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The Moon And Me
In the solice of the moon beneath it's shimmering light all the world is still atleast it seems....tonight the whisper of the wind as it rushes over me sounds like voices chanting when it rustles through the trees alone in thoughts I ponder existance reality alone there my heart is peaceful once laden with fear and wonder for all the tears I've cried are sunk and now asunder I feel a power rise in me as it shimmers upon my skin alone like me; it radiats and manages to force a grin we're not so different the moon and me both mysterious and haunting and bound to the lives we lead both secretly powerful not flaunting our wears both distant and lovely ever-changing and fair outwardly alone but like secret lovers we sneak into the darness of the night to comfort to empower to dream

My Baby Boy...xxl
Well Momma was exhausted after she had me, took two nurses to hold me, and one nurse to slap me. Doctor turned to momma and he shook his head, wiped the sweat off his brow, and then he said , "This boys way off the charts, as far as I can tell, ooo brrrr momma he's a double X L!" By the second grade I was 5' 2"! Fifth grade I was wearing a size 12 shoe! Eighth grade I was shopping at the, Big and Tall, and the coaches had me playing High School football. Uncle Roy said "Boy you'll make the NFL! ooo brrrrr son, you're a double XL!" Double XL, Double XL! Dont call me on the phone just ring my dinner bell. Double XL Double XL! Im a lean, mean, love machine that likes to be held, ooo brrrrr baby Im a double XL! Here we go! Country cuties in Texas, string bikinis in Florida, Barbie Dolls driving Lexus, out in California. A skinny little pretty boy aint what they wanna hold, they want a real man with meat on his bones! I'll yank their Yankees, ring their Southern Bells, t

Why???
Why can't I control my heart? Why do I always screw up every relationship I've ever been in? Why do I love so hard yet walk away. Why? Why can't I just find a girl who loves me for who I am? Why can't I find some kind of happiness in my life? Why am I crying when I write this? Why? Why should I not delete my profile here at Fubar? Everyone says it is just a game. Why play games? Life is too short and love too hard to find to play games. Why was I such a fool to think I could find love here? Why? Why do I think I will actually find love? Why don't I just realize that I was made to walk this earth alone? Why???

Even In Death
Give me a reason to believe that you're gone I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong Moonlight on the soft brown earth It leads me to where you lay They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home I will stay forever here with you My love The softly spoken words you gave me Even in death our love goes on Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love But no bonds can hold me from your side, Oh my love They don't know you can't leave me They don't hear you singing to me And I can't love you, anymore than I do And I can't love you, anymore than I do People die, but real love is forever.

"sum Gangsta Shit"
"My gat screamed fire, my bullet told me shoot dat nigga hes a liar, i talk 2 my creatie like a bitch on a stroll when mutha niggaz try 2 deck ima lock & pull it out kill'em all, i cant be fucked in dis game ima pyshopath, my AK told me 2 busta niggaz ass, im havin my conversation wit mr.millimeter hes 1 of my bestfriends bitch ass nigga eata"! "This is my spread load up in da back truck u know that old skool bitch, she liked 2 get fucked, im spittin mutha fuckaz by seams, my granddaddy mr.AR15, said he was my only family shoot straight & please dont jam me, my own glock pistol whip me in da fuck'en head cuz he said i wont buy da irfrared, got ina fight @ da club my pistol started walkin told me 2 shut da fuck up & let him do da talkin, i woke up & iwas sick 2 c da guts from my strap, he told me REAP mutha fucka, ur born 2 scrap"! "One for da glock, 2 for da clip, bullets in ya ass make ya hop n skip, fuck dis nigga ima get'em then i dip, I c u nigga ima open up ur chest bout this fuck

I've Slowed Down Some Since Then....
Well I'm an eight ball shootin', double-fisted, drinkin' son-of-a-gun I wear my jeans a little tight just to watch the little boys come undone I'm here for the beer and the ball bustin' band Gonna get a little crazy just because I can You know I'm here for the party And I ain't leavin' 'til they throw me out Gonna have a little fun Gonna get me some You know I'm here, I'm here for the party I may not be a ten, but the boys say I clean up good And if I gave 'em half a chance for some rowdy romance You know they would I've been waitin' all week just to have a good time So bring on them cowboys and their pick-up lines You know I'm here for the party And I ain't leavin' 'til they throw me out Gonna have a little fun Gonna get me some You know I'm here, I'm here for the party Don't want no purple hooter shooter Just some Jack on the rocks Don't mind me if I start that trashy talk You know I'm here for the party And I ain't leavin' 'til they throw me out Gonna have a little fun Gonna ge

The Key~
Dedicated to my fiance, Joy The key to love is to understand, Spoken words and actions. Little things that say so much. The things that cause reactions. The key to love is to forgive. Accepting our mistakes, Not forgetting, but remembering, To cut ourselves some brakes. The key to love is to share, Fortunes good and bad. Facing things together, Will wipe away what's sad. The key to love is to give, Free and with your heart. Without a thought of a return, That's where love will start. The key to love is to respect, Each other's different views Together with a common bond, Inspire each other's muse. The key to love's inside us all, Patience unlocks the door. Learning is a lot of work, With love it's not a chore. ~W.H.~ 2009~

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I Miss You Kevin!
My friend and brother in arms is no longer here in physical form but remains everyday in my thoughts, my heart and my life. I wish you were here to share in the amazing journey of this life. I wish I could still come to you and expect a response when something is weighing heavily on me. I wish you could be living happy and prosperous with your family. I endeavor to never let a moment pass me by without recognizing its worth. I will live my life in your remembrance. I pray that everyday that passes I may continue down the path that one day leads me to a place where we meet again. I miss you friend. I love you brother. Rest in peace.Kevin Michael Slein - U.S. Army 10th Mtn. Div., 2-22nd Infantry, Combat Medic Me on the left, Kevin on the right.

Kids And Spirituality
Today my five-year-old talked to me abour her guardian angel. Now, you must understand... My household is not a religious one. I am currently in a spiritual limbo, and have been for quite some time. She attended a slightly Christian-based pre-school for a year about a year ago, but they didn't "teach" Christianity, beyond the Christian version of the Christmas and Easter stories. She told me that her guardian angel protects her. Where did she get this from? I have no idea. I asked her what her guardian angel's name is. She said that she thinks they have the same name as the person they protect. It just blows me away, because her exposure to things like this has been very limited. She attended church with her father for maybe a month last winter. I believe that he was attending under pressure from his family. It didn't last long. Both of her sisters attended a Christian-based pre-school for at least two years, but they don't talk about spirituality much with each other. I

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Fate And Circumstances
As words flow across the screen, Relationships are discussed Positions dreamed,Frustration intensifies. You say fate has brought us together But circumstances are keeping us apart Will fate and circumstances ever let us be as one?

Im Sorry
It's so hard to find the right words to say when somebody you care is hurting... More so, when you know that you could be one of the causes of the other person's pain and anguish... There just aren't enough words to describe the feelings I want to share, I didn't mean to frighten you with my intensity but I guess, I did, I know what has happened is inexcusable and it would be too much to expect that you would forgive me. What scares me the most is the thought that you might want to give up or me... Please don't... I'm really very sorry.

Forever
I lay down beside you, You touch my body. You become my soul. You caress my being. Slowly we become one, Gently you enter and press you body against me. So much pleasure and passion. Between us nothing, Your fingers intertwine mine, I squeeze so I don't scream. The feeling is indescribable. You breathe hard into my ear, I hear you quietly moan. I love that sound. You gradually get louder. Because you get louder so do I, It comes... Powerful, beautiful, amazing. Lasting for what seems like forever And as it slowly stops, Movement becomes slower and even more sensual. Heavy breaths become steadier. We lay in each other's arms. Quietly and gently sleep overcomes the both of us, And we are forever.

I Love
i love I love without knowing how. I love with the depths of my soul. I love with all I am and all I have. I love without eyes or sound. For my love is blind and deaf. I love with the gentleness of my heart. I love with the only passion known to me. I love with desire of you and me. I love so much that we as two become one. I love without judgement. I love with mind,body,and soul. I love in sickness and in health for all eternity. For all that I am, all that I have and all that I will ever be, I am forever yours.

Safe Heart
Please keep my heart safe in the dark and keep it safe in your black wings keep it close to you and keep it warm keep it safe until the morn I cry in the dark knowing that I can't see you so keep my heart safe until we meet & I can be with you.

Can I Tell You Yet
Sometimes I wonder how I feel about you, Scared of these feelings because it’s still new I catch myself thinking of the best way to share, Hoping you’ll return my confession showing you care And then I catch myself again… and drag my thoughts back to reality I am back at square one, does this just happen to me? Poems are so stupid I swore I would never do this But this is YOU, and you aren’t like anyone I have met How much longer do I have to write, can I tell you yet? When I come back from my thoughts I feel more secure But then I sleep… and the dreams of you occur The dreams I have of you are so vivid and clear I feel TRUE happiness inside and that there is nothing to fear People say dreams have underlying meanings and not to ignore them I say we both know what they mean and now I want you to hear Hear what I am about to say to you, feel it with my body, see it in my face Hear it in my words and tone when we conversate I love you! I love you more than

No Words To Describe
I feel so alone even in a room of people I feel as if I am screaming for help But nobody can hear me Can you hear the tears Do you even see me cry Holding onto memories of yesterday Reaching out for you calling your name Amd still you don't come I wonder can you hear me in Heaven I feel as if my heart is splintered With shards of glass so tiny that I'll never find all the parts to mend I remember when I was 7 and you tol Me how you would never leave me And than you did and I hated you for it I remember crying watching you walk away I remember all the fights you had with mom I remember you taking my brother And while I cried and begged to go with you You just put 40 bucks on the table and walked away I remember having to wait tables at a truck stop So mom could make ends meet I wanted to hate you for all the times you were not around But now that you are no longer around All I want is to hear your voice All I want is to see you walk through the door God what I

Kottonmouth Kings- Tangerine Sky
Say goodbye to a tangerine sky say hello say hello to tomorrow- when you say goodbye to a tangerine sky you lose your pain lose your fear lose your sorrow what if you were livin yours instead of hatin mine findin truth and spreadin love and searchin deep inside – see me glidin swiftly to that place I need to be that home grown irie zone harvesting my seeds I’m gonna live my life from day to night with no hesitation Make the best of every situation that I find myself placed in Decidin right from wrong, choosing my final destination Cause when it’s said and done, it’s just yourself that you are facin’ Say goodbye to a tangerine sky say hello say hello to tomorrow- when you say goodbye to a tangerine sky you lose your pain lose your fear lose your sorrow Say Say Say good-bye to tomorrow Wash your sorrow Live and learn Listen up and follow Do what you so let me rock it I be dammed if you think you gonna stop it Pop it drop it D-Loc get up on it Don’

Breakup Poetry,,,
How long before the ache in my chest Takes it's leave Before memories of him begin to unweave When will I stop waiting for the phone to ring Warmed by the easy feeling his voice would bring All that brought joy now fills with sorrow Finding it hard to see light in tomorrow I will try and be strong get up each day and fight and though it is hard I will find light

Mother's Day Poem From Sweet Dreams Lounge
A Poem to All Mothers. One Flaw In WomenWomen have strengths that amaze men.They bear hardships and they carry burdens,but they hold happiness, love and joy.They smile when they want to scream.They sing when they want to cry.They cry when they are happyand laugh when they are nervous.They fight for what they believe in.They stand up to injustice.They don't take "no" for an answerwhen they believe there is a better solution.They go without so their family can have.They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.They love unconditionally.They cry when their children exceland cheer when their friends get awards.They are happy when they hear abouta birth or a wedding.Their hearts break when a friend dies.They grieve at the loss of a family member,yet they are strong when theythink there is no strength left.They know that a hug and a kisscan heal a broken heart.Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail youto show how much they care about you.The hear

Poem
once trapped in a room a room with walls walls of rules walls of laws no walls of freedom what is freedom? freedom is like the wind it blows any way it wants too no walls to stop it the wind goes over anything in its way unlike i who is stuck in that room of no freedom who needs to get out someway, somehow to get that freedom.

Things On My Mind!
Since I've been sick with cervical cancer I've learned alot, for one it's not fun at all. Two your not able to do the things you onced loved or have the time to spend with your family, it takes a toll on your body an let me say with being 32 it has hit my ass hard. I don't really want to do anything but sleep which they say is normal however take at least a 30min walk a day, not saying all at once just so long as it's the 30mins, anyways I feel as if I'm alone on this and no one understands besides those who have went through it... I know my husband & family have been there for me throughout this whole time but still an all I feel as if I'm a baby all over again, John (MY HUSBAND) had grounded me from doing anything at all which makes me so damn mad cause I can't sit around just not that type of person. Well I think I've vented enough for now, just remember to read up on all cancers no matter how long it takes it'll be well worth it..... Thanks for listening and have a wonderful mother

Life.
I can't sleep. Those who live with insomnia and who consider sleep both an enemy and a gift would probably understand the following: Some of us cannot comprehend how anyone except the very good or those who have no conscience at all (you know who you are) can sleep from dark to dawn without dreaming or waking. We hear William Blake's tiger prodding softly through a green jungle, stripes glowing, whiskers spotted with gore. Psychoanalysis does no good. Neither does a healthy regimen that includes physical exhaustion.The only solution that is guaranteed is the one provided by our old friend Morpheus, who, it might be remembered, requires our souls in the bargain. I used to sleep good. But I slept with Bridget. I slept inside her goodness, the smell of her hair, the flush of her skin when I kissed the skin of her sides. I slept inside a flowerlike oder that she left on our pillows. Now I have the devil and prowling tigers and shadows in my mind...Any person who has had the life I have ha

Highly Recommended!
This is more of a shout out for my favorite Lounges!!!My first lounge is Storm Radio, got to give a shout out for White Witch and Stormie!My second lounge is White Wolf Safe Haven and my girls there are Angel and Ice White Wolf!These lounges I highly recommend.Since I have started frequently visiting these lounges it is like coming home to family!!If you've had a bad day and need some where to go and just relax and unwind you'll want to stop at either lounge they genuinely care and have a way of making you feel like family!So stop by check them out and become a member!

I Am Feeling Down Today"...a Poem
( Remember Me This Way When I come to the end of my journey And I travel my last weary mile, Just forget if you can, that I ever frowned And remember only the smile. Forget unkind words I have spoken; Remember some good I have done. Forget that I ever had heartache And remember I've had loads of fun. Forget that I've stumbled and blundered And sometimes fell by the way. Remember I have fought some hard battles And won, ere the close of the day. Then forget to grieve for my going, I would not have you sad for a day, But in summer just gather some flowers And remember the place where I lay, And come in the shade of evening When the sun paints the sky in the west Stand for a few moments beside me And remember only my best.

Someone To Love
Wind whispers through brown strands of hair,Sunshine rays caress skin so fair.Placid pond water reflects back her past,Sees struggles and pain of love that didn't last.Remembering a time when hopelessness obscuredAll the beauty which she once procured.Just because of one "love" gone astray,Gentle, naive, her heart he betrayed.Confidence shattered, life left in fragments,Wallowing in despair, put up a permanent guard.Until one day a new chapter unfolded,And a man unlike the rest was molded.Filled her with love, showered her with rainbows,Heavenly feelings, long forgotten, in her soul now re-arose.He colored her world with the power of the moon,Together they created an unstoppable monsoon.Never again did she weep in silence,Never again was she trapped in self violence.He rescued her heart from Satan's glove,And all it took was someone to love

Mender
Running into the sunset the stallion's eyes gleam focused and determined mane blowing in the wind never looking back he will not be tamed he will kill to be free death more welcome than being conquered or imprisoned. Unable to be subdued by any man steadfast he alone knows with fierce pride he is not running away but running towards life, towards love, towards a new tomorrow. Always the mender of souls searching to mend his own...

You
The only person that keeps you from attaining your dreams is you The only person who says how much you have to work and what deadlines you need to meet is you The only person who is your boss who controls all the strings and calls all the shots is you The only person who has to answer for what they’ve said and done who has to look in the mirror each night is you The only person who sets your priorities that can show others how much you love them that can make a difference in their lives is you The only person who will know you the best that will smile at the end of each day and know that in your heart you really tried is you

Just My Mind
Life..... Life is what you make of it each day you are here on this earth....love is a precious gift never to be taken for granted....iI'm a lot!!!!!STRONGER from the way my life has turned....You can't break me ....and haterz make me stronger...Fool me once shame on you, but fool me twice shame on me....Lies lead to more lies and uglyness....There are much more important things to do in life than make a mess of it so make the most of it....when you find true pure love, give all of yourself and love without regards to opinions....Be yourself every step of the way and only good will come....And finally smile and let the happiness pour out....

Here You Go
hey everyone i am back with a new account long story lol first time i got on fubar i had some rules but many of u didnt know about them so here is my rules [that doesnt mean u have to follow or break] i only have real friends on my family list i only fan my top friends i am not here for points or levels i dont add just anyone before i chat to i dont top friend unless she had 38d or more [lmao] i dont add new members to my family unless they get on top friends list so they gotta be 38d+ lol i dont look for ur fanning or adding if u dont want to be in touch ---------------------- sorry if i was rude but i would call it honesty u may laugh[i dont realy care if u did] atleast that shows who,what,and how u r see u [i hope]

About My Bestfriend Nick. :]
I love you because you make me happyI love you because you make me feel safe and secureI love your smileI love the way you say my nameI love the look in your eyes when you tell me you love meAnd how you laugh at me when I do something stupid, when others would putme down.I love the fact that when I'm around you I can be myself and not worryabout what you may think of me, because I know you love me for who I am. No matter what my faults may be.I love being able to wake up with you by my side... It makes my daysbetterAt night I love watching you sleep, hearing you take each breath, andfeeling your heart beat with the palm of my hand... reality hits that youare not a dream YOU ARE MINE.I love the way you wrap your arms around me and hold me really tight, likethere is no tomorrowAnd I love the way I feel when your lips barely touch mine for a kiss, thelove and emotions that go through me at that moment are unexplainable.I love your laughI love hearing your voiceI love that you get along wi

My Amazing Life!
well everyone, i know i have not been around much, it started out as not having a computer at home but then i just got busy...busy doing what? well last year was horrible for me, i wont bore anyone with details but i became extremely depressed, started cutting myself, and everday i was wishinh i would die. and i mostly blamed it on men, but then finally in jan of this year i figured out that i was really unhappy with myself, so i decided that i was going to do something about it. i have never loved myself because of my weight. so i joined weight watchers and joined the gym and hired a personal trainer, and i have lost 38.6 pounds as of today. i have never had this much dedication in my life! and it feels wonderful, i have never been happier. i finally found my true happiness, and its within myself.

Broken Dreamz
Fallen Dreamz Broken mirrors Enough to curse a lifetime A lifetime that has already been damned One broken dream dooms more than seven years I could live a lifetime in the same hex Why doesn't a myth exsist to undo that curse? Perhaps then I would have a chance Working to change the miserable life Doing my best to revive the dying light The one that is my heart. And the hope that is immprisioned there Perhaps one dark night of happiness Will find it's way into my soul Until that day I slowly die, still dreaming.

Class
Today I had a 8 hour clas at work. It was a Train the trainer class. Basically it teaches me how to talk in large groups, how to give presentations and meetings easier, how to train my coworkers correctly and junk... I did a bunch of different presentations at work...did diffent visuals and stuff. I've learned a lot from it. I have another class tomorrow, a 5 hour class during my 12 hour shift of work tomorrow. I had homework as well....I haven't done homework since i was in college many years ago..ha ha...but I worked on that for 2 hours...got most of it done...I'll finish it up in class tomorrow... I'm hella tired...I've been so tired lately....still no real energy Okay, I sleep now...

Square Marbles. Unedited For Lack Of Carring
How selfishly unrealistic of me to think I belong in her pressence. How could I have thought I mattered that much. Come to me by walking away is a new trick. Loving me by screwing another is an honest way of affection I supose. You dont have to tell me Im not good enoguht its written next to the astrix of every word of love ive ever gotten. Like there is some long contract that I signed once and every woman I meet keeps a copy. Show me your heart and ill show you my knife, show me your soul and ill put it in its place. Exposed to everyone under a blanket of denial. Truth is I want to scream that I hate the world but the feeling of the air escaping my lungs feels to good and only contradicts the statement. So where do I go from here? Wait a minute and see another face? Start another line? Have another ending? It gets dull it gets to me. Ill taste that sin again. That greed in desire, that glutony to consume, that selfish fucking nature that says im worth a damn. If only in another

Talking About Maybe Some Good Luck This Time Around!
We've got a friend thats going to take a look at the damages to the house an see if he can't get more moneys out of progressive because that $600 ain't gonna cut it, theres more damages than what he looked into so we're having him come over an see what we can do about getting more out of thier asses... I for one aint cashing it till I know for sure what's all involved, hopefully we'll get a HUGE chunck of change out of this. I'm wanting out of this damn place anyways can not take it anymore... I want a new place ya know? Anyways wish me good luck on this one!!!

Dont Be Silly Of Course I Love You
Do I love you?I wish that answer was ‘no’Unfortunately for me,It isn’t exactly so... Why is it that every singleTime we meet,My heart always seemsTo skip a beat? Do you happen toLove me as well?Because you know I can’t help it,It’s for you that I fell! You’re sweet, you’re charming,You’re one of kind.And no matter how hard I try,I can’t get you out of my mind! I don’t want to love you!Trust me, I don’t,But if you asked me stop…I probably won’t! Because in my heart I knowThat you love me too.You want to hug me, hold me,And kiss me adieu... Well, at least that’sWhat I hope.If you don’t love me back,I suppose I can cope. Could you tell me what you feel?So I can put my torment to an end?Do you want me as your own?Or just to keep me as a friend? Is there a slight chance that you love me?Because you’re going to have to let me know,For either you stay in my heart,Or I painfully let you go.

Love Song For You Baby
Whenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am home againWhenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am whole againWhenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am young againWhenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am fun againHowever far away, I will always love youHowever long I stay, I will always love youWhatever words I say, I will always love youI will always love youWhenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am free againWhenever I'm alone with youYou make me feel like I am clean againHowever far away, I will always love youHowever long I stay, I will always love youWhatever words I say, I will always love youI will always love you

Eve 6- Rescue
I rode a western wind with a girl over to her mothers In the backyard stars shown bright-er than the others that I rarely see through the smog haze that covers the home that I used to live in. Yeah yeah we kind of sort of knew what was going to happen when she put her number down on a restaurant napkin and she said goodbye think the words were when you're back in town let's have each other again I'll come around and see you again. Like Jessica Rabbit she corrects bad habits Gets her drinks for free Animated vixen stole cupids arrow and came to rescue me In the blink of an eye lid my lid opened up and I could see that she come to rescue me I tasted Southern sin with a girl who was just perfection at a two room condo back in a wealthy section of the Florida flatlands where she had me kept in a wicked trance for a day. Yeah yeah we kind of sort of knew what was going to happen when she and a friend came and met me in Atlanta I professed my love in an animalistic manner Like an endless

Daddy It Hurts
My name is LEXYI am FIVE,My eyes are swollenI cannot see,I must be stupidI must be bad,What else could have madeMy daddy so mad?I wish I were betterI wish I weren't ugly,Then maybe my mommyWould still want to hug me.I cant do a wrongI cant speak at allOr else im locked upAll day long.When im awake im all aloneThe house is darkMy folks aren't homeWhen my mommy does come homeI'll try and be nice,So maybe ill just getOne whipping tonight.I just heard a carMy daddy is backFrom Charlies barI hear him curseMy name is calledI press myselfAgainst the wallI try to hideFrom his evil eyesIm so afraid nowI'm starting to cryHe finds me weepingCalls me ugly words,He says its my faultHe suffers at workHe slaps and hits meAnd yells at me more,I finally get freeAnd run to the doorHes already locked itAnd I start to bawl,He takes me and throws meAgainst the hard wallI fall to the floorWith my bones nearly broken,And my daddy continuesWith more bad words spoken,'Im sorry!', I screamBut its now much to la

To Ma Heroes In Da Military
ok think me crazy a couple years ago when i were visiting ma nanay in vista cali i met a marine on da beach he did ask me to dinner i make excuse wit ma nanay n i meet marine for dinner very interesting talk we have i learn tat in folllowing week he was goin in combat in iraq dis very interesting guy had questionable future ma heart went out to him things progressed to kissin he was being forward n i let him soon i was helping him loose his shirt his chest was very muscular n tummy so flat n tight like it auto be hands so firm under ma bra was feelin his pain at goin to iraq let him remove ma blouse n he kissin ma nipples i feeling him expressed ma beauty in ma ear i gave him a few hours of pleasure it jst da price of ma freedom he seemed a bit hungry as we jst do it several times wat more can i do for the heroes in military cuz they may be givin up their tomorrow wat more i can give up a lil pleasure

Poem I Love
Time to share is always thereI peered thru lifeEver avoiding strifeBut now am undoneMy barriers brokenFor one has found meReached in and unbound meHer love has burst my bondsAnd set music to my songsHer need for meAnd mine for sheHas made my Winter SpringA new startWith hammering heartWe color the world with our dreamNothing is as it did seemThe darkness of my solitude is doneShe - my rising sun.

I Said Yes
My emotions are too intense to describe;I could never explain the way I feel,I've forgotten how to breathe as he takes my hand,And before me, begins to kneel.I gaze into his hopeful eyesAnd feel his gentle grasp,Time was held still all around,Yet an eternity seemed to elapse.Although he barely whispered the words,In a delicate, loving voice,They landed on my ears like a thunderstorm,That ceases to await my choice.I hated putting you in suspense,But I lost ability to speak,My heart had stopped altogether,A tear rolled down my cheek.I reached out and caressed his lovely face,My decision I'd never second-guess,Loving him so much it hurt,I uttered my fateful, "Yes."

