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Pizza Meat Balls
Pizza Meatballs 2 pounds ground beef 2 cups seasoned bread crumbs 1 cup milk 1/4 cup dried minced onion 2 tsp. garlic salt 1/4 tsp. pepper 1 block ( 8 ounces ) mozzarella cheese 1/3 cup all purpose flour 1/4 cup cooking oil 2 jars (28 ounces each) pizza sauce In a bowl, combine the first six ingredients just until mixed. Shape into 48 small meatballs. Cut mozzarella into 48 cubes, 1/2 inch inch. Push a cube into the center of each meatball, covering the cheese completely with meat. Roll lightly in flour. In a large skillet, cook meathballs in oil until browned. Drain. Add pizza sauce and bring to a boil. Reduce heat, cover and simmer for 25 to 30 minutes or until meatballs are no longer pink. Serve over rice. (You might be able to use cheese cubes that you can buy already cubed to make these too. They are usually like cheddar and Monterey Jack. (Or with Jalapeno cheese could be called surprise meatballs!)

Safety Pin Lighthouses
Materials Needed: * 11 - 1 1/16 inch Safety Pins * 1 - 1 3/4 inch Safety Pin * Seed Beads (see picture below for colors needed) Instructions: Follow this pattern and the basic directions on the safety pin jewelry page to complete this project. Each number column represents a pin; for example, your first pin will have 10 blue beads on it. Your second pin will have 7 blue beads, 1 white bead, and 2 red beads. When you thread these beaded pins onto your larger pin, start with pin number 1.

Basic Safety Pin Jewelry
Crafts- Safety Pin Jewelry Basic Instructions You bend the back end of the safety pin just wide enough to string your drops through all the way to the back. They hang side by side with the pattern, and the safety pin then attaches to "whatever" :)

Campfire Safety Pin Jewelry
Materials Needed: * 14 - 1 1/16 inch Safety Pins * 1 - 2 inch Safety Pin * Seed Beads (see picture below for colors needed) Instructions: Follow this pattern and the basic directions on the safety pin jewelry page to complete this project. Each number column represents a pin; for example, your first pin will have 10 black beads on it. Your second pin will have 6 black beads, 2 tan beads, 1 black bead, and 1 brown bead on it. When you thread these beaded pins onto your larger pin, start with pin number 1.

Crab Safety Pin Jewelry
Materials Needed: * 14 - 1 1/16 inch Safety Pins * 1 - 2 inch Safety Pin * Seed Beads (see picture below for colors needed) Instructions: Follow this pattern and the basic directions on the safety pin jewelry page to complete this project. Each number column represents a pin; for example, your first pin will have 10 light blue beads on it. Your second pin will have 6 light blue beads, 1 red beaad, and then 3 more light blue beads. When you thread these beaded pins onto your larger pin, start with pin number 1.

Jellyfish Safety Pin Jewelry
Jellyfish Beaded Safety Pin Use this free Jellyfish pattern to make beaded safety pin jewelry. Materials Needed: * 14 - 1 1/16 inch Safety Pins * 1 - 2 inch Safety Pin * Seed Beads (see picture below for colors needed) Instructions: Follow this pattern and the basic directions on the safety pin jewelry page to complete this project. Each number column represents a pin; for example, your first pin will have 10 light blue beads on it. Your second pin will have 2 light blue beads, 3 pink beads, 4 light blue beads, and 1 pink bead on it. When you thread these beaded pins onto your larger pin, start with pin number 1.

Cross Safety Pin Jewelry
Materials Needed: * 7 -1 1/16 inches Safety Pins * 1 - 7/8 or 1 inch Safety Pin * Seed Beads (see picture below for colors needed) Instructions: Follow this pattern and the basic directions on the safety pin jewelry page to complete this project. Each number column represents a pin; for example, your first pin will have 3 light green beads, 3 white beads, and then 4 more light green beads. Your second pin will have 3 light green beads, 1 white bead, 1 yellow bead, 1 white bead, and then 4 more light green beads. When you thread these beaded pins onto your larger pin, start with pin number 1.

Dolphin Safety Pin Jewelry
Materials Needed: * 14 - 1 1/16 inch Safety Pins * 1 - 2 inch Safety Pin * Seed Beads (see picture below for colors needed) Instructions: Follow this pattern and the basic directions on the safety pin jewelry page to complete this project. Each number column represents a pin; for example, your first pin will have 7 blue bead, 1 tan beads, 1 gray bead, and 2 blue beads on it. Your second pin will have 5 blue beads, 3 gray beads, and 2 blue beadS on it. When you thread these beaded pins onto your larger pin, start with pin number 1.

Dove Safety Pin Jewelry
Materials Needed: * 13 -1 1/16 inches Safety Pins * 1 - 2 inch Safety Pin * Seed Beads (see picture below for colors needed) Instructions: Follow this pattern and the basic directions on the safety pin jewelry page to complete this project. Each number column represents a pin; for example, your first pin will have 2 light blue beads, 6 white beads, and 2 light blue beads. Your second pin will have 1 light blue bead, 6 white beads, and 3 light blue bead3. When you thread these beaded pins onto your larger pin, start with pin number 1.

Football Safety Pin Jewelry
Materials Needed: * 12 - 1 1/16 inch Safety Pins * 1 - 1 3/4 inch Safety Pin * Seed Beads (see picture below for colors needed) Instructions: Follow this pattern and the basic directions on the safety pin jewelry page to complete this project. Each number column represents a pin; for example, your first pin will have 4 green beads, 2 brown beads, and then 4 more green beads. Your second pin will have 3 green beads, 4 brown beads, and then 3 more green beads. When you thread these beaded pins onto your larger pin, start with pin number 1.

Decorative Cans
Use canned goods cans that have been cut with the special can opener that leaves no sharp edges. Wash and dry cans. Options for paper decoration: decoupage contact paper scrap book paper design your own with paint shop or photo shop Wrapping paper Measure the paper to be the hight of the can by the length AROUND the can. and then apply glue if the paper is not already adhesive. Roll the paper carefully around the can in place being careful to have the paper meet with a straight seam.

Christmas Fun
It all started innocently enough, I was home from college for Thanksgiving vacation and the Jones needed a babysitter. I came home every chance I got, being a freshman and all, I was pretty homesick. I had been babysitting for the Jones for the last three years and their baby was a sweetie but I hadn't seen them since I started school a couple of months ago. I went over at 6:00 to let them catch an early movie. Darnell opened the door and he kind of paused before his normal greeting of "Hi, kid." I had changed a bit since I started college. My body was the same but I had started wearing clothes which showed it off a bit more. This night I was wearing a white button-up blouse and tight blue jeans. His eyes were locked on my breasts for what seemed like forever. They were pushing against my shirt a little, I guess. They were 34B, firm and plump and stood out quite proudly by themselves even without the pushup bra I was now wearing. My jeans also displayed my nice firm ass, consi

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May 27th Rainfall Projections
A cold front extending from the great lakes to the central Plains will continue to track its way to the east and to the south and should cross the region early tomorrow afternoon. This cold front will spread showers into the area, as early as tonight (late). However...significant moisture will hold off until after lunch time tomorrow. With the arrival of this cold front will be rainfall as well as thunderstorms from eastern PA into NYC. Rainfall will generally be on the light side from a T to .50 ...except for areas that have thunderstorms could locally pick up an inch of rain plus. The cold front goes thru and late tomorrow evening skies will start to clear and fair weather will prevail. Temperatures ahead of the front are in the mid to upper 70s. Temperatures behind the front depending on your local will range from the 50s to the 60s for the day on wednesday. For rainfall amounts see my blog http://theweathergod.blogspot.com/

May 27, 2008 Severe Weather..possible Tornados?
With the warm up that the forecast area will likely see for the Memorial Day weekend and into the early part of next week as the trough over the region departs, the setup for some or widespread severe weather becomes established. HIGH pressure responsible for the warm surge that lasts until Tuesday, slides off the coast and allows for southerly flow to invade the region. That combined with the approach of a cold front from the west pressing eastward against the warm air brought by the southerly flow, the area between the cold front and HIGH pressure off the east coast, becomes favorable to at least a few severe T-storms as cooler air behind the cold front colides with warmer air pumped northward as a courtesy of HIGH pressure in the form of southerly flow. See my blog for the map http://theweathergod.blogspot.com/

Peanut Butter N Apple Cookies
PEANUT BUTTER N APPLE COOKIES INGREDIENTS: 1/2 CUP (1 STICK) MARGARINE OR BUTTER 1/2 CUP PACKED BROWN SUGAR 1/3 CUP GRANULATED SUGAR 1/3 CUP PEANUT BUTTER 1 EGG 2 TEASPOONS VANILLA EXTRACT 1 CUP ALL PURPOSE FLOUR 1/2 TEASPOON GROUND CINNAMON 1/2 TEASPOON BAKING SODA 3 CUPS APPLE FLAVORED CERERAL (LIKE APPLE JACKS) CRUSHED TO 2 CUPS DIRECTIONS: PREHEAT OVEN TO 350 DEGREES F. LIGHTLY GREASE COOKIE SHEET. BEAT MARGARINE,SUGARS,AND PEANUT BUTTER UNTIL CREAMY. ADD EGG AND VANILLA ; BEAT WELL. COMBINE FLOUR, CINNAMON AND BAKING SODA. ADD TO MARGARINE MIXTURE;MIX WELL. STIR IN CEREAL. USING 1 LEVEL TABLESPOON,SHAPE DOUGH INTO 1 INCH BALLS. PLACE 2 IN APART ON PREPARED COOKIE SHEET; FLATTEN SLIGHTLY. BAKE 9-11 MIN OR UNTIL LIGHTLY BROWNED. LET STAND 1 MIN BEFORE REMOVING TO RACKS TO COOL. MAKES 3 1/2 DOZEN

Toffee Oatmeal Cookies
Toffee Oatmeal Cookies 1 1/2 cups all purpose flour 1 teaspoon baking soda 1 cup unsalted butter, room temperature 3/4 cup granulated sugar 3/4 cup brown sugar 1 large egg 1 tsp. pure vanilla extract 1 1/2 cups oatmeal 1 cup dried cherries 1 cup bittersweet chocolate, coarsely chopped 1 cup toffee pieces Heat oven to 350 degrees. Sift together flour and baking soda and set aside. Cream butter and sugars until light and fluffy, 2 to 3 minutes. Add egg, and mix on high speed. Add vanilla extract. Add flour mixture a bit at a time until well combined. Add oatmeal, cherries, chocolate, and toffee pieces. Divide dough into three equal portions, and roll into logs using plastic wrap, approximately 1 1/2 inches in diameter. To bake, cut logs into 3/4 inch pieces. Bake on parchment-lined baking sheet until golden brown, 8 to 10 minutes. Remove from oven, and transfer to a baking rack to cool. These are perfect to bake immediately, refrigerate for one to two days or fr

Nothing
Well they've been writing your name on the bathroom wall But it don't mean nothing It don't mean nothing They wanna ruin your life, wanna see you take a fall But it don't mean nothing It don't mean nothing Stupid people say stupid things And it'll drive you right up the wall Sometimes I feel the same way too But it don't mean nothing at all Your mom and dad don't care about the way you feel And you just can't take it You just can't take it You got the short end of a shitty deal And you just can't take it You just can't take it no more Stupid people say stupid things And it'll drive you right up the wall Sometimes I feel the same way too But it don't mean nothing at all They put a lot of effort into making you feel like a clown You gave it you best shot, and they shot you down Stupid people say stupid things And it'll drive you right up the fucking wall Sometimes I feel the same way too But it don't mean nothing at all Well it don't mean nothing a

I Get High
Too bad I don’t get my own way, want champagne all they got is cabernet, and I’m wasting all my time. I feel good but there’s a tear in my eye, rain falling from a cloudless sky, I get high, forget about it all. Red light flashing behind my cracked up rearview mirror, thunder crashing down and screaming in my ear. I guess I drew a bad card somewhere down the line and I’ll never win my money all back. I’m only here for a limited time, probably see me hanging around by the railroad tracks. I get high. We used to have a house down by the shore, every night we’d take a walk to the liquor store, and we’d get wasted all the time. I hit the city when I lost you girl, not so pretty it’s a different world. I get high, forget about it all. Red light flashing behind my cracked up rearview mirror. thunder crashing down and screaming in my ear. I guess I drew a bad card somewhere down the line, and I’ll never win my money all back I’m only here for a limited time,

You're An Ocean
You're An Ocean Written by Tony Scalzo VERSE Can you make it easier for me to understand, How you're holding my heart, in your trembling hands... Eyes that rise to meet me half way up among the stars, You may be from Venus but I'm definitely not from Mars CHORUS You're An Ocean, You're An Ocean Settle Down, Settle Down, What's the commotion, I'm an island, but you're an ocean, It's a stormy sea of love and emotion, You've got me suspended motionless in time VERSE Make the warm winds circle round my head just like you do, If I could do it, I'd be doing it to you, I believe I'd buy whatever you would sell to me, Nothing in my life ever came with a guarantee, CHORUS You're An Ocean, You're An Ocean Settle Down, Settle Down, What's the commotion, I'm an island, but you're an ocean, It's a stormy sea of love and emotion, You've got me suspended motionless in time BREAK I believe I'd buy whatever you would sell to me, Nothing in my life ever ca

She Loved Me
I met her down in Tampa Bay Spring break '88 She came in to hear my band play And man we were on that night Twin guitars and 20-minute jams "Tush", "Cocaine", and "Sweet Home Alabam" I knew I had her in the palm of my hand When I stepped in the spotlight Hot-n-heavy in that little alley On a fifteen minute break We shared a cigarette, long kiss Then she stood there by the stage All night by the stage What can I say? She loved me But after five long years of trying to be a star I sold my acts and I quit them bars Got a real job fixing trucks and cars Had a couple new mouths to feed And eventually that monthly wage And the finer points of the suburban age All became bars on a cage And man it was killing me I started cussin' and getting mad at nothin' And blaming her for ruining my life Started sinking, cheating, and a-drinking But she stood there by my side Right there by my side With tears in her eyes And she loved me She loved me Heaven knows the reas

Funny
The 11th Husband A young man married a beautiful woman who had previously divorced 10 husbands. On their wedding night, she told her new husband to "Please be gentle; I'm still a virgin". "What?" said the puzzled groom. "How can that be if you've been married ten times?" "Well, Husband 1 was a Sales Representative; he kept telling me how great it was going to be". "Husband 2 was in Software Services; he was never really sure how it was suppose to function; but he said he'd look into it and get back to me". "Husband 3 was from Field Engineering & Services; he said that everything checked out diagnostically but he just couldn't get the system up". "Husband 4 was in Telemarketing; even though he knew he had the order, he didn't know when he would be able to deliver". "Husband 5 was an Engineer, he understood the basic process but he wanted three years to research, implement, and design a new state of the-art method". "Husband 6 was from Administration; he thought

Condom Slogans
1) Cover your stump before you hump 2) Before you attack her, wrap your whacker 3) Don't be silly, protect your Willie 4) When in doubt shroud you spout 5) Don't be a loner, cover your boner 6) You can't go wrong, if you shield your dong 7) If your not going to sack it, go home and whack it 8) If you think she's spunky, cover your monkey 9) It will be sweeter if you wrap your peter 10) If you slip between her thighs, condomize 11) She won't get sick if you wrap your dick 12) If you go into heat, package your meat 13) While your undressing Venus, dress up your penis 14) When you take off her pants and blouse, suit up your mouse 15) Especially in December, gift wrap your member 16) Never ever deck her, with an unwrapped pecker 17) Don't be a fool, vulcanize your tool 18) The right selection, is to protect your erection 19) Wrap it in foil, before you check her oil 20) A crank with armor, will never harm her 21) If you really love her, wear a cover 22) Don't make a mi

You And Me
May 29, 2008 @ 12:07 pm YOU AND ME Ages ago when things were new I never thought there would be a me and you. flowers bloomed and the sun shined through because there would always be a me and you. then the flowers died and left me blue and things got dark, there was no me and you. when things go wrong theres nothing you can do but wonder what ever happened to me and you. I know its been a long time that you've been free but can you still picture a life with you and me? As time goes past if you can see a time where there might be a you and me. I know in life some things just cant be but in my mind there will always be a you and me.

Another Long List Of One-liners...!!
"I wanted to be a milkman, right - but I didn't have the bottle!!" "I've played football on a plane you know.... there I was, running up the wing!!!" "Black beauty, now there's a dark horse!!!" "This man pushed me into a bag of peanuts, so I told the police - they asked me if I was assaulted - I said 'No - dry roasted!!!' " "I went to the butchers the other day and the butcher said 'I bet you £5 you can't guess the weight of that meat on the top shelf'. ' I'm not gambling!' I said, 'The steaks are too high!!!!!! "Did you hear Handel has teamed up with Hinge and Bracket? They've formed The Doors!!!!!" "I was taking the motorway out of London. A policeman pulled me over and said: 'Put it back' "I've got a sponge door....don't knock it." "So I took my dog for a walk and it was really angry - well it would be it's a cross breed!!" "So I said to my Mum 'I'm going to the funfair' - she said 'Oooooh will you go on the Ghostrain?' - I said 'No, I'll w

Sex Sales And So Does Blood
Here is a few peeks at my book "SWeet Dreams ,which is located for sale at www.lulu.com and at www.thebookattic.com. If you like vampires,and sex well you should enjoy my books. In the fall my next book will be unleashed, it is called "Pixed", can you guess what happens in it? But let me know if you enjoy what you read here.Here we go...... (Taste 1) Seeing me as a vixen of sorts wasn’t my idea of a great dream. I never would guess I could dream such dreams. Dreaming I was sexy wearing a slinky red dress, rouge red lips and my eyes was so dark. I drank from a goblet with my ring’s crest on it. A dragon, with ruby eyes rested under my finger tips as I stroked my goblet. Vincent would smile and whisper how he loved me .Vincent was my handsome lover. He wore black and red, I was all over him! We were drinking a toast to something…. My name, Allie Dupree, my age twenty-one and since my eighteenth birthday Vincent would come to me. You see every night I had dreams. Not the regular dre

The Weight
I pulled into Nazareth, I was feelin' about half past dead; I just need some place where I can lay my head. "Hey, mister, can you tell me where a man might find a bed?" He just grinned and shook my hand, and "No!", was all he said. (Chorus:) Take a load off Fannie, take a load for free; Take a load off Fannie, And (and) (and) you can put the load right on me. I picked up my bag, I went lookin' for a place to hide; When I saw Carmen and the Devil walkin' side by side. I said, "Hey, Carmen, come on, let's go downtown." She said, "I gotta go, but m'friend can stick around." (Chorus) Go down, Miss Moses, there's nothin' you can say It's just ol' Luke, and Luke's waitin' on the Judgement Day. "Well, Luke, my friend, what about young Anna Lee?" He said, "Do me a favor, son, woncha stay an' keep Anna Lee company?" (Chorus) Crazy Chester followed me, and he caught me in the fog. He said, "I will fix your rags, if you'll take Jack, my dog." I said, "Wait a minute,

The Greatest Man That Ever Lived
You try to play cool Like you just don’t care But soon I’ll be playin’ in your Underwear I’m like the mage With the magic spell You come like a dog When I ring yo’ bell I got the money And I got the fame You got the hots To ride on my plane You givin’ me all That I desire ’Cos down with me I’m taking you higher I’m the baddest of the bad I’m the best that you’ve ever had I’m the tops, I’m the king All the girls get up when I sing, yeah I’m the meanest in the place Step up, I’ll mess with your face I don’t care where you are Look up and follow the star. I, I’m gonna tear down the wall I may not be here when you call So best be givin’ me your all. After the havoc that I’m gonna wreak No more words will critics have to speak I’ve got to answers to the tangled knot Sleep tight in your cot. Oh baby, I’ve been told I’m goin’ crazy. Oh baby, I can’t be held down. Oh baby, Somehow I'm keeping it steady. Oh baby, I’m tearing up this town. Hey, th

Beverly Hills
Where I come from it isn't all that great My automobile is a piece of crap My fashion sense is a little whack And my friends are just as screwy as me I didn't go to boarding schools Preppie girls didn't look at me Why should they? I ain't nobody got nothin' in my pocket Beverly Hills That's where I want to be! Livin' in Beverly Hills Beverly Hills Rollin' like a celebrity! Livin' in Beverly Hills Look at all those movie stars They're all so beautiful and clean When their house maids scrub the floors They get the spaces in between I wanna live a life like that I wanna live just like a king Take my picture by the pool 'Cause I'm the next big thing! Beverly Hills That's where I want to be! Livin' in Beverly Hills Beverly Hills Rollin' like a celebrity! Livin' in Beverly Hills The truth is I don't stand a chance It's somethin' that you're born into And I just don't belong Well I know I'm a beat-down fool And I will always be that way I might

We Are All On Drugs
When you're out with your friends In your new Mercedes-Benz And you're on drugs And you show up late for school 'Cause you think you're really cool When you're on drugs And you put on your headphones And you step into the zone When you're on drugs But the world don't care If you are not there 'Cause you're on drugs GIVE IT TO ME We are all on drugs yeah Never getting enough (never get enough) We are all on drugs yeah Give me some of that stuff (WOO) And you twitch in your seat 'Cause you wanna hit the street When you're on drugs And you cause such a fuss 'Cause there's no one you can trust When you're on drugs And the best of your days Will vanish into haze When you're on drugs And you wish you can quit 'Cause you're really sick of it But you're on drugs GIVE IT TO ME We are all on drugs yeah Never getting enough (never get enough) We are all on drugs yeah Give me some of that stuff (WOO) I wanna confiscate your drugs I don't think I can g

Perfect Situation
What's the deal with my brain? Why am I so obviously insane? In a perfect situation I let love down the drain. There's the pitch, slow and straight. All I have to do is swing and I'm the hero, but I'm the zero. Hungry nights, once again Now it's getting unbelievable. 'Cause I could not have it better, But I just can't get no play From the girls, all around As they search for someone to hold onto. I just pass through... singing... Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Singing... Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Get your hands off the girl, Can't you see that she belongs to me? And I don't appreciate this excess company. Though I can't satisfy all the needs she has And so she starts to wander... Can you blame her? singing... Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Singing... Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhh oh. Ooohhhhhhhhhh. Tell me there's a logic out there. Leading me to better prepare For the day that something really special might come. Tell

Wild Weather Ride Saturday?
Wild Weather Ride Possible Saturday! A warm front will move thru the region tonight. With the passing of this warm front some WAA could take place..but current thinking is that that should stay to the North of PA...However..it is possible that an isolated shower or thunderstorm could take place. The main show will be tomorrow as a cold front comes out and crosses across the region. Temperatures out ahead of this front are quite warm and on the muggy side. Currently 80 degrees as of 7 PM... CAPE & LI should be quite impressive due to dynamics in place even with cloud cover. However...current thinking is that skies should break for some sunshine which will cause surface temps to rise and CAPE levels could and should rise even higher with ranges around 3000 and LI (Lifted index) as low as -4 to - 7. The passage of this cold front along with the dynamics in place will spark off showers and thunderstorms...and some of these thunderstorms have the potential to become supercells and spaw

Unanswered Prayers
unanswered prayers ( Garth Brooks ) Just the other night, at a hometown football game My wife and I ran into, My old highschool flame And as i introduced them the past cameback to me and i couldnt help to think of the way things use to be She was the one that i wanted for all time Each night i'd spend praying that god would make her mine And if he'd only grant me this wish i'd wished back then I'd never ask for anything again Sometimes I thank god For unanswered prayers Remember when your talkin to the man upstairs and just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he dont care some of gods greatest gifts are unanswered prayers She wasnt quite the angel that i remembered in my dreams and i could tell that time had changed me in her eyes to it seemed we tried to talk about the old days there wasnt much we could recall i guess the lord knows what he's doin after all And as she walked away i looked at my wife and then and there i thanked the go

Here I Go Again (whitesnake)
HERE I GO AGAIN (WHITESNAKE) I don't know where I'm goin but I sure know where I've been hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday. An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time but here I go again, here I go again. Tho' I keep searching for an answer I never seem to find what I'm looking for. Oh Lord, I pray you give me strength to carry on 'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams. Here I go again on my own goin' down the only road I've ever known. Like a hobo I was born to walk alone. An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time. Just another heart in need of rescue waiting on love's sweet charity an' I'm gonna hold on for the rest of my days 'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams. Here I go again on my own goin' down the only road I've ever known. Like a hobo I was born to walk alone. An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time but here I go again, here I go a

Glitter ( Motley Crue )
Glitter ( Motley Crue ) When we make love It's hard to tell If you're dreamin' of me or Someone else That drunken kiss Seems like a lie Don't say it's forever And then say goodbye Glitter Don't ya leave me, please Believe me I only want your love Glitter, you're my lover, I'll Have no other girl I only need your love When mornin' comes and the Sun shines bright You gonna need someone Someone that treat ya right So don't walk out When you wake up Let's give it a chance girl Let's give it a shot Give it a shot now Glitter, don't deceive me Gotta believe me Only need your love Glitter there's no other You're beautiful I only want you This is fine for now, but Maybe let's make a baby Inside of you It's just the time, we gotta Find, I want your name On my tattoo You blow my mind, so tell me I wanna know Glitter shines forever Forever an'ever I only need your love Glitter lay your head Down here I'll always be so near I only want

Flirtin' With Disaster (molly Hatchet)
Flirtin' With Disaster (Molly Hatchet) I'm travelin' down the road and I'm Flirtin w/ Disaster. I got the pedal 2 the floor & my life is runnin' faster. I'm outta money, outta hope & it looks like self-destruction. Well, how much more can we take with all of this corruption? We're flirtin w/ disaster & ya'll know what it means. And when we play with our lives, it makes no sense to me. I don't know about yourself, or what you plan to be, yeah. We're gamblin' with our time & choose our destiny. I'm travelin' down that lonesome road. Feel like I'm draggin' a heavy load. Yeah, and I try to turn my head away. Feel about the same most every day (& you know what I'm talkin about) Speedin' down the fast lane, & honey we're playin' from town 2 town. The boys & I been burnin' it up, can't seem to slow it down. Got the pedal to the floor our lives are running faster. Got a side-step straight ahead, but I ain't sure what we're after. Flirtin' w/ Disaster ya'll damn sure

Forsaken By All That Matters
Forsaken by all that matters there comes a time in life when everything has fallen apart and nothing else matters this is one of those times. do i give up and just lay down and wait for mistress death to come for my soul and take me to hell or do i fight and try to continue in this life filled with pain? i no longer care what tomorrow may hold for me. i no longer care for anything other than an end of this pain, an end to this sad existence called life! so i will lay my life down at mistress's death feet and pray she will finally take me from this world of pain. FREE ME from this ! release my soul from this nightmare! cursed , shunned and abandoned i wait for the end will it ever come? Mordecha

Comfortably Numb
Comfortably Numb Here I sit watching you walk away again, Where is the heart ache? Where is the pain, Where are the tears of blood to shed? Where is the surprise of this abandonment? You have been gone in heart and soul for oh so long, This is why I can sit here and watch you walk away once again feeling nothing inside, I trusted and believed in you and your love for me, I trusted and believed that you were willing to make things right, Fool that I am I believed that we were meant to be, Fool that I am I believed in your words of love, Fool that I am I believed that things would be different, This fool will never give you that chance again, This fool will always love you for some unknown reason, This fool will sit here and wonder where it all went wrong, The fool I will never be again for you, So I will here with nothing more than a frozen crater where my heart should be, Comfortably Numb am I always to be. Mordechai

Rage
Rage Rage bleeds from my very pores when you bring me back to where I was all those years ago, Rage threatens to break my hold when you judge by color and not by actions, Rage that is righteous and based in truth races thru my veins when I see corruption and deceit, Rage is all around us thinly hidden behind masks of humanity, Rage destroys as well as protects the innocent and defenseless, Rage a power for both the light and the shadow realms, Rage can be a great power as well as a the greatest weakness, Rage is the opposite of Love. So only rage when the time is right and for the right purposes. Mordechai

Reflections
Reflections Walking thru the alleys of my past I see all the wreckage of my life before me. I wander wondering how I will ever fix the damage I have caused in my life. I see ever heart ache that has occurred and my part in it as well as what the "Xs" part as well. To reach out and to ask for forgiveness is not enuff to mend the damage done. To reach out and try to fix it sometimes causes old woulds to become raw and full of pain again. I walk in the hell of my own making thru the shadows of my failures and faults. I know I am not perfect and that not everything I have wrought was not done with evil intent. Yes good deeds can sometimes turn out bad! This I have learned too many times to count. so what can I do? but to continue to try and love my brothers and sisters in this world we share. and to hope one day Love will find me and wraps its arms around me to never let me go. will this happen some say yes it is only a matter of time while I sometimes believe I am destined to walk this

A Cry Int The Night
A Cry int the Night Love turned so wrong without a thought of how actions burn, Heart so cold it feels only selfish pain, Fire and Ice in the cruelest forms, Random acts born of yesterday's Pain, Destroy the promise of the gift of Healing Love of tomorrow, Freezes the spirit of your soul's mated half, Compassion lost in the faze of fear, Passion spent in fruitless endeavors, Anger raised by abandonment and fear of commitment, Unjustified rage, Justified pain, Unrequited Love lost, All because of the Past that haunts you so, My thoughts of yesterday and all that went wrong, My dreams of a life filled with Love now gone, Crying to the heavens for mercy for this Forsaken Soul and your Battered Heart, "Grant us the The Love of a Lifetime that was stolen," "Grant us Grace to find forgiveness in each others arms," "Grant us the Humility to own our wrongdoings," "Grant us the Strength to share each others Pain and Fears," "Grant us the Courage to trust in our Love for eac

The Order Of The Last Knights
Ok folks let me know what you think of this so far. it is a little something i am playing with for a short story and maybe a bit more. The Order of the Last Knights Once this world had chivalry and honor as a code of living but now all that has changed, in today's world chivalry is dead or dying and honor is almost nonexistent. So we few who sit at this broken Round Table sigh with despair and regret that all the old ways are dying out. There are only 13 of us left and our numbers are dwindling swiftly as time passes. Where is our Merlin, our Master of Mysteries, and the Mystic who guided our forefathers before us? Who is to teach and guide those who follow us to preserve this world from utter chaos? Among our order there are fewer of the younger generations than ever before. Those that are here dont quite believe in the old beliefs anymore. What has happened to the Old Faith you ask well it is simple the Dead God's people have crucified and waged holy wars upon all who do no

May The Wings Of Love Bring You Safely Home To Me
May The Wings of Love Bring You Safely Home To Me Letting you go to do what you feel you need to isnt an easy nor painless thing to do. Rather it is one of the scariest things I have ever had to do. trusting in our love for each other and your love for me to bring you back in my arms. The loss of you in my life would be devastating beyond imagination. so I will sit here and pray and wait to see if my faith in you and your love in me grounded in reality. All I know is that if your love is true you will fly back to my waiting arms, If not then I will forever be less than what I should be. Mordechai

Getting Older.
Lets face it time is just passing on year after year! Yeah it seems like just the other day we were getting out of high school or just turning 21! I think back and wonder where the hell did it pass me by? Well I've been told that your only as old as you feel! ? Yeah right! I really don't feel old but I sure do look older than I did! lol Oh well I guess its just something we've got to deal with!

