Cherrybomb's blog: "My life and fun stuff"

So schools been going okay. It seems like lately we've been cramming everything.Like we have no time to really study or get to at least completely understand our stuff. I know that this is an excelertaed course and all, but if we dont have the actually time to learn the stuff how are we going to remember it when we go to our real jobs? I had a test yesterday that i'm not so sure i did good on it. If i'd had one more week it probably would have been better, but i'm not tripping cuz i still have half of a school year to make it up. It just makes me insane cuz we just had a test tuesday and not even a week later we are having another one on a different subject. Its seems like its not that hard, but where is the time to breath and relax at? I know schools not suppose to be easy, but its not suppose to be that hard either. I have alot of things that go on at home that need my attention, as do many other people in my class, but where is the time to study before they throw something else on your plate to learn that has nothing to do with the test your taking. After a while things become nothing but a big blurr and everything just starts running into everything else.I'm sure everyone knows how i'm feeling So anyways, everythings going good here. Logans a whole 29lbs now.Hes such a big boy.Hes growing up so fast and it makes me think where did all the time go? I dont feel like its been over a year since i had him. It feels like yesterday i was bringing home and now hes walking and running around. I'm also excited by the fact that i'm going out with my cousin friday. We are going to get drunk. It feels like its been ages since i've done anything remotely fun with anyone. Although if it wasnt for her i wouldnt be going out considering the fact that moneys been a little tight this past month. I just love her so much!! Logan will be with grandma that night so i'm going to drink it up, but i'll have to make sure i'm sober enough to drive home...So Crystal i know you'll read this..make sure im sober enough to drive home lol. So if it wasnt for her i dont think i get out that much. I just dont have the time with Logan, school and studying.It will be so refreshing to get out amongst people. The only time i really get to talk to other people is when i go to school. Other than that nothing really instreating is going on. I have a pretty boring life sometimes. I'm thankful to all the friends that have stuck by me throughtout everything. If it wasnt for them i dont think i could survive. I'll tell you one thing when you have a child you'll find out how your real friends are.

Answers given by elementary school age children to the following questions: Why do we have mothers? 1. She's the only one who knows where the scotch tape is. 2. Mostly to clean the house. 3. To help us out of there when we were getting born. What ingredients are mothers made of? 1. Clouds and angel hair and everything nice in the world and one dab of mean. 2. They had to get their start from men's bones. Then they mostly use string, I think. Why do you have your mother and not some other Mom? 1. We're related. 2. The doctor knew she likes me a lot more than other people's moms like me. What kind of little girl was your Mom? 1. My Mom has always been my Mom and none of that other stuff. 2. I don't know because I wasn't there, but my guess would be pretty bossy. 3. They say she used to be nice. What did Mom need to know about dad before she married him? 1. His last name. 2. She had to know his background. Like is he a crook? Does he get drunk on beer? 3. Does he make at least $800 a year? Did he say NO to drugs and YES to chores? Why did your Mom marry your dad? 1. My dad makes the best spaghetti in the world. And my Mom eats a lot. 2. She got too old to do anything else with him. 3. My grandma says that Mom didn't have her thinking cap on. Who's the boss at your house? 1. Mom doesn't want to be boss, but she has to because dad's such a goof ball. 2. Mom. You can tell by room inspection. She sees the stuff under the bed. 3. I guess Mom is, but only because she has a lot more to do than dad. What's the difference between moms and dads? 1. Moms work at work & work at home, & dads just go to work at work. 2. Moms know how to talk to teachers without scaring them. 3. Dads are taller & stronger, but moms have all the real power cuz that's who you got to ask if you want to sleep over at your friend's. 4. Moms have magic; they make you feel better without medicine. What does your Mom do in her spare time? 1. Mothers don't do spare time. 2. To hear her tell it, she pays bills all day long. What would it take to make your Mom perfect? 1. On the inside she's already perfect. Outside, I think some kind of plastic surgery 2. Diet. You know her hair. I'd diet, maybe blue. If you could change one thing about your Mom, what would it be? 1. She has this weird thing about me keeping my room clean. I'd get rid of that. 2. I'd make my Mom smarter. Then she would know it was my sister who did it and not me. 3. I would like for her to get rid of those invisible eyes on her back.

