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Lying Men
u know when someone looks familiar well co2rescue aka john-john has a wife of 20+yrs with 2 kids an 1 on the way...also he has a girlfriend he is now living with who he's been with for 8+yrs so if he wants to talk its only to add u to his list of women....

Drinking Problem??
So I've been told I might have a drinking problem....but heres the deal I don't drink that often I'm come on I spent a year in Iraq and got totally trashed in three different counties... and yeah I have drank 4 bottles of vodka on my own but come on thats nothing.... and well I'd like to know what you all think. I have some pics up of my umm "collection" as some call it.. take a look and let me know what you think.

Fireman's Prayer
When I'm called to duty, God, wherever flames may rage. Give me strength to save a life whatever be its age. Help me to embrace a little child before it is too late Or save an older person from the horror of that fate. Enable me to be alert to hear the weakest shout And quickly and efficiently to put the fire out. I want to fill my calling and to give the best in me. To guard my every neighbor and protect their property. And if according to Your will I have to lose my life, Please bless with Your protecting hand my children and my wife.

The Game Of Love
What we thought was love and happiness? Is now gone all that's left is to move on. Say goodbye and walk away. Take your wounded pride put it aside. The game of love you have lost. Your broken heart is the cost. Count your blessings and pray. maybe You will win at the game of love one day. Just learn when to walk away. Your strong enough to say good bye. Don't hold back it's okay to cry love hurts sometimes

Kingdom Of Rogue's & Rogue Wolf Levelers
FOUNDER KINGDOM of ROGUE'S & ROGUE WOLF LEVELERS ~Toxic Angel®~Co Owner of Rogue Wolf Levelers~ @ fubar silverado"Kingdom of Rogue's co owner" @ fubar Just Susan....Co Owner of Rogue Wolf Levelers @ fubar We are Seeking Special Honorable Men & Women,Whom Love Rateing Pictures.Whom Seek to Climb the Fubar Ladder.Do you Dream of Oracle? or even Godfather as is Ours.In a Family Setting,Real Friendships are more likely to Develope.Regular friends are usually nothing more than Aqaintences.We are Seeking a 3 Month commitment,from you.Just to Rate Family & as the Family Grows many others that Seek Our Rate Love.Even if your Only on Fubar a few hrs.a week?All Help would be Appreciated. We Have 2 Different Style Morphers.To put your Freak into Overdrive.You have the Ability to Morph into your Spirit Guide Animal or Equivilent.As your Family Morph. If you excell during assignments.then you will be Rewarded with many Rate Morphs.Movie Stars,Vampirers,Cartoo

Emergency Responders Know This, I Wish Everyone Else Would Read...
I wish you could comprehend a wife's horror at 3 in the morning as I check her husband of 40 years for a pulse and find none. I start CPR anyway, hoping to bring him back, knowing intuitively that it's too late, but wanting his wife and family to know everything possible was done to save his life. I wish you could read my mind as I respond to a call. "Whats wrong with the patient? It is minor or life threatening? Is the caller really in distress or is he waiting for us with a gun?" I wish you could be in the emergency room as a doctor pronounces dead the beautiful five-year old girl that I have been trying to save during the past 25 minutes, who will never go on her first date or say the words "I love you Mommy and Daddy" again. I wish you could know the frustration I feel in my cruiser or the cab of the truck or squad, with my foot pressing down hard on the pedal, my siren and air horn blasting again and again, as you fail to yield the right-of-way at an intersection or in tr

Birthday Trains - Sign Up Now To Ride
In the next few weeks, 4 of the most wonderful men on fubar will be having birthdays... In their honor, I will be running trains in hopes of helping them get closer to leveling... Sign up now for any or all of them... Just leave me a blog comment to sign up. I have my comments set for approval by owner so I don't miss my profile comments... So, just because you don't see your comment immediately, doesn't mean it isn't there... Private message me if you like... Jan 6 - Johnny Riggs, my best friend and owner (2.8 million points to Disciple) He will be hosting a Happy Hour on January 6 @ 6pm Fu-Time... Auto 11s will run all day as well... Come spank him hard... Jan 9 - Syrano, my R/L hubby NO TRAIN... He made Fu-Pimp... And wants to stay there for a while... But stop by and wish him a happy birthday if you like... Jan 13 - GnbRebel - a very dear friend (3.8 million points to Disciple) He will be running an Auto 11!!! Jan. 15 - Willie - a good

Life Now!!!
So i just wanted to let ppl no how i am doin..... well first biggest and best thing of all... i got over that scumbag i once or twice had feelings 4.... like seriously he is completely outte my life 4 good... bout fuckin time 2...lol.... i am currently single... i started 2 think after i left that asshole..... i don't need a man rite now... i only wanted 1... even tho i still want 1 i am willing 2 wait til i no it is the rite time 2 find that person who i want not who wants me.... i find i been through alot lately and well maybe i will do alot better.... because truthfully.... when i am with sum1 i lose all touch wit everythinng else.... life seems 2 stop when i would b wit him... i miss out on things that mean alot 2 me like those late nites wit my sister or those days hangin out wit the best of my friends... i plan on gettin 2 college in the near future.... so i am lookin 4 the rite 1.... i am tryin 2 understand wut life really is like ... so i want 2 explore... wit out a man that s

Yahoo Messenger
I try finding people to talk to and chat with but all I get are Live show invites and spambots. I mean what do I have to do to find real friggin people? One chick asks me pointblank if I was cute and that it's nice to chat but if not cute then she's not interested. I told her she was an introverted bitch and ig'd her. I'm so fuckin tired of fake-ass people. "Join my room", "Sign Up, blah blah blah!! Is there any anyone in the Eunice/Opelousas/Crowley area that wants to talk or even get together sometime? I feel like Will Smith in "I Am Legend".

The First Lady Of Gothic
I'm sure most people are aware of Kate Bush.....she has always been one of the very first women I would consider to be Gothic/Emo. I remember watching her when I was a child and being both amazed and excited by this really weird woman...she still makes me want to sit and watch her play...wonderful vision of early goth........ The first video introduces the second

Two Years Ago....
Two years ago..... Two years ago, we last spoke Two years ago, we laughed with each other last Two years ago, things were not so good Two years ago, you lost the most important person left in your life Two years ago, another life was born Two years ago, you took your life Two years ago...... Two years later.... Two years later, life is better Two years later, I'm happier than I was Two years later, I'm laughing and smiling more Two years later, a new friend made Two years later, I still say damn you for taking your life Two years later, I miss you still Two years later, life continues to go on without you in it Two years later..... your loss.

My Heart, My Soul
My Heart, my soul Everything I want, all I know My deepest dreams, my wildest hopes my future and everywhere I'll go it all feels safe now, clear as long as I have you close, near My heart, My soul with you is where they belong From this point in time For all the coming years Love will be a word we say Heart and soul will be the way

Hot Dog In A Hallway?
Ok, good lord I hope this story is not true, but nonetheless, always gets a chuckle of out me. My dad told me when he came back from Korea, the first thing he did was take his girl out on a date (this would be the woman that became his first wife, not my mother). So driving in the car, she says "well Joe what do you want to do?" and he said he looked at her and said "I sure wouldn't mind a little pussy" and she replied "me neither; mine's as big as that steering wheel".

A Good Dog Story
Mary and her husband Jim had a dog named Lucky. Lucky was a real character. Whenever Jim and Mary had company come over for a weekend visit, they would have to warn their friends not to leave their luggage open because Lucky would help himself to whatever struck his fancy. Inevitably, one of their guests would forget and something would turn up missing. Mary or Jim would trudge down to Lucky's box in the basement and there the "treasure" would be, amid all of Lucky's other favorite toys. Lucky always stashed his toys in his box and he was very particular that they stay in the box. Now, in the course of life going on, Mary discovered that she had breast cancer. Something inside told her she was going to die of the disease. In fact, she became certain that it was fatal. Mary scheduled a double mastectomy, fear riding her shoulders. The night before she was to go into the hospital, she cuddled up with Lucky, and a thought struck her. "What would happen to Lucky?

Hubby And Wife Nsfw
What do you guys think if I can talk tiff into some NSFW pics? SHe is very shy about it at times!!!!! She is beautiful and the mother of my son and there is that no blemishes from child birth!!!!

Thank You, My Dear Friends!!!
I want to thank all of my wonderful family of friends for making me feel so very special for my birthday. I was so overwhelmed by the outpouring of love & kindness when I logged on & saw all the beautiful birthday tags, comments, wishes & gifts. You have truly touched my heart & I love & appreciate each & every one of you!

Ok, Trying Again
Saw two mumms being voted on in my bar tab. One was titled You know you want to! The next was titled Why? Yep, my thoughts exactly, leave or take a raspberry (not directed at the original poster, whoever it was) and laugh (likewise).

Get The Handcuffs Out!i'm Ready!r U?
***Attention ya'll smexi fu's*** My Fuversary Is January 10th!!Time Sure does Fly by!! Want 2 be the Lucky one to Sponcer me for my 1 year Fuversary?I have met some pretty amazing ppl on here! Wonder Woman Is Auctioning Me Of !How fricken awesome is that? I'm one lucky Fu! Now its your turn to be Lucky! Get your bids On boyz!!!Lets see what ya got in ya! I'm offering lots of things! & will be adding more as the bids Go up!The higher the bids the more LOVINZ u get!You wont regret it! I promise you that!;)Spoil Me!:DIt is my fuversary:Dyay! Just click On this Pic below And start your bidding!Dont forget To rate them plz! ***Make Sure You F/R/A My Hostess! And show Her Lots of Love & Respect!!***She deserves It!!!*** Wonder_Woman Owned by Rapsnap@ fubar This Smexi Bully was Brought to you By The One & Only.................. ♡Confidence Is What Makes Me Sexy♡Fubars 19th Oracle*@ fubar

Ds
Close Window From Selected Poems: Summer Knowledge by Delmore Schwartz The Beautiful American Word, Sure The beautiful American word, Sure As I have come into a room, and touch The lamp's button, and the light blooms with such Certainty where the darkness loomed before, As I care for what I do not know, and care Knowing for little she might not have been, And for how little she would be unseen, The intercourse of lives miraculous and dear. Where the light is, and each thing clear, Separate from all others, standing in its place, I drink the time and touch whatever's near, And hope for day when the whole world has that face: For what assures her present every year? In dark accidents the mind's sufficient grace. Copyright © 1959 by Delmore Schwartz. Reprinted by permission of New Directions Publishing Corp. Next Top Sonnet: O City, City To live between terms, to live where death Ha

Holy Shit!
Last week I had a checkup (way over due) everything was good when I left then today received a letter from my physician. They had to have my EKG read and it appears that I have had a mild heart attack sometime in the last year and have now doubled my heart medication. EKG showed sinus tachycardia, left atrial enlargement, septal infarct and beating too fast. Well just a bit over a week I start school other than that not much going on.

What Are Peoples Problem With Heavy People?
what aggravates me is i was never very big until i had my daughter and now every body is hating on me because i am a heavier person the only person that is greatful of me is my family obviously and my wonderful husband (haines84) if it wasnt for him i would be kicking alot of peopls asses!!! lol. it is like nobody wants to give me the time of day... and all i want to do is just chat not jump into bed with these people. i just dont understand what is wrong with heavier people... i just wish people would treat me the way they did before i had my daughter. nobody really understands how much that hurts.. for example i ran into somebody that i went to school with and they acted like they didnt know me and where were really good friends. that hurt so much. i just dont understand what people are thinking maybe it is that i am just to nice of a person and i wouldnt do that and i never have!!!! send me a message and tell me how you feel about this.

Regret
at all times he did all the giving and i did all the taking all i did was lie all he did was cry left him with nonsense reason yet with me,he kept holdin on despite all,he never left me with me he still long to be time passed,he stopped waiting for me to change and stop playing had no choice but to walk away eventhough his heart wants him to stay after that changed happened everywhere but i still did not care suddenly my world crashed apart something’s missing in my heart i saw how painful it was for him it made his world lonely and dim i know i terribly broke his heart and tore his life apart some things aren’t just meant to be and it took me too long before i see the love he was willing to give but in my world,never had the chance to live now i am down on my knees and i am begging him please though it’s too late,he’s already gone i’m asking forgiveness for all that i’ve done someday i know we will meet again this pain will come to an end if he’d be brave

Untitled
at times when i can’t take it anymore i run to my angel to seek comfort he is like my shield,armor and protector from pain and wickedness in all sort My angel has always been there for me times when i’m hard to understand, bubbly or crazy as i can be you see him there holding my hand making me smile was never a problem healing my heart was always easy the thing i most admire from him is the faith he has in me i guess that’s what angels always do make you feel happy and free, guide,guard,care and love you the way you deserve to be my angel’s quite different from the rest he has his imperfections like many but for me he is still the best ‘coz even in hell he will never leave me but i did something so bad which shattered my angel’s wing and made him so gloomy and sad and countless tears it did bring i regret every stupid thing i cause and i’ll do everything to make him stay ‘coz i’ll be so helpless a

If Only
if only i listened to him i would not miss his voice if only i was not busy looking at others i would still be seeing him now if only i took his hand then i won’t be longing for his touch if only i did not speed up then he would have catched up w/ me if only i hugged him he would not have let go if only i cared he would have stayed if only i wasn’t scared to face reality then i never would have lost his love

Just A Poem
God saw you were getting tired; And a cure was not mentto be; So he put his arms around you; And he whispered come with me; With tearful eyes we watched you; As we saw you pass away; Although we love you deeply; We could not make you stay; Your golden heart stopped beating; Hard working hands at rest; God broke our hearts to prove to us; He only takes the best!

#1
So I don't know if people actually read these on here, but I need a place to vent or open up and not have to worry about my family reading it, which they do on my space. I have found that I try to be a lot more independent than I think I truly am. I need to be told that I matter and needed more often than I act like. I try to come off like I don't care what people think about me, but I do, more than I think I probably should. People think that I have all this confidence in myself because I take so many pics, but to be honest for every 20 pics I take I rest on maybe 2 and those I generally don't like much either. I don't find myself attractive, I don't think I am smart, or talented, and most of the time I don't even think I am worth a shit, much less worth anyone's time. I am now ending my second marriage due to being cheated on again. Every relationship I have ever had I was either cheated on or abused in one fashion or another. So now I assume that no one will ever really wa

Fake It!!!
Despise me all you want it won’t make you a better person than i am. Reveal all my imperfections it won’t make you perfect. Naming me bitch won’t make you any less of it. Criticize me from head to toe it won’t wipe out your insecurities. I HAVE THE ONE THING YOU EVER WANTED… so shut the fu*k up!

Its All About Me
Through all of his faults…he somehow completed me. I guess it was selfishness that kept bringing me back for more. But hurting me once wasn’t enough for him and walking away from me once wasn’t enough either. So am I the selfish one for wanting to make myself feel loved? Or is he the selfish one for wanting to cause me more heartache?

Truth Is
sometimes its easier for me to pretend rather than face my feelings. sometimes its easier to try to make it alone rather than risk getting hurt again. sometimes its easier to be numb towards certain people so i dont let them get too close. sometimes im scared. but when i act numb towards you, it doesnt mean i dont care. it means i care too much.

Survey I Stole From Vandie
100 questions 1. What time do you get up in the mornings? I don't, sucks being on workman's comp 2. Have you ever had a one night stand? Yes 3. How do you take your coffee? I take tea 5. Do you eat breakfast? rarely, except when I work then its a steak and egg biskit from Bojangles 7. Do you prefer sleeping alone? No 8. Do you smoke cigarettes? since I was 9 but I'm obsessed with mints and gum 9. Have you ever burnt your hair? Yes 10. Do you sleep with a pillow? Yes 11. What were your habits as a child? you expect me to remember back that far? 12. Do you want kids? maybe, have to be shure of the woman, and I duno if I would be a good father 13. Are you an only child? No 14. Do you like road trips? Yeppers 15. Who are your 6 best friends? what are friends? 16. Do you brush your teeth in the shower? only when I was in boot camp years and years ago 17. Do you eat leftovers? hell yes 18. Do you prefer being single, or in a rel

Sex
I need sex. I don't mean the hearts & flowers kind either. I mean, pull my hair, spank my ass & leave bite marks sex. The kind where I can't walk for a day or two. I think there might be something wrong with me that I think like that. Most females I know want love & tenderness. I want the kind of animal sex where you actually meld with the other person & are not even completely you for a while. Do I need therapy? Maybe that is all I need.

What Is Your Cause?
Was watching TLC and some show about beauty pageants was on (I think) and the contestants were answering a question as to what their cause was. My cause is breast cancer awareness of course. In my first ever (I think) interactive blog, I am curious...what is your cause and why?

What Is Love..
what is love.. love is something i cannot seem to obtain.. the more i go without it the more i will go insane.. love is sweet and without it im beginning to sour.. i need someone to love and be my beautiful flower.. love is an emotion that you cannot describe.. i need someone that gives me that vibe.. love is looking into someones eyes.. having them look back telling you no lies.. love is having someone that doesnt make you cry.. the thought of being without them makes you want to die.. love is something that my life it does reign.. i need to find it to rid all the pain.. love is something that occupies my mind.. i need a girl that is really kind.. love is growing old together till death due you part.. i need a girl that believes that truly in her heart.. love is something that should be eternal and last forever.. it should never die not never ever!!! ~stray (c)01/03/09

Come And Place Your Bid To Own Me
GREETINGS AND WELCOME TO THE FIRST EVER DARKE-HEAVEN HAPPY NAWTY NEW YEAR AUCTION PRESENTATION. And here they are ... Our sexy Auctionees for your bidding pleasure.... Rememeber that that opening bid is 100K and the sky's the Limit... All of our participants are offering themselves in all manners of sexiness...

Fake Ass Mfs..
THIS SONG IS DEDICATED TO THE FAKE ASS MF WHO CALL THEMSELVS FRIENDS OR MY SDMF BROTHERS OR SISTERS. THEY GET MAD AT YOU OVER BS LOUNGES THEN SAY SHIT BEHIND YA BACK. THEY ALSO MAKE FUN OF YOUR RACE BY PLAYING STUPID LIL FUCKEN KKK SONGS IN THERE STUPID LIL LOUNGES..FUBAR IS NOT REAL LIFE MOTHER FUCKERS.. ITS A PLACE TO HAVE FUN.. ASS HATS.. IF YOU DONT RESPECT ME AS AN SDMF SISTER THEN WALK ON HOME BOY...BE YOURSELF BYYOURSELF STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!RESPECCCCCCCTTTTTT!! WALK...ARE YOU TALKING TO ME NO WAY PUNK!! Can't you see I'm easily bothered by persistence One step from lashing out at you... You want in to get under my skin And call yourself a friend I've got more friends like you What do I do? (Pre) Is there no standard anymore? What it takes, who I am, where I've been Belong You can't be something you're not Be yourself, by yourself Stay away from me A lesson learned in life Known from the dawn of time (Chorus) Respect, walk Run your m

Happy Hour At 10am Fu Time 1/04/09
I Got A Happy Hour Tommorrow At 10am Fu Time And My Auto 11 Will Be On I Will Be Giving Out Random 1 Credit Bling Out I Will Only 25 Credits And Will Give 10K For Every 100 Pics You Do When Done Message Me. Dark Defender "Fu Hubby To Italian Princess"&"Sweetheart To Pr Mamii@ fubar

Impress Yourself And Others...
Spifnoof Karaoke Recording offers studio quality vocal recording against your favorite song as a backing track. (ideal for showcasing your vocal talents or as a gift for a loved one) Recorded and mixed by a professional sound engineer with 12 years experience. Sam : music producer/sound engineer tel:916-904-2816 watch me working in my studio People of virtually any age can now have a professionally recorded audio demo.(Children under the age of 16 to be supervised by an adult) -we have a long list(every genre) of karaoke songs , you can record and have as many cd's as you want ,to offer to your family/myspace/demo/etc...it's a lot of fun and a good experience. KARAOKE GENRES Christian/Gospel Alternative Pop/Rock R&B/Soul Metal Rap/Hip Hop Country/Female Soundtracks Country/Male Jazz Oldies Duets Blues Reggae Classical Spanish Christmas Songs Children's Songs How it works : 1)Choose your backing track to sing against and I w

Auction For Either 1 Week Blast, 1 Month Vip Or $20.00 Bling Pack
I will be holding an auction for a 1 week blast, 1 month VIP, or $20.00 bling pack. The winner of this auction will have the option to choose which one they would like!!This auction will start Saturday January 03, 2008, and will end January 23, 2008 at 12:00pm est time. The winner of this bling will have placed the highest bid in fubucks, and will be notified VIA email. The person that holds the highest bid has 24 Hours to reply, or this offer will go to the person with the next highest bid. The minimum starting bid will be 250K in fubucks. So let the bidding begin, and good luck and have fun :D. All bids must be placed in this blog in order to be legit!! Let the bidding begin...

