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Janey Godley Podcast “episode 13”
(Pleases be aware that this Podcast Contains strong language) Mother and Daughter comedy team get to natter and the world gets to hear it on Janey Godley’s podcasts, expect some bawdy language and home truths, as Janey Godley and Ashley Storrie lead you down the roads less taken in their fantastic weekly podcast. Listen as mother and daughter banter, bait and burst with laughter. In the thirteenth episode of Janey Godley’s Podcast; Janey and Ashley discuss the Conservative conference, online murder, how Gordon Brown is like Rambo, who would win in a fight, how much bush is too much bush, what animals can be crossbred, inappropriate things said on stage, 16th century architecture, pot bellied pigs as pets, The Bolivian leaders bad temper and a special input from a Glasgow ambulance siren. Also please note Paul Boyd’s amazing intro and outro music! Please do comment on the Janey Godley Podcast At the following link: http://janeygodley.podomatic.com

Couldn’t Help It
I was working late one evening, closing, I’m a waitress and sometimes late hours come with the Job. I don’t really mind all that much and usually the most interesting people come in late at night. I got a table of 4 men to serve. They were all slightly dressed up, possibly business men. They looked like maybe they themselves just got off work from a late night and before they wont home to their wives already sleeping, they wanted to get some food. So, I approached their table to take their order and they looked at me with that look like, whats a girl like you working at a place like this. They were pretty nice however and struck up some pretty interesting conversations with me. They asked if I was single, if I was getting picked up after my shift and being as interested in these men as I was I answered their questions with flirty smiles. They never stopped looking at me the whole time. I was wearing a white dress that went just above my knee, it buttoned up the front b

Chili Cook-off
>> Chili Cook-Off>>>>>>>> If you can read this whole story without laughing,>> then there's no hope for you. I was crying by the end.>> This is an actual account as relayed to paramedics at a chili cook-off in >> Texas.>>>>>>>> Note: Please take time to read this slowly. If you pay attention to the >> first two judges, the reaction of the third judge is even better.>>>> For those of you who have lived in Texas, you know how true this is.They >> actually have a Chili Cook-off about the time>> Halloween comes around. It takes up a major portion of a parking lot at >> the San Antonio City Park.>>>>>>>> Judge #3 was an inexperienced Chili taster named>> Frank, who was visiting from Springfield, IL.>>>>>>>> Frank: "Recently, I was honored to be selected as a>> judge at a chili cook-off. The original person called in sick at the last >> moment and I happened to be standing there at the judge's table, asking >> for directions to the Coors Light truck, when the call came in. I was >> assured b

Random Again
Behind every bitch theres a man that made her that way! Someone asked if i knew you, it was sad cause all i could say was " I used to" I'm starting to learn from relationships in the past, lifes a bunch of bull SHIT and promises never last! “Oh, you hate your job? Why didn't you say so? There's a support group for that. It's called EVERYBODY, and they meet at the bar.” “You hate someone whom you really wish to love, but whom you cannot love. Perhaps he himself prevents you. That is a disguised form of love.” “A woman either loves or hates; she knows no medium.” “Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.” “Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”

In Memoriam
When we say goodbye, We alway's think of the past, these memories we soon cherish because time seems to go by so fast. I hope I left you with good memories, filled with laughter and love, I'll take these memories with me , as I go to Heaven above. Though I must leave you , tears please not shed, remember the good times we shared, filled with laughter and love instead. Before I leave you, I just want you to know , I didn't want to say " Goodbye" it was just my time to go.

Identify The Lyrics, Famous Songs With Obscure First Lines Edition!
Like the title says, famous songs with obscure first lines. Because I'm bored, that's why. "Oh let the sun beat down upon my face, and stars fill my dream." "A man walks down the street, he says why am I soft in the middle now." "The king told the boogie-men, 'you have to let that raga drop.'" "Looking around the house, hidden behind the window and the door..." "The silicon chip inside her head gets switched to overload." "Love, I get so lost sometimes." "I bleach the sky every night." "Sell the kids for food." "Let me run with you tonight, I'll take you on a moonlight ride." "Waiting on a Sunday afternoon for what I read between the lines." Some are harder than others. Some are slightly more obscure than others (based soley on my opinion, 'cause it's my blog!). But you've probably heard 'em all at some point or another. Ready? GO!

Ideas For A Pdp Get Together.....
I WANT IDEAS!!! So the idea was thrown out there for a plan on a pdp gathering so we call hang out in person and have a fucking good time! Here is what was talked about before: A beach house gathering in VA and rent a beach house.. (we could all chip in for the cost of renting a beach house) OR If someone has a big enough place to have it at someones house and have chaos for a couple of days OR We all go camping next summer and have a wild outside party ! if you have any other ideas please comment and let me know! It would be awesome if everyone would want to do this that we get it started! Fallen and I and anyone who wants to help us will head all this up and try to get things worked out! Also just let me know if you think this would be a good idea and if you would be up to helping getting all the pdp family together!!!! Thank you for ur time... the awesome MANNA! :P

[oh Right... Coffee]
Ah... 1:30 and I still haven't made lunch.That's healthy and productive.Well... since I wasn't disappeared in the night, I'm a bit more confident that the bogeyman isn't coming.... a bit more.Not totally.:DAnyway.Rumor has it I need to pick up my cousin from the airport tomorrow, right around midnight.Then I'm pretty sure I'm going to Vegasuh...next week?Woo.Vegas.Mostly just want to see my brotherI'm just trying to think what all needs to happen before I get there.FUCK.I gotta get Clover's Distemper/Parvo.FUCK I need a car.FUCK I need a job.Ohgoodnow I'm freaking out about real things.I needed that after my little break last night :/Fucking terrific.Maybe tea would make me a bit less... agitated.

The Law Of Attraction
How Then, Do We Begin to Get Ourselves Out of Our Current Situation and Claim the Abundance We Seek? The Law of Attraction This is how Bob Proctor explains the Law of Attraction: We all work with one infinite power. We all guide ourselves by exactly the same laws. The natural laws of The Universe are so precise that we don’t even have any difficulty building spaceships; we can send people to the moon, and we can time the landing with the precision of a fraction of a second. Wherever you are – India, Australia, New Zealand, Stockholm, London, Toronto, Montreal, or New York – we’re all working with one power. One law. It’s the Law of Attraction! The Secret is The Law of Attraction! Everything that’s coming into your life, you are attracting into your life. And it’s attracted by virtue of the images you’re holding in your mind. It’s what you’re thinking. Whatever is going on in your mind, you are attracting t

October And The Past Year...
October was always one of my favorite months... this year it is hard though... A year ago.. my husband and I split up for what was supposed to be a temporary separation... yeah.. not so much... May our divorce was final. he would rather be with a slut who sleeps with 7 guys in a week then be with his wife... cool no skin off my nose.... well not anymore anyway.. My ex husand and i are completely different people. I know that now.. I also know that we should have NEVER gotten married.. i loved him.. but it wasn't that "get married" kind of love... over the past year... I have realized a lot about myself... I lived in a depression. I gave up a LOT to be with a man i shouldn't have been with... I have always been someone who LIKED going out with friends... him.. he started that way.. but became a hermit... which caused me to be one too.... I lost touch with GOOD friends... and i have been working on those friendships again.. as well as friendships i NEVER thought i would have again.

Guys!!!!! Mumm Blog!!!!!
For Halloween........ A. Zombie first lady B. splatter the dress with blood and be post jfk got shot first lady C. Dr. Girlfriend. They all use the same basic costume.See comments for photos since I don't know how to do things with stuff.

I'm How Old?
I just realized - I'm going to be 45 in a week...I really don't know what to think about that... Or how to feel...Reeka said I should feel "the same" - I guess so - I really don't "feel" different. Maybe "older"... but I don't know what older is...I feel I SHOULD say something - like this should be some momentous occasion. But I really don't know what to say, either...I guess I'll just be thankful that I'm still above ground... and that we still have a home... and that my sister hasn't killed my nephew for being an asshat teen...That being said, I will say to save your bewbs! Get a mammogram, and self examine for lumps. Hell, ask a friend to help! =DAnd I'm gonna slap the snot outta people today - PM me suggestions! Rock on!Shawn

Destro's Story
Born in Callander, Scotland, Destro’s full name is James McCullen Destro XXIV, and he is Laird of Castle Destro in the Scottish Highlands. The Destro clan has designed and sold weapons for centuries, and Destro is the head of their current incarnation: M.A.R.S.(Military Armament Research Syndicate). He wears a mask forged from beryllium steel, a tradition dating back to the English Civil War, when an ancestor of his was caught selling weapons to both sides. Forced to wear a steel mask for his crimes (neither side wanted to execute the ancestor because they still wanted the weapons he sold), the Destro clan has since turned it into a symbol of pride, passing it down from father to son for over 20 generations. In the episode "Skeletons in the Closet" it was also revealed that Destro is distantly related to Lady Jaye. Destro’s key characteristics are his sense of honor, a calm demeanor, and love for Cobra's second-in-command, the Baroness. As a businessman, Destro is cutthroa

Ending This Chapter To Begin Another...
So if you haven't been paying attention, or online much lately - this will be news to you... my youngest's father and I have reconciled. We didn't have a typical break up, it was just a casualty of him being stationed in Korea and having terrible battles, command and 'support' from people in Korea. Long story short (there are those whom know all the drama I went through and why I ended up here) I am leaving Indiana finally! Moving back HOME! I haven't been home since I enlisted in the Spring of 2002 - except a quick visit in 2006, but I didn't do much or see anyone I knew. This is going to be a fantastic time in my life. Starting over in so many ways. My children get to see the beauty of my home state and see the beach, eat wonderful food and meet all my friends and family. I just had to share because I am so excited!!!!!!!!!!

Damage? How Much?
Our government gave BP the go ahead to use any means necessary to clean up the spiill in the Gulf. BP used chemicals with unknown effects to the system. They simply made the oil disappear...... Here are 10 of the most horrifying facts about the Gulf oil spill. Read them and let their gravity weigh heavy on your hearts and minds. Let them motivate you to take action so our planet never experiences this kind of manmade disaster ever again. 1. New estimates show the undersea well has spilled between 17 and 39 million gallons. These estimates dwarf those of BP, who claimed the spill had only released 11 million gallons to date, and mean that the Gulf leak is far bigger than Exxon Valdez, making it the worst spill in American history.2. The National Wildlife Federation reports that already more than 150 threatened or endangered sea turtles are dead. And 316 sea birds, mostly brown pelicans and northern gannets, have been found dead along the Gulf Coast as a result of the spreading oil.

Pickup Lines
How many of you ladies like Pick up lines? Wheather its from a female or male? Me personally don't like them. Everytime I hear one from another girl I just roll my eyes and walk away. And tell them if your interested in me just be yourself and not use a line. What about everyone else?

Combinations
Hello my space of white that will turn black after I complete this.Its been awhile.So for those who happen to stumble across this let me say before I get started.THIS IS MY ROOM.THIS IS WHERE I GET IT OUT!!!So if you don't like what I write,you know how to click.This weekend I had a show to do.I actually had two back to back weekends of shows which were very draining especially when its hot.I deal with thousands of people during the course of six months and the season is almost finally over.I am very tired and burned out and with a very recent separation after twenty three years,the mountains next month can't come soon enough.This past weekends show was stressful and when it was over it got me thinking on the subject of combinations.Combinations of things,people.Especially people.Being that I have alot of reflection time on my hands now I am looking at people I have let in and out of my life.By nature I am a very deep loving,caring person who will always lend a helping hand without ask

Life.. Another Memo
Life.You don't find yourself, you don't conform, nor follow.You create yourself as you go, speak your mind, and others may follow.Notice, people are afraid to speak their true thoughts, all the time.It's been driven into their head, they'll get into trouble if they think for themselves, so they conform.Stand Up.Speak Out.Strike Back.Take the lead.Intimidate. Annihilate. Recreate.Start a Revolution.

Shades Of Gray..
Dark. Light. Shades of Gray. Why does it matter? Why does what? you say. They're around. They stay. They lurk. They creep. They gaze and glare, Hoping you'll feel their stare.. And feel their breath on your neck.. and that you'll get a lump in your throat.. biting your tongue, hiding your fear.. you know they're closer, you know they're near. each day they get closer.. closer.. closer.. And they're at your the back of your heels.. Toying with your mind, cranking the wheels. Each meal, could be your last meal. Fate? Chance? Sorry, I don't play with dice. I'm in it all the way, regardless of price. Might be wrong, I could care less.. Playing with fire.. "Don't you'll get burned!" Sorry bitch, I'm a pyro. Besides, they'll get what they earned. Pain they yearn for? For others, perhaps.. But, they won't get any from me. I won't give in. I won't release. Unleash the beast. Unleash the freak. Unclasp the harness, Set me free.

Awake To Early
Ok, here I am again, on my fifth day off from work and still up early in the morning. What is wrong with this shit. Oh well, allows me to get on the comp and play. Trying to decide how to waste my time today again, although I am sure I am going to get started on another paper in psyche. Ever feel like one things consumes you all the time? will be glad when I am done with this school thing, but that isnt goin to be for probably another three years. At least I like my classes, just not the time lost.

Attention Whores
As I sit here on my bed surfing the world of Fubar, I tend to watch the Blasts every now and again. It amazes me what some people put up there. Look. I've realized that every post I've written has made me sound like an angry bitch. I'm really not one. I am simply stating what I feel is stupid. It's the honesty/bluntness part of me. I can't control it. If you don't like what I have to say, then stop reading. Not hard. Anyway! What was I talking about? ....oh right. Blasts. I can't say I'd never do one...since I do have one up there. (For another 4 1/2 hours) It was a gift...give me a break. Honestly though...It amuses me what some people would actually put on there. Are people that vain and self centered that they actually think they are awesome enough to even say half of the shit they have up there? My favorites are the ones that basically say I will love them and they will become my new obsession. Really? Me clicking your picture inside that Blast Box will do such things? If that's

Dreamin..
I had a dream last night that I had an awesome boyfriend who came over to my house and we played Dead Rising together. Then we'd go to the mall and buy each other some dope ass kicks and share a smoothie.But then I woke up. ouch "forever Alone ?"

Damn!
While you SCREAM atyour woman, there's a man wishing he could talk softly in her ear. Whileyou HUMILIATE, OFFEND and INSULT her, there's a man flirting with herand reminding her how wonderful she is. While you HURT your woman,there's a man wishing hecould make love to her. While you make your...woman CRY, there's a man stealing smiles from her. Post this on yourwall if you're against Domestic Violence.

Madeleine's Mother In Portugal Trip
Kate McCann this weekend has returned to Portugal, where her young daughter Madeleine went missing in May 2007. Family spokesman Clarence Mitchell said it was one of a number of recent visits she had made to see friends in the country. The mother-of-three from Rothley in Leicestershire, who is a devout Catholic, was seen praying in the Nossa Senhora da Luz church near where her daughter disappeared. A small team of private investigators led by Dave Edgar is still looking for Madeleine. The little girl was three years old when she went missing from her family's holiday flat in Praia da Luz in the Algarve, while her parents dined with friends nearby.

Sudden Urge To Write Tonight, For My Love, My Queen
When one is said to love,Do they truely know the meaning of the word?Or are they simply claiming it?Some know love, pure and happy, sweet and divine.I know this word they call love.For it burns in my heart, it cultivates in my every action.I yearn for love's touch, I crave love's attentionMy love is my own, now and forevermore.Days pass, weeks pass, yet still I press on,I press on towards the happiness that I know in my heartIs right in front of me, closer day by dayIt is this light, this happiness, that keeps me upright,That keeps me strong, strong for my love, for all eternity.I will not let go, I will not falter, I will not fail.This my vow, this is my promise, and on my life, I will not fail.

Just A Short Little Story
As the sun made its way down over the horizon, he gazed out upon the landscape, the countryside was breath-taking in all of its humble grace. He ran his hands through his dark brown hair, pondering what this night would bring him, his mind and heart straying to thoughts of the woman he fell in love with long ago, the woman he wished he could have in his arms, in his life, now and forever. He stepped back into his small home, the living room furnished with a plush black velvet sofa and a dark cherry coffee table, the fireplace in the corner was ablaze with fresh wood from the day, sending a soft glow throughout the room as the sun set slowly outside. His thoughts were abruptly ended by a knock on his front door, a confused expression quickly found itself spread across his features as he stepped to the door to open it and see who would have thought to visit him all the way in the country. He took a step back, almost losing his balance as his eyes took in the figure in the doorway

The Worst Prison Is A Closed Heart
When we close our heart we enter a dark prison cell where our own bars of fear and unworthiness keep us from fully experiencing ourselves as well as others. Each of us can free ourselves from that self imposed lock down of the heart and the magic key is gratitude ~ beginning with ourselves: When we consciously deny love or run away from love it will effect every cell in our body because love is the very source of who we are. Denying love is the ultimate NO to ourselves and it raises havoc with our psychic health - or, as I am fond of saying - the greatest remorse is love unexpressed. In essence, when we deny love we go into a prison whose bars are made of fear and unworthiness. Let me describe what it is like in that prison since I have briefly experienced it three times in my life and each time it occurred when I consciously denied or ran away from love in relationship. Special note: I've had a closed heart for so long I don't even know how long it's been closed. I'm gu

[i Had This Dream For A Whole Year]
Going down the rabbit hole. Brb. KI just watched all the marble hornets videos.And totheark's responses.You know those...things...those things that you know aren't real but... every fucking culture has a corresponding meme to it?I had a recurring nightmare.And nothose aren't just literary devicesof a man standing in the middle of a dark roadhe had powerover the spaceover the lightsand those footstepsthoseslowtrodding footsteps.He was the rag man.I didn't even know what the rag man was until I was fucking twenty.But that was him.And every night I woke upsputtering,gaspingsweatingfor over a year.Closer to 3 off and on.This wasn't just the excited imagination of an eight year old.I was an adolescent.And I remembered every squeeze, every scrape, every choke.Every night.Cultures that had no exposure to each other all have their respective rag man legends.He takes children in the night or... particularly nosey adultsThey never reappear.Some never reexist.I find that... fascinating?Terri

She Dont Want The World
The open wound she hides,she just keeps it boundled upand never lets it show.She can't take much more of thisbut she can't let it go.That's ok, she don't want the worldAnd all the things she says,he's just lying therewithout someone to hear her cry.She slipps off into a dreamabout a place to hide.That's ok, she don't want the worldThis love she feels,and everything she's ever knownor ever thought was real.Seems like it's got thrown awaynow how's she gonna liveIt's ok, she don't want the worldThose words he never spokehonor like the memories

My Convo With Dickman..
8:20pm yumm: you like looking at dicks a lot 8:20pm yumm: must miss the one your dad shoves in your mouth. 8:20pm Dr Black: i think it's funny you've devoted 4 years of posting your cock 8:20pm Dr Black: i'm waiting to see you on the news going on a shoot spree at fubar headquarters 8:21pm Dr Black: you really need a life.. spending this much time just to post your cock on a website is rather sad.. 8:22pm yumm: i have a life....its funny how you ALWAYS see it. I mean this website must be your life 8:22pm Dr Black: nope, i see it because i have friends who see it.. it shows up in my bartab.. i dont go looking for it 8:23pm yumm: and you're always there! 8:24pm Dr Black: yep, because it's fun to make fun of you.. 8:24pm Dr Black: never seen anyone so detrimined to be a jackass.. 8:24pm yumm: and it's fun to make the idiots on this site mad 8:24pm Dr Black: the only ones you make mad are Scrapper and the bouncers.. 8:25pm yumm: and this trio of ugly fat chicks who are always t

Getting It Out
Its so hard trying to get out the right words to say, or when to say it. what does it mean when you have dreams about someone you liked for so long but you feel if you make a move , it would possibly be a waste of time because chances are that certain someone hasn't thought of you since 2002. so what do you do, can you make a move and tell them how you really feel or maybe save the time for another embarrassing moment well.. Ill leave it up to you to answer that question!

Now Is The Time.. Bloom Where You Are Planted
There are no guarantees in this life, so when we hold back we do so at the risk of never fully blossoming.Having a vision for our future that differs from our current circumstances can be inspiring and exciting, but it can also keep us from fully committing to our present placement. We may become aware that this is happening when we notice our thoughts about the future distracting us from our participation in the moment. We may find upon searching our hearts that we are waiting for some future time or situation in order to self-actualize. This would be like a flower planted in North Dakota putting off blooming because it would prefer to do so in Illinois. There are no guarantees in this life, so when we hold back we do so at the risk of never fully blossoming. This present moment always offers us the ground in which we can take root and open our hearts now. What this means is that we live fully, wherever we are, not hesitating because conditions are not perfect, or we might end up

Slammed
I hear sirens in the distance Frantically on their way To save another life That’s been tragically thrown away Time has worn down the essence of his soul Bad decisions have broken his rein of control Just one more hit and the pain will be gone One last try at a life gone wrong He never thought it would lead him back Down the path, he swore to never go back The echo he heard when the bars slid shut Mirrored the demons that still rode on his back The seduction of intoxication made him forget All of the things he lives to regret Now he has nothing but time on his hands To think of the life he will never have again Your dark dance with needles Leave those who love you in despair There is nothing you can do for someone Who just does not care

Lost Soul
A soul is lost without a mate Lost inside someone else's fate That was tangled and torn before I arrived By the deception of her lies I follow this hollowed out soul To only hear voices that have lost control Pushing me further, harder away Desperate for love their hearts turn away As I approach the flame It flickers and wanes A cold wind grows Leaving nothing but pain Will I awake from the nightmare Or slowly go insane I'm fighting your demons But this devil is hard to restrain

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Hot Survey.....101 Kinky Questions!!!
Hot Survey... 101 Kinky Questions (Enjoy!!!) 1. Have you ever slept naked? : Yeah2. Have you ever masturbated? : who hasnt at one point in time3. What's your bra size, or dick length? : 38c4. Where was or would you want your first time to be and why?: 13 was first time, and it was in the back of a car.5. Have you ever gotten sexual with anything that wasn't a person? : maybe6. Have you ever shown anyone your body parts and asked advice? : haha....not that i know of7. Have you ever seen any of your relatives naked? : dude, it aint pretty to come outta ur room and see mom naked growin up8 . Do you prefer doing it in the dark or in the light? : dark9. What's your greatest fantasy? : Thats for me to know and you to find out maybe10. Would you suck on anyone's toes? : No11. Where do you think would be the weirdest place to have sex? : a church12. Would you have

And So It Begins...
The shots rang out in the quiet night air sending shivers down my spine. I knew it was coming. For weeks now I had seen the ads for hunting equipment, guns and camouflage, for deer and moose urine for bait. I saw them coming last weekend on their ATV's, guns strapped across the bars. I knew that sooner or later I would hear them shooting. I just wasn't prepared for it to be now. Tonight. As I sit here alone watching TV, hubby away on business and the dog in a coma in front of the fireplace, there is a life and death struggle being played out just outside my front door. I duck when I hear the shots, half expecting them to come ripping through the window. My heart stops, wondering if the hunter or the prey won. Hoping against hope it was the prey and they got away. Wondering if that animal came running onto my property, would the hunter follow and shoot, caught up in the thrill of the chase? Or would his common sense take control and he wo

Our Lives Are Living Proof
WE ARE AWESOME!!!! OUR Lives are LIVING PROOF!!! To those of us born 1925-1970 At the end of this is a quote by Jay Leno. If you don't read anything else please read what he said. ~~ TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED THE 1930's, 1940's, 1950's, 1960's, and 1970's!! First, we survived being born to morthers who may have smoked and/or drank while they were pregnant. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes. Then, after the trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-based paints. We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, locks on doors, or cabinets, and, when we rode our bies, we had baseball caps, not helmets, on our heads. As infants and children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, no booster seats, no seat belts, no air bags, bald tires, and sometimes no brakes... Riding in the back of a pick-up truck on a warm day was always a special treat. We drank water freom th

Mandingo
Wow what a difference time makes. I was use to be on this site heavy and then i started noticing the change, so i said, maybe it is just me and then i said it can't be. So i broke out for a minute. But me the type of man that don't like to give up on something decided to come back. this time i told myself, make a new profile and just advertise, what can it hurt? Well personally speaking nothing can hurt me, but i can't say the same for everyone. the more i run into people on all these different sites, i find them using more filtering efforts to find sensible people to socialize with, it shocked me. I can't blame them, look what most of the people on here have to offer, stupidity, games, ignorance, no social skills and a lack of home training. This is the same way they apply to socializing on the street. Being on this site makes it easier for them to get away with shit without suffering an ass whipping. People sites like this one has become infected every second that passes by such huma

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My Paradise
I wish that you were mine and no one else’s.I long for the end of a hard day where we sit on the couch and you stroke my hair.And kiss my cheeks.I want to argue over the remote and whether or not to screen calls during dinner.I wish that you love me as I love you.And when you look into my eyes you can see the depths of my soul.And I touch you and feel the smoothest, softest feeling I’ve ever felt.I wish I could wake up to your smile and go to sleep with you lying peacefully next to me.A perfect day of you and I together without hesitation or fear of the outside world.I wish that you could understand the heart of a woman and the soul of a man.Meet me in my paradise.