Would You
Would You Would you love me as I am or would you walk away? Would I not be good enough for you or could I be your ever fantasy? See I would love you I do love you still Even though you refuse to see Maybe I am better off now that you are gone But I can't help but remember how things use to be At one time we were one you looked at me like there was no other Now we are just two strangers crossing paths and I wonder why it is Would you love me? I ask you this I will love you always this I shall live with

The Misfits
Die, die, die my darling Don't utter a single word Die, die, die my darling Just shut your pretty mouth I'll be seeing you again I'll be seeing you in Hell Don't cry to me oh baby Your future's in an oblong box, yeah Don't cry to me oh baby Should have seen it a-coming on Don't cry to me oh baby I don't know it was in your power Don't cry to me oh baby Dead end girl for a dead end boy Don't cry to me oh baby Now your life drains on the floor Don't cry to me oh baby Die, die, die my darling Don't utter a single word Die, die, die my darling Just shut your pretty mouth I'll be seeing you again I'll be seeing you in Hell Don't cry to me a baby Your future is in an oblong box Don't cry to me oh baby Should have seen the end a-coming on, a-coming Don't cry to me oh baby I don't know it was in your power Don't cry to me oh baby Dead door for a dead end life Don't cry to me oh baby Now your life drains on the floor Don't cry to me oh baby Die, die, die my darling Don't utter a single wo

I Think~
I simply think of you, and suddenly I am hard. I think of the college lecture hall where I first met you, of bending you over the large table at the front of the hall and teaching the assembled pre-med students about a very different type of biology... I think of binding you, rendering you immobile between the tall pillars, your body vulnerable and unprotected, keeping you on display, your face reddened with embarrassment as you serve as artwork in a museum of kink... I think of plunging into your ass, pinning you to the floor, My hands clenching yours as I enjoy your tightness, breathing hard into your ear, My eventual orgasm causing Me to jerk and spasm roughly upon you as My cum surges along My length and shoots deep into you... I think of My teeth grinding a nipple, the pain coursing through your breast, through your chest, through your entire being, sending a flurry of throbbing signals directly to your clitoris as you thrash about and endure the torture because of the bonds which

Ice Story~
The room was bathed in a soft glow from the fire, and candles that were burning around the room. I entered the room as I always did, kneeling in front of the bed, waiting for Sir to speak."Hello little one""Hello Sir" "Where is your toy?""Right here Sir" I show him the toy sitting next to me."Good, now I want you to insert your toy, then take my cock in your hand. When your ready to cum, squeeze my cock, but don't cum until I tell you to, understood?""Yes Sir" I insert my toy and hand him the control. He turns it on low. As I let my mind drift, and my body feel the toy thrumming inside of my pussy. Sir gradually increases the speed of the toy, bringing me closer to the edge. Soon my body is straining for release.As I squeeze his cock harder I beg for release. " Please Sir, may I cum?" I put my head down squeezing him harder, He whispers in my ear "Flow for me" as my body releases. I let out a long low moan. I start to relax, as Sir lays back down again. "Stay where you are, and do this

I Swear
I swear by the moon and the stars in the skyAnd I swear like the shadow that's by your sideI see the questions in your eyesI know what's weighing on your mindYou can be sure I know my heart`Coz I'll stand beside you through the yearsYou'll only cry those happy tearsAnd though I make mistakesI'll never break your heartAnd I swear, by the moon and the stars in the skyI'll be thereI swear, like a shadow that's by your sideI'll be thereFor better or worse, till death do us partI'll love you with every beat of my heartAnd I swearI'll give you every thing I canI'll build your dreams with these two handsWe'll hang some memories on the wallsAnd when just the two of us are thereYou won't have to ask if I still care`Coz as the time turns the page, my love won't age at allAnd I swear by the moon and the stars in the skyI swear (and I swear) like the shadow that's by your sideI'll be thereFor better or worse, till death do us partI'll love you with every beat of my heartAnd I swearI swear (I swear

My Greatest
YOU ARE MINE even if you married all men of this worldAnd brought a child for every one ,call you momBECAUSE YOU ARE MINEYOU ARE MINE even if all men of this world loved youYou will love none but meBECAUSE YOU ARE MINYOU ARE MINE even if all men obey you loveliness You will obey none but meBECAUSE YOU ARE MINEYOU ARE MINE even if you carried your flowers for another man and gave him your spring winter rain and your autumn ripeI am the spring the roses the warm winter and I am the treason autumnBECAUSE YOU ARE MINEYOU ARE MINE even if he published the traces of your lips And his winter boasted with your breaths warmthBECAUSE YOU ARE MINEYOU ARE MINE even if he putted his ring in your finger,Shared you dreams ,memories and your nightsBecause I am the prince of the dream I am the memory masterAnd I am the prettier moon of your nightsBECAUSE YOU ARE MINEYOU ARE MINE even if he lightened his fingers candles and lightened his eyesOf desire ,his candles will not put out my moons and your eyes

What Do You Think?
Mark all that applyWould you kiss me?[ ] Hell Yea[ ] Yes[ ] No[ ] Maybe[ ] already didWould you do me?[ ] In an instant![ ] Yes[ ] No[ ] Maybe[ ] you look to sweet to fuck[ ] already didAm I attractive?[ ] Heck no[ ] hot as Hell[ ] Fine[ ] Cute[ ] Okay I think ur pretty[ ] Sexy[ ] Ugly!Do you think im a virgin?[ ] Yes[ ] No[ ] Don't knowName one thing you would like to do to me...3 things you would like to know about me?1.)2.)3.)If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me?[ ] Yes[ ] No[ ] maybeWould you rather..[ ] Hook up with me[ ] Cuddle with me[ ] Date me[ ] Marry me[ ] Friends[ ] Do meWhat kind of underwear are you wearing right now?[ ] boxers[ ] whitie tighties[ ] thongs[ ] g-string[ ] granny panties[ ] boy shorts[ ] noneWhat's ur favorite position?IF YOU HAD NAUGHTY PICS WOULD YOU BE WILLING TO SHARE THEM?If you said yes leave number here ......On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me..[ ] 1[ ] 2[ ] 3[ ] 4[ ] 5[ ] 6[ ] 7[ ] 8[ ] 9[ ] 10What would you want me

Time Travel
The entire Giza Plateau is a monument to Light . Pyramid = Pi Ra Mid = "pyra" "mid" The Great Pyramid contains in its many dimensions all of the median "measures" of Light. . The Great Pyramid is located at 29 degrees 58 minutes 51 seconds north latitude. (according to our present system of measurement): The Speed of Light in a vacuum is 299,792,458 kilometers per second..... There is a direct correlation between light speed and the Great Pyramid's latitude: a) 29 degrees b) 58 minutes of arc is 97% of one degree..... c) 51 seconds of arc is 85% of one minute of arc..... When we put those numbers together we have 29 97 85 or 299,785,+ nnn or the speed of light in meters per second! The Latitude of The Great Pyramid (transposed) approximates our present measurement of The Speed of Light (in meters) in a vacuum. This is not a coincidence. The number 29.9785 is also related to the age of Jesus Christ at the time of his illumination and baptism by Joh

Almost.. Just Almost..
i so love this song.. :) just wanna share it to you guyz.. :) [Verse 1] Can you tell me How can one miss what she's never had How could I reminisce when there is no past How could I have memories of being happy with you boy Could someone tell me how can this be How could my mind pull up incidents Recall dates and times that never happened How could we celebrate a love that's to late And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say [Chorus] I missed the times that we almost shared I miss the love that was almost there I miss the times that we use to kiss At least in my dreams Just let me take my time and reminisce I miss the times that we never had What happened to us we were almost there Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had Never almost had you [Verse 2] I cannot believe I let you go Or what I should say I should've grabbed you up and never let you go I should've went out with you I should've made you my boo boy Yes that's one time I should've b

I Know She Is There....
i know she is there...just not for me... in the darkness of my days and the dim of my night i know she is there...just not for me the hurt numbs, the pain sears through to know.... she is there, just not for me..... as i prepare the long walk back... hoping she will call me back every step hesitant, each sound - a come back... the illusions of my mind the world i choose to be in i know she is there...just not for me...

My Room And My Lady
I couldn’t dream my ladythat such a girl would visit my roommy room which doesn’t deserve to bea room of some twentieth centuryit’s a room of a cave manbut you were a prophet in the home of unbeliefyou entered it and brought the lightyou erased its walls paintings with your handit is a dark caveand you are a preacher prophetyou deleted all old lawsto make it the best citythat you are my lady the first visitorthe first explorerthen you became the queenand here it is my queen that old same roomas you left itno hand ever touched itI don’t know whyMaybe because I didn’t love anyone elseOr because I forgot what is loveThat because love was with you and for youAnd will not be but you- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -W.B: FAR7AN

Adventure
adventure If ya live near me and are up for nature a few of us are gathering for a canue raft ect floatable fun trip along the river to the lake near my house Day trip for some and overnight for the rest of us we will be doing this more than once this summer

1st Free Style Let Me Kno Wat U Think
this is called"PRAY" Y IS NIGGAZ STARTIN TO SPLIT ME UP WIT MY MOMS,THEN WEN I COME THEY GO GET THEIR GUNS,LIKE THEY SUMTHIN IS GUNNA HAPEN,THEY TALK SHIT THEN GET THE PIGS AND PHONES START TAPPEN,SO JUS GOTTA SAY,WEN I COME U BETTA "PRAY",DAT I DNT CATCH YA,OR ELSE UR SHIT IS GUNNA BE SHOT DOWN BEFORE I CUT YA,NIGGAZ THINK THEY GOT GOOD IN THEIR LIVES,SO BEGIN SNITCHIN AND RUNNIN WITH THEY WIFES,DA ONLY THING I GOT SAY,IS DNT FUCK WIT ME AND U DNT HAVE TO "PRAY",JUS BOW DOWN,AND I WNT COME AROUND,ITS A KNOWN FACT,IM SORRY DOG BUT U RAN UR MOUTH SO I HAD TO WIT DA GAT,BLAST U IN UR HEAD,NOW LOOK FO RUNNIN UR BLEEDIN OUT UR MUTHA FUCKIN HEAD,LAUGHIN AS NIGGA THINK HE CAN RAP,BUT IM BETTA JUS LIKE DA CLEAR WATTER DATS TAP,SUM BITCHES LIKE FAMILA,GETS BURN LIKE A MUTHA FUCKIN TORTILA,NIGGA KNOS DAT MY SIS DOIN FUCKIN 12 YEARS,TO TAKE AWAY DA FEELIN IM GETTIN DRUNK OFF DA BEERS,NIGHTMARES COME AND GO,EVERY HOOD I WENT TO THOSE NIGGAS AINT SHIT BUT HOES,TRYIN TO MAKE IT OUT HERE,IM DAT G

The One
To the one personWho when speaking to youBlocks out the dread filled worldWhich we live in The one who makesThe world seem, such a better placeEven though day to dayI dont see your face The one who has shown meHow to love againSo I don’t have to live in pain The one who I think aboutFirst thing when I get upWhen the morning birds singThe one who I think aboutLast thing at nightWhen the sunset sky kicks in The one who I wishI could holdAnd stay in the one momentUntil we grow old The one I know I want to be nearSo I can wipe any tears The one who I knowI can share me hopes and dreamsThe one who makes me feelI can do anythingThe one I love from the bottom of my heartNo matter how many oceans apart

Soooo...
I just signed up here, and am learning all the fun stuff to do. I've made several friends, one enemy, and gotten shitfaced quite a few times! Woo! I'm sitting here dirnking beer and trying to figure out the best way to make points without reading the help files. Yes, I am one of those people that throws the instructions away with the box just to see if I can put it together. lol Wish me luck!

Dirty Monkey???!!?!?!!?
so i went down to key west, and had a blast (from what i can remember) actually the only part of fla i can remember is the wedding on the beach where people on the party boat was yelling at my boy "HEY MAN DON'T GET MARRIED!" pretty funny if you ask me. so we are trolling north roosevelt blvd, i gotta henny and coke in hand and my buddy and his wife talk me into drinking a dirty monkey. so my dumb ass gets a yard stick of it................then the rest of my trip was a blur.....i didn't get a bunch of text messages saying "im waiting in your room for you"........nothing happed i don't think ...cause i don't have any rashes and stuff...and all my money is still in tact. .............thats all i got ......sigh ......IM SO FUCKIN GOING BACK IN THE FALL!!

. . .
hey there how are you i know you think i dont care anymore or that im never there but the truth is i think about you all the time i guess im just growing up and things change but the one thing that will never change is all the memories we made nothing can ever replace that what ever happened to friends until the end

Fuck It
OK here i am at a cross roads in life. What i expect in life now is too treat nikki the best i can. Fuck it the girl im with now isnt worth losing m y daughter or life. Nikki is my life i love her more than anything and will do anything for her. So to you audie fuck off

Refusing To Rate
I AM FED UP WITH THIS CRAP NOW I AM NOT RATING ANYONE ELSE NOW IF IM GOING TO RATE SOMEONE I WILL SEND U A SB SAYING R U GOING TO RATE BACK IF YOU GIVE ME ANY OF THESE ANSWERS YEH WHEN I GET MY RATES BACK OR DONT GET AN ANSWER FROM U IM NOT RATING BECAUSE U DONT GET ANYTHIN OUT OF FRIEND REQUESTS OR JUST SAYIN THANK U UR NOT THE ONLY PEOPLE TRYIN TO LEVEL ON THIS SITE SO NO RATE BCK I DONT RATE U SIMPLE AS

Hyper
Was goin down don't kno how i'm fheelin now living myself away wishin I can just try to forget the things that are known to me. Try to pick myself up again & never let myselfFallGivin out from this. Take this pain let it go I don't kno where to try why. Wanna hide from all the people that do no good better then do themselves. How in showin what I am to be this. Take all this out fromMeI i'm goin crazy n I don't kno why i'm losin my mind don't see why shit is always this it's always that. I i'm doped up on sugar. What more I want then what I need to see what more to be. Don't come next to me don't get closer to me don't get next to me. You shall never know you shall never know. You will never know know who I who I am. Never will know no you will never not know who are I. You will never know meSo crazy goin crazy said I'm goin crazy losin my own dayum mind. Sugar I'm so hyper sugar i'm so hyper. Sugar don't come next to me sugar don't get close to me. Sugar i'll fhuck you up bitch right

Cycle
GodBreakLeftin me out of my mindTell me how are we suppose to make change?Tell me how are we suppose to make change? if we can'tBreakin through tryin to deal with all of the shit that is somethin that I can't handle. Why all of things that happen? All the things caused for no reason. Nothin is to believin everyone is seethin sufferin with no Breathin.Why change the world when we can't ? Why try to change the world when we can't? Nothin is/won't wouldn't be the same. Why try to change the world? When it can't be saved. This world is plauged.God why of all the things? Why of all things? Why of all things. Why why of all the things. I can never know. Never been one to show how my life will go. Everything has been unknown to me. All has fhucked with me me I just don't see. Why of all theThings?Gettin me through this cycle. How can i make for myself. When I can't I just don't know. I never know I never know. I neverKnow.You bring me down fhuckin clown. When I see you ur gonna be ground. Go

Horror In 360
Disinfect bound to wreck rhymes I elect dialect poisonus deadly sliced tounges leave ya hung off ya back with blood drippin. Acid reflux trippin I'm in inning like seein I'm as of this hazardous. This ain't me nor actual being just bein rippin skulls breakin backs on thumb tacks. It's facts not to react who it is it's jhack motherfkn fhrost you is lost in a-maze of haze full of disgrazed I'm crazed. Mind disfunctually not fully active fhuck a lady women rights activist. Ain't fhuckin with this writin rhymes down with my pen ya ass be found unconcious in a chicken pen deadliest as disease. Febreeze fhuck the world fhuck cops screw the police fhuck everything. Beat down a fhuckin pig til he skinned. God is not one sinned to give in let loose a rebel fhuck a devil beat'em down with a shovel shit I hear on the radio is rubble. Dead within as my body weeps out losin lettin be take by control I can't get a hold not steep. My mind's a negative astro creep as I stare back lookin in as is what

Disasociate/make Urself
Living down on what you found try to take my crown. What you not know how am i suppose to show. Where am I suppose to go. No one ever seem to care. No one ever seem's to be there. All left with no air. I'm down by with what you say. Come out come around if you think you can play. Your life ain't all what you call you fall. Make you seem less live to believe one's life is not a lesson well taught make your self caught. You bring me down why you make me fheel less down on myself you take away stay away you can't keep your self from me.Pain yourself away from me. Who gives a fuck bout what you think. Your not all but used & left on up.Why are you one to jhock get your self off my cock. Why are you one to ever put your self up to what you thought. You could never knew. How could i ever know what never ever seems to flow. How am i suppose to know weight dead brain insane. My life full plauged of all what life is made never found what is not fheelin better. I am a reason of a cause you fucke

Love
LOVE Love is a Beautiful Sweet FeelingLove is Caring and SharingLove is Forever, True HappinessLove is Sunshine, Rain; RainbowLove is Affection, Admiration, Adoration Love is Bonding and BindingLove is the Strongest EmotionLove is Devotion and DedicationLove is Invaluable yet CommonLove is Being Good and ThoughtfulLove is Trusting and Being TrustworthyLove is Universe and UniversalLove is Giving and ForgivingLove is Passion and CompassionLove is Patience and CommitmentLove is Togetherness and UnderstandingLove is Perseverance and ResponsiveLove is Dream, Hope, FulfilmentLove is Mystical.Mythical and RealLove is Sensation, Meditation, SpiritualLove is Kindness, Gentle TouchLove is Fire, Air, Ether, Water and EarthLove is Mind, Heart, Body and SoulLove is Natural, Creative and GrowthLove is Patriotism and HumanityLove is Peace and ProsperityLove is Family and the WorldLove is Persistence and FreedomLove is Conservation and GenerosityLove is Self and Sel

What A Wonderful Day!
Well I went to court today to get the no contact taken off of John, lets just say I'm a very, very happy woman.. The judge lifted it off of em and now he is home with me... But before he came back he went to see my doctor and he said John was between both bipolar/depression and gave him some meds to help him, I'm just glad to have him back!

Black Hole Rainbow
(October, 2006) Black Hole Rainbow. Thats the name of the artwork my tattoo drawing (see my wings) artistic son gave to me for my birthday. I LOVE IT! He pulled its imagery from his fertile imagination. He couldn't have given me a better gift. I've spent some time thinking about a Black Hole Rainbow. A black hole is defined to be a region of space-time where escape to the outside universe is impossible. The boundary of this region is a surface called the event horizon. This surface is not a physically tangible one, but merely a figurative concept of an imaginary boundary. Nothing can move from inside the event horizon to the outside, even briefly. A rainbow is an optical and meteorological phenomenon that causes a nearly continuous spectrum of light to appear.Colors bending and melding on the event horizon -thats what forms a Black Hole Rainbow. The only way I could ever have seen the miracle of this phenomenom is for my son to bring me this image from the density of the devo

7 Kinds Of Sex
(1) smurf sex-happens when u 1st meet some1 & u both have sex til ur blue in the face (2) kitchen sex-happens when u`ve been with ur partner 4 a short time & u r so needy u will have sex anywhere even the kitchen ) bedroom sex-been together 4 so long ur sex is routine & done only in the bedroom (4) hallway sex-is when u pass ur partner in the hallway & u both say "screw u" (5) religious sex-means u get nun in the morning, nun in the afternoon & nun at night ~very popular~ (6) courtroom sex-when u can`t stand ur partner n they take u to court n screws u in front of every1 (7) social security sex-u get a little each month but not enough to enjoy

Wahoo
Well, I went to see my internal radiation doctor & he says everything looks good, I'm able to go back to having sex however need to use lots of KY jelly. John had went in DRY an lemme say that shit hurt like hell although I took it because it's been over a year since we've had some good ole (SEX)....lol... Anyways I will let you know more when the time comes on what the doctors say if they have gotten it all or not! Much love always your friend Jaime!

Deepness
how deep is deep really? some people claim to be deep,when in fact they are shallow,i was one of these people at one time,i never gave two thiughts to the people that i hurt,as long as they served my purposes now you might ask,why would i tell you that? well i had to bear that for years,it made me into a really shut in person,not letting anyone into my heart,as if they wanted in right? it wasnt till i started getting online,that i found people that just blew me away i found that there are people that are just like me,people that were nicer,and yes,people that were worse than me.I found out that i do have alot to offer and a lot to learn. i found that i can love,and that i can be hurt also i have met some new friends here and on myspace that just make me feel inspired and loved. and i just want you to know that i feel the same and i just want to tell all my friends,that thanx to them i feel like a new and better person with a soul and heart that i am not ashamed to share I am

Unanswered Prayers
The first time i seen you i felled in love, i held you in my arms and thanked the heavens above,for sending me down an angel to brighten my darkest of nights,a love that will last forever a love that has no end in sight. God blessed me when he sent you down here to me, my lil' blonde hair, blue eyed angel sent from heaven above,my heart,my life,my daughter, my love..... H+N+H love always.....

Stupid Ignorent People !!
It's funny how people on this site just meet and believe the person they just met on here about people on there friends list ..They believe the lies they tell them about people then they block them without asking the person that is being talked about and being told lies about.. Any person who believe someone they dont know telling lies about a person who is a friend supposedly on ur friends list is an idiot , stupid and ignorent themselfs .... This site has jealous ,ignorant immature people who like drama .... people grow up this is the internet ... there are alot of fake ass people here that dont have their real pics and need to get a real life.

Post Weekend
the weekends over. Now what? There was no crazy drama over the weekend. I think this is a huge feat, Like none at all. None from me none fromt he bys, none from my mom ( well maybe a little from the parental unit) but thats half expected. If I wasnt a snappy bitch with my mother god knows who I ould be a snappy bitch with.I found out my sister whos close to 30 now her husband (soon to be) got accepted for med school. This is amazing and hes been trying to get in for 5 years so congrats to him. But my sister stop travelling to settle down and start a family. med school = 6 years and a wholle lot of money. I can see where shelly is coming from. 36 and only then just getting back to where they are now (which is perfect for starting a family, they both have good jobs and no debt) Also there was thunder and lighting the other night. it made me wanna rip off my clothes and go make out with krys in the rain. mmmmmm, it was cold though so I settled for cuddles on the couch. One thing that s

Soul Search
Why is it so hard to focusmy mind drifts further day by daythe void in my heartrefuses to go away even on the best of daysthe ones full of warmth and lighti carry these clouds of rainthere's something thats not right i stare into the blue skywatching the sun float pastbut much like my heartit sets way too fast i dig and dig constantly searchinglooking for my golden keythe answers to my questionsthe miracle to set me free my thoughts race aroundbouncing off the walls of my skullmy heart lingers in vainquivering in a fear ridden lull my soul knows what it needsmy mind hopes that its truebut its my heart thats lostnot trusting what it should do i know my hunt will soon endbringing all thats me to the same pagemind heart and soul in unisonlighting up my lifes grandest stage

Eventually
Eventually people say "this must be your true colors"Eventually people try to confine me into there chamber of perfections(im not perfect)Eventually they think they know meEventually I fall in loveEventually I am aloneEventually I am taken for grantedEventually I am hatedEventually I fuck upEventually theres no more tearsEventually I have no more love to giveEventually I am forgivenEventually the void of darkiness is invitingEventually Im in a coffinEventually my love in enternal, what if eventually never comes?

Of Beast And Of Love
As THE LONELY ONE walked across such a desolate land He clutches his shield in his bleeding right hand Not willing to break away from his lonely journey He leaves his home in search for his true beauty The warrior looks up with no fear within his eyes As terror streaks through the air and enveloping the skies He notices the demons that surround the blue site Then he sees a creature holding her magnificent white He leaps through the wind with his sword and sheild Beating down the dark ones without pain nor any yeild He dodges the pestilence that flies upon the black air Keeping His eyes locked upon his beauty's golden hair He beat down the first thousand and many more As the wicked ones crawled back to hell and the land of gore Then stood the leader of the dark ones, alone with His loving light So the creature said to THE LONEY ONE, "Fool this is my night" Without a wink and no other threats even spoken THE LONELY ONE attacked at left the dark one laying broken He walk

Ohio Is For Lovers
Hey there,I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.Where you are and how you feel.With these lights off as these wheelskeep rolling on and on. (and on and on and on...)Slow things down or speed them up.Not enough or way too much. (and on and on and on...)How are you when I'm gone?[Chorus:]And I can't make it on my own.(And I can't make it on my own.)Because my heart is in Ohio.So cut my wrists and black my eyes.(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.Because you kill me.You know you do, you kill me well.You like it too, and I can tell.You never stop until my final breath is gone.Spare me just three last words."I love you" is all she heard.I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.[x2][Chorus:]And I can't make it on my own.(And I can't make it on my own.)Because my heart is in Ohio.So cut my wrists and black my eyes.(Cut my wrists and black my eyes)So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.Because you kill me.You know you do, you kill

Cyber Dreads For Sale!!!!
hey guysim making some fallsif you want to buy someim selling them for $20 for a setand $15 for a singleif your interested just mail me let me know what colors you wanti only have black and red for now but later on in the week ill be gettingmore of a selectionand also ill be getting some synthetic hairfor dread fallsthe ones im making are out of yarnif your interested just contact meand ill make them for you.thanks

Don't Ignore This!
" ""FAKE FRIENDS: Will ignore this.Send this heart to at least 15 people and to meif you Gonna Hold Me Down for Life!!!Let's see how many hearts you get!!!!........??????............??????....??????????....??????????..????????????????........????????????????????????........?????????????????????????....????? ????????????????????? ..???????. ?????????????????????????....??????????????????????......????????????? ??????.........???????????????...........???????????............????????.............??????...............??"xoxoxoxo9,675,000,000 people n this world && yet i ended up with you as a friend?Damn,Im lucky!FRIENDS FOR LIFE"

More On My Politics.
"The environment will come first, even at the sacrifice of industry. We are America. We are the Human race. We will survive the growing pains.""Women will have the right to chose what they do with their bodies just as men do. Especially to save a life." "Our citizens will spend their lives with and even marry whomever they choose. Religeous freedom is more than simply the enforcement of the majority and the conditional tolerance of the rest.""The responsibility of each citizen to use firearms responsibly will remain in their hands. We will never forget the lessons learned in the past and today by forcibly disarmed populations.""Our military will remain the most advanced, well supplied fighting force on the planet. Never to fall behind and risk a lapse in the safety and security of our citizens.""Our Service men and women will be concentrated on the shores and in the heart land of our own nation. Our allies will always be a concern and supported, but the rise and fall of natio

Can You Feel Me?
Can you feel me- Can you feel me there When you close your eyes Can you feel my lips On your thighs Can you feel my fingers Run through your hair When you close your eyes Can you feel me there Can you feel my fingers Run down your back Can you feel my face In your lap Can you feel my hands Spread your thighs Can you feel me there When you close your eyes Can you feel my fingers Spread your lips Can you feel my tongue Play with your clit Can you feel my teeth Bite your thighs Can you feel me there When you close your eyes I am always there When you close your eyes. ~W.H. 2009~

Friends... Or ??????????
It is so much easier to tell who your friends AREN'T than who truely is. Really it is only when there are roadblocks or challenges that you find out. Until that happens, the depth of the connection has never been tested. It is only then that the "relationship" is tested and it either passes, or it withers and dies.I know at times I fail when I become too wrapped up in my own world. I'm not perfect and far too often I am not a good friend.This weekend I have seen a few friends struggle with "friend" issues. It is amazing to me how many times these people are "best friends" or even in a relationship, and how often those ties are destroyed by games and by dishonesty. If the truth had been told, if feelings were shared, if the right actions were taken, things would be different. But in the end, when the story comes out, it snowballs, and everything that had been hidden comes to light.I know my personal life has been filled with people I thought I knew, only to be disa

Life
Life The most important thing I have learned in life is nothing is more important than being happy & having a sense of humor. Follow your dreams and your bliss always and no matter what anyone tells you and be sure to be happy along the way. Because happiness is not attained from achieving your goals, it's the fuel that propels you toward them! And there is too much serious shit in this world not to laugh at all of the absurdity of it! Such as the dynamics of sex and male to female relationships. Surely GOD has a twisted sense of humor to play this joke on us! Besides have you ever seen a platypus I rest my case! Don't think you know me from 1000 words on a page...this is only the tip of the iceberg, only one facet of me, the part I allow you to see at this particular moment in time.