Auction For A $50 Bling Pack
I will be holding an auction, for 1, $50.00 bling pack.This auction will start Saturday January 03, 2008, and will end January 23, 2008 at 12:00pm est time. The winner of this bling pack will have placed the highest bid in fubucks, and will be notified VIA email. The person that holds the highest bid has 24 Hours to reply, or this offer will go to the person with the next highest bid. The minimum starting bid will be 500K in fubucks. So let the bidding begin, and good luck and have fun :D. All bids must be placed in this blog in order to be legit!! Let the bidding begin...

Auction For An Auto 11 Bling
I am holding an auction to bling the winner with 1 auto 11 bling. This auction will start Saturday January 03, 2008, and will end January 23, 2008 at 12:00pm est time. The winner of this bling will have placed the highest bid in fubucks, and will be notified VIA email. The person that holds the highest bid has 24 Hours to reply, or this offer will go to the person with the next highest bid. The minimum starting bid will be 500K in fubucks. So let the bidding begin, and good luck and have fun :D. All bids must be placed in this blog in order to be legit!! Let the bidding begin...

Bully
COME ENTER FANGTASIA THE HOME OF THE FANGBANGERS.....GRAND OPENING...WHERE YOU CAN TASTE AND ENJOY TRUE BLOOD .....WE LOVE THE ETERNAL LUST FOR BLOOD THIRST THAT IS ALWAYS EVER LASTING..... COME CHECK OUT THE OWNER AND YOUR HOST TRUE BLOOD... MEET THE GENERAL MANAGER THAT WILL TAKE YOU INTO THE DARKNESS HERE..... BRING YOUR THIRST TO THE LOUNGE AND WE WILL BE SURE TO FEED IT..... WHEN YOU LEAVE YOU WONT BE DISSATISFIED.....CUS YOU WOULD HAVE MADE THE BEST PPL HERE ON FUBAR..... (repost of original by 'CHARMED ONE~ OWNER OF NOSFERATUS HAVEN & REAL WIFEY TO TRUE BLOOD' on '2009-01-01 21:54:39') (repost of original by 'DJ 8403 Fu Engaged to Shadowkiller @Nosferatu's haven' on '2009-01-01 23:30:22') (repost of original by 'CHARMED ONE~ OWNER OF NOSFERATUS HAVEN & REAL WIFEY TO TRUE BLOOD' on '2009-01-02 07:12:16') (repost of original by '~ĎĴ Īŋčūßũş~HEAD ENFORCER @ NOSFERATU'S HAVEN & FANGTA

Hell On Earth
i was told by my wife of 22 years that she was no longer in love with me...its very hard to face that when you are still in love...but it is what it is...and because of todays economy neither one of us have the resources to start anew....so now im here at a home that no longer feels like a home....i never felt more alone in my life....and we dont hate each other...she feels so guilty that shes causing me the pain that she has caused me...so much so that she wants to make sure that im not lonely...she wants to find someone that can replace her in my heart.....but i do appreciate it....see as wierd as it may sound i need to be loved i need to be wanted by someone..my greatest fear is that ill be alone for the rest of my life..i feel so lost and alone..at this point i dont care whether i live or die.....i dont want to wake up anymore..i rather be dead than face a life where im left to feel alone and worthless ....i dont think i have anything that anyone would find worthy...maybe its me..

Spirituality
Okay so I seen this content in someone elses blog and wanted to post it.. Im very interested in this kind of stuff .. So if your not please dont read.. Ahimsa (Devanagari: अहिंसा; IAST ahiṃs¨¡) is a Sanskrit term meaning non-violence (literally: the avoidance of violence - himsa). It is an important tenet of the religions that originated in ancient India (Hinduism, Buddhism and especially Jainism). Ahimsa is a rule of conduct that bars the killing or injuring of living beings. It is closely connected with the notion that all kinds of violence entail negative karmic consequences. The extent to which the principle of non-violence can or should be applied to different life forms is controversial between various authorities, movements and currents within the three religions and has been a matter of debate for thousands of years. Though the origins of the concept of ahimsa are unknown, the earliest references to ahimsa are found in the texts

A Lil Bit About Me And How I Ended Up In A Wheelchair.
Hello my friends, here is a lil bit of my story. All my life I wanted to become a pro wrestler growing up I watched al of the greatest wrestler's of all time from Hulk Hogan to Ric Flair,Sting and the list goes on and on...I was raised by my grandparents I never knew who my real dad was until I was 12 years old, I had a great child hood from what I can remember, well after I met my real dad at the age of 12 I would spend alot of my time with him....When I was 15 1/2 I found out about a local wrestling promotion in Portsmouth Ohio where I used to live called (Superstar Wrestling Federation) and I knew few people who was apart of the promotion, I got talking to the few people that I knew and they helped me get my feet in the door at the age of 16 I started training and working out it was really hard to learn all of the moves and how to land right I couldn't even to begin to tell you how many times I hit my head on the mat and it hurt like hell, I thought like alot of you, I thought it

Join Us
COME N JOIN THE NEWEST LOUNGE ON FUBAR SYNFUL DEZYRZ CLICK ON BANNER TO JOIN US!! EVERY 50TH PERSON TO JOIN GET A BLING SO COME CHECK US OUT!! WE HAVE MUSIC.CAMS AND THE HOTTEST LOUNGE AROUND!! BlondieOne Way Or Another Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com (repost of original by '*AngelDawnKris*Owned By Dj Screwby N Crazed Maniac' on '2009-01-03 18:48:25') (repost of

Dj Metal Queen @ Gods Forsaken Radio
Metal Queen is influenced by many extremely talented guitarists, yet her all time favorite is Randy Rhoads. She is a guitar nut. Her favorite bands are Iron Maiden, Judas Priest, Megadeth, Black Sabbath, AC/DC. The reason she likes being a DJ is she loves being able to bring people joy through music. There is so much metal out there that the world hasn't heard yet, so she is always constantly searching for new bands. Plus she has had the opportunity to meet a lot of awesome people doing what she loves. So what are u waiting for come and rock out with DJ Metal Queen @ Gods Forsaken Radio!!!!!

Be Kind For 2009
I got a family member thqat needs help leveling to Fubarlord. She's got less than 200K to go. Will you please, PLEASE, go help her out?? Super Duper Trooper@ fubar All love will be returned!! Thanks Guys and gals!!! Have a most splendid 2009!! HUGS AND KISSES!!! CRAZEE

New Fu-owner - 1/3/09
THIS IS MY NEW FU-OWNER, IF YOU DONT HAVE HER ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST THEN YOUR MISSING OUT, SHE IS AWESOME, SHOW HER LOTS OF LOVE, YOU WONT REGRET IT SHE ALSO HAS AUTO 11'S ON ^sin^-♥Ernie's and Tuffguy's fu slave♥@ fubar

Great Family
=== '*Lord Wolf* Founder~ Kingdom of Rogue's Family Levelers.' wrote the following at '2009-01-03 18:31:53'.. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > FOUNDER > > KINGDOM of ROGUE'S & ROGUE WOLF LEVELERS > > > > > ~Toxic Angel®~Co Owner of Rogue Wolf Levelers~@ fubar > > silverado"Kingdom of Rogue's co owner"@ fubar > > > > Just Susan....Co Owner of Rogue Wolf Levelers@ fubar > > We are Seeking Special Honorable Men & Women,Whom Love Rateing Pictures.Whom Seek to Climb the Fubar Ladder.Do you Dream of Oracle? or even Godfather as is Ours.In a Family Setting,Real Friendships are more likely to Develope.Regular friends are usually nothing more than Aqaintences.We are Seeking a 3 Month commitment,from you.Just to Rate Famil

Redline...
(This blog was written after a very fun moment in my car. I love the descriptions in it. I also almost got a ticket.) There you are, sitting at that stop sign, redlight, whatever. It's a nice day outside, the windows are down, the music is up and it's a good song, with heavy bass and a good guitar riff. You've got your foot on the clutch and the brake, your hand is on the shifter, and suddenly you just feel it. The vibration of the engine touches you in that certian way, you know the road ahead really well. Your foot slips off the brake and hits gas pedal, and you can feel it in your bones. The rpm's jump up to a mere three thousand, but it makes that sound, the revving of the engine, and your heart skips a beat. You look left, and right, to be sure you are clear. Nothing is coming, and the decision has been made. You rev the engine up, it's hitting five thousand rpms and then you pop the clutch. The tires wail, they spin hard as the majority of the torque in your engine has just be

Happiness Inspired By Ignorance...
(At one point in time I maintained a real blog on Xanga, I talked about a bunch of different things, and I decided I'd bring some of the better ones over bit by bit. These are posted in no certian order. If you are interested in my xanga site let me know and I'll give you the address. This got put in the wrong folder, reposted to be in the right spot.) So, the title of this blog may be a little misleading, and also sound a little harsh. Our society has taken the word ignorance and used it improperly so often that the true meaning is often lost on some people. Let's start with a definition. Merriam-Webster's defines ignorance as: the state or fact of being ignorant : lack of knowledge, education, or awareness. I want to primarily focus on the last part of that definition, the lack of awareness. Have you ever met someone that, either by design of nature or personal preference, is so completely ignorant of the way the world works, they constantly remain happy? Now I am not saying

Questions In The Night...
I couldn't sleep, though my eyes were heavy and the warm comfort of my bed was inviting to my weary body. Questions were running their course through my mind, and so I got up and turned to the only medium that the lonely night has for one such as myself, my computer, and an open slate to post my thoughts. What troubles me tonight is change. I'm sure I have mentioned it before, and no doubt will mention it again, but I am astounded by how change rules our lives. In any given moment most of humanity can be said to be adjusting to some change in their life. It is the constant, how ironic that the only unchanging nature in this world is that change will happen. It is how we deal with change, though, that bothers me. I myself have recently gone through a change, one that I thought I could weather without too much difficulty. But then I began to realize how we measure change in our lives. We do not remember the middle of something that has happened to us, we remember the beginning, where

The Worst Date Ever.
Alright peeps, I just ripped this off my main blog. There was a question, which was about the worst date you ever had, and I figured I'd share this one with you lovely folks here.See, this one's a real doozy.It'll knock your socks off. The Story goes a little something like this; Once upon a time not so many years ago, there was a teen mom named Amanda. Although her little girl meant the world to her, she was a lonely person. Not only was she abandoned by her daughter's sperm donor, but also by the next serious boyfriend after that. Her family uprooted her from her hometown when she was pregnant and she just was not a happy person. She was tired of being lonely. So, she tried her hand at dating. it seems as though almost every date she went on could count for a horror story, as every single guy she dated was either late or just expected too much of the first date, but after about ten bad dates with ten people, she grew tired of the same old thing. Couldn't someone prove her wrong ab

Hurt Feelings
there is a guy who goes by the oh so boring name of "dave" on this site. he comments on my shoutbox all the time. obviously, he's never read my tips and pointers blog. likely, he hasn't read any of my blogs or my profile for that matter. all he ever says there in the shoutbox is "hi" or s'up? or something just as boring as his lame ass username. anyone who has actually read anything i've written must realize they should step it up a notch. unfortunately he has not the brains to do so. today, that douchebag did the same thing again then rated me a 1 and blocked me when yet again i did not respond. come on...this is the fucking internet for god's sake. why do people take it so personally? and really, if you walked up to a girl in a bar and say "hi" will you get a good response? no. have some fucking game, dude. goodbye, dave. you will be sorely missed. or not.

New Here
Hey everyone, Happy 2009! Im new here and seem to having a heck of a time figuring out how to get around. Some people seem to have a page similar to myspace, how to I set mine up? Thanks for the help. RockinAngel

Cabin Fever
I seriously can't wait till everyone gets back. I'm about to go nuts bouncing off the walls. I didn't realize how much time I spent at my friends houses until I had to fill that time. I should consider a hobby. Curling anyone? A little xkcd for everyone. Anyone who appreciates nerd humor should visit this site: www.xkcd.oom and just start hitting random. I've read them all, and they are all funny (warning, degree in math or similar focus may be required to understand some jokes). Sadly enouogh, the above has happened to me before.

Status 2
saturday nights are good for____. sex. they are good for drunken sloppy sex. oh. and sweaty. (oh i totally agree...the only thing better is sunday morning lazy i'm just waking up for the sex kind of sex) monotony lame internet pick up lines. fighting. self soothing? yep. talking to the cats. (unfortunately, yes.) phone boning. alright continue on with the list.

Errors Disappear...
Errors disappear when we cease looking at them. Nothing disconnected from thought survives... Except Love and all Its facets. In this sense ‘forgetting’ is the same as ‘forgiving’. Blessings John Mcintosh

Any Fu-king Questions?
Yes motherfuckers; I did let a woman with kids and no place to go move into the back bedroom after we broke up. Yes I did give someone who has fucked me over a chance to get her shit together so the kids I have come to love did not suffer. No motherfuckers we are not "involved" on any fucking level. No that does not give her any more right to listen to my conversations with ANY of my friends and decide to crash yet another site. No more than it gives the bitch the right to run my phone battery dead trying to hack the password so she can find out if I slept with someone last night or any other fucking night. The terms and conditions of our arrangement include her staying the fuck out of my personal life because it does NOT include her. So you wanna say some bullshit about the whole story...well choke on that shit. Next time someone wants to call me a liar...bring your happy ass to FL and I will be happy to knock your hypocritical teeth down your fucking throat. ANY FUCKING Q

Fantasies
Well, my husband and I have decided to spice things up a little bit in the bedroom. We have talked about some of our fantasies, and we both share the same one. We want to have another woman join us in the bedroom for some fun. I think it's safe to say that we are a little nervous about doing this, but it is definately something that we both want to do. So, I guess we would just like to have some feedback from anyone that has any experience in this area. If there is any advice that you would like to give, we would be happy to hear it!

Irratating
Ppl who constantly have to feel the need 2 control others by way of telling us who 2 talk 2, what 2 wear, where 2 go, and so forth; obviously have issues within themselves and need 2 worry bout their own paths of destruction

Ththanks For All The Auto 11's Love
THANKS FOR ALL THE AUTO 11'S LOVE I got 2,911,550 points during my frist AUTO 11. I want to say THANK YOU! Thanks to all my Family & Friends for all the LOVE. Thanks to all that came over to my page & rated my pics. Thanks to Those that blinged me. Thanks for all the bullies made and reposted. Without all your love I would not have made it to GODFATHER. I LOVE YOU ALL !!!

My Best Friend And Soldier Needs A Prayer
My Best Friend Who I Love Dearly Is Battling Cancer.. Doing The Chemo For Bout 6 Months.. Cancer Still There.. It Breaks My Heart I Can't Be There For Him..I Don't Know What I Do If Something Were To Happen.. He Wont Let Me Fly To CA Because He Rather Have Me Spend My Money On My Kids.. He Said He Wouldnt Be Fun Anyways.. Which I Wouldnt Care I'd Be There For Even Chemo Time Just Someone There By His Bedside.. Somedays I Just Cry Knowing What Could Happen.. It Scares Me To Death.. I Dont Want To Lose The Person That Means Most To Me.. Please Take The Time To Say A Prayer For This Soldier Who Is Fighting For His Life.. He Is A Son, A Brother, A Boyfriend, And My Best Friend..

Better Than A Xanax Or A Valium, Lol!
Anger Management When you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know, take it out on someone you don't know. I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I'd forgotten to make. I found the number and dialed it. A man answered, saying "Hello." I politely said, "This is Chris. Could I please speak with Robyn Carter?" Suddenly a manic voice yelled out in my ear "Get the right f***ing number!" and the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. When I tracked down Robyn's correct number to call her, I found that I had accidentally transposed the last two digits. After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again. When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled "You're an asshole!" and hung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'asshole' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer. Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a reall

Tell Me
Tell me that we are ment to be, That my hearts not blinding me. Tell me that we'll never fall, Ever agian once and for all. Tell me that this love is true, That I am yours forever threw. Tell me that the feelings real, And my heart you soon shall steal.

10 Things You Should Never Say To A Porn Star
10. You're too pretty to do porn. (So, you're saying you would prefer to watch ugly people f*ck?) 9. Your vagina must be really worn out. (Mine isn't nearly as bad as your mother's after pushing such a giant idiot like you out of it.) 8. I would never watch porn. I think it is degrading to women. (Then how did you know my name? And my measurements? And my astrological sign? And my birthdate?) 7. How do I get my girlfriend/wife to do ________? (Ask her, not me. By the way, talking to me in the first place is not helping your cause.) 6. Wow! You're so much prettier/younger/thinner in your photos. (Obviously your mother didn't teach you anything and it is called Photoshop.) 5. I pleasured myself to you 10 times this week! (OK, I didn't need to know precisely how pathetic you are. And stop trying to shake my hand. I now unfortunately know exactly where it has been.) 4. I could do porn. (No, you couldn't. If you could, you already would be ... and no, I will NOT audition y

You
You Love me, Like no one else can, You where the one, who gave me a helping hand. You lifted me up, when I fell to the ground, If it wasent for you, I wouldent be around. Our love burns, Like a fire so true, Like the heart of the beast, That shows no Defeat. Our love is Pure, Like the ocean so blue, I would love nothing more, Then to spend Eternity with you. You are the one, That put a sparkle in my eye, You are the one, That I will be with when I die. My Heart is Kind, Loyal, and True, And it will stay this way, Only for you.

Women's Motto For 2009
Someone will always be prettier. Someone will always be smarter. Some of their houses will be bigger. Some will drive a better car. Their children will do better in school. And their husband will fix more things around the house. So let it go, and love you and your circumstances Think about it! The prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart. The most highly favored woman on your job may be unable to have children. The richest woman you know, she's got the car, the house, the clothes~ might be lonely. And the word says, 'If I have not Love, I am nothing.' So, again, love you. Love who you are. Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say, 'I am too Blessed to be Stressed and too Anointed, to be Disappointed!' 'Winners make things happen~~ Losers let things happen.' Be 'Blessed' Ladies and pass this on to encourage another woman. 'To the world you might be one person, to me you are special!

