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Am I Ever Going To Come Out Of This?
In the past month things have been pretty fucked up for me. I have lost my Job, My house, My laptop, my friends, and some of my family.Most of the people who said "I will be there for you." left. Im running out of reasons to keep going. Right now my main reason are my bosses. They have taken me in during my time of need and proved to e tht good people are still out there. I am apprenticing in their tattoo shop. I Love it. I cant wait to finish my apprenticship so i can tattoo and do something I love for the rest of my life. At least i have a man in my life i love with all of my heart and soul. Grant i love you, and cant wait for you to get here so we can be together. Well thats enough of a rant for me this morning, im sure there will be more to come tonight :) Have a good day everyone.

3 Years On The Fu
How time flies! Just three years ago a friend told me about a fun lil site, kinda like MySpace but was more fun and more interactive with people... it was called Lost Cherry. I created a profile and have had fun ever since. The site pulled a fast one on us when it hit 1 million profiles - really miss those days :p It went from Lost Cherry to CherryTap to what it is today.. so many changes over the three years from under 1 million profiles and all you could do to level was to rate rate rate... but it got people to visit and chat and really look at pictures and stash and interact with others - it was literally the small neighborhood bar where everyone knew you and was like a comfortable jacket you loved to wear. Remember when happy hours started and we went "wow!" then the first bling and all life changed on FU from then on :p It used to be that the million dollar mansion was THE big item to give and to receive! FUBAR has certainly changed and grown, and I'm happy that friends from

Until We Meet.
Until we meetMy nights will be a little colderMy days a little shorterMy heart will beat a little less rapidUntil we meetI know that my arms will be emptyMy mind hurting from the constant thought of youMinutes will seem to be hoursHours will seem to be monthsWhile months will seem like eternityUntil we meetThe stars in the sky will not affect me with its gleaming sparkles of lifeUntil I am gazing at them in your armsAnd the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishingUntil it is you that I share the my food withAnd Until we meetI will not feel wholeMy world will seem incompleteUntil that wonderful dayWhen our eyes make first contactAnd our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwindThe words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song"Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

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Theres some1 special in my life Who doesnt know i care I wish i could let him know it But let it show I wouldnt dare I dont want to even risk it I dont want to even try For if he knew i felt this way Id feel insecure and shy I never thought Id feel this way I never thought Id care Theres something in that smile of his That makes me stop and stare Ill keep my feelings hidden for now And save them for another day.

How I'm Feeling Right Now
Ok. Just so you know. I'm on the waiting list to have Gastric Band Surgery. I have 12 to 13 weeks to wait. I'm sick of waiting. Last night I found out that My Brothers GF is having another baby. I couldn't handle it. I broke down in floods of tears with the thought of having to wait 2 years until I can have another baby. I was sitting there feeling like I wanted to start self harming again. I wanted to cut deep into my own stomach. I really hate Myself right now. I don't know who to turn to. I can't tell anyone so I thought I would write it down so I can at least get it out of my system. Yeah I have a Daughter. Yeah I have a Husband. But I have never felt more alone than what I do right now. I want to be happy and live my life.

About Time..
It took me 4 or 5 frikkin hours to get it uploaded... but its finally done and I'm posting it right now. Be warned that me and sam, (or Vladlana and Valentina) are pretty much the silliest girls and biggest tards you will ever meet. So go watch and leave me comments on our stupidity :) P.S. If you have any questions you want to ask Vladlana or Valentina and you want them answered on Russian Radio, send me a comment or message and we'll answer em for you. xox

Might Be Gone For The 4th
Hi everyone i might be gone from fubar from saturday the fouth until the following friday. things are not looking good here where i am staying so i might have to leave if i can not get the unemployment office to at least tell me i am going to get some money so i can show my landlord that i have money coming it to help get the back rent caught up. just a head up in case you all do not see me for a few days do not want everyone getting worried again.

Nothing But Torture
“Nothing but Torture” It was morning again, cold, and unpleasant as always. My body wrapped in multiple blankets to keep me warm and cozy. I've always been unable to sleep in a hot room, the window was always draped open to allow a gentle breeze to sweep in. Of course, the down fall of having the window open and allowing the cold air to fill the place up was that it made getting out of bed very hard. To leave the comforts of my body heated blankets and step into the icy room naked as always. I'm not the prettiest of girls, well at least I would think. I've been told different times, on many different occasions. I have a slightly tanned body, an average height of five feet four inches. My hair long, chestnut brown, and falls over my shoulders in a gentle pile. My eyes a beautiful emerald green. My breasts supple and full, nipple small and pointing upwards a bit giving my breasts the impression that they're fuller then what they really are. I have a slender figu

Overdose
Clear!A yell.Clear!The sound of a crackling energy.Clear!Pain.Clear!Breath.Opening my eyes as if they weren't my ownHaving troubles, gasping and moving as if a drone.We're losing him!Sliding away.Shadows of doubts towering over reassuranceDeath lingersWe need to pump his stomach!The taste, such horrid tasteTo gag, but can'tTo resist but only be held downIt's not working, we're going to lose him!Hot burning tears.Do I want to go? No, I take it backSweety, hold on!Mother, give me your hand so that I may hold onGive me that love you so desperatly gave Even though I turned my back on youThe sound of a flatlineIn the end, it wasn't my closure.

Deaths Pale Horse
Love.(Love?)I love you.(You do?)Yes.(I love you, too)Now I must tell you something.(What?)I hate you.You were my everything,but you waited just at the right moment,to give me that sting.I'm sorry.(You are?)No.I thought you were changed, But you pulled the lever, There I hanged.(You told me you loved me)I told you alot of thing.(But why?)You're not good enough.I want to die, to fly away on deaths pale horse.Just leave me where I lie.(That isn't true)You're right.(then what is!)There is another.(For how long?)Long enough.I show you my back,Only to cry.Then you took my own knife and began to hack.I hate you, But I love you,You tossed me aside.I know you were through.(But why!?) These tears burn.Because I am horrible.(I don't think so!) My heart hurts.Just get the fuck away.(I'll always fight for you) Kill me with your anger. Never.I still love you, no matter the battle.Death rides in on his saddle. One question remains and I ask it with tears.Did you even love me a little?That is what I f

Purpose
Ok so have been reduced from combat patrols to guard duty. while this means i am safer but i feel like i have more of a purpose when i was doing patrols. staying on a camp and guarding it just doesn't feel right for a person who has been here 3 times. call me weird but it's how i feel. so yeah i hope iraq takes control and keeps control but should they need us i wont complain one bit about going back into town :)

The Vanishing Thought
Hidden thoughts tossed into a mazeA maze where the creator doesn't know to navigateA place where shadow's are real and we follow themWhere we are the paper, and they the penWhistling our emotion's through song and praiseLiving life as if it was a hazeNever knowing what to expectNever knowing, that death is someone you have met.It all comes back down to is those Hidden thoughts.Hidden by another thoughtSpoken over by wordsAnd whispered by that voice we never wanted to listen to in the first placeYou may try to find itTo listen finally after all that timeFinally you realized, you passed the "Do not pass" signBut yet you jay walk, never looking to goGetting hit by your own swarming thoughts of Should I ditch? Or should I wish?But you finally stop and whisper "No"It all vanishesA stream of empty settles your mindFinally, in the distance, that thought you had forgotten.That thought you swear you had lostDusty and wrinkled.Torn and written on.You brush it off.A question it was. That thought

Moon Rise, Moon Set
The pointing fingers attached to faces with morbid disgustHollow laughter with obvious distrustConstantly watching your own back with blind eyesPretending to live when your soul slowly diesSinging a song of masked praiseAs you run like a mouse in your own little mazeNot knowing or not understanding that this is a fakeDrowing, drowning, in emotion like that of a lake You think they judge You think they laugh But really you are just full of yourselfA real boy pretending to be Pinocchio They never really made fun of youThey actually laughed at your jokesThey never pointed fingers Or even doubted your trustShe never hurt youyou hurt yourselfShe said I love youYou thought she lied But really you screamedTears sting your faceYou couldn't copeYou couldn't handleBut they are actually right here.Still standing at your sideTheir whisper call to you"Stand up, don't hide"They help you up and shake youYelling at you to snap you out."This is all a dream"

Thanks To All
not totally sure what the blogs are for but i just wanted to say thank you to all my wonderful fu friends and new fu friends for helping me reach a rank. your all super terriffic and i will be forever greatful....

Adult Website Right?
Ok first off I want to ask a question this is an adult site right? I believe it is so next question if something says may contain NSFW and you see it and dont like NSFW are you going to open it? This is an adult site and photos are getting marked that myspace would allow just look at the adult film stars that are on there. So what is wrong with someone wearing a pair of jeans that the ass is ripped. Some of the photos that people mark NSFW i would like to know what people are thinking. I am going to say it once again THIS IS AN ADULT WEBSITE IF IT SAYS MAY CONTAIN NSFW AND YOU DO NOT LIKE THAT STUFF THEN DO NOT OPEN THE ALBUM. Come on people its common sense.

For The Warriors Of Freedom
THIS IS FOR ALL THE TIMES THAT YOU HAVE SPENT AWAY WHICH YOUR RELATIVES NUMBER EACH PRECIOUS DAY YOU BATTLE TO KEEP OUR COUNTRY SO AWESOMELY FREE THEN YOU GAVE YOUR LIVES FOR MY FAMILY AND ME WITH YOUR FAMILY SAFELY AT HOME WITH A LOVED ONE YOU COMPLETE YOUR DUTIES UNTIL THEY ARE ALL DONE ALTHOUGH LONELINESS SET INTO SUCH BEAUTIFUL LIVES REMEMBER AT HOME AWAIT YOUR KIDS, HUSBANDS AND WIFES SO MUCH TIME CAN BRING IN SO MUCH HEARTBREAK AND STILL YOU NEVER GIVE UP FOR AMERICA'S SAKE BLESSED ARE THE ONES WHO BATTLE FOR THINGS THAT ARE RIGHT AND KEEP THE MASSES TOGETHER AND FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT BE NOT AFRAID OF THE DARKNESS OR BOW DOWN TO FEAR BECAUSE FREEDOM IS WHAT YOU FIGHT FOR AND YOUR VOICES WE HEAR ALOHA AND MAHALO TO ALL OF OUR MEN AND WOMEN WHO FIGHT TO KEEP THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dead Alone [10/2/07]
AS THE SKY LEADING TO HEAVEN SLOWLY CHIPS AND SHATTERSIM ONCE AGAIN STABBED BY ITS JAGGED EDGETHE SCARS OF LOSS THAT HAVE HEALED, ONCE AGAIN OPENWALKING DOWN A HORIZON OF CLEAR NOTHINGNESS.....WITH BLOOD DRIPPING PROFUSELY FROM MY SIDEYOU WALK AWAY WITHOUT EVEN BEGINNING TO LOOK BACKSLOWLY DEMATERIALIZING, THE FARTHER YOU WALKI KNOW YOU HEARD THE SCREAMS AND PLEADS FOR HELPAT THAT FINAL SECOND, YOU TURN TO LOOK AT ME WITH AN EMOTIONLESS FACETHE BEAUTIFUL EYES OF WHICH I THOUGHT WAS HOPE, WAS REALLY DECEITSCARRED MENTALLY TO THE POINT OF INSANITYA DARK CLOUD APPEARS IN VAST EMPTINESS OF THIS SPACETHE CLOUD HOVERS OVER ME AND BEGINS TO ENVELOP ME AS IT GROWSAS I BEGIN TO LOOK UP......2 GLOWING EYES APPEAREDGIGANTIC WINGS SPROUT TO SIGNIFY ITS PRESENCE TO MEA BLACK DRAGON APPEARS THROUGH THE FOG SPEAKING THE NATIVE TONGUE OF A HUMAN"ZERO.........YOUVE BEEN DREAMING AGAIN, HAVENT YOU?"TAKING THE GLASS AND TEARING IT OUT OF MY BODY, I LOOK UP, IN AN ANGRY SILENCECOUGHING UP BLOOD, THE WOUND

Fate's Torment [10/12/07]
WILL I EVER TRULY SMILE IN THIS LIFETIMELOOKING FROM THE OUTSIDE INAS A TREASURE I SEARCHED THE ENDS OF THE EARTH FOR IS NOW IN INCONSIDERATE HANDSWITHOUT EVEN A SECOND LOOK INTO MY SOULMY SANITY CRACKS AS I WONDER IF THIS IS DIVINE PAYBACKFOR THE HEARTS I BROKENITS SEEMS ALL I'LL EVER HAVE IS MUSIC & OCCASIONAL SMOKINGNEVER HAVE I SMILED IN MY RECENT PICTURESFOR THERE IS NO TRUE REASON TO ESPECIALLY NOT HEREIN THIS DAY AND AGEANOTHER CHANCE STOLENRE-OPENED SCARSANGER RISESTEARS FALLPAINFUL TRUTHSTARING AT STARSWONDERING ENDLESSLYHOW COULD THIS HAPPENWHY MEWHAT COULD I HAVE DONE TO DESERVE THISNOTHING SEEMS TO SUBSIDE THESE THOUGHTSTHIS RAGETHIS ANGERTHIS JEALOUSYTHESE EMOTIONSTHIS SEEMINGLY FRUITLESS JOURNEYMY DESIRESMY SADNESSMY DESTINYTHE SEARCH FOR A RARE JEWEL..............

What Isn't Seen.......[7/10/08]
MANY MAY KNOW ME AS THE LAID BACK ONE/BUT WHAT MANY DONT SEE IS/A SHATTERED FORMER SELF SEARCHING FOR THE PIECES/DEEP SEEDED ANGER TOWARD THE CURRENT WORLD/A SOUL FIGHTING THE STORM CLOUDS FOR BLUE SKIES WITHIN/A PERSON LOOKING FROM THE OUTSIDE IN WHOSE SILENCE IS BROKEN ONLY BY HIS ABILITIES/ONE WHO CANT MAKE IT ALONE/ONE WHO WALKS ACROSS A PSYCHOLOGICAL DESOLATE WASTELAND, WISHING A TREE COULD BLOSSOM/A PERSON WHO HAVE HAD HIS HAPPINESS SNATCHED FROM HIM ON NUMEROUS OCCASIONS....EVEN NOW....HE FACES IT/ONE WHO WISHES THIS FRIGID HEART COULD BE WARMED BY AN ANGELIC PRESENCE/ONE WHO LIVED IN A WORLD WHERE THE PREVIOUS YOUNG GENERATIONS WHERE ALOT MORE INTELLIGENT AND AWARE OF THE ACTIVITIES OF THEIR ENVIRONMENT/WILL THIS CHANGE SOMEWHERE DOWN THE LINE? I WONDER EVERY PASSING SECOND/CAN IT BE DONE ALONE? HOW CAN THIS CHANGE?/FROM WITHIN? OR THE EXTERIOR?/HOW MANY CRUSHED DREAMS WILL IT TAKE?/HOW MUCH OPPOSITION HAS TO BE FOUGHT?/TO BREAK AWAY FROM THE STORM CLOUDS..........

Barriers......[9/2/08]
HANDCUFFED AND CHAINED TO A BRICK WALL OF PAINRESIDING ON THE OTHER SIDEIS A FLOATING STAR THAT I CAN SEE IN THE MINISCULE CRACKSITS PRESENCE ALONE BECKONS ME TO COME FORTH TO ITBUT WHAT DOES THIS STAR CONTAIN?WHAT IS ITS STRENGTHS?ITS WEAKNESSES?WHAT WILL TRANSPIRE IF I EVER GET THE CHANCETO EMBRACE IT?WHY IS THIS BARRIER HERE TO KEEP ME FROM IT?IS IT THERE FOR MY OWN GOOD? OR SOMETHING SINISTER TO KEEP ME IN A STATE OF LIFELONG SADNESS?BUT THE TRUE QUESTION THAT CLAWS AT MY SOULIS WHEN?WHEN WILL I BE ABLE TO EMBRACE THIS STAR?UNTIL THAT QUESTION IS ANSWEREDI'LL BELIEVE IN MYSELFFIGHT TO BREAK LOOSE FROM THE BARRIERLOOK AFTER THE STARAND MAKE SURE NO HARM IS BESTOWED UPON ITFOR ITS VERY PRESENCE BRINGS A SMILE TO MY FACEAND THE FACT THAT THE STAR IS MERELY A METAPHOROF THE ONE WHO I HOLD DEAR TO MY HEART.....

Carnival Prayer
"Thy Carnivals Prayer: Our Father of Shangri-La Hallowed be thy name If the world turns over save me From thy fiery rain Keep me pure Keep me clean As the lotus grows I ask you for forgiveness Save me from the crows Juggalo be thy name, Hatchets be thy game,mess with one, you mess with all, we never travel alone and are always ready for anything, so be wise and just pass us by and don't say we shine, we are creatures of the night and will always be there when a fellow Juggalo needs us, we stand by the Dark Carnival and all it teaches, so for all Juggalos and Juggalettes, stand firm and always be ready.The Juggalo Pledge: I Pledge Allegiance To The Hatchet Of The Underground Society Of Juggalos, And For The Ninjas For Which It Stands, One Family, Under God, Full Of Freaks, With Faygo And Magic Neden For All!! WE WILL NEVER DIE ALONE, JUGGALOS WILL CARRY ON, SWING OUR HATCHETS IF WE MUST, EACH AND EVERYONE OF US When I die, show no pitty, send my soul to Juggalo city, dig my grave six fe

The Warzone [9/5/08]
MY MIND IS IN CONSTANT BATTLE WITH MY HEARTTHERES NEVER A STALEMATEOR A TRUCEJUST MUTILATED BEINGS STRUGGLINGTO EXISTTO LIVETO WINTO PROTECTEVERY BEACON OF HOPETO THE BITTER CONCLUSIONTHE TRAGIC STORY THAT NEVER ENDSWITH EVERY THOUGHT THAT PASSESTHE 2 CLASH OVER AND OVERWITH EVERY PERSONITS SCARY WHEN BACKTRACKEDAND TO THIS DAYTHE FIGHT CONTINUESBUT EITHER NO ONE SEES ITOR THEY ACTUALLY DO SEE ITBUT NEVER LEND A CALMING HANDFOR FEAR OF BEING SUCKED INAND FEELING THE PAININDEED MY SOUL IS A WARZONEDUE TO HEARTBREAKBETRAYED TRUSTFEELING POWERLESSBUT ASK YOURSELFCAN U HELP TO CHANGE ITFOR THE BETTERDONT BE AFRAIDJUST COMEI'LL BE WAITING

Cursed With A Heart [1/4/09]
WHEN WILL I STOP FALLINGNOT TO LAND SAFELYBUT TO CRASH INTO THE JAGGED ROCKSTHE PAIN IS TOO MUCHWATCHING IS A SLAP IN THE FACEONCE AGAIN THE SCAR OPENS UPTHE CURSE IS WHERE MY HEART LIESEVERYTIME I THINK ITS ENDEDAND I CAN SOAR THROUGH THE CLOUDS MY WINGS ARE DISINTEGRATED IN MID FLIGHTTHIS CYCLE MAKES ME WISH DEATH UPON MYSELFBUT IM HERE WITH TORN WINGSWALKING THE EARTHSEARCHING FOR THE CURE THE WAY TO END THE CURSEWHAT TRIGGERED IT?WHY ME?WILL THESE ANSWERS EVER BE FOUND IN THIS LIFETIME?OR THE NEXT?WITH A PSYCHED MINDA BLEEDING HEARTA MIND FULL OF AFTERTHOUGHTSWHERE ARE YOU?ARE YOU HERE?DID I WALK PAST YOU UNCONSCIOUSLY?I'LL WAIT FOR YOU TO APPEAR TO MEBEFORE ITS TOO LATE........

How You Can Tell Love
What is that special something that makes a man want to know everything about you and makes him want to tell you how he feels over and over? What makes a man want to listen to what you have to say—even crave knowing how you feel or what you’re inner world is like? A man falls in love with you because he knows he can be himself around you. He falls in love with you because he feels safe expressing his innermost, private feelings with you. He knows that you can handle your feelings. He can sense that. And because he senses that at the most unconscious level, he starts to long for your company, for your touch, for your affection. He may not even know why he feels this way. All he knows is that there’s something special about you that he doesn’t feel with any other woman in his life. He wants to take you in his arms and keep you forever. This is what happens to a man when he goes from feeling affection or admiration for you to feeling genuine love. This is the &

Politics And Effects
Mans fall can easily be described by newtons laws of gravity- for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction with science a man can choose a positive action with pros and cons yet we choose the cons such is our down fall as man we choose to murder and mane our fellow bretheren when we should focus on the economy at hand- e.x. antimatter the seperation of particals at a sub atomic level instead of ridding the world of its energycrisis we choose to use it as a nuclear bomb in the wrong hands its devastating- so adds conflict to our worlds economy ultamately leading to a new world war a cold war if you will- mans downfall we simply wont exceptother religions or ethnicities with open arms-The indifference presents itself as a conflictof science and religion-Jon Campbell-I am a vissionary of the worldsscience yet i am a guardian angel to religion torn between the two i am the balance-Jon Campbell-I am a free thinker yet a feeler so i back the economy yet i riddicule it-Jon Campbel

Need Help!!
For those of my fu-friends that play mafia wars on myspace, I need help. I am a level 66 hitman, with 70 million cashflow an hour. I am heavily stocked on weapons, vehicles, and property. I need more mafioso's to win bigger fights, defeat higher bosses, and unlock extras. Help me, I'll help you. Send me a friend request with Mafia wars and fubar in it so I know To add you. http://www.myspace.com/southerngentleman24 Thanks.

Love Unconditional
I whisper in your earlove, does it send a shockevery breath heavier than the last on your neck shivers spread like a diseasemy arms wrap around you in the darkest of night you turn and stare into the one place you feel secure my eyes stare right back as if they were smilling our energy spreads from the very core our love is unconditionali sing to you our song do you recognize it we were danceing in the rain can you remember the frist time i said i love you we were at the willow tree you was looking at the stars but i was starring at you here i am laying next to you today hopeing taht every touch has meaning to youmy fingers carress your body now i know you love it the way your lip curls and quiversdo you remember christmas when i asked you to marry me you were so happy now im here with you kissing you sensually on your neck i know what you like i know everything about you its been 5 long years and all i have to say is i love you

Destructive
A vile drink brings the best of me i sit and drink it seems to be every thing i need im destructive yet i writewhen i do everthing is alrighti pass it off yet im depressedit relieves the stressi think im alright people think im just in a state of frightwill i be sucessful will i suceedor will i fail miserablyfrinds give encouraging remorsebut i feel ive failed my courseis it the end?or will i make amends?i laid it on the line took a chance and lost alas ive nothing to show except a loss for words am i doomed you decideis there something for me to confide or am i lost doomed to decide

So Cold
The world is so coldgod sent me to be the boldlove so sensual and true like goldready to give and done recievingthis life is so shortsometimes i feel the need to abortyet im the guardian angelthe one everyone can seeran over and used beaten to the groundword for word bruise for bruise yet still i standspirit full where physical beings stopfor whoever may turn again a friend to the lost a love one to the helpless defient to the sinner yet forgiving to retributioni am a friend to all loved by less but trusted by many because i've been sent to keep the world warm

Soul Warrior
Torn and scattered i lay before youyou put me back together yet there are missing piecesan on going battle still residesspiritually open for all to confidea soul warn warrior we all have becomebut the war within is never done quick to sucumb quick to fallbut the way we go will shepard us all a light shines bright to revel us allwe must fight for the ominous callnot knowing were it will leadit is something to fight for rather than nothing at allit is a light from whence the darkness fallswe batlle the darkness to rage above all to see with curiostity the light from afarat days end we fall torn and scatteredbeaten and broken for a just causein the end a place to call home

A Rose And Its Color
In the beginning before roses had colorall but one beautiful rose had no otherbut one day one rose fell in loveit was a gift he cried, a gift from aboveso he got the courage, the courage he needed to speak to his lovethe kind of courage that made him sway like a dovewhen he whispered in her ear the way that he did he became nervous of rejection, bashful and turned red

Political Confusion
In arms we welcome this place called homebut in amazement we trample our brothers all alongto our enemies were the best of friends that we can befor too long we stood emotionless to their callssometimes i wonder if were there at allto busy are we amending what we did wrongto notice our brothers, our friends the ones we have knownnow the enemy turns against us were are our Friends we treated so badthere not here not to be found forever gone

Dreams
Our dreams are foundationsfor unnoticeable actionsa place for us with no repercussionsto do what we please with simple easefor this the place to find true loveblond golden hairwith freckles to spareas sweet as can belike nectar to a beeand legs so softto make minds wander aloftalas the dream has come to an endno worries my love i'll see you againfor you i'll search the back of my mindfor you, you alone until the end of timesearching for my love my, miss right

Taken
In arms of an angel the body did layquiet and motionless as the angel prayedbroken is she the body i have but bringing of souls is all that you askonced loved by many now despaired but the soul she had has long left hereweep for her not for she is alive in lifes only afterlife she now will abideyou to some day will have this pleasure as long as you believe in the lords after life

Simple Plan- I Am Only A Man
its a simple plan todaylet it all goforget the wayleave the trayempty as my cupfill it up overflow with loveaspirations, desiretrampled by the days duskpickin up at days dawnlike a man who's lost it all but im a man simply am mejust sayin the world aint the way it used to besensually taking life one step at a timewishin life away like, drinkin crown todayand at the end of the day we breath life in ways simply ways that make us stray awayaway from lifes today were nothig makes sense and all i am is me nothin but me take me leave me this is what you get like swipe it hate delay it, dont take it

Freestyle
call me plain janeim like black n whitefellin so so cleanlay you out like the thingeven rock when i sing5 years later aint a damn thing changedstill rockin steadyfellin real fuckin heavycause the shit i still carrydont play me i play ya like a fideli punk ya ass out right there in the middleknock ya face so hard make that shit sizzle

Yeah..i Don't Think So
your laugh When people meet you for the first time, they can't help but notice your laugh! Even when people are feeling down, you have the ability to brighten up their day with that wonderful laugh of yours!