Chasing Shadows
There are too many things in this world that can cause us pain. Enough so that it’s not worth counting. A thing for every day from now until our last, and even then, one alone may be enough to fill those days without a breath of rest in between. My grandfather came back from Europe to face night after night of dreams so horrid that he’d wake up screaming, and his only respite was to drink himself into a stupor. Even that didn’t help. 50 years later, the sight of an accident where a family burned alive affected him so deeply that he refused to be sober for three days. But still he never talked about it. It was difficult enough to watch him relive the things he had seen. There were times I wanted to reach into his heart and simply pull them free and discard them. But the important things are never that simple. Are they? As awful as that was, it was still his problem. It wasn’t the people around him that made him think of it. It wasn’t the antics of those

Unsettled Tide
Unsettled Tide She sits alone at the edge of a sandy shoreLooking out to the horizonIn the distance, she sees the swell of the oceanAnticipating it’s arrivalShe knows the tide is buildingForce…Fury…RageIncarcerated by this approaching waveWill it hit her hard…knock her over?Will the contained ferocity subside as it approaches shore?She wonder what affect this advancing torrent will have on her. It has had its way with her too many times. Brought her to her knees… Rendering her oblivious to the world around her. Her soul, drowned by the sea of emotion, So enraptured by its consumption Of her spirit. This feeling she knows all too well And she prepares for it. It draws nearer and nearer. She braces. The sand but a faulty foundation. Here it comes… Eyes closed, Palms clenched, No breath escapes her lips, And she feels it. The slightest touch of moisture Against her scorched skin. It mocks her; Teasing, Tormenting, Tantalizin

Awaken My Sweet
Awaken My Sweet The night wind whispers to the oak tree “Awaken my sweet, Rustle your leaves for me.” Then, and only then will she dance. Her spirit rising with every breeze. She’s longed for his arrival, Waited, ever so patiently, for his return. She craves the caress of his breath To fulfill her every desire. Her branches part Inviting this waft to enter her every crevice To fill her with his aroma - The scent of desire, The fragrance of lust, The sweet perfume of yearning. She craves him, Aches for him, Hungers for his touch, He is the source of her sustenance, Nourishing her every need. Though she cannot see him, She knows he is there. He consumes her, Envelops her within his soul, Swallows her whole. And she melts in this apparition, Inhibitions lost, No reserves to speak of, As she sees pleasure in his eyes. Sees that he is pleased with her dance, Her response to his embrace. And as quickly as he arrived, Is as quickly as he depa

Flake
I know she said it's alright But you can make it up next time I know she knows it's not right There ain't no use in lying Maybe she thinks I know something Maybe maybe she thinks its fine Maybe she knows something I don't I'm so, I'm so tired, I'm so tired of trying It seems to me that maybe It pretty much always means no So don't tell me you might just let it go And often times we're lazy It seems to stand in my way Cause no one NO not no one Likes to be let down I know she loves the sunrise No longer sees it with her sleeping eyes And I know that when she said she's gonna try Well it might not work because of other ties and I know she usually has some other ties And I wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, I wouldn't want to break 'em Maybe she'll help me to untie this but Until then well, I'm gonna have to lie to you. It seems to me that maybe It pretty much always means no So don't tell me you might just let it go And often times we're lazy It seems to stand

Tru Friends
True friends**** *stick up for you when your being put down *will always have your back *deserve all your luv and trust *lend u their shoulder's when your sad *can make you laugh when ever *don't care if your crazy or quiet *make you feel safe *will never judge you *will never put you down *don't care what others think of you *will love you for ever *can never forget u *are the most precious gifts!

Eyes
Eyes Nowhere to run,Nowhere to hide;Going crazy all the time.Dedicating their lives,I see faith in your eyes.Never you hear the discouraging lies.I hear faith in your cries,It was written in your eyes.I guess it's no surpriseI couldn't read your mind.One, two, three, four, five;I see fire in your eyes.Watch me rise,Watch it grow--itWill never go awayThe endless pain in my eyes,Praying to dieLeave you where your comrades lie.

Sick And Tired
I am sick and tired of the shit that people do. they act one way and then they do shit and act another. I hate it when people are happier talking to someone else then talk to the people that they say that they love and are happy to be with. I also am sick of people writting shit on there pages and not telling me the one they should be telling. I am so sick and tired of it. I am sick and tired of when I want so loving it's im to tired or not in the mood, but if others want it, it's go to be now. I am sick of people chatting it up till late into the night and is always has a smile on there face and is not happy if they have to talk to me. I give up, I really do. I am sick and tired of going through this shit.

Eight Rooms Of Sin: Room Three Part1
Sarah had become an addiction for Kieran. Since the morning he woke up with lipstick on his cock and watched her get off on his bedroom floor, he'd become entranced with her. She felt the same way, allowing herself to grow attached to the quiet persona he showed in public, and the passionate one he shared with her. Tonight would be another night of pleasure for Kieran, one he was growing accustomed too. Sarah had gone out on her own to arrange for Kieran to be accepted into a unique club she helped start up. She was now a silent partner, opting to leave the playing to others while she enjoyed the view behind the windows. The music was loud, the drinks of the highest quality and the atmosphere reeked of not only wealth, security, and fun, but it was also apparent that only the most elite were allowed past the two burly, but exquisitely dressed, men at the front door. Kieran watched with interest as Sarah said hellos and kissed cheeks. It was a different Sarah he was observing. She was s

Happy By Ashanti
Boy you fill me with so much joy You give whatever it is that I need Now I'm here to stay, Won't never leave So glad that you fell In love with me My love is so good That I wouldn't be without you babe Couldn't see me without you babe My love is so good That I wouldn't be without you babe Couldn't see me without you babe All of my life (I've been searching for you) Everyday (So glad that I found you boy) On my mind (I've been feining for you) Everyday (I'm so happy baby) Boy you got me feeling so good You take all the pain away from me Without you around, I couldn't breathe And I knew you fell in love with me My love is so good That I wouldn't be without you babe Couldn't see me without you babe My love is so good That I wouldn't be without you babe Couldn't see me without you babe All of my life (I've been searching for you) Everyday (So glad that I found you boy) On my mind (I've been feining for you) Everyday (I'm so happy baby) I'm so happy that I fell in love I thank God he sent y

Foolish By Ashanti
See my days are cold without you But I'm hurtin while im with you And though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you See my days are cold without you But I'm hurtin while im with you And though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you Baby I don't know why ya treatin me so bad You said you love me, no one above me And I was all you had And though my heart is eating for ya I can't stop crying I don't know how I allow you to treat me this way and still i stay See my days are cold without you But I'm hurtin while im with you And though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you See my days are cold without you But I'm hurtin while im with you And though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you Baby I don't know why ya wanna do me wrong See when I'm home, I'm all alone And you are always gone And boy, you kno I really love you I can't deny I can't see how you could bring me to so many tears after all these years See my days

Sometimes By Britney Spears
You tell me you're in love with me Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me It's not that I don't want to stay But every time you come too close I move away I wanna believe in everything that you say 'Cause it sounds so good But if you really want me, move slow There's things about me you just have to know Sometimes I run Sometimes I hide Sometimes I'm scared of you But all I really want is to hold you tight Treat you right Be with you day and night Baby all I need is time I don't wanna be so shy Every time that I'm alone I wonder why Hope that you will wait for me You'll see that you're the only one for me I wanna believe in everything that you say 'Cause it sounds so good But if you really want me, move slow There's things about me you just have to know Sometimes I run Sometimes I hide Sometimes I'm scared of you But all I really want is to hold you tight Treat you righ Be with you day and night Baby all I need is time Just hang around and you'll see There's nowhere I'd rath

Internet Dating...stupid People
Internet Dating...Stupid people So it seems that Im destined to meet really fucked up people through internet personals. I think I come off as sarcastic and pretty direct. So why are women always so surprised when I say something? And I didnt know people were really that fucked up and ridiculous. Maybe Im an optimist.Fast Food - Weve been talking for awhile. And though she seems a little odd, I figure we meet dinner. She tells me her fiance died from a car bomb in iraq a few years ago, and in the next sentence she says, this pizza isnt too bad. She goes on to tell me she lost her job and started living in her car, and had to sell her engagement ring. I change the subject because, well, i didnt know what to say (I know, weird huh?). The date ended ok, but I got the feeling something was missing. So we go out again, to olive garden. I order the cheese wedges appetizer. When they come, shes all weirded out. What are they? What do they taste like? What is that red sauce? What does it

Great Customer Service
Brooks, Katie, and I went to gold and silver last night. Sometimes you just need a pussy in your face without the need to yet your face wet, and this was one of those times. There are a few things that bother me, and usually its the same things everytime I go. So I would like to share. It seems to me there are three kinds of strippers. There is the artistic dancer - the ones that really get into their role. There are the zany talkers - the ones that are always talking to someone while dancing. And there are the paycheck dancers - I take it these ones really dont like men. I guess Im not your average guy. I like to watch the dancers face. Dont get me wrong, I look at everything else. But when a dancer is focusing on me, I like to make eye contact, I like a sweet smile. And I consider it good customer service when they make eye contact back, and smile. Now usually, the artistic dancers give great customer service, and they are great at the lost art of suggestive selling. Some

Millions Of Peaches (if Youre A Girl, You May Get Offended, Be Warned)
So, Im moving to Georgia for the next few months. Kinda sudden but its all for the good. Georgia is the peaches state. And in some ways Im bothered by that. I went to Georgia a few weeks back and there are some very ugly women there. Im serious. Its so bad that after a few days, the homely ones start to look better and better. I wonder if my standards will go down. Theres a song by The Steve Miller Band called the Joker, and theres my favorite line of all time "really love your peaches, want to shake your tree". So I use the term peaches alot, in reference to women and titties (some girls out there are going....ohhhhhh, so thats what). But once again, Im worried. Being in the peaches state, will these women live up to the hype? There are many different kinds of tits out there, and only a few that can really be considered peaches. Theres the nipple on the bottom, the extremely oversized nipple (the kind that overwhelms the breast), theres the superbig titty that hangs way too low, and

Blah
Who was the last male you talked to?my justin friend ;)Who is someone that can always make you laugh?justin... he says the strangest things....What were you doing at 10am this morning?wishing I was in bedWhat were you doing an hour ago?see above lolDo you plan on moving within the next year?yesAre you wearing anything on your feet?that almost sounds dirty.... but yes lolWhat are you looking forward to in the next 3 months?being meDo you remember your dreams?sometimesWhere did your last hug take place?at McDonalds lolHave you been to a baby shower?yesWhat cell phone company do you use?t-mobileWhat color is your hair brush?blueDo you watch the Super Bowl?hell yeahWhat about World Cup?ummm noDo you sleep with a teddy bear?I lost him :(What is the last movie you watched?Haven't watched a movie in forever :( who wants to go see one this weekend? LOLWhat movie do you think everyone should watch?Second Hand Lions lolWhat is your middle name?thats MY secret thank you!Do you have your future ch

Alone
Lying, thinkingLast nightHow to find my soul a homeWhere water is not thirstyAnd bread loaf is not stoneI came up with one thingAnd I don't believe I'm wrongThat nobody,But nobodyCan make it out here alone.Alone, all aloneNobody, but nobodyCan make it out here alone.There are some millionairesWith money they can't useTheir wives run round like bansheesTheir children sing the bluesThey've got expensive doctorsTo cure their hearts of stone.But nobodyNo, nobodyCan make it out here alone.Alone, all aloneNobody, but nobodyCan make it out here alone.Now if you listen closelyI'll tell you what I knowStorm clouds are gatheringThe wind is gonna blowThe race of man is sufferingAnd I can hear the moan,'Cause nobody,But nobodyCan make it out here alone.Alone, all aloneNobody, but nobodyCan make it out here alone. Alone by Ma

New And Improved?
this might be my new motto when I get back. My surgery is scheduled for tomorrow so I will be gone for a little bit. But when I do get back.....I should be new and improved...or at least have perky boobs. After battling breast cancer and having the lump removed my breasts are uneven and saggy. So now I will have a lift done and reduction on the left to make it asymetric to the right. I am kinda scared since I know both breasts will be operated on and they plan on doing it as outpatient. So I will go in in the morning around 1130 and surgery will be around 1 and I should be home by 6.......I just pray I will heal correctly and get better soon. I am so ready to be done with this whole cnacer business. I am ready to feel attractive again....to be ME again! Wild and crazy!!! So be in prayer for me and my family the next few days and weeks. With summer vacation here the kids will be home helping me out. I do hope friends will come get them some and take them to the park or swi

Da Nightstalker
Ain't nothin better then what i'm kickin with. Don't try ur luck n get urself fuck you stuck like what who it is don't fuck with this it's the one they call wicked rhyme poetist. Aka da nightstalker that's comin after ya better hope i don't find ya n guzzle juggle ya. Cuttin bodies up like the juggla. Be the one that's lost in the woods wut ya lost can't find ya way enter my world into diary of a nightstalker. There's no escape no leavin with ya breathin. To those that think they can find themselves chopped up in a garbage can or way beneath in the lake deep under the water where you won't be found. Mind is on some stress i feel stress got me caressin on ur girls breast. Give me a fine thick slut with a pussy n butt that won't strut. Like i just don't give a fuck got my middlefinger stuck up in her butt. N that's the way how it go you don't know you silly lazy crazy ho been through so much i'm tired of the bullshit. Kickin with what i'm spittin with there be no fuckin with this who it

So Don't Let Go!
She doesen't care if you call and wake her up in the middle of the night,just to talk;she hate's to argue,but is good at it;scary movies make her paranoid; she enveys every cute couple she sees;she don't judge;she loves to draw little hearts on her notes;she's free;she want's to be happy;and lately all she can think about is you.You mean more to her than you know;she has so much faith; so don't let go..

Big Beautiful Women
Ok So I Ran Across A Blog Tonight/This Morning Called "Women & Other Women" & As I Began To Read Through The Comments & Noticed There Was A Dumb Bitch Bashing A Woman Of Bigger Size Who Is Proud Of Her Size & What She Looks Like. But The Bitch Was Being Overly & Highly Rude To This Lady & Saying All Kinds Of Hateful Things About Bigger Women. Ok,So Heres My Thought...Anyone Who Thinks The Term Or Acronym BBW Isnt A Real Word Or a Real Acronym Is EXTREMELY Wrong.BBW Is A Very Real Term/Acronym & NO By NO Means Is It A "Label" Saying Your Apart Of Like Some Big Clique Filled With Heavier Set Women...Its A Term Used To Describe Ones Self/Women In A Confident Way...It Displays That They Love & Respect Themselves Enough To Be Comfortable With Their Bodies & Their Size While Still Believing That They Are Beautiful All At The Same Time...That Their Weight Does Not In Anyway Make Them Ugly...Its Is NOT A Nasty Term...It Is A Wrather Beautiful Term That I Wish Would've Came About ALOT Sooner T

6-19-2009 Continued
Ok...and while we're touching base about shit in general, let's touch on something else. Something else I mentioned in my "about me" section. About making this country possible for a person to go out and act like a jerk or harlot, if they want to do that. I DID it, and you cannot judge me in ANY form. You want freedom of speech? I bled for it. You want the right to do this or that? I killed for it. You want the freedom of religion? Only God knows what I did to secure that for you. Oh you Crunch and Munch fanaticals can get over yourselves. I did a job. Did what I had to do to secure YOUR freedom. You want to go out and fuck every living thing around you? Go ahead. I bought you that freedom with sweat and pain. So, go ahead and think I'm a moronic jerk. Maybe I'll sleep better at night, knowing you hate me. At least, it's the first honest feeling you've had in a long, long time.

6-19-2009 Iii
Oh, by the way.... It DID come to my attention why I singled out a specific "religious" sect in my musings.....Hmmmm....won't go into the details of it, too many to cover here, but the religion that I pile drove into the mud, was the basis for Hitler's SS in WWII.....And they took it even further than that, but it was the "cornerstone" of that organization. I'm not splitting hairs, but I have a big problem with these three things, because they helped get the ball rolling for WWII. One- Fascists, Two- the SS, Three- The occult. So, you'll forgive me if I DO NOT care if I step on someone's toes about this. For those that will argue with me about this, let me step on your toes a bit harder and harder, until you decide to shut your fucking mouth.

Haha,im Meltin Your Dome
whoop whoop,wuz up fam? iz me eggz again,im gonna let your brains have some knowledge cause knowledge killz ignorence i wanna know why people cant just learn to love eachother,instead of always hating.I myself have been guilty of this too,but im working on this problem,people wake up,were not here forever,lets make our time on this piece worth living.I notice there is more and more people hating on me and mine,for being juggalos,but they wish they had fam like mine.God has blessed me with the most beautiful people in the world to call family,whoop whoop.I have the most gorgeous woman alive,and if thats reason to hate me,f.t.f.o!!!! i dont think that great things are meant to be,i think that we are meant to do great things. peace homies,killas and ninjas,MMFWCL

More Dates For The Usa Canada And All Of Europe
Canada Tour 04/28/09 - Pavillion de la Jeunesse Quebec City, Quebec 04/29/09 - Bell Centre Montreal, Quebec 05/01/09 - Ricoh Coliseum Toronto, Ontario 06/02/09 - John Labatt Centre London, Ontario USA Tour May 3 2009 Van Andel Arena Grand Rapids, MI May 5 2009 Prairie Capital Convention Center Springfield, IL May 6 2009 Scottrade Center St. Louis, MO May 8 2009 Zoo Amphitheatre Oklahoma City, OK May 9 2009 North Shore River Walk Park East - Edge Fest North Little Rock, AR May 10 2009 Hartman Arena Park City, KS May 12 2009 Canaries Stadium - KRRO Fest 2009 Sioux Falls, SD May 13 2009 Alltell Center Mankato, MN May 14 2009 US Cellular Center Cedar Rapids, IA May 16 2009 Rock On The Range Columbus, OH European Tour June 6 2009 Rock Am Ring Nurburgring, Germany June 7 2009 Rock Im Park Nurnburg, Germany June 9 2009 Torwar Warsaw, Poland June 1

Rondom
1 year ago today it seems so far away wouldnt belive the time has past proof lies in your letters and pictures of photographs reading your words seeing your face seems like breaking down is the hardest habit to break being so full of emptyness not knoing right from wrong stareing at the looking glass chaseing rabbits down the hole had a chance and watched it pass wont be the first wont be the last hindsights 20/20 when your looking at the past see a thousand smileing faces when smileing at broken glass you tell to relax when i dont sleep at night but i need that feeling to feel alive the choas is my peace its all that keeps me right.. Valdascar

Confessions
Confessions I run away from hurt I run away and hide Hoping against hope That I need not decide You talked so sweet You heard and cared How was I to know Or even dared I gave so much I tried to not lie Hoping you would not see The tears I cry You knew the lies You knew them well So much so That I needed to tell I hated myself I railed and ranted Cursing myself For taking you for granted We talked and shared We spoke and learned Honesty works for us So long as we turned To each other Original by Cheryl Gould ©

The Next Time
The next time i read your text i will smile.The next time i hear your voice my heart will skip a beat.The next time i see you, you'll take my breath away.The next time we kiss the world will stand still.The next time i hold you i will be in my heaven.The next time i ask you i hope you say i do.The next time i make love to you, you will be my wife.The next time i say i love you its because my heart is yours.The next time we fight i will say im sorry.The next time you smile it will be because of me.The next time you hurt i will make you better.The next time you cry i will wipe away your tears.The next time we are together nothing shall drive us appart.The next time will always be forever as long as im with you.

More Of My Poetry
Her hair is beautiful and golden like the setting sun. Her eyes so blue like the rivers run. Her smell is like the sweetest floral breeze. Her smile can make time itself seam to freeze. Her lips are beyond all that's soft and fair. Her heart is delicate and needs much care. Her lightest touch a heavenly embrace. Nothing is more beautiful than the morning sun upon her face. Like her, in heaven or on earth there is none. Attempting her hearts capture I have begun.

More By Me
Queen of Sanity, her name fits not. indecicive she is a lot. where she's going, she does not know. you'll always be wondering, will she stay or go. Queen of Beauty, she is so fair. about anything else she does not care. all your love she will take. what she returns is completely fake. Queen of Patience, i do attest. it is her patience i love the best. sticking by me through it all. she picks me up when i fall. Queen of Perfection, perfect is she. not a single flaw that i can see. there is nothing about her i would change. for her love, my life i would re-arrange. Queen of my Heart, is all the above. it is her most i do love. with her i could be free. if only this she could see.

Why?
Why is it, when you attain and meet someone who fulfills all the qualities you could ever ask for, that someone who's jealous or territorial wants to bring you down? I care about her and thats that. She's presented who she is to me. if thats a lie then of course ill be heartbroken, I've already poured a lot of my soul and feeling into her. Shared some things and well to be honest, I understand her situation. If you'd had a life like hers or mine, you'd want people to listen, and sometimes there isnt much you can do about it. And people need to get off her ex boyfriend issue as far as the one she still wears the ring for. Dear god people, if you'd been so close to tying the knot for the rest of your life with that one person, wouldnt you be a little depressed or upset too? So stop rushing her to get out of it, Ill be honest, I hate every single god damn perverted sex driven male on here. And regardless of how she talks to you guys, or what she shows you or what she does, shes important

Fubar Perverts & Perverts In General
Ok So As I Was Sitting Here Thinking About Things...I Realized...Theres Something That Annoys Me To The Core So I Figured I'd Write On It. That Thing Is Perverts Here On Fubar & Perverts In General. I Just Cant Figure Out Why It Is That Alot (Not All) Have This Automatic Assumption That Its Ok To Just Pop Up In Some Girls Messenger Box Or SB Or PM & Just Start Asking If They Wanna Fuck Or See Your Dick Or Whatever It Is Like Theyre Some Kind Of Whore That You Pick Up On The Streets. I Mean Thats Just So Rude And Degradeing...Not Every Woman Cares For That Kind Of Thing. & Then Most Of Them Will Sit There & Scratch Their Head Like An Idiot & Go I Wonder Why She Left? Or Why She Stopped Talking Or Why She's Ignoring Me Now Or Why She Wont Go Out With Me.Um DUH Thats Why.You Cant Honestly Sit There & Act That Way To A Decent Woman & Then Expect Them To Respond Because Any Woman Who Knows What She's Doing Or Has Any Kind Of Self Respect Wouldnt Even Bother To Deal With You When You Act

Fathers Day 2009
Well, some of you know, most don't. I received a phone call on Father's Day that has changed my life. I have a void in my heart that will forever be there. I learned from the phone call that everyone dreads, that my oldest sister passed away. She lived in Oklahoma. The family here are wondering if we will even be able to say goodbye. Her husband has had his own funeral services for her in OK. The whole family is devistated. I grew up with this Sister and her daughter which died in 2006. I have nothing but memories now of my niece and sister, and I am the only one in those memories who is still alive. I know she isn't hurting anymore. She had cancer. But yet, I'm selfish. I don't know how to move past this hole... Those of you that read my blogs are few, but you are the ones I feel deserve to know my mood..... Which is devistated. The point of this is to cherish life. You never know how long you have left in this world, so enjoy every moment. I wish I could have another moment with

You Have Place In My Heart
"A Place in My Heart" I have a place for you in my heart, You're the tenent it's been looking for. Though we are hundreds of miles apart, We'll not be unhappy anymore. You've known unhappy times and sadness, Had your heart broken, shed many tears. And I, too, have felt love's unkindness, Caught in a loveless marriage for years. It's funny how we met on the 'net, One of those chatrooms, just passing time to forget. We both listening to music. and share our music, and gave us some delight! Did we meet by accident or fate, Or is it simply a dream come true? Each a song lover and each a soulmate; The question is what shall we do? In my heart there is a spot for you, In yours, I hope you have one for me. You know our feelings are right and true, Only time knows if our love will be.

Internet
OK here it is.... My ex-a-hole husband and my lovely daughter decided to look at my profile and come up with their own ideas of what I have in my family only folder.... so for now because I was threatened about going to family court I have to either make them private or delete them for now. I get so mad because fubar is my fun time, wtf. So im sorry family but for now this is something I have to do ugggggggggghhhhhhhhh, fucking men and nosy daughters.

...when You Are Feeling Bummed.....
A lovely story about the love! Great time of year to stop, think and appreciate those special friends in your life! Lucky Dog.... Anyone who has pets will really like this. You'll like it even if you don't and you may even decide you need one! Mary and her husband Jim had a dog named 'Lucky.' Lucky was a real character. Whenever Mary and Jim had company come for a weekend visit they would warn their friends to not leave their luggage open because Lucky would help himself to whatever struck his fancy. Inevitably, someone would forget and something would come up missing. Mary or Jim would go to Lucky's toy box in the basement and there the treasure would be, amid all of Lucky's other favorite toys. Lucky always stashed his finds in his toy box and he was very particular that his toys stay in the box. It happened that Mary found out she had breast cancer. Something told her she was going to die of this disease....in fact; she was just sure it was fatal. She scheduled the double ma

Im The Kinda Girl...
Im the kind of girl who will dance in the pouring rain,smile like im fine,when im not.I will make u laugh when u wanna cry,worry way more about you than me,fall over laughing at the dumbest things,always forgives but never forgets,who loves so many,and hates so few,when she's loved by few and hated by many....

