna figure that you know what I am on each and every given day. If I leave a note here, in this blog, about how today is. It is simple and 1, 2, 3, don't tick me off and don't even think about pissing me off. Maybe just to be curtious, just know you have been given a clue. I am not usually the type that is on the rag all the time. This is just to let you know, for some damn reason that is

Pain And Reality
Pain and Reality: How do you differ the pain of reality from the pain of the mind, I wish I could. Sometimes the pain of the mind overwrites any pain inflicted upon the body. Sometimes it just feels better to self inflict the pain so the mind can rest, so that there is a moment of distraction, a moment of clarity. But then the moment is gone, and it returns. The questions the thoughts, the need to self inflict pain rises again, filling every thought, every notion of common sense is overwritten by a single thought “you need to die” so again pain must be inflicted, be it emotional or physical their must be another moment of clarity, a semblance of peace, a moment of lucidity. So where is the voice of reason? The voice that says you are not to do this, you are not suppose to feel this way, you are not supposed to live with constant pain? What would the rest of the world do? What would you do for a moment of clarity? A moment where you can feel yourself? Without thoughts

Complete & Utter Bullshit
So, I attend the Art Institue of Pittsburgh online division. Things have been going well for the last year and a half. Then At the beginning of this class I find out that my financial aid counselor was changed, and right now I can honeslty say that I can't stand her. I have emailed her & called her 4x about a balance -a credit - on my account and why in the hell payments are still being taken when I don't owe any money & she has not gotten back to me. It's been 4 WEEKS! I have never had a problem with emails or phone calls beign returned within 24 hours, but this woman isn't doing jack! This pisses me me off so much because I have to make an emergency trip to North Carolina this Saturday to pick up my son. He went down there with a friend and has pretty much been left to fend for himself - some fucking friend! He called me yesterday saying he wants to come home - yes, he is 21, but damn it to hell, he is my kid and I'm going to get him back home. Unfortunately it has to wait until S

The Massage - Part Two
. . . She holds her breath, waiting and ever so slightly raises her hips letting me know that she wants to be touched.Slowly and ever so lightly I touch that little piece of sensitive skin the bridges her openings with a thumb. The thumb itself is slightly slick from the massage oil so it easily glides over her anus as I stroke upward up to her cheek with my right thumb. My left thumb immediately replaces the right, doing the same motion again. I alternate my thumbs several more times, each stroke dropping down a little further so that that the building moisture from her glistening pussy lubricates the thumb pad as it journeys upwards. She lifts her hips again, pressing my alternating thumbs deeper between her now very wet labia and also so they firmly press her tight anus. Her breathing is becoming shallow again and so I turn my right hand slightly, place my thumb lightly on her clit and make slow firm circles. Her breath catches and then she exhales deeply as I slide that thumb i

I'm Found
Soon I won't care so much, I felt the power within the heated touch. I thought I knew if you could care, but not this time the heat that wasn't there. Another ride on the fricken horse, another bump and tumble righteously of fucking course. So what if you decided when it was done, all women mean so little in the morning I was the lonely one. Just when I think I have it figured out, again a new mystery enters and a memory causes doubt. Maybe it is better to be alone, my heart won't harden I don't break what is my own. When I'm found out in the rain, no one can hear me dieing in the pain. The thunder may roll, another strike is coming and finally, I'm found in control.

I Am Kinda Ready
Alright there are no blisters or any kind of peeling going on. There is still pain in my shoulder area, but I have counted my blessings and I know how lucky I am. I need to get a bit of sun on my left wrist and hand, I was wearing my splint on my left wrist because of spraining it the day before I got the the sunburn. So yeah, I got a white left hand and a burned right hand. Don't try to even complain, nobody is perfect. I won't ever claim that I am. I am still trying to get use to using my right hand more. Its funny, through most of high school I used my right hand dominately. I sometimes used it accidently before I sprained my left hand. It takes a little longer to write and type with it. Maybe all of this is my right hands way of saying "I want back in active mode", maybe not.

I Do Try
I keep on asking myself, why do I even try?? I mean, I know not everyone is subscribed to my blogs. Some people see my posts and like me for points, that is okay. This is just a game and I understand that. Come on though, I only need 17 family adds from demons. Now I happen to know there are some of my friends, that are demons, online when I am that could add me for like a day. I am not interested in your nsfw. That as never been why I visit Fubar!! I happen to know, that you all know I can't read minds and some of you know I don't want to be able. This is a socal site. I am pretty sure that means that we can socialize here. I don't want to have to offer a reward to get into anyones family. Please, don't go and think that I am hoping that we can become REAL close and start sharing MORE. I do know this is just a computer site and everyone just might not want to admit to the world that you even know a little about me, but still. I haven't got bling pacs or credits I can just throw aroun

" I Caught My Wife Cheating" Cont
I watched as his hands reached up and cupped Vanessa's breasts. his fingers pulling and pinching her nipples. her hands were on his head, her fingers running through his hair as she pushed his face deeper into her pussy. Her breathing was so heavy, her moaning now coming with every breath. I after all, i listened to her moan like that almost every other day. I was mesmerized. Here was my wife, laying on our bed, having her pussy eaten by some atranger. And suddenly i realized that i was turned on. Like i've said, i've never even thought about Vanessa fucking another guy. i was so absolutely convined that she would never do aything like that to me. And yet, now that it was happening, i realized that i no longer felt anger, betral, hurt, or any other negative emotions. I was getting turned on! My dick was growing as i watched this guy eat my wife's pussy!

