Type O Neg Grl's blog: "The Pain Inside"

by Side Effects

I am trying so hard,
Harder than before,
I am trying because,
I cannot take much,
More

I am giving so much,
Much more than before,
I am giving because,
I cannot take much,
More

I've been around in circles,
Kept myself inside,
But now it isn't safe,
Safe to stay where,
I hide

I've been around in laps,
Lived life from inside,
But now it isn't right,
Right to live where,
I hide

There is no place left within,
I cannot really cope,
It may seem wrong,
Wrong to lose all sense,
Of hope

But there is nothing left within,
I am hanging from a rope,
You can say I am stupid,
Stupid because you know,
Finally I mope

It's just I cannot fake it,
No I can't fake it no more,
So see it how you see it,
See it like you did before,
For I am shutting the door

I do not have it in me to be fake,
So I won't fake as I hit the floor,
Judge me like you always do,
Do it like I have no feeling in my,
Core

I cannot do it anymore