For Someone That I Don't Deserve
I never have had a way with words but recently I hurt someone I cared about very much. I said things I didn't mean and I upset them, that more then anything hurts and makes me feel like such garbage. I hope that they can find it in my heart to forgive me but I can't apologize enough, I am really truly deeply sorry

Bored!!!
So I went to BK to eat with my kids and they have a playland! Well how funny do you think it was when I had to climb in this thing to get my kids because they did not want to come down! SOOO EMBARRESSED~ So that's my story for the day!

Come Party It Up La!!!
COME ON IN AND SEE ME AT DAS BUNKER TONIGHT WHAT IS NORMALLY $5 ENTRY TONIGHT IS $10 GUEST DJ'S SICK ASS PPL SICK ASS MUSIC THATLL BLOW UR FUCKING MIND AND OF COURSE ME! ^^ AND BOOZE I RECCOMEND AMF'S LOL SO COME SEE ME ILL BE HAPPY TO SEE YOU AND STEAL UR SOUL! IM ON THE PROWL FOR SOME HOTTIES

New Divide-linkin Park
I remembered each flash / as time began to blur Like a startling sign / that fate had finally found me I remembered black skies / the lightning all around me That I get what I deserve And your voice was all I heard So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies Across this new divide Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between And your voice was all I heard That I get what I deserve There was nothing in sight / but memories left abandoned There was nowhere to hide / the ashes fell like snow So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes Across this new divide And the ground caved in / between where we were standing And your voice was all I heard In every truth that you'd deny And each regret / and each goodbye In every loss / in every lie That I get what I deserve So give me reason / to

Life
A Soldiers Word... Take a man and put him alone, Put him twelve thousand miles from home. Empty his heart of all but blood, Make him live in sand, in mud. This is the life I have to live, This the soul to God I give. You have your parties and drink your beer, While young men are dying over here. Plant your signs on the White House lawn; "Lets get out of Iraq". Use your signs and have your fun, Then refuse to use a gun. There's nothing else for you to do, Then I'm supposed to die for you? There is one thing that you should know; And that's where I think you should go! I'm already here and it's too late. I've traded all my love for all this hate. I'll hate you till the day I die. You made me hear my buddy cry. I saw his leg and his blood shed, Then I heard them say, "This one's dead". It was a large price for him to pay, To let you live another day. He had the guts to fight and die, To keep the freedom you live by. By his dying, your life he buys, But who gives a fuck if a Soldier dies!

Last Minute
Im lying here on my bed starring at the white ceiling, feeling my blood run down my cold handsFeeling my warn body go coldThe pain that was once so scrucinating now so numbly gone Waiting for my angel that i will never meet Remembering the love i had for the special someone,The one i love so muchIm sorry i had to leaveI will be back with you again,Some day in heaven or in hell I slowly start to loose the strength to hold on,I take a glace around to remeber where i lay dying and i see you standing there, You drop to your knees knowing im goin soon i use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU !! I slowly shut my eyes and let my l

Poison Heart
No one ever thought this one would survive Helpless child, gonna walk a drum beat behind Lock you in a dream, never let you go Never let you laugh or smile, not you Well, i just want to walk right out of this world 'cause everybody has a poison heart I just want to walk right out of this world 'cause everybody has a poison heart Making friends with a homeless torn up man He just kind of smiles, it really shakes me up There's danger on every corner but i'm okay Walking down the street trying to forget yesterday Well, i just want to walk right out of this world 'cause everybody has a poison heart I just want to walk right out of this world 'cause everybody has a poison heart A poison heart A poison heart A poison heart Yeah You know that life really takes its toll And a poet's gut reaction is to search his very soul So much damn confusion before my eyes But nothing seems to phase me and this one still survives I just want to walk right out of this world 'cause everybody has a poison

The Follow
Dark path hollows where to follow. A day is usually somethin in a reality of an episode. Pendin how much of what counts that makes fairly change. In feelin strange so much deranged. All livin goin through the ill mental society of where things are goin to be. Literally how one can see. Dysfunctions mental ill sane bilities. One can go one on whether what one thinks. To find sink their teeth in to the gold. Where life folds. Minor mear such look with fear nothin's clear. Matter or not if i'm makin sense see through all that is here. The everyday change in struggle. The everyday life that tuggles. Of what we fall into puddles layin hard on the ground hurting blood spurtin. Remember reality is nothin but in the episode of how you go. Cuz what all is there out to know. Except when it's all over n everything that begins ends.

Gothic Chick
"Gothic Chick" I fell in love with a gothic chick and she gave me everything that she was so dark just like her clothes how could I know, I love her and then let her go oh no I fell in love with a gothic chick it was fate you can see oh no I love her but she will never love me[Madrox] She had the Betty Page vibe Kat Von D tattoos around her eyes with the real big thighs so I'm like I could get it on with a vampire wearin a thong shakin them titties that you wanna put your mouth on Dammmn suckable fuckable lovable touchable she had piercings in both her nipples That shit stay hard right? like me she bent over I seen her thong had a playboy bunny I'm like look here hunny I'm in to Crow & all that shit I was standin out here watchin you shoppin at Hot Topic I love ya style you an actress or somethin? have you ever been up in films is it up for discussion I'm in to god woreshippin I like the video tape Hot bitches gettin horror bound I love your face It's cinematic I'll give ya more prick

Fake Ass People
I MAY NOT BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE ON HERE BECAUSE OF THE FACT THAT I AM THE SAME ON HERE AS I AM IN REAL LIFE....I DONT PUT ON A FRONT FOR ANYONE AND I REALLY DOTN CARE IF WHAT I SAY HURTS SOMEONES FEELINGS. BUT WHEN YOU ARE ONE WAY BECAUSE SOMEONE IS IN THE LOUNGE THAT YOU ARE IN AND WHEN THAT PEROSN LEAVES YOU ARE BACK TO ACTING A DIFFERENT WAY AND THEN MAKE THE COMMENT DONT TELL "SO&SO" THAT I DO THIS OR I DO THAT OR WHATEVER THE CASE MAY BE IN MY OPINION THAT MAKE YOU FAKE. IF YOU CANT BE THE PERSON THAT YOU ARE IN REAL LIFE THEN DONT FUCKIN SPEAK. IF THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN TALK TO PEOPLE IS TO MAKE UP SOME FANTASY ANOUT WHO YOU WISH YOU WERE AND PRETEND THAT IS WHO YOU ARE THEN YOU ARE BETTER OFF SITTING IN YOUR HOUSE ALONE. BECAUSE WHEN YOU PUT ON A FRONT AND DONT THE PEOPLE THAT ARE INTERESTED IIN YOU SEE THE REAL YOU THEN YOU ARE GOING TO BE IN FOR A RUDE AWAKENING WHEN THEY DO SEE WH OYOU REALLY ARE. I MEAN COME ON...IT ISNT THAT HARD. BE REAL OR SHUT THE FUCK UP BECAUSE NO ONE C

Special Show Tonight
Tonight only ...Celebrating the grand opening of the daily grind here on Fubar...come check them out prizes to be had and given away.. http://www.fubar.com/lounge/67585 That is the link to the lounge...now on air is Shot Daddy...Im up at 10pm eastern time... have a request or a special dedication..want to hear it live on air? Call 646-402-5694 x 15275

You're From Rural Minnesota If................
*You know how to polka, but never tried it sober...*You know what knee-high by the Fourth of July means.*You know it's traditional for the bride and groom to go barhopping between the ceremony and the reception. *You were delighted to get a miniature snow shovel for your 3rd birthday.*You buy Christmas presents at Fleet Farm.*You spent more on beer than you did on food at your wedding. *You hear someone use the word "oof-dah" and you don't immediately break into uncontrollable laughter*You or someone you know was a "Dairy Princess" at a county fair.*You know that "combine" is a noun. *You let your older siblings talk you into putting your tongue on a steel post in the middle of winter. *You think Lutheran and Catholic are THE major religions.*You know that "creek" rhymes with "pick". *Football schedules are checked before wedding dates are set.*A Friday night date is taking your girlfriend shining for deer.*Saturday you go the the local bowling ally. *There was at least o

Erotica – The Elevator
Erotica – The Elevator Blowing a lank of hair out of her eyes, Cynthia pressed the elevator button one more time, impatient to get away from work. Just as she was thinking about heading for the stairs, the doors slid open and she stepped inside. At 5’ 11”, she had had hear a few comments today that had put her on edge. One was from a co-worker who just happened to be shorter by quite a bit.“How’s the weather up there?” Damn, Cynthia had wanted to smack that sarcastic grin off that girl’s face. But she hadn’t, instead she had gone to her desk and for the next few minutes broke a couple of pencils. Oh well, she thought. Better pencils then being fired over a stupid comment. She couldn’t help it that she was tall. Cynthia pushed her red hair back over her shoulder and watched as the doors slid closed. But they didn’t have a complete chance to close. A hand caught the side and the doors automatically opened again.Crap, Cynthia

Survey # 3
1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would consider having sex with? not that i know of lol 2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night? all of the above 3. What side of the bed do you sleep on? right 4. Pork, beef, or chicken? chicken 5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke? no 6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money? no 7. Shower or bath? both 8. Do you pee in the shower? nah 9. Mexican or Chinese? both 10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed? both 11. Do you love someone on your friends list? yes 12. Do you know all the people on your friends list? not really 13. Love or money? love

Pain In The World
Heart full of hell Room to burn Heart full of something Unclean Dreadful to know Fair in the mirror Hard on the soul They should have known it From birth Pain Had come to this world Crying Pain has come to the world Dying Pain in the world Heart full of sin Breeds so slow Should have killed it from birth This treacherous son [ Danzig Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] Angel of wisdom See how it's grown Agonies bastard of lies Coming - down - upon Crying Pain has come to the world Dying Pain in the world Heart full of hell Indifferent and cold Heart full of misery's seed You should have learned Hate is your mirror Like it or don't Angel of suffering smiles Coming down from above Crying Pain has come to the world Dying Pain in the world

Important Please Read.
FOLKS LEARN TO FUCKING READ! I PUT A ABOUT ME SECTION ON MY PROFILE FOR A REASON! IT SAYS SPECIFICALLY DO NOT FUCKING LEAVE ME BLANK FRIEND REQUESTS IF I HAVE TOO ILL START BLOCKING PEOPLE WHO DO IT. I EVEN HAVE A BLOG THAT SAYS THAT IN IT THATS LINKED IN MY ABOUT ME SECTION. THIS CRAP IS GETTING OLD FAST. THANK YOU.

Psalm 23
Psalm 23 A psalm of David. The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

God's Garden
GOD LOOKED AROUND HIS GARDEN AND HE FOUND AN EMPTY PLACE. HE LOOKED DOWN ON THE EARTH AND SAW MY DADDY'S TIRED FACE. HE PUT HIS ARMS AROUND HIM AND LIFTED HIM TO REST. GOD'S GARDEN MUST BE BEAUTIFUL HE ALWAYS TAKES THE BEST. HE KNEW THAT HE WAS SUFFERING HE KNEW THAT HE WAS IN PAIN . HE KNEW THAT DADDY WOULD NEVER GET WELL ON EARTH AGAIN HE SAW DADDY'S ROAD WAS GETTING TOUGH AND THE HILLS WERE HARD TO CLIMB. SO HE CLOSED MY DADDY'S EYELIDS AND WISPERED "PEACE BE THINE" IT BROKE MY HEART TO LOSE HIM! BUT HE DIDNT GO ALOINE FOR PART OF ME WENT WITH HIM THE DAY GOD CALLED HIM HOME. I LOVE YOU DADDY AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!

The Snowangel The Snowboarder ;p
FOLLOWING IS AN ORIGINAL STORY COPYRIGHT PROTECTED BY: KAYLA B./SHAKTI SHAMAN. This year, I’ve decided this island girl is tired of waiting for her Canuk friends to grow a pair and come out in the snow and play with me, so I’m heading to the hills for some R&R alone. Throughout the day, I keep noticing a very tall, broad stranger. A snowboarder... never tried that, but damn I’d like to try him! All I can see is his lips, and a teasing smile every once in a while, but I’ve been waiting for him to take off the goggles so I can see his eyes... then, I’ll know. At the end of the night... I decide it’s time for a little soak and a little steam... I’m lucky, I stayed on the slopes just a little too long and there are only a handful of people in the hot tub. I notice he’s one of them. I’ve asked around, his name is Patrick. I have a few choices... one tub has 2 couples, the second has two pretty hot young men, but the third one..

A Soldier's Home Cumming ;p
FOLLOWING IS AN ORIGINAL STORY COPYRIGHT PROTECTED BY: KAYLA B./SHAKTI SHAMAN. If I were your first stop once you got back from deployment, I would prepare the condo for the care I would take with you. Ya big man, you would actually have to deal with being pampered just a little... When you arrive I would not say a word (don’t get use to that ;D lol), but I would take your hand, and after you drop your luggage.. would slowly press you against the wall.. one hand, linking fingers with you and holding you against the wall while the other would cup your neck and pull you to me for that kiss i so want from you... you would try to tease me, knowing i want it, but i would tease back, because you want it too... then the grins would leave and the seriousness of the passion would come and we would kiss... slow, deep, thorough... both moaning... you would take my hand from your neck and link those fingers too, then holding our linked hands you would move them behind me, capturing me in

Im Funny
DO YOU LIKE SLURPEES? 7 eleven ftw! TV OR COMPUTER? TV! Computer! Tv on my computer! Computers on TV!!!! arghghghghghg technology. I MUST be connected to it all DO YOU 'PAINT' ON YOUR COMPUTER? I do not "paint" on my computer, im pretty sure that would ruin it WHAT HAPPENED ON YOUR WORST DAY EVER? I dont like talking about the day they stopped making Smooth glide eyeshadow in rammalamadingdong HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN SO FRUSTRATD YOU CRIED? ohhhhh yes that's been a daily occurance lately WOULD YOU RATHER GET SHOT OR DROWN? jesus, these are my choices? like to death? DO YOU HANG WITH FAMILY OR FRIENDS MORE? just the voices in my head man DO YOU LIKE FRiED CHICKEN? no but funnily enough I DO like fried pigeon DO YOU CLEAN A LOT? only my guns HAVE YOU EVER EATEN CHICKEN WITH KETCHUP? wtf is the obsession with poultry? ARE YOU MESSY OR NEAT? im pretty neato thanks....oh you meant....oh messy CAN YOU WHISTLE THROUGH YOUR TOOTH? no because i have T

Poems By M E :)
When I look into your eyes all I see is a man so true and gentle When I look into your eyes all I see is a man so different and sentimental When I look into your eyes all I see is a man so kind and sharing like mothers When I look into your eyes all I see is a man so strong and admire by others When I look into your eyes all I see is a man who’s confident and cares so much When I look into your eyes all I see is a man who loves and never judges you in such When I look into your eyes all I see is a man so sweet and never lie When I look into your eyes all I see is a man who I want for me and never want to say good bye

Is It You?
We met each other online and as time went on I knew that someday you will be mine. What you needed was time to see if we entwine. I felt alone and depressed but when I heard your voice on the phone I knew that you would be someone special in my life We talked for hours and made each other moan. Lets get together and become one We can let everyone in the world know what we have become. Two people who started has strangers Two people who became friends Two hearts, two souls who are now one. I love you in many ways you’re my inspiration, my angel that was sent from above I want to be the one by your side until my dying day.

Just Married
On July tenth 2009 Bobby Gene Parker and Cathy Joann Bunch were united in Holy Matrimony!!!At 7pm on July 9th Bobby asked me to marry him,after I said yes, we said to each other lets do this right away, I then said I bet we could do this tomorrow.So I got up at 8:45 am so unusual for me, cause I work second to third shift, and I called the court house, I found out what we needed to do and proceeded to make an appointment with the circuit clerk, she told me if we could be there by 11:30 am then we could get married that day, JUNE 10TH.We applied for the license and waited in the rotunda for about 25 minutes, waiting also for our witnesses to come, which were my father and step mom.Then we all proceeded to her office found the best place to stand for good pictures and proceeded with the ceremony.As we said our vows we both almost cried with our hearts hugging each other with great joy.It was very intimate and sweet!We have a certificate that is framed and is placed in our livi

Beauty
BEAUTYOFTEN I THINK OF A GLIDING UNDULATING CARESS... YES.. IT IS HERUMMMTHE SMELL OF HER HAIR, THE WAYS OF HER MOVEMENT YET, STILL IN STRIDE...OHHH SOOO SEXXYY CLOTHED OR NOT,THE WINDED OF A SERPENTS SLITHER ON EARTH, THE BOND OF A LEECH I AM TO HER FLESH.. WHEN I THINK OF THEBEAUTYOF HER, CAPSULED ABYSSED BLOOD RUSH, SHE FLOODS MY VEINS...MY TONGUE, IT FILLS..A VENOMUS VENT OF IONIC EXTOCIES CROWNING MY THOT MODESTLY UNFOLDING HEATED PASSIONS WITHBEAUTYCHARIOT A FIREYESA FIRETHE FIRE...A BEAUTY OF ANOTHER NO MORE BE FOUND, THE VAULTS OF LONGING LEFT BEHIND US AS ASHES OF BURNING LOVE NOW SOUND..YOU AND I IN AN EXOTIC INTIMATE PLACE, NONE...NO ONE... CAPTIVATES MY LOVE AS I EMBRACEYOURBEAUTYTEAR NO MORE AS WE HOLD EACH OTHERS SOUL THREW STRIFE, THREW THE INFLAMED HELLISH GATES OF MORTAL LIFE, IT ISBEAUTYDEVOURING TIME AND TIME AGAIN OUR SWEETNESS IN LOVE BONDED TOUCHES OF TRANSPIRING WINDS..WILLINGLY IN INSTANT CONSISTANT RAGES OF FIRE, MY FIRES FLAME INGAGES YOURBEAUTYI LIVE MORTAL A

"heaven Tonight"
I hold your hand in mine I hold your hand and you're so lonely Oh so lonely Your eyes have lost their light Your eyes have lost their light and you're empty Oh my God you're so empty (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight Trying to find the heart you hide Trying to find the heart you hide in vain Oh in vain And you're my haven in life And you're my haven in death, Baby Life and Death my Darling (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight (I'm in love with you) You are my heaven tonight (I'm in love with you) [Repeat] That's right (I'm in love with you) That's right (I'm in love with you) That's right (I'm in love with you) That's right (I'm in love with you)

Just Wondering...
Have you ever met someone that from the very first moment you saw them, they completely took your breath away? That when they talked to you, it felt as if your tounge became stiff, mouth became dry, heart began to race, thoughts jumbled, and your stomach felt as if there was an enormous amount of butterflies fluttering around inside? Has anyone ever gotten through to you so clearly that they seem to be the only one you can think of? And it gets so bad that you can't stand to be away from them too long without any form of touch or communication? Do you know how it feels to have that one person that could always make you smile and laugh or even cry if only out of pure joy? Can you recall ever having cared for someone so much that the mere mention of their name purges you of every single negative feeling and brings an upbeat clarity to your day? So much so that you can't help but just start randomly speaking fondly of them just so your day can be filled with their memory? Have you ever ha

The Deadliest Sin
Delicate fingers graze the ample multitude of linens and pelts hung neatly. Shades of indigo, ebony, crimson she paints intricately over the fair features of her pallid skin. Her gaze constant, confident as the reflection before her returns with carnal glances, Emerald orbs scanning every inch of her exquisite form. She walks the streets, nose held high as it very well should be, For none merely grazes the height of her beauty…and she knows it. Snickers and white noise of back talk sling from every direction The seemingly dull piercing of blunt edged daggers from women who long to be her. To her, their words are simple child’s play. Eyes of men devour her with every effortless step she leaves. As she continues, not a care crosses her mind That she destroys their every desire with a poised turn of cheek. With a graceful flip of golden tresses, she carries on Only to find herself back at her solemn doorstep of a lifeless dwelling. Take a moment, Seek beyond th

He Never Left
He Never Left Light breeze whispersCaressing her nape.A chill sent through her body,Tingle, numbness;She hears a flutter.Could it be? Has He returned?Eyes closed,Magnificent hope,She’s awaited this moment,Longed for Him to come again.The anticipation consumes her.Her breath laboredAs if inhaling His soul.His touch,Light as the feathers that adorn him.She melts into His gentle arms.In the strength of His hands, She is protected.For though she’s already fallen,He will never let her fall.As she awakens, Gazes upon His lovely face;The kindness in His eyes,His tender lips,The essence of love that radiates from His skinEnvelops her completely.Sigh of relief, Her angel has returned.Though she doesn’t realizeHe never left.For she is His heaven,And an angel Never leaves His heaven.

Thanatopsis
by: William Cullen Bryant (1794-1878) To him who in the love of Nature holds communion with her visible forms, she speaks a various language; For his gayer hours she has a voice of gladness, and a smile and eloquence of beauty, and she glides into his darker musings, with a mild and healing sympathy, that steals away their sharpness, ere he is aware. When thoughts of the last bitter hour come like a blight over thy spirit, and sad images of the stern agony, and shroud, and pall, and breathless darkness, and the narrow house…make thee to shudder and grow sick at heart;-- Go forth, under the open sky, and list to Nature's teachings, while from all around-- earth and her waters, and the depths of air-- comes a still voice-- Yet a few days, and thee the all-beholding sun shall see no more in all his course; nor yet in the cold ground, where thy pale form was laid with many tears, nor in the embrace of ocean, shall exist thy image. Earth, that nourish'd thee, shall clai

A Psalm Of Life
A PSALM OF LIFE by: Henry Wadsworth Longfellow Tell me not in mournful numbers,"Life is but an empty dream!"For the soul is dead that slumbers,And things are not what they seem.Life is real! Life is earnest!And the grave is not its goal;"Dust thou art, to dust returnest,"Was not spoken of the soul.Not enjoyment, and not sorrow,Is our destined end or way;But to act, that each to-morrowFind us further than to-day.Art is long, and Time is fleeting,And our hearts, though stout and brave,Still, like muffled drums, are beatingFuneral marches to the grave.In the world's broad field of battle,In the bivouac of Life,Be not like dumb, driven cattle!Be a hero in the strife!Trust no Future, howe'er pleasant!Let the dead Past bury its dead!Act -- act in the living Present!Heart within, and God o'erhead!Lives of great men all remind usWe can make our lives sublime,And, departing, leave behind usFootprints on the sands of time;Footprints, that perhaps another,Sailing o'er life's solemn main,A forl

Destrehan Manor
HAUNTED LOUISIANA DESTREHAN MANOR HOUSE DESTREHAN, LOUISIANA This 1790 structure stands just thirteen miles north of New Orleans and offers visitors a rare glimpse into the historic, and haunted, tales of Louisiana plantation life. Destrehan Manor House was completed in 1790 and faces the Mississippi River about thirteen miles north of New Orleans. The house is in the Greek Revival style of the mid-1800's, when a large amount of remodeling was done. In its early days, the property also held a number of outbuildings, including nineteen slave cabins. Much of the house was changed during the remodeling, including covering over the original columns with brick Doric columns, adding curving staircases to the upper floors, a curving rear wall and plastering over the exposed ceiling beams. Extensive restoration work has also been done in recent years and the plantation has also gained notoriety by appearing in several scenes of the film, Interview wi

Time And Life
Hello Everyone Im Daniel . My life has been so far a wonderful one . spite a few difficult times .I grew up In Chicago back in the 60's 70's. . My late teens and and early adult life I was in a small suburb of Chicago . I worked after school and weekends at a McDonalds at a whole 2.65 hr. My Dad a carpenter had me helping him in the summers and some weeekends . My Uncle explained plumbing and electrical work . So I was a complete home builder . which When I turned 30 I built my 1st Home completely from the ground up . Framed and poured the concrete footings and foundations , framed all the walls . hung all the drywall, pulled all the wiring and did all the plumbing myself . I owned my company and for 9 yrs was pretty well off . . My love life started when I was 21 yes 21 and I married my 1st Love and we have a son which I think is a great young man , We were to young and familes didnt get along . Which ended 4yrs later. :( When i came home from work one day and her and her brother wa

True
After the last couple of high-energy days, you will feel relieved when things settle down in the afternoon, Pisces. You may have just solved a potentially disastrous problem in relationships (or just decided that letting it occur would be in your best interests), but a big decision about your living-space and lifestyle is pressing on your mind now. This decision will affect you for some time, so if you are moving or buying a home, make sure you know exactly what you're getting. Post Horoscope To Profile Hide Your Love Horoscope Today is a feeling of restlessness and impatience with your romantic situation, Pisces and you are wanting to do something about it, and today. The problem with this specific situation Pisces is that the dissatisfaction that is occurring with you is the result of decisions or communications that you have made. Perhaps you have been feeling too restricted or limited in a specific situation, and dealt with these feelings incorrectly. You may have made assu

Mike Mcclure Band Song
Lay your head down.. awsome sexy song..check it out You were my shining lightWhen there wasn't much light to be foundThe darkness had covered meAnd emptiness was aboundYou had such a smile on youIt brightened up my dayAnd I would walk to the ends of this earthJust to hear you saySay that it's alrightLay your head down on meClose your eyes babeAnd set yourself freeI know that you're tiredOf being so aloneOpen your heart babeLet my love take you homeNow I was a drifterOut in the nightYou were called to meWith your shining lightThe waves of yesterdayWell you made them all lie downAnd you pulled me into youSo I wouldn't drownSay that it's alrightLay your head down on meClose your eyes babeAnd set yourself freeI know that you're tiredOf being so aloneOpen your heart babeLet my love take you homeYou are my shining light in the darknessYou are my hope at the end of the dayYou are my everything I must confessAnd now baby just let me hear you saySay that it's alrightLay your head down on meClo

Time
In time we grow, not just in age, but as a person. We take the bad in with the good. We learn, not just to walk and talk, but through out life. We never stop growing and learning. We look around, and see the young grow older and wiser. The old pass on to better places. In time our fate shall be the same, but until then. We live our life in this time, growing, learning, just living life.

Coward
Can love paralyze a man? Is it possible for that which gives us our greatest strength to leave us shackled to the wall? I have never been in more despair. My love is totally out of my reach yet closer than I would dare hope. She stays at my side and all I know is the sweet fragrance of her skin, the gentle touch of her hand. I am held captive by the light of her eyes. Raging against my bondage with the desire to devour her lips with gentle kisses that subside only for those stronger, passionate embraces that allow man and woman to leave this world behind while tangled and lost in each other. My love loves not me. Why does she do this to me?! I can write off the world but not her. Why can't I extinguish this flame?

