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Me
jane Seymore says that if your Heart is open, it can never be broken and that love will always find a way in. I may not have the prettiest face 4 you 2 look at, or the skinniest waist 4 you 2 hold, butI promise that I DO have the biggest heart to love with!!!

I Stand At My Post
The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light, I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight. My wife was asleep, her head on my chest, My child beside me, angelic in rest. Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white, Transforming the yard to a winter delight. The sparkling lights in the tree I believe, Completed the magice that was Christmas Eve. My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep, Secure and surrounded by love i would sleep. In perfect contentment, or so it would seem, So i slumbered, perhaps I started to dream. The sound was'nt loud, and it wasn't too near, But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear. Perhaps just a cough, I did'nt quite know, Then the sure sound footsteps outside in the snow My soul gave a temble, I struggled to hear. I crept to the door just to see who was near. Standing out in the cold and the dark of night, A love figure stood, His face weary and tight. A soldier, I puzzled, some twenty years old, Sitting outside huddled

Thought My Marines Might Get A Kick Out Of This
According to a Marine Pilot: In addition to communicating with the local Air Traffic Control facility, all aircraft in the Persian Gulf AOR are required to give the Iranian Air Defense Radar (military) a ten minute 'heads up' if they will be transiting Iranian airspace. This is a common procedure for commercial aircraft and involves giving them your call sign, transponder code, type aircraft, and points of origin and destination. This story was passed along to me by a friend of mine. I found it too funny to not share with everyone. The conversation went something like this... Air Defense Radar: 'Unknown aircraft at (location unknown), you are in Iranian airspace. Identify yourself. ' Aircraft: 'This is a United States aircraft. I am in Iraqi airspace. ' Air Defense Radar: 'You are in Iranian airspace. If you do not depart our airspace we will launch interceptor aircraft!' Aircraft: 'This is a United States Marine Corps FA-18 fighter. Send 'em up, I'll wait!

Twisted
To twist my words and drive my soul, you take great pains to control. I free my mind and accept my fears, let go of the wheel, nobody steers. Like a tornado you center upon my life, twisting and ripping all in my sight. Gone are the flowers, trees, pillows, and plates. I tried to save them all, but I was too late......

The End
The last desperate plunge forward gives no warning, Burnt and ugly the red and black claim the stakes A prize of no worth and loss of glory, A moment wasted and falls into stagnant decay. It withers, corrupts, internalizes, and liquefies for spite. Promised security falls to unanswered dreams, Grotesque and mired a new and unsorted day emerges. I am that, the death of star.

Gods Forsaken Featured Band: Conquest
Conquest is out of St. Louis, Missouri. The band members are Derrick, Mike, Tony and Tim. They have a record label with Dark Star Records. Conquest is Pure Thrash/Power Metal. Their influences are Metallica, Iced Earth, Judas Priest, Iron Maiden, Primal Fear, Shadows Fall, Motley Crue, Pantera, Testament, Megadeth, Sabbath and Slayer. Conquest has a sound that is truly all their own, with their duel crushing guitar onslaught combined with thunderous bass & drums. Conquest are a true original, in a world where alot of bands sound the same and are trying to find their niche, Conquest has definatly found theirs. Conquest who are on the Jagermister Tour Series have been matched with many bands ranging from Stone Sour to Overkill, Conquest are fast to up and come, they will leave you wanting more!! So tune into God's Forsaken Radio to hear more of Conquest!!!

My. Best Friend (for Jonathan)
My.. Best Friend! If ever I am sad, All I do is remember your face. Your kind and gentle words, You'll never be replaced. You've helped me through it all, And listened to everything I had to say. Gave advice when I needed it, And you never looked away. Though we met not long ago, And haven't known each other very long. Our friendship has continued to grow, And will forever be so strong. If you ever feel like giving up, Remember I'll be there for you in everyway. If you ever need someone to talk to, Remember I'm only a call away. You'll never have to worry, I'll be your best friend for a while. I'll do everything I possibly can, Just so I can see you smile. Your thoughts, fears and secrets, You'll never have to hide. You'll never have to be afraid, I'll be there by your side. So thank you for being there for me, I love you like there's no end. Your my brother, the one I look up to, My.. Best Friend

When I Was (very Personal. Plz No Hateful Comments)
When I Was... When I was three years old, I lived without my mom. I remember waking up one morning, And all her stuff was gone. When I was four years old, She left me to my doom. She would leave me with her boyfriend, And he would take me to his room. When I was five years old, In weather that was oh so cold. She would lock us outside, You were bad was all we were told. When I was ten years old, Cooking is what I learned. My mother wouldn't get up to feed us, And I ended up severely burned. When I was thirteen years old, I had to move to a new place. I was always picked on, They told me I was a disgrace. When I was fourteen years old, I layed on that hard prison cell bed, "Don't make plans to go home" Was all the officer said When I was sixteen years old, I tried drugs for the first time. Never knew I'd become addicted, I always thought I'd be fine. When I was seventeen years old, I tried to cut through my vein. I wanted it all to stop, I

Network
Since my arrival everyone has seemed to be overtly friendly and helpful...when i 1st signed up I thought hey a bar scene type of network...cool..and to a degree this is just that..cool... It also seems to be alot more self serving/promoting and alot less networking. I am semi new and am enjoying the chance to relive some early teen flashbacks...and that can't be a bad thing..can it?

Ty Robin
=== '~Devious~Bada Bing's Hot Hostess~Fu-Owned By Sam' wrote the following at '2008-12-15 21:46:55'.. > > > > > > > This is my dear friend Rhino! > > > > *** Lil Rhino***@ fubar > > > Please go Fan, Add, and Rate him! > > > > He is a wonderful friend who deserves lots of love~n~stuff!! > > > > > > This bulletin was updated by ~Devious~ > > > > >

Merry Christmas To All!!!
XEROX IS DOING SOMETHING COOL If you go to this web site, www.LetsSayThanks.com you can pick out a thank you card and Xerox will print it and it will be sent to a soldier that is currently serving in Iraq . You can't pick out who gets it, but it will go to a member of the armed services. How AMAZING it would be if we could get everyone we know to send one!!! It is FREE and it only takes a second. Wouldn't it be wonderful if the soldiers received a bunch of these? Whether you are for or against the war, our soldiers over there need to know we are behind them. This takes just 10 seconds and it's a wonderful way to say thank you. Please take the time and please take the time to pass it on for others to do. We can never say enough thank you's. Thanks for taking to time to support our military! I did this and i urge all of you to do the same if only takes like 10 seconds of your time. And just picture the look on the troops faces when they open these cards. And get

The One Above All
this was an attempt at writing something in the classic metal vein I'm called the Golden God I stand atop a mountain Above the many walking dead Who all must work so hard I can go anywhere I want At truly zero cost I don't even have to ask This is a real free lunch There are four others in my clan Each one rich but not like I am They may try to obtain my status Somewhat of an impossible task I'm called the Golden God I stand atop a mountain Above my naive minions So faithful and so blind Every god has a weakness It is a problem I have defeated The pen and lens that defeat so many Ceases in the presence of me I am THE Golden God I am the tallest mountain The sturdiest foundation At least I like to think so

Quiet
My world is quiet today. Outside is covered with a thick blanket of snow. The sky is gray but the sun is still bright. Nothing is moving with the exception of the occasional passing car. Inside it's not quite warm enough to be comfortable sitting still. I'm reading "The Road". Every page makes me feel empty, wanting to cry. I'll still see the movie. I only bought the book so I would have something to keep me occupied while I waited the two hours to get the oil in my van changed yesterday. It won the Pulitzer Prize, this book did. That has to mean something. There are just enough big thoughts occupying my mind to keep the chaos at bay. The silence is almost frightening. But for once, the quiet is welcome.

I Want To Live My Next Life Backwards!!!
You start out dead and get that out of the way right off the bat. Then, you wake up in a nursing home feeling better every day. When you are kicked out of the home for being too healthy, You spend several years enjoying your retirement and collecting benefit checks. When you start work, you get a gold watch on your first day. You work 40 years or so, getting younger every day until pretty soon you're too young to work. So then, you go to high school: play sports, date, drink, and party. As you get even younger, you become a kid again. You go to elementary school, play, and have no responsibilities. In a few years, you become a baby and everyone runs themselves ragged keeping you happy. You spend your last 9 months floating peacefully in luxury, spa-like conditions: central heating, room service on tap. Until finally...You finish off as an orgasm. I REST MY CASE!!!!!

Mistletoe Game
Now you gotta repost this as, "Mistletoe game" The 1st person to message you saying "I'd kiss you under the mistletoe."... will be your Christmas sweatheart... You'd be surprised just who wants to be yours... You can do this even if you are taken its just a game! GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!! & don't be shy

Solitary
Set me aflame and cast me free Away you wretched world of tethers Through the endless night and day I have never wanted more. Always thought that I would stand Before the faceless name of Justice Like some law unto myself Like a child of God again. And if rain brings winds of change Let it rain on us forever I have no doubts from what I've seen I have never wanted more. With this line I'll mark the past As a symbol of beginning I have no doubt from what I've seen I have never wanted more. In this picture stands a man Far away, alone and distant Like a solitary field In some nameless foreign land. All around him points of light Start to dim and cease transmitting Shadows fell on futile games And then there was nothing more. Through the screams of falling steel By the light of flares and wisdom All the doubts I could not face All this time I wanted more. With a line I mark the past As a symbol of beginning To the gods whose names we've lost And the name

Wanting To Be Heard!!!!! Come Check It Out!!!!
FAR BEYOND DRIVEN DJ VICIOUSLY IS LIVE AND ON AIR!!! COME HEAR HIM RIP FLESH!!!!! Click to Enter (repost of original by 'Viciously *Owner of and Head DJ @ FarBeyondDriven*R/L Married To and Fu-Owned by Lirpa Loo' on '2008-12-17 15:38:11')

450kto Level Up She Need Your Help
Love Her Hard!!!! bad biitch status*rating revolution*@ fubar Love Her Hard!!!! This lovely lady need all the help in the world to level up for Christmas she need Blings and also level up, can everyone show some love to her, she will rate ,fan and add you back!! show her some fu love!!! Bad Bitch Status Need your help to level up

Dana's Lyrics Quiz
Give the artist name and title for the song lyrics listed below. Answers will appear in the comments. 1. Suckin' on chili dogs outside the Tastee-Freez 2. I've done no harm, I keep to myself 3. There's a freeway runnin' through the yard 4. I've seen a million faces and I've rocked them all 5. Your mom threw away your best porno mag 6. Can you hear them? They talk about us, telling lies, well that's no surprise 7. One that won't make me nervous, wonderin what to do 8. Are you more than hot for me, or am I a page in your history (book) 9. I can hear you comin, I know what you're after 10. And it's true we are immune when fact is fiction and TV reality 11. Don't go around breaking young girls' hearts 12. I've got my back against the record machine 13. You take me by the heart when you take me by the hand 14. A cloud appears above your head, a beam of light comes shining down on you 15. I'm lying in the rain, but I never wave bye-bye 16.

Song Lyrics
I wanted you to know That I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high And steal your pain Away I'd keep your photograph Cause I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain Because I'm broken When I'm lonesome And I don't feel right When you're gone away You've gone away You dont feel me here Anymore The worst is over now And we can breathe again I wanna hold you high And steal my pain Away There's so much left to learn And noone left to fight I wanna hold you high And steal your pain Because I'm broken When I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enough Cause I'm broken When I'm lonesome And I don't feel right When your gone away Because I'm broken When I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enough Because I'm broken When I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when your gone away You've gone away You don't feel me here Anymore

Why?
Why does life have to be so confusing? Why is it that whatever I wish for, dream of, is always just out of my reach? Why is it that what should be good, always hurts? Why are people cruel and narrow minded, so judgmental? Why do we give up on what we want because of what others think? Why do we change to make others happy? Why do I always fail? Yep... its a bad day..............

Apparently...
I've been writing blogs just to piss her off. I havent been spewing out my feelings - as they come. Straight from the heart. I dont care if she ever reads them - which obviously she has been. Since she has been... I'm a man. I accept the things I've done wrong in my life. I take responsibility for 70% of what went wrong in my relationship. Trust is earned just as it's lost. When you act shady, trust starts to diminish. When you dont share your life, open, as a book - with the person you love - what reason do they have to trust you? Life as I knew it is over. The one person I gave my heart to, decided to eat it. Rather than be happy with her in a state that I cant stand - I'll now be miserable without her - and stuck here for the next sixteen years. Until our daughter turns eighteen, and I can leave. If you love someone, Dana - you share your entire life with them. You communicate with them. You love them for who they are. I did all of these things for you. I'

Peripetics :d
Peripetics by ZEITGUISED from NotForPaper on Vimeo. “Zeitguised made a piece in six acts for the opening exhibition at the Zirkel Gallery. It entails six imaginations of disoriented systems that take a catastrophic turn, including the evolution of educational plant-body-machine models and liquid building materials.”

Photo Ratings
You know... I don't expect people to rate my photos as a 10 every damn time or any time at that. I know I'm not hot. But don't get shitty because I rate you a 5 or 7 when I don't think you're "all that"... Then you turn around and rate me a "1" because you're fuckin' salty... lol You know what, I don't even care. I just think it's FUNNY that you would get mad because someone was being honest. Oh, and if you're dressed like a tasteless slut then of course I'm not going to give you a "10". I don't think sluts are attractive! haha So rate me at whatever you want but don't get salty when someone rates you at the accurate level! -Sam

A Dream 12-19-2008
A Dream ... I really do not know where to start. You leave me stumbling, in the dark but not quiet alone. I feel your presence there just beyond a message, a line spreading this warmth throughout. A sing song feeling of what I never can quiet figure out. Guiding me, each step with whispered words, letters, standing tall my mountain of " come catch me " but I sense a kindered soul a shelter, in the storm. What is to become what shall be, leaves me breathless with anticipation. Always on the outskirts always not quiet looking in. You share wisdom, feeling, real feeling. But I cannot help but be skeptical and weary maybe it is, we are - meant to be. I wander always, in the darkness but at this time, this moment you hold me captive. On the edge of the cliff, wondering, what if. In the past I have always looked to anther, a past love, a friend who means the world to me but but but what if I really let loose. I fly I soar into your cave. I can see

I Regret It All
I ask myself why I love you so Why do I put myself through pain? But somewhere deep inside I know you're worth it No one has ever made me feel The way you make me feel No one has ever made me smile As much as you No one has ever changed me The way you have. Since I met you I've seen a part of myself I have never seen before The girl I see when I?m with you Is strong, happy, and confident This girl has always been hidden away Afraid to let herself love I used to build a brick wall around my heart Afraid of someone tearing it apart Brick by brick I stacked Making sure I left no cracks I made sure no one could break through. But you stuck by me And found an imperfection in the wall You tore down my shield And crept into my heart I got scared and pushed you away I found your flaws, hoping maybe I wouldn't want you But you convinced me you loved me so much You wouldn't hurt me I realized what I was doing to myself I realized I was keeping myself From

Gods Forsaken Featured Band: Avoidingx
AvoidingX is out of Superior, Wisconsin. They are a unsigned band. The band members are Greely, Carl, Razzy and Twitch. AvoidingX was formed in March of 2006 as a 4 piece ALL ORIGINAL METAL GROUP! With ear pounding beats and soul slicing riffs, nothing but heart behind the music they write, every song has been written from life experiences, these songs everyone can relate to, take what you will from the music, listen and let your soul decide! Dig the songs, heed the message and spread the word, we are coming!!! Here are a couple of songs to be listening for on God's Forsaken Radio by this unsigned band, FSU and Lynching. So tune into God's Forsaken Radio to hear more of AvoidingX!!!!!

Day After Xmas Party
So, in the attempt at turning my home into the bachelor pad that it is to become, Nick and I moved the Air Hockey table in today. FYI - if you ever have to move a full size air hockey table into a second floor apartment, fuck - make sure to have more than two people doing it. I felt like I just boxed 12 rounds with Mike Tyson in his prime after carrying that thing up the stairs. By the middle of the week, I'll have the table situated to where I want it in my spare room, and hopefully have my dartboard up as well. Rock Band 2 will be going on in the living room. BYOB...or better yet - BJSJ (Bring Jay Some Jagermeister) I'm thinking we'll start around six or so, and rock well into the night. -j.

Tom Waits Lyrics To "hang On St. Christopher"
Hang on st. christopher through the smoke and the oil Buckle down the rumble seat let the radiator boil got an overhead downshift and a two dollar grill got an 85 cabin on an 85 hill Hang on st. christopher on the passenger side open it up tonight the devil can ride hang on st. christopher with a barrel house dog kick me up mt. baldy throw me out in the fog tear a hole in the jack pot drive a stake through his heart do a 100 on the grapevine do a jump on the start hang on st. christopher now don't let me go get me to reno and bring it in low, yeah hang on st. christopher with the hammer to the floor put a hi ball in the crank case nail a crow to the door get a bottle for the jockey gimme a 294 there's a 750 norton bustin down january's door hang on st. christopher on the passenger side open it up tonight the devil can ride hang on st. christopher now don't let me go get to me reno got to bring it in low put my baby on the flat car got to burn down the ca

Papa Roach - Decompression Period
Here today, gone today Hurry up and wait I'm never there for you or me Can't you read the story of our lives Death to me and life for you Something isn't right And I need some space To clear my head, to think about my life And I can't be alone I just need some space To clear my head, to think about my life With or without you We fight it out We work it out Give me some time to unwind We fight it out We work it out Give me some time to unwind I must confess I'm falling apart Breaking your heart Crying with you on the phone We're walking on thin ice I hope it doesn't break And I need some space to Clear my head to think about my life With or without you We fight it out We work it out Give me some time to unwind We fight it out We work it out Give me some time with or without you Mile over mile we are farther apart Now it's one empty bottle And two broken hearts Night after night we are falling apart Now it's two broken bottles And f

Papa Roach - Done With You
I count the days that we have spent apart I've got a bad liver and a broken heart There's no salvation in the comfort of you (comfort of you) And I finally realize you're tearing me apart So help me, save me, Tell me that the end is near Help me, save me Tell me that the end is here I am done with you You've made my life completely miserable You drove me to the edge, you've caused me all this pain But I always loved you cause your "oh so special" ("oh so special") I'm broken and I'm alone and I can not maintain So help me, save me, Tell me that the end is near Help me, save me Tell me that the end is here I am done with you I am done with you (done with you) I am done with you (done with you) I am done with you (done with you) I am done with you (done with you,I am done with you) I count the days that we have spent apart I've got a bad liver and a broken heart Help me, save me, Tell me that the end is near Help me, save me, Tell me that the end is

Papa Roach - Scars
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much And my scars remind me that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel Drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone I'm pissed cause you came around Why don't you just go home Cause you channel all your pain And I can't help you fix yourself You're making me insane All I can say is I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much And our scars remind us that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel I tried to help you once Against my own advice I saw you going down But you never realized That you're drowning in the water So I offered you my hand Compassion's in my nature Tonight is our last stand I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much And our scars remind us that the past is real I tear my heart open just to feel I'm drunk and I'm feeling down And I just wanna be alone You shouldn't

A Talking Newborn
A baby was born who was so advanced, he could talk.He looked around the delivery room and saw the doctor. "Are you my doctor?" he asked. "Yes, I am," said the doctor. The baby said, "Thank you for taking such good care of me during the birth." He looked at his mother and asked, "Are you my mother?" "Yes, I am," said the mother. "Thank you for taking such good care of me before I was born," he said. He then looked at his father and asked, "Are you my father?" "Yes, I am," his father answered. The baby motioned him closer, then poked him repeatedly on the foreheadwith his index finger. "Hurts doesn't it!?!"

Another Closed Door
I ache inside when I think of you All that we had and everything that should have been I turned all my emotions into anger the day you walked away I felt lost and shattered yet still you didn't stay I tried over and over to stop thinking of you but my heart was plagued with guilt I could not shake your hateful words an echo repeating like a broken record that couldnt be stopped Time has past and the wounds you made did not heal The question why hangs unanswered as you continue to blame me Not once admitting you were wrong trying to play the victim Poor you was just a leaning post one you said I no longer needed You were wrong so very wrong my feelings for you were real One can't try to change another's thoughts when ignorance gets in the way So I am done letting you get the best of me no longer will you haunt my dreams Doesn't matter how many times you try to talk it will be like you are having a conversation with yourself Maybe in time I will fully heal but n

Far Beyond Driven 42
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The Pledge
Time stands still in these ancient halls Only the castle itself can tell what it keeps Dark are the secrets between these walls Hidden in shadows of death while the sorceror sleeps Where is the morning where is the sun? A thousand years of midnight, the sunrise is gone An old man marked by a life so long Is sleeping so sweet while his magic is growing so strong Waiting still for new times to come A thousand years to see if he has won Where is the morning where is the sun? A thousand years of midnight the sunrise is gone What has he done? Why is he sleeping so long? He wants to live forevermore Soon is he young when will he open his eyes When he is strong enough to rule Back in our time goes the legend of a sorceror so old He drank the blood of the virgin to be reborn Soon a tyrant will conquer so spoke the wise Of the day when the sorceror will rise Blood is his wine the sorceror is cheating on time And he'll be stronger than before Cursed be the sun the

Chimaira - Power Trip
Face to face No time to waste This is the time for revenge Your claim to fame Of crushing dreams Your control has no hold on me I hate the way You have no shame You act like nothing's happened It's time to rise The final fight This is the last time I will not fail again I will not let you win Fuck your power trip I'll throw away The wasted days The chance for revenge My claim for fame Ended in vain This was the last time You are the one who's forsaken us all Nothing has changed so together We fall I am the one who's led us to believe You can't change me

Mudvane - Happy
In this hole That is me The dead are rolling over In this hole Thickening Dirt shoveled over shoulders I feel it in me So overwhelmed Oh this pressured center rising My life over turned Unfair the despair All these scars keep ripping open Peel me from the skin Tear me from the rind Does it make you happy now? Tear meat from the bone Tear me from myself Are you feeling happy now? In this hole That is me A life that's growing feeble In this hole So limiting The sun has set all darkness Buried underneath Hands slip off the wheel Internal pathway to contention Peel me from the skin Tear me from the rind Does it make you happy now? Tear meat from the bone Tear me from myself Are you feeling happy now? Are you HAPPY Are you HAPPY Are you feeling happy? In this hole That is me Left with a heart exhausted Whats my release? What sets me free? Do you pull me up just to push me down again? Peel me from the skin Tear me from the

Pantera - Suicide Note Pt 2
Out of my mind, gun up to the mouth No pretension, execution, live and learn , rape and turn Fret not family, nor pre-judged army This is for me, and me only, cowards only Try it [Chorus] Don't you try to die, like me It's livid and it's lies and makes graves Graves descending down It's not worth the time to try, to replenish a rotting life I'll end the problem, facing nothing, fuck you off, fuck you all Tortured history, addict of misery, this exposes me for weakness is a magnet - watch me do it [Chorus] Why would you help anyone who doesn't want it, doesn't need it, doesn't want your shit advice when a mind's made up to go ahead and die? What's done is done and gone, so why cry? [Chorus]

At The Stroke Of Madness By Alex Kava
Plot Summary: The fourth novel in the Maggie O'Dell series (A Perfect Evil; Split Second; Soul Catcher) features a serial killer with a taste for grisly butchery. At the outset of a long overdue vacation, FBI special agent O'Dell agrees to investigate a simple missing person case for her good friend, psychologist Gwen Patterson. Coincidentally, in the quiet Connecticut small town where Gwen's patient was last seen, a barrel containing a dead body is discovered in an abandoned rock quarry. Maggie offers her services to the local sheriff because she needs to rule out the possibility that the victim is Gwen's patient. Professor Adam Bonzado, a forensic anthropologist and friend of the sheriff, is already at work; a dozen or more 55-gallon barrels have surfaced. As they're pried open, releasing the telltale nauseating stench, an odd assortment of cannibalized victims come to light, including a female breast cancer survivor-her breast implants cut out and removed-and an embalmed corpse, bra

Hint Of My Decent
This was a Poetry Challenge. I had to use the 5 words at the top in the poem and I made it an acrostic just to add to the challenge. Curious, Symbolic, Descent, Hint, Nutrition Hint of my Descent Have you even noticed? I am no longer breathing Nutrition what I’m lacking To my prison I retire Obvious to me I’m dead For you I left a Hint Maybe you did not get it You don’t even seem Curious Digging into my thoughts Ever falling to nothing Searching for an ending Control in deep Descent Elusive is your love Never having life This death Symbolic

Do You?
Do You??? Do you feel my soul? Do you feel it stretch too you? Do you feel my heartbeat? Do you feel it beat true? Do you know what’s in me? DO you know what I am? Do you know how I feel? Do you know my plan? Do you want my passion? Do you want my eyes? Do you want my laughter? Do you want my cries? Do you need a strong hand? Do you need a gentle touch? Do you need loving looks? Do you need longing clutch? Do you desire a fiery soul? Do you desire sweetness? Do you desire a deep wanting? Do you desire to be caressed?