Holy Cow Man!
So being single and being able to do what ever I want, when ever I want with no one telling me not to or getting pissed because I am totally rules! But we all know it has those lonely points. Where you lay in bed with the guy you were supposed to marry a few day before and cuddle up with him and it just doesn't feel the same what are you to do? It's not the same and it shouldn't be! We learn from our mistakes right? Then my best friend in the whole world asks me to have sex with him tonight and I turn him down. Why? What is wrong with me?! Not really. I care a lot about the guy and if I ever felt like I could be with him I would. Which is EXACLTY why I said no. I'm not going to have some one I care about use me for sex when I want more than that. So its a step in the right direction isn't it?

Eyes
Innocence. When people look into your eyes, they see pure innocence. Your eyes sparkle and you like to flaunt them, and often use them to manipulate people. You're a kind-hearted and intellectual person that loves being loved and getting attention, but others don't see that you can sometimes be defensive and aggressive when you don't get your way. You're really not as innocent as some people think!

A Little About Me
Name: Sonia Birthday: March 24 Birthplace: El Paso Current Location: El Paso Eye Color: Brown Hair Color: Red right now. lol Height: 5'6 or 5'7 Right Handed or Left Handed: Lefty Your Heritage: Latina "MEXICANA" The Shoes You Wore Today: Sneakers Kswiss Your Weakness: Partying!! Your Fears: CLOWNS! Your Perfect Pizza: Mmmm Hawaiin!!

For Gail
For Gail Deserted--A lost dogWandering the streetsWith no direction,All alone.Confused--Not knowing whyYou would run away from your little boy,Leaving me with no father,No guidance.Searching--For you, my father,Who should be hereTeaching me to ride a bike,And tucking me in at night.Frustrated--You harmed your bodyWith hurtful drugs,Triggering you to commit dangerous actions,Only causing more pain.Distressed--Knowing you won't ever come backTo see your boy,All grown up,Losing all hope.Exultant--Learning that you did some right,Changing your life around,Just in time for God to say,'It is your time.'Reconciliation--Finally realizing where you are,Looking down from heaven,As my guardian angel,Now, showing me the way.

Wtf
SO I THOUGHT FOR 3 YRS I WANTED THAT ONE THING WITH HIM SO BAD AND NOW THAT I FIND OUT I DO HAVE IT IS IT BAD I DONT WANT IT ANYMORE???? HE LEFT ME FOR A NASTY FAT MEXICAN WHORE WHO HAS A REP FOR HER MANY MEN AND WOMEN I GAVE HIM EVERYTHING I HD INCLUDING OVER 2 GRAND IN 6 MONTHS WHY DO I DESERVE THIS?

Presión En Mi Vida
The air around me suffocates, it mask away my pain. My senses tell me something’s wrong but things appear the same. The sin that sits within me, it tears my soul in two. I look for refuge; but find myself abandoned by YOU! I feel so bitter, so consumed, I can feel the rage! I can’t distinguish love from hate. These tears they dangle from my chin and my emotions feel like stone. Your words they inflict a pain upon my heart. That I can’t sway alone. There was a time you and I; were chasing down our fate. Our first kiss it felt justifiable, each other’s arms a perfect escape. Now I find myself in tears, alone into the darkest nights.

Positive Attitude
Hi! Being positive is the way to be. No matter what happens accept what is by living in the moment in the here and now. Everything happens for a reason with no accidents or coincidences. Life is simple if we choose to make it that way so all of you enjoy your life!

Once Wished
I wished I had met you , forever ago But if I had would I know what I know would I see what I see in you would I feel what I feel and would it feel so true I don't know, I'd like to think so but it doesn't matter , these thoughts of what could of been, long ago all that matters is the here the now the future to be, and as far as I can see It's going to be you, and me

What's Going On
How much loss can one person go through in there life. A replay of events since the moment of conception Thrown into a downward spiral of death and its repetition eating away at the very core of who you are and the hallow shell that it has made of you. Were is that breaking point, or the end over everything you have ever love and know is ripped away over and over again. My tour was over, I was doneThe battles fought, but the war not wonI caught that bird, took me to the WorldSee my home, see my girl Don't go there is what my Mama saidYou're gonna get hurt, wind up deadBut I had to go, stand and fight'cause I didn't listen, I died that night. John Wayne told me to be a manDefend my country the best I canMy home had changed, my girl didn't careMade fun of my clothes, ridiculed my hair Don't go there is what my Mama saidYou're gonna get hurt, wind up deadBut I had to go, stand and fight'cause I didn't listen, I died that night. Nights at home in the drivin' rainI hear rockets burst a

Toyota Music
Hey this is Bill I wanted to take a minute and say thanks in advance for being my friend and allowing me to put this widget on your site. It shows me that I really do have friends out there and that there are some people that are willing to help. It's almost over so just bare with me and if all goes well you will be a big part of why I get my record deal. If the player doesn't work just past this code. http://adsupport.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=rockthespace.fan&sproutid=GwCwn083BmqbBpZ2Thank you so much for the continued support,Bill

Me..... I'm The Problem....
locked up in a closet.... ive locked myself away to keep the world from hearing what i have to saybecause my words they hurt they cut as deep as blades and when i show my feelings they are always different shades my fingers twitch and never cease my thoughts they wonder piece by piece my tounge a knife that cuts you deep my guilt depriving me of sleep let my lie here alone and cold let me long for some one to hold dont let me sleep dont let me cry leave me there..... let me die my eyes are open but all is dark im in here but still i leave my mark a rose with nothing but thorns a day that only makes you mourn im here a puddle of tears left to face only fears leave me alone im not going home runaway from everything run way runaway runaway from me run away from my feelings run away from who i am runway from reality run away from life ill run on forever... at least i will try becasue as long as i run i dont want to die but soon ill have to stop and i guess thats wh

Camel Spider
Camel Spider You're very misunderstood. People tend to be put off by your appearance, but really you just want to be friends with everyone! You are known for being fast and hating the sun, but you're generally friendly and intelligent. You can be a very loyal friend once people give you a chance.

Thunderstorm
Thunderstorm Unstoppable, uncontrollable, and most definitely UNPREDICTABLE! You strike when and where you want. Accompanied by rain, lightning, and sometimes hail, You are a triple threat! Any city found under your storm clouds will most likely go up in flames.

The Number 1 Thing That Pisses Me Off
the number 1 thing that pisses me off is that women only go for guy because of what they drive or how much money they make it really pisses me of because that dont want someone for how they r treated or anything like they just want all the stupid shit that means nothing without true love

Now I'm Really Lonely
i really would like to meet the right girl in my area in orefield PA, but i don't think that will ever happen cause every girl i ever went out with ended up being some pshycodict bitch, but if there is someone else out there as lonely as me, send me a message and maybe will go out somewhere and have a good time.

I Dream Of
I dream of a day when he will say that he loves me in that special way. I pray every day for a time when he will finally be mine. I hope for a feeling of being loved instead of always having my feelings shoved. I want to know that it comes without condition but instead is a welcome addition. I know one day it will occur sooner than later I would prefer. I want to see the passion in his eyes when he is the cause of my cries. I need to feel it in his touch is that asking for too much? Some dreams are best left for sleep but this is one dream I think I will keep. I know one day he will finally care and once he does it will always be there. I don't want it to become rushed or aside my feelings will be brushed.

Gemini
I'm not sure why I'm trolling facebook now and taking their quizes, but yeah I am. Is this me? The Week of the Seeker – Gemini 3 June 11-18 You are always on the move – probing, testing, tasting and exploring the most interesting things life has to offer. You are not afraid to take chances and are attracted to risk and danger. You are restless and life is never dull around you. You are truly independent a real adventurer. You stretch the truth and please those around you with your undeniable charm; you often get your way. You are good with money. Love and affection are important to you, you can be warm and giving and then cool and detached. You thrive on change and often move from one partner to the next. Strengths: Exploratory – Risk Taking – Money Wise Weaknesses: Emotionally Volatile – Disillusioned – Impatient

Lmfao
Facebook really fucks things up.....Yeah. The only thing that's true about this one are my favorite subjects in school, lol. The Dweeb You were the dorkiest guy or girl in school. You loved your braces and your coke bottle glasses; you thought they made you look cool. Your favorite subjects were math, English, and biology and dissecting frogs did not gross you out. You had a secret crush on the cheerleader, but she never even noticed you. Your big goal in life was to go to MIT and become a rocket scientist, but you ended up in the Internet instead and made millions off creating a new technology. The cheerleader now wants you, but it turns out you're gay.

Even When You Know...
it's still difficult to hear the truth... Moms death certificate came today....cause of death: Complications from chronic alcoholism. Yes, I had a good idea that was the cause...yes I quit drinking over five years ago because I knew it ran in our blood...yes, my grandmother died from the same disease around the same age as mom (59) YES YES YES... but, I was hoping, even praying...that it was something different... No, I wouldn't have went out and drank....No no no NO....I was just....well....*sigh* I feel sad and satisfied at the same time...strangest feeling ever. ♥ PoStaL

Red!
Again, from Facebook..but this one is pretty dead on. You are Red! Red people are passionate and fiery. You do everything with energy and vibrance. You probably have a bit of a temper, too. :) You are always up for an adventure, and you almost never get tired! You have an intensity that is hard for some people to stand, but your friends love it about you. You are probably very opinionated and loyal, jumping up to defend the ones you love when they need you. You can sometimes be a little rash - quick to make decisions without really considering the outcome. As a general rule, you follow your heart more than your head. You can be competitive, and are probably good at just about everything. You, in a nutshell: Passionate, energized, loyal, intense, competent, extroverted, adventurous. RED!

Reel Big Fish- "your Guts (i Hate 'em)"
This is a song that i think i can apply to almost everyone in washington right now; and a great deal of other people "I wrote this song about you I wrote this song about you Just to let you know that I hate your guts And I think you suck I wrote this song about you I wrote this song about you Just to let you know that I hate your guts And I think you suck I hate the way you look (You make me sick) I hate the way you talk (I wanna punch you in the face) I can't stand you at all (You drive me insane) Why won't you go away? I wrote this song about you I wrote this song about you Just to let you know that I hate your guts And I think you suck This is your song Congratulations You're the inspiration I hate you so much That I wrote this song Congratulations You're immortalized I hate so much I hope you fuckin' die"

South Dakota?
I took a quiz on Facebook just now and apparently, I should live in South Dakota. I don't think so, but this is what it said. You prefer pine trees to palm trees, rivers to oceans, and mountains to skyscrapers. You pride yourself on your independence and open-minded attitude. You consider yourself extremely self-sufficient, but you have an extremely close-knit group of friends and family that you would do anything for. Everyone that knows you adores you and you have absolutely no enemies. You don't envy those with money, nice cars, or huge mansions, because you know that "the finer things" in life aren't material. You are extremely well-educated and will most definitely end up in a career that will make a difference in the world. Although you know you don't need to be in a relationship to be happy, you will be completely and entirely lovestruck by someone that is enamored by your inner beauty?"

For Those That Have Blinged Me For Fam Add Or Fu-bucks Please Read
So after a very tiring conversation that I felt dumb for even having! Which can be read by clicking below! My question to you all that have blinged me to see my NSFW or that I have paid fu-bucks to for bling is do you feel that I have taken advantage of you? This is a serious question and I really want to know! Anything you have to say kind or rude will not get you blocked or down rated by me or any of my friends. This is for my benefit and I would appreciate knowing. Click below to get to my profile and let me know or comment here

Every Drop I Desire
Every Drop I Desire Escaping into our lustful desires under the stars Venturing into silky thighs so dangerous Entrance into her sweet cherry filling my tongue goesRoaming deep into My Loves hidden pleasureYearning for her to climax as I tasteDrawing upon lips as sweet as morning dewReveling in the fantasy that is My AngelOverwhelmed by her scent and tasteProbing deeper into her succulent wares Indescribable is the love My Angel givesDesperate to fulfill her every needEnchanted by My Angels true beautySipping down her nectar as her fire grows Inner thighs shake as sweet lips swellRelease of tensions shake the night skyEvery Drop I Desire

State Of Love And Trust - Pearl Jam
Oh ...State of love and trust as I busted down the pretextSin still plays and preaches, but to have an empty court, uh huhAnd the signs are passin, grip the wheel, cant read itSacrifice receiving the smell thats on my hands ... hands, yeahAnd I listen for the voice inside my headNothin, Ill do this one myselfLay her down as priest does, should the lord be a countinWill be in my honour, make it pain, painfully quick, uh huhPromises are whispered in the age of darknessWant to be enlightened like I want to be told the end ... end, yeahAnd the barrel shakes and, a-directly at my headOh, help me, help me from myselfAnd I listen, from both sides of a friendNothin, Ill do this one myselfMyself ... myselfYeah, yeah ...Hey, na-na-na-na, hey thats somethingHey, na-na-na-na, hey thats somethingHey, na-na-na-na, hey thats somethingWanna back, back it away, yeahAnd I listen, oh, for the voice inside my headNothin, Ill do this one myselfOh, ah, and the barrel waits, trigger shakesAimed right at m

Vacation Is Over
Made it back from a short vacation. Even though it was incredibly hot I had a blast. Everything went as planned. I took the project truck on a 300 mile trip, and it ran without a single problem. I was able to catch some fish, and share them with the rest of the guys that came. Nothing like a little comradere(sp?) a lot of beer, and good fishing. The fishing however was only about an hour long, and the rest of the time we all sat around drank beer, and fixed all of the worlds problems. We even came up with a book, and movie...lol Now its back to daily grind with a new outlook on life. The stress seemed to melt away, and hopefully it stay that way. Three more days until the fourth, My favorite holiday. Bummer I have to work that night, but someone has to help the retards that light fireworks in their hands. God Bless the U.S.A.

Unknowing Hearts
My heart is breaking as i see your tears, tho not here you are my love, friend tho not lover as you are broken, my heart is torn apart what will it take for your will to break? dark and cold my heart, tho my skin is burning i will love you till my last even tho you will never be mine you are still dear to me your eyes deepen into my soul my smile cracks as you radiate the love but my love now you are broken the mirror image in me is showing the same reciprocating the last thing i want i miss you my dear, come back to me.

All To My One And Only True Love
i have had a lot of girlfriends, butonly a few loves. saing that, i can now say that i know true love and what it feels like. jamie is the most incredible woman(next to mom and grandmom) that has come into my life. before her i was always down and facking a smile to hide it. i dont fake it anymore. since she came life has become meaningfull instead of mundane. thanks to her i have direction and dreams agian. i know my paranoia and geliousie put a bit of strain but the only resion they are there is because i love her (and dont kick my ass for this babe cause its true) more then my own life. if it came down to it i would sacrifice it to give her life in a heart beat. the only resion i hold to life as strong as i do now that im with her is due to the fact that i bring her happiness. her son is another part of it. i know he is not mine but you would not be able to tell by the feelings that i have for him. we might not be in the same state right now or on the same side of the country even,

So Im A Lil Woo Hoo Right Now
so heres your chance to ask me anything and everything and you will get a straight answer no matter how much it pisses you off :) i made it nsfw so now you can show me boobs and ask whose are better

Wishing All A Safe 4th
IBSEXXY.COM Wishing one and all a very safe and happy 4th of July. At the same time asking you to remember how today really came about and why. And to thank God for our independence cause there are others that still don’t have thiers.

Friends
A Forever Friend A friend walk in when the rest of the world walks out." Sometimes in life, You find a special friend; Someone who changes your life just by being part of it.Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop; Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is Forever Friendship. when you're down, and the world seems dark and empty,

I Guess This Is Growing Up.
Your best friends become your worst enemy, lollipops turn into ciggarettes, the innocent ones turn into sluts, homework goes in the bin, mobile phones get used in class, detention becomes suspension, squash becomes vodka, kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the swings? When protection meant wearing a helmet, the worst thing that you could get from boys were cooties, mom was your hero and dad was who you wanna marry, the worst enemy you had were siblings , race issues were who ran the fastest, and war was just a card game, the only drug you knew of was cough medicine & wearing a skirt didn't mean you were a slut, the only thing you smoked was the tire on a bike, the only thing that could hurt was skinned knees & the only thing that can get broken were toys, goodbyes meant only until tomorrow. We couldn't wait to grow up. Huh?

I Wonder...
Sometimes I honestly wonder what people really think about me when I walk past them and every now and then I'll catch them looking twice. Am I a pretty face? Another girl being a teenager, an inspiration, everything they ever wanted, someone who looks like someone else they know? I'm not one to mope, or hold on to things, or admit that I'm wrong, but sometimes I wish I had someone or something to break me down. Sometimes I wish people would stop looking at me and start thinking about me. I don't want to be an item, something to store on a shelf, another one on the list. I want to be envied. I want what they all have and everything else that they don't. I want the sky, the sun, the moon, and unlimited love. I want your kiss, your touch, your laugh, and your smile. I want it to be me, and no one else.

The Gossamers Fandago
on and eerie,dreary night, besiged by sleeplessness and spite, i lie awake,tossing turning, deep inside emotions burning restlessness still setting the tone of eventide,again alone for a cold night tho not a friend i followed just the same something familiar felt in voice impelled me as if i had a choice so i embarked upon this quest for peace of mind that i may rest without slight of fright or worry without anxiousness or hurry delving a forest,deep and darkened come uncanny to the eye humming a chant i now harkened 'neath the peering,leering sky the assertion almost singing,luring in hypnotic rhyme,conjuring pulling me further,further still from home i found so sad,so ill till flowing in moonlight,beaming saw i thought to be dreaming with all elegance of gaudy heaven glowing gossamers gleaming in dance alas,i counted six,then seven silky sweet in thier entrance a sight truly most magestic as i noticed now more loud the voices singing silvery rej

Mn Humor
The owner of a golf course in Minnesota was confused about paying an invoice, so he decided to ask his secretary for some mathematical help. He called her into his office and said, "You graduated from The University of Minnesota; I need some help. If I were to give you $20,000, minus 14%, how much would you take off?" The secretary thought a moment, and then replied, "Everything but my earrings." ======================== A group of Minnesota friends went deer hunting and paired off in twos for the day. That night, one of the hunters returned alone, staggering under the weight of an eight-point buck. "Where's Henry?" the others asked. "Henry had a stroke of some kind. He's a couple of miles back up the trail," the successful hunter replied. "You left Henry laying out there and carried the deer back?" they inquired. "A tough call," nodded the hunter. "But I figured no one is going to steal Henry! ========================= Sven, a young Minnesotan, came running into the store and said

Dumb Criminals Of The Day
Dumb Criminals of the Day Monday, September 9th, 2002 • In Augusta, GA, a man armed with a pellet gun and a foam cooler tried to rob a convenience store. The robber punched eye holes in the foam cooler and stuck it on his head to complete his ‘disguise’. The clerk foiled the robbery by grabbing the pellet gun away from the crook, and pushing him out the door. The suspect fled but was later apprehended and charged. Wednesday, August 28th, 2002 A woman who dialed a wrong number didn’t let that stop her from trying to trade perscription drugs for crack cocaine. Even though the wrong number she dialed was for the St. Tammany Parish sheriff’s office.

New Song/poem
If I die will you take my hand, And walk with me through this endless land. This land of darkness, greed and fury, So I no longer have to worry. So I can die in peace knowing why, Every night a child cries. For something or someone to love and to hold, because all they've ever felt was bitter and cold. A life like mine is all they share, But they never find out until they dare. To pick up a knife or a gun, Shedding a tear as it glistens in the sun. Realizing it wasnt worth the plow, But its too late, it's all over now.

Brain Surgery
In the hospital the relatives gathered in the waiting room,where their family member lay gravely ill. Finally, the doctorcamein looking tired and somber. "I'm afraid I'm the bearer of bad news,"he said as he surveyed the worried faces. "The only hope left for your loved one at this time is a brain transplant. It's an experimental procedure,semi-risky and you will have to pay for the brain yourselves." The family members sat silent as they absorbed the news. After a great length of time, someone asked, "Well, how muchdoes a brain cost?" The doctor quickly responded, "$5,000 for a male brain, and $200 for a female brain." The moment turned awkward. Men in theroom tried not to smile, avoiding eye contact with the women, but some actually smirked. A man, unable to control his curiosity, blurted out the questioneveryone wanted to ask, "Why is the male brain so much more?" The doctor smiled at the childish innocence and to the entire group said, "It's just standard pricing procedure. We have

Dumb Laws Of Texas
One must acknowledge a supreme being before being able to hold public office. It is illegal to sell one's eye. A program has been created in the state that attempts to control the weather. When two trains meet each other at a railroadcrossing, each shall come to a full stop, and neither shall proceed until the other has gone. It is illegal to take more than three sips of beer at a time while standing. Up to a felony charge can be levied for promoting the use of, or owning more than six dildos. It is illegal for one to shoot a buffalo from the second story of a hotel. It is illegal to milk another person’s cow. The entire Encyclopedia Britannica is banned in Texas because it contains a formula for making beer at home.

Somewhere-within Temptation
Lost in the darkness, hoping for a signInstead there is only silence can't you hear my screams?Never stop hoping, need to know where you areBut one thing is for sure you're always in my heartI'll find you somewhereI'll keep on trying until my dying dayI just need to know whatever has happenedThe truth will free my soulLost in the darkness, try to find your way homeI want to embrace you and never let you goAlmost hope you're in heaven so no one can hurt your soulLiving in agony 'cause I just do not know where you areI'll find you somewhereI'll keep on trying until my dying dayI just need to know whatever has happenedThe truth will free my soulWherever you are, I won't stop searchingWhatever it takes, I need to knowI'll find you somewhereI'll keep on trying until my dying dayI just need to know whatever has happenedThe truth will free my soul

Tatoo
A guy gets home late one night and his wife says, "Where the hell have you been?""I was out getting a tattoo.""A tattoo? What kind of tattoo did you get?" "I got a hundred dollar bill on my penis."What the hell were you thinking? Why did you get a hundred dollar bill on your penis?""Well, number one, I like to watch my money grow...Number two, once in a while, I like to play with my money....And lastly, instead of you going out shopping, you can stay right here at home and blow a hundred bucks anytime you want.