L&l
♥LEATHER&LACE♥ IS ALL YOU WANT DOMINATION OR JUST SUBMISSION? ARE FANTASIES YOUR HIGH? DO CRAVE HOT WILD LOVE? DREAM YOUR DREAMS AND FILL YOUR FANTASIES IN LEATHER AND LACE. LET YOUR IMAGINATION GUIDE YOU THERE.

I Did Not Write This
Waking up the morning when I would see you, in a sleepy daze I felt my clit pulse. Today I would finally get to see you again after so long, too long, apart. I was feeling very frustrated, as stupidly I had agreed to no playing for the last week, it had been torture but today that would be over… I got up and had a shower, but it didn’t really help cool my hot skin and definitely didn’t cool the burning hot feeling in my cunt, only one thing would soothe that… your tongue… I drifted off into dreaming of you, of us… I stepped out the shower and wrapped a towel around me. Back in my room I dropped my towel and admired what I saw in the mirror, knowing you would be touching every inch of me shortly and I knew you would like what you saw… My little surprise for you… I spent hours getting ready, I wanted to look perfect for you and it passed the time. When it finally came to the time to leave for the airport my heart was pounding, my clit tingling… I could hardly contain myself. In the car o

Darkness Surround Me
Darkness surrounds every soul at all times. We strive to drive it away with love and friendship but this isn't always successful. Darkness and Despair is our companion through out life either we fight it or we embrace it. Some believe that True Love can dispel it, others believe it is a part of life that is forever there. What do I believe, I no longer know and at the moment not sure I care. Oh yes Apathy the close cousin to Darkness and Despair is my companion now. Heart empty and forsaken , Life worthless and broken, Dreams shattered and discarded. I am but a shell of what I was. Fragile and Brittle to scatter to the four winds at the slight touch. Hope has fled with the Broken Promises of yesterday. Wasted and Tormented I sit within my walls waiting for the end. As I wait, all of my yesterdays slide in front my eyes like a string of slaps to my face. Tears of Blood born sorrow and bitterness flow silently from me. Does everyone at one time or another pray for Death to coming visitin

Broken Colors
Broken Colors Broken emotions bleeding thru Color these roses just for you, Broken dreams laying wasted on the ground, Color my path in the Darkest night, Broken spirits lay littered before me, Color my perspective of a life full of sorrow, Broken promises fall in my wake, Color my past in a bloody wave, Broken hearts under foot, Color the path of my life, Broken lives lay all around me, Color my childhood in a crimson smear, Broken Hopes flutter to the ground, Color my adulthood with despair & horror. Broken Colors of my life make a bloody trail down my cheeks. Mordechai

All Because
All because My heart is gone , My soul lies is ashes, My life is pointless, All because I cant stop loving you, My spirit is in pieces, My memories are all of you, My hopes have vanished, All because I cant stop loving you My tears are of blood as my soul cries out, My screams for mercy are muted 'cause I deserve none, My cries into the night for you go unanswered, All because I cant stop loving you, My fears have taken control, My sanity is slipping, My world is in flames, All because I cant stop loving you, My dreams are dust, My belief in true love is gone, My faith is shattered, All because I cant stop loving you, My fate is to die alone, My feelings dont matter, My thoughts are filled of you, All because I cant stop loving you, My doom is sealed, My sentence has been decreed, My life is to be lost and alone, All because i cant stop loving you, My love lies in the gutter, My soul lies at your feet, My heart you have cast aside, All be

Ever Wonder
Ever Wonder Ever wonder why love is never easy ? Ever wonder why love hurts so damn much? Ever wonder why you those whom you love you can hurt you the most? Ever wonder why there are some people who touch your life more than others? Ever wonder where the world's compassion has gone? Ever wonder why there is are so many people who thrive on ruining what others have? Ever wonder why some just give up and others keep on going no matter what? Ever wonder where love and romance has gone? Ever wonder why love causes your breath to catch and heart to beat beyond control? I wonder all the time. Questions Questions and more Questions... Mordechai

Lost Without You
Disclaimer: We all have feelings that walk within the darkness and torment us. Everyone deals with these feelings differently. So read this if you have no fear of your own darkness lurking within you and see that we are all bound together in more ways than most dare to believe. Welcome to my Nightmare and My World of inner Pain. All Comments are welcome. Lost Without You Feeling lost and confused, Wondering what is happening, Uncertainty running amok, Doubts assailing my heart, Silence eating at my soul, Darkness pulling me under, Love sought only to be lost, Sorrow filling my day and nights, Fear whispering in my mind, Pain of loneliness tearing my spirit, Drowning in my thoughts of unworthiness, Waiting for my salvation, Hoping without hope for rescue, Lost without you. Mordechai

He Who Weeps
He Who Weeps He walks the night seeking for something lost long ago. He tries to remember what he is searching for but can only remember a glimmer of what he seeks. A vague feeling of something so cherished that he searches and searches, night after night. He rests during the day some instinct tell him he will only find what he seeks by the light of the moon. He walks past you and you refuse to see him. He is invisible to all, nothing more than a ghost, a phantom of the past seeking some secret long forgotten in this world. He weeps as he walks amongst you, he weeps for all that has been surrendered, all that has been given away. He weeps for himself, He weeps for you. He has forgotten even his own name if he ever had one. He comes in the night the weeping specter of all that humanity has lost and may never regain. He weeps for lost lovers, for lost love, for lost loved ones. He weeps for you and me. Mordechai

Bare Lies My Soul To You
Bare lies my soul to you My heart rests in your hands, My blood pools around your feet, My tears flow for you alone, My spirit has followed you, My Hopes and dreams lie in the dust under your step, My soul is starving for your love, My mind's focus is on you alone, My body's numb with the loss of your touch, My grief assaults my waking moments, My dreams are nothing more than reliving what has been lost, My heartbeat has slowed as if waiting for death's touch, I sit and wait for the end of this pain knowing it will only end if you choose it to. Mordechai AKA: Anti

Hope
Hope Hope is a precious thing and it is so hard to hold onto in times of despair and sorrow. when times of darkness come upon my life i feel hope slipping away knowing that without it my soul would surely perish, that my spirit would abandon me to my fate. Hope hurts as much as it may comfort me. i consider it a sweet torture that i deserve all the pain that comes my way. others would disagree with that. and disagree they may for hope to them may be easy and a peaceful gift to them, but for me hope is all i have at times and it is a bittersweet thing at the very least. Ant

In Darkness ...
IN DARKNESS ... In a Darkness of my own making i sit and wonder how things have gotten so screwed up, In a Darkness all consuming my soul seeks to hide from itself, In a Darkness so complete that is shattering of dreams can be heard, In a Darkness I wait for an answer from the Light of my life, In a Darkness Tears of regret fall into a bloody pool, In a Darkness I write to ease my pain, In a Darkness I find myself daring to hope for forgiveness, In a Darkness of my own devising I am devoured by uncertainty, In a Darkness I pray to the Goddess for understanding of my self, In a Darkness I surrender myself to my Fate whatever it may be, In a Darkness I find myself forgotten and forsaken, Mordechai Havic

After All
After All After all the love there is only pain, After all the laughter there is only tears of blood, After daring to believe in love it is gone again, After loving with all my heart it is shattered, After living for you my life is in ashes, After wanting nothing but you i want nothing at all, After watching you walk away i keep on hoping you will come back, After everything that has happened I still love you, After losing hope I find I am still desperately hoping, After all that has happened i cannot stop thinking of you, After all I have Failed you! Mordechai

Pain & Betrayal
Betrayed by a loved one, Forsaken by love, Damned at birth to endure nothing but loneliness and pain, Doomed to walk alone in a world of darkness, Silence is my enemy, Pain & Betrayal Shadows of my past haunt me always, My failings seem to surround me mocking me, I have become a cosmic joke, Nothing more than a used up tool to be tossed aside over and over again, You said you loved me but that was a lie, A fool I am for thinking that true love existed and conquered all, A fool of fate, A fool for love, A fool in general, My heart is dust , my soul in tatters, my spirit broken and bleeding, Reality is now crystal clear... Trust No One With Your Heart then you wont get hurt, I have surrender to my fate, I have but one question ... Why do I still love you M

Never Good Enough
Never Good Enough Always casted aside worthless and easily forgotten, Never good enough to be the one and only, Always a ghost walking through life watching others live while i exist, Never finding happiness and joy, Always abandoned and left behind for someone new, Never to be able to stay in one place, Always moving from one heart break to the next, Never to be able to heal fully, Always wounded and injured, Never having arms of a loved ones in times of need, Alway wanting and needing someone to love, Never being needed or wanted by a loved one. DJ Forsaken, Mordechai Havic

When Love Becomes Hate
When Love Becomes Hate Once I trusted you, Now all I see are your lies, Once I would have died for you, Now all I can all i wish for is that you would fade away, Once I had believed in you, Now I know better than to believe your lies, Once I had loved you, Now I hate you and what you are! Once I told you that I do not hate easily, Now all I know is that you have taught me all to well how to hate, Once I would have done anything for you, Now I wont do a thing to assist you! Once I thought i couldnt live without you, Now all I can think of is the day you are forever gone from my life, Once I cared for you, Now I feel NOTHING but DISGUST! You know who you are as well as most people know it now that you have started this shit. So I tell you now in front of all who read this I DO NOT trust you , I DO NOT want you, I DO NOT need you, and I sure as f*** DO NOT LOVE YOU! DJ Forsaken I will shed no more tears at what might have been because now it will N

When You Hold Someone's Heart Part1 & 2
When you hold someone's heart Part1 & 2 Part 1 There is times when all things change in a single moment and we are stranded in that moment for what seems like an eternity. All bearings are lost and we are cast adrift into the nameless unknown never to be sure just what happened or why. The uncertainty of that moment affects us forever causes something far more damaging than wounds of the flesh, but scar of the spirit and soul. When you hold the heart of someone be gentle and careful since what you hold is far more precious than just a persons love. You are holding their trust and the very essence of what thy will become in the future. All love no matter what kind should be honored and cherished when it is freely given with no strings and no expectations. Unconditional love is a rare gift to give so when you receive it honor it like nothing else in this world or any other. It is more valuable than all the gold in the world and more precious than life itself. Just something to

The 10 Top-earning Country Music Stars
The 10 Top-Earning Country Music Stars They sing of the simple life--love for family, god and country. But the success of this year's Top-Earning Country Music Stars proves they're just as familiar with the color of money as they are with John Deere green. Toby Keith nabs the top spot on our list, raking in $48 million over the last year. Thanks to a bulletproof persona and patriotic anthems like "Courtesy of the Red, White and Blue" and "American Soldier," he's created a strong personal brand that pays. Beyond music earnings, Keith's got a lucrative endorsement deal with Ford Motor (nyse: F - news - people ) and a chain of successful restaurants bearing his name. He also has a boot in the business side of Nashville, as owner of Show Dog Records. In Pictures: The 10 Top-Earning Country Music Stars Aside from Keith, most of the musicians on our list earned the majority of their income from successful tours. Rascal Flatts' top 10 2007 tour helped put the trio at No.

True Love With Out Faith Is Not Enough...
True Love with out faith is not enough... This dark beauty walks through the night surrounded by those she believes are her friends even though they show all the traits of the corrupt. They whisper in her ear how they are true and loyal yet they sabotage her true friendships. Then one day this battered and broken knight walks into her life soul weary and ready for Death's last dance her heart goes out to him and she helps him heals from a terrible betrayal. All the while they fall madly and deeply in love her dark friends look on with fear that this honor bound man just might reveal their true essence they start their plotting to tear these two lovers apart all the while retaining their hold on the dark beauty. A whisper word here and there in the battered knight's ear and in the beauty's as well. Helping cast doubt in each of them upon the other. Finally the knight's true sight begins to see the essence of these dark hearted friends and tries in vain to show this to the beauty. All

Forsakan Am I
Forsakan am I Originally Titled "Just Let Me Die" Broken and bleeding laying in my own pool of bloody tears. Dead inside, soul shattered, heart gone wasting away without hope, without the will to live. I lay here wondering why it always seems that something must go wrong and all I can do is watch it like a horror movie made into my life. A story of broken hope and shattered dreams, of a man who searches for something forever out of reach. Forsaken am I, nothing more than a empty husk to be tossed away when no longer desired. Words leave me no relief any more. Abandoned , lost and alone is this all there is to my sad worthless life? Come Mistress Death Dance with me and finally take me home to oblivion. End my pain with your sweet kiss at the end of this dance, let it be our last. Life's cruelest pain is a love forfeited and left to wither away. So I watch my soul, my heart only desire slowly walk away knowing that once again Mistress Death is quietly laughing at me. Mordechai

F*ck Love ---- The Birth Of Anti-cupid
DISCLAIMER: THESE ARE FEELINGS AND FEELINGS HAVE NO BASIS IN LOGIC NOR REALITY SO READ WITH THIS IN MIND!! Ok here it is I officially give up. I am no longer gonna seek love nor accept the false hope of finding that special someone. I have heard to often now what a great guy I am but they cant do it. Well neither can I anymore. To watch someone who I care about, flirt and talk shit with someone else is too much for me to bear. So I walk away and they are hurt that I do. Am I wrong? Is it my fault? I guess so. I am told I am being selfish cause I want to walk away from a site cause it hurts me to be there. I am told that I am not thinking of all my friends there. And to a point they are right I am not thinking of them because all I can think of is what I see and it f***ing hurts to sit there and watch something that used to be directed at me. I am told I am running away and not fighting for something. WTF is there to fight for if they say "they cant give me what i want" so what is th

Feelings
Feelings Feelings so raw and exposed, Feelings bare before the world, Feelings of fear and loss, Feelings that have no meaning, Feelings of isolation that eat at the soul, Feelings that last forever, Feelings of passion and love, Feelings never shared, Feelings of never being good enough, Feelings shared yet discounted, Feelings for you that will never fade, Mordechai

The Human Condition
The Human Condition Pain is life , Life is pain, Love is filled with joy, Joy is born in Love, Love is in life, Life is filled with love, Joy and pain are two sides of the same coin, Pain caused from a Loved one is worse of all, Love born from pain shared is the strongest of all, Pain, Life, Love, and Joy are the human condition. Mordechai

The Unbroken Silence
The Unbroken Silence Silence the beginning of the end. Silence the killer of spirit. Silence the poison of the heart. Silence the cancer of the soul. Silence is the corrupter of faith. Silence is the absence of courage. Silence instilled by fear is the worst of all. Silence kills and destroys all that is good and pure. Silence is the fertile ground that the seed of doubt grows. Silence the sister of despair. Silence is the brother of lost hope and broken faith. Silence the slow death of all relationships. Silence is the birth of the grave. Silence The secret of internal suicide. Silence is never golden. Silence is the end of all things. Only in the Silence of death is there any peace. Sometimes we all wish for the silence of death. The companion of silence until the end of time. Mordechai Havic

Trapped In The Darkness Of My Own Soul
Trapped in the Darkness of My own Soul Darkness surrounds every soul at all times. We strive to drive it away with love and friendship but this isnt always successful. Darkness and Despair is our companion thru out life either we fight it or we embrace it. Some believe that True Love can dispel it, others believe it is a part of life that is forever there. What do I believe, I no longer know and at the moment not sure I care. Oh yes Apathy the close cousin to Darkness and Despair is my companion now. Heart empty and forsaken , Life worthless and broken, Dreams shattered and discarded. I am but a shell of what I was. Fragile and Brittle to scatter to the four winds at the slight touch. Hope has fled with the Broken Promises of yesterday. Wasted and Tormented I sit within my walls waiting for the end. As I wait, all of my yesterdays slide in front my eyes like a string of slaps to my face. Tears of Blood born sorrow and bitterness flow silently from me. Does everyone at one time or an

Fellowship Of Pain
Fellowship of pain Tears of blood we cry only those who have known our kind of pain can see the trails of blood we leave behind!There are few who know the pain we live in and even fewer who could survive it. Are we survivors or are we just gluttons for punishment, or fools? You decide. Inspired by my Bro Kindred @ Heart! Mordechai Kiran Havic aka: Anti-Cupid Copy & paste to frie

Mental Wandering Of A Doom Hero Lost Forever To The Darkness Of His Despair
Mental wandering of a doom hero lost forever to the darkness of his despair at times this gloom fall over my heart and seems to sap all hope of the future away. i look at my past and see something i am not and cannot be proud of over all. no i am not an evil man but just a man all the same. most of this dark enshrouded life of mine i have walked it alone in company and in spirit. forever wandering thru the shadows of the the Normal's world never truly seen and when even noticed i see nothing more than the sign to ward off the evil eye as if i was something dark and evil. can a lonely soul be considered as such? would you think of such a soul wandering lost and heart broken thru the ages as evil or could you find it somewhere in your heart to feel a little bit of compassion for one such as i? for i can expect nothing more than that for my soul is darkened far too much to be accepted and truly loved. the taint of this darkness seeps out from me and flows around me as if a shield again

Lost, Abandoned, Forgotten And Forsaken
Lost, Abandoned, Forgotten and Forsaken Wandering lost thru the fog of my life, I wonder if it is all worth it or if I should just surround to what fate has decreed. Is all love just an illusion or is it something only for those who are pure of heart and soul. Either way then I am damned twice over for I am not pure of anything and I cant tell illusion from reality any more. All has become a waking nightmare. Once I thought I could not live without you then I found that there was life after you. Once I found that life was possible you step back in for only moment and every thing goes straight back into hell. Your presence broke all my convictions of accepting fate and walking away. You have broken something inside of me and I do not think it can be fixed not sure if I want it fixed anymore maybe just maybe I am better off broken and not being able to care and feel for another person. Doubts have become my second nature, trust has become an allusive thing, my heart lives in perpetual

Because I'm Me
When you tell me to come I want to because I love you I don't because I am my own person When you want me to lie I want to because you say so I don't because I am truthful to my words When you tell me to trust you I want to because I believe you I don't because I am unsure When you want me to speak I want to because it makes you happy I don't because I don't have time When you ask me to come early I want to because I am faithful I don't because I am not in a rush When you say forget about the past I want to because that was then I don't because I learned that you can't

Realization
I'm completely taken over by my rage. I just want to hurt you just as much as you hurt me, So you would know how I felt. Then I realized that revenge is not the answer. I hit my knees and began to pray. I prayed harder than I ever have before. I prayed for God to break the chains of addictions the devil has cast upon you. To encourage you and give you strength. And help lift you back up when you fall. You are not fighting this alone. You are never alone. When you start to slip, CRY OUT TO JESUS! He will never let you fall. You have to be strong and believe in yourself and God to pull yourself through. God is always testing us, testing our faith. And we SHALL not let him down.

Heart Of A Poet
From the heart of a poet Comes words of sorrow Joys within And unseen tomorrows Tears with smiles are beautiful things Gifts of thoughts to a human being Lessons of Love Be still and wait Kindness is Patient It does not take But gives to all who hesitates Who writes the words without mistakes Who needs to feel and needs to show it Whos meaning is real and needs you to know it Whos friendship is sealed above and below it Into and out of the heart of a poet

Perfect Life
I dream of a perfect life. Simple not complicated. Enough to please me, but keep me alive. Happy to smile with no disappointments. I watch the horizon about; no words of doubt. Looking forward in anticipation. But backwards at satisfaction of the conclusion of each day. Heeding the prompts of my inner voice; and what I hear is comforting, full of reassurance. Sweet feelings of contentment. But the human soul dies, To be forgotten soon. Turning into unfamiliar faces; A blank drawn in a space, A hole left in the wake alone. Of a perfect life I dreamt, which closes cold over, and UNKNOWN.

Magickal Fairy
Twisted minds in an endless world of pain. A place where beautiful things vanish before the naked eye. Darkness rages and takes over the world of existence. I was once a magickal fairy beautiful and adored by all. Glitter magick and charmed by everyone. But my wings have long been torn. My magick long faded away centuries ago. My soul ripped and taken from my fragile body. My heart of warmth long ago shattered like a million pieces of a mirror. Voices all around keep chanting and telling me to believe. Believe in what I shout and scream aloud? Existence above all abyss in the world of belief. I meditate and wink a smile at all who do believe. And I start to slowly chant a simple....fairy tale. To read.....all you have to do is believe within yourself.

Razor Blade
I stand and I sit and I think~Think of how I can help myself~Should I cut to ease the pain~To understnad the confusion~Should I take the razor blade~And slice it over my wrist?~So I stop and look around at my surroundings~All soaked in deep red, rich blood~I glance downward~And scrape it across my wrist quickly~once~twice~again and again~The memories~The past fading~I begin to bleed~To slowly feel free~No more, No more I chant silently~I fall down on my knees~Watching my blood flow like a beautiful river~I begin to cry~The involuntary tears streaming down my face~Down my arm the blood flows staining the floor I stand upon~These involuntary tears simply fall like rain drops from the sky~Splashing down to my veins~Feeling oozy~fatigued~I leave the world in vein~Remembering to cut one last time~deeper the scar of life~slipping into an eternal abyss and funeral forever~

Depression
They want me to push you away. They say you hurt me, but I don't want to believe. For I find a certain safety in your arms of ugliness, the only things that want to embrace me lately. And even when I think I'm done with this abuse, I don't know the sweet words that will sweep you away, some old childhood incantation that crawled away from my bitter memory when it turned its back for a moment. You are a sickness; I cannot control you, though there are magical concoctions that can. But I cannot make the quest for them alone, and you have me feeling as though there's no one who loves enough to help. They don't believe me when I tell them that you have taken over who I am. I know not if they deny your power, your existenance, or the fact that you have chosen me for your victim. I only want to go back and forget I ever looked into your dark eyes. But it is too late and I feel as though our tainted courtship has ruined everything. You do not comfort me when I cry in dark cornors, but you pus

High School
They say high school is tough, But I think that it's fun. It's where we make life long friends. Where we meet our first loves. It's a whole little world of its own. A place where we learn not only about equations and formulas, but about the bigger picture of our world. About life and the world we live in, And the people who live in it. In high school, we're exposed to various ethics and backgrounds; With all of this, we recognize what makes each of us different. And with open minds, we can accept and appreciate That of which makes each and everyone of us Unique in our own special ways.

I Love You
I never really knew you, You were just another friend. But when I got to know you, I slowly let my heart unbend. I couldn't help past the memories that only made me cry. I had to forget my first Love, And give Love another try. So I've fallen in Love with you, And I'll never let you go. I Love you more than anyone. I just wanted to let you know. And if you ever question why, I don't know what I'll say. But I'll never stop loving you. Each and everyday my feelings for you will never change. Just understand and know that my feelings of the heart are true, And remember one thing: I LOVE YOU!

Reasons Why?
Reasons, everyone always wants reasons why I am the way I am. Honestly, I would like to know myself. So I write about what hurts, what feels good, what makes me cry and what makes me feel. I want to know why: I cry. I'm screaming silently inside. I'm happy for a moment and then I lose it. I'm free but I hold back. I hate myself every time I look in the mirror. I drown in my self-pity. I eat a tub of ice cream, then feel so much guilt that I can't move. I am ashamed. I hide from everything. I feel more than I can take. And I just really want to know why I am unable to be whole. Was I born with a failure inside of me that doesn't allow me to change? I spend my days scared. What if I never change? What if there are no reasons at all? What if I am the way I am forever and there is nothing I can do about it. So I look for an answer to make the confusion go away. Everyday I wake up searching with only the hope that someday something will be found that will make this endless longing go away.

Him I'm Thinking Of
I would've done so much for him But he just didn't care. He meant the world to me But he was never there. I gave so much to make it work But he didn't even try. Now my world is falling apart Since he said goodbye. He has his eye on someone new He treats her very good. I can't help but wonder why Why he didn't treat me like he should. Now I have a broken heart That maybe time will heal. I wish I had another chance To tell him how I feel. Now I sit here lonely With no one to love. Not just anyone will do When it's him I'm thinking of.