In Case Of Fu-hiatus
Hi hi, it's time for that unusual update. :D I know I returned and all to fu not long ago and the scene these days keep on growing and growing. Oh how has the cherry bore so much fruit over these past few years. Let alone the amount of people :D In a few months, I don't know when but in a few months I will take a leave again out of fu...after all I gots a life outside here. I need to spend some time again but I'll be back....hmm Fu might evolve again but if you need to contact me, Come find me on facebook at Emmanuel Fabic. I'm usually there if not then I'll catch you all on the flip side but I gotta be back, I want to have my 5th anniversary acheement (inside joke) here just like WOW! :D That is all, if you need my YIM hit my shout box. I am not giving it to everyone here... :P

Stormy Days...graphic Sensuality, Nsfw
It was a soft rainy morning, and the two of us were on the couch watching old movies. I sat at the end with my arm around my lover, her head against my shoulder. We had no ambitions, no plans, and we had settled in after a quiet morning’s breakfast that was filled with smiles and small chitchat. We just wanted to get lost in each other’s company. Occasionally I would lean down and kiss the top of my lover’s head gently, smelling the sweetness of her hair. Even though I couldn’t see her face, I knew it made her smile each time. Her answer was a gentle stroke of her hand against my chest and I would catch it and kiss her wrist before I let it go. Halfway through a movie, the sky darkened and the rain began to fall heavier. In the distance, occasional echoes of thunder started to roll through. Outside the branches of the trees shook as the wind buffeted them. As if it hand a mind of its own, my hand softly drifted down her arm and back, feeling the smo

Defining Politics ▬●ΑΘΕΟΣ--☭--☆
WARNING: Lots of reading ahead... BLAME CRAZY LIPS :p Blogging Buffoon Activated DISCLAIMER:Though it shouldn't need to be said, since this is my blog these are my points of views, and may or may not be the exact same views of people who even claim to share to share the same politics as me. As I said at the bottom, there are no absolutes in politics Crazy Lips was reading Freedom’s mumm and asked me to define several things:“her exact comment:His last MuMM-separating together or all?http://www.fubar.com/separating-together-or-all/m606732Who and what are they trying to separate?Is he talking about separation like how blacks and whites used to be? Define for me the following:FascismDemocratRepublicanConservativeLiberalRhinoLeftistRightistBigotPrivate sectorStimulusBail outsFallacyPartisanshipCapitalisticDemocratic RepublicDemocratic SocialismWhat does privatizing health care mean?What affects will it have on the people?Who is in November's election?What can you tell m

Read. Don't You Know How?
What's the point of profiles and "About Me" sections if no one reads them? I thought you filled the whole thing out so that people can get a sense of who you are and see if you have anything in common....right? Or am I just way out of line on that one? Here's a tip: Read the fucking profiles. Some of us actually have shit written in there that will answer all your damn questions. I think I pretty much covered my bases on mine...Why I'm here, what I like to do, what I do for a living, what music I like, etc. So why is it that when people message me...they ask me all the same damn questions? Look...I know you can read since you can fucking type to me and read my responses, so just take a moment and scroll down to read what I've put on there. You'll even be greeted with some music. It's not a bad deal really. That way we can actually have shit to talk about instead of me answering the same monotonous answers. If you're really interested in who I am you will take the time to see what I'

National Domestic Abuse Month
Please don't get this wrong, I am aware this National Breast Cancer Awareness Month, and I am a very big supporter of the cause. We all, if we look hard enough, know someone who has had to deal with this sickness. It is also a month made aware of another issue that is just as important and doesn't quite get the awareness it needs to. October is also National Domestic Abuse Awareness Month. This is a cause very near and dear to my heart. I grew up in such a home. I witnessed horrific things that no child should. I spent many a night crying for my mom; I spent many others getting myself into trouble so he (my step-dad) would be mad at me instead. Domestic abuse is a wickedly evil situation - there is not just the pain of the physical abuse. The mental torture is just as maniacal. The breaking down of a person's will, the name-calling, the screaming, the brain-washing are all just as damaging. The pain and scars inside are just as deadl, a very silent killer. The inside slowly dies, the

Store Run In
Run in at the store: It is a hot summer day, I was wearing a half shirt, daisy dukes (that barely covered my fat ass), and the highest of high heels, 5” white open toed strappy high heels that tie around the ankles. I was rushing through the grocery store trying to pick up what seemed like a thousand things before heading back home to make dinner. I must have spent an hour cruising from one aisle to the next trying to make sure your cart was filled with everything I needed, yet the entire time there is an uneasy feeling that I am being watched or followed. Shrugging it off as crazy, I kept moving and made it to the check out line just in time to spend another 20 minutes behind the lady with 2000 items and a pouch full of coupons that she was going through one by one. I wasn’t sure I could be more frustrated than I was right then and added to that the hair was still standing up on the back of my neck about something or someone around me.

Another Virus Attack
Ok, so here I go again, waging the war against trojan viruses. I win yet again today. sick litle bastards, getting annoyed. Lately I am getting hijackers... been a while since I have had those. This one was annoying as it hijacked my .exe programs and displayed a fake anti-virus detection warning. Anyone wondering it was the Windows Security Alert fake trojan.... Not nasty as unable to remove, but highly annoying as it was preventing me from doign school work (it hijacked my Word program as well). the previous virus was particularly nasty.

Blog Cherry Popped
Ok, so here is my first blog on this thing since I have been part of this site, twice removed. I have known it as lost cherry, to cherry tap, to this. Guess it is time to start getting into the game a little and see what happens. Purpose of me blogging here? Putting my demented thoughts out there for those that would share similar interests, random thoughts, ramblings, possible poetry, psycholoigical discussions, anything that may be interesting, or offensive yet itneresting *lol* however there needs to be a little bit of respect in accordance with this as well. I have seen on this site and others the careless ramblings and comments made to other peoples blogs. If you dont like it, leave it. What is the purpose of insulting it? What am I supposed to do, go to my room and cry because you dont like it? So with that being said, I guess this will be a way of possibly connecting to other people that does not seem to be working in other applications on this site. If there is anythin

Why Society Looks At Us Different.
It would appear, that our society has managed to put a new amount of pressure on people and how they live their lives. For most of my adult life, I've been overlooked, second guessed, and ignored by the majority of people. I was never considered for promotions, nor was I considered a catach by the girls. In fact, I was quite the opposite. I was often given a long list of reasons as to why I wasn't the one when I tried to advance in the work force or tried to start a relationship. But the second I enlisted in the military, all of that seemingly changed overnight. I came home from bootcamp, and found I have my choice of jobs, simply becasue I now had the military backround. Girls who in the past, never gave me the chance, were now being sweet and kind to me. I foolishly thought it was due to them growing up, but I was, as usually, blissfully unaware. It would seem, that people have forgotten to look past what a person has to offer or what a person does for a living, and to realize that

My Recurring Dream About A Girl Going Out Of Her Way 2 Understand My Autism & 2 Help Me
This morning I had my recurring dream about a girl that looks just like a skinny Tiffani but being a teenager and really cute looking too! In the recurring dream the girl goes out of her way to understand me like why the things that are obvious to her are completely invisible to me until she points it out with her finger then I can see start seeing the piece of paper the way she's seeing it for example: the she gave me a piece of mostly white paper with 2 other colors on it and some words in black that were small and vertical on the white part of the paper. I could only see the whole part of the paper being a solid blue color with what looked like large hidden words in a slightly lighter blue color on the paper and I couldn't find the equation that she was asking me to find until she placed her finger directly on it then the paper changed white to me and I could see the words in black that were small and vertical on the white part of the paper and I explained to her why th

The Founder Of Aikido
Aikido is a Japanese martial art. Aikido translates from the Japanese as “The Way of Spiritual Harmony." Aikido was pioneered and foundered by Morihei Ueshiba, who was referred to by his students as O Sensei (Great Teacher). O Sensei was a Ju-Jitsu master and a master of the sword, spear and staff. Aikido is a spiritual martial art that promotes peaceful resolution and harmonious interaction among all members of society. Today, Aikido is practised by more than 300.000 people all over the world. O Sensei was born in the Wakayama Prefecture known as Tanabe, a port town in Japan, on the 14th of December 1883. O Sensei was a sickly child, but with his Fathers encouragement, he engaged in exercise, eventually achieving robust health. At the age of 17, O Sensei moved to Tokyo, where he began studying Ten Shin Ju -Jitsu. O Sensei later fell ill and moved back to Tanabe. In 1903 O Sensei joined the Japanese Imperial Army just before the out break of the Russo/Japanese war. It was

Aikido In Practise
Aikido was developed and pioneered by Morihei Ueshiba, O Sensei (great teacher), and is a subtle, unique, sophisticated and effective martial art. It is an ideal method for efficiently defending yourself against any form of attack whilst also protecting the attacker from injury. Aikido techniques are taken from sword, spear, staff and Ju-Jitsu styles. Aikido helps to develop stamina, speed, and flexibility and promotes good health. Aikido emphasises the centralization of thought and action and the extension of mental energy known as Ki. Aikido practise helps to develop a clear thinking, confident person. Aikido techniques neutralise an opponents attack and redirect the power and energy in order to take control of the situation. Many Aikido Instructors have different approaches to individual techniques and Aikido is found in a number of styles in different Dojos (schools), all over the world. Most Aikido classes will start with basic Junbi-Taiso (warming up exercises), falling e

Aikido Etiquette
Aikido Dojos (Schools), like to promote a safe and harmonious environment. There is always an amount of respect between instructor and students alike. The philosophy, honesty and integrity of Aikido are integrated into daily practise. Dojos operate and follow rules which come directly from the founder of Aikido, (Morihei Ueshiba, O Sensei), and all students are required to follow and honour his teachings. Each student should cooperate in creating a positive atmosphere of harmony and respect in the Dojo. It is always good etiquette to arrive early and in good time for all classes. It is traditional to perform a standing bow when entering and leaving the Dojo. All students should wear Zori, (sandals), too and from the Tatami, (the mats). When the Sensei enters the Dojo, All students should line up according to rank, in Seiza (a kneeling position), on the Tatami. All students should bow with Sensei towards the Kamiza, (a small shrine housing a picture of the founder O Sensei, usuall

Some Philosophy Behind Aikido
The verses and quotes that are to follow in this first post have been taken from the publication- The Philosophy of Aikido by Professor John Stevens. Published by Kodansha International Ltd. and Kodansha America. The writing of Professor John Stevens is based on his own study of Aikido and Buddhism, the teachings of the founder of Aikido and also from Professor Stevens instruction from his teacher, Rinjiro Shirata, who was one of the founder’s finest students. Morihei Ueshiba was the founder of the Japanese martial art known as Aikido (formally known as Aiki Budo) and was affectionately known to his students as O Sensei, which translates as great teacher. Aikido, or The Way of Universal Harmony, is based in spiritualism and is possibly thought by some as being one of the most philosophical martial arts. O Sensei who was considered to be profoundly enlightened, often told his students, “No philosophy, no Aikido.” Based on sword, spear, staff and Ju-Jitsu tec

Quotes From O Sensei
Foundered by Morihei Ueshiba (O Sensei) and originally named Aikibudo, Aikido is a Japanese martial art based on Ju-jitsu and sword, staff and spear techniques and also the philosophy of a branch of the Shinto religion called Omoto. O Sensei developed Aikido in order to promote a peaceful society, turn foe into friend and eliminate conflict. O Sensei’s aim was to create a harmonious world based on mutual understanding. Here are some quotes from O sensei which may illustrate his ideas behind the techniques, principles and philosophy of Aikido. “Do not look at your opponents eyes, your spirit will be drawn in. Do not look at your opponent’s sword; your spirit will be captured by his sword.” “If you have life in you, you have access to the secrets of the ages. For the truth of the Universe resides in each and every human being.” “Though surrounded by many enemies, view them as a single foe and so fight on.” “Master the techni

Death Before Dishonor Tattoo - What Does It Mean?
Death Before Dishonor Tattoo - The slogan of “Death Before Dishonor”, frequently written in a coiling scroll wrapped around a dagger, is a perennially popular military tattoo -- and for good reason. The saying has been used for military units at least as early as ancient Rome (“morte prima di disonore”). By the time of the famed Roman senator and historian Tacitus (AD 56 to ca. 117), the vow of "death before dishonor" had become 'old-fashioned' and something espoused by the barbari or barbarians such as Caratacus (chief of the British, who revolted against Rome). However, some two centuries earlier it was Catiline (108 to 62 BC), the Roman politician who attempted to overthrow the Roman Republic, who had urged it and Cataline may even have been influenced by Thucydides (the Greek historian of 460 to 395 BC who wrote about the Peloponnesian War). However, the famous concept of death as preferable to dishonor, if not the actual phrase, is not res

California Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger (r) Thursday Signed Into Law A Bill That Decriminalizes The Possession Of Up To One Ounce Of Marijuana.
California Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger (R) Thursday signed into law a bill that decriminalizes the possession of up to one ounce of marijuana. The bill reduces simple possession from a misdemeanor to an infraction.Currently, small-time pot possession is "semi-decriminalized" in California. There is no possible jail sentence and a maximum $100 fine. But because possession is a misdemeanor, people caught with pot are "arrested," even if that means only they are served a notice to appear, and they must appear before a court.That has happened to more than a half million Californians in the last decade, and more than 60,000 last year alone. Every one of them required a court appearance, complete with judge and prosecutor. That costs the cash-strapped state money it desperately needs.Under the bill signed today, SB 1449, by Sen. Mark Leno (D-San Francisco), pot possession will be treated like a traffic ticket. The fine will remain at $100, and there will be no arrest record.In a

Is It Over
sometimes the art of letting go opens a door to realize how much youstill care for that person. but the saddest part of that is, you let gonot because you wanted to...but because he wants you to. and theresnothing you can do, but to grant that wish..:

Angel Room
Eyes of brown not blue or green The brightness eyes I’ve ever seen A smile that shows from ear to ear Never hinting pain or fear Stealing our hearts and brig us love She ‘s a miracle sent from the heavens above She a cute little blessing As you’ve probably guessed She’s our sweet little angel

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Suicide---a Comedy
(This is a true story. It doesn’t matter if you believe it or not.) I should have known that my first marriage was over when my wife was disappointed I came back from Desert Storm alive. Generally, that is ominous enough to make a man consider his situation, but I slogged through for another three months before she left and took the kids and headed back to Arizona. Overnight I went from a devoted dad in a nice three-room house who was a Sunday school teacher in a nice church to a pariah, a statistic, alone. Instead of a nice house with a huge yard where I could play with my 4 year-old daughter and 2 year-old son, I got shoved into a three-man room with two of the most insane 20 year-old skirt chasers the Army had ever seen. Mud, the young black guy from Yazoo, Mississippi, used to hang from the lighting fixture for hours doing pull-ups to increase the size of his arms. Sweet Lew, his partner, used to bounce a basketball against his locker over and over again, until the s

Rules I Live By, Rules I Teach My Soldiers, I Have Made It To War And Back, More Times Then I Care Ti Admit Now, And These Rules Never Betrayed Me, Th
1) I am the War Load, the wrathful God of Combat, I will always lead from the front not from the rear. 2) I will treat you all alike-just like shit! 3) You will do nothing i will not do first,and thus you will be created Warriors in My Deadly Image. 4) I shall punish your bodies, because the more you sweat in training, the less you bleed in Battle. 5) Indeed, if you hurt in your efforts and you suffer painful dings, then you are doing it right. 6) You don't have to like it-You just have to do it. 7) When it comes to planning, Keep it Simple,Stupid! 8) Never Assume Anything!! 9) You are not paid for your methods, but for your results,which means you will kill your enemy, by any means necessary, before he kills you. 10) Deep in your Warriors Mind and Soul, always remember MY Ultimate and Final Commandment: THERE ARE NO RULES-YOU WILL WIN AT ALL COST!!!!!!!!!

Quote Of The Day #1
"Everyone should be respected as an individual, but no one idolized." - Albert Einstein This is true in the sense as we are all human beings, and not one being created better then the other. Rather, we are all created equally, only with small differences that set us apart intellectually, spiritually, and in our souls. We are all different for a reason, but equal at the same time as human beings, so why do we idolize those who are in the music/movie/sports industries? Rather then idolizing someone and following their every move and practically stalking them as I call it, make something more of yourself and become better then them. Idolizing to me is just a way of settling for less in my eyes, and I shall settle for nothing less then the best I can be.

Today's Training
I've been in specialized training. The group is learning how to train community leaders in developing countries. Our focus is hygiene and it goes along with other teams that go into the area and drill and set wells & pumps, teach the building of water sand filtration systems and latrines. They also train community members on hand pump problem diagnosis and repair. Although I'm a volunteer with the organization providing the training and will probably go to Ethiopia with a team in March, I'm mostly gaining experience with them. My real hope is to be able to focus most of my resources and energies on our projects in Rwanda for the next 5 years. I've met some great people with like-minds in this class. One woman is working with her husband in a part of Kenya we may be in eventually, working with a tribe that has a very unique social structure. She's been working with them for almost 10 years. A young man in the group is going to Africa next month with his wife and their two sons. They w

Love Is The Beauty Of The Soul
Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches

Friendship
"What is a friend? I will tell you. It is a person with whom you dare to be yourself. Your soul can be naked with him. He seems to ask of you to put on nothing, only to be what you are. He does not want you to be better or worse. When you are with him, you feel as a prisoner feels who has been declared innocent. You do not have to be on your guard. You can say what you think, so long as it is genuinely you. He understands those contradictions in your nature that lead others to misjudge you. With him you breathe freely. You can avow your little vanities and envies and hates and vicious sparks, your meannesses and absurdities and, in opening them up to him, they are lost, dissolved on the white ocean of his loyality. He understands. You do not have to be careful. You can abuse him, neglect him, tolerate him. Best of all, you can keep still with him. It makes no matter. He likes you. He is like fire that purges to the bone. He understands. You can weep with him, sin with him

Married Love
This poem is called "Married Love," which was written by a medieval poet about seven hundred years ago. In the English translation, it reads: You and I Have so much love, That it burns like a fire, In which we bake a lump of clay Molded into a figure of you And a figure of me. Then we take both of them. And break them into pieces, And mix the pieces with water, And mold again a figure of you And a figure of me. I am in your clay. You are in my clay. In life we share a single quilt, In death we will share one coffin.

Fury
If these are the crimson skies, Then I burn in a sapphire hell. The midnight calling has sounded, But I cannot answer to it. Wrists bound; mind in turmoil, Screaming for release; I writhe. I shall escape from these confines, And when I do--run. Skin so pale with eyes so dark, Hunger that rips across the centuries. Anger is petty--Oh! but this is fury, And I will not take such offenses lightly! I will not be trapped! I will not be imprisoned! I will not bow down to you, Sire or no, I refuse! So then, the battle rages on, My cold hands at your throat. My cruel fangs ripping at your cool flesh, The chilling night air whipping by. As soon as it has begun it is over--done. You stare at me coldly, As I walk away, Your bloody heart pulsing in my palm.

Final Seduction
A lone shaft of moonlight cuts through the frozen midnight air I feel your nearness, smell your pounding blood The stone on which I sit is icy cold And in my heart there howls a silent storm. Your presence thrills me deep inside my soul I yearn to touch your flawless satin skin I smell beneath your surface scent the taut caress of fear A passionate longing to know my name. Your spirit cries out to me through the trees You're trembling in the cold and in the dark O! Come to me, my love We'll share a single kiss Let me wrap you in my fatal wings The guardian of your final breath. Your eyes hold all the promise of the young A passion I remember oh so well So take the final step, come sit here at my feet Let me embrace you, shroud you in my love. I am forever, you are but flesh I can offer you but one thing: A life beyond all life A death could never taste so sweet Let the enchantress possess your soul You'll never need it more. Mine is the greatest gift of all Mine the sweetest kiss No

Life Without You
All I see and I all I know is slowly fading into a distant memory. I feel myself slipping into this dark hole. I can hear nothing now. See nothing. Feel emptiness. I’m clawing my way from a sorrow so deep down, holding on so tight, drowning me. This shallow grave I have been placed in. Have you forgotten that I am here? You released me into this bitter world, fighting for acceptance and love. You left me alone and abused. You left me to fight for an existence so bleak and unfulfilling. A life without you. This unsettling feeling of abandonment, of loss. I want to hear your words once again. Tell me that you love me, that you are here. Commit to those promises that once were made. Those dreams we had of a life we wanted to share, together. Take me into your arms, whisper in my ear and tell me that you are still here. I long to feel you again, to hold you, to taste you. Feel the passion inside. I never wanted any of this to change and yet I managed to lose it anyways, to push it

The Wrong Path
These past few weeks I have been living in a dream like state. Fantasizing about being with you. Thinking of everything we could be together. Never realizing that it was all purely an illusion in my head. Fooling myself into everything you said, wanted. Needing it so badly to be true that I couldn’t see behind all the lies. I opened myself up to you only to be shut down and turned away. My first instinct in the beginning was to turn my head and never look back. I felt it to be a dangerous risk. But I didn’t listen. I took the leap. Now I am feeling a heartbreak that I never wanted to experience again. Your words reeled me in. I listened and I fell for everything said. I wanted so badly to believe and to feel the love I thought was truly there. So many paths laid out before me and I take the wrong ones. Over and over in a continuous viscious cycle of mistakes and let downs. I have come to the point in life where I just want to give up. I feel that this life has nothing l

Always And Forever
I close my eyes and I can picture your beautiful face. Those deep, dark eyes that can look into my soul. I can literally feel your breath on my skin, ever so lightly, whispering in my ear. There are chills running up and down my spine as I imagine the warmth of your hand caressing my body. Your touch so soft, loving….I can feel myself becoming overwhelmed with pleasure. To feel your lips on mine. A kiss that could take my breath away. Melting into your welcoming arms. Weak and helpless. Longing to feel you, to become one with you. I long to feel your fingers thru my hair, tracing the outlines of my face. Hold me close. Hold me tight. I could stay here in this moment for all eternity. Never letting go of the love I feel for you. So intense. My words could never describe exactly how I feel. I long for the day I can truly show you. I will always be here for you. Nothing in this world could make me turn my back on you. Fate has led me down this path. I feel its right, that its

Sudden Panic
Jolted awake with an overwhelming fear of losing control Heart palpitating. So fast. Breathing in so deep, gasping for more air. I cant breathe. My body is burning from inside. I want to die. This hurts. My entire being is shaking. Convulsions. Sweat covering my body. On fire….yet still so cold. So many thoughts flowing thru my mind. Such negativity and fear. I can’t make the voices stop. Longing for just one moment of silence. Curling up on the floor. I feel like Im losing all my sanity. Screaming and crying as I pull on my hair. Rocking back and forth. Make this end. I’m slowly falling apart, piece by little piece. Have I finally lost it? Will I recover from this? I wonder where my life will lead me. I know this is all in my head. I have overcome this before. I have the strength to pull thru. So much to look forward too. Many years of happiness awaits me. This feeling of utter craziness will eventually subside. It’s working. I feel myself calming.