Marie Catherine Laveau
Marie Laveau - the Voodoo Queen of New Orleans The Voodoo Queen of New Orleans. In all times, in all places, no one has ever risen to the statue or fame in Voodoo as Marie Laveau. Famed in history, infamous in folklore and ever present, even today.Marie Catherine Laveau was born in New Orleans on September 10, 1801. She was the natural daughter of two free persons of color, both mulattos. She was a free woman of color and a Creole. She was married to Jacques Paris in 1819 at the St. Louis Cathedral with the famed Père Antoine officiating. She had two children, both of whom appear to have died before reaching maturity. With a few years, her husband apparently also died she began calling herself the Widow Paris, a name that survived onto her tomb. Around the mid 1820’s she began a plaçage with Louis Christophe Dominick Duminy de Glapion with who she bore seven more children. (The plaçage system afforded interracial couples a marriage of conscience, if not legality). Of

Quotes That I Believe In (ill Try To Add New Ones Daily)
Quotes that I believe in Current mood: breezy "In religion and politics, people's beliefs and convictions are in almost every case gotten at second hand, and without examination." -- Mark Twain -- Mark Twain "jumped every bridge, I've run every line, I risk being safe, I always knew why, I always knew why. So here I am still holding on. With every step you climb, another mountain, every breath it's harder to believe. You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes, to get to that one thing"...

Beer, Fishing, Golf & Sex:
A man was walking down the street when he was accosted by a particularly dirty and shabby-looking homeless man who asked him for a couple of dollars for dinner. The man took out his wallet, extracted ten dollars and asked, "If I give you this money, will you buy some beer with it instead of dinner?" "No, I had to stop drinking years ago," the homeless man replied. "Will you use it to go fishing instead of buying food?" the man asked. "No, I don't waste time fishing," the homeless man said. "I need to spend all my time trying to stay alive." "Will you spend this on greens fees at a golf course instead of food?" the man asked. "Are you NUTS!" replied the homeless man. "I haven't played golf in 20 years!" "Will you spend the money on a woman in the red light district instead of food?" the man asked. "What disease would I get for ten lousy ! bucks ?" exclaimed the homeless man. "Well," said the man, "I'm not going to give you the money. Instead, I'm going to take you home for a terrific di

Marie Laveau's House Of Voodoo
Hello all, there are several great shops Ii suggest to ypu to shop while in town but these are not where I meet my tours. My tours are reservation only and can meet privatly at your special loation and time OR you could resevre and join my exclusive open tours which meet in mid-city at 4905 Canal street at the Beachcorner bar for New Orleans Only Evening Cemetery Tour— The Haunted Moonlight Graveyard tour at twilght time, the Magical Mystery Tour day till dusk, and Cities of the Dead Tour OR the Voodoo Cemetery tour at 12pm and the Tour of the Undead tour at 8:30pm meets at Jean Lafittes Blacksmith Shop Bar at 941 Bourbon Street. Call 504-915-7774 for reservations on book on line from tour page for discounts! Tap into the link below to see some of Bloody Mary's Tours and Voodoo Work! See Bloody Mary and hear an eerie EVPon AOL's The Smart Show! Visit Marie Laveaus Hpuse on my Voodoo Cemetery tour but visit marie Laveau's House of Voodoo shop while you are in town. It is file

You're From Rural Minnesota If................
*You know how to polka, but never tried it sober...*You know what knee-high by the Fourth of July means.*You know it's traditional for the bride and groom to go barhopping between the ceremony and the reception. *You were delighted to get a miniature snow shovel for your 3rd birthday.*You buy Christmas presents at Fleet Farm.*You spent more on beer than you did on food at your wedding. *You hear someone use the word "oof-dah" and you don't immediately break into uncontrollable laughter*You or someone you know was a "Dairy Princess" at a county fair.*You know that "combine" is a noun. *You let your older siblings talk you into putting your tongue on a steel post in the middle of winter. *You think Lutheran and Catholic are THE major religions.*You know that "creek" rhymes with "pick". *Football schedules are checked before wedding dates are set.*A Friday night date is taking your girlfriend shining for deer.*Saturday you go the the local bowling ally. *There was at least o

Queen Of The Voodoos
Marie Laveau New Orleans Historic Voodoo Museum Marie Laveau lived in New Orleans and became the Queen of the Voodoos. "The beautiful Marie Laveau, and yes she was beautiful, was born a Free Woman of Color in 1794 and died an old woman in 1881. She became the most famous and powerful Voodoo Queen of New Orleans. She was respected and feared by all. Voodoo in New Orleans was a blend of West African religion and Catholicism. Voodoo deities are called Loahs and they are closely paired with the Catholic Saints. All people in New Orleans were Catholic and slaves were baptized. Marie was a devout Catholic and attended Mass daily. Marie began as a hairdresser and later became a nurse during the Yellow Fever epidemics. She was skilled in the practice of medicine and knew the healing qualities of indigenous herbs. Concerned about the soul too, she would sit with the condemned in their last moments sometimes serving them their last meal. She was the first commerc

Attention Whore
Lately, whenever someone leaves me a shout, any messages I was or had planned typing was stopped until I clicked on the shoutbox. I'm uncertain of the reasoning behind this and honestly it has become quite annoying. Usually I do not let things bother me that are not such a big deal. Imagine being in the middle of writing something, especially being deep in thought, and not be able to type mid-sentence. Sometimes I write so much that I have copy/pasted alot so I don't have to rewrite everything. Now There are also times where the shout takes a few seconds to show up, so I have to stay on the page until it shows up. At first, when this started...well there goes my thought process due to a shout lolz. Now, I am able to click on another tab I have open and go back to what I was doing. Don't get me wrong and assume that I don't want shouts or have a habit of ignoring people. My shout box is where I do most of my *hugs* and status replies lolz. If you aren't in on what I mean sb me a *hug* s

Just Take The Step.
Hmm, where to start, so many ways to. First off I have to say this. Happiness is coming, it's on it's way to me, finally. I was beginning to wonder if it would ever find it's way inside.I have feelings developing, which at one point, I questioned. Now though, I don't need to question them anymore, I know what's happening. I welcome it, with open arms. It's so rare to find such a connection.I am very much into protecting them at all costs. It's a fierce determination unbendable by any other. I can't help but be this way, cause if one doesn't put their all into something, what is it then? Is it not worth it? I only go forward and look to the day where everything comes together, like the last thread of a finely woven fabric, it takes time, yes, but in the end, it only looks to be the best.Sometimes though, doubt enters the picture. The whys and how comes and what ifs. They linger, in the back, usually dormant, but will peek their ugly faces from time to time. It is human natu

Wake Up Make Up
Ok, honestly, I know that almost none of yas ever read the rantings of some 30 yr old loser that sits home on his computer with nothing better to do in his life than blog his inane thoughts.....................but seriously folks, is our society that pathetic, that it will accept a comercial, staring Ellen Degener-what's-her-fuckin-face, who fought for being accepted for who one is, not for what is thought of them................who has a show promoting these same ideas and principles...............and yet, in a make-up comercial, she says..............quote, "Inner beauty is important, but not nearly as important as outer beauty." And then goes on saying why she uses the make-up she does. Great, send a more positive message to the already disturbed women and girls looking for that one one beaken of light to say they are just fine, nope, remember ladies...............it's your outer beauty that matters, just ask Ellen. And what about the guy that called 911 cuz McDonalds, "Robbed him"

The Penis.....
THE PENIS, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons: * I do physical labor. * I work at great depths. * I plunge headfirst into everything I do. * I do not get weekends or holidays off. * I work in a damp environment. * I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation. * I work in high temperatures. * My work exposes me to contagious diseases. Sincerely, The Penis Dear Penis, After assessing your request and considering the arguments you have raised, The administration rejects your request for the following reasons: * You do not work eight hours straight. * You fall asleep after brief work periods. * You do not always follow the orders of the management team. * You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations. * You do not take initiative. * You need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working. * You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift. * You don't always observe necessary safety regulatio

My First Word
My First Word Every motion you made I felt In every stride you took Another piece of me burned Another piece dangling on your hook Every time that we made love You were only having sex While my heart poured out to you You were dreaming of who would be next For a short time you could tolerate me For a little while my touch would suffice Your flesh always craving the unknown Always seeking a new victim to entice

Special Show Tonight
Tonight only ...Celebrating the grand opening of the daily grind here on Fubar...come check them out prizes to be had and given away.. http://www.fubar.com/lounge/67585 That is the link to the lounge...now on air is Shot Daddy...Im up at 10pm eastern time... have a request or a special dedication..want to hear it live on air? Call 646-402-5694 x 15275

Ask Me.....
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Rehearsal For A Sonnet On Your Body--rod Mckuen
Were I a priest I'd lay you open like a rite and stretch you out across church conversation. I would translate every limb of you from my mother tongue to Latin, Greek, Greek orthodox. I'd mouth your arms as I would Sunday saints in sermon; sword and three-pronged spear to frighten newer converts and the little criminals. My lips would linger on your mouth in word only, but with such words devout parishioner has yet to hear. My tongue would curve and turn at talking of the coil and curvature and kindness of your tongue. Were I a cardinal, a pope, a bishop used as pawn I'd do you as a final prayer, then tucking you beneath my arm be gone from church and catechism contradiction and the dawn. 2. Comes now the taking of the wine and wafers. Whose blood and body is it? I leave the altar cowardly as week-old custard crusty and with perspiration round my edges. The choir goes crazy

Chapter 32
Jesse Now had a safe haven with Bob, no worries no problems just her and him in their own little world. kindred spirits looking to escape in each others ecstasy and love. By day she was this mother working hard just to keep her and her kids a family.. by night she could escape all her worries and problems and be free to be herself. She couldn't have built up the strength to have dealt with all the pressures of everything without Bob, he was her escape from reality her knight . " I am dreaming please never wake me up" she often thought. During the day hrs all the pressures of not having her babies with her came rushing back the differnce is now because of bob she can deal with them a lot better , all the court dates hearing and meetings didn't matter. she along with Ron held the image of the perfect family unit and pretty much convinced evrerone that they were all about the constuction of building the whole idea of them getting married.Ron knew she would never give Bob

Tears
Tears of sorrrow, tears of pain. My tears of sadness I keep contained.I miss you brother but gone you're not. Ive got our memories, Ive got your thoughts. I'm torn apart because you're not here, but you're in my heart, you'r in my tears. I will not cry or set them free, since you're in them they'll stay in me.

Devils Birthday
Deep down south in the cemetery where I stayExhuming all the corpses and I drag them awayOn ropes and trees the breeze makes them swayBreathing new life into the ones who decayedDeadmen crap as I dance a little dittyAnd the dead bitches rubbing on their cold ass tittiesHoldin' in pain shovin' their fingers in their boxesNasty bleedin' yellow pus and shit oozin' out their crotchesShove sticks in their eyes so the maggots fall outOver to the jack o lantern it's what they make their routeAll around the circle black candles start to incinerateJuices from their private parts start to generateAn eerie purple glow that's like a black lightIlluminate the pumpkin faces that are frozen in frightGivin' praise to Lucifer on this Halloween dedicationOctober burns, it's a Devil's night celebrationDouble, double toil an troubleFire burn and cauldron bubbleDouble, double toil an troubleSomething wicked this way comesDouble, double toil an troubleFire burn and cauldron bubbleDouble, double toil an trou

Part 2
INSERT ANY TEXT HERE Part2 It's Hump Day finished work early,I stop by you're place to suprise you.As I walk in I hear you Moaning saying Oh Yes give it to me Baby.Peaking around the bed room door I see you laying on the bed legs wide Youre favorite Toy rubbing youre swollen clit.I undress stroking my cock hard Before entering the room.I say do you want me to take over & fill you up.Surprised You see my hard cock & say Oh Yes I want that too.You turn over get on all four Spreading youre ass cheeks for me saying I want you in Here & my Toy in my Pussy Master.I pick up some lube from the night stand Lube youre back side Then slowly push My hard cock head in mmmmmmmmmmm Oh Yes It feels so good Fill me up you say.Slowly I push in till my balls are agaist youre ass cheeks.Reaching around you I slide youre vibrator into youre wet pussy slowly untill its all the way in then turn it on High speed .MMMMM Oh yes youcry out now fuck me hard.I grab youre hair As I start pounding you The vibrator

The Big Party! Night 6
I will be out enjoying the big party! Back on 7/6. Those of you in Skee- town - I might see ya there. But if I don't have a blast! Night 1- Burn Halo -- Pop Evil -- Saving Abel................................ I got an Autographed CD, and drum stick! Night 2- Loverboy -- Joan Jett & the Blackhearts hung out with a great friend! Night 3- Vaughn Anthony -- John Legend It was so HOT as in SEXY -- I thought people were goin' to get it ON!!!!!! Me is tipsy! Night 4- Need to Breathe -- Bare Naked Ladies Night 5- Jamey Johnson -- Jason Aldean It rained shorted out the chair and someone had to break in and rescue me. Night 6- Jake Owen -- Keith Anderson -- Kelly Pickler Damn are they HOT! Jake n Keith are so yummy!!!!!!! I got so drunk. Night 7- Counting Crows -- Sweet Wild Orange I stayed home cuz I need to recoop from Nights 5 & 6 Plus I miss my FuF

Need A Laugh? Read This!!!
And The Fight StartedMy wife sat down on the couch next to me as I was flipping channels. Sheasked,'What's on TV?'I said, 'Dust.'And then the fight started...******************************************My wife and I are watching "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire" while we werein bed. I turned to her and said,"Do you want to have sex?""No," she answered.I then said, "Is that your final answer?" She didn't even look at methis time, simply saying, "Yes." So I said, "Then I'd like to phone a friend."And then the fight started....******************************************Saturday morning I got up early, quietly dressed, made my lunch, grabbedthedog, and slipped quietly into the garage. I hooked up the boat up to thetruck,and proceeded to back out into a torrential downpour. The wind wasblowing 50mph, so I pulled back into the garage, turned on the radio, anddiscovered thatthe weather would be bad all day.I went back into the house, quietly undressed, and slipped back intobed. Icuddled up to m

The Big Party! Night 5
I will be out enjoying the big party! Back on 7/6. Those of you in Skee- town - I might see ya there. But if I don't have a blast! Night 1- Burn Halo -- Pop Evil -- Saving Abel................................ I got an Autographed CD, and drum stick! Night 2- Loverboy -- Joan Jett & the Blackhearts hung out with a great friend! Night 3- Vaughn Anthony -- John Legend It was so HOT as in SEXY -- I thought people were goin' to get it ON!!!!!! Me is tipsy! Night 4- Need to Breathe -- Bare Naked Ladies Night 5- Jamey Johnson -- Jason Aldean It rained shorted out the chair and someone had to break in and rescue me.

Wondering About Death...
So I was sitting here watching the news ,the reporter was talking about Micheal Jackson and all that "we the people think" he did wrong in his life. That just pisses me off ... Micheal had said once b4 that he wasnt prefect but he will try to be the best preson and father he can be. I agree with that statment 100% , noone is prefect and EVERY1 will make mistakes ,big one and small one.I know I have made a few and I'm sure u have to.I think that Micheal just act b4 thinking and alot of normal everyday people does the the same thing ,they dont get judged by the world so way does micheal jackson? b/c he has money or worth some money? !lol ur not gonna get it!! His kids will or someone n his family.So my ? is this when I die will there be a huge fuss over me like it is aout micheal jackson ?? R.I.P MICHEAL JACKSON u will be missed btw I really dont think it would any fuss.I do think that my husband will do the happy dance (no tears for him!) but I. hope u can see my point Something el

Catholic Officials Investigate Whether Woman Was Saved By N.o. Priest's Miracle
Catholic officials investigate whether woman was saved by N.O. priest's miracle 07:25 PM CDT on Tuesday, June 30, 2009 Dominic Massa / Eyewitness News BALTIMORE – Catholic church officials in Baltimore are poised to begin the process of investigating a miracle attributed to Francis Xavier Seelos, a 19th century Redemptorist priest who lived, worked and died in New Orleans, the city which has helped give rise to the cause for his canonization. Seelos.org Blessed Francis Xavier Seelos A committee appointed by the Archdiocese of Baltimore will soon look into the story of Mary Ellen Heibel, an Annapolis, Maryland woman who was cured of terminal cancer in 2005, after praying to Seelos. The findings will be sent to the Vatican, as part of the campaign to have Seelos declared a saint. In 2000, Pope John Paul II declared Seelos blessed, one step from sainthood. Part of that investigation involved a Gretna housewife, Angela Boudreaux, who said that her advanced cancer disa

Feelings
My life has been a rollar coaster. My relationships with guys have been a rollar coaster. But my last relationship with a guy it had a positive and negative impact in my life. The only thing i didnt expect out of that relationship was my heart having walls around it. I knew in my mind my relationship was over with this one person but i didnt know that i had closed my heart off to being open for love again. It wasnt until i got with my current boyfriend that i realized how closed my heart was. The mere thought of losing him scares that crap of me. I have never loved him like i had anyone else i have been with. But i dont want to go back to being how i was before him. who knows anymore. there is only so much i can say or do to tell him how i feel. It is up to him what he wants to do.

Hmm Website??
so i've been debating about this for a very long time..lets say 5 yrs..lol I've been offered a buttload of times to make my own website or to become a porn star...but i was always afraid that my family and friends will find out.so i always said no..with a big "N" lol.. well i was thinking bout it over a period of time..i kinda like the way betty paige did it.. u know how they did it privately..they had clients who would request ideas for what they want to be on the pic and they would pay for that set of pics..wasn't necessarly pornagraphic but more what there fantasy was. and the site and clients would be more private and discrete..to keep the clients identity's at a low...and the pics would be in a tasteful artistic way.. do u think that would work?? and what are your opinions.let me know...lol cause my thoughts are all over the place.

If U Was My Gf
let me say this blogg will probly be deleated by me but just wanted some info on how others are ok heres the question's 1 if i was ur bf would u have ur relationship status to in a relationship 2 would i be your #1 fam on ur page 3 would you ever put in your name r/l gf to viper xp 4 would your crush be on me

Mid-mich Tattoo Enthusiasts Should Come Check Me Out At The New Shop!!!
http://www.myspace.com/stateofthearttattoosllc (Saginaw, MI) http://www.myspace.com/lovemyinknsteel (my portfolio-new works folder) Just North of Shattuck on Bay Road in plaza w Hollywood Video GET A TATTOO WOOOT! (cuz i work here that's why!)

My Live Show
Okay FuBar friends! Catch me, as DJ Johhnie Walker, on RevoluSongs Radio at.... http://radio.revolusongs.come/listen.pls (Winamp) or http://radio.revolusongs.com (Windows Media Player) I'm LIVE every Wednesday night from 6-9 PM Eastern US time

Oh Brother, Druggie At It Again.....
Wow, I am honestly starting to believe that Druggie Limbaugh's habit is starting to erode his brain capacity. Now, for starters, I have mostly avoided trying to write anything about Michael Jackson. Yes, he's a legendary singer and artist, but in my opinion, this situation is not worth the first ten minutes of every cable news cycle. That being said, check out Druggie from earlier as he stated that Jackson "flourished under Reagan, languished under Clinton and Bush, and died under Obama"......um.....ok. But hey, let's have fun with this, maybe I can even make the rumor circuit!! 1968, Jackson 5 and 10 year old Michael sign with Motown. Lyndon B Johnson is president, meaning then President Johnson's war in Vietnam motivated Motown to look for musicians that would make us forget about the war. (sorry, that's all I could come up with) 1970-the group's first 4 singles are number 1. Of course, then President Nixon most likely broke into where their music was being written, and already kn

Back In Texas
OK, so it was a fricking long drive. I wound up having to stop to get some sleep. I got back to Texas, got to my house, and unloaded the truck. Thought hey, i haven't watched TV in a long time, let me flip on the tube. Well, I forgot that I had suspended my cable before I left, so I called up Time Warner, and they cancelled my account because it was suspended for 2 months (I was gone for 2 months). To top it off, they wanted to charge me an early termination fee to reactivate it. So needless to say, my cable, phone, and internet are no more. I am borrowing some from someone in the neighborhood, not sure who. Then to add insult to injury, my cell phone is being a pain and on it's last leg. I can sometimes answer a call, sometimes can't. I can't get to the text messages or the menu, unless someone sends me a text first. So, I went and ordered a new one from Newegg (once you know, you newegg). Plus, I gotta go back to work. Well, technically not until Tuesday, but I gotta

Life
Ok friend you may have noticed that i am not a bouncer anymore. that is something i am working on. i need more training so i could do my job better. maybe once i get this training one of your favorite bouncer will be back on the job. as for real life it starting to suck again right now. stuipd place a work for keeps blocking my unemployment which mean i am getting in a big mess money wise. i am not asking for anyone to help me out here just thought i would let my friends on here know. on the good side work is picking up again so maybe i will make it after all. have a great 4th everyone.

Mutual Interests
Greetings Are you in a situation you can't get out of for financial, kids, family or other personal reasons? Do you look back at the years and ask why? Do you have a need in your heart for romance again? Do you miss the warmth and caring that is gone? Have you realized that the only way you might find some happiness is an affair? Do you feel the same as I do? I love sexual pleasure, especially giving it, well, let me be honest- I crave sexual pleasure. I consider myself handsome, healthy, full of energy, and not shy at all about exploring and trying new things. I do believe that I've done it all because I am also not selfish at all, but who knows? So, I've decided to look for someone who is perhaps, in the same situation as I am. Someone who is looking only to experience something that has been missing in her life, and just wants to feel alive again, and wanted, needed by someone, with all the romance and affection.. Let me kiss your precious lips, caress your soft face, cuddle

New Design Line...
So I created a new line, starting with jewelry/stash boxes called D.O.A. by Karma it's a whimsical skeleton theme and a lot of fun. I'm also going to be doing some 'recycled art', I rescued some pictures from my friend's trash to repaint. I'll post links once I have them posted for sell. Let me know what you think, I appreciate the feedback. K

Definition Of Peripheral Neuropathy
What is peripheral neuropathy? Peripheral neuropathy describes damage to the peripheral nervous system, the vast communications network that transmits information from the brain and spinal cord (the central nervous system) to every other part of the body. Peripheral nerves also send sensory information back to the brain and spinal cord, such as a message that the feet are cold or a finger is burned. Damage to the peripheral nervous system interferes with these vital connections. Like static on a telephone line, peripheral neuropathy distorts and sometimes interrupts messages between the brain and the rest of the body. Because every peripheral nerve has a highly specialized function in a specific part of the body, a wide array of symptoms can occur when nerves are damaged. Some people may experience temporary numbness, tingling, and pricking sensations (paresthesia), sensitivity to touch, or muscle weakness. Others may suffer more extreme symptoms, including burning pain (especial

Wtf Is All This Anyway??
I've come to realize that this place is crap. People spend a good portion of their income buying fu bombs, bling, autos, VIP's, etc. for people.. which to me is just incredibly stupid... I'm sorry but this is how I feel. They also tell you shit, things they think you want to hear to make you feel 'special' when in reality you aint shit, just another prospect... a possibility.... not a first choice, nor second, just an 'if all else fails'. I don't think I'm going to be around much anymore, it all makes me both lmao and feel like puking. I'd also like to thank all of you who never bought me any of those cool fu things!! Guess I didnt do enough begging or show enough cleavage :p hahahahaha... *puke gag* I'm so kidding!! I'm not a fu-ho... yall be good, see ya around

Once Again For Those Who Didnt See It.. 101..
95% of females can't cum from sex UNLESS, they're on top..and they're on top why? so they can stimulate their clit..by doin' their lil snake charm grindin' grab on our pelvic bones..which..really does nothin' for us..so the key is..eat pussy first..make her cum a few times...numb her up..then hammer away or soft and slow with alot of vaginal teasing with your magic stick to build it all up in the end, however u like...... now once ur inbetween her legs..don't just fuckin' dive in there like a bum at a thanksgiving charity dinner...take your fuckin'time I know pussy is nearly irresistable...but don't act like it is.. lick her inner thighs, kiss them..kiss around her pussy lips..kiss the lips etc. etc..finally once u've got your tongue on her clit..this is what u do..(u can use ur hands to spread her lips here if u want..that's all preference...it's easier to make em cum w/their lips spread..so u have easier access to their clit) now...roll the tip and somewhat flat part of your

Karl Malden
LOS ANGELES, California (CNN) -- Veteran actor Karl Malden, who won an Academy Award for his role in "A Streetcar Named Desire," has died at age 97, his manager said Wednesday. Malden died in his sleep about 2:30 a.m. Wednesday, said his manager, Bud Ross. Malden appeared alongside Marlon Brando in two of director Elia Kazan's classic films of the 1950s -- "A Streetcar Named Desire" and "On the Waterfront." He won the best supporting actor Oscar for "Streetcar" in 1952 and was nominated for his role as a priest crusading against crooked union bosses in "On the Waterfront." Ross said he did not know the cause of death. "It could be a combination of things," Ross said. "He was 97 years old." In addition to his movie career, Malden starred in the 1970s television crime drama "The Streets of San Francisco," with Michael Douglas. Malden was the president of the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences from 1989 to 1992. In 2004, he received the Screen Actors Guild Life Achievement

Can It Be?
ok as James says on His Blog as i will also say here on mine We have a top ten of nothing but females. not saying anything bad about them. but its time for a GUY to be back up there. I am gonna try to turn red and would love if everyone could help. So come by rate my page, rerate, get all your friends to come and help out too. And thanks to everyone who got me where i am now. I really appreciate it. ALL LOVE WILL BE RETURNED. Thanks Everyone me and him have both decided to go for it both decided we would do the unthinkable its a long road to the Top but lets see if its actually possible? of course im expecting negative feedback as well as possative on this blog so plz speak freely - but how nice would it be? to finally have a dude in red on here? Plz comment as u wish and rate :) - Freezie

I Feel Like I'm On Yahoo
I have gotten booted so damned much,that I am tempted to not log back in. It is very frustrating. I tried two different browsers! I might try another if I can find another... lmao. I am off to bathe be back when I can. I won't explain lust cause everyone knows what lust is... lmao!