In Loving Memory
WE ALWAYS HAD A SPECIAL CONNECTION, ONE THAT NO ONE COULD BREAK! WE COULD ALWAYS TELL EACH OTHER EVERYTHING, OR AT LEAST I THOUGHT! THE NIGHT YOUR GRANDMOTHER TOLD ME YOU WERE DEAD, I TOLD HER TO STOP MESSING WITH MY HEAD. I WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU FELT YOU COULDN'T TALK TO ME, I WONDER WHY I WASN'T THERE FOR YOU, I WANT YOU BACK SO BADLY, BUT NOW THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO. HOW DID I NOT SEE YOUR PAIN, OR IS WHAT YOU TOLD ME, WAS IT ALL IN VEIN. AS I AM LEFT HERE ALONE, STANDING IN THE RAIN, I WANT TO KNOW SCOTT, WHAT YOU REALLY HAD TO GAIN! IM LEFT TO WONDER IS THERE ANYTHING I COULD HAVE DONE, THE NIGHT THEY TOLD ME YOU WERE GONE, AND HOW YOU HAD DONE WHAT YOU DID, I WANT TO KNOW YOU DID IT WITH A GUN? BEFORE YOU PUT THAT GUN TO YOUR HEAD, DID YOU REALLY BELIEVE THAT YOU WANTED TO BE DEAD? YOU THOUGHT NOBODY CARED, WELL YOU WERE WRONG, YOU ALWAYS HAD ME, BUT NOW YOU ARE GONE, GONE NOT FROM MY HEART OR MY MIND. YOU HAVE MADE SO MANY PEOPLE CRY, I JUST WANT TO KNOW

My Perfect Match, Now If I Can Just Get Him To Believe It!!!
Virgo & Cancer When Cancer and Virgo make a love match, a strong, down-to-earth relationship with staying power is the happy result. This is a relationship with great potential to get better and better over the passing years. Both Cancer and Virgo are goal-oriented and disciplined. They are sincere and devoted to one another and share a strong sense of purpose. No lightweight love here: These two were not really built for flings! Cancer and Virgo deeply admire one another: Virgo respects Cancer's quiet strength and dedication while Cancer appreciates Virgo's keen adaptability and intelligence. These lovers may get off to a slow start, but over time, bonds will only grow stronger. The Cancer-Virgo love match prides itself on common sense and strong principles over fluff and inconsequential or fleeting connections. They enjoy the material comforts of life, but they will only feel good about their bounty if it has come as a result of honest hard work. There could be tiffs if Virgo b

If Your Curious.
Basics Name:: Kyle Age:: 23 Gender:: male Hair color:: sandy blond Eye color:: green Height:: 6'1" Marital Status:: single. 2008 Have You's Have you had a boyfriend/girlfriend:: yes Got married:: nope Got engaged:: once Got drunk:: duh Smoked:: I quited :) Gone skinny dipping:: once [Boys only] Worn makeup:: if getting my nails did counts then yes. [Boys only] Worn a skirt:: -_- Had sex:: yes Got divorced:: nope Broken the law:: i speed almost every day. Kissed someone of the same gender:: nope Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend:: nope Fallen in love:: several times. Fallen out of love:: it happens. Defied your parents:: few times. Got into a fist fight:: actually yeah :) Been in prison:: nope Got detention:: yes. Learn to drive:: well. Had your heart broken:: yes Kissed someone and regretted it:: no Kissed someone and not meant it:: no Kissed a friend:: yes Had surgery:: no Broken a bone:: yes Gone on vacation:: before i had a job. Disneyl

This Is Sooooooooo True, Pay Attention Boys!
9 Words Women Use 1.) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. 2.) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. 3.) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine. 4.) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It! 5.) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.) 6.) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding h

People Are Fake
that people are as fake as they can be just look around you and you will see what i am talking about. When someone changes their appearance from when they are with you to when they are out in public by themselves that says a whole lot about them ad it mostly tells you that they obviously are willing to do a whole lot more when you are not around. The way i see it people are just who they are and they are the same when they are with you as they are when they are not. To know someone is not ever an easy thing to do cause seriously how well can you ever really know anyone? I dont care o really know anyone i just feed off the info that they give me by their actions and the things that they do whether they think i know about them or not cause if you tell them everything that you know that they do then you are not holding anything that you cna use to fight the ignorance that they will soon spew to you about how you arent good enough or you are not treating them good enough and then you can

Still Up In Bed
A little boy came down for breakfast one morning and asked his grandma, "Where's Mom and dad?" and she replied, "they're up in bed." The little boy started to giggle and ate his breakfast and went out to play. Then he came back in for lunch and asked his grandma "where's Mom and Dad?" and she replied "they're still up in bed." Again the little boy started to giggle and he ate his lunch and went out to play. Then the little boy came in for dinner and once again he asked his grandma "where's Mom and dad?" and his grandmother replied "they're still up in bed." The little boy started to laugh and his grandmother asked, "what gives? Every time I tell you they're still up in bed you start to laugh! what is going on here?" The little boy replied, "well last night daddy came into my bedroom and asked me for the Vaseline and I gave him super glue

Bitchology
BITCHOLOGY When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch. When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch. When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me a bitch. Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won't allow anyone to step on me. When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am defined as a bitch. The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish. It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be. I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that! So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't succeed. And if that makes

Best
The best of both worlds, Not living Not dead Unconscious; Breathing ever so lightly, Isn't it wonderful, Floating in a world all your own. Never to share Your asleep, Warm and cozy, In your fluffy bed of air.

Life.
Okay I know it's Murphy's Law. But, have you ever had anything that could go wrong to you go wrong. Like having 4 family memebers pass away, getting injured at work, losing your job (so they don't have to pay you for the injury), having to fix your house, having your child end up in and out of hospitals, having that stress keep pilling up on you, not really having many friends, and it seems like th ones that you do have you cn't keep, or getting new friends and scaring them away when they relize how messed up your life can be. It seems like everytime you get over one hump. (like having someone close to you in and out of the hospital and some people telling you that with there condition most people dont last more than 10 years some times only 5.) Something else messes up. And when you get through all of this stuff things will start to go really god for you for a while then wham here comes another tidlewave of stuff to deal with. It's just amazing what we as humans can put up with. Yes s

Simple
Spinning like a child, Whirling with the wind. Time fly's and the world spins, Older now, yet still spinning as a child. My mind is racing, Time is pacing. With every changing season, My body continues fading. Life is simple, As a kid spinning. The wind blowing, Leaving your clothes in a rumple. The sky so blue, The air so clean. You're free as a bird, With air beneath your wings.

Reflection Of The Past
Stop looking at me, Am I that creepy? You tease me, Stop looking at me. You hate me, Why am i really that strange? You don't know m, Don't judge me. I told you stop looking at me! Wait what am I saying Your perfect reflection, Your lovely complection, Staring back at me Your just a mirror image Of what i was once to be.

Relief From Pain
Sitting in this room, Alone and quiet. The walls are spinning, The silence is loud. Nothing but the (tap tap tap), Of the rain, falling against my window pain. The shadows on the wall, move in such a crawl. The light is dim, And the air is cold. Thoughts racing, One by one, Through this empty mind. No feeling, Numbness to all around. No more hesitation, Let it out. The feeling of relief, Bittersweet. Tears fall, Life has been renewed.

This Is Me In A Nutshell
We all have a sad story its what you do with it that counts If you take the time to know me I just might be that person your looking for just not in the bright flashy package you had pictured im looking for friends dating and long term doesn't always mean that when im looking for friends im also looking to date and turn it into long term i realize some people only want friends someone to talk to or hang out with but nothing chemistry wise going on and some people want more than that but aren't ready for a commitment im happy to have friends on which ever stage they are in their life so if the lil thing in the corner reads long term or simply friends understand im looking for all would love a long term relationship but know that to get it you have to establish both friends and date in order to fall in love and get a long-term relationship that won't fall apart as quickly as if you jumped into a long term relationship That being said, I know

Stuff I Need (or, Why My Computer's Pissing Me Off)...
So, I just basically spent more money on computer stuff than I have in a long time, and than I probably should in the first place. And I didn't even spend that much! Bought a new Seagate 1TB SATA drive to replace the 250GB PATA drive that was giving me issues (allegedly--it had bad blocks)... Bought a new CoolerMaster CM690 case (not bad for $80, highly recommend it, loads of cool stuff!) so that my drives won't get to 55C (that's 131F, fuck!), and bought another fan to help with cooling (four case fans in all right now). However, I'm still not seeing it run as fast as it should... I know I need to replace this shitty little 430watt Raidmax PSU with something better soon, but I doubt that's a major issue. No, I think that right now is the memory... I've got four sticks of RAM in there right now, two are 512MB sticks at PC2700 speeds... There's a 512MB PC3200, and a 256MB PC2700 or something... And I'm pretty sure that at least one of those sticks are slightly bad... S

For Everyone
Just to make it clear to all....Family and friends.....even though it is nice to know that everyone is there when and if I need....and all have been so kind to offer a friendly ear....I shall not take up any of your kind offers. It is not a sign of disrespect or that I do not trust anyone but I know I have to overcome the current situation on My own and feel this is the only way I can deal with what is happening now. If I am not around much you will all know and understand why.......I have to do this alone Thank you Hugs

Coolest And Sexiest Woman On Fubar!!!!!
[b]Make sure you Add her...IMO she is the Coolest and most beautifulest Woman on Fubar Make sure you Check her out and F/A/R her[/b] ღCllgegrlღChief_Deputy_of_Adminღ2nd Alarm Hotties ღSWAT/ IAღFu-Bomber&@ fubar

Lost In Thought
driving aimlessly, no place to go i can't shake this feeling been thinking about you everyday i'm starting to think this feeling won't go away i don't know how you feel but there is one thing i do fear i'm afraid one day i'll look to the side and you'll no longer be there that's one thought i cannot bare you hold a special part of my heart one where you could break me if you choose this is why i have this fear that one day you'll look to the side and i'll no longer be there

Little Moments
today is the day to live for yesterday has passed us by smile when you want to scream laugh though your dying inside all those little moments that you thought were bad and wished would soon be over have since come to pass seek out your own path live the life thats in your dreams reality is as you percieve it and things are never what they seem and just when you thought you knew yourself way down to what you hide one little thing changes that makes you open up and try

Pimping Out My New Owner Blaclie22
> "OH MY NEW OWNER FOR THE MONTH IS ONE OF THE SWEETEST MEN ON FUBAR! ALWAYS WILLING TO HELP ALL IN NEED! PIMPING HIM OUT TONIGHT TO SHOW JUST HOW MUCH I AM THANKFUL FOR ALL THE HELP HE GIVEN WITHOUT COMPLAINING JUST A REAL SWEETHEART AT HEART......MUAH TO YOU AND MANY MORE" "STOP BY HIS PAGE AND SHOW SOME LOVE"! blaclie22 ~$toner geek~@ fubar BULLETIN BY THE ONE AND ONLY AKAKMRS. T AKAMRS.T THE DREAM TEAM ~ CLUB FAR~ BAD GIRL~PU$$YCAT PLAYMATE/LIL PLEASURE AND OWNER BLACLIE22@ fubar

Trying To Make A Dent...lol
> > Trying to make a dent in the journey to angel!!! There are more than 140k in points and Fubucks available here...Auto 11's will be on @7pm EST (4pm Futime) tonight, through 7pm EST (4pm Futime) Sunday, January 4, 2009 !!!! C'mon over and level up!!!!

Now Wtf Are These 2 Doing?
~Rain & Babyboy are in an auction~ Click Below To Place Your Bids ... Visit Babyboy's Profile..R/F/A & Bling him $Ðj ßåßý ßºý$Hûßßý †º Яåîñ{Ð.$.Ç}@ fubar Visit Rain's Profile..R/F/A & Bling her †Яåîñ† ~Wîƒèý †º $Ðj ßåßý ßºý$~Owner of WYKD~@ fubar Dont Forget to show the auction host luv .Please A/F/R her too. ~*~PIA~*~Co-owner of WYKD~*~@ fubar

Just Once
Just Once (11/04) Just once I want to hear I love you for no reason. Just once I want to hear the you are proud of me. Just once I want to be thanked for the small things I do. Just once I want to feel unconditional love. Just once I was to be treated like an equal to you. Just once I want to be accepted as I am and not compared to others There are alot of just onces' I could say but I will wait til these are met with no strings attached and with love.

Life
THE GEOGRAPHY OF A WOMAN Between 18 and 22, a woman is like Africa, half discovered, half wild, fertile and naturally beautiful! Between 23 and 30, a woman is like Europe, well developed and open to trade, especially for someone with cash. Between 31 and 35, a woman is like Spain, very hot, relaxed and convinced of her own beauty. Between 36 and 40, a woman is like Greece, gently aging but still a warm and desirable place to visit. Between 41 and 50, a woman is like Great Britain, with a glorious and all conquering past. Between 51 and 60, a woman is like Israel, has been through war and doesn't make the same mistakes twice, takes care of business. Between 61 and 70, a woman is like Canada, self-preserving, but open to meeting new people. After 70, she becomes Tibet, wildly beautiful, with a mysterious past and the wisdom of the ages...only those with an adventurous spirit and a thirst for spiritual knowledge visit there.

Yummi Yummz Has Autos On
(((ATTENTii0N))) My Happy H0ur iis @ 1pm Fu Tiime && ii Als0 have Aut0 11'z Wo0t!! && to make thiings m0re iinterestiin iim giiviin away fubuckz 4 rates 100 real 11's = 20k Each 100 10's = 15k Priivate message me when y0ur all d0ne *lix* Yummiiε Addiictii0n→Dangerous Curves@ fubar (repost of original by 'Yummiiε Addiictii0n→Dangerous Curves' on '2009-01-03 00:30:05') (repost of original by 'ƑŎŏĽƴ àĶá ₮ὲέ *' on '2009-01-03 05:01:12') (repost of original by 'Yummiiε Addiictii0n→Dangerous Curves' on '2009-01-03 09:52:08') (repost of original by '♥ Dawn ♥ Fu-Wifey to Rock Candy-' on '2009-01-03 10:14:45') (repost of original by 'AUTO11sOn Yummiiε Addiictii0n→Dangerous Curves' on '2009-01-03 10:19:11')

For People That Never Read Profile Read Now Please
*ATTENTION-IF YOU ARE READING THIS PAY ATTENTION* I AM NOT USING THIS TO GET BLINGS,AUTO 11's,VIP's,OR ANYTHING ELSE JUST TREAT ME LIKE YOU WANT TO BE TREATED *****I AM 100% REAL - NOTHING FAKE ABOUT ME****** Hello,my name is Billy.I have been here 2 years.I have met people from here and talked to alot of people here.In my experience here i have learned the world are full of 2 types of people.1 you got real people the ones who take the time to talk to you and rate/add/fan you,and comment at times.They also purchase gifts and/or blings.I do thank every one for what they do or give,at this time i can not return the bling favors sorry in time maybe i can return the bling. Then 2 you got your fake people who most would call point whores and more.These are people that only vote on a profile to get points and only points.That is not me,I am a real person i take time to rate all your pics,comment profiles,and gift people. I am here to say this and i hope no one gets mad if

2009 Has Begun
Welcome to 2009 for me my friends on FUBAR New years was a quiet one then for a couple days i watched on tv the new years test cricket match between Australia and South Africa then on 1/10/07 or 1/10/07 which was a wednesday marked a sad day for me because on this date in 2006 my friendship ended with my now ex best friend Geoff after a 16-17 year friendship got forced to end by the court system because of a jealous and a way over protective mother (GEOFF'S MOTHER)of her now 34 year old son and it's now been a year without any contact with him which totally sucks,and also i got to watch at the cinemas the day my friendship ended Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire and i also held back the tears from crying inside the movie because of the sad day i had and this now marks or will mark on 10/1/09 or 1/10/09 3 years without any contact without my now ex best friend and yes i miss my best friend alot from Bruce

I Am Soooo Gonna Try Some Of These!
To Maintain A Healthy Level Of Insanity 1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down. 2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice! 3. Every Time Someone Asks You Do Something, ask If They Want Fries with that. 4. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks . Once Everyone has Gotten Over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch to Espresso. 5. In the Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write �For Marijuana�. 6. Skip down the hall Rather Than Walk and see how many looks you get. 7. Order a Diet Water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face. 8. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is 'To Go'. 9. Sing Along At The Opera. 10. Five Days In Advance, Tell Your Friends You Can't Attend Their Party Because You have a headache. 11. When The Money Comes Out The ATM, Scream 'I Won! I Won!' 12. When Leaving the Zoo, Start Running towards the Parking lot, Yelling 'Run For Your Live

Looking For True Friends
I am not begging you to be a friend.I am asking people to be honest about a friendship. There are people on here i have learned as long as you are rating there pics you are good friends,and when you are done rating there pics they stop talking.I know you got people on here got good hearts and does not want them hurt.Then you got people on here that could care less.Well i am a good hearted person if all you want is rates be honest about it,i will still rate you just dont blow smoke up my ass THANK YOU

Internet
Bear w/me people I am trying I split the sheets w/Hubby soo not on much till I can get Internet going again and I am moving packing and all soo yeah sun and mon the library is closed so wont be on those days and will try for the rest of them...ok ty ty ty lots of love Cindy

Fate!!! Evil Bitch That She Is!
HERE YET AGAIN.......WHY DO I KEEP BEING BROUGHT DOWN THIS ROAD? WHAT IS THE LESSON YOU ARE TRYING TO TEACH ME? THAT WHAT I CANT HAVE HAPPINESS? THAT ITS NOT IN THE CARDS FOR ME? YOU HAVE BEEN DEALING ME ONE BAD HAND AFTER ANOTHER (THANK GOD I KICK ASS AT REAL POKER HUH) WHY IS IT WHEN I FIND SOMETHING THAT IS AMAZING IN EVERY WAY......YOU FIND A WAY TO BLOCK IT? YOU TAKE IT AWAY, AND LEAVE ME THERE HANGING LIKE THERE'S NOTHING TO IT? WHY IS IT YOUR DOIN THIS TO ME? DO I NOT DESERVE TO BE HAPPY? IVE HAD ABOUT ENOUGH OF FATE AND HER GAMES. EITHER GIVE ME THE ONE I WANT AND MAKE US BOTH HAPPY OR PLEASE STOP TRYING, FOR I AM SICK AND TIRED OF LOOSING!! SO FATE PLEASE GIVE ME A GOOD SIGN.........

I'm Done!
you know, i'm totally done trying to make everyone else happy. i'm sick of being the one who's there for everyone else, but when i need someone to be there for me, i get nothing. sadly though, i'm ok with that. as long as it means the other person is happy, i'm ok with getting nothing in return. it's part of being a friend. a person can only put his/herself out there for so long before they take themselves out of the equation. all i've ever tried to do is be a friend. if you wanted me to leave you alone, you could have just said so. you didn't have to totally ignore me and act as though i'm nothing to you. maybe i'm nothing to you, but you could have at least told me. it would have been easier to take than just being totally ignored. so, i'll give you what it is you want. i'll leave you alone, but just do me one favor, remember that when you need someone to talk to, i'll be here. i never give up on my friends, and i won't start now. just know that i'm done with being the first to make

D'new Year's Re Solution
while upon the days ahead I ponder a cute lil slime I spot over yonder immediately it makes me concentrate on dinner and U & Me at my place,after 8 drink some wine, smoke a blunt and squirt some slime on d'cunt sit and watch d'year go bi while we sing a FUCKING LuLuBYE Selah Ami Lucifursphereit d,BadAngel

Imagination
As our imaginations blend my imagination I can use it will take me anywhere you are invited anytime there's so much to share we can sail on cloud nine while imaginations soar embrace in the serenity on the white sandy shore share in romantic sequels where dreams never end find endless possibilities as our imaginations blend bright rays of hope shine as waves flow endlessly attune to those feelings using an imagination key

Come Own Me
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Words To Live By!
Words to Live By Never argue with an idiot. The people watching might not know the difference. If you must choose between two evils, pick the one you've never tried before. On the keyboard of life, always keep one finger on the escape key. When you're laying in bed at night looking up at the stars, don't panic when you suddenly wonder "Where the Hell is the ceiling?!" Remember, when someone annoys you, it takes 42 muscles in your face to frown. BUT, it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm and SMACK the asshole upside the head. The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four people is suffering from some sort of mental illness. Think of your three best friends -- if they're okay, then it's you. Just remember........if the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off. Everyone has a photographic memory. Some just don't have film. Some people are like Slinkies . . . not really good for anything, but you still can't help but giggle when you see one tu

My 010309 Kiss Fortune
Fear less, hope more, eat less, chew more, whine less, breathe more, talk less,say more, love more, and all good things will be yours. --- Be aware of what your actions and their effects on others --- demonstrating concern for another can go a long way in the next five days.

