memawfan me 1st please's blog: "Thankful"

Today was not a good day. But I am very thankful today because of what happened. There was a horrific shooting and 8 innocent people were killed. The shooter killed himself. He was just 19 years old. He left 3 notes. A will giving all his personal items to friends and family. A note saying he was going to go out in "STYLE". And a note saying he was finally going to be "FAMOUS". I am thankful that my friend and I decided to go to lunch an hour later. We were only about 2 miles from the mall. We had each individually thought of shopping at the mall after lunch. Her daughter called me after I got home in a panic to see if we made it for lunch. I had friends from out of town call to see if I was ok. And several local friends called also. It is so sad to be thankful for such a reason. I feel sad for his family and the guilt they will carry from now on. I feel sorry for the families of the victims. But again I am very thankful that my friend and I were not there. I don't think I will shop at the a mall for a very very long time. If ever. It will be a very long night I think...................

It is 5:30 pm thanksgiving day. The roommate from hell won't be home for 3 more hours. YEAH!! The pie is cooling, the jello relish is made and chilling, the turkey is in the oven. The rolls are rising on the stove to be put in the oven just before dinner. I have time for a quick trip to the store for sodas and I get to relax. Christmas is hectic and spent with family I barely talk to. It has been a very bad year physically and emotionally. There is no spare money for anything and not even for some necessities. Presents have been fought for to make the grandkids and my mother happy. So thanksgiving is my day to cook what I want and spend quiet time all by myself. Some of my friends don't understand that alone today isn't lonely. The food I cook will allow me to not have to cook as much over the next 2 weeks. I get to flip thru the channels or just not watch. I can surf the net and catch up with friends all over the world. Hallooween is the party holiday. Christmas is the have to be here and here and here and here holidy. Thanksgiving is my day. And I am enjoying myself with just cooking and vegging. Hope all my friends and family have the thanksgiving they want.