Support Campaign For Liberty
"Americans inherit from our ancestors a glorious tradition of freedom and resistance to oppression. Our country has long been admired by the rest of the world for her great example of liberty and prosperity—a light shining in the darkness of tyranny. But many Americans today are frustrated. The political choices they are offered give them no real choice at all. For all their talk of "change," neither major political party as presently constituted challenges the status quo in any serious way. Neither treats the Constitution with anything but contempt. Neither offers any kind of change in monetary policy. Neither wants to make the reductions in government that our crushing debt burden demands. Neither talks about bringing American troops home not just from Iraq but from around the world. Our country is going bankrupt, and none of these sensible proposals are even on the table. This destructive bipartisan consensus has suffocated American political life for many years. Anyo

One Day Alone
I wrote this poem for a class but never turned it in. I think some times people read your poetry, getting three common reactions: (1) what is this really about?, (2) this guy is insane, and/or (3) I think I'm figuring him out. I hate it when people "figure" me out. Being physically nude in front of someone is not a problem at all. It's the emotional nudity that scares me. Anyway, I didn't turn this one in because I think I was afraid of a lot of things. Things change, though, I guess. So here I am blogging an old memory. One Day Alone Poem 15 from The Squeezing Stuff Into Suitcase Collection of Poems Crashing waves bring joy to my deafened ears, But it's never enough in the convolution of dreams that remind me of bitterness and tears. Where sarcasm has replaced boyish confidence, I know there is a lonelier place deep within that rots on jagged shores far from Providence. As surely as suns and moons infinitely rise and fall, The place where I left yo

My Top 10 Albums Of 2008
ok well heres a list of my top 10 albums of 2008 since the years almost over.. 1.Toxic Holocaust: An Overdose of Death 2. Ceremonial Castings: Salem 1692 3. Amon Amarth: Twilight of the Thunder God 4. Judas Priest: Nostradamas 5. Alice Cooper: Along came a spider 6. Agalloch: The Demonstration Arcive 7. AC/DC: Black Ice 8. Krisun: Southern Storm 9. Watain: Sworen To The Dark 10.Thyrfing: Helsvite Note: i admit the new Metallica isnt bad, accully its pritty good i think, but just didnt make my top list. Best Show of 2008: Gwar and Toxic Holocaust

Gods Forsaken Featured Band: Dragonwyck
If you're looking for a band that makes brutal, heavy, thrashing, good music that will make your ear's bleed then one band that you'll no doubt want to check out is Ohio's own Dragonwyck. They are one band who's music has the power and intensity to give Metallica a run for their money. The band members are Kenny, Tony, Nick and Michael. They have a record label with Nightmare Records and Distro. Their latest release Born into Madness, the songs are all very well written, and are very heavy, brutal, and just so intense that by the time you get to the last song on this 10 track CD you can't believe that the music has come to an end. This band leaves anyone who listens to this CD wanting more and more. Dragonwyck's sound is very original and I must say they really do have a sound that is all their own. With song titles like "Bag Of Bones" , "Dig Into Me" , and "Spitting Nails", how the hell can you go wrong. They just might be the next big thing in the world of Thrash Metal so don't say

Preparring For My Dmv Test...
...I'm going to get a motorcycle. I took a course so I would be comfortable and "safe" on a bike. Safe, thats not really what I mean, because thats impossible. Theres a great deal of risk involved with motorcycles. I suppose thats why I want to ride so badly! So now Im studying the DMV manual so I can go and take the written test for my permit to ride a motorcycle. Im jazzed, I want a bike so badly. I hear other riders pass by on their harleys and I want to be out there too, riding around on the HWY's and by ways! vroom vroom!

Prayers
Everyone was seated around the table as the food was being served. When little Logan received his plate, he started eating right away. "Logan, wait until we say our prayer," his mother reminded him. "I don't have to," the little boy replied. "Of course you do," his mother insisted, "we say a prayer before eating at our house." "That's at our house," Logan explained, "but this is Grandma's house and she knows how to cook."

A Technocolored Day
Seven years, Eight years sitting in our rain; Splashing shifting rain drops, soaking shaking us to the core of our bones. Seven years, Eight years sitting by the vow we made to claim; Catching a glare glimps of our hearts within each drop that passes splashes apon our faces. We are one in this moment of movements forever taken by the reflections in the rain filled puddles at our feet. Seven years, Eight years times have came and gone; We still sit watching the rain, these grey days so long, these grey days. How we love these grey days. How i love these grey days; Stealing our pain to another time, another dime on the minute. These are my grey days, beautiful technocolour grey days; Spray painting the moon for her, spraying the moon shadows and following its light beams directly to our profound soul binded bound hearts. Grey days come to pass, then the light moves out... How i wish they would last...

At All
You have left me Behind You have burned me Badly Still I want you to Return Come home again Soon Make this pain Disappear Make this loneliness Fade I know its a lot of Work Taking care of me Always But this wouldn't have Happened I wouldn't be so Selfish If you had never left At All

Friends And Folders
Hey all ...it's hard for me to keep up with everyone but also it doesn't make sense to me to put photos online or a profile then mark em private or ask for a bling or vip to view them...either you want people to see them or you don't...if ya don't take em down...that's dumb...either way...if you wanna stay around...ask me to add you too family otherwise i am using the about criteria to make space... if things don't make sense to me i can't understand them.

Long Time Ago Now
predictions and prophecies 4 months ago i felt i knew what would happen and now it has ...Now did it happen because of some uncontrollable fate or did i see it coming and just not make enough effort to change it's coarse..... they say everything happens eventually... but is it only because we allow it... if our fates are governed by our subconscious then do we have a choice at all... are we lead to our deaths comforted by the belief we have a choice.... lambs lead to slaughter trying to run trying to hide.. but there can be no escape.... but oh doesn't it seem to make it easier to think it's all been planned out to place our blame on another and fail to hold ourselves accountable for our own actions..... are we wrong to blame ourselves or are those who can't just weak...in the end all we are left with are questions..... -but personally i don't believe the world can be so black and white i think it is a mixture of both.... people are given the rope and simply choose to hang the

Why U Mad For Yo?
Through indirect messages and status quotes...You can obviously tell when someone's kinda heated, know what I mean? There's no way a person can be one million percent happy all the time, unless their "Dead" (like the action on this site sometimes). So I thought this would be the perfect place to get it off your chest and "Tell em why U mad". Now don't go making up corney shit as you go along! Thats not keeping it real yo! Be yourself, Do You! And tell em why you're mad! Of course you know I have to get mine off first.lol I'm mad because people you invite, or who invite you to be friends, uh huh! They accept you as a friend...You see them online constantly as if they have nothing else to do in life, Those are the ones who won't even stop to say "Hi". it can get a little frustrating and really tends to urk my nerves. I hate it because "Real people do real things" and how real is that? That's what makes me mad. How You feelin' yo? Hollah. And Oh this is really not an award winning

Supertuesday
Yesterday, was a supeRTuesday for me. There are times when it seems everything just goes right. You miss red lights, there's a 75%-OFF sale, or there's a perfect rainbow right above your head. Yesterday was one of those days. I woke up feeling strong, energized, and positive. My body wasn't as weak as last week since I recovered from the bad cold I caught. I had nursed myself smart with a lot of fluids, scheduled medicine-intake around the clock, and just relaxed through the cold. And, yes, I ate chicken soup. Anyway, I woke up with a real sense of healing and not some forced or false sense of recovery. I have fully recovered physically, mentally, and emotionally. Let's face it. When you are sick, you feel powerless and negative. It's natural. Anyway, unlike prior battles with colds or the flu, I toughed it out and sort of willed myself to get better. So I got up on time, ate a low-carb, high protein meal. My appetite was back and I was eating like a pregnant la

New Year's
Well first I want to wish everyone a very Happy New Year and lots of love, luck, wealth and health. So as 2008 ends and 2009 begins, I sit here pondering of the past year. For me, it started hopeful with a fresh divorce and a new boyfriend. The boyfriend didn't last past Valentine's day. That's ok because he was nothing but a liar and a loser and I definitely do not need that in my life. I soon found out that I was pregnant and in July I had a baby. So I have been on this journey of finding myself. In the process of finding myself, an online friend from a dating site contacted me in August and told me about Fubar. So I have been here ever since. I have met some really cool people and then again some real assholes. I have met people that I chat with everyday in one form or another. I love meeting new people and yes I am silly enough to think that I can find love on Fubar. I am not so naive that I don't know that most if not all guys are just looking for a piece of ass. I post

Happy Birthday Blueeyedbrat
My Birthday Is Tomorrow And I would Really Love To Have Spotlight For My Birthday I Have 13,020,873 Fubucks So Far..I would Also Love A Birthday Happy Hour And Some Blings...I Know It's Alot To Ask For..But IT'S My Birthday And It Only Comes Once A Year...lol..Donations Are Really Appreicated...I Was Thinkin Of Making NSFW Salutes For Thoses Who Donate More Then 500,000 Fubucks The More You Donate The Better They May Get! Happy Hour Will Get A Meow Salute...Think About It! Blue Eyed Brat *SBG*BBW*@ fubar Please repost

Far Beyond Driven 32
FAR BEYOND DRIVEN VICIOUSLY IS LIVE AND ON AIR!!! COME HEAR HIM RIP FLESH!!!!! Click to Enter (repost of original by 'Viciously *Owner of and Head DJ @ FarBeyondDriven*R/L Married To and Fu-Owned by Lirpa Loo' on '2009-01-01 09:48:17')

Looking For My Old Fufriends And To Make New Ones
will recently fu deleted my account i dunno why.so now i had to make a new one so i hope to find all of my old friends on here and plus make some new ones.happy new year.

Collective Soul-good Morning After All
Yeah you give up some days When the tears they must flow But God is always your strength The only strength that you know Now everything starts to fall in place As you wake just to crawl Still you say good morning after all Yeah you stand just to fall Still you say good morning after all Yeah you questioned this life Sure you wondered about love But you swear there's always hope Always hope from above Now everything starts to fall into place [chorus] It's just another breath It's just another breath you say It's just another step It's just another step today --------------------------------

Returning To The Desert...
Very often, the best time for growth is when we are truly alone, even if it is not always comfortable or what we would wish. A peaceful Christmas alone, is better than one filled with people and their often very selfish agendas. Several times during this holiday, I had to leave the house and walk into the desert just to remember another desert, very far away, where a young couple was fleeing a brutal king named Herod. People would come outside and find me staring off into the cold night and wonder what was “wrong” with me. “Nothing at all. Everything is right” I said. And I would be able to rejoin the party. For a little while. Until I had to go back outside into the “silent night” again. I am coming to really appreciate this desert I live in, for many spiritual reasons. I have a new tenant who is from Argentina and just lately immigrated. He was a horse trainer, as in “master horseman” from there, and he is taking a job with the state of Nevada to hand-tame and train the

Another Tummy Update
Well I had to go for a CT scan on Wed. Funnnnn.....not. Well I called the doc today to see what the scan came up with. Well Dr. Fuckfuck wasn't there, but the nurse told me the results. It turns out that the scan came up w/nothin...go figure. Then the nurse told me that they suggest I go to a Gyno and get a pelvic xray. WHAT THE HELL FOR????????? What the hell could my pelvic have to do with my Xiphoid??? Can anyone tell me that? Sooooo I called around for like 4 hours today to GI's, up to 50 miles away. 90% of them wont see me because I don't have a primary physician; 7% wont do 2nd opinions and the 3%....which was 1 doc that would do a second opinion told me that they wouldn't be able to see me til Feb. I can't deal with this bullshit anymore. Isn't there something that the dumbass fuckfuck can do? There has to be. Dr. fuckfuck told me to get a second opinion, which mean's he has no clue what the hell he's talkin bout. He need's to retire or somethin. lmao Sorry ya'll, just pissed. O

I Have A Confession (too Long)
i posted my first blog entry nearly a year ago. it was all about how i was comfortable with my appearance and large girls should be confident enough to work with what they have, not let anyone hold them down, blah blah blah. well, i was a big, FAT poser. i said, "i know my pix look hot." nah. i know that if a girl shows some cleavage, a guy will notice. i did, however, teach myself how to trick good photos with lighting and angles. i had to - i've never been able to master photoshop. let people see candid photos? fuck no. i'm probably more insecure than i should be, even now. see, in the past year, i've lost 70 lbs - so far. but i still feel like the fat girl in the room; i still feel like if someone's looking at me, they're just judging me. i revealed some older photos from when i was even bigger than last year to rich the other day, then i looked at them and said, "god, i don't look like this person. it's fucking weird." actually, he very well may be the only person t

Why?
Why do we torture ourselves with the mindless and the mundane? Can't we be happy with all the many "things" we are blessed with? Life, love, family, friends, job, home, clothes, food! Do these things mean nothing? Are you familiar with Maslow's heirarchy of basic human needs? No one I know has ever reached the top. Is it because we want more and more? Why does happiness elude us? Or are we avoiding it? Happiness is right in front of you, just open your eyes and reach for it. Being happy with what you have is not settling, its knowing. Knowing what you want and have. Appreciate it for what it is or you will lose it. It will be taken from you and given to someone that will love it and appreciate it. And after its gone, there is no getting it back. Ever. We have become so terrified of happiness that we pretend to have it. How hipocritical is that? Figure out what brings you true happiness and hold on to it!!! If you don't, it will find someone that will.

True Love. Myth Or Reality?
Love. What is it? Does it exist, or is it something made up in our minds? Do we confuse it with devotion? We are the only creatures on this planet that feel this, so called, emotion. We can be loyal, as long as it's in our best interest. Is this love? Is this what being in love means? As long as it suits us we can have it? But what happens when it gets in the way? When the lust dies? Do we go searching again? And what if its the other person that decides to do the searching? Do we just accept it and let go or is it something worth fighting for? How can we be expected to fight for what is turning into a lie? Can 2 people really share a lifetime? How? How do you not get sick of each other? Or is that why it has to be "worked at"? Does true love exist? I once thought so. Do you?

Best
The best of both worlds, Not living Not dead Unconscious; Breathing ever so lightly, Isn't it wonderful, Floating in a world all your own. Never to share Your asleep, Warm and cozy, In your fluffy bed of air.

#1
So I don't know if people actually read these on here, but I need a place to vent or open up and not have to worry about my family reading it, which they do on my space. I have found that I try to be a lot more independent than I think I truly am. I need to be told that I matter and needed more often than I act like. I try to come off like I don't care what people think about me, but I do, more than I think I probably should. People think that I have all this confidence in myself because I take so many pics, but to be honest for every 20 pics I take I rest on maybe 2 and those I generally don't like much either. I don't find myself attractive, I don't think I am smart, or talented, and most of the time I don't even think I am worth a shit, much less worth anyone's time. I am now ending my second marriage due to being cheated on again. Every relationship I have ever had I was either cheated on or abused in one fashion or another. So now I assume that no one will ever really wa

The Game Of Love
What we thought was love and happiness? Is now gone all that's left is to move on. Say goodbye and walk away. Take your wounded pride put it aside. The game of love you have lost. Your broken heart is the cost. Count your blessings and pray. maybe You will win at the game of love one day. Just learn when to walk away. Your strong enough to say good bye. Don't hold back it's okay to cry love hurts sometimes

100% Proud Supporter
I am A 100% Proud Supporter OF The United States Marines Army AirForce Navy National Guard CoastGuard You Are My American Heroes. I Thank Every Single Soldier Out there that chose to sacrifice their life to defend our beautiful country and our FREEDOM! Without you, I couldn't imagine what we would do. I thank You From the bottom of my heart and God Bless You and Your Families. I'm Also a 100% Proud Supporter of Our American Heroes here at home... Our Police Officers Who catch the dumb fuckers out their that DON'T obey the LAW! The Fire Fighters That Save Our Burning Hides

Thanks For Helping Me Level!
WOULD LIKE TO THANK ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HELPED ME LEVEL TO DISCIPLE. JUST TO METION A FEW, THE TWILIGHT LEVELERS, MY DSC FAMILY AND FRIENDS, MY SEXY SLAVE VODKAGURL, MY MZ JANUARY LIFE'S A BEACH, DJ IVORY OF THE DSC, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!, MY SICILIANCHICK, NAUGHTY&PRECIOUS SUB, MY FuBEAR, MY "YSC" MY SISTER TNK, AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO STOPPED BY TO SAY HI AND SPANK ME A FEW TIMES! FOR AWHILE THERE I THOUGHT I'D NEVER LEVEL @ fubar I HAVE 2 AUTO 11'S COMMING SOON SO BE ON THE LOOKOUT TO HELP ME GET TO THE NEXT LEVEL, ALL LOVE WILL BE RETURNED AND IF YOU NEED HELP FEEL FREE TO ASK, I AM ALWAYS WILLING! @ fubarBROUGHT TO YOU BY YOUR FRIEND BOBBYBONES, BROTHER OF TNK,OWNER OF VODKAGURL,FUOWNED BY VODKAGURL

This Shall Be Historic
Yes, this is a historic moment - my very first Video Mumm. I thought I would keep the standard high, at least as high as I have set it with some of my other mumms. So I asked a question of unknown, yet obvious, importance.

Princess Leia's Starship Train
YOU ARE CORDIALLY INVITED TO JOIN PRINCESS LEIA'S STARSHIP CREW *************************************** First, you'll board the ship in the finest cloud city ever. *************************************** Next, you have to watch out for Princess Leia, she might visit you and give out an explosive drink at any given moment.. (Don't worry, it won't harm you.) The other passengers might send you drinks, gift you, bling, or rate your things, you never know what's going to happen on this ship... Surprises await, including tags. 1. ' Princess Leia' Please Re-post *************************************** After you rate, fan, add, the crew and captian, just leave a blog comment http://fubar.com/blog/253720/948250 for the captain she will add you to the starship crew and on board the ship. Comments are encouraged. After the captain adds you to the crew and gives you your comment, repost the bulletin. Also, as an option, if you want please add "Member of Prince

Your Taste
Your Taste Sweetness that is beyond compare The fruit of the vines bow to your taste Cherries ripe for the picking Not letting one drop go to waste My tongue tries to escape my lips Trying to break free and stroke you To make contact with your skin As our passion creates something new Two bodies flush with lust We chain ourselves to the sheets Everything else seems motionless As climactic waves repeat One by one each lick brings pleasure Your head tilts back exposing your neck Your body tenses tightly for me And every inch of you I inspect Lips give our groans of satisfaction Calling each others name into the night My hands caress your skin from neck on down As the moon and stars watch with delight Your taste is exquisite My Love Each sip I cherish and beg for more Your hands pull my head in closer Like a storm your sweet honey seems to pour I hear your gasps of pleasure Loudly they fill up the night sky Your lips squeeze my fingers and tongue As your body

September 16, 1985
Birthday Calculator 16 September 1985 Your date of conception was on or about 24 December 1984 which was a Monday. You were born on a Monday under the astrological sign Virgo. Your Life path number is 3. Your fortune cookie reads: A scholars ink lasts longer than a martyrs blood. Life Path Compatibility: You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9. You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 2, 5 & 11. You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 7, 8 & 22. The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446324.5. The golden number for 1985 is 10. The epact number for 1985 is 8. The year 1985 was not a leap year. Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/20/1985 and ending 2/8/1986. You were born in the Chinese year of the Ox. Your Native American Zodiac sign is Bear; your plant is Violets. You were born in the Egyptian month of Hathys, the third month of the season of Pore

Lol
Drunk as Hell A wife was in bed with her lover when she heard her husband's key in the door. "Stay where you are," she said. "He's so drunk he won't even notice you're in bed with me." Sure enough, the husband lurched into bed none the wiser, but a few minutes later, through a drunken haze, he saw six feet sticking out at the end of the bed. He turned to his wife: "Hey, there are six feet in this bed. There should only be four. What's going on?" "Nonsense," said the wife. "You're so drunk you miscounted. Get out of bed and try again. You can see better from over there." The husband climbed out of bed and counted. "One, two, three, four. Damn, you're right."

A Thought Of You
My kind of music, My favorite song, I want to be with you All day & all night long... A spring breeze, A summer sun, Now that I know you You are my one... A winter sparkle, An autumn tree, Added all up It equals you & me... My best friend, My only lover, From here on out I'll keep you forever... A good laugh, With some happy tears, You're the one I go to Through all the coming years... When it rains it rains, When it snows it snows, I wrote this specially for you & you're the only one who knows... You keep me warm, When I'm so cold, As if my heart were for sale To you it was sold... Whether playing our favorite games, Or to music we sing & listen, When it comes to you There's just no competition... Not the best cut diamonds, Or the reddest rose, Could ever amount to When you hold me close... & when everything is said & done, The night is over & we've had our fun, Out of all the men I choose just one, The best one of all & that's

A Thanks To My Friends
Thank you for being there when I needed you... and even when I didn't, Thank you for being there through the good times... and the bad, Thank you for being there to encourage my dreams.... and my crazy ideas, Thank you for catching me... before I fell down, Thank you for wiping away the tears... when I was crying, Thank you for cheering me up... and making me laugh, Thank you for all the great memories... and the bad, But most of all... thank you... For being you!

Good Bye To Trojan
I would like all to just give a big good bye to my beloved dog TROJAN sad to say he passed away on DEC 29th 2008 aged 16years7mths from the dreaded C. I HAVE HAD HIM SINCE HE WAS 6WEEKS OLD AND WILL MISS HIM LIKE NO ONE WILL KNOW. R.I.P. My dedecation will be the tat that is due to be put on my chest in FEB. Thanks my friend for the time GOD gave me.