Broken Promises
You said we'd always be together, And nothing could tear us apart. You said you loved me, You could feel it in your heart. You promised you'd love me forever, And love doesn't change over night. You said you'd cherish every minute Holding me tight. You told me I was beautiful And perfect in every way. You said I was always on your mind, Every minute of everyday. But here I am broken and torn, There's emptiness where you stood by my side. Many promises were broken, I guess that means you lied.

Best Friend...did I Know?
Today I found a friend, Who knew everything I felt. She knew my every weakness, And the problems I've been dealt. She understood my wonders, And listened to my dreams. She listened to how I felt about life and love, And knew what it all means. Not once did she interrupt me, Or tell me I was wrong. She understood what I was going through, And promised she'd stay long. I reached out to this friend, To show her that I care. To pull her close by and let her know, How much I needed her there. I went to hold her hand, To pull her a bit nearer. And realized that this perfect friend I've found, Was nothing but my bedroom mirror.

Identical Friends
Here is a tale of the trouble love sends, To a pair of inseparable very best friends. These very best friends had the same taste in boys, Just like as tots when they liked the same toys. They never did struggle to borrow or lend, They knew that sharing was being a friend. Ond defending the other when teased or called names. One choosing the other when teamed up for games. They were experts at sharing fears, sorrows, and joys. And their bond was rock solid until they cared about boys. It turned out they always liked the very same boy, But this would be different from sharing a toy. Will their friendship survive their concerns of the heart? Or will their love for one boy tear their friendship apart? It is yet to be known how this sad story ends, For they must choose between guys and best friends. They can ditch all they have for the love of one guy, Or hold onto their friendship and wave him good- bye. This poem is dedicated to Rachel and all we had growing up. Where ever you are, I hope

Forces Unseen
In this world of hate and remorse all i feel is your fucking force you say you love me, you say you care but i can think is do you really dare, to love me like i wish you would i know it's possible i know you could the way you hide your love from me makes me wanna drink the poisoined tea that'll take me from this fucked up place and only then will a smile be upon my face then you'll say i loved her so but if you don't show it i'll never know.

Night
Night is the worst time Night is a hard time Why can't I sleep Why can't I rest Pain in my heart Pain in my eyes Lost is my true love Lost is my heart The night is dark Dark are my thoughts Lost is the daylight Lost is my life Night is like death Night is so cold Hurt when I rest Hurt in my soul Longing for you Longing to hold you Lost forever Lost to the night

The Company Of Lost Souls
If your sanity is gone If your body is weak Sit down this night It is this which you seek Intruders stay not In this haven of space Their minds are closed And can't feel the pace Open your mind Then let in what waits You won't be alone In this very strange place You may leave in turmoil You may leave in peace We all see things differently In this place that you seek The music grows loud As the drink lays you bare Some seek oblivion Some just don't care This place is guarded By things that few see Dark winding shadows That engulf you and me The hour it is struck The time it is done The company disperses But still feels the pull We live in this world We live in this place Thrown together by need Held together like lace But! is it by chance Or the company that calls That company of souls In such an unholy place

Darkness Is Our Friend
The wind blew crisp this winter morning. Reflections of the amber lights glowed everywhere. I saw the rain did fall and the leaves scurried about to find hidden corners to safely tuck themselves away. I have felt Life many time, I have felt Death all the same. Living amongst the dead, along with those that let go and now wander through the streets. And names don't matter anymore. People in a hurry, running from something, running to something. But I can see the difference with those that lost their way and those that look ahead. And the pain runs down my shoulders searching to find peace. Everything is distorted yet insists on destruction. And I look at your eyes and I see the many faces all searching for the same thing. And none of us have the answers. The wind blew through the trees and when the leaves descended in their season, I knew they would come again. And I remembered, there are times we want to let go, when silence is serenity an

The Soul Stealer
The story I'm about to tell you is all too sad but true and don't you dare forget it lest it happen to you. Take heed you fair hearted virgins as you climb into your pure white beds, better keep those thoughts of love someplace else besides your head. There's a handsome black-eyed phantom that comes lurking in the night, he's looking for a new love and his charms you cannot fight. He appeared silently, smiling as she lay there dreaming of, someone someday she'd call her own, a good man she could love. Awakening she saw him there with his eyes as black as coal. One look from him and she knew, he had her heart but what of her soul. Into her bed he slowly crept, setting her mind on fire. Caressing her and holding her taking her passions higher. Whispering forbidden words, things she longed to hear, promises of endless joy he did speak into her ear. All through the night he stayed turning every thought of desire into a frenzied reality her

Paranoid Delusions
She kissed him once in a dream His friends tell him to forget it, but he can't ingore what seemed He tries to think straight but can't worth a shit He wants his life back, but life fucks with him He works to get his life on track However, things are much too dim He tries to cope He tries to learn, but he has lost hope He is now left to burn I try to steer him to the right direction He doesn't listen well All he knows is the friction And know he burns in humid hell He is stuck on the fantasy He chases the illusion He wants the ecstasy He is stuck with the paranoid dellusions It's fucking with his mind He doesn't know what to do The image is kind It wants it so badly too It is killing him He doesn't care Now it's getting dim All he wants is right there Paranoid Delusions

A Ray Of Sunshine In A Cloud Of Darkness
When you think all is lost And you're standing in a field of sorrow And no matter what you do There won't be any tomorrow And you know where you stand But you can't see your way And then you can't breath But you haven't for days So you hide and you cry And you wish you would die But you don't know what's wrong But you know its been long And you're wringing your hands 'Cuz your nerves are a flare You shut your eyes tight For you feel someone's there You want to shout out But no sound can you hear So you open your eyes And a shine of light does appear So you walk towards the light Then you can clearly see You're out, you've escaped, you're finally free.

Dusty Tears
The evil has arisen, deathly smile Dusty tears, Siphoning all religion Draining all your years. An unearthly pull to do it- To run away from life, To waste it all, lay in filth, To hide that bloody knife. With irredescant looming Completely I'll surround The life that is my precious gift To bludgeon it, watch it drown. My dad can hardly breath now, He is dying fast Whats the point in saving life To try to make it last?

Rage
I see everything you dont want me to My eyes are opened wide I slice through life with a bitter sting From me you can not hide. You run from it with eyes wide shut You are running to escape The voices in your head now cry Your virgin mind is raped. You watch it sneaking up on you And you quickly slash my throat I close my eyes, fall to the ground My death is long and slow.

Insanity
I feel the dark cold clammy touch of it It haunts me in my dreams It makes me cry and wonder why I suffer as I do. I wonder when it will go away When the pain will subside But as I sit here in my false reality My mind and soul slowly die. My tears stain my cheeks as they slide down my face It hurt so long, so long I've kept these tears deep inside That relief is bitterly sweet. My head is pounding and my brain is swimming My eyes are red and sore I feel my heart is at its last I can feel the fear no more. My body is slowly numbing The pain is almost gone I close my eyes and prepare myself For my mind is at its last. My throat goes dry as sand My skin is freezing cold But I lie awake Eyes as wide as ever But my mind has become no more.

Time Passes
You left over a year ago; you'd think I'd forget The love that we had and how we first met. Not a day goes by that I don't say to you I love you my dear,this will always be true. You don't hear my words; you don't have a clue My love's still there; cause I long to be with you. If you looked in my heart, you'd know they were real For my heart aches daily, 'cause that's how I feel. As I've said in the past, I'll say it once more My heart is still open and so is the door No matter how long I live, for you I'll be here When I think of you, I'll shed a silent tear. Don't worry about me, I will make it through I just want you to know my love is still true I'll leave you alone I won't bother you now If ever I see you, I'll smile somehow. Just remember how I feel, remember I care Just know I will listen, remember I'm there Some day I hope you will call me your friend I will hide everything I feel, but my love will never end.

How I Feel
The pain. The depression. It's all gone away. Involuntary tears streaming down my face. Its all torn apart. Nothing left. All faded away. I ask you one more time. Where is my life direction. The path. My journey. The light above and beyond. Flowing down the tunneled drain. Twisting and turning. Far away. Slipping and sliding. Into the distant darkness. I scream. I reach. I strive. Distant fears and screams. Agonizing. Terrorizing. Tagonizing. Flaming brutal torture alone. Why I ask you. Why I scream. Throat burning. Am I treated like I am. Abusiveness. The long struggle... Fighting to stay alive. Hurt and depression...heartbreak and failure. Broken and bleeding. Torn and pleading. Down on my knees. I'm locked deep down inside. Fading into eternal darkness. Unable to breathe. Covered..and coated...and showered. In the realms of HELL i DO reside.

American Freedom Today
Blood is the fluid of life spilled for countries for what we call freedom and fighting for our country and land. They say that America is the land of freedom to do as you please, but what they really mean is to pay taxes out the ass and be shut up forever. In America they say you are free and have no worries, but really it is all a lie to make you feel safe. It's nothing. Just a world of endless dreams and hopes gone to hell that you'll never be free. If we were considered free this nation would not be despising upon race and wealth. What should it matter what color you are or even how much money you have. The American Government says that there is opportunity here, but what opportunity is that? The opportunity to fail before you even try to succeed. There are no jobs to support our families, because foreign people come into this country and take them from us. When we have lived here all our lives and they just emmigrate and steal them all blind. How are we supposed to believe that our

Letter I'll Never Send
The letter I'll never send Would calmly ask you why You broke my heart in two And told my love good-bye If I ever sent this letter It would sweetly state You tangled up your destiny And interrupted fate, The letter I will not write Would casually inquire How can you live without me- I was your one desire. If you received this letter It would politely say You need me in your life now You can't go on this way. The letter I'll never send Would then be briskly signed "Your one and only love" You know-the one you left behind

Land Of Tears
Would you like to join me, in my land of tears? There is so much to learn here: Love means losing, in my land of tears. But in the process, love calms all fears. So maybe, you feel, you'll lose it all in the end, But nothing compares to the places you've been. Death is permanent, in my land of tears. But there is nowhere to run to when it nears. And when someone is taken, there's such pain in your heart. But be greatful- that someone was there from the start. Friendship is life, in my land of tears. It comforts all sorrows when the darkness lears. Forever binding and never untrue, It will be right there, through and through. There is so much I have learned here. Would you like to joing me in my land of tears?

Coke/pepsi Codes Contest - Final Results
My Coke Rewards M, 41North Syracuse, NY PEPSI/COKE FINAL STANDINGS: Congratulations to: TERESA~OWNER OF T&H DESTROYERS who provided me with 46 codes over the length of the contest. She wins a Papa John's 1 Topping Large Pizza certificate. But even though the contest is over, if you still have any codes for the following: MY COKE REWARDS PEPSI STUFF MILLER HIGH LIFE EXTRAS MOUNTAIN DEW OLD SCHOOL, NEW SCHOOL DR PEPPER IJ4 PROMOTION Send them to me & earn yourself 500 Fu-Bucks each. Thank you everyone who participated in the contest and provided codes for me. All tolled, 290 codes were given to me for the contest. That means that 145,000 fu bucks were given out during the contest. For this i'm very grateful for the codes as I hope you all are with the fubucks. FINAL RESULTS: TERESA~OWNER: 46 codes SaltyBaby: 33 codes Foxylady4040: 32 codes Tinkerbell: 29 codes Redneck7705: 27 codes Tiffy: 25 codes YourzTrulyBC: 11 codes RubyCairo: 10 codes Hot Sexy

As Of May 6,2008 I Will Delete My Fu Account
So On Friday May 6 I am deleting my fubar account if any of you would like to keep in touch let me know before then and I will give you my email address..It's been fun. Later, Angie

Sexxx
well if it isnt clear to everyone yet... i am here for mostly sexual reasons... i have been feeling very understimulated lately. i actually think im addicted to sex, but nevermind that... i just need a big fucking cock to fuck the shit outta me... any takers?

The Spider Web System
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Hugs 2 All The Original Cherrtap Ladies
An Love all Da way around for all the Newbies, Everyone get fine As Wine, An Show {Baby J} Sum Love An Miss Cherry, Damn You'r still smoking Hott... Peace an Love & Use a Glove! $$$$$$$$$$$

The Exquisite Agony
The Exquisite Agony Pain is a most natural capacity, despite a common belief that all pain is bad and that society must strive to eliminate it. I submit that pain is as system that warns of dangerous situations, or of bodily damage that requires special attention. Pain is primarily a biological safety system. A society that conceives of all love as gentle and affectionate finds difficulty in perceiving pain as enjoyable. Nor can a society which presumes all women desire abusive violence as an affirmation of their inferiority, comprehend the emotional intricacies of pain-pleasure as affectional experience between equals. Given involuntarily and in an atmosphere of distrust, pain is torture, whatever the motive. But given consensually, between equals, pain can be a most incredible form of love. When we ask ourselves this particular question about physical pain: That stuff hurts, does it not? I submit there is nothing particularly pleasant about the actual physical action its

May 27
I was sitting here, typing this email and wondering what you would think of this experience. I am once again in the minority religion, my Hebrew draws a few smiles and corrections and it is interesting to see the Jewish men congregate at the back of the plane to pray as the sun goes down. A couple people don't understand as the Jewish men block entrance to the restroom, even as I try to explain, one waves me off saying, "It's just a waste of time to me." We are so arrogant sometimes! and it grrrs me. I wish you could see this with me. I have managed to get all seminars that mean I am outside for all but the lecture and though I am tired, I can't sleep. Never have been a good sleeper, and absolutely terrible when I am in a plane. Besides I am looking forward to Jerusalem with a remorseful longing in my heart. It's sad because I know the divisions that rage over something that is really just another piece of land, just another Temple, another Mosque, another church. None of that really m

May 28 Part 1
I am here! The flight felt like an eternity for me, but I think it was easier for me than for the young lady that sat/slept next to me on the flight. She was on her way to meet her boyfriend’s parents as she began an internship in Haifa. Something about Israel and Palestine always feels like coming home in a sense. That sense of “home-ness” is different this time, but of course my purpose is different too. Much has changed in the three years I have been gone both in my life and in Israel. For one, old field notes were written, today I type them on this laptop. Despite the struggles we see on TV I have never felt at risk here and as the plane touches down, I feel at peace (and very sick of sitting around). The journey from Tel Aviv to Jerusalem begins with a haggling session between three Orthodox Jewish men and the shuttle driver: they want to get home, he wants a full bus. Finally, it is decided, they will accept three other passengers and we will each pay 35 shekels extra so the dri

Tom Petty - I Won't Back Down
Well I won't back down, No I won't back down You can stand me up at the gates of hell, but I won't back down No I'll stand my ground, walking turned around And I'll keep this world from dragging me down, But I stand my ground, and I won't back down I won't back down (hey baby, there ain't no easy way out) I won't back down (hey I, stand my ground and I won't back down) Well I know what's right I got just one life In a world that keeps on pushing me around But I stand my ground, and I won't back down I wont back down (hey baby, there ain't no easy way out) I wont back down (hey I, will stand my ground and I won't back down) I won't back down (hey baby, there ain't no easy way out) I won't back down (hey I, won't back down) I won't back down (hey baby, there ain't no easy way out) I won't back down (hey I, will stand my ground, and I wont back down, no i wont back down)

Letters Home From The Garden Of Stone
Sittin' restless under the moonlight, I know I'm getting ready to kill, They say we're going in with the daylight, Ma, I don't want to but I will. 'Cause I won't know the man that kills me, And I don't know these men I kill, I pray to God for my salvation, Wash away the blood I spill. I try not to think about my family, 'Cause it's a little too much to take, Out here I got me and I got my buddy, We can't afford even one mistake. Sorry 'bout writing on dirty cardboard, It's the only paper that I could find, Tell everyone I got their letters, Tell everyone I'm doing fine. Late at night when I can dream, ma, I think about life back in the world, I miss you and dad, I miss sister Sarah, I miss my wife and my baby girl. Pray for me, pray for my soul ma, Pray for me and all my sins, They say that I got a job to do now, And I'll be back when it finally ends. Do you think I should be fighting? Ma, are you proud, are you ashamed? Baby I'm trying to do the r

War
Fight We all came together, Both young and old. To fight for our freedom, To stand and be bold. In the midst of all evil, We stand our ground, And we protect our country From all terror around. Peace and not war, Is what some people say. But I'll give my life, So you can live the American way I give you the right, To talk of your peace, To stand in your groups, And protest in our streets. But still I fight on. I don't bitch I don't whine. I'm just one of the men, Who is doing your time. I'm harder than nails, Stronger than any machine, I'm the immortal soldier, I'm a U.S. MARINE! By Robert Byers

Vip/blast Giveaway Contest The 13th
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My Yard
that was the yard with the boulder in the back silence all around green leaves all around me noone knows where i am while i sit on my branch wind through my hair creaking of the rope the smell of rubber getting dizzy the smell of peaches the fuzz on my hands the juices in my mouth running down my chin my hands are getting sticky rolling down the hill making mud pies in soda bottle caps layin on my rock. that was the yard with the boulders in the back silence all around

Missing Him
I miss my beloved, I can't wait for him to come home to me. Only then will I know that he is safe. I know that he is doing his duty, But I don't like him being away from me for so long. I despise how the war keeps him from returning home to me. Everyday when I think, I think of him, Him and his beauty, Him doing his duty, His bright shiny smile, How he walks for miles, His sense of humor, His own little laugh, His ability to make me smile, Even when things are at there worst, I think about everything about him. He is in my dreams, and in my prayers. I dream of being with him forever.

When Your Not Here
Every day when I think I think of you You and your beauty Your bright and shiney smile Your sense of humor Your own little laugh Your ability to make me smile I think of every thing about you Every night when I dream I dream of you Being with you Laughing with you Talking with you Listening to you Holding you tight I dream of being with you forever

My Fucked Up Life
ok you may say your life is difficult but the way i see it you may have had it easy. when i was born i was taken out by c section 1 month early due to a cyst in my head from all the drugs that my mom did when she was pregnant with me. so yeah now i have a tube in my head well i have had it since i was born it was used to drain the fluids from my head. then when i was 2 i was found at the bottom of a hottub and i almost died. oh yeah to top it all off i was a sex revenge baby my mom and dad had sex together cuz their exs at the time had also slept with eachother so yeah and thats how i came into the picture. and then when i was in the 5th grade i was almost killed by a pitbull. So yeah to top it all off i was almost killed in a car wreck at age 16 and then at age 21 on my 21st birthday i got pregnant and the miracle of it all is i got pregnant with my 2 twin boys that will be 2 and they are the loves of my life.

Joke
A woman takes a lover home during the day while her husband is at work. Her 9 year old son comes home Unexpectedly, sees them, and hides in the bedroom cupboard to watch. Just after getting into bed the woman's husband also comes home. She puts her lover in the cupboard, not realising that the little boy is in there already. After a little while the little boy says, 'Dark in here.' The man, who obviously got a real fright not expecting to hear anything let alone from a little boy says, 'Yes, it is.' Boy - 'I have a football.' Man - 'That's nice.' Boy - 'Want to buy it?' Man - 'No, thanks.' Boy - 'My dad's outside.' Man - 'OK, how much?' Boy - '$250' In the next few weeks, it happens again that the boy and the lover are in the cupboard together. Boy - 'Dark in here.' Man - 'Yes, it is.' Boy - 'I have football boots.' The lover, remembering the last time, asks the boy, 'Ok how much this time ?' Boy - '$350' Man - 'Sold.' A few days

Where Am I ?
Some of you might be wondering where I've been, but the truth is most of you probably don't care and that's fine. I'm back to the R/L I'm working more then full time, and trying to save up to get the hell out of florida as soon as I can. Fubar lost it's luster for me when I started getting harrassed for no reason by annoymous sources. I have enough problems in real life, I don't need to be bothered with some online retards problems as well. I've met plenty of good people on here, and If I'm ever on yahoo hopefully we can still talk but, i probably wont be coming on here anymore. People just take this website way to seriously... Go outside.. breath the fresh air, go to the beach or go to a REAL bar.. That's my advice.. this place will drive you crazy.. seriously. Love yas ~~(~(Crazii/Beautiful)))__~~)~

June 5
I have been to Marsaba, the Wilderness I suspect Jesus was taken to after his baptism. It was the most potentially dangerous part of the trip. Now that I am back, with many pictures, you will see this area and understand how it could be used for Jesus' temptation and it is right over the hill from Jesus' baptism site. I also have pictures of Qumran and the caves of the Dead Sea Scrolls to share but only from a distance. It is very, very hot there and I was not ready to go quite that far lol.

I Want To Live, You Want To Live. Can't We Live Together?
The taxi driver I mentioned in the Wapello blog invited me into his home and is taking me around Bethlehem today to a few sites I haven't seen. It will be a great time I have no doubt! But I want to tell you a little about him. The title of this blog is his witness to the world. He shared with me some very fine Arabic coffee, very fresh, honoring me with his hospitality. He is 53 years old, has 11 children: 7 girls and 4 boys. His cab pays him 60 shekels a day which is around $19. As we sit down to share orange juice while the coffee is cooked, his oldest son, Muhammed, comes in and explains that there is no water. It has been 15 days without running water in the house. They must purchase water at about 10 shekels for 1.5 liters or $3.35 for 1.75 quarts to drink and clean with. Each person in a family might drink that much in a day so imagine the water needs of a family. You are having too much water there, here there is enough running water for hotels and restaraunts, enough for t

Computer Jokes...people Say The Darndest Things.
WEll Yall...here I go again. Just had a thought and gonna see where it takes me. Just writing and whatever comes out, comes out. Nonsense...thats ALL Oh my goodness, that was funny like going to the Atm, and aint got no money. Oh my goodness, how can it be that something so sad is so funny Oh my goodness, what' s going on This is tickling my funny bone. Oh my goodness, have you heard, or seen or read, such funny words. Oh my goodness, this cant be real To laugh this hard at what I feel. Oh my goodness, If only you knew How funny this is, you'd be laughing too Oh my goodness, I just cant stop Laughing at this lollipop. Oh my goodness, let me quit but how can you not laugh at this shyt. Oh my goodness, if you don't know This muthafukkin joke has got to go. Oh my goodness, its startin to hurt Like big ole boobs in a too little shirt. Oh my goodness, can u believe that its better to give than to receive. Oh

Dowhat You Think Is The Right To Do!
Sometimes we are forced to make a choice that could change everything in your life. Things that might not be very easy to choose which is good or bad,needs or wants,or whatever it may be that needs to be well thought out to find happiness. The right choice is always found when you listen to what your heart tells you,not what everyone else tells you! Just something I told a really close friend to think about!

When Someone Makes You Smile After You Them,
It is a nice feeling to meet someone new that puts a smile on your face! Its hard to find a person thats down to earth,straight up and honest about themself who they are and what they want from life! To me thats one of the best qualities a person can have. And a big turn on to meet up with a woman thats not afraid to be herself and to say whats on her mind! Theres not many people out there anymore thats for real and down to earth but when you are lucky enough to find and meet one it sure feels good!!

Post
ah, that bbq was alright, all the couples problems had sorted themselves out during the course of the week so i didnt have to go big-mouthing. theres a family party tonight, a 40th birthday but those gigs are always dull, i will probably try and get out of it. i had a good convo with ky yesterday, trying to see what he is actually like underneath all the jokes and stonedness. i think he is a nice guy but maybe still a Taker and i dunno if i like that, its irritating, like an insult to intelligence. i almost accidently blurted yesterday that my relationship has evolved beyond sub/Domme and i spent some time yesterday considering that phenomonen and being quietly pleased about it. enough for now.