Go And Have A Good Time.
Come, maybe you haven’t realized that my love is not forever, because sometimes the flame in my heart is extinguished. Please don’t say I don’t think about you, I don’t do anything else but to think. Come; don’t be afraid of the truth that when the sun rises and the morning comes you will come back to me. And then I win. And now, go, go and have a good time and do it for the both of us.

Saliva- Your Disease
In one moment I'm goin all the way. I make my poetry everyday. And I'm frozen, comin right on time I froze my mind with that serious rhyme. And I'm open comin up inside you know my mind has got a grand design and I'm flowin, goin all the way I make my point to be everyday come on. And I wanna take you down, but your soul cannot be found. It doesn't matter much you see cause your disease is killing me. And you know its only right cause it feels like paradise. I know nothing is for free cause your disease is killing me. My minds broken, I'm goin up in smoke if you breathe my toke I'm guaranteeing you choke, and I'm chosen to testify to the masses wear dark glasses like the cops in Texas. All knowing its not a premonition kill the competition like a man on a mission, I'm blowin comin up inside like the Bee Gees cry I'm just stayin alive come on. And I wanna take you down, but your soul cannot be found. It doesn't matter much you see cause your disease is killing me. And y

July 1st 2009
ok- so...my daughters birthday is today, she is one year old now. She made it this long woohoo for both her and me :). She got a free donut today and was happy about that, flirted with the old men at the donut shop and talked to the old ladies there. It was cute! It seemed that she was a bit grouchy today, just for the hell of it...but I knew that she was tired, cause mama got her up instead of the other way around lol. Things went pretty well, and then I get a phone call from my husband, saying he got fired...so...yeah... I may not be on as much as I would want to, cause I'm going to the boss to let them know...that if they need me for any shift, I'll take it. Which means I'll have to stock up on some 5 hour energy shots, cause I don't think I'll make it through a midnight shift. I'm not quite sure on how to take everything right now, it's still sinking in...I bet I'll know by the time the end of the month comes up...with being over my head with bills... So I guess tha

Grayskull Of Power The By
The one time Prince Adam had to say his oath to transform into He-Man backwards as in today’s title was when he was on the planet Trolla where everything to him was backwards, with trees growing down from the sky among other things! In the original cartoon “He-Man And The Masters of the Universe” (I would watch this when I got home from school and used to cross-reference everything) I saw a lot that inspired me to write … mostly nonsense in my younger years, but the older I get the more connected I realize it is. It occurred to me with a graphic novel I’d read a few days ago that even though the plot sounded like something you imagine as “Masterpiece Theatre” fare, it was actually intelligent and challenging, what I look for in the books I read and the people I meet! Any literature set in the era of Victorian England tends to radiate between the extremes of Rudyard Kipling and Charles Dickens. Kipling deals with the glory and is borderli

My Love, By John Mcintosh
Shining eyesthat flowfrom bottomless love,Abandoned laughterthat defines innocence,Gentle touchthat calms the raging seaof insecurity,Quiet awarenessmissing nothing,Complete knowing ...all is providedin the moment,Towering abovethe illusion of fear,Her loveconsumes all doubtin unquenchable Joy ...This is my love,My Life,My Peace,My Lover,My self.

How I Feel About You?
Here I sit, thinking only of youWondering what is to become of usUnderstanding all you have been throughHoping to slowly gain your trustMy heart aches for you, and also I yearnI want to understand youIn hopes that I will learnYour unique and special qualities amaze meYour smileYour mindYour eyesYour hairYour ability to cheer me upWhen you see that I am downMy feelings for you go beyond that of wordsAnd at first it didn't seem realBut that just taught me a lessonIn doubting what I feelIt seems I dreamed you into lifeAnd the reason for my stareThe bluest skyThe deepest seaDon't even compareYou're so very special in every single wayAnd thoughts of youRun through my headEvery hour of the day I hope that you will understandJust how I feel about youI want to be your guiding handFor all that you go through

Youth Is Spoiled!!
Yahoo NEWS article.. 13 year old discovers an original walkman What better way to commemorate the 30th anniversary of Sony's iconic Walkman than to ask a teenager for some feedback on the device? The BBC couldn't think of one, and neither can I. I like to imagine that the experience was similar to an archaeologist rediscovering how a recently excavated artifact was employed thousands of years ago. But I'm well aware that it must have been different for 13-year-old Scott Campbell, who co-edits his own news Web site. For one, teenage impatience must have stood in the place where I fantasize scientific curiosity should have been. "My dad had told me it was the iPod of its day," Campbell wrote. "He had told me it was big, but I hadn't realized he meant that big. It was the size of a small book." Sure enough, people on the street noticed the antique clinging from his belt with amusement and friends on his school bus were quick to come up with some witty remark. Campbell went on t

Taps
If any of you have ever been to a military funeral in which taps was played; this brings out a new meaning of it. Here is something Every American should know. Until I read this, I didn't know, but I checked it out and it's true: We in the United States have all heard the haunting song, 'Taps.' It's the song that gives us the lump in our throats and usually tears in our eyes. But, do you know the story behind the song? If not, I think you will be interested to find out about its humble beginnings. Reportedly, it all began in 1862 during the Civil War, when Union Army Captain Robert Ellicombe was with his men near Harrison's Landing in Virginia . The Confederate Army was on the other side of the narrow strip of land. During the night, Captain Ellicombe heard the moans of a soldier who lay severely wounded on the field. Not knowing if it was a Union or Confederate soldier, the Captain decided to risk his life and bring the stricken man back for medical attention. Craw

A Great Time.....
Well I know it's been awhile since i've logged in but that's because i've been causng trouble over seas... thats right ladies and gentleman i am curently druck as shit in bahrain.... before this i was running around dubai just 4 wheelin on the dunes... man have i hade a great time well for those of you that still know and remember me just say hey and i will talk to you as soon as i can!

The Break Up
So yea, about a month ago i broke up with the one guy that i had mistakenly thought was perfect. I loved him with all my heart, but I never was good enough for him. I dont hate him, but I have changed my mind about ever being with him again. It's not worth being ignored. I know he will never change. Like the saying goes, you can only succeed in changing a man when he is in diapers!

Karma Sometimes Bites You Back!
The other day I was going to my nieces Dance recitals. The whole way i was thinking about the last time i went and how long and drawn out it was.. I was hoping this one was allot faster and more entertaining.. Don't get me wrong my nieces were great but watching the other 200 kids in between is what killed me. SO needless to say I wasn't that thrilled to go.. I find a parking lot near the theater and I'm overjoyed at the fact I don't have to walk.. I step out of my car and I'm walking up to the payment booth when a homeless man approaches me .. I think well either hes going to ask me for money (which i usually try to donate) or hes going to walk on by.. either way I'm fine.. Well he comes up to me and shows me a parking ticket that covers the whole day and hes willing to sell it to me for 5 dollars. I think to myself well a ticket for the evening is only 5 dollars whats the harm in buying his ticket and helping him out. SO of course me being who i am hand the guy % dollars tell him t

Poetry * Slave Of Fear & Others By Marq
I'm not going to go into the details of this blog, however, most that have known me will figured out where and what it stems from. All of the poems represent what I ve dealt with in the past 2 years. But it has finally come to pass... Next problem! This blog scrolls. Slave Of Fear Tragic eyes of a tormented soul Made broken & callous from an arrogant asshole Left terrified, isolated, cynical, and cold Blind to the obvious with no belief in what she’s told Searching for defects & ulterior motives When none exist & she should know t

Pain
PAINShe slowly smiles trying to hide the tears that will betray her,Showing the world how sad she really is.If only if she could smile for real.If only she can hide it a little longer.She hates for people to see her cry.She doesn’t want anyone to ask her if she is ok.All she ask is to die alone in this cold world All she needs is a sudden death. Something to take this pain away quickly.Maybe if she is lucky,Death will be knocking on her door tonight.If only if that would be true.She knows that she will never be love.There for she will never try to love.The poor girl had been broken.Her poor heart cant take it no more.There are to many pieces to even try to mend Everyday is a count down to end.Everyday she puts on her mask and hides her feelings.Maybe one day someone will see though it.Maybe someday someone could save her.Save her from her pain.Save her from herself.Good bye my loveI am sitting here begging for death Oh please come to me tonightOh when will he put me in my placeA

Good By My Love
Good bye my loveI am sitting here begging for death Oh please come to me tonightOh when will he put me in my placeA place with no more sadness and no more painI would just like to say good bye to this world I have walk this path to many times A path of pain a path of hurt fill with sadnessIts making my heart shatter in pieces Way to many to try to mend I would like to say good bye to everyone I am done walking this lonely road I just want the pain to leaveI want to take my last breath I want the my heart to take its last beatAll thanks to the hurt I have I would like to say good bye to himSo this is my last plead to death I am begging to end this soonPlease make it quick My heart cant take it no more Good bye my love

Need A Red Guy Up There
We have a top ten of nothing but females. not saying anything bad about them. but its time for a GUY to be back up there. I am gonna try to turn red and would love if everyone could help. So come by rate my page, rerate, get all your friends to come and help out too. And thanks to everyone who got me where i am now. I really appreciate it. ALL LOVE WILL BE RETURNED. Thanks Everyone James

Helpful Info
You probably got this cautionary note last spring, but it IS that time of year again... TICK WARNING! I hate forwarding bogus warnings but this one is real, and it's important. Please send this warning to everyone on your e- mail list. If someone comes to your front door saying they are checking for ticks due to the warm weather and asks you to take your clothes off and dance around with your arms up, DO NOT DO IT!! THIS IS A SCAM!! They only want to see you naked. I wish I'd gotten this yesterday. I feel so stupid.

I Will Not Be Around For A While....
I finally got an apartment and while at this point it will be more like camping til I can get my stuff from up north, it will be sane. There is insanity here I can tolerate no longer. I'm moving as much as I can into the apartment tonight and will come back and get the rest of it when the opportunity presents itself. Thank you Psyche for agreeing to hang with me at the apt tonight after work!! It means more than you can possibly imagine given my circumstances right now. LOL So...we do have internet at work we can use so I will check in when I can. Weekends I will not be around at all. Y'all will be missed more than you know but I'll be back as soon as I can!! Take care everyone...and play nice!! Let the adventure begin! AGAIN! LOL

R.i.p. Lisa... I Miss You So Much More Then Words Will Ever Speak!
Well, it's that time of the year again. For those of you who don't know, I'm not big on the 4th of July. I know that it is Independence day and all, and I can appreciate that. But I lost someone that was, is and always will be so very precious to me!!! Although it's been 13 yrs, it still seems like it was yesterday.... I had the most amazing friend that I grew up with and had known since we were little kids. Since Kindergarten as a matter of fact. It was a remarkable friendship that doesn't come along everyday. It was one that was full of pure bliss! It isn't everyday that you find a friend who you will never argue with or have a single disagreement with. We NEVER had so much as an ill feeling toward one another. We never looked at each other in a bad way, judged the other, or anything of that nature. When she was 18 yrs old, she had cancer and beat it! Lisa had to learn to do so many things over as she lost her right hip. I was so very proud of her. She then went into remissi

Truth Comes Out!
After the sudden death of Michael Jackson, Chandler tells the truth. In 1993, Chandler told a psychiatrist and police that he and Jackson had engaged in sexual acts that included oral sex, the boy gave detailed description of Jackson’s genitals. The case was settled out of court for a reported $22 million, but the strain led Jackson to begin taking painkillers. Eventually he became addicted. Now maybe for the remorse of his death Chandler decides to tell us the truth. “I never meant to lie and destroy Michael Jackson but my father made me to tell only lies. Now I can’t tell Michael how much I’m sorry and if he will forgive me.” Evan Chandler was tape-recorded saying amongst other things, “If I go through with this, I win big-time. There’s no way I lose. I will get everything I want and they will be destroyed forever…” Under the influence of a controversial father who told his son to tell that Jackson had touched his penis. J

If The Telephone Rings Today..... Water It!
THE FOLLOWING IS QUOTED FROM BERGAN EVANS ON NORBERT WEINER, NUCLEAR PHYSICIST The second concept Wiener has to establish is that of entropy. Probability is a mathematical concept, coming from statistics. Entropy comes from physics. It is the assertion-- established logically and experimentally-- that the universe, by its nature, is "running down", moving toward a state of inert uniformity devoid of form, matter, hierarchy or differentiation. That is, in any given situation, less organization, more chaos, is overwhelmingly more probable than tighter organization or more order. The tendency for entropy to increase in isolated systems is expressed in the second law of thermodynamics-- perhaps the most pessimistic and amoral formulation in all human thought. It applies however, to a closed system, to something that is an isolated whole, not just a part. Within such

Unveiling A Parallel, A Romance
CHAPTER 11. A COMPARISON. "He who rests on what he is, has a destiny above destiny, and can make mouths at fortune."—EMERSON. "Work out your own salvation."—ST. PAUL. I HAD a feeling, when I retired to my room that night, as if years lay between me and the portion of my life which I had spent in Paleveria. But across the wide gulf my soul embraced Severnius. All that was beautiful, and lovable, and noble in that far-off country centered in him, as light centres in a star. But of Elodia I could not think without pain. I even felt a kind of helpless rage mingling with the pain,—remembering that it was simply the brutality of the social system under which she had been reared, that had stamped so hideous a brand upon a character so fair. I contrasted her in my mind with the women asleep in the rooms about me, whose thoughts were as pure as the thoughts of a child. Had she been born here, I reflected, she would have been like Clytia, like Ariadne. And oh! the pity of

Redoing An Old Blog
I wrote a blog a while back and apparetnly i need to remind people of the shit i deal with on a weekly basis ..... I honestly am at the point in whichI either break down or just laugh threw it.. so please i beg you if you care or respect me dont add to my stress.. And no im not just picking one person and pointing the finger. I hope that bywriting this maybe you as a person can see that life outside Fu might not be great, try saying something nice and try respecting others and their right to have a place to come be safe and breath... Love you Wicked Heres the old blog: I am proud of the fact that Is usually pretty sweet and morally sound when it comes to being on the Internet.. What you see is what you get. I try to make everyone feel better about all the shit that's going on in their lives and make them at least laugh... Most I can make them feel a little bit better but some I cant help... What I want to know is what the fuck happens when my day is going to shit... do i compla

This Is Ghey.
I am trying to see what it would take for this account to be deleted.Maybe I should leave Scrapper or BJ a comment? Well I guess I am now comment blocked.I cant post shit. :D now time to go to BJ and Scrappers page.

I Need You All!!!
HERE IS THE DEAL I NEED RATES AND COMMENTS PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I WOULD GREATLY APPREICATE ALL MY "FRIENDS" HELP ON THIS ONE!!! THANK YOU TO ALL THAT HELP!!! oxoXO HERE IS THE LINK TO THE PIC JUST CLICK ON IT AND START GOING AT IT :)

Bling Credit Auction
Auctioning Off bling credits... Taking offers on 50 bling credits (thats 2 $20 bling credit packs) the highest bid will win auction only fu bucks. The bidding begins today and ends tomorrow July 2nd at 10am west coast time and u can bid more than once... Comment on blog all bids ty and bling will be given right after paid for... I will send you a message that u won the auction...

I Hate Myself For Loving You
How does one get over a heartbreak? Is it truely possible to every really get over it or does it always linger in the back of your mind? My only guess is it's one of those things that the concept of out of sight/ out of mind plays in to. I guess i am running away from this but i cant help it. He is just too much for me to handle anymore. UGH! Fuck you Mike Harris!

The Dream
The Dream Imagine yourself in God's arms. You have fallen asleep, and you begin to dream. Some dreams take you outside your home, others to different countries, and still others to different worlds. Yet, if you were to awaken, you would still find yourself in God's arms. Regardless of the dreams you created, regardless of what you chose to believe and experience in those dreams, regardless of how scared you were, or the words you chose to use, God watched over you with everlasting love, patience and peace. Imagine yourself smiling as you watch your children sleep. So too does God watch over you with absolute love. Regardless of what you choose to see as true, regardless of how you view Him or dream of Him, He waits patiently for you to awaken. You might scream or kick Him, but He understands that you dream, and that you are simply reacting to a dream. He embraces you with perfect love and acceptance. He strokes your head, and although you sleep, you feel His love. And de

Kinda Sad
I was reading this little news blurb today and was kina floored..I think there seem to be a LOT of fat people here in Colo so it made me shudder to realizze that we have the lowest number in the country. I really think HUGE efforts need to be made to start fixing this epidemic in the US...it is sad that we are coming to this. The CDC has long said that 1/3 of Americans are obese..here are some of the updated numbers for this year Mississippiis highest in the country for 5 years running at 32.5% of adults being obese Alabama 31.2% West VA 31.1% Tennessee 30.2% Colorado has the lowest at 18.9% followed by- MA 21.2% CT 21,3% Miss. also had 44.4% child obesity

I'm Sorry
It has come to my attention that some people on here think they are the only ones I should talk to. I don't know why. I thought I was allowed to talk to whomever I wanted. Sometimes I get on and I have no intention of talking to anyone. I just want to get on here, read some blogs or MuMMs and MAYBE comment on them. Doesn't mean I'm actually talking to people. But when I do that, I get smart ass messages in my shoutbox, well after I've logged off. So here's the thing, If you see me on and I'm not talking to you...I don't want to. It's nothing personal, I just don't want to talk. If you come to me bitching about it...delete me. I don't want to hear it. I do have other friends.

~women And Drinks~
Drinks That Reflect Personality Before you order a drink in public, you should read this! SevenNew York City bartenders were asked if they could 'nail' a woman's personality based on what she drinks. Though interviewed separately, they concurred on almost all counts. The results: PART A: WOMEN-DRINKS, WHO THEY ARE, & YOU! Drink: Beer Personality: Causal, low-maintenance; down to earth.Your Approach: Challenge her to a game of pool. Drink:

Very Special Angel Love From This Angels Heart
To all the special fubar ladies in my life and not yet........a very special blog dedicated to you. I truly feel blessed throughout my time spent in fubar, the fu-llove you have extended me has been very special, cherished treasured and kept dear to my heart. I have always made a special effort to give everyone the most special side of my angel love. Truly enjoy making your lives so much brighter, sweeter and warmer each and everyday. There is a lot more angel love and blessings to come from this special angel heart. Always open to new friends, if we have not met on here, please send me a friends request. Theres angel love available for you too. I do have a very special wish.......after a lot of reflection, truly from deep in my heart, I am in need of a very special lady on her with a fu-love that runs just as deep in the heart as this angel. I truly need to feel a very special love each and everyday...a love more romantic in nature. There is so much romantic love waiting inside this

Once In A Lifetime..
Once in a lifetime you find something special, Your lives intermingle and somehow you know this is the beginning of all you have longed for A love you can build. A love that will grow. Once in a lifetime to those who are lucky, a miracle happens and all dreams come true. I know it can happen, it happened to me, for I've found the "Once in a lifetime" in you-

True Sisterhood..
A ministering angel shall my sister be. -- William Shakespeare A sibling may be the keeper of one's identity, the only person with the keys to one's unfettered, more fundamental self.-- Marian Sandmaier A sister can be seen as someone who is both ourselves and very much not ourselves - a special kind of double.-- Toni Morrison A sister is a gift to the heart, a friend to the spirit, a golden thread to the meaning of life.-- Isadora James A sister is a little bit of childhood that can never be lost.-- Marion C. Garretty A sister shares childhood memories and grown-up dreams.-- Author Unknown A sister smiles when one tells one's stories - for she knows where the decoration has been added.-- Chris Montaigne A true sister is a friend who listens with her heart.-- Author Unknown A younger sister is someone to use as a guinea-pig in trying sledges and experimental go-carts. Someone to send on messages to Mum. But someone who needs you - who comes to you with bumped heads, grazed kne

Updates N Stuffz. [7.1.09]
I'm writing this out for my friends who have been wondering whats going on with my health and new apartment and such. Forgive me if parts don't sound right or aren't in order - sleep deprivation does that to a person. HEALTH STUFFZ: Cough is about 70% gone, and I'm seeing a pulminologist in a few weeks, to find out why I've been sick for so long, and why nothing seems to get rid of the wheezing. Yes, that's a little scary, and I would be quitting smoking (with Chantix) if the doc agreed to write the script, but... he won't yet - because... I'm on day 12 without sleep. No, I'm not kidding. They started the prednisone (100mg a day) Father's Day night. Since then, I haven't slept more than a few minutes without waking up wide awake, only to have to lay another hour to try to fall asleep again, to being on the verge, and poof, wide awake again. As soon as my body starts falling asleep, for some reason, I stop breathing. Not congested, not blocked airway, my brain just do

Days Of Our Psyche...
Hello friends, so its been awhile since i wrote a blog about my life so here it goes. New Things: I got that awesome amazing job i had been talking about and i LOVE it! Ive met some great people and its nice when going to work is like going to hang out at a friends house lol. As some of you may know im a writer and i like to think im very good at it. Ive recently been given an amazing opportunity to display my work but anyway thats all i can say at this time. What else..hhmm Oh YEAH! Ive been having lots of freaky crazy incredible sex and its not only wonderful but great excercise lmao. Several weeks ago i started talking to an old fwb and we've decided to see where it goes this time. To be honest its just nice to have fun without labels and expectations. Finally as ive saved the best for last ive decided its time to move out from my mother's and allow her to continue healing without me enabling her anymore. So ive found this really cute lil 2 bedroom place on some land so it ha

What If I Said....(repost)
What if I said....I love youJust what would you doWhat if I said....It's you I wantWould it be my dreams you'd hauntWhat if I said....It's you I needWould you make me beg and pleadWhat if I said....All the things I feel insideWould you run and hideWhat if I said....I love you