Razors Edge
she danced suspended caught in a web between sweet pleasure and pain a moth whirls around a flame lithe ballerina twirls along a razors edge graceful are her steps she dances without fear wild and free she moves arms reaching for heaven safe in knowing no doubt he would never let her fall

Still No Net
hey ppl for those who have me on yahoo or whatever still no internet at my house. i go to the library once now and then so if u want to get ahold of me, either msg me on here or yahoo whatever lol ttyl

Got Rear Ended By A Russian Whore Oops I Mean Mail Order Bride
So on the 20th of December around 1:14 pm I was driving towards my mom's house here in town. It was showy and icy out so I was going slow and being VERY careful. Well hit a patch of black ice and my car skidded around a lil and I came to a stop right as a traffic light turned red. I looked around to make sure I was safe and I was, I wasn't out in the intersection *yet*... I look in my rearview and I see a grey mitsu eclipse coming waaaay too fast at me. I tried to move forward just incase she were to hit me but I spun out my tires. She rear-ended me very hard and I smacked my head into the window and my car went out into the middle of the intersection, did a complete 180 degree turn and ended up facing her car. I was shocked, I've never been in a wreck before now! Last year my ex boyfriend totalled my (paid off beautiful) VW Jetta and I couldn't believe I was in the middle of the intersection facing oncoming traffic! I got out of my car and she got out of hers, thankfully no

My Thoughts Of You Half In Dream And Half In Hope
My Thoughts of You half in Dream And Half in Hope Here I lye, alone in my bedroom within this strange city a bed, a chair, a desk are all that sourounds The silence whales and time slowly passess So I tightly shut my brisk blue eyes ~Everything Disappears~ the room, the light, and all sound... Everything except the thought of you Your eyes, your lips, your silent prayer ~Dreaming~ We kiss tenderly, gently, and you do not resist... embraced we do not move we just hold on... I feel you heart beating in tune with my own, no tears, no time... one day its raining- anouther day its sunny- So cold and hot all at the same time and we began to dance I danced you outside to the trees, the blue sky, the ocen ~the clouds~

Life
Life it holds me down clinching to my wrist ripping slowly away to my empty inside skinless tears bones bare burnt eyes a yellow grin from scared dreams closing last tearful blue eyes cut, blistered hands an angel's breath on the devil's wing to a one time love tender kissing death firm lips soothing embrace

Wolf
The burning question rests upon my lips... Would you offer your throat to the wolf? Do you secretly burn to bear it's mark? Has your heart ached to feed it's soul? Do you hunger to surrender your flesh? Do you know how hungry I am for you? Would you offer your body to the beast? Do you ache inside with a need to tame it? Have you ever dreamed of being mine? Can you conquer your fears and claim it? Would you offer your throat to the wolf?

Thomas Jefferson
If only there was a way to bring him back....... Jefferson the Prophet, Read and really think about what you are seeing below especially the last paragraph. This was written by Thomas Jefferson almost 200 years ago... Jefferson the Prophet, The problem is that most Americans don't know who Thomas Jefferson was. Jefferson the Prophet, The problem is that most Americans don't know who Thomas Jefferson was. Jefferson in some cases could be called a prophet. When we get piled upon one another in large cities, as in Europe, we shall become as corrupt as Europe. Thomas Jefferson The democracy will cease to exist when you take away from those who are willing to work and give to those who would not. Thomas Jefferson It is incumbent on every generation to pay its own debts as it goes. A principle which if acted on would save one-half the wars of the world. Thomas Jefferson I predict future happiness for Amer

Another Bleh Day
Just another bleh day at work....same as yesterday and probably the same for tomorrow. Can't wait for my weekend.... I have no real plans this week though. Probably be a bum but on Wednesday I have a 8 hour work meeting. Bleh.... Had a work meeting last week, was only a hour long. Just a introduction of the whole new kaizen project I'm doing at work.... Had a conference meeting with people in St. Louis. That was boring as hell....Damn, 8 hour meeting? Blah!! Rich is broke. Nothing new there. He's 2 months late on his car payment. Nothing new there. He really needs to pay attention to his bills. He said he'll take care of it next pay check.... 600 bucks.. The money that I have will have to last us until Friday. Have to take some money out of my savings to pay for my new contacts and glasses. Yeah...I got evil glasses..just for the hell of it whenever my contacts are bugging the hell out of me. I'll just be wearing them at home though... no one will see me ha ha ha I need to ge

Radiohead Lyrics To "jigsaw Falling Into Place"
Just as you take my hand Just as you write my number down Just as the drinks arrive Just as they play your favourite song As the magic disappears No longer wound up like a spring Before you've had too much Come back and focus again The walls abandon shape You've got a cheshire cat grin All blurring into one This place is on a mission Before the night owl Before the animal noises Closed circuit cameras Before you're comatose Before you run away from me Before you're lost between the noise The beat goes round and round The beat goes round and round I never really got there I just pretended that I had What's the point of instruments Words are a sawed off shotgun Come on and let it out Come on and let it out Come on and let it out Come on and let it out Before you run away from me Before you start unravelling Before you take my mic Just as you dance, dance, dance Jigsaws falling into place There is nothing to explain Regard each other as you pass

Radiohead Lyrics To "house Of Cards"
I don't want to be your friend I just want to be your lover No matter how it ends No matter how it starts Forget about your house of cards And I'll do mine Forget about your house of cards And I'll do mine Fall off the table, Get swept under Denial, denial... The infrastructure will collapse Voltage spikes Throw your keys in the bowl Kiss your husband goodnight Forget about your house of cards And I'll do mine Forget about your house of cards And I'll do mine Fall off the table, And get swept under Denial, denial.. Denial, denial... Your ears should be burning Denial, denial Your ears should be burning Denial, denial -Radiohead: House of Cards Another beautiful Radiohead song, this is off they're new album, which is a pretty sweet album. everyone one of my lyric blogs are all related to how my vibe is or what im going through... so all these radiohead tracks are linked in some way or another... just a little fuckin fyi.

Eminem Lyrics To "marshall Mathers"
You know I just don't get it Last year I was nobody This year I'm sellin records Now everybody wants to come around like I owe em somethin Heh, the fuck you want from me, ten million dollars? Get the fuck out of here You see I'm, just Marshall Mathers (Marshall Mathers) I'm just a regular guy, I don't know why all the fuss about me (fuss about me) Nobody ever gave a fuck before, all they did was doubt me (did was doubt me) Now everybody wanna run they mouth and try to take shots at me (take shots at me) Yo, you might see me joggin, you might see me walkin You might see me walkin a dead rottweiler dog with it's head chopped off in the park with a spiked collar hollerin at him cause the son of a bitch won't quit barkin (grrrr, ARF ARF) Or leanin out a window, with a cocked shotgun Drivin up the block in the car that they shot 'Pac in Lookin for Big's killers, dressed in ridiculous blue and red like I don't see what the big deal is Double barrel twelve gauge bigge

Eminem Lyrics To "still Dont Give A Fuck!"
A lot of people ask me.. am I afraid of death.. Hell yeah I'm afraid of death I don't want to die yet A lot of people think.. that I worship the devil.. that I do all types of.. retarded shit Look, I can't change the way I think And I can't change the way I am But if I offended you? Good Cause I still don't give a fuck I'm zonin off of one joint, stoppin a limo Hopped in the window, shoppin a demo at gunpoint A lyricist without a clue, what year is this? Fuck a needle, here's a sword, bodypierce with this Livin amuk, never givin a fuck Gimme the keys I'm drunk, and I've never driven a truck But I smoke dope in a cab I'll stab you with the sharpest knife I can grab Come back the next week and re-open your scab (YEAH!) A killer instinct runs in the blood Emptyin full clips and buryin guns in the mud I've calmed down now -- I was heavy once into drugs I could walk around straight for two months with a buzz My brain's gone, my soul's worn and my spirit is torn The

Quotes.....
"There's this girl in the mirror, I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her and sometimes I wish I did. There is a story in her eyes, lullabies, and goodbye. When she's looking back at me I can tell...she's hurting inside." "She smiles with all that she has left, yet tears are left un-dried. And though she's got so much to say, she bottles it up inside. If you look past her broken eyes to a shadow no one sees, a disguise so you won't recognize, the girl is really me." "Sometimes the pain's too strong to bare...and life gets so hard you just don't care. You feel so alone you just sit and cry...every second you wish you could die. Then you start thinking who would care...if one day they woke up-and you weren't there." "She can't hide no matter how hard she tries, her secret disguised behind the lies. And at night she cries away her pride, with eyes shut tight staring at her inside. All her friends know why she can't sleep at night, all her family asking is

Eminem Lyrics To "amityville"
(kill kill kill) Dahh-dum, dahh-dum.. dum Dahh-dum, dahh-dum, duh-da-da-da-da (kill kill kill) Dahh-dum, dahh-dum.. dum Dahh-dum, dahh-dum, dumm.. (kill kill kill) Mentally illll from Amityvilllle (ILLLL) Accidentally killll your family stillll Thinkin he won't? God-damnit he willll (HE'SSSS) Mentally illll from Amityvilllle I get lifted and spit until I'm half-twisted Feet planted and stand with a grin full of chapped lipstick {*SMACK*} Pen full of ink, think sinful and rap sick shit Shrink pencil me in for my last visit Drink gin til my chin's full of splashed whiskers {*whoosh*} Hash whiskey and ash til I slap bitches {*smack*} Ask Bizzy, he's been here the past six years Mass wit me you'll get in imagine this Mentally illll from Amityvilllle (ILLLL) Accidentally killll your family stillll Thinkin he won't? God-damnit he willll (HE'SSSS) Mentally illll from Amityvilllle Mentally illll from Amityvilllle (ILLLL) Accidentally killll your family stillll

Scarred And Tattered
I mark EVERYTHING I write NSFW because I never know how things that I write could be perceived as by others. So to prevent being reported for NSFW, I mark it, so consider yourself warned. I never know what may come out of my soul when I write. To the general public and people surrounding me I play the face of a "normal" dysfunctional person, lol. Most people see me as happy-go-lucky, carefree and happy. I seem so confident, yet inside I am tattered and worn, weak and faint of heart. There is only ONE soul that I have ever found who loves me in spite of all my flaws, and he is my best friend, my lover, and hopefully I will have him by my side forever. I feel so misunderstood most of the time, and I feel like my friends and family have always seen me as one phuked up girl...a walking contradiction....with "so much intelligence, never knowing how to use it "correctly"...". (quoted by my adopted family TO ME). I have always felt like such an outcast...misunderstood and lonely....be

Simple Things Mean A Lot...
***Originally written November 26, 2008**** In this crazy world that we live in today, I often find myself frustrated and cursing myself for the things that I don't have money for or energy for. I am very hard on myself and quite the perfectionist. Sometimes I feel like the people who matter most to me are left to wonder if they are good enough or unsure of their place in my life. Hopefully this blog will communicate what I sometimes cannot when the stress and anxiety of life get in the way of what I hope to say through my actions. To me it's the simple things in life that make it worth getting up every day. It is so easy to get discouraged by the things that you don't have, like money, material things, and time. I wish I could make more hours in the day so I could do everything I need to without having to rush from place to place. But the one thing I wish I had more of is energy and physical strength. My challenges physically make it difficult for me to keep going when there is

The Dance
Wake me from this dark dreaming Bring be a smile for my lips Give me a sign to start scheming how I'd hold you by the hips I see your blue eyes gleaming shining at me across the room I read in them a secret meaning telling me you want me too Around one question we dance I think we need to answer soon Is it time for some sweet romance? shall we dance to a sweeter tune?

Summer Nights
Hot summer nights, wild, wild lovin windows open to the hot night air night breeze teases our sweaty skin we writhe and cry out crazy words shouting moaning the bed's squeaking The headboard's banging, loud and steady like a big bass drummer keeping time until even we can't take noise any longer, stuffing pillows tween the bed and the wall to muffle the sound of our frenzied desire I hear loud knocking upon the door open up! open up! this is the police! Is someone in there being kilt? open up or we will break down this door! neighbor's said someone's being injured stumbling naked, my robe forgotten Smiling sheepishly I let them in as they look me over and shake their heads you smile and wave from beneath the sheets they stammer apologies, then quickly leave us I lock the door, and return to your side we laugh like kids and wriggle together where were we, before being interrupted? I think I remember, but refresh my mind give me some help with this, lets

Matisyahu Lyrics To "jerusalem"
Jerusalem, if I forget you, fire not gonna come from my tongue. Jerusalem, if I forget you, let my right hand forget what it's supposed to do. In the ancient days, we will return with no delay Picking up the bounty and the spoils on our way We've been traveling from state to state And them don't understand what they say 3,000 years with no place to be And they want me to give up my milk and honey Don't you see, it's not about the land or the sea Not the country but the dwelling of his majesty Jerusalem, if I forget you, fire not gonna come from my tongue. Jerusalem, if I forget you, let my right hand forget what it's supposed to do. Jerusalem, if I forget you, fire not gonna come from my tongue. Jerusalem, if I forget you, let my right hand forget what it's supposed to do. Rebuild the temple and the crown of glory Years gone by, about sixty Burn in the oven in this century And the gas tried to choke, but it couldn't choke me I will not lie down, I will n

Matisyahu Lyrics To "time Of Your Song"
The world is moving to the song I hear, Who's that singing, wind is rushing in my ear, Mind gushing memories almost lost everything, Felony and fellows running in my dream, We were in the van where the hits were driving, Saw myself In the highlands at age 13 And I'm asking questions to the present day me, Moving backwards down the hill see we were posting. Moonlight illuminate my night and my days sunray make the people say And a vision something's missing so they're screaming out loud Keep my feet on ground and my head in the clouds. I'm the arrow, you're my bow, shoot me forth and I will go And I know and I go and I go get up and go Make me feel its for real tell me what you know. I don't need to glorify, Ate the apple of the tree and tried to lie, In the garden ill remember That's when I started to sing I said death brings life into uncertain things, Cut some slack for me Sun setting autumn breeze Sound is moving like a chorus Keep hearing that melody, Che

Sick Of The Fakes (repost For Sir Lick A Lot) I Totally Agree With This!!
This Site Has Gone To The Dumps With Everybody Acting Like Fucking Spoiled Little Kids In A Toy Store With All These New Features And All You People Care About On Here Now Is If Someone Has Auto 11's And If Not You Won't Rate Them What The Fuck Is That Uhh That's Just Fucking Bullshit.. I Came On Here To Make Friends Not Fakes That Like To Act Like Little Inmuture Teenagers That Are Still In Jr. High Or High School And Act Like Oh Look What I Got Oh Or Ohh If You Don't Have A Certain Thing(Whatever It Mite Be) I Can't Be You're Friend Or Do Anything For You, Are We Not Adults On Here Anymore And Have We Not GROWN OUT OF THAT STAGE Years Ago ??? I Am Getting Really Sick And Tired Of All The Fakes On Here I Am A Person On Not A Number On You're Friends List I Am Not Someone That Will Stand By And Be Ignored On Here Just Cause I Don't A VIP Or A Auto 11's That Just Shows Me How Shallow And Fake People Are On My Friends List And On Fubar Now Days. So If You're Going To Act Like A Fa

Work Daze.
I so totally don't want to be here today. My work motivation has been scaling down rapidly. I think it's just today, yesterday was a great day, one that went by real fast and was very productive. Today I'm more interested in surfing the web and watching stupid videos. Which is a fun way to spend the day, but wastes like ten minutes then you're back to being bored. Someone needs to come rescue me! I can offer free dinner, somewhat engaging conversation, and back rubs. I have strong hands! Hubba hubba ;)

Focus On What You Can Control
FOCUS ON WHAT YOU CAN CONTROL Category: Life Focus on What You Can Control By Philip E. Humbert, PhD As I write this, the sun is rising over the hills to the south-east, hidden behind a pillar on the corner of my home. When I sit at this table during the summer, the sun rises off my left shoulder, but now it has moved dramatically to the south. It shifts slowly, and from one day to the next I see no apparent difference, but over time, the earth changes from summer to winter. Without noticing it, and with no effort on my part, in six months my relationship with the entire solar system has changed! The light in my office has changed, and so I shift positions, re-arrange my computer screen, move the furniture, and even work at a different time of the day, all because of changes over which I have no control, and take no notice. Success and failure are often like that. We cannot control many of the things and events in our lives, including the sun and the tilt of the earth.

Learned In Class Today
today kids was sex class i learned that i am the perfect woman...selfish enough to ensure the survival of my and my mates young. but unselfish enough to put my mate and his offspring first. my man will always be numba 1. wow describes me to a t. but remember i am still single and my owner may have a word to or 2 to say to any man trying to become my numba 1.

Our Night
Taking your hand Fingers to my lips I want to love every inch of you Taste every part of your body As if I can drink your loves blood Through your very pores I want to get lost in your eyes Consumed by your kiss Set my body on fire Quench the fire in my blood With sweet caresses Touch my soul with your passion Lay down beside me Feel my body crying for you Let's get lost in each other Touching, exploring, tasting We will exceed passion, go beyond bliss For this is our night Want me, like no other Need you, like the air that I breathe Together, one mind, one soul Fused in the heat of passionate love Existing in this moment Forever

Blow Job Revenge
Blow Job Revenge A woman and her boyfriend are out having a few drinks. While they're sitting there having a good time together, she starts talking about this really great new drink. The more she talks about it, the more excited she gets, and starts trying to talk her boyfriend into having one. After a while he gives in and lets her order the drink for him.The bartender brings the drink and puts the following items on the bar: A salt shaker, a shot of Baileys, and a shot of lime juice. The boyfriend looks at the items quizzically and the woman explains. "First you put a bit of the salt on your tongue, next you drink the shot of Baileys and hold it in your mouth, and finally you drink the lime juice. " So, the boyfriend, trying to go along and please her, goes for it. He puts the salt on his tongue... salty but OK. He drinks the shot of Baileys... smooth, rich, cool, very pleasant. He thinks... this is OK. Finally he picks up t

Crescent Star Love
Crescent coat that you wear Till death that you had swear Thickness that is not easily tear Caution and always prepared Promises we had declared Feelings we had shared Extreme extend, to be a pair Secret bonds, publicly unaware The world has been unfair Judging with cold stares A love that is rare Leaving only a messy affair Bloodsheds placed everywhere Leaving me hopeless and despair Nightmare couldn't even compare Crimson dust fills the air Wearing my star coat with six pockets I still hold on your heirloom locket Would you cover me up with a jacket And take me away to another planet?

If You Will Be My Eyes.
If you will be my eyes, I will be you tears Warming your cheeks, calming your fears If you will be my heart, I will be your beat Working all time, to give you your heat If you will be my lips, I will be your kiss Dreaming about, the old time we missed If you will be my wish, I will be your star So I can give you, your hope from far If you will be my love, I will just be me No greater thing, I can offer you to be

Thought For 1/16
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that frightens us. We ask ourselves 'who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; its in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." - Marianne Williamson

My Love
I'll love him forever because he's my life. He respects me and I respect him. I trust him with my life. I'll love him til the day I die. He's the love of my life and I want to spend my life with him for all eternity. Kari

Poetry
~The Reaper~ The Reaper answers the door, comfort to make, pain to take. Memories reflected in broken mirrors, twisted and bent. Changes reflected in prisms of your emptiness, a stony silence of painful remembrance. Abhorrent, absent function, alluring in an obsequious, macabre dysfunction. Particles of dust flower where the soul flourished A gruesome effigy to a being that was known. This mechanistic prison of fear; this belligerent dread, for He is near. Parsimonious love brings acquiescence. Broken paths of degenerated nostalgia, the life that never was. That ceaseless, capricious creature answers the door, pain to make, comfort to take. ~Jon~

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Local Folk
Just something I had in mind...... This guy, Seth Lakeman, is local home grown talent. I went to one of his concerts, I almost peed my pants, well mebbe not but, he is very good live as well as recorded, not much difference in quality of voice or musically......enjoy this with meaning, I'm still procesing........

Help Me Decide
HI ALL, IM AT THIS POINT OF FIGUREING OUT IF I WANT TO KEEP MY FUBAR ACCOUNT OR DELETE IT? I USE TO LOVE THIS PLACE BACK IN THE DAY AND NOW IT SEEMS TO BORE ME. I COME HERE LIKE ONCE ADAY NOW FOR LIKE 3 MINS AND LEAVE. PEOPLE ON HERE ARENT LIKE THEY USE TO BE. FEELS LIKE I GOTTA KISS ASS TO GET SOME PLACE AROUND HERE!

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Lostprophets-last Summer
The Friday sun bears down again As we drive without friends And on these longest days we spend All the time trying to pretend That our stories could be true Our chance to be cool The setting sunset says the day is through If only we knew... And we all sit around here in our home town Listen to the waves as they all crash down And watch the fire as it slowly burns away Glowing embers fly across the sky Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer The world passes by in my summer, our last summer The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other Alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer The view from our last summer... We trace the sun across the sky And we laugh till we cry Always so hard to say goodbye (good bye) And we all sit round here in our home town It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss The memories, I hope they'll never fade Glowing embers lie across the sky Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer The world pas

The Front By Patricia Cornwell
Plot Summary: At the start of this weak sequel to 2006's At Risk from bestseller Cornwell, Monique Lamont, a politically ambitious D.A., uses a speech at the John F. Kennedy School of Government in Cambridge, Mass., to launch an implausible anticrime initiative she's labeled No Neighbor Left Behind ("The decline of neighborhoods is potentially as destructive as global warming"). Lamont orders her main investigator, Win Garano, to reopen the case of a blind English woman, Janie Brolin, murdered in Watertown in 1962. Lamont suspects Brolin may have been the first victim of the notorious Boston Strangler. For reasons that Lamont fails to coherently articulate, solving this crime will galvanize the public into caring about crime in general. Not incidentally, it will also bolster her chances of ascending to greater power. Lamont's irresponsible approach to her job may strike some readers as bizarre, while Garano's ambivalence about his boss adds little to his appeal. The unsophisticated dep

Thoughts
I've been working on myself, doing a lot of soul searching and just thinking about things and how they turned out. I never did really understand people or rather how they interact with each other. When you put someone alone in a room, they fall into a great despair wanting nothing more to be in the company of someone - anyone... Just to feel wanted, needed, loved, missed, hated...to feel ... anything. When you put two people in a room they spend most of their time fucking, and trying to figure out better ways of getting down each others pants. When you put three people in a room, they spend most of their time plotting to kill each other. Put four people in a room and they begin to choose sides, they start forming packs and they develop an "us versus them" mentality...that is how wars start. In the end I found that people are essentially still hardwired in their emotional core as primates...if they are not fighting or fucking then they create their own drama so they w

Don't Stop Believing
Just a small town girl living in a lonely world She took the midnight train going anywhere Just a city boy born and raised in South Detroit He took the midnight train going anywhere A singer in a smokey room the smell of wine and cheap perfume For a smile they can share the night. It goes on and on and on and on Strangers waiting up down the boulevard. Their shadows searchin in the night Streetlight people living just to find emotion Hiding somewhere in the night Working hard to get my fill everybody wants a thrill Payin anything to roll the dice. Just one more time. Some will win some will lose some were born to sing the blues. Oh the movie never ends. It goes on and on and on and on... Don´t stop believing. Hold on to the feeling. Streetlight people.

Children's Health
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Judas Priest-turbo Lover
You wont hear me, but youll feel me Without warning, somethings dawning, listen. Then within your senses, Youll know youre defenseless How your heart beats, when you run for cover Your cant retreat I spy like no other. Then we race together. we can ride forever Wrapped in horsepower, driving into fury Changing gear I pull you tighter to me Im your turbo lover Tell me theres no other Im your turbo lover Better run for cover We hold each other closer, as we shift to overdrive And eveyrthing goes rushing by, with every nerve alive We move so fast it seems as though weve taken to the sky Love machines in harmony, we hear the engines cry. Im your turbo lover Tell me theres no other Im your turbo lover Better run for cover On and on were charging to the place so many seek In perfect synchronicity of which so many speak We feel so close to heaven in this roaring heavy load And then in sheer abandonment, we shatter and explode. Im your turbo lover Tell me

Cool Breeze Bring This Unknown Soul To Me
§Forever waiting in time To be able to call someone mine. My heart aches of loneliness The echo of soul drowning In the abyss. Oh, cool breeze Will you bring my soul mate to me? Dare me to jump off the ledge Into the cool water of desire. Sooth me with passion Teach me love. Bring me a piece of heaven from above. Unknown soul, give me a chance To show you how special you are. How caring a lover should be. let my touch tease and please. Feel how my words can douse Your angry fire. Let my presence subdue your pain. Unknown soul look into my eyes. See that everything is going To be all right. Kiss me and hold me tight. Together we will take this life flight. Unknown soul you don't have To be alone tonight. Oh, cool breeze will you bring This unknown soul to me? ©Ashlae G.