7 Kind Of Sex....
Recent research shows that there are 7 kinds of sex: The 1st kind of sex is called Smurf Sex. This kind of sex happens when you first meet someone and you both have sex until you are blue in the face. The 2nd kind of sex is called Kitchen Sex. This is when you have been with your partner for a short time and you are so horny you will have sex anywhere, even in the kitchen. The 3rd kind of sex is called Bedroom Sex. This is when you have been with your partner for a long time. Your sex has gotten routine and you usually have sex only in your bedroom. The 4th kind of sex is called Hallway Sex. This is when you have been with your partner for too long. When you pass each other in the hallway, you both say "screw you." The 5th kind of sex is called Religious Sex, which means you get Nun in the morning, Nun in the afternoon and Nun at night. The 6th kind is called Courtroom Sex. This is when you cannot stand your wife any more. She takes you to court and screws you in fron

Things To Note In Life....
1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel. 2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. 3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. 4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. 5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. 6. Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. 7. Dream

Little Angel
Little Angel Sooner or later, when the time is right, you know that I'll be waiting here And I'm sure that you will find your way to me Baby I'll be ready, I've had so many lonely nights I want a love that feels so right, and you know I'll be waiting for you And baby if I could let you know It's more than a feeling, it's what I believe in, and I can't let this go I need an angel (angel) in my life, little angel (angel) here tonight I need an angel here by my side It must be like heaven when you find someone, someone who's really wanting you And I know there must be one love there for me I spent a lifetime waiting, and now I feel the time is right For you to come into my life, you know I'll be ready for you And baby my love could be so strong So don't keep me waiting, my heart's nearly breaking I've been on my own too long I need an angel (angel) in my life, little angel (angel) here tonight I need an angel by my side I'm waitin for an angel (angel) her

Memory
We arrive at his place, not talking about much, just little things. We go in the living room and slip off our shoes. He's taking stuff out of his pockets while I put my purse on the couch. We make our way into his room and he lay down on the bed. I don't want to just lay there, I want to get started in on the action. I know exactly how I want to get started too. I straddle him on the bed. I lean over and we kiss. Our tongues swirling around each others. I smile at him, sitting up I unhook my bra. I pull both my bra and shirt off at the same time. I pull on his arms and he sits up also. I tug on his shirt and he slides it off in a single motion. I lean back propping myself up on my hands. He looks up at me while he sucks on my nipples. It feels so good. He flicks them with his tongue causing them to stand erect. I push him back down on the bed as we kiss. I break part our lip lock to make my way down to where I really want to go. Moving down his boy I leave a trail of kisses. Stat

Country Drive
It's a nice warm summers day and we decide to go for a drive. I'm wearing a sleeveless summer dress, quite low cut, buttoned down the front, some of the bottom buttons open revealing my bare legs. Its so hot that we have the windows open and a sudden gust of warm air lifts my skirt, revealing more of my legs. Seeing you glance at me, I move so that my skirt rides up more, enjoying the cooler air on my skin. You reach over placing your hand on my knee, softly stroking it. I place my hand over yours and parting my legs slowly guide your hand upwards, the touch of your fingers on my inner thighs sending shivers through me. I can see the effect this is having on you, so I reach across and slowly run my fingers up your leg and over the bulge in your trousers. Your cock twitching in response. By now you're hand has reached the swell of my pussy and you can feel my wetness through my panties. You notice a quiet side road and turn into it, we are heading towards some woods. As you dri

20 Reasons Why A Quickie Beats Marathon Sex
1. No repetitive-stress injuries. 2. Knocks out insomnia faster than two tabs of Tylenol PM and a Bud tallboy. 3. Two words: less sweat. 4. On deadline? No problem! 5. Saves on batteries. 6. No guilt associated with saying, "I think it's time for you to go home now." 7. Two more words: stress reduction. 8. Makes for an interesting elevator ride. 9. Won't ruin your lipstick. 10. Great way to kill time while stuck in traffic on the way to the beach (if you don't mind rubberneckers). 11. Sometimes you just don't want your toes sucked. 12. You don't have to worry about remembering your partner's name. 13. Performance anxiety? What's that? 14. It's something to do while talking to your parents on the phone. 15. Doesn't give you enough time to notice he or she smells bad. 16. You don't have to suffer the embarrassment of having an orgasm in front of someone you hardly know. 17. You can have your after-sex cig in the cab. That is, after having s

Being A Nurse
After working as a Nurse in a hospital setting now for a while..I am starting to see what sleep deprivation really is. below is a peice of a blog I wrot about a year and a half ago... if i only knew THEN! lol *ceated january of 07* well..i have BARELY got my foot in the water with this whole Practical Nursing diploma...and I already see visions of me in class drooling due to sleepiness, and feeling like a COMPLETE moron at times. even though i scred the equivalent of a 3.8 on every entrance exam and test i took to get into it, I still feel like I am about to get...SCHOOLED! so..for me, and anyone else in the student nursing program..here is a prayer, written by a very good friend of mine. THE STUDENT NURSES PRAYER Lord, I know we go through this everyday. But please give me the knowledge as to why I actually wanted to go to nursing school. And give me the strength to make it through Another 3hr lecture without falling asleep. Lord please give me the patience to make i

Orange Coffee Cake
Orange Coffee Cake Quick Cooking "I like to make this quick breakfast treat because I don't have to lug out my big mixer," mentions Cheryl Palla from Cannon Falls, Minnesota. The cake's mild orange flavor is complemented by a tasty streusel topping. SERVINGS: 8 CATEGORY: Breads METHOD: Baked TIME: Prep: 15 min. Bake: 30 min. Ingredients: 2 cups all-purpose flour 1/2 cup sugar 2 teaspoons baking powder 1 teaspoon salt 1 egg 3/4 cup orange juice 1/3 cup vegetable oil 1/4 cup milk 1 tablespoon grated orange peel STREUSEL TOPPING: 1/4 cup sugar 1/4 cup all-purpose flour 2 tablespoons cold butter or margarine Directions: In a bowl, combine the dry ingredients. Combine egg, orange juice, oil, milk and orange peel; add to the dry ingredients just until combined. Pour into a greased 10-in. pie plate. For topping, combine sugar and flour in a bowl; cut in butter until crumbly. Sprinkle over batter. Bake at 350° for 30-35 minu

Paper Mache'
Paper Mache' Use a simple mixture of flour and water. Mix one part flour with about 2 parts of water until you get a consistency like thick glue. Add more water or flour as necessary. Mix well to get out all the bumps. Add a few tablespoons of salt to help prevent mold! Pulp Recipe for Paper Mache' Materials Needed: * Newspaper * Water * Salt * Glue Instructions: A pulp mixture is great for making smooth, fine details in your paper mache creations, or for creating small objects. It would, however, take a lot of it to complete a larger project. Tear the newspaper into tiny pieces and put them in a large bowl. Add just enough warm to hot water to completely cover the newspaper. Let soap overnight. Once your newspaper has soaked for several hours, get your hands into it! Play with it, mix it, and squeeze it through your fingers until it looks like oatmeal! Try to get as many lumps out as possible. If necessary, add a bit more water and let it soak a lit

Finger Paint
Finger Paints *add food coloring or tempera paint for color. 1/2 cup cornstarch 2 - 3/4 cup water 1 Tbsp glycerin Mix cornstarch with 1/4 cup cold water. Gradually add 2 cups hot water, stirring to prevent lumps. Cook over low heat until it begins to boil. Remove from heat and add another 1/2 cup cold water and 1 tablespoon glycerin. (makes it slippery and keeps it from drying out)

Play Dough (home Made)
Homemade Play Dough 1 cup all-purpose flour 1/2 cup salt 1 cup water 1 tsp cream of tartar 1 tbls vegetable oil a few drops of food coloring Mix together: flour, salt, water, cream of tartar, vegetable oil, and food coloring in a pan. Heat over medium heat for 3-5 minutes. Store in an airtight container or in locking plastic bags.

Chin Apple Game
1 Create two teams of equal size. 2 Line them up side by side. 3 Give an apple to one person on each team on the same end of the line for both teams. 4 They must hold the apple under their chin, and pass it to the person's chin next to them. 5 The apple goes from chin to chin with no hands across from left to right. (or right to left) 6 First team to get the apple to the opposite side of the line, wins. Dropping the apple, or using of hands is an automatic disqualification. This game can also be done with a small pumpkin at Halloween, a large plastic egg at easter, or other items you might find that you can hold with your chin.

Blindfolded Jack-o-lantern Drawing
Player gets a piece of blank white paper and a crayon, pen or pencil. The player must attempt to draw a jack-o-lantern. If anyone draws one that actually looks like a jack-o-lantern wins! Blindfolded "baby face" drawing would work with this idea also at a baby shower.

Ghost Bingo
1 Use orange poster board 8.5x11 size Or using a large poster board, carefully cut smaller sheets as playing cards. 2 Using a black permanent marker and a ruler, create a bingo grid on each sheet. 3 Instead of having it say BINGO, have it say GHOST across the top for your row headers. 4 Use candy corn for marking spots. 5 Make several sheets with numbers 1-50 example of numbering: (G=1-10) (H=11-20) (O=21-30) (S=31-40) (T=41-50) 6 Each sheet is five across, and five down. The center position is "free". 7 Number stickers work great for this project, but a marker is fine. Stickers marking the free spot are also another variation that could be adopted. 8 Using note cards or card stock, create 50 small cards, numbered 1-50 and toss them in a big pumpkin bucket and tumble them around between rounds, then one person calls the numbers until one of the players get's "GHOST" then "BLACKOUT GHOST"

Mocha Ice Cream
Mocha Ice Cream 24 Oreo cookies, crushed 1/3 c. butter, melted 1/2 gallon coffee ice cream 3 oz. unsweetened chocolate 2 tbsp. butter or margarine 1 c. sugar Dash of salt 1 (5 1/2-6 oz.) cans evaporated milk 1/2 tsp. vanilla extract 1 1/2 c. heavy cream, whipped 1 1/2 oz. kahlua liqueur Powdered sugar to taste 1/2-3/4 c. chopped nuts Combine cookie crumbs and butter and press into the bottom of a buttered 9 x 13 inch pan. Refrigerate. When chilled, spoon on softened ice cream and freeze. Melt chocolate and butter. Add sugar, salt and milk. Bring to a boil, stirring until thickened. Remove from heat and add vanilla. Chill and spread on top of ice cream. Freeze. Whip cream. Add Kahlua and powdered sugar to taste. Spread over chocolate layer and sprinkle top with chopped nuts. Freeze. Makes 25 servings

Ghost Hunting Game
Start by selecting 5-10 Halloween related words. Here are some suggestions: bat, cat, ghost, ghoul, pumpkin, witch, broom, goblin etc. You may want a styrofoam base to stick the ghosts into during the game. Divide players into ghost hunting teams of 3-5 per team, the number per team may be based the ages of the players. Each team is given clues to find ghosts that can be hidden outside or inside. Note: Don't place all the ghosts together or the they will grab the first ghost they see rather than find the ghost you want them to find. Also, tell them not to untie the ghosts until after the game is over because a secret prize can be hidden on the inside of the ghost's gown. So send them off to different areas. You'll want 1 ghost per guest or a specified number per team, but have extras so each player gets a ghost. Each ghost is a lollipop covered with tissue paper, tied with ribbon with a letter written on the ghost. You can also use letter stickers. Use a marker a add eyes

Special World
A special world for you and me A special bond one cannot see It wraps us up in its cocoon And holds us fiercely in its womb. Its fingers spread like fine spun gold Gently nestling us to the fold Like silken thread it holds us fast Bonds like this are meant to last. And though at times a thread may break A new one forms in its wake To bind us closer and keep us strong In a special world, where we belong.

Musical Witches Hats Game
Lay out meshy plastic witches hats so that they are flat, around in a circle on the floor. This game is just like musical chairs. There is one less hat then players. Players walk around the outside of the ring of hats. When the music stops, each player tries to claim the nearest hat. The person running the game makes the final call of who was on each hat, as there is always one less hat then there are players. Each round disqualifies one player leaving them with no hat. The last one to claim the last hat of two people wins the grand prize! Use Halloween songs for musical witches hat game.

Pick Up Bench Game- Adult Costume Party Game
Players must be wearing costumes for it to be funny. Give each player a number. Numbers are randomly called. The first sits on the left and the other on the right. The player on the left has to invent a comical, creative pick up line for the player on the right based on how they are dressed, ie their costume... very funny! Prizes given for most clever, least clever, wackiest, funniest, make winners so that everyone wins based on what they said!

Silly Sally Game
Four people are chosen for the round and three of the four are taken out of the room. The one that remains is told to mime one of the following (or one of your own ideas) in approximately 20 seconds: 1. Changing the diapers of twins 2. Bathing an elephant 3. Jumping from a large tower into a huge bowl of Jello Before they start, a second person is brought into the room and told to watch. When the first demonstration has been completed, the first person is allowed to retake their place and the third person is brought into the room. The second (who has just seen the demonstration) is told that they have to act out what they have just seen for the third person. After it's done, the fourth person enters and the scene is acted out again by the third person. The games ends when the third person has done the mime, and the fourth person is asked what they have just seen. They get three guesses. Let the humor begin!

Bluff Me Game, Also Known As Bullshit!
Bluff Me game. also known as "BULLSHIT" 1. Each player thinks of a few stories or episode in their life that are true, and makes up a few, completely bluffing, aka bullshit. 2. Each person takes a turn. When it's their turn, they say their truth or bluff. 3. The other players need to decide together if the person is telling the truth or bluffing. (bullshit) The players have 30 seconds after completion of the story to decide together if they want to say truth or bluff. (bullshit) 4 If you stump the group with your story, you get a point. That means if it was true and they thought you were bluffing then you get a point, OR if you were bluffing and they thought it was true, you get a point. 5 If they guess correctly, you get no points for that round. 6 First person with 3 points wins. 7 Alternately, you could also have a 3,4, or 5 letter word like: DANCE, PARTY, FUN. Each time you stump the group, you'd earn a letter. When you make the word, you win.

Cheeto Head Game
1. One person sits in a chair with a plastic shower cap on their head. 2. Their team mate covers their shower cap with shaving cream. 3. Their team mate must stand back to 5 feet away and throw cheetos at the head of their team mate. 4. The team with the most cheetos stuck to the head when cheetos are gone, wins. (person sitting can not use hands or shoulders or anything like that to keep cheetos on their head)

Toothpaste Aim Game
1. Teams are 2 players. 2. One player stands on a chair, the other lays on the floor in front of them, with their head in front of the chair. 3 The Chair team mate is above the floor team made with a tube of toothpaste. 4 the player lying on the floor gets a Dixie cup in their mouth. 5 The player on the chair squeezes the toothpaste tube into the cup of the player below. (at shoulder height no cheating allowed) 6 Time them for 30 seconds. 7 Team with the most toothpaste in the cup wins. cups can be weighed or you can just eyeball it.

I Never Did That Game
Each player gets 5 pieces of either candy, or another token or prize. (for an adult party, it could be a drink coin good for one free drink) Play 5 Rounds Each player says something (doesn't matter at all what it is) but it has to be something they have not done. Each other player who has done it, has to put a piece of candy in the pot. The object is to keep your candy pieces (prize pieces- for adult party, these could be a drink coin) The person with the most tokens left after 5 rounds wins all the coins in the pot. If there is a tie or a three way tie, they split the pot either two or three ways, respectively.

Mystery Madness Game
You collect costume pieces that require no sizes, for instance, wands, axes, or wigs. Anything from the halloween accessory isle will work. Fill several garbage bags with items (no themes, just randomly place them.) Make sure there is an equal number of items in each garbage bag Place the bags in a circle. There are the same amount of bags as their are people. The people walk around the outside of the circle of bags. When the music stops, they must reach in and pull out the first thing they grab out of the bag directly in front of them in the circle. The game is over when all items have been given out. The person with the funniest overall costume in the end wins by vote.

Whistle Lap Bluff Game
'It' is blindfolded and stands in the center of a seated circle while the players change seats. 'It' now sits on any player's lap. No words are spoken. Then the person on whose lap they sit must whistle a tune. He/she must guess whose lap he is sitting on. If he's correct, the two change places. If not then they must move to another lap and try again.

Bizz Or Buzz Game
This game starts with everyone sitting in a circle. You start with one player and go clockwise. Any number that ends in 7 or 1 you say bizz. First player says bizz, next to them says two, three, four, five, six, bizz, eight nine then, bizz, twelve thirteen fourteen fifteen sixteen bizz.... You keep going until someone makes a mistake, then you start over again. The person who makes a mistake and says a number instead of biz, moves to the back of the line. This also works as a drinking game, exchanging bizz for buzz. If a person messes up saying the number (ending in 7 or 1) instead of buzz, they have to take a drink.

Amoeba Game
This is for a very large mixed group. Divide the group into two smaller groups, not quite half-and-half. One group links arms in a circle facing outward. The other players stands freely inside the circle. It is best if the inner group is rather tightly packed inside the circle. Adjust group sizes to fit. One person is chosen to be the "nucleus" of the "amoeba", and sits on the shoulders of a (preferably strong) person inside the circle. The "nucleus" then has to navigate the "amoeba" through and around the party area, or building, to a pre-selected finish line, perhaps from outdoors to indoors, or upstairs to downstairs, room to room, etc. The "nucleus" MUST remain in or near the center of the "amoeba". This game is most fun if there are obstacles to navigate, the more difficult the better!

Baby In The Air Game
Use a soft nerf type ball. The group first assigns each player a number starting with 1. The group then must choose a thrower. The thrower throws the ball high into the air and yells "Baby in the air number X". X represents any number of any player. While the ball is in the ait, the rest of the players scatter in any direction away from where the ball will land. The player whose number was called must try to catch the ball. If it bounces once or twice that's OK. However, once the player has control of the ball he/she yells "Freeze!" and the rest of the group all freeze in their spot wherever they are. Then the thrower takes 3 steps towards any player and throws the ball, trying to hit the chosen player. If the ball hits the player, the player gets a letter "B" (the first letter in B-A-B-Y). If the thrower misses, then the thrower gets a letter "B". The thrower then throws the ball in the air again and the game starts again. The game continues and players continue to add letters (B-A-B-

Barnyard Animals
1. Players list various barnyard animals all they can think of and make small pieces of paper with one barnyard animal on each piece of paper. 2. Put the papers in a hat. pass around the hat, each person takes one paper for each round. 3. The player must describe their barnyard animal without making the sound it makes or saying the word it actually is. Other ways to describe it could be like, "seabiscuit was one of these" "this animal lays eggs" "he eats grass""this animal swims" They have 20 seconds to describe their animal. If the group guesses their animal within the 20 seconds, they get a point. If not, they get zero. First person to 5 pts wins. This can be other themes not only barnyard animals. You can do harder things like racing related items, or halloween items, or foods. The opportunities of themes are endless, so long as there are plenty of items within the theme to describe in the game. In this harder version, If the person doesn't know their item and has

Blueberry Cheesecake Ice Cream
Blueberry Cheesecake Ice Cream 1 can evaporated milk 4 lb. cream cheese 6 eggs 2 c. sugar Half & half 1 1/2 tsp. almond extract 1/3 c. Grapenuts 1 can blueberry pie filling (or cherry pie filling) Beat well eggs and sugar. Add softened cream cheese. Beat well with electric mixer. Gradually add evaporated milk while continuing to mix with mixer. Add almond extract flavoring. Pour into 1 1/2 gallon can. Add half & half to fill line. When ice cream is hard, or electric freezer stops, remove dasher and swirl Grapenuts and blueberry pie filling into ice cream. Do not mix well. Pour water off of ice cream can for 2 hours to harden or "ripen" ice cream.

Tutti Fruiti Ice Cream
Tutti Fruiti Ice Cream 3 mashed bananas 3 oranges (juice) 3 lemons (juice) 3 c. sugar 3 c. cream (optional: 2 pts. half and half may be substituted) Combine ingredients in 4 quart ice cream freezer. Add milk to finish filling (approximately 3 cups). Place ice cream bucket in churn and freeze as usual.

Should've, Would've, Could've
I know things could have turned out differently If we hadn't turned our backs on each other But should'ves, could'ves and would'ves won't change the now And we can't rest on our laurels inside life's tomorrows Though unlike humpty dumpty, we don't have to fear If we take a great fall off the brick wall 'Cause we can put each other back together again With interchangeable hands even after all this And I should've And you could've And we would've When we were thick like thieves in the heart of it all But all the should'ves could'ves and would'ves Meant nothing on the back of love's ill fated truth Yeah some days had more questions than minutes As I turned out my pockets answers coming up empty And I didn't even have enough fight in me left to lose 'Cause every used thought created a ripple in time And another bridge was built to narrow this great divide As we searched for answers inside the meaning of us Inside this city that never sleeps except upon pews of l

See My Mistres On Cam
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For Future Friends =)
Just wanted to stop by real quick and say hello to everyone.As you have seen I added a few pics of me to get started will add more real soon. A lot of things going on this week so don't know how many I will get to put on or when.Might even have some speacil beach pics for the people I add as friends >=).Also just wanted to say one thing and get it out in the open. I may do sexy pics I may even do some nude pics ,but that DOES NOT mean I will webcam or anything like that.I do like to make friends and I can flirt with the best of them but that doesn't mean I'm a web slut.If you want to be added to my yahoo it's REDD_WOLFF@YAHOO.COM I hate using the shoutbox =p~~~~~~ RED

Love, Relationship
surely there has to be the right one out there somewhere isnt there i belong to a lot of website and i havnt found the right one yet so maybe i will here i hope lol r just have fun i guess from ur friend clara

Realinships
Life moves on i know...relashionships change...there are breakups, there are feelings broke and yet we still live...god gave us feelings and emotions and yet some of those cant hurt worse than something pounding on you phisically...some breakups might make you think you will never find anyone like them...but i am here to tell you that if a a guy wants to break up with or mis treats you than they dont know what they have...and you can find someone that treats you like you need to be...like you are there one and only..this is from a guy..might think that is wierd..but there are guys out there that actually care for someones feelings and would love to cherish every mommet that they are with the girl taht they care most about...some ppl think a girl is just someone to be with and treat them that same way... they give ppl like me a bad name... but there are ppl that will love and care for you....

14 Rules Of Life
1) Don’t worry about what people think; they don’t do it very often. 2) Going to church doesn’t make you a Christian anymore than standing in a garage makes you a car. 3) If you must choose between 2 evils, pick the 1 you’ve never tried before. 4) A conscience is what hurts when all of your other parts feel so good. 5) Men are from earth and women are from earth. Deal with it! 6) No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes. 7) There is always 1 more imbecile than you counted on. 8) Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again. 9) Someone who thinks logically provides nice contrast to the real world. 10) It ain’t the jeans that make your butt look fat. 11) There is a very fine line between being on MySpace and mental illness. 12) People who want to share their religious views with you, almost never want you to share yours with them. 13) You should not confuse your career with your life. 14) The

Storm Thoughts & Other Thoughts
Last night the Lehigh Valley in particular Allentown Pa got hit by a series of severe thunderstorms. Approximately 4 inches of rain fell in a 2 hour or less period. Winds of easily 60-70 mph and 1.00 inch hail. Trees were knocked and snapped down and there were 14000 people without power for about 4-6 hours. I posted just one part of a ten part series video of this storm that captured the high points of the storms... I realize that majority of the people here do not care about the weather. However..I consider the people on here as friends that are on my list so that is why I post the information here as well. So in case anything severe etc would head your way you will have a heads up notice.

Hmmm
Wondering why they dont let you pay for vip and blast using paypal ... i need a credit card :( ...there are lots of sexy ppl out there that should be gettin rated 11's sorry to all you sexy ppl that icant rate 11 :( you deserve much more ... keep up with the sexyness ;)

New Book
working on a new book ,called Pixed, yeah it's another unreal creature book, but it is going to be a hot one.I mean come on a sexy Pixy guy fines you to be is other part of his soul and turns himself into human size and comes to you and makes hot sweaty passonate love you, what would you do,espeacially if you only thought you was dreaming? Hello sleep alot right ladies!Well hope somneone here checks out my book Sweet Dreams and enjoys it fully in bed and out,lol.

Watermelon Cookies
WATERMELON COOKIES 2 cups all-purpose flour 1 egg 1 1/2 tsp. baking powder 3/4 cup white sugar 1/2 tsp. salt 1/3 cup butter 1/2 cup shortening 1 T. milk 1 tsp. vanilla extract 3 drops red food coloring 1/3 cup mini semi-sweet chocolate chips 2 T. water 1 1/2 cups confectioners' sugar 3 drops green food coloring Combine flour, baking powder, salt in a small mixing bowl. Beat butter, shortening with an electric mixer at medium speed until fluffy; gradually add sugar, beating well. Stir in egg, milk, vanilla. Gradually add flour mixture to creamed mixture, mixing well. Add a small amount of red food coloring to color dough as desired, beating until blended. Shape dough into a ball; cover chill at least 3 hours. Preheat oven to 375. Divide dough in half; store one portion in refrigerator. Roll remaining portion to 1/4 inch thickness on a lightly floured surface. Cut dough with a 3-inch round cookie cutter, cut circle in half. Place on an

Healing Herbs
Sachet for Healing - 2 parts Cinnamon - 2 parts Sandalwood - 1 part Rose petals - 1 part Cayenne - 1 part Ginger - 1 part Rue Mix and tie in a blue or purple cloth. Anoint with Eucalyptus oil and wear or place near bed at night. Some herbs that are medicinally good for pain relief and magically good for healing that you might add into the sachet would be Camomile, White Willow bark, and Wood Betony. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Healing Bath By: Scott Cunningham Take a lit silver or white candle, some salt (preferably sea salt), and a healing oil (such as carnation, violet, sandalwood, or narcissus) into the bathroom. By the candle's light run a tub of very warm water. Cast some salt into it, add a few drops of healing oil, and then step into the tub. Relax. Feel the warm salted water sinking into your pores, through your skin, sterilizing the sick portions of your body. Visualize the sickness as black worms, cells etc, as leaving your body

Native American Healing Practices And Traditions
1. Healing takes time and time is healing. The healers recognized that one should not start the job of treating a sick person unless he or she had sufficient time to give that person to get well. Hours of contact were required, unlike the Hollywood stereotype in which a short ceremony with a few shakes of the rattle brings the person back to full strength and wellness. They also recognized that the act of giving time to another person is healing in and of itself. Cake baking and chemical reactions also require time to unfold. Too little time in the oven and the cake is still mush. Too much time, and the cake is burned. The healers believed that even the act of baking a cake imparted an intention and a power from the baker to the cake which would be passed on to the person who ate the cake. This sense of "contained intent or information," is similar to a story quoted by Schwartz and Russek6 of Claire Sylvia, a former dancer who received the first successful heart-lung transplant in

Think About It
So think about it. Setting her thinking about the facts of life we are doomed to repeat.So I came up with this statement. Hmm 5 things in life are true. 1.Life 2.Growth 3.Death 4.Taxes 5.Repeat...Maybe next time we get it right.Oh history repeats as well..um nevermind getting it right... Not that things are enjoyed once repeated and life kinda stinks at times with each repeat....hmmm lol...Anyways lol enjoy the reading...lol

Tired Of
I’m tired of being lied to I’m tired of guys just wanting a piece of ass. I’m tired of being alone I’m tired of not having a job. Im tired of not having my damn licesnces Tired of always waiting on someone else Im tired of the bullshit Im tired of not having any TRUE friends Im tired of just bein at home all the time Im tired of ppl that always think they are right im tired of i cant even find me the "RIGHT ONE" I’m tired of jackasses who try to make me think they are going to be different than every other guy then prove themselves wrong. Im tired of this damn rain were always getting LOL im tired of just bein a nobody basically im tired of the friends u do have dont even wanna do anything with u im tired of just EVERYTHING :(

Powerful 7.0-magnitude Earthquake Kills 2 In Japan
TOKYO - Japan's government says two people have died and eight others have been injured in an earthquake in the northern part of the country. Chief Cabinet Secretary Nobutaka Machimura said at least two died in Saturday's 7-magnitude quake, including one person who ran out of a building in panic and was hit by a truck. He says one of the eight injured was in serious condition.

Nbc's Tim Russert Dies At 58 Of Heart Attack
By DAVID ESPO and LAURIE KELLMAN, AP Special Correspondent 17 minutes ago WASHINGTON - Tim Russert, a political lifer who made a TV career of his passion with unrelenting questioning of the powerful and influential, died of a heart attack Friday in the midst of a presidential campaign he'd covered with trademark intensity. Praise poured in from the biggest names in politics, some recalling their own meltdown moments on his hot seat. Russert, 58, was a political operative before he was a journalist. He joined NBC a quarter century ago and ended up as the longest-tenured host of the Sunday talk show "Meet the Press." He was an election-night fixture, with his whiteboard and scribbled figures, and was moderator for numerous political debates. He wrote two best-selling books, including the much-loved "Big Russ and Me" about his relationship with his father. He was NBC's Washington bureau chief. President Bush, informed of Russert's death while at dinner in Paris, sal

What's On Your Lips?
By Mary Kearl From lipstick to lip balm, beauty products up-and-down the beauty aisle claim to defend against wind and chapping, sunburn and aging. But which ingredients offer optimal protection? Do any have adverse effects, such as actually causing dryness or skin irritation or exposing you to toxins? Plus, are any addictive? We asked Sonia Badreshia-Bansal, MD, a Board Certified Dermatologist and Fellow of the American Academy of Dermatology (AAD), these and other burning questions about lip protection. **************** Lipstick May Be Toxic In 2007 the Campaign for Safe Cosmetics released a report that found lead in half of the 33 brand-name lipsticks they tested. Although the FDA has no standards for regulating cosmetics and the tested lead-levels would not pose a health threat for most, the authors of the report advise that pregnant women and small children avoid using lipstick because lead exposure can disrupt normal development. Even low levels of lead ca

June 14th Severe Weather 2008
Low pressure will be moving across Canada and will cause a cold front to come thru the area. The air out ahead of this front is on the warm side with temperatures tomorrow in the Upper Mid Atlantic in SE PA approaching 90 degrees while areas further to the north will be in the mid 80s. The air behind this cold front is going to be much cooler and will help to establish the upcoming trough along the east coast and the Northeast..Cape Values are generally in the 1000-2000 range with the exception of the areas in the red squares where the CAPE VALUES are 2000-3000 with LI of -4 to - 6. Those areas have a higher chance of seeing severe weather and a moderate risk area may be needed.... Rainfall should generally be around a half inch ..however...areas that get any severe weather will receive higher amounts of rainfall. See my blog for the map of where the severe weather can be expected... http://theweathergod.blogspot.com/

Wet Bbq
This day hasn't gone the way it was supposed to at all of course. First and foremost, a friend's mom died and one of her oldest and favorite cats also died (she's a cat collector) so it's not a good day for her. Which means that anything I complain about here is gonna sound really stupid. But in the interest of continuing on in my tradition of being the most selfish person I know, here goes. I wanted to sleep in. I never get to do that. I didn't remember anything being planned for today since soccer season is over and the yard sale we were going to do got rained out. But at 5am, my usual wake up time, guess what? I'm awake. I tried to go back to sleep but anyway. I'm up. Then I remembered that my two oldest kids are supposed to be at the BBQ contest to work at 11. Note to self, use calendar on phone for every event! I figure I'll do something else I never do, get in the shower before the hot water is all gone. But my plumbing went haywire and both bathtubs are full of...stuff. So I hav

Things About Me.
50 ODD Things about you! If you opened this, FILL IT OUT! Learn 50 things about your friends, and let them learn 50 things about you! 1. Do you like blue cheese? Uh, no, only Ranch 2. Have you ever smoked heroin? nope 3. Do you own a gun? I used to own a couple when I was a cop. I had a S&W 40 and then a Glock 45. I sold them when I moved here and found out that I couldn't be a part-time cop. 4. What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic? Nothing 5. Do you get nervous before Dr. appts? Not at all. Nothing to be nervous about. 6. What do you think of hot dogs? i love hot dogs especially from the ball park. 7. Favorite Christmas song? Steven Curtis Chapman's "Christmas is all in the heart" 8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Diet Coke 9. Can you do push ups? Don't know and probably won't try 10. What do you order at starbucks? I don't do Starbucks or coffee 11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? wedding band 12. Favor

Outdoor Cushions
You can use extra matching outdoor table cloths to make cushions and pillows to match. When you measure and cut, you have to keep in mind that you have a 2 inch edge all the way around so measure and cut accordingly. Use tacky glue and paint a strip of glue covering the 2 inches along the edge. Press together the glue on three of the sides and use a line of clothes pins on each side to hold it in place until it dries. When it's dry and secure, slide the cushion or pillow inside, then glue the last side and use a line of clothes pins again to let the remaining side dry.