Week 1-8-09
PO'BOYZ KREATIONZ WEEKLY PIMP OUT PLEASE CLICK A BANNER TO CHECK OUT THE LOUNGE AND CLICK A PIC TO F/A/R THE OWNER Saints And Sinners Coming Undone Owner Saints and Sinners Betrayed Souls Dj_Diablo Owner Betrayed Souls Please Help Daiblo In His Contest To 12,500 comments

Thanks For The Cup!
The irony of commitment is that its deeply liberating-in work, in play, in love. The act frees you from the tyranny of your internal critic, from the fear that likes to dress itself up and parade around as rational hesitation. To commit is to remove your head as the barrier to your life.- Anne Morriss Thats my $3.00 advice today! Cause you know I love you!

New Year
Ok since fubar makes it impossible to bomb right now we are going to be a leveling family only for now and i will be updating the leveling blog and we wil also work on leveling our friends also so if you have friends that need to be leveled pm the home page with their link so i can post a blog for them too. lets get back up and running again and level each other the way we used to. thank you, angel eyes,basstracker,ms.bratt,sapphire,beckyjean

True Love. Myth Or Reality?
Love. What is it? Does it exist, or is it something made up in our minds? Do we confuse it with devotion? We are the only creatures on this planet that feel this, so called, emotion. We can be loyal, as long as it's in our best interest. Is this love? Is this what being in love means? As long as it suits us we can have it? But what happens when it gets in the way? When the lust dies? Do we go searching again? And what if its the other person that decides to do the searching? Do we just accept it and let go or is it something worth fighting for? How can we be expected to fight for what is turning into a lie? Can 2 people really share a lifetime? How? How do you not get sick of each other? Or is that why it has to be "worked at"? Does true love exist? I once thought so. Do you?

Happy New Year To Anyone Reading This!
I hope that December was good- I dont think I have bene in since then as I have not had well- fuck all communications in here so I dont bother with it really and then I would not throw any money around on cyber anything when it is not a service really- all the things one can do in here, one can do elsewhere also but for free or less- dont get me wrong- cybergifts are nice but not when every little thing costs money and REAL money-lol.A virtual bar drinking virtual booze-shit I feel pissed-lmfao. That was mighty fine Scotch there! Was it hmm, Ballantines or maybe Bourbon like Wild Turkey (I do like that stuff- it makes the hair on ones chest grow!!lol MInd you I am not an apr but nor an I some smooth hairless man- I thought men are supposed to have hair on their chests- one of the differences in the sexes and well- its nice to have someone play with them curing them and what have you when say one is in bed or lying down- not that I hardly rcall as it seems that long ago - and over 2 ye

Spring Fling Auction
Come check me out! Up for Auction Bid on me if You'd Like, or one of the other Sexy People In The Auction. All Bids Appreciated. And show the Host Some Luv Too... Click the pic and show some luv...

What Do I Do Help
Well here it is another yr and my husband is out there! he tells' me hes not with her and dont want her and he just uses her right now intil i fix this! we were just together the other nite of course we always have the love and thing's we have a very strong bond with each other! were great 2-gether and I dont doubt his love for me at all really, but why is he there so much ? he say's he dont want her never did just use's her cause she belives what he tell's her which she does! he takes her car and she does what ever he says to do so yea the useing part i can belive she likes to think she knows him shes so far from it and she even told me she knows he lies but yt again she's telling me she with him i gave her the benfit of the doubt the first time when she did it and was with him she may not have knowm about me and hard telling what he told her about us but this time she know's and she still choose to lay down for her was her words not his! she makes herself look like a W---e no one el

Israeli Troops Enter Gaza Strip
Israeli troops enter Gaza Strip Israeli forces move towards the Gaza Strip Israeli ground troops have started to enter the Gaza Strip, Israeli military officials have confirmed, a week after the offensive against Hamas began. An Israeli military spokeswoman said the intention was to take control of areas from which Palestinian militants have been firing rockets into Israel. Witnesses say armoured vehicles crossed into northern Gaza at four separate points, supported by helicopters. Earlier, Israel intensified air and artillery attacks on the territory. In one raid, at least 13 people were killed when a missile struck a crowded mosque in Beit Lahiya, Palestinian medics said. Witnesses said more than 200 people had been inside the Ibrahim al-Maqadna mosque for evening prayers when it was struck. If you commit the stupidity of launching a ground offensive then a black destiny awaits you Khalid Meshaal Political leader of Hamas UK protests over Ga

Here I Stand
here I stand not tall or proud unable to stop the yearn I stand unwilling to raise my head I have a growing concern just standing not possible to bend or fold I can and will not submit I tire of standing for no good reason oh how I'd love to sit sit and watch the world go round just sit and admire the view though here I stand with every fiber of me I would love to sit next to you but things are not as I wish them to be I can't always have my way I stand firm stand fast stand for what I believe I stand and grow old and gray waiting for you to come around and see things the way I do give me a reason to laugh to love and I will bend for you

Why Do Women Date Jerks?
I constantly see postings from guys that go something like "Why do woman always date the assholes and pass up on the nice guys?" or "Why do nice guys always finish last?" (Some of this stuff can be reversed for woman to think about too, about men and what men to avoid!) ================================================================================================== "Most" men who are self-proclaimed "nice guys", are one of two things. Either a liar, or a pussy. With that being said, you couldn't possibly know the whole story behind women and the men they choose. You only know what the women tell you about their relationship. And, even that can be completely opposite of the true story. I KNOW for a fact that controlling jerks are out there... I've been with enough myself. But, I also know that a lot of women, just like a lot of men, lie their asses off, and only tell part of the story. They want people to feel sorry for them, etc. Which is why they stay in "abusive

My Love
you landed near me and truth be told I just could not BE more pleased heaven made a mistake and lost an angle and now im on bended knees asking no begging for you to glance my way look deep into my eyes I see you for what you really are no need for this disguise before you leave to return to where you belong my only request is this allow me to have one moment up close so that I may taste those lips and when you get back just wait for me I will not be long I swear we can meet at the gates I will be singing a song hoping to see you there

Auto's Game
AUTO 11‘s!!! SATURDAY @ 6 pm eastern time! MAKE SURE YOU SAVE YOUR 11'S & RATES FOR MY AUTO 11‘s ON SATURDAY! I will have 1 special folder marked "Timed" in my pics. RULES: 1) You must private message me AFTER you finish the timed ablum of 500 pictures. Failure to do so will forfeit your fubucks! 2) Rates will be verified. If private messages are being sent too quickly... which usually means there's cheating going on, you will forfeit your fubucks! 3) All MUST be done during MY auto 11‘s. 4) Winners will be posted in a blog by Wed night. 5) Fubucks will be awarded by Wed night. Awared Fu-bucks listed on album

Can I Just Stay This
Really is it that hard to do each other right on this sight???? The things that irk me the most...I rate alot of people with autos on and a few of them do payouts and ty, fudaddy cynz southern. On a regular ty for that. And in reality i just level by nature i suppose and that is ok i try and bling back when i can and when i place bets on auctions i be the first one to pay up but really??? How bout you asses that beg for bling and never even say thank you. Or i give it just because i thought we were friends and no wow or anything. Last time i checked i work real hard for my money except for a few exceptions i will never meet you in real life...Am i taking the fu too serious??? maybe but i beleive in give and recieve I can only give so much. Without even a mfkn simple ty??? I will stop CUZ its bullshit....

I Am
Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose, so let me simply add that it's my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V.

Please Help Cindragon
Please help this wonderful lady to Prophet. Cindy helps so many others level and helps them in competitions and all the while she is in poor health. Cindragon Come on, lets show her all the love she deserves ~ let's get her to prophet, she is a wonderful lady and a very special friend. Please repost this bully often! Thanks Celticrose

Just Saying.......
1. Scientific tests find that when women make love, they produce double amounts of the hormone estrogen, which make hair shiny and skin smooth. 2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow. 3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that romantic dinner. 4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and tones up just about every muscles in the body. Itâ€™s more enjoyable than swimming 20 laps and you donâ€™t need special sneakers! 5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you with a feeling of well-being. 6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones. These subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy! 7. Sex is t

Friends
I have made a lot of wondeful friends on Fubar Some a lot closer then others but that is how life is as well. Evey now and then I feel like I need to say thank you to all my friends.Thanks for being there and sticking with me when I am stupid, silly, sad and happy, tired and dorky. I started on here just looking at pics, since then I have grown to know and respect several people as true friends and for these I am truly grateful. It's nice to know that friends are there for me just as I am ...warts and all. If I seem different at times or dorky, please forgive me and and just chaulk it up to old age. You can be sure though that I am very honored to have the most wonderful friends and Family on Fubar...I just ask that you hang in there for me.. I get better...hopefully smarter too. Love to all my friends and a Wonderful new year.

Nair
So, down in Louisiana for a visit, my pop is sitting in his rocking chair watching the idiot box with my daughter Rachel (his #1 crime partner), and one of those Nair commercials comes on. You know, where they tell you how smooth your legs will be, and how there's no unsightly bumps on your bikini line, etc. He rocks forward in his chair and stops abruptly, turns to Rachel and says "THAT's what that is??". Rachel goes "yeah Pawpaw it's so you don't have to shave your legs.. why?". and he goes.. "I saw that in the shower this morning and thought it was shampoo, I washed my hair with it!"

Why?
Why do we torture ourselves with the mindless and the mundane? Can't we be happy with all the many "things" we are blessed with? Life, love, family, friends, job, home, clothes, food! Do these things mean nothing? Are you familiar with Maslow's heirarchy of basic human needs? No one I know has ever reached the top. Is it because we want more and more? Why does happiness elude us? Or are we avoiding it? Happiness is right in front of you, just open your eyes and reach for it. Being happy with what you have is not settling, its knowing. Knowing what you want and have. Appreciate it for what it is or you will lose it. It will be taken from you and given to someone that will love it and appreciate it. And after its gone, there is no getting it back. Ever. We have become so terrified of happiness that we pretend to have it. How hipocritical is that? Figure out what brings you true happiness and hold on to it!!! If you don't, it will find someone that will.

Love
People say, that love is a precious thing.They say that you should cherish it, and keep it forever.But how do you know what love is,If you have never experienced it before?They say that everyone has a soul mate.But what if you have gone through life,Without having anyone by your side?We all need that special someone,I agree.But maybe there is someone out there,Just watching life go by.Watching people fall in and out of love.Watching as people complete their lives.What if someone is out there,Thinking that they will never find someone,Because they have never felt loved before?Maybe that is why there is less love in the world.Because people are too afraid to show their emotions,Too scared to express their feelings.Or maybe there is a simple answerMaybe, just maybe,Not everyone will be able to find love,Because, they are not meant for love.

Thoughts On Love
True Love is just a thought. When you start to believe in it, think you're feeling it, "believe" you're both in it, the reality of it slaps you in the face and says "No, no. It was just a story"! Its only for stories because it makes no sense. No one can be that happy. No one can ever be that devoted. Can two people ever want to be with only one person for the rest of their lives? What are the odds? How are we supposed to believe that the one you love has eyes only for you? Sex is thrown in your face everywhere you go! Girls think its ok to be tramps and guys are more than willing to accept the offer. And, yes, I know, it also works the other way around. Promiscuity gets you nowhere! People hand out phone numbers like its no big deal, it won't hurt anyone. And then there are the ones who accept the numbers. Who is to blame? Is it true that one can only be held responsible for ones own actions? I believe yes and no(to a much lesser extent)! If you're handed a gun and you really feel lik

Life
Life is such a delicate and fragile mystery. It truly is a miracle. The way it begins, the quickness with which it can be taken away. How is it that so many of us survive day after day, living only for ourselves, not wanting more, not caring to contribute a thing to the other creatures we were forced to share an exsistance with. In less than a blink of an eye it can be stolen before it ever had a chance to be. And do we appreciate it for what it is and can be? How many discard what they never should have been given in the first place? Dipose of life because it is "inconvenient"? We all have our reasons, but irresponsibility shouldn't be one. Not when so many fight for it. Fight to keep it. Fight to create it. But why is it taken before it has a chance to look around, and take in its first breath? Sometimes life just isn't fair.

The Couch Is Dry! I Love My Couch!
Sarah’s words upon getting home last night with Martha, Mary, and Jeffrey and feeling the couch cushion she’d spilled berry juice on Friday morning and patting it down with a towel would make a great title for a children’s book! Now if I catch anyone stealing my idea, there’s going to be trouble … it’s such a kick greeting the beginning of 2009 through my children’s eyes! Especially since for my wife Martha and I it didn’t start out with the brightest of outlooks; my workplace was closed Thursday and I was home with Mary, Sarah, and Jeffrey that day while Martha worked the seven am to four pm shift at Wal-Mart. Shortly after noon, Martha and Mary’s oldest sister Malesa called us and asked if Mary could watch her kids Mathew and Brandon for an hour while she was at the mall for some girl time with a friend of hers. At least, this is how it sounded to me; what I resent is not so much how Malesa spends her not-so-copious free time (she worked through three jobs and her own home-ba

With Out You
It's in my head, unable to escape,The thought of me and you together,it kills me just thinking about what we had.I go on smiling, acting like it's all ok,But the pain inside me is tearing my world apart.We told ourselves everything would be ok, That time would heal.You told me you'd never walk away,That you'd never leave me, here alone, But you did.It seems I've fallen down and can't get back up on my own two feet,I keep hoping that one day you'll come back and hold me in your arms, Helping me out of this empty space I've fallen into.But I guess that's not the case, not this time.Now I'm realizing that I'll be ok without you,I don't need you to tell me I'm gonna be ok.

The Little Thing That Might
can you help me with something?? this is my cock before i got on a penis pump and this is my cock now now that im going to jail i want to be able to give the anal poundage as well has i take it. what do you think??

Wv Rebel Cowboy
WV REBEL COWBOY HAS AUTO 11'S ON. HE HAS 2997 PICTURES AND MOST OF THEM ARE EASY RATE. LET'S HELP HIM TO ORACLE AND ALSO KEEP RE POSTING THIS TO KEEP IT GOING FOR ALL TO SEE. TO GO TO HIS PAGE JUST CLICK ON THE PICTURE BELOW. WV REBEL COWBOY ~Member of The Confederate Bombers~Owner of FØØØKÊÊ@ fubar THANKS TO ALL OF YOU THAT HELP

Ffake Ass People...
My husband and i just quit a team in pool playing to go to a more outgoing team that knows how to have fun. Seems the people we played with were to uptight and lacking something in their lives. i have a mouth on me. i am not overly volgar, i am blunt and i have a good time and speak my mind. obviously this OFFENDS some people. oh well suck it up and fucking deal. i am me and thats all i will be. i will not change for noone. i like to have fun, i cant help it some people are intimidated at the fact that i am mostly the center of attention. NO ONE ELSE SEEMS TO BE BOTHERED BY "MY MOUTH", OTHER THAN YOU TWO. PISS OFF I DONT CARE I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO WITH MY TIME AND EFFORTS THAN TO BE BACK IN HIGH SCHOOL PLAYING GAMES AND WHISPERING BEHIND SOMEONES BACK. IF I HAVE A PROBLEM I AT LEAST HAVE THE FUCKING BIG ASS BRASS BALLS TO CONFRONT WHATEVER/WHOMEVER I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH. YOUR LOSS NOT MINE I STILL HAVE A LIFE WITHOUT YA!!!! LOVE ALWAYS, ME

Happy Bday Mystic
MYSTICFAIRY HAS A FEW WISHES FOR HER BDAY 1.SHE HAS NEVER HAD AN AUTO 11 BLING SHE WOULD LOVE ON FOR HER BDAY 2.TO LEVEL TO GODMOTHER 3.MORE FRIENDS N FANS FOR THE NEW YR SO COME ON BY AND SHOW SWEET LOVE TO HER Mysticfairy@ fubar P.S. SHE LOVES TO BE BLINGED BROUGHT TO U BY: *AngelDawnKris*Owned By Dj Screwby N Crazed Maniac@ fubar

Post New Years Bling And Bux
POST New Years Auto 11 Bling-Bux-Rama 2 DAY Event!!! Cherries, Bux, and Bling !!!! Chiina_Whiite Auto 11 Today 12 pm Fu Time - Running Thru Monday 3 Chances to Be a Winner: Bling Race FuBux Drawing Daily Random Drawing RACE, RACE, RACE! 2 pm Fu Time(5 EST)-Race is On. FIRST 3 to completely rate the 550 pic Bling-A-Rama Folder will win a 3 CREDIT BLING OF CHOICE Plz Comment Last Pic & Private Message me upon completion. The Grand Prize Drawings Over 4 Mil in Prizes (see note below): Rate ALL EZ RATE 100 pic & Default folders and you will be entered into a drawing to receive one of three Grand Prizes. 2 Million Fubux 1 Million Fubux 500k Fubux

This Marine Was Lvl 25 And Got Hacked ..lets Get Him Bk There
HE SUPPORTS HIS COUNTRY NOW I AM ASKING YOU TO SUPPORT HIM HE HAD HIS ACCOUNT HACKED WAS A GODFATHER NOW HE IS STARTING OVER Sgt.Redneck@ fubar LETS HELP THIS MARINE GET BACK TO GODFATHER I KNOW WE CAN GO F/A/R/B/B/C THIS MARINE THIS BULLY PROUDLY BROUGHT TO YOU BY MZ.BELLE MZ.BELLE~Shadow Levelers~ Owned by Sexy Baby Blue Eyes~Fu Owner/Owned By I'm Smut~~@ fubar

Special Thanx To All My Fu Friends
I just wanted to extend my thanx to all my Fu Friends that rallied together and had my back and tried to help me with that girl that was using my pics. I dont know if she took them down or not as I am still very blocked from looking at her profile or pics. She has also blocked darn near all the ppl on my friends list. LOL. That there speaks volumes on her fakeness. I will never understand why ppl feel the need to steal another persons pics or identity to make themselves more presentable to others. Do they not realize that in doing so they arnt making friends really. The ppl are thinkn they are friends with the person they saw in the pic. That is horribly cruel if u ask me. I mean do u plan to ever try to meet in person? IDK, I guess that is just my opinion. If the person in her main profile pic is her she was very pretty herself. I am flattered she thought I was pretty enough to try and be me, but just think everyone should just be themselves and be happy. Again thanx fo

Salute You?
there's this guy always coming onto yahoo begging me for a 'private' salute. he seemed nice enough when i gave him my yahoo id. now, he's just annoying. he'll trade, he says. somehow i dont think it will be a fair trade at all. he really gets on my nerves. i decline everytime. he never gets the hint. today, he asked what i am interviewing for. i said a pillowfluffer. he says, i'll take the job but i'm a handful. (was i offering said job? no.) handful, how? i ask i am an active person and i need lots of blowjobs, he says. ( i sense an opening here...) um, you don't need lots of blowjobs. you want them. and if i hire you it's my game. i'm the boss. you're not going to get a real guy if that's what you want. i just like to get head and fuck you til you can't move. so, that means you won't lick your own cum off my feet? cuz that's part of the job requirement. woot! he has left the building. hopefully never to return.

Jan 3, 09 - Jan 9, 09 Im A Lollipop Kid
TO MAKE A BID ON ME CLICK THE LINK BELOW!!! AUCTION RUNS JAN. 03, 2009 THRU JAN. 9, 2009 AT MIDNIGHT!! SO COME AND BID AND HAHVE THE CHANCE TO OWN ME FOR 30 DAYS!!! YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO!!!! ID LIKE TO WELCOME YOU TO MUNCHKIN LAND!!!

Lik Me ..i Mean U Like A Lollipop :p
yeah yeah...ive gone and done it again..lol i'm in another auction.. sorry im addicted..hehe If ya could be so kind as too go ck it out.(if ya dont want to bid at least plllzzzz rate for me) *bats eylashes*..plz and ty in advance!!muahhh!!!

