o0Tw1zt3dRaevyn0oFE2Mandy33 DNO If Owned's blog: "thoughts is all"

" MY WORLD, MY LIFE, and ALL I LOVE!"

How many ways can I say just how
so very deeply I am in love with you?
Expressing every way I know, what it
is you truly mean to me. Doing every
thing in my power to show how true
and deep my feelings for you run within
me. Losing a little more of my sanity each
day I am not able to talk with you. Feeling
lost not hearing your sweet voice in my
ear as we sit talking on the phone for
hours on end. Asking myself each day how
I got so lucky as to just have you look my
way. Bringing more joy and sunshine into
my life, than anyone ever has. Allowing
me to truly know what it means to love
someone far more than the piss poor
life I live. All that can be said is that you,
My Angel, are My Life, My World and All
that I Love!!!

P.J. Page....1/12/2013.....4:34am

 No matter how much I try, I can not

express just how very dear you are to

me, or how very deeply I am truly in

love with you.

For so many years now, I have thought

each day about you. Wishing so many

times I would have simply just said some

thing long before now.

There truly are no words nor phrases

which could ever do justice for how

I feel about you. No song could ever

express the love for you I have.

I know deep down you can never

be mine, for your heart belongs to

another. All that I can be is a dear

friend who is always here for you.

Please just know how what I truly

fee is pure love for you, and always

shall in life. For you my beautiful

darling will always be my love in life!!

PJ   11/21/2012   2:49am

 Within the darkest of nights,roam those

meant to be alone. Hiding in the shadows

from the people of a society that treat him

as an outcast. Moving swiftly in the pitch

black, avoiding any type of contact with

others. Fearing that if he drops his hearts

wall, it shall yet again be shattered. Not

wanting to be hurt, he disassociates himself

with all feelings and emotions. Knowing that

way, he can remain the eccentric recluse who

is never hurt. Sensing the rising of the bright

sun, he goes and slowly disappears yet again

into his solemn world of loneliness...

PJ   11/15/2012   10:28pm

 Music blaring very loudly,

Bright stars shinning above,

Cold beer easily at hand,

Herb just waiting to be burnt,

Body is all excited as hell,

Mind simply running wild

Your soft touch upon me

Mysef pressed against you

Emotions flowing like crazy

Our lust buiding even more

Now is the exact time

We take full advantage

Sending one another on off

Right inti outer space....

PJ  11/13/2012   9:46pm

Being so excited and aroused by

the simple words you type, my

body goes to tingling and have

not even felt your touch.

Feeling wanted and desired by

someone who is an actual stranger

to me. I am as a young teenager with

such a rush of emotions, incuding pure

lust.

Wanting to know everything there is

about you, yet not actually knowing any

thing. Wanting you simply all to myself

not wanting to share at all.

Never before wanting someone so much,

becoming more and more addicted to you,

like an aphrodesiac that had driven one

into a total madness of ecstasy.

For once the touch of your skin

pressed against my body happens, I

know there shall be no return. For after

that, my smile shall be the size of Texas!!

PJ     11/13/2012   9:13pm

• The Lonely Hermit 
• For we sit each day thinking of those days from the past, and what it might be life if we had only done so much differently. Replaying the events of yesterday in our minds and truly wishing we had not done so  many of the things we did.

          Wishing we had said things to those we care for yet never opening our mouths for fear of rejection and pain. Knowing now so many years later, that just maybe this cycle of life may have turned out better and different if we had just not been so scared.

     There are those days I ask myself just what it is that keeps me here in a world so full of chaos and hatred. Never finding that ove it seems every one around me has in their life. Asking just what it is I have done that was so wrong, that I am to suffer with loneliness.

    I see those around me so happy and ful of life, yet for me, there is nothing even close to that. Only bouts of depression and a loneliness that truly hurts worse than any bullet penetrating the skin and bone could ever do with my mere piss poor existence.

   So just maybe one of these days, when the sun finally decides to shine brightly over head, I can find that peace of mind and love that my heart and soul has now searched so very long for. Until then I guess I shall keep on as I am, the loney hermit who stays to himeslf.

  PJ Page   12/7/2012   2:38am

• I just wonder at times if people like me shall ever truly be happy in this life. There are so many times when all I want to do is simply give up and leave all this pain and misery far behind me. I see all these friends of mine being so happy and in love in life, and I ask myself if I'll ever find that peace myself.
• It's bad when a lot of people give all of us men the same catorgoration and it makes me just want to say damn life. There are still some ike me who actuay have a heart and feelings,yet we are ALL put into the catagory of self serving assholes by everyone.
• Maybe just one day the world will open it's eyes and see not all of us men are the same. Or just maybe I should find a cave on a far away desolate island and simply leave civilization and people behind and live my life as a hermit so as to not be a bother nor burden anymore to everyone!!!!
•                           P.J.    10/26/2012  5:01pm