Driveway Discuss Game
Driveway Discus Game Use sidewalk chalk to create a playing area on the sidewalk. This game is similar to shuffleboard. Make the grid about 6 foot wide and 16 foot long. On the far ends of either side make some stripes with different point values. The closest to the end being the highest point value, and decreasing as it gets further. Have about 6 foot of the center be the "dead zone". Collect 10 mayonnaise plastic lids and paint 5 red and 5 green. These are the pucks. Players stand at the far edges of the game and kick the puck (do some practice runs on the kicking first) toward the points on the far side. Anything in the dead zone or outside the chalk area is zero. Anything within the points area are the points value.

Past Vocations
Ok, my wife was making fun of me the other day for all of the things that I've done in my past. So, I thought I would list them for whoever gives a crap. 1. Movie theater projectionist (High School) 2. TV/Appliance Delivery (H.S.) 3. Church Nursery attendant (H.S.) 4. Disc jockey (College) 5. Summer Camp Riverfront director (College) 6. Summer Intern Youth director (College) 7. Youth/Children's Minister (College) 8. Church Pastor (College) 9. Fire suppression inspector (TN) 10. Motorola Store manager (TN) 11. ADT Salesperson (TN) 12. City Fireman (TN) 13. Tire salesperson (TN) 14. Disc jockey (TN) 15. Vending delivery driver (TN) 16. TV producer (TN) 17. Asst. Loss Control Manager (AR) 18. City Fireman (AR) 19. City police officer (AR) 20. Health & Safety Manager (KY) 21. Safety Manager (KY-Present) Any questions? Go ahead and ask away.

Kid's Party Games 51-100
51. DASHING DRIVERS. ( Active.) Put the glasses or little buckets full of water on the toy cars. Tie the strings of 3-5 meters to the cars. At the command the players must wind the string on the stick so as to draw the cars to themselves. If the water in the glass (bucket) on one of the cars is splashing the leader loudly names the number of "the driver". This "driver" stops winding for a second. The player who is the first to draw the car to himself (not having splashed the water) is the winner. He gets the prize. 52. PUSS IN BUTS. ( Active.) The players are divided into two teams. Each team is given a pair of very big boots and a wide-brimmed hat. At the signal the players get on the boots, put on the hat, run to the little flag, take off the hat, make a bow, put on the hat again, return to their teams and give the hats and the boots to the next players in the teams. 53. DOLLS. ( Active.) There are 2 dresses and 2 headscarves on the chair. The player who is the first in putt

Kid's Games 101-150
101. BLOW INTO A SMALL BOX. ( Active.) Take an empty small box. Pull out a half of the inside part, put it to the mouth and blow into it. The small box may fly away rather far. So you may arrange a competition of "blow shooters". More over with the flying box you may: 1) hit a small circle 2) hit a paper target 3) hit a basket, which stands on the floor. 102. WHOSE BALLOON IS BIGGER? ( Active.) This competition is very easy: the participants receive the balloons and begin to blow them up. The player whose balloon bursts is out of the game. The player who blows up the biggest balloon is the winner. 103. PUT A SHOT! ( Active.) Pour 1/3 of glass of water into each balloon. Then blow up the balloons to an equal size. Draw 1.5 diameter circles on the floor with the chalk. The balloon is "a shot". The player must "put a shot" as far as possible. The player who puts "a shot" the fartherst is the winner. 104. WHO IS FASTER? ( Active.) The players are divided into 2 teams. They si

Kid's Party Games 151-200
151. GO THROUGH THE CORRIDOR. ( Active.) Put the skittles on the floor in 2 rows (5-6 skittles in each row). The width of the corridor is 50-60cm. The distance between the skittles is 70-80 cm. The players' task is to go through the corridor. But before going through the corridor the player must turn around for 7-8 times. The player must turn around quickly with the right hand up, looking at the forefinger, or with the hands on the back of the head, or with the hands on the ankles. 152. "THE BLINDS" GO MARCHING. ( Active.) The stake is driven into the earth. All the players but one are blindfolded. They stand in a circle around the stake. The distance between the stake and "the blinds" is measured by the steps. Usually this distance is equal to 30-50 steps. "The blinds" are facing the stake. "The sighted" player begins to count and all "the blinds" go marching to his/her counting in the direction of the stake. When "the sighted" has counted up to the number of steps between the s

Kid's Party Games 201-220
201. NOT TO THE POINT. ( Quiet.) The leader asks the players different questions. The player who is asked a question must give on answer which is not related to the question. The leader, for example, asks: "Do you like our party?" and the player answers "I went to the cinema" etc. The player who answers this question "yes" or "no" or "I don't know" pays the forfeit. The game is played at a rapid rate. If the player doesn't answer the question while the leader counts "one, two, three", he/she pays the forfeit. The leader mustn't ask one and the same person more than 3 questions running. The leader tries to confuse the players c.f. The leader asks: "Do you like our party?" The player answers: "The weather is bad". The leader provokes him/her asking: "Is the weather bad?" The player answer "yes". As it is against the rules the player must pay forfeit (or fulfil the leader's task). 202. LOADING THE VAN. ( Quiet.) 6-8 or 10-12 players may take part in this game. The players form up a

Another Note From The "jinya"
Im not vain enough to believe that just because you have a blip on the emotional radar means its something about me. However, we have been feuding/arguing/debating/whatever else almost non-stop for the passed week.Ive tried all damn day to stay angry with you. The sad thing is, it cost more energy to be angry with you than to just let go. Should we talk? Sure. But itll work out. Well yell, well scream, well hurt, and I have this sneaking suspicion well still come back to each other. I mean, after all, you still came to bed last night and I was grossly less than friendly then.Im hurt. Reasons: you talk of trust, yet when you feel the need to make such decrees as you did last night; I wonder how much you can truly trust me. So well talk.But I also have heard you say your quandaries of hanging around me, for the good or bad of both of us, and I didnt want you thinking I wanted you out. I dont.At the end of the day, there is no greater feeling than your arms around me.I love you, Jam

Is It All Really Worth It?
Ok, it's the day after Christmas and I am sitting here debating if my current relationship is worth all the trouble that it seems to be taking to make it work, is it just me or is there something severely wrong with this? I had to work half a day on Christmas Eve before my girlfriend returned with her mother to take me to Owatonna, Minnesota for Christmas. Neither one of us were really happy about me having to work that day, nor about me being expected to be back on the Friday after Christmas. This was also her week off of her birth control which, I guess makes her very crabby and moody and just plain psychotic. Needless to say, this Christmas celebration was quite interesting for me. I don't think I have ever been so confused in my life. She left on the previous Sunday and went home (to Minn.) to spend some time alone with her family before I came up. OK, that's cool enough I thought, then came the "you aren't answering the phone, why aren't you home? Where are you?" messages. As w

Yet Another Yahoo! Conversation With Jinya
jamesfahle (9:33:48 PM): well, I suppose that no news is better than bad news.... I know that you at least received my card. Just wondering if you are still interested in meeting sometime at Southridge. But, I'm not holding my breath on that; I mean you did just spend a weekend with one of my biggest "fans". Let me know one way or the other. ryjaan (10:27:12 PM): I woke up Thursday morning to the sound of a hamster screeching its guts out at 7:15 and pelted to the kitchen to save her. jamesfahle (10:27:31 PM): LMAO jamesfahle (10:27:36 PM): good old Zen ryjaan (10:27:40 PM): All I noticed was that Roa was in her cage, safe and sound, but I couldn't see Aeo, so I was frantic and my eyes were unfocused and I couldn't seem to catch her. jamesfahle (10:28:02 PM): LMAO jamesfahle (10:28:07 PM): I bet that was a sight ryjaan (10:28:14 PM): Zen kept creeping closer and the damn thing wouldn't let me grab her. She kept standing on her hind legs and spitting, running away f

Heartbeat
No one has ever treated me In such a very special way The smiles that I wore in my past Are worn differently today. I am thrilled and overfilled My life is now complete The world hears a gentle spirit play When they hear my heartbeat B.G.Wetherby

You Have The Key To My Heart
Here I sit, miles away. Yet my heart is next to yours today. Beating as one, separated as two, Inside of my heart is loving thoughts of you. Space is but distance That our bodies now be. Inside of my heart, You're held close to me. Kept as a treasure, So strong and secure, Where it shall remain So loving and pure. Locked deep in my heart, Your love's safe with me, For you, my sweet love, Hold the only key. B.G. Wetherby

Unmasked
Today I cast aside my fears, And I'll tell how I feel. I've admired you for quite some time. Now it's time that I reveal. About the ways that you affect me, No true words were ever spoken. I wonder if you've noticed me, Just who am I really jokin? There is a glow about you As you're walking down the street. I lie awake each night planning On just how we're going to meet. Your mannerisms, your walk, the way you smile, I like everything that you wear. Your eyes, your lips, the way you sneeze, The wind blowing through your hair. Every time that I see you out It gets my heart just churning. No medicine that is known to man Will take away my yearning. This admiring from a far must end. I'm tired of this secret mask. My courage is running very high. Now there's something that I must ask. Do you think that we can get together? Is there a movie that you want to see? Maybe we can just have coffee? Just take this mask off me.

The Ghost Of You
As I sit within this empty house, So bare since you've been gone, I try to figure out some things, Like, where did we go wrong? To this day I can't quite understand How this all came about. The ghost of you still haunts this place Since the day that you moved out. I still see your face upon the pillow As I turn out the light. I still feel your body next to mine, Deep within the night. Sometimes I even hear your voice, I actually answer to your calls. But again, it's just the ghost of you That lingers within these walls. I am fine when I'm outside this house, For I'm gone throughout the day. But at night, you still have me enchained With this ghost that won't go away. B.G. Wetherby

An Elusive Dream
The beauty of a fresh new day, Harnessed by bittersweet delight, From quite an elusive dream Which I'm privileged with by night. Overtaken by serenity Upon arrival at this place, I search amongst the silhouettes Until I see your face. My eyes feast upon your beauty, Then passions turn to hot desire. We culminate our time away Until our bodies tire. Morning arrives much too quickly, Once again we must part. Each time becomes more difficult, For I'm a prisoner of my heart. Disappearing right before my eyes, As the dawn begins to gleam. Do you exist in anothers thoughts? Are you someone elses dream? So I pray my day away, With hopes that you are real. For I must free what's inside of me, I must tell you how I feel. You leave me with an anxious heart Where you have burrowed deep, I must have you throughout the day, As I do when I'm asleep. B.G. Wetherby

Problems
We do not have the rhythm, Even though we hear the beat. When we try to dance, We can't move our feet. Yet, the song goes on, But we stand and stare. No words are ever spoken, Are we being fair? When we try to speak, The other cannot hear. We both are so far away, Even though we're near. We have a little spark, But the fire just won't burn. Maybe, we're not meant, Maybe, it's not our turn. Will the future let us know, If we blew our chance? Should we both turn and walk, Or, should we stay and dance? B.G. Wetherby

Vip & 30 Day Blast /fubuck Giveaway (revised)
Hello Everyone...Let's have some fun! Glad to see that everyones reading this. Are You ready to have some real fun & get EXTRA attention & Luv to Your Profile ? It's gonna be an open theme pic contest but no NSFW entries . Well here comes how You can get extra luv all the way around. Contest is gonna start on Jun 24th(TUES) @ 10 am (Pacific)- 1pm(Eastern) Til July 5TH(SAT) @ 10 am (Pacific)- 1pm(Eastern). All entries need to be sent to... Blondie in private message to enter. Click name above or link at the bottom to go to her profile All pic rates will be worth 10 points over all so theres no need to worry about down ratings of your pics. 1st Place Needs 40,000 comments to qualify. Winner gets 30 day blast. 200-11's to Your profile added. Winner gets to be Pimped out on 3 profiles for a week & pimp out bully for a week. 2nd Place Needs 35,000 comments to qualify. Winner gets vip/or a 7 day blast. 100-11's to Your profile added. Winner gets to be Pimped ou

Lost Love
Lost Love I sit and think of life without you It seems my life is worthless, Not knowing what tomorrow might Bring without you. I sit in our room looking at the things We have knowing your not returning. I sit and think asking my self what did I do to deserve this. I told you I would Always be there and we promised too One another that we would. I am ask myself still, look at everything That was made between you and I. Why? Why? Is what I ask? What did I do to deserve this? You leaving me in the shape I am in! I feel like my heart is as empty as well Without water. Why leave my heart so torn Apart? Is life supposed to be like this? If you sit and think what makes you think, I didn't care?

The Meaning Of Caring
If you say you care so much, why do act the way you do? If you think that caring means to jump all over someone that has done nothing, why do it? If being inconsiderate does not know that there is no knowledge of knowing something, what is considerate? If life is lived with fighting and bickering, why have life? If love is not knowing or wanting to know, why have love at all? The meaning of caring is a number of things each for a different person I guess, I know what caring means to me. Caring havin some hold u when your sad or upset. Caring is friendship, companionship, and love. I know that we all can care and not trust someone but why act the way we do?

Something
And so it came to be this isolation that I am I can only look to me to find the way it all began - this confusion, constant hunger for something more than this I strive to find this being that I envision, yet seem to miss. Could it be that I am empty- or maybe a little lost? Could it be that I am lonely, or seek happiness at any cost? This never-ending Something that I am living deep inside, depicts the illusion of myself and all I have to hide. Raquel

I'm Too Big To Cry
I never stopped to realize How lonely I would be I never thought the day would come When you'd grow tired of me Your voice was never sweeter Than the day you said goodbye You'll never know how much it hurt Because I'm too big to cry If I knew then what I know now You'd still be kissing me Instead there's someone else's lips Where mine used to be I say hello and wish you well Each time I pass you by But you'll never know how much it hurt Because I'm too big to cry You never looked so wonderful As the day you walked away I used to say, "I love you" But that I could not say I can't forget you darlin' No matter how much I try You'll never know how much it hurt Because I'm too big to cry J.J.

Heartstrings Are Played Upon
It's becoming more evident Much more obvious to me I thought much more of you Than you ever thought of me Was this my biggest mistake Letting myself think you cared Was I just your marionette With heartstrings open and bared With me left here still thinking What was false, what was true So puzzling and so complex I�m left to await another clue On my heartstings you played Each left with a loving memory Yet I still have those questions Do you ever think about me I�m wondering why all the intrigue Now why all of this mystery Why am I left here hanging Your the one that holds the key. Hope

Just A Little Longer
Desolation, Wide open space, Between the trees and me, Emptiness and me, Confusion and decisions, Feelings hard to define, And I say to myself, Just a little longer, Coldness seeps Its way in, I am falling deeper, Into what I fear most, As I reach out, There is nothing there, As possible there was something once, Only to be gone, And I say to myself, Just a little longer, The sun drops, The last inch of light falls, The squirrels more likely to be huddled up, But not me, Something I never possessed, And I say to myself, Just a little longer, Then the sun has gone, Darkness spreads its wings over me, I see nothing so no one sees me, Feeling of bitterness only, And I say to myself, Just a little longer, An Owl peers down, With question in her eyes, She doesn't have a hope, In helping me, As she doesn't see my pain, Spreads her wings, Passes me by, And I say to myself, Just a little longer, The soft earth, Seems the only thing holdin

Warped &twisted
Harsh words & violent blows Hidden secrets nobody knows Eyes are open, hands are fisted Deep inside I'm warped & twisted So many tricks & so many lies Too many whens & too many whys Nobody's special, nobody's gifted I'm just me, warped & twisted Sleeping awake & choking on a dream Listening loudly to a silent scream Call my mind, the number's unlisted Lost in someone so warped & twisted On my knees, alive but dead Look at the invisible blood I've bled I'm not gone, my mind has drifted Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow Today's just yesterday's tomorrow The sun died out, the ashes sifted I'm still here, warped & twisted Skittles

Shattered Pieces
Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart, handing it to you, "careful it's fragile, and easily falls apart." Extending your arms, you take the heart in your tender warm hands. It falls into a million shattered pieces - on the floor it lands. You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and sadness in your eyes. Apologies are not enough. Looking at you with tears in my eyes, I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heart that has fallen apart. I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece. I need to put it together again, some how. some way. Each piece of my heart has a memory so true. Each piece of my heart has part of you. You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life. I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife. All my tears won't keep you near All my tears won't mend what's not here. Again I look at you with a whis

Alone Again
Four o'clock in the morning Afraid to open my eyes Another day of grief, A day of fear. All alone I feel. I try to justify all the pain, All of this guilt before my eyes. Another day of confusion, A day of wondering. Is it ever just going to go away? All this pain that I feel, And all this anger, is it going to stay? Ten o'clock in the evening, Afraid of the nightmares. Again my breathing stops. All I can do is stare into the night. What is it that causes this feeling? Another night of crying, A night of hiding, Alone once again. My heart feels empty, And I can't cry another tear. Another day wasted on insecurity, A day of wonder. Is this ever going to end? Shellie Sanchez

Void
Void, canceled, simply annulled. Endlessly aching, unconsoled. Life without you, cause without reason. Touch without sense, time without season. I face life now facing a cancerous sore, A sordid parasite that eats at my core. All that makes me whole, all I hold deep within, Leaving me lifeless, or at least not livin'. A shallow face, anguished and marred. An empty space, scaled and scarred. Sweetly abiding to a cynical charade. Secretly hiding 'hind a fictitious facade. Still, lost within this heart of glass, This fragile and yet unfeeling mass. Lies the remains of a love that glowed, The gift to you I once bestowed. But honor and pride now bereaved- By your love for me so misconceived, Ripped from my inner depths, impeding- Mind and body and spirit, bleeding; Now's crushed to sand from thy ruthless hand, A cold stare I just can't understand. I feel that somehow, somehow I'm dying, At least my soul and all that's underlying. A simple void, is that what I'v

If These Walls Could Talk
If these walls could talk, you'd know my body is dead, my mind has been taken over, that's why I am so scared, I can't control it, anger is making me blind, I've been left here on my own chained to a hate of some kind. If these walls could talk. If these walls could talk, you'd know about my fears, about all those nights I screamed for help, about all my fallen tears. You'd know about the demons haunting me at night, you'd be able to help me keep my fire alight, if these walls could talk. If these walls could talk they would say that it's all right, God sends His angels to look over me at night. They'd encourage me, say though I am alone it doesn't mean I�m on my own. He watches me, from above and showers me with all His love, if only these walls could talk. Christelle Duvenage

To My Kindred Spirit
We share secrets, we laugh and even cry, We have so much in common, Concerns, likes and dislikes. Ours is a relationship joined by Tender velvet chains that link our similar dreams of life and love. A gentle intuition guides us in our individual struggles to succeed at the things we pursue, to stand out from the crowd. In you I have found so much of myself, Including many of the same Insecurities and philosophies. Complete inner-peace and happiness, These are the things I wish for you, in the present and in the future because you are my kindred spirit. Todd-Michael St. Pierre

Friendship
When you feel sad and betrayed Who can you count on every single day? When you feel lost and alone Who will be there for you in every way? When you've made mistakes and bad decisions Who can you count on to tell you you're wrong? When you feel you can't go on Who will be there with a feel-better song? Look into your heart and you will find That person you can trust is not far away. Look deep into yourself, don't give up, For if you do, it's yourself you'll betray. When you're looking for answers To all your questions and dreams, There is one person you can count on, It's impossible, I know, it seems. But take a few moments to look deeper inside. Look into your heart and there you will see. You'll be surprised when you find out That you've been looking at ME. Trudy Starling

Friendship Of The Souls
Have you ever felt like you knew someone a long, long time ago? Another place, another time, a friendship of the souls? Two people who share a bond for reasons neither know, A feeling that they were friends, a long, long time ago? Did they stumble onto each other by pure circumstance, Or was it fate and destiny that played a certain hand? Two souls intertwined, they are worlds apart, But the soul, it knows no difference, in matters of the heart. Somehow they are drawn together, fate has brought them back, Each living worlds apart, they journey separate paths. When this life is over, and a new life begins, Their souls will find each other, two souls that we call friends. Lisa Teller

Romantic Couple Games
Romantic Wheel of Fortune Play wheel of fortune but instead of usingmoeny and prizes, write down forfeits, things you would like to do with your partner and other romantic activities. Have fun playing! Sports Add romance to your sports by playing them with your partner. Handicaps should be given to the weaker party. Alternatively, you can try a completely new sports together. Romantic Scrabble Play scrabble but both of you can only use words which are significant to both of you and are therefore romantic. Battleships Play battle shiips but with a strip poker twist to it. The person whose ship is sunk will have to take off a piece of clothing! Romantic Puzzle Have fun fixing a romantic puzzle with a hidden message in it. Frame the puzzle up at the end of it! Romantic Card Games Play card games such as snap or poker but with the losing party having to carry out forfeits. Forfeits must involve something naughty! Romantic Treasure Hunt Send your partn

Romantic Date Ideas
When dining out, share everything: your meals and desserts. Attend a lousy movie, sit in the balcony, and make out in the dark. Guys: Hold her dinner chair. Swing together on playground swings. Get tickets for an event and keep it a secret until the day arrives. A romantic ritual: Pause and kiss at your front door. Guys: Open the car door for her. Go stargazing at a planetarium. Eat dinner by candlelight: Tonight! When window shopping, secretly note what your patner likes then return later to pick up that something special. Cuddle together under a clear sky at night and enjoy the view and sweet talk with each other. Learn to play her favorite musical piece and surprise her. Have a stroll by the beach together. Ice skate together, hand in hand and have eyes only for each other. Dance a slow love song together and the candlelight. Go through revolving doors with your lover. Watch a romantic movie in a open air carpark. Watch th

Romantic Pick Up Lines..lol..too Funny~
I brought my library card, and I'm checking you out. Do you have a map (No why?) I keep getting lost in your eyes If I could rearrange the alphabet, I would put U and I together. Is it hot in here or is it just you? I'd ask you for a light, but you've already lit my fire. Do you believe in love at first sight... or should I walk by you again? Nice dress can I talk you out of it. Did it hurt? When you fell from heaven? I'd look good on you! Check the girls clothing tag then say - That's what I thought...made in heaven My boys over there bet that I wouldn't be able to start a conversation with the most beautiful girl in the room. Want to buy some drinks with their money? When God made you, he was showing off! You had me at hello. Ask a woman for the time. (Tells time) . Thanks. I just wanted to be able to remember the exact moment that I met you. Excuse me, do you have any raisins? How about a date? Hi, I just wanted to give you the satisfacti

Off The Top Of My Head....
So, the few people that know me, and know the happennings in my life seem to have found themselves in a bit of a quandry. As some of you know, my wife and I are splitting. For better or worse. I will always consider her to be my best friend. I may not be hers. But thats ok. I can accept that. The really strange thing to me is that some of the people that we have known together, while stating that what happens is none of their business, are inevitably choosing sides. The funny part about this is that, there really arent any sides to choose. The split was at worse, agreed upon by both sides. It was mutual. There wasnt any cheating, there wasnt a blame placed upon each other. Instead we took responsibilities for the things that we said and we did. Sure in times like this, words and actions are easily misunderstood and appear to be one thing but really, are soemthing else. To those that have "chosen" sides, I will say this...you dumb muther fuckers! How stupid will you feel

Poem
Never say "I Love You" If you really don't. Never say you care, If you really don't. Never talk about feelings, If they aren't really there. Never say your going to, If you don't plan to start. Never look into my eyes, If all your gonna do is Lie. Never say hello, If you really mean goodbye. Never hold my hand, If your gonna hurt me. Never say you love me, Never say you care, If your gonna break my heart. Never say forever, Forever makes me cry. For NOTHING lasts FOREVER.

Poem
Remember the day that we met Now we can communicate on the internet Since you are my friend without further ado I think you should know that I care about you. I send you this poem with a special wish or two And say that I'm happy to have a friend like you. You listen to my ideas no matter how crazy they get And make me smile when sorrow I met. We may not talk every single day But you are my friend in every way.

Poem
Friendship is a gift, You can give yourself, One to be used daily, Not put on a shelf. I's a gift of warmth and joy, That's plied with gentle art, A special kind of caring, That you share heart to heart. Friendship is a gift, That ever blooms and grows, And brightens up life's pathway, Just like a loving rose

Poem
It's the best you have to share, The talents and the wisdom, The capacity to care, It's being there to lend support, Whatever needs arise, It's making sure that others know They're special in your eyes~ Friendship is a blessing, And to all who have a friend, It's one of the most precious gifts That life could ever send. You've given friendship meaning In a way that's all your own With the special gifts and talents That belong to you alone, And I know that of the blessings I could hope for life to send, None could make me happier Than knowing you're my friend. You're Very Special To Me

Poem
Our friends are like Angels, Who brighten our days. In all kinds of wonderful. Magical ways. Their thoughtfulness comes, As a gift from above. And we feel we've surrounded, By warm, caring love. Like upside-down rainbows, Their smiles bring the sun. And they fill ho-hum moments, With laughter and fun. Friends are like angels, Without any wings. Blessing our lives, With the most precious things

Poem
Sometimes you find a very special friend, Someone who changes your life just by being part of it! Someone who makes you laugh when you need to laugh, Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that life is filled with doors Just waiting for you to open them! When you're feeling down, And the world seems like a dark and empty place, Your special friend lifts your spirit And makes that dark and empty world Suddenly seem bright and full! Your special friend gets you through The hard times and the sad times, Your special friend holds your hand And tells you everything is going to be all right. And if you find such a friend, You have a special friend for life, And life is special!