I Have To Land
Dreams may come and go, I hope this one stays even if I find out it won't though. I have so much power in my pen, it allows me to feel better even if I hurt again and again. In my written word, you are next to me even when nothing is heard. Someday nothing will be the same, all of it can and will change I hope you will remember my name. I won't expect you to ever change, that wouldn't be right stay gold, as you carefully arrange. You are someone else's lucky doll, we just weren't meant to be a felt and heard eternal call. When I dream, you hold my hand, and my heart when I wake again, I have to land. we touch and your so kind, I want to dream but I have to land and hope I can rewind.

"the Next Day At Work"
Wtih that, i started the bike and we jumped on andheaded down the street with the roar of the engine echoing through our ears. As we headed down the opend road, we said very little. Not that you can't talk on the bike. ?you do have to yell, but it is possible to have a converstion. It just seemed like talking wasn't necessary at that point. I was enjoying the feel of the bike and the fel of the woman with her legs wrapped around me. Her arms were wrapped loosely around my waist, and i couldn't help but fantasize about them moving lower. thr bike vibrated with each twist of the throttle, and i wonderd what it fetl like for her. Was she any where near being as turned on as me? I Knew How Vanessa felt after a long ride. She showed me many times Her pussy would be soaked by the end of an hour long ride. she said the vibration of the bike did wonders to her body. Many times she would reach down and rub my dick as we rode the highway. Was Bianca experiencing the same thing?

"the Next Day At Work"
What would those incredible lips feel like wrapped around my shaft? I don't know why, but i was sure that she would give an incredible blojob. She just seemed like she had the perfect lips for sucking dick. I found myself getting lost in the idea of this beautiful French vixen on her knees as i stood before her with my dick pointing out tward her, full red lips and took in my rard tool. Slowly it disappeared inside that hot mouth, her eyes closing as she too ne in as far as she could. Her tongue flicking and sliding around the shaft as her lips closed around it. Then slowly at first, she would began to suck. Moving her head back and forth, taking me out right to the tip of the head before sliding me back in as far as possible. Soon my hips would began to help, and i would began to pump as i enjoyed fucking her mouth. I thought of what it would be like to explode inside that lovely mouth. Would she swallow my cum. Does she enjoy that kind of thing? I sure hoped so.

Never Will Be
This is how it is and always will be, I don't visualize any sort of beauty. in myself, I see beauty in some other souls, but it skipped me the mule and none of the foals. When I look in a mirror, I am not totally sad, but there isn't sexiness only too bad. When I write, it is to my destiny, to someone that I can't see. I will never look upon a frown, or any laughing clown. it doesn't ever get upset, or know me as a regret. I never wanted to love just me, more than any other #1 I never felt I could never be. Being stuck up was what I feared, so much I the joy I share means a burden in me is cleared. Please understand as I try to tell. what is and never will be, is me escaping my own private hell.

"the Next Day At Work"
She was the first to cum. She began to buck on my face a i finger fucked her ass while my tongue flicked at her clit. Her moans muffled by Bianca's mouth locked on her mouth. I pumped my hand harder as i felt her pussy lips tighten on my mouth. As she came, she literally squirted her juices deep into my mouth. I dranked her up as her pussy shuddered on my lips. Myria reached down and bagan to play with bianca's clit as she rode my dick. She squeezed and pulled at her pussy as my dick moved in and out of her. I felt her began to tighten and it was too much for me. I grunted as my dick started to swell for a second time and i exploded my load dep in side of her. As soon as my cun hit the walls of her pussy, bianca began her own orgasm, moaning loudly as her pussy tightened even more around my dick. Later the girls lay down beside me, one one each side. I wrapped my arms around them, and we cuddled for the longest time. Finally, i told them i had to get going. i jumped in

Overcastskies And Downcast Eyes...
distance overshadows everythingthere is no trace of strength to findmy body lacks the courageto keep itself in stridemy mind feels dehydratedlike a land not soaked by droughtmy soul gave birth the questionthat time turned into doubtmy essence feels unnourishedlike a nation beset with faminethe serene is phalanx'd by the nervishthe complete is reduced to fragmentthe clouds hang lowand darken up the skyhowever soft, it's not a gentle blowand the sky opens up to crythe deluge that is my tormentis like a stone upon my soulall the former that had lain dormantis beyond all of my controli am swallowed up in feelingsfrom a time so long agoi chance a glance up toward the ceilingfrom the floor beyond belowthe destined is never destinedif it's not the place you thought you'd endthe questioned remains a questionif the thought did not begin