Simple
Spinning like a child,Whirling with the wind.Time fly's and the world spins,Older now, yet still spinning as a child.My mind is racing,Time is pacing.With every changing season,My body continues fading.Life is simple,As a kid spinning.The wind blowing,Leaving your clothes in a rumple.The sky so blue,The air so clean.You're free as a bird,With air beneath your wings.

My Sign
The Goat December 22 to January 20 Traditional Capricorn Traits Practical and prudent Ambitious and disciplined Patient and careful Humorous and reserved On the dark side.... Pessimistic and fatalistic Miserly and grudging

Rose Of
As I plant a seed into the soil, the soil of my unpredictable life. Hoping for each seed to blossom throughout the darken night.Without the knowledge of knowing what each seed will form into...But a rose I wish upon a star for this precious seed to beI will pray so my rose will be a rose filled with love and beautyWith Gracefulness and CharmA rose that would be viewed as a quantum characteristic that accounts for the existence of loveA while It took to search for the perfect seed, till I found the one that spoke the language of love back to meThe seed of desire that will blossom intoA perfect love for me to call my own. The petals on that rose Will be the petals that present my lifesuch a life I will live, for all I long for is to find the perfect love to call my own...Such beauty, such desireSuch sweet scent I want you to hold proudlyI will not fear to see what you might become For I shall not walk away I will be here waiting for you You are my beautyYou are my pathYou are the rose I

The Love Of Ink!
well is is my story of y i love tattoos!! i got my first tat when i was 20. i thought it was the coolst thing, hurt like a mutha but i did it! im my opinion your body is a caves waiting to be painted on! by the time i die and move on my body will tell my life story! each tat represents something about me. lol lets take my stars for example, ppl allways ask y did you get stars? well i got 6 stars cuz im only a 6 star guy being out of ten, so i got roon to learn and be a better man!! so when i think iv addvansed i will keep adding them till i have ten! i dont think that will ever happen cuz il never be perfect. my tiger represents me and my personality! if any of you know me well you know what i meen. to me when im under the gun getting ink done, man i feel like im in heaven!! ppl say it hurts and dont get me wrong sometimes it does! but theres no better kinda pain!! its like a piece of history is being place on you and you keep it with you forever!! i love when i have extra money and ca

To All The Kids Who Survived The 1930 's, 40's, 50's, 60's And 70's!!
TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED the 1930 's, 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's!! First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they were pregnant. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes. Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-based paints. We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention, the risks we took hitchhiking. As infants &children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, booster seats, seat belts or air bags. Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat. We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle. We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE actually died from this. We ate cup cakes, white bread and real butter and drank Kool-aid made with sugar, but we weren't overweight because,

Born Again
A long time ago a man had an idea. He attempted to see if he could get it off the ground with a few of his friends.. but that didn't work out too well. This man later decided to try things a little diffrently. Thus the first incarnation of "Questionable Intent" was born. Unfortunatly a series of unfortunate events caused that to be taken off the priority list. This time however. Ezra Cold... the man who had an idea, has finaly gotten things to a place where Questionable Intent can once again be brought back. Perminantly this time. So welcome friends, To a new chapter in a diffrent idea.

Capabilities
I haven't ranted in quite a while, so here goes... I have an amazingly wonderful (and sometimes completely aggravating) talent. It's called a bullshit detector. I am REALLY good at reading people and situations. This is a talent I believe I was born with, and cultivated through my years of working with the public. My job now is technically not necessary, but I am very good at what I do, and I make good money doing it. Part of my job is being able to size up whether or not someone is wasting my time, and not spending fruitless hours trying to obtain the impossible. Same goes for the people on here. I know there are quite a few people on here who don't like me. I know there are quite a few who have made it their mission to try to piss me off. Here's the deal, I don't kiss my boss's ass and he signs my checks. I don't kiss my customer's asses and they make me my commission, so why the fuck do some of you people think that I am going to bend over and kiss yours? It's NOT GOING TO HAPP

Why I Carry A Gun:
My old grandpa said to me son,' there comes a time in every mans life when he stops bustin' knuckles and starts bustin' caps and usually it's When he becomes too old to take an ass whoopin', I don't carry a gun to kill people. I carry a gun to keep from being killed. I don't carry a gun to scare people. I carry a gun because sometimes this world can be a scary place. I don't carry a gun because I'm paranoid. I carry a gun because there are real threats in the world. I don't carry a gun because I'm evil. I carry a gun because I have lived long enough to see the evil in the world. I don't carry a gun because I hate the government. I carry a gun because I understand the limitations of government. I don't carry a gun because I'm angry. I carry a gun so that I don't have to spend the rest of my life hating myself for failing to be prepared. I don't carry a gun because I want to shoot someone. I carry a gun because I want to die at a ripe old age in my bed, and not on a sidewalk somewhere t

Vida
...... lo que realizo es las manos que se alimentan la boca no son todos los caminos la mano que se alimenta, ahora debeiia yo estar de pie en el coridoor de abandono.. o llevar a hombros el falues de una leccion aprendida sin excusas.. es el tiempo que la mosca por y no espera a ningun hombre, mujer, o nino, en estas opciones de vida son hechos la cama que a menudo buscamos es el que que hemos puesto.. coger de su destino por los caminos de opciones choosen para ser, lanzo el corazon que duele dolores.. es la vida vivimos como un no en vano... FUEGO POETICAS

This Sickens Me
www.wptv.com/content/news/indianriver/verobeach/story/Baby-left-in-hot-car-dies-in-Vero-Beach/Mr3SVqEHo0m440_Kizm_ig.cspx This sickens me to the core of my soul. Many will sympathize. Many will disagree. But I believe there is NO excuse or reason to forget your child for that many hours ANYWHERE, let alone in the backseat of a car on a blistering hot day. How do you do that? Anyone who thinks that death by heatstroke is a pleasant way to go needs to go sit in a hot car for just 20 minutes. Parents who do this should suffer the same fate. I have no room for forgiveness when it comes to this kind of neglect.

Conjectural Contemplation
It’s true. I spend too much time worrying about other people. I worry about their happiness, their health and the dynamics between them and I. I can honestly say that often, too many times, I place others before myself and in turn leave my own heart and health broken and at the mercy of the waves of the world.Worse, I feel helpless almost every day and fight to hold on to the things that bring me joy, even though I often feel them slipping through my fingers like sand and slowly escaping me.I am in love, with someone whom I think is simply amazing. Yet, somehow I feel this sense of desperation and emptiness. His heart is a muddled mess of confusion and full of battle wounds from loves’ once lost. Each day I grow closer to this man and pray that I am enough, I want to help him, hold him and show him how good love can really be, still I worry that he could be ripped from my life at any moment and wonder how and if I could even deal with that.Is it possible to love someone TOO

Rest In Peace
I REMEMBER THE FIRST DAY LIKE IT WAS YESTURDAY.... IT WAS MY 19TH BIRTHDAY AND I CAME IN HE BAR IN TEARS CUZ MY BF HAD LEFT ME AND YOU WRAPPED YOUR ARMS AROUND ME TELLING ME IT WOULD BE ALRIGHT... WE SAT THERE AND DRANK FOR HOURS TALKING ABOUT HOW YOU MET MY DAD AND HOW WE WOULD ALWAYS WATCH OUT FOR EACH OTHER... YOU WERE THERE FOR ME WHEN MY DAD WASN'T AND I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU LIKE A FATHER FIGURE AND MAY THE ANGELS HELP PUT YOU AT EASE... I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND ALTHOUGH YOUR GONE TO A BETTER PLACE WHERE YOU DON'T FEEL THE PAIN.... I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH REST IN PEACE UNCLE SQUIRREL

New To Fubar
Hello All,Today a friend did invited me to Fubar, and i thought well take a look and see what it is ..never did hear from Fubar before.Well and see here I am ..Think fubar is a nice place to meet new friends and spent some time at.Thanks all for the nice welcome!!!! ps: will ad soon more to this blog

More
moreHe is more than my companionHe is more that my guiding lighthe is more than my escortHe is my life accompanimenthe is my life's mateHe completes meShe is my heartshe is my soulShe is my beingShe makes me laughshe makes me cryshe completes meWe are the air that the other breathswe are each others heart beattwo hearts beating intime wanting to be oneso today I ask my heartmy soul my companion, Mybest friend to join me as one.

A Feeling
A feeling the sun shines thru the haze of the day as you watch the blue blue sky. Just as life seems a maze And your confused by the events of the day. When you think your carring the world on your shoulders.and That no one cares. You need a laugh you need a hug you need to wipe the tears away. Stand up take a deep breath and face the day. Grab your paint brush and paint the world.as it comes to you. Know your not alone in feeling this way. Break thru the haze of the day.Send the feelings aray.Break yourself free.You know thats the key.

Alone
Alonealone in an empty world of darkness.With no light I sit by myself with no one to holdno one to share my emptiness I sit herein the darkness staring down the road waiting to see you the peoplepass by and no one cares It just grows darker and darker In myhell I am alone I see it now so alone.

This Has To Last
This has to last.I lean in and kiss your lipsTasting the remnants of the dinner I cooked.I look deep in to your eyesBecause its time to go.I kiss you againThis will have to last.Till I am in your armsI will crawl back in to your armsI'll hold you againI just have to make this lastTill we are together againwill it last?Will you forget?Can onekiss lastwill I still feel your lipsone, two, four hours from now?It has to it just hasto be enough to carry us thru.To remind us of each other

Dead Inside
Dead inside Have faith in meKNow I am always hereKnow I am trust worthyKNow what I say is truemy heart is shatteredMy heart is brokenI am dieing inside.Am I already dead My heart beats but I feel nothingmy feet step But yet I don't seeYOu tell me to have faith in youWhy Have you proven that you are trustworthy?A heart can only take so muchThen it takes over itself closing itself offbuilding that wall.Leaving me feeling dead inside

Soulmate
Soul Mate I found the person of my dreams... Some one that makes me thinks...Someone that makes me dream... Someone to make me smile...Someone to help me reach my goals... My hopes... My dreams... Its you that my heart is fond of The one that inspires me The one that I want to spend the rest of my life with.You’re my Soul mate My mate for lifeThe one I want to dream about The one I want to wake up to

This Thing Called Love
This thing called lovecold sweatshot flashesits an itch Ijust can't scratchthis thing called loveit heats me upit sets me ablazeI just can't get enoughmy hearts on fireIts a rash I can't controlthis thing called love is drivingme crazyI can't eat I can't sleepI have to get control of this thingthing called love before it destroys methis thing called love

Way Me
Why Me?Why me Hun?Why my heart?Why do you love me so?Why confess this to me?Why say the words now?Why does this confuse me so?Why me? Why me?Why do you dothis to me?Why me? Why me?Why do these feeling haunt me?Why do they haunt you?Why do they taunt?Why me?Why us?Why now?

Www.jesus.com
www.jesus.comI miss you soI wish we couldtalk again.If only for a minuteso I could say good bye.Someone once told me try www.jesus.comI looked at them and laughed.I didn't know what else to do.www.jesus.com seemed like a crazy ideaI sat down at my computer tonightI typed in the address and my fingerswrote to Jesus. I asked him why?I asked why you? His answer came back.My dear sweet child she is still alive for you always have memories.Know this to my child the breathing part is in heaven my child.The breathing part is in heaven.

God Loves Blondes
God Loves Blondes A blonde finds herself in serious trouble. Her business has gone bust and she's in dire financial straits. She's so desperate that she decides to ask God for help. She begins to pray..."God, please help me. I've lost my business and if I don't get some money, I'm going to lose my house as well. Please let me win the Lotto." Lotto night comes, and somebody else wins it. She again prays..."God, please let me win the Lotto! I've lost my business, my house and I'm going to lose my car as well." Lotto night comes and she still has no luck. Once again, she prays..."My God, why have You forsaken me? I've lost my business, my house, and my car. My children are starving. I don't often ask You for help, and I have always been a good servant to You. PLEASE let me win the Lotto just this one time so I can get my life back in order." Suddenly there is a blinding flash of light as the heavens open. The blonde is overwhelmed by the Voice of God Himself..."Sweetheart, work wi

More Geordie A-z
aboot for about ahent for behind alreet (/'a:lri:t/) a variation on alright or Hello (Some times used as alreet mate) awer for "over" as in "Hoy it awer, pet!" meaning "Throw it over, dear." (See below for hoy and pet). aye for "yes" bairn/grandbairn for "child/grandchild" banter for "chat/gossip" bi for pen: shortened version of a biro buk for book pronounce bOOk cannit 'cannot' canny for "pleasant" (the Scottish use of canny is often somewhat less flattering), or to mean 'quite'. Someone could therefore be 'canny canny' in the same way someone can be 'pretty pretty' in standard English. carcastic for 'sarcastic' chiv for "knife" chor "to steal" chud/chuddy chewing gum clart for "mud" as in "there's clarts on yar boot

Down.
Fake ass friends with theirDemeaning, snarky smilesAnd their false greetingsThinly disguising vicious wilesSo I keep onPlaying this gameWondering if it'sThem or me to blameAnd I keep biting my tongueTo keep from sayingWhat I really want to sayBecause it's not at all whatThey want to hear and they'llLeave me aloneI don't want to be leftOn my own In this cold, dark hellOf my own creationDying slowly fromMisanthropic starvationSave me from myselfDon't let me push mySelf destruct buttonDon't let me push my... Self destruct... 321...Terminated.

Confused!!!
What is this feeling I have?I seem to be falling for youBut other times I seem to be ok without youI can't be without youOr maybe just without anyoneI think about you all the timeBut why do I have this feeling?I long for your voiceAnd I would die to hear your laugh or your singing voiceBut is this something that could ever beOr merely lust of wanting something you cant not have? These are questions I have to ask myselfWhy let myself fall for something or someone that may never beAre you a game or whatAre you something that I long for? What is this and could it ever be?This is something I have to figure outI thought I knew the answers to my questions But now I am not sure. Some how I seem to second guess my self, Are you real, is what you say for real?Or is this just what I want to hear? In time all questions will be answered. They say all good things come to a end,When will this end I am wondering?I will find the truth I am looking forTime always tells.

A Little Bout Me
was sup ppl new on flube as you all know a little bout my i have twin wonderful twin boys im a single father they live with me ther mom chooses not to have anything to do to them.I posted a few pics of them and ugly me >.> but for you single ladies around ohio hit me up if you want to cat to get to know me or jsut to be friends

Fired
a year of memories gone astray pictures in my heart haunting my day one right after another they come wonderful they are angry are some so resentful am I of your decision your smile sets my foolish prison my heart is cracked right down the middle I feel as if I were the fiddle played until you grew tired as your queen I was fired a peasant once again I go a feeling again I never wished to know a life of what ifs I am now to live my heart has no more to give my love for granted ahs been taken and now I am forever shaken at the thought of moving on and grasping that you are gone

Remember The Ones You Love ???
Remember your loved ones ... Even when they piss you off. My friend that has been battling cancer is my age. She is losing the battle fast and is running around making arrangements for her death. She has a 9 and 7 year old and is putting things in place for them. Tapes of her reading stories. Tapes of her battle and how she feels about them. The nine year old I wrote about previously, he said to his Mother that he may as well kill himself if he hasn't got her .... broke my heart when I heard that one ... She is coming to talk to me soon, I have been told by my ex, and I now have to face this brave woman who, on her deathbed, has made me one of her outgoing tasks. I have never felt more honored nor more humbled. Don't take the ones you love for granted, one day, without a chance to say goodbye, they may no longer be there ... Lots of Love being sent to all ..... xoxoxo

World Rock Radio
Well its back...World Rock Radio except this time we will be what we were supposed to be..a true net station with many great things attached. We are now hiring DJS...interested hit me and leave me a message. Rock On DJ Evil

Sdgfasdgas
Work was just blah today...Nothing exciting at all. Had a hour and half meeting about this new attendance policy that me and some managers went over a couple months ago. Pretty good changes that has happened. Glad we don't have to go over that stuff again.. having to do a 8 hour conferance call with people in St Louis was not fun. I weighed myself this morning and grumbled...I should take a gun to it and make it make me lose weight faster. Yesterday I was on the computer going through my email at work and they had some photos up from the Summer Event that we had going on Sunday. Omg, I looked horriable in those pics... I wanted to cry seeing how fat I was. And great, the whole Nike campus can see those photos. Just makes me even want to lose weight even more. Hmm Doomsday movie is on....they're doing the can can music now...crazy... Two more days of work..then I dunno what I'm gonna do on my days off. I think I'll hit the mall down in portland and abuse my free bus pass I got this m

Moonlit Love
Come take a walk with me,Along the moonlit sand.No words need be spoken,Joined together hand in hand.The full moon is rising,The waves crashing around.The sound of the ocean soothing,Only our footprints left on the ground.I study you in the moonlight,Your face etched in my mind.Your hair tumbles over your forehead,How are you so beautiful and kind.I know that luck is with me,When I look into your eyes.All I see is perfection,From the sand you begin to rise.So on this moonlit beach,My heart begins to race.As you kiss my lips,A single tear rolls down my face.

U.s.s. Abraham Lincoln And The Lighthouse
This is based on an actual radio conversation between a U.S. Navyaircraft carrier (U.S.S. Abraham Lincoln) and Canadian authoritiesoff the coast of Newfoundland in October, 1995. (The radioconversation was released by the Chief of Naval Operations on10/10/95 authorized by the Freedom of Information Act.) Canadians: Please divert your course 15 degrees to the South toavoid collision. Americans: Recommend you divert your course 15 degrees to theNorth to avoid a collision. Canadians: Negative. You will have to divert your course 15degrees to the South to avoid a collision. Americans: This is the Captain of a US Navy ship. I say again,divert YOUR course. Canadians: No, I say again, you divert YOUR course. Americans: THIS IS THE AIRCRAFT CARRIER USS LINCOLN, THE SECONDLARGEST SHIP IN THE UNITED STATES' ATLANTIC FLEET. WE AREACCOMPANIED BY THREE DESTROYERS, THREE CRUISERS AND NUMEROUSSUPPORT VESSELS. I DEMAND THAT YOU CHANGE YOUR COURSE 15 DEGREESNORTH--I SAY AGAIN, THAT'S

The Word Fuck
Perhaps one of the most interesting and colorful words in the English language today is the word "fuck". It is the one magical word which, just by its sound, can describe pain, pleasure, love, and hate. In language, "fuck" falls into many grammatical categories. It can be used as a verb, both transitive (John fucked Mary) and intransitive (Mary was fucked by John). It can be an action verb (John really gives a fuck), a passive verb (Mary really doesn't give a fuck), an adverb (Mary is fucking interested in John), or as a noun (Mary is a terrific fuck). It can also be used as an adjective (Mary is fucking beautiful) or an interjection (Fuck! I'm late for my date with Mary). It can even be used as a conjunction (Mary is easy, fuck she's also stupid). As you can see, there are very few words with

Part Omg Is This 7 ? Master/slave
"From the people i have talked to who have attempted this type of relationship..." I wonder, when you say this, if by “this type” of relationship you mean a chattel property one such as I described at the start of this post, with those same hallmark characteristics. "...I haven't heard of anything with a shelf life of over 5 years." People don’t do M/s relationships because they guarantee longevity. No relationship can guarantee longevity. I think all the relationships we have are subject to ordinary human emotional issues, and social/cultural forces we are all influenced by. I know of M/s relationships which cover the gamut from an abortive few-months long attempt, to those which have lasted 20 and more years. I suspect the breakdown of “how many relationships last for how long” follows a pretty typical curve that is common in our country: most couple-relationships reach dissolution in decreas

Asdgfsga
So it's 11pm and I'm still up...and I have to wake up for work tomorrow at 4am. I'm gonna be hella tired lol. I'll be heading to bed here soon though. I'm watching some type of Japanese game show..they always have the weirdest games....I want to play!! My ex is on his computer playing WoW...his love... his life.. ha ha.. I don't even know why he still keeps the wedding ring on. After this work weekend, Im going to go through more stuff...stuff to trash and goodwill... i'd love to try to sell some of the stuff but I just want it all gone. I don't think we'll have that much of a problem of gathering stuff up when I move out..I think the only tihng we'll probably fight for is one of the cats. LOL!! I know he's not too fond of Mittens...she's my baby girl. She follows me everywhere...she's on my lap right now...hehe my baby....Then there's Tigger....a true Garfield... I know he loves Tigger the most, but I'm taking both cats...I take better care of them....mine..both mine.....my furry c

Addiction
Ok, So for those of the people who are on my friends list most of you know that I am a drug addicit or I should say a recovering drug addicit. I am not now nor ever will I ask for anyones pitty or sympathy for what I am or was. Nor will I ask of it for the things I did to anyone or myself over the 7 yrs I battled this demon. I am 28 now for 7yrs I allowed a drug known as Crack to run my life. To control every waking moment I had or non waking moments I had. There is no excuse for the use of drugs. I know this now I didnt know it 7yrs ago. I was using this drug to cope with daily life events, also I used this drug to fit it with people whom I cared deeply for and thought they did in return. I have done things that I was not then or now proud of doing. I have hurt the people who meant the most to me in this world. I can not change the things I have done I would if that was within my power to do. Cause the last thing I would ever want to do in the world is hurt someone who truely loved me

Comin Out Over Top
Men always want to be a woman's first love. Women have a more subtle instinct: What they like is to be a man's last romance Friends will keep you sane, Love could fill your heart, A lover can warm your bed, But lonely is the soul without a mate. I'm a romantic -- a sentimental person thinks things will last -- a romantic person hopes against hope that they won t. Love stories are only fit for the solace of people in the insanity of puberty. No healthy adult human being can really care whether so-and-so does or does not succeed in satisfying his physiological uneasiness by the aid of some particular person or not Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks yo

Morning 'would'? - Part I
My house wasn't finished being built until December, and it didn't take me all of 4 hours after settlement to move in. Maybe that's why she didn't see me right away; or even realize that someone was now living behind her. For the purposes of this post, I'll call her 'K'. She is a late thirty something nurse who has lived behind me for the past 2 years now. Divorced, with a 7 or 8 year old daughter that she sees every other weekend, K is a very quiet and considerate neighbor. She's about 5 ft. 5 in. tall, dark brown hair, hazel eyes and is in pretty good shape. Every morning around 5:30 A.M., I roll out of bed, feed my dog, grab a smoke, and sit out on the patio with cup of coffee to start the day. Sometimes with a t-shirt on, but most of the time, weather permitting, wearing just my very form-fitting boxer briefs. You know the kind. 100% cotton and they hug everything, including my receding morning wood, that at this point, is only a semi hard, half rubbery mass that's still trying to

Someone
You walk thru my soul, your beauty makes me fall to my knees, and i cant believe u dont see all that you are to me how you can make me so blind to all others that presue me the love i have for you will never fade even as we age but knowin i will never be in your arms is slowly killin me inside i know i cant be alone i need someone to hold me to make me feel needed to take the edge off my desire but always know my my love no matter who im with in the end its your name that willl be the last on my lips the last thought in this life

Thingz That Make Heartz Break ..
Pretty Smiles Deceving LaughsAnd People who Dream with their eyes wide open Lonely ChildrenUnanwserd CriesAnd Souls who have givin up hopeing the outher thing that breaks heartzR fairy talez that never come true And Selfish people who lie 2 me Selfish people just like you

Rapscallion
This is a new feature I decided to add to my many interests. The evolution of language based upon the forces of modernity. RAPSCALLION Old Definition: –noun a rascal; rogue; scamp. New Definition: -noun A song about somebody with bad breath See... RAP (what this video is) and SCALLION (a type of onion). Shove them together and RAPSCALLION is what a video about bad breath is now and forever to be called.

Vamp
as i walk in this cold dark word i sem to fall in love with a vampire.. his eyes get me lost in them. his kiss drives me wild. when he bites my neck i loss all fram of time and space.. when he talks to me i loss were i am at and get lost in him.. he body drives me so wild that i shiver at the site of it... know that he loves me is the best part of loveing this vampire... i bet all wonder how this vamp how stole my heart is.... his name is spike he has stole this dur's heart in more ways then one.... yes i have fallen for a vampire .. but how cares he has me for ever... spike i love so much that i be lost with out you

*there's A Perfectly Good Explaination
My chest is achingMy heart is on the floorI've given up on everythingYet you still want moreMy throat is still bleedingFrom the screams that I've madeYou've turned your back on meNeglecting all that I gaveThere's a distant look in my eyesGod gave up on meWhy shouldn't I?

The Seduction Of Marie
Sendign gifts can lead to better and lovelier things.... Sending a condom... She Replies:You'll have to open it and place it in my mouth...quite difficult to do these things with my arms tied down...but first can I have just a taste? The texture of a hard throbbing head slipping just inside my mouth and the prized for tonguing the hole makes me very wet... He replies:For you, yes. I'll stand next to you as your tied laying on the table, a limb tied to each leg of the table, cock out and throbbing hard at the sight of your naked body tied to my table. Stepping forward to inch my cock by your mouth, I hold it down just close enough for you to lick the tip or it, watching me throb as your tounge touches me. I step a little closer allowing you to wrap your lips around the head, and step even closer as I tip toe my fingers down your body with one hand, flicking your nipples, dancing around your belly and cupping your dripping silky pussy in the palm of my hand, holding your ponytail in m

Image Or Reality
She’s a figure of my imagination, or is she real? A devil on earth; masquerading around as a woman on the prowl for a kill. If I tell you that this woman is bad, then she’s more dangerous then a child on a jackhammer drill. This girl is fly, I can’t lie and she really caught my eye like a base runner waiting for a steal. Is this woman here real or is she fake. An angle sent down that stumbled onto her wake. She’s beautiful and delicate with a gentle sway to her gait. Impossible to wonder what it is she wears up under that silky red dress that she displays. Could she be just another pawn in this game? All I want to do is get close to ask her name. But with all the other guys around trying to spend their change. It’s hard for me to take charge and push through the crowd of gents and dames. All in all, I really just want to know the deal. How could she be a person if her face shows she doesn’t feel? Not even a frown when on her dress liquor did someone spill. But wh

Sometimes My Thinking Gets The Best Of Me.
Sometimes life is hard, sometimes it’s easy. Sometimes we spread our wings and take flight, sometimes we hang onto those we care for and just need to be loved. I have been stepping over some big hurdles here lately and I am keeping my head up and staying strong the best way I know how. I am trying to make positive changes to things I can alter and maintaining strength about the things I can’t do anything about. Now as I move forward I have to smile and know that it’s all a rollercoaster and I can see the upwards hill coming !