Poem
A special world for you and me A special bond one cannot see It wraps us up in its cocoon And holds us fiercely in its womb. Its fingers spread like fine spun gold Gently nestling us to the fold Like silken thread it holds us fast Bonds like this are meant to last. And though at times a thread may break A new one forms in its wake To bind us closer and keep us strong In a special world, where we belong

Poem
Friendship is a Golden Chain, The links are friends so dear, And like a rare and precious jewel It's treasured more each year... It's clasped together firmly With a love that's deep and true, And it's rich with happy memories and fond recollections, too... Time can't destroy its beauty For, as long as memory lives, Years can't erase the pleasure That the joy of friendship gives... For friendship is a priceless gift That can't be bought or sold, But to have an understanding friend Is worth far more than gold... And the Golden Chain of Friendship Is a strong and blessed tie Binding kindred hearts together As the years go passing by

Poem
There are gifts of many treasures For both the young and old, From the tiniest little trinkets To great boxes filled with gold. But, put them all together And they could not stand in lieu, Of the greatest gift of all The gift of knowing you. When your times are filled with troubles Sadness, grief, or even doubt, When all those things you planned on Just aren't turning out. Just turn and look behind you From the place at which you stand, And look for me through the shadows And reach out for my hand. I will lift from you your burden And cry for you your tears, Bear the pain of all your sorrows Though it may be for a thousand years. For in the end I would be happy To have helped you start anew, It's a small price to pay For the gift of knowing you.

Poem
God must have known there would be times We'd need a word of cheer, Someone to praise a triumph Or brush away a tear. He must have known we'd need to share The joy of "little things" In order to appreciate The happiness life brings. I think He knew our troubled hearts Would sometimes throb with pain, At trials and misfortunes, Or goals we can't attain. He knew we'd need the comfort Of an understanding heart To give us strength and courage To make a fresh, new start. He knew we'd need companionship, Unselfish... lasting... true, And so God answered the heart's great need With cherished friends... like you!

Poem
I'd like to be the sort of friend that you have been to me; I'd like to be the help that you've been always glad to be; I'd like to mean as much to you each minute of the day As you have meant, old friend of mine, to me along the way. I'd like to do the big things and the splendid things for you, To brush the gray from out your skies and leave them only blue; I'd like to say the kindly things that I so oft have heard, And feel that I could rouse your soul the way that mine you've stirred. I'd like to give you back the joy that you have given me, Yet that were wishing you a need I hope will never be; I'd like to make you feel as rich as I, who travel on Undaunted in the darkest hours with you to lean upon. I'm wishing at this time that I could but repay A portion of the gladness that you've strewn along my way; And could I have one wish this year, this only would it be: I'd like to be the sort of friend that you have been to me.

She Was Only 13
She was only 13 Her dad was a drunk Her mom was an addict Her parents kept her Locked in an attic Her only friend Was a little toy bear It was old and worn out And had patches of hair She always talked to it When no one's around She lays there and hugs it Not a peep of sound Until her parents Unlock the door Some more and more pain She'll have to endore A bruise on her leg A scar on her face Why would she be In such a horrible place? But she grabs her bear And softly crys She loves her parents But they want her to die She sits in the corner Quiet but thinking, "Please God, why is My life always sinking?" Such a bad life For a sad little kid She'd get beaten and beaten For anything she did Then one night Her mom came home high And the poor child was beaten As hours went by Then her mom suddenly Grabbed for a blade It was sharp and pointy One that she made She thrust the blade Right in her chest, "You deserve to die You worthless piece of crap!" The mom walked out Leaving the girl

Feeling Lucky
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Dmx - Slippin
Ha ha ha ha ha ha uhh See to live is to suffer but to survive well that's to find meaning in the suffering. Chorus Ay yo I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I can't get up Ay yo I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I can't get up Ay yo I'm slippin' I'm fallin' I gots to get up Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up! (Repeat) -1- I been through mad different phases like Masons to find my way & now I know that happy days are not far away If I'm strong enough I'll live long enough to see my kids doing something more constructive with they time than bids I know because I been there now I'm in there sit back & look at what it took for me to get there First came the "Howll!!" the drama with my mama she got on some fly shit "What!" til I split and said that I'ma be that seed that doesn't need much to succeed strapped with mad greed and a heart that doesn't bleed I'm ready for the world or at least I thought I was baggin' "Uhh!" when I caught a buzz for thinking about how short I wa

Half-truism
One is for envy And one just for spite The cuts in my heart They show in your eyes Don’t make it better The twisting knife Turns all by itself Move on to someone else Your self-liberation Will leave this behind Beyond slings and arrows That rain on our minds You’ll make it better Shake it off It never mattered anyway If we don’t make it alive Well it’s a hell of a good day to die All our light that shines strong Only lasts for so long And it’s ashes to ashes again Should we even try to pretend? All our light that shines strong Only lasts for so long The banner you’re waving Is burning and red It’s blocking the sunlight That shines overhead You against the world Diamonds and pearls Voices inside you churn Watch the city burn Your own liberation Will leave them behind All the slings and arrows That rain on your mind Don’t make it better Break it cause It never mattered anyway

You're Gonna Go Far, Kid
Show me how to lie You’re getting better all the time And turning all against the one Is an art that’s hard to teach Another clever word Sets off an unsuspecting herd And as you get back into line A mob jumps to their feet Now dance, fucker, dance Man, he never had a chance And no one even knew It was really only you And now you steal away Take him out today Nice work you did You’re gonna go far, kid With a thousand lies And a good disguise Hit ‘em right between the eyes Hit ‘em right between the eyes When you walk away Nothing more to say See the lightning in your eyes See ‘em running for their lives Slowly out of line And drifting closer in your sights So play it out I’m wide awake It’s a scene about me There’s something in your way And now someone is gonna pay And if you can’t get what you want Well it’s all because of me Now dance, fucker, dance Man, I never had a chance And no one even knew It was really only you And now you’ll lead

Love
Love is a confusing thing It makes you happy and it makes you depressed And on my heart you will forever cling But I don't think my love will ever regress I loved you for so long And I really don't see How "you and I" is wrong To my heart, you'll forever hold the key This love is a contemptuous feeling And I really wish you loved me too Because my heart will never be healing And now depression is what I'm leaning back into I need you in my life And thats a fact Everyday to stay alive is a strife And I need you to come back If your out there reading this poem Just know that I care for you Sitting in my home And know that I'll always love you

Dj Demonwolf Vip Contest 2
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Peach Crumb Cake Mix In A Jar
Peach Crumb Cake Mix in a Jar Peach Crumb Cake Mix: 3/4 cup sugar 3/4 cup quick oats 3/4 cup brown sugar 2 cups flour 2 tsp. baking powder 1/2 tsp. salt Layer the ingredients in the order given into a WIDE-MOUTH 1-qt. canning jar. Pack each layer into place before adding the next ingredient. Attach a gift tag with the following mixing and baking instructions: Peach Crumb Cake 1 jar Peach Crumb Cake Mix 3/4 cup butter or margarine 1 (29-oz.) can peach pie filling Preheat oven to 350. Empty contents of jar into a mixing bowl, stirring to combine. Melt butter and stir into dry ingredients to form a crumbly mixture. Press half of the crumbs into a greased 9x13 inch pan and top with the peach pie filling. Sprinkle remaining crumb mixture over filling. Bake for 30 to 35 minutes. Source: "Gifts in a Jar: Cakes & Cobblers" from CQ Products NOTES: Make sure you use a wide mouth jar. I made this using a 21-oz can of peach pie fi

Pan-seared Stakes With Mushroom Gravy
Pan-Seared Steaks with Mushroom Gravy Prep/Cook Time: 25 min. 1 lb. boneless beef sirloin steak, cut into 4 portions 1 tbsp. unsalted butter 1 cup sliced fresh mushroom 1 tbsp. all-purpose flour 1 cup Swanson(R) Beef Broth Directions: SEASON steaks. Cook steaks in large nonstick skillet to desired doneness, turning once. Remove from skillet and keep warm. HEAT butter in pan drippings. Add mushrooms and cook until tender and liquid evaporates. Stir in flour and cook 1 min. Gradually stir in broth. Cook and stir until mixture boils and thickens. Serve mushroom gravy with steaks. Serves 4. Kitchen Clip: Experiment by using different types of mushrooms in the gravy. White button mushrooms are always good, but you can also try Crimini mushrooms or Portabella mushroom caps.

Orange Slice Cookie Mix
Orange Slice Cookies in a Jar ORANGE SLICE COOKIE MIX 3/4 cup white sugar 1/2 cup packed brown sugar 1-3/4 cup all-purpose flour 1 tsp. baking powder 1/2 tsp baking soda 1-1/2 cups orange slice candies, quartered (10-oz. pkg.) 1. Mix together flour, baking powder and baking soda. Set aside. 2. Layer ingredients in order given into a 1-qt. wide-mouth jar. Press each layer firmly in place. Add the orange candies last. It will be a tight fit. 3. Attach recipe to jar: ORANGE SLICE COOKIES 1 jar Orange Slice Cookie Mix 1/2 cup butter or margarine, softened (NOT DIET) 1 egg, slightly beaten 1 tsp. vanilla 1. Remove orange slice candy from jar. Set aside. 2. Empty remaining cookie mix into a large mixing bowl. Use your hands to thoroughly blend mix. 3. Add butter, egg, and vanilla. 4. Mix until completely blended. You may need to finish mixing with your hands. 5. Mix in orange slice candy. 6. Shape into large sized balls, place 2" apart on sprayed (or parchment-line

Lumberjack Brownies
LUMBERJACK BROWNIES 1 1/4 cups flour 1/4 cup sugar 1/2 cup cold butter 1 can sweetened condensed milk 1/4 cup unsweetened cocoa 1 egg 1 tsp. vanilla 1/2 tsp. baking powder 8 oz. bar milk chocolate, broken in pieces 3/4 cup chopped pecans Preheat oven to 350. Combine 1 cup flour, sugar. Cut in butter till crumbly. Press in bottom of 9x13 inch pan. Bake 15 minutes. Beat sweetened condensed milk, cocoa, egg, remaining flour, vanilla, baking powder. Stir in chocolate chunks, nuts. Spread over crust. Bake 20 minutes or till center is set. Sprinkle with powdered sugar.

Just Peachy Almond Muffins
Just Peachy Almond Muffins 1 (16 ounce) can sliced peaches, drained 1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour 1/2 teaspoon salt 1/2 teaspoon baking soda 2/3 cup granulated sugar 1/4 cup light brown sugar 2 large eggs, beaten 1/2 cup vegetable oil 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract 1/4 teaspoon almond extract 3/4 cup sliced toasted almonds Chop peaches; drain and set aside. Combine flour, salt, baking soda and sugar in mixing bowl. Make a well in center of dry ingredients, add eggs and oil, then stir until dry ingredients are moistened. Add peaches and remaining ingredients and stir until blended. Spoon batter into greased muffin pan. Bake at 350 degrees F for 35 minutes for 6 large muffins. Bake 20 to 25 minutes for 12 regular-size muffins or bake 18 minutes for 36 miniature muffins.

Home Made Spray Cleaner
Homemade Spray Cleaner In a one gallon container put the following: 2 cups of sudsy ammonia 1 pint of rubbing alcohol 1 capfull of dishwashing detergent Add water to fill container and put in a spray bottle and use. Keep gallon container capped to keep alcohol from evaporating.

Grand Old Flag Cheese Spread
Grand Old Flag Cheese Spread Ingredients 1 pkg. (8 oz.) cream cheese, softened 1/4 cup shredded Cheddar Jack cheese, Mexican 2 tbsp. sliced pitted ripe olives 1/4 cup thick 'n chunky salsa Ritz® Crackers Directions Place cream cheese between 2 sheets of wax paper. Roll out to 6x4" rectangle with rolling pin. Remove top sheet of wax paper; coat top and sides of cream cheese with shredded cheese. Invert onto serving plate. Remove wax paper. Arrange 3 rows of olives in top left corner of cream cheese rectangle for "stars" of "Flag." Make 4 (1/4" deep) rows, using rounded end of 1/4-tsp. measuring spoon for the "Flag's stripes," leaving a 1/4" space between rows. Fill rows with salsa. Serve immediately or cover and refrigerate until ready to serve. Serve as a spread with crackers. Makes 12 servings, 2 tbsp. spread and 5 crackers each.

Fresh Peach Breakfast Cake
Fresh Peach Breakfast Cake 1/2 cup butter or margarine 1/2 cup sugar 1 tsp. grated orange peel 1/4 tsp. almond extract 2 eggs 3/4 cup all-purpose flour 3 ripe peaches Topping: 1 cup sour cream 1/4 cup sugar 1 egg white 1/4 teaspoon almond extract Beat to blend sour cream, sugar, egg white and extract. With mixer, beat or whirl butter, sugar, peel and almond extract until blended. Add eggs, one at a time, mixing well. Add flour and beat until mixed. Spread batter into buttered, floured 9-inch cake pan or round casserole dish with lower sides. Peel and slice the peaches. Arrange on batter. Bake at 350 for about 25-30 minutes (until lightly browned and just beginning to pull away from pan sides). Remove from oven. Quickly spoon cream topping around fruit. Bake 10 minutes longer. Cool on rack at least 30 minutes. Serve warm or cool. To serve, sprinkle lightly with cinnamon sugar.

Dipsy Doodles Mix
DIPSY DOODLE NO-BAKE COOKIES IN A JAR Dipsy Doodle No-Bake Cookie Mix 1 cup Cornflakes, finely crushed 1/2 cup Quick Cooking Rolled Oats 1/4 cup shredded coconut, firmly packed 1/2 cup Semi-sweet chocolate chips 1/3 cup Butterscotch chips Layering Dry Mix: Layer crushed cornflakes, rolled oats and shredded coconut into a 1 PINT jar in the order listed. Combine the chocolate chips and butterscotch chips and put into a ziplock sandwich or snack bag and add to the top of the jar. Attach recipe to jar: Dipsy Doodle No-Bake Cookies 1 Dipsy Doodle No-Bake Cookie mix 1/2 cup peanut butter (smooth or chunky) 1/3 cup light corn syrup Remove chocolate and butterscotch chips from jar; set aside. Heat peanut butter and corn syrup in a medium saucepan over low (or medium low) heat until mixture is smooth, stirring to prevent sticking. Remove from heat. Add dry ingredients from jar, mixing until evenly coated. Drop cookie dough by rounded tablespoo

Cotton Pickin Good Cake
COTTON PICKIN GOOD CAKE 1 box, 2 layer, duncan hines yellow butter cake mix 4 eggs 3/4 cup oil one 11 oz. can mandarin oranges, use juice too 1-1 1/2 cup nuts, chopped Beat first 3 cake ingredients together. Dice mandarin oranges; fold into mixture along with chopped nuts. Pour into 3 round cake pans or 1 oblong cake pan. Bake at 350 for 20 minutes for round ones or for oblong pan approximately 45 minutes. Cool cake. FROSTING: 1 medium can crushed pineapple, 15 oz. 1 large 6 oz. box instant vanilla pudding, one 16 oz. container cool whip. Combine all frosting ingredients. Frost cake. Keep cake in refrigerator until used up.

Cornflake Cookie Mix
Cornflake Cookie Mix in a Jar CORNFLAKE COOKIE MIX 1-1/4 cups white sugar 1/4 tsp. salt 2-1/2 cups shredded coconut 1-1/2 cups cornflakes 1. Place sugar and salt into a 1-qt. wide-mouth jar. Pack down tight so everything will fit into the jar. Add the other ingredients in order listed, one item at a time, packing each layer down (put cornflakes in last and don't crunch them down!). 2. Put the lid on the jar attach recipe: CORNFLAKE COOKIES 1 Cornflake Cookie Mix 3 egg whites 1/2 tsp. vanilla Whip the egg whites until stiff. Add vanilla. Stir in the jar ingredients until well combined. Drop by teaspoonfuls onto an ungreased (or parchment paper lined) cookie sheets. Bake for 15 minutes at 325. Cool on wire racks. Share with friends!!

Coconut Cilantro Chutney
Ingredients: 1 large bunch cilantro 1 teaspoon cumin seeds 1 jalapeño, quartered lengthwise, seeded and deveined OR 2 serrano chiles, quartered lengthwise, seeded and deveined 1/2 teaspoon salt + 1/8 teaspoon salt 3/4 teaspoon sugar 1/2 cup canned unsweetened coconut milk 1 tablespoon fresh lime juice 1 teaspoon white wine vinegar 2 tablespoons shredded coconut

Chocolate Mint Brownies
Chocolate Mint Brownies INGREDIENTS 1 cup white sugar 1/2 cup butter, softened 1 (16 ounce) can chocolate syrup 4 eggs 1 teaspoon vanilla extract 1/2 teaspoon salt 1 cup all-purpose flour 2 1/2 cups confectioners' sugar 1/2 cup butter, melted 3 tablespoons creme de menthe liqueur 1 cup semisweet chocolate chips 6 tablespoons butter DIRECTIONS Preheat oven to 325 degrees F (165 degrees C). Grease a 9x13 inch baking pan. In a large bowl, mix together 1 cup of white sugar and 1/2 cup of butter until smooth. Beat in the eggs one at a time, then stir in the vanilla and chocolate syrup. Combine the salt and flour; mix into the batter just until blended. Spread the batter evenly in the prepared pan. Bake for 25 minutes in the preheated oven, until the brownies begin to pull away from the sides of the pan. Let cool. In a medium bowl, mix together 1/2 cup melted butter and confectioners' sugar until smooth. Stir in creme de menthe liqueur. Spread over the coo

Cherry Almond White Chocolate Cheesecake Bars Mix
Cherry-Almond White Chocolate Cheesecake Bars in a Jar Cherry-Almond White Chocolate Cheesecake Bar MIX: 2 cups flour 1/8 tsp. salt 1 cup brown sugar 1/2 cup dried cherries 1/2 cup sliced almonds 3/4 cup white chocolate pieces (or white chocolate chipsâ€“I used vanilla chips) LAYERING THE MIX: Combine flour and salt. Put mixture into a 1 quart jar and pack mixture down firmly. Layer brown sugar into jar, firmly packing down. Combine the dried cherries, almonds, and white chocolate chips and put into a sandwich size ziplock bag. Put bag on top of the other layers. Close jar with lid. Attach recipe to jar. Cherry-Almond White Chocolate Cheesecake Bars 1 jar Cherry-Almond White Chocolate Cheesecake Bar Mix 1 cup butter, softened 1 tsp. vanilla 1 tsp. almond extract FOR CREAM CHEESE TOPPING: 1 (4-oz). pkg. cream cheese, softened 1/2 cup granulated sugar 1 large egg 1 cup cherry preserves Preheat oven to 350.

Blue Berry Upside Down Cake
BLUEBERRY UPSIDE-DOWN CAKE 1/2 cup butter 1 cup brown sugar, loosely packed 2 cups fresh or frozen blueberries 2 tsp. grated lemon peel one 18.25 oz. box white cake mix Melt butter in a 9x13 inch glass baking pan as you preheat oven to 375. Sprinkle brown sugar over butter. Mix berries, lemon peel, then place over sugar in pan. Prepare cake mix according to directions on pkg. Spread over berries. Bake 30-35 minutes. Let stand 10 minutes before turning out onto serving platter, or serve from cake pan.

Blizzard Ice Cream Cake
1 gallon vanilla ice cream one 20 oz. pkg. chocolate sandwich cookies with creme filling one 12 oz. container frozen whipped topping, thawed Soften ice cream. Crush cookies by placing them in a large zip lock bag, rolling over them with a rolling pin. Mix softened ice cream, crushed cookies together. Fold in whipped topping, pour into one 9x13 inch glass pan. Freeze for 2 hours then serve.

Best Burger Ever!
Best Burger Ever INGREDIENTS 2 pounds extra-lean ground beef 1 (1 ounce) package dry onion soup mix 1 egg, lightly beaten 2 teaspoons hot pepper sauce 2 teaspoons Worcestershire sauce 1/4 teaspoon ground black pepper 3/4 cup rolled oats DIRECTIONS Preheat an outdoor grill for medium high heat and lightly oil grate. In a large bowl, combine the beef, onion soup mix, egg, hot sauce and oats. Shape into 6 patties. Grill patties over medium high heat for 10 to 20 minutes, or to desired doneness

Allspice Chutney
Ingredients: 3/4 cup White raisins; 1/4 cup Bell peppers; chopped fine 1 cup White vinegar; 4 Pears; cored,pared, chopped 2 cups sugar 1/2 teaspoon Ginger 1/4 teaspoon Allspice 1/4 teaspoon Cloves 1/4 teaspoon Salt Directions: Combine all ingredients in large pan; bring to boil. Reduce heat to medium, cook until pears are tender and mixture is slightly thick (about an hour). Spoon into three clear 1/2 pint jars and seal immediately.

All Fired Up Blueberry Chutney
Ingredients: 1 cup diced peeled tart apple 1/2 cup sugar 1/2 cup orange juice 1 teaspoon ground ginger 1 teaspoon grated orange peel 1/4 teaspoon crushed red pepper 1/4 teaspoon ground black pepper 4 cups fresh or frozen blueberries 3 tablespoons balsamic vinegar Directions: In a medium nonreactive saucepan combine apple, sugar, orange juice, ginger, orange peel, crushed red pepper and black pepper. Bring to a boil; reduce heat to medium; simmer uncovered, stirring occasionally, until apple is tender, about 15 minutes. Add blueberries and vinegar; bring to a boil; boil uncovered, stirring frequently, until a sauce forms and thickens slightly, about 5 minutes. To test for correct consistency, place 1/4 cup chutney in a cup; put in the freezer until it is cold, about 5 minutes. The consistency should be like jam.

Absolute Stress Mixed Beverage
Absolute Stress INGREDIENTS 1 fluid ounce vodka 1 fluid ounce dark rum 1 fluid ounce peach schnapps 1 fluid ounce orange juice 1 fluid ounce cranberry juice DIRECTIONS In a cocktail shaker, combine vodka, rum, peach liqueur, orange juice and cranberry juice. Shake well. Pour over ice in a tall glass and garnish with a slice of orange and a cherry.

Orange Marmalade
Orange marmalade recipe. Scroll down to see more jams and preserves. INGREDIENTS: 2 pounds oranges 2 large lemons 8 cups water, approximately 8 cups sugar, approximately PREPARATION: Wash oranges and lemons, removing and stem parts, but leave fruits whole. Place whole fruits in a large enamel kettle; cover with water. Cover and bring to a boil; simmer until a fork will pierce fruit easily, about 1 1/2 hours. Remove fruit to cool completely; set kettle with liquid aside. When fruits are cooled, cut in half lengthwise. With a very sharp knife, cut in very thin slices. Remove seeds and reserve. Return seeds to juice in kettle and boil for 10 minutes. Strain juice and return to the kettle. Add fruit slices to kettle and bring to a boil. Add sugar, stirring until dissolved, and continue boiling, stirring just to prevent scorching, until juices start to thicken and temperature reaches about 221° F. at sea level, or to 9° above your boiling point. Remove from heat and

Lets See. What Can I Say About Life.....
The only thing that I know for sure about life is that you have a lot of obsticiles to go through. There are so many things that you could say. The way you look at life now, is that you get what you least expect. Everything happens for a reason. Things don’t just walk up to your door, knock, and say "hey look here, this is what you want". Nope, doesn’t work that way. You get what you work for. Nothing comes easy. It never will. If you work hard enough the things that happen in your life, you will want more of. All you can really do is take it one minute at a time. Time is the key to everything. Without time, there would be nothing. No love, no life, no dreams, nothing. So take time and except it because through all the times in your life, you'll become stronger and a more optimistic person. Like that old saying is. "the grass is always greener on the other side". And it’s true. The only thing that sucks, is that you have to walk those fucked up roads in order to get that greener grass.

Quotes
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Texas
Things Ive learnt living in Texas 1. A possum is a flat animal that sleeps in the middle of the road. 2. There are 5,000 types of snakes and 4,998 of them live in Texas . 3. There are 10,000 types of spiders. All 10,000 of them live in Texas . 4. If it grows, it'll stick ya. If it crawls, it'll bite cha. 5. 'Onced' and 'Twiced' are words. 6. It is not a shopping cart, it's a buggy. 7. 'Jaw-P?' means, 'Did y'all go to the bathroom? 8. People actually grow and eat okra. 9. 'Fixinto' is one word. 10. There is no such thing as 'lunch.' There is only dinner and then there is supper. 11. Iced tea is appropriate for all meals, and you start drinking it when you're two. We do like a little tea with our sugar. 12. Backwards and forwards means, 'I know everything about you.' 13. The word 'jeet' is actually a phrase meaning, 'Did you eat?' 14. You don't have to wear a watch, because it doesn't matter what time it is. You work until you're done or it's too d

You Light Up My Life
As I awaken, each and every day, Thoughts of love turn to you. An unbreakable bond between us two, A special love ever so true.. The warm glow in your eyes, The sweet smile on your face; Makes me want to hold you, Forever in love's tender embrace The gentleness of your touch, The sweet passion of your kiss. Just a couple of many pleasures, I longingly so miss.. The sound of your voice, Is like a song in my heart, Always bringing me happiness, As it has done from our start. We've shared many joys, And also felt some sorrows, Yet our future is filled, Of wonderful tomorrows. So, until that bright day, Far away such as it seems, YOU shall always be my one TRUE LoVe. The man of my dreams...