The Man With The Sick Peen
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Wanting Love
I cant do this anymore. It’s hurting me too much. I do not want to feel this pain inside anymore. No more questions. No more waiting. No more wondering when I will see you, hear your voice, your laugh. These insecure feelings are enough to drive me insane. I don’t know if you are for real. I feel you are a figment of my imagination. A dream for something I can never have. I feel you slipping thru my fingers. Furthering from me everyday. Can I lose something I never had? Seems like such an unreal possibility. I can feel the loss. The lonliness. The way my heartaches when you are not near. I need to know what you truly want. What you truly need. If its not me then let me go. Don’t drag me along for the ride. My heart cannot take it anymore. Been broken too many times. I have shattered. I feel myself slowly being rebuilt. I can’t promise that I will ever be whole again. So much time has passed. Many memories. Regrets. Holding on to a love that faded away

Longing
Crying cleans us inside Let the tears pour like a waterfall down my face Let it all flow. Release this pain that has been screaming from inside Choking on words that are longing to escape between my lips. Dark secrets. Hidden pain. Desires that I can no longer control To hurt. To feel. To take that last breathe. Feel the power in my hands as I wrap my hands around your neck. Draining you of all you once knew and had. Everything disappearing as the darkness surrounds you A waking nightmare. Open my eyes. I do not understand why I feel this way. I want it. I want the sensation. Lust for life. For Death. For the warmth of blood streaming thru my finger tips, down my wrists Temptation to drift back to those old ways. The sedation. The calmness I felt as I made the cut…that thin line. I hate it. I love it. Craving the taste. The numbness. The tingling sensation as it takes control of my body Lay back. Close my eyes. Float back to unconsciousness. Stop these thoughts. The

Find Me
Years spent drowning in sorrow . Emotionally withdrawn from the world around me. Afraid to open up. To reach out. To feel. Suffering in a silent anguish….. an unbearable pain. Tears flowing nightly. Dreaming of what may have been. Hoping for something that may not. Lost in this bleak existence. Cold. Losing it all. Slowly fading into the background of my misery. Longing for a love so true and deep. Take this pain away from me. Give me light. Give me hope. Love me like no other. Feel me for who I am. Reach deep inside my soul. Remove this darkness. Take me into your arms. Bring me back to life. Fill my heart with your desires and warmth. Caress my body. Taste my skin. Look into my eyes and find me once again.

Dick Man Speaks !!!
10:32pmreplygo: why would i have nightmares about a bunch of ugly,stupid, boring, sad people on some white trash website? 10:33pmmoreTo go: for a man that makes 40 profiles a day you sure wanna be on the white trash site huh 10:35pmreplygo: well, its so easy, and hilarious, to piss off all you dumb folk. you take the bait EVERY time 10:35pmmoreTo go: lol ya we are the ones pissed off .... snorts 10:35pmreplygo: not you as much as some of the others. They are just beyond sad 10:36pmmoreTo go: heres an idea make a normal profile where they allow the pic to stay

Well, Maybe I Do Have A Heart.
I'm reading a book that should be required reading for everyone. Unfortunately, it really can only be read when you're able to accept it, so maybe everyone should be given it when they're born, and they will decide when it's time. I lost some people that meant the world to me, recently, and so I've been hit with the reality that it's time to pick this up. In any case, I learned something tonight. I tend to leave relationships. I always do, actually. I just get so bored, and annoyed, and end up disregarding/rejecting them. I mean, is it my fault? Am I flawed? Are they? Are we just not a good match? "The basic need to fuse with another person so as to transcend the prison of one's separateness is closely realted to another specifically human desire, that to know the "secret of man"." I've always fancied myself a puzzle master. I want to know the depths of man. I want to really know you, your secrets, your being. I know that man is unfathomably deep, the further I dig, the

Great Song!
"Stare Too Long" by Corrosion of Conformity Oh lord I must be crazy, Settled down and I find nothing new.. Older days, they used to matter but I don't care Cause I got nothin' to lose And if I stare too long, I might not see you right Over time, the heart goes out of sight And if I stare too long, I might not see you right Close the door. Where the heart is out of sight Many a dreams across the river But it's too strong for a boy like me, yeah.... Now you're gone but I still remember Better days as they wash into the sea And if I stare too long, I might not see you right Over time, the heart goes out of sight And if I stare too long, I might not see you right Close the door. Where the heart is out of sight I've got the time but I got no reason I'm broken down, waiting patiently Now the sun don't shine for me and that's a different season but she comes around one more time for me... And if I stare too long, I think I might go blind Over time the heart goes out of sight And i

Just Once....
Can I just once say, without any repercussions or fall out.....FML? We all have times we need to. I'm having a moment. Sue me. I know everyone has problems, but damn walk in my shoes for 1 month. Seems lots like to discuss their problems yet I generally put on a smile and try to stay focused and positive. Having said this....carry on :)

Why
why is it we always want what we cant have is it part of the human condition are we to choose our own destinies or are they predetermined by ur thoughts and our desires . one of the great philosophers , states there are two ( i'll finish it later )

Inquiries About My Profile... Damn Stalkers Lmao!
LMAO @ PEOPLE SENDING STALKERS TO SEE WHAT'S ON MY PROFILE. SO HERE YA GO - SCREEN SHOTS OF THE BEFORE AND AFTER... OCTOBER 1, 2010: BEFORE I CHANGED IT UP FROM HOW IT LOOKED BACK IN MARCH {CUZ MY TUNES WEREN'T WORKING} OCTOBER 1, 2010: AFTER REMOVING THE NON-WORKING VIDEO & ADDING TUNES AND A FEW NEW PIX: YEAH - SO WHATEVER BS YOU WERE TOLD - BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Confidence.
No, this isn't about self-esteem. I probably have an adequate number of both positive and negative opinions of myself. This is about what's said IN confidence. People can tell me whatever they feel like telling me. I don't care if it's solely a serious discussion, or a casual conversation with passing remarks of a serious nature: I'm a pretty good judge of what I can repeat and what I should keep the fuck to myself. Just over a month ago, in a regular, day-to-day, friendly conversation, the topic of work was brought up. Not by me, mind you. I try to stay as far away from that subject as I can get. Basically, in a polite response to a question about how work was going, I mentioned how work had become ridiculously stressful.. and if things didn't get better in our territory soon, the thought of asking for a demotion had crossed my mind. Mistake! That comment came back to haunt me more than four weeks later, and I had to spend valuable time I didn't really have this morning to expla

This Poem Is About The Loss Of My Best Friend/foster Sister Who Died Unexpectedly On Her 18th Birthday 10/04/2010
As I look up at the stars at night And think of times we shared Memories come flooding back They all show how much you cared Your kind and gentle nature Your smile so big and wide Thinking of these things I know your always by my side You've been a friend when times were hard You've been a friend I can trust In my heart u will always stay Let god take care of u I must In life its hard to find a friend A friend so special and true Whenever I think of this friend In my heart my sister my friendI think of you

Ha I Said A Bad Word!
Last week we were all at my step-sister's having a BBQ. Chinese BBQ is different to normal ones. Ya get the fire but everyone has their own long fork things to skewer whatever meat they want on it and cook it on the fire themselves. Means EVERYONE has to cook not just one person on the grill flipping burgers. Anyways, it's hard work but it's kinda satisfactory cos you do it yourself and stuffs. So I wanted to cook some stuff but I wasn't hungry so my cousin asked me to cook some lamb for her which I did. I slow cooked it...and it was BLOODY MARVELLOUS! It took me at list 30 mins of sitting next to a VERY hot fire to cook it nice and slow. Anyways, I was half way cooking it and then she goes 'actually I don't want it anymore' and then I went.... 'Oh you bloody twat'. She was SHOCKED...SHOCKED I tell you!!! She actually started laughing at me.

Y Me
Each day I sit back and I watch as the storm clouds form. The tears flooding my eyes as the the blue of each day disappears into the grey of storms. Lightening begins to flash from no where. Taking over as the emotions begin to flow from place that I never knew existed. I don't know how to feel or what to do or even where to go from here. Everything inside seems as though it wants to die and never return. There was a time when there was no tears or frowns. Now on most days there are only tears and sadness with despair and an uncomfortable glare to only wonder where I belong. I don't know what to do. I love purely and with everything that I have. When it seems as though I have it all I begin to feel it slip away and fall to someone else. I watch the disrespect float around and tear me up inside. I don't know what is true or even real any more. Blurred visions overtake all that I am inside. I want to run and never return but to hurt another isn't in me. I said I would live

Um. Hello?
Since when has "Hey, Sexy!" or "Damn you hot!" been considered as a valid opening statement? Okay...really. I have a name. You can't say you don't know it since it's posted on the fucking interweb for all to see... I'm highly amused at the fact that 3/4 of every message I get starts off like that and then they proceed to wonder why in the world I don't say anything back. What ever happened to saying "Hello?" Isn't that how we've been taught to conduct a conversation? I don't know about you, but when I was a wee bambina, I was taught that when you are approaching a person whom you are about to converse with the first thing you do is say "Hello." Sure there are many other opening phrases that have been created over the years that are considered "Acceptable" and I am fine with them. But let's be real. Fubar is not a motherfucking club. You do not need to be approaching ladies like an idiot with your lame pick up lines or trying to show you're cooler than you are by calling us nothing bu

Do You Know That As You Try And Work Out "how" Your Desire Will Come About, You Are Actually Pushing Your Desire Away From You?
Do you know that as you try and work out "how" your desire will come about, you are actually pushing your desire away from you? As you try and work out "how" you can make your desire happen, you are sending a huge message to the Universe that you do not have your desire. And if you're not emanating the exact frequency of having your desire within you, how can the Universe possibly find your signal to deliver your desire?

Boomer May He Rest In Peace 10/03/2010
Since I have been on this site, I have lost 3 dogs... yesterday Boomer gave me his final kisses and drifted off to sleep. The love I have for my dogs in incredible, and the loss I feel today is so deep. He loved me so much! I was his whole world for nearly 16 years. I miss him so much.... I love you Boomy!

Her Teasing Body
Master approaches his little one quietly - he likes to observe her before he announces his presence - she can never seem to lay quietly and wait for him until expressly ordered to do so. She sits on the bed, staring out the window, brushing her long hair absently, then twisting it in her hands and combing the strands loose with her fingers. The pattern is repeated as she sighs quietly while waiting for him. Music plays softly in the background and covers his quiet approach. The bed dips under his weight and her gasp of surprise is soft but welcoming as her Master comes to sit behind her. His strong arms wrap around her as her head lifts to meet his for a soft, yet possessive kiss. Her body melts into his as his hands stroke the silky soft skin of her arms. His submissive rests her head back against his broad chest, feeling very warm and loved, her body soft and pliant - awaiting his desires. Her hands absently caress his forearms - always enjoying the feel of

Spirit Day
It’s been decided. On October 20th, 2010, we will wear purple in honor of the 7 gay boys who committed suicide in recent weeks/months mostly due to homophobic abuse in their homes at at their schools. Purple represents Spirit on the LGBTQ flag and that’s exactly what we’d like all of you to have with you: spirit. Please know that times will get better and that you will meet people who will love you and respect you for who you are, no matter your sexuality. Please wear purple on October 20th. Tell your friends, family, co-workers, neighbors and schools. RIP Tyler Clementi, Asher Brown, Seth Walsh, Justin Aaberg, Raymond Chase, Billy Lucas and Cody J. Barker (picture not shown). You are loved.

What Does It Mean?
I’m here my body weak, my heart beating its final beat; I’m lost my eyes seeking its final road, my mind finding its final thought. I’m weeping the last tear rolling down my cheek; I’m standing my legs keeping me upright. Don’t touch me or I will break, don’t kiss me or my lips will dry, please stay back or I will lose my balance. No more steps or the ground will shake beneath my feet, no more movements or the earth with shred my skin, no more tears or my water will dry up. I hear the birds singing do you hear them too? They sing with grace and beauty. I hear the wind blowing can you feel it? It blows through me with elegance and swiftness. I hear the water rushing hush be quiet for it rushes with silence and numbness. I hear music so soft and gentle, do you hear it play? For it dances within the earth and beneath my feet. Listen, listen closely do u hear the cry from the sky above? The eagle calls you; it calls your name even though you can&rsqu

Application
Name:Location:Birthday: Measurements:Do you work/go to school?:What kind of car do you drive?:What do you want to be when you grow up?:Are you cute?:Would you laugh at my dumb jokes when no one does?:Are you close w/your family?:Would you ever wear my clothes?:How many people have you had sex with?:Would you take me home if I was too drunk to drive?:Are you overly serious or are you able to be goofy at times?:Would you bring me food from my favorite place just because?:Are you religious?:Do you think i'm sexy?:Will you call me in the middle of the night just to say 'hi'?:Do you like to cuddle?:What kind of beer/alcohol do you drink? (if applicable):What is your biggest flaw?:Are you a jealous person?:What are your hobbies?:Could we go for a midnight picnic on a clear, starry night?:Would you ever put cute little notes all over my car?:Favorite bands?:Do you have ANY musical talent?:When was your last relationship & why did it end?:3 months from now am i going to find out you're a t

You Kno Who U R
You wanted to be my inspiration the reason to start writing, You sure and the fuck are, The memories of what we had I will have to disregaurd, No you have it confused I don't miss you I miss the person I thought you were, Promised feelings so true, love so pure, Ya feed that line to someone else, Its too late to even think bout going back, Compassion is something you lack, You wanted me there to sympathetic to you, But you just turned your back on me...

Friends
One time I sat out in the cold. Shivering and frozen through to the core. A light shone and came though to warm my heart though. Wrapped a blanket around me and gave me faith. When ever life gets me down, I look into your heart and smile. One time I sat out in the cold then you came and warmed my heart. I know your there for me to, so I'll be there for you. 17th November 2007 I got given a task at Pallion Action Group (the place I volunteered at). My task was to take the girls group bowling. I stood outside waiting for the taxi and then I seen the girls. Not gonna lie, I was like OMG I’ve been screwed again. One of the girls was in tracksuit and had a cap on. That girl seemed the mouthiest. The taxi came and after we got lost and turned up at the wrong place we finally reached the bowling place, which was a huge let down and its safe to say everyone was pissed off at that point. We thought it was a night of 10 pin bowling, not carpet bowls, but hay ho. We went inside had some fo

Banned Breed
MANY PLACES IN THE LAND OF THE FREE HAVE BANNED PITBULLS.READ THE FOLLOWING...The Case: The Clark County Animal Shelter gives the following account: On Friday morning, a Clark County resident reported finding a seriously injured dog in their barn. The Clark County Animal Shelter director responded immediately and rushed the dog to the veterinarian, but the dog died shortly after his arrival at the veterinarian’s office. The Clark County Sheriff’s Office investigated the matter and discovered that the dog had been dragged behind a car for more than a mile—from an elementary school to a home on Calloway White Road, where his body was left in the street. In spite of his broken bones and other horrific injuries, the pit bull apparently crawled from the road to seek refuge in the barn. “This dog suffered horrific pain and a needless death, and anyone responsible for intentionally dragging a dog behind a car should be prosecuted,” said Pamela Rogers

Set You Free
The hardest part of loving someone is to apart from that someone... that'swhy it's hard for us to let go and accept that it's over...it's reallyover... that's true love... when you learn to let go and let thatsomeone be happy... selfishness is not love... it hurts, but it's timeto let go now... =( im still waiting and hoping that someday those promises of yours will come true,coz im still believe in you.loving you so much take care always love -

Someone's Always Saying Goodbye
well, what can i say? maybe the chemistry is right... that there is noconstant in this world. everything is moving and changing..... just behappy for that someone saying goodbye because they find their happinessbut sad to say it is not you who makes him/her happy. ouch! LOL!

Oh ..??
They love you but they are not your lover.They care for you but they are not from your family.They are ready to share your pain but they are not your blood relation.They are... FRIENDSTrue friends scolds like a Dad care like a Mom, teases like a Sister, irritates like a Brother, and finally loves you more than a love

Almost Over You
‎"you were the kind of distraction that i was trying to avoid" butnow,, i promise i'll be back to normal... if i can't be suceesful inlove, at least i should be successful in my dream, in my career,, well,good luck to you Lmaoo..

One Last Cry
we can't please everybody not to hurt our feelings,,despite ofeverything...but still we can please our heart to start for a brandnew life,,after we cried,,there is still hope,,waiting for us,,a truelove,,just give our self a chance to see,,to feel and to trustagain...our one last cry!! i know...just hold on... and work for ur dreams at the moment... real happiness will follow afterwards...believe me.... will always be here...u know that

My Fellow Fu's Style
The singer of Motorhead,Lemmie, once was asked about those kids who wanted to make it in rock and roll- and his answer was simple-"Why not if you think you got it-run it up the flagpole and see who salues it" in that low rent English accent of his.I remember that interview and it gives me chills.I see this so much with all these women (and you guys) Ive added and fanned on this over the few years Ive partipated on this thing. I worship style-especially home-made style.I love it when an average looking woman can take herself and brush,paint and polish herself into a goddes-so much so that the best pic of herself she picks as her avitar makes me sit up and go "Whoa now!"- but to say thats after Ive looked over her "About me section(I see the damage done by horndogs and no class assholes)and enough of her pics that I find one with no makeup or so unflattering she is brave enough to post her real "at home" face. We all have the potential to be Gods.Loving your fellow man for what

Do Not Take Anthing As Forever
Do not take anything as being forever, because forever is only as long as today. Know that thepeople who are the richest are not those who have the most, but those who need the least. That we are at our strongest when life is at it's worst......, and at our weakest when life no longer offers a challenge. That it is wiser not to expect, but to hope, for in expecting you ask for disappointment, whereas in hoping you invite surprise. That unhappiness doesn't come from not having something you want, but from the lack of something inside that you need. That there are things to hold and things to let go. and letting go doesn't mean you lose, but that you acquire that which has been waiting around the corner. Most of all......remember to use your dreams as a way of knowing yourself better, and as an inspiration to reach for Your Star.

Weirdos!
Everyone is weird today. Very weird. People are weird everyday, but EVERYONE is weird today. Jasmine wants to eat a necklace. :/ She's always weird, I know. It's not just here though! On facebook too. People are usually stuffed shirts on fb...oh, but not my friends, noooo. I had a status up about a Klondike bar and somehow it turned into a porno! I can already hear what hubby's going to say. I hope my brother doesn't read it. :/ And for once, it wasn't my fault! I swear. I'm good on fb. :)

Art+science
Anyways, ill post in comments. If anyone can refresh me on how to make VIDEOS postin blog entries, do tell. Ive disabled Java in chrome like Ninja told me once, butt that was a long time ago. Maybe theres a different way to do it?

Why Is It That....
(Well being that this is my first blog on here and honestly very few people will even read this, I will do my best to keep it short.) Several times in my life I have often wondered why it is, that until someone is missing in your life, whether it be from them just not being a part of it, or from illness/injury that no one truly cares? That person just exists sometimes, until they are gone, it is like a realization that "Oh Shit" I lost someone important, especially when someone dies. It irritates me to no end, when your at a funeral and you listen to all these people who where never there for the person crying and all like "I miss them, they were so great, why did this happen" ect ect ect. this applies applies to non death related as well! Seriously if you really gave a shit why didn't you say something then? why didn't you remind that person how much they meant to you. Why does it take them being gone and you losing out for someone to get a clue about what they meant... Too ofte

Atheisocialism ▬●ΑΘΕΟΣ--☭--☆
WARNING: Lots of reading ahead... Blogging Buffoon Activated I am bored so figured I would do a blog... but then realized I had nothing to blog about... so why not the Tea Partys Newest starlet Christine O'Donnell Christine O’Donnell’s group wants abstinence taught in school, her organization or rather a member from the organization also wants sex education removed from schools… Since sex education has been shown to be in direct correlation between decrease in STD’s, pregnancies and high school drop our because of the aforementioned should I take O’Donnell’s people seriously? Then again since this is the same Christine O’Donnell that says condoms have been shown to have no affect on the lowering or stopping the spread of Aids/HIV… should she even be taken seriously at all? Like my friend from my Atheistic Assessment blog from a few days ago, O’Donnell is another person that does not believe in evolution because, like

[i'm Looking For A Man With A Scar Above His Left Eye]
It sounds like something you'd say in a spaghetti westernjust beforeEVERYmotherfucker dies.I mean, seriously, who walks into a barsays that lineand doesn't immediately hear revolver hammers click?It is cold.In my oven insulated house (bad for summer, great for winter)it is 62.Its october 4th and 62 degrees in my house.Weird.Guess I should dig up my grey hoody and wash it since I'll be living in it soon.Now why is it...*wonders where all of his 3/4th and long sleaved shirts are*that ever sinceTHIS GUY challenged me to finish my kitI've been gun-shy?I mean... I am ready to color about half of my kit.So...why?Because I have to disassemble two hands?Buy bluetack and some popsickle sticks?Color some of the smallest pieces I've ever handled?...nah I don't think that's it.I think my hold up right now is the fact that he wants pictures.Oh yeah...I should seperate my foot parts.how short on alligator clips am I right now? (Here's the before shot of the "Freedom Gundam" see what he did

Too Much Gangland
So I've decided that I really have to stop watching Gangland....In the last week I have had a dream about each of my kids involving gang activity.... The one about my son involved him being shot in a drive by on his way home from school.....and for my daughter, we were playing in my font yard when gunshots rang out and i had to grab her, wrap my body around her and duck behind a car...she was shot, but it was all just flesh wounds....these dreams are fucking with my head! On top of that I also had a dream that my son drowned in a tubing accident. Seriously, what is wrong with me??

People Better Not Play...
...or they gonna find out how I really am. So, tickets went up for overnight ghost hunts of the Ohio State Reformatory. I have been wanting to go here for ages. So, co-worker decided she wanted to go with. Fine, no biggie. Contacted another friend of mine and she's on board with it. Well, these tickets go fast and I don't want to miss out on this so we're sending out the paperwork today. I called my co-worker last night and reminded her to bring a check because I was sending it out today. I commented to her this morning that I was writing out my check. No reply. Well hon, if you didn't bring it, sucks to be you. She's nice and all but has a really bad habit of putting shit off. Example: When we went to SF for the ghost hunt earlier in the year, I had to keep reminding her to get her airline tickets. Then she was late picking me up and we barely made our flight. Almost missed out boat to Alcatraz TWICE because she couldn't get her ass in gear. I'm REALLY organized when it comes to shit

Nothingness!
Feeling as though I have no where to go, Falling deeper into that lost world of nothingness, Feeling my way around as if I am blind, Not knowing which way to go or what to do, Wondering in the darkness, Feeling useless and unworthy of anything. Hurting inside, twisted and torn, lonely and scared, Lost in time unable to find my way back, What road should I take, How can i make it right, Get out of this mess of a life I am in, Too many mistakes, Too many regrets, Lost time longing to regain. Where is my hope, The one to guide me, The one to make me feel safe, Where is my light in the darkness, The one to help me see again, The one to bring me out of the nothingness, I need you now, before the nothingness takes over And the darkness consumes me.

I Wish
I wish that you were mine and no one else’s. I long for the end of a hard day where we sit on the couch and you stroke my hair. And kiss my cheeks. I want to argue over the remote and whether or not to screen calls during dinner. I wish that you love me as I love you. And when you look into my eyes you can see the depths of my soul. And I touch you and feel the smoothest, softest feeling I’ve ever felt. I wish I could wake up to your smile and go to sleep with you lying peacefully next to me. A perfect day of you and I together without hesitation or fear of the outside world. I wish that you could understand the heart of a woman and the soul of a man. Meet me in my paradise.

