I received notice that SSI has turned me down again. Some judge who has never met me or talked to me, has made a decision that will affect my life. As if I would willingly give up a job where I made $1600 a month for a measly $780 in SSI benefits. I like not being able to pick up my 2yr old grandson. I like having to be in pain all of the time because of a congenital nerve condition in my back. Or that I didn't work hard enough the last 40 years of my life to deserve the benefits. And I really really love having to beg for help paying my utility bills. Yup....I really wonder why I even get out of bed in the morning. I know for sure I won't tomorrow. I will just take a few extra meds so I sleep through the day. Maybe I won't cry in my sleep.