Sittin And Thinkin
I really miss being able to dress like I used to but the addition of 4 kids into things has pretty much put a stop to that anymore. I think it still please Chris that I'm not able to dress as much as I would like because she still desires that masculine man although, she has tolerated my wearing panties for a little while now and has even mentioned buying me more but that has yet to happen. Close friends of mine keep worrying and asking me if I have lost touch with Jaime but the truth be known I will always be in full contact with that side of me. Most of all I really wish I could get Chris more interested in the type of lifestyle I have presented to her numerous times before. But, the kids, depression and stress have continued to stand in my way. If only I could get her to see the benefits she stands to gain from this lifestyle. I started giving her body massages without even asking for sex awhile back and slowly have integrated orally servicing her as well as foot worship. She's resp

Time To Wrap Things Up
Ok, well now, she told me that she was "leaving to rescue a crying friend.", then I saw her log off Yahoo! at 12:03a. She had gone invisible and remained online, probably talking to her mom.Well, with that in mind I have decided to wrap things up and move on to new hobby. As I said before, she "kicked me out" about 2 weeks back and I was moving into a friends house. That never really happened. I wound up spending a hell of a lot of time with my ex, Chris, during that weekend and eventually found myself staying with her again. Things are good; she has worked out a lot of her issues that drove us apart to begin with. She seems to be more motivated but still has her moments, don't we all? She isn't quite as clingy anymore; it seems that she has regained some self confidence. The boys have slipped in their behavior but are back on the rise since I returned. They say hindsight is 20/20. I agree, the whole idea of taking on a girlfriend of an 8 year age difference was just plain nuts on my p

The Shape Of Things?
OK, I had a thought.... scary but true. There's a movie out, maybe some of you have wasted the time to watch it, called The Shape of Things. It's about this guy in college who falls in love with this girl; I think her name was Eve in the movie, well; He falls for Eve who convinces him to make some drastic changes in his life, both personal as well as physical. She had him get a nose job and change they type of clothes that he wore, the way he walked, talked and basically thought. Eve is an Art Major, at the end of the movie he is ready to propose to Eve at her art presentation for finals. This is when he finds out that he was her art project, that there was no emotional attachment on her behalf. She took his ring and put it on display with all of the other items that she had collected during their "relationship".This movie just happens to be one of "jinya's" favorites. I often wonder if she was trying the same crap in real life that she had seen in the movie. Too bad that she chose suc

The Emotional Rollercoaster That Is My Life.
WOW! The past month or so has been nothing if not eventful, I believe that it has been exactly one week since Virginia (Jinya) and I have split up. I can't say that I am honestly surprised as everybody and their damn dog was telling me that I was a God Damned Fool for dating a 21 year old virgin.It all started with her deciding that she wanted to try living apart for awhile, this coming after her little incident with her fellow school mate, Brian Johnson (B.J.), you remember? The one where he kissed her and she did virtually nothing to stop him or even let him know that he had offended her. Anyways, I tried hanging on to what little relationship there was left only to have her begin spending more and more time away from home, out with her "friends". I use that term loosely because god only knows where she really was or who she was really with. All I know is that she did everything in her power to stay away from home.Finally, Things got so bad that my temper started to emerge and I woul

Let Me Tell Ya A Lil Story About A Man Named Jed.......
OMG!!!!! Somebody save me! I swear I am stuck in a bad episode of the twilight zone. Growing up as I did, a privileged child, my friends and I used to make fun of anybody and everybody that lived in a trailer A.K.A mobile home. As I got older and supposedly wiser I started to change my thoughts on "trailer dwellers", I started being nicer to them and looked upon them as equals. Now, before I get too far into this, if you are reading this and you, yourself are residing in a trailer, you might be exempt from most of what I have to say here. I am just rambling on from personal experience in only one place and situation.We all know that I have gotten back with Chris and the boys, and those who have read this journal from the beginning know my past struggles with her and the boys. Well, I have gotten to see things in a whole different light now. After Chris and I broke up she decided to move back in with her parents because she couldn't stand seeing me and "her" together, being so happy and

They Say You’ll Never Be Given More Than You Can Handle....
Well, I introduced you to the family in my last entry, so you kind of have an idea of what Im dealing with here. This morning I woke up to John, the three year old telling Chris that he wasn't going to lay down. After about three times of being told no, Chris gave in and said "fine! Go watch T.V.", OH BOY! Dontcha know that I was up in a heartbeat after hearing that. I walked out to the front room where mom had laid down on the couch and John was sitting in his "kid" recliner, which was right up against the television. I looked at Mom, then John and proceeded to swat his butt once and lay into him about listening to his mother, and then I laid into Mom about giving into John. Everybody wound up lying back down. LOL I wish that she could just be more aggressive with the boys and "persuade" them to do what she tells them to. She just has such a hard time with punishment, let alone spankings. All these boys have to do is smile at her when she's getting on to them and she melts. Now, I und

Late Night, Random Thoughts
Its been a little while since I last entered anything in here, so here goes. You ever just sit down one day and think "My life isn't going anything like I had planned"? I have been doing a lot of that here lately. I mean, perhaps it's just stress coming down on me but my life just doesn't seem to want to get back on track for anything. After I went home for my Grandfather's funeral and came back I started trying to rectify my finances and all. You know, try to get things back where they belong. Well, I started by filing my taxes for the current and past two tax years and then trying to work a deal with child support for the amount that I owe in back support. Funny thing about doing the right thing, it always seems to come back and bite you right in the ass. The same night that I talked to the local child support office, I got served with court papers telling me that I am being found in contempt of court for failure to pay child support. Isn't this grand!? Now I have to have a court app

Life Goes On
Its been awhile since Ive been here and so much has happened. On September 30th I was blessed by the birth of my fourth child, a second daughter.She is wonderful! So beautiful but oh so cranky. LOLI worry about her though. I mean her mother and I do basically nothing but fight, we did it mostly through the pregnancy and continue to do it now. Not because its fun or anything but mostly over money, relationship insecurities and such.I was working for a western clothing retailer called RCC Western Stores for awhile before realizing just how badly I was getting raped by them. They had me working almost 40 hours a week for $6.50 an hour with no benefits or anything. They thought that because they gave their employees a discount of 10% above cost on all items that it was all good.... Well what about those of us that don't want any of that crap??I mean, 10% above cost won't pay the doctor or dentist, fix my car or put food on the table.Needless to say, I switched jobs. I now work for Advance

Some People Never Learn....
Kind of like Chris. I've always told her that if somebody is always bringing something up that they want me to do, chances are more likely than not, I won't do it. Well, we were out at the mall about a week ago or so and stopped in to see the guys at the jewelry store that I used to work by. They started teasing us about marriage and all, which was fine, until Chris started looking at rings. Then it turned into "James's day in HELL". I gave her the benefit of the doubt thinking; she'll just look and leave it at that. HA! Who was I trying to kid? It was all kinds of hints and outright comments time; needless to say, I got really irritated and started making some pretty rude comments every time she'd make one. Tonight she was lying in bed and out of the blue she asked "Will you marry me? That prompted a response of, "What!? I mean, hell, I just signed us up for couples therapy and she's asking about marriage? Either she's nuttier than I thought, or she's just plain stupid. I asked her wh

Somebody Stop The World! I Want To Get Off!
DAMN! Just how much shit can get piled into the short time that I last wrote an entry here? Well, since my last entry, I have traveled to Oklahoma, Laid my Grandfather Martinez to rest, repaired practically all of my family members computers, put $1,500.00 worth of repairs into the Audi and been informed that since my mother has passed away before my grandfather, my sister and I become the beneficiaries of his will in her place. Some of you would say "AWESOME!" I say "FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I mean, come on now! Heres a man that came from the mountains of Colorado, Served in three wars, lived like a pauper but had the money of a king..... Now that he's gone it's up to my aunt, me and my younger sister to uphold his honor as well as his property and make money on top of it all.It's like I told my Aunt when she was telling me that my grandfather was living "comfortably.... "Great!, Part of me wants to jump for joy and the other half wants to break down and cry

Being A Father Is Tough; Being A Good Father Is Tougher, Being A Great Father Is Near Impossible
Ok, its eleven o'clock here and "bean's" grandparents just came and picked her up.I dropped Chris off at work today at nine o'clock and came back home to try and enjoy my day off. Just me and "bean.... Yeah, right!I remember now that I have been telling Chris for almost a month now that we need to figure out some kind of daycare plan for "bean" because for some reason I can't please her when it's just the two of us. I feed her, change her, burp her, try giving her medicine when she needs it, try gas drops if she's having trouble burping, try her swing chair and even just hold her, patting her back while walking around the house. No matter what "Bean" still cries, not just cries, but howls.That scenario happened yet again this morning and I called Chris and told her that I can't handle this, no matter what I do, it's not working. She sounded disgusted with me and said she'd make some phone calls. A little bit later she called and said that her parents were coming to take her until 12:30

Playing Daddy....
Chris had to work tonight, So, I got stuck with the kids. She at least had her brother come and pick up the baby and watch her so that I wouldn't be so stressed out.HA! Me stress!?!?!?! Why would anyone think that I would be stressed??? With her gone tonight, and it being just the two boys and myself, I decided to clean up the house a little bit. Well, a little bit has turned into a major undertaking and I am pissed about what I have been finding.Ya know, weve all heard the jokes about bachelors being filthy, but the majority of women that I have met and/or dealt with in my life have had SOME degree of domestic ability.Why oh why did I have to hook up with somebody that barely knows how to use a broom, much less, what a trash can is for.I may be exaggerating a bit on this, but I doubt it, but she could make the worst bachelor look like a neat freak.OK, enough about that, I went to see my counselor today. Boy! Did I ever unload on him. I even requested that he sign Chris and me up for c

The Powers That Be Are Sadistic S.o.b.s
On Thanksgiving I was stuck replacing my intake manifold gasket on my truck, so I didn't get to enjoy the day with family and friends like so many others across the nation. I was happy though, finally I was getting a major problem fixed, and things went pretty smoothly. The manifold came off with little struggle and everything went back together just like it should. I should have known something was going to go wrong.The next day I went and checked my oil and it had turned into "vanilla Ice Cream", for those of you who don't know what that means, my truck was now leaking water into my oil.Turns out that the gasket kit that I got was the correct one, but it wreaks more havoc than it does any good. I was talking with a customer last night at work, a guy they call "Jersey John", and hes a huge Ford fan and long time performance engine builder. I told him what was happening with the truck and he told me to "get that piece of shit outta there, now!" because if I don't, it'll spin the bearin

Every Cloud Has A Silver Lining....
And a big ass bolt of lightening to keep ya from getting it.I finally got my truck back up and running after almost a full 24 hours straight under the hood.I got my intake gasket replaced with the right one this time and got everything sealed up nice and tight but then it wouldn't start for anything. I thought that maybe that was due to the fact that I still had water in my oil so I drained the oil and replaced the filter. Got everything refilled and ready to go and still no luck, by this time my battery was dead and I was frustrated. So I put the charger on the battery and hit the books once again.Nothing I was trying seemed to work so I finally broke down and called in the big guns.I talked to my long time friend and professional mechanic, Ray Schiltz and the owner of a local performance engine shop that supposedly built this engine, Larry Laverty.Ray and I went over everything that I had done so far and he was as stumped as I was so I called Larry and explained that I was getting fu

Christmas Brings Good Tidings?
OK, its December now and everything sucks. The truck down again, its a timing problem and I can't seem to figure it out. Chris is emotional and moody because there's no money and she wants to splurge on Christmas and the worst of all is now she's telling me that all these mall security guys are hitting on her. One guy just broke up with his woman and the other is expecting a baby with his. Guys hitting on her doesnt bother me. What bothers me is the fact that she blows up when I flirt online, but it seems ok for her to do it in person? Come on now! Lets get real here. I may flirt ... but to me it's just words, not to mention the fact that these people are usually a few hundred to thousand miles away, hardly any chance of me ever meeting them.Her, on the other hand ... up close, in person, easy to sneak anything in ... Wow. Well, I suppose it's time to tuck my tail and take the truck to the shop and have it fixed right, pack up my stuff and make a move. She's always telling me that I'll

3:03 A.m. And My Mind Is Wide Awake....
Wow, I think I'm heading for a mental overload. The stress in my life has been increasing by leaps and bounds over the past few weeks. My job wants us to pass this new "certification" which has absolutely nothing to do with automotive parts but more with company history ... who gives a shit? My customers don't come in for a freaking' history lesson! They want this done by the first of the year as well as for us to be all caught up on our training programs. Cool, great, awesome.... just one thing, I work less than 30 hours a week and get slammed with customers when I am at work as well as having to take care of the other fifty jobs that they want done daily ... No problem, I'll just schedule all this in along with saving the world.Then I have my concerns about my child support and all that it entails. They want three hundred bucks a month. Funny, that's not much less than what I make a month. But, what do they care right? I mean, Here I am, a guy with stress so high that it is causing m

Things To Ponder
Since leaving my position of second assistant manager with Advance Auto Parts and being out of the work force for a month or so now, my nerves are beginning to settle down quite a bit, especially since I applied for S.S.I. / S.S.D.I. and services with "Project Employment" through the Workforce Development Center. I'm probably jumping the gun on things, but I am already planning a life based on receiving S.S.I. benefits but, GOD! It would be so much easier, Id be able to get so much done during the day if I didn't have to work, but still received a check.I could have the entire outside of the house done in one season and get the inside of the house done in the other season and finally be done with it all.After that, I could move on to getting our current vehicles rebuilt and in good working order as well as getting my license back so I could work part time as a delivery driver or something of that nature in the evening to help compensate my income.Chris and I have even talked about me b

Happy Freaking Thirtieth........
Ok, It's Cinco De Mayo, A day of celebration for Latinos across the land ... except one. Seeing as how it is the fifth of May, it's also my birthday....Today started off well enough, I woke up around 5:00 a.m. and headed for work, I noticed the sky, the moon and nature in general on the way there and was feeling whole again, at ease with everything, I was certain that today was going to be an awesome day. Boy! Was I dreaming?I started working for this company called Profile Foods through a temp agency and they decided to hire me on, so, now I am considered a temp to hire. Well, they have me in the kitchen making lasagna sauce and rice, which is a great relief from being out on the production line. There's only one problem with this place, well ... maybe, no, definitely more, but only one that has me hotter than hell right now. I work with two Mexicans in the kitchen, one cooks alongside of me and the other works in the spice room, getting all of our spices mixed up and ready for us. Th

Can I Get Directions To "a Happy Balance" Please?
WOW! I just reread my last journal entry; I must have really been hacked off that day. Things didn't bother to get any better throughout the week, well; they did, but not really a marked improvement. On 05/06 I got a letter from my P.O. stating that I had missed an appointment with her and I was failing to comply with probation rules by not attending a job seeking class. Funny thing about that though, I called her the very first day that I took this assignment and told her that I was working, I even rescheduled our appointment for the date that I did miss, then I had Chris call her for me, since I was at work all day, and reschedule my appointment for me. Chris told me that Shelly, my P.O., kind of got snippy with her when she called to reschedule, but did so anyway, needless to say, it was after that that I got the letter from her. I returned her letter by e-mail. I tried not to be too cynical and condescending in it, but I don't know just how successful I was at that. I have yet to h

Fast Food Employment Is For Kids!
Ok, when did the fast food industry become so damned cut throat? Just recently I started working for Wendy's out in Urbandale and I have noticed that, once again, ignorance rules the company. I don't want to say that I hate this job; but, it does leave much to be desired. Mostly in the way that it is run. Right now I don't understand why they even bother making out a schedule for the employees, the way it is right now you MIGHT get off when you're supposed to, but most likely it will be an hour or two beyond your scheduled time. Typically in a place like this you have three shifts, the lunch rush shift, the evening shift and the late night shift and they overlap each other to allow for shift change, clean up etc. Not here! Its more of a ... as I like to call it, clusterfuck. You have people getting off and coming in at all different times which causes mass confusion when it comes time to change shifts and do clean up. For instance, they have had me working the first drive up window ..

Butch Or Bitch?
Ok ... I'm probably heading for some serious trouble with this entry, but I really want other's opinions on what I am dealing with here. Chris and I have been trying to work through some problems as best as we can lately and one of the biggest problems that we are dealing with is gender roles. Chris has let it be known that she doesn't like the fact that I stay home with the kids and take care of the house. She and I have had fights in the past where she has told me to be more masculine ... more masculine? Could someone please help me with that one? I asked her what made someone masculine in her mind, after almost a whole week of hearing it, and she told me "I dont know, beer and football on Sundays ... cookouts ... Now, Chris has known since day one that I really really really don't like sports. I probably would if as a kid they weren't forced upon me, but they were and I don't. I tried explaining this to her again to which she got really defensive. She told me that she really like

How Much More Before I Blow?
Ok, I dont know how much longer I can do this. I mean I have been dealing with Chris and her kids for almost three years now, trying my damnedest to make things work, but the more I give, the more they want.I can't keep this up. Physically I am literally hurting, my muscles are constantly tense and just being around them anymore makes me irritable. Something deep inside me says that I should leave ... I know I should leave but, Chris has my daughter and soon to have my son and I just can't bring myself to leave them. I've said it before and I still feel the same way, I refuse to have this nut case raise my children without me being there to make sure that she doesn't screw them up the way that she has screwed her first two up.If you have been reading this journal from the beginning then you know the difficulties that I have been dealing with when it comes to Chris and the kids. If not, well, Chris doesn't clean..... At all, she does very little at all to discipline her children and whi

Life Doesn’t Get Any Easier The Older That I Get....
For quite awhile I have been writing in this journal and putting down what I feel from time to time and here I am yet again doing this. This time I have a serious dilemma on my hands and I am torn between doing what some would term as "the right thing" and what I feel in me. For the past year I have pretty much dedicated my life to Chris and the kids. And... As you could probably tell from my past entries, I have been pretty much miserable. Don't get me wrong, we have had some good times together but sadly enough those don't outweigh the bad times by any amount. I struggle constantly with finances and Chris's urge to spend impulsively. Her kids are getting more and more rebellious and everything is taking its toll on me making me very irritable and in no shape to try and enjoy anytime with my baby. I work constantly now trying to make ends meet only to see it all disappear in a day. Chris is once again pregnant with our second child together and I should be happy, but I'm not.In fact,

Welcome Back Kotter!
Ok, So my life has sped up quite a bit since deciding to give my ex a second chance and trying to find a job to help supplement the lull in my technology consulting/repair biz. Today was especially hectic, I dropped Chris off at work this morning ... clear on the other side of town ... just to get home and try to catch a little nap before heading out to an interview that I had lined up. I had just settled into a nice dream when the phone started screaming in my ear, when I picked up it was Chris's employer telling me that she wasn't feeling well. My first thought was "ok, so?" but then she went on to tell me that Chris had actually fainted, her left side was numb and they had an ambulance on it's way to take her to the hospital. I shot straight up and probably sounded like a complete idiot to this woman as I was like "who, what, when, where, why and how!?!!" She managed to tell me what hospital they were taking Chris to and I said that I would meet her there. On my way I decided to swi

Entry For January 14, 2006
Ok, it's been a little while since I last blogged so here goes ... Quite a bit has been happening with me lately, it seems like my whole outlook on life is changing once again and I believe that this time it's for the better. I have left Wendy's since I last blogged due to conflicts of personality ... well ... that and my manager's health ... if I had stayed, his health would have gone down hill in the blink of an eye (LOL). Child support is finally working with me and we got my payments down to sixty dollars a month for the next two years, granted I had to take a leave of absence from school in order to get that done, but hey, we all have to make sacrifices at some point or another and it's not like I'm not going back. Since Chris is working at the airport now I have been staying home with the kids to avoid having to pay for childcare and I'm waiting for her boss to get back in his office so that I can meet with him about a job that he offered me through Chris. From what she has told

Entry For February 08, 2006
I don't know how many times I have heard women bitching and moaning because they are expected to perform at or above the level of their male counterparts, too many times have I been heard saying "hey, it was your ancestors that fought for equality". Now, I don't know about you but I do know that every time I say that to Chris she jumps down my throat telling me that it wasn't HER idea to fight for equality. Ok, fair enough, it may not have been her idea but she sure does support it ... when it benefits her. Let's see if I can put this as gently as possible.... Chris is the kind of woman that wants to have her cake and eat it too. For instance, She gets so pissed off when I tell her how masculine she is but yet she continues to talk, act and dress in a masculine manner or, this is my favorite, she constantly tells me that she wants me to be more "masculine" but when I do act more masculine she bitches that I don't spend any time with her or that she can't understand the way I talk

I Am In A Contest. Plz Help Me!
Hey Everyone, > > I am in a contest. I really need some help. Can you lovely guys and gals help me and come rate and comment my picture. Comment bombing is welcome too. Please help me. Please share this blog with your friends to help me if they want to. I appreciate you all and the help you give me. > > >

What Not To Do With Wax & Skin
> >Don't underestemate the work of a professional!!> > > All hair removal methods have tricked women with their promises of easy, > painless removal - The Epilady, scissors, razors, Nair and now...the > wax. > Read on......... > > My night began as any other normal weeknight. Come home, fix dinner, > play > with the kids. I then had the thought that would ring painfully in my > mind > for the next few hours: 'Maybe I should pull the waxing kit out of the > medicine cabinet.' > > So I headed to the site of my demise: the bathroom. It was one of those > 'cold wax' kits. No melting a clump of hot wax, you just rub the strips > together in your hand, they get warm and you peel them apart and press > them to your leg (or wherever else) and you pull the hair right off. > > No muss, no fuss. How hard can it be? I mean, I'm not a genius, but I am > mechanically inclined enough to figure this out. (YA THINK!?!) So I > pull > one of the thin strips out. Its two st

Fuck This Piece Of Shit Website
JUST A FEW THINGS TO START WITH. I HAVE MADE A FEW GREAT FRIENDS WHILE ON THIS PISS POOR SITE AND THEY KNOW WHO THE ARE, SO THIS DOES NOT PERTAIN TO YOU. AS FOR THE REST OF THE NO BRAIN, INBRED WEBWHORES AND ASSHOLE FAGGOTS CAN GO CHOKE ON THIS STEAMING PILE OF SHIT SITE. TRY SOMETHING NEW YOU SELF-CENTERED FUCKWADS AND LEAVE MOMMIES BASEMENT, TURN OFF THE KIDDIE PORN AND SEE SOME SUNSHINE FOR A CHANGE. THIS IS THE LAST FROM TOP SO TAKE IT FOR WHAT IT IS. I WILL BE TELLING THE OWNERS IN STAFF IN PRIVATE MESSAGES PRETTY MUCH THE SAME THING SO I'M SURE I WILL BE DELETED FAIRLY QUICKLY BECAUSE IF YOUR OPINIONS VARY FROM THEIR NARROW MINDED VIEW OF SOCIETY THEN THEY TRY TO PUSH YOU OUT. GOOD LUCK TO THOSE THAT MATTER AND TO THOSE WHO DON'T HOPE YOU ROT TO DEATH QUICKLY AND STOP SUCKING UP THE GOOD AIR FOR THE REST OF HUMANITY.

The Lie
my eyes bleed looking at you and me and what we used to be thinking of the days we used to share remembering the days when u used to care thinking of the worst dream i had last night you were my darkest hour, my hardest fight the angry side of you that i just met the saddest letter just had to be sent i cry and cry over that one day that i cant live no more and have to break away so kill me now and wait for me to be gone and remember that that was the one sad song i love you and u know who u ARE and u broke my heart!!!

Save Me
I am in a place I do not know of I am lost with every step The buildings move around me I can't stop it I have no say where I go I cannot make it stop All I can do is wait For someone to come to my rescue To comfort me I need to be heard I need to be seen I am an invisible occupant Of a place which has no room for me A world with no time for me But still, I cannot escape I could scream But would I be heard? In this world I am nothing A mere particle in the air Never noticed, but nevertheless there. I seem to move on and on This place has no end Am I going around in circles? I scream at the top of my lungs Does any sound come out? In this world I am not myself Does anyone notice I am gone? Who will save me from this hell? Or will I wait, Not knowing that I have been forgotten? The world closes in around me The road no longer seems endless Will I reach the end? Or will I be engulfed by the collapsing world? Please save me The time has long since past w

Punishment
She was still half asleep when he grabbed her roughly by the hair and pulled her off the couch where she had been napping. She stumbled along with him as he dragged her to the bedroom, trying to keep her feet while she figured out what was happening. They crossed the threshold and he tossed her to the floor where she fell in a moderately graceful heap. He grabbed her hair again with a renewed grip and she allowed herself a high pitched gasp as the hair threatened to pull from the roots. Using more force than might be necessary, he dragged her to her feet, pulling her close to him and shoving his tongue deep into her throat. She felt a shudder all the way to her cunt as he moved his tongue inside her. She kissed him back, using her tongue and teeth and lips like she knew he liked. He pulled his tongue away from her mouth long enough to pull her shirt off over her head. Her bra quickly followed and instead of bringing his tongue back to her mouth, he lowered his head and wrapped hi

I'm Sorry
I have'nt been on here lately and for that I am sorry. I've had alot of things going on in my life that seemed to hit me all at once. To my friends that helped me through it (even just by listening to me bitch lol) thank you and blessed be.

Pain
if ii died, would you even know? one single bullet, one little blow what am i to you except a pain? if i were dead you would probably gain im so confused, my lifes a mess with death comes no stress would anyone even cry? i bet all eyes would stay dry this life of mine i wish i could end it if death was meant for me.. ii wish god would send it

Auctions
Alrite so you see a lot of auctions lately been going on and what not, so I was wondering. Are there goign to be any auctions that involve guys instead of girls? If so then how do you register to be the one auctioned off?

Lables: Calling Me A Man
I HIT THE VOLLEYBALL IN JUNIOR HIGH SCHOOL with the effort demanded by the P.E. Instructor... because I wanted a good grade and refused to be set aside like many other girls who IN BEING SET ASIDE, earned negative grades in the class. I spiked the ball... once I learned how to, I blasted the ball hard and far as possible ... once I learned it was a god move; and I passed the ball to set it up... once I learned who to trust for a complete play on the move. That's the way I learned to live life too.If that made me ...predestined me for MANLIHOOD... then I was dammed from the beginning. I never managed to get my nails and toes done (at cost) .. I suppose my husbands preferred that on OTHER WOMEN... it was considered to be "wasting money" while also being their wife. (whoda known making the effort to look good for the man you love is an act of WASTING in his mind!) It looks good if it doesn't come from his pocket OR doesn't take away from the "kitty" where his paycheck goes. A man (colleg

The Legend Of The Apache Tear~
In the 1870s, a tribe of Pinal Apache Indians carried out raids against the white farmers and friendly Pima Indians. The Arizona Volunteers followed the Apaches on a secret trail to the top of some rugged, towering cliffs. They attacked at daybreak, killing over half of the nearly 100 Apaches. The remaining Apaches jumped from the cliff's edge rather than die at the hands of attackers. ~ It is said that the sorrow of the Apache women was so great that the Great Father embedded their tears into black stones at the foot of the cliff. These black Obsidian stones when held to the light, reveal the transparent tears.

Animals
Animals are so much a part of Native American spirituality. They're a reminder that all living creatures are woven together in the fabric of life. And an inspiration to walk more reverently and to live in closer harmony with the web of life.

Beloved Woman
The Cherokee were a matrilineal (tracing family relations through the mother) society and thus, women held leadership roles. Women of great influence became known as Ghigau meaning Beloved Woman, the highest role to which a Cherokee woman could aspire. The name also translates into War Woman and was often awarded to courageous women warriors. ~ One such woman, Nan'yehi, later to be known as Nancy Ward, lost her young warrior husband in battle so she took up the battle cry and led her people to victory. This feat gave her privileges accorded a Beloved Woman including voice and vote in the General Council, leadership of the Women's Council, the right to save a prisoner from execution, and the right to be her people's sage and guide. ~ Nancy became an ambassador of peace between the Cherokee and the White man. She served as the negotiator for the Cherokee at the 1785 signing of the Treaty of Hopewell, the first treaty made between the Cherokee and the United

Color Legend
Once upon a time, the colors of the world started to quarrel: all claimed that they were the best, the most important, the most useful, the favorite. ~ GREEN said: "Clearly I am the most important. I am the sign of life and of hope. I was chosen for grass, trees, leaves - without me, all animals would die. Look over the countryside and you will see that I am in the majority." ~ BLUE interrupted: "You only think about the earth, but consider the sky and the sea. It is the water that is the basis of life and drawn up by the clouds from the deep sea. The sky gives space and peace and serenity. Without my peace, you would all be nothing." ~ YELLOW chuckled: "You are all so serious. I bring laughter, gaiety and warmth into the world. The sun is yellow, the moon is yellow, the stars are yellow. Every time you look at a sunflower, the whole world starts to smile. Without me, there would be no fun." ~ ORANGE started next to blow her trumpet: "I am the color of healt

Cherokee Wedding
The groom enters one end of the council house and the bride the other. The couple then meets in the center by the sacred fire. The priest faces east as does the door of the council house. The groom's mother stands by him and the bride's mother beside her. She holds the bride's gifts of corn bread and a blanket. The bride's brother stands beside their mother symbolizing his responsibility to his sister and her children. The bride and groom wear blue blankets representing their old ways and life. The priest blesses the fire and the union of the two. He asks for a long and happy life for them. It is custom for the bride to give the groom a red and black belt she has made, but any gift of the heart will do. The mothers give gifts to their children who exchange gifts with each other. They join together their blankets symbolizing their mutual support within the marriage. Then each drink a corn drink from a double-sided wedding vase. They drink from east to west t

Wisdom
The time has come to listen to echoes from our land...the wisdom and teachings of our Native American Indians. Their words are simple and their voices are soft. We have not heard them, because we have not taken the time to listen. Perhaps now is the time to open our ears and our hearts to the words of wisdom they have to say.

