Kyler's blog: "Random Insights And Blogging"

been doing a lot of thinking .... who to tell, who to tell what .. .tell anyone?

I think I prefer to just fade out ... less pain that way.  So been living life, having fun, but doing it alone.  Im not in a rush to go... but my husband and sons wait for me.  So I have no fear...and am waiting patiently for my time.

My blog is the only "public chatter" and even that ... its a blog, hidden in the masses of the un interesting ... so no doubt this wont be seen nor adressed.. .and for that I am greatful.  My sadness ... my gaping wound of pain, is leaving behind Rhiannon.

I was denied radiation, surgery, so time is precious.  I am sad but welcoming, with not a soul to talk to.  The last thing I want is sympathy or pity... hence the point of keeping this mute.  There is NO living while everyone is saying sorry.

ky