Health Care Wanted : Dead Or Alive
Health Care Wanted: Dead or Alive Tuesday, 18 August 2009 The masquerade is over! The "public option" is ... dead. Health care reform is now a private option: WHICH FOR PROFIT INSURANCE COMPANY DO YOU WANT? You have to choose. And you have to pay. If you have a low income, under HR3200 government will subsidize the private insurance companies and you will still have to pay premiums, co-pays and deductibles. The Administration plan requires that everyone must have health insurance, so it is delivering tens of millions of new "customers" to the insurance companies. Health care? Not really. Insurance care! Absolutely. Cost controls? No chance. You will next hear talk about "co-ops." The truth is that insurance company campaign contributions have co-opted the public interest. I need your help to spread the word and rally the nation around true healthcare reform which covers everyone and maintains fiscal integrity without breaking our nation's bank! Your contribution will empower our ef

Metal In My Head: Words Of The Mildly Insane.
Weather its the demons inside of me..or the hate i hold for humanity..im way beyound sanity..i could careless..of anothers health..just the tought..of being around..the sickness and death..has made me a bit cold..sold out by others..and yet..hey..here i still stand..not a whole man..just a sick minded fool..used like that of a tool..my appearence..all black..over sized skull candy earphones..hook up to a small size ipod..metal in my head..still rings out..a shallow being..not fit to walk amongst the living..but not wanted amongst the dead..still wasting time..just a line at a time..trying to find..where i belong..weather i have a beer in hand..or a shotgun the next..its all the same to me..i am like fine chaos..or a sweet dark kiss..on the otherside of the fence..come along..and you cant miss..the tall dark and handsome figure..standing in the shadows..just a yard from the edge..wanting someone to come push me..so i can them with me..and all this..from just metal plates in my head.

Too All My Haters!lol
I keep it real and that's a promise.I may be a bitch but atleast i'm honest.When i walk by you stop and stare,well keep lookin' cause i dont care.I have my own life and style,not trying to please you or make you smile.When it comes to compotition you are out,so shut your hattin' ass and keep me out of your mouth....... Fuck the fake***

Family
family the part of u that keeps u going the focus that keeps u in the rigt mind family is the essence of u that keeps u alive focused and ready to breathe the power of family is strong and intense family is waht we believe in what makes us do right even after we have done wrong in our lives because family lets us set down and head to the point of understanding family is free powerful strong and family is what we all need.

Helpful Stuff To Get Started With
ive been working on computers 20 plus years since i was very young ,other people contrube things they are talented at so this is my contrubution .now i cant give the links in here ive tried and fu says they block links in blogs so im going to give you some site names to google antionline this is a great site it is a online community where alot of white hats and other computer experts come together to share and exchange knowlesge its not limited to secuirty feild althouth that is the main focus of the site , freecreed this is a good yahoo related site with such things as links to other useful sites on everything remotley related to yahoo also included are arcives of old messy builds various other programs some not related to yahoo at all theeldergeek this is a great site i know such a wide ranging amount of stuff its impossible to remember stuff so i go to this site alot when repairing windows computers i use it on a regular basis its the most comprehensive windows related site ive

When Tomorrow Starts Wihout Me
When you open your eyes And realize I will no longer lies Beside you once more. But don’t cry It was my time to walk thru Deaths door. I wish you wouldn’t cry over me Cause now I am free. To live the life I wanted too I just wish you knew But when tomorrow starts without me I just hope you can try and understand, please It was my time to leave this place So please don’t cry when you think of my face I don’t want people to cry When they think of the way we said good bye I had so much to live for There was so much for me to do and much more When I think of how you cry over me I just want to wipe your tears away and make you see How happy I am now So don’t cry sad tears over me, it is not allow When I think of all the days we spent together The good ones and the bad ones from there to here When I think of all the love we shared And how much you and I cared If I could relive just one day I would use that day to say How much I love you and hug you Maybe e

Why Should I Use Private Label Content Instead Of Free Reprint Articles?
A question I often receive from my subscribers is: why buy private label content while one can get reprint articles for free from article directories?' Well, in this article I will tell you about the several advantages that private label content has over reprint articles! 1. No author and outbound links required: With reprint articles, you are required to give an outbound link as credit to the author of the article (usually, the outbound link is already present in the article; you just cannot remove it). You also cannot put your name as the author of the article. With private label articles, however, you can not only put your name as the author of the content, but also insert your own links in the article instead of someone else's. This is like the difference between working for someone else and working for yourself: while the first option will earn you enough to keep your body and soul together, the second option will help you live the kind of high quality life you want t

Could Care Less What They Say.
I may be judged..but who here..is really fit to judge me..in sins..we all have..in life we all live..you are not me..and i am not you..your words could matter less to me..your life I could care less..these words i say..are just that of a man..that is tired..of the users..of the fakes..the cheats..the liers..the whatever..been here by my own will..and that of god..i could care less what another thinks of me..for they arent helping me..nor care for me..i handle all things that come my way..without a helping hand..just a man alone..and if so..then so be it..never needed a co signer on ****..and still wont..been on top..and the bottom..life is full of ups and downs..just been around to long..to let another talk down on me..as if they are my better..you are not my equal..you are as i am..human..untill you reach godhood..you are the same as me..weather your older of younger than me..still going to be the same..bleed in pain..and reborn in gods name..but belive this..i would rather burn all i

Special Instructions Capricorn Cancer Mates
Capricorn-Cancer Compatibility Without good communication this relationship between Capricorn and Cancer will become dead.These are opposite signs in the zodiac. Complementary and also a competitive relationship. Ambitious and success are the keynote. The sensitive Cancer will feel hurt or neglected. Cancer admires and benefits from Capricorn's sense of duty and responsibility but Capricorn sometime lacks the sentiments, warmth and loving care, which is very important to Cancer. Although they're astrological opposites, these two have lots in common.Those gorgeous old goats are tremendous traditionalists, imbued with a strong sense of history.There could be problems in paradise even for this pair, if the Capricorn is so steeped in Victorian morals and standards that they can never let themselves go .If these sensitive swains want their relationship to work, they've got to form their very own mutual admiration society.Both of them need reams of reassurance, otherwise the Cancerian may wo

The Urban Decoy
My mom called me Grizzly Adams yesterday, probably because I haven’t shaved in a full two weeks. This is easily the longest I’ve ever cultivated facial hair. It makes me look older, and softens my manlier features. But the piercing eyes are still there….. ladies *wink*. Sorry, I’m such a dork…. Hunting season is upon us, and I'm a little behind in prep work. So I headed out to Young Conservation Area in Eureka, Missouri, on Saturday afternoon to hang a tree stand. As I expected, there were several other hunters already there, only three of which I ever saw, plus an older couple running their dogs. But I did get to appreciate a few minutes of the camaraderie that comes with hunting. There’s almost an immediate opening of the gates to welcome other hunters as if they’re old friends. It’s really pretty cool, if you ever get the chance to experience it! It was a cool day, 70 degrees by the last Bank I passed, something for which I was ver

Eternal Life
And again.The light fought back the darkness.Silent darkness...It fought back the fog.Merciful fog covering earth.Protecting from the light.Glaring light.Too glaring.Pains.Heat.Fire.Sun lighting the vampire.Sun lighting meas it once burned my soul.Hiding.Where to go?Merciful darkness.Hiding shadows.Protecting me from light.From sunlight.Sunrays touching me.And again pains...Escaping.Hiding.Shadow.A place to pass the day.Keeping my death away.Sleep.Passing time.Finally the sun sets.The night’s coming.Beautiful night.Merciful night.Poor little vampire.Had to say goodbye to the day.Only the night for living.But uncountable nights...

Growing Old With You
No poems, no fancy cards, no flowers, no jewelry, no expensive dinners. Just a very simple thank you. I know you don't hear that enough from anyone, but hear it from me now. Thank you. Thank you for saving my life all those years ago. Thank you for loving me no matter how crazy I become. Thank you for supporting me when you had really rather not. Thank you for agreeing to disagree with me most of the time. Thank you for allowing me to be me....sometimes. Thank you for never going to bed angry. Thank you for dealing with my loved ones and teaching me how to deal with yours. Thank you for getting mad at me but always letting me make you smile so that I know that it will be okay. Thank you for being broke with me and worrying with me even though we both know we will be just fine. Thank you for being too busy with everything in the world but still taking time to sit on the porch with me and talk. Thank you for always telling me that you love me just before you fall asleep. Thank you for be

Why Beer Is Better Than Women
WHY BEER IS BETTER THAN WOMEN 1. BEER don't get jealous when you grab another BEER 2. When you go to a bar you can always pick up a BEER 3. A BEER won't get upset when you come home with another BEER on your breath 4. You don't have to wine and dine BEER 5. If you pour a BEER right you'll always get head 6. Hangovers go away 7. When you finish with a BEER, the bottle is still worth 10 cents 8. You don't have to wash a BEER before it tastes good 9. A BEER always goes down easy 10. You can share a BEER with a friend 11. BEER is always wet 12. You know your always the first one to pop a BEER 13. A frigid BEER is a good BEER 14. You can have more than one BEER in a night and not feel guilty (for some guys) 15. You can enjoy BEER all month long 16. BEER will never cry for no reason at all 17. BEER doesn't care how you look 18. You can kill beer before it gets old

Men’s Mentality And Why Women Don’t Or Will Never Understand
IF YOU CAN'T READ SOMETHING WITHOUT GETTING OFFENDED THEN DON'T READ THIS! HOPEFULLY THIS IS EDUCATIONAL TO SOME WOMEN AND HELPS THEM UNDERSTAND THERE MAN, IF NOT THERE IS NO HELP FOR YOU. I would like to start off by saying women you are book smarter than men are, and some women are common sense smarter also. Womens brains are so complex that they don't know how to control all the complexities at one time. It is a proven statistic that 85% of women have a mental disorder. When you ask us what we are thinking you honestly don't want to know what we are thinking, because when we tell yall what we are thinking you get all pissed off at us. Then if we lie to yall you know it and you want the truth but we know that the truth will offend you so we don't want to tell yall. When women ask men what they think of an article of clothing you are asking the wrong person that is what your girlfriends are for. You have to remember you are asking the same men that smell there clothes before

For My Love
For My Love I can't stop thinking about you. My heart wonders if you’re for real or just some trick waiting to break my heart again. I feel this tugging at my heart when I see you log on. I get all excited feeling you’re the one. The one I have waited for all this time. The one I can truly finally call mine. I feel this closeness to you I just can't explain. Like I have known you forever. My body aches for your touch in the middle of the night. The warmth of your skin up close to mine. Our hearts beat as one as our souls intertwine. I get this surge of love when I hear your voice. The want to be near you, to feel your breathe on my skin. Our lips touching and tasting each other for real. The thought of our love making blows my mind away. I need you my darling in more ways then one. I want to be loved and give love in return, to make each other happy like we never were. I want all of this because I know its true the love I feel deep inside for you.

Ex's And Ooooo"s
you told me love was a fiction you showed me it was true you told me fate was fiction but then i fell for you you told me fairy tales never come true tell me then is this why im so blue you told me that you loved me then ran to another o so quickly they say love is blind but tell me who is really out of their mind?

Untitled
I sit here all alone at home. Thinkin wishin i had that thick fine white curvylicious bbw to hold & cuddle. To have & snuggle. Bored with nothin on my mind. Feelin all dissociated. No one never around. My life i feel is down. Not even wantin to know why. Sometimes i rather just go & hide somewhere & cry. Instead of bein here. I just wanna tear. Word's society is fucked & i don't have any bbw friends. All my life just feels like its end. N if i could i would & if i could I would. Yet i'm on fubar always showin love. But the love i want never gets back. Some people just don't answer. Every lil thing is just a taunt. All i'm sayin that i want. Is a nice thick fine white bbw. With 42dd or ddd size breast & fhat thick ass to go with that. Oh & nice thick thighs & legs to. N also freaky & kinky to, Cuz i ain't never knew. I ain't never knew. I just never knew. I be this to fine black fella to attract. Have you layin on ur back while legs are spread open. N ur feelin my 9 inch deep in ur tigh

I Got To Love My Friends
THOMAS K GRAHAM: i get that alot my friends that r girls say that weird that day never seems to come lol Tatiana Jorgenson: well maybe god is just saying its not the right time THOMAS K GRAHAM: damn him maybe if i buy him a drink he'll see it my way lol Evan Goc: love is a beneficial union not a drug to make you feel better some people never learn that

Shallow Means..deep Endings
"I aint a hippy but im covered in dirt Sippin lots of mushroom tea in a tye-dye shirt Chasin' the Grateful Dead, no shoes on my feet Beggin' in the parking lot for somethin to eat, see... Im not a gangster but im down for my shit Ill tell ya now son, Im fully equipped Got a glock nine milli if u wanna get silly But Id rather kick back and get ripped"

My Pet Peeves
1. Gold Teeth 2. People that drive side by side on the highway going slow as hell 3. People that like to talk just to hear themselves 4. Barack Obama 5. Hippies 6. Liberals 7. People that don’t use common sense (common sense ain’t common anymore) 8. Anyone that is against eating meat or wearing fur 9. Gays except women that’s hot 10. Women that put holes in their face n metal things in them holes 11. People touching my neck or face 12. If singing ain't your job don't do it

Famous Last Words
1. I'll get a world record for this. 2. Let me reach in and get your watch out of the printing press. 3. Hey there's no handles inside these car doors! 4. Gee, that's a cute tattoo. 5. Here's my Kent State student ID. 6. It's fireproof. 7. He's probably just hibernating. 8. What does this button do? 9. I'm making a citizen's arrest. 10. Can we get a vision plan? 11. So, you're a cannibal. 12. It's probably just a rash. 13. Why am I standing on a plastic sheet? 14. Are you sure the power is off? 15. Yeah, I made the deciding vote on the jury, so what of it? 16. No, my shoes aren't untied. 17. The odds of that happening have to be a million to one! 18. What do you mean, "I'll be back"? 19. Why is the rest of the Star Trek landing party wearing a different color? 20. Pull the pin and count to what? 21. Which wire was I supposed to cut? 22. I wonder where the mother bear is. 23. I've seen this done on TV. 24. These are the good kind of mushrooms. 25. I'll hold it an

Fear ....pt 2
A man's angry yells, a woman's terrified screams and a young boy's cringings in the shadows. Unseen by his father, the young boy watched in terrified silence as his mother was raped repeatedly to be followed by her brutal murder. Blood was everywhere, the smell in his nostrils, the taste in his mouth, his mind burned with a fever unlike any he had ever felt before. The older man dropped his wife on the floor like a broken toy and walked from the room. Looking around the 5 yr old crawled from the shadows to where his mother's ravaged body lay and he touched it, smelled of it then lay down by it. In his fevered mind he heard the lullabye she always sang to him, now little more than a haunting and torturous tune. He looked over at the knife his father had used on his mother and reached over and picked it up. Coherent thought was no longer an option as he stood up, his small body covered in the blood of the woman he loved more than life itself, his mother was his world and now that world l

Fear ....pt 3
Larry shook Tammie hard, trying desperately to awaken her from the grips of the horrific nightmare. She opened her eyes, but they seemed sightless and he knew that terror had taken her over. Turning her head towards her boyfriend she simply mouthed the words, Help me. Larry didnt know what to do, but one thing he did know was that he had to get her out of this hospital. Larry jumped as he heard a scream. "What the fuck????" he shouted. Instinctly he looked over to make sure Tammie was still beside him. She still sat in a dazed trance seeing things he couldnt see. Larry got to his feet leaving Tammie where she was and set off to find the source of the screams. "I bet someone followed us in here and is playing a stupid joke." Larry whispered to himself. The dark figure watched as the man walked down the halls, looking in the various rooms. He laughed to himself as he entered the room where Tammie sat, helpless and alone. The next scream Larry heard made the hair stand up on his nec

Me And My Standards For Women. Do You Meet Them?
God knows I'm not perfect. I know I can be a jackass at times, but I can also be as sweet as cherry pie. I've always been a loner and I've always been fucked over. I have no luck with women but I've tried. I always have. I don't want a girl, I want a woman. I want someone who's smart and sexy. Funny but not stupid. A kid at heart but not childish. She has to know what I want and when. If she can make me laugh on our first date, she's a keeper. I don't like blunt bitches who think they're the queen of the world. I want someone who's not afraid to try new things. I want someone who will be honest and straight up with me. No lies, no secrets. I'm a dork, a kid at heart. I don't put up with bullshit and I don't like to fight. I don't want someone who wants me cuz I got some dough in the bank, Or because they just wanna hop on my dick. I want someone who will love me for me. I hate drama so cut the bullshit cuz I don't have time for it. I want someone who understands me, and knows when I'm

What's Wrong With Me?
Whats wrong with me? The man that says he loves me and misses me can't take 45 minutes out of his day to spend with me. He knew i was coming to see him and said he was happy i was coming, but never made himself available for me.I don't know what i did or why he now won't answer my calls. What's wrong with me?

Unacustomed Fantasies
What would you do if I died todayWould you careWould you cryWould you want to know whyIf I needed to talkWould you sit down and listenWould you come to my doorstepIf I needed a reminderOf what I should live forOf why I should stayOf all the people in this worldDo I stand out in your eyesDoes your heart skip a beatWhen ever I walk byTell meDo you love me the way I love youOr is this just a fantasyUnable to come true?

Open Ur Eyes
Lately, I'm not quite myself. Maybe I do need some help. It's just my confusion. I trust my delusions. Don't you regret you met me? I'll go through these steps to get me back to where we start before I fall apart. If I could black out it'd become so clear. Standing face to face with everything I fear. I watch so closely but still I don't see. As bad as it seems a peice of mind I'd steel in ordinary life the consequence is real. I'm past the point of reality. This isn't me, this isn't you but it's just everything we do. Till you open up your eyes and understand this isn't real. This isn't me this isn't you. This is everything but true. Till we come to realize it's what we put each other through. It's like a bad dream thats becoming all too true. Leaving me with nothing else left to do. Now so helpless, I'm not so selfish. Tell me how does it feel to have a face like that? How does it feel to be replaced like that? Now so faceless do you still feel. This

Entertainer Or Dj?
You will notice scrolling is A LOT of people with the letters DJ in front of their name. Well most of them just play music and never talk on air, I call that auto play. And then there is the people that do talk but only to tell you what they played or getting ready to play. Come on now, be entertaining and talk more. Tell jokes or stories and have fun. If all you do is play music, just leave the server on auto.

Update
I thought I'd been through a lot of shit with my friends, but nothing the likes of this. Those of you who read this should know that my bff Zoey is writing this blog on my behalf. I asked her to. There are two pics in my pictures of my exroommate Ben, who our family invited into our home and our trusted family circle. I will never know why but one night he just decided to take our lives and rip us apart with ONE phone call..... .. .. You see, Ben wasn't man enough to fight his own fight maturely. Zoey was talking to Ben calmly about a matter and Ben lunged at Zoey. I thought he might try to hurt her, so I defended her. She broke it up before any kind of a fight broke out, but Ben decided he would do everything he could to hurt us. He called the cops on me and had me arrested, and I have been in jail for almost 5 weeks now. .... .. .. People....be careful about who you allow into your haven from the world....your home. You can think you know someone, but they can turn on you

Cancer
For those of you who dont know. I found out a few months ago that I have cancer. It started on my ovary and has spread to my stomach. I am having surgery on monday the 21st to remove the ovary and have already started radiation treatment on my tummy. Just please understand if I am moody or what not that I am just going through alot and please understand. I love all my friends dearly and hope you all know that. thank you for taking the time to read this

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Protest
For all the free people that still protest, you're welcome, we protect you and you are protected by the best. You're voice is strong and loud, but who will fight for you? No one in your croud. We are your fathers, brothers, and sons, wearing the boots and carrying the guns. We are the that leave all we own, to make sure your future is carved in stone. We are the ones who fight and die. We might not be able to save the world, well at least we try. We walked the paths to where we are at and we want no choice other than that. So when you rally your group to complain, take a look in the back of your brain. In order for that flag you love to fly, wars must be fought and young men must die. We came here to fight for the ones we hold dear, If thats not respected, we would rather stay here. So please stop yelling and put down your signs, and pray for those behind enemy lines. When the conflict is over and all is well, be thankful that we chose to go through hell. SEMPER FIDELIS

Close My Eyes
i close my eyes to stop thinking of you. but its not the same. i drive myself crazy and i wish i knew what to do. the ones i thought were my friends lie and diecieve me. destroying me. i didnt want to be so bitchy, but ive not known anything different. how do i trust, how do i judge. its not easy when you have faith in the goodness in others. it hurts to be left out of things. being a mom doesnt mean i should have to have my son 24/7 and not have support from a partner. i wish i had a magic wand to chase away these blues, it breaks my heart i cant think of you. it stabs at my soul to know i cannot change, silver poisoned coffee kisses- thats me to a t. kaz x

10 Black Roses
Life is like a boat in the bottleTry to sail, you can't with no airDay by day it only gets harderTry to scream but nobody caresThrough the glass you see the same facesHear the voices play fade a drumWhen your life's a boat in a bottleYou're surrounded, drifting alone Don't leave me nowStay another dayWith me When you're sad, and no-one knows itI'll send you black rosesWhen your heart's dark and frozenI'll send you black roses Far away we wait for each otherI'm still on that road to nowhereKiss yourself for me in the mirrorTie a black rose into your hair Don't lose your faithShare another nightWith me When you're sad and no-one knows itI'll send you black rosesWhen your heart's dark and frozen I'll send you black roses Ten black rosesTen black roses Life is like a boat in the bottleTry to sail, you can't with no airDay by day it only gets harderTry to scream but nobody cares When you're sad, and no-one knows itI'll send you black rosesWhen your heart's dark and frozenI'll send y

!!!!! Please !!!!
To the strong and mighty won’t you please lend a hand:Some-where out there in this world children are losing their land.When will piece ever happen. Why do countries cease to exhist.Poverty stricken, dying from diseases:Don’t you hear the orphans cry, “won’t you feed me please”.Soldiers bodys here and there pools of blood every-where.It’s something of a crying shame wondering why they even came.To the strong and mighty won’t you please lend a hand:To many children are dying, so many mothers crying.They live with death each and every-day, mourning their loved onesas they carry them away.War has taken their freedom to live in piece.Father please reach out your hand and take the children to thepromised land, keep them safe with-in your heart.The wars are close and men are killed before dark.Why do they fight in a country so small when children are dying and we still hearthem crying:Will you feed us “please”By Miss Pauline Kireto—

Catheter Ablation
Color me a candidate. I've had issues with my heart since birth, and they culminated into a major surgery on my aorta, a major artery that is connected to the heart. As a side effect of the surgery, a second electrical pathway was formed. Technically, the heart is only supposed to have one electrical pathway down the center of it, but a second pathway may or may not be life threatening depending on its severity and effect. Mine is apparently worrisome enough to go in and be burned off. It's an outpatient proceedure, and from what I've been told, it's fairly safe. My only concern is that two lines will be put into my body (neck and groin) to go into my heart to find the second pathway. With a 90% success rate, chances are slim that the proceedure would have to be done again. I'm just looking forward to an end to the problems with my heart.

~my Tomb~
~ MY TOMB ~ Alone again in the darkness of my room,in misery i wait until it turns into my tomb. Night after night i wonder where you go,I stare out the windows cuz i just dont know. I gave you a rose one day,and you held it to your heart,and promised to all that is holy in life,that we would never part. But here i sit alone again,and the walls are closing in,you have the nerve to wear my ringbut not to tell me where youve been. The pain i feel within my heartis caused by only you,i know your in the arms of another,while i sit here with nothing to do.Alone again in the darkness of my room,it wont be long nowbefore it turns into my tomb. I cannot live much longerwhile you continue to play with my soulits inevitable, that death will come,for misery is taking its toll. I should have seen this coming,when i sensed you didnt care,but i held on hoping, and praying,now its just to hard to bare. Its getting hard to breathe now,too difficult to eat or sleep,for days on end i do nothingbut lie

Truth Is...
Ok so here it is... Truth is... while u was fucking him, i actually was fucking her... She almost got pregnate and I was falling in love with another broad... When you aint give me non and you said it was cause you wasnt in the mood... i knew you was fucking that other dude it hurt to find out after wards but its just karma... your own friend tho wow you'd fuck your best friends husband while she was in the shower thats low... i still wanna fuck your best friend but i wont even use that as a pimp point. your head was banging but truth is... ur nani was dry and no grip, i fake nut acouple times or a cramp so i didnt have to keep pumpin... and you got no excuse for your nani smelling like that either or maybe you did damn. yeah you probley gon say my dick wasnt all that but hey all them other broads loved every min/inch/sec of it... and truth is... this felt good kick bricks bum bitch. P.S. THX It was nice practicing with you lmao.

Recent Thoughts
It has been on my mind lately that some-one that wants to claim you as a friend, but then don't list you as a friend or family on FUBAR, yahoo, live or anywhere else, that has pics of even casual acquaintaces on thier social sites, is not much of a friend. Whats up with that?