Changing Spotlight Requirement For Level 32 Progression.
hey everyone, today we'll be replacing the level 32 spotlight requirement with something a little easier to attain. we'll also be resetting all the bids on the current spotlight, so you won't lose any fubucks or anything like that if you've bid on it. stay tuned... edit: don't be too happy! the spotlight requirement is still in there, it's just at a higher level.... ;) -mike

Chris Ledoux "runaway Love"
One of my favorite songs by him! Bluebonnets line a hundred miles of texas highway All the way from Katy to downtown San Antonio The sun's so hot I feel the steam rise off the Chevrolet If you can stand the heat we'll drive on down to Mexico Well, I got some money; we can make it to Laredo We'll drop off our troubles in the mighty Rio Grande Come on sugar ain't you my amigo We can build our castles in the Tapico sand CHORUS I got the wheel baby you can have my shoulder We'll find forever in the stars up above No need to worry, you can slide on over We're ridin' high on a runaway love We're ridin' high on a runaway love Ten thousand kisses blowin' through me like a hurricane Should've left that one horse town a long, long time ago We'll shoot tequila, watch the sun set over yesterday We'll cross the border babe and we're on cruise control I know its crazy and we might be takin' chances But goin' nowhere was more than we could stand I'll be your Romeo; you can be my

Lighthouse By Rod Mckuen
LIGHTHOUSE Because imagination sticks get caught settles in as we grow older finally there is only one long, silent hour even if it lasts a day. Have we been living all our years for this? It may be so. It well may be the size of life is measured by the hours, years and days it takes for each of us to turn within the circle of the slowest dance. Where then and why how does the eagle or the falcon fly ? And if the rabbit runs does he run forward or run back? The eagle and the falcon too are foragers, but self-propelled. Lucky rabbit always running to its lair and always, always finding something there. I think perhaps that we are running, yes. Always away and not toward. I think that we are looking not quiet for the end but for a slow dance done upon the killing ground. The damage we inflict in love or hate or any other name it’s given is usually beyond repair. What then can we give

More You Know Your Canadian When...
You stand in "line-ups" at the movie, not lines. You understand the sentence, "Could you please pass me a serviette, I just spilled my poutine." You eat chocolate bars instead of candy bars. You drink pop, not soda. You know what it means to be on pogey. You know that a mickey and 2-4's mean "Party at the camp, eh!" You can drink legally while still a teen. You talk about the weather with strangers and friends alike. You don't know or care about the fuss with Cuba, it's just a cheap place to travel with good cigars and no Americans. When there is a social problem, you turn to your government to fix it instead of telling them to stay out of it. You're not sure if the leader of your nation has EVER had sex and you really don't want to know if he has! You get milk in bags as well as cartons and plastic jugs. Pike is a type of fish, not some part of a highway. You drive on a highway, not a freeway. You know what a Robertson screwdriver is. You have Canadian Tire money

You Know You're Canadian When
You know all the words to "If I had a million dollars" by The Barenaked Ladies, including the inter-stanza banter between Steven and Ed. You dismiss all beers under 6% as "for children and the elderly." You hum David Foster's '88 Calgary Olympics theme in the shower. You make up patriotic lyrics to go along with David Foster's '88 Calgary Olympics theme. You remember when Alanis Morrissette was "Too Hot To Hold". You can't do that on television...) You think there isn't enough of Peter Gzowski to go around. You think Ed the Sock is funny. You wonder why there isn't a 5 dollar coin, as you can only use more change. You spend hours in the dark making scale models of the Avro Arrow and cursing the Diefenbaker government. (My brother Brad... ) You cried when Gus "drowned" on Road To Avonlea. You watch MuchMusic constantly, in the hopes of occasional fleeting glimpses of The Tragically Hip. You have an In

Top 10 Reasons To Be A Man In My Life!
10. I am an intelligent woman with a lot to offer. 9. I truely care about your feelings and what you want in life. 8. I am an independant woman with clear views and ideas about how life should be. 7. I can never have too many friends. 6. I enjoy spending time with the people I meet. 5. Im naughty 4. Im naughty 3. Im naughty 2. Im Naughty 1. IM NAUGHTY! LOL!

Naughty Aplication
NAUGHTY APPLICATIONYour Name:Your age:Favorite position:1. Do you think I'm cute?.2. Would you have sex with me?3. Lights on or off?4. Would you have to be drunk?5. Would you take a shower with me?6. Have you ever thought about having sex with me?7. Would you leave after or stay the night?8. Do you like cuddling afterwards?9. Condom or skin?10. Have sex on the first date?11. Would you kiss me during sex?12. Do you think I would be good in bed?13. Would you use me as a booty call?14. Can I use you as a booty call?15. Can we take pictures of the act?16. How long would we have sex?17. Would you tell your friends about me?18.Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

You Think I Love My Country The 65 To 100 Reasons To Love Canada
65. Terry Fox "A true Canadian hero." Nicole Okano, Richmond, B.C.66. Mr. Dressup "Although Ernie Coombs passed away a few years ago and Casey, Finnegan, Aunt Bird and Alligator Al are all tucked away in a special chest. Our children will always remember the many skills and information they learned from the show." Jo-Anne Page, Toronto67. Pierre Elliott Trudeau "He was an inspirational leader." Shammy Singh, Toronto68. A prime minister [Stephen Harper] who apologizes. "The prime minister's apology to the aboriginal peoples who attended residential schools is a wonderful accomplishment and a step in the right direction for the future." Eileen Lucas, Fort McMurray, Alta.69. David Suzuki "He is fighting the most important fight there is today...to save our place on this planet." Bernadette Hardaker, Orangeville, Ont.70. "Mike Myers "Canada's greatest ambassador." Linda Lee, Moncton, N.B. 71. Musicians "Jann Arden, Bryan Adams, Sarah MacLachlan, Great Big Sea, Loreena McKennitt, Bare

35 To 64 On Reasons To Love Canada
35. "Our national and provincial parks" Sandra Kropinske, Kamloops, B.C.36. Niagara Falls "It's spectacular at night. Canada is fortunate to have a wonder of the world." Tracey Ilnisky, Gilbert Plains, Man.37. Oceans "The smell of the Atlantic Ocean (with icebergs and humpbacks in the background of course!)" Ashlee Mackey, Houston, originally from St. John's, N.L. 38. "Fresh air and blue skies -- you can truly appreciate it after you visit some dirty steel towns." Suzanne Michal, Ottawa39. "Our caring about the environment." Chris Sherlock, LaSalle, Ont. 40. "Watching the Northern Lights dance across the winter sky." Sandi Larson, Cold Lake, Alta.41. Highway 60 through Algonquin Park "Watching for wildlife, namely moose, hidden within the lush landscape is one of our family's favourite pastimes." Louise Aspden, Utopia, Ont. 42. "Red dunes on the beaches in P.E.I." Lisa Mallia, Toronto43. The Trans Canada Highway "It allows us to discover all that our beautiful country has to offer. Tak

My New Piercings
I went with my niece yesterday to get her lip pierced. They wouldn't let her being as she is only 13. Well I be damn if I was in the car with a babbling ass teenager in the car for hours and not get something pierced. I got my nose (which is cute dammit) and my helix (upper part of the ear) (lets see if these pictures work. If not I'll post them in a comment)

Now The Other 90 Fave Things About Canada!
Your 100 favourite Canadian things What's not to love about Canada? Not much, but when asked about what they DO love, our readers shared hundreds of favourite things about our home and native land. Did yours make the list? *The balance of your top favourites are listed in no particular order11. Culinary variety "The availability of food from around the world, including locally grown produce." Catherine Charnell, Victoria12. Maple syrup "Dripping freshly brewed maple sap onto frozen snow for that wonderful taffy treat - awesome!" Louise Aspden, Utopia, Ont.13. Poutine "Who would have thought fries + cheese curd + gravy could be an out-of-body experience?" Ashlee Mackey, Houston originally from St. John's, N.L.14. Beef "Best beef in the world, from Alberta." Marybell Ritchie15. "Canadian beer is the best, hands down!" Jennifer Rayment, Bolton, Ont. 16. Seafood including P.E.I. lobster, Atlantic salmon, Newfoundland chowder, "Atlantic C

Top 10 Things To Love About Canada....yes About Not Aboot
Readers's top 10 Canadian favourites 10. Tim Hortons"Coffee addicts unite! ... Who can resist rolling up the rim?" wrote Anne Shelton of Toronto. Yes, we love Tim's coffee, Timbits, Iced Capps frozen cappuccinos, sour cream cake and maple doughnuts -- spelled d-o-u-g-h-n-u-t-s, please, not d-o-n-u-t-s! (See item 56 on this list for more on Canadian spellings.)9. The beautiful Canadian Rocky Mountains, "...still mostly untouched. You can go hiking without running into crowds of people." (Lasha MacLeod, Sherwood Park, Alta.) 8. Fresh waterThat includes our lakes to swim and fish in, clean drinking water, rivers, streams and ponds. "The Great Lakes and St. Lawrence Seaway are proud parts of our history in discovering the country," said Terri McBride of Hunstville, Ont.7. HockeyIncluded in "Our Game" are CBC's Hockey Night in Canada -- both the show and its former theme song -- as well as national teams: The Vancouver Canucks, Edmonton Oilers, Calgary Flames, Toronto Maple

How Many F's
There are no Tricks to the test. Read this sentence: FINISHED FILES ARE THE RE- SULT OF YEARS OF SCIENTIF- IC STUDY COMBINED WITH THE EXPERIENCE OF YEARS. Now count aloud the F's in that sentence. Important, count them ONLY ONCE: do not go back and count them again.. Answer Below No PEEKING !! keep going and going a little more almost there Finally Answer is given now !! One of average intelligence finds three of them. If you spotted four, you're above average. If you got five, you can turn your nose at most anybody. If you caught six, you are a genius. There is no catch. Many people forget the "OF"'s. The human brain tends to see them as V's and not F's.

Questions
Sex, I can't but help say it with a bit of a sneering smirk.;0 What is sex; well I think we all know what that is and there's about 6.8 billion people on the planet, who all have a varying opinions on the subject matter: so what's one more, mine. Now I'm not going to set here and claim to be an expert; because that is simply jeez, running down the back of somebody's head in an all night adult Theatre; Some wild hot over exaggeration of excrement! To claim expertise on the subject matter it only requires the ability of the intellectual capacity of that of an amoeba, is nothing to brag about, but I digress. The question still remains, who am I and why am I here; well for starters I’m somebody that is just simply talking about something that I enjoy thoroughly to do. Well maybe your asking yourself what is that: while sex of course, silly rabbit; The social cohesive and the wellspring of reproduction. Oh yeah that, I hope you hadn't forgotten that there is an opposite and equa

Everything
so last night i was told im not welcome at my father in laws house where my fiance and daughter are living before that my fiance decided she needed a break and now i have nothing idk what to do anymore ive lost everything the last month i lost my apartment my fiance my daughter and what lil family i have left :(been seriously thinking about just disapearing for a long ass time then i wouldnt be bothering anyone if i disapear then everyones life becomes so much easier

The Jungle Test
You Are Imaginative You are a creative, innovative person. You're not afraid of great risks. Right now, you are seeking a new challenge and a complete life change. You are drawn to people who are passionate and deep. You feel like there are a few minor things in your life that need to be changed. You make a lot of course corrections in your life. Your first reaction is usually not your final verdict. The Jungle Test

What Does Your Address Say About You?
Your Address Says You're Friendly Right now, you are enjoying your life as it is. You wouldn't change a thing. You feel happy for what you have. There's a lot to be thankful for. At your best, you are welcoming and outgoing. You have a lot to give. At your worst, you are a bit too giving toward other people. You need to think of yourself first sometimes. What Does Your Address Say About You?

Joke...
Joke of the Day A man died and went to heaven. As he stood in front of St. Peter at the Pearly Gates, he saw a huge wall of clocks behind him. He asked, "What are all those clocks?" St. Peter answered, "Those are Lie-Clocks. Everyone on Earth has a Lie-Clock. Every time you lie the hands on your clock will move." "Oh," said the man, "whose clock is that?" "That's Mother Teresa's ...The hands have never moved, indicating that she never told a lie." "Incredible," said the man. "And whose clock is that one?" St. Peter responded, "That's Abraham Lincoln's clock. The hands have moved twice, telling us that Abe told only two lies in his entire life." "Where's Obama's clock?" asked the man. "Obama's clock is in Jesus' office. He's using it as a ceiling fan."

The Shape Test
You Are Confident You are self-assured and together. You have high self esteem. Other people see you as outgoing, hyper, and even a bit overwhelming. Your ideal romantic relationship is unconventional, wild, and very public. You do best in tasks that require you to be flexible, creative, and playful. The Shape Test

I'm Doing A Show At The Cellar
I'm doing a new show at the cellar in Blacksburg VA on July 6TH starting at about 9PM it will be a Rock 'n' roll blues show with frountman work that will make Paul Stanley proud and best of all it's FREE hope to see you all there

Tech Smoke
A guy rings tech support to report that his computer is faulty. Tech: What's the problem? User: There is smoke coming out of the power supply. Tech: You'll need a new power supply. User: No, I don't! I just need to change the startup files. Tech: Sir, the power supply is faulty. You'll need to replace it. User: No way! Someone told me that I just needed to change the startup files and it will fix the problem! All I need is for you to tell me the command. Ten minutes later, the User is still adamant that they are right. The tech is frustrated and fed up. Tech: Sorry, Sir. We don't normally tell our customers this, but there is an undocumented DOS command that will fix the problem. User: I knew it! Tech: Just add the line LOAD NOSMOKE.COM at the end of the CONFIG.SYS. Let me know how it goes. Ten minutes later. User: It didn't work. The power supply is still smoking. Tech: Well, what version of DOS are you using? User: MS-DOS 6.22. Tech: That's your problem t

Wtf?
Just created a profile and feel like a kid with Attention Deficit Disorder! Shit! Seems like a real colorful community! I have several sites and blogs and look forward to some inspiration from this site. www.FairlyUnbalanced.US www.DontTailgate.Me www.Damnit.DontTailgate.Me www.2Go2Buy.com www.CheapTeez.com - T-Shirt Shop www.BravoZulu.US - Military site www.RailPassDepot.com www.Trips4Men.com www.2Go4Travel.com www.DrivingIn.MorristownNJ.US www.MorristownNJ.US www.LifeIn.MorristownNJ.US www.ShellfishDelights.com www.AquaTourist.com www.NJTourism.com www.GetWet.AquaTourist.com www.StartClicking.Me www.StopandAsk.Info

Cheating
And yet another primate is posting one of those "is it cheating?" mumms. Its like if a married woman meets a guy, that means she is gonna swallow his cock and dine on his man chum. WTF?? I am not a very social person in RL, so the net gives me the opportunity to meet equally disgusting, politically incorrect people and start friendships with them. I talk to guys, and I have met a couple in RL. Does it mean I fuck them, and start off road relationships with them? Fuck no. I dont meet MEN, I meet PEOPLE. My husband knows I'm not gonna trade him in for a cyber cock, and I know he is not gonna trade me in for his female friends. SO its all good. Insecure people are hard to deal with, and irritate the fuck out of me. Grrrr

The Monster Returnes‏
I lay awake afraid to sleep, afraid the bad dreams will come as they so often do. As my eyes get heavy, i fight to stay awake until i can't fight any longer. I drift off into a deep sleep where darkness surrounds me and the monster lurks in the shadows awaiting my return. I know he is there for he always is, waiting and feeding off my fear. I hear him coming, he knows i am here, there's no where to escape him in my dreams where i relive his horrors night after night. I toss and turn in my sleep, trying to escape his grasp, he is getting closer and closer. I now feel his hot breath on my neck, as chills run down my spine. He has found me once again, i am in his house of horrors once more. I fight to break free as the monster inflects unspeakable pain on me. the pain so intense, my fear rising, my mind racing, wondering will this be the end for me, will he take my life this time. The monster smiles at me as i cry out in pain, begging for it to stop. Just when i can't take anymore, i awak

Returning Home To Home State
In the general sense of the word, returning home should be nostalgic; and there are a great many people that I wish to see or do. But the problem always remains to be, do I have the time.

So Sick Of It
I am so sick of these useless fucks in this town. I am sick today, very sick havent been to bed yet and its 9 in the am my time, got up yesterday at 10 am. I have to go to see my PO, who is a dick. Well I called to change my appointment and get his bitch of a suckutary, who starts giving me shit, like she is someone of importace!! I have no fucking ride I have to walk, so I can go there and spend like 5 fucking minutes of my time, talking to this ass. I get told i cant change the best I can do is come in at 830 in the morning and wait!! How come when you need to change an appointment its a major fucking thing, but when they want to change cause they want to have a 2 dollar hoe jerk them off its ok to inconvince you?? Its the same fucking way with anyone who thinks they are fucking better than you! And people wonder why people like me shoot and kill people like them. ITS BECAUSE WE ARE FEED UP WITH BE TREATED LIKE WE DONT FUCKING MATTER!!!!!!!!

Another Poem Of Unreqited Fu-love
drop me to my kneesall you deities, upon your lofty thrones.Drop me to my knees, rob me of my strength,infest me with the most painful of all your plaugues,but leave for me just love...Lock me away from all the glorious heavensthat any of you command,rob me of my breath, my youth, and all the worldly possesions i have...until i am weary to my bones...leave me only love.One small voice crying out to me in all the universe's emptiness...A hand...A touch...gentle upon my brow.Let me stumble in blindness, all the weary day long...toil in the shabby hatred of humanity,and return home each night,to the welcome arms of love...

Idiots Among Us
IDIOT SIGHTING We had to have the garage door repaired. The Sears repairman told us that one of our problems was that we did not have a 'large' enough motor on the opener. I thought for a minute, and said that we had the largest one Sears made at that time, a 1/2 horsepower. He shook his head and said, 'Lady, you need a 1/4 horsepower.' I responded that 1/2 was larger than 1/4. He said, 'NO, it's not.' Four is larger than two.. We haven't used Sears repair since. IDIOT SIGHTING:

What Is It Worth?
Not having to lie to your heart sleeping next to someone,you know,does not Love you.If you are lonely,is it at least not better to be alone?Those are the memories that make me think,before I say;I Love You! words many use ,but so few truely understand.So when I feel it. there is no price to high to achieve it. no time to long to wait for it. Baby your Love is the best and I need it.

Why Is It
How is it that someone can say they love you, but yet not speak to you for weeks at a time.... And why is it that someone will show very strong emotions one day and then act like they dont know you the next?

Preventing Animal Abuse
Things Regular People Can Do.... To Prevent Animal Abuse "Never doubt that a small, group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has." -- Margaret Mead Unfortunately, there is no quick fix for animal abuse, but there are so many things we can all do to help. None of them will make animal abuse disappear tomorrow, but every little bit helps lower the risk further down the road. And you don't have to be an animal "fanatic" to do it. You don't have to be a member of every animal rights organization on earth. There are so many things "regular"people can to do to have an impact... Take care of the animals you have, and encourage others to do the same... For the most part, many people's hearts are in the right place when it comes to their pets, they simply don't know all the facts. In educating people about how to better care for their own animals, we hear many of the same excuses, and they don't even *realize* that they are ina

Blah Blah What Ya Wanna Know
Okay a friend challenge me to write a two page blog, about emanon, sooo since my average blog is 4-6 pages, and being no stranger to writing 10+ page blogs... i figured instead of just writing i will ask what do you want to know and will answer that, depending what you ask i may not answer depending on certain things.. but shall try to answer em in all hm two pages..damn her... why not 4 or 5 ...., the blog is now 6 pages..and i havent even answered the questions below lmao Master Yugihow did you get into the blood fetish Moethow do you feel about relationships, one on one, do you believe in that, are you able to be with one person? I know we talked about your sexual addiction, will that prevent you from ever being with just one person? SpinozaDo you intend on being a Master for the remaining of your life?If so, why is that? Sweet KandyDo you eat peanut butter on pancakes?What are you views on the death penalty?Should child molestors be castorized? (Sp chk plz)If the entire wor

Hard Knowing Your Gone
its hard knowing that your gone and i cant just call you and hear your voice. its hard knowing that you wont ever be up at the mall to talk to its hard knowing that i cant just talk to you and hear your advice its hard knowing that your really truely gone its hard knowing that im alive and your gone why does god take all the good people why did he have to take you i know its selfish but i wish you hadnt died i wish it was someone else in the car i know its wrong but i wish someone else had gone and not you why does god have to take all the good people we have left. why cant he take the bad people who hurt others why cant he take the people who cause animals harm. why did he have to take you its just hard knowing your gone. i miss you so much. sorry i never called you back sorry that i took time for granted. i just never imagined you would be gone and that there wouldnt be time to call you back. i miss you.

You Can Call Me King Of The Barn Swallows Or Bird Man For Short
Yea it’s two more work days until time off. So I get home yesterday after work and decide I need to mow the Clappsadles land next door if I am going to shoot off fireworks on Friday Night with the girls. Manderooski has to do the 4th of July at the Ole’ Navy store and Jaquileen is off work from Friday on so we decided to do drinks and fireworks Friday Night. However now that I have mowed the dang hill I need a hay bailer to scarf up all the hay I have created. But, that is not the story. The story is the Mowing Task itself. So there I was riding the Big Ole Green Tractor…no it’s not a John Deer and hell if I can name what kind of Sears Craftsman tractor I bought from Granny Hogue it’s a something something 1000 a 19 horse power Green Tractor. Oh wait! A 19.5 Horse Power, got to get in that half horse…I wonder how they determine it’s a half horse…is it like a midget horse or a donkey…perhaps a pony they threw in because they ran

R.i.p Jonjon
why did you have to die in that crash?why did you have to leave us so fast?why couldnt god let you last?you left without goodbyeand everyone is wondering whynow we cant help but crywe miss you so muchwe cant help but to be sadi remember all the times we hadand its funny how now none of them are badim wishing i had called you backbut i never thought you would be gonethis is all way to wrongyou were suppose to graduateand follow your dreamsbut god didnt want it that wayor so it seemsbut your in a better placeand one day we will all get to see your smiling faceand not only in our dreamsso now all i can say iswatch over everyone, please.and may you rest in peace.

R.i.p Mawmaw
i miss seein you in that chair...sometimes i feel you near...i loved your beautiful hair....i still wish you were here....why did you have to go...thats one thing we will never know...we all loved you...and we all still do...we know your in a better place...with gods love and grace....you will always be in my heart...no matter how long we are apart...i still hear your voice...i still see your smile...and that makes living life worth while...

Trying To Forget You.
out of no where you stole my heart. an out of no where you tore it apart. i was fine before i met you. now im dying to forget you. why couldnt you let me be. why did you tell me you liked me. i should have listened to me. i shouldnt have said i liked you. i should have stopped talking to you. but for some reason that was to hard to do. and now im stuck trying to forget you.

Fubar Guiness Levl Record
For Those That know me Im back for my 3rd and last time. I am gona try and have fun this time. So Im going to see how fast I can level. Im caling it the Fubar Guiness Record of Levling.... So Ad me...Fan Me.... Rate Me... BLING ME.... All Love Will Be Returned. Once I reach Oracle I Wont Be Charging for Abilites!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For Those who are wondering who I am Im not going to tell you. If you cared you would remember......

Detective Comics
Greg Rucka and JH Williams III kicking of a new arc with issue #854 (out last week). The artwork is breathtaking, and Rucka's writing is always a joy. Comes with a back-up The Question story, so it's a pretty sweet package.