Own A Brat In The Lollipop Kids Auction(closed)
Auction will start on January 2nd @ midnight and will end on January 9th @ midnight Sayhey2008 won with a Auto11 Ever wanted to own a brat now here's your chance come and check me out in the Lollopop Kids Auction Own by in my name #1 friend for one month Pimpout on my page Bulletin & Blog Pimpout Gifts/Drinks Galore 2 SFW Salutes 2 SFW Shower Salutes Rate all pics 10s or 11s if VIP is bid Rate all stash/blogs throughout the month If bid is $25 or more will be added All of the above 1 big pimpin gift my choice 10 SFW Salutes 2 more SFW Shower Salutes Permanent pimpout on my page/blog Add 2 my yahoo More will be added depends on bids Auction Brought To You By The Beautiful: VAs FyNeSt~Owned By Jaded One The hostess also has Auto 11 Bling For Auction:

Radio Interview Jan. 16
Derek van Deerstet on Nikki Rocks the Politics 1/16/09 Deerstet Music is pleased to announce the exclusive world premiere of the brand new country collaboration single, “Better Then Before,” with lyrics and vocals by Janice Brown on Nikki Rocks the Politics on Blogtalk Radio! Derek van Deerstet will join host Nikki Starr to talk about his music and some of his other exciting projects on Friday, January 16, 2009 at 10am ET. Please join us! Click the banner above or the link below to tune in: Nikki Rocks the Politics

Better Than Before
Deerstet Music is pleased to announce the addition of Janice Brownas an official collaboration partner Derek van Deerstet and Janice Brown came together with a mutual calling to help and support others. After meeting online on the ning community, “Bring Our Troops Home in Style,” they formed a remarkable musical bond, and within less than a week produced the country song “Better Then Before.” Janice’s touching lyrics and powerful voice combined with Derek’s incredible musical composition have created an inspirational message of universal peace, love, and understanding.Please join us for the world premiere of “Better Then Before” on Nikki Rocks the Politics on Blogtalk Radio Friday, January 16, 2009 at 10am ET at the link below. Nikki Rocks the Politics

Family Issues!
I just wanted to let all my Fu-Friends know that I might not be on much for awhile. I am trying to deal with a stubborn ex that feels its ok for him to move on but not me. I show that I have moved on and he decides to punish me by not bringing our daughter back to me after Christmas vacation. Yes I have primary physical custody but because we live in different states its seems like my hands are tied! Great system that we have here isn't it! I don't have a car and don't have the money to make a trip down to NC where he lives to retrieve my daughter so my only recourse is to sit here biting my nails down and wait for the courts to "help" So Its not that I am being stuck up and not returning love but I am totally stressed and an emotional wreck right now. I will try to get on as much as I can but seems that I will probably be away quite a bit for a little while! XOXO!!

1-3-09 The Week's Words
Hella: 1. very, totally 2. lots of. short for "hell of a lot of." "that party was hella sketch." "there was hella weed tho" eargasm: the sensation one gets while hearing a dramatic climax in music (does this count if you're masturbating in the car?) celebutard: a famous stupid person i.e. paris hilton air bags: fake, silicone, saline or otherwise augmented breasts "are those original equipment or did she have airbags installed after market?" scrilla: money primary digits: the phone number a person expects friends and family to use

Real Life Resolutions
The other blog was our fubar resolution...these are my real life resolutions::: 1) find a job that I like that I can advance in and keep...(done...start Monday) 2) start working out and taking better care of myself...(taking the kids to the Y every weekend) 3) start spending more time with family and kids...(game night every Thursday and the Y on weekends) 4) cut back on smoking (new job will help with that since you can't smoke near the building) 5) pay off bills, save for next Christmas, repair house and start buying things we want...(new job will make this possible) 6) better relationship with Todd...(this is already happening but I am going to try harder)

Cheez Its Are Little Squares Of Doom
*sigh* i am an odd duck. i'm sure you all agree by now, but what makes it all even worse is that i'm both gluten and lactose intolerant. Gluten is a protein found in wheat. Lactose found in dairy. Cutting out anything with one or both of those ingredients from your diet is rather difficult. Even canned vegetable soup has fucking wheat starch. Small amounts spread throughout the week don't really do much harm, but if I were to have a glass of milk 3 days in a row, I'd ache, get headaches, and be so drained of energy it would be a struggle to get out of bed. In other words, I get food hangovers. Thanksgiving was a bitch. My body actually attacks the proteins like they are germs and thus expends lots of energy. cheez its, then, are, indeed, little squares of doom combining both problem proteins into one geometric shape of cheesy, crispy goodness. this is normally fine. i don't buy things i can't eat for myself. however, those fucking bastards have spongebob shaped crackers which d

Banana Muffins
Banana Muffins 1 ¼ cups mashed ripe bananas (3 medium) 3 tablespoons vegetable oil 1 large egg 1/3 cup sugar 2 cups bisquick baking mix Heat oven to 400. Grease bottoms only of 12 medium muffin cups, 2 ½ x 1 ¼ inches, with shortening, or line with paper baking cups. Beat bananas, oil, egg and sugar in large bowl until well blended. Stir in baking mix is moistened (batter will be lumpy).Divide batter evenly among muffin cups. Bake about 15 minutes or until golden brown. Cool muffins in pan 5 minutes; remove from pan to wire

Poem Called Touch Me ♥
Touch me softly, With your beautiful lips Touch me gently, Put your hands on my hips, Touch me, You won't hurt me, If you do it passionately It's the middle of the night And my body is calling your name, I'll touch you, If you do the same Just touch me, I'll touch you, I need you, I need you to touch me........... Mmmmmm...

Myself & Sourdiesel Are Up For Auction Again! :p
My new Master, Dark Defender, is hosting a auction, & Josh and I decided to join :P Please stop on by and place your bid to own 2 of the best raters and fu slaves a person could possibly have :P

Love Poem # 2
One Love As you stray your hands All the way through my light hair One simple touch of your hand Makes my body shiver everywhere. The way you hold me so closely Into the deep, starry, black sky With each touch of your hands Makes my body feel free to fly. Looking a little bit deeper You see the shade of my eyes You know all of my fears You know how many times I have cried. It all seems perfect But it's not as good as it seems I can't have him ever because This love was only a dream. So True......

Love Poem
Poem Called: "Never Thought" Our love, that started as a game, I never thought I'd one day be crying with the feeling of never ending pain. The day you looked me in my eyes I never thought you could tell so many lies, one day you were there and the next day gone. But I still love you the same, even after you did me wrong.

The Day My Life Changed
a november 28 2008 my brother kevin and his wife had a baby girl , they named her anna marie november 30 2008 it was sunday ,just like any other day , the kids and i are just cleaning up as always , later on that morning we all went to my parents place to see how they were doing , stayed for a while then went back home . so we went about our day , little did i relize before the night was over my life would change , next thing you know it was supper time , i made supper gave the kids a bath and put them to bed , my daughter had asked me if she could go to a friends place i said okay but be back before 9 30 pm she said okay she will be back, we had planned to watch a movie later on that night , well i was shocked when she got home earlier then i said . so we put the movie on about half way threw the movie i heard a knock on the door christina had hollored come in but they just kept knocking , i looked at her and said go answer it , its most likely for

Give A Listen. Enjoy. Stuff.....
It's not about making tons of money, or begging you for yours. It's about getting the name out there. The exposure. Know what I mean? Click the picture, enjoy some tunes......and of course.............tell everybody ya know. :-) Thank you so much! Sean www.myspace.com/seanfaust

Friday Hurts
about 6:30 Last night, Friday. me-crying like a little bitch my car, crumpled and maimed because some bitch didnt pay attention to the road and either ran a red light or she was too busy with her phone or tv, or blackberry, or gps, or talking to her passengers....so she hit my 87 no frills 5th Ave. with such force that she destroyed it. And she had was minor damage to her driver's side. no skid marks....she plowed into me. and there i stood. crying like a little bitch all i wanted to was go home i had plans to work on stuff to present to my uncle on sunday. plans to make cookies with my daughter today. not planning to have cuts and a pain in my neck and spine. i needed a cigarette...i had 3....i want one today. ...and maybe a good friend to bring beer...

There Are So Many...
So many people asked how my husband is doing I am going to make sure that everyone knows here. He is doing great. His speech is progressing nicely his balance is getting better in fact he went for walk yesterday and walked nearly a mile. I bet he will beat that record today and walk a bit further. He goes back to speech therapy next week after two weeks while his speech therapist went on a two week vacation on some wild island getaway somewhere while we froze up here in the Pacific northwest. It was 39 days ago that he had his brain stem stroke and we are very lucky that he is even alive.

Isnt Easy Getting Devorced
no matter how long uve been married & then separated devorce is hard i have been away from my husband for well over 8 years & finally paying way to much finacaly & emotionally for something he is sitting back & not even helping me on. I know im ready to be devorced from this so called human being but what was supposed to cost me under $400.00 is now almost $1000.00 & what was supposed to be 3 weeks is almost 3 to 4 months. I thank god him & i never had children together, then he would make it harder then this really is now. I'm in 1 state he is in another & all he has to do is answer the door & sign 1 or 2 pieces of paper you think he could do that much heck no he cant & now the judge is threatening to pull us both in court. Well there is no way in hell i would allow him near me or even see me. I thought he would have wanted this over more then i do but im finding no matter what once some1 controls you they dont want to stop. He is trying to control me & im hoping he is figuring out t

What I Don't Need...
I don't need... A man telling me I'm beautiful...I am I don't need your approval A man telling me that I'm sexy...I am and I certainly don't need your approval on that one A man on fubar telling me he wants to spend the rest of his life with me...you don't know me and by tomorrow we won't be talking...so quit your crap! A man asking to see my nsfw...hello! see above. There are only the select few that see those and that's not to get approval that I'm sexy...if I wasn't i wouldn't have posted them in the first place. A man telling me what I need to do with my relationship...I make mistakes, I make my own choices either good or bad...its my life. Check yourself before you judge me. A man telling me that they love plus sized women...I don't care. I'm not yours and let's get facts straight...most don't. So my beauty is for the select few and that makes me a rare gem! :P That is all!!!

Truth Time
Do you swear to tell the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth? Yes Where were you last night? Home What is today's date? 1.03.09 Who was the last person to call you baby/babe? David When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout? always unless its closed Anyone crushing on you? doubt it What is your relationship status? single Has anyone ever sang to you? yes Has anyone ever given you roses? yes If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive? not sure, I hope lol Who do you text the most?: Maria or Heather How do you make your money? odd jobs First person to text today? Michael What is your favorite color? depends on my mood What color are your eyes? brown What is a compliment you receive often? usually bout my hair or eyes How tall are you?: I'm short 5'4 Who was the last person to say they loved you and when? not sure, been a while Do you like your parents? yes Do you sec

New Year New Begining
I'm doing so much better since I moved to West Virginia everything is going great so far the doors that i'v been trying to open for the past 8 years is now starting to open for me, every since my dad was killed and my grandmother passed away my holidays sucked but my christmas this year was great because I got to spend it with my mom, i'm starting to get back into working out I kinda slacked off for a while but the fire is starting to burn hotter and my determination has incressed i'm getting my head back in the game I have alot of goals i'm going to meet, well as some of you may know I was supposed to have returned to wrestling this year at GSCW in North Carolina but it never happend I don't know what happend Keith The Don Tomasso i'm not for sure if he's full of his own bullshit or he is stuck in this fantasy world of his but oh well I guess it just wasn't ment to be so I have moved on.....I have alot of great friends and family who is behind me 100% I have been through alot in the p

Bad Car-ma
So my last blog about getting hit by a drunk driver eh? Well.... I have been keeping my promise about not drinking and driving....... I hope you all did too as you rang in the new year. But I think it is time to ditch my car since I have owned it 9 months and has now been hit 4 times...... twice by drunk drivers and twice when I wasn't in it! Way to ring in the New Year... you arrange to meet your designated driver somewhere, you leave, you come back to get your car the next day and it is pretty much totalled..... how nice. Have a Happy Fucking New Year people..... lets please make it better than 2008!

Somedays
Some days I don't want to get out of bed, don't want to do anything but lay in my warm cocoon and dream about places I have yet to go and far away places that may not exist in the fabric of our space time (I am a big astronomy nut). it just seems like no one but my dreams wants to be around me...so I am left to my own devices kinda like the kid with no friends or other siblings. am I weird I don't think so but in a sense we are all weird. but I don't know

Desire Is The Starting Point For Success.
Your Daily Motivation – Desire Is The Starting Point For Success. Saturday January 3, 2009 DESIRE IS THE STARTING POINT FOR SUCCESS. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The first thing that will contribute to reaching your goal is that you simply want to reach it badly enough. You must learn how to desire with sufficient intensity to be successful. If you have the desire you have the power to attain success. You can really have anything you want in life if you go after it. But you have to want it. As a drowning soul desires air, as a shipwrecked person craves fresh water, so must you feel that intense, eager, insistent, demanding, ravenous desire for your success. Your desire for success must be so strong within you that it becomes the very breath of your life. It must be your first thought when you wake up, and your last thought when you go to bed at night. You can have anything you want if you go after it wi

Affordable Dental And Medical Plans
I represent a 17 year old, #1 rated Nationwide Discount Healthcare Company, Ameriplan Healthcare, which offers affordable full range of benefit plans for individuals and all household family members related or not for one low monthly fee. There are four plans to choose which are the Dental Plus($14.95-$19.95) Basic Health($29.95),Total Health($39.95) and Total Health Plus($59.95) medical individual or family programs. There are no age limits and most ongoing pre-existing conditions are included. There are no paperwork, no pre-authorizations for treatment required, no deductibles, no waiting periods as with traditional health plans and you may begin using the plan immeadiately with instant savings. Benefits for the Dental Plus program include savings on Dental,Vision, Prescriptions and Chiropractic Care. Medical programs offer the Dental Plus AND Doctor Visits, Ancillary Care, Podiatry Services, 24-hour Nurseline, Diabetic Supplies and Hospital Advocacy Program for anticipated

Love, Depression.
I feel empty inside. There's nothing, no light. Just a cold breeze in a vacant hotel room, this is my heart. looks like you checked out. I sit on the edge of the bed and stare into the mirror. You'll come back just like you always do. Why does everything feel temporary when it could be forever. Forever alone.How far past gone am I? Will anything ever change? probably not in my life time. I am growing old with out you and it pains my heart. Why is every song sung about you, every thing i see reminds me of you. Maybe a caged bird knows this feeling. I've covered the physical scars. I know this feeling and I know it far too well. It hurts the same each time. Pain like this does not get any better or worse. I bandage my wounds the best I can. I tell my self its "okay". I make excuses for the reasons why its "okay". I don't feel "okay" ♥ Cover the windows, close your eyes. Turn the T.V. on.... Drown out the cries. Wipe your tears and say your goodbyes. ♥ This is what

Fu Retards
See this guy here he has no life, he makes up a private page, then goes around rating 1's I guess he doesn't have real responsibilities in life & has nothing better to do with his time. WHAT A LOSER!!!

~the Meaning Of Gestures~
What the gesture means... -Kiss on the stomach: I'm ready. -Kiss on the Forehead: I hope we're together forever. -Kiss on the Ear: You're my everything. -Kiss on the Cheek: We're friends. -Kiss on the Hand: I adore you. -Kiss on the Neck: We belong together. -Kiss on the Shoulder: I want you. -Kiss on the Lips: I like you. ____________________________________________________ What the gesture means... -Holding Hands: We definitely like each other. -Slap on the Butt: That's mine. -Holding on tight: I don't want to let go. -Looking into each other's Eyes: I just plain like you. -Playing with Hair: Tell me you love me. -Arms around the Waist: I like you too much to let go. -Laughing while Kissing: I am completely comfortable with you. ____________________________________________________ Advice: Don't ask for a kiss, take one. If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in Love. Peace.

Rachel In Leather Gloves Giving A Handjob
Hi Everybody Now Christmas is gone it is back to normal for me so this week I am releasing Border Partol" which stars Rachel at her very best wearing a black leather mini skirt and long black leather gloves I am a soilder on border patrol who has spotted she has got a fake passport but before I can raise the alarm she has knocked me out, took my gun, ordered me to strip naked and then tied me to a chair Rachel then takes all her colthes off (barring her gloves) and gets on her knees to wanks and sucks my cock Over 85 photos and video To see the sample pics and video use this link http://www.jameswildfowler.com/sexy-blonde-sucking-cock.html Enjoy James Wildfowler http://www.jameswildfowler.com

The Year Of 2009
Well it has to be better than '08! First off I just want to say that by August 1st I will be in a new apartment with my new roomie cuz I'm kickin' the old one to the curb. Those of you who know me, know that I'm completely fed up with my current living status. I could go on with millions of examples of why it's not working anymore, but it will just get me upset. My job is sub-par but that seems to be the norm for anyone these days. The economy is so bad that I can't look for a new job because where I am now is safe. We have a union therefor they can't fire me or compromise my job with a layoff or pay cut. But it's sucking my soul out...I have to eventually get out or I'll never leave. Next would be a car - I need one so that will eventually be in the works once I get settled into the new apartment. So hopefully 2009 will be great!

Download 2006
I thought i would share my memories of this great festival, Download 2006 Donnington Race Track UK(about 10 miles from my house) Bands I watched over this weekend (some bands played better songs then the vids im posting but these are the best quality) GUNS N ROSES ARCH ENEMY METALLICA (im standing to the left of this dude and his camera) DOWN will update later with riot videos lol yeah....

Auction
Come bid on your favorite fu!!!! Auction will start on January 2nd @ midnight and will end on January 9th @ midnight Here are the auction entries! THE HOST: VAs Fynest DAWNMARIE FREYA SWEETSEXYMOMMA ANGELSFALLS LIL SPICEY SOUTHERN BELLE STARRY DEVILISH DESIRE JADED ONE THCKNLUVIT

You Are The One I Need
you are the one i love. you are the one i need. you are the i believe in. you are the one i would squeeze. you became the one i need. im addicted to your love. i cant help i need your love. no i wont leave you. no i wont hurt you. no i wont forget about you. no i wont run away from you.

Imaging, Re-imaging, Migrating, And Backing Up Data.
It's been a while, but I thought I would cover a VERY important topic in the IT world: backing up data. I'm not great at doing this with non-critical data myself, but if things mean anything to you, keep backups. When hosting with a web provider, ALWAYS make sure you have a local backup copy of your site files and any databases. I would recommend having a backup schedule. For e-commerce sites, do yourself a favor and back things up nightly. One weekly full backup and incrementals there after would suffice. You can even do one twice daily if you get enough business. Why would I cover backing data up? I was just leading in to one of the main points, imaging and re-imaging machines. What is "imaging?" Imagine that you have a cookie cutter that has the perfect cookie made, and to make this perfect cookie you just lay the cutter on the dough and everything is on there. Sprinkles, frosting, whatever your idea of the perfect cookie is. This is a lot like imaging a computer. You have a

Life Can Be A Mirage
well i have to keep reminding myself that some part of my life is almost same as a mirage. it looks the same. looks so perfectly. cant tell its fake until you leave your guard down and go closer. that's when it disappears. when that happens i have 2 option. 1) scream and cry why me? or 2) just shake my head and walk away and learn. nothing is perfect. i look at everything in life in positive view. well i try to be. why try to enjoy life if im always negative.

This Sucks....but What Can Ya Do!
I'm sure this is entire posting is gonna sound messed up, but please bear with me! I'm willing to bet that there are a lot of people reading this who have had nights where they were dreaming, ended up getting hurt in the dream (physically), and after they wake up they still feel the pain that they endured in that dream. I know I have dreams where I do feel what is going on, but rarely wake up with so much of such an after-effect, but it does happen! Since I have suffered through physical and psychological trauma in my life (which I won't get into here), I do have dreams that are more of memories of the most painful and traumatic times and events from my past. One of which happened when I was 13 years old. Avoiding as many details as I can so I'm not typing forever, I was attacked from behind and brutally kicked in the back and ribs while I was on the ground. This particular event has become a reoccurring dream that I have been having for at least the last decade. Now I hav

Hope You Understand
I have so many friends and family here that I do not want to neglect anyone. My next 6 months will be very hectic with work and all. So, I have to make some changes to make sure I am there for everyone I love. Here goes.... Mondays will be dedicated to rating Sarge's Bad Girls Sarge's Bad Girls@ fubar Tuesdays will be dedicated to rating Llama Levelers Llama Levelers Home Page@ fubar Wednesdays will be dedicated to rating my family Thursdays will be dedicated to rating as many friends as possible Friday - Sunday will be dedicated to random rating. I will be helping people level throughout the week with the Llama Levelers and anyone else that needs my help. Have a great day and I will be there for anyone that needs my help when I am on fubar.