If Only..
i think you understand me more than anyone did.. i saw the pain you worked so hard in hiding.... i think we are more alike than we both like to admit.. you got as high... as i wanted... but too afraid to reach.. i learned to walk away looking back.....wondering what it feels for you...to not feel shit... sounds like peace...and i feel the pain... in every step... envious of your numbness..fantacizing my own escape..should i turn around and hang for a little like before.... or am i suppose to move on and leave you for good... persuading ya isnt going to work ...unless you find something worth more... to control that desire to escape reality.. i know.. i fight it everyday.. once you get it.. you want to stay....you cant want it for me...you desires over rule mine..and eventually you will leave me to go back.. so it was best for me to leave... and keep walking....that was the hardest day for me... saying good-bye...especially when i didnt have to..if only one of us would've just changed

The Test
The CIA had an opening for an assassin. After all of the background checks, interviews, and testing were done there were three finalists ... two men and a woman.For the final test, the CIA agents took one of the men to a large metal door and handed him a gun."We must know that you will follow your instructions, no matter what the circumstances. Inside of this room, you will find your wife sitting in a chair. Kill Her!!!"The man said, "You can't be serious. I could never shoot my wife." The agent said, "Then you're not the right man for this job."The second man was given the same instructions. He took the gun and went into the room. All was quiet for about five minutes. Then the man came out with tears in his eyes. "I tried, but I can't kill my wife."The agent said, "You don't have what it takes. Take your wife and go home."Finally, it was the woman's turn. She was given the same instructions to kill her husband. She took the gun and went into the room.Shots were heard, one shot after a

Life Is A Game
Life is a game.....verse1my visions black my bodies blood red sometimes I wish I were dead I finger these scares lineing my armsand sink into thoughts of self past harmchoursLife is a game you shouldnt playWhen you lose it'll all fall awayI am the stagnat pool where you start to drownlocked away for ever until you rot in the groundx1verse2Im reaping now which what i have sownThe voices inside wont leave me aloneThe moment were born we start to die Ending it all just to say goodbyechoursfade to bridgebridgeIn my head im lost and deadPlease tell me can you feel me PAIN!!x1verse3Bones and blood lay unpon the groundRotten limbs dead bodies foundSlit my wrist and let my blood run redWatch me now as my blood is shedchours x1verse4I just want to be crucifed Lost in space does it matter why The seconds on this clock slowly fadeEach must feel longer than a daychoursfade to bridge

Eff Updates
EFF Supports JUSTICE Bill to Reform the USA PATRIOT Act and RepealTelecom ImmunityOn December 31, three provisions of the USA PATRIOT Act that broadlyexpanded government surveillance authority in the wake of 9/11 are setto expire. The Obama Administration made clear in a letter this weekto Senate Judiciary Committee Chairman Patrick Leahy that although theJustice Department supports reauthorization of those provisions, it isalso open to discussing modifications to the law "to provideadditional protection for the privacy of law abidingAmericans."Last week, Senators Russ Feingold and Dick Durbin -- along witheight other Senators -- took the Administration up on its offerby introducing the JUSTICE Act, which would rein in the worst excessesof PATRIOT and last year's FISA Amendments Act (FAA).For the full deeplink:https://www.eff.org/deeplinks/2009/09/eff-supports-justice

Dream From The Heart
OUR FOORPRINTS IN SAND SHARING THOSE FOOTPRINTS WITH ONE YOU LOVE Dream from the Heart. Visualizing new outcomes is the ability to “see ourselves as we want to be, not as we currently are.”or how other people wish you to be in this World ,which happens so much ,it seems we live our lives as other people see you living a life or think you should be in this world ,leaving such emptiness within yourself that becomes complete sadness ,that only others start to see in your eyes and actions that is only trying live a life through another means or eyes and not your own . This involves going inside, sorting through some ideas and deciding which dreams, which desires, which outcomes feel exciting.YOU yes you know yourself and know what your spirit needs and desires down to very core of your very own soul and when you share a life with another and they do not wish to heal those needs or desires or wish to even consider what your body and mind needs in life ,then you will c

Life.......
I thought we live for ever to do all the things we want to do. Experience everything and leave w/o regrets. The fact is that we do not and the smartest are those who learn at time w/o experience but by watching and listing to others. So say what you have to, do what ever you need to and do so w/o regrets...........

My Rubber Ducky Song..lol
Rubber Ducky, you're the one,You make bath time lots of fun,Rubber Ducky, I'm awfully fond of you; (woh woh bee doh) Rubber Ducky, joy of joys,When I squeeze you, you make noise!Rubber Ducky, you're my very best friend, it's true! (doo doo doo doooo, doo doo) CHORUS: Every day when IMake my way to the tubbyI find a little fella who'sCute and yellow and chubby (rub-a-dub-dubby!) Rubber Ducky, you're so fineAnd I'm lucky that you're mineRubber ducky, I'm awefully fond of you. (repeat chorus) Rubber Ducky, you're so fineAnd I'm lucky that you're mineRubber ducky, I'm awefully fond of...Rubber ducky, I'd like a whole pond of...Rubber ducky, I'm awefully fond of you! (doo doo, be doo.)

Can We Say Pathetic??? (originally Posted On Tears Of An Angel Profile Mar 31, 2009
Yeah that's me...I been over on My Yearbook deleting the hell out of stuff...Preparing to close all my profiles and crying at the same time...Why the hell for??? Maybe because I have been on there for almost 2 years and made a lot of amazing friends...And lost just as many...They find some dream person and all of a sudden they forget the one who listened to them cry...laugh...piss and moan...bitch and whine...yada yada yada...I've always been there with an open ear and a strong shoulder for anyone who needed me...And it amazes me how quickly they forget...But the ironic part is...When that dream match all of a sudden becomes a nightmare...They remember your name and coming crawling or running...no matter...back to start the process all over again...And being who I am...I sit there and listen to them and play the sounding board and mop to dry up the tears of the jerk or wench who broke their heart...Oh well...Such is my life...

Ok..this Was Always One Of My Favs..what Can I Say? I Can Be Rather Mouthy At Times!
I feel so much at home on Fubar now that I know it is just like MyYearbook...Drama Drama Drama!!!!! And I am so glad that someone took the time to point out my mistakes! What"s that you might ask? Well, I'm here to tell you? They were oh so kind to "explain" to me by example that being a true friend means F/R/A...get someone to rate all your pics...Then ignore them! And here I thought that meant being polite and courteous...And taking them time to say good morning...to buy them a drink if they're meter is low...to re-rate...etc etc etc...But apparently that means that I am consider a stalker! Well, BAD ME!!!! For all those people that are the most awesome of friends...And who continue to "stalk" me on a daily basis...Thank You!!!!! You can stalk my page anytime! The more the merrier! As for the rest...Forgive me for not being a good friend and ignoring you as you have me...I promise to try and do better....And leave you twice the comments! Twice the drinks! And view your page at l

A Couple Of Poems
the days and nights have been so empty since you left. my life came to a crashing down wind after i lost you. I walk around wishing i never said the things i did. I wish i could tell you how i cant live without you. You are my reason for living. Always have been and always will be.My life has been cold and empty since you left. I sit here in the dark with thoughts of you.I remember the time we had together. As i sit there thinking of you i crave the feel of your loving touch again. I crave to feel your soft lips on mine once again. I dream one day that I will be able to hold you in my arms again. I sit there with tears in my eyes cause i know i messedup realy bad. I lost the most important thing in my life when i lost you. I LOVE YOU

Just Another Dark Chapter
As the black wolf walks alone in the dark. He thinks of the white wolf that stole his heart. H cal still hear her in his head. Then he remembers all the pain he caused her> he then begs the gods to take the pain and lonelyness he feels away. He walks around acting like he is fine. when on the inside he is dieing. Knowing he has lost the one he loves more then anything in the world> As the black wolf lays down to rest tears fill his eyes. As he wishes that he could reterve the love he had lost. He remmebers the vowel he made to the love of his life before she left. As the black wolf sleeps he dreams of his white wolf. He awakes everytme calling out for her He lays there with tears pouring out of his eyes while wishing he could tell that beautiful white wolf how much he loves her and how much he needs her. Also for her to listen and belive him. He has relized how bad he messed up and hurt her heart. The black wolf knows he cant go back and change anything> All he can do is keep faith th

Chapters Of Life
Our life is made up of chapters that fill up an endless book. We constantly are closing and opening new ones everyday. Some chapters take what seems an eternity to close. Others close in the blink of an eye. This past weekend I closed, yet another chapter in my life. One that has left me with sadness, but yet a feeling of peace. But as one chapter closes for me. another has already begun. As I sit I can't help but wonder will the new chapter take an eternity to finish or will it bloom as a rose only for a season and then wilt and wither away. Oh how i wish i knew....

Cunt
look diary wench, i dont ever want to forget what our cat cunt looks like and i expect you to commit this image to memory, so that if i die god forbid, or fall down in the bushes outside while trying to check the mail, then diary cunt, the cat cunt will be your responsability

Yes
it feels like poison, my feelings and my behavior has, my desire has formed a lethal toxin in my body and my mind Dear Diary, i feel like the pinnacle of hatred and loss love is the most dangerous thing that there is....maybe she has taught me a new weapon, she helped in my corrupt intentions and aided me in my insanity my thirst for the dark truths which i know are going to eat me from the inside out...i will not do gods work Dear Diary, she is proof, she is just the reflection of myself, that is what you must forget there are others...... other what yes thats right look at all the world is look at your dying planet look at all the ghosts lets get back to exterminating angels lets get back i cant remember i am uncertain of what is the subject matter I AM HOOD MOOD and the forest whispers my name

Alive
**Probably my least favorite writing recently. I fear I've lost my touch,and just don't care anymore** Waking up to another same dayWatching my life just pass me awayWalking myself through the motions againAnd the constant questioningHow are you doingIs getting on my nervesIs getting the best of meFor once in my lifeI just want to feel aliveFor once in my lifeI just want to realizeI goto sleep with this look on my faceThat nothing's gonna ever changeI wake up so disgustedAnd the constant questioningIs getting the best of meFor once in my lifeI just want to feel aliveI just want to realizeFor once in my lifeI just want to feel aliveI want more than what I've got

Feelings For Feelings For You
When times get hard i think of you When i feel alone i hug my pillow n wish it was you... When i need a smile i play our song I'm reminded you love me Although the distance keeps us apart I find my self a little each day Starting to Fall more in love What we have started as a friendship Then slowly started to become more real I'm worried one day you'll walk away Which is why I never thought to tell you the feelings I started to have... the day we met was one I'll never forget You called my phone and said 'I'm fallin for you' I felt speechless unsure of what to say Sitting there listening to you A tear rolls down my face 'I'm falling for you too' I reply Every day that goes by I want you to be with me Side by side is how we should be

The City
Let's watch this city burn From the sky over top the world Til there's nothing left of her Let's watch this city burn the world watch things turn to ash With two empty cans of gas The only evidence they have Is the police catch on my mask And its hardly time to ask If you can save my heart for last And its hard to face the facts When the darkness fades to black It's not just make beleive When they make me take a seat And they put amphetamines in the air and make me breath So come on and grab your children Look out for burning buildings And civillians who perish they kill them by the million And billionss of people die For a lost cause So now I pray for my nation thats destroyed under god All my battles have been won But the war has just begun The city looks so pretty Do you wanna burn it with me? Till the skies bleed ashes And the fuckin sky crashes We make ashes just with matches To ignite the flame And all the hopes of a young teen Fuckin insan

Friends....
Why is it that they seem to disappear..¿ What happens that makes them just suddenly hate you after being like family for so long and going through so much together..? Why does it seem like when you need them the most they don't want to "deal" with you..¿ Why is it that if they can't use and abuse you they don't want you..? If anyone has any thoughts please feel free to leave a comment or a message..

Ftw ..... Seriously
This world was built for people like you, but it was built by people like me. You don't want me sharing your piece of the pie and that's fine by me. FUCK THE WORLD! Born rich, your daddy gave you everything. It's not your fault but I don't really care cause I was born into poverty so I don't think you can tell me shit about fair. Where were you when I was living in the streets? There's no place for my kind in your system. We come from nowhere. We owe you nothing. And now I'm done with you. I've dwelled in the hoods and slums. I didn't want you then and I say fuck you now. I've slept on the cold ground homeless. You didn't help me then so what the fuck makes you think I'm gonna lend a hand building this piece of shit world? We're not helping, we're not helping. We don't owe you a goddamn thing so, We're not helping, we're not helping. Build your own lopsided utopia.

I May Be Taking A Break
So I may be taking a break from Fubar for a while, I have way too much going on right now in my life. I'm still not sure if I'm leaving Fubar or not yet, my life is spiraling out of control right now. I love you all. Shoutbox me or hit me up on yahoo messenger, I'll reply. Thanks.

Happiness
nervous and flustered,knowing i am going to be near u sooni feel like a high schooler againtrembling with anticipationwaiting, hoping everything will turn out rightcounting down the hoursscared that you wont want mecourageous enough to take a chancebutterflies in my stomachwhen i think of your handsome facea smile lights my facethinking of your warm arms wrapped around meholding me close and safeso as i sit here counting the hourswhen i will be near u once againjust know u r always in heartand i will love u to the end

The Dal Constitution Revisions.
PREAMBLE It is hereby declared and decreed that the purpose of this organization, the Dal nOnorach is: 1) To promote Irish culture, language, literature, law, customs and history. The Irish Language shall be used in all functions, public and private where feasible. 2) To aid and advance by all legitimate means the aspirations and endeavors of the Irish people for complete and absolute independence, promoting peace and unity for all Ireland. 3) To foster the ideas and perpetuate the history and traditions of the Irish people. (5) To promote Irish culture. (6) To encourage civic participation.

Emotion
Tears bottled upshe's going to explode.Trying not to let them fall,or let emotion show.Full of anger and sadness,it's tearing her apart.She tries not to show it,but it's killing her heart.She's hurting inside..there's no one to talk to.They say "oh she's just feelin sick",but they don't know what she's going through.She tries to explain, but they just don't understandtears in her eyeson the pillow they landShe goes to bed crying and wakes up to a whole new day,hoping it will be better, but finds out it's all still the same.

My First Blog
Figured I'd start writing in here. I'll probably fill this with alot of my writing I do but if anything major happens in life I'll keep this updated, most of it is love driven, so if that's your style enjoy reading it! I also write songs which I will label, maybe if I could fit it into some instrumentals I might even sing it and post the videos >8O. Anyways I hope you enjoy my future blog posts! I take all sorts of feedback, negative or positive, feel free to speak your mind freely.

A Letter To Words
I'm a rolling stone with no soul Shadow cast for my shadowed past Collecting dust by the bushel at the feet of the altar of poetry I swing this pen like a sword collecting a familiar foe like cotton candy to a cone. Have I lost my taste to write? It's this dilemma I face tonight, eyes to the skies, intent on finding a place to fight. My fate glows like heaven in this blade Enduring on hell and earth for the same place in time to have my name engraved. I comprehend scorn and shame of Pulitzers' and Laureates' ability to swallow the forgotten ideal of great. I am the epiphany at the end of a sentence- but also the shell used for human reflection . To find yourself in me is to lose yourself completely Synapse becomes obsolete underneath me You spit me out and breathe me, scream at me and eat me beat me until I'm so dark you can't even see me I am that shade that exists only when you close your eyes

Greetings
Good morning and have a nice day,are pleasent words we can sayCheer up my lonely heart they mayand to crown it all, we do not pay.How pleasent it is to see a smile,that touches the heart even for a whileHow sweet it is to hear the words,that soothe my soul, like chirping birds.Little we have if there's no loveto share among usmateral things vanish quicklywhithout love left, what then?A compliment here, a cheerful word therecoming straight from the heart,are jewels and gems beyond compare.From which we should never part,cause you'll always be in my heart.

The Hand Of Time
Tick Tock,Goes the clock.Counting the timeAs I commit the crime.Looking for a caseSo that I may be placed.Tick TockDamn that clock.Free my mindFrom the restraints of time.I've committed the crimeAnd didn't spend a dime.I just sat hereWithout Fear.Looking at you.Do you have the clue?The Hand of Time,God I wish it wouldn't bind.Calling your nameIt wont be in vain.The hand of time,This is our shrine.

Heart Update
Spoke with a knowledgeable friend today about my recent diagnosis. General thought is that I will be a likely candidate for angioplasty. I am thinking that I am way too young for this to be happening, and yet, I am grateful for that fact because it means I am more likely to heal well from the procedure. We shall see what my cardiologist says on Wednesday.

Peterpan Complex
avoids responsibilities, people tell them they are childish and need to grow up, would rather live in their head than the real world, wants success to just happen to them, focuses on fantasies more than reality, believes they deserve to have whatever they want, life lacks direction, never know what to do next, does dumb things frequently, inconsistent performance, lazy, slacker, does the minimum to get by, does things without thinking, does not feel they have any reason to accomplish anything, tend to ignore or put off problems, believes fun is the most important thing in life, most people think they are crazy, forgets scheduled appointments, more past than future, gets attention through negative behavior now tell me that doesn't sound EXACTLY like my little stalker bitch... 8-P

Fuck This Shit
im really considering shit canning this fuckin site. lots of dumbasses and drama fuckheads on here. there is proable 3 peoples drama im willing ot put up with, and odds are IT NOT FUCKING YOU. it;s been told theat im a likeable guy. and a nice guy. and has a good heart. well then, if that is what was saught after, then why in the fuck do some of you "women" keep picking me like im a easy fucking target. i swaer to fuck im never asking another woman ot marry me again. and i'm not going to be getting into another realationship for a very long time. cheated on 6 times in a row, fuck it im doing something wrong here and i need to recheck my methods or something. so i guess im going ot have to be and asshole and not let anyone close from here on out. i dont want to be anyones fucking crutch anyomore either. ive done it long enough but when i wanna talk yall turn yur back on me and run. so i go about dealing with it by drowning in alcohol. and after a while, you dont turn into that depresed

Forgetting
Today I realized something that hit me hard. I am forgetting. Forgetting things that I never want to forget. I've always known that memory fades over time, but these precious memories I never expected to lose.I can clearly remember what I felt, but the exact proportions of the face have left my mind. I remember the deep brown of eyes that sparkled and twinkled with laughter, but not the shape of them. I don't remember whether or not there was chest hair, or how much.I remember the height and strength, how perfectly I "fit" in his arms with my head resting against the curve of his chest and shoulder, but I can't remember much about his arms except for the little tattoo between his thumb and forefinger. I don't remember which hand though.I remember how much I loved watching his tush as he walked across the room to get coffee in the morning, and how he brought it to me, but I can't see his face in the memory anymore.I don't want those images to fade from my mind, I wept for a while as I m

Deep Inside Your Love
What I wouldn't giveto livein the shadows of your loveThe protection the feeling of the power of your loveyour arms around me, holding methrough the night consoling meTheres no other place I'd rather bethan deep inside your loveInside your love I am safe and secureI have nothing that I fearyou set my soul at easeYou make me believein meI can never thank you for all that you've doneFor showing me all that you've shownYou make me better thanI've ever beenWhen I amDeep inside your love

Poem.... Feel Free To Leave A Suggested Name Number 3
Running down the streetlate one stary nightI hear her screambut no one in sightI hear hr whisperingstill no sight of herworrying whats happenedfiguring whats a stirI feel in my gutsomething bad is downcan't place it yetno one seen aroundThen it hits melike a ton of stinkthe one i love is hurtingAt least I thinkHow is it possibleshe's so far awayI run back homemake the call in disarrayShe answers th phonebefore it began to ringShe felt the same wayShe thought the same thingYou see we're so closeat heart only you seeI feel what she feelsand she he same with meI wanted to hear youI wish you were hereI miss you dearlyI'm so lost I fearWe end the callwith a tender sighI love you truelyI feel her start to cryWipe your tears babeDon't you dare startJust remember thisYou'll always have my heartDon't you worryI'll be home soonFor now we'll be togetherAlways underneath the moon.

Myspace Losing Users
Hey, what’s up with you MySpace users. According to RAIN MySpace is losing users to Facebook and other social sites. Read why MySpace is losing users at http://textpattern.kurthanson.com/ then scroll downward till you see the MySpace logo. While you are reading tune into BlastFM and exercise your brain. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Fun With Names Vol.1
Russian Foxx: lmao, asshole; i was about to get mad->Russian Foxx: so you like my new name?->Russian Foxx: pfft... save that for dr.black and get on your knees whoreRussian Foxx: w/ a strap on->Russian Foxx: :PRussian Foxx: lmao!!->Russian Foxx: and you would so fuck me and you know it!->Russian Foxx: :DRussian Foxx: dyss!->Russian Foxx: one more wrong answer and i am cutting your tits off->Russian Foxx: i'm not that much of a fagRussian Foxx: Dr Black?Russian Foxx: gdammit->Russian Foxx: (bh) i hate you->Russian Foxx: don't make me rape youRussian Foxx: lamo, who are you??->Russian Foxx: cunt!Russian Foxx: Jen?->Russian Foxx: pfft!Russian Foxx: BH?->Russian Foxx: (h)->Russian Foxx: i love you nat ->Russian Foxx: and while i am on the subject->Russian Foxx: no try involved everyone knows you are nothing but a twobit hookerRussian Foxx: nice try->Russian Foxx: you'd probably fuck for foodstamps even->Russian Foxx: i so could only cost about $20Russian Foxx: just cause you didnt get into

Pennies Are The Worst
Pennies are not just the worst thing to get when you go trick-or-treating, They're the worst thing to have in your car, on your desk, and even in your pocket. This is because pennies are absolutely f*cking worthless. You can't buy anything for a penny. Some people might say, "oh, but pennies are like zombies: one or two of them are insignificant, but if you save up until you have hundreds or thousands, then they're a force to be reckoned with!" To those people I say, "Bullshit". I saved every penny that I ever came into contact with for the first 12 years of my life, and when I finally rolled all those pennies up and took them to the bank, I got about $7 from it. According to that math, saving pennies for your entire life will pay about 6.25 cents per day. That's less than sweatshop wages. Anyway, the people who give pennies to trick-or-treaters are assholes. They're always people who are so ancient and decrepid that they say shit like, "I remember when you could go down to the

Fubar Admin
Ok this needs to be said. I am sick and tired of creating accounts at fubar only to have them deleted just because I spend all night rating people and adding new friends. The next time it happens I'm gonna have several of my friends delete their accounts cause this is ridiculous. I thought fubar was created for people too add new friends and rate people? I didn't know that was against the rules. I have a feeling soon after this blog is seen by admit I'll get this account deleted. It's all too predictable.

Leashed
My heart does jump for you whether’t be for pleasure or for pain. Like a dog beat randomly for behavior fair or foul making him insane. Driven unto chasing his tail does nip himself yelping at the added hurt ‘Till you pull him back to you leash in hand with a wicked jerk.

Take Your Breath Away
Take Your Breath Away When I’m with you I can’t even speak When I see you My heart skips a beat At least when I’m alone I can breathe But with every breath I take I just want you with me. Chorus I remember how my life was Before there was you Time just passed by In a moment or two I get more than I deserve When I’m with you for just one day Life isn’t the breaths you take It’s the moments That take your breath away If only I could get you Out of my mind For just a few moments My life would be mine But when I close my eyes There you are before me Even when I blink You’re all that I can see Chorus I could live for 100 years See all there is to see But even 100 lifetimes Would never equal what you mean to me I get more than I deserve When I’m with you for just one day Life isn’t the breaths you take It’s the moments That take your breath away Outtro Oh and baby, you take my breath away

My Truck Abagayle.
Last night I was into it with both banks, of course one being personcal and another FIN, reasons with my truck now I've made many of payments to these asses and yet yesterday when calling to talk with a manager he rimmed my ass from one side to the next. I am like you moron ya don't yell @ a lady like that first of all secondly I have a business of my own now I know what the hell it's like in the field o.k. I was only 38 days late on this bad boy and the fucker says to me that eventho I went an paid the $449.13 I was still 8 days late well DUH o.k. I know this, although he says that if I didn't shut up he'd come get my baybay, oh BIG mistake there I called the police/bank an talked with the fire dept. because they are in with I/T o.k. if you know what that is? Anyways the misses in which I had spoke to tells me that they used my CARD not the postpone check in that amount over the phone with Pete now he said ty for given em a heads up so this way he wasn't slapped in the face later on n

Electronic Technology Warning
ELECTRONIC TECHNOLOGY Something to think about:GPSA couple of weeks ago a friend told me that someone she knew had their car broken into while they were at a football game. Their car was parked on the green which was adjacent to the football stadium and specially allotted to football fans. Things stolen from the car included a garage door remote control, some money and a GPS which had been prominently mounted on the dashboard.When the victims got home, they found that their house had been ransacked and just about everything worth anything had been stolen.The thieves had used the GPS to guide them to the house. They then used the garage remote control to open the garage door and gain entry to the house. The thieves knew the owners were at the football game, they knew what time the game was scheduled to finish and so they knew how much time they had to clean out the house. It would appear th

Long Time No See!
Hi folks, its been ages since have been on here, there has been a very good reason too. basically back in Feb '08 hit a deep pothole which nearly threw me off the bike, but I landed on metal grabrail. Was that hard it has put a step in my coccyx bone, but not only that my lower front pelvis is caving in and the worst thing I cannot be fixed, so am constantly on morphine for pain. So sitting for any length of time is painful. This is why I havent been on here. But have often wondered how you all are my friends and hope life is treating you well. Drop in and say hi. For those of you who are my closer friends, I can give you my email addy and stay in contact that way. Would be nice to hear from you ;) Much love n hugs to you all! Kiddies will be knocking door soon trick or treating, got my witches hat and sweeties at the ready hehehehehe

Gone
This is a poem I wrote about..... oh.... thirteen years ago after the death of a close friend. It's crap, it's rough, hell, I was only 16 when I wrote it. But it's what came. GONE Your light only shone For such a short while. We'll remember you always and at our memories, smile. We'll remember your laughter, your sunshine, your tears. We'll remember the joy you brought in your seventeen years. Though we'll often wonder why you had to go, deep in our hearts we'll always know, from the skies you are watching and cheering us on, and though you're not here, you'll never be gone. ~1996

I Was Your Friend
ahh... teenage girls and their complicated friendships.... so fickle. I WAS YOUR FRIEND Do you remember me? I was your friend. For us you said there was no end. You said you'd stay faithful, trusting and true. I have done my best to stay beside you, but soon you drifted and sailed away, just like a boat on a warm summer's day. I miss your bright laughter, your sunshine and tears. Each time it's the same. You're calling my name. I'm asked to forgive, just one last time, but don't you remember? I was your friend. 6-9-94

The End
Wooooooow. Depressed much?? THE END I've just met a fellow, Death, he's my friend, and now that you're not here I welcome my end. I'll help him along, I'll meet Death in the middle. When I find him I'll let go of life so brittle. From my veins, hot and scarlett, the blood will flow. If Death is my comfort I'll never know, for as I close my eyes the last thing I'll see is Death with arms open wide, waiting, waiting for me. ~mid-nineties~ another one I forgot to date.

~ Everyone Has A Breaking Point ~
~ Everyone has a Breaking Point ~ I'm broken nowMy heart lie in pieces at my feetLike a fetally alcoholic childMy mind rocks back and forthGoing nowhereThe pains of all those past inflictions surround meSuffocating me til I can no longer breathe The present takes its aim with a sniper's precisionI feel the final blow and fall to my kneesInside this shallow grave With one last hole in my heartThe pain begins to subsideAnd I know that I will never hurt again With one last smile on my faceIt's finally over.