I tell u what it seems like no matter how hard i try to stay away from drama it follows me. Some of my friends are a magnet to it and i'm so tired of it. I have a kid and my own life to worry about not everyone elses. It just pisses me off the way some guys can just treat women like a piece of ass. If u say that u dont like someone and cant stand there shit would you still keep sleeping with them? Thats the question i put out there to u. I dont understand it. I mean i know that its there, you've already had it and cant still get more, but wouldnt want to do it with someone you actually liked being around? Well obviously some guys arent like that, that a friend of mine. Instead of moving up in the world (as far as girls go) he dicides that he wants to stay where hes at even though he tells me and my friend that he wants different. I just dont get it. He could have my friend but instead he insists on lying to us like we arent going to find out that hes still sleeping with this girl. I happen to be friends with the girl hes sleeping with. I'm in the middle of it knowing whats going on, on both sides. So i decide to finally come clean thinking things cant possibly get worse and they do of course. I dont need this i have my own life to worry about not everyone elses. And yet even though he gets into trouble hes still trying to have them both.Its still a big mess and i'm clueless as to how to fix it.On one hand he could have someone that would probably rock his world that he hasnt been with that would actually treat him like a person not a fuck buddy, but he still insist on going back to the one thats easy and treats him like shit. It wouldnt be so bad if he wasnt lying about it but he does and then i have to hear about it. I'm just so tried of hearing about it and am so confused on what i suppose to do next. I personaly think that everyone should just leave him and never look back cuz hes acting like an prick and he never use to be this way.

So I've been up since like 5:30 am. Joe woke me up telling me that he had this horrible headach and that he felt sick and dizzy. So I'm not really knowing what to do cuz it sounded like a migrain, which he'd never had until today. We wind up going to the emergancy room and pretty much spending the morning there. On top of everything I had to finish his best man speech. Isn't he suppose to write that? Its sad when you have your girlfriend write your best man speech. I'm so tired right now. Lucky mom decided to take off once she found out that Joe went to the emergancy room. She came in picked Logan up from there which was a big help on my part. Putting up with a boyfriend whose not feeling good and a kid that just wants to get into everything is not my idea of a good day.Plus i have to go to school tonight, Which is going to be boring cuz all we are going to do is take notes. Thursdays are always a long day when it comes to school cuz we have a different teacher on that day. So tomorrow I have to get a tooth pulled. Fun! not really. I have to get put out for my first time and i'm a little nervous. Like I know its not a big deal and all, but what if i dont wake up or if by some chance something bad happens. Can we see that i always think of the worst in situations like that? I'll be in alot of pain and hopefully get some good drugs to take that away.My mother of course is going to help me with Logan tomorrow afterwards. I dont think i'd know what to do without her helping me.She's such a big part ofmine and Logans life. I mean his dad is to since we live together, but i could honstly say that if we werent together i could make it with the support of my mother and family.You know you really dont relize how much your family truely loves and cares about you until you have a child.I dont think Joe and i could be able to survive without my mother helping us out like she does.So this weekend and next weekend....weddings. I cant wait until this month is over with i'm so tired of going to everyones wedding. It just getting old. I mean i'm happy for everyone but i've already been to like 5 or 6 this year alone. I need a break from all that...lol...Oh yeah and Joe says he's going to quit drinking which means that it looks like no bars and parties for him and me anymore. we use to get out about once a month and go drinking so i'm guessing that we arent going to go out anymore. So it looks like if i go out it will be just me and my friends. which is cool, but it kind of sucks to cuz it nice to go out and have a good time with your other half. So i dont know what i'm going to do about that. Joe ad i seem to be doing a little better than the last time i wrote. Things are moving slowly, but atleast they're moving. So other than that there's nothing left to report. My life is pretty boring and routineish

A store that sells husbands has just opened in New York City, where a woman may go to choose a husband. Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates. You may visit the store ONLY ONCE! There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the shopper ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch .... you may choose any man from a particular floor, or you may choose to go up a floor, but you cannot go back down except to exit the building! So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband . .. On the first floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord. The second floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, and love kids. The third floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, and are extremely good looking. "Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going. She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads: Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop-dead good looking and help with the housework. "Oh, mercy me!" she exclaims, "I can hardly stand it!" Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads: Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop-dead gorgeous, help with the housework, and have a strong romantic streak. She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor and the sign reads: Floor 6 - You are visitor 4,363,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please. Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store. Watch your step as you exit the building, and have a nice day! Please send this to all men for a good laugh and to all the women who can handle the truth! Remember, greed is one of the seven deadly sins. You have to learn to be grateful for what you have to get more. When you are ungrateful, you end up with nothing.

