Type O Neg Grl's blog: "The Pain Inside"

by Twisted Illusion

I'm screaming no more,
Can feel the words inside,
Nobody has been here,
To catch the tears I've cried.

Does anybody care,
And I feel so, so alone,
I can't keep going,
With a heart as heavy as stone.

I'm tired and restless,
Been torn out of place,
They can see that I'm fragile,
That I've fallen from grace.

I don't know who I am,
I've lost myself once again,
And I keep slipping further,
Suffocated by the pain.

I'm laced in jaded memories,
All I've come to know,
I've been chewed and spit out,
Brought down so low.

I'm lying in a bottomless pit,
Of hot anger and self-hate,
I'm ripping myself to pieces,
Chasing away my broken fate.

The agony seems ceaseless,
Surroundings seem so cold,
And I can't get away,
From the words I've been told.

Can't erase what I've seen,
Or change what they said,
There is just no way,
I can ignore the truth in my head.

And it's slowly killing me,
To live with it all,
Slowly killing me,
And I can feel myself fall.