My Sweet Little Angel
My Sweet Little Angel By Ashlae Reborn with the eyes of a child Shed the darkness Embrace the light Hang on tight Because destiny is a bumpy ride. Crazy days Sleepless nights. Confusion may cloud judgement Anger may cause regret. Silence may triumph. And tears may shed stress. Conquer your fears And let your fears conquer you. Don't sweat the little things, And don't ignore the big. Don't worry my sweet little angel Take my advice if you wish Let me guid yoiu in this life I gave yoiu. This life will bring you many adventures. For the good and the bad. Lests rejoice when you're happy. Let me hold you tight when you're sad. I will protect you, when you Need protection from others And even from yourself, If I have too. I'll let you make your own mistakes Cause that's the only way to learn. Don't worry my sweet little angel. For I will always be here. Even when I'm gone I'll be in your heart. Watching from heaven above Knowing that I did right. fo

Llayin' It Down
U know things in this world r really getting to take their toll. And since some people don't have back bone enough to face what they've done and tell the truth. Just remember! #1 I never lied to you.(and that's a biggie for a lot of people) #2 I didn't start any of this by myself,u did most of it. #3 U should never make a promise u don't plan to follow through, especially to a child. (that was cold). #4 U probaly r laughin' as off right now.Until the day it comes back to u, but worse. #5 I'm sure I was not the 1st, and deffinatly not the last, u done this to. #6 U don't screw people over,not a very good idea. Last but not least the pain u caused,even to the innocent ones,will be remembered. When it comes back to u,with full force.

Why Me? What Do I Look Like A Match Maker???
->godz45: im putting you on block. weirdo!!! godz45: OK WITCH ->godz45: lol. like i give a fuck. godz45: bye i bet my gf will be better than you ->godz45: ok. good luck. godz45: idc what you think then i will do it on my own ->godz45: not trying to be mean, but you sound pathetic, begging for someone to set u up with a girl.. online. godz45: i need help no girl will go out with me and no one will help me ->godz45: well. im sorry i didnt think i was supposed to be fixin random guys on fubar up with girls... godz45: your no help ->godz45: bye? godz45: bye then ->godz45: nope godz45: idk but i cant drive do you have any single friends ->godz45: ynot? godz45: i cant go out without someone ->godz45: dang have u tried just around in ur area to find somebody? just going out ? godz45: i already tryed that i'm getting tired of weman know ->godz45: u tried myspace? theres tons of them on there ->godz45: aw im sorry godz45: theres no girl on here from alabama thats single i'm

The Live Evisceration Of Being
There I stood unaware and cold, You stood French polish poised, And under gaze of all, With no shame from me, They all witnessed my public shaming, As with one deft swing of pen, Ink is inlaid with hints of claret, My beating heart ripped from within and pulsing red in involition, For worth and value of monetary kinds But upon sinew and cartilage I stumble on, Heartless with no remorse for what lie’s behind, Other extremities pickled as the dealer deals, Once more a loosing hand, My blood runs cold as conception hits my dulling mind, Leaving this shell propelled on perpetual lines, With your voice echoed through my bloodied mind, Oblivions path weaves out before my step, A hint of neon leads my way, Excitement in every slab, Hell as two cans remain, This evisceration of my being continues with every second passed, Tingeing my worlds view in grey, As frost burgeons forth from my deadening glare, Seeping in to worlds surrounding my own, I walk on hollowed from pas

Man Whores/women Whores... What's The Diff?
man whores vs. women whores... differances? Category: Romance and Relationships the question of the day to me was " what's the difference between a man whore? why is it cool for a man to go pound anything that walks and still be considered cool while women who do the same thing... are not?" well... first and foremost, they are both called whores so , technically speaking they're both on the same page. but society views it differently. the reason being ( in my humble opinion) is that it's is at least 10 times easier for a women to go out and find someone to sleep with versus a man. a woman could go out 7 days a week and find someone willing to give them a "good time" sunday thru monday. but when it comes to a man, they always have to prove their worth in some shape form or fashion. no matter how good a man looks, women can easily find at least one reason not to spend the night with someone. it could be something damn near irrelevant like "he's got a scuff on his shoe." meaning

All Kinds Of Backwards
I have some of the strangest luck. I wouldn't trade it for the world but still....I tried to quit today. Yeah I know the market is bad and all that stuff but still. I am tired and I've got an offer on the table from another possible employer. So I decided to take it since it benefits me more than were I am right now. So what does my present boss say to me? Well first off he actually had a cocky laugh to his tone and said, "Uh no, you belong to me and I am not letting you go just like that. So don't get to happy with that other guys offer, you & I will talk tomorrow and I have something for you as well. But nah, you are mine and I am not gonna lose you like that." The hell????? Now if only the cop wanted me that way I'd be in heaven but like I said my luck is backwards. The ones I want to want me don't even know I am alive and the ones who notice are the ones I am not overly concerned with. That just blows. :(

Cemetary Escort Duty - Author Unknown
I received this via e-mail and felt compelled to pass it along. Please keep our service men and women in your prayers. If you know who the author of the following text is, please let me know and I will attribute it proper. Again, these are not my words, but I share the Gunny's respect, and appreciation, for "Mrs. Wieserman's" sacrifice. *** I just wanted to get the day over with and go down to Smokey's. Sneaking a look at my watch, I saw the time, 1655. Five minutes to go before the cemetery gates are closed for the day. Full dress was hot in the August sun. Oklahoma summertime was as bad as ever--the heat and humidity at the same level--both too high. I saw the car pull into the drive, '69 or '70 model Cadillac Deville, looked factory-new. It pulled into the parking lot at a snail's pace. An old woman got out so slow I thought she was paralyzed; she had a cane and a sheaf of flowers--about four or five bunches as best I could tell. I couldn't help mysel

"be My Valentine Application."
This is the "Be My Valentine Application." Everyone knows there's at least one person on here that you want to be your Valentine. Heres the application for that special someone. Let's see who replys back with the following filled out. Have Fun. Area 1: Please provide positive answers. Name: Age: Height: Do you Drive: Where do you live: School: Grade: Single or Taken: Would You Date Me: Kiss On First Date: Area 2: What would you do if I... I made a move on u: I kissed you: I lived next door to you: I started smoking: I asked you on a date: I was hospitalized: I ran away from home: I got into a fight and you weren't there? I asked u to have sex? I asked u out? Area 3: What do you think about my... Personality: Eyes: Hair: Body: Area 4: Have you ever.... Lied to make me feel better? Wanted to kiss me? Wanted to kill me? Broke my heart? Kept something important from me? Area 5: "

Mother Earth
The grass, like hair- growing strong. The wind, like a voice- singing a song. The ground is the hardness one must endure, to have a heart tender and pure. Rivers rippling, like tears down a face. The nature, the earth, a beautiful place. To gaze at the starts, to look up to space. The majestic. Our world. A beautiful place.

Emotion
Segregation Malice Fear Hatred Does this make you feel alive Is it feelings of damnation on which you thrive Aggravation Frustration Running through your mind Tick Tock Tick Tock It is running out of time Anger Depression Feeling Insecure Is this apart of normalcy or are you not sure

Duran Duran-serious
Oh, woman you make me feel, like Im on fire Oh, woman you make it real, its the only way for me So, if we sometimes fight, doesnt mean we got problems Aint always black and white, who cares anyway? Ooh - doesnt have to be serious Ooh - doesnt have to be serious (serious) Doesnt have to be serious Doesnt have to be serious Oh baby you get so wild, mmm too much understanding Oh baby youre such a child, put up with all the tears and cryin Dont worry if youre confused, we all tend to be sometimes The whole world is getting used, its just the way it is... Maybe right, oh, but maybe wrong Doesnt have to be serious, being hard isnt being strong Doesnt have to be serious, fighting for love, fighting for pain Ooh doesnt have to be serious, and if you win, oh what do you gain? Doesnt have to be serious.. - Ooh, doesnt have to be serious maybe right, ooh, but maybe wrong Ohh doesnt have to be serious, fighting for love, fighting for pain Ooh doesnt have to be seriou

I Wasn't Finished
Never really had a good meal Living on dinty moore stew Canned chicken and oatmeal bars No one really ever cooked me anything White linen tablecloth and a rose Crystal glasses and a wonderful meal I pick up my fork and knife Is this real? I take a few bites and feel the goodness of it Hey this is real nourishment When the cloth gets pulled out And the plates crash I wasn't finished and ever after And all I can think of is that one good meal

Okay ...
well recently, I have been feeling extremely agitated. So much so that I have taken myself out of "life". Do I know the root cause of it, I think I do, and I have been trying extremely hard to deal with it. But it seems harder and harder everyday to deal with it. things seem to be getting bigger and I feel like I'm making a huge deal out of nothing. But I do know if I don't get a handle on things and get really get this feeling under control, I am going to have a major blow up and it will be over completely nothing. I am not sure how to even open the subject up to the love of my life to even think of letting him in on how I feel without it sounding condescending and unloving. I do have a journal and I do write about it all, but it doesn't seem to help much it seems to make it worse. It is even affecting my meditation and my card readings. I do think there is some stress involved with work that I am not attending to, but I can't attend to it till Monday when there is a plant wi

What’s The Point In Even Trying Anymore?
What’s the point in even trying anymore? .................... Well I am writing this to let everyone know whats going on in my life right now. Ever since my late girlfriend past away back on January of 06 I have been looking for my someone special and I guess it is just not meant for me to find that someone special. There has been a couple of time that I thought that I had but I must have done something to screw it up because now I am still alone. I am posting this here to let all my friends on here now that care that I will be deleting all my accounts except one and that is pogo.com because I don’t see any reason to keep putting myself though the heartbreak and bullsh*t games that I have went though the past 2 and a half years so I have decided that I am just going to give up even trying. To quote Ozzy Osborne when he was with Black Sabbath in the song paranoid “I would tell you to enjoy life, I wish I could but for me it’s too late”. To put it more simpler terms I am

Things And How They Change
I sit here pondering over some matters and how fast ones life can change... I had a nice job coming up, would have carried me on thru to late spring. now homeowners up and change mind at last min and not building, so here i am left with hoping unemployment will come thru,(will know next friday) and no prospects of work right now. and now thinking of do i try and ride it out here where things are starting to feel the affects of the economy, and hope it will improve in spring. or do i start thinking of moving to an area where there is a nice boom in my work. I don't really like the idea of moving again. but the construction crew i work for is trying to get in to this area for starting in march/april. and its very hard to find places that will employ a gal in this work. so i have work if i follow, and no work if i don't. i know i'll find out more as the next 2 weeks unfold. this stuff all hit me on the same day as helping my sister go thru loosing her dog, which i adored to

First Auction
See what people are offering and enjoy meeting interesting people. Some basic rules: * Auction Starts: Noon Fu-time January 24th * Auction Ends: Noon Fu-time February 7th * NO DRAMA this is about having fun * All offers last 30 days * Highest bid wins * See chart (first picture in album) for bidding reference * Ownership begins: 12:01 Fu-time February 7th * Ownership ends: Noon Fu-time March 9th Just come and see by clicking on the poster below Thank you and have FUN! :) (repost of original by '←ĴƁ♂Ɔőőƙ→ Bodyguard to 7uP and Jennifer' on '2009-01-24 12:02:49') (repost of original by ' ☆7üP aka ℓĩℓ õnέ♥ is owned by Jaded One' on '2009-01-24 16:24:53')

One
Felt so real Nov 6thm 2008 (2:36 am, waking up in the middle of the night) I am standing before a road, that almost looks like a desert The darkness falling, engulfing the sky. Drowning in my own sorrow, Whispers, so very soft.. surrounded by knowing.. i am not alone. Things feel null... numb to my finger touch, as everything is at a still. The clouds so hazelish dark gray. A white bird, it looks as if it were a White Hawk?..sits down on a broken post that is faded out, stares at me, and i stare back, a aura bound around it, this whitish glow. I walk forward down the road. A bright light peaks out from within the clouds. It almost seems as if the clouds are trying to race to cover the light up. But its too strong. A vail of light casts upon the road. heading towards me until i am surrounded by its warmth I am overwhelmed with fear

Want A Salute From Me? Hereis How!!!
Want a Salute from Me? How about helping Two Sexy Fu's get to Spotlight! Auctions for People and Salutes to benefit these girls are Happening!Make a bid..help them out, I am up for bid for Salutes...will salute the winner....100% goes to each gal. Make the Salute Bid over 1 million and I will make the salute NSFW if you wish...wink' Click on each pic to get to each salute Auction~Thanks for Supporting these great FuGals!!! This salute for SWEET`N`SEXXAY hosted by SinfulBrat This Salute benefits DJ~Dani~ hosted by DJ Nilla This pimpout Is for DJ DANI & SWEET`N`SEXXAY made with luv~ ♥Heart Inspector♥ DirtySouthCrew~Owned by Gary of DirtySouthCrew & BhamBuggy~@ fubar

Really People
All right lets see where to begin. I just got 4 messages about NSFW pics. # of them I can undersatnd as I should have marked the drawings as NSFW just because it shows a woman with her leg up looking over her right shoulder and were her crotch is there are teeth and a tounge. This drawing was done for a friend of mine over one of his ex's. But the other pic that was in the me folder was a picture of me shown from the neck down of me with no shirt on and standing with my pajama pants on. Now I know there are a lot of shirtless guy pics out there so what is so wrong with this one?? Are they offended by the the Dallas Cowboys pants I am wearing (now I know that not everyone is a Cowboys fan) but really. Get a life people....ha ha ha.

The Truth
if i could just tell the truth would it fall on deaf ears would you still feel the same after all these years another set of lyrics to a song I wrote if i could just tell the truth would you even know is this pointless or just inane i probably ,will never know if i could just tell the truth and speak right from my heart would you even know its you thats tearing me apart if i could just tell the truth you'll probably never know you'll never ever read this poem but hey, i never know cause if you read this and understand you'll never let me know cause we are truly worlds apart but the same inside (i know)

Today Is Not A Good Day
This is a series of events dating back from the time my mom went into the hospital.. July 26 - mom goes into the hospital because she has diaherria that hasnt stopped for 3 days. They keep her cuz her white blood cell count is out of whack. July 29 - they find out her gallbladder is bad and take her to surgery. I waited at that hospital from 8pm til mid waiting and waiting for it to be done. Bugging the shit out of the nurses up there cuz i know it shouldnt take this long. The doc finally comes out and tell me that her gall bladder was so bad that it was just mush. And that if they had waited any longer she would have been in big shit. They had to take all her gall bladder and part of her large intestine cuz the infection was so bad. That she has a colostomy bag and it would be temporary til her bowls healed from the surgery. they has also found a small spot of cancer in her intestitine and that why has to cut out as well. A week after the surgery they find she has cancer

Emerald City
The tornado disrupting and powerful, Ripping its way through, Removing me from my life, Discarding me dazed and confused in to this bizarre dream, But surely the only emerald for me, Is the green grass above me, Feet encased in concrete of gloom it slows my journey, No magical scarlet shoes for me, But for now the world of dreams and nightmares, Journeying the yellow brick road to my emerald city, I find no comfort in my surroundings or friends, The bizarre and grotesque caricature I have become, Drawn by one who see beyond my eyes, As different to me as can be possible, The Jeckle and Hyde effects of substance abuse, Effects last longer ‘till almost engulfed, Its sharp talons in my flesh, Searing pain tearing through my soul and mind, Ripping me apart from inside out, Pain darts through my heart and soul, Soon to be lost forever in purposelessness, Killing the pain in the only way I know, Vision through blurring eyes set on my goals ahead, My addictions draggin

More Random Shit That Is Funny Thinkin About It....
Once again, I don't care if you agree or hate for this... It's not up for discussion. I'm too hard headed to give a fuck.. Bleeding heart pussy ass mufuckas... Violence is bad! BLAH BLAH BLAH! The US was founded apon violence... Settlers didn't wanna deal with another religion and the bullshit that came from it.. They came to America and didn't like what they saw here after a while and KILLED the people who had the land before them. We didn't wanna pay english taxes, said "Fuck y'all" and jumped into a war to get independence. Once again short fuses, anger, and refusal to bitch up... We got something in both thoes cases. The South wanted to leave the colonies, the north said fuck y'all, quit bein bitches, war popped off, slavery because a secondary reason... POOF, once again violence and short tempers got results. (By the way, all y'all souther rebel flag wavers "rebels"... Y'all are now rebels without a cause. That flag more reps the idea of inbred porch sittin lazy welfare collec

Can You See The Light
A song I wrote during happier times can you see the light or are you still just blind or can you be lost in the shadows of your mind open up your eyes and together we will start we will learn to walk and never be apart and together we will run..... take a look at me and open up your heart see the love I feel and we’ll never be apart. is your mind still dark or is the daybreak nearing is it my love you fear or the love for me you are fearing and together we’ll run..... open up your eyes and let your fears rush out feel the love I give and they’ll never be a doubt open up your heart and we’ll start as one we will start to walk and together we will run and together we will run......

Love
You have taught me many things About life and love During our relationship One of the things you have taught me is that love is an obscure thing When it is there you can take it Whenever you want it and its convienant But when it is not there That is when you miss having it That is when you want it back When you are in love That love is so precious That you take it for granted And that is when you Hurt those you love and those You love hurt you When you think that love is gone That is when you cry for it That is when you know Your heart is breaking When the one you love Falls out of love with you because of your mistakes You want them back and You want their love more Than you did when you had their love

Why Do People Cheat?
There are too many instances where guys try to "get at me" when they already have a gf....or are even MARRIED. How sad is that. And the girl has NO idea.People can make u feel like ur their WORLD. Like nothing else matters to them, ur all they need. They wouldn't cheat on u right? I've always told myself that I wouldn't be one of those girls that are so naive and are too blind to see that their bf is cheating,even when its obvious. Not saying that ALL guys cheat, or that EVERY1 should be afraid.Becuz that's just the thing...ppl aren't afraid becuz they arent aware. If ur significant other makes u feel like ur the only one,then ur gonna accept it..ur gonna feel like ur the only one,no need in being paranoid. Meanwhile, ur bf is telling another girl all the things he tells u..making her feel like she's the only one. Even tho they do it WAAAY more, its not only the guys that cheat. I would know,girls talk. Girls can be just as untrustworthy. That's why its called CHEATING...its

A Sad Day For Us!!!
A friend of mine Stan lost most of his trailer today in the ice storm that we have had. A tree limb came through his roof and now he has to stay with me at my cousin Paul's cause I lost power myself. Please pray for Stan during this time of need. Thank you all!!

Mind Control
How long is it going to be before this world not to mention this country in peticular wakes up from their hypnotic dream state that the U.S. government has cast on them.. My guess is never... Let me explain why that is.. Politicians have traditionally hidden behind 3 things they use it on you the flag, the bible, and children. No child left behind. Oh really it wasn't long ago they were talking about giving kids a head start. Head Start, left behind someone is losing ground here dont ya think?? There is a reason for this though, there is a reason education sucks it's the same reason it will never ever be fixed. Reason is the owners don't want that. I'm talking about the REAL Owners. The big wealthy business owners that control everything and make all the important decisions. Forget the politicians thier irrelevant. The politicains are put there to give you the idea that you got freedom of choice. YOU DON'T!! You have no choice.. You have owners, they own you. They own everythin

Party With Us
WELCOME TO TWISTED THOUGHTS! WELCOME TO TWISTED THOUGHTS WHERE GREAT FRIENDS GET TOEGETHER TO HANG OUT AND HAVE FUN! WE PLAY ALL KINDS OF MUSIC INCLUDING CLASSIC ROCK, COUNTRY, METAL, AND RAP. WE'RE JUST A BUNCH OF PEOPLE THAT LOVE TO HAVE A GREAT TIME ALL THE TIME SO COME ON IN, AND JOIN THE PARTY! (repost of original by '"The Ish" HŷĐäŴãŸ Ŕåđïõ's HEAD GREETER' on '2009-01-27 18:32:48')

1-28-09 Part Ii
Everyday you can see Changes in her hair and smile I can wait a million days While her smile goes away Sometimes i feel dizzy By the slices in her hands Secrets in her lipstick mouth Shiny on her again Shiny on her again Capture her smile and then that's all You won't know her so it's okay Funny how things change Funny how things change

Confused
Just needing to rant & rave for a lil.... Over the last few years I have had some really tough times and I've had one friend that I could really count on, even if it was just to talk. Now it seems that I can't even get a response from them when I send an IM, SB or even a private message. I know that they are going through a lot theirself but we use to share our problems....lean on each other. Now I feel as if I have no one to lean on. I have asked if I have done something that could have made them mad but all I got was...'I have a lot going on'. I feel as if im not important anymore. Which has been the theme of my life for a long time....guess its going to continue. I am now at the point that I am about to pack my kids up and move out of this state and start completely over....if I'm going to be ignore...might as well be by strangers than by friends.

Hello Fubar
Its odd. This isnt my first time on fubar but between drama and very stupid people I chose to walk away and find something else to do. But like anyone else I give seconds changes. Well that depends on what happens too. Just to clear what I mean up, I dont give second chances on relationships. I have learn the hard way that no matter how many times you try, the problem is still their. Rather it be the look of disbelief on what the person did or the pain. Ok, totally getting off the point of this blog. This time seems to be different on fubar which is awesome. Everyone has been very cool and willing to be friends instead of just wanting to add another person "see who can be more popular" Alright enough rambling, in a nut shell, thanks to the ones that are cool enough to say hello and have a small but decent conversation. Enjoy your day ~Alicia

A Couple Words
I sit here today, Thinking about my past. On all the things I hate, And how long my life will last. Why do you people hate me? Why must you be so mean? Is this how you should treat me? If not, that's what it seems. I will not justify my feelings, But I know I can. You people keep provoking me, This is why I ran. You people disrespect me, But you still don't realize. What you say about me, Stays in my inside. I don't forget your face, Or even your evil voice. I could be mean when I see you, But I don't choose that choice. I still try to be nice to you, But look at what you've done. No longer will I be nice, No longer will you have fun. I hold this pills in my hand, Thinking of all the things you've said. Through all those moments you laughed at me, My emotions bled. I've suffered way to long, Today it is the end. you have no more chances to say sorry, I will never be your friend. I've taken all

Black Roses
We bleed for the glory, We cry for the pain. Humans are the sickest life, That god could ever rain. We've all felt the fire, It burns all our lives. Step into my bitter world, Before death arrives. Freeze all the bodies, So they don't decay. Freezer burns everywhere, Join my blood buffet. The souls of the deceased, Just can't seem to find. Join me now everyone, This is the end of mankind. Black roses made of solid steel, Black roses made of blood. Life is passed through all it's stem, And death in each leaf bud. For every time a life is took, That wasn't ment to die. A black rose spreads it's leaves, And makes an angel cry. If your filled with anger, And want to be relieved. Don't hold back for a moment, Let it all out on me. Black roses falling from the sky, The apocalypse of our prayers. Set all of heaven to fire, Nobody really cares. For every time a life is took, That wasn't ment to die, A black rose spreads it's leaves, And makes an angel cry! I

Single Again
So my wife of 2 years left me, alot of reasons, and I am single once more. I am looking for people to talk with, and perhaps get to know. I am not sure where to begin now in life, but I am sure that I will embrace to journey ahead

I'm Sorry
Think of the lives that only can sway, I held their lives in my hand and threw them away. I'm sorry I did it, their blood in my hand, But I couldn't help it, I just couldn't stand. If only I awoke to stop myself think, Their lives would be theirs and just me to thank. Now they are dead, it couldn't be changed, Now just for them their funeral arranged. Why me, why me, why did I have to kill? I went to sleep and woke up just to find I was ill. I'm sorry I did it, I'll repay them all back, This knife in my hand and life I will slack. The next time I sleep, I will not awake, The time I will die is the next breath I take.