Twilight Calls To Me
Twilight calls to me a soft beckon so sweet the call caressing me breaking down my walls capturing my soul darkness is his domain light is mine how long can i resist his midnight sonnets each night as i lay asleep he comes to me in my deepest dreams soflty singing his love swaying my treacherous heart longing for his night but do i abandon all this beauty i have in the light to go deep into midnight cast off the sun embrace the moon a soft touch gentle kiss soon i will forever be lost to the twilight

The Women Of Modified!
Simply put, The Women of Modified, also known as W.O.M has an open admissions policy!!!We do not condemn, judge, or deny you entrance based on your religious beliefs, lifestyle, career, ethnicity, etc... The very definition of being modified is being diverse, so we would never exclude a woman for who she is. To do so, would go against the very thing T.W.O.M believes in. Check us out on myspace! http://www.myspace.com/549237398 Check us out on Facebook also :) Click our like button, we love it ;) http://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Women-Of-Modified/147920751906283?ref=ts

Boyscouts Of America!
Help support the boyscouts and the military! Over 70% goes to our local pack and all help would be appreciated! Follow the link please... http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.trails-end.com%2F&h=e1ac6

You Can Thank Durham For This...
You are The Moon Hope, expectation, Bright promises. The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window. The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition. What Tarot Card are You?Take

Caps Lock Ftl
One of the things I've experienced in my years on the interweb is the fact that people can't distinguish the difference between normal text, such as this, and putting everything in caps. It's just been one of those things that has become an art over the years. Since no one can really hear the "Tone of Voice" people are speaking in, there have been many ways to express your emotions via text. I mean...people use the "Bolds, Italics, and Underlines" in all different ways because they find themselves "Creative" and whatnot...which is fine. Society has given the users freedom to use them however they choose. I feel the whole use of these useful tools have lost their true meaning, but that's just me. I'm oldschool that way. But for the love of God...Caps Lock has been, and always will be, used for shouting/yelling. One thing that irks me like none other is when someone messages me with nothing but words in all caps. Do they really think they're cool by doing that and think that my attenti

I Don’t Know Stuff
Husband asked me to stop arguing with him “do you have to correct everything I say or argue with almost everything I say?” “Yes” I replied “because this is a relationship and not North Korea, if I just agree with everything you say and never argue about a point, it’s a totalitarian regime and not a marriage” “You can’t just let things go, you always have to correct me or have the last word” he snapped back. “Yes, because you were wrong” I added, that was the last word and that’s how that works. This is ironic as I was just doing to him what he does to me constantly. I have realised something, if I do the stuff to husband in a sarcastic fashion that he does to me, then am not actually pointing out how much it annoys me, I am just confirming his behaviour that its ok to be an annoying dick. So when he constantly goes to great lengths to show me I did

Monday, October 4, 2010
The Specials today are as follows... Still paying 1Credit Bling + 100k fuBucks for SFW grey tanktop Salutes. Still paying 2Credit Bling + 200k fuBucks for NSFW grey tanktop Salutes. (nipples must be clearly visible, will not post if you request) Hit my Like Button today. If I get more than 15 Likes today, I will draw a winner at random from those who Liked me and pay out 1 Love Rocket Bling. And to whomever keeps calling me a Point Whore, I'd love to know HOW exactly when I give shit away constantly and ask for nothing, unless I'm paying for it in return. Thanks and have a GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAT DAY! Misty...thinking of you. ;-)

Why Can't We Say What We're Thinking Of...
I miss the part, when we were moving forward now On our way down But maybe someday, I'll be something more than love Just know I'll never tell And when you're on your way down [Through the clouds] And you're waiting for your body's re-entry again We speak in different voices When fighting with the ones we've loved We speak in different voices Why can't we say what we're thinking of I'm missing parts, now that you've told me everything On our way down And I was blessed and I've forgotten how to love You said you'd never tell And when you're on your way down [Through the clouds] And you're waiting for your body's re-entry again We speak in different voices When fighting with the ones we've loved We speak in different voices Why can't we say what we're thinking of Not even I will tell, We speak in different voices When fighting with the ones we've loved We speak in different voices We say these things to know they're real We speak in different voices When fighting with the ones we

The Line
A river of blood is faith's fingerprint Pounding furiously through the heart Millions of people are drowning in it Graves of nations dragged apart Crescents and crosses choked in death Both sides of the yin-yang coloured red Did the redeemers mean to steal their breath Or cover the earth in a mountain of dead Stamp the names of God on the side of a bullet Everyone's an infidel in the eyes of someone else The Earth's a grave and we can fill it And we can watch with madness as it melts Everyone is right and there's no compromise Wage crusade until it burns to the ground Wage jihad until the last of them dies Heaven awaits and reward will be found Nobody listens when it's easier to hate Everyone is running when we should be standing still Such a fragile sphere of what we tolerate Nobody creates when it's easier to kill

The Only Home Is Our Road
if only i had truthfully seen, that night we'll never relive but you and i could not go and walk away just close your eyes you'll never see me crashing down i see where we had common doubt i'd be lonely if you weren't so proud i have seen so many loving faces they turn back and leave with looks of regret the road goes and i am finding home in it But you and i should not play those games the world is coming to an end it's just the way i see my face and i could never believe (now i can see it) now i see where things are turning 'round and i'd be lonely if you weren't so proud i have seen so many loving faces they turn back and leave with looks of regret the road goes and i am finding home in it the road goes and i am finding home in it i saw him fly he's never looked this way i saw in his eyes he's never coming down i have seen so many loving faces they turn back and leave with looks of regret the road goes and i am finding home in it the road goes and i am finding home in it the ro

Turn And Walk Or I'll Push You
You fall apart each time you start to say goodbye But there is nobody watching (nobody watching) You lose your grip, you start to slip but don't know why And this is just the beginning (just the beginning) You had the hopes to make it last, it's moving fast And now you're realizing (realizing) That in the past the dreams you had make people feel Like you were just reciting (just reciting) Bathing in the afterglow Of chance and luck and pride Where we end up we can never know And all I know is we seem to be Changing, better to turn and walk away Fading, all of these lights just turn to grey Changing, better turn and walk away But the strange thing Is that I don't feel a thing It's just an act, stop holding back the things you lost Cannot replace what's missing (replace what's missing) And from the start you played the part and now your heart's Become a great deception Bathing in the afterglow Of chance and luck and pride Where we end up we can never know And all I know is we seem to

And In The End We Learn We Chose What We See As Real
Time's runnin' out and I have been betrayed Gotta cast my stone into the lake (it didn't work, I didn't feel it sink in) That's all it takes my son then you are safe When the end comes, everything's okay (we take it back, you take it away) Take my skin, we're diving in It doesn't make a difference if I sink or swim Theres a line drawn thin or so they tell me I'll never know the difference if we..sink or swim! Is it real, the choices that we make (is it real) The smiles that we fake (is it real) I know it hurts but is it real The choices that we make The smiles that we fake for my own sake I know it hurts but is it... I can't help feelin' like I've been betrayed Shoulda cast that stone into the lake (stone into the lake) Chased in the wrong direction, led astray And I know you don't believe a single word you say (I can't believe that you can) Take my skin, we're diving in (we're diving in) It doesn't make a difference if I sink or swim Theres a line drawn thin or so they tell me I'l

Pick The World Series Winner And Win Some Fubucks!
2010 World Series Pool! Here's how it works! Pick anyone of the following teams to win the World Series. American League Yankees (Wild Card) Rays Twins Rangers National League Phillies Braves (Wild Card) Giants Reds Pick ONE team ONLY! ENTER ONLY ONCE! Tie Breaker #1 Pick the amount of games you think it takes your team to win the best 4 out of 7 games. YOU MUST PICK EITHER 4,5,6 or 7 games! Tie Breaker #2

Luvlyness On My Salute Pic
Passion s Fire said:you're seriously trying to insult somebody?Seriously???OMFG lady...step away from the bottleNaughty2Day said:lmao trying ?? i wasn't tryin to insult youan i never claimed to be a ladyPassion s Fire said:erm, yes you were. You failed, but you were trying.It's really no fun for me to play with someone so incredibly stupid. You must get laughed at enough in life, I'm sorry [image]Naughty2Day said:you have no idea, wasn't tryin to 'play' w/ you f*ck thati just think your funny, not in a good wayan again i'm boredPassion s Fire said:only boring people are bored.anD again, it's anD...you'll be less bored if you had an education and a decent job.Naughty2Day said:an i don't care if there is a D i choose not to add it, just the net, don't gotta be all properi supose bored is the wrong word, but eh who cares.Passion s Fire said:no, bored is exactly the right word. You don't have the requisite intellect or imagination to amuse yourself.Bed. It will save you looking like even m

Luvlyness On Her Salute Pic
Naughty2Day said:bitter old an a kuntjust bcuz you use big words does not make you smarter then me. i don't give a shit who likes me or what i say.your stupidity is very much showing.i can say what i want to whom i want, an again wasn't making fun of you, i wasn't even talking to you.oh an your eyes lmao you look cockeyedgo ahead say something bout me being fat, really?? wow i am so what??maybe you should google some more big words, dumb as bricks you are.Passion s Fire said:bwatothefuckinghaha!!a) you carry a grudge WAY too long for it to be healthy for youb) The big words don't make me smarter - the superior education and IQ do thoughc) you're a fucking dumb heiferI lol @ you...fucking hard lady [image]Naughty2Day said:dumb fucking heifer?? wow really?? ya that was good one.not a grudge, wasn't here an didn't see it till now.i find it funny, an i'm bored. so why not. oooh superior aren't you specialdid you pee yourself?? well as long as i got you to laugh its really all goodPassion s

She Sits...
She sits... She sits... Tears running down Her once pretty face. She sits... Broken hearted, Wondering how she came to this place? She sits... Thinking about life And the shadows that befall. She sits... As she wonders What's the use of it all? She sits... In anticipation For an answer that she seeks. She sits... And she waits For some distant voice to speak. She sits... Wondering why There's pain and strife? She sits... Hoping and begging, There is more to this life. She sits... Beaten and broken By one she used to trust. She sits... Now looking With complete and obvious disgust.

~my Faith~
My Faith I sit here tonight alone pondering what I will be shown Praying for the guidance that He will bring my years pass by from spring to spring I feel the love that He offers each day as I awaken from my sleep to give thanks and pray with temptation in this world all around I seek His presense and assuredly it is found Written @ 11:02 on October 2, 2010 by Rhonda Reneau

[knock A Little Harder]
Excuse me while I cough up a lung.For a while now I've been thinking I don't really consider myself a writer any more.I don't know if that's just the year of working for the man talkingor the nadirGod I'm tired.Tired and scared.Afraid I'll never get it togetherand tired of having to try.That's why the devil gave us the blues.Anyway.Forum buddy challenged me to a build off.Sort of.If I finish my Zaku I as planned I get the limited edition "Tank Gun" (bottom-center) or as I know itThe Magella Gun.Now, I could buy the kit this comes with... but I'm not interested in a generation 1 MG Char Zaku II.... I'm just not.I'm not getting past that any time soon.The Ver Ka Zaku II was BAD ASS. I don't think I'd ever want to build another Zaku II.Even if it did get me a Magella gun.>> and I do have the JR custom Zaku II Ver Ka.And yeah, I'm still looking forward to building my Gouf Version Ka.And Gelgoog Version Ka.Problem is, I don't have paint schemes planned, and ... I probably shou

Loss
Hurray for a child That makes it through If there's any way Because the answer lies in you They're laid to rest Before they know just what to do Their souls are lost Because they could never find What's this life for What's this life for What's this life for I see your soul, its kinda grey You see my heart, you look away You see my wrist, I know your pain I know your purpose on your plane Don't say a last prayer Because you could never find What's this life for What's this life for What's this life for What's this life for But they ain't here anymore Don't have to settle the score Cause we all live Under the reign of one king But they ain't here anymore Don't have to settle no God damn score cause we all live under the Reign I said we live under One king One king One king But they ain't here anymore Don't have to settle no god damn score cause we all live under the reign I said we live under One king One king One king But they ain't

The Biker
"THE BIKER" I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery store line. But, you didn't see me, put an extra $10.00 in the collection outside the store as I walked in. I saw you; pull your child closer when we passed each other on the sidewalk. But, you didn't see me, playing Santa at the local mall. I saw you, change your mind about going into the restaurant. But, you didn't see me, attending a meeting to raise more money for the hurricane relief. I saw you , roll up your window and shake your head when I rode by. But, you didn't see me, riding behind you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window. I saw you, frown at me when I smiled at your children. But, you didn't see me, when I took time off from work to run toys to the homeless. I saw you, stare at my long hair. But, you didn't see me, and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love. I saw you, roll your eyes at our leather jackets and gloves. But, you didn't see me, and my brothers donate our old ones t

Prayer
LORD, thank you for the open air, the feel of wind blowing through my hair; Just me alone upon my bike, the thrill of freedom's what I like. To wind through country unexplored, not knowing what I'll see next LORD; That's what I seek when off I ride, I'm thankful that you're by my side. If I should ride 'til morning's light, please keep me safe throughout the night; And when I've come to journey's end, It's you I'll thank - protector, FRIEND MAY THE SUN RISE IN FRONT OF ME MAY THE RAIN FALL BEHIND ME AND THE WIND FOLLOW ME MAY THE ANGELS OF MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS WHO HAVE GONE BEFORE ME GUARD MY TRAVELS FOR THEY KNOW THE PERILS OF THE ROAD AHEAD OF ME KEEP ME SAFE THROUGH THE ROUGH CITY STREETS ON MY WAY TO THE LAND OF SWIRLING TURNS AND ROLLING HILLS LET THE COLOURS OF FALL KEEP ME WARM LET THE EAGLE GUIDE ME TO THE MOUNTAINTOPS

Random
Love is letting go of the one you love, hoping that they will come back to you when they realize what they have lost. You can't express every feeling that you have every moment that you have them. Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable...Susan: A real woman could stop you from drinking. Arthur: It'd have to be a real BIG woman!When you first entered the restaurant, I thought you were handsome... and then, of course, you spoke...Some gifts are big, others are small. Gifts from the heart are the best gifts of all. Some cry:: ‘Love me!!’ Others:: ‘Don’t love me!!’ But a certain genus, the worst and most unhappy, cries:: ‘Don’t love me and be faithful to me!!’ L'amour vient de l'aveuglement, l'amitie de la connaissance. ,,(Love comes from blindness, friendship from knowledge.) We cannot really love anybody with whom we never laugh.France is the only place where you can make love in the afternoon without peopl

Life
If you think you are beaten, you are. If you think you dare not, you don’t If you like to win but think you can’t, It’s almost a cinch you won’t. If you think you’ll lose, you’re lost. For out in the world we find Success begins with a fellow’s will It’s all in the state of mind. If you think you are outclassed, you are. You’ve got to think high to rise. You’ve got to be sure of yourself before You can ever win the prize. Life’s battles don’t always go To the stronger or faster man. But sooner or later, the man who wins

In Response To My Last Mumm
To those who can't go. Im not wealthy by no means. Ive wheeled & dealed my way into completing this renovation. Ive used every favor I had. & Bought every bit of surplus used off residents around me. The house was ran a muck with meth smokers who had turned the place into a "camp" The entire center of the house was roted due to water running on it 24/7 for 7 years w/leaky pipe's. That allowed for moisture ants & rats & mice to move in. It had a forced air furnace & duct work system in it that the rodents had resided in. The "human" residents covered all the windows w/thick plastic & never let light in. & never cleaned or took their garbage out. & they impacted the septic system. By renting out the lot to other meth smokers, that equaled to 9 travel trailer's. None of which cleaned or allowed for garbage service. It took 35 dump truck loads of garbage/yard/& the meth heads, left over belongings off the property. We had to enter wearing masks & gloves. These people created what I call a

Want To Say A Lil Words To My True Friend And The New Friends Too
I am a very simple person here to help those in need I do the things I do from the goodness of my heart I dont ask for much jus RESPECT me and my family please I will do whatever u ask of me cuz I believe if u are true to someone till the end ... U will bless others with ur kindness i pass around helpin people in random some jus block me some actually appreciate what i do ... All i ask is pass it around the FULUV I have shown my friends and Family. And for future friends all are welcome my Name Is Raul And I am a true friend and gentleman who will always have a hand to help ... Thanx FUBAR !!

Please Support All Vietnam Vets After All These Years .. Please
I spent the day writing a short letter to all the US Senators and sent them an email The web site that you can use to write to your two state sentators by email to inform them that you would like equity for Vietnam Vets from almost 40 years back. The Navy veterans are not considered as having exposure to agent orange because they were alegedly too far away to be exposed. The truth is that the AO was in the water of the Gulf of Tonkin and they sailors in the gulf drank it after it went through the desalination processors, ate food prepared in AO and they also bathed in AO each day. Bt these civilian law makers don't want to realize that they were exposed thinking that AO never entered into the Gulf of Tokin when there was millions upon millions of gallons sprayed into the jungles of Vietnam and they it went into the rivers and flowed out into the gulf as well as the winds of Vietnam carried the spray hundreds of miles in all directions. Please help our dying

What Makes A Woman A Slut ? Can Anyone Answer My Question ?
ok i was haveing a talking to my friend james and he was telling me that real woman dont act like sluts and i ask him what do you mean and he said real woman act classy and i ask him what makes a woman a slut and he could not answer my question . so my question tonight is what makes a woman a slut is it the way she flirts or hooking up with different guys . what do you think leave your comment and for me i always try to think like carrie bradshaw and samatha from sex in the city when it comes to sex :) peace & love nicole

Spending.
I'm thinking about spending some money on here. I know what I want to get, but I'm sure that it will cost me a fortune!!! Ideally I'd get me a HH, VIP, and a decent size bling pack. I guess I need to see how much it will total. Ugh. Anyway, I have another job. I'll now be working 6 days a week. Sunday will be my only day off. Thank goodness I'll be working early shifts though out the week. OH...I got my hair cut yesterday. I'll be taking pictures of it soon. =] Love you, friends

Prostate Cancer
So...WHY does Breast Cancer get it's own MONTH and not Prostate Cancer? Because women dont suffer from it, that's why. I just want to point out a few things quick, for those who don't know. Breast Cancer...Men, you CAN get it, too. Don't be fooled. It attacks both men and women. So check yourself out. And Prostate Cancer...well, let me just say this...I am all FOR a Prostate Cancer month. Think about it. It could be fun. We could all post pics of brown ribbons and put up pictures that say, "Save the Assholes!". Think about it.

Where's The Fucking Green Gum.?
Doing my homework with jeanie and alison. homework party in the lounge :) best day kind of :\ ... Looking for some gum that jeanie just spit out... having some great laughes now only to crawl on this floor looking at shows and wondering "Where's the fucking green gum.?

My Pink Ribbon By Proud American
My Pink Ribbon ( in memory of Joella Goodwin) I never thought, it would happen to me after-all I was always so Healthy. No family history just out of the blue, neither me nor my family had a clue. They seemed so normal and always there, it couldn't happen to me, so I never cared. Then one day, I would be stumped, while taking a shower I felt a lump. " Dear God" why did this happen to me?, I sit here and wait for a mastectomy. Will I still be a woman?, Will I still be the same?, or will I be some kind of freak, living in shame? Would it have been differant, if I had checked before?, instead I just stood there it was something I would ignore. I feel differant, but I'm still the same, and it's something of which, I no-longer have to live in shame. So please check yourself, it's embarrasing that is true, but it's worth being emba

Too Many Embarassing Moments
Yeah, well, funny thing, or not so funny thing happened at WalMart today, when we bumped into my sons 3rd grade teacher. As we turn to go our separate ways, my oh so sweet 5 y/o belts out, "She has got a Huge Booty!" Yes, those exact words. OMG!! Must they embarass me all of the time?? Poor thing, lol. I hope she doesn't think of that during our meeting tomorrow.

Tarot 2
Tried again, interesting... You are the Hanged Man Self-sacrifice, Sacrifice, Devotion, Bound. With the Hanged man there is often a sense of fatalism, waiting for something to happen. Or a fear of loss from a situation, rather than gain. The Hanged Man is perhaps the most fascinating card in the deck. It reflects the story of Odin who offered himself as a sacrifice in order to gain knowledge. Hanging from the world tree, wounded by a spear, given no bread or mead, he hung for nine days. On the last day, he saw on the ground runes that had fallen from the tree, understood their meaning, and, coming down, scooped them up for his own. All knowledge is to be found in these runes. The Hanged Man, in similar fashion, is a card about suspension, not life or death. It signifies selflessness, sacrifice and prophecy. You make yourself vulnerable and in doing so, gain illumination. You see the world differently, with almost mystical insights. What Tarot Card are You?Take the Test to Fin

Tarot
Phil started it lol. hahaha at take your meds You are The Moon Hope, expectation, Bright promises. The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window. The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should t

Should You Eat, Pray Or Love?
You Should Eat It's likely that you've been going through a hard time, and you need to rest and refuel. You could do with some nourishment, and not just the caloric kind. It's time to take care of yourself. You find happiness when you put your own needs first. You deserve the best, and you should be pampered more. Relax, indulge, and allow yourself to feel totally full. You've earned it. Should You Eat, Pray, or Love? Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

The Gourd Test
You Are Authentic You love who you are, and part of what you love is that you're very different from most other people. You may be unique and a bit odd, but you embrace that about yourself. Your confidence shines through. You are honest and truthful. You would never hide who you are, especially from yourself. You wish more people kept it real. You're interested in learning who people truly are. The Gourd Test Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

The Tea Oracle
You Appreciate Life's Tiniest Moments You are a great compromiser. You can deal with personalities of every flavor, and you're good at making sure each person has a say. You have a very balanced personality. You know how to moderate yourself when you are feeling extreme. You are happy but realistic. You try to make the best of what you've got, even when you don't have a lot. You are energetic and downright hyper. All sorts of ideas and opportunities excite you. The Tea Oracle The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

What Color Should You Stay Away From?
You Should Stay Away From Pink You are a strong person who doesn't back down when times get tough. You're ready to take on challenges. You are honest and open. You love rational, logical discussion, and you're turn off by anything too emotional. The color pink sometimes represents weakness and inhibition. By contrast, you pride yourself on being bold! Pink can also be a bit claustrophobic, and there's nothing you seek more than freedom. What Color Should You Stay Away From? The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

What Kind Of Apple Are You?
You Are a Golden Delicious Apple You have a glow to you, and you are naturally attractive. You know how to highlight your good points. Beneath that shining exterior is a sensitive soul. You are more thin skinned that people realize. You prefer others to be gentle with you. You need to be handled with care. You may be fragile, but you're also tough deep down. You're firm enough to stand up for what you believe in. What Kind of Apple Are You? Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

What's Your Grown Up Stereotype?
You Are The Introvert You are a thoughtful person who could also be described as downright intellectual. You enjoy spending time by yourself, and this leads to a lot of thinking. You tend to have a few close friends instead of lots of acquaintances. Your bonds with your friends are strong. While you may not be outgoing, you are a great conversationalist. You have many interests and as a result, many things to talk about. What's Your Grown Up Stereotype? Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes

What Kind Of Gambling Are You?
You Are Bingo You are easy going and popular. You have a lot of friends in your life. You are a social person and you enjoy camaraderie. You prefer to do most things with a group of fun people. You love conversation, and you're happy to chat with almost anyone. You simply like people. Old friends appreciate your loyalty and good advice. New friends appreciate how friendly you are. What Kind of Gambling Are You? Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

The Changing Leaves Test
You Are Steady You are a completely unwavering person. You are very faithful and loyal. You are serious... maybe to a fault. You are dependable, and you remain calm when the world is spinning around you. You are reserved and a bit of an introvert. Only those who really know you understand your serenity. You are someone of substance and character. Your waters run deep. The Changing Leaves Test Blogthings: Free Quizzes for Everyone

Story Idea ... Stalker
The knock on the door was unexpected. Peering through the peephole, she could see the man running his fingers through his hair, then he breathed into his hand. Rolling her eyes at the sight, she opened the door. “Can I help you?” “I am your new neighbor from down the hall.” He pointed to his door. “Yes?” she sounded abrupt, not used to dealing with unknown people at the door. “I just wondered if maybe you'd like to go for a drink sometime.” She looks over her shoulder at her kids in the apartment. Oh yeh, I get so much time for that. Turning back to the gentleman at the door, she caught a whiff of alcohol on his breath. Instantly her stomach turned. “Thanks, but that's not possible.” Knowing how people can be when they're drinking, she kept one hand on the door and tried to make her retreat. “Well maybe another time.” “Uh, yeah, maybe. I have to go.” The crash in the hall pulled her attention f

What Flacor Gelato Are You?
You Are Chocolate Gelato You're very consistent and above board. Friends know what they can expect from you. You are honest and real. You're a bit complicated, and you don't do anything to hide that. You are a loyal and true friend. Many actually consider you to be their best friend. You are always there in good times and bad. You never quit when things get tough. What Flavor Gelato Are You? Blogthings: Free Quizzes for Everyone

What Tarot Card Are You?
You are The High Priestess Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education. The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods. What Tarot Card are You?Take the Test to Find Out.