Things I Just So Happen To Notice Here.
If your easily offended please dont read and remove me from your list lol... The Females like 40 and older seem to be even worse than the girls my age, im talking about with relying on being half naked for attention, and the begging ect. It seems like more older people are into leveling groups then younger ones, weird I just noticed that. I get maybe like 1 profile rate returned for every about 25 I do, thats just fucked up and goes to show how fake and ungrateful alot of bitches here are. Tickers annoy me lol, isnt it already enough with the top scroll screen? Thats it, I was just bored, time to hit up the 360 "entertains me more then this place" Peace

He Is So Sweet To Me :)
Scott is so sweet to me, I can't believe it. He treats me really good and treats me with respect. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend. Scott is everything I have ever looked for, he is the apple of my eye, and he is someone I could see spending the rest of my life with.

Mother's Glue
I wonder how she does it, holding it together the way she does. It seems no matter how life gets out of place she puts it back the way it was. It's always been a mystery, but I guess it must be true. That there is nothing stronger than a mother's love when she uses Mother's Glue. Now Mother's Glue is not a recipe, or that sticky stuff used in art. But it's that special love that mothers use to keep your life from falling apart. It's the way she is always there to listen so you know that everything will be okay. It's that special bonding hug she gives you to help you make it through the day. It's the way she is able to touch your face and hold the tears away. It's the way she stays up all night with you to hold the fears away. It's the way she makes the sacrifice because she'll do anything for you. Because she knows you just wouldn't make it if she didn't use Mother's Glue But, if you're still not sure then ask her, and I'll bet she'll just smile at you. Because a mother never uses word

One
For you I would climb The highest mountain peak Swim the deepest ocean For its your love I seek. For you I would cross The rivers most wide Walk the hottest desert To have you at my side. For you are the one Who makes me whole You've captured my heart And touched my soul. For you are the one That stepped out of my dreams Gave me new hope Showed me what love means. For you alone Are my reason to live For the compassion you show And the care that you give. You came into my life And made me complete Each time I see you My heart skips a beat. For you are the one God sent from above The angel I needed For whom I do love.

Woot Woot Day 1 6-30-2009
Thanks to my awesome Fubar Friends and Family I have made it 16 Levels today. Couldnt do it without you. Special Thanks Goes Out To These Two XOXOXOXO ♫ÐĴ FäßŨ£ðŨ§/ LOUNGE ASSISTANT@ BODYSHOTS OWNED BY ANG@ fubar dejaview469@ fubar

Question #03: Communication
Question #03: Do you still use a landline at home, or do you rely completely on your cellphone? We do have a landline that I can't use because my grandmother sees it as hers. I use my cell but I don't make calls because it costs way to much even on the Pay-As You-Go Verizon plan. All of my communication, which is hardely any, is texting. And that's really only FWDs from my dumb ass friends and actual texts from my best friend, and even now-a-days he hardely ever talks to me. So cell-phone, though I could go without either, since no one talks to me.

Question #02: One Wish
Question #02: It's the first day of the month. If you could have one wish come true this month, what would it be? Lot's of things come to mind. Finding out that I was adopted and having my biological parents be entrepenuers with millions of dollars. Or having the multi-platinum rapper, Eminem, mysteriously fall in love with me forever. Or oddly loose four million pounds over night. But what I really would wish for would be my best friends happiness. He's been going through some really hard times recentely and I would wish that his life would get back on track and that it would stay that way for life. Although millions of dollars, a new set of family members, and Eminem are VERY tempting, my friend's happiness means more to me than any of that.

Question #01: Nasty Break-ups
Question #01: Have You Ever Had A Break-Up With A Significant Other? How Did You Handle It? Yeah, my first and only boyfriend of over a year dumped me for another girl, who he is still with now. That was back in January and even now it is a day by day process. Sometimes its easy and I don't even think about him at all. But there are still some nights where my last thoughts are about him and I cry until my eyes get so tired I fall asleep. The hardest part to deal with is that he was over me before we even broke up. We were in love, planning to go away to college, get married and have children together. I did learn a lot from the break up though, and that was not to open up to someone so quickly. We waited ten minutes into our relationship to say I love you, through a text message and he said it first. It taught me to keep things deeper than I have ever kept them inside before. I'm just glad that I decided not to sleep with him. I just feel bad about the next guy, if there even is one

My Lifetime True Love!!
They say that a real and true love only comes around once in your lifetime.... If you have it and you let it go, you'll have lost it forever.... But if you hold onto it and never let it go, that true love will never leave your side.... Ive let go of love.... But it ended up being the best choice i ever made... if i had held onto that love, i would have never found my true love... i would have never found the one person that can make my heart skip beats.... the words said, are words i never thought i'd ever hear.... someone actually needing me or wanting ONLY me..... KNOWING you love me... even miles apart, i can STILL feel your heart beating in time with mine.... i know ive said it before.... and ill say it again, over and over again..... I Love You, With EVERYTHING I Am, and EVERYTHING I Have.... With My Whole Being..... You consume my heart, my mind, my soul, my body.... my life.... Your my once in a lifetime true love!! And I'll never let you go!!! I Love You My Beautiful

Last Hope (it Could Be Worse)
When we think all hope is gone And there is no point in going on Look around the room and see There is much more than you and me More pain and agony, more suffering More hell in this world in which we are living Than you may realize because you don't look More than what you think God forsook You are not alone in your sorrow Even if you don't want to see tomorrow Remember there are some in this life That lost family, loved ones, a husband or wife Maybe they go without food from day to day Can you see yourself living that way Well the truth is there is more to life then you More to be upset about, more you could do Don't try and compare you pain, or sadness to another They may have to live without a father or mother You don't know what its like because you have it all What would you do if you lost everything, Maybe you'd fall But there are people yet who live with disease Some who ask to end it all, who beg "please" They'd love to be in your place to "Suffer" your way But what is it that

I Still Have A Choice And My Pride
Today affirms my alter ego is a port key to a Soul Mate or deal,whose superpower is compatibility in the midst of reconciling dichotomy to interconnect as a whole new entity or 'color.' To be or not to be: at ultimatum or rival tensions mounting, negotiating acceptable trade-offs validates our unique perspectives to reflect what each lacks for a balanced voice of truce. When we're together I'm beside myself, so I concede mutual vested interest, incentive or opportunity to my other half for valued consideration. For only by the power of self-respect in reciprocal vulnerability, need and compassion do 'me and thee consummate we.' The rest is all a dance on the sidelines of Cinderella Pandering or prohibition, or around a Bermuda Triangle of bottom line temptation to cheat by provocation, promiscuity, or shame. But here at the gate of impasse, I still have a choice and my pride.

My Race
I get asked wild questions about my race,like am I from india or am I a paru indian,also am I mexican? lol.. even aztec!no to all I am native american indian,its kinda hard to explain to people who dont know history,I can do some bird noises ,I can sling an axe yes I do speak very little indian...and no I am not full blooded...thanks peace out...

Deviant
dilated pupils and your blood dripping from my mouth in a flash of daydream the sound of you tut-tutting. "What a deviant vixen you are..." I smile, knowing you don't know the half of it. I bury strangers in the backyard every night. You know I've gotta keep myself alive, baby. Someone has to do this, I saw myself, Death sitting in a hammock... in a dream of course, or was it? Either way, I'm justified.

Canada Day 2009
This is especially nice to see as we are approaching Canada Day on July 1st. British newspaper salutes Canada . . . this is a good read. It is funny how it took someone in England to put it into words... Salute to a brave and modest nation - Kevin Myers, 'The Sunday Telegraph' LONDON : Until the deaths of Canadian soldiers killed in Afghanistan , probably almost no one outside their home country had been aware that Canadian troops are deployed in the region. And as always, Canada will bury its dead, just as the rest of the world, as always will forget its sacrifice, just as it always forgets nearly everything Canada ever does.. It seems that Canada 's historic mission is to come to the selfless aid both of its friends and of complete strangers, and then, once the crisis is over, to be well and truly ignored. Canada is the perpetual wallflower that stands on the edge of the hall, waiting for someone to come and ask her for a dance. A fire breaks out, she risks life and limb to resc

Heaven - Hell In 2 Weeks.
On autopilot for two weeks, 15 pounds down, destroyed and trying to pick up the pieces. I never realized the friendship I had with my wife, or so I thought, and the worst part was that loss. I could not grasp the concept and tried hard to fix it. I am a fixer, and could not accept the magnitude of this problem as not fixable. Broken, exhausted, starving, lost, a crushed heart weighted in my hands, crying till my stomach hurt. Twisted nerves of pain, boiling my soul beyond the ability to sustain life. Clawing through the dark, grasping the air, trying to find something to hang onto and arrest my fall. Nights of unending sleep and days of 140 degree heat sapping my strength.After two weeks, what now, what must I do. Get up, put your running clothes on. I can't... Yes, you can. The battle of my will and soul starting to rage inside me. Get your ass up, and moving! I can't, its too great (one shoe on)... GET UP! Why me, why now (other shoe on)... You are stronger then this!

Stupid ? Of The Day
Since that mumm got deleted, cant remember which one...I asked: If I rename myself as ORGASM without a salute, does that make me a fake orgasm? Yeah yeah shake your head at my nonfunnybutlaughingatmyownstupidself :D

Another Day Another Though...
ummm ... well I live by one rule everyday .. if it not gonna matter to tomorrow why dwell on it today .. I wake up with a smile on my face to enter a new day and go to sleep the same way .......and whatever happens in the middle doesnt matter ... well sometimes....... also I dont dwell on things I dont have control over either .. whats the point .... .u shouldn't be angry on what u never had in the first place...I say follow ur heart and it never lets u down.. and if have a bad feeling about someone or something .. theres a reason and dont ignore it...... .life about having dreams and going after them..... if we do neither we will weither and die...... .after u complish one dreams .. then make others happen one dream at a time..... .... well I know at one point in my life I didnt care if I lived or died to be honest with u ... but what good... would I be for myself or others if I am 6 feet under...

Part 13
Part 13 Even though Dragos longed to take his very spirited pet, he knew that it was too soon for him to drink of her blood. Dragos left Khatra’s chamber with a heavy heart. He would not allow himself to return to collect Elisabeth for dinner for his hunger for Khatra was so very strong instead Dragos strolled around the mansion for a long while calming his inner beast and trying to no avail to push Khatra’s image from his mind. “I have no time for these thoughts tonight; I must focus on what needs to be done.” He scolded himself as he approached Elisabeth’s chambers. His knock was soft as to not straddle Elisabeth. “Enter my Lord.” Her soft voice rang out. Upon entering the chambers his breath caught in his throat. Elisabeth knelt at the foot of her bed wearing her diamond studded collar and a sheer blood read tunic. “Do I please you my Lord?” Her eyes down cast with her head held high and back straight. &l

I Need Your Prayers Please
Today i took my 4 month old son for a check up and shots and i expressed a concern about his neck the doctor sent him for a full MRI and not only are the muscles on the right side of his neck short and tight they found a lump on his brain so on augest 6th at 10am he's going to see a surgen to see if it's something that need's to be removed ASAP or do the wait and see game please keep James Connor Lambert in your prayer's this is a hard time for us all

Referrals
Sorry to all of my friends for not being around so much lately. I know most of you are use to me being here 'round the clock. Those of you that I am closest with know the situations in my life right now and have kept in contact with me via Yahoo, text messaging, or phone calls. For that I'm truely grateful! Now with that being said.....in helping one of my family members get her referrals (and in turn level) we came up with this great plan for me to start charging for helping others that may not have the time or means to work on their own. Boy has business started flying!! lol If you are one of those who needs help this blog is for YOU!! So let me explain how this will work ;) First of all, you must PM me. It is very helpful to have your direct referral id handy. I'm finding several people have no idea what I mean by this so here is how you get it: Up top of any fubar page You will see HOME, MY, etc and on the right side of this is the F Word and in bright yellow let

Referral List
Okay since I'm getting alot of requests i am going to update a list of who i am working on and make comments as well. When you're name is next onthe list, and I start to help.. I will let you know. be patient as I am still a little new at this (altho i do a damn good job!!) I am only ONE person and still figuring out a way to make all the people in the list below happy at once! if you aren't patient, by all means go find your own! lol Feel free to ask any of these people about my 'work', i'm sure they wont mind =) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ THE LIST: ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Angelic Devil #2028291 (Done, HH, Bomb, Paid) Seabreeze #2404245 (Done, B//11, Pending) Rayne #******** (Done, Paid) Daddy Rocks Hard #3050829 (Done, FB, Paid) Lipstick#786993 (Done, FB(drh), Paid) Stormy#1385922 (Done) Dj Immortal #984788 (Done, Paid) DJ Fab (Done, paid) Soukie La La #152100 Jagermeister #2383517 (Done, Bomb, Paid) Cindy#225795 (Done, PR, paid/paying) Silly Califas # 2952087 (HH, BP) JMAAngel

Now -that- Was Quite A Show.
I am tainted, tarnished, used and forgotten. Don't spare me a glance. My soul has been broken as well as my heart. I have nothing I can give you that hasn't been taken, unwillingly at times. I am a magician, casting spells, weaving smoke and mirror parlor tricks, beckoning you to see my illusions. They are so grand, just open your eyes, you'll be delighted or a money back guarantee. It's nothing but a show, entertainment at best, don't blink or you'll miss the rest. With my snowy white skin, my brown eyes of fire, I can show you your very heart's desire. I am a jack of all trades and a master of none. Take a seat, enjoy the show, where it stops no one shall ever know.Come one, come all, I will show you a sight. I stand on this pedestal before you a broken woman, the pieces thrown near and far. Don't worry, you'll get your money's worth, for that wasn't the trick at all. Look inside, my heart is gone, I am left empty and all alone. I am a mere puppet, here for your viewing pleasure. Pul

Cutter's Lullaby
Let’s go to sleep, Close our eyes,And dream of broken butterflies,That tore their wings against a thorn.We know the pain that they have borne.Silver metal, shine so bright.Scarlet blood that feels so right.Dream of blood tickling down,And wake up just before we drown.The moonlight’s shining off our tears,As we bleed out our own worst fears.So tonight we start to cry,And sing the Cutter’s lullaby…Hushabye baby, you’re almost dead.You have no pulse and your pillow is red.Your family hates you and your friends let you bleed,Sleep tight with a knife because that’s all you need.Rockabye baby, broken and scarred,You didn’t know life would be this hard.Time to end the pain that you hid so well,And down will come baby, straight back to hell.

Important...to Those Who Care...will Read.
I obviously have not been on fubar alot lately. It's coming to a point where I don't know if I can find the time to keep up with everything on here...responding to people, and so on... It might come down to me deleting my profile all together. I have alot going on...and It's unfair to those I can't get back to. I'll get back to you in a week...I'm going camping with Dale for 5 days..then he is coming here for my friends wedding. If I do decide to get rid of this...i will get those whom I became friends with information, and give mine to them...of my IM and Email. Hope everyone has a wonderful 4th of july!

The Bombing List
Ok....Here is something that Muffinman has tried twice and has been a huge success. He has helped me out, so I want to help you out, so with his permission I have decided to also try one. Here is the deal. I know there are people out there who can't afford multiple bling packs in order to gain cherry bombs..... you could afford $6.00 for a 6 credit bling pack? With that 6 credit bling your folder with the most pics will be bombed 11 times. Sounds too good to be true....I know, but here is how it works. 50 people send me a 6 credit bling pack, once all 50 people are on my list and all bling packs are received, then I will purchase a total of 11 cherry bombs (purchasing 4 cherry bombs myself). Then during happy hours, you will be bombed consecutively. Please PM me if you are interested, there is only room for 50 ppl Dvls.......

Break In
some dumbass broke into my store last night. Stole one of my scooters and some leather apparel. about 2500 dollars worth of stuff. What the fuck is with people these days? You work your ass off to try to make it in this world and be happy and some stupid mother fucker has to come and take it away from you. hang the mother fuckers by their dicks.. please -Highway Song

Senci
if we had one voice yes all of us unite they wouldnt have a choise but to give us back our rights and i'd have mine growing in my back yard in the sun shine no troubles from the law but we're at war with the powers that be gotta stay low key while we be burn'n sensimellia so, why does a baser only spend the night a stoner does six mounths looses his licence he can't drive to work man, that aint right got a friend in county violated on his last night of probation he only drank some beer now their reinstat'n his probation for another year if he makes it throught he'll be lucky as hell the way the systme works these days like being throne in a well its frustrate'n but its something we deal with its going 50 buck an eithe because the penalty's so stiff but if you got some i know your hold'n on you nead to hook a homy up i know you know i've got a bong but if your smoke'n more than four blunts a day you nead to save some for the rest of us yo

Socially Acceptable
To all the closed minded pricks this is for you. Before you judge someone based on what they look like based on body modifications. You should be taken out back and shot right between the eyes. I absolutely love my tattoos and piercings. So before you tell me to look at what an example I am setting for the children and people around me take a good fucking look at what example you and your so called "Society" are setting for the future.Physical Features - Super models who pay for their body to be accepted not as a person but a icon. A sex symbol. Drug addict. Alcohol abuse. Shall I go on? You have all these young women aging from pre teens to adults who binge to lose weight because you cant accept that they have some extra weight. Some cases leading to them die from lack of eating and popping pills, or doing drugs to become skinny and socially acceptable . Fucking hypocritical bastards. Degrading someone because they dont have the same beliefs as you. Religion or otherwise. We are not a

Omg Cant Stop Laughing
Canada VS United States This is an actual radio conversation between a United States Navy aircraft carrier (U.S.S. Abraham Lincoln) and Canadian authorities off the coast off Newfoundland in October 1995. (The radio conversation was released by the Chief of Naval Operations on 10/10/95 as authorized by the Freedom of Information Act.) CANADIANS:Please divert your course 15 degrees to the South to avoid a collision. AMERICANS:Recommend you divert your course 15 degrees to the North to avoid a collision. CANADIANS:Negative. You will have to divert your course 15 degrees to the South to avoid a collision. AMERICANS:This is the Captain of a US Navy ship. I say again, divert YOUR course. CANADIANS:No, I say again, you divert YOUR course. AMERICANS:This is the aircraft carrier USS Lincoln. The second largest ship in the United States Atlantic fleet. We are accompanied by three destroyers, three cruisers, and numerous support vessels. I demand that you change your course15 degr

Life Changes
Life is about to change for me, and for the better. I got my old job back. 8k more a year than what I was making at the insurance job. And I still have room to step up. Talk about a confidence booster. I got fired from my job for being on fubar at work, and 3 months later they call me back. I am truly thankful for that opportunity. I def learned my lesson and am moving forward in the good way. Trying to leave all my pains of the past behind. In the next few weeks, I'll be getting my own apartment. I'm sooo excited. Time to step out on my own two feet and spread those lil wings. So I'll be focusing on finding an apartment, packing, packing up the kids, all that fun stuff. There is more chance than not that I won't be around for a bit, not sure that internet's gonna be in my initial "I'm on my own, really and truly" budget. Who knows, I might even get a real life date. LOL This blog is really just an FYI, in case I do disappear for a while. But rest assured, I'll be b

How To Make A Voodoo Doll
How To Make A Voodoo Doll New Orleans Voodoo Doll Basic Materials: 2 sticks, Spanish moss, feathers, scrap material ( Cloth ) in power colors, brown natural twine , imagination and intent. yellow - success white - positive red - power purple - spirituality green - money blue - love black - repelling negative energy Make your doll in one of the 7 Power Colors. You pick the color for what you need. You make a cross with the two sticks. Apple Wood (natural not processed ) works best as this is believed by many to be the tree of life. Once you have made the cross fasten it together and tie it tight with twine. Now take the spanish moss and build the doll a body. Tie the moss to the sticks with your twine. Now you can get as elabrate as you want to. Make your doll clothes in the power color you need. You can make your doll a head out of cloth and moss or buy you one already made. Its really best to make it yourself for it to have the most power. If you have fingernail clip

Patriotic Photo Shoot!!!
I will be doing a Patriotic themed Photo Shoot this weekend out at Lake Rim Park, Fayetteville, NC. RED, WHITE and BLUE sexy outfits plus bikini/swimsuit, choice of outfits will be up to each individual model. Photos will be from 10:00 am to 2:00 pm, Friday and Saturday. Message me for more details either on here or at my myspace page www.myspace.com/laven_photography Steve

Three Little Boys
Three little boys were concerned because they couldn't get anyone to play with them. They decided it was because they had not been baptized and didn't go to Sunday school. So they went to the nearest church, but only the janitor was there. One said, "We need to be baptized because no one will come out and play with us. Will you baptize us?" "Sure," said the janitor. He took them into the bathroom and dunked their heads in the toilet bowl, one at a time. Then he said, "Now go out and play." When they got outside, dripping wet, one of them asked, "What religion do you think we are?" The oldest one said, "We're not Katlick, because they pour the water. We're not Bablist because they dunk all of you. We're not Methdiss because they just sprinkle you." The littlest one said, "Didn't you smell that water?" "Yes. What do you think that means?" "That means we're Pisscopalians"

#2
(4va) She felt like a wild animal. Tonight was HERS. She wanted what she wanted, and how she wanted it. Not that he would mind. He liked when she got "in a mood". He was lying on the bed nude. He usually sleeps that way. Right now, however, he would not be sleeping! Very nearly growling in the back of her throat, she came into the room. Already naked herself, she climbed into the bed next to him. She was on her knees. He stirred as he felt the tips of her hair brush over his chest. He smiled, eyes still closed, waiting. Her lips barely touching him, her eyes closed, she brushed her lips over his chest, barely kissing him as she moved along his body. He tried to slide his hands up along her body. "NO" she said sternly. OK he thought, it was gonna be like THAT! He was already excited at what was coming next. She was HUNGRY for sex tonight! There would be NO cheap novel romance this time. She wanted sex her way, on her terms. She was the preditor, he was the prey, and she was gonna

Signs You Mite Be Canadian
Signs You May Be A Canadian 1. You stand in "line-ups" at the movies, not lines. 2. You pronounce the red sauce as ketchup, not 'cat sup'. 3. You understand the phrase, "Could you please pass me a serviette,I just spilled my poutine." 4. You eat chocolate bars instead of candy bars. 5. You drink pop, not soda. 6. You know what it means to be on pogey. 7. You know that a mickey and 2-4's mean "Party at the camp, eh!" 8. You can drink legally while still a 'teen. 9. You talk about the weather with strangers and friends alike. 10. You don't know or care about the fuss with Cuba, it's just a cheapplace to travel to and has good cigars. 11. When there is a social problem, you turn to your government to fixit instead of telling them to stay out of it. 12. You're not sure if the leader of our nation has ever had sex and don'twant to know if he has! 13. You get milk in bags as well as cartons and plastic jugs. 14. Pike is a type of fish, not some part of a highway

How Pilots Think....
"After catastrophic engine failure, I landed long. As I had no power, the landing gear failed to deploy and no braking was available. I bounced over the stone wall at the end of the runway, struck the trailer of a truck while crossing the perimeter road, crashed through the guardrail, grazed a large pine tree, ran over a tractor parked in the adjacent field, and hit another tree. Then I lost control."