Lyrics
Joshua Radin - You Got Growin' Up To Do (feat. Patty Griffin) I've been down this road before I walk out the door Leave you on the floor Sometimes you run and hide Your foolish pride's what keeps me from giving you more So the best thing I can give to you is for me to go Leave you alone 'Cause you got growing up to do Some day I'll return when it's time for payment in kind The church bells are chimed You stand before me surrounded by lights Dressed in white You threw flowers in the air this night But the best thing I can give to you is for me to go Leave you alone You got growing up to do Looks like the rain is pouring down on me It's drowning me now and all I want is to come back home And this old corduroy coat is not keeping me dry But I can think of what else to try That's why the best thing I can give to you is for me to go Leave you alone You got growing up to do Yeah The best thing I can give to you is for me to go Leave you alo

A Bit Pissed Off!
Ok it has been brought to my attention that a leveler is going around saying that Fubar's Finest Levelers is an all female group! Uuuuuuuum SINCE WHEN! If that were true then we wouldnt have the great family members of warlockh20 and DJ Superman! If your going to go around talking about the Fam then please make sure all of your information is correct! And if for some reason you have a problem with the Fam then please bring it to the attention of the Fam before going off to talk to other ppl about it. Im very honored and proud to say that Im a member of Fubar's Finest Levelers. I know we are a small group but I think we all rock and am so glad to call you guys my friends! I hope that everyone else feels the same but if you dont then why stay?

Weight Loss
ok so i have decided to lose weight in the new year. i am doing this by going on a low carb diet and slowly increasing my excercise. i also decided that i am not gonna use pounds to judge how much i lose but inches. i will be updating this every week with my new measurements so my friends can keep up with how i'm doing. please feel free to leave comments as they will help me along the way. day 1 measurments neck 19 inches arm 23.5 inches leg 40.5 inches waist 57 inches hips 75 inches day 1 pic start of week 2 measurments neck 19 arm 23.5 leg 40 .5 in loss waist 56.5 .5 in loss hips 74 1 in loss total 2.5 in loss so far no pic i forgot start of week 3 measurements neck 18 1 in loss arm 23.5 leg 40 waist 55.5 1 in loss hips 74 so 2 in total loss this week start of week 3 pic remember to check back each saturday to see how i'm doing

Introduction
Hello... Every year I try to take the time to write something as a creative outlet. In the past I have written a short story, poems, a screenplay, and a mad rambling or two. This year I decided to write a play, only thing is... I'm going to do it in a way I've never done before.. online with each scene being made public upon completion, which leave no opportunity for corrections and rewrites. So over the next year another scene will be added from time to time until I feel it is completed.... or I get bored with it,which ever comes first. Again this is just a creative outlet for me that I've decided to use openly. I make no promises of quantity or quality of what follows. With that being said... allow me to explain my idea. The play will be titled "Out On the Line" and will take place in an urban setting, high above a busy street on a clothes line. It will take place from sunset to sundown. The characters will be different pieces of clothing hanging out on a line. Each

Deleting My Profile
hey every1.......i dnt gt on here 2 much so i figured dat id delete my profile!!! =D if ne1 wnts 2 gt up wit me... u cn find me on myspace/TAGGED/yahoo messenger chynawhite502@yahoo.com use dat email 4 those places u cn find me....bt u cn also add me 2 yahoo messenger if u wnt wit dis otha email 2... ghettotinky@yahoo.com MUCH LUV @ U ALL!!!! =D *MUAH* THANK U, *T-Baby*

So When Will It Happen?
its what we all want to know.... when will it happen?... well ...no 1 knows. and waiting 4 it is kinda sucky...so i hope it happens soon. this waitn crap blows....so.... i will continue on with it and see where it goes. with that said....its gonna be a good day hopefully....and werk is gonna be weird today....werkn a triple header and its gonna be a bizzy bizzy day. RP

Chicken Or The Egg
ok everyone knows it's an on going battle, but think about it, if the egg came first then how'd it get there, what fertilized it, what incubated it, and what fed the baby chick when it hatched cuz we all know a chick cannot feed itself

Wildfire Saloon - Come On In!
Come into the WILDFIRE SALOON for a whole new classy, but wild, experience!! :D Created by DJ Devine ~Owner @ Wildfire Saloon (Check out the new look) ~The Pegasus Project~FuLuv Bomb Squad@ fubar

An Undead Episode..part One
The adrenaline rushed through me. My lungs heaved and heart slowly stopped pounded in my chest and ears. It seemed so loud the people next door could hear it, but they were dead. I looked back at the floor, and saw my mother, well, the thing that was my mother, decapitated. I looked at him, with so many questions in my eyes, but spoke only one thing…. “How did you kill her? I mean, she was dead! But, but, she wasn’t! She came back to life but it wasn’t her!” “She became the undead dear. If you or I didn’t kill her, she would have killed us. It’s simple really…. Haven’t you seen a zombie flick or read a horror story before? Destroy the brain… destroy the zombie!” He explained with a glee in his eye. “So what do we do now?” I asked him, expecting the worst. “We get the fuck outta here. This isn’t a safe place, I haven’t seen a living person on this whole block and nightfall approaches in a few hours. “ “Okay, where will we go?” “I have a place nearby that’s a solid

Love Ya, Mom!!!
October 11th, 1986, I was born. May have not impacted the world then, but I think I may have done a few things since that I can be very proud of. I finished high school, for once...lol. I grew up knowing not how to fail. When I found a fork in the road, I tried my best to choose the best route to go. When I found a wall, I climbed it, one way or another, but Ill admit, sometimes I didnt climb the wall, I just took a cannon to it. Though I owe it to my mom. Some of you may know her, most dont, but she is one incredible woman. Never once told me to find an easy way out of things, always told me to never quit, but to be the best I can be. Everytime it came down to the point where I knew I would put my name in the record books, she was always watching, cheering me on. I know there was a time or two where she may not have been able to make it and see me do something awesome, but I knew that I was on her mind the whole time. And to see her light up when I told her how I did my best, s

Thoughts...
This is a random list of thoughts and things I have learned as I have gotten older. -Its alright to cry every once in awhile. We are human after all. -The saying is true "Never make someone your priority when you're only their option." You'll waste you're life on someone who doesn't really give a damn about you. -Don't spend your time caring about what others think. If they can't show you respect and like you for who you are; then honestly they aren't worth your time. -Tell the ones close to you how you feel about them. You never know when it will be your last chance. -People come into our lives; sometimes for a short while but they can leave a lasting impression. -Dream...dream...dream...life without dreams is an empty one. {Im sure this will be added to at a later point}

Webcam Site Meet Ppl
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This Is Sad For Most
November 26, 2008 My Dearest Matthew, When I was pregnant with you I was really excited because I wanted to have a baby with your father whom I have liked for a long time. I met your father when I was 11 years old. We talked a lot and he was over at my house a lot. We kept in touch for a very long time and went places together. He left and moved away to Oklahoma and I didn't see him for awhile. When he moved back here where I was we started to talk again. Very quickly we fell in love and I knew that I wanted to be with him for ever. Once we were together we decided to try and have a child. We already had children from previous marriages but wanted to try one last time for a child together. When we found out about you we were so excited to hear the news. We went shopping and bought you a few things and told the kids about you being here. We picked out a name for you that had your grandma's initials in it. Dad wanted it that way because he misses his mom so much since she passed awa

Totally Whacked!!!!
How the world works lately... If a man cuts his finger off while slicing salami at work, he blames the restaurant. If you smoke three packs a day for 40 years and die of lung cancer, your family blames the tobacco company. If your neighbor crashes into a tree while driving home drunk, he blames the bartender. If your grandchildren are brats without manners, you blame television. If your friend is shot by a deranged madman, you blame the gun manufacturer. And if a crazed person breaks into the cockpit and tries to kill the pilot at 35,000 feet, and the passengers kill him instead, the mother of the crazed deceased blames the airline. I must have lived too long to understand the world as it is anymore. So, if I die while my old wrinkled ass is parked in front of this computer, I want all of you to blame Bill Gates.

Reflections In The Mirror On The Road Of Life
At some point in my life, things changed irrevocably. Life and the way I viewed it altered completely. Some would say that this is a good thing, others are more of the belief that I am being a fool and not being careful. I am still unsure myself as to which of these is true. I wonder some days if it was worth it. The changes I have made, the steps I have taken, and the things I have done. I suppose at the end of the day so to speak, I am the only person who can make that judgement. Still sometimes it is difficult to look in the mirror and see the man reflected back at me. While I know there is no point in mulling over what might have been, I still wonder if I had done things differently, would the person I see be the same, or would there be a different man facing me. Some days my reflection appears as clear as a sunny day and my path is easy to find while others it is like looking into the face of a stranger, not knowing who I am or what I am doing here. Every road in life contains man

Butterfly And Hawtcommodity
HEY YALL ARE INVITED FOR A WEDDING THAT WILL TAKE PLACE 3:00 A.M. CST TIME TOMORROW MORNING CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU THERE AND YOU CAN WITNESS BUTTERFLY AND HAWTCOMMODITY GETTING MARRIED CLICK THE PIC ABOVE TO ENTER WE WOULD LOVE TO HAVE YOU REPOST OFTEN PLZ!!!!!!!

Funny Stuff I Made Up!!
Its chilly when its cold!------------- Don't worry just be! ---------------- Try me on for size!------------------- your a Funny Fucker!------------------ To Swig or not to Swig that is!------- Pie Perfect!-------------------------- Whats up Cherry Pop!------------------ Lick it then Stick it!---------------- Ride it like a snow sled!------------- Sfinkter Clause!---------------------- My Goggy (good doggy)!---------------- Pretty Slitty kitty!------------------ Slamit Damnit!------------------------ Thats a nice Hose hound for my front yard! Look at this dump truck all stuck in the muck like a stupid fuck!---------------------- Roll with the turns baby!------------- Try a fat chick on your stick!-------- Pussy lovers Lunch box!--------------- I like sushi! mushu shushi!

Fu _ Own Me !!
I recently noticed I been getting Fu - owened. And I think its kinda cute and funny. SO for all who are interested get into the game. And try your best to make me yours. Thats right, FU - OWN me. Lets see the fun and games begin .

Spelling And Grammar, A Lost Art?
I realize some words in the English language can be a bit confusing, such as quiet and quite, accept and except, and the really Big Ones- Your and You’re. But some people seem to have no self respect. They need to learn to proofread their comments before clicking the submit button. There is such a thing as spell check, and if you can’t find that you can use Google. If you type any word into Google and its spelled wrong, Google will ask, did you mean this ____ and will provide you with the correct spelling. Reading Blogs and comments has become somewhat of a chore for me due to the horrible lack of spelling and grammar skills that are all over the internet. Some are written like a teen sending a text message to another teen. Others sound like they were written by Rain Man, as if somehow that makes them sound cool. It’s embarrassing is what it is, and shows complete disregard and blatant disrespect for the reader in my opinion. It’s not that hard, it is not rocket science to learn to c

What To Do...find Out!!!!
this is very important to learn on what to do in situations like this. you ever come across something so strange in the middle of the night. your just sleeping and all of a sudden you wake up to something painful. you wake up to find the pain is coming from your feet. you think to yourself, what is causing this sharp stabbing pain. you look down with tired eyes just to find something so terrible, frightning, huge and varosious, enough to wake you with wide eyes and realise... its not a rat, nor a bat but a huge visious SQUIRREL...(on crack)... biting on your feet. oh i know this story because i've experienced it. and when i say experienced i mean someone i know this has happened to. it all started out on wednesday october 29, 2008 10:00pm at night. my mother tells her boyfriend about people who suffered from the leprosy. and she would explain how they would wake up and find that their finger is missing because a rodent takes off with them wh

Burned
Okay, so I just finished this book today by Ellen Hopkins. It's called Burned. I also read Impulse by her. And they are really DEPRESSING. I just about cried at the ending but of course that would be stupid. Right? but maybe it was just written well enough that I felt connected with the main character. I've never heard such I sad story. Not even in her other book Impulse. I would love to talk to someone who has also read it. Has anyone read it? The ending bugs me because its the kind that leaves you to guess or make your own decision to what happened. AND I THINK SHE JUMPED or FELL(idk if was enthusiastic enough for a jump). so basically if you haven't read it, read it and talk to me about it. It's an easy read because its written in poetry but not what you would expect it to be like, just sentences in rhythm. It makes sense and you don't have to think real hard to make sense out of it but its deep. Although I'm not sure the dudes out there would like it as much but idk try it anyways

I Love You More Than Life, Janice!
Janice, I love you, I need you, I miss you and the biggest mistake I ever made in my life was hurting you BECAUSE YOURE EVERYTHING IN LIFE TO ME! EVERYTHING I LOVE, NEED AND MISS! AND WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO GET YOU TO KNOW THAT NOT ONLY ARE YOU THE ONLY REASON I EVER GET UP IN THE MORNINGS TO LIVE MY LIFE BUT THE HOPE OF BEING WITH YOU AND GETTING TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS WHENEVER YOUD LET ME AS YOUR MAN IS NOT ONLY ALL I EVER WISH ON BUT THAT HOPE IS THE ONLY DAMN THING THAT KEEPS ME GOING EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE AND I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY THAT IF I WERE TO HAVE TO LIVE ALL THE REST OF IT WITHOUT YOU, I WOULD THEN SOMEHOW SEE TO IT THAT IT WOULD BE THE END OF THIS MISERY THAT I CALL A LIFE BECAUSE WITHOUT YOU, MISERY, SORROW AND ALL THOSE THINGS WRAPPED INTO ONE ARE ALL YOU COULD REALLY SAY THAT IT HAS BEEN IF YOU DONT COUNT THE TIMES THAT IVE HAD YOU! YOURE THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME, I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

It Hurts
IT SUCKS!!! I'm tired of hurting I'm tired of being like this day in and day out I'm sick of waking up in pain I'm sick of going to bed in pain I'm sick of all the pills I have to take I'm just so tired of hurting everyday I want it to go away but I know it never will My pain is here for the rest of my life If people can't deal with me like this, or deal with my disabilities then they don't need to be a part of my life.

Society
As I see it, there are always two sides to everything, what if it was just one big whole? Recently I have made a realization. There are two societies in the world (in general). Personal Society This consists of friends, family, and associates. The associates don't really have much of an impact on your life as they do not really care, they are just there. Friends are people whom you can count on to a point, they all have their weaknesses and strengths, pros and cons. Then you have your family, who will always be there for you when you need it even if you don't want it. They will not judge you for anything at any time. Family is by default blood, however, as you grow older you gain family by growing close relations with others. having said that, onto the next society. Mainstream Society This will consist of all the rest of the people you may see everyday but have never spoken to. Truth be told you don't want much to do with these people as they won't give a crap

Measurements
Just a thought I had after a "shout box dust up" this evening. Remember people that when someone is trying to put you down, that they use themselves as the yard stick by which they measure everyone else. So, to all the asshats, down raters and internet "tough" guys all I have to say is...Even from my position as a "1", I'm still looking down on you. And laughing my ass off!! (names were not used out of respect for a special and delicious friend,though "they" know who they are.) Did I studder (sic)? ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Devlin Would Be 2yrs Old Today!!!
its been a while sense we have seen your smile, a while sense we heard your laugh,or cry...but you are loved still so very much so you truely never died. You grace us with your presence every now and then, when it gets all quite and the wind blows ever so gently we know thats you blowing a kiss,when things end up in places we didnt put them we know thats your way of letting us know you stopped by to say hi,but still to this day when i think of you on your birthday it brings a tear to my eyes.It makes me sad to think you never had the chance to celibrate a birthday with us,but your 2 years old now,and il be at your grave again tonight spending time with you on your birthday baby boy. I love you so much,and wish you were still here, HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY baby D!!!

Warning....a Bad One..must Read!!!
If you receive an email entitled 'Bedtimes' delete it IMMEDIATELY. Do not open it . Apparently this one is pretty nasty. It will not only erase everything on your hard drive, but it will also delete anything on disks within 20 feet of your computer. It demagnetizes the stripes on ALL of your credit cards. It reprograms your ATM access code, screws up the tracking on your VCR, and uses subspace field harmonics to scratch any CD's you attempt to play. It will program your phone auto dial to call only 1900 numbers. This virus will mix antifreeze into your fish tank. IT WILL CAUSE YOUR TOILET TO FLUSH WHILE YOU ARE SHOWERING. It will drink ALL your beer. FOR GOD'S SAKE, ARE YOU PAYING ATTENTION?? It will leave dirty underwear on the coffee table when you are expecting company. It will replace your shampoo with Nair and your Nair with Rogaine. If the 'Bedtimes' message opened in a Windows 95/98 environment, it will leave the toilet seat up and leave your hair dryer plugged in dang

My Valentine
WELL VALENTINE'S DAY IS RIGHT ROUND THE CORNER AND POOR SANTA HAS BEEN SOOOO BUSY WITH ALL THE GIFTS AND SUCH THAT HE HAS NO DATE. CUPID'S ARROW HAS MISSED HIM. SO HE NEEDS YOUR HELP. SANTA HAD SO MUCH FUN WITH HIS XMAS SALUTE CONTEST HE DECIDED TO HOLD A VALENTINE DATE SALUTE CONTEST. FOR THOSE WHO MISSED THE XMAS SALUTE CONTEST HERE ARE THE RULES. SUBMIT A SALUTE (OR TWO). THE SALUTE CAN BE ANYTHING THAT U THINK MIGHT GRAB THE JUDGES ATTENTION. OH YEAH THERE WILL BE A PANEL OF 3 ANONYMOUS JUDGES TO DECIDE WHAT SALUTE WINS. THE CRITERIA FOR THE JUDGING IS ORIGINALITY/CREATIVITY 40% SEXUALITY 30% TIME AND EFFORT 20% AND RATES 10%. ALL ENTRIES WILL BE DUE BY 9PM FU-TIME ON FRIDAY THE 13TH OF FEBRUARY. IF THERE IS A TIE THEN A SEPARATE JUDGE WILL DECIDE THE WINNER OUT OF THE FINALISTS. SANTA WILL LEAVE IT ENTIRELY UP TO THE JUDGES TO PICK HIS DATE. THE WINNER WILL RECEIVE AN AUTO 11 BLING AND BE PIMPED OUT BY SANTA. YOUR NAME WILL BE IN MY STATUS AND IN MY NAME FOR A WEEK AND

Am I Going To Bitch? Ah Yes!
So I'm sitting here talking to my lovely, whorish friend, Josh on the telephone. I've been thinking for the past few months. Why can't people ever shut the fuck up? Why can't conversations between two friends ever be confidential? What is being said is that I talk shit behind one of my friends back. Let me get something straight here. I NEVER EVER say shit behind my friends backs that I will not say to their face. I may say shit to people to get my shit straight..you know to figure out how Im going to say it and what Im going to say, before I talk to you. Im not like these fake ass mother fuckers out there who claim to be your friend. You don't like what I have to say then tough shit. Im going to say whats on my mind. If you piss me off...then I will tell you. I don't know how MANY fucking times I have to remind you. I'm the most unique friend anybody could have. I don't understand why I put up with peoples bullshit. My fuse is getting shorter and shorter each and every day. I'm afraid

Passionate Silence: The Return
Passionate Silence: The Return He pulled up to the complex in his motorcycle, shut off the engine, and stepped off the black Harley with the blue flames. Removing the matching black helmet with the blue flames from his head, he shook his head to loosen the hair long-matted-down under the helmet, and then set the helmet on the bag in the sidecar. Reaching into his belt pack, he pulled out a comb and gave his long brown locks a quick combing out, more to straighten it and remove the “helmet hair” that he had gotten from sixteen hours of riding down the long and lonely interstate. He arched his back and stretched, stiff from the long ride. Cruise control was helpful, but the lack of a seat back was murder on his back and neck. He unbuckled his leather chaps and vest and stowed them in their normal spot in the saddlebags, next to another helmet, this one also black but with orange flames. Above him, a woman watched, and waited. ***** She looked up from her book as she hear

Something To Be Said About Bbws And Thick Women...
if you reject them based solely on that, you are missing so much, not only in terms of your own personal character but also the possibility of meeting someone who can either make you happy or be a great friend. If you like women with big breasts, then this is a natural in most cases. While I love women as a whole in general, I am attracted more to women who have something on them. Weight (as well as race, etc, etc) should never be a factor in how you interact with them or feel about them. Everyone (for the most part with exception) has a heart, a soul, a spirit that needs to be nutured and appreciated and excluding a whole bunch of people because of weight issues is completely and utterly ludicrous and needs to be ceased. So next time you see anyone, show them some love and not some ridicule. People are people...so love everyone because life is precious. And also as I would say, always think pink. Thank you.