I'm A Star!
I did this after Kloverlynn did. (I am SUCH a joiner! :P) You are The Star Hope, expectation, Bright promises. The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one. What Tarot Card are You?Take the Test to Find Out. I saw this question in the quiz and it made me snort my Diet DP :4) What's your Favorite Heavenly Body? Mars Venus Mercury Saturn Jupiter Uranus Neptune Pluto Sun Moon Uma ThurmanI wanted to say Uma, but it wasn't entirely true... Rock on!Shawn

At Sea - By Aleister Crowley
As night hath stars, more rare than ships In ocean, faint from pole to pole, So all the wonder of her lips Hints her innavigable soul. Such lights she gives as guide my bark; But I am swallowed in the swell Of her heart's ocean, sagely dark, That holds my heaven and holds my hell. In her I live, a mote minute Dancing a moment in the sun: In her I die, a sterile shoot Of nightshade in oblivion. In her my self dissolves, a grain Of salt cast careless in the sea; My passion purifies my pain To peace past personality. Love of my life, God grant the years Confirm the chrism - rose to rood! Anointing loves, asperging tears In sanctifying solitude! Man is so infinitely small In all these stars, determinate. Maker and moulder of them all, Man is so infinitely great! At The Gates Of Silent Memory - Performed by Fields of the Nephilim yes today life that I knewso sick of all the peoplea blind moon over to the windowwhere the n

From Revjoe Thank You
Merged friendshipYou couldNever beJust anotherPieceOf assSomeone whoI fornicateThen letSlipFrom myGraspWe knowToo manySecretsTo ever putOne anotherIn the PastIt wouldSimply beSomething elseWe didTogetherEven ifIt wasJust one timeThe rest Of ourLoveWill last RevJoe wrote this for me thank you babes for everything the 6 years(h)

Too Early To Think About Christmas?
Bold Software - Bold Blog It’s Not Too Late for Holiday Readiness CLICK thaT LINK for more SANTA COOKIE ClipPhotoManip by =bluedecker97 on deviantART FOR a online merchant at cafepress and zazzle too, it is not too early to think about CHRISTMAS. As alias bluedecker97 at deviantart.com and proprietor of TIKI TOON Merchants have designed holiday apparel, shoes, and more for seven years and my blog is going to show all this in the next several months. EXCITING showcases include my DJ Choppercat's alias original TECHNO CHRISTMAS music widgets too.

Sippin Whiskey On My Knees (before Sobriety)
I found something I wrote on January 13th. Five days before I stopped drinking. when you've already been drinking for ten years, on a night when you would pretty much give your life for a fucking bottle of whiskey, and you suddenly find yourself just months below the legal drinking age, It is pure fucking torture. The kind of torture that not even a masochist would wish upon themselves. Some nights I need a drink so bad that I feel like I need a blank, soundproof, padded room to let loose, throw myself against the walls, kick and scream until I'm so tired I collapse and cry myself to sleep, where I can finally forget how badly I needed a drink in the first place..at least for a few hours. At this point in my life it's all about the escapism my drugs and alcohol have to offer me. While sad, It's true. I honestly have no desire to stop. Not only that, but If I had the desire, I don't think I could stop. And failure drives me to drink. When I drink, smoke, snort, or anything I do..I d

I Wish I Could Eat Your Cancer
written on June 6th 2010. (Taken from my main blog) My mom has been hiding something from me, I can feel it. I didnt push it though, I knew it would come out soon...and it did. She finally got drunk enough to tell me. She's Dying. She has bone cancer, which was caught too late, she's known this for about 6 months.. and she's dying. She will die...I cant even comprehend this. Ive spent my entire life trying to save her from the drugs, trying to save her from the crazy fucked up life we live.. but, now, all that work, for nothing...She's going to die anyways. When she's gone, I will fucking die on the inside. She's everything to me. My whole life, Ive taken care of her , worried about her, tried to help her, always always thinking of her. Now my mind goes blank and worried when I try to think of ...what now? This is my biggest fear. She's 37 years old. and shes gonna die. ...

Tragedy Opened Doors To Change
Its been almost 2 years since my husband got robbed and shot. The memory of that day is as fresh as if it happened yesterday.I have to say that day I lost respect and faith on Albuquerque Police Department. Everything about that day was unbelievable. I mean "EVERYTHING!", from apd loosing the police report, to them not following through finding the robber. Soon after I went back to work everyone i have met working at the convenient store shared their stories on how apd had failed them as well, some share the same fate as my husband and others where worse, "they won't do anything Ceci" they said. and as hard as it was for me to swallow it was true. It took almost 3 months before they did anything at all and thats because I had call the media, internal affairs , mayor etc. Yeah, I even emailed the Senator and they emailed me back " we do not take care of things like that" wow. Its weird the kinds of thoughts that floods your mind when things like this happens to you. Now he is kinda h

Get Nekkid With Tulip!
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Rambling
I can't sleep, so thought I'd post a random thought I had. I feel that people shouldn't say I can't do this, or can't do that, and noone should tell you you can't do something, regardless of the reason. Yes I understand there are exceptions, it takes legs to walk, and takes arms to reach out, however where theres a will theres a way, you can still achieve great things regardless of your disadvantages. If you have no arms and someone says you cant reach out and grab that apple, show them you can, by improvising. You can use your feet, even use your mouth with a grabber thingie and you can reach out and grab that apple. I know there are exceptions to everything, but a vast majority of people with *disadvantages* are perfectly capable of doing everything they want to do. Sometimes it might take more concentration, or extra effort to do it, but you might surprise yourself if you really try to do it. Don't let anyone tell you you can't do something you want to do. If you want it, go get

The Way I Am Feeling
I LAY AWAKE AT NIGHT LOOKING AT YOUR PICTURE WISHING I COULD HEAR YOUR VOICE OTHER THEN IN MY HEAD. I MISS YOU MORE THEN WORDS CAN BE SAID. I REALIZE THAT I DID ALOT WRONG IN MY LIFE AND THE BIGGEST WAS LOOSING YOU. I FELT I LOST YOU WAY BEFORE I REALY LOST YOU. I TRIED TO SAY WHAT WAS IN MY HEART BUT THE WORDS JUST DIDNT COME OUT RIGHT. YOU HAD BRIGHTENED UP MY LIFE SO BRIGHT THAT I HAD TO CLOSE MY EYES. I WAS SO USE TO BEING IN THE DARK AND YOU BROUGHT THE LIGHT INTO MY LIFE AND IT BLINDED ME. BUT NOW THAT THE LIGHT IS GONE AGAIN I MISS IT SO MUCH AND MISS YOU MORE. WE HAVE DONE AND SAID THINGS THAT SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN SAID OR DONE. NORMALY I WOULD BE UPSET AND WANT TO TAKE ACTION ON IT BUT I HAVE NO DESIRE TO. I JUST WANT THIS DESEASE INSIDE OF ME TO DO ITS JOB AND EAT ME ALIVE AND FINSH ME OFF. I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL LOVE YOU TILL THE DAY I DRAW MY LAST BREATH. AND WILL CARRY YOUR LOVE WITH ME TO MY GRAVE AND BEYOND

Satisfying Secret [[poem]]
Eyes so delicate, words so sweet, plausible, making you want to believe, making you want to hang on her every word, gaze so venomous, luring you to her, makes me sick because I know that i’m Kissing the same lips that tell all the lies, What’s worse is that I know it and I still don’t say a word, I keep the role of her vulnerable, witless marionette, in the sick puppet show play that she puts on in her head, For everyone to see her cruel powerful ways, and the effect she has on me, the way she uses me as a pawn to feel all the more in control, I am her victim, and she loves it, she loves that I am inferior to her, it pleasures her for me to fall prey to her mind games, I am the servant, she the monarch, my everlasting ruler, as I obey her every whim, meanwhile being strummed like a banjo, in her own pathetic orchestra of songs about the oblivious souls to be pitied like my own, for all they see is that we are too naive to see, tha

Staying Silent
"I'm cold" "I'm tired". "You should be used to this by now" My mom replied with a tone dripping with aggravation, to my brother and sister's "Complaining". I stayed quiet for a few reasons. One, I was old enough for her not to think twice about hitting me. Two, I'm the oldest, and I have to stay strong and set a good example for the kids. and third, because I WAS used to this. We were homeless for years. Everyday was about the same, with a few different shitty situations everyday, I'd like to think that was "gods" way of making sure we never got bored. We'd wake up wherever we passed out, Go searching for a way for my mom to get high, Wait while she got high, then walk around town for awhile, try to keep up with my mom as she ran from (Imaginary) Cops, go to the soup kitchen for lunch, take the bus somewhere for a few hours to keep busy, search for a way for my mom to get high, wait while she got high, then walk around town just as the sun was

My Fufamily Storie
THE STORIE OF MY FUFAMILYThere once was a dude named Black who met a chick named Sdmf Dee. Black became very very close to Dee, and called her Brown sugar and very Heavenlee666. Dee decided to let Black meet her Rich brothers, Bls Kevin,Chris USA86,christopher, ReLLik and of course Sandmn2051. Dee met all Blacks sisters DaviGurl, Raven, Tiggy and Kinky Chula. Black said one of his sisters looked like a Dreadlockula666 was way to Hard 2 Handle and just a Lint Licken Cootie Queen. Dee thought Black was kind of mean for sayin that. So she shouted are you Siruis Jacko! you must be on Cocaine I swear! Black said hey Dee your in a lilbitotrouble now! I sure aint tappinit no more! Dee said pfft what ever were is the Mfkn og Foreplay anyway huh! You like my cousin SLDC anyway pfft Shebledglitter to! Dee started to just get furious and acted like a Typhoons kitty. Black said MMMHmmm sure Dee she was tastiilykeKandy to! Dee said what ever ya HolyDiver I am gonna go play Domino's with Dj Bayfana

Random No Reason
I am not the hero of the story, I am the narrator. I’m the voice that people follow and are drawn to while actually caring more for the others involved. I can make you follow but I never lead. I can tell you amazing lies and you’ll believe them because my reasons for existing are just for your entertainment. My emotional input doesn’t matter, my presence conflicts your fantasy, my voice interrupts the perfect life your watching. If I never told you the plot, you would still watch the people act. My great purpose is to build up for someone elses resolve, And my great motive is to have you climax with the dramatics of others.

Frederick
Frederick, a Rwandan, was just 15 years old in 1998. He was on a bus full of Tutsi's going to visit an aunt who was mourning the murder of her husband. Frederick is Hutu. A band of rebel Hutus stopped the bus and ordered everyone off. They had them march, single file, hands on their heads, into the jungle. When they got a distance from the main road, they ordered everyone except Frederick to remove their clothing. Once everyone was naked, their clothes were gathered up to be sorted and sold later. The people's hands were tied behind their backs and they were told to sit. A machete was handed to Frederick and he was ordered to start killing Tutsis. Frederick says his mind left him. He panicked and refused to kill anyone. "Kill me first!" he begged. The Hutu rebels didn't kill Frederick. Instead, they told him they would send a message with him to all of the Hutu in the area that being a friend of Tutsis is not a good idea. Frederick thought they were going to give him a note, somethi

Nsfw
Please get rid of this NSFW nonsense!!! This is NOT a kid's site, that's why they have myspace, facebook, or twitter for. If u don't want to see adult photos on someone's profile, then either don't look or delete ur account on here...you can use those other sites that are censored. I'm sick of the idiots that cry and moan until someone's picture is removed...Get a freakin life and join the rest of those stupid holy roller hypocrites out there and stay off FUBAR!!! Censorship is definitely way too overated on here!

Sonnys Final Job
Sonnys Final Job I saw a rainbow just the other day, it made me wonder what uncle Sonny would say. The reason for the rainbow?, Sonny knew why, It' Gods way of looking down at us and saying Hi! So many colors , Sonny Knew them all, when Heaven needed a Touch-up God gave Sonny a call. He now is home, with his Mother, Brother, Wife and Dad, He leaves behind a Legacy In the children , Grand children and great grandchildren he had. So if you should find yourself missing Sonny, He's now painting the skies, and if you ever want to see him, look into his childrens eyes.

The Seven Lords
Invoke the power of the sun To quell this poisoned fear We must destroy the chosen one No god alive can stop us now Shatter the sacred tear Wrap our souls in hallowed night Free from suffering and pain Desecrate the holy light Our heads will never bow Celebrate the rise of Cain Shielded by this frail flesh A divine storm roars inside The gaping jaws that pound and thresh Break open heaven's gates A punishment for genocide Weapons of our own design Cleave apart immortal skin The celestial forces align All the beauty that he hates You must know the end to begin

And We Pretend Then Jump Back To Just Fall Forward Again /=
Set it up, this is what I'm talking about, Let me do my thing, here we go. Waking up, I feel such a sense that my life has succumb to rely, A cross between where I live my life and where I'm really at. How do we get so close without us knowing where we would be? And how do we get so old without us knowing we can't get out? Needle leads thread, I see no point in flying alone this time, We have come for what we're owed, I'm bleeding it dry. How long have we both lived for the same style, I would die for what I can do, I would die for what you can't, Why can't we just believe in taking it so far, That our feet don't touch the ground? How do we get so close without us knowing where we would be? And how do we get so old without us knowing we can't get out? Needle leads thread, I see no point in flying alone this time, We have come for what we're owed, I'm bleeding it dry. Can you feel how close we are? Reach out and grab it, One of the shapes afraid of us, I'll bury the past, This mi

So Whattt /=
All that's left is my heavy breathing, a place where my head spins, Everything in between has come out, it's calling me up, it's calling me, Do you think I ever cared? Let me prove you all wrong. Before you open your mouth, let me make it clear, I can't be brought down, oh, I stand so high, That I have never listened, that I have never listened to so much, Where's the lesson in this? Where's the meaning in this now? Self-taught, a trick I played for far too long, Soft speech with heavy words that come from no book, Where are the followings, how do we reach the truth? Before you open your mouth, let me make it clear, I can't be brought down, Oh, I stand so high, that I have never listened, That I have never listened to so much, where's the lesson in this? -Jonny Craig

I'm Jonny Craig Bitch And I Drive In Reverse! Yesss I Love The Title Lol
Oh, take all these pleasures away, for I've sinned And oh, this is all my fault, I made no effort to speak your name Tonight I'll place the blame on myself, hiding behind a crutch Still can't make the nightmares fade, nightmares fade away That touch, I can't escape And eyes that drill my soul with meaning Oh, I know I can't escape you Now, take all these pleasures away, for I've sinned Oh, this is all my fault, I made no effort to speak your name Have I turned you to stone? Do we still exist out there? A light we both know, a light we both share That touch, I can't escape And eyes that drill my soul with meaning Oh, I know I can't escape you -Jonny Craig

.sexysexsex.
fact about sex Men:1) 94% of men lie about their penis size.According to condom manufacturers, only 6% ofmen use extra large condoms.2) The average man is 5 inches long when erect(no matter what you have heard ladies, that's thetruth).3) 80% of American men are circumsized. Eventhough Pediatrics say it is not necessary.4) No matter what all the ads say, nothing canmake your penis grow but time (most men reachthe end of their growth by the early 20's)5) There is no correlation between penis size andshoe size, hand size, or nose size.6) Blue balls does exist! It's technicallycalled "prostatic congestion."7) Only 16% of men shave their privates.+Some stuff on the ladies+------------------------------1) Only 9% of women around the globe considerthemselves "attractive" (20% of British womendo).43% of women use the term "natural", 24% saythey have "average" looks, 8% prefer theterm "feminine", 7% say they are "good looking",and 7% say they are "cute", and finally only 2% ofwomen say they are

How To Tell A Girl You Love Her.
There's this girl that I'm totally in love with. I've been thinking about ways to tell her I love her. Here are a few of my ideas - 1. Take her to a really romantic setting in the woods in late evening. Pull a candle out and some wine. Light the candle next to a log and sit down near a pretty flowing creek with fur trees and the fresh smell of fallen pine needles. Smile and look her in the eyes and ask her if she's cold. Girls love it when you're romantic and caring like that. So she'll probably say yes. If she says yes, put your arm around her and everything is cute and cuddly and blissful. However, if she says no, grab a tree trunk and knock her into the icy creek. Let her float down the current a little then pull her out by her hair and ask, "How about now?" And she'll probably say yes. Of course she'll say yes. Girls are very predictable like that. Then offer her your jacket and tell her you're only giving it to her to silence the annoying teeth chatter. If she gets hissy, push

Texts From Last Night...
One of my favorite pasttimes is reading textsfromlastnight.com....here are a few of my recent faves... Drinking with birthday clown in the backyard shed at a 5 year olds birthday party at 12 in the afternoon. My life doesn't need any adjustments She even gives head with a lisp. She called me her ex's name in a supermarket. How boring am I that she livens up shopping by thinking of another guy? four guys that i have slept with have come into my job today. FOUR. i feel like it's like bring your sex partners to work day. if you want blown tonight you're gonna have to take me up on that offer now. in less then 45 minutes you're gonna be blacked out and i'm not doing something i'm not getting credit for in the morning. These people keep looking at me like I'm the first person to ever eat ribs in a Home Depot. He's so gross, but the preschooler inside me is screaming that this is her life dream and I have to be with him or she'll never forgive me. I just had a B

There For You By Fly Leaf
"There For You" Sometimes I'm a selfish fake You're always a true friend And I don't deserve you 'Cause I'm not there for you Please forgive me again I wanna be there for you someone you can come to runs deeper than my bones I wanna be there for you I wanna be there for you Swirling shades of blue Slow dancing in your eyes The sun kisses the earth And I hush my urge to cry I wanna be there for you someone you can come to runs deeper than my bones I wanna be there for you I wanna be there for you 'cause I hear the whispered words In your masterpiece beautiful You speak the unspeakable through I love you too I wanna be there for you And be someone you can come to I wanna be there for you And be someone you can come to The love runs deeper than my bones I wanna be there for you

Jesus, Take The Wheel (james/lindsey/sampson)
Jesus, Take the Wheel (James/Lindsey/Sampson) She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati On a snow white Christmas Eve Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline It'd been a long hard year She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention she was going way too fast Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass She saw both their lives flash before her eyes She didn't even have time to cry She was sooo scared She threw her hands up in the air Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this on my own I'm letting go So give me one more chance Save me from this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder And the car came to a stop She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock

Penance Is Meaningless
Drowning in my selfish fear I lost you to the wolves It's your frightened screams I hear I've shattered all my rules In the darkness that I roam The memory of your warmth No place that I can call my home No fire burning in the hearth I abandoned you cold and alone I only saw my hurt A river of my blood can not atone You fell into the dirt I am still counted among the living But I'm imprisoned in my own heart Perhaps one day I'll be forgiven Before we both depart

I'm Thinkin............
Y = YesN = NoM = Maybe Would You? [_] Come To My House To Do Nothing But Chill?[_] Slap Me?[_] Kiss Me?[_] Let Me Kiss You?[_] Watch A Movie With Me?[_] Take Me Out To Dinner?[_] Take A Shower With Me?[_] Take Me Home For The Night?[_] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed?[_] Repost This For Me To Answer Your Questions?[_] Lock Me In Your room And Take Advantage Of Me?[_] Let Me Make You Breakfast?[_] Tickle Me?[_] Let Me Tickle You?[_] Stick Up For Me Uf I Was Being Put Down?[_] Instant Message Me?[_] Greet Me In Public?[_] Hang Out With Me?[_] Bring Me Around Your Friends? Do You…

Salutes
I here to claim that with all the fake profiles and ppl on here, that it doesnt seem like a bad idea to make ranks and get fakes out of here or less to deal with to make it a requirement for someone to have to have a salute in order to get passed rank 5. i know i ain't the only person to think this just think it would be better off. Thanks for the time, Checotah

Master Took His Kitten
I am standing naked in the cold cellar, the cool air causing my nipples to stiffen. Michelle, my gorgeous friend with her lovely blond locks, is walking toward me. Naomi, the sultry brunette, is following behind her. I am standing with my brown hair resting on my shoulders, my arms raised above my head, wearing nothing but my tall black leather stiletto heels. Michelle opens the bucket of black liquid latex, as Naomi finds 2 paintbrushes. Each beauty dips her brush into the latex and begins to paint my skin with the sticky material. Michelle is working on my front, while Naomi is carefully taking care of my back. Michelle takes her brush and begins right above my nipples, tickling me, but I stand very still. She has a job to do. Meanwhile, Naomi meets the line Michelle has drawn, and continues to paint my back. Each girl is moving her brush down lower now, Michelle covering my stomach, and Naomi the small of my back. Michelle dips her brush into the latex once again and begins to paint

Alone.......not For Long Pet
I opened my eyes to find myself in a cage. A cage! I moved to stand from my lying postition but something was restraining me... I looked down to see ropes intricately bound around my naked body, the friction was painful on my nipples and pussy lips when I moved even a fraction. My mind raced as I tried to remember how I got into this situation. My last clear memory was my Mistress yelling at me- “Fucking whore, I’ll be back in half an hour, fucking clean that shit up.” I admit I was feeling light-headed after orgasming so hard...maybe I had passed out? Somewhere above me I heard a door opening and the familiar sound of heels tapping on hard floor."So, has the filthy whore woken up yet?" came the wonderful, but chilling voice of my Mistress."Y-yes Mistress," I replied, my voice a little hoarse. "Good, because I'm not going to wait all night- I have a visitor for you," she said coldly. My heart leapt with anticipation but also nerves. Another stranger? Before I had time

Just How I Am Feeling Atm..
You still haunt me in my dreams Still make me fall down to my knees When did my life become so gray? The day you went away.. I will never have you back The pain hit like a heart attack Someone stab me in my eyes Sew them shut so I can die I will never be the same Dont want to play their silly games I know I will never win That I will never see you again

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10 Things Every Child With Autism Wishes You Knew...
Ten Things Every Child with Autism Wishes You Knew by Ellen Notbohm from the book Ten Things Every Child with Autism Wishes You Knew (2005, Future Horizons, Inc.) Some days it seems the only predictable thing about it is the unpredictability. The only consistent attribute -- the inconsistency. There is little argument on any level but that autism is baffling, even to those who spend their lives around it. The child who lives with autism may look “normal” but his behavior can be perplexing and downright difficult. Autism was once thought an “incurable” disorder, but that notion is crumbling in the face knowledge and understanding that is increasing even as you read this. Every day, individuals with autism are showing us that they can overcome, compensate for and otherwise manage many of autism’s most challenging characteristics. Equipping those around our children with simple understanding of autism’s most basic elements has a tremendou

Losing Weight
Stepped on my scale Monday morning and I was 108 lbs. Today (Saturday) I am only 101 lbs!! So I lost 7 lbs. in only 5 days,most people can't lose 7 lbs. in a week. Not bad for having had 3 kids huh? Will only be a few days and I will be back to 98 lbs.which is just a few lbs. more than what I weighed in high school. SOO happy to be in size 3 jeans again,(although I was only wearing a size 5 or 6 before I lost weight),yay me.....lol. Hope you're all having a great weekend.