Death
Often I sit and think of death. Death to myself. The death of others. I sit idly by and watch as you walk down the street. I notice your weaknesses. I wonder what t would be like to disperse you and relieve you of this awful place, this treacherous world that envelopes you everyday. You and I are alike in many ways, yet you percieve it not. You rise from your slumber each day, don the mask that carry you through the day, and noone really knows of the pains you feel inside. I am so very tired of this face that I have to wear for your approval of my life. The happiness that I have to show just to keep you from dwelling inside my mind. That is one place you do not wish to be, inside my mind. There are things in there that would make you die from fright. Things that I have seen and done in my past that modern people on this planet would deem inconceiveable, morbid, and dank. Yet I drudge onward. Sloshing through the pits of this hell, earth. Waiting for your approval even though I say

Please Read Me.
I know I know, another whore blog. But eff it. Everyone deserves one day now and then to be a point whore, and on friday I'm moving so I don't know how often I'll be on for a few days or so. So I won a sweet ass bling pack in a scavenger hunt recently. Therefore I will be running some autos very soon. I'm thinking I'll run the autos around 11am tomorrow. And in case you want to stop by and perve the stud who ran the contest and who knows, may just do another one, please go rate him. :) DavePinFlorida @ fubar Now that I've written this...I feel so dirty... Pee ess. I plan to send out some bling too but I'm going to wait til I activate the autos for maximum point whoring. lolz

How To Spot A Canadian
This is the big one.Outside of hockey, and possibly beer, the main way to determine a person's "Canadianess" is their usage of the word "eh." And it's not even really a word, is it? It's only two letters in length and it's really more of a sound than a word. But, despite this, it is central to the Canadian identity.But what does it even mean? In general, "eh" usually means "do you agree?" For example, a Canadian would say "It's pretty nice today, eh?" But, like all iconic slang, the Canadian "eh" has many meanings.For example, a Canadian might say "That's really far, eh?" In that case the Canadian isn't asking if a person agrees, they are using the word to emphasize what they just said. The common Canadian response to "That's really far, eh?" is usually "I know, eh?" Again, it's used more for emphasis in this case. Confused? Well, hold on, because it gets even more complex.Canadians have managed to include the word "eh" into pretty much every sentence. It's quite common for a conversta

Happy Canada Day Everyone
hey everyone just thought i would wish my fellow canadians a happy 142nd birthday. tomorrow its time to party have some good canadian beer and lots of food and fireworks. so everyone have a safe holiday. PLEASE DONT DRINK AND DRIVE CALL A CAB OR HAVE A FRIEND DRIVE BUT DONT BE STUPID THANKS SABBY

Hahahaha
Rick Mercer apologizes to America:On behalf of Canadians everywhere I'd like to offer an apology to the United States of America. We haven't been getting along very well recently and for that, I am truly sorry.I'm sorry we called George Bush a moron. He is a moron but, it wasn't nice of us to point it out. If it's any consolation, the fact that he's a moron shouldn't reflect poorly on the people of America. After all it's not like you actually elected him.I'm sorry about our softwood lumber. Just because we have more trees than you doesn't give us the right to sell you lumber that's cheaper and better than your own.I'm sorry we beat you in Olympic hockey. In our defense I guess our excuse would be that our team was much, much, much, much better than yours.I'm sorry we burnt down your White House during the war of 1812. I notice you've rebuilt it! It's Very Nice.I'm sorry about your beer. I know we had nothing to do with your beer but, we Feel your Pain.I'm sorry about our waffling on I

Top Ten Reasons:
> TOP TEN REASONS TO GO TO WORK NAKED > (Okay, 11!) > > 11. No one ever steals your chair. > > 10. Gives "bad hair day" a whole new meaning. > > 9. Diverts attention from the fact that you also came to work > drunk. > > 8. People stop stealing your pens after they've seen where you > keep them. > > 7. So that -with a little help from Muzak- you can add "Exotic > Dancer" to your exaggerated resume. > > 6. You want to see if it's like the dream. > > 5. To stop those creepy guys in Marketing from looking down your > shirt. > > 4. "I'd love to chip in, but I left my wallet in my pants." > > 3. Inventive way to finally meet that special person in Human > Resources. > > 2. Can take advantage of computer monitor radiation to work on > your tan. > > ...and (drum roll) the number one reason to Go To Work Naked: > > 1. Your boss is always yelling, "I wanna see your ass in here by > 8:00!"

Easier Said Than Done
You always hear them saying it, 'easier said than done,' a familiar phrase quoted by everyone. When will we move passed that and get back everything we ever had? We can just take it all, take it now and run, keep heading towards the sun, we can't undo what's already been done. We're lost, but we're young, and we were made for this so let's have some fun. Let's abuse our bodies, go to parties, travel the world while picking up hotties. Get inked up, and tied down, lets see the world and get around. Rebelliousness runs deep through our veins, forever we defy, we swear we can fly and we do. We're young, our hearts are open wide to anyone who wants to join us on this great climb, we'll get it in time.

Indiana Is Fvcked Lol
So apparently if we dont pass our budget bill by midnight tonight all state funded/government facilities will shut down until the bill is passed. No license branch -ppl cant renew license or plates or gets either No state parks or dunes All courts will remain open though No INDOT No Lottery or casinos/gambling etc. lmfao indiana is so fucked. [remind me why I moved to Elkhart? LOL!] Link to full article: http://www.etruth.com/Know/News/Story.aspx?id=486854&fcid=Know-MOSTREAD

So Annoying...grrr
I have a bad habit, one that is driving me literally crazy. I tend to get songs stuck in my head, songs I haven't heard in a very long time. Chicago, Air Supply, REO Speedwagon...that kinda thing. Around and around in my head it will spend, often for days, until it gets replaced by another song. Annoying as hell, right? I know I'm not the only one it's happened to. Whats worse, is sometimes it's just a line of a song. Just a fragment that gets replayed, like a skipping record. Over and over, and I find myself screaming in my head STOP!!! OMG JUST STOP OR GET TO THE NEXT LINE ALREADY!!! -skip- my prayers are never answered. Around and around -skip- one fragment -skip- one line -skip- endlessly repeating -skip- driving me crazy. It gets worse, though. Sometimes I get commercial jingles stuck in my head. (mini buffalo raaaaanch..chikin sammich) Over and over (mini buffalo raaaaanch..chickin sammich) repeating endlessly in my head (mini buffalo raaaanch...chickin sammich) making me craz

Worst Mood Ever
Have you ever had one of thoes days...Well I have I am not going to say much about what has gone on today other than I hurt my hand very bad....lets just say I hope this day is over with fast.....I am in the worst mood every not going to bash any body..I am going to let be it like this and that is all you need to know....I fukk hate this day with every thing I have on the inside of me.....Lets just say I am going to take a few days where I can breath and be in deep thought...Yes I am still going to school...I just need some time to myself right now....

I Do. Often.
After spending enough time in the mumms or on newsrag, it's becone abundantly apparent that most complaints come from people that fail to write to their representatives to voice their opinion. I do not care about politics. I write to Congressman Bartlett and Senator Mikulski on a semi obnoxious basis with some gripe I come up with. (Remember folks, these are the representatives from MY area. Look your own up, it's easy. You're on the internet. Maaaagic.) But anyone that hasn't heard that can't find their congressperson/senator on this page www.nab.org (look in the news room), would do well to write to their representatives about this. Here, research yourself if you haven't done so. www.noperformancetax.org/issue.asp I'd like to tell you to be lazy and sign some online petition, but really, sending personal info to special interest petition groups can be hazardous to your inbox when something else starts irritating said group. Take the time to actually contact yo

Busted Blog 6/30/09
Name: Sexy Vixen Link: http://fubar.com/user/2050399 Look! No Salute! Oh Wait..I found a fake one! You even can find her all over the internet on amateur message boards: * Name: Crystal Link: http://www.fubar.com/user/2371676

Sitting At Grand Central.
Enter away message PLEASE DO NOT STEAL MY WORDS! I KNOW IT SOUNDS A TAD DEPRESSING, EMOTIONAL AS WELL, BUT HONESTLY IT'S THE WAY MY MIND UNWINDS, It's a wonderful thing to find a broken soul. the blood trickling down their eyes. no one can really see how decomposed they are inside. fulifilling their daily duties of smiling and being cheerful, just to satisfy those who surround them..it's all just a lie..filled with naive mediocre people, hypocritical in the best sense. those who choose to live just cause they have to, putting on a disguise everyday with no other way out..i dont want to see myself fall in the same vicious cycle of lies and deceit when in the end the one one get hurts, its the one thats been masking all the problems.me.I find myself sometimes so wrapped up in all the negative, that when something good coes along i cant really appreciate it. And then i end up with nothng but a deep remorse for the wrong choices i've made. If everything happens for a reas

Lil Wayne
i offically am obsessed with the lil wayne rebirth..he's amazing Prom Queen;-) I love her fancy underwearI sit behind her every yearWaiting for the chance to getTo tell her I'm the one she should be withShe's popular with all the guysSo innocent in my eyesI could see her in my lifeShe would've had the perfect sweet manButSee she had other plansI could not understandHer and her stupid friendsVarsity's biggest fansNever forget the dayShe laughed and walked awayAnd I couldn't stop herI guess she had it allShe had it all figured outBut she left me with a broken heartFucked around and turned me downCause she didn't think I could play the partBut now the prom queen the prom queenIs crying sittin' outside of my doorShe never know howHow everything could turn aroundUhhThey loved her fancy underwearEvery boyfriend every yearShe tried to keep 'em entertainedWhen they can hardly remember her nameShe did everything she could just toTo make him love and treat her goodShe found herself a

Egypt Log Day 1
Hey yall, Just an update. I'm still in Kansas for another couple weeks. Then off to Washington. Training is goin good. Hotter than hell tho. But that's summer for ya huh. Anyway, Peace love and hair grease. Update ya when i can.

Dom/sub
I've always been told that "in life, we are all slaves to something".. we are taught early on, to be the master of our own lives, to own all we see-- to nurture the Dom side in us.. but when we step out into "the real world" we find that it doesnt account for shit... yes I am a dom by nature, attitude and poise..but this life is the worse Dom there is-- it will even beat the most experienced Dom into submission "I have found, you can find, happiness in slavery"-- in this life, everyone is a slave to something. but hopefully, never SOMEONE

Need Records And Cds....
this damn EYEtoons!! i lost half my music library...for what reason i have no idea. i wonder if i need to steal mp3s like most people do now. no need to burn an actual cd on to my computer. what do i need this record player for too? the old vinyl? the new vinyl? the cds i bought...the tapes i still have? im answering my own questions haha... i need that "ancient" music! lee perry used technology at the time to create a new type of reggae. dub...electronic reggae. but he used actual instruments and singers then twisted it around to make versions! he didnt tip type doodee and become a website playlist. sure it'll be good and cheaper to record via technology nowadays but... im not trusting my passion, along with my friends and bandmates' to a computer. cuz funny enough all the music i have ripped or burned has been from actual cds. not downloading them. just like photoshop can help me brighten an art piece ive made to post up. but i used real paint, with real hands on t

Fake Ass People
I MAY NOT BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE ON HERE BECAUSE OF THE FACT THAT I AM THE SAME ON HERE AS I AM IN REAL LIFE....I DONT PUT ON A FRONT FOR ANYONE AND I REALLY DOTN CARE IF WHAT I SAY HURTS SOMEONES FEELINGS. BUT WHEN YOU ARE ONE WAY BECAUSE SOMEONE IS IN THE LOUNGE THAT YOU ARE IN AND WHEN THAT PEROSN LEAVES YOU ARE BACK TO ACTING A DIFFERENT WAY AND THEN MAKE THE COMMENT DONT TELL "SO&SO" THAT I DO THIS OR I DO THAT OR WHATEVER THE CASE MAY BE IN MY OPINION THAT MAKE YOU FAKE. IF YOU CANT BE THE PERSON THAT YOU ARE IN REAL LIFE THEN DONT FUCKIN SPEAK. IF THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN TALK TO PEOPLE IS TO MAKE UP SOME FANTASY ANOUT WHO YOU WISH YOU WERE AND PRETEND THAT IS WHO YOU ARE THEN YOU ARE BETTER OFF SITTING IN YOUR HOUSE ALONE. BECAUSE WHEN YOU PUT ON A FRONT AND DONT THE PEOPLE THAT ARE INTERESTED IIN YOU SEE THE REAL YOU THEN YOU ARE GOING TO BE IN FOR A RUDE AWAKENING WHEN THEY DO SEE WH OYOU REALLY ARE. I MEAN COME ON...IT ISNT THAT HARD. BE REAL OR SHUT THE FUCK UP BECAUSE NO ONE C

Whats The Point
Ok whats the point in posting a blog when none of your friends comment on them? I mean come on I have all these friends and ask them to comment on them and they never do, only a few people on my list leaves comments why even have friends on here who like talking to you but can't take the time to leave a comment I mean you all read the Blog but don't leave a comment why even bother reading it, if you can't even take the time to leave me a comment so I can read what you write. No wonder I don't add any of my poems I write on here, I have been requested to leave some of my poetry in the blogs so you can comment on them but why even bother if you don't take the time to comment on any other thing I write in the blogs? If you asked me to read your blogs I would atleast comment on them not just read and say oh why should I leave a comment for him I have seen what he wrote, why you ask well it's simple cause I'm suppose to be your friend thats why...So please leave me comment Thanks

Franken Victory Official
Again, you can read everything on www.aznativemike.wordpress.com Franken victory official June 30, 2009 Al Franken has been declared the winner in the Minnesota Senate race. After 34 weeks of battling, recounts and court battles, Norm Coleman finally conceeded the race to Franken in a gracious speech earlier this afternoon. Although I disagree with Coleman dragging his feet on this, I thought his speech showed a lot of class. Franken won by 312 votes out of over 2 million cast. This means the Democrats now have a supermajority in the Senate, or, 60 votes, enough to override a fillibuster. Obviously, this concerns some, others are overjoyed with the news. My take….neither should get too excited, this is a wait and see scenario. For starters, it’s not like the Dems have shown all that much backbone when it comes to their agenda in the first place. I believe many of them are as bought and paid for by special interest as the Republicans were a few years ago. I do hav

Oh Well
I think as I wait out the last few hours of life the thing Im most dissapointed in is that my parents are completely ignoring the situation. I dunno. I told em I wouldnt be homeless. Ive been there, and even though it was only for a few weeks I wont go through it again. I should really be ranting about the government and how they refuse to live up to their responsibilites within the social contract of our society, or the hateful people of Seattle who have taken the last three years of my life and made it a time of henious alienation, or the boss who fired me for purely personal reasons last year and has spent the time since then telling potential employers I never worked for the company so as to prevent me from finding work, or even cancer for adding disease to insult. but in the end the only thing I feel at all now is a profound sense of utter hopelessness knowing the two people on earth who are supposed to stand by you no matter what dont give a rats ass what happens to me. Its a rea

Surgeon Talk
Five surgeons from big cities are discussing who makes the best patients to operate on. The first surgeon, from New York , says, "I like to see accountants on my operating table, because when you open them up, everything inside is numbered." The second, from Chicago , responds, "Yeah, but you should try electricians! Everything inside them is color coded." The third surgeon, from Dallas , says, "No, I really think librarians are the best, everything inside them is in alphabetical order." The fourth surgeon, from Los Angeles chimes in: "You know, I like construction workers..... those guys always understand when you have a few parts left over." But the fifth surgeon, from Toronto, Canada shut them all up when he bserved: "You're all wrong. Politicians are the easiest to operate on. There's no guts, no heart, no balls, no brains and no spine, and the head and the ass are interchangeable."

Another Door Opening When One Shuts
I am not sure how things happen or why but I do know that things happen for a reason. My fiancee and I split up a few months ago and I was devestated. A good friend told me that sometimes things must go bad in order for something or someone that is much better to enter your life. I have to hang on to the hopes that it is true and when one door shuts another opens to better things. My only dilemma is how do you know when that door opens. What signifies the opening of that door?

Yup I Am Crazy
Did the follow up with the dr today about the psych eval I did yesterday. I guess I was too hard on myself and the test was inclusive. He did have me take a different one today which he said he could read. The diagnosis on the paper he gave me for the transitional place is: Major Depression, Recurrent, Moderate Anxiety, NOS, rule out PTSD Avoidant Personality Disorder with dependent and borderline features So I guess I have a little more issues then I thought. He didnt really tell me what to do from there, he wrote the report for the place.

Jackson Wrapped Video Before Death
Two weeks before he died, Michael Jackson wrapped up work on an elaborate production dubbed the "Dome Project" that could be the final finished video piece overseen by the King of Pop, The Associated Press has learned. Jackson was apparently preparing to dazzle concert audiences in London with a high-tech show in which 3D images Ã‚Â— some inspired by his "Thriller" era Ã‚Â— would flash behind him as he performed on stage. "It was a groundbreaking effort," said Vince Pace, whose company provided cameras for the shoot, a 3D system he created with filmmaker James Cameron. "To think that Michael's gone now, that's probably the last documented footage of him to be shot in that manner," Pace said. Two people with knowledge of the secretive project confirmed its existence Monday to the AP on condition they not be identified because they signed confidentiality agreements...." They said it was a five-week project filmed at Culver Studios, which 70 years ago was the set

Crazy World
I swear the world is crazy...The FDA wants to ban vicodin and percocet, and put stronger warning labels on products that contain acetaminophen due to the fact that 400 ppl die a year due to overdose.....OK what the hell? Ummmmmmm I wonder how many ppl die a yr from alcohol and cigarettes? Yet no one seems to want to ban those two things...I am sure the count is in the millions world wide when it comes to cigarettes. Now I am not a big drug taker...I hate going to the doctor period, and well I damn sure am not gonna buy them on the street lol. So this is not why it bothers me, it bothers me because it is 400 hundred ppl vs millions, and no one seems to care to take those industries on. I do however take Tylenol, because I can't take aspirin products, so I really don't give a damn what they say I can or can not take lol once in my greedy lil hands I will do as I please, although I don't abuse that either lol...I don't know, it just boggled my mind when I heard that on the news..Hell mo

Love After Death
Love After Death Soul Mates in the Beyond A blood soaked soul emerges from the shadows. Unsure of where he is, he begins to wander. The rain pours down, but he doesn’t even notice. Passing by strangers on the street, no one even looks his way. A rage builds inside him. He stops walking. No one notices. No one cares. He screams into the night. The scream comes from the emptiness that he feels inside. It goes unheard. He doesn’t understand. Can he not be seen? Can he not be heard? He looks up and notices the rain. It’s falling only on him. What is going on? He looks down and sees the blood; his blood. Memory floods back to him. The loneliness he felt; the sadness inside. It crashed down upon him like so much weight. He couldn’t take it anymore. The blade was in his hand before he had time to think about it. The deed was done. His blood flowed out upon the ground. The sweet kiss of death brushed his lips. Darkness now. And then….this. It&rsq

Want A Salute??
Want a Personal Salute From Me?? Heres Your Chance!!! Highest Bid Wins!! Auction Ends July 1st @ 4pm Fu-Time!! So Hurry Up and Bid!! Winner Gets 1 SFW Salute.. Your Choice of What it Says and Even the Color of Shirt I Wear!! Place Bids in Blog Comments!! You Know You Want a Piece of Me Sooo What Are You Waitin for Place Your Bids Now!!! xoxo

The Truth.
sometimes i feel as though this life of mine is one hott mess and one huge mistakes, but btwn the heart breaks, the anger and sadness at the time it was exactly what i wanted. i wouldn't change any of it b/c i am who i am today b/c of it all. so thanks to all the bitches that were my friends that stabbed me in the back to get what they wanted that turned to shit anyways, all those pricks who broke my heart, used me for one and one thing only - lied to my face telling me they loved me and left me standing on the side of the road crying and pregnant, and every single fucking jackasses that kicked me when i was down, told me i couldn't do it and tried to keep me down, along the way. if it wasn't for you i wouldn't be the woman i am proud to be today. so fuck every single one of you because i am unstoppable, i may take one step forward, two steps back but i ALWAYS come out on top no matter what. oh and remember what goes around comes around and karma is a bigger bitch than i'll ever

Random Poem
I wish you were in my arms as I lay, as I slept I wish I could feel your breath, to feel the beat from your heart steady in peace. I feel this empty space left by you now you're gone, each time you leave it's more pain then you know, I know you're out there searching for me, when we meet again that first kiss will stop my heart. I will know I am home. **by A.J.David

Update
I have not been on here for a long time, and a lot of things have been going since I was on here last. My wife and I are filing for divorce, and I have met someone new that I am going to marry after the divorce is final. Her name is Dayna and her nickname on here is Dayna Nicholson, and she is a great woman. I am really looking forward to our wedding day. I am also no longer going to be deployed to Iraq with my unit in the army, instead I am getting out of the army on a medical discharge, most likely a medical retirement. I will also try to write more blogs from now.

Ex-evanescence News
"Three founding members of goth-rock group EVANESCENCE have been dealt a blow after forming a new band with ex-AMERICAN IDOL star CARLY SMITHSON - they've nabbed another band's name. Ben Moody announced plans for his new group The Fallen earlier this month (Jun09) and now the band's label bosses have been hit with a cease and desist notice from the managers of another act already calling themselves The Fallen. Alfadog Music executives fired off the legal missive to Skh Music bosses on Friday (19Jun09), insisting Moody and Smithson's band had to come up with another name. The original The Fallen, who formed in 2005, posted a message to fans of their website, stating, "We are truly sorry for the confusion that stemmed from an unexpected announcement from Skh Music." Ironically, the band has just released its second album, Between The Angels And The Deep Dark Sky." (contactmusic.com)

The Brown's Fan ... Lol
The Browns Fan A Pittsburgh family of Steelers fans head out one Saturday to do their Christmas Shopping. While in the sports store, the son picksup a Cleveland Browns jersey and says to his older sister, "I'vedecided to become a Browns fan and I would like this for Christmas." His big sister is outraged ! by this and promptly whacks him roundthe head and says, "Go talk with mom." Off goes the little lad with the Cleveland Browns jersey in hand and finds his mother. "Mom?""Yes, son?""I've decided I'm going to be aCleveland Browns fan, and I would like this jersey for Christmas." The mother is outraged, promptly whacks him around the head and says, "Go see your father." Off he goes with the Cleveland Browns jersey in hand and finds his father."Dad?""Yes, son?""I've decided I'm going to be a Cleveland Browns fan, and I would like this jersey for Christmas". The father is so outraged he, too, whacks his son around the head and says, " No son of mine is ever going to be seen in THAT!

Pride And Disgust..
I am currently reading a book...."An Ordinary Soldier" by Major Doug Beattie MC .....on particular part of the book has sparked deep emotions in me tonight...page 161, footnote....and I quote... "For his actions Tim was awarded the Conspicuous Gallentry Cross. This is his citation: 'On 10th September 2006, Lieutenat Tim Illingworth deployed with a small team in support of a joint Afgan Police and Army operation to recapture Garmsir District Center. During two days of heavy fighting, Lieutenant Illingworth and his team were constantly under fire while motivating, directing and advising their Afgan colleagues who successfully re-took Garmsir. Later that week an Afgan Police patrol supported by Illingworth's team was ambushed. One British casulaty resulted. In an effort to relieve the pressure on the Afgan Police, he led his Afgan company commander and a foot patrol to neutralise the enemy position. This inspired his Afgan Army colleagues who were reticent to advance on the heavily d

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Contest
Calling one and all, I have been in the WMBW contest for almost a year now, and have a few people that are downvoting me, not giving me half a chance at winning, if you have a chance tonight pease come by and support me with some good 20 votes. http://www.insearchoftheworldsmostbeautifulwoman.com/profile.php?Contestant=4031 while you are there check out all the other beautiful ladies you will probabaly want to stay. ;) Your Friend, Trina

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I Wanna Rip My Fucking Heart Out
Keep pushing me Ill get sick on you The bile you cant remove penetrating your skull like a last chance but you wont take it hit me so you can feel better lazy, bitch, cunt, liar, whore I wanna rip my heart out and destroy it

Poetry #2
The unwanted lonerWho's never good enoughan outcastthat had to be toughfrustrated and unforgivenThe simple girlwho's always had it rougha whorethat wants to be lovedJaded and uncertainThe best friendwho's very poetican addictthat's smile is syntheticoutdated and forgottenThe awesome girlfriendwho always wants what's bestan exthat never passed the testunneeded and fallen -ash

Poetry #1
Love meLove me 'cause I'm your only oneThat beautiful fulfillmentof sensual concealment...you give me butterfliesFuck mefuck me like you fucked herthat erotic releaseof absolute bliss...your secretive lying eyesHug mehug me 'cause I'll never see you againthat painful sensationof my desperation...you'll be my demiseHate mehate me like you've never hated beforethat sensitive exposureof not having closure...you say your final goodbye -ash

About: Sadie And The Dead Girl
I'm writing my first novel which I'm going to attempt to publish called "Sadie And The Dead Girl". It will be a fiction based on reality. My best friend Whitney passed away in September and this novel will be based on those events and create a story around them. Sadie will be based on her other best friend (other than myself) Laura. I will be updating on the progress of SATDG, asking for advice, and whatnot. IT IS A FICTION. So, crazy shit that normally wouldn't happen - will. You'll see. http://www.createthedead.livejournal.com Keep you updated, Love, Bella

You Killed My Love
You said that you did not want to bring a child to suffer into this world and that you did not want to be the mother of a mistake. We never understood each other and for that a baby had to die. If we had a bad relationship, tell me what fault did the child have? I blame you, no matter what your excuses are, because you are heartless. You promised me a child and then you aborted him. You killed my love and the baby that you were carrying inside. What you did can not be justified. Without reason you took the life of a baby. Maybe he would have grown up to be a baseball player or a Doctor, but you will never know because you killed our son.