Medicine Shields
The medicine shield is an expression of the unique gifts that it's maker wishes to impart about his or her current life journey. This can be a new level of personal growth, or illustrate the next mountain a person wishes to climb. Every shield carries medicine through it's art and self-expression. Each shield is the essence of a time and space that carries certain aspects of knowledge. All persons carry shields of the lessons they learned from the four directions on the medicine wheel. They are the healing tools we give ourselves to sooth the spirit and empower the will. The truth needs no explanation,, just reflection. This allows intuition to guide the heart so that humankind may celebrate more than it mourns.

Lakota Instructions For Living
Friend do it this way - that is, whatever you do in life, do the very best you can with both your heart and mind. And if you do it that way, the Power Of The Universe will come to your assistance, if your heart and mind are in Unity. When one sits in the Hoop Of The People, one must be responsible because All of Creation is related. And the hurt of one is the hurt of all. And the honor of one is the honor of all. And whatever we do effects everything in the universe. If you do it that way - that is, if you truly join your heart and mind as One - whatever you ask for, that's the Way It's Going To Be. passed down from White Buffalo Calf Woman

Earth Teach Me
Earth teach me quiet ~ as the grasses are still with new light. Earth teach me suffering ~ as old stones suffer with memory. Earth teach me humility ~ as blossoms are humble with beginning. Earth teach me caring ~ as mothers nurture their young. Earth teach me courage ~ as the tree that stands alone. Earth teach me limitation ~ as the ant that crawls on the ground. Earth teach me freedom ~ as the eagle that soars in the sky. Earth teach me acceptance ~ as the leaves that die each fall. Earth teach me renewal ~ as the seed that rises in the spring. Earth teach me to forget myself ~ as melted snow forgets its life. Earth teach me to remember kindness ~ as dry fields weep with rain. An Ute Prayer

The Circle
You have noticed that everything an Indian does in a circle, and that is because the Power of the World always works in circles, and everything and everything tries to be round. In the old days all our power came to us from the sacred hoop of the nation and so long as the hoop was unbroken the people flourished. The flowering tree was the living center of the hoop, and the circle of the four quarters nourished it. The east gave peace and light, the south gave warmth, the west gave rain and the north with its cold and mighty wind gave strength and endurance. This knowledge came to us from the outer world with our religion. Everything the power of the world does is done in a circle. The sky is round and I have heard that the earth is round like a ball and so are all the stars. The wind, in its greatest power, whirls. Birds make their nests in circles, for theirs is the same religion as ours. The sun comes forth and goes down again in a circle. The moon does the same an

True Peace
The first peace, which is the most important, is that which comes within the souls of people when they realize their relationship, their oneness, with the universe and all its powers, and when they realize that at the center of the universe dwells Wakan-Taka (the Great Spirit), and that this center is really everywhere, it is within each of us. This is the real peace, and the others are but reflections of this. The second peace is that which is made between two individuals, and the third is that which is made between two nations. But above all you should understand that there can never be peace between nations until there is known that true peace, which, as I have often said, is within the souls of men. Black Elk, Oglala Sioux & Spiritual Leader (1863 - 1950)

Lakota Prayer
Wakan Tanka, Great Mystery, teach me how to trust my heart, my mind, my intuition, my inner knowing, the senses of my body, the blessings of my spirit. Teach me to trust these things so that I may enter my Sacred Space and love beyond my fear, and thus Walk in Balance with the passing of each glorious Sun. According to the Native People, the Sacred Space is the space between exhalation and inhalation. To Walk in Balance is to have Heaven (spirituality) and Earth (physicality) in Harmony.

Thanksgiving
We return thanks to our mother, the earth, which sustains us. We return thanks to the rivers and streams, which supply us with water. We return thanks to all herbs, which furnish medicines for the cure of our diseases. We return thanks to the moon and stars, which have given to us their light when the sun was gone. We return thanks to the sun, that has looked upon the earth with a beneficent eye. Lastly, we return thanks to the Great Spirit, in Whom is embodied all goodness, and Who directs all things for the good of Her children.

Another Year Added To My Life!
There's a day that only comes once a year, a day that most people look forward to and some don't even care about! Well I just had my day, my birthday, making it my 43rd year of life here in this world! As each year passes we experence so many things, good or bad, hopefully learning from it all so we might not make the same mistakes again! The saying goes "The older we get the wiser we become"! But are we really?

A Few Words In Defense Of Our Country
I’d like to say a few words In defense of our country Whose people aren’t bad nor are they mean Now the leaders we have While they’re the worst that we’ve had Are hardly the worst this poor world has seen Let’s turn history’s pages, shall we? Take the Caesars for example Why within the first few of them They were sleeping with their sister Stashing little boys in swimming pools And burning down the City And one of ‘em, one of 'em Appointed his own horse Consul of the Empire That’s like vice president or something That’s not a very good example, is it? But wait, here’s one, the Spanish Inquisition They put people in a terrible position I don’t even like to think about it Well, sometimes I like to think about it Just a few words in defense of our country Whose time at the top Could be coming to an end Now we don’t want their love And respect at this point is pretty much out of the question But in times like these We sure could use a friend Hitler.

July Turning Point And Artist Spotlight Bands Announced.
Netwavz Radio is happy to announce two bands, One as the July Turning Point Band of the Month and one as the Artist Spotlight Band of the month. Netwavz Radio is proud to present StoneRider as the Turning Point band of the month. Netwavz Radio is also happy to announce the band Shinedown as the July Artist Spotlight Band. Please be sure to check out these two bands on our main website at www.netwavzradio.com LOCK it and ROCK it!

Sail Away
In America you'll get food to eat Won't have to run through the jungle And scuff up your feet You'll just sing about Jesus and drink wine all day It's great to be an American Ain't no lions or tigers-ain't no mamba snake Just the sweet watermelon and the buckwheat cake Ev'rybody is as happy as a man can be Climb aboard, little wog-sail away with me Sail away-sail away We will cross the mighty ocean into Charleston Bay Sail away-sail away We will cross the mighty ocean into Charleston Bay In America every man is free To take care of his home and his family You'll be as happy as a monkey in a monkey tree You're all gonna be an American Sail away-sail away We will cross the mighty ocean into Charleston Bay Sail away-sail away We will cross the mighty ocean into Charleston Bay

Mr. President (have Pity On The Working Man)
We've taken all you've given But it's gettin' hard to make a livin' Mr. President have pity on the working man We're not asking you to love us You may place yourself high above us Mr. President have pity on the working man I know it may sound funny But people ev'ry where are runnin' out of money We just can't make it by ourself It is cold and the wind is blowing We need something to keep us gong Mr. President have pity on the working man Maybe you've cheated Maybe you've lied Maybe you have lost your mind Maybe you're only thinking 'bout yourself Too late to run. Too late to cry now The time has come for us to say good-bye now Mr. President have pity on the working man Mr. President have pity on the working man

Do You Need Exposure/help Promoting Something?
Are you an artist looking for exposure? Do you have a business that you are trying to promote? A contest that you are trying to win? Or an event that you want more people to know about? I can help! I need help promoting my new website and getting votes for some online modeling contests that I'm in. If you help me out I will return the favor. I will add you to my top friends and post bulletins and blogs about you or your business, ask my friends to add you, and to vote for you. Since I don't want my page to turn into an advertisement, I will limit myself to help out only 1 person par day and I will keep the rotation going. If you would like me to help you out please post a comment on my blog and I will put you in the rotation. Love, Bella

The Wlpa Federal Law Memorandum
The WLPA Federal Law Memorandum By Witches League for Public Awareness Statement of the Facts: Witchcraft in the United States is a living, growing religion. As a religion, Witchcraft is protected by the Constitution. The Law has the obligation to serve and protect Witches in their religious endeavors, equally as much as it protects the rights and freedoms of other groups. In the United States today, Witches are entitled to the same rights and protections as other groups under the First and Fourteenth Amendments. ISSUE I: Is Witchcraft recognized as a legitimate religion in the United States? ISSUE II: Does the practice of Witchcraft fall within the parameters of the First Amendment? protection clause? ISSUE III: Are Witches entitled to rights under the equal protection clause of the Fourteenth Amendment? ISSUE IV: Are Witches entitled to the same rights and protections under State Laws. applicable to where they live, as they are under Federal

That's Right, "big Brother" Got Me...
and the last time I saw him, although I wasn't supposed to go to his office at the muunicipal building, he was pretty much lookin like HANCOCK. I might sumise that it was die to his not LISTENING TO ME when I suggested.. no I TOLD HIM to run for a larger office. BUT NOOOOOOOOO! He had to listen to that skinny little yalluh woman of his... or that the ministers were having him marry. She didn't want no politician husband. So... hancock, WHAT UP? (that's a pretty god likeness of you on ths scren too!) http://www.comcast.net/movies/139523/hancock/

The Knob!
If this doesn't make you laugh, you're dead!!!!............. A woman visited her plastic surgeon who told her about a new procedure called 'The Knob,' where a small knob is placed at the top of the woman's head and could be turned to tighten up her skin and produce the effect of a brand new face-lift. Of course, the woman wanted 'The Knob.' Over the course of the years, the woman tightened the knob, and the effects were wonderful, the woman remained young looking and vibrant. After fifteen years, the woman returned to the surgeon with two problems. 'All these years, everything has been working just fine. I've had to turn the knob many times and I've always loved the results. But now I've developed two annoying problems: First, I have these terrible bags under my eyes and the knob won't get rid of them.' The doctor looked at her closely and said, 'Those aren't bags, those are your breasts.' She said, 'Well, I guess there's no point in asking about the goatee.

A Stupid Fool Motherfucker!
That would be none other than me. How does the old saying go? Fool me once: shame on you. Fool me twice: shame on me. Shame on me. Yep, ladies, you can have your studly guys with a full head of hair, money, smarter, no problems or children, a nicer car, a 6 pack and a tan and can dance. You can have them. But, at the end of the day, balding guys with bad hearing, a bad marriage behind him and a few kids and little money are the ones that will love you, cherish you and respect you forever. The grass isn't always greener, ladies. Remember that.

Updates
Hi there...long time no write! Sometimes life seems to take over the small things one at a time! LOL! Hope that everyone is doing well these days. I just wanted to update (for those of you that don't already know or haven't listened to me cry). Things have been crazy at work...sometimes I feel that the more you do, the more they expect from you! LOL! I guess I have to stop doing things at work~ I finally finished after 3 weeks in Kansas...aka....Tornado Central! After that, I had about a week to spend with my son before he went to his dads for 3 weeks. Many of you may know that there have been problems in the past with Kade's dad. He has talked to him about subjects that most kids don't even begin to understand or comprehend until much later in life. He used to be a cop, so he seems to believe that he is above everyone else in this world. Anyway, to make a long story short, Kade will be turning 12 this year and they are pursuing the option of him going to live with them.

Us Marks Independence Day With Fireworks, Revelry
By COLLEEN LONG, Associated Press Writer 53 minutes ago NEW YORK - The nation's largest fireworks display exploded in a spectrum of color over the East River, temporarily stealing the spotlight from New York's world-famous skyline and helping to create a brilliant end to a day of July Fourth celebrations nationwide. More than 3 million people had been expected to attend the New York display, though no crowd estimates were immediately given. It had been moved south along the river this year so onlookers could get a better view of the skyline. Spectators thronged the riverfront in a light rain, some holding red, white and blue umbrellas. Edwin Aleman staked out his viewing spot in the Williamsburg section of Brooklyn hours before the show. "These are million-dollar views," he told WNYW-TV. "This is what New York City is all about: the views, the skyline." More than 35,000 shells sparkled, arched, spiked and fanned over the river during the half-hour show, launched fro

Only Here For A Little While
(Chorus) Gonna hold who needs holdin' Mend what needs mendin' Walk what needs walkin' Though it means an extra mile Pray what needs prayin' Say what needs sayin' Cause we're only here for a little while Today I stood singin' songs and sayin' Amen Saying goodbye to an old friend who seemed so young He spent his life workin' hard to chase a dollar Putting off until tomorrow the things he should have done Made me start thinking "What's the hurry, why the runnin'? I don't like what I'm becoming, gonna change my style Take my time and I take it all for granted " Cause we're only here for a little while (repeat chorus) Let me love like I'll never see tomorrow Treat each day as though it's borrowed Like it's precious as a child Whoa, take my hand Let us reach out to each other Cause we're only here for a little while (repeat chorus)

Can't You See?
Can't You See? Can't you see? Don't you care I want to die? Don't you listen? Can't you hear My silent cry? Won't you turn? Can't you hold Me to your heart? Are you afraid of what might follow Once you start? Would you rather not believe I'm in such pain That all your sense and good advice Must be in vain? Would you rather tell yourself I'll be OK, And all this adolescent angst Will go away? Ah! Would I also swim across This lake alone! But if you cannot swim with me, I know I'll drown.

Hold Me In Your Willing Heart
Hold Me In Your Willing Heart Hold me to your willing heart And let me - help me - weep That I of need might fall apart And then at last might sleep. Let the truth slice into me That I might finally bleed And purge myself of agony I cannot now concede. For I have bound myself in light That I might live in joy, And cannot - will not - let the night My bonds of love destroy. And yet I know if I would gain The peace for which I pray, I must allow the floods of pain To wash my love away.

Forever And Always
Forever And Always. I love you so deeply, It hurts so much, I love the sound of your voice and the way that we touch. I love your warm smile and your kind, thoughtful way, The joy that you bring to my life every day. I love you today as I have from the start, and I'll love you forever, with all of my heart. When I'm with you, eternity is a step away, my love continues to grow, with each passing day. This treasure of love, I cherish within my soul, how much I love you, you'll never really know. You bring a joy to my heart; I've never felt before, with each touch of your heart, I love you more and more. Whenever we say goodbye, whenever we part, know I hold you dearly, deep inside my heart. So these seven words, I pray you hold true, "Forever and Always, I will Love You."

How?
How? How can I tell you what I feel for you? When I think of you my feelings twist inside As if someone's fist reached in and grabbed a few, And turned and turned them tight and tangled. I've tried Somehow to say: You're the sun in my sky, The wind that takes me where I want to go, The sweet incense that makes me feel so high That loving you seems all I need to know. But it all sticks in my throat! It sounds too cute, Empty as a wrinkled paper bag. You won't believe it! Better I stay mute Than offer you clichés that make you gag. And yet I wish to tell you of my love, If only love its own locks would remove!

How Can I Know, So Surely That I Love You?
How Can I Know, So surely That I Love You? How can I know so surely that I'll love you? No matter what the future has in store? Time is like a cave in which our torches Show only the circumference of our minds. But love is far more than our passion, Though passion may at first sustain the will. One chooses love the way one chooses faith Because that is the way that heaven lies. My love for you is vaster than the ocean, More rich in loveliness than coral seas. I could no more relinquish it than let go Willingly the precious gift of life.

Your Soul Is Like The Vastest Sea
Your Soul Is Like The Vastest Sea: Your soul is like the vastest sea And mine; a darting fish, I lose myself within your love; I live within your heart. I breathe your love: it is my air, My element, my world. I know no other ambiance; I have no other dream. I know there is outside your love A world of rocks and sand; And I could live there, too, but, How poor and thin each breath! How rich my world, how beautiful, Alive within your love, Each moment filled with dancing light Refracted through your eyes!

I Want
I Want: I want to make you smile as you make me. I wish you saw my thoughts right through my eyes. You ask me what I'm thinking. I can't tell you. You are the stars, and I the empty skies. In me there is a yearning ever flowing That needs to reach an end that never comes. I cannot be myself without you with me. This is a truth no wisdom could ever undo, You laugh, when I say that your my Personal angel, and this is what I want so much For you to see. The beauty of my life is like a passion That blows right through the person that you see in me.

Stone
Stone It stands the test of time loosing just some of it's form over the years hard and forever silent cold in the winter and warm in the summer keeping it's shape till the rain erodes it away Sometimes I wish my heart was made of stone you may say that I am wrong that we all need to feel I agree but it hurts to feel especially when a friend hurts you Does the heart stand the test of time will it keep it's shape unlike the stone it is soft and noisy it is cold when we hurt and it is warm when we love will the rain wash the hurt away We need to decide what we want our heart to be soft and vulnerable or hard as the stone

The Book
The book As I sit and wonder in my little space my thoughts drift to a far off place and to the heart of a woman so tender the time we get to know is time that is well remembered her sweet voice that warms my heart it is sad that we are apart soon the day will come when we meet for the first time and the story will be at the end of the line the book she wrote was filled with love and pain things that she can not change a new book she now writes is filled with love an light the soul that finds the one that's true can only say I LOVE YOU

Waiting More Than Ever
Waiting More Than Ever: You and I are different though we try to stay the same, It never leaves and when it changes it's still a waiting game. I wait for a lonely breath; I wait to surface from its depth, I wait for the light to come and take these images I kept in my head. More than ever I need to feel you, More than ever I see the real you, When you're not near me. A worse disaster would be waking up alone. Now we're free, we're drifting out like all the ones we didn't know. I wait for a silence here; I wait for things to disappear. I wait for the ground to stop moving underneath my only fear. If I lose you, I just might crack. Every thing we have had out of sight out of mind given that What I see when I dream hurts like hell and back. More than ever I need to feel you. More than ever I see the real you.

Sadness Abounds
Sadness Abounds As I walk this hallowed graveyard, I run my fingers over her stone. An icy cold chill cuts me to the bone, I miss thee greatly and the sadness abounds. In the distance a wolf call sounds. I'd do anything to be with you again. Everlasting death as I watch the moon wane. I am empty without thee, Oh, how I miss thee and the sadness abounds. Every moment without you, my dark soul drowns. I hear your voice whisper in my mind. I would die a thousand deaths just to be by your side. I'd do anything to be with you again.

Soul
Soul Do you feel the softness of my soul as you pass me by Did you know you touched me as you turn away Do you realize you left your feelings behind Does the softness remind you of me Did you know that you will never be forgotten Even though you are not here I will remember I long to hear you say my name I want to feel you touch me I long to see you to smell you to know you My heart longs for your love My soul wants to feel you brush past So it waits

Nbc Poll
I'll bet this was a surprise to NBC. NBC POLL Do you believe that the word God should stay In American culture? NBC this morning had a poll on this question. They had the highest Number of responses That they have ever had for one of their polls, and the Percentage was the same as this: 86% to keep The words, IN God We Trust and God in the Pledge of Allegiance 14% against That is a pretty 'commanding' public response. I was asked to send this on if I agreed or delete if I didn't . Now it is your turn . . It is said that 86% of Americans believe the word God should stay. Therefore, I have a very hard time understanding why there is such a mess about having 'In God We Trust' on our money and having God in the Pledge of Allegiance. Why is the world catering to this 14%? AMEN! If you agree, pass this on , if not, simply delete In God We Trust ** I thought this important so I made it a blog..

Cemetery Gates
Reverend reverend is this some conspiracy? Crucified for no sins An image beneath me Whats within our plans for life It all seems so unreal I'm a man cut in half in this world Left in my misery... The reverend he turned to me Without a tear in his eyes It's nothing new for him to see I didn't ask him why I will remember The love our souls had Sworn to make Now I watch the falling rain All my mind can see Now is your (face) Well I guess You took my youth I gave it all away Like the birth of a New-found joy This love would end in rage And when she died I couldn't cry The pride within my soul You left me incomplete All alone as the Memories now unfold. Believe the word I will unlock my door And pass the Cemetery gates Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder aloud If you're watching over me Some place far abound I must reverse my life I can't live in the past Then set my soul free Belong to me at last Through all those Complex years I thought

Cowboys From Hell
Under the lights where we stand tall Nobody touches us at all Showdown, shootout, spread fear within, without We're gonna take what's ours to have Spread the word throughout the land They say the bad guys wear black We're tagged and can't turn back You see us comin' And you all together run for cover We're taking over this town Here we come reach for your gun And you better listen well my friend, you see It's been slow down below, Aimed at you we're the cowboys from hell Deed is done again, we've won Ain't talking no tall tales friend 'Cause high noon, your doom Comin' for you we're the cowboys from hell Pillage the village, trash the scene But better not take it out on me 'Cause a ghost town is found Where your city used to be So out of the darkness and into the light Sparks fly everywhere in sight From my double barrel, 12 gauge, Can't lock me in your cage You see us comin' And you all together run for cover We're taking over this town Here we c

Walk
Can't you see I'm easily bothered by persistence One step from lashing out at you... You want in to get under my skin And call yourself a friend I've got more friends like you What do I do? [Pre] Is there no standard anymore? What it takes, who I am, where I've been Belong You can't be something you're not Be yourself, by yourself Stay away from me A lesson learned in life Known from the dawn of time [Chorus] Respect, walk Run your mouth when I'm not around It's easy to achieve You cry to weak friends that sympathize Can you hear the violins playing you song? Those same friends tell me your every word [Pre] [Chorus] Are you talking to me? No way punk

Fucking Hostile
Almost every day I see the same face On broken picture tube It fits the attitude If you could see yourself You put you on a shelf Your verbal masturbate Promise to nauseate Today I'll play the part of non-parent Not make a hundred rules For you to know about yourself Not lie and make you believe What's evil is making love and making friends and meeting God you're own way The right way [Chorus] To see To bleed Cannot be taught In turn You're making us Fucking hostile We stand alone The truth in right and wrong The boundaries of the law You seem to miss the point Arresting for a joint? You seem to wonder why Hundreds of people die You're writing tickets man My mom got jumped -- they ran! Now I'll play a public servant To serve and protect By the law and the state I'd bust the punks That rape steal and murder And leave you be If you crossed me I'd shake your hand like a man Not a god [Chorus] Come meet your maker, boy Some things you ca

This Love
If ever words were spoken Painful and untrue I said I loved but I lied In my life All I wanted Was the keeping Of someone like you As it turns out Deeper within me Love was twisted and pointed at you Never ending pain, quickly ending life -- [Chorus] You keep this love, thing, love, child, love, toy You keep this love, fist, love, scar, love, break You keep this love I'd been the tempting one Stole her from herself This gift in pain Her pain was life And sometimes I feel so sorry I regret this the hurting of you But you make me so unhappy I'd take my life and leave love with you I'd kill myself for you, I'd kill you for myself -- [Chorus] No more head trips

Ghost Of Freedom
Every time you think about it It tears you up inside You curse the day your mother told you, your father died Now you're always searching Searching for the reason why I've gone But I will always be here By your side, through the darkest night Here I'll stand on the firing line Here I'll walk through the field where I died I will fight and let the voice ring true I am the ghost Standing next to you Every night you go to sleep You pray the Lord my soul to keep You don't know I've not gone away You see I watch over fighting men So they can have peace again And maybe someday you will all be free Here I'll stand on the firing line Here I'll walk through the field where I died I will fight and let the voice ring true I am the ghost Standing next to you You speak to me And I feel your pride Assuring me I'll never die I write Mother... "He's here with me..." He's in our minds He's in our souls Of sacrifice his story's told He holds the flame of freedom f

When The Eagle Cries
Another day, just like any other out of the blue, it turned to horror How could they? Why would they? The innocents suffered hell's inferno An senseless act that goes unforgotten How could they? They will pay. [Chorus:] When the Eagle Cries Blood will flow When the Eagle Cries For freedom's fight When the Eagle Cries We love her so When the Eagle Cries We will sacrifice Out of the ashes came a tempted vengeance but we are focused, we seek redemption we are free we'll stay free All they've done is make us stronger The sleeping giant is asleep no longer If need be we'll die free [Chorus:] When the Eagle Cries Blood will flow When the Eagle Cries For freedom's fight When the Eagle Cries We love her so When the Eagle Cries We will sacrifice

The Devil To Pay
In July 1863 A nation torn in tragedy A trick of fate, two great armies merge Gods of war at Gettysburg Devastation lies ahead 50,000 bodies litter the land Hell rages three full days The reaper sows, there's the devil to pay The pressure's on and the reb's attack The yanks must hold, They can't fall back Just two brigades, 2000 strong Against 20,000 they can't hold long General Reynolds makes his way Expect no mercy from the iron brigade Until he shows they're on their own But Buford's men have a will of stone Bayonets gleam in the morning sun Smoke and fire belching from their guns Another volley and again they strike Thousands more comin' down Chambersburg pike [Chorus:] This tragedy and what it brings All the devastation (The reaper has his way) Men will kill, Blood will spill To preserve the nation (There's the devil to pay) South of town down the Emmitsburg road The first corps are starting to show For Buford's men, they're here just in time

High Water Mark
[1. Cannonade/Intro] [Instrumental] [2. The Burden of Command] [Lee:] "It Was Very Close Yesterday I Thought For Sure They Would Break But This Attack That I Have Planned A Massive Strike Across Open Land In The Center They Will Break (Will They Break?) But Plan It Well, Everything's At Stake We'll Hit 'Em Hard, Not A Silent Gun Before The Infantry's Begun" "Execute It Well, We Risk Everything" "It's In God's Hands Now [Longstreet:] "General Lee I Must Tell You Straight I Believe This Attack Will Fail No 15,000 Men Ever Made Will Overtake That Ridge Today A Mile Charge Over Open Ground With Yankee Cannon Gunnin' Us Down" [Lee:] "We Do Our Duty, We Do What We Must And In My Plan You Will Trust" (Thousands Die, On This Day) "Execute It Well, We Risk Everything" "It's In God's Hands Now" [3. The Last Full Measure] The Rebel Cannon Break The Silence 150 Guns Make Up Their Cannonade They Must Destroy The Union Center Before The Infantry Can

Warm Fuzzy Feeling
http://www.mp3lyrics.org/TyE I got a warm fuzzy feeling When I saw you on t.v. You were wearing a piece of me And it breaks my heart to look around And see the unimpressed Who can't believe the emperor is dressed Turn on my t.v. I want to check some action If you got no video Well then folks don't want to know But with you up there to light the way I can wear a smile as I survey [ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/TyE ] The faces in the dark Waiting for you to hit one out of the park We notice every tiny little detail And every word we read we'll take to heart Until you realize There are no lies When you see that look in their eyes Waht are we gonna use to fill the empty spaces? When you see her in the crowd Will you make your mama proud? She can turn around and see the faces Looking at her son Climbing his way up to #1 Scratching his way up to #1

Eddie's Poems '07 - '08
Eddie’s Poems ’07-’08 A Stoner and His Friend A free loving soul who don't care what the law say... This plant is his friend... A friend that can be roll and smoke for his enjoyment... To help him escape the reality of this world... It speed up time for him while protect his body from pain... This friend was create by an unseen force for enjoyment... But fear by the people with no or little knowledge of it... You seen the commercial, people telling you that he bad for you... There just hater, because he wont be there friend... Because he only hang out with people who like him for himself... But don't be greedy with him... Don't lock him in a box where he cant be share... Let him out and share him with the world... Let them have a taste of him... He wont bite... The Dream Of A Restless Soul Of A Nobody He walks the earth unknown by the people around him Some hear or seen him but never knew him He was searching for a special someone Someone that well lov

Perverts
Jesus christ!! What in the HELL is wrong with people?! Some people got absolutely no curtesy (not so sure how to spell that :P). Some freakin perv just fly all over me, attacking me fuckin stupid questions like: * hey, where you from - dude, i got that in my fucken profile, thats what profiles are for. * are you single - would i be here if i wasnt? * how does 8-9" sound? - for fuck sake, i know jack shit about inches. Besides, yer on the other side of the world, i couldnt care less. * whats your fav. position - .... how is that any of your fuckin business? Im an accountant, that IS my position, fuck of sucker. Yeah, thats all he tell me, just attack me with questions. Being all straight forward is not a bad thing, but being straight and being a rude loser are two different things. Being polite counts for something also.. God how i HATE such people. *scream*