Left Alone In My Head In The Dark Corners
So sometimes things happen And you really wish they didnt Or maybe the way they unfolded was differently done Sometimes you wonder if certain things that are done or have been said, are on purpose. But you never know, and Id never ask. There are people you get really close to and maybe there could be more. And sometimes arent. Yet you still want to be really close to them. Things that you miss about that person. And so many things can remind you of that person Which can drive a person batty, especially when you are not on speaking terms. And as well havent smoothed things over with the actions you both have done towards eachother. And all you want is their friendship. I sometimes wonder whats the world got in store for me. For all the crap I have gone thru in my life. They say if it doesnt kill you it only makes you stronger. Well Ive been thru so much I feel like an ARMY of strength. And it makes me wonder, why must I have to be so strong yet not completely happy righ

Social Disgrace
Hey, this is J, host/ creator of the youtube show, Social Disgrace. Here You can Leave me messages, rants, raves and all that other bullshit. Be sure to check out the show. www.youtube.com/jloyche33 Later. J

A Drunk Story...
A drunken man walks into a biker bar, sits down at the bar and orders a drink. Looking around, he sees three men sitting at a corner table. He gets up, staggers to the table, leans over, looks the biggest, meanest, biker in the face and says: 'I went by your grandma's house today and I saw her in the hallway buck naked. Man, she is one fine looking woman!' The biker looks at him and doesn't say a word. His buddies are confused, because he is one bad biker and would fight at the drop of a hat. The drunk leans on the table again and says: 'I got it on with your grandma and she is good, the best I ever had!' The biker's buddies are starting to get really mad but the biker still says nothing. The drunk leans on the table one more time and says, 'I'll tell you something else, boy, your grandma liked it!' At this point the biker stands up, takes the drunk by the shoulders looks him square in the eyes and says.................... 'Grandpa....... Go

Ruler Of The Whole Everything
Okay. So there was this one time, when I was like 20 years old or so. I worked in a dumpy little retail store as a manager. I thought I was hot shit because I was a senior store supervisor and I could boss people around and whatnot. One of my job duties as “ruler of the whole everything” (by which I mean Sr. Store Supervisor of course) was to take the monies from the previous days’ sales to the bank to deposit. Which, hello… as ruler of the whole everything was the most major of responsibilities you could lay on a 20 year old, right? This only served to further encourage my (apartment sized) authority complex. Because really, what other 20 year old was in charge of thousands of dollars every day? I didn’t know any. You point him out to me, and I’ll just knock him down a peg and explain why I ruled more than he did. True facts. Anycrap, back on subject here. Although I was the ruler of the whole everything, I wasn’t in charge of the scoping out of new employees, or else I would have

Current Life In 90 Questions
1. What was the highlight of your week? hanging out with Brooke 2. Whose car were you in last? mine 3. When is the next time you will kiss someone? dunno... 4. What color shirt are you wearing? red 5. How long is your hair? a lil past my shoulders 6. Are you good looking? I don't think so 7. Last movie you watched? Man in the Moon 8. Who were you with? me myself & I 9. Last thing you ate? PB&J sandwich lol 10. Last thing you drank? Mountain Dew 11. When was the last time you had your heart broken? truly broken? been a while 12. Who came over last? Brooke 13. Are you happy right now? I'm okay 14. What did you say last? this computer is a piece of shit 15. Where is your phone? in my pocket 16. What color are your eyes? brown 17. Are you left-handed? nope 18. Spell your name without vowels: Mgn 19. Do you have any pets? yes, 2 cats & 1 dog 20. Favorite Vacation? Daytona Beach 21. What do you dislike currently?

Politics Again
what happened to american politics? What happened to democracy and equal repesentation? I think that's a trick question. George washington warned against partisanship. He said it would tear the country apart, and it's doing a pretty good job. One party has almost all of the media under it's control, and it's been spewing lies for the last five or so years. Do you guys want to know why our economy is so bad? Is it because of bush? hell no, the president has very little power over something like that. a huge part of it was this whole fannie mae, freddie mac jargon. It was the democrats who thought of it. Economists (or whatever they're called) from the bush admin. warned the dems about how it would screw us up. But they didn't listen. and now these idiots, who thought it a good idea to loan extremely large amounts of money to people who could never pay it, are blaming bush and the republicans for their own stupid-ass mistakes. You can't blame every problem on a president. Take Katri

I Am....
I'm Crazy.I'm Silly.I'm Funny.I'm Cute.I'm Brave. I'm Gurly.I'm Sweet.I'm Loud.I'm Cheerful.I'm Opinionated.I'm Energetic.I'm Annoying.I'm Fun.I'm Outgoing.....Sometimes i'm not everything i wish i could be , but I'M everything i need to be.I'm just ME , and i LIKE it like that....

Amazed...
Just when you really think life is crap and thats just the way it is... something truly amazing happens...and just like that the world is this wonderful glorious place and you can't stop smiling.... this is exactly where i am i love life and am very very thankfull for the ones i love and who love me too! you know who you are and thanks..I'll always love you!

Life Her Breath
Beneath the tree No leaves for shelter A snow is falling And branches bend And up beneath A frozen ground I find myself Hearing dragons sound And there she sleeps Beneath the leaves Upon the ground Her growth of seeds Though wintery silence Keeps me still A raven crys out Upon the mountain shrill And though a chatter Fills my brain I silence then She comes again Rising white A dragons wings Transparent, unfolding Upon this dream Where snow became The white scales And icicles became Her shiny teeth Where breath Became my breath Unfolding and unsheathed See here, says the dragon Theres gold among the sun See here, says the moon Theres love to find as one And there she sat Upon the snow Upon the back of she dragon Away up high and down below She sleeps Life her breath And all of her in me A goddess of the flames The earth and wind and sea! Rain Feather 1:27 waxing moon

Living In The Present...
When we live in the future, we invite fear, When we live in the past, we invite sorrow, But when we live in the moment, we invite Excitement, enthusiasm, and innocent wonder. From the book ‘Child of the Dawn’ by Gautama Chopra

Feeling Down
I've been feeling pretty down recently, and i don't really know why. Maybe it's because i'm so far away from my friends. I'm not sure, but i do know that it sucks, because i haven't been depressed in a long time. I'll feel fine when i'm on my meds because they're designed to stabilize my mood, but when they wear off i feel like shit again. I guess it really doesn't matter that much, but whatever

As We Grow Up
As we grow up we learn that even the people that wasn't supposed to let you down probably will.You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.You'll break hearts too,so remember how it felt when yours was broken.You'll fight with your best friend.You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.You'll cry because time is passing to fast.You'll eventually lose someone you love.So take too many pictures , laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt, Because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of HAPPINESS you never get back.Don't be afraid that your life will end,be afraid that it will never BEGIN...

Hole
Hole. Bloody hole. We aren't supposed to talk about the bloody hole, but there's a bloody hole winking me in the face. I want to c-u-u-t it off, ch-o-o-p it off, and make guacahole. This blog...is for Witchie. The hole thing. Not just part, the hole thing. What can you do with a hole? You can fill a hole. You can tongue a hole. You can gaze into a hole. You can enlarge a hole. You can stick something in a hole. You can take something out of a hole. There is a hole lot of things you can do with a hole. You can build a barrier, so nobody falls into the hole. You can lay branches over a hole, so people do fall into it. Holey crap...I'm running out of ideas. HOLE!!! HOLEY HOLEY HOLE...we aren't supposed to talk about the hole.

Survey
Who was the last male you talked to? my bro Richard Who is someone that can always make you laugh? Richard or Brooke What were you doing at 10am this morning? sleeping What were you doing an hour ago? playing my DS Do you plan on moving within the next year? not to my knowledge but hell who knows lol Are you wearing anything on your feet? nope, need to put some socks on What are you looking forward to in the next 3 months? hopefully successfully changing myself.. Do you remember your dreams? sometimes Where did your last hug take place? probably christmas eve from one of the kiddos Have you been to a baby shower? yes What cell phone company do you use? Net10 What color is your hair brush? silver Do you watch the Super Bowl? nope What about World Cup? nope Do you sleep with a teddy bear? No What is the last movie you watched? Man In The Moon What movie do you think everyone should watch? whatever they want to watch lol

R.i.p.
So my mom told me today John Travolta's son passed out, it's sad but no biggie, not like we knew them or anything... but anyway, he died the same way my dad died in July 2007. My dad had a seizure in the shower and fell and fractured his skull, he was on life support for 10 days before we had to make the decision to pull the plug. so it's just a sad reminder and I feel for the family because it sucks. Anyways for those that don't know here is a clip of the article: NASSAU, Bahamas – John Travolta's teenage son, Jett, died in the Bahamas after apparently suffering a seizure and hitting his head at his family's vacation home, authorities said Friday. A house caretaker found Jett, 16, unconscious in a bathroom late Friday morning. He was taken by ambulance to a Freeport hospital, where he was pronounced dead, Police Superintendent Basil Rahming said in a statement. The teenager had last been seen entering the bathroom on Thursday and had a history of seizures, according to

Happiness
There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless DRAMA &the people who create it & surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus soley on the good.After all,life is too short to be anything but Happy.

1 2 09 New Years Asshat
I read a blog tonight about the person in this shout and her husband. Their points were reset as cheaters since they were using scripting programs. Many bulletins have been set about their dilemma where they claimed to have been reset for copyright infringement because they were playing pirated music in their lounge. I have never ever once spoken to this woman, but I went to read a blog her husband wrote in an attempt to trash another person on this site. Her husband attempted to make it appear that this other member was a hypocrite after the member blogged about the fact that she and her husband were cheating by using a scripting program. Her husband blogged that the member had Macros installed in Firefox and thus imply that the member was also a cheater. Now I don't know the first thing about scripting, what it entails, or how to do it. But I have seen the Firefox ads for Macros and they even have it installed at the local hospital on the Firefox browsers. In addition, this wo

Level Midnightmare!!!! Tonight Plz =)
PLZZZZZZ TAKE A MINUTE & LEVEL A GREAT WOMAN!! *MIDNIGHTMARE* UNDER A MILLION TO GODFATHER!! GET HER THERE!! CLICK THE PIC PLZ! MIDNIGHTMARE *MIDNIGHTMARE* @ FUBAR.COM TELL HER HORNY SENT YA =) HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

A New Kind Of Love
IT IS NOT SOMEONE NEW IN MY LIFE,ITS SOMEONE THAT I HAVE LOVED FOR A LONG TIME,HES A RATHER KIND OF SPECAIL GUY.AND I JUST CANT DO WITHOUT HIM,HE SOMETIMES DOESNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY,BUT SHOWS ME HOW MUCH HE CARES,...ITS SO SWEET,HES JUST WONDERFUL,I WAS SICK AND HE KEPT MAKING SURE I WAS OKAY,I WAS UPSET WITH AN OLD FRIEND AND HE CALMED ME DOWN,I ADMITTED SOME FAULTS AND I WAS AFRAID AND IT WAS OKAY.I CRIED AND I DIDNT WANT HIM TO SEE ME CRY,AND YET I WAS COMFORTED I DONT FEEL I DESERVE TO BE LOVED AS MUCH AS I DO,AND HE DOES AND ITS WONDERFUL AND I MISS THAT,AND I WANT MORE,...BUT WE NEED EACH OTHER,...AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE. LOVE YOU,SEE YOU SOON.

I Am Who I Am..
People are people and I am who I am, like me or don't. I have my right not wanting anything to do with someone who says one thing and then does another. I can see if the truth was told in the first place or if plans had changed then a phone call would be good you know so I wouldn't be waiting there like a fucking dumb ass. I am not fucking overreacting damn it I am standing up for what the fuck I believe in, because I don't like being lied to or taken advantage of is that fucking wrong??? Am I fucking making sense? Blah fuck it I'm fuckint tired of it.

2009 Sucks Already
Just venting.... My fucking car wouldn't start after work. I had to find a ride home and leave my car there. It seems it might be the alternator, I dunno thou cause I'm not a mechanic. Oh and it was freezing cold too. One of the supervisors was so kind to bring me clear out to my house when he commutes to work an hour and half and now he won't be home til 11 or so...and he was out late already. I am usually the one locking up the building but thankfully he was out late helping a tech get unstuck in the fucking snow. Thank you for reading my rant. The End

Holidays
Well I must say the holiday season is over and done with and I made it through them sober, and loved it. First year I was ever sober for any holiday. I am proud of myself for coming this far. Never thought I would do it but I did and I am glad I did it. A bunch of peoplethought for sure that I would at least drink but so far nothing. I dont plan on going back to anything. I now know I can have fun sober. I laugh and smile alot more theses days. Thanks to all my friends. You know who you are. XOXOXOXOXO

Fireman Sex,,,,,,,
A FIREMAN came home from work one day and told his wife, "You know, we have a wonderful system at the fire station: BELL 1 rings and we all put on our jackets, BELL 2 rings and we all slide down the pole, BELL 3 rings and we're on the fire truck ready to go. "From now on when I say BELL 1, I want you to strip naked. When say BELL 2, I want you to jump in bed. And when I say BELL 3, we are going to make love all night." The next night he came home from work and yelled, "BELL 1!" The wife promptly took all her clothes off. When he yelled "BELL 2!", the wife jumped into bed. When he yelled "BELL 3!", they began making love. After a few minutes the wife yelled "BELL 4!" "What the hell is BELL 4?" asked the husband? "ROLL OUT MORE HOSE," she replied, "YOU'RE NOWHERE NEAR THE FIRE

Lonely Road Of Faith
mp3 songs | Kid Rock MP3s This song always has and always will be special to me and Kid Rock is awesome!! I think if people would actually listen to his music instead of just the hype from mouths and the radio they would truly see how talented he is.

Fucking Actors
Even if I had the choice, I don't think I would do very much with an actor. I mean I wouldn't be able to date let alone fuck them. How can you tell the way they truly are and feel knowing that they can decieve so many into believing the roles they play? So that makes me ask the question would I be able to trust them? I do admire them though.. So many ways to take advangage of that. Get what you want and still come out on top. But could it make it all the better? would you be happy with someone that put on a show to be happy with you? Someone who seemed like everything but was truly nothing. Or did doing everything make them something in the end? Everyone puts on some kind of show so what would the harm be. Why waste your time trying to know anyone anyway? They all change into something else.. Fucking Actors

To All Who Know Me....
To my fu bomber family and all my friends..I have hit rock bottom at the moment. As of Wednesday I no longer have a home. I got evicted in court today. The judge was not nice and made me cry in the courtroom, because I love my pets. I told him I would find another place for them to stay, but he said I only have unti Wed Jan the 7th to be out. I also have to be back in court and prove that I cleaned the place up. So farewell for now..I will hopefully be back in touch with everyone soon... Muah and take care.

Epic Mummer Song
2008 the year in review (We didn't start the fire) Baby Jesus, Sassy, J, not a mumm go away Hell cat, fake tits, Rev's donkey show Joe Hood and Vixen, plus Baka what a vision North Ohio, South Ohio, we always know Pony bling, comment bomb, happy hour, autos on lots of hos, the bids are high who's next to go bye bye Mumm comments, that's mean who died and made you queen Jenatalia, Crazy Dave its sad Bob went goodbye We didn't start the fire it was always burning since the fu's been turning we didn't start the fire we didn't light it we're not tryin to fight it Coot shopping every day Seamus and Katiemae bouncer feller, Cinderellas Bounty posting cock big cons, Don Juans chubby chasers, ding dongs Misfits boobs, fuzzy balls mumms around the clock Einsteins, small peens fubars got a winning team sexy mummettes, plastic man Elvis Presley has been banned blocked oh, your a pest all the drama its the best Prinny's face, know your

A Creepy Song With My Name ~shivers~
~Dani's nusery rhyme~ In that cold winter morning You can hear some voices calling They found Dani, and she was sleeping Now the voices started screaming She was laying down on the wet grass Looking vacuous at the pass She was cut in two as a doll And now her smile’s not happy at all Your hungry fingers around her neck Have brought you nothing more than pain But now there’s no turning back You see Dani’s eyes will never shine again Dani can’t walk, Dani can’t breath Dani can’t talk, Dani can’t weep Dani can just smile, yes She can smile until her ears They said Dani was so good May they have not understood? Her white flower was so pure But somebody’s found the cure She was laying down on the wet grass Looking vacuous at the pass She was cut in two as a doll And now her smile’s not happy at all Your hungry fingers around her neck Have brought you nothing more than pain But now there’s no turning back You see Dani’s eyes will never shine again D

My Wish For You In 2009
My Wish for You in 2009 May peace break into your house and may thieves come to steal your debts. May the pockets of your jeans become a magnet of $100 bills. May love stick to your face like Vaseline and may laughter assault your lips! May your clothes smell of success like smoking tires and may happiness slap you across the face and may your tears be that of joy. May the problems you had forget your home address! In simple words ............ May 2009 be the best year of your life!!!

A Question I Use To Ask Myself
why am i here? my heart feels so troubled why am i here? is it to love or is it to fear? to love is so beautiful but it scares me so much i wait for the pain as i wait for your touch i've heard all the lies and i'll hear them again thats why i'm fearing, inside i'll be hurt in the end should i be brave and let my heart go? could i trust you enough to let the love show? and if i gave in would you give too? is it really safe for me to fall in love with you? am i to love or am i to fear? Please God, what’s the answer? why am i here? that is, until I met Danielle. Now I know that it's to love. Thank you, Dani. Thank you for answering my question, my love.

10 Things You Should Never Say To A Porn Star
It's AVN season, the time when porn stars dress up in their finest PVC attire and compete for awards in categories such "Best All-Girl 3-Way Sex Scene." And for those lucky enough to be attending the AVN awards on January 10th in Las Vegas, it's also the time when porn stars leap out of the DVD player and come to life to pose for pictures and sign your time-worn copy of "Jenna Loves Rocco." Luckily, adult entertainer and Wicked Girl Stormy Daniels (who is nominated for both "Best Supporting Actress" and "Crossover Star of the Year") was kind enough to give us some pointers on how to keep your foot out of your mouth when faced with your favorite porn stars. Read on to find out 10 things you should never say to a porn star. 10. You're too pretty to do porn. (So, you're saying you would prefer to watch ugly people f*ck?) 9. Your vagina must be really worn out. (Mine isn't nearly as bad as your mother's after pushing such a giant idiot like you out of it.) 8. I would never watc

Always
Always… sitting here, awaiting sleep my thoughts lost in your smile i close my eyes but sleep wont come so i think i'll write awhile i know our future isn't set but please love, do not fear the only fear thats in my heart is losing you, my dear these thoughts of you, they warm my heart in a world that feels so cold and with those thoughts, the smile it brings for a love that won't grow old i count myself a lucky man now each and every day so thankful that your hearts with mine and there it's sure to stay so, i'm hoping that these words of love will help you understand you will always be my only one and i will always be your man...