Because Of You
I awake each day with a smile And greet it with a laugh; The world is a treasure to me Because of you. Every time I think of something sad, I replace the thought- with you! My mind is instantly changed And my heart is filled with gladness. Every breath I take is meant for you, I live this life surrounded in joy And I bathe in the promise of your love, My soul belongs to you. Each time I see something beautiful I want to take it and bring it to you; My life has so much meaning now All because of you.

My Sex Sign
Your Sex Sign is... ARIES: You're fiery, independent, and the best anyone's ever had. You're so hot that you drive everyone wild with sexual frustration. You're a total star when you're on top, but you also need to be impressed in bed. Aries, you are headstrong, spolied, fiery in temperment, and fiercely independent. You always want to be the best anyone's ever had, and you'll spend all night convincing your lover that you are. Don't worry - you usually are the best anyone has ever had. When you get down, you don't leave out anything. Sexually, you're a leader and very sure of yourself. One of your favorite positions is being on top, where you can move freely - while letting your lover observe you orgasm. Sex with you is always exciting. You start with teasing, playful seduction - that always drives your lovers wild with frustration. You always deliver though! You love being over powered, and you respond to a strong sexual appetite with equal fervor. The confident lover

God Machine
i wonder how long you'd live with a bullet in your gut i wonder how much shit you'd talk if your throat was cut i wonder what you'd sound like begging me to let you breathe i wonder how much pain it'd take to make you all belive

Lets Party
I UNDERSTAND THIS IS A PLACE WHERE A LOT OF PARTYING IS GOING ON SO NATURALLY I THOUGHT OF WHAT I DO AND THE PEOPLE I DO IT WITH AND WHERE I DO IT SO HERE YOU GO EVERYBODY ILL BE POSTING PICTURES AND COMMENTS YOU WILL SEE SOME OUTRAGEOUS PICS OF ME AND MY FRIENDS DOING WHAT WE DO THE BEST HAVING FUN PLEASE BUY ME A DRINK IM THRISTY LOL I HAVE THOUSANDS OF PICS 30,000 TO BE EXACT HOPE YOU LIKE THEM BYE FOR NOW .....

A Special World
A Special World A special world for you and me A special bond one cannot see It wraps us up in its cocoon And holds us fiercely in its womb. Its fingers spread like fine spun gold Gently nestling us to the fold Like silken thread it holds us fast Bonds like this are meant to last. And though at times a thread may break A new one forms in its wake To bind us closer and keep us strong In a special world, where we belong.

"only."
“Only.” Only your breath, assures me of life. A pulse that quickens, Pupils that widen, A feeling of knowing what it is to “be.” Only your hands, pull the cord. That opens the curtains, Defeats the darkness, And floods the world with light. Only your words, show the way. They tell the truth, When others lie, And promise new tomorrows. Only your arms, were made to hold. A shattered soul, A broken heart, This child in need of sleep. Only your dreams, inspire and feed. A hungered mind, Starved for hope, They offer a chair at the feast. Only your presence, fills the room. When no one hears, Or no one sees, And I’ve become invisible. Only your footsteps, pad the floor. In the darkest night, On the coldest day, As you move to greet me. Only your eyes, see what’s real. What others miss, Or fail to see, Everything that I am. Only your heart, pumps for two. To keep both alive, In different ways, But still giving life. Only your love, s

Licensing Guns
And it begins! The idiots are out of the gate and they are racing around the corner. Here are key highlights of what we can look forward to from these nut jobs in the future as illustrated with this bill. To provide for the implementation of a system of licensing for purchasers of certain firearms and for a record of sale system for those firearms, and for other purposes. Sponsor: Rep Rush, Bobby L. [IL-1] (introduced 1/6/2009) Cosponsors (None) Latest Major Action: 1/6/2009 Referred to House committee. Status: Referred to the House Committee on the Judiciary. Blair Holt's Firearm Licensing and Record of Sale Act of 2009 - Amends the Brady Handgun Violence Prevention Act to prohibit a person from possessing a firearm unless that person has been issued a firearm license under this Act or a state system certified under this Act and such license has not been invalidated or revoked. Prescribes license application, issuance, and renewal requirements. Prohibits transferri

02/03/09
Well it's day two on this site still not real sure how to get around but I'm sure it will come as time goes on. I have meet a few nice people on here talked a little about sports and hunting two things I do enjoy. I'm working right now but due to the weather we have slowed a little bit so give me a chance to play :)

This Will Piss Someone Off...
Fuck the twin towers, only 2,740 died. Y'all get all caught up on the popular bullshit. Forgetting how many died in Vietnam because they chose to, not because of some accident. How many die due to suicide because they feel like there is no other option. How many die because they can't afford to eat on a daily basis in America on a daily basis... How many people could that stupid 9/11 monument have fed if it was broken down to money... How many people could get help through a mental health system if it was fixed with the money used to build that stupid 9/11 monument... How many vets could we hook up and take care of with the money spent on that 9/11 shit. Y'all aint sayin shit about pearl harbor... You don't even give a fuck anymore about the few soldiers who died there... 2,740 died. 3 I know of... And most of y'all don't even have a clue what the fuck you go on about. It's just the popular bullshit that makes you look like a good person or some shit... So in short, fuck 9/11 and fuck

Questions
Where would you be If I was not here Nowhere to be found No phone to call No address to write Where would you be without me by your side With no more words to say Without my arms to hold you Throughout the long lonely night Where would you go without me there Wait your already without me I wonder do you miss me the way that I miss you

Lost
I am still new to this Fubar thing. I get lost whenever I come on, so have yet to figure it out. My page is so busy that I can't figure the crazy thing out Anyway, that is what is on my mind today. Just trying to figure out how everything works and what is worth bothering with.

Our Reality
Our Reality I close my eyes before I sleep, All I see is the willows weep, Morning arises, Much to all the surprises, I see your true beauty reviled to me, In your eyes I gaze, And lost in your heart as I pray, Holding hands on this very day, Loving you for all eternity; Is thy truth to you from me, I wish to hold you in my arms, And make our dreams, Into our reality! By: Jess L. Burris Jr. Date:10-23-08

Opinions Are Like Assholes, Everyone Has One....
I have been reading certain mumms on this and that. And it amazes me how stupid some of them are. When you post a mumm on a personal subject, which is kinda suicide to begin with, hint: be ready for the fall out. We are all entitled to our opinions. The thing is when people do offer their opinions, they are taken to heart. People get upset over something said, and then try to validate the reasons for placing the Mumm up to begin with. First of all, when you put up a public Mumm...your setting yourself up for public ridicule. That doesn't take rocket science, or slide rules to figure that out. I have a philosophy about opinions...Everyone wants to be liked ,and thought well of, but people do not think of "me" often enough for thier opinions to make a rats ass difference. There is one fellow "fubarian" that places alot of "sick of this retarded shit" mumms on here..and I am glad he says what he does. Bout time someone points out the stupidity. Keep up the great work Fury!

Jester
Who dared flip the switch Who said I wanted to come back whats wrong with the way I lived auto-pilot never needed to be removed Who decided that it was time to deal with everything in my life all at once never time to breathe One trial after another never time to cry never time to heal just one second just one chance I'm drowning in my own soul and I forgot how to swim sinking so low I can see the surface I can see the end my arms wont move there has to be a way out Wheres my lifeguard or do they only save the pretty souls the ones without pain the darkness is closing in just one breath all I need to survive just one hand someone pull me out One trial after another never time to cry never time to heal just one second just one chance I'm drowning in my own soul and I forgot how to swim sinking so low I can't be your princess And I can't be your Knight Where does that leave me in your fairytale world Just a simple jester Laugh at me th

Freakin Love You!
FREAKIN LOVE YOU! Today is love your friends day. Send this to all your friends and me if I am one. If you get 7 back then youre LOVED! We are Friends I got your back You got mine, I'll help you out Anytime! To see you hurt To see you cry Makes me weep And wanna die And if you agree To never fight It wouldn't matter Whos wrong or right If a broken heart Needs a mend I'll be right there Till the end If your cheeks are wet From drops of tears Don't worry Let go of your fears Hand in hand Love is sent, We'll be friends Till the end!!!! show your friends how much you care. Send this to everyone you consider a FRIEND, including the one who sent it to you. If it comes back to you, then you'll know you have a circle of friends. Ok, Friend Send this to............. 0-2 peeps you are a Bad friend.Booo!!! 3-5 peeps you are an OK Friend! 4-6 peeps you are a Good Friend! 7-9 peeps you are a GREAT Friend! 10-12 peeps you are an excellent Friend""

Inferno On Tears
Into the arms of death come I. I see the black waters of confusion... I dip my hand into the blood rivers of bottomless wrath... I walk the charred sand of a harrow beach. It infects me... Infests me... Makes me want to maim, lacking the mercy even to kill... desiring to burn it all down before what I build crumbles.. I see all things disintegrate... I watch them melt by the inferno of their own tears.

What About Love
've been lonely I've been waiting for you I'm pretending and that's all i can do The love i'm sending Ain't making it through to your heart You've been hiding, never letting it show Always trying to keep it under control You got it down and you're well On the way to the top But there's something that you forgot What about love Don't you want someone to care about you What about love Don't let it slip away What about love I only want to share it with you You might need it someday I can't tell you what you're feeling inside I can't sell you what you don't want to buy Something's missing and you got to Look back on your life You know something here just ain't right What about love Don't you want someone to care about you What about love Don't let it slip away What about love I only want to share it with you What about love Don't you want someone to care about you What about love Don't let it slip away What about love I only want to share it with you

Dark Angel
Everything grew to a shade of grey, As the shadows stroked my back and the Sun ran away, But my Dark Angel makes it right... You make it all right... For a second at a time, I try to overcome the pain That engulfs me, The overbearing blindness that eats me away... But My Dark Angel makes it right... You make it all right... The seething darkness hold unaware of the sadness I feel, With melancholy skies and hopeless tears, The clouds over my head rain hard... But My Dark Angel makes it right... You make it all right... Just when I thought that life hath boiled a cauldron of disgrace, and everything would come crashing down, My Dark Angel descends petal-light to free me of such toils... My Dark Angel makes it right... You make it all right....

Hunted Souls
they watch the souls of living beings mortals holding tight to life for the imortality of our lives does not extend to them. A man plays with his son, a mother teachers her daughter to bake but we, us as creatures teach our children to fight and protect. Protect the humans from things the can not see and help the souls that are weak move on. We hide from the eyes that seek to kill us and emerge to the eyes that seek death the pentagram is our mark the blood we spill is for the safty of life that is held dearly to the ones who selfishly kill others by actions of war we seek the souls that need saved we protect the ones that dont and we help to hide lifes greatest mysteries. we cling to the shadows and sing to the moon we live among animals and humans and we are the only protection between the worlds with out us humans would lose and with out us the world would be destroied. The shadows are our home and we seek our prey from the shadows.

This Is Waht Wicca Is For Some People Who Do Not Know What It Is
What Is Wicca Contrary to what those who choose to persecute or lie about us wish to believe, Wicca is a very peaceful, harmonious and balanced way of thinking and life which promotes oneness with the divine and all which exists. Wicca is a deep appreciation and awe in watching the sunrise or sunset, the forest in the light of a glowing moon, a meadow enchanted by the first light of day. It is the morning dew on the petals of a beautiful flower, the gentle caress of a warm summer breeze upon your skin, or the warmth of the summer sun on your face. Wicca is the fall of colorful autumn leaves, and the softness of winter snow. It is light, and shadow and all that lies in between. It is the song of the birds and other creatures of the wild. It is being in the presence of Mother Earths nature and being humbled in reverence. When we are in the temple of the Lord and Lady, we are not prone to the arrogance of human technology as they touch our souls. To be a Witch is to be a

She Is Finally Out Of Pain
My moms pain is finally gone. She found with the cancer and other underlying factors for almost 7 months. My heart is broken but i know this is much better for her. She isnt hurting anymore. I really wished we would have had more time with her pain-free and her being the wonderful person she was. She passed at 3am on friday morn. Her kidneys had failed and she started filling up with fluid. Eventually she stopped breathing. I swear it took forever for me to stop staring at her thinking she was going to suddenly wake up and start moving. I think that is when my sister made me go to bed. I think i slept for like 12 hours straight. Now im in the process of going through everything and packing i just cant stay in this apt. Not only can i not afford it but i cant stay here knowing this is where she died. I will try to get back in the swing of things on here may take me a lil while but ill get there ty all for the patience and understanding you have shown ~M~

Eavning Star
By Mihai Eminescu Evening Star There was, as in the fairy tales, As ne'er in the time's raid, There was, of famous royal blood A most beautiful maid. She was her parents' only child, Bright like the sun at noon, Like the Virgin midst the saints And among stars the moon. From the deep shadow of the vaults Her step now she directs Toward a window; at its nook Bright Evening-star expects. She looks as in the distant seas He rises, darts his rays And leads the blackish, loaded ships On the wet, moving, ways. To look at him every night Her soul her instincts spur; And as he looks at her for weeks He falls in love with her. And as on her elbows she leans Her temple and her whim She feels in her heart and soul that She falls in love with him. And ev'ry night his stormy flames More stormily renew When in the shadow of the castle She shows to his bright view. * * And to her room with her slow steps He bears his steps and aims Weaving out of

Only In Movies
Welcome to America Where everything is fake To the blood that you drop To the breaths that you take That guy got shot twice But he's still strong enough to fight That guy was killed But he was alive to haunt the night I love the brilliantly planned plot And the conveniently places police The highly trained secret agent Always disturbs the enemy's peace The bomb is about to go off But there is still enough time to run Because you won't get out the building Until the ticker counts down to one The mother ship is under attack The space pilots are dieing Lasers are screaming pass the universe And camera trickery are lying Welcome to digital cable Where all magic can be real A man can be immortal And a hero can punch through steel Where's the foolish criminal Who will later become a hero? Where's the crackhead superstar Waiting to be turned into a zero Welcome to hollywood Where the paparazzi crawls And all your money bribery Is hidden beneath the walls

10 Drivers We Love To Hate
10 Drivers We Love to Hate by Holly Rizzo Monday, January 19, 2009 Featured Artical Image When you slip into the driver’s seat, you join a whole city that’s only a few lanes wide but populated by a universe of personalities and styles with somewhere to go. We never notice most of them, because only a few other drivers stand out from the crowd. Yeah, yeah – share the road, and all that jazz. Some of those drivers – well, if it were up to you, you’d lock away their keys. Where are the cops from “Cops” when you need them? Instead, you note these drivers’ presence and live to tell the tale. The more you drive, the more personalities you encounter. Some of those personalities seem to fit types, good and bad. Here are some of the challenging types from the notebook: The Joads Like Steinbeck’s “Grapes of Wrath” family, they’re on the move with all their worldly goods strapped to the pickup truck. Neatness doesn’t count: This is a scarecrow of a vehicle, with furniture stacked o

Sreet Kids ...in My Heart!!
Dieusibon Age: 12 "I've been on the streets for about five years. I think my mother is still alive but she's staying in Jacmel and my father is dead. I never knew him. My mother is living with this guy and he doesn't like me at all. He always beats me for no reason. They made me leave my home because of that. After I left home and went to Port au Prince, a lady took me off the street and told me I was going to work in her restaurant. It wasn't really a restaurant, it was a street kitchen where she sold cooked foods. She made me wash pots and pans from morning to night. She would beat me with the pots and pans on the head when she wasn't happy with my work. I was only seven when I was taken by her. I have this big scar on my forehead where she would hit me with hot skillet when she was mad. She did this many times. I have headaches almost everyday now because of this. One time when she was really mad, she dropped a big iron pot full of hot grease from frying chicken onto my hand

Sin
where do i go from here left alone with only a prayer my worlds turned to darkness and filled with dispear no place of my own no where i feel at home swallowed up by isolation not a friend to graspe on to dont know where im going just want to get away from my sins

A Poem For My Dad
A Fathers touch, A Daddy's kiss, A grieving Daughter, You're greatly missed. An empty house, An empty chair, A fathers love, No longer there. A broken heart, Tear filled eye, Another soul to fill the sky. Many memories in my mind, Some I laugh, Some I cry. The times we shared, The laughs we had, Things I miss when I think of you Dad. Realizing that's all I have to hold on too, Only memories, Of what once was you. Missing your laugh, I will never again hear. That is the reality that fills me with so much fear. No more smile on your face, No more warmth of your embrace. The last hug, The last kiss, The last "goodbye" leaves me with one last wish... To have you Dad, here today, Never to leave your Daughter this way. A Father's touch, A Daddy's kiss, A grieving Daughter, YOU'RE GREATLY MISSED!

Needed Time
there is a time that lies ahead an appointment that will not be met. longing to just talk with you without the distractions. for i yearn to know what lies behind those blue eyes. much needed time is all i ask for yet it seems as though it will never feel mutual. forever waiting, waiting forever.

Music Lyrics...to A Great Song
My Angel Friend Lift me up each day. Even though you have gone away. Your spirit dances in my mind , in my heart, and in my soul. The life you lived, the love you left. The ones you touched. We won't forget, you give us strength. Time of need, My friend, My angel friend. We shared good times, through the years, In my heart and soul your here with me. My friend , my angel friend and i hear you wisper in the wind. Peice by peice our hearts will mend. The dreams you shared will carry on here now and beyond. The world will smile. for you were here The gifts you brought we will hold them dear. Ill take you with me. Till we meet again My Friend , My Angel Friend. We will good times from now on. In my heart you live on with me. My Friend, My Angel Friend. I miss my friend. Rodney Carrington. Allot of people do not know about this song. It is on the special features on. "Live at the Majestic" I will be honest. The first time I listened to this song. I started to cry. It is

To Military People
Anyone involved in any type of military anywhere for this country or for its allies..... I just want you to know that those of you who are on here and are or have been military people or possibly are gonna be military people, I have all the respect in the world for you people. God Bless You All and feel free to send me a friend request because if you let me know youre military or if I can see from your pic or whatever else that you are, youll be added. I'll add every single one of you and once more, just wanna let y'all know that I appreciate what you all do for us, God Bless You and hope youre able to stay safe and come home soon. Chad

First Post... Weiird
hmmm well i've never heard of this before ever, but my friend chris suggested i do it and now i kinda like it :] but i don't have many friends so i hope both guys & girls can befriend me maybe leave me some comments or drop a line say hi :] i'm friendly don't bite promise hehe

Random Things About Me...
Thought I would share some random things about who I am for those who may care.... I have loved unconditionally .... and had that love shattered into a million small pieces left for me to pick up and put back together .... I have put those pieces back together and learned how to move forward I have stood in the rain just to feel a small piece of God and know that even though I am insignificant to most I am important to Him I have had plenty of money in my pocket and thought nothing of it ... I have given a complete stranger my last dollar because I knew they needed it more than I did I have had all I needed and more and not appreciated any of it ... I have stared into empty cabinets and looked into the face of my child who was hungry and felt more appreciation for the small things I have than ever before I have been hurt and have hurt others .... I have learned to forgive those that hurt me, but also to forgive myself I have awakened from a good nights rest and went t

Doing A Clean Up
hey yall just wanted to say that as of tonight i am going to be doing a clean up on my family friends and fans....i have added alot to them and as it seems i havent seen or heard from alot of yall so if u wish to remain on my list contact me or i will delete ya....and for the ones that has shown me fubar love i thank you.....

Two Sides
The sun shines strong Giving life to all that need In the desert on the sand Giving death to all who do not understand The earth, full of life and hope giving food, health and home A shift, a Tremor and a shake It opens..life and home it will take Fire to keep the freeze away Warmth for belly and light for lovers Left alone till will run wild Burn til all is gone Air to bring seeds to their new home To fly kite and send soft whispers in the night Air will move your home from here to there Send fire to burn screaming...no skin no hair Water is our life force With out which all would be forfeit Ships upside down and towns lost Bodies lost and drown oh look at the cost Moon so sure, working like a clock Plans our lives, know the season.. for the farm it does shine Waves so high to touch the sky In its path all will die All are must and need for everyone But close your eyes and see no more.

But I Don't Know You!!!
written 11pm Feb 9, 2009 My heart beats faster when I think of you My blood flows strong because of your care But I don't know you I see your words I imagine I hear your voice But I don't know you Miles away, I can feel your touch Away from you, I miss you so much But I don't know you You have so much passion You love with all your heart But I don't know you Your wisdom amazes me Your intelligences attracts me But I don't know you You cry at sad movies You laugh when you read a book But I don't know you You make a house feel like a home In your arms I know I would feel safe and loved But I don't know you You care so much for my heart You miss me when we are apart But I don't know you I want to love you forever Forever I hope you will be mine I want to hold you until dust Until the end of time Because I know you

Got Screwed Out Of My Appointment!
Went to the doctors today to talk with him about my LEEP procedure & lets just say the doctor had to leave for an emergency c-section which I can see thats more important than what I needed at the time but still, anyways I upped the appointment to the 17th for my procedure so I'm not tripping about it anymore. I do hope all goes well with it, it's set for 1:15pm which I'll be the last patient for the day so this way I can give him the list of questions/concerns I may have an then get the LEEP done... Wish me luck, an pray for me as well.... Love from your friend Jaime!

In The Arms Of The Savior
In the Arms of the Savior There may be days to come When the world will seem cold Everything around you falls And you feel all alone No matter where you turn It seems like a dead end You can find no comfort In any of your friends But I have a message From a Friend that loves you He stretched out His arms And shed His blood for you He wants you to call on Him Because He loves you so much It is in His outstretched arms You will find His healing touch In the arms of the Savior You can lay your weary head In His infinite wisdom Is how you should be led During the darkest trial Is what His light is there for You can reach the mountain top In the arms of the Savior The valley may seem to dark And to hard to venture on Yet it is in that moment You can see the risen Son Everything else may fade And disappear in the night But you can still find your way In the warmth of His light

~eric~
Big bellied mama Moody Laying in bed. Out popped his head, Body following. Cries fill the air As He makes the transition From a warm Dark Womb. To the Bright Cold depths Of the Delivery room. Wrapepd in a blanket, Placed in her arms. Brought home to be laid in a bassanet. Nights out partying, Left him to me. Rubber duckies float in the tub Which looked like a ship in stormy weather As he splashed in Excitement. He was my little angel. Crystal Blue eyes, Curly blonde hair, Topped off like a sundae With a crooked Toothless smile. He no longer called them …Mommy And Daddy… To him that was me. I spent all my time with him, I was his protector. Taken from me to far off Nevada. Their fights broke us up, And love got them back together. No longer haters but lovers, Don’t worry baby boy… I’ll see you, This Summer!

As The Music Rests
As the music rests, Upon this lovely day, One must face the rays, Hit the sun, Filled full of sun, Throws on his shoes, A jacket & coat, Holds unto a strong rope, Pulls untill my hands are raw, Or very sore, Holding unto a lifetime, Off joy & hope.