Things As They Be
Independence Day, the day this country formed and declared their independence from an over reaching and smothering overlord.....and now on this independence day, i see far to many similarities between England of 1776 and our own government....our mail is scanned and post marks recorded, our electronic communications are recorded....the government gives us no answers about Benghazi, the I.R.S. to name two, the president says the same thing....there will be an investigation and if something is broken we will fix it, whats been fixed? Why is every department "broken"Why does the government shove anything "green" down our collective throats? and why, WHY can the surpeme court be allowed to overturn the vote of the people of California? When will they start overturning election results? I haven't even mentioned healthcare....the founding fathers would be grabbing their guns

"my Trip For My Job"
Then it was her turn. She told me how she had been married for about seven years to a very wonderful man. She loved him deeply. She was from a very religious family, and her husband was a deacon in their church. As a result, he was very straight and conservative. He believed that she was to be submissive to him at all times, and that sex was for procreation only. Their sex life was pretty much nonexistent. Once a week, on Saturday night, he would come up to bed, pull off his pajamas, lay down on top of her, enter her dry pussy, and pump for about a minute until he got off. He would then get up, take out a facecloth, wipe himself off, pull up his pajamas, and be asleep within ten minutes. She would wait until he was sound asleep, and then get up and go into the living room, where she would masturbate usuing a cucumber, biting her lip as she came so that he wouldn't hear what she was doing. a year ago she had her first affair and justified it as being "just sex." she had enjoyed a c

"my Trip For My Job"
Emily went on to tell me that she had decided that this trip was the perfect opportinity to meet some one from another city for a week of hard, wild intense sex. She had decided she wasn't going to waste thek by being shy, but that once she met someone, she was going to make her intensions clear, ensuring that they would enjoy each other every night of the week. The only requirement she had for the person she would fuck all week long was that he had to be married like she was. The reason, she explained, was that she did not want some single guy to enjoy being with her so much that he fell in love. The last thing she needed was some guy wanting more from the relationship than just the physical part. There was no way she would leave her husband, and she had no interest in being emotionally involved with someone else. She just wanted someone to fufill her needs. Period.

"my Trip For My Job"
As she continued to talk, i kicked off my shoe and began to move my foot up her leg. Her breathing quickened as she parted her legs slightly to allow my foot to continue its movement up her leg. She was wearing a short skirt, and my foot disappeared under the material. He legs opened a little wider. soon my foot found its destination, and i discovered she didn't have any panties on. My foot began to slide up and down her pussy, my sock becoming moist with her juices. Emily for her wine and took a large gulp of the liquid. her face was a little flushed as she focused her eyes on mine. My big toe was deep inside her, and i continued to wiggle my foot, causing her to move from side to side. At that moment, our waiter approached and began to clear our plates. "Would you care to see the desert menu?" He asked, looking first Emily and then at me "Humm, good question," i said, keeping my gaze on Emily, "How bout' it sweetheart? would you like something to eat?" Emily closed

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"my Trip For My Job"
It didn't take long for me to find out how loud she could be. As i continued to eat her pussy, she sunndely start into her first climax. Her loud "Yes! As she went over the edge. i pressed down on her pussy, holding her clit between my lips as the waves of orgasm flooded over her body. I waited until her breathing began to settle before releasing her clit from my mouth. I made my way back up her body, providing gentle kisses across her belly and her breasts until out mouths met again and she kisses her juices off my chin. "I want to suck you," she finally said, whispering to me. "I was hoping you'd say that," i said kissing her neck. "But after what you just did to me, i'm nervous." I kisses her again. "Nervous? Why?" "Because i don't have any experience sucking a man off. Like i said, my husband dosen't do any of that, and i've only done it a couple of times with the lovers i met back home."

"setting Up My Slut Wife"
After i sepnt my load, Emily eased back up my body and cuddled beside me. She grinned sensually at me as she a finger and wiped my cum off her face and sucked her finger clean....DAMN:) She kissed me, and then said hesitantly, was i okay?" I kissed her back and said, "You were perfect. You don't relize h how okay you were." We relaxed for about 15 minutes in each other's arms. Fianlly i interrupted the slience with a question. "Emily, have you ever watched a prono?" "No," she relied. "Why ? Do you want to watch one?" Well, there's something i want to check on. Interested in watching it with me?" "What?" "You'll see." with that i got off the bed and walked over to my laptop and opened it up. I diled up the connection like i had earlier, then opened up the same software program. After a few minutes, i truned to Emily, smiling, as i pointed to the screen.