So its xmas nite....sigh.. this has to be the worse xmas i ever ever had, yet the best... I love my kids ... i have to say i have 3 of the best kids ever.... I learned xmas to my kids is more then what they are getting.. Its about who they love and how much they do love and care about me and everything going on with me.... They put their own wants and needs aside to make sure mom was ok on her first xmas in 19 yrs without them.. This is my first xmas in 20 years that i was alone...
Sometimes i kick myself over and over again for moving to Ga and not stayin in Pa but i wasnt strong enough to..I am still not strong enough to be home..
It was nice to be with my brother and his family for the first time for xmas though.. they made me feel so welcome.....even got xmas presents which i wasnt expecting!!
I really fuckin miss my kids alot....and i can not wait to see them again.Wish i had the money to take the trip home to see them i really do.. but i will soon and i am gonna go see them soon....sure am.....
I do wish and hope you all had a wonderful xmas...