Story Of Derek
My name is Brandy. As you may have noticed this month, I dedicated myself in posting something here this month to raise Autism awareness. My 13 year-old son, Derek has autism...this is our story. I had a normal pregnancy with Derek. We were a happy excited newlywed couple expecting the greatest joy that God can give us. I ended up being 2 weeks overdue with my pregnancy and my doctor decided it was time for an eviction notice. I went into the hospital at midnight for the prep to be induced in the morning. I went into labor around 5 am on my own and when the doctor came to check me on the morning rounds at 8 am he looked at the monitor readings and said to the nurse “I don’t like the looks of his heartbeat, I am going to break the water and speed this along.” They broke my water and 1 hour later I had progressed to 10 cm. During the next few hours, Derek had more difficulties with his heart rate. He actually flat-lined in me at one point and then the doctor decided

Free Website To Sell Stuff
I bought a website from CoMergent a few months ago and they have been awesome! Very good support after the sale, they manage our marketing and SEO and our site gets tons of great traffic and converts visitors to sales consistently. CoMergent Acquisition Group is pretty expensive but they are worth it. I was recommended by a friend who used them and it’s the best thing I have ever done. I worked with Robert Thomas there and Yuris and they were absolutely great to work with barter|barter website|buy and sell|shop online online retailer|barter exchange|free barter website free classifieds|list stuff for free|free listings

The Meeting
After what seemed like forever, they would finally meet. The anticipation of the months of waiting was killing her. He intrigued her from the start and wasn’t the typical male that she came to expect. And after all the chats, IM’s, and phone calls, they threw caution to the wind and picked a time and a place. She fretted about what to wear for him. Should she let him see the everyday said of her or dress up like the wanton she wanted to be? She rolled her eyes, sighed and hoped that whatever she put on he would want her the way he had said from the start he did. In the end, she decided to wear a silk blouse and jeans and her favorite boots. Not drop dead sexy, but she looked nice. They decided to meet in a nearby city for lunch and he would hang out with her for the weekend to see how it goes. He was like that, always a little mysterious to her. He saw her across the way and took a breath, “My god she is beautiful,” he thought to himself. She was open a

I Was Challenged To Speak Up, Here's My Story.
I met him when I was 16. We started dating in December 2005. I thought that life couldn't get any better. He was handsome, and funny. He cared about me, truly cared about it. It wasn't about sex. Fast Forward to February, things started going down hill, and FAST. At first it started out just pushing, eventually pushing led to pushing off of a 5FT tall porch flat on my back. He apologized, as he had SO many times before. I forgave him, I'm clumsy and I always know how to push his buttons. Soon after he began the hitting. It kept getting harder and harder. Mostly after we talked about "having children". He NEEDED a son. He wanted to be a father. Granted, I was 16, I was an only child, I wanted NO kids. I wasn't even sure if I wanted children down the road. I was young, I wanted more out of life. That's when it started getting REALLY bad. I was used to covering up black eyes and bruises on my body. I was used to covering up busted lips. I was NOT used to going to the emergency room for br

[when It Rains It Pours... That's Not Rain]
God is PISSED.I'm not entirely sure whyprobably all that sacrilege and anger.My car broke down in traffic on the way to help move.So I spent 2 hours doing the tow/repairshop shuffle.AndI'm not spending more money on that thing than it is worth, which is apparently nothing, but heyat least I drove it for 100 miles before it ... died.AlsoAt one point my phone's battery was explodingnow... its just not charging.So...........................I fucking quit.Yup.I quit.I've got my battery in some rice (worked for a day last time I did that) and ... I think I'm going to get drunkand go to bed.Its on 1/8th battery, and refusing to charge. I'm pretty much at emergency communications only right now.Oh yeah... and I had to deep clean my airbrush last night for the third time in a week.I don't know if its fixed or not, but my needle is clearing my nozzle again, that's a good indication that any blockage is now cleared (at least in that chamber).I'm going to bed now.

Today's Special Birthday Goes To...
Annddddd...today's special birthday blog goes to the chick that has gone by alot of names and been through well, let's just leave it at "alot" over the course of the yes, three years, she's been here!! So if you stop by, feel free to give today's special fu birthday chick some lovins.... HARDCORE BARBIEx@ fubar P.S. Her real name is Tina and... P.P.S...Don't tell her I told you "that"...haha..happy first weekend of October kids...peace.

Donations
Excuse me, for not buying into the donation thing. Maybe I've worked too many places where legally vague sayings and outlandish statements just doesn't cut it. To me, if fubar was donating to something, they would have no issues name dropping the NFP they were giving to. There's plenty of breast cancer research foundations in which to donate too. Susan G. Komen, BCRF, just to name a few. I also think, though breast cancer awareness is important, this has become an easy cause for people to go to, to make themselves feel better. Ovarian cancer is just as deadly, and has around a 70% return rate and is often misdiagnosed as kidney stones/infection. Though, you rarely see anyone waving a teal ribbon to support awareness and research for this. Bottom line: BabyJ/Scrapper, pick an NFP group and let us know where the donations are going to, unless of course, you're just hoarding the money and not actually donating.

Whiners
Is it me or is it we have whiners everywhere still lol. It dosnr matter where you are, regular Fu or in mafia this is all just a game and a place to have fun. If you dont get what you want, not enough like's, to many dislike's, not enough page rates comments picture rate's or bling, then get a job and buy it yourself and get yourself out there and get known and be friendly. If you get beat up in mafia, learn the game, play the game, join a turf or stay turfless. You cant beat everyone and no one is unbeatable, yes people bling, it's part of the game, it's where you have the opition to so if you want, if you dont want to do whine, it's still an option for other's not just for yourself other's just choose to take that option. All in all, and at the end of the day wether you spend all day, part of the day, everyday, or every other day here, it's still just a game and it's to have fun. I wish you the best and a greta fu time ;)

It's The Little Things We Do...
What's the difference between looking forward or backward, up or down, to the right or to the left? Not very much, it just needs a SMALL adjustment. Yet, SMALL adjustments in how we view the world have SIGNIFICANT effects. When we get up in the morning, we not only decide what clothing to wear, but what attitude to have. Granted, for most of us, we just act out of habit, so we don't think of it as a choice. But it is. We don't have to act as robots. We can stop and think before we act and choose our attitude.We can complain about the rain or be grateful for the free carwash. We can view the obstacles and challenges we face during the day as a pain or see them as training for a better, more powerful life. Instead of viewing others with suspicion or as a threat, we can see everyone as our teacher, for we can learn from everyone. It's all how we look at things. But how we look at things spells the difference between happiness and misery. It's just as easy to look for the good as it is to

100% Accurate Bible Prophecy Proves It's Authinticity
Search the Scriptures Daily to make sure even what these guys say is true I kinda eyes kinda rolled on the animal/Radio/lightning/lightbulb one but that I think was Nastrodamouses, so doesnt matter I put Part 1 last cause it started out slow the 1st two minutes but here it is

The Difficulty Of Relationships For People Over 40...
We start out early in life with hope, dreams, positive attitude, belief in possibilities, and it seems in no time our hopes are shattered to bits as our hearts are slashed to bits by time and circumstance and broken promises. Then we try to move on. To start again. To believe someone else will treat us better. Then that, too, turns sour in time... Then, after deciding there is no hope, we sometimes find ourselves wanting it to work out with someone we have met. We understand they are a bit cynical because of what they have been through with others. We forgive their lack of trust, since they have been betrayed so cruelly. And we expect the same of them. Later in life relationships are not easy. But, when they are good, they are so very good. It seems it is worth the struggle when it is good. Nothing is easy. Nothing is really 'fair'. You just can't give up all hope, right? You have to keep trying, right? I see the hope in the pairing off of couples her

Breast Cancer Awareness
My Pink Ribbon ( in memory of Joella Goodwin) I never thought, it would happen to me after-all I was always so Healthy. No family history just out of the blue, neither me nor my family had a clue. They seemed so normal and always there, it couldn't happen to me, so I never cared. Then one day, I would be stumped, while taking a shower I felt a lump. " Dear God" why did this happen to me?, I sit here and wait for a mastectomy. Will I still be a woman?, Will I still be the same?, or will I be some kind of freak, living in shame? Would it have been differant, if I had checked before?, instead I just stood there it was something I would ignore. I feel differant, but I'm still the same, and it's something of which, I no-longer have to live in shame. So please check yourself, it's em

A Broken Soul
A Broken SoulWhen all light is darkand sky is grey,I fear you'll wishme not to stay,Rip from my chesta heart so torn,Beat from my breasta soul thats worn.Some endless nightsdark clouds, no moon.Deep unknown pitswhich bear my doom.That scared darknesscontrolled by pain,disquised by hateunknown by name.A secret blanketwhich holds me tight,no longer feels whats

Someone Special
My Pink Ribbon ( in memory of Sandra Conrad ) I never thought, it would happen to me after-all I was always so Healthy. No family history just out of the blue, neither me nor my family had a clue. They seemed so normal and always there, it couldn't happen to me, so I never cared. Then one day, I would be stumped, while taking a shower I felt a lump. " Dear God" why did this happen to me?, I sit her and wait for a mastectomy. Will I still be a woman?, Will I still be the same?, or will I be some kind of freak, living in shame? Would it have been differant, if I had checked before?, instead I just stood there it was something I would ignore. I feel differant, but I'm still the same, and it's somethingof which, I no-longer have to live in shame. So please check yourself, it's embarrasing that is true, but it

Another Douch
DJ MAYO aka Mayo James Staley was telling me that he wanted to be with me and then confessed undying love for some old ugly woman in his status. Just be warned ladies that this is not a REAL man and has some growing up to do! If you are in his family or ranked on his page you have been blocked from mine and are not reading this anyway. I really don't care anymore. I am making sure that I don't have anything to do with anyone close to him! I'm done with his whole lot of miscreates.

To Someone Special
I LONG FOR THE DAY TO FEEL YOUR TOUCH EVERY DAY I MISS YOU VERY MUCH YOU ARE HERE IN MY HEART AND IN MY SOUL MY HEART FROM THE VERY START YOU STOLE I WOULD GIVE UP EVERYTHING TO HAVE YOU HERE TO HOLD YOU CLOSE AND KEEP YOU NEAR OH HOW I NEED JUST ONE WISH TODAY WHERE'S A SHOOTING STAR WHEN I NEED TO PRAY I'M TRYING TO BE PATIENT AND KEEP A SMILE BECAUSE I KNOW THE WAIT WILL BE WORTH THE WHILE SO HERE I STAND WITH MY HEART WIDE OPEN WAITING FOR YOU TO FIX WHAT'S BROKEN SO TILL THE DAY I SEE YOUR FACE THERE WILL BE NO OTHER TO TAKE YOUR PLACE EVEN THOUGH IT HURTS TO WAIT SO LONG MY FEELINGS FOR YOU STILL STAY VERY STRONG I LOVE YOU FROM THE VERY START Was written by a very close friend of mine She wrote this for me and for someone special

A Bloody Mess
I have gotten messy in my age I was once the most skill of what I do but in those times of dark and tanted one must hide there true selfs from the fate of the hunters hand but I most find her so I can once more be happy but how long will that be before I feed on her soul to make her a part of my way of life to take ones soul means I most kill for two.

Ball Room
I seen you over there in the dark shadows looking for your next meal but I can tell your eyes were on me looking in to my soul trying to find something I am nothing but a shadow of my old but if its a dance you want them my lady you can have but when im done im going to rip your flash off like your red silk dress, so light and soft I can still feel your blood running what a feeling to take something like this is something you dont want, to be like me is to lose everthing you loved so do you still want this dance in my ball room.

Like Fine Wine
Aw my dear your blood is like a fine wine the feeling I get from you makes this night a bitter sweet veil of lustful death im going to in enjoy this even more then my last she was weak but you were something that made me feel humen but it did not last I put that side of my in a dark corner of my soul never to be free so im sorry dear if I was a little blunt before but your never going to leave this place I will drink you dry like the rest.

Cursed
Cursed It was nothing but a curse a trance but I feel it wont be the last will I ever find my way out to be free of this hunger to never have to feed on the weak the damned who knows one day I will brake free of my bonds but only time will tell but for now I must feed I glow weaker with each passing day all I can hope for is death will ease this pain this fear never knowing when this cuse will be dispelled.

Chained By Blood
I can nolonger feel my legs my arms feel heavy how long have I been chained like this to no longer see the outside world to never feel the cold night as I hunt my next meal,I can feel blood running down my face is it my blood I dont know but all I can say is that who ever put me here is going to get no mercy from me.

Her
She is the one from my dreams calling to me as if I was a part of her never to know who she is, putting me in a state of endless darkness I must find her to left this veil of nothingness of meaning to be with her will ease my pain to feel her to touch her is all I want

Bound To Fate
My fate is bound to hers never knowing who she is that is my fate to look for something that I cant find why must I be fated to something so meaning less that I must kill to find it this will never end my life is meaning less to walk alone seeking her forever.

Winter Of Death
The cold winds of death is something I look to every year when the blood moon shines its red light on those who seek it they will feel winters cold chill of death on there backs to take ones life in the name of him then will the chill fade.

My Pink Ribbon
My Pink Ribbon ( in memory of Joella Goodwin) I never thought, it would happen to me after-all I was always so Healthy. No family history just out of the blue, neither me nor my family had a clue. They seemed so normal and always there, it couldn't happen to me, so I never cared. Then one day, I would be stumped, while taking a shower I felt a lump. " Dear God" why did this happen to me?, I sit here and wait for a mastectomy. Will I still be a woman?, Will I still be the same?, or will I be some kind of freak, living in shame? Would it have been differant, if I had checked before?, instead I just stood there it was something I would ignore. I feel differant, but I'm still the same, and it's something of which, I no-longer have to live in shame. So please check yourself, it's

Fear
I fear that im loseing my will to love to feel love and to show it this dark path is all I have left to share my walk meaning leaveing everything behind to never look back to that old life never knowing what you could have done to change it, fear is everthing in life without fear there can be nothing thats life, to fear something means you have life but if you dont fear death what is there to fear.

Calling
I will no longer have to run in the shadows for a safehaven I will hunt them down like the rats they are no longer fearing the smell of death I embrace it it calls to me to kill to feed, but I cant do it alone I must find her she's the ownly one that has the look the look of deathon her, she calls to me each passing night she calls me in my dreams telling me I must find her but what for I can't see her ownly hear her calling me, what does this mean I dont know but I must find her she holds every thing my life she holds in her hands as if I was a toy, as if she can do anything about it you cant kill someone who no longer fears death him self im just a shell of nothing.

Bloody Hands
Bloody hands Is a way of life for me I hunt to feed there for I will have to kill but In the end I feel that I made a mess of things In life so I have to wash my hands with blood, I can smell fear and death In a way it makes me happy but will I ever be happy If I never have to feed on them we will never know but when that day comes It will be my life that will feed them is I will sleep and the awake will feed.

Come To Me
Awake me from this dream show me what it has to offer walk me to this place of my dreams tell me this is what I have waited for is this what I have waited for all this time must I take it from you like this or must I kill you for it is this what you wish then so be it if this awakes me from my sleep to be free from its hold then I will be free no one will hold me back when I will spill your blood and look at your dieing face.

Blood Bath
What did I do last night I cant seem to look back to that I night I was in a ball room danceing and then its all a blank when I awoke I was in a pool of blood what sould I do this feeling I had this once before but where im so tired must I find out what happend or sould I just walk away and say I dont know but I must find out why was I spared or was I am I dead or is this all a dream my head its hurts what happend thats all I was thinking when I was walking I need air I cant stay here any more did I do this but why.

The Dark Pit
I awake in the this dark pit not knowing what was going to happen to me but all I knew was am I going to die then just then a man in all black came out and said if I was going to live I sould fight for my life like I had something to live for but then he was gone I fall to my hands and knee's crying out why i'm lost will there be no one to help me with this fate of mine must i live to prove my self to others to get a ok a good job you did fine no I will take this life if you like to call it that and move on I will no longer live this life you have put in front of me you my as well put me in this dark pit to fight for my self to fight for my self is like fighting for something you wish you had but could not get to fight for a better life no to fight to live the next day.

Why Must I Walk This Dark Road
Why must I walk this dark road alone in the cold not knowing where to go this shadow hovering over me it's got this hold over me makeing me walk this dark road alone must I live like this why why must I walk where am I walking to to my own grave must I dig that as well should I just say no must I make this walk alone in the darkness where I get shut up in my own pride my own sickness I dont know how long I must walk but I fill my legs there about to give must I fall will there be some one to pick me up tell me its ok you dont have to walk alone any more but now im so far away now how can I walk if I can't any more there there more then waht I can see but its darkness is that I can see will you show me the light of that road that I have been walking this whole time will you say that in time I can hold you make me warm so that cold will never cover me once more how do I know I will be safe how do I know that the darkness will never come back to no longer cover my eyes I dont know how lon

From The Darkness
From the darkness I can feel that you have been there looking at how I live my life but know its time for me to show you have to lives yours in my backyard as I eat away from your face I can hear you moaning in lust and pain is this it is this how you live your life well let me tell you this is but a small part of my life you must live in this ten mins now hows does it feel you like it good, as I rip your skin off I feel a bit happer to hear your blood fall to the cold ground now this is fun are you haveing fun now i hope so for now im never going to stop you will live like this forever, I rip his skin off with my hands I feel his warm blood on me now and I love it the blood lust is comeing back to me now and I will feed off of him for ever.

My Assassin
I look down at his body and I think to myself how could I ever kill someone apart of me I can never look back I can never go back to that place that I have seen him I will never face myself to turn back to live life as it never have happened, will ever face my fear alone or is there some out there that can be by my side keeping me warm keeping me safe for the evil that lives inside of me, will ever be happy with that someone will they be happy with me for who I am I will never know this but I will when that day comes I will know all this but there is still one thing that I must know will take day come soon.

To Every One I Know On Fu
ok here it is every one on fu that knows me has knowen me as a happy like of happy go lucky guy but most of you all know me as well its not all candy and gumdrops on my dark side the notes and little things i take down when im feeling evil but this is going to be a work at my pace to move them all and re read them so give me some time and i will post them up here read as is.

Ensign: Turn Off The Cruise Control
All ye inhabitants of the world, and dwellers on the earth, see ye, when he lifteth up an ensign on the mountains; and when he bloweth a trumpet, hear ye. Isaiah 18:3 AN ENSIGN ON THE MOUNTAINS 1 October 2010 “From Eli we learn there is no ‘cruise control’ in the Christian life. There is no point where we can say, ‘I’ve done enough to serve the Lord,” and then coast on into heaven. Every day needs to be a conscious effort to practice the calling that God has given us. Not because God may change his mind about your salvation – that’s set for eternity – but because God has a will and purpose for you while you’re still on this earth, ‘plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope’ (Jer[emiah]. 29:11). Satan wants to take away this future. Even if he’s lost your soul to heaven, he’ll work day and night to prevent

Avril Lavigne- When Your Gone( For My Grandmother?
I always needed time on my ownI never thought I'd need you there when I cryAnd the days feel like years when I'm aloneAnd the bed where you lie is made up on your sideWhen you walk away I count the steps that you takeDo you see how much I need you right now[Chorus]When you're goneThe pieces of my heart are missing youWhen you're goneThe face I came to know is missing tooWhen you're goneThe words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okI miss youI've never felt this way beforeEverything that I do reminds me of youAnd the clothes you left, they lie on the floorAnd they smell just like you, I love the things that you doWhen you walk away I count the steps that you takeDo you see how much I need you right now[Chorus]We were made for each otherOut here foreverI know we were, yeahAll I ever wanted was for you to knowEverything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soulI can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah[Chorus]

October Is Breast Cancer Awareness Month
As some of you know, October is breast cancer awareness month...and at times throughout this month, I will be posting information and news....some mostly from Komen for the Cure. Think of the women in your lives, but most importantly, think pink!

Bleed For Me...
Bleed me dry of this jaded passion. Plunge the jagged edge of your love deep within my beating heart. Watch the blackness spill across the innocence of your torn soul. l open this mortal shell to show you the beauty of the inky passion coursing through the tattered lacework left of my soul. Watch as it shines with the shameless desire to consume all your pain within my pleasure. Feel it's beat as it poses to feast of your darkest need. It's rage will gorge on your willing submission Hear the beating slow to silence. l take one last breath of your sweet inspiration, just to feel your name upon my lips, before it escapes.

Can I Get This Filled Here?
I had to go to the pharmacy to pick up a prescription. They have a little sign up that says "Please wait here to allow customer privacy" they actually have two signs. This dipshit walks up, complete with nasty stash, plaid shirt, and truckers cap, off to the side right up to the counter while someone is being waited on. I am glad the pharmacist called him out and told him to get back. Anyway, so they take care of the woman that is there, and he finally gets his turn. Now privacy be damned, because someone else called me up, but I could get the gist, he asked for two prescriptions, and guess what, one of them didn't exist. The other was a controlled substance (I suppose he got the Oxycontin for his wife *wink* *wink*) from a different pharmacy! Of course he didn't know where that pharmacy was, even though it is on the same freaking road, just a couple miles down. He couldn't understand the directions, and here I am waiting for the pharmacist to approve my order

Just Another Writeing
YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND THAT YOU WANTED ME AS MUCH AS I WANTED YOU. WHEN TIMES GOT ROUGH I KICKED TO THE CURB. I STILL CARRY YOU IN MY HEART AND SOUL. THEN THEN AGAIN IT IS THE OTHER WAY YOU STILL CARRY MY HEART AND SOUL WITH YOU. I NOW WALK AROUND WITH AN EMPTY SHELL BODY. YOUR VOICE STILL RINGS OUT IN MY HEAD EVERYDAY AND NIGHT. YOU TELL EVERYONE WHAT A BAD HORRIBLE PERSON I AM. WHEN ALL I HAVE EVER TRIED TO DO WAS MAKE YOUR WISHES COME TRUE AND FULLFILL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE. NOW THE ONLY WAY I HEAR YOU IS IN MY DREAMS. I AWAKE WITH TEARS CALLING OUT YOUR NAME WHILE LOOKING AROUND IN THE DARK FOR YOU. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY WORLD AND MY LOVE AND THE WOMAN I WANT TO BE WITH AND CANT LIVE WITHOUT

Wtf?
Give a company your blood sweat and tears and they kick you to the curb. I still don't have a specific reason I was let go. Got pulled into conference rooms "gotta send you home" 2 1/2 days later hey we terminated you. Myabe blessing in disquise but only problem is I can't get the money from the 401k or pension for 2 weeks. Well that is just enough tim to fuck me. I need the money before then. The reason....'well it takes time to type it in ther computer....??? WTF??? A major corporation can't email or fax???? the paperwork to corporate office so that I can get what is owed? Tis ok karma is a bitch In the meantime will file unemployment and see if I can get any other assistance. Yes I will look for work, but I am in VEGAS the HIGHEST unemployment city in the Country. We would just pack up and leave but what I am to get isn't enough. Wish we could

Monique Gata Duprees' Band Negro Childe
On Halloween this year Negro Childe will be performing at the Samhain Ball!! info is as follows: 128 West North Avenue Baltimore, MD 21217 $5 admission price 28 music acts haunted art show 4 areas of music and art Dance performances!! everything starts at 9pm.. We hope to see you there... Monique GATA Dupree will be signing autographs for the first 20 fans that arrive to her table at the event. for more info on negro childe, email us at info@moniquedupree.com To hear our music, go to www.revebnation.com/negrochilde

Love These Lyrics
I almost died but it felt greatFaking perfection wasn't worth the waitI may be easy, easy to hateBut you're so fucking easy, easy to breakCHORUS:I've got a sweet tooth and strawberry youthYou wanna be my licorice and misguided truthAnd right now I'll show you howI'm a beauty killer!!!! muahahahaha Jeffree Star is amazing. I love him

Feeling Distant.
With the advent of Twitter, Facebook, Myspace and even Fubar. I think more and more people are becoming more distant as the cause of it I remember when I was younger feeling more connected to people. Nowadays with the addictive addition of the internet I think it's becoming harder and harder for us to have meaningful and lasting relationships. no matter if they are friendships or even lovers. I think we all need to get closer to those whom we care about.