~who I Love~
Someone who sleeps on his back so I can have my "spot", his breath rolling like a river into night. .... Someone who wakes me in the morning by saying "Baby, it's time to get up" with fresh coffee in hand. .... Someone who with voice of a rock star, but who won't ever step upon a stage. .... Someone who has the hands fit to hold me perfectly. .... Someone who listens to music just because he likes it, even when it sucks. .... Someone who plays Literati with me when I'm miles from home and bored to death. .... Someone who walks closest to the street to assure if anyone gets hurt, it won't be me. .... Someone who would wait a decade or more just to hold me once again..... Someone who learned, though it took awhile, that cats really are our friends, and they don't like to chase keys. .... Someone whose hips can sway just the way they I need them to, if they are going to rock my world. .... Someone who bites the back of my neck like a leopard carryin

What's It Like To Be The Other Woman?~
What's it Like to be the Other Woman?~ To love, but not be loved in return?To see and hear and touch, but not have?To want to be with him, but know you can’t replace her?Unable to equal or exceed her enough to have his love? What's it like to be the other woman? To be fucked, but never to make love?To deceive, while at the same time, being deceived yourself?To see the truth, yet still be so damned blind? The world you want sitting behind a closed window,The rain always falling on your side of the glass To be standing on the outside of that loving home,Wishing it were you who snuggled up beside him every night.

What It Is You Do To Me
There you sitsmilingAnd it's you I watchwantingBut you don't even knowWhat it is you do to meSo I keep on watchingand wantingas I bleedEvery time I look at youEvery time I talk to youEvery time I smell youMy heart continuesmeltingAnd I am foreverdreamingWhenever you pass me byWhenever you catch my eyeI feel like I want to cryBecause of what it is you do to meYour eyesgleamingAnd your lipsplead

Mobile Listening Up Again
Of all places, in the UK the people who listen to radio via mobile and digital devices is on the rise. According to RAJAR (Radio Joint Audience Research, which measures UK radio audiences) those who listen on mobile platforms rose 7.5% from last year. Digital grew 14%. RAJAR says digital listening makes up 21% of all radio listening. They also say internet listening is 2.2% of all radio listening. Have you bookmarked BlastFM on your mobile device yet? Don’t forget, do it now so you don’t miss the great music played on BlastFM. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Taking A Break
THis is my first Fubar blog. I'm taking a break from homework to vent! and to play my farmville. I'm really sure why I'm so stressed. Life is going good for me. I think it's mostly stress debating if I should move out or not. Dirk found a cheap apartment but not sure if I want an apartment, house or stay at home longer and save while I can. I have issues in the past with moving in with people but I know for a fact dirk is different so I know it's not an issue. Just love how things are and how well things are going WOrk is good school is good. Found out this week my bf can write. lol I open my back door to my car and found this sweet poem. I'm like wow lol. He's super cute and amazing! Holidays are starting so i'm excited about that. Big party this Saturday! but anywho I'm super tired and this blog is probably gay so I'm going to cont. my homework haha ( I know this doesn't make sense) night!

How To Start?
Hello everybody! I found FUMAR and I decided to try out this social network because I really like to meet new people all over the world. I'm girl from Poland and my English is not perfect but I still improve it (lazy but ambitious - that's me!). Every new start brings an excitement and fresh energy to do my best. We are in pub, so... Cheers!

Your Game
Why do you insit On playing this game? Why do you wanna hurt everyone around you? What do you really gain? I love how you think That tearing down everyone Will satisfy your hunger Are you satisfied? Are you happy? Yea, I thought so You don't know who to blame But Honey, I know It' s your falut It's your curse It's your game What's the matter honey? Dont wanna play anymore?

She Waits
She Waits She sits by her window as the hours pass her by she watches as people come and go None of the faces the same as before She sits with a heavy heart but not once does she give up hope The love they share will be enough and soon he'll come back home Minutes slowly turn to hours those hours turn to days But even when months tick by she still sits there and waits If you look up you will see her

Drag Me To Hell
Sam Raimi? Directing a new horror film? Oh, what a breath of fresh air this truly is. Don't get me wrong, I thought the Spiderman films we're fun and well done (fan's may argue about the disappointment from the 3rd film though...Not enough Venom...I know). Sam started to make an impact with these Spiderman films but, many might know where his roots really start. Got any guesses?*cough*Bruce 'Don't call me Ash' Campbell*cough*EVIL DEAD TRILOGY! Those movies are really the pinnacle of a good B-horror film. Yeah, that sounds strange...good B-horror film but that's just how it is. Anyways, if you're lucky enough to have seen any of these movies you can understand my excitement upon hearing Sam Raimi doing a horror film! Drag Me To Hell is about Christine Brown, an employee at a loan office who is looking to better herself (and impressing her boyfriends parents) by getting the Assistant Manager position. She's a strong and solid character who has what may be looked at as weaknesses but

Black Hole Destiny
down down down further and further i fall darkness surrounds not a single drop of light no hope to spring eternal no joy to fill the pain just hurt , anger, ignorance misunderstandings, indifference, and shame black blood through black veins poison after poison to drive you insain no mercy no relief jus the blackness so deep

Steven Tyler Say It Ain't So!
For you old folks, remember with there were rumors about Beatles Paul McCartney being dead. Well, Aerosmith front man Steven Tyler is dead. Oh no you say. He’s not really dead. He apparently left the band after a concert in Abu Dhabi (what an exotic place to do it) and not expected to return. Others say he was kicked off. I asked a young friend of mine about it and she said “it‘s time, he’s old.” There went my ego. For one side of the story you can read Las Vegas Sun’s Joe Perry’s article at: http://www.lasvegassun.com/news/2009/nov/06/joe-perry-steven-tyler-has-quit-aerosmith/ At least you still have BlastFM to console yourself. Thank the Heavens for that. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Prank Phone Calls
i love signing up for all sorts of garbage on the interwebz. just so i will get phone calls from all these companies. one of my favorite has to be the time i signed up for an automobile loan, a guy with a heavy pakistani accent calls me he asks "is so and so there" i said this is he he said would i be interested in a car loan, and i said yeah that would be great he asked "how much do you need sir" i said " well theres a nice bmw id like, its about 80k or so" he says 80k? np how much doyou make a month, i said 600 bux, he asks, thats a week? i said "no a month aintthat what you fucking asked me?" then he says "well how do you intend to pay this loan off? 600 dollars a month you wont be able to pay it off?" i told him i have no intention of paying it off, i mean what tard calls random people to give out car lonas, i fiugred you were stupid enuff to give it too me and id just drive it around till you cought on to that fact and reposessed it"

My Erotic Writings
Sitting on the back of your pickup truck, watching as the storm clouds roll in. You slowly stand in front of me.Spreading my legs to make yourself comfortable.You lightly run your finger down my face.Tracing my moist lips.Moving in slowly,placing your lips on mine.Our mouths slowly becoming one.Tongues exploring.Slowly you start moving down my neck.Kissing and lightly biting.My skin crawling with excitment from your touch.Our breathing quickening..Hearts pounding faster.Touching each other..exploring.Your hands moving slowly up my shirt.Gently rubbing your fingers over my erect nipples.Letting out a gasp.Feeling the fire building up inside us.You remove my shirt, cupping my breasts in your hands.Placing your mouth on my breasts.Slowly moving you tongue over my nipplesThrowing my head back in pleasure.Grabbing you by the hair.You slowly start moving down.Kissing and touching every part of my body. Reaching my Thighs. You start caressing them with your lips, teasing me.Wanting you to

Daddy ... It Hurts!!!!
'Daddy ... It hurts' This is A TRUE STORY AND IF YOU DON'T PASS THIS ON YOU DON'THAVE A SOUL!!!My name is Chris , I am three,My eyes are swollen..I cannot see.I must be stupid,I must be bad,What else could have made,My daddy so mad?I wish I were better,I wish I weren't ugly,Then maybe my mommy,Would still want to hug me.I can't do a wrong,I can't speak at all,Or else I'm locked up,All day long.When I'm awake,I'm all alone,The house is dark,My folks aren't home.When my mommy does come home,I'll try and be nice,So maybe I'll just get,One whipping tonight.I just heard a car,My daddy is back,From Charlie's barI hear him curse,My name is called ,I press myself,Against the wall.I try to hide,>From his evil eyes,I'm so afraid now,I'm starting to cry.He finds me weeping,Calls me ugly words,He says its my fault,He suffers at work.He slaps and hits me,And yells at me more,I finally get free,And run to the door.He's already locked it,And I start to bawl,He takes me and throws me,Ag

United States Navy Seals
In times of war or uncertainty there is a special breed of warrior ready to answer our Nation’s call. A common man with uncommon desire to succeed. Forged by adversity, he stands alongside America’s finest special operations forces to serve his country, the American people, and protect their way of life. I am that man.My Trident is a symbol of honor and heritage. Bestowed upon me by the heroes that have gone before, it embodies the trust of those I have sworn to protect. By wearing the Trident I accept the responsibility of my chosen profession and way of life. It is a privilege that I must earn every day.My loyalty to Country and Team is beyond reproach. I humbly serve as a guardian to my fellow Americans always ready to defend those who are unable to defend themselves. I do not advertise the nature of my work, nor seek recognition for my actions. I voluntarily accept the inherent hazards of my profession, placing the welfare and security of others before my own.I serve wi

Herb Or Herbert?
One Day I Was At A Park Sitting At A Picnic Table Looking At All The Stuff That Ppl Had Carved Into The Table Then I Came Accross Something That Was Carved That Read "Don't Smoke Herb!!" And It Got Me To Wonder... What Was That A Message To Mean???? Was It Suposed To Mean Do Not Smoke Marijuana Or Was It A Plea From A Friend,Loved One Or Relative To A Chain Smoker Named Herbert?

There Are Monsters Among Us!
One of my friends suggested I should take up a blog and as it is not all that dwells within my heart and minds is fit for public display, there are somethings I feel I must say. I have met quite a few people in the course of my stay here on fubar and I'm sure that I will have the opportunity to meet many more in the future. My by-line title is also a warning and it isn't intended merely for my friends here at fubar, however, there are monsters among us! It isn't all easy to see these monsters, their outward appearance differs very little from you or I, but I assure they're out there with souls as black as night, walking, talking nightmares who pretend to be nice, wholesome people. People whom you think you can trust, but you can't. These monsters, demons in human form are plotting ans seeking prey that they can exploit and ruin for their twisted purposes. You're probably asking yourself what is Auslander on about? Why is he grinding this axe? Well, there are in existance two ty

Military Service Thing And Ignorance Here On Fubar...
hey y'all...to be honest im pretty sure that almost none of u will read this damn thing but i dont care i still wanna write... as many of u probably realized that im going to do the damn military service on december 12th..for 6 months...ok im not an usa citizen and i wont serve us military...but after i changed my status to say im going to do it, it made me quite sad...i have many friends in here..but only one of them commented on that status...she knows who she is and i really admire her cuz she is a great friend...i dont care if she says serious, funny,stupid or good or bad things..but she actually realized and read my status and said something about it...that is the most important thing to me...none of you so called "friends" in here said anything about it :( i dont know how u understand this military thing in ur countries but this damn thing is mandatory here...and i probably serve for playing drums..or shooting terrorist idk...maybe i would get killed who knows...but stilll noone

Belated Veteran's Day Post.
I don't know you I never met you For laughs I'll call you Sam You were the son Of Mrs. Someone I hope she understands Sam you were all that you had Are you happy or sad I never knew you But I'm told you're the best we had Were you so tall Did you play Basketball Was there a sweetheart at home Did you write her letters Did it make you better face the great unknown Sam did you feel alone You were so far from home I never knew you [ Five For Fighting Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] But I know you're the best man I know Could you tell it was time See it coming in the back of your mind When it was over, was it over Sam I'm glad you're on my side I don't know you I never met you Can I call you Sam Did you have a son A daughter with a little one I might go and thank Sam you're the best that we have You make me happy and sad If you were here, I'd buy the beers I'd shake your hand and say good man And though the sun would shine about the s

I Really Need To Be Doing Homework
What do you think of girls who steal the other girl's man?a whore What do you think of boyfriends/ girlfriends calling each other by food names?cute if it's private and others can't hereWhen you say you're Independent, do you actually believe it?YESWho was the last person you said "i love you" to?dirkyDid you mean it?yes I doDo you need to say something to someone?sureNew phone or new computer?new computer but I am jealous of dirks new phone Are all guys players and cheaters?most are but not all Reason behind the last time you cried really hard?stress but it's been a loooong time since I cried really hardHas anyone slapped your butt in the last week?maybe ;-)Are you wearing short shorts?too cold for that Are you afraid to stay home all alone?NOEver sleep with the people on your top myspace page?hmmm....Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?NOW:)Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?no outside my front door was the last kiss Do you think relationships are hard?The

Bound
too long have i been enslaved by my own thoughts and emotionsi yell out loud and although it might be the loudest thing you ever hearin reality its very silent no one can hear me cry out no one can hear me cry out in painwell i ever be free, well i ever be me,too long have i been this walking talking deep forgotten thingthat at time is hollow insidewho mind fucks him self a lot of times and bring these doubts that at times are very hard to control they cloud my mind its like sticking a knife Thu metalyou try in try in try but the outside is just to hard to get Thuwell i ever be able to over come and take these chains offor well i ever be there slaveletting them taunt me i can hear them whispering my name taunting me more in morebound and gag for there amusement and pleasure paralyzeby fear by rejection by falling this is more me then any one else

Crossing The Borders Illegaly
IF YOU CROSS THE NORTH KOREAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET 12 YEARS HARD LABOR......IF YOU GO INTO CHINA ILLEGALLY, YOUR CONSIDERED A SPY AND GET HARD PRISON TIME.....IF YOU GO INTO GERMANY ILLEGALLY, YOU GET A HEFTY FINE, WORK IT OFF OR PAY IT OFF, THEN DEPORTED........IF YOU GO INTO ENGLAND ILLEGALLY, YOU ARE IMMEDIATELY JAILED AND DEPORTED........IF YOU CROSS THE IRANIAN BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU ARE DETAINED INDEFINITELY....BUT, IF YOU CROSS THE U.S. .. BORDER ILLEGALLY YOU GET: 1. A DRIVERS LICENSE 2. A SOCIAL SECURITY CARD 3. WELFARE 4. FOOD STAMPS AND 5. FREE HEALTH CARE?I guess I still don't understand...maybe we need to VOTE OUR LAWMAKERS OUT.

Breathless While Sleeping
Sept 14 2009 9:45 am. As I'm laying in my bed on my back while sleepin I fell wo hands touch my shoulder blades. Feel's like someone's going to give me a massage. Next thing I fell is someone choking me. I start to choke, gasping for air. I'm fading. I wake up all of a sudden. My heart is beating normal. I didn't panic. This is just a dream. Who would want to choke me.? Why? Did this really happen? I lay back down and to to go back to sleep but can't. Sept 17 2009 10:14 am. I'm layind in bed sleeping as usual faced up. I fell on my right neck like someones kissing me and going to bite me neck and give me a hecky. Next thing I know, I feel by breath being sucked out of me. I'm shocked, frozen stiff. I'm trying my hardest to move but can't. I can feel the palse on my neck, the suction like gettimg a hecky. More and More my breath slipping away. Again I'm fading like I'm going to pass out. I finally force myself to wake up from this nightmare. I turn my head to my right to see

Seems Like Yesterday
The night is calling out your nameSharp like an arrows aching painBut you escaped the tears i cryEscape the misery of mineI close my eyes and dream of youCause there's a fire that never will burn outThere's a rock falling from my heartwhen you call my nameAnd the world around us fall apartBut we stay the sameWe were together night and dayWe used to share a million dreamsWe had a language of our ownWe were the lovers in the nightStill close my eyes and dream of youCause there's a river that never seems to dry. R.I.P my beloved mine...

I Saw Them Dance To The New Beat
I remember your mouth,what it said,how it kissed me,And how it was burdened,not like anyone elseAnd I remember your feet,I saw them dance to the new beatAnd When I asked you to,they walked a mile in my shoes.We were best friends,more than best friendsThat’s too little again…

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Anyone who takes a heart Should know what happens When they tell a lie Just to cure his loneliness You who stole my heart Give it back in one piece And I hate that I love you So much that I almost suffocates Here in my loneliness

My Love For One Person
i lay in bed at night cry myself to sleep everynight since i have lost you in my life. i look at your picture several times a day and the tears start like water works. i relized i had ruened any chances of correcting my biggest mistake in the world of letting you go. i openly admit to all my freinds that i am still in love with you and miss you so much. fighting back the tears each and everytime. i am either weaker now that i have lost you in my life. i get on my knees and gut and crawl accross hot burning coals to tell you sorry if it would help. I LOVE YOU MY ANGEL.

Heart Of Pain
Love Is like the wind, It passes by, And leaves nothing, Behind, Just passes through, My heart, My soul, And never let me, Enjoy the feeling, The sensation, Of being cared for, By someone, Who really loves me. Why is my life, So desperate always? Why is love, Treating me, So unkindly? I look forever, I search forever, Look everywhere, Search everywhere, And all i end, Up with is, A love that, Never lasts long. My heart is a, Heart of pain. It has never, Been able to love, Someone longer, Than it wants to. I always love, But does, That person love me? The answers, To my questions, Are always, Painful, And different to, Take into term. Am i suppose, To search, The rest of, My lonely life? Where will i go? Where will i search? I am tired, Of searching, And wondering, Day by day, Why must my heart, Be all pain, And none of love? Read this an loved it!!!

For Laghs
A young lady came home from a date, rather sad. She told her mother, "Anthony proposed to me an hour ago." "Then why are you so sad?" her mother asked. "Because he also told me he is an atheist. Mom, he doesn't even believe there's a Hell." Her mother replied, "Marry him anyway. Between the two of us, we'll show him ho...w wrong he is..!!

10 Random Things
Instructions...... Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. 1. I have a made in Canada tattoo on my a$$ ;) 2. I have a secret passion for vampire books and movies, including Twilight! 3. My confident exterior hides a shy center. 4. I donate blood regularly. Don't mind the 2 by 4 in the vien but the finger prick hurts like hell! 5. I love getting in a car and just driving, no destination in mind. 6. I still believe in white knights and prince charmings even though facts point to non-existance. 7. I love ice cubes in my milk but hate ice cubes in anything else! 8. When I was a kid I played Dungeons and Dragons (yep, Paladin here) 9. I kick ass at pool an

The #1 Worthless Low Life Piece Of Shit Fubar Member "hard 2 Handle".
(MY REPLY)WHY SHOULD I COMMENT YOU??...you say you love comments but you can't seem to return the favor. why should people give & give & give & you not return the favor. i have sent you tons of text in the past without so much as 1 single letter in return. i think the people that have commented on you in the past have built a monster within you. (her reply) dude, you know what - dont fucking comment. I dont ask for them. I just say I like them. I get 100s of comments a day and over 500 messages a day - you think I have the time to reply and return them? I do have a life outside if fu. I think it is funny that you get all pissy like a bitch only after I reply to a comment you left me where I corrected you on the way things work. Don't get mad at me cause you were wrong. (MY REPLY) if you have a life outside the net then delete you're fucking account & go back to it 24/7 & 365 a year douche bag. you don't have to fucking worry about me commenting you anymore. i have realized

Pretty In Pink
she likes pinkWhether it is a robe, slippers, or pantiesshe is pretty in pinkAnd her pinkThe pink of her fleshy cunt is prettySo a pretty pinkDouble bullet toy Plunged into her pretty pink pussyShould bring a pink glow to her cheeksMaybe I'll give it to herAs a stocking stuffer (so to speak) for Christmas

Miss Me?
I've been busyWorkingPlayingOne must have priorities In lifeFocus on those thingsThat have residual benefitsWorkThough exhausting and stressfulPays the bills, provides food and funPlayMy girlProvides pleasure and much needed stress reliefBoth have consumed any timeI would have set aside to writeButI have told herDuring my four day Thanksgiving break from workI will finish my latest storyCalendar GirlBetween now and thenI will try to provide food for thoughtAnd visual imagesTo inspire your carnal sideBut only if time allows

It's A Sin
It's all about the Cardinal SinA classification of the most objectionable vices Used to educate about (immoral) fallen man's tendency to sin It consists of "Lust", "Gluttony", "Greed", "Sloth", "Wrath", "Envy", and "Pride"This cardinal is focusing on Lust

A Peom For You
We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren’t old enough and we’ll be more content when they are. After that, we’re frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation,or when we retire. The truth is, there’s no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It’s best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with… and remember that time waits for no one. So, stop waiting –until your car or home is paid off&nd

I Love You, Don't You See?
I think about you all the time. Every second you are in my thoughts. Oh, God, why should it be so difficult? Why can not we be real?I love you. Love me back and live a life of happiness with me. Live in the most beautiful love. Why do you hesitate? What are you afraid of? I will not hurt you. I will not hurt you. I just want to give you love. The love you deserve. Stop doubting, darling. Come to me and let love lead us to everything we dreamed of.

For The Vampire Heart
save for the uncertain Category: Life somethingin your eyes hints to me that if you have not already acknowledged thepower that spans lifetimes and culminates within you it will soonpresent itself to you and reveal its name, your true identity, embraceit, and your destiny will unfold before you and you will do all thingswith complete certainty and not even death can then touch you until youcall her name. i have infinite resources at my disposal but nothing cani stress more urgent lest you already know, ever will you walk down theblack path folding in upon yourself touching nothing, no-one will youknow, no one will you see, darkness will be your only identity, andonly once the warlocks essence makes it home in your heart will itoccur to you that you have lost your identity in this life an allothers before and after.....now the real truth, gods energy expiredlong ago, the universe is not expanding, and a warlock is one who worksin human(hybrid) form...now begin the work of the mad, ca

To Use Torrents Correctly
Bit Torrent TutorialsThe first things you need to know about using Bit Torrent:-- Bit Torrent is aimed at broadband users (or any connection better than dialup).-- Sharing is highly appreciated, and sharing is what keeps bit torrent alive.-- A bit torrent file (*.torrent) contains information about the piece structure of the download (more on this later)-- The method of downloading is not your conventional type of download. Since downloads do not come in as onebig chunk, you are able to download from many people at once, increasing your download speeds. There may be100 "pieces" to a file, or 20,000+ pieces, all depending on what you're downloading. Pieces are usually small (under 200kb)-- The speeds are based upon people sharing as they download, and seeders. Seeders are people who constantlyshare in order to keep torrents alive. Usually seeders are on fast connections (10mb or higher).In this tutorial, I will be describing it all using a bit torrent client called Azureus. This client

Advanced
All mIRC Commands/ Recalls the previous command entered in the current window./! Recalls the last command typed in any window./action {action text} Sends the specifed action to the active channel or query window./add [-apuce] {filename.ini} Loads aliases, popups, users, commands, and events./ame {action text} Sends the specifed action to all channels which you are currently on./amsg {text} Sends the specifed message to all channels which you are currently on./auser {level} {nick|address} Adds a user with the specified access level to the remote userslist./auto [on|off|nickname|address] Toggles auto-opping of a nick or address or sets it on or offtotally./away {away message} Sets you away leave a message explaining that you are not currently payingattention to IRC./away Sets you being back./ban [#channel] {nickname} [type] Bans the specified nick from the curent or given channel./beep {number} {delay} Locally beeps 'number' times with 'delay' in between the beeps. /channelPops up the c

If I Died
This is something that I found going through some old stuff on my comp, figured I'd throw it out there, hey... it's my first blog on here, of course it's gonna be dumb LMAO. If you wanna, feel free to copy and paste it into an e-mail and hit me up, steal it if you'd like, there are some answers out there that you just wouldn't expect! If i died tonight, and you would never get a chance to see me again. [be honest]01. What are 5 things you would want me to know before I died?1]2]3]4]5]02. What would 5 questions be that you have been wanting to ask me?1]2]3]4]5]03. If I died, would you come to my funeral?04. If I died, would you cry?05. If I died, would you forget me eventually?06. If I died, what would be going through your head?07. Would you tell me you loved me before I died?08. Would you mean it?09. If I died, would you regret anything you said to me?10. If I died, would you be wishing you told me something that you haven't already told me?11. If I died, what would be your la

Britney Spears Fell Down But Can She Get Up?
Stop the presses!!! News Flash, Britney Spears is not longer the number 1 search celeb. How can that be? Does this mean all hope for the pop queen’s come back is lost? Hardly, her songs from her latest album are topping the charts. So you can breath again all is well with the Britney. I liked her when she wasn’t wearing undies and showing off her private part. Now she’s growing up and not doing that anymore. At least I think she isn’t. Here’s the link if you’re interested http://yearinreview.yahoo.com/2009/top10#5britneyspears. At BlastFM we don’t show you any parts you don’t need to see. What we do is uncover great music for your listening pleasure. Try it, you’ll like it. Lots of others do. www.live365.com/stations/blastcasterfm

Apologize
I try to find the words to sayBut somehowI don't think I could ever repayThe things you've done for meThe love you've shownWhile I turned a blind eyeFrom the truth I'd runLooking elsewhere for the love I thought I neededNot seeing you in front of meWith me your eyes pleadedYou were mine since we were children I gave my heart to youMy one and only manWhen times got toughI closed you outShut you downThere's nothing to talk aboutDeep in my heart I knew I needed you Rather than seeing thatTo myself I was untrueIn my mind I twisted youMade you into somethingEasier to hate to blameFor my being blueYou've been by my side through everythingI ran from youYou came after meThe man before meis not the one in my headHe is truely caring loving and kindAll my mistakes I hope he can forgiveHis loveMakes life worthwhile to live.

Untitled
Sometimes I dont know whatto say or doI feel the harder I trythe more I dissapoint youI don't know howto make up for what I've doneEverything I tryseems to be wrongI'm sure I'm delussional or I hope I amI don't know what I'd doIf you decided you wanted things to endI want to tell youhow much I need youWhat you mean to meBut I fear you would see it as a ployA game for your heartBecause of the times I've hurt you beforeSo I do what I canto try and prove I am who I say I amI wan to be yours til the very very end

Crumbs Of Love
maybe i'll love you tomorrow but tonight i'm letting you go i have been waiting these hours waiting for you to show but you havent, oh no you havent the chairs are off the floor and the bar is empty now i could wait some more but why, i'd still be alone i will walk the long way home being Gretal with crumbs of love praying they get eaten so i can never return maybe this love is a weed pull it and it will grow back but tonight i am going to pull it i dont want it i want to be alone no more ghosts just alone no more shadows just alone maybe i'll love you tomorrow but tonight i'm letting you go