That Is Yours (a Valenties Day Poem)
That Is Yours In the darkest of nights My Love If you go to your window One that faces southeast Look into the pitch black My Love There you will see a light Though it is very small it is there If you still your mind and heart Your ears will hear a small voice Carried upon the wind a soft whisper It calls to you Angel Words of Love,Passion,Desire Arms await you open and strong To shed tears with you when you hurt To dry your tears with compassion A chest for you to lay your weary head To listen to the rhythm of a heart It plays a melody only for you To feel safe in strong arms Arms that will hold you tight To share warmth on winter nights To walk under stars in the summer There is an awaiting heart There is a spirit waiting for freedom There is a love waiting to be unleashed I know that what I speak of Is not all that much But freely it is given to you My Love It is simply all of me That is Yours

My Wife Tells Me She's The Lucky One, I Beg To Disagree..
With slender milk white translucent tendrils the moon caressed time-touched ivory skin illuminating the peaceful expression of re-arisen hope in a once abandoned heart A sigh brought time to a temporary stop breath stalled in the seclusion of their sanctuary his eyes rest gently on the outlines of her being chests rising at a lazy rhythmic pace Absent minded fingers play with silken strands of hair serenity flails, blanketing the two entwined bodies Her lips form softly whispered words “it was not luck that brought us together .. it was the hand of fate” She rests her cheek on his chest Smiles play around tender kissed lips as within this stolen moment the echo of his heartbeat resound in slow succession matching her own I love you more than life itself your wifey baby

Tokens Of Love
Sunday, October 09, 2005 (The following story contains graphic examples of dirty gene pools. BEWARE.) My husband bought me zebra finches. A male and a female. Eight months later they had turned into sixteen zebra finches. Two females and fourteen males. The second female was the result of one of the first male offspring of Cosmo (the male) and Wanda (the female), breeding with his mother. She was born with funky feet. Think the dance the Peanuts Gang do, but with their feet forever turned in towards each other. Being the politically correct person that I am, I named her Retard Girl. I guess that her father was also her brother. Cosmo, her father, mated with her, and they produced a few other males. So this male's father was also his grandfather. One of these males mated with his mother, who was the daughter of his father's father and also grandfather. They had another male. This male had a gimpy wing. It just sort of hangs at his side. He is very adept at climbing though. A m

Me Rating And Fannage Etc Etc
a bit short on time, even though i think its an illusion, this theory tends to bite me in the ass when i come down to earth and reality... the point of this blog is to tell you lovely people that are fanning/sending gifts/rating/etc., that i will eventually get around to rating, commenting,etc all so yeah, just add me and i will get back to you in due time. ok well take care FIN

Desiderata
desirederataGo placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and

*the Diagnosis Is Worse Than The Treatment
Have you ever laid down And closed your eyes Wishing you'd never wake up Wishing you'd die Because the pressures of life Were just too much The harder you tried The harder it was to stand up The more you refused The more you gave in Cracking and crumbling Until you can't get up again Have you ever lost hope Felt like everyone's against you The more you fought The harder you'd lose No matter the rights They always felt wrong Always risking it all Until everything is gone The harder you pushed The more you were pulled Until everything around you Lost all control Life is but a dream We're all the plot And you're just the scheme

*as Good As Gone
I think I struck a nerve By the way It's bleeding I think I'm onto something Cuz history's repeating I feel it's hopeless And I know you agree I feel so useless But this isn't the last of me I'm screaming... How do you expect me To match up to your expectations How do you expect me When I get in these situations And I'm as good as gone I think I struck a chord By the way it's ringing I think I'm in the way Cuz of the way you're screaming I feel it's hopeless And I feel so alone This feels so useless Anyone can hold a microphone And I'm screaming... How do you expect me To match up to your expectations How do you expect me When I get in these situations And I'm as good as gone And I'm as good as gone I'll tell you this now Because you're the only one who sees You're only lying sor attention And some fucking sympathy

Musings Perhaps?
I sit here this night looking at the keyboard as if it holds the mystery of that which I am about to put forth upon the cyber page, perhaps it does In truth I know not where my writings come from at times. Sometimes they are of my own creation and sometimes I just start typing and let whomever or whatever it is that atunes itself to the word smith to take control so to speak. Usually at that time my mind seems to go on a vacation of sorts and I hardly even realise what I have written until I look upon it after I have finished. I have often tried to discern just what or who it is that "takes over" , as of yet I have failed to ascertain that particular information. But then maybe that is the point, for maybe if I ever do figure it out the words will no longer flow and I will be left bereft and wanting for the voice in my head that drives me to type/write. Perhaps it is the journey after all that is the inspiration, I truly do not know. I do know that I am grateful for the words when they

The Hardest Road
The Hardest Road I can barely see the road ahead of me Rain pours down as I figured it would be Thunder and lightening strike all around I feel the hardness on my feet from this ground Many long hills to climb up and down The darkness of the clouds causing this long frown When the winds and rains are not pounding my skin The glaring sun like a desert seems to burn deep within I know this journey is all in my mind My hope is the end of this road true love I will find I see your face ahead of me your eyes are closed Your soft lips tightly together no emotions exposed I want to bring you home my one true love Right now though there is darkness below and above I want to protect you and keep you safe and warm I want to hold you close shelter you from the storm I will continue to dredge along carrying this heavy load For the greatest destination is reached on the hardest road

Yeah. . .
Oh, my, god. Becky, look at her butt. It is so big. *scoff* She looks like, one of those rap guys' girlfriends. But, you know, who understands those rap guys? *scoff* They only talk to her, because, she looks like a total prostitute, 'kay? I mean, her butt, is just so big. I can't believe it's just so round, it's like, out there, I mean - gross. Look! She's just so ... black! [Sir Mix-a-Lot] I like big butts and I can not lie You other brothers can't deny That when a girl walks in with an itty bitty waist And a round thing in your face You get sprung, wanna pull out your tough 'Cause you notice that butt was stuffed Deep in the jeans she's wearing I'm hooked and I can't stop staring Oh baby, I wanna get with you And take your picture My homeboys tried to warn me But that butt you got makes me so horny Ooh, Rump-o'-smooth-skin You say you wanna get in my Benz? Well, use me, use me 'Cause you ain't that average groupie I've seen them dancin' To hell with rom

Better Off
suicide is helpless drugs are senseless build me up and break me down help me through this get me through this I'm causing my own pain senseless as surgery nothing helps me god refuses me he throws me away and he'll do it when my day comes heaven is FAKE! hell is a LIE! what's new in your eyes? what's so dark in mine? break me now i can't get through this I'm better off dead I'm better off alone I'm better off with lies

Inside This
You make me not give up dont want to see you cry and if you ask I will never lie. I see your pictures in my mind cause thats all I got right now but I wanna hold your hand, wanna kiss your cheek, and I want to hold you when your dreams make you scream. To my daughters.

Bobbie & Jack
Bobbie sits in the passenger seat listening to “Let her cry” on the radio as Jack drives south on Canal Street. This was her favorite part of their date; Jack holds her close tells her how much he loves her and sometimes they grind like teenagers. Jack starts to sing with the radio with his voice eerily reminiscent of Elvis but, trying to sound like Hootie and blowfish lead singer. “Stop it Jack you know I hate when you sing like Elvis.” she snapped. His face tightened with the words he was after all trying to be romantic and sing to her like she always wants him to do. With each twinge of his cheeks she could see he was upset as “The Dance” came on the radio. Slowly he started to sing her all time favorite song to her as she wiggled in her seat clearly getting warm from his soft voice touching her as she beamed from his attention to every word, every note, and every thought in the lyrics conveyed through his voice and his touch of her left hand on his leg. Then they w

Kinda Blond
Yesterday I had a flat tire on the interstate. So I eased my car over to the shoulder of the road, carefully got out of the car and opened the trunk. I took out 2 cardboard men, unfolded them and stood them at the rear of my car facing oncoming traffic. They looked so lifelike you wouldn t believe it! They were in trench coats exposing their nude bodies and private parts to the approaching drivers. To my surprise, cars started slowing down looking at my lifelike men. And of course, traffic started backing up. Everybody was tooting their horns and waving like crazy. It wasn t long before a state trooper pulled up behind me. He got out of his car and started walking toward me. I could tell he was not a happy camper! What s going on here? My car has a flat tire , I said calmly. Well, what the hell are those obscene cardboard men doing here by the road? I couldn t believe that he didn t know. So I told him, Hellooooo, those are my emergency flashers!

How To Love
when u miss & love someone you will go thru everything that needs to be gone thru...just to keep this special person in your life. you will experience pain, tears, lust, hurt, a broken heart, u will feel that if u ever lose him/her you will not want to live anymore, before they walk out of your life you will rather take their steps so you can always step back to them, you cant imagine a world without this person, u cant trust anyone but yourself, you will do anything in order to have this person forever in your heart, you will cry yourself to sleep when you’ve been hurt, you’ll miss them all the time, you never stop smiling when u are with them, you’ll always remember that first and last kiss, you’ll dream of them close to u and wake up crying thinking that the dream was real, you’ll have butterflies in your tummy every time you think of them, you’ll have to lie just in case you lose them, you’ll always picture there smile and put it in a frame, you’ll weep for them if they feel pain,

My Wish
i wish for a man to love me unconditionaly i wish for a man who will be my rock when im weak i wish for a man that makes me smile when im down i wish for a man that will make me laugh when im crying i wish for a man who holds on tight and never lets go i wish for a man who wont ever put me down i wish for a man who is proud of everything iam i wish for a man who wants to show me to the world as his ! i wish for a man who needs to be needed as much as i do i wish for a man who can allso be my best friend i wish for a man to be my other half my flipside of the coin i wish !

♥falling In Love ♥
When you think of your past love, you may view it is as a failure But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy Even if their happiness means that you’re not part of it Love strives in hurting If you don’t get hurt you don’t learn how to love Love doesn’t hurt all the time, though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow Don’t find love, let love find you That’s why it’s called falling in love because you don’t force yourself to fall You just fall The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else One who can love us even more than we can love ourselves On falling out of love take some time to heal and

Finger Eleven - "paralyzer"
Finger Eleven - "PARALYZER" I hold on so nervously To me and my drink I wish it was cooling me But so far has not been good It's been shitty And I feel awkward as I should This club has got to be The most pretentious thing Since I thought of you and me Well I am imagining A dark lit place Or your place or my place [Chorus] Well I'm not paralyzed but I seem to be struck by you I want to make you move Because you're standing still If your body matches what your eyes can do You'll probably move right through me on my way to you I hold out for one more drink Before I think I'm looking too desperately But so far has not been fun I should just stay home If one thing really means one This club will hopefully Be closed in three weeks That will be cool with me Well, I'm still imagining A dark lit place Or your place or my place [Chorus] x 3 You'll probably move right through me on my way to you You'll probably move right through me on my

Sex
1. Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when women make love they produce amounts of the hormone estrogen, which makes hair shine and skin smooth. ============= 2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow. ============= 3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that romantic dinner. ============= 4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and tones up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than swimming 20 laps, and you don't need special sneakers! ============= 5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you with a feeling of well-being. ============= 6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones. T

To Every Guy . . .
To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait" To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her. To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down. To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls. To every guy that said he would die for her. To every guy that really would. To every guy that did what she wanted to do. To every guy that cried in front of her. .... To every guy that she cried in front of... To every guy that holds hands with her. To every guy that kisses her with meaning. To every guy that hugs her when she's sad. To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all. To every guy who would give their jacket up for her. To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes..... To every guy that would give his seat up... To every guy that just wants to cuddle. To every

Liquid City
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10 Things Blog
Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird or random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose at least 5 people to be tagged, listing their names . Don't forget to leave a comment that says, "You're it!" on their profile and ask them to read your blog. You can't tag the person who tagged you. OK this isn't going to be easy since I already did one of 100...here we go.... 1.) I am shy around the guy I like but will flirt my head off with guys I am not attracted to. 2.) I pretend that I am dumber than I really am so guys don't feel intimidated. 3.) there is nothing more beautiful to me than the male body. I love it naked clothed half naked. I think God hit the nail on the head when he created man. 4.) I lost my virginity and recieved my first kiss on the same night. I move fast. 5.) I have broken up more relationships than I have been in. Maybe its my karma. 6.) I fell in love with someone who I barely know and its drivin

When Is It Wrong To Judge?
In today's society we are constantly hearing about how wrong it is to judge anyone for anything. But when is it actually wrong to judge someone? I believe the confusion comes in two types of judging another person. Those being: (1) Judging a person for who they are and/or what they believe and... (2) Judging a person to condemn them for who they are and/or what they beleive The first type is a type of judgment that we all do pretty much everyday of our lives. It is quite impossible to get to know anyone without judging them for who they are. It is also necessary to judge a person's character in order to protect ourselves from being hurt in some way. As you read this blog, or any of my other ones, you judge my character and my writing as you read. It is simply an innate action that we all have. It is also one that I do not see as being wrong in any way. You will actually judge my opinion, and therefore me as you read this!!! The second type of judgment, and the one I view

My Best Friend
I wanted to let the FuBar community know who my #1 priority and the love of my life is .......... Classc1. Of course, I have four other very important priorities but, she is my best friend and confidante. There is not a woman I have met in life that has her inner and outer beauty, that has her passion and caring. She is always willing to go that extra mile and put forth that effort to make things wonderful 100% of the time. One of the things I love about her the most is her shy smile. Another is how she tells me good bye on the phone in her sweet sexy way. What most people don't understand is when you are given something special it is a once in a lifetime chance. When I met Rebecca, I was at a low point and unsuspecting. She has taught me to love with a new passion and believe that there happy relationships still. She is truly my once in a lifetime. I will never meet another woman like her and no other woman could ever hope to be what she is to me. She has a body to die for and has i

Sexy And Baby Nicks
what is with the over flow of "Sexy" and "Baby" or even "crazy" in a lady's nick?...why are these words used way to much.i have seen some women that do not have the right to have sexy in there names lol.

Everyone Wants Something
You know when you've been hurt so much and you're sick to the stomach, and how you feel as though you just want to be alone, but you also want someone to care, but feel that no one does, because no one really understands what you're going through. and it angers you when they say they empathize, but they DONT. they dont know how much it hurts, how worthless you feel, because who wants to live in a world where it seems as though 50 percent of the people you let into your life is out to hurt you. smash you to pieces. leaving you with nothing but the empty remains of a heart touched by pure cruelty. and you have to move on, mending not only your heart, but your spirit, your soul, your entire being. you questioned everyone in your life, and try to place a reason as of why each of them should be there. do they hurt you? or do they love you? what do they mean to you, and what do they WANT from you? i mean dont be so naive, EVERYONE wants SOMETHING from life. and

Sexual 411
I stole this from Endo, we both encourage others to steal and do it as well What is it that you absolutely need sexually? Um i dont NEED much but i want alot! What is something you have always wanted to try? bondage What is something you have never done in bed before? DP What time of day do you like to have sex? all of them What do you absolutely need to see to turn you on? seeing my partner hot and bothered or just plain enjoying themselves How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? Not too long, I love kissing and it will get me hard fast (if they are a good kisser)--imma agree with endo If someone was in the next room while you had sex would it make you nervous or excited? um happened last night and didn't really think about it to much Would it bother you if your bf/gf got naked at a beach or river? um prolly not Have you ever faked an orgasm? oh yea What Part of your body are you self-conscious about? stomach

They Are Not Monsters
I have always supported Pit Bulls and have always known that it is the owners who make them monsters not the dogs being born monsters, but now that we have a bully pit (Pit bull crossed with an American bulldog) I am all the more anti b.s.l (breed specific legislation). The more I research the breed and the more I come to know our little guy Bowser the more I realize how truly great these dogs are. They are depicted as natural born killers, monsters that are bread to be nothing more than vicious fighting/killing machines. And like most everything else the media is shedding the wrong light on these sweet, loving creatures. American Pit Bull Terriers are a wonderful breed, they are very intelligent, loyal, sweet, family dogs who have a very high eagerness and will to please their owners. And it is when that eagerness and determination to please is placed into the wrong hands that they become the fighting, aggressive dogs that most people have come to believe they are. It is not them but

Back For More!
After taking a long break from fubar, I am back. Thanks to those who sent me messages while I was gone. Was nice to know I was missed. Finally got hubby to get on fubar. We will see how he likes it. Feel free to get in touch with me. I don't mind talking to people from all over. Friends are great. To people who live in my area, come on down to Daisy Dukes on Saturdays and lets get shit faced for real. Always at the back bar with the hottest bartenders/shot girls around. For those that keep asking for more pictures, grow up please. The next time someone asks me to post more pictures, they will be blocked. I have already had a couple female friends quit fubar because of being hounded for pictures. Fubar is not about the pictures, well not only about pictures.

Being New
i am not new to this site this is actually my second time here..i was level 25 when i deleted the first one i had..i know how things work here and here is a few things i like to say 1.) i do not cyber 2.) dont ask for my number you wont get it 3.) do not ask to meet me cuz its not happening 4.) im here for friends and that is it 5.) not sure if im going to make a salute or not..i havent made up my mind yet

Make Me Fucking Famous!
Ok so we all know that I work damn hard to promote myself and my site online right? Well the fact of the matter is there are millions of girls online doing this everyday. I like to think I am special because I have a ton of REAL talents that I use and have used to get where I am. I have been blogging for quite some time before I even introduced my first photo on my blog showing what I really look like. I have some solid good looks but the fact of the matter is that to become well known you need good little boys and girls working for you to get you to the top. This is where I decided to work on a project that I need all of you to help me with. You can dedicate your life to helping or you can just throw in a little work in your spare time to help me become the big bright shining star that you all know me to be There are tons of ways to help promote me and my site: 1. Make a LJ, myspace, or other random social networking site group/fan club for me. 2. Find various cont

Living On
The enemy tries to attack but I wont let him take my life. Sometimes I fall but I get back up-not eatin dust- standing up is a must. People criticize they choose to see with judgement in their eyes, not knowing the real me, not knowing on somethings we agree. Those who say "just move on" who are they? Pain is differant for everyone for some it kills them while the live on.

~for Whats True~ (7/27/08)
i just cant understand why you want me...please dont appease me...honestly do you really need me?..what could it be?..are you still in love with me?..is it my attention you crave...its yours this and everyday...but please love if you dont need me let me run free...you cant be what i need you to be for me...and until then you cant be with me...so call if you like...you can even write...just dont make me continue to love you, if you want her to love you to...

Imagine Me There...(this Is Nasty)
Imagine me there as you close your eyes I’m gliding my hand between your thighs I unzip your pants, and take off your shirt You unsnap my bra, and take off my skirt Kissing you soft down to your tip In and out, “May I have a sip?” A precious swallow of your dripping lust In and out, can I make you bust? To feel your pleasure down my throat In and out, make me choke! Teasing my tongue across your love Passed my lips, again I shove Pushing your trust out and in Coat my throat once again! My sweet cream fills, as you gush Between my legs I’ve turned to mush You push me down and beg to lead I lie on my back and act naive You grip my sides and hold them tight Resist your appetite with all your might Feel the heat between my hips Slide your tongue between my lips Massage my clit and make me drip Glide your finger and let it slip Between my legs, but back a bit Soft and slow so it will fit “Oh shit, Daddy…” you’re ‘bout to taste My seductive pleasure down your face

Im Fucked So Bad Rn
ok the meaning of life is 42 i want the owlrd to know this and thers is i true division of pie but ione must look into urself and searchj the surrounding of the soul and FIND WHAT that life can be divide by and threw the yellow triange all asnwers come from and all anserws are for rember this when the clocks melts at 3 am the deamon face flying with the crows

Cam-skanks, Leave Me Alone
I used to have a fubar account a year ago, I deleted it and just came back. No one is talking to me at all. I mean the only people who have tried to talk to me were CAM-SKANKS. Strippers are cool and all,.. there is no confusion about what is going on. You identify quickly that these are not real people, they are characters. Usally very morally compromised jaded women, pretending to be innocent and hungry,.. when they are anything but. You walkinto a STRIP CLUB and you knwo what is in there. Strippers Stripping,.. and people paying $$ for it. CAMSKANKS... leave me alone. Make all the pouty faces you want. i hope you make lots of $$ and get a sensation of adoration or what ever you get out of the experience. But when I thnk someone is trying to genuinely strike up a conversation with me,.. and I stop what I am doing to be cordial and socialable... and find out it's just some 19yr old girl, who thinks she is a lot hotter than she is, trynig to make money being wh

Almost There
SO as some of you may already know. I run my own website. We are almost ready to launch it. There are still a few things I want to add and we ran into a few kinks to work out. But hopefully with in the next 2 weeks we will be up and running.

The Only Thing Worse Then Backseat Drivers
Is backseat video game players..ach! my mother is horrible for it, almost like she tries to coach me thru games. I HATE IT!!!! so does my oldest son..8 years old and thinks hes better at games then me... ok well he is BUT I have been playing them longer dammit!! Anywho I think this little clip is rather funny and I know im not the only gamer on here so some might know exactly where this dude and myself are coming from. Later days!

2/26
Well things are starting to look up. Our income is improving and I have been feeling better. Alot of the time, I feel so down and drepressed and dont want to do anything. But the the last 2 weeks I have been getting better. I have been getting more around the house done, working more on site, spending more time with the family and everything. I hope things keep going this way! lol

Pondering
So Ive been working through a temp agency since the end of last June (08) at this company. I really enjoy it here and like most of my co-workers. Since November (08) they have been talking about hiring me on permanent. Then I went downtown to help them cover at one of their sites. While there I was told I would be hired on at the beginning of the New Year, and then I was told that when I returned from downtown they would do it. Now it’s over a month later and no word. I keep getting the run around about my position and if they plan on keeping me. I’m wondering how much longer I should wait this out. Should I just say fuck it and move on, find something better. Because right now I don’t have good benefits with the temp service. I’m very confused at this point and frustrated because I can’t go without a job!! Please feel free to comment....

Your Not Alone
my name is joe I am here for the weak that can not stick up for themselves and are tiered of being bullied by thugs and wanna be gangsters being a proud man is not a crime they will make you feel as it is but it is not I love all my brothers and sisters godbless

Threesome
Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Monica 2. Sweetie 3. Mon Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Pic-N-Save 2. Wal-Mart 3. DSA being a PSA Three Places I have lived 1. GA 2. AL 3. IN Three TV Shows that I watch 1. Real World 2. 106 And Park 3. ABDC Three places I have been 1. My bed, lol. 2. Flordia 3. Your house, lol. Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. Adam 2. April 3. Lauren Three of my favorite foods 1. Chinese 2. Pizza 3. Mexican Three things I would like to do 1. Sky Dive 2. Fall in love (True real love) 3. Smoke weed with Snoop or Lil Wayne, lol. Three friends I think will respond 1. Adam 2. April 3. Ashley Things I am looking forward to 1. Lil Wayne 2. Movin

Not Again...tagged Again....lmao
Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Hard_Rock 2. Darrin 3. Big D Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Farmer/Rancher 2. Insurance sellsman 3. Network Tech Three Places I have lived 1. North Dakota 2. North Dakota 3. I need to move..lol Three TV Shows that I watch 1. Heroes 2. American Idol 3. UFC fighting Three places I have been 1. Germany 2. Panama 3. Honduras Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. Penis enlargement ads...lmao 2. Viagra..lol 3. Cialis..lol Three of my favorite foods 1. Steak 2. Shrimp 3. Lobster Three things I would like to do 1. Get the person back that sent me this...he he 2. Live in Florida.... 3. Get Scuba certified Three friends I think will respond 1.

Lovers Hand's
Darkness or a lovers hand. Rage or happiness. How can these two feelings mesh? I feel them but dont understand them! This rollercoaster we call life is killing me. Up,up,up,DOWN. An old love at mind, a new friend in touch. Witch path is true? People and there words seem to make me angry...