Wishing
the man behind my lids again the whispered voice that haunts my ear trying to take control away the emptiness, the chill of fear the push and pull inside my head cause i am good, but he is not it seems we battle constantly taking all the will i've got i try to smile despite the pain it makes things worse if i give in why is it he won't go away and take this want, this need to sin how will i live a normal life when i can't control the way i feel now so depressed i cannot think wishing, all of this wasn't real

The Dream
i had the dream again last night my eyes in a body i cannot control the killing is done, so now i start eating blood-dripping mouthfuls of bodies once whole wordless i'm screaming, tho no one can hear me the voices grow louder than they've ever before they want me to finish this deed that i've started looking down at the bodies that litter the floor slowly i kneel down, all hope abandoned the sickness consumes me with each dripping bite tho turning my stomach, i feel that i need it how sick to find meaning in something not right awake now i wonder, have i finally lost it will i ever return from the sick place i've been? i know it's not normal, all the death that surrounds me afraid that when sleep comes...it will all start again

Simple Math
simple math so lost without your gentle touch i long, so bad, for your embrace i'd sell my soul just to hold you close i'd give my life just to touch your face a love-sick man behind these words i kneel and pray to the man above "why did you take my heart away?" "are all these trials to test this love?" an answered prayer brought you to me i could have never asked for more i had no clue the gift you are or the strength of love i'd have instore so now each night, i thank the lord for the day he put you in my path me+you=happiness my gift of love was simple math...

My Obsession
rain drops beating down apon her ashen face dreaming a dream that can never be no longer in control of what is to come wash away the blood so no others can see driving me crazy, put to the test i felt my heart breaking and my sanity lost i had to have you, to love you, to own you you had to be with me no matter the cost i lost my reason and slipped into nothing all this raging and voices i hear in my head i feel my grip slipping, i'm sinking, i'm drowning i find myself thinking i'd be better off dead as i stand in the darkness i look to tomorrow then i think, with a smile, of the love that you'd hide the fault is all mine not yours my obsession your love lost forever, the moment you died pain, rage, confusion, and a shattered heart led to this deed, which i have done as the police cars form in a circle around me a single tear falls in the new morning sun...

Blondeprincess
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My Mother's Love
My Mothers Love Words can't express the way I feel Or the thanks for all you've done it deserves much more than" love ya mom" Cause I'm proud to be your son The first of three, your baby boy and all the hell I've put you thru you've been right there, the ups and downs I've always been able to turn to you From a soothing voice to calm my nerves to a shoulder for me to cry you're always there when I need you most It never matters where or why Some people wait their entire lives for a sign from up above I guess I've had my sign since birth and thats my mothers love...

My Luck.... ( I Am Not Feeling Like This Now)
i sit here alone ...i hurt here alone your voice is only a phone call away I'm kind of surprised, i'm sitting here typing silently angered that i woke up today the dreams , getting worse, have now followed me conscious man, i am so glad no one sees in my head the bodies, the burning, the evil clowns laughing the blood-crusted fingers … the smell of the dead I know that a sure thing is 10 ft behind me i know, in my head...that it's violent and quick but i've heard from the stories, the first one’s to find you are mentally scared by the mis-handled sick what stops me is thinking, that momma will find me her little boy gone now...replaced by a mess i imagine her falling, her legs will not hold her and her heart giving out, from the weight of the stress so do i keep breathing... or living or hoping please tell me the safe word that stops all the pain one day, might not care... and just pull that trigger my luck, I will miss...lose an ear, not my brain...

My Life
love and emotion ripping thru my soul the challenge of a new day, missing your touch we spoiled ourselves those last few weeks those days, now passed, that i miss so much the pain of the days without you near the love, so strong, it makes me weak you hold my heart, it's in your hands the chills i get when your name i speak late last night, i had a dream i woke up angry that it wasn't true cause in that dream you were my wife and i realized i belong with you i'm hoping my life's like that dream and one day soon you'll be my wife i know i could not love you more your my days and nights...you are my life

My Fallen Friend
My fallen friend I write this poem to say goodbye to a friend both dear and true but every time I start to write it seems the pain returns anew it's hard to lose someone so close i'm still in shock, you see though you are gone your smile lives on in Logan and Trinity how maya takes it i do not know she was so much more than your wife you'd been together since about 13 shes truely lost the love of her life to all of us you've left behind who will miss you every day the way God took you away from us was a wake-up call for those who play I hope that time will dull this pain that we'll all feel till the end just know, up there, your sorely missed Bubba, my fallen friend...

Christmas Salute Contest (closed)
Santa's Christmas Salute Contest She Just Wants To Be... The winner of the contest! Stop By and Rate her pic. Leave a sexy comment. Let Santa know she is the best! And deserves her Christmas wish! ************************************* Lovingly Pimped Out by: Carrie Please repost! Thank you!

I Have A Confession (too Long)
i posted my first blog entry nearly a year ago. it was all about how i was comfortable with my appearance and large girls should be confident enough to work with what they have, not let anyone hold them down, blah blah blah. well, i was a big, FAT poser. i said, "i know my pix look hot." nah. i know that if a girl shows some cleavage, a guy will notice. i did, however, teach myself how to trick good photos with lighting and angles. i had to - i've never been able to master photoshop. let people see candid photos? fuck no. i'm probably more insecure than i should be, even now. see, in the past year, i've lost 70 lbs - so far. but i still feel like the fat girl in the room; i still feel like if someone's looking at me, they're just judging me. i revealed some older photos from when i was even bigger than last year to rich the other day, then i looked at them and said, "god, i don't look like this person. it's fucking weird." actually, he very well may be the only person t

She Just Wants To Be Bling Auction (closed)
Do you need BLING? Well, here's your chance to win it! She Just Wants To Be is holding an auction. Come place a bid on Christmas blings! Click on the bling icon to make a bid Stocking Bling Leg Lamp Bling Dancing Snowman Bling Christmas Tree Bling Teddy Bear Bling Snowflake Bling

You Are Gone Now
I'm sorry. I'm sorry that we fought when we last spoke I didn't know I'd never speak to you again. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I am sorry I couldn't have taken your place. It should have been me. It should have been me. You have everything to live for - you had...everything to live for. I am nothing. No one would have noticed and the world would have been better had I been able to take your place. I am sorry, my brother. My wrath and curses upon those who murdered you pour like waterfalls of venom from my lips. Yet no vengeance is there. Nothing will right the wrong. You are gone now. And I'm that much lonelier living a life I don't deserve.

Empty
Empty Cold and dark is the morning Bitter and fringed is the day The silence of the passing people On there journeys through out the day Dreaming of a conversations with warmth and love Is nothing more then a haze? Leaves me longing for consideration However, an empty home is I stay.

Texas Twister Has Auto 11s (closed)
Texas Twister is doing it again!!! Come and show her some massive love! And Level Up! She's an angel but deserves to be spanked really HARD!!! Ends at 10:20 am Fu-time (PST) ***************************************** Lovingly pimped out by Carrie

The Me
The me the sadness apon me... my temples are throbbing all the loudness of nothing, how it's crushing me down and then thru the stillness.. I begin to hear whispers And I can't block it out... such a god-awful sound something has happened and everything's different something is missing... has it been all along? just when i thought that it couldn't get better everything changed... now my everything's wrong this is the me that writes, when I'm not smiling this is the me that stays.... hidden within the me that I call on.. when I just can not take it the me that stands up when I've fallen again...

Leveling Reapers Resurrection (closed)
Reapers_Resurrection is on his way to FuKing... He needs your help to get there... 47K points stand in his way... Show this awesome dude some good Fubar LUV... Rate him... Fan him... Add him... Comment him... Bling him... He returns love too! ******************************** Lovingly Pimped Out by: Carrie Please repost Thank you!

Hello 2009...
Goddess_Luna aka LRTM Cancer Horoscopes (June 21 - Jul 22) Yesterday | Today | Tomorrow Thursday, Jan 1st, 2009 -- This first day of the new year tempts you to withdraw into a world of fantasy, for your thoughts can easily float into conceptual realms where you are not bound by reality. At the same time, you cannot get away from those close friends and family who keep bringing you back to the present moment, making it difficult for you to fully escape. Resign yourself to living in two worlds now by balancing your subjective inner life with the objective outer circumstances. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 2009 Love Forecast Optimism Leads to Opportunities by Jeff Jawer While the thump thump of the heart will never lose its lead role in the orchestra of love, a stronger supporting role than usual will be played the mind this year. That’s because Jupiter, the planet of optimism, is entering heady Aquarius in January where it will meet up with the Moon’s North Node on February

Untitled
untitled waking in cold sweats again ears still ringing from the scream I try to still my beating chest and convince myself it's just a dream Why does it keep me up at night why do i get such little peace how many times do I have to fall before my life will finally cease I'm tortured now, both night and day cause thru it all my heart is breaking i cannot stop this flow of tears and I cannot stop my hands from shaking what do I do... what do I feel theres nothing there, I'm numb inside i feel like I've been hollowed out all the hours I've just sat and cried I cry for my g-ma, I cry for my father I cry for the anger thats boiling deep down fist shook to the heavens for the turn my lifes taken and for letting me lose the true love that I'd found

Death Of An Innocent
To those who have ever chosen to drink and get behind the wheel of a car.... read this.... and maybe next time you will think before you do that...before you make the decision to take someone elses life into your hands. Death of an Innocent I went to a party, Mom, I remembered what you said. You told me not to drink, Mom, So I drank soda instead. I really felt proud inside, Mom, The way you said I would. I didn't drink and drive, Mom, Even though the others said I should. I know I did the right thing, Mom, I know you are always right. Now the party is finally ending, Mom, As everyone is driving out of sight. As I got into my car, Mom, I knew I'd get home in one piece. Because of the way you raised me, So responsible and sweet. I started to drive away, Mom, But as I pulled out into the road, The other car didn't see me, Mom, And hit me like a load. As I lay there on the pavement, Mom, I hear the policeman say, "The other guy is drunk," Mom, A

Henry Nouwen
'When we honestly ask which persons in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those, who instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not-knowing, not-curing, not-healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness...makes it clear that whatever happens in the external world, being present to each other is what really matters.'

A Simple Puzzle Of Life
Read this and find the answer to the question that is asked. Send me both the question and the answer you think you find in your reply to this. Be warned I enjoy learning about people’s minds. Please message me your answer and do not post. Posting would take the fun out of it for others. Besides, why give up for free what you worked for. A simple puzzle of life (Here is the answer what was the question} Powerful forces so strong that can push and pull at your very soul. A wanting for the untouchable, no material thing can ever replace. Strong feelings that can tear your heart open. Strange yet over whelming need to climb to the mountains top. Insatiably hunger that eating cannot stop. Over whelming desires that bend your mind making you ponder why. Not hearing the sounds that make you smile except in your mind. Soft winds gently lift you up high into the sky. Marveling at the things that tear you apart yet shed no blood. While finding yet a

Challenge :p
Okay so I was thinking, I read a mumm where a girl was wondering if she could get 100 crushes.. so I am interested to see if that would actually work without showing my bewbs :p Ready.. Set... Getz to crushin'! :p

Gfr 24
DJ Ground Zero @ Gods Forsaken Radio Ground Zero is the owner and creator of Gods Forsaken Radio. He has been influenced from a very early age, in everything heavy metal. From the age of 13 he remembers having at least 13 Iron Maiden cassette albums. Heavy metal has always been a source of expression and release for him. His top favorite bands are Tool, Slayer, Megadeth, Iron Maiden, and SlipKnot. The reason he likes being a DJ is to crack skulls open with metal and expand metal consciousness. So what are you waiting for come and rock out with DJ Ground Zero @ Gods Forsaken Radio!!!!!!!!!!!

Good-bye 2008...
(( Now I can say Good-bye to 2008, a year that had a lot of ups and downs. Also I was still mourning a Death of my Ex's little Sister (that turned out to be my Life Soul Sister) up until July, when she asked me if there were hanging flower baskets in front of her's Apartment. When I answered 'yes'. She finally left our Earthly Plane or should I say her Spirit finally moved on? Speaking of my Ex in the beginning of July I discover my Ex was having an affair and using my Son to not tell me about it. My Son thought his Dad had the affair started in February but it really began the year before in 2007. As soon as she took him to an E.R., claiming he took 100 tablets of 10 milligrams of Valium (well that was a lie), in the E.R. they discovered that he was just drunk and they call the police. She would call and talk to my Son updating him about his Father but! As She claimed her love for Him (my Ex) she had already moved on with another man. I guess some women are not like me and othe

What Do You Support??
I Know Every Bad Girl Has Something They Support/ Care About.. An Illness They Or Someone They Know Has.. Or Anything Else Like The Military Or Against Drunk Driving Or Racism.. So Let Me Know If You Have A Ribbon Pic Or Any Other Type Of Pic And I Will Upload It Into A Folder ..So We Can Show Everyone What Sarge's Bad Girls Supports & Cares About

It Means Nothing
I have no idea who Jess is but, she took a song that was in my head, matched them up with some graphics and put them on utube for me to find.........Thanks Jess :-) She should know by now it's for her......... :-|

Hmm.
there is not and will never be a perfect world to many cogs turn its to easy for a tooth to be broken and spin it outa control but i will say that if u do ur best to show love to every one u meet and i am fully aware not every one is disserving but in the end shouldnt u feel better knowing that altho that person didnt show u love and u kept ur cool and loved them with all u had well dont u think u may feel better about ur self that light that may be blackend by smut by the hate diseas may just have grown a little brighter in both of ur hearts

If You're Looking For My Heart.. It's On My Sleeve
Alrighty.. so I'm at work, and extremely bored.. still hungover from the other night..lol go figure, only I could have a 3 day hangover :p Anywho.. with the New Year here it just gets me to thinking, what is 2009 really going to be like? Even when I was little I used to wonder how it would be in the future. Flying cars, robot maids, things like that.. I must admit, I am a little disappointed we still don't have those robot maids.. how cool would that be?? I know Im a dork :p Have a nice weekend all, be good.. but not too good

Whatsnew...
well I havent been on here in (forever..) I had Abby (my daughter) on july 30th 08.. My stupid bf went to jail for 2 months.. Im almost done with my nursing degree.. and have lost ALL my baby weight.. and am just living day to day.. thats about it.. life for me is simple..

Human Compassion
those who are imperfect shall not cast stones for one may come flying back hmm interesting thought but hmm perhaps nstead of the stone throw an arm around thine enemy and show him a little love perhaps that will be enough to win him over makeing an enemy a friend and giveing urself a little light something that may give u a few more days on the path of life when u are down do u not wish to be heard when u are heard dont u like hearing others it is a chain of life and keeps happiness alive i promise u if u show someone u dont know that u care well they will do the same for someone else and on some small level u will have bettered the world and if every one who reads this does it well we may have the over whelming numbers needed to better this place we all share

Hmmm Religon Cont.
next time u get a chance stop doing what ur doing and ask someone u dont know how they are and sincerly mean it perhaps it is what they need perhaps u will be there light in this darkness we call life and perhaps u will feel a little enlightend by there story

Pop His Auto 11 Cherry
AUTO 11’S ARE ON ~ COME LEVEL UP!!!! JON JON HAS AUTO 11’S ACTIVE!! COME HELP THIS GREAT MAN OUT AND LEVEL UP TOO!! **Jon Jon PROUDLY OWNED BY Ms. Sassy . - BFF AND LOVED BY Scarlett@ fubar AUTO 11’S ARE ON ~ COME LEVEL UP!!!! BROUGHT TO YOU BY: Scarlett{Shadow Leveler}{Yeahmon's Angels}~Proudly owned by Ms.Sassy,Gary&BooBoo~Loved by JonJon@ fubar

Hmmm Religon
well upon doing a wee bit of research i have come to the realization that all religon is based on the same group of morals the only differnces truely is the smoke and mirrors that fills the pages and modern chriatanity has lost its way again perhaps people should forget the smoke and mirrors and realize that all the book is telling u is to be kind show compassion and try not to sleep with ur neighbors wife whilest he is at work so next time u are confronted by a have u found jesus ask them if they have after they are done with the rant ask them if they truely see the meaning in the book and give them a hug

Dj Ground Zero @ Gods Forsaken Radio
Ground Zero is the owner and creator of Gods Forsaken Radio. He has been influenced from a very early age, in everything heavy metal. From the age of 13 he remembers having at least 13 Iron Maiden cassette albums. Heavy metal has always been a source of expression and release for him. His top favorite bands are Tool, Slayer, Megadeth, Iron Maiden, and SlipKnot. The reason he likes being a DJ is to crack skulls open with metal and expand metal consciousness. So what are you waiting for come and rock out with DJ Ground Zero @ Gods Forsaken Radio!!!!!!!!!!!

Christmas Candy
2 sticks Butter (Melted) 1/2 Lb. Graham Cracker Crumbs 1 Lb. Powdered sugar 1 large can coconut(more or less to taste) 1 Cup chopped nuts (I prefer pecans) 1/2 cup Peanut Butter 1 TBSP Vanilla extract Mix all ingredients together. Form into balls. set aside. In a double boiler, melt 1/2 cake parafin wax and 1 bag of chocolate chips. When chocolate and parafin is melted together, roll candy balls in chocolate and set on platter covered with wax paper. Enjoy!

About Nothing
Hi, just thought i write a blog again. not much to really write about. but seeing its the new year, thought i make my first blog for these new year, going around and rating on peoples photo's to help them and me level up . as i was thinking of what i wanted to write on here , i read alone the box's up top. that john travolta 16 year old son died, wow makes u wonder how short a time u get in these world, and how lucky and thankful u should be , when u do get to live a longer time in these world. If you have the chance to live to see 100, than there should never be anything to not be grautiful for. because life is a up and down situation, and to get to have had a chance to make it threw all of it is a blessing. lol wow, didn't think i fined something to write about. oh well, when u start to write you never know what comes into your brain. so , was just wanting to write a blog to past the time. till next time. happy new year people.

Getting To Know Me
1) Ppl think i am walking encyclopedia about Dallas sports teams just because I am a huge fan and keep up with them 2) Ppl thing i am a walking encyclopedia about Dallas radio just because I am friends with a FEW DJs 3) I get pickles just to drink the pickle juice 4) I still go see Santa and ask for that Evil Kneivel sky rocket wind up toy and van that I never got when I was a kid 5) I love to pamper ppl and make them happy 6) I love Hooters for the food not the scenery 7) I love lots of movies from The Crow to the Notebook

Auto-11's On
AUTO-11’S ON!! SHOW THIS GUY MAD LUV!!! HE RETURNS IT ALL!!! 10K PER 100 RATES!!! SO LEVEL UP AND MAKE SOME DOUGH!!! CLICK BELOW TO LUV UP ON HIM!!! Country22882 --Mgr @ The Candy Shop@ fubar BULLETIN BROUGHT TO YOU BY: JADED ONE ▲►Ĵådəd Ôņə◄▼ Owned by 7up aka Lil One@ fubar

Red Velvet Cake
2 1/2 Cups All-Purpose Flour 1 1/2 Cup Sugar 2 TBSP Cocoa 1 Tsp. Salt 1 Tsp. Baking Soda 2 Eggs 1/2 Cup Oil 1 Cup Buttermilk 2 Oz. Red Food Coloring (May use other colors) 1 Tsp. Vanilla Extract Place all dry ingredients in bowl. Blend eggs with fork. Add oil and blend again. Add this mixture to dry ingredients and mix with wire whisk until smooth. Blend in food coloring vanilla and buttermilk. Bake at 350 degrees for around 30 minutes. ICING 1/2 Stick Butter 8 Oz. Cream Cheese (Softened) 1 Lb. Powdered sugar 1/2 Tsp. Vanilla Extract Mix all ingredients with electric mixer until smooth. Spread over cooled cake.

The Wish...
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