Another One.
Today I noticed that my daughter was making funny noises which oddly resembled sex sounds my wife makes. When I asked her what she was doing she said "I'm pretending to be mommy from last night." I was on a business trip last night. FML

Sent To Me (a Repost)
Tears well up in my eyes Whenever I wonder why God gave you to me I don't know what to say But I wouldn't want it any other way What did I do to deserve an angel like you You make my grey skies blue Always remember these words are true It's plain to see God sent you to me There's no way to explain how you take away the pain I don't know where I would be If God had not sent you to me When the time comes to go our separate ways I want you to know that know matter where you go All you have to do is pray And if those tears ever start Just close your eyes and open your heart And remember our fondest memories Because that's where you'll find me

M.j. All Time Top 40
40. Cry 39. One more chance 38. Man in the mirror 37. Liberian girl 36. Another part of me 35. Jam 34. Who is it 33. Ben 32. Will you be there 31. In the closet 30. Thriller 29. Ghosts 28. Dirty Diana 27. Why (3T feat. M.J.) 26. Stranger in Moscow 25. Blood on the dance floor 24. Give it to me 23. Rock with you 22. Scream (feat. Janet Jackson) 21. You rock my world 20. Smooth criminal 19. ABC (Jackson 5) 18. They don't care about us 17. Can you feel it (Jackson 5)

Auto
Hey did you know that our president wants us all to buy into this 35mpg cars--that is why fule prices keep going up, if they don't then who is really going to buy this expensive cars. the price of oil is going down but fuel taxes are going up (with greedy gas station owners).

Liars And Freeloaders
Well ladies I am here to let you know that Archlight ( David ) is a fake and does NOT live in Michigan. He lives in upstate NY and I lived with him for 4 months, he is a freeloader he is a pathetic liar about what he states he owns he has NOTHING he moved here to NY with just his clothes, has warrents in Cali. dont know what for. he is a scammer so look out ladies I hope your not his next victim

So What Is It?
What do you do when your world seems tilted? Wake up every morning and things seem to be off. Not in an overt way but just slightly off. Go about your day in the normal way, but always in the back of your mind you know something is ….off, wrong. You really don’t have the time to stop and think about it, but it’s there lurking. The days go on, the feeling grows, the world tilts more but you push it back because you don’t have time to deal with it and everything else. You don’t realize it will threaten to overwhelm you because you just push it behind you. But one night, when you are vulnerable, It hits hard, like a smack by a two by four. It seemed like it came out of no where, but it was always there, lurking. You can almost hear snickers as it retreats back to sit and wait for another perfect time.

Okay, Okay, I Guess I Should Clarify
Maybe I should’ve done this first….clarify my beliefs and how my opinions are formed. For starters, no, I am not a far left idealogue who hates guns, meat, and is unpatriotic. I am a pro gun, pro Israel, pro free speech Democrat. I believe in keeping the largest, baddest military on the planet. I believe we should never seek war as a first option, but never take it off the table as an option. I believe we should hold dear the idea of free speech, even speech that we may find personally offensive. I am against the idea of a “fairness doctrine”. As much as I think the likes of Hannity, Druggie Limbaugh, O’Reilly and others are, for the most part, lying hacks, I would steadfastly defend their right to say what they say. That being said, I do not hate all types of government. I believe government, which essentially is meant to be an arm of the people, can play a roll. It organizes national defense, maintain fair commerce, help to educate our children, maint

Happy Half Day
I’m not saying raising money for the March of Dimes is bad, but I am not a fan of their annual “Go To Jail” day. I participated in it three years ago – it was only an hour at Paradiso’s, a local Mexican restaurant, in which to get your mug shot taken and make calls to raise money – and I felt the local chapter was a little dishonest about it. This part’s a little embarrassing … I really don’t know that many people to contact by phone around here to “raise my bail”. Money is a touchy subject; ask almost anyone. This morning before Martha and I left with the kids for work she spent about thirty minutes in our bedroom calling back and forth between two collection agencies regarding a several hundred dollar payment that has somehow gotten lost. I’d have started a lawsuit against one of them some time ago for the rigamarole, but she’s calmer than me on that. Sunday after church Martha, Mary, Sarah, Jeffrey,

Oh I Get It!
So this is fantasy land! We all are escaping our daily lives to come be entertained and live that alternate life we don't have or can't have normally. Gee, I have been such an asshole to have forgotten that real life has no place here. So when some guy starts talking to me and being flirty I should totally disregard the fact he has a girlfriend or wife and I should just forget that I have any morals whatsoever too! I apologize for not offering my webcam up for a free show to get your rocks off sir! My very bad! Perhaps you would like my number too so if you feel the need to cum while fantasizing about me or anyone with tits and use me as a voice or moan to aid in this fantasy of yours, here it is. 860-689-5427 feel free to dial it and waste my minutes because lord knows they don't get used otherwise. While I am at it why don't I take some nude photos for you so you can have these too, yes I know my belly fat makes you extremely aroused. Lets not discount my gorgeous tits. I think

It Wasn't A Dream.. It Was A Place
I had a bizarre dream last night.. I'm not one to remember my dreams very often. When I woke up this morning this dream was still vivid as ever. For the sake of sparing feelings I'll leave names out. Because after all, dreams aren't reality. I was driving somewhere alone. Not sure where I was or whatever.. All I know is that it wasn't pretty. I collided with another vehicle and ended up trapped in my car on it's side, unable to get out. (Have a feeling that came from my actual car accident experience) Anyway, this guy came and got me out of my car somehow. All I remember from that part of the dream is that I looked at him and weakly said, "What the fuck?! You're getting my blood all over yourself! Put me down!" The guy put me in his nice car and again I questioned why he was letting me get blood all over his car. I kept telling him "they're going to be so mad that I didn't make it to the reception. I promised that I'd be there and I swore I wouldn't be late this time" He snapped at

You Are My Zen ( A Poem I Just Finished )
Raindrops and heart beatsAre all I hear as I fall asleepAs I drift off into a dreamlandSoothing waves of thunder calm my soulYour soft skin as a pillow under my cheekGently rises and falls with each breathCreating a gentle rhythm to the nights songAs I listen I can hear the faint whisper of airTouching your soft lips as it leaves your bodyI listen and I realize You create this night song You create this peace given to meI realize that you are my Zen

The Man Rules
Finally, the guys’ side of the story.( I must admit, it’s pretty good.) We always hear ‘the rules’From the female side Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules!Please note.. These are all numbered ‘1 ‘ ON PURPOSE! 1. Men are NOT mind readers.1. Learn to work the toilet seat.You’re a big girl. If it’s up, put it down..We need it up, you need it down.You don’t hear us complaining about you leaving it down.1. Sunday sports It’s like the full moon Or the changing of the tides.Let it be.1. Crying is blackmail.1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work!Strong hints do not work!Obvious hints do not work!Just say it!1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That’s what we do.Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in

I Haz Teh Emo
Circle of Friends-Edie Brickell Me, I'm a part of your circle of friendsand we notice you don't come around Me, I think it all depends on you touching ground with us. But, I quit. I give up. Nothing's good enough for anybody elseit seems. And I quit. I give up. Nothing's good enough for anybody else it seems. And being alone is the best way to be. When I'm by myself it's the best way to be. When I'm all alone it's the best way to be. When I'm by myself nobody else can say goodbye. Everything is temporary anyway. When the streets are wet -- the color slip into the sky. But I don't know why that means you and I are- that means you and.... I quit -- I give up.Nothin's good enough for anybody else it seems. But I quit. I give up. Nothing's good enough for anybody else it seems. And being alone is the best way to be. When I'm by myself it's the best way to be. When I'm all alone it's the best way to be.When I'm by myself nobody else can say... Me, I'm a part of your circle of friends an

Rain
As I sit and watch the rain fall softly to the ground, I wonder what things would be like with out some kind of hope to hold onto. I see the horses nibbling at the leaves on the tree's and come to realize people are kinda the same as horses. They are ment to wonder about doing as they please but yet doing the work that is asked of them when needed. Our bosses ask us to work the same as we ask a horse to take us for a ride. I wonder what it would be like to have that special someone to hold tight on a day like this, or what it would be like to kiss them with the rain falling upon our faces. I knew what that felt like once, but that was so long ago and is just a faded memory now, hell I don't even know what part is real and what part is just my mind anymore. It's days like this with the rain falling and a tin cup of coffee warming my hands that I wonder, is hope really worth holding onto or am I just riding for a fall wanting something I was never meant to have in the first place. I

What
They are starting to say that marrage is outdated. What do you think I belive they are right dont you? I have already went threw that of course it was my fault not really it was both. Why do you think this happens to use funny thing I think.

Michael Savage Needs To Read His Own Links….
Wow, the hysteria from some on the right continues. I’ll admit, I listen to Michael Savage’s radio show, on in the evenings here in Phoenix. I find his show to be somewhat entertaining, and most of the time, he isn’t the GOP hack, unlike Druggie Limbaugh or that pond sludge Hannity. All that said though, I was checking out Savage’s website, www.michaelsavage.com, which interestingly enough, is an extension of the whackjob site www.worldnetdaily.com (did you know, according to Word Net Daily, that soy makes you gay??), and I noticed he had a story on his page entitled, “GE benefits from Obama’s rule changes-Why NBC and MSNBC are now state TV“. Interesting title, and scary. Even worse, this source is the liberal conspiracy machine Washington Post, so even they can see that Obama is pumping money into GE, and that MSNBC and NBC are his own private television stations….right?? Well, you decide. Actually, I’ll help you out on this one

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June 11th 2009
well i got a call from the perintologist this morning and thought that everything was gunna be ok. i knew that matthew had spina bifida so this part of the test came back abnormal which was ok. then i get to my dr's appt and find out that they found several sever things wrong with matthew. 1. being alot of swelling on his brain 2. being the fact that they believe they found two spots on matthews back not just one. now no one is sure that he will even make it to birth and if he does they dont' know how long he will live. i am not ok with any of this. this little boy has stole my heart and i haven't even seen him yet. i don't want to think the worst but at this point i am not really given an option. none of this is easy for me to deal with but all i can do is take it one day at a time and hope and pray that my matthew will be ok. but if by some chance he does not make it i know that when he goes he will be with my daddy and he will take good care of my little man. right now all i want to

May 21st 2009
I went to the doctor today and found out that the spot on Matthew's back is not as bad as the genetics doctor said it was. my doctor said it was only like and inch by two inches at the most. so that was good news. her concern was the fact that Matthew's head is not shaped normal and she fears that is due to the enlarged ventricles in his brain. so the next step is to see the perinatologist ( i think i spelled that right ) he will do another ultrasound and the amniocentesis so i am hoping and praying that it is not his chromosomes because if it is then there is a chance that there could be more wrong with him and there is a chance that he won't even make it to delivery. so for now i am thinking positive and hoping that his chromosomes are normal. i don't know what i will do if i ever loose matthew. but she also said it was a very good thing that he is as active as he is. but i think that's all for now i will give everyone another update as soon as i know something else..

Mon May 18th 2009
well here is it monday 3 days after i found out that my matthew has spina bifida. of course as most people know time does not make it any easier to deal with. i do know that i am very glad that me & frank decided to keep matthew. we decided this manily because we don't believe in terminating a life. i mean here i am 5 months along and the dr's tell me i still have a week to choose if i want to keep him or end his life. like i told the dr there was no way i would end his life he is a living breathing human being. but to be honest this is one of them times where i wish my daddy was here. he always knew the answers he seemed to always know what to do and say at the right moment. i wish he would have been here to see matthews face on the ultrasound screen he's such a cute little boy. after i cried my eyes out last night i decided that i have to write in this atleast once a day just to help keep some of the pain out of my head. i know this may sound odd but i am really hoping that the dr's

A Question...
I was recently told that I am not girlfriend material. Which has really gotten me thinking....what exactly makes someone dateworthy? Any input friends? p.s. http://fubar.com/blog/104/1039800 ^^^good entertainment

Mr. Mj
There has been nothing much on tv lately cause they keep going on about Michael Jackson dying so I decided to sit and write a quick blog on my feelings on his passing, so here goes. Although I never knew him personaly or seen any of his shows I felt I came to know him through his music. I used to sit and play his Thriller song over and over again during Halloween while I sat on the front porch to hand out the goodies to the trick or treaters that came to the house (it was my mom's idea). As I said in other blogs, hearing of Michael Jackson's Passing is like loosing a friend even though we never knew eachother on a personal level. He was part of my generation and I grew up listening to his music. It was because of him that I picked up a guitar for the first time and started to learn how to play, He inspired me to do so. So I now say to you my friend, good bye and R.I.P. You were an inspiration to so many.

4th Of July History Lesson
Have you ever wondered what happened to the 56 men who signed the Declaration of Independence?Five signers were captured by the British as traitors, and tortured before they died.Twelve had their homes ransacked and burned. Two lost their sons serving in the Revolutionary Army; another had two sons captured.Nine of the 56 fought and died from wounds or hardships of the Revolutionary War.They signed and they pledged their lives, their fortunes, and their sacred honor.What kind of men were they?Twenty-four were lawyers and jurists. Eleven were merchants, nine were farmers and large plantation owners; men of means, well educated,

The Cost Of Bread
A yellow bird,with A yellow bird was perched opon my window sill,I lured her with A little bread,and choped off her little head.The moral of the story is ;in odrer to get a littil bread its gona cost A little head .

Marie Laveau-lyrics
Marie Laveau - Lyrics The most famous of the voodoo queens that ever existed Is Marie Laveau, down in Louisiana There's a lot of weird, ungodly tales about Marie, She's supposed to have a lot of magic potions, spells and curses.... Down in Louisiana, where the black trees grow Lives a voodoo lady named Marie Laveau Got a black cat's tooth and a Mojo bone And anyone who wouldn't leave her alone She'd go (growl) another man done gone. She lives in a swamp in a hollow log With a one-eyed snake and a three-legged dog She's got a bent, bony body and stringy hair If she ever seen y'all messin' 'round there She'd go (growl) another man done gone. And then one night when the moon was black Into the swamp come handsome Jack A no good man like you all know (TALK) He was lookin' around for Marie Laveau. He said Marie Laveau, you handsome witch Gimme a little a little charm that'll make me rich Gimme a million dollars and I tell you what I'll do This very night, I'm gonna marry you Then It'll be

The Late Great Voodoo Queen Of New Orleans
Late Great Voodoo Queen of New Orleans, Herbalist, Nurse and Hairdresser 1794-1881(?) Her origin: A free person of colour, Laveau was born in New Orleans in 1794, the illegitimate daughter of a rich Creole plantation owner Charles Laveaux, and his mistress Marguerite Henry who was half black, half Indian. Marriage, Love and Children: After first hubby Jacques Paris buggered off (presumed dead) shortly after she married at the age of 25 and, instead of crying into her crawfish pie and filet gumbo, Marie got on with life - learning all about the craft of voodoo from Doctor John, or John Bayou as he was sometimes known. Often referred to as The Widow Paris but more often known by her maiden surname of Laveau, Marie took a common law husband - Christophe de Glapion - with whom she had 15 kids. Her offspring double-barrelled their names to Laveau-Glapion. Very modern! Voodoo Priestess: Part sorceress, part saint, Marie balanced the life of voodoo priestess, devout catholic and bu

The Voodoo Queen Of New Orleans
Marie Laveau - the Voodoo Queen of New Orleans The Voodoo Queen of New Orleans. In all times, in all places, no one has ever risen to the statue or fame in Voodoo as Marie Laveau. Famed in history, infamous in folklore and ever present, even today.Marie Catherine Laveau was born in New Orleans on September 10, 1801. She was the natural daughter of two free persons of color, both mulattos. She was a free woman of color and a Creole. She was married to Jacques Paris in 1819 at the St. Louis Cathedral with the famed Père Antoine officiating. She had two children, both of whom appear to have died before reaching maturity. With a few years, her husband apparently also died she began calling herself the Widow Paris, a name that survived onto her tomb. Around the mid 1820’s she began a plaçage with Louis Christophe Dominick Duminy de Glapion with who she bore seven more children. (The plaçage system afforded interracial couples a marriage of conscience, if not legality). Of

Newspapers
Newspapers My second semester of my first trip in college [Houston Community College], I caught a ride downtown each morning with my stepfather and a family friend. During our carpool my dad would read us the New York Times. My stepfather had this wonderful voice – soothing but strong – and it made the news actually interesting. This also developed my love of reading the paper first thing in the morning. For years I struggled with my misfortune of being one of those people who always ends up covered in newsprint. This made my love of the reading turn into a big black smudgy mess. I endured the laughter of my peers daily because I could not avoid looking like a chimney sweep from the ink coating my entire being! Thanks to the Net that misfortune is no longer a problem. Now I can enjoy a “paper” without a bit of mess. I love reading the news from all over the place, even if certain newspapers do outshine our Houston Chronicle. Oh our poor local paper&h

Hi
goog morning im greatful for all you my friends and im happy today because i have all of to thank for getting me thru this again thanks iwish tha everyon could have known my son he was whitty funny and a very positive person and a jokester he always had me laughing thats the son i knew and loved may he rest in peace all ya out ther help me helpkeep his memory alive donate to the crisis intervention hot line and battered womens centers

Marie Laveau
Marie Laveau Biography Biographical Information by David Arbury. Marie Leveau is a complicated and fascinating figure in New Orleans history. Though she is famous even today as one of the most powerful Voodoo priestesses who ever lived, few hard facts are known about her life. Close scrutiny reveals many contradictions and fantastic legends about Marie Leveau, but even tales which a skeptic might find difficult to accept pale next to the proven facts of this remarkable and powerful woman's life. Born in the 1790's, details of her exact parentage and origin are uncertain. She moved to New Orleans in her youth and was raised a devout Catholic - later becoming friends with Pere Antoine, the chaplain at St. Louis Cathedral. At the age of twenty-five, Marie joined a local freeman Jacques Paris in what was by all accounts a happy marriage. Later after his disappearance and presumed death, she lived with Cristophe Glapion. Between the two men, Marie bore fifteen children including

What Is The World Coming To
(This article is not mine. I found it online and make no claims that it is my work. Ok?? Just wanted to get that clear!) Hey, did y'all hear that Michael Jackson died? Forget Iran, North Korea, the California budget crisis, the overall economic crisis - Wacko Jacko's death is the important story...at least if you believe MSM. At least the Los Angeles Times published a story about centenarian John Finn who is the oldest Medal of Honor recipient and the only living recipient from Pearl Harbor. According to the times, this is what Finn did to earn his recognition: What Finn did was take control of a .50-caliber machine gun at the Navy base at Kaneohe Bay, Hawaii, and fire at the Japanese attack planes that violent morning that changed the world, Dec. 7, 1941. Wounded five times, he refused to be evacuated and kept firing at the planes that were strafing the base and its sailors. Watching Finn's courage, other sailors rallied to his side, manning other guns. Meanwhile, a few de

The Ride
The attendant in the paramedic's van told the driver to turn on the lights and the sirens wailed into the evening night. My blood pressure was dropping to nearly nothing and I could feel my self dipping into the sea of possiblities, I wanted to close my eyes and let the angels carry me away to that place in the ever after but somethiing deep inside told me to stay alert, to be aware and conscious and so I rejected the urge to dose off. They were taking the surface streets instead of the freeway and I recall wondering why. I thought of all the neighbors who flocked out to watch them haul me out of the house when the big fire truck rolled up. I was starting to perk up again as the IV cooly flowed up my arm. I was soon at the ER and it did not take long for me to recover and my blood pressure returned to normal and remained constant. I was in a good mood then and joked with the doctor as they ran every test they could think of doing. This was the first time I was ever transpor

30 Minute Delay
30 Minute Delay in Calling 911 for Jackson It took Michael Jackson's doctor a half-hour to call 911after finding MJ unconscious -- this according to the doc's lawyer, Edward Chernoff. Chernoff explained this bizarre revelation by saying Dr. Conrad Murray didn't immediately make the call from his cell phone because he didn't know the exact address of Michael's mansion. For the record, the house is just above Sunset Blvd. in Beverly Hills -- one of the most famous streets in the country. Chernoff said Murray eventually got someone in the house to make the call. Murray has already taken heat for performing CPR on Jackson as he was lying on a bed. Chernoff's excuse ... it was a "firm bed."

A Thought-or A Promise.
Just a little something for our military now and past. I stand beside my brothers, both here and afar.If one of them falls, my heart is broke. It matters not, if I knew their name. My life is lessened, by the loss that is felt. From their passing, the loss is delt. I give you my word, for my brothers they are. Be they man or woman, they are all one in the same. I loved each of them, even if I didnt know their name.I give you this poem, from my heart it is true.And I give my life, For the Red, White, and Blue.

Michael Jacksons Will
Michael Jackson signed a will in 2002 providing for his children and his mom, but leaving nothing to daddy Joe -- this according to the Wall Street Journal. As we reported yesterday, attorney John Branca has the will and plans to file it with the court within 30 days of the singer's death. According to the will, Jackson reportedly left his estate -- estimated at $1 billion -- to his mother, three children and one or more charities. As for why Joe was left out -- Jackson has said during his childhood his father beat him.

Micheal Jackson Comeback
"THIS IS IT" HISTORY IN THE MAKING AS THE KING OF POP MICHAEL JACKSON PERFORMS IN LONDON FOR THE LAST TIME 10 shows at The O2 arena in London starting 8 July The King of Pop returns to reign over London this summer. Michael Jackson has announced today that he is returning to the stage for a historic 10 shows at The O2 arena performing in London for the last time. The King of Pop performs his greatest hits for the event of the summer, the concerts of 2009 and the decade's hottest gigs. This really is 'It'! One of the most eagerly awaited returns to the stage of all time, Michael Jackson has not played a series of concerts since he last toured 12 years ago. These dramatic shows promise an explosive return with a band of the highest calibre, state-of-the-art stage show and incredible surprise support acts. "I am coming to London to play the songs my fans want to hear." - Michael Jackson "We are delighted to facilitate the return of The King of Pop, long may he reign! Michael at The O2

Was Surprised Last Night
At 8:30 last night my sister pulls up in from of the house and out stepped her and my niece ... a complete surprise ... they are staying though to the weekend ... new pics of all three of us will be found in a separate folder in my photo gallery soon.

Mmmm Obsessing Tomorrow
Wednesday, July 1, 2009 Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22) You could become obsessed today with someone or something and may be tempted to go overboard in order to get what you want. On the other hand, your dreams can drive you further than rational analysis. But your key planet Venus squares overindulgent Jupiter, making it tough for you to know when to stop. Peace arrives when you can find a healthy balance between what you have and what you want.

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Military
My son is at basic for the Marines right now. He graduates 9/11/09. I miss him very much but I am so very proud of him. These two posts are from a young man overseas right now and as I was reading them, I got chills and tears came to my eyes bcuz they touched my heart and made me angry at how stupid people are who do not support our military. Where the hell do they think they'd be with out our American soldiers??? Sometimes we wonder… Sometimes, we wonder why we put on this uniform every day…And do some of the things we do…We wonder why we sit around waiting for things to do…Instead of going home and watching TV and drinking a beerAnd hanging out with friends and family…We wonder why we joined the military in the first place…The same thought runs through our head every day…at least once… "I shouldn’t be here…I shouldn’t be doing this..."But then we come to realize why we’re here…and why