Lost In Thought
HERE I SIT LOST IN MY THOUGHTS . LOST IN MY OWN MIND AND CANT FIND MY WAY OUT. HOW DID I GET HERE YOU ASK? THIS I CAN NOT ANSWER. I WALKED OUT IN THE LIGHT AND FOUND HAPPINESS . I FOUND JOY AND WARMTH BUT MOST OF ALL I FOUND LOVE. NOW WE ALL KNOW WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU FIND THAT DONT WE? IT ALL TURNS TO SORROW COLD AND PAIN. BUT I WANT TO BELIEVE IT WONT HAPPEN THIS TIME . NOT TO ME . NOT TO HER. BUT CAN I MAKE IT LAST FOR US? I DO NOT KNOW . I FEEL SO CLOSE TO HER TODAY THEN I FEEL SO FAR PUSHED AWAY TOMORROW. IS IT ME? IS IT HER ? IS IT REAL. WOULD IT CHANGE IF I COULD HOLD HER? WOULD IT MAKE A DIFFERENCE IF SHE LOOKED INTO MY EYES AND SAW MY LOVE FOR HER? WOULD I SEE THE LOVE FOR ME IN HERS ? NOW YOU SEE WHY IM LOST IN MY THOUGHTS. IS THERE A MAP TO HAPPINESS OR IS THAT WISHFUL THINKING . CAN YOU HELP ME FIND MY WAY ? OR IS THAT MORE WISHFUL THINKING . CAN I BE LOVED OR IS THAT THE BIGGEST OF WISHFUL THINING ?

Me
I HAVE SAT IN THE DARK LONG ENOUGH!!!!!!!!! THAT IS IT I AM OUT OF HERE.. TIME TO LIVE TIME TO BREATH TIME TO LET SOMEONE LOVE ME AND TO LOVE SOMEONE !!! WHO IS SHE YOU ASK I DONT KNOW YET MAYBE SHE IS OUT THERE MAYBE NOT BUT I WILL NOT FIND HER HERE WILL I ? I AM READY TO LIVE READY TO FEEL YOUNG AND IN LOVE AGAIN . AND THIS WILL HAPPEN YOU KNOW WHY . BECAUSE I WANT IT . AND I WILLL HAVE IT BECAUSE I HAVE LIVED FOR TO MANY PEOPLE AND NOT FOR MYSELF AND THAT IS OVER . TIME TO LIVE FOR ME . TIME TO ENJOY LIFE TO THE FULLEST . AND NO ONE WILL STOP ME THIS TIME NOT THE PAST OR PRESENT !!!!!!!! I HAVE GOTTEN OVER THAT ROAD AND AM WALKING DOWN A NEW ONE . MY ROAD . MY ROAD OF HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!THERE IS GOING TO BE A NEW ME AND THE VERY OLD ME MIGHT COME BACK IF YOU DONT LIKE IT GUESS WHAT WHO GIVES A FAT BABY FUCK I DO AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS RIGHT !!!!!!!!!!!! SO LET THE OLD DIE AND THE NEW BEGIN AS OF NOW . SOME WILL SEE THE CHANGE IN ME RIGHT AWAY SOME WONT OH WELL YOU WILL SOON !

.lil Wayne.
Ridin round the city wit some brand new heat Brand new car, brand new feet Brand new seats, brand new smell Put out the roach and lite a brand new L Fuck u bitch I'm actin brand new Fuck u bitch my shirt brand new Fuck u bitch my shoes brand new Fuck u bitch I'm actin brand new ♥

The Little Red Hen In 2009 America
THE LITTLE RED HEN simply stated........"Who will help me Plant My Wheat?" 'Not I,' said the cow. 'Not I,' said the duck. 'Not I,' said the pig. 'Not I,' said the goose. 'Then I will do it by myself,' said the little red hen, and so she did. The wheat grew very tall and ripened into golden grain. 'Who will help me reap my wheat?' asked the little red hen. 'Not I,' said the duck.. 'Out of my classification,' said the pig. 'I'd lose my seniority,' said the cow. 'I'd lose my unemployment compensation,' said the goose. 'Then I will do it by myself,' said the little red hen, and so she did. At last it came time to bake the bread. 'Who will help me bake the bread?' asked the little red hen. 'That would be overtime for me,' said the cow. 'I'd lose my welfare benefits,' said the duck. 'I'm a dropout and never learned how,' said the pig. 'If I'm to be the only helper, that's discrimination,' said the goose. 'Then I will do it by myself,' said the little red hen. She bake

Cell Phone Survey
1. What is your current ringtone? Depends on who's calling 2. What is your current wallpaper? Tamara Lynn's Tree on their carport 3. Do you own a picture phone? Yes 4. If so, what was the last picture you took? When Meatball came inside soaked the other day 5. Go to your text message inbox and type what the 10th text message says? "Can I put my contacts in real quick to show dad. plz?" 6. How many contacts do you have on your phone? OMG Lat I checked it was 98 8. Who was the last person you spoke to on your cell phone? Debbie 9. What service do you have? AT&T- Unlimited text, lotsa minutes, family talk 10. At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service? 5 11. Who's on your speed dial numbers? I don't do speed dial 12. Do you have voicemail? Yes 13. How many contacts that start with the letter J do you have and who are they? 4. Jacob, Jessica, Jim & Julia 14. Who do you call the most? The kids, Debbie 15. H

Goodbye Forever And Never Again
every payweek i delete my fubar and make a new one, and buy another 3 month vip for myself. i never reach level 22, and im tired of people not helping, especially if all i rate is those with auto11s or cherrybombs, im sick of people not returning love. i have tried now six times to go from zero to level 22 in two weeks, nobody cares unless you have auto11s, which i never have, since i cannot afford it.

Bad Time Of Year
This is a horrible time of year for me.. not because of Valentines day or my birthday reminding me im not young anymore.. but because this time of year comes my crappy anniversaries.. 1 of them being when my ex of 7 years and I broke up.. followed a week after by my finding out i had cancer.. which i honestly only found out because we broke up.. good things from what seems to be crappy things.. so yeah.. 3 years now since my cancer diagnosis.. and 6 months away from my 3 years of being in remission but it still scares the shit out of me knowing it could come back anytime.. .. wait til mothers day.. that will be my 2 year anniversary from almost bleeding to death at the hospital.. my poor mother.. im sitting there going im sorry mom.. happy mothers day but im ok if i die..SOOO much pain! Dialudid barely cut it and the morphine made it worse.. im lucky to be alive and i know that.. i have to remind myself that when things seems shitty.. well i could be dead *shrugs*

Rules Of Mississippi
1. Pull your droopy pants up. You look like an idiot. 2. Let's get this straight; it's called a "gravel road." I drive a pickup truck because I want to. No matter how slow you drive, you're going to get dust on your Lexus. Drive it or get out of the way. 3. They are cattle. That's what they smell like to you. They smell like money to us. Get over it. Don't like it? I-20 go east and west, I-55 goes north and south. Pick one. 4. So you have a $60,000 car. We're impressed. We have $250,000 cotton strippers that are driven only 3 weeks a year. 5. So every person in every pickup waves. It's called being friendly. Try to understand the concept. 6. If that cell phone rings while a bunch of doves are coming in, we WILL shoot it out of your hand. You better hope you don't have it up to your ear at the time. 7. Yeah, we eat catfish &; crawfish. You really want sushi &; caviar? It's available at the corner bait shop. 8. The "Opener" refers to the first day of deer season. It'

Loss Of Jason(done By Mom Aka Cherkle Sept. 24th 1987 1 Month & 10 Days After Jay Died)
The pain is hard to handle. I miss his sweet smile in the mornings his face would light up so much when he smiles. The way he loved to sit up and look around. He would look when you held him up and he was looking at you or I. His smile would and look would make you feel so wonderful. He has twinkling blue eyes. He was our angel sent from heaven. His loved touched us all. But, God took our angel home with him. God is watching over our baby. We miss him so much our beautiful baby Jason and trying to go on living without him is very difficult because our love was so strong for him. His brother Chris misses Jason but, he loves Jason with all our hearts as we all do. Jason touched our lives to a great extent. The apartment is so quiet now. With no cries for a bottle or to be held. No rush to a crying baby. Our hearts and arms ache for our Jason. No other baby will ever take his place in our lives. He will always be our second baby. He his our angel. Our lives continue to

2nd Entry - The Bleeding Of Me
When I decided to add this Blog today, I wasn't sure where I was going with it, I just knew that I wanted to spit what my mind was thinking and felt the desire to share it. Why, why not? Don't like it, please don't read. What is my hope is that I will find the woman who will be the other half of my heart on FUBAR. Stranger things have happened. I had a woman email me the other day and tell me I was beautiful, not that should never happen ha ha. This entry started to develop in my head a few hours ago. Anyone who's ever been around deer hunters might understand this, and, I am sorry for those who this offends, I just don't know how else to describe the feels. Too many times in my life, I have felt like a deer tied in a garage to bleed out. Its one thing to have your heart broken, but it's another to be totally blooded. I don't ever want to experience that again. So I will not step into this last step easily. This partial poem that I started a month or more ago, and

Favorite Song
Lay Your Head Down Written by: Mike McClure Performed by: Mike McClure You were my shining light When there wasn't much light to be found The darkness had covered me And emptiness was abound You had such a smile on you It brightened up my day And I would walk to the ends of this earth Just to hear you say Chorus: Say that it's alright Lay your head down on me Close your eyes babe And set yourself free I know that you're tired Of being so alone Open your heart babe Let my love take you home Now I was a drifter Out in the night You were called to me With your shining light The waves of yesterday Well you made them all lie down And you pulled me into you So I wouldn't drown Repeat Chorus You are my shining light in the darkness You are my hope at the end of the day You are my everything I must confess And now baby just let me hear you say

5th Entry
I have a hard time when ever I talk about what I seek in a woman, because I get caught up in the thinking of "why do I think I deserve such a woman" or "who am I to expect so much". Being a natural sales person, of course I have some conceit, but much of it has been beaten out of me over the years of failure to find what I needed in my life. So before I decided to write this today, I spent some time thinking about the person I am and have come to realize that, if my previous entries were true, which they were, then the love I offer to a woman is better than most and I should not be afraid to expect to have a woman be better than most. So again to my readers, your always welcome to comment and tell me I'm crazy and that I don't deserve what I seek. Or that I will never find what I am looking for. But in my mind and heart I have always believed that I deserved happiness for a lifetime. And also that if God made me to be the way I am, then he will have made women that can

Income Opportunity With Escape International
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Gotta Love Strip Clubs~
I was standing at the bar alone, waiting for my drink when she walked up. The hottest girl in the whole place. Not a dancer here looked a tenth as good as she did. Thing was she wasn't really dressed like one of the dancers. She was very sexy in a cage back black dress and leather boots. But they looked like clothes a woman would for a night on the town not a night dancing for men in a topless club. But I had to ask, you never know. "Um, excuse me I was wondering if I could get a dance?" She just looked at me and smiled for a second before replying, ”I'm sorry I don't work here." "Oh I'm sorry I didn't know I wasn't. . . " "I know its okay." "Well can I buy you a drink? I mean if you're not here with anyone." "Sure I'm alone." After our drinks and a couple minutes of silence in which I furtively snatched glances of the stunning woman standing next to me, I screwed up enough courage to ask, "What’s your name?" "Mandy." She replied extending her hand in my direction.

America And Americans
"America is the wealthiest nation on Earth, but its people are mainly poor, and poor Americans are urged to hate themselves. To quote the American humorist Kin Hubbard, 'It ain't no disgrace to be poor, but it might as well be.' It is in fact a crime for an American to be poor, even though America is a nation of poor. Every other nation has folk traditions of men who were poor but extremely wise and virtuous, and thereforre more estimable than anyone with power and gold. No such tales are told by the American poor. They mock themselves and glorify their betters. The meanest eating or drinking etstablishment, owned by a man who is himself poor, is very likely to have a sign on its wall asking this cruel question: 'If you're so smart, why ain't you rich?' There will also be an American frag no larger than a child's hand - glued to a lollipop stick and flying from the cash register." "Americans, like human beings everywhere, believe many things that are obviously untrue,... . Their mos

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So today has so far been like, well boring LOL. I've been alive since 3am, mainly waking up to some nice jaw pain. No I didnt into a fight altho that would be entertaining. Took some killers, and then played games half the morning. Now I'm here on fubar looking for good conversations, and such. Might have fun on the MUMMs later. Right now I'm hanging in Dirty Little Secrets. An Awesome lounge. Dont know it? WELL GO TO IT!! http://fubar.com/lounge/50080 Anyways see yaz around!

Ahhhh....
So I don't get much sleep since the explosion, and with as normal as that has become, I am EXHAUSTED! Not quite two hours away from the end of a 13+ hour shift, and all I can think about is sleep. I don't feel well, and my entire body aches. I want nothing more than to be in my bed with Patrick's arms around me and the children asleep down the hall. It doesn't sound like too much to ask for, is it?

3.8.09 Part 2 (includes Me Getting Rid Of My Myspace Acct)
As I stated earlier. I had made a lot of decisions and simplifying things. Well one of those things I am simplifying is getting rid of my 19,000+ friend myspace acct. I dont want to just delete it, so if you interested in taking it off my hands, simply send an offer to my shoutbox r inbox. ==================================================== In other news.... Club Twiss had to close last night. The owner thought her computer was fucked up but come to find out it was just her music player. Unfortunately she had closed Twiss before realizing this. If you were coming to Twiss her new lounge is called Suga Drips.

Freakstar
HEY THERE EVERYONE GUESS WHO'S HOT AND ALWAYS THERE FOR HER FRIENDS? YOU GUESSED IT!!! FREAKSTAR!!!!!!! SO EVERYONE DO ME A BIG FU FAVOR AND RATE FAN ADD BLING CRUSH BOMB THIS WONDERFUL WONDERFUL WOMAN!!! THIS PIMPOUT BROUGHT TO YOU IN PART BY... FUBAR...WHEN A TREE FALLS IN THE FOREST....DOES THE POPE STILL SHIT IN THE WOODS? AND BY... ME...ZOOKS!!!

Relay For Life
hey guys!! I was wondering if any of my loving friends would like to donate to the American Cancer Society and the Relay for Life. I am on the team (actually I took the role of team captain) and am trying to raise money. You can visit my personal page and make a donation online. When you donate you are helping thousands of cancer patients....your donations help to fund research so that one day a cure will be found for all cancers! Please think about it and visit my Relay page to donate. (I hope this works...copy and paste to visit my page) http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RFLFY09SA?pg=personal&fr_id=13046&fr_id=13046&px=4367395 thanks so much!! ~~smooches~~

Never Forget Who U Are
It seems that some of us from time to time lose sight of who we are. I mean who we are on the inside, not some image we try to project to other people. i can hoinestly say that i am a country music lover, a cowboy, an indian, and a recovering alcoholic. These things are what made me who i am today, and despite some bad occurences in my life, i wouldnt trade it for the world. I have a lot of love to give to the world, and i try to share that with everyone in my life. My battle with alcohol isnt one i always win, but i keep trying. And as long as God doesnt give up on me, i wont either.

On Mind (part 3 - The Nature Of Ants)
The prior conversation was more or less wrapped up with this after a lot more nonsense which I have edited out for sake of sanity and brevity.. Do you believe in emergent properties? in what now? ... Nevermind. ok then After this I had a private chat with CaptainJack: Session Start: Fri Mar 06 07:37:47 2009 Session Ident: CaptainJack I'm quite interested in the emergent properties of complex interacting systems which is how I view "mind" actually Heh what is interesting is how you can end up with properties that seem to be greater than the sum of their parts Yeah .. it is interesting stuff, but I won't make any pretense on my understanding it. I just like how when you asked if he believed in emergent properties and saw he had no concept you just gave up :p I'm going back to bed soon anyway, and had not the energy to deal with it. But really, to say cyberspace doesn't exist .. come on. It is real, it exists .. but it's not one computer or even one

Pain And Suffering Due To Stupidity!
OL dating is it worth the time? I am wonder why do ppl even bother? I tried and all I felt was utter loniness for that person across the country I think it's playing games with your mind and unhealty really....

One Day Left!
Yes tomorrow I will finally find out what the hell is going on with me, I'm not ready to hear what the doctor will be saying however I have no choice, either that or do nothing at all, which would be the worst thing to do at this point. I will let you all know once I hear what type of treatment I'll be getting, also my mother is still really bad off although I did talk with her today and she sounds so much better than what she did before, I am thankful for that. Anyways if you all would please pray me her & I both, I'd be most grateful to you all.... Much love always from your friend Jaime!

Letter To Irs
"Dear IRS, I'm sorry to inform you that I'm not going to be able to pay the taxes owed on April 15th, but all is not lost. I paid these taxes, accounts receivable tax, building permit tax, CDL tax, corporate income tax, dog license tax, federal income tax, unemployment tax, gas tax, hunting license tax, fishing license tax, waterfowl stamp tax, inheritance tax, inventory tax, liquor tax, luxury tax, Medicare tax, city tax, school and county property tax up to 33% the last four years. Real estate tax, Social Security tax, road use tax, toll road tax, state and city sales tax, recreational vehicle tax, sales franchise tax, state unemployment tax, federal excise tax, telephone tax, telephone federal state and local surcharge tax, telephone minimum usage surcharge tax, telephone state and local tax, utility tax, vehicle tax, registration tax, capital gains tax, lease severance tax, oil and gas assessment tax, Colorado property tax, Texas, Colorado, Wyoming, Oklahoma, Mexico sales tax and m

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On Mind (part 7 - "fractal Like")
We are nearing the end here - a rough attempt on my part to prove the case for an intelligent universe. A view of God that might not be familiar to many of you. A view of reality that is not often considered... noone has anything to say one way or the other on these claims of mine? * Aeloi pouts what claim lol, far too much to repeat I wrote a book today i was away doing stuff, just sat back down and was scrolling back, basically i agree heh * Zumarraga has joined #christiandebate * SeekHim sets mode: +v Zumarraga reliationships every where, connections everywhere, , exactly what happens within a singularity * SeekHim sets mode: +l 44 my claim Sanrio, without going into the novel like proofs, is that reality is a conscious mega fractal hologram or at least - that is a good way of viewing it a "model" for it What is your evidence for this claim? everything to sum it up as consicely as possible constituent parts State how everything is good evidence to

He Needs To Be Godfather!!
OK PEOPLE THIS IS A CALL TO ALL.. I HAVE A REALLY COOL GUY HERE FOR YOU ALL HE WANTS IS A LITTLE HELP UP THE LADDER. HE IS WELL ON HIS WAY TO BEING GODFATHER. WHAT I AM ASKING YOU TO DO IS SIMPLE AND OF NO EFFORT WHATSOEVER. I WANT YOU TO GO ADD / FAN / RATE HIM BLING & CRUSH HIM DO WHATEVER IT TAKES JUST HELP HIM GET TO THE NEXT RUNG OF THE LADDER IN SHORT GO GET HIM FOLKS...................... HERE HE IS............................... $@M i$ Bl@ZiN @k@ Mo$T NotoRiOu$ THIS PROMOTION HAS BEEN BROUGHT TO YOU COURTESY OF ¢å®®iê¤ õwñèd ß¥ Ğêð

Wanna Own Me
Take this opportunity to OWN MEEEE!!!! Check it out... I'm up on the auction block!!!!! Auction is OPEN and will close on March 14th at MIDNIGHT. Bidding starts at 100 K fubucks. I'd REALLY like a VIP. Who wants to make me happy???? Other acceptable bids: **Tickers** **Bling Packs** **Blasts** **VIP's** **Happy Hours** hell yes~its jess~

I Dare You To Repost This!!
(1) Is there anyone on your top friends list you would have sex with? Oh yeah! And they know it!! 2) Sex in the morning, afternoon or night or all of them? How can i choose.....i have to say both. (3) Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke? fuck yeah and it sucks! (4) Have you ever taken your clothes off for money? no just for pleasure but i've gotten money and gave it away....lmao. (5) Shower or bath while having sex!!!! shower...mmmmmmmmm (6) Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed? aggressive (7) Do you like someone in your friends list? yup a few crushes (8) Love or Money? Love.... (9) Credit card or cash? I always have my bank card on me... (10) Have you ever wanted a best girl friend. I have a few actually. (11) Camping or a 5 star hotel? both (12) Where is the weirdest place you have had sex? hmmm....a cemetary...lmao. (13) Would you shave your entire body (Including your head) everything but

The Ghost Of You
Unaccepted the truth For so long that you're gone. Sitting here, looking at The shattered glass in the photo. How can I move on. Only the candles Provide the light To my tears, weeping in sorrow. I can't get you out Of my tormented mind! Feeling your hand Rest on my shoulder I go to touch it To find you're not there The ghost of you, resides here. I wish you would Just fully leave my heart This pain, too great for me to deal I cant move on. I'm closing the doors, to my life. The Ghost of you, It lingers here Playing games with my heart. The ghost of you, is the last I see. As I jump, to fall 50 floors down. The Ghost of you.

Lucky Quiz!
Four-Leaf Clover I love luck and luck loves me. Luck is on my side, and I'm going to do what I can to keep it that way. Lucky Quiz » QuizRocket.com's fun quizzes! ~ Barack Obama IQ ~ Honeymoon Sweepstakes ~ The Dumb Test ~ Quizzes | Movie Trivia & Movie Quizzes | Dumb MySpace Quotes

Another Song For Me" Always Young At Heart"..
I Am Not A Girl, Not Yet A Woman I Am Not A Girl, Not Yet A Woman Britney Spears (Britney) I used to think I had the answers to everything Mm but now I know That life doesn't always go my way. Yeah [ Britney Spears Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ] Feels like I'm caught in the middle That's when I realize I'm not a girl Not yet a woman All I need is time A moment that is mine While I'm in between I'm not a girl

.r.i.p. Test
The Associated Press issued the following article: Ex-WWE champ, Andrew Martin, found dead in Fla. TAMPA, Fla. (AP) — Authorities say former professional wrestler Andrew Martin, who was known as "Test" and "The Punisher" to fans, has died at his Tampa home. He was 33. The former World Wrestling Entertainment champion was found dead at his apartment Friday night. Police say a neighbor reported that she could see into his apartment window and that Martin appeared motionless for several hours. Police say there was no indication of foul play. A cause of death will be determined after an autopsy. During his time with Stamford, Conn.-based World Wrestling Entertainment, Martin held the Intercontinental, European and Hardcore belts. He was also a tag-team champion. Martin most recently worked for TNA Wrestling under the name "The Punisher."

Moonlight Love
Under the stars and milkyway Almost full moon with a kiss As the fire burns in our souls My legs are weak As your breathe is taken away We let out the smoke Fall into each others arms While the moon becomes filled Shooting stars will take the sky As the light recleas off our souls Holding hands Walking bearfoot in the wet grass Moon shining off the rain drops Kiss to seal the deal Wolf howls in the night As the one Star shines the brightest While two souls join together My mind skips While you bit your lips As the shots warm us up This is our love song

Red Wolf Of Whom There Are Three
Red Wolf, of whom there are three, beckons the Hunt. He searches the Valleys of Plenitude and Hills of Contemplation for his quarry, his prey. Amongst the Herds proud and mighty he hunts, there to cull the weak, lame, disabled and disabling thoughts, memories, and feelings that lurk in the darkened recesses of my Life's experience. Fear, hostility, denial, pain and remorse are abundant food for this Warrior of Spirit's design. Unto Consciousness he renders service. Cleansed of the emotionally scarred members is the herd; assured now are survival, vitality, swiftness, viability and endurance of the Whole. Having but one calling, to remove that which is debilitating to the herd, he will feast upon that which is willingly relinquished. If nothing is willfully offered, then must he rip asunder from the belly of the drove that which is in fear of surrender, for Red Wolf must-and Red Wolf will-cull the herd of its weakness. Thence to his mate does he carry his treasure. White Wolf, She-Wol

Friends
What is a friend? I wouldn't know because I barely have any. The ones I had lied and cheated, back stabbed and crossed boundaries they knew they shouldn't. I, obviously, am a friend of convenience to most people who claim to be my friend. It's okay, I would rather have only a few true friends, than a bunch of fakes who I obviously mean nothing to.