Bite Me
You bite my neck and i like it alot,you make it feel goodDAMN it really hits the spot!you whisper in my ear my beautiful lullaby,you say i shouldn't love youand i don't know why,your voice is so pure and so true,it's hard to believe that you love me too,every kiss you give so soft and delicious,it tastes so good, it's really nutritious,each bite you give me doesn't hurt one bit,each time you bite me i don't even throw a fit,you say my blood is so sweet and nice,to you it tastes just like sugar and spice,i love when you bite me, kiss me, hug me too,i especially love it when you say"I LOVE YOU"

Rest In Peace
I wish you were here again, we had so much fun towards the end,i cried for you every night,why did you have to see the light?it shouldn't have been time for you to go,there was so many thingsyou were suppose to know,you were suppose to live your life,and one day become a beautiful wife,you were the one i was able to look up to,all the things you helped me get through,your hugs i miss them very much,i would do most anythingjust to feel your touch,your laugh is all i wish to hear,whether it can be far or near,best friends we promised till the end,but we didn't get alot of time to spend,i wish you were here right now,if only i could bring you back some how,i would turn the hands of time back around,you're the best friend i had ever found,i miss you alot i really do,i miss you alot..and i love you too...

Hehe
I bend you over my knee slightly I spank you on your bottom very lightly I lift your hair above your ear I bite your neck softly dear I take your hair in my grip I pull it gently so it doesnt rip Whatever else you may desire I may try to get us higher

Angels Cry
The skies are dark & grey, it seems the sun just went away, the days have now turned to night all hope gone out of sight. I sit here and wonder, what it is I now see, something strange and sad to me, Teardrops falling from the sky I didn't know, Angels could cry. Here I am, cold and wet, trying to remember, while trying to forget, cries of pain all around, so we become deaf to hide the sound. I sit here and wonder, what I now see, something strange and sad to me, Teardrops falling from the sky, I didn't know Angels could cry.

Fever-induced Randomness
Yeah, I'm home sick today, and my brain is actin kinda funny, so I thought I'd (over)share. I found out on Tuesday that my daughter has a new best friend, whose mom I hated through most of high school because she was dating my crush. She's also a teacher at my kids' school. I am enjoying the guilty pleasure of watching Bill & Ted's Bogus Journey ("Catch ya later, God") and am amazed at how much I still enjoy the hell out of it. I really want to level and I'm doing a damned good job by myself polishing bling that I'm bookmarking to hit every day :P I still need to find 9 n00bs to bling I am touched by the number of friends on my list that have changed their names to pink (h) It's almost time for my kids to come home and I hope they wanna cuddle cuz I feel really cuddle-deprived That is all for now. Thank you for reading.

Oct 1 2010 Pt 3
Walking along the sandy beach I look on the horizon out of reach Boats are zooming on the ocean blue In the water people are playing too Waves are coming crashing down Sun is shining all around This is the spot we like to meet Everyday here is a treat The ocean is a wonderful place To get lost without a trace

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Welcome To Fubar By Quest
Fubar.com is an 18+ Website! Welcome to Fubar.com Once you get here. There are some things you may just want to read or look at: Fubar has a Fubar Bible http://fubar.com/bible.php to help you with most of what you will see while you're on the site Fubar also has a Support Lounge http://fubar.com/lounge/support available to you 24 hours a day 7 days a week! Some of the people you will find in Fubar Support are site Bouncers, Bouncers-in-training, and Lounge Moderators. If you need to find a Fubar Coder sometimes one is available in Fubar Support or you can send one of them a Private Message http://fubar.com/fubar-lounge-coder/b131753-532948 All the staff there are here to help make your time spent on Fubar.com enjoyable and helpful! --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Fubar gives you a creative way to meet new people online, and listen to music, or video chat, and more! Heres a l

Update On Me
Ive been a slacker on this one I know, oops, not like anyone reads blogs anyways. So update on me. I'm currently in the army on an Air Force base. Just got dropped from a Navy school on this base. Now I'm waiting on a new MOS. Dissapointed but I still have my Army career and 7 years til I hit 20 is not that long. Personal note. Dating a wonderful woman. We are in the new phase, so still learning about each other, but I love every second of it. I got really lucky this time, I can feel it. Things are turning around in my love life. I look forward to what the future holds. Got my first car yesterday, a 1997 Ford Mercury Grand Marquis. Very excited, and quite comfortable driving for a guy who hasnt driven in a year, only had his liscense for two, never owned a car and is a nervous driver. Hoping to take a road trip soon with my new baby. I feel 16 again. Other then that just staying out of trouble and living life.

And Another Oct 1 2010
You are my inspiration my reason Reason for wanting to succeed Succeed in life and in love Love a special commitment will be made Made to insure failure will fail Fail to tear us from eachother Eachother is what I cherish more More then anything I've ever experienced Experienced before in my life Life is complete with you by my side Side that waits for you always Always I will be here for you

New Oc 1 2010
I know have only one post here, but heres number two, Stepping out into the great unknown Hard to how much youve grown Exciting times are straight ahead Dreams about them in your bed Heart wants to skip a beat There is no such thing as retreat The future looks sunny and bright The day glows likes the soft moonlight

Hopeless Romance
On this warm October nightOne woman hides behind her vulnerable angelic eyesAnd her harsh moments of non-forgetful sorrowOne man ventures his heart of despairAnd his uncertainty There is fear of endless affliction in the air tonightHe is lostShe is lostThey are lostBut one day they will collide and their eyes will meetA purifying healing of lost lonely soulsHearts will mend togetherAnd become one

Quote
I love you. It’s not a weight you must carry around. I love you. It’s not a box that holds you in. I love you. It’s not a standard you have to bear. I love you. It’s not a sacrifice I make. I love you. It’s not a pedestal you are frozen upon. I love you. It’s not an expectation of perfection. I love you. It’s not my life’s whole purpose (or your’s). I love you. It’s not to make you change. I love you. It’s not even to make you love me. I love you. It’s as pure and simple as that. - Unknown

True Story...
Twas the night before elections Don't know who wrote this but it's pretty good. 'Twas the night before elections And all through the town Tempers were flaring Emotions all up and down! I, in my bathrobe With a cat in my lap Had cut off the TV Tired of political crap. When all of a sudden There arose such a noise I peered out of my window Saw Obama and his boys They had come for my wallet They wanted my pay To give to the others Who had not worked a day! He snatched up my money And quick as a wink Jumped back on his bandwagon As I gagged from the stink He then rallied his henchmen Who were pulling his cart I could tell they were out To tear my country apart! ' On Fannie, on Freddie, On Biden and Ayers! On Acorn

Things Worry Me
This flu bug I had hasn’t totally gone or I have a serious illness that’s gone undiagnosed. I am still tired a lot and feel as though I have just given birth and my body wont heal and am about to give birth again tomorrow. Have you ever felt like a small bumper car has battered off the backs of your legs for hours and then someone possibly a special person with no conscience has cracked a wooden tree branch off the top of your head? Have you ever woke up and felt as though you have been watered boarded all night in your sleep? Now to top it all off, I have a lump underneath my armpit, it is probably just a boil or something, I don’t know but I better not die of this. To make sure I don’t die I am going to the doctor and that can be a game of mental roulette depending on which doc you get. We have one doc who says “Mmmm, yes” over the top of you talking about your illness. So you constantly try to find a break in her making ‘MMmmm yes

Rules To Live And Love By..
I am sure some of you have seen this a million times over. Read it again. A Master's Creed ~ The Dominants Creed ~* Above all else a Dom cherishes Their submissive, in the knowledge that the giftthe submissive gives Them is the greatest gift of all. * A Dom is demanding and takes full advantage of the power given to Them, but knowshow to share the pleasure that comes from that precious gift.* A Dom is in control of Themself first and foremost, so that They may control others.* As a stern and demanding Dom, They can cause Their submissive to cry real tears.* As the consummate lover, They will then kiss the tears away, without stepping out of character.* In times of trouble, a Dom will leave the roles behind, to be a supportive friend and partner, neverforgetting that this is still a loving relationship between two caring individuals.* A Dom is quick to understand the differences between fantasy and reality.* A Dom would never ask a submissive to put Them before their career, or f

The Pirit In Me 2
It was two months since I meet Captain Ron and I was starting to think that I would never see him again but then after we docked there he was standing right in front of me with a huge grin on his face. He grabbed my hand and pulled me along to the hotel. I did not get to say a word before we were in a room and he was stripping me. I tried to stop him but he just slapped my hand and then went back to my cloths. When I was finally naked I stud there glaring at him he only smiled and started to strip himself. “What the hell do you think you are doing Ron, I have work to do. I docked to unload and get stuff not to have fun with you. Now let me get dressed and go back to my ship.” I went to leave but he stopped me by grabbing my hair and dragging me to the bed. He then jumped on the bed and wrestled me down to where I was pinned and could not get up. He then licked my neck and chest before biting my nipple. I scream but he stopped me by kissing me again.

The Dark Corner 2
When the next day came I did not want to go but I ended up driving there and waiting there like some kind of dog in heat. I felt dirty for wanting you again when I did not even like it the first time around. When I saw you walking up to me with a huge grin on your face; I wanted to slap you right then in there that my hand started to rise before I could think to stop it. You laughed and grabbed my hand before I even got to slap you. “Now now my sweet, no need to greet me like this. You liked it and you know you liked it or you would have fought me and not shown up. I am glad you did; now walk this way I live right around the corner from here.” You grab my hand and make me walk with you all the way to your house. I do not say anything because I am still trying to think of a way to get out of this without hurting myself. When we made it to your house I still had no idea what I was going to do and when you shut your door I knew it was too late to come up with

The Pirit In Me
I am walking across the deck of the Wolf lady when I notice there was another ship off the port side gaining on us. I told my men what I saw and watch as my first officer used the scope to see if they were friendly or not. His face turned white and I knew right then and there that they were not friendly. “Yo Alex what may they be, friend or not?” “There pirates but I do not know that flag Sir, I do not know if they are our friends or not. You better not let them know that you are a woman Captain or you might be hurt.” I make sure all my red hair is tucked under my hat so they can’t see it. I do not want them to know who I am. We keep going the way where going hopping that the other pirate ship goes away and leaves us alone. But when I looked again I noticed that they were still headed towards us and finally got to see the ships name, The Mad Joker, and knew that this was going to end badly. “Men I do not thi

The Dark Corner
You have always watched me from afar wanting me but never dare touch me let alone talk to me. But then one day you finally get the nerve to ask me for my name. You blush when I smile at you and tell you my name. You mumbled your name when I ask you for it. I smile and told you that it was nice to meat you, I go to walk away but you stop me by grabbing my hand. You ask me a few questions trying to make up excuses so you can hold my hand more. I answer your questions and I let you keep hold of my hand thinking nothing of it. But then you kissed it and I do not think you even realized that you had done it when you kept talking like nothing happened. I smile at you and tell you I have to run. “Please don’t leave. I have wanted to talk to you for some time. Please let me by you coffee or something else to drink so we can talk some more please.” I look at him and sigh. “Okay I have a few minutes I can spare you, I will drink some tea with yo

[its No Small Wonder]
that people hate tomatos.Seriously, the ones we're exposed to are canned, or ...blechkI swear 90% of the tomatos I've had in my life tasted more like ... wet nothing.Its a damn shame really, and apparently this area suffered a mater famine, soyou guessed it, prepackaged, mass shipped, color treated, barely mature (barely legal) tomatos in my salad.*sigh*I've had ketchup that tasted more like tomato.Man what I'd give for a big, bumpy, knobby, purple heriloom, bursting with seeds and actual flavor.Sure they look like a tumor. But that doesn't matter after you cut them. Also, I woke up today thinking about band tattoos.My beloved readers, I still think they're an awful idea.And I may have mocked you for this already.Here's why.Snoop Dogg is a voice actor on children's movies.Abba sucks.And Steve Tyler is going to be a judge on American Idol.That is the antithesis of rockand music.Sure, you never know when your beloved music gods are going to sell out.I meanTrent has done some shitty shit

Poem
Just one little peek into heaven, Is all I'm asking for today. I just want to know how she's doing, And heaven seems so far away. Is she playing on the clouds with angels? Is she laughing and running today? Does she miss me? I guess only she knows. Oh why does heaven seem so far away? If you just let me look for a moment, To catch a glimpse of her sweet smiling face, I promise I won't try to take her, I know, she's in a better place. Just one little peek into heaven, Is all I'm asking for today. I just want to know how she's doing, And heaven seems so far away...

Suicide Poem
Was I bewitched so by the thin red lineTo notice not that time released its holdAnd let pale Iris snip the silver twineTo steal sweet youth before it turned to gold.Existence now is not what I was told;No seraphim and harps to grace my ear,Just silence, painful silence, and the coldDiscomfort of my masochistic fear,So icy cold, yet somehow seems to searMy soul until the ache's too much to bare,As mortal life mirages now appear:Intangible are they; away they tear.Mistake, it was; the curtain fell too soonWhen razor's edge did charm me like the moon.

Alone Again
Alone Again Four o'clock in the morning Afraid to open my eyes Another day of grief, A day of fear. All alone I feel. I try to justify all the pain, All of this guilt before my eyes. Another day of confusion, A day of wondering. Is it ever just going to go away? All this pain that I feel, And all this anger, is it going to stay? Ten o'clock in the evening, Afraid of the nightmares. Again my breathing stops. All I can do is stare into the night. What is it that causes this feeling? Another night of crying, A night of hiding, Alone once again. My heart feels empty, And I can't cry another tear. Another day wasted on insecurity, A day of wonder. Is this ever going to end?

Qed
Just saw someone attempt to refute a "You're a point whore" dislike by saying that everything you do on Fubar is about points. I guessi t never occurred to this person that some people might actually do things here for the social interaction with friends. Thus, the original point is proven.

Breast Cancer Awareness!!!
OK If you know anything about me, you know I support the cause! Breast Cancer doesn't run in my immediate family but it is a cause that I have always felt very strongly about....Every year I try to make sure to get the word out especially during October. A little awareness goes a long way! So with that said please be aware that October is all about the Pink.Its breast cancer awareness month so please show your support and wear some pink!! If you are like me and you don't really like pink....make an exception this month! I do it every October I wear something pink to show support! Breast Cancer knows NO Age, Sex, Race or class it does NOT discriminate everyone is fair game! Women as well as men. please don't think, It can never happen to me, or to someone I love. Truth is it can and does happen to anyone. Please take the time to remind all those people you love so much and hold close to your heart that its that time of year again to get checked out so sit your Mom/

I Want You To Need Me
I want to be the face you see when you close your eyesI want to be the touch you need every single nightI want to be your fantasyAnd be your realityAnd everything betweenI want you to need meLike the air you breatheI want you to feel meIn everythingI want you to see meIn your every dreamThe way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need youI want you to need meLike I need youI want to be the eyes that look deep into your soulI want to be the world to youI just want it allI want to be your deepest kissThe answer to your every wishAnd all you ever needI want you to need meLike the air you breatheI want you to feel meIn everythingI want you to see meIn your every dreamThe way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need youI want you to need me(Need me)'Cause I need youMore than you could knowAnd I need youTo never never let me goAnd I need, to be deep inside your heartI just want to be everywhere you areI want to be the face you see when you close your eyes(Baby, huh)I want to be the

You Dislike Me! You Really, Really Dislike Me!
So the dislike button is great and all, and I really like that you can specify a reason. But I find the list of reasons you can give to me somewhat lacking. In no particular order, here are my suggestions for reasons that need to be added: Lack of Noodz Can't speel Femenine Hygeine Product You're friends with HIM/HER?? Said that one thing that one time More popular than me Won't cyber Won't give me your Yahoo What else am I missing?

Last Day!
Today is my last day on this job. My plan is to stay through lunch, going out with the guys one last time, then come back in and hand in my stuff and go. I wont say I am doing a lot of work, but I did do a little, PNG did need some help after all ;) I have the Deftones cranking and I am just surfing Fubar. Hey they said I couldn't take my time off, so I am doing a little in office vacation.

Why I Am Divorced...
Why I'm divorced . . . Last week was my birthday and I didn't feel very well waking up on that morning.. I went downstairs for breakfast hoping my wife would be pleasant and say, 'Happy Birthday!', and possibly have a small present for me. As it turned out, she barely said good morning, let alone ' Happy Birthday.' I thought.... Well, that's marriage for you, but the kids.... They will remember. My kids came bounding down stairs to breakfast and didn't say a word.. So when I left for the office, I felt pretty low and somewhat despondent. As I walked into my office, my secretary Jane said, 'Good Morning Boss, and by the way Happy Birthday ! ' It felt a little better that at least someone had remembered. I worked until one o'clock , when Jane knocked on my door and said, 'You know, It's such a beautiful day outside, and it is your Birthday, what do you say we go out to lunch, just you and me..' I said,

Bed Of Roses Lyrics
Bed Of Roses lyricsSongwriters: Bongiovi, Jon; Sitting here wasted and wounded at this old pianoTrying hard to capture the moment this morning I don't know'Cause a bottle of vodka is still lodged in my headAnd some blond gave me nightmares, think that she's still in my bedAs I dream about moviesThey won't make of me when I'm deadWith an ironclad fist I wake up and french kiss the morningWhile some marching band keeps it's own beat in my headWhile we're talkingAbout all of the things that I long to believeAbout love, the truth, what you mean to me and the truth isBaby you're all that I needI wanna lay you down in a bed of rosesFor tonight I'll sleep on a bed of nailsI wanna be just as close as your Holy Ghost isAnd lay you down on a bed of rosesWell I'm so far away the step that I take's on my way homeA king's ransom in dimes I'd give each nightTo see through this pay phoneStill I run out of time or it's hard to get throughTill the bird on the wire flies me back toYou

Another Tiny Angel...
Forgive me if I'm not all fun and smiles this morning. Another beautiful lil 8 year old girl lost her battle with cystic fibrosis last night. They've got to fix this. It's madness. It's horrendous.......

Dislike!
I freaking LOVE the dislike button. When some moron is in my shout (like the dude now asking if I have NSFW pics and asking if I can add him), I can call him an asshat from the convenience of my shout box! :D Best. Idea. Ever. Oh and when I informed him there is free porn online, he said he knows, but he just wants to see my beauty. LMFAO yeah okay, buddy, good luck with that.

Why Woman Cry!?
Emo Images at ImageHousing.com "A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman , " she told him. "I don't understand , " he said. His Mom just hugged him and said , "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father ,"Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man , still wondering why women cry... Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone , he asked , "God , why do women cry so easily?" God said, "When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up , and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity

Sorry If You See Me...
I need help because apparently I put my photos in another album and they disappeared forever and my number count didnt change, so they are somewhere there?? Whatever I am just gonna upload them again and have doubles maybe?..Lol

There Is No Such Thing As 'part-cherokee.
"There is no such thing as 'part-Cherokee.' Either you're Cherokee or you're not. It isn't the quantity of Cherokee blood in your veins that is important, but the quality of it . . . your pride in it. I have seen full-bloods who have virtually no idea of the great legacy entrusted to their care. Yet, I have seen people with as little as 1/500th blood quantum who inspire the spirits of their ancestors because they make being Cherokee a proud part of a their everyday life."

Bubble Baths & Ball Flicking
Bubble baths and Ball flicking..ya you read that correctly... but I am getting a little ahead of myself.. today was a very weird day but mildly productive... me & my boyfriend Jason went through the entire garage and threw out all of the stuff that we didn't need or tat got ruined from it being stored for so long... I felt kinda like I could identify with the horders on that tv show... but on a much smaller scale ofcourse.It was kind of sad seeing all of my stuff ruined and picked over... and awesome at the same time to briefly see things that I haven't seen for years... and mildly liberating to be free of most of it.The day is coming to a close and I decided to let calgon take away the stress of the day... Searing hot water with petal scented calgon in it andsweet floral body wash turning the candle-lit tub into a nirvana of sorts.The door wisks open and before you know it my boyfriend is rocking the warm solitude of my tubby time. We were making jokes about the closed quarters and I

The Hydaway Family
to the hydaway family. i know your out there and i allready bumped into a few of them. hopefully we can bs. like old times. even though i am not a member or even what i onces was, but i still haungeout in the old hydaway lounge keeping up with old times.

Letters From The Earth, Pizza Kisses From Heaven
No, my son Jeffrey is not dead (thank the Lord!) but this morning when I brought him and Sarah to Grandma’s before I had to leave for work he and Sarah starting digging into their leftover cheese pizza from Space Aliens. I thought aloud that cold pizza’s a typical college meal (and it combines all four food groups even better than Bill Cosby says chocolate cake does), then I had to say good-bye and Jeffrey’s sitting in Grandpa’s easy chair and puckers up for what he called a “pizza kiss!” Yes, I could smell it on them both, and that was my God moment for the morning. I needed one because today’s the end of the month and Martha had gone through our bills and what we’ll earn and it seems to me just as quickly go out. But I take it as more criticism, like hey, I’m the head of the household, we ought to not owe anybody anything! And I’m responsible for that. I needed Martha’s phone call at about twelve-thirty today,

Its No Big Secret
its no big secret that i used to have a profile here. hell you might allready know me. "~`Slo Mo~` The Love Moogle~` ~~love jessa~`" but its been a while sinces i was back. so i decided to start a new one. i think i will be more private than normal. but either way i haven't forgotton about, my freinds. family. fans lovers and haters. lol. so i decided to come back for a while. and yes i do work at a adult Prision currectional faucility.lol i admit its something i wanted to be. but it has its excitment and benifits. so hopefully get to see the old freinds, and of course make a few here and there.

Smoking Is Bad Mmkay
I just caught this article on Yahoo, and couldn't help but laugh out loud. Impressionable utes weren't the only ones watching when Cincinnati Reds owner Bob Castellini (right) passed out victory cigars and then lit up after his team clinched the NL Central title at Great American Ball Park on Tuesday. Also watching at home on television were at least five whistle-blowers who noted that the Reds were violating Ohio's indoor-smoking ban. They called Cincinnati's health department to report the team and now the Cincinnati Enquirer reports the club is under investigation. In case you're wondering, the answer is yes — I'm extremely sorry to report that there are people living among us who would actually do this. [Video: Watch Cincinnati's division-clinching home run] Look, my non-smoker self enjoys big gulps of clean indoor air as much as anybody. I can't, however, imagine what kind of situational misery would make someone watch a one-time free-for-all scene where alcohol

A Compliment
Hello Fellow Directors, Officers, Volunteers for Debbullan. I received the below compliment today and immediately thought of each of you. This compliment belongs to all of us that have worked hard to raise attention to Hepatitis C over the past 7 years. Without your help, guidance and selfless efforts I would only be this tiny voice with little impact. Through Debbullan Inc. we have made great impact for the HCV community. When we started there were a handful of organizations in the US with little impact. Little information on the web (much of it incorrect), barely if no, world supported effort trying to work to speak as one. After 2007, and our 4th awareness event, Everything is Possible 2007, where we placed awareness of HCV in front of over 20,000 people in 13 countries, the cause of awareness took off. I saw a shift beginning back then. Today there is a monument of information about HCV on the web, (and now in the media as well), many organizations vying for attention

Grrr!
My cousin just rang me at 2.52am saying she had wone 450 pounds at the casino!!! And I was like 'biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitch!'. Lulz. I NEVER ever win when I go so I just stopped playing.:@ Well I guess I'm happy she won cos now she can use that to pay for the holiday to Venice we're all going on in November! (yay). Although I am just slightly miffed, she is the only person I know who for a FACT has won more than she's lost at the casino. *Kicks rocks* I tend to lose...ALL the bloody time. I'm just real unlucky. Well she's cooking me din dins tomorrow anyway so I guess it's ok.:)

Suicide Is My Demise...
The wind gusts through the open window, heavy velvet curtains swaying back and forth. Sitting in my chair, with a phone in one hand, willing it to ring. A note in the other, telling me she left me for someone else, I get up and go to the bedroom, and pull out my gun, a .38 special, I look at it long and hard. I move on to the bathroom, a cabinet full of anti depressants. I grab several bottles, guess you didn't need them since I am out of your life. Moving to the kitchen I get the bottle of jack I keep in the freezer, no need for coke, it is the chaser tonight. I then move out to the moonlit back yard, to the gazebo I built for you and sit down with my pills, my gun, my drink and my misery. Losing you is more than I can take, and this is the only way to make you happy I tell myself. Cause if I am gone I can't follow you, then I begin to take shots with pills in the bottom, and slip away into oblivion...