So tell me something...When did staying at home taking care of your child mean that i'm cheating??If anyone can clerify that for me that would be great, cuz now Joe thinks that i'm cheating on him or at least he did, but couldnt dig up any evidence. Thats because i'm not. Ovisously these feelings just didnt come up out of no where cuz he's been checking up on me?? Why couldnt he just come to me about this?? We've been together for alomost 2 years and he has to ry to go behind my back and talk to my family and my friends about it. Thats some B.S. if you ask me. I'm the one that takes care of our kid and i'm the one that could lose a whole lot if i cheated,but he doesnt see it that way. All because of his ex. Now hes paranoid. I'm not her. I dont ever want to be her. Its just dumb if anything maybe i should be having these thoughts that hes cheating. After all on some of the weekend hes gone to IL to go fishing. How do I know hes not doing it. I dont, but i trust him enought to believe that hes telling me the truth.Why cant he do the same. Isnt that what a relationship is about...TRUST. Things are getting better now between us, but it still bugs me that he would even think that. In the 2 years that we've been together we've never had a huge fight and this is what it has become...fighting about something i'm not doing. I just dont understand it at all. I'm lost. Te fighting was so bad this past weekend that i didnt want to go home and i didnt want to fight esp. not in fromt of our child.As of right now we arent fighting. we are just kind of there. We speak to one another and i assume things will hopefully start getting better and back to the way it was before this subjust ever came up. At least thats what i'm counting on, cuz i dont know how much more fighting i can take before i pack our things and leave.I have school and my child to think about. I dont have time for drama and being told i'm doing something i'm not. I love him so much and the last thing i want to do is walk away from what we have. But i also cant sit by and be with someone who doesnt trust me.