Sagittarius Woman
A Sagittarius woman lacks tact and her flat, on-the-face statements may make you feeling like running away from her. Then, suddenly, she will say something so charming that you will feel as if you are on the seventh heaven. There, you go again! You will be trapped in her charm once more. Once you have been enamoured by a Sagittarius girl, you will be staying with her for a long time. She is pleasant, friendly, outspoken and very talkative. Her forthrightness comes form the fact that she has no illusions about the world. She sees it exactly as it is and says what she sees. At times, you may wish that she were not so honest. But then, she would be like any other girl, wouldn't she? In all probability, you will not like it. A Sagittarian female is very optimistic, but she is not irrational. She will judge the entire situation as per the facts, analyze its probable outcome and still believe that things will get better. Usually, she is very calm and composed. However, when you become rude t

Soulmate
Incompatible, it don't matter though 'cos someone's bound to hear my cry Speak out if you do You're not easy to find Is it possible Mr. Loveable Is already in my life? Right in front of me Or maybe you're in disguise Who doesn't long for someone to hold Who knows how to love you without being told Somebody tell me why I'm on my own If there's a soulmate for everyone Here we are again, circles never end How do I find the perfect fit There's enough for everyone But I'm still waiting in line Who doesn't long for someone to hold Who knows how to love you without being told Somebody tell me why I'm on my own If there's a soulmate for everyone If there's a soulmate for everyone Most relationships seem so transitory They're all good but not the permanent one Who doesn't long for someone to hold Who knows how to love you without being told Somebody tell me why I'm on my own If there's a soulmate for everyone Who doesn't long for someone to hold Who k

Myles Recipe' Chicken Curry With Mushroom.
ahh, one of the thing that i religiously do is cooking, meals are important for me... and my favorite place at home is my kitchen, and take note the tidiest place too, i hate stingy messy kitchen'... lol, just wanna share my recipe today'..

That Someone Knowes Who He Is
just to let everyone know fubar is a fun place to meet new people. i have been on here for a month now and have meet some cool guys on here, but i meet one special person on here i just thought we would only be friends but it turns out that me and him like a lot of the samethings and he is fun to hang out with. when im with him i can be myself and he likes that bout me. i spent 6 days with him and it was the best thing that could have happen to me. he is a very good guy but he doesnt know that somethings he says to me might hurt but if he knows im mad it knows how to make me happy again i never beleived in love at first sight until i met him. i just wished he knew how much i loved him and that i would do anything for him as long it doesnt get us into trouble but i just hope everything works out with us b/c i dont know what i do without him in my life my heart would be broking if we arent together so i hope he reads this so he knows how i feel.... baby i love you more then you wi

Mystidangerous 4 Spotlight
imikimi - Customize Your World! Mysty's Going For The For Fubar! And She Is Asking All Of You For Help, So She To Can Achieve Before She Makes God Mother! She Has Around 13 Million Fubux And She Needs Your Help To Reach 37 Million More

This Is Me Like It Or Not
I am a little insecure and I have crazy mood swings I have fucked up and been fucked up. I don't know what I want from time to time. I say things I don't mean and take them back. I have trust problems but who don't. I cry for no reason at all. I trip over my own feet, I say stupid things, I do stupid things, I will bust out singing at anytime, I dance like a tard, I can make people laugh, I have a big heart and will help anyone if they need the help. I smoke, I drank from time to time, I embarass myself, I spill shit, I question everything that is told to me. there is so much more but if you want to talk too me or date me this is what you get like it or not. I am not changing for anyone and I don't won't anyone to change for me.

Who Is The True Soldier
The age old question will probably never be answered only because can it really be answered???? Everyone has opinions and I would like to know yours, feel free to comment after you have read this: My name is SSG Michael James, and I am currently over in Iraq serving our great American Country once more, and I would like to think that everyone knows and cares about the soldiers that are in our lives... But who is the soldier? Is it someone like me, has a rank and wears a uniform, goes everywhere in the world helping to protect not only the people back home, but the people where they are??? I would like to share with you a conversation that I had with my wife Kristi James.. Can you answer the question on who the true soldier really is?? I know what my feelings on it are, and now you do too.. Kristi James says: you make a sexy man husband father and soldier Michael James says: and you are the most beautiful wife mother and soldier that I have ever known, or will ever

A.k.a. Happiedevil
I'm here for 2 reasons.To kill boredom while @ home & to be re united w/ my buddies that live outta state.Karah420 is my beautiful wife & we're quite happy 2gether.I work insane hrs. and I have 3 daughters but only get to see my oldest.I'm filled w/ emptiness at the loss of my twins.I will get them back.

Icp Most Of The Time Its Me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause It Dont Matter
It ain't no point to me waking up, everybody's time I'm taking up, I got nobody, it ain't a shoulder near, I can't stay here and it's colder there, I don't wanna look back cause it's gonna hurt, I slice my wrist and it's gonna squirt, For me everybody holds a hate, I got backstabbed and everybody holds the stake, it's no roads to take I'm in a circle drive, bustin' at myself and I'm tryna survive, I'll disappoint you, and I will let you down, and I ain't got many home boys comin' round, you don't understand so don't say you do, I swear I'll put a mother fuckin' slug in you, I'm the only one, the lonely one, and at home loading a gun thinking why not? I got court comin' up, I stole a truck, I got a bitch pregnant and I'm broke as fuck, I wanna get high but i got piss test, I'm always first name on top of the shit list, get this, the witch has made my chest, it's permanent nightly visiting nest, it ain't no clothes I look good in, I'm the mother fuckin' big red t

Chasing The Rain
Chasing the Rain I am so tired running one step behind the rain My soul is as dry as the desert sands I can see the rain as it falls It’s just inches from my outstretched hands My throat is dry and so is my heart I continue to loose ground with every step Refreshment in beyond my grasp Dust are the only tears I’ve wept The heat of the day I feel on my skin The sunlight scorches my back I try to scream for help My words fall to the ground and crack I am always close enough to smell But can never seem to take a taste My soul shrinks with each passing moment O’ this life was such a waste How does it seem others find a way? To tolerate this life and quell the pain My days are spent tired and alone I spend all my time Chasing the Rain

Come Check Us Out
Demented Naughty Angels We are open Stop by and say hi to us We are also looking for all staff Just click on the pic and we will be waiting for you Stop and show the staff some love Owner NICCI Co~Owner †KASEY† Co~owner & Head Enforcer Protector of Kasey & Nicci "DEMENTED KING" Co~Owner & Head Dj Cotton Candy Enforcer ICE Enforcer & Promoter cyclone

.lucky.
Do you hear me? Talking to you Across the water Across the deep blue ocean Under the open sky Oh my, baby I'm trying Boy I hear you in my dreams I feel your whisper across the sea I keep you with me in my heart You make it easier when life gets hard Lucky I'm in love with my best friend Lucky to have been where I have been Lucky to be coming home again Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh They don't know how long it takes Waiting for a love like this Every time we say goodbye I wish we had one more kiss I'll wait for you, I promise you I will Lucky I'm in love with my best friend Lucky to have been where I have been Lucky to be coming home again Lucky we're in love in every way Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed Lucky to be coming home someday And so I'm sailing through the sea To an island where we'll meet You'll hear the music fill the air I'll put a flower in your hair Though the breezes through the trees Move so pr

I Am Who I Am
i am who i am, if you don't like it to bad. no one will ever change me, there have been people who tried. people who have tried to change me get something else and they don't like it to much. my word of advice to you and everyone else is don't try to change me you are not me and never will be. i will always be me.

New Shit
Hi there. It's been a while since I've been active on here. Makes me kind of sad. But I now live on the West Side of Hamilton with my boyfriend/baby daddy. Soon we'll have our own apartment/house! Amazing right? I finally graduated O.N.O.W. It was amazing. I got a 94% in my writing class and a 74% in my psychology class. I knew and wish I would have done better. But there was so much stuff going on. My brother is in jail/prison soon in two weeks. I'm going to go see him today. My son Landon will be one in 10 days! His birthday party is going to be March 27th though. Thats all for now. Holla holla

Underneath
Fallin' again I try to stand up My back on the wall No place to hide, seems like theres no way out Out of myself Underneath, underneath i'm calling for One more chance To believe Burning down under lies I've almost found the Safe at last Underneath, yeah Underneath One step, one breath Wanna feel closer Getting far away Wish i could see Wish i only realized I'll never be the same Be the same, again Underneath, underneath i'm calling for One more chance To believe Burning down under lies I've almost found the Safe at last Underneath, yeah And i'll survive I'll survive Underneath Fallin' again I try to stand up My back on the wall Wish i could see Wish i only realized I'll never be the same Be the same, again Underneath, yeah Underneath, underneath i'm calling for One more chance To believe, yeah Burning down under lies I've almost found the Safe at last Underneath, yeah

Auto 11
I recently had my first auto 11 running. I know this is just a "Game", but someone spent hard earned money to try to help me level. I try to help everyone I can level when I see they need help. Only 5 people actually took advantage of my autos and helped me. I belong to a "family" on here and I try my hardest to see who has autos and who needs help. It is disturbing that I got no help and the autos were a wast of my friends money. This is a stupid blog but I needed to vent about this!!!

Blow Jobs, Your Thoughts
when a woman goes down on a man its called a blow job. lets face it, is there really any blowing going on there, ehhhhhhhhh minimal to none. Lots of sucking, licking, stoking and an occasional spitting. but not much blowing. the whole term blow job is like saying im gonna park my car in the drive way, or im gonna drive my car on the park way, it just doesnt make any sense. i think we should just simply call it a SUCK JOB. may not flow as well as its predesessor . but i think this new no nonsense term makes the self explanitory gesture a better fit, open discussion

Exactly Where I Wanna Be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Folks, I'm in a tough spot because I'm being told I'm gonna probably have to leave here, NC, where I currently am but I dont want to and I'd do anything to stay or more specifically, anything to keep Janice with me in person. I'm NEVER giving her up because she's EVERYTHING in life to me and I know that God put me here to find her and to be with her always and so, thats EXACTLY what I'm gonna be regardless of the circumstance but since having been here in NC for the last week, I have had THE BEST WEEK OF MY ENTIRE FUCKIN LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER AND ITS BECAUSE IVE BEEN HERE WITH HER IN PERSON AND GETTIN TO HOLD AND KISS AND BE WITH MY BABY ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dunno what to do about this situation as to where I am cuz its out of my hands no matter what I do but I JUST KNOW THA

In Your Arms
In your arms, my thoughts could drift away To a place, all our own, and a lovelier day. Lavender sunsets and skies of blue Would be ours to enjoy... just me and you. In your arms, my only task would be To make sure your kisses were just for me. For every kiss... I'd give you four And show you no one could love you more. Then, just to prove we would never part, I'd wrap myself around your heart. Melting together (as lovers do...) Passion and pleasure beginning anew. In your arms, you'd know by the look in my eyes That I was yours - no more silly good-byes. And all of our dreams would soon come true. You'd belong to me, and I... to you.

Hi
This probably won't be a blog, just more of a post. I know for myself that when I know there is someone that I care about that really needs help and there is nothing I can do but prey, I prey. Please hope for just a little help, that's all she needs: http://fubar.com/user/2174295

Fuck Pantera
http://pages.infinit.net/dimebag/review1.htm PANTERA SINGER APOLOGIZES FOR RACIAL TIRADE Twenty-five years after the Black Panthers, we had the White Pantera prowling in the Verdun Auditorium. Singer Phil Anselmo took his band from best-kept metal secret to newsmaker after an angry screed he delivered during Saturday's jam-packed show blew up in his face like so much stage pyro. Anselmo issued an unequivocal apology to the press this week, but the real story is how he unwittingly stripped bare one of metal's dirty little secrets. Sic thousand-plus were listening when Anselmo began by denouncing anti-white rap acts, then made himself a lightning rod for a certain surly, muttered undercurrent of white anger as he carried the issue further. According to Mitch Joel, co-publisher of two music magazines, freelance writer and a good union metal fan who caught the show, Anselmo widened the scope on his blunderbuss. Joel scribbled notes furiously as Anselmo raged, interpretin

Don't Understand
What I don't understand is people who make judgements against others. What I am talking about is that my husband put up a blog yesterday. In that blog he failed to mention that my mom had a tia (like a stroke except it reverses it's self). The doctor who discharged my mom from the hospital said that the only way my mom was going home is for me to stay with her. I understand that it is hard for my husband but I would be in the same position as him if this never happened to my mom. Also he wrote that he had a hole in his heart about his daughter. He didn't stop to think about how I felt if it wasn't for the phone call that I made we wouldn't of had our daughter taken away from us. So I don't think it is fair to sit and say the stuff that he said. Yes he was probably mad and all but he didn't stop to think about me and the position that I am in.

Wkrp In Cincinnati & Venus Flytrap
WHAT YA KNOW ABOUT VENUS FLYTRAP & IM NOT TALKIN ABOUT THE PLANT EITHER READ UP IF YA NOT HIP Venus Flytrap is a character on the television situation comedy WKRP in Cincinnati (1978-82), played by Tim Reid. He is the evening and early night-time disc jockey at WKRP, and during the course of the series he also becomes the assistant program director. "Venus Flytrap" is the pseudonym used by disc jockey Gordon Sims, the evening DJ at the radio station WKRP. His real name is not revealed until late in the show's first season. The background of his character is complicated, but can be pieced together from various episodes. Gordon Sims is from New Orleans. His parents were divorced and his mother raised him. At the age of 22, he was drafted into the army and served in the Vietnam War. After seeing another soldier go crazy and commit suicide, Gordon had enough of the war and deserted; he spent the next several years hiding out under assumed names, which explains why mo

Love
i found this somewhere and i belivie it is to true... I say, the heart speaks a language the mind can't understand... Trying to reason with emotions... trying to apply logic to love is fruitless and an exercise in futility. If you love someone, it shouldn't matter what they are or aren't. Am I the only one who believes in Hollywood fairy tales or what? Benjamin Button... Now that's LOVE in spite of the tragedy... I say go for it! Life is short, and far too long to spend it living loveless wondering about what could've been...

Life...
I am healed... but the smell of charred remains still linger in the air, from torches carried by past lovers who said they really care, and as your heart and soul drifts into a false state of bliss, You think to yourself finally my most precious dream as come , then they burn you with their torches,setting your very blood a flame, to which engulfs your soul smothering your every breathe you take, leaving nothing behind but the smell of smoldered flesh , a blackened soul and a bitter charcoal taste of love gone bad, and despite how many times this happens it doesn't strangle my desires to be loved, to love, my need to care for people, my compassion for people, and my love for life. Sometimes, we want something so bad, that we over look the demons inside someone only seeing the good, for fear of failing or ending up alone. I have learned a great deal through out my love life's , the first being some people are not who they say they are, some people's goal in life is to cheat and lie, wit

Photoshop Animation For Friends
new photoshop animation I designed and made for my friend and wanted to share with yous as if any of you wanted one feel free to ask and I'll create you one as I can use any background pic with any one of your pictures you choose! I do for my friends to show my appreciation to em :) as this is my skill am very good at and been doing it over 10 years as I Loves thinking of new ideas as in photoshops and animations as some of yous already know I made this for you I hope you like it :) Thanks for viewing

Afterlife
Like walking into a dream, so unlike what you've seen So unsure but it seems, 'cause we've been waiting for you Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste Of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway I see a distant light, but girl this can't be right Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be Arrived too early And when I think of all the places I just don't belong I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far I don't belong here, we gotta move on dear Escape from this afterlife 'Cause this time I'm right to move on and on Far away from here A place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rain Can leave this place but refrain, 'cause we've been waiting for you Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste Of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway This peace on earth's not right (with my back against the wall) No pain or sign of time (I'm much too young to fall) So ou

Lol, My Sweet , Companion.. Crunchy Brittle... Makes Me Laugh Makes Me Fat"
my god!!! am bored and i cant resist them!! who likes cashew nuts and pistascio and almonds and walnut and chestnut"..lol, can come and join me tonyt.. with fubar drinks..lol almost empty" taste really good! lol.

The Secret Grimoire Of Turiel
THE SECRET GRIMOIRE A SYSTEM OF CEREMONIAL MAGIC THE GREAT ARCANUM (The Rites of Ceremonial Magick) PART I. THE SECRET GRIMOIRE OF TURIEL. INTRODUCTION. THE SECRET GRIMOIRE THE S.S. Umvoti, on which I was travelling from Beira, Portugese East Africa, to London, reached Las Palmas in November, 1927, after a very stormy passage. Like the rest ofthe passengers, I was thankful to get ashore. The usual vendors, beggars, and guides were soon in evidence. One oid man in the garb of a peasant offered me his services as a guide, which J gladly accepted. The man was bearded, swarthy of complexion, and very thin. He spoke in broken English and snggested that we visit the Cathedral. This we did, and as we walked the stranger informed me that the Cathedral was founded in the 16th century but only completed in the 19th, He conducted me to a lift inside the Cathedral, and smiled at two most corpulent priests who were seated at confessional b

Poem
My dear friend Bruce, You rawk-you're the best Miles ahead of all the rest I look forward to the time we spend You truly are my best friend The one I turn to when I can't sleep Any secrets I tell, I know you'll keep You never judge-your heart is true You're a wonderful guy and I love you Whenever you need me, I'll be there Open arms and hugs to share I hope your lady realizes that she's got every woman's dream A real man that stands by her side no matter how difficult things might seem I can only hope and pray That I'll meet someone like you for myself one day Because of you, I know that not all men are bad You've also shown me that there are still good times to be had Love, Jen

Broken
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing With a broken heart that's still beating In the pain there is healing In your name I find meaning So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on I'm barely holdin' on to you The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead I still see your reflection inside of my eyes That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating In the pain there is healing In your name I find meaning So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on I'm barely holdin' on to you I'm hangin' on another day Just to see what you will throw my way And I'm hanging on to the words

The Omega Agency
THE OMEGA AGENCY The Author of this Report is Unknown They are who people are talking about when one says orders come from "above the President". The Omega Agency consists of a network set up much like the CIA. There are thousands world-wide who take their orders directly from the ruling council of the Omega Agency. This council consists of 10 to 12 people. George Bush and Alexander C. Haig are two names known to sit on the council of the Omega Agency. The OA is the driving force behind what is commonly called the "New World Order." The OA's office is located at Langley AFB. They plan to establish their NWO, for lack of a better term, in a time span of no less than 5 days. And they intend to do it without open war. Recall when President Reagan was shot. Haig made the statements to the press that "I'm in charge now." If you'll remember, he caught a lot of flack for that, and shortly thereafter, he was accused of various things that ruined his name politically. This was don

Enslave Your Slut~ Part2
I realize now that part of my enslavement has always been within me, waiting for the right person to be my Master and release me from within the confines that society had placed. I have searched for 42 years to find my Master, the one to unlock my inner most fantasies. Master had been searching for 46 years until he found the perfect slut slave for himself. Part of my transition into becoming his, is how he penetrates my thoughts, body and soul. I feel his power, control and passion. I, in turn, love him with every fiber of my being, living to please him and gain his approval. I do not have to be in charge now and I am grateful to him. I crave his touch, control and love. I can feel him with me everywhere I go, smell his sensuousness and hear his intoxicating voice. My senses are heightened when I am alone and I long to hear from my Master, to know what I am to do to please him. Command me, I am yours. He did not call me, so I will go home now since it is so late. I do not even reme

Oh Just Read It Already
As some of you know, when I was a small child I lived on a farm. We had all kinds of animals, pigs, horses, chickens and goats to name a few. There were two animals that really stand out in my mind. A horse and a chicken. They were the best of friends. They rarely ever left each other's sides. Many times I would look out the window to find the chick perched high on the horses shoulders. One day the horse, who wasn't particularly sure footed, found himself stuck in a bog. We had all gone to town and the poor horse had no one to turn to for help. No one that is, but his best friend the little chick. Of course the chick, seeing his friend in danger, immediately sprang into action. He ran toward the house where sat my father's BMW. Noticing the keys in the ignition the chick quickly grabbed some rope, hopped in the car, started it and drove toward the bog. Back at the bog the horse was suprised but happy to see the chick in the shiny new BMW. The chick quickly tied one end of the rope t

I Need A Break!
Ok, so here is my latest bitch: I got laid off on 3-10 and now I have to move to a cheaper apt which is out of the area. The good (?) news is, I will be moving closer to my bf. What sucks is, I have to move! I have no job and around 10K to get me thru till I get one. I get 1700 unemployment a month so I will be okay. I somehow doubt anyone will rent to me without a job.. now I have to go to hubby and ask him to co-sign. I dont know exactly where I am moving to, I need to find an area with good schools for the kid.. (Please dont ask about bf helping me, he has not offered although it would make it much easier). At the moment I am all over the map!! Dad, Job, Apartment, Kid, Day CAre, School, Moving -- YIKES!! I am feeling pretty weak and am a bit scared of tackling this next venture on my own.

Show Me Love
dang since 06 same shit.. rate me show love .. i will back.. look at me look at me.. i need points.... dude this is not fucking pac man.. its a web site that is suppose to resemble a bar.. and well if there is a real bar like this i would have to bring brass knuckles because i would be kicking everyone's assss. minus like 8.. i show you your god damn love and you are like thanks... oh i wish you could have heard the way i said thanks in my head.. sometimes even going beyond what anyone else would do like god forbid leaving you a photo comment and putting thought into it.. so fuck your love.. like most love its only one sided... lucky girls you have vapid pervs to rate those pics so you can get to the next level so you can put even more pics up..admire...oh shite why do i even get on here.. lucky to have at least found some real friends this go round..

Let It Rock
I see your dir-ty face, Hide behind your collar. What is done in vain, Truth is hard to swallow. So you pray to god, To justify the way you live a lie, Live a lie, Live a lie. And you take your time, And you do your crime. Well you made your bed, I'm in mine. [Chorus] Because when I arrive I, I'll bring the fire. Make you come alive I can take you higher What this is, forgot? I must now remind you Let It Rock Let It Rock Let It Rock Now the son's discrased He, who knew his father When he cursed his name Turned, and chased the dollar But it broke his heart So he stuck his middle finger To the world To the world To the world And you take your time And you stand in line Well you'll get what's yours I got mine [Chorus] Because when I arrive I, I'll bring the fire. Make you come alive I can take you higher What this is, forgot? I must now remind you Let It Rock Let It Rock Let It Rock Yeah. Wayne's world, Planet rock. Panties drop, An

Morning
I am awake? Why? Lord only knows. My sleeping paterns have been so messed up lately and I know I should tweet this stuff but frankly I am much much too lazy. I am waiting for something to happen. For someone to save my day. Im thinking maybe I should take some pictures and make a certain someone happy if I upload them. I really want to make this a day to remember. Why? Well at least it gives me reason to be up

At This Moment
For the Last 10 years, I have written a Poem for My son to mark His Birthdays....Below is Our Favorite......It is called "At This Moment". It is a letter poem from a favorite memory of my son......This was presented to him on his 17th Birthdays this past September.....I hope you like it as much as we do......enjoy....... hugs AT THIS MOMENT I am peering through a window, watching you. I wonder to myself, "How old ARE you?" I grow anxious. At this moment, I see your grand stature of small frame engulfed by the endless forest. The trees gently sway with the breeze. Approval, imagined, of your company. Leaves crunch and rustle at your feet, as if a procession proclaiming: "The King is Coming!" Best friend at your heels, intent at keeping you safe, wags his tail at this direction, yet cuts you off from the dangerous next. My soul is whisked away to ease at this sight. Woolen cap placed snuggly over your ears; St