Fml
whelp, changes to be made. im going to have to clean out the spare room, off the garage at my dads to have a place to stay..... gonna be fuckin hot in there, i cant even remeber if there is a window or not. i dont fucking care anymore. its likely better then living here in these conditions..... gotta get my shit together and leave all these fucking people behind me in the dust where they belong. i have no real family. never really did anyways. guess its just official now.

Fantasy
Bring forth your warmth upon me Flesh intertwined Seductive and slow Passion unyielding A sensual flow Scent of sweet seduction Lingers in air Fantasies fulfilled Ecstasy in what we share.. Tantalize the senses Beyond whats ever been A ravenous indulgence Of love ..Of lust ..Of sin

Life On The Lake
I live in a small, non-descript house. It isn't anything special, and wouldn't cause you to look twice or even notice it really, in the middle of nowhere. Literally. I am 15 minutes from the town my address says I live in. You are not within walking distance to anything except the dirt road that brings you to my house. I am alone out here, 9 months out of the year. In the summer, we have neighbours. Transplants from the city getting away to the country for summer fun. It isn't even that big a city actually. The population is under 250,000. My small town has a population of less than 1200. The town lines go far and wide though, as most small towns do, in order to afford conveniences like trash pick-up and such. It takes about 45 minutes to run the highway from one end of my town to the other. There isn't much in between. It grows quiet here, after a summer of family and friends visiting, boat rides, tubing and waterski lessons,of frog hunting and tadpole catching,

Fucking Pigs!
2:16pm reply hmmm: Hey cutie... will you rate my NSFW pics with brutal honesty please? cancel Chat 2:20pm more To hmmm: thats like the 5th time you have said that to me and my answer will always be the same .............NO! cancel Chat 2:21pm more To hmmm: I want to see a naked man i will wait for my man to come home from work... cancel Chat

I Knew It Was Coming
I knew it was coming,but crap it still makes me sick :( My old gal , my yellow lab "Daisy",passed today. I am broken hearted,I am still grieving over,my kitty "Spike". They sent me a sorry driver today for therapy that drove like a maniac,that was so nosy and annoying ,when hubby told me this news over the phone.Grrrrr... I didn't want to talk to this stranger and wanted to grieve quietly while he slung me through the damn curves.I am hurt and mad this evening.I am also not a big fan of people. just needed really to vent a little...you know how I am when I vent..not sure if I will delete this

Funny!
WHY I'M DEPRESSED Over five thousand years ago, Moses said to the children of Israel, "Pick up your shovels, mount your asses and camels, and I will lead you to the promised Land!" Nearly seventy-five years ago (when Welfare was introduced), Roosevelt said "Lay down your shovels, sit on your asses and light up a Camel, THIS is the Promised Land!" Today, Obama has stolen your shovel, Taxed your asses. raised the price of Camel's and mortgaged the Promised Land I was so depressed last night thinking about Health Care plans, the failing economy,the wars, lost jobs, savings, Social Securityretirement funds, etc...I called a suicide hotline. I had to press 1 for English. I was connected to a call center in Pakistan. I told them I was suicidal. They got excited and asked if I could drive a truck.....

Another Page
She'd met him at a party. She had never been the one to love 'em and leave 'em. She felt a connection to every person she ever went to that level with. But tonight was different. Every logical thought in her head told her this wasn't right. However, her body screamed another story. She wanted him so bad she couldn't convince herself out of it. So here she was, in his house, and ultimately in his control. He couldn't possibly know how much power he inadvertantly had over her. His house was beautiful. The living room was so plush, warm and inviting. Not at all what she had imagined. He flicked on a switch across the room and soft light illuminaed the entire downsairs area. "Make yourself at home," he said as he started a coxy fire in his shiny marble fireplace. She found a comfy little corner on the sofa and tried her damnedest to relax. The fire was almost hypnotic. All of a sudden he was sitting down next to her with two glasses of wine that he must have gott

A Page From My Mind....
Soft lips. Warm, wet, and oh so soft. Each sweet pucker made her tingle. His breath was hot as he kissed her. It was as if he was trying to transfer his own passion to her. It was working. She graciously excepted his erotic invitation. Butterflies tickled her stomach just like she was a giddy teenager again. The same urgency you feel when you're fooling around and your parents are in the next room, ready to catch you at a moments notice. His tongue swirled around hers in the most amazing way. Slow. Deep. Sharp, yet gentle. She felt her breath being sucked out of her as she took away his. Her mind drifted as her body started to lose all resistance. He took a firm grip on her curvasous hips as he pulled her close to him. He slowly guided her against the wall and pressed himself closer still to her. He ran his fingers through her hair as she massaged his neck. The both gasped for air, they felt as if they were in a suana. She stared deep into his eyes. He could feel en

His Lil Red
You lay in the big rumpled bed still in a deep sleep, one hand gently stroking and pinching your nipples, the other stroking your already hard and wet clit... Your long red hair a sexy cloud on the pillow, waiting for my big hands to tangle in the long silky strands. You hear my whisper in your ear and increase the hardness of the pinching and twisting of your small sensitive nipples, causing a muffle moan of pleasure. You don't want the painters to hear... But you hear my voice - "Let them hear you moan, let them hear how hungry you are..." your whimpers of distress make me smile... "My naughty, nasty lil one wants to be fucked with all these men watching, don't you?" Your head shakes 'no' even as the juices overflow from your dripping shaven cunt, dripping down your fingers, aching for the savage invasion of my hard, thick cock.... Suddenly you are startled , awakened by a sound in the bedroom, your eyes fly open, landing on my tall frame filling the doorway. I have return

"burn The Bridge"
its a far flung dream to die in, cant wake up & the scars we leave behind us, aren't enough to somehow free us & the tragedy between us, is a mountain we cant climb together we keep getting lost inside the rhyme..... this is not the ending just the start everythings something, yet your not above me, im under here bubbling, sweet the explosion sing witness the bitterness, shattering ending bliss, only thing left to achieve is a reason to be....FREEEE!!! burn the bridges & try to tie the lies together in verses of worship and pain....all that remains you dont own me....died in a dream....you dont own me....or who im supposed to be this reality, sobriety can leave you blind....your insincerity can brun the bridge you leave behind

Room Not Go Into They Dont Help New Ppl The Kick Them Out
my bf went too club upper level and had cap lock on hes new the whole computer thing. they gave him warnings but by i got the computer to help take off the cab lock off. they had kick up out and will told that was new they got rude.. so just keep that in mind if you are new and go into CLUB UPPER LEVEL Jenna and Steven

Mel Maintenance
I just got this email that reads: "MEL will be performing maintenance at 2:30pm. Please log out before that time. I am sorry for any inconvenience this may cause." I am stupified. Help me out here. Does this mean my FuWife wants to have sex with me at 2:30 pm sharp and wants me to log off? She didn't leave me any messages this morning. I don't know what to do damnit!!!! Where is Tutti? Maybe she can help me.

Lounges
Do u ever wonder why we have lounges? its to make friends, have fun and most lounges listen to great tunes so if u dont have a lounge,,,check one out...support others on fubar and meet new people and have good times Ty fubar lounge owner roxie http://fubar.com/lounge/74789 RoxieRays vegas Hideaway

Random Lyric Crazy Attack Go!
Yeah, I know, I really need to get around to writing blogs with actual content. But I'm lazy. In lieu of real content, here are random lyrics from songs that I'm listening to today! I was going to post these in my status, but then I realized that's annoying. They're in no particular order, and are pretty much just whatever lines happen to jump out at me. If you can guess them all without using the Googles, you get a cookie. "She'll tell you she's an orphan, after you meet her family." "In the land of a thousand guilts and poured cement." "Don't want to end up a cartoon in a cartoon graveyard." "I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch." "What will change us, or will we mess up our only chance to connect with a dream?" "But all I ever learned from love is how to shoot at someone who outdrew you." (Same song as a previous one, but different artist(s).) "Flags and mental jewelry's all I know." "Pretty girls digging prettier women." "Minding the gap since 1996." "He's just

A Slave Is
A slave will never be truly happy or content in her life if she is un-owned. A slave's most profound freedom is found within her Master's chains. Within these chains, she is free to live as she is destined to live to serve and please, and to be pleased in return for the privilege to serve and please her Master. A slave should never think of herself as a weak person for it takes a strong female to commit to the drive inside her, to serve, to obey and to please a Master. A slave chooses willingly to be her Master's property. As a slave is her Master's property and an object of great value she is an instrument Master will use to draw out His pleasures. Above all else a slave's primary and foremost focus shall be to please her Master, hoping that her Master finds her pleasing in all that she does, whether she is in her Master's presence or not. All of a slave's choices shall be based upon whether or not they will please her Master. A slave and a slave's behavior are a direct reflection

Enquiring Minds Want To Know.....
ENQUIRING MINDS WANT TO KNOW WELL WE KEEP GETTING ASKED WHERE WE ARE AND WHY WE ARE NOT AROUND AS MUCH ANYMORE.THE SIMPLE FACT IS KARIZMA AND I HAVE BEEN LIVING TOGETHER FOR ALMOST 3 MONTHS NOW. WE ARE CONCENTRATING ON OUR REAL LIVES INSTEAD OF ONLINE STUFF. SHOULD MAKE SENSE RIGHT??? NOW THAT WE ARE LIVING TOGETHER WE DON'T REALLY NEED TO BE ON HERE AS MUCH ANYMORE. GRANTED WE DO LIKE TO COME IN TO CHECK IN WITH OUR FRIENDS AND WHAT NOT. NOW TO CLEAR UP A FEW THINGS. YES THERE ARE COUNTLESS MUMMS THAT HAVE BEEN POSTED IN THE LAST YEAR FROM A 3RD PARTY BRINGING PRIVATE BUSINESS FOR ALL OF FUBAR TO SEE HEY MORE POWER TO YA IF YOU NEED TO AIR ALLLL THE DIRTY LAUNDRY. BUT UMM NOT TO BE MEAN BUT I MEAN ITS BEEN A YEAR ISN'T IT TIME TO JUST MOVE ON? SOMETIMES RELATIONSHIPS DON'T WORK OUT AND ITS BEST TO GO SEPARATE WAYS BUT TO CONTINUE TO GO ON AND ON ABOUT IT AFTER A YEAR MAKES YA LOOK WELL UMM UNHAPPY? NOW AS I STATED BEFORE, SOME MUMMS HAVE BEEN POSTED AND WEL

Breast Cancer-the Fight For A Cure
As many of you know, October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. But as so few of you know, I tragically lost my own mother to the disease in February of this year. I would like to help raise awareness not just for women but for MEN too. See, every 3 minutes, a WOMAN is diagnosed with this horrible disease, and every 13 minutes a woman DIES because of it. But what you DON'T know, is that an expected 1,500 MEN will be diagnosed with breast cancer this year and sadly, 400 will DIE from this horrible disease. We need to FIGHT BACK!!!! So please, if you care enough to support this cause with me, join the fight by turning your profile picture PINK or just put a PINK ribbon up on it, to show all that you DO in fact care and want to support the cause. You will never know just how much this means to myself and oh so many others faced with this battle. Please show us that we are NOT alone?? To those of you who already have shown your support, a big HUG and an even bigger

Friendship .:)
IN THE BRIDGE OF FRIENDSHIP , YOU NEVER KNOW WHO TRULY CARES UNTIL THE ROPE IS CUT AND YOU MIGHT FALL.. A HAND I S THERE REACHING FOR YOU ..JUST GRAB IT AND YOU'LL BE MINE FOR SURE .. FRIENDSHIP ~ Is being there when you know something is up in this world today ,It is mainly about yourself ..but you try and act becoz you need something but you are not truely there when they need you there is no real friendship..

Taken Back
My breath catches and my lips part as a moan softly escapes me. The way my flesh reacts to the memory of your touch and my heart races at the thought of your voice, it is so intense my eyes close to the world around me. I return to the feel of your fingertips on my cheek for the first time and the sound of your whispering voice in my ear. Every nerve in me is on fire as I relive the moment your lips caressed mine. As your tongue sweeps across my lip as soft as a feather and my fingers grasped your shoulders. Your hand moved down my body and as your thumb passes slowly over the roundness of my breast my body arches into you, a hunger so savage and so comsuming. Pulling me close I feel the need in you matches mine. They way I begged you with my eyes was stronger than any words I could have uttered. You continue through the night to take me place I have never been, and will only be in my memories......

Approaching Girls
Why is it that most girl's are afraid to approach other girls if they like them? I just don't get it! I know if I am out and see a girl that I think is beautiful I would go up to her and talk to her. I have no problem approaching other girls if I am attracted to them. Are girls just scared to be rejected thinking the girl is straight or just not into them? Or maybe its a height issue! I mean what is the worst that could happen that the girl say's no. So what if she does! I just know I am kind of tired of approaching other girls; It would just be nice if a girl would approach me for a change. I am not picky when it comes to dating. Ill date a girl if she is femme like me or butch or black or white. So any reason why girls are scared ?

Yes ..
Some people Are Sweet At first ..Always a time for you at first Serious At first but why do some people change after you"LEARN TO LOVE THEM SO MUCH! " maybe all romantic moments only happen at first ..but NEVER LAST..how sad but its difinitely TRUE!...

Raaage *cough Hack Cough*
So yea, this flu bug has finally caught up with me, and I feel like walking death. Very annoying, and is going to make this weekend a pain in the ass, as I have Guard Duty. Unfortunately, this isn't what is making me want to kill a man... I have the same financial advisor for school as another individual some of you know on here. ;) Well, guess what....he didn't get my documentation turned in to the VA in time it seems, and I did not get my money by today....this is very bad, as I use this money to pay my mortgage for the month....which ends today... To make matters worse, I have an appt. with my student advisor in about an hour, and she shares the same office as him. I'm going to have a tough time, not unleashing on this fucker when I see him. Not many things make me see red these days, but fucking with my money and livelihood is at the top. **Update** So, I talked with the finance guy at school, and found out he actually did not mess up, the VA had to amend my status

Kinda Weird This One :(
Im not sure how to take this or even what to make of it. The other mornin maybe 10 mins before I awoke, in my Dream I was runnin through a corn field, with my arms full of what I can only assume is sweet corn. Anyway, when i was crossin the road back to the house, out of the corner of my eye to the right, i caught this Black shadowy figure of a dog. But this wasnt any normal dog. An much to big by the looks of it to be a normal Wolff. It stood (on all fours) at my mid~section, jus beloew my chest. Thick furred, and as black as the night herself. This, figure was in my neighbors yard, middle of her lawn. As i started to take another step, out of the corner of my eye, I saw one right to the left of me. I mean I could reach out and pet it, thats how close it was. They were both identical in color and in height. They were eye to eye with me, almost. Now the only things Ive ever seen that big were in the movies, and that would be the Lyconthrope. NOt sure what alot of you think, but i fo

Since You've Been Gone (draft 1)
The snow falls ever so softly On your face So innocent, so sweet The time that we spent together long ago I remember like it was yesterday When we used to go and sit by the swings And when the music was on how we used to sing Where’d you go? I dunno All I know is I have missed you The way you laugh and snort Ok you didn’t snort But I’ve missed you Even though you left and disappeared I have held on to everything even the fear That you ain’t never coming back When you left I lost track of time Lost track of myself Since you’ve been gone Not once did you tell me what I did wrong So I decided to write this song Things will never be the same again Sometimes I try to count to 10 And hope it will all be over soon That you will come back to me I scream 1 to 3 As I close my eyes and clinch my fists Everything around me starts to twist Outside all the trees Fall right back down from where they grew On the same place where you mad

I'm Tired Now (draft 1)
I’m tired now Sitting alone here in my room Writing another letter to you It’s different in a kind of way Maybe now you will talk to me My boredom stretches beyond the realms of possibility Ask me to come home to you I’m tired Sitting alone here in this room Thinking of you and me And how it could be Maybe we could speak on the phone But I think my words would stumble Across the blue plane of nothingness I’m tired Tired of being second best Not by choice but by force I should not tell you how I feel Keep my thoughts to myself Locked away safely from you I’m tired And we have not spoken in days My gift to you is my departure

Condoms Lol
A girl asks her boyfriend to come over Friday night and have dinner with her parents. Since this is such a big event, the girl announces to her boyfriend that after dinner, she would like to go out and make love for the first time. Well, the boy is ecstatic, but he has never had sex before, so he takes a trip to the pharmacist to get some condoms. The pharmacist helps the boy for about an hour. He tells the boy everything there is to know about condoms and sex. At the register, the pharmacist asks the boy how many condoms he'd like to buy, a 3-pack, 10-pack, or family pack. The boy insists on the family pack because he thinks he will be rather busy, it being his first time and all. That night, the boy shows up at the girl's parents house and meets his girlfriend at the door. "Oh, I'm so excited for you to meet my parents, come on in!" The boy goes inside and is taken to the dinner table where the girl's parents are seated. The boy quickly offers to say grace and bows his head. A minute

Cajun Shrimper
A Cajun Shrimper wants a job cleaning up the oil spill, but the BP Foreman won't hire him until he passes a little math test.Here is your first question, the foreman said. 'Without using numbers, represent the number 9.''Without numbers?' T...he Cajun says, 'Dat is easy.' And proceeds to draw three trees. 'What's this?' the boss asks'Ave you got no brain? Tree and tree and tree make nine,' says the Cajun.'Fair enough,' says the boss. 'Here's your second question. Use the same rules, but this time the number is 99.'The Cajun stares into space for a while, then picks up the picture that he has just drawn and makes a smudge on each tree. 'Ere you go.' The boss scratches his head and says, 'How on earth do you get that to represent 99?''Each of DA trees is dirty now. So, it's dirty tree, and dirty tree, and dirty tree. Dat is 99.'The boss is getting worried that he's going to actually have to hire this Cajun, so he says, 'All right, last question. Same rules again, but repre

There Could Be Worse Things I Could Do
A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope propped up prominently on the center of the bed. It was addressed, "Mom." With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and read the letter with trembling hands: Dear Mom: It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had to elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you. I've been finding real passion with Ahmed and he is so nice-even with all his piercings, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it's not only the passion Mom, I'm pregnant and Ahmed said that we will be very happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with me and that's now one of my dreams too. Ahmed taught me that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone and we'll be growing it for us and trading it with his friends for all the cocai

Another Song I Can't Let Go Of
I never said I'd lie and wait forever If I died, we'd be together I can't always just forget her But she could try At the end of the world Or the last thing I see You are Never coming home Never coming home Could I? Should I? And all the things that you never ever told me And all the smiles that are ever ever... Ever... Get the feeling that you're never All alone and I remember now At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies She dies At the end of the world Or the last thing I see You are Never coming home Never coming home Could I? Should I? And all the things that you never ever told me And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me Never coming home Never coming home Could I? Should I? And all the wounds that are never gonna scar me For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me If I fall If I fall (down) At the end of the world Or the last thing I see You are Never coming home Never coming home Never coming home Never coming home And all the things that you never ever told

*suicide Note
To Whom It May ConcernThis may be the last thingYou wanted to learnBut I'm tired of the painTired of the fightingSick of everyone takingBut no one compromisesI fought the best that I couldI gave it my allBut you just all sat thereAnd watched me fallAll the sleepless nightsSpent aloneYou left me behindIn a broken homeI never wanted all thisToo much on my plateThis razorblade against my skinHas sealed my fateI'm too far gone nowIt's far too lateYou had your chanceYou showed you didn't careSo now you can deal with lifeWithout me thereI hope the words are hard to findAnd make you feel ashamedBecause once the truth is outYou won't forget my nameSo save your tearsPlease don't cryI wanted it to end this wayI wanted to dieThis letterThe last thing I ever wroteI hope somebody finds thisMy suicide note.

Is This What Love Is?
Is love the desire -- no, the need -- to be with that person, whatever the cost? Does it cause the rise of rage when you see that person with another? Does it make you ache to hold them, to whisper things that sound foreign and strange to your tongue? Does it make you wish for the things you know can never be? I haven't the answers. In all that I have learned over the years, no one has ever mentioned a force such as this.

Late Night Suprise
It was 3 O'clock in the morning when i was woken up by my boyfriend Monroe kissing my neck 'whats this for?' i asked slightly breathless, my pussy already hot, i loved it when he kissed my neck. 'I woke up, couldn't sleep and...' he kissed me again and i felt his erection press againt me, unhindered by clothing 'I'm hard' he said.He pulled my nightgown over my head so that i was naked just like him. he began to kiss downmy body, sucking at nipples taking them deep into his mouth, then carrying on down, he reached my pulls and licked my lips he parted them with his fingers and found my wetness. he slid a finger inside me while he licked and sucked on my clit. 'oh god, don't stop' i moaned. it didnt take him long to make me come.He came back up and kissed me forcing his tongue into my mouth so that i could taste myself. 'Can i fuck you now?' he asked. without even answering him i kissed him pasionately and pulled him close to me, i felt his rock hard penis enter me. he let out a shudderi

To All The Dj's Out There.
Much respect, nomatter where you are or what lounge/station you work for.DJ'ing is indeed a calling, and it takes a rare breed to spin tunes for the teeming masses.I tip my hat to you, fellow masters/mistresses of the airwaves!

Really????.......how Sad
NJ student secretly taped having sex kills himself // // Buzz up! 16 votes Share retweet EmailPrint By ERIN VANDERBERG and GEOFF MULVIHILL, Associated Press Writers Erin Vanderberg And Geoff Mulvihill, Associated Press Writers – 46 mins ago PISCATAWAY, N.J. – A college student jumped to his death off a bridge a day after authorities say two classmates surreptitiously recorded him having sex with a man in his dorm room and broadcast it over the Internet. Rutgers University freshman Tyler Clementi jumped from the George Washington Bridge last week, said his family's attorney, Paul Mainardi. Police recovered a man's body Wednesday afternoon in the Hudson River just north of the bridge, and authorities were trying to determine if it was Clementi's. ABC News and The Star-Ledger of Newark reported that Clementi left on his Facebook page on Sept. 22 a note that read: "Jumping off the gw bridge sorry." On Wednesday, his Facebook page was accessible only to friends. Two Rutg

Salute
I stand here with my arm raised with a tear in my eye.And I dare to look around I see hundreds of people just like me trying to hide our fear. I have my laces tied and my shirt buttoned.As I wait my turn, turn to board the plane to take me far away. I’m afraid of dying at the hands of my enemy. Then at the distance I see the flag start to rise and I think of my country at what these people have done.I stand firm and wipe the tear from my eye. I think of all my brothers and sisters that died on that day that day that shocked the world.As my fear starts to fade it gets replaced by pride and anger.I look into the sky the flag is fully raised.As I start to board the plane I see all the faces angry and sad for all our brothers and sisters.And all I can do is pray my decision was right and I can change the world in this small way.And I hope this simple American solider can find his way back home.

Laughter
It can make you happy and warm insideIt puts a smile on your face and fills you full of joyIt can also tare you down and fill you full of angerIt can turn love into hate in a dangerous wayIt makes you want to hate them all and treat them exactly that wayThey tell you that laughter is a good thing to do every day… but they never tell you how it feels to be laughed at It was fun at first then it is you that are surrounded by them all Laughing ,PointingWith every one staring your way you can try to hideJust about any whereBut you will never go far enoughBecause that feeling stays

The Drink
I think I drank, drank too much its going to my headMy vision blurs and I jump the gun I can’t stop it nowI don’t know how it got this far but I wish it would slowMy head is swimming and my money gone; where did it all go?I find my self standing in a tux, with black and white aroundIt is too late I said my vows, and as it clears I can see, it is a wedding and its target was meI drank to much and said to little, it seems like my funeralNow in my new found happiness is more like my personal hellI drank, I drank to much