Who here has not suffered from a broken heart? Who has loved or wanted someone who did not want us? No matter how great we are. No matter how hot we are...when someone we love or want in our lives leaves and for whatever reason they leave...we feel like crap. We could have been the one that left but we will still grieve. Maybe the reason is because we could not see eye to eye on an issue and this is what broke the relationship apart. Grief will be there. I want to tell you that grief does get to acceptance eventually. It is all a matter of choices. That is the honest truth. But I just can't let go. We have so many memories and all I can think of is "What if we stayed together..." Well if you stayed together and you were not happy, I will tell you that 5 years down the line, even 10 years later you won't be happy. Love really is a two way street. When one person is pulling all the weight in the relationship it can become exhausting and that is not love. I call that a job and who wants a job that leaves you miserable. Each and every person deserves a chance at true happiness and no one will ever get there by holding onto to something that is not there to begin with. I have had my share of break ups and I can tell you that I will give 100 percent of me to keep this going...but once I am done...I AM DONE. I don't look back. I don't know how I got this way but thank goodness I have....and this leaves me free to move on to something better and more meaningful. Why does it have to be so hard? Well I never said it will be easy. However if you want and I mean if you truly want to move on you can. You just have to believe that you can. You may have to fake it for a while but sure enough actions can breed feelings and the mind is a powerful thing. I used to counsel women who were suffering through emotional abuse. Now these women were wonderful courageous women who survived much pain and heartache. They were involved with men who used their own emotion against these women. There was one woman who came to me and she was a mess a first. Her husband controlled much of her life and at the same time he was cheating on her. During one session she was crying to me about how she felt so low at times she thought she would never get over him. I was always one to offer any suggestions I could to help a woman through something like this. I offered her this suggestion. "Why don't you schedule grieving time for yourself daily" She gave me a puzzled look telling me I should explain what I was saying. "Why don't you gather up all sorts of memories items that you have with him...old pictures, songs you used to share, whatever you have that reminds you of him and put them in a box. Then each day at the same time with a notebook and pen go to your room and grieve for one hour. Pour over the pics, listen to the songs, write how you feel....just immerse yourself in this for one hour a day. Now you know what time you will have scheduled to grieve for him so during the day if he crosses your mind, just remember that you plan on thinking about him later and go on about your business. Hopefully what will happen is that you will eventually get bored with the whole thing and not NEED to grieve any more." She smiled and laughed at my suggestion but agreed to get on it right away. Before the week was up, before our next session, she called me. She called me to thank me and told me that it actually worked. She did this for a few days until she started to laugh at herself and did away with all things she kept of him and decided it was time to move on. Now things may not always be that simple but it's an idea. The whole idea about it is to "Let it go". There is nothing more sad to me than a couple who are miserable together. I do not believe in it. That is one main reason I would never consider staying married for the sake of the kids. I just don't believe that is a good example. I do believe people should do what they can to work things out in a relationship but that is only if both want to. People grow and people change and no matter how many times you shake the barrel, apples will still be apples and oranges will still be oranges. I remember a song that was playing on the air years ago...I can't remember who sange the song but the title read. "I can't make you love me if you don't" just like my favorite quote. Love can't be found where it does not exist and can't be hidden where it does. The simplicity of that can free so many people if they took the time to fully embrace it's truth. For those people out there who say, "I wish I could get over this person but I just can't" I say to you....if that person can not see with their own eyes just how wonderful you are....they don't deserve you. The problem is that once there is a break up involved whether you left or are the one that was left...we tend to think it's all our fault...Something must be wrong with me because I could not make this work.... That is not true. If they left, they left not because there was something wrong with you....they left because you were not right for them....that is their thing...not yours. I do believe there is someone for everyone and it takes time to find that person. You can get to a place of acceptance once you realize that yes they may be gone but in reality they just made room for the right person to come into your life now. Just like the movie "Bounce" it was about a woman who was a widow to a man who died in a plane crash because he swapped his airline tickets with another fella. This fella out of morbid guilt befriended the young female widow. They started dating and when she found out she was torn. She told her sister that she felt guilty about what she should do. She felt as though by continuing her relationship with this man who survived the plane crash her husband died on was wrong. As if she was in some way part of the whole scheme of her husbands death. Her sister told her she needed to do what was right for her but the truth of the matter was...that who ever would be the man in her life....would be there because her husband was not. That said a lot to me about letting things go. There are some women who hold on to a man because they love him even when he is not loving her back. They feel torn about what steps they should take as if it would matter to the man they are so in love with. All I can say is..... If he is not there he is not there out of his choice....that leaves you free to do your thing. When a man wants a woman not much will stop him from getting close to her. And if he is not wanting her for whatever reason....there is not much that will make him or draw him in closer. He has a mind of his own and be rest assured he is using it. That goes the same for woman. She will allow a man to get closer to her if she wants him to. So yes letting go is not an easy thing but it is do-able and sometimes you have to act on it before you can feel it but eventually you will.

First and foremost, let me tell you that I'm a huge fan of yours. As my friend, you always seem to be there when needed. The perfect post-work cocktail, a beer at the game, and you're even around in the holidays, hidden inside chocolates as you warm us when we're stuck in the midst of endless family gatherings. However, lately I've been wondering about your intentions. While I want to believe that you have my best interests at heart, I feel that your influence has led to some unwise consequences: 1. Phone calls: While I agree with you that communication is important, I question the suggestion that any conversation of substance or necessity take place after 2 a.m. Why would you make me call those ex boyfriends when I know for a fact they do not want to hear from me during the day, let alone all hours of the night? 2. Eating: Now, you know I love a good meal, but why do you suggest that I eat a taco with chili sauce, along with a big Italian meatball and some stale chips (washed down with WINE & topped off with a Kit Kat after a few cheese curls & chili cheese fries?) I'm an eclectic eater, but I think you went too far this time. 3. Clumsiness: Unless you're subtly trying to tell me that I need to do more yoga to improve my balance, I see NO need to hammer the issue home by causing me to fall down. It's completely unnecessary, and the black & blue marks that appear on my body mysteriously the next day are beyond me. Similarly, it should never take more than 45 seconds to get the front door key into the lock. 4. Furthermore: The hangovers have GOT to stop. This is getting ridiculous. I know a little penance for our previous evening's debauchery may be in order, but the 3 p.m. hangover immobility is completely unacceptable. My entire day is shot. I ask that, if the proper precautions are taken (water,vitamin B, bread products, aspirin) prior to going to sleep/passing out face down on the kitchen floor with a bag of popcorn, the hangover should be minimal and in no way interfere with my daily activities. Alcohol, I have enjoyed our friendship for some years now & would like to ensure that we remain on good terms. You've been the envoker of great stories, the provocation for much laughter, and the needed companion when I just don't know what to do with the extra money in my pockets. In order to continue this friendship, I ask that you carefully review my grievances above & address them immediately. I will look for an answer no later than Thursday 3 p.m. (pre-happy hour) on your possible solutions & hopefully we can continue this fruitful partnership. Thank you, Your Biggest Fan P.S. THINGS THAT ARE DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK 1. Innovative 2. Preliminary 3. Proliferation 4. Cinnamon THINGS THAT ARE VERY DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK 1. Specificity 2. British Constitution 3. Passive-aggressive disorder THINGS THAT ARE DOWNRIGHT IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY WHEN DRUNK 1. Thanks. but I don't want to have sex. 2. Nope, no more beer for me. 3. Sorry, but you're not really my type. 4. Good evening, officer. Isn't it lovely out tonight? 5. Oh, I couldn't. No one wants to hear me sing

Does it make you a gold digger because you like nice things and want to be spoiled by your significant other? There's nothing wrong with a woman because she wants the royal treatment from the men she dates. Does it make her less independent? I don't think so. Independence is a state of being. If you're independent, you know who you are. You don't depend on a man or anyone for that matter to take care of your business (personal or otherwise). But it doesn't mean you don't want love and affection like the next woman. As much as men confess to want an independent woman (men jump in anytime), some can't deal with our independence. Why? I've been accused of being independent by several men. One day I asked a guy why he labeled me as such. He pointed out several reasons why: #1 Because I didn't seem to need anything from anybody (at the time I owned my own house, car, etc). My question to him was "why should I wait on a man to buy a house?" He had no response. #2 Because of my attitude. Now you know mentioning a woman and attitude in the same sentence to a woman will bring out an attitude. I caught myself though and listened. He went on to say that I was always nice to him but I had a non-chalant attitude about him and that he had to be the one to initiate the calls, etc. Well, hmm. I said, that I'm from the old school. If a man wants a woman, he should be pursuing her, not me pursuing him. He then went on to point out, that's why he thinks I have an attitude. He was used to women calling him 24/7 apparently. He made a couple of other points but those are the two that I easily recall. Can a man not deal with a woman who isn't clingy (although they complain they hate a clingy woman)? Is it because they are insecure and the fact that if they are with an independent woman they can't half-step. I for one still need romance and I like nice things and I like being pampered. Reason being, when I'm in a relationship, my man is pampered. Whatever I give, is what I expect. Being independent doesn't take away from the relationship. A man should be happy that he has a woman who can think for herself and do for herself. To quote Destinys Child: All the ladies who truly feel me, Throw your hands up at me. The "Nikki" questions today (Women) Do you think you being independent has helped or hurt your relationship with men? (Men) Do you have a problem dealing with an independent woman? Why or why not?

So this is the first time i've ever posted something on here about me. Lately I feel like I have no real friends. I mean I have people that I can talk to when im down about stuff but no one who actually has time to hang out and go out with. I know that we all have lives of our own, but what happened? I had a kid and that changed some things, like being able to go out at the drop of a dime. Sure now i have to plan outings a week in advance to make sure i have a babysitter. My phone use to ring off the hook with people calling me wanting to do something, but now nothing...The only people that call me everyday is my mother or my boyfriend. Im not even talking about going out cuz i sure as hell never have the money, but chilling at someones house drinking a couple of beers or just talking and acting crazy. It seems like when i have the actual time or the money no one has the time for me.And it sad that it seems like im losing touch with alot of the people that i use to consider close to me, but i feel like im not included into some peoples lives anymore.I uderstand about work and new friends, but do we have to disregard our old ones? It just feels like all i have is my family, my boyfriend and my son and i'll i do is take care of my son during the day with no one else around to have an adult conversation with and sometimes i fell like im losing my mind and im clueless as what to do anymore.I guess i just miss the days when life wasnt so complicating and confusing. I know that having a baby is life changing, but do you have to lose all of your friends in the process? You wouldnt think so but it feels as if i have and i think thats what hurts the most is i really dont feel like i have anyone there for me anymore.